That Was Never Me

That was never me

An invitation to self discovery

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Publisher: Stillview publishing

Table of Contents

Foreword

Chapter One: The Recognition

Chapter Two: The Awareness Beyond Thought

Chapter Three: Distance & Perception

Chapter Four: The Dance of Resistance and Surrender

Chapter Five: Mantras, Meditations & Manifestations

Chapter Six: Inner Integration and Embodiment

Chapter Seven: Awakening in Action: A Life of Radiance

Foreword

When you are curious, you learn; when you are desperate, you discover.

— Mooji.

Warm greetings, and thank you for joining me on this intimate journey—a journey that seeks to guide us back home to the essence of who we truly are. Whether you are a seasoned seeker or someone just beginning to explore the spiritual awakening process, know that you have found this book for a reason. Your presence here is no coincidence.

Within these pages lies an invitation to profoundly explore uncharted territories of your mind and spirit. Here, you will discover insights that unlock new dimensions of understanding, forever changing the way you see yourself and the world around you.

Throughout my spiritual journey, I have encountered many spiritual teachers, read many books, attended lectures, and absorbed profound wisdom from both past and present. While the core message often remains the same, certain voices spoke to me in a way that truly resonated—as though they were speaking my language, meeting me exactly where I was. It is my hope that this book can be that voice for you.

Perhaps its simplicity will resonate with your heart, or its perspective will spark an aha! moment of clarity and understanding. My wish is that the message here feels as though it was written just for you - because it is. This book invites you to embark on a journey of profound discovery—one that leads beyond the chatter of the mind to the infinite stillness of your true self. Along the way, you will find tools and practices that can help you navigate the challenges of everyday life with clarity and intention, turning even mundane moments into opportunities for growth and connection.

Whether you are seeking clarity, peace, or a deeper connection with life, the practices and insights shared here will help you align with your highest potential. Each chapter builds a foundation for awakening to who you truly are: an observer, a creator, and a vibrant part of the universe's unfolding story. You hold the key to a life of freedom, love, and limitless possibility.

May you find within these pages something that speaks to your soul—something that gently moves you forward on your path toward recognizing the boundless awareness that you are beyond name and form. This book is not a map; it is a mirror—a reflection of the truest version of yourself. It is not only born of knowledge but of lived, intimate experience.

And so, we begin—not as strangers, but as kindred spirits embarking on this timeless odyssey of self- discovery. Take only what speaks to the essence of your being and leave the rest behind, for this path is yours alone—intimate, sacred, and unrepeatable. Trust that the revelations awaiting you will unveil themselves in their perfect time, neither rushed nor delayed, but in harmony with your readiness to see. This is not merely a journey; it is a homecoming—to the eternal essence of who you are.

Welcome home.

Chapter One: The Recognition

Recognition is the moment the illusions fade, and you remember what was never lost

There comes a moment when life, no matter how well-constructed, begins to feel like an illusion. The routines, the roles, the expectations—you play them out, yet something deeper stirs inside you, whispering that something is missing. Beneath it all there’s something you’ve lost—a part of yourself you can barely remember. This isn’t about finding something new but rediscovering what has always been within you—a journey back to the essence of who you truly are, waiting patiently for you to remember."

"This one truth is undeniable: thought and perception create our experience of reality. How we think is how we feel. Thoughts create emotions, and emotions create our feelings, shaping the way we experience the world both within and around us.

Perhaps you’ve experienced it—a single thought, like a fear or a doubt, spiraling into emotions that seem to consume you entirely. It’s as if the mind builds walls around you, trapping you