Sarhad ke paar

By
mrindia.only

Disclaimer - This story is a work of fiction.

The characters do not exist, except in the
mind of the author. Any resemblance to
persons, living or dead, is purely
coincidental.
 #1
Raat ka kaala aasman tez dhooen se bhar
gaya tha…………fuel ke jalne ki badboo
Flight Lieutenant Ajay Rathod ki naak mein
aa rahi thi …………..woh apne parachute ke
sahaare uss anjaani dharti par utar raha
tha…………..

Dhadaam……………………!!!

aur iss se pehle ki uske paanv jamen par

padte …………. Neeche kahin tez dhamaaka
hua……… who samajh gaya ki uska RAF B17
fighter plane tukde- tukde ho gaya
hoga…………
Jo aakhiri baat use yaad thi who yeh ki uske
plane ke left part mein ek dhamaaka hua tha
fir jaise hi uske plane ne aag pakdi………usne
emergency exit ka button push kar diya
tha……..

neeche ko girte hue who yahi umeed kar

raha tha ki jaldi hi who dushmano ke haatho
mein hoga …………..ya fir neeche girte hi
usko goliyon se bhoon diya jaayega…….

par aisa nahi hua……………jaldi hi uske paanv

ne dharti ko touch kiya…………sambhalte-
sambhalte bhi who bahut tezi se gira………
kathor dharti par girte hi dard ki ek lahar
uske saare sharer mein daud gayi……….. ek-
do lambi lambi saans lene ke baad who furti
se utha…..apne parachute ko shareer se alag
kiya…………ab tak uske aankhen andhere
mein dekhne ke kaabil ho chuki thi……..

jahan par who khada tha who ek junglee

ilaaka dikhaayi pad raha tha……..bilkul
sunsaan……….par who jaanta tha ki jaldi hi
koi na koi usko dhoondhta hua yahan aa
jaayega…….

Usne andhere mein hi ek taraf ko daudna

shuru kar diya………..koi 10 minute tak be-
tahasha bhaage ke baad usko door kuchh
roshni si dhikaayi padne lagi…….par ab uska
shareer uska saath nahi de paa raha
tha…………idhar-udhar dekhne ke baad usee
paas hi ek khandahar sa dikhaayi
pada…………..woh uske andar chala
gaya…….aur ander ghuste hi jameen par gir
sa gaya………..dheere-dheere ek behoshi si
uske oopar chhaa gayi…………
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#2
Pata nahi kitni der tak woh behosh
raha…………dheere-dheere woh apni chetna
mein waapas lauta

Uska dimaag hosh mein aa chukka tha par

shareer abhi bhi aadhi behoshi ki haalat
mein tha….. bahut jyada thakaan aur dard ke
kaaran uska shareer uske dimaag ka saath
nahi de paa raha tha……..usne pichhle kuchh
ghanto mein huyi ghatnao ke bare mein
sochna shuru kar diya….
Yeh 1999 ka samay tha………….kargil war ka
daur…….woh Indian Air force mein tha aur
ladte-ladte dushman ki sarhad mein pahunch
gaya tha….jab uske Aircraft par attack hua
uss samay woh dushman ki seema ke
lagbhag 15-20 km andar taka a chukka
tha….iska matlab abhi bhi woh Border se
takreeban 20 km door hai….

Yeh sochte hi uske andar ek naya josh saa

bhar gaya………usne apnee peeth (back) par
se apne Kit-bag ko uttara aur apna samaan
check kiya…. Ek revolver , kuch chocolates ,
dry fruits , ek hip flask (whisky) aur kuchh
aur scientific instruments….saath mein first
aid ka kuchh samaan …….

Pehli baar usne apne -aap dhayan diya , uske

baayen paanv (left leg), mein ek chot lagi hui
thi….shaayad jab who zameen par gira tha
tab yeh chot lagi hogi – usne sochaa…..apne
bag mein se dettol aur cotton nikaali aur
cotton ko poori tarah dettol mein bhigo
liya……..fir usne cotton ko apni baayi pindali
par – jahan chot lagee hui thee , dheere
dheere se ferna shuru kiya,…khoon saaf hote
hi usko dikhaayee diya ki uski pindali mein
ek gehraa ghaav ho chukka hai……ek metal
ka tukdaa andar dhansaa hua tha…..aur
shaayad kaafi khoon bhi beh chukka tha……
Usko apne aap par hi aashcharya hua ki abhi
tak usne isse bardasht kaise kar liya…fir uske
andar se hi jawaab bhi aaya….shaayad jaan
ka khauf , dard par bhaari padh gaya tha…
Usne metal ke tukde ke sire ko pakdaa aur
apni aankhen band kar ke , poora jor laga
kar, ek jhatke se use bahar kheench diya……

“ Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…………………
.” Apni khud ki hi cheekh ko who kaboo
mein nahi rakh sakaa………….aisa laga ke
who fir se behosh ho jaayega….fir usne
dettol se bhiga hua cotton apne jakham par
jor se dabaa diyaa………….

Kuchh der tak lambi lambi saanse le kar usne

fir apni taakat to ikatthaa kiya……
Usne hip flask ko nikaala aur ek badi si
ghoont apne gale se neeche utaari………ek
teekhi si lehar uske saare shareer mein daud
gayi………par kuchh hi palo baad usko
mehsoos hua ki ek nayi taakat uske shareer
mein aa gayi hai…
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#3
Khandahar ke baahar ab halki si roshini
dikaayi padne lagi thee…….. “ shayad subah
ho gayi hai !!” usne apne aap se kaha…

Who dheere se uthkar baahar aaya……..dard

ki wajah se ab uske ek paanv mein langdahat
thi……..par iss anjaan jagah par bhi to bahut
der tak nahi ruka jaa sakta tha….
Usne apne bag mein se compass nikaala aur
directions ko check kiya…..agar usko jaldi hi
sarhad tak waapas pahunchna tha to usko
poorab (East direction) mein chalna tha……..
usne ek aakhiri baar charo taraf dekha aur
poorab disha ki aur badhna shuru kar
diya……..

Pehle dheere dheere aur fir tezi ke saath who

apne kadam badha raha tha………par saath
hi saath yeh bhi dhyaan rakh raha tha ki woh
kisi ko dikhaayi na pad jaaye……apni
uniform ki wazah se woh aaram se pehchana
jaa sakta tha……
ghane jungle mein chalte-chalte ab kareeb 2
ghante ho chuke the…………pyaas ke kaaran
uske honth aur gala bilkul sookh chuke
they………..aur tabhi jo usko dikhaayi diyaa
who maano uske liye jindagi ke saaman
tha………..
saamne hi ek pahari nadi (river) beh rahi
thi………….woh jaldi-jaldi kadam badhata
hua nadi tak pahunch gaya ………….kareeb
10 meter chaudi aur 2-3 feet gehri nadee
thi ……….. nadee ke paas akar who usme
lagbhag kood hi gaya………2-3 dubki lagane
ke baad usne jee bhar kar paani piya aur fir
kuchh palo ke liye paani mein hi late
gaya…………..

Ab woh apne aap ko fir se fresh mehsoos kar

raha tha……….usne apne bag mein se
nikaalkar kuchh chocolates khaayi aur pet ki
jwaala ko bhi shaant karne ki koshish ki….

Nadee ko paar karke who doosre kinaare par

aa gayaa………..aage jo usko dikhaayi diyaa
woh ek pahaari ilaaka thaa…….door oonche-
oonche pahar dikaayi pad rahe the….unke
aage ghane jungle ….aur kahin-kahin ek-do
makaan……….jo makaan usko sabse najdeek
dikhaayi diya who bhi wahan se takreeban 1-
1.5 kilometer door tha………….

Who jaanta tha ki who POK (Pakistan

occupied Kashmir) mein hai ………..aur din ki
roshini mein who khatre mein rahega…..usne
fir shaam hone tak wahi intezar karne ka
faisla kiya….aur pedo (trees) ke beech mein
chhup kar baith gaya....
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#4
Ajay ko maloom bhi nahi pada ke kab woh
neend mein chala gaya………….pedo ki ghani
chaanv aur charo taraf se lag rahi thandi
hawa ne use neend ki gode mein pahooncha
diya……….
Aankh khulne par ussne time
dekha…………..4.00 baje ka time ho raha
tha……..ab usko fir se bhookh lag aayi thi
aur khud ko chipaane ke liye bhi kisi jagah
ka intezam usko karna thaa………………….

Jo ek ghar usko sabse najdeek dikhayi pad

raha tha , who uss hi ki taraf chal
pada……pahaadi raaste par who 1-1.5
kilometer ki doori tay karne mein bhi usko
kareeb 1 ghanta lag gayaa………….

Woh ek chota sa ghar tha……….ghar ke

saamne hi ek chota sa khaali maidan aur
kareeb 50 meter door ek jhopdee numa
tabela…………..ghar ke do taraf ped they aur
pedo ke peeche khade hue
pahaad…………….ghar ki ek side ka maidaan
khaali tha aur udhar se ek pag-dandi kahin
door ko jaa rahi thi…………..shaayad us
raaste ka istemaal ghar mein rehne waale
apne aane-jaane ke liye karte the…………
Ajay jaanta tha ki woh POK area mein hai aur
yahi uski ummeed ki ek wajah thi…….woh
jaanta tha ke yahan ke waashinde apne aap
ko Hindustan ka hi hissa maante the aur
shaayad uski madad karein………………………

Ghar aur tabele ke beech mein jo khaali

maidaan tha , uske ek side jidhar pahar tha
wahin pedo ke aage jhaadiyon ka ek bada sa
jhurmut tha………….Ajay dabe panv jhopdi
(tabele) ke peeche se hota hua un jhaadiyon
ke peeche pahunch gaya aur wahin chhup
kar intezar karne laga…………..
Dheere-dheere andhera chaane laga
tha…………aur fir Ghar ke 1-2 kamron mein
light ON ho gayee…………….par abhi tak
Ghar ke andar se kisi bhi Insaan ki soorat
Ajay ko dikhaayi nahi padi thee…………
Achanak Ghar ke saamne waale hisse mein
light On huyee………..aur khidkee ke sheeshe
(Window Glass) se andar ka nazaara Ajay ko
dikhayee pada………Woh Ghar ki kitchen
thi………..jo sabse aage ke hisse mein bani
huyee thi….kitchen ke andar ek ladkee kaam
kar rahi thi……………door se Ajay ko uski
soorat to nahi dikhaayee di par shareer se
usne anumaan lagaya ki woh kareeb 30 ek
saal ki hogi……………..patlaa
shareer……….kaale lambe baal aur shareer
par Kashmiri libaas…………………..
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 #5

Main (Ajay Rathod) kaafi der tak wahin par

chip kar baitha raha…………..woh ladki abhi
bhi kitchen mein kaam kar rahi thi…………
beech-beech mein woh ghar ke andar doosre
kamro mein jaati aur fir laut kar waapas
kitchen mein aa jaati thi…..

Sooraj ab chhipne laga tha aur aasmaan ka

rang laal hone laga tha……….bhookh, dard
aur thakaan se mera bura haal tha aur man
hi man main dua kar raha tha ki jo bhi log iss
ghar mein rehte hain,mujhe yahaan chhipne
ki jagah dene ko tayyar ho jaayein…………….
Tabhi Ghar ka darwaaza khula…….aur jo
ladki kitchen mein kaam kar rahi thi woh
baahar aa gayi….uske haath mein ek baalti
(bucket) thi ………woh seedhi saamne bane
huey tabele mein pahunch gayee……….5-10
minute baad hi woh waapas aayi , aur ghar
ke saamne khade hokar awwaz lagaayi…

” Shaziaa……………Shazia……………”

Aage fir usne kuchh kaha jo meri samajh

mein nahi aaya ……………shaayad iss jagah ki
local language thi………….
Ab woh ladki theek mere saamne khadi
thi……………kareeb 20-25 meter
door……..yaha se uska chehraa saaf dikhaayi
de raha tha…………ghar ke baahar lage bulb
ki roshini uske chehre par pad rahi
thi…………Gora rang….kad lagbhag 5’3” ke
aaspaas………..chehre par ek ajeeb si
kathorta thi………umar koi 30 saal ke aas-
paas hogi……..
“Shaziaa……………………….” Usne fir se
awaaz lagaayi…………..
Iss baar ghar ka darwaaza khula , ek aur ladki
ghar se baahar nikli…………uske haathon
mein 2 baaltiyan (buckets) thi…………….

Fir mere saamne se hoti huyee dono tabele

mein pahunch gayee………..jitni der mein
woh dono tabele tak pahunchi……….maine
uss doosri ladki ka bhi muaayana kar
liya…….woh pehle waali se umar mein chhoti
thi ……….yahi koi 20-22 saal ki…….lambaai
uss se 1-2 inch jyaada hi thi………….shareer
average tha……….aur chaal mein alharpan
saa tha……………..
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 #6

Yeh shaayad sahi samay tha mere agle action

ka…..jahan main chhupa khada tha woh
jagah makaan ke left side mein thi ……..uske
peeche aur right side mein (makaan ke
peeche) ghane ped aur fir kuchh aur peechhe
pahar tha……….yaani kisi ke dwaare dekhe
jaane ki ummeed bahut kam thi………

Maine makaan ki deewar se mil ka apni right

side mein badhna shure kiya……….main
jhukta hua aage badh raha tha jisse ki agar
koi makaan ke andar ho to mujhe na dekh
sake …..saath hi saath main har khidki se
andar bhi jhaanka jaa raha tha……….makaan
ka poora chakkar kaat kar main fir makaan
ke right side main pahunch gaya…….par
mujhe andar koi bhi dikhaayi nahi
pada…………iska matlab tha ki iss samay un
do ladkiyon ke alaava, iss ghar main koi aur
nahi tha……yah baat mere faayde ki thi …

Makaan ki right side mein sirf ek hi khidki

thi……….uske andar jab maine jhanka tab
andar ghupp andhera hi dikhaayi
pada……..main dheere-dheere dabe paanv
aage badh raha tha…..apna revolver main
bag mein se nikaal kar apni kamar par , belt
ke andar fansa liya tha..
Main lagbhar bhaagta hua , par paanv ko
daba kar rakhta hua …ghar ke saamne waale
khule hisse mein aa gaya………..wahan ek
chota sa ped laga hua tha jo makaan aur
tabele ke beecho-beech mein tha……….uski
aad main khada hokar main un dono
ladkiyon ka intezaar karne laga…………

Makaan ke baahar lage hue bulb ki halki

roshini poore maidaan par pad rahi thi….

Achanak aahat hui aur fir tabele se ek ladki

baahar nikli………yah choti waali ladki
thi …shaayad Shaazia naam tha uska……..
usne apne haath mein ek baalti pakdi hui
thi ……. Jaise hi who mere paas
pahunchi …main ped ki aad se bahar nikal
kar uske saamne aa gaya
“Baaji………………….!!!!” woh bahut jor se
cheekhi………uske haath mein se baalti chhut
gayee…………ek –do pal ke liye usne mujhe
dekha….aur fir woh makaan ki taraf
bhaagi…………

Main bhi uske peechhe ko lapka………..aage

badh kar maine uski kalaai ko pakad liya aur
jhatke se apni ore ko kheencha………..woh
seedhi mere se aakar takraayi……usne fir se
cheeckne ke liye muh khola par tab tak
meraa ek haath uske muh par jum chukka
tha………..

Ab woh bilkul mere nazdeek thi……uski

baanh ko maine peeche ko mode kar uski
kamar se lagaya hua tha……..woh cheekh
nahi paa rahi thi par khauf ke kaaran uski
aankhe fati padi thi……..

Uska chehra mere chehre se kuchh hi inch

door tha………..ek ajeeb si masumiyat thi us
ski aankhon mein…………un aankhon dekhne
par kuchh palo ke liye to main bhool hi gaya
ki main kya aur kyon kar raha hoon ……aur
jab yaad aaya tab tak der ho chuki thi……..

Dhannnnnnnnn………………mere peeche se
mere sar par vaar kiya gaya tha……….jo mere
kandhe par bhi pada………….kuchh palo ke
liye meri aankhon ke saamne andhera chha
gaya aur fir main jameen par gir
gaya………girte hi main paltaa aue dekha ki
fir mere oopar vaar kiya jar aha
hai……..maine bachne ke liye apna baayan
pair (left leg) oopar kiya aur agla vaar sedha
meri pindli par pada……….wahin jahan pehle
se hi chot lagi huyee thi…….yeh vaar mere
hosh uddane ke liya kaafi tha aur main apne
pair ko pakar kar jameen par dohra ho
gaya….
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#7
Iss se pehle ki aglaa vaar hota…..mera haath
apni kamar par lagi revolver par pahunch
gaya……….main revolver nikaali aur lete-lete
hi un par taan di ...
“Ruk jaao !!!………………………….ab agar
maara to main goli chalaa doonga…” main
poori taakat laga kar bola

Aur iska turant asar hua…………..Shaazia uss

badi waali ladki ke peechhe dubak si
gayee…..aur uss ladki ka haath bhi hawa
mein hi ruk gaya………uske haath mein ek
mota sa danda tha……………dheere –dheere
uska haath neeche ko aa gaya………..

Maine apni poori takat lagayi aur fir se

khada ho gaya…………dard ke kaaran main
sahi se nahi khada ho paa raha tha par yeh
baat main unn par jaahir nahi karna chaahta
tha………
“Kya tum logo ko hindi samajh mein aati
hai……. “ apni revolver neeche karta hua
main kuchh narmi se bola….

Uss badi waali ladki ke chehre par asmanjas

ke se bhaav aaye………..

“Batao ,…. Kya aap log hindi samajh lete ho ?

“ maine fir apna sawaal dohraya

uska sar sehmati mein hila…………………

“ Good …………………….daro mat , main aap
logo ko koi nuksaan nahi
pahunchaoonga………………..” maine unn ko
samjhaane ki koshish ki

Ab un ke chehre se dar ke bhaav gayab hone

lage the………aur us ski jagah ek utsukta si
dikhaayi de rahi thi………….Shaazia , jo abhi
tak uss doosri ladki ke peeche chhupi huyee
thi …………..thoda sa baahar nikal kar aa gayi
thi aur uss ke kandhe ko pakde hue meri ore
dekh rahi thi..
“ Mera naam Ajay hai ……mera plane kal raat
wahan….. “ maine uss ko poori baat
samjhaane ki koshish ki

“ Tumhaare paanv se khoon nikal raha

hai…………. “ meri baat beech mein hi
kaatkar Shaazia boli aur fir uss doosri ladki ki
taraf dekha……………..

maine bhi ab gaur kiya ki meri chot mein se

lagataar khoon beh raha tha aur jameen par
girtaa jaa raha tha…………
“ Shaziaa …………………………
#%#$$%%^^^&^&&…… “ uss badi ladki ne
shaziaa se kuchh kaha jo meri samajh mein
nahi aaya aur woh tezi ke saath makaan ke
andar chali gayee…..
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#8
agle kuchh seconds humaare beech
khamoshi si chhaayi rahi………………. Fir uss
ladki ne hi baat shuru ki…..

“ Kya tum Hindustani ho …..? “ jaise kahin

gehraai mein se koi awaaz aayi ho……
“ Haan “

“Fauzi ho ? “ usne fir poochaa

“ Haan………………..Indian Air force mein

hoon “ maine jawaab diya
Uske chehre par ek sawaal sa
ubhraa …………….. jaise meri baat samajh
mein nahi aayi ho ………….
Tab tak Shaazia makaan se baahar aa gayi
thi ……………uss ke haath mein ek dabba
tha , hardboard ka bana hua puraana sa
dabaa….

“ Main hawaai jahaj udaata

hoon ………………….Hindustani fauz ke
“ maine unn ko samjhaane ki koshish ki

“Aao chalo, Ghar ke andar aa jao “ Uss badi

ladki ne Shaazia ki ore sawaaliya nigaaho se
dekhte hue mujhse kaha…
Shaazai ka sar bhi sehmati mein hila aur fir
hum teeno ghar ke andar aa gaye....
#9

Unka ghar kaafi saaf suthra

tha…………….Jaise aam taur par pahaadi
illako mein hote hain , lakdi aur concrete se
bana hua………….ek varande se hote hue
woh dono mujhe ghar ke daayein (right)
kisse mein bane ek kamre mein le gayi……….

Kamre mein ghuste hi dard ki wajah se mere

kadam fir se ladkhada gaye aur sahaare ke
liye maine Shaazia ke kandhe ko thaam
liya………iss buri haalat mein bhi maano
mere poore shareer mein ek current sa daud
gaya

Tabhi uss badi waali ladki ne mere haath ko

pakad kar mujhe sahaara diya aur Shaazia se
kuchh kaha……………Shaazia fir wahan se
baahar chali gayi……Uss ladki ne mujhe
sahara dete hue ek lakdi ki kursi par baitha
diya………woh ek lambi si aaram-kursi thi jis
par main late sa gaya……..

Woh mere saamne jameen par baith gayee

aur mujhe dekhte hue fir se baat shuru ki…
“Kya chaahte ho tum hum logo se…….” usne
hindi mein hi sawaal kiya tha par lehja
kashmiri tha….
“Sabse pehle to chhipne ke liye jagah aur
kuchh khaane ke liya ………….” Maine
aankhen band kiye-kiye hi jawaab diya

“Kab tak chhipna chaahte ho …….. ?”

“maloom nahi…………woh log mujhe

dhoondh rahe honge aur mujhe jald se jald
sarhad ke paar waapas pahunchna hai…..” iss
baar maine uske chehre ko dekhte hue kaha
“ Woh log kaun ? Pakistani fauz ?” woh mere
pairo ki taraf nigaah karke boli…

“Haan ..”

Kuchh der khamoshi rahi aur fir ek lambi

saans lekar woh fir boli “ Theek
hai ………hum tumhe chhipne ki jagah
denge , par iss ghar mein nahi …..saath hi
tumhe vaada karna hoga ki tum hum logo ko
koi nuksaan nahi pahunchaoge …..”

“ Mujh par yakeen kijiye ………..main koi bhi

harkat aisi nahi karoonga jis se aapko koi
pareshaani ho ………..” ab ki baar maine uske
chehre ko gaur se dekhte hue kaha…

Achaanak woh uthi aur kamre se baahar

nikal gayi

Kuchh hi seconds baad dono ladkiyan ek

saath waapas aayi……….Shaazia ke haath
mein ek bartan tha jis mein se bhaap nikal
rahi thi ………….dono mere saamne jameen
par baith gayi …………..fir badi ladki ne hi
baat shuru ki….

“ Mera naam Hina hai aur yeh meri choti

behan Shaazia hai………..Hum dono yahan iss
ghar mein akeli rehti hain ………..” Usne kaha
aur mere baayein (left) pair ko utha kar ek
lakdi ke chote se stool par rakh
diya……..meri pant ke paunche ko usne
dheere se oopar kiya ……….. mere ghav ko
dekhte hi uske chehre par dard ka sa bhaav
aa gaya……..chot se abhi bhi khun ris raha
tha ………usne ek kapde ko bartan mein
daala aur fir dheere se meri chot par rakh
diya…………
Dard ki ek lahar mere saare shareer mein
daud gayi…………kuchh der tak rukne ke
baad usne dheere-dheere kapde se ghav ko
saaf karna shuru kar diya……..fir usne ek
choti si sheeshi ko dabbe mein se nikala aur
khol kar dheere se mere ghav ke oopar ulta
kar diya………..sheeshi mein se liquid ki
kuchh boonde ghaav ke oopar giri aur fir se
ek jalan ka ehsaas mujhe hua………maine
kuch palo ke liye apni aankhen band kar li
aur jab dobara kholi to dekha ki ab woh
ghav par patti bandh rahi hai…..

Maine pehli baar un dono ke chehro ko gaur

se dekha, Hina ke chehre par ek ajeeb si
kathorta aur rukhapan tha par iss samay uski
aankhon mein mujhe daya ke bhaav nazar aa
rahe the…………..wahi Shaazia ke chehre par
ek komalta aur masumiyat si thi …………Hina
ki aankhen aur baal kale the jabki Shaazia ki
aankhen gehri neeli aur baal halke sunehre
the…………dono behno ka rang gora tha aur
shareer charhara.
Acahanak Shaazia ne …….jo abhi tak apni
behan ko dekh rahi thi meri taraf dekha aur
ek pyari si muskaan se maano mujhe tasalli
dene ki koshish ki………yakeen maniye uss ki
ek muskaan ne mere aadhe dard ko gaayab
kar diya tha....
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#10
Dressing kar dene ke baad Hina ne apna
chehra oopar uthaya aur fir ussi kathor se
lehje mein kaha “ Jakhm jyada gehra nahi
hai…. Ab 2-3 din tak jyada chalna –firna
nahi …”

Maine ek smile ke saath uska shukriya ada

karne ki koshish ki ….par uske chehre par koi
bhi bhaav nahi aaya…..

Fir dono behne mujhe uss hi kamre mein

chod kar baahar chali gayi…….main intezar
karta raha ki aage ab woh log kya karne
waali hain….. 10-15 minute baad Shaazia
hath mein ek thaali lekar aayi aur mere
saamne stool ek choti si table par rakh
diya………..”Khana kha lijiye ……” usne kaha
aur main bina der kiya uss khaane par maano
toot sa pada………..

Khana khaane ke baad mujhe aisa laga jaise

ek naya jeevan mil gaya ho……..kuchh der ke
liye main yeh bhi bhool gaya ki main kahan
hoon aur kaisi condition mein hoon …………..
Kuchh hi der ke baad Hina kamre mein
waapas lauti aur boli “ Aao……. tumhe
tumhaare rehne ki jagah dikha deti hoon “
Main dheere se utha aur uske saath chal
diya………mere paanv mein ab dard kam tha
aur main lagbhag sahi –sahi chal pa raha
tha………woh mere aage aage chalte hue
mujhe raasta dikha rahi thi………….makaan
se baahar aakar hum log tabele ki taraf chal
diye………….baahar ka mausam ab thanda ho
gaya tha , aisa mehsoos ho raha tha jaise
baarish aane wali ho………woh tabele ke
andar daakhil hue aur main uske peeche-
peeche andar aa gaya….

Tabela kaafi bada tha………..uske left waale

portion mein ek taraf jaanwaro ke liye hauz
sa bana hua tha aur kuchh jaanvar bandhe
hue the………ussi ke andar right side mein
partition kar ke kamre ka sa roop de diya
gaya tha……. Tabele ki chhat (roof) kachchi
thi par charo deeware pakki thi aur unme
kahin kahin chote-chote chhed (holes)
banaye gaye the…………….Hina ne uss
chhote se store numa kamre ki ore ishaara
kiya “ tum yahan par reh sakte ho “
Main uss store numa kamre mein daakhil
hua……………ek chhota sa kamra…………..jo
abhi filhaal bhoose se bhara hua
tha…………….” Tum yahin ruko, main
tumhaare liye sone ka intezam karti hoon…”
Hina ne kaha aur fir tabele se baahar nikal
gayi……………………
Main wahin bhoose ke dher par baith gaya
aur apni ghadi mein dekha……..raat ke 10.30
ka time ho gaya tha……………baahar ab
boonda-baandi chalu ho gayi thi………………
aur sardi bhi badhti si jaa rahi thi………

Hina waapas lauti aur uske peeche-peeche

Shazzia bhi………………Unke haathon mein
kuchh kapde the…………..bistar aur kambal
(blanket) ……..
Dono ne kapdo ko wahin jameen par rakh
diya aur mil kar uss chote kamre ki safaayi
karne lagi……………
Main wahin ek deewar ke sahaare baitha hua
unhe dekh raha tha………….kareeb 10 minute
ki mehnat ke baad dono behno ne uss store
ko mere rehne laayak kar diya, kuchh bhoosa
kamre se nikaal kay baahar tabele mein rakh
diya aur baaki ko farsh par bichaa kar bistar
ka roop de diya tha……..kuchh kapde daal
kar kar ab woh ek aaram-daayak bistar ban
chukaa tha………..aur 2-3 kambal mere
odene ke liye rakh chhode the…

“ Ab tum chaho to so sakte ho ……….” Hina

apne sapaat se lehje mein boli aur baahar ki
taraf chal di ………fir dobara palti aur boli
“ par mere se poochhe bagair is kamre se
baahar nikalne ki koshish nahi karna “
Woh kamre se baahar nikal gayi aur uske
peeche –peeche Shaazia bhi……..kamre se
baahar nikalte hue Shaziaa fir palti , meri ore
dekh kar muskuraai aur fir baahar nikal
gayi………..
Main ek baar uth kar baahar tabele mein
aaya…………baahar ab tez baarish ho rahi
thi…………tabele mein nazar ghuma kar
maine wahan ka jaayza liya…..kul 3 gaay
(Cows), 2-3 khachchar aur 3-4 bakri mujhe
wahan dikhaayi di…………..sardi ki wazah se
saare jaanwar simat se gaye the………
“ to aap log ho mere room-mates …………..”
maine dheere se kaha aur fir apni hi baat par
hans diya……………….
Main waapas kamre mein aaya………apne
joote nikaale aur apne bistar par let
gaya………….Aankhen band kar ke main
pichhle kuchh ghanto mein ghati ghatnaao
ke bare mein sochne laga…….
Kya pakistaani fauz ko maloom ho gaya
hoga ke main yahin aas-paas chhipa
hoon………..agar haan to woh mujhe
dhoondh jaroor rahe honge………iska matlab
woh log yahan bhi pahunch sakte
hain……………..mere ghar par jaroor mere
plane crash ki khabar pahunch gayi
hogi……………kya beeti hogi ghar waalo
par………………yahi sochte-sochte maine
aankhan band kar li aur aankhen band karte
hi mujhe dikhaayi di woh neeli
aankhen………..Shaazia ki aankhen aur uski
woh masoom si muskurahat …………….jaise
mujhe tasalli de rahi ho………………
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#11
Bahut gehri neend aayi iss baar
mujhko……………..subah aankh khuli to
maine apni aadat ke anusaar ghadi mein
time dekha…..7.45 baj rahe
the……………main utha aur store ke darwaaje
ko kholne ki koshish ki …………..mujhe bada
aashcharya hua kyonki raat ko jab main soya
tha tab to darwaaja khula hua tha……….

Maine ek-do baar koshish ki fir mujhe

mehsoos hua ki darwaaja baahar se locked
tha………..main waapas apne bistar par aakar
baith gaya…..mere man mein ajeeb –ajeeb se
sawaal aa rahe the……..

kya yeh log mujhe Pakistani fauz ke hawaale

karne waale the ? shaayad issi liye baahar se
darwaaza band kiya gaya ho, aur inn dono
ladkiyon mein se koi police ya army ko
khabar karne gaya ho ?

Ek ajeeb si ghabrahat mujhe ho rahi thi ,

maine jaldi se apne bag ko check kiya… meri
revolver ki magazine full thi………….. aur 3
extra magazine bhi mere paas mein
thi ………….”kam se kam 5-6 ko to saath
mein lekar maroonga “ maine man hi man
socha…
Achanak aahat hui ………….koi baar se
darwaaze ko khol raha tha…………maine jaldi
se revolver hath mein li aur deewar se sat kar
khada ho gaya………darwaaza dheere se
khula aur maine turant hi revolver uss par
taan di………..

Woh Hina thi…………..haath mein Chay (Tea)

ka cup le kar khadi thi………..uske chehre par
gusse aur aashcharya ke bhav the , mano
poochhna chaahti ho ke “yeh kya harkat hai
“
“ Ohhh …..aaap ho !! mujhe laga
shaayad ………….” Apni baat beech mein hi
adhoori chod kar main waapas bistar par
baith gaya……….
“ Tumhe kya laga……woh log tumhe
pakadne aa gaye hain ? Tumhe pakadwaana
hi hota to kal tumhaare jakhm par patti na ki
hoti .” woh ajeeb se lehje mein boli aur chay
ka cup meri taraf bada diya

Maine chay ka cup uske haath se le liya aur

bola “ Thanks…………..Mujhe baahar se band
kyon kar diya tha ? “

“ Abhi tum humaare liye anjaan ho , itni jaldi

kaise tum par bharosa kar lein ?” fir ussi
talkh lehje mein usne jawaab diya…
“ maine bhi to aap logo par bharosa kiya
hai…….. aur aap bhi to mere liye anjaan hain
“ pehli baar main uski nigaahon se nigaah
mila kar bola
Woh shaayad meri nigaahon ka saamna nahi
kar paayi…………kuchh hi palo mein usne
apni aankhen neeche jhuka li………

Maine use sar se paanv tak gaur se

dekha……shaayad abhi naha kar aayi thi
who…uske kaale baal kuchh-kuchh
ghungrale the………ek-do latein uske chehre
par aa rahi thi aur unme paani ki boonde bhi
dikhaayi pad rahi thi……….. maine bahut der
tak usko nahi dekha aur apni nazre uske
chehre par se hata li….

Usne chay ka cup (jo ab tak khaali ho chukka

tha) mere haath se le liye …aur boli “ yeh
darwaaza ab khula hua hai , tum chaho to
kahin bhi ja sakte ho ………..par jahan tak
main samajhti hoon , tum yahan par jyada
mehfooz ho “ Iss beer woh dheere se
muskuraai aur baahar nikal gayi………..

Main kuchh der usko jaate hue dekhta

raha……….yeh ladki abhi tak mere liye ek
paheli bani hui thi………kyon hai who
aisi ?.....mujhe nahi lagta ki who dil se bhi itni
kathor hogi , fir kyon aisa nakaab ode rehte
hai hamesha ?

Main tabele ke darwaaze par aakar khada ho

gaya……….raat bahut tez barish huyee
thi…….aur abhi bhi mausam waisa hi bana
hua tha……
Saamne makaan ka darwaza khula aur
Shaazia baahar nikli………uske haathon mein
ek baalti thi jisme shaayad kuchh kapde
the…..mere baayein taraf ko badhti huyee
woh jhaadiyon ke paas pahunch gayi aur
geele kapdo ko baalti se nikaal kar sookhne
ke liye jhaadiyon par daalne lagi……….

Iss samay woh kisi kayamat se kam nahi lag

rahi thi …………main thoda sa peeche ho
gaya aur deewar ki aad mein hokar, chhup
kar usko dekhne laga…..woh bhi abhi
nahakar hi nikli thi……..baal geele the aur
uski kamar tak aa rahe the………….kal raat ki
tarah ab woh garam kapdo mein nahi thi
balki ek sooti sa salwaar-soot usne pehna
hua tha…….. paani ki boonde uski poori back
side ko gila kar rahi thi ………..aur mujhe unn
gile kapdo mein se uske poore shareer ka
ehsaas ho raha tha…………..ek ajeeb is
uttezna mere oopar haavi hone
lagi………..abhi tak maine iss ladki ke shareer
ko sirf door se hi dekha tha …par jaane kyon
aisa lagne laga ke who mere bahut paas aa
jaye………….

Usse dekhte-dekhte mujhe maloom hi nahi

pada ki who kab peeche palat gayi aur ab
meri taraf hi aa rahi thi,…….. jaise hi meri
nazar usse mili, aisa laga ki jaise meri chori
pakdi gayi ho………uske chehre par wahi
pyaari si muskaan thi……….woh seedhi chalti
huyee mere paas pahunch gayi…..aur poocha

“ kaise hain aap?...... aapka ghav ab kaisa

hai ?
“ Pehle se kaafi behtar
hai…………………Thank you “ maine kaha ,
main uss se nazre milane ki koshish karta
hua bola….par mere apne man mein chor
hone ki wazah se main uss se nazrein nahi
mila paa raha tha……

Meri nigaahein uske chehre se neeche ki ore

badhi aur fir maano meri saanse ruk si
gayi………..uske baalo se girte paani ne uske
kurte ke oopri hisse ko bhi bhiga diya
tha………….kapda patla tha aur uske neeche
usne Bra jaisi koi cheej nahi pehni
thi………….uski choochiyon ke ubhaar aur
nipple, dono saaf dikhayee pad rahe
the…………..
“Kya hua…………aapki tabiyat abhi sahi nahi
hai kya ? “ woh fir se muskurati hui boli ,
maine fir uske chehre par dekha…..fir wahi
masoom si muskurahat………usko to shaayad
ehsaas bhi nahi hua tha ki main kya dekh
raha hoon ……………

“ nahi, main ab sahi hoon” maine baat

badalte hue kaha “ lagta hai baarish fir
padne waali hai “

“ baarish nahi barf …………shaam tak barf

jaroor pad jaayegi “ woh oopar aasman ki
taraf dekhti huyee boli……………..
Mujhe maloom bhi nahi pada ki kab Hina bhi
humaare paas aa gayi………….aur mujh se
boli “ kya tum nahana chaahoge ? “

“ Jaroor…………par mere paas badalne ke

liye kapde nahi hain “ maine uski taraf dekh
kar jawaab diya.

“ Uska intezam ho jaayega………….tum andar

jaao , main abhi tumhe bula loongi” kehkar
who palti aur uske peeche –peeche Shaazia
bhi chali gayi……..

main unn dono ko jaate hue dekhte

raha………..mere man mein ek ajeeb si pyas
sir utha rahi thi ……………. Shaazia , jo abhi
take k masoom bachchi si lag rahi thi , ab
achanak sex-ki-devi najar aane lagi
thi ………..

main fir se kamre ke andar waapas aa gaya

aur apne bistar par let gaya……mere dimaag
mein unn sabhi ladkiyon ke chahre aane lage
jin se main abhi tak apni jindagi mein mila
tha……….kuchh sirf dost thi , kuchh ke saath
maine sex bhi kiya tha…par aisi masumiyat
shaayad kisi mein bhi nahi thi …………ya
kahin yeh uska oopri chehra to nahi hai ??
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#12

Kuchh der baad hi Hina waapas aa gayi aur

boli “ aao mere saath “ , main uske peeche
peeche chal diya………
Tabele se baahar nikal kar woh right side
mein (makaan ke left side) chal di………..uss
side kucch jhaadiyan aur ek pahar
tha……….hum dono pahaar ke saath saath
chal diye……….ek patli si pag-dandi pahar ke
saath chal rahi thi………shaayad who log iss
raaste ka aksar istemaal karte honge…..
pahaar ke saath saath chalte hue who raasta
baayen (left side) mein mud gaya….koi 200-
250 meter chalne ke baad hum jahan
pahunche woh jagah do paharo ke beech ka
hissa tha…….ek paani ki dhaar dono paharo
ke beech mein se girti huyee wahan taka a
rahi thi…………..aur aage nikal jaati
thi……………………

Hina apne saath ek baalti laayi

thi……………usne kaha “ tum yahan par naha
sakte ho , main abhi thodi der mein aati
hoon “ aur who tezi ke saath waapas chali
gayi ……………

Main kuchh der uss jagah ki khoobsoorti

mein mano doob gaya……….peeche paharo
se girta hua paani …………..aur saamne ek
bada sa khaali maidaan ………uske aage
jhaadiyan aur ghana jungle…………maine left
side mein dekha ………..wahan aage ek
dhalaan sa dikhaayi diya…………thoda sa
aage badha to maloom hua ki jis jagah par
hum hain yeh bhi ek pahad ki choti par
hai………..yahan se door tak dhalaan jar aha
tha aur neeche ek nadi behti dikhaayi de rahi
thi…………….shaayad wahi jisko paar karke
main iss ghar tak pahuncha
tha………………….
“ Kya dekh rahe ho ? “ achanak mere peeche
se awaaz aayi…maine dekha Hina haath
mein kuchh kapre lekar khadi thi ” Kya
nahana nahi hai ? “

maine uski baat ka jawaab na dete hue ulta

sawaal kiya “ yeh nadi jo neeche dikhayi pad
rahi hai, kahan jaati hai “
“Hindustaan !! yahan se aage jaakar yeh
gehri ho jaati hai aur ek doosri badi nadi
mein mil jaati hai “ usne nadee ke taraf hi
dekhte hue kaha “ who dekh rahe ho ,
saamne jo safed waale pahaad dikhayi de
rahe hain , who Hindustan mein hain “
maine dekha, nadi aage jaakar do paharo ke
beech mein gum ho gayi thi , woh safed barf
se dhake pahar jinke bare mein Hina keh rahi
thi… kaafi door the aur bahut chote-chote
dikjaayi pad rahe the, mujhe maloom tha ki
wahan tak pahunchne ke liye agar main
sadak se hokar jaoonga to kareeb 50-60
kilometer ka safar tay karna padega
“Ab jaldi se naha lo , main wahin peeche
baith jaati hoon . nahane ke baad yeh kapde
badal lena “ usne kapde wahin ek patthar
par rakh diye , aur kuchh door jaakar baith
gayi .....
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#13
maine apne kapde utare aur sirf underwear
pahan kar nahana nahana shuru kar diya,
maine Hina ki taraf dekha , woh doosri ore
muh kiye baithi thi ……

Maine baalti mein paani bharkar nahaana

shuru kar diya…………….thande paani ne
shareer mein ek sihran si paida kar di thi ..
par tazagi ka bhi ehsaas karwa diya tha………

Nahate –nahate mein yahan se nikalne ke

bare mein soch raha tha……….ek-do baar jab
meri nigaah Hina par gayi to mujhe aisa laga
ki woh chor nigaah se meri taraf hi dekh rahi
hai……..kya uski dilchaspi mujh mein thi ya
mere shareer mein ?…….mujhe doosri baat hi
sahi lagi…..
Soch kar mujhe ek ajeeb sa romanch
mehsoos hua………..ek jawaan ladki mujhe
nahate hue dekh rahi thi, aur mere shareer
ko nazdeek se dekhna chah rahi
thi……….mujhe bhi iss khel mein maza aane
laga ………..thoda sa peeche ko
hogaya ………mano apne aapko aad mein
karne ki koshish kar raha hoon ………..par
mujhe maloom tha ki woh mujhe wahan bhi
dekh sakti thi……..jo ek akhiri kapda mere
shareer par tha (underwear) woh bhi maine
utaar diya……… ab main bilkul nanga ho kar
naha raha tha……….thoda sa paani aur daal
kar main khada ho gaya……….kuchh to
mausam ka asar aur kuchh yeh soch kar ki
Hina ki nigaah mere oopar hi hai……….mera
Lund bhi ab dheere-dheere sakht hone laga
tha…………

Main nanga hi wahan tak pahuncha, jahan

kapde rakhe hue the………wahan pahunch
kar maine ek chote se kapde (towel) se apna
shareer ponchha aur fir aaram se kapde
pehan liya…………..maine poora dhyan rakha
tha ki jo cheez Hina dekhna chah rahi hai,
who usse sahi se dikh jaaye……….

Kapde pehan-ne ke baad maine apne uttare

hue kapde baalti mein dale aur Hina ke paas
pahunch gaya………….aur bola “chalein …….?
“

Woh uth khadi hui…………ek-do pal ke liye

meri taraf dekha aur fir ghar ki taraf chal
di………….Uske gaal iss sard mausam mein
bhi laal ho rahe the aur chehre par baichaini
saaf dikhayi pad rahi thi……..
Jo kapde usne mujhe pehan-ne ke liye diye
the, woh typical kashmiri libaas
tha…..pathani suit aur ek jacket……….
Main teji se chalta hua uske paas pahuncha
aur kaha “ yeh kapde jiske bhi hain , who
shakhs lagbahg mere hi baraabar ka hoga,
bas kuchh dubla hoga kyonki kapde halke se
tight hain…………waise kiske hain yeh
kapde ? “

“ Mere shauhar (husband) ke……” kehte hue

uski nigaah saamne ghar ki taraf hi thi

“ Aapke shauhar !!!” yeh mere liye dhamaake

jaisi khabar thi “ kahan hain woh”

“ maloom nahi “ woh dheere se boli ……..aur

mere haathon se kapdo ki baalti le li “ laao,
main in kapdo ko saaf karke chhipa doongi “
baalti le kar woh ghar ke andar chali
gayi…………..main wahin khada sochta
raha……….yeh dono ladkiyan ek ajeeb se
paheli ki tarah banti jaa rahi thi………

boonde padne lagi thi aur fir halki halki barf

baari shuru ho gayi……….aasmaan mein
maano ruyee ke gole udd rahe the aur
jameen par bichhte jaa rahe the………..main
dheere-dheere chalta hua apne kamre mein
waapas aa gaya....
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#14
Dopahar ke 2.30 ka time ho raha
tha………………..Shaazia beech mein ek baar
aa-kar khana de gayi thi aur fir abhi-abhi
bartan waapas le kar gayi thi…………mere
dimaag mein pichhle 2 dino mein ghati
ghatnayen ghoom rahi thi……….jab se main
yahan aaya tha……….tab se maine apne
baahar nikalne ki taraf gambheerta se nahi
dhyaan diya tha……….kahin aisa na ho ki
Pakistani fauz mujhe dhoondh rahi ho aur
main yahan chhip kar un ka kaam asaan kar
doon ..

Baahar tabele mein kuchh aahat si

huyee………..main uth kar kamre se baahar
aaya ………..yeh Hina thi………..jaanwaro ke
liye chaara daalne aayi thi……..main kucch
kehne hi waala thi ki door se kisi gaadi ki
awaaz aayi …awwaz Hina ne bhi sun lee
thi………….woh furti se uthi…………….mere
paas aayi aur muhe lagabhag dhakete hue
waaps kamre mein le aayi…………..

” Jaldi se chhip jaao, baahar mat

nikalna…….woh log tumhe dhoondhne aa
gaye hain…..” keh kar usne mujhe kamre ke
kone mein dhakela aur jaldi se saara phoos
(sukhi ghaas – Dry grass) mere oopar daalna
shuru kar diya……….. main bhi stithi ko
samajh gaya tha………aur kuchh hi seconds
mein kamra phoos se bhar gaya tha…………..

main saans rok kar phoos ke dher ke neeche

chhipa hua tha………mera dil iss samay ghadi
se bhi tez chal raha tha………baahar se kuchh
logo ke bolne ki awaaz aa rahi thi , bhasha
kyun ki ajnabi thi isliye meri samajh se
baahar thi………….beech beech mein Hina ki
awaaz bhi aa rahi thi……….fir kuchh palo ke
liye aawaz tez ho gayi mano woh log baat
karte karte nazdeek aa gaye ho……………fir
kuchh der khamoshi si rahi………..aur fir
dobara gaadi ke jaane ki awaaz mere kano
mein padi…………….gaadi jaane ke kareeb 5
minute baad tak bhi main aise hi pada raha
aur intezar karta raha ………………….

“ Baahar aa jao…………..woh log chale gaye

hain “ Hina ki awaaz mere kaano mein padi
aur main phoos ko hata kar baahar nikal
aaya……………baahar barf pad rahi thi par
par main paseene se bheeg gaya
tha…………………..
Baahar aa kar main lambi lambi saanse lene
laga …………..Hina mere saamne hi khadi thi
aur mujhe hi dekh rahi thi ……….uske chehra
laal ho raha tha…. Kuchh der ke baad jab
usko laga ki main ab normal ho gaya hoon ,
tab usne baat shuru ki “ Woh log tumhe hi
dhoondhte hue aaye the “

“ Kaun log the ? Pakistani fauz ?” maine

lambi-lambi saanse lete hue kaha

Usne haan mein sir hilaya………….uski

aankhon mein abhi tak khauf tha aur chehre
par uttezna si dikhayi pad rahi thi…………..
“ Major Aslam beg , yahan ka area
commander hai woh …………khud tumhe
dhoondhne aaya tha……………uske aadmi
tumhe poore ilaake mein dhoondh rahe
hai……………….unko maloom pad gaya hai ki
Hindustani Air force ka ek jahaaz iss ilaake
mein gira hai aur uska pilot abhi jinda
hai…….” Who meri aankhon mein aankhen
daalte huye boli…………….main hairan tha ki
woh English ke words bhi itne achche bol
rahi hai……..

Kuchh der tak hum ek doosre ko dekhte rahe

fir shaayad woh meri aankhon se aankhe
nahi milake rakh saki ……………..aur dheere
se baahar nikal gayi…………..main bhi uth
gaya aur apne kapde jhaarta hua baahar
nikal aaya……………..halki halki barf ab bhi
pad rahi thi…………..baahar maidaan mein
safed chaadar si bichh gayi thi ……………….

“ Ab ek-do din tak woh shaayad nahi

aayenge………………par Aslam beg bahut tez
aadmi hai………..use mutmayin karna bahut
mushkil kaam hai”
Woh baahar dekhte huye boli………………

Maine uss hi ki taraf dekh raha tha…………iss

samay usne typical kashmiri dress pehni
huyee thi…………..lamba sa kurta, band gale
ka……salwaar aur sar par ek kapda baandha
hua tha ……….kul milakar uska sirf chehra hi
kapdo ke baahar tha …………..baahar se halki
halki boonde uske chehre par pad rahi thi
aur uske chehre ki khoobsoorti ko aur bada
rahi thi…………

Saamne ghar ka darwaaza khula aur Shaazia

baahr nikal kar aayi…………..dheere dheere
chalte huye woh hum dono ke najdeek aa
gayi…..aur apni behan se kuchh baat karne
lagi …………..apni local language
mein…………….ab main Shaazia ko dekh raha
tha…………uski dress bhi bilkuk hina jaisi
thi……………par jab main dono ko compare
karta tha to mujhe Shaazia jyada attractive
lagti thi………….shaayad uski kam umra hone
ke kaaran……………..

kuchh der baat karne ke baad dono behne

ghar ke andar chali gayee………main wahin
khada hua mausam ka maza le raha
tha……..kareeb 5 minute ke baad Hina ghar
se baahar nikli …………..ab usne ek shawl oda
hua tha ……….. aur saath mein ek chatri
(umbrella) bhi uske haath mein
thi………..woh tezi se ghar se left side waali
pagdandi par chal di …….wahan jahan se
abhi kuchh der pehle hi gaadi aayi
thi ………….main use dekhta rah jab tak woh
mujhe dikhaayi deti rahi…………fir main
andar aakar kamre mein baith gaya.....
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#15

Main kamre mein apne bistar par leta hua

tha jab baahar kuchh aahat huyee……. Yeh
Shaazia thi, woh kamre ke andar aayee , uske
haath mein chay ke do cup they……ek cup
usne meri taraf badhaate hue kaha “ chay
pee leejiye “

Main uth kar baith gaya aur chay ka cup uske

haath se le liya….woh apna cup lekar kamre
se baahar nikal gayi……….main chay mein se
ek ghoonth bhara aur fir uth kar kamre se
baahar aa gaya…………woh tabele ki ek
deewar se take laga kar baithi
thi ………baahar halki halki barf baari ho rahi
thi , aur woh udhar hi dekh rahi thi……

Main uss se kuchh doori par , deewar se take

laga kar baith gaya……..aur chay peene
laga……fir usne hi baat shuru ki …
“ Aap yahan kaise pahunch gaye ? “ uske
chahre par wahi massom si muskurahat thi

“ maine bataya tha ki main Indian Air force

mein pilot hoon….. main apni fauz ke liye
kuchh samaan le kar kargil ja raha tha par
galat messages ki wajah se raasta bhatak
gaya……….mera plane pakistani seema ke
andar chala gaya aur unn logo ne anti
aircraft missile se mujh par attack kar diya ,
mere plane mein aag lag gayi aur mujhe
koodna pad gaya “ main uske chehre ko
dekhta hua use samjhane ki koshish kar raha
tha …

“ Aur yeh chot kaise lag gayi aapko ? “ usne

mere pair ki taraf ishaara karte hue kaha
“ maloom nahi kab , par jab main jameen par
giya tabhi koi lohe li cheej isme ghus gayi thi
“ main muskurate hue bola

usne aisa mooh banay jaise meri chot se use

dard mehsoos hua ho

“ Tum bahut bahadur ho……………….” Woh

meri aankhon mein dekhti huyee boli

kuchh palo ke liye hum ek doosre ko hi

dekhte rahe fir usne hi nazre hata lee.
“ Tumhaare ghar main aur kaun kaun
hai………..” woh baahar dekhte hue boli

“ mere alawa mummy-papa aur ek chhoti

behan , bas”

“ aur tumhaari Biwi ?”

“ maine abhi shaadi nahi ki “ main dheeme

se hanste hue bola
Usne meri taraf dekha aur fir ek baar
muskura di …………uski yahi muskurahat
mere saare shareer mein halchal si macha
deti thi
“ Aur tumhaare ghar mein kaun kaun hai ?
“ ab maine usse sawaal kiya

“ mere ?” woh chaunk kar boli “ main aur

baaji , bas “

“ Aur tumhaare mata-pita…………. tumhaare

Jija , mera matlab Hina ke shauhar . Woh
kahan hain “
“ Humaare waalid saahab tabhi khatam ho
gaye the jab main 8 saal kit hi, mujhe bahut
jyada yaad nahi hai…………itna hi yaad hai ke
woh fauz mein the…………sarhad par jaate
rehte the…………ek din khabar aayi aur ghar
mein sabhi log rone lage…………..fir 2 din ke
baad unki laash bhi aa gayi…………maloom
pada ki sarhad par ladte huye hi hindustani
fauz ne unko maar diya tha “ woh saamne
maidaan mein dekhti huyee keh rahi thi ,
uski aankhon mein paani dikhayi pad raha
tha jo bahar chhalakne ko tayyar tha.

“ aur tumhaari ammi ?” main aage poochhna

jaari rakha

“ Abba ke intekal ke baad , ammi hum teeno

ko lekar naani ke ghar Murree chali gayi
thi……… “ woh mere chehre ko dekhte huye
boli

“Teeno kaun ? “ maine fir se sawaal kiya

“ Hum dono behne aur bhai jaan ……”

“Tumhaara bhai ? …………. Tumhara koi bhai
bhee hai , mujhe nahi maloom tha” mere liye
ek aur nayee jaankari thi , woh jitna bata rahi
thi , mere man mein utne hi naye sawaal
khade ho rahe the

“Hai nahi tha……………………..ab woh bhee

iss duniya mein nahi hai “ usne fir meri ore
dekhte hue kaha…………uski aankhon se ab
aansoon behne lage the…….

“ kuchh saal hum log wahin rahe , fir baaji ka

nikaah ho gaya aur baaji yahan aa
gayi …….tab tak sab kuchh theek chal raha
tha , bhai jaan mujh se takreeban 4 saal bade
the………………fir ek din khabar aayi ki who
nahi rahe …..” keh kar woh foot-foot kar
rone lagi…………….uske aankhon mein se ab
aansuon ki dhaar behne lagi thee aur woh
apne ghutno mein muh chhipa kar subakne
lagi…..
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#16
main dheere se uth kar uske paas ayaa aur
baith gaya……………maine ek haath uske
kandhe par rakha aur usse dilasa dene ki
koshish karne laga…….kareeb 2-3 minute tak
rone baad usne apna chahra oopar kiya aur
apne aansoon pochhne lagi…
“ Mujhe maaf kar do……………mujhe nahi
maloom tha ki meri wajah se tumhe takleef
hogi , nahi to main aise sawaal kabhi nahi
poochhta “ main uske kandhe ko
thapthapate hue bola

“ Koi baat nahi…………..bahut dino baad kisi

ko bata rahi hoon na, isliye shaayad aisa ho
gaya “ usne ek fiki si muskurahat ke saath
kaha…

“ Bhaai jaan , jehadiyon ke saath kaam karne

lege the…………..ek din khabar aaayi ki
sarhad paar kerte huye pakde gaye aur
Hindustani fauz ne unko maar
giraya………………… aami bhi unki maut
bardhasht nahi kar paayi , unhone charpayee
pakad li aur fir 2-3 mahino mein hi who bhi
guzar gayee” woh fir saamne jameen par
dekhte hue bata rahi thi “ uske baad baaji
mujhe bhi apne saath le aayi , kareeb 4 saal
se main yahin hoon “

“ Aur tumhaare jija, woh ab kahan hain ?

“ main apni utsukta abhi tak nahi dabaa pa
raha tha.

“ Maloom nahi “ who fir meri taraf dekhte

hue boli

“ matlab !!! ???? “

Woh fir kucch der ke liye khamosh ho

gayi ………..kahin saamne jaise kuchh
dhoondh rahi ho …..kuchh hi seconds baad
usne bolna shuru kiya………
“Unka seb (apples ) ka karobaar tha , jiske
liye woh aksar sarhad ke uss paar ,
Hindustan jaate rehte
the……………..Pakistani fauz ko unn par
shaque ho gaya ki woh jasoosi karte
hai …………..kayee baar unko pooch-tachh ke
liye bulaya…………ek baar jab woh
Hindustan se waapas laute , tabhi fauzi gaadi
bhee unke peechhe –peechhe hi aa
gayi………….woh unko saath le jaane
lage ………….mana karne par woh log unko
maarne lage,…woh baar baar kehte rahe ki
woh bekasoor hain………………… baaji ne bhi
bahut koshish ki par woh log nahi
mane…baaji ne to unke paanv bhi pakad
liya…………par unme se ek kameene ne usko
laat maar ke alag kar diya , aur unko saath le
gaye ……….” Kehte kehte uski aankhon se fir
aansoon behne lage “ uske baad woh kabhi
waapas nahi laute, shaayad inn logo ne unhe
bhi maar diya………..”

Iss baar main uss ke aur paas chala gaya,

maine uske sar ko dheere se sehlaane
laga…………….uski hichkiyaan fir se dheemi
padne lagi ……..usne meri taraf dekha aur
achanak mere seene mein jaise chip gayi aur
fir bazaar ho kar rone lagi…………………

Mere liye yeh bada ajeeb samay

tha…………….jahan mere dil mein ek hairani
thi ki kitna dukh saha hai inn dono behno
nein , wahin pakistani fauz par bhi gussa aa
raha tha aur saath saath ek romanch bhi tha
kyon ki woh iss samay mere seene se lagi
huyee thi…………………
2-3 minute baad hi woh fir chup ho
gayi ….par abhi bhi usne apna sar mere
kandhe par tika rakha tha…………….maine fir
baat shuru ki …
“Waakai………….bahut bura samay dekha hai
tum logo ne…khaas taur par Hina ne, usne to
apne shauhar ko bhi kho diya “

“ Aur saath mein apne bachche ko

bhi………….” Usne jaise ek aur dhamaaka sa
kiya

“ bachche ko !!!!!!!! kya uska bachcha bhi

tha ? “ main mano cheekh sa pada
“ Tha nahi , hone waala tha……………woh uss
samay ummed se thi (pregnant ) ….jab uss
kameene ne unke laat mari , bechaari behosh
ho gayi thee ………………….aur fir agle hi
din ………” aage shayad woh keh na saki , par
main poori baat samajh chuka
tha …………………..

maine uske gird apni ek baanh ko lapet

diya…………woh aur paas aa gayi aur apna
chehre fir se mere seene mein chhipa
liya………………………………..
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#17

Kareeb paanch minute tak hum dono aise hi

baithe rahe…………..uski kahaani sun kar
mujhe aisa lag raha tha ki pehle hi innki life
mein itni pareshaaniyan thi , maine aakar ek
aur badha di………….agar kisi ko maloom
pad gaya ki inn logo ne mujhe panaah di hai
to jaane kya-kya julm karenge inn
par…………maine man hi man nishchay kiya
ki ab main aise yahan se nahi
jaoonga…………..kuchh na kuchh to intezam
inka karna hi padega ………….kya , yeh abhi
mujhe nahi maloom tha , par ummeed thi ki
kuchh to ho hi sakta hai……………

Maine dekha , Shaazia abhi tak mere pehlu

main simat kar baithi huyee thi……….woh
saamne maidaan mein kahin dekh rahi
thi…………..maine fir uss se
poochha …………” Hina abhi kahan gayi hai “
“ Baagan tak …” usne ek nazar meri ore dekh
kar kaha aur fir seedhi hokar baith gayi

“ Baagan ?? kaise baagan ? “

“Bataya tha na ki seb ke bagaan the unke
shauhar ke………..unke jaane ke baad baaji hi
unki dekhbhaal karti hain, yahin gaanv se
neeche jaakar hain humaare baagan.”

“ OK………………par who ek aurat hokar

saara kaam khud kaise kar leti hai “

“Nahin………….akeli nahi hai woh…………do

aadmi bhi hain baagan ki dekh-bhaal Ke
liye …………baaji to bas hisaab –kitaab dekhti
hai “ usne muskurate huye jawaab
diya…………uski muskurahat aisi lag rahi thi
maano chand par se achanak baadlon ka
saaya hat gaya ho……………jee mein aaya
aage badhkar usko choom loon, par maine
filhaal apne ko kaboo mein rakhna hi theek
samjha……….
Woh utth khadi huyee…………saath mein
main bhi …………..

“ Tumhari baaji padh-likh leti hain ?” maine

bhi muskurate huye poocha

“ Jee haan , baaji wahan Murree main nurse

ka kaam karti thi…………..”

“Ohh …………tabhi itni achchi dressing ki thi

mere ghaav par…….., tum abhi kuchh der
pehle mujhe bahadur keh rahi
thi………….mujhe to lagta hai ki tum log
mujhe jyada bahadur ho………….jo itni
pareshaniyon ke baad bhi himmat se inn
sabka saamna kar rahi ho …….”

Kehte kehte main fir uske kandhe par haath

rakh diya………..woh kuchh seconds meri
aankhon mein dekhti rahi , fir nazron ko
jhuka liya , main uske paas aa
gaya …………..woh bhi shhayad mere ehssaso
ko samajh rahi thi …..uske saanse ab bhaari
hone lagi thi ………par nazre jameen se hi
chipki huyee thi ………….maine haath kandhe
se hataaya aur uske haath ko pakad
liya……………usne turant nazron ko utha kar
mujhe dekha…………ek ajeeb sa sawaal tha
uske chehre par , jaise jaan-na chahti ho ki
mere man mein sahi-sahi kya
hai …………………. Maine uske haath ko
pakad kar dheeme se apni ore
kheencha…………….aur khud bhi ek kadam
uski ore badha diya………uski saanse ab
bahut tezi se chal rahi thi ……………nazre
mere chehre par hi jamee huyee
thi……………….fir woh ek kadam aur aage
badhi aur bilkul mere se sat
gayee…………….meri lambaayi uss se kareeb
4-5 inch jyada thi , maine doosra haath uske
sar ke peeche rakha aur uske chehre ko apne
seene se sata liya…………….. uska haath chod
kar main eek baanh se uski peeth par ghera
sa banaya aur fir doosre haath ko bhi
waheen le jaakar usko Poori tarah baahon
mein bhar liya…………..
Usne ek baar to kasmasa kar mujhse alag
hone ki koshish ki …………..fir jaise hathyar
daal diye aur apni dono baahen meri peeth
par le jaakar mujhe jakad liya…………….

Maine uske maathe par ek chhota sa kiss

kiya………………fir uske chehre ko apne
haathon mein bhar kar oopar
uthaya………..uski nazron mein ek sawaal
th ……………..shaayad poochhna chah rahi
thi ki humaare iss rishte ka anjaam kya
hoga………………maine fir se uske maathe ko
chooma aur fir bola

“ aaj ke baad apne aap ko akela mat

samajhna…………..main humesha tumhaare
saath hoon “ keh kar maine usko apni
baahon se azaad kar diya…….na chahte huye
bhi………….woh peeche ko hati………….ek
baar fir mujhe dekh kar muskurayee aur fir
bhaagti huyee ghar ke andar chali gayi ..

maine tabele ke gate par aakar khada ho

gaya……………baahar ab barf baari ruk chuki
thi ……………..par aasman par baadal ab bhi
chhaye hue they………fir ek awaaz aane
lagi………….kisi motorcycle ki awaaz thi yeh ,
jo dheere dheere najdeek aa rahi
thi……………main thoda peeche hokar aad
mein ho gaya ……………………yahan se main
sab kuchh dekh sakta tha par mujhe koi nahi
dekh paata…………………………
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#18
Awaaz najdeek aati ja rahi thi………….fir ghar
ke saamne ek motorcycle aakar
ruki…….motorcycle par aage ek ladka baitha
tha aur peechhe Hina……………..

Hina motorcycle se utree aurr uss ladke se

kuchh kaha , fir woh ghar ke andar chali
gayee…………..ladka wahin , motorcycle par
hi baitha raha………….shaayad Hina ke
waapas aane ka wait kar raha tha………
Maine uss ladke par gaur kiya………..woh
lagbhag meri hi umar ka tha…….mere jaisa
hi kad aur shareer………….ek chheez jo use
aam kashmiriyon se alag karti thi , woh tha
uska clean-shaved chehra …………maine gaur
kiya ki uski naak bhi kuchh baithi huyee
thi…………kisi professional boxer ki
tarah……………….
Hina waapas aayi……………..uske haath mein
kuchh paise they………..jo usne uss ladke ko
diye……….ladke ne paise apni jeb mein
rakhe……….fir usne Hina ke kaan ke paas
mooh le jaakar kuchh kaha…..sunkar woh
dheere se muskurayee aur fir apna sar haan
mein hila diya……..Ladke ne motorcycle ko
start kiya………..waapas moda aur fir wahan
se chala gaya……………..main usse tab tak
dekhta raha jab tak woh aankhon se ojhal
nahi ho gaya…………fir main aad se nikal
kart abele ke darwaaze par aa
gaya……………Hina ne ek baar mujhe
dekha……….khaamosh nigahon se aur fir
mudkar ghar ke andar chali gayi………..
Raat tak aur aur kuchh khaas baat nahi
huyee…………..main kamre ke andar –baahar
tehalta raha …… aur bore hota
raha……………dono behne apne ghar ke
andar hi rahi aur main tabele mein…………

Raat ke kareeb 8.30 baje Shaazia khana lekar

aayi aur chup-chap plate rakh kar chali
gayee…………….maine bhi uss se baat karne
ki koi koshish nahi kee………..main chahta
tha ki ab next movement us ki taraf se hona
chahiye………….
Khana khaane ke baad main thodi der tabele
ke andar tehalta raha aur fir aakar apne
bistar par aa-kar let gaya……………
Kareeb ek ghante baad aahat
huyee…………….yeh Hina thi………..usne
darwaaze par knock kiya aur fir kamre ke
andar aa gayi………uske haath mein uska
first aid box tha………….main usko dekhkar
baith gaya aur ek smile ke saath usko
welcome kiya…………

“Laao , tumhaari chot par patti kar

doon ……………keh kar woh bistar ke paas hi
bath gayi…………….maine apne paanv ko
aage badha diya……..aur uske saamne kuchh
ooncha kar ke rakh diya…………

Ek cheez jo maine gaur se dekhi , woh tha

uss ka pehnava……………iss samay uss ne
apni dress change kar di thi…………woh ek
lamba sa gown type ka labada pehne huye
thi aur oopar se shawl daala hua tha…….
Shawl sirf uske kandho ko dhake hue tha aur
saamne se khula hua tha…………..uske gown
ke saamne waale hisse par batan lage huye
the …………jo iss samay lagbhag saare ke
saare khule huye the……………..

Mere pair ko haath mein pakadne ke baad

who fir thoda aage ko sarak gayi aur fir mere
paanv par jhuk gayee………….ab jo nazaara
mere saamne tha who kisi bhi aadmi ka
imaan kharaab kar sakta tha…………uske
jhukte hi seene par se dono palle thoda aur
khul gaye, aur jo gap ban raha tha woh aur
bada ho gaya……….
Ab uski dono golaayian poori tarah meri
aankhon ke saamne thee , jaisa mera
anumaan tha usse kuchh badi hi thi aur
nipple bhi aam ladkiyon se thode se bade hi
dikhaayi pad rahe the………….meri rago
mein khoon ka daura achaanak badh gaya
aur apne aap par kabu paana mano
asambhav sa ho raha tha………….pata nahi
woh apni haalat se anjaan thi ya yeh sab woh
mujhe jaan boojh kar dikha rahi thi……….par
iss samay woh inn sab baaton se anjaan bani
huyee mere pair par dressing kar rahi thi

“ Kya soch rahe ho ? “ usne dressing karte-

karte hi poochha, uski nazar abhi bhi neeche
hi thi

“ Kuchh nahi …………..tumhaare bare mein hi

soch raha tha “
Ussne oopar meri taraf dekha, uski aankhon
mein ek sawaal tha ….

“ aaj din mein shaazia se baat huyee

thi…………usne bata tumhaare bare mein “

“ kya kya bata diya usne aapko ? “ usne

neeche ki taraf hi dekhte huye kaha, uske
haath abhi bhi dressing mein busy they..

“ Sab kuchh………..tumhaare maa-baap ……

tumhaare bhai aur tumhaare shauhar ke bare
mein bhi …………bahut afsos hua sunkar
“ main uski taraf hi dekhta hua bola…….
Usne ek baar meri taraf dekha………feeki si
muskurahat ke saath………..fir sar jhuka kar
apne kaam mein lag gayi…………
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#19
“ Kya koi tareeka nahi hai jis se tum yahan se
nikal sako ?…………….shaayad kisi bade
shehar mein tum ek achchhi jindagi ji sako .”
maine aage kaha

“ shaayad tum sahi keh rahe ho “ woh meri

taraf dekh kar boli……dressing ab complete
ho chuki thi…….fir woh thoda peeche hokar
deewar se take laga kar baith gayee……..
“ par kisi doosre shehar mein jaakar hum roti
kaise khaayenge…………., yahan to humaare
seb ke baagh bhi hain jinse humaara gujar-
basar ho jata hai.. , aur yeh Hindustan nahi
hai jahan hum auraton ko har tarah ki aazadi
mil sake , yahan to akeli aurat ke liye jindagi
bahut hi mushkil hoti hai “

“ Agar main tumhaari koi madad kar

sakoon ? “ main uski aankhon mein dekhta
hua bola…..

“ Pehle tum apne nikalne ka intezam to kar

lo…” woh ek halki si hansi ke saath boli “ aur
tumhaare liye ek achchhi khabar hai “

“Kya ?”
“ Woh log tumhe dhoondh jaroor rahe hai
par unko sahi-sahi maloom nahi hai ki tum
kaun ho aur kaise dikhte ho….unko sirf yeh
maloom hai ki koi plane yahan gira hai, usme
kitne log they…yeh unko bhee nahi
maloom….tumne apna parachute wahan
nadee ke paar chhod diya tha ….bas wahi ek
cheez hai jis se unko maloom pada tha ki koi
jinda aadmi abhi aas-paas chhipa hua hai
“ woh meri taraf dekh kar bolti jaa rahi thi

“ Par tumko yeh sab baatein kaise

maloom ?” maine achraj se usko dekhte huye
kaha

“ Hasan ne bataya ………….Hasan wahi tha jo

abhi mujhe chhodne yahan aaya
tha………..woh mere baagh ki dekh-bhaal
karta hai……uska ek bhai pakistani fauz ke
daftar mein kaam karta hai, uss se hi use yeh
saari baat maloom padi …………woh mujhe
samjha raha tha ki koi ajnabee yaha aas-paas
chhipa hua hai , aur main apna dhyaan
rakhoon “ aakhiri baat usne hanste huye
kahi………….

Fir woh khadi ho gayi aur boli “ tumhaara

ghaav ab kaafi theek ho gaya hai………tun
chaaho to ab kahin bhi jaa sakte ho ….”

“ Mujhe lagta hai main yahan jyada mehfooz

hoon ……….baaki jaisa tum kaho , chaho to
main abhi chala jaata hoon “

“ Nahi mera yeh matlab nahi tha ……….par

tumhe apne jaane ka bhi to intezam karna
hai……..” woh meri aankhon mein dekhti
huyee boli , ek ajeeb sa ehsaas uski aankhon
mein dikhaayi pad raha tha…..

Fir woh kamre se baahar nikal

gayee…………..main waapas aakar apne
bistar par let gaya………….5 minute hi beete
honge ki fir aahat huyee………iss baar
Shaazia thi………..uske haath mein ek gilaas
tha……….usne meri ore gilaas badaya aur
boli “ isko pee lijiye, dawaai hai………….baaji
ne bheji hai , kaha hai ki aapka ghaav jaldi
theek ho jaayega “

Maine uske haath se gilaas le liya, kaale se

rang ka koi liquid tha gilaas
mein ………..main ek ghoonth
bhara…………..ufff, bada hi karwa
tha ……….fir maine naak band ki , gilaas ko
mooh se lagaya aur ek hi saans mein khaali
kar diya………meri iss harkat se Shaazia ki
hansi chhoot gayi………………..

“Kya hua ? kyon hans rahi ho ?”

“ kuchh nahi , bilkul bachcho ki tarah dawaai

pee rahe they , isliye …….” woh hanste huye
boli…

“ kitni karwi hai dawaai……..tum pee kar

dekho “ main mooh banata hua bola

“ Main kyun peeoon………jo beemaar ho,

wahi peeyega na “ keh kar usne mere haath
se gilaas liya aur boli “ main chalti hoon “
jaise hi woh baahar nikalne ko
huyee…………..ruk gayi, fir palat ke mere
paas aayee…………jhuk kar mere gaalo par
apne honth lagaye ……………ek halka sa
chumban …………, fir peeche ko hat
gayi…………..chahre par ek pyari si smile
thi………..aur fir palat kar baahar nikal
gayee………………

main thodi der apne gaal par uss jagah haath

ferta raha jahan usne kiss kiya
tha……………fir bistar par let gaya aur neend
ke aagosh mein chala gaya
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#20
Subah kareeb 7.15 baje kea aas-paas meri
aankh khuli…………..baahar tabele mein se
jaanwaron ki aawajen aa rahi
thi…………..main ek-do minute aise hi leta
raha aur fir uth kar baahar aa
gaya………….baahar Hina maujood
thi…………woh jaanwaron ko kahin se lekar
aayi thi aur ab ek-ek kar ke baandh rahi thi

Meri aahat sunkar usne meri taraf dekha aur

musurayi…………” Kaisa hai tumhara dard
ab ? “ woh apna kaam karte hue boli……….

“ Bahut behtar ……………..mujhe lagta hai

aapke haathon mein jadoo hai “ maine
jawaab diya
“ Jadoo mere haathon mein nahi , dawaayi
mein tha “ woh mere paas aakar shokhi se
boli fir baahar nikal gayi

Main bhi tabele se baahar aaya………….aaj

mausam poori tarah khula hua
tha………..baahar kadak dhoop
thi……….main kuchh palo ke liye dhoop ka
maza leta raha aur fir tabele ke daayen taraf
(right) chal diya………….uss taraf kuchh
bade-bade patthar pade huye
the………..jinme se ek par jaakar main bath
gaya…………yahan se mujhe tabele ke
peechhe ka poora maidan dikhayi pad raha
tha ………….aaj yeh jagah khaali nahi thi
balki kuchh jaanwar wahan tahal rahe the
aur 2-4 aadmi bhi mujhe dikhayi
pade…………..
Tab tak Hina bhi wahan par aa gayi thi aur
mere paas waale ek patthar par baith gayi
thi…………woh shaayad mere man ki baat
samajh chuki thi ……..” mausam khula ho to
gaanv waale apne jaanwaro ko lekr yahan aa
jaate hain………..yahan unko ghaas bhi mil
jaati hai aur thoda aage jaane par nadee bhi
mil jaati hai “ woh maidaan ki taraf dekhte
huye hi boli……..

Maine uski taraf dekha……….uske chehre par

paseene ki boonde dikhayi de rahi
thi ……mausam bahut jyada garam nahi tha
par shaayad woh kafi der se kaam mein lagi
huyee thi………
Mujhe apni taraf dekhta paakar usne kuchh
palo ke liye meri nazron se nazrein milaayi fir
apni aankhon ko khud hi jhuka liya……..ek
dheemi si muskurahat uske honthon par
thi…….

“ Abhi mausam khula hua hai aur saare

gaanv waale gharo se baahr
honge………..abhi tum baahar mat
nikalna…………….aur agar nahaana ho to
ghar ke andar jaakar hi naha lena………..
shaam tak agar mausam kuchh badlaa to
main tumhe gaanv tak ghuma kar le
aaoongi ………….wahan se tum apne nikalne
ka koi tareeka talash kar sakte ho “ woh bolti
jaa rahi thi aur beech beech mein meri taraf
bhi dekh rahi thi……………fir achanak chup
huyee aur fir boli “ kya hua , aise kya dekh
rahe ho ? “

“ Kuchh nahi , soch raha hoon ki aap log

kyon mujh anjaane aadmi ke liye apni jaan
jokhim mein daal rahe ho ?” main uske
chehre par hi dekhta hua bola…..

Woh kuchh nahi boli ………fir se saamne

maidaan ki taraf dekhne lagi…….

“ Waise ek baat to maine abhi taka apse

poochi hi nahi…………yeh jagar kaun si hain
jahan par hum log abhi hain……….mera
matlab hai iss gaanv ka naam ? “ maine fir se
uski taraf dekh kar poocha

“ Abbaspur hai iss gaanv ka

naam ……………….Hidustan ki sarhad yahan
se kareeb 10 mile door hai …………par agar
sadak se jaaoge to kaafi ghoom kar jaana
padega………..takreeban 40 kilometer door
padega border yahan se………” meri baat
samajh kar usne maano detail mein hi sab
kuchh samjha diya “ border ke paar aap
Poonch tak pahunch jaayenge “

“ iska matlab hai yahan se nikalana ho to sirf

sadak se hi nakla jaa sakta hai ? “ maine
poochha
“ Ji haan , waise to jungle se hokar bhi jaa
sakte ho par wahan fauz ka pehra rahta hai
aur fir junglee jaanvar bhi hain “

“ Aur sadak ke raaste se jaane par border par

pakda jaaoonga …” maine hanste hue kaha
“ Woh to hai ………….bina bhesh badle to
aapka nikalana naa-mumkin hai “ who bhi
hanste huye boli ….” main dekhti hoon agar
kuchh intezam ho saka to “ kehti huyee woh
uth kadi huyee aur fir ghar ke andar chali
gayi …

main kuchh der wahin par baitha raha aur fir

uth kar waapas apne kamre mein aa gaya
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#21
Kaafi der tak main kamre mein aakar leta
raha…………kyonki Hina ne baahr nikalne ko
mana kiya tha , main ek do baar baahar
tabele tak uth kar gaya aur thoda sa tahal
kar fir waapas apne mein kamre mein aa
jaata tha…………….

10.30 baje ke aas paas Motor cycle ki awaaz

aayi aur maine kamre ki deewar mein bane
surakhon mein se jhaank kar
dekha……………Hasan aaya tha…………usne
ghar ke saamne motorcycle roki aur fir ghar
ke andar chala gaya……………..kareeb 10
minute baad woh fir se baahar nikla aur uske
saath Hina bhi…………….woh dono motor
cycle par baith kar wahan se chale
gaye…………………
Kareeb 15 minute baad fir se baahar tabele
mein aahat huyee…………main uth kar
baahar aaya………..yeh Shaazia
thi……………ek baalti lekar aayi thi aur gaay
(Cows) ka dhoodh nikaal rahi
thi……………main wahin kamre ke darwaaze
par khada hokar usko dekhne laga…………..
maine usko bataane ke liye ki main wahin
par hoon , apne gale ko khankar kar saaf
kiya…………usne mud kar mujhe dekha aur
fir muskurayi…………..” Nahaane ki ichchha
hai kya aapki “ usne muskurate huye hi
kaha….

“ Ji haan…………bilkul…………agar aapki
izaazat ho to “
“ to aap ghar ke andar jaakar naha sakte
hai……………baaji ne keh diya tha ki baahar
nadi par jaakar nahana aapke liye sahi nahi
hai…koi bhi dekh sakta hai “ keh kar who
uth khari huyee , uska kaam shaayad nipat
chukka tha “ aaiye , main aapke nahane ka
intezaam kar doon “ who fir muskurati
huyee boli .

uske peechhe peechhe main ghar ke andar

chala aaye…

jaisa ki maine pehle bata tha ki who ek

purana bana huaa ghar tha………..ghar ke
sabse aage waale hisse mein rasoi (kitchen )
aur left side mein ek room tha ( jahan par
pehle din in logo ne meri dressing ki thi)
unke beech se ek gallery jaati thi , fir dono
side ek-ek kamra aur tha…………aur fir ek
bada sa veranda ………………aur ghar ke
bilkul last mein bathroom-toilet bana hua
tha

……………….woh mujhe lekar bathroom tak

aagayi aur fir wapas kamre ke andar chali
gayi ………..kuchh hi seconds baad woh fir
lauti aur uske haath mein ek pant
thi ……………..
“Naha kar yeh badal lena…………main abhi
shirt bhi de deti hoon “ woh apni sada-bahar
smile ke saath boli ……….
Maine gaur kiya ki aaj uski dress kuchh
different thi …………….usne ek mardana
Shirt-pant pehni huyee thi …………….dono
kapde uske liye kuchh bade the…………par
uske shareer ki maadakta ko aur bada rahe
the……

“ dekhte hi rahoge ya jaakar nahaaoge

bhi…………..baaji aa gayi to fir dekh bhi nahi
paaoge “ woh hanste hue boli aur mujhe
lagbhag dhakelte hue bathroom ke andar
kar diya………….

Maine kapde nikaale aur fir nahaane mein

lag gaya ………………..
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 #22
Naha kar main Shaazia ki di huyee pant
pehan li aur bathroom se baahar aa
gaya…baahar ka jo nazaara meri aankhon ke
saamne tha who kisi ke bhi hosh udaane ke
liye kaafi tha….

Veranda ke ek side mein Shaazia jameen par

baithi huyee thi aur kisi kaagaz par painting
kar rahi thi………..jo baat sabse important thi
who yeh ki iss samay usne apni shirt ke
oopar ke 2 buttons khole huye the aur poori
tarah aage ko jhuki huyee thi……..gora rang
hone ke kaaran door se bhi who dilkash
nazaara mujhe dikhayee de raha tha ……..
uski dono golaaiyan aur unke beech ki gehri
ghaati , apne poore shabaab ke saath mere
saamne thi ……….
Main dheere –dheere chalte hua uske paas
pahuncha , maano yeh dekh raha hoon ki
who kya paining kar rahi hai …par sahi
maayno mein meri nigaah uski shirt ke gale
ke aur andar tak jaane ka raasta khoj rahi
thi……….

meri aahat sunkar usne ek baar oopar dekha

aur fir apna sar jhuka kar kaam karne
lagi ….” Kya hua ? kya dekh rahe ho “ woh
apna kaam karte huye, dilkar andaaz mein
muskurate huye boli…………..

“ tumhe hi dekh raha hoon ……… “ maine

shararat bhare lehje mein kaha
Usne oopar meri taraf dekha jaise meri baat
uski samajh mein naa aayi ho

“ Iss ghar mein , iss samay aur koi cheej hai

jo dekhne laayak ho “ main neeche jhuk kar ,
uski aankhon mein aankhen daal kar
bola……..

meri baat samajh kar who sharma gayi aur

fir sar neeche kar liya………….meri nigaah
abhi bhi uski shirt ke gale par atki huyee
thi……….jo nazara mujhe dikhaye de raha
tha …uss se jyada dekhne ki tamaanna ho
rahi thi ……….

“ Lagta hai yeh dono behne milkar mera

imaan kharaab kar ke hi chhodengi……..
“ maine apne aap se kaha aur fir uske
peechhe jaakar khada ho gaya……
Jo painting who kar rahi thi woh badi
romantic si thi…………ek ladka jameen par
leta hua tha aur ek ladki uske pehlu mein ,
uske seene par sar rakhe huye leti huyee
thi……ladke ke haatho mein ladki ke dono
haath the, dono ek doosre ko dekh rahe the
aur unke honth aapas mein lagbhag mile
huye the…………

“ Wow………….” Painting dekh kar mere

mooh se nikal gaya

“ Kuchh khayenge aap…………….. ?“ who

painting karte huye hi boli ..
“ Nahi …abhi bahi, par paani jaroor
peeyunga……… bahut pyas lagi hai “ maine
Pyas shabd par jor dete huye kaha ………..
usne apna samaan samet kar ek stool par
rakh diya , kitchen mein gayi aur paani ka ek
gilaas le aayi “ leejiye ………………apni pyas
bujha lijiye “ who shokhi ke saath boli

maine uske haath se paani le liya aur peene

laga ……………paani peekar gilaas mein usko
waapas kar diya…..
“ main aapko abhi koi shirt pehanne ke liye
deti hoon ………” keh kar who left side waale
pehle kamre mein ghuss gayi …………
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#23
maine gaur kiya ki ghar ki khidkiyon ke
lagbhag saare sheeshe toot chuke the aur
unki jagah lakdi ke fatte ( boards) lage huye
the………….har khidki par 2 ya 3 sheeshe hi
salaamat they……….Sirf veranda ke dono
taraf jo badi khidkiyan thi , uske sabhi
sheeshe sahi-salamat they………..

main uske peeche peeche kamre ke andar

pahunch gaya………….woh saamne palang
par ek sandook (box) khole khadi thi aur
jhuk kar kuchh dhoondh rahi thi , uski peeth
meri taraf thi………….main peeche se gaya
aur jaakar dono haath uski kamar par dono
taraf rakh diye…………..

uske haath achanak ruk gaye……..par abhi

tak woh peechhe nahi palti thi ……….main
bilkul uske shareer se chipat gaya aur fir
uske kandhe ke oopar se apna gaal uske gaal
se laga diya……………

“ kya hai……….” Who dheemi si awaaz mein

boli

“ Kuchh nahi ……………jo kal raat tumne

mujhe diya tha , woh lautane aaya hoon
“ keh kar main ek halka sa kiss uske gaal par
kar diya………..
Woh palat gayi aur fir meri aankhon mein
dekhne lagi ……….main bhi lagataar uski
aankhon mein hi dekh raha tha………mano
koi shart lagi huyee ho ki kaun pehle nazrein
hataayega
Kuchh palo ke baad usne hi nazrein
hataayi……….aur fir dono haath faila kar
mere seene se aakar lag gayi ………….dono
haathon ko usne meri path par kas liya
tha…..maine bhi usko apne seene mein mano
chhipa sa liya tha

Agle kuchh seconds tak hum dono aise hi ek

doosre ko baahon mein bhare khade
rahe………….fir usne mere seene mein se
apna sar hataya, mere ek gaal par apne
haath ko firaya aur fir thoda sa uchak kar ek
halka sa kiss kar diya…………….

yeh mere liye mano Green signal

tha ……………maine uske chehre ko apne
dono haathon mein samet liye ………..aur fir
uske chehre par chumbano ki mano baarish
si kar di ……………..gaalon par , maathe par
aur uske baad hontho par ……………. Kuchh
der tak choomne ke baad main uske
hoonthon ke dono taraf apne angootho se
halka sa dabaya aur uske honth jo aapas
mein chipke huye the, alag alag ho
gaye………..maine neeche wale honth ko
apne hontho mein dabaya aur dheeme
dheeme choosna shuru kar diya……
ek minute baad hi uske haathon ne mere sar
ko peeche se pakad liya aur apni taraf
dabaane lagi………….iss saaree khel mein ab
usko bhi maza aa raha tha………….maine 2
seconds ke liye apne honth hataaye aur fir
dobaara aage beda diya…..iss baar usne apne
hontho ko kholkar jaise mujhe khud hi nyota
de diya…………….ab hum dono ke honth
aapas mein jude huye the……..mere dono
haath uski peeth par oopar se neeche tak ja
rahe the aur usne dono haathon ko meri
bagal se nikaal kar mujhe peeth par se jakda
hua tha ………………..

Agle kareeb 5 minute tak hum aise hi ek

doosre ke honthon ka ras chooste
rahe …………..uski har ek harkat mein ek
baichaini aur anaripan sa tha…….mere liye
haalanki yeh koi pehla mauka nahi tha , par
main bhi usko pane ke liye maano mara jaa
raha tha
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#24
Mere honth ab uske kaan par aa gaye
the…………wahan se ek chumbano ki line
banata hua main uski gardan tak
aaya………..wahan kuchh der ruka………aur
fir uske neeche ki aur badhne
laga ……………………mere honth uski patli si
gardan se hote huye neech uski dono
golaiyon ke beech mein pahunh gaye aur
jahan tak uski shirt khuli huyee thi , wahan
tak kuchh der main aise hi chumbano ki
jhadi si lagata raha……..
Main thodi der ke liye uss se alag
hua……….uski saanse ab bahut tezi se chal
rahi thi , seena har saans ke saath oopar-
neeche ho raha tha…………main fir aage
badha , aur dono baajuon par se usko pakad
liya…….maine usko pakde-pakde ghuma
diya , aur khud palang par baith
gaya……………ab hum dono ki directions
change ho chuki thi ……….main palang par
baitha hua tha aur woh mere saamne khadi
huyee thi ……………kuchh seconds woh
mujhe dekhti rahi aur fir aage badh kar mere
gale se lag gayi……..
Kuchh hi seconds baad maine use kandho se
pakad kar peechhe kiya……..iss position
mein ab mera chehra uske seene ke bilkul
saamne tha……….maine ek baar uski gardan
aur seene ke khule huye hisse par haath
fera……….fir apni ungliyon ko uski shirt ka
button kholne ke kaam par laga diya………..
usne mere haathon par haath rakh kar mujhe
rokne ki koshish ki par maine uske haath ko
apne haath se pakad kar alag kar diya………..

do button aur khulte hi ab mujhe uski naabhi

tak najar aane lagi thi …………….maine shirt
ke dono pallo ke beech mein haath raka aur
dono pallo ko alag alag direction mein hata
diya…………….ab uski choochiyan meri
aankhon ke saamne bilkul be-parda
thi……………….maine uske chehre ki taraf
dekha ………..usne apni aankhen band kar
rakhi thi aur mere kandho par dono haath
tikaaye meri agli harkat ka intezaar kar rahi
thi ……….maine uski ek choochi par dheere
se haath firaya ….uske saare shareer mein
mujhe ek kampan sa mehsoos hua ……….fir
do baar baari baari se dono choochiyon par
haath firaane ke baad maine ek par halka sa
kiss kar diya ………yeh kiss nipple se door
kiya gaya tha ……….uske mooh se Ahhhhh ki
awaaz nikal gayi……………….
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#25
Fir maine uski left choochi ko apne right
hand mein pakda aur right waali par kiss
karne shuru kar diye……….mein yeh saare
kiss ek daayre mein kar raha tha aur woh
daayra har baar chhota hota jaa raha
tha…………fir akhir mein mera muh uske
nipple tak pahunch gaya…………

maine pahle ek baar halka sa kiss uske nipple

ke tip par kiya ……………..uske honthon se ek
“ seeee……..” ki awaaz nikali aur fir maine
muh kholkar uss nipple ko muh mein bhar
liya……………” uske dono haath ab mere
baalo mein ghoom rahe the…………..main
kisi bhooke bachhe ki tarah uski choochiyon
par maano toot sa pada …………………pehle
ek ko , fir doosri ko aur fir baari-baari dono
ko choosne laga ………….shuru mein main
sirf nipples ko hi muh mein daal kar choos
raha tha , fir maine apna muh poora khol
diya aur kas-kas kar choosna shuru kar diya ,
jaise aam ka ras choos kar nikaal raha
hoon……………who ab dono haathon se
mujhe apni taraf kheench rahi thi………

Iss beech hum don one ek doosre se kuchh

bhi nahi kaha tha ………….maine apne dono
haath peeche se uski shirt mein ghusa diye
the aur uski nangi peeth par haath fer raha
tha ……………..uski choochiyon ko chooste
huye mere haath ab uske nitambo par aa
gaye the ……….. aur main eek haath ko
peeche se uski pant mein daalne ki koshish
ki……………

Mere haath daalte hi mano who hosh mein

aa gayi ho………….woh turant hi peeche ko
hat gayi…………mera haath pant se baahar
aa gaya aur nipple mere mooh se nikal
gaya ………….

“ Ab aur nahi ………………………Baaji aane hi

waali hongi “ who ukhdi huyee sanso ke
saath boli ……………….
Meri haalat aisi thi jaise bachhe ke haath se
uska priya khilona chheen liya gaya
ho……………par main uski haalat bhi samajh
raha tha………who bhi yeh khel aage khelne
chah rahi thi par dar bhi tha Hina ke aa jaane
ka …

Main aage bada …………..uske chehre ko

thaam kar ek kiss uske hontho par kar diya
aur fir uss ko chhod diya…………..

Usne kucch seconds ke liye meri aankhon

mein dekha ……………fir peeche ko mudi aur
box mein se ek shirt nikaal kar meri taraf
bada di……….maine uske haath se shirt li aur
dheere-dheere pahan li ………….mere shirt
pehante hi who fir tezi se aage aayi aur mere
gale se lipat gayi………..maine bhi usko kas
ke apni baahon mein daboch
liya…………………kuch der tak hum dono aise
hi lipte rahe…………fir maine use alag
kiya …………….peeche muda…….aur ghar se
baahar ki taraf chal diya
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#26

Main waapas aakar kamre mein baith

gaya…………….jo kuchh abhi hua uske baad
apne par kaboo karma bahut mushkil kaam
tha par mere liye iss se jyada important tha
jald se jald apne watan waapas lautna aur
usme Hina meri help kar sakti thi ………main
nahi chaahta tha ki kisi bhi wajah se woh
mujhse naraaz ho …………
Shaazia ka dar sahi saabit hua………..10
minute ke baad hi Hina waapas aa gayi
thi ………………. Main agle 2 ghante tak
wahin kamre mein akele hi baitha
raha…………Hina aakar mera khana wahin de
gayi thi aur humaare beech koi khaas baat
nahi huyee…………..

Dopahar mein kareem 3 baje ke ass-paas

mein fir se baahar nikla…………..dekha,
Shaazia ghar se baahar nikal rahi
thi ………..apni traditional dress mein ….sar
par scarf tha aur haathon mein ek
chatri ….woh baahar nikli aur fir seedhi
gaanv ki taraf chali gayi…main usko peechhe
se tab tak dekhta raha jab tak woh dikhayi
deti rahi…….fir main waapas kamre mein
aakar baith gaya…………
Kareeb 15 minute baad hi mujhe motorcycle
ki awaaz aayi……….maine fir jhaank kar
dekha………….Hasan aaya tha…………..usne
darwaaze par nock kiya……ek minute baad
hi Hina baahar aayi ……………dono kuchh
der tak wahin par khade baatein karte
rahe ………….fir ghar ke andar chale
gaye……..jiss ek chhez par maine bahut gaur
se dhyaan diya woh tha Hasan ka
haath ………….andar jaate samay usne apna
haath Hina ki kamar par rakha hua tha aur
andar dakhil hote-hote woh uski gaand
(hips) par aa gaya tha………….yeh ek unusual
baat thi jisne mujhe hairaan kar diya tha……

Main jaan-ne ko baichein ho utha ki andar

kya ho raha hai…………ek minute baad ho
main bhi uth kar baahar aa gaya…………ab
baahar ka mausam bigadne laga
tha………..baadal chhaa gaye the aur andhera
sa hone laga tha…….

Main tezi ke saath , par dabe paanv ghar ke

right side main pahunch gaya …………..pehle
kamre mein maine jhank kar dekha …wahan
koi nahi tha ….doosra kamra bhi khaali
tha………….uske baad veranda tha aur bath
room ………fir poora chakkar laga kar main
ghar ke left side mein aa gaya ………..main
deewar se bilkul sat kar aur sar ko jhukaate
huye chal raha tha………jisse ki agar koi
anadar se dekhe to mujhe na dekh paaye ,
aur andar jhhankne ke liye bhi main window
par lage boards mein bane holes ko use kar
raha tha………….
left side mein bane kamre ki window
lagbhag poori tarah board se covered thi,
keval do sheeshe oopar ke hi sahi salaamat
they……….maine neeche lage board ko
dekha………..wahan 2-3 chhote chhote holes
dikhaayi pade ……main unme se ek par apni
aankh laga di aur andar ka nazaara dekhne
laga……………

Andar ka scene meri ummeed ke hi anusaar

tha……………….Hina palang par leti huyee
thi , aur Hasan uske paas hi baitha hua
tha…………Hina ki dress (kurte) ke buttons
khule huye the aur usme se ek choochi
baahar nikali huyee thi jiss ko iss samay
Hasan choos raha tha……… uska andaaj
bilkul chhote bachche jaisa tha jisko bahut
der ke baad doodh mila ho ………usne
choochi ko apne haath main pakra hua tha
aur buri tarah se choosne mein laga hua
tha………….woh bina saans liye apne kaam
mein juta hua tha issliye uski naak se awaaz
nikal rahi thi…………………..

Ab Hasan ne Hina ki doosri choochi ko bhi

baahar nikaal liya tha aur fir baari-baari se
dono par toot pada…………..Hina ka haath
uss ke baalo mein ghoom raha
tha…………….Uska chehra iss samay doosri
taraf tha issliye mujhe nazar nahi aa raha tha
par uss ke muh se bhi halki halki siskaariyan
nikal rahi thi…………………

kareeb 10 minute Hasan chusaayi mein laga

raha………….fir woh tezi ke saath
utha……….aur Hina ka kurta utha kar uski
kamar se oopar kar diya…….usne Hina ki
salwaar ka nada khola aur fir ek hi jhatke
mein usko uske pairo se alag kar
diya………….ab Hina neeche se poori tarah
nangi palang par leti huyee
thi……………….ussne apne aap ko thoda sa
adjust kiya aur seedhi hokar let
gayi………..ab uska chehra chhat ki taraf
tha………….uske chahre par uttezna ke bhaav
saaf dikhayi pad rahe the…
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#27
Hasan palang se uth kar khara hua aur apni
pant nikaal di…………aur fir underwear
bhi ……………….uss ko dekhkar ek baar to
meri hansi si chhootne ko huyee jise maine
ba-mushkil kaboo mein kiya…………… wajah
thi uska shareer…………….Jaise ki maine
pehle bataya tha Hasan ek lamba –chauda
aadmi tha…………….jitna bada uska shareer
tha uske anupaat mein uska hathiyar (lund)
kuchh bhi nahi tha…………poori taraf khade
hone ke baad bhi mushkil se 4-4.5 inch hi
hoga…………………

Underwear uttarne ke baad usne ek baar

Hina ki taraf dekha………..uski nigaah bhi
Hasan ke lund par hi thi …………Hasan ne
apne hathiyaar ko haath mein lekar jaise ek
baar check kiya fir haath mein pakde-pakde
hi palang par chadh gaya………….
Hina ne apni tango ko poora khol diya aur
sar ko thoda sa oopar utha liya………..uski
aankhon mein ek chamak si nazar aa rahi
thi ………..baar baar apne honthon ko jeebh
se tar karne ki koshish kar rahi thi …………..
maine gaur kiya ki uski tango ke beeck ka
hissa , uski choot, bilkul clean shaved thi

Hasan uski tango ke beech mein aakar baith

gaya………….usne ek takiya Hina ki gaand ke
neeche laga diya………….fir apne ghutno par
ho gaya……………lund ko Hina ki choot par
lagaya aur fir uske oopar jhukta chala
gaya…………….usne Hina ki ek choochi ko
muh mein bhar liya aur ek jor ka jhatka apni
kamar ko diya……
“ Ahhhhh………….” Ek halki si siskaari Hina
ke muh se nikli , Lund poora uski choot mein
sama chuka tha…………..

Hina ne apne dono haath Hasan ki gaand par

jama diya aur usko apni taraf kheenchne
lagi……………..Hasan ne bhi jaldi jaldi dhakke
lagane shuru kar diye…..uski harkato se saaf
maloom pad raha tha ki woh iss khel mein
bilkul anari tha…………………

Aur fir wahi hua jiska mujhe andesha

tha……………..15-20 dhakke lagan eke baad
hi hasan fir se apne ghutno par baith
gaya………usne Hina ki ek taang ko seedha
kiya aur apne kandhe par rakh liya………….fir
usne Hina ki gaand ke neeche haath laga kar
usko thoda sa oppar kiya aur jor-jor se
dhakke lagaane laga……………….har dhakke
ke saath Hina ke muh se “ Ahhh , Ohhhhh ,
uyeee “ ki awwaz nikal rahi
thi………..achanak Hasan ke muh se bahut jor
ki awaaz nikli ………………usne turant hi apna
lund Hina ki choot se baahar kheencha aur
fir ek aur awaaz muh se nikaali aur uske lund
se paani chhoot gaya ..........................usne
saara paani Hina ke pet aur jaangho par hi
nikaal diya………….aur Hina ke oopar se hat
kar, uski bagal mein ulta hi ludak gaya…….

Hina ne uski taraf gardan ghuma kar

dekha …………………..Hina ke chehre ko dekh
kar saaf maloom pad raha tha ki uski pyas
kam hone ki bajaaye aur badh gayi
thi……………..woh kuchh seconds usko
dekhti rahi aur fir bistar se uth
gayi…………….Khade hokar usne apna kurta
bhi sar ke oopar se nikaal diya………..ab woh
bilkul nangi uss kamre mein , meri nazron ke
theek saamne khadi thi ……………………ek
baar usne fir Hasan ki taraf dekha jo iss
samay aankhen band kiye ulta leta hua
tha………..aur fir palat kar kamre se baahr
nikal gayi………..main bhi wahan se palta aur
lagbhag daudta hua apne kamre mein
waapas aa gaya.....
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#28

Main apne kamre mein waapas baitha hua

aaj saare din bhar mein huyee ghatnaao ke
bare mein soch raha tha ki ………..ek taraf
Shaazia thi , pyar ki talash mein ……….. uski
masoomiyat mein mujhe koi shaque nahi
tha………..doosri taraf Hina thi , uska ek roop
jo maine pehle dekha tha woh ek halaat ki
maari ladki ka tha…………jisne apna sab
kuchh kho diya tha aur fir bhi duniya ka ba-
khoobi saamna kar rahi thi………doosra roop
jo maine aaj dekha woh hawas ke maari ek
aurat ka tha………jisko apne jism ki pyas
bujhane ke liye ek adad mard ki jaroorat
hai…………..

Jo bhi kuchh aa subah se ho raha

tha …ya…jo bhi maine dekha……us-se mere
saare vajood par ek ajeeb uttezna si chhayi
huyee thi…….ek lava sa tha jo footne ko
tayyar tha……………
Kuchh hi der baad Hasan ghar se baahar
nikla, apni motorcycle start ki aur wahan se
chala gaya…………kareeb 15 minute baad hi
Shaazia bhi waapas aa gayi……….iska matlab
inn dono ko maloom tha ki Shaazia kab
waapas aane waali thi…………….mere liye
yeh sab bada interesting hota ja raha tha…..

Kareeb 4.30 baje ke aas-paas Hina mere paas

aayi…………..main leta hua aaram kar raha
tha…………uske aane ki aahat par main baith
gaya……..
“ Kaise haal hain aapke….? “ uske chehre par
wahi feeki si muskurahat thi…..

Maine bhi sirf muskurahat se hi usko jawaab

dene ki koshish ki ……….
“Maine aaj bahut der tak socha………..mujhe
lagta hai tumhe 2-3 alag aalg tareeko par
kaam karna padega ……….jis-se tum yahan
se jaldi se baahar nikal sako …………” who
mere saamne baithti huyee boli

“ Jaise ki ……? “

“ ek tareeka to nadi ke raaste sarhad ko paar

karne ka hai………..jisme kaafi khatra
hai ………..doosra tareeka hai ki tum kisi
gaadi mein chip kar sadak ke raaste sarhad
paar karne ki koshish karo ………..” woh
lagataar mere chehre ki taraf dekhte huye
boli…
“ aur iss mein bhi kaafi khatra hai ? “ main
hanste huye bola ..

“ Haan ……hai to ………..aur ek teesra raasta

bhi hai ……” who kuchh ruk kar boli

“ woh kya ??” maine utsukta se poochha….

“ Daikho …………..yahan se kaafi saari

gaadiyan , samaan lekar Hindustan jaati
hain ………..jaise ki Seb, meva (apples,
dryfruits) vagairah …………jo log un
gaadiyon mein jaate hain unko permit milta
hai aane aur jaane ka………main koshish karti
hoon ki tumhaare photo laga hua koi permit
mujhe mil sake …….fir main tumhaare liye
kisi gaadi ka intejam kar doongi………tumhe
driving to aati hai na ? “ woh mere chehre
par dekhte huye , muskurate huye boli

“ Madam , aap bhool rahi hain main plain

bhi uda sakta hoon , gaadi kya cheej
hai ………………waise aapko ummeed hai ki
aap permit ka arrangement kar
paayengi ……..?”

“ koshish karke dekhti

hoon ………………..shaayad Hasan meri kuchh
madad kar sake …… “ woh neeche ki taraf
dekhte huye boli

Hasan ka jikra aate hi meri aankhon ke

saamne do-pahar waala manzar aa
gaya………………….maine fir ke baar Hina ko
dekha………..iss baar kuchh juda andaaz
se………….uske kapdo ke neeche uske nange
jism ki kalpana karte hi mere jism ka saara
khoon fir ek disha mein daudne laga……….

“ Kya hua ? kya sochne lage ? “ woh meri

aankhon mein dekhti huyee boli

“ Kuchh nahi ………….soch raha hoon ki

aapko meri kitni parvaah hai…….iss anjaane
desh mein ek aap hi hain jo kuchh apni si
hain .” main bhi uski nazro se nazre milata
hua bola…………

kuchh seconds tak hum dono ek doosre ki

aankhon mein dekhte rahe ………fir ek dum
se woh uth kadi huyee ……aur boli “ ek
ghante baad main gaanv mein
jaaoongi …………tum bhi mere saath
chalna………dekhna agar tumhe koi aur
tareeka nazar aaye…yahan se baahar nikalne
ka “

keh kar usne ek baar fir meri aankhon mein

dekha……..aur tezi ke saath baahar nikal
gayi ……….meri nigaahon ne uska tab tak
peechha kiya jab tak woh apne ghar ke andar
nahi chali gayi
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#29
Theek 1 ghante baad hi Hina fir waapas aa
gayi…………….woh ek typical kashmiri dress
mein thi………lamba sa labada numa band
gale ka Kurta, salwaar , shawl aur sar par ek
scarf……………….

“ Ab hum dono gaanv mein challenge……….

Par humko kuchh baaton ka dhyan rakhna
padega “ woh mere paas aakar boli

“ Jaise ki ? “

“ Hum dono saath-saath nahi

jaayenge…….main aage aur tum kuchh
peechhe ……..agar koi dekhe to use yeh na
mehsoos ho ke hum dono saath mein hain …
theek hai ?” who meri aankhon mein dekhti
huyee mano mujhe samjha rahi thi

maine kisi chhote bachche ki tarah haan

mein sar hila diya……….

“ Ab main tumhe poora rasta samjha deti

hoon …….jis-se ki agar tumhe akele aana
pade to tum khud ghar tak waapas aa sako
“ keh kar who jameen par baith gayi aur
mitti mein ek dandi se naksha banane
lagi……….usne poore gaanv ka, apne baagan
ka aur highway ka naksha bana kar mujhe
samjha diya…………main 1-2 minute tak uss
nakshe ko dekhta raha ……….jab mujhe laga
ki ab saare raaste main samajh chukka hoon ,
main uth khada ho gaya…………
woh bhi khadi ho gayi …………ek baar meri
taraf dekha aur palat kar ghar ke andar chali
gayi………..1 minute baad hi woh fir waapas
aa gayi…….uske haath mein 2 chhate
(umbrella) they………..usne ek meri taraf
bhadha diya……….maine gaur kiya ki
mausam mein kuchh thandak badh gayi
thi………..shaayad fir se baarish hone waali
thee…………

usne ek chhate ko haath mein pakda aur fir

tezi ke saath gaanv ki taraf jaane waali
pagdandi par chal di………….aur main bhi
uss-se kareeb 100 meter ka distance rakhte
hue uske peechhe chal diya……………
jaise ki maine pehle bataya tha……ghar se
right side mein ek pagdandi gaanv ki taraf
jaati thi………..woh ek pahad ke saath –saath
chalti thee aur fir kareeb 150 meter aage
jaakar, pahad ke saath saath right side mein
ghoom jaati thi…………………

Uss pagdandi par aage chalkar kareeb 100

meter ke baad pehla ghar padta tha …..yani
Hina ke ghar se agla ghar kareeb 250 meter
door tha…….uske 50 meter baad se , koi har
15-20 meter ki distance par dono taraf 10-12
ghar bane hue they……. Uske baad ek aur
lamba space aur fir gaanv ka main chauraha
aa jaata tha …………yahan tal ki road kachchi
thi , uske baad chaurahe se 3 taraf pakki
roads jaati thi…………pakki matlab different
types ki ………….kahin par patthar se bani
huyee natural road aur kahin banayee
hue……………
Chaurahe se left side mein ek raasta gaya tha
jo ki Hina ke bataaye anusaar aage jaakar u
turns leta hua neeche utarata tha aur doosre
gaanv tak jaata tha , iss raaste par kuchh
shops bani huyee thia aur yahi iss gaanv ka
main bazaar bhi tha …………..right side waala
raasta aage jaakar band ho jaata tha , iss
raaste par kuchh makaan bane huye
the …………saamne waala raasta seedha aage
jaata tha , koi 500 meter aage jaakar ek road
left side mein oopar ko ghoom jaati thi aur
fir 3 baar U turn lekar seedhi chali jaati thi ,
yahi raasta aage jaakar highway se milta
tha……..
neeche waali road kareeb 300 aage jaakar
pahar par band ho jaati thi…………iske right
side mein ek pahari maidaan sa bana hua tha
aur wahan seb ke baag bane huye
they………..kareeb 5-6 alag alag baag they jo
lakdi ki baad se separate kiye gaye
they……….inme se hi ek baag Hina ka bhi
tha…………..
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#30
Iss sadak par wahan tak , jahan se ek road
oopar highway ki taraf jaati thi …main Hina
ke peechhe –peechhe hi aaya aur fir woh
apne baag ki taraf chali gayi aur main oopar
ke raaste par chal diya………..halke-halke
chalte hua main highway tak pahunch
gaya ………..
Yeh ek 2 lane road thi aur jaisa ki Hina ne
bataya tha ki yahi raasta Hindustan tak jaata
tha ………….main kareeb 15 minute tak
wahan khada raha aur koi 5-6 gaadiyan mere
saamne se nikli ………..mostly trucks they jo
samaan lekar jaa rahe they………….

Fir main waapas neeche ki taraf chal

diya…………..mere pair ki chot ab sahi thi aur
bahut halka sa dard
tha ………………….dheeme dheeme chalta
hua main wahan tak aa gaya jahan se ek
raasta baagh ki taraf jaata tha ……maine
kuchh der wahin ruk kar Hina ka wait karne
ka nirnay kiya ……..
Mausam achaanak kharaab hone laga
tha ………..aisa lag raha tha ki baarish kisi bhi
samay shuru ho jaayegi ……….maine ek baar
fir baagh ki taraf nigaah daali………..andhera
ho chukka tha par fir bhi mujhe saaf najar
aaya ki 2 saaye sadak se kuchh
hatkar ………..oopar ki taraf khade
they…………aasmaan mein bijli chamkne lag
thi aur beech beech mein poora ilaaka roshni
mein naha jaata tha …………..

ek baar fir se bijli chamki aur main uss taraf

hi dekha ………..iss baar mujhe bilkul saaf
dhikaayi pada …..unn 2 logo mein se ek Hina
thi aur doosra koi aadmi tha …………aadmi
ne Hina ka ek haath pakda hua tha aur Hina
uss se chhootne ki koshish kar rahi
thi …………….1-2 seconds tak maine kuchh
socha fir tezi ke saath uss taraf hi chal
diya……..unn tak pahunchte hue to main
lagbhag daudne hi laga tha……………..

Wahan ka scene bada hi ajeeb tha…………..ab

Hina jameen par giri padi thi…..aur who
aadmi uss ke oopar leta hua tha………usne
Hina ke kurte ke buttons shaayad tod daale
they aur uski ek chhati ko baahar nikaal kar
haath se daabane ki koshish kar raha
tha…………..usska doosra haath Hina ke pat
par kuchh dhoondh sa raha tha………….Hina
lagbhag chillate huye uss ki giraft se
chhootne ki koshish kar rahi
thi……………maine 2-3 seconds tak unn dono
ko dekha aur fir tezi ke saath uss aadmi ke
peechhe pahunch gaya …………maine uski
gardan mein apni ek baahn lapeti aur fir
poori takat se ussko kheencha …………….ek
hi jhatke mein woh Hina se alag hokar
jameen par pada hua tha…………………..

Girte hi uss ne mujhe ek baar dekha aur fir

kuchh bolta hua tezi ke saath uth khada
hua………..woh kareeb 40 ek saal ka aadmi
tha , kad mein mujh se bhi 2 inch lamba aur
bhaari shareer ……………………….usne ek
baar fie gusse se mujhe dekha aur kuchh
bola ……………uski language meri samajh se
baahar thi…………………..fir woh kuchh kehta
hua aage badha aur mujhe girebaan se
pakad liya…………………Hina jo abtak door
khadi thi , ek dum se aage badhi aur uss
aadmi se kuchh kaha………………………………
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#31
“ Yahan naya hai……………..” woh lagbhag
gurrata hua sa, tuti-futi hindi mein mujh se
bola………..

maine haan mein sar hila diya…….

“ Iss ladki ko jaanta hai ? “ woh mera

girebaan chod kar bola…………

maine fir haan mein sar hila diya….

“ Kaun hai yeh teri ……?” woh baari baari se
hum dono ko dekhta hua bola……ab tak
Hina mere peeche aakar khadi ho gayi
thi………..

“ mere rishtedaar hain yeh ……………..Murree

se Karachi se aaye hain “ meri jagah jawaab
Hina ne hi diya……………

“ achchaa !!............kya kaam karta hai

Karachi mein tu “ woh mera poora jaayja sa
leta hua bola ……………..

“ kapde ka kaarobaar hai

mera …………………par aap yeh sab kyon
pooch rahe ho “ mein uske chahre ko gaur se
dekhte hue bola …………..
“ Main yahan ki police chauki ka incharge
hoon…………mujhe shaque hai kit u sahi
aadm nahi hai…” woh mere chehre par nare
gadata hua bola …….. fir aage badh kar mere
dono haatho ko pakar kar oopar kiya aur
meri talaashi lene laga
“ aur aap jo kaam iss ladki ke saath kaar rahe
the woh sahi aadmi karte hai …………” maine
kaha jis par woh chup hi raha ……………..
talashi ke baad usne meri ek baaju pakdi aur
mujhe ek taraf ko kheenchta hua sa bola
“ chal , mere saath chauki chal …………main
tujhe batata hoon main kaisa aadmi hoon
“ keh kar woh dono haathon se mujhe pakar
kar kheenchne ki koshish karne
laga…………………
mujhe maloom tha ki ab mujhe kuchh na
kuchh karna hi padega warna meri pehchaan
khul sakti hai …………….

“ Aur agar na chaloon to ??” main jaan boojh

kar hansta hua sa bola ………….

“ Teri maa ki …………” usne gaali di aur apne

seedhe haath se mujh par hamla
kiya …………..main bhi tayyar tha aur maine
apne baayen (left) haath se uski kalaai pakad
li………………..fir main Hina se bola “ tum
ghar jaao , main abhi aata hoon “

Hina ne ek baar meri taraf dekha ………..uski

aankhon mein mere kiye ek fikra si
thi…………fir woh mudi aur tezi se waapas
chal di

Uss aadmi ne tab tak mere oopar doosra

hamal karne ki koshish ki …………iss baar
apni laat se , main thoda sa side mein hat kar
uske waar ko bacha gaya …………………….

Ab meri baari thi………….main usko koi

mauka den eke paksh mein nahi
tha ………main uski seedhi haath ki kalaai ko
thaame-thaame apna seedha haath uski
gardan par jama diya aur fir usko peeche ki
taraf dhakelne laga ….uska sirf shareer hi
bada tha …………..ek do kadam peeche ko
hat kar woh ek jhatke ke saath jameen par
gira gaya ……………….

Main tezi ke saath uss par

jhapta………………..main uske seene par baith
gaya ………. Aur uski gardan ko ek haath se
pakar kar poori taakat ke saath dabaane
laga…………….woh mere neeche chat-pata
raha tha par meri taakat ke aage uska virodh
bekaar hi saabit hua……………..2 minute
baad hi uske hatth-paanv hilne band ho
gaye…………..

Maine uski naak par haath

lagaya………….uski saans abhi chal rahi
thi………….par uska Zinda rehna mere liye
jyada khatarnaak tha …………..maine uski
talaashi li………….ek purse aur ek pistol
mujhe uski jeb se mila ……………woh dono
cheeje maine apni jeb ke hawaale kar
di ………fir maine uske dono haath pakde aur
usko ghaseetta hua sadak ke doosi taraf le
gaya…………….wahan sadak ke left side mein
bani huyi khaai mein jhaank kar dekha par
sirf andhera hi nazar aa raha
tha………….mujhe nahi maloom tha ki woh
khaai kitni gehri hai ….ya uske neeche koi
aur sadak to nahi hai……….maine ek baar fir
idhar-udhar nigaah daali……….door-door tak
koi bhi nazar nahi aa raha tha……….maine
usko kandhe par uthaaya aur fir khaai mein
dhakel diya…………………..

Baarish shuru ho gayi thi……………meri

chhatri pata nahi kahan gir gayi
thi………maine ek baar aas-paas nigaah
daudaayi……….fir bheegta hua hi tezi ke
saath ghar ki taraf chal diya
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#32
Baarish mein bheegta hua aur aakhir mein
lagbhag bhaagta hua main ghar tak (Hina
ke) pahunch gaya ……………….main seedha
tabele mein pahuncha aur fir ek deewar ke
saath lag kar baith gaya …………

2 minute baad hi Hina aur Shaazia dono

wahan par aa gayi………….lagta tha dono
mera hi intezar kar rahi thi…………dono ki
aankhon mein sawaal aur kuchh had tak
pareshaani ke bhaav dikhayi de rahe
the………..
“ Kya hua ?? kya kiya tumne uske
saath ? ……………………..tum theek to ho na ?
“ ek saath bahut saare sawaalo ki line si laga
di Hina ne

maine kuchh seconds tak unke chehre ko

dekha ………..jahan Hina ke chehre par
pareshaani ke bhaav they wahin Shaazia
hamesha ki tarah apni behan ke peeche ko
chhip kar khadi thi aur uske kandhe ke oopar
se mujhe dekh rahi thi ………………..

“ kuchh khaas nahi ……………..thodi si ladai

huyee aur main usko behosh kar ke aa
gaya ……..” maine uske chehre par nazar
jamaate huye jawaab diya “ woh tumko
pehchanta to nahi tha na , Hina ? “
“ Nahi ……………….shaayad nahi pehchanta
“ woh meri taraf dekh kar sar hilaate huye
boli …..

main eek lambi si saans li aur fir deewar se

peeth lag li aur sar ko bhi deewar se tika
diya………………

“ Tum bahut bheeg gaye ho………..kapde

badal lo ………main abhi bhejti hoon “ keh
kar Hina palti , Shaazia ko saath aane ka
ishara kiya aur fir dono wahan se nikal
gayi……………

maine apni jeb mein haath daala aur uss

aadmi se chheeni huyee pistol aur wallet
nikala…………woh ek Chinese 77B pistol
thi……….. chhoti si par bahut badhiya
hathiyar …………maine idhar udhar
dekha …………….tabele ki chhat (roof ) jo ki
ghaas-phoos se bani huyee thi………mujhe
sahi jagah lagi uss pistol ko chhipaane ke
liye……….main tabele ke ek kone mein
gaya …………aur haath badha kar woh pistol
oopar chhipa di……………..

maine uss wallet ko check

kiya …………….kuchh local currency , kuchh
paper they ……….iske alawa jo do sabse
importance cheej thi - ek driving licence aur
ek police ka ID card tha …………uss aadmi ki
photo laga hua aur Shahid malik ke naam
se ……………. Maine wallet ko apne bistar ke
neeche chhipa diya…………….
Tabhi Hina waapas aa gayi……………..uske
haath mein kapde they jo ussne meri taraf
badha diya ………..maine kapde usske haath
se liye aur kamre mein chala
gaya………….jaldi se maine geele kapde
nikaal kar uske diye huye kapde badal
liye………..woh ek kurta payjama
tha ……….hamesha ki tarah mere hi size ka
par kuchh tight…………………..

Usne geele kapde mere hathon se liye aur

waapas jaane lagi………….fir ruki aur palat
kar boli “ shukriya Ajay ………………aaj agar
tum na hote to naa jaane kya ho jaata……”
uskne nazre utha kar meri taraf
dekha……….maine uski aankhen pehli baar
geeli hoti huyee dekhi……..
Nahin ……………..shukriya ki koi baat nahi
hai……………..jo kuchh tum logo ne mere liye
kiya , uske aage yeh kuchh bhi nahi hai
“ maine uske aankhon mein dekhte huye
kaha …….....
Who agle kuchh seconds khamosh rahi , fir
ek lambi si saans lete huye boli……” main kal
savere shahar jaa rahi hoon , koshish karti
hoon ki kal hi tumhaare liye Permit ka
intezaam ho jaaye……..tumhaare paas apni
koi photo hai ? “

Maine haan mein sar hilaya………..fir apne

kamre mein waapas gaya………..bistar ke
neeche se apna kit-bag nikaala………..uske
andar mera wallet tha aur usme meri PP size
photo thi…………..maine 2 photo laakar Hina
ko de dee………………….

“ Agar ho sake to permit mein mera naam

Shahid Malik likhwa dena “ main Hina se
bola ……………….

“ Koi khaas wazah ……….” Usne muskuraate

huye poochha …

“ Haan ………….iss naam li ID ka intezam

shaayad main kar sakoon “ maine bhi smile
ke saath hi jawaab diya ………….

Usne sar hilaya aur wahan se chali

gayi ……….
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#33
Main wapas apne bistar par aakar let
gaya………………aur aaj dinbhar mein huye
ghatnakram ke baare mein sochne
laga………….aaj ka din kaafi vyast tha , mere
liye bhi aur inn sabhi logo ke liye bhi jo mere
saath they……….ab aage jaane kya hone
waala hai ……………..iss hi soch mein tha ki
fir se darwaaze par aahat
huyee……………….yeh Shaazia
thi………….haath mein khaane ki thaali aur
chehre par wahi pyaari si smile ke
saath…………

Who aage badhi aur khaane ki plate mere

saamne rakh di aur khud bhi saamne baith
gayi ……..
“ Khana khaa lijiye……” usne kaha

maine khana shuru kiya aur uss se poochha

“ tum ne kha liya ………? “

“ Abhi nahi …………aap khaa lijiye , fir hum

bhi kha lenge “

“ aaj jo kuchh bhi hua ……………..din

mein …………..tumhaare ghar ke
andar ………..hum dono ke
beech…………..tum uss se naraaz to nahi ho ?
“
maine khaana khaate huye uss se poochha
usne ek baar nazre uthaa kar meri taraf
dekha ……………fir muskurate huye aankhen
jhuka li………….matlab saaf tha, jo hua uss
mein uski razamandi thi aur usne bhi pyar ke
uss khel ka maza liya tha

main aage kuchh bolta………uss se pehle hi

woh bol padi ….. “ baaji kal subah shahar jaa
rahi hai………..unhone kaha hai ki main
tumhe nadee ke paas tak ghuma
laoon …………..tum subah tayyar rehna “

“ main to hamesha tumhaare saath chalne ke

liye tayaar hoon ………….jahan chaahe le
chalo .” main khaana khaate huye , usko
dekh kar muskurate huye bola ………………….

“ Achchha !!…………….kahan tak chal sakte

ho mere saath ? “

“ jahan tak tum kaho …………….chaaho to

jindagi bhar tumhare saath chal sakta hoon
“ main khana khatam kar liya tha, yeh baat
maine aage ko jhuk kar , uski aankhon mein
dekhte huye kahi

usne ek baar meri aankhon mein dekha , fir

nazre neeche jhuka li ……..

agle kuchh seconds hum dono ke beech

khaamoshi rahi ………….usne ek baar fir meri
taraf dekha aur bartan samet kar uth khadi
huyee

main bhi uske saath khada ho gaya aura age

badh kar uski kalaai thaam li ………..uske
haath ko pakad kar maine use apni taraf
kheencha , woh bina kisi virodh ke mere paas
aa gayi …………main eek haath ko uske gaal
par fera aur fir usko sar ke peechhe haath
laga kar , uske chehre ko apne chahre ke
bilkul najdeek kar liya……………….hum dono
ki aankhen ek doosre mein jhaank rahi
thi………….main apne honth , uske hontho ke
bilkul paas le jaakar bola……

“ kya aaj raat ko mere paas aa sakti ho ? “

usne apni aankhen jhuka li , uski saanse
bahut tez chal rahi thi ……….. “ koshish
karoongi …………par aap mera intezar mat
karna “ keh kar usne apne haath ko mere
haath se dheere se chhudaya aur wahan se
chali gayi

main kuchh seconds khada raha………….fir

baith kar apne kit bag ko nikala aur
khola……. Bag mein se flask nikaal kar
brandy ke do ghoonth bhare aur waapas
usse bag mein rakh diya…………..kuchh der
main sochta raha ki shaazia ka intezar
karoon ya nahi ………….fir bistar par let gaya
aur jald hi neend mein ddob gaya
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#34
Mere jaagte huye to Shaazia nahi aayi par
mere sote hi , sapne mein woh aa
gayi……………….aisa lag raha tha jaise mein
aur woh baadlo par chal rahe ho ………..usne
mera haath pakda hua tha aur mujhe maano
apne saath kheenchte huye ek taraf le jaa
rahi thi…………..main uske saath saath hi
chalta raha ……………….chalte-chalte bahut
door pahunch gaye hum donn, par humaare
haath abhi bhi ek doosre ko thaame huye
they………

Fir Shaazia baith gayi ………mano chalte

chalte thak gayi ho , main bhi wahin uske
paas baith gaya ………aur fir uski gode mein
sar rakh kar let gaya …………who pehle to
mere baalo mein apni ungliya firaati rahi aur
fir jhuk kar mere hontho par apne mulayam
honth rakh diye…………maine uske gale
mein apni ek baanh daal di aur fir uske
honth ko choosne laga………………..

Meri aankh achanak khul gayi………………….

Itni sardi mein bhi mera sara shareer garm
ho raha tha…………kuchh seconds to mujhe
yeh samajhne mein hi lag gaye ki yeh ek
sapna tha jo main abhi dekh raha
tha……….par koi to wajah thi jiss se meri
neend toot gayi thi …………..

Maine aankh kholi aur samajhne ki koshish

ki ………….ek baat jo mujhe ajeeb lagi who
tha ghupp andhera……..tabele ke andar jalne
waala bulb aaj off ho gaya tha , aur ghar ke
baahar lage hue bulb ki roshini bahut kam
thi ……..kuchh seconds tak aankhen faad-
faad kar dekhne ke baad mujhe woh saaya
dikhaayi pada jo kamre ke darwaaje par
khada tha…………….maine jaldi se uthne ki
sochi , tabhi baahar jor se bijli kadki aur uss
saaye ke shareer par padi……………..uska
body structure meri samajh mein aa gaya aur
mere hontho par muskaan aa
gayi………….woh ek ladki thi aur mujhe
maloom tha ki woh Shaazia hi thi jo mere
kehne par mere paas aayi thi ………maine
uthne ka khyaal apne dimaag se nikaal diya
aur intezar karne laga uski agli harkat
ka………..main dekhna chahta tha ki woh
apni taraf se kaise shuruaat karti hai
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#35
Kuchh der woh wahin darwaaze ke paas
khadi rahi ……….shaayad check kar rahi thi
ki main soya hua hoon ya jaaga…………..fir
dheere se aage badhi……..jaise ki maine
bataya, kamre mein ghupp andhera tha aur
bahut koshish karne ke baad bhi main badi
mushkil se hi uske shareer ki harkat ko dekh
paa raha tha ……………..

Woh mere bistar ke paas aayi aur fir mere

paas baith gayi ………….mera ek haath meri
chaati par rakha hua tha aur doosra ek taraf
faila hua tha……….woh mere faile hue haath
ke paas baith gayi…………main abhi tak usko
nahi dekh paa raha tha……par uski khushbu
aur saanso ki awaaz sun pa raha
tha………………..
Usne ek haath mere maathe par
rakha……….aur dheere se sehlaya……fir apne
haath ko woh mere gaal par le gayi aur
wahan par bhi usne dheere se haath
feraya…………..kayi din se maine shave nahi
ki thi is liye mere chehre par badi hard shave
ugi huyee thi ……………..woh fir mere oopar
jhuk gayi aur mere maathe par ek chota sa
kiss kar diya ………… usne uss-hi jagah par 2-
3 chhte chhte kiss aur kiye fir uske honth
meri band aankhon par aa gaye ………

Meri aankhon par kiss karne ke baad uske

honth dheere dheere neeche ko aaye aur
mere daayein gaal par se hote huye meri
chin tak aaye aur fir mere honthon par usne
ek halki si kiss kar di ………..uski harkat se
mujhe lag raha tha ki who nahi chaahti ki
meri neend khule ………………..
Usne mere kurte ke buttons ko ek ek kar ke
khol diya aur fir apna ek haath mere kurte ke
andar daal diya……………..fir mujhe ehsaas
hua ki who mere faile huye haath par sar
rakh kar let gayi hai aur uska ek haath jo
abhi mere kurte ke andar hi tha , meri chhati
par chalne laga tha ……….woh dheere –
dheere meri poori chhato par haath fira rahi
thi……………….

Agle kuchh minutes tak woh aise hi leti

rahi…………….iss beech usne apna sar mere
haath se hata kar meri chhati par hi rakh diya
tha aur uski ek taang bhi meri kamar par
rakh di thi………..mere poore shaheer mein
khoon ka ubaal badhta jaa raha
tha ………..uske shareer se ek alag hi
khushbu aa rahi thi ……………ek madhosh
kar dene waali mehak………………..main apne
aap ko control kiye huye uske agle kadam ka
intezar kar raha tha ………………

Fir acahnak woh mere se alag

huyee…………mujhe uske khade hone ki
aahat aayi aur fir kuchh der tak kapdo ki sar-
sarahat hoti rahi………..main abhi tak nahi
samajh pa raha tha ki woh kis had tak mere
paas aana chahti hai ……..

Usne mere pairo ke oopar se kambal kp

hataya aur fir mere paanv ke panje par apna
haath firaya………….fir mujhe uske honth
apne pairo par mehsoos huye…………..woh
dheere dheere mere pairo ko choom rahi
thi …………..kuchh der aise hi choomne ke
baad, woh thoda aage badhi aur uske honth
mere paanv se hote huye, mere ghutno ki
taraf badhne lage………….payjama pehna
hone ke baavjood uske hontho ki garmahat
mujhe apne shareer par mehsoos ho rahi
thi……………

Uske honth ghutno ko paar karte huye meri

jaangho par aa gaye ………….wahan aakar
kuchh seconds ke liye woh ruk gayi , shaayad
aage badhne ki himmat juta rahi
thi……………. Fir achanak hi usne apna haath
aage badhaya aur meri jaanghon ke beech le
jaakar ruk gayi…………..mere shareer ka
saara khoon jo uss hi taraf daud raha tha ,
aur tez raftaar se daudne laga
tha …………………
Usne ek baar haath fira kar mere Lund ko
mehsoos kiya aur fir apna haath sarkaate
huye mere pet par le gayi …………………..ab
woh khud meri tango par baithi huyee
thi……………mere pat par tatol kar usne
payjaame ka naada talasha aur fir dheere se
usko khol diya ………….mere liye yeh ek bada
aashcharya tha , jo ladki subah mere
chhoone matra se kaanp rahi thi , ab mere
lund ko pakadne ko tayyar thi………….aur
agle hi pal usne mere payjaame ko saamne
se neeche ko sarka diya …………….mere leta
hone ki wajah se woh neech jaakar ruk gaya ,
par itna neeche to ho hi gaya tha ki mera
lund , jo ab apne charam par
tha ……….baahar aakar seedha khada ho
gaya …………………………
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#36

Woh shaayad ab samajh chuki thi ki main so

nahi raha hoon , usne haath badhaya aur
seedha mere lund par rakh
diya……………..paseene se bheeg chuke
haathon se usne pehle usko sehlaya, fir apne
haath mein pakad liya…………2-3 baar usne
lund par oopar se neeche tak sehlaya aur ,
aur fir jhuk kar lund ki jad mein ek kiss kar
diya……………usne lund ko pakad kar apne
gaal par lagay aur hontho ko uss par oopar
se neeche ki taraf firaane lagi…………uski
harkate bata rahi thi ki woh kitni pyasi
hai…………….

Ab meri bardhasht ki seema paar ho chuki

thi………..main utth kar baith gya aur uske
baalon mein haath firane laga …………..woh
lagataar mere lund ko aur uske aas-paas
meri jaangoh par choome ja rahi
thi………………maine uske chehre ko haath se
pakad kar oopar kiya aur woh apne aap hi
aage ko badh kar meri god mein aa
gayi………………aur mere gale mein dono
baahein daal kar meri gardan mein apna
muh chhipa liya ……………………..

Maine uskei poori peeth par haath feraya aur

neeche uski gaand tak le gaya……………woh
sar se panv tak bilkul nangi thi ………….uska
shareer ajeeb tarah se kaanp raha
tha……….baahar baarish ho rahi thi ,
maloom nahi yeh uski wajah se tha ya
uttezna ki charam seema par hone ke
kaaran …………jo bhi ho ………..maine usko
apni baahon mein kas ke bhar liya aur fir
dono haathon ko uske saare shahree par
firaan laga ……………main samajh nahi pa
rah tha ki kahan se shuru
karoon…………mera haath kabhi uski peeth
par daudta , kabhi uski gaand par sehlata aur
fir kabhi aage aakar uske mamme ho pakad
leta ……………………….

Jo kuchh bhi aaj din bhar mein hua tha , uske

baad main bhi jald se jald usko poori tarah se
paa lena chahta tha …………..maine usko
apni baahon mein uthaya aur fir dheere se
bistar par leta diya …………….uss se alag
hoka r main khada hua aur fir bijli jaisi tezi
ke saath apne dono kapde utter
diye…………….baahar baarish ab bahut tez
hoti jaa rahi thi aur andar hum dono ke
shareer ki aag bhi……………………

Main uske pairo ke paas baith gaya aur wahi

sab dohraane laga jo kuchh der pehle who
mere saath kar rahi thi ……………..mere
honth uske paanv par kiss karte huye aage
badhe , uski pindliyon par kuchh der ruke ,
fir uske ghutno par se hote huye , uski
jaanghon ke andar ki taraf chal
diya ……….uska ek haath ab neeche aakar
mere baalon mein ghoom raha tha …..mere
honth uski jaanghon par kuchh der harkat
karte rahe aur fir apni manzil ki taraf badh
gaye …………………

Maine haath badha kar uski choot ko

sehlaya …………..bilkul clean shaved
thi……..baal ka naam-o-nishaan bhi nahi tha
uski choot par………….ek baar haath firaane
par hi mujhe mehsoos ho gaya tha ki woh
kitni pyasi thi…….ek baar chhoone maatra se
hi , uska paani nikal kar uski jaanghon par aa
gaya tha…………. Main apne honthon ko uski
choot par le gaya………..wahan main agle ek
minute tak choomta raha………….uski choot
ke dono honthon ko ungliyon se alag kiya
aur fir apni ek ungli uske andar sarka
di ……………uska shareer ek dum se kaanp
gaya …………uski gaand oopar ko uth gayi
aur fir 2-3 jhatke khaa kar uska shareer shant
ho gaya ………………..
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#37
Mere honth ab aage badh gaye
tha …………uski naabhi par se hota hue mere
honth uski chhati par pahunche aur fir uski
ek choochi ko maine apne muh mein bhar
liya ………………..mujhe maloom tha ki
nazakat se uski pyas nahi bujh
sakhti …………….ek choochi ko maine apne
haath mein bhar liya aur doosri ko choosna
shuru kar diya ………..uske muh se
“ sii……….si….” ki awaaz nikalne lagi
thi………….usne apni tango ko faila diya tha
aur main uss hi position main uski jaanghon
ke beech mein aa chukka
tha ………………agle 5 minute tak main be-
rehmi se uski choochiyon ko nichodta
raha ……………kabhi ek ko aur kabhi doosri
ko ……………uske haath kabhi mere sar mein
ghoom rahe they aur kabhi meri peeth
par …………..fir woh apna ek haath neeche ,
hum dono ke beech mein le gayi aur
ungliyon se mere lund ko pakad
liya …………………

Main uska ishaara samajh gaya

tha …………………….main thoda sa aur oopar
sarka , aur usne bhi apni jaanghon ko aur
jyada khol diya ……………….mere honth ab
uske seene se hote huye , uski gardan par
aaye aur fir wahan se aage chalte huye uske
honthon tak pahunch gaye……………uske
honth khule huye the ……………….maine ek
halki si kiss karne ke baad uske neechle
honth ko apne honthon mein bhar liya aur
choosna shuru kar diya………………
Neeche mera lund uski choot ke muhaane
par dastak de raha tha ……………hum dono
ke precum se uski jaanghon ka inner area
poora geela ho chukka tha ………….main
apna haath neeche le gaya , lund ko haath se
pakda aur uski choot ke muhaane par bhida
diya ………………..uske honth chooste huye
maine apni kamar ko halka sa dhakka diya
aur lund ka supada uski choot mein chala
gaya…………………

“ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh ………….” Ek lambi se

siskaari uske muh se nakli aur fir uska
shareer ek baar fir jor se kaanp
utha …………….woh shaayad fir se ek baar
jhad gayi thi …………….usne kuchh seconds
lambi lambi saans li aur fir mere gale mein
baahen daal kar mere honthon ko apne
honthon se bhida diya …………….neeche se
uski kamar baar – baar oopar neeche ho rahi
thi…………main jaanta tha ki woh kya chah
rahi hai par main abhi usko aur tadfaane ke
mood mein tha……………

4-5 baar usne apni kamar ko oopar uchkaya

par maine bhi har baar peeche ko hokar uski
ichchha poori nahi hone
di……………………..mere lund ka supada hi
sirf uski choot ke andar tha , baaki main abhi
andar nahi jaane de raha tha …………usne
apne nakhoon meri peeth par gaad
diye …………………mere honth ko apne
daanton mein daba liya aur lambi lambi
saans lene lagi ………..apne muh ko mere
kaan ke paas lejaakar boli ……………………..”
jaldi se poora andar daal do na “

main chaunk pada …………..baahar bijli

kadki , who maano mere sar ke oopar hi gir
padi ho ………………………usne bahut
dheeme se kaha tha par main jaanta tha ki
yeh awaaz Shaazia ki nahi Hina ki
thi…………………………
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#38

Badi hi ajeeb si condition thi

meri …………..main Hina ke oopar leta hua
tha……….mera lund uski choot ke muhaane
mein fansa hua tha aur ab usne apni ek
taang ko meri kamar par lapet liya
tha……………….

Mere liye yeh stithi badi hi vikat

thi……….agar main Hina se alag hat-ta hoon
to mujhe usko reason bhi batana padega aur
woh shaayad yeh bardhasht nahi kar paayegi
ki main raat ke 3 baje uski behan ka intezar
kar raha tha …………..aur jo kuchh bhi abhi
tak uss ke saath kar raha tha woh Shaazia
samajh ke kar raha tha……………..

Main Hina ko naraaz karne ka jokhim bhi

nahi uthaa sakta tha , kyon ki ek wahi thi jo
iss samay mujhe yahan se nikalane mein
madad kar sakti thi………maine faisla kar
liya ……………
Maine apna sar neeche
jhukaya ……………..apne honth Hina ke
honth se jod diye …………aur ek jordar jhatka
apni kamar ko diya……………..

“ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…………………………..”
jis cheez ki talash mein Hina thi , who usko
mil gayi …………….lund uski choot mein
ghuss chukka tha aur uske muh se anand
bhari cheekh nikal gayi ………………..

maine apna ek haath uske side mein

jamaya …………….doosre haath se uske ek
ubhaar ko dabocha aur fir dheere dheree
kamar ko jhatke dene shuru kar
diye……………mere liye yeh koi naya khel
nahi tha aur Hina bhi issko khelna bakhoobi
jaanti thi………….

“
Offfffffffff………………..ahh………………ohh…
……………….. “ har dhakke ke saath koi na
koi aawaz uske muh se nikal rahi
thi ………..main 3-4 dhakke jor se lagata tha
aur fir kuchh dhakke dheeme
dheeme …………….main janta tha ki jitna
maza Hina ko milega , utne hi dil se woh
mujhe yahan se nikaalne ki koshish
karegi ………………………………….

Ab maine apni ek kohni ko uske side mein

tika diya aur apne shareer ka sara bojh apni
kohni par daal diya………….mera muh uski ek
choochi par jama hua tha aur bachche ki
taraf usko choose ja raha tha…………Lund
poora choot mein jaata tha aur fir baahar
nikal kar aa jaata tha………….

Usne apni taange hawa mein poori tarah se

utha li…………..ek haath ko apni ek jaangh
par jama diya ………….jis-se taang ko oopar
kiye rakhne mein koi takleef na
ho ………………….iss position mein uski choot
poori tarah khul kar oopar ko aa gayi thi aur
lund badi sahuliyat se andar ja raha
tha …………….

Ab main thoda sa peeche hokar apne ghutno

par ho gaya……….maine uski gaand ke
neeche dono haath jamaye aur uska weight
apne haathon par le liya………….uski choot
ka paani nikal kar uski gaand tak aa gaya
tha………uski gaand ko oopar utha kar ,
maine lambe lambe stroke lagaane shuru kar
diya………maine lagbhag poora lund baahar
likaal raha tha aur fir poora hi andar waapas
dhakel deta tha………………………

Uske muh se lambi lambi cheekhe nikal rahi

thi……………………..honth baar baar mere
honthon par aa jaate the aur usnko choosne
ki koshish kar dete the ………………..beech
beech mein who apne gaal ko mere gaal aur
gardan par ragad rahi thi …………uske haath
mere hips par jame huye the aur woh poori
taakat se mujhe apni taraf khaanch rahi
thi …………………….
Mujhe nahi maloom woh abhi tak kitni baar
jhad chuki thi ………par ab mere andar ka
lava footne ko tayyar tha …………………main
fir se uske oopar let gaya …………………uske
neeche waale honth ko main apne muh mein
daba kar choosna shuru kar diya aur dono
haathon se uski gaand ko daboch kar oopar
ko utha liya …………….mera saara weight ab
uske oopar tha par iss se use koi fark nahi
padta dikh raha tha…………..apni baahen
mere gale mein daale , who bhi mere
honthon ko choosne mein lagi huyee
thi…………humaare shareer ab lay-badh
tareeke se oopar neeche ho rahe
they……………….

Hum dono ke muh se lagataar awwazein

nikal rahi thi ………………dono apni apni
manzil ko chhone ko be-karar
they…………mere dhakko mein ab tezi aane
lagi ………….aur fir 10-15 dhakke bahut tez
laga kar maine apna saara lava uske andar
chhod diya…………….ek lambi si
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh mere muh se
nikli …………aur mere shaheer ne jhatke
khaane shuru kar diye..

Hina ka shareer bhi bilkul kamaan ki tarah

mud gaya tha …………usne apni jaanghen
meri jaanghon se bilkul sata rakhi
thi ………….aur lambi lambi saanse leti
huyee ………….mere baalo mein haath fer
rahi thi……………..
Agle 1-2 minue maine uske oopar gir kar
haanfta raha ………….baahar mausam sard
hone ke baavjood hum dono paseene se
nahaye huye the…………fir main uske oopar
se hata aur uski bagal mein ulta hi let
gaya …………usne karvat li aur apni ek baahn
meri path pat lapet li aur ek taang utha kar
meri kamar par ……………………

Mujhe nahi maloom kab main neend mein

chala gaya …………..
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#39
Mujhe nahi maloom pada ki kab Hina mere
paas se uthh kar chali gayi…………..jab meri
neend khuli to baahar din nikal aaya
tha……….main kambal mein lipta hua tha aur
mere kapde mere sirhaane rakhe huye
they…………maine ghadee mein time dekha ,
7.00 baj rahe the………….

Main uthha aur jaldi se kapde pehan-ne

laga………..main abhi kapde pehan kar hata
hi tha ki darwaaze par dastak
huyee………..maine dekha wahaan Shaziaa
khadi huyee thi………….chehre par evergreen
smile aur haath mein chay ka cup……..
“ Jaldi se chay pee lijiye , fir hum logo ko
chalna hai …” kehte huye usne chay ka cup
meri taraf bada diya…….

Maine uske haath se cup liya aur chay peeta

hua kamre se baahar nikal kar aa
gaya …..baahar baarish ab ruk chuki thi ,
mausam ab bhi waisa hi bana hua tha ……

“ Hina kahan hai…….? .” maine uski taraf

mud kar poocha ….. woh ek deewar ke
sahaare khadi hokar meri hi taraf dekh rahi
thi…

“ baaji to subah hi shahar chali

gayi………….shaayad do-pahar tak aa
jaayengi .” usne jawaab diya………..
“ akele hi gayi hain….? “ maine chay khatam
karke , cup uske haath mein pakdaate huye
poocha……

“ nahi …………Hasan ko saath mein le kar

gayi hain….” Keh kar woh cup lekar ghar ke
andar chali gayi………

main kuchh seconds khada baahar dekhta

raha……………..woh turant hi waaps laut kar
aa gayi…………..

“ chaliye…!! Fir jaldi hi laut kar bhi aana

hai………..mausam bhi kharaab hota jar aha
hai ………” woh mere nazdeek aakar boli
maine haan mein sar hilaya aur uss se 5
minute ka time maanga , fir uss se pooch kar
ghar mein gaya aur toilet etc se nipat kar 5
minute mein hi waapas aa gaya…………

woh baahar hi khadi mera intezar kar rahi

thi………meri taraf dekh kar ek baar fir se
muskurayi aur fir mujhe saath chalne ka
ishaara kar ke tabele ke peeche ki taraf chal
di ………….wahin jahan se main pehle din
yahan aaya tha…

main badi duvidha ki stithi mein tha………kal

tak jahan main Shaazia ke saath kuchh time
bitaane ke liye paagal ho raha tha………..aaj
main uss se ek doori si bana ke rakhna chah
raha tha………….jo kal raat mere aur Hina ke
beech hua, uske baad mera aapna zameer
yeh gavara nahi kar raha tha ki main Shaazia
ke nazdeek jaaon , uske saath koi bhi rishta
banana , usko dhoka dene ke samaan
tha ………..

Shaazia mere aage aage chal rahi thi , aur

main uss se 10 kadam ki doori banata hua
peechhe-peechhe…………uski chaal aaj aur
dino se kuchh alag thi………kisi chhoti
bachchi ki tarah alhar-pan sat ha uski chaal
mein……..maine gaur kiya ki usne aaj kapde
bhi kuchh alag tarah ke pehne huye
the………normal type ka salwaar suit aur us
par ek jacket …………sar par scarf bandha
hua……….

Hum dono chalte chalte nadee tak aa

gaye……….yeh wahi nadee thi jis se hota hua
main yahan tak pahuncha tha…………nadee
par pahunch kar woh ruk gayi aur peechhe
mud kar dekhne lagi…….jaise mujhe apne
saath aane ka ishara kar rahi ho …..main jaldi
jaldi kadam badhata hua uske paas pahunch
gaya……………….

“ Kya hume nadee ke paar jaana hai ? “ main

nadee ke taraf hi dekhta hua bola , uss mein
aaj paani pahle se thoda jyada hi tha ,
shaayad lagataar baarish ki wajah se

“ nahi ……………….tum bas mere saath saath

chalte raho “ keh kar usne mera haath apne
haath mein pakad liya aur fir nadee ke saath
saath left side mein chalne lagi………..main
bhi uske saath hi chalne laga ………….
“ Kya hua ………….aaj bade chup chup se ho
“ chalte chalte usne meri taraf dekh kar
poochha ………..

“ kuchh khaas bahi ………… bas aaj tabiyat

kuchh theek nahi lag rahi hai “ main feeki si
muskurahat ke saath bola…………

“ Achchha chalo aaj main tumko kashmiri

bhasha (language) sikhaati hoon ……..” keh
kar usne fir meri taraf dekha aur muskura di

maine bhi muskurate huye haan mein sar

hila diya …………
agle 1/2 ghante tak hum dono haath pakde
huye aise hi dheere dheere chalte
rahe ………………..hum nadee ke left side ,
kinaare ke saath saath chalte jaa rahe
the ……….. poore time Shaazia mujhe kuchh
common se kashmiri words sikhati
rahi ……………….usne yeh bhi sikhaya ki agar
koi raaste main poochhe ki hum dono kahan
jaa rahe hai to mujhe kashmiri language
mein usko samjhana hai ki – hum apne
jaanwaro ko dhoondh rahe hain , jo chalte
chalte yahan taka aa pahunche
hain………………
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 #40
Hum dono ko chalte chalte kareeb 1 ghanta
ho chukka tha………. Baat karte rehane se
aur mausam achcha hone ki wazah se time
jaldi-jaldi beet raha tha …………..

Fir Shaazia ruk gayi …………..aur wahin par

ghaas mein baith gayi………… “ main to thak
gayi hoon ………..kuchh der aaram kar lein ?
“ woh mera haath ab bhi pakde huye thi aur
sar utha kar meri taraf dekh rahi thi ………

Maine haan mein sar hilaya aur fir uske

nazdeek hi neeche baith gaya ……….mera
haath abhi tak uske haath mein hi tha………
Maine chaaro taraf dekha…………………hum
neeche dhalaan ki taraf jaa rahe the aur
humaare peeche bade bade ped khade huye
the …………unke peeche kahin woh jagah thi
jahan se hum log abhi aa rahe
the …………….pedo ke peeche hone ki wajah
se kuchh bhi dikhaayi dena mushkil
tha …………par anumaan hi lagaya ja sakta
tha ki Shaazia ka ghar kaha npar tha ………

Humaare saamne ki taraf dhalaan hi

tha ………………nadee jo abhi tak humaare
saath saath hi chal rahi thi …………. Aage
jaakar left side mein ghoom jaati thi aur fir
kuchh aage jaaker ek badi nadee mein mil
rahi thi……. Kuchh jaanvar bhi dikhaayi de
rahe the……..jo paaltu hi they aur gaas
khaane iss taraf aa gaye they……………kuchh
doori par 2-3 puraane makaan bhi dikh rahe
they…………jo khandahar numa ho gaye
they…………shaayed wahan koi rehta nahi
tha………

Mausam fir bhaari hone laga tha ………….

Maine Shaazia ki taraf dekha ……….woh ek
tak mere chehre ko hi dekh rahi
thi……….nazre milte hi usne apni nigaahein
jhuka li……….. aur fir saamne nadi ki taraf
dekhte huye boli ………………

“ Woh dekho……………yeh nadee neeche

jaakar uss badi nadee mein mil
jaayegi ………….uss se aage fir dono taraf
fauz ke aadmi rehte hain …………mujhe to
nahi lagta ki tum unn se bach kar yahan se
nikal paaoge …………..”

yahan se dekhne par nadee ke aas paas koi

harkat nahi dikh rahi thi …………par nadee
yahan se kaafi door thi , isliye kuchh bhi
kehna mushkil tha ……………..

“ tumhaari ichchha nahi kar rahi nahaane ki ?

mera dil to kar raha hai ki nadee mein naha
loon ………” woh meri taraf dekhte huye boli

“ to naha lo , kisne roka hai ….!! “ maine bhi

muskurate huye jawaab diya

“ achchha ji , tumhaare saamne kaise naha

sakti hoon…….? “ woh shokhi ke saath
muskuraate huye boli …………uske chahre
par ek shararat si jhalak rahi thi ……………….

“ Chalo main muh peechhe kar leta

hoon………..tum naha kar aa jao “ maine hi
uss hi shararati lehze mein kaha……………..

usne ek baar meri aankhon mein aankhen

daal kar dekha…………maano mere man ki
baat padhne ki koshish kar rahi
ho ……………….fir dobara muskura di ……

tabhi jaise kudrat ne bhi humaare man ki

baat padh li ho…………..boonda-baandi
shuru ho gayi
“ chalo jaldi se aage chalo …………baarish tez
ho gayi to fans jaayenge “ keh kar woh jaldi
se uth khadi huyee aur fir uska haath pakad
kar main bhi khada ho gaya …………
hum dono tez tez kadmo se aage chalne
lage ……………..jo ek doori humaare beech
subah se ban gayi thi , woh ab kam ho gayi
thi………au eek doosre ka haath pakde huye
hum saath saath chal rahe they……………..

thoda sa aage hi badhe honge ki achanak

barf padni shuru ho gayi…………..mausam
bhi maano romantic sa ho gaya
tha ………….halke halke ruyee ke gole
aasmaan se gir rahe they aur jameen par
bichhte ja rahe they ……………..
kuchh hi minutes mein chaaro taraf safed
chaadar si bichh gayi thi……………chalte
chalte hum dhalaan ke aakhiri sire taka aa
gaye they………iske aage pahad lagbhag
seedha hokar neeche jar aha tha , saamne ki
taraf ek khaayee si bani huyee
thi ………..nadee bhi uss ke saath saath hi
neeche gir rahi thi aur ek jharne mein badal
kar fir neeche badi waali nadee mein mil rahi
thi …………..kul milakar ek adbhut sa nazara
tha , uss par mausam bhi apna asar dikhaane
laga tha ……………. Barf ke saath baarish ki
boonde bhi gir rahi thi

Maine dekha Shaazia aur main , dono bilkul

bheeg chuke they……………
“ Chalo , kahin par kuchh der ke liye ruk
jaate hain ………….aise to bheegte hi
rahenge “ maine us ki taraf dekhte huye
kaha

“ aao , wahan chalte hain ………..” usne ek

taraf bane huye khandahar numa makaan ki
taraf ishaara kiya ……………….aur fir hum
dono ek doosre ka haath pakde huye ,
bhaagte huye ….uss makaan tak pahunch
gaye.....
#41

Woh ek kaafi purana sa ghar

tha…………..hum dono bhaagte huye wahan
tak pahunche they………..ghar ke aage ek
shade sa pada hua tha, hum doo wahan par
khade hokar saans lene lage………..fir maine
andar jhaank kar dekha ………….

Ground floor ki haalat bahut hi kharaab

thi……………jaanvar shaayad yahan aakar
aaram karte honge , iss wazah se yahan kaafi
gandagi faili huyee thi……….andar ghuste hi
ek seedi oopar ki taraf jaati thi…………..main
seedi ke raaste oopar gaya…………oopar do
kamre bane huye they , khidki aur darwaaze
sab toote huye they , farsh par ghaas-phoos
padi huyee thi………..shaayad yahan ke local
log ya military waale kabhi kabhi rukne ke
liye iss jagah ka istemaal karte honge ………..

saamne ek balcony bani huyee thi……. Main

wahan tak pahuncha ………..wahan se
saamne ka maidaan , uske aage nadee aur
jharna dono dikhaayi pad rahe they………
“agar iss jagah ki sahi tarah se dekhbhaal ki
jaaye to ek achchaa resort ban sakta hai
“ maine apne man mein socha

peechhe aahat huyee to dekha Shaazia bhi

mere peechhe hi khadi thi …….fir who mere
paas aa gayi aur baahar dekhne lagi……….

Hum dono baarish mein poori tarah se

bheeg chuke they…………jahan hum khade
they , wahan par kuchh boonde paani ki aa
rahi thi , par woh achchi hi lag rahi thi…….
“ Pata nahi kab tak yeh barf-baari aur
baarish hoti rahegi……? “ Shaazia ne saamne
maidaan mein dekhte huye kaha

“ tum to poori tarah se bheeg chuki

ho …………..dekh lo , tumhaare nahaane ki
ichchha poori ho gayi” maine hanste huye
kaha …………jawaab mein who bhi muskura
di ………….

Main andar gaya aur thodi si phoos ko

ikattha kar ke darwaaze ke paas le
aaya………aur usko wahan par bichha kar
baith gaya………..fir Shaazia ko bhi apne
paas baithne ka ishaara kiya…………….woh
mere shareer se bilkul sat kar baith gayi aur
apne dono haathon ko seene par baandh
liya , shaayad thand ki wajah se
“ Tumko to maloom hi hoga ki baarish
padne waali hai , fir chhata saath kyon nahi
laayi “ maine uski taraf dekh kar sawaal kiya

“ mujhe paani mein bheegna achchha lagta

hai…” woh saamne padti barf ko dekhti
huyee boli

“ aur agar beemar pad gayi to ? “

“ tum jo mere saath ho…………. Mujhe mere

ghar tak to pahuncha hi doge ? “ iss baar
usne meri taraf , meri aankhon mein dekhte
huye kaha ……….
Uski aankhon mein mujhe apna-pan aur be-
tahasha pyar nazar aa raha tha……..maine ek
baanh ko peeche uski kamar par lapeta, aur
usko apne shareer se chipka
liya……………usne bhi apna sar mere kandhe
par tika diya, aur apne haath mein mera
doosra haath pakad liya………………

Agle kuchh minutes tak hum dono aise hi

baithe rahe………..bilkul chup-chap……..ek
doosre ko thaame huye ………….. fir kaafi der
ke baad usne hi chuppi ko toda….
“ Kya tum waakayi yahan se chale jaaoge ? “

maine uske chehre ki taraf dekha , ek anjana

sa dar aur sawaal uski aankhon mein tha
“ Tum kya chaahti ho , main yahan se nahi
jaoon “ maine uske ek haath ko apne haath
mein pakadte huye kaha

“ nahi……….aur agar jaao to akele mat

jaana…” usne neeche ki taraf dekhte huye
kaha……. Nigaahe milaye bagair…

mari samajh mein uski baat ka matlab aa

chukka tha ………… maine ek haath se uske
chehre ko oopar uthaya…..uski aankhon
mein nami si dikhaayi de rahi thi…….

“ Yeh ladki mujhe sach mein pyar karne lagi

thi …..par kya main bhi iss se pyar karta
hoon , ya fir sirf iss ke jism ki pyas hai jo
mujhe iske najdeek laa rahi hai….. “ main
man hi man soch raha tha aur usne apna
chehra mere seene mein chhipa liya…saath
hi ek baahn ko bhi meri kamar par lapet kar
mujhse poori tarah chipak gayi….

Main kuchh der tak aise hi usko chipkaye

huye baitha raha…….iss ladki ne sirf ek hi
baat se mujhe andar tak hila diya tha……abhi
tak mujhe sirf apne nikalne ki fikr thi , par ab
shaayad Shaazia ko bhi saath le jaane ki
tarkeeb nikalni padegi…….
Achanak baarish ki ek tez bauchhar ,hawa ke
saath aayi ……..aur hum dono ko bhigo
diya…hum dono jo ek doosre se chipak kar
baithe they, achanak alag ho gaye aur fir
anayas hi dono ki ek saath hi hansi chhoot
gayi…….
Main wahan se uth gaya aur Shaazia ko bhi
haath pakar kar utha liya …..humaare kapde
jo itni der mein kuchh had tak sookhne lage
the, ek hi bauchhar se fir se bheeg gaye
they………

“ Tum wahan jaakar apne kapde sukha

lo ……. “ maine doosre kamre ki taraf ishaara
karte huye kaha

usne mera haath aise chhoda jaise dar rahi

ho ki main kahin bhaag na jaoon ……….fir
dheere se palat kar , uss doosre waale kamre
mein chali gayi
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#42
Maine apni jacket aur kurta utaar diya aur ek
khidki par sookhne ke liye taang
diya……………. Main fir se balcony par aa kar
khada ho gaya…..baahr ab baarish halki ho
gayi thi , par barf abhi bhi lagatar pad rahi
thi ……maine ek deewar se take laga li , aur
fir sochne laga ……

Kal raat jo kuchh bhi Hina aur mere beech

hua , uske baad Shaazia se koi bhi waada
karna , mere asool ke khilaaf tha……. par
mujhe yeh bhi dikhayi de raha tha ki woh
sach mein mujh se pyar karne lagi thi aur
mere saath kisi bhi had tak jaane ke liye
tayyar thi………mujhe lag raha tha ki shaayad
mere dil mein bhi uske liye pyar ki bhaavna
jaag gayi hai …………
Main saari stithi par dobara se vichaar karne
laga ………kya Hina iske liye tayyar ho
jaayegi ki main Shaazia ko apne saath le
jaaon , lekin usko akele yahan chhod kar
jaana bhi shaayad sahi na rahe ……..par
mujhe abhi bhi nahi maloom thi ki main
khud bhi kab tak yahan se nikal paoonga, ek
baar agar main waaps Hindustan pahunch
gaya to fir shaayad inn dono ko bhi yahan se
nikaalne ka koi intezam kar paoon ………….

Main abhi apni soch mein hi dooba hua tha

ki achanak mujhe apne peeche aahat
mehsoos huyee aur fir apni peeth par ek
thanda sa sparsh mehsoos hone
laga …………………..yeh ehsaas mere rongte
khade kar dene waala tha , kyon ki main ba-
khoobi iss ehsaas ko pehchanta
tha ………….mere peeche koi jism , bina
kapdo ke maujaad tha aur woh Shaazia ke
alaawa koi aur nahi ho sakta tha …

Shaazia ne meri peeth se chipak kar , apni

baahon se mujhe pakad liya tha …. Maine
uske dono haathon ko pakda aur fir dheere
se apne aap ko alag kar kar peeche ghoom
gaya ……….mera anumaan bilkul sahi
tha …woh kamar ke oopar bilkul nangi
haalat mein thi………..apna kurta aur jacket
who shaayad doosre kamre mein sookhne ke
liye daal aayi thi , aur uss hi haalat mein
mere paas aa gayi thi…

“ Kya hua ……………… ? “ maine ek haath ko

uski kamar par lapeta aur doosre haath se
uske chehre ko oopar utha kar uski aankhon
mein dekha ….

Usne jawaab nahi diya , bas aage badhkar

mere seene mein muh chhipa liya aur apni
baahon ko meri peeth par kas diya ………

Ab uski nanagi chaatiyan mere seene mein

dabi huyee thi…ek current sa mere poore
shareer mein daudne laga tha ………na
chahte huye bhi mere dono haath uski peeth
par pahunch gaye aur fir dheere dheere uski
peeth ko sehlana shuru kar diya …

Hum dono hi kamar ke oopar bilkul nange

they… oopar se mausam ka sard mijaaj,
humaare jajbaato ko aur bhadka raha
tha……..mere haath uski paeeth par ab oopar
se neeche tak ghoom rahe they aur kuchh
aisi hi haalat Shaazia ki bhi ho rahi thi …uske
haathon ki pakad meri peeth par kasti jaa
rahi thi aur woh apne gaalo se dheere dheere
mere seene ko sehlaa rahi thi…

Maine ek chhota sa kiss uske maathe par

kiya aur jawaab mein usne bhi wahi harkat
mere seene par kar di ……..maine apna ek
haath uski peeth se hata kar , uske chehre ko
oopar uthaya ….uski aankhon ke bhaav bata
rahe they ki kal jo khel adhoora reh gaya tha
woh usko ab poora karna chahti thi………

Maine uski aankhon ko chuma aur usne khud

hi apne honth meri taraf badha diye ……aaj
uske honth thode se khule hue they…..maine
pehle ek chhota sa kiss uske honthon par
kiya aur fir uske neeche waale honth ko apne
honthon mein daboch liya …………… usne
bhi apne haathon ko meri peeth se hata kar
mere sar par le aayi , aur mere baalon mein
haath se sehlaane lagi…..
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#43
Agle 2 minutes tak hum dono iss hi position
mein rahe ………….mere dono haathon ne
usko gaalo par se pakda hua tha aur honth
uske honthon ka ras choos rahe
they……….woh baar baar apni chhatiyon ka
dabaav mere seene par badha deti
thi ………aur uski chhatiyon ki ragad se mere
saare shareer mein chingaariyan si uthne lagi
thi……..
Maine apne hothon ko uss se alag
kiya ……ek baar hum dono ne ek doosre ki
aankhon mein dekha …….fir maano uski
taraf se swikrati paakar , maine apne
honthon ko fir se aage badha diya ……..iss
baar mere hoth uski gardan par
they……..kuchh der uski gardan par main
apne honthon ko firata raha , fir apni jeebh
ko baahar nikala aur uski gardan par firata
hua ,,neeche ki taraf le jaane
laga ………dheere dheere apni jeebh se ek
lakeer banata hua main uski dono
choochiyon ke beech se hota hua uski naabhi
tak pahuncha …main apne ghutno par baith
gaya aur apni jeebh uski aabhi mein ghusa
di…………….uske shareer mein ek current sa
daudta mehsoos hua aur usne apne haathon
ko mere baalo mein kas diya………..agle
kuchh seconds main uski naabhi ko apni
jeebh aur honthon se choosta raha ………….
Fir maine apni jeebh ko oopar ki taraf
badhana shuru kiya ……….saath saath mein
main kiss bhi karta jaa raha tha ………meri
jeebh uski ek golayi par jaakar
rukgayi ………maine uski ek choochi ke
baahri hisse par apni jeebh se ek daayra
banana shuru kar diya ………..har bar jab ek
chakkar poora hota tha , daayra chhota hota
jaata tha ……………..uske muh se siskaariyan
footne lagi thi………………daayra chota hote
hote meri jeebh uske nipple tak pahunch
gayi………uske nipple ko maine apni jeebh se
cheda aur uske muh se ek lambi si ahhhhhh
nikal gayi…………
Fir maine uske nipple ko muh mein bhar liya
aur bahut dheere dheere choosna shuru kar
diya…. Uske muh se ab lambi lambi
siskaariyan foot rahi thi …………..uske haath
meri peeth par ghoom rahe they , aur apni
betaabi ka ehsaas karwa rahe they …….mera
muh uske doosre nipple par aa gaya , aur
maine uske saath bhi wahi salook kiya jo
pehle ke saath kar raha tha ……..mere haath
ab uski peeth se neeche , uski kamar par
hote huye ..uski gaand par pahunch gaye aur
usko daboch liya ……geele kapde mein aisa
mehsoos ho raha tha ki woh uss jagah se bhi
nangi hi hai..

Achanak usne poora jor laga kar apne aap ko

mujhse alag kiya...woh haanf rahi thi aur uski
saans bahut tez chal rahi thi ........ har saans
ke saath uski chhaatiyan oopar neeche ho
rahi thi ……..usne ek baar meri aankhon
mein dekha aur fir do kadam peechhe ko ho
gayi ……….fir woh ghoom kar doosre kamre
ki taraf chal di…………uss kamre ke andar
ghuste huye usne ek baar fir meri taraf
ghoom kar dekha aur fir kamre ke andar
chali gayi
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#44
Main kuchh seconds tak wahin par khada
sochta raha ki achanak Shaazia ko kya ho
gaya………..fir uss doosre kamre ki taraf
badh gaya…

Doosre kamre ke darwaaze par pahunch kar

jab maine andar jhaanka to mere honthon
par hansi aur aankhon mein chamak aa
gayi…andar ka scene hi la-jawaab tha.
Iss doosre kamre mein bhi kaafi saari ghaas-
phoos bhari huye thi…….jisko Shaazia ne
ikattha kar ke ek bistar sa bana diya
tha ……… uss bistar par Shaazia leti huyee
thi , bilkul nangi awastha mein ……uski
salwaar bhi ab shareer se alag hokar khidki
par tangi huyee thi………Woh bistar par ulti
hokar leti huyee thi, aur apna chehra apne
haath se dhaka hua tha ………kul milakar
kamukta aur sharm ka anootha sangam
dikhaayi pad raha tha …….

Main uss bistar ke nazdeek pahuncha aur

uske shareer ko oopar se neeche tak
nihara …..bilkul safed bedaag badan….patli
kamar aur uske neeche kuchh chaudi
gaand ….usne apni ek taang doosri ke oopar
chada rakhi thi jiski wajah se dono jaanghe
aapas mein mili huyee thi ………
Maine baahar dekha ……..barf ab bhi
lagataar pad rahi thi……maine bhi apna
aakhiri kapda , apna payjama khol kar apne
shareer se alag kar diya …aur bistar par uss
ke paas baith gaya …..

Maine ek haath uski doodhiya jaangh par

rakha aur uske shaheer mein kampan ka
ehsas mujhe hua ………..maine apne haath ko
uski jaangh par firaya aur fir haath ko uski
gaand par le gaya……….mere haath ferne se
uske shareer mein jo harkat ho rahi thi uska
ehsaas mujhe ho raha tha..
Main thoda neeche ko hua aur jhuk kar apne
honth uski pindali par rakh diye …………fir
oopar ki ore chalte huye chhote chotte kiss
karne laga , har kiss ke saath mere honth
aage badh jaate the ………uske ghutno ke
peechhe waale hisse se hote huye mere hoth
uski jaangh tak pahunche aur fir uski gaand
tak……….ek side ka safar poora karne ke
baad maine doosri taraf se neeche ki taraf
badhna shuru kiya …………aur mere honth
uski gaand se hote huye , uski jaangh , pindli
aur fir uske panje tak pahunch gaye …………

Neeche pahunch kar maine uske dono paanv

ko haatho se pakda aur ek doosre se alag kar
diya ……………fir main neeche jhuk gaya aur
dono pairo ke androoni hisso ko choomta
hua oopar ki taraf badhne laga……..dheere
dheere , apne honthon ki mohar lagata hua
main uski androoni jaanghon tak pahunch
gaya………..har chumban ke saath uske
shareer mein ek harkat hoti thi aur uski
taange bhi apne aap khulne lagi thi ……..

Uski jaanghon ko main kaafi der tak

choomta raha…….beech beech mein muh
khol kar choos bhi leta tha ………..fir maine
dono haathon ko uski jaanghon ke andar
waale hisse par rakha aur dono ko alag alag
disha mein faile diya ……….uski choot ab
poori tarah se khul kar mere saamne
thi…….uske pane hi ras mein bheegi huyi aur
ek sankuchan sa mujhe usme hota dikhayi
pad raha tha…………..
Main poori tarah neeche let gaya , maine
apna sar neeche kiya aur apne honth uski
choot par rakh diya ………ek ajeeb sa swaad
mere honthon ko mehsoos hua jo mere liye
to anjaana nahi tha ………..
Apne dono haathon ko uski gaand par jama
kar maine usko pakad liya aur fir apni jeebh
ko uski choot ki daraar par oopar se neeche
firane laga …..uski choot par mulayam se ,
halke sunahre rang ke baal they jo mere
andar ek sirhan paida kar rahe
they…………….

Maine apni do ungliyon se uski choot ke lips

ko alag kiya aur fir apni jeebh ko thoda sa
andar ghussa diya …………meri iss harkat se
uske andar maano jwalamukhi foot
gaya …….uska poora shareer jor se kaampa
aur fir ek geelapan mujhe apni jeebh par
mehssos hua ……….

Main uske oopar se utha………….usko

kandhe se pakad kar ghumaya aur seedha
lete diya………..ab woh bulkul seedhi mere
saamne leti huyee thi , bilkul janmjaat
awastha mein , apne haath se apne muh ko
dhake huye ……..

Maine uski dono tango ko alag kiya aur uske

beech mein baith gaya ………fir uske oopar
let sa gaya par apna saara weight uske side
mein ek kohni rakh kar uss par daal
diya ……….
Doosre haath se maine uske haath ko pakda
aur uske chehre par se hata diya…uski
aankhen band thi..main neeche ko jhuka aur
uski aankhon ko choom liya………

“ Aankhen kholo Shaazia ……” maine uske

gaal
ko choomte huye kaha……….

Usne dheere se apni aankhen khol di …

“ Tum jaanti ho na ki tum kya karne jaa rahi

ho…..” main uske baalo mein haath firata
hua bola ……..jawaab mein usne dheere se
sar hilaya aur apna chehra fir se meri bagal
mein chhipa liya ……………..

“ Tum yeh bhi jaanti ho ki shaayad mein

yahan se jaakar fir waapas nahi aa
paaonga……………. “ main aage bola

usne apna chehra peeche hataya….aur meri

aankhon mein dekhne lagi
“ main bas itna jaanti hoon ki main tumko
chahti hoon , aur mujhe yakeen hai kit um
mujhe kabhi dhoka nahi doge “ ………..keh
kar usne mera haath pakda aur choom
liya …….
Uski iss baat se mere dil mein uske liya saare
jahan ka pyar umad aaya …….maine man hi
man nischay kar liya ki ab maine yahan se
Shaazia ko saath lekar hi jaaonga …………..

Maine apna haath neeche kiya ……….uski

dono jaanghon ko thoda sa aur failaya aur fir
apne aap ko thoda sa aage sarka
diya ………….mere lund ka sparsh apni choot
par paate hi uske muh se ek baar fir siskaari
nikal gayi……usne apni aankhen band kar lee
aur pratiksha karne lagi mari agli harkat
ki ……..
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#45
Maine apna haath uski choot par oopar se
neeche ki taraf firaya ……..apne hi ras mein
bheegi huyee uski choot bilkul tayyar
thi……..maine apne lund ko haath mein
pakda aur fir uske chhed par tika
diya ………..maine dono haathon ko uski
bagal se nikaal kar uske kandhon par se
pakad liya………mujhe maloom tha ki uss par
ab kya beetne waali hai……..fir maine apna
sar neeche jhukaya aur uske honthon ko
apne honthon mein samet liya……….usne bhi
apne honth khol kar maano mera swaagat
giya………kuchh seconds tak honth choosne
ke baad maine apni kamar ko jhatka diya aur
apna lund jo abhi tak uski choot ke muh par
hi tha……..andar dhakel diya
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……………….Uske
muh se ek cheekh nikli , jisko main apne
honthon ke andar hi pee gaya………apne
lund par garm sa ehsaas mujhe hua , shayad
usne apna kunwarapan kho diya
tha …….uske chehre par dard ki lakeer saaf
dikhaayi pad rahi thi………

Maine ek haath ko uske maathe par feraya

aur fir uske gaal ko choomne laga ……..sard
mausam mein bhi uske chehre par paseena
dikhayi pad raha tha…….main neeche jhuka
aur uski ek choochi ko muh mein bhar ke
choosna shuru kar diya………..usne apne
hath ko meri peeth par le jaakar mujhe
pakad liya……….ab maine apni kamar ko
halke halke jhatke dene shuru kar
diye…….10-12 jhatko ke baad hi mujhe lagne
laga ki ab woh mera saath dene ko tayyar
hai………
Maine sar utha kar uske chehre par
dekha ……….usnki nazre meri hi taraf dekh
rahi thi………….mere dekhte hi usne haath
bada kar mera chehra apne paas kar liya aur
fir apna muh meri bagal mein chhipa
diya …………main uske baalo ko choomte
huye dhakke lagane laga....

Mere dhakko mein ab thodi tezi aati jaa rahi

thi………..kuchh to mera be-sabra pan aur
kuchh uski tight choot ke kaaran , mujhe ag
raha tha ki main bahut der tak apne oopar
control nahi kar paoonga…
Main ab uske oopar se uth kar , ghutno ke
bal baith gaya……..uski ek taang ko utha kar
apne kandhe par rakha aur fir lambe lambe
stroke maarne shuru kar diye…………

Har dhakke ke saath ab uske muh se awaaz

nikal rahi thi, masti bhari awaaz jisme dard
ka ehsaas ab bahut kam tha……ya shaayad
masti dard par haavi ho gayi thi….

Mere har dhakke ke saath uski kamar bhi

harkat karne lagi thi …….main fir se uske
oopar let gaya……..uske ghutno ko poora
mod kar , jaanghon ko khol diya….aur ek
haath ko uski kamar ke neeche daal kar uski
gaand ko thoda oopar utha liya……….fir
maine apne ghutno ko bistar par jama
kar ………jordaar dhakke lagaane shuru kar
diye……….

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…………..ohhhhh……
……….ufffffffffffff…………….basss……………
………….ruk
jaao ………………………haannnnnn…………….a
ise hi …………………

Kuchh iss tarah ki awaaze uske muh se

lagataar nikal rahi thi ……………uski choot
paani chode jaa rahi thi aur mere lund ke liye
raasta aur aasan hota jar aha
tha ………………………maine doosre haath ko
bhi uski kamar ke neeche laga diya aur fir
apne muh uski choochi par jama
diya ……….usne bhi dono haaton se meri
gardan ko pakadkar mujhe pane seene se
bheench liya ………..usn apni dono taange
jitni oopar ho sakti thi , hawa mein utha
rakhi thi ………………………

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh………….ki tez
awwaz mere muh se nikli aur apne shareer
ka lava maine uske shareer mein chhod
diya ………………..usne bhi apni kamar ko
utha kar maano mujhe apne andar samet
liya …………………hum dono ke hi shareer
agle 10-15 seconds tak kaampte rahe fir
main apna sar uske seene par rakh kar uske
oopar hi ludak gaya ………….
Baahr barfbaari ab ruk chuki thi aur andar
bhi jo ek toofaan sa utha tha, woh shaant ho
gaya tha..........kamre mein sirf hum dono ki
taz saanso ki awwaz hi sunayi pad rahi
thi .............
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#46

Kaafi der tak hum dono aise hi ek doosre se

lipte huye pade rahe…..fir maine usko
baahon mein bhar kar apne aur paas samet
liya ………thodi der tak who mere seene se
lag kar leti rahi ,…..

“ Ab humein chalna chaahiye ……………….”

Usne khidki ki taraf dekhte huye kaha ….
Maine bhi baahar dekha …………Barf baari
ab ruk chuki thi , isliye hum dono ne jaldi se
kapde pehne aur wahan se waapas chal
diye……….

Baahar barf ki moti chaadar bichhi huyee

thi ………….hum dono ne hi halke kapde
pehne huye they isliye sardi lag rahi thi aur
dono ek doosre ka haath pakad kar chalte
jaa rahe the………

Jab hum yahan aaye they to ek doosre se

alag-alag they ………par pichhle kuchh hi
ghanto mein humaare beech ek naya rishta
kaayam ho chukka tha …….. ………..jitna
najdeek humaare jism aa chuke they, uss se
kahin jyada kareeb humaare dil they….

Ek doosre ka haath thame huye hum chale

jaa rahe they……..main poore raaste uss ko
apne baare mein batata ja raha
tha………..apne ghar ke baare mein , apne
pariwaar ke baare main aur apne Hindustan
ke baare mein …….
Jaise jaise hum ghar ke nazdeek pahunch
rahe the , barf ki motaai kam hoti jaa rahi
thi ……………iska matlab iss taraf kam barf
padi thi ……….mausam kuchh had tak khul
chukka tha, haalanki aasmaan par ab bhi
kaale baadal chhaye huye they…………
Waapas laut-te huye humein chadhayi
(upward) chadh ke jaana pad raha tha , isliye
der lag rahi thi …….par fir bhi baat karte
karte, aur ek doosre ka haath thame huye
hum ghar ke nazdeek pahunch gaye…………

Iss baar humne doosre raaste ko use

kiya ………..jahan pehle din main nahane ke
liye gaya tha , yaani ki tabele ki righ side se
hote huye …aur humara yeh move sahi
saabit hua …………abhi hum log ghar se
kareeb 100 meter door hi they ki kuchh dekh
kar hum dono hi chaunk gaye aur jaldi se ek
ped ke peechhe chhip gaye aur fir wahan se
sarka kar ek ghani jhaadi ke peeche pahunch
kar apne ghutno ke bal baith gaye ……………
Saamne jo dikhaayi de raha tha woh humaari
dhadkane badhaane ke liye kaafi
the ……….iss jagah se ghar ka darwaaza aur
ghar ke saamne ka maidaan dikhaayi pad
raha tha ………….wahan ek jeep , jo ki
Pakistani fauz ki thi , kahdi
thi ……………gaadi ke andar , driving seat par
ek driver tha aur uske paas hi, gaadi ke
baahar ek doosra aadmi (fauzi) khada
tha …iss doosre fauzi ke haath mein AK 47
door se hi dikhayi pad rahi thi………….maine
aas paas nigaah daudaayi , koi aur mujhe
nahi dikhayi pada …
Fir ghar ka darwaaza khula aur ghar ke andar
se 3 log baahar nikle , Hina aur uske saath 2
addmi ……….dono aadmi fauzi vardi mein
they…………ek fauzi ke haath mein AK47 thi
aur doosra , jo ki afsar ki uniform mein
tha ….khaali haath tha ……….woh afsar Hina
se kuchh keh raha tha aur Hina ka sar kabhi
Haan mein aur kabhi naa mein hilta dikhayi
de raha tha ………

Mere kandhe par achaanak mujhe Shaazia ka

haath mehsoos hua ….maine sar ghuma kar
dekha , woh mere bilkul paas aa gayi
thi………..aur mere hath ko kas kar pakad
liya tha………..usne bhi ek baar meri taraf
dekha aur fir saamne dekhte huye
boli …………..” yeh , Aslam beg
hai …………..pakistani fauz ka area
commander “

Maine ek baar fir saamne dekha ………….woh

log abhi bhi kuchh baat kar rahe
they ……………
“ Yahi hai jo Baaji ke shauhar ko apne saath
le gaya tha ……………..aur iss hi ki wazah se
unka bachcha ………….” Kehte kehte uska
gala bhar aaya aur fir uski aankhon mein
aansoo aa gaye …………….

Uski baat sunte hi mere saare shareer mein

ek bijli si daud gayi …………….jee chaha ki
abhi jaakar Aslam beg ko goli maar
doon ………main aisa kar bhi sakta tha , par
mujhe maloom tha ki main kahan hoon aur
aisa karne ke baad main apne liye , aur inn
dono behno ke liye musibat hi khadi kar
dene wala hoon ……..
maine Shaazia ke kandhe par haath rakha
aur usko dilasa dene laga……………..fir maine
saamne dekha, Aslam beg jeep mein baith
chukka tha…………aur fir jeep ghoom kar
waapas chali gayi ……………..

Hum dono agle 5 minute tak wahin par

chhupe rahe aur fir dheere dheere aage
badhte huye ghar tak pahunch
gaye ………….Shaazia bhagti huyee ghar
mein chali gayi aur main waapas apne kamre
mein
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#47
Main apne kamre mein aakar bistar par baith
gaya………..maine ghadi mein time
dekha………do-pahar ke 3.30 baj rahe
they……………. Main kuchh der baitha raha
aur fir bistar par late gaya………………
Jaisi ki mujhe ummeed thi…………….10
minute baad hi Hina wahan par aa
gayi ………… woh seedhi kamre mein aayee
aur bistar ke paas khadi ho gayi…main usko
dekhte hi uth kar baith gaya………

“ Tumne mujhe poori baat kyon nahi batayi

thi …………? ” uski aawaz mein kuchh narazgi
aur gussa tha

“ Kya baat ? “ main abhi bhi poori baat

samajh nahi paa raha tha ..
“ Tumne uss aadmi ko maar diya tha jo uss
raat mere saath bad-tamizi kar raha
tha ……kyon sahi hain na ? “ woh mere
saamne baith gayi aur meri aankhon mein
jhaankte huye boli …
“ Mere paas aur koi raasta nahi
tha …………..woh zinda rehta to hum dono
ko pakadwa sakta tha ….” Main ek lambi
saans leta hua bola …. “ par yeh Aslam beg
yahan kya karne aaye tha ….?”

“ uss aadmi ki laash neeche ek sadak ke

kinaare padi huyee mili , police ne andaja
laga liya ki kisi ne usko maar kar oopar se
neeche fainka hai………fir inn logo ne gaanv
mein pooch-taach ki to maloom pada ki uss
raat main uss ilake mein gayi thi ……iss liye
woh mere se pooch-tachh karne yahan aaye
they ……………tum jaante they na ki woh
police waala tha ? “ uske chehre par
pareshaani ke bhaav saaf dikhayi pad rahe
they

“ par tum saaf mana kar sakti thee ki tum

kucch nahi jaanti ….” Maine uske sawaal ko
ansuna karte huye aage kaha

“ tum uss chhatri ko bhool rahe ho jo tum

wahan chhod aaye they …………woh chhatri
ab police ke paas hai……” woh meri aankhon
mein dekhte huye boli …….

Main chup hi raha………….chup-chap uske

chehre ko dekhta raha……
“ Filhaal to woh log chale gaye
hain ………..par Aslam beg bahut chalak
aadmi hai………….usko poora yakeen hi hai
ki iss ke peechhe uss aadmi ka haath hai jiska
air craft yahan crash hua tha ………………
woh jaroor iss ghar par nigaah rakh raha
hoga “

agle kuchh seconds hum dono chup rahe , fir

baat meine hi shuru ki

“ main nahi chaahta ki meri wajah se tum log

kisi pareshaani mein pado ……….main yahan
se bahut jaldi hi chala jaaonga …………” main
neeche dekhte huye keh raha tha
“ abhi to filhaal tum yahin par chhip kar
raho , yahan se baahr nikaloge to un logo ki
nigaah mein aa jaaoge ………..main bahut
jaldi tumhaare nikalne ka intezam kar
doongi “ keh kar woh uthh khadi huyee aur
fir wahan se chali gayi ………………..
maine kamre ki deewar mein bane chhedo se
baahar jhanka …………mujhe door door tak
koi dihkayi nahi pada ………….par ho sakta
ho ki woh log chhip kar nigaah rakh rahe
ho …………..maine uth kar darwaaze ko
andar se band kar liya aur fir se aakar bistar
par baith gaya……………..

5 minute baad hi Shaazia mere liye khana

lekar wahan aa gayi …………..humesha ki
tarah aaj khana plate mein nahi balki ek
basket ke andar rakh ke laayi
thi ……………isliye ki agar koi humaare oopar
nigaah rakh raha ho to uss ko yeh na
maloom pade ki mere liye yahan khana aa
raha hai …

usne jaldi se khana lagaya aur fir uth kar

jaane lagi ………..
“ Suno Shaazia ………..!! mujhe kuchh chheje
chaahiye “ maine us se kaha..

usne mud kar swaaliya nigaah se meri taraf

dekha ……

“ ek blade , ek pen , gond (glue) aur ho sake

to tape …………….. “ maine apni jaroorat
usko samjhayi ……..
usne fir ek baar asmanjas se meri taraf
dekha ………….fir boli “ abhi dekhti
hoon………….shaayad saari chheje mil
jaayengi “ keh kar woh wahan se chali gayi
aur main khana khaane mein vyast ho
gaya ……………….

10 minute baad hi woh fir se waapas aa

gayi………..uske haath mein woh sab cheeje
thi jo maine maangi thi ………………..sab
mere haath mein dene ka baad ussne
bartano ko ikattha kiya aur fir bina kuchh
kahe waapas chali gayi………………

uske jaane ke baad maine fir se kamre ka

darwaaza band kiya aur apne bistar par
aakar baith gaya ……………meine apne bag
mein se apna wallet nikala aur uss ke andar
se Sohail malik ka ID card aur
licence …………..

agle 1/2 ghante main sar jhuuka kar apne

kaam mein laga raha ……………1/2 ghante ki
mehnat ke baad maine unn dono cheejo par
(ID card aur licence) se Sohail malik ki photo
hata kar apni photo laga di………….aur jahan
jaroorat thi wahan pen se likhkar signature
aur stamp ko bhi match kar diya …………

Koi bahut gaur se dekhne par hi pakad sakta

tha ki dono cards mein kisi ne hera-feri ki
huyee hai……….maine man hi man apne aap
ko shabashi di aur dono cards ko apne wallet
ke hawaale kar diya….aur fir se bistar par let
gaya………………….
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#48

Shaam ho gayi thi…..main kamre ke andar hi

leta hua tha…….baahar nikal nahi sakta tha
kyon ki woh mere liye aur inn dono ke liye
khatarnaak saabit ho sakta tha………..

6 baje ke aas-paas Hina fir se tabele mein

aayi…..iss baar jaanwaro ko daana-paani
dene ke liye ……..main apne bistar se uth kar
kamre ke darwaaze par aa gaya aur kuchh
aise khada ho gaya jis se woh mujhe dekh
sake par koi aur baahar se na dekh sake …..
“ Yeh Aslam beg rehta kahan hai……..?
“ maine uski taraf dekhte huye
poochha…………..woh neeche baithi huyee
kuchh kaam kar rahi thi

usne achanak chaunk kar meri taraf dekha

aur fir dheere se hansti huyee boli
“ kyon !!……….kya karne waale ho ? “

“ Kuchh nahi ……………bas aise hi poochh

raha tha ……..tumhe maloom hai ? “ maine
uski taraf dekhte huye utsukta se poochaa..

agle kuchh seconds woh chup rahi , fir ek

lambi saans lekar boli “ sahi sahi to maloom
nahi hai …………...waise to highway par aage
chaukiyan bani huyee hai ………raat ko to
wahin par hi rehta hai……….aas-paas ka
saara ilaka hi uske under mein hai, isliye
yahan-wahan ghoomta bhi rehta hai“ fir
kuchh der ruk kar aage bolna shuru kiya….

“ maine yeh bhi suna hai ki bahut bada

ayyash aadmi hai…………….iss gaanv mein hi
kuchh thikaane hai uske……….jahan woh
aksar raat guzaarne ke liye jata rehta
hai …………..” kehkar usne ek baar meri taraf
dekha aur fir apne kaam mein lag gayi…

“ Tumko maloom hai koi thikana ? “ maine

fir se sawaal kiya

“ nahi …………. “ apna kaam rok kar woh

boli ………..fir kuchh seconds tak sochti rahi
aura age bataya …. “ uski jeep ka driver hai ,
Shaukat ali ….maine suna hai ki woh uska
raajdaar hai……….woh kahan jaata hai , kya
karta hai……….sab yeh Shaukat ali jaanta
hai…………..”

“ Aur yeh Shaukat ali kahan milta hai ?

“ main hanste huye poochha

“ Din bhar to woh Aslam beg ke saath hi

rehta hai……….par raat mein aksar iss hi
gaanv mein rehta hai………..iss gaanv mein hi
uska ghar bhi . “ woh ab seedhi baith kar
meri taraf dekhte huye bata rahi thi ……….
“waise tum karna kya chaahte ho “
“ Kuchh khaas nahi ……………. Tum to
koshish kar hi rahi ho , maine socha main bhi
kuchh koshish karonn yahan se jaldi nikalne
ki ………….waise ek baat batao , raat mein
gaanv ke andar jaana sahi hai kya ? “

“ Agar gaanv mein ghoomna hai to jaa sakte

ho , par dhyan rakhna ki kisi ki nigaah mein
na aao………………. Shaukat ali ka ghar
neeche jaakar hai …………” fir woh mujhe
shaukat ali ke ghar ka raasta samjhaane lagi ,
maine poora naksha apne dimaag mein utaar
liya ….fir aakhir mein woh boli…….”

“ Jo bhi karna ho …….dekh kar karna ,

tumhaare nikalne ka intezam to shaayad kal
tak ho hi jaayega , par apna aur humaara
dhyaan jaroor rakhna…” uski awaaz mein aur
aankhon mein apna-pan aur chinta jhalak
rahi thi …agle kuchh seconds hum ek doosre
ko dekhte rahe , fir usne apni nigaah neeche
kar li aur wahan se chali gayi……….main fir
se aakar apne kamre mein baith gaya aur
apne plan par vichaar karne laga……….

Raat kareeb 8 baje

honge …………….Darwaaje par dastak
huyee……..main darwaaja khola………yeh
Shaazia thi……….haath mein ek basket liye,
jisme mere liye khana tha….

woh kamre ke andar aa gayi …………maine

ek baar baahar jhanka…….fir darwaaje ko
bhida kar band kar diya …………..Shaazia
neeche baith kar,bistar par mere liye khaana
laga rahi thi………khana laga kar jaise hi woh
uthi, maine usko peechhe se apni baahon
mein pakad liya ………

“ kya kar rahe ho …………..chhodo mujhe ,

baaji aa jaayengi “ uski baaton mein sirf
formality thi , koi virodh nahi tha …….

Maine usko apni taraf ghumaya ……………fir

uske chehre ko apne dono haathon mein
pakad liya ………usne mera ishara samajh kar
apne honth meri taraf badha diye , jinko
maine apne honthon mein samet liya …..
Agle 2 minutes tak hum aise hi ek doosre ke
honthon ka ras chooste rahe ……..fir usne
mere seene par haath rakh kar , mujhe apne
aap se alag kiya ……..uski saanse bhaari ho
gayi thi aur har saans ke saath uski
chhaatiyan oopar neeche ho rahi
thi ………..woh ek-tak meri aankhon mein hi
dekhe jaa rahi thi………..

“ Suno Shaazia ………….tum bilkul tayyar

rehna …………..hum logo ko kabhi bhi yahan
se bhaagne pad sakta hai “ maine uske gaal
ko thap-thapa kar kaha aur fir bistar par
baith gaya ………..

Woh kuchh seconds aise hi khadi rehkar meri

soorat dekhti rahi fir boli “ kya matlab , main
samjhi nahi ?? “
“ maine kaha………..hum dono ko kabhibhi
yahan se bhagna pad sakta hai……..tum
bilkul tayyar rehna “

“ kahan bhaagna pad sakta hai ? kahan jaa

rahe hain hum ? “ who bilkul mere saamne
baith gayi aur mere chehre ki taraf dekhte
huye boli

“ Hindustan………….kya tum mere saath nahi

chalogi ?? “ maine khana khate huye kaha
who kuchh der chup rahi ………..fir boli
“ chaloongi ………par aise nahi …….kya hum
baaji ko nahi batayenge ??? “

“ koshish karenge ki hum Hina ko bhi apne

saath le jaa saken …….par ho sakta hai ki
abhi hum dono ko hi nikalna pade ………..fir
hum Hina ko baad mein apne paas bulva
lenge “ maine maano usko dilasa dete huye
samjhaya

“ meri to kuchh bhi samajh mein nahi aa

raha hai…..hum baaji ko yahan chhod kar
kaise jaa sakte hain ……….nahi Ajay , hum
unko saath hi lekar jaayenge “ who meri
taraf dekhte huye vinti bhare swar mein boli
“ jaroor………..hum koshish to yahi karenge ,
par ho sakta hai ki sab kuchh humaare
anusaar na ho , isliye maine tumse tayyar
rehne ke liye kaha “ maine usko samjhaya ,
main apna khana khatm kar chukka tha …….
Plate ko ek taraf rakh kar main uske paas aa
gaya , aur uske dono kandho par haath rakh
kar uski aankhon mein dekhte huye bola
“ main ab yahan se akela nahi jaane
waala …………kam se kam tum to mere saath
hi jaaogi…….Hina ko hum kuchh dino ke
baad bhi bula sakte hain “

Usne apna sar hilaya , maano meri baat uski

samajh mein aa gayi ho …..fir aage ko jhuk
kar usne mere gaal par ek kiss kiya , bartan
samete aur fir dheere se uth kar baahar chali
gayi
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#49

Raat ke kareeb 10.00 baj rahe they…….maine

apne bag mein se apni revolver nikaali aur
uss par silencer fit kar liya……. Bullets check
ki ,
revolver ki magazine full thi ………..ek extra
magazine maine apni jeb mein daal
li………….apne aap ko maine kambal mein
lapet liya aur fir dheere se uth kar baahar aa
gaya ………

baahar aakar main tabele ke right side se

hota hua peechhe jangal ki taraf chala
gaya ……… fir ek lamba chakkar lagata hua
main ghar se kaafi door, kareeb 500 meter
aage jaakar , waapas uss hi raaste par aa
gaya jo gaanv ki taraf jaata tha ……..aage
jaakar yeh raasta do taraf kat jaata
tha …….jaisa ki Hina ne mujhe samjhaya
tha …….. ek kachcha rasta wahin par
pahunchta tha , jahan mein jana chah raha
tha ……….

Main andhere mein teer lagane ki koshish

kar raha tha……jis maksad se main nikla tha ,
ho sakta tha ki main usmein kamyaab ho
jaaon , aur ho sakta tha ki nahi ……..par main
ek baar yeh try jaroor karna chahta
tha ……aage jaakar left side mein kachcha
raasta jaa raha tha …….main dheere dheere
aage badhta raha ………….jhaadiyon se hota
hua , pattharo ke oopar se hokar mujhe
neeche ki taraf jaana tha …….yeh ekdum
seedha khada raasta tha ………jis par paanv
fisalne ka matlab tha ki bahut jordaar chot
khana…….

Main apne paanv jama kar dheere dheere

chalta raha………fir kareeb 20 minute chalne
ke baad main wahan pahunch gaya jo abhi
filhal meri manzil thi ……yaani Shaukat ali ka
ghar

Woh jagah raaste se thoda hatkar thi……..ek

maidaan ke charo tarf kuchh makaan bane
huye they …….jisme sabse akhiri makaan , jo
ki sadak se sabse door tha ……Shaukat ali ka
tha …….main uss ghar ke peechhe waale
hisse mein pahunch gaya ………poora ghar
andhere mein dooba hua tha …….main
idhar-udhar dekhte hua , ghar ke saamne aa
gaya aur check kiya , darwaaje par lock laga
hua tha ……..iska matlam Shaukat ali abhi
ghar nahi lauta tha …………aur mujhe nahi
maloom tha ki woh waapas bhi aane waala
hai ya nahi……………. Mere paas uska intezar
karne ke alaawa koi aur chara nahi tha , aur
mujhe nahi maloom thi ki kitni der mujhe
intezar karna padega …………

Main waapas ghar ke peeche waale hisse

mein aa gaya …………isske peechhe ek pahad
oopar ja raha tha ( jahan se main abhi
neeche aaya tha ) aur saamne ghar hone ki
wajah se mujhe koi dekh nahi sakta
tha ……fir bhi main ghar se thodi door
hatkar , ek chote se ped ke paas pahunch
gaya aur uske peeche ek patthar se peeth
tika kar baith gaya……..

Agle ek ghante tak main aise hi baitha

raha……….. mujhe ab lagne laga tha ki
shaayad woh aaj ghar waapas nahi lautne
waala………….fir jab main waapas lautne ki
soch hi raha tha ki kisi gaadi ki awaaz aane
lagi ………main uth kar , ped ke peeche
khada ho gaya ………jahan main tha , wahan
se main road aur ghar ke saamne ka scene
saaf dikhayi pad raha tha ………
Who ek jeep thi jo shaukat ali ke ghar ke
saamne aakar ruki ……………ek aadmi , jo
Shaukat hi hona chahiye , uss me se utra aur
fir ghar ke saamne ja kar khada ho
gaya ………main apni jagah par khada intezar
karta raha ……..darwaaza khulne ki awaaz
aayi aur fir band hone ki ……….par mujhe
abhi kuchh der aur intezar karna tha…………
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#50
10 minute main wahin par intezar karta
raha………fir apni jagah se baahar nikla aur
ghar ke saamne aakar khada ho
gaya……………….ek lambi saans lekar main
ghar ka darwaaza khat-khataya ………..andar
se ek do awaazein aayi aur fir kuchh seconds
baad darwaaze ke peechhe se kisi ki awaaz
aayi…….. “ kaun hai ? “ (yeh sawaal local
language mein pochha gaya tha )
main chup hi raha ………10 seconds baad fir
wahi sawaal “ abe kaun hai ?”

“ darwaaza kholiye saahab , main hoon ….”

Maine apne lehze ko kashmiri karte huye
kaha………

darwaaza khula ………..woh ek lambe se kad

ka aadmi tha , kareeb mere hi
barabar………..umar kareeb 35 saal ke aas-
paas hogi……..

“ Kya hua …………kaun ho tum ? “ usne

kadak aawaz mein poochha , uske muh
kholte hi sharaab ki tez badboo meri naak
mein padi…………maine gaur kiya ki woh
darwaaze ka sahara lekar khada tha……..aur
aankhen kholne mein bhi usko dikkat ho rahi
thi ……………

“ Saahab , aapne pehchana nahi ……..main

Waseem hoon ……………gurderi gaanv ka
“ maine apni awaaz ko patli karte huye
kaha …………iss gaanv ka naam mujhe Hina
ne hi bataya tha …………

usne ek baar fir se aankh khol kar mujhe

dekhne ki koshish ki par maine apne aap ko
kambal mein lapeta hua tha , iss wajah se
mera sirf chehra hi usko nazar aa raha
tha …..aur saath hi yeh bhi lag raha tha ki
nasha uske oopar poori tarah se sawaar
tha …………….
“ Abe kaun Waseem ? “

“ Are saab main Waseem …………..Beg saab

ka khabri “

“ bolo kya kaam hai ?” woh jhallata hua

bola….

“ Saab se milna hai……………beg saab se

“ main apni awaaz mein adab lata hua
bola …………

“ to jaakar chauki par mil

le …………………yahan kyon aya hai “ woh
gurrata hua sa bola ………….
“ Saab , main paidal hi yahan tak aaya
hoon …………chauki tak kaise pahoonch
paoonga ………….. saab bole they , kabhi
mere paas aana ho to aapko saath le
aaoon……” main poori izzat se baat kar raha
tha …

“ Koi khaas kaam hai kya ..? “ ab uski awaaz

mein narmi thi

“ haan saab …………ek bahut jaroori khabar

deni hai “

“ mujhe bata de , main pahuncha

doonga ….woh darwaaze se hat kar andar ki
taraf chalta hua bola …………….uske kadam
lad-khada rahe they……main uske peeche
peeche chal diya ………….

“ Saab , lagta hai aapki tabiyat sahi nahi

hai…………aap mujhe bata do ki beg saab
kahan par milenge , main khud hi jaakar mil
aoonga “ main man hi man khush hota hua
bola…..

“ to jaakar chauki par mil le na “ ab woh

kamre ke andar pahunch gaya tha………..sath
mein main bhi

“ Saab……….beg saab iss samay chauki par

kahan milte hain……….gaanv mein hi kahin
mauj-mela chal raha hoga ………” main
aankh dabata hua , dheemi si awwaz mein
bola ……..

jawaab mein usne jor ka thahaka

lagaya ………..woh ek kursi par baith gaya
aur fir bola “ abe yaar ….meri haalat to nahi
hai abhi jaane laayak ………ya to tu khud hi
chala ja , ya subah tak intezar kar
le …….main saath le jaaonga…… “

“ aap mujhe hi bata do saab…………agar

gaanv mein hi hain to main khud jaakar mil
leta hoon……….” Main uske saamne kursi
par baith gaya ………andar hi andar main
bahut khush tha , mera kaam itni aasani se
ho jaayega , mujhe ummeed nahi thi
woh lad-khadata hua kursi se utha…….fir
bola “ tu baith ………main abhi aata hoon
“ keh kar woh kamre ke andar chala
gaya ………………..

main kuchh der baitha raha...........kareeb 2

minute intezar karne ke baad main uth kar
khada ho gaya aur time kaatne ke liye kamre
ka jaayja lene laga

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#51

Uss ke ghar mein woh har cheej maujood thi

jo aish-o-aaram ke liye chahiye hoti hai ,
bahut achche dhang se maintain kar rakha
tha usne apne ghar ko ……ek taraf deewar
par kuchh tasveere lagi huyee thi……kuchh
group photographs they…….main un ko
dekhne ke liye nazdeek chala gaya , aur
yahin par mein galti kar gaya……..

Main kuchh seconds ke liye bhool gaya tha ki

main kahan par hoon ………yad tab aaya jab
peechhe se awaaz aayi ………….

“ Apne dono haath oopar utha kar peechhe

ghoom jaao ……………….. “
pehle to main chaunk gaya ………….fir saari
stithi ko samajh kar dono haath oopar utha
liye aur aawaz ki disha mein ghoom
gaya …………saamne Shaukat ali khada tha ,
uske ek haath mein revolver thi jo meri taraf
hi tani huyee thi aur doosre haath mein ke
wireless hanset tha ………………..

“ Tumhe kya laga tha ki tum mujhe bewkoof

bana sakte ho ? ………….. tumne yeh socha
hoga ki main nashe mein hoon aur job hi
tum kahoge chup chap maan
loonga………….” Who meri aankhon mein
dekhte huye bola , uske chehre par kasaav
tha , aankhon mein gussa dikhayi pad raha
tha………….woh ab bilkul seedha khada hua
tha , koi lad-khadahat nahi ………..koi nahi
keh sakta tha ki abhi 10 minute pehle hi yeh
aadmi nashe mein bilkul behosh lag raha
tha………….

“ kya hua saab ………….koi galti ho gayi kya

mujhse ?? “ maine ek akhiri baar koshish
karke dekhi ……… par uske chehre se mujhe
yeh saaf dikhayi pad raha tha ki ab who meri
kisi baat mein nahi aane waala hai ………..

tabhi uske wireless par kisi ki awaaz

aayi…………..doosri taraf se job hi kuchh
kaha gaya woh meri samajh mein nahi
aaya …………….fir jawaab mein Shaukat ek
baar jor se hansa aur fir apni local language
mein kuchh kehne laga…….iss baar bhi sab
kuchh meri samajh se baahar
tha………………… beech beech mein who
meri taraf dekh raha tha , jis se mujhe yeh
andaja to ho hi raha tha ki mere baare mein
hi baat ho rahi hai ……………….fir usne baat
band kar di aur meri taraf dekha kar
bola …………….
“ Abhi thodi der mein maloom pad jaayega
ki tune kya galti ki hai……….aur teri saab se
milne ki tamanna bhi poori ho
jaayegi …………………………chal , dono haath
apne sar par rakh le …. “

Main samajh gaya tha ki Aslam beg jald hi

yahan pahunchne waala hai ………aur saath
mein jaroor kuchh aur bhi aadmi
honge ….main unn sab se ek saath nahi nipat
sakta tha eh mujhe maloom tha ……….mujhe
agle kuchh minutes mein hi kuchh na kuchh
karna hoga ………….
Usne apni revolver meri taraf hi taani huyee
thi aur poori tarah se mustaid nazar aaa raha
tha ……………woh 2 kadam aage badha aur
haath badha kar mere shareer par se kambal
kheench liya aur fir peechhe ho
gaya ………………..

“ Chal peechhe ko ghoom ja ……….. “ usne

gurrate huye kaha

maine turant uske aadesh ka paalan

kiya ……………mujhe maloom tha ki who
nashe mein hai aur kuchh bhi kar sakta
hai…………

peechhe ko ghoomte hi meri kamar mein

lagi huyee revolver usko dikhaayi pad
gayi…………………..woh aage badha aur meri
kamar mein lagi huyee revolver ko kheench
liya………………

“Waapas ghoom ja ………………….” Who fir

se guraaya……….aur main waapas ghoom
gaya………………

Usne meri revolver ko ghuma fira kar check

kiya fir meri taraf dekh kar muskurata hua
bola………..” achacha………………..!!! saale ,
Hindustani revolver istemaal karta hai aur
apne aap ko paakistaani bolta
hai………………..ab meri samajh mein
aaya ………tu wahi hai jisko hum log itne
dino se dhoondhte fir rahe hain………..
achchha hua jo tu khud hi marne ke liye
yahan aa gaya ………….. “ usne apni revolver
jeb mein rakh li aur meri waali ko haath mein
pakad liya………….fir meri taraf revolver ka
muh kiya aur bola……..

“ Chal !!!............ ab dono haath aise hi sar par

rakhe huye neeche baith ja “

mere liye yeh aakhiri mauka

tha …………..kuchh hi der mein aur log bhi
yahan pahunchne waale they aur fir mera
khel khatam…………..

main apne dono haath sar par rakhe huye,

apne panjo ke bal neeche ko baith gaya ,
baith-te huye main jaan boojh kar thoda sa
lad-khada gaya , jaise ki mera balance bigad
gaya ho aur fir apne aap ko sambhaalne ke
liye dono haath saamne ko tika
diye …………………..

“ abe kya hua ? sahi se baith ……………dono

haath sar par !! “ who gurrata hua
bola …………….

Mere dono haath ab neeche farsh par bichhe

huye Kaleen (carpet) par the …………maine
achanak Kaleen ko dono haathon se pakda
aur apni poori taakat laga kar kheench
diya ……….

Shaukat , jo ki usi Kaleen par mere se kareeb

8 feet door khada tha , uske paanv jameen se
ukhad gaye aur who dhadaam se peeth ke
bal gir gaya ………..
Itna samay mere liye kaafi tha ………..main
furti se utha aur aur saamne jameen par
pade huye shaukat ke oopar jump laga
di ……………..mera poora shareer seedha
uske pat aur tango ke oopar aa gaya aur ek
haath se maine uske revolver waale haath ko
daboch liya………………

Achanak huyee is harkat se woh ek-dum

ghabra sa gaya ………fir sambhalte huye
usne apne doosre haath se mere par waar
kiya ……………..jisko main thoda sa peechhe
hokar bacha gaya …………… fir mera right
hand mukke ke roop mein , seedha uske muh
par pada …………..ek hi waar uske hosh uda
lene ke liye kaafi …………………maine uske
dono haathon ko ek saath joda aur uske sar
ke oopar jameen par , apne ek hi haath se
daboch liya……………meri revolver waapas
mere haath mein aa gayi thi…………………….

Maine revolver ki naal ko uske maathe par

tikaya…………………..uski aankhe dar ke mare
poori fail gayi thi …………….ek aakhiri baar
main uski taraf dekh kar muskuraya aur fir
trigger daba diya ………………..

Pittt …ki halki si awaaz huye , silencer laga

hone ki wajah se koi dhamaaka nahi hua aur
goli uske sar ke paar nikal
gayi………………uske shareer ne kuchh jhatke
khaaye …………………..main uske oopar se
uth kar alag ho gaya aur apni revolver
waapas apni kamar mein laga
li………………..uska shareer ab shant pad
chukka tha ……….aur uske sar ke paar khoon
ka dariya sa banta jaa raha tha ………………

Main jaldi se doosre kamre mein

pahuncha ………………….yeh uska bedroom
tha , ek taraf side mein ek dressing table
rakhi huyee thi………..maine dressing table ki
drawer kholi aur usmein se ek perfume ki
bottle nikali………….

Main waapas us hi kamre mein

aaya …………….perfume ki bottle ko khol kar
maine saawdhani se kuchh boonde uski laash
ke paas daal di …………..fir apna kambal
uthaya aur usko apne shareer par lapet
liya ……………………main ghar se baahar
nikla aur darwaaze ko bhida kar band kar
diya …………………..

Main lag-bhag bhaagta hua sadak par aa

gaya ……………….aur fir tezi ke sath gaanv se
ulti disha mein chal
diya ……………………mujhe maloom tha ki
Aslam beg agar yahan aayega to ganv wale
raaste se hi aayega ………….thodi thodi door
par main perfume ki boonde girata hua chal
raha tha ………………fir main ek lamba
chakkar kaat kar . neeche ki sadak se hota
hua aur fir ek kachche raaste se hote
hua ………..waapas gaanv ki taraf jaane waali
sadak par hi aa gaya ………………….
Maine apne kambal ko utaara aur pefume ki
poori bottle ko uss par khaali kar
diya…………..saawdhaani ke saath ki mere
shareer par perfume na gire…..aur fir kambal
ko aur bottle ko neeche khaayi mein fenk
diya…………….

Main tez kadmo se waapas ghar ki taraf ko

chal diya ……………thoda aage jaate hi mujhe
saamne se ek gaadi aati dikhyi
padi………..main turant ek ped ke peechhe
ko chhip gaya ……………….woh ek fauzi jeep
thi , jisme kareeb 8-10 aadmi dikhayi pad
rahe the…………..jeep ke nikalne ke baad
main fir jaldi jaldi ghar ki taraf ko badh gaya
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#52
Main tez tez chalta hua…aur fir akhiri mein
lag-bhag bhaagta hua ghar waapas pahunch
gaya………..ghar ke andar andhera dikhayi
pad raha tha…dono behne so rahi dikhti
thi………….main tabele ke andar gaya , apne
kamre mein pahuncha …..apni revolver ko
nikaal kar bag ke andar daal diya aur bag ko
bistar ke neeche chhipa diya …………aur fir
bistar par let gaya..
Jis maksad se main gaya tha woh kaamyaab
hote hote reh gaya tha ……..main Aslam beg
ko khatam karna chahta tha , par uss tak
pahunchne se pehle hi mera khel bigad
gaya ………par itna sakoon to mujhe tha hi ki
maine usko ek karari chot di thi ……ab woh
mujhe dhoondhne ki koshish aur tez kar
dega ………aur mera maksad bhi to yahi
tha ….main uske paas pahunchu ya who
mere paas….dono hi soorat mein who mere
saamne to aayega hi…

Maine ghadi mein time dekha…..kareeb 2.00

baj rahe they………….main sone ki koshish
karne laga aur jald hi neend mein doob
gaya……..

Subah kisi ki aawaaz se meri aankh

khuli …………..baahar tabele mein kuchh
aahat si ho rahi thi ……..maine time dekha ,
10.00 baj rahe they……main uth kar baahar
gaya ……….yeh Shaazia thi……….jaanvaro ko
chara –paani ka kaam kar rahi
thi……….hamesha ki tarah hi , ek taaze fool
ki tarah khoobsurat lag rahi
thi …………..maine gale ko khankaar kar saaf
kiya …….usne meri taraf dekha aur muskura
di ……………..

Main wahin kahad hua usko dekhta

raha …aur woh apne kaam mein lagi
rahi ….kuchh der ke baad jab usne apna
kaam nipta liya to , haath dhokar mere paas
aa gayi…………

“ Kaisa haal hai janaab ka ? ………………..raat

lagta hai neend bahut gehri aayi hai , itni der
tak sote rahe .” woh mere paas aakar , apni
sada-bahar muskurahat ke saath boli….
“ Neend ki baat kar rahi ho !! yahan to poori
raat kat gayi , tumhara intezar karte
karte………..” main bhi us ke hi andaaz mein
bola

“ Achchha..!! maine kab kaha tha ki main

tumhaare paas aaoongi ….? “ woh mere aur
paas aakar mere haath ko pakad kar
boli ………….

“ Tumne nahi kaha tha , par mujhe to

ummeed thi ki tum jaroor aaogi …..” maine
bhi uske ek gaal ko sehlaate huye kaha ..
woh thoda aur paas aayi aur fir mere se lipat
gayi…….
“ Dil to mera bhi yahi karta hai ki ab
hamesha tumhaare saath hi rahoon , par kya
karoon……..” woh mere se lipte lipte hi boli
“ tum baaji se kab baat karoge ? “

“ Kis baare mein ? “ maine uske chehre ko

oopar utha kar poochha

“ Mere baare mein , matlab hum dono ke

baare mein “ woh meri aankhon mein dekhti
huyee boli …………..

“ jaldi hi …………balki koshish karoonga ki

aaj hi …. waise tumhaari baaji abhi kahan
hain ? “ maine uske baalon mein haath ferte
huye kaha , woh is samay mere seene mein
muh chhipa kar khadi thi

“ baaji gaanv mein gayi hai …………” woh

boli

“ aree wah………….iska matlab , yahan sirf

main aur tum ho ? “ maine usko kas ke lipta
liya aur fir uska chehra oopar kar ke uske
honthon ko choom liya ………..

“ jee haan …………….yahan sirf hum dono

hain ? “ usne kaha aur fir ek kiss mere gaal
par kar diya
maine jhat se usko utha liya aur fir apne
kamre ke andar laakar bistar par leta
diya ……….aur khud bhi uske paas hi let
gaya …

“ heyyy………..koi galat harkat

nahi …………..baaji kisi bhi samay aa sakti hai
“ woh mere seene par dono haath se mujhe
peeche karti huyee boli , main uske oopar
jhuk kar uske honthon ko choomne ki
koshish kar raha tha………..
main ruk gaya …………fir uske ek gaal par
apni hatheli se sehlata hua bola …..” main
bhi kahan koi galat kaam karne waala
hoon ……….sirf thoda sa ras tumhaare
honthon ka peena chahta hoon ….
Usne ek-do seconds meri aankhon mein
dekha aur fir muskura kar nazre jhuka
li ………..

Maine jhat se apna chehra neeche jhukaya

aur apne honth uske honthon par tika
diye …………kuchh der tak chote –chote kiss
uske honthon par karne ke baad , maine apni
jeebh se uske honthon par dastak
di……..usne apne honthon ko kholkar maano
mujhe aage badhne ki izazat de
di ……….meri jeebh uske muh ke andar chali
gayi aur fir hum dono ke honth maano ek
doosre ka ras choosne mein lag gaye …

Agne 10 minutes tak kamre mein sirf hum

dono ki saanso ki awaaz hi aati rahi , jo
dheere dheere badhti hi jaa rahi thi ………..fir
maine hi apne honthon ko uss se alag
kiya …………….uski saanse bahut tez ho gayi
thi aur seena tezi se oopar neeche ho raha
tha …………chehra laal ho gaya tha aur
aankhen maano nashe mein doob gayi
thi………….

Main jaanta tha ki iss se aage badhna abhi

mumkin nahi hai ………maine uske maathe
par ek kiss kiya aur fir uske gaal ko choom
kar uske kaan mein bola “ main tumse bahut
pyar karta hoon Shaazia “

usne meri peeth ko apni baahon mein kas

kar jakad liya , ek paanv ko meri kamar par
lipta diya aur apni poori taakat se mujh se
lipat gayi………jaise darr ho ki main kahin
chala na jaoon………
agle 2 minute tak hum dono aise hi lipte
rahe ………..fir usne dheere se mujhe apne
oopar se hatne ka isshara kiya ……….main
uss se alag hokar baith gaya aur woh uth kar
khadi ho gayi……….usne apne kapdo ko sahi
kiya aur fir ek baar aur mere gaal ko choom
kar baahar chali gayi
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#53

Shaazia ke jaane ke kuchh der baad hi maine

dekha ki Hina ghar waapas laut
aayi………main abhi apne kamre se baahar
nahi nikal sakta tha , isliye waapas apne
bistar par aakar let gaya …..mere dimaag
mein baar baar yahi sawaal uth raha tha ki jo
kal raat maine kiya tha , uska kya anjaam
nikla hoga …………..
Baahr mausam fir se suhana hone laga
tha…….aasmaan par baadal chhaane lage
they aur lag raha tha ki shaam tak fir se
baarish shuru hone waali hai …….

11.30 baje ke aaspaas baahar aahat

huyee…….main seedha hokar baith
gaya……kamre ka darwaaja khula ….yeh
Hina thi……basket mein rakh kar mere liye
khaana aur chay lekar aayi thi …………..

woh andar aa gayi aur mere saamne baith

gayi………..usne basket mein se khana aur
chay nikaali aur mere saamne plate mein
rakh di …………..fir khud deewar se peeth
laga kar baith gayi……….iss poore samay
hum dono hi bilkul chup they……
“ Naashat kar lo ……………. “ usne kaha aur
fir baahar dekhne lag gayi……….maine
naashta karne laga gaya………

“ Tum kal raat wahan gaye they na ? “ woh

meri taraf dekhti huyee boli ………main
khaane mein vyast tha , nigaah utha kar uski
taraf dekha …uski aankhon mein gussa aur
shikayat dikhayi pad rahe they…..

“ kahaan ?” maine anjaan bante huye kaha

“ tum jaante ho main kahan ki baat kar rahi

hoon .” usne tez awwaz mein kaha
maine ek baar uski taraf dekha aur fir khaane
mein vyast ho gaya …….

“ Kyon kar rahe ho tum aisa ? kya sirf isliye ki

woh pakistani tha aur tum pakistani logo se
nafrat karte ho …” iss baar uski awaaz mein
dard bhi shaamil tha ….

Main kuchh der chup raha ……….fir uski

aankhon mein dekhta hua bola “ nahi , meri
pakistani logo se koi jaati dushmani nahi
hai , aur na hi main pakistani logo se nafrat
karta hoon …………main wahan kisi aur
maksad se gaya tha ……par woh beech mein
aa gaya ………..agar main usko nahi maarta
to woh log mujhe maar daalte …..”
“ Fir tum wahan kyon gaye they ? tum jaante
ho main tumhaare yahan se nikalne ka
intezam karne mein lagi huyee hoon , abhi
tak tum kisis ki nigaah mein nahi ho , par ab
jaroor who log tumhe dhondhne mein lag
jaayenge ………..” woh meri aankhon mein
dekhti huyee bole jaa rahi thi …

“ tum mujhe galat samajh rahi ho Hina ,

main koi tafreeh karne ke iraade se ya kisi
adventure ki wajah se wahan nahi gaya
tha …………mera maksad sirf Aslam beg tak
pahunchna tha , aur main uske paas kal raat
hi pahunch jata , par thodi si gad-bad ho
gayi…aur saara khel bigad gaya …. “ main
usko samjhaate huye bola ……
“ aur tum Aslam beg tak kyon pahunchna
chaahte ho ? uss-se kya dushmani hai
tumhaari “ …………..uski aankhon mein ab
baichani si dikhaayi pad rahi thi

main agle kuchh seconds chup

raha ……..sochta raha ki kya jawaab
doon ..fir main bola “ meri koi dushmani
nahi hai Aslam beg se ……….par jo julm usne
tumhaare oopar aur tumhaare parivaar ke
oopar kiye hain , main usko usski saza dena
chaahta hoon ….bas “

main chup ho gaya aur woh bhi kuchh der ke

liye khamosh ho gayi …………
Fir uss ne bartan sametne shuru kar
diye ….saare bartan usne tokri mein daal liye
aur fir uth kar khadi ho gayi……….woh
baahar jaane ko mudi hi thi ki maine fir se
use awaaz di…..” Ruko Hina…..!” who ruk
gayi , aur ghoom kar meri taraf dekhne
lagi ………

Main uske paas pahuncha aur fir bola

“ mujhe galat mat samajhna Hina ……..par
yakeen mano mera koi niji svaarth nahi hai
iss sab mein …….jo bhi kuchh tum dono ne
mere liye kiya hai , woh hamesha mere oopar
tumhara karz rahega ……….par mein ek
aadmi hone ke naate , tumhaare saath huyi
naa-insaafi ka badla lena chahta
hoon ………..”
“ Par kyon …….. ? kya rishta hai tumhaara
hum logo se ? “ uski aankhon mein ab nami
dikhaayi pad rahi thi

“ naam to nahi maloom , par kuchh to rishta

hai hi ………………. aur agar kuchh bhi nahi
to Insaniyat ka rishta to banta hi hai , jis ke
naate mein yeh sab kuchh kar raha
hoon ……………… “ main uske kandhe par
apna haath rakh kar , uski aankhon mein
jhaankta hua bola

woh kuchh pal meri aankhon mein dekhti

rahi aur fir nazrein jhuka li …………..agle
kuchh seconds hum dono bilkul chup chaap
khade rahe ………fir usne sar uthaya aur meri
taraf dekhti huyee boli ……..” shaam ko 4
baje ke baad Shaazia gaanv mein
jaayegi ………..mujhe tumse kuchh jaroori
baat karni hai , tum ghar ke andar aa jana “

keh kar woh mudi , aur fir baahar nikal

gayi ….main kamre ke darwaaze par khada
hokar usko jaate huye dekhte
raha ………………
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#54
Dopahar ke 2.00 baj rahe they………baahar
ab tez hawa chalne lagi thi ……….baarish ya
barfbaari , kuchh bhi ho sakta
tha………..tabhi kamre ka darwaaza khula aur
Shaazia andar dakhil huyee……….uske
chehre par wahi masoomiyat bhari smile thi ,
par aankhon mein pareshaani ke bhaav
dikhayi pad rahe they………….woh seedhi
aakar mere paas baith gayi …..main jo abhi
tak leta hua tha , utth kar thoda sa oopar ko
ho gaya …………
“ Ajay ………..maine bahut der tak
socha ………….par main Baaji ko bina
bataaye yahan se nahi jaane waali “ woh
mere ek baaju ko pakad kar boli ………

“ Kyon kya ho gaya ? “ maine uska haath

apne haath mein thaam liya …….

“ Tum nahi jaante ………………ek baaji hi to

hain jo mere liye sab kuchh hain……meri
maa-baap , bhai , behan sab kuchh wahin to
hain Ajay ……….aur main apne pyar ke liye
unko dhokha de doon ? ………….naih Ajay ,
yeh main nahi kar paaongi ……………..” woh
aage ko ho kar mere seene se lag
gayi………….

“ aisa kuchh nahi hoga ………….main aaj hi

Hina se baat karne waala
hoon………………tum fikra nahi karo , hum
usko bata kar hi yahan se jaayenge ………….
“ main usko dilasa deta hua bola ………..

“ Aur baaji ? woh yahan akeli rahegi…? “ woh

muh utha kar , meri aankhon mein dekhti
huyee boli
“ nahi ………sirf kuchh dino ke liye …………fir
hum usko bhi apne paas bula lenge ……..”
mein kaha aur uske maathe ko choom
liya ………..woh mere se lipat gayi…………….

“ Tum nahi jaante ………..main tumse bahut

pyar karti hoon …………par meri baaji ki
keemat par main tumko paana nahi
chaahti …………….. “ woh boli , aur fir mere
se alag hokar khadi ho gayi……………. “ aaj
raat ko barfbaari jaroor hogi…………koshish
karoongi , tumhaare raat mein paas aane ki
“ …..usne muskurakar kaha aur fir ghoom
kar baahar nikal gayi……………
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 #55
Fir agle 2 ghante tak main wahin apne bistar
par leta raha……..baahar mausam badalta jaa
raha tha ……..kareeb 4.30 baje ke aas-pas
Shaazia ghar se baahar nikli ……apni typical
kashmiri dress mein , sar par scarf aur haath
mein chhatri …..uske jaane ke baad kareeb
15 minute tak maine intezar kiya aur fir uth
kar baahar aa gaya …………tabele ke
darwaaze par pahunch kar maine pehle
baahar jhanka……….door door tak mujhe koi
bhi dikhayi nahi pada ……..waise bhi baadlo
ki wajah se roshini kam hi thi ………maine
tezi ke saath , lagbhag bhaagta hua , saamne
ghar ke darwaaze par pahunch gaya aur
knock kiya …….
“ Andar aa jaao ………darwaaza khula
hai ” ……..andar se Hina ki awaaz aayi ,
maine darwaaze ko dhakela aur andar
daakhil ho gaya …………… fir se awaaz aayi
“ darwaaze ko band karte huye aana
“ ….maine ek second socha aur fir darwaaze
ko andar se lock kar diya …..

main andar pahuncha………Hina kitchen

mein kuchh kaam kar rahi thi ……meri aahat
par usne mudkar dekha aur fir boli “ andar
kamre mein baith jaao Ajay ……..main abhi
aati hoon “ ……..

main andar kamre mein pahunch

gaya ………jo ki uska bedroom tha aur ek
lakdi ki kursi par baith gaya …………… 5
minute ke intezar ke baad Hina bhi kamre
mein aa gayi ………haath mein ek tray pakde
huye jiss mein chay ke cup mujhe dikhayi
pad rahe they …………..

woh mere saamne bistar par baith gayi aur

chay ki tray ko wahin apne paas rakh kar ek
cup meri taraf badha diya………” lo , chay
pee lo “

maine cup uske haath se liya aur fir uski taraf

dekhne laga……….. woh kuchh seconds meri
taraf dekhti rahi aur fir nazrein neechi kar
li …….main bhi chay peene laga…….
“ Aaj subah mein gaanv mein gayi
thi ………..sab jagah Shaukat ali ki maut ki hi
charcha ho rahi thi ……………par abhi tak
unn logo ko yeh nahi pata lag paya hai ki
yeh kis ka kaam hai ..” woh chay peete huye
boli , jawaab mein main sirf usko dekh kar
dheeme se muskura diya …

fir woh aage batane lagi “ woh log apne

saath khozi – kutte bhi lekar aaye
they ………par woh bhi chauraahe ke paas
aakar raasta bhatak gaye …..” maine man hi
man apne aap ko shabashi di , mujhe pehle
se hi anumaan tha iss liye maine perfume ka
istemaal kiya tha

Fir woh apni jagah se uthi aur lakdi ki

almaari ke oopar rakhe huye ek hare lifaafe
ko utha liya ………. Who lifafa lekar waapas
bistar par aa kar baith gayi aur fir chay
peene lagi ………….

Agle 1 minute tak hum dono ……….bilkul

chup chaap hokar chay peete rahe ………fir
usne apna cup tray mein rakha aur mere se
boli …….” Mere paas tumhaare liye ek bahut
achchhi khabar hai ………..”
Maine sawaaliya nigaahon se uski taraf
dekha …………..usne lifafa utha kar khola aur
usmein se ek paper nikaal kar meri taraf
badha diya ……..maine paper haath mein
lekar dekha ………….woh ek permit tha ,
Sohail malik ke naam se bana hua , jiss par
meri photo lagi huyee thi ………
Waakayi yeh mere liye ek achchhi khabar
thi ………..maine khushi bhare chehre se uski
taraf dekha “ very good !!…………tumne yeh
kaam kar bhi diya ?”

Jawaab mein woh meri taraf dekh kar

muskurayi ………aur fir sar jhuka liya….. fir
meri taraf dekhte huye boli “ ab tum , jab
chaaho yahan se jaa sakte ho ……….”

“ Thank you Hina……….. par main tumse

yahi baat karne aaya tha , main yahan se
akela nahi jaana chahta “ main dhadakte dil
ke saath , uski aankhon mein dekhta hua
bola ……..
jawab mein woh fir muskurayi aur ek aur
paper meri taraf badhate huye boli “ tum
yahan se akele nahi jaaoge ……….yeh dekho
“

maine paper haath mein lekar dekha , aur

chaunk gaya ….yeh Hina ke naam ka permit
tha ………uski photo ke saath………

maine sawaaliya nigaahon se uski taraf

dekha………………” main bhi tumhaare saath
jaaongi Ajay “ usne muskurahat ke saath
jawaab diya aur palang par thoda khisak kar
mere paas aa gayi ……………yeh sab kuchh
mere liye ek shock ki tarah tha ……….main
kuchh seconds tak uss paper ko dekhte raha
fir uski taraf dekhta hua bola …………” tum
galat samajh rahi ho Hina , mere kehne ka
yeh matlab nahi tha ……”

“ Fir ??? kya kehna chah rahe they tum Ajay ?

“ woh mere haath par apna haath rakhte
huye boli …………

maine uski taraf dekha ……….aur fir bola

“ dekho galat mat samajhna
Hina………….mera matlab Shaazia se
tha………main usko apne saath le jaana
chahta hoon “

“ paagal to nahi ho gaye ho

tum ……………..tumne soch bhi kaise liye ki
aisa bhi ho sakta hai ……….. “ woh gusse
mein boli ………….usne mera haath chhod
diya aur peechhe ko hokar baith
gayi………….

“ Yeh paagal pan nahi hai

Hina ……………..main Shaazia ko pyar karta
hoon , aur uss se shadi karne chahta
hoon ………… “ main uski taraf dekh kar
bola , meri samajh mein nahi aa raha tha ki
usko kaise sab kuchh samjhaoon ……..

“ Aur Shaazia ………………woh yeh sab jaanti

hai ?? “ woh meri taraf ashcharya se dekhte
huye boli………

“ haan ……………. woh bhi mujh se pyar karti

hai ………….main khud hi tum se aaj baat
karne waala tha , par tumne pehle
hi ……………..” main uski taraf dekhta hua
bola …

woh palang se khadi ho gayi ……………….

Apne chehre ko usne apne haathon mein
chhipa liya aur fir agle kuchh seconds bilkul
chup khadi rahi……….fir woh aage badhi aur
mere paas aakar mere saamne baith
gayi…………

“ Aur woh sab jo tumne mere saath kiya

tha …………….kya main sirf tumhaari jism ki
pyas bujhane ke liye hi hoon …………… “ woh
mere dono haathon ko apne haathon se
pakad kar meri aankhon mein jhaankte huye
boli …………
“ yeh tum bhi jaanti ho Hina ki uss raat kya
hua tha……………woh mere nahi tumhaare
jism ki pyas thi jis ne humein woh sab karne
ke liye majboor kiya tha………..main to bas
galat fehmi mein tumhaara saath deta raha
aur jab samajh mein aaya to bahut der ho
chuki thi “ main sar jhuka kar bola aur fir
uski taraf dekha …………….

“ Galat fehmi ? ……….kaisi galat fehmi ?

“ who lagbhag cheekhte huye boli …..

main 2-3 second chup raha ………fir bola

“ dar asal main uss raat Shaazia ka intezar
kar raha tha ……….jab tum mere paas aayi to
main samjha ……….” Main uski taraf dekhta
hua bola
“ Tum waakayi paagal ho gaye ho
Ajay …………..tumne soch bhi kaise liye ki
main apni behan ko tumhaare hawaale kar
doongi ……………mujhe maloom hai kit um
uss bechaari ka kya haal karoge …….. apne
saath le jaakar tum uska istemaal karoge aur
fir usko be-sahar chhod doge …………..nahi
Ajay , main aisa nahi hone doongi ………”
woh gussse mein bole jaa rahi thi , saath hi
usne mere ek baaju ko bhi pakda hua
tha ………..

“ Tum ab bhi galat samajh rahi

ho …………..main usko dil se chahta
hoon ……. Main uss se shadi karoonga aur fir
jald hi tum ko bhi wahin apne paas bula
loonga……….” Maine uska haath pakad kar
usko samjhaya ……….jise usne turant hi
chhuda liya ……

“ nahi …Shaazia tumhaare saath nahi

jaayegi………..agar koi jaayega to
main …….tum mere saath aisa nahi kar sakte
Ajay ………..” keh kar usne fir mera haath
pakad liya ……….uski aankhon mein ab
aansoon aa gaye they …..

“ Aur Shaazia yahan akeli rahegi ..? “ maine

uski aankhon mein dekhte huye
poochha …….

“ Uski tum fikr mat karo………………….maine

Hasan se baat kar rakhi hai………..woh
Shaazia se nikaah kar lega……..” woh meri
aankhon mein dekhti huyee boli …………..

main jhatke se khada ho gaya aur fir uski

taraf dekhta hua bola..“ Tum samajhne ki
koshish kyon nahi kar rahi ho
Hina…………… , hum dono ek doosre se pyar
karte hain , shaadi karna chahte
hain ……….aur tum hum dono ko alag-alag
karne ki planning kar rahi ho ………….yeh
nahi ho sakta Hina , kabhi nahi …..”

“ Aur agar main Shaazia ko yeh bata doon ki

tumhaara aur mera kya rishta
hai ………fir ? ………..fir to woh kabhi tumse
shaadi nahi karegi …? ‘ woh meri aankhon
mein dekhte huye boli
“ Fir to tumhe yeh bhi batana padega ki wahi
rishta tumhara Hasan ke saath bhi
hai …………….hum dono hi tumhare jism ki
pyas bujhane ka saadhan hain “ maine bhi
uski aankhon mein dekhte huye
kaha ……..sun kar uske chahra safed pad
gaya …………….woh kuchh der tak mere
chehre ko dekhti rahi aur fir sar jhuka
liya …………..

main ek kadam peechhe hat gaya aur fir

aage bola “ tum baat ko achchhi tarah
samajh lo Hina………..ab main yahan se akela
nahi jaane waala………..agar main gaya to
Shaazia mere saath jaayegi ………..nahi to
main apni poori zindagi yahin par guzar
doonga………” keh kar maine fir uski taraf
dekha ………….uska chahre bilkul safed pad
chukka tha ……….main muda aur kamre se
baahar nikal aaya………….

Ghar ka darwaaza khol kar main waapas

tabele ki taraf chal diya …………..Hina ki
baaton se mera sar chakra gaya tha aur iss hi
wajah se maine yeh bhi dhyaan nahi diya ki
tabele ke andar laga hua bulb nahi jal raha
hai ………..baahar ab boonda-baandi hone
lagi thi aur andhera sa ho gaya
tha ……….main tez tez chalta hua tabele ke
andar dakhil hua aur fir maano mere sar par
aasmaan toot pada ho …………….ek zor ka
prahar mere sar par hua , meri aankhon ke
saamne andhera chhaa gaya aur main neeche
gir kar behoshi mein doobta chala
gaya ……………………….
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#56

Dheere dheere mere hosh-o-hawaas waapas

aa rahe they………….mujhe apne sar par ,
kandhe par aur pasliyon mein dard mehsoos
ho raha tha , lag raha tha ki jaise mujhe
behoshi ki haalat mein bhi maara gaya
ho………..
Maine aankhein khol kar dekhne ki koshish
ki ……………ek tez roshini meri aankhon
mein pad rahi thi , jis ki wajah se mujhe fir se
aankhen band karni pad gayi …fir aankhon
ke aage haath rakh kar maine , apni aankhon
ko dobaara khola ……agle kuchh minutes to
mujhe apni condition aur situation ko
samajhne mein lag gaye …………

Main ghar aur tabele ke beech mein , khaali

maidaan mein pada hua tha………….mere
saamne ek jeep khadi thi jiski headlights on
thi aur mere chehre par pad rahi thi …… jeep
ke bonnet par koi baith hua tha , jis ke pair
aur shoes hi mujhe dokhayi pad rahe
the ………..meri right side mein , ghar ki
deewar se peeth laga kar Hina baithi huyee
thi aur uske paas ek aadmi , fauzi wardi
mein , khada hua tha ………….uss aadmi ke
haath mein ek pistol thi , jiska rukh Hina ke
sar ki taraf tha ………

Maine apne pairo par khade hone ki koshish

ki ………..jeep ke bonnet par baitha aadmi
aage badha aur ek laat mere seene par
maari ……….main waapas jameen par hi gir
gaya………….achanak jeep ki head lights off
ho gayi………..par kyonki ghar ke saamne
laga hua bulb on tha ….agle kuchh seconds
mein hi saara nazara mere saamne tha………..

Saamne jeep ke bonnet par baitha aadmi

Aslam beg tha………. Aaj pehli baar main
usko itne najdeek se dekh raha
tha……….lamba kad , chauda shareer aur
chehre par ek kathorta thi…….par saath hi
badi ajeeb si smile bhi uske chehre par
dikhayi pad rahi thi …………jeep ki driving
seat par ek aur aadmi baitha hua tha ,who
kuchh jyada umar ka tha ……..ek teesra
aadmi , jo fauzi wardi mein hi th jeep ke
right side mein aur Aslam beg se kuchh
peechhe , khada tha aue usne Shaazia ko
apne kabje mein kiya hua tha……….uski ek
baahn Shaazia ki gardan mein lipti huyee thi
aur haath mein ek AK47 dikhayi pad rahi
thi………..kul milakar main abhi kuchh bhi
kar pane ki condition mein nahi tha………..

“ Kaise mijaaj hain aapke ……………Flight

Lieutenant Ajay Rathod saab……… “ Aslam
beg ki moti aur kathor awaaz mere kaano
mein padi ……….

“ Aako kya laga tha……ki aap humaare mulk

mein aakar kuchh bhi karte rahoge aur hum
chup chaap baith kar tamasha
dekhenge ……. “ usne aage kaha …….
Mere liye yeh badi hairat badi waali baat thi
ki who mera naam bhi jaanta tha ……..iska
matlab Hina ya Shaazia mein se kisi ek se
inhone poochhtach ki hai ……….

Fir usne mere sawaal ka maano khud hi

jawaab de diya “ kya soch raha hai ..? yahi ki
mujhko tera naam kaise maloom
pada ? ……..yeh to humein maloom hi tha ki
koi Hindustani aadmi uss plane mein se gira
hai aur abhi iss ilake mein hi
hai…………humne apne Hindustan ke
connections se maloom kiya to pata chala ki
jo plane crash hua tha uska piolet Flight
Lieutenant Ajay Rathod tha , jo bechara iss
haadse mein shaheed ho gaya …….“ kuchh
der ruk kar who fir aage bola “ iska matlab ,
apne desh waalo ke liye to tu kab ka mar
chukka hai……..ha ha ha ha…” hansi ke saath
who kuchh der ke liye ruka ………….. fir aage
bolna shuru kiya…..

“ Tune Shaukat ko maarne ke baad , plan to

achchha banaya tha………..ek baar to
humaare kutte bhi raasta bhatak gaye
the……….fir ek baat par humne gaur kiya ki
ho sakta hai maarne waala ghar ke peechhe
ke raaste se yahan aay ho ………fir humne
kutto ko ghar ke peechhe bheja aur yahan
tak pahunch gaye……….”

Who lagatar bolta jaa raha tha “ main pehle

shaayad tujhe asaan maut deta , magar tune
Shaukat ali ko maar kar bahut badi galti kar
di ……..ab tu to tadaf tadaf kar marega
hi ……..saath mein teri inn dono chahne-
waaliyon ka bhi bahut bura hashra main
karoonga…………ab tu hi bata , pehle tujhe
maut chahiye , ya tu inka hashra apni
aankhon se dekhna chahta hai……..”

Main thoda sa uth kar , apna sar oopar kar

ke , seedha hokar baith gaya ……….woh sahi
keh raha tha , maut bilkul mere saamne thi ,
aur iss baat ne hi mere dard ko gaayab kar
diya tha …………ab jo kuchh bhi mujhe karna
tha , woh agle kuchh minutes ke under hi
hona chaahiye …………

Meri nigaah saamne jeep ke bonnet par

padi………….mera bag jeep ke boneet par
pada hua tha ………….isska matlab meri
revolver ab inn logo ke kabje mein
thi………….ek baar to mera dil baith
gaya ……….lagne laga ki mera khel ab
khatam ho chukka hai ……………fir kuchh
dhyaan aate hi mere man mein ek aakhiri
ummed jaag gayi………….

Maine apne charo taraf

dekha …………..baarish ki halki halki boonde
pad rahi thi , jo kisi bhi samay tez hone waali
thi ……………….. Aslam beg aur Driver ke
hath mein koi hathiyar dikhayi nahi de raha
tha …………iska matlab mujhe baaki dono
logo ki bandooko se bachna
tha ………….maine ek baar Shaazia ki taraf
dekha …………uske chehre par khauf tha ,
par saath hi ek ummed bhi ki shaayad main
kuchh kar sakta hoon ……………….
“ Waise teri akhiri khwayish bhi poori ho
gayi ……………..tu kal raat mujhse milna
chahta tha aur aaj main tere saamne khada
hoon ………..bata kya chahata hai tu mere
se ? “ woh chehre par ek kameeni muskaan
laakar bola …

maine ab action ka faisla kar liya tha aur

soch liya tha ki mujhe kya karna hai ….main
uski taraf dekhta hua , muskurata hua bola
“ teri maut chahta hoon Aslam
beg …………………jo julm tune inn ladkiyon
par kiya hai……..uska hisaab chukta karna
hai mujhe “

“ ha ha ha ha ha ha ha …………………. Maan-
na padega ………..tu aadmi to bahadur
hai………maut ke saamne achchhe –achchho
ki fat jaati hai ……..par tu to aise baat kara
raha hai jaise tere foonk mare hi main mar
jaane waala hoon ……..” woh thoda saa age
jhuk kar , meri aankhon mein dekhta hua
bola ……………

bas iss hi pal ka mujhe intezar

tha …………..maine apne dono haathon mein
jameen par e mitti uthayi aur seddha uske
chare par fenk di ………….. ek cheekh ke
saath , apne chehre ko haathon se dhak
kar ……..woh peeche ko ho gaya ………….iss
se pehle ki uske saathi kuchh samajh
paate ………. main bahut tezi ke saath utha
aur bhaagte hue tabele ke andar chhalaang
laga di ……………….
5 seconds se bhi kam samay mein main
tabele ke andar wahan pahunch gaya…jahan
par chhat mein , ghaas foos ke andar ,maine
woh revolver chhipayi huyee thi jo maine uss
police waale (sohail malik) se chheeni
thi ………andaaj se hi maine oopar haath dala
aur revolver mere haath main aa
gaya…………..revolver nikaal kar main
bhaagta hua tabele ke doosre sire par
pahunch gaya jahan woh L shape mein bana
hua tha ………..wahan ek chhoti si khidki thi
jo saamne ki taraf hi khulti thi ……….. khidki
ke paas jaakar maine dheere se baahar
jhanka………………

ganeemat thi ki unn logo ne abhi dono

behno mein se kisi ko koi nuksaan nahi
pahunchaya tha ………..Aslam beg jeep ke
peechhe ko ho gaya tha par baaki dono
aadmi……..dono behno ko kabje men kiya
huye , apni apni jagah par hi maujood
they …………….

“ Jaldi se baahar nikal kar aaja …………….tu

bhi jaanta hai ki tu hum logo se nahi bach
sakta hai ………….fir kyon inn bechariyon ki
maut ko aur mushkil bana raha hai ………….”
Aslam beg ki awwaz aayi , saath hi uska ek
haath jeep ke peeche se jhankta hua dikhayi
pada jiss me usne ek revolver pakda hua
tha………….
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#57
Ab woh sabhi log meri nigaah mein they ,
par jiss jagah par main tha.........uss ka
anumaan woh log shaayad nahi laga sakte
they ……..na hi unko yeh maloom hoga ki
mere paas koi hathiyar bhi hai …………….
Maine revolver ko check kiya……… 5 goliyan
abhi usme baaki thi ……….aur mere saamne
4 log they jinse mujhe nipatna
tha………..meri problem yeh thi ki main ek
baar mein ek hi ko nishaana bana sakta
tha …….aur pehli goli chalte hi baaki sab ko
pata chal jaana tha ki main kahan hoon aur
mere paas koi hathiyar bhi hai………….

Driver ke alaawa baaki 3 log mere nishaane

par they…………teeno hi tabele ke darwaaze
ki taraf dekh rahe they………usnko yahi
ummed thi ki main jo bhi action loonga ,
wahin se loonga ……………..par mujhe yeh
faisla karna tha ki pehle kaun ………………
maine sabse pehle uss se nipatne ka faisla
kiya jo jeep ke baahar , Shaazia ko pakad ke
khada hua tha………..woh Shaazia ke bilkul
peeche tha……….uska seedha haath Shaazia
ki gardan se lipta hua tha……….poora
shareer Shaazia ke peeche chhipa hua
tha………..bas uska ek haath , jisme usne
AK47 pakdi huyee thi , baahar tha,………aur
uska ek pair thoda sa baahar nikla hua
tha………………

Maine man hi man oopar waale ko yaad

kiya…………..meri jara si chook se goli
Shaazia ko bhi lag sakti thi……………maine
uske ghutne (knee) par nishana lagaya aur
trigger daba
diya ……………………….dhishoonnn…ki awaaz
huyee….. nishaana bilkul sahi laga aur woh
aadmi apne ghutne ko pakad kar neeche ko
baithta chala gaya………….uske haath se Gun
nikal gayi aur saath mein Shaazia
bhi …………………………jaise ki mujhe umeed
thi , theek wahi kaam Shaazia ne
kiya …………woh uske haath se chhot-te hi
apni right taraf bhaagi aur tabele ke peechhe
ki taraf ko chali gayi………………………. Maine
dobara nishaana lagaya……….iss baar uss hi
aadmi ke sar par……….ek aur dhamaka
hua ………..ek aur goli chali , iss baar uss ke
sar mein ghuss gayi…………..uss ke muh se
awaaz bhi nahi nikal payi aur woh apni jagah
par hi dher ho gaya……………
Baaki dono log mere iss hamle se ek dum
baukhla gaye……………… Aslam beg ne apne
aap ko jeep ke aur peechhe kar
liya ………….aur doosra aadmi jo Hina ko
cover kiye huye tha… ab yahan –wahan dekh
raha tha…..woh anumaan lagaane ki koshish
kar raha tha ki main kahan hoon…. Ab maine
uss doosra aadmi ka nishana lagaya , maine
revolver ko seedha kiya aur uske sar ka
nishaana laga kar trigger daba
diya ……….dhishhhun ki awaaz
huyee……..par iss baar nishana chook
gaya …………goli chalte hi woh aadmi thoda
sa hat gaya aur goli uske sar ke bajaaye , uski
pasliyon mein sama gayi…………. Uska
hashra bhi pehle waale ki tarah hi
hua……….woh jameen par gir gaya aur apne
pet ko pakad kar dohra ho gaya………… Hina
jo abhi tak neeche baithi thi …………. Apni
jagah se uth kar ghar ke andar bhaag
gayi………….

Ab mujhe Aslam beg se nipatna

tha…………main apni jagah se hata aur tezi
se bhaagta hua , tabele ke darwaaze par aa
gaya ………….. maine dheere se baahar
jhanka…………jeep ke peeche mujhe uski
jhalak dikhayi pad rahi thi …….uske haath
mein revolver tha aur main ab koi aur fire
nahi karna chahta tha……..kyon ki 3 fire
main already kar chukka tha aur goliyon ki
awaaz jaroor aas –paas sunayi pad rahi
hogi…
Maine ek baar neeche jhuk kar dekha , mujhe
sahi sahi idea nahi hua ki woh iss samay kis
position mein hai………..main dheere se
baahar nikla , meri revolver mere haathon
mein bilkul tayyar thi , aur aankhen jeep par
hi jami huyee thee… Main tabele ki deewar
se peeth laga kar apni left side mein
badha ……dheere dheere badhta hua main
jeep ki taraf chal raha tha …………achanak do
kaam ek saath huye …….Aslam beg apni
jagah se utha aur ek fire mere oopar kar
diya, uss ke haath mein woh revolver tha jo
usne mere bag mein se nikaala tha, silencer
laga hua………main bilkul alert tha ………iss
fire ko main neeche hokar bacha
gaya …………tabhi peeche se kisi ne mujhe
pakad liya ……. Yeh driver tha , jisko main
kuchh der ke liye bhool hi gaya
tha………usne ek haath se meri kamar ko aur
doosre se meri gardan ko pakda hua
tha ………..par uske shareer ki takat mere
saamne koi maayne nehi rakhti thi …..

Aslam beg ne yeh scene dekhte hi fir apne

revolver ko meri taraf seedha kiya…….. aur
fir 2 kaam ek saath huye ………main apna
seedha haath Kandhe ke oopar se peeche le
gaya , uss driver ka coller mere haath mein
aa gaya …….maine ek jhatka diya aur woh
mere saamne aa gaya………uss hi samay
Aslam beg ne mere oopar fire kar
diya ……………pitt ..ki awaaz nikli aur goli
driver ke shareer mein sama gayi………woh
bechara apne seene ko haath se dabaye huye
wahin dher ho gaya …………..
Iss achanak huyi ghatna se Aslam beg aur
baukhla gaya ………….usne fir se mere oopar
fire kar diye , par tab tak main uske oopar
jump laga chukka tha ………….uska pehla fire
to khaali chala gaya, par doosri goli mere
kandhe ko chheelti huye chali gayi……….ek
dard ki leher mere shareer mein uthi par
uske baad maine usko aur fire karne ka
mauka nahi diya……….main jhuk kar uss par
jhapta …………………..apne sar ki chot uske
pet par ki aur fir uski kamar ko apni dono
haath se pakad kar peeche ko dhakelta chala
gaya ………………kuchh door tak woh peeche
ko hua aur fir uske kadam jameen se ukhad
gaye…………main uske revolver waali kalayi
ko apne haath se dabocha aur doosre haath
se lagatar ghoonse uske chehre par jamata
chala gaya……..4-5 waar mein hi woh past
pad gaya aur revolver uske haath se nikal
gaya ……

Fir main revolver utha kar , khada ho

gaya …….woh jameen par , mere pairo ke
paas pada hua tha……..maine apni revolver ,
jo abhi uske haath se giri thi , uski taraf ki
aur ek fire kar diya ……….pitt ki halki si
awaaz huyii aur goli seedhi uski jaangh mein
sama gayi …. ek tez cheekh uske muh se
nikli…………….usne dono haathon se apni
jaangh ko pakad liya aur uske chehre par
dard ki lakeere saaf dikhayi pad rahi thi…….
Sirf 5 minute mein hi poori baazi palat chuki
thi ……. Jahan 5 minute pehle maine jameen
par pada hua tha ….ab uske 2 aadmi ya to
mar chuke the ya apni aakhiri saans gin rahe
they……….teesra behosh tha aur woh khud
mere rehmo-kadam par jinda tha…….. Maine
Hina ko awaaz lagayi ……….” Hina….baahar
aa jao ………..”

1 minute baad hi Hina ghar ka darwaaza

khol kar baahr nikli …….saath hi meri awaaz
Shaazia ke paas bhi pahunch chuki thi, Ya fir
shaayad who sab kuchh chhip kar dekh rahi
thi …….woh bhi tabele ke peechhe se nikal
kar mere paas aa gayi………..dono ke chehro
par hi khauf ke nishaan abhi tak maujood
they…….. dono behne dheere-dheere chalti
huye mere paas aa gayi aur mere dono taraf
khadi ho gayee………… maine ek nigaah
Aslam beg ke chehre ki taraf daali………..uski
aankhon mein ab maut ka khauf saaf dikhayi
pad raha tha………..maine apni revolver ko
check kiya……..abhi bhi 3 goliyan baaki
thi …….maine revolver Hina ki tafa badha
diya aur kaha..” Lo Hina ………..tumhaara
mujrim tumhaare saamne hai …….tum apne
oopar huye saare julmon ka badla iss se le
sakti ho…”

Hina ne ek dum chaunk kar meri taraf

dekha , jaise woh meri kahi huyee baat par
yakeen na kar paa rahi ho………..fir uske
chehre par achanak kathorta si aa
gayi…………..usne revolver mere haath se li
aur Aslam beg ki taraf taan di……..Aslam beg
ne usthne ki koshish ki , par maine ek laat
uske seene par mari…woh fir se jameen par
dher ho gaya…… Hina ne dono haathon se
revolver ko tham liya aur ……uske haath
kaamp rahe they……lag raha tha ki who kisi
bhi pal goli chalane waali hai………. Fir
achanak uska haath neeche ho
gaya…………..uski aankhon mein se aansoo
beh nikle aur fir woh foot-foot kar rone
lagi………….

maine uske neeche huye haath ko apne

haath se pakda ……….aur fir dobara revolver
Aslam beg ki taraf taan diya ………….. Kyon
kya hua ……? Kya tum bhool gayi ho ki iss ne
tumhaare saath kya kya kiya
tha……….tumhaare shauhar ki maut ,
tumhaare bhai ki maut aur tumhaare
bachche ki maut…….sab kuchh ek baar fir se
yaad kar lo “ Uske chehre par fir se wahi
gussa aur kathorta aa gayi….uska haath
revolver par kas gaya ………mujhe maloom
tha ki woh fir bhi goli nahi chala
paayegi………. baaki kaam maine poora kar
diya…revolver ki trigger ko maine apni
ungali se dabaya aur fir ek ke baad ek , 3
goliyan uske seene mein utaar di……….uska
shareer kuchh seconds tak tadfa aur fir shant
ho gaya……. Hina ki aankhon se aansoo bahe
ja rahe thay aur Shaazia ne dar ke mare mere
peeche ko muh chhipa liya tha…………..
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#58
maidaan mein ab bilkul sannnata chhaya hua
tha , 3 murda shareer aur ek adhmara aadmi
wahan pade huye they.........Hina rote-rote
jameen par baith gayi thi aur Shaazia uss ko
chup karaane ki koshish kar rahi thi…..dono
behne ek doosre se lipat kar ro rahi
thi…Mujhe iss baat ka bhi dar tha ki kahin
Aslam beg ne marne se pehle Apne
saathiyon ko koi message na de diya
ho …agar aisa hua to, bahut hi jald yahan aur
bhi log pahunchne waale honge ……

ab mera dhyaan apne kandhe par bhi

gaya.....jahan se ek goli chhoo kar gujar gayi
thi ... par usne ek achchha khaasa jakham
bana diya tha...halka - halka khoon lagataar
beh raha tha aur meri bajoo ko bhigo raha
tha... maine idhar udhar dekha fir shaazia se
bola " Shaazia , jara ek kapda laakar meri
kandhe par baandh do " ..

Meri iss baat se dono behno ka dhyaan meri

taraf gaya……….fir Hina jaldi se uthh kar
ghar ke andar chali gayi……..maine saare
hathiyar uthaa kar jeep mein ikatthe kar
diye ……….apni dono revolver maine waaps
jaakar kamre mein bistar ke neeche chhipa
di.....itni der mein hi Hina waapas laut
aayi….uske haath mein ek sheeshi
thi…….mere paas aakar usne mujhe neeche
baithne ko kaha aur fir sheeshi mein se koi
liquid lekar kapde par daala , aur uss kapde
ko mere kandhe par , jakham ke oopar rakh
diya…..ek tez jalan mere jakham se hokar
poore shareer mein daud gayi…………. Agle
kuchh seconds ke liye maano mera poora
shaheer hi sunnn pad gaya ho…….fir usne ek
kapde ki patti uss jagah par bandh di…….

Mere paas ab aaram karne ka time nahi

tha ………maine chaaro ke shareer ek –ek
karke utha kar jeep ke andar daal
diye …………….fir unke hathiyaron ko khaali
kar ke waapas jeep ke pichhle hisse mein
daal diya ……

Baarish ab tez hone lagi thi………….shaayad

oopar waala bhi mera saath de raha
tha ………unn chaaro ka khoon , jo jameen
par bikhra pada tha ……baarish ke paani se
dhulta ja raha tha ………..main jeep ki driving
seat par baitha aur jeep ko start kar
diya …..fir maine jeep ko ghumaya aur
waapas gaanv ki taraf jaane waali pagdandi
par badha diya ……….kuchh aage jaakar fir
maine ek lamba U turn liya …aur ek lamba
chakaar kaat kar nadee ki taraf chal
diya ……….nadee ke paas pahunch kar main
left side main mud gaya aur nadee ke saath
saath hi chalne laga ………..

Baarish ab bhi ho rahi thi par saath hi saath

barf-baari bhi shuru ho gayi thi ………mere
liye yeh aur bhi achchhi bath
thi………….main jeep ko kareeb 3 kilometer
aage le gaya aur fir gaadi ka rukh neeche
dhalaan ki taraf kar diya ……..iske aage ek
teekhi dhalaan neeche ja rahi thi…………kull
milakar yahan se gaadi aage jaati to seedhi
khayi mein hi girni thi………

Maine ek baar fir oopar waale ko yaad

kiya ……….………fir maine gaadi ko start
kiya ………….clucth ko daba kar maine gear
dala aur accelerator ko poora daba diya .......
fir jhatke se clutch ko chod
diya ……………gaadi poori speed se aage
badhi aur main gaadi se baahar kood
gaya………….gaadi neeche khayi ki taraf jaa
rahi thi ………agle kuchh seconds tak main
usse neeche jaate dekhta raha ……….fir
waapas chal diya ………….

Kuchh der pehle tak khoon behna band ho

chukka tha …par ab fir se shareer ko garmi
mil gayi thi aur khoon behne laga
tha ……..maine apne seedhe haath se apne
kandhe ko dabaye huye aage badhta
raha ………eke k kadam uthana mujhe bahut
bhaari pad raha tha , par mere saamne koi
aur raasta nahi thi………mere liye sirf ek hi
jagah sabse jyada mehfooz thi aur main jald-
se-jald wahan pahunchna chah raha
tha …………..

Agle 1/2 ghante tak main yoon hi ghisat-

ghisat kar chalta raha ……..ab main ghar se
sirf 200 meter ki doori par tha …………barf
lagataar pad rahi thi par mera poora shareer
paseene se nahaya hua tha ………khoon meri
baanh se hota hua , meri hatheli se hokar
neeche gira raha tha ………fir maano mere
shareer ne jawaab de diya ……….meri
aankhon kea age andhera chhaa gaya aur
mere pair one mera bojh uthaane se mana
kar diya ………mere kadam ladkhadaye aur
main neeche gir pada ……….neeche girte hi
main apne hosh khota chala
gaya ………………….
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 #59

Mujhe dheere-dheere hosh aane laga

tha ……..maine apni aankhen kholne ki
koshish ki , par fir band kar leni padi…aankh
kholte hi mere sar mein bahut tez dard hua
tha……….meri aankhen band thi ,par dimaag
kaam kar raha tha…main sochh raha tha ki
mere saath kya hua tha……main wahan
maidaan mein behosh ho gaya tha …maloom
nahi main iss samay kahan hoon ?
Maine apne haathon ko chalaya……main kisi
mulayam bistar par leta hua tha ….fir dheere
dheere maine apni aakhen kholi…..kuchh
seconds lag gaye mujhe apni aankhen poori
tarah se khol kar dekhne mein…..fir mujhe
maloom pad gaya ki main bilkul safe
hoon…….ji haan , main wahin tha jahan
mujhe hona chaahiye tha ..Shaazia ke ghar
mein …..unn ke ghar mein , bistar par main
leta hua tha……..maine apne aas-paas nigah
ghumaayi aur mere sar ka dard mano poora
gaayab ho gaya ….

Main jis bistar par leta hua tha ……uss hi

par , mere right side mein …palang ke
sirhaane se lag kar Shaazia baithi huyee so
rahi thi…..woh jis position mein thi , usko
dekh kar lag raha tha ki who mere paas
baithi rahi hogi aur fir baithe-baithe hi so
gayi thi…

Maine thoda sa auth kar apne aap ko seedha

karne ki koshish ki …….par apni kohniyon
par wazan daalte hi mere muh se ek halki si
cheekh nikal gayi….aur mere kandhe mein ek
dard ki lehar si daud gayi…..main bhool hi
gaya tha ki mere behosh hone ki wajah mere
kandhe ka jakham tha …mujhe fir se
aankhen band kar ke letna pad gaya

Meri awaaz Shaazia ke bhi kaano tak

pahunch gayi thi aur usne jhat se aankhen
khol di ….kuchh der tak woh mere chehre ko
dekhti rahi fir achanak se uske chehre par ek
muskurahat aa gayi aur woh uth kar doosre
kamre ki taraf daud si gayi ..
“ baaji…..baaji …….dekho …..unko hosh aa
gaya……….” Uski awaaz mere kaano mein
pad rahi thi ……….maine fir se aankeh
kholi….ab dono behne wahin uss kamre
mein thi……..Hina palang par hi baithi huyee
thi aur Shaazia uss ke peechhe khadi huyi
thi ….dono ke chehro par hi khushi dikhayi
pad rahi thi …

“ Kaise ho Ajay ?” mere haath par apna haath

rakh kar Hina ne poochha…….jiska jawaab
maine apna sar hila kar aur muskuraahat se
diya…..

maine dono ke chehro ko baari baari se

dekha aur fir poochha “ main yahan par
kaise aa gaya……..? ” mera sawaal hi
bewkoofi bhara tha…….jaahir hai ki yeh
dono hi mujhe yahan utha kar laayi hongi

“ jab tum kaafi der tak nahi aaye to hum

tumhe dhoondne gayi thi …….tum wahan
maidaan ke uss taraf behosh pade
they ……… shukra karo ki barf baai ki wazah
se tumhaara khoon bahut jyada nahi beh
paaya……..fir bhi jitna beh chukka hai , wahi
kaafi tha tumhe behosh karne ke liye …….”
Akhiri baat kehte kehte who muskurayi aur
fir utth kar baahar chali gayi……….Shaazia
kuchh der tak meri taraf dekhti
rahi ……maine bhi usko dekhte huye
muskurane ki koshish ki …fir woh bhi kamre
se baahar nikal gayi

maine khidki se baahar dekhne ki koshish

ki ……..baahar halki halki roshini ho rahi
thi…….iska matlab din nikal aaya tha ……par
mausam ka kya mizaaz tha , yeh mujhe nahi
maloom tha ……..maine fir se ek baar saare
shareer ki takkat ko ikaththa kiya aur fir apni
kohniyon ka bal uth kar bistar ke sirahaane
se take laga kar bith gaya……….

Thodi hi der mein Shaazia fir se waaaps aa

gayi…….woh mere liye doodh le kar aayi
thi ….maine gilaas uske haath se le liya aur
fir doodh peene laga …….woh planang par hi
baith kar meri taraf dekhti rahi …… “ baahar
mausam ke kya haal hai “ maine uss se
poochha …….

“ Kal raat se hi lagataar barfbaari ho rahi

hai …………..ab to baahar achchhi khaasi barf
ikaattha ho gayi hai……….. “ usne
bataya……..fir mere hath se khaali gilaas le
kar baahar chali gayi …………..

maine fir se aankh band kar ke le

gaya ………… “ Lo…………… dawaayi kha lo
“ iss baar yeh Hina ki awaaz thi , maine
aankhen kholi ……….woh mere paas palang
par hi baithi thi ………..usne apna haath meri
taraf badhaya ………maine uske haath se
dawaayi le li ……3-4 goliyan thi ………..maine
muh mein daal li aur fir uske haath se paani
ga gilaas le kar pee liya……….fir usne ek aur
gilaas meri taraf badhaya……….maine
swaaliyan nigaah se uss se poochaa………..

“ Pee lo ………….. tumhaare dard mein

aaraam karega “ usne kaha aur fir maine
uske haath se gilaas le kar honthon se lagaya
aur ek hi saans mein poora gilaas khaali kar
diya ………….jo kuchh bhi tha , kaafi kadwa
tha ……..fir main dobara se let gaya aur
aankhen band kar li …………….kuchh hi der
mein main fir se so gaya ………………
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#60
Dobara meri aankh khuli to main apne aap
ko pehle se jyada fir mehsoos kar raha
tha……….mere kandhe mein bhi ab dard
pehle se kam mehsoos ho raha
tha…………main uth kar baith gaya aur fir
baahar dekhne ki koshish karne
laga………..baahar dhundh dikhayi pad rahi
thi….iska matlab abhi bhi mausam pehle
jaisa hi tha…..yeh mere liye achchhi baat thi
kyon ki jiss jeep ko kal raat main khaayi mein
dhakel kar aaya tha , woh barf ki wajah se
jaldi kisi ki nigaah mein nahi aa
paayegi……….

Maine bistar se uthne ki koshish

ki ………….mujhe apne shareer mein kamjori
ka ehsaas hua par fir mein bistar se uth kar
khada ho gaya ………dheere dheere chal kar
main kamre se baahar aaya ……..saamne
kitchen mein dekha , wahan koi bhi nazar
nahi aaya… main aur aage chalne hi waala
tha ki Shaazia wahan aa gayi…………..
“ Arrreee…..! aap baahar kyon aa
gaye …………chaliye waapas bistar par jaakar
aaram kijiye…………” usne mujhe dekhte hi
kaha aur fir mera haath pakad kar waaps
kamre ke andar le aayi……..aur palang par
baith diya..
“ main ab theek hoon Shaazia………….lete
lete bor hone laga tha , sochaa thoda ghoom
loon ………” maine kaha , fir aage poochha
“ Hina kahan hai ? “

“ Baaji gaanv tak gayi hain ……….. “ keh kar

who muskurayi aur fir boli “ aane hi waali
hogi “

“ Wowww ……………to itni door kyon khadi

ho , aao mere paas aao na “ maine
muskurate huye uski taraf haath
badhaya ………jise usne thaam liya aur mere
najdeek aa gayi ………

mere paas khade hokar usne mere gale mein

apni baahen daal li aur fir boli “ maine kaha
na , baji aane hi waali hongi ………koi galat
harkat karne ki koshish mat karna “ keh kar
woh ada se muskura di

uski iss muskurahat par main sabh kuchh

luta sakta tha ………..maine usko kamar se
thama aur apne ooapr kheench
liya ……….woh bina kisi virodh ke meri gode
mein aakar baith gayi ……uski baahein abhi
bhi mere gale mein hi thi………

maine uske chehre ko apne ek haath se apne

taraf ghumaya aur ek kiss uske gaal par kar
diya………jawab mein usne bhi wahi harkat
mere saath ki …….fir to maano ek khel sa
hum dono ke beech shuru ho gaya…….hum
dono ek doosre ko baari baari se choomne
lage……..humaare chumbano ka daayra ek
doosre ke chehre tak hi seemit tha………par
dilo ki dhadkan badhaane ke liye yeh bhi
kaafi tha………

Fir maine usko thama aur ghuma kar bistar

par leta diya…aur khud uske oopar aa
gaya…………ab woh bistar par pair neeche
latkaaye leti huyee thi aur main uske oopar
tha ………….maine apna saara wajan apni ek
kohni par dala hua tha ………maine apna sar
neeche jhukaya aur fir uske honthon par
apne honth tika diye ………..humesha ki
tarah usne apne honthon ko kholkar mera
swaagat kiya ………..aur fir hum dono ke
honth aapas men ulajh kar reh
gaye ………..hum dono hi ek doosre ke
honthon ka ras choosne mein lage huye
they………. …………..mera ek haath bistar par
tika hua tha aur doosre haath ko maine
neeche se uske kurte ke andar daal
diya …………….

Uske pet se hota hua mera haath dheere

dheere oopar ki taraf badhne
laga …………humaare honth abhi bhi aapas
mein jude huye they , par mere haath ki
harkat se uske shareer mein ek sihran si saaf
mehsoos ho rahi thi ……oopar ko chalta hua
mera haath apni manzil par pahunch gaya
aur uske ek ubhaar ko maine apne haath
mein thaam liya ……….usne apne honthon
ko juda kiya aur meri aankhon mein dekhne
lagi ………..fir apne chehra mere seene mein
chhipa liya ………
“ Baaji aane hi waali hongi ……………abhi
mujhe chhod do …………….. “ woh mere kaan
mein fus-fusaate huye boli ……………
main karvat lekar uski bagal mein aa
gaya ………..usko apne paas kheencha aur ek
baahn ko uski kamar par lapet kar usko apne
saath lipta liya…….apna muh uski gardam
mein ghusa diya aur wahan usko choomne
laga ……..usne bhi apni dono baahein meri
gardam mein daal kar mujhe aur kas ke apne
aap se chipta liya ……………………kuchh
minutes ke liye waqt maano thahar sa
gaya……….hum dono ek doosre se lipte huye
iss hi tarah pade rahe aur ek doosre ki
dhadkan ko ginte rahe…………………..

10 minute baad Shaazia ne dheere se apne

aap ko mujh se alag kiya aur fir mere gaal ko
choom kar bistar se uth gayi…………….uth
kar usne apne kapdo ko sahi kiya aur meri
taraf dekh kar muskurayi aur kamre se
baahar nikal gayi ………
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#61
Kuchh hi der ke baad Hina waapas aa
gayi …………woh dono behne apne kaam
mein lagi rahi aur main bistar par pada-pada
apne ghar waalo ke baare mein sochta
raha………jaisa ki Aslam beg ne kaha tha ,
agar uski baat sach thi to mere ghar waalo
par waakayi bahut buri beet rahi
hogi………..sab log yahi samajh rahe honge
ki main plane crash mein mara
gaya ………….meri aankhon ke saamne ek ek
kar ke meri mummy , papa aur behan ki
tasveer nazar aane lagi…………..kya haal ho
raha hoga unn becharo ka mere baare mein
soch soch kar……………kaash !! koi tareeka
hota jo main unko apni salamati ki khabar de
pata ………………….sochte sochte pata hi nahi
laga ki kab meri aankhen nam ho gayi………

“ Kya hua …? Kya soch rahe ho ? “ yeh Hina

ki awaaz thi , woh mere palang ke paas khadi
thi ………..haath mein khaane ki plate
lekar ……….

Apni aankhen ponchhta hua main baith

gaya …” nahi…koi khaas baat nahi……..bas
aise hi ghar waalo ka khayaal aa
gaya ……….”
Usne plate mere saamne rakh di ………”
kahana khaa lo “ fir khud bhi wahi palang
par baith gayi………

“ Aur aap log ? aap khana nahi khayenge ?

“ maine poochha…

“ hum log bhi kha lenge ………pehle aap to

kha lo “ woh muskurate huye boli ……….”
Agar yeh haadsa na hua hota to shaayad tum
aaj hi yahan se nikal sakte they “ …..

main uski baat sunkar ek dum chaung gaya

“ achchha !! who kaise “
“ Aaj hi humaari ek gaadi Hindustan ja rahi
hai…………….kuchh maal lekar …agar tum
sahi hote , to hum aaj hi yahan se nikal sakte
they “ kehkar usne ek baar fir meri taraf
dekha aur muskura di ………..

uski baat sunkar mujhe fir ek jhatka sa

laga ………… usne hum shabd ka use kiya
tha , jisne mujhe chaukaa diya tha……….par
maine kuchh bhi jaahir nahi hone
diya…….aur chup-chap khana khata
raha……….

Maine jaldi jaldi apna khana khaya aur bistar

se uth kar khada ho gaya …usne plate mere
haath se le li aur boli “ tum lete
raho ……..aaram karo………….jo kaam ho
mujhe batao “
“ Nahi ….ab main sahi hoon……….apne kaam
apne aap kar sakta hoon ……….” Main
baahar gaya aur haath dho kar waapas
kamre mein aa gaya………woh bhi wahin laut
ke aa gayi thi……….mujhe dekh kar woh
muskurayi ,

main bistar par baith gaya ……aur uss se

bola “ meri wajah se tum logo ko fir
pareshaani ho rahi hai , tum chaho to main
waapas tabele mein chala jaata hoon “
usne mere chehre ko dekha aur fir boli ….
“ tum abhi poori tarah sahi nahi ho
Ajay…………..kal tumhara kaafi saara khoon
beh gaya tha ………..abhi 1-2 din yahin par
aaram kar lo “ ….fir kuchh seconds ruk kar
aage boli “ aur rahi baat pareshaani
ki ………tumhaari iss haalat ki wajah bhi to
hum log hi hain ………..” keh kar usne mujhe
ek baar fir muskura kar dekha aur kamre se
baahar chali gayi …………..

woh kuchh hi seconds baad fir waapas aayi ,

haath mein ek gilaas lekar “ lo , yeh dawaayi
pee lo “

maine gilaas haath mein le liye aur uss se

poochha “ yeh dawaayi kaisi hai ……..swaad
to bahut kadwa hai par saara dard mita deti
hai …”
woh fir se muskurate huye boli “ yeh
humaari special dawaayi hai ………..tum bas
pee jao aur araam karo “
maine ek baar fir se dawaayi ko dekha aur fir
ek hi sans mein gilaas khaali kar
diya ………..iss baar uska swaad kuchh alag
tha , ek teekhi si lehar mere poore shareer
mein daudti chali gayi………….

Usne mere haath se gilaas liya aur kamre se

baahar nikal gayi ………….main waapas bistar
par aakar let gaya …………….5 minute baad
hi meri aankhen fir se band hone
lagi ……….main aaj bahut so chukka tha par
fir bhi mujhe fir se neend aane lagi thi

………………maine poori koshish ki apne aap

ko na sone dene ki par ek ajeeb se behoshi
mere jehan par haavi hone lagi aur fir meri
aankhen band hoti chali gayi
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#62

Mere hosh dheere-dheere waapas aa rahe

they , par ek ajeeb sa ehsaas mujhe ho raha
tha…..mujhe aisa lag raha tha ki mere kaan
aur dimaag to kaam kar rahe hain par
shareer ke baaki bhaag ilkul sunn pad chuke
hain…… maine apne haath –panv hilane ki
koshish ki , par aisa laga jaise unhe kisi
adrashya shakti ne baandh rakha ho……..

Maine apni aankhen kholne ki koshish bhi

ki , par chaah kar bhi nahi khol
paaya ………mera sar bhaari sa ho raha tha ,
bilkul aise jaise koi insaan do dino tak na
soya ho aur fir usko sote hi neend se utha
diya jaaye………kul milakar mere oopar ek
ajeeb si behoshi chaayi huyee thi …main
apne shareer ko apni hi ichchha se nahi hila
pa raha tha …….bas mera dimaag jaaga hua
tha , woh bhi shaayad isliye ki meri will
power kaafi strong thi……

Mujhe apne paas kisi aur ka bhi ehsaas

hua…………..koi aur bhi tha jo iss samay
mere saath leta hua tha ……………….jo bhi
koi tha , woh mere se lipta hua tha aur usne
apna ek haath meri chaati par rakha hua
tha…saath hi uski ek taang bhi meri kamar
par chadhi huyee thi ……. Meri turant hi
samajh mein aa gaya ki woh kaun ho sakta
hai ………..ya to Shaazia , ya fir Hina ……
Maine kuchh bolne ke liye muh khola par
meri awaaz mere halak ke andar hi ghut kar
reh gayi…….poora jor lagaane ke baad sirf
ek halki si karahat hi mere muh se nikal
paayi……….woh job hi thi , usne shaayad
meri awaaz sun lit hi ………mujhe apne
chehre par garam saans ka ehsaas hua aur fir
usne mujhe choomna shuru kar diya ………..
uska ek haath mere seene par fir raha tha aur
doosra haath mere baalo mein ………..usne
mere maathe se choomna shuru kiya aur fir
gaalo se hote huye , mere hontho par aa
gayi ….4-5 chhote chhote chumben karne ke
baad usne mere neeche waale honth ko apne
honthon mein daboch liya aur choosna shuru
kar diya …….
Mere liye yeh ek ajeeb si stithi thi……….ek
ladki mere saath yeh sab kuchh kar rahi thi
aur main kuchh bhi nahi kar paa raha
tha …………uska haath mere seene se hote
huye mere pet tak pahuncha aur fir usne
mere land par ek baar haath firaya , aur fir
usko daboch liya …………kitni ajeeb baat thi ,
mera saara shareer sunn tha , par mera lund
abhi bhi jaaga hua tha aur uske haath lagate
hi usne apna aakar badhana shuru kar
diya ……………..

Uss ne meri shirt ke saare buttons khol diye

they aur fir dheere se mera pehna hua
trouser bhi neeche sarkaane
lagi ………….thoda sa neeche sarakte hi ,
mera land jo abhi tak poori tarah se khada
ho chukka tha , ek dum se baahar aa
gaya ……….usne dheere dheere trouser ko
neeche sarkana jaari rakha aur fir use mere
pairo se nikaal diya ……………

Na chahte huye bhi mere shareer ka saara

khoon ek hi disha mein daud raha
tha ………….. woh ab mere pairo ko choom
rahi thi aur fir dheere dheere uske honth
oopar ko badh rahe they ……..mere liye
sabse kharaab baat yeh thi ki main apne
haath paanv bhi nahi hila paa raha
tha ………….maine apni aankhen fir se
kholne ki koshish ki , iss baar mujhe itni
kaamyabi to mili ki main kuchh kuchh
dhoondhla sa dekhne mein kaamyab ho
gaya ………………usne apna chehra , meri
jaanghon par jhukaya hua tha ………..fir
mujhe uske honthon ka geelapan apne lund
par mehsoos hua ……………….

Meri dhadkane aur saanse ab tez hone lagi

thi……….usne mere lund par kiss karne shuru
kar diya they ………pehle chhote chhote kiss
aur fir uski jeebh ka ehsaas mujhe apne uss
ang ar hone laga …………woh jeebh ko oopar
se neeche fir rahi thi………theek waise hi ,
jaise ki koi icecream ko chat-ta hai ……

Ab uske honth mujhe apne pet par mehsoos

hone lage …………fir dheere dheere oopar ki
taraf badhte huye , woh mere seene tak
pahunchi aur wahan choomna shuru kar
diya …………….kaafi der tak woh mere seene
ko choomti aur chat-ti rahi……………….iss
position mein uski gaand mere lund ke theek
oopar thi …jiska eh saas mujhe ho raha tha ,
saath hi yeh bhi maloom pad raha tha ki woh
bhi meri tarah nangi haalat mein hai………….
Uske honth ab meri gardan se hote huye fir
se mere honthon tak aa gaye…………kuchh
der tak mere honthon ko choosne ke baad ,
mere gaalo ko choomte huye woh mere kaan
tak pahunchi aur fir wahan haule haule
daanto se kaatne lagi ……….iss position mein
uski choot ab bilkul mere lund ke oopar thi ,
jiske geele pan ka ehsaas mujhe ho raha
tha ……………

“ Kya kar rahi ho ………………??? “ poora jor

lagaane ke baad main sirf itna hi bol
paaya………..mujhe aisa laga jaise meri
awaaz kisi gehre huen mein se aa rahi
ho …………….

“ Pyar kar rahi hoon ……….” Usne dheere se ,

fus-fusate huye kaha ………..main turant uski
awaaz pehchaan gaya , yeh Hina hi
thi ……………..
Fir woh apna ek haath neeche le
gayi ………………..mere lund ko apne haath
se pakda aur khud ko thoda sa oopar kar ke ,
apni choot ke muh ko mere lund par tika
diya…………fir mere gaal par apna gaal
ragadti huye who neeche ko hoti chali
gayee…………mera bilkul sakht ho chukka
lund , bade hi aaram se uski geeli choot mein
samata chala gaya………………………..
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 #63
Is baat ka ehsaas to mujhe ho chukka tha ki
Shaazia ghar par nahi hai …..tab hi Hina yeh
sab kaam kar paa rahi hai………..uske dono
haath ab mere seene par tike huye they aur
apni gaand ko oopar-neeche karte huye woh
mujhse chud rahi thi ……….. meri kamar bhi ,
na chaahte huye bhi hilne ki koshish kar rahi
thi , aur kuchh had tak mein usme safal bhi
ho raha tha …..
Who thoda sa aage ko jhuki aur apni ek
choochi ko apne haath se pakad kar mere
muh par laga diya , maine bhi apna muh
kholkar usko muh mein bhar
liya …………..kul milakar , jo kaam usne
shuru kiya tha , usme ab main bhi uska saath
de raha tha ………… maloom nahi yeh uski di
huyee dawaai ka asar tha ya kuchh aur , main
bhi uske iss khel mein doob jana chahta
tha ……

Ahhh……………ohhh……………ahh……..ouuu
……………….. uke muh se kuchh iss tarah ki
masti bhari awaaze nikal rahi
thi …………………..mere oopar chhaayi huyi
behoshi ab hatne lagi thi aur haath paanv
bhi ab kuchh had tak hilne lag gaye
they …………….

Maine apne aap ko kohniyon ke bal oopar ko

utha liya aur aadhi-baithi huyee position
main ho gaya …………….usne aage badhkar
mere gale mein apni baahen daal di aur apni
gaand ko lagatar hilana chaloo
rakha…………uski dono choochiyan iss
position mein mere seene par dabi huyee
thi ………..

Main jald se jald iss khel ko khatam karna

chahta tha……….maine uss ki kamar ko
pakda aur fir usko pakde-pakde palat
diya………….usko bistar par leta kar main
khud uske oopar aa gaya……………..kuchh
seconds tak main uske chehre ko dekhta
raha …….yeh ladki har baar ek naye roop
mein mere saamne aati hai ……………iss
samay uski aankehn aadhi band thi , jaise
kisis gehre nashe mein doobi huyee
ho ………..
Maine apna lund fir se uski choot mein
dhakela aur fir dheere dheere dhakke lagane
shuru kar diya ……….har dhakke ke saath
uske muh se siskaariyan nikal rahi thi ………..
dheere dheere maine apne dhakko ki raftaar
badhani shuru kar di , har baar main lund ko
poora baahar nikaal kar , waapas poora
andar ghusa deta tha …………usne ek baar
aankh khol kar mujhe dekha fir apni aankhen
band kar li ……….woh apne dono haath mere
seene par fira rahi thi ………….saath saath
uski kamar bhi neeche se mere har dhakke
ka poora jawaab de rahi thi ………….

Hum dono ki manzil ab najdeek aati jaa rahi

thi ……….usne apne dono haath aage badhya
aur apne aap ko thoda sa uchka kar mei
gardan mein apni baahen daal
di ………..maine bhi apne aap ko uske oopar
aur jyada aage jhuka diya …………uski dono
taange ab poori tarah se oopar hawa mein
uthi huyeethi …………..ha pal humaari raftaar
mein tezi aati jaa rahi thi …………usne apni
baahon ko meri gardan ke ird-gird kas ke
lapet diya aur mere gaal se apna gaal
ragadne lagi ……………

Ahhhh………………….offff………………………o
hhh…………….ouuuu…………….ki awwazein
kamre mein goonj rahi thi , jo hum dono ke
muh se nikal rahi thi …………woh ab be-
tahasha mere chehre ko choom rahi
thi ……………….apne muh ko mere kaan ke
paas le jaakar woh mere kaan mein
boli ………….
“ main tum se bahut pyar karti hoon
Ajay …………….mujhe kabhi bhi mat
bhulana ………………..” kehne ke saath hi
uske haath meri peeth par kas gaye , uska
poora shareer akad gaya aur fir dheere
dheere dheela padta chala gaya……….maine
bhi apni kamar ko jaldi jaldi hilaya aur fir ek
tez awaaz muh se nikaalte huye , apne
shareer ki saari garmi , uske shareer mein
udel di ……………………..paseene se nahaye
humaare shareer shant padte chale gaye
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#64
Baahar barf baari ab ruk si gayi
thi ………main khidki se baahar dekhne ki
koshish kar raha tha …….ek do sheeshe hi
sahi salaamat they jin me se main baahar
dekh pa raha tha ………….. baahar barf ki
safed chaadar si bichhi huyi thi ..
Abhi kuchh hi der pehle ek vasna ka toofaan
iss kamre mein se aakar gujar chukka
tha ……….toofan ke shant hote hi Hina bistar
se uth kar chali gayi thi aur main kuchh der
vaise hi leta raha …….fir apne kapde pehan
kar main yahan khidki ke paas aakar khada
ho gaya tha aur baahar dekhne ki koshish
kar raha tha ………..iss beech do baar Hina
kamre mein aakar chali gayi thi , par hum
don one hi ek-doosre se koi baat nahi ki
thi …………

Main waapas bistar par aakar let

gaya…………mere oopar jo behoshi si chaa
gayi thi , woh ab door ho chuki thi ……..fir
bhi , shaayad dawaai ka asar tha jo mere
saare shareer mein dard sa ho raha tha ……..

Baahar darwaaze par aahat huyi …..main

sambhal kar baith gaya aur Hina darwaaza
kholne ke liye chali gayi …..kuchh hi palo
mein maine Shaazia ko andar aate huye
dekha ……..usne ek overcoat pehna hua tha
aur pairo mein long boots they…………..itne
achchhe mausam ke baad bhi uske chehre
par ajeeb si udaasi dikhayi pad rahi thi aur
hamesha rehne waali smile gaayab
thi……………

Uske peechhe peeche jo shakhs andar

daakhil hua , usko dekhkar ek baar to main
chaunk gaya aur alert ho gaya……………..woh
Hasan ali tha…………shaayad Shaazia ke
saath hi aaya tha…………..woh dono ek saath
doosre waale kamre mein daakhil ho gaye ,
jo bilkul saamne the ………..andar ko jaate
samay Hasan ali ki nazar mere oopar padi
aur usne ek haath uthe kar mujhe salaam
kiya ……….mano kaafi pehle se mujhe jaanta
ho …………….mere liye yeh ek nayi baat thi ,
maine bhi jawaab mein sar jhuka kar uske
salaam ka jawaab diya ………….

Saamne waale kamre mein pahunch kar

Hasan ali kursi par baith gaya aur Shaazia
waapas baahar nikal kar ghar ke andar ,
shaayad apne kamre mein chali
gayi……………Meri nigah Hasan ali par hi
thi , woh kamre mein baith hua idhar-udhar
dekh raha tha …………kuchh hi der baad
Hina uss kamre mein pahunchi aur uske
saamne doosri kursi par baith
gayi ………..dono kuchh der tak aapas mein
baat karte rahe……….jo bhi baat dono kar
rahe they , woh itni halki awaaz mein ho rahi
thi ki ek bhi shabd mere kaan tak nahi
pahunch pa raha tha………..pratyaksh mein
main aankhen band kar ke lete hua tha, par
baar baar uski taraf bhi meri nigaah chali
jaati thi ……………maine gaur kiya ki beech
beech mein jab bhi Hina usko kuchh samjhati
thi, uski nigaah mere oopar hi padti thi ……

Fir Hina kursi se uthi aur lakdi ki almaari ke

paas pahunchi ……….usne almaari
kholi…….mujhe yahan se bhi saaf dikhayi
pad raha tha ki usne kuchh paise almaari se
gin kar nikaale aur fir waapas aakar woh
paise Hasan Ali ke hawaale kar diye…………
Hasan Ali ne muskurate huye Hina se kuchh
kaha aur fir paise apni jeb ke hawaale kar
diye ……….fir woh uth kar khada ho gaya aur
kamre se baahar nikal aaya ………..baahar
aate samay fir se uski nigaah mere se mili aur
usne muskurate huye mujhe fir se salaam
kiya ………jiska jawaab maine apna sar hila
kar de diya ……. Fir Hasan ali aur Hina
baahar ki taraf chale gaye ………….darwaaza
khulne aur fir se band hone ki awaaz aayi aur
fir kuchh hi der mein Hina waapas kamre
mein chali gayi………………..

Uske baad ka saara samay lagbhag chup

chaap hi beeta …………..beech mein ek do
baar Hina mere kamre mein aayi par hum
dono ke beech koi baat nahi huyee……….iss
beech ek baar bhi mujhe Shaazia nahi
dikhayi padi ………shaayad woh apne kamre
ke andar hi baithi huyi thi ………

Raat ko Hina fir mere kamre mein aayi ,

khana lekar ……….usne muskurate huye
Khane ki plate mere paas rakh di aur boli
“ Khana kha lo …………………”
Main bina kuchh bole , bistar par hi baith
gaya aur chup chap khana khane
laga ……………saara mahaul kuchh ajeeb sa
lag raha tha ……….Shaazia ki khamoshi ,
Hina aur Hasan ali ki muskurahat ..kuchh
ajeeb sa ehsaas karwaa rahi thi…………meine
saari baato ko apne dimaag se jhatka dekar
nikaal diya ……………..” jo bhi hoga , dekha
jaayega ……..” sochte huye main khana
khaane mein mashroof ho gaya ………aur
kuchh hi minutes mein khana khatam kar
liya ……………..Hina plate lekar chali
gayi ……main bistar se uth kar, haath dhone
ke liye bathroom ki taraf chal
diya…………kamre se baahar aakar , jab mein
bath room ki taraf ja raha tha………Shaazia
ke kamre ke saamne se gujarte huye maine
apni nigaah andar daali …………..Shaazia
apne bistar par ulti hokar leti huyi
thi ……….uska haath apne sar ke oopar tha
aur chehra takiye mein chhipaya hua
tha ……….maloom nahi pad saka ki woh so
rahi hai ya nahi …………………..maine bath
room mein jaakar , apne haath dhoye aur
waapas aakar bistar par baith gaya
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#65
Raat ho gay thi ….dono behne apne-apne
kamro mein sone chali gayi thi par meri
aankhon se neend gaayab thi….na jaane
kyon aisa lag raha tha ki kuchh hone waala
hai ..kya ? yeh mujhe bhi nahi maloom
tha ……

Main bistar se uth kar khada ho

gaya …….khidki se baahar jhaank kar
dekha …baahar bilkul sannnata tha …….main
kuchh der yun hi baahar dekhta raha fir
kamre se nikal kar baahar aa gaya……..maine
pehle Hina ke kamre mein jhaank kar
dekha……wahan bilkul khamoshi chhayi
huyee thi …fir main dabe paanv chalta hua
ghar ke main darwaaje tak pahuncha aur
darwaza khol kar ghar se baahar aa gaya…….
Andar ki tarah hi baahar bhi sannata sa
chhaya hua tha………..door door tak bilkul
khamoshi thi…………ghar ke baahar ka bulb
off tha aur tabele ke andar bhi roshini ka koi
naam-o-nishaan nahi tha………maine dheere
dheere chalta hua tabele tak
pahuncha……andar daakhil hua…aur light on
kar di …fir main uss kamre mein pahunch ,
jahan main pehle reh raha tha……andar
pahunch kar maine bistar hataya , aur fir
mujhe chaunk jana pada ………bistar ke
neeche main ek revolver chhipayi huyi thi ,
wahi jo main apne saath yahan lekar aaya
tha ……..woh ab gaayab thi ………..

Mere liye yeh bilkul ajeeb baat thi , kyon ki

yahan Hina aur Shaazia ke alawa koi aur nahi
aa sakta tha aur yeh kaam un dono mein se
hi kisi ek ka tha…………shaayad Hina ka ……

Main fir kamre se baahar aa

gaya…………doosri revolver maine tabele ke
andar chhipayi huyi thi ( wahi jo maine uss
inspector se cheeni thi ) , maine usko
dhoondha ……aur woh mujhe wahin par se
mil gayi , jahan usko maine chhipaya
tha ……….maine revolver ko apne kapdo
mein chhipaya aur baahar aa kar ghar ki
taraf chal diya ……….

Ghar ke andar aakar maine fir se main

darwaaza band kiya aur fir apne kamre mein
aa gaya ……….pehle ki hi tarah ghar mein
khamoshi hi chhayi huyi thi …maine kamre
mein charo taraf nigaah daudayi………khidki
ke oopar ek chhota sa roshandaan mujhe
najar aaya…….maine palang ke oopar khade
hokar roshandan mein haath
dala ………….wahan achchhi-khaasi jagah
thi……maine revolver ko wahin par rakh diya
aur palang se utar kar neeche aa
gaya………neeche se dekhne par revolver
dikhayi nahi pad raha tha…

Main fir se palang par let gaya……..aur

aankhen band kar ke sone ki koshish karne
laga……… tabhi kisi ka sparsh mere kandhe
par hua aur main chaunk kar baith
gaya ……………..yeh Shaazia thi , main eek
lambi si saans li aur fir se let gaya ……….woh
bhi pehle mere paas palang par baith gayi
aur fir mere saath let gayi ………… fir usne
karvat le kar ek baanh ko mere oopar lapet
kar mujh se chipak gayi……………. Hum dono
hi abhi tak bilkul chup chap they…………..

Kuchh seconds baad hi mujhe uski siskiyon ki

awaaz mehsoos huyi……..maine chaunk kar
uski taraf karvat li aur uske chehre ko
dekha …..roshini bahut kam thi , fir bhi
mujhe uski aankhon mein aansoo dikhayi
pad rahe they ………..woh halki halki siskiyon
ke saath ro rahi thi ………
Maine uske chehre ko apne haathon se
pakad kar oopar kiya aur uske aansoon
pochhta hua bola “ Kya hua Shaazia , kyon ro
rahi ho ?? “
Who kuchh seconds tak bina kuchh bole
sisakti rahi , fir mere seene mein muh chhipa
liya ………..main apna haath uski peeth par
fer kar usko chup karne ki koshish karta
raha ………

Agle 2 minutes tak hum dono aise hi lete

rahe ……….fir usne hi muh uthaya aur baat
shuru ki ………….. “ mujhe nahi maloom tha
ki meri baaji mere saath aisa bhi kar sakti
hain Ajay………..!! “ aur fir subakna shuru kar
diya………

Maine uska chehra oopar kiya aur fir bola

“ pehle chup ho jaao aur fir batao ki kya baat
hai……?”

Usne apne aansoo ponchh kar batana shuru

kiya “ tumhe maloom hi hai ki main aaj
shaam ki bagan par gayi thi ………wahan
Hasan ali ne mujhe kuchh baatein batayi ,
baaji ke baare mein “

“ Jaise ki ? kaisi baatein ? “ maine uss se

sawaal kiya ………….

“ Yahi ki ………………………baaji tumhare

saath Hindustan jana chahti hain “ usne
kuchh der ruk kar kaha ………

“ bas !! ……. Itni si baat , hum to khud bhi

yahi chahte hain ki woh humaare saath
jaaye , kyon ? tum bhi yahi nahi chahti ?
“ maine halke se hanste huye kaha………..
“ tum meri baat ko samajh nahi paa
rahe …………woh sirf tumhare saath jana
chahti hai ………mujhe yahin chhod
kar ……….” Usne aage bataya……….maine
man hi man socha, yeh baat to mujhe bhi
pehle se hi maloom thi …………

main kuchh der chup hi raha………sochta

raha ki kya kahoon …….fir usne hi aage
bolna shuru kiya “ baaji chahti hain ki main
Hasan se shaadi kar loon , yeh jaante huye
bhi ki main tum se pyar karti hoon ……….aur
agar main nahi maani to woh tumhe bhi nahi
jaane dengi ………….woh tumhe police ya fir
pakistani fauz ke hawaale bhi karne ko
tayyar hain …………….” Kehte huye woh
mujh se fir lipat gayi ……..
yeh aakhiri baat mere liye nayi
thi ………………Hina mujhe chahti hai , yeh to
mujhe maloom tha …….par woh mera
nuksaan karne ki bhi soch sakti hai , yeh meri
samajh se baahar tha ………………

main uske baalo mein haath ferta

raha………fir uske chehre ko apne aap se alag
kiya aur bola…….” Tum meri fikra mat
karo ………..main kal subah hi Hina se fir se
baat karoonga aur kal hi hum yahan se
nikalne ki koshish karenge…………..tum ab
jaakar so jaao ….” Fir maine uske maathe ko
choom liya …………………
usne bhi jawaab mein mere gaal par ek
chumban diya aur uth kar mere paas se chali
gayi…………..
main fir se sochne par majboor ho
gaya ……………aaj shaam ka Hina aur hasan
ka vyavahar meri bhi samajh se baahar
tha ……………kya waakai woh aisa bhi kuchh
kar sakti hai ……………. Fir maine khud hi iss
sambhavna se inkaar kar diya aur sone ki
koshish karne laga …………….dimaag mein
chal rahe sawaalo ke baawjood bhi thodi hi
der mein mujhe neend aa gayi…………………

mujhe nahi maloom main kitni der tak sota

raha…………jab meri neend khuli to maine
khidki se baahar dekha ………….baahar
achchhi khaasi roshini ho rahi
thi ………….maine bistar se uthne ki koshish
ki , par uth nahi paaya ………….ab maine
apni haalat par gaur kiya to mere dil ki
dhadkan achanak kayi guna tez ho
gayi ……………

mere dono haath aur pairo ko rassi se

baandh kar palang ke chaaro taraf baandha
gaya tha ……….main chah kar bhi bilkul hil-
dul nahi sakta tha…………

par kyon ……? Kisne kiya hai yeh……..? yeh

meri bhi samajh se baahar tha …………..
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#66

Mere dono pairo ko kaafi kas ke baandha

gaya tha , itna ki main unko sahi se hila bhi
nahi paa raha tha …………..haathon ko bhi
kalaayi par kas ke bandha gaya tha , par rassi
kaafi patli aur lambi use ki gayi thi ……….itni
lambi ki main dono haathon ko aapas mein
mila bhi sakta tha ….aur itni patli ki agar
main poori takat lagata to shaayad rassi toot
bhi sakti thi………….par abhi mujhe rassi
todne ki koi jaroorat nahi thi …………main
abhi dekhna chahta tha ki yeh sab kya ho
raha hai …….

Fir jaise ki mujhe ummed thi ………kamre

mein Hina daakhil huyee……..usne salwaar
suit pehna hua tha aur uss par ek half sleeve
ki garam jacket pehni huyi thi …………woh
aakar kamre ke darwaaze par khadi ho gayi
aur ek-tak mujhe dekhne lagi …….uske
chehre par iss samay koi bhi bhaav nahi
they………bilkul sapaat chehra aur ek ajeeb si
kathorta ……….

“ Yeh sab kya hai Hina ? “ maine uss ko

dekhte hi uss se sawaal kiya ……….

Uss ne koi jawaab nahi diya……….balki mere

aur najdeek aa gayi ……..

“ kyon bandha hai tumne mujhe ……? Kya

chahti ho ? “ maine fir uss se sawaal kiya….

“ tumhe !! tumhe chahti hoon main

Ajay ……! Mujhe Ajay chahiye ! “ uske muh
se maano aag si nikal rahi thi ……….aawaz
bhaari si ho rahi thi ………
“ Aise ? baandh kar paana chahti ho mujhe ?
“ main chehre par muskurahat lata hua
bola ….

“ Nahi , ……..bandha to isliye tha ki tumse

kuchh sawaal kar sakoon ……..aur ek sauda
bhi “ woh mer aankhon mein dekhte huye
boli “ agar tum aazad hote , to na mera
sawaal sunte aur na hi mere se saude ke liye
tayaar hote “

“ kya sawaal hai ? poochho …” main bola

“ Sawaal wahi hai Ajay ……… kya tum sirf

mere ban kar reh sakte ho ? “ usne meri
aankhon mein jhaanke huye sawaal kiya
tha ……..

“ aur mera jawaab bhi wahi hai

Hina ………..nahi !! “ maine bhi uski aankhon
mein aankhen daal kar jawaab diya …………

“ tum mere saath hum bistar ho sakte

ho ………par mere saath reh nahi
sakte …..kyon ? “

“ tum fir bekaar ki baatein kar rahi ho

Hina ………..tum bhi jaanti ho ki main kin
paristhitiyon mein tumhare saath hum-bistar
hua tha ………aur usmein bhi tumhaari marzi
mere se jyada thi ……….fir baar baar inn
baaton ka kya faayda ? ..mujhe khol
do ……..main aaj hi yahan se jaana chahta
hoon “ main ab jhunjhala gaya tha ………

“ akele ??? akele hi jaaoge ……?.” woh ek

ajeeb si musurahat ke saath boli

“ Nahi !…………Shaazia ko saath le kar

jaaoonga !!” main bola …..
“ par mere rehte to yeh nahi ho sakta Ajay
“ woh mere oopar jhuk kar ……….gurraati
huyi boli ………….” ya to tum mere ban kar
rahoge , ya fir tum kisi ke bhi nahi ho
sakte ………”

“ aur tum sochti ho kit um mujhe rok logi ?

“ main hansta hua bola ……..
“ mujhe maloom hai ki main tumhara
muqabla nahi kar paoongi ……..par mere
paas ek doosra raasta bhi hai “ keh kar woh
kamre se baahar nikal gayi …………

2-3 minute baad hi woh fir se waapas

lauti ………….par iss baar woh akeli nahi
thi …..uske aage aage Shaazia bhi
thi………usne Shaazia ka ek haath pakda hua
tha…..aur doosre haath mein ek revolver
tha ………mera wahi revolver jo tabele waale
kamre mein se gaayab ho gaya
tha ………..Shaazia ke chehre par ajaaeb se
bhaav they………jaise who samajh nahi paa
rahi ho ki yeh sab kya ho raha hai……..kamre
mein aakar Hina ne Shaazia ko darwaaze ke
paas hi rok diya aur khud andar aa
gayi…………

“ yahi hai woh cheej …..jiska sauda main

tumse karna chahti hoon “ meri taraf dekhti
huyee woh gurraayi ……

maine sawaaliya nigahon se uski taraf

dekha…..

“ Ajay …………main tumse Shaazia ki jaan ka

sauda karna chahti hoon “ usne maano ek
dhamaka sa karte huye
kaha …………….Shaazia ne ekdum se Hina ki
taraf dekha ………mano jo Hina ne kaha ho ,
usko uss par vishwas na ho raha ho ……….

“ Agar tume meri baat nahi maani to main

abhi iss hi samay Shaazia ko maar
doongi………aur fir tumhe bhi pakistani fauz
ke hawaale kar doongi “ usne apni baat
poori karte huye kaha ………..

“ Baaji !!! yeh kya keh rahi ho “ ……Shaazia

ko mano apne kaano par vishwas hi nahi ho
raha tha ………uski aankhon se ab aansoo
behne lage they ……..

“ bilkul sahi keh rahi hoon main ……… bolo

Ajay , kya chahte ho tum …….Shaazia ki
maut ya jindagi “ kehte huye usne revolver
Shaazia ki taraf taan di ………….

“ Aur agar main tumhaari baat maan loon

to …………..fir Shaazia ka kya hoga “ maine
sawaal kiya ……….

“ Fir jaisa chal raha hai…………aise hi chalta

rahega …………..hum dono abhi yahan se
chale jaayenge ……….aur saari jindagi saath
saath rahenge “ uske chehre par ek smile si
aa gayi thi ………. “ usne apni jacket ki jeb
mein haath daala aur fir usme se ek chaabi
aur ek hara (green) lifafa nikala aur mujhe
dikhati huyi boli …… “ yeh
dekho ……….gaadi bilkul tayyar khadi
hai …mere baagan ke paas , aur yeh hain
humaare dono ke permit ……….hum abhi
yahan se chal kar Hindustan ja sakte hain
“ kehte huye usne fir se dono cheeje ani jeb
mein daal li

“ Aur Shaazia ? uska kya hoga ? “ maine aage

poocha ………

“ Iski fikra mat karo …….. Hasan hai na iske

liye ………woh iss se nikaah kar lega aur yeh
dono yahin par rahenge “

“ baaji !!! aap aisa kuchh nahi

karogi ………….” Shaazia ab rote rote jameen
par baith gayi thi ……………” mujhe maloom
hai aap mujhse bahut pyar karti ho …”
“ kyon ? kyon nahi karoongi main
aisa ………..? tub hi to apne 8 din ke pyar ke
liye apni behan ko chhodne ko tayyar
hai …….fir main kyon na karoon aisa ? “ Hina
lagbhag cheekhti huyi si boli ……………

ab baat kaafi aage badhne lagi

thi ………….maine apne dono haaton ko
aapas mein milaya……….aur poori takat laga
kar kheench diya……….tadaak ki awaaz huyi
aur ek rassi toot gayi ………..mera ek haath
ab azaad tha ……….

Hina turant hi Shaazia ke paas pahunch

gayi ….aur revolver uske oopar taan
di……..”koi galat harkat mat karna
Ajay………….tum nahi jaante …..main waakai
Shaazia ko goli maar doongi “ woh fir se
gurrate huye boli …………..” ab jaldi se
mujhe jawaab do ………..abhi Hasan ali
yahan aane waala hai …………. Agar tum
tayaar ho to hum dono abhi yahan se nikal
chalenge ……..nahi to fir woh Pakistani fauz
ko bulane ke liye chala jaayega ……….”

Aur fir woh hua jiski main kalpana bhi nahi

kar sakta tha …………ek ajeeb si awaaz muh
se nikalti huyi Shaazia achanak Hina ke
oopar jhapti aur ek jordaar jhatke se usko
peechhe ko dhakka de diya ………..Hina iske
liye bilkul bhi tayyar nahi thi………woh
peechhe ko ladkhadayi aur Shaazia ne uske
haath se revolver chheen li ……5 seconds
mein hi baazi palat chuki thi ………
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#67
“ ab aap peechhe hat kar khadi ho jaao
Baaji ………” Shaazia ne Hina par revolver
taante huye kaha………Hina do kadam
peeche ko huyi aur fir jameen par baithti
chali gayi……….uske chehre par aise bhaav
they jaise kisi bachche ke haath se uska sabse
achchha khilona chheen liya gaya ho ……….

Maine furti ke saath apna kaam poora

kiya …….pehle apna doosra haath khola aur
fir apne pairo ko azaad kar liya ………main
furti se uth kar khada ho gaya aur oopar
roshandaan par rakhi huyi revolver nikaal
li …………fir main bistar se utar kar neeche
aa gaya…………..Shaazia mere pas aayi aur
mujh se lipat gayi…………….maine uske
kandhe ko thap-thapa kar usko fir apne se
alag kiya aur bola……..

“ humein abhi yahan se nikalna hai

Shaazia………tum jaldi se gaanv ke baahar
apne bagaan ke paas pahuncho ………agar
tumhaari behan sahi keh rahi hai to wahan
gaadi khadi hogi ……..main bhi abhi tumhare
paas pahunchta hoon “

Shaazia ne revolver mujhe de diya aur fir

jaldi se kamre se nikal kar , ghar ke andar
chali gayi ……….maine Hina ko baaju se
pakad kar uthaya aur fir usko ek lakdi ki
kursi par baitha diya ……….maine rassi se
uske dono paanv kursi ke saath bandh diye
aur dono haathon ko alag-alag kursi ke
hattho se bandh diya ……..woh ab bilkul
khamosh thi ………..aur na hi meri kisi harkat
ka virodh kar rahi thi

Shaazia waapas laut aayi thi ………usne

kapde badal liye they …….aur ek shawl ore
liye tha ……usne meri taraf
dekha ……..maine usko ishara kiya aur woh
ghar se baahar nikal gayi ………main fir se
Hina ki taraf muda ………woh sar jhuka kar
baithi thi….aur uski ankhon se ab aansoo bhi
behne lage they…….main uske paas aaya aur
uske same ghutno ke bal baith
gaya………usne nazar utha kar ek baar meri
taraf dekha aur fir neeche jhuka liya……..
“ Kyon kiya tumne aisa Hina ?…………….tum
janti ho Shaazia tum se kitna pyar karti
hai …?aur main bhi tumhaari bahut izzat
karta tha Hina ……….par tumne ek harkat se
woh sab kuchh khatam kar diya “ main uske
chehre ki taraf dekhta hua bola …….

Usne sar oopar uthya aur fir meri taraf

dekhti huyi boli “ mujhe izzat
nahi ……tumhara pyar chahiye tha Ajay…….”
Uski aankhon mein se aansoon ki ek moti
dhaar behne lagi thi …….

“ Sach maano Hina ………..agar main Shaazia

se na mila hota ……..to shaayad mein tumse
hi pyar kar baithta ……..par isko meri kismat
kaho ya apni bad-kismati ……tumse pehle ,
mujhe Shaazia se pyar ho gaya ………. Main
apne dil ko to nahi baant sakta ……..shaayad
humari kismat mein yahi likha
tha............oopar waale se dua karoonga ki
agle janam mein mujhe tumhara saath de...”

agle kuchh seconds khaamoshi si chhayi

rahi ………fir main khada ho gaya……..maine
aage badhkar uski jacket ki jeb mein haath
dala aur chaabi aur lifafa nikaal liya ……..fir
main jaldi se uske kamre mein gaya aur uski
almari mein se apne liye ek jacket
nikaali …….aur pehan li ….chaabi aur lifafa
main jacket ki jeb main daal liya aur jo
revolver abhi Hina ke haath se chheeni
thi ..usko apne kapdo mein chhipa
liya……..maine ek paper par kuchh likha aur
fir se Hina ke paas aa gaya ………woh bikul
sapaat nigaahon se ek deewar ko dekhe jaa
rahi thi ……

main uske paas gaya aur paper ko uski jacket

ki jeb mein daal diya……usne sawaaliya
nigaahon se meri taraf dekha……..

“ iss paper par maine apne ghar ka address

likh diya hai…….main abhi Shaazia ko lekar
yahan se jaa raha hoon , aur jo kuchh bhi ho
jaye …..main Hindustan jaroor pahunch
jaaoonga………main jaanta hoon , jo kuchh
bhi tumne aaj kiya woh bhaavnao mein
aakar kiya ………agar tumhe iss baat ka
ehsaas ho jaaye to mujhe ek letter likh
dena …….main tumhe bhi yahan se le jaane
ki koshish karoonga ……” ….main usko
samjhaya aur fir bola “ alwida
Hina ……..maloom nahi fir kabhi mulakat ho
ya na ho “

keh kar main palta aur kamre se baahar ki

taraf chal diya ……..usne peeche se mujhe
awaaz lagayi ………….” Ruko Ajay…….!!”

Maine palat kar uski taraf dekha…………”

jaate-jaate ek ehsaan mere oopar kar jaao
“ woh boli……..uski aankhon mein ek
ummeed si dikhayi pad rahi thi ……..

“Bolo ?? “ maine poochha

“ yeh revolver yahi chhod jaao….” Usne mere
haath ki taraf ishara karte huye
kaha …….mere haath mein woh revolver thi
jo maine roshandan se uteri thi ……maine
sawaaliya nigaah se uski taraf dekha ……

“ Shaazia se kehna ………uski baaji ab iss

duniya main nahi hai ……….mar gayi Hina
“ kehte huye uski aanken fir se bheeg
gayi …………
main kuchh seconds khada sochta
raha .......fir uske paas aaya aur revolver uss-
se kuchh door palang par daal diya………..fir
main ek haath aage badha kar uske ek haath
ki rassi ko khol diya aur tezi ke saath palat
kar kamre se aur fir ghar se baahar nikal
aaya..aur tez kadmo se gaanv ki taraf jaane
waale raaste par chal diya….
Main abhi shaayad 50 meter door hi ja paya
tha ki ek awaaz ne mere pairo ko break laga
diya ……….ghar ke andar se ek jordaar
dhamaake ki awaaz aayi thi …….main jaanta
tha ki yeh revolver se goli chalne ki awaaz thi
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#68

Dhamaake ki awaaz ne mere pairo ko rok

liya tha…….yeh soch kar ki ghar ke andar kya
hua hoga , ek baari to mera dil bhi hil kar reh
gaya ….maine waaps muda, aur ghar ki taraf
chalne ko hi hua tha ki achank mere kaano
mein kisi motor cycle ki awaaz sunayi padne
lagi .....jo har pal nazdeek aati ja rahi thi ……
main iss awaaz ko ab achchhi tarah
pehchanta tha…….

Maine idhar udhar dekha aur fir jaldi se ek

ped (tree) ke peechhe ko chhip
gaya ………motor cycle nazdeek aati chali
gayi aur fir mere saamne se hoti huyi nikal
gayi ……..mera anumaan bilkul sahi tha ,
woh Hasan ali hi tha jo ab ghar pahunchne
wala tha ……..
Uske gujarte hi main ped ke peechhe se
baahar nikla aur fir lagbhag daudte huye
gaanv ki traf chal diya ……..main jald se jald
yahan se nikal jana chahta tha ……haalanki
jo kuchh bhi abhi peechhe hua , uske baad
mera farz banta tha ki main waapas jaakar
dekhoon …….par mera ek doosra farz mujhe
waapas lautne se rok raha tha ………main
tezi se chalte huye gaanv tak pahunch gaya
aur fir maine dheere dheere ganv ko paar
kiya , main nahi chahta tha ki koi mere oopar
shaque kare ….gaanv paar karte hi maine
apni chaal fir se tez kar di aur fir akhiri 300
meter lagbhag bhaagte huye , main baagan
ke paas pahunch gaya ………..

Door se hi dikhayi pad raha

tha ……….baagan ke paas waali sadak par ek
chhota sa truck khada hua tha ………ek kaafi
purana sa truck tha …….main uske paas
pahunch aur fir idhar udhar nigaah
daudayi ……..bagaan ki taraf se Shaazia meri
taraf hi aa rahi thi ………uske chehre par ek
khushi si dikhayi pad rahi
thi ……………shaayd usko ab ummed ho gayi
thi ki hum yahan se sahi salamat nikal
jaayenge……..

Maine truck ke paas pahunch aur darwaza

khol kar driving seat par baith
gaya…….jacket ki jeb se chabi nikaal kar
maine ignition hole mein lagayi aur oopar
waale ka naam lekar use ghuma
diya ……….aur fir ek tez awaaz ke sath truck
ka engine jaag utha ……..mere apne honthon
par bhi ek smile aa gayi aur maine neech
khadi Shaazia ko oopar aane ka ishara
kiya ……..woh doosri side ka gate khol kar
truck mein chadh gayi aur mere paas waali
seat par aakar baith gayi …………
Maine apne kapdo mein se revolver ko nikala
aur apni seat ke peeche bane huye ek chhed
mein chhipa diya ……… fir maine gear dala
aur truck ko aage badha diya……driving
mere liye koi pareshani ki baat nahi
thi …….dheere dheere gaadi ko chalata hua
main oopar ko jaane waali road par le aaya
aur fir 2 minute baad hi humara truck
highway par daud raha tha ………..

Mere dil ki dhadkan ab kaafi tez hone lagi

thi ………main janta tha ki mera kaam abhi
poora nahi hua hai ………abhi border par aur
uss se pehle , kayi baar checking ho sakti thi ,
jisko sahi salamat paar karna ek tedi kheer
tha…..
Main saawdhani se , par tez raftaar se gaadi
chala raha tha………jaisa ki mujhe Hina ne
bataya tha……..yeh road seedha boarder tak
jaati thi ……aam pahadi raasto ki tarah hi
ghumavdaar road tha …..aur fir kal huyi
barfbaari ki wajah se bhi raasta kafi tang ho
gaya tha ……..main bahut aaram se border ki
taraf badhta chala ja raha tha ….

Maine ek nigaah Shaazia ke oopar

daali ………woh apne sar ko khidki par tikaye
baahar ki taraf dekh rahi thi …..uski ankhen
bata rahi thi ki uska dimaag kisi gehri soch
mein dooba hua hai……main janta tha ki
uske liye yeh sab asaan nahi hai……bilkul
nayi jagah par jaana aur fir unn ke saath
rehna ..bahut mushkil hoga ….aur fir jin logo
ko woh peechhe chhod kar aayi hai …….unse
fir kabhi dobara milne ki ummed bhi nahi
hai …….kya guzregi Shaazia par jab usko
maloom padega ki uski behan ka kya anjaam
hua hai………..maine tay kar liya ki abhi usko
kuchh bhi nahi bataoonga

Yahi sab sochta hua main gaadi chalata jaa

raha tha ………ab kareeb ek ghanta ho
chukka tha , aur mera anumaan tha ki hum
log 30 km ke aas-paas rasta paar kar chuke
they …………..fir mera dhyan aage sadak ki
taraf gaya to mujhe chaunk jana pada ……
thoda aage sadak par traffic ruka pada tha
aur gaadiyon ki lambi kataar lagi huyi
thi ………saaf jaahir tha ki aage ya to raasta
band tha ya fir checking ho rahi thi ……
mere dil ki dhadkan achanak tez ho
gayi …Shaazia ka dhyaan bhi saamne ki taraf
hi tha ……usne ek baar meri taraf
dekha ……mano pooch rahi ho ki kya hone
wala hai ……maine uske haath par apna
haath rakh kar usko dilasa diya aur apni
gaadi ek side mein kar ke rok di…….

“ agar koi gadbad hoti hai to tum yeh keh

dena ki main tumhe jabardasti saath le jar
aha hoon ……..” main uski taraf dekhta hua
bola ……..usne meri taraf bade hi gusse se
bhari nigaah se dekha ………..fir boli “ kyon ?
aisa kyon keh rahe ho ? “
“ iss se kam se kam woh log tumhe to kuchh
nahi kahenge ……….mere saath job hi hoga
main bhugat loonga …….par tumhare saath
kuchh bura ho , yeh mujhse bardasht nahi
hoga ……” maine uske haath ko apne haath
mein pakad kar kaha ……….woh mere aur
najdeek aa gayi ….fir apne doosre haath se
mere haath ko pakad liya aur boli ………

“ ab job hi kuchh hoga …….dekha

jaayega ………agar hum saath saath nahi ji
paye to , saath saath mar to sakte hain
“ kehte huye uski aankhen nam si ho
gayi ………..
main kuchh seconds uski aankhon mein
dekhte raha fir man hi man ek faisla
kiya…….agar marna hi hai to kuchh aur ko
bhi maarkar hi maroonga…… aur apni seat
ke peechhe rakhi revolver nikaal
li………revolver ko check karne ke liye maine
uski magazine ko nikaala to mano mere
dimaag mein ek dhamaka sa hua…….jo
kuchh bhi mere saamne the usko dekhkar
main hairaan rah gaya………revolver bilkul
khaali tha…..

Shaazia aur main, kabhi ek doosre ka chehra

dekh rahe they aur kabhi mere haath mein
pakdi huyi khaali revolver ko ……
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#69
Mere aage gaadiyon ki line dheere dheere
aage ko badhti ja rahi thi ……..iss samay
kyon ki bahut hi kum gaadiyan yahan se
paas ho rahi thi ….aage sadak par line
lagbhag khatam hi hone waali thi ……..
Maine revolver ko waapas uss hi jagah par
chhipa diya aur gear daalkar apne truck ko
aage badha diya……. Fir apni jacket ki jeb se
woh hara wala lifafa nikaal kar Shaazia ki
taraf badha diya …………Shaazia ne lifafa
mere haath se liya aur usko kholkar usmein
rakhe huye papers ko baahar
nikala …………jaise hi usne papers ko dekhna
shuru kiya , ek halki si cheekh uske muh se
nikal gayi ……….maine chaunk kar apni
speed kam kar di aur uski taraf
dekha …….woh bade hi gaur se papers ko
dekh rahi thi………uska haath uske muh par
tha aur aankhon mein se khushi mano tapak
rahi thi ………..maine fir se gaadi ko side
mein lagakar roka …aur papers ko uske
haath se le liya ……….

Papers ko dekhkar mera bhi wahi haal hua jo

uska hua tha …………us lifafe mein se jo
papers nikale they woh permit they ………ek
Sohail malik ke naam ka , meri photo laga
hua …..aur doosra Shaazia parveen ke naam
ka …….Shaazia ki photo ke saath…..

Hum don one ek baar fir ek doosre ki taraf

dekha………fir maine papers Shaazia ko de
diye aur gear daal kar truck ko tezi ke saath
aage ki taraf badha diya………ab humara
kaam bahut asaan ho gaya tha………

Gaadi dheere dheere aage ko badhti

rahi…..aur fir line ke saath saath humaari
gaadi check-post tak pahunch
gayi ………….chek post par 4-5 log
they ……..police ke aur ek gaadi khadi thi
jisme pakistani army ke jawaan baithey
dkhayi pad rahe they …….check post par ek
aadmi ne gaadi ke peechhe chad kar samaan
check kiya ……jaisa ki Hina ne kaha
tha ….usmein seb (apples) ke boxes bhare
huye they……

doosra aadmi mere paas aaya aur papers

mmange ………maine permit ke papers uski
taraf badha diye …………usne papers ko
dekha aur hum dono ki soorato ko dekha kar
milaya ……….fir usne 2-3 sawaal
kiye ……….humaare jaane ki wajah poochhi ,
inn sab baato ka jawaab maine sahi sahi de
diya ……..main jaan boojh kar apne lehje ko
badal kar bol raha tha …….jis se usko lage ki
main bhi kashmiri hi hoon ……..meri shave
bhi kaafi badhi huyi thi , jis wajah se unko
meri soorat se to kuchh bhi andaza lagana
possible nahi tha ……….
fir usne papers waapas dekar gaadi ko aage
badhane ka ishara kiya …..main dheere
dheere aage badhakar check post ko paar
kiya aur tezi ke saath gaadi ko aage badha
diya ……..hum don one ek doosre ki taraf
dekha aur fir maine uska haath pakad kar
dheere se daba diya ……….Shaazia ne bhi
muskurahat ke saath meri taraf dekha aur fir
khidki se sar baahr nikaal kar , baahar
dekhne lagi ……..mano aazadi ki hawa mein
saans le rahi ho …………..

main driving kar raha tha , par mere dimaag

mein ab yahi sawaal daud raha tha ki papers
change kaise ho gaye………ya jab Hina ne
mujhe lifafa dikhaya tha tab usmein yahi
papers they ……….iska matlab Hina ka
maksad woh nahi tha jo woh humein
dikhana chah rahi thi………….

yahi sochte sochte doosra check post aa gaya

aur fir wahi saari checking aur pooch-tachh
shuru ho gayi …………..agle 15 km mein kul
milakar 4 check post aur pade aur sab mein
wahi saari routine checkings hoti
rahi ………aur akhir mein humaari gaadi
Hinadustan ki seema mein pravesh kar
gayi ……………..
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#70

Hindustan ki sarhad mein aate hi maine

sabse pehle …truck ko ek side mein rok kar
khada kiya aur fir truck se utar kar jameen
par ghutno ke bal baith gaya …….fir maine
apni matra-bhoomi par sar rakh kar usko
salaam kiya aur waapas truck mein baith
gaya …………fir gear daal kar truck ko aage
badha diya ………….
Maine ab truck ko Hindustan ki sarhad ke
andar dauda raha tha……mujhe maloom tha
ki meri manzil Poonch hai …..jo sabse
najdeek ka shahar hai ……mere paas job hi
document they uss se mein apne aapko
Hindustani proof nahi kar sakta
tha …….mera bag aur wallet , wahin peechhe
chhoot gaye they …………

Agle 2 ghante tak lagatar driving karne ke

baad hum Poonch pahunch gaye………main
wahan seedha Air force station pahuncha aur
gate par khade guard ko apna parichay
diya ……….pehle to usko meri baat ka
vishwas hi nahi hua ki main Indian air force
ka officer hoon ………mera libaas aur mera
huliya meri baat ka saath nahi de rahe
they………..fir mere samjhane ke baad usne
andar station mein phone kiya aur mujhe
andar bhej diya…………Shaazia mere saath hi
thi
Andar jaakar main uss station ke
commanding officer se mila aur unko poori
baat samjhayi ………mere gaayab hone ki
khabar unke paas bhi thi …….usnhone turant
mere base station Ambala se contact kiya aur
mere se related documents maange…….5
minute mein hi mere station se meri photo
aur baaki saari details via email wahan
pahunch gayi ………..meri identity proof ho
gayi thi …….maine unko Shaazia ke baare
mein samjhaya aur fir unhone mera Ambala
pahunchne ka bandobast kar diya ………..

1 ghante baad hi ek plane ambala ja raha

tha ……..mujhe uss plane se jane ki
permission mil gayi ….aur 1 ghante baad hi
main aur Shaazia IAF ke special plane se
Ambala ki taraf rawana ho gaye …………..
Humara plane Ambala Air force station mein
hi land hua aur fir kuchh hi der mein main
apne station ke andar ….apne saathiyon ke
samne tha ……..mujhe zinda dekhkar wahan
ek hadkamp sa mach gaya tha ………….mere
saathi aur seniors to mujhe dekhkar hairaan
hi reh gaye they ……..unn sabhi ne maan liya
tha ki main plane crash mein mara
gaya ………..fir maine unn sabhi ko short cut
mein saari baat samjha di Shaazia se bhi
milwaya…………..thodi hi der baad mein IAF
ki gaadi mein baith kar apne ghar ,
Chandigarh ki taraf chal diya ………….. aur 2
ghante se bhi kam time mein ………..shaam
hone se pehle pehle main apne ghar
pahunch gaya ………
Jo kuchh Air force station mein
hua ……..kcuhh kuchh waisa hi yahan bhi
hua …….mujhe waapas dekh kar sabhi log
maano pagal se ho gaye …….mere mummy –
papa aur meri behan ka to mare khushi ke
koi thikana hi nahi raha ……..woh sab log ek
ummeed ke sahare hi they ki , kyonki meri
deadbody nahi mili thi , isliye shaayad mein
zinda hoon …aur mujhe zinda dekhkar to
unko jaise saari khushiyan waapas mil
gayi ……………

Mere ghar waale aur saare padosi , saare

dost …….sabhi log mujhe waapas zinda dekh
kar bahut khush huye ……..sabhi ki ankhen
khushi ke aansoo baha rahi thi …….2-3
ghante tak poore ghar mein aura as-paas
hungaame ka mahaul hi raha aur jab sab
kuchh shant hua …aur jab hum ghar ke log
hi reh gaye to …maine un sab ko Shaazia se
milvaya…..aur bataya ki main us se shaadi
karna chahta hoon……..meri baat sun kar
kuchh der ke liye to mere ghar waale sann
reh gaye…..ek muslim ladki aur woh bhi
pakistani ….unko meri dulhan ke roop mein
kaise manjoor hoti ……..

Maine unko manane mein jut gaya ……..fir

agle din yahi sab chalta raha …….main unko
yakeen dilata raha ki Shaazia ek bahut
achchhi ladki hai , meri behan aur mere
kuchh dost one bhi mera saath diya …..aur
fir meri zid ke aage haar kar mere papa-
mummy humaari shaadi ke liye raazi ho
gaye…….

Maine local police station aur apne IAF

station ko bhi Shaazia ke baare mein inform
kar diya ……………fir ek hafte ke andar hi
wahan se approval bhi aa gaya aur 1 mahine
ke baad hum dono shaadi kar ke humesha ke
liye ek ho gaye……………..
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#71
After 2 months…………..
Ahhhh…………uhhhhhhhhhhh ………offff……
….unnnn… ki awaazein kamre mein goonj
rahi thi …………yeh saari awaaze Shaazia ke
muh se nikal rahi thi , jo iss samay ek bade se
double bed par ulti hokar leti huyi
thi ……..uska sar palang ke kinaare par tha
aur thoda sa neeche ko bhi latka hua sat
ha…….usne apni dono baahein bhi iss samay
apne palang se neeche ko latkayi huyi thi …..
main uske oopar tha …… uske pairo ke
beech mein apbe ghutno ke bal leta hua
tha………uska ek pair bilkulk seedha tha aur
doosra pair moda hua tha ……… dono
jaanghen jitni door ho sakti thi utni door kar
rakhi thi …………….main neeche ko jhuka aur
uske gaal par apna gaal ragadte huye uske
kaan ko apne muh mein le kar choosne
laga …….…….jaahir tha ki hum dono hi iss
samay bilkul janam-jaat awastha mein
they ………bilkul nange …………mera lund
uski choot mein poora ghusa hua
tha …….aur mein apni kamar ko dheere
dheere hila kar ……..lund ko andar baahar
kar raha tha ………….

Humaari shaadi ko ek hafta ho chukka tha

aur hum honeymoon ke liye yahan Manali
mein aaye huye they……kal shaam ko hi hum
yahan pahunche they ……..IAF ke officer’s
guest house ke iss kamre mein pahunchne ke
thodi der baad hi hum dono ek doosre ki
baahon mein pahunch gaye they ……..aur
tab se ab tak yeh teesra mauka tha jo main
uski chudai kar raha tha ………..abhi subah
huyi thi aur uthte hi hum dono ek doosre ke
shareer ko naapne mein lag gaye
they ……………
“ Ahhhh………..ouchhh ………..kya kar rahe
ho …………..Kaato mat …………..” Shaazia ne
sar ko thoda sa utha kar meri taraf
dekha ……….uske chehre par ek banawati sa
gussa tha ……… maine apna chehra thoda sa
aage ko jhukaya aur uske honth choomne
laga …….mari kamar badastoor hil rahi
thi …….aur uske muh se halki halki siskiyan
bhi nikal rahi thi ……….maine uske honthon
ko apne honthon mein jakad liya ……….fir
hum dono ek doosre ke honthon ka ras
choosne mein mashroof ho gaye ……….

Maine thoda sa peeche ko hokar apna lund

uski choot mein se baahar nikala aur fir usko
kamar se pakad kar palat diya…….ab woh
apni peeth kebal leti huyi thi …….main fir se
uski tango ke beech aaya aur fir dono
jaanghon ko sehlate huye uske oopar let
gaya …………..apna muh neeche ko karte
huye maine uski ek choochi ko muh mein
bhar liya ………..sssssiiiiii …ek siskari ki
awaaz uske muh se nikli aur maine apna hath
neeche la jaakar apna lund pakad kar fir se
uski choot ke muh par laga
diya …………maine sar utha kar uski taraf
dekha , uski aankhen band thi ……..shaayad
mere agle action ka intezar tha
usko ……….fir maine apni kamar ko hila kar
lund waapas uski choot mein ghusa diya

usne apne haathon ko meri peeth par kas

diya aur apni dono tango ko ko meri kamar
par lapet kar mujho jakad liya …………..uske
haath baar baar meri peeth se meri gaand
tak ka safar tay kar rahe they ……….woh ab
apni gaand ko oopar ko uchhal rahi
thi ……….saath hi mere dhakko mein bhi tezi
aane lagi thi ……….hum dono ek aise khel
mein lage huye they …jis mein akhir mein
hum dono ko hi haarna tha aur jeet bhi dono
ki hi honi thi …………..

poora kamra hum dono ki saanso ki awaaz se

bhar gaya tha………main ab uske honthon ko
choosate huye , ek haath ko uski kamar ke
neeche le gaya tha aur fir uski gaand ke
neeche laga kar thoda sa oopar ko utha
liya………….

Ahhh……………ufffffff…………..karte
raho………..aise
hi ………..haannnn…………aur ……………..ki
awaaze lagatar uske muh se nikal rahi
thi ………….hum dono hi apni manzil ke
najdeek pahunchne lage they ………..main ab
lund ko poora baahar nikaal kar waapas
andar dhakel raha tha…….uski haath bhi ab
mere kulho par hi jam gaye they ……jaise
haaton ki taakat se mujhe poora andar le
lena chhti ho …………

Baahar jordaar sardi pad rahi thi ……..par

kamre ke andar hum dono ke shareer
paseene se nahaye huye they ………………..fir
ahhhhhhhh ki awaaz muh se nikaalte huye
uska shareer akad gaya ………uski gaand
poori oopar ko utha kar usne apni choot ko
meri jaanghon se chipka diya ………… main
samajh gaya ki who ek aur baar jhad chuki
hai ……….fir maine bhi 10-12 dhakke tezi se
lagaye aur fir apne shareer ka lava uski choot
ke andar hi nikaal diya ………..hum dono ke
shareer shant padte chale
gaye ………………maine uske oopar se utha
aur uski side mein let gaya………usne ek baar
meri taraf dekha aur fir mere se lipat
gayi …….apna sar mere seene par rakh kar
apni aankhen band kar li …….maine bhi apni
ankhen band kar li aur fir hum dono hi
kuchh der ki liye neend mein chale
gaye ………..
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#72
Thodi der ke baad hi meri aankh fir se khul
gayi……..maine dekha ki Shaazia gehri neend
mein chali gayi hai…….maine usko dheere se
apne aap se alag kiya aur fir bistar se uth kar
bathroom mein chala gaya ………thodi hi der
ke baad main waapas aaya aur kamre ki
khidki ke paas jaakar khada ho gaya ………..

Humara room guest house ke sabse oopar

waale floor par tha …….baahar ab halki halki
baarish ho rahi thi …………Saamne hi nadee
beh rahi thi ………….aur neeche seb ke ped
dikhayi pad rahe they ………….baahar ka
nazara dekhte hi mera dimaag mujhe waapas
2 mahine peechhe le gaya………mujhe fir se
woh sab yaad aane laga jo mere saath
Pakistan mein hua tha ……….Shaazia , Hina
aur woh sab baatein jo sarhad ke paar mere
saath huyi thi ……………….
Hindustan pahunchne ke 1 mahine baad
maine Shaazia ko bata diya tha ki uss din ,
uske jaane ke baad uske ghar mein kya hua
tha ……….apni behan ka anjaam soch kar
woh kaafi der tak roti rahi thi ………… agle 2
din tak woh khamosh hi rahi aur fir dheere
dheere sab kuchh samanya hota chala
gaya……….

Maine Shaazia ko to samjha diya tha …par

main abhi tak apne aap ko nahi samjha pa
raha tha…….kuchh baatein thi jo dheere
dheere saaf ho gayi thi …….

Hina ne mere haathon ko jaan-bujhkar patli

raasi se bandha tha……. Usne truck ki chabhi
aur permit wala lifafa jaan-bujhkar mujhko
dikhakar apni jeb mein rakha tha ……..woh
jaanti thi ki revolver khaali hai fir bhi woh
bade araam se Shaazia ke kaboo mein aa
gayi thi ……..aur Hasan ali bhi uske saath hi
tha , usko sab kuchh pehle se hi maloom tha
ki wahan kya hone wala hai …. kyon ki jab
woh mere nikalne ke baad ghar pahuncha to
uske paas motor cycle bhi thi aur woh chahta
to waapas aakar hum logo ko pakad sakta
tha ………….

Jo kuchh bhi hua …par itna to clear tha ki

Hina ne jo kuchh bhi kiya woh hum dono ke
liye kiya ……par yahi kaam who seedhe
seedhe bhi to kar sakti thi ……woh hum
dono ko Hindustan aane de sakti thi …..aur
jaisa ki humaara plan tha , hum baad mein
usko bhi apne saath la sakte they …………yun
apni behan ki nigaah mein bura ban kar usko
kya haasil hua ……..yeh meri samajh se
baahar tha ……………aur jab woh bhi yahi
chahti thi ki main aur shaazia ek ho jayein to
fir woh sab naatak karne ki kya wajah
thi …………..

Mere inn saare sawaalo ka jawaab sirf ek hi

insaan ke paas tha………aur mujhe nahi
maloom tha ……..jo mujh se kaafi
door ……..sarhad ke uss paar tha…….aur
mujhe mani maloom tha ki who ab zinda bhi
hai ya nahi …………aur main kabhi uss se fir
mil paoonga bhi ya nahi…………….

Maine waapas bistar par aa gaya………fir

Shaaiza ke paas let gaya aur uska haath
oopar kar ke , usko apne saath lipta
liya……….usne ek baar kasmasa kar aankhen
kholi …fir mere gale mein baanh daalkar
mujhse aur kas ke chipak gayi ……..maine
bhi uske maathe ko choom kar usko apne
aur najdeek chipka liya……..
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#73

6 years later
----------------

gaadi ke sheeshe par lage parde ko hatakar

maine baahar jhanka………gaadi ghumavdar
pahadi rasto par tezi ke saath chalti jaa rahi
thi ……… raste ke dono taraf bade hi
lubhavne drashaya dikhayi pad rahe they….
Par mera dhyan un nazaro par na hokar apni
manzil par tha , jahan main jaldi se jaldi
pahunchna chahta tha …..

main , Wing commander Ajay Rathod , 6 saal

ke baad fir wahin jaa raha tha , jahan maine
apni jindagi ke sabse yadgaar aur romanchak
kuchh din bitaye they ……

Kargil war ke baad kuchh saalo tak

Hindustan aur Pakistan ke rishto mein ek
kadwahat si chhayi rahi ……..fir dheere
dheere dono mulko ke beech baatcheet ka
ek naya daur shuru ho gaya aur fir rishte bhi
samanya hote chale gaye…….Kargil ki ladayi
ke baad mera promotion ho gaya tha aur fir
3 saal ke baad ek doosre promotion ke saath
mujhe Wing commnder ki rank mil gayi
thi ………….
Hindustani sarkar ki taraf se ek pratinidhi
mandal Pakistan ki yatra par aaya tha aur
main bhi iss tour ka ek hissa
tha ………Pakistan ki jameen par utarte hi
mujhe fir se ichchha hone lagi ki main ek
baar fir wahin par jaaoon , jahan main kuchh
kaam adhoora chhod kar aa gaya
tha …………..

Waise to pichhle 6 saalo mein shayad ki koi

waqt hoga jo hum logo ne Hina ko yaad na
kiya ho ………maine Islamabad mein apne
officers aur Pakistani sarkar se request ki aur
fir mujhe yahan aane ki permission mil
gayi ………….pichhli baar aur iss baar mein
yeh ek bada fark tha ki iss baar mein ek
mehmaan ki tarah wahan jar aha tha………..
Islamabad se by plain main Murree tak aaya
aur fir wahan se mujhe gaadi se aage ka
safar tay karna tha……….main jis gaadi mein
tha, uske alawa do gaadiyan aur mere aage
peeche chal rahi thi ……….jisme Pakistani
fauz aur police ke jawaan they ………..wahi jo
aaj se 6 saal pehle mujhe maarne ke liye
dhoondh rahe they , aaj meri security ke liye
mere sath they …………….

Gaadi ab uss gaanv ke najdeek pahunch

gayi …………..fir gaanv tak pahunch kar
baaki dono gaadiyan peeche ho gayi aur
main apni gaadi ke driver ko rasta batane
laga ……….gaanv se kachche rasto par hoti
huyi gaadi ab uss ghar ki taraf jaa rahi thi jo
filhal meri manzil tha ………….

Pichhle 6 saalo mein yahan kaafi kuchh badal

chukka tha ………..iss raste par , jo pehle
bilkul sunsaan tha …..4-5 naye makaan ban
gaye they aur kuchh abhi ban rahe
they …………….dheere dheere chalti huyi
gaadi uss ghar tak pahunch gayi ……….yahan
par bhi ab bahut kuchh badal chukka
tha ……….ghar ke saamne wala tabela
gaayab tha aur uski jagah ek makaan bana
hua tha ………..jo nahi badla tha woh tha
Hina aur Shaazia ka ghar ………bilkul waisa
ka waisa hi jaise mein 6 saal pehle chhod kar
gaya tha ………main gaadi se neeche utra aur
fir dheere dheere chalta hua darwaaze tak
pahuncha ……….maine dawaaze par knock
kiya aur tez ho rahi dhadkano ke saath
intezar karne laga ………….10-15 seconds
yun hi beet gaye ……..main fir se knock
karne hi wala tha ki darwaza khul
gaya ……..mere saamne woh khadi thi jiss se
milne ki ummed mein main yahan aaya
tha ………Hina ………..jeeti –jaagti sahi
salamat ……… jisne hamesha se mujhe jhatke
diye they , aaj ka yeh jhatka mujhe sabse
achchha lag raha tha ………

Mujhe dekhkar pehle to woh chank si

gayi ……..fir pehchante hi uska muh se ek
cheekh si nikli …………..”
Ajay ….!!!!!” ……..aur uska muh khula ka
khula hi reh gaya………..uska haath uske muh
par chala gaya aur khud woh thoda sa
ladkhada si gayi ……..apne aap ko
sambhalne ke liye usne deewar ka sahara le
liya aur usse kandha tika kar khadi ho
gayi ………..hum dono hi ek doosre ko
lagatar dekhe ja rahe they ……bina kuchh
bhi bole …….uski aankhen bheeg gayi thi par
mere chehre par muskurahat thi ……………
Fir usne hi baat shuru ki “ kya , andar nahi
aaoge …..? “ maine muskurata hua ghar ke
andar aa gaya aur mere peeche peeche hi
woh bhi ………baahr ki tarah hi ghar ke
andar bhi kuchh nahi badla tha………wahi
kamre , wahi samaan , aur lagbahag sab
kuchh waise ka waisa hi ………mano pichhle
6 saal mein waqt yahan kuchh thahar sa gaya
tha …………………..
Main pahle kamre ke andar aa
gaya ………usne kursi ki taraf ishara karte
huye kaha “ baitho Ajay……….!!” Main baith
gaya aur saath hi woh bhi mere saamne
waali kursi par baith gayi ……………hum
dono hi bilkul chup-chap baith kar ek doosre
ka chehra dekhe jaa rahe they…………..mano
yakeen hi nahi ho raha tha ki yeh hakeekat
hai ya sapna… fir iss khomishi ko todte huye
usne hi baat shuru ki …….
“ Kaise ho Ajay ………..?”

“ Achchha hi hoon “ maine muskurate huye

kaha

“ Haan………pehle se kuchh mote bhi ho

gaye ho ……” woh hanste huye boli…….
Maine bhi uski hansi mein uska saath diya
“ Ha ha ha ………sab Shaazia ki meharbaani
hai ………usne hi mujhe khila khila kar mota
kar diya…”

“ Tum Shaazia ke saath khush to ho na

Ajay ………..” woh badi sanjidagi se mere
chehre ko dekhte huye boli ….
“ Haan…………bahut jyada “ maine jawaab
diya , fir uss se sawaal kiya “ tumne Shaazia
ke baare mein nahi poochha……..? woh
khush hai ya nahi ? tumne to yeh bhi nahi
poochha ki hum logo ne shadi bhi ki ya
nahi …….? “
woh fir muskurate huye boli “ mujhe
maloom hai ki woh tumhare saath hai to
khush hi hogi ……… aur rahi tumhaari shaadi
ki baat , mujhe maloom hai kit um dono
shaadi kar chuke ho “

“ achchha !! kaise ? “ maine fir sawaal

kiya ……….

woh kuchh der khamosh rahi ………….fir boli

“ tum bhool gaye ho Ajay ki tum apne ghar
ka address mujhe dekar gaye they ……….”
Maine sawaaliyan nigaah se uski taraf
dekha ……..woh aage boli “ Kuchh hi mahino
ke baad Hasan Ali Hindustan gaya
tha ……Cricket match ke liye visa
lekar ………woh tumhaare ghar tak bhi gaya
tha ……………woh poora ek din tumhare
ghar ke aas-paas ghoomta raha aur kuchh
logo se pooch-taachh bhi karta raha …….. fir
usne hi aakar mujhe bataya kit um dono ne
shaadi kar li hai “ mujhe samjhate huye usne
apni baat poori ki ………

“ iska matlab meri jasoosi ki ja rahi

thi ……….tumhe yakeen nahi tha kya mere
oopar ?” maine hanste huye poochha ………

woh uth kar khadi ho gayi aur boli “ yakeen

nahi hota tu Shaazia ko tumhaare saath na
bheja hota …….tum baitho , main abhi chay
lekar aati hoon “ fir woh kamre se baahar
nikal gayi ……………
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#74
maine akele baithkar sochta raha aur yaad
karta raha unn lamho ko jo maine iss ghar
mein gujare they …………..5 minute baad hi
woh chay ki tray lekar aa gayi ………..aur tray
ko table par rakh kar mere saamne chair par
baith gayi………

main chay ka cup uthakar chay peen laga aur

fir uski taraf dekhte huye sawaal kiya
“ tumne aisa kyon kiya Hina ? “

mera sawaal sunkar woh pehle to chaunk

gayi …..aur mere chehre ko dekhne lagi fir
chay ka cup uthakar ek ghoonth bhara aur
meri taraf dekhkar boli “ kya kyon
kiya ? …….”
“ Tum jaanti ho main kya poochh raha
hoon ? kaash main uss hi samay samajh jata
ki tum hum logo ke saath kya kar rahi
ho ………..tumne sab kuchh chhod diya sirf
hum dono ko ek karne ke liye ……….” Main
badi gambheer awaaz mein bol raha tha
“ tum chahti to seedhe seedhe bhi hum logo
ko saath bhej sakti thi ….fir tumne woh sab
drama kyon kiya tha ? “

woh fir chup ho gayi ….jaise bolne ke liye

shabd dhoondh rahi ho …….fir chay ka cup
table par rakh kar .meri taraf dekha aur
bolna shuru kiya ……

“ Tum ne Shaazia ko pyar kiya aur shadi bhi

kar li …fir bhi main us ko tum se jyada
achchhi tarah jaanti hoon Ajay ….agar maine
uss se tumhare saath jane ke liye seddhe
seedhe kaha hota to woh kabhi bhi tayyar
nahi hoti ………main jaanti hoon ki woh
tumko pyar karti hai aur tumko pana chahti
thi …..par apni behan ki keemat par kabhi
nahi ………….isliye maine woh sab drama
kiya tha ……. Jisse agar woh tumhare saath
jaye to use peeche kisi apne ke chhootne ka
ehsaas na ho …………”

“ par jaisa maine pehle bhi kaha tha ……tum

bhi to humaare saath ja sakti thi ………ya
hum tumhe baad mein bhi bula sakte
they …….? “ maine agla sawaal
kiya ………maine apne man ke andar saalo se
band saare sawaalon ka jawaab uss se le lena
chata tha……...
woh fir kuchh seconds ke liye khamosh ho
gayi aur fir bolna shuru kiya …….iss baar
woh meri taraf nahi ..balki neeche dekh kar
bol rahi thi “ tum shaayad nahi jaante
Ajay …………apne shauhar ki maut ke baad ,
maine agar kisi aadmi se pyar kiya hai to
woh tum ho ………tum hamesha sochte rahe
ki main sirf apne jism ki bhookh mitane ke
liye tumhare paas aati thi , par aisa nahi
tha……..aur tumne bhi to kaha tha ki agar
tumko Shaazia na mili hoti to tum bhi mujh
se pyar kar baith-te “ kuchh der ruk kar usne
fir bolna shuru kiya …” agar main tumhare
saath jaati to shaayad hum teeno ki zindagi
ulajh kar reh jaati ……….isliye maine yahi
sahi samjha ki main tum logo ke beech mein
na aooon ………” keh kar woh fir khamosh
ho gayi aur fir mera chehra dekhte huye
aage bolna shuru kiya …..
“ maine ek baar tumse poochha tha Ajay ki
tum yahan kyon nahi ruk jaate ? ……tumhara
jawaab tha ki tum apne watan se door nahi
reh sakte …….fir tum hi batao ki main kaise
apne watan ko chhod sakti
thi ? ………tumhari hi tarah mujhe bhi apne
watan se bahut mohabbat hai Ajay …”

maine uske chehre ko dekhta raha ……….yeh

ladki meri samajh se bilkul baahar thi …..uski
har baat mujhe nir-uttar kiye ja rahi
thi …………main kuchh der sar jhukakar baith
raha fir uski taraf dekhte huye bola …..” par
yeh sab karke tumne kya paya
Hina …………hum dono ko ek doosre ka pyar
mil gaya aur hum dono hi ab khush
hain ……..tumne to sab kuchh kho diya ?”
woh meri taraf dekhte huye dheere se
hansne lagi aur fir boli “ kaun kehta hai ki
main khush nahi hoon ? ………Ajay , tumhare
yahan aane se pehle bhi to hum yahi jindagi
ji rahe they na ? fir ab bhi agar yahi jindagi
jeene ko mil rahi hai to shikayat kaisi ?
mujhe to khushi iss baat ki hai ki meri behan
mujhe jyada achchhi jindagi ji rahi hai …..aur
tum jante ho ki maine uss ko beti ki tarah se
rakha tha …….fir har maa-baap yahi to chate
hain ki unki beti hamesha khush rahe ….?
“ kehte kehte uski aawaz bhari hone lagi
thi …….aankhen nam ho gayi thi ….. fir 2
seconds ke liye ruk kar aage boli “ Shaazia to
mujhse nafrat karti hogi na Ajay ? kabhi yaad
bhi nahi karti hogi ? “
maine dheere se hansa aur bola “ tum bhi
apni behan ko nahi samajh payi Hina ? woh
kabhi bhi tumse nafrat nahi kar
sakti ……….lo isko dekho ” Fir apni shirt ki
pockets ek photo nikaal kar uski taraf badha
di …….woh photo ko mere haath se lekar
dekhne lagi …....yeh ek hill station ki photo
thi .......photo mein main , Shaazia aur ek
chhoti bachhi , humari beti khadi thi …..

usne photo ko dekh kar meri tarf swaaliya

nigah se dekha ……

“ dekho ……..yeh hai humaari

beti ………humari Hina……..Shaazia ko nahi
maloom ki uski behan jinda bhi hai ya
nahi……..par uski Hina humesha uske saath
hi hai …….usne tumhe kabhi bhi apne aap se
door nahi hone diya ……Humaari Hina
hamesha hamare saath hi hai .......” kehte
kehte meri awaaz bhi bhari hone lagi
thi …aur Hina to photo ko dekhte huye ba-
kayda rone lagi thi ………
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#75
fir usne apni aankhon ko pocha aur uth kar
khadi ho gayi aur boli ..

“ tum kehte ho na ki maine sab kuchh kho

diya ……..kuchh nahi mila mujhko ……main
dikhaati hoon ki mujhko kya mila …..” keh
kar who kamre se baahar nikal
gayi …………main intezar karta raha ki ab kya
dikhane waali hai woh mujhko …….

1 minute baad hi woh waapas kamre ke

andar aa gayi……..par iss baar woh akeli nahi
thi ……..uske saath , uski ungali thame ek
kareeb 5 saal ka ladka bhi khada tha ……jo
meri taraf hi dekh raha tha ….aur Hina baari-
baari hum dono ko dekh rahi thi ………..
Hina hamesha se hi mujhe surprise deti rahi
thi………aur jo surprise usne mujhe aaj diya
tha uss se bada to koi ho nahi sakta
tha …………agar kisi ne mri bachpan ki photo
dekhi hoti to woh ek baar dekh kar hi bata
sakta tha ki uss bachche ki soorat bilkul mere
se milt thi …………main usko dekh kar khada
ho gaya aur kuchh pal ke liye to mano main
apne aap ko bhool hi gaya
“ iss se milo Ajay ………..mera beta
Rehaan …………………humara beta
Rehaan………..iss se badi aur kya cheej tum
mujhe de sakte they ….? “ woh chehre par
muskurahat ke saath boli …………

main baar baar kabhi Rehaan ki aur kabhi

Hina ki soorat dekh raha tha……..Rehaan
bade hi achraj se meri taraf dekh raha tha
aur Hina ke chehre par ab khushi dikhayi pad
rahi thi ………..fir maine apni dono baahen
Rehaan ki taraf faila di ……..usne ek baar
apni maa ki taraf dekha …………Hina ne usko
ishara kiya aur woh bhagta hua mere paas
aagaya ……..maine neeche ko jhuk kar usko
apni gode mein utha liya aur apne gale se
lagakar be-tahasha choomne
laga …………….bahut saalo ke baad aaj meri
bhi aankhen bheeg gayi thi …………maine
Hina ki tarf dekha aur ek haath uski taraf
badha diya …………usne mere haath ko apne
hath mein tham liya aur fir aage ko badhkar
mere saath lipat gayi……………..

kamre ke andar hum teeno ek doosre se lipte

huye they ………baahar din dhalne laga
tha ………sooraj doob raha tha , dobara ugne
ke liye ………..yahi jindagi ka niyam hai ki har
raat ke baad ek naya din jaroor nikalta
hai …….nayi roshni ke sath
 The End
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