Bungee Jumping - A Spiritual Experience
Bungee Jumping - A Spiritual Experience
There’s something about bungee jumping that drew me. I could never quite put my
finger on it but I’ve always wanted to do it. The fact that bungee jumping was not
available in Malaysia until 3 months ago, made the dream to want to bungee
jumping a far-fetched dream. I thought I would have to wait for years until I had the
cash to go overseas to experience it. Then, opportunity presented itself to me, and I
was ecstatic that I have finally a chance to do it. Bungee jumping is now available at
sunway lagoon.
So, last Saturday (9th of October 2010), when we decided to go to Sunway Lagoon
for a cg outing, the opportunity jumped out at me and I went for it.
I was standing at the edge, 22 meters above sea level. I held on to support. He said,
‘Please let go of the support.’ My heart cringed. I let go of the support and clasped
my hands together. It may have seemed that I was praying. Perhaps, without I even
realising it, I was praying. He said, ‘Stretch out your arms’. I did exactly as I was
told. Then, he said, ‘Jump.’ I paused. My brain could no longer rationalise that
instructions. ‘Jump?’ I thought to myself. My feet was tied. I couldn’t even move
them. He counts, ‘1, 2, 3, Jump!’. I look at him, unsure of what I should do. I know it
was my choice. I know I got myself here. ‘What have I done?’ I thought to myself.
How am I going to get through this. My heart palpitated.
He said again, ‘1,2,3, Jump!’ I looked at him and was almost pleading, ‘I don’t know
how to jump. How do I jump? Can you just push me?’ He looked at me and said, ‘I
can’t push you. It’s your choice to jump.’ ‘Okay, I don’t know how to jump, but I’m
going to do what I can.’ It may have seemed that I was trying to climb down the
edge. And then, I fell. I screamed my lungs out. I was falling down. I could see the
world, everything was upside down. My screaming ceased and then, I was just
enjoying the fall. I hit the water and then I got pulled back up. And then I fell again.
Got pulled back up again. This repeated a few times before it stopped. Then I was
just hanging there, upside down, with only a string holding my leg. A man, came to
me in a boat, smiled at me, and asked, ‘Are you ok?’
I felt this great deep sense of joy and peace in my heart. I was hanging upside down
and smiling my heart out. I couldn’t speak but I was overwhelmed with love and joy.
I just smiled, all the way through after that. That was my bungee jumping
experience. My first ever bungee jumping. I’ve always wanted to bungee jump but I
never thought Malaysia will ever have it. When Sunway Lagoon had it, I knew I had
to do it.
It was more than simply adrenaline rush. It was about the freedom that comes when
we break free from of all the insecurities and just trust. As I was standing at the
edge, I did consider backing out, justifying my decision to be logical and rational.
As I was falling, I did consider the safety gear snapping, and me heading towards
death. As I was hanging upside down for the man to come and get me, I did wonder
if the rope will snap and I will fall and drown to death. I did consider all these
possibilities. I thought of all the things that can go awfully wrong but at the end of
the day, I just left it to God. I just said, ‘Lord, I trust you. Let’s just rock this.’ And the
outcome: perfection and a breath of fresh air. It was liberating, joyful, and centred. I
can’t quite put them in words that would do it justice.
The experience reminded me of what Brian Butler shared about the difference in his
two children. There was the elder daughter who trusted the father, confident that
the father will catch her when he throws her up. She enjoyed herself, was not afraid
to take risks and push boundaries, broke free from inhibitions and discovered new
talents and opportunities. Then, there was the younger son, who feared that the
father will drop him as he throws him up. He experienced the other end of the
bargain. He clenched himself, unable to try anything new, was fearful and did not
enjoy the throw. Neither has he yet to explore the many possibilities stored in
himself.
Simply put, the fruit of trust in God, especially in situations in which a clear positive
outcome cannot be seen, in situations where the risk seems too big, in situations
where things may no longer be in our control, would be ultimate liberation, joy,
freedom and growth in faith in God as we come to discover that there is no way on
heaven or earth that He will not catch you. All we need to do is invite Him into our
lives.
And the fruit of distrust in God, is a lethargic life lived with insecurities and fear, a
life of routine in which we exert our full control over all parameters accessible to us,
failing to grow in faith as we do not give ourselves a chance to experience God’s
power and grace, a life in which we fail to discover the many hidden potential and
possibilities in our lives, which God is offering us.
Thank You God for being active and present in my life. Thank You for experiences
that show me time and again that You are real and involved and the most Beautiful
thing that has happened in my life.
Food for thought: Freedom comes not with the ability to control the parameters
present in our lives, but in the ability to let go of the grasp and let God lead.