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“Know Thyself” is One of the Most

Ancient Teachings for Awakening.
Self Observation is the Means.
Since my entering the Gurdjieff Groups in Paris as a young man sixty years the awakening of conscience an owner’s manual
ago, I have read, in French and in English, numerous books about self-obser-
vation, self-awareness and self-remembering. It was my happy surprise to dis-
cover in Red Hawk’s book important ideas that I had not found elsewhere or,
at least not so convincingly expressed. Many spiritual books are interesting,
few are truly helpful. This one is precious indeed. —Arnaud Desjardins,
eminent spiritual teacher based in Hauteville, France; author of numerous
books, including The Jump into Life and Toward the Fullness of Life; studied
with Madame Jeanne de Salzmann (1950-1965).

the awakening of conscience

Self-observation is a key aspect of Fourth Way practice that merits the fo-
cused attention it receives in this beautifully concise and readable volume.
Red Hawk writes about Self-observation with the unmistakable voice of
unforced authority, which is available only through long experience of deep,
persistent and productive cultivation. Both experienced practitioners of Self-
observation and other forms of witnessing meditation, as well as neophytes
to rigorous self-exploration, will find rich food in this unique contribution
to Fourth Way literature. Offers both inspiration and excellent practical
direction. I heartily recommend it.—Robert A. Schmidt, Ph.D., Spiritual
Director, Tayu Meditation Center; editor, Archaeologies of Sexuality.

Red Hawk speaks the truth here. He speaks so eloquently of the process of
awakening and the power of self-observation that I wish I’d had this book
available when I first began to work with groups. There is no better disserta-
tion on the subject on the book market—follow his indications and you are
bound to succeed.—E.J. Gold, artist; author, American Book of the Dead,
and many other books.

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 Self Observation:
The Awakening of Conscience

 Self Observation:
The Awakening of Conscience

An Owner’s Manual

Red Hawk

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Red Hawk.
  Self observation : the awakening of conscience : an owner’s manual / Red
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 Dedication

For Yogi Ramsuratkumar: Source

For Mister Lee: Inspiration, Outlaw Saint, True Friend

For Andre Enard: Information about the crucial function

of sensation in self observation; Teacher of Dancing

For Maxie: Feeling and feedback

For Rain Drop & Little Wind: Reasons to begin

For Iain, Jett & Jayce: Reasons to continue

For Regina Sara Ryan: Great help in editing

 Contents

Prologue: The Teaching  ix

Chapter 1: Self Observation­—Know Thyself  1
Chapter 2: The Mammal Instrument—Inner Processes  7
Chapter 3: How To Observe—Fundamental Principles  14
Chapter 4: Will of Attention  23
Chapter 5: What To Observe  29
Chapter 6: The Left Hemisphere Is a Binary Computer—
Intellectual Center  37
Chapter 7: The Blind Spot—The Capture and Consume
Cycle  45
Chapter 8: The First Responder—The Default Position  55
Chapter 9: Multiple I’s  63
Chapter 10: The Denying Force—Resistance To Work  73
Chapter 11: Buffers  78
Chapter 12: Seeing and Feeling  84
Chapter 13: Becoming A Hypocrite  89
Chapter 14: Voluntary Suffering  94
Chapter 15: The Awakening of Intelligence—Thinking Outside
the Box  99
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Chapter 16: Being-Shock  105

Chapter 17: The Shift In Context—Not-Doing  111
Chapter 18: The Deer in the Tall Grass  119
Chapter 19: The Awakening of Conscience—Carrying My Own
Cross  126
Chapter 20: Higher Centers  134
Epilogue  142
Glossary of Terms  144
References  149
Contact Information  151
 Prologue

The Teaching

It is as old as the stones.
It came with Humans to the Earth
and it offers them a way out
of the web of sorrows
but at a price:
we must observe ourselves,
our behavior, our
inner and outer responses,
objectively. This means
without taking a personal interest
or doing anything about
the horror
which self observation uncovers:
like a bad boy with a stick
overturning a stone
and finding a mass of crawling things
beneath, but
he refrains
from stomping on them.

(Red Hawk. The Way of Power, 67)

 Chapter 1

Self Observation—Know Thyself

Knowing others is wisdom;
Knowing the self is enlightenment.
(Lao Tsu. Tao Te Ching, Sutra 33)

Know Thyself, weary Traveler.

I am lost. I have forgotten who I am and why I came here.
Know Thyself is one of the foundational spiritual teachings of
humanity. It has been taught by masters as long as there have been
humans as we know them, that is with a neo-cortex or human
brain. It was written over the gate to Pythagoras’ School. It was
above the entrance to the Oracle at Delphi. Socrates taught it to his
students, Krishna, Buddha, Lao Tsu, Jesus, Rama, they all taught
it. On the path of awakening, this teaching is fundamental.
And the essential tool to Know Thyself is simple self observa-
tion. Buddha calls it watching. Krishna calls it meditation. Jesus
calls it witnessing. Mister Gurdjieff calls it self observation. It is a
form of prayer without words. It is meditation in action. Unless
and until I come to know myself, I am driven by habits which I
do not see and over which I have no control; I am a machine, an
automaton, a robot moving in circles, constantly repeating myself.
2  �   Self Observation: The Awakening of Conscience

I am not aware, but unconscious, habitual, mechanical.* 1 I imag-

ine I am conscious, awake, aware because my eyes are open. But
habit is unconscious, automatic-pilot, without volition or inten-
tion*; inside I am asleep.
What is more, because I am unconscious, a creature of habit,
I do harm to myself, my relationships, and my environment. The
human body is mammal; all mammals are creatures of habit. We
are herd animals. This is a very powerful force in the body, impos-
sible to ignore; it causes me to lose the thread of who I am = atten-
tion* (consciousness*) and identify myself as the body, so powerful
is the need to identify with, and be included as, part of the herd.
Herd animals do not think for themselves, the herd thinks for
them and acts for them. Whatever direction the herd goes in,
we go. Even if we are led over a cliff, we will follow to our death
rather than go against the herd and think for ourselves. To think
for myself, to know myself, risks being expelled from the herd, a
death-sentence for a mammal. Security is the herd. An isolated
grazer away from the herd is dead meat, easy prey for predators.
Deep in our instinct, all of us know this and fear being isolated
from the herd. So to get a mammal to think for herself, to observe
herself, to know herself, is very difficult. It is not natural to mam-
mal behavior. It requires conscious effort and intent. It requires
courage and will of attention.* As far as I can tell, humans are the
only mammals who have the capability of observing themselves.
I am not suggesting that if I come to know myself my habits
will change. They have a lifetime of momentum and emotional
force. They repeat. What can change in me is my relationship to
this body of habits. This is called a “shift in context.” As I am now,

1
Words marked with a star and italicized the first time they are used are
defined in the Glossary at the end of this book.
 Self Observation­­­—Know Thyself  �   3

I am identified (= “I am that”) with my habits. I identify myself

as my habits, they are who I am. Thus, “I” and the habits are one,
the same. I am identified. With patient, honest, steady, sincere
self observation this identification* can shift. I can begin to view
the habit objectively,* that is without identification, as a scien-
tist views a bug under a microscope. This is struggle with habit,
not against; observation will show me what to struggle with and
how to struggle. P.D. Ouspensky cites the exception to struggling
against habit as the struggle against expressing negative emotion*;
this does not create unexpected or undesirable consequences (In
Search of the Miraculous. New York: Harcourt, 1946. 12). I can
begin to study the mammal body and learn its habits. Because it
is a creature of habit, it repeats and I can begin to discern its pat-
terns, intellectual, emotional, and physical. I can come to know
myself.
The body is a mammal instrument, a creature of habit. Thus,
it is predictable. The doe follows the exact same path to the water
hole every day. The lion observes this and learns to wait on a low-
lying limb for her to come down the path. In the same way, the
inner observer can begin to predict the habitual behavior of the
mammal instrument, the body, and be prepared for it. It learns
the patterns. It knows itself. This is my only hope for becoming
more conscious and not at the mercy of habit; if I see the habit
often enough, say 10,000 times or more, then I can begin to pre-
dict where, when, and how it will manifest exactly as it has so
many times before, and I may be prepared before it arises. I may
be able to choose another course. Certainly I may be able to view
the habit more objectively. In this way, I can cease to be always a
victim of my own habits. I can begin to find some stability within,
some equilibrium, some moderation of tone, behavior, emotion
and thought. I can recover natural sanity and “basic goodness.”*
4  �   Self Observation: The Awakening of Conscience

Self observation is the tool by which this is possible. It is called

“the first tool” by some, and by others “the human tool.” It is the
tool by which the human is able to operate, repair, and maintain
the human body, tame and train its functions. Without it, I am
a machine, an automaton, a robot at the mercy of unconscious,
habitual, mechanical forces, both internal and external. Self obser-
vation is fundamental to the process of the soul’s* awakening from
its unconscious dreaming. Thus, even an idiot can learn to operate
the instrument* (see human biological instrument) effectively and
efficiently by learning to use the tool which comes with the instru-
ment. To become efficient in the use of the tool requires practice.
The practice is self observation. I am a mechanic; I have learned
some things about how to use the tool which comes with the instru-
ment. I am no master, but I am a good mechanic because I have
developed attention to the instrument. We all know that a good
mechanic, one who is honest, efficient, practical, and aware, can be
of great service. This is an owner’s manual written by a mechanic.
In the beginning it is good and responsible to note this impor-
tant word of caution: what is being discussed here is not a way of
faith, it is a way of self-study, of self-knowledge, a way to Know
Thyself. Therefore, nothing here should be taken on faith; every-
thing here should be, must be verified by your own personal expe-
rience. I am no master, merely a good mechanic. Safety lies in no
longer taking the word of others for anything. Too long we have
followed blindly, like sheep, like herd animals following the leader,
even when the leader leads the herd over a cliff or into war.
Everything must be verified by personal experience, otherwise
it is merely another form of slavery, one more chain to bind me
in my unconscious and mechanical slavery. Verify, verify, verify
everything for yourself. Free yourself of the habits of a lifetime, of
 Self Observation­­­—Know Thyself  �   5

blind following, of not thinking for yourself. There is no better or

safer path to freedom.
I repeat, what we are practicing here is not a way of faith. That
is a different way altogether. However, it does not mean there is
not room for faith on this path; certainly there is. In fact, what
one finds as she engages this “practical work on self ” over a long
enough period of time is this: if she began with faith, her faith
is strengthened by understanding gained from self observation
without judgment; if she began with no faith—as I did—then
she will find that she has gained faith. So you see the wonderful
irony of it? This is not a faith-based path, because faith is a gift
of grace; it comes from the Creator* to those in need of it. By our
own efforts we cannot gain faith. However, by our own efforts
we can prepare the soil to receive faith. That is one of the many
rewards of the Work.* Here we must accept nothing on faith; we
are asked to verify everything, everything, for ourselves as to its
merits, its truth or falsity. We do so via patient self observation
without judgment and via our personal experience.
6  �   Self Observation: The Awakening of Conscience

Know Thyself

Socrates exhorted His disciples to do so;

every Master including Jesus, who called it witnessing,
has taught his disciples to observe themselves,

so they might come to know themselves. On the other hand,

I am no Master and I say, Don’t do it for God’s sake!
They never tell us the terrible trouble it brings,

how we will never sleep easily again

in our unconscious selfish mad habits, how
what is now unconscious, hidden in us

will be revealed, like

opening a locked cellar door, turning on
the light and what you find down there

is the county asylum crawling with inmates,

some wrapped in torn filthy sheets, others
naked and drooling; they are clawing and scratching

to gain position on the stairs, to escape, and

standing calmly in their midst, dressed
in robes of Light, is an Angel around whom

most of them huddle weeping, whose gentle touch

upon their fevered brows calms and soothes them.
This is what I am warning you about: never mind

the swarming lunatics, they are everywhere, but

once you have seen that Angel in your midst
the sorrow and longing will tear at you and

trouble you all the days of your life.

(Red Hawk)