14-07-2023

Aaj se mene likhna shru kiya h soch to bhut time se rahi thi pr aaj hua he kuch asa
ki lga ki nhe aaj se hie likh leti hun kun ki ab bardast nhe hota h .mene
abhe tk ki life m ek bhe asa insaan nhe kmaya jis dil khol ke sab btta dun jis ke
aage roo lun jo mujhe smjhe smjhaze nhe afsos h mujhe iss baat ka ki iss janam me
to mujhe koi toot ke pyar krne wala nhe mila log mujhe hansta dekh kr sochte h ki m
apni life m bhut khus hu sb bhdiza h meri kismat bhut achhi h
lkin unhe ze nhe ptta ki mene mrne wale dino ko bhe hans ke kaata h kai baar khzal
aaza ki khud ko khtm kr lun sach manao bda muskil hoota h jb aap ander se toot gze
ho aur ander he ander ro rahe ho lkin sbke aage hans rhe ho. kabhe lgta h kza galt
kaam hue honge jo asi saja mil rahi h mujhe jise na maa ,na baap,na ptti pyar kre
ptta nhe kya hoga

tuesday ko sallery aa gai thi meri ptti ki aaj fridaz ho gya h roz bheek ki
trah paisen mang rhi hun lkin abhe tk nhe mile h mango to gussa ho jata h ki time
nhe h dalne ka aaj pure din se 4 baari call kiya pr rplz nhe diya aur phir achank
ghr aa jata h jldi mujhe badi khusi hui lkin baad m ptta chla aur dhuk bhe hua ki
vo mere lize nhe apna cricket match khelne ke liye jldi aaya h usse ptta h m gussa
ho rhe ho roo bhe rhi hun uske jaane pr lkin phir bhr chla gya
usske paas mujhe dene ke liye bilkul time nhe h hum kabhe bhe beith kr kr baat krte
hie nhe h kun ki vo apne kaam m busy rahta h jb raat m ghr aata h to ph pr lambi
lambi baaten krta h aur jb bed pr jate h to ph m video dekhne lgta h ya movie mujhe
bda dukh hotta h lkin mene iss bat pr ladai kr kr bhe dekh liza ki mujhe time do
naraz hoke bhe dekh liya usse koi mtlb nhe h mujh se matlb tab hoga jb sex krna h
tb jbrdeti krne lge ga mujhe bda gussa aata h lkin kr bhe kya skte h m apne ptti
se na fincial na phzcialz,na he mately khus ho lkin phir bhe chl rhi hun kabhe
sochti hun ki kitni badnseeb hun m aur mer bahne kitni khusnseeb h pr mujhe un se
bilkul bhe jalen nhe hoti bus apne liye dukh hotta h kabhe jb m ghr jati hu jb
kabhe kuch asa hota h ki hum sb aaye h to papa meri bahno ko gale lgate h pyar krte
h unhe mere samne kai baar ph bhe krte h to mujhe dukh hota h ki m puri life m abhe
tk apne maa aur baap ke gale nhe lgi vo ahsaas shayad iss janam m mujhe nhe mil
paye ga lkin phir bhe mere mn m unke liye kabhe bhe pyar km nhe hoga m mujhe achha
lgta h jb vo mujhe kaam m yaad krte h iss bahane unka call to aata h m bhe khen na
khen important hune soch kr he khus ho leti hu jb m apni saas ko dekhti hun ki vo
kese apni betizon ko ph kr ke bulati h ki aao chttiyon m pr mere ghr se call nhe
aati kabhe bhe isly mene jana chod diya h ab mere ghr walon ko lgta h ki mujhe
kitne ache saas sasu mile h pr unhe ze nhe ptta ki mene kza kza beizedti brdas ki h
kitni gaaliyan khai h ek m akkeli pd jati thi pr unhe kabhe nhe btaya meri bahno ko
lgta h shailendra achha husband h lkin unhe mene nhe btaya ki ussne mujhe 3 baar
dusri aurton ke liye mujhe dhoka diya h kabhe kabhe to ek month ek week tk mujhe
se baat bhe nhe ki h mene bhut baar iss ghr m khud ko bhut akela mahsoos kiya h bus
galti ye hui mujhe se ki mene babz plane bhut jldi kiya agr parth na hota to ya m
mr jati ya chli jaati.ptta nhe bda hoke vo smjhe ga ya nhe .me sab ke liye dil se
krti hu koi mujhe 10 guna kr ke dy to mera mn uske liye 100 krne ko kre lkin koi
krta he nhe h mere liye jb mere pass paisen hote thz za m jb tustion se kmaati thi
to pura dil se ghr m lga deti thi bilkul bhe dukh nhe hotta tha khusi milti thi
krne m ptti jb bhe mangta to de deti aur vo khta m tumhe de dunga lkin aaj tk liye
hue paisen nhe diye aur apna ek rs nhe chodta mere pass ek bar to monthly jo khrcha
vo mujhe deta tha uss me se 300 rs kaat liye kun ki thode din pehle mene 300 rs
liye thz ab kza bolun bda dukh hua ki 300 r.s mujhe extra nhe de skta aaj meri
haalat khrab h paisen nhe h isly ze din dekhna pd raha h