INDEX

Author’s Note I-II

1. Introduction 1-5

2. Stray Cat 7-12

3. Effects 15-32

4. Brainwashing 27-35

5. Love 37-43

6. Neurology 45-54

7. Environment 57-62

8. Transmutation 65-76

9. Understandings 79-82

10. Movement 85-90

Extra e1-12

Do not skip chapters, each

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 AUTHOR’S NOTE

Hey :)

This is a short introduction for this book.

If somebody gifted or bought this book for you, it means that

they are somebody with your best interest.

If you bought this book yourself, you have your own best
interest.

This book is about self-growth. This is not the typical “self-help”

piece however.

Burgeon was created for those that want to find freedom

through the removal of negative patterns.

This book may be “awkward” or it may be “weird” because of the

topics it goes over, but when keeping an open mind, and having
the humility to question your beliefs, it will change the way you
view life.

This book talks about becoming free from porn and

masturbation. It also talks on retaining sexual energy, and more.
These are incredibly important topics that are not talked about
enough, due to their awkward nature. However, somebody
needs to talk about them and that is what this book is for.

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If you are interested in finding peace and freedom in your life,

and truly improving yourself, this is the book for you.

I love and I am proud of all of you who are working to discover

the truth and who are finding true purpose.

From me to you, I wish you the best.

Peace.

- Author

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“INTRODUCTION”
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CHAPTER 1. “Introduction”

Your greatest superpower is the ability to change yourself.

This book is not for the unserious. This book is for those that
genuinely want to grow, find peace, and find freedom from
porn. For those interested in quick "productivity tips" or
numbered principles, these will not be found in this book.
Instead, this book will provide you with understandings you can
use to make your own decisions.

Many people think that all they need to do to quit porn is

to...stop doing it. They say, "just stop watching it. Don’t open the
window. Don’t watch porn. Distract yourself." But consider this:
Did you ever make the ‘positive’ choice that you must have porn
to masturbate? Or that you need porn-induced fantasies to spice
up sex with your partner? Or, that at certain times in your life,
you couldn’t enjoy a good night’s sleep or perhaps even pass an
evening after a hard day at work without surfing for porn? Or
that you couldn’t concentrate or handle stress without it? At
what stage did you decide that you needed porn, that you
needed it permanently in your life, feeling insecure, even panic-
stricken without porn, without your online harem? The fact is, we
never thought over these things when we found it.

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Scrap the idea of "methods", "guides" and "how-to's". If success

were prescriptive, then everybody would be a success. There
are many who obsessively browse "nofap" material only
continuing in the hope that they could one day become
successful. If your desire has become dependent, like you are
hysterically driven to obtain something whatever the cost, then
somewhere deep down inside you do not believe that you can
achieve it.

Most likely, those who have already been doing "nofap" or

semen retention practices, are already familiar with failure.

"nofap" practitioners are used to saying “If I became free from

porn, it would be great”, “It would be terrible if I could not be
free”; and so on. Once you become dependent on the object of
your desire you are drawn into such a violent whirlpool that you
will exhaust yourself in the struggle. There is no reason to
create this unneeded pressure.

Understand failure is not falling down. Failure is never having

reached the goal, ever. And the reason that this happens is that
a human being is always looking for something to do because
he has been conditioned by the concept and by the notion that
there is something that if he does correctly, it will lead him to
success.

Instead, one must individually understand and address their

flawed beliefs and negative patterns to truly create momentum.

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One must come to terms with truth, because truth is the only
thing that can lead to freedom. No guide, no listed steps, none
of these things can create deep, meaningful, and lasting
understandings that will have positive effects on your life. Only
you discovering truth, yourself, can do this.

Truth-seeking essentially means that you have to understand,

with deep conviction, things that you’ve been programmed to
misunderstand. You have to have enough humility and sincerity
to be able to replace old ideas with the new, however painful
they may seem.

Freedom comes from the understanding of where things come

from, not the conscious attempt to end them.

Those who continuously fail may read the same book or

strategy repeatedly without anything changing. My favorite quote
that summarizes this well is from a villain in Far Cry 3. "The
definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again
and expecting a different result". Doing the exact same thing so
many times with the same result is pointless. If you repeat
something often to no avail, you misunderstand it, or the
material does not contain truth. Keep this in mind.

Why is PMO most annoying? - This is because it is

embarrassing to talk about. Due to human nature and shame, it
is often kept under wraps, getting progressively worse over the
years, trapping the user forever.

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It is hard to approach friends and family about it because it

would seem weird and incredibly awkward. This is the part of it
that is most likely the worst. Those with addictions to smoking,
food, drugs, and other instant pleasures can approach others
and relatively easily find professionals to fix their issues.
Societies can criticize the people producing what causes the
addiction, and then collective progress can be made. But due to
the awkward nature of talking about porn, such a collective
sentiment is likely never to happen, unless people wake up.

PMO Definition: Porn, Masturbation, Orgasm

MO Definition: Masturbation, Orgasm
Pang Definition: Reminder to have a session - A small
reminder/notice that porn is 'available', which happens due to
your previous lifestyle
Hypersexualization Definition: Excessive indulgence in sexual
activity and unhealthy sexual beliefs

On Reading

Inspiration is perishable—act on it immediately. If you are

inspired to read this book, consider yourself lucky. Many would
have not found this and would miss out on the truths made
available to them. If you want to postpone reading this book until
later, read it now anyway. There is no “later.” Most of our
suffering comes from avoidance.

If you truly want to become the best version of yourself and to

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become more capable, you should place importance on finishing

this material. The only one that can do this is you. Only you can
heal yourself.

One thing that must be done, however, is you must put down
your ego while reading. If you do not have humility while
reading, you will not be able to absorb any new ideas or
understandings. If you think you "already know all this", then you
should already be free. Keep this in mind - You cannot change
yourself without humility.

One of the things Krishnamurti (philosopher) talks about is being

in an internal state of revolution. You should always be internally
ready for a complete change. Whenever we say we’re going to
try to do something or try to form a habit, we’re wimping out.

PS: Don’t skip chapters. Every chapter is important.

I also would like you to approach this book with the aim to gain
new insight and understanding, rather than trying to believe your
problems away. Evidence shows that you must truly understand
the reality of habits/addictions to change your decision-making,
and blind belief does not help that.

I may use the terms good/bad in this book, but when I use those
terms I actually mean "leading to freedom" or "leading to
delusion". We have applied the labels good and bad to basically
everything, but I want you to step back and digest things for
what they really are - without preconceptions blinding your view.
Have fun reading!

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“STRAY CAT”
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When everyone is sick, we no longer consider it a disease.

When illness and self-limitation are so normalized that their
absence is classed as unnormal, you know it is deeply ingrained
in society.

You might have heard of "nofap" before, but if you have not,
most people hear about it in a similar way. Through a YouTube
video that popped up as a suggestion, a link a friend sent us, or
even a meme. If you have been linked to this book, you must
have been intrigued to see what lies within. However, for those
of you that have already heard of "nofap", you will likely know
the sad truth about the "community" of hopeless users in the
same cycle.

Most people join the bandwagon of porn, as most people use it,
so 'it must be fine', denouncing any evidence proving them
wrong as they would rather be blissful in ignorance than live in
truth. However, nothing can escape the fact that PMO has
numerous adverse effects on the 'casual' user and 'heavy' user
alike.

Over the decades, hypersexualization has increased, and

people are further pushing the limits of what they believe to be

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acceptable. Questions on purity are answered with delusion and

as a result, purity is ever-more thrown out of the window.
Internet porn adds fuel to the fire in this regard. In this age of
information, everything can be accessed immediately, for free.
This makes impulsive decisions easier as there is little
resistance to getting what you want.

This hypersexualization has risen along with porn and

masturbation use, which are both damaging to productivity and
performance. Pornography and hypersexualization are some of
the biggest, but at the same time most overlooked, problems of
the modern world.

If you want to know some stats, the average age that most
people first see pornography is 11 years old. Children under the
age of 10 make up 22% of online porn consumption for those
under 18. Imagine your 10-year-old son or daughter viewing the
front page of a porn site behind closed doors. It is almost sickly
to think about.

This is the modern struggle: Lone individuals summoning

inhuman willpower, fasting, meditating, and exercising... Up
against armies of scientists and statisticians weaponizing
abundant food, screens, and medicine into junk food, clickbait
news, infinite porn, endless games, and addictive drugs. But just
what are the negative effects?

Porn mainly has negative effects to do with the dopaminergic

(dopamine) system. Masturbation on its own significantly

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decreases 30+ vitamins/nutrients, bodily energy, and life force

(what you could call "aura"). When porn and masturbation are
combined these effects are multiplied. This is important because
to have peace of mind, you have to have peace of body first.

Negative effects span from low energy, low motivation, lessened

ability to do work, lowered respect for women, depression,
anxiety when interacting with others, porn-induced erectile
dysfunction, relationship problems, acne, obsession with porn
and fantasies, questioning sexuality despite no previous interest,
and more. A general rule of thumb is physical negatives are to
do with frequent masturbation and mental negatives are to do
with porn.

People believe "nofap" provides benefits, but it is really the

negatives of PMO itself being absent.

These negative effects are not anecdotal and do not happen to

a minority group. Instead, all people that do PMO suffer some
degree of these symptoms, no matter if they realize it. Like the
analogy of the 'boiling frog', if a change occurs slowly and we do
not know it, we are unlikely to notice. Many problems in our
personal lives could be directly or indirectly related to PMO, yet
we may be none the wiser. However, there is not much point in
proving these negative effects (over again), as the
neurochemical negative effects of porn are scientifically and
anecdotally well understood. Just ask any ex-user that has been
entirely freed from porn and masturbation. Unless they thought
they would gain superpowers using nofap, the user will

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explain the positive changes they experienced after leaving.

So, let's return to the idea that we might have discovered nofap
through a YouTube video. Hundreds of YouTubers have made
videos on quitting porn and masturbation, with thousands of
videos advising about quitting. However, there lies a sad truth -
most advice given by these 'self-development' YouTubers /
mentors has a meager success rate.

This is because people approach leaving PMO with a need for

motivation. Some things can be broken with motivation, but
habits/addictions cannot. Many "influencers" also use motivation
as the primary cause for doing ‘nofap’. Motivation is temporary.

To me, the mind should be a servant and a tool, not a master.

The monkey mind should not control and drive you 24/7.
Personally, I’m not going to be the most successful person on
the planet, nor do I want to be. I just want to be the most
successful version of myself while working the least hard
possible. And with energy sinks like porn and masturbation in
life, it will hinder these kinds of aspirations and your journey of
growth.

False Incentives

Be aware not to base your reasoning for quitting on any false

incentives. Some of us may want to quit to appease our friends,
make our partners happier, be better than people we view as

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"degenerate" or become more disciplined. Even though these

are great ways to discover semen retention or no-porn, these
incentives create the perfect excuse for us to relapse when we
are experiencing negative emotions.

● "I don't care what my friend thinks; it is not a big deal

anyway."
● "She is already happy. It really is not that bad."
● "I can just do it less, and I can still be disciplined."
● "I will just do it rarely."
● "I will just watch the 'soft stuff'."

False incentives provide the ammo to fuel your brain's defense

mechanisms. As a response to what our brains interpret as a
threat, we have some key reactions. We dismiss opposing views
and make illogical justifications and excuses for our actions.
Defense mechanisms are what your brain uses when you are in
a reactionary state, so instead of having a false incentive, you
should have an incentive grounded in yourself.

Forget the initial incentive for being interested or wanting to quit.

Freedom must be found on one's own accord; not by or for
external influence.

Everyone is caught up in suffering and conflict, but most people

are unconscious of that conflict; they are merely seeking
substitutions, solutions, and escapes.

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Whereas if they cease seeking escapes and begin to question

the environment that causes that conflict, then the mind
becomes acute, alive, and intelligent.

Therefore, do not quit for anybody else. Quit for yourself.

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“EFFECTS”
 CHAPTER 3. “Effects”

Leaving PMO provides many benefits and positives, as detailed

in the introduction. These positives come from the changes in
our neurochemistry, bodily nutrients, and our ability to control
our reactions to emotions. However, technically, leaving PMO
has no positives - it is just the removal of negatives.

Imagine someone said they wore shoes all day that were too
tight, just so they could experience pleasure when they took
them off in the evening. Do you think that makes sense? Of
course not. You wouldn’t say that tight shoes provide pleasure.
But as soon as a porn user finishes a PMO session, their
dopamine levels crash lower than a non-user. They feel irritable,
similar to if they were wearing tight shoes. Chemicals also flood
the brain causing lethargic effects (but not relaxing because of
the dopamine drop after orgasm).

Thus, the porn trap is similar to wearing tight shoes just to

obtain the “pleasure” of taking them off and doing this over and
over again.

Porn users — just like drug users — are constantly trying to get
back to the same level of happiness and relaxation that non-
users experience in everyday life.

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However, you don't notice this. It has happened so slowly, so

gradually, that like the "boiling frog" analogy, you did not notice.

Do not make the mistake of normalizing porn. Because people

have used it for so long, they find it hard to relate to when they
didn't, and most used language to suggest benefits or that
leaving PMO is not the normal. While in a societal sense, it may
be the 'norm', in a bodily sense, it is not natural. Naturally,
nobody has urges to watch lewd video clips as a reaction to
emotion. Nobody tries to escape negative emotions by tricking
our bodies into connections to partners we will never know. Porn
is not natural and never will be. It is a man-made trap.
Masturbation too has been around for a while, but on its own, it
still drains your energy and is just another outlet for
hypersexualization.

Therefore make this key understanding - The benefits of leaving

porn/masturbation are not direct benefits but are just the end of
negatives.

Dopamine

Contrary to popular belief, dopamine's main effect is not

pleasure. Dopamine's primary effect is to do with
anticipation/excitement. Some may even call it the "motivation"
chemical.

Dysfunctions in the dopaminergic system result in unhealthy

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changes in anticipation and it causes immeasurable effects on a

person's life.
What happens with porn is the
dopamine system becomes
downregulated. When we are with a
single partner, the body limits the
amount of dopamine that can be
created. Porn, however, releases more
and more dopamine when you seek
and search through multiple partners
for "just the right video".

This is called the Coolidge Effect.

A male rat feels satisfied after mating with the same female a
few times. Each time he mates with her, less dopamine is
released, and he takes longer breaks. This is good, otherwise,
he’d exhaust himself for no reason. But if he sees a brand new
female, a new dopamine surge takes over, and he is compelled
to mate again. As more and more new females are introduced,
he will eventually collapse from exhaustion.

What happens with porn is the same effect, with people online
that the primitive part of your mind views as "partners". Because
this happens, an unnatural and irregular amount of dopamine is
released.

You may think that a huge amount of dopamine would make

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you feel better, but that is a misunderstanding of how dopamine

works. You could compare it to putting 10,000 volts through a
machine that works perfectly fine at 240 volts. You don't get
enhanced performance, you merely cook the machine.

To compensate for the unnaturally high amount of dopamine

that has entered your body, your dopamine system gets
downregulated.

You may think that the body makes everything fine again, but
this is ignoring the side effects of this downregulation. First of
all, the body builds a dependence upon porn as it becomes
further downregulated every consecutive viewing, and nothing
else will give that same level of dopamine it needs to feel
"normal".

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The second and worst effect of this downregulation is that things

that provide lesser dopamine now provide even less dopamine.
Therefore, you have lesser or even no incentive to do these
things. Things like reading, having a single focus, enjoying
creativity, cooking well, taking care of yourself, etc, are less
satisfying to do. It can get to the point that those far into the trap
of porn do not take care of themselves at all.

One of the most prevalent problems that porn creates is anxiety.

The misdirection of sexual energy also causes a lack of
confidence, and testosterone is lowered indirectly through self-
neglect (part of dopamine desensitization). It also makes you
less incentivized to be social (through less of a dopamine
reward), which in turn amounts to anxiety.

Some make fun of these people who go into a state of disarray

('coomers') but it is a sad story. Tiktok, video games, and
procrastination all become more attractive when the
dopaminergic system becomes downregulated. Life becomes
more hedonistic, and the lack of growth eventually brings pain.

The good thing is that the damage to the dopamine receptors is

not permanent. You have the ability to upregulate your
dopamine receptors after this damage by stopping porn use and
other overstimuli. Your greatest superpower is the ability to
change yourself.

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Increased brain fog is another effect that porn creates. Porn

lowers brain chemicals (acetylcholine) vital in cognitive
functioning. This can make active users feel like they are less
able to function actively than before (however, not many people
realize it because this happens slowly). Porn also has been
studied to decrease gray matter in the brain.

Dopamine is the reason that motivation does not work for

becoming free from porn (and addictions in general). Dopamine
is a large part of motivation itself. And if the anticipation of porn
outweighs the anticipation of quitting, then you will relapse. Then
what works? Understanding of truth. Deep understandings, that
are not beliefs, that bring reality to the light - this is what works.

Porn use also can contribute to Dopamine Deficient Depression

(DDD), as the low dopamine periods without porn are not at the
levels they are meant to be. This can cause low energy,

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drowsiness, the inability to feel enthusiastic about anything,

lowered motivation, and excessive sleep.

PIED (Porn-Induced Erectile Dysfunction) is another effect that

comes from porn use (usually long-term). For those who have
not experienced it, they may say "that will never happen",
however, as consumption becomes more impulsive and
obsessive, it can make in-real-life experiences not turn you on.

There are even more mental and physical negatives of porn I

could dive into. I could go into all of the complex
neurochemistry, and I could go into scientific terms, etc but I
won't obsess over it. Why? Because simply knowing the
negatives of porn is not what will allow you to leave. There are
detailed and reviewed studies on the effects of porn (such as
YourBrainOnPorn) and other internet subcultures. However,
these are not enough to rid the mind of the brainwashing and
are never enough reasoning to make the user quit.

This is because your brain does not care about negatives when
it is in a reactionary state; it reacts to emotions through the
pathways you have used the most. Think about your other
negative habits. Does knowing how they impact your health
really stop you?

MO & Endorphins

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Sex is not the same as MO (Masturbation & Orgasm) but semen

release still has the same effects for both of them. However, MO
is void of love and meaning; it is wasting energy for little
purpose.

When the body releases sperm, it expends significant amounts

of Vitamin A, ABSORBIC ACID, Vitamin B, RIBOFLAVIN,
NIACIN, PANTOTHENIC ACID, PYRIDOXINE, COBALAMIN,
BIOTIN, CHOLINE, CALCIFEROL, ALPHA-TOCOPHEROL,
FOLIC ACID, PHYLLOQUINONE, MENADIONE, CALCIUM,
CHLORIDE, CHROMIUM, CHROMIUM, COPPER, IODINE,
IRON, MAGNESIUM, MANGANESE, MOLYBDENUM,
PHOSPHORUS, POTASSIUM, SELENIUM, SODIUM, SULFUR,
ZINC, and other nutrients.

This release results in lowered bodily energy, lowered hair

health, lowered libido/aura, possible acne, and other effects.

Semen release also increases prolactin, in both sex and

masturbation, and too much prolactin is negative for male
health.

People call masturbation "self-love" but really it is self-sabotage.

When sexual energy is harnessed, it is a tool. But when
untrained, it is nothing but a restriction to productivity, if that is
what you seek.

I have talked about dopamine being mostly an anticipation

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chemical. This is true, as it is released before an orgasm during

the seek-and-search of online "partners". So what is the effect
we believe to be pleasure after an orgasm? This is not caused
by dopamine, but by endorphins (bodily-produced opioids).

On orgasm, endorphins are

released. However, at the same
time, the dopamine that was
elevated in the build-up crashes
down. The orgasm doesn’t relax
you, it drains your energy. As soon
as you finish, you’re in the
comedown/crashing state (feeling
crappy) and are more likely to get
irritated and impatient with other
people.

Real relaxation is a feeling of peace and balance, and it would

restore your energy. When you are truly relaxed and confident, it
makes you more creatively productive. However, porn cannot
help with relaxation - only freedom is relaxing. Porn users - just
like all other drug users - are constantly trying to get back to the
same level of happiness and relaxation that non-users
experience in everyday life.

If you remove all dopamine from a human, even if you give

them heroin, it will not be addictive. Opioids (Endorphins) are
not what makes you want to do something, and if dopamine did
not exist, they would not make you addicted.

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You do not use porn for the orgasm, but for the dopamine
released before the orgasm happens.

It is a really strange thing when dopamine anticipates itself.

People justify porn by saying "it feels good" or "it is no big deal"
but the reality is, they do not do it for the orgasm. They only do
it for the dopamine.

There was a study where scientists used a dopamine-blocking

agent in rats to see what would happen. They did nothing, they
did not drink, did not eat, and in a short amount of time all of the
rats died.

It does not matter how appealing something is, the health of

your dopamine system makes it more likely or less likely you will
be attracted to the thing. You may have goals and dreams in the
sense of your higher being/self, but with downregulated
dopamine, those will stay as hopes and dreams, as the
dopamine of completing those is less than porn. I hope you can
see why this leads to living like a slob and a lack of care for
one's self.

The stereotype of porn addicts looking like a slob is true

because dopamine desensitization makes them not care about
or spend any time on their appearance. However, if one takes
control of their dopaminergic system, they can take control of
their life.

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You know we have lost all sense of living normally, simply,

directly. To get back to that normality, that simplicity, that
directness, you cannot follow methods, you cannot merely
become automatic machines; and I am afraid most of us are
seeking methods because we think that through them we shall
realize fullness, stability, and permanency. To me, methods lead
to slow stagnation and decay and they have nothing to do with
real self-growth, which is, after all, the summation of intelligence.

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“BRAINWASHING”
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Before you can lie to another, you must first lie to yourself.

The brainwashing of PMO is the leading cause of failure for

people that are trying to leave PMO once and for all but end up
failing. Brainwashing is the engrained idea that porn provides
any benefit. It is also the idea that you are entitled to sex or
porn and that sex should be the highest goal in your life.

It includes our upbringing in society, reinforced by the

brainwashing of our addiction and combined with the most
powerful influences - our friends, relatives, and colleagues. The
phrase "giving up" is a classic example of brainwashing,
implying genuine sacrifice. The beautiful truth is there’s nothing
to give up; on the contrary, you are facing freedom. It takes a
level of contrarianism to say, “Nope. I’m just going to do my own
thing”. That is courage.

Ironically, the most powerful force in this confusion is the user

themselves. It’s a fallacy that porn users are weak-willed or
physically weak people. Perhaps the saddest aspect of porn to
observe users is that they put themselves as unsuccessful
losers and insufferable introverts. A friend could likely be more
interesting in person if they hadn’t put themselves down by
wasting their energy through PMO.

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In this age of information, individuals are trained to think

whatever society tells them to. This over-socialization denies
intelligence; when technology has this impact on you, you are
no individual. When one sets themselves apart from the status
quo they can find clarity; for example, porn being "normal" or
"cultured" will be programmed into your mind unless you stop
denying intelligence and actually process things yourself.

One aspect of brainwashing is stress. Porn has subconsciously

registered in billions of people's brains as a 'method to relieve
stress'. Users believe that it allows them to relax - to move away
from their life's difficulties and that it benefits them. This belief,
however, is interpreting everything backward. Porn creates the
stress.

Porn creates stress by overstimulating your dopamine receptors.

Users illude themselves into believing that it is required for
relieving stress, even though before they became users, they
had no need. And to 'relieve' the pressure, they use it again.

Our brain builds a response to emotions that trigger 'pangs'.

These emotions are fear, anxiety, and boredom. Fear (in a
user's life) typically comes from everyday events that happen in
life, such as fear of getting laid off, fear of failure, or having a
bad day. In these cases, porn is imagined as a savior at the end
of the day that will make everything better - even though it will
make everything harder to cope with.

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Anxiety and uncertainty are also emotions where a similar

response happens. In response to not being able to work out
how something will play out, this plagues our minds with
negative thoughts. Pangs can occur in these moments because
porn is interpreted as something that fixes negative emotions.
Instead, it creates these negative emotions, worsening over
time.

PMO is a constant state of anticipation, and then temporary

clarity over and over again. When using porn, the pre-frontal
cortex is shut off, and after, it turns back on. That is where
"post-nut clarity" comes from. Because your intellectual brain
was effectively deactivated.

We are not really attracted to the lewd clips we browse through.

We are not really attracted to the disgusting fetishes we pick up
along the way as the old content does not suffice. But we have
been conditioned into thinking this is what we want - we think
this is what benefits us. Do you know why there is disgusting
porn? Because they got bored of the "non-disgusting" porn.

The higher your feelings of shame, sin, or anxiety, and the more
taboo and fetishized the content is, the higher of a dopamine
rush you feel. This only increases the strength of the habitual
pathway, causing more desensitization.

Porn is actually relatively easy to quit when you understand its

true nature. This is because it provides no advantages — then
you can completely throw it out of your life and it will not even

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be attractive. You wouldn’t eat poison “in moderation”.

Choice is our greatest power in life. Once you realize you have
this power, you are like an eagle who grew up thinking he was a
chicken, living with other chickens — but one day learned he
could fly.

We deny our own intelligence through limiting ideas and beliefs.

One of these is the disregard for our own ability, our own power.
However, this is in our control.

Imagine your limbic brain (monkey brain) is a dumb electrical

appliance. If you unplug 99 out of 100 power cords (false
reasons to use porn), it doesn’t know you did that, all it knows is
it still has power. You have to unplug every cord, every reason.
Then, you will find peace like you’ve never known.

Be careful of your own negativity. Pessimism is self-fulfilling. If

you say you are going to fail, you nearly always will. If you say
something will be bad, you will nearly always perceive it that
way. There is no benefit to creating that negativity in the first
place.

Peace comes from truth; but how can you find truth? One of the
ways in which I know that I am finding the truth of something is
that the problem is solved for good.

Examples of what coping users say:

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● "Porn is freedom": This is a lie. Any freedom that leads to

craving is not freedom.

● "I can quit anytime I want, I just don't want to quit right now":
Then when will you ever quit? How much longer do you have
to lie to yourself thinking there is a benefit to porn?

Someone repeating these mantras to themselves is a form of

subconscious rationalization used to justify their biological
addiction.

In reality, the key to the mental prison of porn is in your own

mind. You can not ask another person for this key - one must
find it for themselves. The answers lie within yourself. Yet we
have been told to look everywhere but ourselves for answers.

Brainwashing Through Bad Advice

Unfortunately, the world is filled with bad advice. So much in

fact, that it makes sense for the majority to not be successful in
what they truly want to achieve. The individual has to filter out
the effective information from the ineffective information. It takes
effort, but it is a liberating process that provides one with the
steering wheel of life. However, most have been conditioned to
hand over the reins to "professionals" who seemingly know
everything. This opens the gates for shallow advice, con artists,
and wasting time.

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The trouble with advice that does not work - is that those that
preach it - pronounce their advice as given fact. For one who
wants to truly understand the scope of their addiction and how
recovery works, if they do not unlearn these false
understandings and unproductive ways of thinking then they will
be forever held to them.

The bad advice causes one to feel the need to constantly

reinforce their newly picked-up beliefs. However, the constant
assertion of belief is an indication of fear.

There are many unproductive activities that people "trying " to

leave porn and masturbation practice. One common thing is
counting days, where a person counts to an arbitrary number of
days for progress. This may seem like a good way to set goals,
but the reality is, freedom is found on day 1. Not at day 30, not
at day 90, not at day 1000. Freedom is found when you let go of
the attachment of porn to your life. When you stop chasing. You
do not need to keep rewarding yourself for not harming yourself.
Otherwise you might still see attraction in instant pleasures, or
you might be looking for pleasure through progress. Both of
these things are not productive. Counting days adds extra
pressure, and it comes with the notation that not self-sabotaging
is impressive. It is just wise if one seeks a productive life,
nothing more.

People have this idea of "one step at a time" where they want to
take each day at a time after quitting porn. However, this comes
with the notion that something bad is happening. Like something

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is being lost from your life. Would you "take one day at a time"
after you became free from a prison? No! Because you would
no longer be trapped. Nothing changes physically, but just these
changes in ideology make it so a person who wants to find
freedom treats it like the opposite - like a prison.

Another way this attachment to porn can appear is through

doing a certain amount of days, such as 7, 14, or 30 days of no
PMO/MO. I do not understand it. Why return to something that
has no benefit in your life? Why view this glimpse of freedom to
dunk your head back in under the water? These people still
believe it has some value in their lives. And it might if they see a
benefit in instant 'pleasures'. But if you do not see a benefit in
instant pleasures there is nothing in porn that you desire.

Another flawed ideology is weening. Weening is the process of

spreading usage apart over time or lowering the severity of a
bad habit. This is typically used for drug addictions, where the
body has a physical withdrawal and negative reaction from the
absence of a specific drug. However, porn does not have any
physical withdrawal. Therefore, weening would only make sense
if it worked for any mental withdrawal. The thing is, in the time
between sessions, a person will start to fantasize about their
next usage; they will build up dopamine and anticipation for it. In
a sense, this can be even worse than not weening because of
this even higher amount of anticipation. You do not need to
ween something when you can find freedom in an in the present
moment.

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The last major flawed ideology I will write about is "monsters".

You may have heard the terms "little monster" and "big monster"
to describe different parts of the human psyche. These are
attempts at trying to simplify the dynamic of the human mind,
however, it fails at doing this. It creates a Me vs Them scenario.
You create this imaginary enemy (this "monster"/primitive brain)
and you imagine yourself fighting this figure. The reality is, no
big or little "monster" exist. Your "primitive brain" is not out to
get you. It is an integral part of your system. One that is there to
help you, not to hinder you. And you may say, this is wrong, that
it takes away control from your life. And this may be true. But
this occurs when you have a cognitive dissonance - when you
are trying to force a belief/truth that you do not understand or
that you have not figured out yourself.

Your primitive mind will not ignore a solved, understood truth,

but it will ignore a belief. And some may say there is no
difference, but this is false. Truth is digested and critiqued,
found by the individual. While belief is easily unfounded, based
on little substance, and often external. This is the difference.

You can't force understanding of truth when you have an

expectation of what it is - you must be open to whatever result is
there when you find the answer. For example, if porn turned out
to be beneficial for someone who wants a productive life, it
would be intelligent to use it. Or if it turned out to be
unproductive, you should not, and find freedom. With this in
mind, you can use your deductive capabilities to quantify truth;
and only when you have humility and sincerity.

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So it is not productive to hate parts of your own mind, and the

system that makes up your being. Self-hatred has no benefit or
purpose. There is no invisible enemy that is out to get you every
day, to force you into bad habits. It is just your brain making the
most logical conclusions and actions based on your
understanding of what truth is.

"It was not some mysterious monster in my mind which forced

me to use porn, but it was me all along."

Freedom is not found through substitution or escape from the

environment. Freedom is found through understanding the
nature of what holds us back. Not through fighting or hating
these things. We want to fight problems more than we want to
understand them.

When you discover the truth, bad habits can disappear with little
effort through understanding. Only when the mind is still,
tranquil, not expecting or grasping or resisting a single thing, is it
possible to see what is true. It is the truth that liberates, not your
effort to be free.

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“LOVE”
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Love is an important part of your understanding, relating to

semen retention and pleasures. The understandings and
changes happen deep within the mind because addiction
(pleasure-chasing) is not a one-off thing. It is a way of living. If
your identity and ideals do not match up with your actions then
you will have a dissonance that can only be fixed by A. reverting
to pleasure-chasing or B. changing your identity, ideals, and
understandings (the self).

Using another as a means of satisfaction and security is not

love. Love is never security; love is a state in which there is no
desire to be secure; it is a state of vulnerability. Sex isn’t
fulfilling, intimacy is. Intimacy is actually an emotional need, not
just physical, even for men. Porn does not provide intimacy, it
keeps you from finding it.

When sex is natural and normal it is a game played according to

rules that you make up yourselves without giving a moment’s
thought to how others do it or how it is supposed to be done.

Fixating on the naked, sexual parts of women dulls your ability

to appreciate the beauty of their smile, or their eyes lighting up

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when they talk or laugh. After quitting porn, you will be amazed
at how beautiful real, everyday women are.

The skewed image porn creates (that society accepts) skews

the vision of what a healthy relationship looks like. It makes it
difficult for people to find meaningful partners (because they are
looking for perfection) and when they do find partners, they want
them for pleasure, not for connection. Such a shallow desire is
just another craving for pleasure.

A lot of external battles happen because your internal state is

not good. When you’re naturally internally peaceful you’re going
to pick fewer fights. You’re going to be more loving without
expecting anything in return. That will take care of things on the
external relationship front.

Love Is A Gift

Love is a gift of energy. It is you saying: I provide myself, in all

that I am to you. And you will provide all that you are to me. It is
a gift of energy and purity. If you do not believe someone
deserves this gift (in love), do not provide it.

This is the nature of love; a mutual transaction. Yet people

these days are so cheap - They partake in relationships that do
not favor them, all for the chase of pleasure and feeling and the
desire to be loved.

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If one looks for purity, instead of thinking of when the partner will
be in the bedroom, then one will experience a real love; a love
untainted by what porn has tried to replicate, but has failed in
doing. This innocence between two partners, which is
meaningful, is true beauty.

Fear of Love

Some who leave porn or who practice semen retention gain an

unhealthy view of relationships. In their attempt to leave porn,
they block out all sexual thoughts, and they numb themselves
into a weird state where they are fearing visiting social media or
they avoid women. This fear only creates disadvantages and is
not productive.

If you partake in this unhealthy view of relationships where you

fear anything sexual or intimate, your body can go, "Hey, I
guess we're just not going to have sex. We're not going to be
able to masturbate, etc". Avoidance of intimacy and love can
cause you to become more submissive and it can cause your
libido and energy to go down. This avoidance proves you want
to escape love/intimacy rather than understand it.

Instead of the toxic idea that blocking out something and fearing
it will help anything, it is more productive to build up a healthy
view of what relationships really mean, and the value of a
sincere, loving partner.

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Some also fear loss, because they see all love has an end. But
then again, all things have an end, and that is where value
originates. In relationships, cherish what you have, but do not
cling onto the past, it will lead you nowhere.

You can have sex and can still retain your energy. You just
need to keep it in moderation, depending on how much you
value the energy you keep. If it becomes the thing you look to
after the end of a 'tough day', it can fill the same role as porn
did.

Sex is the exchange of intimacy and purity between two

individuals. One who partakes in sex too often loses their purity.
This can be noticed in their demeanor, their attitude, and
everything about them.

For one that truly cares about their partner, they will likely feel
bad about taking away their purity through sexual acts.
However, if the trade is mutually beneficial, there is nothing to
worry about.

Obsession

There is also obsession. Obsession is good for creativity (when

you give it limits). But it has no place in relationships.

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Attachment builds toxicity, negativity, and tunnel vision. The big

picture is thrown out in place of a diminished view. If you want
to grow as a person, you don't want to be obsessed with
someone - or even the idea of someone - it builds negativity.
You don't have to trust me on this. You can probably imagine
many who are love-obsessed who throw out reason in the chase
of their desires.

One rule of thumb I have learned with relationships is that you

do not want to be attached by the hip to your partner if you want
positivity in your life. You want to work in parallel, providing
support for one another, but neither should be dependent on
another.

Breaking out of attachment may be difficult, but it will provide

freedom. It takes introspection and humility.

Breakups

In reaction to breakups, something in your mind may view

pornography as a way to cope. However, porn is void of love.
The beauty, purity, and benefit of a truly loving relationship are
absent. Understand love in its ways and you do not need to
cope. When a partner is lost, you can use the sexual energy to
transmute into other areas of your life, rather than wasting it on
masturbation.

It is okay to feel the pain of a partner leaving - but porn is no

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light in the dark. After going through something tough, why

punish yourself even more?

If you desire sexual release, MO (not PMO) is an option, but as

said before, transmuting kept energy has more of a benefit, and
you don't want to be wasting your energy so freely.

“Memories of love never pass. They linger, guide, and influence

long after the source of stimulation has faded. There is nothing
new in this. Every person, who has been moved by genuine
love, knows that it leaves enduring traces upon the human
heart. The effect of love endures because love is spiritual in
nature. The man who cannot be stimulated to great heights of
achievement by love is hopeless - he is dead, though he may
seem to live.”

If you believe yourself unfortunate because you have "loved and

lost," perish the thought. One who has loved truly can never
lose entirely. Love is temperamental and transitory. It comes
when it pleases and goes away without warning. Accept and
enjoy it while it remains, but spend no time worrying about its
departure. Worry will never bring it back.

Entitlement

Some people believe they are entitled to sexual release. But

entitlement is a disease.

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People feel entitled to love and pleasure because they chase

pleasure and don't love themselves.

Young men have been raised by fake partners on the internet.

Thousands of "mates" who they expect to present themselves
when they desire. A lot of us were introduced to sexual ideas,
and what we believe to be love, through pornography. The pure,
and beneficial act of two sincere partners bonding is morphed
into this lustful simplified version that we take to be what love is.

This entitlement transfers poorly into new relationships -

because all the mind wants to think about is when you will get to
sleep with your partner. However, by reframing our views on
what love is, and the value of relationships, we can find the true
value of love - beyond pleasure.

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“NEUROLOGY”
 CHAPTER 6. “Neurology”

Porn is not a disease in a personal sense. Porn is voluntary

behavior.

You may push back against this statement, however, the mind
works with benefits/negatives. You will only use porn if you see
some benefit to it, and only if it is the most attractive path at one
time.

So how do you stop seeing the benefit of porn? Well, porn

provides instant "pleasure". And if you see a benefit in instant
"pleasure" why would you not consume porn?

The thing with negative habits and negative patterns is that you
cannot just pick and choose which destructive activity you keep.
The root which you must dig to become free from one will also
free you from the others. If one chases pleasure, and they
remove porn from their life, it will just be a waiting game until
they look for it again. If one chases feeling or emotion, they will
feel entitled and will look for it again.

People crave image and they crave feelings. Craving image is

the desire to be loved, or the desire to be superior. Craving
feeling is the desire for pleasure, or the desire to take unhealthy

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risks. These things are the main roots of negative habits and
patterns in people.

To Grow:

● For one that craves love - they need to learn to love

themselves.
● For one that craves superiority - they need to have humility
and sincerity to grow, otherwise, their destructive nature will
turn

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inward.
● For one that craves pleasure - they need to understand
peace and freedom are what they are really looking for.
● For one that craves risk - they need to discover their own
value.

These things are the building blocks of the mind: What society,
what people, base their entire lives around. However, this
craving has a destructive effect on others, and themselves.

A human will normally crave, and chase for their entire life. They
will build an image of perfection, of a possible utopia, where
everything would be fine. All they need is to get what they have
wanted. However, everything you have ever desired is right
here, in the present moment. Peace is not in the future.
However, chasing pleasure, and craving these things, distracts
one from peace.

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Craving avoids one from asking important questions. It

consumes time, and it fills the mind. Yet, the reality is that if
these people who crave stopped craving, they would have to
face the fact that they have nothing else of substance in their
life. Due to this chasing, they have made no meaningful action.
And any meaningful action they may have made has been
forgotten and lost to time.

Truth hurts so the mind typically avoids it.

This is why you can't "fix" everyone; why many people will
always be consumed with bad habits and destructive activities. If
one is not aligned with truth or does not have the humility to
change, nothing will be done. They can read all of the "addiction
recovery" books on the entire planet, and they won't change.

If you do not want to waste your time: Do not force people to

change. Provide them with the door, but they must turn the key.
Do not look down on people who are content with living a
destructive life, however - otherwise, you place yourself above
others and your vision is once again blinded. Have compassion
for them.

Fear

Emotion is our evolved biology predicting the future impact of a

current event. In modern settings, it’s usually exaggerated or
false. This does not mean emotion is not useful, but it is not a
reliable source of information. Especially when emotion is all

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that you are thinking about. For example, negative thoughts

usually attach themselves to everything. If somebody is only
thinking negative thoughts, they will attach negativity to
everything. Even if the things they are looking at have not
changed, their clarity is taken away via these negative thoughts.

Fear is the destructive energy in man. It withers the mind,

distorts thought, it leads to all kinds of extraordinarily clever and
subtle theories, absurd superstitions, dogmas, and beliefs.

It is easy to say "you should not fear" or similar 'inspirational'

quotes, but this does not do much. What makes a difference is
the realization that you fear what does not yet exist, as you fear
what is in your control. Do not disregard your own ability to be
an individual through this fear.

Also, if you accidentally see someone naked, or you see porn

(by accident), it will not create a negative dopamine effect.
However, actively seeking these things does. You do not need
to be afraid of watching movies where there are sexual scenes.
Or afraid of lewd material being sent by some idiot. You can
change your environment to where you see these things rarely -
however, you do not need to fear these things. Your view
completely determines their ability to impact you.

"Everyone is failing, so how isn’t it likely that I too will fail?". This
is what is called, “The Failure Circle”. One person fails because
they may lack humility, and then those that hear of this person’s
failure get doubt and fear of failure, and thus slip up.

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Their slip-ups are reported within an online community and

others who see them get doubt and fear as well, and it goes on
and on and on. They get a false impression that it’s hard, and
thus it becomes hard.

However, when one reframes the way they look at PMO use
and no longer sabotaging themselves, then they do not need to
care for these others. To make progress, you must look out for
yourself.

One thing you may do, after finding freedom, is fear losing this
freedom. You can find comfort by realizing you can do whatever
you want with your life. You could go back to self-sabotaging
through porn. But will you? Is there any benefit to "instant
pleasures"? You do not need to fear losing freedom; you can do
whatever you want.

Habitual Pathways

Habits are everything - everything we are. We are trained in

habits from when we are children, including potty training, when
to cry and when not to, and how to smile and when not to.
These things become habits - behaviors we learn and integrate
into ourselves.

Many of our flawed beliefs and delusions are fundemental,

created through childhood, influenced by our parents and people
around us. If we do not make ourselves aware to these

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influences on our ideas, we will be a slave to the environment.

These ideas could be something like: (Interacting with people
means yelled at, therefore I will not interact with people) or
(Nothing I do is good enough, so I won't do anything) etc.

When we’re older, we’re a collection of thousands of habits

constantly running subconsciously. We have a little bit of extra
brainpower in our neocortex for solving new problems. You
become your habits.

However, you can change these habits and the way your mind
views the world, by increasing your neuroplasticity. This takes
the humility to change and to question the very things such as
your ego, your current beliefs, and life direction.

"You have to take a second to sit down, to thoroughly observe

your patterns. Do you move when you don't want to move? Do
you get angry when you don't want to get angry? You have to
fix these things about yourself, you have to give a fuck about
yourself and that makes life so much better." - Jahsey Onfroy.

When we make a conscious effort to change, these pathways

can change. But it requires a lot of humility and it requires one
to lower their ego.

The Self-Improvement Trap

"Self-improvement" is just a dressed-up form of self-conflict.

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Let's say you "self-improve" enough to where you gain your

dream form; you are productive, you no longer use porn, you
are physically strong, and you are confident. The thing is, after
all of this "self-improvement" where is your direction? Most do
not want to ask this question because they would rather be
consumed by their repeated failed attempts to "self-improve".

Saying you need to improve is also saying that there is

something wrong with you currently; you are not satisfactory.
This thought of not being good enough looms over a "self-
improver" to where they constantly feel like they are missing the
mark of their ideal self. And when they fail at improving, they
use bad habits to cope, so it cycles on and on.

The key, if you want to become a better version of yourself is to

aim to be good. Not perfect.

And even after that, you should think about what interests you
past the point of improvement. If you do not answer this
question, "improvement" will be the only thing you do.

The way I look at it; I am not "improving myself" but I am just

practicing life in a way that I find most satisfactory; a life that is
the most purposeful. While desire does not lead to peace, I still
find satisfaction in making accomplishments and finding freedom
on different levels (monetary, etc).

In any case, most people doing "self-improvement" have no idea

why they are practicing it. They want to be better. They want to

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get women. They want to be more confident. However, even

though the idea of "self-improvement" is a long-term benefit, the
result for these people is still short-term pleasures. Think about
your reasons for being interested in "self-improvement" and you
can find out many things that will likely bring clarity.

What you call self-discipline - is merely an adjustment to an

environment which we have not completely understood;
therefore, in that adjustment, there must be the denial of
intelligence. Why has one ever to discipline one's self? instead
of this avoidance, this conflict, one can understand the nature of
what they create a conflict with. And then the mind will become
free.

We Guard Our Problems

Your problems become your companions. They are your pet

rocks. You groom them and nurture them and secretly hope that
they will never leave you. For they have become part of you.
And you need them as beacons to keep you fixed to the same
path you have walked for dozens of years.

For if someone truly took away your problems, you would go

mad. You would not know how to function. You would be
shakened from your conditioned existence. You would roam
aimless in the street. Your entire life would likely fall apart.

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With nothing to guide you, with no railroad tracks to follow, the

world would explode into a sea of choices and possibilites. What
would you do then? How would you choose?

Our problems help us avoid this responsibility for direction. And

if we do not confront the endless possibilities that will arise once
we find freedom from these problems, and only hide from them,
one will be forever attached to their problems.

Once recognised, the problem of PMO becomes a direction to

work towards. Once it is overcome, you are lost in your
newfound freedom.

This is why it is of upmost importance for one to figure their

direction. If you have no use for your freedom, you might as well
not attempt to gain it.

Think on these things.

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“ENVIRONMENT”
 CHAPTER 7. “Environment”

The current environment programs the brain, but the clever

brain can choose its upcoming environment.

A human being becomes his environment. It is critical to

savagely and surgically arrange one’s environment in
accordance with where one wants to go.

Breaking addiction requires a new lifestyle. People struggle with

breaking addiction because you have to break the physical
addiction, and you also have to change your lifestyle. You have
to switch to a lifestyle where you can be happy without that
substance.

If there is a hole in your life where PMO was, then how do you
not expect to fill it? If you still crave pleasure and feeling, then
you will just fill that hole with another destructive activity. And
then what progress is made? One must change lifestyle and
perspective for this change.

Whenever there is a lack of understanding of environment there

must be conflict. Environment gives birth to conflict, and so long
as we do not understand the environment, conditions,

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surroundings, and are merely seeking substitutions for these

conditions, we are evading one conflict and meeting another.

External Influence

Addiction holds together fake relationships and fake activities. If

I drink to be social and do that enough, I’ll find myself hanging
out with people I wouldn’t spend time with otherwise. When I’m
sober, I can’t tolerate these people, the topics we discuss, or the
venues we visit. I can only do it drunk.

It can go the other way as well. Let's say hypothetically all of

your friends are linked to you by some sort of debilitating habit
("recovering" together). How do you move on from that without
being a complete loner? How can you move on from your
addiction without survivor's guilt?

This is the exact problem with "communities" based around

leaving addictions. If PMO addiction (or any for that matter) is
your common trait, then building a community around it means
either you become free or you stay with your friends. This
creates unneeded pressure. The first rule of handling conflict is
don’t hang around people who are constantly engaging in
conflict.

"No-porn" groups and "semen-retention" groups systematically

lead people to failure. Not through their purposeful action, but
just through the structure of a community itself. First, it creates

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unneeded pressure. Second, you may ask advice from people

that have no idea of what they are talking about. Third, you may
try to help people but fail because your only priority should be to
help yourself. Fourth, the community may encourage public
"streaks" and external rewards rather than internal ones. Fifth,
groups never lead to truth but consensus. Basically - except for
groups based solely around spreading the word, groups like
these will hinder and hurt your ability to become free.

Conflicting information is the birth of confusion. And many

preach messages that seem credible, that seem legitimate like
they know what they are talking about. But I assure you, in the
world that we live in, mistruths run everything. Is this "bad"? -
For the group? No. For the individual? Yes.

If you look at these groups or forums for a second, you can see
the desperation in people. They tell themselves that this time will
be different, that this time they will take control of themselves.
Yet they change nothing. They change nothing in their
understanding, and they repeat the same process. After some
time, they have broken so many promises to themselves that
they do not even trust themselves. They have no confidence.
And if they do, they are likely deluded. If you repeat, rather than
iterate (changing something each time), then you are wasting
time.

Self-development is its own bubble. You're surrounded by

positive messages. Everyone's telling everyone you're all going

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to be successful or your gurus are making posts about being

happy and blocking out those negative thoughts. But just like
any bubble, there's always a burst.

Whether orchestrated or not the self-help world can put you

under a massive illusion - the illusion of progress. It's only when
you take a second to pause and reflect that you realize nothing
has changed. Action faking is an even more lethal form of
procrastination because you're tricking yourself into thinking that
you're actually making progress.

A lot of what goes on today is what many of you are doing right
now - beating yourself up and scribbling notes and saying, “I
need to do this, and I need to do that, and I need to do…” No,
you don’t need to do anything. All you should do is what you
want to do. If you stop trying to figure out how to do things the
way other people want you to do them, you get to listen to the
little voice inside your head that wants to do things a certain
way. Then, you get to be you.

This is the very reason I specify not to read this book presuming
everything I write is true. Because if you do not critically think
about your life; your circumstances; then you can be led to
mistruths as easily as you can be led to truths. Learning is done
through the individual, not the mentor. The constant assertion of
belief is an indication of fear. So learn what is true, and belief is
not needed.

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Looking For Progress

Looking for progress is essentially looking for pleasure. It is the

pleasure of self-image, which says, “I’m in a better place now
than I was before.” This is why counting days does not work.
Why "looking for benefits" and measuring effectiveness just act
as a substitute for PMO.

Counting days is like trying to do things "one step at a time". But

the reality is, you are creating a staircase where there was not
one before. Leaving addiction is not a constant self-battle like
how people imagine. You do not fight yourself when you have
no dissonance such as wanting PMO but wanting freedom at
the same time. When the truth hits home, PMO will not even
sound good in theory.

The Degeneration of Contemporary Sexual

Dynamics

Over the following years following this book being written, the
hypersexualization of society will likely increase drastically.

Degeneracy will become more widespread, as healthy gender

roles fall apart. These destroyed dynamics will affect the next
generation, who will pay the price.

The human will become obsessed with identity, and delusion of

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reality will become the norm.

Men will become incredibly weak and feminine due to the

constant stimulus and hypersexualization (this also means those
who set themselves apart will be very powerful).

The use of AI in hypersexualization will speed these things up

also. This will likely bring gender dynamics and modern men to
a breaking point. It will affect women too, but mainly men. This
will be inevitable.

Through all of these environmental factors, be a beacon of light

for those that are neck deep in hypersexualization. Those who
harness their sexual energy will be incredibly powerful as these
societal changes happen.

The Potential of Nootropics (Extra)

Nootropics (potent supplements) have a large potential for

speeding up the dopaminergic recovery from porn use, and
other addictive activities. While they should not be depended on,
and are not necessary, for those that want to utilize them, they
can be effective. With time, the research on nootropics will
change, and more effective solutions will come out.

For continually updated info on nootropics, visit:

burgeonbook.org/nootropics

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Why are we spilling our drive freely?

That life that you're supposed to have inside of you, that drive
that you're supposed to have, to either go and get women or go
and work yourself up to be attractive and successful enough to
get women. That drive inside of you just gets diminished and
thrown into a Kleenex.

But once your survival needs are met, then what's left is the
biggest primitive need, the biggest desire, to continue the family
line. And once you get rid of that desire, your monkey brain
thinks you've achieved most of what you needed to do with your
life (on a physical level). And so, of course, you feel lethargic,
lazy, and tired.

Instead of being in this lethargic state, where your body acts like
it has achieved what it needs in life, you can create the
complete opposite state by retaining your semen, and in doing
so, retaining your sexual energy. This is called transmutation.

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Transmutation is the art of directly transferring the kept sexual

energy (from semen retention) into productive expenditures
which encourage growth. It may seem weird, but it has been
practiced in professional boxing for hundreds of years.
Transmutation is not a response to an "urge" but rather a
constant process.

You may think it is as simple as not releasing semen. However,

retaining the energy is not enough. Learn to transmute it and
convert it into success.

When I talk about energy, I am not just talking about bodily

energy, but the actual "amount of life" within you. When you
release semen, you spend some of your own energy/life in this
process and that is the tradeoff.

Sexual energy is such a hurricane of force that it needs to find

an outlet.

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It's either going to find an outlet through physical release or

through transmutation in which you lift that energy upwards and
outwards to bring to life the fruits of your labor, the desires that
are in your heart.

Also just a quick note, you may feel a little more on edge
(angry) due to different changes in your body's chemistry when
doing semen retention. Keep your composure, as anger is its
own punishment, as an angry person trying to push your head
below water is drowning at the same time.

Aura / “Life Force”

When semen retention is practiced (without still craving),

something happens where the person gains a sort of "Aura"
around them which attracts other people towards them. Some
people link this to spiritual means, some link it to bodily
changes, pheromones, or how you carry yourself. However, this
effect of a general rise in attractiveness is not a one-off.

This "seminal energy" generally creates an increased attraction

toward you. People discuss attraction from women when they
talk about this, but this affects all interactions. People may strike
up conversations with you more, and generally, people will find
you more interesting (likely also to do with dopamine).

You may notice this "Aura", or you may not, but when your
dopamine receptors heal, and through transmutation, social

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interaction will be a lot more interesting.

However, stay humble through all of this; rather than making fun
of those who were in your current position, be a person of
inspiration and interest for them, through your approach to life.

Outlets For Transmutation

There are several outlets for sexual transmutation. These are

either physical or mental. Likely the most valuable outlet for
sexual energy is creativity because it has infinite possibilities in
what you can create and express.

Transmutation does not have a how-to guide. How-tos do not

work except for extreme basics. You kind of just get a feel for it,
when you notice it. And when you do, you realize what you were
missing this whole time.

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1. Physical

The first method of transmutation is simply working out. If you

exercise you bring that energy up into your body and your
efforts will be supercharged, meaning your workouts will be
fueled with the current of your new-found energy and "your body
wanting to f*ck the world".

I try to do at least some kind of exercise every morning, first

thing in the morning and that is either lifting weights or
calisthenics and I highly encourage you to do the same. When
you do it early in the morning, your body is most "awake" and it
is also a way to enjoy the mornings.

Regular exercise also increases the health of your dopamine

receptors (D2/D3).

2. Meditation

The second method of transmutation is meditation. This is one

of the most important transmutative processes but I think it's
often easier and better to meditate after you've worked out. I've
just found it to be true that once I've had a workout and I've got
oxygen running through my brain, when I meditate I go much
deeper into that meditation; and it's almost like this deep lost
trance or this stepping into the silence, a true void and when I
emerge out of it I have all these insights and a deeper
understanding of how I should conduct myself to bring about
results and joy in my life.

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One thing I would advise is that the mindfulness you practice in

meditation should not be the end goal, but the goal should be to
have mindfulness in every moment, to the point where
meditation is no longer needed.

Meditation also supports positive dopamine production

significantly.

3. Deep Work

Transmutation effort number three is to do deep work. Deep

work is a term that was coined by Cal Newport who is a
professor at MIT in computer science and it basically means
uninterrupted study.

It's the kind of study where you don't do anything else for a
period of time and you don't take any breaks from that subject
matter that you're studying or that endeavor that you're working
towards and it's a very hard thing to do in the modern world
because we're addicted to our technology, and we're addicted to
these quick bursts of dopamine through social media or other
dopamine sinks.

Your brain consumes a lot of your energy when you study hard;
but that's an amazing transmutative practice, and an incredibly
productive one, because the more you learn, the more you will
create, earn, and discover. To make an original contribution, you
have to be irrationally obsessed with something - through

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creativity and obsession towards a goal you can create what

nobody has ever imagined. However, you do not want your
obsession to outpace you - use the determined focus like a tool.

4. Enjoying The Arts

Method number four is experiencing joy through music and

dance (Experiencing the present).

When you occasionally listen to music (just jamming out to

some uplifting stuff), while feeling the music, you can be thinking
about what you are working towards but more importantly the
process to get there. And so you just end up turning that sexual
energy into a state of tremendous joy. And when you're in a
state of joy and gratitude and playfulness, you often find that the
law of attraction starts working faster and you end up
accomplishing your goals inadvertently.

5. Social Interactions

Transmutation Method number five is to have inspired social

interactions.

After some time on semen retention, your life has so much more
weightiness and playfulness in this. And so you're just incredibly
charismatic around your friends.
So in that state of pent-up sexual energy, an incredibly fun and
productive thing you could do is to just meet up with your friends

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or meet up with a cute girl that you're into and just hang out with
them.

You'll find that you're so much weightier, you're so much more

playful, and at the same time, you're more inspiring to them as
well, as you have more sexual energy available and you have
more life within yourself. You can do even better in social
interactions when you place a high value on your attention to
what the other person is saying - they will respect it; especially if
you remember what they say.

6. Creativity & Expression

Transmutation method number 6 is having a creative output,

either through music, art, painting, poetry, filmmaking, writing,
anything creative.

You will find that when you capture your sexual energy, you can
have an incredible creative output. This can be really helpful on
the journey to create things that you truly treasure. Expression is
also a way to recover from things you do not yet understand;
turning hard-to-read thoughts into forms of art is an effective
process of recovery.

About Transmutation

There are also things like cold showers, cleaning your

environment, and thinking about the processes to achieve goals,

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which are not direct ways of transmuting energy, but they

definitely support it.

However, do not try to add tens of new routines into your day at
once and stress over missing timings. You want to slowly but
meticulously build up a framework and routine/lifestyle that
supports you and your self-growth, but you do not want your
routine to be too environment-dependent either.

It is best to build new actions or habits around simple and

accessible things such as tea before bed, food timings, morning
showers, and other consistent events.

Making what you want to do the easiest option will lead you to
do it, and if what you want to do is not currently the easiest
option, make it so by changing your immediate environment,
and better yet, understanding it. It is true some things will
always be difficult, but in those cases, staying true to your
identity and greater purpose should be the reason to do these
things.

Scott Adams famously said, “Set up systems, not goals.” Use

your judgment to figure out what kinds of environments you can
thrive in, and then create an environment around you so you’re
statistically likely to succeed.

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Energy Sinks

Some people do not want to see you succeed.

Crab mentality, also known as crab theory, is a way of thinking,

best described by the phrase: "if I can't have it, neither can you".
The analogy in human behavior is claimed to be that members
of a group will attempt to reduce the self-confidence of any
member who achieves success beyond the others, out of envy,
resentment, spite, conspiracy, or competitive feelings, to halt
their progress. Because you're rising in energy and also healing
yourself things will get electrical.

Some people in your life may be like this. They see success and
because they have not found it in themselves, they try to bring
you down to their level. What you have to realize is that clashing
with these people is a waste of time. You are just fighting
ignorance (which is a losing battle), and you are showing them
they are relevant.

Instead, for people who discourage this level of energy (some

call them "energy vampires"), we should be indifferent no matter
what they do. Acting indifferent will make them feel weaker.
Either they will cave in and ask for your help, or they will spiral
into their own negativity. In either case, you do not want to
surround yourself with these types of people.

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If a friend is not someone who encourages your self-growth, tell

them (in person) directly and unforgivingly the issues you have
with them and if they do not have the humility to change, cut
them off. Family is trickier because you can't give up on family.
But at the same time, parents or siblings can be negative
influences on you whether they realize it or not. For this, I would
say to change your immediate environment often, learn how to
deal with human nature, and learn how to influence those who
are insincere or who lack humility.

In any case, if you hurt other people because they have

expectations of you, that’s their problem. If they have an
agreement with you, it’s your problem. But, if they have an
expectation of you, that’s completely their problem. It has
nothing to do with you. They’re going to have lots of
expectations out of life. The sooner you can dash their
expectations, the better.

Having a good standard for friends will also set you up for
success in all ways. You should not befriend someone who is a
negative influence to your energy, even if you are lonely. If you
can't find such people, are you really putting yourself out there
as much as you really could to meet new and interesting
people?

Choice

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In the end, you can choose meaning in your life or you can
choose comfort.

If you do not spend the energy you receive you will likely waste
it via masturbation. One thing you need to realize is that
because MO is mentally linked to porn, you don't want to be
using it as a substitute for PMO if you waste your energy via
MO. While MO has drawbacks, energy can be regathered within
a week generally, while with porn, it takes months for the
body/mind to recover.

Some good advice is to find three hobbies: One that makes you
money, one that keeps you fit, and one that makes you
creative/helps expression.

If you masturbate or have sex too often it will negatively impact

your body and energy levels. Instead of wasting your energy,
look for the value within sexual energy, and it can be
transmuted into things you find meaningful - this is how you can
propel and find movement in your life.

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Before you can fully understand what it means to choose, you

have to know how to decline. Most of our inefficiencies come
from what we do rather than what we don't do.

You are worthy of freedom.

Freedom is not avoidance of what you don't like. Freedom is

instead, having clarity - and you are worthy of having this
freedom. In fact, nobody isn't worthy of this. We have been
brought up, by family, or influences, to believe we are not
worthy of freedom. That we do not deserve it. However, if you
do not deserve it, who does? The reality is, nobody doesn’t
deserve freedom.

Night Emissions

Another thing you may notice is you may start to have wet
dreams. For those who do not know, they are basically dreams
(often nonsensical) of a sexual nature, that naturally occur when
not involved in sexual activites. They exist to clear your body out
of dead sperm, to increase your fertility. The part about these
dreams people find annoying however, is that the dreams they
have bring back emotions that they used to have as a user.

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The thing is, you should not have a negative outlook on these
wet dreams. Previously, you were lowering your fertility rate
through self-destruction; wet dreams are just a result of natural
hormone activity. You should not build up a negative view on
these dreams, and you should not look forward for them either
(as it just acts as a substitute). Instead, when you have these
dreams, understand them to be neutral. If you do not like the
dream, you have the freedom within it to change what is going
on (this might be on the edge of lucid dreaming).

Boredom

When a user becomes free, they will have more time available,
in terms of amount of time, and dedication towards that time.

There is a beauty in rediscovering what you used to enjoy.

Finding happiness out of small small moments or small
achievements.

And when one is bored it is the birth of creativity - the birth of

change. In times of boredom, you may think back to PMO use,
because the idea of it in your mind outweighed the idea of
meaningful action in the present. Finding the meaning and
beauty out of this time with yourself means a lot.

Substitution

In substitution there is no understanding. If you look closely you

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will see that substitution is nothing but a search for comfort and
security and escape; not a search for understanding, not a
search for truth, but rather a search for an evasion.

In subsitution there is a lack of understanding - or at least in the

sense that you believe PMO needs replacing in some form. This
subsitution can happen without notice too - if one tries to
replace the instant bodily pleasure porn provides with things
such as meaningful work, or productivity, then it will not
compare dopamine-wise. The key is that these things should not
be a direct replacements, but rather a use of newfound energy.

Reminders

One may feel inclined to fear reminders of hypersexualization.

However, your frame of mind completely dictates whether
reminders have any affect on you. You want to minimize
hypersexualization from your environment - but you also don't
want to run from it. Because that is escape, and escape infers
lack of understanding.

For things like tiktok, instagram, forum boards, discord, etc, it

should be highly considered to restrict or remove these social
medias from our life. If a service's algorithm uses lewd content
as a feature to get watchers stuck in a cycle (no matter the age)
then it is a toxic platform.

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Questions

If you are curious about how long it will take for your dopamine
system to heal, and if you consciously wait for "effects" you will
either increase anticipation or anxiety. Do not bother with this
worry and questioning.

The immediate, acute "benefit" is the weight off of your

shoulders.

And this freedom can be found, in the present, not in the past or
the future. Freedom is found in the present moment.

Clarity is not seeing clearly, but realizing you are looking through
fog.

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Something I wanted to write about; if you fail to transmute, your

sexual energy builds up and you will almost be forced to
phyiscally release, otherwise it could actually be unproductive.
The key with this is to understand that you have not failed
anything. The delusion that you can be without beating your
meat or having sex ever again is delusional. The point of
everything here is for someone who wants to be productive and
who wants clarity - so if too much sexual energy builds up to
where it is unproductive, it is alright to masturbate without porn.
After this however, your energy levels will be lower. So take an
overview of your different methods of transmutation and see if
you are doing enough. Transmutation is a constant process -
and it is much more valuable than you think.

The Individuality of Truth

When we create new understandings, some part of us wants to

immediately spread this message, this understanding, directly to
others. The reality is that you cannot make someone directly
understand something. You can make them believe something,
but then it denies their own intelligence and their own
processing abilities, and it will be a waste of time. The questions
needed are the ones not asked. And these questions only arise

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when a person can freely discover something - truly finding what

is true by not having a desire for a certain outcome, but by
finding things through clarity.

You can't help people while drowning. A lot of people who find
freedom from destructive activies want to help others too,
however, this is a way they avoid themselves. It is a method of
procrastination, a delay of the painful realisation that you were
wrong about ideas you held on to. It is an escape from the self.
If you want to help others, you should focus on yourself. While it
sounds counterintuative, if you think on this you will see its
legitimacy.

Revelation is the result of internal revolution. And this is only

possible through humility - and most block out this humility in
fear that they are wrong. We are social creatures, and we want
to be correct and relevant for others and ourselves. When we
find out we may be wrong, our default selves would defend an
untruth rather than find what is true, due to the pain of realizing
something you believe is not true. You can see this through
people that believe in certain things. Maybe way of life, religion,
lifestyle, etc. Without humility, you can end up anywhere. For
one who wants to advance and make actual progress without
staying in the same place, they must be ready for internal
revolution.

The reason I have mentioned many times within this material

that you must these understandings for yourself is

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because otherwise, you could believe in false ideas as easily as

you could believe in truth. I do not want to take your freedom
away from you - and the reality is that most self-improvement
ideas are around restriction. The free mind is free of restriction -
but it understands what is beneficial and does that with a fire-
fueled focus. This understanding is a result of humility.

Most people have a natural tendency to romanticize the past - to

remember the good things they experienced and forget about
the bad things. Just think about how people sometimes recount
the "glory days" of their youth, or how older adults may
sometimes comment that things were better "in their day." In
psychological terms, this is known as memory bias, and a
person may be more likely to exhibit it when their present life
circumstances are difficult or unfavorable. Just because you
may be going through tough situations, breakups, or whatever it
may be, porn is no saving grace. In fact, it will make it harder to
deal with these situations.

A part of your brain, the basal ganglia, is your autopilot. It does

things without you thinking about it, like navigating routes you
frequently walk or drive. If porn usage is a daily activity for you,
you may automatically prepare yourself to use porn without
consciously noticing. It can become so engrained that it almost
feels natural - even though it is completely the opposite. The
solution for this is to change your environment to where it is not
a thing you would do or prepare automatically. Give your mind
space where you previously filled boredom with porn, by
changing your immediate environment.

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Now we are at the end of the book. I could get you to make
some promise to yourself. To practice some affirmation. To talk
out loud or something. However, I will not do this. I will not even
direct you to stop watching porn - or to transmute your energy
through semen retention. The freedom you have is that you can
do whatever you want to do . You can live a life chasing instant
pleasures or you can live a meaningful and sincere one.

When deep understandings are made, changes happen almost

automatically. The focus now should be on meaningful action.

There’s no single permanent solution to happiness. Rather,

achieving happiness requires a process of understanding and
self-discovery. It is a process of training yourself to see certain
truths.

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Ending Note

Many of you may be thankful for this book. You may want to
show appreciation, but you have done everything for yourself. If
you want to do something positive, purchase a physical copy for
a friend you think may benefit from it, and give opportunity to
those who you see in a bad place. Thank you for reading! <3

By the way, please do not call this book a "guide" or "method"

when talking about it, because that infers I am directing you to
do or be something. I designed this for one to find freedom
within themselves - which is the only way. With that said, I love
and respect every one of you that reads this book. Peace!

Burgeon meaning: to Grow.

Designed 2021-2023

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 EXTRA: Studies

Extra: Studies
1) “Dopamine promotes cognitive effort by biasing the benefits
versus costs of cognitive work”: PMID32193325

2) “Pornography consumption frequency in the past year was

significantly associated with self-objectification and body
comparison”: PMID33582530

3) “Mean differences suggested that [gay/bisexual] men and

women tend to report more [porn use] than heterosexual
men and women”: PMID35753890

4) “According to the results of the present study, Present

Hedonistic Time Perspective was moderately and positively
related to hypersexuality and [porn use] consistently in both
samples, and these associations were the strongest in both
samples”: PMID36081467

5) “Higher testosterone concentrations were observed following

the period of abstinence...this e€ffect is potentially mediated
by dopaminergic systems”: PMID11760788

6) “We found a significant negative association between

reported pornography hours per week and gray matter
volume in the right caudate”: PMID24871202

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Extra: “A Glimpse Of Death Opens A Man’s Eyes”

● This is an excerpt from Kapil Gupta MD.

The wisdom behind the creation of human life omitted a

very important element: DEATH.

Day-to-day existence is too accommodating. Too

comfortable. It lulls us into complacency. We become too
much at ease with our life. Too accustomed to our
surroundings. Too much a part of the fabric.

We are here for only a short time. But we live sprawled

across the scaffolding of our lives as if we are going to be
here forever. And because we feel this way, we have no
appreciation for life. NONE. Everything is so easy to take for
Granted.

The human being, by virtue of his most prevalent mental

state, is a creature of the 12th hour. Because he forever lives
within 11:59, he rarely feels the urgency of 12:00.

But occasionally something shakes him. A sudden death. A

calamity of some sort brings things into sudden perspective.
He is shaken from his complacency and he is forced to
confront the moment. But eventually, the drama of the event
fades, and so does he, back into his well-worn existence.

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Because we become so seduced by inertia, few of us ever

really LIVE.

Every human being would be blessed to experience a near-

death experience every six months. This would keep him on
the edge.

Feeling close to death makes one IMMEDIATELY feel

close to life. The inertia suddenly disappears and the human
being breathes for the first time in years. He sees the greenery
of the grass and the hardness of the floor and the slow and
gentle movement of the clouds. He discovers that he is alive
after all. He discovers that before he is ANYTHING ELSE, he
is FIRST AND FOREMOST a living organism. A piece of
Life.

Coasting through life without anything to shake us from our

reverie is a curse. We proceed through our daily existence as
programmed zombies, bound by habit, and enslaved to
Emotion.

Imagine with all your heart, for the next five minutes, that
you were going to die at 11pm tomorrow night. That these
would be the last twenty four hours of your life.

Try it.

What do you immediately discard as ridiculous luxuries of

the zombified life? What do you immediately cherish? How
does your existence change?

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It is only under the prospect of death that we begin to live.

An abundance of life blinds us to its gift. It is too much in
supply. And, thus, we cherish it not.

The vast majority of us human beings are DEAD.

It takes nothing less than the power of death to compel us to

live.

Extra: On Awareness

● This is an excerpt from J. Krishnamurti.

QUESTIONER : Will you please give an example of the practical

exercise of constant awareness and choice in everyday life?

KRISHNAMURTI : Would you ask that question if there were a

poisonous snake in your room? Then you wouldn’t ask, “How
am I to keep awake? How am I to be intensely aware?” You ask
that question only when you are not sure that there is
a poisonous snake in your room.

Either you are wholly unconscious of it, or you

want to play with that snake, you want to enjoy its pain and its
delights. Please follow this. There cannot be awareness, that
alertness of mind and emotion, so long as mind is still caught up
in both pain and pleasure.

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That is, when an experience gives you pain and at the same
time gives you pleasure, you do nothing about it. You act only
when the pain is greater than the pleasure, but if the pleasure is
greater, you do nothing at all about it, because there is no acute
Conflict.

It is only when pain overbalances pleasure, is more acute than

pleasure, that you demand an action. Most people wait for the
increase of pain before they act, and during this waiting period
they want to know how to be aware. No one can tell them. They
are waiting for the increase of pain before they act; that is, they
wait for pain through its compulsion to force them to act, and in
that compulsion there is no intelligence.

It is merely environment which forces them to act in a particular

way, not intelligence. Therefore when a mind is caught up in this
stagnation, in this lack of tenseness, there will naturally be more
pain, more conflict.

By the look of things political, war may break out again. It may
break out in two years, in five years, in ten years. An intelligent
man can see this and intelligently act. But the man who is
stagnating, who is waiting for pain to force him to action, looks
to greater chaos, greater suffering to give him impetus to act
and hence, his intelligence is not functioning. There is
awareness only when the mind and heart are taut, are in great
tenseness.

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Extra: On Discipline

● This is an excerpt from J. Krishnamurti.

QUESTIONER : What is the difference between self-discipline

and suppression?

KRISHNAMURTI : I don’t think there is much difference between

the two because both deny intelligence. Suppression is the
gross form of the subtler self-discipline, which is also repression;
that is, both suppression as well as self-discipline are mere
adjustments to environment. One is the gross form of
adjustment, which is suppression, and the other, self-discipline,
is the subtle form. Both are based on fear: suppression, on an
obvious fear; the other, self-discipline, on fear born of loss, or on
fear which expresses itself through gain.

Self-discipline—what you call self-discipline—is merely an

adjustment to an environment which we have not completely
understood; therefore, in that adjustment there must be the
denial of intelligence. Why has one ever to discipline one’s self?
Why does one discipline, force one’s self to mold after a
particular pattern? Why do so many people belong to the
various schools of disciplines, supposed to lead to spirituality, to
greater understanding, greater unfoldment of thought? You will
see that the more you discipline the mind, train
the mind, the greater its limitations.

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Please, one has to think this over carefully and with delicate
perception and not get confused by introducing other issues.

Here I am using the word self-discipline as in the question, that

is, disciplining one’s self after a certain pattern, preconceived or
preestablished and, therefore, with the desire to attain, to gain,
whereas to me the very process of discipline, this continual
twisting of mind to a particular preestablished pattern, must
eventually cripple the mind.

The mind, which is really intelligent, is free of self-discipline, for

intelligence is born out of the questioning of environment and
the discovery of the true significance of environment. In that
discovery is true adjustment, not the adjustment to a particular
pattern or condition, but the adjustment through understanding,
which is, therefore, free of the particular condition.

Take a primitive man; what does he do? In him there is no

discipline, no control, no suppression. He does what he desires
to do, this primitive. The intelligent man also does what he
desires, but with intelligence. Intelligence is not born out of self-
discipline or suppression. In the one instance it is wholly the
pursuit of desire, the primitive man pursuing the object he
desires. In the other instance, the intelligent man sees the
significance of desire and sees the conflict; the primitive man
does not, he pursues anything he desires and creates suffering
and pain. So to me self-discipline and suppression are both alike
—they both deny intelligence.

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Please experiment with what I have said about discipline, self-

discipline. Don’t reject it, don’t say you must have self-discipline,
because there will be chaos in the world—as if there were not
already chaos; and again, don’t merely accept what I say,
agreeing that it is true. I am telling you something with which
I have experimented and which I have found to be true.
Psychologically I think it is true, because self-discipline implies a
mind that is tethered to a particular thought or belief or ideal, a
mind that is held by a condition; and as an animal that is
tethered to a post can only wander within the distance of its
rope, so does the mind which is tethered to a belief, which is
perverted through self-discipline, wander only within the
limitation of that condition.

Therefore, such a mind is not mind at all, it is incapable of

thought. It may be capable of adjustment between the limitations
of the post and the farthest point of its reach; but such a mind,
such a heart cannot really think and feel. The mind and the
heart are disciplined, crippled, perverted, through denying
thought, denying affection. So you must observe, become aware
how your own thought, how your own feelings are functioning,
without wanting to guide them in any particular direction. First of
all, before you guide them, find out how they are functioning.
Before you try to change and alter thought and feeling, find out
the manner of their working, and you will see that they are
continually adjusting themselves within the limitations
established by that point fixed by desire and the fulfillment of
that desire. In awareness there is no discipline.

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Extra: Brute Strat

This is an additional section that exists for those who have
changed their developmentary brain structure due to usage.

For most people, they can gain the understandings they need
from just burgeon alone, which is great. Some people also
require intervention in this sort with LDN/Neboglamine
(nootropics) to aid in repair. Either are great, and neither have
downsides.

This strat uses the combination of nootropic compounds with

burgeon to heal the brain from damage.

Both LDN and Neboglamine (nootropic/supplementary

compounds) are safe, well tolerated, and have passed clinical
trials. They are compounds that modulate the brain and body to
change the dichotomy of control within a human.

For how the two work, LDN (Low-Dose Naltrexone) works by

blocking the opiod receptors in the body while increasing
endogenous production. Neboglamine works through NMDA
(Not to be confused with MDMA lol) Glycine Site Modulation,
and it has been shown in studies to have anti-hedonistic effects.

P.S - An updated version of this section can be found at:

burgeonbook.org/brute

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● For this strat, you will need to purchase 2 compounds,

named LDN (Low Dose Naltrexone) and Neboglamine.
Doseage must be started simultaneously, regardless if one
arrives first.

● This method costs ~90-140$. If you do not have this money,

don't complain. If you care enough, sell something you don't
need. Cut somebodies lawn. Work online. If you want
freedom bad enough, you will find some money. If worst
comes to worst, and you cannot get this whole sum, just
LDN alone can do, but both is highly preferable.

● Purchase 1.5g Neboglamine and purchase 10x50mg

Naltrexone (or 5x 1x50mg capsules). Do this only if you can
buy both at the same time. ALSO buy a pippette if you do
not have one (one that measures >10ml). Sources for
Neboglamine: everychem, Sources for LDN:
cosmicnootropic, agelessrx. Updated sources are on
burgeonbook.org/brute.

● While these items are on their way, have patience.

● Once they both arrive, distill one Naltrexone capsule into

50ml of water. This is enough for 10 doses (5ml/dose), and
repeat this process when you run out of liquid.

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● Once they both arrive, distill one Naltrexone capsule into

50ml of water. This is enough for 10 doses (5ml/dose), and
repeat this process when you run out of liquid.

● Now once you have both available, put 5ml (5mg)

Naltrexone into a water-filled glass and put 2-3 overfilled
heaping scoops of Neboglamine using the provided scoop
(which is ~50mg) into the glass also.

● The Neboglamine won't dissolve, so fill (and drink from) the

glass a few extra times to get rid of all the powder.

● Do this exact routine once a day until the Neboglamine runs

out. After the Neboglamine runs out, continue with LDN
(Naltrexone).

● Now this is where things get unorthidox. Exactly 2 hours

after dosing Naltrexone and Neboglamine for the first time,
you should have a 3 consecutive porn sessions.

● Now when you have these sessions, watch everything that

previously attracted you. Force yourself to go through with
this process.

● After you do this (grueling, I know) process of 3 consecutive

porn sessions, read/re-read the entire book of burgeon in
one go.

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● Reading the book should take under 2 hours max. Once you
have read the book, return to this page and continue. This is
an important step because then you can leave and
understand the process.

● When these steps are completed, continue dosing

Neboglamine and LDN until they run out. You may feel like
you don't need them anymore, but trust the process, keep
taking them until the supply ends.

This is the brute strat, using assistance of Neboglamine and

LDN to change brain chemistry to assist in recovery.

If you are reading this after finishing the book without these
things, don’t worry about needing to do this, this is for a minority
of people who need such intervention to find freedom.

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