2008 On Becoming A Psychoanalyst
2008 On Becoming A Psychoanalyst
On becoming a psychoanalyst
One has the opportunity and responsibility to become an analyst in one’s own
terms in the course of the years of practice that follow the completion of formal
analytic training. The authors discuss their understanding of some of the matura-
tional experiences that have contributed to their becoming analysts in their own
terms. They believe that the most important element in the process of their matu-
ration as analysts has been the development of the capacity to make use of what
is unique and idiosyncratic to each of them; each, when at his best, conducts him-
self as an analyst in a way that reflects his own analytic style; his own way of
being with, and talking with, his patients; his own form of the practice of psycho-
analysis. The types of maturational experiences that the authors examine include
situations in which they have learned to listen to themselves speak with their
patients and, in so doing, begin to develop a voice of their own; experiences of
growth that have occurred in the context of presenting clinical material to a con-
sultant; making self-analytic use of their experience with their patients; creating ⁄
discovering themselves as analysts in the experience of analytic writing (with
particular attention paid to the maturational experience involved in writing the
current paper); and responding to a need to keep changing, to be original in their
thinking and behavior as analysts.
Few of us feel that we really know what we are doing when we complete
our formal psychoanalytic training. We flounder. We strive to find our
‘voice’, our own ‘style’, a feeling that we are engaging in the practice of
psychoanalysis in a way that bears our own watermark:
It is only after you have qualified [as an analyst] that you have a chance of
becoming an analyst. The analyst you become is you and you alone; you have to
respect the uniqueness of your own personality – that is what you use, not all
these interpretations [these theories that you use to combat the feeling that you
are not really an analyst and do not know how to become one].
(Bion, 1987, p. 15)
In this paper we discuss a variety of maturational experiences that have
been important to us in our own efforts to become analysts following our
analytic training. Of course, the types of experience that were of particular
value to each of us were different, but they also overlapped in important
ways. We try to convey both the commonality of, and the differences
between, the sorts of experience that have been most significant to us in our
efforts to become (to mature as) analysts. In addition, we discuss several
defensive measures that analysts in general, and we in particular, have made
use of in the face of the anxiety that is inherent to the process of genuinely
becoming an analyst in one’s own terms.
A theoretical context
A variety of experiences throughout one’s development as an analyst are
fundamental to one’s maturation as both an analyst and an individual. The
maturation of the analyst has much in common with psychic development
in general. We have identified four aspects of psychic growth that are essen-
tial to our view of the process of becoming an analyst.
The first is the idea that thinking ⁄ dreaming one’s lived experience in the
world constitutes a principal means, perhaps the principal means, by which
one learns from experience and achieves psychological growth (Bion,
1962a). Moreover, one’s lived experience often is so disturbing as to exceed
the individual’s capacity to do anything with it psychically, i.e. to think or
dream it. Under such circumstances, it requires two people to think or
dream the experience. The psychoanalysis of each of our patients inevitably
places us in situations that we have never before experienced and, as a
result, requires of us a larger personality than that which we have brought
to the analysis. We view this as true of every analysis: there is no such thing
as an ‘easy’ or ‘straightforward’ analysis. The reconceptualization of projec-
tive identification as an intrapsychic ⁄ interpersonal process in the writings of
Bion (1962a, 1962b) and Rosenfeld (1987) recognizes that in these novel,
disturbing analytic situations the analyst requires another person to help
make the unthinkable thinkable. That other person is most often the patient,
but may be a supervisor, colleague, mentor, consultation group, and so on.
Inherent in this notion of intersubjective thinking is the idea that,
throughout the life of the individual, ‘‘It takes [at least] two people to make
one’’ (Bion, 1987). It requires a mother-and-infant capable of helping the
infant to achieve ‘‘unit status’’ (Winnicott, 1958a, p. 44). It takes three peo-
ple – mother, father and child – to create a healthy oedipal child; it takes
three people – mother, father and adolescent – to create a young adult; it
takes two young adults to create a psychological space in which to create a
couple that is, in turn, capable of creating a psychological space in which a
baby can be conceived (literally and metaphorically); it takes a combination
of a young family and an old one (a grandmother, grandfather, mother,
father and child) to create conditions that contribute to, or facilitate the
acceptance and creative use of, the experience of aging and death in the
grandparents (Loewald, 1979).
However, this intersubjective conception of the development of the analyst
is incomplete in the absence of its intrapsychic counterpart. This brings us
to the second aspect of the theoretical context for this discussion: in order
to think ⁄ dream our own experience, we need periods of personal isolation
no less than we need the participation of the minds of others. Winnicott
(1963) recognized this essential developmental requirement when he noted:
‘‘There is an intermediate stage in healthy development in which the
patient’s most important experience in relation to the good or potentially
satisfying object is the refusal of it’’ (p. 182). In the analytic setting, the
As the analyst was saying this, it occurred to him that Mr. A, in his tell-
ing of the dream, may have been making an observation about the analyst.
The patient’s saying that he knew that he ‘‘could very well be killed’’ by the
earthquake involved a phrasing that not only used the same word on which
the analyst was focused, but also linked it directly to the idea of being
killed. This led the analyst to suspect that Mr. A was responding to some-
thing happening in the analyst that was reflected in the change in his man-
ner of speech. It seemed to him that the patient was afraid that the analyst
had developed a form of verbal tic that reflected a craziness in the analyst
that would prevent him from being the analyst that he needed. If the ana-
lyst, too, were being squeezed out of his own life as an analyst and his own
way of speaking (with which the patient had become familiar over the
years), how could the analyst be of help to him with a very similar problem?
The analyst thought that it was highly unlikely that the telling of this
dream was Mr. A’s first unconscious comment on something he perceived
to be significantly different in the analyst’s way of speaking. The patient’s
dream was critical to the analytic work, not because it was addressing feel-
ings so very different from those being addressed in other dreams, but
because it was the first time that the analyst was able to hear and respond
to what he believed to be the patient’s unconscious effort to talk to him
about his fear that he perceived an ominous change in the analyst. In retro-
spect, the source of the symptom (as the analyst came to understand it) had
affected his ability to mature as a person and as an analyst. Also in hind-
sight, the analyst recognized that the patient’s cruelly pointing out his
child’s ‘trying to act like a grown-up’ represented a communication to the
analyst regarding the patient’s self-hatred for the ways he felt like a child.
(We view the dream as a dream that cannot be ascribed to the patient alone,
but to an unconscious subject that is co-constructed by patient and analyst –
‘the analytic third’ [Ogden, 1994]. It is this third subject that dreams the
problems in the analytic relationship [in addition to the patient and analyst
as individual dreamers].)
The patient’s unconscious observation that he was an observer in the fam-
ily photo, in conjunction with the analyst’s awareness of his own anxiety
while listening to the dream, led the analyst to begin a line of thought, a
conversation with himself, about the meanings of his imitation of his first
analyst. What was most powerful about the new awareness of the speech
pattern that he had adopted was its persistence and invariability across the
full range of emotional situations and across very different kinds of conver-
sations with very different sorts of patients. It seemed to him that the imper-
sonal quality of this generic way of speaking reflected a subliminal feeling
that he had harbored for a very long time, but had not previously put into
words for himself: it had seemed to him during his first analysis (and subse-
quently) that his analyst had in some important ways perceived him in gen-
eric ways that were neither personal to him nor to the analyst. There was a
way in which he felt that his first analyst’s perception of him was unwaver-
ing and missing something important. Both of these feelings were reflected
in the photograph in the dream in that the photograph, too, was unchang-
ing and did not include the photographer. The analyst felt some disappoint-
ment in his first analyst, but primarily felt ashamed that he had not had the
courage to consciously recognize the impersonal quality of the way he felt
he was being perceived and to register a protest. In the dream, there was a
choice between the dreamer’s saving the photograph and saving his own life.
The analyst realized that he had metaphorically chosen to save the photo-
graph – his fixed image of his own analyst – and, as a consequence, had
given up something of his own vitality.
On the basis of these thoughts and others that followed, in the succeeding
weeks and months, the analyst was eventually able to speak with Mr. A
about Mr. A’s feelings of shame (the shame of having betrayed himself) in
having chosen to pursue a career in ‘his father’s field’ and not a career in
his own field (even if it was the field in which his father also worked). (We
will return to this clinical example later in the paper.)
IV. Discovering ⁄ creating what one thinks and who one is in the
experience of writing
Writing is a form of thinking. Very often, in writing, one does not write
what one thinks; one thinks what one writes. There is something of the feel-
ing that ideas come out of one’s pen, of watching ideas develop in
unplanned ways (Ogden, 2005). Writing, however, is not necessarily a soli-
tary activity. In psychoanalytic writing there is often a reader in mind as
one proceeds. The fantasy of how the reader will react to a turn of phrase
or a radical new perspective on theory or technique shapes and influences
what appears on the page. Yet much of the creative process develops in iso-
lation as one thinks about the kernel of an idea over and over in different
settings. This contemplative period may take days, weeks, or even years.
Most writing involves some oscillation between, on the one hand, quiet
reflection on what one has to say, and on imagined responses by potential
readers, on the other. An imaginary audience is a fixture in Freud’s writing.
Time and again, he invents an imaginary skeptical audience and masterfully
anticipates the objections of the audience ⁄ reader to his argument and offers
a compelling rebuttal.
When the text is co-authored, further complexity is introduced into the
process. In addition to the solitary contemplation and the imagined inter-
action with a reader, a collaboration with another writer requires a special
sensitivity to one’s co-author – after all, each sentence must represent two
authors, not one.
One such example of collaboration emerged in the course of writing this
paper. We began with a shared idea – namely, an updating of Freud’s idea
that what was definitive of analysis as a treatment for psychological prob-
lems is the grounding of the work in the understanding of transference and
resistance (Freud, 1914). We planned to describe how our own definition of
analysis has evolved from and ⁄ or is discontinuous with Freud’s 1914 ideas.
with the following thoughts about the case in general, and the dream in
particular:
I very much agree with your point that the dream cannot be ascribed to the patient
alone, but to a co-constructed subject. I felt that the dream was as much yours as
his. My fantasy about the dream is this: that even though you had perceived your
analyst as treating you in a generic manner, you felt some sort of protection – a
safe harbor, if you will – in resorting to his style of speaking. In doing so, you had
not separated from him and thus did not have to bear the pain associated with the
loss of him. I am reminded of Freud’s famous comment that the only way the ego
can give up an object is to take it within. The earthquake, then, could be seen as a
growing awareness in the patient that you were about to be ripped from your inter-
nally created house – i.e. the safe harbor of your analyst’s office or internalized
presence – and cast into a world where you must speak in your own voice. At some
level, the patient felt that way about being ripped from his father’s ‘house’. What
was going on in you had a great deal of resonance with what was going on in him.
I did not add this to the paper because it is purely my own conjecture and may not
fit with your experience.
As this quotation indicates, a co-author’s perspective on clinical material
must then be filtered through the thoughts of the author providing the clini-
cal data in order to see if it is ‘a good fit’ with the actual analytic moment
described.
Ogden, who was not used to such ‘interference’ with his writing process,
found himself feeling unsettled by Gabbard’s unexpected comments. He
required more than two months of ‘sleeping on’ (dreaming) what had been
elicited in him by Gabbard’s note before he was able to offer a considered
response (also in written form):
On rereading my account of my work with Mr. A, I find it telling that I saw in the
invariability of the photograph in the patient’s dream only stasis, as opposed to reli-
ability; and that I saw in the absence of the photographer in the photograph only
the absence of a thinking ⁄ feeling person, as opposed to unobtrusiveness. Your com-
ments on the vignette helped me to see what had been there all along in my writing
of the account: my deep appreciation of what I feel to be two of my first analyst’s
best qualities – his willingness to remain emotionally present during trying times in
the analysis and during very difficult times in his life; and his ability to ‘stay out of
the way’ (and not reflexively make transference interpretations) when I was doing
psychological work on my own in the sessions.
The co-authors view the emotional experience that Ogden describes as a
current response both to his memory of his work with Mr. A and to Gab-
bard’s comments on his written account of that experience. This exchange
between the co-authors constitutes a type of maturational experience that
was of value to both authors.
V. Daring to improvise
With each patient, we have the responsibility to become an analyst whom
we have never been before. This requires that we drop the script and enter
into a conversation, a conversation of a type we have never before experi-
enced (Hoffman, 1998; Ringstrom, 2001). This may take the form of
VII. Keeping one’s eyes open to the way one is maturing ⁄ growing
old
As one ages, one is able to speak from experience in a way that one could
not previously have done. Often one becomes aware, after the fact, that one
has changed, for example, through listening to oneself speak to one’s
patient. Optimally, the analyst engages in a mourning process in which the
loss of youth and the inevitability of old age and death are recognized,
accepted and even embraced as a new form of coming into being as a per-
son leading an examined life. The analyst may, in this way, achieve a greater
appreciation for the patient’s experiences of loss and the ways in which he
has handled or evaded them.
This maturational process occurs both within and outside the analytic set-
ting. The analyst who shows up each day in the consulting room is (ideally)
never entirely the same analyst who showed up the previous day. An ana-
lyst’s capacity to fully grasp a patient’s grief may be limited until the analyst
himself has navigated his own grief associated with the loss of loved ones
and the endings of important periods of his life, for example, the era in
which his children are living at home or the era in which his parents are
alive.
speaking early on with a contrived voice of experience when he, in fact, feels
painfully lacking as a consequence of his inexperience; or by embracing false
certainty in the form of an intense identification with a given school of
psychoanalysis, with his own analyst, with an idealized analytic writer and
so on. Finally, we must remember that, as much as we love analysis, a part
of us hates it as well (Steiner, 2000). Dedication to ongoing analytic work
(on ourselves and with patients) consigns us not only to uncertainty, but
also to face what we least like about ourselves and others.
Concluding comments
In this paper, we have discussed some of our maturational experiences and
viewed them from several theoretical perspectives. Some readers will recognize
something of their own experiences of maturing as analysts in what we have
described, while others will not. Indeed, a recurring theme in our essay has
been that speaking in generic terms to patients, colleagues and students is
anti-analytic (in the sense of representing a failure to think and speak for one-
self). As Bion (1987) notes in the comment cited at the beginning of this paper,
part of becoming an analyst is to evolve in a direction that is neither bound
by theory nor driven exclusively by identification with others: ‘‘The analyst
you become is you and you alone – that is what you use …’’ (p. 15). Analytic
discourse involves what is unique, idiosyncratic and alive in the particular
experience of a given individual. Becoming an analyst necessarily involves cre-
ating a highly personal identity that is unlike that of any other analyst.
We cannot overstate the difficulty of attempting to live by this ideal. The
conscious and unconscious ties that we have to what we think we know are
powerful. But the struggle to overcome these ties (at least to a significant
degree) is what we ask of ourselves in each session. It has been our experi-
ence that, when the analyst is off balance, he does his best analytic work.
Translations of summary
Psychoanalytiker werden. In den Jahren der Praxis, die auf den Abschluss der offiziellen analytischen
Ausbildung folgen, hat man die Gelegenheit und die Pflicht, zu dem Analytiker zu werden, der man wer-
den wollte. Die Autoren diskutieren ihr Verstndnis von Reifungserfahrungen, die dazu beigetragen ha-
ben, dass sie zu den Analytikern wurden, die sie werden wollten. Sie glauben, dass das wichtigste
Element des Prozesses, in dem sie zu Analytikern heranreiften, die Entwicklung der Fhigkeit war, ihre
unverwechselbaren und individuellen Eigenschaften zu nutzen; in seinen besten Momenten verhlt sich je-
der von ihnen als Analytiker auf eine Weise, die seinen eigenen Analysestil, seine Art, mit seinen Patien-
ten zusammen zu sein und zu sprechen, seine Form der psychoanalytischen Praxis widerspiegelt. Die
Reifungserfahrungen, die die Autoren untersuchen, umfassen Situationen, in denen sie gelernt haben, sich
selbst beim Sprechen mit ihren Patienten zuzuhçren und dabei eine eigene Stimme zu entwickeln; Wach-
stumserfahrungen, die sie machten, wenn sie einem Berater klinisches Material vorstellten; den selbstanal-
ytischen Gebrauch ihrer Erfahrungen mit ihren Patienten; die Erschaffung ⁄ Entdeckung ihrer selbst als
Analytiker in der Erfahrung des Verfassens analytischer Texte (mit besonderer Aufmerksamkeit fr die
Reifungserfahrung, die im Schreiben des vorliegenden Beitrags impliziert ist); und die Reaktion auf
die Notwendigkeit, vernderungsfhig zu bleiben und sich ein originales Denken und Verhalten als
Analytiker zu bewahren.
devenir les psychanalystes qu’ils sont. Ils pensent que l’lment qui a jou le rle le plus important dans
ce processus de maturation a trait au dveloppement de la capacit d’utiliser ce que chacun a d’unique et
d’idiosyncrasique. Chacun, lorsqu’il est au sommet de sa forme, voit son comportement en tant qu’analy-
ste reflter son propre style analytique; sa propre faÅon d’Þtre et de parler avec ses patients; sa propre fa-
Åon de pratiquer la psychanalyse. Les expriences de maturation que ces auteurs tudient englobent des
situations o ils ont appris
s’couter eux-mÞmes lorsqu’ils parlent
leurs patients et ont pu, gr
ce
cela, commencer
dvelopper leur propre voix. Ces situations, synonymes de croissance, ont trait
la
prsentation de matriel clinique
un consultant,
l’utilisation auto-analytique de leur exprience avec
les patients,
la cration ⁄ dcouverte de leur fonctionnement en tant qu’analystes
travers le travail
d’criture (avec une attention particuli re porte
l’exprience de maturation lie
l’criture du prsent
article),
la ncessit de rpondre
un besoin constant de changement et d’avoir une pense et une
attitude originales en tant qu’analystes.
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