Mom turned towards me and was flushed beet red from ear to ear.

Throwing everything to air I

rushed to her and held her by her shoulders. She looked up into my eyes and then lowered her
gaze to the floor. I hugged her tight and she sobbed. I couldn't speak any word of consolation,
as there were none, just held her to my heart.
I walked her to the bed and made her sit down with her back resting on the head board and sat
before her. I couldn't look into her straight. 'Why did you do this to me, were you harbouring
lust for a long time and waiting for a chance or my behaviour triggered the catastrophe?'
I kept looking the other way , she reached for my shoulder and turned me to face her 'tell me
son a lot needs to be talked about what happened last night?' Bugged by my silence she shook
me violently 'Talk to me son, please, I am devastated, it affects us both?'
'Amma, I never thought of you as a sexual being till the evening you were having shower and
asked for your nightdress....' I told her entire story of my slide from virtues. Coming to know
the reason she got on to a self condemning trip and started weeping.
'Amma site was a trigger no doubt, but you cannot hold your self guilty for whatever happened.
You did try to avoid but you too are human and succumbed to the desires of your body.'
With a sigh she continued ' Chinu a moment of weakness has made me lose everything. Oh
God! How could I let this happen' she lamented between her sobs. 'I lost my stature in the eyes
of my own son. I am not the person you revered and respected, from this day onwards, to you I
am a wanton women who couldn't keep her legs together even at this age.'
'Amma please, I love you even more, and you must understand love cannot exist without
respect. You have turned into a Deity, to whom I shall offer my respect, love and if the need be
life. I wasn't looking forward to have carnal relations with my own mother, it happened
nevertheless. It was destiny, we may take it the way it comes or would be dragged into it
kicking and crying, whichever way but rest assured destiny will take its course.'
She stopped weeping, looked at me with a surprised look 'Are you trying to convince me that
whatever happened was right and We should continue with this act of sin hiding behind the
destiny and justify our carnal desire?'
'Amma it is not for me or you to judge whether it was right or wrong. It just happened and I do
not feel even a wisp of regret or disappointment. Look at yourself, you too tried to resist but
some how as your conscious self was pushed aside by something deep down inside, you rode
the wave to your own fulfilment. Amma accept it or not but you too had a void which you in
your conscious state of mind did not know existed.'
'Amma look into my eyes and tell me you hate me for happened and that you do not want it to
continue. Swear by me amma and I will never ever bother you. However I will keep your
image in my soul as my carnal deity yet would never ask you for sexual favours. Tell me
amma.' I myself wept without knowing.

She looked at me with those big deep eyes and murmured 'Oh! My God!' she continued to look
at me in a trance like state, as if she was looking beyond my physical self. I left my place to sit
next to her. She scooted, to accommodate me, I put my arm around her and pulled her to me.
She rested her head on my shoulder and snaked her arm across my chest to hold me. As I
caressed her face she let out a moan and tried to bury her face in me. She stopped sobbing and
just clung to me.
I sat holding her for a long time enjoying the bliss. I was feeling what I never felt before. It
wasn't lust, wasn't love either, till date I couldn't fathom what was it. It was something divine,
there wasn't any confusion of guilt and desire anymore, things were crystal clear to me that I
now have a divine duty to worship and love Amma.
I felt being carried into the relationship with every other aspect of our worldly relation seizing
to exist, yet, the respect and her stature as mother stayed. Holding her to me and feeling her
breasts pressing into my sides did give me an erotic feeling and I was aroused but the feeling of
her being my mother was there too. I will be in the similar physical state with any other women
but the emotional feelings I felt would never be there. It is difficult to sort it out but one thing
was for sure that I never felt the same for any other human.
I am going to love and worship this Goddess in the form of my mother and not in any other
form.
I brushed her lips with my thumb and felt her lips quiver to my touch, I gently pried open her
lower lip and pushed little of my thumb to her. Amazingly her upper lip closed on my thumb in
attempt to a passive kiss.
I held her chin and lifted it up, now she was looking straight into my eyes with her lips partly
open in anticipation of my next move. I did not shy away from her gaze and looking directly
into her lowered my mouth on hers.
She shivered at the first touch, and as I snaked my tongue in to her mouth she welcomed me
inside without hesitation and tightened her hold on me. We kept kissing she did not resist , she
was not duelling boldly though. She coyly toyed with my lips with her tongue and sometimes
just gently held my lower lip between hers.
This game of coy loving and kissing continued till I started to undo buttons of her Kurta (a lose
fitting shirt). She froze; every muscle in her body came taut. I left my hands where they were,
on top of her breasts, and waited. After few moments I felt her relaxing, just a bit, then I undid
her buttons quickly and started to caress top of her breasts with my fingertips.
She tightened her hold on my shoulders and snaked her right arm behind my back to hold me
in a hug.
I let my hand go down her front, gently fondling and caressing her breasts. Feel of fine linen of
her Kurta was doubling the pleasure. I reached for her soft belly and caressed it, toying with
her belly button from above the garment. Then I went further down to reach inside the garment

from below. It was stuck under her arse, I tugged twice but to no avail, she gently raised her
hips to facilitate my moves. As she rose I bunched the garment free from underneath and
pushed my hands under. As my fingers touched her naked flesh she shivered and let out a moan
and a long hiss. I played my fingers on her soft smooth belly and teased her belly button. I kept
moving my hand upwards till it touched her mounds.
Once again her body stiffened yet there was no resistance, neither active nor passive, her
moans and hisses were only sound she made and her hold on me remained tight and snug. I
moved my hands on top of her bra clad breasts and gently squeezed each one of them. Encased
in a cotton bra they were taut and felt heavy.
I kissed her full on her mouth and pushed my tongue inside and at the same time reached for
her back and snapped the hooks open in a swift move. She gasped but continued playing with
my tongue.
I brought my hands forward, freed her mounds and started to squeeze and caress them. I gently
held her nipple between my thumb and index finger and gave it a soft rub. She let out an
oh...maa! and sank lower till she was on her back with her shoulders resting high on piled
pillows. I scooted to lie next to her propped on my elbow. I was looking into her face our eyes
met and she closed hers.
I tried taking off her Kurta, she held her hands up to release the sleeves. As I pulled it off over
her head she crossed her arms across her chest to hide her wondrous mounds. I moved on to
kiss her and at the same time pried her arms away to access her tits. I started to knead and
squeeze and it was like as if I am just not getting enough. I went on to swirl my tongue around
her areola and flip her big nipples. As I touched her nips a long hiss escaped her lips and she
put her arms around me.
Now we were like eternal lovers, her hesitation and shame had been pushed past and she
started to reciprocate in subtle moves. It heightened the pleasure of lovemaking. She was
behaving like a nubile girl being touched for the first time.
I held both her tits in hand and gave them a hard squeeze, she squealed and opened her eyes to
find me looking straight into her, holding my head she pulled me to her face and kissed me full
snaking her tongue inside. We were now kissing passionately with a hunger that none of us
knew before. She kissed my cheek and forehead then returned to my lips with a vigor. She
hungrily lapped and licked my lips.
I moved my hand on to her naked belly and traversed it down till the top of her pyjamas.
Slipped my fingers just a bit, past the elastic band and raised myself to look at her. She looked
at me calmly with an impassive face. I started to push my hand further down inside and
expressions flashed across her face in series, from worry to bewilderment and so on. As my
hand reached top of her vagina she bit her lower lip and turned her face away from me. With
my other hand I forced her straight and gently proceeded to cup her mound.
She had her eyes closed shut , 'Amma look at me' she didn't . I squeezed her pussy hard 'amma

please' she opened her eyes and looked piercingly with her deep eyes carrying an expression of
desire. I started to caress and run my finger along the length of her slit. She bit her lip,
squirmed raised her chin and loosened her thighs subtly. I slipped my middle finger in her
flowing wet pussy.
'ooo...oofff....Maa!' she threw her arms around me and roughly pulled me for a violent hungry
kiss. At the same time I felt her gently moving her thighs wider, I pushed deeper into her, ring
finger joined middle inside, and I commenced a slow and long in-out motion.
She bit my lips sucked my tongue in and ran her tongue along my mouth. I moved on to caress
and suckle on her erect nips. I felt them hard and rubbery between my lips.
Continuing to manipulate her pussy with my fingers I moved down to run my tongue across
her belly. I gave her light loving bites all across her soft ample belly. She oooo...hhed! And
aaa...hed! And Hisss...ssed! every time I nibbled on her soft quivering flesh.
I pulled out my fingers and drew the hand out to hold her pyjama top and tried to push it down.
I could only move a little when realised that I couldn't possibly take it off, unless she raise her
arse. I swirl tongue around in her navel and started to trace down, and at the same time tried to
free pyjamas from underneath her arse. She squirmed and wriggled to allow passage of
pyjamas from underneath.
Once freed, flannel smoothly went down till knees. Leaving it there I scooted up to lie level
with her. I propped me on elbow and looked at her. Her eyes were glazed, they were calm and
deep. She did not avoid my gaze and smiled coyly or rather there was just a hint of smile. She
reached with both hands, for my T-shirt and pulled it off. Now her hands were roaming freely
over my naked back, from shoulders to top of my bums. Looking into her dreamy eyes I
reached out to caress her mound again. This time she didn't flinch at my touch and kept looking
at me.
I pierced her pussy with middle and ring finger and started to play with her engorged clit with
thumb.
Amma bit her lips, arched her back 'Oooo....ooooohhh! Chinu bardasht nahin ho raha hai, itni
door le aye ho ki ab vapas nahin laut sakti. Prem ya vasna, farq bahut kam hota hai mere bte
mujhe swayam apne hi bhaw ka bhan nahin hai tum apne ko samjho. Agar sab unmad hi hai to
tumhein meri saugandh, yeh akhiri bar hi hoga. Beta mujhe aur niche mat girana.'(Chinu
cannot take it anymore, son I have come too far to turn back. Love or lust, to differentiate is not
easy, I am not sure of my own feelings my dear, you figure out yours. If it is lust, swear by me,
your mother, you'll take me for the last time, do not let me fall further down in the crevasse of
debauchery.)
'Amma what is it I cannot fathom, however I feel it is neither. It is divine worship. You suffered
pain to bring my form in this World, and I am following my divine duty to serve you pleasure.
Amma I do not have to preach you Hindu theology. Shivling is Phalus in Vagina and is
synonymous to genesis of this creation. Amma I am offering you mine to complete the circle,

coming back to the very point of my origin. Oh! My beloved mother take me in as you had
brought me into this world.'(Ye kya hai yeh to main bhi nahin janta Amma, sambhavtah yeh
prem aur vasna mein se kuch bhi nahin hai. Yeh to Upasna hai. Ab main aapko Hindu Darshan
par vyakhyan to nahin de sakta, boliye shivling kya hai, Ling aur yoni ka samagam hi to hai, jo
ki srishti ki rachna ka adhar hai)
'Tell me amma, you call it an act of sin, so am I to think that every living creature on this planet
is an out come of sinful act committed by their parents. Why do we rejoice birth of a baby, is it
wrath of Gods or God's gift to the mankind. Oh no do not come up with your logic of who has
been given the right to bed whom. Papa whom you never knew before marriage rightfully took
you to bed and made love to you, mind you maa, "made love". Some body you never loved
before has the right to love you, and your own flesh & blood 'me' is forbidden. Why amma,
why? You may not have an answer to it. But I am not feeling guilty of sin, rather feeling divine,
loving you.'( Boliye Amma, kya sansar ke sabhi prani apne mata pita ke pap ka phal hain.
Bachche ke janm par khushiyan kyon, santan pap ka phal hai ya Parmatma ka vardan. Pita ji
jinhein aapne vivah ke pahle na dekha that na hi prem kiya tha. Who aapke sath sambhog kar
sakte hain, unka aapke sath yaun sambandh ho sakta hai to phir aapke apne shareer se hi
utpann apki santan ka prem shareer par akar paap kyun ho jata hai)
'Ooof Beta kuch hi ghanto mein darshnik hogaye.'(Where was your knowledge darling, in few
hours you turned into a Philosopher, truly said Men have their brains between their legs) she
quipped with a sly smile and pulled me to her for a kiss.
I hooked my toe in the band of her pyjama and pushed it all the way down. She completed the
job by getting rid of it using her feet. Now I got my beloved mother stark naked in my arms.
Strangely there was no rush of madness, no animalistic passion I was going about the business
with a calm desire. I was surprised of my own restrain. Suddenly I wanted to see her; I wanted
to see her entire self, not just the part closer to me.
I got up and stood by the side of the bed and looked at her.
She hurriedly tried to cover herself; I bent down to stop her 'Amma let me soak in your image
in the form of Rati. Please do not deprive me of the blessed sight.' Listening to my plea she
relaxed, she struck me a pose, bent her knees twisted her body from waist above with her hands
stretching out. My God she looked gorgeously sexy, like lady straight from the carvings of
Khajuraho, and her smile had almost made me come straight away.
I shed my shorts and re-took my position beside her. Snaked my arm from underneath her neck
and pulled her closer to kiss her. She responded openheartedly and pushed her tongue inside,
her hands were roaming freely on my naked back, traversing from shoulders to my naked
bums. She ran her fingers along the crack of my arse with a slight pressure pushing little
between the cheeks. She caressed and squeezed and scratched which send me high up in
heavens. Now that guilt and taboo nature of our relationship is left way behind, it was so
fulfilling that I could have just stayed like that entire day without making love. Time stopped
for me, I did not want this moment to pass.

I took her hand and guided her to my engorged penis, she touched it gingerly at first and then
loosely held the shaft. After what seemed like an era to me, she started to palm and caress my
balls. I raised my self and looked at her, 'Mujhe garv hai ki tum mere hi sharer se utpann
ho'(You are of my flesh & blood, and I am proud of you) she said while running her hand along
the length of my penis. She gave it a hard squeeze and pulled me between her breasts.
Taking the cue to raise the game to next level, I slithered down to position my face between her
magnificent thighs, ready to take plunge in her honey pot.
She stopped me, ' Chinu aaj anand ka samay nahin hai, aaj beta mujhe laj aur snsarikta ki iss
durgam nadi ke par le chalo,anand ke avsar to aur bhi ayenge. Aaj mujhe baha ke le chal beta
isse pahele ki mera sahas toot jaye'
(Chinu Just break on through to the other side with me my darling son, before I lose the
courage to come along. There will be time for enjoying each other in future, right now just let
me ride on.)
I curbed my desire to dip my tongue into her and slid over to kneel between her thighs. She
widened her thighs allowing me ample space to position myself for penetration. I held my
penis and started rubbing it along her pussy in slow deliberate moves, putting just enough
pressure to slide between her labia and tease her clit. She arched her back and let out a moan
and a hiss every time penis rubbed her clitoris.