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PART 1 I WISH I DIDN’T WISH SO MUCH

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I ENJOY YOU

THIS WAY

KEEP ME

I WISH I DIDN’T WISH SO MUCH

IF IT WASN’T LOVE

IT COULD’VE BEEN LUST

TELL ME WHY

SOMETIMES

YOU

WISH

THE COLDNESS

FALL ‘96

A MOTHER

TOO MUCH OR TOO LITTLE

FAMILY

PART 2 A BEAUTIFUL DEATH

A BEAUTIFUL DEATH

I WOULDN’T HAVE

MISSING YOU

IN THE END

I SIT I THINK I REMEMBER

SORRY

MY LIFE (1993)

LITTLE BIRD

DON’T CRY

OH, I WANT TO SCREAM

PEACEFUL COURT

I’LL CRY FOR YOU

I THEREFORE REGRET

WHERE DO I BEGIN

I MISS YOU

PART 3 I GAVE YOU ALL

DO I STILL LOVE YOU

IT’S NOT SUPPOSE TO BE

THE WAY WE WERE

I WISH YOU WERE HERE

COULD WE STILL BE FRIENDS

I’M HERE

LOVE’S HOLD

LOOK INTO MY EYES

SOMEONE THAT I USED TO LOVE

I DID WHAT I COULD

WOULDN’T YOU RATHER HAVE ME

IT HURTS

JUST AN AFFAIR

YOU STILL DON’T UNDERSTAND

I GAVE YOU ALL

MAKE MY HEART DANCE

PART 4 SO LONG

TO THOSE

SO LONG

IT’S THOSE LITTLE THINGS THAT COUNT

IT’S TIME TO SAY GOODBYE

A BROKEN HEART

LONGING FOR YOU

ALL IN THE MIND

ONCE UPON A TIME

SORRY, BUT IT’S TOO LATE

WHO’S GOING TO MISS ME

I’M LONELY

CAN’T GET USE TO LOSING YOU

CURIOSITY HURTS

YOU’RE LEAVING

I’M NOT TRYING TO FORGET YOU

MY LIFE

LETTING GO

REMEMBER ME

PART 5 BEFORE I LET YOU GO

YOU HURT ME

LET ME LIVE MINE

AS A FRIEND

THE WAY YOU TREAT ME

MY DREAM

BEFORE I LET YOU GO

WHEN YOU HAD ME

YOU HAVE TO ANSWER TO ME

WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT

WHAT’S GOING ON

WOULD I

PART 1

I WISH I DIDN’T WISH SO MUCH

SOMETIMES WE WISH FOR THINGS THAT COME TRUE AND THEN WISH THAT WE HADN’T WISHED FOR THEM AT ALL.SOMETIMES WE WISH FOR THINGS THAT NEVER COME TRUE AND WE WISH THAT WE COULD STOP WISHING FOR THEM.

FREE

I ENJOY YOU

THIS WAY

KEEP ME

I WISH I DIDN’T WISH SO MUCH

IF IT WASN’T LOVE

IT COULD’VE BEEN LUST

TELL ME WHY

SOMETIMES

YOU

WISH

THE COLDNESS

FALL ’96

A MOTHER

TOO MUCH OR TOO LITTLE

FAMILY

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Everyone seems to think

That I was mean as could be.

But I wasn’t mean.

I was just heartbroken.

I wasn’t afraid to put my head in the air

Or to face another hard day;

Nor was I afraid to be better than those

Who tried to break me;

But I was afraid to love.

I swore it would never, could never

Happen to me, but it did.

It scared me so bad

That I would give it all up to be free.

I want to be free from the pain; free from the heartache;

And free from all the questions that tormented

My heart, mind and soul.

I couldn’t understand that I wasn’t as cold

Or that I wasn’t as hard as I let on.

A man had broken me and that’s not what I wanted

But again, yes it was.

I wanted to love.

But could anyone love me?

My exterior was the perfect front:

A frown and a look that said get out of my way;

A daring sharp sassy tongue;

All a lie. My heart was breaking

And only I knew that.

Sad and unhappy,

That was me. A loner with no best friends

Because those that were broke my heart,

Even my family. So it was just me.

My heart hurt so bad I wanted to die.

But I knew I couldn’t.

My hope for life, my passion for love

And my dreams coming true were too strong.

If it wasn’t for those I probably would have been gone.

The best thing that happened to me,

I fell in love again.

I found my smile and the tears weren’t that bad.

Somewhere in the mist I stopped crying.

And my big heartache eventually eased.

That guy, he doesn’t know—but I loved him so much.

I hope one day he’ll understand and know why it happened the way it did.

He still thinks I’m mean as hell, but that’s okay.

It wasn’t that I didn’t love him.

I ended it because I did love him.

And I couldn’t bear the thought of us hurting each other.

No, I’m not as mean as everyone thought I was.

Now I am stronger.

I’m not afraid to love.

I know that the heartache will always be with me

But, I’m not its prisoner anymore.

I’ve accepted that loss

And now I’m free.

I ENJOY YOU

I’m constantly waiting on you.

Even when I know

You won’t be coming home.

Just the anticipation of you coming through that door

Makes my heart leap with joy.

I enjoy