WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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Prologue
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NARRATED
When kids grow up they become curious and start asking
questions, some are just silly questions but some are serious
but then they are just kids you can tell them anything and
they will believe it, right?. But as they grow older the
curiousity is replaced by concern that is where you should
decide as a parent to be honest with them because if they
find out the truth by themselves they might never trust you
again.
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Ziyanda had promised herself that when her twins and
Langa turn ten years of age she will tell them the truth about
their paternity but she struggled to do it as she didn't know
if she should tell the whole truth or she leave out some of it
and she have been dragging for too long that now her
children have gone past the stage of curiousity and they are
now concerned.
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The Lukhele family discovered that One of the twins,
Nkanyezi wasn't just taking time to be able to talk,but he
became deaf and couldn't speak, they were devastated and
Ntsika didn't want to be seperated from his brother so they
both got enrolled in school for the deaf.
Ntsika actually lives for his brother and they are both now in
Grade 1
2, Yes school for the deaf has Grade 12.
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Nkanyezi woke up sweating and Ntsika sits infront of him,
they communicate by lip reading or sign language.
Ntsika: Had another bad dream?
Nkanyezi nods and start signing"A man came in my dream
and told me he is cold and he needs us to help him find a way
home"
Ntsika sighs his brother have been having these weird
dreams and it's weighing him down, they haven't talked to
their mom and dad about it.
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This is a journey of three brothers with one voice.
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Zee

WE ARE ONE(I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
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It's the first term holidays and we are going home to visit its
been three months since we last saw them, we have been
busy with school work so we staying in school.
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I'm watching my brother as he jerks up and down, this has
been going on for a while now and we haven't told anyone,I
guess we thought they will go away but seems like they are
becoming worse, he wakes up everyday looking like a
zombie, I feel his pain we are brothers we shared the same
womb.
*
I shake him lightly, he jumps up.
Me: "We should tell mom about this Nkanyezi it looks
serious."
Nkanyezi: "You think she will listen to us , she always
dismiss us when we tell her something or ask questions."
Me: I know, maybe dad can make her listen to us.
Nkanyezi: "Yes we can ask dad, are your eyes giving you a
problem today they are bloodshot red"
Me: Yeah but I will be fine, come on get up, we need to fetch
Langa at his school he said he is going home too, Qhayiya is
already there.
*
We get home, after fetching Langa who has been awfully
quiet all the way from school.
I park the car that dad bought for us to drive my brothers to
and from school.
We get in and mom and dad are happy to see us they hug us
but Langa just stand there looking at mom.
Ziyanda: Langa aren't you gonna greet us baby?
He hugs mom and dad then walk away to his room, I follow
him.
Me: What's up bro why are you so cold towards the parents
and you've been quiet.
Langa: It's just school nothing much.
Me: You know we are concerned as well but don't be this
cold, let's go to mom and dad that's what we came here to
do.
They go back to the lounge and find their mom, dad and
Nkanyezi already seated they both sit down.
Me: Pink, Nkanyezi have been having bad dreams for a while
now, he dreams of a man that want us to take him home
because he is feeling cold, and the man looks like the three of
us, do you perhaps have any idea what that means mom and
who that man could be?
Ziyanda and Luyolo look at each other, we stare at them
especting an answer and honest one this time.
Ziyanda: Uhm I..don't know maybe it's just a dream.
Me: You can't lie to us anymore pink we are old, this is not
just a dream, I live with Nkanyezi I see how this affects him,
sometimes he wakes up from these dreams and can't even
use his hands for communication and you think it's just a
dream?
Luyolo: Calm down son, don't talk to mom like that.
Me: No dad Pink needs to tell us, we all can see that Langa is
coloured but when we asked her about this she got upset,
this affects us because recently someone told Langa he looks
like his father but we all know we look nothing like you , tell
us what is going on.
Dad look at mom who has teary eyes now , she always does
this when we ask her something and she just cry.
Luyolo: Ziyanda..
Mom shakes her head and stands up but before she walks
away I talk.
Me: Stop running away everytime we raise our concerns
mom, we just want the honest truth please, my brother is
suffering tell us something.
She turns and look at us.
Ziyanda: I don't know what you guys want me to tell you,
dreams are normal Ntsika and people look alike out there its
not a big deal.
Me: Not a big deal you say? Did you not hear me when I said
those dreams disable Nkanyezi and if that happens we don't
go to school because he looses the ability to use his hands, do
you get that?
Ziyanda: Don't raise your voice at me Ntsika I'm your
mother.
Me: Then act like it, seems like you don't care what happens
to us.
Ziyanda: How can you say that, I have been living for you
guys since you were born, the sacrifices I made in the past
are the reason why we are all here today...you..
Me: I understand that, but right now what you can help us
with is the truth pink please, anything that can help
Nkanyezi.
Ziyanda: I..will talk to your grandfather about this.
Me: Or we can just find out the truth on our own, we already
have a lead anyway, the woman who told Langa he looks like
his dad might know something, "let's go guys".
My brothers stand up and we walk away.
Ziyanda: Ntsika!! Don't go!
We leave mom shouting at us not to go but we get in our car
and I drive away, we will be staying with Langa for the rest
of these holidays.
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NARRATED
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A 15 year old Iyana is standing by the school gate waiting for
her transport to pick her up, she notice a black car on the
side of the road she has noticed it for the past few days, she
hasn't seen anyone getting in or out of it.
But today a guy come out of the car and walk straight to her.
Guy: Hey I'm Mvelo i've been seeing you around you are
beautiful.
Iyana blushes looking down.
Iyana: I am Iyana.
Mvelo: Nice name, can we be friends I like you.
Iyana: But you look older than me.
Mvelo: That doesn't stop people from being friends, mind
giving me your numbers.
Iyana: Sure, that's my ride.
She quickly takes his phone from his hands and dial her
numbers then rush off to the car.
Mvelo puts on his shades and go back to his car looking at
the numbers.
He calls his mom and she answers.
Mvelo: I got the princess, this is going to be so easy.
He chuckles.
HisMom: That's great, you're doing good, keep her close ok
until our plan is done.
Mvelo: ofcause, I know what to do.
He drops the call.
*
Meanwhile Ziyanda and Luyolo are arguing.
Luyolo: How long are you going to hide this from them
Ziyanda, they are not kids anymore they will find the truth
one way or the other.
Ziyanda: What should I tell them Luyolo? Huh that I got their
father and his twin brother killed? That you're not their
father?
Luyolo: Start there Ziyanda, tell them, they are already
suspecting it anyway, and if you continue hiding things from
them we will lose them Ziyanda, even now they left.
Ziyanda: They are going to hate me, I can't tell them.
Luyolo: Then they will hate you when they find out you've
been hiding this from them while they asked you countless
times about it.
Ziyanda: I know that.
Luyolo: If you don't do it ,I will tell them myself Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: Then it will be the end of us Luyolo.
He looks at Ziyanda shocked.
Luyolo: Are you threatning to leave me?
Ziyanda: Yes! If I lose my kids then you will lose me as well.
Luyolo sighs looking down, Ziyanda is hell bent on hiding the
boys's identity but for how long will things stay hidden? This
is doing more harm than good.

WE ARE ONE(I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
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We have just woken up and Langa is ordering breakfast for
us but Nkanyezi isn't up yet.
Me: Do you think we should wake him up?
Langa: maybe we should just let him rest, he had a long night
and those dreams he had looked scary, did you see his face
man.
Me: Yeah but it's up to us to find a watly to help him, mom
doesn't care about this clearly.
We start eating and I decide to go wake Nkanyezi up so he
could eat. He shakes him a couple of time but he doesn't
respond.
Me: Langa!!Hey Langa, he is not waking up.
Langa rushes to him and try waking him up.
Langa: Check his pulse bro.
He said rushing to get water and starts splashing him but she
doesn't respond, he tries CPR.
Me: His pulse is faint lets get him to the car and take him to
the hospital,check his medical aid card HURRY! Langa.
He takes the card and we carry him outside the landlord try
talking to us but we ignore him and drive to the hospital, I
keep rubning my eyes I forgot to put on my glasses and
Langa don't drive.
Langa: I'm calling mom.
Me: Do you think she cares,this is her fault and if something
happens to him I will never forgive her.
Langa: nothing will happen to him, please drive carefully
Ntsika.
Me: I'm doing my best man.
*
He is taken in the ER and the doctor is inside with him, we
are 17 so we are considered as minors we can't sign his form
of admission at the hospital.
Langa: Let's call atleast Uncle Kwanele.
Me: Sure do that.
He calls and put the phone on speaker and tell him we are at
the hospital and that Nkanyezi is the one admitted.
He says he is on his way.
I see him rushing in with Auntie Sunny and Mom and dad are
with them I guess they told them.
Ziyanda: Why didn't you call me Langa, Ntsika, why didn't
you tell me Nkanyezi is admitted.
Me: we didn't think you would care.
Ziyanda : What! Ntsika what do you mean, he is my son.
Me: You are the reason he is in there mom , we told that
those dream disable him but you chose to do what you do
best when we ask you something you cry or lie.
She slap me and Dad pull her away from me.
Dad: What are you doing Ziyanda? Why are you slapping him
is he lying huh, is he?
He shouts at her.
Ziyanda: Don't fuck with me Luyolo, they are my kids and I
will do what I see fit to them, you don't tell me what to do.
Me: Yeah even killing us, Pink my brother is in there for
god's sake just talk stop being selfish.
Ziyanda: I can't believe Misokuhle is doing this to me even...
Me: Who is Misokuhle?
Ziyanda: No one important..
Me:Ok, you should go sign the admission forms there, they
didn't allow us to sign.
I say walking away from them and sit outside to call Ezile my
girlfriend, we met on the holiday weekend with my family in
Johannesburg and she was in the same hotel with her family
and I asked for her numbers and asked her out. it's a long
distance relationship and it's my first one ever, we call each
other everyday.
Me: Hey.
Ezile: Ntsika,are you ok.
Me: No, my brother is admitted to the hospital ,I don't feel
too good.
Ezile: Which brother is it your twin brother.
Me: Yes we found him unconcious in bed.
Ezile: I'm sorry Ntsika, he will be fine.
Me: I really hope so, look we will talk later , I have to check
how he is doing.
Ezile: ok, be good ok.
Me: Ok bye.
I drop the call and walk back in, my mother rushes to me and
hug me.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry for all this I promise I will
fix it.
Me: You will?
Ziyanda: I will you guys are my life and I don't want to lose
any of you.
*
The doctors come out of the room finally and inform us that
he is now breathing normally and he had a shortage of
breath, nothing more.
I know its more than that though.
We all go home to my mothers house and Grandpa a retired
old man who look so good but is really gaining more pounds
by the day.
We greet him and sit down.
Ziyanda: I called dad so he can do a ceremony for you guys at
home.
Me:by us you mean who?
Ziyanda: You and Nkanyezi.
Me: And why just us? What about Langa or Iyana?
Ziyanda: uhm I..because you guys are twins, Ntsika stop
questioning me ok.
Grandpa: A ceremony for the twins at home?
He looks confused.
Grandpa:but you once said Misokuhle did ...
Ziyanda: Dad please..
Me: Who is this Misokuhle, it's the second time hearing that
name today.
Ziyanda: Please dad just do this for them.
Oh there she goes dismissing me again.
*
We go back to mom's hometown and we buy two goats and
go to the house.
Grandpa: We will do this tomorrow morning.
We all go to our seperate room, this house is huge mom and
Uncle Kwanele and Mandi renovated it a year ago.
We wake up it's early grandpa tell us to go fetch the goat but
when we get there they are both dead.
We go tell the elders.
Me: we found the goats dead outside Grandpa.
Ziyanda: What!No. Uhm I can drive to town right now and
get another two goats.
Luyolo: Stop forcing what you know is wrong Ziyanda.
She takes the car keys and rush out and drive off.
We sit there and I go to Nkanyezi in the room.
Me: "how are you feeling".
Nkanyezi: " it hurts, that dream felt real I was surrounded by
men with guns this time and the two guys were crying for
help, I felt their pain".
Me: "I'm sorry I wish atleast I was the one in your place
atleast instead of you".
Nkanyezi: "It's okay brother, I know you somehow feel my
pain as I do yours".
They smile at each other.
Nkanyezi: "Go take your eye drops, I will help you with it".
I get up to take my eye drops and take off my glasses,
Nkanyezi put eye drops on my eyes.
Me: "Thank you"
This is what we grew up doing he helps me I help him with
almost everything.
I hear mom saying NO so loud.
Me: "I'll be back ok".
He nods and I rush out, I find the truck outside and the
people are carrying dead goats outside their truck.
I fold my arms looking a mom.
Luyolo: I told you it won't work Ziyanda, unenkani yeeer(
you're stubborn)

WE ARE ONE( I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
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It's late at night and no one is saying anything to anyone
mom is moving her feet back and forth.
I stand up.
Me: I am leaving right now with my brother, Langa are you
staying?
Ziyanda: Ntsika sit down, I will tell you the truth.
I slowly sit down next to Nkanyezi.
Mom look straight at him so he can read her lips and also use
sign language here and there. Our parents and the whole
family took some sign language classes to be able to
communicate with Nkanyezi so they know how to
communicate with him but no one can communicate with
him better than me.
Ziyanda: Luyolo is not your biological father.
Me: He is not who's father?
Ziyanda: You, Nkanyezi and Langa a man called Misokuhle is.
Nkanyezi: "why were you hiding this from us, did you want
me to die?".
Ziyanda: No baby ..No..ofcause not, it's just that I...he almost
killed me, I dated him when I was still in high school doing
grade 9 and in grade 11 I was tortured, beaten up by his
father because he wanted me to be away from him, they told
me he is dead and forced me to leave and never come back I
stayed home and I found out I was pregnant with you guys
and I had nothing, I was all alone.
Me: where was your mom.
She chuckles
Ziyanda: I never had a mom until I met Mrs Reigns who
adopted me and married dad, it was hard I was alone when I
gave birth to you, I was pushing on my own with no one to
guide me yet it was my very first pregnancy.
Me: what!? That's scary.
Ziyanda: I know but I wanted you guys to live,Once
Misokuhle took me away from you guys and I was pregnant
with Qhayiya he was abusing me that I even gave birth
prematurely, I thought I was losing my baby I was so scared.
Me: So our biological father put you through so much?
Where is he?
Ziyanda: I..I don't know where he is.
Me: I'm sorry you went through all of this, sorry.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry for keeping this away from you.
Me: It's ok, must be hard for you to revisit such nasty things
from your past, Thank you Pink, so what now?
Ziyanda: I think you guys should go back home to KZN and
Nkanyezi will tell his dreams to your great-grandfather if he
is still alive, I don't know about your grandfather I hate that
man with everything in me but it's all up to you now,
whether you go there or not.
Me: we don't have a choice Pink, my brother needs this.
She nods and get up walking away and dad follows her, he is
our dad, blood or not.
*
In the morning Pink tells us which part of KZN is our fathers
home, I'm driving there with my brothers.
It's been a long drive and finally we are here but we don't
know which house is it.
I stop the car and look around.
Langa: Let's ask that girl over there.
I get out of the car and go to the girl who has a bucket on her
head.
Me: Hello.
Girl: Hi.
Me: Uhm can you show us which is the Gumede house here?
Girl: These are all Gumede households you just have to say
the name of a person you're looking for.
Me: Uhm...Misokuhle Gumede.
She jumps and the bucket almost fall but I'm quick to hold it
in her head.
Girl: You know where my father is? You..
Me: No, we just found out that he is our father so we came
here to get help for my brother.
She nods.
Girl: I have other brothers? Uhm you can follow me with
your car.
We drive to where she's going and park right outside, she
invites us inside.
We find alot of people when we step in, they all look at us in
shock.
Oldman: Imbewu ibuyile(The seeds have come back).
Me: Sanibona(Greetings)
Oldman:Hlalani phansi(you can have a seat.
We seat down and there is a woman here who keeps looking
at me, she looks angry.
Me: Uhm we came here because my brother have been
having dreams, a man that looks like us tell him that he is
cold and he needs to find his way back home.
Woman: So she finally killed him, Misokuhle is dead, she
killed him, your bitch of a mother killed the father of my
kids.
Oldman: Awume Zinhle( Calm down Zinhle) uhm I am your
Great-Grandfather and this is my son your
grandfather...Ukusho iqiniso nami ngibile nalesibonakaliso (
to be honest I had that vision) Lapho abazukulu bami
bekhala befuna ukubuyiswa ekhaya ( where my
grandchildren are crying to be brought back home)
Me: Kukhona eningakwenza?( Is there anything you can do?)
The grandfather finally speaks.
Grandfather: No..I told your father to stop being weak, he
kept following that Ziyanda and she finally killed him.
Me: My mother is not a killer.
Grandfather: Oh but she is, and one day she will tell me what
she did to my sons.
Me: Uhm maybe we should go..
Oldman: Cha.(No) Nizolala nivuke ekseni ngisize
umfowenu(you will sleep here and in the morning I will help
your brother).
Later we are given a room to sleep in and a girl serves us
food.
Me: Hi I'm Ntsika, what's your name?
Girl: Zanokuhle
I nod she does look like my brothers a bit.
Me: Thank you for the food Zano.
She nods and walk out. I give my brothers food and we start
eating, once i'm done I feel my stomach turning like my
insides are burning up.
Me: Aaah!
Langa: Are you okay?
I shake my head.
Me: I...go call for help Langa, something is wrong, my insides
are...aah.
He rush out and come back with great-grandfather only.
G.grandfather: NtsikaYomzi unani mfana( what is wrong
with you?)
Me: My...stomach..
He tells us to follow him but I can't stand up straight, my
brothers help me to go to a rondavel and great-grandfather
help me drink some herbs and I vomit right away something
green.
G.greatfather: Yhoo(he exlaims).
I continue to vomit and to me its obvious what this is,
someone was trying to kill me or one of my brothers, there
was something in that food I ate.
I stop vomiting and sit down, I feel tired but I have to take
my brothers out of here. I tap Nkanyezi's shoulder he looks
at me
Me: "We need to leave" Nkanyenzi, Langa, we are leaving.
Great-grandfather sighs and give us the incense.
Great-grandfather: Burn this whenever he starts having
dreams, say your clan names.
Me: Mzozo.
We grew up using Mzozo even our IDs are written Mzozo.
Great-grandfather: No..OGumede OQwabe OPhakathwayo..
I nod and stand up.
Great-grandfather: Hambani(Go)niqaphele(be careful).
We go straight to the car and I wear my glasses, I don't
usually drive at night but today I have to.
Langa: Let me drive bro.
Me: But dad said you shouldn't drive before you get your
license.
Langa: I know that but you can't drive at night Ntsika but I
can.
I let him drive, when we are away from the house I look back
and I see a very speeding car.
Me: Langa!!get out of the road quick!
Langa swiftly drive to the side of the road and the car stops
behind us.
Langa: I'm stepping on it..
Me: Langa, No..
Nkanyezi: "What is happening?"
Me: "Nothing to worry about"
Langa starts the car and drive away so fast, i'm holding my
breath.
We get to the main road, I exhale loudly.
Langa: I think I lost them.
We drive all the way home, we get in and find everyone in
the main house watching TV, Mom and dad stand up when
they see us.
Luyolo: "what is going on?"
Ziyanda: Why are you guys here, I thought maybe you will
come back tomorrow.
Langa: Ntsika became sick after they served us food and
great-grandfather made him vomit and something green
came out then we decided to leave and we were being
followed.
Luyolo: WHAT!?
Me: Yeah they said mom killed their sons.
I look at mom , she is shaking.
Ziyanda: This is the reason why I didn't want you guys to
meet those people! This is exactly why! You almost died.
She walks away to her room.
Maybe we made a mistake by going there but I was just
trying to help my brother!

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
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I am in my brother's room at my parents house, I sleep with
him so I can watch over him.
I wake up in the middle of the night when my brother is
convulsing.
I go to the bag and look for the incense that Great-
grandfather gave me, I look for the lighter, I burn it squarting
down.
I say what Great-grandfather told me.
Me: Gumede, uh..Qwabe, Phakathwayo..we don't know what
to do...please help my brother out.
I see Nkanyezi stop shaking, I go to him.
Me: "This incense worked, you only convulsed for a few
minutes than any other day."
Nkanyezi: "Thank you, today's dream was different someone
was taking mom away and she was holding a baby in her
arms."
Me: "Maybe you were dreaming about what happened to her
in the past , she did tell us that Misokuhle took her away and
she was pregnant then."
Nkanyezi: "Maybe we should stay away from them after all
that happened there."
Me: "Yeah , but you need to have a normal life this is draining
you."
He smiles at me.
Nkanyezi: "Thank you for everything."
Me: "No need to thank me, Pink taught us to stick together
nomatter what."
We go back to bed and this time we sleep through the night
without him having any bad dream.
*
We wake up and find Iyana talking on the phone she is
giggling.
Iyana: Uhm I'll see what I can do.
I clear my throat she jumps up and look our way.
Iyana: Bhuti how long have you guys been stamding there?
Me: Long enough to see that you were blushing Sis are you
dating already?
Iyana: What No I'm not!!!
Me: Mmm better not because dad will kill you.
Iyana: Uhm i'm really not.. "Hey bro can you transfer airtime
on my phone please"
She says to Nkanyezi, she is still learning sign language and
she's getting there, and Qhayiya also takes it as the third
language at his school.
Nkanyezi: "Go take it in my room."
Iyana: "Thank you, you're the best."
She run to Nkanyezi's room we go eat breakfast at the main
house that SisSphokazi has prepared.
We start eating then Iya comes in with a bag looks like she's
going out.
Luyolo: Uh where are you going?
Iyana: I..uhm I'm having lunch with my friends from school.
Luyolo: Is it? And who did you tell?
Iyana: no one, I'm sorry can I please go i will come back
early.
Luyolo: Who is fetching you or you're taking a taxi?
Iyana: I'll just take a taxi.
Damn says a loud "mmmm" and we all chuckle if he says that
it means he doesn't believe a word you're saying.
Luyolo: Go
Iyana is more close to dad than mom, they are like best
friends but they do fight alot.
*
Once she's out dad stands up and walk out too, he comes
back furious.
Luyolo: I will kill that girl I swear to God.
Ziyanda: What did she do?
Luyolo: She just got in the black car, my daughter was
fetched with a car, she is 15 for fucks sake how does she
have friends with cars.
He takes his keys and rush out.
Me: Someone is in trouble.
Ziyanda:And you enjoy that huh Ntsika?
Me: No..
I laugh, well I always like it when Iya get in trouble the sister
is naughty.
*
We sit outside and we see dad driving in he gets out and
shout for Iya to step out of his car.
Iya does and dad unbuckles his belt and start whooping her
ass, little missy is crying so loud. Mom rushes to them.
Ziyanda: Luyolo stop you're hurting her.
Luyolo: Can you believe that she went out with a boy and he
is older than her, can you believe that?
Ziyanda: What!? Iya you're already dating?
Iyana: No mom we're just friends.
Dad starts beating her all over again, Kwanele go to him and
take the belt from his hand.
Kwanele: Enough! Luyolo,you can't beat a child like that.
Luyolo: That boy is trouble, I saw how he looked at my
daughter he is up to something.
Kwanele: Something like what?
Luyolo: he wants sex.
We gasp.
Luyolo: What! You do learn about sex at school stop acting
so fresh with me right now.
I laugh out loud, dad is really angry shame.
Luyolo: Ntsika you know sex? You're laughing.
Me: No dad.. no
Ziyanda: Luyolo can you stop, calm down baby.
Mom says holding in a laugh.
Luyolo: You want to laugh, Go on Ziyanda laugh at my pain.
We burst in laughter.
Ziyanda: What pain Lu you're really dramatic right now.
Dad looks at Iyana and shakes his head and comes to me.
Luyolo: "let me have a seat before I die infront of you all."
I laugh standing up, he take my seat.
Ziyanda: "Who did you go out with Iya."
Iyana: His name is Mvelo.
Luyolo: Does he have a surname?
Iyana: Mvelo Gumede.
Mom keeps quiet for a while.
Ziyanda: No..It can't be..
Me: You know him.
Ziyanda: Uhm no maybe it's the same surname..
Me: ok.
She looks distraught.
We get inside since the sun is starting to set.
Nkanyezi falls just as we get in and dad rush to him and
shout for him to get up.
I rush to his room to get that incense and burn it.
Ziyanda: Where did you get that?
Me: from Great-grandfather pink...I start saying the clan
names.
He wakes up and look around then his eyes stop at dad.
Nkanyezi: "Tell us what happened to him"
Luyolo: "Who."
Nkanyezi: "Misokuhle"
Dad looks at Mom and she sigh nodding her head.
Luyolo: "I killed him."
He says so calmly like it's a normal thing to say.
Me: You did what?so that woman was right you killed dad
and his twin brother.
Luyolo: I killed Misokuhle, his crazy brother, Ziyanda's
mother and her psycho sister all in one day and I don't
regret it one bit.
Me: How can you do that? You guys are sick!
Luyolo: Bastard took my wife not once, and the last straw
was when he abused her physically and sexually I couldn't
let him live.
Me: So we had to grow up without our father because of you.
Ziyanda: Trust me you're better off without him and his
family.
Me: We were going to decide that on our own not you killing
him and then let your man to raise us.
Dad raises his eyebrow at me.
Luyolo: Your man? Is that how you address me now Ntsika?
Me: I will address you anyho..
Ziyanda: Ntsika!!
Me: I don't want to be around you guys, you make me sick.
Ziyanda: He wasn't gonna stop coming after me Ntsika, they
wanted to rape me together with his twin brother , do you
get that?
I get up and walk away.
I don't know how I feel, we will never meet our father again
because they decided to kill him.
I see mom sitting next to me.
Ziyanda: You know I still feel scared..
She pause.
Ziyanda: I once cut short my hair because I didn't want
Misokuhle's father to notice me when I went out, there was a
time when they took me from my home and I had to lock you
in your room so they wouldn't hurt you guys, they didn't
give a damn about you, I did everything to save you, I even
broke my vows leaving my husband to beg your father to do
a ceremony for you because you were having seizures, do
you know what he said?
She looks at me with eyes full of tears.
Ziyanda: He told me he will only help me if I agree to marry
him but belong to him and his brother, they were going to
share me like i'm some meat.
She chuckles bitterly and wipe the tears with the back of her
hand.
Ziyanda: I'm still scared of that man even though he is dead,
he still want to take you away from me.
I hug her as she release a loud sob.
Me: I'm sorry Mom, I didn't know it was this bad, I'm sorry
for talking to you like I did earlier..sorry Pink.
She cries dad comes in and carry her, he walks to the door
with her in his arms.
Me: Dad.
He stops but doesn't turn.
Me: I'm sorry..
Luyolo: It's okay..
He walks out and I feel bad for talking to dad like that, he is
our father and he did this to protect our mother.
*
At night we hear dad shouting all over the house I go to him.
Luyolo: I'm going to kill Iyana.
Me: What is happening dad?
Luyolo: She sneaked out of this house, and she is not picking
up my calls.
I see Nkanyezi coming out of his room, his eyes are red.
Nkanyezi: "It has started once again, its happening all over
again?"
He is moving his hands so fast, which means he is nervous.
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
*
Insert 5
*
NTSIKA
*
Mom and dad are frustrated they are busy trying to call
Iyana, Nkanyezi is sitting on the couch looking down, I go
kneel infront of him.
Me: "Are you ok, what did you see?"
Nkanyezi: "I saw mom beaten up and she was lifeless on the
floor with bruises all over her body."
Me: "what did you mean when you said it's happening all
over again."
Nkanyezi: "I don't know, I just felt like saying it.
We hear a door opening and Iyana is walking barefoot and
her shoes are in her hands, she's trying to tiptoe.
She stops on her tracks when she looks up and see us
looking at her.
Tears starts flowing from her eyes, she is a coward she cries
before getting a beating.
Luyolo: Ulilelani?(why are you crying?)
Iyana: Uxolo tata(i'm sorry dad).
Luyolo: I don't want your apology Iyana, where are you
coming from?you sneak out now?In my house?
Dad is really angry and i'm scared for Iya because mom is
angry too and that woman can kill you if she's angry.
Iyana: I went out with Mvelo, he wanted me so see some club
in t...
Dad grabs her hand.
Luyolo: A club Iyana? you are underage for that shit.
Mom walks up to them and pull Iyana to her and slap her so
hard, she screams.
Ziyanda: I will kill you Iyana, as old as I am I have never
stepped foot in a club ever.
Iyana: I'm sorry mom, dad I'm sorry.
Luyolo: You are really pissing me off, give me your phone
right now.
She takes it out of her bag and hand it to him.
Luyolo: Now go to your room..
She rushes to her room leaving Mom and dad still furious.
*
We are going back to school today,the holidays are over,
Mom and dad walk us out.
Ziyanda:Remember to call us whenever you feel like it, I'm
always available for you, "I love you."
Nkanyezi: "I love you too."
Me: I love you too Pink and you dad.
Luyolo: "Family sticks together.."
Me|Nkanyezi|Langa: "nomatter what."
We say our goodbyes hugging mom and fist bumping dad we
get in the car and I drive out.
I drop Langa at his place then I drive to our school.
We go to our rooms after signing in, Alex comes in our room
he is our friend we talk about general stuffs.
We hear something ticking like a watch, I look at my wrist
and my brother's we are not wearing any.
Me: "Alex do you have a watch in your pocket?"
Alex: "A watch, no, oh you hear that ticking sound?"
Me: "Yes."
I look around something tells me to grab my brother's hand
and alex's and run out, the minute we out, there is full
explosion inside, it send us flying to the ground.
Everyone is here in a minute and the matrons rush to us to
see if we're okay..I look at my brother to check if he is okay,
he looks at me and nods. I heave a sigh of relief..Alex is
bleeding on his forehead.
They get him up and the ambulance and police are here.
We are taken inside the ambulance to check if we're okay.
I just have a stratch in my arm but its small, alex is fine too
just a little bruised.
*
The police have been asking us questions and it's like they
are suspecting we were doing something wrong inside and
we know what caused the explosion.
Mom and dad's car drive in the yard and they get out rushing
to us.
Ziyanda: Ntsika, Nkanyezi what happened we came as soon
as the matron called us, baby are you okay?
She ask hugging me and Nkanyezi.
Ntsika: We are fine I just told the police that I heard a ticking
sound and I took out my brother and our friend out and the
room exploded.
Police: That doesn't make sense you must have done
something to cause it, why your room?
Luyolo: Are you implying they did this?
Police: Yes only their room was affected and it's clear they
knew what's going to happen they got out fast.
Luyolo: Really you would have prefered the room exploded
with them inside then?
Police: I have to take them in, this the act of vandalism of
school property.
Dad chuckles.
Luyolo: Uphambene.(you're crazy)
Police: What did you say to me?
Luyolo: I said uyandinyela(you're shitting on me.)
Ziyanda: Baby calm down.
A police takes the handcuffs and try to put them on me.
Luyolo: Touch him, just touch him you might just lose your
job by the end of today, you can't just arrest a minor not to
mention putting cuffs on him without proper investigations,
try me please.
Police: We're just doing our job.
Luyolo: Hey man your job is to investigate before arrest to
avoid making wrongfull arrest which we can sue you for and
harassing my kids.
Police: Are you teaching me how to do my job.
Luyolo: So what of I am.
Ziyanda: Let me call dad he will know what to do.
Police: You can call the president for all I care they are going
to jail.
Ziyanda:Lukhele..
Mom says walking away with a phone in her ear, Granddad
has retired but people still respect him and he is well known.
Mom comes back after a while, dad is still cussing at the
police it's now funny to watch because I know Granddad
won't allow anything to happen to us.
Ziyanda: Dad is on his way.
Alex's parents are here too and the coloured lady went crazy
when the police said their arresting Alex, her son.
I see Granddad driving in if I knew how to dance like Langa I
would be on it right now, I'm happy to see him.
Mom rushes to him and they hug, he kisses her forehead,
mom is such a daddy's girl.
The police are shocked to see Lukhele here.
Police: Uuh..I. good day sir
Lukhele: What's good about it when i'm waken up from my
nap to hear that some stupid police want to arrest my
grandkids.
Police: Uhm but we're doing our job.
Lukhele: Really, so Tell me you're arresting them on what
grounds?
Police: Uhm I..I.
Lukhele: Do what you were taught to do not what your balls
tells you to. Ntsika we are going home untill this is resolved.
Alex is leaving too.
Ziyanda: They won't stop Luyolo , I know it's them.
Nkanyezi: "It will soon be over one day, right dad?"
Dad looks at him.
Luyolo: "Yes boy, they started it, but I will finish it..

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
Insert 6
*
NTSIKA
*
We are home with Granddad, mom was called in at work, she
is an ER Doctor and has a private practice, and dad went to
see his friends.
Me: When are we supposed to fetch Iya from school?
Lukhele: An hour from now and I'm glad you are here to
fetch Nomvula i'm tired I want to sleep.
Me: You're always tired mkhulu(grandpa).
Lukhele: Ofcause you just called me Mkhulu which means
i'm old I gotta be tired. Now don't be late fetching your sister
because she will throw a tantrum.
I nod and get up to go freshen up a bit, I want the ladies to
see me haha I'm kidding I have my Ezile.
*
I drive to Iya's school and stop at the gate but I don't see her
anywhere, I get out of the car and walk to the gate.
Me: Hey uhm do you know a girl called Iyana?
I ask a girl I see who is probably her age and she is very shy.
Girl: Uhm she wasn't in class today.
Me: What!? Uhm are you sure?
Girl: Yes even a teacher threatened to send an email to her
parents because she has been dodging classes and then we
see her after school standing at the gate.
Me: Wow! Thank you for the info.
Girl: My pleasure uhm my name is Lathitha what's your
name?
Me: Ntsika..I have to go..
Lathi: Can I have your numbers maybe I can spy on Iyana for
you.
She giggles and I smile.
Me: I don't want anyone spying on my sister but I will give
you my number because you're beautiful.
Her cheeks literally became red, she is blushing, she takes
out her phone I call out my number then go back to the car.
*
I sit there for a few minutes and I see Iya being dropped off
by a black car and she looks around probably for her
transport, she sees my car and attempt to come but I start
the car and drive away.
I get home and dad is here, it's about to get nasty.
Luyolo: Ntsika weren't you supposed to fetch Iyana?
Me: I did, you should check your emails first.
Luyolo: Why..?
He takes out his phone and check his phone, his face
becomes hard instantly..
Luyolo: Where is she?
Me: I..
Luyolo: Where is she Ntsika!?
One thing about me is I suck at lying my parents know this,
growing up we would do something wrong with my brothers
and when we get caught they will lie and say they know
nothing about it and when they ask me I would lie and mom
and dad would see right though me.
Me:She was dropped off by a car at school and I left her
there.
A door opens and dad swiftly gets up and grab Iyana's hand.
Luyolo: You will know me today Iyana, it's clear you don't
see me at all.
He throws her at the couch and start unbuckling his belt,
Iyana jumps up and attempt to run away.
Luyolo: Get back here before I loose it Iyana,i've had it up to
here with you, mntanandini ndithe izapha (Child I said come
here)
One thing I know when dad say words like that you're about
to get the beating of your life.
Iyana comes to him slowly, dad grabs her hand and starts
whooping her she's screaming for grandpa to help her but he
is busy with his newspaper not minding a thing dad is doing.
Me: Come on dad it's enough now.
He quickly turns to me.
Luyolo: you are telling me that? Did you send her to do this
shit huh Ntsika?
Me: No dad but she's crying..
Mom comes in and take off her heels and toss them on the
floor.
She grabs the belt from dad's hand and starts beating up
Iyana, she is not saying a word.
Iyana has even lost her voice with all the crying, she is sitting
on the floor.
Ziyanda: What is wrong with you Iya? We send you to school
and you decide to dodge for what, a boy you hardly even
know?
Iyana: I know him mama.
She says with a husky voice.
Ziyanda: Are you talking back? Huh
A belt land on her body,she screams.
Ziyanda: I am not your mate, tell us if you don't want to go to
school anymore so you can stay at home, I don't know you
anymore Iya, what is wrong baby, you can talk to me.
Iyana: I love him mom , he loves me.
Ziyanda: If he is allowing you to dodge school he doesn't love
you at all. Stop what you're doing or you will be going to
boarding school next year.
She walks away and dad leaves the room too.
I go to her and pick her up and go to her room and lay her in
bed.
Me: I'm sorry sis for this, but please don't allow him to make
you change the way mom and dad raised us by, they love us
so much and we should avoid dissapointing them ok.
Iyana: Ok..
Me: I love you ok.
Iyana: I love you too bhuti(brother)
I leave her room and go to my brother but I find him in deep
sleep.
I sleep on my bed and take my phone, I see messages on
whatsapp and it's Ezile saying 'hi' and the number *Hey it's
me Lathi, I hope you do remember me* I chuckle and call my
girlfriend.
Me: Hey Ezy.
Ezile: Ntsika you should just delete WhatsApp because you
hardly online there.
Me: Calling is better than typing Ezi besides I love hearing
your voice.
She giggles and I smile.
Ezile: I have to go Ntsika call me later ok.
Me: Ok.
We have never said any I love yous to each other, I don't
know i'm still scared to say those words to anyone besides
my family.
I call this Lathi girl, she picks up .
Lathi: uhm Hi Ntsika.
Me: Hey you good?
Lathi: I'm fine, I thought you were blue ticking me.
Me: Oh no I just don't really like typing I prefer making calls.
Lathi: Ok thank you for calling.
Me: Sure.
Lathi: Will you be fetching Iyana tomorrow?
Me: You want to see me?
Lathi: Uhm yeah I mean no I was just asking that's all.
Me: I will see you tomorrow then bye.
I drop the call and when I turn I see my brother looking at
me
Me: "Why are you looking at me like that, you're creepy, it's
like i'm looking at myself."
Nkanyezi: "That's crazy, I was reading your lips, who were
you calling the second time?"
Me: "You should find yourself a girlfriend and stay out of my
business."
He smirks at me.
Nkanyezi: "I found one on facebook, we have been chatting
there now she wants me to call, can you be my voice for
today only?"
Me: " Uh No, why can't you be honest with her and tell her
you can't talk?"
Nkanyezi: "Please just for today Ntsika, I will tell her soon."
Me: "Ok fine, We will call her later then I want to sleep for
now, I want to join dad at the gym today."
Nkanyezi: "Cool thank you, I will tag along too."
I get under the covers and sleep.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
Insert 7
*
NTSIKA
*
We just came back from gym, we are sweating and tired, dad
was teaching us to fight and he did a number on us, Nkanyezi
is even limping.
I throw myself in bed and close my eyes. "One day we won't
be here, me and your uncles to protect you so you will have
to fight and look after your siblings yourselves, that is why
i'm teaching you, to be able to defend yourself." those were
dad's words when he was busy beating the crap out of us.
*
I may have dozed off, I'm woken up by my phone ringing.
I pick it up with my eyes closed.
Me: Hello.
Iyana: Bhuti..please..tell mom and dad to a...answer their
phones..please.
She's crying, I sit up immediately.
Me: Aren't you in your room Iyana?
Iyana: No..bhuti..please..just..
Voice: Hey..hey..hey..tell that Ziyanda to get here.
I rush out of the room, I knock in mom's room and try to
open but it's locked..I knock.
Me: Dad open up..Iyana is in trouble...
I hear movements inside and the key turning, dad is wearing
only his trackpants nothing on his upper body.
Luyolo: What is it Ntsika?
Mom comes too wearing her gown.
Me: Iya is trying to call you guys she is crying looks like she
is in trouble wherever she is.
Ziyanda: Go take my phone from the charger Ntsika, in the
dinning room.
I rush there and come back with her phone.
Her phone rings the minute she takes it from me.
Luyolo: Put it on speaker Ziyanda.
A very bold voice speaks on the line.
Voice: Ziyanda Lukhele where is your husband?
Luyolo: Who is this?
Voice: Never mind who I am, I have your daughter here and
in exchange of her I want your wife.
Luyolo: What?Where is my daughter you bastard?
Iyana: Daddy please help me, please.
Luyolo: Iyana!!
Voice: Your wife for your daughter in an hour or she dies.
Iyana: Mom please..
Mom and dad look at each other.
Ziyanda: It's ok, I..I've done this before, I will..I will do it
again, uhm..yeah..
Luyolo: Ziyanda..
Ziyanda: No..I have to save my baby..
Me: Mom you can't go..
Ziyanda: What do you suggest I do huh Ntsika, let them kill
Iyana?
She looks nervous..
She get in her room and wear her pants and a jacket and put
on her takkies.
Luyolo: Uhm, Let me call the guys first baby..
Ziyanda: You can call them but i'm leaving..
Her phone rings again, she answers and we hear Iyana
screaming.
Me:Nooo!
Mom is shaking.
Ziyanda: Please..please don't hurt my daughter, I'm coming
please.
Voice: Tell your husband not to follow you or do anything
stupid or I will kill you and your daughter.
Mom walks away to the door,dad calls out for her.
Luyolo: Ziyanda wait..please..
And she's out, dad starts pacing with a phone on his ear, I
don't know what to do or say.
Me: This is all my fault, I went to that family when mom
didn't want anything to do with them, I should have listened
to her.
Luyolo: No boy , they have been after your mom long before
you guys were born, don't blame yourself ok, dad is gonna
fix this, I'm going to fix this.
*
Uncle Kwanele and Mandisi comes in.
Mandisi: Those people never stops..
Luyolo:I will put a stop to it, I'm never letting them hurt my
wife ever again.
A door opens and my sister comes in she is crying, I go to her
and hug her so tight.
Me: I'm sorry sis, askies neh..
My uncles hug her too but dad just look at her.
Iyana: I'm sorry dad, I should have listened to you.
He shakes his head..
Luyolo: You never listen Iyana, we told you to stay in this
house, now only God knows what they are doing to my wife
right now..
Iyana: Dad i'm..
Luyolo: Just cut it..
Kwanele: Come on Lu..
Luyolo: I want my wife back, so call the guys this time i'm
not going over any plans that's going to take days, I want my
wife back today..
Mandisi: Let me call Carl and see if he can locate Ziyanda's
phone.
Kwanele: I'll call China to assemble the guys right away.
*
NARRATED
*
The guys are waiting for Carl to give them the location.
Luyolo keeps checking his watch, he is frustrated to say the
least.
Luyolo: Carl come on man, what's taking so long.
Carl: give me a second..
Luyolo's phone beeps, he looks at it.
Carl: Done.
He linked Ziyanda's phone with Luyolo's because he has
somewhere to go, so now Luyolo has Ziyanda's location and
he will see if they are moving her.
Luyolo: Let's Go!
They get in different cars and drive away fast. It's like they
are in a race. They are all following Luyolo's car.
*
He stops at a harbour and he looks at his phone, he can see
that his phone is not far from Ziyanda's.
They look around and they see four people standing outside
some boat.
China: Those must be the guards..
Luyolo: Yeah but we don't know how many are inside.
Kwanele: Let's cause a little bit of distruction , China let's
pretend we're fighting so the guards will move and all of you
will move to the other side and wait there.
They start fighting and the guards run to them to tell them to
go fight somewhere alse.
Meanwhile Luyolo is watching Ziyanda kneeling infront of
three men and a woman, her hands are tied at the back.
Gumede: Tell me where you buried my son's bitch.
"You're asking the wrong person, ask me." Luyolo says
stepping inside amd they all point guns at him.
Gumede: So you are the man that goes around killing people
for a pussy huh.
Luyolo: Damn right I am, and I'm about to kill you too for it.
Gumede: Oh we'll see about that.
He whistle and Luyolo chuckles, he whistle again..
Luyolo: I'm assuming you are trying to call the guys that
were standing guard huh, oh they're dead, gone.
Zinhle: I don't know what these stupid men see in her, they
all lose their minds I warned Miso about this girl but he
didn't listen, Mvelo kill this man now.
Luyolo: Oh so you are the one who took my daughter Mvelo
Gumede I assume you are Misokuhle's son huh.
Mvelo: His first son, and getting your daughter was so easy,
she is so naive huh too much for being an ex military cop's
daughter huh.
He smirks.
Gumede: Oh yes we did a background check on you and we
found nothing interesting your life is boring.
Luyolo: Ok enough chit chat untie my wife little boy.
Mvelo: Not gonna happen.
Luyolo: You are stupid like your father's twin, you know I
once told him that my bullet would hit him first and I didn't
have any gun in my hands and he didn't believe me until I
shot his stupid ass, so boy I'm warning you.
The other man points at Ziyanda.
Luyolo: I wouldn't do that if I were you.
A gun goes off three times and Gumede and his men are on
the floor groaning.Zinhle is screaming for Mvelo..China rush
to take their guns away from them.
Ziyanda collapse and Luyolo rush to her.
Luyolo: Hey baby wake up..what did you do to her?
Mvelo: We injected her to knock her out for 8 hours.
He talks so fast as he can't stand the pain on his thigh.
Luyolo: It's over for all of you, you messed with the wrong
family old man.
Gumede: Please let's work something out.
Luyolo: No.
He picks up his wife and walk to his car. He takes out two
5litres of petrol and a lighter then walk back in.
China is already pouring the other two 5 litres..They are all
shouting and begging them to stop.
Luyolo: If we don't do this we would be making a huge
mistake, You need to die Gumede for my family to be at
peace.
Gumede: Please..let my grandkid go..
Luyolo: No can do, he knows too much and It would be for
generations to come, let's just break this curse right here
right now.
The pour all the petrol around them, then they tie Zinhle up
and walk out.
When they are a distance away Luyolo throws in the lighter
and the boat is up in flames with screams inside, the guys
quickly get in their cars and drive off with full speed.
Luyolo looks back at his wife.
Luyolo: It's over, it's time for you to be happy now, no more
fear of The Gumede's.
*
Luyolo gets in with his wife in his arms and the family and
the kids are happy to see their mom and dad back safe.
Iyana can't even look at her dad.
Luyolo: Iyana come with me.
She follows her dad to their room.
Luyolo: You put your life and your mother's life in danger,
next time if you do something like this I will kill you myself
you hear me.
Iyana: Yes dad i'm so sorry..
Luyolo: I love you ok but that doesn't mean you should
disrespect me in my house , I won't allow that to happen,
come here.
They hug each other.
Iyana: Thank you for bringing mom home safe.
Luyolo: she is my wife, that's my duty to keep you all safe.
Finally the chapter of the Gumede's is finally closed.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
Ntsika
*
It's been great being at home, the school has informed our
parents that everything is sorted and we can come back to
school now, we will go back Sunday since it's already
Thursday today.
I go eat breakfast since I will be taking Iyana and Q to school,
I love driving my siblings to school.
Qhayiya: Molo bhuti(hello brother)
Ntsika: Hey champ, you look good a younger version of Ta-
Loyd.
We fist bump and dad comes in.
Luyolo: I heard you Ntsika who are you calling Ta-Loyd?
I laugh at him.
Ntsika: Why are you here I thought i'm driving them to
school.
Luyolo: You will drive Iyana, I have a meeting next to Q's
school.
I nod and go take the keys and drive Iyana to school.
Me: No more trouble right sis.
Iyana: No more trouble I promise.
She gets out of the car and walk inside.
I call Lathi to come to the car outside the gate.
She gets in on the back and look out the window.
Me:Uhm Hey.
She doesn't reply.
Me: haybo Lathi are you ok?
Lathi: I waited for your call yesterday Ntsika, you said you're
going to see me.
Me: oh..uhm sorry but you did see that Iyana wasn't in
school yesterday she wasn't feeling well.
Lathi: You should have told me you're not coming.
Me: I know, I'm sorry uh i'll see you later ok.
She nods and get out of the car, girls and drama.
I drive back home and find my brother pacing around the
room.
Me: "Hey what's up."
Nkanyezi: "Indiphile is mad at me because I promised to call
her yesterday Ntsika."
I chuckle,a story of my life with that Lathi girl.
Me: "I still think you should tell her the truth."
Nkanyezi: "Please just do this for me."
Me: "Ok fine give me the phone."
I look for her numbers then sit in bed, taking a deep breath,
Nkanyezi looks nervous he sits infront of me, he will be
telling me what to say.
I call and put the phone on loud speaker, but Nkanyezi
quickly drops it.
Me: "What the hell, why did you do that?"
Nkanyezi: "I don't know i'm nervous brother."
Me: "Relax I'm here ok."
He nods and call Indi again it rings for a while and a very
sweet voice answers.
Indi: Hello.
Nkanyezi's eyes pop and he is sweating on his nose, I look at
him waiting for him so tell me what to say, but nothing.
Indi: Uh Hello..
Nkanyezi: "Say hello it's me Nkanyezi."
Me: Hello Indi it's Nkanyezi here.
She giggles.
Indi: Oh hey Star you finally decided to call.
I translate in sign language for my brother to know what Indi
is saying.
Nkanyezi: "I was just nervous to call you."
Indi: It's ok Star thank you for calling anyway, uhm so when
are we meeting, we don't live far from each other you know.
Nkanyezi: "Tell her we will meet this coming Saturday"
Me: We uhm I'll let you know, look i'll call you later Indi I
have to go bye now.
Indi: Bye.
I drop the phone and look at Nkanyezi.
Me: "How can you tell her you will meet this Saturday when
you haven't been honest with her Nkanyezi, how will that
work out?"
He looks down, he looks dissapointed.
Me: "Hey, it's ok..what do you want me to do."
Nkanyezi: "I can't tell her I can't talk, i'm afraid she will not
like me anymore."
Me: "Then you let her go and find someone who will love you
the way you are, someone who is willing to look beyond the
sign language and listen to your heart."
Nkanyezi: " I want her not someone else, please help me
Ntsika."
I sigh and nod, I don't know how this will work out but he is
my brother I will do anything for him.
*
I go fetch Iya from school, I get out to call Ezi as i'm talking I
feel a tap on my shoulder I look back I see Lathi.
Me: Hey Ezi i'll call you later okay.
I drop the call and turn to Lathi.
Lathi: You're talking to your girlfriend?
Me: Uhm Yes.
Lathi:oh.
She looks very sad and dissapointed but I don't like lying
unless I really have to.
Lathi: Uhm I..I have to go bye.
She turns but I pull her hand she collide with my chest, I
wrap my arms around her, I don't know I just felt like
hugging her.
Me: Are you ok?
She nods her head still on my chest, she moves away from
me and gaze into my eyes.
Lathi: I have to go..uh bye Ntsika.
Me: Bye
She walks away, she is really pretty.
*
I take Iyana home and I go chill with my brother in his room.
Me: "How are you doing."
Nkanyezi: "You saw me this morning Ntsika, I want us to talk
about something important, Indi want's us to meet this
Saturday in town."
Me: "Have you told her the truth?"
Nkanyezi:"No, I need your help."
Me: "You want to suprise her or what Nkanyezi."
Nkanyezi: "Can you pose as me to her please until I figure
out how i'm going to tell her the truth."
Me: "No. I can't do that Nkanyezi. No.She is talking to you,
she is expecting you Nkanyezi not me.
Nkanyezi: "Please just this once, I promise you I will tell her
the truth soon."
Me: "You are my brother but what you are asking me is too
much, at least ask me to translate for her not this, what if she
ask me what you guys have been talking about what then?"
Nkanyezi: "I will walk you through everything."
"Yhoo" I exclaim getting up, what Nkanyezi is asking me is
too much.
*
It's saturday I'm getting ready for my brother's date , what
am I saying, it's my date but as my brother, I don't even
know what to call it, I don't like this at all.
Me: "I'm done."
I'm even wearing his clothes and his cologne this was his
idea, we have the same taste but I have to wear what he
would wear on his first date, apparently.
We are leaving with him but he will wait in the car.
I sigh and look at him.
Nkanyezi: "Thank you for doing this for me."
I nod and get out, he showed me her picture.
I get inside the restaurant and I see her scrolling on her
phone, she looks up and smile at me, I fake a smile.
She squirms standing up and hugging me so tight I hug her
back.
Indi: I can't believe I'm actually meeting you, thank you so
much for coming.
Me: Yeah this is me.
We sit down and order food, she is talking alot all I can do is
say "mmm" and laugh here and there.
Indi: am I boring you?
Me: mmm no why?
Indi: You have been checking your phone everytime
Nkanyezi.
Me: I'm sorry it's just that uhm my mom said she will call me.
It's time to go our seperate ways, she hugs me tight.
Indi: You smell so good.
Me: Thank you.
Indi: Mom is here to fetch me, that's her car do you wanna
come say hi.
Me: No no maybe some other day, I have to go.
She giggles and hug me one more time and kiss my cheek
and walk on to her mother's car.
I walk to the car and get in.
Nkanyezi: "How did it go."
I just shrug my shoulders, I mean I was uncomfortable the
whole time, I was in a date with my brother's girlfriend how
is one expected to feel about that!
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
NTSIKA
*
I'm driving my brother and I back to school today, it's
sunday and Nkanyezi has been smiling at his phone all the
way to school I guess Indi is making him smile like that, he
did say that Indi enjoyed their date, our date..sigh.
*
We get into a different room from the one that exploded.
Alex is happy to see us, we will share the room all three of us
for now until our room is fixed and ready to be occupied.
Alex: "We should decide who takes which bed."
Me: "I'm fine with anything as long as I'll be comfortable."
They choose their beds, and I sleep facing up and call Ezile.
Ezile: Ntsika..
Me: Hey Ezi you good.
Ezile: I'm okay I was about to call you, i'm coming to durban
this coming weekend with my mom, she has work this side
and I wanted to see you so I am tagging along, can you make
time?
Me: Wow Yes, ofcause I missed you I will see you then, I'm
happy..can you send me your recent pictures?
Ezile: Uh ok I will bye.
Me: Bye.
She send her pictures she looks so beautiful her dark skin is
so flawless and look so smooth, I make her my profile
picture on whatsapp.
A message from mom comes in.
Ziyanda: * Ntsika wee I'm not ready to be a grandma please
boy*
I reply with laughing emojis.
Me: *She is just a friend mom, and please tell dad that before
he jumps into conclusions and decide to give me a hiding*
Ziyanda: *He has already concluded that he will kill you, bye
he is so dramatic he has been pacing around the room I'm
sure the floor is tired now, I love you and I saw your
brother's profile picture too, you are going to give your
father grey hair*
Me: *Bye mom I love you too tell dad to relax we are just
friends with these girls*
I look at my brother's profile picture and he has Indi there.
A message comes in..
*She is pretty* That's a message from Lathi.
Me: *Yeah she is*
After a while, I don't see her last seen, profile picture,
nothing, I try to send a message but it doesn't go through.
Me: Did she just block me?
I ask myself and decide to call her, her phone rings for a
while but no one answers, I try one more time still the same
results. I send a text.
Me: 'Why did you block me Lathi, did I do something wrong?'
'Leave me alone.' she replies. I call her again this time she
picks up sniffing.
Lathi: Ntsika.
Me: What is wrong Lathi, you sound like you're crying.
Lathi: It's nothing, stop calling or texting me Ntsika your
girlfriend won't like that.
Me: I..
She drops the call, I toss the phone next to me and close my
eyes.
*
I'm woken up by alex telling me that we have to go to
dinning hall to dish up food, we all go there and come back
with our food and start eating thereafter I go take a shower
then come back and get in bed.
I check my whatsapp, and look at Lathi i'm still blocked and I
feel a twinge in my heart.
I call her again.
Me: Hey Lathi please don't hung up just tell me what I did
wrong I will fix it please just unblock me, talk to me.
Lathi: It's really nothing, I will unblock you now.
Me: You can't just block someone for nothing Lathitha.
Lathi: Well I did.
She sounds infuriated.
Me: Don't talk to me like that Lathitha, tell me what's wrong.
Lathi: You..you are flaunting your girlfriend Ntsika how do
you think that makes me feel.
I'm a bit confused.
Me: Tell me how you feel?
Lathi: I'm angry at you.
Me: Why?
Lathi: Because..I..I.
Me: Talk to me.
Lathi: I love you Ntsika.
My heart beats fast and my mouth goes dry, I have never had
a girl telling me such words except my family ofcause so this
is new to me.
It's silent for a while and I can hear her breathing through
the phone.
She breaks the silence.
Lathi: Uhm..bye Ntsika, forget I said anything, forget I exist.
Those words leave a pang in my heart, I get up to go drink
water, my phone ring and I rush to it and answer without
looking at the screen.
Me: Lathi hey look..
Ezile: Lathi?hey Ntsika..
Me: Uhm Ezi hi.
Ezile: So I have found where mom and I will be staying, you
know Protea Hotel I hope it's not far from your home.
Me: Yes I know it, it's less than 20 minutes drive if the road is
clear.
Ezile: Good it will be easier for us to meet then.
Me: Yeah uhm goodnight yeah.
Ezile: Goodnight.
I put my eyedrops and go back to bed.
*
NKANYEZI
*
All my life I never had a problem or felt somehow for not
being able to talk probably because I have one supportive
family by my side, them learning sign language to be able to
communicate with me is a lot, I'm grateful for them,
especially my brother who gave up going to normal people's
school to be here with me.
*
But now with the outside world it's a different story or
maybe it's just how I see it, That out there, there are people
who will judge you and laugh at you for being disabled
which to me is utterly ridiculous I mean why would you find
someone who is disabled funny because it's not their fault
some are born that way some may be caused by accidents
and so on.
*
But I'm struggling to be honest about my disability to this
one girl I like so much, Indiphile, I care so much about her
that i'm worried she might leave me when she finds out I'm
deaf and can't talk. I know ii've been putting my brother on a
tight spot for asking him to pose as me but I just need time to
be able to say it to Indi.
*So Nkanyezi you will only call me if I ask you to.* that's Indi
sending me a whatsapp message.
Me: *No, I've been busy alot I was moving to my new place
for the past two days.*
Unlike my brother I can lie easily, not too much but
occasionally.
Indi:*How about you call me now Star*
I look at my brother he looks fast asleep , I can't wake him up
for this.
Me: * Look let's talk tomorrow my roommates are making
alot of noise, we won't be able to hear each other.*
Indi: *Ok tomorrow then Nkanyezi bye babe.*
Me: *Goodnight babe*
I sigh,see I told Indi that I have three brothers and one sister,
I never told her I have a twin and i have never put pictures of
my brother and I together. The difference between us is our
eyes but you have to be observant to notice if Ntsika isn't
wearing his glasses.
*
Next morning before we go to class, I sit in my brother's bed
as he is dressing up.
Me: "Brother."
Ntsika: "Ufunani Nkanyezi?"(What do you want.)
Me: "Please just call her and tell her i'm going to class, just
that please."
Ntsika: "How long are you going to keep up with this Nka?"
Nkanyezi: "Soon very Soon Ntsika I promise"
He takes my phone and tell Indi that he is going to class and
will call her later.
I can tell that this is uncomfortable for him but he is doing it
to make me happy, I will have to tell Indi the truth soon.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
The past few days haven't been good for me, Lathi blocked
me even on calls and that makes me feel really sad, maybe I
was wrong for putting Ezile as my profile picture.
I want to hear Lathi's voice so bad, after our classes I tell the
matron that i'm going to the clinic to fetch my eyedrops
because they have ran out. We are allowed to go out during
the day but you have to give reason and be back before 6pm
which is time for the last meal of the day.
*
I drive to her school and stand next to a car waiting for the
school to be dismissed.
I see Iyana going to her transport and it drives away.
My eyes stays at the gate I don't want to miss her. I see her
laughing with a boy, I feel really jealous, I walk up to them,
Lathi halts back with her eyes out looking shocked.
Lathi: Ntsika what are you doing here?
Me: I came to see you, can we talk?
Lathi: Sure, bye Senzo I'll see you tomorrow.
This Senzo guy walks away after staring at me for a while.
We go to the car and she get in on a passenger seat.
She is looking down the whole time, I touch her chin and
make her look at me.
Me: I'm sorry.
She looks down again.
Lathi: For what Ntsika?
She whispers.
Me: Uhm for putting Ezile as my profile picture the other
day, that made you sad i'm sorry.
Lathi: No it's ok I overreacted I mean she is your girlfriend
afterall and I am nothing to you.
Me: Don't say that, I wouldn't be here if you're nothing to me
as you put it.
Lathi: What am I then Ntsika.
Me: I like you, you are my friend.
Lathi: A friend.
She nods her head and looks at me, her eyes are glassy, she
blinks a couple of time, her long eyelashes flap
Me: Please don't cry Lathi.
One tear rolls down her eye and I touch her cheek wiping it,
she close her eyes, she looks like a doll right now.
She looks at me and bite her lower lip, I feel my whole body
getting goose bumps, this feeling is so foreign , I have never
felt it before.
Lathi: I have to go, don't come here again to see me.
She attempts to get out but I lock the car, she turns to face
me.
Me: What do you mean I shouldn't come to see you Lathi,
why not? Or you don't want to upset Senzo?
Lathi: Unlock the car Ntsika I want to go home.
I sigh.
Me: Sorry, can I take you home?
She shakes her head.
Lathi: It's not far from here I will walk.
I nod and unlock the car, she walk out and I watch her
walking away.
I drive back to school feeling really sad, my brother jumps up
as soon as I get in.
Nkanyezi: "I have been waiting for you I.."
Me: "Let me guess you want me to call Indi for you."
He looks down, I tap him on his shoulder he looks at me.
Me: "It's ok give me the phone."
We sit down, he is infront of me.
Indi: Hey babe.
Me: Hey babe( I shrug my shoulder).
Nkanyezi tell me to tell her they should meet this coming
weekend and I do that.
Indi: Bye babe.
Me: Bye babe.
It sounds ridiculous to me, I laugh after ending the call.
Nkanyezi: "Why are you laughing?"
Me: "Babe? really?be creative Nkanyezi call her something
like sugerplum whatever."
I say laughing at him.
Nkanyezi: " Shut up four eyes."
Me: "I make it look good."
He smiles and look at me.
Nkanyezi: "Thank you for this brother, I'm planning on
telling her this weekend about my disability."
Me: "That's good it's not right to lie about something like
this."
Nkanyezi: "I know."
He go back to his bed and I check if Lathi has unblocked me
and she has but when i look at her profile picture a sense of
jealousy hits me again, she is with that Senzo, a selfie of
them smiling at the camera their heads touching.
Me: *Hi Lathi thank you for unblocking me*
*Sure* that's her reply.
Me: *Nice picture you have there*
*Thank you Ntsika.*
I'm not ok with her picture but I did put Ezile as my profile
picture days ago.
Me: Right.
I put another picture of Ezile, a few minutes I see she has
changed her profile picture now she has a picture of a
teardrop.
" You are smitten aren't you" that's Ezile with alot of inlove
emojis.
Me: *You know I am.*
I'm out on whatsapp and sleep thinking about Lathi and that
boy Senzo, it doesn't sit well with me.
*
We are meeting with Indi today Nkanyezi said he is telling
her the truth today, He is so nervous and it's understandable,
he is meeting his girlfriend for the first time but she thinks
she has already met him so it's just complicated.
Me: "Relax it will be ok."
Nkanyezi: "What if she want's nothing to do with me after
this."
I go to him and place my hands on his shoulder.
Me: "Then she doesn't deserve you, you will move on and
find someone who will accept you as you are, I'm here for
you always."
He nods.
*
We get in the same restaurant we met at last time I guess she
really loves wimpy.
We look around and I show Nkanyezi where she is, and he
starts sweating on his nose, that is how I see if he is nervous
because I'm no different from him.
We walk to where Indi is sitting and as soon as her eyes
lands on us she is shocked.
Indi: Uhm..Nkanyezi..
She looks from me to my brother,I'm not wearing my glasses
today.
I look at my brother and he nods.
Me: I am Ntsika, he is Nkanyezi.
She gets up to hug him and wave at me we take seats.
Indi: You didn't tell me you have a twin brother star, why?
I look at Nkanyezi he stares at me.
Me: He probably didn't think it's a big deal then but he was
going to tell you today.
Indi: ok, so how have you been babe?
She looks at Nkanyezi, He place his hands on the table and
they are shaking.
Indi: Are you ok?
I touch him on his shoulder he looks at me.
Me: "Do you want to do this or we should go."
Nkanyezi:"I..will..do..it..just..translate for her."
Indi: What the hell is going on?
Nkanyezi: "Tell her that I'm deaf and can't talk and i'm sorry
for keeping this away from her."
Indi gets up before I can say a word.
Indi: Nkanyezi what is this? Tell me what is going on here.
Me: Uhm please calm down, my brother wants me to tell you
that he is deaf and can't talk he..
Indi: Wait hold it right there, since when can't he talk I went
on a date with him a week ago.
Me: That was me..I posed as him because he was still trying
to figure out how he is going to tell you this please forgive
him, us.
Indi: Oh my God, No this is not happening to me, I can't..
She walks out, I look at Nkanyezi, he has tears in his eyes.
Me: "Hey maybe she is just shocked she will come around."
Nkanyezi: "I am deaf Ntsika but I can read facial expressions
clearly, she is dusgusted with the fact that i'm deaf."
He gets up and walk away, I follow him, we didn't even get to
order.
I find him doing his silent cry, his tears are enough to trigger
mine too, I feel his pain.
I hug him, Pink won't like seeing us cry like this.
Me: "I'm sorry, let's go home we will call her once she's calm
ok, I promise you it will be ok."
Nkanyezi: "I want to go home, I need to speak to dad."
Me: "It's Thursday we will go tomorrow."
He nods and look out the window.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
NTSIKA
*
I have been trying to call Indi ever since we left town,
Nkanyezi is going crazy, moving around the room like a mad
man.
Nkanyezi: "She should be calm by now Ntsika please call her
again."
It rings and go straight to voicemail.
Nkanyezi: "It's fine just leave her alone i'll be fine."
He gets in bed covering his head. I sigh this must be hard for
him, it is his first heart break of a shortest relationship ever.
*
Around 6pm I get a call from dad I answer.
Me: Hello dad.
Luyolo: Hey boy, you good?
Me: Yes I'm fine, and you guys?
Luyolo: we good, is everything ok with Nkanyezi he is not
replying to my text.
Me: We are coming home tomorrow he will talk to you.u
Luyolo: Ok, be good.
He drops the call and I go out to dish for me and my brother
since he is still in bed.
When I come back he is sitting up in bed and his hands are
trembling, I place the food down and rush to him.
Me: "Are you ok."
He shakes his head giving me his phone.
It's a post written by Indiphile Indie Bhele, she posted her
picture with a caption "Guys I'm hot and I deserve better
than a deaf boyfriend seriously."
I'm angry, she has over 50 comments on the picture and I
don't even want to know what her friends are saying about
this shit she posted.
Nkanyezi takes the phone from my hands and smash it on
the wall it breaks into pieces. He is losing it, I see fury in his
eyes and he is losing it, i've never seen my brother this angry
and broken.
I take my phone and call dad.
Luyolo: Son.
Me: Can you guys come fetch us at school please.
I hear a glass break and I look back Nkanyezi is bleeding in
his hand and our window is broken.
Luyolo: What is going on there, Where is Nkanyezi.
Me: Dad just come and fetch us right now.
Luyolo: Ok I'm coming.
I go to Nkanyezi who looks mad as hell, he is not looking at
me and his breathing heavily.
Me: "Let me look at your hand."
He push me away from him, I stumble back.
I go out to wait for dad and for Nkanyezi to cool off.
*
I see dad's car coming through the gate.
He is with mom, they hug me.
Ziyanda: Why did you call us here are you ok.
I shake my head.
Me: Nkanyezi isn't.
We go to the room and find him sitting on the floor, mom
rush to him and hug him, His tears are rolling out of his eyes.
Ziyanda: What happened to him Ntsika?
Me: There's a girl that he liked and when she found out he
can't talk she kind of posted about it on facebook.
Ziyanda: What's wrong with her, baby come let's go home
ok, your family will never reject you ok and my mom once
told me that if people don't want to be in your life then it's
their loss, you're special, you are my star you shine bright in
the midst of darkness ok.
He is staring at mom, then he throws himself at mom again.
Luyolo: Let's go home, I will bring you guys back on Sunday
you can leave the car here.
*
At home mom gets in bed next to Nkanyezi hushing him, we
may be old but to mom we are her kids, her babies and she
allows us to be kids around her.
After Nkanyezi falls asleep we leave the room.
Ziyanda: What really happened to my baby Ntsika?
I start telling her about Nkanyezi finding Indi on facebook
and me posing as him.
Ziyanda: You did what?
Me: Mom he begged me to do this for him and I had to help
him.
Ziyanda: This is bad, I know all about rejection , and it kills
ones spirit and soul, how can this girl do this to my son.
*
I wake up and decide to take Iyana to school, I have accepted
that Lathi doesn't want me near her I'm not ok with that but
I have to respect her and stay away.
Me: Hey sis you know Lathi?
Iyana: Lathi? Wait you know Lathitha from my class?
Me: Uhm yeah I know her because I asked her about you
once.
Iyana: Right..
It looks like she doesn't believe what i'm telling her.
We get to her school, she see her friends and rush out of the
car after saying 'bye'.
I see Lathi and I get out of the car abd rush to her.
Me: Hey Lathi.
Lathi: What.
Me: Can I uhm, can I see you later today please.
Lathi: No.
Me: Please I need to see you.
Lathi: I said no Ntsika now leave me alone.
She walks inside the school premises leaving me standing
there.
A call from Ezile comes through.
Me: Hi.
Ezile: Guess what? I touched down to Durban five minutes
ago.
Me: Wow great.
Ezile: Meet me later at the hotel mom is going to a meeting
this evening.
Me: Ok I will come.
I drop the call and sigh I really wanted to talk to Lathi today.
*
In the evening I drive to Ezile's hotel and I go up to her room
and knock.
She opens the door wearing very short pyjamas, she throws
herself at me, I hug her back.
Ezile: I'm so happy to see you, come in.
We sit down and she talks about how beautiful Durban is
and she wants to study this side next year.
Ezile: So are you okay?
Me: Yeah I'm fine.
She gets closer and our faces are an inch apart , I quickly
stand up.
Me: Uh I have to go, Nkanyezi is not ok, he needs me can we
do this tomorrow.
Ezile: uh sure cool I'll see you tomorrow I guess.
Me: Bye.
*
As i'm driving home I think of Lathi and I park at the side of
the road and call her.
Lathi: You really need to stop calling me.
Me: I need to see you.
Lathi: It's late Ntsika my parents are home.
Me: Please just a few minutes.
Lathi: Where are you?
Me: I'm parking opposite your school.
Lathi: Ok, my house is four houses away from school be
quick Ntsika.
I drive slowly and stop, I see her already at the gate, she runs
to my car and get in.
Lathi: Talk..I have to go b..
I touch her cheek and bring her face closer to mine.
Lathi: What are you doing?
She whispers blinking so fast.
Our lips touch and I pull her bottom lip, she pulls away.
Me: I don't know what i'm doing but whatever it is I want to
do it with you Lathi.
Lathi: You have a girlfriend.
I pull her face again and start kissing her slowly , I'm new to
this but I've seen how they do it.
Me: I want you to be my girlfriend.
Lathi: Ntsika..
Me: Please.
She nods and I kiss her once again and hug her, I feel
something deep for her and it makes me feel things i've
never felt before.
Lathi: I have to go.
Me: Can I see you tomorrow I'll pick you up at 11:00 am.
Lathi: Ok bye.
Me: I love you.
She looks at me and blinks.
Lathi: I love you too.
Me: You blink alot huh and your eyelashes are so long you
look like a doll.
She giggles, blushing.
Lathi: Bye.
Me: Wait..
I get out of the car and go to her side, I open for her, she get
out.
I hug her tight, I love the feeling I have when her head is on
my chest.
She run inside her house, I chuckle and get in the car.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

*
Insert 12
*
Ntsika
*
Today I will be spending the whole day with Lathi, I feel so
good when i'm with her.
I wear my jeans and a white T-shirt that mom got
customised, it's written PILLAR in bold letters in front, and
wear my takkies then go out, as soon as I step foot in the
lounge there are cheers from my uncles, mom is smilling at
me, I know she is happy i'm wearing this T-shirt, My brother
has one written STAR, she was so happy when she got them
for us.
Ziyanda: My baby you look really good.
Mandisi: Good? Ziyanda that guy over there looks dapper,
you have muscles now? Luyolo you want these kids to be like
you.
I laugh.
Luyolo: Kungamithi muntu (No one must get pregnant.)
Mandisi: You really like spoiling the mood wena, just
compliment the boy.
Luyolo: you look good Pillar of our family.
Ziyanda: One that never collapse..
Mandisi: Because we are counting on it for our survival..
I am smilling proudly, these praises boost my confidence so
much.
Me: I will see you guys later.
Dad looks at me and chuckle.
I walk out and drive and stop opposite Lathi's house, I call
her she doesn't pick up instead she comes out in a short
dress its white in colour.
She get in the car.
Lathi: Hey.
I take her hand smilimg at her.
Me: You look great baby.
I can't believe I actually called her 'baby' but what the hell,
she is my girlfriend. But I told my brother to be creative.
I chuckle.
Lathi: What's funny?
Me: No I'm just thinking about my twin brother.
Lathi: You have a twin? wow are you guys identical? I am
obsessed with Identical twins.
Me: We are, you will meet him one day, maybe we will have
twins too apparently my father was a twin too.
Lathi: Fascinating..
*
I drive to the beach and we go out, I open the boot and take
out a fleece blanket.
I take off her shoes and mine then we walk barefoot on the
sand, we sit down on a fleece watching the waves, she lays
her head on my shoulder, I look at her.
Me: I really love being around you, you make me feel good.
Lathi: I love being with you too Ntsika.
We sit in silence for a while, My phone rings I take it out, its
Ezile calling I totally forgot she's here a hotel not far from
where we are seating.
I answer the call after it rings for the second time, I want to
ignore it so bad but I decide against it.
Me: Hey Ezi.
Lathi removes he head from my shoulder and stand up
walking to the sea and put her feet on water.
Ezile: Hey Ntsika I thought you could show me around
Durban today.
Me: Uhm I'm busy right now can I see you maybe around
4pm.
Ezile: Oh ok cool.
I drop the call and stand up walking to Lathi.
I hug her from behind.
Me: Are you still good?
She nods, I make her turn, her eyes are glassy.
Me: Lathi..
Lathi: So everytime i'm with you I have to understand that
this Ezile will call you, this is not how I invisioned my first
relationship.
Me: I'm sorry, I will stop taking her calls when I'm with you.
She chuckle bitterly.
Lathi: You think that makes me feel better? What you're
doing is called cheating, and you are cheating on her with
me, I don't like this.
Me: I'm s..
Lathi: Don't be sorry just take me home.
Me: You want to go now?
She nods, I hold her hand and buy something for her to eat at
those restaurants near the beach then we go to the car, I
hand her the plastic.
Me: It's yours.
She takes it and put it at the seat behind her.
When I'm about to start the car she release a sob, I get
startled and look at her, she has her hands covering her face.
Me: Lathi..
I try to get her hands off her face but she doesn't want to
remove them.
Me: Please stop crying.
she cries for a good five minutes, I don't know what to do, I
call my mom.
Ziyanda: Ntsika yaMah.
Me: Uh Pink Lathi is crying I don't know what to do.
Ziyanda: Lathi, who is Lathi?
Me: My..my girlfriend.
Ziyanda: What did you do Ntsika?
Me: Mom please just tell me what to do.
Ziyanda: Just put a phone on speaker.
I do as i'm told.
Ziyanda: Lathi..
She giggles on the other side, Lathi looks at me.
Lathi: Hello.
Her voice is shaky.
Ziyanda: I am Ziyanda, Ntsika's mother, tell me what did big
head do?
Lathi's eyes pop and she looks me , her face is red and eyes
are puffy.
Lathi: He is cheating.
My mom gasp and exlaims
Ziyanda: Already! Ntsika!
She shouts.
Me: Pink I..
Ziyanda: Don't Pink me boy, have you ever seen me cry
because your father is cheating on me?
Me: No.
Ziyanda: I didn't get that!
Me: No mom.
Ziyanda: Then where do you get this cheating from huh
Ntsika?uyibonephi (where did you see it?) ngizokushaya
Ntsika! ( I will beat you).
Me: I'm sorry mom.
Ziyanda: nyori mom, fix it Ntsika, if you can't make that girl
happy then just leave her alone, ungadlali ngengane
yabantu(Don't play with someone's child.)
Me: Ok mom, please don't tell dad..
Ziyanda: oh but i'm telling my husband right now.. bye.
I sigh and look at Lathi.
Me: I'm really sorry, but I want to be with you.
Lathi: What about her?
I look down, I don't know how to answer that.
Lathi: Has she given you her..cookie?
I choke on my saliva.
Me: NO!
Lathi: I don't believe you, take me home Ntsika.
What! I just start the car driving her home.
*
NKANYEZI
*
I'm still begging Indi to talk to me all she does is insult me
about my diisability she calls me by all sorts of names in the
book of insults if there is any.
Luyolo: "You need to stop doing this to yourself Nkanyezi,
this girl is making you feel small why are you still after her."
He says after reading my conversations between me and Indi
Me: "I love her dad."
Luyolo: "But you deserve to be loved in return, this girl is
calling you names, she is doing everything to bring you down
and if you continue talking to her you will end up believing
everything she says you are, You are special boy you deserve
better than her, way better, you are a Star remember that
and don't sell yourself short for nothing."
Me: " You don't understand."
Luyolo: " No, you don't understand, Your mom and I raised
you to love yourself just the way you are, don't try to be
someone else, be you, a boy who can't talk nor hear be
proud of that because you can do so much more, you still can
communicate with us, the people who truly loves you, and
the fact that you mastered sign language at the age of four
says alot about a person you are, clever..We love you and I
promise you will find someone who will love you just the
way you are."
Me: "Thank you."
He walk out and I look at facebook I have a message its from
a girl named ' Tirelo Mokoena' it reads * Hey Nkanyezi I am
really sorry for what Indi has been posting and saying to
you, she is my cousin and I have been trying to tell her that
what she is doing to you is wrong, i'm sorry.*
I reply:*Thank you, I will be fine.*
Maybe one day she will realise what she is doing is wrong
and she would apologise.
I go to sleep after mom said goodnight and try not to think
about Indi.
WE ARE ONE( I am my brothers's voice)
*
Insert 13
*
NTSIKA
*
I am meeting with Ezile at the hotel since she wanted me to
show her around Durban.
I didn't go home after dropping Lathi I just went straight to
her hotel.
I go up to her room and she invites me in.
Ezile: How are you babe?
Me: I'm good.
Ezile: But you look tired, want a massage?
She says smiling so beautifully.
I sit down then she start massaging my shoulders.
Next thing she sit on my lap legs on either side.
Ezile: I always wanted to kiss you Ntsika, please allow me.
She starts kissing me and I kiss her back, she takes my hands
and move them to her butt, she grinds on me, I stand up with
her, lay her in bed then get up.
Me: I can't do this.
Ezile: You can't do what Ntsika?
Me: I'm starting something with someone else and I don't
want to hurt her, I'm sorry but we have to stop seeing each
other.
Ezile: Wait, are you dumping me?
Me: I'm really sorry Ezi but I can't lie to you, I want to be
with her.
She chuckles.
Ezile: You are not dumping me Ntsika!
She screams and I walk to the door.
Ezile: Get back here!
Me: Bye Ezi.
I walk out leaving her screaming.
*
I'm calling Lathi on the way home but she is not picking up
my calls, I send her a text *Please pick up I want to tell you
something*
After a while I call her again she picks up.
Lathi: Ntsika.
Me: Thank you for picking up, look I ended things with Ezile,
I promise now it's only you.
Lathi: Really?
Me: Yes..can I see you now before I drive home.
Lathi: Ok.
I wait for her, I see her walking out and she gets in.
Me: I'm sorry for making you cry earlier.
Lathi: It's ok.
Me: I'm still going to get a slap from dad.
She smiles at me.
Lathi: Mom is home I have to go now.
Me: Can I kiss you.
She nods shyly and we start kissing, I feel an erection I pull
out from the kiss and shift uncomfortable I see her bright
eyes looking at my pants and gasp.
Lathi: Bye Ntsika.
She doesn't wait for me to say it back she rush out and runs
in her house. She likes running alot.
I flip my boner up into my waistband to hide it.
I run my hands on my face then start the car driving home.
As soon as I get in dad is near the door he pull my ear so
hard.
Me: Ouch! Dad stop..
Luyolo: You're a cheater already Ntsika? You hurt girls huh?
you're a heart breaker?
Me:No please...I broke things off with the other one.
Luyolo: Why was there the other one in the first place.
Me: I'm sorry please..I..
He finally let go of my ear and I rub it, it burns, I look at my
brother he is grinning.
Me: "What are you looking at?"
Nkanyezi: "Uyahlanya wena Ntsika."(you're crazy)
He grins even more.
Me: "Uyaphapha."(you're forward)
I'm happy to see my brother smiling.
Me: "You're okay?"
Nkanyezi: "I'm still breathing."
Me: "You want to meet my girlfriend tomorrow?"
Nkanyezi: "I think i'm ok with being indoors for now, I don't
want no judgements."
Me: "Lathi is not like that, I promise, you will like her."
He nods.
I call Lathi to say goodbye to her then sleep.
*
Me and my brother dress up to meet with Lathi but she's
already in town, she said her mom and dad are going to the
relatives funeral and they dropped her in town.
I call her.
Me: Babe where are you, I'm here in town.
Lathi: I went to the beach Ntsika come meet me there.
Me: You went to the beach alone?
Lathi: Yes my parents dropped me off here, I told them i'm
meeting a friend.
Me: Ai ok.
I drive to the beach and we get out of the car.
I can see Lathi sitting on the sand and we get closer, she is
moving her head to the beat and she has a packet of chips in
her hands.
I cover her eyes.
Lathi: Ntsika!
She gets up and turn to look at us she gasp and look from my
brother to me, she looks fascinated indeed.
Lathi: Wow! You guys look alike.
Me: We are twins Lathi.
She laughs hiding her face with her hands, I look at my
brother, he is smiling.
Lathi: Hi my name is Lathi short for Lathitha.
Nkanyezi: "Nice meeting you i'm Nkanyezi."
Lathi's eyes pop out.
Me: He says nice meeting you, his name is Nkanyezi.
Lathi: Uhm so he is deaf?
Me: Yes and can't talk.
Lathi: Oh but he is still hot.
Me: Lathi!!
Lathi: When I say he is hot you shoud say thank you.
Me: But you said he is hot not me.
Lathi: Ntsika he looks exactly like you just your eyes are
different a little.
Wow so she actually noticed that our eyes are differet people
hardly ever notice that.
Lathi looks Nkanyezi's way.
Lathi: Oh i'm sorry I only know how to say thank you in sign
language but I will learn.
Nkanyezi: "Thank you you look pretty by the way."
Lathi is looking at him in admiration her eyes are so bright
staring at my brother with a smile.
Lathi: Translate Ntsika.
She says still staring at Nkanyezi, this girl is crazy.
Me: He said you're pretty.
She says "Thank you" in sign language now Nkanyezi is the
one who is fascinated i'm glad they get along. I spent three
hours translating for them Its ridiculous.
Me: "Ok its time to go."
Nkanyezi: "Call a cab for me Ntsika you can stay behind with
her."
Lathi: What is he saying now?
Me: He is not talking to you baby.
She sulks I laugh at her.
I call a cab for my brother and tell the driver where he gets
off.
Me: Now its just me and you, I want to kiss you.
We kiss for a while and I get a boner once again, she feels it
and quickly moves away, I pull her close and hug her.
Me: You want people to see what you're doing to me?
She shakes her head giggling.
Lathi: I'm hungry.
Me: What do you want to eat.
Lathi: I cooked at home, I don't like eating takeaways alot.
Me: You want me to take you home?
She nods, I drive her home.
Lathi: Uhm I..Do you mind sleeping with me, I mean in my
house..not together like that.
Me: You're afraid of sleeping alone?
She nods looking down.
Me: Uhm I will have to go home and leave the car then come
back, is that ok.
Lathi: Ok thank you, my parents said I should ask Nothando
but we don't get along anymore.
Me: May I ask why?
Lathi:I guess we grew apart you know.
I nod, she gets off and run inside, this girl is weird but I love
it, my shorty.
*
I get home and find my brother.
Me: "Hy i'm sleeping out today, but don't tell dad I will sneak
out."
Nkanyezi: "They will find out but i'll try to cover for you,
you're going to Lathi?"
Me: "Thank you and yes I'm going to her."
Nkanyezi: "Don't do something I wouldn't do."
Me: "We're not there yet brother."
He shrug and walk out, I stay in my room for a while then
take my phone calling a cab.
It drops me off and Lathi open the gate for me and I get
inside the house.
Me: You have a nice house.
She nods looking down.
Lathi: We can go to my room.
I follow her to her room which has a pink bedding with alot
of dolls and it has a TV.
Lathi: You can sit here.
She points at the small couch next to her bed, she look
nervous.
Me: Come here.
She comes and stand infront of me I pull her to my lap.
Me: Am I making you uncomfortable.
Lathi: No its just that , It doesn't feel right to bring a boy in
my parents house.
Me: I can leave.
She looks at me and stand up.
Lathi: You can go if you want to.
Me: Please don't start a fight Lathi, I was just saying, I'm
sorry if it came out wrong.
Lathi: I'm sorry too.
*
We watch TV after eating the food she cooked earlier, she
just warmed it up, and she cooks well for a 15 year old, Iyana
yhoo that girl can't cook to save her life, Langa and Nkanyezi
cook well too and I try my best.
Its time to sleep, I see Lathi opening her closet, she takes out
her pyjamas.
Lathi: I'm coming.
She goes out then come back wearing her pyjamas.
Lathi: Uh..we will sleep on the same bed but we won't share
the blanket.
Me: Ok.
She takes two blankets and seperate them then she gets in
bed.
I take off my clothes and my t-shirt she looks away.
I get in next to her, she face the other way.
We are silent for a while.
Me: Lathi..
She doesn't say anything I call her again she's still ignoring
me I can tell she's not sleeping with the way she is breathing.
I tickle her she starts laughing really hard.
Lathi: Stop..
She is almost out of breath I stop.
Me: Why are you ignoring me?
Lathi: I was sleeping.
Me: Yeah right, Can we use one blanket please I want to hold
you.
She nods and remove the other blanket to the floor.
I pull her closer, her ass is right on my groin, I start
breathing heavily.
Lathi: It tickles.
She says giggling.
Me: What is?
Lathi:You breathing on my neck, it tickles.
Me: Then turn around and face me.
She does, the lights are still on, she looks at me, I start
kissing her hungrily, my body is heating up i'm getting
excited, I get ontop of her still kissing her, my hand moves
inside her pyjama pants, she jumps pushing me away, I move
to the side.
Lathi: I think i'm going to sleep in the other room.
Me: Sorry about that I think I got carried away.
She gets off bed.
Lathi: You can sleep here..
Me: Where are you going?
Lathi: To mom and dad's room.
Me: I said i'm sorry Lathi.
Lathi: Goodnight..
She hold the door handle I get up, and take my clothes and
start dressing up.
Lathi: You are leaving?
Me: Yeah, you're obviously not scared of sleeping alone.
Lathi: Oh.
My phone rings, its Langa calling.
Me: Hey brother.
Langa: I need you to talk to mom and dad for me.
Me: About what?
Langa: We will talk tomorrow i'm coming home.
Me: Ok.
Lathi: Please don't leave..
She comes to me and her hands moves to take off my t-shirt I
get chills on my body I groan.
I remove her hands and take off my pants we get in bed and
sleep making sure I don't touch her this time.

WE ARE ONE(I am my brothers's voice.)

*
Insert 14
*
NTSIKA
*
In the morning the erection is there and Lathi is sleeping
with her lips pouted, I kiss her lips and grab my phone to
check the time it's 4:35am.
We slept with the lights on since my girl here doesn't sleep
with the lights off.
I shake her lightly.
Me: Baby..
Lathi: mmm
She says with her eyes closed.
Me: I have to go.
Lathi: No don't go.
She moves closer to me and wrap her arm around me.
Me: Baby remember I sneaked out at home yesterday.
Lathi: What time is it?
Me: it's 4:45 am now.
Lathi: You will go at six o'clock it will still be dark since
winter is starting.
I nod and cuddle her.
Lathi: Uhm so how many girls have you done it with.
I know what she's talking about.
Me: I haven't done it with anyone.
Lathi: Oh ok..
Me: Believe me.
Lathi: ok, My grandmother test my virginity everytime I go
to the farm.
Me: That's good.
Lathi: But you want it, I can feel your erection Ntsika.
Me: We are still young an erection is natural it doesn't mean
I should act on it.
Lathi: Uhm your girlfriend, you mean you've never done
anything with her?
Me: Nothing.
Lathi: We can do other things if you want..
Me: No..
She moves her hands and touch my dick it twitches I gently
remove it, she brings it back again this time I let her, she
moves her hand slowly, I take it and put it inside my boxers.
I help her hand move up and down, then I move it fast.
Me: aaah!
I feel muscle contractions in my stomach, I shiver tensing up,
I feel my juices coming out.
Me: Fuck.
I have masturbated maybe twice in my life but this feeling of
your girlfriend doing it is different from the one you do it
yourself.
I recover from the wave that hit me, I look at my boxers they
are soaking wet.
Me: Look what you made me do.
Lathi: She hides her face with a blanket, I remove my boxers
wiping myself with it and put it on the bed side, I uncover
her and get ontop of her, she looks uncomfortable.
Me: I won't penetrate.
She nods, I take off her pyjama top her tits are so beautiful, I
move my hands to touch her nipples moving my fingers
around them, a little moan escape her lips she shuts her
eyes.
I kiss her on the neck all the way to her nipples and start
sucking on them, I feel her shake a little. I move down to her
pyjama pants.
Me: Can I take them off? I promise I won't do anything you
don't want me to.
She nods and I remove them and her panty.
Me: You shave?
Lathi: uh..ye..yes mom told me to do it when I started having
pubic hair.
I feel my boner grow bigger at the sight of her pussy, I am a
curious person I watch porn i've seen how they do this.
I lift her legs up then open her folds with my fingers, I press
on the clit with my thumb she moans out loud, I continue to
press it like that then move my tongue straight to her hole.
Lathi: Ntsika..
She moves away, I hold her in one place, I start moving my
tongue while stimulating her clit moving my thumb on it.
Lathi: Aah Ntsika no..yes..
She shakes and I move my head I can see her juices run
down to her ass.
I want to put it in so bad, I stroke my dick looking at her.
She looks at me, I stare back at her, I move my waist closer to
her cookie and I try to put in in but she jumps before I could
even put a tip.
Lathi: No..
Me: It's ok..uh I have to go now.
She nods, I get off bed and look out the window, Its not that
dark anymore.
I dress up not wearing my boxers while she is looking at me
covering herself with a blanket.
Me: Are you ok?
She nods looking down.
Lathi: Are you dissapointed, that I didn't allow you to uhm
you know?
Me: No I'm ok, I understand you are not ready, you are
fifteen what would you tell your granny if she checks and
find out you're not a virgin anymore.
She gets up covering her breasts and wear her gown.
Me: Are you going to be ok if i leave now?
She looks out the window.
Lathi: Yes Its not that dark anymore.
I kiss her and I ask her for a small plastic to put my boxer
inside then We walk out.
She unlocks the gate.
Me: Bye baby I will see you later we are going back to school
tomorrow.
Lathi: Bye.
She stands on her toes and kiss my cheek
She goes back inside and I take the taxi home, they start
moving around early because people are going to work.
I text my brother:* Please open the front door for me, I don't
have my keys* then buzz him so he can feel it vibrates.
*Xoxo* he replies.
I get off and punch the code at the gate and walk in.
I get inside the house and start in my room to put my boxer
there and change then go to my brothers room, I find him
awake, he smiles at me.
Me: "Did mom and dad see that i'm not around?"
Nkanyezi: "Yes but I told them you went out with alex and
you will come back today with school work we missed the
past few days."
Me: " Wow dude you lie so effortlessly."
Nkanyezi: "I was doing it for you, say thank you."
Me: "Thank you brother."
Nkanyezi: " So did you do it."
Me: "No, she is still young."
He nods and we go to sleep.
*
I wake up when Langa is shaking me.
Me: It's still early Langa why are you waking me up.
Langa: Nkanyezi told me you didn't sleep here last night.
Me: Bloody snitch.
I say looking at Nkanyezi, he grins.
Langa: "I want us to talk."
Me: "What is it Langa?"
We are communicating using only sign language.
Langa: " I found my mom we have been talking and she is
overseas I want to go visit her there."
I'm shocked, mom told us that Langa has his biological mom
but didn't know where she is, I guess he took it upon himself
to find her.
Langa: "Please talk to mom and dad for me Ntsika."
Mom will be shattered to hear this but he wants to meet his
mom regardless of what mom said about the things she did
to him and almost selling him for drugs.
Me: "Ok I will talk to them for you."

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
We are all sitting in the lounge Mom and dad are sitting
opposite the three of us looking straight at us waiting for us
to talk.
Ntsika: Uhm Mom and Dad uh Langa said he has found his
mom.
Mom looks shocked.
Ziyanda: You found Layla where?
Ntsika: He found him on facebook and they have been
talking for a while now.
So growing up if my brothers want to talk to our parents
about something serious they ask me to do it, and if they ask
question I answer on their behalf if I know the answer but if
I don't then they answer themselves , its something we grew
up with and my parents are used to it, I know its weird but
thats how it is.
She nods nervously.
Ziyanda: How do you feel Langa?
Now that he can answer because I don't know his feelings.
Langa: I'm happy that I finally found her.
Pink nods again.
Me: So uh Langa wants to go overseas to meet her.
Luyolo: What, overseas Langa? Can't she come here instead
and meet you.
Langa: I want to go there.
Ziyanda: Langa am I not treating you right, do you maybe
feel that i'm not your mother?
She says in almost a whisper her voice is shaky.
Langa: This is not about you Pink I want to meet Layla
because she wants to make things right I want to meet my
mother.
Luyolo: Boy don't talk to your mother like that or I will slap
you right now.
Langa: I'm sorry dad, mom i'm sorry you will always be my
mother I know you raised and protected me since I was an
infant and I'm grateful for that but I need to get to know
Layla.
Ziyanda: Ok but know that I am your mother nomatter what
Langelihle, when do you want to leave?
Langa: After our exams two weeks from now.
She nods and get up.
Ziyanda: Luyolo please uhm do a visa for him and we will go
to make an affidavit since you will be travelling alone and
you are hardly 17 years old.
She walks away, I can see sadness in her eyes.
Luyolo: You really want to do this?
Langa: Yes dad I believe everybody needs a second chance.
*
We eat dinner and mom is so quiet on the table and its
rubbing off on us we are just as quiet and sad.
Ziyanda: I'm worried that she might hurt you.
She says after a long silence.
Langa: She won't she seem like a good person maybe she has
changed.
Ziyanda: And I have to trust that "maybe" with my child's life
huh Langelihle?
Langa: Mom please I will talk to you everyday via skype
besides its only for two weeks.
Mom nods her head.
*
We go our seperate room and I check my phone I have 3
missed call two from Lathi and one from Ezile.
I call Ezi first.
Ezile: Hello Ntsika.
Me: Hey Ezile.
Ezile: Can I see you one last time, I'm leaving tomorrow
please just to say goodbye.
Me: Uh sure I'll see you in a few.
I will just see her and go sleep at Lathi's house.
*
I get there I find her in her short gown and I sit on the bed,
she unties her gown and she is not wearing anything
underneath.
I quickly look away.
Ezile: Make me feel good Ntsika please.
She comes closer to me, she smell really good.
She takes my hands and place them on her waist. And she
sits on my lap. She starts kissing me so roughly I kiss her
back and she starts taking off my shirt and unbluckle me
belt, unbottining my jeans, everything is happening so fast.
I lay her in bed the take off my jeans i get on top of her.
Me: are you a virgin?
She moves her eyes around and shake her head a little.
Me: Do you have condoms?
Ezile: No..please Ntsika enough with the talking let's do this.
I think of Lathi I move away like a lightning getting dressed.
Ezile: What is wrong with you mara hee Ntsika?
Me: I shouldn't be here bye Ezi travel well tomorrow.
I say going out the door rushing out to catch a taxi.
I check my phone I have about 5 missed calls from Lathi and
a message I open it *You should have told me if you can't
come today Ntsika not what you're doing right now, ignoring
my calls , I'm scared ok if I knew I would have asked anyone
to come and stay with me*
I try to call her but she's not picking up. I send a text * I'm on
my way baby please open the gate for me.*
She doesn't reply, I get off and stand at the gate,
Its locked, I call her again she picks up.
Me: Hey please come open for me.
I see her walking out and she opens the gate, I get in and she
locks it we get inside the house.
I look at her, her eyes are red and puffy clear indication that
she was crying, I feel guilty.
I don't say a word I feel really bad.
We go to bed she face the other side, I take off my clothes
and get in facing up.
Me: I'm sorry Lathi.
She sniffs
Lathi: I can smell the woman's perfume on you.
She is right that perfume was strong I carried it with me.
Me: I..I just went to say goodbye to Ezile that's all.
Lathi: Is that all you did Ntsika you just said goodbye or you
dived into her perfume.
Me: Uhm no when I get there she started kissing me but I
stopped before it went too far.
She gets off bed and and walk out.
I wait for a few minutes thinking she will come back but she
doesn't.
I sigh and wear my T-shirt looking for her, I follow where the
sniffs are coming from and I find her in the lounge curved
into a ball.
I gentle touch her.
Me: Come back to bed Lathi its cold you are going to get sick.
Lathi: You slept with her Ntsika? You told me you've never
done it with anyone.
Me: I didn't do anything with her you have to believe me
baby, I thought about you then left and came straight here.
Lathi: Because you felt sorry for me poor little girl who is
scared of sleeping alone.
Me: I love being with you and sleeping next to you makes me
happy, I'm sorry for what I did Lathi I love you ok and you're
the first girl I have told that I promise.
I go to her and pick her up.
I go back to the room with her and lay her in bed.
I sleep next to her and bring her close to me her head on my
chest.
Me: I'm sorry..
She doesn't say anything.
Me: We are going back to school next week we will be
writing exams two weeks.
Lathi: You will come see me?
I smile.
Me: I will, every chance I get I will drive here.
Lathi: Thank you.
In the morning I wake up kiss her then she go lock the gate
while I take a taxi home.
*
We are done with exams, Langa is leaving today we drive
him to the airport.
Ziyanda: You don't have to go Langelihle.
Langa: Mom I will come back.
Ziyanda: Call us anytime you need us Langa please and if you
don't like it there tell us we will book the flight for you.
Langa: Ok mom.
He hugs us and go board a plane, mom sob on dad's chest
Luyolo: It's ok baby he will come back .
Ziyanda: I have a bad feeling about this Yolo I don't trust
Layla with my son.
Luyolo: We will have to call him everyday to find out if he is
ok.
Mom nods we drive back home.

WE ARE ONE( I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
*
It's been a week since Langa went to visit Layla, he called
once telling us he has arrived and have met his mom and
even sent a picture, but this is the third day we've heard
nothing from him, Mom is going crazy, we are trying
everything to contact him from facebook to calling his new
number but nothing, Layla's number rings unanswered we
have it because mom demanded he send it to us
Ziyanda: Something is wrong with my son Yolo I can feel it.
Me: We will keep trying to reach him mom don't worry
maybe he is still connecting with his mom.
Dad takes her hand and walk on to their room.
*
Lathi went to the farms to visit her grandma, I call her she
picks up.
Lathi: Hi.
Me: Baby are you ok? You should come back I miss you.
Lathi: I can't talk Ntsika my granny is here and she is about
to test me and my cousins.
Me: Uhm oh ok.
I drop the call I'm glad I didn't rush her to have sex with me
or we would both be in trouble now.
*
It's been a full two weeks we are all worried about Langa
now, mom is an emotional wreck , his phone isn't going
through and so is his mom's, we don't know who else to call.
*
LANGA
*
I was so happy when Layla said she wants me to visit her so
we can get to know each other, I love my mother so much,
she raised me and never made me feel like i'm not hers
biologically, mom and dad loves us equally but Layla begged
me to give her a chance after I found her on facebook.
*
When I got to Italy she was waiting for me in the waiting
areas at the gate, She ran to me hugging me tight she looked
really happy to see me, and we went to her apartment which
had a very beautiful interior it looked really expensive.
But now I'm here in a very dark basement tied in a chair. My
hands are bruised its been two weeks here no one has
bothered to check on me, all I remember is Layla giving me
food and I ate it all and I started becoming dizzy next thing I
woke up in here with a headace and couldn't move because
of the ropes.
I'm feeling weak its hot in here I'm sweating profusely and
i'm hungry, lips are dry all I do is swallow my saliva.
I feel a tear run down my cheek, Pink didn't want me to
come here I should have listened to my mother.
I don't see myself coming out of this one alive.
I hear the door opening and i'm too weak to look up my head
feels very heavy.
I can see the shiny man shoes and heels i slowly look up and
I see Layla's face she is smirking.
Layla: Pathetic, you really thought I wanted to get to know
you now when I didn't want you when you were a baby, all I
ever wanted was Miso to love me I fell pregnant thinking
that he would want me but all he was thinking about was
that stupid Ziyanda.
Langa: Layla.. please..I'm dying I need w..water...p..lease.
Layla: All I want you to do is tell your precious mother that I
want every cent she inherited from my aunt, it should have
been mine i was her family not her, she stole everything
from me, misokuhle my family and my money.
Langa: Please..
Layla: I want all that money or she will watch you die.
The switch on the light and a man place a computer on the
desk.
She makes a call.
Layla: Hello Ziyanda...oh he's still breathing for now..gather
your family around and switch on your computer Langa
wants to say hi.
She laughs out loud.
Man: Easy cash baby.
Layla: Fast cash my love.
*
Mom and Dad appears on the screen.
Ziyanda: Langa! Baby are you ok?
Looks like she can't see me.
The man starts moving the computer to the right angle mom
gasp.
Luyolo: What is wrong Langa are you sick there?
Langa: La..layla is keeping me..hostage.
Ziyanda: She what! Layla what did you do to my son?
Layla: I want my money Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: Bring my son home bitch.
Layla: Call me a bitch one more time and I will blow his
brains right infront of you.
Ziyanda: Langa i'm sorry baby ok, I'm sorry I shouldn't have
let you go there, I should have trusted my instincts and not
allow you to go, I'm sorry.
She says in a whisper I see tears running down her eyes, this
woman loves me.
Me: I love you mom and..dad.
She sob so loud I feel a sharp pain in my heart.
Me: I'm sorry..where..is Ntsika...
Luyolo: He is right here.. Look Langa don't give up ok hold on
for us we will do everything to save you ok boy.
I slowly nod.
Me: I want to talk to..Ntsika..
Dad moves away and Ntsika appears next to mom who is
still in tears.
Ntsika: Bafo( brother)
Langa: Khuluma nabo Gumede amadlozi wethu angivikele.
(Talk to the Gumedes, our ancestors to protect me) Ngizwa
amandla ayangishiya( I am powerless) khuluma nabo bafo
ngithole amandla ngiphilele umama wethu( Talk to them
brother so I can have the energy to stay alive for our
mother).
I see tears in his eyes he nods and get up.
I see mom struggling to breath dad is calling out for her.
Me: Mom I..will be ok.
*
NTSIKA
I am going through every damn bag, I can't find the incense
that great-grandfather gave me, I have turned my room
upside down.
I run to Nkanyezi's room I do the same.
I finally find it in his bag and rush to the kitchen to get a
plate and a lighter then go back to Nkanyezi's room.
I kneel down burning the incense I cough as the smoke hits
my nostrils.
Me: BoGumede Phakathwayo Qwabe siyacela nivikele
umzukulu wenu(Please protect your grandchild) abuye
ekhaya ephila( and come back home alive)
Mvikeleni ezitheni( Protect hime from the enemies) siyacela
boGumele siyacela boQwabe, siyacela(Please).
I sit down on my butt and look down.
After a while I get up and go to the lounge I find dad laying
mom's head on his lap she looks like she is sleeping.
Me: Dad is she ok.
Luyolo: She will be once we get Langa back , she just had a
panic attack she needs to rest, knowing Ziyanda she will
want to get in the next flight and put herself in danger. I'm
waiting for your uncles to get here so we can find a solution
to this and it's a good thing that she called us first.
Me: I hope you do something fast did you see how weak he
looked, it's like he hasn't been eating the whole week.
Luyolo: I know boy, it hurts me seeing one of my kids like
that, I feel useless right now.
He gets up with mom in his arms and walks away.
I sigh heavily, how can a mother do that to her own child.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
*
I don't know how many times i've slept and woke up still on
that chair my neck is painful, The only reason i'm holding on
is because of that woman who raised me, I know she would
never be the same if something happens to me.
I'm sure I stink right now two weeks, starting the third week
without a bath.
*
The door opens and the click sounds of heels you can't
ignore.
Layla: We are here to make sure that Ziyanda speed up the
process of me getting my money.
She goes to the computer and open it and mom appears on
the screen she looks weak and sick.
Ziyanda: Langelihle..
She looks up and wipe her tears.
Ziyanda: uMa uyaxolisa.(mom is sorry.)
More tears gushes out of her eyes I bite my cracked lower
lip.
I feel something sting on my cheek I just got a slap from
Layla.
Ziyanda: What is going on?
Layla: Making sure I get what's mine soon..
One man unties me from behind and I feel a stick hitting my
back, I groan..it hits me again I land on the floor.
Layla: You hear that Ziyanda! I'm not playing with you, your
precious baby boy will die..
Ziyanda: I am still collecting the money Layla please stop
tourturing my son, you will get all of it bring my son home
please..
The man continue to hit me, I feel my skin tear.
He get me up and make sit on the chair ans tie my hands
again.
Me: Mama... I ..will.. be.. ok.
Ziyanda: Please boy hold on for mom ok, your dad and
uncles will come there to give them the money, they will
bring you back home.
Layla close the laptop.
She screams happily.
Layla: That was easy we are rich baby.
*
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NARRATED
*
Luyolo is moving around they are going to the airport to
catch a private jet taking them to Italy, there is Carl, China,
Kwanele, Mandisi and Mlu, over the years they became more
than friends but they are family so all they want is to bring
their nephew home alive.
China: Mini me we will bring him home I promise.
He says hugging Ziyanda whom have developed eyebags
because she hasn't been getting enough sleep the past two
weeks.
Ziyanda: Please come back with him, Luyolo please..
She says moving to hug her husband tight and he kiss her.
Luyolo: I will bring our son back home.
Ziyanda: Be safe ok.
Luyolo: we will be safe, and we already know the location to
where she is keeping Langa and I don't think she has too
much backup since she's not expecting us to get there fast.
Ziyanda nods Ntsika and Nkanyezi wish their uncle
goodluck.
Ntsika: Dad be safe ok.
Luyolo nods and get in the cars and drive away to the
airport.
Ziyanda walks to her room she is tired.
Ntsika: Pink..
She slowly turns.
Ntsika: He will come back alive, I know he will, for you.
She smiles with tears in her eyes.
Ntsika: You have sacrificed alot for us and now its time we
live for you.
Ziyanda: You are a true Pillar I made no mistake when I
named you, Thank you so much baby.
Ntsika nods and walk away.
*
Its been over 18 hours in a flight they freshen up because
they will be landing in an hour in Rome.
They have no guns nor weapons with them but Carl
organised for them to get the guns as soon as they land and
the two cars they are going to use to get to where Layla is.
Two men who are wearing black suits come to them and
shake their hands.
Man1: gentiluomini.(gentlemen)
He gives them a nod speaking Italian Carl replies to them in
Italian.
Carl: Let's go guys our ride is here.
The all go to the two black SUVs and they are loaded with
guns.
Carl gives them the bag full of cash, they shake hands one
more time.
Man: Nice doing business with you.
He says in a accent, the guys get in the car and drive to
where Langa is kept it will take them two and a half our to
get there, they don't even have phones with them just Carl's
computer showing them the directions following the red
lights to Layla's phone that she used to call Ziyanda with.
*
Langa had fainted on the chair and a man with Layla poured
him with cold water that was in 10 litre bucket, he wakes up
gasping, his eyes are red and his skin is pale, he is shivering.
Langa: You..didn't have to do this to me Layla, I was willing
to give you a chance to have a relationship with me.
Layla: I didn't need no chance I have a life to live by myself
for myself.
Langa: I'm old..its not like I was going to follow you around I
just wanted to know the woman that gave birth to me.
Layla: I don't want to know you, you are just a ticket to my
good life.
Langa: You could have told mom to send you the money and
say I won't go back to South Africa before she does, not
torture me like this, she would have did that because she
loves me.
Layla: I tortured you to prove a point sweety that I can, and
seeing her miserable face was priceless and that gave me the
satisfaction.
Layla: Zack hit him again.
Zack her man starts beating up Langa's back with a stick all
he does is groan as he feels like his life is over.
They hear a loud bang Zack stop and they look at each other
with Layla.
Zack: Were you expecting anyone?
Layla shakes her head and attempt to leave the room but as
they open the door they are forced to step back as Luyolo is
pointing a gun at Zack's aiming for his head.
Zack raise his hand up in surrender, Layla does the same.
Luyolo: Where is my son?
Langa: Da..dad.
He says breathless.
Mandisi gets in with his gun since they started searching the
rooms, Luyolo rushes to Langa and untie his hands.
Luyolo: We are going home Langelihle, we are going back to
mom ok.
Langa falls to Luyolo's arms and Luyolo sniffs as the state
Langa is in breaks his heart.
Zack: Come on man we just need cash nothing more you can
take the kid.
Mandisi: No we are going home with both, Cash and Langa
and you, to hell.
Layla: Please don't kill me I just needed money.
The other guys get in too.
China: So these are the kidnappers huh, why are they still
breathing Ta-Loyd?
But Luyolo doesn't answer as he is still crying holding Langa
who is losing conciousness.
Luyolo: Just hold on boy ok, your mom is waiting for you at
home..(he whispers) Call the damn ambulance.(he shouts).
China points a gun at Layla.
China: Call the ambulance right now!!
Layla takes out her phone with her shaky hands.
She talks on the phone which she was ordered to put it on
loud speaker.
Layla: It's on the way please let us leave we won't bother you
again.
Luyolo gets up with Langa in his arms.
When he is at the door.
Luyolo: Kill them and lock them in here to rot, we will wait
for the ambulance outside.
He says walking out.
China's gun go off Layla falls on the floor, Mandisi's go off
Zack is down too..they walk out and Kwanele turns the key
and they all walk away to where Luyolo is waiting for help to
arrive.

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*
Luyolo is sitting on a chair next to Langa's hospital bed, he
has his head buried on the bed he is sleeping.
Langa moves causing Luyolo to wake up, he opens his eyes.
Luyolo: Thank God you're awake I thought you're dying.
Langa: I almost died if you didn't get there in time thank you
dad.
Luyolo: How are you feeling?
Langa: I'm hungry and Thirsty.
Luyolo: You will eat on the flight home my wife must be
worried sick so the doctor will be discharging you, they did
put a drip on, it helped with the dehydration. Tell me how
you really feel.
Langa: I betrayed Pink for someone who didn't give a damn
about me, I don't even know how I will look at her dad, I
don't know how I will face my mother, she told me, begged
me not to go but I chose not to listen, Layla didn't even
bother giving me just a glass of water, she didn't care even if
I died.
Luyolo: You did what you thought is right and Ziyanda
understands that and she can't wait to have you back home
ok.
Langa nods and the door opens and the uncles walk in and
stand next to his bed.
Mandisi: We need to leave before someone get in that house
and find the corpse in there because if that happens we
might never go back home, you're ok champ?
Langa nods.
Kwanele: Here go and dress up, we have to leave.
He hands Langa the new clothes they bought for him.
Luyolo help Langa up and go to the bathroom he takes a bath
with the help of his dad and he dress him up since he is still
weak.
*
They get in the cars and drive to the airport, Kwanele gives
Langa food and he starts eating immediately and fast he
finish it within a minute.
Kwanele: Do you want more?
Langa nods, Kwanele hands him another plastic with food
that was supposed to be his.
He finish it and drink juice.
Luyolo looks at him and clench his jaws, its clear to him that
Langa haven't been eating for days if not weeks.
*
When they in a flight Luyolo adjust a seat for Langa so he can
sleep he covers him with two little fleece that he found
inside the jet.
Langa falls asleep as he feels safe and now that he is going
back home to his mother.
*
Ziyanda have been going crazy now, It's the third day her
husband haven't contacted her about Langa, she is losing
hope. She tries calling Layla's numbers but it doesn't go
through.
Ziyanda: What if something happened to them.
She is talking to herself, she sits down and huff blinking the
tears away, Iyana sits next to her and brush her back.
Iyana: They will come back mom, be ok.
Ziyanda fails to keep it together she release a sob, and Iyana
cries too. Ziyanda: I.. can't..they..should be back by now..what
if..
Iyana: Mom no don't say it..
Ntsika and Nkanyezi walk in and they see their mother and
sister in tears they rush to them.
Ntsika: Has dad contacted you guys? Is Langa ok?
Ziyanda: They haven't called Ntsika what if something
happened to them what if..?God No..
She sobs loud Nkanyezi sits next to her and hugs her while
Ntsika comforts a crying Iyana.
They calm down but they sit in silence Ziyanda is just staring
in the same direction.
Cars pull over outside the house and Luyolo helps Langa out
and they all walk inside the house.
Ziyanda looks up and jumps at the sight of her husband and
her son.
Langa: Mom..
He says avoiding looking into her sad eyes, Ziyanda walk up
to him and hold him tight.
Ziyanda: You're alive, you're home..
Langa: I'm..sorry.
Ziyanda: It's ok Langelihle it's ok i'm happy you're home
safe.
Iyana hugs her brother sobbing in his chest.
Langa: It's ok mntakatata (father's child)
He hugs his brother Nkanyezi and then he shakes Ntsika's
hand and hug him.
Langa: Ngiyabonga mfowethu, ngiyabonga kakhulu. (Thank
you my brother, thanks alot)
Ntsika: Thank you for not giving up for fighting to live.
Langa: All for her right.
The three of them turn and look at Ziyanda who is in her
husband's chest.
Nkanyezi: "All for her."
*
The three brothers go to Nkanyezi's room they kneel down
and Ntsika burns the incense.
Ntsika: Siyabonga ngokuvikela umfowethu.( Thank you for
protecting our brother.)sesiyazi nihlezi nikhona nisibhekile(
we now know you are there watching over us) Phakathwayo,
Qwabe syabonga.( I thank you.)
Nkanyezi starts convulsing vigorously, his eyes rolls back
they become all white.
Ntsika: Khulumani nathi( speak to us) he says and the smoke
from the incense fills the room.
after a while Nkanyezi stops shaking and looks at them.
Nkanyezi: "Kumele sicele indlovukazi yethu, umama wethu
isivumele siyolanda ubaba newele lakhe la belele khona
sibase ekhaya ukuze siyomxolisela koLukhele nakoMzozo" (
We should beg our Queen, our mother to allow us to fetch
our father and his twin where they are buried and take them
home so that we can go apologise on his behalf to Lukhele
and to Mzozo family.) "Kwamele sizithobe kumama
simuncenge(We have to be polite and beg our mother.)
"Ntsika you will be our voice and that of our father and his
brother."
Ntsika nods, they get up and Langa go to his room to rest,
Ziyanda knocks and get in.
Langa: Hey Mom.
Ziyanda sit next to him.
Ziyanda: I'm happy you're home Langelihle.
Langa: How do you do it? How do you love a child that is not
yours biologically and a child who his father put you through
hell? How do you do it?
Ziyanda: I fell inlove with you the first day I held you in my
arms and when your father asked me to do it with him, to
raise you with him, I agreed because I love you and I loved
him he wasn't always a bad person. When you are given an
opportunity to be a parent to love a child you have to open
your heart. I forgot about blood and I saw a child that needs
love of a mother and I gave it to you because I know how it
feels to long for a mothers love but don't find it anywhere, I
gave it my all to show you guys just how much I love you.
Langa wakes up his eyes are red, he lays his head on his
mother's lap and let it all out.
Ziyanda: It's ok baby.
Langa: Thank you for loving me even when you didn't have
to maLukhele I love you, and I know what I did going to
Layla hurts you, you think you weren't giving me enough but
you are enough mom, I love you so much.
Ziyanda: I love you more Langelihle.

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NTSIKA
*
We have called a meeting to talk to Mom and dad and
Grandpa is here too he was away for some time I don't know
where he was but looks like he was having a good time
wherever he was judging by the jolly mood he is in.
Grandpa: Nomvula come hug grandpa you are the only one I
missed out of all these ugly people in this room.
Iyana blushes and hug grandpa they do get along and he is
the only one allowed to call her Nomvula.
Iyana: I missed you too Grandpa.
We all sit down and Aunt sunny and Granny Sphokazi bring
tea for all of us, Lwandle is here too Uncle Mandisi's and
Mbali's son but they are playing outside with Qhayiya.
Ziyanda: Ntsika I believe you have something you want to
say to us.
I clear my throat I really hope this won't upset her.
Me: Please Mom don't be upset, uh..
I take a deep breath.
Me: Nkanyezi had what I can call a vision of peace,
maLukhele don't be upset please, we beg you to show us
where Misokuhle and his brother are buried so we can take
their souls home to rest, then we can go ask for forgiveness
on his behalf to Lukhele family and also to Mzozo family
since he took you while you were someone alse's wife.
Please mom don't be upset.
I talk while looking down on the floor playing with my
fingers I'm scared that maybe she is sad and crying.
Ziyanda: Ntsika..
Me: Mama.
I'm still looking down.
Ziyanda: Look at me.
I slowly raise my head up to look at her, she gives me a
warm smile.
Ziyanda: I'm proud of you, all three of you, the support you
are giving each other, the love between you guys everyone
can see it, you are exactly how I wanted you to be.
Ntsika: You raised us well maLukhele.
Ziyanda: Thank you and about your request, It's ok your dad
and I will take you to where Misokuhle is buried then you
will do what you gotta do ok.
Ntsika: Thank you so much mom thank you.
*
I drive me and my brothers to KZN to meet Great-
Grandfather so he could tell us how we can do this.
We get out of the car and Great-grandfather meet us at the
gate with his stick he uses to help him walk.
G-grandfather: Benginilindele, senize nafika.( I have been
waiting for you, you have arrived.)
Me: Niyaphila mkhulu?( Are you well grandfather?)
G-Grandfather: Yebo ngiyaphila.(I am well.)
He takes us to his rondavel and he gives us two branches
with leaves.
G-grandfather: NtsikaYomzi uzosebenzisa lelihlahla ukubiza
Misokuhle Gumede naleli ukubiza uLethokuhle Gumede( You
will use this tree branch to call on Misokuhle and this one to
call Lethokuhle Gumede).
I nod.
G-grandfather: Ubatshele ukuth ubaletha ekhaya bazolala
ngokuthula( Tell them you're bringing them home to rest in
peace.)
Ntsika: Syabonga mkhulu (Thank you grandfather.)
G-grandfather: Ukhumbule awuhambi ukhuluma nabantu
endleleni Ntsika uze ufike ekhaya.(Remember you don't talk
to anyone on the way until you come back home.)
Yhoo this is hard mos but I can do it.
*
We go back home and mom and dad drive with us to some
house and they show us where they buried Miso and Kuhle.
Its just in the backyard of this house.
I start saying what grandfather told me and do exactly what
he said I must do then we leave for KZN again dad allowed
Langa to drive this time and we get there grandfather takes
us to the graveyard and I place the brances next to each
other.
Ntsika: Lalani ngokuthula boGumede ikhaya lenu leli(Rest in
peace, This is your home.
We stand up and they start slaughtering goats and
grandfather gave us money to buy two goats for cleansing
Lukhele family and also the Mzozo family.
We do all the apologising from mom's home to dad's home.
We have been busy with that the whole week now its over.
Mandisi: NtsikaYekhaya I'm proud of you boy and you two
Langa noNkanyezi feels like yesterday when I told you to
jump on your mom's bed while she was sleeping, she woke
up so ugly shame my poor sister.
Mom throws a cushion at him and we all laugh.
Mandisi: We've come a long way Sisi.
Ziyanda: And we are still going far bhuti.
They smile at each other you can feel their love.
Lukhele: I'm proud of all of you.
*
I haven't been calling Lathitha because I was busy,with my
brother kidnapped and the ceremonies my mind was just all
over the place but she hasn't called me either I don't know
what is her excuse, she should be back by tomorrow, its
Sunday and the schools are opening on monday.
I call her and a male voice answers.
Guy: Hello.
I remove my phone from the ear and look at the screen its
written in bold LATHI. I'm confused.
Guy: Hello.
Me: Who is this, isn't this Lathitha's phone?
Guy: Who is asking?
I hear a tiny voice at the back.
Lathi: Give back my phone Vuyo!
I wait for them to stop whatever game they are playing.
After a while they stop the noise they were making.
Lathi: Oh my God he is still on the line..Ntsika!
I don't say anything.
Lathi: Hello!
I breath..
Me: Lathitha..
Lathi: Ntsika..
Her voice is low and shaky.
Me: Who was that?
Lathi: It's Vuyo.
Me: What is he to you? Your PA?
Lathi: No.
Me: What is he to you?
Lathi: Just a boy from the area.
Me: What is he to you Lathitha?
Lathi: Nothing, he is just asking me out , nothing else.
Me: Do you like him?
Lathi: No, Ntsika he took my phone forcefully when you
called and insisted answering it.
Me: Ok.
I drop the call and sleep on my bed facing up.
My phone rings its Lathi, I let it ring, it stops ringing and
start once again I look at it again and close my eyes, I'm
really tired i'm drifting off to sleep.
I wake up, Nkanyezi is shaking me.
Me: "Why are you waking me up."
He shows me my phone, I look at it it flashes LATHI on the
screen and it stops ringing it has 14 missed calls all from her
and 3 messages.
Nkanyezi: "What did she do?"
Me: "Nothing."
I read the messages*Why did you drop the call* *Ntsika it's
not what you think.* *Please pick up.*
I call her.
Lathi: hey I...I..
Me: You stutter now? How old is he?
Lathi: He..he is 22years old.
The fuck..I just drop the call. She calls again.
Lathi: I swear Ntsika we are..
Me: Ayi bye Lathi.
Lathi: Ntsik ...
I drop the call, maybe she is into guys that are older than me
I mean i'm 17 he is 22 probably alot more expirienced than
me.
I groan getting out of bed going to the kitchen to eat.
*
It's sunday I wake up with my phone ringing.
Me: Sure.
Lathi: Please don't hang up , look can you fetch me at the
market around 10:3o am and take me home I have bags and
my parents are coming home later and we need to talk
please.
Me: Ok..call me when you are close.
Lathi: Thanks.
I check the time its already 10:oo am this girl is crazy calling
me at 10:oo to fetch her at 10:3o she just broke the record of
'short notice'.
I get to the market at 10:40 am I can see her wearing shorts
and a white sweater, she looks adorable.
I hoot two times she looks at the car and walk up to it, I get
out and load her bags inside the boot then go back to drivers
seat she gets in on the passenger seat.
Lathi: Hi.
Me: Hello.
I start the car and we drive in complete silence.
We get to her home, I unload her bags and put them next to
the gate.
Lathi: Please help me take them in.
I do that in silence too.
We get to her room and place the bags down.
Lathi: Please Ntsika don't give me the silent treatment, He is
not my boyfriend I promise.
Me: You don't like him?
Lathi: No I only like you, you have to believe me.
Me: It's ok come here.
She sits on my lap and hug me.
Me: Uthini ugogo( What did gogo say)
She sighs.
Lathi: She said I must tell you to stop playing with my boobs.
I choke on my spit.
Me: What!?
Lathi: Apparently she can tell that someone is playing with
them.
We start laughing , is that even possible but then old people
have their way of knowing things.
Me: I missed you, I had a very busy week.
Lathi: Me too, We were washing blankets, fetching water all
the chores that us farm girls do.
*
I touch her face kissing her lips and it sends shock to my dick
it erects immediately.
I take off her sweater and her boobs are just so good.
Me: Can I play with them a little?
She nods, I start sucking and licking her nipples and pinching
them.
She release a loud moan.
I get up and lay her in bed taking off my clothes looking at
her but she looks away as I take off my pants and my boxers
my dick is ponting up and it keeps twitching.
I take off her shorts she's left with a panty.
I get on top of her and kiss her roughly she gladly return the
kiss.
I want her so bad..
Me: Fuck..eish..
I move my hands to her cookie, I remove her panty and
spread her pussy lips, I can see she is tight and never done
anything.
Me: Can I play here I promise I won't put it in.
She nods slowly.
I stroke my dick and I start moving the tip on her clit, she
grabs the sheets aching her back. I continue rubbing my dick
from her clit to her hole up and down.
Me: Aah Lathi, Please fuck..
I focus on rubbing her clit with my dick faster.
Lathi: Ntsi...Ntsika..aah..
Me: Just...please let me put it in a little.
Lathi: No..
I continue pressing her clit.
Me: Shit..
I move it from the clit and move it in circles outside her hole..
She moans out loud.
Lathi: Aaaah!!God aah..
I push it in a little, I feel her nails on my waist.
I look into her eyes, She wants me but I can't do this to her.
I move my dick back to her clit and go faster I cum just above
her clit.
I sleep next to her, she face the other side, I make her turn to
face me.
Me: Are you ok?
She nods a little and bite her lower lip.
Lathi: I was tempted to give you my virginity Ntsika, I almost
let you do it.
Me: But I didn't relax ok, I love you.
Lathi: I love you too, now you have to go before mom comes
back.
I get dressed and she accompany me to the car, I kiss her and
drive home.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
We have been back in school for a week now I call Lathi
almost everyday but since yesterday she hasn't been
answering or returning my calls.
I decide to drive to her school to see her.
I wait outside the school gate as it is after school.
I see her walking home, I follow her home with a car.
I see a car stopping next to her and a guy gets out and she
stops
I park and look at them.
The guy talks to her and they hug each other I see his hands
going to her butt but she quickly push him away.
I get out of the car, I came here to see my girlfriend and I'm
not going without talking to her.
I get to them and I tap Lathi's shoulder she turns and gasp in
shock when her eyes lands on me.
Lathi: Ntsika.
Me: Lathitha I have been trying to call you since yesterday
but i can't reach you.
Guy: Lathi who is this?
Lathi: Vuyo just leave me alone.
Me: No..don't man, I just came to see my girlfriend, i'm
leaving..
I turn, I feel a pang in my heart its the same Vuyo that was
answering her calls back home now he is here grabbing her
ass right in my face.
*
I feel a tiny hand grabbing my arm and forcing me to turn, I
look at her she is blinking rapidly, I stare at her, she is
beautiful, I get lost in her eyes, I place both my hands on her
cheeks and start kissing her, she kiss me back, Until a force
pull us apart and push me so hard I stumble back and look at
him.
Vuyo: What do you think you're doing man? kissing my
girlfriend right infront of me.
I look at Lathi she shakes her head blinking at me, all I want
to do is kiss my girlfriend and tell her I love her then leave.
Ntsika: Lathitha..
Lathi: Ntsika.
Ntsika: What is going on? Why is he saying you're his
girlfriend?
I ask in a shaky voice, there is a lump in my throat.
Vuyo: Because she is mine, I will make her my wife soon our
families know this, so leave man.
I stare at Lathi she looks away, I move to her and hold her
face.
Me: What is going on Lathi?
She just burst into tears, the guy push me again and punch
me on my jaw, I spit blood, Maybe I am missing a tooth right
now. My focus is on Lathi.
Lathi: Ntsika are you okay?
I look at her one more time then get to the car and drive
away.
I get to school I can hear Langa's laughter inside our room, I
get in and go straight to the bathroom, I'm shaking, I wash
my face then go back to my brothers and Alex.
Me: "When did you get here.?"
Langa: "An hour ago I just missed you guys I wish I stayed in
this school."
Me: "Well it's too late now."
They go on talking and laughing.
Langa: NTSIKA!
He shouts and I look at him.
Langa: "I have been calling you where is your mind at."
I shake my head.
Me: "What were you saying."
Langa: "What happened to your cheek its swollen."
Me: "Some dude punched me."
He gets up and his face is now pink, pretty boy is angry.
Langa: "And you let him? Where is he? Where the fuck is
he?"
Coloured boy in him is coming out alright no offence but
when Langa is angry he cuss and look for a fight right there
and then.
Me: "Leave it man, it's not a big deal."
Langa: Like hell it isn't , where is the fucker that did this to
you, where the fuck is he?
Me: "I said leave it Langa geez!"
I'm nursing my bruised ego here and he is busy shouting and
cussing, Lathi has a boyfriend and its not me, he said he will
be marrying her soon, then what am I? This is what I left
Ezile for.
Nkanyezi sits infront of me.
Nkanyezi: "Brother you're crying? Pillar what's going on."
I touch my face I really do have tears in my eyes.
Me: "It's Lathi, She has a 22 years old boyfriend and he said
he is marrying her soon."
Nkanyezi: "Marry her? But Lathi is young isn't she 15."
I take my phone and try to call her but no one picks up. I sigh
closing my eyes.
*
I drive to her home and park and wait for her, I need her to
tell me what is really going on.
A car parks behind me and I see the same guy and Lathi
comes out.
Looks like the guy is shouting at her.
I get out of the car.
Lathi: Bring back my phone Vuyo or I am telling mom and
dad.
Vuyo: I don't care Lathi you're mine and I won't let a
small boy have you, you were kept pure for me and you will
be till we get married.
Lathi: I will never marry you fool.
All along I'm standing outside the car listening to them none
of them have noticed i'm there.
Vuyo: You are calling me a fool Lathi?
Lathi: Damn right I am..
These people are fighting like couples maybe I shouldn't be
here.
I get back in the car and look at them one more time, he is
holding her hand now, I remove my glasses and wipe my
eyes and put my head on a sterring wheel for a while, I hear
a passenger door opening I look next to me it's Lathi, I look
down.
Lathi: How long have you been here?
Me: Long enough to see you arguing like how lovers do.
Lathi: It's really not what you think.
I chuckle
Me: You know what I think? I think you should get out of this
car right now.
Lathi: I..he is nothing to me Ntsika I promise, I love you.
Me: I think I made a mistake by leaving Ezile for you, if you
gonna do this to me Lathi I..
Lathi: Oh..bye then Ntsika go back to her.
She steps out of the car and walk away.
I mean what can I do, I can't even call my girlfriend because
her phone is with another man, I can't take that.
*
I get off the car and stand infront of her house and blow a
whistle, I see her peek on the window then she come out.
Lathi: You can come in.
She says and get back inside,I find her in her room.
Lathi: I..i'm..
I pull her up and kiss her then I take off all her clothes.
Lathi: Wait..
I push her to bed, I put my head between her thighs and start
licking her, she screams my name and her body shakes.
Lathi: haah!
I move away from her and get up fixing my boner.
Me: If you don't want that guy make it clear to him Lathi or
you won't ever see me again, I want to call you in the
evening if I don't talk to you then this is over.
She gets up from the bed and walk up to me her naked body
makes me shiver.
Lathi: That's not fair Ntsika he won't bring back my phone.
Me: This relationship is in your hands Lathi, you will decide
if you want me or him, I will make that phone call later.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
I have been trying to call Lathi as promised but it rings
unanswered, My heart is beating fast I don't want us to end,
she makes me feel things I've never felt in my life, she makes
me feel like a man, but as I said if she doesn't answer my
calls, then it is over between us.
I call her one more time and someone picks it up.
Vuyo: Just give up already, she is mine, nerd.
Yeah it's over alright. I sleep with my heart broken.
I tell Nkanyezi that it's over between me and Lathi.
Nkanyezi: "What happened? I hope you didn't cheat again
Ntsika."
Me: "This time it's all her."
*
It's been a week without hearing from Lathi so it's officially
over between us, I really hope she is happy with him as I was
willing to give her my all but it is what it is.
Mom called and asked me and Nkanyezi to take Qhayiya to
the dentist because his gums are swollen.
We drive home and take the little guy there and after we go
to the mall because he is demanding a pizza and I thought he
can't eat because his gums are painful all he said is "
NtsikaYekhaya I cannot go back home without eating just
one slice yhoo I'd die"
Me: Why don't you call me bhuti like Iya and I'm not
NtsikaYekhaya I'm just Ntsika.
Qhayiya: Ok bhuti Just Ntsika.
Me: Ndikukhabe unye ke.(I'll beat you and you'll shit
yourself.)
Qhayiya: And I will tell Pink.
We go inside the mall he walks between me and Nkanyezi,
he points at everything saying he "needs" it. I call his mother.
Ziyanda: Hello babe.
Me: Really mom I am babe? Do I sound like dad?
She laughs.
Ziyanda: Uthini NtsikaYam ngiyasebenza bro(What are you
saying, I'm working bro.)
Me: Bro your son here wants everything, he even forced us
to buy pizza just send money sisi please.
Ziyanda: Xelela uTatakhe kaloku, i'm broke too just like
you.(tell his father then)
Me: Pink I do have money but its not for spoiling uQhayiya.
Ziyanda: It's for spoiling uLathi huh?
And she just had to say that name I'm trying so hard to
forget.
Me: It's ok mom but you will pay Nkanyezi back because I'm
going to use his card.
Ziyanda : That one is stingy he will want his money back
today.
As I'm still talking to mom I see Lathitha she is with Vuyo in
some boutique that sells Traditional wedding attires.
Me: Mom we will talk when we get home.
Lathi's eyes meet mine she quickly looks away.
We continue walking to a Pizza shop and wait for our order,
They get in and sit in the table next to the door.
Nkanyezi: "Is that Lathi?"
I nod.
Nkanyezi: "That's the dude she left you for?"
I nod again, all I want is to get out of here.
Our order comes we get up and Qhayiya takes the pizza and
quickly turn only to collide with Vuyo and his pizza slips
from his hands to Vuyo's shoes.
Vuyo: WHAAT THE FUCK!!
he shouts and everyone turns to look at us, I see Lathi
coming to stand next to her boyfriend or should I say fiance.
She hold his arm, I look at her she avoids my eyes , I stare at
her.
Vuyo: Stupid boy! can't you look where you're going?
Qhayiya steps back and stand next to us, Vuyo looks at me
for a long time and then look at Nkanyezi.
Vuyo: Is he with you? You need to pay for these shoes do you
know how much they cost?
We just look at him.
Lathi: Let's go Vuyo.
Me: Lathi..
She shakes her head, I don't even know why i'm calling her
name.
I look at Qhayiya and he looks like he is about to cry.
Nkanyezi: "Order another one for him Ntsika then we will go
home."
Qhayiya: "Thank you brother."
Vuyo looks at my brothers shocked
Vuyo: You are friends with deaf people Lathi? These people
are cursed.
Nkanyezi: "Is he talking about me?"
I shrug my shoulders I really don't want to talk right now. I
go order another Pizza and we sit down, vuyo is still cussing
wiping his shoes. Lathi is just looking down.
Nkanyezi: "Oh I will catch him outside alright, he doesn't
know me at all."
Ntsika: "Leave it Nkanyezi."
He shakes his head and I know he will start a fight.
Vuyo and Lathi get their order first then ours follow, we
walk to the parking, their car is not far from where we
parked, Nkanyezi walk up to them, I sigh.
Me: stay in the car and eat your pizza ok, I need to get your
brother.
I follow Nkanyezi he is looking at Vuyo.
Nkanyezi: "I want you repeat what you said."
Vuyo looks at him confused.
Vuyo: Hey dude I don't understand this shit, get out of my
face.
Nkanyezi throws a punch, he balance with his car, then he
turns to Nkanyezi who throws another one that lands him on
the ground with one knee.
Lathi: Ntsika tell him to stop..
Me: He is done.
I take my brothers hand and we walk to the car and drive
home.
*
Around 6 o'clock pm a message comes through in my phone
its an unsaved number. *I booked a room for us in the lodge
down my street, Room no.10 I will be waiting for you there.
Lathi*
I read it five times, then decide to freshen up and get in the
car driving there, maybe this is a prank or a trap for her
fiance to beat the crap out of me.
I get there and knock on the room.
She opens and let me inside.
She sits in bed, she is wearing a white silky night dress and
it's very short.
Me: Why am I here Lathi?
Lathi: I want to tell you that I'm sorry for everything.
Me: What is everything?
Lathi: Uhm truth is I love you Ntsika so much. Growing up
my parents and Vuyo's parents were calling each other "in-
laws" I thought this was just a joke but when I was twelve
we were both called in the family meeting where my parents
and Vuyo's parents told us we will get married once Vuyo
starts working and that I shouldn't date anyone except him,
but I didn't see Vuyo that way I still don't..so my
grandmother had to make sure I remain a virgin till I get
married to Vuyo.
Me: Then why did you lead me on knowing very well that
you have a fiance out there, why Lathi?
Lathi: I love the way you make me feel Ntsika, I don't want to
lose you.
Me: So what do you suggest I do about that, you are set to be
someone's wife Lathi.
Lathi: I only want you, Please just make me a woman, I want
you to take it.
I don't get what she's saying.
She comes closer to me.
Lathi: I want you to break my virginity.
Me: No..
Lathi: Ntsika please..
Me: You have to break things off with Vuyo don't do what
you might regret just to stop this marriage of yours, I refuse
to be used to break whatever arrangements you had with
your parents.
She takes off her nightdress and she is left with only her
panty.
My feelings want to betray me, I want her.
Me: I have to go Lathi..
Tears falls down her eyes she sit down and cover her face, I
go to her.
Lathi: He is verbally abusive Ntsika, he says everything to
make me feel small,I can't take it..
Me: Why don't you tell your parents Lathi.
Lathi: They won't believe me, in their eyes he is a well
mannered boy who has done well for himself, nothing he
ever does is wrong to them, he took my phone and when I
told them, I was the one in the wrong.
Me: Yhoo..
Lathi: I want you nobody else, i'm young Ntsika I don't want
to be trapped in a marriage with someone I don't love.
Me: Ok baby how about you convince your parents to let you
finish school first and we will figure something out ok, You
don't have to give me your virginity because you feel
pressured but it has to happen when we are both in it, I love
you.
Lathi: I love you..
Me: Now get dressed because your body is making me feel
things and I might take you up on that offer of sexing you
right now.
She smiles and wear her nightdress, we get in bed and sleep
with her in my arms God I missed her.
My phone is ringing , I answer.
Me: Hello..
I'm still sleepy.
Luyolo: Ntsika!
I sit up fast causing Lathi to jump.
I mouth "sorry" to her.
Me: Baba (dad)
Luyolo: Where are you?
Me: I uh..uhm I'm just ..I went to Alex.
Luyolo: Mmmm.. I need you back home in an hour boy.
He drops the phone, I look at the time its 7:o5 am.
Me: We overslept.
Lathi: I know..
Me: And why are you not panicking? what will you tell your
parents?
Lathi: I will figure something out, thank you for being here
with me.
Me: Yeah and I have to be home in an hour.
She gets ontop of me, and starts grinding on me she have her
panty on and I'm still in my boxers.
Me: Stop doing that, you are going to make me wet myself.

She continue grinding.

Me: Shit...
I pull her panties to the side and rub her clit faster..she
trembles, I swiftly move her, she lays on her back, I put her
leg on my back and dry hump her till I cum on my boxer
shorts...
Me: God damn aah..
I catch my breath..I look at her she hides her face.
Lathi: I can't believe i'm doing all this..
Me: Being a virgin doesn't mean you have to limit yourself,
explore other parts of your body without an actual
penetration, That's what I tell myself everyday.
Lathi: So you were serious when you said you haven't done it
with anyone?
Me: Yes..
Lathi: But you seem like you have experience with these kind
of things.
Me: I am a curious person by nature I watch porn and also I
listen to my body, and I can read yours too I know where to
touch and where my focus should be to make you cum, sex is
not always about penetration, oral is the best,sex is natural
you don't have to go to school for it but just understand your
body.
Lathi: Wow I hear you, and you should be a motivational
speaker.
We laugh.
Me: Motivate people about sex yeah right..
Lathi: No..I mean the way you talk people would listen.
Me: Maybe I will be more than that in future, a motivational
speaker that is. Look I have to go ok I'm still going to get a
beating at home.
Lathi: I will probably get one too and they will send me to
Grandma to check if i'm still a virgin.
She sighs.
Me: I love you ok.
She nods, now I don't know what I'll do with my boxers, I'm
just standing there looking down on my wet boxer short.
Lathi burst in laughter, I look at her.
Me: What!
Lathi: I can see you don't know what you going to do with
that.
She point at my crotch and she get off bed and takes her
backpack and take out her panty.
Lathi: Here wear this..
She has tears with all the laughing she is doing, I'm just
defeated looking at her my jaws dropped.
I just sit in bed and watch her as she is still laughing out loud
holding her knees, she is almost out of breath.
Me: Lathitha..
Lathi: Sorry it's just that..aaah!!
She continue to laugh..
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
NTSIKA
*
I left the lodge and Lathi was still pretty much laughing at
my ass, She told me she will go back home later because she
is "a missing bride" her words. Slowly but surely she is
opening up and being herself around me, I can bet with my
life that she is in it deeply, she loves me as much as I do her.
I park the car and walk inside the house I find everyone
eating breakfast, they all turn to look at me, I wish the
ground can swallow me, it feels like oldies know what I have
been up to in that lodge with my baby.
Me: Uhm Hello everyone.
Qhayiya: Bhuti wami( My brother)
He says with a bright smile, I smile awkwardly.
Luyolo: Are you just going to stand there or you are joining
us.
Ziyanda: Oh hell no he needs to take a bath we don't know
what he's been up to the whole night out there.
Can an earthquake hit this house I need those cracks right
now.
I walk away looking down and I take off my boxer short
which is wet but Lathi at least gave me her towel to wipe the
semen off it.
I take a shower then wear clean clothes then go join the
family at the table.
I try to dish up but my mother slap my hand.
Me: Ouch.
She start dishing up for me.
Ziyanda: We don't know where those hands have been.
Me: Mom I just took a shower.
Ziyanda: Exactly! You took a shower because you know what
you've been up to Ntsika.
Yhoo this woman.
Mandisi: Sowuyavukelwa manje Ntsika ( You get an erection
now)
I choke and spill the coffee on my T-shirt, Langa and
Nkanyezi keep their heads down probably laughing at me.
Ziyanda: You're disgusting Bhuti.
Mandisi: Ay Ziyanda you're the one who was implying that
he was doing dirty stuffs last night.
Ziyanda: I didn't imply anything , and I definitely wasn't
talking about erections maarn.
Mandisi: Yeah right..I still want to know though Ntsika.
Me: Uhm Dad can I wash your car.
Mandisi: running away I see , wash mine too boy.
I get up fast and leave the room, how I wish I could call Lathi
and tell her I'm already home but she has a husband who
took her phone.
*
NKANYEZI
*
So I have been talking to someone on facebook , her name is
Miyalo Emihle Mkhabela, she actually is the one who invited
me but we haven't talked much, she shared that she is a first
year student and she works part time at a night club here in
Durban, she is beautiful but most of her pictures she is
showing alot of skin but it's her body I'm not judging.
Miyalo: *You should visit me some time Nkanyezi you said
your home is not far from where I live.*
Nkanyezi: *Yeah I will let you know when I get time.*
Miyalo: *And use the number I gave you Nka, you can call me
anytime.*
Nkanyezi: *Can I be honest with you?*
Miyalo: *Yeah ofcause.*
Nkanyezi: * I can't talk Miya, I am disabled, I'm deaf.*
I wait for a few minutes for her to reply but nothing maybe I
scared her, people are scared of us disabled people.
Nkanyezi: *Miya, talk to me.*
Still no reply I huff, at least Indiphile situation taught me
never to invest all your feelings to someone you hardly
know, I am dissapointed but not as I was before with Indi..I
was ready for rejection this time around it hurts me but just
a little.
I go to dad's gym and start blowing off some steam on a
punching bag, I'm sweating.
I see mom standing infront of me in her gym clothes, she
smiles at me, my mother is just beautiful, I return the smile.
Me: "I love you."
Ziyanda: Thank you, "Want to take a break."
I nod and we sit on the bench she gives me water and I drink
up.
She touch my shoulder I look at her.
Ziyanda: "Talk to me Nkanyezi yami"(My star)
She knows every one of us when we are happy or sad, she is
the first to notice.
Me: "I just wish people weren't so judgemental in this world
over things you have no control over such as disability."
She looks at me in the eye.
Ziyanda: " I know how you feel but what I can tell you is
don't try to make them understand for it is not your fault
Star, don't explain your self, you are deaf and that's it, take is
as a sport not everyone is good at it some fail dismally, so
with you take it as you fail to talk and hear but you are good
at sign language but most would fail dismally at it. You are
just as good in sign language and they are good at speaking,
so why would you feel intimidated? let them be intimidated
by you using that sign language so effortlessly baby."
Me: "Wow Thank you mom, I get it now."
Her words hits deep and I understand what she's saying, You
are good at speaking and I am good at sign language why
should I be intimidated or feel small just because you can do
what I can't do while you yourself can't do what I can do.
I smile at this amazing woman next to me who looks like my
older sister, we've had people thinking we are siblings when
we are at the mall some were even hitting on her right
infront of us thinking we are just younger brothers.
Me: "Ok back to work love."
Ziyanda: "I love you ok."
I wink at her we start taking turns in a punching back and
when we are done, I go to my room and take a shower and
take my phone looking at my messages and Miya has replied.
Miyalo: *Hey Star, I'm sorry about earlier I was just shocked
that's all I'm not judging you at all ok.*
I feel my heart at ease.
Me: *So you don't have a problem with me being deaf and
can't talk.*
Miyalo: *No I don't I still want to meet you I think you're an
amazing person. But I have to ask how do you communicate
with people?*
I smile to myself.
Me: *I use sign language and my brother is usually my voice
if I meet someone who doesn't understand my language.*
Miyalo: * So at home are they able to communicate with
you.*
Me: *Yes all of them even my younger sister and brother can
communicate with me though they are still learning they
take sign language as their second language and my twin
brother it is our first language we go to the same school.*
Miyalo: * Oh so your brother is in the same school but can
talk.*
Me: *Yes we didn't want to be separated from each other so
we were enrolled in the same school we've been together
ever since.*
Miyalo: *He sounds like a great person.*
Me: *He means everything to me, his name is Ntsika.*
Miyalo: * I can't wait to meet you guys.*
Me: * We will meet soon, and thank you for not judging me
Miya, I have to rest My mom and I were at the gym so I'm
tired.*
Miyalo:*Your family seems cool huh gym with mom , we will
talk later Star.*
I throw myself in bed smiling. I don't want to be forward as I
was with Indi so I will take one step at a time with this one.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
NKANYEZI
*
I have asked my brother Ntsika to go on this date with me,
we are meeting Miyah and I'm nervous just a bit because this
time I was honest about my disability.
Ntsika: "I'm really proud of you for being honest to her not
make us switch places."
I smile at him.
Me: "Let's go we are going to be late and this time I feel
really good about this date."
We go to the car and he drives to UShaka Marine world, our
meeting is at one of the restaurant there, we sit down at the
table and order drinks, I think we are a bit early. So we are
just conversing.
Me: "So what's happening between you and Lathi?"
Ntsika: "It's really complicated but she loves me, she is set
out to marry that guy she was with."
Me: "Like an arranged marriage?"
Ntsika:"Yes, I still don't know what we will do to stop it, she
thinks breaking her virginity will work."
My brother and I talk about almost everything, we even
talked about the first time I had wet dreams and he did the
same because he had them after me.
Me:"And you don't think that will work?"
Ntsika: "No..I want us to do it because we both want to and
feel it, not to do it because of other reasons we won't enjoy it
at all."
Me: "I hear you."
We both look at the side and a goddess is standing right next
to us looking at us in Awe, her mouth is hung opened. We
both get up with Ntsika and look at her.
Miyalo: I..I..wow uhm so which one of you is Nkanyezi? wow
i'm so embarrased I can't tell which one of you is my date.
I smile at her, she looks like she wants to run away.
Me: "I am Nkanyezi."
Ntsika: "I am Ntsika."
Miyalo: Guys come on, I don't get it, You are Ntsika right?
She points at me and Ntsika laughs.
Ntsika: Hi I am Ntsika and that is Nkanyezi, you look like you
want to get out of here, I'm sorry about that, you can have a
seat.
We all sit down and she looks at me and smiles looking
away.
Me: "Brother I will be reading her lips, you can only be my
voice and translate for her."
She looks fascinated but a bit of sadness in her eyes you can't
miss.
Ntsika: Oh uhm Miyalo my brother will be reading your lips,
I will only tell you what he is saying ok, so don't feel
somehow if his eyes don't leave your face ok.
Miyalo: Ok I understand, you guys make it look so easy, You
know I was watching you talking it was beautiful to watch, it
was like watching the same person in one table speaking to
himself in sign language.
Ntsika laughs.
Me: "You look beautiful."
Ntsika: He says you look beautiful.
Miyalo: Thank you..
She blushes and my heart flutters.
We talk about general stuffs, I think she is good person, she
keeps stealing glances at me and looking away.
Me: "Have something to say?"
Ntsika tells her what i'm saying and she blushes more
shaking her head.
Our date go on for a while and we get up, Ntsika pays the bill
and we walk out.
Ntsika: My work here is done, it was nice meeting you Miya,
hope we will meet again soon.
Miyalo: Nice meeting you too Ntsika and Thank you for all
this.
Ntsika: He is my brother, I'd do anything for him. Bye "You
will find me in the car."
I nod and look at Miya, she look down. I raise her chin up
with my finger.
"I want to taste your lips." I say.
Miyalo: I don't understand w...
She doesn't have to, I grab her waist bring her body closer to
mine, and our lips meet , we kiss for a while and she step
back and look into my eyes.
Miyalo: I want to learn..I want to learn how to communicate
with you in your language.
I smile at her.
Me: "I will teach you."
She looks at me confused.
I take out my phone and type "You will learn in due time, I'm
willing to teach you."
She smiles and nod, she lays her head on my chest holding
me tight, then step back.
Miyalo: I have to go, we will chat tomorrow morning, I'm
working later.
"We can drop you off at your place if you don't mind" I type
and show her.
Miyalo: Ok that's fine, thank you.
We go to the car and I tell Ntsika we are driving Miya to her
place, she gives him directions.
*
NTSIKA
*
I am happy that my brother's date went well yesterday, He
has been smiling eversince we dropped off Miya.
But I'm worried about Lathi who have not contacted me at
all, I last saw her yesterday morning, I'm in a dull mood.
It's 11 in the morning, I haven't taken a bath and I skipped
breakfast all I have been doing is checking my phone every
now and again, I call her number but it's on voicemail.
I wake up and go take a shower then get dressed, I take the
car keys and walk out of the room. I find dad sleeping on the
couch and his phone is on loudspeaker he is talking to mom.
Ziyanda: 'You are going to fetch me today right babe..'
Luyolo: Yep, I want us to do it in your office today.
Mom laughs.
Me: Do what?
Luyolo: mind your own business boy I'm talking to the love
of my life.
Ziyanda: 'Ntsika are you ok? I heard you skipped breakfast.'
Me: Yeah I'm fine Pink I wasn't hungry.
Ziyanda: Ok then love you bro.
Me: I love you too sthandwa sam(my love). Dad I'm going
out, I'll be back before you know it.
Luyolo: Sure Pillar.
He gives me his fist and I fist bump him and walk out.
*
I'm driving to Lathi's house, I don't know if I'll find her there
or if her parents are around or not.
I park right out of her gate, I look around I don't see a car in
her yard, I get out and walk in.
I knock on the door but no one answers, I go back to the car,
another car park behind me and Lathi gets off he is with
Vuyo and another gentleman in a grey suit.
This gentleman bangs on my window, I roll it down.
Gentleman: Get off.
I slowly step out of the car abd stand infront of him.
Gentleman: Why are you parking infront of my house?
I look at Lathi, she look nervous.
Vuyo: This is the guy I was telling you about who is trying to
ruin Lathitha's future.
Lathi'sFather: So you are the boy who is making my
daughter disrespect me. Huh?
Me: No I actually l..
A very quick punch lands on my nose I bleed immediately.
He throws another punch but he hit my arm as I try blocking
his punches.
Lathi: Dad stop you're hurting him.
But does he listen, No, he punch me on my stomach I groan
holding my stomach, the man looks older than dad so I can't
fight him even if I want to.
He grabs me by the shirt and bring me closer to his face.
Lathi'sfather: leave my daughter alone you hear me, leave
her or I will kill you.
I look at Lathi one more time, she is crying , I get back in the
car and drive home. I'm in pain and I think my nose broke.
I see dad is about to drive out, I drive in and park next to his
car, he rolls down his window.
Luyolo: I'm going to fetch your mother so..Ntsika! What
happened to your face?
Me: I got in a fight with some guy.
Luyolo: You mean you let someone beat you up like this.
Me: No dad, go you are going to be late.
Luyolo: So I wasted my time teaching you how to fight.
Me: No you didn't, I just don't like fighting.
Luyolo: I guess you like being beaten up then. Ay..
He drives out, and I get off the car walking inside.
*
I sleep and wake up when my phone vibrates under my
pillow.
Me: Hello.
Lathi: It's me, can you fetch me by my school.
Me: When?
Lathi: right now if you can please, I'm already waiting for
you.
Me: What? Lathi it's late and cold, what if you get sick or
someone try to hurt you.
Lathi: Please just come.
I get out of bed, put on my shoes and my jacket since I slept
wearing jeans and a shirt, I drive to where she is.
I find her shivering she is wearing a dress she was wearing
earlier only..she is brushing her arms.
Me: You want to get sick? Why aren't you wearing warm
clothes.
I pull her towards the car and open for her to get in, the. I get
in on my side, I put on a heater.
Lathi: Thanks, How is your face?
Me: I'll live..why are you here?
Lathi: I just wanted to be away from home and be with you,
Can you book us a room again, I just want to be in your arms
even if it's the last time.
Me: What do you mean by that Lathi? Did you ask your dad
to postpone the wedding till you finish school?
Lathi: I did but he didn't want to hear any of it especially
when Vuyo told him about you, the Lobola negotiations are
taking place this coming weekend.
She is talking resting her head on the seat looking up.
Me: No!
Lathi: I just want to be in your arms, I might be changing
schools too.
This is not happening to me, no.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
I booked a room using Nkanyezi's card because he left it in
the car, mine is at home and I didn't have cash with me.
I have been comforting a crying Lathi for the past two hours
now.
I am sad too, I'm losing her, she is going to be someone's
wife traditionally because I don't think courts can allow a 15
years old girl to get married.
Me: You should stop crying now Lathi you're going to get
sick baby.
She continues to cry till she falls asleep.
After a while, I sit up and call my brother Langa, I just want
to talk to someone.
Langa: Pillar..
Me: Hey bro you good?
Langa: yeah i'm good, you?
Me: I'm not, Lathi is getting married this coming weekend.
Langa: What!? didn't you tell me that she's fifteen.
Me: She is, her father arranged a marriage for her.
Langa: That's fucked up man, who still chooses for a person
who to marry in this century? How do you feel bro?
We ask each other that if one of us is sad, Mom taught us that
if we ask that question, it will help the next person to vent
out and let it all out so they won't bottle things up, because
bottling things up damages a person, he or she may end up
depressed or angry.
Me: I'm angry, sad, I mean I was looking forward to see this
relationship grow with us, I wanted us to figure this out
together, I wanted her to be my first and me, her first in
everything.
Langa: Eish sorry neh but you are a pillar you withstand
rainy days and storms this will pass ok bro.
Me: Yeah thank you man.
Langa: You are my brother.
Me: We are one.
I drop the call, Lathi touch my back.
Me: I'm sorry if I woke you up.
Lathi: You can still be my first Ntsika, right here, right now.
Me: But what about your family what will you tell them.
Lathi: I don't care about that, I'd rather allow someone I love
take my virginity not Vuyo.
She starts kissing me, I kiss her back, the kiss is so
passionate it raises many emotions in me.
I take off her dress, her nipples are so erect, I grab her boobs
and play with her nipples with my thumbs.
She moan throwing her head back, I stop and get up to take
off my clothes and go back to bed.
I kiss her again, and run my hand all the way to her cookie, I
move her panty to the side still kissing her, I rub her clit she
moans in my mouth.
I open her thighs and get inbetween them, pulling her legs
up. I trace my tongue all the way to her belly button then
take off her panty.
I start rubbing and licking her pussy, her moans are like
music to my ears.
I stop sucking when I see how wet she is down there.
I look at her she stares at me like she is looking into my soul.
Lathi: Please do it Ntsika..
Me: Are you sure this is what you want Lathi?
Lathi: I'm sure.
I kiss her again and go down on her again, I try to insert my
middle finger but she moves back, must be sore.
I move my hand to touch her face and put my middle finger
in her mouth she suck it a bit, I remove it, then try to finger
her again, her walls are too tight.
Me: You want me?
Lathi: Yes..
Me: Then relax for me ok.
She nods, I play with her clit again, she grabs the sheets I see
her juices coming out.
I start rubbing my dick on her cum.
Lathi: Ntsika..
Me: Yes baby..
She doesn't say anything but moan.
I push my dick a little
Lathi: Aah!
Me: Does it hurt?
Lathi: Yeah..
Me: Just relax baby.
I push it in slowly and pull out, I push it again with a bit of
force this time, I see a little blood on my dick, I pull out again,
and go in again this time I push it till i'm fully in but I don't
move.
Me: Fuck..
I balance my hands on her either sides and kiss her.
Me: Are you ok?
Lathi: It hurts.
Me: I'm sorry baby.
I grab her butt cheek with my right hand and start moving
slowly, I feel her nails digging on my flesh.
I start thrusting while I pull her butt cheek towards me.
Me: Shit..Lathi..this is..fuck
Lathi: Babe..
Her hands are grabbing on my shoulders so tight.
I feel the urge to move faster, the pleasure I feel is out of this
world.
Lathi: Ntsika.No..yes..
I feel her walls clenching on my dick she shakes..
Me: Aah fuck....shit..shit..shit..fuck.
I cum deep inside her cookie, I move slowly to release all of
my cum.
She is still holding on to me tight around my neck, she sniffs.
Me: Baby.. hey Lathitha, look at me.
She shakes her head.
Me: Did I hurt you?
Lathi: No..
Then she release a very loud sob, I pull out my dick and get
off her.
I sleep next to her pulling her to my chest.
Me: It's ok baby..
Lathi: No it's not, I'm getting married and by the end of this
year I will be moving to some place else and you will move
on and forget about me but I don't want you to move on
Ntsika, I love you.
Me: It hurts me too Lathi more than you can ever imagine,
this moment right here means everything to me, I will
remember it for the rest of my life.
Lathi: I can't..I..
She gets up and limp to the bathroon, I follow her, I find her
in the shower water running down her body, she is
balancing her small hands on the wall.
I stand behind her holding her waist, She let go of the wall
and turns around, her eyes are puffy.
Lathi: I love you.
Me: I love you too.
I pick her up she wraps her legs around my waist and arms
around my neck.
Lathi: Don't let me fall..
Me: I won't baby..
Her back is against the shower's glass door, I put my dick in,
she tightly close her eyes.
Me: It still hurts?
Lathi: A bit.
I start moving in and out of her cookie, thrusting deep, she is
biting my shoulder and digging her nails on my skin, I'm sure
i'm bruised now.
Lathi: Ntsika!
Her inner walls clenches around my dick, I groan loud as I
cum inside her.
I walk out of the shower with her in my arms, I have dad to
thank for these muscles it's like he knew they will come in
handy in times like these.
We dry our bodies and get in bed, as she lay her head in my
chest
I forgot about tomorrow, that this might be the last time she
sleeps like this.
I kiss her forehead and hold her tight in my arms.
In the mornig we wake up and take a shower together then
we get dressed.
We sit in bed, I'm playing with her hands, she is looking at,
we are silent, no one wants to say goodbye but we have to.
Her phone vibrates, it's those phones that costs R150 or less,
she ignores it.
She blinks looking at me.
Lathi: I..I have to go now.
I have a lump stuck on my throat, I clear my throat hoping it
will go away but it doesn't go anywhere.
Me: Can I call you atleast this week before you go home.
Lathi: I'm leaving today, I hope when they realise I'm no
longer a virgin they will let me be and stop the wedding.
Me: I hope so too, call me anytime of day ok.
Lathi: I will..
She hugs me so tight.
Me: Why do I feel this is the last time I'm holding you in my
arms?
She doesn't answer but she gets up and walk out.
I sit for a while, but quickly get up rushing out calling her
name but I don't see her anywhere.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
We went back to school earlier today, I can't stop thinking
about Lathitha, she hasn't called me not even once, I want to
know if the wedding went on or not, Its Tuesday now, no
phone call from her.
I call my sister she picks up, she steals the phone she is not
supposed to take it to school, its lunchtime in her school
now.
Iyana: Bhuti.
Me: Hey Iya unjani(how are you.)
Iyana: good, how did you know I have my phone with me?
Me: I know you steal it, uhm sis I want to ask, did Lathitha
come to school yesterday?
Iyana: Uh yes she had the most beautiful ring on her finger
the teachers called her in the stuff room and asked her to
take it off but her dad came to school and told them she is
married can you believe that, she is 15 bhuti, like how is she
married?
Me: Wow!
Iyana: Don't say wow bhuti poor girl was crying in class
today and the teachers had to let her go home.
I don't say anything, couldn't she let me know that the
wedding went on.
Iyana: Wait why do you ask about Lathitha?
Me: Nothing Iyana, and leave the phone at home or I'm
telling dad.
Iyana: But bhuti It was just for today please don't tell that
grumpy man.
I chuckle and drop the phone.
Me: Yeah neh Pillar looks like you chose the wrong girl, but
why did it feel so right?
Nkanyezi stands infront of me.
Nkanyezi: You are talking alone Ntsika, are you okay?"
Me: "She is married."
Nkanyezi: " I'm sorry bro this must be hard on you."
Me: " I will get over it."
*
I drive to Iyana's school, hoping to see Lathitha but her
husband got there first, Iyana told me that she is picked up
by her husband at school, Iyana likes gossiping alot, you can
ask her one question and she will give you a whole
powerpoint of things you didn't ask.
I drive behind her husbands car, I look like a stalker now
right.
I see her opening a car and stepping out and Vuyo steps out
too looks like he is shouting at her..I grab on the sterring
wheel as I see her crying and running inside the house.
" He is verbally abusive." her words she once said rings in
my mind.
I turn the car and drive back to school.
I have to let go and move on right and stop stalking a
married girl but my heart screams for her.
*
NKANYEZI
*
I'm worried about my brother, this thing with Lathi is
breaking him apart, he is not the Pillar I know, he is just a
shadow of himself.
Langa is here we are talking with Miyalo planning on how
we can try to cheer Ntsika up. We are video calling Langa is
translating for me.
Miyalo: I was thinking that we take him out I will bring my
friend along maybe they will get along.
Langa: Bring two friends I will be there too.
Nkanyezi:"Langa be serious, and you have Elena do you want
her to kill us."
Langa: And that girl almost killed me in my sleep.
Miyalo is laughing, Langa's facial expressions are always the
best. He has a girlfriend her name is Elena she is older than
him, 6 years older to be precise, He started dating first, he
may be younger than me and Ntsika but he looks older and
he carries himself like he is old sometimes, hence dating
crazy older girls.
Miyalo: What did you do?
Langa: Hheeh So I was practicing being a player I invited
some girl over and were watching movies and eating snacks,
then boom the door opens and my darling Elena cames in
with a fakest smile on her face and told the girl to leave
"Politely" the girl left, we went to sleep it was all good, next
thing I woke up she had a knife in my throat, I screamed like
a bitch bro and ran out naked.
Miyalo is laughing the tears are rolling down her cheeks.
Miyalo: what happened next?
Langa: I came back and I told her if she tries to kill me my
dad is an ex military cop and he loves this coloured boy so
much that he won't hesitate to kill her white ass and bury
her in her home's door step, honey was shaking like a leaf
scared as fuck.
Miyalo can't stop laughing and I'm falling for her.
Me: "When am I visiting you."
Langa: Oh but I thought I was still telling my sad story, Miyah
he is asking when is he visiting you.
Miyah smiles and bite her lower lip.
Miyalo: Ok how about all three of you come to my place and
we will have a little get together with a few of my friends
that way we will be killing two birds with one stone, You
visit me and we cheer up Ntsika.
Nkanyezi: "I would love that, thanks."
Langa: Ay uthi uyakuthanda ( He is saying he loves you.)
I shoot him a look, he looks like he is whistling, mxm he is
crazy.
We say our goodbyes.
It's late and we don't know where Ntsika is we are starting
to get worried.
He comes in looking so calm and he sits in his bed.
Ntsika: "When did you arrive?"
Langa: "Earlier today I wanted to see how you're holding
up."
Ntsika: "I am getting there."
Me: "Tomorrow we are visiting Miyalo, are you keen."
Ntsika: "Sure I'm game."
He says taking off his clothes and gets in bed.
This is not the Pillar we all know and love, I need my brother
back.
*
We are on our way to Miyalo's place, but we start in town to
buy snacks, Pizza and two bottles of wine for the ladies, I
don't any of my brothers have consumed alcohol in their life,
I haven't.
Miyalo comes in the gate and sign us in, we get off the car,
she hugs my brothers and kiss my lips.
Ntsika: So you know which one is Nkanyezi today huh?
Miyalo: I went with my gut, you guys look the same.
Langa: What were you going to do if your gut was wrong and
kissed Ntsika instead?
She smiles shaking her head.
Nkanyezi: "You look beautiful."
Miyalo: "Thank you."
My eyes pop out, I'm stunned, shocked, turned on I don't
know, did she just said thank you in sign language?
Miyalo: That is all I know so far, I know you said I'm
beautiful, I saw you saying it the last time and I have been
watching YouTube videos and I learned how to say thank
you in sign language.
Langa: "Young love, you guys are adorable"
Ntsika: "So the girls that are here, do they know about my
brother's disability? I don't want any weird vibes."
He says it out while doing sign language.
Miyalo: Uhm Yes I told them, they are ok with it, not
everyone is judgemental you know.
Ntsika: I just wanted to be sure.
He has his serious face on, I know he is looking out for me,
he knows I struggle with the stares I get when I speak my
language, people who laugh at me when they realise I can't
talk so I understand why he had to ask.
We get in and Langa hands Miyalo the plastics we got, Her
flat looks beautiful.
Her friends come to greet us..
Miyalo: This is Athi, Mandy, Phumi and Rea..
She points at them looking at me, I nod.
Miyalo: Guys this is Ntsika, Langa and Nkanyezi.
They all smile and we sit down, and Mandy keeps stealing
glances at me and Ntsika is staring at her.
Ntsika: "You are Mandy right? Do you have something to
say?"
My brothers do this everytime we are around people, they
use sign language while speaking out to accomodate me and
also to move the attention away from me, because when we
use sign language together it takes away the attention from
only me but to us all and it makes me feel better.
Mandy looks at him with a smile.
Mandy: I just don't get why Miyah chose him when there is
you.
Miyalo: Mandy!
Ntsika: "Lady don't piss me off it's still early, Miyalo I asked
you about this didn't I?"
I touch his thigh.
Me: "Don't do that Ntsika, it's ok I didn't take offence in what
she said."
He nods. My mother warned us never to let anyone get
inbetween us, and to never allow people to make us believe
that one is better than the other, we are twins, brothers and
there shouldn't be any space for someone to cause me to
envy my brother just because he has a voice, Ziyanda once
said "His voice is your Voice too, Your language is his
language, you are one."
Miyalo looks at me, she looks sad.
Ntsika: "He is ok Miyah don't be sad."
She smiles at me, I smile back, this Mandy's eyes are still on
me.
Langa and Rea are dancing I guess that must be music
playing on TV.
Phumi and Miyah comes in with the wines we got earlier and
glasses they hand it to each of us and pour it.
Me: "Thank you."
Miyalo: I got you..
I take a sip, it taste pretty good but I think i'm good with just
this one glass. I don't know how I would act if i'm drunk and
I definitely don't want to find out here in my girlfriend's
place.
Langa and Rea are having a good time, they are laughing and
dancing we are watching them.
Miya sits next to me and Phumi next to Ntsika. Mandy and
Athi are sitting opposite us.
Mandy: Ntsika are you single?
He nods dismissingly.
Mandy: Interesting..
She says sipping on her wine.
*
Miyalo takes my hand and we go to the room, as soon as she
close the door she starts kissing me and we move to bed. She
removes my shirt and take off hers she is left with her bra,
her belly button has a ring.
She strips while standing infront of me, my member is
getting excited.
She unbutton my jeans and pull them down together with
my briefs, she takes them off.
She kneels and start stroking my dick looking at me.
Miyalo: You like that?
I nod this feels good, next thing her warm mouth covers my
whole dick, I grab her hair closing my eyes, what is this girl
doing to me.
I try to push her away but she continues to suck my dick I
shoot my cum in her throat.
She gets up and kiss me I guess she swallowed and thinking
about that turns me on again.
She push me to bed and get ontop of me, She opens the
drawer next to me and put on a condom . She slides it in and
start shaking her ass, I don't think I'm going to last long with
the way she is bouncing, I release but she doesn't stop she go
on for a while and starts shaking biting her lips, she gets off
me and removes a condom. She comes back with a towel she
give it to me I wipe myself.
Wow, I didn't think my first time I will be dominated by a girl
like that, she knows her story.
She sleeps in my chest, I brush her hair, she looks at me and
smile.
Miyalo: I think i'm falling for you..
That is enough confirmation that my dick is good, I get ontop
of her and get inbetween her legs.
She takes another condom and put it on again, I slide in and
start thrusting faster and faster, she push me and turn
around her ass up oh wow this is good.
I spread her butt cheeks and put my dick deep, she shakes
her ass on my dick moving back and forth, I'm breathing
heavily this girl wants to kill me, You don't give a first timer
like this, sweat is dripping off my face, she shakes I grab her
ass and start moving faster then cum grabbing her ass tight.
We sleep next to each other.
I look around for my phone, she gets up and come back with
a pen and paper and hands it to me, I smile.
Me: 'That was amazing, Thank you and I think I'm falling for
you too.
Miyalo: We have to get dressed my friends and your
brothers are here.
We get dressed and go to the lounge it's tense there and
Ntsika is not here.
I look at Langa.
Nkanyezi: "What happened.?"
Langa: "ask that bitch over there."
He points at this Mandy girl, who just stare at me.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LATHI
*
THE DAY AT THE LODGE.
*
I leave Ntsika in the room and Walk down the street until I
am tired, I stop and sit under a tree crying my lungs out,
when I'm calm I walk all the way home.
I open the gate and I see mom and dad in the veranda, I walk
up to where they are sitting, mom shakes her head.
Dad: Where are you coming from Lathitha you know we
were supposed to drive home in the morning.
Me: I'm sorry.
Dad: I don't want your sorry I want you to tell me where
you're coming from.
He says getting up but mom hold his arm.
Mom: Love calm down let me talk to her ok.
Dad: Do that because I will kill her.
Mom grabs my hand walking to my room, she close the door
and slap me so hard I fall on the bed holding my cheek.
Mom: Usuyalala Lathitha?(You are having sex Lathitha?)
Lathi: N..No.
Mom: You are saying No, I was watching you walk all the
way from the gate and I saw the way you walk, who broke
your virginity.
Lathi: No one mom I ..
She slap me again, I sob.
Mom: You think I'm a fool huh you think I can't tell that you
were having sex.
Lathi: I'm sorry mama.
Mom: You are a disgrace, your father shouldn't find out
about this I have to think of something.
She start pacing around the room for maybe 2 minutes then
suddenly she stops and look at me.
Mom: Go take a bath with cold water right now Lathitha.
I do as i'm told and come back , she is sitting on my bed.
Mom: Wear this..
She has picked up a lace panty and a matching bra for me.
Me: what is going on mom?
Mom: we have to make Vuyo believe he broke your virginity.
I look at her.
Mom: I called him here, you are going to sleep with him
Lathitha.
Me: Mom No..
Mom: You have no choice Lathitha your dad will kill you if he
finds out you slept with someone else and not Vuyo.
Me: Why is dad doing this I'm only fifteen Mom please talk to
him.
Mom: You are fifteen but here you are no longer a virgin,
give me a break little girl.
Me: You did this with Zola and she ran away from home.
Mom: Your sister was just an ungrateful brat, we did
everything for her to have a good life but she threw it back in
our faces.
Me: You wanted her to marry an old man.
Mom: She was going to be secured financially.
Me: So this is all about money, you are selling us.
Mom: Oh please ju..
We hear a knock on my door.
Mom: That is Vuyo, and if you know what's good for you, you
are going to do this, your dad and I are going out and don't
do anything stupid.
She walks out and Vuyo gets in I'm still in my panty i'm not
wearing any bra yet.
I cover my breast, he turns the key to lock.
Me: Why are you locking?
Vuyo: I always wanted you baby and our wedding is just
days away so we can do this.
He comes to me and remove my hands from my breast.
He sniffs me from my neck.
Vuyo: You smell so fresh.
He push me to bed getting ontop of me.
Me: I don't want you Vuyo, stop.
Vuyo: You will learn to love me.
I try to fight him off, he pins me down with one hand I kick
him screaming but he starts unbuttoning his pants and his
dick is out , I continue to kick.
Vuyo: You need to stop doing that Lathitha, You are going to
get hurt.
He manages to push my panty to the side and he try to put
his dick in but i'm moving away.
A slap lands on my face I tremble..
He takes my leg and put it on his shoulder still holding my
hands ontop of my head, He tries pushing it again and this
time it gets in and I feel like I'm stabbed with a knife down
there and it teared my inner walls.
He groans so loud.
Vuyo: Aaaah!
He moves to fast and so rough its painful more than when
Ntsika was breaking my virginity and it's because he was
gentle.
He stops after a few minutes then gets up, his dick is still
dripping with his cum.
I get up and get dressed he is looking at me.
Vuyo: Aren't you going to take a bath.
I wipe my tears with the back of my hand and walk out of the
room.
Vuyo: Where are you going?
I ignore him and sit in the lounge my cookie is burning up
I'm even afraid of peeing.
Vuyo: Ok I will see you tomorrow morning when we go
home.
He walks out, I get up and take a taxi to the nearest police
station.
I find a female police officer.
Me: Hi.
She looks at me but doesn't reply.
Me: I'm here to report rape.
She stares at me.
Me: WHAT! I said i'm here to REPORT A RAPE CASE!!!
officer: Hey don't come here with an attitude we know kids
like you who lie about rape a..
Me: Why would I lie about something like that?
I see another officer coming in I run to him.
Me: Hi please help me i'm here to report a rape case.
I say as my tears run down my cheeks.
Him: Move over there.
I stand opposite him he is now on the other side taking out a
file.
Him: Tell me your name and surname.
Me: I am Lathitha Dhlamini.
He writes sonething down.
Him: So why are you here?
Me: I'm here to report a rape case.
I tell him everything he wants to know.
Him: You said you are Lathitha Dlamini? What's your father's
name?
Me: Thulani Dlamini.
Him: Thu..la..ni uh..
He looks like he is thinking.
Him: Wait here i'm coming now.
He walks out and I have been standing here for more than
five minutes he is not coming back, I'm getting really tired.
"LATHITHA" Someone shouts and I turn mom and dad are
here, dad is so angry veins are popping on his forehead.
Dad: We're going home, Thank you Zimu.
I look back its the police officer who was helping me.
Dad drags me out of the police station and throw me in the
back seat of the car.
He drives home in full speed, when we are home he drags
me out of the car all the way inside the house.
He starts by giving me a slap then leave the room, he comes
back with a broom stick, he hits my upper body with it until
it breaks, I just sit on the floor, my entire body is in pain.
Dad: You wanted to get Vuyo arrested for doing what a man
should do to his wife. You are a fool Lathitha a fool. Go pack
your bags we're leaving.
I go to my room and pack my bags and walk out.
*
The wedding takes place and after I was introduced to
Vuyo's ancestors as his wife and he gave me a ring and I was
ordered never to take it off.
We go back home and now he takes me to and from school,
the kids at school are giving me weird looks probably
because of the ring and dad caused a scene when he came to
school telling the teachers I can't take off the ring.
*
PRESENT DAY
*
We are writing our final exams today and I will be moving to
PMB because Vuyo have a very "promising" job offer there
and they have found school for me for next year.
Vuyo: Lathitha.
I look at him, three months later I still don't like this guy he
disgust the hell out of me.
Vuyo: I will fetch you at school and we will leave straight for
PMB ok we won't come back here again.
I walk out and wait for him in the car, he comes and drive me
to school.
I get off and go to the class where I will be writing my exam.
We start writing , I feel my head spin and I feel really hot I
start fanning myself it doesn't work, I unbotton my shirt, still
nothing works.
Teacher: Lathitha stop what you're doing.
I try to carry on writing but my whole body starts trembling
I fall on the floor all I can hear is my classmates gasping and
my teacher calling out my name then its lights out.
*
NTSIKA
*
I haven't seen Miyalo and her friends ever since that day
when Mandy called my brother "isimungulu" which means
someone who can't talk and it was offensive to me. The way
she said "I don't get why would Miya fuck with isimungulu
while there is you."
That made me so angry that I grabbed her by the neck and
pushed her she fell on the couch and I walked out to calm
myself down. Some words may be right but it's the way
some people use it that makes them sound wrong.
So Nkanyezi meets Miyalo and they communicate using their
gadgets or Langa goes with him,
Nkanyezi understands that i'm going through a lot, I haven't
accepted the fact that Lathi is married, I still ask Iyana about
her if she is doing alright and from what i've heard she
hasn't been doing well at school, teachers are always calling
her out on her school marks that had dropped.
I'm in our room listening to music that's what I have been
doing lately, go to school and come back and sleep listening
to music. We are done with our final exams, done with Grade
12, I'm just waiting for Langa to call me and we will fetch
him and go home.
I get a call from Iyana.
Me: Hey baby Sis.
Iyana: Hey bhuti when are you guys coming home?
Me: Today, are you done with exams?
Iyanda: Yes it was our final paper today even though it
delayed because Lathitha fainted in the middle of our exam.
I get up.
Me: She what? What was wrong with her?
Iyana: Nobody knows, she was taken to the hospital.
I move around the room, The love of my life is sick what if
she dies, she can't die without me telling her how much I
love her.
Iyana: Bhuti are you still there?
Me: I..Sis can you find out which hospital they are taking her
to please.
Iyana: I think its the hospital near our school the St..
I don't wait for her to finish I run out to the car and drive to
the hospital.
I walk in the hospital..
I stop at the reception and i'm breathing heavily.
Me: Can I see Lathitha please ..
The nurse speaks behind me.
Nurse: Or the girl who was brought here by her teacher? Are
you a relative?
I have to lie.
Me: yes yes she is my sister.
Nurse: Ok come this way and calm down she is fine ok.
I huff, I walk in her ward she is sleeping facing up I can see
tears on the corner of her eye.
Me: Lathitha..
She looks at me and jump out of the bed I meet her half way
hugging her tight. She starts crying out loud.
Me: Shh baby it's ok.
Lathi: I missed you, I thought I'd never see you again, how..
Me: I'm here baby..
She calms down and get back in bed I sit on the chair.
Me: Iyana told me you got sick in the middle of the exam
what is wrong?
She starts playing with her fingers.
Me: Lathi what is wrong?
Lathi: I'm sorry.
She sobs.
Me: Why are you sorry?
Lathi: They said I am pregnant Ntsika, what am I going to do
with a baby?
Me: what..I.
Lathi: I have been sleeping with him, I swear Ntsika I don't
love him I'm sorry..I don't want this baby, I don't want him.
Please forgive me..
Me: It's his baby?
She nods.
Me: How do you know that?
Lathi: I was counting the weeks, its him..
Me: Ok..
Lathi: I will do an abortion.
Me: NO! don't do that Lathi, that might be my baby.
Lathi: It's not yours Ntsika.
Me: But you won't do an abortion Lathi I won't allow you to.
Lathi: It's not your call to make this is my body, I'm the one
who is stuck with the monster , you know what get out! Get
the hell out!
Me: I'm not leaving..
She get up from the bed and comes to where i'm sitting.
Lathi: I said get out Ntsika..
I stand up and stare at her.
Me: I'm not going anywhere.
She raises her hand to slap me but I catch her tiny hand
before it could land on my cheek.
I can see she is really angry at me.
Me: Look if you do an abortion you will be as good as dead, I
will kill you Lathitha.
Lathi: I don't want to have a baby with that monster so I will
abort it.
Me: And I will kill you..
I turn to walk out but she speaks.
Lathi: I'm leaving today.
I turn.
Me: To where?
Lathi: Pietermaritzbug..I love you.
The door opens and Vuyo gets in, he looks at me up and
down and hug Lathi tight.
Vuyo: Wow the doctor told me we're pregnant thank you so
much baby thank you for this.
I walk out leaving him still hugging Lathi not minding me at
all.
Maybe it's his baby, I mean I didn't even ask her how far long
is she and she has been sleeping with him probably
everyday..
I get in the car and drive back to school Nkanyezi must be
waiting for me..

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
*
The schools are closed and we are home, Ntsika is distant, he
doesn't eat with us, or sleep in my room, he is always at the
gym or just out.
This affects me alot because i'm used being around my
brother all the time and If he is not ok, I feel it.
We are at the table Mom is serving breakfast.
Ziyanda: Langa where is Ntsika?
Langa: I think he is at the gym.
Ziyanda: Qhayiya go call your brother.
Q gets up and walk out, he comes back with Ntsika who is
sweating and he is not wearing anything in his upper body.
Ntsika: "Morning everyone."
I look at him and our eyes meet, he looks away.
Ziyanda: You can go freshen up and come join us we haven't
been seeing you much at all.
Ntsika: "I think i'm going to skip breakfast I'm not really
hungry."
Luyolo: Go freshen up and come back to eat Ntsika.
He nods and walk away, when that man speaks we listen, I
get up and follow him.
Me: "Talk to me Ntsika, you know I feel it when you're not
ok, tell me what's wrong."
He sits down and wipe his face.
Ntsika: "I found out that Lathitha is pregnant with his child,
he was happy, she is making him happy."
Me: "I'm sorry I know how much this girl means to you and
it's ok to feel the way you do but don't shut me out I am your
brother I care about your feeling more I care about mine,
you can tell me anything, Mom told us that it's ok to cry if we
are sad, you can cry to me I won't judge you."
And I see his tears running down his cheeks he is biting his
lower lip, I sit next to him my own tears come out of my eyes,
I hold him on his shoulder, he wipes his face, and I wipe my
face too.
Me: Go take a shower I will wait for you here.
He nods and go to the bathroom when he is done we go join
everyone for breakfast, he sits next to me.
Ziyanda: "Are you two ok?"
Me: ."We are fine Mom."
She looks at us and sighs.
Ziyanda: Ntsika yam.
He raise his head to look at her.
Ziyanda: "Whatever you are going through baby we are all
here for you ok."
Ntsika: "I know mom thank you."
She knows us well like that.
We continue eating breakfast then Mom and Dad take Iya
and Qhayiya to the Eastern cape for some small ceremony
for them, we stay behind.
We are left alone with the Langa and Ntsika.
Langa: "Are you guys thinking what I'm thinking?"
Ntsika: "I don't want to know."
Me: "I don't think I want to know either."
Langa: "Nimuncu too much." (You are sour). "So I was
thinking how about we invite few friends to come over and
party like there is no tomorrow. Since Mom and dad are not
around"
Me: "But grandpa is in the main house"
Langa: "Oh no he's not I already figured and planned
everything out ok relax."
*
We agreed on Langa's idea and we see two cars coming in,
it's his friends from his school, they come out with alot of
booze.
I see Miyalo and her crew coming in they have the shortest
things on, she brought Mandy I don't know why she did that
because she knows how me and my brother feels about her
after what she said at the night of the party at her place, I
acted all cool but I don't like her.
Miya comes to me and kiss me..
The house now is packed people are dancing and drinking,
Langa is drinking too , Ntsika has been holding one beer for a
while now he is just watching people dance.
The party go on the people are drunk Miyalo is sitting in my
lap, her friends are busy twerking and the guys are cheering.
I look at Langa, he is standing with his friend who looks way
older than us he said his name is Gerald, he is a white dude.
Gerald: Hey Sunny you are friends with sex workers now?
He is a bit far from me but I can read his lips because he is
facing my direction.
Langa: And who is a sex worker?
Gerald: Those two girls over there, I have seen them in some
places.
I move my eyes to where he is pointing and it looks like he is
pointing at Mandy and Kea.
I look back at Gerald, I can't see him anymore because
someone decided to dance infront of me.
This is worrying me who are the sex workers but I just
decide to leave it alone It's not my business anyway.
*
NTSIKA
*
I'm really not in the mood for all this noise happening here
but then it's my brother's party, I have to be here.
After an hour in this party, I decide to go to my room
because I'm really not feeling it and I can see everyone is
having a good time except for me.
I sleep in my bed facing up, I hear the door opening and close
again my eyes are closed. I feel my bed move.
"Hey" I open my eyes it's Phumi next to me.
Me: The party is outside.
Phumi: Why are you so cold, I want to make you feel good at
a price ofcause.
I chuckle.
Me: What does that mean?
Phumi: I give you a good time and you thank me for my
services after.
She trace her hand from my chest and stop on my dick
moving her hand around it.
I look at her and chuckle again.
Me: You know Phumi the problem with me is that I don't like
cheap, look over there..
I move my eyes to my collection of sneakers, she looks at
them confused.
Me: Take a good look love.
She looks at them again
Me: As I said I don't like fake and cheap so run along..
I say calmly.
Phumi: Wait are you calling me fake and cheap?
Me: Did you hear me call you that?
Phumi: Fuck you ok fuck you.
She slaps me and I chuckle.
Phumi: You have a small dick anyway.
Me: I still won't give it to you.
She slaps me again, I continue to sleep in the same position.
She gets off the bed cussing at me walking out, I chuckle.
Me: "So go ahead and drive me insane
Baby, run your mouth
I still wouldn't change all this
Loving you, hating you..".I sing stuck with you and a coloured
girl gets in.
Her: I'm so sorry I thought this was a bathroom sorry.
She attempts to walk out.
Me: You can use that one over there.
I point at my bathroom.
Her: Thank you.
She rushes in and come out after a while fixing her short
dress.
Her: Thanks again, You have a great voice by the way I heard
you singing.
Me: Thank you, come here.
I sit up and I pat the space next to me , she sits.
Me: Your body is hot. What's your name.
I'm not lying it really is hot.
She blushes.
Her: I'm Tiana.
Me: Nice name Tee , have you ever been in a no strings
attached arrangement.
Tee: Uhm no, wait what is this you want to make me your
one night stand?
Me: Yeah.
She quickly gets up.
Tee: You are sick!
Me: I'm just being honest baby, I don't want any relationship
just sex.
Tee: Oh fuck off..
I stand up and kiss her, she doesn't respond, I push her to
the wall and grab her neck and roughly kiss her then step
back and sit down looking at her, she is breathing heavily
holding her neck, she walks out.
I go to Langa's room and look for condoms on his bedside I
find alot of them I take two packs and walk back to my room.
The door opens again and Tiana stands at the door not
saying a word but biting her lower lip. I get up and walk up
to her, I grab her neck again not too tight she gasp, I move
my hands to her butt and grab it picking her up, she wraps
her legs around me, I roughly kiss her and put her down.
I remove all of my clothes and put on a condom, she is still
by the door, I go to her lift up her dress and rip off her panty,
I pick her up shoving my dick inside her pussy she moans, I
thrust so rough and fast, I am angry that Lathi is doing this
with someone else, she is pregnant for him, he was so
happy..
I feel Tiana shaking, I continue to fuck her roughly and I pull
out taking off the condom.
I look at her and I feel guilty, I leave her there and go take a
shower, I can't get Lathi out of my mind and it's killing me, I
scream placing my hands on the wall.
After some time I get out of the shower and go back to my
room the girl is not here anymore.
I get in bed covering my head, I hate myself for what I just
did to the poor girl.
*
The next morning we wake up to clean the entire house
because the parents are coming back and we would be in big
trouble if they were to find alcohol cans all over their yard.
Langa looks sick he did drink alot last night, Nkanyezi, he
looks happy, I see Miyalo stepping out of the house she is in
Nkanyezi's T-shirt and her jeans, she stands infront of
Nkanyezi.
Miyalo: I'm leaving now baby.
She stands on her toes and kiss him.
Nkanyezi: "Wait here I am coming back."
He rush inside quickly I can see Miyah didn't get him.
Me: He said you can wait for him there he's coming back.
Miyalo: Oh thank you.
Nkanyezi comes back I see him taking out alot of two
hundreds on his pocket and give them to Miyalo and she
gives him a wide smile and hug him.
Miyalo: Thank you, I have to go now babe I love you.
Nkanyezi nods and kiss her one more time, she walk out of
the gate.
Langa walks up to him.
Langa: "Why are you giving her so much money?"
I also would like to know.
Nkanyezi: "She kind of hinted that she needs cash."
Langa: "Before or after you had sex?"
Nkanyezi: "Langelihle I'm older than you remember that, I
don't need to be questioned by you, get it?
Langa : " Ok"
He raises his hands up in surrender and turn to walk away.
Nkanyezi pulls him back.
Nkanyezi: "What are you implying when you say before or
after sex? Are you saying I am paying her for sex?"
Langa: "No I was just asking."
Nkanyezi: "You ask stupid questions then."
Langa: "Are you saying i'm stupid?"
I see where this is going I shout.
Me: Langa quit it man, let it go..
I don't want them fighting because Nkanyezi is a messy
fighter he doesn't stop until you are down and I don't want
my brothers to fight.
Langa walk back inside.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
*
Langa said he wants to talk to me about something but he
has been delaying so I take it upon myself to go to his room
and ask what it is.
Me: Langelihle.
Langa: Brother.
Me: So what has been bothering you?
Langa: The day of the party Gerald told me that Miyalo and
her crew are sex workers.
Me: What No.
Langa: He was sure that he once saw them at some house
they use to meet their clients if that's what I could call them.
I keep quiet a bit.
Langa: What is it?
Me: You know the other day at the party Phumla came to me
and asked to give me a good time "at a price."
Langa: See, and I stole Nkanyezi's phone the other day and
the transactions he has been making to that Miyalo girl yhoo
it's thousands after thousands.
Me: So she is using him?
Langa: It's obvious man and I don't want to be the one telling
him this.
I wipe my face.
Me: We fall for the wrong ones hey, what are we going to do?
Langa: You know Nkanyezi he will get angry when we tell
him and he won't believe us because he is deeply inlove with
her. So I suggest we go to that house I will ask Gerald to take
us there that way he will see it himself.
Me: How will we know she is there?
Langa: Nkanyezi thinks that she is working at a club but she
is always there, so we will ask him if Miyah is working.
I nod this will hurt my brother,he really liked her.
*
Tonight Miya told Nkanyezi that he is working so Gerald will
pick us up and take us to that house.
We get there and there is music playing we walk in and I see
my brother stopping on his tracks I move my eyes to look
where his eyes are staring, Its Miyalo and some other girl
wearing Bikinis they are in a couch kissing one guy, the
whole house if filled with half naked women and some men.
Nkanyezi: "What is this?"
Langa: "Uh we didn't know how to tell you this but this is the
house of sex workers and Miyalo is one of them."
Nkanyezi blinks a couple of time and shake his head.
He looks at Miyalo who is now ontop of the guy grinding on
him the other girl is still kissing him.
Nkanyezi quickly moves to where Miyalo is and he grabs her
and turn her around.
He stares at her fuming with anger.
I walk up to him.
Miyalo: Baby..Star..I can explain please..
He lets her go and shakes his head again.
Nkanyezi: "How long did you know about this Ntsika."
Me: "I only found out today."
He looks at Miyalo and walk out.
I stare at her.
Me: I don't even know what to say to you, you could have
been honest with him and told him you sell pussy that way
he would have decided whether he wants to buy or not, he
has been giving you money under false pretences you made
him believe that you two are lovers.
Miyalo: You like acting clever Ntsika, why didn't you just tell
him huh?
Me: Because I really thought you are a decent girl, that they
were wrong about you.
I walk out, Nkanyezi looks really angry.
Nkanyezi: "I thought you two are my brothers but what you
did today showed me that you don't care about me."
Langa: "You wouldn't have believed us Nka you know that,
unenkani(you are stubborn).
Nkanyezi: "You should have told me not embarrass me like
that."
Langa: "Hey don't blame us, blame your bitch."
Nkanyezi punch Langa so hard and Langa returns it, they
start fighting .
I get inbetween them and Gerald pull Langa away.
Me: "Why are you taking it out your anger on Langa he was
looking out for you Nkanyezi. We don't fight we are
brothers."
Nkanyezi: "Get away from me Ntsika."
Me: "Or what? Try doing that shit with me Nkanyezi I will
slap you back to your senses right now, I have been hurt but
you don't see me taking it out on you and starting
unnecessary fights out there."
He is breathing heavily and shaking, he is angry and the only
thing stopping him from beating the crap out of Miyalo is
because we were taught to respect women.
We go back to Gerald's car and I see Miyalo running out, she
opens the car on Nkanyezi's side.
Miyalo: I'm sorry Nkanyezi I know I should have been honest
with you but I was afraid you were going to leave me.
Nkanyezi: "Leave me alone before I hurt you."
Me: Leave him alone Miyalo.
Miyalo: Ntsika stay out of this! Baby please..
Nkanyezi gets off and there is a sound coming out of his
mouth it is too loud, it's like he is screaming, he really is
angry and he might just hurt her.
He grabs her hair and start strangling her with another hand,
She is struggling to breath.
Miyalo: Nk..nka..nyezi stop..
Gerald rush to him and try to get him off but he doesn't let
go.
I get off the car too and go to him, I look at him.
Me: Stop! Ok Stop you are killing her! Stop Nkanyezi, snap
out of it..
He doesn't stop I punch him, he lets go holding his jaw,
Miyalo falls down, Gerald kneels next to her and check her
out.
Gerald: She is still breathing..
Nkanyezi looks at me and walk away, I try running after him
but he is too fast I can't see him anymore.
We get into a car and drive around looking for him but we
can't find him, my phone rings.
Ziyanda: Ntsika you guys better get in this house right now!
Me: What did we do now?
Ziyanda: what did...did you just ask me what did you do?get
your asses back in this house right now!
She is angry I look at Langa, he doesn't look too good he has
a red eye, I guess Nkanyezi did hit him pretty bad.
Me: Mom is calling us home and she is angry, where will we
find Nkanyezi it's getting late.
Langa: Maybe he did go home.
Gerald drives us home.
The minute we step in mom starts screaming.
Ziyanda: You guys were having a party in my house Ntsika,
heeh Langa and where the hell is Nkanyezi?
Langa and I look at each other.
Ntsika: He is not here?
Ziyanda: I wouldn't be asking you where he is if he was here
Ntsika don't play with me.
Langa: We are..I..uhm...
Luyolo: Get the words out of your mouth Langa where is
Nkanyezi?
Ntsika: We don't know dad.
Ziyanda: What do you mean you don't know, Ntsika where is
my son?
Ntsika: Pink we don't know, he was angry so he just walked
away we tried looking for him and we thought he came here.
Ziyanda: Why was he angry?
Langa: He found out something about his girlfriend.
Ziyanda: Girlfriend? Well go and find him and don't come
back without him.
I take the keys and we walk out and get in the car.
Me: Its late, where is he?where are we going to start looking
for him.
Langa: I don't know..maybe we should drive all around town.
I receive a call and I pick up hoping it's Nkanyezi.
Me: Hello..
Lathi: He is killing me Ntsika! Please help me!.
Me: Lathitha!
Lathi: Aaah stop you're killing me, stop!
She screams so loud then the phone drops..I don't know
what to do the way she is screaming breaks my heart.
I start the car driving to her home, I get there and walk
straight to the door and bang on it. It swings open.
Lathi'sdad: What are you doing in my house?
Me: Please give me her address he is killing her..
Lathi'sdad: Didn't I tell you to leave my daughter alone boy,
she is married you can't meddle in her business so fuck off
get out of my yard before I strangle you to death.
He slams the door on my face, I get back in the car.
Langa: This is fucked up, I don't know anymore Ntsika I
don't...
I don't know where to find my brother and Lathi is
somewhere out there screaming for me to help her, I don't
know what to do i'm helpless.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
*
We have been driving around the whole night, Langa is now
driving because I can't see anymore. Mom called telling us if
we don't find him never to step foot in her house, she was
even crying.
I'm worried about Lathitha and Nkanyezi i'm emotionally
drained.
It's 03:00 am we are parking outside Miyalo's flat, we are
waiting for her to come out, we called her.
After a while we see her coming out she has her gown on,
she gets in and look down she doesn't say anything.
Me: My brother is missing.
She sniffs and that pisses me off.
Me: Are you crying? You do know this is your fault right?
Miyalo: Look Ntsika I'm really sorry for..
Me: Mom chased us out of the house because we can't find
him anywhere.
She burst out crying.
Me: Crying won't help, I want you to tell me places you've
been with him anything.
Miyalo: Uhm we have been to Ushaka Marine many times.
Me: We drove there he wasn't around and we drove from
South beach to North we didn't find him.
Miyalo: We also went to Botanic Gardens..
Me: Langa drive maybe we will find him there, I really hope
we will find him.
Miyalo: Can I go with you?
Me: Why you want to hurt him more, I suggest you stay away
for now because he might just kill you this time.
Miyalo: Ok, please let me know if you guys find him.
Me: Sure.
She gets off and we drive to Botanic gardens we don't see a
single soul there.
We drive around the area for almost 30 minutes.
Me: Are you ok Langa?
Langa: Yeah I feel bad maybe we should have told him
instead of letting him see that, I haven't heard him making
those sounds ever since we were still kids.
Me: Yeah that was scary man.
When we were still kids there was a kid that was bullying us,
we were still learning the basics of sign language and he
would make fun of Nkanyezi and mimic him in a teasing way
and he got angry and made those screaming sounds he was
shaking and he started kicking the boy and when dad came
the boy was laying on the floor with blood coming out of his
nose, dad had to take the boy to the hospital and pay his
medical bills and also apologise to the parents, and that was
the last time we heard Nkanyezi making those scary sounds.
*
It's 03:30 am we locked the car doors of the car and parked
just outside the main gate in Botanic gardens, we are tired
and sleepy.
My phone rings it's mom i'm scared of answering , I let it ring
until it drops, Langa's phone rings he answers and put it on
speaker.
Langa: Mama..
Ziyanda: Come back home..
Me: Pink..
She drops the call, we drive home and we get inside she is on
the couch.
Me: Mom.
Ziyanda: Your dad and uncles went to look for him, just pray
he is ok wherever he is because if not I'm going to kill both of
you.
We sit down on the couch, I guess we fell asleep sitting on
the couch I wake up when mom covers us with a blanket, she
has tears in her eyes, I sit up and look at her.
Ziyanda: He should be here with you guys not out there by
himself.
I look down, we messed up, we know how Nkanyezi is when
he is angry, we should have came up with something else.
Me: Uxolo Pink (I'm sorry.)
She walks away, I know how she feels I feel it too, there is a
heavy feeling in my heart.
I fall asleep again and wake up, I check the time is just after
10 in the morning Langa is still sleeping next to me.
I walk to my room to take a bath and go get dressed, I sit on
the bed and look at the number Lathi called me with, I try
calling but voicemail, what if he actually killed her, How can
he hurt a pregnant girl I mean he was happy she is pregnant
so why would he do this to the mother of his unborn child.
*
I go to the lounge Langa is not here anymore but I find only
Mom with Qhayiya.
Me: morning.
I say avoiding eye contact with mom.
Ziyanda: isn't there something you feel Ntsika, you used to
feel it when your brother is not ok even if he is not around.
I shake my head.
Me: I can't feel anything I..
Qhayiya: Igazi! Ntsika(blood)
Ziyanda: Ntsika!
Mom shouts getting up coming to me. She makes me sit
down.
Ziyanda: Qhayiya go take the towel hurry!!
Mom puts the towel on my nose my vision is blurry..
Ziyanda: Ntsika can you hear me?
Me: Yes mom why are you shouting.
Ziyanda: There is blood coming out of your nose.
I try to get my head up but it's too heavy.
Mom place a wet towel on my forehead.
Me: My vision is a bit blurry.
Ziyanda: Let me go get your eyedrops.
I hear her walk away and she comes back and put eyedrops
on my eyes, I feel myself dosing off.
*
I wake up there is a hand in my shoulder I open my eyes and
I can see a bit better, I look next to me its Nkanyezi, is he
really here or i'm dreaming. I close my eyes and open them
again and mom is standing infront of me.
Ziyanda: Nkanyezi is back, how are you feeling now?
I look next to me, Nkanyezi looks worried. He hugs me I hug
him back.
Me: "I'm sorry for what we did, I'm sorry."
Nkanyezi: "I know you were looking out for me and i'm sorry
for the way I acted."
Me: "We looked for you the whole night where were you."
He looks down.
Nkanyezi: "Botanic gardens."
Me: "But we searched for you there."
Nkanyezi: "You did? How .."
Me: "I asked Miya where you two used to go so I thought you
might have went there."
Nkanyezi:"You know me too well, I was there and some
street kids chased me away from where I was sitting just
outside the main gate then I went to sit on the other side."
Me: "Oh but we should have seen you."
Nkanyezi: "I didn't want to be seen that's why you didn't see
me."
Me: "I guess you can do well in the streets then."
He smiles, I hug him again.
Ziyanda: "You two come and eat."
We get up but immediately sit down as I feel dizzy, I look at
Nkanyezi he is holding his head.
Ziyanda: "What's wrong with you two, Nkanyezi!?"
Nkanyezi's eyes rolls back and it's like he is having a mini
seizure.
Me: No.. I thought we went past this.
Ziyanda: Baby.Nkanyezi wake up baby please.
Mom is panicking after a while Nkanyezi is back to his
normal self again.
Nkanyezi: "silahlekelwe imbewu enye kwezintathu"(We
have lost one seed from the three)
We look at him he stares back at me.
Me: "Are you ok?"
Nkanyezi: "Yes I'm fine I guess."
Me: "What was that all about?"
Nkanyezi: "I'm also confused Ntsika I don't know what's
going on."
Ziyanda: "You are ok baby?"
Nkanyezi: "Yes I'm fine but hungry."
Qhayiya: konje ubhuti uyiphara manje uhlala
emgwaqeni.(my brother is a junkie now you live in the
street)
He says staring at Nkanyezi.
It takes a while for us to get what he is saying, Mom and I
burst out in laughter , Nkanyezi get up and chase him all
around the house.
Mom called dad and told him her star is back, and Nkanyezi
apologised to Langa.
We sit on the table and say grace, we dig in ,dad and my
uncles are back.
My heart still feels heavy I feel like crying so hard.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
*
Miyalo keeps sending me messages apologising I don't know
what she thinks will happen, that I will run back to her
maybe?
I send her a text.
Me: *Leave me alone Miyalo you take me for a fool and I hate
you.*
Miyalo: *Please Nkanyezi, I'm here right outside your gate*
Me: *What!what are you doing here, my parents are home.*
Miyalo: *I want to explain please give me a chance to do so
and I will walk away*
I walk to the gate and I open for her, We go to the main
house since grandpa is not around if mom and dad were to
see this, I'm dead.
I go to my room she is behind me, I lock the door, she is
scared, she should be I'm still angry.
I take out my phone and type*Explain, the money I was
giving you, were you taking it as payments for your pussy?*
She look at the phone then look at me.
Miyalo: No..I love you.
Me: *Don't go there Miyalo, don't play with me.*
Tears flow down her eyes. I walk up to her she quickly get up
and move away.
I pull her by the hand and she collide with my chest. I want
to strangle her to death, I want to hurt her so bad.
I push her away from me and sit down, she kneels infront of
me with her hands on my thighs.
Miyalo: I'm sorry please forgive me, I guess I just wanted to
be like my friends when it all started, I wanted the good life.
Me: I type *do you think I wouldn't have given you the
money you wanted had you have asked me, Why didn't you
stop when I gave you the money?*
Miyalo: I guess I was already used to that life.
Me: *Used to being fucked by older men?*
I look at her she doesn't reply but just cry instead.
Me: *I want you to take off your clothes, but only if you want
to.*
She looks at me and stands up, she start taking off her
clothes until she is left with her panty and bra.
Me: *Take it all off.*
She does exactly that looking at me, I stare at her body she
looks uncomfortable.
I take off all my clothes too.
Me: *You have condoms? Ofcause you do take them out.*
She goes to her bag and take the condoms out.
I signal her to go to bed. She obeys, I put on a condom and
pin her on the bed and just slide in my dick without any
warning and begin thrusting in and out of her, grabbing her
neck, I turn her around and start spanking her ass roughly
then slide it in again, I keep on spanking her ass while
fucking her then I pull out taking off the condom.
She falls on the bed, I get up and look at my pockets I find my
wallet and take out R500, I pull her up, she sits up on her
butt I hand her R500, I take the phone and type *Take the
money and get the fuck out.*
She doesn't take the money but she starts crying, her tears
doesn't mean shit to me, she is used to this so why is she
crying? this is what she has been doing all along, give me sex
then ask for money, why is it making her cry today?
Miyalo: It was never about the money with you Star.
Me:"Go Miyalo before I hurt you."
Miyalo: "I'm sorry Nkanyezi."
I look at her, so she is improving in sign language so she can
continue to play me.
I shake my head "I said leave."
She grabs the money from my hand and tear it into pieces
then throw it in my face. She gets up and bend to pick up her
clothes, I turn her around and pin her on the wall, she looks
at me, I can feel her body shaking, her glassy eyes .I pick her
up and take her back to bed, I open another condom and put
it on I sleep and pull her ontop of me, she starts moving,
riding me so slow her hands on my chest, eyes closed, my
hands go to her butt and I help her move faster, we are both
moving fast we are close so close her pussy walls clenches
and her nails dig on my chest, I grab her ass tught and cum.
She sleeps on my chest we are sweating.
I remove hair on her face and kiss her, but she doesn't kiss
me back, I pull out and hug her tight as she sleeps on my
chest my heart is beating so fast, I feel my chest wet, I look at
her, she is crying.
Me: *I'm sorry.*
She sit up looking at me, I sit up too we are looking at each
other.
I wipe her tears and pull her to my chest.
Miyalo: I'm breaking the rules, I'm not supposed to fall
inlove but I did with you the first time we started chatting on
facebook, I was already inlove with you, when I met you the
first time the feelings I had for you intensified. Frank will kill
me if he finds out i'm doing this. Frank is the one that own
that house and he finds clients for us, he made it clear that
the only way out is death because he is afraid we might
snitch on him since he sells drugs also.
Me: "But you love me right Miyalo? you weren't playing me?*
She looks at me, I type on the phone and she reads.
Miyalo: I love you Nkanyezi and I'm sorry for doing this to
you, i'm sorry.
She cries again and sleep on my chest.
We have one more round looking into each others eyes, her
eyes are teary while she is moving on top of me, so sensual, I
play with her nipples she bite her lower lip.
Miyalo: I love you.
Me: "I love you too."
We lay in bed for a while then we go take a shower then get
dressed and I sneak her out of the gate and wait for a taxi
just a few steps away from our gate.
The black car drives slowly in the road and it stops next to us
one guy comes out and take out the gun he shoots next to me
and quickly gets back in the car and they drive away.
Miyalo falls to the ground, I kneel next to her and place her
head on my lap, there is blood coming out of her stomach
then her mouth.
Miyalo: I..I'm sorry..I'm sorry star..I love you.
I look around, tears are making their way out of my eyes.
I shake my head..
Miyalo: You..will love again..
She coughs, more blood come out of her mouth..
I shake my head again, I see dad coming out of the gate and
he runs to me.
Luyolo: What happened here?
He takes out the phone and talk for a few minutes.
Miyalo: I love.. you.
I see her chest moving up then down and she stops
breathing.
Dad comes to kneel infront of me, he looks at Miyalo and
shakes his head.
Luyolo: Stand up son get away from her.
I shake my head.
Luyolo: Come on..she is dead.
I shake my head again, Ntsika comes out and rush to us too.
He looks at me then Miyalo, I look at him with tears in my
eyes.
Ntsika: No..
The ambulance stops and Dad pulls me away from her but I
resist..
They check her out and I can see them shaking their heads.
Me: "Ntsika what is going on?"
He just squarts down wiping his face.
Me: "Dad..No she can't be dead."
Another car comes and they take her body away, and when
they cover her whole body that is enough confirmation that
she is really dead, I fall on my knees.
Dad kneels infront of me and hugs me tight..
*
We get back inside the house after the police took my
statement, Mom is here too and she is crying, Ntsika told
them about Miyalo, that she was my girlfriend.
I'm just staring into space, they are sitting infront of me.
Me: "I blame myself, If only I had a voice I was going to shout
for help maybe she would have been saved, it's my fault, it's
all on me."
I get up and go lock myself in my room.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
We just got home, Mom and dad went with us to Miyalo's
home for the funeral, it was so sad, and i've never seen my
brother shed so much tears, it was heartbreaking.
And seeing the state her home is in I kind of understand why
she became a sex worker, sometimes we judge people before
knowing the reasons behind their actions.
When Mom and dad talked to Miyalo's mother about helping
her out with fixing her house which is a two room house and
it has visible holes on the roof, I'm sure if there are rainy
days the water comes in.
She couldn't stop crying and thanking mom and dad for the
money they left for her and the promise they made of fixing
her house, There is a sister as well who looks like she is
9years of age. So I'm not judging Miyalo's decision not
anymore.
*
Nkanyezi went to his room an hour ago, I go to check on him
I find him sitting on his bed staring in one direction then he
starts smiling and sign "I know you love me." I stand there
looking at him, he is not looking at me. "Yes you should visit
me more often." he continues.
I wave my hand on his face he looks at me and smile brightly
"Ntsika is here, bro tell her she should visit often." I'm
confused who is he talking to.
Me: "Brother who are you talking to?"
Nkanyezi: "Miyalo she is right here can't you see her, she
looks beautiful right."
I look at him shocked.
Me: "There is no one here and we just came back from Miya's
funeral."
His smile vanishes and he look at me.
Nkanyezi: "But she is right here Ntsika why are you making
me a fool ,she's here right infront of you."
I look at him I can see that he is dead serious, I rush out to
call Mom and dad.
We get in and we find him smiling again.
Nkanyezi: "You want us to go right now?"
Dad waves at him and he looks at him.
Nkanyezi: "Hi mom and dad I want to introduce you to
Miyalo."
Luyolo: "Nkanyezi."
Nkanyezi: "See I told you my parents are cool they like you.
Ziyanda: What is happening to my son?
Luyolo: I don't know, I really don't know Ziyanda.
Me: "Brother"
Nkanyezi: "Ntsika are you coming with us? we are going out
with Miyah."
I sit down next to him and exhale.
Ziyanda: Oh baby.."Miyah is gone baby."
Nkanyezi: "she is right here mom."
Dad holds him on his shoulders and look at him.
Luyolo: "Listen son, Miya is gone ok and she is never coming
back, please accept it we know it's hard but please try."
He shakes his head walking out.
Ziyanda: I think we are losing him bit by bit Luyolo we need
to do something.
Das exhales
Luyolo: You remember when you thought the kids are shot
and you couldn't get the words out because of trauma? I
think this is the same thing with him. We need to send him to
the Psychiatric hospital.
Me: What No dad, you can't send him away.
Ziyanda: Ntsika I have been through something similar to
this, he needs help baby.
Me: Then I'm going with him.
Ziyanda: But that's not possible, you're ok.
Me: No I'm not, not when my brother is like that, I'm going
with him Pink.
She nods with teary eyes. I walk out and find Nkanyezi
sitting at on a chair outside, I take another chair and sit
infront of him.
He looks at me with sad eyes.
Nkanyezi: "She left you guys chased her away."
Me: "She was never here brother she died."
Nkanyezi: "So i'm seeing things."
I nod slowly.
Me: "Mom and dad think you need a psychiatrist."
Nkanyezi: "Maybe they are right."
Me: "I'm leaving with you."
He shakes his head.
Nkanyezi: "No. Pillar you can't keep living your life for me,
you need to do your own things that makes you happy, live
for yourself."
Me: "You are my life, I'm doing it for myself because If you're
not ok, i'm not ok."
Nkanyezi: "Thank you so much."
*
Today Mom and dad are driving us to the psychiatric
hospital , Mom is not ok, she is trying to be strong but you
can see pain in her eyes.
We get there and mom and dad hugs us since they have to
leave.
She touches Nkanyezi's cheek.
Ziyanda: Be ok for me please, Ntsika look after him and call
every hour of the day we will answer.
Me: I will mother, he will be fine don't worry.
*
6 MONTHS LATER
*
We are going back home, it has been a very bumpy road,
there was a time when Nkanyezi didn't want to talk to me or
anyone else for that matter.
I went with him in every session with a doctor and it helped
me too in a way.
The doctor told us that it happens when you lose someone
you care about, you try to find ways to cope with the loss
and Nkanyezi created a picture of Miyalo in his head and
imagined her alive and he ended up believing she is there
with him so it took a long time for him to let go of that image
he created, you know the saying of "ending up believing your
own lies" that was the case with my brother, but we took one
step at a time and now we are here waiting for mom and dad
at the Doctor's office.
Mom and dad haven't seen Nkanyezi for the past 4 months
because he refused to see them, anyone except for me and
the doctors and well the nurses because he didn't have a
choice there, Mom was devastated , heartbroken by this but
she kept coming and trying to see him.
*
There is a nock at the doctors office and he invites them in
its mom and dad, We get up with Nkanyezi , Mom stands by
the door like she is scared of to step closer to us.
Nkanyezi walk up to her and hugs her mom hugs him back
sobbing.
Ziyanda: I missed you so much , Thank God you're ok, I'm so
happy to see you Nkanyezi yam.
He wipes mom's tears then hug dad, I go on and hug them
too.
The doctor tells them about "our" progress but more about
Nkanyezi then we are good to go.
We walk to the car but before I get in I become dizzy and my
nose is bleeding.
Nkanyezi comes out and look at me, he gives me a tissue
then we get in the car and dad drives us home.
When we get home mom is called in at work for an
emergency, she told us that a pregnant teenager was
brought in because she was badly beaten and she is in labour
so she rushed out.
Everyone is happy to have us back..

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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ZIYANDA
*
I am called in at work because there is an emergency, a girl
in her teenage years was brought in because she was badly
beaten and she is pregnant.
I rush in and go check the patient in the ward I find two of
my nurses with her.
Ziyanda: She is in labour and I don't think she will be able to
push take her to the OR (Operation room), do we have her
antenatal card, who brought in a patient?
NurseLeigh: The porter found her on the road side looks like
it was sort of a hijacking.
Me: Ok take her to Theatre room and prepare an Ultrasound
for me.
I walk out to change into scrubs then rush back to the OR.
She looks like she is in so much pain, so young I see myself in
her when I was carrying my beautiful baby boys Ntsika ne
Nkanyezi.
Me: Hey you're going to be fine ok, I'm here.
She is beautiful even underneath those scars that are
covering her face.
I move the wand across her belly to check on the baby, I
keep moving it and I hear more than one heartbeat, I move it
again I can see two babies fully developed, I move it again
and there is a third child but I can't hear a hearbeat.
Me: We need to do an operation right now.
They bring all the surgical instruments and I use anesthetic
to induce unconsciousness during surgery she inhales it
through a breathing mask.
I start the operation and take out the first child and lift her
so the mother can see him, it's a boy, the second one follows
it's a boy too and a third child it's hearbreaking I carry her in
my arms and give her to the nurse it's a girl. I quickly do a
routine check of her reproductive organs. Then I stitch her
up with absorbable stitches in her uterus.
After everything is done, the nurses clean the mother and
the babies up and I go stand next to her and remove the
mask on her face, we have given her something for the
discomfort and pain.
Me: How are you feeling.
Her: I don't know..
Now this is the moment of truth I have to tell her this.
Me: Did you know that you were pregnant with three babies.
Her: Yes but the doctor told me that he can't find the
heartbeat of the third baby.
I sigh.
Me: he was right there was no heartbeat she didn't make it.
Tears fill her eyes I touch her hand.
Lathi: So it was a girl?
Me: Yes and two boys, they are healthy you going to meet
them when we take you to the ward ok.
Lathi: ok.
Me: You will be fine I will check up on you later.
I stand next to the nurses that are cleaning up the babies, I
look at them, no man we know most babies look the same
when they are born but I know these babies look exactly like
my boys when I gave birth to them at home.
I pick up the first baby and look at him, how is it possible
that these kids look like my boys.
I put the baby down and go back to the patient.
Me: Have you given the nurses your details and who to
contact.
Her: Yes my father and my...my husband.
I notice her grabbing on the sheet too tight and close her
eyes.
Me: Uhm your husband? You are married?
She nods and tears come out of her eyes.
Me: Are you ok sisi?
She nods again..I make a mental note that I still need to talk
to her after she is comfortable in the ward.
I look at the babies one more time then walk out.
*
NTSIKA
*
We are chilling outside at grandpa's backyard garden my
uncles and their wives and kids are here.
I feel a sharp pain in my heart I groan and it quickly goes
away but another one hits me I fall on the ground.
Luyolo: Ntsika are you ok?
He help me up.
Nkanyezi: "He will be once he meets them."
Luyolo: "Who is them?"
He shrug his shoulders, Another stab hits me and I feel like
i'm losing my breath.
Luyolo: We are taking him to the hospital, Langa call your
mother.
Dad help me up and take me to the car , Nkanyezi is next to
me.
I get to the hospital and i'm taken to the ward my heart still
hurts and i'm waiting for mom.
Ziyanda: Hey baby kubuhlungu kuphi(where does it hurt?)
Me: My heart it feels like I am being stabbed but it comes and
goes.
Ziyanda: Does it hurt now?
Me: Not much but it's there.
Ziyanda: You know today I delivered triplets two boys and
one stillborn girl and those kids look exactly like the two of
you when you were born.
Me: Mom infants look alike.
Ziyanda: Smarty pants those kids look like you two i'm
telling you.
Me: "Can we see them? you like creating things Pink."
Nkanyezi: "She create things alot."
Ziyanda: What would Lathitha say when two tall ugly
strangers get in her room to see her kids?
Me: Who?
Ziyanda: Her name is Lathitha Zikalala she said she is
married can you believe that she is only 16.
Me: Lathitha..Mom I need to see this girl.
Ziyanda: What if her husband gets there, what will he say
finding you in his wife's ward Ntsika.
Me: Please Pink just a few minutes.
Nkanyezi: "allow him please."
Ziyanda: Ok let's go guys just a few minutes.
We walk to her ward and mom opens the door, the girl is
looking down on her baby and the other one is in a small
baby cot bed next to her bed.
Ziyanda: Uhm hey my sons asked if they could see you.
She lift her head up and our eyes meet.
Me: Lathitha..
She has bruises on her face, tears roll down her face.
Lathi: Ntsika..
I slowly walk up to her and stare at her.
Ziyanda: Wait you know each other Ntsika? WHOOA! is this
Lathi? The same Lathi, your Lathi Ntsika?
I don't answer her I'm looking at my then girlfriend who I
still love so much.
She holds the baby to her chest the other one cries, Nkanyezi
picks him up and widens his eyes, I look at Lathitha.
Me: Can I see the baby?please..
Her lips are trembling.
She hands the baby to me,I see my brother in this boy, I see
me, hell I even see the coloured boy Langa in him.
Me: They are mine.
She looks at me with sad eyes.
Lathi: He will kill me if he finds out Ntsika and he will kill
them too.
Me: He won't I won't allow him to hurt you again, Did he do
this to you?
She nods.
Lathi: when I called you Ntsika and told you that he is killing
me that day after he beat me up he took me to the hospital
and told them I fell, that's when the doctor told me I was
pregnant with triplets but the heartbeat of one baby is faint.
Me: I went to your father's house and asked for your address
but he chased me out of his home but I won't let him hurt
you not anymore.
We exchange the babies with my brother.
Ziyanda: So I actually delivered my grandkids without even
knowing, Ntsika you make babies now, you made me a
grandma at this age,Wow.
Lathi: Ntsika that's your mom?
She says in a low tone. I nod and mom smiles at her.
We put the babies back to their beds, I look at them then
their mother.
Me: Nqoba and Manqoba they are both conquerors, they
survived through it all, you survived baby..I'm sorry
Lathitha, bengingekho. (I wasn't there)
She sobs and I sit on the chair and hold her hand.
Ziyanda: Ntsika which one is Nqoba again?
I chuckle.
Me: "The one who has his eyes."I say pointing at Nkanyezi.
Ziyanda: I can't believe I am a grandma the whole Ziyanda a
grandma.
She takes Nqoba and look at him.
Ziyanda: Feels like i'm holding you two all over again.
The door opens, Vuyo and Lathi's father are here,I clench my
jaws.
Vuyo: Months later you still don't want to stay away from my
wife boy.
He says looking at me.
I stand up and look at him.
Lathi speaks in almost a whisper..
Lathi: uhm..Doctor.
Mom looks at her.
Lathi: Please take my kids out of here, out of this hospital.
Mom nods and place Nqoba down.
Ziyanda: You're going to be alright Pillar?
Me: Yes mom we will come home.
She push the babies out.
Vuyo: Where is she taking my babies and Lathitha why are
there two babies were you not pregnant with triplets?
Lathi: You killed her Vuyo, you killed my baby you bastard,
you killed her..
Her cries hurt me.
Vuyo: Are you talking to me like that?
He attempt to step closer to Lathi but I stand infront of him.
Vuyo: Boy get out of my face.
I move my eyes to Lathi's father.
Me: What kind of man let's another man abuse his daughter,
I don't get it. I will do anything to protect my kids, My kids
..BOY.
Vuyo: Lathitha were you sleeping with him?
Lathi'sDad: ok I'm done listening to this, You and your look
alike get out of my daughter's ward right now.
Lathi: Ntsika please don't leave me with them.
She says crying.
Me: I'm not going anywhere.
Nkanyezi takes the chair and sit down on the other side and
look at us, he looks really comfortable.
Lathi'sfather: You think I'm playing with you huh, I said get
the fuck out of here.
Nkanyezi cross his legs looking at him.
Vuyo and I are staring at each other.
Lathi's father moves to where Nkanyezi is sitting and pull
him up, Nkanyezi push him back and punch him, Vuyo
attempt to go to them but I pull him back and punch him he
tries to throw a punch I block it and punch him again he goes
down.
Me: Just because I let you punch me the last time doesn't
mean I'm afraid of you I don't like fighting but I do if i'm
pushed too far and you have pushed me too far, you abused
her and killed my daughter!
I look over at Nkanyezi's side old man is groaning in pain.
I take out my phone and call mom.
Me: Can you tell them to discharge Lathitha today, and can
you please allow me to take her home with me.
Ziyanda: It's ok Ntsika and i'm already home with the kids so
you can come home with her. Langa will fetch you guys now.
Vuyo: You know you won't get away with this, she is still my
wife I can get you arrested.
Me: Arrested for what? I suggest you leave her alone because
you might just be the one getting arrested.
I go to Lathi and wipe her tears.
Me: It's ok..we will be fine.
She look at her father who is holding his jaw.
Lathi: I hate you so much.
She takes off her ring and throw it across the room and she
sob so loud.
Me: I'm here baby..I'm right here.
My phone rings its Langa, I pick up Lathi and place her on a
wheel chair we get out leaving the two fools in the ward.
I prayed for this day, for Lathitha to come back to me, I had a
very strong feeling that she was carrying my baby, and she
gave me two and our rainbow baby, my princess we will
have to do things right by her.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
*
At home Langa and Nkanyezi step out of the car and i'm left
with Lathi who looks uncomfortable, she is playing with her
fingers.
Me: I missed you so much and thank you so much for not
aborting them, I still love you Lathi.
Lathi: I don't think I should be here Ntsika, I don't want your
family to see me like this and it's the first time meeting them.
Me: My family is not like that, they are so welcoming and
loving and besides this family have been through worse
Lathitha, My mother once was in a similar situation when we
were kids when our biological father took her away from her
husband and abused her, so please come baby let's go
inside.
Lathi: I can't..
Me: Where do you want to go then, my family can protect
you..just.. please let's go.
She finally agrees and we walk in i'm supporting her.
When we get in everyone is here, they all look at us I feel
Lathi cling on my arm, she is looking down and sniffing. I
would cry too with all these stares.
I clear my throat so they could stop staring its even making
me uncomfortable yet I know them.
Me: Sanibona. (greetings)
They reply with the "mmm,hello,hey,hi) it's hectic.
Me: Can you guys stop staring you are scaring her.
Mom gets up and comes to us.
Ziyanda: Come this way let me show you your room so you
can freshen up and rest.
She takes her to the room, They are now staring at me.
Me: Hawu ngeke niyamubuka umuntu layikhaya.(No, you
can really stare at a person here at home.)
Mandisi: So it does get hard and even score triples wow, and
you guys reprimamded me when I asked him if it gets hard
already.
Grandpa: NtsikaYekhaya sit down.
I take a seat.
Grandpa: Do you know what all this means?
I shake head.
Grandpa: It means you are a father now, a man, you have to
look after your family, you fight for them you protect them
with all your might, See that girl needs you now more than
ever, your mom told us she lost one of the triplets and i'm
sorry about that, put your name to use now more than ever,
be her PILLAR of strength at the time like this , be reliable
and supportive and also don't forget to grieve boy, losing a
child hurts whether stillborn, older or miscarriage it hurts
the same, grieve let it out don't keep it in don't try to be
strong even when it's painful cry if you feel like it we are all
here for you, with you.
I look down and my tears falls, I'm heartbroken by the fact
that I lost her, the princess amongst the boys, I didn't even
get a chance to meet her.
I feel a hand on my shoulder, It's dad.
Luyolo: You are strong Pillar and I'm proud that you guys
managed to come back with her even when her father and
her abusive husband was there, your mom told us
everything and we will help you get through this you can
count on us.
I wipe my tears and look up.
Kwanele: We are here for you.
They are all smiling looking at me.
Me: Thank you and I'm still young I will make mistakes but
please don't hesitate to call me out on them.
Mandisi: Don't worry we will still pretty much whoop your
ass right infront of your sons, just like how dad used to do to
your mother and Luyolo.
I smile at him.
Qhayiya: So ndingu tata omncinci ?(so i'm a younger dad?)
Me: Yes you are.
Qhayiya: Wow so now I will have people I can send to do
things for me just like you guys do to me.
We all laugh ,mom comes back and prepare food with auntie
Sunshine and Mbali, she give me Lathi's food to take to her
room.
I knock once and get in, I find her in bed tears are running
down the corners of her eyes.
Me: Lathitha..
I sit next to her on the bed.
Me: You can talk to me about your feelings, let me be there
for you.
Lathi: I feel guilty how can I fail her like that Ntsika, how can
I fail to keep her alive like I did to the boys, maybe I am being
punished for wanting to do an abortion earlier in my
pregnancy, I'm sure you blame me too.
Me: I don't blame you, I now understand why you even
thought of abortion that guy you married is no human being
and he is going to pay for this.
I comfort her until she's calm.
Me: Here is your food, want me to feed you?
She gives me a faint smile and shake her head.
Me: Well I will feed you anyway I know how to do this , i
have done it to my little brother many times...so open up.
I say taking a spoon and feed her until she is done eating.
Lathi: Thank you, your mom is a good person but she look so
young she could be your sister.
Me: We get that alot..
She looks down.
Lathi: So what are we going to do with uhm the.. our
daughter.
Me: Isipho she was a gift from God , that's her name, Isipho..
She smiles.
Me: We will ask mom if we can cremate her so she can help
us with the paper work, then I will have to go back home to
my Great-grandfather so we can introduce the boys and take
her spirit home to rest.
Lathi: Ok, you know isiko(culture)?
Me: I didn't know much about it until me and my brothers
had problems so we had to go back home and do things right
so I took it upon myself to learn more about it.
Lathi: I missed you everyday, I would sit around and think
about you all the time.
Me: I missed you too, it was hard for me to accept that you
are with someone else. So how did you get married I didn't
know a 15 years old girl can get married.
Lathi: I got married when I turned 16 two months ago, my
parents had to give consent though and they gladly handed
me over to that bastard.
Mom knocks and get in.
Ziyanda: Hey Lathitha, uh do you want to breastfeed them or
a formula would be fine?
She keeps her head down playing with her fingers she is still
so innocent and shy.
Lathi: I don't know how, at the hospital they gave them milk.
Ziyanda: I will show you baby but I did buy bottles and
formula for them on my way back from the hospital with
them.
Lathi: Thank you Doctor uhm Ma'am..
Ziyanda: You can call me Ziyanda or Pink..
Lathi: Ok Ziy..ok.
I smile and hold her hand.
Me: We call her Pink most of the time so it's ok or you can
call her mom.
She nods.
Me: Mom about the funeral, what do you suggest we do?
Ziyanda: A hospital funeral, cremation to be precise is ok if
you ok with it I can plan it for you.is it ok Lathitha?
Lathi: Yes..yes it's fine.
Me: Thank you.
*
Mom did arrange for our baby to be cremated and we went
back home to Great-grandfather to introduce my kids to our
ancestors and we brought Isipho's spirit home to rest in
peace.
*
Lathitha is getting better, the bruises in her face are fading,
My boys are growing too and their eyes are different just like
mine and Nkanyezi's.
We haven't heard anything from her husband and father.
We are alone at mom's house with our boys. Langa and
Nkanyezi are in their rooms, Lathitha is still not comfortable
being around my family so she spend most of the time in her
room but today we are in the lounge.
Lathi: Ntsika..
Me: Mmmm.
Lathi: So you haven't moved on , like you don't have
someone yet?
Me: No I'm not with anyone.
Lathi: I want to have my surname back can you ask someone
in your family to help me with a divorce.
Me: I will ask dad if he knows anything.
Lathi: Thank you.
We hear a knock on the door, I'm holding Manqoba so I ask
Lathi to open, she walks to the door.
Girl: uh Hi i'm looking for Ntsika.
Lathi: Hi, uhm he's over there.
She opens the door wide for her to get in and my mouth
hung open. God why!!
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
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NTSIKA
*
She is just standing there in a very short red dress with long
black heels, She is smiling at me biting her lips.
My palms are sweating, I put Manqoba next to his brother
and get up.
Lathi: Uhm I will give you guys space.
Tiana: Oh no! Don't sweety. Ntsika and I will be in his
bedroom, I came for round two loverboy, you know I tried
getting you out of my mind but I just couldn't.
Me: Tee what are you doing here?
Tiana: You still remember my name huh which means you
missed me as much as I did.
Lathi is just staring at me, sweat is running down my spine
i'm nervous I feel like I just got caught cheating.
She take Nqoba and walk away and she comes back a few
seconds later and take Manqoba and leave the room again.
Me: What do you.think you're doing? Why are you here?
Tiana: I told you I want round two of that "no strings
attached arrangement".
Me: That happened months ago and I was in a bad space for
fucks sake, just get the fuck out and never come back here
again.
Tiana: Come on who can say no to this.
She says moving her hands from her hips up to her boobs.
Me: I can, so get out before I lose it.
She walks closer.
Me: You think i'm playing?
Tiana: You're so grumpy and tense let me make you feel
better.
She moves her hand to my chest, I hold it and pull her
towards the door.
Me: Lady leave me alone, and never come back here again or
I'll get you arrested for trespassing and harassment get it.
I slam the door on her face, I walk to Lathi's room I find her
sitting in bed holding Manqoba's tiny hand.
Me: Hey.
Lathi: Hey.
She gives me the smile and I feel like killing myself.
Me: Look it's not what you th..
Lathi: A.a Ntsika don't explain anything to me, I understand,
I am married remember? You were bound to move on.
Me: No that's the thing, I didn't move on it was just one night
I was miserable, heartbroken and I wanted to forget about
you but I couldn't I..
Lathi: It's fine really.
My heart is aching I know she is hurting.
Lathi: I saw that you have gym in here can I use it?
Me: Uhm sure I can take the kids to Granny Sphokazi then
we can go together.
Lathi: No. I just want to be alone please.
She takes out some clothes then go to the bathroom she
comes out wearing different clothes I guess she went in
there to change.
Mom bought her new clothes, everything and i'm grateful for
that woman.
Lathi: Call me when they become a problem I will be at the
gym room.
I nod and take the kids to Granny who is more than happy to
look after them.
*
It's been three hours Lathi hasn't come out of the gym room.
I go there to check on her, I find her in the corner of the
room sitting down her head buried on her thighs, she is
sobing.
I rush to her and kneel infront of her.
Me: Lathitha.. baby..
She wipes her face with her shirt and bury her face again.
Me: Is it about earlier? I'm sorry.
Lathi: No..That girl was beautiful, she has a great body but
look at me.
Me: Lathi come on it's understandable to have changes in
your body when you just gave birth baby you don't have to
be insecure about it, you can work on it, Mom did it she
doesn't look like someone who gave birth to four kids but
she did and she expirienced body changes but then she
worked on getting back to shape.
Lathi: But still you wouldn't choose me over that girl.
Me: Why?
She chuckle bitterly.
Lathi: She is beautiful Ntsika and coloured with a body and
there is me.
Now its my turn to chuckle.
Me: I believe love isn't about body, looks nor race, I love you
for you not what you have or how you look because to tell
you the truth there will always be someone prettier
someone hotter and another race and what would you do
always run after them? If so then they should erase the word
"soulmate" in the dictionary for it will be useless and we will
keep going from relationship to relationship no stability
whatsoever.
Lathi: So you love me even when I am like this.
Me: If anything this makes me love you even more because I
know the reason and I'm proud you carried my babies, now
get up let's do this together.
I pull her up and take off my shirt, she stares at my body
Me: You wanna touch?
She quickly looks away. I laugh.
Lathi: Don't be silly.
We start working out together, I am happy she is here with
me, the mother of my kids, my baby.
*
NKANYEZI
*
I am happy that my brother got his girlfriend back and to
have people who will call us dad it's amazing.
Today I'm doing what the psychiatrist told me to do today,
taking myself out, You know that I blamed myself for her
death, I blamed my disability. I was ashamed that I couldn't
shout for help so now I'm sitting at the restaurant waiting
for a waiter to come help me, a watress comes my way I look
at her with a smile.
Her: Can I help you sir?
Me: "Yes What meal can you recommend for me today?"
She looks at me with shock, I smile again and take out my
phone and type on the phone and show it to her, she starts
telling me about their "special" meal and take my order. I can
see other waiters stealing glances at me, I keep my smile she
must've told them I can't talk, I'm struggling with their
stares and glances but I need to do this, I shouldn't be
ashamed no, I'm deaf so what!
My order comes and I start eating until I feel a heavy
presence next to me, I look up, someone is standing next to
me a very beautiful girl
"Hello" she says, and I'm stunned did she see that I can't talk
but I didn't notice her anywhere in the restaurant "Can I sit
with you I really don't like eating alone." I'm still shocked
"You can have a seat."
I say looking at her as she sit down.
She stares at me for a while and her eyes become glassy.
Me: "Are you ok?"
Her: "I'm fine my name is .. Lindi."
Me: "Nkanyezi."
She nods and the waiter comes she takes her order and I'm
taken back by the food she orders this was Miyalo's favourite
meal, I look at her but she moves her eyes around.
Lindi: "Why are you eating alone.?"
Me: "I'm just working on myself you know I'm going through
stuff."
Lindi: "Wanna talk about it?"
Me: "Months ago I lost my girlfriend and I struggled
accepting she is gone so I kept her alive in my head and I
thought I was seeing her everyday so I had to go to a
psychiatric hospital."
She looks at me with teary eyes, I don't know why I am so
sharing she is a stranger to me but it's so easy to share this
with her.
Lindi: "I'm sorry."
She gets up and rush out leaving her purse on the table.
I pay for my meal and hers then stand up with her purse and
walk out, I look around and I see her crying just outside
sitting on the benches, I go to her abd sit next to her. She
looks at me and wipe her tears off.
Me: "Are you ok?"
She shakes her head looking away, I pull her closer to me
hugging her, I can feel her shaking from all the crying its
clear indication that she is crying out loud. I hold her in my
arms, I'm getting a very warm feeling as she lays in my arms.
No this is too soon I'm still mourning for my girlfriend who
died in my arms I slowly move her away from my chest and
give her the purse standing up, she stands up too.
Me: "I have to go."
Lindi : "ok I..bye Star."
I look at her angrily
Me: "Why did you call me that?"
Lindi: "I'm sorry..doesn't Nkanyezi means star?
Me: "Yes sorry, bye."
I quickly turn and walk away, I do some window shopping
then I see stuffs for the babies I get in and do a bit of
shopping for my kids Nqoba and Manqoba oh how I love
them.
I go pay up as I walk out there is a girl facing the opposite
direction I can see her back, that is my Miyalo I know her like
the back of my hand..I rush to her and turn her around but
it's Lindi she look shocked.
Me: "Oh I'm so sorry I thought you were someone else I'm
sorry I.."
I walk away and sit down on the floor, I think I'm losing it
again I place my hands on my head no I can't go back again if
I do I know Ntsika will think he has to choose between me
and our kids and I don't want that he has been through so
much with me and for me.
I shake my head several times, Lindi kneels infront of me.
Lindi: "Who did you think I was?"
Me: "Miyalo my dead girlfriend, I'm sorry."
Lindi: "Don't be because I.."
She looks at me.
Lindi: "I am Miyalo."
I chuckle and stand up.
Me: "Bye it was nice meeting you Lindi."
Lindi: "Star wait.."
Me: "Don't call me star sisi please don't."
I walk away from her and just get in the first cab I find.
I show the driver where I am going on the phone. I won't
have a random girl calling me Star I said my name is
Nkanyezi in vernac she didn't have to make it hers and
change it, only my Miyalo did that and for her to say she is
Miyalo it's crazy and It is making me so angry.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
I am with my kids and Lathi in her bedroom we are talking
about how she misses her home and everything.
Lathi: I wish my parents were like yours so supportive and
loving but no they're just greedy selfish people who sell their
own children , I haven't seen my big sister in years she left
home because they wanted her to marry an old man because
he had money, who does that?
Me: I'm sorry, maybe one day they will see how wrong they
were and apologise but know that i'm here for you always.
Lathi: Thank you.
Ziyanda: Knock!knock! You guys come and eat Lathi no more
eating in the bedroom sweety we are family and family eat
together right.
She comes in and take Manqoba with his portable cot bed
and I take Nqoba and give Lathi my hand but she looks at it.
Me: Come baby..
Lathi: Ok.
I can tell she is nervous about this, she is scared to officially
meet my family so I can get to introduce her to them, yes
they know she is here but she has been dodging them
eversince she came from the hospital some of them that was
the last time they saw her and they understood because she
was going through a lot.
*
We walk to the table and everyone is here except for
Nkanyezi.
We put the in the lounge and we sit on the table not far from
them.
Me: Uhm Hi everyone so this is Lathitha the mother of my
kids, Lathitha this is my family.
I introduce them one by one she is just smiling awkwardly
moving her eyes around.
Iyana who was helping mom with food in the kitchen comes
in and exclaims.
Iyana: Lathitha!!you are my brother's baby mama?But I
thought you were married and moved s..
Luyolo: Iyana sit down and shut up.
Iyana: No I'm just happy to see her the last time I saw her
was when we were writing exams in Grade 10 and she
fainted.
Me: Yes that was because she was carrying my kids.
Iyana: Thank you for making me auntie, Lathi is it ok if I call
you that?or.
Mandisi: Sifile(we are dead) Q press the off button there.
Qhayiya moves his hands to Iyana and poke her on the arm
and do a 'qh' sound that the switch makes when turned off,
and they laugh out loud, Iyana is irritated.
Iyana: Dad! Did you see what he did.
Mandisi: He was just trying to make you shut up yhoo you
can talk young lady.
She look really sad she loves talking.
Me: Where is Nkanyezi?
Ziyanda: I don't think he is back, I last saw him when he said
he is taking himself out.
I nod, we start eating Lathi is looking down the whole
playing with food slowly on her plate.
Me: You want me to feed you infront of them?
I whisper to her, she quickly shake her head.
Me: Then eat up.
She starts eating, I chuckle and look up mom is looking at me
with a smile on her face.
I smile back but quickly stop when I feel like something is
choking me,it happens for a few minutes dad lays me down,
it starts again this time I feel like i'm slowly losing my breath
but I want to get up, my kids are wailing, Once it stops I look
around everyone is looking at me Lathitha is in tears next to
me, Iyana as well.
Me: Nkanyezi!
I swiftly get up and rush to his room I try to open but its
locked , I look at the keyhole there is a key.
Me: We need to break this door right now!!Dad!
Uncle Kwanele tries to push it but nothing, I fall on my knees
as the choking starts again.
Me: Bre..ak...the door.
Ziyanda: Ntsika what is going on?
She is crying, my kids are still crying.
Once it stops I get up
me: mom take Iyana and Q away from here, Lathi go to the
kids right now!!
Dad comes back with a hammer and break the door, I'm the
first to get in, Nkanyezi is hanging on the roof, looks like he
bore a hole on the ceiling so he can reach the plangs up
there, Uncle Kwanele quickly moves the bunk bed and
stands on it and cut the rope falling with him on the bed.
Luyolo: Is he still breathing Kwanele? Is he still alive man?
Kwanele: There is a pulse but it's faint..
Dad and Mandisi carry him outside and I hear mom crying
outside, I sit down on the passage and cry.
Lathi: Ntsika...
how can he do this to me?
Lathi: I'm sorry Ntsika..
Her sweet voice makes me cry harder.
Once I'm calm I wipe my tears off and look up she is standing
there with tears in her eyes. I sniff
Me: Come here..
She sit on the floor inbetween my legs and sleep in my chest,
I wrap my arms around her.
Mandisi: Hey Pillar you're not going to the hospital? Your
mom and dad are already gone with Nkanyezi.
Me: No I'm not going..
I say hugging Lathi tight as she want to move away..
Granny: Ntsika don't worry the kids are with me ok.
Me: Thank you Granny.
*
After a while of sitting on the floor we get up and I take her
to bed and sit next to her. I am clenching my jaws, I keep
wiping of my sweaty nose.
Lathi: Aren't you going to go check on your brother?
Me: No I'm not.
Lathi: You're angry Ntsika..
I get up and go in the shower, I let cold water hit my body.
I have been in here for a while, I hear lathi shouting my
name, I walk out of the shower with a towel wrapped around
my torso.
She is with Langa.
Langa: Hey Pillar, I just came from the hospital Nkanyezi is
asking for you he is awake.
Me: Tell him I said No I'm not going there.
Lathi: Ntsika..
Langa: Come on man.
Me: Langa!get out of my room!
I shout and Lathi jumps in fear.
Me: I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. Langa go be with
your brother.
Langa: Brother don't do that.
*
It's been three days since Nkanyezi came back I haven't seen
him because I'm always in my room but I heard he is fine
and I'm happy he is.
Lathi: Are you eating in here even today Ntsika?
Me: No I'm coming.
Lathi: ok.
She is getting used being around my family and I love that
but she is still shy I guess she is like that.
I walk out I find everyone in the table eating I sit down next
to Qhayiya.
Q: I missed you bhuti you didn't let me inside your room.
Me: I'm sorry and I missed you too I'm taking you out today
ok.
Q: Whoow!thank you NtsikaYekhaya.
Me: I'm not bhuti anymore?
Q: You are, I'm just too excited.
I can feel eyes on me as I eat, I ignore them Nkanyezi is here
too so I know its him who is looking at me.
*
I take Qhayiya out for a few minutes for his Pizza as usual
then we go back home, we find the family eating lunch at the
back, I just greet them and attempt to walk away but
Nkanyezi stop me by touching my arm I turn and look at him.
Nkanyezi: "I'm sorry for what I did please just hear me out."
Me: "Why didn't you ask me to hear you out before you did
that shit you did."
Nkanyezi: "I was going through something."
Me: "I know, but what you did is stupid there is Iyana and
Qhayiya what if they saw you like that huh?they would have
been traumatised for life, coward."
Nkanyezi: "Did you just call me a coward."
Me:"So what if I did?"
Nkanyezi:"You can't..."
Me: "And I did call you a coward."
Mom shouts as everyone has stopped eating and looking at
us.
Ziyanda: STOP IT NTSIKA!!
Me: "No did you see how my kids were crying what if they
felt what I felt when this fool decided to be a coward an.."
I don't finish, he punch me and mom and Auntie Mbali
scream, I look at him and we start fighting, I beat the shit out
of him I'm angry he did that to me, he wanted to take his life
and I felt it.
I continue to beat him until he is down and bleeding dad
comes and push me off him, he looks at me with blood on his
face.
Me: And you need to cleanse my mother's house after doing
that shit you did I don't want bad lucks following us and our
family because of your stupid ass nxx..
I walk away..
Me: Nx selfish bastard..
I talk to myself taking off my shirt that has blood.
Mom barges in my room she has tears in her eyes, she stands
infront of me and slap me and slap me again and chances are
she started with Nkanyezi outside.
Ziyanda: I won't let you guys destroy what I worked so hard
for, I taught you that you are one, you're brothers Ntsika,you
don't fight each other like that, you guys are hurting me.
She burst out crying.
Me: I'm sorry Mom, I'm sorry.
I say hugging her, if there is one thing I hate to see, it's my
mother in tears and it breaks my heart that she's crying
because of me and Nkanyezi..
Me: I'm sorry maLukhele..

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
I am sleeping in my bed next to my kids mom took Lathi and
Iyana out so i'm looking after the kids but Granny is here if
they become a problem but I doubt they would they like
sleeping alot.
I hear a knock on the door, I get up because I don't want to
shout and startle my boys.
I open and Nkanyezi is standing there with his head bowed ,
after calming mom down yesterday I just slept I didn't want
to talk to anyone so now it's the first time seeing him after
our fight.
I touch his shoulder, he looks at me his eyes are bloodshot
red and glassy, he has been crying.
Me: "I always told you to come talk to me anytime you feel
like you are losing touch with reality not what you did you
hurt me, I blame myself maybe I didn't give you enough
attention as a brother I would have seen that there is
something bothering you, come in."
He gets in and we sit down on the couch facing each other.
Me: "Tell me what's wrong, what led you to do something so
tragic."
He wipes his face.
Nkanyezi: "Yesterday when I went out a girl asked to eat
with me she was talking to me in sign language, I don't know
how she knew I can't talk nor hear, after that I went to the
kids store I saw someone who has the same body struture as
Miyalo."
He gets up and go stand on the window looking outside then
after a while he turns.
Nkanyezi: I rushed to her only to find out it's the same girl I
ate with, I thought I was losing it and rushed out, she
followed me and asked who did I thought she was I told her
and she said she is Miyalo."
Me: "What!"
Nkanyezi: "And she was calling me star the whole time, I
thought I was going back to that dark corner again and I
didn't want to deal with it again it was too painful for me."
Me: "But How?Miyalo is gone, we went to her funeral."
Nkanyezi: "I don't know, she introduced herself as Lindi next
thing she said she is Miyalo I don't get it but her body, I don't
know Ntsika, do you think i'm losing it again."
Me: "You never lost it Nkanyezi you were just going through
alot, we need to wait for this girl to show up and she will tell
us what's her story then we will take it from there ok I will
help you as your brother."
Nkanyezi: "Thank you."
Me: "I'm sorry for beating you yesterday."
Nkanyezi: "I understand and damn you really did a number
on me man, you give a mean punch."
Me: "One of the reason I don't like fighting especially when
I'm too angry and yesterday I was so angry."
Nkanyezi: "I know and I'm really sorry for what I did and to
think that maybe our kids felt it too makes me feel bad, I'm
sorry brother and thank you for saving me."
Me: "I was saving you to save myself I don't know what I
would be without you."
We hug each other and one of the twins wakes up and cry, I
show Nkanyezi so he can take him.
He takes Nqoba and starts rocking him back and forth
moving around the room. He falls back to sleep and Star
place him down and cover him.
Nkanyezi: "Am I good or am I good."
He smirks.
Me: "Please."
He walks out saying he is going to gym. I go back to bed with
my kids.
*
I'm waken up by Lathi singing, I look next to me the kids are
not here anymore.
I look at the singing Lathi, she looks beautiful she is sitting
on the mirror looking at herself, she has the new hairstyle,
she continue singing her lungs out.
Lathi: 'Some people want it all but I don't want nothing at all
if it ain't you baby, If I ain't got you baby.'
Me: 'Some people want diamond rings Some just want
everything But everything means nothing If I ain't got you.'
I sing after her getting off the bed.
She looks at me through the mirror with her mouth hung
open.
Me: wow, you look beautiful baby.
Lathi: Thank you, your mom said we could be twins with
Iyana so she did the same hairstyle too can you believe it.
Me: I do, Iyana always wanted a sister shame, she said being
the only girl sucks, You're really beautiful.
Lathi: Stop it..
She blushes.
*
We go to eat and there is a knock and Iyana go open the door
and comes back with some girl behind her, and the girl looks
nervous.
Girl: "Hello"
Nkanyezi gets up and go straight to the girl and grab her
neck.
Girl: Don't do..this Star not again..it's me..
But he doesn't let go, I get up and pull him away from her.
Me: "Calm down, Is this the girl?"
He nods he is breathing heavily.
Luyolo: What is going on? who is this girl?
Me: She claims she is Miyalo.
Ziyanda: What!How? we buried Miyalo.
Girl: "You have to believe me Star it's really me."
She lift her shirt up and there is a bullet wound on her
stomach.
We all look at her in confusion.
Luyolo: But we saw you, there was no pulse what is this.
Girl: Mandy and Frank payed people to kill me because I was
breaking the rules they were afraid I might tell Nkanyezi
what I know about that house and Phumi heard them and
warned me, so when I came here that day I already knew
they were coming for me.
She stops and take a deep breath.
Girl: I asked one of the people I know to help me but they got
here late I was already shot, I stopped breathing myself I
wasn't dead so when the ambulance came they were already
here the car that came after the ambulance was them, they
helped me, The money that I was taking from you was to pay
them and also get this latexmask to change my appearance
and Identity.
Nkanyezi : "No..I mourned for Miyalo, I went crazy because
she died in my arms."
Miyalo: But I am here Star I'm not dead.
Nkanyezi "Well maybe you should be cause I don't want you
here, I don't want anything to do with you."
Miyalo: I came here to warn you, they want you dead, they
are coming for the three brothers, Ntsika, Nkanyezi and
Langa.
Luyolo: What!?
Ziyanda: NO!!
Miyalo: I'm sorry for getting you into this I didn't mean any
of this to happen, my only mistake was to fall inlove. I'm
sorry. Star I'm so sorry.
Nkanyezi : "Get out"
She walks out and I'm not ok with this I have kids what if
they hurt them.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
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*
NKANYEZI
*
After chasing Miyalo out, I move around the room then I
decide to follow her outside.
I rush to her and grab her arm making her turn, she has
tears in her eyes, I know those eyes, I saw them the last time
she was in my arms confessing her love for me.
Nkanyezi : "How can you do this to me Miyah? How can you
hurt me like this, I went to a psychiatrist hospital for God's
sake but you were alive the whole time I was losing my mind
because I kept seeing your face."
Miyalo: "I was putting your life in danger that was my
goodbye, even right now I am leaving for good."
Me: So you cause problems for my family and decide to go
hide?
Miyalo: "No star you don't want me here You are angry at me
so what's the use of staying, you hate me."
Me: "You should have been honest with me."
Miyalo: "I know but there wasn't enough time."
She moves closer but I step back, she looks down and sniffs.
I step closer and hug her tight, that warm feeling I get when I
hug her makes me want to cry, she's really here.
I step back and look at her.
Me: "Miyalo."
Miyalo: "Star.."
Me: "so, tell me where does Mandy live?"
Miyalo: "Why do you ask? Star don't do anything stupid."
Me: "We take her, we pull this Frank closer."
Miyalo: "I don't understand."
Me: "For him not to come here where my family is, where my
brother's kids are, we have to take Mandy and isolate her
that way Frank will move away from here and come looking
for Mandy."
Miyalo: "That could be dangerous Star ask your dad for
help."
Me: "Just like you Miyah I don't have time, you know how to
drive right?"
She nods.
Me: "Good, wait here."
I go back inside there is no one in the living room, I take the
car keys and walk out. I throw the keys at Miyah.
Me: "Get in the car we are going to take Mandy."
Miyayo: "To where Star?"
Me: "Leave that to me just drive."
We get into the car and she drives for almost 15 minutes and
stop at a some flat.
Miyalo: "I don't like this star."
Me: "It doesn't matter we are doing it now, are there any
cameras here?"
Miyalo: "No."
Me: "Good."
We step out of the car and get in and use the elevator to the
third floor, I tell her to knock, Mandy opens she look like she
is going out, she is shocked to see me to say the least.
Me: "Hello."
Mandy: Whoa Nkanyezi! what are you doing here and who is
this?how the hell did you know this place?
Miyalo: Uhm we came to invite you to a party at the house,
Star told me you were once close to his late girlfriend Miyalo
and he feels like all her friends should be there to honour
and celebrate her , so Miyalo once told him you live here and
we asked around they showed us your room.
She changes the tone of her voice.
Mandy: Oh wow but I was on my way out but what the hell
you cute anyway I might just get lucky and get what drove
Miyah crazy.
I give her a smile, she comes closer and kiss me, I let her but
Miyah quickly push us apart. She stares at me.
Miyalo: Uhm you will have all the time for this at the party.
Mandy: Ok let me just quickly get my bag and shoes, I'm
coming now.
Miyalo: We will wait for you in the car right outside the flat.
Mandy: Ok!
We walk out and stand next to the car, miya grabs me by my
shirt and slap me then she cries. I touch my cheek it stings a
bit
Miyalo: "You didn't have to do that Star, you didn't have to
let her kiss you."
Me: "And why not? Last time I checked I was single my
girlfriend died, remember?
Miyalo: Fuck you.
I quickly pin her in the car staring down at her.
Me: "Repeat that."
Miyalo: I said fuck you.
I bring my face closer but quickly move away.
I get in the car, she gets in and Mandy comes and sit at the
back.
I take Miyalo's phone and type our next destination, I text
uncle China *I'm coming in 5 minutes from now, are you at
the house?" he replies *Yep I'm in my crib young blood.*
We get to Uncle China's house and step out.
Mandy: Star this is not your house, what are we doing here?
Miyalo: We are fetching one of his friends.
Mandy: Ok.
A text comes through it's Ntsika *Are you ok where are
you?*
Me: *I'm good just trying to figure out something I will be
back*
Ntsika : *Ok be safe, think of the kids don't do anything
stupid.*
Me: *ok bro*
I'm thinking of them alright that is why i'm doing this.
We get in and find uncle china in the lounge he is sipping on
his beer.
He gets up and hug me and the girls.
Mandy: Oh you cute.
I shake my head uncle china looks at me.
Me: "We are keeping her hostage but she doesn't know, her
friends are after my family I want to lure them to her and kill
her and her squad.
China: "Well this is easy."
He doesn't waste time, he takes out his gun on the couch he
was sittingb on and point at Mandy, she screams and drop
her bag raising her hands up.
Mandy: What is going on? What did I do?
Miyalo: I thought we were friends Mandy you snitched on
me and you and frank ordered a hit on me and now you want
to go after star and his family.
Mandy: Miyah no that's not possible, you look nothing like
her.
Miyalo: Remember the money you encouraged me to take
from "the rich boy" he gave it to me and I used it to buy this
face and outsmarted you bitch.
Mandy: Frank will come for me, he loves me.
Me: "That's the whole point."
Mandy: What is this fool saying.
I step closer to her and slap her she screams landing on the
floor with her ass.
China: I have just the place we can lure them too, the trap
will be too prefect let me call Mlu.
He talks on the phone while his gun is still pointed at Mandy.
China: Done! we will take her into the township where my
boys are at, that way we will have backup.
He walks away and come back with a duck tape and a rope.
He tie her hands at the back and ducktape her mouth.
China: Let me go change then we will leave.
*
I look at Miyalo and she look back at me.
Me: "You are staying here, you won't be coming with us, do
you understand."
Miyalo: No what if something happens to you, No I'm coming
with you.
Me: "No you're not, You will be safer here in this house."
She shakes her head.
Miyalo: No.
Me: "Listen to me I don't want you to die for real this time."
Miyalo: So you care about me?
I don't answer but get up and walk out. Uncle China comes
out with Mandy and Miyalo is standing at the door looking at
me.
China: "Let's go champ."
I walk up to Miyah and slowly touch her neck and remove
the mask on her face and throw it away.
Me: "You won't be needing it anymore, after today."
She takes my hand and place it on her face which is shiny but
she still look beautiful.
Miyalo: Please be careful.
I hug her so tight she cries, I move away from her.
Me: I will come back.
*
We get in the car and we drive into the township there and
get to some house there are so many cars outside and a lot of
noise.
We get inside and they salute each other.
One of them takes out the phone and do a video Mandy is
kneeling down crying.
Mlu: Frankie, That's his name right?Look who we got here,
come and get her the clock is ticking and kasi boys don't
play.
They send the videos and Uncle China comes to me.
China: I need you to stay inside , we will go meet them
outside, They will be here any minute from now because we
deliberately sent this address to them.
I nod and we wait for a few minutes then I see them quickly
moving outside, I think they are here.
I move to where Mandy is and sit infront of her.
Me: "It's over for you and I will kill you myself."
I look around for the gun anywhere, Dad once taught us how
to shoot but when mom found out she went crazy and even
chased dad out of the house but I know enough. I walk
around the room looking everywhere, I go to the other room
and search there I finally find it, and do what dad taught us,
check first of it's loaded cock and shoot.
I walk back to Miyalo and remove the duck tape.
I put my hands together looking at her. I'm telling her to
pray.
Mandy: Star please are you really going to kill me for a
prostitute? Do you think she will stop for you? Please you
don't know what you're doing.
I'm doing this for my family, My sister and my brothers, my
brother's kids.
One man rushes in I point the gun at him, he points at me.
Mandy: Frank please help me!!
Frank: I believe you are the boyfriend or is it the other
brother. Put the gun down boy before I hurt you.
I pull the trigger, he talks too much.
Mandy: Frank no!!
I point at her.
Mandy: Please Nkanyezi don't...
I shoot at her then sit down and watch her slowly dying
infront of me, once she stops breathing I go to the kitchen
and take a knife. I stab her in her chest and leave the knife
there, I want to make sure she is dead, I thought Miya was
dead too I don't want to take chances with this one only for
her to come back, this one needs to stay dead.
Uncle China and Mlu rush back and look at Frank and Mandy
on the floor then look at me.
Mlu: You did this?
I nod.
China: Wow and I was losing my mind outside when I heard
a gunshot inside I thought it was you.
Me: "I'd do anything to protect my family."
Mlu: Luyolo didn't know about this?
Me: "No, Mom was sad and I couldn't take away dad who can
make her feel better.
Mlu: You guys are growing to be strong men I'm proud of
you.
*
We go back to China's house we find Miyalo in the couch, she
jumps up when she sees me.
Miyalo: You came back.
She hugs me but I don't hug her back.
Me: "Take me home, you will call a cab to fetch you there."
She nods. I look at China.
Me: "Thank so much."
China: "You are my son Nkanyezi, your father and I go way
back."
I shake his hand and walk out.
*
We get home and find the family in the lounge.
They look at us, Ntsika stands up.
Me: "I killed Mandy and Frank."
Ziyanda: What!? Nkanyezi what did you do?
Me: "I had to."
Luyolo: You should have told me.
Me: "I know and i'm sorry ,Uncle China helped me."
Ziyanda: I am going to kill Him. So Miyah this is you.
She nods looking down.
Ziyanda: We have to take you home to your mother
tomorrow and you will explain this to her ok.
Miyalo: Ok Thank you.
I walk her out and we wait for the cab on the veranda I don't
want to wait for it outside the gate, I don't want anything to
happen today.
I take off my jacket and give it to her I can see she is feeling
cold. She wears it and look at me.
Miyalo: "Thank you, when your parents take me home
tomorrow I won't come back, I will stay there."
Me: "Ok, goodbye Miyah."
Miyalo: "Goodbye star."
I see a cab standing infront of the gate.
She look at me and walk away, I watch her get in the cab and
it drives off.
WE ARE ONE(I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
NKANYEZI
*
Mom and dad are taking Miyalo home today and I'm going
with them.
We start in town to fetch Miya and mom buy some groceries.
Miya and I we're sitting at the back seat, she is just looking
out the window like her mind is far away. I just chat with
really beautiful ladies on my phone.
*
Once we're there we step out of the car Miyalo opens her
eyes wide she look so shocked.
Miyalo: But Star this is not my house.
Ziyanda: "It is sweety, let's go to your mom and explain this
to her."
Miyalo: No, I mean this is not my house, this is the place but
this house.
Ziyanda: Ok look we helped your mom a little in extending
her house.
Miyalo: Wow I..I..don't know wh..
Tears make their way out of her eyes, mom embrace her in a
warm hug. They walk in but I stay in the car.
After a while Miyalo comes out and ask if I can help her
offload the grocery, we do it and take it inside then I go back
to the car, Miyalo get in next to me.
Miyalo: "Thank you so much for what you did for my mom."
Me: "It's ok. when did you learn sign language?"
Miyalo: "When I healed from the bullet wound I started
learning everyday and the people I was living with said I was
pushing myself too hard but I wanted to learn, but i'm not
perfect yet, I hoped we would work things out but then I
guess it's over right."
Me: "Yes it is over Miyah I almost killed you, not once, you
deserve better."
Miyalo: "I don't want better I want you please."
Me: "You're better off without me."
Miyalo: "Ok then it's okay" I love you, goodbye Star.
Me: "Goodbye."
She moves her face closer and kiss me, I kiss her back , slow
and deep, I pull her body closer, I don't want to let go but I
have to, I don't want to get hurt by her again, I don't want to
love her like this.
I look at her she has tears, I wipe them off.
Me: "Don't cry, you will be fine."
She just step out of the car and walk in, I see mom and dad
coming out, mom opens my door , I look at her.
Ziyanda: Why is she crying Nkanyezi?
Me: "Because it's over."
I'm hurt, I want her but I'm afraid what if it happens again?
what if she hurt me again, I don't think I want that pain
anymore.
Ziyanda: Are you sure this is what you want?
I wipe my face with both hands.
Me: "Yes."
She looks at me for a while and get in we drive back home
my heart is with Miyalo.
*
NTSIKA
*
I'm glad my brother eliminated the threat that was trying to
wipe out our existence, he is a real man he saved our family.
But now we are facing another problem Vuyo he doesn't
want to divorce Lathitha so my baby mama is pretty much a
married woman.
We hear a knock on the door and there is a woman maybe in
her late 40s standing at the door, she looks alot like Lathi.
Me: Hello.
Woman: Hi I'm Lathi's mother are your parents at home I
need to talk to them.
I let her in and take her to the lounge where everyone is,
Lathi stands up.
Lathi: Mama!
Lathi'sMother: Molweni(Greetings)
She takes a seat and Lathi is still standing looking at her
mother.
Lathi'sMother: Doctor Mzozo it wasn't so hard to find you.
Luyolo: Was she hiding?
Mom gives dad a look.
Lathi'sMother: I came here to take my daughter home.
Me: So you could sell her again?
Lathi'sMother: Are you the father of her kids? If you are
please respect me, you have no right to keep my daughter
here you haven't paid a cent for her and those kids and she is
married.
Lathi: Why is everything always about money to you Mama.
Lathi'sMother: You can't stay here forever, it's not right,
what if the boy you're with decide to move on from you and
find someone else what will you do?
Me: I will never do that.
Lathi'sMother: You are still young you know nothing about
love.
Lathi: And I guess you selling me to that abusive lunatic was
love right?
Lathi'sMother: Let's go home we will fix this and you will go
back to your husband, those kids belong to him.
I chuckle.
Me: Excuse me! They belong to who?
Lathi'sMother: Her husband.
Me: Ngiyalingwa mos la! (I am being tested here.)
Ziyanda: Calm down Ntsika..uhm ma'am we hear your
concerns but we are also concerned, we can't let Lathitha
and the kids go to where it is not safe for them.
Lathi'sMother: Young lady that is my daughter and I know
she is safe at home with me her mother.
Luyolo: Lady please don't address my wife as young lady.
Lathi'sMother: Oh but I'm leaving with my daughter.
Lathi: If you can bring Zola back home maybe I will go home.
Lathi'sMother: Where will I find her Lathitha?
Lathi: I don't know but I'm not going with you mom.
Lathi'sMother: So you'd rather let him have you for free
Lathitha, men get tired my girl and they leave and find
someone new and fresh.
Lathi looks down, I hope she doesn't believe I will do that to
her. I helped her get back in shape, I have told her multiple
times that she is beautiful and good enough for me.
Lathi: I will wait for that day then, atleast he is not abusing
me.
She chuckles and stands up.
Lathi'sMother: Don't come to me crying when this is over
baby.
She walks out shaking her ass.
Me: Why do I feel like that was a threat?
Ziyanda: It never stops, I thought you guys will have it easy
and not suffer like I did but it continues.
*
I'm with Lathi in my room and she's sleeping in bed next to
Manqoba who is awake, his brother is sleeping in his bed.
She looks like she is deep in thoughts.
Me: Want to talk?
Lathi: Maybe mom is right, I mean how long will I stay here?
what if you want to move on?
Me: If you think of going back to your abusive husband then
you will leave my kids here and go alone, I don't why you're
doubting me, did I tell you I wanted to move on? because if I
did I would have done it months ago.
Lathi: But you did sleep with your "Tee" didn't you Ntsika.
Me: Really Lathi..you're going to use that against me, it was
just a moment of weakness you had just got married.
Lathi: Then what if you get that moment of weakness again?
Me: Are you going to get married again?
Lathi: Ongiyeke Ntsika.( leave me alone)
Me: Woza la.(come here)
She get up and stand infront of me.
Lathi: I'm sorry its just that I really miss Zola especially these
days, she is my only sister, I don't even know if she is dead or
alive I just..
She cries.
Me: Ncese yezwa(Sorry ok) but I believe she will come back
one day.
*
LANGA
*
I know my family has been going through alot but I have to
talk to Pillar about something, I'm not home, I'm at Elena's
apartment
I decide to call him, it rings and he answer.
Ntsika: Mfowethu(Brother)
Me: Usharp?
Ntsika: Yes, when are you coming home?
Me: I..I don't, I need your help.
Ntsika: Are you okay?
Me: I want you to talk to Mom and Dad Ntsika I want to get
married.
Ntsika: Get married to who Langelihle? please don't tell me
it's Elena.
Me: Please don't judge me, I love her.
Ntsika: Is Elena forcing you to marry her?
Me: What No, Why would you even think that, just tell me if
you can't help me Ntsika and stop asking me stupid
questions.
He chuckles.
Me: I'm sorry brother I..
Ntsika: Langa..
Me: Yeah bro.
Ntsika: You know you can talk to me about anything right?
Me: I know, look I just need you to talk to Mom please.
He sighs.
Ntsika: Ok I will talk to them.
Me: Thank you.
I drop the call, I hate what i'm about to ask my brother after
this but I have no choice.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
I feel like there is something Langelihle is hiding, he knows
this Elena girlfriend is crazy, and to suddenly want to get
married to her is alarming.
I call him, he pick up.
Langa: Have you talked to mom and dad?
Me: I won't talk to them until you come back home.
Langa: Ok I will come back later today.
Me: Sure.
I go to Nkanyezi's room and sit on his bed, he is busy smiling
on his phone. He looks at me and place the phone next to
him.
Me: "Is that Miyah."
He gives me a look and I raise my hands up in surrender.
Me: "Something is wrong with Langa."
He quickly sit up.
Nkanyezi: "what is it?
Me: "He wants to marry Elena."
He stares at me with his mouth hung open.
Me: "I know right, it's crazy, now he wants me to talk to the
parents."
Nkanyezi: "Is he crazy? that girl is a lunatic."
Me: "I don't know man, he is hiding something."
Nkanyezi: "We will wait for him to get here and ask him,
uElena?"
*
We are eating dinner I clear my throat and Mom look at me.
Me: Uh Mama uLanga ubenesicelo la afuna ngisidlulise kini.(
Mother Langa has a request that he wants me to pass to
you.)
Ziyanda: What is it about Pillar?
Me: He wants to get married.
Luyolo: Langa, is this true?
Langa nods.
Me: And he would like you guys to accept his request so they
can start wedding preparations sooner.
Ziyanda: Langelihle.
Langa: Mama.
Ziyanda: What is this? Do you even know what marriage is?
Langa: No but I know what love is.
Nkanyezi: "You know it from Elena?"
Langa: Yes brother from Elena.
Ziyanda: You want to get married to a girl we never met.
Langa: You can meet her tomorrow.
Ziyanda: Tell me what's going on Langa, is there something
bothering you sthandwa sam(my love) because this decision
is too drastic and so sudden.
He looks down.
Me: We've been through alot Langa as a family and you know
we stand together nomatter what just tell us if there is
anything wrong.
Langa: I JUST WANT TO GET MARRIED!why is everything so
suspicious to you.
Luyolo: LANGA!who are you shouting at?
Langa: Uxolo tata(I'm sorry dad)I'm just..I have to get
married.
Ziyanda: Have to?WeLanga uzongitshela ukuthi
kwenzakalani?(are you going to tell me what's going on?)
He get up and leave the room, leaving the table quiet.
Ziyanda: Ntsika, Nkanyezi talk to your brother because I
don't know anymore, I don't..
She leave the room too.
*
We go to Langa, he is listening to music, I remove his
headsets, he sit up on the bed.
Me: Langa, you're hurting mom can't you see?
Langa: And how is me wanting to get married hurting her?
Nkanyezi: "You need to check your attitude Langa, Ntsika is
older than you remember that."
Langa: Still doesn't change the fact that I want to get married
and your mother will have to deal with it.
Ziyanda: Your mother?
We turn to look behind us.
Langa: Aren't you their mother Ziyanda?
I look at him, Nkanyezi is pissed you can see the way he is
looking at him.
Nkanyezi: "Mom leave the room please."
Ziyanda: "Nkanyezi no don't do anything to him, Langa you
can bring Elena tomorrow we will meet her."
She says blinking away the tears and smiling, that smile is all
hurt I can see through it.
She walk away, Nkanyezi get up and stand infront of Langa.
Nkanyezi: "I want to beat the shit out of you but I know I
might be kicked out by Pink for hurting you."
I get up and walk out, I think Langa likes hurting mom
deliberately and I don't like that.
*
We are waiting for Langa and his soon to be wife to grace us
with their presence.
We are sitting in the dinning room, on the chairs old people
are on the couches, Lathi is in the room with Iyana.
They get in and Elena is smiling so bright I want to wipe it off
with a smack on her face.
Langa: Hello family this is Elena my fiance.
Luyolo: She doesn't have a surname?
Langa: Elena Holmes.
They sit down on the couch opposite mom and dad.
Ziyanda: When do you want to get married?
Elena smiles looking at her.
Elena: You must be Ziyanda the two rude twins's mother.
She says looking from me to Nkanyezi.
Ziyanda: I must be.
Elena : We would like to get married this coming weekend,
we don't want to wait any longer.
Ziyanda: Ok.
Me: Ok? Mom you don't see any problem with this?
Ziyanda: No Ntsika I am fed up ok, I've had it, it's enough
now, give Langa what he wants, because if he doesn't get it
he makes sure to remind me that I'm not his mother just like
he did when he wanted to go to Layla, I'm done ok, you will
get married this weekend Langa.
Elena: Thank you sister!
Nkanyezi: "Langa better tell your bitch to tone it down a bit."
Langa: You call her a bitch yet you're the same person who
was sleeping with a prostitute.
Nkanyezi get up and grab him and pull him off the couch and
start punching him, Elena is screaming I'm just sitting there
watching, Mom and dad are not saying anything, after a
while Nkanyezi let go and push him back on the couch and
look at him, Langa looks at mom who is just staring in the
same direction.
Langa: You let your son hit me like that Ziyanda?
Luyolo: Ok boy listen to me and listen to me good for I will
say it once, this is my wife and you don't get to disrespect
her especially not infront of me because I will make this
room so small for you, ungandinyeli (Don't shit on me) you
hear me!
Langa nods looking down.
Luyolo: Good, now apologise to your mother and mean it
boy.
Langa: I'm s..
Pink get up before he can continue and walk away.
Me: yeah neh..
Langa: But at least I'm getting married not doing Vat 'n sit
with the baby mama .(Cohabiting)
I chuckle.
Me: Don't start with me Langa I will mop this entire floor
with you and your wedding day will be your funeral instead.
Elena: You people like violence.
Me: You people?
Elena: That's what I said.
Luyolo: Ok out we will see you on your wedding, Langa get
her out of here.
*
It's Langa's wedding day, they are doing it in Grandpa's
backyard, Mom is just sitting at the back like a stranger , I go
sit next to her she gives me a faint smile and look down.
Me: Are you ok Pink?
Ziyanda: Yes I'm good bro.
Me: I don't trust this girl Pink.
Ziyanda: It doesn't matter she will be a part of our family
after today.
Me: She is up to something and I'm going to find out what it
is.
Ziyanda: Ok but promise me Ntsika that you won't give up
on him even when he is making mistakes be there for him
always.
Me: Ok mom I promise.
The wedding starts we are all sitting at the back, Elena's
family and friends are sitting in the front row seats because
Elena is the one that planned the wedding and she had
names written on the cards and placed on each chair so our
seats are at the far end of the setting in the stretch tent.
I look at my brother saying his vows and I know this is the
biggest mistake of his life but what i'm asking myself is, what
pushed him to it? But I know we will find out soon enough.

WE ARE ONE( I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
It's been two weeks living with Elena and Langa they are so
annoying always giggling and kissing even infront of Mom,
they once did it when dad was around but he beat the hell
out of him infront of his wife.
We don't talk anymore he just look at us like we're strangers.
*
We are sitting in the lounge with mom and dad and the
happy couple get in with shopping bags.
Elena: Hello family.
We just look at her.
Elena: Ziyanda can I use your kitchen dear I want to cook up
a storm for my husband and his family.
She says beaming, she look happy, Mom just sleep in dad's
chest closing her eyes.
Elena: Ok I will use it anyway.
She says walking away giggling and Langa sits opposite me
and Nkanyezi, he is smirking. I look at him and shake my
head.
She is busy singing in the kitchen, i'm sure even someone
who is overseas can hear her.
After she is done cooking she set the table, humming a very
happy song.
Mom get up but dad swiftly move her and there is a gunshot
dad groans falling on the floor, I move my eyes around there
is a white man standing at the door smirking.
Mom is kneeling next to dad crying, Elena comes in from the
kitchen and smile, Langa stands next to her they both smile.
Elena: Everyone this is a family I was cooking up a storm for.
More white people get in, I move to Langa and start
punching him multiple times I can't stop, I want to hurt him,
I want to kill him.
Someone pull me back it's another white guy, I rush to mom
and Nkanyezi who are kneeling next to dad who is losing alot
of blood, Nkanyezi and I get him up and rush him to the car
mom is behind us still crying.
I get in the drivers seat and drive off to the hospital, dad is
taken in, I know he is going to be ok, he got to be ok.
I drive back home to my kids, I find Langa and this family
eating and laughing I pass them and go look for Lathi and
Iyana in the room but they are not there I can't find them, I
search all the rooms but nothing. I go back to the lounge and
pull Langa up by his shirt.
Me: Where are my kids Langa? Where is Iyana?
He moves my hands away from him.
Me: Where are they Langelihle?
Langa: I don't know and I don't care, all I know is that this is
supposed to be all mine and Elena and now I'm taking it all
back.
I throw a punch at him and he lands on the floor , a white
guy around my age comes to me and we start fighting until I
hear a gunshot, I look up its a guy that shot dad shooting up.
I get up and walk away, I go to grandpa's house I look in
every room but nothing..I walk out and I hear a baby crying I
run to Uncle Kwanele's house they are there sitting together
crying, Iyana is holding Nqoba and Lathi is holding Manqoba,
Qhayiya is next to Iyana.
They all get up when they hear me come in.
Iyana: Bhuti..
She breaks down crying.
Me: Are the kids ok?
Lathi nods.
Qhayiya: I heard the gun and I told Sis Lathi and Iyana that
we have to run to bhuti Kwanele's house.
Uncle Kwanele and Mandisi were deployed in the military to
help in the boarders seperating us with other African
countries.
Me: You did good boy..uh let's go.
Iyana: Where are we going bhuti?
Me: To uncle China's house, come on.
I look for Uncle Kwanele's other car keys and find them then
we rush out to the car, I drive out while calling Uncle China
putting a phone on speaker.
China: NtsikaYekhaya.
Me: I'm coming to your house we have a problem and dad
was shot.
China: What? Who shot him?
Iyana sob loud behind me.
Me: Eish we will talk when I get there, Iya dad is going to be
ok he was shot on the shoulder calm down sis ok.
*
I take my son from Iyana because she has been crying she
look weak. And we get inside uncle china's house I put the
baby down and send a text to my brother Nkanyezi *Don't go
back to the house we are at Uncle china's house.* he replies*
ok cool keep them safe I will be here with mom and dad will
be fine.*
China: Tell me what happened Ntsika.
I tell him about Langa and Elena and the white guys at my
mom's house.
China: So not only is Langa's blood diluted but his mind too
how can he do this?
Me: What makes me so angry is that the bullet that hit dad
was meant for mom, and he didn't care he was smirking the
whole time, how can he do this?
China: If Ziyanda didn't love the kid like her own blood I
would have killed him long time ago.
Me: He is my brother, my father's son I want to hate him but
instead I feel sorry for him, he is so stupid.
My phone beeps I take it out. * China won't do shit to me and
tell your mother and her boyfriend to never step foot in my
house again, all of this belongs to the Reigns and I because
it's my grandmother's money, my mother's aunt, Mrs Reigns
who your mother scammed, I'm taking it all back*
I show uncle china the message.
China: You know some people expirience abuse when raised
by step moms but Langa was raised so well you couldn't tell
that Ziyanda wasn't his mother and he does this? what an
ungrateful brat. Ziyanda didn't have to raise him she wasn't
even his step mom but she did anyway from the goodness of
her heart.
Me: I don't know Langa anymore but Pink said we mustn't
give up on him but he almost got our mother killed uncle
china, how can I forgive that?
China: Ey I don't know, let's wait for your dad to heal so we
can plan our next move.
*
Nkanyezi walk in holding mom's arm, she look sick but I
know its sadness.
I rush to them and help her sit down.
Me: "When are they discharging dad?"
Nkanyezi: "Tomorrow but he wanted to go today he said his
wife never slept alone ever since they got married ."
I chuckle.
Me: "He is so stubborn."
Ziyanda: "That is my husband you're talking about you two."
She says trying to smile.
Me: "Are you ok Pink?"
Ziyanda: "I will be fine Ntsika you're here with me,your
brother, my family and Luyolo will come back."
Me: uhm I found out that those people are related to
grandma and Langa said everything belongs to him and
them.
Ziyanda: Maybe he is right he can take everything.
China: But Ziyanda that is your home, your money that your
mother left for you and your kids.
Ziyanda: I don't want it anymore, we can start over with my
husband somewhere else, Langa can take everything, call
him Ntsika and tell him to get his lawyer and I will call Miller
to sign over everything to him.
Me: But Mom..
Ziyanda: No! NtsikaYam I'm done, He can take all of it, I'm
done fighting for someone who won't fight for me, I'm done
with Langelihle, I'm done..
She says sobbing so loud, I know she doesn't mean it she is
hurting.
Me: I'm sorry mom.
She wipes her tears but more keeps falling.
Ziyanda: Call that boy Ntsika and tell him to meet me
tomorrow.
She says getting up and walk away.
China: That is a tone of a fed up woman alright.
*
We are waiting for Langa at a restaurant of his choice, we are
with MrMiller mom's lawyer and we are sitting in silence.
I see Langa coming in with his wife there is a man in a suit
next to them and three white men behind them one of them
is the one that shot dad.
Ziyanda: "Don't do anything stupid? ok Nkanyezi? Ntsika?
We nod.
Langa sits down he is wearing a suit I guess because he is
about to be a multi millionaire.
They sit opposite us and smile,their entourage stand behind
them maybe they are bodyguards.
Langa: Hello brothers, ZIYANDA and you Mr Miller, you
know you should be on my side my grandma was your half
sister.
Miller : I don't think so , let's get this over and done with.
He takes out the papers in his briefcase and give it to their
lawyer. He goes through them and give them to Langa but he
shakes his head.
Langa: No, I trust you man.
The lawyer look at them again and give him to sign then
mom sign too.
We all stand up and walk out to the car.
Langa: Ntsika.
He shouts we all turn. He walk up to us.
Langa: I need you to give me and my wife one baby,
Manqoba to be precise can't take Nqoba he has his eyes he
might just be disabled too like this one.
He says pointing next to me, I look at Nkanyezi he is just
looking at him.
Mom steps closer to him.
Ziyanda: Leave MY sons alone Langelihle if you know what's
good for you.
Langa: you know you won't let anyone hurt me Ziyanda
you're pathetic, I will come fetch my boy soon ok brother.
He walks away with his hand in his pocket and whistling.
Mom is shaking standing in the same position next thing
Nkanyezi catches her before she falls on the ground, she
fainted.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
NTSIKA
*
I get inside Uncle China's house with Mom in my arms, dad
and uncle china stand up.
I place mom on the couch, she is awake but looks really
weak.
Luyolo: Baby hey, are you ok?
Ziyanda: I'm fine, how is your arm?
She says slowly sitting up.
Luyolo: I'll live mama ka Nka, I love you.
Uncle China's phone rings, he answers it on speaker.
China: Bhuti omdala.(Older brother)
Kwanele: China where is my sister and brother bakuphi
oLuyolo china?
Ziyanda: Bhuti..(brother)
Tears well up in her eyes.
Kwanele: Thank God you're ok what is happening there
Ziyanda? Miller called telling me you signed over everything
to Langa and some girl. uLuyolo uphi?
Luyolo: I'm here, I was shot by Langa's new family.
Kwanele: What! What new family?We are coming back in
two weeks China and Lu can you fix this?
Luyolo: You know I can the best way I know how,Kill each
and every one of them.
Kwanele: Ziyanda..
Mom just cries.
Kwanele: Sis you will be alright I'm coming back ok.
Mom nods.
Kwanele: I love you.
Ziyanda: I love you too.
Kwanele: Ntsika, you and your brother take care of your
mom ok, take care of my sister don't hurt her like Langa did
please guys I trust you.
Me: We will take care of her.
Kwanele: Good I have to go now.
The line go off.
*
We go to town to get formula milk for my kids and the
clothes for them, then I buy a few stuffs for my baby mama,
they are still traumatised so they didn't want to go with me
and Nkanyezi, it's just us two.
We buy everything we need then drive home. I go to the
room I'll be sharing with my kids and Lathitha, I find her
sitting in bed and the kids are on a little pink bed here which
is lil China's bed, that's uncle China's daughter, who lives
with her mother only comes to visit.
Me: Hey babe.
Lathi: how are you?
Me: I'm fine, how are my boys haven't been spending time
with them lately, I miss them so much.
Lathi: I'm sure they understand you're going through alot
Ntsika, I understand too.
Me: Thank you, uhm so you don't mind sleeping with me in
the same bed.
Lathi: No it's ok.
We haven't slept together we only cuddle and I go to my
room that's it so this is the first time we will be sharing the
bed the whole night eversince the day I broke her virginity at
the lodge.
We get in bed and I pull her closer.
Me: I love you Lathitha.
She giggles and moves away.
Lathi: That tickles man stop.
Me: You want to feel what tickles? this tickles.
I say moving my tongue on her neck, she turns around and
look at me, those eyes, the eyelashes makes me fall inlove all
over again.
Lathi: I love you.
I kiss her forehead and pull her to my chest.
She moves her hand on my chest to my stomach, I release a
groan, I wasn't ready for that.
Lathi: uhm..I'm sorry..
Me: No, it's ok goodnight babe.
Lathi: Goodnight.
I wake up the in morning when my boys are crying out loud,
I wake up only to find Lathi standing with Nqoba in her arms
and Langa is holding Manqoba, he has some mask that is
covering him from his nose to mouth.
Langa: I'm leaving with him, he is mine now.
Me: Put my son down Langa.
Langa: I don't think so, he is my son now, its not fair that you
have doubles and I have been trying since Elena and I
started dating, my wife wants a baby and I'm going to give
her that, he is my blood after all.
Lathi: Ntsika..
She says crying, I get off the bed and wear my pants and go
to him, I try to grab Manqoba in his arms but I hear a click
sound and Lathi screams, I feel cold metal on the side of my
head. I turn to look at this white guy next to me he has a
mask on too.
I hear a strong smell coming in, it's something is burning, I
look at Lathi she looks dizzy I take the baby and place him on
his bed. I can feel myself getting dizzy too.
Langa walks out with my son in his arms and the white guy
behind him.
I want to follow them but my head is spinning, I catch Lathi
as she is about to fall but we both fall on the floor then lights
out.
*
I look around and I'm on the floor Lathi is next to me, I get
up my body feels heavy, I carry Lathi and put her in bed, I
check on my son Nqoba he is sleeping with his mouth
slightly opened, I'm going to fetch his brother one way or the
other.
I get dressed and I turn, Lathi is looking at me with red eyes.
I sit next to her.
Me: I'm going to fetch our son, I'm sorry.
She looks at me her lips are shaking, Mom, dad, China and
Nkanyezi get in they are all holding their heads.
China: What's going on? looks like everyone has a problem
like me, my head is spinning.
Me: It's Langa, he was burning something for us to fall asleep
so he can take my son.
Ziyanda: He took Manqoba?
Me: He did and I'm going to fetch him and then kill him.
Ziyanda: No, don't kill him just take my grandchild and come
back.
Luyolo: He is always surrounded by those people.
Me: I don't care about them, I'm fetching my son.
Nkanyezi: "I'm coming with you."
Luyolo: I know you can do it my boys, I trust you.
They walk out, I kiss Lathi's forehead and her cheek.
She looks at me.
Lathi: Don't come back without him.
Me: I'm not coming back without him best believe that I will
go through anyone who dares try to stop me.
I walk out and find Nkanyezi waiting for me.
Dad hands me the gun.
Luyolo: Anyone standing in your way you do what?
Me: I shoot to kill..
Luyolo: Right!
Ziyanda: Don't kill Langa..
I look at her.
Me: But if he won't give me my son I will have no choice but
to kill him.
Ziyanda: No don't..Carl is taking back all the money that is
making his head so big.
I put the gun on my waist and we walk out , I drive home, I
watch every movement at the gate. I can see two white guys
smoking on the veranda, I look over at Nkanyezi.
Nkanyezi: "We shoot to kill."
We step out of the car and walk in, they are talking and
laughing we both aim at them and pull the triggers, they fall
on the ground.
I run to the back and get inside using the back door, I'm
checking every single room, I find Nqoba sleeping I take him
and walk out, I can hear Langa shouting for Elena to go check
on the baby.
I'm holding Nqoba with my left hand I have a gun in the
other, I see Nkanyezi pointing a gun at Langa who is just
looking at him calmly. I walk up to them.
Langa: Bring back my son Ntsika!
Me: so your boys can't swim now you are claiming my son
you're crazy wena.
Langa: If you don't bring him back I assure you, I will come
and kill all of you starting from Nqoba to your Mother and
that arrogant Luyolo.
I chuckle.
Me: I'd like to see you try brother.
Langa: OH don't worry it won't be long..
Elena comes out shouting and I point a gun at her she
freezes.
Elena: Bring back that baby N..ntsika.
Me: So nigula ngokufanayo huh( so you are both crazy?)
Elena: You know this won't end well..
Me: For you, yes I know that..and brother I will be watching
the day you fall on your knees w...
Langa: Why would I , I have all the gold.
I chuckle.
Me: Yeah you do..now listen to me good, try taking my son
again I will kill you and Pink won't be able to stop me, I will
kill you and comfort her and we will move on with our lives
like you never existed.
Langa: you're just as weak and pathetic as your Pink.
Me: Mmmm I will hold on to those words for future
reference brother.
I look at Nkanyezi.
Me: Let's go MY son misses his mother.
Nkanyezi: "I feel sorry for you, she will leave you and you
will have no one, you will remember that woman and it will
be too late for you Langelihle."
Langa: Oh please she's broke what will I need from her..
Nkanyezi: "Ulibambe lingashoni."(Make sure the sun doesn't
set)
Langa: Is that a threat?
Nkanyezi: "No..No I wouldn't dare threaten a guy who has all
the gold now would I?"
He turn to go, and I look at Langa one more time and follow
Nkanyezi, I give him Manqoba and drive home.
We get in and they all get up like we've been gone for days.
Ziyanda: Thank God you guys are ok.
She takes Manqoba from Nkanyezi and kiss him then give
him to Lathitha.
Ziyanda: Is he ok Ntsika?
I look at her, how can one person have such a big heart, she
still cares about Langa even when he has hurt her so much.
Me: He is fine..
Ziyanda: ok, you guys didn't hurt him right?
I look at her.
Ziyanda:You didn't hurt him Ntsika angithi?(right!)
Me: He is fine mom we didn't touch him.
Ziyanda: Ok good, I don't want him to blame any of us when
everything falls apart, I did my best raising him and he chose
his path, he will have to live with it.
She takes Nqoba and walk away.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
LANGA
*
I feel like a boss, I smell like a boss I mean I even walk like a
boss, all that was stolen from my grandma, I took it all back. I
know Ziyanda was giving us alot of money but a man can
never have enough money.
Today I'm taking my wife out to a very expensive restaurant
I will pay any amount, she deserves it, she is the one who
opened my eyes and told me how much this isn't fair to me
that i have to ask for my money from Ziyanda, she knows her
family history, her mother was a Reigns married to Holmes,
so this is part of their money too because their son's money
made Mrs Reigns successful.
*
We take seats and the Waiter takes our order.
Me: Give us your most expensive wine would you we are
celebrating.
The Waiter writes everything down and walk away.
Me: You look beautiful baby.
Elena: Thank you honey, I love this dress, thanks.
She is wearing a red dress with a slit from the thigh down, I
bought it.
Me: Anything for you babe.
We start wining and dining while there is a soft music
playing, this is a very good place to chill if you have money
like me.
Elena: I need a new car, I can't be driving that Audi Ziyanda
was driving it's too dull.
Me: We will go to a car dealership tomorrow and I will buy it
cash.
Elena: Ok when are you spliting the money with the Reigns.
Me: We will have to do it this coming weekend love.
Elena: Ok the sooner the better so we can fix our finances.
Me: Yeah.
The waiter brings the bill and I look at it it's R2200 that's a
small change with the millions I have in my name.
I take out my card and give it to him, he swipe it and I punch
the pin.
Waiter: Sir it's declining.
I chuckle.
Me: Try again.
Waiter: Declined.
Me: That's impossible maybe that thing isn't working go get
another one.
He rushes off.
Elena is looking at me.
Me: Can you believe this? Declined? My card?
Elena: I know right.
He comes back with another machine and it says the same
thing over and over again. Elena takes out her card and give
it to the waiter and it goes through she makes the payment
and we leave.
Me: What is going on?
Elena: you will need to go to the bank tomorrow, maybe
something is wrong with your card.
*
I'm on my way to the bank I have to get to the bottom of this.
I speak to the bank manager and he tells me that my card is
empty no money in my bank account and I transfered all my
money to some account of one Mrs Wander, I never heard of
that name before, ever. And they can't do a rervesal because
it's overseas and they can't check which bank they use, I am
so angry.
I walk out that bank feeling hot and cold at the same time, I
take off my tie as I step into a car.
My phone rings, It's Mr Reigns.
Reigns: Hello. Can we meet we need to do a transfer as soon
as possible my family need that money as soon as possible.
Me: Uhm I was in the meeting with the bank manager right
now and told me there are ...uhm..there is no money in my
bank account.
Reigns: I'm sorry..what does that mean?
Me: It means that i have no money on my name it was all
transfered to one Mrs Wander overseas.
Reigns: What!?, boy don't play with me , I want my money by
the end of today, you are trying to scam us like that good for
nothing Ziyanda.
Me: I swear..
Reigns: Get that money or I will kill you just like you got my
nephews killed by those stupid twins.
Me: Look I'll make a plan just give me until tomorrow I will
fix this.
Reigns: Fix it.
He drops the call I huff. I drive home and I find my wife
waiting for me.
Elena: How did it go?
Me: They said I transfered the money to some account
overseas.
Elena : What No!! And Langa I want that baby you know I
can't have any babies after that abortion I did two years ago.
Me: I can't deal with that right now.
Elena: I want that boy back here Langa, I did it for you, you
were just a small boy in high school how were you going to
take care of me and the baby then.
Me: Ziyanda was..
She screams so loud pulling her hair.
Elena: If you ever mention that name in this house I will hurt
you so bad.
Me: Ok..ok I'm sorry.
She looks like a mad woman and I'm scared for my life.
*
The Reigns are coming today and I'm shaking with fear
there's no telling what they will do to me if I don't give them
their share of money.
Reigns: So where is our money, we came to collect man.
Me: I..I don't have it.
Ryan: Don't give us that man..please we did not come here to
play games.
Me: I'm not..it's not there I don't know..
Ryan: Elena tell your husband to give us our money now.
Elena: Langa give them the money.
Me: But you know the bank manager..
Ryan: Fuck what the manager says we don't care all we need
is our cash and we will leave.
Me: I don..
Ryan stands up and pull me by my shirt he starts by spiting
on my face then a slap lands on my cheek.
Ryan: Is this a game to you huh.
Me: No..no its..
He gives me a punch I land on the floor and they start kicking
me all over my body, I'm groaning, I think my ribs are
broken, they kick me until I cough blood.
Me: Stop..
They continue to kick me till I can't move.
Ryan: We are coming back for our money better have it first
thing tomorrow morning.
They walk out and I lay there on the floor not moving. I hear
a sound of a suitcase being pulled on the floor, My vision is
blurry.
Elena: I'm leaving untill you sort this out Langa, I can't stay
here.
Me: E..l..en.a
Elena: Bye.
I hear the door close, I close my eyes. I wake up in the middle
of the night and try to sit up, I'm feeling cold and my entire
body is in so much pain.
I search for my phone and call Ntsika. It rings and he
answers.
Ntsika: Jaa.
He answers like that when he is sleeping.
Me: br..other..
Ntsika: Who is this? Do you know what time it is?
So he doesn't know my number anymore.
Me: It's me.. please..
Ntsika: Hey look I don't know anyone by the name 'ME' so
fuck off .
He drops the call, I call him again.
Ntsika: You're starting to be a nuisance.
Me: Langa..
Ntsika: Langa who?
Me: please..man .come on.
Ntsika: What do you want?
Me: Jus..help me..
Ntsika: NO I'm still doing Vat 'n sit with my baby mama
remember?
Me: pl..
The line goes off.
These people will kill me if they find me here tomorrow.
I send the message to Nkanyezi * Brother please help me
these people will kill me*
I wait for a few minutes but no reply.
My ribs must be really broken I can't get up.
I try calling Mom but her phone is on voicemail I leave
message.
Me: *Mom please help me they will kill me mom please.
I move by my ass slowly all the way to the bedroom.
*
ZIYANDA
*
I wake up in the morning and I make breakfast in China's
kitchen then go check on my phone on the charger, I open it,
I have messages from Sis Mbali and a voice message from
Langa.
I listen to it
Langa: *Mom please help me they will kill me mom please.
Ntsika comes in while I was still listening to it.
Ntsika: Morning Mama.
I play his voice message again.
Ntsika: Is that Langa.
Me: Yes he says they will kill him.
Ntsika: Who? His NEW family? He called me in the middle of
the night.
Me: Why didn't you tell me Ntsika?
Ntsika: for what Mom?
Me: I would have..man Ntsika what if they were hurting him,
what if they killed him.
He shrug his shoulders. Nkanyezi comes in and show me a
message from Langa.
Ntsika: They won't kill him, he is their ticket to that money
he took from you they will just beat his ass that's all.
China: Morning.
Luyolo: Hey baby.
He kiss my forehead.
Ntsika: looks like Karma already visited our beloved brother
dad he was buzzing our phones the whole night.
China: That was quick.
Me: Because I took back that money bhuti China.
China: So, It was yours he had no right to make a deal with
the money that didn't belong to him.
Me: But..
Luyolo: No buts Ziyanda, that boy was ungrateful he was
willing to sacrifice you to those people all for money, the boy
you raised had the audacity to chase you out of your house.
Me: I know Luyolo..I just..ok I will leave him alone he did call
me Ziyanda and he called me their mother so I'm nothing to
him they are his family now.
I don't know if I believe what I'm saying myself but I think
it's time I let go of Langa he has hurt me too much and
brought those people who almost made me a widow and he
stood there smiling at my pain of watching my husband
being shot by a bullet that was meant for me.
Ntsika: You're crying Mama..stop doing this to yourself he
doesn't deserve you ok, he doesn't.
I wipe my tears, I didn't realise I was crying.
Me: I love you guys so much I hope you will remember that
everytime you think of hurting me.
Nkanyezi: " With the sacrifices you made for us, I wouldn't
dream of hurting you mom."
Ntsika: "Me too we love you Mama."
I go to my room, I kneel down and pray for my family, for my
brothers in the force and for Langa as well he might have
hurt me but I still love him, he is still my son.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
LANGA
*
I slept on the couch because I was in so much pain to even
get to my room.
I sit on the floor and move with my ass all the way to my
room, I have to get out of here before the Reigns come back
to finish me off.
I try to take a very quick shower while I'm groaning and
cussing because wow,shit hurts.
I look for anything I can take for the pain, I find some pills
and drink them up. Then walk out and get in mom's car and
drive to Uncle China's house. I find the gate locked I call him
and he answers.
China: Langelihle.
Me: Uncle China can you please open the gate for me.
China: Uuh why?
Me: I need to talk to Mom and dad.
China: your Mom and dad are here in my house?
I groan.
Me: Please I need to talk to Zi..I need to talk to Pink.
China: Move away from my gate before I shoot 'Your' car
with you inside.
I know he doesn't play and now that Mom and I are not in
good terms he might really shoot me, they are all loyal to
her, she is a good person.
I drive two houses away from his house and try calling
Ntsika but Lathitha answers.
Lathi: Ntsika is in the shower.
Me: Uhm look can you tell him to call me as soon as he get
out of the shower.
Lathi: Sure..
I think quick this girl is young and naive maybe I should use
her to get to them.
Me: Look I have been meaning to tell you this you are really
beautiful and you deserve a real man who can take care of
you and give you a home you deserve and I can give you all
that and more.
I hear a chuckle.
Ntsika: Wow Langa..Wow man.. really?
I'm just stunned I thought it was still Lathitha on the phone.
Me: Look its not what y..
Ntsika: first you take my boy now you are hitting on my
girlfriend Langelihle..you..I don't know you anymore..wow
man..
Me: Please, she is married anyway..
He chuckles and cuts the call, I hit the steering wheel in
frustration.
Me: What now?
I drive around the neighborhood till late and stop outside
home I'm afraid of sleeping here maybe I should just sleep in
the car that way if they come I can drive away.
I park the car and adjust the car seat and close my eyes, I
didn't sleep well last night because of pain and sleeping on
the couch, so you can imagine how tired I am right now.
I close my eyes and I feel myself slowly drifting to sleep.
I hear a banging on the window I jump and take the keys to
start the car but he smash the window with a stone it
shatters and a glass cuts my forehead.
Ryan: Get the fuck out.
I get out and look around its so
quiet there is no car on the road.
Me: Look man I will pay all your money just give me time I
know Ziyanda's husband have money too I will take it and
give it to you.
Ryan: We know Ziyanda has the money now we are sending
her a message through you.
Me: But she doesn't care about me now please...just give me
time.
Ryan: No can do..you played us..
He takes out his gun..
Me: Please don't ok Ziyanda will give me the money if we
just call her and you threaten me.
Ryan: No I like my plan better, we start with you, your mute
brother follows and then his twin brother and his kids until
she gives it all back, let's hope you are enough to alert her.
Me: Please let's just take Nkanyezi instead..
Ryan: How will I get to him if he is in that house..
Me: I have an easy access to that house.
Ryan: No I will find my own way..
He shoots me in my abdomen, the pain is excrutiating I fall
down on my knees then hit the ground with my back.
I feel myself slowly losing conciousness.
*
ZIYANDA
*
I'm with my grandkids in the lounge they are sleeping so
peacefully I wish I was like them sleep, eat ,cry and sleep
again with no care in the world. I still can't get over how
much they look like my boys, I love them so much.
I hear the door bangs so loud causing Nqoba to wake up and
cry out loud.
I take him and start rocking him, their father comes in
fuming.
Me: What is wrong with you Ntsika you woke Nqoba up.
He is pacing around the room.
Me: Yewena!(Hey you.)
Ntsika: I'm sorry mom, Langa is hitting on Lathitha Mom he
is fuckin...
Me: Ntsika!
Ntsika: I'm sorry..he told Lathitha that she's beautiful and
she deserves a man like him and..
Me: He did what?
Ntsika: He is really going too far now Pink I'm going to kill
that bastard.
Me: NtsikaYam don..
Ntsika: No..he has gone too far and I'm going to fetch him
there and kill him.
Me: You're not killing anyone, you hear me..
My husband, China and Nkanyezi get in.
Nkanyezi: "Why do you look so angry brother?"
Ntsika: " The fool you call a brother was hitting on the
mother of my kids Nkanyezi."
Nkanyezi: "Bastard ."
Me: Calm down.
Ntsika: "I hate him."
Me: My son has turned out to be exactly like Kuhle, where
did I go wrong raising him? I thought I did well and that you
will grow up living for each other as brothers, I didn't want
any of you to turn out like your father's twin brother, that
person didn't have a heart now my son is just like him.
I put Nqoba down and sit back on the couch.
Luyolo sits next to me and make me sleep on his chest my
place of peace.
We all sit in silence until my phone rings I press it and put it
on speaker then place it on the coffee table.
Me: Hello.
Caller: Hey Dr Mzozo we are calling regarding your son
Langelihle he was brought in earlier today he has been shot
on..
I don't hear what she is saying next, my head is spinning.
Luyolo: ZIYANDA!!
Me: Mmmm.
Ntsika: Mama..
Me: Go get my car keys..
Luyolo: Ziyanda!you can't drive like this..
I try to get up but I can't, my entire body is heavy.
Luyolo: Calm down baby..Ntsika will drive you to the
hospital.
Ntsika: I will?
I blink a couple of time.
Me: I..need water.
Ntsika walks away and comes back with water.
I drink up and I feel like myself again, I breath out.
Me: I have to go see if he is ok.
Ntsika: Can you drive sisi?
Me: Oh fuck you wena, bhuti China let's go, infact we're all
going.
"WE ARE?" they say in unison.
Me: Come on what if he dies? We are the only family he have
please.
Ntsika: Are we really?
Me: Ngikusakaze ngempama Ntsika! (I will slap you so hard
Ntsika)
He mumbles something and I smack him across his face.
Me: Don't get cheeky with me.
China: Wow let's go before we all get those slaps.
We get to his car and he drives us to the hospital.
We walk in and we are asked to wait outside I know this is
my hospital but I don't think I want to be in there, I mean he
is my son will I be able to do my job while I know his life is in
danger.
I sit down and Luyolo sits next to me.
Ntsika: "I'm going to get water, come with me bro."
Nkanyezi stands up amd they walk away.
China: I'm going with them maybe we will be here for a
while we will get food.
He follows the boys.
Me: I don't feel too good..
Luyolo: Let me call the nurse for you.
I chuckle.
Luyolo: I'm not playing , Nurse..
He says calling out and Nia my Nurse rushes to us.
Nia: Mr Mzozo and Mrs Mzozo I'm sorry about your son and.
Luyolo: Hello can you help my wife she is not feeling well.
Nia: Ofcause come.
We get up and go to the ward this is unnecessary really but
this is Luyolo.
She starts asking me about stress and periods and then she
ask I do a pregnancy test.
I laugh out loud.
Me: Nia you think I'm pregnant? Yes i'm not on any
contraceptives but my last born is old.
Nia: Yea and so.
Me: If I was still going to have another baby I would have
had him long time ago.
Luyolo: Just do the damn test baby and prove her wrong.
Me: Is that sacarsm I sense in that sentence.
Luyolo: Whaaaat Nooooo!!
I look at him and do the 'damn test' it comes out positive.
Me: Do another one sweety that's impossible.
We wait for a while.
Nia: Positive again.
Me: Oh no that might be wrong, let's do an ultrasound
instead.
Nia: Perfect idea.
My husband helps me take off my dress and I sleep on the
bed when she moves the wand the first thing I hear is a very
strong heartbeat I look at Luyolo with my mouth hung open,
he is beaming in pride.
Luyolo: Wow..
Nia: Doctor Mzozo you are 18 weeks pregnat.
Me: 18 what!!
Nia: 18 weeks Ma'am
Luyolo: Can we know the gender?
He is grinning and look so beautiful yeah my man ain't
handsome but a very beautiful man haha.
Nia: Yes, let me see..uuh..it's a girl..
Luyolo: YEEES!!
Me: Yes?
Luyolo: Yes my baby girl..thank you love, thank you so much.
he says kissing me, he is so happy.
Me: My last born I really thought Q was our last.
Luyolo: Well you thought wrong there's my second princess
in there.
He cleans the gel in my stomach I can hardly see the
difference in my stomach.
Luyolo: But Ziyanda this thing of not showing sooner is a
problem.
Me: I know I mean I'm 4 months and some weeks but look at
me.
Luyolo: Thank you so much..
I smile at him but I remember my boy who is laying in a
theatre bed at this time, will he survive.
Luyolo: I suggest you don't stress remember you're
pregnant.
I chuckle.
Me: but 6 kids.
Luyolo: It doesn't matter, you had five before you even held
a Doctor title that didn't stop you from reaching your goal so
what's one more when you're already successful.
Me: Thank you for always being here daddy.
Luyolo: I wouldn't want to be anywhere else but here babe.
*
We tell the boys that I'm expecting and they are laughing at
me. We are in my office, the doctors are still operating Langa.
We are eating it's been too long.
Ntsika: So you guys will have a baby who is younger than
your grandchildren?
He burst in laughter.
Nkanyezi: " Wow guys, so you are still doing it?"
Me: "what is it?"
He wiggle his eyebrows, I throw a pen at him, he grins.
One doctor comes in, I get up and look at his face I really
hope my baby is fine.
Doctor: DrMzozo the operation was successful.
I sigh.
Me: Thank God.
Doctor: But he need a blood transfusion to replace blood that
he lost through surgery.
Me: Oh..
Doctor: We don't have any blood bags available at the
moment.
I look at Nkanyezi he is the one who has blood type AB+
which is compatible with all blood types.
Nkanyezi looks away, I walk up to him and pull him up.
Me: "Can you please do it, from the bottom of your heart
please donate for your brother."
He looks at me.
Nkanyezi: "I will do it for you Mother."
I hug him tight and kiss his cheek.
He smiles.
Nkanyezi: "For you Pink not him, he made fun of my
disability infront of his family I'm still angry at him."
Me: "I know but Thank you so much , I promise after this we
will find a new home and leave him with his house."
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
NTSIKA
*
We heard that Langa is back at home and he is on the
wheelchair, I feel sorry for him but he had it coming. But I
also heard that the doctors said it's only temporally because
there were no damaged internal organs so he will walk
again.
*
We are still living with Uncle China, he really doesn't mind
having us around because he gets bored living by himself so
we are a very good company.
Ziyanda: You know babe I think it would be better if we just
rebuild my mother's house since no one has been showing
interest in it.
Luyolo: You want to go back?
Ziyanda: It was just a suggestion.
Someone knock and I go open, I'm shocked but happy to see
my uncles at the door.
Me: Uncle I thought you said you're only coming back next
wee..
Mom pushes me out of the way and throw herself in Uncle
Kwanele's arms.
Kwanele: Whooa Ziyanda you are not a kid anymore stop
throwing yourself like that and besides I'm getting old.
Mom just sobs and go hug uncle Mandisi.
Mandisi: It's ok bhuti is here now ok, everything will be fine.
She hugs Mlu and we all go take seats.
Kwanele: So who are we killing China? Who is making my
Sister cry?
China: The Reigns and Langelihle.
Kwanele: Miller told me that story and no Ziyanda we won't
change our home that we built from stratch for Langa.
Ziyanda: But I don't want him anywhere near me, my kids
and my grandkids. In his mind he thinks I love him more
than my own kids but that is not the case I love them all the
same way but I have to let him go, he reminded me over and
over that I'm not his mom and I kept forcing myself in his life
this was just the last straw.
Kwanele: Then we can find a new place for him or he will
live at the main house you won't have to see him.
Ziyanda: Ok..I just hope he is doing ok.
Kwanele: Tonight we are finishing off the Reigns. Ntsika and
Nkanyezi I'm proud of you for holding things down when
your dad was injured, good job.
Mandisi: And we are getting Lathitha divorced it's time you
all live your age and not worry about people threatning your
lives we can back to fix everything.
Luyolo: Yes my wife needs to have peace too for our baby.
Mandisi: What baby is it you Ntsika are you the baby?
I laugh out loud , the worried look on his face is out of this
world, hilarious.
Luyolo: I'm talking about another princess coming soon.
He says brushing mom's stomach.
Kwanele: You scored?
Mandisi: Again?
Luyolo: Why do you look suprised? she is my wife I paid
everything I don't owe you anything not even a single cow.
Kwanele: See we have to fix everything soon we don't want
the second princess to be born in this mess.
Ntsika: And I really need my own space the twins are turning
five months soon.
I say smirking, I miss sex whoever talked to Lathitha about
this waiting period after birth really messed up the lady is
counting one month to go.
Mandisi: You want to score more twins?
Ziyanda: And I would just ship him off to grandpa in the
farms back home.
*
My Uncles get geared up for their mission of killing the
Reigns.
Me: Will you kill Elena too?
Mandisi: Who is Alina?
Me: Its Elena, Langa's wife.
Mandisi: YES
He says it so casually causing me to laugh.
Ntsika: " Then good riddance."
Nkanyezi: "To bad rubbish."
Uncle Mandisi and Dad look at each other and laugh.
Luyolo: The first few days we met your mom we said those
words and she low key called us gays.
Ziyanda: What? Who?
Luyolo: You Ziyanda you said "Ncoo look at you, you even
finish each other's sentences nywe nywee. "Bhuti Luyolo are
you straight." and I showed her how straight I am.
he says mimicking mom
Mom throws a pillow at him.
Ziyanda: Be safe all of you.
Luyolo: we're bullet proof baby ungadubula (you can shoot)
Mom rolls her eyes and lays her head on my lap.
Ziyanda: Ongiqaqe bro( Unbraid my hair bro)
I start unbraiding her hair.
My dad and uncles leave we are alone, I feel footsteps like
someone is running outside mom is sleeping in my lap I
slowly move her and get up, I wave at Nkanyezi he looks at
me.
Me: "Someone is outside."
Nkanyezi: "Is the back door locked?"
I rush to check and it's locked. I check Iyana and Lathi they
are sleeping with the twins and Qhayiya is in his room too.
I walk to Nkanyezi.
Me: "Let's do this quietly so we don't stress mom."
He gives me a thumbs up.
We walk out the front door and slowly walk at the back, we
see a shadow of someone standing infront of the back door.
We walk closer to him and I jump on him we both land on
the ground, We start fighting and Nkanyezi takes his gun on
the floor I punch him one more time and quickly get up
Nkanyezi points a gun at him.
Ntsika: Ryan we meet again, what are you doing here?
Ryan: I want my family's money from that bitch!
Ntsika: Ok let's do this, we gonna walk out of here or I will
drag you and we will walk down the street then when we are
far from here we will shoot you ok.
He chuckles.
Ntsika: You think I'm playing?
Ryan: You are a small boy.
Ntsika: Ok.
I kick his knee several times then I literally drag him as
promised Nkanyezi is following us with his gun on his hand.
When we are a bit far from home Nkanyezi shoots him two
times on the chest then we run home.
We find dad and uncles back.
Luyolo: where did you two go at this time?
Me: To kill Ryan he was trying to sneak in this house he had
a gun on his hand.
Luyolo: Well we killed them from that disgusting old man to
Elana.
I shake my head they just don't wanna call her name right on
purpose.
Kwanele: Tomorrow we are packing up we going back home
Sunny and Mbali are coming back from their business trip.
China: I will miss having you guys around.
*
LANGA
*
I heard that mom is back and uncle Kwanele told me to stay
away from her because I have hurt her enough and I know I
did, I just wish I have one last chance to apologise for
everything I have done.
I can't do anything since i'm on a wheelchair bathing is
proving to be more difficult, I'm still in so much pain I find it
hard to move around, I last had the proper bath when I was
still in the hospital the nurses were helping me.
I get up from the bed and pull the wheelchair towards the
bed, then move to it hurting myself in the process I groan..I
smell bad and i'm hungry atleast they bought me food, I
wheel myself to the kitchen and make a sandwish then eat.
I go to the bathroom to wash my face then I go get fresh air
on the veranda.
I can see Mom and Ntsika laughing and playfully fighting
over a phone, I smile with tears in my eyes.
Mom turns and her eyes meets mine, she stands there and
Ntsika look up too and see me, he wraps his arm around
mom's neck and they get inside the house.
I wipe my tears and go back inside, we were a happy family
until I let people get inbetween me and the woman who laid
down her life for me and my brothers countless times, she
could have left me out but she fought for me too but I
betrayed her and I'm sorry for that but who will I apologise
to, It's too late.
I go to the bath tub and fill up water I take off my shirt and
my pants and slowly get in, the pain is too much, I groan and
close my eyes I let the pain sink in I deserve it, all of it.
I close my eyes and let the tears fall, I cry for hours the water
is cold now but I don't care.
I feel a hand on my shoulder I open my eyes it's My mother,
she has tears in her eyes.
Ziyanda: Langelihle.
I sob so loud, she is here, she is really here.
Ziyanda: It's ok, I'm here, I will always be here.
Me: I'm sorry mama, I'm sorry.
Ziyanda: I know you are, this time I know you're really sorry,
you are my son I raised you I know when you are sorry.
She get up and drain the water I'm in then fill up another one
and start bathing me. I see my brothers standing behind her
looking at us, she wants to take me out of the bathtub but
she's failing.
Ntsika: Let me help you..
Mom slowly get up amd turns to face them.
Ziyanda: You're here?
Ntsika: Yes Mom..you made us promise to always be there
for him and never turn our backs on him.
They both come closer and mom moves away they help me
up, Mom goes out, I slowly remove my boxer shorts and
wear another one then they take me to my room in silence.
Mom clean up my bullet wound and bandage it, she walk out
after a while she comes back with food and feed me in
silence, and then give pills for the pain.
I look at them as they are standing on my bedside.
Langa: Thank you and I know I did you wrong for that I am
so sorry, for everything, forgive me brother for taking your
son, Nkanyezi I'm sorry for making fun of you I'm so sorry
Mom for almost getting you killed and for everything.
Ntsika: I hate what you did Langa, I hate that you turned
your back on us, you hurt our mother so much but we all
make mistakes right..
Nkanyezi: "To be honest with you all I see is red I want to
punch your teeth out right now but I respect the first lady
next to me so much."
Mom takes my hand and smile.
Ziyanda: I want you to get that Gumede blood off your
system Langa, you don't have to be like them, you were
raised by a Mzozo act like one because really, family is not
always about blood, Luyolo, my brothers and my father
raised you guys to be the men that you are today, so be a
Lukhele, be a Mzozo carry yourself as those people who
raised you and get Misokuhle and Lethokuhle out of your
systems you don't know them so don't allow yourself to be
as despicable as them because of blood, break that chain all
of you and teach that to your kids and grandkids.
Nkanyezi: "We are brothers."
Me: "Thank you so much for being here."
Ziyanda: I love you, all of you.
Luyolo: And I love you too.
He says getting in and look at me.
Luyolo: Get well soon so I can beat the shit out of you for
getting me shot.
I look down, he touch my shoulder.
Luyolo: I hope you learnt your lesson boy.
Me: I'm sorry dad..

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
*
I am glad the drama that was going on in my family is over
now we can focus on the future ahead of us.
Langa still stays at the main house because my uncles
haven't forgave him for what he did to mom but we visit him
every chance we get I mean we are in the same yard after all.
I check on my phone I have been chatting with alot of girls
but I'm not interested in any of them. I scroll down my
phone I see Miyalo's number and I just check it, I see she has
a profile picture of her and another guy, I don't know how I
feel about this but then I'm the one who pushed her away
i'm glad if she has moved on. I decide to text her.
Me: 'Hey Miyah'
Miyalo: 'Hi'
Oh wow no hey star nothing.
Me: 'How is hom?'
Miyalo: 'Never been better, who is this?'
Me: 'So you moved on and deleted my number?'
Miyalo: 'Who are you?'
Me: 'Nkanyezi.'
Miyalo: 'Oh, what do you want Nkanyezi?'
I don't know why I even texted her, she is so rude.
I log out and just lay in bed thinking about her but I need to
stop she has moved on.
I take my phone and make a random girl I chat with my
profile picture. A text comes through.
Miyalo: 'Nkanyezi, why did you text me?
Me: 'Just to find out if you're still breathing.'
Miyalo: 'I am, and change the profile picture she is ugly.'
I smile so she noticed but the girl is not ugly I think she is
jealous.
Me: 'uhlanganaphi?did I tell you to change yours?'( how does
it concern you?)
Miyalo: 'Fuck off'
Me: 'Is that directed to me?'
She doesn't reply and she post a photo of her carrying
flowers and a bottle of wine with a caption "thanks baby for
the presents I surely will have a great day, it's my birthday
ya'll."
Now I feel bad I didn't know it's her birthday, I go to dad.
Me: I need to drive your car.
Luyolo: What but you haven't been driving for years.
Me: Now I need to drive somewhere please.
I'm asking for dad's car because I used it after I learned how
to drive and he put some special devices for me to be able to
alert me if any emergency vehicle sirens are nearby. Car
horns can also be detected and to my advantage I have
improved peripheral vision and that is the primary sense
used for driving that is why it was easier for me to drive.
Luyolo: "Go take the keys so we can check if everything is
working perfectly."
I rush in and he checks everything, I get in the driver's seat, I
can do this, I start the car and drive slowly to town i'm
nervous as hell.
I get to town and I start searching for anything I can buy for
Miyah but I am clueless some white lady comes to me with a
smile.
Lady: Can I help you?
Me: "Hello I do need help actually."
She smiles brightly.
Lady: "What is it you're looking for."
I smile at her.
Lady: "My son has Autism so he delay in learning to Speak so
we took sign language classes but now he can talk but his
speech is a bit slurred."
Me: "Oh i'm sorry to hear that,so you work here?"
Lady: "Yes it's hard enrolling my son to a mainstream school
because they are not fully equiped to accommodate children
with Autism and we don't have many Autism centers around
and those that are there are expensive and I have to work I
can't homeschool him."
I look at her she is sad and I feel sorry for her.
Lady : "I'm sorry to waste your time about my business son,
so what do you need."
Me: "Don't be sorry please I understand."
I tell her what I need, she recommend a lingerie and a
perfume, I chuckle she is way older than mom.
Lady: I know ladies like these things you just need to know
her favourite colour.
I take the red lingerie and their most expensive ladies
perfume. She wraps them up for me, she is sweet.
Me: "Thank you so much."
Lady: "My pleasure"
I take out R400 and give it to her.
Me: "Buy something for the little guy, I will come see him one
day, can I please have your number."
She has tears in her eyes she types her number on my phone.
Lady: Thank you so much, thank you God bless you.
I bow a little then leave the store.
I have been driving for a while, I get to Miyalo's
neighborhood and I can see her standing next to a car with a
man, must be the boyfriend.
I park behind his car and get out and walk to them.
Miyalo looks like she wants to run away she is so shocked
she even look pale. I left her gift in the car.
Me: "Hello."
They both just look at me.
Me: "I came to say happy birthday and I brought you a gift
aswell."
She looks at her man next to her it's like she wants to cry, I
didn't realise how much I missed her until now, she is so
beautiful.
Guy: Who is this Yalo?
Miyalo: Just a friend, his family helped mom with the house.
Ouch that hurts.
Guy: Oh so why is he using hands, he can't talk?
She nods.
Me: "I'm sorry to just come here without telling you."
Miyalo: "Why did you come?"
Me: "I just needed to see you, I'm sorry I will leave."
Her boyfriend is staring at me.
Guy: Yalo tell your friend to leave I can't be seen standing
with a mute.
I look at Miyah.
Miyalo: "Look I..
Me: "I get it,can I just greet your mom and sister then i'll
leave."
She nods looking down, I go to the car and take out the gift
bag and walk in with it, I greet her mom and sister who look
so happy to see me and I leave her gift inside and walk out, I
wave at them and get in the car.
I start the car and drive away, my heart is aching but I don't
blame her I'm the one who said it's over even when she
begged me.
I get home late because I was busy driving like an old
grandma.
Ziyanda: Hey i heard you were driving how was it.
Me: "I'll get used to it, Miyalo's mother said I should send my
regards to you."
Ziyanda: You drove all the way to Miyalo's home, wow, but
you look sad.
Me: "She has a boyfriend."
Ziyanda: "And why is that making you sad? Nkanyezi you
said you were sure about leaving her remember?"
Me: "I know mom but that didn't mean I stopped loving her."
Ziyanda: "Well you have to suck it up then its your fault."
Me: "Mom"
Ziyanda: Uyalunga, I told you( serves you right) I wish she
can get married.
My eyes pop out she laughs at me.
Me: "I would stop that wedding,No ways."
She walks away laughing, I'm left with fear, what if he ask
her to marry him and she says yes what will happen to me.
*
Next morning I wake up and look for the number of the lady
at the shop Loret is her name, I call her and ask if she is
working and she says no, I ask for her address and drive
there after buying a toy car for her boy I hope he likes it. I
knock at her door.
Loret: You're here already.
Me: "Hi"
I get in and sit on the couch, their house is small but cosy.
A little boy in his pyjamas walk in and sit infront of me I
smile.
Me: "Hi"
He looks at me for a little while then he opens his mouth and
close it again.
Me: " My name is Star what's your name?"
He looks at me again and mouth " S-A-G-E" he says it in
alphabets.
Me: "You are Sage."
He nods and clap his hands. I smile at him. I give him his toy
he takes it with both hands and give me a bright smile, he is
a cute little boy.
Me: "I will come back tomorrow to visit ok."
Loret: Uncle Star says he will come see you tomorrow sage.
He claps his hands again.
I stand up.
Me: "How old is he?"
Loret: He is 8 years old and I might need to stop working for
now, the lady who was looking after him said she can't do it
anymore because sometimes he can't eat as normal people
do, so she said he is disgusting her.
Me: "She said what? people are just cruel, he is just a child"
She shrug her shoulders.
Me: "Can I look after him tomorrow while we look for
someone who will take care of him?"
Loret: That would help me alot thank you so much Star you
are a Godsent.
Me: "No I just understand disability better, that its
something you don't choose for yourself."
Loret: "Thank you."
Me: "I will see you first thing tomorrow morning."
I need to talk to people in higher places about building of
Autism centers in our area, and I will need my brother's
voice, Ntsika.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
My parents went out with my kids, I think they are practicing
and reminding themselves how it's like to raise a baby so
they can be ready when princess is born, I still find it funny
that Mom is going to have another baby after me.
We are going to meet Vuyo and Lathi's parents, and we are
with uncle Kwanele and Mandisi to talk about the divorce
and to talk about me paying damages for taking her virginity
and also for my kids.
We knock and Lathi's mother opens for us, she just look at
her daughter , I thought she was going to be happy to see
since it's been a while. She rolls her eyes, what a dramatic
old woman.
Lathi's mom: Come in..
Lathi's father looks really angry and so is Vuyo.
We sit on the couches Lathi is next to me.
Vuyo: Have you come back to your senses and decided to
come back to me?
Lathi ignores him.
Lathi'sdad: So you finally decided to bring my daughter back,
what? You're tired of her already and where are the kids.
Kwanele clears his throat.
Kwanele: We came here because the mother of my nephew's
kids wants a divorce s..
Lathi's dad: So you are coming here to talk on behalf of my
daughter to me her father?
Mandisi: Yes, yes we are someone has to do it, she wants a
divorce and she is going to get it.
Vuyo: I'm not divorcing it's against my culture.
Mandisi: Your what now? Why do I feel like you're a smart
mouth?
Vuyo: And?
Uncle Mandisi stands up but Kwanele pulls him back, I want
to laugh so hard but decide against it.
Lathi'sdad: You won't come in my house and disrespect my
son inlaw.
Mandisi: He won't be once I'm done with all of you, I will be
all over you like a bad rash till you give us what we want.
Lathi'sMom: you have attitude huh.
Mandisi: Yes I do.
Lathi'sdad: Lathitha you brought these people to come
disrespect me in my house.
Lathi:No.
Kwanele: Ok, we came here because we want to pay for
damages since our nephew took her virginity and she
became pregant.
Vuyo: But I'm the one who took her virginity what do you
mean?
Lathi: No, mom knows the truth and you would think that
because you raped me the same day I came back from
Ntsika.
Me: He did what?you raped her?
Lathi: He did it everyday..
I get up and start punching this Vuyo guy until Mandisi pulls
me from him.
Lathi'sdad: what does she mean by saying you know the
truth?
Lathi's mom looks away.
Lathi: She knew I wasn't a virgin anymore and she called
Vuyo to come and sleep with me.
Vuyo: What!? So you played me with your mother, fuck i'm
telling my family about this and if I were you I would start
collecting our money and give it back.
Lathi'smom: We can work this out Vuyo no need to tell your
family.
Kwanele: So pretty boy what i'm hearing is that you will give
Lathitha that divorce huh?
Vuyo: Yes I'm done with this family, how can you embarass
me like that.
Lathi: You embarassed yourself you bloody rapist.
She get up and walk out, I follow her I find her near the car
and hug her from behind.
Lathi: It's all her fault, it's my mother's fault that I was raped
that day.
Me: I'm so sorry baby.
Lathi: When they found out I went to the police station they
came there and dragged me out.
Me: It's all over now ok.
I turn her around and kiss her, she kiss me back and I move
away and fix the bulge on my pants, she looks at it and
quickly look away.
Lathi: Does it hurt?
Me: Not really, it's just uncomfortable you know but i'll live.
Lathi: You don't have to..
Me: You want us to do it here in your dad's yard.
She laughs and hugs me holding on to my shirt.
Lathi: You make me feel things when i'm this close to you.
Me: Is it?
She bury her face on my chest giggling.
Lathi: Even now I feel it.
I slowly move my hand down to her dress and slowly pull it
up then touch her cookie over the fabric of her panty, she
moans a little.
Me: Is this where you feel things?
She moans again..
Lathi: Yes..
I remove my hand and look at her.
Me: I love you so much baby.
Lathi: I love you too Ntsika.
I love it when she calls my name it sounds so different and
sexy.
My uncles come out and we get in the car.
Mandisi: Tomorrow you will be signing divorce papers Lathi.
Lathi: Really!? Thank you so much Uncle Thank you.
Mandisi: You made us grandpas so it's the least we can do
for you.
Me: Thank you so much, so when are we paying the
damages.
Kwanele: next week, that old man loves money you will
never guess the amount he said we will have to bring.
Lathi: That's my father alright.
I hold her hand,finally she can be my girlfriend fully.
*
Later we go to grandpa's house so we can have some privacy
, Langa has moved back in our house so no one is at
grandpa's.
We get to my room and I start kissing her pushing her to
bed.
Me: I have been waiting for this moment for so long.
I cintinue to kiss and remove all her clothes and mine too.
Me: So we're on contraceptives right?
Lathi: Yes, your mom advised me to do it even when I told
her we're not doing anything.
I chuckle that's my mom alright.
And the sex is just like the first time, when she's holding me
tight and moaning my name makes me feel good, I feel like a
real man.
I kiss her forehead.
Me: That was amazing baby you're perfect.
She smiles and lay on my chest.
Lathi: I love you Ntsika.
And that makes my heart beat faster. I hold her tight.
Me: I love you too Mama ka Nqoba.
*
NKANYEZI
*
I'm having a good time looking after Sage he is a smart little
boy of only he had someone who has time and patience to
teach him he would learn easy, I have been teaching him
basics of sign language. With the little time I have spent with
him I have noticed he is really good at calling out the
Alphabets, he prefers to call the word out by Alphabets like
he does with his name S-A-G-E he does that alot and he can
understand better if you write down in bold letters.
Me: "You want us to go out?"
He looks at me smiling and I know he doesn't get it I write it
down he nods, he looks really happy.
We go out to get pizza and ice cream, I know my litte brother
likes these things so I assume he does too.
He starts eating while I have just a cold drink.
Sade: T-h-a-n-k y-o-u.
I smile, I like him alot he is so polite.
*
We go back to their house after buying food they will eat for
dinner, we put food in the kitchen and go sit on the coach
and watch TV, he ends up falling asleep I go to a room I think
it's his and take a blanket, I cover him and sit next to him. I
think I have found my purpose in life, I will do everything
possible to get that center built.
His mom comes back, she look devastated.
Loret: Hello Star.
She says sitting opposite me.
Me: "Hello ma'am."
Loret: "Thank you for today but I will have to stop working, I
can't find the right person to look after him, once I tell them
he is Autistic they lose interest."
Me: " You don't have to stop working I will continue to look
after him until we get someone, he is a good boy, no trouble
at all."
Loret: "You would do that for us?"
Me: "Yes I like him and I believe he likes hanging out with me
too"
Loret: "Thank you so much."
Me: "It's ok, you don't need to thank me I love helping out
whenever I can, he reminds me of myself when I first
realised I was different from my twin brother."
Loret: "You look like you come from a great family with good
values amd humanity."
Me: "My mother is a definition of the word humanity."
Loret: "I would love to meet her one day and congratulate
her for raising such a wonderful man, she must be so proud
of you."
Me: "Thank you, you will meet her soon, I have to go now."
I walk to the door but I feel a hand pulling me, I turn its sage
with tears in his eyes. He hugs me tight.
Me: "What is it boy?"
Sage: don't le.ave.
Loret: Sage he will come back tomorrow baby come to
mommy.
He shakes his head, he is breaking my heart, he is short so I
carry him and go to his room, I stay until he falls asleep again
and it's late around 20:30.
Loret: "I'm so sorry for this, he has never cried for anyone
like that before."
Me: "It's fine I really don't mind, goodnight."
Loret: "Bye."
I get in the car and go home, there is no one in the lounge so
I proceed to my room and throw myself in bed then take out
my phone I find a message from Miyah, it's the first time she
is contacting me after I went to see her.
Miyalo: *Hi Nkanyezi thank you for the gift.* just like that,
and this is enough confirmation that she has moved on, her
calling me Nkanyezi and taking days to say thank you, maybe
she didn't even like my gift.
I don't reply I just sleep, I need to move on too but for now
my focus is on helping Sage and also doing something about
the center, tomorrow I have to talk to Ntsika, I need his voice
and he is smart so I will need him and his ideas to combine
this project.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NKANYEZI
*
I wake up, take a bath then get dressed and walk out, I think
i'm late I find mom on her way to work too.
Ziyanda: Oh hello stranger we don't see you much at all, do
you have a new girlfriend?
Me: "No mom something is keeping me really busy and i'm
already late."
Ziyanda: Ok I won't keep you then, maybe your dad should
just give you that car or buy a new one for you and Langa
then Ntsika will continue using the one you were all using.
Me: "This one is good."
Ziyanda: "Ok I guess Langa is getting by the end of this year."
Me" bye mom."
I kiss her cheek and quickly get in the car and drive off, i'm
getting better I can drive a little quicker now, just a little.
I get to Loret's house and knock she is already waiting for
me.
Me: "Sorry I'm late ma'am."
Loret: "No it's ok."
Me: "Let me and Sage drive you to work so you don't wait for
taxis."
Loret: "That would be great."
We drive her to work then go back to their house, Sage is still
in pyjamas.
I take the pen and paper we sit on the couch.
I write.
Me: WHAT DO YOU WANT TO EAT FOR BREAKFAST?
He reads and take the pen.
Sage: ANYTHING IS FINE UNCLE STAR.
I teach him how I say it in sign language, that's what i'll do
from now on, write sonething down then teach him how I
say it, that way he can learn to say certain things and he will
understand me too.
I go look at the fridge but it has butter and half brown bread
and I forgot my card at home since I was in a rush, I know he
is not picky but I just want him to eat things that young boys
like to eat.
I send a text to my brother.
Me: *Pillar would you please search my card in my room and
bring it at this address ....here in Glenwood*
Ntsika: *Ok give me 20 minutes i'm coming.*
I take Sage to bath and help him wear his clothes, I should
ask mom to give me the things that Pride(Qhayiya) doesn't
wear anymore he has alot of clothes there, We walk out after
Ntsika told me he is outside.
He opens his eyes wide when he see me coming out with
Sage.
Ntsika: "I didn't see this coming I thought you were with a
hooker."
He laughs.
Me: "You're not funny, this is Sage I look after him while his
mom is at work and looking for someone to look after him."
He nods and get closer to Sage he gives him his hand and he
shake it.
Ntsika: Are you good? my name is Ntsika.
Sage looks from him to me then him again.
I look at him.
Me: "He wears glasses most of the time but I don't."
I point the glasses and my eyes so he can understand what
i'm saying..he nods.
Ntsika: "Autistic?"
Me: "Yes"
Ntsika: "But he looks like a clever little boy."
I smile looking at Sage.
Me: "He is clever."
He gives me my card.
Ntsika: "Can I go with you guys?"
Me: "Sure."
We go to the mall and I buy groceries, I let him point out
everything he likes and we go pay and go load things in the
car.
Ntsika: "Can we go buy a few clothes for him, it's on me."
I smile.
Me: "Thank you brother."
We go back inside and we let him pick what he likes all we
do is check his size, Ntsika bought him a lot of clothes from
T-shirt to shorts, pants and shoes.
Sage looks so happy and that warms my heart, I think i'm
getting attached to this young boy, he is free I don't get why
that lady did not want to look after him anymore, he is such
a good kid.
We go back home and he go take his board and we start
playing puzzles he seem to understand this game better, and
I take notes of his strengths and what he likes to do it will be
easier to communicate with him when I know all those
things he is good at.
Ntsika is cooking Rice and chicken, he isn't a bad cooker but
I am better than him, not to brag but I am a good cook, a
great cook actually.
Ntsika comes to join us and we play different kinds of games.
Sage looks really happy and I like that.
I check the time it's 5:30 pm.
Me: "You should go home Lathitha must be worried about
you."
Ntsika: "No we will go together she said they will be sleeping
over at Sis Mbali and Uncle Kwanele's apparently there is a
"girls night" I don't know what that means but yeah they are
there and we are not allowed to go."
Me: "They will spend the whole night listening to Aunt
Mbali's crazy stories and Sunny will be telling her how much
of a liar she is and they will argue about it for hours, I'm
good with not going."
*
It's 19:45pm and I'm getting worried now, Sage is sleepy I go
run him a bath and take out new Pyjamas that Ntsika bought
for him today then we go back in the lounge, he sleeps on the
couch and I cover him with a fleece.
Me: "Brother can you look after him I need to rush to look for
his mother she should be back by now."
Ntsika: "Ok no problem, be safe out there."
I drive slowly and stop near the store and wait for almost an
hour I can see it's closed. I see her getting off a car with
another woman , I step out of the car and walk up to them. I
see she is bruised a little on her face.
Loret : Star you are here where is Sage, I'm sorry for being
late we were involved in an accident on my way home, a taxi
hit the tree and we were all taken to the hospital but i'm fine,
this woman helped me to get here, I..I didn't have a taxifare
that was my last money I used.
Me: "Ok let me take you home, Thank you ma'am.
I say taking out R50 and give it to the lady that brought her
here, she takes it and go back to her car.
I drive home and I find my brother sleeping on the couch too,
he wakes up and wipe his face.
Ntsika: "Oh you are back, you found her."
Me: "Yes this is Loret, Sage's mother a.."
Ntsika: I am Ntsika, Pillar ma'am nice to meet you.
They shake hands but Loret do look gobsmacked.
She looks at me.
Loret: " so when you said you have a twin brother you meant
a
mirror image twin, you look like one person."
I smile at her.
Me: "If you look carefully you will see he is the ugly twin ."
I smirk at Ntsika.
Loret: Thank you so much Star and you Pillar for looking
after my boy, tomorrow i'm not going to work it's my day off
so I will spend the whole day looking for a nanny."
Ntsika: "It's ok ma'am we enjoyed looking after him."
Me: "A lot, we are leaving now are you sure you will be
fine?."
Loret: "Yes it's just my knee that hurts but I'm going to be ok
thank you."
We walk out and go to different cars and I drive behind him.
We get home, Ntsika comes to me.
Ntsika: "I wonder how my kids are with all that noise
happening there."
We get in we find Uncle Mandisi rocking Nqoba back and
forth and dad comes in with a bottle.
Ntsika starts laughing.
Ntsika: "So you are nannies for the night"
Mandisi: Nqoba is trouble, he sleeps in my arms but when I
put him down he wakes up and cries his lungs out.
I go to my room, take off my clothes and shower then go to
bed.
I check on my phone I have two WhatsApp messages one
from the girl who has been asking to meet me, her name is
Lebo *Are you busy this weekend I would really love to meet
you*
I reply: *I will let you know.* I don't know if I want to meet
anyone at the moment.
I view another message it's from Miyah my heart skips a
beat.
Miyalo: *Hi Nkanyezi.*
Me: *Miyah*
Miyalo: *You didn't reply to my message yesterday.*
Me: *What was there to reply Miyah you were saying thanks
for the gift I gave you almost a week ago.*
Miyalo: *I'm sorry for delaying I was busy but thank you
really I love it.*
Me: *Ok now I will have to delete your number. I get it, you
have moved on it's time I do the same.*
Miyalo: *But we can be friends.*
Me: *No..it's better you just focus on your boyfriend, he
wouldn't like you chatting with your ex.*
Miyalo: *You are doing it again Star, pushing me away, you
want me out of your life, why did you come here?*
Me: *To give you your birthday gift and try to fix things but it
was too late.*
Miyalo: *I'm sorry.*
Me: *Don't be, I understand I'm the one who broke things off
now I have to live with it.*
Miyalo: *Ok then delete my number it's fine I will delete
yours too, you selfish bastard.*
Me: *how am I a selfish bastard?*
Miyalo: *You left me Nkanyezi I was crying and begging you
but still you left and when you saw that I moved on you
came back here and tried to ruin things for me.*
Me: * That wasn't my intention Miyah.*
Miyalo: *What was it then*
Me: *I just wanted to see you and wish you a happy birthday,
I'm sorry.*
Miyalo: *You like playing with my feelings Star*
Me: *Miyalo you still love me?*
She doesn't reply, I just toss the phone next to me and sleep.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
NKANYEZI
*
I wake up and check my phone there is nothing, I text Lebo
asking her if we can meet, I get up and freshen up then go to
my brother's room, he is still asleep so I slap him lightly he
looks at me in anger.
Ntsika: what the fuck are you doing?
I look at him grinning, he hates it when I wake him up with a
slap and I love doing it just to see him angry.
Ntsika: I will wipe that smug off with a punch on your nose.
He gets up and go to the bathroom, I sit on his bed I know he
will come back calm.
He comes back after a while with a towel around his waist I
guess he took a shower a very quick one if I may add.
Ntsika: "Why are you in my room?"
Me: "I'm bored I was hoping we go on a date with this one
girl and yes she knows I can't talk, I hate first dates it tends
to be awkward."
Ntsika: "No."
Me: "Please."
He stares at me.
Me: "Stop doing that you're creeping me out."
I really don't like it when he stares at me and so is he, he gets
angry when I stare at him I don't know why he is doing it
now.
Ntsika: "I will go with you baby."
Now I stare at him, he grins, and get dressed.
I walk out and text Lebo that I'm about to leave the house.
*
We are waiting for her at the restaurant at the mall she
comes in and look around I raise my hand up, she smiles
catwalking towards our table, I get up to hug her and kiss
her cheek, Ntsika does the same.
Lebo: Wow you guys look so identical.
Ntsika: How are you? I'm Ntsika.
Lebo: I'm Lebo Sebete, Nkanyezi finally we meet, wow uhm
can I take a picture with you?
I smile and give her a small nod she comes next to me and
take a selfie and take another one with my brother and I
then we sit down.
Our date goes on smoothly but in the middle of my date my
phone moves on the table and there is a notification light I
take it.
Loret: *Hey Star I'm so sorry to bother you but I have tried
everything Sage is asking for you he has been crying for an
hour .*
Me: "Lebo I'm sorry we have to cut our date short I have to
go.*
Ntsika: We have to go Lebo something came up I'm sorry.
Lebo: Is everything ok?
Me: " Yes but we have to go.*
I get up and hug her one more time then leave money on the
table and rush out my brother follows behind me.
Ntsika: "What's up?*
Me: "It's Sage apparently he has been crying for me.*
I let him drive.
I rush inside and find Sage on the couch crying his lungs out.
Me: "What happened to him?"
Loret: He doesn't want to talk I left him with my next door
neighbour to rush to a meeting I forgot about at work when I
came back he was like this.
Ntsika: Did you ask your neighbour what happened?
Loret: I did but she said she doesn't know and that he just
started crying for no reason.
Me: "There's no way he would cry like this for no reason, he
is not crazy."
I try talking to him but he keeps on crying, I carry him to his
room and take a pen and a paper and write..
Me: Talk to me, tell me what happened.
I give him the pen but he doesn't take it instead get up and
turns around then lifts his shirt up, I see a very red mark
with dry blood on his back, what hit him teared his flesh.
I walk out and go to the lounge where Ntsika and Loret are.
Me: "Call your neighbour for me please."
Loret: "Why what's wrong did he tell you what happened?"
Ntsika: "what is going on brother?"
Me: "Call her here right now."
I am angry, so angry that my armpits are itchy.
Loret comes back without her.
Me: "Where is she?"
Loret: "She didn't want to come, Star what's wrong with my
son."
Me: "Pillar call the police maybe she will want to come then."
I go to the room and pull Sage by the hand and go to his mom
and lift his shirt. She covers her mouth and tears make their
way down her cheeks.
Me: "But why didn't you call me, I would have came to look
after him."
Ntsika: "We have to take him to Mom at the hospital this
must hurt alot."
He is sitting on the couch I can see him aching his back, I
kneel in front of him.
Me: "I'm sorry ok, we will take you to the hospital you will
get better don't cry.
I wipe his tears off.
There is a knock and Loret is still crying sitting next to Sage.
Ntsika opens the door and two detectives comes in, one I
know him through grandpa, it's detective Cooper.
Cooper: Aah Lukhele Juniors I didn't know you live in this
neighborhood now.
He says shaking Ntsika's hand then mine.
Ntsika: Oh no this is a friend's house and I called because we
believe that a neighbour assaulted a child.
Cooper: Oh hello ma'am is this the child?
Loret nods and get up with Sage.
Cooper: Tell us what happened.
Loret: I left him nextdoor and went to work for an hour or so
when I came back I found him crying and my neighbour said
she has no idea why he is crying and when I asked him he
just said Star's name so I thought maybe he missed him I
called him here and he showed him this.
She lift his shirt and I see Cooper's face changes.
Cooper: You said she is next door, is it on your left or right
and her name?
Loret : On my left, her name is Caroline.
Cooper: Let's go.
We walk to this neighbour's house and Cooper knocks a lady
in her late 40s opens up.
She looks at us and her eyes stops at Sage.
Caroline: Yes.
Cooper: Are you Caroline?
Caroline: Who want's to know?
This lady has attitude for days.
Cooper: I am detective Cooper do you know this boy and his
mom here?
Caroline: Ofcaurse I do they are my neighbours.
Cooper: So this boy has a red mark on his back and we
believe he got that when his mom left him here with you.
Caroline: I don't know any red marks and the boy doesn't
talk so how would you know if it's me who did it or he just
fell?
Cooper: I didn't say it was you.
Ntsika: Actually he can talk to my brother here.
Caroline: Who are you?
Ntsika: You don't need to know who I am.
I stand infront of Sage and he look up at me.
Me: "Who hurt you here?"
I say touching his back, he looks down and up then point at
this Caroline lady.
Ntsika: Done..
Cooper: Caroline you are under arrest for assaulting a minor
anything you say can be used against you in the court of law .
*
We drive to the hospital and go straight to mom's office since
it's lunch time we knock and she invites us in.
Ziyanda: Oh what a suprise Ntsika Nkanyezi to what do I
owe this visit you two hate hospitals.
Me: "Please mom I need your help there is a boy outside with
his mom he needs help I know this may cost money because
he doesn't have a medical aid, it's ok you can take my
allowance for all these months please just help him an.."
Ntsika touch my shoulder and tell me to calm down.
Me: "Please Pink just..."
Ziyanda: Nkanyezi
I look at her.
Ziyanda: Go get the boy I will help him, stop panicking.
I quickly get up and take Sage and his mom inside Pink's
office.
Loret: Hello Dr.
Ziyanda: Hello Ma'am what's wrong with the boy, come here
boy.
Sage looks at me, I look at him.
Me: "You can go to her she will help you with your back."
He nods and go stand infront of mom giving her his back,
mom pulls up his shirt.
Ziyanda: Jesus! What happened to him?
She looks puzzled.
Me: "Some woman did that to him we don't know what she
used."
Ziyanda: Is she crazy.?
Mom starts cleaning up his wound and he has tears, he is
flinching the whole time then give him an injection for the
pain I guess.
I go to him in bed he is sleeping on his side.
" You are going to be ok."
After a while he doze off I go sit down and introduce Mom
and Loret.
Loret: I'm glad to finally meet the woman who gave birth to
such wonderful boys they have helped me alot now I see
they took from you thank you so much.
Mom smiles and looks at me and Ntsika.
Ziyanda: I am proud of you.
*
We take Sage and his mom home, we buy him goodies to
make him feel better and wait for him to fall asleep then we
walk out.
Loret: Thank you so much for today, I wouldn't afford taking
him to a private hospital but with you and your mother you
made it possible.
Me: "It's fine, I will see him tomorrow since you're going to
work."
Loret: How can I ever thank you enough for what you've
done for me?
Me: Letting me help him and look after him brings joy to my
heart and that is enough for me."
Ntsika: Goodnight and don't hesitate to call us anytime, if
you can't get hold of him you can call me.
Loret: I will goodnight drive safe.
We drive home and go our seperate rooms, I take out my
phone and it's buzzing with notifications.
Lebo posted a picture of us two and the one with Ntsika.
"Finally met MY star and his brother Pillar" that's the caption
with alot of inlove emojis, I look at the comments and her
friends are asking for the other brother, this is funny.
A message comes through from Miyalo Emihle: *You guys
look good together with your Lebo*
Me: *Thank you just like you and your boyfriend.*
Like how dare she writes a message when she ignored me
yesterday when I asked if she still loved me.
I leave a red heart in Lebo's post on the comment sections. I
feel nothing for this girl really but she is a cool person to
hang around with maybe I may start developing feelings if
we go out more.
I take out the clothes I'll wear tomorrow to Sage's house I
don't want to be late I want to be there before he wakes up.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
LANGA
*
Things haven't been the same because of what I did, I don't
know if it's guilt that makes me feel as if my mother don't
love me like she used to before.
I have decided to stay at grandpa's house, looks like
everyone is moving on with their lives and I would be in
school, only if I didn't let greed get the better of me.
I wake up and Ntsika and Nkanyezi are not around Iya and
Pride are at school Lathi is with Auntie Sunny.
I make something to eat for myself then sit down and eat
while watching TV and Pink sits next to me she is wearing
her gym clothes.
Ziyanda: Hey baby.
Me: Hi.
I say looking down,I still can't look at her after what I did to
her.
We sit in silence for a while, she takes a deep breath.
Ziyanda: I still love you the same, it hasn't changed and I
don't think it will ever change.
She talks as if she knew I had doubts.
Ziyanda: And I have forgiven you and now you have to
forgive yourself so things can go back to normal. You don't
have to be like this around me or any of us I want my Langa
back.
Me: Do you think my brothers forgave me too?
Ziyanda: Yes I'm sure they have.
Me: Then why do I feel like they are ignoring me.
Ziyanda: They are not they are actually busy helping out
some boy who is Autistic so that's whats keeping them away
from home.
I sigh.
Me: Ok.
Ziyanda: So you are going back to school next year right?
I nod.
Ziyanda: Ok since Ntsika won't be able to drive you then and
I believe this time you will be serious on getting your licence.
Me: Yes Mom.
Ziyanda: Then you will tell your dad which car you want,
Ntsika will keep that car and Nkanyezi is taking Luyolo's car.
Me: So I am getting a brand new car?
Ziyanda: Yes.
Me: No, uhm I mean thank you but why don't you ask uncle
Mandisi to give me his car then he can buy a new one so it
will be fair to all of us.
Ziyanda: You know Langa I don't want to say it but I feel like
I have to, it seems like you don't know your brothers, they
are not greedy and they don't complain with anything they
wanted to keep those cars and they didn't mind that you will
get a new car so stop talking as if you have seen them
complain about anything.
She gets up.
Ziyanda: If you are not over this "I'm not your mother"
business then I don't know Langa, I have tried everything.
She walks away to the gym room.
I exhale maybe I should really go and find my own place.
I follow her to the gym room. I hold a punching bag for her
she looks frustrated.
Me: I'm sorry about earlier if what I said came out wrong I
didn't mean to upset you.
She carry on punching the bag.
Me: I was thinking of uhm getting a new flat can you pay for
me it will be close to school for next year.
She quickly moves away from the punching bag and look
around she rush to a broom and break the stick, she comes
to me and start beating me all over my body with a stick all I
do is cover my face, it goes on for a while then she screams
loud and throw the stick away and sit on her butt.
Ziyanda: I've had it with you Langelihle okay, you are asking
me if I can pay for your flat, who was paying for the flat all
these years Langa, who was it damn it?
She gets up again and stand infront of me she is pink with
sweat all over her face.
Ziyanda: I'm not your friend Langa you hear me?
I nod.
Ziyanda: I said do you hear me boy?
Me: Yes, I'm sorry.
She touches her abdomen and tightly close her eyes.
Me: Are you ok Pink?
Ziyanda: I'm fine.
She starts breathing and counting then she sits down too.
Ziyanda: Come sit here next to me.
I sit down.
Ziyanda: Why do you feel like i'm doing favours for you, am I
treating you differently from your brothers?
Me: No..no you don't.
Ziyanda: Am I making a mistake like most women do?
Treating a step child better than her own kids just to prove
they love them because I don't want that Langa I don't want
you to think you are getting special treatments because i'm
not your mother..so am I treating you better than the twins?
Me: No mom you don't, what you have done you always give
us what we want after understanding why we want it, you
allowed Ntsika to go to Nkanyezi's school because he didn't
want to be away from him and allowed me to go to a
different school because sign language was a bit hard for me
and I wanted a mainstream school, you treat us all the same
and I understand why my brothers want those cars, Dad's
car has special devices for Nkanyezi and Ntsika has been
using that car it's like his first car so it is hard to let go.
Ziyanda: So I'm doing nothing wrong?
Me: Yes mom I am so sorry for making you angry.
Ziyanda: Ok now help me get up.
I help her up and she hugs me, she is an amazing woman but
my body hurts from that stick.
*
NKANYEZI
*
I am with Sage at the mall taking him out to eat and Lebo ask
if she can join me and I agreed.
Sage is eating his pizza and I keep wiping his mouth and I
don't mind at all.
Lebo comes in and kiss my cheek then sit opposite us.
Lebo: Uhm who is that?
I take out my phone so I can type,I wish she was like Miyalo
and understand sign language.
Me: "His name is Sage."
Lebo: Oh and what are you doing here with him and what is
he to you?
I'm getting tired of typing already.
Me: " He is eating lunch and I look after him."
She reads and look at me.
Lebo: You are a nanny?
She looks at me stunned and I nod with a smile.
Lebo: You look after a white kid?
I nod and type with a smile.
Me: "You have a problem with that?
Lebo: Uhm No no ..It's just that..uhm never mind.
She calls the waiter and Sage carry on eating and I keep
wiping him, Her order comes I turn my eyes to look at her,
she is staring at Sage with disgust, I look at Sage he has
stopped eating looking down.
Lebo: Does he always eat like that?oh my God that is just so...
I squint my eyes looking at her, I dare she says the rude
word that Pizza will be all over her face.
Lebo: I'm sorry I can't do this, uhm waiter!
She shouts and a waiter comes.
Lebo: Uhm please put this in a takeaway box and paper bag
for me I will warm it up at home.
Sage doesn't want to eat anymore I'm sure it's because of the
way Lebo is staring at him.
I type: "You are making him uncomfortable, you can leave
now if you can't stop staring at him."
Lebo: But Star I thought this is our second date I wasn't
ready for this..
Me: The name is Nkanyezi and no I was already on a date
with him and you asked to come so you thought wrong this
ain't no second date whatsoever..
Lebo: You are being rude..
My face changes as I type.
Me: No Lebo you are being rude for staring at him like that
and now he doesn't want to eat because your big eyes keep
staring at him with digust and I AM disgusted by you.
She reads and look at me in shock.
Lebo: You didn't just say that to me.
It sounded much better at the back of my mind.
Her paperbag comes she takes it but she continue to look at
me blinking I think she wants to cry.
I move my head signaling her to leave.
She opens her mouth and close it again.
Me: "If you don't like the way someone eat then look away
because you have a problem not them you don't just stare at
them."
Lebo: Nkanyezi..
I shake my head and point at the door, she slowly get up.
I wave at her she stops.
Me: "Did you pay?
I keep a straight face.
She looks navy that's when I know this dark skinned girl is
so angry.
She takes out her wallet aggressively and take out R200 note
and throws it in my face, I don't get why she is acting like
that I mean its her food she is gonna eat it why does it look
like she is angry that I asked if she paid..
She walks out and I smile shaking my head. I look at Sage he
smiles at me I raise up my hand we high five.
Me: YOU WANT MORE PIZZA THAT WE ARE GOING TO EAT
AT HOME.
I show him the screen he nods looking happy. I place another
order then we pay with Lebo's R200 I only add R100 so she
paid half of my bill what a Lady!
WE ARE ONE(I am my brothers's voice)
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NKANYEZI
*
I wake up to my phone vibrating next to me and I take it
Lebo's name flashes on the screen, she sent a text message.
Lebo: *Look Nkanyezi i'm sorry for yesterday what I did was
wrong I realise that now, can we meet?*
Me:* I'm looking after Sage again so no can do, I don't want
to make him uncomfortable again.*
Lebo: *So this is it for us?because of some white boy.*
Me: *To me he is more than just a "white boy" and You on
the other hand don't mean shit to me.*
Lebo: *Nkanyezi don't say that.*
Me: *Thing is I don't associate myself with people like you
who treats people like shit just because they are different to
me that is just utterly disgusting so lose my number sis and
block me on your socials.*
Lebo: *Wow.*
I take the matter to my own hands and block her myself, I
receive a call from an unknown number I ignore it thinking
maybe it's this Lebo calling me with another number and I
don't even know why they are calling me, I'm deaf!
It keeps on ringing until I get up and go look for my brother
so he can answer it.
I find him in his room with the kids, I give him the phone and
he takes it and look at me.
Me: "There's a number that keeps calling me there can you
answer."
Before he can say anything he answers.
Ntsika: Hello.
He says that and don't saying anything for a while, next thing
he quickly gets up and his eyes are all out.
Me: "What is it? Who is that?"
Ntsika: Ok thanks we are coming now.
He throws the phone in bed and rush to get dressed he is not
telling me anything and i'm getting frustrated.
Now he is fully dressed and he comes to me.
Ntsika: "Let's take the kids to Lathi's room we have to go."
Me: "To where."
Ntsika: "To the hospital, we will talk on the way come on
take Nqoba i'll take Manqoba."
We take the kids to the room, I'm confused, who is sick?
because people around me knows that I can't talk or hear so
why would they call.
We go to the car and he drives to the nearest public hospital
then we rush in.
We stop at the front desk and Ntsika waves at the lady there.
Ntsika: We were called in for a patient here Miss Loret she
was brought in this morning.
I open my eyes wide what happened to Loret and if she's
here then where is Sage?
The lady shows us the ward and when we get it we find alot
of people in one ward we look around for Loret but we can't
see her because some people are sleeping and moving
around will bring us weird looks.
I see someone shake in the far end of the ward, I walk up to
her and I'm shocked to see Loret badly hurt on her left side
of her face.
Me: "What happened to you."
She doesn't reply you can see she is in pain but no one is
paying attention to her the nurse is busy smiling looking
down on her phone.
Ntsika: "Did they even offer you help Ma what happened to
you?"
Me: "Where is Sage?"
She slowly shrug her shoulders, what does that even mean?
Ntsika: "We are getting you out of here, i'm going to ask for
the form to fill so we can discharge her."
He walks away for a while then comes back.
Ntsika: Poor service in this hospital yeeeer man!
He looks so angry, all i'm thinking about right now is Sage.
Ntsika: "We are going to have to wait for the hospital
ambulance from Mom's hospital she said we mustn't try to
move her.
I sit down on the chair next to her bed and look up, I can see
she can't talk but I need to know if Sage is good and safe
where he is.
Me: "Can you try telling me where Sage is please."
Loret: The.. person.. that
helped me get here knows where he is?
She says so slow I almost miss it.
Me: "Do you know him/her or did you see him."
She shakes her head, I see the paramedics getting in with a
stretcher we move out of the way as they greet then take
Loret to a stretcher.
Me: "Go with her i'll go try to find Sage."
He throws the keys at me since he will go with the
ambulance.
*
I rush to the car and drive to Loret's house hoping to find
him there.
I knock and open the door and get in I look for him but I
don't find him.
I stand in his room looking around I see his closet slowly
opening and he comes out, he has tears in his eyes. He comes
to me and hugs me, I hold him and help him sit on the bed
and wipe his tears.
Me: "What happened to mom?"
He just looks at me I go look for a pen and paper and write
down...
Me: "WHAT HAPPENED?"
he takes the pen and paper.
Sage: SHE WAS TRYINIG TO FIX ELECTRICITY BUT IT HURT
HER?
oh so she was striked by electricity I guess there was fire
coming out then because she is badly hurt, I walk to the
kitchen and I can see a back sport on the table and electricity
cables are all over the place.
I walk back in his room.
Me: HOW DID MOM GET HELP?
Sage: I TOOK THE PHONE I THOUGHT I WAS CALLING YOU
BUT IT WAS SOMEONE SHE WORKS WITH AND I CRIED SO
HE CAME HERE.
ME: "And he left you alone?so stupid of him."
I take his hand, he must be hungry.
I buy something to eat for him then drive to the hospital we
get to mom's office then he starts eating while I wait for
Ntsika and mom.
They come in and Mom kiss my cheek then Sage and go sit
on her chair.
Me: "How is she holding up?"
Ziyanda: "That shock damaged not only her skin but alot of
nerves too so we have to keep her to see if there wasn't any
damage to the brain and heart so that might take weeks."
I look at Sage he is just staring at mom.
Ziyanda: "You will have to look after him for the time being."
Me: "Ok but can he stay at home?"
Ziyanda: "Yes you can take him home."
Me: "Ok let me go and pack a few things for him then."
We go together with Ntsika and Sage then we pack for him
and lock the house then drive home, I help him take a bath
then he sleeps in the bunkbed in my room.
I sleep in my bed and send a text to Miyalo.
Me: *I want you back Miyah please just come back I'm sorry
for letting you go just please give me one more chance baby.*
I send it and wait for hours nothing, I get up and go to the
kitchen and start cooking. When i'm done I go check up on
Sage and find him still sleeping.
I see a notification light in my phone and my heart skips a
beat I believe that is Miyalo i'm scared she is going to reject
me.
Miyalo: *I can't Star I already moved on and he loves me.*
Me: *But I love you Miyalo please can I see you we need to
talk, I want you to tell me in my face that you don't love me
back.*
Miyalo: *No.*
Me: *I promise I will let go if you tell me you don't love me
anymore please just come.*
Miyalo: *I will come tomorrow.*
Me: *Thank you.*
That is a good sign right? She is coming to see me and I can't
wait, I have been missing her so much.
*
I dish up for Sage and I then go to my room I know mom
hates it when we eat in our rooms but she is not here and
Sage is feeling down I can tell..I give him food then he starts
eating and I eat too, after he is done I wipe his face and he go
back to sleep,I sleep on my bed too.
Next morning I am nervous and happy to see Miyah she is
coming today, I go to Qhayiya's room and get in he is
sleeping, I shake him and he opens one eye and look at me.
Me: "Get up."
He shakes his head and cover his head, I pull the blankets, he
hates it when someone wakes him up. He finally sit up and
rub his eyes.
Me: "Do you want a new friend?"
Q: Yes where is he?
He says with a smile.
Me: "Come meet him."
He gets up and we go to my room I find Sage sitting in my
bed he look sad.
I take a pen and a paper and sit next to him.
Me: WHAT IS WRONG?
Sage: I THOUGHT YOU LEFT ME.
Me: I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU SAGE, MEET MY BROTHER
QHAYIYA-PRIDE.
he reads and look up I can see he is nervous.
Me: "Q this is Sage he will be staying with us for a while his
mom is at the hospital."
Q : Nice to meet you Sage.
Sage looks at him and Qhayiya smiles looking at me.
Me: "Be patient with him ok sometimes he can't talk or he
talks very slow I'm still teaching him to sign."
Q nods and take the pen and paper.
Q: YOU WANT TO PLAY?
Sage nods and look at me, I nod too, They walk to the door
but Sage stops and come to me, he hugs me tight, I hug him
back.
Me: "I'm not leaving."
He nods then walk out.
I go take a bath then get dressed and sit on my bed I really
hope Miyah is coming.
I take my phone and I see a message: *I'm at the gate* from
Miyah, I jump up, but it's not even 10:00am yet, why is she
here so early, I quickly walk out and look at the gate, and she
is really here I can't believe it, she looks like an angel in that
short white dress she is wearing, I open the gate, she comes
and stand infront of me.
I hug her tight inhailing her sweet scent, she hugs me back
just as tight I don't want to let go but finally I let go and look
at her.
Me: "Let's go in."
She shakes her head.
Miyah: "Where are your parents?"
Me: "They are not here Miyah and we will be in my room."
I take her hand and we go to my room, I go check on Sage
and Q but they are in the lounge eating.
Me: "Who made food for you guys."
Q: "Sis Lathitha."
I look at Sage he looks ok and is comfortable eating infront of
Sage I guess they are cool, I go to my room and take out his
towel and walk out, I give Q the towel.
Q: "who's towel is that?"
Me: "It's Sage's he.."
Q: "It's ok bhuti I see it, now leave us he is fine with me."
Me: "Ok tell me if you need anything I have a friend over."
He nods and continue eating, I stand there and watch them, I
see Q wiping Sage with a towel on his chin then they
continue eating I smile, he is acting like a big brother.
I walk back to Miyah and she is sitting in bed looking
around.I lock the door and stand infront of her.
Me: "I'm sorry about that."
Miyah: "It's ok."
I look at her but she look down, I move her chin up and look
into her eyes, she bite her lower lip, I pull her up and start
kissing her, she kiss me back so passionate, I pull her closer
to me and continue to kiss her deep but slow, I lift her dress
up and take it off, I take a step back and look at her body she
is wearing that lingerie I bought for her she looks sexy, I take
off my shirt she steps towards me and touch my chest all the
way down to my pants, my man down there is already up
and ready to play.
I kiss her again moving us to bed, I take off my pants and my
boxer shorts then get on top of her, I take out her left boob
and start sucking on it she holds my head, I take out another
one and play with it, she is still wearing a bra but the boobs
are out I don't want to take it of, I go down to her cookie and
move her panty to the side and start playing with her clit and
start fingering her and sucking her clit, she has her legs on
my shoulders and she is moving to her waist, so sexy I pull
my finger out then go back to kissing her, I position myself,
she push me a little then take out the condom from her bag
opening it then she get up and put it on my guy, I take her leg
and put around my waist and pin her back to bed. I move the
panty to the side again and starts moving in her hot cookie
she is holding me tight, I start moving faster then stop and
turn her around, her sexy ass is just infront of me, I take out
her panty and smash into her pussy the way it is moving is
driving me crazy, I find myself spanking her she hold on tight
to the sheets, I go on for some time then cum, she sleeps in
bed and I go to the bathroom then take off the condom and
go back to her with a towel and wipe her, and sit in bed, she
get up, I take off her bra. She looks at me.
Me: "Tell me it is over now."
Miyalo: "I don't want to."
Me: "You love me?"
Miyalo: I do.
Me: "Thank you, so we are doing this again right?"
She nods, I kiss her and we sleep next to each other her head
is on my chest I play with her hair.
I can see from her breathing then she is asleep I move her
head and take the bed cover and cover her body, then wear
my pants and walk out.
Qhayiya and Sage are in his room they are playing with old
puzzles they both look up and smile.
Me: "So you understand each other hey?"
Q: Yes he tries to talk so I get him.
I nod, one of these days we are meeting with a councillor
about that Center, I want it built as soon as possible, I really
hope they work with me because I will do it with or without
the government's help.

WE ARE ONE(I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
*
I dozed off with Miyalo next to me holding her tight but
when I wake up I don't feel her next to me,I sit up and look
around Sage is sleeping in the bed and I hear a shower
running, I go there and find Miyah in the shower I get in and
she turns around, I pin her on the wall kissing her she kiss
me back and break the kiss.
We bath and walk out, I wrap the towel around my waist.
I find her looking at Sage.
Miyalo: "Who is he?"
Me: "His name is Sage and he is Autistic i'm helping him and
his mother is at the hospital badly burnt by electricity cables.
How did he get here?"
Miyalo: "Your little brother knocked and told me he fell
asleep on the couch so I carried him here."
Me:"Thank you so much baby."
She looks away after I said baby, I stand infront of her.
Me: "Please don't tell me you regret this between us."
Miyalo: "I don't its just that, I don't want to hurt Musa."
I guess that's her boyfriend's name.
Me: "So what are you going to do? Keep us both happy?
She looks at me.
Me: "No, tell me what are you going to do Miyalo, you will
have to hurt one of us because I won't share you."
Miyalo: "Remember that you left me heartbroken and he
picked up the pieces and he has been treating me right ever
since."
Me: "Then what are you doing here?"
Miyalo: "I love you Star but he didn't do anything wrong for
me to just dump him."
Me: "Then decide what you going to do."
I lotion my body then wear my shorts it's already dark
outside and I believe mom and dad are back now. I walk out
I see Mom setting the table , I kiss her cheek she smiles.
Ziyanda: Where is Sage?
Me: "In my room and ..."
Ziyanda: And what?
Me: "Miyalo is here.."
Ziyanda: Wow really tell her to come join us. Are you guys
back together?
Me: "I don't know Mom, she is having second thoughts about
leaving her new boyfriend for me.
Ziyanda: Shame sorry but I believe she will choose you, you
are hot.
I stare at her she grins.
Ziyanda: What!? look at you, such a handsome man, now go
call your brother, Sage and everyone dinner is ready.
I tell Ntsika and Lathi then go call Q then I walk to my room. I
find Miyah on the phone she looks at me.
Miyalo: I have to go Musa..
I wake Sage up and go to the bathroom with him he brush
his teeth and take a bath then I help him wear his pyjamas.
Miyalo is still on the phone.
Miyalo: I will come back Musa tomorrow, yes and we will
talk then bye.
She drops the phone and move her eyes all over the room.
Me: "Mom said join us for dinner."
Miyalo: You told her I'm here Star why?
I look at her and walk out.
We all sit on the table but Miyalo is not here, and Sage is
sitting next to me.
Ziyanda: So I guess Miyalo is not joining us then.
Ntsika: "She is here?"
I nod.
We eat then mom gives me Miyalo's food I take it to my room
holding Sage's hand.
I give Miyah her food then walk out to my brother's room I
knock and get in.
Ntsika: "I didn't know that Miyah and you are back together,
are you happy?"
Me: "I was until I saw that she doesn't want to dump her
boyfriend ."
Ntsika: "Give her time maybe she will eventually."
I nod.
Me: "I want us to set up a meeting with a councillor this
week to talk about that Center."
Ntsika: "Ok we will call tomorrow morning."
Me: "If they don't want to build it I might tell mom and dad
to fund it."
Ntsika: "Let's see how this meeting goes first ok."
Me: "Sure goodnight bro."
I walk out and I open the door to my room I find Miyalo
laughing with Sage who is smiling next to her.
Miyalo: So you want me to be your second mom because I'm
beautiful huh?
He nods.
Miyalo: Ok I will be your second mom then.
Sage hugs her and Miyah hugs him back smiling.
I take Sage and put him on his bed but he takes the pen and
writes.
*CAN I SLEEP IN PRIDE's ROOM PLEASE.*
I nod and pick him up and take him to Q's room I put him
next to him.
Me: "Goodnight."
I walk out and go to my room, I take off my clothes and get in
bed facing the other way, giving Miyalo my back.
I feel her hand touching my back, I turn to face her.
Miyalo: I love you Star.
Me: "But you love him too right."
Miyalo: What do you expect me to say Star?
Me: "Do you want to be with me?"
She nods.
Me: "And what about him?"
Miyalo: Just give me time Star..
Me: "Give you time while you fuck him?
She gets up from the bed and take her phone dialing a
number.
Miyalo: Hey Musa will you fetch me earlier tomorrow...yes I
will sleep at the lodge..I will text you the address in the
morning.
She takes off my clothes and take out another dress from her
bag and get dressed.
I get up from the bed.
Me: "If you walk out of here know that it's over for good this
time and delete my number, you are disrespecting me and I
can't take that, You don't have to call him everytime we
argue about something, right infront of me, you don't see me
Miyalo at all."
She just starts crying.
Me: "You can sleep here, you will call your boyfriend in the
morning and give him this address, I'm going to Grandpa's
house."
I attempt to walk out but she touches my arm I turn.
Me: "What do you want from me Miyalo, what is it? You still
want money like before? are you still selling your body?"
Her hand lands on my cheek..I look at her tears are just
flowing down her face.
Me: "Look I didn't mean to say all that,I'm sorry Miyah."
Miyalo: "I'm leaving."
Me: "I'm sorry."
Miyalo: You will always remind me of my past, I can't be
here..
She goes to the bathroom and come back with her panty and
bra and put them in her bag, she goes back to the bathroom
again, I text mom * please come to my room mom*
As Miyalo takes her bag, mom comes in.
Ziyanda: "Hey Miyah, what is going on Nkanyezi?"
Me: "She's leaving again please tell her i'm sorry."
Miyah wipes her tears.
Ziyanda: "What did you do?"
I look down i'm dissapointed in myself to bring up her past
like that was wrong.
Mom stands infront of me.
Ziyanda: What did you do to her Nkanyezi?
Me: "I asked her if she wants money from me like before and
if she is still selling her body."
Mom stares at me not saying anything.
Me: "I'm sorry Pink I didn't mean to say all that I was just
angry at her,she was calling her boyfriend right infront of
me."
Ziyanda: If you can't let go of her past and keep bringing it
up when you guys fight then just let her go Nkanyezi you
haven't forgiven her and that's not ok.
Me: "But she makes me feel like i'm not good enough for her,
maybe because i'm deaf."
Ziyanda: Nkanyezi..
I just turn around, walk to grandpa's house and go to my
room throwing myself in bed, I wipe my tears that had
managed to come out.
I may have fallen asleep because when I wake up there is
light coming from the curtain which shows it's morning
already.
I go to the bathroom and wash my face then walk back to
Mom's house, I open my room and I see Miya's bag is still
here I'm happy but nervous at the same time what I said
makes me feel really bad.
I sit on my bed, she comes out of the bathroom with Sage
who looks clean I guess she helped him bath.
Sage runs to me and hugs me, he looks free and happy.
Miyah looks at me.
Miyalo: "He was crying for you in the morning."
Me: "I was at grandpa's house."
She nods, Sage takes my phone and play with it.
Miyalo: "He is a good boy promise you will help him ok."
Me: " I'm working on something I just hope it works out so
he can learn alot of things and be able to communicate well."
She nods.
Me: "So you are his second mom hey?"
She smiles.
Miyalo: "He said i'm beautiful and he want's a second mom
so I agreed."
I nod.
Me: "So you didn't leave?"
Miyalo: "your mom said I should think things through and I
did, I want you."
Me: "I'm sorry about what I said yesterday."
Miyalo: "I'm sorry I disrespected you Star, I shouldn't have
called Musa ."
Me: "It's ok."
Miyalo: "Can we take him out today before I leave."
Me: "Ok."
We go to the mall holding Sage's hand and we order
something to eat then sit down Miyah and Sage are sitting
opposite me.
I see Lebo walking in and stands next to me, Miya's face
changes I don't know if that's anger or what but it's not good.
Lebo taps me shoulder I look at her.
Lebo: Who is that?
She says pointing at Miyalo.
Miyalo: "Who wants to know?"
Lebo: Me!
Miyalo: "Tell your bitch to leave Star or i'll make her."
I look at Lebo.
Me: "Please just leave."
I point at the door, I really don't want drama not today.
But Lebo sits next to me I look at her.
Lebo: Why did you block me Nkanyezi?
Miya is really angry I can see her hand shaking on the table,
she swiftly get up and comes to my side and roughly pull
Lebo up.
Miyalo: Didn't he tell you to leave?
I see a waiter rushing towards us.
Waiter: I will ask you to keep it down please you are scaring
our customers and a little guy over here.
I look at Sage he has tears in his eyes, Miyalo quickly let's go
of Lebo and sit next to Sage wiping his tears.
Miyalo: I'm so sorry I didn't mean to scare you ok, I'm sorry.
She hugs him.
I type on my phone*Please leave Lebo stop making a fool out
of yourself that is my woman across the table and you are
nothing to me.*
She takes my phone and reads then she shoves it in my chest
and walk out. I look at Miyah and Sage.
Me: "I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry ok boy."
He nods but Miyah is giving me a stern look.
Our food comes and Miyah is still staring at me.
Miyalo: "Put your hoes in their lanes Star or else you won't
like what I will do to them."
I nod.
Me: "I love you."
She smiles at me and nod, she feeds Sage I love the
connection between them, tomorrow we should go visit his
mom to see her progress.
My phone indicates a text and its Ntsika: *Our meeting with
the Councillor is scheduled today at 3:00pm don't be late.*
Me: *Thanks brother we will meet there.*
I look at Sage and remember that Miyalo is leaving and Pride
is not around who will I leave Sage with.
Miyalo: "Are you ok?"
Me: "I know Sage is my responsibility and you have to leave
but can you leave tomorrow please I have a meeting at three
today which is three hours from now."
She looks at me and nods.
Miyalo: "Don't worry I will take care of him babe."
*
We are at the councillors office waiting for him to finish his
call that has taken almost 15 minutes which I find it very
rude to answer calls while we are here infront of him. After a
very long time he drops the call and fix his suit looking at us.
Councillor: So gentlemen what can I do for you?
Ntsika: I am Ntsika and this is my brother Nkanyezi.
Councillor: Ok so what can I do for you?
Me: "I have noticed that here in our community we don't
have any ..."
He interupts me.
Councillor: Wait wait! Why didn't you tell me to call in
someone who can translate for me?
Ntsika: Don't worry I will do it, I am his voice.
Councillor: Right! Go on.
Me: As I was saying, in this community we don't have
schools or centers to support children with Autism and most
of them struggle with mainstream schools because they are
not fully equiped or most teachers are not well trained to
teach those children with Autism."
Ntsika tells him what i'm saying.
Councillor: Ok I hear you so what do you suggest?
Me: "I would like you to speak to people above you to build a
center to accomodate those children Sir."
He looks at me.
Councillor: But we don't have funds to start something this
big.
Me: "But you haven't even looked at the books and finances
hell you're not even trying to give it a thought, Imagine if this
was your child with this disorder and you have nowhere else
to take him but ofcaurse you have money you can take your
kids anywhere in the world but what about those who are
less fortunate?"
Councillor: I hear you but I've seen our finances and these
past years they have been very low so I don't think we can
help you.
Me: "Ok can you atleast give me a piece of land I will raise
the funds myself."
Councillor: Ok We will look for the land, let's meet here on
Friday 10:00 am and we will meet with other members of
the council and tell you about our findings.
Me: "Thank you."
Councillor: I love your active and motivated attitude towards
this I can see you know what you're talking about good luck i
might fund this project from my own pocket.
Me: "Thank you sir that would mean alot to me."
We shake hands and walk out.
Ntsika: "I'm so proud of you."
Me: "Thank you for being here with me."

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
*
I'm getting ready for my meeting, it's friday i'm meeting the
councillor about that land and i'm so nervous, this may be
the start of something new for me something that is close to
my heart.
Miyalo is still here she is fixing my tie looking straight into
my eyes.
Miyalo: Stop being nervous everything will be ok.
She perks my lips and step back looking at me.
Miyalo: You look really good, that suit was made for you.
Me: "Thank you so much for being here I know you should
have went home four days ago but you chose to look after
Sage for me while i'm busy."
Miyalo: I love looking after him so don't worry and goodluck
babe.
I kiss her and hug her then kiss Sage's cheek since he is still
sleeping.
Miyalo: I hope he won't cry if he doesn't see you when he
wakes up.
Me: "But you can calm him down you are so good with him
i'm even getting jealous."
She smiles.
Miyalo: Someone is at the door, I think it's Ntsika.
She kiss me one more time then opens the door and my
brother stands infront of the door looking at me, it's like i'm
looking at my reflection.
Miyalo: "This will creep people out you two why are you
wearing same suits?"
My brother starts laughing.
Ntsika: "We are one Miyah, we think like one person, i'm
sure at the back of your mind you said you want to wear the
suit we wore at uncle Kwanele and Auntie Sunshine's
wedding because Pink couldn't stop complimenting how
good we looked."
I shake my head smiling that is exactly what I was thinking
when I chose this suit, Kwanele and Sunshine married later
last year after they went through a bad break up which you
will know about someday, so the suits were tailoured for
their wedding.
Ntsika: "You will find me in the car."
I nod and turn to look at Miyalo.
Me: "Text me if he is giving you trouble ok."
Miyalo: "My phone is still off."
She says looking away, switching off her phone is her way of
ignoring Musa and I don't like that, she does call her mom
with my phone but I feel like she is dragging dumping Musa
because she still wants him.
Me: "Bye."
I walk out and step inside the car my brother drives to their
offices and we get in and they are here already. We greet and
take our seats.
Member1: Councillor so these are the boys that wants the
land?they are young how can they want something so big?
Councillor: He knows what he wants, he may be young but I
believe in him and his dream and the fact that he came up
with something not a single one of us ever thought off means
something.
I see most member nodding their heads.
Councillor: We can go to that land you suggested first then
and see if he will approve let's go gentlemen,you have a car
with you.
Ntsika and I nod.
Councillor: Great you will follow us with your car then.
We drive following the car and the cars stop we stop at this
beautiful green landscape and I already imagine different
times of outdoor games around this place, this is it and it's
not far from home.
Councillor: Is this your ideal land, we can look somewhere
else we have a few to look at.
Me: "Look no further this is it Sir, this is it."
Ntsika: He says look no further this is more than fine.
Coucillor: Well I'm glad to hear that so what I can do for now
while you raise those funds is to help with a wire fence
around this area for now.
Me: "Thank you so much sir this means alot to me."
Councillor: Let's go back to the office, members thank you
for joining us and helping me find this land thank you.
They go to their cars and drive off, and we look around for a
while then go back to his office.
Councillor: So I know this is not much but I hope it helps
with the foundation of this center.
He give me a R50 000 cheque, I get up and shake his hand he
did say it from his own pocket so I appreciatr it.
Me: "Thank you this will help alot."
Councillor: "I can suggest someone who can be your financial
advisor."
Ntsika: Oh no don't worry about it we have one at home and
a lawyer too.
Councillor: I'm impressed you boys are good, well goodluck
if you need anything my office is always opened for you.
Ntsika: I don't know if we are asking for too much but I have
gathered that the municipalities have equipments like TLBs
and so on can't you talk to them and suggest they help us
with those.
Councillor: I can do that.
He look at us for a while.
Councillor: Bless the parents that raised such wonderful
boys.
We smile at him then get up he walks us out and we shake
hands one more time and drive home. I am happy, this is
looking good now all I need to do is speak to uncle Kwanele
he is the financial advisor Ntsika was talking about he is
really good and ofcause I need their money too.
We get home and Miyalo and Lathi are sitting on the
Veranda holding babies, Sage is sitting on the fleece on the
floor playing with puzzles.
Ntsika: " Just look at them, Miyalo is holding Nqoba because
he looks like you and Lathitha is holding Manqoba because
he is a mini me these girls."
I shake my head as we walk up to them.
Miyalo: Uyahleba wena Ntsika. (you gossip Ntsika.)
Ntsika: "What did I say?"
Lathi: uhlebile Ntsika.(You did gossip)
Miyalo gives Nqoba to Ntsika and pull my hand we get in our
room she stands infront of me taking off my tie and
unbottining my shirt.
Miyalo: How did your meeting go?
She unbuttle my belt and pull down my pants she kneels
down and put my dick in her mouth I almost lose balance,
she sucks on it until I cum in her mouth she get up and I kiss
her picking her up her legs wrapped around my waist I pin
her on the wall and start pounding on her I go on until I
release again and she is shaking I take her to bed and look at
her removing all my clothes, she is still in the short dress but
she wasn't wearing anything underneath.
I get on top of her and start hitting it so fast and furious she
shakes underneath me, I get off and sleep next to her
catching my breath.
Me: "What was that about?"
Miyalo: "You just looked so sexy in that suit and I couldn't
hold myself."
Me: "I should wear suits more often then."
She quickly get up, I get up too and look at her.
Miyalo: We didn't use a condom we should go to the
pharmacy right now and get the morning after pills.
I look at her.
Miyalo: "Let's go Star stop staring at me.
We go take a shower and drive to the pharmacy she is
panicking, we buy the pills with water she takes them right
in the car then she sighs.
We go back home and find Sage with Ntsika.
Ntsika: "I had to make him believe I was you he was starting
to cry."
I take Sage to my room and put him in his bed and cover him.
And I get in my bed facing up.
Miyalo: "Why are you so quiet?"
Me: "It's nothing."
Miyalo: "Come on Star talk to me."
I sit up looking at her.
Me: "Why were you panicking so much that we didn't use
condoms would it be a bad thing if you got pregnant with my
baby?"
Miyalo: I don't want a baby not now I still want to finish my
studies.
Me: "But Lathitha is still going to continue with Sch.."
Miyalo: Don't start with me Star, just don't or I will leave
your ass.
Me: "Yeah because you have options right, you are here but
you still have a boyfriend out there waiting for you to come
back you don't even want to dump him what you gonna do
when you go back? Make up an excuse on why your phone
was off or you call him when I'm not around?
She looks at me and I see a guilty face, I get up from the bed.
Me: "You call him when I'm not around Miyalo?"
Miyalo: uhm I did call him once Star only once telling him we
have to talk when I get home.
Me: "Oh come on!"
I am angry, so angry I start pacing around the room, I feel
like the lump in my throat is going to burst I sit down and I
feel a hand on my shoulder I look up it's my brother when
did he get here.
Ntsika: "Calm down Nkanyezi you are scaring Sage and
Miyah.
I look around I see Sage holding on to Miyah.
Ntsika: "Those sounds you make when you are angry were
coming out I heard them from my room Nkanyezi calm
down..
I wipe my face and get up going to Sage he look scared I pick
him up and walk out.
We sit outside.
Me: "I'm sorry for scaring you like that boy I didn't mean to."
I hold his hand and smile at him.
Me: "One of these days we will be communicating so well, I
love you."
I see Miyalo walking out carrying her bag.
Miyalo: I am leaving.
I get up but she steps back.
Me: "You promised Sage that we will go with him to see his
Mom tomorrow Miyah, you don't break promises to a kid."
Miyalo: "You will take him Nkanyezi I can't be here."
She looks next to me and I look Sage is crying.
Miyalo: Come here boy.
He go to her.
Miyalo: Mommy have to go ok.
Sage shakes his head vigourously, Miya looks at me.
Me: "Don't do that to him Miyalo."
She attempt to walk away but Sage sits down on the floor
and cry.
I follow Miyah and turn her around.
Me: "He is crying Miyah just stay for him then please we will
go to the hospital then you will explain to him that you have
to go he will understand don't just go like this please."
She looks back at Sage and go to him, they go back inside.
I sit down for a while and when I go to my room it's locked I
knock for a while but no one opens, I give up and go sit on
the lounge Mom and dad comes back.
Luyolo: "Boy you good?"
I nod he walks to his room, mom sit infront of me.
Ziyanda: "Talk to me."
Me: "She locked me out of my room I was angry and Ntsika
tells me I made sounds and scared Sage and Miyalo in the
process now they have locked me out."
Ziyanda: "What made you so angry?
Me: "She is calling Musa behind my back and I don't like
that."
Ziyanda: Nkanyezi don't push her too hard she is here with
you I think she just want to let him go gentle because he
didn't do anything wrong, she loves you I can see that, so if
you do this you are pushing her to him bro.
Me: "Maybe I should just let her go, she did say he has been
treating her right which I'm clearly failing to do."
Ziyanda: "Don't do something you might regret Star."
I nod and look down.
Ziyanda: "How did you meeting go?"
Me: "It went really well I got the land and the R50 000
cheque already."
Ziyanda: Really!Wow baby I'm so proud of you Wow Star
wam I'm out of words you are amazing, your dad and I will
give you something this weekend too.
Me:"Thank you I was still finding ways to ask you."
Ziyanda: "well you will get it baby come here.
She get up and I get up too we hug.
Ziyanda: "Where are you going to sleep?"
She asks grinning at me.
I shrug my shoulder returning the grin.
Ziyanda: Well bye..angizingeni( i'm not getting involved)
And she walks away, I thought she was going to talk to
Miyalo for me though.
I walk to my room again and knock, she opens the door.
Miyalo: Walk away Nkanyezi you are disturbing our sleep.
Me: "Miyalo I'm sorry can I sleep on the bunkbed atleast."
She move away from the door I get in and Sage is sleeping in
my bed Miyah get in next to him, I guess I really won't sleep
on my bed.
I take off my clothes and get in bed.
*
I wake up and look next to me Miyalo is helping Sage get
dressed she is already looking beautiful in her short black
dress. She turns and look at me I get up.
Me: "Why didn't you wake me up?"
Miyalo: "Leave me alone."
Me: "Stop acting like a damn child."
Miyalo: We want to leave Nkanyezi so make it quick please
geez.
I go to the bathroom to take a bath then come back she
already placed black jeans and black T-shirt on the bed, wow
this is lovely.
I get dressed and Sage is wearing black too.
Me: "Thank you."
Miyalo: "It's not a big deal Star you were going to make us
late while still looking for something to wear on that mercy
closet."
Ouch that hurts but it is very mercy mom usually fix it once
in a while but she is busy these days.
I nod then we walk out and drive to the hospital.
We go to Loret's ward and she is closing her eyes, Sage
touches her hand she opens her eyes and smiles a little.
Me: "How are you feeling ma'am?"
Loret: I'm getting better atleast i'm not in pain anymore just
that I can't move my entire body, that shock damaged my
nerves but I will be fine in time. Who is that?
Sage: M-O-M-MY.
Loret looks at me then Miyah and smiles.
Loret: She is his mommy? Then what are you Star his daddy?
I shake my head smiling I see where she is going with this
i'm glad she is ok.
Loret: Thank you for what you have been doing for him I can
see he is happy and growing, thank you so much.
Me: "It's my pleasure ma'am, I'm glad I could help."
Loret: What is your name?
Miyalo: I am Miyalo, Miyah in short.
Loret: He is calling you mommy?
Miyalo: Uh he asked me if I can be his second mom so I
agreed I'm sorry if..
Loret: No I'm glad he is connecting with you two, I have to
ask you if you could keep him for me until I can be able to do
things myself I can't do anything for him now please look
after him for me.
Me: "I will do it."
Loret: "Miyah."
Miyalo looks down.
Miyalo: But I have to go back home.
Loret: Please I know this is too much to ask but he is
comfortable with you guys please.
Miyalo: Ok I will look after him.
Loret: Thank you so much.
She stretches her hand to Miyalo and Miyah hold it.
Loret: Thank you.

WE ARE ONE( I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
*
Things are looking good at the center, we have found the
builders and they have started doing the work and it's huge
because the councillor is helping me with most of the things
he is the one who found the builders and I appreciate his
support.
*
Relationship wise well it's not going so well, Miyalo still
sleep with Sage and we hardly ever talk now.
I'm coming from the gym Sage is with Q in his room he
asked to sleep there, I find Miyalo lotioning her body but it's
like her mind is far away, I go to the bathroom and shower
when I come back she is already in bed covering her head, I
get in the bunkbed where I have been sleeping in the past
few days, just as i'm about to doze off I feel someone
touching me I open my eyes it's Miyalo.
Miyalo: Come to bed.
I look at her and get up and we both get in my bed, I missed
the comfort of my bed. She touch my face making me look at
her.
Miyalo: I want us to talk.
She keeps quiet a bit.
Miyalo: I'm sorry for everything I have been doing to you
and making you angry, I'm really sorry please forgive me.
I nod.
Me: "I think I love you way too much, it's turning to
obsession, I'm scared of losing you, I feel like I will go crazy
and end up in that pychiatric hospital again."
She looks at me with teary eyes.
Me: "Please don't leave me Miyah."
Miyalo: But I need to go home Star.
Me: "I know that but will you ever come back?"
Miyalo: I will come back remember I promised Sage's mom
that I will take care of him.
Me: "And what about Musa?"
Miyalo: I will break up with him when I get home.
Me: "But you love him right? Please be honest."
Miyalo: I love you, I just loved the idea of having someone
who cared for me, he made me forget about you for a while
but I never stopped loving you I don't think I ever will, I will
come back I promise.
Me: "When are you leaving?"
Miyalo: Tomorrow.
Me: "Did you tell Sage?"
Miyalo: Yes I did.
I nod, she kisses me and get on top of me, we make love like
i'll never see her again and that scares me.
We fall asleep and in the morning she wakes up and go to the
bathroom, she cones back and get dressed i'm just sitting in
bed looking at her.
Miyalo: "Aren't you gonna drive me to the taxi rank?
I slowly get off the bed and go to the bathroom and when I
come back she is sitting in bed and her bag is next to her, I
get dressed I can feel her eyes on me.
Me: "Let's get going."
Miyalo: Don't be sad I will come back."
Me: "When Miyalo?"
Miyalo: "The following weekend I will be here."
Me: "Ok."
We kiss and walk out, she says goodbye to everyone and
Sage cries and Q comforts him.
I take her to the taxis.
Miyalo: "Bye I will text you when I get home."
Me: "Ok I love you."
Miyalo: "I love you too."
We get off the car and walk her to a taxi then go back to the
car and drive back home.
When I get home everyone is in the lounge mom waves at
me.
Ziyanda: "Hey Loret asked to see you today at the hospital
and asked if you could bring Sage and Miyalo but since she is
not here you can go with only Sage.
I nod and walk to my room, I take my jacket and Sage's then
we drive to the hospital and walk in to her ward we find the
nurse helping her eat.
Me: "Hello"
She turns her head and smile.
Loret: Hey Star, Sage baby how are you?come here.
Sage walks towards the bed and I sit down.
Loret: Where is Miyah?
Me: She had to go home for a while."
Loret: So uhm I want to tell you that I'm leaving, another
doctor gave me a transfer to a hospital in johannesburg so I
was hoping your family could look after Sage for me I know
this is alot after everything you have done for me but please
I don't have anyone to look after him.
Me: "I will do it you don't have to beg me I love him so much
and the center will be opening soon he will learn alot there
although we still have to look for more teachers but I will be
doing it for the time being."
Loret: You make me proud Star like you're my own son
thank you for doing this for our kids, God will bless you.
Me: "Thank you."
Loret: Sage baby Mom loves you so much I will come back
better ok.
*
I drive back home and we eat dinner and go to sleep, Miyalo
hasn't sent me a text and it's late i'm getting worried.
Me: *Baby did you get home safe?*
She doesn't reply I go knock on my brother's room and ask
him to call her mom and ask if Miyah arrived
Ntsika talks on the phone for a while then drop the call.
Ntsika: "She says Miyalo did arrive earlier today but she
went to some Muzi."
I nod and take my phone walking out.
I spent the whole night waiting for a text from Miyah but
nothing I guess she slept over at Muzi's huh.
*
It's been over a week not hearing from miyah and i've
accepted that she chose Muzi over me, what did I expect?
The guy is old and looks rich and definitely not deaf and
can't talk like me.
Tomorrow we are opening the Center my brother and I
managed to find two caregivers who will look after the kids
there when they sign up at our center but for now we are
just opening, no kids are there yet.
I was really hoping Miyalo will be here with me but she's not.
I unblock Lebo and text her.
Me: *Can we meet?*
Lebo: *Yes where?*
Me: *Text me your address I will come there.*
She sends the address and I notice she stays at those flats
next to the mall which makes sense why she is always there.
I drive to her place and text her that I'm here , she comes and
open the gate for me, it's those commune flats, everyone has
his/her own key.
I take the condoms that I bought on my way here and put
them in my pocket then we walk inside her flat it's cosy and
nice.
Lebo: I was shocked to see your text, do you want something
to drink tea, wine?
I shake my head and step closer to her and roughly kiss her,
taking off her top. She push me a little.
Lebo: What is this Star? Do you want me?
I nod and kiss her again, we take off our clothes and I bend
her over on the couch and grab my jacket and take out the
condom I tear it and furiously pound on her, she is holding
on tight on the couch I go on and on and pull out I take off
the condom and put on another one and sit on the couch she
get on top of me and start moving, we are sweating she hold
on to my shoulders and tremble and I cum and get her off
me.
We go take a bath and she wears my t-shirt and I wear only
my pants. I throw myself in her bed and close my eyes, I feel
like crying what Miyalo is doing to me is wrong and all I feel
for her right now is hate, I hate her.
I feel a hand on my chest I open my eyes.
Lebo: Are you ok?
I nod.
She gives me my phone and I take it.
Lebo: Are you ok, you look mad?
I type* Can we not talk right now I just want to sleep please.*
She nods and sleep next to me.
I sit up after a while and type.
Me: *Can you be my date tomorrow at the center launch if
you promise to behave.*
She reads and smile hugging me.
Lebo: Yes I would love too uhm what should I wear?
Me: *Just look smart and elegant but please behave
yourself.*
Lebo: I will Star have some faith in me.
Me: *Just call me Nkanyezi please.*
She nods.
Me: *I have to go now I'll pick you up at 9:oo am don't make
me wait for you.*
She takes off my T-shirt and I wear it and she walks me out, I
drive home and find people happy Sis Mbali is here she is a
designer together with Auntie Sunny they own botiques for
formal wear so they designed all their outfits for the launch.
Mbali: Hey baby I have been waiting for you can you show us
your suit?
Me: "You guys will see it tomorrow."
I have my own suit that no one has seen just me and the
person who made it ofcause.
Mbali: What if it doesn't fit you.
I smile a little.
Me: "Trust me it will."
I walk to my room, I thought tomorrow was going to be the
best day of my life with Miyalo next to me but she made a
fool out of me, she knew she wasn't going to be here.
Ntsika and Langa walk in I fake a smile.
Langa: "We can see right through that fake smile brother, is
it Miyah?"
Me: "She is having a time of her life she doesn't even care
about sage but she promised to come back."
Ntsika: "Don't let this get to you not today, you should be
celebrating your achievement you made it brother and if
Miyalo doesn't want to be here with you then it's her loss."
Me: "Ok let me get some sleep then, big day tomorrow."
They nod and walk out, I get under the covers and let it all
out, I'm sad, angry dissapointed the list is endless.
*
I wake up and freshen up then rush out to get my suit it's
7:oo am. I take it and go to Lebo's flat she opens for me.
Lebo: You said nine o'clock.
I ignore her and walk to her room, she has a black sparkling
dress ontop of the bed, my suit is here it is all white from the
shirt to the belt the shoes, all white.
Me: *Look for a white dress Lebo.*
She look like she's thinking then go to her closet and come
out with a very beautiful white dress. she shows it to me and
I nod.
She go take a shower and put on her weave and make-up
then she get dressed, I help her zipping it on her back. She
looks really beautiful that dress fits her perfectly.
I wear my suit too, we look really good like a real couple.
Lebo: You look good babe.
I nod and we walk out it's 15 minutes past nine and it was
supposed to start at nine.
I drive to the center and I see alot of people there, even the
journalist.
I stop the car and step out the camera's flashes a bit far from
me, I walk around and open for Lebo and take her hand.
We walk in and all eyes are on me, journalists comes rushing
to me but I see men wearing black suits pushing them away.
Everyone is outside looking at the building as I walk on the
red carpet inbetween them going to the front and stand
looking at the building it is covered on top. I nod at the
designer next to me he nods and the cover falls down words
written in bold on the billboard INKANYEZI DISABILITY
CENTER (we support children living with disability and
Autism, We learn, we grow together)
It has stars all over and I am impressed, I feel Lebo
squezzing my hand I look at her.
Lebo: Is this all you?
I nod.
Lebo: The people are cheering.
I look behind me, I see mom crying and my family clapping
hands I signal for Sage to come to me, I hold his hand, he is
my inspiration.
The councillor comes and we cut the red ribbon that was
surrounding the center and we walk in.
We sit on the front row and the councillor speaks for a while
appreciating the community for coming and the media, then
he calls for me.
I stand up and look at Ntsika he stands up with me and Sage
get up too and hold on to my hand we walk to the podium.
Ntsika stands next to me and so is Sage.
Me: "Greetings everyone my name is NKANYEZI aka Star.
I look at my brother he says what I said and shakes his head
smiling.
Ntsika: "You better not make me say crazy things Nkanyezi."
Me: "I won't brother, So as I was saying I am the one who
came up with the idea of building this center. One day I met a
lady at the shop and I talked to her in a sign language I was
shocked when she replied using it too so she told me she has
a son who is autistic so she took classes so they can
communicate but she had to work and we don't have enough
schools or centers to accomodate those kids with this
disorder and I wanted to meet this boy and when I did he
became my inspiration, When I looked at him I asked myself
what would have happened to me if my parents couldn't
afford taking me to those schools that cost ridiculous prices,
where would I be? I have seen free government schools so I
thought why not build a free autistic center why should
parents with autistic children not have choices like those
who are normal do, they have options on taking their kids to
free schools or those schools that cost alot of money. No one
should pay to enroll their disabled children to a center or
school let it be a choice so those who are less fortunate can
have what they call home, this is our home and we will be
safe here, i'm counting myself because I will be here too I am
one of them and I will help them anyway I can. So thank you
to everyone who supported my vision and made it possible
for it to become a reality, my brother who was my voice
throughout this project, this young man next to me, the
sponsors, my family and councillor for believing in me thank
you."
The journalists comes closer taking pictures, I walk back to
my seat holding Sage's hand we sit down.
Journalist starts asking alot of quuestions I answer them
with Ntsika voicing out what i'm saying.
Journalist: "So is this the woman in your life? we ladies want
to know."
Me: "She is a friend of mine."
When Ntsika says it I see Lebo's face changing, she look
dissapointed.
People starts having drinks and food, we talk about alot of
things with the councillors about the way foward then we
call it a day after giving people pamplets on how they can
sign up the kids and our contact details.
The journalists ask to take pictures of me and my brother
and then my whole family.
I am happy that this day turned out great.
*
MIYALO
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
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*
MIYALO
*
I can't move my whole body is covered in bruises, I want to
get up and find my way out of this hell but I can't, Musa
right? "He has been treating me right?" those are the words
that I said to Star, but here I am in pain because of the same
Musa I spoke so highly of to the man I love, I have hurt him
so much with this Musa, I made him angry because I couldn't
stop talking to Musa behind his back but look at me now, in
his small room, hands tied in the back sleeping on the cold
tiled floor.
*
When I came back from Nkanyezi's house I called and told
Musa I am back at home and we need to talk he said he is
coming in 30 minutes, I went to his car and he locked the car
I didn't panic because that's what he usually do when I'm
with him.
Musa: So where have you been Yalo?
Me: The family that helped Mom when I wasn't around.
He chuckled.
Musa: So I was right to suspect that something was going on
between you and that mute? I saw the way you tensed up
that day when he saw me with you and you were not ok the
whole day you even denied me sex.
Me: I'm sorry Musa to do this but I have to break up with
you, I am inlove with someone else.
He chuckled again.
Musa: Am I a joke to you Miyalo, all the money I spent on you
and you think you can just dump me like that?
Me: I can pay you back if that's what you want, I'm really
sorry Musa.
Musa: Pay me back with what? So he gives you money too,
Wow I can't believe this.
Me: I'm sorry I have to go now please unlock so I can go.
He wipes his face.
Musa: No, we are going home, you remember how I told you
that my house will be your home one day so it starts today
baby.
Me: What do you mean Musa? Unlock this car
I try to open but it's pointless. He starts the car and I try
touching the steering wheel but he slaps me with the back of
his hand.
Musa: Try doing that shit again I will kill you myself, what
the fuck is wrong with you?
He parks the car infront of his family house but he is always
alone others live by themselves now but they do come here
once in a while.
He open his door and I open my side and try to run to the
gate but I see it closing, I turn to look at him he shows me the
remote with a smirk.
He pulls my arm going inside the house, he takes me to his
room at the far end of the passage I start screaming for help
but who am I kidding people don't care anymore, you get
mugged right infront of them but they keep walking like they
don't see what is going on, this is the world we live in these
times, the 21st century right?
He throws me inside the room and turn the key then he
starts looking inside his closet he takes the tie and attempt
to tie my hands but we start fighting, he grabs my throat I
stratch his face and that makes him more angry he squeeze
my throat tight till I struggle to breath.
Me: St.op please stop.
Musa: Why would you choose a mute over me Miyalo, are
you crazy?
He lets go of my neck and I fall on the floor coughing and
gasping for air, he quickly ties my hands too tight on my
back and stands next to me with a belt he starts whipping
me, I bite my lip as I let the pain sink in but I won't cry, I will
never give him that satisfaction.
Musa: You dissapointed me Yalo I was willing to give you
anything you need.
He walks out and I'm left moaning in pain on the floor.
He comes back after a while and opens his TV here in his
room and play music, he pays no attention to me but takes of
his clothes and go shower he comes back and sit infront of
me.
Musa: How is the sex with the mute huh does he groan, is he
giving it to you good?
I try to get up and sit on my butt looking at him catching my
breathe
Me: What I know is that he fucks way better that you and he
does groan because I give it to him good, get that?
He slaps me but I laugh looking at him.
Me: Still won't change the fact that you are weak Musa see
that mute changes styles ok, not you always ontop of me old
school guy, and I let him hit it raw because he is so good.
He goes crazy and start punching me and kicking me.
Musa: You are calling me weak? I will show you weak.
He takes the car keys and walk out, I hear the key turns
outside. I get up and try to untie my hands but it's difficult I
walk around the room searching for something I can use to
cut it with, for 15 minutes trying but nothing the tie is too
tight, I hear the door opening and he comes in with a girl. He
locks again then start punching me and takes a chair and
make me sit he ties my ankles together with the chair.
I look at the girl she just looks at me like i'm some crazy shit.
They start kissing and undressing each other I'm just
watching them. He throws the girl in bed and get ontop of
her, see? my point exactly always doing the same shit it's
boring, after like two minutes I hear him groaning so loud
then he get up and his dick is dripping wet with cum coming
out.
I start laughing so loud, he stands infront of me his dick is
already down and out, gone.
Musa: See that's how a real man does it?
Me: Oh really I'm sure even sisters over there didn't reach
her orgasm with that Musa, you are making me laugh.
I laugh once again and he starts beating me up until I fall
with a chair now my body is weak I can't move a muscle.
He gives the girl her clothes and they get dressed and walk
out.
I close my eyes I think I'm falling asleep. He does this for
days bring a girl over "fuck" her and beat me up, I'm getting
tired but he gives me food like an animal I eat and sleep on
that floor then he ties me again.
*
PRESENT DAY
I don't even know what day it is but all I know is that I want
to get out of here, I know mom won't think something bad
has happened to me because I have done this before, go for a
week without contacting them and come back home fine so
she will think this is what I usually do so it's no big deal.
I wake up when he unties me and pick me up putting me in
bed for the first time I got here. He get in next to me, my
entire body is burning up.
He opens the TV and smiles next to me.
Musa: I saw a very familiar face on TV yesterday so I
recorded it for you.
I see a topic "YOUNG MAN MAKING MOVES."
I blink a few times when I see Nkanyezi on TV, I remember
that he was about to open his centre and I promised I will be
his partner.
I gasp when I see him holding a very beautiful girl's hand
and I have seen that girl.
Musa: So your boyfriend is a celebrity huh?
And for the first time ever since I was held hostage in here I
feel tears in my eyes when I see him going on the podium
holding Sage's hand and his brother by his side.
I watch him saying his speech, he made it and i'm so proud of
him.
Musa: So he is a clever mute huh, opening a whole centre
mmm? But he moved on baby look at that beauty next to him
damn!
I fix my eyes on the screen I see a journalist asking him
about the girl but he replies that, she is a friend and I exhale.
Musa: You should have just dated the other brother Yalo
atleast.
Me: Can I take a bath.
Musa: Don't be sad ok I will take care of you from today I
won't be beating you anymore.
I nod. He get up and carry me to the bathroom and I balance
with my hands on the wall as water hit my body for the first
time since I got here, my whole body stings I feel like
screaming. I'm sure Nknyezi thought that I chose Musa and
negleted him and Sage.
I walk out of the shower with and wrap the towel around my
body and slowly sit in bed.
Musa: Here wear this.
He gives me his jacket and sweatpants,I wear these big
clothes, he walks out and leave the door open I follow him to
the kitchen when he turns i'm right infront of him staring at
him.
Musa: Yalo you startled me what are you doing out of the
room?
Me: I'm going home.
He chuckles.
Musa: No you not.
Me: But I am, you watch me.
I turn but he grabs my hair I turn around and kick him on his
groan, I take his car keys and the gate remote rushing out.
I get in his car and drive out.
I stop in town and leave his car at the market locking it then
take a taxi to Nkanyezi's house it's a bit early so I know his
parents are not around.
I walk in and no one is around, I go to his room and find him
kissing a girl in bed and he is wearing only his pants no shirt,
I slam the door and lean on it, Lebo jumps and Nkanyesi
turns and look at me in shock.Lebo: What the fuck is wrong
with you how can you just barge in like that.
I wipe the tears that has come out of my eyes.
I turn to the door but I feel his hand turning me around.
Nkanyezi: "What are you doing here Miyah?"
Me: "I wanted to explain everything to you."
Nkanyezi: "Then why are you leaving without explaining?"
Me: "I just saw you kissing someone else, I see you moved on
you don't need me to explain anything to you."
Nkanyezi: "No I want you to explain Miyalo on why you left
me, on why I called and texted and you never answered."
Me: I just caught you with a girl Nkanyezi why would I
explain myself to you ..why!
I shout and I see Lebo standing next to him.
Lebo : Why are you shouting?
Nkanyezi: "Tell her to give us some space now."
I stare at him, is he kidding me, why should I.
Nkanyezi: "Now Miyalo."
He says giving me a stern look.
Me: You should go, he wants you to leave.
Lebo: He never said that.
Nkanyezi opens the door and show her out, she is angry.
Lebo: You can't keep doing this to me Nkanyezi.
Nkanyezi: "I'm sorry but i'll see you later."
He kiss her cheek and take her hand and walk out with her.
I sit on the floor and cry, he has moved on.
He gets in and give me his hand I hold it then get up and
collide with his chest I hold him and sob but he push me a
little and sit on his bed looking at me.
I step closer to him and start slapping, punching and biting
him, he is just blocking his face, i'm angry and mad as hell.
He push me away from him.
Me: I hate you.
Nkanyezi: "Not as much as I hate you."
We stare at each other, he doesn't mean it.
Nkanyezi: "Coming to my home wearing a man's clothes you
don't see me, you never did."
I take off the clothes and i'm left butt naked infront of him, I
see shock in his face he slowly get up from the bed.
Nkanyezi: "Who did this to you? Miyah what happened to
you?
I can see concern in his face.
Me: "Musa did this to me when I broke up with him kept me
in his house beating me up everyday."
He steps closer to me but I step back.
Me: I didn't think I will come back to this Star, it hurts so
bad.
Nkanyezi: "I'm sorry"
He steps closer again, I shake my head.
Me: Stop, I don't want this anymore.
Nkanyezi: "You don't want what Miyalo?"
I just cry, he wraps his arms around me I cry for a long time
in his chest.
He makes me sit on the chair while he changes the bed
covers then give me his t-shirt I wear it.
Nkanyezi: "I wanted a distraction Miyah,I wanted to get you
out of my mind,I wanted to fall inlove with Lebo so I can
forget about you, I thought you chose him over me,I had to
pretend like i'm ok while at night I cry for you."
Me: "Are you inlove with her now?"
Nkanyezi: "I don't think I will ever love anyone but you
Miyalo and I don't want to love you like this anymore
because I keep getting hurt."
I nod.
Me: Maybe you should try things out with Lebo then because
after seeing you with her I don't think I want to try this out
again, I guess we weren't meant to be.
Nkanyezi: "You want to leave again, what if he hurt you?"
Me: "I don't care anymore."
Nkanyezi: "I care."
Me: "You promised that you will see her later."
Nkanyezi: "People break promises all the time I won't be the
first one."
I feel like he is saying that to me.
He stares at me and comes closer he pull up the T-shirt i'm
wearing and look at my body clenching his jaws, he moves
his hand all over my body then to my boobs playing with my
nipples, I moan and push him getting up.
Me: Let's not do this Star please.
He fix his bulge and sit in bed.
Me: "I need to call mom he might go to my house looking for
his car I ditched it at the market."
Nkanyezi: "Let's take it back to him I want to meet him."
Me: "No."
He get up and get dressed and help me wear his boxer short.
Nkanyezi: "Let's go you will show me where his car is."
Me: "No star let's leave it he will track it and come get it."
Nkanyezi: "I want to take it back to him and please don't
argue with me Miyalo."
He walk out I follow him getting in the car and he drive to
the market and park behind Musa's car he step out.
Nkanyezi: "Give me the keys."
Miyalo: You don't have to do this.
He gives me a death stare I hand him the keys and we drive
to Musa's home i'm directing him, i'm so nervous I take the
remote control and open the gate, Star looks at me and
shakes his head, he drive in and stop infront of the house, he
gives me his hand and I give him the remote.
I see Musa coming out of the house Nkanyezi steps out.
I step out and stand next to him.
Musa: Miyalo you hit me and took my car and then come
back with this mute driving my car?
I look at Nkanyezi he is too calm for someone who was called
a "mute" seconds ago.
Musa: Little boy what are you doing in my house?
Nkanyezi steps closer to him but I pull his hand but the look
he gives makes me let go and step back.
Musa: What are you trying to do Mute?
Everything happens so fast next thing I see is Musa down on
his butt with blood coming out of his mouth.
Nkanyezi: "The name is Nkanyezi."
Musa get up and try to fight again but star punch him, he get
back on the floor and starts kicking him countless times.
I push him away from Musa and stand infront of him he is
angry veins are popping on his forehead.
Me: Stop ok let's just go home please.
He push me to the side and kick him again, I stand infront of
him again.
Me: Please baby, let's go ok, let's go home.
Nkanyezi: "Home? Where is home Miyalo? Where you will
leave me again and I will be left taking wrong decisions so I
could forget about you? Where is that home Miyah?
He is angry his eyes are bloodshot red.
Me: I won't leave you again I promise I won't please let's
leave him he is not worth it let's go.
Nkanyezi: "Please forgive me for what you saw earlier today
i'm sorry you had to see that."
Me: You forgave me after you heard that I was a sex worker,
when you saw me half naked with an oldman in that house,
when I faked my death and you almost killed yourself, so I
forgive you Star and I love you so much.
He hugs me tight and he turns around and open the gate, I
squart infront of Musa.
Me: That's what you get for messing with "Young boys" and
if you try anything stupid I will press charges against you
and you will lose your license to practice as a doctor and you
will lose it all, try me.
I walk to where Nkanyezi is standing and I take his hand and
walk out.
Nkanyezi: Let's go to your mom's house we will leave
tomorrow morning.
I nod looking at him.
Me: I love you Star.
He smiles faintly.
Nkanyezi: "I love you too."

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
*
I wake up and look around and I remember i'm not at home
in my room, I look next to me and Miyalo is sound asleep
with her lips parted a little I peck them and she jumps and
fall on the floor, I quickly get up and rush to her.
Me: "Baby are you ok? I'm sorry for startling you."
Miyalo: I thought it was Musa, I pretended like I didn't feel
the pain but I was in so much pain Star, I was..
She breaks into tears, I hold her to my chest so she can calm
down, we weren't supposed to sleep in one room, her mom
is old fashioned so if she were to find out that we shared a
bed she would flip but we didn't do anything she just
sneaked in and we slept holding each other.
She finally calms down, I wipe her tears looking into her
eyes, she is beautiful even when she cries, I wish I can voice
out what I feel for her maybe, just maybe she will feel exactly
the way I feel.
Miyalo: Stop staring at me Star.
She says smiling, I hold her sides of the face and give her a
passionate kiss then break it stepping back from her.
Me: "I love you, do you get it?"
Miyalo: "I get it I love you too."
Me: "Now go I don't want your mom suspecting anything."
She nods and walk out, I go back to bed facing up.
*
Later she packs a few clothes after asking Miyalo's mom if
she could visit us and she agreed, we will take a taxi since we
don't have a car here.
We say our goodbyes and wait for a taxi, it arrives and we
get in and Miyah sleeps on my shoulder all the way to town, I
wake her up when we are about to get off she jumps a little
and stares at me, she is not ok, I can see she is trying to act
cool but that guy messed her up big time and I wish I could
just kill him.
We go to where we left the car and it's still there, it's a good
thing that there are always metre taxis around so no one
would have stole the car here.
I drive home and we step out, I carry her bag walking inside
the house and as soon as we get in I see Lebo wet with tears
and mom brushing her back.
Ziyanda: Miyalo.
I look next to me Miyah is looking down on her shoes. Mom
stands up and comes to us.
Ziyanda: Are you ok sweety? we were all worried about you.
Me: "She was held hostage by her ex at his house and beating
her up."
Ziyanda: What!? He needs to go to jail, come here.
She hugs her and I see Miyah crying on mom's shoulder, she
hardly ever cry so seeing her like this really breaks my heart,
she is really not ok.
My eyes moves around the room and I see Lebo staring at
me with tears in her eyes, I walk to my room and put Miyah's
bag down and walk back to the lounge again, I find Mom and
Miyah sitting on thr couch and she is wiping her tears, Lebo
is already at the door, Miyah looks at me and get up, she
pulls my hand and we follow Lebo outside.
Miyalo: Lebo.
She slowly turns looking at us, her eyes are puffy.
Miyalo: I'm sorry for all this.
Lebo: What is all this huh? He keeps hurting me because of
you, you keep coming in and out of his life hurting him in the
process but his obsession with you pulls him towards you
every chance he gets, he can't even see any woman but you.
Me: "I'm sorry for hurting you Lebo, I'm really sorry."
Miyalo: He says he is sorry Lebo, he was just in a bad space,
you will find someone who will love you and only you.
Lebo: I want him and what you're doing to him is not right I
hope he sees it one day.
Miyalo: What am I doing to him? looks like you have a lot to
say about my life, what do you know?
Lebo steps closer.
Lebo: I have done my research and what I can say is that he
deserves better than a prostitute.
Miyalo nods and walk back in leaving me staring at Lebo, I
take out my phone.
Me: *Look I know what I did to you is wrong stringing you
along but you don't get to disrespect Miyah like that, so
please leave sisi and stop coming to my house.*
She reads and looks at me then she smash my phone on the
ground it breaks into pieces.
Lebo: You were searching for that girl in me I saw it you
failed to hide it but I kept coming hoping you will move on
eventually but you never did, you hurt me and I will do
worse to you, you haven't heard the last of me, you used me
and now that she's back you toss me aside, no I won't have
that.
She turns around and walk out. I go back in and find Mom in
the lounge alone.
Me: "Where is Miyah?"
Ziyanda: What were you doing with Lebo Nkanyezi?
I look at her confused she get up and stand infront of me.
Ziyanda: I'm asking you a question Nkanyezi and I expect an
answer from you.
Me: "I guess you can say we were dating."
Ziyanda: You guess? What were you doing with her knowing
very well that you still longed for Miyah?
Me: "It just happened Mom."
Ziyanda: Is that an attitude I sense from you Nkanyezi?
Because if it is I won't hesitate to beat it out of you.
Me: "No mom it's not I am sorry."
Ziyanda: Good now let me school you about girls, they hate it
when you date them then break up with them and go back to
your ex, do you know why?
Me: "No."
Ziyanda: It makes them feel used, they feel like you just
made them a rebound, like you were just there to pass time,
do you get me, they don't like it and that Lebo girl is coming
for your ass best believe it baby.
Me: "But I never said I loved her."
Ziyanda: But you slept with her right?
I look away.
Ziyanda: Don't use someone's child Nkanyezi we don't do
that, if you don't love them leave them alone.
She walks away and I go to my room and find Miyah staring
into space I stand infront of her.
Me: "I love you."
She nods.
Me: "I'm sorry for what Lebo said to you."
She shrug her shoulders
Miyalo: Don't be, she wasn't lying I was a prostitute.
I make her stand infront of me and take off her dress.
Me: "Does your body still hurts."
She still have greenish marks on her body but most of them
are faint now.
Miyah: A little.
Me: "Want me to make you feel better?"
She smiles nodding, I push her to bed and take of all my
clothes, I start kissing every part of her body then turn her
around kissing all the way down her spine then her butt
cheeks, I make her kneel and spread them apart and start
licking all her holes and down to her clit, I lick my middle
finger and start fingering her going faster,I see her fluids
coming out, I go in with my tongue again licking all of it, I
turn her around she lays on her back, I slowly fill her up with
my dick looking staright into her eyes.
Miyalo: Fuck.
I don't move but pin her hands above her head, I feel her
moving her waist underneath biting her lips, she is so hot.
Miyalo: Please Star.
She moves her waist a bit faster i'm still gazing into her eyes,
I feel her inner muscles clenching on my dick I quickly pull
out. She looks frustrated she push me off her and pin me on
the bed getting on top of me, She put my dick in I hold her
thighs tight as I feel the warmth of her pussy, she starts
riding my dick so fast I grab her waist and move faster
underneath her I feel myself getting close I cum and she
squeeze her boobs shaking then sleep on my chest, I hold her
tight kissing her forehead. She get up and look at me my dick
is still deep in her pussy and I feel it getting hard again. I
move a little, she shakes her head getting off me.
Me: "Baby come one why did you get off?"
Miyalo: "I want to take a bath so I can go get Sage."
I get up.
Me: "He missed you Miyah and he kept on writing asking
about you."
Miyalo: "I missed you guys and when I saw you on TV
holding hands with him I cried.
I look at her in shock.
Miyalo: "Yeah I saw it Musa wanted me to see that you
moved on with a beauty."
I look down that must have hurt her I should have went
alone. She touch my cheek I look at her.
Miyalo: Hey, I understand baby I wasn't here as I promised I
would be.
Me: "But it wasn't your fault I should have waited."
She kiss me.
Miyalo: Let's go take a shower.
We take a shower and wear our clothes and go to Uncle
kwanele's house where Iyana, Sage and Q are with Auntie
Sunny.
The minute Sage spots Miyah he get up leaving his puzzles
on the floor and run to her hugging her, I smile.
Sage: "Hello Mommy."
Miyah opens her eyes looking at me I give her a nod.
Miyalo: Wow.
Me: "He just knows the basics."
Miyalo: "Still that's big wow baby, you're good."
Me: "I try."
We take Sage and Q out to eat Pizza as we are sitting I see
cameras flashing I look around people are taking pictures of
us at our table, I look at Miyalo.
Miyalo: Maybe we should leave we will eat at home ok.
The boys nods and Miyah get up to get our order and we
walk out but more people and journalists keep taking
picture Miyah hands the Pizza to Q and stop walking, I stand
next to her.
Journalist: Nkanyezi is it true that you are dating a former
sex worker? why would you do that when you are at the
peak of your success and you can have any lady you want?
Journalist2: Is it true that you left your girlfriend we saw you
with at the opening of your Centre, it says here you left her
and she is 2 months pregnant.
I look at Q he looks scared and Sage has tears in his eyes
Miyah pulls him to her, he looks up.
Miyalo: "Don't be scared ok I'm here."
Sage nods.
Journalist: So you can't speak too? Are you the former sex
worker.
I see uncle Kwanele and Uncle Mandisi standing infront of
us.
Mandisi: You guys can go.
I hold Miyah's hand and wraps my arms around Q's shoulder
and Miyah holds Sage with her other hand and we walk out
and get in the car driving home.
*
I'm sitting with the councillors, Miyalo and my brother are
sitting next to me my uncles are standing in the crowd we
are holding it at the centre, the journalists are here ready
with the questions they want answers to. My uncles
suggested I have a press release so I could answer their
questions because they all won't stop following me around.
Journalist: So Nkanyezi we want to know if you are really
dating a former sex worker.
I look at Miyalo she nods.
Me: "Yes I am."
My brothers tell them what I said and looks at me, I can see
people have alot to say about that some look really angry at
me.
Journalist: Wow! So is she the one next to you now?
Me: "Yes"
I give her a nod she shakes her head and fix her glasses
looking at Miyalo.
Journalist: Why would you date a sex worker and leave that
girl pregnant the one who was your partner at the centre?
Me: "If I remember corrrectly what I said is she is a friend so
i don't know how I supposedly left her when we were not
even dating from the start."
Journalist: "But that's not what she told us sir."
I stand up and look at all of them Ntsika stands up too.
Me: "You guys missed the whole point in all this, I started
this project to help the kids living with Disability and Autism
disorder not to become famous."
I wait for my brother to tell them.
Me: "That's what you do, someone does good but you always
search for that one thing that is going to ruin that good thing
he did, I did this for the kids not for fame please understand
that, and as for my relationship I can date whoever I want
since there is no manual of love in this world, I don't
remember any of us given selections on who and what to
date.
Everyone is looking at me they look calm now.
Me: "Her being a former sex worker doesn't embarrass me at
all because I know the reasons, I know where she comes
from and I know why she did it but it's all in the past she is
mine now and i'm not her buyer, I am her lover. I wish you
could all stop judging and searching for the worst in people
that are trying to do good you are ruining things for those
who really need help, Thank you so much for your time "
I give Miyalo my hand she get up and hold it then we walk
out leaving everyone in that room, I drive home and we go to
my room and sleep.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
*
Lebo's family asked for a meeting with my parents since they
said she is pregnant, I don't understand how is she two
months pregnant when I only had an encounter with her two
weeks ago but I will just let it be because Mom doesn't
wanna hear it, she still think i'm playing with Lebo and i'm
denying "my child" so I could keep Miyalo happy, I know my
love for Miyah is a bit too much but I won't deny my own
blood for her that is just not me, I love kids so much.
*
Dad, Uncle Kwanele, Mandisi and China are here giving stern
looks like I killed someone even mom and my Aunts are not
happy with me either. Miyalo and Lathi went out with Sage
and Q, they left the twins with us.
Ntsika stands up and walk away and he comes back with
four ladies older than mom and Lebo.
Ziyanda: You can have a seat ladies.
They sit just opposite us they look really serious.
Lady1: Greetings.
I guess my family greets back.
Lady1: We came here because your child impregnated my
daughter and denied it live on TV, we demand damages and
an apology from all of you and him.
I look at Lebo, she is keeping her head down.
I look at mom.
Ziyanda: We understand and we are extremely sorry for
what my son did to your daughter and he will take full
responsibility for his act, he will pay damages and also
apologise to your family.
Lady1: Which one is it between these two.
Everyone looks at me.
Lady1: Ok, Lebo has to stay here because she can't stay alone
in her condition, a pregnant girl shouldn't live alone.
I look at Mom I really hope she doesn't agree to this.
Ziyanda: Uhm can't she stay with a friend we will pay for her
accomodation.
Lebo: Why not here? He is the father of my unborn baby I
have to be around him, That prostitute shouldn't be here.
I clench my jaws looking at her.
Lebo: She has to go.
Luyolo: This is my house and I decide who stays and who
goes, you are carrying his baby but you are not together and
you want to stay here fine then you can come,but don't for a
second think you have a say in whatever happens in this
house, now you can all go we have heard you and we will do
everything you have demanded from us and for your sake I
hope all this is true.
He get up and walk out.
Lady1: Ok then Lebo will move in tomorrow you are going to
fetch her right?
She ask looking at me.
I move my eyes.
Mbali: He will.
They all walk out, I get up and take the car keys walking out I
get in the car and drive to the mall to fetch Miyalo and Lathi.
I pass them at the gate and drive off.
I find them waiting for me at the entramce I had already
texted that i'm coming.
I kiss Miyah and Lathi's cheek and I hold Sage's hand Q is
holding his other hand.
We get in the car and go home.
*
I just finished taking a shower Miyah is helping Sage get
dressed in his pyjamas, I sit in bed and watch how she does
it with love,she will carry my kids one day and be the best
mom ever I know it.
Miyalo: Hey you don't look too good are you ok?
Me: "I am fine, Lebo is moving in tomorrow.
She looks at me and nod.
Miyalo: So I will have to go right?
Me: "Never, I told you that girl is lying and you know it too, I
slept with her a week after you went home so if she was
carrying my child she wouldn't be two months, she is stupid
to lie even about something that is so obvious to me but
Mom is livid she thinks i'm denying my baby.
Miyalo: Ok.
Me: "Don't be sad everything will be just fine baby I promise,
it's me and you against the world."
Miyalo: You're cute.
Me: "Don't be ridiculous wena."
I kiss her lips and we get in bed, Sage is sleeping on his bed
they are starting going to the center tomorrow and I have
found one sign language teacher, Miyah and I will be helping
her for now.
*
We are in the lounge and Lebo comes in with a suitcase,
Mom and dad are not around.
She pass us and walk to my room and Miyah is in there, I
quickly get up following her I find her throwing Miyah's stuff
out of my closet , Miyah is just staring at her emotionless.
I stand there watching her, she neatly packs her clothes in
my closet.
I walk up to Miyah and stand infront of her.
Me: "Are you good?"
She nods and and walk to the bathroom, she comes back
with her toiletries and put them in bed but Lebo moves them
all to the floor at once, Miyah's perfume hits my nostrils and
it's strong I look down and I see the glass broke.
Miyah takes her bag and go down to pick her stuff up, I kneel
next to her touching her hands, she looks at me, I can tell she
is angry but trying to keep calm.
I help her pick her stuff up and put it in her bags.
Communicating with Lebo is difficult she can't even
understand a "Hello" in sign language so I will just help my
girlfriend pick her stuff up and leave Lebo in this room.
Miyalo walks out first and I follow her and open the room
next to mine, no one uses it, it was Q's nursery but turned to
a guestroom now so we will be using it since Lebo took over
my room.
It's 7:00 pm we are going to eat dinner, I help mom in adding
more chairs to the table.
I sit next to Miyalo and Sage is on my right, everyone is here
except Lebo.
She walks in and sit in a chair right opposite me.
Ziyanda: So Lebo you will use a guestroom in th..
Lebo: No don't worry ma'am I will be using Nkanyezi's room
I already packed my clothes in his closet.
Mom looks at me.
Me: "I mean no disrespect but this girl has to go, she threw
Miyalo's stuff out of the closet, if she is here to abuse my
girlfriend then she needs to leave."
Ziyanda: What do you want us to do Nkanyezi? They said
you impregnated her.
Me: "But I told you it's not true I only had an encounter with
her after Miyah left and that surely wasn't two months ago
Mom come on."
Ziyanda: "But she's here now we have to wait and see."
Me: "I don't like this Mom I don't."
*
Three weeks living with Lebo, she has been trying to get my
attention but I'm not into her at all and I wish she can
understand and stop all this.
I come from gym room and step into the room we use with
Miyah, I find Lebo ontop of Miyah beating her up, I rush in
and pull Lebo from her.
Me:"What is wrong with you?"
I help Miyah get up.
Lebo: Whatever you said, She needs to go Nkanyezi today.
I look at Miyah, I can't believe i'm putting her through all
this, I know she loves me but being bullied because I couldn't
keep it in my pants just pains me.
Me: "Are you ok?"
Miyalo: I know she is the mother of your unborn ch..
Me: "You believe that Miyah? so you think I cheated on you
while you were here?"
Miyalo: She needs to leave me alone i'm not here for her Star,
I'm human I get fed up too but I don't want to fight with a
pregnant girl.
Me: "Please just be patient a little my love I will figure
something out and fix this."
Lebo: Did she call me 'shit'?
She rushes to Miyah and start slapping her, I pull her away
from her again.
Me: "You need to leave my room now Lebo."
I show her the door but she shakes her head.
Lebo: I'm not going anywhere Nkanyezi if anything we will
all share your bed all three of us.
I push her out of the door and lock it.
I see Miyalo flinching I look at her, she does it again.
Me: Are you ok?
Miyalo: I have light cramps that's all.
I nod.
She get up from the bed and I see blood on the bed, I widen
my eyes she looks back and see blood, she looks at me.
Miyalo: Maybe i'm on my periods.
But more blood comes running down her legs.
Me: "That can't be normal baby."
I see her sweating and I catch her before she collapse on the
floor.
Miyalo: I feel light headed Star.
I get up with her and put her on an empty bath tub and take
off her dress, she looks really weak.
Me: "Should I take you to the hospital."
Miyalo: I'm going to be fine.
She looks like she is in pain I take her out of the bath tub and
clean the blood first then fill it with warm water and help
her bath. Then carry her back to bed and start dressing her
up, I take her cosmetic bag and give it to her she takes out
the pad and put it on, this is not a big deal to me Iyana
started her periods when she was with Langa and I so we
know these things mom gave us instructions because Iyana
was just shocked and crying, we had to help her with
everything.
Miyah is still sweating even after that bath she took.
Me: "Please let me take you to the hospital Miyalo I can see
you are in pain please."
She nod and I carry her to the car passing Lebo in the
passage and I put her in the back and start driving, I keep
looking at her on the rear view mirror and the faces she
makes because of pain.
I help her inside Mom's office a Nurse comes in.
Nurse: Hello can I help you, your mom is still busy with a
patient for now.
Miyalo: Yes I am feeling a lot of pain on my abdomen and a
very heavy bleeding.
A nurse nods looking at her.
Nurse: Please take off your dress and put this gown and
sleep in that bed.
I help her and she sleeps facing up.
Me: "You are going to be fine."
The nurse comes back and starts doing an ultrasound.
She looks closely on the screen.
Nurse: Uhm Sisi you are having a miscarriage and looks like
you were 5-6 weeks pregnant.
I look at the Nurse confused then back at Miyah who is just
as confused.
Miyalo: I am having a what?
Nurse: Miscarriage you are losing the baby, causes of
miscarriage differs you..
Now my head is spinning I balance my hands on the bed
staring at Miyah who is still looking so confused and shocked
at the same time.
I see mom opening the door, I look at her.
Ziyanda: Nkanyezi, Miyah, what is going on why are you guys
here?
I continue to stare at her.
Me: "I told you mom that I don't want that girl at home now
Miyah lost my baby because of her and her fake pregnancy. I
told you."
Ziyanda: Miyalo was pregnant?
I turn to the nurse.
Me: "What is going to happen now?"
Mom stands next to the nurse and do the ultrasound herself
then I see her stepping back.
Ziyanda: What happened Nkanyezi?
Me: "Just tell me what will happen now?"
I have a lump in my throat and I feel like my stomach is
empty, like there is just a huge hole in it.
Ziyanda: Nkanyezi..
She looks like she wants to cry, I look at Miyah she has tears
in her eyes I rush next to her and hold her hand.
Mom inject her with something for the pain and pills to
speed it up, and take her to the ward.
She is asleep i'm sitting next to her bed holding her hand.
Ntsika and Lathi comes in.
Lathi: Hey Star how is she?
I shrug my shoulders and let go of Miyah's hand.
Me: "She will be fine I guess."
Lathi: And how about you bro how does this makes you feel?
Me: "I am angry at Lebo she did this I found her ontop of
Miyah beating her up."
Ntsika touches my shoulder standing next to me I look at
him.
Ntsika: I felt it but I didn't know what it was, she was
carrying our blood.
Miyah slowly opens her eyes, she moves on the bed, she is in
pain I hold her hand and Lathi stand on the other side of the
bed.
Lathi: Sorry Miyah.
Miyalo: I'm in so much pain, it hurts.
I can see a tear at the corner of her eyes, I get up and walk to
mom's office.
Me: "She is in pain can't you give her something."
Ziyanda: "It will be over soon we already injected her for
pain we can't give her more."
Me: "It will be over my baby will be completely gone, I get it."
Ziyanda: Nkanyezi come here.
She walks around the table, I stand infromt of her.
Ziyanda: Don't hold it in baby, I have been there, your
brother have been there, don't bottle it up, let it come out ok,
I am here.
I clench my jaws and sit on the chair placing my hands above
my head.
She stands behind me and put her hands on both my
shoulders I let the tears fall for a while then wipe them.
Ziyanda: I am your mother I told you guys to never act
strong to me, you can cry or tell me anything I am here for
you ok.
I nod.
Ziyanda: We will discharge her after two hours then we can
all go home.
I go back to the ward and find Ntsika alone.
Me: "Where are they?"
Ntsika: "Lathi went with her to the bathroom to help her
bath and change."
I nod and sit next to him.
Ntsika: "I know the pain of losing a child before even
meeting her."
Me: "I know, it hurts and the way I love Miyah I have seeing
her in pain. I wanted her to be a mother of my child and now
we find out she was pregnant but lost the baby, it's so
unfair."
Ntsika: The journalists are here again, look at this.
He shows me the video of journalist and they are right
outside the exit gate of this hospital.
Ntsika: Looks like they already have a picture of Miyah in
this hospital's bed.
Me: "There must be a nurse in here who leaked it mom
should look into it, they are breaking the rules, so we don't
have privvacy anymore in here?"
She comes out with Lathi supporting her, she has a good
heart my brother chose well.
*
Miyah doesn't want to look at me she has been avoiding eye
contact ever since she came out from the bathroom, I can't
even ask her how she is because she is just talking to Lathi.
Ziyanda: Miyalo we can go home now we are discharging
you.
She nods.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry for all this, we will talk at home ok.
She nods again.
I try helping her out of bed but she shakes her head and hold
on to Lathi's hand.
We follow them then she get in the back with Lathi on
Ntsika's car.
Ntsika: "Don't worry she will talk at home.
I nod and get in the car driving home.
I go to the room and find Miyah sleeping ontop of bed I cover
her and sleep next her.
She wakes up later and walk to the bathroom I sit up and
wait for her, she comes back and sit in bed.
Me: "I'm sorry Miyah please talk to me."
Miyalo: And say what?
Me: "Are you angry at me?"
Miyalo: No.
Me: Then why are you quiet you even went with Ntsika and
lathi and ignored me.
Miyalo: She will give you the baby Star maybe that's why I
miscarried mine, she is the only one who will give you a
baby. Please call Sage for me.
I'm trying to read her face but I don't see any emotions.
Me: "Are you happy that you lost my baby Miyah? I
remember once we had to rush out to get the morning after
pills because you didn't want a baby."
She just stares at me, I want to see emotions I want her to
cry or be angry not this.
Me: "Are you happy Miyah? You didn't want a baby right?"
She starts blinking I think i'm close.
Me: "Answer me Miyah, you did not want to have my baby?"
Her lips twitches and the eyes become glassy.
Miyalo: How dare you?..I know I said I didn't want to have a
baby yet but that didn't mean I wouldn't love her if she was
here already.
She touches her belly and the tears fall, so she is referring
our baby as a she.
Miyalo: I didn't even know I was pregnant and they tell me I
miscarried, what is that Nkanyezi?Tell me what the hell is
that?
Me: "It will be ok I guess it wasn't time yet."
Miyalo: It wasn't time? She kicked me on my stomach, If I
knew I was pregnant I wouldn't have let her beat me, I was
afraid that she will lose the baby but I ended up being the
one who lose it. She killed my baby while I was busy
worrying about hers.
Me: "I'm sorry Miyah this is all my fault i'm sorry my love."
Tears come out from her eyes running down her cheeks, I
hold her to my chest, I feel hands around me, It's my mother.
Ziyanda: Come baby.
She takes Miyah's hand and walk out with her, I follow them,
she makes food for her.
I see Lebo coming out of her room I get up and get hold of
her neck and squeeze it looking into her eyes, I watch her as
she gasps for air, I squeeze her even more, but dad pulls me
way from her.
Me: "You better leave this house today, and tell your family
the truth or else I will kill you just like you killed my baby."
I know she doesn't understand and I don't care.
Luyolo: What truth?
He ask looking at me then Lebo.
Me: "Tell him or I will squeeze it out of you."
Lebo: I'm not pregnant I lied, I'm sorry.
Luyolo: What?
Lebo: I'm sorry sir..
Luyolo: Get out of my house now.
She doesn't wait to be told twice she walks out dad can be
very intimidating, she left her stuff here.
*
LANGA

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
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I just got off the phone with mom and she told me that
Miyalo miscarried Nkanyezi's baby, I feel sorry for them, I
have seen their love and I think it's beautiful but dangerous
they love each other way too much but then it is what it is. I
have to go home on a weekend.
*
I am in my flat getting ready to go to school, I'm doing my
matric, I have my eyes on one particular teacher she is about
mom's age or younger i'm not sure because mom looks
younger than her age so yeah. I love them old, age is just a
number right?
I haven't made my move yet and she teaches history and i'm
in science class.
I walk in class it's still early and place my bag down then
walk out, I see her walking down the hallway I follow her.
Me: Good morning.
I say standing behind her with a smile she turns and look at
me.
Miss: Yes what can I do for you?
Me: I know your initials are NR so mind telling me your first
name?
She chuckles looking at me.
Miss: It's too early for this just go to your class, study, do
something and stop asking me irrelevant questions.
Me: My name is Langelihle.
Miss: Ok Langelihle now go to class I have to go.
Me: Please tell me your name you look like someone I know
so I will ask if she knows you.
I lie maintaining the smile on my face.
Miss: Nomfundo now bye.
I smile as she walks away her ass is so tight I could tap it, I
walk back to class.
During lunch I go to her office since she is one of the HODs. I
knock and she invites me in, I sit infront of her.
Nomfundo: Oh you again, don't you have work to do,I
assume you are in matric why do you seem to have a lot of
time in your hands?
Me: It's not like that, I just want to get to know you outside of
school ofcause.
Nomfundo: Why?
Me: I just like you that's all.
Nomfundo: Leave my office boy.
I walk around the table and turn her chair.
Nonfundo: What are you doing? Get out of my office right
now.
I raise my hands up in surrender then leave her office
laughing at the way she jumped when I turned that chair.
After school I wait in my car that dad bought earlier this year
for me. I see her blue car driving out of the school gate I
follow her after a while I flash the lights behind her but she
doesn't stop I flash them again she stops at the side and I
stop behind her and step out.
I knock on her window, she rolls it down.
Nomfundo: You must be kidding me.
Me: Look i'm sorry if i'm creeping you out ok but I really am
interested in getting to know you.
Nomfundo: You are a school boy what do you know about
that?
Me: I can't tell you what I know but I can definitely show
you.
I say gazing into her brown big eyes.
She chuckles and step out of her car and stand infront of me.
Nomfundo: Show me.
I smile looking at her.
Me: Really?
Does she really think i'll be scared and run.
Nomfundo: Yeah you want to act all matured with me right
then show me what you can do right now.
Is she daring me? I step closer, we are about the same height
because she is wearing heels, She stares at me, I move my
face closer she doesn't move she keeps her eyes on me, I
reach her lips then kiss her lower lip she push me.
Me: Why are you pushing me now didn't you say I should
show you?
Nomfundo: I didn't think you will actually do it you are just a
child.
So she thought she is intimidating me when she stared at me,
please not me.
I move closer again I grab her neck and kiss her but she
doesn't kiss me back I move one hand to her boobs she gasps
and move away from me, her eyes are all out, she get in her
car and drive away fast.
I laugh getting in my car and drive to my place.
*
I am in class, busy with calculations in maths I hear my name
being called in the to the HOD's office, Miss Dlamini.
I get to her office and sit down, she looks at me.
Me: You called for me.
Nomfundo: You do know that I can get you expelled from
this school for what you did right?
Me: You wouldn't.
Nomfundo: Really? And why not?
Me: Because you dared I kiss you and so I did how do you
think they will take that Miss?
She throws the book at me I dodge it.
Me: Why are you angry Mfundo you said I should show you.
Nomfundo: But I didn't say kiss me.
I shrug my shoulder and get up.
Nomfundo: We are not done here sit down.
Me: I am done bye.
I walk back to class and carry on with my work.
After school I go to my car and drive to my flat, when I stop
at the gate I notice her car behind me, I laugh I was hoping
for this but i didn't think it would actually happen. I step out
and go to her, she steps out too.
Me: Did you follow me here?
Nomfundo: Yes I did.
Me: Why?
Nomfundo: To tell you to stay away from me.
Me: That's what I am planning to do after you threatened to
get me expelled.
I leave her there and drive in, and take the keys to my flat I
see she is still standing at the gate.
Me: Why are you standing there? You can come in and drink
water if you want you look like you could use some of it.
Nomfundo: I don't need water.
Me: Ok then bye.
I walk away going to my room I hear her shouting my name
coming towards me.
I open my door and get in leaving it open behind me, and
take off my shirt and the vest. I hear the door closing I turn
she is leaning on the door, I go pour myself juice and gulp it
all down.
Me: You want juice?
She shakes her head.
Me: What do you want then?
Nomfundo: Uhm I, I want to know if you understood when I
told you to stay away from me.
Me: Yes I did.
Nomfundo: Are you going to stay away?
I ignore her and take off my pants left with my underwear.
I walk up to her.
Me: I want to get naked but you are here.
Nomfundo: but you're already naked.
Me: No when I'm alone I like to be free so I want to get naked
I want to take it off.
Nomfundo: No don't I'm leaving.
Me: Ok.
She continue to stand there, I look at her scanning her body
she has big boobs such a turn on.
I can feel my dick twitching, I take off my underwear she
gasps and look away.
Me: I told you I wanted to get naked.
She is still looking away.
Me: I can use it on you if you want.
Nomfundo: Use what?
Me: This.
I say jerking up my dick, I can see her crossing her legs.
I unbotton her shirt and pull out her boobs from her pink
lace bra.
Her nipples are so erect it's so sexy.
I start licking it, I feel her nails on my shoulder. I play with
them and she is beathing heavily.
I stop and look at her she has her lower lip in her teeth and
her eyes are so small.
I pull her hand to the couch I make her seat then I kneel
down and spread her legs, I pull her towards the edge of the
couch and lift her skirt up to her waist,I slowly remove her
panty and look at her pussy it's a bit wet.
I spit on my hand and move it up and down her pussy. She
moans out loud.
Me: Your pussy looks pretty tight, do you have a man?
She nods and shakes her head at the same time
I put my middle finger and then the second finger and start
thrusting looking at her, she is still biting her lip and holding
on to the couch I pull out my fingers and get up, she sit up
and my dick is on her face.
Me: Wanna have a taste?
I say winking at her, she nods I shove it in her mouth and
grab her hair, she gags I move in and out of her mouth then
pull out.
Me: I don't want to have your pussy yet, have you done anal
sex before?
Nomfundo: No no no..
She quickly get up, she bend over to take her panty I slap her
butt, she gasps.
Me: Are you scared of anal sex?
Nomfundo: No I just don't like it and this shouldn't have
happened, this was a mistake.
She wears her panty and fix her boobs and pull down her
skirt.
I watch her as she rushes out, I chuckle and go take a shower
then call Mom.
Me: Hey Pink.
Ziyanda: Langelihle I hope you are not cancelling coming
home tomorrow.
Me: No I'm not I just want to know how is Nkanyezi I know
how he can be when he is angry, did he kill Lebo already?
Ziyanda: Langelihle!
I laugh.
Me: I'm just asking mom?
Ziyanda: He almost killed her Langa.
Me: Serves her right, she killed our baby and lied that she is
pregnant, who does that?
Ziyanda: Lebo.
She starts laughing so hard.
Me: Mom what's up?
Ziyanda: Your dad had this girlfriend ok, her name was
Lesedi she faked pregnancy she came home with a very
huge belly and your father knew it that it's fake since she has
done it many times so he pulled out a silicone fake baby
bump.
She laughs really hard.
I hear dad shouting .
Luyolo: It wasn't funny Ziyanda!!but keep laughing wena..
Me: Dad you mean you shoot plastic huh?
Luyolo: yeLanga the bitch was crazy.
I laugh really hard dad can be hilarious if he wants.
Ziyanda: Really Luyolo!! Don't use the B word it's not cool.
Luyolo: But baby that whore was really crazy!!that is why we
gave her a show do you remember when we had se...
Ziyanda: No no no shhhh don't say it.
Me: I'm still here guys incase you haven't noticed, on the
line..
Luyolo: Come home tomorrow wena I will tell you more.
I laugh and I hear a knock on the door.
Ziyanda: Is that a knock? Langa I hope you are not
misbehaving there.
Me: Mom I'm not maybe it's my nextdoor.
Ziyanda: I hope it is because I would hate to beat your ass.
Me: When will you stop doing that we are old now.
Luyolo: I was almost 30 when Lukhele whooped my behind
so you have a long way to go champ.
The knock persist I get up.
Me: Bye guys I will see you tomorrow tell Iyana that i'm
coming to change that hideous hairstyle she has on that big
head.
Mom laughs and the phone cuts.
I open the door and i'm not suprised to see Miss Nomfundo
standing on my doorstep.
Nomfundo: Can I come in?
I move out of the way she gets in and I lock the door leaving
her sitting on the couch.
After a while she comes in my bedroom and find me in bed.
Me: Hello.
Nomfundo: Uhm I want to do this but once, you are way
younger than me.
Me: Ok but not once, I want your ass not your pussy for now.
Nomfundo: We can have sex but not anal sex, how do you
know all this?
Me: I've been old before I became young.
I laugh at my lame ass joke.
Me: Can you take off your clothes and get in bed.
She slowly take off her clothes and get in with her panty and
bra.
I take off her bra her boobs are really good so perky.
We start with the foreplay licking and sucking each other
then I turn her around ass up I tap her butt it jiggles a little.
Me: Fuck this is one fine ass.
I smack her butt a bit hard.
Nomfundo: Aah yes..
I insert my finger on her butt hole she moves.
Me: I will be gentle.
I start fingering her she moans, I lubricate my dick and I
position myself in her butthole.
I slowly slide it in and she grabs the sheets.
Me: Relax..
I slowly penetrate about four times, I can feel her body
relaxing I start moving a bit faster.
Me: Do you like that?
She screams so loud, I watch as my dick go in and out, I feel
her moving in my rhythm I stop.
Me: Shake that ass for me..
Damn and she does exactly that and her pussy starts
squirting and that drives me crazy, I grab her butt cheeks
and go all in moving faster then I pull out and cum all over
her ass.
Me: Shit you're good.
I get up and take my towel and give it to her she wipes
herself.
Me: I think i'ma go for your pussy on this round I didn't
know you're a squirter damn.
I spread her legs up and get inbetween them.
Me: You are clean right?
She nods, I start fucking her pussy it's so warm and tight it
keeps clenching on my dick.
Me: Aah yes damn..shit
I feel her trembling underneath and I go on pulling out and
splash my cum on her tummy this time.
We catch our breath facing up, I look at her.
Nomfundo: Do you usually do this to women older than you
is that why you have this nice place and that car you're
driving, you want money?
I chuckle.
Me: Be friends with google you will know I'm no golddigger
and I don't want your money I just like fucking older woman
that's all, not dating them though.
Nomfundo: Ok I should go then this is over right..
I shrug my shoulders.
Me: If you say so.
She wears her clothes and walk out.
*
NKANYEZI
*
Miyalo hasn't been herself ever since the miscarriage, she is
always with Sage or alone.
Today she asked if I could move out of the room and go back
to my room, she said she needed space.
I'm packing my stuff and she is sitting up in bed staring into
space.
I wave my hand at her she looks at me.
Me: "Don't shut me out, I know this is hard but please baby
let me in."
Miyalo: I'm fine Nkanyezi.
I nod my head and walk towards the door, but I turn and
walk back standing infront of her.
Me: "I really hope you are not thinking of leaving me."
Miyalo: I'm not.
Me: "I love you so much."
She nods and I walk out and go to my room, I find Langa
sitting in my bed, he get up and we side hug and I sit on a
chair.
Langa: "How are you holding up?"
Me: "I feel like this is drifting us apart, she told me she needs
space but atleast she said she won't leave."
Langa: "You are scared of losing her?"
Me: "I am and when I think about it my heart hurts so bad."
He nods.
Me" So how is life on your side."
Langa: "Life is good I have another mama."
Me: "I hope that won't get you in trouble Langa."
Langa: "It won't i'm carefull this time."
I will never understand why he always want to go for old
woman, I know Miyah is older than me but she is just 2 years
older but with Langa its usually people a bit younger than
mom but i'm not judging him at all I just don't get it.
*
I wake up at night when I feel cold hand holding me, I open
my eyes, it's Miyah and my chest is wet I look at her she has
tears in her eyes, I hold her tight into my arms, she cries for
maybe 5 minutes then I hear her breathing changing she has
fallen asleep.
I hope she heals soon I want my Miyah back,but maybe after
the ceremony she will finally let go and be at peace.
*
We drive home in KZN kaGumede, we find GreatGrandfather
waiting for us at the gate.
G.grandfather: Nkanyezi, NtsikaYomzi, Langelihle kudala
nginimele( I have been waiting for you)
Ntsika: Unjani mkhulu(How are you grandfather)
Grandfather: Iphi intokazi? woza ngikubone(where is the
girl? come so I can see you)
Miyalo comes foward and stand infront of him.
Grandfather: Uqine nje nkosazane ziyenzeka izinto ezifana
nalezi ungabi nemicabango emibi uyakudinga.(Be strong
princess these things happen don't have bad thoughts he
needs you.)
Miyalo nods.
We do a ceremony and we go with the tree branch and place
it next to where Isipho's was, (Ntsika's stillborn daughter)
Ntsika: Ulale kahle Gumede Phakathwayo( Rest in peace)
He looks at me, I look at Miyah.
Me: "Thandolwethu."(Our love)
I hold Miyah's hand tight, she is shaking with tears in her
eyes.
Ntsika: Rest in peace Thandolwethu and you Isipho my
princess.
We go back inside and they slaughter a goat and a chicken
and do all neccessary stuff then we drive back home it's
already late.
Miyah walk to her room and close the door, I go to my room,
I will give her time as long as she doesn't leave me.

WE ARE ONE(I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NKANYEZI
*
I'm going to check on things at the centre today. Yesterday I
found out we have over 20 children who has been signed up
still waiting to be fetched at their homes.
An idea that came into mind was that since the point is to
help those who are less priveledged we should provide
transport that will fetch them from their homes to the centre
and I'm proud to say it has been going very well, we have
three mini buses written INKANYEZI DISABILITY CENTER
and has a sign of a big star, I hired the drivers, so today I will
check if they fetched all the children that have been signed
up.
*
I step out of the shower and see Miyalo sitting in my bed.
Me: "Hello, you look good."
She is wearing a black dress and her make-up is on point.
Miyalo: "Thank you, I'm coming with you."
Me: "Are you sure?"
Miyalo: "I'm sure, at some point I will have to move on and
this is the first step right and besides I miss Sage I want to
see his progress."
I look at her.
Me: "You care about him huh?"
Miyalo: "A lot he is a very special boy and I love being
around him he has that peaceful aura around him just like
you."
I smile at her then peck her lips but she deepens the kiss and
I feel my bulge growing I step back.
Miyalo: "I took out clothes for you in that closet and I see
Lebo's clothes are still in there."
Me: "I'm sorry I haven't really had time to remove then."
Miyalo: "It's ok we will do it together later today I want my
space back and we need to go see Mama this weekend."
Me: "You want to go with me?"
Miyalo: "Yes so you won't think i'm leaving you."
I kiss her and get dressed.
*
Walking in at the center the kids run to us and hug me, they
always do this when I come in.
Sage slowly walks to his mommy amd they hug each other.
Me: "What about me Sage?"
Sage: "I was still going to hug you."
He comes and hug me too and go back to other kids.
Me: "You want to take over the class today baby?"
Miyalo: "uhm but I'm not as good as you, I don't know how to
teach sign language."
Me: "Teach them the exact same way you did on those videos
you watched, I will take half of them to a computer room so
they will learn about a QUICK-EYE which will make them be
able to read faster in this case it's all about concentration on
how quick can your eyes move I want them to be able to
read lips."
Miyalo: "Ok I will take the other half."
I go to Vuyelwa's office the one who is the teacher of sign
language.
I knock and get in.
Me: "How are you Vuyi?"
Vuyi: "Hey Nkanyezi."
She comes around the table with a huge smile on her face
and hugs me tight, I feel really awkward but I hug her back
then step back.
Me: "I'm here to tell you that my girlfriend Miyalo will be
helping you here and there with the kids."
Vuyi: "Your girlfriend? Is she qualified to do this?"
Me: "No and I'm not but I do it and they understand."
She nods and walk back to her chair.
Me: "I will be in a computer room if you need anything."
Vuyi: "Anything?"
I just stare at her.
Me: "I don't mean to sound rude but if you are trying to flirt
with me it won't work but can get you fired instead."
Vuyi: "I wasn't flirting I'm way older than you Nkanyezi."
I shrug my shoulders and walk out.
And start doing my work with these smart kids I have here.
I look at my watch, it's their lunch time which means we
have been at it for almost 2 hours I don't want to pressure
them so this will be it on a computer we will go on
tomorrow.
Me: "We are done here for the day now let's go eat."
They get up from their chairs and run out.
I walk out and I find Miyalo's kids already sitting down
eating and she is smilling looking at them, I stand infront of
her.
Me: "So how was it?"
Miyalo: "It was good I enjoyed it so much and they are so
smart they make things so easy."
Me: "Thank you for being here and willing to do this with
me."
Miyalo: "There's no where else i'd rather be but here with
you."
My heartbeats faster after she said that.
Me: "Can we go to my office a little I want to show you
something."
The caregivers are here to watch the kids.
We walk in the office and I turn the keys and look at her.
Miyalo: What is it that you want to show me Star?
I get closer to her and start touching her hips, we haven't
done it for a while now.
We kiss each other and i make her sit on the table and part
her legs a bit.
Miyalo: what are you doing?
She ask smilling.
Me: "We are having proffessional sex baby."
She laughs really hard, I get her up and turn her around
making her bend over the table, I take off her panty and we
have a mind blowing sex, where we finished it with me
sitting on my chair and her riding me so good.
I make her sit on the table opening her legs and wipe her she
starts playing with her clit.
Me: "We have to go baby."
Miyalo: "Just one more round baby."
I give her what she wants and we walk out but find Vuyi
standing at the door.
Miyalo: Can we help you? And how long have you been
standing here and why?
Vuyi: I just wanted to talk to Star.
Miyalo: It's Nkanyezi and what was it about?
Vuyi: Sis you just arrived today and you are already a
spokesperson?
Me: "Hey just tell us what you wanted to talk about."
Vuyi: "It can wait untill tomorrow."
Then she walks away, Miyah is angry I can tell.
Me: "Are you ok?"
Miyalo: " I'm fine let's go get Sage and go home."
We all go home.
*
Miyalo and I are in a good space she is amazing but want us
to have sex every chance we get but i'm not complaining she
gives it to me good , makes me feel like I own it.
I just took a shower and I find her sitting in bed and crying I
get closer she looks up her eyes are red.
Me: "What is wrong baby?"
She continues to cry and I look next to her she has about 3
pregnancy tests next to her, I look at her.
Miyalo: I'm not pregnant again Star, I keep checking but
nothing is happening.
She cries more, I didn't know we were trying for another
baby.
Me: "What is going on?"
Miyalo: I want a baby, she killed my baby now I can't fall
pregnant again.
Me: "Are you trying to replace the baby that we lost Miyah?"
She wipes her tears and stare at me.
Miyalo: I want to have a baby."
Me: "But don't you think it's too soon we just lost Thando.."
Miyalo: I want a baby Star and if you can't give me that then I
will...
Me: "You will what?"
I step closer to her she stares at me.
Me: "So you want to cheat on me ?"
I pull her up and grab her neck not too tight looking straight
in her eyes she slap me I let go. We start fighting and I throw
her in bed.
Me: "I will kill you Miyah."
Miyalo: Go to hell you hear me.
She get up and stand infront of me she looks so angry, I
roughly kiss her and take off her clothes, she take off the
towel on my waist and I pin her in bed and roughly pound on
her, we switch position now she is ontop bouncing on me so
fast I cum like crazy my whole body is shaking.
I get up and walk to the bathroom and clean myself up she
walks in and sit on the toilet seat looking at me. I don't dare
look her way.
She follows me to bed.
Miyalo: I'm sorry your face is bruised.
I nod.
Miyalo: I will never cheat on you Star.
Me: "But that's what you were going to say right? if I don't
get you pregnant you will leave me or you will find someone
who will."
Miyalo: No I didn't mean what I said Star, if you don't want a
baby it's fine I can't fall pregnant anyway it's been weeks
since we started having sex again but nothing.
She get in bed and cover her head, I think she hasn't healed
and accepted that we lost the baby now she wants to fall
pregnant again, maybe I should tell mom about this.
*
LANGA
*
I am at home for the weekend again and Nomfundo has been
avoiding me at all cost eversince we had sex at my place.
So i'm chillimg with mom at the lounge and i'm massaging
her feet, she has her eyes closed, I get startled a bit when she
release a moan and open her eyes.
She moans again and she looks in pain now, I look at her.
Ziyanda: I think i'm in labour Langa go call your dad.
Me: He is not here..
Ziyanda: Then you need to take me to the hospital.
Me: And why are you so calm shouldn't it hurt?
Ziyanda: It does but it's still early I feel a bit of pain and it
comes and goes.
I stare at her she opens her eyes.
Ziyanda: Did you
hear what I said Langelihle, I said take me to the hospital
child.
I get up and take the car keys, I find her still sitting on the
couch.
Me: Can you walk?
Ziyanda: I think so.
She slowly get up balancing her hands on the couch I swifly
scoop her up and take her to the car.
She calls dad and put him on speaker.
Luyolo: Yes baby.
Ziyanda: We are on our way to the hospital I don't
understand my appointment for C-section is scheduled for
next week.
Luyolo: Ok I will meet you guys there, the princess wanted to
come sooner I guess.
They take her in and I sit on the benches there and I feel a
hand on my shoulder it's dad.
Luyolo: Which way did they take her?
Me: That way I think the theatre.
He rushes there, I wish I was in there too holding her hand, I
shake my head and I see Nia going to Mom's office I follow
her.
Me: Hey Nia.
Nia: You still call me by my name Langa?
Me: It's just that it suits you.
Nia: Is it?
Me: Yeah mind if we have a quickie just this once.
She looks at me stunned.
Me: I promise I won't be long.
She knows I have hots for her I have been hinting it
everytime I see her.
Nia: You are just a child, my bosses child at that.
Me: But who will tell her? You? because I know I won't.
I go to her and look into her eyes she wants it just doesn't
have guts to admit it most woman like younger boys.
I go and lock the office, then we have a very quick session, I
had to cover her mouth because of her screams. I fix myself
up while she wipes herself looking at me.
Nia: You are a naughty kid aren't you.
I smile looking at her.
Me: That was good Nia thanks hey.
Nia: Can I have your number for you know, when I need you..
Me: You can ask for it from Pink.
I walk out of the office and go buy something to eat for my
family I know they will all be here when Pink has delivered
the baby.
I go back to the hospital and I find everyone here as I
predicted.
We go to mom's office I hope they don't smell the sex I just
had in here but the aircons and windows are always opened
in here.
Nkanyezi: "So you brought mom here?"
Me: "Yes."
Ntsika: "Was she in pain?"
Me: "Just a little she is strong even if she was she wouldn't
have let me see it you know how she is."
Ntsika: "Yeah we know."
We start eating and finally dad comes in he look so happy,
how I wish to be him, I mean like him, and find a woman
who loves me like Pink loves him and give me kids.
Luyolo: "Finally I am a father of two princesses and many big
heaeded boys.
Nkanyezi: "Dad that is just flat out rude our heads are not
that big."
Luyolo: "Go argue with your ancestors boy."
We laugh at him.
Me: "How is she?"
Luyolo: She is fine and she gave birth to a pink baby girl, are
you thinking what I'm thinking.
Ntsika: Pink the second?
Luyolo: You got that right boy.
They fist bump.
My mind is not here, I'm thinking about this love everyone
has except me, Pink has Luyolo, Ntsika and Lathi, Nkanyezi's
dangerous love with Miyalo and my aunts and uncles.
Maybe my brothers can help me remove this demon I have
inside of me, I hate it but they can't help me if they don't
know what is it that I feel which is partly the reason why I'm
dating woman who are older than me, dad might just kill me
and I might lose them forever this time and i'm not ready for
that, maybe I should go speak to greatgrandfather about it
and stay away for a while.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
LANGA
*
Pink is back at home and everyone is happy to see her and
the princess they are fighting over her on who gets to hold
her first. I look at her as she smiles and slowly sit on the
couch with dad helping her, I can't stop staring at her she is
just too beautiful.
I see her waving at me I blink a couple of times then look at
her.
Ziyanda: You have been staring at me for a while now, do
you have something on your mind that you want to tell me?
Me: uhm no no there's nothing on my mind.
Ziyanda: Ok don't you want to hold your baby sister.
Ntsika stands next to me with her, I take her and look at her
and quickly give her back to him.
And my eyes meet with Pink's she look dissapointed. I get up
and go to the bathroom in my room and wash my face, I look
at myself in the mirror I'm scared of what i'm feeling in my
heart.
I hear the door opening I go back to my room I find Ntsika
there.
Me: What's up brother.
Ntsika: What's up with you is there anything bothering you?
Me: No.
Ntsika: I really wish you can talk to us like we used to
growing up, you are not like how you used to be with us?
What did we do to you so we could apologise and things will
go back to normal.
I sit in bed and wipe my face.
Me: You didn't do anything Ntsika, something is wrong with
me and it's scaring me.
Ntsika: What is it brother tell me I will find a way to help
you.
Me: It's too deep and if I say it, it will destroy this family.
He stands infront of me.
Ntsika: We have been through alot Langa and nothing has
destroyed us before because we live by the motto WE ARE
ONE, please open up to me so we can find a solution.
Me: I can't, I..
Ntsika: Are you in some kind of trouble?
Me: No..look i'm going to be fine don't worry.
Ntsika: Did you see how dissapointed Pink was when you
couldn't hold the baby for even a second.
Me: I just needed the bathroom that's all.
He nods looking at me then he walks out I follow him and
stand next to Auntie Mbali who is holding the baby.
Me: Can I hold her?
She gives her to me and I look at her then look at Pink she is
looking at me my heart skips a beat I look back at the baby.
I can't be here, I'm going back to my flat today, there is a
knock on the door I open the door and I see pink stamding at
the door she is in her gown.
Ziyanda: Can I get in?
Me: Yeah yeah come in.
She comes in and sit on the bed.
Me: Are you in pain?
Ziyanda: Yes a bit but i will be fine.
I nod my head.
Ziyanda: So what is happening with you?
Me: uhm it's just school work it's piling up a bit so i'm
stressed about that.
Ziyanda: You need like, a tutor maybe?
Me: No I will be fine don't worry.
Ziyanda: Ok goodnight then.
She get up too fast then sit back on bed.
Ziyanda: Ouch..
I quickly go stand infront of her and touch her shoulders.
Me: Are you ok bab..Mom?
Ziyanda: Yeah i'm good I think I got up a bit fast.
The door open and dad comes in I move away from her.
Luyolo: Hey I have been searching for you Iviwe is crying.
Ziyanda: She is up already?
Luyolo: Yeah come let me help you, goodnight boy.
Me: Goodnight.
He helps mom up and they leave the room Iviwe is the name
dad named their princess he said his prayers has been
answered(Iviwe imithandazo) he wanted mom to give him
one last baby and was hoping for a girl.
They love each other and dad can lay his own life for Pink,
we witnessed their love growing up we looked up to them
and we always admired how he always put her first and
make sure she is happy, we wanted to be like him but I didn't
think it will come to me actually falling inlove with Pink,
There I said i'm inlove with Ziyanda Lukhele it started when
I heard she is not my biological mother I want to switch my
feelings off but I can't I have been sleeping around with
women her age thinking I will get her off my mind it's not
working.
*
We are eating dinner and everyone is in the mood, Auntie
Mbali and Sunny are here so you know how loud it gets
when they are here.
I am just concentrating on my plate and I hear screams and
the glasses breaking I look and see Nkanyezi convulsing on
the floor and Miyah is kneeling next to him crying.
Ntsika: Calm down Miyah he is going to be fine.
He says kneeling next to her, Nkanyezi stops shaking and
Ntsika help him sit up Miyah hugs him for dear life.
Nkanyezi is staring at me with his eyes squinted, I stare back
at him.
Nkanyezi: "Don't do it, he won't spare your life."
Ziyanda: Langa, what is he talking about?
I move my eyes around and they stop at dad he looks at me
like he is searching for something.
Ntsika: "Are you ok?"
Nkanyezi: "My head hurts."
Ntsika: "You hit the floor pretty bad, I will go get pills for
you, but do you remember what it was all about?"
Nkanyezi: "No not really I only saw Langa's face but I don't
know why."
Ziyanda: Langelihle!
I look at her and get up walking away leaving her calling my
name, and I get ideas in my head on how I would love her
screaming my name in pleasure.
I get in my room and pace around and the door opens
Nkanyezi and Ntsika comes in and close the door.
Nkanyezi: "That was a warning that whatever is in your head
might get you killed so please don't do it.
Me: I have to go to KZN today to see Greatgrandfather.
Ntsika: Tell us what is going on Langa we are your brothers
if you are in trouble let us know.
I take my back pack and pack a few stuffs then take my car
keys.
Nkanyezi: "Langa stop please."
I walk out and drive away.
*
NKANYEZI
*
After that episode I had at the dinner table and Langa
walking out on us like that I feel like something bad is going
to happen to one of us in this family.
I go to my room and find Miyah sitting in bed, she jumps and
hug me tight then we sit down.
Miyalo: I was so scared Star what was that?
Me: "It happens if there is danger or someone is about to do
something wrong and it comes as a warning but sometimes I
don't remember anything after."
Miyalo: "I thought you are dying."
Me: "And leave you behind? never."
I say kissing her forehead then we get in bed and sleep.
*
It's been a week since we last saw Langa and he is not
replying to my texts or picking up his phone, We are all
worried about him, we told mom that he went to
greatgrandfather but we don't know if he is really there.
We drive to the centre and start doing our work which is
teaching kids how to communicate.
I'm in my office and Miyah comes in rushing.
Miyalo: Your dad was calling me, he said we should go back
home right now.
I look at my phone and I see his text.
Luyolo: *Take Sage and Miyalo and come back home now.*
Me: "Did he say what is this all about."
Miyalo: No but it sounded really urgent let's go, Sage is
already in the car."
I get up and we rush out and she drives home.
We get in and I find everything upside down, Dad is angry he
is throwing stuffs everywhere, Lathi is standing behind
Ntsika she looks terrified.
Uncle Kwanele and Mandisi rush in and look around.
Miyah is holding me too tight in my arm.
Kwanele: What is it? was this house robbed?
I can see dad trying to talk but he is too angry the words
won't come out, he just sit down with his hands on his face, I
get closer to him and remove his hands.
Me: "What is going on dad?"
Luyolo: Someone took my wife and Iviwe.
I see everyone in the house having their eyes popped out.
Luyolo: Ziyanda sent me to the store when I came back I
couldn't find them anywhere.
Kwanele: What do you mean you couldn't find them? Luyolo
where is my sister?
I go to Miyah and kiss her forehead.
Me: "Take Lathi and the kids to our room ok, I love you."
She nods and go to Lathi who is still standing in the same
position even though Ntsika is not near her anymore. She
takes Lathi's hand and Sage then walk to my room.
I sit down and watch dad literally crying.
Mandisi: Who could have done this and why? I thought we
didn't have anymore enemies out there.
Luyolo: This keeps happening over and over again, when will
it stop?
I look up and find Ntsika looking at me his eyes are so red.
Me: "Are you ok."
Ntsika: I think Langa took mom.
Kwanele: Langa? Took her to where?
Ntsika: I think Nkanyezi's warning was directed to Langa
that he shouldn't do it because dad won't spare his life.
Dad quickly get up looking at him.
Luyolo: Why would your brother take my wife Pillar?
Ntsika: I don't know dad this is the only logical explanation I
have right now and we don't know where Langa is, he said
he is going to KZN but he is not picking up any of our calls
and he was acting strange when he left here.
Kwanele: What I don't get is why would he do that, do you
guys think he had problems with maybe gambling? maybe
he did this to get money.
Ntsika: Maybe it's not him maybe i'm wrong let me try
calling him.
*
ZIYANDA
*
I can't believe this is happening, my own son, the baby I took
care of from when he was just an infant.
I'm sitting on a chair with my left hand handcuffed on the
steel bed next to me where Iviwe is sleeping.
I remember asking Luyolo to go to the stores then Langa
came in and just hugged me next thing he put the cloth on
my nose and it was lights out then I wake up on a chair with
Langa putting this handcuff and my baby sleeping.
Langa looks like a crazy lunatic I don't know this boy i've
never seen him before, he is moving around the room and
has a gun in his hand.
Me: Langelihle.
He look up at me.
Me: Why are you doing this? Do you need money? I can give
it to you, let's just go home.
Langa: I want you!
I'm confused by that.
Me: But i'm here, I have always been here for you.
Langa: I love you.
Me: of course you do I'm your mother.
Langa: You don't get it do you? I am inlove with you Ziyanda!
He shouts and i'm stunned, maybe I should go educate
myself, what is the meaning of "inlove" how is he inlove with
me?
Me: Wh..what do you mean..
Langa: I said i'm inlove with you.
Me: Langa stop being crazy and take me back home right
now or your dad will kill you for this.
He stands infront of me and bring his face closer I feel his
lips on my, I slap him with my free hand.
Me: What the fuck do you think you're doing?
He pace around the room again and stare at him I don't
recognise this person infront of me and I refuse to believe
this is my baby.
Langa: Please just let me have you, I will make you happy I
promise, just leave dad and we can relocate and raise Iviwe
together I will treat her like my own because I love you.
Me: I raised you, fed you, cleaned your mess up and today
you think you're man enough to stand right infront of me
and tell me to leave my husband for you, who do you think
you are Langelihle huh, answer me! Who the fuck do you
think you are!
I shout causing Iviwe to wail loud, he rushes to her and hush
me rocking her back and forth she stops crying.
Langa: See? I'm so good with her, she just fell asleep again
baby.
Me: Luyolo will kill you.
Langa: If he finds me..
Me: What is this place Langa?
Langa: A place where no one will ever find us it's just us
three, you will learn to love me and we will live happily.
Me: I have always loved you like my son and have forgiven
you countless times for your mistakes but this, I will never
forgive and Luyolo won't spare your life..
As I say that I remember those are the words Nkanyezi said
to him, so he was warning him about this but he went on and
did it.
Me: He will find me and kill you.
Langa: And I will kill his little princess if he comes anywhere
near this building.
Me: What happened to you? Where is my sweet little boy?
I ask as tears flows down my face.
Langa: I just want you, I tried sleeping with older women to
forget about you but it's not working I want you.
Iviwe starts crying again.
Me: Please her to me she must be hungry.
He place the baby on my lap.
Me: Untie me Langa.
He unties me and I breastfeed Viwe, he is sitting on a chair
just staring at me, when I look at him my past with his father
and brother comes crashing in my mind, I feel myself
shaking, he gets up and take the baby back to bed.
Langa: I will take you back home and I will leave for good.
Me: You will?
Langa: Yes, tell my brothers i'm sorry, look Pink I tried to
stop these feelings I really did, I feel like i'm possessed by
this demon, it wants you and only you, I have to go, I will
leave you at my flat then you will call dad after an hour ok.
I nod, he takes the baby and give me his hand and I just look
at it.
Langa: Please hold my hand.
I hold it and we walk to the door.
Langa: Open it.
I open and we walk to the car, it's really dark and chilly
outside i'm just wearing tank top and sweatpants.
*
In his flat he starts packing up his clothes to a suitcase and
i'm sitting in bed looking at him.
He comes and stand infront of me, I see tears in his eyes.
Langa: I'm sorry I don't know what is going on with me, I'm
sorry.
He kneels infront of me and cry, I'm tempted to hold him but
I remember this is not the boy I raised, this is a man who
said he is inlove with me.
He gets up and wipe his tears, he takes his suitcase and a
bag.
Langa: Bye Pink..
He walks out and I quickly take the phone he left on the
bedside and call luyolo.
Luyolo: Hello.
Me: Yolo.
Luyolo: Ziyanda! baby where are you guys ?
Me: Langa's flat please come fetch us.
Luyolo: But we were there an hour ago baby no one was
there.
Me: I know but i'm here Luyolo..
Luyolo: Ok baby i'm coming right now.
I sigh and take Iviwe and hold him closer to my chest.
Luyolo comes in followed by my brothers then Ntsika and
Nkanyezi.
He rushes to me and take Iviwe holding me with his other
hand.
Kwanele: Where is Langa?
Me: He is gone he is the one who took us from home.
Ntsika: Did he say why?
Me: He.. He said he is inlove with me.
I'm ashamed to even say it out loud.
Luyolo stares at me like I just lost my mind.
Me: He packed his bags and left.
I see Ntsika and Nkanyezi looking at each other.
Me: I'm sorry boys but he said he is leaving for good.
I can see Luyolo is angry.
Luyolo: I will find him and I will kill him..

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
*
I have been driving for hours I don't know where i'm going
and I never went to greatgrandfather to seek for help I was
scared, I want to be far away from here yet my heart still
wants only Ziyanda.
I know dad will find me and kill me so there's no point
running.
I stop the car in the middle of nowhere there is a forest just
nearby, I walk out of the car and go in the forest, I don't care
if there are any wild animals I don't deserve to live anyway.
I walk to the centre of the forest and sit down.
Me: Tell me what do you want from my mother?
It's too quiet.
Me: She is my mother for God's sake why did you have to use
me for your evil ways, I don't even know you.
The silence is too loud.
Me: You are turning me into a monster, don't you want me to
be happy like my brothers? please leave me alone, leave me
alone!
I sit down and sob, I can feel him, he is so close yet I can't see
him.
Me: You are hurting my mother even when you are dead and
you are using me for your evil deeds.
Voice: I loved her but she left me for him, only you deserve
her now since I can live within you, you are my blood.
I look around, that voice sounds exactly like mine, it's like
i'm listening to myself talking.
Voice: Jaa we have similar voices, WE ARE ONE me and you
and we want the same thing, Ziyanda she belongs to the
Gumede clan and only you can make that happen if you stop
being this weak, we had her but you let her go and you will
pay for that.
In my head I start seeing a younger version of Pink naked
and she is having sex with a man that looks exactly like my
brothers.
I shake my head I don't want to see this.
Voice: That was the first time we made love, I was taking her
virginity that day.
Me: Please stop I don't want to see this, Stop.
Voice: You have to, I want you to see what you are missing.
Me: Leave me alone!!
I scream kneeling down.
*
I spent the whole night feeling cold and hungry. I sit on my
butt, knees on my chest, I still feel his heavy presence around
me.
Voice: Langelihle.
I don't answer.
Voice: Doesn't it bother you that you guys missed out on a
chance to be raised by your father because of Ziyanda's
husband.
I feel footsteps I quickly get up and look behind me, it's dad
he has a gun in his hand and he looks very angry, I raise my
hands up.
Luyolo: You wanted to sleep with my wife Langa? You
kidnapped my wife and kid, My wife!!!
He comes closer pointing a gun in my head.
Langa: Dad i'm sorry..
Luyolo: You are calling me dad after what you did, and I can't
believe that even after everything Ziyanda wants me to leave
you alone, she begged me not to kill you but I can't..I loved
you guys like my own blood but you go and do this, hurting
my wife AGAIN Langa.
He cocks the gun, I shut my eyes just waiting for the bullet to
hit my brains.
Ntsika: Baba!(dad)Wait.. stop don't kill him!
I open my eyes dad has tears in his face a gun is still pointed
at me, I see my brothers running towards us they are with a
woman wearing white. They all stand behind dad.
Ntsika: Please don't kill him, he wasn't himself, this woman
can help him please just..please don't kill him, we will let him
go far away after this please..
I see him moving the gun away from my face, I exhale.
The woman in white comes closer to me.
Her: What do you want?
A voice speaks behind me.
Voice: I want what was taken away from me by this man, he
took my woman and my kids then killed me and my brother
in cold blood.
Ntsika: Who are you?
Voice: I thought you are the smartest Ntsika, you dissapoint
me, I am Misokuhle Gumede and your mother belongs to me.
Ntsika: Can't you just stay dead and leave us alone, we don't
know you!you have hurt our mother countless times, why do
you keep hurting her, and this time with the son she raised,
Why?
Voice: She betrayed me, slept around and had me killed!
His voice enchors and I flinch.
Ntsika: Lindile cass him out of here he needs to go to hell
where he belongs.
The lady they came with starts praying and I feel myself
burning up I scream.
Ntsika attempt to touch me but the lady shouts.
Lindile: Don't come into contact with him until we are sure
they are out of him, The force within him is evil, the heart of
a dangerous heartless twin, he wants your mother dead but
the one who is talking is inlove.
She continue to pray and I feel like strangling her the pain I
feel is excrutiating, I go on my knees and look at dad.
Me: Please just kill me, this pain is too much for me.
Luyolo: I'm sorry boy but she is helping you, you will be fine
ok just hold on.
It's been over an hour the groans in my head and the
burning in my body, I feel myself losing conciousness I fall
on the ground.
*
I wake up and sit up looking around I see everyone sitting
down we are still in the forest.
Lindile: He is now delivered from evil, he is himself again.
Dad stands up and kneel infront of me.
Luyolo: Are you ok?
I nod, I am even afraid of looking at him or my brothers.
He helps me up and my brothers comes close.
They take turns hugging me.
Me: I'm leaving tell mom I said i'm sorry and I love her.
Luyolo: You fought what was inside of you and that proved
to me how much you love your mother, you saved her, you
may not see it that way but you did, two dead souls were
inside of you and they wanted to use you to hurt your mom
but you fought it, the fact that you brought her back
unharmed means you saved her, and i'm proud of you.
Me: I'm sorry I keep doing this to you guys, I'm leaving..
I turn around and run off, I step into a car and drive away.
*
NTSIKA
*
We drive back home and i'm feeling down after what
happened at that forest and we are going back home with Sis
Lindile because it's late, I will take her back home tomorrow,
greatgrandfather is the one who gave me her address he said
she will be able to help my brother and she did.
We are driving behind dad.
We get home and we find Pink pacing around the room.
She sees us and rush to stand infront of dad.
Ziyanda: Tell me you didn't kill him Luyolo.
Dad just looks at her, he looks drained, we all are.
Ziyanda: Luyolo!
Luyolo: I didn't.
His voice is low, mom hugs him tight crying on his chest.
After a while she steps back and wipe her tears. She look
behind me and Nkanyezi.
Ziyanda: Lindile?
Lindile: Ziyanda?
They both look confused mom steps closer to her, Lindile is
already in tears.
Ziyanda: I didn't think I will ever see you again.
Lindile: I thought by now I would be dead and buried, so
these are your kids? Misokuhle? I saw the resemblence I was
so shocked.
Mom nods.
Ziyanda: Last time I saw you, were...
Lindile: Yes I thought I was dying but the mercy of God was
upon me, I am living with HIV and my daughter is disabled
but God is good.
Ziyanda: Oh i'm sorry to hear that, So how did you meet my
sons?
Me: Grandfather said she can help Langa, he was possessed
by those evil Gumede twins.
Ziyanda: So he is ok now? Where is he Ntsika?
I look down.
Ziyanda: "Nkanyezi?"
Nkanyezi: "He took off and we don't know where he is
maybe he just needs time away."
She nods.
Ntsika: So mom can Sis Lindile sleep here I will take her back
home tomorrow.
Ziyanda: Yes it's fine.
Lindile: You still have a good heart, I'm sorry for the things I
did to you, I betrayed you and broke our friendship.
Ziyanda: It's ok its all in the past now. Who is taking care of
your child now that you're here?
Lindile: I leave her with my neighbour when I do the work of
the Lord.
We move to the couch and sit, Mom makes us tea, while she
catch up with her old friend.
Nkanyezi: "Sis Lindile how is your daughter disabled?"
Me: Sis Lindile he is asking what is the nature of your
daughter's disability?
Lindile: She is on a wheelchair, she can't walk.
Nkanyezi: "If you don't mind, you can enroll her to our
center I'm planning on expanding and take all kinds of
disabled children so I want to start now."
I tell her what Nkanyezi is saying and she looks at Ziyanda
mom smiles.
Lindile: I have seen you on TV you are the owner of
INKANYEZI DISABILITY CENTER wow I was so caught up in
my work that I didn't even notice, what you are doing is
great the Lord will bless you abundantly.
Nkanyezi: "Thank you."
Lindile: I would love to thank you so much I'm sure she can
learn alot from you, I heard you teach them yourself with
your wife sometimes.
Nkanyezi smiles.
Nkanyezi: "She is not my wife yet."
Lindile: oh i'm sorry my bad, Your kids are just like you
Ziyanda so kind-hearted even the one I was helping today he
is a good boy you can tell.
Mom look down.
Nkanyezi: "We will drive you tomorrow so we can meet your
daughter."
Lindile: Thank you so much, thank you.
Nkanyezi and I get up and walk to his room where the ladies
are.
Ntsika: Sanibona( greetings)
Lathi get up and hugs me kissing my cheek, I smile at her.
We look at my brother and Miyalo communicating so well in
a sign language, I wish my brother can one day find love and
come back home.

WE ARE ONE( I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
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Yesterday I slept in my car because I didn't know where to
go, I drove for almost three hours not taking a break, I don't
know where I am, so I just park the car on the side of the
road and switch on my phone, it immediately indicates two
messages, I view the first one it's capitec indicating alot of
money in my account.
I view the second message it's from dad.
Luyolo: *I sent your allowance earlier and doubled it
because you might need a place to stay and essentials, we
are not abondoning you Langa, come home when you are
ready and we will be a family again. Send a text if you need
anything ok.*
I look up to stop the tears from falling, they still care about
me.
I get in the car again and drive, I get to Ixopo and stop at the
Garage and step out of the car, it's been a very long drive.
A petrol attendant comes to me.
Me: Hello can I get a full tank please.
Him: Sure.
I walk inside and get a pie and an energy drink then walk out
and pay.
Me: uh man can you tell me if there are any places I can rent
out here, I need a place to crash for a while.
Him: Uhm please give me a minute I'm coming.
He walk in and comes back and gives me my change and slip.
He looks at me for at least three seconds then blinks.
Him: You said you needed a place to stay?
Me: Yes for a while nothing fancy.
Him: Uhm you can stay at home, there is a backroom if you
don't mind though.
Me: Anything is fine as long as there is a roof over my head.
Him: Do you mind waiting for me till I knock off, It's just a
few minutes, I knock off at 4:oopm.
I look at the time it's 3:47pm.
I nod.
Me: It's ok, I will park my car there and wait for you.
I point at the parking spot just close to us.
He nods and attend other cars, I step into the car and eat my
pie.
A few minutes later he knocks on my window I roll it down.
Me: You can get in.
I point next to me with my head.
Him: I didn't even catch your name yet i'm prepared to let
you in my house huh.
He says smiling, I chuckle.
Me: I could be a serial killer..
Him: No ways you look too good to be a serial killer.
I chuckle once again.
Me: My name is Langelihle.
Him: Wow I thought you have those typical coloured boys's
names.
Me: No I am Langa a Zulu,Xhosa, Coloured man, all in one.
He laughs.
Me: So what's your name?
Him: Sifiso Langa isn't it funny that your name is Langa and
my surname Langa.
Me: Are you for real?
Sifiso: It's crazy right? We are going to Morning Side, it's not
far from here.
Me: I don't know this place, never been here so you will tell
me all the turns.
Sifiso: Sure.
We converse about general stuff, I gathered he is 29 years
old and I know he works as a petrol attendant and has a
baby girl, she is five years.
Sifiso: We are here.
We stop at a white house it is really beautiful not too big and
not too small either.
He step out and open the gate then I drive in and I step out
too.
Sifiso: We have to go to my mother and tell her about you.
I nod and lock the car following him.
He knocks i look at him he smiles, he likes smiling a lot.
Sifiso: She doesn't like anyone barging in her house doesn't
matter who it is.
I laugh and he knocks again and a voice shouts "come in"
then he opens the door.
Sifiso: Sawubona Ma( Hello mother.
A dark skinned thick woman probably in her early 50s get
up from the couch.
Ma: Sifiso you are back early today, and you came back with
a friend?
She says looking at me.
Sifiso: Ay..Ma this is Langelihle we met today he needs a
place to stay so I was hoping you could let him crash in the
backroom.
Ma: Uuh why would I? You hardly even know him, Langelihle
where is home?
Me: I'm from Durban Ma and I promise i won't give you any
problems if you let me stay.
She nods looking at me.
Ma: Ohk I trust my son he wouldn't have brought you here if
you were trouble, he is a good judge of character.
Me: Thank you, uh I will pay rent.
Ma: We will talk about that later, come and eat then go check
if you will like it there.
We sit down and she goes to what I assume is the kitchen.
My phone beeps I take it out it's a message from mom my
heart skips a beat, I'm so nervous I'm asking myself if I
should open it or not, I decide to open it.
Ziyanda: *Mommy loves you, be safe wherever you are and
come back home when you're ready.*
I bit my lower lip, i'm trying to stop the tears from falling.
I feel a hand on my shoulder I look up.
Sifiso: Are you good?
Me: Yeah I'm fine, I'm good.
I say blinking the tears away.
He nods and quickly moves his hand away from my shoulder
and sit down.
His mom brings food we all eat in silence and she takes the
dishes back to the kitchen once we are done.
Ma: Let's go check that place, I haven't been in that room for
a while it must be dusty.
We walk to the backroom it's really dusty but it look pretty
big and it looks fine just a bit of cleaning here and there it
will be perfect.
Ma: You're taking it?
Me: It's fine yes I will take it, thank you.
Ma: Let me clean it for you then, today you will use one of
the rooms inside then tomorrow you can buy your own stuff
and move in, how is that?
Me: Thank you I would appreciate that a lot.
We walk back in and she shows me the room, I go take my
backpack in the car, and leave the suitcase there I will take it
when I move in the backroom tomorrow.
I'm getting ready for bed, I take off my shirt and I hear a
knock on the door.
Me: Come in.
Sifiso: Hey man I..shit..uhm do you want me.. I mean do you
need me to accompany you to the shops tomorrow.
Me: Yeah sure that would be cool, you're not working?
Sifiso: Night shift, you go to gym?
Me: Yeah I do.
Sifiso: I can tell, maybe we could be gym partners.
Me: Sure.
I look at him waiting for him to say something or maybe just
leave the room but he just stares back at me.
I clear my throat, he stratches his nicely trimmed hair and
smiles awkwardly.
Sifiso: Sure goodnight.
I nod he turns around and walk out.
I sit in bed and take my phone when another message comes
through.
Ziyanda: *I understand why. I'm not angry at you if anything,
I am proud of you and Iyana miss you.*
Me: *I love you mom, all of you.
I switch off my phone and get in bed, I have a very long
crying session, I have been through a lot.
Next morning I hear a knock and I ignore it I hate knocks in
the morning, like why don't you just come in? Who should
shout for you to come in early in the morning.
After a while a door opens, my eyes are still closed.
Sifiso: Langa hey it's 10:00 in the morning and you are still
sleeping.
He is talking so loud and I have a headache.
Me: Why are you shouting man I have a headache.
I say sitting up.
Sifiso: You're not a morning person are you?
I look at him, he comes closer to bed.
Sifiso: Your eyes are so red it's like you were crying the
whole night.
I look away.
Me: That's ridiculous.
He nods, I need to pee and I have those annoying morning
erection and looks like the guy is not going anywhere.
Me: Uhm do you mind I need to get up I'll let you know when
i'm done.
Sifiso: Ok cool.
He walks out and I get up from the bed, a door open again
it's him again, I turn to the side giving him my back.
Sifiso: Eish sorry I came to ask if you eat bacon and eggs.
Me: Sure yeah I do.
He walks out.
I take a bath and get dressed then go to the sitting room and
the food is already at the table.
I greet and sit down, and a young girl comes in running
shouting "Granny! Daddy! I assume this is Sifiso's daughter
Samantha "Sam"
Sifiso: Why are you running sam you almost tripped and fell
wena.
Sam: I know.
She is cute with two missing teeth in the front upper row.
She looks at me.
Sam: Goodmorning are you daddy too?
I laugh.
Me: I am uncle Langa.
Sam: Uncle Langa?
I nod with a smile.
Sifiso: Where is your mom?
Sam: She dropped me off outside she said she is late.
We go to town leaving sam with her granny, I start by
appliances to bedding sets everything I may need the we go
for grocery, I did see a fridge in that backroom, it's a double
room, a kitchen and the bedroom but it's big.
We go back and I find it clean and Sifiso help me unpack and
everything.
Sifiso: I need to go get ready for work.
Me: I can take you if you'd like.
Sifiso: That'd be great, save me time and energy..
He gets up and walk out. I throw myself in bed.
I take him to work and drive back to the house and sleep.
*
NKANYEZI
*
I just came back from fetching Zola, Lindile's baby girl from
home to a centre. I introduce her to everyone and they take
turns hugging her, I love how these kids never judge each
other or look at each other in a way where one would feel
uncomfortable.
Me: "Anyone has seen where miss Mayah went to?"
Sage: "Mommy went to the bathroom."
Me: "Thank you boy."
I go to the ladies's and knock but no one opens, I push the
door and find Miyah vomiting on the toilet she has tears in
her eyes.
I brush her back it looks painful and I feel sorry for her.
After a very long time she get up and drink water from the
sink.
I look around and I see a pregnancy stick and it's negative, I
look down when she quickly pick it up trying to hide it, I get
up.
Me: "You said you're not doing this again Miyah, I told you to
stop."
Miyah: I swear I had stopped doing it until I started getting
the symptoms of pregnancy.
Me: "You are lying to me Miyalo you know you never
stopped."
She bursts into tears, she cries a lot too especially when you
reprimand her or go against her.
Me: "And why are you crying now?"
Miyalo: I hate you so bad.
Me: "Why?"
She just wipes her tears off and storm out she is angry I can
tell.
I walk out too.
We get in the car and drive home, she is looking out the
window the whole time.
She greets mom who is sitting in the lounge then walk on to
the bedroom.
Ziyanda: "What's wrong with her?"
Me: "She just doesn't like me these days, and I found out she
is still doing pregnancy tests."
Ziyanda: "But I thought she was going to stop when she went
for therapy."
Me: "I don't think she stopped, and it was negative once
again."
Ziyanda: "And you are sad too right, that it was negative."
Me: "Yes, when I saw it today I was really hoping this time
it's positive and she said she is experiencing pregnancy
symptoms that's why she took the test."
Ziyanda: I'm so sorry baby but maybe you should take her to
the hospital to check what's wrong with her.
I shrug my shoulders.
Me: "I'll see you later mom."
She nods and I walk to my room, I find Miyah sleeping and
she looks really out, with her clothes on even heels on the
bed.
I cover her with the blanket and go take a shower, I step out
a couple of minutes later and find her awake sitting in bed.
Me": "You're not ok Miyah, look at those dark circles around
your eyes, baby what's wrong?"
Miyalo: "I'm sick I don't know what's wrong with me."
I wear my clothes and take the car keys.
Me: "Let's go to the hospital and get you checked up."
I help her get off bed and we walk out after she freshened up
a bit.
We get to the hospital and find Nia at the front desk.
Me: "Miss Nia hello."
Nia: Star and Miyah how can I help you guys?
Miyalo: I feel sick and I have been having pregnancy
symptoms for a while now but the tests comes out negative.
She nods and take us to mom's office.
Nia: Let's get this out of the way first lay there.
I help Miyah into the bed and Nia moves the wand and I'm
standing next to Miyah, she has been moving it for some time
i'm getting frustrated.
Nia: Eish..
She says looking at the screen I try look closely but I don't
see anything.
Nia: Uh I think we need to call your mom.
Me: What is going on?
She take the phone and call.
Nia: Hello Ma'am uhm do you mind checking in for a while
please I know you are on your leave but please I need you
here.
She keeps quiet for a while.
Nia: Thank you we will be waiting in your office. Uhm Miyah
you can get up for now ok sweety.
I help Miyalo up and we sit on the chairs we are quiet it's
nerve wrecking not knowing what is going on, Nia just left us
here without any explanation.
After a while mom comes in and she look at us.
Ziyanda: I didn't know ya'll are here.
Me: "I brought her in because she look sick."
Ziyanda: How are feeling Miyah?
Miyalo: I don't feel too good I..
She covers her mouth and run to the bathroom, I follow her
and help her drink water, I hate seeing her like this.
Nia: Come Miyah sleep here again babe, Mrs M I want you to
see this too.
Mom does an ultrasound i'm looking at their faces trying to
figure out what's going on.
Mom moves the wand for a while too then she looks
shocked.
Ziyanda: Oh No.
Me: "What is going on?"
She looks defeated.
Ziyanda: This is so rare and I.. Yhoo.
She sits down and brush her hair back.
Nia: Get up baby.
She helps Miyah get down from the bed and we sit down.
Mom is sitting infront of us and Nia is next to her, Miyah is
playing with her hands.
Ziyanda: God!
She says looking up blinking rapidly.
Me: "Miss Nia Just tell us already what is going on."
She looks at mom who has tears in her eyes.
Ziyanda: Uh eish..Miyah you are pregnant, but it's an ectopic
pregnancy, when the embryo implant in the fallopian tube
instead of in uterus.
Miyalo: what does that mean for my baby then?
Ziyanda: We have no choice but to termimate it because it
can damage your tube as the baby grows , i'm sorry we have
to do surgery immediately.
Miyalo: No.
Ziyanda: It's for your own good, if it damages your tubes
then you might never fall pregnant again.
Miyalo: No I am not terminating my baby.
I'm just watching them as they speak, my heart is bleeding.
Ziyanda: Nkanyezi talk to her.
Miyalo: No! Don't talk to me I won't agree to this,I won't.
she get up and walk out.
I look down, not again! I'm about to lose a second baby.
Ziyanda: Nkanyezi, it will rupture and she may have internal
bleeding, make her understand please.
How when I don't understand it myself.
I slowly get up and go look for Miyalo.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
*
I have been searching for Miyalo in all corners of this
hospital but I can't find her, I go back to mom's office
because I left my phone and keys there.
I knock and get in.
Ziyanda: Where is she?
I shrug my shoulders and take the keys and my phone and
walk out.
I drive home hoping maybe she took a taxi there.
I step out and rush inside to my room, I find her sitting on
the floor crying. I kneel next to her and hug, I can tell by her
shaking body that she is crying out loud.
I pick her up and we get in bed, I place my hand on her
abdomen closing my eyes, i'm praying at the back of my
mind for a miracle, anything that will save my baby because I
don't think Miyalo will survive that.
I hold her in my arms tight, I love her and I don't want us to
lose this baby, I don't.
I hold her as my tears fall, Lord knows I have tried to do
good and I respect my parents which is said to bring you
blessings so I don't understand why this keeps happening to
me.
I feel her moving and she get up, I open my eyes and I find
her holding her knees she looks in so much pain.
I roll out of bed and help her sit down.
Miyalo: Help me to the bathroom I need to pee.
I help her to the bathroom and go back to bed.
She sit up and looks at me.
Miyalo: I don't know what to do? What am I supposed to do?
I don't want to lose this baby.
I look down, I don't know what to say to her.
Miyalo: Please just..please Nkanyezi do something I don't
want to lose my baby.
I get up and walk out, I don't know what to do.
I find Ntsika with the kids, I take Manqoba and put him on
my lap.
Ntsika: What's wrong brother?
Me: "I'm about to lose another baby."
Ntsika: What do you mean?
Me: "Miyah is pregnant but it's a risky pregnancy so she has
to terminate it."
Ntsika: That's.. haa, I don't know what to say man but...
He looks like he is thinking.
Me: "What is it?"
Ntsika: I haven't felt anything like I did when Lathi lost the
baby.
Me: "Maybe you will still feel it, she doesn't want to
terminate but this can lead to a permanent damage in her
woumb and I don't see myself having a baby with anyone
else but her."
Ntsika: "Isn't there anything the Doctors can do?"
Me: "Mom would have told us if there was another option."
*
I see Miyalo walking in to the lounge and stands infront of
me.
Miyalo: "I'm ready, tell your mom that I will do it and I would
like her to be my doctor please."
Me: "Miyalo."
Miyalo: "I promise i'm ready it's fine."
She says that but her tears are steaming down her face.
Ntsika gets up and hold her since Manqoba is holding on to
me.
She cries in Ntsika's chest.
*
We are driving to the hospital Mom is driving behind us and
we go to her office.
Ziyanda: We figured that we are not going to do surgery
since it is still a few weeks we will use a medicine called
methotrexate which is used to stop the pregnancy from
growing and the cells will disolve by themselves. We will use
an injection ok.
I can see she is trying so hard to be proffesional but she is
my mother more than anything so you can see that this hurts
her too.
Ziyanda: We need to get you into hospital gown and find a
ward for you, come.
She stretches her hand to Miyah and she hold her hand and I
follow behind them going to the ward.
She changes and then inject her, she tightly close her eyes
and then get in bed just then Lathi and Ntsika gets in and the
minute Ntsika sits down he starts vomiting right there, then
collapse on the tiled floor, Mom rushes to him, I just sit there
looking up, it's happening,there is no baby anymore.
*
I left Miyalo sleeping at the hospital and took Lathi and
Ntsika home since he was still feeling weak.
I then drive back to the hospital with her toiletry bag and the
warm pyjamas and gown for Miyah.
I find her still sleeping and I kiss her forehead and sit down
holding her hand, she slowly opens her eyes and look at me.
Miyalo: Hey, did you bring food for me? I think i'm hungry.
Just then dad and uncle China comes in with food.
I help Miyah sit up, and she is flinching with every
movement she makes.
Luyolo: How are you feeling?
Miyalo: I'm fine.
China: You will be fine kid I promise ok, both of you.
I nod my head and Miyah starts eating.
I send a text to Langa.
Me: *Hey bro I hope you're good, I'm not, Miyalo lost another
baby I guess I'm not meant to be a father, Love you bro, be
good.*
*
LANGA
*
It's been good staying here and I haven't been seeing much
of Sifiso, He has been working a lot and I get bored a lot
during the day because his mother sometimes has friends
over or she go over to her friends houses.
I'm listening to music on my phone and I receive a text from
Nkanyezi telling me that Miyah lost another baby and I feel
sad for him I know how much he loves kids and this must be
hard on him he hates seeing Miyah sad, so it must be a very
emotional journey for them.
I send him a text.
Me: *I'm so sorry to learn that you lost another baby bro, I
hope you heal guys and know that you are in my thoughts
and prayes, it will get better in time.*
I sigh looking up, Nkanyezi is the soft one from the three of
us even though if he gets angry he becomes the opposite of
soft but he is calm and collected most of the time so he
deserves happiness I hope one day God will bless them with
a baby or maybe doubles like Ntsika.
I hear a knock on the door I get up and open, there is a very
beautiful brown eyed girl at my doorstep.
Me: Hello.
She smiles widely.
Her: So you are the new guy huh, I'm sifiso's baby mama.
Me: Ok Sifiso's baby mama what can I do for you?
Her: The name is Samke.
I nod.
Samke: I wanted to ask if you know where Sam and Ma
went?
Me: No I last saw her inside did you knock?
Samke: Yeah I did maybe they went next door, uhm so you
are those rich kids huh I saw your car it's beautiful.
Me: Thank you.
Samke: Rich kid?
Me: Nop look I was busy with something do you mind.
I see Sifiso coming and he has his work uniform on, he has
those manly walk, he is feeling himself the confidence oozes
from him.
Sifiso: Sure Langa, Samke.
Samke: Can you act happy to see me atleast.
Sifiso: I can't, you came to fetch Sammy?
Samke: Yes I did where are they?
I get in and leave them at the door and sit in bed.
After a while Sifiso gets in and sit opposite me on the chair.
Sifiso: Wanna hit the gym i'm free for at least two days this
week.
Me: Cool I was getting really bored.
Sifiso: Ok let me quickly go change then we will go.
*
We on our way to the gym, we get there and we sign in the
start working out.
I start lifting weights i'm sweating, the stress of my brother
losing a baby is too much.
I catch Sifiso looking at me and he quickly looks away, I carry
on with my weights and start with sit ups.
He stands next to me.
Sifiso: I'm done for the day man.
I stop and look at him, he is wiping the sweat with his vest so
he took it off, the v-line and abs are clearly visibly in his dark
skin, he reminds me of my brothers mostly Ntsiks because
he works out a lot more than us.
He gives me his hand I take it and he pull me up so hard that
our body collide.
Me: Damn you are strong geez!
I say moving away from him to take water I turn and find
him standing in the same spot.
Me: Hey usharp?
He nods and grabs water from my hand drinking it.
We drive back home then I go to my backroom and take my
stuff and go bath in the main house because the showers are
only in there, here I only have a bathtub.
I go back to my room and get in bed, I hear a knock I get up
and open the door its Sifiso.
Sifiso: You play awesome stuff in your car, do you have it on
your phone?
Me: Yeah I do, you can come in.
He takes my phone and send music go his phone.
Mu phone rings, he gives it to me it's my mother I put it on
speaker.
Me: Mama..
She sniffs.
Ziyanda: Come home Langa please, your brother and Miyah
are falling apart, they just lost another baby and I couldn't
do anything about it, and Ntsika has been sick ever since
Miyah lost the baby, please just come back home.
I sit up, I hate seeing my mother cry. She starts sobbing.
Me: Pink I can'..
Ziyanda: Please..
Me: Ok I will come home tomorrow mom.
Ziyanda: Thank you so much..I love you.
She cuts the call and I sigh wiping my face.
Sifiso: Is everything ok?
Me: I have to go home tomorrow.
Sifiso: Oh..
Me: But I will come back, my brothers need me now but I
still need my space so I will definitely come back.
He continue sending the music and I sleep facing up.
He clears his throat I look at him.
Sifiso: Uh do you like exploring and trying new things?
Me: Things like what?
I feel his lips on mine since i'm facing up, I push him and
quickly get up and look at him, he looks chilled like what he
did is normal, he is biting his lower lip.
Me: Why did you do that man? what the fuck!i'm not gay.
Sifiso: I didn't say you are and I'm not gay either I just want
to try this once.
He get up and kiss me again, I'm stunned I don't know how
to react to this.
I feel him touching my dick I step back from him and push
him.
Me: Get out!
Sifiso: It's just a kiss Langa nothing more.
Me: Just..just a kiss, just get out of here.
He chuckles and open the door, I pull his hand and kiss him
back, now he is the one who look stunned, I step back and
smirk looking at him.
He turns and walk out.
I chuckle, what the hell was that but I won't lie his lips are
good.
I get in bed and sleep, I am not gay..
*
I wake up and go say goodbye to Ma only then drive all the
way to durban but today it's not far because I used a
different route than the one I used last time when I didn't
even know where I was going.
I get home in the afternoon around 3:30pm. I walk in and
find mom in the lounge with Lathi and the kids, I stand by
the door and clear my throat, mom turns and get up rushing
to me she hugs me tight crying, I hug her back holding my
tears from falling.
Ziyanda: Thank you for coming back home, thank you so
much..
She steps back and I hug Lathi and take both kids in my
arms, they look exactly like my brothers it's freaky and
shocking.
Me: Where is Ntsika?
Lathi: In his room.
I go to his room and knock once then get in, I find him sitting
up he looks really weak and drained I have never seen him
like this.
Me: Brother..
I sit on the bed next to him, he smiles lightly.
Ntsika: I'm happy you're here so you can be there for
Nkanyezi.
Me: You look worse than when we lost Isipho and Nkanyezi's
first baby.
Ntsika: I don't know why, maybe because it's a slow process
I heard Miyah is worse at the hospital.
Me: Eish this must be hard for them, losing the second
pregnancy must be really hard.
Ntsika: Yeah hey.
He has dark circles around his eyes, he look really weak but
this is pillar he is the strongest amongst us we all know that.
Me: You will be fine, so when are we going back home?
Ntsika: When Miyah and Nkanyezi are fine and ready.
I nod.
Me: Cool let me go to the hospital then, I will see you later.
I drive to the hospital and find Nkanyezi resting his head on
Miyah's bed I touch his shoulder he blinks and wipe his face
then look at me.
Me: "Brother, how are you holding up?"
Nkanyezi: "I don't know."
He does look like someone who don't know really, he is just
a shadow of himself,he has eyebags you can tell he hasn't
been sleeping at all.
Me: "Have you went home today?"
He shakes his head.
Nkanyezi: "I don't want to leave her alone, she always wakes
up in pain so I don't want her to be all on her own."
Me: "You can go home for a few minutes I will stay here with
her ok."
Nkanyezi: "But.."
Me: "I won't leave her sight I promise, you will just go home
to freshen up then come back."
He get up and we side hug I watch him as he goes to the door
walking like he is carrying the whole world on his shoulders,
I exhale this is hard. I sit on the chair and look at Miyah she
looks pale even her hands.
I take out my phone there is a message from Sifiso I open it.
Sifiso: *You didn't have to leave without saying goodbye."
I choose to ignore it then starts playing games on my phone,
I see Miyalo jerking up and down then she opens her eyes,
her hand grabs on the sheets.
Me: Miyah hey how are you feeling?
Miyalo: Pain..I..
She clenches her jaws tears fall, I get up to call a nurse or a
doctor but Nia walks in and I step back, She stares at me.
Me: Hi Miss Nia, Can you help her she is in pain.
Nia: Miss Nia? You? Since when?
Me: Just help her would you.
She goes to Miyah and I see her falling back to sleep.
Nia: Can we talk?
Me: Not now, I promised my brother I won't leave her sight.
Nia: Ok.
She looks dissapointed and she walks out.
In an hour Nkanyezi is already here and he looks clean but
still you can see sorrow behind his eyes.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
Insert 63
*
NKANYEZI
*
I am taking Miyalo home today, they are discharging her it's
been two weeks in here. They needed to make sure that her
fallopian tube wasn't damaged and fortunately it is still ok
and she can still carry a baby but I don't think I want her to
fall pregnant anytime soon, what if we lose a baby again? We
will have to go through the pain again, I don't want that not
anytime soon.
I'm helping her get dressed we haven't said anything to each
other all day, she is just quiet not even looking at me, her
eyes are just staring in one direction blinking slowly.
I take her bag, and she hold on to my shoulder we walk out
and find Langa waiting for us.
Langa: Hey Miyah.
She nods her head.
He opens the car and Miyah gets in and I get in after her. She
lays her head on my shoulder closing her eyes, I'm holdimg
her hand tight assuring her I'm here with her and for her
nomatter what.
We get home and everyone hugs us and we go to our room,
we get in bed and Sage comes in and get in too and Miyah
holds him we all fall asleep, he must have missed Miyah a lot.
J wake up when someone is shaking me, I turn and it's Ntsika
he looks so much better.
Ntsika: Mom said come eat.
Me: "I'm not hungry bro I will eat later."
He nod and walk out.
I get up to use a bathroom and Miyah gets in.
Miyalo: I want to go home.
Me: "When?"
Miyalo: Tomorrow.
Me: "Ok I will drive you there."
She nod and get in the shower.
*
I'm driving her home, we left Sage crying but Miyah told him
she is coming back.
The minute we walk inside she runs to her mother who is
sitting down on the mat and throws her body at her and her
mom hugs her, I sit down on a chair.
Her: Oh sana lwami kuzolunga( oh my child it will be well)
Miyalo: Nini mama? kubuhlungu(when mother? It's painful)
Her: ungalahli ithemba Miyalo unkulunkulu ukhona.(Don't
lose hope Miyalo God is there)
She continues to cry after she has calmed down she sits next
to her mother, I love it when parents let you be a child to
them no matter how old you are, when they let you cry to
them, because you won't go there seeking for comfort in
wrong places.
Her: Nkanyezi kunjani kuwe mfana( how are you boy)
Me: "I'm hurting too but it's life."
Miyalo: Naye uzwa ubhlungu mama (He is sad too)
Her: Qina nje mfana Qina ube indoda kuzolunga(Be strong
boy and be a man it will be well.)
I nod.
We go to Miyah's room after her mother made us some tea.
Miyalo: "You can go back home, I will come when you guys
do a ceremony."
I nod and walk up to the door, I feel her hand and I turn.
Miyalo: I'm not leaving you I just need time.
I nod again, she hugs me tight and step back, I walk out and
say my goodbyes and drive back home.
I get home it's late they are eating dinner I sit down but don't
dish up.
Ziyanda: Where is Miyalo?
Me: "She stayed behind, she said she needs time."
Ziyanda: It's understandable, being with her mom will help,
she is older and wiser, she will help her go through this.
I nod, I hope she really does heal.
*
We are doing a ceremony and Miyalo is back and
Greatgrandfather call all of us to his rondavel we sit down.
Greatgrandfather: ngenza iphutha la bafana ningixolele
sengimdala, kwakufanele ngenkathi uNtsikaYekhaya
elahlekelwa ingane ngivale umkhokha ukuze
kungaphindeleli, ngixolise Nkanyezi ukungayivali iyona
ebeyenza kuloku kushone izingane zakho( I made a mistake
forgive me I am old, When Ntsika lost the baby I was
supposed to stop the bad luck and avoid this incident to
happen again, I'm sorry Nkanyezi I didn't stop it, this is the
reason why your kids keep dying.
Greatgrandfather: kumele sihlinze imbuzi ukumisa
lomshophi omubi( we have to slaughter a goat to stop this
bad luck.)
We do all the that we are asked to do then we drive back
home after everything is done.
Miyalo: Please drop me at the taxi rank, I'm going home.
I stop the car and look at her.
Me: "But you said you will come back Miyah."
Miyalo: I still enjoy being at home.
Me: "Ok then go."
Miyalo: Don't be like that.
I shrug.
Miyalo: I will come back.
Me: "Maybe I would have moved on by then."
Her hand lands on my cheek.
Miyalo: Why? Because I can't give you a baby huh? I'm weak
I can't keep a baby in my woumb, they all die, is that why?
I can tell she is angry and screaming.
Miyalo: Answer me Nkanyezi! You want someone who will
give you a baby huh?
I stare at her, she attempt to slap me again I catch her hand
and hold it tight.
Miyalo: Let go, you are hurting me.
I let go.
Me: "Get out of my car."
Miyalo: No!."
Me: "I said out."
Miyalo: Why are you angry? You're the one who said you are
going to move on, so why are you angry? why?
I look at her, she step out of the car and start walking.
I drive behind her and stop next to her and step out.
Me: "Get in the car."
Miyalo: No you said I must get out.
I pick her up she is kicking and I put her in her seat and go to
my side and drive, I stop just nearby the rank.
Me: "You can go, I'm done with you, I'm sick of you always
leaving me, I'm sick of it, get out."
Miyalo: No, I'm not going.
Me: "Don't waste my time Miyalo just get out."
It's starting to get dark.
Instead she jumps and sit on my lap, she kiss me while
grinding on me.
I push her a little.
Me: " What are you doing there are people her."
Miyalo: "They won't see anything."
Me: "No."
I put her back in her seat, she is so light in weight but her ass
is still pretty much there.
I start the car and take a route to home but off ramp to some
tall trees and stop the car and turn on the lights.
I adjust the seat and pull her back on my lap.
She starts kissing me so roughly while moving the strings of
dress down, her boobs are out and I start playing with her
nipples, she opens zip of my pants and I move a little while
she pull my pants down a bit, I move my hands to her butt
and I move her panty to the side another hand moves to find
her moist spot while she moves her tongue in my neck, I put
my middle finger her pussy clenches I remove it and replace
it with my dick.
She starts riding so fast, her boobs are bouncing on my face
it's so sexy.
I spank her ass a couple of times. She stares down at me.
Miyalo: Do it again baby, I love it, spank me again.
I hold both her butt cheeks spreading them a little then
spank her a bit harder, she hold my t-shirt and take it off.
I continue to spank her butt, I love the eye contact, the lip
biting and the way her face is everytime my hand lands on
her butt, she is the sexiest woman I have ever laid my eyes
on.
She hold on to my shoulders and starts bouncing on me, her
nails dig on my skin, we are sweating, I start moving fast
underneath her I'm about to cum, I hold her waist tight
cuming, fuck I love this girl.
She hugs me tight and I lay her on her back on the passenger
seat and her legs are on my lap she balance with her elbows
looking at me as I wipe her pussy with a tissue. I spreak her
pussy lips she raise her eyebrow, sexy as hell. I put my
finger, she makes cusses.
Miyalo: Shit.
I finger fuck her looking into her eyes until I feel her body
shaking, I wipe her again smiling.
She kneels and stroke my dick, she put it in her mouth and
start sucking me fast I grab her hair and make her go deeper
and she does and I'm about to cum, she stops and sit on my
lap again and start riding I cum same time.
We wipe and fix ourself up, I look at my jeans they have cum
all over it.
Me: "Look what you did here."
She smiles shyly.
Miyalo: Sorry.
I look at her with a serious look.
Me: "I hope this was not for the wrong reasons right?"
Miyalo: "You mean getting pregnant? No,I have learned my
lesson I don't want to fall pregnant for now it's too soon."
She says moving her eyes around, I let her be because I know
she is lying and I don't want to fight.
I drive home and we use the back door since there is so
much noise in the lounge, we freshen up then I go join
everyone while Miyah get in bed and sleep.
Langa: "I'm leaving tomorrow."
Ziyanda: "What? But why Langa?"
Langa: "I need this Mom please understand, I'm trying to
find myself I will come back I promise."
Ziyanda: Oh ok.
You can see she is dissapointed.
Langa: We will video call everyday how about that?
Ziyanda: Ok that's good, you have everything you need there
right?
Langa: Yes I'm good.
Ziyanda: Are they good people, are those people treating you
right not..
Langa: Mom!
Ziyanda: Ok Sorry I'm just worried they will abuse my baby.
Langa: I'm not a baby anymore i'm old.
Ziyanda: Oh please just a little beard here and there you
think you're a man, boy bye.
Dad shakes his head laughing.
Ziyanda: Uhlekani? (Why are you laughing)
Luyolo: Sometimes I feel like I married a teenager.
Ziyanda: Uuh you did, I was 19 when we got married.
Luyolo: I mean now Ziyanda.
Mom rolls her eyes.
Ziyanda: I should put in some weight and be a bit taller.
Luyolo: And who will pick you up when we have sex again..
Ntsika and Langa says "Woah!"
Lathi is laughing she has tears in her eyes, she loves laughing
a lot this one.
Ziyanda: Why are you laughing Lathitha?
Lathi: I'm just..aah
She starts laughing again, I see my brother looking at her in
admiration, he loves her and can't hide it even if he tried.
*
LANGA
*
I'm driving to Ixopo after mom was crying like someone
died, she didn't want me to leave.
After an hour I'm driving in the house then go out to greet
Ma who is doing washing outside.
Ma: Langelihle how is everyone back home?Sifiso told me
about your brother.
Me: it's hard but they are getting there Ma.
Ma: Ok that's good son.
Me: Where is Sifiso?
Ma: He is inside.
Me: Ok I will see him later then.
I didn't reply to his text and we haven't talked since then.
I walk to my room and sleep in bed.
Sifiso gets in, I sit up.
Sifiso: You good?
Me: Yeah I'm good.
Sifiso: You completely ignored me when you went home, is it
because of what I did, Look i'm sorry if it is I was just playing
with you.
I get up and stand infront of me, he cocks his eyebrows
staring back at me.
Me: What is it that you were hoping to see exactly when you
kissed me.
Sifiso: Nothing I told you, I was just trying something new,
wanted to know how it is to kiss a man that's all, I'm a very
curious person.
Me: So I was your experiment? Don't you have friends?
Sifiso: I do but I wanted to try it with you because I don't see
even a glimpse of being gay in you so I wanted to try a
straight guy and a good looking guy at that, like me.
I chuckle too much confidence.
Me: So you're saying your friends are gay and not good
looking?
Sifiso: Oh No..I guess I just wanted to do it with you, they are
not open minded people and I believe you are.
Me: That is just ridiculous.
Sifiso: But you did kiss me back.
Me: I wanted to wipe the smirk off your face.
He chuckles.
Sifiso: Oh well you did. So uh can we try it again, I promise it
will be just a kiss.
Me: Are you sure you're not gay?
Sifiso: It's the first time I want to try this out all my life I have
been dating girls and I love it.
Me: Me too I love booty and boobs.
We both chuckle, he steps closer his hand are in his pocket.
He stops infront of me, his lips touches mine I let him kiss
me after a while I decide to kiss him back, the kiss becomes
rough I feel him touching my shirt then pull it off, I feel
goosebumps on my body, this is crazy..he takes off his shirt,
his body is well built alright.
We continue to kiss then I step back when I feel my dick
twitching I look at him he has a boner too, he touches it
looking shocked, he picks up his shirt and wears it, I do the
same in silence.
He walks out, I chuckle sitting in bed, did I really get hard by
kissing another guy? damn..
*
It's Friday and I haven't seen Sifiso since that day we kissed
until we were aroused. I still find that funny.
I hear a knock and I go open it's Ma.
Me: Ma Hello.
Ma: Langelihle look after my house when Sifiso is at work
I'm going back home in Harding for the weekend ok I will
come back on monday.
Me: Ok Ma I will.
Later I hear loud music playing and I go inside the house, no
one is around the lounge, I go to Sifiso's room the music is
loud, I knock but no one answers I open and I see Sifiso
fucking a girl, he is sweating, her legs are on his shoulders
now I can hear groans and moans I know I shouldn't watch
this but hey this is me Langa the naughty one.
He goes faster then groans loud then pull out, he turns and
find me looking at him, his dick is still up with a condom on, I
see a girl covering her body with the sheets looking at me.
He goes to the radio and turn it down a bit.
He pulls out a condom and wraps it with a tissue then go to
the bathroom.
Girl: You are creepy! How can you watch people having sex.
Me: It's awesome it's like watching porn only live. Do you
have a sister or a friend I kinda need to release too.
I say laughing the girl is annoyed, Sifiso is now staring at me
I ignore him.
Me: So..a friend?
Girl: No I don't have one.
She has attitude the face she makes when she talks says it all.
Me: Stop staring at me wena and wear something man.
I walk out and sit on the lounge, he sit on the opposite couch
he has his boxer short on now.
Me: Why were you ignoring me the whole week wena?
Sifiso: I was busy.
I chuckle
Me: Ok.
I get up and walk back to my room, he comes in after a while.
Me: Whats up?
Sifiso: Why do you act so calm after what happened that day
when we kissed, I had a fucken boner from kissing you man
don't tell me you weren't shocked.
Me: I was but it happened get over it.
Sifiso: That's the thing I can't man.
Me: What do you mean? You just fucked a beauty in there..
He comes to where I am sitting and balance his hands on the
bed and kiss my lips again. I push him.
Me: You need to stop doing this now you are making me
really uncomfortable.
Sifiso: Eish sorry man, I just wanted to see if it's going to
happen again, don't you want to find out.
Me: No I don't.
He grabs the back of my neck and kiss me, I feel really
aroused I unzip my pants and start jerking up, I see him
doing the same we have stopped kissing just playing with
our dicks, I cum.
Me: Shit..fuck.
He groans and cums too.
I clean myself up, and throw the towel at him.
Me: You really need to stop kissing me now ok.
Sifiso: And stop kissing me back Langa.
I squint my eyes, he raise his eyebrow.
Me: You look good, you should stop doing this.
Sifiso: Doing what?
Me: Acting gay you just made me masturbate man.
Sifiso: Don't pretend like you didn't like that.
Me: Mxm where is your girl?
Sifiso: She is my nextdoor neighbour bro.
Me: Awesome so you get to bang anytime huh.
Sifiso: Yep, let's go out I will fill up your tank.
Me: Sure, uh ever thought of living in durban?
Sifiso: I have but I have work here. What?you are tired of
living here already?
Me: Not really I was just asking that's all..
Sifiso: oh cool,let me go change then we will go.
I nod and get up and change my clothes I walk out and lock..
Then drive out jamming to music..

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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LANGA
*
We get to town and Sifiso insisted we buy booze and meat
and we will do a braai, he has called his friends to come over.
I drive in and there is a car behind me driving in too.
Sifiso: That's my friend Sfundo.
We step out of the car and Sfundo comes to us, they fist
bump and he looks at me.
Sifiso: This is my friend Langa he stays here.
Sfundo: Usuletha umlungu manje la( You are bringing white
man here now)
I squint my eyes and Sfiso looks at me.
Me: Unyoko umlungu.( Your mama is a white man)
He looks at me shocked then he looks angry.
Sfundo: What did you say boy?
I step closer.
Me: I said unyoko umlungu uzokwenzani? ( I said your
mama is a white man what you gonna do?)
I feel Sifiso pushing me back.
Me: You won't like it when I call you a very black ugly man
that you are, so please don't label me.
He comes closer but Sifiso push him back.
Sifiso: You were wrong Sfundo just apologise and we will all
be cool.
Sfundo: I just don't like rich kids.
I leave them and start unloading the things we bought then
walk inside with a few stuffs.
I hear noise coming outside I just sit on the couch and open
one beer watching tv.
Guys and beautiful girls walk in maybe about 10 guys and 7
girls.
Sifiso starts introducing me to his friends as his new friend
most guys are ok with me we side hug but Sfundo and this
Mzi guy just don't seem to like me but I don't care I will vibe
with those who vibe with me.
Mzi: Hey coloured boy is that your car we saw outside.
I chuckle and continue drinking my beer ignoring him.
Sifiso: Can you guys just call him by his name, it's Langa.
Me: No let them continue I will literally mop this entire floor
with one of them.
Mzi: Say what now? Who are you going to mop the floor
with?
Me: Just label me again I will show you.
Mzi: What you gonna do huh Coloured boy?
I swiftly get and knock him down with a punch.
I hear "Aaw" from the ladies and a "yhoo" from the gents, my
knuckles hurts, I look at Sfundo hoping he says something
too so i can give him a left-hand punch too, yes I'm left
handed and Ntsika too.
Sifiso: Come on gents we are here to have a good time no
more fighting.
We start drinking but I don't drink much I mean I don't
know these people I don't trust them.
One girl comes and sit next to me.
She extends her hand shaking mine "Toya is the name" she
says.
Me: I am..
Toya: I know Langa, dude you give a very mean punch with
that left hand ok.
Me: I know..
Toya: Want us to get some air?
Me: Sure why not, let's go.
I get up following her out, we stand next to my car, I pick her
up and put her at the bonnet.
Toya: Wow you are so strong.
She giggles, her thighs are so fresh and out there, she is
wearing a short dress. I start moving my hands in them
while we are talking about silly things, I move my hands
further up and she lets me. It's a bit dark but not that dark. I
reach for her panty and pull it down, I pull her towrds me
and touch her clit, she moans out loud.
Me: Keep it down..want us to take this to the room.
She nods, I take her down and open my car taking out a
condom then we go to the room, we jump straight to it no
foreplay nothing, we clean ourself up then go back to the
main house the music is playing loud people are happy but
when I look at Sifiso he looks really angry and not in the
mood.
Me: "What's wrong with you?"
He stares at me, I chuckle, this is not home where everyone
knows sign language.
Me: Are you ok?
Sifiso: Sure.
He walks away, Toya sits on my lap and start moving her
body to the beat of the song, I squeeze her ass. The guy I
punched earlier comes to me.
Mzi: I'm sorry about earlier boy I hope we good.
I nod.
Mzi: Sure.
He walks away.
Toya: Can you take me home please..
Me: Can we do it in the morning you can sleep with me if you
don't mind, I don't drink and drive.
Toya: But my house is just around the corner.
Me: Still will be drinking and driving.
My phone rings its mom.
I push Toya up a little then run out and get in my car then
call her back because she has dropped it.
Ziyanda: Langelihle wam.
I smile.
Me: Mama.
Ziyanda: Usharp bro?
Me: Yeah bro I've been better.
Ziyanda: I miss you man.
Me: I miss you too bro but I will come back soon.
Ziyanda: When is soon Langa?
Luyolo: Ziyanda stop, give my son a break geez.
Ziyanda: thula luyolo( keep quiet Luyolo)
I laugh out loud, I love my parents especially when they start
their cold arguments
Ziyanda: I love you ok.
Me: Goodnight mom and you dad I love you.
Luyolo: Bye baby..
He imitates mom, and they start arguing again.
Me: Guys hello i'm still here!
Ziyanda: Goodnight Langa.
Dad laughs out loud.
I cut the call and walk out and when i'm about to walk in, I
see Sifiso smoking I sit next to him.
Me: You're bored?
Sifiso: Not really, I just want everyone out of my home now I
want to sleep.
Me: Tell them then.
Sifiso: I will, so you fucked Toya?.
I chuckle.
Me: I did I might even do it the whole night.
Sifiso: She is sleeping here?
Me: Yeah if that won't be a problem to you.
Sifiso: why would it be a problem to me, are we lovers?
I get up and walk away but he calls out my name.
Sifiso: I'm sorry man it's just that i'm going through
something.
Me: Don't take it out on me then.
I walk in and take Tonya to my room, and we are at it the
whole night, the girl is a freak in bed.
In the morning I drive her home then come back, I find Sifiso
sitting in my bed.
Me: Look I know this is your home but respect my space you
can't just barge in here.
Sifiso: You're really rude coloured boy.
Me: You will wake up in ICU like your friend.
He chuckles.
Sifiso: So you and Toys?
Me: nop never it was just sex and she understood that.
Sifiso: Mmm so back home do you have someone?
Me: Nop I was married once and it was a disaster I almost
lost my family.
Sifiso: Married? That's hectic ..so uhm ever thought about
what happened between us the other day.
Me: No, and don't remind me.
Sifiso: Why not?
Me: No Sfiso futhi phuma la( get out of here)
Sifiso: Ok.
He get up but turn around and comes to me. His face is an
inch away from my face.
Me: Don't even try it.
I'm already aroused and I don't like it at all.
I step back, he comes closer and the minute his lips touch
mine I punch his jaws he looks on the side holding his jaw.
I stratch my head.
Me: Look I'm sorry I didn't mean to do that, sorry but stop
doing that man.
He looks at me then nod walking out. I feel bad, I decide to
follow him and find him sitting on the couch still moving his
jaw I think I must have punched him a little too hard, I get ice
from the fridge I give it to him, he takes it and place it in his
jaw line.
Me: I'm sorry man I didn't mean to hurt you like that.
Sifiso: It's fine, I'm going out you can lock when you done
here.
Me: Can I come with?
Sifiso: No.
Me: Ok sure, you will lock up yourself then I'm going.
I walk out, I really feel bad.
*
In the morning, It's raining outside and I know he has to go
to work, I get up and wash my face then knock in his room
he is already in his work uniform.
Me: Hey.
Sifiso: Sure.
Me: It's raining I can take you to work.
Sifiso: No i'm good, Sfundo will take me to work, babe let's
go.
A girl comes out the beautiful girl he was with the other day.
I look at him, he moves his eyes for me to move out of his
way.
Me: Can we talk man.
He ignores me they walk out but he rushes back in and go to
his room and come back again.
Me: Stop acting like a sissy let's talk.
Sifiso: What did you say?
Me: I said st..
His fist collide with my nose I bleed sametime.
Me: What the fuck!
He looks at me then turn and walk out.
Me: Shit..
I go to my room and clean up my nose my jacket has blood.
*
Later I hear the loud bang like someone is forcefully pushing
the door, and five men comes in including Mzi and Sfundo.
Sfundo: Hey coloured boy we are here to teach you manners
and to respect people in their turf.
I continue to wipe my nose. Mzi grabs me by my jacket and
throws a punch I fight him off but one of them grabs my
hands from the back and Sfundo and Mzi starts taking turns
punching and kicking me i'm now kneeling on the floor.
I can't do anything my body is painful they gave me a beating
of my life.
Mzi: We are taking this phone and your car i'm sure mommy
will buy a new one for you,this is what we do to rich kids
trying to act all tough.
They walk out with my phone and car keys leaving me on the
floor.
Me: Aah..
My ribs hurts. I crawl to bed and try to get in but I just end
up sitting down on the floor.
I hear a knock I can't talk my face is numb with all those
punches.
Samke "baby mama" gets in and rush to me.
Samke: What happened to you? Let me help you up come on.
She help me get in bed.
Samke: Let me guess the boys around the block did this huh.
I nod.
Samke: Let me get some ice for you, your face is all swelled
up.
She puts ice on my cheek and I cringe.
Samke: Sorry..
She does it slow then open her bag and give me two pills and
get the bottle of water from the fridge, I drink them up.
She helps me get under covers then I hear sfiso's voice.
Sifiso: What the hell is going on here?
He comes closer and look at me in shock.
Samke: Your friends did this to him.
Sifiso: Who?
I close my eyes maybe those punches plus pills made me
drowsy.
I wake up and I see Sifiso sitting on the chair my face feels
better.
I clear my throat, he jumps and comes to bed.
Sifiso: Sure how is it? Does it hurt?
Me: Mxm, better tell your friends to bring back my phone
and my car because they won't like what will happen next.
Sifiso: Who did this?
Me: Don't act like you don't know, that Sfundo and Mzi, you
sent them.
Sifiso: I didn't send anyone you know I went to work.
Me: Yeah right after you punched me on my nose and left me
bleeding.
Sifiso: I didn't ask anyone to take your car man.
I chuckle.
Me: You will know what i'm made off all of you.
Sifiso: Are you threatning me?
Me: Yes I am and you should be scared because wow.
I try to get up but i groan because of pain.
Sifiso: Can I help you?
Me: No I don't need your fucken help, you and your friends
are stupid bullies.
Sifiso: but you punched me first..
Me: So you sent your squad to beat me up, did you tell them
why I punched you, that you wanted to kiss me?
Sifiso: I don't know anything about this attack man believe
me.
I manage to get up after trying so hard and slow.
I take off my shirt that is covered in blood, I have red marks ,
Sifiso clears his throat a little.
Me: Borrow me your phone.
Sifiso: Wouldn't hurt to ask politely.
Me: Hey I'm not your bitch just give me the damn phone
Sifiso: You are rude it's disgusting.
Me: I'm not trying to be pretty to anyone.
He give me his phone and I dial dad's number putting it on
speaker.
Luyolo: Langelihle..
Me: Tata(dad) They beat me up here.
Luyolo: And you are telling me that because? Didn't I teach
you to fight?
Me: Don't be harsh bro there were four of them so the other
one was holding my hands at the back.
Luyolo: Shit, Langa are you ok, did they hurt you?
Ziyanda: Who hurt who? Who are you talking to Luyolo?
Luyolo: It's Langa.
Ziyanda: Woah baby who hurt my boy what happened
should I call Lukhele.
I want to laugh why would she call grandpa for this.
Me: My ribs hurts but not too much I will be fine, the
problem is...uhm?
Luyolo: Thetha Langa.( Talk Langa)
Me: They took my car and the phone.
Luyolo: They took which car? That I bought? Are you
serious?
Me: They are a bunch of bulies that called me a coloured boy.
These are my parents i'm allowed to tell them
everything,right?
Ziyanda: Your dad and your brothers are coming there send
the address, I would come but you know big head here, don't
worry my brothers are coming too they won't ever mess
with you again.
I look at Sifiso he look so chilled.
Me: I know they won't.
I send the address and the phone beeps its a message from
dad.
Luyolo: *It's not that far we are coming there now.*
I give sifiso back his phone.
Me: You better tell your friends to bring my car if you still
want to see them alive.
Sifiso: Don't put your family in danger Langa those guys are
trouble.
Me: You haven't seen trouble yet.
I take off my pants and limp to the bathtub then soak myself,
the warm water makes me feel a bit better. I get put when
it's starting to get cold and I find Sifiso gone. I get dressed in
black and look at myself in the mirror I look ugly the red
bloody marks all over mu face but at least it's not swelled up
anymore.
*
An hour or two later Sifiso rushes in with a phone in his
hands he look scared.
Sifiso: Your dad is calling and I think it's them at the gate.
I take the phone and answer.
Luyolo: I think we are here, the white house.
Me: I'm coming, let's go.
Sifiso: Where am I going?
Me: To show us where your friends took my car.
We go together and find, Ntsika and Nkanyezi, Dad and uncle
china then Mandisi and Kwanele, they are standing outside
the three cars they came with.
As I walk out with Sifiso behind me, Ntsika and Uncle China
starts laughing.
Ntsika: "Yeah hey the mighty Langelihle beaten up like this I
must be dreaming."
Me: "You are not funny four eyes."
Nkanyezi: "So clown they took your car just like that."
Me: "It wasn't funny they are old."
China: "You got beaten that's all that we see."
Luyolo: "Who is that?"
I look next to me, I see a very confused and scared Sifiso.
Me: "Oh this is Sifiso he will show us where those who took
my car are, he knows them."
Sifiso: Why are you guys talking using your hands,
niyangihleba?( are you gossiping about me?)
I chuckle.
Me: You are the one who is gossiping now. Come.
Kwanele: Come ride with me boy so you can show me the
way they will follow behind me.
Sfiso go to Uncle Kwanele, I get in with dad and china, my
brothers are together.
We get to a place that looks like a car wash and I can already
see my car and looks like they are stripping it.
We all get out and Sifiso stands nexxt to me.
Sifiso: This is a bad idea Langa.
Me: Look what your friends are doing to my car.
Sifiso: We should have called the police.
Me: And leave the military cops here no ways, this will be fun
to watch.
Sifiso: They are soldiers?
I look around and I see that each of them is holding a gun
except me and Sifiso.
Dad throws it at me I catch it.
Luyolo: What about your friend?
Sifiso: Oh no I'm good I have Hoplophobia, which is a fear of
guns.
I chuckle.
We get closer and I see the whole crew standing up only
Sfundo has a gun.
Sfundo: I'm guessing rich coloured kid is here to give us
more cars, thank you.
Mandisi: So I suppose you are the leader of this uhm dump.
Sfundo: I am actually..
Mandisi: Come here..
Sfundo: I don't take orders from anyone I run this shit.
He cocks his gun dad chuckles.
Luyolo: Judging from the sound your gun made when you
cocked it means it's empty no bullets in there boy.
Dad cocks his and I see a glimpse of fear from Sfundo and his
crew.
Luyolo: Now that's the sound of a loaded gun, did you hear
it? Langa can you cock yours lets see.
I cock it and point at Sfundo. I see him raising his hands up.
Luyolo: Tell your boys to fix that car right now we will wait
here.
He shouts for them to put it back the way it was.
Ntsika: So he is the one that was beating you up brother.
Me: Yeah and the one next to him.
Ntsika: Come here.
He calls Sfundo pointing with his gun but he stands in one
position.
Kwanele: You better move it boy if you don't want your
brains to decorate these streets.
He comes closer and Ntsika meets him halfway.
Ntsika: Let's play with fists one on one.
Sfundo: You are just a young boy.
Ntsika: But that didn't stop you from beating my brother
huh, now come on give me your best shot pussy.
He throws the gun on the ground and I take it. Sfundo is
angry, I mean he was literally called a pussy.
He throws a fist but Ntsika moves and catch his arm and
twisting it I feel the bones cracking everyone goes" Mmmm."
Ntsika: Come on now give me your all.
He tries with another arm but Ntsika block it and punch him
with his left hand he staggers back.
Ntsika: You dissapointing me old man come on.
I look at dad he is looking at Ntsika proud the man likes
violence my ex dead wife said it, I chuckle.
I see Nkanyezi grabbing Mzi and the fists starts flying,
Nkanyezi is a fast fighter he doesn't wait for you to take a
breath all you see is yourself down in a second, that's Mzi
right now groaning on the ground and so is Sfundo his boys
are trying to get him up.
Luyolo: Are they done with that car.
Sfundo looks at them they nod.
Sfundo: Yes Sir.
Luyolo: Perfect now let me hear that you looked at him or
even smelled him, you will know me, better not mess with
my son do you hear me? All of you!!
Mandisi: Niyamuza? Phela asinesabi.( did you hear him, we
are not afraid of you)
Kwanele: Let me make myself clear boy, If I hear that
something happened to my nephew then just run looking for
a graveyard and dig your own grave then wait for me to pull
a trigger. Do we understand each other, I don't like bullies.
Sfundo: I hear you big man I'm sorry.
Luyolo: And this car better move like the other one or else I
will come back here and set this place on fire.
Voice: That's a threat we can report you to the police.
Dad looks around and spots him then rush to him grabs his
shirt.
Luyolo: You want me to show you how much I don't care
about the police?
He shakes his head.
Mandisi: we don't care about no popoz come on now.
I look at Sifiso he looks amused than scared now.
We drive back to Sfiso's home and park outside the gate.
Luyolo: Your mother wanted us to come back with you, she
said you are not safe.
Sifiso: They won't do anything to him now, those guys are
cowards, they won't be a problem again sir.
Luyolo: Ok, so you are staying behind?
Me: Yeah but I will be coming back soon I miss the kids and
Mom.
Mandisi: What about me? The favourite uncle.
I laugh at him.
Me: "Thank you so much for coming."
Kwanele: "Anything for you."
China: "For each other."
Nkanyezi: "For our family."
Luyolo: Ntsika will drive your car we are taking it back to
Durban, China will leave his for now.
I nod.
Dad side hugs me and then they follow.
They get in the cars and drive away.
Sifiso: Wooah!
I get in uncle china's car and drive it inside then go to my
room and sleep in bed.
Sifiso: Are you still angry at me for punching you.
Me: Yes!
Sifiso: Your family is awesome man, dramatic but awesome.
And what's up with the use of hands.
Me: it's a sign language it is our first language at home.
Sifiso: Say what now?
Me: Yeah one of the twin there can't talk so we all know sign
language.
Sifiso: Wow!
He stares at me, I stare back at him.
Me: Don't even think about it.
He looks dissapointed, why is he making it a habit to want to
kiss me I am a straight dude come on.
He gets up and walk out.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
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LANGA
*
It's monday morning that means Ma is coming back today
and I don't think Sifiso had time to clean the house thorough
after that party and I don't want to get into trouble, it's a
good thing he is not working so I will help him clean.
I call mom while getting dressed the weather is still bad.
Ziyanda: Hey baby.
Me: My beautiful mother.
Ziyanda: Owwwk..what do you want Langa?
Me: Uhm mama I don't have a TV here and I get bored you
know.
Ziyanda: You want a TV but you said you are coming home
soon Langa.
Me: I know but maybe I will come back in two months from
now.
Ziyanda: Just tell me if you don't want to come back anymore
Langa don't give me false hope.
She sounds sad.
Me: Mom my life is with you guys there in Durban I will
come back just not now please understand maLukhele.
Ziyanda: It's fine, I will tell your dad to send you money for
that TV.
Me: Thank you.. Mom.
Ziyanda: Mmm.
Me: I love you.
Ziyanda: Of caurse you do and I do to.
Me: You know it, thank you love.
Ziyanda: Ok baby wam.
*
I walk out and find Sifiso already cleaning the lounge there is
music playing in his room.
Me: Sure.
He looks at me and nods.
Me: Need some help cleaning?
Sifiso: Sure.
We clean in silence then I hear the songs being skipped I
stop cleaning and look at Sifiso.
Me: Uhm you have someone in your room?
He nods.
Me: Oh ok.
We continue cleaning.
Me: Why are you so quiet? Are you angry?
Sifiso: Angry with who?
Me: I don't know i'm just trying to figure out why you are
this cold towards me.
Sifiso: It's nothing.
His girl comes in, she is wearing a very sexy lingerie and
short silk gown, she notice me and ties the gown quickly,
Sfiso looks at me like he wants to say something.
Me: You want me to leave, sure.
I leave the mop there and go to my room, I take a bath then
get dressed I check the phone dad already sent the money, I
get in the car and drive out calling dad on speaker.
Luyolo: Son.
Me: Thank you I got the money.
Luyolo: Is it enough?
Me: More than enough baba thank you.
Luyolo: Ok Call me if you need anything.
Me: I will.
I buy the things I need then go home, they install everything.
I sleep in my bed and Sifiso comes in he look frustrated but I
don't care, I will be cold towards him like he was to me in the
morning.
Sifiso: Langa.
Me: Sure.
Sifiso: Tell me if you don't feel what I'm feeling man.
I'm confused.
Me: Do you think I feel what you feel?
Sifiso: Can you please be serious!
Me: Why are you shouting, you my brother have issues.
Sifiso: I want to kiss you again Langa.
Me: You must have gone crazy, that's not going to happen.
He looks like he is going crazy, my eyes are moving with him,
he looks really good his beard, the body structure, I blink,
why the hell am I analysing a man's structure.
Sifiso: Langa!
Me: What!
Sifiso: Can we do it one last time? I promise it's the last time.
Me: Do what?
Sifiso: Kissing.
Me: Oh hell no!
Sifiso: What? Are you afraid that something is going to
happen?
Me: Something like what?
Sifiso: Getting hard.
Me: Nop, and it will never happen, I don't get you wena you
have a girl in your room wearing the sexiest lingerie and you
are here wanting to kiss another man.
Sifiso: She is not here anymore.
Me: That's not the point, she was here right.
Sifiso: Please I just want to see something.
Me: You need to stay away from me now, you are freaking
me out.
Sifiso: So you are afraid.
Me: Don't try to manipulate me into kissing you man, it's not
going to work.
Sifiso: Ok, lets forget about it then uhm, you bought a TV?
Me: Yes I did.
Sifiso: Ok move over I want to sleep.
I move, he gets in next to me. We stay in silence. He turns my
head since i'm facing up and stare at me.
Sifiso: Why are you here? You are making me do things i've
never thought of doing before.
I can't answer that, I just continue to stare at him. He kiss me
so slow I feel my body vibrates a little, I push him back like
what the hell is happening to me.
Sifiso: Don't fight it.
He kiss me again, his lips are cold, I kiss him back closing my
eyes, these kisses are great if only he was a girl. He deepens
the kiss our tongues are moving in sync, we are both
breathing heavily, I move and get on top of him and take off
his shirt, he takes off my shirt and groans I feel a shiver
down my spine I ache my back looking up when he runs his
hand on my abs.
Me: Shit..
I cuss and starts kissing him again, we switch positions he
get ontop of me and he moves pulling down my pants and
then his pants, I start stroking my dick, he does the same to
his and then I feel him touching my dick I move my hand he
strokes it and starts kissing me again.
Me: Fuck..
I touch his dick and stoke it a bit, , his deep groan makes me
cum same time.
Me: Aah aah aah fuck..
He jerks himself up and cum all over my dick, its his cum and
my cum all over my dick.
He moves away from me and sit in bed, I see him shaking his
head. I get up and go to the bathroom and wipe myself.
I come back and he is getting dressed, he look distraught, I
choose not to say anything and get in bed.
He walks out just like that.
*
I hear Ma calling my name, I get dressed and go to her, I find
her in the kitchen.
Me: Usubuyile. (You are back)
Ma: Yindaba bese nifuna ukuphatha idladla(why? you
wanted to own a home.)
I burst out in laughter.
Me: That was a good one Mamzo.
Ma: I know. I want us to talk about your rent.
Me: I know it's small I can pay more.
She smack my face a little.
Me: Ouch..
She laughs.
Ma: So I was thinking that you forget about rent and instead
we buy grocery together that way I will cook for you.
Me: Wow really, that's is fine with me Ma thank you, my
mom will be so happy, she thinks i'm starving here because
I'm lazy to cook.
Ma: You should give me her number Langa.
Just then my phone vibrates and I take it out it's Mom.
Me: She's calling.
Ma: Put her on speaker boy we need to talk.
I answer and put her on speaker.
Ziyanda: Baby how are you?
Me: I swear you call me more than you call your husband.
Ziyanda: In my defence I live with that big head and you are
far from me.
Ma chuckles.
Me: Someone wants to talk to you.
Ma: She sounds so young, are you making me talk to your
girlfriends Langa? I said your mother.
Mom laughs on the other side.
Ziyanda: Sawubona Ma ( Hello Ma)
Ma: umama ka Langa lo( is this Langa's mother?
Ziyanda: Yebo Ma uZiyanda igama( yes i'm Ziyanda)
Ma: I thought I will hear a very strong voice how do you
shout at this man with that voice.
I laugh.
Ziyanda: I don't shout I beat the hell out of him.
Ma: Good! good. So bengicabanga ukuyeka ukumkhokhisa
irent wena nje ufake imali yokudla ngizobaphekela yena
nomfana wam uSifiso( so I was thinking he stops paying rent
and you will only send money for food I will cook for him
and my boy Sifiso)
I hear mom sigh.
Ziyanda: Ngiyabonga bengisaba ukuthi uyalamba ngoba
bayenqena ukupheka laba ( I was afraid he is going to starve
because they are lazy to cook)
Ma: I know i have never seen him cook.
Me: Haaa!! That's not true you saw me last week.
Ziyanda: Last week Langa!!
Me:Yes!and I cooked on the weekend too.
Ziyanda: So you count the days, I am going to tell your father
that you don't eat he will sort you out.
Me: Mom come on.
Sifiso walk in he looks grumpy.
Ma: Here is the other one Sifiso I came back from home I was
there for the weekend, I came back and the pots were clean
no glimpse of cooking at all.
Ziyanda: Hey Sifiso why you guys don't cook?
He has a confused look on his face.
Sifiso: Hello. Uhm.
Ma: This is Langa's mother.
Sifiso: Oh hello ma'am you know I cooked and washed the
pots, I did really cook.
Ziyanda: I don't believe you Fisoh.
I chuckle looking at Sifiso but he fails to keep eye contact he
moves his eyes away.
Ziyanda: Ok Ma, Langa will send me your number and we
will talk. Bye Sifiso.
Sifiso: Bye, you sound so young.
Ziyanda: I get that alot.
She laughs and then drop the call.
Ma: Save her number on my phone Langa.
I save it then she dishes up we eat together because Sifiso
said he will eat later he has to go somewhere.
Later he is going to work, I wait for him in the car.
He pass me and I get out.
Me: Sfiso!
He ignores me.
Me: Kanti ungizibelani( why are you ignoring me)
He open the gate.
Me: I will take you to work man stop what you're doing.
He keeps walking, I cuss under my breathe, I don't
understand why he is like this.
*
In the morning I find him eating breakfast in the kitchen
wearing only his pants, you can see the muscles on his oily
dark body.
I clear my throat he looks at me.
Me: Where is Ma?
Sifiso: Town.
Me: Why are you like this towards me?
He doesn't reply.
Me: You started it and now you acting like a bitch in her
feelings.
Sifiso: You should watch how you talk to me.
Me: Nawe stop acting like I fucked your ass it was a mutual
masturbation that's all.
Sifiso: that's the thing it was more than that to me.
Me: Oh get over it man, you said you're not gay.
Sifiso: I'm not but i'm really attracted to you.
Me: Then you should stop because i'm not.
Sifiso: Says a man who came all over my hand.
Me: I cum deep in the pussies of girls I don't even like so
that ain't shit.
Sifiso: Nxhh.
He push me out of the way and go to his room.
Later I try taking him to work again and he declines.
Me: Stop treating me like that Sifiso, this shit was started by
you, If you don't stop i'm leaving your home
Sifiso: Then Leave!!
Me: Wow.
Ma comes out.
Ma: Why are you shouting at each other?
Me: He is chasing me out of here.
I say staring at him.
Ma: What? Sifiso!is this your house?
Sifiso: No.
Ma: Then what is it?
Sifiso: No Ma this one is full of shit.
A slap lands on his face.
Ma: Don't ever talk like that with me.
Sifiso: I'm sorry, I'm late for work I have to go.
Me: Let me take you to work.
Sifiso: No thanks.
Ma: Stop acting like a baby, allow Langa to take you to work.
He gets in the car.
Me: Bye Ma.
She nods. I get in the car and drive, he is rubbing his
knuckles and mumbling and cussing under his breathe.
Me: Why are you so angry at me? You can't force me to feel
what you feel Sifiso.
Sifiso: Stop talking.
Me: My uncle's car, my rules!
Sifiso: How old are you?
Me: And what has that got to do with you?
Sifiso: Futsek.
I chuckle and drop him off and go back home.
*
I feel him getting in my bed, I take my phone and check the
time it's 6:00 am. I hate talking when I wake up so I let him
sleep.
I leave him in bed and go to the bathroom, wash my face and
brush my teeth now I can talk, I start singing and whistling
going back to the room.
I whistle more sleeping next to him, I see him moving he is
irritated.
Sifiso: Can you shut up.
Me: Why are you in my bed?
Sifiso: Langa, Lona is in my room and I'm not in the mood for
her.
Me: But that's your girl.
Sifiso: Who came unannounced, now shut up.
The way his mouth moves when he talks, damn I find myself
moving closer and then kiss his bottom lip, he opens his lazy
eyes I stop the kiss.
Me: Go back to sleep.
He looks really tired and sleepy, he close his eyes
I page through my phone and I see a message and it's from
Miss Nia.
"Finally got your number this is Nia haven't seen you in a
while."
I ignore it. Sifiso turns and his hand is on my stomach,I
slowly move it away.
Sifiso: What are you doing?
I jump like I thought this fucker is sleeping what the hell. His
voice is husky and deep.
Me: The fuck is wrong with you? I thought you are sleeping.
Sifiso: I'm not.
Me: I know now open your eyes what you are doing is scary
as fuck.
He opens his eyes, they are so red.
Sifiso: I'm still sleepy, but I can't fall asleep my erection is
uncomfortable.
Me: Don't need to know the details.
Sifiso: You kissed me a minute ago.
Me: I did what you always do to me.
Sifiso: Then do it again.
Me: No can do, your girl is in your room go fuck her.
Sifiso: I don't want her.
Me: Too bad I'm not something you going to explore your
gay side with.
Sifiso: You will count your teeth on this floor continue being
an ass.
Me: So you mean you have never felt like kissing a guy
before?
Sifiso: Never in my life.
Me: I must be the most handsome man you've ever seen huh.
I say smirking, he chuckles.
Sifiso: So what about you, have you ever felt attracted to a
guy before?
Me: No, I have always dated girls and remember I even got
married.
Sifiso: How did that happen? You are a mama's boy wena
how did your mom agree to that.
Me: She didn't, let's not talk about it ok.
Sifiso: Sure, I want to sleep.
Me: Sleep then.
We hear a knock he jumps out of bed, I laugh.
Samke: Langa open up it's me Samke.
Me: Come back to bed and sleep.
He get in bed and cover his head.
I laugh getting up to open for Samke.
Me: Hey baby mama.
Samke: Hey have you seen Sifiso, He is not in his room.
Me: He is here running away from his girlfriend in his room.
Samke gets in laughing.
She pull the blankets from Sifiso.
Sifiso: Ey futsek marn.
Samke: Mxm I came to fetch the money you promised
Sammy.
Sifiso: So early Samke it's not even 8 O'clock yet.
Samke: I know i'm bored I want to hang out with you guys.
Sifiso: Yhoo I was working you can go hang out with Langa
outside.
I'm watching as he talks the way his lips moves, his white
teeth, the mustache. I clear my throat, why am I checking
him out.
Me: Samke give me 15 minutes to go freshen up, I will take
you out baby mama ok.
Samke: Thank you Langa you know how to treat a baby
mama not this ugly thing.
Sifiso: Be fast and Samke tell that girl in my room to leave.
Samke: Am I the one fucking with her perhaps?
I leave them and go to the bathroom with the clothes I will
wear.
I bath then wear my pants and walk out with my shirt in my
hands brusing my hair with my hands.
Samke: Wooooaah those abs dude you're hot!
Sifiso looks at me.
Sifiso: I have abs too Samke and you never scream like that
when you see them, Langa put on your shirt.
Samke: Umona Fisoh. (Jealousy)
Sifiso: Mxhm.
He covers his head and I wear my shirt and take the keys we
walk out with Samke and drive away.
Me: Let's go to Durban.
She screams.
Samke: Let's go, you are so cool my friends will be so jealous.
She takes out her phone and take a video screaming. She is a
very young beautiful lady and very loud too, she looks like a
good person I wonder why they broke up with Sifiso.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

*
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LANGA
*
We are now in Durban and Samke looks so excited.
Samke: You won't believe the last time I came here was 7
years ago, I missed Durban.
Me: So what are we going to do here? I want to suprise mom
and dad first though.
Samke: We will go see the beach then go back home.
Me: Can you drive?
Samke: No.
I drive all the way home, the gate opens and Samke gasps.
Samke: Is this your home?
Me: Yes it is.
Samke: Damn it's huge.
Me: We are a really big family.
Samke: So what are you going to say I am?
Me: A friend, baby mama, Samke anything.
She laughs out loud, we walk in, she is behind me.
I see the twins on the floor and Mom on the couch.
Me: Hello.
Mom screams jumping up, she comes and hugs me.
Ziyanda: Langa you didn't tell me you're coming!
Me: I wanted to suprise you mom I missed you.
Ziyanda: Oh my God and I am suprised thank you so much
bro.
She hugs Samke and looks at me.
Ziyanda: Who is she?
Me: Samke she is a friend, Sifiso's baby mama she wanted to
see Durban.
Ziyanda: Ok Hi Samke.
Samke: Hello.
She look so happy she keeps looking around.
Everyone comes in and greet me, they look so happy to see
me and we drive back to Ixopo after buying something to eat,
my phone rings, it's Sifiso.
Sifiso: Where are you?
Me:We're on our way back?
Sifiso: Ok drop Samke at her home then, we need to talk.
Me: Sounds serious.
Sifiso: It is.
I drop the call and look at Samke who is eating her Pizza.
Me: So..why did you break up with Sifiso.
Samke: We were never a couple.
Me: But there is Sammy.
Samke: We were close friends then one night we drank
together, one thing led to another then boom Samanta is
born.
Me: Was he single then?
Samke: No he was dating that psycho he is dating now
uLona.
I nod, we talk about Sifiso all the way home, I have this
sudden interest in his past and present relationship.
I drop Samke off then go home, I get to my room carrying 6
cans of beer and a Pizza. I find Fisoh still in bed. I put my
stuff down and go shake him he looks at me.
Me: Are you sick? Did you even wake up?
Sifiso: I did and took a bath, I was bored you guys left me
alone.
Me: You said we should go chill outside, so what is it you
want to talk about?
He sit up and take one slice of Pizza.
Me: Learn to ask.
He continue to eat then opens a can of beer.
Sifiso: It's like you knew that I needed this.
Me: What's up?
Sifiso: We need to talk about what is happening between us.
Me: Oh that..
Sifiso: Yes that Langa, you might pretend like you don't feel
anything but I can't.
I don't say anything.
Sifiso: Say something.
Me: Let's not complicate things, You have a girl and i'm
single and i'm not looking for love right now.
He nods and take another can of beer, he drinks all of it in
one go then takes another one.
Me: Slow down would you.
He looks at me and continue to drink, I step closer to him as
he is sitting in bed, I take the can from his hand and drink it
staring at him he snatch it from my hand and drink all of it,
he get up and lock the door, He takes off his shirt then his
pants and sit on the chair naked his dick is hard, He starts
jerking up looking at me, I find what he is doing very hot and
sexy, I slowly take off my clothes and stand infront of him
stroking my dick, he stroke it faster and I follow suit, I feel
myself getting close, he get up and push me to bed, I sleep
facing up and he kneels on my either side, we continue
stroking our dick then we both cum groaning, he balance his
hands and kiss me so rough.
Sifiso: Let's do this Langa, it will be just two straight guys
who likes each other, it won't have to be extreme we are
both manly nobody will suspect a thing.
He talks right in my face.
Sifiso: Talk to me.
Me: What do you mean by extreme?
Sifiso: Like anal sex, I just like this kind of stuff we do
together, this mutual masturbation is enough for me, it
doesn't have to come to anal sex.
Me: But what if I want to fuck your ass?
I say pushing him off me chuckling.
Sifiso: Quit playing Langa i'm serious.
Me: It will never work, when I see a beautiful lady I always
go for it so will you be ok with that?
He stratches his head.
Me: See, it won't work, maybe this is just a temporal
attraction it will end.
Sifiso: So we are not doing it?
Me: No we're not, continue dating Lona but you don't have to
be cold towards me, we can't do this and you know it.
Sifiso: Ok.
He opens another can and gulp it do.
My phone rings, The day Sfundo took it, one guy came after
we had left to bring it back.
I put it on speaker while I wear my clothes.
Me: Hello.
Nia: Hello Langa it's Nia.
I look at Sifiso he is staring at me.
Nia: Hello.
Me: Miss Nia.
Nia: You said I should take your number from your mom so I
did.
Me: What!? Why?what did you say you need it for?
Nia: I told her we fucked in her office.
I stop breathing for a minute and I feel myself sweating.
Nia: Hello.relax loverboy i'm just playing with you.
Me: It's not funny..shit.
Nia: So, when are we doing it again?
I look at Sifiso, he is looking down.
Me: I will call you later.
I drop the call.
And take the last can of beer left and drink it wiping my face.
Sifiso: Who was that?
Me: Nia.
Sifiso: What is she to you?
Me: See what I mean, you are already asking questions like
an insecure girl.
Sifiso: I was just curious, sorry.
I sit on a chair opposite him. He keeps looking at me then
look away.
Me: Is that why you wanted me to stay here, you wanted to
try this with me?
Sifiso: No, you needed a place and I had it, but that time I
took cash from you at the garage I had this feeling you have
whenever you meet a girl you like, I thought I was just crazy
but it escalated to this, now I can't stop myself.
Me: But that's being gay, why are you denying it?
Sifiso: I won't be putting a label in my sexuality Langa, I like
you and when I like Samke,I'll say I like Samke, it all feels the
same to me, Love is one thing, which gender you like
shouldn't really matter.
Me: But it does out there, a man inlove with another man is
gay period.
Sifiso: Everyone has his own belief and I stand with mine.
Me: You just want to cover up the fact that you are gay.
Sifiso: Well that's your opinion.
Me: Kakade(already)
Sifiso: Langa please just accept this, I saw how you kept
looking at me when you were talking to that woman on the
phone, you wanted to see my reaction, you craved for me to
react.
I look down, it's true I wanted to see how he would react if
he heard me talking on the phone with a woman which is
partly why my phone was on speaker.
Sifiso: Tell me I'm wrong?
I don't answer instead I get up and take a slice of Pizza and
eat, I feel him behind me.
Sifiso: You want to know how I felt?
His breath hits my neck.
Sifiso: I felt angry and cheated on, It felt like you betrayed
my love for you.
I'm stunned, I turn to look at him, but he moves his eyes.
Me: Wh...what?
Sifiso: Forget I said anything, can I sleep here today?
I'm still stunned did he just say he loves me?
We take off our clothes and get in bed, we are facing
different sides.
In the middle of the night I feel his hand moving down my
stomach.
Me: What are you doing?
I ask in a hoarse voice.
Sifiso: Shh go back to sleep.
His hand goes inside my boxers it becomes hard instantly.
Sifiso: You feel it too Langa, accept it.
He kiss my neck as he plays with my dick.
Me: Mmm Sfiso..
Sifiso: mmm..
Me: Shit..yes..fuck..
His strokes are gentle yet fast, I cuss as I cum.
He kiss my neck again, I take off my shorts and wipe my dick
with it, then I turn to him.
Me: What do you want from me huh?
I don't wait for him to answer I kiss his lips, and he responds
so well, I get ontop of him and brush my dick against his, his
hands are on my waist.
I move my hands to his dick and slowly move my hand up
and down on it and I brush the tip with my thumb.
Sifiso: Yeah..aah..faster..
I do as he say until his knees shakes.
Sifiso: Damn..fuck..eish..
I get off him and sleep facing up.
Sifiso: You asked what I want from you?
Me: Yeah.
Sifiso: All of you, I want you to be mine.
Me: Break it down for me.
Sifiso: I'm not saying we should go public but we can be
official I tell you I love you whenever I feel like it, I can kiss
you anytime and we can share a bed and be comfortable
with each other, since we are both new to this, we can take
one step at a time and not rush to anything extreme, so what
do you say.
Me: So will I be cheating if I find a girl I like and sleep with
her?
Sifiso: Langa this will be like any other normal relationship
out there, if there is a third party that's cheating.
Me: Eish I don't know man, I don't know if this will work.
Sifundo: we will figure it out together, please.
Me: Ok.. I guess.
Sifiso: Thank you.
He perks my lips.
Me: So should I call you baby?
We both laugh.
Sifiso: Don't be ridiculous imagine two guys with muscles
calling each other baby.
Me: I don't have to imagine anything we just fucked minutes
ago.
Sifiso: That can't be fucking.
Me: But it was, I touched your dick and you really enjoyed it,
if that's not fucking then I don't know what it is.
He chuckle, i'm feeling sleepy.
Sifiso: Langa..
Me: Mmm.
My eyes are closed.
Sifiso: I love you.
Me: Mmm ok.
I drift to sleep, I wake up and look around he is not here
anymore I check the time it's after 8:00 am so he long went
to work.
I wake up and take my phone there is a text from him.
Sifiso: *I went to work didn't want to wake you up, see you
later.*
I groan, did I just agree to be a boyfriend to another man?
I shake my head.
*
Later I receive a text from dad saying Ntsika will bring back
another car tomorrow and they take uncle china's car back,
they said they are worried that if those guys see my old car
they might do something to me, so dad changed that car.
I go clean the car and wash it, when i'm done I see Sifiso and
Lona at the gate, I stand behind the car looking at them,
Sifiso's eyes meets mine he quickly look away, I go back to
my room.
He comes in minutes later and find me sitting in bed with the
phone in my hands.
Sifiso: Hi.
Me: Sure.
Sifiso: Look I just wanted to explain to her that we can't be
together anymore.
Me: You don't need to explain anything, I don't even think
what we are doing is right. So where is she?
Sifiso: She will come back later.
Me: What later is that? It's already late?
Sifiso: Maybe around 20:00.
Me: So she will sleep here Sfiso?
Sifiso: No I will take her back home after we are done
talking.
Me: You mean when you're done fucking? A hand can't
replace a real thing Sfiso we both know that let's not play
with each other, continue with Lona and I will continue
looking, this will never work and I don't want you in my
room anymore, now get out!
I am angry I don't even know why, my heart is beating so
fast.
Me: Don't just stand there, walk out man now..
I'm not even looking at him, I'm talking looking down on my
phone.
I hear the door closing and I throw myself in bed facing up, I
have to stop this before it goes too far.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

*
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NTSIKA
*
So we have faced a lot of difficult situations as a family with
my brother losing the babies, a possessed Langa, but now it
looks like everything is going back to normal, my brother
and Miyalo fight a lot but that's who they are we don't get
involved anymore because they make up same time and it's
scary for me, their fight sometimes are really bad but at the
end of the day you will see them so happy and inlove.
*
Lathi and I are in a good space raising our kids who by the
way are learning to walk, I want to be the best like our father
Luyolo so that is why I'm planning on studying medicine
which has been my dream and it's easier because the
campus won't be far from home so I will be able to juggle
being a dad and a student, Lathi will be doing Grade 11.
I find her in bed listening to music, I kiss her cheek she
smiles.
Lathi: Hey babe.
Me: Hey, so next year i'm going to be studying medicine.
Lathi: You want to be a doctor like your mom?
I smile.
Me: I had always looked up to her and now that my brother
has found his passion it's time I persue my dream as well.
Lathi: That is good.
Me: And one day I want to be a family man and build myself
a home with a strong woman by my side, a mother of my
kids.
She blush.
Me: You know I love you right?
Lathi: You always tell me Ntsika and I love you too.
Her phone rings she answers.
Lathi: Hello...
She keeps quiet and widens her eyes.
Lathi: Lazola!!!sisi
I'm looking at her and she look excited and tears are
steaming down her face.
Lathi: I will send it to you now Wow.
She drops the call.
Me: What is going on?
I ask wiping her tears.
Lathi: My sister Zolah she is back at home and she wants to
come see me.
She is shaking.
Lathi: I haven't seen her in years Ntsika.
I pull her to my chest as she sobs.
Me: It's ok baby, she is back now and you will make up for
the time you lost apart from each other.
Lathi: I am so happy, so can I send the address to her.
Me: Yes you can baby.
Lathi: Thank you.
I love how innocent she is, it's probably one of the reasons
why I love her so much, she ask, she say thank you and you
can see appreciation in everything you do for her no matter
how small it is.
She sends the address then hugs me tight I hug her back and
kiss her, I push her to bed taking off her clothes and mine,
she push me back and get on top of me I'm stunned she has
never done that before.
Lathi: Teach me.
She whispers in my ear.
Me: What?
Lathi: I want to learn how to please you.
She is talking on my neck hiding her face.
Me: How when you can't even look at me babe.
She looks at me.
Lathi: Now I can.
I smile at her, she is just too beatiful and cute, this is my
baby.
As i'm still admiring her beauty she bite her bottom lip, my
dick twitches, I think she feels it, his small hands runs up and
down my stomach, she moves and then touch my dick, i
shiver, she strokes my dick and I grab on the sheets, I'm
confused yet excited, she has never done this before.
Lathi: Do you like it?
I'm stunned, like who is this? her voice has changed it's so
sensual I swiftly move her to my face and eat her pussy up,
she screams and balance one hand on on my check and she
moves her waist slowly while my toungue plays with her clit,
she wants to close her thighs and I know she is about to cum
I stop and move her down to my dick, I put it in while
looking at her she is staring down at down at me.
I insert my dick, she moans and start moving, I'm going
crazy, this is the first time ever I have a girl moving on top of
me, she moves so slow my dick is touching that spot that
makes me shiver, I hold her waist and help her move, she
grabs her boobs and play with her nipples closing her eyes.
Me: Look at me baby, don't close your eyes.
She opens her doll eyes and blink I lose it, I start moving fast
underneath her then get up with her and pin her on the wall.
Me: I love you Lathi.
I say giving her deep strokes then cum, my knees are
shaking, I move us to bed and get up to and clean her and
myself up.
Me: Where did you get that?
Lathi: No I was scrolling down on facebook and I saw
something written how to please a man and I became
curious so I read it and I..I
Me: what?
Lathi: I watched porn.
I chuckle.
Me: You did?
Lathi: A little I swear it was only once Ntsika.
Me: Ok so what did you see there?
Lathi: So there wa..
Me: No I want you to show me.
Lathi: Ntsika No..
Me: Yes, now show me.
Lathi: But I already did Ntsika, being on top.
Me: That can't be the only thing you saw there.
Lathi: Uhm I saw girls playing with themselves.
Me: Yeah I want to see you do it..
Lathi: No.
Me: I want you to be comfortable with me so we won't have
to limit ourselves when it comes to sex.
She nods, I get on top of her and play with her nipples they
are so pointy and hard, I rub her clit she moan then I stop
and kneel infront of her, she is turned on I can see it.
Me: Now do it..
She starts by playing with her nipples her hands are shaking.
Me: Relax and keep your eyes open.
She move her hand all the way down to her cookie, I cuss
under my breath as I see how wet her cookie is.
She plays with her clit and my dick is lready up, I can see she
is holding back.
Me: Do it..
She insert her middle finger in her cookie and moans, I move
closer and replace her finger with mine, she grabs on the
sheet.
Lathi: Haaaa Ntsika.
I move my finger in and out of her faster then turn her
around.
Lathi: Ntsika..
She says so low.
Me: Mmm baby.
Lathi: Please I..please...
Me: please what mama?
Lathi: Put it in please I want you..
I like how she is begging for it, she is letting loose and
enjoying every moment of it, this is what happens when you
stop playing nun in the bedroom and allow yourself to be
free around your partner.
I shove my dick in.
Lathi: Aaaah..
Me: You want it?
Lathi: Yes please baby..
Me: You promise never to give it to anyone right?
Lathi: I..fuck..yes I promise..
I brush her butt and starts moving brushing it, I stop moving,
I feel her moving fast.
Me: aaah Yes baby move for me, damn..
She grabs on the sheet, I move her again and place her one
leg on my shoulder, and shove it in, she squirts I lose control
and start moving faster groaning and her cookie muscles
clench on my dick I cum deep in her and collapse next to her,
I am sweating, I pull her to me and kiss her forehead.
Me: Thank you baby, you were great and today you showed
me flames.
She giggles.
Me: I meant it when I said don't give it to anyone because
one of us would die and I definitely won't be leaving my kids.
Lathi: I won't Ntsika.
*
We are waiting for her sister to come meet her and Lathi is
so nervous she keeps standing up and sitting back down, the
kids are sleeping on the couch next to us, it's only the four of
us Miyah and my look alike went to the center and dad went
to fetch Langa's new car that I will be taking to him later
today. Mom is at Uncle Kwanele's with Sis Mbali.
I hear a knock on the door, I get up and open, a girl with doll
eyes stands infront of me, she blinks a lot just like Lathi, she
is older than her.
Lazola: Hello I don't know if i'm at the right address I'm
looking for my sister Lathitha?
You can't miss the british accent in her english.
Me: Come on in, this is the right address.
Lazola: Thank you.
She looks around then Lathi runs to her and hug her tight
crying.
Lazola: Oh baby don't cry ok it's ok i'm here now.
Lathi: I missed you so much Zolah you left me.
Lazola: I had no choice, you know how mom and dad are, I
had to go sweety.
They sit down and Lazola looks at me.
Lathi: Uhm this is Ntsika my boyfriend the father of my kids.
She gasps.
Lazola: You have kids Lathi? Mom didn't tell me but I just
went there to get your number that's all.
Lathi: So they still have it but never call to check on me.
Lazola: Don't mind those bitter old people, you have a
beautiful home Ntsika, do you have an older brother?
Me: No I am the oldest.
Lathi chuckles I know what she is thinking, me and my twin
brother always fight about who is older and I always tell him
i'm old.
Lazola: That's a bummer, how old is your dad?
The door opens and dad comes in, he looks around and
greet.
Luyolo: Hello.
Lathi stands up.
Lathi: Uhm dad this is my older sister Lazola.
Luyolo: Mmm nice to meet you Lazola.
She gets up and fix her short dress and comes near dad and
attempt to hug him but dad steps back.
Luyolo: A handshake will be fine.
They shake hands and Mom and Aunt mbali comes in they
look beautiful Mbali is holding Iviwe in her arms.
Dad goes to mom and kiss her until we shout for them to
stop.
Mbali: There are kids in the room and Lathi!
I laugh they always refer Lathi as a baby because of her small
voice and she is younger than Miyah, auntieMbali calls them
"The next generation wives" .
Dad takes Viwe from Mbali and kiss her walking away.
Lathi: Ma Ziyanda and Aunt Mbali this is my sister Lazola,
Zolah this is Ntsika's mother and Aunt Mbali.
Zolah looks at mom.
Lazola: I didn't expect to see someone your age being the
owner of this house.
Mbali: Do you know her age?
I clear my throat, Auntie Mbali calls herself the "6th sense" in
the family she says she can smell trouble from afar and a
threat to our family, and now the look she is giving Lazola
makes me believe she doesn't like her but I hope i'm wrong
because Lathi loves her sister she talks about her all the time
and now that she is back she will want to be around her all
the time.
Ziyanda: Nice meeting you Lazola.
We all sit down after mom prepared cakes and tea for us.
Lazola: So that is your husband Ziyanda?
Ziyanda: Yes he is.
She replies with a very long mmmm Mbali still have her eyes
on her.
Lazola: So uhm since I'm back I will like to take my sister to
my house if that won't be a problem.
I look at Lathi.
Ziyanda: And what about the kids?
Lazola: They can stay here she can visit them everyday.
Me: No..you just came back and you are already shooting
orders that's not going to happen.
Lathi: Ntsika don't talk to my sister like that she is way older
than you.
Mbali: Lathitha I have never seen you raise your voice at my
son don't start today infront of me ok sisi.
Lathi nods looking down.
Lathi: I'm sorry Ntsika..
Lazola: Good people it was just a suggestion i'm sorry if I
spoke out of turn.
Ziyanda: It's ok but let Lathi decides on what she wants to do
don't just ambush her like that.
Lazola: Yes ma'am, Lathitha walk me out baby I will come
visit you again tomorrow if that is ok to you Ma'am.
Mbali: It's fine we will all be here.
Lazola: Ok.
They stand up and walk out the door, I wipe my face.
Ziyanda: are you ok Pillar?
Me: I think I'm having that 6th sense too Auntie Mbali.
Mbali: I had it the minute I entered those doors baby that girl
is nothing but trouble.
Luyolo: Pillar catch, that is Langa's car keys.
Mbali: Luu I need a new car too.
Luyolo: Tell your husband Mbali I am not your father.
Mbali: You are so rude you dark boring ugly thing.
Mom is laughing out loud tears are running down her
beautiful face.
Luyolo: Still not getting a car from me you beautiful crazy
lunatic.
I stand up leaving them arguing, I walk out and see Lazola
and Lathi standing closer to each other looks like Zolah is
whispering something to Lathi, I clear my throat and kiss
Lathi's cheek.
Me: I'm taking Langa's car to him, I will come back later, bye
Lazola.
Lathi: Ok.
Lazola: Bye Ntsika.
I drive out.
*
LANGA
*
Sifiso didn't come back last night so i'm guessing he slept
with Lona and I don't know man that doesn't sit well with
me at all, it's driving me crazy, I know I chased him out but I
really hoped he will come and tell me that Lona has gone
home.
Ma calls my name, I wear my shirt and go to her.
Ma: Morning come eat the breakfast is ready.
We go to the kitchen and I find Sifiso and Lona sitting around
the table, I sit opposite them and greet forcing a smile on my
face ma sits next to me.
Me: Morning.
Lona doesn't reply.
Sifiso: Hi.
He replies looking down on his plate.
Ma: Lona we should just pay Lobola for you already you are
always here.
She giggles.
Lona: Fisoh always wants me here Ma.
I keep my eyes on Sifiso he looks up and find me staring at
him, I squint my eyes, he quickly move his eyes around.
We continue eating breakfast and my phone rings, it's
Ntsika.
Me: Brother..
Ntsika: I am outside run!
I chuckle.
Me: I'm coming.
I drop the phone.
Me: Excuse me Ma, my brother is here can I go to him.
Ma: Tell him to come in.
I call him and tell him to come. He knocks.
Ma: Go open for him Sfiso.
He get up, comes back with Ntsika I get up and we side hug,
I'm so happy so see him.
Ntsika: Ma ninjani?( mother how are you?)
Ma: Anisafani kuhluke ubumhlophe nje kulo( You look
exactly alike the only difference is that he is light)
She is referring to me.
I chuckle, she dish up for Ntsika and we all eat, and we walk
him out since he has to go back.
Ma: Come visit me when you have time Ntsika and bring
your mother too I want to meet her.
I'm looking at the car written Langa on the plate it's a new
car and the other one didn't have a personalised plate.
Ma go back inside after saying goodbye to Ntsika and Lona
and Sifiso are still here, Sifiso is holding a conversation with
my brother about cars.
Me: Ntsika is that my car?
Ntsika: Yeah you know they treat you like a child, they think
you won't be safe if you drive your old car mom was like
"What if they mess with the tyres and the car crash, I don't
want to lose my baby" and dad be like " Yeah you are right
love we can't take those chances" I mean what is that.
Lona: So you guys are like what? Patrice Motsepe's kids?
Ntsika looks at her.
Sifiso: Lona you can leave now.
Lona: No I'm asking if are they from a family of gangsters
who steal cars for a living?
Ntsika: Wow.
Me: I know right, I feel like she is disrespecting my parents
right now.
Ntsika: No she is but I'll let it go because she is your girl man.
Me: If Nkanyezi was here she would be gasping for air right
now.
We laugh and Lona looks irritated she thought what she said
will make us angry or scared I don't know.
Ntsika: That guy likes strangling people, the other day she
strangled Miyalo who was cussing at him.
Me: They will kill each other one day.
Ntsika: You can't even get involved because minutes later
you will hear Miyah screaming his name.
We laugh and he get in uncle china's car and drive out.
Me: Don't ever disrespect my parents like that, can't a black
man and woman be successful without being a gangster?
Don't be ignorant dunder head people work their ass off to
make a better living for themselves get with the programme
not every successful people are gangsters, you hear me?
She looks at me up and down then take Sifiso's hand and
walk out the gate.
Me: nxhhh too much beauty but an empty brain.
I admire my car then call my parents thanking them for a
new car. I am really grateful.
Ziyanda: And Mbali and your dad were fighting because she
told Luyolo she needs a new car.
Me: Why she didn't tell her husband?
Luyolo: My point son, they don't understand I have sons to
take care of even your mother won't get no car from me she
can go ask Lukhele or her brothers.
Ziyanda: But you are my husband.
Luyolo: And you gave me kids baby that I need to look after,
you go to your own father sisi.
We laugh and drop the call, I am happy after everything they
have never gave up on me and they don't bring the past up
which tells me they have forgiven me wholeheartedly.
*
The door open and Sifiso walk in, I feel like slapping him so
hard.
I just finished taking a bath i'm wearing my pants only and
texting Samke so we can go out, she is a whole mood I love
her vibe so I think it's safe to call her my friend.
Sifiso: Langa.
I ignore him.
Sifiso: I'm sorry.
Me: For what?
Sifiso: Uhm that Lona slept here last night.
Me: You guys fucked?
Sifiso: I..look..it was a mist..
I throw my phone at him he catches it before it can reach his
face.
I take my shirt and wear it then my tekkies then take the car
keys he stands on the doorway.
Me: Get the fuck out of my way and give me my phone.
Sifiso: Listen to me Langa I..
Me: Move out of my way Sfiso.
My phone rings in his hand, he answer it and put it on
speaker I think it's Samke but Nia speaks.
Nia: Hey baby.
I grab it from his hand.
Me: Nia.
Nia: I can't get you off my mind can you visit me at the
hospital.
Me: I will think about it..
Samke calls.
Me: Look I have to go..
I answer Samke's call.
Me: Baby mama..
Samke: Mom is going somewhere so I am with Sammy she
didn't go to school today.
Me: Come with her we will go together.
Samke: Ok you're so sweet.
I drop the call.
Sifiso: So you are taking my family out without telling me.
Me: Your family?
Sifiso: My baby girl and her mother.
Me: Sorry, you can call Samke and cancel then.
Sifiso: No you can go and play happy family with them.
Me: I take Samke as a friend she helped me when your stupid
friends attacked me if you don't want that it's fine but I
wasn't gonna sleep with her if that's what you think.
Sifiso: I don't care.
Me: Ofcaurse you don't, you slept with Lona but you told me
you love me, I asked you about this and you said it is
cheating, so you, you who started all this cheated right after I
agreed to whatever you call this, you are making me a fool
wena and you digust me right now.
Sifiso: Langa..
Me: Just get the fuck out of my way dude right now!
I shout at him, I'm so frustrated I might just punch him in 5,
4 , 3 , 2 .. He comes closer to me I release a very quickly
punch..he groans.
I push him out of my way and get in the car and drive out, I
take deep breaths because i'm shaking.
My phone rings on the passenger seat I ignore it then drive
to Samke's house. I take the phone and step out of the car, I
see that the call was from Sifiso.
Me: Nx bitch ass nigga.
I call Samke telling her i'm outside.
She comes out with a beautiful Sam next to her, they are
catwalking I laugh, Sam has a very crazy mom.
I hug them.
Sam: Uncle Langa.
I pick her up she giggles.
Me: You still remember me?
Sam: Of caurse I do you gave me two 5 rands the last time I
saw you.
I laugh yes I did give her money she asked for chips and I
didn't have them and I had those two 5 rands in my pockets.
Samke : Did you say thank you?
Sam: Yes I did I am a princess I say please and thank you.
Such an adorable baby.
We get in the car and drive to a shopping centre and buy
Pizza nothing is more interesting to me here than Pizza and
we start eating.
Samke: Is Sifiso working today?
Me: No he is at home.
Samke: Do you guys get along?
Me: sometimes not always.
She laughs.
Samke: Right, I want to braid Sammy's hair, you can wait for
us in the car.
Me: No we can all go it's fine.
Sam get her hair braided and I pay for her after a long
argument with Samke who didn't want me to pay but I did
anyway.
We drive home after buying a 12 pack of beers.
They go to the main house and I go to my room and open one
beer and drink it all up.
And sleep in bed, Samke comes in and take a beer sitting
next to me.
Samke: I noticed you wasn't yourself today you tried to hide
it but I saw it.
Me: Aah it's nothing serious.
Samke: Ok just know you can tell me anything I like you, you
may be a rich kid but you don't look down on people you
don't carry yourself like most rich kids do.
Me: Probably because I know my parents's history ,how hard
my mom and dad worked for what they have, how my
mother suffered before she became what she is today, so I
wouldn't dream of looking down on people because my
mother taught me that we are all humans we should treat
each other as such and not look for class or backgrounds.
Samke: Your mother is a great woman, I saw how she was
that day, and you guys look a lot like each other.
I chuckle, she is not the first person to say I look like Pink,
one day we were at the mall and one lady called me her little
brother we just laughed it off and told Aunt Mbali and she
looked at us and being her analysing self, she told us our
noses and hair look the same, I had short curly hair that time
and it was before I knew she wasn't my mother so I was
happy because I looked like mom. But to tell you the truth
me and my brothers look alike with everything even their
noses which people say we took from mom so I never
understood how it possible to get the features of a woman
I'm not related too by blood.
Anyway we continue to talk and Sifiso comes in and I feel
like throwing this beer i'm holding at him.
He sits on a chair and Samke stands up and take out a can
and throws it to him he catch it.
Sifiso: Thanks. Sam is sleeping with mom.
Samke: Oh but I was about to leave.
Sifiso: You can fetch her tomorrow.
Samke: Ok, Langa I will see you tomorrow thank you for
today.
Me: Thank you baby mama.
She winks at me and walk out, we drink in silence and the
alcohol is kicking in so I decide stop a little.
Sifiso: Langa.
Me: Stop calling my name like I'm on top of you wena.
Sifiso: I'm sorry for what I did with Lona I promise it was the
last time.
Me: It doesn't have to be, I'm done with this Sifiso, It's over.
He moves his chair and sit infront of me his hands are on my
thighs.
Sifiso: I'm sorry please I was just not sure if you are really in
it please give me another chance.
Me: Chance yamasimba( chance of shit.)
Sifiso: Come on man, Please.
Me: Awuzazi wena ukuthi ufunani( you don't know what you
want) if it's pussy or a hand so you need to decide.
Sifiso: I want you.
Me: I wasn't in that multiple choice.
I laugh out loud I think i'm really drunk.
Sifiso: Ok Go to bed you are drunk.
Me: Care to give me a handjob first, you really know how to
do it.
Sifiso: No.
Me: Why not?
Sifiso: I want you to tell me in my face that you love me and
you want this relationship.
Me: And if I don't?
Sifiso: Then I will have to continue with Lona.
I slap his cheek, he chuckles.
Sifiso: You're the one who doesn't know what you want
Langa, why are you angry if I talk about Lona while you said
it is over.
Mxm, I unzip my pants and pull them down with my boxer
shorts my dick is up, he looks at me.
Sifiso: I want you to say you want me Langa.
I look at my dick it twitches I see him breathing out.
Sifiso: I never thought a guy can turn me on like this, fuck..
He get up and look at me.
Sifiso: We won't be doing anything until you decide what you
really want.
He walk out and I cuss taking off my shirt and get in bed.
I wake up and check the time it's just after 12 midnight. I call
sfiso it rings then goes straight to voicemail.
I wake up an wear my shorts then go to the main house I
open the kitchen door slowly and open his room but it's
locked I knock lightly so Ma won't hear the knock but their
rooms are far apart.
I knock again and he opens the door I try to get in but he
block me.
Me: She is here right?
Sifiso: Yes.
Me: Why? You are full of shit, you are..fuck..i'm leaving right
now i'm going back home...
Sifiso: Langa i'm joking there is no one here.
He opens the door wide and there is no one, I turn and walk
to my room, I take the suitcase and the bag and throw my
stuff inside, I'm fuming in anger that I feel the tears run
down my cheeks, I wipe my face, I feel him behind me.
I continue to pack.
Sifiso: Langa I was playing with you I'm sorry.
He turns me around and looks at me.
Sifiso: Were you crying?
Me: Leave me alone you bastard or I might just hurt you so
bad.
Sifiso: I'm sorry man, it was a bad joke I didn't think you
care.
I turn and close my suitcase taking it next to the door.
I take my pants and wear them then my shirt but he takes it
from my hands I look at him.
Sifiso: You are not leaving.
Me: And who will stop me?
I take the shirt and wear it and wear my shoes and take the
car keys and my phone, I look at him, he is wiping his face
with both hands and his eyes are red.
Sifiso: I'm sorry please don't leave Langa.
His voice is shaky, I step closer to him and start kissing him.
Me: You said I must tell you that I want you.
He groans when I run my hands in his abs.
Me: I want you but if you don't break up with Lona then I
will fuck any girl and make you watch.
I continue to kiss him and we move to bed and sleep.
Sifiso: I love you please just say it back.
Me: I love you.
Sifiso: Thank you, I will take that as my first birthday present
today.
Me: Wooah it's your birthday today?
Sifiso: Yes it is..just give it a few hours from now you will
hear Ma singing, she makes sure I remember it.
I chuckle.
Me: Happy birthday then baby.
We both laugh.
Sifiso: It doesn't sound too bad, thank you baby.
I chuckle and we both sleep next to each other.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
LANGA
*
I wake up and look next to me I find Sfiso sound asleep, I get
up going to the bathroom, I freshen up then go back and sit
next to him shaking him.
Sifiso: Mmm..stop doing that.
Me: Hey birthday boy wake up.
Sifiso: You smell good.
Me: Ngiyageza mina.( I do take baths.)
He opens his eyes and licks his lips.
Sifiso: Stop staring at me.
He says sitting up.
Me: So we don't go public huh?
Sifiso: Look I know i'm hot and you want to show off but I
don't think this is the right time to come out, let's just do our
thing ok.
Me: You are full of yourself now go take a bath man you look
ugly.
Sifiso:why do you bath so early in the morning while you not
going anywhere.
Me: I don't know it's how I was raised I guess or probably
because mom used to bath me until I was 10 years of age so
she would wake me up early before she attends her classes.
He is laughing his ass off next to me.
Me: What is so funny?
Sifiso: 10 years and you still had your mom bath you? damn!
Me: Mom will always see a baby in me but she has three
children who come after me.
Sifiso: But that person you called mom sounded really young
I thought you were just playing with Ma.
Me: I wasn't she looks even younger , she is like our older
sister.
Sifiso: So I can ask her out?
Me: Did you see her husband that day? But hey if you have a
death wish then you can try.
Sifiso: I'm joking, I just want you.
I try to hide my smile but fail, he is cute.
Me: Now get up and get out of my bed, are you working
tomorrow.
Sifiso: No I worked double shifts so I can be free for today
and the weekend.
It's thursday today.
Me: Can we go to Durban then we will come back Monday
morning.
Sifiso: Durban? you mean your home?
Me: We won't stay at my mom's house Sfiso, we will just go
and greet them then we will go.
Sifiso: Go where?
Me: Let me worry about that just go pack a few things,
please.
Sifiso: Ok I hope you not planning on killing me away from
home.
I laugh and kiss him, he roll out of bed and walk out.
I hear Ma singing happy birthday at the top of her voice and
a little voice I think that's Sammy.
I go to the main house and sit with Ma.
Ma: Sifiso tells me you are going to Durban with him, you are
a good friend.
Me: Thank you one day I will take you too my friend.
Ma: Oh no, my child Ziyanda will fetch me one of these days.
Me: Oh wow so you choose her over me Ma?
Ma: Stop being a baby Langa and take those dishes for me.
Sfiso comes back wearing black jeans and a white shirt I
can't help but look at the way he walks, he is feeling himself.
He winks at me I chuckle looking away.
We sit down and start eating breakfast, I keep stealing
glances at him and catch him looking at me.
There is a knock on the door and Sammy runs to open door.
She comes back with a singing Lona, she has a round cake in
her hands
I look at Sfiso he clears his throat.
Lona: Hello Ma, Happy birthday Fisoh.
She says kissing his cheek, I get up and walk out, I make a
call to a hotel in Durban.
Me: Yes, do you guys have available rooms for today and the
weekend till Monday.
Receptionist: Yes sir, you are booking a room for..
Me: A room for two Miss. The name is Langa Mzozo.
Receptionist: Ok Sir we will have your room ready for you
today.
Me: Thank you.
I drop the call and call Iyana.
Iyana: My favourite brother.
Me: Baby Sis I need a huge favour I know you know hot and
beautiful stuff I want you to buy a watch it's a friend's
birthday present, it's a guy and wrap it up for me, I will
transfer money right now, can you do that?
Iyana: Ofcaurse I will I am at the mall already meeting a
friend.
Me: Ok good tell me if it's short I will send more.
I send the money.
Sifiso: Langa..
Me: Are we still going to Durban now that Lona is here?
I ask looking down, i'm already dissapointed.
Sifiso: Yes we are..
I look at him.
Sifiso: You thought I was going to cancel because of her?
I shrug my shoulders.
Sifiso: Langa I meant it when I said I want this.
Me: Ok.
My phone rings and I answer.
Me: Iyana.
Iyana: R1500 short brother but I used my own money so you
owe me.
Me: Thank you so much baby I will pay you back later today.
Iyana: Love you.
Me: I love you more baby Sis where is Q and Sage.
Iyana: They went out with Sis Miyah.
Me: Ok thank you tell mom I said hi.
I drop the call.
Sifiso: For a moment there I thought you're talking to a
girlfriend.
Me: No that was my little sister who comes after me. So have
you packed?
Sifiso: Yeah.
Me: Yeah let me go change, Oh you look good by the way.
I leave him standing there grinning.
I change into black jeans and black t-shirt, I walk out and I
see Sifiso and Lona arguing at the gate.
She walk up to me and slap me so hard that I bite the side of
my cheek and I spit blood comes out.
I look at Sfiso confused and he is so angry.
He pulls Lona back.
Lona: So you think you gonna come here and change things
huh, now you are taking Sfiso to Durban with blood money?
I really wish she wasn't a girl because I would have punched
all those teeth out.
Lona: Yeah I heard that your family came here with guns
threatning to kill the guys here so that can only mean one
thing you all are gangsters even that car is stolen, I know
people like you.
Sifiso: I would really like you to leave my mother's house
Lona.
I leave them shouting and go take my bags then Sfiso's and
put them in the car.
Ma comes out and go to them.
Ma: Lona please respect my house I know I accepted you as
my son's girlfriend but this shouting, No.
I get in the car and wait for Sifiso. He comes in the passenger
seat and I drive out, once we are out of sight he talks.
Sifiso: Can you stop a car a little.
I stop and look at him.
He hold the back of my neck and bring my face closer to his,
we kiss for a while.
Sifiso: Are you ok?
Me: Yeah I'm good.
Sifiso: I'm sorry about what Lona did.
Me: It's fine I just wish she can stop saying my family are
gangsters I don't even know what that is.
Sifiso: I'm sorry.
I start the car and drive all the way to Durban, I call Iyana
and put it on speaker.
Me: Sis are you still at the mall.
Iyana: Yes Galleria mall brother.
Me: Why so far from home?
Iyana: My friends are from Adams brother so yeah.
Me: Ok I am here I just have to drive in and I will take that
thing.
Iyana: Fine by me we are at steers.
I drive and find a parking spot.
Me: Let's go we are meeting my little sister.
Sifiso: Ok.
We step out of the car and walk in, I can see Iya and the
bunch of girls making noise, the minute she spots me she get
up and run to me, I hug her tight.
Iyana: I miss you so much, home is not the same without
you.
Me: I miss you too but you're doing matric you are going
soon.
Iyana: No I'm not dad wants me to go to UKZN so I can stay
at home, who is your friend he is hot..
She whispers and I laugh looking at Sifiso who is just playing
with his phone.
Me: Sfiso this is my Sis Iyana.
They hug and we go greet the rest of the girls who keep
blushing looking at us, I chuckle.
Me: Uhm I need you to go with me to the car with that plastic
and leave it at the back of my seat.
I whisper she nods.
Iyana: We are leaving already.
Me: I want to order first, don't tell Mom i'm here I will come
see her tomorrow.
Iyana: Ok.
I order a lot of food we are going to eat later then we all walk
out.
Girl: Sfiso what is your name on facebook.
I look at Sfiso he looks really annoyed.
Sifiso: I'm not on any social network.
Girl: Oh. are you single?
I burst out in laughter, this girl has balls bigger than mine.
Sifiso: No I'm not.
He quickly get in the car, Iyana sneak in the watch and I get
in and drive out.
Sifiso: Don't I look old for a girl as young as that to low key
ask me out.
Me: Come on they are just kids don't take it serious.
We drive to Protea hotel and check in going to our room.
Sifiso: We are going to stay here?
Me: Yeah.
Sifiso: Until when Langa this place cost a lot of money.
Me: Till monday morning.
Sifiso: No..cancel it, we can sleep here today but tomorrow
we are going home Langa.
Me: But I already paid.
Sifiso: I don't care ask for a refund or something I'm not
staying here.
Me: Why not?
Sifiso: It's fucken expensive ok I can't afford to stay here for
the whole weekend.
Me: But I said i've already paid!
Sifiso: I don't fucken care ok!
Me: Why are you shouting?
Sifiso: I'm a petrol attendant Langa and I have a baby I take
care off this, I won't stay here.
Me: I paid!
Sifiso: You don't get it, this is not it Langa, you brought me
here so I can see how much money you have huh? and what
will I do for you because I can't reach this level!
I have never been so dissapointed in my life, I sit in bed and
look down.
Sifiso: Nxh!
I take my phone and call dad so I can calm down.
Luyolo: Son.
Me: Hey dad.
Luyolo: Are you ok?
Me: Yeah yeah i'm good.
Luyolo: Langelihle.
Me: I'm really good I just wanted to hear your voice.
Luyolo: You want to speak to your mom?
Me: Yes please.
Ziyanda: Langa wam.
I feel one tear running down my eye, I wipe it.
Ziyanda: Hello Langa.
Me: Pink..
Ziyanda: Are you ok?
Me: Yeah I'm good Mom, I think I just made a mistake..
Ziyanda: What is it?
Me: I did something for a friend and she thinks I am showing
off because I have money and I think she is right I went a bit
overboard I didn't mean it.
I know I used "she"
Ziyanda: Why did you do it?
Me: To show that I care, I swear money was the last thing on
my mind.
Ziyanda: Then tell your friend that, don't feel bad for doing
something nice for your friend ok baby.
Me: Thank you Goodnight.
Ziyanda: Goodnight Baby I love you.
I look at Sifiso he still looks angry and looking at the view
outside, now i'm even afraid of giving him his present, I get
up with it and hide it in the side I will sleep on.
I go take a shower and get dressed and go back to the room.
Me: You want to eat now?
He shakes his head, I feel a pang in my heart. I get in bed and
the phone rings it's Samke.
Me: Baby mama.
Samke: How can you do this to me Langa I thought we're
buddies.
Me: What did I do?
Samke: You went to Durban with that grumpy guy and left
me.
I chuckle.
Me: I wish I had taken you instead.
Samke: I know I am your type.
Me: Next time hey.
Samke: Sure thing Baby.
I sit up and look at Sifiso.
Me: Are you going to come to bed?
He ignores me, I hate how i'm feeling right now the old
Langa was going to cuss him out and never care but this soft
side is making me feel weak.
Me: I'm sorry, we can check out now and I will drive back to
Ixopo.
I get up from the bed and change back to the clothes I was
wearing earlier.
I take our bags and my car keys.
Me: Please let's just go.
Sifiso: Go back to bed Langa.
Me: No I..
There is a lump stuck in my throat I clench my jaws.
Me: Let's go..or you will find me in the car.
My voice is shaky.
He get up and come stand infront of me, I look down.
Sifiso: We will leave tomorrow.
He takes the bags and the keys from my hands, I stand in the
same position.
Sifiso: What is this?
I slowly turn, he is holding a watch in his hand.
Me: It's mine.
I go to him.
Sifiso: You bought it for me right, but when?
Me: No, elami. (It's mine)
Sifiso: Don't lie to me Langa, you asked your sister to buy it?
Me: Yeah it was a birthday present but I will take it back.
Sifiso: Why are you showing off!?
Me: I didn't mean to, I just wanted us to spend the weekend
together and I just thought of the place,I didn't think about
money.
Sifiso: Yeah because you have a lot of it huh.
Me: Sifiso you don't want to be here let's just go, maybe you
prefer spending your birthday with Lona.
Sifiso: Now that's bullshit!
Me: Will you accept that watch?
He looks at me, I'm trying so hard to hold my tears back.
Me: Please.
He gives it to me.
Sifiso: I can't.
Me: Ok.
I take it, my hands are shaking.
Me: I want to go to mom, can I?
He shrug his shoulders and take off his clothes getting in
bed.
I take my car keys and walk out, I drive home, the gate opens
and I drive in.
I knock in mom and dad's room, dad shouts come in, I walk
in.
Ziyanda: Langa!!you are here? How! When did you get here?
I let the tears fall and sit in their bed. She hugs me.
Ziyanda: Is it your friend?
I nod.
Luyolo: Langa..
Me: Dad.
Luyolo: Do you think it is worth the tears.
I don't understand him.
Luyolo: Is you friend worth your tears, do you care that
much of what your friend thinks?
Me: Yes.
Luyolo: Then go back and fix it.
Me: How when they think i'm just a show off, I should just
take your old car and leave that one here.
Ziyanda: Langa your dad bought that car for you so you can
use it, we work hard so you guys can have a better life, next
thing they will have a problem with something you wear,
then what? Are you going to walk around naked? Just tell
your friend I said in this family we are not show offs we just
do things from the goodness of our hearts ok.
I get up and wipe my tears.
Me: I will see you guys tomorrow, I am around.
Ziyanda: Goodluck buddy.
I walk out and drive back to the hotel.
I take off my clothes and get in next to him.
Sifiso: You're back..
Me: Yes and I'm sorry for what I did.
Sifiso: Ok.
Just like that. I guess we will talk in the morning on our way
back.
WE ARE ONE( I am my brothers's voice)
*
Insert 69
*
LANGA
*
I wake up first in the morning and go to the bathroom and
take a shower and brush my teeth, I wear my shorts, a vest
and flip flops.
I sit in bed and attempt to shake him but stop myself and go
sit on the couch.
I am hungry but i'm not going to buy breakfast because I
don't want to be called a show off again.
I see him moving then he sit up.
Sifiso: Hi.
I nod, I'm even afraid of saying anything, I might just say
something that will make him angry.
Sifiso: Langa look..i'm sorry, I overreacted.
Me: I..Can you take a shower I want to take you back home.
Sifiso: What do you mean take me back home?
Me: My time in Ixopo is over, I want to come back home now.
He get up and sit infront of me.
Sifiso: Ngiyaxolisa Langa.(I'm sorry Langa).
Me: Look I did all this so we can enjoy our time here in
Durban, I wanted you to enjoy your birthday weekend with
me since you told me you love me, this was supposed to be
us getting to know each other, but now I can't even take you
home with me because you might just say i'm showing off,
your favourite phrase from yesterday.
Sifiso: I was just overwhelmed Langa this place costs a lot of
money.
Me: Between you and me Sfiso you are the successful one,
I've never worked in my entire life, I dropped out in Grade
11 I went back to school then dropped out again in Grade 12,
I don't have matric, you, you have a job, you can take care of
your baby girl with your own money you work hard for, I am
nothing without my parents.
Sifiso: I get it.
Me: So let me just take you home, I will come back with the
rest of my stuff.
Sifiso: What about us?
Me: I can't be with someone who thinks when I'm doing
something for him I'm showing off, it all came from the heart
Sfiso and you didn't see that, you and Lona deserve each
other.
Sifiso: What?
Me: Yeah you heard me, now get your ass up and go to the
bathroom I want to leave so I can come back early.
Sifiso: You can't..
Me: Stop talking, it's over we are done with this shit.
Sifiso: You don't mean that..
Me: I do, you know dad asked me if you're worth the tears
and I said yes, I was wrong you are not worth my tears,
bastard.
Sifiso: Langa..
Me: Go back to that ignorant girlfriend of yours, you spoiled
our first night here, crying to mom and dad wasn't how I
invisioned my first day here with you.
I hear him sniffing, his eyes are bloodshot red, he looks up.
Me: You are just toying with my feelings, I talked alone you
were angry I didn't even know what to say, I came back from
home and you brushed me off, I'm not cut out for this.
Sifiso: Fuck..no..
He get up and go look out the window.
Sifiso: Langa..
The voice is shaky, he is giving me his back.
Me: Even right now i'm hungry we were going to eat
breakfast at home but I will just sit here and wait for you to
decide if we can leave.
He balance his hands on a window sill, the muscles in his
upper back are clearly visible.
Sifiso: From the bottom of my heart Langa I humbly
apologise to you baby, I'm sorry..
That 'baby' gives me goosebumps it sounds so sincere.
Me: Go take a shower Sfiso I want to leave.
He looks at me, his eyes are glassy and red, he goes to the
bathroom and come back wearing his shorts, his legs are so
heary and he has bow legs.
I watch him as he lotion his body, I stand up and turn him
around, I kiss him so fast and hungrily and pull down his
underwear, I take off my clothes and start kissing him again
and push him to bed getting ontop of him. I start rubbing my
dick on his (frot) while I continue to kiss him. I dry hump so
fast ontop of his dick he is groaning.
Me: fuck..
I'm tempted to take it further than this but I can't, I use my
hand to hold rub both of our dicks together now our balls
are rubbing each other.
Sifiso: I can't last long baby..shit..yeah..that is good..fuck!
I groan as we both cum same time and I sleep next to him.
Sifiso: Fuck!
I face up not saying anything.
Sifiso: Babe.
The goosebumps.
Sifiso: Do you forgive me Langa?
I ignore him.
Sifiso: Come on baby say something.
Me: Let's wake up and go I am really hungry.
Sifiso: We didn't eat yesterday let's eat that food there is a
microwave I will warm it up.
Me: Ok.
I don't want to say anything that might put him off, but I
really don't like eating last night's take aways, but home
cooked meal I can eat it even after 3 days as long as it is still
good.
He comes back with a meat from steers it looks really good
you can tell it's hot.
Sifiso: Get up you've been making so much noise about being
hungry.
I get up and we eat, it's not bad and I feel like myself again.
Me: Thank you.
Sifiso: I have to feed my man.
I chuckle.
Sifiso: You are still mine right?
Me: Can we stay another day please..
He gives me a deadly look and I look down.
Me: Sorry..
Sifiso: We can stay for the rest of the weekend if that will
make you happy.
I look at him.
Me: You mean it?
Sifiso: Yes.
Me: Uhm thanks, and the..uhm..the watch.
Sifiso: I will take it, thank you.
Me: Do you really want to take it or you're doing it because I
said i'm leaving?
Sifiso: I saw how dissapointed you were last night and I
heard the conversation between you and your mother, I was
unfair to you and I'm really sorry.
Me: Thank you and i'm sorry for not asking you.
Sifiso: It's ok. Uhm so uhm about our sex life, are we ever
going to do anal sex?
Me: Have you done it to a girl before?
Sifiso: No.
Me: I have and it's really good I don't know about it being
done to me though. Requires a lot of patience and a lot of
lubricant too since it is not moist like a vagina.
Sifiso: Why does a kid teach me about sex? What was I doing
all these years.
I laugh.
Me: Let's not rush to things we will do everything eventually.
Uhm so we won't be doing anything here anymore.
Sifiso: This is fine to me.
Me: Is it? Can we get drunk at least, there is a place here
Egagasini and Mondise MVG is has a good vibe, no junkies
except for around ofcourse.
Sifiso: I have been there when me and Samke were still
friends we used to go there with other friends.
Me: Why did you stop being friends?
Sifiso: Because Lona disrespected her and I didn't say
anything she was angry and we stopped being friends, we
were ok even after Sam was born but Lona was the problem
between us.
Me: So you never loved her.
Sifiso: I loved her as a friend I still do but we are not as close
as before.
Me: But I think you should, that way Sam can see that her
parents get along but make it clear to her that you are
friends because it may be hard to accept when one of you
introduce your partners to her.
Sifiso: You are wise for your age.
Me: You don't know my age.
Sifiso: Oh but I do, I saw your drivers licence I shouldn't even
be dating you, you are way too young 9 years apart that's
just wrong.
Me: But we don't look 9 years apart i'm grown.
Sifiso: Yeah you are, who is older between you and the twin
brothers?
Me: They are older but we are just months apart.
Sifiso: They look a bit younger.
Me: I am a rare breed.
I look at him.
Me: You are handsome.
He smiles revealing his white teeth and then licks his pinkish
lips with the outer part being a bit darker.
Me: You are turning me on..
Sifiso: Then do something about it..
Me: Really?
Sifiso: Yes really..
I move closer and kiss him , our kiss becomes rough I push
him to bed, the way he groans from the back of his throat
makes me want to fuck him really hard.
Me: Can I do it, you will tell me if it's uncomfortable.
He nods a little.
Me: Are you sure?.. fuck..
I stroke my dick, he reach for his bag and take out condoms
and a lubricant.
I don't have time to ask why he has all these things.
I go back to kissing him roughly and take the lubricant and
pour in my hands, I hold his dick and rub it, it's so oily, I do it
a couple of times then I move to his balls.
Sifiso: Shi..t
I massage his balls, I pour more lubricant in my hand and
move it to his butt cleft , I slowly run my finger in the outer
part of his anus I feel his knees shake.
I slowly put my middle, he bites his lower lip
Me: You want me to stop?
He shakes his head, I continue pushing my middle finger in
and out of him he starts stroking his dick, I can see i'm
winning.
I kiss him again..then put lubricant in my dick and rub it a
while, I position myself..and I push in a little then stop.
Me: Babe keep your eyes on me, tell me if i'm hurting you..
He smiles biting his lips.
Me: Mmmh you're so fucken hot, God!
I take it out and push the tip back in again then pull out and
put more lube. I push it all the way in.
Me: Shit..
I start moving slowly looking into his lazy eyes.
Me: You're still ok?
I move a bit faster, he starts groaning and stroking his dick
faster I move my waist faster fucking him and it feels so
good..
Me: Shit I'm cuming baby yes...yes..fuck.
I slam into him and his cum comes out of his dick.
Me: aaah damn..
He pulls me to him and kiss me so passionately.
I wipe him and sleep on top of him.
Sifiso: You're heavy..
Me: I know, Uhm did you enjoy it, did I hurt you?
Sifiso: At first it was a bit uncomfortable but you were gentle
so I ended up enjoying every moment of it.
Me: Thank you for allowing me to do it.
He wraps his arms around me and we fall asleep.
*
I wake up when there is a phone vibrating I move my hands
and take it with my eyes still closed and answer it.
Me: Mmm.
Lona: Baby when are you coming back we need to talk?
I groan when I realise that this is not my phone.
Lona: Did you hear me Sfiso I am pregnant for fucks sake and
my parents are freaking out.
I feel myself sweating and I move away from him she has
dropped the call. I sit there and watch him sleeping, his
phone is still on my hand, he opens his eyes and smiles but I
keep a straight face.
Sifiso: What's up? Is that my phone?
I smack him with it.
Sifiso: Langa!
I go to the bathroom for almost an hour I am angry, I find
him sitting up looking shocked.
Sifiso: Langa!
This guy can call my name 100times in one day I love it but
right now it's annoying the crap out of me.
Me: Want me to take you back to your second baby mama?
Sifiso: Look baby maybe she is lying I'm still waiting for a
confirmation.
His phone beeps two times, I see his hand shaking I grab the
phone from his hand. It's a picture of Lona in an 'actual' bed
doing an 'actual' ultrasound scan and then picture of the
'actual' ultrasound. I am trying to emphasise that there is no
lie in these pictures everything is in black and white even a
fool can see it, and this fool, being myself is not settling for
this shit no ways that girl is already working on my nerves
and she is a neighbour to make things worse so I'm not
investing my feelings on this shit.
His phone rings in my hand it's Ma, I answer it for him and
put it on speaker.
Me: Ma.
Ma: Langa are you okay there, are you guys eating? Come
back home.
Me: We are fine Ma really and we are coming back tod..
Sifiso: Hi Ma.
He cuts me off.
Ma: So you got Lona pregnant Sifiso now they want you to
come back to confirm that you're the one who got her
pregnant.
Sifiso: Ma.
Ma: Don't Ma me! already you are struggling with Samantha
because you have to pay your fees at the University, how are
you going to take care of another baby and they will want
damages you know that.
I look at him, he didn't tell me anything about the fees and
university.
He looks at me.
Sifiso: I'm sorry Ma.
I give him his phone and I check the time it's 15:01pm, I sit
down and look out the window, the beautiful seaview of
Durban I can feel the breeze from up here.
I feel hands on my shoulder then he wraps his arms around
my neck his breath hits the side of my face I close my eyes.
Sifiso: Baby please don't break up with me, what I feel for
you is different from all the dating I have been doing all
these years, It's deep I don't want it to end.
Me: I feel the difference too and i'm not going to break up
with you for your past because I have a very nasty past too
that I wouldn't want to be judged because of it, but what
happens today here on will determine the future of our
relationship.
Sifiso: Thank you so much, I promise I won't let you down
ok.
Me: You better not because I will kill you and slice off your
dick and feed it to Lona.
Sifiso: Babe come on don't say something like that.
He moves his tongue on my neck all the way up to my ear, he
bites and licks my neck, he pull me up and turns me to him,
we start kissing with our tongues, we move to bed and get
ontop of me, he goes down to my nipple and grab it by his
teeth and move his tongue on it.
Me: Damn baby..fuck..
He trace his lips all the way down to my chest, I feel his
tongue touching the tip of my dick my knees literally shake,
he takes it into his mouth..
Me: Fucken shit...fuck yeah..yes Sfiso damn..
He sucks on my dick I feel really close he knows what he is
doing and his mouth is really warm..
I pull him up and kiss him..
Me: I want us to give each the same pleasure babe..
He switch position and his dick in my mouth mine is on his
we are sucking on each other, the groans fill the entire room,
the time he groans with my dick in his mouth I become more
close, he starts moving fast in my mouth I grab his butt
cheeks, I will cum anytime from now..
Me: Mmmm...
I feel his dick twitshing I remove it from my mouth and give
him a fast handjob he cums all over my chest, he goes faster
then handjob me then I cum too..we are groaning and
breathing heavily, he sleeps next to me and I kiss him. And
we wipe the cum off.
Me: That was good babe, very hot too..
Sifiso: I know right..
He smiles but it doesn't reach his eyes.
Me: You didn't feel it? I wasn't doing it right?
Sifiso: No babe it was great, you were great I'm just worried
that you will leave me one day.
Me: Lets just live for today and not worry ourselves about
what tomorrow brings, we will see it when we get there.
Sifiso: I just wish we can go public so we can be free.
Me: Maybe one day we will, now people can take pictures
and put my brother Nkanyezi's picture next to us I already
see the caption in my head.
Sifiso: Is he famous?
Me: Not really, the fact that you don't know him means he
isn't but this is Durban journalists capitalise on everything,
he is well known for the centre he opened for the disabled
children.
Sifiso: Oh yeah I get it now.
Me: I love you, I really hope you're not going to hurt me with
Lona.
He doesn't say anything that scares the crap out of me, I sit
up and look at him.
Me: You won't hurt me right?
He looks like he is thinking.
Me: I hate being ignored!!
He looks at me.
Sifiso: Sorry.
Me: What fees was your mom talking about?
Sifiso: What!? You want to pay them?
This guy is rude.
Sifiso: I'm studying part time at UNISA this is my final year
couldn't get any bursary or NSFAS.
Me: You know sometimes I know I can be really rude but I
watch what I say to people especially who haven't said
anything wrong to me, you should practice that sometimes,
I'm not your friend.
Sifiso: You are...
Me: I am not your friend Sfiso.
He sighs.
Sifiso: Look i'm just stressed out right now I'm sorry.
Me: Do you love me?
He sit up and take my hand.
Sifiso: I love you so much.
Me: Then we need to respect each other, I play a lot but
disrespect freaks me out, I feel like i'm not man enough.
Sifiso: I'm sorry..
Me: That's all you do ever since we started this Sfiso.
Sifiso: Forgive me..
He kiss me and later we dress up and hit the club it's a good
vibe around but Sifiso looks like he doesn't want to be here, I
text Nkanyezi to come after an hour he comes in with the
beautiful hot miss Miyah clinging on his arm they look good
together it's like they were made for each other, beautiful.
I tap Sfiso he looks at me..I point at my brother he nods, I get
up and go to them , We hug and go to our table.
Me: Miss Miyah you always look ravishing.
She blush.
Nkanyezi: "Don't hit on my shorty Langa."
I chuckle they greet Sfiso and we order a bottle of wine for
Miyah and we drink beers. Nkanyezi doesn't really like
alcohol so he is still holding a the same beer I don't even see
him taking a sip.
Sfiso looks uncomfortable.
Me: Are you ok?
Sifiso: Yeah I'm good.
I nod.
Me: "Where is Pillar?"
Nkanyezi: "Having problems with Lathi but they are working
on it."
Me: "I will see him before I go home."
Miyah: "When are you coming back, we miss having you
around."
Me: "I'm taking a break from all your fights."
She laughs.
We call it a night and the bill comes Sfiso looks at me.
Me: Hey Sis can you come later with the bill we still want one
more bottle of wine.
She nods and comes back with it.
Miyalo: "I can never say no to wine."
Sge says opening it and Nkanyezi gives her a death stare but
Miyah doesn't dare look his way.
Me: Can you borrow me your phone a little.
I ask Sfiso he gives it to me, I take out my phone and transfer
money into his card since we both using capitec and delete
the message I give him back his phone.
The bill comes back again, my brother takes out his card, I
see Sfiso's face changing.
Sifiso: I will pay.
He takes out his card but I can see he is holding his breath,
they swipe the card and he punch the pin on then done we
are ready to go.
We walk out and say our goodbyes, Miyah and Nkanyezi get
into the cab and go home, I drive my car to the hotel.
We go to our room, He is busy on his phone, I am holding my
breath i'm hoping he doesn't see what I did.
Sifiso: What did you do?
He ask looking down?
Sifiso: Answer me Langa! What did you do?
Me: What?
Sifiso: The money dammit! I can see it here, I know I didn't
have that amount on my card but I was gonna swipe then
pay the rest of the bill with the cash I have, why did you do
this?
Me: I..I didn't have my card with me.
Sifiso: Now you are fucking with me!
Me: It's the truth you can check there next to you I left my
card here.
He doesn't check instead he get up and walk up to me.
Sifiso: You are a sneaky bastard, what? You didn't want your
brother and his girlfriend to see that you are friends with
someone who can't pay the bills.
Me: No.
I think i'm not cut out for this really, I'm doing everything
wrong, my card was with me but I saw his reaction when the
bill came, I could read his face that he was embarrassed and
I sent that money so he could pay and even if he didn't insist
on paying after I had sent that money, I was going to ask for
his card and pay with it.
Me: I'm sorry ok, I'm sorry.
Sifiso: I am leaving right now.
Me: It's in the middle of the night and we were drinking, I
can't drive.
Sifiso: I didn't say you can drive me.
He takes his bag and walk out I follow him.
Me: It's late, where will you go, it's not safe out there ?
He ignores me and walk out, I follow him out.
Me: Sfiso i'm so sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel that
way baby , I'm sorry.
I run my hand on my hair, what did I do.
I watch him walk away.
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
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LANGA
*
I have been trying to call Sifiso but it rings unanswered, I'm
worried it's been over an hour i'm standing outside the
hotel.
I keep looking around hoping he comes back.
I go back to our room and try calling him again but his phone
rings in bed.
Me: Fuck!
So he left his phone, now I have hope that he will come back
to get his phone at least.
I call mom.
Me: Pink.
Ziyanda: You promised to come see me today Langa I even
cooked.
Me: I'm sorry mama I will come tomorrow morning.
Ziyanda: Ok, Usharp?
Me: Yes, you?
Ziyanda: Ngibuza wena.( I'm asking you)
Me: I did it again mom.
Ziyanda: What?
Me: we had a fight again because of money.
Ziyanda: Oh baby, you want to come home?
Me: No I will be fine.
Ziyanda: Try communicating Langa, tell your friend what
you're thinking before doing it, some people feel like you're
buying their love and affection when it involves money
nobody likes feeling like that, so try to talk.
Me: So you can't even suprise that person.
Ziyanda: You can after you clear all the confusion out, it's
clear that this friendship is new, you don't know each other
on a personal level get to know each other first then you will
both know how to do things from now onwards, people are
different.
Me: I hear you Dr M.
Ziyanda: Love you.
Me: love you.
I drop the call then pace around the room sitting down and
getting back up again. I do that almost the whole night, my
eyes hurt because I didn't get any sleep.
It's 7 in the morning I hear the door opening, I jump up and
go to the door, it's him and i'm so happy he is safe, I hug him
but he doesn't hug me back instead he push me off him and
get in.
Sifiso: Where is my phone?
I point at it on the bed, he grabs it.
Me: Where did you sleep?
Sifiso: Are you my wife?
A pang in my heart moves to my gut.
Me: I am asking because I brought you here, if something
had happened to you I was gonna have to answer for it.
Sifiso: Nothing happened as you can see I am fine.
Me: We talked about this, stop disrespecting me.
Sifiso: Just because I let you fuck my ass doesn't mean you
should tell me what to do.
Me: What!?
I ask in a low voice, unbelievable!
Sifiso: You heard me.
I step closer to him.
Me: Is that why you wanted to fuck with me so you can bully
me, making me feel like everything I do is wrong?
Sifiso: You act like a bitch that's..
I throw a punch, and he returns it, I step back looking at him,
shit hurts.
Me: leave!
Sifiso: I am leaving.
When he is at the door I speak.
Me: You are searching for a fight so you can go be with your
baby mama, you are looking for a way to break up with me
because you don't have balls to say it to my face, well I have
them and they are too big so i'll give it to you,It's fucken
over, I can't be running after your ass everyday, we fucked,
it's over!Out!
He walks out.
I go take a shower and change my clothes then go
downstairs to check out.
Receptionist: But you paid till monday it's Sunday today.
Me: It's ok, I have to go..
I walk out with my bag and drive back to Ixopo to fetch my
stuff.
I get there and find Lona with Ma.
Me: Hi.
Ma: Hello I didn't know you guys are coming back so early.
Me: Yeah.
Lona: Where is Sfiso?
Me: He had to start somewhere he will come back soon.
Ma: Sit down and eat.
Me: No ma thank you, I ate before I came here.
I walk out, I guess the taxis are delaying him, I get in bed and
close my eyes.
*
Later I get up and start packing the rest of my stuff and I
hear a knock, my heart skips a beat, I think it's Sfiso who
hasn't come to my room, I open the door and it's Samke.
Samke: Hey buddy.
We hug.
Me: Hey baby mama.
Samke: I thought you are coming back on monday I asked
Sfiso and he almost bit my head off.
Me: I had to come back so I can pack, I'm going back home
tomorrow.
Samke: Why Langa? Are we not treating you right here? Are
the boys threatening you?
Me: No, it's kinda personal.
Samke: Take me with you..
We laugh.
Samke: I wish I can leave with you there is nothing for me
here, my future that is.
Me: You will be fine, you just need to plan ahead start now
for next year.
Samke: I will do that, Ma said I should call you to eat, Lona is
there she is so annoying.
I laugh and we go together and sit on the table.
Ma stands up to dish up for us, we sit on the table , Lona and
Sifiso are opposite me and Samke. I'm avoiding Sfiso's eyes.
Lona: You should just date already you guys look like those
poor coloureds from....
Samke quickly gets up, I pull her back down and shake my
head.
Me: Can't fight a pregnant woman.
Lona: Oh she wasn't gonna do shit to me she knows I can
turn her pathetic life upside down like I will do to you I will
make sure the police investigate your family.
Samke: And who are you? Mrs President?
Mom comes back and we start eating, her phone rings she
walks out.
Me: You are a weak man Sfiso you just gonna sit there and let
your "wife" there disrespect me us like that.
He huffs I wish I can just smack his face.
Sifiso: Langa not now..
Samke: This is what he do Langa, he let Lona walk all over
me like i'm a piece of shit that is why I just want to go away
from here with my baby.
Sifiso : But you can't take my baby anywhere.
Samke: I know that because I have nothing right..
I hear her sniffing next to me, I take her hand and stare at
Sfiso.
Sfiso: I'm sorry Samke.
Ma comes back and sit she looks around the table.
Ma: Samke you're crying..
Samke get up and run out.
Ma: What happened Langa, Sifiso?
I stare at Sfiso squinting my eyes I'm trying to figure out
where is the love he said he has for me I can't see it and that
hurts, I get up and walk out, I find Samke sitting on my
doorstep crying, I pull her up and hug her, she cries so hard.
Me: It's ok they are not worth it, they deserve each other ok,
shhhh.
She cries on my chest.
Me: Let's drive around you will be fine.
We get into the car and drive around, we end up buying
alcohol and go back to the house, we start in the main house
we find Ma and the couple sitting in the lounge, we sit down.
Me: uhm Ma, I'm here to let you know that I'm leaving the
day after tomorrow.
Ma: But Why?
Me: My brothers need me.
Ma: Is everything ok?
Me: Yes it's just family issues.
Sfiso doesn't even look my way.
We get up and walk back to my room we drink our sorrows
away.
She sleep on the bed and I sleep on the couch.
I wake up in the morning, Samke is still sleeping.
I freshen up and walk out, I see Sfiso wearing his work
uniform, I follow him.
Me: Sfiso.
He turns.
Me: What went wrong babe, I thought we were going
somewhere.
Sifiso: You think everything is about money Langa, what you
did was wrong.
Me: I apologised, you didn't have to leave me like that..
Sifiso: Did you fuck her?
Me: Fuck who?
Sifiso: Samke, I heard you last night drinking.
Me: I didn't, now the question is did you fuck Lona?
Sifiso: I didn't.
Me: Why not?
Sifiso: I told you we broke up but now she is carrying my
baby.
Me: You are getting back together?
Sifiso: No but I have to take care of her.
Me: By taking care of her you mean fuck her?
Sifiso: No, Langa I have to go i'm getting late.
Me: Get in the car, i'll take you to work.
I'm holding my breath hoping he doesn't say i'm making this
about money.
He looks at the time and nod.
I drive him to work and stop opposite his work place.
I move closer to kiss him but he just step out yhoo.
I drive back home and find Samke still sleeping, she wakes
up and sit up.
Me: You can sleep yhoo.
Samke: I think I drank more than you.
Me: You did.
Samke: Uhm Langa.
Me: Yes..
Samke: uhm I.. I need a favour.
Me: Talk to me.
Samke: I want to apply at the university for next year I don't
know where to start.
Me: You have matric?
Samke: Yes I do, I finished school 4 years ago.
Me: It's ok, we will ask my brother Ntsika he is going to
university next year so he will know what to do.
Samke: Thank you so much.
I look at her.
Me: Will it be a problem if we go to Durban? I will bring you
back once we are done applying for you.
Samke: You can do that for me?
Me: "If you have means to help someone then do it" that's
what my mother taught me, I want to help you, I see you as
my sister.
Samke: Lona did say we look like poor coloureds.
We laugh out loud.
Me: So you're mixed race?
Samke: It's obvious but never met my father.
Me: Sorry. We are leaving today.
Samke: Didn't you say tomorrow?
Me: Change of plans.
Samke: I have to tell mother and Sammy then.
I wait for her while she talks to her mother. I tell Ma i'm
leaving.
Ma: Come visit Langa don't be a stranger.
Me: I will, you treated me like your son i'm grateful for
everything.
We hug and me and Samke hit the road to Durban and drive
home.
I get home and introduce Samke to everyone they thought
she is a girlfriend but I made it clear that we are friends and
told mom why she is there.
Ziyanda: We will help you baby ok.
Mbali: Wooah Wait!
She get up and pull up Samke and pull me making me stand
next to Samke then pull Mom up. So we are standing all three
of us next to each other.
Ziyanda: What now sisMbali?
Mbali: Wait shhhhh.
She looks at us more like stare at us.
Mbali: No man, Sunshine are you seeing what i'm seeing?
Sunshine: Of course, I saw it the last time he came home
with Samke.
Mandisi: These people do look alike.
Me: Yeah we do..can we sit down now.
Mbali: You need to do a DNA test Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: You guys just met Samke and already you want to
take samples you are going to freak her out.
Mbali: Tomorrow we are doing a DNA test whether the
Doctor likes it or not right baby.
Mandisi: Yep we are.
Everyone laughs they always agree on everything even silly
things.
Ntsika fetch his laptop and he start applying for Samke at
UKZN, UNISA and DUT.
We go our seperate rooms. I check my phone there is a
missed call from Sfiso, I call him back.
Me: Hello.
Silence.
Me: Sfiso.
Sifiso: All your clothes are not here Langa.
Me: I told you I am leaving.
Sifiso: But you said tomorrow.
Me: I didn't want to stay another day there.
Sifiso: Langa look..
Me: No. It's over.
Sifiso: oh..When are you bringing back Samke?
Me: Wednesday.
Sifiso: can I see you then?
Me: No.
I drop the call and sleep.
*
There is a very loud knock on my door its so early in the
morning, and dad is shouting.
Luyolo: Mbali stop being crazy, you are waking my son for
crap.
Mbali: Crap is that face of yours, yewena, Langa vula la! ( Hey
you, Langa open up.)
She bangs on the door.
Luyolo: You know he won't open before he goes to the
bathroom.
Mbali: He better be fast about it then I need these samples.
Ziyanda: Mbali you're being ridiculous.
I decide to wake up since the noise is just too much for me. I
start in the bathroom then go open the door.
Mbali: Took you long enough, khamisa!( open your mouth)
I just burst out in full blown laughter everyone now is
standing in the passage laughing at Mbali.
Mbali: Samke!Samke! Which room is she using?
The noise she is making is enough to burst our eardrums but
we thank God it didn't come to that.
Ziyanda: bhut'Mandisi get your wife out of my house she is
crazy.
Sunshine: Mbali people look alike out there that doesn't
mean they are related.
Mbali: Ok let me confirm then, all I need is to confirm that
they are really not related.
Me: Aunt Mbali what do you need from me I still want to
sleep baby.
Mbali: Just open your mouth wena.
Me: Can't you just take my hair instead .
Mbali: Even better come closer baby.
She pulls out my air from my scalp.
Me: Ouch!!
Mbali: Sorry, Samke you're next baby.
She says to Samke who just came out of her room rubbing
her eyes.
Samke: Morning.
Ziyanda: sis Mbali this is wrong you woke the kids up for
nothing.
Mbali: She looks even more like you today Ziyanda.
Mom steps closer to Samke she looks concerned,
Ziyanda: Do you mind?
She pull up her pyjama top like she is looking for something,
I can see Samke is freaking out I would too if a bunch of
strangers comes at me like that.
Ziyanda : Oh.. my.. God!
She exlaims.
Mbali: What is it?
She stands next to Samke who still has her top up just below
her breasts.
Mom pulls up her top too there is a birthmark on both of
them on the same spot.
Mbali: See! I told you guys this, I fucken told you, didn't I?
We are all shocked.
Samke: Uhm what is going on?
Her voice is shaky and eyes are glassy.
Mbali: Don't worry baby, look at the birthmark Langa's mom
has it looks like yours.
Samke: What does that mean?
Luyolo: Where is your dad ?
Samke : I have never met him in my life.
Luyolo: There is a possibility that she is your little sister
Ziyanda
from your father's side.
Mom looks at Samke who looks lost.
Mbali: And Langa? how does he come into this because we
know his mom and dad.
Luyolo: I'm really confused right now because now that you
said it he really do look like her.
Me: Or maybe it's because she raised me nothing much.
Mbali: This is more than that.
Me: So no more DNA please can I have my hair back.
We all laugh, Mom is still starring at Samke.
Me: Mom you are making her uncomfortable.
Ziyanda: Oh i'm so sorry..
Me: What now?
Mbali: I will figure it out myself and call you.
*
I go back to my room and get in bed and my phone rings.
Me: Hi.
Sfiso: I'm on my way to Durban right now.
I sit up.
Me: What?why? Aren't you supposed to be at work?
Sifiso: I am but I need to see you.
Me: For what Sfiso?
Sifiso: I want us to fix things.
Me: No I want nothing to do with you.
Sifiso: Please i'm like 15 minutes away from Durban now.
Me: Then you will go back.
Sifiso: Langa if you don't meet with me I will find where your
home is and come straight there.
Me: What do you want Sifiso?
Sifiso: I want to make things right between us, I will do
anything please.
Me: Yhoo, tell me when you get here.
Sifiso: I will thank you.
I don't know, I love him but the disrespect he has for me is
ruining everything.
After 10 minutes I decide to drive to where he gets off and
wait there, I hear a knock and it's him, I unlock the car he
gets in.
Me: Where to or are we going to talk here?
Sfiso: There is Union hotel where I slept when I left the other
day it's cheaper than your hotel.
Me: My hotel wow..
Sifiso: I don't mean it that way..
Me: mmm.
I drive to the hotel and we get in, he does everything and
pays.
We get in the room, he starts kissing me the minute I close
the room I push him a little.
I look at him I see he is wearing his watch and that makes me
happy.
Me: So why are you here?
Sifiso: To apologise for the way I've been treating you babe
I'm sorry.
Me: You are sorry now but you will do it later.
Sifiso: I won't do it again I promise.
Me: That's what you say now.
Sifiso: It's you that I want and I want to prove it to you.
Me: How?
He kneels down, I stare at him..he pulls out a ring..
Me: What the fuck are you doing?
He pulls out a small black box from his pocket.
Me: You must be kidding me!
I'm freaked out..
Sifiso: Please don't say no..Langa..
Me: No to what? What are you doing Sfiso?get the fuck up!
Sifiso: Please marry me Langa, Please baby..
My eyes are all out, he opens the box and there is a ring in
there a whole fucken ring..
Me: What the hell is going on!
I look around hoping someone comes in and tell this man to
get the fuck up. It hasn't even been two months let alone
came out.
Sifiso: Marry me baby..
My mouth is dry I keep blinking..

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
*
He is still kneeling down looking at me with pleading eyes
they are becoming teary by the minute.
Me: Sfiso please get up.
He get up and wipes his tears sitting in bed.
Sifiso: I'm sorry for doing this to you, I know I look crazy
right now.
He chuckles.
Me: Talk to me.
We sit in bed looking at each other, he takes my hands and
play with them.
Sifiso: I am afraid Langa.
Me: Of what?
Sifiso: This, us, it's new to me I don't think I have loved
anyone like I love you right now, it's scary cause you're a
guy, never have I ever had feelings for a man and now that I
do it's too much, I don't know how to react it's crazy.
Me: This is new to me too Sfiso, I literally cried real tears for
you which is something I have never done before, I'm scared
of what people might say out there, there are people who are
still against same sex relationships.
Sifiso: I love you and I really want to be with you, I was
trying to push you away thinking maybe these strong
feelings I have for you will fade but they become stronger
each day, I think about you all the time.
Me: I feel the same about you but let's not rush things we are
still getting to know each other, learning new things
together.
Sifiso: So we are cool?
Me: Yes we are good.
Sifiso: I'm sorry ok.
I nod.
Me: When did you buy the ring?
Sifiso: Yesterday during lunch at work.
Me: It's beautiful, can you take it back and get a refund.
Sifiso: Yes I still have the receipt, and the certificate to show
its authentic.
Me: Must have cost a lot of money huh.
Sifiso: Yeah.
Me: And you got angry with the watch.
Sifiso: I'm sorry about the way I acted I was an ass.
Me: So can I do something nice for you now and not say I am
showing off.
Sifiso: Thing is I don't like expensive stuffs, like that hotel
that was way too much.
Me: It was your birthday I wanted us to fuck while looking at
the beautiful ocean, it was going to be the greatest milestone
in our life.
He smiles licking his bottom lip.
I pull him closer and kiss him.
Me: Stop being crazy or I'll leave you for good.
Sifiso: Never again babe.
I clear my throat.
Me: uhm so..Lona?
Sifiso: We are really over she just doesn't want to accept it.
Me: So what's going to happen?
Sifiso: I'm going to pay the damages then stay away from
her.
Me: Impossible she is your neighbour dude.
Sifiso: I will do anything to keep her away from me I want
you and only you.
Me: You mean it?
Sifiso: I mean it.
Me: I have to go I left Samke with strangers she must be
wondering where I went.
Sifiso: Samke is a loud mouth she gets along with everyone.
Me: But something happened at home it must have freaked
her out a bit.
Sifiso: Can't you call her, I'm sure she is ok, Samke is a good
person she forgives easily.
Me: Just like Mom.
I say in a low voice.
Sifiso: Mmm?
Me: I'm just thinking out loud, You want me to sleep with
you?
Sifiso: Yes please.
I take my phone and call Samke putting her on speaker.
Samke: Hey.
Me: Are you ok there?
Samke: Yes I am with your mom who is supposedly my half
sister.
Me: I'm sorry about what happened earlier Auntie Mbali is
too much sometimes maybe it's just a birthmark nothing
much.
Samke: But Langa when I looked at her pictures when she
was younger I can see a bit of myself in her it's crazy.
Me: I know let's just wait for the results ok.
Samke: Ok.
Me: I will come back tomorrow will you be ok.
Samke: Yes I'm fine. Don't do something I wouldn't do.
I laugh.
Me: And what is it you wouldn't do.
Samke: Sex.
She says in a whisper.
I drop the call laughing.
Sifiso: What was that all about?
Me: I will tell you some other time, for now I just want to feel
your skin on mine..
I say kissing him and we take off our clothes, he gets ontop of
me and we start playing with our dicks till we both cum.
Me: I love you.
Sifiso: I love you.
Me: So you need to be at work tomorrow?
Sifiso: Yes night shift, I will take a taxi in the morning.
Me: I can take you back, remember Samke is leaving too.
Sifiso: Oh yeah ok..so how are we going to do this since you
are back here.
Me: We will make it work.
Sifiso: Ok now get off me you are heavy.
Me: I like sleeping ontop of you it's more comfortable than
bed.
He smiles and I kiss his lips.
Sifiso: You are obsessed with my lips.
Me: Damn right I am they are so soft. So you didn't carry any
clothes to change with?
Sifiso: Besekuphuthuma Langa.( It was urgent Langa)
I laugh so hard at how serious he said that.
He takes my left hand and kiss it.
Sifiso: That ring would have looked perfect on this finger, I
imagined you wearing it when I chose it.
Me: One day I will wear your ring and you will wear mine.
I get in between his legs and take his leg in my waist.
I use my spit as a lubricant rubbing my dick.
Me: Let me know if i'm hurting you ok babe..
Sifiso: Yeah.
I slowly push my dick in until i'm fully in..
Me: I love you...
I grab his waist tight with my right hand and start moving.
Me: Mmm...babe..talk to me are you loving it..
Sifiso: Fuck...
Me: Talk to me muntu wami(My love)
Sifiso: Shit I'm so close baby..don't stop..yes..
I start moving faster I see cum splashing out of his dick I go
crazy and start moving faster..
Langa: Aah Sfiso shit..babe..shiit..aaah!
I pull out and cum on his groin.
The sweat is dripping down my entire body.
Sifiso: The sex with you is great...
Me: You make it easy for me babe..
We sleep next to each other my stomach make a sound.
Sifiso: You're hungry?
Me: I am always hungry, I am sure mom is worried now if I
ate.
Sifiso: Let's go out and I will pay Langa don't send any
money into my account ok, don't be sneaky.
We both laugh, I like this side of him he looks even great
when he smiles and jokes around.
We go take a shower together he keep squeezing my butt.
Sifiso: You have a tight butt.
I slap his hands that are grabbing my butt cheeks.
Me: Stop doing that, now you are making me feel really gay.
Sifiso: Remember we are not labelling our relationship, we
are together, I love Langa, you love Sifiso that's it.
Me: Will you always be like this?
Sifiso: Yes babe if you don't give me a reason to be angry.
Me: I promise to try to keep you happy, this side suits you
best.
Sifiso: Ok, now can I have a taste?
Me: Of what?
Sifiso: This tight butt.
I chuckle.
Me: Right now you have to feed me first then you can have
all of it.
Sifiso: Eyami yonke neh( it's all mine neh)
We laugh and get off the shower drying our bodies and use
the lotions they provide there.
Me: Now I will go around smelling like this hotel wow, but I
have my stuff in my car I will lotion there.
He laughs out loud.
Sifiso: You care a lot about body hygine huh, I have noticed
you keep your hair short and your beard is always neatly
cut, you even shave your pubic hair down there, you wake
up early to take a bath or wash your face and teeth.
Me: My skin feel itchy when I didn't do all those things, when
I don't cut my hair I develop pimples on my forehead, If I
don't shave my pubic hair it becomes itchy, well I hate
talking in the morning with last night's breath.
He laughs at me.
Sifiso: You're cute mama's boy.
He perks my lips.
Me: Fuck off.
We walk to the car and drive to UShaka Marine and go to
spur and sit opposite each other we order beers while we
look at the menu.
Sifiso: What do you want to eat?
Me: Order for me.
He raise his eyebrow smiling.
He place both our order.
Sifiso: I love what you did there, asking me to order for you
makes me feel like your man.
Me: You are my man Sifiso.
The grin in his face makes me love him even more, no girl I
have ever fucked or dated comes close to what I feel for this
guy even the dead Elena ain't shit.
We eat while talking about us, then he pays and we walk out,
I feel him holding my hand.
Me: Sfiso we are in public.
He let go.
Sifiso: Sorry..
Me: Ever thought of doing a tattoo?
Sifiso: I have always wanted to do it.
Me: Can we do it together tomorrow.
Sifiso: Tomorrow I'm leaving babe.
Me: Oh yeah I forgot.
I really forgot and it hurts.
Sifiso: I can get a doctor's note and claim I was sick, now stop
sulking.
Me: You can do that for me?
Sifiso: I will do it but just one day Langa.
Me: Thank you..
Sifiso: Let's go home.
Me: Let's go check if we can't buy maybe two T-shirts I feel
sticky I have been wearing like this the whole day.
Sifiso: yhoo my clean freak, you will make a good husband
one day.
We chuckle and I buy two t-shirts and two boxer shorts and
towels for us I was suprised when he agreed I pay, happy but
suprised.
Sifiso: Let's buy food that you will eat before we sleep since
you're always hungry.
He buy a lot of food for me and when I get to the hotel I start
eating.
He laughs.
Me: Uhlekani ke? ( what's funny?)
Sifiso: We just ate Langa.
Me: Mxm leave me alone I love food.
Sifiso: More than you love me?
Me: Don't make me choose between you and food I love you
both.
He burst out laughing, I wish we can stay like this forever.
We sleep in each other's arms.
In the morning I wake up when I feel my dick in a very warm
place, I open my eyes, he is sucking on my dick so slow he
keeps licking the tip then put my whole shaft in.
I bite my lower lip not knowing where to touch he moves up
and kiss my neck biting it, I move my hands down to his ass
and give it a tight squeeze.
He kneels looking at me, he rubs his dick with a lubricant
and stroke it looking at me, then he moves to my hole and
rubs the tip then push it a little.
Sifiso: I got you, relax ok..
He tries to push it until it's all in, it's a bit painful.
Sifiso: Do you want me to go on?
I nod.
He starts moving in and out and I feel it touching the spot
that make me lose my mind I grab on my dick and start
stroking it, he push my hand away and stroke my dick while
moving in and out of me.
Sifiso: Yes baby..do you feel that..
Me: Mmm! S..shit..
We are staring deep in each other's eyes, the sweat on his
forehead makes him even more charming, I let it go, I cum
and my knees shake, he give me two more strokes he pull
out and cum on my thigh. I guess there is no top or bottom as
many gay people prefer, we are Versatile, whoever initiated
sex he gets to be dominant and I like it that way.
He sleep next to me, I get up and go to the bathroom taking
out my toothbrush and clean my teeth, pee and wash my face
and clean the cum on my body.
I get back to bed.
Me: I wish you could wake me up like that everyday.
Sifiso: So now you talk.
We chuckle.
Sifiso: Langelihle..
I shiver he has never called me by my full name before.
Me: Sfiso.
Sifiso: Please don't be mad at me babe.
Me: What now?
Sifiso: I think I will have to go to work I won't be staying
another day.
Me: But why? you said you will get a doctor's note.
Sifiso: I have to work.
Me: You should have thought about that before promising
me you will stay.
I get up.
Sifiso: Langa I..
Me: Is it Lona?
Sifiso: No it's really not about Lona it's about work.
Me: Why promise me something you knew you won't do.
He looks down.
Me: It's Lona isn't it?
Sifiso: Langa No.
Me: Ofcourse it's her! it will always be her!
I get out of bed.
Sifiso: Langa please man you can stay at home and see that
i'm really going to work and I will come back and sleep with
you.
I sit back down in bed.
Me: Am I insercure?
Sifiso: No babe look I understand why you think it's Lona, I
gave you a reason to believe that I always go back to her and
i'm sorry for doing that, it will never happen again i'm
serious about us Langa, I really am.
I throw myself in bed and pull the cover over my head.
Sifiso: Uhm should I go take taxis?
I ignore him, I feel him getting out of bed, he go and take a
shower I follow him, we shower together in silence.
We get dressed and go to the car.
Sifiso: You don't want to eat breakfast first?
I shake my head.
Me: We are going home.
Sifiso: No we're not.
Me: Eh! Where do you think I will take Samke from?
Sifiso: Why are you this cold please let's go eat breakfast and
then I will take a taxi home.
Me: why?
Sifiso: It will be awkward meeting your family Langa now
that we're together.
Me: Ok, where to then?
He tells me the place, I drive there and we eat breakfast
together that he paid for, no one is talking.
He touch my hand.
Sifiso: I won't leave..
I look at him.
Sifiso: I won't go back home today I will stay for you.
Me: You don't have to.
Sifiso: I want to, I hate seeing you like this towards me, so I
will stay.
He look down, maybe I am being unreasonable, he needs to
work.
Me: I'm sorry, I know you have to work I will take you back
home.
Sifiso: It's ok really,I will stay.
I look up and see waitresses looking at us awkwardly I look
at the table Sfiso is holding my hand over the table I slowly
move my hand away.
He looks around and he sees it too.
Me: Do you think they saw that we're uhm ...you know.
Sifiso: I don't know, let's just go.
We get up and walk out and get in the car.
Me: So what now?
Sifiso:We will stay another night at the hotel.
Me: Ok I need to go back home and check on Samke.
Sifiso: You will find me waiting for you.
Me: I will bring home cooked meal ok.
I kiss his cheek and drive him to the hotel then go home.
I can hear noise as I walk in.
Mbali: Hey Langa didn't I tell you guys, I go the results
Samke and your mother share 25% of their DnA, they are
half siblings and they share the same father.
Me: Say what now?
Mbali: I told you! Now i'm waiting for a DNA to comfirm that
you too are related to them I didn't manage to speed that up,
bribing is exhausting.
Mandisi: You bribed the doctor Mbali?
Mbali: I did, I needed to find this out, he just couldn't accept
the second bribe that motherfucker..
I look at mom and Samke they are sitting on the same couch,
Samke is crying on mom's lap.
Mbali: But I will go back I need Langa's results out by
tomorrow.
Ntsika: Welcome to the family Auntie Samke.
He says with a smile in his face then open his arms Samke
get up and hugs him then Nkanyezi and she stands infront of
me.
Samke: You brought me to my sister Langa something I
never thought I had and now I'm a step closer to meeting my
father.
She hugs me really tight crying.
Me: It's ok.
Ziyanda: I'm not sure if you really want to meet that man
Samke.
Mbali: You know someone else comes to mind right now.
Ziyanda: Just stop Mbali it's enough now..
Mbali: But..
Ziyanda: No!
Mbali: Ziyanda I just found out that you have a sister, you
were clueless all of you didn't even see the resemblance, let
me carry out this mission and be done with it..
Ziyanda: Yhoo.
I drive back to the hotel after mom dished up for me and "my
friend" and drive back to Sfiso in a hotel.
I get in and find him in bed.
Sifiso: Hey babe.
He says sitting up.
Me: Here is the food.
I sit down and wipe my face.
Sifiso: Are you ok, you look distraught.
Me: I just found out that Samke is my mother's half sister.
Sifiso: Which Samke?
Me: Baby mama Sifiso, the mother of your baby is my aunt.
Sifiso: What!?
I look down, how will I continue to date my aunt's baby
daddy..I look at him.
Sifiso: Langa! Don't..

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
*
Now Sfiso is standing infront of me as i'm sitting on the
couch looking down.
Sifiso: Babe..
I don't answer instead I get up and pour myself a glass of
water.
Sifiso: Langelihle..
I balance my hands on the table looking down.
I feel him holding my waist from behind, I turn and look at
him he shakes his head.
Sifiso: I know what you're thinking, don't you dare say it
Langa.
I open my mouth to talk but he starts kissing me so slow and
passionate, he takes off my shirt.
Me: Sfiso.
I breathe..
He shakes his head again and kiss my neck while he
unbuttons my jeans and starts caressing my dick inside of
my boxer shorts he starts going slow then pick up a pace I
pull down my jeans and shorts and he continue to caress it
stroking it.
Me: Shit...
I hold on to the table behind me as the pleasure intensify.
Me: Sfiso...shit.
I orgasm hard my knees are shaking, I breathe out loud he
goes to the bathroom and come back with a towel and wipes
me then kiss my lips and go sit ontop of bed.
I fix my pants and take the food dishing up for us. I give him
his food and we eat in silence and I take his dish and put
them back in the bag so I don't forget them. Ziyanda would
kill me with her Tupperwears, you know this right?yeah you
know how our parents are with those dishes.
Sifiso: Babe.
Me: Mmm.
Sifiso: Take off your clothes and come to bed please.
I do as he says and sleep next to him.
Sifiso: Don't break up with me Langa.
Me: What am I supposed to do Sfiso my aunt thinks there is
even more to this crazy thing she is still waiting for more
DNA results to come out.
Sifiso: Please..
Me: I don't know man.
Sifiso: Ngiyakucela sthandwa sami( I'm begging you my love)
don't do it.
Me: I want to sleep, I'm tired.
Sifiso: Come sleep where you always sleep then.
I get on top of him and close my eyes, my head is on his chest
I can feel his beating heart, he wraps his arms around me I
fall asleep.
I wake up and I'm still ontop of him and he looks fast asleep,
I kiss his lips he slowly opens his eyes and look at me.
Sifiso: Hey babe, what time is it?
Me: Still early is 10 O'clock at night.
Sifiso: Oh I thought it's morning already.
Me: Mmm.
Sifiso: We are still together right?
Me: Do you think it's ok that I date you while Samke the
mother of your child is at home bonding with my mother and
we don't know what will come out next after this, we might
be blood related, I don't know how.
Sifiso: Ok I don't know what is going on and you will tell me
after you have sorted everything out and know all the facts
but we are not breaking up Langa, I won't allow that to
happen.
Me: Sfiso..
Sifiso: Cha Langa angeke sihlukane.( No langa we won't
break up)
He gentle move me away from him and get up going to the
bathroom.
We go back to sleep without saying anything more to each
other.
In the morning we bath and I call Samke.
Me: Samke.
Samke: Since when do you call me Samke Langa? Did I do
something wrong.
Me: No..no sorry i'm just going through something, uhm are
you going home today?
Samke: No, sis Mbali said we must wait for more results to
come out.
Me: Ok I will see you later.
Samke: Are we still ok Langa?
Me: What do you mean?
Samke: Are we still friends or did this change things between
us because I don't want that.
I rub my forehead.
Me: We are still good I promise, I will take you out later.
Samke: Ok.
I drop the call and look at Sifiso.
Me: Samke is not leaving today waiting for the results.
He gives me his watch I bought for him and his wrist I put it
on and we take everything and walk to the car and I drive to
Ixopo we are listening to music because the silence is too
much, we are both lost in our thoughts.
We get home and we find Lona sitting on the veranda alone
and when she sees us she lose it and start taking the bricks
that are surrounding the flowers in the yard and throws
them at us, she throws it aiming at me but I move out of the
way it hits the window of my car, the drivers side window to
be exact.
Sfiso rush to her and hold her arms.
Lona: You are hurting me let go sfiso.
He continue to hold her wrists tight.
Lona: Let go! I will get you arrested you bastard.
I rush to them and push Sfiso away from her and look at him.
Me: Stop!
I hear another window breaking she is throwing the bricks
in my car all the windows on my right side are broken now
and the side window is down, there are dents too, she is
cussing and screaming. My mouth is hung open, dad is going
to kill me.
Ma comes out running.
Ma: What is going on out here what is all this noise?
Sifiso: Ma tell this girl to leave before I do something i'll
regret.
He is fuming in anger.
Ma: Lona what are you doing, Why did you damage a child's
car like that?
Lona: It is the reason why Sfiso is always away from home,
this guy takes Sfiso here and go to Durban with him so he
can whore around with bitches now he broke up with me,
it's because of him and his stupid car.
She says pointing at me.
Ma is looking at her shocked.
Sfiso attempt to go to Lona but I stop him.
Me: Don't, leave her alone.
Ma: Go home Lona and calm down think about the baby, this
noise will raise your blood pressure go home sisi come back
later when you have calmed down.
Lona: I don't need to calm down, I want him to leave this
place, him coming here changed everything, he needs to go
back to where he comes from.
All i'm thinking about is how am I going to tell dad that the
brand new car he bought for me is damaged like that.
My phone rings and it's auntie Mbali.
Me: Auntie.
Mbali: Baby I'm fetching the results later today be at home
by 8 O'clock sharp.
I sigh.
Me: Yes Auntie.
Sifiso looks at me. Lona and Ma are sitting down on the
chairs on the veranda looks like she is begging her to calm
down.
Sifiso: I'm so sorry.
He attempts to come closer but I step back shaking my head
a little moving my eyes to where Ma and Lona are seated.
Me: That was my aunt calling I have to be home today I
thought I was going to sleep here.
Sifiso: Let me call someone maybe he can get your car fixed
fast.
Me: I will need to borrow money from my brothers I don't
think the money I have can cover this much damage.
Sifiso: I will see what I can do, Langa I'm sorry.
Me: It's cool please make that call.
He takes out his phone and call his friend, he talks on the
phone for a while then he comes to where I am standing and
sighs.
Sifiso: We can drive there now..
Me: You are going to be late for work you can't miss two
days you don't even have that doctor's note.
He runs his hand on his hair.
Sifiso: Yhoo..ngiyaxolisa ngempela.(I'm really sorry).
Me: It's getting late now no shop can fix it today, they are
about to close.
Ma: Langa what are you going to do my child?
Me: I have to be home today Ma so I have no choice but to
leave it here and take a taxi.
Ma: Ooh ngane yami(my child) but Lona do you see what you
did?
Lona looks away she doesn't care.
I turn to look at Sifiso who is squarting down.
Me: Go change into your work uniform so we can go
together, you will show me where the taxis are.
He wipes his eyes with the back of his arm and get up
walking inside.
I go take my back pack and put my stuff inside, more face
bricks flies one hits me on my knee with so much force I hit
the ground with it groaning.
Lona: You don't know me but you're about to if you don't
stay away..
She walks out the gate
I sit down holding my knee it hurts, I guess Ma went inside
and left this psycho here.
Sfiso comes out in his uniform and rush to me.
Sifiso: What happened?
Me: I think my knee cap shifted, she hit me with a brick on
my knee, fuck!
He tries to stretch my knee.
Me: Fuck no stop, this shit hurts more when you do
that..fuck!
He looks like he doesn't know what to do.
I take out my phone and call my brother.
Ntsika: Little bro.
Me: Look I know it's late but please can..can you come fetch
me at Ixopo.
Ntsika: It's five O'clock Langa why can't you just sleep there
and why should I fetch you can't you drive?
Me: I'm hurt ok and my car is damaged man..fuck..
Ntsika: Hurt? Your car is damaged? Were you involved in a
car accident?
He is panicking.
Me: No Ntsika, I just can't drive, are you coming?
Ntsika: Yeah..yeah I'm coming now bro ok, are you safe?
Me: I will be once i'm home.
I see Sifiso looking at me, he heard everything because my
phone was on speaker.
Me: You are going to be late for work.
Sifiso: I'm not going anymore.
Me: I will be fine my brother is coming.
He looks down.
Sifiso: I'm sure you want nothing to do with me now, it's fine
I get it,let me help you up.
He help me up put the minute I start to stretch my right leg
to walk the pain I feel is unbearable.
I go back down again.
Sifiso softy touch it and looks at me.
Sifiso: I think it's swollen.
Me: The pain is too much.
I feel like crying i'm just holding back my tears.
Sifiso: Let me help you don't put your foot down ok.
He tries but I can't move.
Me: Stop i'm fine here yhoo ngeke kubhlungu( no it's
painful)
He goes inside and come back with Ma.
Ma: Langa let me see.
Sfiso pulls down my pants i'm left with my boxers, my knee
is really swollen and ma exclaims.
Ma: Yhooo!!Langa you are badly hurt, Sizothini
kuZiyanda.(what will we say to Ziyanda) Jesus!
Go boil water sifiso and come back with a towel.
She starts to softy massage my knee then she stretches it a
little.
I'm biting my lower lip so hard because this is just too
painful.
Sfiso comes back with the basin and she use the water and
towel pressing it on my knee.
After an hour i'm still sitting outside Ma has turned on the
lights outside Sfiso is sitting on a chair next to me not saying
anything.
Sifiso: Ngiyakuthanda Langa(I love you Langa)
Me: It doesn't matter anymore.
He sighs, the lights of the car flashes on the gate he get up
and open the gate, He shoulder hug my brothers they are
both here.
They rush to me squarting down.
Nkanyezi: "What happened to you?"
Me: Some guys hurt me and damaged my car.
Ntsika: Again is it the same guys?
Me: No I have never seen those guys.
Sfiso looks at me confused.
Nkanyezi: "So your knee is the problem let me stretch it."
Me: NO this thing hurts Nkanyezi a lot so please leave it
alone.
Ntsika: It doesn't matter Mom will say one of us must stretch
it because we are twins you know the myth that says twins
are good at stretching people bla bla bla..
I chuckle.
Me: Help me up.
Next think I feel a very excrutiating pain I literally scream,
Nkanyezi had just stretched my leg without a warning.
Me: Fuck!!man shit..the fuck did you do that for you fool.
He grins looking at me.
Nkanyezi: "Try moving it now brother."
Me: You are a piece of shit.
I try to move it and it moves it's still painful but atleast I can
move it.
Nkanyezi: "Say it."
Me: Ain't saying shit that was cruel you bastard.
Ntsika is laughing his ass off.
Me: I didn't say come back with this crazy saddist wena.
They help me up and I look at Sfiso he look lost his eyes are
moving around.
Me: You can go to the car I'm coming.
Ntsika: Sure man see you around.
They fist bump with sfiso and walk to the car, I look at Sfiso.
Me: Bye Sfiso.
Sifiso: It's not over right?
Me: I..look i'm sorry. goodbye Sfiso.
I limp walking away and get in the car.
We drive home and the time is 8:30pm we get in and Auntie
is pacing around the lounge.
Mbali: Ridiculous utterly ridiculous I told there kids that I
want them all here at 8:00 what was so hard about that?
She looks frustrated everyone is watching her we are
standing by the door.
She sees us and rush to where we are standing and stand
infront of me and twists my ear then go do the same to my
brothers, it burns.
Mbali: You don't listen I said 8:00.
Luyolo: Mbali leave my kids alone Sisi please.
Sunshine: Mbali sit down and tell us what you have found.
She huffs and go sit down, we all take seats.
Mbali: So as you know that I was on a mission to find out
why are these three people look so much alike then boom I
found out Samke is Ziyanda's half sister now..
Sunshine: MBALI!!What did you find?Yhoo.
Auntie Mbali is dramatic and I want to laugh so bad but she
might just whoop my ass so I'm holding it in.
Mbali: Mxm impatient people, Doctor Mzozo Can you explain
to me if we can do a DNA test using Mandisi's kids, your
nephews to determine that you and Mandisi are related as
cousins?

Ziyanda: Yes it is possible because MY mother and Lukhele

share 50% of the DNA and when passed down to us Mandisi
will have that 25% of that DnA and I will have the same 25%
we pass it down to our kids they will share part of our DNA,
they will be cousins so half first cousins share 6.25% of DNA,
while full first cousins share 12.5% of DNA.
Mbali: Ok I didn't say go all in so what I found may be
shocking Luyolo will need to go down to Eastern cape and
get that man who said he is Ziyanda's father down here to
explain why he lied.
Luyolo: He lied how Mbali we all saw the birthmark that
looks exactly like Samke and my wife's.
Mbali: I know all that, but Ziyanda and Samke share a father
and that father is definitely not that man in the Eastern cape.
We are all looking at her confused.
Luyolo: Then who is?
Mbali: Mr Miller..
Ziyanda: Which Mr Miller?
Mbali: Our family Lawyer Ziyanda, Mrs Reigns half brother.
Ziyanda: Ok I don't want to listen to this anymore.
Mbali: You and Layla are cousins Ziyanda, Mr Miller and
Layla's mother are siblings 50% while Mrs Reigns was their
half sibling.
Ziyanda: Where the fuck did you get all this Mbali?
Mbali: The last part I asked Mr Miller himself before I went
to give your samples to the Doctor.
I'm confused as fuck.
Ziyanda: So what does all this mean?
Mbali: You and Samke are Langa's aunts by blood sweety, so
you made no mistake raising him, he is your cousin's child
which makes him your child baby.
Now she is tearing up.
Mbali: Now Mr Miller will come tomorrow morning and I
will show him the results he will explain further and Luyolo
you have to get that man who said she is her father to come
too and tell us why he lied.
I'm confused as fuck, maybe I should just go back to school
this is all confusing and sounds ridiculous to me.
*
I limp to my room and sleep in bed facing up, so sfiso and I
will never be, Samke is my blood, my aunt and Pink is my
aunt that makes her my mother, that makes me so happy, we
are blood related.
I wake up when I feel someone brushing my head, I open my
eyes I find mom sitting in my bed with tears in her eyes, I sit
up she hugs me tight.
Ziyanda: You are my nephew, my son, my handsome baby
boy I saw our DNA test results Mbali was telling the truth..
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
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LANGA
*
I am still in mom's warm embrace, she is holding me too
tight after a while she let go and I wipe her tears smiling.
Ziyanda: You can go Langa..
She says laughing, I rush to the bathroom to brush my teeth
and go back to my room and my bed is already neatly made.
Ziyanda: Come sit down so we can talk.
I sit down looking at her.
Ziyanda: Tell me why are you limping and where is your car?
Me: Can we just talk about how happy I am that we are
related by blood, maybe that is why you never gave up on
me even when I did you wrong too many times.
Ziyanda: I am happy too baby but I still want to know what
happened to you.
Me: My car is at Sfiso's home in Ixopo.
Ziyanda: why are you limping?
Me: Some guy was throwing stones at my car and they hit
my knee.
Ziyanda: Is it the same guys that took your car before?
Me: No I don't think so it wss someone I don't know.
I lie through my teeth.
Ziyanda: Your dad won't like this Langa he will want to know
who those guys are.
Me: Please convince him that I will fix it Mom, I promise I
will fix it.
Ziyanda: I will try boy now give mom a hug.
We hug and she get up.
Ziyanda: Come and eat Mr Miller will be here soon ok.
Me: Ok Ma.
I take my phone and there are missed calls and a message
from Sifiso.
Sifiso: *I'm trying to call you please pick up I want to tell you
how sorry I am babe, I don't want us to end please Langa
don't break up with me, They are already fixing your car you
can come pick it up tomorrow or I can bring it to you if your
knee still hurts, please call me. *
I huff and Samke knocks once and come in.
Samke: Hey.
Me: Hi.
We sit in silence.
Samke: How do you feel about me being your aunt?
Me: I am happy, especially for you, having a sister like mom
is everything she is a great person.
Samke: I am happy too I always wished to meet my fathers
side of the family meeting you was a blessing.
I smile.
Samke: I know you're not ok you can talk to me about
anything I want us to continue being friends Langa.
Me: Don't worry I'm good, Lona almost broke my leg
yesterday.
Samke: What? You were at Ixopo?
Me: I went there to fetch something I left and she damaged
my car.
Samke: That girl has the nerve, if she wasn't pregnant I was
going to go there and rearrange her face.
Me: She is crazy.
Samke: Maybe if she wasn't around Sfiso and I would be
raising our daughter together.
My heart moves from it's position.
Me: What do you mean, you have feelings for Sfiso?
Asking this question hurts.
Samke: I do, I know we never dated but seeing how he is
with our daughter makes me fall inlove with him, he is a
wonderful man.
The pain I feel in my heart hearing her say that is just.. I
don't know how to explain it.
Samke: So what happened did he break up with Lona after
she acted like a lunatic?
Me: uhm I..I don't know, let's go eat breakfast.
So she is inlove with Sfiso this just keeps getting worse.
We go to the living room and there is no one here.
Q comes in running.
Me: Hey mini Luh.
Qhayiya: Mom said breakfast is at grandpa's garden.
Me: Ok thank you, we are getting a haircut today, right?
Qhayiya: Yes dad will take us because he said you don't have
a car anymore.
I chuckle, i'm the one who takes him to a barbershop
everytime because his hair grows fast like mine.
We sit around the table and Iyana says grace, we see Mr
Miller walking like a lawyer that he is in his suit.
Miller: Good morning everyone sorry i'm late.
We all chant morning.
Mbali: How the hell did I miss this all these years even the
way their mouths move is exactly the same.
She looks at Mom.
Mbali: Do you see it Ziyanda?
Mom shakes her head sitting down.
Miller: Mrs Lukhele I'm sorry but I have a meeting to get to,
mind explaining to me what is goimg on and the DNA tests.
Auntie clears her throat.
Mbali: Please look at Ziyanda and the girl that is sitting next
to her.
He looks at them confused then look at back at her
Miller: Yes.
Mbali: Do you notice the resemblance?
Miller: I do.
Mbali: Don't you think they look a bit like you?
Miller: Mrs Lukhele can you tell me where you are going
with this.
Aunt takes out the envelope and push it to him
He takes out the papers and his face changes from confused
to shocked.
Miller: They are my kids? Both of you but how, Sam..(he
reads the paper again) Samkelisiwe where are you from?
Samke: Ixopo my mother is Thabile Mjoli.
He widens his eyes.
Samke: The name rings a bell?
He takes water infront of him and gulp it down.
Miller: Yes, her mother was working for my family and we
fell inlove but she had another man and didn't want to break
up with him so she ended up leaving me for him I didn't
know she was pregnant.
Samke: She told me my father left her because he was set to
get married to another girl.
Miller: I have never been married in my life.
Samke: So you are saying mom lied to me?
Miller: No I am saying maybe she was referring to the other
boyfriend as your father because I have never been married.
He stares at Samke and stand up.
Miller: Do you mind coming to me please.
Samke get up and walk around the table.
Miller: Please lift your jacket up.
She does exactly that and he pulls her into a hug and Samke
sob in his chest.
Miller: Oh God, i'm sorry..
She calms down after a while and she stands next to him. I
look at mom she is looking down her tears are falling.
I walk around the table and pull her up and hug her
Mbali: She is Noklunga Lukhele
's daughter do you remember her?
He clears his throat
Mbali: You know her?
Miller: I did think I knew her from somewhere but brushed it
off, she was my half brother's girlfriend, maybe a DNA made
a mistake there.
Man: But you slept with Noklunga, and she was
conceived(pointing at mom) you thought I didn't know, she
told me but I thought the baby was mine but clearly she isn't
mine.
A man comes in with dad, he looks really light skinned and
old.
Mom wipes her tears.
Ziyanda: So you mean Noklunga cheated on you with your
brother?
Man: Half brother! He means nothing to me.
Mbali: I wouldn't put it past that dead bitch..
She mumbles but we can hear her.
We all look at Miller waiting for an answer.
Miller: I didn't know she was your girlfriend, I found out
after we had slept together and I didn't care you were
always spiteful anyway, you never treated me like your
brother.
Man: Because you are not my brother!
Miller: See maybe you even lied about her being your
girlfriend first and only asked her out after you heard she
slept with me.
Man: So didn't it worry you that she looks like Noklunga
weren't you concerned.
Mbali: Good question!
Miller: She is a good child and I thought she may be your
child and I didn't want her to meet a despicable man like you
who treat people like trash.
Ziyanda: So you chose not to say anything all these years,
you watched me grow up infront of you and never thought of
telling me you knew Noklunga, You think he is despicable
but to me you are just the same as him.
Miller: Ziyanda I'm sorry.
Ziyanda: For what?
Miller: I really thought it was poasible that he is your father
but I didn't want him in your life this man has no respect for
anyone.
Mbali: We gathered that when he came here and demanded
the lobola money from someone he met for only two
minutes.
Miller: I'm sorry If I knew you were mine Ziyanda I would
have raised you, I'm sorry.
Mom walk up to him and stand infront of him and look at
him.
Miller: I'm sorry.
Mom hugs him and he wraps his arms around her, he has
tears in his eyes.
Miller: I'm sorry.
He pulls Samke and they group hug. After they have all
calmed down we sit down.
Man: I'm not gonna share a table with this man, I'm leaving.
Mbali: Bye, we didn't need you anyway.
We start eating and Mr Miller is sitting inbetween his
daughters he keeps looking at them smiling.
Mbali: "how about a round of applause, standin' ovation
oooh yeah"
She sings and everyone in the table cracks up.
I get up and start clapping hands, Ntsika follows.
Luyolo: Sit down you two!
Mbali: Jealousy doesn't suit you Luyolo I'm the best there is
soldier boy.
Mandisi: We are dead!!someone switch it off.
Mbali: Are you talking to me? because if you are you might
need to find a place to sleep tonight.
Mandisi: Come on baby I'm not saying it to you.
Mbali: Good.
Miller: Thank you Mrs Lukhele.
Mbali: My pleasure Sir.
We all go our separate ways I go check on my phone, there is
more missed calls from Sifiso I call him.
Sifiso: Langa hey baby.
My heart skips a beat.
Me: Hi Sfiso.
Sifiso: Can I bring your car tomorrow?
Me: You have a license?
Sifiso: Of course I do, so can I?
Me: Yes you can bring it.
Samke walks in.
Sifiso: Ok I love you ok.
I don't reply Samke is sitting in my bed looking at me.
Me: Thanks Sfiso what time will you be bringing it?
Samke: Is that Sfiso put him on speaker I want to talk to him
please.
Me: Uhm Samke is here she wants to talk to you.
I put the phone on speaker.
Samke: Hey fisoh.
Sifiso: Hello Samke.
Samke: So you are bringing Langa's car tomorrow uhm can
you bring our baby,
I miss her we will go back home together.
Sifiso: Langa.
Me: Yes bring Sammy..
Sifiso: Ok I will call you when we are about to leave here.
Samke: Ok.
Sifiso: Uhm I was talking to Langa.
Samke: Oops sorry.
We drop the call and Samke screams so loud.
Me: What!?
Samke: Look I know we only slept once and we were drunk
but I remember it like it was yesterday he was so gently and
...
I get up.
Me: stop I don't wanna hear it.
She laugh closing her eyes with her hands.
Samke: Sorry.
*
The next morning Sfiso calls while i'm still in bed.
Sifiso: Morning, we are on our way now.
Me: Mmm.
He chuckles.
Sifiso: You haven't woken up hey?
Me: Mm mmh.
He laughs and drop the call.
I go to the bathroom and get dressed, I go eat breakfast after
greeting everyone.
Samke: Sis Ziyanda the father of my child is coming to bring
Langa's car I asked him to come with our daughter is that
ok?
Ziyanda: The father of your child is Sfiso?
Samke: Yes.
Ziyanda: It's fine I can't wait to meet my niece.
Samke: Thank you.
They smile at each other they both look happy.
*
Sfiso calls telling me Samke gave her my address.
Sifiso: Should I come there?
Me: Yeah I guess.
Sifiso: What do you mean you guess? Langa I came here to
bring your car tell me what I must do man.
Me: You can come.
After a while I go open the gate for him because the system
scanner installed at the gate won't recognise his face.
I wait for them to step out of the car, it looks as good as new
they really did a great job.
He step out and I want to hug him so bad he is wearing black
jeans and black t-shirt he looks really good.
He is looking at me and I look back at him.
Sifiso: So this is your home?
I nod I think I just lost my voice this man infront of me has
too much sex attraction, I move my hand to fix my dick
clearing my throat his eyes go down I think he notice it, his
eyes changes and he bite his lower lip, I shift my focus to
Sammy who is looking around.
Me: Hey Sam.
Sam: Hello Uncle Langa.
As we are talking Samke comes out screaming joyfully, she
hugs Sam and then wraps her arms around Sifiso's neck
hugging him.
Sfiso push her back a little.
Samke: Thank you for bringing our daughter here, come on
in sis Ziyanda wants to meet you two.
Sifiso looks at me, I just turn and walk inside and sit next to
mom.
Sfiso and his little family comes in.
They sit down Sfiso keeps his eyes down.
Sifiso: Sanibonani(Greetings)
Ziyanda: Unjani(how are you)and how is your mother?
Sifiso: We are all good ma'am thank you.
Luyolo: What did you guys do to my son's car this time
around Sfiso?
Me: Dad I told you guys it's the guys we've never seen
before.
Ziyanda: Thank you for bringing it home Sfiso, how much did
it cost so we can pay you back?
Sifiso: No it's fine you don't have to pay me Langa is my..
I hold my breath.
Sifiso: Langa is my friend so I don't mind really.
Ziyanda: Wow uhm ok thank you.
They greet sammy and Samke go and take her bag and
comes back.
Ziyanda: We will come on the weekend Samke with Mr
Miller.
Samke: Ok thank you for everything.
Ziyanda: Let me make tea for you Sifiso.
Sifiso: No ma'am i'm fine, i'm in a rush, next time.
He finally looks up with a smile.
I think I feel those butterflies in my stomach that people feel
when they are inlove.
Sifiso: We have to go now.
Ziyanda: Nice meeting you Sfiso and you Sammy.
Sifiso: Likewise ma'am.
Ziyanda: Langa you are taking them to the rank right?
I nod.
She gives Samke money and we walk out first with Sfiso.
Sifiso: Babe.
Me: Stop calling me that.
Sifiso: But we're not breaking up Langa.
Me: We are, Samke is inlove with you Sifiso.
He laughs but I keep a straight face.
Sifiso: You are serious?
Me: Yes, we can't be together, she has a dream of you raising
your daughter together Sfiso and there is Lona I can't get
myself involved in all this, I just found out i'm inlove with my
aunt's baby daddy and that Aunt is pretty much inlove with
the same man.
Sifiso: Langa...
Me: No..
Samke and Sam come out and they get in the back and Sifiso
get in the passenger seat.
Me: Thank you for getting my car fixed.
He nods looking out the window.
Samke is playing with her daughter behind us.
Samke: Tell daddy we love her Sammy.
Sam: We love you daddy.
My heart breaks she really is inlove with him and it hurts but
I have to take a step back.
Sifiso: I love you too Sammy..
Sam and Samke step out at the taxi rank but Sifiso sits still.
Me: They are waiting for you Sfiso, go.
He turns his head looking at me his eyes are red he is biting
his lower lip.
Me: I'm sorry..
He wipes his face and step out.
My tears come out as I watch them both holding Sam's
hands.
I sit there until their taxi leaves, I start the car and drive to
South Beach instead, I buy a few beers and park at the beach
front and start drinking my pain away.
Me: Shit hurts..I hate this love thing..I fucken hate it..
I drink all the beers I bought I can feel that I am really drunk.
My phone rings it's mom.
Me: Pink.
Ziyanda: Where are you it's getting late.
Me: I'm drinking my pain away.
I chuckle.
Ziyanda: Are you drunk?
Me: Yes Ma'am.
Ziyanda: Where are you ?
Me: South beach.
Ziyanda: Ok stay there don't drive ok, don't drive, your dad
will fetch you.
Langa: I won't drive mom I'm not trying to kill myself, I'm
just heart broken i'm numbing the pain ok.
I can hear mom shouting at dad to fetch me.
20 minutes later I hear a knock on my window, I unlock the
car dad roughly pull me out of the car and give me a very hot
slap the alcohol leave my body immediately.
Luyolo: If you want to be a drunkard leave the car at home.
Me: I wasn't going to drive dad.
Luyolo: Were you going to sleep here?
Me: No..
Luyolo: Nxxh!
He drags me to his car and Nkanyezi step out and take the
keys going to my car.
When we get home I go to my room and weep, I'm never
falling inlove ever again.

WE ARE ONE( I am my brothers's voice)

*
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LANGA
*
I feel someone roughly shaking me, my head and eyes feels
heavy opening them is a mission, I sit up and get off bed with
my eyes still closed i'm navigating my way to the bathroom
with my hands I bump my forehead into the wall I groan.
I feel a tap on my shoulder and I know that is Nkanyezi.
He help me go to the bathroom and wash my face then
slowly open my eyes, they are puffy and have red circles
around them.
Nkanyezi: "What is wrong with you?"
Me: "I had a lot to drink last night."
Nkanyezi: "You look really ugly."
Me: "Thank you so much I appreciate that."
Sacarsm, he is rude!
Nkanyezi: "Mom is calling you."
Me: She wants to beat the hell out of me?
Nkanyezi: "I think so."
Me: "You are not going to allow her right? cause you're my
brother."
Nkanyezi: "Never going to work Langa you didn't get drunk
with me."
He smirk and walk out.
After i'm done in the bathroom I go to the lounge.
Mbali: What happened to your face?
Ziyanda: Alcohol happened.
I take a seat.
Ziyanda: So who broke your heart?
Me: What?
Ziyanda: You said you are numbing the pain Langa, your
heart is broken and and and.
Me: I didn't mean any of that I think I had a lot to drink.
Ziyanda: You think?
Me: I'm sorry Mama.
Ziyanda: If you have a problem you talk ok I am always here.
Me: I know thank you.
I go back to my room and sleep facing up.
I call Sfiso his phone rings unanswered maybe he is at work.
Samke's call comes through after.
Me: Hey.
Samke: Hi I saw that you were trying to call Sifiso he forgot
his phone when he went to work.
Me: Uhm you slept there?
She laughs.
Samke: No, I came in this morning, I want to take back
what's mine.
Me: Which is?
Samke: Sfiso, he belongs with me and our daughter, you
know I was a fool all these years letting Lona walk all over
me but no more.
I sigh.
Samke: Uhm did you want to say something to Sfiso I can tell
him later when he comes back from work.
Me: I will call him then, bye.
I cannot be caught up in this, two girls fighting for a man,
never, nop not getting myself involved in that.
*
I have been in my room the whole day, Sfiso calls and I pick
up.
Me: Sure.
Sifiso: I saw that you called earlier i'm sorry I forgot the
phone at home.
Me: It's ok..I wanted to know if you got home safe yesterday.
Sifiso: I did thank you for asking.
Silence.
Sifiso: I miss you.
Me: I..I
I sigh.
Me: I'm glad you got home safe.
Sifiso: Langa..
Me: Yeah.
Sifiso: Can I see you this weekend.
Me: I can't.
Sifiso: Ngiyakcela( Please)
Me: Where?
Sifiso: I will come to Durban since I can't gaurantee your
safety here after what Lona did to you.
Me: Ok.
Sifiso: You will see me?
Me: Yeah.
Sifiso: Thank you.
I drop the call, what the hell am I doing? I shouldn't have
agreed to this.
*
It's friday and Sfiso is here already he is at the same hotel he
booked when he was here the last time.
I pack the clothes for the weekend get into my car and drive
there.
I knock and he comes to open he look good.
He close the door and hug me tight, we stay like that for a
long time.
Sifiso: I missed you so much.
He speaks on my neck, I hold him tight.
Sifiso: Tell me you love me babe please.
Me: I can't.
He breathes.
Sfiso: Why not Langa?
Me: You know why.
Sifiso: You were right about Samke, she has been acting
really strange lately she even do my laundry she is always
around it freaks me out.
Me: She told me she is inlove with you and that you belong to
her, and where will I fit in all this? two girls will be fighting
for you.
Sifiso: You fit here Langelihle(He place my hand in his chest)
in my heart.
Me: So what will happen now, I am here and you are there
stuck between two women.
Sifiso: I know what I want that's all that matters and it's you
that I want.
Me: Will we ever come out with all that is going on?
Sifiso: You don't know how much I wish to show everyone
out there that you are mine, I wish to go out with you and
hold your hand, kiss you and be free but you know people.
Me: I want that too.
My phone rings, I take it out and it's Samke I look at Sfiso
and answer putting it on speaker.
Samke: Hello Langa.
Me: Hi.
Samke: Ma told me that Sfiso went to Durban for the
weekend, did you know about that?
I clear my throat.
Me: Uhm I..No no
Samke: Langa.
Me: Yeah
Samke: You knew right?
Me: No.
Samke: Don't lie to me , is there another woman? Is he
meeting another woman? please tell me I don't want to be a
fool working on trying to build a relationship with someone
who is whoring around, Lona is already a pain in the ass I
can't have another woman too.
Me: Why did you wait this long to try things out with Sfiso
Samke?why now huh!? Why now!?
I am shouting and she doesn't reply for a while.
Samke: Why are you shouting at me?
I rub my forehead I can see Sfiso wants to say something but
I shake my head.
Me: I'm sorry.
Samke: No tell me why you are shouting, Langa you know
where Sfiso is and you know he is with a girl right? You
know!
I drop the call and sigh frustrated she calls again.
Me: Look Samke don't get me involved in your business with
Sfiso.
Samke: Why not? Lona was right it was just her and you
came along and took Sfiso to Durban and now he has been
taking sudden trips there almost every weekend, you are
teaching him to fuck around.
Me: Sfiso is an old man he makes his own decisions and
please leave me alone sisi call your Sfiso and ask him where
he is.
I drop the call and get up, I am angry, I turn and I see Sfiso
dialing a number.
Samke: Sammy's dad.
Sfiso chuckles.
Sifiso: What am I to you?
Samke: I don't unders..
Sifiso: What Am I To You?
Samke: You are the father of my child.
Sifiso: And that's where it ends right?
Samke: Yeah.
Sifiso: Tell me sisi where do you get the audacity to ask
about my whereabouts to Langa?
Samke: I thought sinc..
Sifiso: Samke me and you never dated and we never will so
stop trying so hard sisi.
Samke: But Sfiso I love you and I let Lona have you but I
won't make that mistake again, I won't let another girl have
you.
Sifiso: Too bad I don't feel the same so are you going to force
me to love you?
Samke: I..
Sifiso: Stop calling Langa asking about me.
He drops the call and stands up coming to where I'm
standing.
Me: Sort your life out you hear me I won't have girls calling
asking about you ok.
He nods.
Me: i'm not playing with you.
I hold his neck bringing his face closer we kiss taking off our
clothes, he turns me around and brush my butt softly.
Sfiso: It's so tight, sexy as hell bend over a little for me babe.
I balance my hands on the table, I feel him massaging my
balls from behind.
Me: Damn..
He spread my butt cheeks and I feel the tip on the entrance
my dick is already twitching.
Me: fuck..
I just want to cum already and he is taking his time. Finally
he put it all on I ache my back he wraps his arm around my
neck and start thrusting faster the cum splash out
immediately..
Me: Aaah!
Sfiso: am I doing you good babe..huh..
He pull out and turns me around he tongue kiss while we
move to bed, he get ontop of me and start thrusting looking
deep in my eyes.
Me: I love you Sfiso..
Sifiso: Then don't even think about leaving me..
He starts groaning.
Sifiso: Mmm Langa!fuck..
He moves faster and then pull out coming on my stomach, I
find that so sexy when I look at him cuming the way his face
changes, that smirk like he is proud of what he just did, he
should be that was good.
We sleep next to each other in silence I feel a beep that
happens when you drop the call I look around and his phone
is just next to us in bed, I sit up immediately and take it.
Sfiso: What's up?
I check his call log and I can see two phone calls that was
made to Samke minute ago, I check the time the call lasted
it's 4minutes and 56 seconds. My body is ice cold.
Me: You only called Samke once immediately after she called
me?
Sfiso: Yes why...
Me: I think she heard us, maybe one of us touched the phone
by mistake and it dialed Samke's number..
My heart is beating out of my chest and my hands are
shaking.
The phone rings in my hands and it's Samke.
I answer it Sfiso is looking at me not saying anything and I
don't even see a glimpse of panic in his face.
She sniffs.
Samke: Sfiso..
She sniffs again and drop the call, my phone rings next and I
just stare at it.
Me: She heard us Sfiso..
Sfiso: She got what she deserves.
She calls again and I answer.
Samke: How could you? You are gay?... and you chose Sfiso
out of all the guys out there, you chose to fuck my daughter's
father, how could you!? So that is the reason why Lona
damaged your car, you are a faggot and you are fucking with
Sfiso, does your family know?
Me: Look Samke I..it's not what you think..
Samke: You are a fuckin bitch and I'm calling your mother..
Me: Stop I will tell her myself don't involve yourself in
Samke: She is my family too and I want to know what she
will think about you fucking your Aunt's baby daddy.
Me: Fuck the aunt tittle I don't care about that shit and don't
try to get in between mom and I you will never win.
Samke: Well let's see about that!
Me: Samke don't call my mother please..
Samke: I'm giving you until today to find any gay man out
here and fuck him and leave Sfiso alone.
Sifiso: Samke!
Samke: You fuck men now Sifiso, Langa turned you to a gay.
Sifiso: He did now listen to me if you ever tell anyone about
this I will kill you.
Samke: No you won't..
Sifiso: Try me baby please try me..
My body is still shaking, I get up and pick up my clothes on
the floor and start dressing up.
Sifiso: Where are you going?
Me: I have to talk to Mom first before Samke does.
Sifiso: You want me to come with you.
Me: No I will be fine.
Sifiso: Samke won't call your mom.
Me: And how do you know that?
Sifiso: She will use this so she can try to break us up, she is
threatning you so you can leave me.
My phone rings again and it's her.
Samke: I want you to bring Sfiso back home by the end of
today if you don't I will post your picture in social media and
you will have to look over your shoulder everywhere you go,
some people hate gay men and you will be their prey, they
will tear your flesh, fag!
I look at Sifiso he get up and try to come closer to me I step
back.
Sifiso: Don't you fucken dare give in to that threat Langa..
I bite my lower lip looking down.
Me: Please get dressed, let me take you back home.
Sifiso: I'm not leaving..
He go to bed and sit down staring at me.
Me: Sfiso come on man..
Sifiso: If you want to leave it's fine but i'm not going..
Me: You want to get me in trouble just like you did with
Lona? just fucken get up and let me take you home then you
will stay away from me.
Sifiso: You want me to leave?
Me:Yes..
Sifiso: Never..
I'm frustrated my tears are so close to coming out.
Me: If something happens to me then it will be on you.
Sifiso: What do you want Langa?
Me: I want you to get your ass up and let me take you to your
crazy baby mamas then stay away from me!
Sifiso: What about what we feel for each other.
Me: It's not worth me being pointed out there, being laughed
at and being assaulted, I have seen the brutality gay men go
through and I don't want to be the victim of that so please
just get up..
I wipe my tears by my shirt.
My phone beeps and I view the message on whatsapp there
is a picture of me with Ntsika and Nkanyezi it is labelled,on
Ntsika's head it's written 'straight' and so is Nkanyezi's but
mine it's written 'GAY' in bold and she wrote " this is the
exact picture I will post on twitter and facebook you will
trend, nephew."
More tears come down my eyes and I take my car keys Sfiso
stands by the door.
Sifiso: Don't go please babe..
I walk out wiping my tears I get in the car I can see him
rushing to my car wearing his t-shirt, he get in the behind
me.
Sifiso: Langa you are not in a good state to drive..please stop..
I start the car and drive..
Sifiso: Langa! slow down!
Next thing I hear alot of car horns and the car crash, I can't
move my body is numb.
Sifiso: La..langa..
I want to answer him but I can't, I feel myself slowly losing
conciousness ..
*
Meanwhile at Ziyanda's house they are sitting on the lounge
talking Ntsika's nose starts bleeding.
Luyolo: Ntsika!your nose is bleeding.
He touch his nose and look at his hand that has blood.
Ntsika: Where is Nkanyezi?
Ziyanda: In his room?
Ntsika: Is he ok?
Miyalo: Let me go check on him he was fine.
Miyah walks away and come back telling them Nkanyezi is
fine.
Ziyanda: What is it Ntsika?
Ntsika: Call Langelihle, I don't feel too good, one of us is not
ok.
He says as he close his eyes.
Ziyanda starts trying to call Langa but it rings and go straight
to voicemail.
Ziyanda: He is not picking up.
Ntsika: Try again mom..
She tries a couple of times without a call being picked up.
Ziyanda: Something is wrong Langa always picks up his
calls..
A call comes through and it's from Langa.
Ziyanda: Thank God baby are you ok.
A man on the phone clears his voice.
Man: Uhm ma'am you are speaking to a paramedic we found
the phone on the car that was involved in an accident, we are
taking them to a City hospital as we speak.
Ziyanda: Is my son ok?
The call has been dropped, Ziyanda is shaking and tears are
running down her cheeks.
Luyolo: Who was that?
Ziyanda: Langa's car was involved in an accident I have to go.
Ntsika tries to get up but his body feels heavy he sleep back
on the couch.
Ziyanda: Miyah please look after the kids I have to go.
Miyalo nods.
Luyolo: Let's go..
They rush to the hospital.
Nurse: Can I help you.
Ziyanda: I believe my son was brought here today, he was
involved in a car accident.
She speaks so fast Luyolo brushes her back to calm her
down.
Nurse: Oh two young men were brought in here today you
can wait there the doctor is still with them.
Ziyanda: Are they going to be ok?
Nurse: Wait for the doctor sisi.
They go sit on the chair impatiently waiting for the doctor.
Ziyanda: Who is the other boy?
Luyolo: We will find out when the doctor is done with them.
After an hour the doctor comes out they rush to him.
Doctor: Ziyanda!
Ziyanda: Theo!..uhm hello is my son ok.
DrTheo: Oh there is your son in there? Uhm one of them is in
an induced coma and the other one will be fine he just lost a
bit of blood he was badly cut by the glass on his arm.
Ziyanda: Uhm which boy is in an imduced coma?
DrTheo: The coloured boy because the other one is dark..
Ziyanda: Oh my God.
She sob Luyolo hold her to his chest..
DrTheo: He will be fine we noticed a bad lump in his head so
we just want to make sure there is a protection and control
of the pressure dynamics of the brain if it happens that the
skull was hit during the accident we are still running some
tests, please excuse me.
Ziyanda: Can we see the other boy?
DrTheo: Yes, a nurse will show you.
The nurse shows them the ward and they get in.
Ziyanda: Sfiso?
Nurse: He is still drowsy from the medication he needs to
rest.
Ziyanda: I understand.
Sfiso is sleeping, his right arm is bandaged and his head is
bandaged.
Ziyanda: And his head?
Nurse: He has a minor cut on the side of his head.
Ziyanda nods and they sit while waiting for Doctor Theo to
tell them about Langa's condition.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
NARRATED
*
Samke and Sfiso's mother are on their way to Durban after
receiving a very disturbing call from Ziyanda that Langa and
Sfiso have been involved in a car accident and Langa is in a
coma.
Samke is crying for the father of her child while Sfiso's
mother is praying for the boys to be ok.
Ma calls Ziyanda.
Ma: Ziyanda we are about to get off now.
Ziyanda: Ok Ma Nkanyezi is already there to fetch you guys.
Ma: Ok Sisi.
They get off at the taxi rank and Nkanyezi who stops next to
them. They get in and he greet them with a nod and drive to
the hospital.
Samke rush to Ziyanda and hug her crying.
Ma: You must be Ziyanda it's nice to meet you sisi even
though it's under these difficult circumstances.
They hug and sit down.
Ma: What do the doctors say? Were they drinking alcohol.
Ziyanda: No ma there was not even an ounce of alcohol in
their blood Sfiso will tell us what happened when he wakes
up, he should be awake any minute from now.
They get in sfiso's ward and sit down, he opens his eyes and
find his mom next to him praying.
Sifiso: Ma.
Ma: Oh Sifiso how are you? What happened.
Sifiso: Where is Langa?
Samke looks at him angrily.
Ziyanda: He is in an induced coma his brain is swollen.
She says wiping her tears.
Sifiso: This is all your fault!
He shouts and groans as pain hits his body.
Ma: Calm down, how can you even blame Samke for an
accident that happened here.
Sifiso: Can I see him please?
Ziyanda: Just get better first and we will wait for a few hours
to see if he wakes up.
Sifiso: He may not wake up?
He ask looking really sad tears prick his eyes.
Ziyanda: He will wake up, he is a strong man, he needs to
wake up.
Ma: We will pray for him.
Ziyanda: Thank you I have to go home and change I will
come back later, we can all go together Ma.
Ma: Yes let's go we will come back later ok son.
Sfiso nods staring into space.
Samke: I will stay with him until you come back.
They walk out of the ward leaving Samke and Sfiso. She sits
next to his bed.
Samke: I'm sorry Sfiso.
Sfiso: Get out of here.
Samke: I know you are not gay Sfiso maybe Langa put you up
to this using the money that he have, he almost did that to
me too.
Sfiso: Get the fuck out Samke.
Samke: No I'm not leaving until you tell me that what you
had with that faggot is over.
Sfiso shakes with anger he wish he can get out of his bed and
strangle samke to death.
Samke: You have a baby and another one on the way you
cannot be gay never I refuse to believe that, Langa is the one
who is gay.
Sfiso: If you don't leave right now I will press this button
alerting the nurses and they will throw you out.
Samke: Ok I will go but I hope he doesn't wake up from that
coma.
She says walking out and those words hits Sfiso's heart and
tears flows from his eyes.
Sfiso: What have I done! God no!
More tears run down his face.
*
Hours later Luyolo and Ziyanda are in Theo's office waiting
to hear for the new report on Langa's conditions.
Ziyanda: Theo is there any changes in his brain?
DrTheo: Yes fortunately for him the swelling has gone down
we are taking him out of the coma we will just wait for him
to wake up now.
Luyolo: Thank God, maybe Ntsika will be ok now too.
Ntsika has been sleeping ever since Langa had that accident
he is breathing but just sleeping.
Ziyanda: Is it safe if I move him from this hospital to my
hospital instead.
DrTheo: So you are a doctor wow you made it
congratulations.
He looks at Ziyanda is total admiration.
Luyolo: She is also married to me.
Theo clears his throat.
DrTheo: Ofcaurse, uhm to answer your question, You can
move him once we are sure that he is perfectly fine and it's
safe for him to be moved.
Ziyanda: Ok thank you.
The nurses move Langa to his ward and put oxygen mask on
since he hasn't woken up yet and they are worried about the
sequence of his inspiration and expiration.
Ziyanda gets in and sit next to his bed touching his hand,
Luyolo sit on the other side and touch his other hand.
Ziyanda: It's enough now this is not what I wanted for you
Langa, I wanted you to grow up and be happy not this, just
months ago you were fighting the demons that were inside
of you and you won and now this.
He slowly move his hand.
Ziyanda: You can hear me Langa?
Luyolo get up and look at him.
Luyolo: He is awake I can tell, you are sneaky even when you
just got out of the coma.
Langa slowly opens his eyes smiling at his dad.
Ziyanda tries to hug him but he groans.
Luyolo: You are hurting him babe.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry, do you remember me?
Langa smiles again and nod.
Ziyanda: Oh you won't talk, I forgot.
Luyolo: This is a bad habit of you not talking when you wake
up we want to know how you're feeling Langelihle.
He shakes his head.
Luyolo: I can still slap you even when you are in this bed.
*
LANGA
*
After I have woken up and find dad and mom in my ward I
see how happy they are that i'm awake, I am happy too i'm
not ready to die I still have a lot to live for like these two
people in my ward, mom and dad, I remember everything
that happened.
Dad helps me to the bathroom and take a bath and brush my
teeth my body is still in alot of pain.
We go back to the ward and he helps me get in bed.
Me: Now.. I ..can.. talk ..mama.
I talk slowly because the right side of my ribs hurts
whenever I breath.
Luyolo: You almost didn't make it, your car was badly
damaged on your right side you were hit by a truck you
almost died Langa what happened?
Me: We should give thanks to all these ancestors for having
my back, Mzozo, Lukhele, Reigns and Gumede have you
heard of anyone having all these ancestors.
Luyolo: This is not the time for jokes wena I'm serious here.
Me: I even have white ancestors.
They laugh.
Me: Where is Sfiso?
Ziyanda: He is here too but he is fine they might discharge
him today.
I nod.
A door open and Samke gets in and greet mom and dad.
Samke: Hi Langa you're awake thank God.
She smiles, I can tell it's fake.
She comes closer to my bed.
Samke: Ma is asking for you outside sis and your hus
band.
Ziyanda: Ok, we will come back ok baby be well for mommy.
I smile.
Now I am left with Samke in my ward.
Samke: So Mr gay you woke up from the coma huh.
I don't say anything.
Samke: To tell you the truth I was hoping you don't make it.
I nod.
Samke: So are you going to stay away?
Me: I will.
Samke: Good boy, it was not going to work anyway Sfiso is
not gay maybe he just wanted your money.
I nod.
Samke: I really hope you are going to stay away because I
would really hate to post that picture on the internet.
Me: I want nothing to do with any of you.
Samke: Too bad because I am your auntie sweety I will be in
your face every chance I get.
Me: Ofcaurse you will.
Samke: I'm glad you understand baby.
She smiles and walk out.
An hour later Sfiso comes in limping and has a bandage
around his arm and a patch on his right side of the head.
He slowly sit down next to my bed.
Sifiso: Hey.
Me: Hey.
Sifiso: Are you good.
I nod.
Sifiso: They are discharging me today, do you know when
are you going home?
Me: No but Mom is transferring me to her hospital.
He nods.
After a long silence, he sighs.
Sifiso: We almost died.
Me: I know and I should have listened to you.
Sifiso: Doesn't matter now we are both alive.
Me: Yeah.
Sifiso: So are we still tog..
I cut him off.
Me: No.
Sifiso: Langa..
Me: No Sifiso we are done and this time it's really over, for
good.
Sifiso: Uhm.
He sighs.
Sifiso: Ok.. so this is goodbye.
Me: Yeah.
He nods.
Sifiso: Can I kiss you one last time.
Me: No, someone might come in and see us.
Sifiso: Ok.
He huffs and get up, he smiles with tears in his eyes.
Sifiso: I'm sorry for everything I complicated your life put
you in danger, you deserve better.
He touch my hand.
Sifiso: I love you so much, I hope you get well soon, bye.
He walk out and I feel like he ripped out my heart and left
with it.
I wipe my tears, mom comes in.
Ziyanda: Langa you are crying,I just saw Sfiso crying outside
what's wrong with you two.
I continue to cry, she hold my head to her chest.
Ziyanda: It's ok baby, everything is going to be fine.
*
I was transferred to mom's hospital a week ago and today i
am going home, Miss Nia comes in.
Nia: Hello.
Me: Hi.
Nia: You are going home today.
Me: Thank you.
Nia: You can be free, I saw how awkward you were around
me.
I smile awkwardly looking away.
Nia: I'm sorry if i'm making you uncomfortable it's just that I
still want us to do what we did, no strings attached.
Me: I can't, I wasn't myself when I did that.
Nia: Just once when you are perfectly healed.
I look at her maybe I should just get on with it i'm single so
why not.
Me: I am all healed right now.
I say smiling.
Nia: Are you sure?
Me: Yeah.
Nia: Meet me in the office next to your mom's now.
Me: Right behind you.
After a minute I get up and follow I get to the office and she
locks the door and push me to a chair and get on top of me,
we start kissing but I don't feel anything my mind keeps
drifting to Sfiso.
She is literally dry humping me but my dick is not budging I
get up with her and place her on the table.
Me: I'm sorry I can't do this .
Nia: What do you mean?
Me: I can't.
I walk out and go to my ward.
I pack my stuff up and wait for Nkanyezi to pick me up.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
*
It has been two months of complete misery, I have been
trying so hard to move on and forget about Sfiso, i'ts not
happening and Samke comes here once or twice a month
bragging about how her and Sfiso are together and how he
takes care of her sexually, which makes her so sure that Sfiso
is definitely not gay.
Mom has been trying to get me to talk, she thinks the
accident is the reason why i'm always moping around but
I'm just missing another man and we haven't made any sort
of contact ever since the accident.
*
In the morning I get up and take a shower then walk to the
lounge and sit down, Samke is here with mom.
Ziyanda: Hey I'm so happy you came out of your bedroom on
your own without your dad dragging you out.
I smile looking at her.
Me: I am ready to talk.
Ziyanda: Really?
Me: Yes mom.
Samke: Uhm let me give you guys space.
Me: No don't go stay..
Ziyanda: Ok talk to me baby.
I clear my throat and keep my eyes down.
Me: So mom I am in love.
Ziyanda: You are? With who?
Me: I am in love with a man.
Ziyanda: uhm ok...
She looks so confused.
Me: I am in love with Sfiso.
Ziyanda: Aaii Langa which Sfiso?
Samke starts tearing up.
Samke: He is talking about Sfiso the father of my child.
Mom looks really puzzled.
Ziyanda: Langa but how?
Me: It started way before I knew that Samke is your sister, it
started a week after I left home, it just happened I didn't
understand it because I have never had feeling for a man
before it was the first time.
Ziyanda: Uhm oh wow and you Samke you knew about this?
Me: She is the reason I had an accident that day she heard
me and Sfiso uhm..we were...
Samke: Say it..tell your mother that you were fucking with
Sfiso and I heard you.
Ziyanda: Samke sisi whoah let him talk, talk baby take your
time.
Me: So she threatened me that she will post my picture on
social media and tell everyone that I am gay so that I can be a
prey to homophobes and they will feed on my flesh.
Ziyanda: Say what?Samke you threatened my son?
Samke: If you were in my position what would you do? If
Langa was fucking Luyolo what would you do?
She shouts and Mom gasps dramatically.
Ziyanda: Little girl don't talk to me like that.
Samke: No it's possible he did it to me i'm his aunt but he
slept with Sfiso so he can do it to you too and you won't see
it coming, he was laughing in my face while sleeping with the
father of my child.
Mom get up and pull Samke up, she slap her across her face.
Ziyanda: Don't come to my house and talk shit about my son
ok, he is my son and Luyolo is his father.
Samke: Open your eyes Ziyanda he can do anything, he is a
faggot that's what they do, fuck any man.
Mom slap her again, she is fuming and turning pink.
Me: Mom stop I don't want to get inbetween you guys I just
wanted to get this off my chest.
Samke is crying and mom is still looking at her with one
eyebrow raised she is really angry.
She finally sit down and look at me.
Me: Sfiso told me that him and Samke never dated they only
slept once and Sammy was conceived and Samke confirmed
it too.
Ziyanda: So why are you threatening my son for bullshit?
Samke: I am your sister you should be on my side.
Mom chuckles.
Ziyanda: What! This girl is crazy, let me educate you sisi, no
one can get inbetween me and my sons not even the demons
from hell and I mean that literally so don't try boo.
Samke: Oh so you mean he is right for being gay?
Ziyanda: More than right if you ask me, he is being himself.
Samke chuckles.
Samke: You must be kidding me wasn't he dating girls all
these years.
Ziyanda: That doesn't concern you.
Samke: It does, he used money to attract Sfiso into doing
dirty things.
Me: He started all this, your Sfiso is the one who started all
this.
Samke: You are a liar.
Me: Still I have stayed away from him but does he want you
now?
She keeps quiet and I chuckle.
Me: That's what I thought.
She comes to me and starts hitting me with her fists I push
her and get up.
Ziyanda: You really need to leave my house.
Samke: You are chasing me out because of this fag?
Ziyanda: Call my son that one more time I dare you!
I walk away from them and sit on my bed.
Mom comes in after a while and sit next to me.
Ziyanda: Come here.
We hug.
Ziyanda: I will never judge you Langelihle you should have
told me.
Me: I was still confused with all this, I mean it was the first
time I had feelings for a man.
She looks up and smiles her cheeks turns red instantly.
Me: Mom what's up.
Ziyanda: Don't mind me i'm just imagining you and Sfiso, the
guy looks super hot I was definitely going to go for him if I
wasn't married to your dad.
I look down i'm embarrassed this is awkward.
Me: Mom stop..
Ziyanda: It's the truth the dark skin is everything you would
agree with me, right?
I get up walking away but she pull my hand laughing.
Ziyanda: Ok! I'm sorry, I'll stop.
Me: Mom i'm still pretty much a man don't talk to me about
things like that it's awkward you are embarrassing me.
Ziyanda: I know, that was the whole point baby.
She burst out laughing I end up joining her.
Ziyanda: I love you, I always choose my family.
Me: Samke is your family.
Ziyanda: True but she belongs with Mr Miller her father, not
here worse now she has the audacity to threaten my son
whhoa shame she can go to hell.
Me: Thank you Pink.
Ziyanda: So uhm you are gay?
Me: Sfiso told me we shouldn't label our relationship as
being gay, it's just two men inlove with each other.
She smiles.
Ziyanda: Wow! that's cute! so you guys broke up?
Me: Yes.
Ziyanda: You still love him and you are hurting right now.
Me: Yeah but he has another baby on the way and that is the
same girl that damaged my car and almost broke my knee.
Ziyanda: So you lied to cover for Sfiso?
I nod.
Ziyanda: I remember when me and your dad were caught by
Lukhele that we are doing something I told dad I was the one
who initiated everything so I can protect Luyolo, it happens.
Me: But now it's too late he must have gone back to that girl.
Ziyanda: But the way he was crying at the hospital I believe
he really do love you.
Me: So you think I still have a chance?
Ziyanda: You won't know until you go there and talk to him.
Me: But what if he rejects me?
Ziyanda: Then you will know it's time to move on and it's
better than what ifs.
Me: Uhm ok.
Ziyanda: So are you ok to drive I can give you my car.
Me: I'm nervous.
Ziyanda: it's ok if he rejects you, come back and sleep with
me and your dad we will comfort you like a baby that you
are.
I laugh.
Me: You are really not helping mom.
Ziyanda: I'm trying to help with the nerves.
Me: Yeah you are really helping.
Ziyanda: Go freshen up I will pick clothes for you, when you
dress up you feel confident.
Me: Ok.
I go to the bathroom and freshen up then go back I find
clothes in my bed, Black jeans and a black t-shirt written
Langa in white, she had it made, she always get our t-shirts
printed with our names, so this is her idea of dressing up?
Me in a t-shirt written my name which happens to be my
boyfriend's surname, wow I laugh as I get dressed, she has
packed a few clothes too.
I go to her and she claps her hands.
Ziyanda: "You look like a movie. You sound like a song my
God this reminds me of when we were young"
She sings Adele's song so beautifully as I walk closer to her.
Ziyanda: You look great!
Me: Thank you. So you packed, you don't want me back.
Ziyanda: No just incase you sleep there I know you will have
a problem wearing the same clothes.
Me: I know, thank you.
Ziyanda: Here are the keys make sure you're safe Langa, I
mean safe in everything.
I squint my eyes.
Ziyanda: Don't do that.
I laugh and she walks me out.
I drive to Sfiso's home I hope he is around and I will get
there around 7pm
*
I step out and open the gate then drive in, I huff and wipe my
face then step out, I stand by the door and knock with my
shaking hand.
The lights are still on, I can hear footsteps coming closer I
step back I feel like running away.
The door opens and it's Sfiso he looks puzzled. He close the
door behind him and step closer to me.
Sfiso: Langa..
Me: Hi.
Sfiso: You are here?
He doesn't believe I'm here.
Me: I had to, I couldn't stay away anymore.
Sfiso: I waited for you.
His voice is so deep but shaky.
Me: Can I hug you?
He doesn't say anything. I step closer and hug him tight , he
hugs me back.
Me: I want us to fix things, I hope i'm not too late.
Sfiso: No you're not Langa, come let's go in mom is not
around.
He takes my hand and we walk in, he locks the door and we
sit on the couch.
Sfiso: You look good.
Me: Thank you.
We are silent for a while.
Sfiso: So..
Me: I told my mom about us.
Sfiso: You did?
Me: Yes and she is the one who convinced me to come here.
Sfiso: Wow so she is ok with this.
Me: Yes she even said we make a "hot couple".
Sfiso: I have to agree with her on that.
We both chuckle.
We stare at each other then he looks down.
Sfiso: I missed you Langa.
He says that and sniff. I pull his chin up he has tears in his
face.
Me: I'm sorry.
Sfiso: I got laid off at work because of the days I missed at
work without reporting, when I went there they already
found my replacement
He wipes his face, I feel guilty I caused that accident.
Sfiso: I can't take care of my mom and my daughter and I
have Lona's family on my neck, they demand the damages by
the end of this month I feel like a failure.
Me: Yhoo I'm really sorry, it's all my fault you told me not to
drive that day.
He chuckles
Sfiso: I told mom to go back home until I find a job but
nothing comes up I have been sending CVs everywhere.
Me: uxolo(sorry)
Sfiso: I'm sorry for telling you my problems.
Me: It's fine that's why I'm here you can tell me anything.
He nods.
Sfiso: Where is Samke I haven't seen her ever since I chased
her out of here.
Me: Mom slapped the crap out of her and chased her out
after I told her about what happened on the day of the
accident.
Sfiso: Damn! your mom is ghetto.
Me: She is like that when it comes to her kids I wish I told
her sooner maybe things would have turned out differently.
He nods, I get closer to him.
Me: I love your eyes.
He chuckles with a side smile and licks his bottom lip.
I laugh.
Sfiso: What?
Me: It's something mom said.
Sfiso: What did she say?
Me: She said if she wasn't married she would definitely go
for you.
I burst out in a full blown laughter I still find that very funny.
Me: "black guys are everything."
Sfiso: She said that?
Me: She did, and you are everything to me Sfiso and I want
us to try again and this time we will make it work no more
break ups, I will ride with you even if it kills me.
Sfiso: No more break ups?
Me: No more.
Sfiso: I can work with that.
We start kissing and next thing we are naked and our groans
fill the entire house, I'm thrusting on him like my life
depends on it and he is cuming for the second time now as
he strokes his dick, we are doing it on the couch.
Me: I'm never leaving you again you hear me?
I say as I move faster.
Sfiso: Fuck...yes
He pull my dick out getting up and push me to the couch, he
gets on top and put my dick back in, he moves while we kiss
with our tongues.
Sfiso: You are mine Langa..
I hold his waist and start thrusting fast underneath he wraps
his arms around my neck and groan on my ear I lose it and
cum deep inside of him.
He looks at me with sweat running down his face.
I smile.
Me: I love you.
Sfiso: I love you, I never imagined myself in this position.
Me: Does it make you feel uncomfortable?
Sfiso: No, I can do anything with you, this feels right.
Me: It does huh.
I say smiling as I start moving in him again.
We go to his room after picking up our clothes.
Me: I need to take a shower.
Sfiso: Let's go.
We take a shower together but he looks deep in thoughts.
Me: You look worried about something, talk to me.
Sfiso: No I'm good.
Me: if we want this to work we have to be honest to each
other and communicate more.
He sighs.
Sfiso: I'm just hoping I find the job soon.
Me: Don't get angry this is just a suggestion, how about you
come with me to Durban then I will help you get a job,
Durban is a big city so you might find it a little faster there
but it's just a suggestion.
Sfiso: Where will I stay?
Me: The flat I was staying at when the year started, Dad paid
in advance for the whole year you can stay there until you
are back on your feet if that's ok with you.
Sfiso: That would help me a lot.
Me: So you will come with me to Durban?
Sfiso: Yes, beggars can't be choosers I will take anything
right now.
Me: You are not a beggar to me Sfiso I'm doing this for you
because I love you and I care a lot about you and it's a few
months left you will get your degree and you will start
searching for work that you are qualified for.
Sfiso: You have so much faith in me.
Me: I believe in you.
Sfiso: And you will go back to school next year right?
Me: I will definitely.
We step out of the shower and start packing his clothes.
My phone rings I answer it.
Ziyanda: You need to get out of that house right now and
drive back to Durban, Langa Now! take Sfiso with you!
She is in panic mode by the way she is talking so fast.
I look at Sfiso.
Me: We need to get dressed and get out of here now.
I get out of bed and take his shirt on the bed wearing it and
my jeans.
I take his bags and walk out putting them in the car and walk
back in again.
Me: Hurry Sfiso!
I get in the car while he opens the gate.
I can hear the chanting of the crowd from afar. " Asizifuni
izinkonkoni" which simply means " We don't want
homosexuals."
It sounds like a protest.
I huff, Sfiso rush to the car and I drive out.
He looks at his phone.
Sfiso: Samke did it, she made a collage of my pictures and
yours and posted it on morning side community facebook
page and wrote 'Gays'. people know me here so I guess they
are after me now.
I chuckle as I stop at the gate, I can hear the chanting coming
closer I look on the side mirror and I can see the lights of the
fire, it's like they are holding burning woods.
Thank God for mom's car which is one of the top 10 fastest
cars in South Africa..
Me: I'm stepping on it, We ride or we die.
I look at him he smiles.
Sfiso: I guess we ride ain't ready to die yet!
I step on it alright..

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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We are about to get to Durban and I think now I can slow
down I have been driving really fast, my phone rings.
Me: Please answer it for me babe.
Sfiso takes it and put it on speaker.
Luyolo: Come home don't go anywhere else.
Me: Ok dad.
Luyolo: Do you hear me Langelihle?
Me: I heard you tata (dad)
The phone drops now i'm nervous about how everyone else
will react because i'm sure by now everyone knows my story
with Sfiso.
Me: We are going home.
He nods nervously.
Me: It will be ok my family will like you, mom already likes
you.
He sighs.
I drive inside the yard, step out and wait for Sfiso but he
doesn't step out of the car I open the passenger door, I find
him looking up with his hands on his face.
Me: Sfiso.
Sfiso: Sure.
Me: Come on man let's go in and then we will go please.
He huffs and step out.
We walk in and he is walking slowly behind me.
Me: Ufuna ngikushiye la?(you want me to leave you here?)
I say frustrated.
Me: Look I'm nervous too but let's just get this out of the
way.
Sfiso: Langa you are really annoying let me take my time out
here.
Me: Time for shit let's go.
Sfiso: Ungakhulumi nami kanjalo.(Don't talk to me like that.)
Me: Uzokwenzani?(What are you going to do?)
He chuckle and the door opens, I turn.
Ziyanda: Stop arguing and get in here already..
She walk back in I look at Sfiso and nod.
Me: It's ok.
We walk in and everyone is here except the kids.
We stand by the door Sfiso is next to me moving his eyes
around nervously I am nervous too but at least I am familiar
with these people.
Dad get up and comes to me, he hugs me then step back and
look at Sfiso who looks like he will faint any minute from
now.
Luyolo: We don't judge,you know that right?
I nod.
Luyolo: Now tell your friend to breath or he will land on this
floor badly.
I look at Sfiso again.
Luyolo: No, you can do what you guys usually do when you
calm each other down, I don't mind really.
He grins.
Me: Dad come on.
I say looking down.
Ziyanda: Move away from the kids blacky you can be really
intimidating so stop coming at them like that, come sit down
Langa and you Sfiso.
We go and sit opposite them.
Mom has this smile on her face it's ridiculous , I chuckle.
Ziyanda: Uhm Welcome Sfiso.
Sfiso: Thank you ma'am.
Ziyanda: You can keep your head up you are cute!
Luyolo: Ziyanda tone it down a bit.
Ziyanda: Ave ubhora (you are so boring.)
Ntsika: So nina nobabili niyajola?(So you two are dating?)
He burst out in laughter I expected that from him.
Ntsika: So it's black and yellow kinda thing.
Ziyanda: Yeah! Just like me and your father.
Ntsika: Mom this is Langa's moment, we know you and dad.
He cracks up.
Ziyanda: Mxm uhm so Sfiso you can relax you are welcome,
we love love.
Mandisi: I remember the last time you said that you ended
up pouring Luyolo and his ex with 20litres of water.
Mbali: I was so proud of her.
We know the story of Lesedi dad's dramatic ex.
Mandisi: Of course you were you like violence.
I look at Sfiso next to me.
Me: I love you.
Sfiso: Shh Langa you will tell me that when we are out of
here, you want me to feel things right in front of your family.
We are whispering and there is silence I look up and
everyone is looking at us with huge grins on their faces.
Ziyanda: No go on don't mind us.
Sfiso: Shit.
He cuss under his breath and I laugh.
Luyolo: So you can't go back to that place for now Sfiso it's
not safe for you.
Me: Uhm I was hoping he could stay in my flat until he finds
a job if that's ok with you.
Luyolo: That's a good idea at least my money won't go to
waste.
Me: So can I take him there now?
Luyolo: Yes that is fine.
Ziyanda: Let me dish up for you the food you will eat later.
Me: Thank you.
Nkanyezi: "Welcome to the family Sfiso"
Sfiso looks at him.
Me: He is saying welcome to the family.
He smiles.
Sfiso: Thank you.
Miyalo: Nami ngiso njalo.( I'm saying that too.)
Lathi is just quiet like her mind is far away from here but I
did hear that they are going through some stuffs like every
couple out there.
Mom comes back with food and dad give me the key to the
flat.
Me: Thank you.
Ziyanda: You can use my car for the time being.
Me: Thank you mama.
Ziyanda: Make sure you guys are safe don't walk around the
street that picture is even on twitter and some comments
are nasty i'm really worried about your safety.
Me: We will be fine mom we won't just go out.
Ziyanda: Ok call if you need anything.
I nod and we walk out and Sfiso sighs after we get in the car.
Me: Wait here let me talk to dad a little.
I step out and walk back in.
Me: Can I talk to you old man?
Luyolo: Sure boy what's up?
Me: Uhm Sfiso needs a job can you help him find something.
Luyolo: Where was he working before.
Me: He was a petrol station attendant at Caltex in Ixopo.
Luyolo: Ohk that should be easy, I will see if I can find
anything for him.
Me: Thank you.
Luyolo: You really love him huh?
I look down.
Me: Yes.
Luyolo: Then don't try to hide it, don't be ashamed of it, fight
for your love if you have to and don't let anything get
inbetween you two, there will be homophobic comments
from time to time but if you stick together you will overcome
it.
Me: I will remember that and thank you for accepting this.
Luyolo: We don't choose for the heart, it chooses on it's own,
as long as my you are happy I am happy.
We side hug and I go back to the car.
Me: You're still good.
Sfiso: I'm just worried about what they will do to my home.
Me: Yeah eish.
We drive to my flat and take his bags and the food inside, it's
not that clean you can tell it's been a while since someone
dusted the place.
Sfiso: This is a nice place.
Me: Yeah it is.
We go to the room and I unpack his bags and the ring falls
down, I pick it up.
Me: Why is this ring still here you said you gonna take it
back.
He look at me and take it putting it back to his bag.
Sfiso: This ring is yours Langa and one day you will wear it,
so no matter how long it takes it will be here waiting for you.
I'm feeling goosebumps on my body, what he said just made
me love him even more.
Me: I can put it on my right hand side if that's fine with you.
Sfiso: Wow thank you.
Me: I'm not saying let's get married Sfiso.
Sfiso: Mxm I know that but it makes me happy that you
accept it and you will put it on.
He takes it and open the box, it shines, he takes my right
hand and put it on my second finger and it's a perfect fit.
Sfiso: Thank you babe, for this and for everything you are
doing for me, I love you so much and appreciate you a lot.
Me: I love you, now take your clothes off I want to make love
to you.
He smiles and take off his shirt, I take of mine. The rest of
our clothes are off.
I slowly push him to bed and get ontop of him.
I kiss him while massaging his balls and dick.
Sfiso: mmm.
I move down to lick his tips he grabs my head and push it
further down his dick it deep in my mouth, I move back to
his mouth and kiss him while putting his dick deep in my
anus.
Sfiso: Shit!
I bend to kiss him while moving up and down his dick, my
arm are around his neck giving him deep kiss.
He groan and we start moving together in the same rhythm.
He push me and we sleep on our side and he comes from
behind one leg is up he start moving.
He is licking my neck to my ear.
Sfiso: This feels right Langa, this feels like home, do you feel
it too.
I know what he is talking about, our sex may not seem
normal to other people but to us it is normal our bodies
react to it we find absolute pleasure.
He moves faster and I see cum slowly coming out of my dick
and it's twitching, we switch position he gets on top and
starts pounding on me and stroking my dick which is still
hard.
Sfiso: Oh I love this, your dick is beautiful and clean.
He moves faster and cum, he start sucking my dick so fast I
grab on the sheets.
Me: Fuck yes babe...Sfiso damn baby..yeah..i'm close baby
you..need..
He goes deeper groaning on it..
Me: Sfiso..oh fuck..I can't hold it in..i'm cuming...
My dick twitch on his mouth he moves and hold both our
dicks and rubs them together we both cum on the same time.
Me: Shit you're amazing that was..fuck..
We sleep next to each other.
He takes my hand and play with my ring.
Sfiso: I love you.
Me: I love you too.
The phone beeps I take it, it's his phone.
I view the message.
Lona: *I knew that you and that coloured boy were up to no
good but I didn't think you guys were fucking. how can you
do this to me Sfiso, people are looking for you here, they
want to kill you because uyistabane (you are gay), what the
fuck is wrong with you?*
Me: Yeah people really see being gay as an abomination.
Now my phone indicates a message.
Me: It's from Samke.
Sfiso: She is really starting to be a huge problem.
Me: *You might have survived that but there is more coming
and I told you if you don't leave Sfiso you will have to look
over your shoulder the preys are looking for your asses
fags.*
I read out the message from Samke.
Me: I have to stop this before it goes too far.
There's a notification on Sfiso's phone it's the facebook page
of more pictures of us the caption says "They love it up in
their asses,GAYS."
Sfiso get up and takes his phone.
Sfiso: Samke stop what you are doing it will get you in so
much trouble.
Samke: With who?you?
Sfiso: I'm warning you!
Samke: Please, you are weak you allow another man to fuck
you in the ass, disgusting.
I get up and go to the kithchen to get the food, this makes me
really hungry.
I warm the food while I go take a quick shower, I find Sfiso
sleeping with a bed cover over his head.
Me: Babe.
He doesn't reply.
I go get our food and go back to room.
I pull the the covers away from him and find him in tears.
Me: Don't let this get to you, we will go through it together.
He wipes his face and sit up.
Sfiso: I didn't mean to turn your life upside down like this
Langa, I brought so much trouble in your life and i'm sorry.
Me: I still love you and I won't leave you.
Sfiso: You won't?
Me: I promise I won't.
He chuckles.
Sfiso: This life is turning me into a bitch, I don't remember
the last time I cried before meeting you.
Me: I know what you're talking about babe. now let's eat i'm
so hungry.
My mom calls.
Ziyanda: This is getting out of hand, come home with Sfiso
tomorrow we are meeting with Samke.
Me: Ok mom.
Ziyanda: What she is doing is a recipe for rape it makes my
blood boil, the comments people are making on those
picture are very disturbing, you guys are really not safe,
people are sick out there and i'm worried because even
Ntsika has started getting sick, I'm really scared Langa.
She starts crying.
Me: We will come home mom, we will leave here early.
I hold Sfiso's hand, i'm really scared, my life is in danger and
Sfiso's just because we are 'Gay'.
Me: I love you.
He looks deep in my eyes.
Sfiso: I can see you are scared but don't be, we will be fine.
We get in bed, I don't even feel hungry anymore.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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We are driving home it's half past four in the morning, I
couldn't sleep last night I kept on tossing and turning, this is
really stressing me out.
I get home and it's quiet, people are still sleeping, I take
Sfiso's hand and go to my room, we get in bed with our
clothes on because it's morning already.
Sfiso: Your eyes are puffy, you didn't get much sleep last
night you kept tossing and turning.
Me: Yeah i'm sorry if I disturbed your sleep.
Sfiso: It's ok I couldn't sleep either.
Me: We are safe here at home, let's get some sleep.
I fall asleep with my hand on his chest and his ontop of mine.
*
I wake up when my phone ring, I answer it.
Me: Mmmm
Ziyanda: Where are you guys?
I sit up.
Me: My room.
Ziyanda: Oh ok come eat breakfast we will wait for you.
I shake Sfiso, he wakes up and we go to the bathroom to
wash our faces and brush our teeth using my toothbrush
since we didn't bring his stuff.
I kiss him.
Me: Let's go I love you ok.
He holds the sides of my face and kiss me passionately and
we pull out and walk out.
We walk to the table and Samke and Mr Miller are here.
Ziyanda: Sit down boys.
We sit next to each other.
Me: Good morning everyone.
Luyolo: Morning, what time did you get here?
Me: 4:45 am.
He nods.
Ziyanda: You guys didn't sleep well last night, Langa your
eyes are puffy and red.
Me: Yeah I was just stressed i'll be fine.
We eat breakfast then we all move to the lounge and mom
clears her throat.
Ziyanda: Mr Miller I called you here to tell you to keep that
little girl next to you on a leash because she is playing with
fire and she might get burnt.
Miller: She is your sister Ziyanda and she told me why she
did this, she was heartbroken.
Ziyanda: I don't really care about that I just met her but
Langa has always been my son and if I had to choose I will
always choose him over her but then I don't have to choose
because I don't know her like that and for what she did I
don't think I ever will.
Samke: If you were in my shoes you would have done the
same.
Ziyanda: You don't know me Sis so saying that I would have
done the same is just pure rubbish.
Miller: Please work this out you two, Samke apologise.
Ntsika: If I may ask, how is apolgising going to help this
situation?everything that she wrote on the internet is still
out there.
Miller: She will delete it.
Ntsika chuckles.
Ntsika: It's too late, we have things like screenshots now you
can write something and delete it but someone out there
already has it on his/her phone, homophobes already talks
about how they want to beat the "gayness " out of my
brother they have seen his picture, some of them already
knows his name, apologising won't help. So Samke are you
happy now that my brother have to live in fear because of
your stupidity.
Samke: Why is everyone blaming me, he took the father of
my child.
Sfiso: He took me from who?
He talk in his bold husky voice but very low.
Samke: He took you from us, me and Sam, everything
changed when you brought him home with his big car and he
lured you with his money.
Sfiso: Exactly what is it that makes you angry? did you want
Langa to yourself because of money or you thought me being
close to Langa means he is giving me money so you want a
share, because all your reasons are followed by "money this,
car that" what is it that you want?
Samke: I don't want him or his money I want to teach him a
lesson.
Me: What did I do to you?
Samke: I won't explain one thing everytime.
Luyolo: Ok I have heard it, it's enough now Samke you are
not welcomed here anymore if I see you posting shit about
my son again i'm going to kill you.
Miller: Luyolo don't say things like that.
Luyolo: Oh but i'm not playing, I will kill her should anything
happen to either of them.
Ziyanda: Now Mr Miller please take your daughter and leave
my house in peace please.
Miller: Samke apologise please.
Samke: But i'm not sorry and now i'm going to sit back and
watch you suffer.
Ziyanda: Ok that's it..
She get up and pull Samke up all the way to the door.
Miller: Ziyanda stop I want us to all get along I just found out
that you two are my daughters please just do it for me.
Ziyanda: Do what? She is nothing to me and I want nothing
to do with her.
Miller: Ok, i'm sorry for all this, I hope we are still good.
Ziyanda: Yea just make sure your daughter stays away from
me and my family.
Miller nods and walk out.
After a while Qhayiya comes in and greet.
Qhayiya: Dad why was Auntie Samke taking pictures of the
cars outside?
Luyolo: She did what?
Qhayiya: I was playing at the back and I saw her taking a
picture of mom's car and your car.
We all look at each other confused.
Me: I brought trouble to my home huh?
Ziyanda: You thought you were helping her don't blame
yourself baby.
*
Later we leave the house and go back to the flat, we watch
TV while in bed with a blanket covering us.
I hear a key like someone is trying to unlock the door on the
main door.
Me: Did you hear that?
Sfiso: Hear what?
Me: I think someone is trying to open the door that side.
He turns down the volume and get out of bed, I follow him
and we stand in the kitchen in silence but we don't hear
anything.
Sfiso: Maybe you heard wrong baby let's go back to bed.
We walk back to the bedroom and get in bed again.
But we hear the glasses breaking, I jump up.
Me: Something is happening outside.
He get up and wears his shirt and jeans then his shoes.
Sfiso: Wear something Langa.
He whispers I wear my clothes, we hear more glasses
breaking and we walk back to the kitchen there are glasses
of windows everywhere.
Sfiso: Go get your phone.
Before I can go back the door opens and two buff guys get in
first followed by three more guys.
I pull Sfiso closer to me.
They stand in line looking at us not saying anything.
We hear the click sounds of heels outside then Samke walk
in.
Me: Samke! What are you doing here, how did you find this
place.
Samke: Oh Langa why didn't you tell me how easy
everything is when you are a rich kid, a trustfund baby.
Me: Who are these people?
Samke: They are here to teach you guys a lesson and I will
watch you suffer, Sfiso you made me a laughing stock in our
community when you told everyone that me and you never
dated we just slept together, you even said that you don't
believe the child is yours, you're going to wait until she is
born, that was not different from calling me a whore and
now that I thought we can try something out you become
gay? Oh no I can't have that.
Sfiso: I wasn't lying Samke you and I never dated and to say I
will see when the child is born if it's mine was because you
were in a relationship with someone so I wasn't sure she
was mine, that wasn't meant to insult you.
Samke: Still doesn't change the fact that people laughed at
me because of you.
Sfiso: Samke we were both drunk when that happened..
Samke: I'm done talking, boys teach them a lesson.
These guys come closer to where we are standing, they are
pretty old and buff they look scary too.
One of them grabs me and the other one grabs Sfiso.
Sfiso: Hey let go you piece of shit.
But they are holding us tight, the other two comes to me and
pull down my pants.
Me: Hey what are you doing?
Samke: I'm sure after today you won't dream of being fucked
in the ass ever.
I kick one guy, a punch lands on my jaw line.
Sfiso: Samke! What is this? What are you doing? Who are
these guys?
Samke: I paid them to fuck your boyfriend over here while
you watch.
I try to move my arms but the guy behind me is holding them
tight, I look at Sfiso the guy is holding him tight too, my pants
are down on my knees now, and one guy starts touching me
down there.
Sfiso: Langa! Samke stop this shit ok, tell these guys to stop.
Samke: You chose Lona while I was busy hushing your baby
every night and now just when I thought I have a chance
with you, you become gay, really.
I kick the guy again that is touching me, he get up and punch
me again, blood come out of my mouth, Sfiso manage to
move away from the guy that is holding him and punch the
guy that was touching me two times, the other guys grabs
him again and they start punching him and kicking him, he is
groaning in pain.
Me: Samke please stop this..
She grabs the chair and sit down.
Me: You are messing with the wrong family, my brother
already feels that something is wrong they are coming, if I
were you I would run.
Samke: That is ridiculous , boys make him kneel down, I
want to hear him scream.
The guy push me down and I go on my knees he is still
holding my arms tight.
They start kicking my stomach countless times.
Sfiso: Samke I will kill you! Ngizokubulala yezwa! (I will kill
you, you hear me!
The big man bend me over and I feel hands touching my ass.
I try to get up but they pin me down and strangle me.
Sfiso: Samke please don't let them do this, please, Langa..
I feel a finger on my ass and i'm out of breath, I can hear a lot
of noise and I feel like I can breathe again he has let go of my
neck and I lay on my stomach.
I feel someone turning me and pull up my pants.
Sfiso: I'm sorry.
Me: What..is going on?
He wipes his tears.
Sfiso: Your dad is here, I'm so sorry.
Me: It's ok we are fine right?
My neck is so painful and my ribs too.
Luyolo: Langelihle..
The help me sit up and dad hugs me.
Me: Where are they?
Luyolo: What Samke did is crime, she ordered a homophobic
attack and they are all in jail right now.
I nod.
Luyolo: Let's go home, Sfiso pack your bags we are leaving.
He get up and walk away.
Dad helps me up and we go to the car and wait for Sfiso, i
rest my head on the car seat and close my eyes, I was almost
raped just because of a bitter baby mama.
The car starts moving and I feel a hand touching mine.
We get home and mom opens the door on my side and hug
me tight I flinch.
Ziyanda: Askies baby, i'm sorry.
Me: I'm ok mom.
Sfiso and I go to our room and mom comes in with basin and
cloth to clean my bruises.
Sfiso: Can I please do it ma'am?
Ziyanda: Yes of course, it's fine I will bring the pills for both
of you.
I sleep facing up and Sfiso slowly clean up my face where I
was bruised because of the punches.
He cleans me up in silence, he keeps wiping his face I hold
his hand.
Me: We're fine Sfiso..
Sfiso: I couldn't do anything to help you if your dad didn't get
there in time they would have rap..
He bite his bottom lip and more tears flows down his cheeks.
Mom comes in and stand next to Sfiso and hold his shoulder.
Ziyanda: I think you two should go for therapy what you
went through was traumatic for the both of you.
Me: We will do it together, thank you mom.
Ziyanda: Ok I will call one and book for you.
I nod, she walk out.
Me: Come sleep next to me.
He get in bed.
Me: I would be sleeping on top of you but my ribs hurt like a
bitch.
I chuckle..
Me: Can you change this ring on my right hand and put it on
the right finger.
He get up and look down at me.
Sfiso: What do you mean?
Me: I mean this ring belongs to my left hand Sfiso, so put it
on the right finger.
He look confused.
Me: I want to be your fiance.
He take off the ring and put it on my left hand side on my
second finger and he kiss me.
Sfiso: Thank you so much baby, thank you.
Me: I love you.
Sfiso: I love you too and as soon as I get a job and get back on
my feet again I will marry you.
Me: I know you will.
He sleep next to me again holding my hand.
*The next morning we go and eat breakfast, we are sitting
around the table, mom screams, we all look at her puzzled.
Ziyanda: Oh My God!!Langelihle!
Luyolo: Ziyanda what is it you are scaring the kids.
Ziyanda: The ring, Sfiso!
She is talking so loud.
I hide my hand under the table.
She walks around the table and take my hand.
Ziyanda: Let me see! let me see, Oh my God Langa! It's so
beautiful, I am so jealous.
Luyolo: You proposed?
Sfiso nods looking down.
Luyolo: Congratulations man, You know what you want, I
proposed to that woman a few weeks after we started
dating, there is no time frame of when a man should
propose.
Sfiso: Thank you sir, I love him.
Everyone congratulate us and dad drives us to a therapist.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
*
Sfiso and I have been going for therapy for two weeks and
it's easier because we are doing it together, he is the best
partner anyone could ever ask for and today is our last
session we are at the Dr's office he is holding my left hand,
he always does that these days, all we do is stay at home in
our room and dad or Ntsika take us to the Doctor that's all
we do.
Dr: So Sifiso and Langa do you think you will ever want to go
out and be free out there?
Me: Well for me I'm pretty much scared, i'm worried about
my safety and his, just because the person who started this is
in jail doesn't mean we are 100% safe, our pictures are out
there and homophobes too so I don't feel like going
anywhere where I will have to look over my shoulder, the
whole point of going out is to enjoy but can't enjoy anything
while you're scared for your life.
Dr: I understand, so Sfiso how did that Langa's 'almost rape'
experience made you feel.
Sfiso: I felt useless, I mean he is my partner I should be able
to protect him but that day I was about to watch the love of
my life go through such damaging experience and I wasn't
gonna be able to do anything to protect him which is my job
as his partner, so I still have a scary thought that someone
might hurt him, I want to be around him all the time so I can
make sure no one can hurt him.
Dr: I noticed how you are always holding his hand, you are
anxiously attached to him, have you two ever been seperate
ever since the ordeal, maybe you go to the other room while
you left him in the other?
Sfiso: No, we have always been together ever since.
Dr: That worries me, I know you want to spend as much time
with your partner but don't be clingy, give each other space,
it's ok to be alone with your own thoughts too, sometimes
one of you should take a walk around the house while the
other one stays in the room, being clingy is closer to
obsession and that is dangerous.
We nod he is still holding my hand and playing with my ring.
Dr: I'm glad that you two were opening up more in our
sessions that helped me figure out your mental states and so
far everything seems fine other than that fear which is
normal for anyone who went through this and of course, this
emotional neediness I sense from you two but if you do what
I said like taking those walks you will be fine.
Me: Thank you so much Dr.
Dr: It was a pleasure meeting you, such young handsome
couple.
I smile and we shake hands and we walk out and wait at the
reception for dad to pick us up.
I see mom and dad coming in and we stand up and meet
them halfway. We hug them.
Ziyanda: So how was it?
Me: It was great helped a lot thank you Pink.
Sfiso: Yes thank you ma'am so much.
Ziyanda: Sure let's go home.
We walk to the car and drive home. We eat lunch together.
Luyolo: So apparently Samke was granted bail yesterday and
Mr Miller paid for her today.
Ziyanda: I will never understand the justice system of our
country, how can someome who committed such crime be
granted bail that's like giving them time to finish what they
started and only do more damage to the victims.
Luyolo: Don't worry I beefed up the security no one will hurt
them.
I feel my hands shaking then my knees, I can hear someone
calling my name it's like he is far.
I feel light slaps on my face I blink looking at dad who is
standing infront of me.
Luyolo: Are you ok, you zoned out.
I look around I see Sfiso looking at me with sad eyes.
Me: I'm fine it's just that hearing Samke's name just put me
off.
Luyolo: It's ok, she won't come anywhere close to you again.
I nod, we go to our room and get in bed, facing up quietly.
Me: Sfiso.
Sfiso: Sthandwa sam ( My love)
I smile and turn my head to look at him.
Me: Is there something that is bothering you other than what
has been happening.
Sfiso: Yeah.
Me: Talk to me.
Sfiso: I really wish I can get full custody of Samantha but
where, I don't have a job, I won't be able to provide for her.
Me: I spoke to dad a while back and asked him to tell us if he
can find anything, maybe he forgot because of everything
that has been going on, I will ask him later, but can you be
able to work on open spaces now after everything?
Sfiso: I can try, I mean I have to work and it's only a matter
of time Lona's family contact me and demand that money for
the damages.
Me: Ok let's talk to dad later, for now I just want to sleep in
my space.
He smiles and opens his arms, I sleep ontop of him and he
wraps his arms around me.
Sfiso: I love you.
Me: I love yoy two.
We wake up when it's time for dinner.
We eat and then I ask to talk to dad, he comes to our room,
and sit on a car.
Luyolo: I don't like being summoned it makes me feel like
i'm still in high school called in a principal's office.
We laugh.
Me: Were you a troublesome kid?
Luyolo: No, your mother would tell you when she met me I
was always quiet because I was a quiet person by nature and
because of her beauty as well that time, but you guys made
me talk more, imagine a father of boys who is always quiet,
nothing can work out.
Me: But you didn't talk much when we grew up, when we did
something wrong you just looked at us and we will be scared
for our lives.
We laugh out loud, I look at Sfiso he is just chuckling with his
head down, everytime mom or dad is around he doesn't look
at them at all, like how a new wife does it. I laugh even more,
he look at me.
Me: Are you scared of mom and dad?
Sfiso: What! No I'm not.
Me: Yeah right.
Luyolo: I can be very scary so i understand man.
Me: Shame scary where?
Luyolo: Really so I don't scare you anymore?
Me: Well if i did something i get scared of you I still
remember that slap when I got drunk at the beach the
alcohol left my system same time.
He laughs out loud.
Luyolo: I was so angry, your mom was shouting at me like I
bought you that alcohol.
We laugh again and I look down.
Me: Uhm dad do you still remember us talking about Sfiso in
need of a job.
Luyolo: Oh yeah yeah I wanted you to finish your therapy
first and see progress.
Me: Uhm did you find anything.
Luyolo: Of course I did I am Luyolo Mzozo.
I roll my eyes.
Luyolo: and they might just fall on this floor and I won't help
look for them under this bed.
Me: You are just over confident so I couldn't help but roll
them, you are singing your own praise.
Luyolo: I am a Xhosa man it's in my blood.
Me: And the urge to roll them again comes back.
Luyolo: Mxm leave me alone wena, so Sfiso I did get
something for you, two garages but then after what
happened I don't think it's a good idea to work there so uhm
you can work at Lukhele properties as the junior head of
security, you won't be doing much the Senior will tell you
how it works.
Sfiso look up at dad I think it's for the first time he actually
look at him, he has this confused shocked look on his face.
Sfiso: What!?
Luyolo: That was really a long sentence unfortunately I can't
repeat it for you so Langa summarise it for him please.
Me: Uhm you got the job I guess
Luyolo: Something is wrong with you two, why do you
guess? Didn't I say it?
Sfiso: uhm oh wow I..I don't know what to say, thank you so
much sir thank you.but I don't even have exper..
Luyolo: Clearly you weren't listening to me, I said the senior
will show you..
Sfiso: Haa thank you..
He get up and they handshake.
Luyolo: Tomorrow we will be signing some papers, your
contract ok?
He walk out just like that, i'm left with Sfiso who look like he
has received a miracle from God the way he is looking at me
like i'm the only person existing in this world.
He attacks me with a very slow sensual kiss I gladly return it.
He take steps back and lock the door while looking at me.
Sfiso: Don't make too much noise because i'm about to show
you how grateful I am for having you in my life.
I smile looking at him as he takes off his shirt, i'm checking
him out from his lips down to his abs the v-line and then he
takes off his pants his dick, yeah just the perfect size.
He steps closer and pull me up.
Sfiso: I love you Langelihle Mzozo soon to be Langa..
I chuckle Langa Langa it doesn't sound right but it feels right.
He takes off all my clothes and start licking the sensitive
parts of my body while i'm still standing.
Me: fuck..
He get up and turns me around and make me kneel on the
bed.
He starts brushing my ass and squeezing it.
Sfiso: mmm I love how tight your ass is.
Next think I feel his warm tongue licking from my balls all
the way to the hole.
Me: shhhit
I feel the tip in then out, he is teasing.
Me: Sfiso come on babe.
I feel needy I want him to touch that spot that sends waves
of pleasurable sensations, I feel him moving in deep while
squeezing my butt.
Me: Fuck..
Sfiso: Do you like that?
Ain't nothing sexier than his bold voice when he is
penetrating on me, how he communicates while thrusting
deep, that just increase the sexual pleasure.
Sfiso: Talk to me baby...this is just so hot..beautiful..
He grab my ass tight as he moves faster.
Me: Shit..aah!
I feel cum splashing from my dick as he continue to pound
faster.
Sfiso: Damn...fuck..i'm cuming baby..yes fuck.fuck.
He grabs on my ass too tight with one hand and he pulls out.
He wipes us and we get in bed.
He pull me ontop of him.
Sfiso: Thank you so much for being in my life,for what you
have done for me I really can't thank you enough.
Me: I love you.
In the morning dad calls and tell me that Sfiso has to get
ready they are leaving in an hour.
Sfiso: Are you going to come with me?
Me: No just go away I want to sleep.
Sfiso: Langelihle please just for today.
Me: Nop.
Sfiso: We going to be late come on let's take a shower
together to save time and water.
Me: You will be late and dad is going to be angry at you.
He pulls the covers from me and pull me up.
Me: Yhooo this is bad.
He laughs as he notice my dick is up.
Sfiso: Come on let's go Langa.
Me: Can we have just one quick one.
Sfiso: No.
We take a shower while i'm busy trying my luck but he is not
burging.
Me: How do you expect me to leave like this?
Sfiso: Later ok babe.
Me: It will be too late.
We get dressed and walk out we find dad with mom in the
lounge.
She smiles.
Ziyanda: I will never get over how good you guys look, look
at you mmm black looks good on you.
I look at Sfiso, I didn't notice we are both wearing black jeans
and t-shirts but he has a black blazer over his t-shirt he look
really smart.
Luyolo: I dressed the part thank God.
He is also wearing black.
Ziyanda: mxm you guys planned this I see you.
Me: I didn't maybe they did.
Ziyanda: Go and Sfiso read the contract ok babe I don't trust
the person who was drafting it Bhuti Kwanele is crazy he
might just say you will guard on the rooftop the whole night.
We burst out in laughter.
Me: Mom really?
Ziyanda: Never trust that guy he is really crazy.
We all go and they give Sfiso the contract we read it together
while i'm busy laughing.
Kwanele: Uhlekani wena? (why are you laughing)
Luyolo: You want to snitch on your mom now Langa?
Me: No.
He sign his contract, it's only for 6 months but dad did say he
can renew it if he wants.
They ask for his banking details and on our way home his
phone beeps he looks at me.
Me: What?
Sfiso: You don't want us to fight right?
Me: What's up?
Sfiso: What is this?
He shows me his bank balance which has a ridiculously huge
amount of money.
Me: Oh no I didn't send any money I don't even have my
phone with me.
Sfiso: You are lying to me right?
Me: Nop and you better not be angry at me for that because I
didn't do it.
He looks at his phone then look at dad who is driving we a
seated behind him.
Sfiso: Uhm Sir did you guys send money to my account by
mistake, I see it's from Lukhele properties.
Me: Oh Not Langa anymore?
Sfiso: Shut up..
I laugh really hard..
Sfiso: No really shut up Langa.
He is so serious.
Luyolo: So you guys were busy being touchy touchy there
you didn't read any contract.
Sfiso: Uhm I..I did sir.
He stutters, this one will always be afraid of Dad and I find it
cute.
Luyolo: Then you would know that it says we pay our
employees in advance.
Sfiso: Uhm i'm sorry I must have missed that.
Luyolo: Mmm you did Langa was all up in your face, yeah my
boy is handsome alright.
Me: Really dad..
Luyolo : If someone looks like my wife that person is
beautiful except Samke, Mandisi, Lukhele, Kwanele, her dead
biological mom and dead sister yeah.
The tears are flowing down my face because of laughter.
Luyolo: Those people look like my wife but they are not
beautiful or handsome.
Me: Dad come on you are being shady.
Luyolo: How when there is a sun behind me, see what I did
there, Langa?
Me: Ntsika needs to hear this one.
I'm laughing my ass off.
Luyolo: I'm good.
We get home and go change and Sfiso is so quiet.
Me: Yini wena wamuncu nje?(why are you so sour?)
Sfiso: I'm sorry for accusing you of sending that money, I was
ready to kill you infront of your dad.
Me: It's ok babe i'm over that.
Sfiso: So I have money and you wanted a tattoo right.
Me: Whooa! You want to pay for it?
Sfiso: Yeah why not you are my lover.
Me: Thank you.
We go and eat and we find Miller with Samke here we stop
on our tracks.
Me: Why did you let her in here mom.
Ziyanda: I just want to see something, just wait for it.
We continue to stand and Miyah and Nkanyezi comes in,
Nkanyezi squint his eyes looking at Samke, next thing Samke
is gasping for air Miyah is begging Nkanyezi to stop and
Miller is trying to push him away.
I look at mom she is looking at them so calmly.
Dad rushes in.
Luyolo: What is all this noise for?
He looks at Miller then Nkanyezi who is still holding Samke
by his throat.
Luyolo: "Let her go"
He says pushing off Nkanyezi, he finally let go and Samke is
on her knees coughing.
Luyolo: What are you doing in my house.
Miller: She came to apologise and to ask you to drop the
charges, jail is not for a young girl like her.
Mom chuckles.
Ziyanda: Oh yeah, the same young girl who can order people
to rape my son, you mean that girl?
Samke: I'm sorry but I can't go back to that place please.
Ziyanda: But you are baby sis.
Miller: Ziyanda..
Dad walks away.
Ziyanda: If you still want your daughter to live get her up
and leave my house now.
Samke: Please Sfiso i'm sorry please, Sam needs me.
Sfiso: Oh but I think she is better off without you, rape is not
a joke Samke, we are trying to fight against it and there are
people like you who perpetrate it and you call yourself a
mother yet you were ready to watch people do that to
someone's child, your sister's child, a whole woman ordered
rape, how could you?did you stop for a minute and thought
what if that was your daughter Samke what it would do to
her and to you as a parent, you don't think, the first thing
you did when you got money was to do this despicable thing
and you did not think about saving it to fix your life at least,
you are not a woman you're an animal and you deserve to
rot in jail.
He turns and walks away leaving the room in total silence,
mom is crying.
Dad comes back holding a gun.
Luyolo: I told you never to step foot in my house again,
didn't I?
Samke: I'm sorry.
Luyolo: We were ready to welcome you in our family even
before we knew you are my wife's sister nncc get up and get
out before I kill you.
The click sound of a gun makes her quickly get up and run
out, Miller follows her.
I walk back to my room and find Sfiso sleeping, I sleep next
to him, food can wait my man is crying.
*
NTSIKA

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
*
So after everything we have been going through as a family,
but i'm going through my own stuff on the side.
Lathi and I are not how we used to be before ever since her
sister came back, mom had a talk with her when she wanted
to take her sister's advice of leaving the kids here and go
stay with her, they told her to wait for a while and think
about her decision and she agreed but now she leaves early
in the morning to visit her sister and come back home late, I
have been trying to talk to her but she just ignores me.
So earlier today she told me she is meeting with her sister,
apparently there is an artist that will be perfoming in one of
the biggest night clubs in Florida so they are attending the
event.
I have been checking the time, it's eleven O'clock at night she
is not back and her phone is off, i'm getting worried, mom
and dad doesn't know what has been going on because I
cover for her and I don't tell them what has been happening.
I huff and get in bed, still trying to call her but it's still not
going through.
1:01 am I hear my door opening and she comes in she look
intoxicated and I can smell alcohol from where i'm sitting.
She walk in after slaming the door, she is holding her shoes
in her hand and she is wearing a very short dress.
I get up and walk up to her but she push me.
Me: Where have you been?
Lathi: I told you where i'm going not that I had to though.
Her speech is slurred, she is really drunk.
She sit on the bed and take off her weave, she has make up
on something I hardly ever see especially before her sister
showed up.
Me: Should I run a shower for you?
She chuckles.
Me: Lathitha.
Lathi: You should leave me alone Ntsika.
I nod.
Me: The kids missed you today.
Lathi: Did they tell you that?
She is rude and I think I should just leave her alone.
I go to bed and sleep, I hear a door closing I look up she is
not here anymore, I get up to look for her and I find her
sleeping in her room, she doesn't sleep here anymore we
sleep together but I guess today she want to sleep alone, and
I haven't touched her in weeks because she won't allow me.
I go back to my room and sleep, next morning I wake up, my
son Nqoba is crying I don't know when he got here or where
his brother is.
I wake up and take him , I go to their room to check on his
brother and I find him still sleeping.
I bath my son, I do it all the time because Lathi is never
around so I do it so I don't bother mom and also I'm covering
for her,I don't want them to see what Lathi has been doing.
She comes in after a while while i'm dressing him up.
Lathi: I need money.
Me: How much?
Lathi: R2000
Me: What is it for? I gave you money yesterday Lathi.
Lathi: Just tell me if you don't want to.
Me: What is wrong with you baby you are changing on me.
Lathi: I'm fine, are you giving me that money?
I sigh.
Me: I will send it to you, can you hold him for me.
She looks at Nqoba and shakes her head leaving the room.
My heart breaks, she does this now, she doesn't want to even
touch our kids and that hurts me.
Me: Come on boy let's go eat, your brother is still sleeping
we will check on him later.
Nqoba: dada.
They both can make sounds which makes me believe they
both will talk in time.
I go make food for him and feed him, mom comes in.
Ziyanda: Hey baby, Hello Nqoba waGogo.(granny)
She kiss my cheek and Nqoba.
Ziyanda: Where is Lathi I always find you feeding the boys.
Me: I love doing it, Lathi is in her room.
Ziyanda: Is she ok I haven't seen her in a while.
Me: She is fine.
She nods and take Iviwe's bottle and walk away.
I walk back to their room and take Manqoba and bath him
too and we all go back to the kitchen so I can feed him too.
I take them to my room and I find Lathi sitting in my bed.
They go stand infront of her but she just stares at them.
Lathi: I'm still waiting for that money Ntsika.
She has changed and wearing another short dress.
Me: You are leaving again?
Lathi: Yes.
Me: Did I do something to you Lathi?
Lathi: No.
Me: What? You don't love me anymore.
She doesn't reply.
Me: You can tell me I won't get angry, at least I will know
why you are acting this way.
She still doesn't say anything.
Me: Is there another man?
She get up and stand infront of me I don't recognise this girl
infront of me at all, her eyes are just empty there is no life in
them.
Lathi: Are you calling me a whore Ntsika?are you?
Me: No I will never call you a..
I feel a sting on my cheek, she slapped me.
I look at her hoping to see remorse or something but nothing
she is staring at me like she is waiting for my reaction.
I look at my kids, they are looking at us confused.
I pick them up and walk out.
I give them to Miyah and walk back to Lathi I find her crying
her lungs out, I step closer and try to hold her but she push
me away.
Me: Lathi, baby please tell me what I did wrong so I can
apologise.
Lathi: I hate you ok, I hate you..
Me: I will send that money Lathi if that's what you want, i'm
sorry.
I take my phone and transfer money to her, her phone beeps
and she looks at it.
She get up and walk out, I follow her and find her packing
her stuffs into a suitcase.
Me: Where are you going?
Lathi: I'm leaving.
Me: to where?
Lathi: I don't know but i'm leaving.
Me: Why?
Lathi: I want to be far away from here.
I nod.
Me: What about the kids?
She ignores me and carry on packing.
Me: Can I take you to where you wanna go?
She shakes her head.
Me: Are you breaking up with me?
She just drag her suitcase and walk out, I follow her.
Me: Please at least say goodbye to the kids.
She walks out.
I go to back to Miyah and take my kids and I sleep with them.
*
LANGA
*
It's Sfiso's first day at work and I am happy and proud of
him. I look at him as he wears his navy suit with no tie, he
looks good, i'm sitting in bed watching him.
Sfiso: Please put my lucky charm on.
I look at him, he gives me the watch I bought for him on his
birthday , I take the watch and put it on his wrist.
Me: Your lucky charm huh?
Sfiso: I believe it is, I feel like a boss when I'm wearing it and
very lucky too.
Me: You are a boss, are you nervous?
Sfiso: Yeah I mean I will be working with my boyfriend's
uncles.
Me: They are cool uncles don't worry, they will treat you like
family, you are family.
He sit next to me and hug me.
Sfiso: I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you, this is triple the
money I was making on my last job, now I can buy a house
for my mother and take my daughter then marry you.
I smile and look at my beautiful ring on my finger.
Me: This is my lucky charm.
I say pointing at my ring.
Sfiso: This weekend I have to go pay the damages.
Me: Do you think it's safe for you to go there?
Sfiso: Eish I don't know.
Me: We will talk about this when you come back from work
then, I don't want you to be late on your first day.
He kiss me then smiles.
Me: Have a nice day.
Sfiso: I will miss you, are you sure you don't want to come
with me?
Me: You are going to work Sfiso.
Sfiso: Yeah hey, or you can take me there.
Me: please go..dad will call you any minute from now.
Sfiso: Come kiss me.
I kiss him and he deepens the kiss, I step back as I feel my
bulge growing.
He chuckles.
Me: You did that on purpose.
Sfiso: No I didn't.
Me: Yes you did.
My phone rings I look at him, I know he has to go now and i
feel really scared for him.
Sfiso: Langa!
I look at him.
Sfiso: You are zoning out, are you ok?
Me: I think I want to come with you.
Sfiso: Are you ok?
Me: Yea let me get dressed I will come with you.
I get up and get dressed I already had taken a shower.
We walk out and find uncle Mandisi and mom.
Mandisi: I was told to take Sfiso to work.
Me: I'm coming with.
Mandisi: Uyaphi ke wena? ( where are you going?
I see mom staring at me.
Ziyanda: Langa.
Me: Mama.
Ziyanda: Come here.
I go to her.
Ziyanda : I had a conversation with your therapist and she
kind of hinted that you guys are afraid of being apart,
nothing will happen to him, let him go to work.
Sfiso look at me, he nods,I walk back to my room.
It's been an hour since Sfiso left i'm losing my mind.
I walk out and go to mom's room and knock.
Ziyanda: Come in.
Me: Hey mom uhm can I use your car please.
Ziyanda: Where are you going?
Me: Uhm ..to the shops.
Ziyanda: You want to go to Sfiso?
Me: No..just shops.
Ziyanda: take it to "the shops"
I take the keys and drive to his work place and they let me in,
I rush in and look for him but I can't find him.
I look for dad and find him in his office.
Me: Dad.
Luyolo: What are you doing here?
Me: Uhm I... Dad where is Sfiso, I looked everywhere for him.
Luyolo: Langa.
I look down I know when he calls my name that he is about
to shout.
Me: Dad.
Luyolo: This is a work place, Sfiso is here to work don't
interrupt him.
Me: I'm sorry I will go.
Tears steam down my face. I wipe them and get up.
Luyolo: Langa wait, I will call him he just went out with
Kwanele, sit down, I'm sorry ok.
I sit down and he dials the number.
Luyolo: Kwanele ... where are you guys? ....oh ok.
He puts the phone down.
Luyolo: They are driving in you can go to him.
I get up and slowly walk out, I can see uncle Kwanele's car
driving in.
I stop and wait for them, Kwanele comes out first.
Kwanele: What are you doing here?
Me: I came to see Sfiso.
Kwanele: Ok make it quick we need him inside.
I nod.
I look at Sfiso as he comes closer.
Sfiso: Langelihle..
Me: Hey i'm sorry for coming here I know you have to work.
Sfiso: How did you get here?
Me: I drove mom's car.
Sfiso: Langa you know it's not safe out here for us.
Me: I was just worried about you.
Sfiso: I know babe, I have been trying to keep it together too,
I had to remind myself why i'm here, I have to work Langa.
Me: I know ok, i'm sorry for coming here.
Sfiso: It's ok thank you for coming.
Me: Sure I have to go now.
Sfiso: Will you be fine?
I shrug ny shoulders, I really don't know if i'm going to be ok
with him away from me.
I get in the car but I see Dad and uncle kwanele rushing out, I
step out of the car.
Me: What is going on?
Kwanele: We just got off the phone
with your mom, Thabile, Sammy's grandmother called and
told us she is missing.
I look at Sfiso, mom have met Samke's mother Thabile, she
went there with MR Miller so I guess they exchanged the
numbers since she is Samke's mother and Miller Samke's
dad..
Sfiso looks like he had been striked by a lightning.
I step closer to him.
Me:Babe we have to go.
Sfiso: Samke did this, I know she did this.
Me: She wouldn't kidnap her own child.
Sfiso: i'm telling you she did this, fuck!
I step back as he shouts.
I get in mom's car and drive out leaving him standing there.
I get home and they all come in after a while.
Luyolo: Ziyanda did you call Mr Miller?
Ziyanda: Yes.
Luyolo: Did he say Samke is at his house?
Ziyanda: She is with him.
Luyolo: Where the hell will we start looking?
Sfiso: Samke knows where my daughter is, now she is
playing with fire.
Luyolo: You think she got her own daughter kidnapped?
Sfiso: I know she did, Langa take me to Samke.
Ziyanda: Bhuti Kwanele go with them and you Luyolo.
We all go to the car and drive to Miller's house.
We get there and find Samke crying in her dad's chest.
The minute she sees us, she rush to Sfiso and attempt to hug
him but Sfiso push her so hard she lands on her butt.
Sfiso: Where is she Samke?
Samke: I don't know Sfiso they took my daughter.
Sfiso: You know who took her dammit!where the fuck is my
daughter!
Samke: I really d..
Sfiso: Do you trust those people you sent to kidnap my
daughter? do you trust them? I know you had her kidnapped
to get my attention.
Samke: I didn'...
Sfiso: I will kill you this time, I promise you.
Miller is with Samke and we're with dad and uncle Luyolo
we are going to Ixopo to search for Samantha.
When we get to Samke's home we all walk in and find two
policemen with Samke's mother and she is crying.
We sit down but Sfiso remain standing.
Samke: Where is my daughter did you find her?
Policeman: Are you Samkelisiwe?
Samke: Yes.
He get up and take the handcuffs.
Policeman: You are under arrest for the murder and rape
conspiracy of Samantha Mjoli.
Sfiso: What?
He says in a low voice, I am so confused.
Policeman: We found out that the mother of Samantha was
the one who paid people to kidnap her daughter and one of
the people She paid raped and killed her daughter one of
them is in our custody he is the one who found the suspect
raping the child and killed him and handed himself to the
police..
I feel sweat running down my spine, I watch Sfiso as he
swiftly go to Samke and there is blood everywhere, Sfiso has
a knife on his hand and Samke is laying in a pool of blood
and the police pull Sfiso away.
He must have took the knife on the table where he was
standing.
They put handcuffs on Sfiso and one of the police walk out
with him.
I'm just shocked looking at Samke's lifeless body and her
mother who is kneeling next to her.
Luyolo: Langa!!
I move my eyes and look at dad.
Luyolo: Come on snap out of it, let's go.
He pulls me up and we walk out, I look around and see Sfiso
in handcuffs and the police is holding his arm. Another police
walk out and stand infront of Sfiso.
Police: You are under arrest for the murder of Samkelis...
I don't hear anything he says after that.
Me: Sfiso!
They push him to the van and close it, I look at him, he is just
looking down.
Luyolo: Come on, get in the car, let's go home.
Me: No..
Luyolo: Let's go.
Me: I'm not going.
Another car drives in it looks like a hearse, Sfiso is still
keeping his head down.
Luyolo: We have to go home Langa.
Me: And I said i'm not leaving.
I walk out the gate.
Luyolo: Langa you are not safe here, please we will come
back tomorrow.
He says behind me, I can see a crowd standing on the other
side of the road, I get back and get in Dad's car after looking
at Sfiso and he doesn't look my way not even once.
WE ARE ONE( I am my brothers's voice)
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LANGA
*
We are on our way home, I'm sitting at the back my head is
resting on the car seat, I can't explain the pain i'm feeling in
my heart right now.
I open my eyes when uncle Kwanele shakes me, we are
home, I step out and walk in and mom stands up.
Ziyanda: Luyolo did you guys find Sammy?
Luyolo: No.
Ziyanda: Then why are you guys back here?
Dad sighs, I sit on the couch, they all sit down and mom is
looking at dad.
Ziyanda: Why did you come back without finding the baby
Lu it's still early mos.
Luyolo: She's gone Ziyanda she was raped and killed by the
kidnapper that Samke hired.
Ziyanda: No! Luyolo...No..
I'm just staring into space I can hear everything they are
saying.
Ziyanda: Where is Sfiso did he stay behind?
Kwanele: He is arrested.
She get up.
Ziyanda: Arrested for what?
Kwanele: He killed Samke.
Ziyanda: You guys are joking right.
She is chuckling but you can tell it's not a happy chuckle.
Luyolo: Ziyanda we wouldn't joke about something like that,
when we got there there were police and Sfiso stabbed
Samke right in front of them, and that is bad for him very
bad.
I get up and walk away, I walk in my room and sit in bed, I
take off my clothes and step in the shower, I let cold water
run down my body while my hands are both on the wall.
I have been here for a while, I like the sound of the water
running in here at least i'm concentrating on it and shut
everything out of my head.
I hear a loud knock on my bathroom door.
Ziyanda: Langelihle are you ok in there, baby why did you
lock the door, please come out.
I shut- off the water and dry my body mom has stopped
banging on my door, I wear my boxer short and walk out, I
find mom still here standing by the bathroom door.
Ziyanda: Oh baby, i'm so sorry.
I nod.
Ziyanda: Langa don't act strong to me baby I always tell you
guys this, you will always be my kids, cry if you have to cuss I
don't mind as long ad you let it all out.
I sit in bed she sits next to me her body facing me.
I bite my bottom lip and try blinking the tears away but they
come out anyway, I clench my jaws.
Mom comes closer and hug me i sob on her shoulder while
she brushes my back.
Ziyanda: It's ok baby, it's ok.
I calm down and wipe my tears.
Me: Can you ask dad to book a visitation for me in jail if it's
allowed.
Ziyanda: I will tell him, be strong ok and know i'm always
here for you..
I nod and get in bed and start crying all over again, he should
be here with me not in jail, he just lost his daughter I should
be comforting him no one cares about him in prison.
I wake up the next morning when dad shakes me, I open my
eyes they feel heavy.
Luyolo: Go take a bath, I managed to book for you.
He walks out, I go to him after i'm done with everything..
We drive to jail, i've never been here before and it is scary
we sit down and wait for a warder to bring him in.
He comes in with a warder pushing him and he sit opposite
us, he looks at me, he doesn't look too good for someone
who just came in yesterday, he has bags under his eyes now
i'm wondering how will he survive another day in here. He is
looking on the side the whole time.
Luyolo: Sfiso you shouldn't have done that boy.
Sfiso: I don't regret killing her, she deserved to die like she
had my daughter killed.
Luyolo: But you're here now and this place is hell.
He keeps his eyes down, he hasn't looked my way not even
once.
Luyolo: We will find you a good lawyer ok.
He doesn't reply he look like a completely different person.
Me: Sfiso.
He get up.
Sfiso: Please take me back to my cell.
I get up.
Me: Sfiso!
He walks away just like that, I sit back down.
Luyolo: Let's go home maybe he will talk tomorrow ok.
I nod.
We drive home and I go to my room and sleep.
Dad booked again for me and i'm going alone.
I'm sitting anxiously waiting for him, he comes in and sit still
no eye contact.
Me: Hi.
He doesn't reply.
Me: please talk to me at least greet me back.
He look at me, his eyes are full of sorrow and I can feel it as
he stares deep in my eyes.
Sfiso: You deserve better, prison doesn't suit you
don't come here again.
Me: What do you mean?
Sfiso: I mean don't visit me ever again.
Me: You can't make that decision for me, and tomorrow your
legal representative will apply for bail.
Sfiso: So what?
Me: You will get out of here.
Sfiso: You really believe that?that won't happen, I killed a
woman in front of the police and you here think I will be
granted bail.
He shakes his head and get up.
I get up too.
Me: I still want to talk to you Sfiso don't leave.
He walks out with the warder, I huff. A male warder standing
by the door comes in.
Warder: I recognise you and your boyfriend, a gay couple,
it's only a matter of time he is taken to the full cell and they
will recognise who he is and they will take turns with him at
least he has experience it won't be too hard to adapt.
I feel my whole body getting sweaty, I quickly rush out and
drive home.
Me: Mom call Lukhele Sfiso can't stay in that jail they know
us they recognised me today and they said the inmates will
take turns on him.
Ziyanda: We should wait and see if they grant him bail
tomorrow ok baby then I will call dad.
I nod vigorously, I'm nervous and worried about his safety in
there.
*Sfiso is denied bail and he didn't want to see me after that.
I have been trying to visit Sfiso but he still doesn't want to
see me and his trial is starting soon.
I call his lawyer Mrs McKenzie.
Lawyer: Hello.
Me: Hello this is Langa Ziyanda's son.
Lawyer: Oh hey Langa what can I do for you.
Me: I was hoping to come with you on your next
appointment meeting with Sfiso Langa.
Lawyer: Oh i'm on my way there now.
Me: Can you wait for me outside I'm coming now.
Lawyer: I don't think that would be a problem, I will wait.
I drive there in a very high speed and find her waiting for me
we both walk in and wait for Sfiso.
He comes in he still have those eyebags it breaks my heart
seeing him like this, he has lost weight too.
He looks at me with soft eyes and shakes his head.
Lawyer : Hello Sifiso how are you doing.
He shrug his shoulders.
Lawyer: So let's go over this quick, this was self defence, the
victim once ordered a homophobic attack on you and your
partner and she was arrested so this should be easy.
Me: You think that would work? there were police in there.
Lawyer: Then we need to drag the trial and wait for your
Grandfather to convince them I already had a talk with him.
Me: So he will have to stay in here for longer? But he is not
safe.
Lawyer: I'm afraid there is nothing more we can do on this
situation for now until your Grandfather gives us the go
ahead.
I sigh and look at Sfiso I find him still looking at me.
Lawyer: I have to go I have another meeting to get to see you
tomorrow ok, bye Langa.
I nod she walks out and Sfiso attempt to get up too.
Me: Please don't go, I want us to talk.
Sfiso: All I want is for you to never come here again Langa
we can't trust anyone here, One of the male warders here
made nasty comments about me being gay so this place is
not safe for you, they can recognise us, please stay away
from this place.
Me: But I can't, I want to see you everytime.
Sfiso: I know I feel the same way but the situation is bad and
I feel it's about to get worse.
Me: I miss you so much.
I try to touch his hand but the warder shouts so loud I
quickly move my hands away from him.
Another warder comes in and stand next to Sfiso with a
smile, it's the male warder that told me he can recognise me
and my boyfriend.
Warder1: It's so good seeing you here together, it gives me
ideas in my head.
He took Sfiso's shoulder and he cringes.
Sfiso: Go Langa now.
I stand up.
Warder: But I thought we can have some fun, I can give you
more time so you two can give us a live show.
Sfiso: Langa I said go.
Warder: Hey you don't shout orders around here.
I walk around the table and another warder stands by the
door to block my way.
I hear Sfiso breath out loud.
Sfiso: Let him go please.
Warder: But why i've never seen gay people do it so i'm not
about to miss this opportunity.
The warder at the door push me back and lock the room.
Warder: Now you know what to do and don't make this hard
just do exactly what you always do when no one is around.
He pull Sfiso up and they push me to him.
We look at each other and his eyes are glassy.
Warder: Hey make it quick, or you want us to do it for you?
They pull down Sfiso's pants and he is trying to resist but it's
pointless he is handcuffed.
The make him sit on the table infront of me.
Warder: Do what you always do to him or we will show you
how to do it.
He looks at me with tears in his eyes, he nod. I step closer to
him and hug him tight.
Warder: You think we are playing with you huh?
They push me and I feel a very hot slap on my cheek.
One of them quickly pull down my pants.
Warder: Now do it.
I step closer to Sfiso again.
Me: I'm sorry.
Warder: Do it!
He shouts.
I kiss him like it is the last time.
Warder: We want to see it.
My dick is not even up and his too I don't how they think we
can do it.
Warder: Oh they think we are playing come on.
He pull down his pants and strokes his dick and it's hard, he
push me away and stand infront of Sfiso.
Me: No! I will do it ok, I will do it.
Warder: Make it quick.
I stand infro of him again and stroke my dick and once it's
semi-hard I try to put it in until its fully in.
I'm holding his neck with my head on his shoulder.
Me: I'm sorry babe, i'm sorry.
We hear a loud bang and I step back and pull his pants up.
Tears are running down our eyes.
I pull my pants up too.
They pull Sfiso away from me.
Warder: Tell anyone about this and we will make your
boyfriend our bitch.
Sfiso: Don't ever come here again Langa please babe never
come here again, promise me!
Me: I..
Sfiso: Promise me you won't come here again.
I nod.
They walk out with him talking to someone on the door.
Warder: No the kids wanted to say goodbye to each other
and we gave them a chance.
He is talking to a person that was knocking.
I wipe my tears and get in the car driving home.
I go to where mom keep all different pills for different
sicknesses.
I take a plastic and throw them all inside.
I go to my room, walk to the bathroom and fill a glass with
water.
I empty one bottle of pills in my mouth and drink water.
I empty the second one and drink more water.
As I try to empty the third one I feel dizzy and fall on my
knees.
*
NARRATED
*
Ziyanda and Luyolo are in their room they hear Ntsika's kids
screaming.
Ziyanda: Why are they crying so loud, let me go check on
them.
She walks out and go to where they are, Ntsika's room.
Ziyanda: Why are the kids crying like this Ntsika.
She says as she opens the door, she screams too as Ntsika
convulse on the floor blood is coming out from his nose and
Manqoba is sitting next to him, Nqoba is standing a bit far
away from them.
Ziyanda rush in and put Ntsika head on her lap.
Ziyanda: Luyolo! baby come on open your eyes Ntsika.
Luyolo rushes in and see the state Ntsika is in.
Luyolo: Should we take him to the hospital.
Ziyanda: Get the kids out of here first Luyolo!
Luyolo take the kids and look for Lathi in her room but he
can't find her. Miyah and Nkanyezi are not here too. HE go to
Langa's room but he doens't find him.
He calls Mbali.
Luyolo: Please come here quick Mbali.
He leave the kids in the lounge and rush back to Ntsika's
room.
He finds Ziyanda wiping the blood on Ntsika and he has
opened his eyes.
Ziyanda: What's wrong baby?
Luyolo's phone rings it's Miyah.
Luyolo: Hello.
Miyalo: Nkanyezi wants me to ask if everything is ok with his
brothers he was convulsing and foam was coming out from
his mouth, but he is awake now.
She is speaking so fast while sniffing.
Luyolo: Ntsika just had a similar situation.
Miyalo: Maybe that's why he is like this.
Ntsika: Where is Langa?
He speaks so low.
Luyolo: He wasn't in his room when I go there.
Ntsika: Go check on him dad.
Luyolo rush out and look for Langa he is still not in his room,
he go to the bathroom and he find him lifeless on cold tiled
floor.
He can see the bottles of pills all over the bathroom.
Luyolo: What did you do Langa!!
He is still breathing but faintly.
Luyolo: Come on stay with me ok, stay with me.
He tries to pick him up but he is heavy.
He can hear Mandisi shouting his name.
Luyolo: Mandisi come here!
Mandisi rushes in and look at Langa and around the
bathroom he can see pills.
Mandisi: Yho lomfana!(yho this boy)
He says deafeted.
Luyolo: Help me pick him up Mandisi man.
They pick him up and rush to the car driving to the hospital
leaving Mbali with the kids, And Ziyanda is helping Ntsika
get in bed.
Ziyanda: You will be fine ok.
She walks out and find Mbali in the lounge.
Ziyanda: Where is Luyolo?
Mbali:They rushed Langa to the hospital.
She get up.
Ziyanda: What!? What's wrong with him?
Mbali: I don't know they were in a rush.
Ziyanda: Can I please go? Will you be able to look after them,
Miyah is coming and..
Mbali: You can go baby I will call Sunny.
Ziyanda: Ok thank you.
She rush in her room to change then drive to the hospital.
She get there and see Luyolo talking to the doctor.
Doctor: We are draining the pills out of his system..
Ziyanda: What pills?
Luyolo: We found Langa in his bathroom, he overdosed the
pills.
Ziyanda sit down feeling defeated.
Luyolo's phone rings.
He talks on the phone and look at Ziyanda.
Luyolo: Sfiso is in prison hospital he tried hanging himself
inside his cell.
Ziyanda: These kids will kill me, they will kill me Luyolo.
She say as she sob so loud covering her face.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
*
I open my eyes slowly and look around I can see i'm at the
hospital, oh so I didn't die?
Dad comes in followed by mom and Nkanyezi.
They stand next to my bed. Mom holds my hand.
Ziyanda: Hey.
My mouth is so dry I need a glass or the whole bottle of
water.
I try to move my hand to point at the water but it's heavy.
Ziyanda: You must be thirsty, "Nkanyezi get him water."
It's like she read my mind but she is a doctor she knows that
if someone overdosed and they drained the pills it's possible
for them to have a dry mouth and feel thirsty.
Dad help me sit up and help me drink up.
I feel better now.
They sit down they all look sad.
I feel like I have a shortness of breath, I try to breathe
through my mouth but nothing is working, mom get up and
put on the oxygen mask that was next to me.
I close my eyes as I feel I can breathe normal again.
I wake up later and see grandpa standing next to my bed, I
am happy he is here.
Lukhele: Langelihle.
I look at him.
Lukhele: I will fix this, I will fix it I promise just get well.
I believe every word he says, I know he will fix everything.
Lukhele: That boy, they said he tried to commit suicide too,
did you plan this together?
I look at him shocked, I didn't know that.
Lukhele: He will be fine don't worry and he will come out
soon.
I nod.
It's been a week and a few days and i'm going home, I
haven't seen grandpa ever since he came here and told me
about Sfiso.
Luyolo: Are you ready to go home?
Me: Yes.
We walk out and he drives us home.
Me: Is Sfiso getting better?
Luyolo: Yes he is out of the hospital now.
Me: Ok.
We get home and grandpa is here and everyone else.
Me: Hello.
Lukhele: Sit down.
I sit.
Lukhele: Why did you guys try to commit suicide Langa can't
you talk anymore? We don't talk now?
Me: I'm sorry but the fact that Sfiso said I musn't come visit
him again killed me.
Lukhele: Why did he say that?
Me: Two warders there forced us to have sex infront of them,
they attempted to rape him so he told me I shouldn't come
there anymore.
He get up fuming.
Lukhele: They did what?
He moves around the room in total frustration and anger.
Lukhele: Do you know their surnames?
Me: One of them is Mthimkhulu.
Luthele: What!? I will kill that bastard.
He walks out then come back in again.
Lukhele: Mandisi get your ass up and drive me to that prison
now.
They get up and I stand up going to my room.
I sleep through the night, I wake up and go to the bathroom, I
look at my ring and tell myself no matter how long it takes I
will wait for him.
I go back to my room and find mom looking into my closet.
Me: Hey Pink.
Ziyanda: Hey baby.
She look unusually happy and i'm confused because we have
been going through so much.
Me: What are you looking for?
Ziyanda: I'm just cleaning your closet.
Me: Oh ohk thanks.
I get in bed and sit looking at her.
Me: Why are you leaving Sfiso's jeans and T-shirt out.
Ziyanda: I'm still going to put them inside, stop questioning
me.
I nod and sleep facing up.
Ziyanda: Everything will be alright baby and Sfiso's mom is
here.
Me: Does she know the whole story, me and Sfiso?
Ziyanda: I told her and Samke's mother won't allow her to
attend Sammy's funeral it's so sad.
Me: Maybe she is evil like her daughter.
Ziyanda: I love you ok.
Me: I love you too.
She walks out with those clothes under her arm, I don't get
it, where is she taking Sfiso's clothes?
I get under the covers and sleep.
Later I feel a light knock on the door, I start in the bathroom
to pee and brush my teeth and go back to bed.
A knock is still there I thought this person would have came
in by now.
Me: Come in.
The door opens slowly and Sfiso stands by the door looking
at me, he has on the clothes that mom took in the morning.
I blink several times, maybe i'm seeing things or maybe i'm
asleep this is a dream.
He smiles a little, I slowly get up from the bed.
Me: What is going on? Sfiso you are here?
I feel tears filling my eyes, maybe he is dead and this is a
ghost, I cry really hard.
He comes closer, I feel his touch, I look at him.
Sfiso: It's me.
I shake my head.
He hold the sides of my face and our foreheads touch.
Sfiso: I am here babe, right here with you where I belong.
Me: I don't understand.
Sfiso: Wipe your tears and let's go eat they told me you
haven't ate anything today.
He sits down on the bed and look at me I'm still looking at
him in total confusion
Sfiso: Get dressed Langa wam.
I go to him and kiss him, he kiss me back, he has tears in his
eyes and a light smile.
Sfiso: Believe it Langa i'm here.
Me: But how?
He get up and take my shorts and a vest and give it to me.
Sfiso: Wear this and you will find out how.
I wear my clothes while still looking at him, I'm guarding
him not to leave me again because I don't even believe he is
here.
He takes my hand and we walk out, we find everyone
already seated the kids are sitting on the floor.
We sit down.
Me: Grandpa how did he get here?
Lukhele: I brought him here because he didn't deserve to be
in jail.
Me: but how?
Lukhele: Langelihle, this young man did what any of us
would if someone hurt the people we love, I couldn't let him
stay in jail for killing the girl who was hurting my family, I
have connections and I used them, I have seen how people
use money to bribe for real criminals who do nasty things
and they accept those bribes, he is not a criminal they had to
let him go and the warders had to die too.
Me: They are dead?
Lukhele: Yes they are, no one hurts my family and get away
with it, I found them laughing about it and I killed both of
them without even blinking, I watched them take their last
breath.
Me: So he won't go to jail anymore?
Lukhele: No he won't.
I get up and go to him, I hug him from behind while he is
sitting down.
Me: Ngiyabonga, Lukhele, Mdluli, Nzimande, Nyoka..( Thank
you, and I say the clan praises)
Lukhele: He pat my arms I go sit down and hold Sfiso's hand.
When I look up I find Sfiso's mom looking at us with a smile
on her face.
Ma: I knew something was going on between you two the
time you guys were fighting and chasing each other out.
Yho that was when we started all this.
Sfiso: Why didn't you tell me you know?
Ma: Why? did I tell you when I saw that you and Lona are
dating?
Sfiso: No.
Ma: Then why was I supposed to tell you that I know that
you and Langa are dating.
Sfiso: Because it's not normal to some people.
Ma: I'm not some people, I'm all about my son being happy
and if Langa makes you happy then i'm happy.
Sfiso: Thank you.
Ma: I heard you proposed bhuti.(brother)
I chuckle. Sfiso smiles and look at me.
Sfiso: I did.
Ma: I'm happy for you and don't let people come between
you two, love is beautiful no matter what gender, it's all love.
Me: Thank you for accepting this Ma, I don't see myself with
anyone else but him.
Ma: It's ok let us know when we should start buying the
outfits.
Sfiso: It's still early I was actually marking him.
He laughs.
Luyolo: Suyakhululeka wena sekukhona uMa wakho huh.
(you're free now that your mom is here huh)
He quickly look down and everyone laughs at him.
Ma: He is not used to a big family it has always been the two
of us I was happy when he had Samantha but now...
She starts crying mom get up and go to her.
Ziyanda: It's ok Ma..
Ma: They won't even allow me in, I want to be there to say
goodbye
I see Sfiso wiping his eyes next to me.
Me: Let's go.
I take his hand and we go to my room and get in bed.
Sfiso: They won't give me a chance to bury my daughter.
Me: We will go to her funeral.
Sfiso: How Langa people don't want us there, they might just
kill us.
Me: I will make a plan, you're going there. Now get some
sleep you have been through a lot.
Sfiso: Why did you try to kill yourself?
Me: Why did you try to kill yourself?
He laughs.
Sfiso: Don't try to act smart with me wena.
Me: I thought I won't be seeing you for a very long time.
Sfiso: Your grandpa is something else man, when he got
there he was shouting my name so loud I was so scared, he
told me to get my ass up we are leaving, I only calmed down
when I saw how much he looked like your mother.
I laugh.
Me: He can be really rude sometimes.
Sfiso: But i'm so grateful for him and your family.
Me: You are family Sfiso.
Sfiso: Thank you, I missed you.
He says moving his hand down to my dick.
Me: Sfiso..
Sfiso: Mmmm.
Me: stop doing that.
Sfiso: Why? I want you.
Me: But.., are you sure?
Sfiso: Yeah i'm sure.
He says kissing me, I kiss him and I take off his clothes and
mine and kneel infront of him and wrap his leg around my
waist.
Sfiso: I love you so much.
Me: mmm.
I lubricate my dick and push it in.
Sfiso: shhit...
Me: Keep your eyes on me babe..
I stroke his dick and start moving in him, looking deep in his
eyes, I see tears.
I pull him up and hug him while still deep inside him.
Me: It's ok, everything is fine now, we will be happy...
I groan as he start moving while holding me tight.
Me: mmm..
We move in the same rhythm and I cum, we sleep next to
each other.
I look at him he is sleeping so peacefully his hand is on my
chest.
I kiss him and slowly get up making sure I don't disturb him,
he needs to rest.
I go to the lounge and find adults there.
Ziyanda: Hey baby.
I sit down.
Me: Hello, Uhm so Sfiso is sad that he can't bury his
daughter.
Lukhele: Yeah that must be devastating for him.
Me: Yeah, I don't know if i'm asking for too much but can my
uncles accompany us there please, just for him to say
goodbye to his little girl.
Lukhele: Me, Luyolo, Kwanele, Mandisi and your brothers,
we will all come with you.
Mandisi: Yes we will it's not like Lukhele is begging us.
Lukhele: i'm not.
Mandisi: I figured.
Kwanele: Don't worry nobody is going to touch you there.
Me: Thank you.
Samke and Sam's funerals delayed so they are burying them
tomorrow and we are going there so Sfiso can bury his
daughter.
We wake up the next morning and take a shower together
and go meet everyone there, mom is not leaving she will stay
with the kids since Lathi is not around.
Me: We will drive with uncle Mandisi.
Grandpa is with Kwanele, Dad with Ntsika and Nkanyezi, me
and Sfiso with uncle Mandisi and Ma.
We drive all the way to Ixopo, we get there and stop a few
houses away, it's full of people and cars.
I see my uncles walking out of their cars.
Mandisi: This is bad.
Me: What is it?
Mandisi: They are blocking us, here take this.
He gives me the gun and I see Sfiso shaking.
Me: You really have the fear of guns huh?
Sfiso: A gun freaks me out.
Ma: Me too son, can't they just let us in.
Sfiso is really not ok.
Mandisi: Let's go.
We step out of the car. Everyone is out of the cars. We are all
wearing formal black suits.
I put the gun on my waist that is freaking my boyfriend out
and take his hand.
Sfundo's crew is standing infront of us there are too many of
them and we are outnumbered.
Ntsika: You want us to go through you?
Sfundo: You can try, we don't want gays here.
Ntsika: Tell your friends to move out of our way if you don't
want to get hurt, i'm really not in the mood.
Sfundo: You are not getting in, he killed the mother of his
child and he is gay that is just disgusting.
Ntsika takes out the gun and the bullets, he load the gun
while looking straight at Sfundo.
He is looking really angry, his anger is rubbing off on me, I'm
boiling too.
I let go of Sfiso's hand and go stand next to Ntsika.
One of them shouts "nasi lestabane bafethu"(here is this gay
bros)
I look at him and take out the gun and point right at him.
Me: You want to do something about me being gay?
I ask looking at him I see him looking away, Nkanyezi stands
on my other side now i'm inbetween him and Ntsika.
Nkanyezi: "Are we going in or what."
Me: "We are going in."
Nkanyezi steps closer first and I see them moving away.
He pass through them and we follow behind him, they are
giving us angry stares.
We get to where Samke and Sammy will be buried we're late
their coffins and everyone is already at the graveyard.
We stand opposite everyone and all eyes are on us Sfiso is
next to me he is staring at the little coffin infront of us.
Samke's mother get up and come straight at us.
Thabile: ufunani lombulali la? (what is this murderer doing
here).
She says trying to come to Sfiso but Grandpa stands infront
of us.
Grandpa: Don't cause a scene, go back to your seat.
He says so low but in a very stern voice.
I see her stepping back, the funeral proceed and when the
coffins go down, Sfiso literally break down, he goes down
and sit on his butt , I kneel next him holding him.
Sfiso: My daughter is gone Langa, how can Samke do this,
how can she do this to me.
Me: I'm sorry babe,
He sobs I hold him tight.
When the funeral is over we find all the cars trashed and
some of them are sitting ontop of them, while others are just
standing there looking at us with smirks on their faces.
Lukhele is so angry his forehead is sweaty.
Sfiso hold my hand tightly.
Lukhele: I'm over this.
He takes his gun out and cocks it, we all follow suit.
Sfiso steps back holding his mom.
Mandisi: It's about to go down.
My brothers steps closer to me since i was walking infront of
everyone with Sfiso before he stepped back.
Ntsika: Let's get this over and done with.
Nkanyezi's gun goes off first and we start shooting, some of
them are running away. I aim at the running Sfundo and
shoot, he falls on the ground.
We stop shooting, I go to Sfundo and find him still breathing.
Me: Go to hell boy.
And I meant that literally.
I shoot him and walk back to my family.
Lukhele: Kwanele! I want to go home do something.
He shouts uncle Kwanele takes out his phone and make a
call.
We hear sirens and police cars coming.
Ma: You will get arrested, Oh jesus save us lord.
Lukhele: If anyone dares point at us, say your last prayers
now because I will shoot the hell out of you.
He shouts to the crowd that is standing behind us.
Sfiso is so nervous.
The police cars stop infront of us.
Police: What is going on here? Who started the shooting?
Lukhele: No one knows, they even trashed our cars.
He says sounding so concerned and sincere.
They continue to talk to Grandpa who is still telling them no
one saw anything and they are buying to his story. Ntsika is
sitting alone far from us, I go to him and touch his shoulder.
Me: Brother.
He looks up his eyes are red.
Me: What is it?
He wipes his face.
Ntsika: nothing i'm fine, just sore eyes.
I can tell he was crying but I won't push him now he will talk
when we get home.
An hour later, we are sitting on the ground outside Sfiso's
home which is obviously trached the windows are all
broken.
We see the cars speeding and it's uncle china's car followed
by the other four.
Kwanele: Our ride is here.
Lukhele: Finally I was getting really hungry.
Me: I know grandpa I feel the same way bro.
Lukhele: They don't understand boy.
Everyone laughs, grandpa and I love food a lot every one
knows this.
We get in uncle Mlu's car with Sfiso and he is holding my
hand.
Me: Let's start over.
I say smiling at him.
He nods smiling back at me.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
LANGA
*
I am sleeping ontop of Sfiso, my legs inbetween his, i'm
staring at his face, beautiful eyes, lips the nose infact
everything.
Sfiso: You really need to stop staring at me.
Me: Why?
Sfiso: it's rude.
Me: Not when you're staring at what is yours alone
He smiles.
Sfiso: So I am yours alone huh?
Me: Is there someone else?
Sfiso: Yes.
Me: That is not funny I will show you the gun.
I laugh, he pull my ear.
Me: kubhlungu njalo.(it hurts)
Sfiso: I really don't like guns.
Me: I saw that you almost peed on yourself.
Sfiso: Get away from me.
He push me and I laugh kissing him.
He sighs.
Sfiso: I'm going back to work tomorrow.
Me: And why do you look sad?
Sfiso: I will miss you really bad baby.
Me: I know but you will find me right here waiting for you.
Sfiso: That makes me feel better. I saw tattoos on your dad
can he hook us up with his artist, I want someone we can
trust.
Me: Yes I will ask him.
Sfiso: Now Langa I want it done today babe, i'm bored , I
wish to just go out with you and be free.
Me: You know we can't do that for now.
Sfiso: Yeah I know.
Me: I never thought we would go this far when you started
kissing me.
Sfiso: I still remember your punch though.
Me: And I remember yours, you left me with my nose
bleeding.
Sfiso: I wanted to kiss you so bad that time.
I chuckle.
Me: Let's go speak to dad, later I need to talk to my brother
he is not ok.
Sfiso: Ntsika?
Me: Yeah.
Sfiso: I saw it too he is really not fine that guy loves laughing
but these day he is just quiet.
Me: Yeah hey something is wrong.
We find dad in his car like he is about to go out.
Me: Mzozo.
Luyolo: Yeah boy.
Me: Can you take us to your tattoo artist please.
Luyolo: But my girlfriend sent me to the mall Langa.
Me: Your girlfriend?
Luyolo: uZiyanda she said this morning that if I don't buy a
new ring for her she will be my girlfriend not my wife
anymore so i'm calling her my girlfriend because she ain't
getting no ring from me, I bought an angagement ring and
the second one then our white wedding ring then the
traditional wedding ring.
Sfiso: Whoooa!
Luyolo: I know right, she can be my girlfriend shame as long
as she is mine.
I laugh at him.
Luyolo: I blame you Sfiso, you brought ideas into her mind
maybe she will tell me to propose to her again who knows.
Me: from wife to girlfriend what an unusual downgrade.
Luyolo: Girls are crazy.
Me: That's why I prefer him.
He laughs really hard.
Luyolo: You saved yourself boy, come on let's go I will leave
you there and come pick you up again.
Me: Do you trust them?
Luyolo: I wouldn't take you guys there if I didn't think you
will be Safe, that's Carl's studio boy.
Me: Oh cool.
We get in as he drives away and i'm happy to find Uncle Carl
here.
Carl: Luyolo Junior the third.
Me: Uncle Carl a computer geek and owning a tattoo studio?
Carl: i'm MultiTalented junior wait for my guys there they
are coming.
Me: Ok.
We take seats.
Sfiso: junior the third?
I chuckle.
Me: Because there are two Juniors before me Ntsika and
Nkanyezi.
Sfiso: I get it now. Uhm can I use your Wacon mobile studio
to design my own tattoo I see it on your computer here.
Carl: You want to what?
Sfiso: Design my own tattoo.
Carl: Ok do it.
He looks at the computer and start sketching.
Me: Can you really sketch your own tattoo?
Sfiso: You don't trust me?
Me: I do i'm just asking because I've never seen you do it.
Sfiso: Watch and learn baby.
He starts sketching and i am so confused I don't even see
what he is trying to do but he look so serious and in it.
Two guys get in and one of them look really gay you know
those guys that acts like girls, yes he is that kind of gay and
they have tattos all over their bodies.
Carl: I should just fire you, you've been gone for a long time,
these are my kids Langa and Sifiso, guys this is Zei and Lindo.
Zei is the gay dude and Lindo is the other guy, I can't say if he
is gay or not because even I and Sfiso you can't tell if we are
"gay" unless you know something.
He looks at me.
Zei: No man I know you.
Carl: These are Luyolo's kids Zei better watch what you say.
Zei: But I haven't said anything Carl.
Carl: Then don't even start.
He look very disappointed shame I want to laugh Sfiso is still
concentrating on the computer and i'm bored.
Lindo: So are you guys doing tattoos?
Carl: Yeah wait for Sifiso there to finish his sketch.
Lindo: Wow we have never had a client that draws a sketch
for himself.
Carl: well today is the day.
Dad walks in with a paper bag.
Luyolo: Hello everyone, Langa here I bought you food I know
you're hungry already.
Carl: The kid still loves eating?
Luyolo: He will never stop.
Me: I'm still here guys.
Luyolo: Oh really we didn't notice.
Me: you're being sarcastic huh..
He shrug his shoulder I take the food and open it and dig in
when I look up dad and Carl are looking at me.
Me: What..
Luyolo: See what I mean, bye, call me when you want to go
home.
He walks out, I continue to eat
Zei: I love a man that loves food.
Sfiso quickly turns and look at Zei then me.
Me: Are you done?
Sfiso: Yes baby.
He emphasises that baby.
Me: Eat then, let me see.
I look at the computer then back at him.
My mouth is hung open i'm shocked, amazed, astonished,
you name it.
I look at him but he continues to eat his food.
Carl: Hey let me see what has you looking so shocked.
He stands next to me.
Carl: What!?
He drew a sketch of a sunrise on top of a mountain and the
writing under the drawing written "iLangelihle", i'm out of
words.
I look at him again.
Carl: This is good I think I have a competition.
Lindo comes and look at it too.
Lindo: Wow! uhm where do you want it.
Sfiso: My shoulder, I want it to be noticeable not too big but
avarage, it must fill my upper arm.
He takes off his shirt and leave a vest on, I drool at his
muscles.
Lindo starts transferring Sfiso's tattoo design into the
machine,a thermal paper, once the stencil is ready he
transfer it into Sfiso's skin.
Lindo: Is this how you want it to be and the right size?
Sfiso: Perfect.
It looks really good, Lindo starts with the tracing and line
work with their needles.
Me: Does it hurt?
Sfiso: A little.
Me: Oh you will draw mine too right, I want two.
Sfiso: You have something in mind?
Me: Yes.
Zei: I can sketch it for you, to save you guys time.
Sfiso looks at me with his eyebrow raised.
Me: Uhm no i'm good he will do it.
Zei: Mmm, so are you straight?
Me: Yes 'straightly' inlove with him.
I hear uncle Carl chuckle.
Carl: Straightly boy?
Me: Straightly without curve or bend.
I see a little smile on Sfiso's face and Zei is not ok shame.
They continue to do Sfiso's tattoo and when he is done it
looks even more beautiful the words are witten in italics.
Sfiso: Keeping it black and white now let's sketch yours.
Me: A lion and a lioness next to each other, the writing
circling around them "The image of strength,passion and
beauty" then Luyolo and Ziyanda under it in italics.
As i'm talking next to him he is sketching exactly what i'm
saying to him two lions sitting next to each other, a king and
a queen that's my mom and dad.
Lindo starts working his magic, I love it it's beautiful. I tell
him to write Sifiso on my left wrist while Sfiso is still busy
looking at the computer.
Me: We're done, khokha ndoda (pay up man.
He chuckles.
Sfiso: A golddigger.
Me: That's a very rude thing to say.
Sfiso: I know baby.
He pays, we got the discount because well it's uncle carl's
studio. we wear out t-shirt and wait for dad to pick us up.
We go the car and he drives away.
Luyolo: What took you so long I thought you are sleeping
over there.
I chuckle.
Luyolo: Can you show me.
Me: Not yet, it's still a bit swollen you will see it tomorrow.
We get home and go to our room, we get in bed after we took
our baths.
I touch his tattoo.
Sfiso: You are my beautiful sunsrise.
Me: I thought it's your surname.
Sfiso: I had you in mind but ke if I cheat it will be easier to
just say "oh no my surname is Langa'elihle."
I laugh at him..
Me: That's a good one and it will be your funeral the next
day.
Sfiso: Like how we almost buried Zei today when he was
trying to flirt with you.
Me: I saw how you were looking at him, if looks could kill, he
would be 6 feet underground.
Sfiso: He saw the ring on your finger but still "are you
straight?" straight yamasimba.(for shit)
I'm laughing so hard my stomach hurts he looks really
pissed.
Sfiso: That wasn't funny Langa, do you know the pain when
someone flirts with isthandwa sakho (your lover) right
before your very eyes.
Me: Must be really painful neh.
Sfiso: Awazi wena.(you have no idea).
Me: You know I love this side of you.
Sfiso: You make me happy Langelihle, now come and sleep.
If he says that I know he means ontop of him, i've gotten
used to sleeping in that position.
Sfiso: Woooah!
Me: What is it?
He hold my left wrist.
Sfiso: When did you get this?
His name on my wrist.
Me: when you were busy with uncle Carl on a computer.
Sfiso: Wow, this is...wow I feel so special.
Me: that's because you are baby.
We sleep while he is holding me right.
We wake up and go eat breakfast.
Ziyanda: Morning guys I heard my boyfriend saying that you
guys got tattoos can we see them why are you hiding them.
Mandisi: Bad influence Luyolo!
Luyolo: Hey I didn't send anyone there.
Mandisi: Technically, you did, aren't you the one who took
them there?
Luyolo: You know what I mean Mandi, infact shut up.
Mandisi: I won'..
Lukhele: Shut up wena!
Mandisi: Wow..wow
We all laugh at him.
Ziyanda: Sfiso can I see your tattoo love?
Sfiso takes off his t-shirt.
Mbali: Woooah! Those abs, Can I touch.
Me: Touch what?
They burst in laughter.
Ziyanda: Wow is this Langelihle referring to this one or the
surname.
Sfiso: Langelihle.
He points at me.
Ziyanda: This is beautiful, so sexy, Langa take it off.
I take off my shirt.
Mbali: Ok you guys should enter the world's sexiest men
wuuuuuh!and take Ntsika and Nkanyezi with you.
Mandisi: Me too baby.
Mbali rolls her eyes at him.
Mom looks at the tattoo and gasps.
Ziyanda: Langa!baby wow, uhm I don't know what to say,
this is beautiful, it has my name on it ya'll.
She is happy and that's all I ever want, my mother to be
happy.
We continue to eat and I see Ntsika getting up and walking
away, I follow him after touching Sfiso's hand.
*
NTSIKA
*
We all need love, but nobody prepares you for the
heartbreak, when it's all fun we forget to leave that tiny
space for disappointments, maybe to me it's probably
because all I ever saw was this innocent girl who loves me to
death, I didn't think anything could change, I forgot that
people change or they simple showing their true colours.
That's what i'm doing these days, asking myself if Lathi was
like this all along but just hiding it or she just changed but
then I remind myself that I broke her virginity so I know
who she is or was before her sister came into the picture.
I have been trying to call her for literally 115 times today, I
started at 1 am when I couldn't sleep asking myself if she is
safe wherever she is, I still haven't told anyone that she left
they think she is just visiting her sister.
I have a phone on my ear and Langa comes in and sit in my
bed, Nkanyezi follows , i drop the call that has already sent
me to voicemail.
Me: Hello guys.
I say trying to smile.
Nkanyezi: "Don't try that with us Ntsika, don't do that."
Me: "What did I do?"
Langa: "Something is wrong with you and it has something
to do with Lathi not being around."
Me: "That is just ridiculous, she went to her sister for a visit
why would there be something wrong with that."
They both stare at me, I feel like they are looking into my
soul.
Langa: "Khuluma nathi mfowethu.(talk to us brother.)
I sit on a chair infront of them and huff.
Me: "Lathi left me and our kids."
Nkanyezi: "Left you?didn't you say she is visiting her sister?"
Me: "She packed all her clothes and left she didn't even say
where she is going."
I remove my glasses which i've been wearing to hide my
puffy eyes, i'm sad the mother of my kids left me without any
explanation.
Me: "She totally changed she was coming home late at night
drunk, she was slapping me every chance she got and she
didn't want anything to do with our kids, I was covering for
her all along, you know if you love someone you hide certain
things to your family that would make her look bad, I was
trying so hard but still she left."
I wipe my tears looking up, Langa stands next to me
touching my shoulder.
Ntsika: I don't even know if she is safe with the way she's
been drinking.
Langa: Let's ask Uncle Carl to track her phone.
I nod.
Langa makes a call to uncle Carl and he agrees to track it, we
wait for him to call again.
He calls Langa.
Carl: Boys I sent you her address on your phone just follow
the red dot.
Langa: Got it thank Uncle Carl.
Carl: anytime boys.
Langa: Let's go I will go tell Sfiso i'm leaving.
I nod and Nkanyezi get up, the three of us get in Nkanyezi's
car and he drives following the red dot that will lead us to
where Lathi is.
We get to this beautiful huge house.
Langa: Is this her sister's house?
Ntsika: I don't know, probably.
We step out and walk up to the door and knock for a while,
we stop when we hear footsteps coming to the door and
there she is wearing a panty and a bra then a little gown over
it.
I look at my brothers then her thinking she would cover her
body but no.
A male voice speaks behind her.
Male: Baby who is at the door.
Lathi: No one..
She says staring at me.
The man comes closer, he looks old, he hold Lathi's waist
and kiss her neck she giggles, I push my way in and grab her
man and start beating the living daylights out of him once
i'm satisfied I get up and walk to Lathi, she doesn't look
scared at all she is just looking at me.
Me: What is this?
Lathi: What is what?
She ask with no care.
Me: Lathi this is not you baby, this is not the life you want to
live.
Lathi: how would you know, are you Lathitha?
I look at her confused, I grab her arm towards the first room
I see, i'm looking for her clothes anything.
I finally found the clothes now i'm forcing her to wear them
and drag her out again.
I find my brothers standing next to this man.
Lathi: Let go of me Ntsika.
Me: i'm not doing that shit.
We get in the car and drive home, I use the back door and
drag her to my room and lock.
Me: What is wrong with you Lathi? You should have told me
you don't love me anymore.
Lathi: I thought you're smart you would've figured that
leaving here meant that it's over for us.
Me: It is?
Lathi: Yes.
Me: Why the sudden change of behaviour Lathi?
Lathi: My sister told me i'm still young to play wife to you, I
still have to meet people and fall inlove.
I chuckle.
Me: So this is you falling inlove?
Lathi: Yes.
Me: With a man old enough to be your father?
Lathi: Lazola said those men knows what they want unlike
you.
Me: Lazola neh, you know your sister is ruining you Lathi
and you can't even see it, do you use condoms with that
man?
Lathi: We haven't slept yet, we were about to do it this
morning but you came in.
I feel my body relax a bit, she still answers everything
truthfully so I guess there is still my Lathi in there.
Me: Stop letting your sister ruin your life.
Lathi: She is not, she is just showing me how the world is out
there.
Me: is sleeping with old men showing you the world?
Lathi: I haven't slept with anyone Ntsika.
Me: This, this is not Lathi, I don't know who this crazy girl is..
She get up and her small hand slap me.
Me: Lathitha..
She slap me again I push her away from me because I might
get angry and hurt her.
Me: What about our kids Lathi, if I let you go, will you come
visit them?
She doesn't answer.
Me: I might not be man enough for you now Lathi but the
kids are innocent just give them a little attention please.
Lathi: I told you I wanted to abort I didn't want kids I'm still
young.
I chuckle.
Me: Must have made you happy when my baby girl died
then.
She looks at me.
Lathi: Take me back where you found me.
Me: No I want you to tell me that it's over and you want
nothing to do with me or my kids then you can get the fuck
out.
Lathi: I'm leaving.
She get up, but I hold her closer she starts crying.
Me: Tell me what I did wrong baby, please don't leave.
She lays in my chest sobbing, something is wrong and I feel
like it's more than just Lazola whispering shit in her ears.
Lathi: Let me go Ntsika.
Me: No you will sit here until you tell me what's wrong.
I hear a knock on the door I unlock and shout 'come in.' and
it's Lazola, Lathi quickly moves away from me, I look at her
face she seems scared.
Lazola: Mike is looking for you apparently some men came in
his house and beat him up then took you, I wonder who
those men are.
She looks at me and I stare right back at her.
Me: Are you exploiting your little sister?
Lazola: Exploi..what?
Me: Why is your sister with older men?
Lazola: Maybe she just want something different just like I
want something young and different.
Me: You should really go back to where you came from.
Lazola: Go wait in the car Lathi.
Me: If you leave now Lathi it's over and you will never see
the kids again.
Lazola: Lathitha I said go wait for me in the car!
Lathi quickly get up and walk out.
Lazola steps closer to me and touch my face I remove her
hand she giggles.
Lazola: Bye Ntsika..
She says with a seductive smile on her face followed by the
lip biting then she walks out I follow her and open the car.
Me: Are you sure you want to go Lathi? You are choosing
your sister over your kids and me?
Lathi: Leave me alone.
Me: Just give me a chance ok I will do anything you want me
to do please just don't throw your life away like this.
I give her my hand, she takes it and her sister starts shouting
her name.
I take her inside and she get in bed without saying anything.
She in not the Lathitha I know but I will help her any way I
can.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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*
NTSIKA
*
I wake up and check next to me I find Lathi still sleeping, I
touch her hair and down to her innocent face wondering
what went wrong.
I kiss her lips she opens her eyes and smile a little.
Lathi: Hey Ntsika yam.
That startles me a little.
Me: Lathitha.
Lathi: Why do you look so shocked, where are the kids?
Me: Uhm you want to see the kids?
Lathi: Yes have they eaten already, what time is it?
I take my phone and check the time confused as hell.
Me: uhm it's 8:35am.
She jumps out of bed and run to the bathroom.
I go to her and find her vomiting something green, it's like
leaves it's so scary.
Me: Baby..
Lathi: Ntsika I don't feel too good, my stomach is burning up.
I start panicking as I see her sitting on the floor balancing
her arm on the toilet seat.
Me: Let me get water for you, i'm coming.
I pour water and help her drink up and she looks a bit fine.
Lathi: I'm a bad mother my kids should have eaten by now.
Me: Lathi uhm where were you yesterday?
Lathi: What do you mean?
Me: Uhm no never mind, let's take a shower so we can check
on the kids.
We get into a shower together as i'm closing my eyes
washing my face I feel a hand touching my dick I gasp
opening my eyes, I see Lathi smiling so innocently.
Lathi: I want you.
Maybe i'm crazy, maybe everything that has been going on is
in my head Lathi is fine she is here with me and still the
same Lathi I know all along.
She stands on her toes and kiss me, I groan kissing her back
and I pick her up and insert my dick.
Lathi: Aaah Ntsika..
I pin her on the wall and start moving in her.
Me: Tell me you love me Lathitha..
I say as I move faster, she hold my shoulders tight..
Lathi: Oh God, yes Ntsika..I love you..
I grab her ass tight and start moving her to me and she
meets every thrust I feel my knees shaking and my body
tenses up, I cum, I kiss her looking at her, she looks at me
with loving eyes I missed them so much, but what is going
on?
We continue to take a shower while she is busy touching me
and kissing me everywhere.
I push her to the wall and look down on her.
Me: What is going on with you?
Lathi: What do you mean?
I don't know if I should bring it up now or I should just let it
go for now.
When we are about to step out of the shower she vomits that
green thing again.
Lathi: Ntsika what is that? What did I eat yesterday?
She is panicking and crying. This is really scary for me like
for real.
I help her drink water and pick her up going to my room and
lay her in bed. I go back to the bathroom to clean that thing
up.
I walk back to her and sleep next to her.
Me: How are you feeling?
Lathi: I'm feeling better now that you are here next to me, I
was feeling cold, your body is warm.
She comes closer her body is really shaking, I pull up the bed
cover and hold her tight.
I feel her snoring lightly, I get up and go look for mom, I
knock in her room,dad shouts for me to come in they are still
in bed sitting up.
Me: Is it safe for me to come in?
Mom laughs.
Ziyanda: Come in baby.
I go to them and get inbetween them.
Luyolo: Really?
Me: Yes really, do you have a problem?
He starts laughing.
Ziyanda: What's up bro?
Me: You know earlier Lathi was vomiting a very scary green
thing and after she felt really cold do you know what causes
that?
Mom looks at me.
Ziyanda: when did she come back? It wasn't a gall?
Me: She came back yesterday, that thing was like green
leaves mom straight from the tree.
Ziyanda: Maybe it's something she ate.
Me: maybe..do you have what could help her to stop the
vomiting.
Ziyanda: I would suggest you let her vomit so it will all come
out.
Me: Ok thank you.
I get out of bed.
Luyolo: Stop acting like a baby wena you just talked about
your baby mama while sleeping with your mom and dad,
what is that?
Me: I will never stop being a baby to you guys, enjoy.
Luyolo: Enjoy what?
I laugh walking out, I go check on the kids I find Miyah and
Nkanyezi bathing them.
Me: "Morning, thank you guys, aren't you going to the centre
today?"
Miyalo: No we are taking the twins out, I heard Lathi is back
maybe you guys need to spend some time together."
Me: Thank you and she is sick, she was vomiting green stuff
this morning.
Miyalo: Then go be with her Ntsika we got this.
Me: "Thanks."
I go back to the room and find her shaking but she has her
eyes closed,
I rush to her.
Me: Lathi hey, baby wake up!
She open her eyes and look at me.
Lathi: I'm feeling really cold. Ntsika, can you add more bed
covers.
I take a blanket and cover her then get in bed and hold her.
Lathi: Where are the kids are they awake? I should go to
them.
She says trying to move away from me.
Me: It's ok babe they are with Miyah and Star they are going
out with them.
Lathi: I miss them I feel like I haven't seen them in a while.
I'm tempted to tell her that she hasn't but I let it go.
She continues to shake, I get up and take my long sleeved t-
shirt and help her wear it.
Me: Can I make you tea?
Lathi: Yes please.
I get up and go make tea for her then go back and give it to
her after helping her sit up.
Her hands are shaking.
Me:Lathi what did you eat baby?
Lathi: I don't remember.
Me: Ok,who is Mark or Mike?
Lathi: That's my sister's man.
I look at her.
Me: But I found you half naked in his house yesterday and he
was calling you baby.
She looks at me.
Lathi: Ntsika don't lie about something like that.
Me: I'm not lying Lathitha I had to drag you out of there.
She look scared.
Lathi: I don't remember that Ntsika, I'm i'm sorry, i'm sorry.
She starts crying, I take the cup from her hands and hug her.
I don't know what is happening with the mother of my kids
but i will help her in any way I can.
Lathi: You found me naked with my sister's man Ntsika,what
is going on, I don't remember anything, i'm sorry.
Me: It's ok babe, everything will be fine..
Lathi: Please don't tell my sister , Please.
Me: I won't.
She cries until she falls asleep.
*
UNKNOWN LOCATION.
*
She has been kneeling down for a while now waiting for that
witchdoctor who told her to wait for him.
After the long wait the witchdoctor comes in and sit down
infront of her.
Lazola: How is it possible that she chose him so your stuff
doesn't work huh.
Witchdoctor: I told you to keep her away from that boy, it's
not going to work if he is around her.
Lazola: But how will I keep her away?
Witchdoctor: She trust you, use that to your advantage.
Lazola: I can do that.
Witchdoctor: Be careful, that boy is the Pillar, when he is
angry he explode and those next to him rise and so is his
ancestors.
Lazola: I don't care he needs to be mine, he is a man and he
needs a woman not a child like my sister.
The witch doctor chuckles.
Witchdoctor: You are playing with fire, they are binded by
blood all three of them together with the blood of their
powerful greatgrandfather thread carefully.
Lazola: I don't need any lecture, just get this done.
He gives her the small plastic bag which has green leaves.
Witchdoctor: You know what to do right?
Lazola: I do.
She leaves cash on the floor and walk out, she drives to
Ziyanda's house and they buzz her in.
She walk in and find Luyolo in the lounge.
Lazola: Hello Luyolo.
Luyolo: Sure.
Lazola: Why are you so cold towards me?
Luyolo: Because I don't know you like that.
Lazola: Let's get to know each other then.
Luyolo: Do you think i'm bored?
He says staring at her.
Lazola: No I just thought you might want to get to know your
grandkids's aunt.
Luyolo: You thought wrong, now go away young lady.
Lazola walks away cussing under her breath, she knocks on
Ntsika's door and the door opens, she looks at Ntsika's upper
body and cross her legs as she feels all tingle down there.
Ntsika: What can I do for you?
Lazola: Uhm...I came to see Lathi.
She shutters.
Ntsika: She is not here..
He says with a straight face.
Lazola: You guys don't like me huh what did I do to you?
Ntsika: I said Lathi is not here now leave.
He slams the door in her face, she steps back and walk to her
car and drive to Mike's house.
She find Mike sitting in the lounge.
Mike: Did you bring her back?
He says not looking at her.
Lazola: Uhm not yet but i'm working on it mikey.
Mike: I want a baby Zolah and your sister will give me one,
that day I was so close but those boys ruined everything.
How did they even find this place?
Lazola: I'm not sure but I will find out, I just need to get her
here.
Mike: Then do it and be fast about it or you won't have a
place to stay or a car, I will throw you out on the street.
Lazola: Just give me a week please.
He chuckles and get up.
Mike: You will find me in my room then.
He walks away. She takes her phone and dial Lathi's number
but it's on voicemail.
Lazola: Oh come on!
She sighs frustrated.
She dials Ntsika's number which she stole from Lathi's
phone.
Ntsika: Hello.
Lazola: Ntsika!
She sniffs.
Ntsika: Who is this?
She start sobbing so loud.
Ntsika: Hello, who is this?
Lazola: It's me, he is going to kill me Ntsika please help me,
pleas..
She drops the call and wait for his next move.
*
Meanwhile Ntsika wants to ignore Lazola because something
tells him that this is just a setup but he has those what if's,
she is Lathi's sister and she might be hurt and he will feel
guilty if something happens to her.
He huffs and slowly get up and get dressed.
When he is about to walk out, Lathi calls his name out.
Lathi: Ntsika..
He turns and go back to bed.
Lathi: Where are you going?
Ntsika: Uhm ..I..your sister, I think she is in trouble.
Lathi: What!?
She tries to get up but she is feeling really weak.
Ntsika: Hey don't move, go back to sleep i'm going to check
on her.
Lathi: Ok thank you.
He drives to Mike's place and knock on the door, Lazola
opens and she has bruises on her face.
Lazola: Ntsika thank god you're here..
She says hugging him tight and Ntsika push her a little.
Ntsika: Why didn't you call the cops, where is he now?
Lazola: I don't know, he is a dangerous man Ntsika I need
you to get me out of here please before he comes back.
Ntsika: Ok take your bag we will go now.
She turns smiling her plan is working perfectly, she is one
step closer to finding what she wants ..

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
*
Lazola has been crying in my shoulder for a while now and
i'm so annoyed I just want to push her away from me but
then she is hurt and the bruises look pretty fresh.
We are on the driveway at home I want to go check on Lathi
but here I am comforting this girl.
Me: Ok let's go in so you can see Lathi she is not feeling well.
She nods wiping her tears then next thing I feel her lips on
mine I move away.
Me: What are you doing?
I ask wiping my mouth.
Lazola: I'm sorry i'm not thinking straight.
Me: Don't ever do that again.
Lazola: Ok sorry.
I step out of the car and walk in she follows behind me.
We find Lathi still in bed, I go to her.
Me: Hey babe.
She smiles.
Lathi: Baba ka Nqoba.
I smile widely until Lazola clears her throat I look at her.
Lathi: Oh my God Zolah who did this to you?
Lazola: My boyfriend.
Me: What is your boyfriend's name Lazola?
She looks around like she is thinking.
Lazola: Uhm I..his name is Sizwe.
Me: Mmm.
Lathi: Uhm isn't your boyfriend's name Mike?
Lazola: Lathi don't question me!
Me: No answer her, why was Lathitha naked with your man
then huh didn't you say she wanted someone old and the
same man I found her with is your boyfriend Mike?
Lathi looks at me with sad eyes.
Lathi: You said you won't tell her Ntsika..
Me: She knows Lathi and what I want her to tell me is why
did she let her old boyfriend try to sleep with you?
Lazola: Mike is not my boyfriend.
Lathi: But when you introduced him to me you said he was
your boyfriend Zola.
Lazola: I don't remember maybe I said friends last time I
checked you were sleeping with Mike Lathi so why would I
let you sleep with my man does it make sense to you?
She shouts and Lathi cringes, it's like she is afraid of her
sister.
Me: She never slept with anyone.
Lazola: And how do you know that? she was always walking
around half naked in front of Mike.
Lathi: That is not true.
Lazola: Oh yeah watch this.
She does something on her phone then turn the screen to us.
I feel my blood boiling as I see Lathi dancing infront of this
Mike with only her panty and bra, My eyes itch I start
rubbing them and look at Lathi she is shaking her head
looking at me.
Me: What the fuck is that Lathitha?
Lathi: That can't be me Ntsika, that's not me.
Me: I begged you Lathi, I begged you not to leave me and our
kids, you left me for this, how could you?
Lathi: I'm sorry Ntsika I don't know what happened, I don't
remember any of this.
Me: Weren't you the one who were going out every night
getting drunk?and I had to wait for you to come home I was
worried but you were busy being a stripper out there.
Lathi: I wasn't myself you have to believe me.
Me: Did he fuck her?
I ask looking at Lazola.
Me: Did he penetrate her? Answer me!
I roar, I feel like i'm about to burst.
Lazola: No..no he just sucked and fingered her.
Me: You must have enjoyed every minute of it because you
didn't want anything to do with me.Get out!
Lathi takes the bed cover and throw herself in bed covering
her head and she sob.
Me: Take your sister Lazola before I mop this entire floor to
the main gate with the both of you.
Lazola: But What did I do?
I feel like i'm about to kill someone.
I pull the covers from Lathi and grab her arm out of bed, she
screams.
Me: I said get the fuck out.
Lathi: Ntsika I'm sorry.
I get her up and pin her against the wall taking off the t-shirt
she is wearing.
Me: Now get dressed and walk out!i'm not playing Lathitha.
She kneel infront of me.
Lathi: Ngiyakcela(i'm begging you) don't chase me out, think
about our kids.
I chuckle.
Me: Our kids? You told me straight in the eye that you never
wanted to have any kids so fuck off..
Lathi: Baba ka Isipho please, you're the only man i've ever
loved and you know this, you know Ntsika.
Me: I don't know anything Lathi, I don't know you anymore.
I grab Lazola's hair, she screams and walk out still holding
her hair.
Mom comes out.
Ziyanda: Ntsika what are you doing?
Me: Taking the trash out..
I throw her out and go back to my room mom is following
me.
Ziyanda: What is going on baby what got you so angry?
I ignore her and get in my room I find Lathi walking around
the room wiping her tears.
Me: Are you walking out by yourself or i'm throwing you out
too?
Lathi: Kill me then Ntsika kill me!
Me: I might just do that Lathi don't test me..
Lathi: I don't care ki..kill me I don't...
I see her slowly going down and that green thing comes out
of her mouth.
I rush to her and kneel with her head on my lap.
Me: Baby..
Mom kneels next to her.
Ziyanda: Ntsika! What is that?
Me: I don't know mom..this is what I was telling you about
this morning..
I am scared now, I feel like i'm losing her yet I was ready to
throw her out a minute ago.
Ziyanda: Let's take her to the hospital but i've never seen
anything like this.
We drive to the hospital they do scans everything but they
can't find anything, I go to her ward and sit next to her bed.
Me: Baby..
It feels so wrong to say this now after what I saw in that
video but I still care about her.
Me: i'm hurt and dissapointed in you Lathi, I don't think I can
do this I might just kill you, it's better if you stay away, when
they discharge you I will call your sister to pick you up.
I stand up when i'm at the door she calls out my name I turn.
Lathi: Please don't give up on us, i'm really sorry, but why
don't you ask yourself why Zolah had those videos on her
phone ? Why was she showing it to you?
Me: Still doesn't change the fact that you did all of that Lathi,
you let another man touch you but I told you that it's either
me or him who will live to see another day.
Lathi: Don't kill anyone Ntsika.
Me: I will kill your Mike so you might need to find another
man.
Lathi: You're not a murderer.
Me: I am, you just don't know it, I don't like it when people
try shit with me like you did.
Lathi: But you still care, I heard you when you brought me
here.
Me: It doesn't matter anymore, i'm done.
Lathi: Then take me away from here please, I want to leave
this place.
Me: Where do you want to go?
Lathi: anywhere is fine,I want to be far away from you.
Me: What about the kids?
Lathi: I don't have anything on my name Ntsika you will be
able to take care of them but I can't.
Me: So what will you need?
Lathi: A transport fare and a place to stay.
Me: Ok I will do it today and you will leave tomorrow.
Lathi: Ok..I love you Ntsika.
I nod and walk out.
I get in the car and drive to Mike's place, I don't knock I
barge in and find them having sex on the couch.
I have a gun in my hand.
Me: I want the both of you to sit next to each other and
answer every damn question I ask, truthfully because if you
don't I will shoot any part of your body, am I clear?
Mike: What are you trying to do boy?
Me: And don't make a mistake of answering a question by a
question i'll take that as the wrong answer. Now you sit your
ass down.
She slowly sit down next to mike they are completely naked
and I don't care.
Me: So.. I have gathered that you two are lovers so now what
I want to know is, Why did you want your man to sleep with
Lathitha.?
Lazola: I ..I..
Me: You better say something..
Lazola: She wanted to do it..
I shoot the couch right inbetween them she scream.
Me: I won't miss next time so...
Lazola: Mike wanted a baby and I couldn't give him one so
Lathi was supposed to get pregnant for him.
She speaks so fast and her eyes are closed.
Me: Did you drug her? why was she doing all those nasty
stuff?
Lazola: I..
Mike interupts her.
Mike: Shut the fuck up!
I shoot his foot blood oozes from it. Lazola is screaming and
Mike is groaning in pain.
Me: What did you do to her?
Lazola: I went to a witchdoctor so you two can break up and
make her listen to everything I say.
Me: what did that witch give you?
Lazola: Green leaves to..
I get up and walk around the room.
Me: So that is what was causing her to get sick huh?
Lazola: Yes Ntsika i'm sorry but I love you I wanted you to
notice me too.
She stands up and come to me, she has a beautiful body but
it doesn't turn me on not even a little.
Me: You are fucken pathetic, there's nothing attractive about
you, nothing.
She start touching her boobs.
Mike: Zolah what are you doing you bitch!
Lazola: Lathi told me how you guys fuck, I can give you much
more, i'm older and wiser and I have experience.
I chuckle.
I push her away from me and start shooting every part of the
house.
Mike: You are really crazy! the police will be here soon you
will get arrested!
Me: No i'm not..
I start shooting him countless times while Lazola is
screaming her lungs out.
I point a gun at her.
Me: Are you taking the fall and admit on killing him or are
you going back to where you came from?
Lazola: You're an animal!
Me: I know, so what's it's gonna be I want to get out of here.
Lazola: I will go!
Me: Don't try to double cross me I will find you and slice
every part of your body including those boobs, now go get
dressed!!
She rush to the room and get dressed, we go to the car and
some neighbours are peeking on their fences and windows.
I drive her to the airport.
Me: you have your passport?
She nods.
Me: Good I will wait here while you try to get any available
ticket out of here I want to know which country you're going
to. Don't try anything stupid baby I will find you like I found
mike's house.
She rush in and I wait for over an hour, I step out of the car
and I see her walking up to me, she show me the ticket to
Columbia.
Me: Good now leave baby and never come back ok.
Lazola: You don't have to do this Ntsika we can be together
and I will be a good girl I promise.
Me: No i'm good, I want to see if you board that plane, let's
go.
Her flight is called and I see her walk away, making sure she
is on the right flight and really gone then I drive back to the
hospital, I go to Lathi's ward and I find the bed empty, I ask
the nurse that comes in..
Nurse: Hey Pillar..
I smile I don't really know her but i've seen her around.
Me: Hello, uhm where is the patient that was here today?
Nurse: She was discharged and went home.
I nod and drive home,when I get there I ask Miyah if she had
seen her but she says she hasn't , I search for her, I can't find
her.
I get back in the car and drive to Mike's house, I see police
vans and people standing outside the house but Lathi is not
here.
Me: Where the hell did she go?
I ask myself, my phone rings it's mom.
Ziyanda: Hey Ntsika there is a letter here for you from Lathi,
I found it in my office.
Me: I'm coming.
I drive to the hospital and take the letter then go back to the
car and open it.

*
" Ntsika
I couldn't wait for tomorrow so I decided to leave today, I
don't know where I'm going but it's far away from this place.
I still have a choice to make, whether I want to live or die,
take care of our kids and yourself. I hope you do find
someone who will love you and the kids unconditionally.
Don't blame yourself it's not your fault but mine i am
disgusted by what i did to you, please do forgive me, father
of my kids, my first love, I love you so much and our kids but
you guys deserve better, Goodbye.
Lathi"
I don't know how I feel, I know I agreed that she can go but
not like this and I was willing to give a chance now I don't
even know where she went and it's hard because her phone
is at home.
I hit the steering wheel and huff.
Me: What have you done Ntsika!!!
Now my kids won't have a mother and it's all my fault I
should have gotten to the bottom of everything before
agreeing that she can leave.
I drive back home and go check on my kids I find them
sleeping.
Me: I'm sorry guys, I'm so sorry, your mom left and I let her,
how could I be so selfish? Where will I start searching, she
has no one how will she survive? What if she decides to kill
herself, I am so stupid.
I walk out and go to the lounge.
Ziyanda: So where is Lathitha?
Me: I don't know she wrote me a goodbye letter, I don't
know where she is.
Ziyanda: But why?
Me: A lot have been going on here mom and I have been
hiding it from you guys.
Ziyanda: Why would you do that Ntsika, why?
Me: I didn't want you guys to know the bad side of her that
was so sudden, she changed and I judged her only to find out
that her sister was bewitching her, I am the reason she left
and now my kids will be motherless because I judged too
soon without finding out the facts first.
Ziyanda: Ntsika that was wrong of you, now what?
Me: I'm moving on mother I know I said she can go but she
should have been a mother and fought to stay for the kids,
this just shows how much she doesn't care about them, you
guys are all here and you will help me raise them, they will
grow up with or without her.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
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NTSIKA
*
I wake up when my kids are getting in bed next to me I open
my eyes and hold them both with my arm.
I look at them while they are pretending to be asleep,I
chuckle.
I won't lie I still miss their mother and I believe I should
have done things differently with her but then I asked her
when she wanted to leave, that what about the kids? And she
told me that I can take care of them and she can't and I know
she meant that financially, I don't like it when people believe
that money is everything, Lathi thought that since my family
can provide for the kids she can leave them that still hurt me
I know I chased her out but I didn't say she cannot see the
kids, I asked her several times that what about them guess
she didn't care much about them.
I look at them they have fallen asleep I roll out of bed and go
to the bathroom, I let warm water hit my body as I think
about the first time we had sex, both virgins never done it
with anyone else before it was so magical, and I need to get
her off my mind she made her choice now I have to move on.
I step out of the shower and go to my room I wear my
clothes and walk out and sit on the couch.
Langa: Hey brother.
Me: Sure.
Langa: Are you okay.
Me: Yeah i'm just thinking about the mother of my kids.
Langa: You still love her huh.
Me: Yes I do but i'm angry that she left and never looked
back, there are kids involved man I might have not wanted
anything to do with her but she should have stayed for them.
Langa: I hear you, you didn't tell her you don't want her to
see the kids so she should have came to visit them at least.
Me: That's my point bro.
I go wash my car and my kids come too we wash it together,
I love these little guys so much.
Later I get a call from Ntsoaki and I answer.
Me: Hey.
She giggles.
Ntsoaki: How are you?
Me: I'm good, you seen happy.
Ntsoaki: I am, i'm with Khosi my son so he is telling me how
your kids look like one person.
Me: Then he must wait until he sees the five of us together
with my brothers.
Ntsoaki: They are cute.
Me: Oh so you think i'm cute.
Ntsoaki: The kids Ntsika not you.
Me: But you did say they are my replicas.
Ntsoaki: kea tseba but you're not cute like them.
I chuckle.
Me: So uhm..
Ntsoaki: Yeah uh goodnight.
Me: Where do you live?
Ntsoaki: In a flat not far from where I work.
Me: Can I see you for just a minute, I'm not far from your
place.
Ntsoaki: But it's late.
Me: Just a minute I promise please.
Ntsoaki: Ok.
She send the name of the flat I drive there and call her when
i'm at the gate, she comes out in her long pyjamas and get in
the passenger seat, my light is on.
Me: You're beautiful.
She smiles.
Ntsoaki: Thanks. You have seconds left Ntsika you said a
minute.
Me: Ok let me use those seconds wisely then.
I lean over and hold her neck and start kissing her lips but
she doesn't kiss me back, I look at her, she look away.
Ntsoaki: I have to go.
Me: Can you just kiss me back please.
She doesn't say anything, I lean over again and kiss her and
she kiss me back, my breathing change I pull away and fix
my bulge it's been a while.
I clear my throat.
Ntsoaki: I have to go.
I walk out of the car and go open for her, she miss a step and
scream I'm close so I catch her before she falls.
Me: Sorry.
She nod and breath out, I pin her to the car and look at her, I
bring my face closer and smooch her i'm breathing heavily, I
grab her waist tight and she wraps her arms around me, my
hand move down to her ass, she slowly move her hand and
touch mine then remove them from her ass then step
back,my dick is twiching.
Ntsoaki: Goodnight.
She says walking away, I get in the car and wipe my face, I'm
turned on it's not even funny, I drive back home and take a
cold shower.
Then go back to my room and call her.
Ntsoaki: Hi.
Me: hey, you know that kiss almost killed me I couldn't even
see my way home, I was driving on instincts.
She giggles.
Ntsoaki: Sorry.
Me: Are you working on sundays?
Ntsoaki: No.
Me: Can I visit you tomorrow then?
Ntsoaki: Uhm Yeah you can.
Me: Thank you, sleep well.
Ntsoaki: You too.
I'm feeling really guilty after that call I feel like I am
betraying Lathi but I like Ntsoaki and I would really like to
try something out with her.
It's like i'm stuck between two women, yet one is not even
here.
The next morning I wake up telling myself that i'm letting go
of the feelings I have for Lathitha and I will see if Ntsoaki and
I can maybe try something out.
I get dressed and walk out of my room to check on the kids I
find them with Nkanyezi.
Me: Hey bro.
He nods.
Me: how's it.
Nkanyezi: "I woke up not feeling well but I don't know why,
i'm fine now though."
Me: I'm sorry, are you looking after them?
Nkanyezi: "Yes I will be around the whole day."
Me: "Ok i'll see you later, bye boys"
Manqoba: Ntsika cela uswidi.(can I have sweet.)
Me: Ubani uNtsika?(who is Ntsika)
He points at me.
Me: I'm not dad anymore.
He shakes his head.
Manqoba: Langa is dad.
Me: and i'm not?
Manqoba: No.
Me: What about him?
I point at Nkanyezi.
Manqoba: No. Langa is dad.
Me: Why not us?
Manqoba: This..
He shows me the new toy trucks Red and blue.
Nkanyezi: "We are not dads because we didn't buy toys but
Langa did so he is the only dad."
I look at Manqoba he wiggles his eyebrows, I laugh out loud.
Me: "That's all you Star."
He grins.
Nkanyezi: "This one is naughty."
Me: ay bye.
I walk out and get in my car, I buy three burgers for lunch
and drive to her flat, she comes to open for me and I drive in.
I step out with the paper bag and hug her and give her the
paper bag
Ntsoaki: Thanks, how are you?
Me: I'm good, you?
Ntsoaki: I'm ok let's get in Khosi's father will be here to fetch
him any moment.
Me: He won't have a problem finding me here.
Ntsoaki: No.
I nod and we sit on the couch and Khosi comes in.
Khosi: Hello.
Me: Hi.
Khosi: "How are you?"
Me: "I'm ok how are you."
Khosi: "I'm good you see i'm good, I know what you taught
us last week."
I laugh.
Me: That wasn't me, that's my twin brother Nkanyezi.
He hides his face.
Khosi: Oooh like Nq..oba and Manq..oba.
I chuckle, he is trying so hard to say the Q alphabet right.
Me: Yeah like them boy. When did you come staying this
side?
Ntsoaki: This is our second year here we are from free state.
Me: Wow, why here?
Ntsoaki: My sister was staying here, she was married to a
Zulu guy from Umlazi, so she found a job for me this side and
she passed away late last year.
Me: I'm sorry, so where is her baby boy now.
Ntsoaki: He went to visit his father since he is still around, he
works in Gauteng so he stays with me and I have a helper.
Me: Ok.
We hear a knock on the door and Khosi runs to open and
comes back with the guy, his father he looks at Ntsoaki then
me.
Him: Uuh Hello.
Ntsoaki: Hello Khaya, let me get his bag.
She walks away then he sits opposite me and Khosi sits on
his lap.
Khaya: I'm Khaya.
Me: Ntsika.
He nods.
Khaya: You're the boyfriend?
I chuckle.
Me: No, well not yet but i'm hoping.
He chuckles.
Khaya: I'm her baby daddy, why are you so free to tell me
you're hoping to be a boyfriend what if we're still together?
I shrug my shoulders, he laughs.
Khaya: I'm kidding, I have a woman in my life soon to be
wife, but don't hurt her I care about her, she is the mother of
my kid.
Me: Don't worry I won't, you're cool, someone else would
have thrown me out by now even when they are not
together anymore, some men feel like they own women just
because they have kids with them and they don't want them
to move on.
Khaya: I know man, I was in that situation with my woman's
baby daddy he still have a problem but there's nothing he
can do about it now, she's mine.
Me: Selfish men, and you find that they already have other
women in their lives already..
Ntsoaki comes back and hug Khaya and Khosi.
Ntsoaki: Bye boy, tell mamaLihle I said hi ok.
Khaya: We will, sure man.
Me: Sure.
They walk out and she sits opposite me.
Me: You get along with your child's step mom.
She laughs.
Ntsoaki: Yes, she is the one who takes care of Khosi when he
visits Khaya and Khosi likes her so I don't have a reason to
hate her.
Me: Wow your situation is rare, these arrangements to some
people are a war zone.
Ntsoaki: I know but I love peace because I can't even fight
i'm the only girl at home.
Me: Oh yeah.
Ntsoaki: So where is your babies's mom.
Me: Uhm she is not around, she left last year..uhm have you
finished your book?
She looks at me.
Ntsoaki: Yeah I did tomorrow i'm sending it to an editor.
Me: That's good, so uhm you're not with anyone?
Ntsoaki: No, we broke up last year and i have been busy with
my own stuff.
Me: Ok. Can I sit next to you?
She looks at me.
I move and sit next to her.
Ntsoaki: Uhm you want to eat now?
Me: Yeah I didn't eat breakfast.
Ntsoaki: Why didn't you tell me I was gonna make it for you
when you came in..
Me: No, those burgers are fine, I bought three I thought
Khosi would be here.
She put the burgers on the plates and pour juice then give
them to me.
Me: Let's eat together.
Ntsoaki: I ate breakfast, I will eat later.
I eat then take a gum from my packet and throw it in my
mouth, I chew it a little then take it out, I hate gum I just use
it when I finish eating and i'm away from my tootbrush.
Ntsoaki: There's the bin.
I chuckle and stand to throw it in the bin and sit next to her
again.
Me: Your dreadlocks are long, how long have you had them?
Ntsoaki: 6 years I had them before and I had to cut them and
start over again.
Me: wow, you're beautiful and this dress suits you.
She laughs.
Ntsoaki: Yeah right..
Me: I'm serious.
She is wearing a dress just above her knees.
I touch her face and bring her closer to me and we kiss, I
move my hand to the pattern of her dress them pull it up
slowly.
She hold on to my neck, I move my hand under her dress and
brush her butt.
Me: Why are you not wearing a panty.
I speak in her mouth, she giggles and pull away.
Ntsoaki: I don't have to, i'm at my place so why should I wear
a panty?
Me: I get it really.
I kiss her again and it's getting heated by the second and this
time I take off the dress and my hand moves in her inner
thighs all the way to her cookier, I stroke her clit she gasps
and close her thighs.
Me: Don't..
I push her thighs apart and start stroking her clit again..
Ntsoaki: Mmmm.
I kiss her neck and I kneel infront of her and push her thighs
apart. She looks at me her eyes are so small.
Me: Can I do it.
She bite her lower lip, I kiss her tighs and bring her closer
my head is in between her thighs and i'm eating her pussy
up she is pushing my head deeper.
Ntsoaki: Oh God..aah..
I place her thighs on my shoulders and and grab her butt and
continue to play with my tongue on her clit.
Her knees shake and I feel her moving her ass away but I
bring her closer.
Ntsoaki: fuck..st...
She push my head and her whole body shake I watch as the
white juices come out.
She catch her breath and look at me. I get up and kiss her my
bulge is so visible.
Me: Do you want us to go further than this?
Ntsoaki: No..uhm I don't have condoms.
I nod and sit next to her.
She get up and pick up her dress. She has nice hips and
booty, she has little stretch marks on her hips and I'm
finding it so sexy. Her stomach is so flat. She walk away butt
naked and I cuss under my breath as I look at the way her
ass is moving, damn condoms!
She comes back wearing the dress and sit next to me.
Ntsoaki: na u hantle?( are you okay)
I look at her.
Ntsoaki: Are you ok?
Me: Yeah, just an uncomfortable erection.
Ntsoaki: sorry.
Me: It's all good.
Ntsoaki: What time are you leaving I want to take a nap.
Me: Are you chasing me out?
Ntsoaki: No..no..uhm I wanted us to nap together and we will
wake up when you have to leave.
Me: Oh ok we can I will leave later.
I follow her to the bedroom and I take off my t-shirt she
looks at me.
Me: Can I take off my pants too it's uncomfortable sleeping in
jeans
Ntsoaki: It's, it's fine.
She clears her throat as I take off my pants.
We get in bed and I spoon her and I groan, her ass is so close
to my dick.
Me: Shit...
I move and face up.
I put my face inside my boxer and start stroking my dick i'm
trying to get it to calm down ekse.
I stroke it while groaning, she turns and face me, I remove
my hand, she gentle move her hand down to my dick.
Me: Aah..
She put it inside my boxers and start stroking it slowly.
Me: Shit..
I remove my boxers so I don't wet them.
I move her ontop of me.
Ntsoaki: We can't..
Me: Just move baby I won't penetrate..fuck..
I move her dress up and she start moving, her clit is rubbing
on my dick so slow.
She starts moving faster she is moaning too.
Ntsoaki: Ooh fuck..
Me: Geez eish...
I feel that i'm close I grab her ass and move her faster then
cum.
Me: Aaah..fuck..
She get off me and pull down her dress and walk out she
comes back with a towel and I wipe the cum on my groin.
Ntsoaki: Feeling better?
I chuckle.
Me: Yes thank you.
Ntsoaki: I'm sorry it's just that i've been single for a while so
i'm not on birth control.
Me: So are you thinking of doing it?
Ntsoaki: No i'm still pretty much single..
Me: Then what did we just do?
She shrug her shoulders.
Me: I want us to date, please.
Ntsoaki:why?
Me: I like you so much and you're beautiful.
Ntsoaki: I'm glad you used the word 'like' because if you said
love you would be out that door right now.
I laugh
Me: but why?
Ntsoaki: That would've been a huge lie, we don't even know
each other like that.
Me: True, so are we doing this?
She smiles.
Ntsoaki: I guess.
I kiss her and we take that nap.
Later we wake up and she accompany me to my car and I
drive home.
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LANGA

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
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I'm on my way to fetch Sfiso at work, he called and told me
he is not feeling well so I must fetch him, I walk in and greet
dad and my uncles.
Me: Where is Sfiso?
Kwanele: We last saw him in the backyard.
Me: Ok let me go check.
I go search for him in that backyard when I get there, I see a
decorated table right in the middle of the yard under the
small white tent and Sfiso is standing next to it looking at
me.
I walk slowly to where he is standing, he has a huge smile on
his face, I'm smiling back, in the table there is wine and
roses, the glasses, it's beautiful.
I chuckle.
Me: What is going on babe?
Sfiso: I know work has been keeping me busy and I come
home to you late so this is to apologise, i know you never
complain but I feel like I should show you that you're still my
number one and I love you and i'm happy we're getting
married soon.
Me: Thank you, I didn't even notice that you work till late
because when you get home you give me all the attention I
need, I love you.
Sfiso: You can have a seat babe.
We sit opposite each other he takes my hand.
Sfiso: I want us to talk babe, I want to do things right, i'm
proposing to pay lobola for you, because to me we are
merging our families, and it doesn't matter that we are of
same gender but it's still a union, so what do you say, can I
do it?
I look at him and sit back on the chair and sigh.
Me: But why, we can still get married without doing all that.
I open the wine and pour it on both glasses and take a huge
gulp.
Sfiso: Langa this is not a joke to me i..
Me: You think it is to me?
Sfiso: Don't get upset babe we are just talking, please.
I breathe.
Sfiso: You are against me paying lobola for you?
I don't answer, he chuckles.
Sfiso: Do you think it will make you less of a man if I do it
huh?
He stares at me.
Sfiso: Have you even accepted who you are Langa? That you
are in love with another man or you're still unsure of your
feelings for me.
Me: That is ridiculous Sfiso and you know it, I have your ring
on my finger and we are getting married soon, does that
sound like i'm unsure of anything?
Sfiso: Please don't raise you voice at me, I know we are both
masculine and none of us shows any femenine side but I
really want to pay lobola for you it will make me happy.
I pour another glass.
Sfiso: you don't like what i'm saying right?
I really don't but I choose not to say it loud.
Sfiso: Ok sure.
He stands up and walk away, I sit there and continue to
drink the wine.
I feel someone touching my shoulder and then he moves to
sit where Sfiso was sitting.
Luyolo: I saw Sfiso leaving, he seemed upset.
I shrug my shoulders.
Luyolo: Talk to dad.
I huff.
Me: He think I haven't embraced being.. "gay".
Luyolo: Why would he say that?
Me: I don't know, I mean i'm marrying him soon.
Luyolo: Langa..
He says softly, I huff.
Me: Ok he wants to pay lobola for me.
Luyolo: And you don't like that?
Me: I don't know, it makes me feel like he is saying i'm the
girl in this relationship.
Luyolo: Langa, you both love each other and only you know
how things work between you two, being in the bedroom or
making decisions, so don't put words in his mouth, I won't
say anything more but talk to him, politely Langa I know you
can be rude.
He stands up and walk away, I think about what he said
"how things work in the bedroom." and my mind takes me to
the things we do in the bedroom, I said this before, we are
versatile, there is no top nor bottom, I let him do things to
me and I do the same to him, so it was wrong of me to think
he is trying to say i'm a girl when he allows me to fuck him as
much as he fucks me and we both enjoy it.
I finish the whole bottle and walk inside and find dad and my
uncles there.
Me: Anyone care to take me home people.
Mandisi: Uuuh NO! why?
Luyolo:Because he drank the whole bottle of wine.
Me: I promise i'm not drunk I'm just all about the rules.
Mandisi: Such a clever little boy!give me your fist boy.
We fist bump, I chuckle.
Luyolo: We are still busy with something,can you wait?
Me: As long as you won't be talking business one way.
Kwanele: Oh no we are doing business, not talking it.
Mandisi: I remember when you were young you always said
"make me laugh uncle mandisi" and I would say my lame ass
jokes and you will laugh your lungs out, so do you still want
to hear my jokes.
Kwanele: Not when i'm around please I don't wanna hear it.
Mandisi: Then get the hell out!
I laugh.
Kwanele: Don't try that with me, I will kill you in front of
your biggest fan, Langa.
They continue doing their work then we all go home.
I get to my room and find Sfiso sitting in bed.
I sit next to him.
Me: Hi.
He ignores me and continue with his phone.
Me: Are we going to talk sfiso?
Sfiso: You are drunk, so no we're not.
Me: I'm not drunk.
Sfiso: Ok, but i'm not going to talk to a drunk person.
He get up and leave the room, he has finally gotten used to
staying here with my family.
I take off my clothes and go take a shower then go get in bed
and sleep.
I wake up it's 11 O'clock at night and Sfiso is not next to me, I
go to the bathroom to pee and clean my teeth then take my
phone to call him he answers on the second ring.
Sfiso: Sure.
Me: Ukuphi?(where are you?)
Sfiso: Around.
Me: Really? Sfiso ukuphi?
Sfiso: In the room next to yours.
Me: Ufunani lapho?(what do you want there?)
He drops the call, I go to him and get in next to him.
Me: Why are you sleeping here Sfiso?
Sfiso: To get away from you.
Ouch!
Me: Oh..
Sfiso: You don't respect me Langa.
Me: Sfiso I didn't mean to disrespect you it's just that this
lobola thing just didn't sit well with me.
Sfiso: Ok, I won't do it then.
Me: Sfiso..
Sfiso: No Langelihle, I heard you, it doesn't sit well with you
then I won't do, it's always what Langa wants anyway.
Me: Always? What are you saying Sfiso?
He get in bed and cover his head, why are we fighting, now
when we are a month away from getting married.
Me: Babe.
I shake him he turns and look at me.
Me: What else did I do that you didn't like?
Sfiso: Let me sleep babe, I have to wake up and go to work in
the morning.
At least he still calls me babe.
I sleep next to him and brush his abs down to his dick.
Sfiso: You can't fix everything with sex Langa.
I move my hand away from him and sleep facing the other
side.
The next morning I wake up first and go back to my room
and start in the bathroom then go back to sleep.
I hear him come in and go to the bathroom then come back.
Sfiso: I'm going to work, bye.
I don't even look his way, he walks out but come back in
again.
Sfiso: If it's gonna be like this then we might as well call this
thing off.
I sit up and look at him.
He is standing by the door wearing his black suit and white
shirt, no tie.
Me: I'm sorry ok, sorry for ignoring you when you tried to
talk to me yesterday.
He walk to bed and sit down.
Sfiso: Why you don't want me to pay Lobola for you.
Me: Because it makes me feel like you're saying that i'm a
woman in this relationship Sfiso.
He chuckle.
Sfiso: Why would I say you're a woman?do you have pussy
or you are flat out insulting my intelligence?
Me: No.
Sfiso: Langa I fell in love with you just the way you are,
muscles and all and I don't want you to change, because I
know I fell in love with a man, if I wanted to marry a woman
I would have went for it but it's you that I want. So if you feel
insulted that I wanted to merge our families by paying lobola
then i'm really sorry I didn't mean to upset you at all, it all
came from a good place.
He turns and walk out with his hand in his pocket.
Me: Aaaah! Fuck..
I scream, throwing my head in the pillow.
Me: What the fuck am I doing!?
I get up and go look for mom and I find her with Viwe in her
room, she is sitting on the floor i kiss her she smiles, this one
look like Pink but has dad's features here and there.
Me: Mama.
Ziyanda: Ja Langa wam.
Me: I think I messed up.
Ziyanda: Come sit next to me.
I get in next to her.
Ziyanda: Let's talk about it.
Me: So Sfiso wanted to pay lobola for me and I got upset and
acted like a bitch..
Mom stares at me.
Me: I'm sorry, it's just that i'm frustrated at myself.
Ziyanda: Why did you get upset.
Me: I thought that since it's a man to man marriage we will
skip all those parts, the negotiations, the gifts and everything
that is done when a woman get's married but now he wants
to pay the fucken Lobola for me I don't really get it.
Ziyanda: I'm sure he explained why but you didn't want to
hear him your mind was already telling you something he
didn't even say with his mouth.
I look at her like whaaaat! how can a person know another
person like that.
Me: Mom..
Ziyanda: Am I wrong?
Me: You're right Ziyanda Lukhele Mzozo.
Ziyanda: I know right Langelihle Mzozo Langa..
We both chuckle.
Ziyanda: Lobola is a special thing Langa and be grateful he
wants to do it, to me it sends a message of how much he
want you in his life, how much he want you to be his real
family.
Me: Ok bye Pink I have to go Thank you so much ok I love
you, you're the best mom ever.
Ziyanda: Thank you.
I rush out and get dressed and drive to his work, I pass my
uncle's offices and go straight to his and knock.
Sfiso: Come in.
I walk in and find him on the phone, I sit down and wait for
him to finish.
Sfiso: Hey.
Me: You can do it.
Sfiso: What..
Me: You can pay lobola for me, I had a talk with mom and
dad they opened my eyes, as usual, so yes baby you can do it.
Sfiso: Are you sure, look Langa I want us both to want this.
Me: I want it and thank you for choosing me to be your
husband.
Sfiso: Thank you.
He walks around table and sit on his desk infront of me, and
I unbuttle his belt and take out his dick.
He smiles looking at me, I put it in my mouth and start
sucking it.
Sfiso: Yes baby..yes I like it like that..fuck..shit.
I continue to suck him until he cums.
Me: I love you and I don't want to lose you.
I say as he fix his pants after wiping him with a tissue.
Sfiso: Thank you for that babe and we are definitely not
losing each other.
Me: I'm sorry for being rude.
Sfiso: It's ok, i'm so hungry but we still can't be seen walking
around.
Me: We will go with Uncle Mandisi.
Sfiso: Ok.
We ask uncle mandisi to take us to the restaurant.
Mandisi: You want me to take you to eat lunch then what will
I be , A candle? just sitting crying tears, burning up.
Me: Uhm What!? The candle cries?
Mandisi: It does and I don't want to suck thumbs while you
guys are all lovie dovie out there.
Luyolo: Just take my kids out Mandisi geez and less talking
you're annoying.
Mandisi: You are just angry because they asked me.
He drives us to and we sit on the table all three of us.
Sfiso: So Mandi I already talked to mom about paying lobola
for Langa my uncles agreed at home I was just waiting for a
go ahead, will you ask Langa's father for the date that will be
ok for you.
Mandisi: Luyolo still freaks the living shit out of you huh?
We laugh and Sfiso chuckle.
Sfiso: He is cool but man he is so intimidating.
Mandisi: It's ok we will set the date for you.
Sfiso: Can it be this weekend please.
Mandisi: Boy you mean business!!
He smiles.
After eating we drive back home.
*
It's the lobola day and Sfiso's uncles and Aunt are already
sitting in the dinning room, I'm sitting in the kitchen I want
to hear everything, and by just looking at aunt zenzile's
appearance I can tell it's about to go down, that's Sfiso's aunt
and she looks like a character.
Zenzile: Sanibona (greetings) we won't be taking much of
your time yabo (you see) abantwana bayathandana(the
children are in love) so we have to grant them their wish and
let them get married, uphi yena lo langelihle ekade sitshelwa
ngaye.(Where is that Langelihle we've heard so much about)
yhhee abantwana!(kids!).
Uncle1: Zenzile Shhh don't be so loud.
Zenzile: Ayenziwa ke leyonto phambi kwabantu basemzini
bhuti.(You don't do that infront of the in-laws brother)
I'm busy laughing alone in the kitchen Sfiso went home to
Harding her mother's home to ask his Uncles to come and
handle the negotiations but Aunt Zenzile didn't want to stay
behind so they came with her.
Zezile: So siyimisa kanjani ke le (So how do we do this)
Uncle1: We will do it like any other normal negotiations,
Mzozo please allow us to pay lobola for your son so he can
take his last name.
Luyolo: Our children love each other and they want us to be
family, so i'm giving you the go ahead, show me what you
got.
I hear a lot of laughter.
Zenzile: Yinhle ke yona lendoda.(This man is beautiful).
Uncle1: Zenzile!
I'm assuming she is saying that to dad.
More laughter erupts and i'm laughing too until mom comes
in and slap my head.
Ziyanda: What are you doing here?
Me: I'm listening to Sfiso's aunt Zenzile saying your husband
is beautiful.
Ziyanda: Well there is no lie in that, eavesdropping is a sin
Langa.
Me: Not when you're listening to your negotiations baby.
Ziyanda: Go away Langa we came here to dish up you know
they won't take long.
Miyalo and Granny Sphokazi comes in.
Uncle Mandisi comes in too and smile.
Mandisi: Where is the husband we want to see him.
He says laughing.
Mandisi: Come big head that loud aunt wants to see you.
Ziyanda: She can't be louder than you though.
Mandisi: I don't like you Ziyanda.
I chuckle and I walk in the dinning room.
Zenzile: Is this him? Ay he chose well, mmm Sifiso!!
Me: Sanibona.(greetings)
Uncle1: Langelihle uyaphila ndodana.(are you good son)
Me: i'm good how are you?
Uncle: We're fine too, nice to finally meet you.
Zenzile: Indoda ekhanyayo ngokwebala!(A man light in
colour!)
I laugh.
Uncle2: It's ok you can go we just wanted to meet you.
I shake their hands and go back to the ladies.
Ziyanda: Can we dish up for your in-laws hubby.
I smile and nod, this wasn't bad,they kept it very brief and
i'm happy with that.
They eat and we walk them out.
Zenzile: We will see you on your wedding day Langelihle,
take care of our son.
Me: I will Ma.
They drive out.
*
Later Sfiso comes in and I hug him very tight I haven't seen
him in two days and I was so miserable. He was at home
with his family.
Me: I missed you so much babe.
Sfiso: I missed you too, you are my husband now huh.
Me: Yes you are my husband.
We chuckle.
Sfiso: Thank you, you have done so much for me Langa and
i'm grateful, I want you to come with me outside.
He takes my hand and we walk outside.
I widen my eyes when I see two new cars with red ribbons ,
same model, latest, blue in colour one personalized LANGA
and the other one SFISO.
Me: What is going on?
Sfiso: This is for you sthandwa sam (my love) for us, this is
all you, I couldn't have done it without you, I wouldn't be
here if you were not in my life, ngiyabonga Langa (Thank
you Langa).
He clicks one key and I see the lights on the car personilized
LANGA flashing and he gives me the key.
I take the key but i'm still standing in the same spot.
I look behind me my family is standing there cheering.
I look at Sfiso he is smiling with tears in his eyes, mine are
flowing as well.
Me: I can't believe th..
I squart down and wipe my face.
Me: Sfiso..
He squart in front of me.
Sfiso: I'm here baby.
Me: Damn!!
We get up and I hug him for dear life, I still cannot believe
what is in front of me.
Sfiso: You have love for fast cars so this is it baby.
Me: Thank you so much...this is..I don't have words to
describe how much this means to me, thank you so much
Sfiso.
I hug him again and kiss him, I hear a lot of clapping I pull
away I totally forgot about them behind us.
Sfiso: Wanna test drive?
Me: Of course I do that is one awesome car, thank you
sthandwa sam (my love) ngiyabonga Langa (thank you
Langa).

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
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I must have fell asleep next to my kids, now they are not
here.
I get up and go freshen up then go eat dinner with my family,
I find them sitting next to Nkanyezi and Miyah.
Me: Hello everyone.
Ziyanda: Hey.
Me: Nqoba are you ok buddy?
He just keep his head down, I look at Manqoba he is focusing
on his food.
Langa: Hey Nqoba why are you ignoring your father?
Nqoba: Sorry..
He says still looking down, I'm hurt.
Ziyanda: Did you do something to them Ntsika, they seem
angry at you?
I shake my head and get up, I go to my room and wear a
jacket and take my car keys then walk out.
Nkanyezi: "Is everything ok?"
I nod and walk out, I drive around for a while then stop at
Lathi's home, i've tried looking for her here but didn't find
her now here I am again.
I huff and step out of the car and walk in, I knock on the door
and her father opens and look at me in anger.
Lathi'sDad: What are you doing in my house boy?
Me: Hello Sir I know that you guys said you don't know
where Lathi is all i'm asking is the address to her
grandmother's place.
Lathi'sDad: She is not there, I wasn't gonna allow her to go to
my mother's house after she disrespected us like that.
Me: I hear you but please give an address.
Lathi'sDad: Leave my house!
Me: Please sir, I will never bother you again please just give
me her grandma's address.
He walks in and come back with a piece of paper.
Me: Thank you so much.
Lathi'sDad: Now leave..
I turn and walk back to my car.
I look at the address and check the location on my phone this
place is approximately 2hours and 30 minutes drive it's
already late so I will have to go there tomorrow.
I drive back home and go to my kids's room, I find them
sitting in Nqoba's bed and it looks like they are comforting
each other.
When I get close I can see they are both crying.
I grab a chair and sit in front of them.
Me: Hey.
They look at me.
Me: Why are you guys crying?
Manqoba: uphi uMa wethu baba?(Where is our mother dad)
I sigh.
Me: She is not here, but I'm here and I love you so much,
come here.
They get off bed and they sit on my lap.
Me: You guys want Auntie Miyah to fetch you from school
like how Khosi's mom do?
Nqoba: We want our mom.
Me: I will find her, but now can I ask Miyah?
Manqoba: Uyeza Ntsika?( she is coming Ntsika?)
He ask and their faces lit up, I feel a lump in my throat.
Me: Yes..yes she is.
They hug me, they look so excited while I feel like crying.
I wipe their tears.
Nqoba: We will sleep with you, come Manqoba.
The get up and walk to my room happily.
They get in bed and start counting things that they want
their mom to bring.
I feel tears rolling down the corner of my eyes as i'm facing
up listening to them next to me, where will I find Lathi?
They fall asleep and I kiss their cheeks.
My phone rings it's Ntsoaki, I clear my voice before
answering.
Me: Hello.
My voice is a bit shaky.
Ntsoaki: Hey I wanted to ask how are the kids?
Me: They are fine now.
Ntsoaki: Ok that's good.
Silence.
Ntsoaki: Uhm goodnight then.
Me: Sure.
Ntsoaki: Are you ok Ntsika?
Me: Yeah I'm fine, goodnight, I love you.
Ntsoaki: Ok.
She drops the call, she must have thought i'm being cold.
I call he back.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika.
Me: Look i'm sorry, it's just that my kids have started asking
their mom and they are so young I don't know what to tell
them, and I don't think they will understand when I tell them
she left and I don't want them to hate her also.
Ntsoaki: So what are you going to do because they might
hate you.
Me: I will look for her.
Ntsoaki: Ok..
I huff.
Me: Bye.
She doesn't reply.
Me: Ntsoaki..
Ntsoaki: Yeah.
Me: I love you.
Ntsoaki: I love you too.
I drop the call and sleep. Next morning I wake up and take a
bath then bath my kids we go eat breakfast.
Me: Morning.
Ziyanda: Oh you guys get along today.
She says smiling.
Me: Miyah uhm can you please fetch the kids for me from
creche for this week please, you can use my car, I will use
Langa's old car.
Miyalo: uhm yeah sure..
Me: Thank you.
Langa: What's up?
Me: I have to go somewhere.
Langa: Ok the car keys are in my room.
Me: Ok.
We continue eating and I get ready for my trip.
I drop the kids at creche and drive to the garage and fill up
the tank then drive to Lathi's grandma's house.
*
I have been driving for 2hours and 10minutes now none
stop, I get to a gravel road and drive for over 20 minutes I
stop at a house that has two rondavels and a big house like it
was written on paper, he did specify the place.
I step out after wearing my glasses because my vision is a bit
blurry because of sunlight.
I walk in on the gate and knock on the from door and a girl
12 years of age opens the door.
Me: Hello bakhona abantu abadala?(are old people around?)
Girl: Ukhona ugogo ngena.(grandma is around come in.)
I walk in and sit down on a couch.opposite the old woman
which I assume is Lathi's grandma.
Me: Sanibonani (Greetings)
Grandma: Yebo.
Me: I don't if i'm at the right place, are you Lathitha's
grandma?
Grandma: Yes, are you the boy that broke her marriage and
cohabited with her.
Me: It wasn't like that, we started dating befor she got
married.
Grandma: You still went after her when she was married.
Me: She was pregnant with my kids Ma. Uhm do you know
where I can find her, any relatives you can think off.
Grandma: No, but if you find her bring her back home, you
had no business staying with her without making her your
wife.
Me: Ok i'm sorry, is her ex husband still staying in PMB?
Grandma: No, he got arrested last year for abusing his
girlfriend.
Me: And that was what he was doing to Lathitha yet you
didn't do anything to stop him.
Grandma: Phuma ke manje usuyadelela.(Get out now, you're
being rude.)
I get up and walk out and look for the little girl around and
find her.
Me: Hey.
Girl: Hello.
Me: When was the last time you saw Lathi?
Girl: It was before she got married to bhuti Vuyo.
I nod.
Me: Ok thanks.
I get in the car and take off my glasses wiping my eyes.
I drive around this place hoping to see her.
I drive back to Durban, it's late I park in the driveway at
home but sit on the car and not walk in.
After a long time just sitting there I see lights flashing behind
me, it's Langa, I drive in and step out, he is with Sfiso.
Langa: Did you just take a nap on your car?
Me: I'm just tired I had a long day, where are you coming
from?
Langa: We just went for a drive around the neighbourhood.
Me:Oh ok.
Langa: Yeah.
They walk in and I follow shortly.
When I get in my kids get up and rush to me, they hug me.
Nqoba: Ntsika ubuyile, ubuye noMa neh.(Ntsika you're back,
you came back with mom neh)
Everyone looks at me.
Manqoba: Usemotweni yakho?(is she in your car?)
I shake my head.
Langa: Ntsika..
Nqoba: Uthe uzobuya naye.(you said you will come back
with her.)
He start tearing up and step away from me.
Me: Nqoba..
He shakes his head and run to his room. Manqoba walks
away too.
I'm deafeted, I shouldn't have promised to come back with
her.
Ziyanda: You promised to come back with their mom.
I nod.
Ziyanda: Why Ntsika, do you know where she is?
Me: I don't know mom, the reason why they were angry at
me yesterday was because they asked about their mom and I
couldn't answer.
Ziyanda: Ntsika...
Me: I had a long drive to her grandma's house hoping to at
keast find her there, I asked about her ex husband, I don't
know where else to look now ok I don't know..
I walk out and get in my car and drive out.
We have reported to the police but it was pointless because
she did leave a letter stating she is leaving so she left on her
own free will not missing.
I find myself parking at the lodge where I broke her virginity,
I chuckle, this is where we made our kids.
I get in the lodge, this is crazy I know she wasn't going to
stay at the lodge for a whole year but i'm desperate here.
Me: Evening.
Receptionist: Hello Sir.
Me: I am looking for a person by a name Lathitha.
Receptionist: Never heard of that name before but even if I
did we can't tell anyone about our guests for safety reasons,
but no one signed up by that name here.
Me: Ok Thank you.
I walk back to my car and drive to Ntsoaki's flat and call her.
Me: I'm at the gate.
I drop the call and lay my head on the steering wheel, tears
gush out of my eyes.
A hear a passenger door opening and I wipe my face with a t-
shirt and sit back on the seat and look up.
Ntsoaki: Are you ok?
I exhale.
Me: No..
Ntsoaki: Your kids?
I nod.
Ntsoaki: You weren't able to find their mom?
Me: I couldn't find her.
Ntsoaki: I'm sorry.
Me: Tomorrow i'm going to Johannesburg, thst's the place
she wanted to go to but she didn't have money to go there
but I have to try.
Ntsoaki: Look don't take this the wrong way i'm not trying to
stop you, but Ntsika Joburg is a huge city where will you
even start?
Me: I don't know ok, but I have to go.
Ntsoaki: Ok. Uhm safe journey then.
Her voice is shaky.
Me: I will come back.
She nods.
Ntsoaki: Let me get in I left the kids sleeping.
Me: Let me walk you in.
We walk in.
Me: Where are they?
Ntsoaki: Their room.
I nod.
I kiss her passionately.
Me: Can we go to your room?
She nods. We start taking off our clothes.
Me: Do you have condoms?
She takes them in her drawer and give them to me I put it on
and get ontop of her, I make love to her moving slowly and
she is holding me tight. Today her moans are different and
low,or maybe it's because the kids are around.
We both cum and sleep next to her, I hear her sniffing, I turn
and pull her to my chest, she start sobbing.
Me: What's wrong baby talk to me..
Ntsoaki: What will happen between us when you find her
Ntsika? You still love her.
Me: I love you.
She push me from her and get up.
Ntsoaki: Don't lie to me, you're here with me to ease your
pain, you are using me!
Me: That's not true.
Ntsoaki: Get dressed Ntsika and go.
Me: Babe listen to me, i'm doing this for my kids I promise.
Ntsoaki: Go..
Me: Ntsoaki baby come on, I'm not lying when I say I love
you, I wouldn't even dream of lying about something like
that to a woman, please believe me.
She sit in bed and cover her face with her hands.
Me: Don't cry, I will come back baby.
I pull her to me and hug her tight, she falls asleep, I check the
time it's around 9 at night, I check for the available bus ticket
to johannesburg and find one that leaves at 7 am.
I text Alex our friend from School we kept contact on these
social networks.
Me: *Hello Alex bro.*
Alex: *Pillar long time I don't even see you on any Social
network these days.*
Me: *Yeah been hectic months, are you still in Jozi?*
Alex: *Yes Springs bro.*
Me: *Can I crash at your place, I'm taking the bus to Jozi at 7
in the morning.*
Alex: *No problem i'm your guy you'll let me know ok.*
Me: *Thanks bro.*
I breathe out and shake Nstoaki a little.
Ntsoaki: Mmm..
She opens her eyes and close her eyes, I get on top of her.
Me: Open your eyes baby, I have to go now.
She keep them closed, I take the condom and put it on then
put my dick in her, she move her hands to my butt and push
towards her.
Me: Fuck..
Ntsoaki:Tell me if you won't come back to me Ntsika..
She move her hands in my back and her nails dig on my
flesh.
I get up and put both her legs on my shoulders and hold her
hips, I'm sweating she is hot!
Ntsoaki: Aaah..tell me now Ntsika.
I go in deep, faster.
Me: I will come back baby, shit..
My dick twitches I throw my head back as I fill the condom
with cum.
I pull her up and hug her tight.
Me: I will come back..
Ntsoaki: Ok..
I kiss her and get dressed, she is just looking at me.
Me: You're walking me out?
She get up and wrap a towel around her body and we walk
out, i get in the car and drive put.
Me: Go, I will park here until i'm sure you're in.
She nod and go back inside.
I drive home and pack my bag.
In the morning I wake up earlier than anyone then call a cab
to the Bus Station, I wait there until it's 7 then get in the bus.
I text Alex telling him I just got on the bus.
I really hope I will find the mother of my kids.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
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I'm in Jozi, it's early in the morning and it's freezing cold,
Alex is driving to his place.
Me: Thank you man, this place is cold.
He nods, he stops at a huge house and the gate opens and
drive in.
We step out of the car and walk in, and I follow him to one of
the rooms.
Alex: "This is the room you're going to use."
Me: "Thank you."
I sit in bed and put my bag down,he sit down too.
Alex: "What brings you here brother because I can see this is
not just a visit."
Me: "I'm looking for the mother of my kids, she left last year
now my kids have started asking questions."
Alex: "Do you know which part of Jozi we are looking at?"
I huff.
Me: "No, I'm not even sure if she's here, i'm just hoping
because she once mentioned Johannesburg."
Alex: "That's going to be hard bro this City is huge."
Yeah that's what Ntsoaki said.
Me: "Please help me I can't go back home and keep seeing
the disappointment in my kids's faces.
Alex: "It's hard but we will try, let me go prepare something
for you to eat then you can rest a bit."
Me: "Thank you bro."
Alex: "There's the bathroom in there you can use it, this will
be your room here."
I nod, he walks out and I take off my clothes then go take a
shower,I step out once i'm done and wear my boxers and a
vest.
Alex comes in minutes later with food and juice he gives it to
me. I chuckle.
Me: "Breakfast in bed thank you baby."
He shows me his middle finger and smile.
Alex: "Where is Nkanyezi? I was so proud when I saw him on
TV the first time, I told everyone here at home that we were
roommates fuckers didn't believe me except mom."
I laugh.
Me: "He is at home."
Alex: "And that hot queen who is always by his side, the girl
is flames."
I chuckle.
Me: "They are always together man."
Alex: "Let me leave you to eat then nap, I will check on you
later."
I nod and he walks out.
I finish eating then put the plates on the dressing table then
take my phone and go to bed.
I find missed calls from dad, mom and my brothers and
uncles infact everyone at home then some from Ntsoaki.
I call mom.
Ziyanda: Ntsika!where are you we've been trying to call
you."
Me: I'm fine mom.
Ziyanda: Where are you Ntsika?
Me: In Johannesburg.
Ziyanda: What! Who do you know there?
Me: I'm at Alex's home.
Ziyanda: Why are you there Ntsika?
Me: I'm searching for Lathitha mama.
Ziyanda: Baby it's clear that Lathi doesn't want to be found
it's been a year!
Me: Mom i'm doing this for my kids ok, they want her, what
am I supposed to do?
Ziyanda: You should have told us.
Me: It doesn't matter mom i'm here now, tell everyone that
i'm fine and Safe.
Ziyanda: Where will you even start?
Me: I don't know, I'll see, how are they?
Ziyanda: They were asking for you yesterday and this
morning, you didn't even say goodbye.
Me: If I fail then I will watch my kids hate me for not bringing
back their mom.
Ziyanda: We will try to make them understand baby ok, be
safe, I love you NtsikaYam.
Me: I love you too.
I drop the call and dial Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Hey.
Me: Babe i'm sorry I missed your call maybe I was sleeping
in the bus.
Ntsoaki: It's ok, uhm did you arrive safe?
Me: Yes i'm at a friend's house now, i'm about to take a nap.
Ntsoaki: Ok goodluck I hope you find her.
Me: Thank you, you're going to work?
Ntsoaki: Yes i'm getting in the car now and dropping off
Khosi first.
Me: Tell him to say Hi to my kids for me.
Ntsoaki: Ok bye.
I drop the call and sleep thinking about where I will even
start looking for Lathi.
*
I wake up and check the time it's 20:00pm. I go look for Alex
and find him with his mom, when she sees me she stands up
and rush to me.
Alex'sMom: Hey Nkanyezi how are you?
Alex rolls his eyes, I smile.
Me: I am Ntsika, Nkanyezi is my twin brother.
Alex'smom: Oh my God! i'm so sorry, you're one person
anyway, welcome, feel at home ok.
Me: Thank you ma'am.
Alex'sMom: Let's move on the table and eat.
We start eating then we go back to my room.
Me: "So where do you think we should start I don't know
places around here I last came here when I was 17 with my
family."
Alex: "I think the mall is better, maybe ask around do you
have her picture?"
Me: "I do on my phone."
Alex: We will print it and ask around using it."
Me: "I will try anything man just to find her."
Alex: "You love her."
Me: "She is the mother of my kids , I do love her."
Alex: "Ok so tomorrow morning we will start goodnight."
Me: "Goodnight."
A video call comes through it's Miyah.
Me: Hello Miyah.
Miyalo: Brother, here are the boys, they want to talk to you.
Nqoba appears on the screen first then Manqoba next to him,
they have tears in their eyes.
Nqoba: Ntsika, buya phela.(come back).
Me: ngizobuya.(I will come back)
Manqoba is just looking at me and wipe his tears.
Me: Stop crying I will come back Ok.
Manqoba: Ok dad, syakthanda thina.(We love you)
Me: I love you too buddy, both of you, nilale kahle.(sleep
well)
Nqoba: Solala noAunt Miyah.(we are going to sleep with
Miyah.)
Me: Ok.
Miyah appears on the screen again.
Me: Thank you so much Miyah.
Miyalo: They are wonderful boys I love them, we are
ditching Nkanyezi today he will sleep alone.
I chuckle.
Me: I appreciate what you have been doing so much.
Miyalo: Goodnight StarPillar.
I chuckle and drop the call.
I sleep, In the morning I check the time ,it's 6:30 am I wake
up and take a bath then get dressed.
I call mom.
Ziyanda: Hey baby.
Me: Hey mom are they awake yet?
Ziyanda: Yes they are with Miyah taking a bath.
Me: Ok is everything ok there?
Ziyanda: Yes everything is fine just do what you have to do
ok.
Me: Ok mama.
I hear a knock and Alex comes in.
Alex: "Hey man I thought you are still sleeping."
Me: "No, i'm ready to do this."
We eat then start at the nearby mall and stand by the
entrance showing people Lathi's picture asking them if they
haven't seen her and so far no one has ever seen her, some
think we're just lunatics, we're like a bunch of crazies who
are just harassing people at the mall.
The security comes to us and chase us away because he
think we are trying to rob people.
We go back to the car and I sigh looking up, I never imagined
that one day it would come to this, me running around the
mall with a picture of Lathi in my hand but it's life, it is
unpredictable.
Alex: "Let's go try at some other shopping centre."
He drives there and we start doing what we have been doing
the whole day, asking people if they had seen Lathi, we are
tired.
Me:"I'm sorry man for doing this to you,you must be tired it's
been a long day."
Alex: "it's ok, you saved my life in school when there was a
bomb in your room, someone else was gonna grab their
sibling and leave me there but you grabbed me and your
brother out, you are a brother to me Pillar always and
forever."
I smile.
Me: "Thank you so much, let's go home, we will try again
tomorrow."
Alex:"let's go."
We get home and freshen up, eat and go to bed.
*
6am i'm already up taking a shower then go wake alex up
and I find him already awake.
Alex: "Come in, pick warm clothes it's cold today."
I take his jacket and gloves since I didn't bring mine, Durban
is hot.
We go to another mall today and we ask around. I go to a
security and greet.
Me: Sir please don't be alarmed when you see us stopping
people here we are not criminals, I'm just looking for the
mother of my kids, I have a picture of her so i'm asking
people around if they've seen her.
Security: You're so polite, do what you have to do son it's ok,
let me see the picture.
He looks at it then shake his head.
Security: Have never seen this face before.
Me: Ok thank you sir.
I go back to Alex, we just stand there, we are tired and it's so
cold.
I see a security taking quick steps towards us.
Security: Boy can I see that picture again.
I show it to him.
Security: I think that's her.
I look at where he is pointing and rush there, I stand in front
of her, she is with a guy he looks familiar they are holding
hands.
Me: Lathitha.
She looks startled, she looks at the guy next to her.
Lathi: Senzo let's go.
Now this feels like dejavu, I remember the guy now, they
were classmates when she was doing grade 10 and she once
posted a picture of them together.
I grab her free hand and she just look at it causing me to let
go.
Senzo: Stop doing that man, I might have let you have her
before but now i'm old she's mine now.
Me: Lathi the kids need you.
Lathi: I told you I never wanted to be a mother, i was robbed
of a childhood, I got married then I had kids when I was
supposed to be a teen and be free.
Me: Let me help you, your sist..
Lathi: I know what Lazola did but Senzo helped me remove
all the potion she fed me i'm perfectly fine.
I take out my phone and open the recent picture of the twins
and I show it to her.
Me: Look at how grown they are.
Lathi: I see but still they are fine with you.
Me: They have been asking about you Lathi let's go home.
Lathi: My home is here now with Senzo and he has his own
money not waiting for an allowance from mommy.
Me: Oh.
Oh wow that's some shade.
Me: Ok you will come back let's just go and you will see them
for at least a day Lathi.
She shakes her head and then take a few steps.
I kneel down.
Me: Please Lathitha i'm on my knees just come home with
me to see our kids, please.
They walk inside the mall leaving me kneeling outside, I feel
hands on my shoulders.
Security : come on boy get up ok, be strong, get up.
I get up and wipe my tears Alex is squeezing my shoulder.
Alex: "What do you want us to do?"
Me: Let's w..
I see them walking out and they come straight to me.
Lathi: You did me a huge favour by coming here saved me
the trouble, follow us with your car.
They get in their car, and alex and I get in his car and we
drive closely behind them and get to a beautiful
neighbourhood it looks like where rich people live.
We stop behind them and they step out and Lathi comes to
my window.
Lathi: Wait here i'm coming.
They both walk inside and Lathi comes back holding a baby,
i'm so confused.
She stand in my window again.
Lathi: Here take the baby.
I open the door and take the baby in my hands, she looks like
she is 5-6 months around there.
Lathi: Here is her Clinic card and birth certificate.
I take all of it.
Lathi: Bye.
She turns.
Me: Lathitha.
She looks at me.
Me: I'm sorry for what I said to you I was hurt, I went to the
hospital that day hoping to apologise and fix things but you
were not there.
Lathi: You're too late Ntsika i'm happy here, with someone
my age.
Me: This is my baby?
Lathi: Yes, that's what you do, get me pregnant.
Me: I didn't mean to.
The baby starts crying i look at Lathi but she look away.
Me: Does she have a bottle?
Lathi: I will get it for you.
She walk back inside, I hush the baby but she is just crying
her lungs out maybe she is feeling cold, she is not wearing
warm clothes or have a blanket covering her.
Lathi comes back with a bottle with milk.
Lathi: Go Ntsika.
Me: I think she is feeling cold.
Lathi: See, you know about kids you will be fine, I'm in
matric now and she is a distraction I don't need right now.
I nod.
Me: I'm sorry. What do I tell the kids?
Lathi: Anything, your family have money Ntsika buy them
something they will forget about me.
Me: You want them to forget about you?
Lathi: Better that way, sorry i'm not ready to be a mom
please understand I want a bright future for myself.
Me: Ok.
Lathi: Bye.
I watch her as she walks away, she is still beautiful and has
grown too.
I get back in the car the baby is still crying, I lay her next to
me and take off the jacket and cover her with it and lay her
on my chest.
Alex starts the car and drive.
Me: Go back to that mall we were at earlier.
He nods and drive there, I give my little girl a bottle and she
sucks on it for dear life. She is hairy, lots of hair and she is
falling asleep, she is really mine.
We stop at the mall and alex look at me.
Me: "I need to buy a few things for her, can I get in quick."
He thumbs up, I lay her in the seat and step out and start at
the security.
Me: Thank you so much for what you have done for me Sir.
Security: Oh it was nothing, did it go well?
Me: Well not as I was hoping, but I mean at least I got
something special.
Security: That's good I guess.
I take out R200 note and give it to him.
Me: Buy a bread for the kids thank you.
Security: Ngiyabonga mfana wami(thank you my boy.)
I rush inside and get in the first store I can find and take
whatever I can find that is Pink and tiny written 6 months
anything and blankets too and milk and bottles.
Then go pay if I made a mistake well I will see it at home.
I rush out and get in the car and drive back to Alex's home
and get inside i walk to my room holding her in my arms
Alex is carrying plastic bags.
I lay her in bed and huff sitting down.
Alex: "Mom is not around what are we going to do with the
baby."
Me: "I know everything there is to know about the baby."
Alex: "I'm sorry for what happened today man."
Me: it's ok, I found something more precious.
Alex: Let me go get food.
I nod and take out milk and bottles and go to the kitchen to
make warm milk for her, and I go search for a dish and find it
in the laundry room.
I pour warm water and take off the clothes she was wearing
and put her in water, she starts wailing so loud.
Me: i'm sorry baby, daddy is here now ok i'm here.
I take her out and look for the clothes i bought most of them
are small because I was buying in a rush.
I put her nappy and make her wear the clothes that fit then
give her a bottle, I put her in bed and clear everything up.
Then sleep facing up and put her on my chest.
My phone rings and I answer.
Ntsoaki: Hey Ntsika, did you find her?
Me: Yes..
Silence.
Ntsoaki: Ok good..uhm bye
She drops the call, another call comes through, they sure call
a lot.
Me: Mama.
Ziyanda: The kids want you Ntsika when are you coming
home.
Me: I will ask alex to book the flight for tomorrow for me.
Ziyanda: Ok, Ntsika are you okay.
Me: I will be fine mom.
I tried, God knows I tried.
*
I'm at the airport waiting for uncle China to pick me up i'm
back with my baby girl.
I see his car parking and i go and open the back and get in.
China: Pillar.
Me: Uncle how are you?
China: I'm great, who's kid is that?
Me: Mine, I found out about her yesterday.
China: You're joking right?
I shake my head.
China: we will talk at home boy you look tired.
He drives home and I step out of the car with a baby in my
arms and he takes the bags and we walk in everyone is here.
Nqoba: Ubaba wethu Manqoba. ( our dad Manqoba)
They both rush to me and hug my legs.
My baby girl is awake and she sure looks like my boys just
preetier, she is looking around.
Ziyanda: Uhm the baby Ntsika?
Me: She is mine.
Ziyanda: from where?
Me: Lathitha gave her to me.
Ziyanda: You found her?
Me: I did but she wants nothing to do with them so yeah I
still have alot of explaining to do, I just hope they won't hate
me.
Miyalo: Wow, and some people are dying to have a baby and
she just...
She stand up and walk away.
Life.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
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NTSIKA
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I'm with my family and my boys are sitting right in front of
me, I have to explain to them where their mom is, I look at
my brothers who are sitting on my either sides, they nod.
Nqoba: Ntsika you look sad.
I try to smile.
Me: I'm not sad, did you see that I came back with your little
sister.
Nqoba: She has big eyes.
I chuckle, she do, she has her mother's eyes with those long
eyelashes.
Me: So uhm your mom gave her to me so she can stay with
you guys.
I'm trying to drag this conversation and the more I do this
the more my heart aches.
Manqoba: Uyeza naye uMa?(Is mom coming too?)
I shake my head.
Me: No..she can't come, she is going to school.
Manqoba: Oh.
Me: You understand right?
Manqoba: She won't visit us?
Me: I.
I huff.
Me: I can't do this..
I get up and walk out, I go sit at the back and rest my head on
my thighs, my hands on my head.
Langa: Ntsika..
I don't answer.
Langa: You tried brother, don't do this to yourself.
I wipe my tears and Nkanyezi squart in front of me.
Nkanyezi: "If you are like this, we all feel it Ntsika you're a
pillar if you shake then we become affected."
Langa: Tell them the truth now don't wait for them until they
are old you saw what happened to us when we found out the
truth later, it almost destroyed us, so don't make that
mistake with them.
I nod and get up, I walk inside with them following behind
me.
I find them crying in Miyah and Mom's lap.
Me: Nqoba..
The both raise their heads up and look at me.
Me: Come here.
They sit on my lap.
Me: Your mom doesn't want to be here guys.
Manqoba: so asizuphinde simbone?(so we will never see
her?)
Me: Angazi but akathandi ukuza la.(I don't know but she
doesn't like coming here.)
Nqoba: Akasithandi njengawe?(she doesn't love us like you
do?)
Me: I think she do but just doesn't see it yet.
Manqoba: Akasithandi Nqoba.( she doesn't love us Nqoba)
His lower lip starts shaking.
Me: Ngiyaxolisa.(i'm sorry.)
I look at mom with tears in my eyes.
Dad get up and take Nqoba.
Luyolo: You have all of us, and we love you, there is Grandma
and Auntie Miyah you can call them mom ok boy?
He nods.
Luyolo: You too Manqoba even Grandma Mbali and Sunny,
you can still call them mom, is that ok?
They nod.
The baby starts crying and I go take her and come back with
her.
Ziyanda: You didn't tell us her name Ntsika.
Me: Ntandokazi ya Ntsika.
Ziyanda: Is that the name on the birth certificate?
Me: No I didn't even look at that certificate, I am changing
whatever name Lathitha named her with.
Miyalo: Can I hold her, she is so pretty, come to Auntie Miyah
baby, we will look cute together you and I ok, yes we will.
Nkanyezi: "Who told this one she look cute?"
Miyalo: Don't start with me Star.
I smile.
I go to my room with Ntando and she sleep next to me.
Me: I know we just met but I love you and I will try to talk to
your mom again, I just want her to give you guys a chance
she is gonna love you, you're so precious, Goodnight.
The boys come in and get in my bed.
Me: We can't sleep in this bed all four of us.
Manqoba: Asizulala la sifuna ukucabuza ingane.(We won't
sleep here we want to kiss the baby.)
Me: Nizoyivusa nje.( you will wake her up.
Nqoba: Angeke Ntsika.(we won't Ntsika.
Me: Ok.
They kiss her cheek and look at her smiling.
Nqoba: Muhle lo.(She is beautiful.)
Me: I know just like you guys.
They smile and jump out of bed walking out.
I wake up and night when I hear her crying, I get up and give
her a bottle then she falls back to sleep, this girl likes eating.
We sleep throughout the night, she is sleeping closer to my
chest, daddy's princess.
In the morning mom comes in and sit in bed.
Ziyanda: Nilale kahle?(you slept well?)
Me: Yes we did she only woke up once.
Ziyanda: Good, so your studies?
Me: I will continue if that's ok with you.
Ziyanda: I'm going back to work full time next month, I will
hire a nanny for both her and Viwe.
Me: Thank you.
I chuckle
Ziyanda: What's on your mind?
Me: Lathitha embarrassed me in front of her boyfriend said
that he has his own money he doesn't wait for allowance
from mommy ,she was low key throwing shade at me.
Ziyanda: That is the money your grandma left for you and I
bought shares with it at Lukhele properties, so that is your
salary don't be ashamed of spending it baby.
Me: Yeees Queen!
We both laugh.
Ziyanda: I love seeing you smile, laughing, it warms my
heart, after everything you are still a Piller.
Me: Is the family that surrounds me that makes me who I am,
yiu guys are a blessing to me the support you have given me
is incredible thank you.
Ziyanda: That's what this family is all about Ntsika, let me
know when she wakes up so I will bath her grandma's little
girl.
Me: Ok thank you.
I go back to sleep and wake up when princess is crying.
Me: Hey baby, daddy is awake no need to cry anymore.
I get up with her and go give her to grandma then buy online
a return air ticket flight to Jozi which will leave an hour from
now then will come back later today, one last try.
I wait for my kids in the car and they come out running I take
them to creche, I see Ntsoaki's car parking behind mine and
she step out with Khosi.
Nqoba: There is Khosi and his mom, I want to be like him
one day dad.
I nod and walk in with, I get in and Ntsoaki looks at me and
quickly rush out, I sign my kids up.
Me: Miyah will fetch again dad will be back later ok.
Manqoba: Bring lot's of sweets.
Me:I will sure.
I quickly walk out and find Ntsoaki already in her car, I
knock on the driver's window she rolls it down.
Me: Hi.
Ntsoaki: Hello Ntsika
Me: If you have time can we go grab a coffee a quick one
please.
Ntsoaki: Ok drive behind me.
We drive all the way to where she usually eat her lunch and
take a seat after ordering coffee.
Ntsoaki: When did you come back?
Me: Yesterday.
Ntsoaki: Ok.
She is not making eye contact, I move ny hand and touch
hers.
Me: You're not okay.
Ntsoaki: So uhm is she back, are the kids happy?
She ask staring deep in my eyes searching for my soul, I get
lost in those pretty brown eyes and look down.
Me: She didn't want to come back.
Ntsoaki: But you said you found her.
Me: I did, she just gave me my baby girl, I didn't know she
was pregnant when she left.
Ntsoaki: Oh you have another baby with her, how old is she?
Me: 6 months, iNtandokazi yaNtsika.
She looks at me with a smile.
Ntsoaki: Your face lit up when you said her name.
Me: I didn't expect to find her but i'm grateful for that
princess.
Ntsoaki: I'm happy for you.
Me:So uhm I'm going back, my flight leaves in an hour but
i'm coming back later.
Ntsoaki: You are going back where?
Me: Jozi I want to try talking to her for the last time.
She nod and get up, she fix her skirt and walk out.
I pay and follow her, she is rushing to her car.
Me: Ntsoaki! Stop.
I grab her arm and she reflex trying to stop me from
grabbing her arm and it hits my face my glasses fall on the
ground.
Ntsoaki: I'm so sorry I didn't mean to do that it was just a
reflex.
She quickly take the glasses and wipe them in her white
shirt.
Ntsoaki: I'm sorry..
Me: it's okay.
Ntsoaki: Bye Ntsika and stop hiding behind "I'm doing this
for my kids" this is for yourself too, you love her and you
want her to come back for you, so leave me alone!
She tries to shout but her voice doesn't let her it's low and
hoarse naturally.
She get in her and drive off, is it possible that she is right that
i'm trying to hide that I want her back in my life, but I do
have feelings for Ntsoaki and they are growing each day, but
there is Lathitha the woman who gave me kids, it's hard to
let go.
I drive to the airport and park the car and pay for the
parking since i'm leaving it here.
I board a flight, all the way to johannesburg I call Alex he
fetch me and go straight to where we last saw Lathi.
Alex: "So you came back."
Me: "I'm giving it one last try sir if it doesn't work out then
i'm leaving for good."
I see her walking around the yard with the phone in her ear,
I step out of the car and call out her name, She stops and
quickly rush to the gate where i'm standing.
Lathi: What the fuck are doing back here again there's
nothing for you here.
Me: Is that how you talk to me now Lathitha?
Lathi: Leave me alone!
Me: I came to beg you one last time to please do not abandon
the kids.
Lathi: Giving the kids to their father is not abandoning them
Ntsika,use common sense.
Oh wow
Me: When did you become this rude?
Lathi: When I realised that i have been too innocent and that
makes people walk all over you.
Me: Just like what you're doing right now huh?
She shrug.
Me: Can I hug you?
Lathi: No..
Me: Please just to say goodbye.
Lathi: And you won't ever come back here again?
Me: I won't.
She opens the gate and stand infront of me.
Me: You're still beautiful.
She attempt to walk back in.
Me: I'm sorry..
She turns and stare at me,I step closer to her. If it was before
she would be blushing right now.
Me: I know I did you wrong please forgive me mama
wezingane zami.(mother of my kids.)
Lathi: Ntsika I want to go I have somewhere to be.
I hold her closer to my chest my she doesn't hug me back.
Me: I'm begging you baby, just give me a chance to prove
myself to you, I will do anything.
She push me back.
Lathi: I was young and naive I saw a car and I fell in love or
so I thought, fell pregnant your family took care of me, this is
me Ntsika i'm grown now, I make my own decisions for once
in my life.
Me: But you are abusing it.
Lathi:What?
Me: You heard me, your decisions are ludicrous.
She slap me.
Lathi: Are you calling me crazy? Are you?
I chuckle.
Me: You are, when some one think that the only thing that
raise a baby is money then that person is crazy, and that's
you.
She tries to slap me again but I catch her small hand.
Me:The reason I came back again was because I loved
Lathitha and this, this is not her and I respect myself enough
to walk away now and never look back, I can't be running
after a stranger anymore, i'm done, enjoy your life baby.
She roughly pull her hand away from my grip and walk in.
Lathi: Stay out of my life Ntsika!weak ass!
She shouts walking away and I go to Alex.
Me: Let's go grab something to eat i'm hungry, my flight
leaves later.
We drive to the mall and i'm happy to see that Security
again, I go to him with a smile and shake his hand.
Security: usubuyile.(you're back)
Me: Yes but now it's different I am at peace with everything.
Security: Aw siyabonga ndodana.(thank you son)
Me: Have you eaten lunch?
Security: not yet, it's still early for me.
Me: Ok I hope I will find you here when I come back, your
lunch is on me.
We walk in and buy food for three then walk out and give
him his paper bag with food and he thank us. We go back to
Alex's home and eat our food.
Later he takes me to the airport and when I get to Durban I
take my car and drive to Ntsoaki's flat and call her.
Ntsoaki: Hello.
Me: Can you come out please I won't take much of your time.
Ntsoaki: What are you doing here Ntsika, it's late.
Me: I came to talk to you please.
She drops the call and I see the lights turning on inside.
She comes in and look at me.
Ntsoaki: Please make it quick Ntsika, I really need to get
some sleep.
Me: uhm ok, so I went to Lathitha and begged her again to
come back but she didn't want to so i'm over it, it's all over.
Ntsoaki: Ok now it's time to focus on your kids, give all your
attention to them and books and leave women out right now.
I nod.
Me: I still love you.
Ntsoaki: I love you but this is not the time.
Me: Ok, tell me when is the time.
Ntsoaki: You will know in your heart.
Me: Will you be waiting?
Ntsoaki: No if a potential man comes I sure will move on.
She says smiling, I groan.
Ntsoaki: What? You might realise that i'm not what you're
looking for during this time.
Me: I doubt, I'm inlove with you.
Ntsoaki: You are?
Me: Yes I am.
Ntsoaki: Then I might just wait for you.
Me: Thank you so much, At least you're older you won't
blame it all on being a teen.
Ntsoaki: Don't do that..
Me: What!?
Ntsoaki: Throwing shade on your babies's mom, it doesn't
suit you.
Me: I was just saying.
Ntsoaki: Then stop just saying.
I look at her.
Me: You're amazing.
She smiles looking down.
Me: Can I kiss you before our break starts?
I say leaning for a kiss which takes more than a minutes and
i'm so turned on.
Ntsoaki: Goodnight.
Me: Goodnight love.
I step out and open the door for her and look at her until she
walk in then get in and drive home, I go to the boys room
and find them sleeping I fix their bed covers, then knock on
mom and dad's room, no one amswers I get in and Ziyanda
open her eyes.
Me: Where is Ntando?
I whisper.
She point inbetween him and dad.
I take her and walk out with her, She sleep next to me,
focusing on my kids huh, that's what i'm going to do.
*
A month later
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LANGA's wedding day.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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A month later
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LANGA's wedding day
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LANGA
*
Finally! This day has come I am getting married to a MAN I
love with everything in me.
I am sitting in bed at home it's 4:30 in the morning I didn't
sleep at all last night I kept tossing and turning I am excited
and nervous at the same time I go to the bathroom and go
back to my bed.
Sfiso didn't sleep here last night, he booked a lodge for his
family and he slept there too.
My phone rings and I take it, it's my husband to be, I smile
and answer the phone.
Me: Hey baby.
Sfiso: I couldn't sleep last night thinking about this day babe,
I love you Langa.
Me: I couldn't sleep either even now i'm sitting in bed
thinking about you.
Sfiso: Won't we look ugly because of lack of sleep?
Me: It's 4:30 am we can take a little nap I mean the wedding
ceremony will start at 10am.
Sfiso: I don't think I can sleep before oficially making you
mine.
Me: Well you will look ugly alone sir I'm sleeping.
Sfiso: Aunt Zenzile will wake me up even if I try to sleep now,
she said I must be up by 5.
I laugh.
Me: I like that Aunt so much bye baby i'm sleeping.
Sfiso: Sleep but don't drop the call I miss hearing you snore.
Me: What! I don't snore ,you do.
Sfiso: You do Langa, now shhh go to sleep babe.
He whispers and I laugh and sleep placing my phone next to
my face.
There is silence I close my eyes.
Sfiso: Langelihle..
Me: Really! I was trying to sleep
He laughs.
Sfiso: Sorry baby..sleep then.
I feel myself drifting slowly to sleep.
I wake up when I feel someone shaking me and I open my
eyes it's Mom, Aunt Mbali and Aunt Sunny.
Me: And why am I being ambushed so early?
I say taking my phone on my pillow and see that Sfiso did
drop the call.
Mbali: It's our son's wedding day we are happy Langa so get
the hell up.
Me: You can't talk to someone's husband like that sisi.
They all laugh.
Ziyanda: I am so proud of you, you and Sfiso are good men
and i'm happy you found someone who sees your worth.
I smile looking at her.
Ziyanda: You're so grown baby, it feels like yesterday you
were just an infant and I was holding you in my arms for the
first time, I felt the connection and I told myself that you are
my baby boy, you come after the twins and now you're going
to share another connection with Sfiso and please Langa get
that rude little boy you have inside you out of your marriage
ok baby.
Me: Yes mother.
Mbali: And don't forget to give it to him baby, give it your all
ok..
Ziyanda: Mbali..
Mbali: No I thought we are going all in on him, Langa as I was
saying give it to him don't give him time to even think of
cheating on you.
I clear my throat.
Me: I.think it's time for me to take a bath.
I try to get up and Auntie sunny pull me down laughing.
Sunshine: Hey we're still talking, remember a couple that
drink together stay together.
Me: There is no such thing.
She laughs.
Sunshine: I'm telling you Langa when you drink with him,
the things you will do to each other mmmh mmh mm.
I look at mom.
Me: Tell them to stop Pink.
But she's just laughing her eyeballs out she is even holding
her tummy.
Me: I don't like any of you right now.
Ziyanda: Ignore them Langa.
Mbali: Ziyanda do you want his marriage to fail? Those were
the good points we just told him.
Ziyanda: They are, now go take a bath baby and come eat
breakfast.
Me: Ok.
Ziyanda: Your dad will come back quick for you then go back
to his new side of the family.
Mbali: I feel like they enjoy being on that side more.
My uncles are going to stand with their colleague Sfiso, it will
be Uncle Kwanele, Mandisi, Dad and Uncle China on my side
will be Ntsika, Nkanyezi and Lwandle uncle Mandisi's son, so
they left yesterday too to be with Sfiso's family.
The door opens and my brothers walk in.
Nkanyezi: "Can you guys give us a chance to talk to our
brother too please."
Lwandle: Yes please ya'll give us some space with our
brother.
Ntsika: Stop being so polite, ladies leave.
Mbali: Why are ya'll so spicey we were leaving anyway.
She say as they get up Ntsika is laughing his lungs out.
Mbali: You and I are no longer family, uyangizwa.(do you
hear me)
She says pointing at Ntsika.
Ntsika: I love you too Auntie Mbali.
The ladies walk out, now it's just us.
Ntsika: We got you this.
He says giving me a box and I open it, it's the most expensive
watch, i've only seen these in dad's collection of watches. I
look at them with my mouth hung open.
Me: Bafethu how the hell did you get this watch.
Lwandle: Oh I made a few calls here and there and here it is
all the way from overseas.
Me: This is the F.P. Journe watch damn! Thank you so much
guys..Wow!
I cannot believe it, well I can believe it cause it's in my hands
right now, Lwandle studies overseas so he does have
connections here and there.
Ntsika: We want you to be the most expensive guy in that
hall.
We chuckle.
Me: Not when dad and Uncle Mandisi are around.
Lwandle: Trust me they don't have this one.
Dad comes in and congratulate me and tell me a few pointers
about how marriage works and one of them is
communication then he leave to go back to Sfiso's family.
My phone rings and I start by checking the time it's 8:45 am,I
answer.
Me: Hey.
Sfiso: Don't run away Langa.
I laugh.
Me: Why would I do that?
Sfiso: I don't know, things like that happen baby but please
don't do it.
Me: Stop watching soapies they are messing you up, I'll see
you at the alter.
Sfiso: Thank you, I can't wait.
I drop the call and we all go eat breakfast and get ready we
will all wear black suits now then later it's all white suits.
Ntsika comes out first with the twins wearing their black
tuxedos they look good. I'm already dressed in my own black
tux, their shirts are black but me and sfiso will have white
shirts under our black suits.
Mom and Aunt Mbali starts ululating in joy as the rest of the
boys come out.
Now i'm really nervous my forehead is sweating, aunt sunny
stands in front of me and smile, she wipes the sweat with the
napkin.
Sunshine: This is your day baby,stop stressing or you'll faint
ok, Chin up and go marry your man.
She hugs me, I nod and breathe in and out.
Ziyanda: Let me take the pictures before we go you all look
so good, damn!
We laugh, Nqoba and Manqoba stand infront of me and my
three brothers stand a step back from me and mom capture
the pictures then we all get in the cars that are hired by
grandpa as a gift for me and Sfiso, he provided us with the
drivers.
I get in the car with the twins and the rest go to other cars.
We are at the hall outside.
Ziyanda: I feel like this is my wedding all over again.
We are getting married to a hall where mom got married.
Ziyanda: Congratulations baby,we love you ok, let's go in
ladies.
They all walk in.
Ntsika: Are you ready brother?
I breathe.
Me: I am.
Ntsika: Ok let's do this guys. You two are going in first.
He tell the twins they nod and go in Miyah is looking at
things inside so she will tell them where to stand.
Ntsika: We are going in now, breathe don't faint while
walking down that isle.
I smile nervously.
Me: I won't, not before I say I do.
He smiles and they walk in.
I see their cars coming in a convoy from afar I have to go in
first.
There's soft music playing, the likes of Shania Twain-from
this moment.
I walk in with one hand in my pocket, the crowd starts going
crazy cheering and clapping I look at my mom she is in tears
and smiling. I look at the alter my brothers are looking at me
with smiles in their faces standing on my right in line, i'm
taking my time I don't want to trip and fall in here.
Finally I reach the alter and stand next to Nqoba and
Manqoba who look so serious like they understand what is
going on.
There is silence for a while then the music plays again, Dad
walk in first followed by uncle Kwanele then uncle mandisi
they look good and much younger in their all black tuxedos.
Mbali: My God they are hot!
She shouts and everyone laughs as it has become quiet again
and my dads are standing on my left and they left space next
to me.
The pastor comes in from his office and stand at the podium.
I'm just wondering what it's like being Sfiso outside being
the last one to come in.
The volume increase, Thami Shobede- I love you
starts playing.
"Ngiyakudinga lovie wami
Nguwewedw' empilweni yami
Angeke ngisuk' eduzekwakho
Intliziy' igcwelu thando.
Ngalamagama ngithi I love you"
I look up and my eyes meets with his, he is standing in the
entrance looking at me with his hand in his pocket.
I smile, he smile back and start walking, that "I know I look
good walk" he is taking his time still not losing eye contact
with me, the crowd is going crazy.
He must have chose the song because he's the fan of the late
Thami Shobede,
he stands next to me and fix his suit, I want to laugh so bad,
that confidence is too much.
My brothers and dad take their seat behind where they are
standing.
Sfiso and I stand facing each other.
Pastor: Greetings in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
Crowd: Amen.
Pactor: We are gathered here today to witness the union
between these two young men, Sifiso Langa and Langelihle
Mzozo, if there is anyone against the joining of two men in
marriage, let them speak now or forever hold their peace.
I look at Sfiso in the eye, he has a serious look on his face no
more smile I guess he is just as nervous as I am plus it
doesn't help that the media is here and our wedding date
was leaked on the papers.
We both turn when we hear the click sounds of heels, there
stands Lona just in the middle of the isle, I look at Sfiso he is
biting his lower lip.
Mbali: I'll be damned, excuse me pastor.
She says getting up and fix her dress then go to Lona.
Mbali: Come with me baby..
She says grabbing her arm and walking out with her.
We're still standing there looking at the entrance, Aunt Mbali
comes back doing the Naomi Campbell walk.
Mbali: We can continue man of God.
We turn and look at each other again.
Sfiso: I'm sorry.
I smile.
Pastor: Wonderful! So let's continue, love is a beautiful thing
and no one should try to get inbetween two people who are
in love or you'll have Mrs Lukhele throw you out.
We chuckle and everyone laughs.
Pastor: So our couple here wanted us to be really brief
because they can't wait to say I do to each other so they have
prepared their vows , Langelihle you can start.
I take the mic and..
Me: mic check one 2 one 2.
Everyone laughs
Me: I just want to make sure everyone hears what i'm about
to say so no one can try something la.
I wink and look at Sfiso.
Me: Today i'm giving you a new name Sfiswesihle so our
names can rhyme because that's how I feel about us we
rhyme, we sound good together, when you say Langa you
just got to say lokaSfiso after. I'm here today confessing my
love for you in front of the man above, in front of my family
and my friends, I love you, homophobes can go to hell, if I
can say that pastor?
I look at the pastor he nods laughing.
Me: Thank you, So yeah I'm going to be with you through
good times and bad times and stand by you through thick
and thin till death do us part.
I look at him he has a bright smile on his face.
The pastor takes the mic and give it to Sfiso.
Sfiso: Wow uh thank you babe for the new name i'm
definitely keeping it, I got to have it on my ID..
He sighs with a smile.
Sfiso: We have been through a lot but I don't take that as a
bad thing because I believe that's what led us here to this
day, I love you Langelihle and know that after we say our I
dos the word divorce will never ever cross our minds, I will
be with you in sickness and in health, the good and bad, we
will dream together and also celebrate together when those
dreams come true, I don't see myself with anyone but you, I
promise to love you unconditionally and wholeheartedly till
death do us part.
We smile at each other and he gives the mic to a pastor.
Pastor: Love is beautiful and we should embrace it, Do we
have the rings?
Miyah walks out and comes back in and sit down.
Qhayiya comes in he is also wearing a black suit then Iyana
follows her in her white short dress and they give the pastor
the rings.
He gives Sfiso his ring, and Sfiso takes out the engagement
ring on my finger first.
Sfiso: with this ring I Sfiso Langa take you Langelihle Mzozo
to be my lawful wedded husband , this ring is the symbol of
my love, I love you.
He put it on my finger.
I take his hand.
Me: I Langelihle Mzozo take you Sfiswesihle Langa to be my
lawful wedded husband to love and to hold and take this as a
symbol of my love for you and never take it off no matter
how tough it gets, I love you.
I put it on, the pastor prays with our hands together.
Pastor: Ladies and Gentleman I now pronounce to you
Sfiswesihle Langa and Langelihle Mzozo Langa you may
share the kiss.
I look at mom then look at my uncles and chuckle
I step closer to Sfiso he cocks his eyebrows smiling and I
squint ny eyes.
Me: Don't pretend like you don't want this you asked for it
since day one.
He laughs, they will have to forgive me i'm about to kiss the
hell out of my husband alright.
I place my hands on the side of his face and kiss the living
day lights out of him I feel he want to step back but I hold his
face in one position.
People are cheering and clapping some are whistling, I step
back and smile at him he looks shy.
Sfiso: You didn't have to do that idiot.
He says low looking down, I laugh.
Me: I love you my husband.
Sfiso: I love you too my husband.
We hold hands and walk out with the crowd following
behind us.
We go take pictures for this first round.
*
We have changed to white suits now, this is the wedding
reception now and Ntsika is the MC I see him going to some
beautiful dark skinned lady with long dreadlocks, they
briefly hug and he comes to me.
Ntsika: We are starting now.
Me: You look happy who's that.
Ntsika: A friend, we started dating for a while and now we're
on break.
He shrug his shoulders.
Me: I'm glad you're finally moving on.
He chuckles.
Ntsika: Let's do this..
He moves away from us and go to the stage.
Ntsika: Let me hear some noise so I can feel that you're still
here...
The crowd go crazy whistling, Brother is feeling himself on
that stage and I think it has got everything to do with the
dark skinned lady that is looking at him with a smile on her
face.
Ntsika: So ok my name is Ntsika The Piller I am your Mc I
promise we gonna have a good time alright, let's kick this off
with a bang, I'm gonna start by calling the queen our mother
Ziyanda Lukhele Mzozo to come on stage everybody make
some noise..yeah yeah yeah!
Mom get up and come on stage and take the mic from
Ntsika.
Ziyanda: Thank you Ntsika, uhm so we're here for the union
of my handsome baby boy Langa and his handsome husband
Sfiso I have witnessed their love I watched it grow and now
they are here, so everyone knows I hardly ever sing but
today i'm doing it for my babies I will sing John Legend's
song Stay with you and you listen to the lyrics and pratice it
in your marriage.
She clears her throat and start singing"

"We've been together for a while now,

We're growing stronger everyday now,
It feels so good and there's no doubt, I will stay with you
as each morning brings sunrise And the flowers bloom in
springtime,
On my love you can rely And I'll stay with you."

She stops and look around uncle mandisi get up and take
another mic and go join mom in stage and they start singing
the chorus together.

"Oh I will stay with you through the ups and the downs,
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around,
And when the dark clouds arise I will stay by your side I
know we'll be alright I will stay with you."
Ziyanda: Thank you brother, I hope you guys heard the
message in that song, Stay..and Pray I heard you guys talking
about the names that rhymes now this is the other two
words, STAY and PRAY with him, thank you.
Uncle Mandisi takes her hand and they go back to their seats.
Ntsika: I hope you guys got the message STAY and PRAY, just
give my mom and uncle another round of applause for that
mini duet that was beautiful.
Everyone claps the speeches go on and Ntsika calls out Aunt
Zenzile to come on stage.
She stands up and i'm already laughing my lungs out.
Sfiso: Stop laughing at my aunt babe.
Me: I can't help it look at her face she is so serious.
We laugh she takes the mic.
Zenzile: Thank you Ntsika, well I am Sifiso's aunt, the one
and only aunt I'm just here to say one thing, welcome to the
family Langelihle I have seen that you are a good boy and
that you will treat each other with respect, marriage is not
easy so both of you put on the effort to make it work no
matter what and lastly ningancishani ke ekamereni.(don't be
stingy in the bedroom.)
I look at Sfiso, he is shaking his head smiling.
Me: She started off well but the last part was really
unnecessary, ngeke ungincishe angithi ( you won't be stingy
right.)
I say as I continue to laugh and placing my hand on his thigh.
Sfiso: Langelihle you need to behave.
Ntsika: Ok thank you everyone who gave their speeches to
the newly weds now I want them to come to the dance floor,
let them show us what they got.
The music starts playing.
Me:Come dance with me baby.
Sfiso: I can't dance to save my life.
Me: I'll teach you.
We start dancing but he is just moving his feet and i'm
laughing and everyone joins us.
We say the thank you speech and walk out to the cars we are
going to our short honeymoon for a week because he has
work.
We are standing near his car and Ntsika comes with Miss
dark beauty and Miyah and Nkanyezi comes to us too.
Ntsika: Uhm hey this is my..my friend Ntsoaki, this is Sfiso,
Langa, Nkanyezi and Miyalo.
She smiles showing her dimples.
Ntsoaki: Nice meeting you and that was a beautiful wedding
you guys had .
Me: Thank Miss Ntsoaki.
Ntsika is smiling looking at her the twins runs to us to say
goodbye but I see Ntsika's face changing, I feel a tap on my
shoulder I turn.
Lathi: Hello Langa, I came to congratulate you, I couldn't
miss your wedding brother.
She is with a man maybe a few years younger than us.
Me: Uhm well thank you, guys we have to go, we'll see you
next week, I shoulder hug my brothers and get in the car and
drive away with my husband next to me, It's my wedding
day and I don't want to be part of any drama that is about to
happen back there.
*
NTSIKA

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
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I am still staring at Lathi and her boyfriend Senzo who is
staring at me like he wants to see me react.
My kids move and stand in front of me they are looking at
them too, Miyalo look so bored and angry, Nkanyezi is just
calmly looking at them.
I turn to look at Ntsoaki she is just standing awkwardly next
to me.
Me: What are you doing here Lathitha?
I hear Ntsoaki clearing her throat maybe it's only now that
she realise who Lathitha is.
Manqoba: ULathi lo Ntsika?(this is Lathi?)
He ask moving away from me and stepping closer to Lathi
and Senzo but I see Senzo lightly pushing him back, I quickly
move from where i'm standing and knock him down with a
fist.
That grabs attention of the people around us they gather
around us.
Senzo slowly get up and stand in front of me.
Me: You put your filthy hand on my son huh? Who are you?
He comes to my face.
Senzo: I dare you to do that again, I dare you!
I chuckle wiping the sweat on my nose, I knock him down
again and wait for him to get up, the crowd is now watching
and making that "yhoo".
Lathi: You're a fucken bully Ntsika, he is younger than you
and you have always been a bully.
She says helping her boyfriend up, I look at her confused.
Me: Did I bully you Lathitha?
Senzo swiftly moves away from Lathi and punch me in my
cheek, attempt to go to him.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika!
She calls out, I turn and see that she is holding my kids's
shoulders and they look so scared.
She shakes her head and grab both their hands and walk
through the crowd with them.
I grab this Senzo kid and start to knock him while holding his
neck, the bitch ass nigga is like as fuck and Lathi is busy
screaming for me to stop. I feel someone grabbing me from
behind, I try to move but they are holding me tight.
Luyolo: Cut it out ok this is not the time or place.
He speaks and let go of my arms.
I wipe my face and look at Lathi.
Me: Why did you come here? Why are you here.
Lathi: You are crazy how can you do this to him.
She is kneeling next to Senzo who's right eye is almost
closing and bruised I used my left hand to punch him.
Ziyanda: What is going on?Lathitha..
She looks up and just stares at mom.
Ziyanda: Why are you here?
And I have been asking that question but can't get an
answer.
Ziyanda: I asked why are you here?
Lathi get up with her boyfriend who is covering his right
side of the face with his hand.
Lathi: You won't get away with this Ntsika, you won't!
Me: I won't? What you gonna do huh? You let your boyfriend
push my kid back when he was trying to come to you, what
gives him the right to do that shit.
Lathi: You like drama too much Mama's boy.
I chuckle.
Mbali: Lathi sisi don't talk to my son like that please.
Lathi: See what I mean?always mom talking for you, you
have never been a real man and stand on your own, mom
this mom that uurghh it's revolting really.
I feel a huge lump on my throat.
Miyah hold Nkanyezi hand and they come to the side i'm
standing and she grabs my hand too and pull me away from
the crowd and we go stand next to our cars.
She hold Nkanyezi's face.
Miyalo: Calm down ok baby, calm down.
He is shaking and the veins are popping in his forehead.
Nkanyezi: "Talk to Lathitha, tell her to bring her out of the
car."
Me: Who?
I look around and I see Lathi walking to a car with Senzo I
rush behind them and when I get next to their cars I can see
a baby on a car seat crying and she looks like Ntando i'm
confused we left Ntando and Viwe at home with their new
nanny.
Me: Lathitha! What the fuck is happening why is my
daughter here, open this fucken car.
Lathi: We came to bring her back, we thought we could keep
her but she is just annoying like her sister always crying, so
you can take her.
I am so confused why did they take my baby at home and
bring her here only to give her to me.
She opens the car and help Senzo get in the passenger seat.
Then take the baby and give her to me and a plastic bag then
she get in the drivers seat and drive off.
Oh so she can drive? I guess this Senzo is really a man than
me, he taught her how to drive.
I look at the baby and notice the slight difference from
Ntando, this is not Ntando I look in the plastic bag again and
there is another clinic card and certificate.
She is shaking because of the crying I mean who keeps the
baby in the car alone with the windows closed ,Lathitha
wanted to kill my baby.
Miyalo: Ntsika, how did Ntando get here?
Me: it's not Ntando.
Miyalo: What do you mean?
My family is here now looking at me and the baby in my
hands.
Me: It's her twin sister Lathitha wanted to keep her with her
boyfriend but apparently she cries a lot. She wanted to keep
my daughter away from me.
Miyalo: She is sweating Ntsika.
Mom feels her forehead and she look alarmed.
Ziyanda: Let's take her to the hospital Ntsika.
Miyalo: Let me hold her Nkanyezi is not ok, you will drive..
I stare in one position.
Miyalo: Ntsika!!.
I look at her.
Miyalo: Dad Ntsika or Nkanyezi won't be able to drive, we
will drive with you.
They get in the car and drive away, I sit on the pavement I
feel like my heart is being sliced into pieces with a dagger, it
hurts.
Manqoba: Dad.
I look up and I see them standing a bit far from me with
Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Are you ok?
Me: Can you look around and see if you can see my twin
brother anywhere?
My phone rings and it's Langa.
Me: Brother.
Sfiso: Is everything ok there Langa is not feeling well and he
is asking if you guys are ok.
Me: we will be fine, my little girl is at the hospital but she
will be fine, and Langa will be fine too.
He sighs.
Sfiso: sure hope she gets well man.
Me: Thanks.
I drop the call and my kids come closer and sit next to me.
Nqoba: That was a bad guy?
I know he is referring to Senzo because dad beat the hell out
of the bad guys.
Me: Yes that's why I beat him because he put his hand on
Manqoba and no one is allowed to push you.
Nqoba: Ok.
I huff.
Ntsoaki: I can see your brother.
Me: Thank you.
I get up and hold my boys hands.
Ntsoaki: Bye.
I look at her as she walks away and get in her car. It will be
unfair of me to want her in my life with all these kids that
keeps popping out, I mean what if Lathitha is hiding another
baby out there. Maybe I should just leave her alone.
I go to Nkanyezi he look fine now.
Me: Thank you, I found Ntando's twin in lathi's boyfriend's
car.
Nkanyezi: "Ntando has a twin?"
Me: I didn't know until you told me to go take her out of the
car.
Nkanyezi: "I said that?"
I nod, we get in the car with the twins and drive them home,
then we drive to the hospital.
We find Miyah and dad sitting on the benches outside.
Me: Is she going to be ok.
Luyolo: Yeah she will be fine, your mom is coming.
Mom comes out in her white coat, she looks anngry she is
turning pink.
Ziyanda: I wish I just slapped that little girl, the baby is
dehydrated it's like she haven't had milk for hours,we are
giving her IV fluid now she will be fine.
Me: Can I go see her.
Ziyanda: Yes we will take her home after an hour or two.
I nod and go to her ward, she is sleeping.
I sit next to her bed.
Me: I should have felt that Ntando has a sister and I wasn't
going to leave you with them, I wasn't going to seperate you
from your sister because I too didn't want to be seperated to
my brother when I was younger even now but it's better.
I sigh and hold her tiny hand.
Me: She is punishing me,your mom is punishing me I don't
know what is it that I did to her that she can't forgive, I've
apologised countless times but nothing, I don't know what
else to do.
I feel a hand on my shoulder, I wipe my tears and look next
to me, it's Nkanyezi.
We sit watching the little beautiful girl sleeping so
peacefully.
Me: Where is Miyah?
Nkanyezi: "She is in mom's office."
Me: Let's go to the stores to buy her stuff.
Nkanyezi: "Ok"
We walk out and go to mom's office.
Me: Miyah can you come with us to the stores to buy baby
stuffs.
She get up and walk up to us.
Ziyanda: Ntsika, be strong ok.
I nod.
We go to the nearby mall and Miyah starts picking up baby
stuff, I know I can buy stuff but a woman do it better.
Miyalo: This is so cute, i'm buying two for both of them
Ntando doesn't have this dress.
She says taking two pink dresses.
Nkanyezi: "Maybe we should just take the whole store,
Miyah you take everything."
Miyalo: And you are paying because you talk too much Star.
I chuckle, they are both just cool to hang around with.
We see her standing in a boys clothes section and then
quickly moves and we go pay and drive back to the hospital,
I can hear a cry all the way from the passage.
I rush in the ward and find dad with my baby in his arms
trying to calm her down.
Ziyanda: Yhoo this girl can cry geez.
I take her from dad and put her in my chest moving around
with her, she stop crying and I sit down and look at her, she
stares right back at me, i squint my eyes looking at her and
she start giggling showing her gums, I hug her tight to my
chest smiling.
Ziyanda: Wow do you know Ntsika?why are you giggling
now but you were crying your eyeballs out a minute ago.
Me: I am her dad of course she knows me.
I squint my eyes again and she smiles.
Ziyanda: Nkanyezi needs to have a baby too now, my house
is full of Ntsika's babies ay no.
Miyah clear her throat.
Miyalo: Can I take her and bath her please I want her to wear
this beautifil dress gosh, she is going to look so hot.
Me: Hot.
Miyalo: Yes hot, is there a problem?
I laugh, these days she is just extra happy and hyper.
She takes her and go to the bathroom with her stuff then
come back minutes later with a beautiful little girl.
Ziyanda: Already done her hair.
I laugh out loud, she has two buns done with her hair just
like how she did Ntando's hair at home this morning.
Ziyanda: It's getting late, let's go home people.
I take her from Miyah and we all walk to seperate cars and
drive home.
I get in and find a nanny with Ntando.
Me: Hello Ntandokazi.
She starts bouncing happily on her seat..
Me: Do you know this girl huh?
I make them look at each other but they are little they don't
won't answer all they make is loud baby sounds.
Miyalo: What are we calling her StarPillar?
Me: "You want to name her brother?"
I ask Nkanyezi and he smiles looking at her.
Nkanyezi: "It will make sense if we call her Thandokazi their
names will rhyme."
We all laugh as he wiggles his eyebrows.
Nkanyezi: "Inspired by Langelihle and Sfiswesihle alright."
Me: Thank you so everyone meet Thandokazi who is
Ntandokazi's twin sister.
The twins come out of their room and look around.
Nqoba: Haaa! Ubani lo?(who is this)
Me: Another sister boys Thando no Ntando.
Nqoba: Oh uma ukunike yena futhi.(mom gave her to you
again)
I nod.
Nqoba: Oh.
He looks like he is thinking, my boys are growing and i'm so
proud to be their father, watching them grow is a blessing to
me and now I have to watch my little girls grow as well.
We eat dinner then go to bed.
I'm in my room with both my girls, they need their own beds
now I can't be sleeping with both of them now.
I place them next to each other and put a blanket over them .
Mom comes in with their milk and give them to me.
Ziyanda: Are you sure you can manage?
Me: I'm sure.
Ziyanda: Ntsika listen baby I know what Lathitha said still
rings in your head but don't let it get to you, so what if you're
a mama's boy I gave birth to you, you will always be a child
to me and if she has a problem with that she must deal with
it shame, I didn't raise you guys to be abused by woman,
some women are abusers Ntsika but most men are afraid to
admit it and voice it out because they are are afraid of being
called weak, so no child of mine will be abused by anyone, I
refuse.
Me: Thank you mom.
Ziyanda: Now don't be afraid to ask for help to me or sunny
or Mbali just because Lathitha called you a mama's boy
when you do that.
Me: I will ask for help mom, thank you so much.
Ziyanda: Goodnight, call me when you need help, I raised
twins and one is always crying.
I laugh.
Me: I bet Nkanyezi was the one always crying.
Ziyanda: Oh no it was you.
She says walking out and I'm left laughing I knew that, they
told me I was the crying one and also talked a lot.
I sleep next to my beautiful twin girls and they only woke up
once and in different times.
In the morning I hear a knock and grandpa comes in.
Lukhele: morning NtsikaYekhaya.
Me: Morning grandpa.
Lukhele: Did you sleep well and the princesses.
Me: Yes we slept well thank you.
Lukhele: no more babies now boy yhoo you hit doubles and
triples it's too much.
I laugh.
Me: Yes no more.
Lukhele: Come with me, Miyalo will take them.
I get up and wear my tshirt and follow him to the lounge, I
see Lathitha and Senzo with two gentlemen next to them.
Senzo: There he is arrest him.
Mbali: No child of this house is getting arrested absolutely no
one.
Lathi: That's why he is this weak you always treat him like a
child.
Mbali: Baby I can beat the hell out of you in front of these
two detectives.
Senzo: You think you're above the law huh.
Lukhele: So why are you in my daughter house this early?
Detective: To arrest Ntsika for assaulting Senzo at the
wedding.
Mbali:At whose wedding?
Lathi: Langa's wedding you were there, you saw it.
Mbali: Right! Who is Langa to you? And who invited you in
that wedding, you know baby we should have gotten you
arrested for trespassing I don't remember sending you any
invitation.
Detective: So you were not invited to this wedding?
Lathi: uhm no but...
Detective: You're wasting our time, let's go..i'm so sorry for
this.
They walk out leaving Lathi and Senzo still standing.
Mbali: Have anything more to say.
Senzo: Yes I need my money that I have been using to take
care of your daughters for the past 6 months.
I look at Lathi, she looks away.
Luyolo: How much was it so we could give you a cheque then
leave my son alone.
Lathi opens her bag and take out many papers and come
shove it to me.
Lathi: Those are the slips of everything we have been buying.
I'm just standing there looking at her.
Dad walks away and come back with a cheque book.
He gives them a cheque.
Luyolo: Will R15 000 be enough or you want more boy?
Senzo: it's not enough, what about the doctors
appointments.
Ziyanda: What doctor's appointment? She was dehydrated
when you left her here.
Dad gives them another cheque.
Luyolo: Now will you please leave my house before I lose it.
He says with a stern voice and they turn to walk out.
Me: Lathitha..
They both turn.
Me: Can I trust that you have nothing else that belongs to
me?
Lathi: oh no that was the last of it, I want nothing to do with
you Ntsika.
Me: Again, I'm sorry if I ever did anything to you that made
you hate me like this.
They walk out, I wish I can stop hurting over Lathitha but I
can't, tears burn my eyes as I walk back to my room.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
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I am a father of four beautiful kids and they need a sane and
strong father so I just told myself that I'm letting go of
everything Lathi, the feelings and all.
My focus is my kids and my studies right now I have started
attending my classes again.
But on the other hand Ntsoaki wants nothing to do with me,
she ignores my calls and texts and her son is always dropped
by her nanny now. I last saw her at Langa's wedding, I went
to her flat but couldn't get in because the gate was locked
and she dropped my call and switched off her phone.
So today my classes ended before 12 so i'm driving to where
she usually eat her lunch.
I park the car and walk in, I look around and find her sitting
at the far end of the restaurant she has a laptop on the table.
I walk up to her and stand next to the table.
Me: Hi.
She gets startled and spill the coffee she had in her hand on
her dress.
Me: I'm sorry I didn't mean to startle you.
I say taking a napkin on the table and giving it to her.
Me: I'm sorry.
Ntsoaki: It's fine.
She wipes herself, she doesn't look at me.
She wipes her laptop and close it then stands and pick her
stuff up walking away leaving me there without saying
anything.
I turn and walk out, I find her putting her bags on the back
seat of her car I stand behind her.
Me: Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Yeah.
Still not looking at me.
Me: Do you hate me?
Ntsoaki: No, why would I hate you I hardly even know you.
Me: You don't?
She slowly turns and look at me.
Ntsoaki: I don't and I want it to stay that way, I don't want to
know you more than I do now.
Me: Why?
Ntsoaki: you know why.
Me: I still love you.
She chuckles.
Ntsoaki: No you love your babies's mother and i'll be a fool if
I let you in my life because if it happens she comes back and
want you back you going to run back to her arms and leave
me heartbroken and I don't want that.
She says blinking fast, her eyes are glassy.
Me: So you want me to leave you alone?
Ntsoaki: Yes..please.
That please makes me want to hold her in my arms.
Me: You don't mean that.
Ntsoaki: I do..
I step closer.
Me: I know you don't.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika stop, I saw how hurt you were at your
brothers wedding you even went as far as hitting the
boyfriend.
Me: That was because he pushed my son.
Ntsoaki: We both know it was more than that Ntsika, don't
lie to yourself you still love her and you are dying to have
her in your arms again.
She tries to open her car but I block it.
Me: I want you, I believe we can make this work if you give
me a chance.
Ntsoaki: No, I need to go to work, please move.
Me: I won't move until you agree to see me later.
Ntsoaki: Come on my lunch time is over.
Me: Please.
Ntsoaki: Ok I will see you later.
I move.
Me: Hope you're not playing with me Ntsoaki.
She get in her car and drive out.
I go to my car and get in driving home.
I take my baby girls to my room and sleep with them next to
me.
I wake up when Miyah barges in my room singing.
Me: WeMiyalo this is not Nkanyezi's room don't just barge
in.
Miyalo: Awunantombi Pillar(you don't have a girlfriend)so I
don't know why are you sleeping instead of going out and
finding love.
Me: Who told you I don't have a girlfriend.
Miyalo: There is no smell of any sweet scent in this room
only my baby girls which I came to take with me, I missed
them so much.
Me: You are unusually happy these days what's up, tell me
buddy.
Miyalo: I'm just living life, I have a man that loves me.
Me: the one you are always beating the crap out of each
other?
Miyalo: you're not cute right now Ntsika.
Me: I don't ever want to be cute sisi I'm a man.
Miyalo: But my man is cute.
Me: Get out of my room.
Miyalo: Go get the boys from school Sir.
Me: Thank you for waking me up Miss.
She takes Ntando and come back to take Thando.
Miyalo: Let's go to daddy, the one who has a girlfriend.
Me: Stop throwing jabs at me.
She shrug her shoulders walking out leaving me laughing
alone, she has been pushing me to go out on dates just to
keep my mind off things and meet different people not
necessarily dating them but to just enjoy their company.
I go freshen up and fetch my kids at school and I see Ntsoaki
with her son I go to her with my kids.
Me: Hey.
She nods,I think she really doesn't want anything to do with
me.
Me: Dinner at 7 tonight wear something sexy and elegant.
I turn and walk to my car, I'm shooting my shot, I will be
waiting in her gate, I don't even know if she will come.
I go to town with my kids so they can help me choose
flowers, they start choosing very colourful flowers but I see
Lavender roses and take them and go pay then buy pizza for
my kids and one for Q and Sage they love pizza so much.
I drive back home and choose an outfit for the day.
6:30pm i'm already dressed looking at myself in the mirror, I
look good.
Mom walk in and smile.
Ziyanda: You look good baby.
Me: Thank you i'm meeting up with friends.
Ziyanda: mmm friends.
Me: No really i'm meeting with friends.
Ziyanda: Ok if you say so don't forget to tell the twins that
you won't be here tonight you know they cry for you
sometimes.
I nod and go say goodbye to my boys and my girls.
6:59 pm i'm at the gate hoping she answers my call.
It rings for a while then someone picks up.
Her: Ntsoaki's phone hello.
Me: Oh uhm hi where is she?
Her: She is not feeling well.
Oh come on.
Me: Ok tell her i'm going to wait here until she feels well
then.
She drops the call and I huff adjusting my car seat and rest
my head.
Minutes later my phone rings.
Me: Hello.
Ntsoaki: Why are you still here?
Me: Waiting for you.
Ntsoaki: Go, I am not coming.
Me: Ok that's fine then, but i'm not leaving until you come
out in a beautiful dress and we will go out.
I hear her sigh and drop the call.
15 minutes later i'm still sitting in a car then I hear a knock i
unlock and she get in.
I sit up and look at her she is wearing a black dress with
glitters her cleavage is out it is just above her knees, her
dreadlocks tied into a bun, I'm checking her out.
Me: You're beautiful, Gosh!
Ntsoaki: Thanks.
I give her the flowers, she smiles lightly taking them.
Ntsoaki: They are beautiful thanks, I should take them inside
now.
Me: No don't go, put them behind you you will take them
with when we come back.
I start the car and drive to a restaurant along the beach and I
pull a seat for her.
Ntsoaki: Thank you.
I go sit opossite her and wait for our food.
Me: You hate me Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Ha ke u hloee (I don't hate you.)
Me: But you have been ignoring me.
She sighs and look down.
Me: I'm sorry I still want us to try things out please.
She shakes her head. Our food comes and she is not eating,
i'm looking at her.
Ntsoaki: I have feelings for you.
I hold her hand.
Me: Then please give me a chance to prove my love for you.
Ntsoaki: Ok.
Me: Ok?
She smiles and I get up pulling her into a tight hug.
Ntsoaki: Let go, people are staring at us.
She giggles.
Me: Let them stare..thank you so much baby.
I let go and we sit down again.
Me: I wish I can sleep with you in my arms today.
Ntsoaki: There's a hotel around here.
She says smiling.
Me: Of course, we can go.
Ntsoaki: If you promise to take me home early.
Me: I promise baby, thank you for giving me another chance.
Ntsoaki: I couldn't ignore my feelings for you anymore.
We eat, pay then go to the hotel and book a room.
We step into our room and I start kissing her and we end up
naked and don't forget the condoms, I have enough kids
already.
I look at her, she is sleeping with her locks all over her face, I
move them away then peck her lips and hold her tight in my
arms.
*
NKANYEZI
*
So everything have been goimg great here at home and it
looks like everything is going smoothly for everyone
especially my brother Ntsika he seems in a good space right
now, I was getting worried about him.
On the other hand Miyalo has been too happy these days but
just doesn't tell me why, don't get me wrong I love seeing
her happy but these day she has been overly happy and she
sometimes go out without telling me, just like today she
went out and came back so happy.
I find her in my room playing with Thando and Ntando.
I sit in front of her.
Me: "Hello"
Miyah: Oh hey baby.
she get up and come to me, she kiss my lips.
Me: "Are you okay."
Miyalo: Yeah i'm fine, why?
Me: "Where did you go earlier today?"
Miyalo: uhm the mall.
Me: "Ok."
She go back to bed and continue playing with the twins.
Me: "Miyalo."
Miyalo: Yes Star.
Me: "Are you seeing anyone?"
Miyalo: What do you mean?
Me: "you have been going out without telling me."
Miyalo: Yeah I don't have to tell you everything even going to
the mall to buy girl's stuff, no Star.
Me: "Are you cheating on me?"
Miyalo: Now you're being crazy.
She takes Ntando and give her to me with her bottle.
Miyalo: They are sleepy now.
She takes Thando and feed her too.
Ntando falls asleep first and I walk out and put her in
Ntsika's bed, Miyah comes with Thando and put her next to
her sister.
We go back to our room.
Me: "Please promise me that you're not cheating Miyah
because I will kill you."
She comes to me and lay her head on my chest and wraps
her arms around me, I hug her we stay like that for a while
then she looks up at me smiling.
Miyalo: I will never cheat on you, you give everything that I
need and I know you love me like I love you and you give me
great sex too.
I smile.
Me: "Do I?"
She smiles.
Miyalo: Yes you do.
Me: " Then take it all off and show me how much you
appreciate me."
I say looking at her, she starts by taking off my tshirt that
she's wearing and her shorts follows, she is left with her
matching white panty and bra, I'm just watching her
beautiful body, I notice the dark line on her abdomen area
and the belly look a bit bigger but quickly brush it off maybe
she's just gaining.
Me: "All of it Miya."
She takes off her bra and her boobs are a bit bigger and
sexier, and then follows her panty.
I step closer to her and hold her neck kissing her.
She takes off my tshirt and my pants then push me in bed
and get ontop of me.
She grabs my dick and put it in her mouth and start sucking
and lickig my dick so fast I grab her hair biting my bottom lip
the feeling is intense and out of this world.
She moves and kiss me in my mouth while putting my dick in
her warm pussy.
She starts moving up and down on my dick while her mouth
doesn't leave mine, I grab her ass squeezing it, we go on for a
while then we both cum and sleep next to each other with
her head on my chest.
I get up and look at her.
Miyalo: What?
Me: "Are you sure you're not hiding anything from me."
Miyalo: Yes i'm sure let's go take a shower.
We go to the shower which ends up with her against the wall
and we go back and she sleep first I get up and go check on
the boys and found them still sleeping and the girls are with
their nanny now.
I go back to my room and go open the closet which I haven't
opened since Miyah came to stay here with me because she
takes out clothes for me and everything.
I open her bag, i'm looking for anything that will tell me what
she has been up to.
I don't find anything suspicious in her bag, I look around and
find a plastic and open it, there are infants's clothes, boys
clothes and they are new.
I'm confused as hell, I continue to look and I find a card
written maternity card booklet and other cards and when I
open I can see her name and surname I try to read it but i'm
clueless, I see the pills, all this was hidden in one place.
I close the closet and go shake her with all this stuff in my
hand, she wakes up and I give it to her, she looks at me.
Me: "What is this?"
She doesn't answer or look at what is inside.
Me: "Answer me, i'm confused."
Miyalo: It's mine.
Me: "That I figured, what I want to understand is why are
you hiding it?"
Miyalo: I didn't hide anything Star.
Me: "What is all this Miyah."
Miyalo: I.. I am pregnant.
I look at her confused as fuck.
Me: "What?"
Miyalo: I am pregnant Star, I am two months and a few
weeks pregnant.
Me: "Miyalo."
She looks at me.
Me: "You are what?
She doesn't reply.
Me: "But why are you hiding this from me?
Miyalo: I am scared okay! I didn't want to tell you because
I'm afraid something else is going to happen and i'm going to
lose this baby too.
Her tears fall.
Miyalo: I don't want to see you dissapointed again if it
happens I lose this pregnancy again, I don't.
Me: "So how long were you planning on hiding this?"
Miyalo: I don't know, I am happy star I was losing hope that
maybe I won't ever fall pregnant again but at the same time
i'm scared that I will lose it and dissapoint you all over again.
Me: "Baby the disappointments I felt when we lost the babies
wasn't towards you I promise, it was just losing the babies."
She nods wiping her tears.
Me: "so you're really pregnant?"
She nods, I go sit next to her and push the covers away from
her and brush her tummy.
I look at her.
Miyalo: He has to survive Star.
Me: "He?"
She smiles through the tears.
Miyalo: I'm hoping it's a boy.
I nod.
Me: "What did the doctors say? are there any risks?"
Miyalo: They haven't seen anything wrong but they just told
me not to stress too much.
Me: "Thank you so much baby, Thank you for this little Star
growing inside you."
I hug her tight I can't believe this, I was losing hope too you
know.
Me: "I have to talk to Ntsika he has to talk to our ancestors
and beg them to let me have this baby."
She nods and hug me tight.
Me: "I love you so much."
Miyalo: "I love you too daddy."
We smile and get in bed holding each other tight, I love her
and I am happy.
The next morning I wake up early and walk out of my room
to prepare breakfast for my love once i'm done I put it in a
trey and go back to my room with it and wake her up, she
sits up and rub her eyes.
She smiles when she see me holing trey with food.
Miyalo: Thank you baby let me just rush to a bathroom.
I nod while she goes to the bathroom.
I fix the bed and make sure it will be comfortable for her.
She comes back and sit down.
Me: "Are you comfortable?"
She nods, I put a trey on her lap and sit in front of her.
Miyalo: You're not eating with me?
Me: "No, I will eat later."
I watch her as she eat everything on the plate and drink all
her juice, she is really pregnant, Miyah doesn't eat this much.
I walk out with a plate and I see Ntsika coming in.
I grin at him and squint my eyes.
I put the plates in the kitchen and go back to him, I find him
taking off his clothes.
Me: "You got laid didn't you? Lucky bastard."
He laughs.
Ntsika: Leave me alone, and why the food so early in the
morning?
Me: "I was doing it for the mother of my child."
I'm smiling, he looks at me and smile.
Ntsika: Wow! That crazy girl is pregnant no wonder she has
been acting more crazier than before.
Me: "Don't call my love crazy."
Ntsika: "But she is."
Me: "I need a favour from you, Can you be my voice to the
ancestors and beg them to give me a chance and let me hold
this baby please."
Ntsika: You don't even have to ask me, congratulations
brother, this time we are holding him/her in our arms I
promise.
Me: "Thank you Piller."
We hug.
Ntsika: "Welcome to fatherhood brother."
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
LATHITHA
*
I am living the good life here with someone who loves me so
much, I don't even dream of going back to Ntsika.
Senzo appreciates me and he worked hard to be where he is
today not Ntsika who had everything handed to him.
When I told Ntsika that I wanted to go to Johannesburg I
already had Senzo in mind, we were already talking on
facebook and he told me that his family had moved to Jozi
and he works at some engineering company that gave him a
bursary, he is a paid intern there.
He has taught me so many things like driving, I have a
licence now that I doubt I would have had when I was still
with Ntsika, I was going to wait for him to go ask "Mom and
dad" if he can do it, It was irritating even before my sister
did what she did to me and I told Senzo about it on Facebook
where we usually chatted and he promised to give me much
more but I brushed him off until Ntsika chased me out of his
mother's house and the first person on my mind was Senzo
and that day I was at the hospital waiting for Ntsika to go ask
for allowance from "mommy" so he could find me a place to
stay and money, Senzo beat him to it and sent the money
first for me to go stay with him, I used one of the nurses
phone to call him.
I didn't waste time I went to buy a bus ticket to Jozi and
Months later I was so angry to find out I was pregnant again
with Ntsika's babies at that but Senzo asked me not to abort
we will just send the babies back home to their father but
when I gave birth he had already found a school for me to
finish my matric and the kids were on the way so we were
still working on the plan to send one baby to Ntsika and one
was going to stay behind with us and raise her, and Ntsika
came and we gave him the baby which was fine and all for a
few days until the other baby didn't want anything, no milk
nothing but just crying so that's when I thought we should
go to Durban with her on Langa's wedding and give her to
her family.
Now we are happy i'm going to school and Senzo pays for
everything.
His family loves me because they know me from when we
were still in high school and his mom always called me
Senzo's wife she still do call me that.
Senzo and I are a couple we are young and the same age, we
respect each other.
I wake up in the morning and he comes out from the
bathroom with the towel around his waist and come pecks
my lips, I smile.
He is slender no muscles like Ntsika but he is perfect like
that to me I don't want him to be like Ntsika anyway.
Senzo: I have always loved your eyes since high school, they
are beautiful.
Me: Thank you.
Senzo: I'm just still hurt that you went for him while you saw
damn well that I was in love with you.
Me: But you didn't tell me and I was young I couldn't tell if
someone was inlove with me.
Senzo: That's why you let that guy fool you.
Me: Well I was young all I saw was a guy with a flashy car
and I fell for his charms, I'm sorry I should have dated you
instead.
Senzo: It's ok you're here now and I will take care of you, you
will be what you always wanted to be in life, an accountant,
you still want that right?
Me: Yes I still do, thank you so much Senzo.
I get up and go to the bathroom then come back and start
kissing him, he kiss me back and get on top of me, we have a
very short session then he get up.
Senzo: Go freshen up and I will drop you off at school.
Me: Ok.
I go to the bathroom and take a shower then wear my school
uniform, we go to the car and he drops me off at school and I
go to Penelope my friend here at school.
Me: Hey Penny.
Penny: Hello Lathi, so that was your man huh?
Me: Yes..
Penny: He has a nice car.
Me: Yeah let's go to class.
We continue with our classes lunch time we go to our spot
where we sit and eat with the other girls who loves talking
about boyfriends and sex.
I listen to them talking about their sex lives how good their
boyfriends are in bed and everything, most girls in my class
are way older than me.
I'm just quiet I hear Penny calling out my name.
Penny: Why you so quiet? How is Mr man that brings you to
school is in bed come on give us the details, judging from the
car he is driving he's got to be good.
I just chuckle looking down.
Penny: Come on.
I sigh dramatically and they laugh.
Me: Honestly guys he is just fine.
Penny: What do you mean fine?
Me: I don't know if maybe i'm comparing him with my ex,
but he doesn't satisfy me sexually like how my ex did.
Penny: Ooh that's bad.
Me: Eveything is good but sex, no.
Phelo: Maybe you should take charge, spice things up a bit
and do all the work.
I nod, i'm actually concidering it because Senzo really
doesn't do it like Ntsika and he cums like seconds after
putting it in, it frustrates me sometimes.
I'm with Penny outside the school gate waiting for our
transport.
Penny: Why did you break up with your ex?
Me: Uhm why are you asking?
Penny: I couldn't help notice that you compare him a lot with
your current boyfriend.
Me: Oh I didn't notice, it's just that my Ex is the only guy I
enjoyed sex with so it's only fair for me to compare Senzo
with him.
Penny: Ohk I get it, see you tomorrow then that's my ride.
We hug and she runs off to her transport mine arrives a
minute later.
I get home and take a bath wear my matching panty and bra
then put on a little gown and wait in bed for Senzo to arrive.
I hear the door opening and I stand up and go to him, I take
his bag and put it on the table.
Me: How was your day?
Senzo: It wasn't bad.
I nod and unbotton his shirt, he looks at me smiling.
Me: I want to show you something.
Senzo: What is it?
I take off all his clothes he is just looking at me.
I kneel and hold his dick and put it in my mouth.
Senzo: What...what..
He is shaking already I suck for like three, four times he
shoots his cum straight to my throat.
He moves to bed and sit down catching his breath.
Senzo: Shit..that was yhoo!
Me: Want me to do more?
Senzo: What? Right now?
I look at him.
Senzo: I don't think I can get it up for now I just came.
Me: I can get it up.
I say going to him and start kissing him and touching him, it
gets hard and I push him to bed and take off my gown and
get ontop of him, I move my panty to the side, like how
Ntsika usually does it and he used to say it turns him on
more, I slide his dick in and start moving.
Senzo: Shit..why didn't you take off your panty baby.
Me: It's fine like this..
I move ontop of him and for the first time ever since we
started having sex I actually enjoy it I might do this
everyday, be on top.
Senzo: Ooh shit.
I continue to move until I feel an orgasm building up and I
move faster he groans and we both cum, finally I enjoyed sex
with him. I sleep next to him.
Senzo: Yhoo you almost killed me, that was good.
I giggle, now I can finally clear my head off of Ntsika's sex
game and focus on mine and Senzo's.
I am happy with him and I am staying with him.
*
LANGA
*
So I'm a married man to the most handsome man I have ever
seen and we are happy.
It's our last day of our honeymoon here and it's been a total
bliss.
Me: Am I the only one who think that sex is different when
you have a ring on your finger?
He laughs really hard.
Sfiso: Langelihle stop being silly.
Me: No I am serious, you want me to show you how different
it is?
Sfiso: Langa we have been having sex for the whole week,
why would you want to show me the difference now.
I laugh.
Me: I really want you right now.
I say showing him my erection.
Sfiso: You could have just said that then and don't try to
manipulate me.
He says chuckling and I kiss him.
Me: Thank you.
Sfiso: For what?
Me: Seeing me worthy being your husband, you know I had
told myself that I will never get married again in my life but
here I am with the love of my life with the rings on our
fingers and happy.
Sfiso: It's all about choosing the right person to settle down
with, I know I chose well with you, I don't want to be
anywhere else but here with you for the rest of my life.
Me: I feel the same way about you baby, we will make this
work no matter what.
Sfiso: Now about that offer of showing me the differe..
I don't wait for him to finish,I starts kissing him roughly and
get ontop of him.
Me: I love you Sfiso..
We are breathing heavily I can feel his his dick getting hard
as I kiss him.
I move my hand to take the lubricant and massage his dick
then slowly put it all on me, the way his dick stimulates my
prostate makes me lose it, I feel cum splashing out of my dick
same time, he moves me and get behind me, he enters his
dick and start hitting the spot again.
Me: Fuck...Sfiso..
Sfiso: Yes baby..this feels so good..
He pulls me up while still fucking me, he kiss me while
pounding on me fast.
I feel him tensing up behind me and he groans loud.
Sfiso: Langelihle! Shit..I love you so much..mmmm.
We sleep in bed holding each other.
After a while I get up and look at him laughing.
Sfiso: What is it?
Me: You almost died when Lona came into the hall on our
wedding day.
Sfiso: Just like you, you were sweating.
We laugh.
Me: I felt tears burning my eyes man.
Sfiso: I had to blink them away, i've never been that scared in
my life.
Me: I know right.
Sfiso: So uhm babe, have you ever thought of uhm, ay never
mind let's take a shower.
He says quickly getting up.
Me: Come back to bed Sfiso.
Sfiso: We need to leave in an hour.
I look at him, he comes back and look away.
Me: Didn't they tell us that communication is important in a
marriage.
Sfiso: They did.
Me:Then what are you doing Sfiso?
Sfiso: It's just that I think it's too soon to talk about this.
Me: But it's on your mind now spit it out.
Sfiso: I was thinking about how are we going to have kids..
Now the cat has caught my tongue, I don't know what to say,
I know there are options such as adoption and many more
but I haven't thought about us having kids at all.
I clear my throat.
Me: Maybe we should really talk about this some other time.
Sfiso: When it suits you?
Me: What?
He get up and walk to the bathroom, I follow him he is taking
a shower.
Me: Sfiso.
Sfiso: Ja Langa.
Me: We are not fighting right?
Sfiso: No we're not.
Me: Then turn around and stop giving me your back.
Sfiso: You came in here after me Langa I was already facing
this direction.
I move and stand in front of him.
Sfiso: I always told you to close your eyes when you're in the
shower.
Me: I know but I never listen anyway.
He smile and we shower in silence until he starts talking
Sfiso: I know Lona will start giving me trouble when I ask to
see my daughter now I have to go to court while it's still
early to start with the process of getting visitations.
Me: I get it, I mean she hasn't allowed you to see her, you
only saw her once when you went to pay damages.
Sfiso: Yeah man talk about a bitter baby mama.
Me: I'm glad I don't have one of those.
Sfiso: Are you sure you don't?
Me: Yes i'm sure.
Sfiso: but it looks like you had a very colourful past.
I look at him.
Sfiso: I don't mean that in a bad way.
Me: Of course you don't, nxxh!
I walk out of the shower and start packing our bags.
He comes back minutes later.
Sfiso: I'm sorry if that came out the wrong way I was just
joking.
Me: Then your joke wasn't funny to me!
I say shouting.
Sfiso: I'm sorry.
I sit down and look down as I feel tears filling my eyes, I
know what he meant by a "colourful past", he is talking
about Nomfundo my teacher that I slept with, we haven't
talked about it at all after she came to Andrea's office.
Me: I wasn't myself.
I say still keeping my head down as tears fall.
Sfiso: Langa, are you crying? Baby i'm sorry.
He says sitting next to me.
Me: They thought it was funny to use me to get to my
mother!
Sfiso: Baby I didn't mean to upset you I was just...
I continue to cry, I don't know why this is all coming back
now, It's only now that I feel that pain those two demonic
brothers put me through.
I feel his hands around me.
Sfiso: Baby look at me..
I wipe my tears and look at him.
Sfiso: I don't care about your past ok, it doesn't mean shit to
me okay, you are mine now, I was just joking believe me I
didn't mean to upset you like this.
He place his hands on my face and kiss me.
Sfiso: I'm sorry, it was a bad joke.
I chuckle.
Me: I'm sorry too, I took it to heart.
He hold me in his arms tight.
Me: Can't you ask dad to give you just one more day.
Sfiso: Cha Langa siyagoduka.(No Langa we're going home)
Me: Ngendlela omubi ngayo mowusho leyonto.(the way
you're so ugly when you say that.)
He chuckle and look deep in my eyes.
Sfiso: I love you so much Langa.
And I can see it in his eyes that he mean every word.
Me: I love you too Langa.
He smiles at me moving his hands on my upper body.
Me: Sfiso..
Sfiso: I want to show you how sorry i am for making you cry.
We have one steamy sex before we drive home.
On our way home I'm not talking to him and he is just
laughing.
Sfiso: Langa stop being grumpy we spent the whole week
alone.
Me: I wanted just one more day.
Sfiso: How about we go again this weekend then baby?
Me: Are you serious?
Sfiso: Yes I am.
Me: Now we can talk.
He laughs out loud as we approach the gate at home, I can
see a lady holding a baby and the bags next to her.
Me: Oh God..
I say rolling my eyes.
Sfiso huffs.
She doesn't know Auntie Mbali and Sunny this one.
He stops the car next to Lona and we both step out, I lean on
the car and play with my ring looking at them.
Lona: Sfiso..
Sfiso: How did you find this place?
Lona: I asked around It wan't hard, people know this family.
Sfiso: Why are you here?
Lona: My father chased me out, he saw that you got married,
he had hope that you're going to marry me but now that
you're already married he chased me out.
I see Sfiso brushing his hair and he looks at me.
Lona: Please Sfiso just marry me, I will be your wife and he
can be your husband.
I look at her like, is this girl crazy? Has she lost her damn
mind!?
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
LANGA
*
I'm still standing there watching Sfiso looking at Lona with
his hands on his waist.
I am getting angrier by every second that passes, like how
dare she suggest something like that to my husband right in
front of me, this girl doesn't know me at all.
Sfiso: Have you fucken lost your mind Lona?
Lona: Sfiso please think about our baby we can raise her
together like how I always imagined, me and you as a family
with our kids.
Me: Sfiso.
He turns to look at me.
Me: Get me inside my home then continue with whatever it
is you're talking about there.
He continue to stare at me.
Sfiso: Baby can you believe this girl.
He look really puzzled and it's funny as hell but i'm not going
to laugh not right now.
Sfiso: Go back home Lona my husband and I just came back
from a very long trip so please sisi.
Lona: What about our baby she is hungry Sfiso we haven't
eaten since morning.
I look at the baby, she is just looking around and she sure
does look like Sfiso.
He looks at me again this time it's not a puzzled look but he
looks like he doesn't know what to say or do, I don't know
either.
Sfiso: Lona this is not my house what will Langa's family say
when I just walk in with you.
Me: Our family Sfiswesihle.
Lona: Langa please just let me marry him.
Me: I won't share Sfiso, never! You can go to hell!Sfiso get in
the car.
He comes to me and hold my neck.
Sfiso: What am I going to do baby? That is my daughter.
Me: What do you want to do?
Sfiso: I have no idea, please tell me what to do Langa, I can't
take them inside your mom's house that would be
disrespectful.
I huff and go to Lona.
Me: Please listen to me carefully, Don't ever ask Sfiso to
marry you, he is married to me and there won't be any
second wedding that will involve either of us, you
understand me?
She just look at me.
Me: You better lose that attitude if you don't want to be left
here stranded alone because we can take the baby and leave
you here.
Lona: i'm sorry.
Me: Give me the baby.
She gives the baby to me.
Me: Take your bags and load them in the car.
I open the boot and then go to Sfiso who is standing in the
same position, I'm holding the baby in my arms.
Me: Say hello to daddy.
Sfiso: Langa..
Me: Take her.
He takes her from my arms. I look at Lona she is done
loading the bags inside. I open the car at the back.
Me: Get in.
I go to the drivers side, Sfiso give Lona the baby and and get
in next to me.
I feel his hand on thigh.
I drive to Ushaka Marine and walk in with them, I hope no
one cause a scene because I still am skeptical about going
out in public.
Me: You can order anything.
Lona: Is he the one calling the shots in your "Marriage"?
Me: You really don't want to piss me off right now Lona.
I call my brother Ntsika.
Ntsika: I thought you'd be here by now I miss you.
Me: I know, something came up Sir, can you do me a favour
and search for any available flats around in a reasonable
price and also fully furnished.
Ntsika: I can do that, are you guys moving out?
Me: No, not yet i'm just trying to find a flat for one rude
chicken called Lona.
I hear Sfiso chuckling twice then burst into a loud laughter.
She takes a glass of water and throws water at me.
Ntsika: Langelihle you will never stop being rude, let me
search for this flat you will tell me all about it when you get
home.
Me: Thanks.
I wipe my face and my phone that has water and look at her.
Sfiso is still laughing the baby is looking at us like we're
crazy.
Me: That's the second strike Lona, first you asked my
husband to marry you now you're throwing water at me ,
one more strike we will leave you here with a bill alone and
you will pay by washing dishes.
Sfiso stands up and walk outside, I know he wants to
continue to laugh.
I order for Sfiso and a kiddies meal and Lona orders for
herself.
Me: Stay away from my husband Lona because I can make
your life a living hell, hope i'm clear.
She looks away.
Me: You might have hit me with a brick and damaged my car
but I will do worse to you trust me.
Sfiso comes back and sit down.
His eyes are red from all the laughing he was doing outside.
Me: I love you.
Sfiso: I love you too baby, I want to kiss you so bad but we
might just be attacked.
Me: I know right, but we have the rest of our lives to kiss,
just us in our marriage no third parties.
Sfiso: no third parties my love.
I look at Lona her eyes are glassy I almost feel sorry for her,
almost, maybe if I didn't vow that 'till death do us part' I
would be telling Sfiso to go back to her but I love my
husband and I will never let anyone get between us.
I look at the baby I think she is 12-18 months, a beautiful
little girl.
Sfiso: Langa..
I look at him.
Sfiso: Are you okay, I have been calling your name.
Me: Yeah i'm fine.
We finish eating and Sfiso pays.
Sfiso: Ntsika is calling.
Me: Put him on speaker.
Ntsika: little bro, I found an available flat I will send you the
address now.
Me: Thank you bro I will see you in 2 hours from now.
Ntsika: Ok Mr Langa.
I chuckle, and Sfiso drops the call.
A message comes through and I look at it, I can see it's not
that far from home, I drive there and we all walk in and find
the owner already there. We look around.
Me: Do you like it Lona? Is it good for you and the baby?
Lona: Yeah.
Me: Oh good,you can start looking for a job and sfiso and I
will look for a day care for her.
Lona: Sfiso why aren't you saying anything,you are the
father not him.
Me: Lona do you want me to send you back home or leave
you stranded.
Lona: No.
Me: Then tone the attitude down a little.
I transfer rent money to the owner's account and she leaves.
Me: Let's go to the mall fast and get the important things
please i'm tired.
Sfiso: Let me drive baby.
We drive to the mall and she get everything she will need
and we drive her back to the flat.
Lona: Can I talk to you Sfiso, in private.
Sfiso:No can do, you can talk right here.
Lona: You can't expect us to sleep here alone Sfiso we are
not used to this place.
I huff and walk out and Sfiso follows after me.
Me: I told you I wanted to stay just one more day at that
resort it was so peaceful.
Sfiso: I know I should have listened to you, Thank you for
this I know you're doing it for my daughter.
Me: It's okay.
Sfiso: Are you okay though?
Me: We will talk at home.
I kiss him and get in the car he drives home.
Me: This time Sfiso act fast before Lona uses your daughter
to get to you like what Samke did, I don't know what you're
going to do but whatever it is do it fast.
I say looking out the window,he takes my hand and hold it
tight.
*
NTSIKA
*
What can I say, life is going well, my kids are growing,
Ntsoaki and I are taking things slow but sexually oh damn!
there's no slow in that, we do it every chance we get.
I am waiting for Langa and Sfiso to come home , i'm with my
girls in the dining room.
I hear the car outside then minutes later the married couple
walk in holding each other's hands but they don't look too
good for people who just came back from their honeymoon.
Sfiso: Ntsika how are you man?
I get up and shoulder bump both of them.
Langa: Uhm am I seeing double?
I chuckle.
Me: Yeah hey things that Lathitha do, brothers meet Thando
Ntando's twin sister.
Langa: Do I even have to ask?
I shake my head.
Me: So why are you so sour?
Langa: I think we have another Samke situation.
Me: The girl at the wedding?
He nods and we sit down.
Me: I want us to go to greatgrandfather.
Langa: Uhm is there anything wrong?
Me: No, but Miyalo and Nkanyezi are expecting a baby so we
have to do something to make sure they don't lose this one.
Langa: Wow another addition in the family, that's great.
I see Sfiso taking Langa's hand, he really loves him infact
they love each other, they just randomly hold each other's
hands.
Langa: So when are we leaving.
Me: Let me call the old man first, I don't know if he will hear
it.
The phone rings and a deep hoarse voice answers that's my
greatgrandfather.
Ggrandfather: NtsikaYomuzi.
Me: Mkhulu unjani (how are you)
Ggrandfather: Nifike nembewu yakho.(come with your
seeds) noLangelihle eze naye nalo ashade naye (Langa must
bring his husband) uNkanyezi eze nomama wezingane
(Nkanyezi must come with the mother of his kids)uyangizwa
NtsikaYomuzi (Can you hear me NtsikaYomzi)
Me: Ngikuzwile Mkhulu sizofika ksasa ekseni.(I heard you
Grandfather, we will arrive tomorrow morning.)
We drop the call and I look at Langa.
Me: You heard that right?
Langa: I guess you're not going to work tomorrow.
Sfiso: I will have to talk to Kwanele or your dad.
Me: It's fine I will talk to them for you.
Nkanyezi comes in and greet Langa and Sfiso.
Me: "We are leaving tomorrow tell Miyah to pack and we are
leaving with the kids."
Nkanyezi: "You talked to the old man?"
Me: Yes.
Langa and Sfiso walk to their room and I go tell mom and she
comes and help me pack for the kids, at least Miyah will be
with us.
I go to Ntsoaki's house she comes out and get in the car, she
kiss me a little.
Ntsoaki: How are you?
Me: I'm good baby, can you kiss me again.
She giggles and lean over, we kiss again.
Me: I came to tell you that we are going home tomorrow
morning for a small ceremony we will come back the day
after
Ntsoaki: Ok.
Me: I will miss you.
Ntsoaki: le 'na.
Me: I love it when you speak your language it's sexy.
She smiles looking down.
Ntsoaki: Uhm so you're not coming in?
Me: Uhm no, we are leaving with the kids early in the
morning so i'm worried i'll over sleep with you in my arms.
Ntsoaki: Ohk.
Me: Don't be sad when I come back you're going to visit me
at home.
Ntsoaki: Never.
Me: Why not?
Ntsoaki: What if your mom and dad see me in their house?
Me: They will ask your name.
I say laughing.
Ntsoaki: No, I won't visit you Ntsika.
Me: So I should be the one coming over everytime?
Ntsoaki: No, we can book like how we do if the kids are here.
Me: Ok..
Silence.
Ntsoaki: Did I say something wrong baby?
Me:No i'm just thinking, I have to go now.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika..
Me: I'm just wondering if you don't think it's a turn off that
i'm still living in my mother's house, because I won't be
leaving anytime soon in fact I don't think none of my
brothers will ever leave maybe they can build their own
houses around but never leave home.
Ntsoaki: It's not like we're getting married so I don't have a
problem with where you stay or anything.
Me: Did I say we're getting married?I wanted you to answer
what I asked you.
Ntsoaki: Oh.
She opens the car and step out, I walk out and take quick
steps following her.
Me: I'm sorry.
She look at me.
Me: It's just that Lathitha had a problem with me being a
"mama's boy" , so I just..
Ntsoaki: Do I look like Lathitha nna?
Me: No..
Ntsoaki: Will you always bring her up or will I be shouted at
because of what she did to you?
Me: I'm sorry baby, I really am.
Ntsoaki: I told you that if you're not over your ex then leave
me alone, khaohana le 'na Ntsika!
She walk in and leave me brushing my hair in frustration,
what am I doing!.
I walk back to my car and drive home.
*
We wake up early and bath the kids with the help of the
nanny and mom, Uncle Kwanele got us a Quantum bus so we
can use one car.
I am the driver, and I feel some pain in my chest.
I hear Langa groaning next to me.
Sfiso: Are you ok?
Langa: No..
Me: I feel it too, what is going on, Miyah are you ok?
Miyalo: Just a little pain in my abdomen.
Me: Langa come and drive, you can drive faster.
Langa: What is going on?
Me: We need to get home fast something is wrong.
I stop the car and Langa takes the wheel I sit next to
Nkanyezi.
Me: What do you think it is?
He shakes his head, which means he doesn't know.
After a few hours we get home and we take the kids straight
to Greatgrandfathers rondavel.
We find him sitting on the chair.
We all sit down holding the babies.
Me: Mkhulu.(Grandfather)
He groans loud his head is looking down.
Ggrandfather: NtsikaYomuzi uyizwi labafowenu
elinixhumanisa namadlozi wethu.(Ntsika you are your
brothers's voice that connects you to our
ancestors.)Khuluma nabo(Talk to them.)
I kneel down and take the incense and burn it the smoke fills
the room I hear my kids coughing.
Me: Gumede, Mnguni ka Yeyeye, Osidlabehlezi bakaKhondlo
kaPhakathwayo, Qwabe..
I sing the clan praises I feel like there is power inside of me
that I can't explain, that there is a voice within me that is
coming through my mouth but doesn't belong to me.
Me: Langa no Sfiso, wozani (come)
I see them kneeling in front of me Great grandfather kneels
next to us and take a bowl and a knife, he cuts his palm a
little then squeeze blood in the bowl, he gives me the knife I
do the same and pass it to Langa, he does the same and then
he give it to Sfiso.
Greatgrandfather: Ungomunye wethu amadlozi avumile
Sifiswsihle.(You are one of us the ancestors approved
Sfiswesihle).
Sfiso does the same. And I call Miyah and Nkanyezi. They
kneel too.
I give the knife to Nkanyezi he does the same cutting of the
palm then Miyah.
Greatgrandfather: We are tying the blood of that seed
growing inside you with that of Ntsika's seeds.
He takes another bowl and Nkanyezi cuts Miyah's palm and
pour it to a different bowl, Langa and Sfiso takes the girls
and just cut them a little and the boys too.
Greatgrandfather: This will be done from generation to
generation, so as I finish my journey on this land today,
Ntsika you will carry this tradition throughout, that way we
will always be binded by blood, we feel each other's pain to
be able to protect one another.
I groan first then I hear Sfiso and Langa doing the same then
Nkanyezi, there is a sharp pain in my heart I guess they feel
it too.
Me: Miyah take the kids out of here.
She get up and take Ntando.
Me: Nkanyezi take them to the car and come back.
They walk out with the twins and Nkanyezi come back.
Greatgrandfather: I know you felt it, its my time now, my
journey ends here, Protect one another there is a huge storm
coming and you need to be One, do you hear me Sfiso.
Sfiso nods.
Greatgrandfather: You are one of us now, We are one.
He sleep on his bed facing up we get up and stand next to his
bed. Our groans fill the entire room as he takes his last
breath.
I close his eyes.
Me: Gumede, Phakathwayo, Mnguni kaYeyeye.
We sit down in silence.
Sfiso: Is there anyone who is living here with him?
Me: I think so, let me go check.
I go to the main house and find an old woman and a young
girl.
Me: Hello.
Woman: You must be Ntsika your greatgrandfather told us
you're coming I am your great aunt.
Me: Yes Ma, uhm he has passed on.
She nods then wail loud and the girl follows.
I walk back to the rondavel.
We prepare the burial of Greatgrandfather and lay him to
rest, we have been here the whole week and the aunt told us
he had already said his goodbyes he was just waiting for us
to come home.
Now I am worried about the great storm that
greatgrandfather warned us about.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
We are driving back home everyone is tired it's been a very
busy week with greatgrandfathers death and I'm sure
everyone is scared of what the big storm is and who is it
directed to.
And me being the father I am scared for my kids and the one
that Miyalo is carrying and as brothers we have to make sure
we keep Miyah's baby alive I feel like he is the next Ntsika,
he will be the next voice after me to connect our seeds to our
ancestors , that's what I feel deep inside me, so if anything
happens to him then the next generation is doomed the
bloodline bond will be broken and thinking about that sends
shivers down my spine I mean what will we be without our
ancestors because with this storm we will need them and
each other.
All this time I am driving and I stop the car as I'm startled by
hearing the baby's cry, someone shouts my name.
Sfiso: Ntsika.
Me: mmmm
Sfiso: Move over, let Langa drive you almost lost control of
the car.
I look behind me, Ntando is the baby that is crying in Miyah's
arms, I step out of the car and go at the back taking Ntando
and lay her in my chest she sleeps after a while, Langa starts
the car and drive at home.
Just when we're about to reach the tar road from the gravel
Langa stops the car into a halt.
Langa: What the hell!
I look around there is a huge snake passing right infront of
the car.
It surrounds the car I look around checking if all the
windows are closed Miyah is breathing heavily and Star is
holding her hand.
Me: Breathe Miyah ok, breathe.
Now it's like it is staring at us in the front windscreen.
Me: Manqoba close your eyes boy.
I say quickly putting my hands on his face covering his eyes,
his brother is sleeping.
Sfiso: Ntsika how are we doing this?
Me: Uhm eish I don't know.
Sfiso: Think man this snake is dangerous it's spit can literally
break this windscreen.
Me: Uhm ok uh check inside the bag and get the incence for
me.
He looks in every bag but can't find it.
Sfiso: Mmm I think it's in one of the bags in the boot.
Me: Shit!
I look at Ntando.
Me: Langa check if there is anything I can use to cut the goat
skin on Ntando's wrist.
He give me the scissor I cut one of the bangle goat skin
because they all have two each.
Me: Borrow me a lighter.
Sfiso give it to me. Uncle Kwanele will havr to forgive me this
is an emergency I am burning this skin right here in the car
on these mat.
The smell of the goat skin fills the car and everyone starts
coughing.
Me: Gumede, Phakathwayo, Qwabe hambani nathi nisivikele
endleleni eya ekhaya.(Go with us and protect us on our way
home.
Once the smoke clears I look around and I don't see any
snake.
Me: Are you ok Miyah?
Miyalo: Yeah I'm fine, I just don't like snakes and i've never
seen such a huge snake in my life, it would have swallowed
this whole car.
Me: Yeah ey I think what is coming is bigger than us.
Langa: Now I have no idea what is happening.
I step out of the car and Langa too we can see the snake is
dead in front of the car.
I go around the car and get the petrol and pour it on the
snake.
Me: Move the car away a bit.
Langa get in the car and reverse the car a bit.
I squirt in front of it.
Me: If you're an enemy then go back to where you come from
and tell your friends we are waiting and ready for you.
I throw the lighter and it all up in flames, I get in the car and
we continue with our journey home.
We get home and mom and my aunts rush to us hugging
everyone and taking the kids.
Ziyanda: How was the funeral, your greatgrandfather was a
good man.
Me: It was big the whole community was there even your
friend Lindile.
Ziyanda: I was working and Viwe had a bad fever I would
have loved to come.
Me: It's ok I know you were with us at heart.
Ziyanda: You have grown all of you and I'm so proud of you.
Me: Thank you mother I wish I can grow in love as well.
She laughs.
Ziyanda: Oh i'm sure you will find someone soon.
Me: Not when I keep messing up sis nobody likes a man who
keep talking about their ex.
Ziyanda: Ntsika you need to move on from that girl baby ok.
Mbali: Come on in and eat I prepared a feast.
Sunshine: Yeah i'm sure you did, Ziyanda and I prepared that
food while you were busy talking none stop.
Mbali: Mxm I don't even know what Kwanele saw in this
pretty ass.
I laugh, that's more like a compliment than an insult.
We all walk in but I walk out again to get my phone, the tyres
of the car we were driving are flat.
Me: Langa!
I shout his name he comes out.
Langa: Sure.
Me: Look..
I point at the tyres, he look shocked.
Langa: But we just go here with this car, when did all the
tyres get flat?
We walk around the car and I squart looking at the tyre.
Me: These look like Snake bites.
I feel dizzy and I balance my hand on the ground.
Me: Langa step back quick!
I blink a few times and look up, there is a small snake where
Langa was standing before he stepped back.
I get up and look for something I can hit it with, and I find a
stick, I smash it's head a couple of times.
Nkanyezi rushes out followed by Sfiso.
They look at us then the snake.
Nkanyezi: "What the hell is happening here, our kids are not
safe with all these snakes that keep popping up."
Me: "This one was going for Langelihle."
Mbali: Come on guys the food is getting cold.
Me: "Please get the matches for me inside brother."
They all walk in and Nkanyezi and I burn the snake.
Nkanyezi: "Is this what greatgrandfather was talking about?"
Me: "It's scary but I will keep burning every last one of them
until it leads us to the owner if it has one."
We walk inside and eat but i'm distracted by these snakes
and i'm really worried about my kids's safety.
*
Later i'm coming out of the shower and I decide to call
Ntsoaki we haven't talked ever since our little fight that day.
I keep hurting her because of someone who clearly doesn't
want me in her life and has long moved on and I hate myself
for that.
Ntsoaki: What is it?
Me: Hey baby.
She doesn't reply. I hear her sigh.
Ntsoaki: Ntho ena ha e sebetse so please leave me alone.(this
thing is not working.)
Me: I want to apologise please.
Ntsoaki: You've been apologising from the beginning, you
don't know what you want and I don't want someone who
acts like a confused little boy in a candy shop, you can't
decide what you really want and stick to it Ntsika, so please
find someone else.
She drops the call and I sit in bed and huff.
I call her again and it just drops I think Miss Ntsoaki blocked
me.
I get dressed and take my car keys walking out and drive to
Ntsoaki's house I hoot and send countless texts but it's
pointless she is not coming out or texting back.
I start the car and my phone rings, I stop to answer the call.
Sfiso: Ntsika!
Me: Why are you shouting.
Sfiso: Man don't drive, step out of that car now.
I step out and move away from the car.
Me: What is it?
Sfiso: I don't know man, what did your grandfather do to us?
Me: He connected all of us with blood, you saw it, wait...
I look closely to the car there are hisses everywhere, the
Snakes, if I had fear of snakes I would have long fainted by
now. There are like three of them inside moving around.
Sfiso: Langa and I are coming there send us the address.
I send it to them and wait at Ntsoaki's gate, I really should
stay away, what if those snakes came out while I was with
her in the car.
I see Langa's car coming they stop next to my car and step
out.
Langa: This is crazy, these snakes are taking over i'm even
afraid of sleeping I will feel Sfiso's dick and think it's a snake.
I laugh so loud that my stomach hurts, trust Langa to say
something like that.
Sfiso: Really Langelihle, you gonna say something like that at
a time like this.
We continue to laugh out loud.
Until we hear someone clearing their throat, It's Ntsoaki and
she's so pretty.
Ntsoaki: Hello.
She says in her hoarse voice, my dick reacts I imagine her
saying my name in that voice.
Langa: Hey Ntsoaki right.
She smiles.
Ntsoaki: Uhm hello guys how was your honeymoon.
Langa: It was great thank you.
Ntsoaki: Ok and why are you guys making noise outside of
my flat?
Langa: Sizokuthwala.
He says and follow with his loud laugh( Ukuthwala is what
was done before where a man takes a girl more like kidnap
her and marry her.)
I look at Ntsoaki she look confused.
Me: Uhm he is just playing, they came to fetch me, my car has
a problem.
Ntsoaki: Ok bye Langa and you Sfiso.
She walk away, what about me?
Langa: Did you guys fight?
Me: Yeah I always mess up man and it's time I leave her
alone.
Langa: Shame thank God i'm married there's no leaving me,
someone is stuck with me for life.
Sfiso: Shame I feel sorry for the poor me, Let's go home.
Me: So we're leaving my car here?
Langa: You wanna get in there with the snakes?
We get into the car and drive home.
Langa: We will check it in the morning.
We go home and I go to my room and text Ntsoaki
Me: *I'm sorry for hurting you, I will stay away from you,but
I still love you*
I send it and go to bed.
In the middle of the night I feel like someone is strangling
me,I can see the face, it looks very familiar,I wake up gasping
for air and sit up when I touch my neck it's painful, I don't
know if it was a dream or real but the pain i'm feeling makes
me believe that someone was definitely in my room.
I go to the bathroom and wash my face then walk out and
knock on Langa's room and Nkanyezi come out of his room
he is sweating.
Langa open the door.
Langa: I won't ask, we need to tell mom and dad this is
getting too much.
Me: Let's wait till it's morning.
Langa: Nop, never ,i'm waking them up right now.
He says walking away, we sit in the lounge and wait for
Langa.
He comes back with mom and dad.
Luyolo: What is wrong boys?
Langa tell them what we have been experiencing from
snakes to feeling like someone is strangling us.
Luyolo: Even you Sfiso?
Me: Yes, Greatgrandfather binded us, he said he is one of us
now that he is married to Langa and we have to protect each
other.
Dad sighs.
Ziyanda: Dad have to come back then.
Langa: Please..I see those snakes whenever I close my eyes.
I go back to my room and sleep.
In the morning I wake up and check if maybe Ntsoaki replied
but nothing, I go to the bathroom and go back to my room I
find my boys sitting in my bed.
Me: Morning Nqoba.
I fist bump both of them.
Me: So I am taking you to day care today?
Nqoba: No grandpa is taking us, sizothi bye (we came to say
bye.)
Me: Ok I love you.
Manqoba|Nqoba: We love you too dad, bye.
They walk out I smile proudly, I really love them.
I follow shortly after them, I hug mom and kiss her cheek.
Ziyanda: Morning Piller.
Me: Hey mom how are you?
Ziyanda: I should be asking you that after what you guys
went through last night.
Me: It didn't happen again.
Ziyanda: Thank God I was so scared.
Me: When is Grandpa coming.
Grandpa: How about now?
He says coming in I rush to him and hug him.
Grandpa: Someone missed me.
I smile looking down, sometimes I forget i'm old now, the
excitement of seeing the old man is still there like before
when we were kids.
Grandpa: I missed you too NtsikaYekhaya.
Langa and Sfiso comes in and I see the excitement on Langa's
face as he hugs grandpa, that's exactly how I felt.
We go sit around the table and Miyah and star come in and
sit down, Miyah looks like she is in pain and was crying.
Me: "What's wrong with her?"
Nkanyezi: "She feel a bit of pain in her tummy now she think
there is something wrong with the baby."
Me: Come on buddy you know we won't let anything happen
to the little star there ok.
She nods.
Me: Now smile you look ugly when you're grumpy.
We tell Grandpa what has been happening around us and he
said he will come back with a Seer later and we shouldn't
fetch my car yet.
I go fetch my kids from Daycare with Nkanyezi's, I see
Ntsoaki's car but I decide to stay in the car until she drives
away, and I get out and walk and take my boys when I walk
out Miss Naidoo calls me.
Naidoo: Hey Ntsika Miss Ntsoaki left this, she said it's for
you.
I take the plastic bag and walk to the car, I open the plastic it
has the tshirt I gave to her one time we were at the hotel and
she said she likes it and I gave it to her and went home
wearing a sweater, I guess she doesn't like it anymore and
that hurts but it's good man.
I drive home and the minute I walk in the aura around the
house is so heavy it's weighing me down.
Ntsika: Get in guys i'm coming.
I sit on the veranda and My brothers, Sfiso, dad and Grandpa
walk out with a Seer.
But the seer/traditional healer stand far from me.
Seer: I'm sorry for being here I know you feel like i'm
sucking the power from you which is because I was reading
you the time you stepped in this yard, your blood and his
blood were used to finish off the entire family, from his side
and your side of the family.
I look where she is pointing and that's Sfiso.
Seer: I can't decide for you but what I can tell you is that
both of you have a decision to make and you will have to
make them sooner before this wipes off your entire
existence and that of the future generation.
Lukhele: What does that mean?
Seer: Look for the source, they used the blood of your seeds,
It wasn't a mistake that you got married to this family, it was
because your family and this family have a common enemy
and it all lies in both of you, Ntsika and you Sfiso, the
decisions will be taken by you.
I am confused as hell I look at my family they look just as
confused.
Me: Can't you tell us who this enemy is.
Seer: Figure it out I have said too much already, Lukhele.
She bows.
Lukhele: Go and open the gate Langelihle.
He walk to the gate and open the seer walk out.
Langa: What the hell was that?
Sfiso: I feel like she didn't say anything at all.
Langa: Me too baby me too.
Me: And ya'll here think it's time to be calling each other
baby.
Lukhele: It's not our fault that you're single NtsikaYekhaya
Me: Wow!
Langa: Yhoo!!
They all start laughing at me, I shake my head smiling but
deep down I know we are all worried about what the seer
said.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
*
Things have been tense Grandpa is sitting on his chair on a
table and we are sitting infront of him, we are all calling out
who we think this common enemy may be, I mean we only
knew Sfiso because of Langa.
Me: Uhm so Nkanyezi do you have anyone who would want
you dead.
Nkanyezi: "There is Menzi, Miyah's ex boyfriend I once beat
him up at his own house.
Me: I have Lazola I killed her suger daddy in front of her, and
Lathitha who I have no idea what I did to her but she hates
me.
Sfiso: I have Lona and Samke's mother who hates me for
killing her daughter.
Langa: Well uhm I have Lona too and maybe Nomfundo.
He shrug his shoulders.
Lukhele: So we have Menzi, Lazola, Lathitha then Lona.
Me: These people don't know each other though.
Sfiso: But which seeds was that seer talking about.
Me: I think Thando, why was Lathitha keeping my baby only
to bring her later, I don't buy this " She was crying too much"
babies cry.
Sfiso: And I think Lona because she is the only one with my
baby now.
Langa: But Lathitha is from here and Lona is from Ixopo.
Me: This thing is just so confusing.
Nkanyezi: "And it chose to happen now that I have a baby on
the way and it doesn't help that she has been losing my
babies all along."
He walks through the passage and I huff.
Lukhele: Go to your brother.
We all get up and follow Nkanyezi to the gym room and find
him punching the bag so fast and hard.
I hold it and shake my head.
He step back and sit down leaning on the wall, I sit next to
him and Langa sits next to me then Sfiso sit next to Langa
and he do what he always do, hold Langa's hand.
We all sit in silence.
Next thing I feel a wave of fear and I have no idea where it
comes from, i'm shaking and I feel like letting the tears fall.
After a while I feel normal again.
Me: What are we going to do? it feels like we have hit a dead
end.
Langa: Maybe we should look back and find our family's
enemies before we were born or when we were kids maybe
we are not the problem here, babe we might need your mom
and your aunt.
Sfiso: I'll call them and tell them to come here.
Langa: We just got married we shouldn't be finding
ourselves in these predicaments.
Sfiso: I know but we will fine.
Then the hiss sound we quickly get up and I pull Nkanyezi up
quick since he can't hear that sound.
Langa: Where is it coming from..Ntsika there are kids in this
house!there is mom!
Me: Langa I know stop shouting!
We are both shouting at each other.
I look at Nkanyezi.
Me: "We hear the sounds of the snakes but we don't know
where they're coming from."
Nkanyezi: "I can see you're freaked out."
We are all standing in the same position.
I look down on the door I see one Snake coming in and it's
not a little snake.
We all step back as it is coming straight at us.
Me: Langa get out of here, and you Sfiso all of you.
Langa: But what abou..
Me: Stop talking Langa and get the hell out!
The snake is so close yet these morons haven't moved an
inch.
Sfiso: Langelihle go.
Me: But I said all of you, do you have a plan?
Sfiso: No, do you?
I look at Nkanyezi he is staring at the snake not even
blinking.
I push him back but he resist.
Sfiso step back and and pick up something and throws it at
the snake,it smash it's head same time.
And we all rush out and i'm pulling Nkanyezi's hand who
was still staring at the snake without blinking.
We go look for the kids and find them with everyone in the
lounge.
Ziyanda: Why are you guys rushing in like that, and you're
sweating.
Me: It's getting worse mom.
Ziyanda: What is it?
I don't want to scare her and tell her about the snake that
was inside this house.
Me: Uhm we felt like someone was trying to strangle us
again.
Lukhele: This is getting out of hand now, who is messing
with my family?
He says getting up.
Sfiso: I think I have to go get Lona see if I can find something.
Me: We will go with you.
I go to Ntando and Thando because they have their hands up,
I take Ntando first and kiss her then Thando but when I look
at her wrist there is something like a snake bite but an old
wound.
Me: "But how did I miss this?I am always with them I have
never seen this before, this looks like a snake bite.
Mom come closer and look at it.
Ziyanda: It looks like it, but when did she get it? I haven't
seen it too.
Sfiso: I think we should go fetch my daughter from Lona.
Luyolo: I will drive another car we need to get that Lona
here too.
We drive together with my brothers and Dad and Uncle
Mandisi drive behind us.
We get to this Lona's flat and knock and she opens the door
and widens her eyes as soon as she see us.
Sfiso: Where is my daughter?
Lona: Uhm what..what is going on?
Sfiso push her and get in and he comes out holding his
daughter and he gives her to Langa.
Sfiso: Let's go.
Lona: Where are you taking me?
Sfiso: You wanted me to take you as my wife right? So this is
it let's go.
Lona: No..uhm I can't go.
Sfiso: You don't want to be my wife anymore?
Lona: No..
Sfiso: Then let's go.
He says pulling her arm and we all go to the car, he throws
her at the back seat of dad's car and come back to the car
and we drive home.
We all get inside the house.
Langa: She has the same bite mark on her wrist Sfiso.
Sfiso: Lona why does my daughter has a snake bite?when
was she bitten by a snake?
Lona: I don't know what you're talking about i've never seen
any bite mark.
Sfiso: Get up.
He pulls her up and turn her around.
Sfiso: Look at this guys.
We come closer and we see a small snake tattoo on her
lower back.
Sfiso: Isn't this the same kind of Snake that we always see.
Me: It definitely is.
Sfiso: Lona what is going on, yiu always had this tattoo what
does it mean?
Lona: Nothing it's just a tattoo.
Langa: I'm getting more confused by every second that
passes.
Lona starts laughing like real hard we all just look at her.
Lukhele: Little girl are you going to tell us what is going on
and why all this is happening to my grandchildren or should
I make you talk.
Lona: You can try but we are not gonna stop until all of you
die.
Sfiso slap her and his daughter and Thandk starts screaming,
Lona laugh out loud.
Lona: You hurt me, you hurt both of them not only your
greatgrandfather knows about binding people.
Sfiso: No.
He looks at me and I don't know what to say i'm just
defeated, I take my daughter and rock her back and forth.
So we can't force her to tell us the truth without hurting our
kids.
Langa: Lona what did we do? why are all these snakes keep
showing up?
Lona: You all messed with the wrong family, it will keep
coming and one bite of that snake you're all dead.
I sit down and huff.
Me: Do you know Lathitha?
She laugh shaking her head but doesn't reply.
Me: How am I going to find Lathitha? How can I bring her
back here she doesn't want anything to do with me.
We hear the buzz at the gate Langa buzz whoever it is in.
And two sister walk in, they are wearing very short dresses
and heels.
Me: Lathitha?
They look so angry when I look closely at Lazola's neck there
is the same tattoo that Lona has.
Lona stands up smiling and hug Lazola then Lathi.
Lona: You came for me.
We are all looking at them confused.
Me: Lathi what is going on?
Lathi: We came to fetch our sister.
Me: Lona is your sister?
Lathi: Yes..
Her eyes are cold, she is angry.
Lukhele: Little girls talk now.
He says taking out a gun and point at them but they just
giggle looking at each other.
Lona: You don't get it old man you hurt me, you hurt their
precious daughters.
Lathi: Now buzz us out, Ntsika.
I am looking at her and I realise how much I still love her
even though I should be hating her right now.
Me: Are you still whispering things in her ear Lazola?
Lazola: Oh no sweety this time we all want the same thing,
all of you dead and it's only a matter of time.
Me: But our grandfather didn't bind us to all die when one of
us die, we just feel each other's pain but when one dies it's
all over just like how we felt when he died.
Lona: Well I guess our grandmother is more powerful then
because if you dare try to kill us they are dead.
She points at Thando and Sfiso's daughter.
Sfiso: She is your daughter Lona why are you using her as a
pawn to whatever game you guys are playing.
Lathi: You think we're playing here, You think this is a
game!?
She shouts and we hear the hiss sounds.
I don't know where it is coming from.
Me: Lukhele watch out!
I say pushing grandpa as the snake is just behind him, we
both fall on the ground and the kids are crying, Mom too.
I get up and stomp the snake's head countless times then go
back to grandpa who hasn't gotten up from the ground.
Me: Grandpa, are you ok?
Grandpa: Yeah I think i'm fine, I hit the ground pretty bad.
Me: I'm sorry can you get up?
I say trying to pull him up, Nkanyezi and dad help me and we
help him sit on the couch.
I get up and go to Lathitha.
Me: What is going on? Lathi why are you doing this please
just tell us what wrong did we do to all of you.
Lathi: Your family knows what they did, both Sfiso's family
and your family know what they did to our family!
She shouts again and I look around thinking that maybe
there will be another snake coming out of nowhere.
Me: Tell us what we did so we can apologise, we will give
you anything you want please.
Lathi: Anything? You mean money? We don't need your
money ok..
Me: Please we can raise our kids together Lathitha.
Lathi: I don't want anything to do with you.
Me: Then break whatever shit you did to bind yourself with
our daughters.
Lathi: No we need to make sure no one tries to hurt any of
us, your family keep hurting people but never get caught but
not anymore it ends with all of you dead.
Me: Who did we hurt!.
They just turn and walk to the door and Lazola turns.
Lazola: You're all dead, those Snakes will bite each and every
last of you, including the precious Ziyanda..
She says smiling and they walk out.
I feel like crying so bad, I look at my daughter and Sfiso's
daughter that is in Langa's arms.
Me: This is the decision the seer was talking about, if we
choose to kill them then our daughters's die with them and
if we don't kill them we are the one's dying.
Nkanyezi: "But who is a source of all this?"
I sit down, no one knows. We don't even know what we did,
we just have to wait for Sfiso's mom and aunt to come here
maybe we might find something.
Langa: I am not sleeping today..
Me: Me too bro infact I will sit on this couch till it's morning.
We go to our rooms and take mattresses and fix where the
kids will be sleeping and Iyana, mom and my aunts then
Miyah, she really needs to rest.
We all sit on the couches watching over them as they sleep
on the mattresses at least they are comfortable.
I take the blanket and cover grandpa who has fallen asleep
on the couch, he is getting old but he just likes acting touch,
this is better, we are all in the same room.
Me: I can't let my baby girl die.
Luyolo: We will find a way but if we break this bond Ntsika,
will you be able to kill Lathitha.
I look at him then look down.
Me: That's like asking me if I would choose Lathitha or you
guys, my family. I will always choose you.
Luyolo: Ok son and you Sfiso will you be able to kill Lona?
Sfiso: without a doubt, If it wasn't for that bind I would have
killed her today.
Luyolo: I hear you, let's wait till your family come tomorrow
morning then.
Sfiso nods.
My phone beeps I look at the screen it's an unknown
number.
*Revenge is a dish best served cold, it took me years to get
you now it's time*
I show the message to dad and he pass it to uncle Mandisi.
Mandisi: Maybe this is something that we did now our sins
are catching up with us through our children.
Luyolo: Who could be? We have met Lathitha's mom and dad
and we didn't know them.
Me: But are they even her family, now I don't even know the
girl I fell in love with the woman who gave me kids.
Luyolo: we will get to the bottom of this.
This is getting harder by each day.^
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
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NTSIKA
*
I wake up and stretch myself sleeping on the couch is not
really nice.
I look down and I see that mom and everyone are still
sleeping except for Thando who is just moving next to
Miyah, I take her and walk to the bathroom with her.
Me: I won't let you die baby, I just found you we can't be
separated by death, you are young you deserve to grow up
and be happy.
She smiles while playing with water.
I take her out of the water and dress her up.
Nkanyezi walk in with Ntando and I take her and give him
Thando.
Me: Are you okay?
He nods and sit down, I can tell tell he is not okay, I can feel
it, he is my brother.
I finish bathing Ntando and we walk out and find the ladies
awake and rolling the blankets, dad and my uncles are not
here.
Me: Grandpa is still sleeping?
They nod, I give Ntando to Miyah and go to the couch where
grandpa is sleeping, I look at him, I can see sweat running
down his face.
Me: Grandpa, wake up.
I shake him, he slowly opens his eyes.
Me: Are you okay, you're sweating so early in the morning.
Lukhele: I don't feel too good, my feet are numb.
Me: Mom, come here, grandpa is not fine.
Mom comes and feel his temperature.
Ziyanda: Dad what's wrong? your temperature is high.
Lukhele: No, the...my foot
I pull the blanket away from him and look at his foot there is
a snake bite.
Me: No!
Ziyanda: Ntsika move away from him, let's take him to the
hospital.
Me: No mom it won't help this is witchcraft you can heal it by
western medicine ok.
Ziyanda: Then what Ntsika! I should watch my dad die that's
what you're saying?
She is crying and shouting at me,everyone come in.
I kneel infront of granddad and hold his foot, my tears are so
close to coming out.
Langa: What is going on? Is grandpa okay? Why is he
sweating like that.
There is a lump in my throat and hearing my mother cry
makes it worse.
Me: A snake bit him.
I say still kneeling down looking at his foot that has green
veins because he is light skinned.
Langa squarts next to me.
Langa: But grandpa why didn't you tell us when you felt it.
Lukhele: It stung a little and I didn't think it was it.
He is breathing heavily.
Langa: What are we going to do Ntsika, you heard what they
said, we can't let him die.
Me: I don't know Langelihle..Mom where is dad?
Mbali: They went to fetch Sfiso's mom at the taxi rank, they
took the first taxi from Harding.
Me: It doesn't matter what they do anymore, if grandpa dies
then we might as well die with him.
I get up and walk back to my room, I take a bath and get
dressed then walk back to the lounge, I find everyone in
tears.
I go to grandpa.
Me: Please hold on for us, we still need you, your
greatgrandchildren need you, you need to hold Nkanyezi's
first son, Langa, Qhayiya and you know Iyana once said
you're the one who will walk her down the isle when she get
married and you agreed so you need to fulfil that promise to
her I know she is still young but you have to live to see that
day, please Lukhele.
He takes my hand.
Lukhele: I will hold on Ntsika.
Me: You promise?
Lukhele: I promise.
Me: Ok, you heard that Mom? He won't leave us, not now.
I say going to mom and hug her, Nkanyezi is holding Miyah
who is crying and Langa is with Iyana, Sfiso has Nqoba on his
lap.
I get up.
Me: Please borrow me your car.
Sfiso: You can't go alone, it's not safe out there.
Me: I won't go far..
He nods, I go to their room and take his keys.
Langa: Be back soon Ntsika, grandpa is getting worse look at
his leg it's turning green.
Me: I will be back.
I drive out and speed to Ntsoaki's flat, I know she is not
working today.
I try to call her but I remember she blocked me, I send her a
text.
Me: *Please just come out I need someone to talk to please, I
promise I won't bring up our relationship.*
I see her walking out, I wipe my tears.
She get in and look at me angrily then her face softens.
Ntsoaki: You have been crying?
Me: Yeah my family is going through something big and now
my grandpa is going to die.
Ntsoaki: I'm sorry..
Me: I don't know what to do.
Ntsoaki: Give me your hand.
I look at her, she stretches her hand and hold mine, I hear
her grunting closing her eyes i'm a bit shaken.
Ntsoaki: No..
Me: Are you ok?
She let go of my hand and look down.
Ntsoaki: Wait here for me.
I nod. She step out of the car and walk in.
Minutes later she comes back with a bag and get in.
Ntsoaki: Take me to your mother's house.
Me: What?
Ntsoaki: Don't ask questions Ntsika, not now.
I nod and start the car, we drive in complete silence.
I stop at the yard and look at her, she just opens the door and
step out, I get out too.
She look around and grunt I attempt to step closer but she
raise her hand to stop me.
She walk ahead of me and i'm following her like i'm the
visitor, she doesn't knock but just push the door and get in.
We find everyone still in tears now grandpa is laying down
on the mattress his whole leg is green, dad and my uncles
are here too with Sfiso's mom and Aunt.
They are all looking at us like they are waiting for me to say
something but I don't know what to say.
Ntsoaki: Can you show me your room Ntsika.
She says with her hoarse voice.
I look at my family, they must think i'm crazy bringing a girl
home in this kind of situation.
Luyolo: What is going on Ntsika?
I shrug my shoulders.
Ntsoaki: Show me your room.
She says in a stern voice, I walk to my room, she follows
behind me.
I stand by the door.
Me: What is...
Ntsoaki: I told you this is not the time to ask questions, you
can go back to your family now, i'm coming.
She walk in my room and I go back to the lounge and sit on
the available chair looking down, I'm afraid of looking at
them.
A few minutes later Ntsoaki comes in and she is wearing a
full traditional healer's attire it's blue and a bit of white here
and there and she is walking barefoot and has the stone
bracelets on the wrists.
She kneels in front of grandfather, everyone is quiet looking
at her as she starts grunting.
Ntsoaki: The older son, come kneel next to me.
I look at uncle Kwanele, he look at me then go kneel next to
her.
Ntsoaki: Say your clan praises..
Kwanele: Lukhele, Mdluli Nzimande .....
She grunts loud and we hear the hiss sound I quickly get up
and look around.
She start speaking her language fast as she hold grandpa's
leg, water comes out..
Langa: What the hell..
I get up and go kneel next to grandpa and hold his hand
looking at this beautiful human who is sweating but still
talking in her language, her eyes are tightly closed.
Next thing she lets go and collapse on the floor, I rush to her.
Me: Ntsoaki hey, are you okay?
She slowly opens her eyes.
Ntsoaki: I need to rest.
I nod..I get up with her in my arms and go to my room, I lay
her in my bed and cover her with a blanket, I go to the
bathroom and come back with a wet towel and wipe her
sweat on her face then leave her to rest then go back to the
lounge, I see grandpa sitting up and mom is holding on to
him and everyone is kneeling around him, I kneel down too
and look at his foot, it looks normal like it was never green.
Me: How are you feeling?
Lukhele: I feel good just hungry.
We all chuckle.
Mbali: Let me go get breakfast ready, we all didn't eat
anything this morning.
Sunshine: Yeah i'll help.
The ladies get up and I sit next to grandpa.
Lukhele: Where did you find that girl?
Me: uhm She was my girlfriend before I messed things up.
Lukhele: You didn't know she was a healer didn't you?
I shake my head.
We eat and I take a plate to my room and find Ntsoaki awake
sitting up.
Me: Hey, I brought you food.
Ntsoaki: Thank you, I need a bathroom.
I hug her tight until she push me.
Me: Thank you so much, you saved my grandfather.
She nods.
Me: There is a bathroom over there.
I point at my bathroom, she takes her bag and go to the
bathroom then come back wearing her normal clothes.
I give her the plate she takes it and sit down then start
eating, i'm looking at her and she is looking down to her
plate.
Me: So you're a traditional healer.
She shrug her shoulders.
I nod.
She finish her food and get up.
Ntsoaki: Please take me home.
Me: Ok, uhm thank you again.
Things are just awkward she doesn't even want to look at
me.
We walk out and we are at the lounge, grandpa speaks.
Grandpa: Come here.
He says to Ntsoaki, and she walk to him and kneel in front of
him bowing her head.
Grandpa: Ngiyabonga kakhulu.(Thank you so much)What is
your name?
Ntsoaki: Ntsoaki Mokoena.
Grandpa: rea leboha maMakoena. (we thank you)
She nods and get up and we walk out.
Ntsoaki: Take me home Ntsika..
Me: I didn't know you're a traditional healer.
She nods, looks like she doesn't want to talk at all.
I drive her home and stop at the gate.
Ntsoaki: Bye.
She walk in her flat and I drive home.
I find them sitting around the table talking I join them.
Lukhele: So any idea who this common enemy is?
Zenzile: I don't like witchcraft I shouldn't be here.
Luyolo: What I know is that we don't associate ourselves
with crime or witchcraft but we do kill whoever messes with
one of us so I don't know what we may have done to anger
witches.
Me: So the enemies. Misokuhle and his family are out, who
else do you remember dad?
Luyolo: Uhm we once killed a lot of dirty men that had
abducted your mom and Sunshine was there too.
Sfiso: But still, how is my family involved?
Luyolo: I don't know, and I killed Menzi, the guy that was
harrasing Ziyanda and it was just us.
Ziyanda: Uhm do you perhaps have an older brother Sfiso or
an uncle.
Ma: No he is my only son, no brother or sister.
We all sigh I guess we will never get an answer until they tell
us.
I hear one of my girls crying, I rush to the lounge where they
were sleeping I find her screaming her face red, it's Thando.
I take her and try to hush her but she screams louder,
everyone comes in and mom take her, Ntando is crying too
but she seem fine.
Mom takes off Thando's clothes and she has red marks all
over her body.
Me: Langa go check on Oluhle.
Oluhle is Sfiso's daughter.
Langa walk away and come back with a screaming Oluhle,
we take off her clothes too and she has the exact red marks.
My phone beeps and I take it out it's a message.* You think
you're clever, this is just to show you that we have the upper
hand, try something stupid your baby's life is in our hands*
The babies are still screaming, my phone rings it's Ntsoaki.
Me: Hello.
Ntsoaki: Burn the incence i'm coming there now, hurry
Ntsika.
Me: Sfiso do you know where the incence is?
Sfiso: Yes..
Me: Please hurry and take it, bring matches too.
I go to the kitchen and come back with the plate to use it for
burning incence, the smoke fills the room.
We hear the buzz.
Me: Buzz her in Langa..
She comes in holding her son's hand, she is wearing the
same blue traditional healer attire.
Ntsoaki: Bring all your children in Ntsika and his pregnant
girlfriend.
She points at Nkanyezi.
Nkanyezi walk away and come back with Miyah and my
boys.
Ntsoaki: I need space Ntsika, move these couches away.
The kids are still screaming, dad and my uncles push the
couches away.
Ntsoaki: We don't have enough time, they are coming...tell
your brothers to sit on the floor and hold your babies's
hands.
We sit down next to each other and I have Thando on my lap,
next to me Nkanyezi is holding Nqoba then Langa is holding
Oluhle then Sfiso has Manqoba, miyah is next to him.
Ntsoaki kneels in front of us and her son kneels next to her,
she shakes her head.
Ntsoaki: I don't know why I am doing this. I am putting my
life and my son's life in danger, there is too many of you and
the two of us, breaking this bind can take my energy, so is
my son's and your energy can weigh heavy on me.
I look at her.
Ntsoaki: Hold each kid on the same palm your
greatgrandfather cut to bind you and hold each other's
hands.
We do exactly what she says.
Ntsoaki: You are your brothers's voice Ntsika use it to call on
your ancestors.
Me: Gumede, Qwabe, Phakathway0, Mnguni ka Yeyeye...
I say the clan names, I can hear Ntsoaki talking and grunting
and the smoke fills the room, her son is next to her holding
her hand...
I see blood coming out of their noses, I want to get up and
stop her but what If I disturb the process of breaking this
bind our kids have with their wicked moms.
For almost 20 minutes she stops and the screaming stops, I
look at Thando's body she doesn't have marks anymore, I
look at her wrist the snake bite is not there.
Ntsoaki collapse on the floor and so is Khosi.
I quickly get up and give Thando to dad then kneel next to
Ntsoaki then look at Khosi their noses are still bleeding,
Mom kneels next to Khosi.
Ziyanda: He is breathing normally.
Me: Ntsoaki too, Uncle Kwanele help me with Khosi we are
taking them to my room.
I pick Ntsoaki up and uncle Kwanele take Khosi.
We lay them in bed then uncle walk out.
Me: I'm sorry you had to do this..
She opens her eyes and take off her stone bracelet and give it
to me.
Ntsoaki: Put it on.
I put it around my wrist.
Ntsoaki: They are coming, prepare yourselves, the bond is
broken it's all up to you now.
Me: But the snakes..
Ntsoaki: If I gain my energy back before they get here I will
help you with that.
I nod and take off my tshirt and wear my white vest and my
black jeans with boots, I don't want any snake bites.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika!
I quickly rush to her..
Ntsoaki: Take the kids to my flat and your brother's
girlfriend too then come back..
I nod and rush out.
Me: We need to take the kids out of here and Miyah too.
Ziyanda: Let me fix their bottles.
We pack their bags and we drive out and call Ntsoaki's
phone the nanny answers.
Me: Ntsoaki sent us here, please come open the gate.
She comes out and we drive in.
Me: We came to leave my kids for a few hours here, we will
come back later.
Nanny: It's okay son, let me help you with her.
She takes Thando from my arms and I take their bags.
Nkanyezi kiss Miyah, and we leave my boys, my girls and
Sfiso's daughter, Iviwe, Sage and Q, Iyana too.
Me: We will come back later ok, Iyana help Miyah with the
kids okay.
Iyanda: Okay brother, be safe ok.
She says hugging us.
We go back to the car and drive back home.
Langa: Mom needs to stay at grandpa's house with Auntie
Mbali and Sunny
Me: We will see..
If it's war they want, then it's war they are going to get.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
I told everyone to wear boots even the ladies because the
snakes can come from anywhere.
I go to check on Ntsoaki and find them still sleeping, I walk
out and go to mom and dad's room.
Ziyanda: I'm not leaving Luyolo, these are my kids, my
brothers and you my husband.
Luyolo: But it's not safe here we don't know how many
people are coming.
Ziyanda: I don't care i'm not leaving my kids to fight crazy
witches alone, you know I can fight too, why did you teach
me then if you didn't want me to do it.
Dad huffs..
Luyolo: This isn't just a normal fist fight Ziyanda you just
said it yourself, there is whitchcraft involved too.
Ziyanda: You need to stop talking, do you know how to fight
witchcraft?
Dad shakes his head looking at me.
Luyolo: Can you talk to your mom.
Me: Mom y..
She just get up and walk out wothout waiting for me to even
finish my sentence.
I go to my brothers, they are sitting in the lounge, they look
really shaken but they are trying to hide it just like me, we
don't know what we're up against here.
We are sitting in silence until uncle Kwanele comes in and
throw the bag in front of us, there are very sharp knives
there and guns.
Langa: Think you can overcome your fear of guns today
babe?
He ask holding Sfiso's hand.
Sfiso: I..I think so.
You can see he is really not fine with these guns in front of
him, if the situation wasn't this bad I know Langa and I
would be laughing our asses off.
Kwanele: Our head of security who has never held a gun
before, the irony.
Me: Do you know how to use it though?
Sfiso: Yeah I used to be friends with bad boys and I have held
the gun once but I have never shot anyone or anything
before.
Me: This time you will have to use it, none of us must get
hurt because that might slow us down remember we feel
each other's pain and we feed on each other's energy.
They nods.
I take two knifes and look at how sharp it is then get up and
go to my room, I wrap it up with a cloth then put them in my
pockets, I turn and see that Ntsoaki is looking at me with pity
eyes.
Me: What is it? Is there anything that will happen to my
family?
She shrug her shoulders.
Ntsoaki: I will protect this room and you will use it when it's
time and keep all the ladies inside, nothing will happen to
them here.
She is speaking so slow, I walk up to her.
Me: You're still not okay, what you did drained your energy.
Ntsoaki: I will be fine.
I nod.
Me: Uhm can I hug you?
She shakes his head and look away, I nod and walk out.
We sit on the lounge, I keep on getting up and sitting down
again, I am so nervous.
We hear the room shaking, we all get up and look around
then the loud hiss sound.
There is a very big snake coming through the passage, I
stand in front of mom.
Luyolo: Shit!so this is what you guys have been seeing?
Mandisi: I have never seen a snake this big before.
I am holding my breath, I see Ntsoaki coming behind it and
kneel touching it's tail, it dissolves into water, she is shaking
and sweating.
Ntsoaki: This feeds on your fear, the more you're scared they
will keep coming and I can only do so much, I haven't done
anything like this before, so you need to be brave to win this
fight.
I help her get up and she hold on to me.
Ntsoaki: This bracelet connects you to me so I can be able to
call on your ancestors on your behalf, it mustn't come off.
I nod and pull her to my chest.
Ntsoaki: Let go of this fear you have Ntsika it will finish all of
you.
She step away from me.
Ntsoaki: I'm still protecting your room now get ready and
lose that fear.
I nod and she walks away slowly.
I turn when I hear the buzzer going off and the alarm starts
going crazy.
Me: They are here.
Then there is silence, the door opens and Lazola, Lathi and
Lona walk in, Lazola has the snake skin across her body, I
stare at Lathitha.
Lazola: We came to finish all of you off.
Then they open the door and someone collapse on the floor.
Me: Uncle Sbo?
I look at him confused.
Lazola drags his body and place it in the middle of the lounge
and go back to stand with her sisters. My dad and uncles
rush to him, he has the snake bites all over his body it's like
snakes were feeding on him.
Lazola: You started all this princess Ziyanda?
Luyolo: How?
Lona: Isn't this your son?
She ask looking straight at Zenzile and Zenzile and Sfiso's
mom look at uncle Sbo's body on the floor amd they start
wailing.
Sfiso: What is going on?
Zenzile: How is it possible, I thought my son died long time
ago in the military, I accepted that he is gone, I haven't seen
him in 24years he left home when he was only 18 years and
never returned.
Sfiso: This is bhuti Sboniso? But everyone at home said he
died.
Zenzile: That's what we all thought..what did you do to my
son..
She kneels down you can see he is still breathing but slow.
Sbo: Mama..
He says almost out of breath then he stop breathing.
The loud cries fill the entire room.
Lona: Your brother and them killed my father and left his
brother paralyzed.
She says pointing at my dad and uncles.
My uncles look so confused.
Luyolo: Who is your father?
Lona: Let me help you jog your memory.
They open the door and a man comes in wheelchair and look
around the room then his eyes stops at mom.
Luyolo: So this pervert is your father?
The hiss sounds fill the room and I quickly move to where
mom is standing and pull her hand, the snake is behind her
and the gun goes off, I see that uncle Kwanele shot the
snake's head.
Lona: He is my father's brother, there were three of them,
the one you killed and this one then the one who raised
Lathitha.
Luyolo: Do you know why we killed him? Do you want to
know why?
Lona: We know it's because of princess Ziyanda over there,
now we will kill your kids while you watch.
Luyolo: Your father and this man were raping young girls,
keeping them away from their families for years and they
wanted to sell my wife to the highest bidder overseas!
Dad shouts.
Lazola: He is the one who pulled the first trigger we saw his
face and you finished him off Luyolo.
She points from uncle Sbo to dad.
Lazola: You don't know what you put us through, my uncle
the one that married our mother was just selling us after my
father died, that's how we were seperated he sold Lona to a
family that couldn't have kids in Ixopo, he wanted to sell me
to an old man and he sold Lathitha to Vuyo and he has paid
for it now it's time for all of you to pay, it's all your fault you
killed him.
Luyolo: Didn't this girl hear what I said? He was a pervert
and he sold young girls just like you said your uncle sold you
so I guess it runs in the family.
The man in the wheelchair look angry.
Man: You killed my brother for a pathetic bitch, she was
walking around naked in front of us and we fucked her like
every other bitch in that house, what was so special about
Ziyanda huh?
another gunshot goes off I look around again it's auntie
Sunshine she just shot the man in a wheelchair.
Tears are running down her cheeks.
Sunshine: You don't know how it was like to be kept in that
house for years without seeing your family, I don't know
how many times they forced me to abort and now I can't
even give my husband a child because of those abortions and
it's all because of your stupid father and that man.
Lathi: You were bitches you and Ziyanda that's why they saw
it fit that you become their everyday prostitutes you must
have behaved like them.
When I look closely at her she look older than the two sisters
next to her, she doesn't look so young anymore.
An old woman comes in, a big snake follows behind her, it's
Lathitha's grandmother, she looks at her dead son in a
wheelchair and the blood is on the floor.
Grandmother: I have been waiting for this day for so long,
the day I kill all those you love, Ziyanda right in front of you,
your husband and this one watched my son take his last
breath, I saw all of it and I was waiting for my time and it is
now.
Ziyanda: i'm sorry but my kids know nothing about this let
them go.
Grandmother: I'm glad that his mother is here too, my plan
actually worked, to get all of you in one room and watch you
die one by one.
She is pointing at Sfiso's aunt who is still crying on the floor
next to uncle Sbo's body.
*
NARRATED
*
The snake on Lathitha's grandmother's shoulder hiss and
more hisses come from all corners of the room.
The snakes surrounds them they are all in the middle and
the snakes are hissing ready to attack.
Ntsika look at Lathi.
Ntsika: So it was all just a game to you?
Lathitha smiles.
Lathi: I'm older than you Ntsika and way out of your league, I
wanted to hurt you any way possible like how hurt we were
when your father killed my father.
Ntsika: But how..
Lathi: We were young when grandma ploted this revenge, I
was only younger in your eyes and your family, when I
married Vuyo my uncle had sold me but I had to come back
here to keep tabs on you.
Ntsika: So it was all lies, the love, the innocence it was never
there.
Lathi: Oh you broke my virginity alright and I have to admit
your sex game is out of this world, almost ruined the whole
plan just for a dick, but this was all to get to the family that
killed my father.
Ntsika wipe his sweat, he nods and the snakes keep coming.
Ntsoaki's son come out of the room with his dreadlocks
falling on his shoulders some on his face, he pass the snakes
and take Ntsika's hand and they both kneel on the floor and
touch the ground with their right hands while holding each
other with their left hands.
Ntsoaki comes in and smoke fills the entire room, she take
Ziyanda's hand and take her to Ntsika's room and take the
rest of the women to that room and close the door and go to
the next room which is Nkanyezi and kneel there.
Ntsika open his eyes and see that there is water where they
are kneeling and no snakes anymore, Ntsoaki's son get up
and walk away..
Grandmother: Impossible..
She says looking at the floor where her snakes were.
Grandmother: Tell them to come in!
She shouts and Lazola walk out.
Ntsika get up and continue to stare at Lathi, he can't believe
he has been fooled all this time.
Senzo comes in and kiss Lathi.
Lathitha: Meet my husband Senzo.
She says looking at Ntsika with a wide smile.
Ntsika keeps nodding, he feeds on this anger that Lathitha is
provoking in him.
He is shaking, Lazola comes in with a lot of men and they
step forward.
Langa hold Sfiso hand.
Langa: Don't hold back, we shoot to kill ok don't be scared
just think of it as saving your daughter from all these people.
Everyone starts shooting but it seems like the guns are not
working on them.
Lathi: You're so predictable, I knew you were going to use
guns, we're bulletproof baby.
Ntsika look at his brothers and nod, the fist fight starts
breaking in and Ntsika takes out the knife from his pocket
and stab one guy in the heart and come back the knife full of
blood the man collapse on the floor..
He takes out another knife and give it to Nkanyezi, while he
continue using the same knife to stab more men in front of
him, the anger and rage he is feeling is too much he feels like
he is going to explode.
He feels pain in his arm and look around, he can see Sfiso
bleeding on his arm, he moves to him and push him behind
him then continue to stab the guys while clenching his jaw to
suppress the pain he is feeling on his shoulder.
After a while more men are down and the brothers step back
sweating and breathing heavily as the uncles continue to
fight the men that are left.
Langa: Sfiso you're hurt..
Sfiso: Yeah, the knife fell on the floor and the guy took it first
and stabbed my shoulder.
Ntsika: Let's just hope they have nothing more up their
sleeves, this pain is too much..
All men are down now and now the girls and their grandma
are staring at Ntsika and his family with smirks on their
faces.
Grandmother: I'm impressed you're stronger than what I
expected but are you strong enough..
Ntsika: Oh bring it on old lady.
The snake move from her shoulder and move in front of
them and raise it's head up staring at them they step back.
Ntsika: Sfiso the more your wound bleeds is the more we
lose energy.
Langa rips his shirt with the knife and wraps it around
Sfiso's shoulder to stop the blood and hold his face.
Langa: I'm sorry ok baby..
Nkanyezi moves and stand in front of the snake.
He swiftly moves his hand and slice it's head off with the
knife and water splashes on his face.
Lathitha's family exclaim loud.
Grandmother: No!! NO!
Nkanyezi look at this grandmother and step closer to them
but Lazola and Lona stand in front of their grandma and
stare at Nkanyezi but he push them out of his way and stab
the grandmother countless times with a loud scary sound
coming out of his mouth, he follows her on the floor and
continue to stab her, the girls are screaming more snakes
comes out and Ntsika and Senzo meet each other half way
and start fighting with Ntsika having the upper hand because
he is fit than him.
Ntsika: You can't possible think you can defeat me.
They continue to fight and Ntsika gets hold of his neck and
twist it fast, the bone crack and he collapse on the floor.
Lathitha: No!
Ntsoaki comes out of the room and take Ntsika's hand, they
go down on their knees..
Ntsoaki: I don't know if I can still do it, I have no energy left
in me.
Ntsika look up and call his twin brother, Nkanyezi kneel next
to him and hold hands touching the ground, the snakes keep
coming out from everywhere .
Ntsoaki: I can't..I can't do it Ntsika you have to kill them to
stop this..
Sfiso get up and slowly walk to Lona who look ready to fight.
Sfiso chuckles.
Sfiso: I always asked myself why you hated Langa so much
when you hardly even know him.
Lona chuckles and stare at him.
Lona: Yet you couldn't tell how much I hated waking up to
your face.
Sfiso: Yet you kept coming for it huh..
The snakes are on their feet.
Lona: One mistake and they make you their snacks.
Sfiso look at Langa, he throws the knife and he catch it with
his right hand and stab her neck.
Luyolo rushes to Lazola and squeeze her neck.
More snakes are turning into water.
Ntsoaki: Finish this Ntsika, it's all up to you..
She let go of his hand and Ntsika get up and look at Lathitha.
Lathi: Don't do it Ntsika.
He slowly steps closer to her staring into her eyes.
Lathi: Don't do it, you know you love me, this was all my
grandmother's plan please don't do it, think about our kids.
Ntsika: What kids? You played me! You wanted to kill my
whole family including those kids! And for what? For some
dirty old men who wanted to sell my mother?
Lathi: But we suffered at the hands of my father's brother
because your father and his cousin killed my father!
Me: Then it's okay to plot revenge that will kill your own
children too how are you any different from your father's
brother, how, because blood means nothing to you, your
own children Lathitha is that even your real name.
Lathi: It is my real name Ntsika, please don't kill me..
She raise her hands up and the snakes raise their heads..
Ntsoaki: Ntsika!!
He quickly moves to stab Lathitha in her heart and hold her
to his chest as tears run down his face.
He can hear her breathing fast and he hold her and go down
with her in his arms.
He looks at her as she takes the last breath..
The whole floor has water and Langa go to Sfiso and hug him
tight..
Nkanyezi sit on the floor looking down. The uncles and
Luyolo huffs sitting down.
Ntsoaki get up and look at Ntsika as he cries holding Lathitha
in his arms. She turns and go to the room where she was
keeping Ziyanda and other women.
They quickly get up as they hear the door opening..
Ziyanda: Are they okay, no one got hurt right?
Ntsoaki look down and take his bag then she go to
Nkanyezi's room to check on her son and find him sleeping,
he must be tired he used all his energy.
Ntsoaki: Khosi, can you get up?
He opens his eyes and look at his mom.
Khosi: I'm still tired mom.
Ntsoaki: Ok i'll wait for you, rest then.
He falls asleep.
Ntsika get up from the floor with Lathitha's blood on his
white vest, Ziyanda walk in and look at everyone and Luyolo
rush to her holding her in his arms.
Ntsika walks to his room and go shower and change his
clothes, he go to Nkanyezi's room and find Ntsoaki sitting on
the chair holding Khosi's hand.
Ntsika: Is he going to be okay?
He speaks in his bold husky voice behind Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Yeah.
Ntsika: Thank you for doing this for my family, I appreciate it
alot.
Ntsoaki: Ok.
He sit next to her and look at Khosi.
Ntsika: he is strong, is he going to be a traditional healer too?
Ntsoaki: Yes.
He nods and they sit in silence until Khosi open his eyes.
Ntsoaki: Hey baby, you're ready to go now?
He nods.
Ntsoaki: Ok let's go now.
Ntsika: Let me pick him up for you.
He pick the boy up and find his brothers waiting outside they
have changed clothes and Sfiso has a bandage around his
arm.
Ziyanda: Thank you so much sisi for everything you have
done for this family, uhm I don't know, is there anything we
can do to show you how grateful we are.
Ntsoaki: That thank you is enough ma'am, I have to go now,
keep well.
Ntsika put Khosi at the backseat of his mother's car.
Ntsika: We will follow behind you.
Ntsoaki nods and get in her car driving out.
More cars drive in it's Luyolo's friends, they step out and
greet everyone and start taking out dead bodies to the car.
Ntsika and his brothers get in the cars and drive to Ntsoaki's
flat to fetch the kids.
They take the kids to the cars and wait for Ntsika to come
out.
Ntsika: Ntsoaki..
She look at him.
Ntsika: Thank you again so much.
Ntsoaki: It's okay now go, your family is waiting for you.
Ntsika: Uhm what about this?
He says showing her the stone bracelet.
Ntsoaki: Uhm I forgot..
She stretches her hand to take it then Ntsika walk out.
He look at his kids and huff, they officially don't have a
mother and he killed her.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

*
Insert 100
*
NTSIKA
*
Lathi's face still haunts me, everytime I close my eyes I see
her in a pool of blood staring at me.
It's been a week since that fight and I haven't been sleeping
well all I do is take my kids to daycare and come back home.
I sleep facing up then I hear a knock.
Me: come in.
My brothers walk in and Miyah who have a packet of chips in
her hands, I sit up and Miyah sit next to me and they all sit in
bed in front of me.
Miyah: Hey buddy..
She says punching my arm.
Me: Why are you in my room?
Langa: We are worried about you bro, you have been
avoiding all of us.
Me: No I haven't
Nkanyezi: "We know you loved Lathitha and having to kill
her must have been hard but you chose our family and we
are grateful."
Me: We all played our part, Sfiso killed the mother of his
child too.
Sfiso: But it's different, we all saw that you still loved her,I
was over Lona.
I nod.
Miyah: we're here to tell you that we are here for you and we
love you.
Me: Thank you.
Miyah: uhm soo..
Me: No..
Miyah: But I haven't said anything.
Nkanyezi: "But we all know you're about to say something."
She rolls her eyes and look at me.
Miyah: So Ntsoaki neh..
She look at me with a smile.
Me: What about her?
Langa: What she want to ask is when are we seeing her
again?
Me: For what?
Langa: Are you telling me you're going to let her go just like
that?
Me: Yes, she doesn't want me in her life.
Nkanyezi: "But do you love her?"
Me: Yeah I do but it's over we have to move on, she is over
me she even hate talking to me.
Sfiso: But what she did is huge man, why would she risk her
life and her son's life to save us if she didn't feel something
for you.
Me: Maybe she just wanted to help.
Langa: Yeah right...help with her life for free Ntsika?
Me: Ok out of my room, i'm good now.
Langa: Go give it another try brother.
Me: No.
Nkanyezi: "Seems like you are afraid of something."
I wipe my face.
Langa: I know, you're afraid that she saw you crying for
Lathi but Ntsika that's normal she was the mother of your
kids.
I shrug my shoulders.
Me: That is why she broke up with me, she said I still love
Lathitha and she was right.
Langa: And what about her?
Me: I'm in love with her, I want to be with her but I can't
force her to love me back.
Miyah: Langa can you go fetch juice for me in the kitchen this
is making me really thirsty.
Langa: Why me?
Miyah: uuh you're the youngest.
Sfiso: But he is married let the bachelor's get that juice for
you.
Miyah: Uhm Ntsika..
Me: No, I didn't get you pregnant Miyah..no
Nkanyezi look away and we all laugh, he knows she is
coming for him.
Miyah: Tell your brother that he can't be ignoring me.
Langa: Let's all go out so Ntsika can find someone
Me: I don't want anything, i'm good but let's go out it's cool.
They walk out as I wake up and get dressed, I find them
waiting for me in the lounge.
Miyah is holding Nkanyezi's arm and Langa and Sfiso are
holding hands.
Me: So you guys want to make it obvious that i'm single huh?
Miyah: Pretty much, Yes..
She says nodding and they laugh.
We go to the cars, i'm riding with Miyah and Star, my car is
back at home but I just don't want to drive alone.
We get to a restaurant and I quickly order a beer.
Miyah: Can I have a glass of wine..
We all stare at her with stern looks.
Miyah: Whoa if looks could kill i'd be dead by now, guys i'm
joking.
Nkanyezi: "It's not funny Miyah."
Miyah: But your faces were really funny, can I have orange
juice please.
Waitress: Sis make up your mind.
She says with an attitude, Nkanyezi squint his eyes looking
at her.
I chuckle.
Miyah: Sorry sis, please get orange juice for me.
She says with a fake smile.
Waitress: Can you see how many customers here waiting to
be served their meals and you're busy acting like the only
important person in here.
I can see Nkanyezi clenching his fist, he is angry like how
dare she talk like that to his Miyah.
Langa: You know uhm, how about you go and get us another
waiter and a manager mmmh how about that?
I'm staring at her.
Me: The minute you came to our table you already had an
attitude, did we do something to you or your family? Do you
have any personal vendetta, say it now, don't plot any
revenge because it won't end well for you, do you get that?
They all look at me but i'm serious i'm tired of all that has
been happening, people who use us for years only to find out
they want to kill us later and already have kids at that.
Sfiso: Calm down Ntsika.
Me: No, I really want to know what this attitude is about.
Waitress: I'm sorry I...
Miyah: I'm really hungry so i'm calling another waiter.
She raise her hand up and another waiter comes and greet
we give me our orders.
Me: You can get away from here sis with your attitude and
those crocodile tears.
She quickly walk away, I don't ever want to bring any threat
in my family if it means interrogating everyone who give me
bad vibes then so be it.
I feel a hand in my shoulder.
Langa: Are you okay?
I nod.
Langa: We can go back home if you're not okay bro, you're
angry your nose is sweaty
I smile.
Me: No i'm good let's just eat and I really need a drink.
The waiter comes with Miyah and Nkanyezi's juice and our
beers.
I look at the door, Ntsoaki walk in with Khosi and her nanny
and they sit on the table not so far from us.
Miyah: Ntsika that's Ntsoaki..
She says excitedly, I nod.
Miyah: Let me go greet them.
She get up and walk to their table, I see her pointing at our
table and they turn Ntsoaki's eyes meet with mine she
quickly move them to Miyah and shake her head.
Miyah comes back and sit next to me.
Miyah: Go ask them to join us Ntsika.
Me: Why?
Miyah: Come on go man.
I get up and go to their table.
Me: Hello.
Khosi: Hello Nqoba's dad.
I smile at him and look at Ntsoaki.
Me: Would you like to join us in our table please.
Ntsoaki: No we're fine here and please move away from me a
little.
I look at her then just walk back to the table.
Miyah: Don't say it, you didn't even try hard enough.
I continue to drink my beer while listening to them talk, our
food is served we start eating.
Me: Who's paying?
Nkanyezi: "Not me."
Langa: it can never be me.
We continue to argue and Sfiso decides to pay to shut us up,
we laugh at him, going out with my brothers and Miyalo
wasn't a bad idea after all it's fun.
We get up and pass Ntsoaki's table.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika..
We all stop.
Ntsoaki: Don't take what I said earlier as an insult, you're all
walking with shadows you need to cleanse yourselves and
your mom's house, it can cause bad lucks.
Langa: Will you be able to do it?
Ntsoaki: If that's ok with your parents.
Langa: We will talk to them, thank you.
We walk to the cars and drive home.
Me: Thank you for taking me out guys.
Miyah: My pleasure brother.
Sfiso: Your pleasure? Awufunanga nokukhokha ibill.(you
didn't even pay the bill.)
We laugh walking in and find the parents home, I go sit next
to mom.
Ziyanda: Where did you guys go?
Me: Out..
Ziyanda: Wow without me?
Miyah: next time mah.
We tell them what Ntsoaki said and they agree that she do
the cleansing.
Luyolo: Call her Ntsika.
Me: Uhm I will give Miyah the number she will call.
Luyolo: You call her.
Me: Why me?
Luyolo: You know her personally.
Langa: He means under the sheets.
He whisper and I smack his head.
I go to my room and call Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Hello.
Her voice is like slow sweet melody, I really am in love.
Me: Uh hey, mom and dad agreed that you do the cleansing
baby.
I clear my throat I didn't mean to call her baby.
Ntsoaki: Ok I will come later tomorrow.
Me: What will you need?
Ntsoaki: I will send you the list.
Me: Ok thanks.
Silence.
Me: I can't do this Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Can't do what?
Me: Pretend like I don't care about you, I want to see you
today.
Ntsoaki: But I..
Me: Please baby we will just talk, meet me at the hotel in 15
minutes Ntsoaki, the same hotel we use to book in.
I drop the call and walk out.
Me: Throw any car keys anyone.
Langa smiles and throw the keys at me.
Me: Thank you bro.
I drive his car to a hotel and book a room and describe
Ntsoaki to a receptionist so she can just give her the access
card.
I go to the room and take off my clothes and get in bed.
An hour passes, I feel like crying, I slowly get up and wear
my pants, I hear the door handle turning and she comes in
and stand by the door.
I rush to her and hug her tight.
Me: Thank you for coming I was already getting dressed
thinking you're not coming.
Ntsoaki: I'm sorry my car broke down and I took a taxi here.
Me: What? I'm sorry, let's go check it.
Ntsoaki: Already called the tow truck.
Me: Ok, are you okay?
Ntsoaki: I'm fine.
I pull her to bed and we sit down.
Me: Uhm look Ntsoaki, I'm so sorry for everything, for
hurting you, the truth is I love Lathitha for different reasons,
one is that she was my first and secondly she gave me kids,
but baby i'm in love with you, I want to be with you, I want
this, us.
Ntsoaki: Are you saying this because she is dead?
Me: I'm the most honest man you've ever met Ntsoaki, I find
lying very difficult, it forces you to remember every single
detail of your lie or you get caught, so I wouldn't lie to you.
She nods then get up and look out the window, i'm looking at
her behind, her hips the legs, I get up and go to her touching
her shoulders and kiss her neck, she tilt her neck to give me
more access my dick twitches.
I unzip her dress slowly then move it down her hips and let
it fall. I cup her boobs she moans, I play with her cookie over
her panty and pull it down while kissing her spine down to
her ass.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika..
She balance her hands on the window, I pull down my pants
and shorts.
Me: Don't turn..
I squart kissing her butt cheeks then spread them and lick
her holes all of them and her clit, her knees shake, I stop and
get up and bend her a little pushing her thighs apart and
push my way into her pussy walls.
Ntsoaki: Ooh..
Me: Mmm...
I groan as I feel the walls clenching on me.
And I start moving slowly holding her waist.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika please..
Me: What baby..
Ntsoaki: Please.. I want to hold you.
I turn her around, and start kissing her and pick her up.
I start moving in her as I hold her ass tight, she is holding on
my shoulders.
Ntsoaki: Let's go to bed babe.
I move to bed abd get ontop of her but she push me and get
on top instead.
She start moving her waist so slowly.
Me: Shit baby..
She play with her nipples as she continue to move her waist
back and forth.
Me: Oh shit...baby..yes.
She has her hands on my chest and start bouncing on my
dick , I squeeze her butt as I feel my dick twitching and I cum
as she digs her nails on my chest and sleep on my chest, I
hold her tight.
Me: That was so good baby, thank you.
Ntsoaki: And we didn't use a condom Ntsika.
Me: Uh sorry sthandwa sam (my love) we will buy morning
after pills in the morning.
Ntsoaki: Ok.
Me: I love you so much, let's not break up again babe please.
She sighs.
Ntsoaki: You don't have a problem with me being a
traditional healer?
Me: Why would I have a problem with that, I believe that this
is a special gift from the ancestors and being the chosen one
to be given this gift makes you special.
Ntsoaki: Thank you.
Me: So it runs in the family?
Ntsoaki: Yes, my two brothers have a calling too.
Me: How many brothers do you have?
Ntsoaki: We are 5 i'm the middle child and the only girl.
Me: That's good, I feel really hungry after that session.
Ntsoaki: Me too.
She get up from me and and go to the bathroom then she
pick up my tshirt and wear it and come back to bed.
She takes my hand, and start grunting like crazy.
Me: Baby are you ok.
She grunts again.
Ntsoaki: Call home, one of your brothers is driving tell him to
stop the car..
I quickly take my phone and call Miyah.
Miyah: Hey Ntsik...
Me: Who is not home Miyah?
Miyah: what..
Me: Tell me who just drove out at home..
Miyah: Uhm I think Sfiso..
I drop the call and call Sfiso, it rings and send me to
voicemail, I try again..
Me: Come on pick up man...
Sfiso: Ntsika i'm drivi...
Me: Stop the car now Sfiso..
Sfiso: What..
Me: Just stop the damn car now!
Sfiso: Ok..
I huff.
Sfiso: What the hell!!!
Me: What is it?
Sfiso: A truck just passed the green light in speed right
infront of me.
Me: Can he go back home now?
I ask Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Tell him to drive straight home, no one should leave
the house until I cleanse all of you Ntsika.
She is shaking in bed.
Me: Sfiso, drive back home and tell everyone not to drive, do
you hear me?
Sfiso: Ok, i'm driving back home now.
I sigh.
Me: Ok, don't forget to tell everyone not to drive.
Sfiso: I heard you.
I go to back to Ntsoaki and hug her, she is sweating and
shaking.
Me: I'm so sorry baby...

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
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I have been trying to wake Ntsoaki up but she keeps cussing
at me, I'm laughing but she is working she needs to wake up.
Me: Baby come on we have to go.
Ntsoaki: Just give me a little time Ntsika, we only slept at
3:30 this morning please.
She speaks through her teeth.
Me: But baby remember your car broke down so I want to
take you to work and go home to buy what you're going to
need later.
Ntsoaki: You're going to take me to work?
She ask still covering her head with a bed cover.
Me: Yes if you wake up now, not a minute later from now.
Ntsoaki: Ok i'm up..
She is not even moving.
Me: Ntsoaki!
Ntsoaki: Aaaah! Ok i'm up, i'm up! geez!
I chuckle and look at her as she stares at me angrily.
Me: I don't care, I love you anyway.
Ntsoaki: But I didn't say anything.
Me: I can read your face baby right now you're saying you
hate me but we both know you're lying to yourself.
Ntsoaki: Are you really taking me to work baby?
She says smiling, I smile back.
Me: You're beautiful.
She hides her face.
Ntsoaki: Thank you.
Me: Now kiss me so we can leave.
She lean over and peck my lips then jump out of bed
laughing, I get up and run to her she laughs when I pick her
up in the air.
Ntsoaki: You are so strong Ntsika, you just picked me up like
i'm a piece of paper!
Me: I am a man baby, a man should be strong.
Ntsoaki: Now I know you can fight for me, I should cheat and
watch you fight for me.
Me: When it comes to cheating I don't fight, I kill baby..
She giggles and hold me laying her head on my chest.
Me: Are we taking a shower?
Ntsoaki: Yes.
Me: Let me tie your locks then.
She laughs and move to take a pillow and place it on the floor
and sit down.
Ntsoaki: Take the string in my bag that you're going to use to
tie it.
I look at her.
Ntsoaki: What?
Me: Why didn't you take it?
Ntsoaki: You offered to tie my hair, so do everything.
I shake my head and go to her bag that has almost
everything.
Me: Really? How am I going to find that string, all I can see is
a g-string and..
Ntsoaki: Oh bring it here!
She shouts and I laugh giving her the bag.
I tie her hair up and make the bun that I once saw her doing.
She get up and look at herself in the mirror and turn and
jump in my arms.
Ntsoaki: I'm going with it to work, wow thank you.
Me: I'm good right?
Ntsoaki: I didn't think you can do it I thought you just
wanted to play with me, thank you.
Me: My pleasure love.
We take a very hot, I mean very hot shower then we get
dressed and check out after using her lotion, I smell like her
right now and she keep giggling next to me.
Me: What is it?
Ntsoaki: You smell like me.
Me: Of course I do you forced me to use your cosmetics.
Ntsoaki: You didn't bring anything with you, you prefer your
skin to be dry while I have my things in the bag.
Me: Just go get ready, I'll wait for you here, just do that walk
of shame.
She laughs out loud.
Me: You don't want to go to work huh?
Ntsoaki: I do.
Me: You're lying you've been dragging getting in there.
She huffs.
Ntsoaki: Ok i'm going.
She step out and slowly walk inside her flat then com back
minutes later with Khosi and she has changed into a
beautiful dress just above her knees, she like dresses a lot
and they suit her.
They get in the back.
Khosi: Morning.
Me: Morning Khosi, how are you?
Khosi: I'm good and yourself.
Me: I'm good.
Khosi: Uhm can mom drive please.
I laugh.
Me: Why? You don't trust me?
Khosi:I do but I don't trust the shadow around you right
now.
I quickly turn and look behind me Ntsoaki is also looking at
him.
Me: Come and drive baby.
We step out and I get in the passenger seat and Ntsoaki
starts by driving me home and she take my car to work
instead.
I walk in and find everyone eating breakfast I kiss my girls
and Iviwe then go join everyone in the table.
Me: Goodmorning.
Langa: Khona ongalalanga layikhaya.(someone didn't sleep
here)
I look at him and he chuckle.
Ziyanda: So where did you sleep?
Iyana: And that perfume is so strong and smells nice can you
ask her the name please.
Miyah: Even your skin look smooth what did you use.
Dad Sfiso and Langa start laughing at the table, I knew this
was going to happen but i'm not going to take another
shower, not now shame they can laugh all they want.
Luyolo: So who is the girl?
Langa: Can I guess, it starts with the same sound as your
name..
Me: Shut up..
They continue to laugh at my sweet scent and I don't care.
Me: Uhm so we have to find three goats.
Luyolo: Goats?
Me: Yes, she is going to need it for cleansing, two is for Sfiso
and I then one for the house and all of you.
Luyolo: Ok, I guess we have to drive around and..
Me: No, no one is driving any of the cars here.
Langa: But you did drive this morning right?
Me: Well a little until Khosi told me he doesn't trust the
shadow around me I should let his mother drive.
Sfiso: Yhoo that's not good.
Me: It's very scary, so what are we going to do?
Luyolo: uhm taking taxis will be hard, uhm Langa search the
internet and see if we can hire a car that can accommodate
these goats and us.
Langa go through the internet and find one and fortunately
for us the driver knew every place in durban and he helped
us with the goats and everything we're going to need for the
cleansing ceremony then he takes us back home , we thank
him and look at each other.
Nkanyezi: "Where are we putting the brothers here?"
We look at him and shrug our shoulders.
Me: Maybe grandpa's garden.
Langa: Are you crazy, they are going to eat every damn
flower in that garden and we are going to be slaughtered
instead of them, granpa love that garden.
Dad walk out and look at us.
Me: Tell us something we can't stand here the whole day
dad.
Luyolo: I don't know where you're going to place them.
He shrug his shoulders.
Sfiso: I guess we are standing here until Ntsoaki comes.
Langa: I bruise in the sun so i am not going to stand outside
the whole day.
Luyolo: The gate is locked, let's just tie them anywhere.
We tie them on a little tree by the gate and walk in, Ntsoaki
calls me.
Me: Baby.
Ntsoaki: Why didn't you remind me Ntsika?
Me: Remind you what?
Ntsoaki: That we had unprotected sex and I should buy
morning after pills.
Her hoarse voice is a bit loud so she is shouting I guess.
Me: Shit..i'm really sorry I totally forgot, uhm I can take a taxi
to town to get ..
Ntsoaki: No, I'm on my way to the pharmacy right now.
Me: Oh ok, i'm sorry.
Ntsoaki: It's okay baby.
Me: Okay I love you, if I could drive I was going to bring you
lunch.
Ntsoaki: Thank you, maybe you will after today.
Me: Okay bye.
Mom force us to clean the house while they do whatever
with Mbali and Sunny.
Me: But guys you do know that cleaning is pointless, we are
still going to slaughter those goats in this house it's still
gonna stink around here.
Ziyanda: Did Ntsoaki tell you that?
They all start laughing.
Me: Wow mom!
Ziyanda: I'm just asking Piller.
Me: No you wanted these morons to laugh at me, wow sisi
well done..
She get up laughing and hug me.
Ziyanda: Sorry then baby but it was just a question really..
Me: Ok.
Later I buzz Ntsoaki in and she walk in with Khosi in her
attire and walking barefoot . She look around and her eyes
stops at me, she look so serious not even a slight smile but
she look good regardless.
Ntsoaki: First i'm going to need Sfiso and you Ntsika, so
bring in two goats for me, uhm ma'am you don't have a
problem if we all use your backyard right.
Ziyanda: no problem at all.
We bring in two goats.
Ntsoaki: I really need this whole space right now.
The way she is shooting orders you'd swear she is not the
girl who was screaming my name just this morning.
We push the couches and she kneels with Khosi and burn the
incence.
Ntsoaki: Come on now, Sfiso and Ntsika kneel we have to do
this now, both of you tell the shadows of Lona and Lathitha
to leave you alone, they swear to take you to the graves with
them(grunt) tell them to leave you alone.
I kneel down holding one goat.
Me: Lathitha leave me alone go be with the dead.
Sfiso: I don't even understand why you're following me Lona
but please sis leave me alone i am married!
I hear chuckles, i'm holding in a laugh, I look at him next to
me he look dead serious.
Ntsoaki: someone get me two buckets of 20litres and pour
cold water on them please, while you guys slaughter those
goats and give me two galls.
Thank god we now know how to slaughter goats.
We start slaughtering them and take out the gall, she put one
on each bucket and Khosi take out a knife from his mother's
bag and stir the gall in both backets.
Ntsoaki: From head to toe Ntsika and you Sfiso use this
water to cleanse yourself at the back of your mother's house
now.
I look at her, I mean it's not really hot outside so cold water
in my whole body.
She look up and stare at me.
Ntsoaki: I'm not joking unless you love walking around with
a dark cloud hanging over your head waiting for it to pour on
you.
I get up and Sfiso and I follow each other out.
Sfiso: Why did she have to stay on me.
I laugh out loud.
I move to a corner and take off my clothes and leave my
boxers on, I look at the water and cuss under my breath, I
can hear Sfiso cussing on his corner too and water splashing.
I huff.
And take the whole bucket and pour it all on my head my
whole body shake.
Me: Fuck!!
I put one foot and then the other and pour the rest of it on
my head again.
I take off my wet shorts and wear dry one I had with me, i'm
freezing I go back in and find Sfiso sitting on a couch with a
blanket.
Me: You didn't bath at all wena.
Sfiso: I did, shit was cold!
Me: i'm going to get dressed.
I take a step.
Ntsoaki: You're still going to take another bath.
I turn to look at her but she is kneeling and looking down on
the incence that she is burning.
Sfiso: Say what now?
Me: You mean a cold bath again?
She chuckles.
Maybe this is a punishment for fucking her the whole night,
this can't be right.
I go sit down and not bother with a blanket I mean i'm still
going to get cold again!
Ntsoaki: Bring another goat and more buckets.
We slaughter a goat and she pour it to all buckets and Khosi
do what he did before.
Ntsoaki: The ladies can start now,there are four of you right?
Ziyanda: Yes.
She push four buckets to them.
Ntsoaki: Get the kids, I won't bath them.
We take all the kids and she just wipe their faces with the
same water that have gall.
The ladies come back cussing.
Mbali: I have to get my hair done today!
Ntsoaki: Dad and uncles you're next.
Mandisi: Even me?
Ntsoaki: Weren't you here too that day of a fight?
Mandisi: Well I was.
Ntsoaki: Then yes.
She speaks all this time looking down.
They walk out then come back minutes later with towels
around their waists they look really ugly, I'm laughing my
ass off.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika you and your brothers go!
I drag my feet out with a bucket of water and splash water
on my body, Langa is cussing.
Langa: What the fuck! What is all this about? Couldn't she
just do like she did with the kids!Fuck!
It's dark and we hear a loud splash and a gasp.
Langa: What the hell! Sfiso fuck you!fuck you!what the hell!
We're getting a divorce!nxh.
Sfiso is laughing so hard.
Sfiso: Langa you were not bathing you we just touching the
water, I did you a favour you're done now.
Langa: I don't care!move away from me!uyahlanya yini (are
you crazy)
We all walk back in wearing our boxer shots.
Langa: Tell your lawyer to draft the divorce papers!
Everyone laughs.
Langa: Can you believe he just poured the whole bucket in
my head!
Ziyanda: What were you doing?
Langa: I was taking it slow mom taking it all in that i'm
bathing with cold water at night and he..ay man!
My stomach hurts from all the laughing.
Sfiso: I'm sorry.
Langa: Fix another room!i'm not sleeping in the same room
with someone who tried to kill me!what the fuck! The whole
bucket in my head!?
He says walking away, I missed these crazy moments with
him.
Ntsoaki get up with another bucket and start splashing
water all over the house and around with Khosi following
behind her.
She comes back and stand in front of us.
Ntsoaki: No one must bath today at all, you will all bath
tomorrow morning.
Langa: uhm sorry what!!
I laugh , he won't sleep this one he hates being dirty.
Ntsoaki: No one is taking a shower or a bath today.
Langa: Why don't you just join forces with Sfiso and just kill
me then huh?how the hell am I going to sleep with all this on
my body!
Ntsoaki: I'm sorry but you will live I promise, you won't die
at all.
Langa: Deep down i will be dead..
He says wiping his face dramatically.
Ntsoaki: I'm done now, I have to take my leave.
I look at mom.
Ziyanda: Uhm you can sleep here today with your son, you
will leave in the morning.
Ntsoaki: No..uhm thank you but I can't.
Luyolo: It's late now you can't drive so please we insist you
sleep, my wife will fix a room for you.
Ntsoaki: Uhm ok then thank you.
Mom fix a room for her and Khosi I go to them.
Me: Goodnight.
Ntsoaki: Goodnight.
Me: I love..
Ntsoaki: Bye Ntsika.
She says pushing me out and closing the door, I laugh
walking to my room.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
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I wake up early in the morning and take a shower, I really
couldn't sleep my body was dry and itchy, I wonder how
Langa handled all this whole thing being the clean freak of
the family.
I hear a knock just as i'm about to get back in bed.
I open the door and see Ntsoaki with Khosi who is rubbing
his eyes, it's clear that he is still sleepy.
Ntsoaki: Morning, please take us home.
Me: But baby it's not even 5 O'clock yet and it's not like you
sneaked in they know you're here.
Ntsoaki: I can't, please.
Me: Ok, let me get dressed but you disturbed Khosi's sleep.
Ntsoaki: He will sleep at home.
I get dressed and walk out and so is Langa stretching
himself.
Langa: Oh morning!it feels so good to be clean again damn I
could't sleep a wink and there is Sfiso who slept like a baby.
Ntsoaki is looking down.
Langa: aw you're already leaving so early?
Ntsoaki: I have to get ready for work.
Langa: Ok, thank you so much, hope to see you soon.
She nods and I take her bag and we walk out, I drive her
home then go back and go straight to bed.
I wake up when it's time for breakfast, I go join everyone in
the table and I have Ntando on my lap.
Me: So are we still divorcing Sfiso?
I ask laughing.
They look at each other then me.
Me: I know that look, you guys forgave each other huh?
I ask raising my eyebrow.
Nkanyezi: "Of course they did look at them."
They are busy smiling at each other.
Me: Miss Miyah are you okay?
Miyalo: I'm always good baby.
We eat breakfast then I drive to town to buy flowers and
lunch for my girlfriend.
I drive to her work, I walk in the library and I see her on a
computer on the front desk and a white man behind her, I
look at her she looks uncomfortable, I clear my throat and
the man look up and step back, Ntsoaki quickly get up and go
around the desk and come to me.
I hug her and kiss her cheek.
Me: Are you ok babe?
Ntsoaki: Yeah, it's lunch time, let's go.
She rush out and I follow behind her, I stop her by touching
her arm and turn her.
Me: Babe..
Ntsoaki: Yeah.
She look down, I pull her chin up.
Me: What is going on, you don't look too good.
Ntsoaki: I'm fine really.
Me: I bought you lunch and flowers.
Ntsoaki: Thank you, are you going to eat with me?
Me: Yeah, let's drive somewhere so you can eat.
I drive around and stop at some park and take out her food
and flowers.
Ntsoaki: Thank you so much baby.
I can tell she is not fine.
Me: Babe, who is that white man?
Ntsoaki: My boss.
Me: And why was he standing so close to you?
Ntsoaki: I don't know..
Me: Ok.
She start eating and i'm looking at her body language, she is
not her usual self for real, when she is done eating, I adjust
my seat.
Me: Come here.
She sit on my lap and her dress roll up to her waist.
Me: Talk to me, what's bothering you?
Ntsoaki: Uhm it's just that it's not the first time my boss was
that close to me, I thought i'm just paranoid the past few
days but today he made me really uncomfortable.
She is talking with her head on my shoulder.
Me: So you can't report him?
Ntsoaki: I can but what if it's nothing and it's just silly
thoughts on my side.
Me: Have you told him that he is making you uncomfortable.
Ntsoaki: No.
Me: Tell him and if he doesn't stop, you can report him and if
that doesn't work I will just hang him by his penis.
She looks at me.
Me: I'm serious, no one is supposed to make my woman
uncomfortable.
Ntsoaki: Really?
She smile and start dry humping me, I groan.
Me: You are still going back to work remember.
Ntsoaki: I know, it's just that I really miss you.
Me: You are sleeping with me today?
Ntsoaki: Yes..
She says breathing heavily, and she squeeze my shoulders,
she is still dry humpimg me, my dick is up..
Me: Baby come on..shit.
Her body shake and she stop moving.
Ntsoaki: Fuck..
Me: Wait did you just cum right now?
She hides her face on my shoulder, I move my hand to touch
her cookie and it's wet.
Me: Want me to keep it for you.
Ntsoaki: What..
Me: Your panty, it's wet you can't go around with it.
I say picking her up a little and try to take it off, she help me
and give it to me, it's a lace red g-string, I feel my dick
twitching.
Ntsoaki: I have to go back to work.
She says with a sad face.
Me: I know you love your work, tell this guy he is making you
uncomfortable or I will do it for you.
Ntsoaki: No I'll do it.
I take a tissue and wipe her cookie then she go back to her
seat and pull down her dress.
I start the car and drive back to her work and walk her
inside. Her boss shouts the minute we step in.
Him: Miss Mokoena you're 2 minutes late!
I look at him then Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Sorry, I'll see you later Ntsika.
She walks away, I continue to stare at this boss, I hope he
doesn't try me at all.
Him: Can I help you sir?
I step closer to where he is, Ntsoaki is nowhere in sight.
Me: Hello I understand you're a boss around here.
Him: I am.
Me: Don't make a mistake of touching something that
doesn't belong to you..
Him: I don't understand.
Me: I believe english is your first if not second language, so
that was clear english sir.
I turn and walk out driving home.
I get inside and find Langa alone in the lounge.
Langa: Hey where did you go?
Me: I went to give Ntsoaki her lunch.
Langa: Mmm I should go give my husband lunch too.
I chuckle.
Langa: You're not good.
Me: Ntsoaki's boss is making her uncomfortable, today I got
there and he was standing too close to her and you can tell
she was not ok with that.
Langa: I hope you didn't threaten the man Ntsika.
Me: I didn't, I just had a very brief conversation with him.
Langa: Really, you should have let her handle this herself,
she knows what to do in those kind of situation in her
workplace, and now she might just be angry at..
My phone rings and it's her.
Me: Babe..
Ntsoaki: What did you do Ntsika!?
She talks and sniff.
Me: What..
Ntsoaki: My boss tells me you went to talk to him and
threatened him!
Me: Are you crying Ntsoaki?
Ntsoaki: For fucks sake Ntsika I told you i'm going to tell him
that he is making me uncomfortable not you going to him ok,
you..
She breaks down and cry.
Me: Babe where are you, I'm coming there now..
I say waving at Langa, he get up and follow me.
Ntsoaki: I'm outside my work Ntsika, you had no business
talking to my boss..
Me: Ok babe listen I'm coming don't drive.
She drops the call, Langa get in the passenger seat, I don't
ask I speed to Ntsoaki's workplace and get there within a
few minutes and see her car already out of the gate, We step
out, I open her door and help her out, she is crying, I pull her
to my chest.
Me: I'm sorry baby, but believe me I didn't threaten him.
Ntsoaki: What did you say to him then?
Me: I just told him to never make a mistake of touching what
doesn't belong to him, that's not a threat.
She push me and wipe her face.
Langa: Hey come here.
She go to him and he hugs her, I just lean on the car and
brush my hair in frustration.
Langa: I'm sorry ok, stop crying.
He wipes her tears.
Langa: What did he say?
Ntsoaki: He said I tell my boyfriends crazy stuffs and now he
is being threatened by this guy, saying he touches me
inappropriately and that he can fire me and...
Me: I didn't threaten him.
Ntsoaki: I wouldn't know that and you had no right to go talk
to him in the first place.
Me: I'm sorry.
Langa: Let him take you home, I will drive your car.
She nods, I take her hand and we go to my car.
I start the car and drive to her place, Langa is behind me, she
step out and unlock the gate and walk away, we drive in and
I step out. Langa: Go, I will wait here for you.
Me: let's go in, you will wait for me inside.
We walk in and we find MaKhumalo the nanny inside, we
greet and I go to her room while Langa stay behind with
maKhumalo.
I find her in bed under the covers, I sit next to her.
Me: Baby, I'm really sorry I didn't mean to make you upset.
She nods and push the covers.
Ntsoaki: Get in.
I chuckle.
Me: My brother is waiting for me in the lounge.
Ntsoaki: I just want you to hold me a little.
I take off my shoes only and get in, her head is on my chest, I
embrace her tight.
Ntsoaki: I'm sorry for shouting.
I laugh.
Me: You mean for trying to shout, baby you can't shout, I'm
sorry.
Ntsoaki: It's okay, I overreacted, I left him talking because he
was making remarks saying i'm not even his type and i'm too
dark for him.
I clench my jaws and feel my nose sweating.
Ntsoaki: Babe.
Me: Mmm.
Ntsoaki: You're shaking..
I sit up and wipe my face.
Ntsoaki: Don't be angry, i'm actually glad that I am not his
type because he is not my type either.
I chuckle, she get up and sit on my lap, she hugs me.
Ntsoaki: Go to your brother, you will come see me later
right?
Me: Yes, I love you.
She get up and walk me out, we find Makhumalo in tears due
to laughing, I know my brother was busy with his jokes.
Me: Ma we're leaving, see you some other time.
Makhumalo: Ok son You must bring Langa to visit me during
the day.
She says still laughing.
Me: I will bye.
Langa: Goodbye Ma.
We walk out.
Langa: You're okay now hey?
Ntsoaki: Yeah i'm okay thanks for bringing my car here.
I kiss her lips and we drive to dad's work to see them.
We stay with them till late then they drive home, while I go
to Ntsoaki, I see her for a few minutes and drive back home
so I can tuck my kids to bed.
I find my boys sitting in bed.
Me: Nqobaz you're okay.
Manqoba: Ntsika..
Me: Yes son.
Manqoba: Are you going to find a new mom for us njenga
uMa wethu engasifuni.(since our own mom doesn't want us)
That question caught me offguard.
I look at them they are waiting in anticipation.
Me: Uhm well yeah but kungathatha isikhathi eside ukuthi
ngimthole umah omusha.( it might take a long time for me to
find a new mom)
They both nod.
Nqoba: Kodwa uzomfuna?(but you will look for her?)
Me: Yes I will.
Manqoba: Usheshe ke sifuna umah omuhle njengoGogo.(Be
fast then we want a mom that is beautiful like grandma.)
I chuckle.
Me: Ok, now get in bed.
They get in bed after fist bumping each other, I shake my
head and pull up the bed covers and walk out.
I go to bed after saying goodbye to Ntsoaki.
The next morning I take my books and go to campus to study
we're about to write exams and i am so behind but I can do
this, I sit alone and wear my glasses.
I feel a very heavy weight on me, like someone is pinning me
down, I don't understand because i'm in a sitting position.
I call Langa and he picks up.
Me: Are you ok there?
Langa: Yeah I'm with Miyah and Nkanyezi, why?
Me: Can you call Sfiso and ask if he is okay?
Langa: I was talking to him a minute ago.
I drop the call and call Ntsoaki but she doesn't pick up, I try a
couple of times but still no one answers.
I gather my stuffs and put them in my bag and rush to my
car.
I drive straight to her workplace and walk in , I look around
and I don't see her anywhere, I see a girl fixing books in
shelves I go to her.
Me: Hi.
Her: Hello
Me: Do you know where I can find Ntsoaki.
Her: Oh she was just called in the boss's office, you can wait
there for her.
Me: Where is the office?
Her: First office on your left when you walk on that passage
but no one is allowed to go there except for the stuff.
I wait at bench where she said I can wait, but a few minutes
later I decide to go to that office, I knock but a bold voice
shouts "i'm busy"..and a faint voice saying "help." I continue
to knock and turn the door handle but it's locked, I bang the
door.
I go back to that girl.
Me: Hey! Call the cops now!
I go back to that office.
Me: Ntsoaki!!
I turn the door handle until it breaks, I kick the door
countless times and it swings open, I see this boss hand's on
Ntsoaki's neck, she is on the table, her dress is up, I swiftly
move to the boss and he quickly move away from Ntsoaki, I
push him to the wall and start banging his head on it
countless times then let him go and go to Ntsoaki her eyes
are closed.
Me: Babe, open your eyes ok.
I look at her body she is still wearing her panty but her
thighs are bruised.
The police get in with a girl that I said must make a call.
Police: What happened here?
They come to the table where i'm trying to get Ntsoaki to
wake up but it looks like she is in deep sleep but breathing.
Me: I came in here and he was strangling her look at her
neck.
They go check on this boss looks like he has passed out.
My phone rings it's Miss Naidoo from my kid's daycare.
Me: Hello.
Naidoo: Khosi ask to speak to you.
Me: Ok.
Khosi: Take mom home, don't take her to the hospital she
will wake up eventually.
Me: Ok boy thanks.
I pick Ntsoaki up.
Police: Wait where are you taking her.
Me: Home.
Police: But we..
Me: You can arrest him and come get the statement later.
I walk out and put her in the backseat of the car and drive to
my mother's house with her.
I step out and pick her up and walk in everyone get up, I
place her on the couch.
Langa: What's wrong with her?
Me: Can you go fetch my kids and Khosi from daycare and
bring them here and also call Makhumalo and tell her you
picked Khosi up.
Langa nods and walk out, I go take the fleece blanket and
cover her.
Nkanyezi: "You're angry."
Me: I got to her work and her boss was strangling her.
15 minutes later Langa come back with the kids, Khosi come
closer to her mom and hold her hand, this boy is strong, even
now he is just looking at his mom with no sadness.
Me: Is she okay.
Khosi: She is fine, she was trying to alert you that she is in
danger by moving her soul out of her body towards yours,
she shouldn't have done that it's dangerous, but you can
bring her back.
Me: How?
Khosi: Burn the incense and call on your ancestors to bring
her back.
This child can talk alright but I don't understand at all.
Me: My ancestors?
Khosi: Yes, as her soul moved towards you, your ancestors
took her as one of their own because your soul didn't resist
when she called you to rescue her.
I look at my brothers maybe they understand this child but
they look just as clueless as me, maybe when Ntsoaki wakes
up she can clarify for me.
Khosi: I will help you Piller.
I look at him squinting my eyes, he smiles and shrug his
shoulders.
I go get the incense and we burn it as he holds my hand.
I call on my clan names.
Me: boGumede, Qwabe, Phakathwayo please bring her soul
back to her body she is a Mokoena not a Gumede and she is
still in the land of the living..
I see Ntsoaki moving and she coughs opening her eyes, I get
up and kneel next to her..
Tears run down her eyes as she hugs me tight.
Ntsoaki: Thank you so much..thank you.
Our partners in this family are always troubled maybe we
should start looking into that.
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
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NTSIKA
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I have taken Ntsoaki to my room and Khosi is with my kids
Miyalo is making food for them.
I give her my tshirt after she is done taking a shower.
Ntsoaki: Thank you for saving me, that man almost killed me.
Me: I'm sorry.
We stay in silence for a while.
Me: Babe what is going on?
Ntsoaki: That man wanted to rape me and kill me, he has
done it before, he raped and killed the other librarian there, I
saw it when he touched me and I was going to suffer the
same fate and he gets away with everything since he have
money.
I nod.
Me: But thank god I got there fast hey.
Ntsoaki: Yeah.
I sit in bed facing her and take her hands.
Me: So I had to ask your soul from my ancestors.
She look away.
Me: Ntsoaki, what was that all about?
Ntsoaki: I..I don't know..
Her eyes are moving around the room like she is nervous.
Me: You need to tell me what's going on I don't like liars
Ntsoaki the hair at the back of my neck stand up when you
lie to my face.
Ntsoaki: I don't..
Me: Don't you dare lie to me..
Ntsoaki: Can you take me home please.
She says with her shaky voice.
Me: You're not going anywhere until you tell me what is
happening why I had to call my ancestors to get you back..
She get up from bed and go to the bathroom.
Me: Ntsoaki!
She ignores me and I decide to go check on my kids, I find all
of them playing on the floor my girls, Iviwe, Khosi and the
twins.
Me: Who is in the kitchen Miyah it smells good in there.
Miyalo: Your brothers are cooking today.
Me: Wow.
Miyalo: I know right and they insisted imagine a whole Star
and Sun cooking.
I laugh and sit next to her.
Miyalo: Why are you here?
Me: Uh where else should I be?
She stares at me.
Miyalo: You should be with Ntsoaki, I am looking after the
kids and Khosi there is acting like a big brother, look at him.
I look a Khosi who is busy wiping Ntando and Thando's faces
because they have saliva from eating their palms.
Me: And the way he talks, he scares me sometimes.
Miyalo: I was so shocked in fact the very first time I saw him
he shocked me his energy is like yours, it's so strong.
Me: Oh I have a strong energy huh?
Miyalo: You do actually and we talked about it with Star just
the other day he feels it too and it was after you introduced
Ntsoaki to us.
Me: Oh ok I never noticed anything.
Miyalo: I don't think you can feel your own energy Ntsika.
I laugh and I see Ntsoaki walking towards us she is now
wearing her dress, I look at her.
Ntsoaki: Uhm where is Langa or Nkanyezi?
Miyalo: In the kitchen.
She points where the kitchen is and she go there, I get up
and go stand just a few steps behind her with the hands
inside my pockets.
Ntsoaki: Can one of you take me home please.
Langa: Where is Pillar?
Ntsoaki: Please..
Me: But I said you're not leaving.
Ntsoaki: Langa.
Langa: Uhm I think you guys need to go to your room to talk.
Ntsoaki: I want to leave.
Nkanyezi walk up to her and look at me.
Nkanyezi: "Why is she crying?"
Me: Why are you asking me, I was standing here the whole
time?
Nkanyezi: "Ntsika"
He takes her hand and they pass me and go sit on the couch.
Nkanyezi : "Is it what that man did to you?"
She shakes her head and the tears just falls, my heart aches
but I won't give in to what my inner conscious tells me to do,
comforting her that is until she tells me what she knows.
Nkanyezi hugs her while looking at me with questioning
eyes.
Langa: What did you do Ntsika?
Me: I didn't do anything, she doesn't want to answer as to
why i'm asking her soul from our ancestors.
Miyalo: But you can't force her to talk now Piller, she is still
upset from what happened to her.
Me: Ok I won't ask anymore but she is not leaving still, I
want her to be here with me after what happened. You will
find me in our room once you're calm.
I walk to my room and take off my clothes then get in bed.
I must have fallen asleep because when I wake up there is no
one next to me.
I open my kids's bedroom they are sleeping, I was hoping to
see Khosi here but he's not.
I check the spare bedrooms, nothing, I knock on Miyah and
Nkanyezi's room, Miyah open.
Me: Where is Ntsoaki?
Miyalo: She went home?
Me: What!?how?
Miyalo: She called maKhumalo to come here with cash and
they took a taxi home.
Me: Ok sure sorry for waking you up.
She nods, I call maKhumalo's phone and she answers on the
second ring and she sound like she just woke up.
I look at the time it's 1:05 in the morning, I didn't even
notice.
Me: I'm so sorry to call at this time ma, I'm really sorry.
Makhumalo: It's okay, you need Ntsoaki?
Me: Yes please Ma.
Makhumalo: Ok hold on a little.
I can hear the door opening and another door and I hate
myself for waking people up at this time of the night.
I can hear makhumalo calling her name.
Mkhumalo: You have a call, here take the phone.
Ntsoaki: Hello.
Me: Why would you do this Ntsoaki?
She doesn't answer.
Me: I'm sorry for asking you questions, can I come there I
just want to hold you, please.
Ntsoaki: No.
Me: Babe please let me come.
Ntsoaki: Ok.
Me: Ok i'll be there in a minute.
Ntsoaki: Don't speed Ntsika.
Me: Ok I won't baby.
I quickly get dressed and walk out, start the car and drive to
her flat, I see her coming out and she open the gate for me
and I step out and follow her inside and lock the main door
and go to her bedroom, I find her already in bed and take off
my clothes getting in next to her and hold her closer to me.
Me: Sleep baby, I'm sorry for waking you up.
She turns and snuggle closer to me.
I hear her huff but I choose not to ask anything.
Ntsoaki: I love you.
I kiss her forehead.
Me: I love you too babe.
I open my eyes it's morning already and Ntsoaki is just
sitting up playing with her hands, I sit up too.
Me: Morning.
Ntsoaki: Hey.
Me: Are you ok?
She nods nervously.
Me: He won't hurt you again, I won't allow him to hurt you
again.
Ntsoaki: You think I should go to work?
Me: not until those cops do their jobs and take your
statement because if they won't arrest him I will just finish
him off.
Ntsoaki: Don't say something like that.
Me: it's men like him who give all of us a bad name, we are
given strong physiques to protect women not to be violent,
wish men could use their power for what it was intended to
do.
She sighs.
Me: I have to go now.
Ntsoaki: But why?
Me: Why did you sneak out from home?
Ntsoaki: It's not my home, I wasn't supposed to be there.
Me: Oh, this is not my home too.
I get up and go to the bathroom first then come back and get
dressed in silence.
I can hear her sniffing.
Me: Why are you crying?
Ntsoaki: I don't want you to leave.
Me: But it was okay for you to leave home at night without
telling me.
She wipe her tears with the back of her hand, I stop what i'm
doing and go stand next to bed.
Me: Why would I stay?you're hiding something from me
Ntsoaki and I don't like that.
Ntsoaki: Go then!
She says covering her head and sleep back in bed.
Me: Ntsoaki!
She doesn't answer.
Me: I hope this doesn't backfire on me or you...
I take my phone and car keys then walk out, I get in my car
and huff, why is it so hard to tell me the truth!
I drive home and get my kids ready for day care, they look
happy and that makes me happy.
I drive them to school then go back home to my beautiful
girls.
Me: Star junior is growing hey.
Miyalo: He has to, I can't wait to finally hold him in my arms.
She says beaming and Nkanyezi smiles brushing her little
bump, I smile, I have four kids and I never had a chance to
bond with them while they are still in their mother's womb.
I'm brought back from my thoughts by Nkanyezi snapping
his fingers, I look at him.
Nkanyezi: "Are you okay brother?"
Me: "Yeah i'm just thinking about how blessed you are to be
able to bond with your baby while still growing inside her
womb, I wish I had that chance to know how it feels."
He look at me.
Nkanyezi: "I believe you will get that chance someday, we're
still young Piller."
I nod and rest my head on the couch and close my eyes. I feel
someone shaking me, I open my eyes and wipes my face so I
dozed off on the couch.
Miyalo: There are police outside looking for you.
She look shaken.
Me: And why are you panicking?
Miyalo: What did you do you moron?
Me: Nothing.
Miyalo: Piller be serious what if you get arrested?
Me: For what ey move away from me.
She smack my face and Nkanyezi grins
Me: Why would you do that and why is it funny to you?
Nkanyezi: "The police are here and you are still drowsy I told
her to smack you if you don't wake up."
Me: nxx, don't play with me you two, i'm not your friend.
I get up and go wash my face then walk back to the lounge,
Grandpa is here with two gentlemen.
Me: hello, Grandpa when did you come back?
Grandpa: As soon as I was called by cooper saying someone
is opening a case of assault for a Junior, is it you Piller?
Me: Uhm who did I assault.
Gentleman: We believe it's miss Ntsoaki's boss who just
opened a case of sexual assault against the same boss.
Me: Ok.
Grandpa: Ok?
Me: Yes ok, I was defending my girlfriend when I got to that
office he had her pinned down and holding her neck was I
supposed to watch him squeeze the life out of her?
Gentleman: You should have waited for the police, I hear
they were called.
Me: And sit there waiting while she dies of suffocation?
Grandpa chuckles.
Grandpa: What you gonna say about that?
Gentleman: No one should take matters to their own hands.
Me: And I didn't I just simple pushed him off my girlfriend
and banged that useless head on the wall to fix his brain that
was about to hurt my woman.
Grandpa laughs.
Me: Are we done here?
They stare at me, I shrug my shoulders and go to my brother
in his room with miyah they are lovie dovie in bed I walk in
and smack his face, he jumps out of bed and we start
wrestling.
Miyalo: What are you doing?
Me: I'm doing what I should be doing to you for smacking
me!
Miyalo: You're acting like Nqoba and Manqoba right now..
I laugh while we beat each other up, I step back.
Me: That's what you get for messing with me..
He shakes his head smirking of course we were just playing.
I go to my room and take a bath and my phone rings, it's
maKhumalo.
Me: Hello Ma.
Makhumalo: Can you quickly comd here please something is
wrong with Ntsoaki.
Me: I'm coming there now.
I throw the phone in bed and quickly get dressed then drive
to her flat I find the gate opened, I drive in and rush inside.
I get to her bedroom, she is with Khosi and Makhumalo, she
is crying.
Me:What's wrong with her?
They look at Ntsoaki but she just cover her face and continue
to cry.
Khosi: She can't move her legs..
Me: What?Ntsoaki..
I go to her and pull away the blanket but her legs look
normal.
Me: Why can't she walk?
Khosi: Let's go ma.
He sayd jumping out of bed and take makhumalo's hand and
walk out.
I sit down and look at her.
Ntsoaki: Your ancestors Ntsika, they did this to me..
I look at her, she continues to cry.
Me: Why?is it that secret you kept from me? Didn't I tell you
that it will backfire huh!didn't I?
Ntsoaki: I don't want to get married okay I don't!
Me: Who are you supposed to get married to?
Ntsoaki: You dammit! I don't want any arranged marriage
from the ancestors.
I've never been so confused in my life.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
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I'm still looking at her confused as hell but she is just crying
not telling me what she is talking about.
Me: Babe..
She doesn't respond.
Me: Please talk to me, I don't understand.
She wipe her face but she keep her head down.
Ntsoaki: Your ancestors already take me as your wife, they
want me to marry you.
Me: Then let's do it, let's get married.
Ntsoaki: It will mess up whatever we have Ntsika, arranged
marriages never ends well I don't want it.
Me: So you'd rather be paralyzed than to marry me.
Ntsoaki: I am not getting married.
Me: Ok.
I'm hurt, I don't know.
Me: Will it be a bad idea to marry me?
Ntsoaki: I want to marry someone who is ready for marriage,
who wants to get married not because the ancestors said so,
I want someone to ask me to marry him not this! And I am
not ready for marriage.
Me: Ok.
Ntsoaki: Just go, leave!
I nod and go to my car, I don't know what hurts me more, the
fact that she rather be paralyzed than to marry me or that
she think i'm not ready for marriage, am I that bad?
I drive home and find everyone here, I sit down.
Ziyanda: What happened to Ntsoaki dad tells me the police
were here for you.
Me: She was almost raped by her boss.
Ziyanda: Oh No is she okay?
I shrug my shoulders.
Ziyanda: Baby..
Me: She can't walk t..
Miyalo: What do you mean she can't walk she was just here
yesterday walking perfectly.
Me: My ancestors paralyzed her.
Langa: How Ntsika?
Me: They want us to get married because she is already my
wife to them.
Everyone looks at me.
Me: She rather can't walk than to marry me but she always
said she loves me, I don't understand women sometimes.
I walk away to my room and get in bed.
Later mom calls me to the lounge, I find my parents and my
brothers there.
Luyolo: Ntsika.
Me: Baba (dad)
Luyolo: Do you want us to talk to her for you?
Me: No it's fine I know what to do, Langa can you go and pick
her up from her flat.
Luyolo: What are you going to do?
Me: I will tell my ancestors that we are still young maybe one
day we will get married but not now.
Luyolo: You think it will work.
Me: It has to work, I want her to walk again.
I give Langa the keys and he walk out.
I go get the incense and the matches then a fleece, I go back
with it in the lounge and kneel on a fleece and burn the
incense.
I am just staring at the smoke and waiting for Langa to call
and tell me they are here.
After a few minutes still kneeling there Langa walks in
carrying Ntsoaki in his arms and he place her in front of me,
I don't even want to look at her.
Me: Gumede, Phakathwayo, Qwabe Mnguni ka Yeyeye,
siyaxolisa sisebancane( we are still young) asikazukwazi
ukushada manje (we can't get married now) kusakuningi
esifuna ukukwenza ( there is still a lot we want to do) so
siyacela mxoleleni mqaqeni ahambe futhi ( Please release
her so she can walk again.)
The smoke literally come to me and I start coughing it's like I
inhaled all of it in my lungs.
Langa: Ntsika!
Someone gives me a glass of water, I drink up, I feel better, I
look at Ntsoaki.
Me: Try to move your legs.
She moves them and look at me, she nods.
Me: Talk! Can you move them or not?
Ntsoaki: Yes..
She says low, I nod and get up.
Me: Good, we're done here.
I pick everything up and walk away and sleep in my bed
facing up.
I hear a light knock and the door opens.
Me: What are you doing here?
Ntsoaki: Ntsika I..
Me: No, Go we're still young we shouldn't even be dating.
Ntsoaki: Oh.
Me: Yeah.
Ntsoaki: So..uhm Ntsika, is it over?
Me: Yes!
I shout and she just sob.
Me: Go Ntsoaki and wait for someone who is ready for
marriage because you already concluded thay i'm not, get
the fuck out of my room!
Ziyanda: Ntsika!!we talk like that now with women?
I sit up, I didn't even realise she is here.
She comes closer.
Ziyanda: I asked you a question, you don't respect women
now you talk anyhow with them?
Me: I'm sorry, I'm just angry mom, i'm angry at her, she
knows that something else will come up, they want us to get
married, if something happens to me I will kill her.
Ziyanda: Ntsika..
Me: No this is on her, I don't have a problem with marrying
her and it won't be hard because I love her, but it's clear she
want someone else not me, She must pray nothing happens
to my baby because I will really kill her.
Ziyanda: What baby?
Me: The ancestors showed me that she is pregnant.
That's what I saw while staring at that incense smoke and if
we don't get married something might happen to the child
but I can't force her to marry me.
Ntsoaki: No..
It looks like she is thinking.
Me: You better not lose my child Ntsoaki..
She walks out crying and I go back to bed, mom sits next to
me.
Ziyanda: Ntsika don't be too hard on her, this is new to her
too, she told me she only found this out when she was
almost raped by her boss so she is just overwhelmed, she
loves you.
I sit back up again.
Me: I didn't mean to be mean to her like that, she is the gift
that my ancestors are giving to me and I shouldn't make her
cry like that and she is carrying my 5th child they don't want
her to be born out of wedlock and I would be making a huge
mistake if I let her go.
She smiles and hug me.
Ziyanda: I am proud of you and your brothers you have
grown so much just like how I always wished when you
were kids.
Me: Thank you for raising us to be who we are today if it
wasn't for you we wouldn't be here.
Ziyanda: So we are fixing things with Ntsoaki right.
Me: Yes I am before it's too late.
She nods and we get up and walk out but when we get to the
lounge she is not there.
Ziyanda: Where is Ntsoaki?
Luyolo: She rushed out of here crying and when Langa
followed her she said she didn't want to be here.
Mom look at me.
Me: It's okay, I will fix it.
I take my car keys and drive to the mall, I go to a jewellery
store and look for an engagement ring and buy the one I
hope she will like then go buy red roses for her.
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I drive inside ger flat and take a deep breath, I really hope
she doesn't turn me down.
I step out and put a box in my pocket and roses on my hand
then knock on the door it opens and there she stands looking
at me with her puffy eyes, she licks her lips and her dimples
show, she look down.
Me: Can I come in?
She step aside and I walk in and turn to face her, she is still
by the door.
Me: These are for you.
She takes the roses and go put them on the kitchen counter.
Ntsoaki: Thank you.
I step closer to her then go down on one knee taking out the
ring and open it.
Me: Sthandwa sam (my love) I promise this is all from the
bottom of my heart not from the ancestors, this is me Ntsika
asking you to please be my wife and also give my kids what
they long for, a mother I know there is too many of them but
I believe we can make it work, from day one I already knew I
need you in my life so please baby marry me please.
Tears falls from her eyes, I am holding my breath as she look
at me.
Me: Will you please marry me..
She stretches her left arm to me and I look at her.
Ntsoaki: Yes, I will marry you.
She says smiling, I don't believe it.
MaKhumalo: You better put it on before she changes her
mind.
I quickly take it out from the box, my hands are shaking and
my eyes are glassy but I manage to put it on then get up, I
pull her to my chest giving her a bone cracking hug, I'm so
happy my whole body is shaking the tears are falling down
my face, I release a loud sigh.
Me: Thank you so much babe, thank you.
She wraps her arms around me tight.
I hear clapping I pull away from the hug and wipe my tears
and look not far from us it's MaKhumalo and Khosi clapping.
I wipe her tears.
Me: Thank you.
Ntsoaki: Thank you.
Me: Can I show off?
Ntsoaki: How?
Me: And take you home with me, I will bring you back later.
Khosi: Uh Nqoba's dad can I go too, I missed the twin girls.
Me: Beg your mom to agree to come with me first.
He comes and stand between me and his mom facing her.
Khosi: Please mom can we go I miss my friends and the girls.
Ntsoaki: Ok we can go..
MaKhumalo: I will stay with Esethu.
Me: Or we can all go.
MaKhumalo: And I miss my son Langa and his jokes.
I laugh.
Me: Well let's all go then so you will tell them i'm telling the
truth that she said yes to being my wife.
Ntsoaki: Let me go change then.
Khosi: Can I sleep over there please mom i've never had any
sleep overs.
Ntsoaki looks at me.
Me: Please pack for him Ma I will wait here.
They all walk away and I sit on a couch and shake my head
smiling, she will be my wife, there is really a light at the end
of the tunnel I mean a month ago I was crying for Lathitha
but now I have found someone worthy being my wife and I
have my ancestors to thank for that.
They come back and I drive home.
We step out of the car and I take her hand and we walk in
and we find them in the lounge, its loud you know what that
mean, Aunt Mbali and Sunny are in the house.
Me: Good afternoon everyone uhm let me intoduce
MaKhumalo and in her arms is Esethu and you all know
Khosi.
They are smiling looking at me.
Lungi: Uhm and the smile.
Me: Now let me reintroduce her, everyone meet Ntsoaki
Mokoena my fiance.
Mbali: Whaaaaat!!you're lying.
Khosi: He is serious, mom said Yes!
Everyone cracks up, I fist bump him I knew I needed him.
Mbali: I will believe it when I see it, wave your left hand girl!
I look at Ntsoaki she is so shy looking down.
She slowly wave her left hand and everyone starts clapping.
Mbali: Oh my God Ntsika look at you about to be someone's
husband!
Me: I know right..
Mom get up and take Esethu from MaKhumalo.
Ziyanda: You can have a seat ma.
Me: So dad free state is far I will need all the help I can get.
Sunshine: Wait she is from free state? Woow we are about to
travel.
Kwanele: Uyaphi ke wena because ithina amadoda
esilobolayo.( where will you be going because its us men
who have negotiate the lobola)
Sunshine: Oh but we are leaving too for moral support.
I laugh and I sit down with Ntsoaki next to me.
Mbali: I already see myself wearing my beautiful dress at
your wedding damn!
Me: Thank you so much baby, look at how happy they are for
us.
Ntsoaki: I can see that.
Everyone go to the table so we can eat dinner, I look at my
kids playing on the floor, I call all of them including Khosi to
come stand in front of me while picking up my girls and
putting them on my lap.
Me: So you my boys asked me to hurry and get a new mom
for you and guess what I have found her.
Nqoba: Ngempela Ntsika?(really Ntsika)
Me: Yes, Khosi's mom will be your new mom.
They look at her smiling.
Manqoba: uzovuma simubize ngo ma?(She will allow us to
call her mom)
Ntsoaki: Yes you guys can call me mom.
Nqoba: namanje?(even now?)
Ntsoaki: Yes.
I see them hugging each other, Khosi is looking at them
smiling.
Nqoba: Ok mom so can we hug you.
Ntsoaki get up and they both hug her.
Manqoba: Sambe siyotshela ugogo.(let's go tell grandma)
They run to the sitting room and leave us smiling, Ntsoaki
take Thando from me and sit down next to me.
Ntsoaki: How do you differentiate them, even the boys.
Me: You will know soon, they are slightly different but the
boys it's a bit hard and they know that they look so much
alike so they can trick you.
She laughs and Thando look at her and smile pulling her
locks.
Me: that is Thando and this is Ntando.
Ntsoaki: Hello Thando and you Ntando.
They are making noise and I smile, I should do something for
those ancestors serious to show gratitude.
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
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NTSIKA
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So Ntsoaki and MaKhumalo also slept over here at home like
Khosi.
She slept in my arms but we didn't do anything other than a
kiss goodnight, she said it doesn't sit well with her to have
sex with me in my father's house before going through
proper steps of our marriage and I understand, she is the
one who connects more with the ancestors so she sees some
other things differently from us.
We wake up when we hear a knock on the door, I sit up after
kissing my wife to be and invite the person at the door in.
Makhumalo walk in with a phone in her ear.
MaKhumalo: Ntsoaki this is for you sisi.
Ntsoaki: Who is it ma?
MaKhumalo: Your elder brother.
She quickly sit up and take the phone and the bold voice on
the line shouts "Ntsoaki"
Ntsoaki: Brother Letlotlo.
Letlotlo: How did it go, did he get arrested?
Ntsoaki: I don't know he was still in hospital.
Letlotlo: Ok, so is there anything you want to tell me?
She looks at me, she look really nervous.
Letlotlo: Hello.
Ntsoaki: Can I call you back later, please.
Letlotlo: Ok ngoana papa we miss you.
Ntsoaki: I miss you guys too.
Letlotlo: Ok don't forget to call okay.
Ntsoaki: Ok.
She huffs and give MaKhumalo the phone and she walks out.
Ntsoaki throws herself at me and hug me tight.
Ntsoaki: I don't know how it's done, should I tell them what
is going on?
Me: I will have to ask my parents babe, for now let's go back
to sleep.
Ntsoaki: Ok babe.
I wake up an hour later and look at my beautiful woman next
to me, I smile to myself.
Ntsoaki: Stop staring at me .
Me: You're creepy, how did you know? Your eyes were
closed the whole time.
Ntsoaki: I can feel your small eyes on me Ntsika.
She open her eyes and blink looking at me.
Ntsoaki: Morning.
I peck her lips.
Me: Morning let's go take a shower before they call us for
breakfast.
Ntsoaki: Ok.
We go take an innocent shower and my guy is up but I know
I won't get anything she made that very clear.
I see her changing to a different dress from yesterday, I
laugh.
Ntsoaki: What?
Me: So you were planning on sleeping over?
Ntsoaki: This is my "just in case" dress.
I laugh out loud it's beautiful, it allow all the curves and ass
to pop out.
Me: It suits you.
Ntsoaki: Thank you babe.
We go join everyone on the table and Lukhele is here.
Lukhele: NtsikaYekhaya I heard the good news boy
congratulations to the both of you, you guys look good
together maMokoena.
Me: Thank you grandpa.
I say looking at Ntsoaki who is keeping her eyes down
smiling.
Me: So we want to ask if Ntsoaki should tell her family about
the negotiations or..
Lukhele: No, we will send a letter letting them know that we
want to take their beautiful flower and request a date then
they will call us back to give us the go ahead on when we can
come for the negotiations.
Me: Okay so when can we send the letter?
Lukhele: We are just waiting for the Postal address from our
princess here.
Me: Ok she will write it down for us then, thank you.
Later I take Ntsoaki home and she look nervous.
Me: What is it?
Ntsoaki: I don't know how they will take the news I hope
they agree.
Me: They have to babe, the life of my princess depends on
this and also I already see you as my wife too like the
ancestors.
Ntsoaki: I still can't believe that I might be pregnant.
I chuckle.
Me: Not might baby, you are pregnant.
Ntsoaki: I left the morning after pills in your car, I totally
forgot to take them that day after we slept at the hotel.
Me: I didn't even see them but it's all good now, I'm looking
forward to watching your tummy grow, I heard you guys
sometimes have weird cravings, I'm ready for all that.
Ntsoaki: And If I tell you i'm craving for sex right now?
Me: Then I can just take off my clothes now.
She laughs and sit down on her bed and I sit next to her.
Me: I can't wait to wake up next to you for the rest of my life.
Ntsoaki: You know I won't come cheap right? I am my
father's only princess.
Me: And you're worth any amount, we will pay every cent.
Ntsoaki: Where will you get the money?
I laugh and look at her.
Me: My siblings and I have shares on the family business
ever since we were kids so I am going to use that money and
I know my grandfather and dad will support me as well.
Ntsoaki: Okay thank you, I guess our future is secured then
huh?
Me: Our future, I like the sound of that.
Ntsoaki: It's getting late let's go to bed.
Me: Uhm when did I agree on sleeping over?
She looks at me with begging eyes.
Ntsoaki: Please babe the baby wants you to sleep over.
And she burst out laughing and I join her.
Me: The cravings neh?
She nods still laughing out loud.
We go to the kitchen to prepare food together since
maKhumalo is busy with the kids we eat and go to bed.
The next morning I wake up to my grandpa's call.
Lukhele: NtsikaYekhaya.
Me: Lukhele..
Lukhele: Come home with Ntsoaki her family wants to talk to
us they got the letter earlier today.
Me: Ok I will come with her thank you.
I shake Ntsoaki and she wakes up.
Me: We have to go home your family got the letter and they
want to talk to us.
Ntsoaki: Maybe they want to decline.
Me: We won't know until we get home, now go take a
shower babe so we can go.
She nods looking really stressed about this.
We drive home and I start in my room and take a shower
then go back to the lounge.
Grandpa take his phone out and dial a number and place it
on the table we all can hear it ring.
Ntsoaki is holding my hand tight.
A voice shouts "hello."
Grandpa clears his throat and fix his jacket like they can see
him, I chuckle. "I am Letlotlo and I have my father here next
to me."
Lukhele: Greetings to you Mokoena.
Letlotlo: Eeh we got your letter and we have read it with my
family.
Lukhele: Mmmh.
Letlotlo: Unfortunately we have to decline to this meeting.
I look at Ntsoaki she has glassy eyes.
Me: Don't cry baby ok, we will fix this.
I whisper to her and she nods biting her lower lip.
Lukhele: May I ask why you're declining sir?
Letlotlo: We do what the ancestors tell us to do and they
want us to decline this because they don't recognise the
surname written on this letter.
We all look at each other.
Letlotlo: They already know the surname of the man that my
sister is going to marry and this Mzozo is not it.
Lukhele: Ok that was a mistake from our side, that Mzozo is
the man that raised them and married their mother, he
adopted them.
Letlotlo: That man need to send another letter again using
his rightful surname and that of Ntsika for us to accept your
request.
We all look at each other confused.
Letlotlo: I hope you heard, thank you.
The line goes off and Ntsoaki stands up and walk away.
Me: What is going on?maybe we should have used Gumede
then because they chose her for me.
Luyolo: But he said something like, I have to send the letter
with my rightful surname, What does that mean?
Me: He is a traditional healer too so he sees beyond what we
can see.
Lukhele: This is confusing.
Me: But we need to do this grandpa, I want to marry her and
my daughter's life depends on this marriage, please do
something.
I don't understand what is going on but we have to fix it
soon.
Later we go eat dinner the mood is just sour, Ntsoaki is
sitting next to me playing with her food.
Grandpa's phone rings and he looks my way and answers
clearing his throat.
Lukhele: Lukhele....ok hold on a sec.
He place the phone in the middle of the table then sit down.
Lukhele: You're on speaker now Mokoena.
Letlotlo: So I believe that house you're in is your niece's
house and that makes her your daughter right?
Lukhele: Yes..yes it is.
Letlotlo: Right, is my sister Ntsoaki there?
Ntsoaki: Yes I am here.
Letlotlo: I am going to ask you a question, has it ever
happened that you burn the incense in a Mokoena house and
call the ancestors of another surname in the same house of
Bakoena?does it work?
Ntsoaki: No..
I look at dad and he is looking at me with a confused look.
Letlotlo: Isn't that a Mzozo household?
Lukhele: It is Mokoena.
Letlotlo: So how does it happen that you call on Gumede
ancestors in that house and everything works out?huh
Ntsoaki?
Ntsoaki: It means that this is a Gumede household brother.
She says keeping her head down.
Letlotlo: And how did you miss all this?
Ntsoaki: You know I haven't done anything like this before I
had only went for my training, this was the first time doing
the work of the ancestors.
Letlotlo: I understand that but we all know this, am I right
Lukhele?
Lukhele: You're right Mokoena but what confuses me is that
how is it a Gumede household when my daughter only have
kids with Gumede but married a Mzozo and they built this
house.
Letlotlo: I have said what I received from the ancestors
Lukhele it's all up to you now, Rea leboha.
The call goes off.
Luyolo: I really hope this is not another trick those dead
twins are playing in my house!
Ntsoaki: It's not, dig deep and find your true identity.
Ziyanda: What is going on?
We all sit there and look at each other confused as hell.
We all go to bed with that confusion in our heads.
Next morning I wake up with my eyes itching and they are
burning up.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika your eyes baby..
Me: Yeah they hurt.
Ntsoaki: Those negotiations need to happen soon or you
might lose your sight.
I am not shocked the more we delay something is bound to
happen.
We go join everyone and when we get in the lounge, my
vision becomes blurry.
I sit down, I have a very strong headache that shoots through
my eyes, it's painful.
Ntsoaki: You need to do something, he will lose his sight,
please.
I can hear she is crying next to me.
Ntsoaki: Langa please go get Khosi from the day care, please.
Langa: Ok.
Me: Shit..
Sfiso: And this must be directed straight to you because we
don't feel any pain.
Those ancestors are ruthless, if they say they want
something, they mean it.
Minutes later I can feel a little hand touching my shoulder.
Khosi: Your father's brother must lead the lobola
negotiations.
Me: But he is dead, he doesn't have another brother.
Khosi: He is here, and he needs to burn the incense and ask
for forgiveness for this delay since you can't do it yourself
this time and your brothers as well.
Me: But I..
Khosi: Burn the incense sir, time is not on their side.
Luyolo: How am I going to burn the incense for ...
Ntsoaki: You are a Gumede it's clear now please do it, he is in
pain..
A few minutes later I can smell of the incense and Ntsoaki
takes my hand and we kneel down.
Luyolo: What is going on?
I can hear him talking opposite where I am sitting, my eyes
are closed because when I try to open them they hurt so bad.
Ntsoaki: Lead him Ntsika...tell him what to say..
Me: BoPhakathwayo, Gumede, Qwabe, Mnguni kaYeyeye..
Silence.
Luyolo: Yhoo!Gumede, Qwabe..
Me: Siyaxolisa ngokunilindisa sisalungisa izinto sobese
siqhubeke nezinhlelo zomshado (We're are sorry for the
delay, we're still fixing things then the wedding preparations
will go on)
Dad repeats what I say in his Xhosa accent.
I open my eyes and blink a couple of times it worked.
I look at dad and he is sitting down on the floor looking
down, he looks really sad.
Me: Dad..
He doesn't reply.
Ziyanda: Luyolo..
She kneels next to him.
Luyolo: What is going on Ziyanda?
Khosi: Mom give him the answers that he needs.
Ntsoaki kneels down.
Ntsoaki: Please give me your hand.
Dad extends his hand to her and Ntsoaki grunts loud and
stare at him.
Ntsoaki: The ancenstors of this family never make a mistake
you have seen it happening before, no one raised kids that
were not meant for him or her.
She looks at my mother, I understand that, that's Langa
being her sister's child.
Ntsoaki: Your greatgrandfather once warned your father not
to take Ziyanda because he knew the ancestors had already
given her to the eldest son, the eligitimate son which is said
to belong on his mothers family because he was born out of
wedlock, you were never a Mzozo but raised by one, they
knew the truth and they didn't listen to the ancestors
warnings when they were told to bring you back home and
they suffered a tragic death and you are the only one that
survived, those ancestors when they talk everybody should
listen, you're a Gumede by blood and you need to accept
your identity and claim your brother's kids.
She let go of dad's hand and continue to grunt.
Ntsoaki: Accept who you are It wasn't a mistake that you
ended up with her and raised three kids together, they knew
what they were doing, go back home Nkazimulo..
Dad quickly look at her.
Luyolo: How..how did you know that name?
Ntsoaki: Your ancestors are speaking, your mother had you
before she got married and the man who got her pregnant
had already named you while still in her womb.
Luyolo: That's what she used to call me sometimes..
I can see tears in his eyes as he look at mom.
Luyolo: That means I killed my brothers and my father.
Ntsoaki: This is your family, they saw you worthy to raise
the third generation of the Qwabe clan and you did what you
had to do to protect your family.
Luyolo: Yhoo!
I chuckle and he look at me and smile.
Luyolo: Yeah neh..
Me: I know dad, I know..
Langa: Wow..this just keeps getting..someone give me the
word..
Sfiso: Interesting..
Langa: That's why we got married baby you know when to
give it to me..
Ziyanda: Really!!
Langa: The word mom he gave me the word you all heard it..
I laugh shaking my head.
Luyolo: Yeah neh umntu walikhulisa uhlanya ( I raised a
lunatic)
Langa: Gumede, Phakathwayo, Mnguni ka Yeyeye...
Dad laughs and look at mom.
Luyolo: So you don't mind being Mrs Gumede?
Ziyanda: Not at all as long as i'm Mrs Luyolo Nkazimulo
Gumede and no one else.
Luyolo: I love you.
Ziyanda: I love you too honey.
I take Ntsoaki's hand and smile.
Me: You're amazing and I love you.
She smiles, I get up, take her hand and hug her tight.
Ntsoaki: I love you too Ntsika.
That is music to my ears, it sounds so good.
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
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NTSIKA
*
Finally dad sent that letter and they agreed that we can meet
and start the negotiations.
We were at the Gumede household so that dad can be
recognised by our ancestors and mom as his wife and great
aunt was happy that at least the surname will live on.
We get into the car and drive home Ntsoaki was left at home
with Miyah and the kids.
Ziyanda: I think I really deserve a new ring now from Mrs
Mzozo to a Gumede and I never thought i'd set foot in this
place ever again.
Luyolo: I will buy you a new ring baby you deserve it, still
going to take me a while to get used to the fact that the two
guys who hurt my wife like that were my younger brothers,
and that ruthless man was my father.
He shakes his head.
Me: I guess you're one of the good ones, greatgrandfather
was a good man.
Luyolo: Wish I had met him even if it was just once.
Me: He lives within you dad and i'm sure he is sorry for not
finding you sooner.
Luyolo: But I will always respect the Mzozo surname and my
home back in the Eastern Cape where I grew up, I never felt
like he wasn't my father, he was really a good man.
We get home late and find the ladies with the kids watching
tv.
I go kiss my woman and Nkanyezi kiss his Miyah, I take my
girl from Ntsoaki and kiss her then the other one from Miyah
and do the same to her.
Me: Can I speak to you in the bedroom please.
She nods and stands placing Thando next to Miyah.
When we get in the bedroom I quickly pin her on the wall
and kiss her so hard while squeezing her butt she push me
giggling.
Ntsoaki: You missed me huh?
Me: You have no idea baby, I was dying to have you in my
arms and it doesn't help that we haven't been having sex.
Ntsoaki: Can you hold just a little while longer baby just until
we're done with the Lobola and all.
Me: Yeah sure.
I say fixing my pants and sit in bed, it's really bad down
there.
Ntsoaki: Uhm babe I'm I i'm sorry if what i'm doing hurts
you, we can go to my flat then and have sex there.
Me: I understand baby i'll wait.
Ntsoaki: You don't have to, I don't want you to end up
cheati..
Me: I will never cheat for sex Ntsoaki give me some credit.
I take off my clothes and go to take a shower and when I step
out I find her crying in bed.
Me: What's wrong babe?
Ntsoaki: I'm sorry for depriving you of sex.
Me: Is that why you're crying?
She shrug her shoulders.
Me: You don't know why you're crying?
Ntsoaki: I don't know stop asking me those questions!
She says giggling wiping her eyes, I look at her.
Me: Is everything okay?
Ntsoaki: I am fine I just felt sad.
Me: For no reason?
She just look at me and walk out, I think she is angry now,
for what? I don't know.
I go chill with my family and sit next to Ntsoaki and she takes
my hand.
Lukhele: So Thursday we're leaving for Free State which is
two days from now.
Sunshine: So dad are we leaving too?
Kwanele: Ufuna ukuyokwenzani unesoka yini eFree
State?(Why do you want to go there do you have a
boyfriend?)
Aunt Sunny shoots him a look and Uncle Kwanele chuckles.
Lukhele: We're all leaving and Kwanele organise the cars we
will be using while still there, we will need the ladies for
buying the gifts and everything we are going to do
everything in one day.
Langa: Everything?
Lukhele: Yes we can't keep going to Free State and do one
thing then go back some other day no we don't work like
that, we are bringing our bride back home as soon as
possible.
I smile looking at Ntsoaki, I can not wait for her to be fully
mine.
Lukhele: So ladies pack everything you will need for yourself
and the kids, including you and Khosi.
He says looking at Ntsoaki and she nods.
Lukhele: Who knows I might just find myself a Sotho lady
there.
Mbali: And you still have the looks and charm wena Lukhele.
Lukhele: I'm glad someone said it.
We laugh.
Kwanele: Those Sotho guys better not try something with
my wife, my gun will be with me the whole time ain't playing
with nobody.
Sunshine: Same goes to the ladies there I'm not going there
to come back as a divorcee.
I laugh at them, this is the most serious couple ever but
when they start being crazy, they go all out.
Sunshine: I will tell any lady that look his way that, look
away bitch not another look or we will have a serious
problem.
Kwanele: They better not look at me at all sthandwa sami
(my love)
Mbali: You're not that hot i'm sure I will be the one chasing
away the bitches, just take a look at my man, sukuma baby
bakubone.( Get up baby so they can see you)
Uncle Mandisi get up and do a little twirl.
Mbali: Just look at that, look at that my God!
Langa is dead with Laughter and so am I, we can laugh
alright.
Mandisi: Yini ehlekisayo (what's so funny) i'm the hottest
nigga in this house you brothers ain't shit.
Mbali: Yes baby.
Ziyanda: Hold up I ain't hating but have you seen my dark
chocolate man, I mean the darkest nigga in this house, my
man is hot!
Dad clears his throat proudly, they are just ridiculous bunch..
We go our seperate rooms, Ntsoaki didn't go home.
Me: Babe I love you too.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika you know when I told you we can't have sex
in your father's house didn't mean I don't want you to make
me feel good.
I chuckle.
Me: What do you mean?
Ntsoaki: I'm horny Ntsika.
Me: Mmm sorry babe you will be fine.
I say sleeping facing the other side, a few minutes later she
start sniffing, I turn to look at her.
Me: Why are you crying?
Ntsoaki: Just leave me alone.
Me: You want me to leave you alone?
I say moving my hand to her cookie.
Ntsoaki: Yee..yes.
Me: Really?
I get on top of her and start kissing her she kiss me back, I
chuckle.
I take off my tshirt that she is wearing and she isn't wearing
anything underneath.
Me: You know this is still sex right?
Ntsoaki: Baby please..
I go straight to her cookie and eat her up while finger fucking
her she is grabbing on my head and pushing it deep between
her thighs, I continue sucking her until I feel her body shake..
Ntsoaki: Gosh..yes..yes.
Her juices comes out and I start licking it and sucking her
again..
Ntsoaki: Ntsika please let's go to my flat now..
I look at her.
Me: But it's late..
Ntsoaki: Please babe I need you so bad..
Me:Didn't you say you want us to wait till you're my wife..
Ntsoaki: mxhm move away from me..
She push me with her foot a little and pull the bed covers
and sleep.
I decide to just ignore her and just get in next to her.
I touch her tummy brushing it slowly, I feel her hand on top
of mine.
Ntsoaki: I love you so much.
Me: I love you too baby.
She turns and sleep on my chest.
Me: I am so happy to have found someone who loves me
genuinely and I won't hurt you Ntsoaki I promise.
Ntsoaki: Thank you for making me your wife baby and a
mother of many kids of course.
I laugh.
Me: Unfortunately I didn't hit double this time around.
Ntsoaki: But that's a good thing baby we have too many kids
already.
Me: I can never have too many kids babe when I have a wife
who loves me, a gift from my ancestors.
She giggles sleeping on my chest.
Auntie Sunny and Mbali are busy with the bookings of
accommodation for us in Bloemfontein.
I go to a meeting of only males of the house.
Lukhele: So how much are we looking at?
Luyolo: I'm giving him R10 000.
Langa: You think it will be more than that?
Lukhele: I believe so she did say she is the only girl and you
know how stingy people are with their daughters so he will
want more.
Luyolo: Like how you were stingy with Ziyanda?
We laugh.
Langa: Then my husband and I will give him R15 000.
Me: What?
He nods.
Nkanyezi: Expect R10 000 from me this was unexpected and
I'm already building another school in South Coast.
Mandisi: Kwanele and I will see into transportation and
accommodation.
Me: Why didn't you guys give me all this money before this, I
would be one rich mother fuc...
Luyolo: We don't care about you we only want our daughter
in law here at home.
Me: Thank y..
Lukhele: But I haven't told you my amount yet..
Me: Oh sorry.
Mandisi: He just wants to show off.
Lukhele: I will give you uhhh R30 000 +plus if they want
more I will pay.
Me: what about me?
Lukhele: You have kids Ntsika and one on the way and a wife
too so you will need that money so let us do this for you.
Me: Wow thank you guys so much I appreciate everything
you're doing for me.
Lukhele: That's what family do.
Me: So uhm do you think they will allow all of you to be there
on the day of the negotiations.
Lukhele: You want us all to be there?
Me: I would love that
Lukhele: Let me ask, uhm you mean all these big head?
I nod laughing.
Lukhele: Even Langa and Mandisi?
Mandisi: What is wrong with us?
Langa: Ask him uncle..
Lukhele: You know you guys have mouth diarrhoea
everything just comes out of those mouths.
Langa: No I don't and I wish I would record everything for
you brother so you can see how good I will be in there.
Me: I trust you little bro.
Langa: Thank you bro.
We go and pack for our trip for tomorrow morning we will
take Uncle China's jet so it can accommodate all of us and the
kids as well.
I sleep alone because Ntsoaki went home to pack for Khosi,
Esethu and her, MaKhumalo is leaving too to help with the
kids, My kid's nanny is coming with us too.
I wake up early and call Ntsoaki.
Me: Morning babe.
Ntsoaki: Hey honey.
Me: You're already up?
Ntsoaki: I'm still in bed, I woke up feeling nauseous so that's
why i'm awake.
Me: Sorry babe, you're okay now?
Ntsoaki: Yeah I think i'm goo....
I hear a gag sound.
Me: Hello babe..are you okay..
She doesn't reply I get up and get dressed without bathing
and rush out getting in the car.
I call MaKhumalo once i'm outside the gate to open for me. I
drive in and rush in her room, I find her kneeling on the floor
vomiting in a small bucket some vomit is on the floor.
Me: Baby..
Ntsoaki: Hey Ntsika when did you get here...
She start vomiting again, I go to the kitchen to get her water
and help her get up, I then clean up where she was vomiting
she is sitting in bed looking so tired.
I sit next to her once i'm done cleaning.
Me: How are you feeling?
Ntsoaki: Tired, I have been vomiting since I woke up..
Me: I'm so sorry, let me help you take a bath..
I take off her clothes and pick her up going to the bathroom. I
take off my clothes as well and I fix a warm bath for her, she
get in and I get in behind her, she is inbetween my legs her
head is on my chest.
I take a bath spounge and move it around her body and she
is moaning like crazy and I groan because she is turning me
on.
When we're done I step out and wrap the towel around my
waist and help her wrap one around her body then we go
back to her bedroom.
I lotion her body and help her get under the covers.
Me: Will you be okay, I still have to go home and change.
Ntsoaki: I will be fine.
Me: Okay I will call you when it's time to get ready, what are
you going to wear so that I can take it out?
Ntsoaki: I don't know..
I go through her closet and find black Jeans and and a white
top then tekkies.
I put them in her dressing table.
Ntsoaki: I'm not going to wear jeans your whole family will
be there.
Me: You're my wife Ntsoaki they won't have a problem with
jeans and also it's cold outside, I will give you my hoodie
when I come to get you, you're not feeling well you should be
warm.
Ntsoaki: Ok thank you.
I make sure she is all warm then walk out.
I get home and everyone is moving up and down.
Ziyanda: Go and get dressed Ntsika we are getting late.
Me: Mom a flight from here to Free State is Approximately an
hour and 30 minutes.
Ziyanda: I know but we're meeting Ntsoaki's aunts's today,
you said you wanted us to come back with her as your wife
right?
Me: Yes.
Ziyanda: Then we need to leave soon so they will let us know
what to do.
Me: Ok mom.
I go to my room and loxion then get dressed to jeans and a
black hoodie with a beanie then take a white hoodie for my
wife.
I drive out first after telling mom that i'll meet them at the
airport.
I find Ntsoaki still in bed, I feel her forehead and she's
burning up.
Me: Baby maybe we should take you to a doctor first.
Ntsoaki: I will be fine baby.
I help her get dressed and she wears my hoodie and we walk
out and find Khosi and MaKhumalo waiting in the car, I greet
them and drive to the airport my whole family waiting for
us.
Ntsoaki: Hello.
She says with a faint smile.
Ziyanda: Are you okay baby?
Ntsoaki: I just felt nauseous this morning.
Me: And she is burning up.
Ziyanda: Maybe it's just morning sickness.
Miyah: I'm glad I haven't had one of those.
Ziyanda: Yeah pregnancies are different.
We get in the jet and Ntsoaki fall asleep immediately after
we take off till we get to Bram fisher airport.
Me: Baby wake up we are here.
She look up at me.
Me: Are you okay.
She shakes her head and get up but she vomits right on the
spot.
Ziyanda: Go get her water Ntsika..
I get her water and help her drink.
I feel so hurt, I made her sick, i'm the one who got her
pregnant, do all woman get sick when pregnant?
Or is it just my woman.
Ntsoaki: My brothers are going to fetch me at your hotel.
Me: But can't you sleep over and go in the morning, I want to
take care of you.
Ntsoaki: Ok.
We find Avis rental cars waiting for us and I drive with my
woman, my boys and Khosi.
We get to the hotel and I go to my room with my wife and
she get in bed and fall asleep immediately.
I order room servive for us and wake her up.
Me: Do you think you can keep anything down.
Ntsoaki: ha ke tsebe ( I don't know)
Me: Please try a little.
She nods and I feed her a little bit.
Ntsoaki: I'm good now thank you.
Me: Ok babe now go back to bed.
Ntsoaki: Come sleep next to me.
Me: Ok.
I get in next to her and we cuddle, tomorrow is the best day
of our lives

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NTSIKA
*
It's early in the morning and i'm nervous as hell, I look at my
woman next to me and kiss her.
Me: Babe.
Ntsoaki: Mmm.
Me: You need to wake up, your brothers will be here any
minute from now.
Ntsoaki: But i'm still tired.
Me: You will rest at home ok, my brothers are awake too
now.
She get up her eyes are so puffy, she really doesn't look well.
Me: Your family will think I made you cry Ntsoaki look at
your eyes.
She giggles.
Ntsoaki: No they won't.
Me: Ok let's go to the bathroom.
Makhumalo's phone beeps at the side table, she left it with
us because Ntsoaki's family calls her in it and I have a duty to
buy her a new phone, everything that belongs to her was left
at her work place that day of her boss.
Ntsoaki: It's my younger brother they want me to send the
address.
Me: Ok send it then, so you can bath.
She send the address then get up from the bed, she take a
step and sit back on the bed.
Me: What is it?
Ntsoaki: I'm feeling very dizzy.
Me: Baby was it like this when you was pregnant with Khosi?
Ntsoaki: No..
Me: I'm sorry but mom did say pregnancies are different.
Ntsoaki: Yeah i'll be fine.
I help her take a bath and get dressed then we wait for her
brothers.
They are outside and it's still dark, I walk her out.
And there is a car outside and two dark young men with
dreadlocks step out and Ntsoaki moves away from me, she is
smiling so bright causing me to smile too.
Ntsoaki: Baena baka (my brothers)
They smile too and I notice the dimples, I guess they all have
it.
They hug her and look at me. She clears her throat.
Ntsoaki: Uhm meet Ntsika, Ntsika these are my brothers, this
one is Tlotliso he comes after me and this is the last born
Hlano.
Me: Nice to meet you..
We shake hands and they look at me.
Tlotliso: So you are the husband?
Me: Yes I am.
Tlotliso: You look like a decent man so I trust you won't hurt
our sister.
Me: I won't hurt her, I love her so much to do that.
Tlotliso: Then me and you will get along.
I chuckle, They go back to the car and I kiss Ntsoaki and hug
her.
Me: Make sure you rest before my family comes ok.
Ntsoaki: Ok babe I love you.
Me: I love you, and i'll see you later right.
Ntsoaki: Yes.
She go to the car and they drive off, I walk in and I find my
brothers in my room they are already dressed.
Me: Morning.
Sfiso: Ready for your big day?
Me: I'm more than ready, you guys look good.
Langa: Well I always look good.
Grandpa and my uncles with dad walk in.
Luyolo: How do you feel son?
Me: Nervous but I trust all of you.
Lukhele: I wouldn't trust Langa and Mandisi.
Mandisi: Even today dad?
Lukhele: I can never trust you.
Me: So who is singing praises?
I laugh because I don't even know a single one of them and I
forgot to even ask.
Lukhele: We won't be doing that, we will just call out the
Mokoena surname and tell them why we're there.
Me: I hope they let you in.
Nkanyezi: "They have to we are here to take our wife back
home with us not to play."
I laugh.
Me: Ok, thank you guys so much, I will see you later.
Lukhele: Ok.
They walk out and I sit in bed, Sigh, I hope everything goes
well.
*
NARRATED
*
Ntsika's brothers and uncles are on their way to the Bakoena
household and they have Cash on each ones pocket they are
hoping for the warm welcome.
They stop at the Location given by Ntsoaki.
It's still a bit dark, they stand by the gate and Lukhele clears
his throat.
Lukhele: Sikhulekile ekhaya kwaMokeona!
He shouts and Langa chuckles.
Lukhele: Yini wena (what is it?)
Langa: No nothing I thought we will be doing this in English
since there is a language barrier.
Lukhele: Can you let me do this my way please.
Langa raise his hands up in surrender.
Lukhele: Asizanga ngokubi!(we are not here to harm),
kodwa size ngokuhle kodwa!(we are here for only good
things).
No one answers and Lukhele have been shouting for almost
10 minutes but no one has came out. Luyolo's phone vibrates
in his pocket.
Luyolo: Hello Son.
Ntsika: Dad have they allowed you in yet?
Luyolo: No, be patient Ntsika they will allow us in eventually,
this is how it's done okay.
Ntsika: Ok dad I hear you.
Lukhele starts shouting all over again and a male voice
shouts.
Voice: u mang? (who are you?)
Lukhele: Singabaka Gumede oPhakathwayo siphume le
eNatal.(we are the Gumede's from KwaZulu Natal)
Langa: Why don't you quit Isizulu grandpa?
He whispers.
Lukhele: One more word from you, you're going back home.
Langa: Sorry.
They all chuckle.
A young boy comes and open the gate for them, the sun is
rising now.
They walk all the way to the house but a boy stops not
looking at them causing them to stop behind him.
They look at each other.
Luyolo clears his throat.
Luyolo: Is everything okay?
The boy doesn't reply but remain standing at the same spot.
Langa: I know what to do.
He takes out a R200 note from his pocket and place it in
front of the boy. The boy goes down and take it .
Him: You can come in.
Langa chuckles looking at all of them proudly.
They all walk in and find about 8 gentlemen sitting on the
benches on the rondavel, they take seats opposite them.
Lukhele: Dumelang.(hello)
But no one dares open their mouth.
Luyolo takes out a couple of R200's and place in on the floor.
One gentlemen count the money it's five thousands, he
shakes his head and leave the money on the floor and sit
down and look at them.
Luyolo counts another R200 notes and place it on the floor.
Its another five thousands. Which makes it ten thousand
rands. They nod and look at them.
Uncle1: Dumelang (Hello)
Luyolo: We want to ask is it okay to speak English to make
communication easier.
They nod.
Uncle: So what can we do for you?
Luyolo: We are the Gumedes, My son Ntsika saw a very
beautiful flower in the Mokoena household and he has sent
us here so you can allow him to make her his wife.
Uncle1: We hear you, but we can't just give away our
daughter.
Luyolo: We don't expect you to.
Uncle1: So what do you have with you so we can see you're
not here to play with us.
Luyolo: Tell us what you want?
Uncle1: Let's start with 10 cows first.
Luyolo look at Lukhele.
Luyolo: How much is each cow.
The uncles look at each other and whisper, then they clear
their throat.
Uncle2: 8 cows will be R8000 each and 2 cows is R5000
each.
Luyolo looks at his brothers and Lukhele.
Lukhele: Can you excuse us a little.
The uncle smirk.
Uncle: Of course.
Luyolo get up with his family and they walk out.
Langa: Did you hear what they said, that is the start, how
much will they want next.
Luyolo: Let's just add the amount they want and count the
money we have with us.
Langa: 8000× 8 is 64 000 plus 10 000 that's 74 000.
Lukhele: I have R50 000 with me.
Nkanyezi: R30 000
Luyolo: Ok let's use all that for now.
They count the money and they walk in.
Langa squarts down and start counting money by a thousand
up to 74 000.
The Bakoena cheer.
Mokoena: Now I can talk, I am the father of that beautiful
flower, I can see you didn't come here to play huh.
Luyolo: We want to go back home with her today.
Mokoena: I hear you, so my brother told you that this is a
start right.
Luyolo: We understood that.
Mokoena: I believe you know that my daughter is a
traditional healer.
Luyolo: Yes we do know that.
Mokoena: So we will need R20 000 because we paid 4 cows
for her training and now she will be a Gumede not a
Mokoena.
Lukhele nods and look at Sfiso he squarts and count R20
000.
Mokoena: Thank you.
Uncle: So we will let her mother and Aunts to come in now.
Women walk in and sit on the mat and greet.
MaMokoena: I am Ntsoaki's mother and I just found out that
my daughter is pregnant.
Mokoena: She is pregnant?
MaMokoena: ee Mokoena.
Lukhele: We are aware of that and our son is responsible for
the pregnancy.
Uncle1: Then we need you to pay another cow for that child,
Couldn't Ntsoaki wait until she gets married to have a
second child!
He shouts.
Mandisi: The cow is R9000 right.
Mokoena: Yes.
Mandisi takes out the money and count it on the floor.
Mokoena: Thank you, you can bring in refreshments our in
laws must be hungry.
Mandisi: Yes we are..
The women walk out and Luyolo excuse himself and call his
wife.
Ziyanda: Hey babe.
Luyolo: We have done our part you can all get ready now.
Ziyanda: Everything went well?
Luyolo: Yes except we are broke broke and broke now.
Ziyanda: That steep huh?
Luyolo: You have no idea!
Ziyanda laughs and they drop the call and Luyolo walk in
and they have tea with scones.
*
Menwhile Ziyanda screams causing Ntsika to look at her,
they are all in one room and Ntsika has been quiet because
of the nerves.
Ntsika: Mom what is it?
Ziyanda: Your father just called..
Ntsika: And what did he say mom?how did it go?
Ziyanda: He said they are done and we must get ready!
Ntsika: so that means everything went well right?
Mbali: Really Ntsika..
She ask with a bored look and Ntsika pace around the room,
he doesn't know what to do with himself, he is beyond
happy.
Sunshine: Looks like he is losing his mind..
Everyone laughs.
Mbali: He is your outfit for the day baby.
Ntsika looks at the outfit, it's a white and blue tradional
attire, it's pants and a shirt.
Me: You made this for me?
Mbali: Yes I did, Ntsoaki has the matching dress.
Ntsika: Thank you so much.
Sunshine: Now go and get dressed, we will be getting.ready
too here.
*
NTSIKA
*
I am looking at myself in the mirror, I look good and the the
outfit fits me perfectly, this was a suprise I didn't know there
was an outfit for me.
I wear my watch and walk out, I find Lukhele and my
brothers here and they have changed in their own
traditional attires that matches mine and so are the ladies.
Lukhele: Oh here he is..
They cheer and I smile looking down.
Me: Thank you for what you have done for me.
Luyolo: Thank us later the cars are here, let's go fetch your
wife.
I nod and we go to the cars and drive to Ntsoaki's home.
We step out of the cars and I can see traditional healers and
the drums playing so loud. This must be the ceremony they
do to for her ancestors to acknowledge that she is going to
be a Gumede now.
Aunt Mbali starts singing the Zulu wedding song.
Mbali:
"Sikulandile, Sikulandile
Sikulandile Makoti, Woza makoti sikulandile"
Everyone joins in and sing, i'm just smiling as we walk in.
There is a lot of people in the yard amd they are singing as
well.
I see three people who are covered in blankets from head to
toe and 4 guys with dreadlocks stands in front of us two of
them are the ones I met earlier, Ntsoaki's younger brothers.
"Greeting I am Letlotlo the older brother, the one you were
talking to on the phone welcome"
Lukhele: Nice to finally meet you and your family.
He nods, They all have Ntsoaki's features.
Letlotlo: So we ask the husband to show us which one of
these ladies is his wife.
He points and the three ladies that are covered in blankets.
I look closely and I see a bit of a dreadlock in that blanket
and I smile.
Me: This one is my wife.
They uncover the blanket and I was right but she is sweating
and breathing heavily.
Letlotlo: You can come this way.
We follow him to the rondavel and we find a lot of people in
there.
They greet us and offer us seats.
Woman: We understand that you want to go with your bride
today.
Mbali: Yes.
Ntsoaki walks in with two girls behind her, she has a goat
skin in her left hand. They sit on the floor.
Mom and Aunt Mbali stand up and walk up to her and the
two girls hold the blanket up so we can't see what is
happening on that side.
After a while they remove the blanket and she is wearing a
white and blue traditional dress with a matching doek on her
head.
Ziyanda: Now you're a Gumede wife, this is how you wear in
the Gumede household as a sign of respect.
I smile and look at how beautiful she is and her brothers
come in with a goat and they slaughter it and hang a gall on
her dress.
Letlotlo: Now you are no longer a Mokoena, you're a
Gumede, that gall will be with you until you take it off when
you're in your new home.
She nods looking down.
Woman: Who is my son in law between you four?
She points at me, Nkanyezi, Sfiso and Langa.
I chuckle and stand up.
Woman: I am your mother in law, Ntsoaki's mother.
I nod with a smile.
Me: Nice meeting you Ma.
Woman: Go next to your wife so we can bless your union.
I go to Ntsoaki and take her hand, she stands up and we hold
hands.
Her mother prays holding our hands and we sit down with
her next to me.
Me: You look beautiful.
I whisper in her ear causing her to smile.
Ntsoaki: Thank you.
Me: You're my wife now huh.
Ntsoaki: Yes I am.
We smile looking at each other.
Mokoena: So she will go home with you.
Me: Yes and our white wedding is in a months time.
I hear clapping and ululation, they look really happy.
Mokoena: Gumede..
I nod with a smile.
Mokoena: I'm happy, I think my only daughter is in good
hands, I hope we didn't cost you a lot.
Langa laugh, and that shows that they paid a lot.
Langa: It was a lot of money but we're not complaining at all,
she is carrying our blood and she is really beautiful.
Mokoena: My only daughter, I am proud of you.
He looks at her with a smile.
Mokoena: Do visit us with our son in law please we want to
get to know the person he is.
Ntsoaki: Ok dad.
Mokoena: We wish you all the best in your marriage but this
is the work of the ancestors so I trust they will guide you.
We eat and have drinks, people are dancing and singing it's a
lovely day.
I look at Ntsoaki and smile, She is mine now.
Me: I love you my wife.
Ntsoaki: I love you too my husband.
Later we get into the cars and drive to the hotels, tomorrow
we have to go home at the Gumede house to introduce her,
the ancestors are waiting to see her in that yard as my wife.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
*
We are on a flight back to Durban and we already called
Great aunt that we're coming with my wife, she was happy
and fixing everything on that side, Ntsoaki is with her cousin
who is accompanying her, in Zulu she is called
"uMakhotshana".
She is wearing another traditional attire that was designed
and made by aunt Sunshine.
She is sleeping on my shoulder, this baby is really making
her tired and sick.
After 2 hours we get in Durban and drive straight to Gumede
household and find the yard full, I guess great aunt told the
neighbours about this ceremony.
As soon as we step inside the yard the rain starts pouring
and a lighting strikes in front of us as i'm holding Ntsoaki's
hand and we are walking infront of everyone.
The lightning left a line and Ntsoaki starts grunting, I see
Khosi running inside and comes back with a mat and place it
infront of his mom where the lightning striked, she kneels on
it and grunt..
Ntsoaki: Gumede, Phakathwayo,Mnguni...
She chants clapping hands and the rain stops, I help her get
up, walk in and take seats.
Ntsoaki: If I didn't manage to stop that rain by calling my
new clan names You were going to have to take me back
home.
Me: Really?
Ntsoaki: Yes I am a Gumede now, if it didn't work that would
mean we didn't do things right back home.
Me: I'm glad everything went well babe.
She smiles, people are singing and dancing around here like
they know any of us but I like the mood.
We go to the rondavel and I take off the gall and put the new
one of the goat my brothers's just slaughtered.
And we go kneel on the floor and burn the incense.
Me: boPhakathwayo, Gumede, Qwabe ngiyabonga
ngalesisipho eninginike sona.(Thank you for this gift you
have given me). Ngeke nginenzele phansi, ngizomnakekela
kahle.(I won't let you down, I will take care of her)Gumede..
We get up and we go to the table and eat.
Ntsoaki: Babe can you get me the insides ?
Me: Insides of what?
She looks at me with a bored look.
Ntsoaki: Mogodu Ntsika!
I look at her.
Me: You really want to feed my baby with the goat's insides?
Ntsoaki: What's wrong with it?
Me: I don't eat goat meat so I don't thi..
Ntsoaki: I eat it, so please get it for me.
I get up and go dish the insides for her and give it to her.
She starts eating it with her hands.
Me: That thing is hot Ntsoaki.
She ignores me and continue eating it like it's the most
delicious food on earth.
Her cousin comes and stand next to me, I feel her hand on
my shoulder, I look at her thinking she wants to say
something but she is just smiling looking at the people that
are dancing in front of us.
I hear Ntsoaki clearing her throat.
Ntsoaki: Uhm Sesi can you please remove your hand from
my husband's shoulder.
Langa chuckles behind me, my whole family is behind us.
She removes her hand but continues to stand next to me.
Miyalo: ngifisa ukubona enza njalo endodeni yami ( I would
like to see her do that to my man) I would wipe this dust
with her, not my Star shame.
She speaks behind me and I chuckle.
Me: Babe do you want more of that?
Ntsoaki: Ntsika this is my food remove that face of disgust
you have on right now please.
Me: What face baby, this is my normal face.
Ntsoaki: Oh.
Around 5 we drive back to Durban and start by dropping off
MaKhumalo and Khosi at Ntsoaki's apartment then we go to
a hotel for our little honeymoon.
She takes off her clothes and go to the bathroom while I
order some desert that she wanted, she has been eating
everything.
I sit in bed after they brought the desert.
My mouth hung open she comes out wearing a red lace
lingerie, she stops a few steps away from me.
Ntsoaki: Do you like what you see.
I can't answer but the boner growing on my pants is enough
answer.
She walk slowly to where i'm seated and move her hands all
over my body and stop on my hard dick.
Me: Mmm..babe..
Ntsoaki: You have been taking care of me, let me take care of
you now.
I nod biting my lower lip, the way she's touching my dick
makes my whole body shake.
Me: Fuck..
She sit on my lap and start kissing me with her tongue and I
gladly respond while squeezing her body. She get up and
push me to bed, she takes off my pants then remove my
tshirt.
She runs her hands on my stomach, I groan and as she
replace a hand with her tongue.
Me: Shit..
She trace down to my dick then lick the tip while looking at
me.
Me: Baby..
I whisper, she put my dick in her mouth.
Me: My..fuck..
She start sucking while looking deep in my eyes..
Me: Shit..shit..babe..
I'm so close, she stops and pull down her lingerie her boobs
are all out and she squeeze them, I sit up and remove her
hands and start sucking her nipples, she push me back to
bed and remove the rest of it. And her pussy lips swallow my
dick..
Me: fuck..yhoo baby..
I don't know what to do wih myself as she rides me so fast, I
flip her and put her legs on my shoulders and fuck her brains
out, i'm going all in then out..
Ntsoaki: Yes..baby..don't stop..I want to cum back..
She aches her back giving me more access to her pussy..
Me: Yes baby..this is all mine, give it to me..
I feel her meeting every thrust I make.
She sinks her nails on my thighs, the clench on my dick
makes me cum deep in her pussy.
Me: Fuck..
I move slowly to release all my cum then sleep next to her.
Ntsoaki: You're so good, I missed you.
Me: I missed you too babe.
We clean up and she eats her desert.
Me: Uhm so you're staying home with me right?
She doesn't reply.
Me: Ntsoaki! You and Khosi are moving in this week
angithi?(right).
She looks down.
Ntsoaki: I.. I don..
Me: What is it now?
Ntsoaki: Can I move in after the wedding?
Me: No.
Ntsoaki: Please I..
Me: I said no Ntsoaki, I will help you pack tomorrow.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika I just want t..
Me: You want what?why do you want to move in after the
wedding?
She plays with her hands.
Ntsoaki: Can we stay in my flat?
I chuckle.
Me: I told you from the word go that i'n not moving out of
my home to stay in a flat.
Ntsoaki: But..
Me: You are my wife and you will stay at home with me.
we stay in silence and she has stopped eating.
Me: Do you hate my family?
Ntsoaki: No.
Me: Then why is it a problem to stay with them?
Ntsoaki: I'm just scared of your mom, dad and your uncles.
Me: You will get used to them and I promise you will love it
there, our ancestors expect us to live together with our kids
in one roof at the Gumede household and you know that.
Ntsoaki: I know, i'm sorry.
Me: I know this is a lot because you're used to your own
space now but we will be happy and you will continue to
work, wear the clothes that you used to wear.
Ntsoaki: Ok thank you.
Me: Now give me another round babe.
Ntsoaki: No..I'm still eating.
*
The next day we drive back home and find our family eating
lunch and we sit on the table.
Nkanyezi: "How are you husband and wife."
Ntsoaki: "We are very well thank you and how are you?"
I smile looking at her.
Langa: What do you not know wifey?
Ntsoaki chuckles.
Ntsoaki: My younger brother Hlano is deaf so we learned to
communicate with him.
Nkanyezi: "so that is why Khosi is at the day care for kids
that learn the basics of sign language?"
Ntsoaki: "Yes"
Me: Looks like your family and our family have a lot in
common probably why our ancestors wanted us to get
married because there can never be judgements.
Langa: Makes sense.
We see Nkanyezi hitting the glass with a spoon to grab our
attention, we stop eating and look at him.
Nkanyezi: "I won't say much because my hand will be
holding something."
He get up from the chair and push Miyalo's chair, he goes
down on one knee. The ladies gasp.
He looks at me and smile.
Me: Miyalo Emihle will you please marry him..
Miyalo: Say what now?
She looks so shocked.
Me: Will you marry your Star..
Miyalo: Baby...Oh My God!
She screams so loud then she hugs him.
Miyalo: Yes! Yes I will marry you, wow Star I..
Nkanyezi put on the ring it has a huge diamond. He get up
and they hug tight.
Ziyanda: Wow..did you know about this Ntsika?
Me: No I am just as suprised.
Mbali: Liar!he didn't say anything yet you knew what he
wanted to say.
Me: Because he is my brother and I know him more than I
know myself, the minute he looked my way on one knee I
knew he wanted me to be his voice.
He comes and hugs me.
Nkanyezi: "Thank you brother."
Me: "Anytime."
Nkanyezi: "So I don't know if it's okay to have a double
wedding."
I look at Ntsoaki and he looks at Miyah.
Ntsoaki: I don't mind at all.
Miyalo: Me too, I'm about to get married!
She says dancing with her little bump.
Me: Don't hurt my son with those dance moves.
Miyalo: I'm a professional baby, don't worry.
Sfiso: There's nothing professional with what you just did
there.
Miyalo: Oh shut up!
Langa is cracking up so hard.
Langa: Did you really had to dance like that Miyah?
Miyalo: I am getting married!!
Ziyanda: I'm proud of you guys, Qhayiya are you looking up
to your brothers?
Qhayiya: Of course I am mom, their women are beautiful and
brother Sfiso looks good, they sure know how to choose.
Everyone at the table laugh.
Langa: You're right about that little guy.
Qhayiya: Can I bring my woman over too.
There is silence at the table mom and dad look like they are
ready to kill him. I'm holding in a laugh.
Qhayiya: Bad joke?
Luyolo: Have you started dating Qhayiya?
Qhayiya: No dad..
Mbali: Oh he has started alright, let me whoop his ass..
Qhayiya: No mama I was just joking i'm sorry.
We laugh, I think he does have a girlfriend this one, he talks a
lot.
*
The following morning I wake up and Ntsoaki is not next to
me, I go to the bathroom and freshen up then go back to my
room, she comes in wearing a beautiful long dress and a
matching doek on her head.
She kiss me so passionate and smiles looking at me.
Ntsoaki: Good morning babe.
Me: Morning, I thought you left me when I didn't find you
next to me.
Ntsoaki: I will never leave you, I was making breakfast for
my family.
Me: Really?
Ntsoaki: Yes babe, now wear something and come eat okay.
She kiss me again and walk out leaving me smiling like a
retard.
I walk out and find everyone sitting on the table, my wife
comes in with a small basin and a dish cloth.
Ntsoaki: Here's water to wash your hands.
She starts with Lukhele and dad then mom and everyone
follows.
She goes back to the kitchen, comes back and kneel next to
me.
Ntsoaki: here is water to wash your hands
PapaNtando.(ntando's father)
Right now I feel like a King in my own castle.
I wash my hands and dry them with a cloth. She dish up for
everyone and gives me my own food kneeling down.
Langa: Now that is some cute shit over there..
Mbali: Beautiful.
She sit next to me and start eating.
Me: Thank you..
This moment right here means everything to me.
We eat breakfast and Sesi clears her throat, I forgot about
her.
Sesi: Ntsoaki I would like to leave today please since you
don't have time for me.
Mbali: Sweety are you okay, She just got married, do you
want to sleep inbetween her and her husband?
Sesi: No but my family sent me here to help her with her wife
duties but today she made breakfast alone, this one thinks
she's better.
Ntsoaki looks down, I hold her hand.
Langa: Is it not time for her to go?
Nkanyezi: "I think it is brother."
Me: It is.
Langa: We are nice people but she is our family now and we
can't watch you talk to her anyhow especially in front of her
husband.
Sesi: ke ne ke sa batle ho tla mona but my family forced me
to accompany the precious Ntsoaki.(I didn't want to come
here).
Lukhele: Little girl go and pack your shit, Langa book a flight
for her now, she needs to leave.
Ntsoaki: Sesi do something with your life so you will stop
being bitter about people doing better in life..
She says keeping her head down.
Langa: Damn..
Sesi: It's that witchcraft you practise that mak..
I let go of Ntsoaki's hand and go around the table then pull
this Sesi girl.
Me: Out..
Sesi: You can do bett..
Me: Another word from you, you will see stars..
I stare at her, she takes a few steps on the passage.
Me: Hey! Walk out, we will give you your stuff outside..
She walk out.
Me: Babe can you please gather her stuff so she can leave.
She nods and get up then come back with a little bag, I walk
out and give Sesi.
Me: Wait for a cab by the gate It will take you to the airport.
Sesi: She bewitched you I can see it, you only see her.
Me: That's good let me go inside and ask her to bewitch me
again cause I like it.
I walk back in and I take my wife to our room.
Me: I'm sorry ok.
Ntsoaki: It's fine baby, I don't even understand why my
family chose her to come here because we don't get along.
I kiss her.
Me: You look more beautiful when you're are dressed like a
wife.
She smiles.
Me: You made me feel like a real man today, thank you.
Ntsoaki: You're my man and I respect you Ntsika, and what
your family did for me today showed me that i am part of
this family too, so can we go pack today?
I smile looking at her.
Me:Of course baby, are you going to change into something
more comfortable to move around with?
Ntsoaki: Like what?
Me: Uhm Jeans and a tshirt.
Ntsoaki: No, never, not in this house.
I chuckle.
Me: Ohk babe, let's go we will start in town so I can buy a
new phone for you.
Ntsoaki: Thank you.
We drive to town then go back to her flat and start packing
the important stuff first which led us to love making, now
we're sleeping in bed facing each other.
Ntsoaki: I'm hungry..
Me: Let's go home then, we will finish up tomorrow.
We get dressed and drive back home, I am a happy man.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
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I am with my wife at her flat finishing packing, she is
wearing only my tshirt and I find that sexy as hell. I
randomly spank her butt she gasps and look at me.
I laugh.
Ntsoaki: Really babe?
Me: Yeah your butt cheeks are cute, I just had to..
Ntsoaki: mmm you had to.
She comes closer, i'm sitting in bed, pull down my boxer
shorts a little then give me her back and start riding on my
dick
Me: Fuck..
I grab on her waist and she trembles I cum after her, she
continues to move her waist slowly then get up and go to the
bathroom, we have been having these quickies ever since we
came in this morning.
She comes back from the bathroom and give me the wet
towel I wipe myself.
Ntsoaki: Are you trying to get me pregnant again while i'm
still pregnant?
Me: What!
She laughs throwing her head back and sit next to me.
Ntsoaki: Have I told you how much I love you and how much
you satisfy me sexually.
Me: No please tell me..
Ntsoaki: Oh come on.
Me: Uhm so this flat, what are you going to do with it?
Ntsoaki: I was still going to talk to you about it, what do you
think we should do?
Me: Is it fully paid?
Ntsoaki: This was supposed to be my last month of paying it
fully, I will pay tomorrow, I got my salary today.
Me: Ok let's pay for it then maybe find students to rent it.
Ntsoaki: Ok let's do this.
Me: So about work, I was thinking that since you're already
pregnant and you get sick sometimes, can you stay at home
for now then you can continue after our baby is born.
Ntsoaki: Thank you, that will give me time to find a new job, I
don't want to go back there but I still want to get my salary, I
will apply for an early maternity leave.
I chuckle.
Me: You still want that pay check huh..
Ntsoaki: Who doesn't want money Ntsika..
Me: Me.
Ntsoaki: Says someone who is worth millions.
We laugh.
Me: Thank you for including me in things like this.
Ntsoaki: You're my husband and I saw this from my parents
that when you're married you don't take decisions alone.
Me: I love you so much.
Ntsoaki: So you will continue with your studies?
Me: Yes baby.
Ntsoaki: Hope you won't cheat on me with your classmates.
Me: My ancestors would kill me.
Ntsoaki: I know.
She laughs.
Ntsoaki: I'm highly favoured babe.
Me: My queen.
Ntsoaki: Haa!!
Me: What is it?
Ntsoaki: I forgot to tell you that it's my book launch this
weekend babe, it will be a small event, will you please be my
partner?
She ask smiling.
Me: I will be honoured and congratulations babe, this is
huge.
Ntsoaki: And more money for our kids right?
I laugh, she loves money this one but at least she works for
it.
We pack everything up and she wears her clothes and I drive
home and we unpack.
Ntsoaki: Can I fetch the kids from day care?
Me: Yes, they will be thrilled, they always told me they
wanted to be like Khosi because his mother fetch him from
day care.
Ntsoaki: Well mommy is fetching them today.
Me: Thanks babe.
She kiss me, take the car keys and walk out.
She comes back an hour later with the kids making noise.
Ntsoaki: I'm sorry to come back late, I took the kids out for a
little snack.
Nqoba: Ntsika, siyabonga.(thank you)
Me: For what buddy?
Nqoba: You kept your promise, u ma uslandile ecreche.(mom
fetched us from creche.)umtholile umah (you found mom)
This makes me emotional I look at Ntsoaki she is smiling.
Me: Are you guys happy?
Manqoba: Yes we are.
Me: Then that's all that matters to me, your happiness means
everything.
Khosi: So I can call you dad too?
Me: Yes I am your dad.
Khosi: thank you dad.
He hugs me and rush off to their room.
Family means everything to me.
*
The day of the launch comes and we take Nkanyezi and
Miyah with, wearing the matching outfits like Ntsoaki and I.
We find paparazzi there and the journalists rush to us the
minute we step out of the car.
Journalist: Mr Nkanyezi we didn't know that you will be
here, you are still with your girlfriend I see.
Miyalo: Yes he is still with me.
She fan herself with her left hand and the journalist gasp.
Journalist: Is that an engagement ring?and I see you're
pregnant.
Miyalo: Yes I am and it is an angagement ring, what!? You
thought an ex sex worker can't find true love, well I did, Star
and I are getting married soon.
Her eyes move from them to us and I keep a straight face.
Journalist: Miss Ntsoaki Mokoena today is a launch of your
book, I didn't know you know them.
Ntsoaki: He is my husband..
Journalist: We didn't know he is married.
Ntsoaki: Well he is married to me, excuse us please.
We walk in and there are so many well known Authors here
and the even starts people talk about the new promising
writer Ntsoaki is and she is called to say a few words.
Ntsoaki: Thank you all for for coming to this important day
of my life, I didn't know it was possible for my book to be
found in stores but here it is, it covers everything you need
to know about like as a young girl and the discoveries you
find while growing up, I relate a lot from this book, And I
would like to thank my husband for coming to support me,
his twin brother Nkanyezi and his fiance Miyalo, thank you
so much.
We clap hands and I go and help her get off the stage, she is
wearing long heels and I don't want her to fall and hurt my
baby.
I kiss her cheek and we go back to our seat.
Nkanyezi: "You're amazing and I want to be the first one to
buy your book."
Ntsoaki: Thank you so much.
After the event we go home as we step out of the car Miyah
screams I rush to her.
Me: What is it?
She points at the little frog in front of her, Nkanyezi shakes
his head smiling.
Nkanyezi: "You're afraid of this little frog babe."
Miyalo: This is the ugliest animal i've ever seen.
Ntsoaki comes to us but step back from us fast. I rush to her.
Me: Babe are you okay..
Ntsoaki: I'm not sure..
Me: Maybe you're tired let's go in.
We walk inside, it's late maybe everyone went to bed
already.
Miyalo: Oh Hell no, Nkanyezi!!
She cries behind us, when we turn to look at her, there is
another frog about the same size we saw outside.
Miyalo: Are they following me?
Ntsoaki: Something is not right, lets go to our room.
She pull my hand she quickly take off her clothes and wrap a
towel around her body.
She open the closet then come back and give me a blue stone
bangle she gave me the last time.
Ntsoaki: Wear it, and please take me to the beach.
Me: Uh when?
Ntsoaki: Right now Ntsika!
Me: It's late Ntsoaki..
Ntsoaki: Please, something is wrong I need to do this.
I wear the bangle and get up.
Ntsoaki: Please get two towels for me.
Me: Wait you're going with only a towel.
Ntsoaki: No i will wrap a traditional cloth.
She quickly wrap the traditional healer cloth around her
boys and I get the towels for her, I drive to the beach.
Me: What now?
Ntsoaki: Come with me..
We step out and we walk towards the ocean and she walk
ahead of me.
Me: Ntsoaki!
Ntsoaki: Wait here for me, i'm coming..
She walks straight to the beach, I am holding my breath here,
she walk in a bit far and deep her head under water until I
don't see her anymore and I am so scared who does that at
night.
I sit down, i'm nervous as hell I wish she told me this at
home so I can prepare myself for this.
10 minutes has passed but she is not coming out, I'm looking
around for anyone who can help me find my wife but what
will I say, that I watched her walking in the beach at this
time.
After a long wait, I see her rising from the water, I quickly
get up as she comes to me, she is so beautiful her dreadlocks
are wet some are on her face and water is dripping down her
face she still that cloth around her body. Her aura is so
heavy, I guess she went there to get more power.
She smiles looking at me.
Me: I don't know why you're smiling I was shit scared..
Ntsoaki: I'm sorry.
I remove the cloth and wipe her body which is so sexy by the
way and wrap one around her body while trying to dry the
locks that are wet.
Ntsoaki: Let's go home i'm feeling really cold.
Me: Why did you do that?
Ntsoaki: Someone is trying seperate us and it won't work on
us but can work on your twin brother and Miyah, did you see
that she was the one who kept seeing frog.
I nod.
Ntsoaki: Frogs are not a good sign especially when they
come often in same sizes, so I have to stop it from working.
Me: oh I understand now.
Ntsoaki: I was going to connect with those who trained me to
be who I am.
Me: Was there a snake in there.
She laugh as we walk back to the car.
Ntsoaki: No and I can't tell you what happens there because I
turn into a mermaid.
I stop walking, I'm shocked.
Me: Really?
She laughs really hard.
Ntsoaki: Don't tell me you believe that Ntsika i'm joking baby
breathe..
I shake my head.
Me: Why would you play with something like that!
Ntsoaki: You should have seen your face..
She walk ahead of me laughing and I follow her.
Me: Stop laughing or I will leave you here with your
mermaid friends..
Ntsoaki: Oh I love you man.
She finds this really amusing, we get home and she knocks
on Nkanyezi's room.
Miyalo: I'm glad you guys are back I saw the frog again!
Ntsoaki: You and Nkanyezi come with me to my husband's
room and cover your shoulders ok.
Miyalo: Ok.
We go to our room, she change into a long dress and cover
her head she kneels down burning the incense Miyah and
star walk in and kneel in front of Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Hold her hand.
They hold hand and Ntsoaki starts grunting.
Ntsoaki: Someone was trying to break my marriage but it
couldn't work so it moved to you and I need to protect the
both of you, but the protection for her is not permanent she
needs to be a Gumede soon so she can be protected by me
and Ntsika, I can do this now because of that baby she is
carrying.
Nkanyezi: "So I need to pay Lobola and introduce her to our
ancestors soon?"
Ntsoaki: Yes, the baby is safe but if a mother is attacked we
can't save him too.
She grunts and start calling our clan names and take out two
white stone bracelets and give them to both Miyah and
Nkanyezi.
Ntsoaki: Keep them in your wrists today, it's a full moon and
witches get more power on a day like this.
They nod and walk out.
We take a shower and go to bed.
The next morning Nkanyezi call us to the lounge.
Nkanyezi: "Morning, I need you to please to go to Miyalo's
home and pay lobola for her so she can be acknowledged by
our ancestors because if anyone tries to do something bad to
us Ntsika and his wife can be able to protect us but she can
be left out."
Luyolo: So do you have a date?
Nkanyezi: "Can it be tomorrow please, Miya will contact her
mother today and let her know"
Dad nods and look at my uncles.
Luyolo: We will do it.
Nkanyezi: "Thank you dad."
Lukhele: You guys have grown so much and have made us
proud and what makes me happy is that you have found
partners that love you and support you,we have done our
raising it's time to be men now and raise your own kids the
same way we raised you because the way you turned out
shows we did a good job.
Langa: Thank you Grandpa.
Miyah has called her mom and told her and she agreed to call
the uncles on such a short notice but this is important, she
needs to be one of us.
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LANGA

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice )

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We have the money with us and we are driving to Miyalo's
home to pay Lobola, my brothers mean business by this, they
don't want to wait they want to take their partners as soon
as possible and i'm happy for them, I guess I can say that I
led the way.
We stop at Miyalo's home and it's still dark again. Grandpa
do what he does best shout at the gate.
Langa: You're really getting good at this Grandpa.
Lukhele: And you're really getting used to interrupting me.
Ntsika: Did he interrupt you when you went to pay for my
wife?
Lukhele: Of course he did, he wanted me to shout in English
imagine ISINGISI.
I laugh out loud.
Minutes later they allow us inside and find three uncles and
they don't talk like how Ntsoaki's did amd I take the matters
to my own hands and start counting ten thousands down on
the floor they clear their throat.
Uncle1: Sizohlaselwa yini, amadoda amangaka?(Are we
being attacked, so many men)
We chuckle.
Lukhele: Cha size ngokuhle sizocela imbali yenu enhle.
Indodada yethu ifuna ukumenza umfazi wakoGumede.(we
are here to ask for your beautiful flower, our son want to
make her a Gumede wife)
It go on like it did with Ntsika, the price was high but no
more than Ntsoaki's, not trying to compare but Ntsoaki's
family killed us but it was worth it, I mean she is like our
protector together with her husband.
We take Miyah with us to the Gumede's and we do the
ceremonies and the introductions then we drive back home
after a long day of slaughtering i'm tired as hell I need my
bed.
Me: Long day huh..
Sfiso: Yeah now we wait for their big day.
Me: looking forward to it, I'm happy for both my brothers
they have been through a lot.
Sfiso: I can see that when they love, they love
unconditionally and I see that in you as well.
I smile looking at him.
Me: I love you Sfiso.
Sfiso: I love you too.
We stay in silence for a while.
Me: So the topic that we have been dragging to have.
I say taking off my clothes so I can shower.
Sfiso: Which one babe?
Me: I know there is Oluhle but I want to ask, are we ever
going to have our own baby?
Sfiso: You can adopt Olu and she can be ours.
Me: Ohk.
Sfiso: You don't like that?
Me: I do and i'm fine with it.
Sfiso: Langa tell me the truth, you don't like it do you?
Me: I do, so are we going to have only her?
Sfiso: What do you suggest?
Me: Since Oluhle is your blood I want to have my own too.
He stares at me.
Me: I don't mean that in a bad way.
Sfiso: Ok.
Me: Don't be mad babe I was just saying, sorry if you don't
like what I just said.
He nods and go take a shower first.
I sit in bed and wait for him to finish, we have managed to
give each other space if we have a little argument because it
tends to get really ugly, I guess I haven't lost all that rude
little boy in me but some of it, it's all him.
He comes back after a while and wear his shorts and sit in
bed.
Me: Are we gonna talk now?
Sfiso: Mmm you can talk..
Me: What did I say wrong please tell me.
Sfiso: I saw how your face changed when I mentioned my
daughter.
Me: It was all in your head Sfiso you know I love her and I
spend time with her every time you go to work you know
this and right now I don't like what you're assuming about
me, it hurts me for real.
I get up and go take a shower, I don't really like him
assuming I don't like his daughter, that's what he means
when he said "my face changed", she stays with us and I take
her out, we do everything that father and daughter do.
I go back to my room and get in bed next to him.
Me: I'm sorry for talking about having another child that is
my blood, we will only have Oluhle.
He ignores me, I sit up and look at him.
Me: You know what fuck you!
Sfiso: What?
Me: I said fuck you, I won't be talking alone like a damn fool
here okay, I won't, I don't know what you want from me.
I get up and attempt to walk out, I don't know when he got
off bed but now he is breathing on my neck and my back is
against the wall.
Sfiso: I'm sorry babe.
He starts kissing my neck while moving his hand inside my
boxers.
Sfiso: I don't want anything to come between us, I feel like if
you get a surrogate then it might turn out bad for us.
Yeah I once mentioned getting a surrogate to carry our child
but we didn't go deep on that topic.
Sfiso: What if she catch feelings, create a bond with the baby
then run away with it? these things happen babe, or maybe
she falls in love with you.
Me: Babe we will get our lawyers involved, we get it on
paper and sign that it's our baby she won't have any rights to
claim our child.
Sfiso: You really believe it will work Langa?
Me: I think so, I mean we will get a donor egg and go to an
egency to find a surrogate and keep it strictly professional.
Sfiso: Ok.
Me: So we will do it?
He moves away from me and go to bed.
Sfiso: Yeah, we will do it.
I can see he is not okay with this and I won't do it if he
doesn't like it, he is my husband after all and I want us to
raise our kids together.
Me: Can I take Oluhle to sleep with us?
Sfiso: Yes.
I walk out, I want to kill this awkward vibe between us and a
baby can do that.
I take Oluhle and go back to our room with her but she is
asleep, I put her between us.
Sfiso: So when are you starting this surrogacy process.
Me: I don't want to do it without you,and the fact that you
used "you" instead of "us" makes me believe you're not okay
with it, I don't think I want to do it anymore.
Sfiso: Langelihle..
Me: It's fine really let's just raise Oluhle.
Sfiso: No, this is better than you finding other ways to get a
baby, like sleeping with someone else and get her pregnant,
so we will do it.
Me: How low do you think of me Sfiso!
I shout causing Oluhle to wake up, I take her and get up from
the bed.
Sfiso: Where are you going?
I walk out and sleep on the next room.
In the middle of the night I feel someone get in bed, I open
my eyes.
Sfiso: I took Oluhle to their room, go back to sleep babe, I
love you.
I look at him and chuckle then close my eyes drifting back to
sleep.
Next morning I wake up and he is sitting in bed looking deep
in thoughts. I go back to my room and go to the bathroom,
come back and fix the bed, I know he will fix the one we slept
in.
He comes in and peck my lips then go to the bathroom.
He comes back and get dressed.
Me: You want me to drive you to work?
Sfiso: Yes thank you.
I nod and get dressed.
Me: You going to eat breakfast first?
Sfiso: No, I will eat at work babe.
Me: Ok, let's go then.
I take his car keys and drive him to work and we go to his
office.
I take a seat and he goes around the table and sit on his
chair.
Sfiso: I'm sorry for what I said last night babe.
Me: It's okay, I won't do it.
Sfiso: Your happiness means everything to me so if this will
make you happy we can do it.
Me: I care about your happiness too Sfiso and you're not
okay with this.
Sfiso: Let's do it.
Me: You mean it?
Sfiso: Yeah we can do it.
Me: Thank you, I will do a research and let you know what I
find there.
He nods.
Me: I will see you later then bye.
Sfiso: Give me a kiss.
I smile and go kiss him, he get up from his chair and push me
to sit on the table.
Sfiso: I miss you so bad.
Me: I miss you too..
We kiss taking off our clothes and have a quick one with him
pounding on me like it's the end of the world but i'm not
complaining at all, we wipe ourselves and get dressed, I fix
his suit and kiss him.
Me: Don't forget to eat okay.
He nods smiling.
Sfiso: I love you, don't forget to do that research.
I smile and hug him, I think he is warming up to this
surrogacy thing.
I drive back home and eat breakfast then take mom's laptop
and go to my room and start my research.
After an hour on the internet non stop I take a break and go
to kitchen to get some water and mom walks in looking
tired.
Me: Morning Pink, night shift?
I say kissing her cheek.
Ziyanda: Yeah,I think I should stop working now i'm getting
old.
I laugh.
Me: Yet nothing shows.
Ziyanda: But having two daughters in law and a son in law
says it all i'm grown man.
Me: Let me make breakfast for you, have a seat.
Ziyanda: Thank you so much baby, I might start developing
wrinkles.
Me: I don't see that happening anytime soon.
I finish making breakfast for her and we seat down.
Ziyanda: Where are your brothers and their wives?
Me: I think in their room, I took Sfiso to work then went to
my room when I came back.
Ziyanda: Ok.
Me: Uhm Mom what do you think about surrogacy?
She look at me.
Ziyanda: Well my Doctor side I would say it's good way for
two people who can't conceive to have a baby..
Me: Uhm and on a mom side?
Ziyanda: You're concidering it?
Me: Well..yes.
Ziyanda: Is Sfiso okay with it?
Me: He didn't like it at first but now he is okay.
Ziyanda: mmm well that's all that matters if you and your
husband want to do it then go for it but find a surrogate you
can trust do a background check find out everything about
her.
I nod.
Ziyanda: And check your finances as well Surrogates are
expensive and the whole process as well, the In vitro
fertilization and all.
Me: I hear you Doctor Zee thank you.
I go back to my room and continue my research and I find
two women who said they have done it before and the
testimonials from the people who already have kids from the
surrogacy.
I write down the numbers and names of the agencies I find
there. Later I take a bath so I can fetch my husband from
work, I find them standing outside the building with their
bags I guess they already knocked off.
Me: Hello.
Mandisi: Hello to you too.
Me: Ready to go home.
Mandisi: Yes please.
Me: Really, I'm talking to my husband.
Mandisi: I'm tired to drive so i'm coming with you, wether
you like it or not, lets go.
We go to the car and he is talking non stop.
Me: Stop laughing at everything he says or he won't keep
quiet till we reach home.
I say to Sfiso on a low voice.
Mandisi: You know I heard you right?
Me: Heard what?
Mandisi: Mxm ugly ass.
Me: Not me, i'm hot!
Mandisi: Please.
And like I said he talked till we got home.
We go to our room and Sfiso go to the bathroom while I go
back to the laptop to finish up my research.
He comes and stand behind me.
Sfiso: What have you found so far?
I turn an look at him with a smile.
Me: I found two egencies I just have to make appointments
now, I was waiting for you to tell me when will you be free.
Sfiso: You look happy..
Me: Well I am having a baby is a huge thing.
Sfiso: Set it up for tomorrow morning then.
I nod.
Me: Mom said the process is expensive and so is the
surrogate so I am going to use my money since I haven't
been using it in a while.
Sfiso: We will do it together Langa.
Me: But you have done so much, the cars, a huge part of our
wedding was paid by you so I think it's fair we use mine
now.
Sfiso: No, we will do it together Langa.
Me: Ok babe, let me call an make that appointment.
He bend and kiss me.
Sfiso: I'm going to gym, come get me when it's time for
dinner okay.
Me: Okay.
I call and set the appointment for 09:00 am, I'm excited
about this, we will grow our family.
Later I go call Sfiso and find him sweating in the gym room.
Me: Hey, You look really good with all that sweat.
He chuckles and raise one eyebrow with a side smile, I smile
shaking my head, this man is good looking.
He comes and hugs me.
Me: If we didn't all use this gym with my family, I would be
having you now in here.
He groans and step back.
Sfiso: Stop giving me ideas, it's messing me up.
He says looking down at his visible boner, I chuckle.
Me: Let's go and eat babe.
He start by taking a quick shower then we join our family for
dinner.
Me: Where is our wife Ntsika?
Ntsika: In bed she is not feeling well but she said it's just a
little headache.
Me: I hope she get well soon.
Miyalo: She have to we are walking down that isle soon, baby
bump and all.
Nkanyezi: "You look pretty with that bump baby."
Miyalo: I'm the cutest pregnant lady in the world.
Me: I've never seen someone who compliments herself like
you Miss Miyah.
Mbali: Girl is really beautiful and she knows it.
Nkanyezi: "Don't encourage her to continue complimenting
herself aunt."
Miyalo: But is she lying babe?
We all laugh at how she is staring at him with that "I dare
you" look.
Nkanyezi: "You're gorgeous my love."
We finish eating and we go our seperate rooms.
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Next morning my husband and I prepare for our meeting
and he drives us to this agencies office.
We get in and find a black woman in her late 40s.
Me: Hello I am Langelihle Langa and this My husband
Sfiswesihle Langa I believe you're Mrs Mbhele.
She nods with a smile and get up shaking our hands.
MrsMbhele: You can have a seat and yes I am the woman you
spoke to on the phone, I run an agency of woman who want
to be surrogates.
Me: How long have you been running it?
MrsMbhele: 7 years now but someone was running it before
me so it has been running for over 10 years.
I nod.
Me: We would like to have a baby since we obviously can't
carry a baby.
We all chuckle.
MrsMbhele: I have worked with gay people before but it's
quiet an expensive process, from the doctors appointments
to sometimes providing a surrogate with a place to stay if
you want her to be closer so you can see the growth of the
baby.
Me: Oh we understand that.
MrsMbhele: We have two surrogates available immediately
and we can screen them together and you guys will choose
which one is best for you.
I look at Sfiso.
Me: You won't be late for work if we do it now babe?
Sfiso: No it's fine we can do it.
Mrs Mbhele takes a phone and call the first girl in and she
looks familiar.
Me: I think I have seen you somewhere.
She look at me for a long time.
Her: You are Ntsika's younger brother I am Ezile we met in
Johannesburg on a family vacation.
Me: Oh now I remember, I'm sorry I can't have you as a
surrogate.
Ezile: But why not?
Me: You have history with my brother and I don't want
anyone I know to do this.
Ezile: So you'd rather have a stranger carry your child than
me.
Me: You're a stranger as well but a stranger I know, if you
know what I mean.
Ezile: I understand, I saw that your brother is now married, I
saw it in paper on that book launch of his wife.
Me: Yes he is.
Ezile: Ok thank you, it was nice meeting you then.
I nod. She walk out.
Another girl come in she is really beautiful but a bit young.
She shakes our hands with a smile and sit down.
Mrs Mbhele: Her name is Sindi and she has been a surrogate
for a family two times.
Me: Is it?
Sindi: Yes and it's an amazing experience to watch the
parents happy about their baby.
Sfiso: So you have never felt like keeping the baby after you
gave birth to them?
Sindi: No I prepare myself emotional never to get attached
with a baby.
Sfiso: Why did you choose to be surrogate?
sindi: I love helping people have what they desire, a baby
and also with this unemployment rate we all need money to
survive.
Sfiso: So you're doing this for money?
Me: Sfiso..
Sindi: Partly yes.
Sfiso: Mmmm..
Me: Ok uhm can we continue to do this tomorrow ma'am my
husband has to go to work.
MrsMbhele: Of course Mr Langa.
We walk out and get in the car.
Me: look you should have told me if you didn't want this and
not go there and ask offensive questions like that.
Sfiso: Which one was offensive?
Me: Like doing it for money, really.
Sfiso: But was I wrong?she admitted you heard her.
Me: I know but..
Sfiso: Those are the questions you ask when you screen
someone Langa, You ask the WHYs the IFs because you want
to know the person to carry your baby, there are desperate
people out there and I don't want to be taken for a ride.
Me: What ride?
Sfiso: What if she demands more money than the amount we
agreed on and she has leverage which is the baby that you
want so bad.
Me: Let's stop this whole thing then, nxh.
Sfiso: Don't swear at me.
Me: Just take me home man..
I am angry that he agreed we do this but he is really not in it!

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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Sfiso and I haven't been talking he tries to talk to me but I
brush him off he really should just learn to tell me if he
doesn't like something and not agree then try to jeopardise it
like what he did with those questions. It's been three days I
don't sleep in our room anymore and we didn't even go for
our second meeting, I think I want to drop this whole thing
off.
It's the weekend which means everyone is around and we
are eating lunch at grandpa's garden, i'm sleeping in bed I
hear the door opening and I sit up.
Sfiso: Hi
Me: Hey.
Sfiso: Please come back to our room today baby.
Me: I need a little space Sfiso.
He nods, he looks hurt.
Sfiso: So you want the whole family to see that we're not
okay?
Me: You want me to pretend?
Sfiso: What do you want from me Langa?
Me: Honesty! you should have told me you didn't like this
whole surrogacy idea.
Sfiso: But I agreed, you're angry because I asked relevant
questions?so you weren't going to ask any of those
questions?
Me: I was but in a polite way.
Sfiso: So I wasn't polite?
I look at him.
Sfiso: Well I can't pretend, I won't be eating lunch then you
will explain why i'm not there.
He takes his car keys.
Me: Where are you going Sfiso?
Sfiso: I'll see, you don't share a bed with me anymore Langa
so I don't know what that means for us
Me: You can't just leave Sfiso that Lunch is important to our
family because it's the day we're all together no one is
working, please don't go.
He nods and throw his car keys then walk out.
I quickly go and look for him, I find him with Ntsika and
Nkanyezi in the dinning room, I sit down.
Me: Did mom say there is a theme?
Ntsika: What theme?
Me: I see that you twins are both wearing black pants and
white tshirt.
They look at each other and the things they are wearing,they
smile shaking their heads.
Nkanyezi: "I didn't even notice that this moron is wearing
similar clothes.."
Ntsika: "I'm still older than you."
Nkanyezi: "You wish."
We laugh, I look at Sfiso he is just looking down.
Me: Sfiso can we talk..
He nods, I get up and we go to our room and sit on the bed
next to each other.
Me: I decided to drop this whole thing off, and I'm sorry.
I look at him, I see his eyes are red.
Me: I'm sorry baby.
He nods.
Sfiso: I hate feeling like i'm losing you everytime we have an
argument.
Me: Sfiso I love you that is why i'm dropping it because it is
making us fight.
He wipe his face and go to the bathroom, I follow him and I
find him washing his face. I hold him from behind.
Me: We promised each other forever and forever it is.
Sfiso: Three days Langa you're sleeping in a another room,
how do you think that makes me feel?
Me: I'm sorry baby, I'm really sorry Langa.
He turn and face me and pull me in a tight hug.
Me: ngiyaxolisa kakhulu sthandwa sam.(I'm very sorry my
love)
Now I really feel bad for treating him that way.
Me: Let's go eat lunch so we can come back and go out a
little.
He nods and wash his face again and I look at him, what I did
was wrong and I can see he is hurt.
Me: I love you.
I take his hand and we go join everyone for lunch.
We eat while listening to Aunt Mbali's crazy stories.
I keep looking at Sfiso he seem fine I don't know if he's
faking it or maybe we have worked things out.
I hear dad chuckling we all look at where he is looking it's Mr
Miller coming towards us, he have a smile on.
MrMiller: Hello everyone long time, Ziyanda you didn't even
bother telling me about my grandkids getting married.
He takes a free chair and sit down. Sfiso shifts uncomfortable
on the chair.
Ziyanda: What are you doing here?
Miller: I didn't think I wasn't welcomed in here too Ziyanda, I
thought it was only my late daughter.
He says looking around the table and his eyes stop at Sfiso.
Miller: And I really don't mind dining with the person who
killed my daughter who I recently found.
We hear a loud grunt from Ntsoaki, she grunts again and
start shaking, Ntsika swiftly stand up and quickly push Sfiso
and a gun goes off both of them fall on the ground.
It takes me a minute to register what has happened in front
of me, Mom is screaming, dad is punching Mr Miller so hard
he is on the ground.
Sfiso: Call an ambulance he is bleeding.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika..
I look at her as she get up from the chair but I quickly get up
and catch her before she hits the ground..the pain I feel on
my chest just above the nipple is too much, I see Nkanyezi
kneeling down. Ntsoaki has fainted as i'm holding her
kneeling down.
Kwanele: Miyalo!
I look up miyah is in Kwanele's arms, I don't know what's
happening around me.
Luyolo: Get the fucken car Mandisi! Get the car here now.
He is sweating and has blood in his hands and white tshirt he
is wearing.
Me: I can't get her up, my whole right side is numb.
Dad rushes to me and pick Ntsoaki up and go the car with
her, I can see Sfiso is struggling too with Ntsika but uncle
Mandisi and dad comes and help him to the car.
The blood on Sfiso's hands and shirt makes me shiver.
I get up and sit on the chair trying to catch my breath, I see
mom bending and come back up with a gun in her hands, she
is pointing at Miller who have blood and bruises all over his
face..her hands are shaking..
Ziyanda: You wanted to kill my family?
She has tears in her face.
Ziyanda: You wanted to kill my sons!?
She screams.
Miller: Put the gun down Ziyanda, I wanted to kill him, he
killed my daughter and he is nothing to me.
Ziyanda: Well he is everything to this family, he is my son
and now you shot Ntsika..
Miller: He got in the way it wasn't meant for him...
Ziyanda: They are all my children you hurt one of them they
all feel it, I hate you.
Miller: I'm sorry my daughter I was driven by anger..
Ziyanda: You don't know anything about anger, i'll show you
anger..
She starts shooting at him till the gun is empty, she screams
so loud and go on her knees, I feel my tears falling, I get up
the pain is a bit better , I go kneel next to mom.
Me: I'm sorry mama.
Nkanyezi comes too Sfiso as well we all hug her as she sobs
loud.
Once she is calm, she wipes her tears.
Ziyanda: Let's go check on them at the hospital.
I help her up and we go to the car and drive to the hospital,
we wait while mom wears her schrubs and go to Ntsika at
the theatre.
Nkanyezi: "Let's check if our wives are okay and the kids."
We find them in the same ward, they are asleep. Nkanyezi
kisses Miyah's forehead and then Ntsoaki and we sit down.
Nkanyezi: "I hope the kids are good."
Me: They have to man, they have to.
I look at Sfiso he has tears in his eyes.
Sfiso: This is all my fault, he wanted to kill me and many
people ended up getting hurt because I couldn't control my
temper, I killed his daughter.
Me: Don't blame yourself babe, samke was an animal and she
deserved to die after what she did to Sam and to us, we still
second doubt going out and she started it , it's not your fault
and I won't let you blame yourself okay, I won't..
Nkanyezi: "What Greatgrandfather did to us is good and bad
at the same time, can you imagine if we were alone we
wouldn't be able to get them to the hospital in time because
of the pain we feel when one of us is hurt."
Me: "It really does have advantages and disadvantages."
Miyah moves we get up and all stand around her bed.
Miyalo: Hey Star are you all okay.
Nkanyezi: "Ntsika is in theatre they are removing a bullet on
his chest."
Miyalo: I was so scared baby.
Tears starts falling on the corner of her eyes.
Nkanyezi: "It's okay now everything is fine."
She touch her tummy and huff.
Miyalo: Thought we're losing another baby.
Me: Not this time Miss Miyah, he's going to live okay.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika!
She screams and we quickly rush to her.
Me: Hey calm down he is going to be okay, he's fine.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika..No..no..tell your mom to stop that
surgery!now!
I look at her.
Ntsoaki: Tell your mom to stop it Langa!
I rush out, I don't think I will be allowed in, I find dad pacing
around the passage.
Me: Dad Ntsoaki said mom must stop the surgery..
Luyolo: But they want to remove the bullet..
I see Ntsoaki coming out of the room.
Sfiso: You should be in bed, come on.
Ntsoaki: No!show me where he is..
I go with her and she push the door and barge in the theatre
room.
Ntsoaki: Don't do it.
Ziyanda: What are you doing here?
Ntsoaki: No, stop the surgery, he will lose a lot of blood and
he might not make it, your husband should do it please..
Ziyanda: Do what?
Ntsoaki: He should remove the bullet please allow him and
me to burn the incense in here please I know it's against the
hospital rules.
Nia: She is wasting our t..
Ziyanda: Ok, Ok it's fine.
Ntsoaki: I'm sorry.
Ziyanda: It's okay as long as my son is okay.
Nia: But Ma'am we shoul..
Ziyanda: Hey!this is my hospital okay!damn!
She looks really annoyed.
Ntsoaki: Can you please rush home and get the incense for
me.
I nod and rush out, I take the keys from Nkanyezi and drive
home.
I take the incense from their room and go back to the
hospital.
Ntsoaki: Get your husband and his twin brother in here and
your dad as well.
I nod and call dad and Sfiso.
Ziyanda: Ok everyone out.
Nia looks at me and walk out.
Ntsoaki: You need to remove his bullet.
Luyolo: Me?
Ntsoaki: Yes.
She kneels down and call us to come kneel too and hold
hands.
Ntsoaki: You can start Gumede..
She says to dad.
She starts grunting and clapping.
Ntsoaki: Gumede, Mnguni, Yeyeye
boPhakathwayo..bontshitse eena tsela e khutlelang hae.
(show him the way back home), we need him..
I feel a sharp pain on my chest. She takes my hand and start
grunting louder shouting the clan names then she let's go
and collapse on the floor.
Luyolo: Ziyanda, you can now stitch him up, i'm done.
Mom quickly moves to his bed while I pick up Ntsoaki and go
back with her in her ward my husband and brother are
behind me.
I lay her in bed and Nia walks in and clicks her tongue.
Nia: So what do we do now, check her up or we let you do
your witchy things in here?
Nkanyezi: "i'm really not in the mood tell her to walk away
we will call another nurse."
Sfiso: Can you please step out we will find someone else to
check on her.
Nia: Look I know this is your mother in law's hospital but
don't tell me what to do.
Nkanyezi get up and go to her, he moves his head to the side
to show her the door.
Me: You need to leave..
Nia: Oh so you can talk, now I want to ask you, when did you
discover that you're gay before or after you slept with me?
Ziyanda: You did what?
I am shaking, I didn't want mom to find out about this.
Nia: I..I ma'am..
Ziyanda: That's why you think we are equals? That we run
this hospital together? because you took advantage of my
son?
She steps closer to Nia.
Nia: He seduced me!
Mom chuckles shaking her head.
Ziyanda: He what now?please repeat that for me..
Nia: he is the one who was after me.
A very hot slap lands on her cheek.
Ziyanda: So you chose to say this now? In front of his
husband?
Nia: I know you're my boss okay but i'm way older than...
Another slap lands on her cheek and we know better than to
get any close when mom is like that, she is turning pink.
Ziyanda: You want to do something about you being older
than me?
Nia tries to step closer but mom push her so hard that she sit
on a chair behind her.
Ziyanda: Try walking up to me like that again, I dare you!
You know i'm tired, i'm tired of people thinking they can do
whatever shit they want to my kids that I raised so hard, I've
had it and if you value your life you will resign and don't
even think of going to the police because I will kill you before
they can knock in my house.
She takes her handbag and walk out.
I sit down and huff.
Nia: You will pay for this.
Nkanyezi stands in front of her.
Nkanyezi: "You better not try to do shit to my family because
you will be dead, six feet under and I will be the one to kill
you."
She walk out and I look at Sfiso he take my hand and smile,
that's his way to assure me he is not mad.
Miyalo is okay and another doctor who checked on them
said she can go home but they are keeping Ntsoaki because
her blood pressure is high and Ntsika hasn't woken up but
he is breathing.
Me: Let's take Miyah home and check on mom.
We drive home with dad so they can change the clothes that
has blood.
We get home and Sfiso and I go to our room, I take a shower
and go check on the kids, they are with Makhumalo and Sis
Pam the other nanny.
I go back to the lounge and we find mom crying in dad's
arms.
Ziyanda: My mother must be mad at me Luyolo, I killed her
brother, I killed him..
Luyolo: I'm sorry, you know mom loved you and I believe
she understands why you did it.
Me: Uhm we are going back to the hospital dad.
Luyolo: We're coming with, right baby?
Ziyanda: Yeah let's go..
We drive to the hospital and go check on Ntsika first and we
find him still sleeping and we go to Ntsoaki's ward but we
don't find her there.
Ziyanda: Did they change her ward, but why?
A nurse comes in and greet.
Ziyanda: Where is Ntsoaki?
Nurse: Oh her family demanded that we discharge her
because they want to take her to another hospital close to
home.
Ziyanda: Her family?
Nurse: Yes her sister she said her name is Sesi Mokoena and
she came in with two men.
Me: Was she awake when they took her?
Nurse: No, we had just sedacted her because she was
screaming.
We all look at each other.
Me: Did any of these men that took her had dreadlocks?
Nurse: No, they were all bald..
Me: Something is wrong, we saw that Sesi and Ntsoaki didn't
get along so why would she take her and also Ntsoaki's
brother all have dreadlocks.
Sfiso: We need to find her..
He takes out his phone.
Sfiso: Sure, I need your help, meet me at Lukhele Properties
offices now.
He drops the call.
Sfiso: What time did you discharge her?
Nurse: Maybe 30 minutes ago.
Ziyanda: My son got shot now his wife is missing, God what
have we done to deserve such cruelty, it's pain after pain
can't we get a break..
Sfiso: Let's go Langa, you can stay here and look after Ntsika,
Kwanele and Mandisi are already on their way to meet me at
the office, Nkanyezi is at home he needs to make sure no one
gets in.
Dad nods, he look tired, like he doesn't know what to do, you
know when you try to close another hole and the other one
opens yeah that's the obstacles we face at home, happiness
doesn't last long.

WE ARE ONE( I am my brothers's voice)

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Sfiso has ordered a search party with his security team and
we are also searching but we don't have any lead we know
nothing about this Sesi and we are waiting at the airport
because the next plane to Free State boards in an hour and
we think maybe they might come here I don't know how but
we're desperate.
My phone rings and it's mom.
Me: Hey Pink.
She just sobs.
Me:Ma is everything okay?
Ziyanda: Ntsika just had a seizure.
Me: What and he is still asleep?
Ziyanda: Yes I don't know what is happening, find your
brother's wife.
Me: Ok mom, stop crying.
Ziyanda: Even your dad looks like he is losing it Langa I don't
know what to do.
Me: It will be okay, everything will be fine.
I look at Sfiso, he look just as stressed.
Me: I'm sure you're asking yourself how the hell did you end
up in this crazy family.
Sfiso: I wouldn't want to be anywhere else or with any family
than this one, this is my home and when we fight we fight
together right..
Me: Yeah..
Sfiso: Are you okay?
Me: I'm just thinking...life is too short hey one minute you're
happy and the next you find yourself laying in the hospital
bed shot, it's quick like that you don't know what tomorrow
brings, joy or pain.
He looks down and sigh.
Sfiso: And it would make you happy to have a baby.
I don't answer.
Sfiso: You said life is too short and I don't want to delay your
dreams of becoming a dad so we will do this surrogacy
process after all this.
I look at him.
Sfiso: This time I will listen to you and I will support you
every step of the way.
Me: Thank you so much, this mean a lot to me.
He smiles and hold my hand.
We step out of the car and start looking around seconds turn
to minutes and it turns to hours of us just looking everyone
outside the airport and inside as well.
Sfiso: You know I think we need Khosi maybe he can do
something.
Me: Ok let's drive home and ask him.
We drive home and we call Nkanyezi because Sfiso switched
of the face recognition at the gate for security reasons.
We get inside the house and go straight to the kids room we
find them sleeping.
Me: Hey Khosi wake up buddy.
He wakes up yawning and rubbing his eyes.
Me: Sorry to wake you up we need your help.
He nods. I pick him up and go to the bathroom, he wash his
face and brush his teeth then we walk out.
Me: Uhm you know uh your aunt Sesi took mom so we need
your help to find her.
Khosi: Why did she take her?
Me: We also don't know.
He nods and stare in one direction for a couple of minutes
like he is thinking.
Khosi: Can you open for me in mom and dad's room please.
Me: Yes come.
We get in their room and he search in their closet and comes
back with two blue bracelets.
Khosi: Now let's go to dad.
Me: Ok.
I pick him up and we walk to the car, I buckle him up.
Khosi: I'm hungry.
I look behind me, he smiles opening his eyes wide.
Me: Ok, Sfiso can you drive to the garage so we can get pie
and juice for him.
Sfiso: I'm hungry too.
Me: Yeah me too, I mean our lunch was disturbed by all this
and we haven't had anything maybe mom and dad are
hungry too.
Sfiso: I will buy for everyone then.
Me: Khosi do you think mom is okay where she is?
He shrug his shoulders.
Khosi: I will know when I get to dad.
Me: Why are you always so calm I mean as old as I am I
would cry my lungs out if mom went missing.
He shakes his head smiling.
Khosi: I cry too but when she needs me I have to be strong I
will cry after she is okay, when she hugs me.
Me: You're a good boy.
I look up and find Sfiso looking at me smiling, I smile back.
Me: What?
Sfiso: I just imagine you with our son, you make a great dad I
have seen you with the kids and you do this so effortlessly.
I smile looking down.
Sfiso: I want to see you happy all the time Langelihle.
Me: Thank you babe, let's go in..
I take Khosi's hand and we go buy pies and juice for mom
and dad as well then we drive to the hospital.
We start at mom's office and we eat first then go to Ntsika's
ward we find dad resting his head on his bed.
I touch his shoulder he look up and bow his head
again he looks like he has been crying his eyes are bloodshot
red.
Me: Are you okay dad?
Luyolo: Yeah yeah i'm fine.
He get up and look outside the window.
Luyolo: I keep failing to protect you guys.
Me: You can't blame yourself for someone else's bad deeds
dad, and you didn't know this was going to happen.
Luyolo: That's the whole point Langelihle, I should have
known that something was going to happen to one of you, I
am your father for God's sake.
Me: Dad..
Luyolo: I'm just as useless as that Misokuhle and his twin
brother I guess it runs in the family..
Me: Don't compare yourself with those bastards dad, you're
a good man you raised us to be who we are today and
Misokuhle didn't care he was only obsessed with mom so
don't compare yourself with such..
He shakes his head and wipe his face.
Luyolo: Someone must have cursed our family this is not it,
this is just too much..
Khosi walk up to him and hold his hand.
Khosi: Are you sad Grandpa?
Dad smile nodding.
Khosi: Then let's pray..
Dad look at him and nod.
Khosi: Come dad.
He says to me and Sfiso, we hold hands and bow our heads.
Khosi: God we pray you protect our family, lead us to where
mom is and heal the soul of those who are broken and lost..
He continues to pray I look at him and find Sfiso and dad
looking at him too, he is more than just a child, as he prays
i'm feeling goosebumps on my body and I feel like I can
breathe out all the pain I carry in my heart, he finally says
amen.
Me: Who taught you to pray?
Khosi: My mom.
Me: So you pray and also call on the ancestors.
He sit on a chair next to Ntsika's bed and put the bracelets.
Khosi: We know God is a creator of all things, the herbs that
traditional healers use,nature, so mom made me believe that
ancestors connects us with God because when he says no
they too can't do anything about it, they are more closer to
God than us.
I look at us.
Khosi: Well I can't go deep i'm just a child.
He says shrugging his shoulders, I laugh.
Me: You are not a child wena that little body is just a front
ngeke.(never)
He giggles.
Khosi: Come give me your hands, hold each other I don't
want to die.
Me: Wait you can die by doing this?
I ask moving back my hand from his, he start cracking up so
hard.
Me: You're not funny.
He take my hand, I hold dad's hand and Sfiso hold dad's
hand.
Khosi: Dad where are you?
Silence.
Khosi: Where is your wife?
Silence. He keeps nodding I guess he is talking to Ntsika I
don't know how.
Khosi: Are they hurting her?
Silence.
Then he starts shaking holding my hand tight then let go and
sit down, I squat in front of him.
Me: Are you okay?
Khosi: You need to find her before she lose the baby.
Me: Where is she?
He look at Sfiso.
Khosi: They are close call them and ask where they are..
Sfiso looks at him confused then take out his phone and dial
the number.
Voice: Boss.
Sfiso: Where are you now?
Voice: Passing the train railway here..
Me: Which road?
They tell us the road and Sfiso tell them not to move we're
coming.
Me: You're staying with grandpa okay, we're coming back.
Khosi: Ok.
He look scared now, dad pick him up and sit down putting
him on his lap, we rush to the car I drive because i'm more
familiar with Durban than him.
We find his team waiting for us, there is six of them.
Me: So we believe we're close when we're here.
Security1: Let's check those cabins that are not far from the
railway I mean who stays this close to a train rail.
I'm just as confused.
We start knocking on every damn cabin but nothing.
I move to one that is slightly open and push the door a little,I
can hear someone moaning I step back maybe people are
having sex..
Security2: Sir we can't find anything.
Me: She should be somewhere here.
Just as I finish the sentence a rain starts pouring and a
lightning hit the same cabin that I heard someone moaning, a
fire erupt , I quickly go back and push the door, I find Ntsoaki
tied on a chair and ducktape on her mouth.
Me: Sfiso!
They come in.
Me: Someone borrow me a knife now..
One of them takes out a knife and I start cutting the ropes,
she is bruised on the face and the wrist have blood she was
tied too tight.
Me: You're okay now, where are they?
She just stares at me not saying a word.
Security: I found this person he was trying to run away
maybe he is the one who kidnapped her.
I look up and find a very scary looking man with a bald head.
More lightning strike in the cabins near by and there is fire
everywhere people are screaming and running for their
lives.
Sfiso: Come on let's go.
He picks her up and we get in the car and drive back to the
hospital, the rain suddenly stops as soon as we enter the
hospital.
They wheel her to the ward and we try to go in but the nurse
stop us.
Nurse: Sir wait outside we need to check h..
Me: Hey last time we left her alone with all of you she ended
up kidnapped so I don't trust any of you, at all.
Nurse: Just stand by the door at least.
I look at her squinting my eyes.
Nurse: There is only one door in this ward Langa..
We wait right at the door for almost 30 minutes.
She opens the door.
Nurse: That was a close call, I think someone hit her on her
abdomen and that is not good for a pregnant person but the
baby is safe.
Me: Thank God, ok I need her to be in the same ward with
her husband is it possible?
Nurse: Yeah we can wheel her bed there.
Me: Thank you..
They wheel the bed to Ntsika's ward and Khosi runs to his
mom and take her hand.
Khosi: u khutlile (you're back)
Ntsoaki smiles a little.
Ntsika moves a little and open his eyes and move them
around the room.
Luyolo: You're awake.
He smile.
Ntsika: I am Piller..
I chuckle.
Me: Still have a huge ego while in a hospital bed looking like
a damn cabbage.
Ntsika: Dad..
Luyolo: Ntsika your wife is here stop whining.
I laugh.
He looks next to him.
Ntsika: Hey.
Ntsoaki's tears just falls.
Ntsika: I'm sorry, how is the baby?
She nods.
Ntsika: I love you okay.
She nods again wiping her tears.
Ntsika: Thank you for fetching my wife.
Me: You and Khosi led us there.
Ntsika: But still I was more like a ghost.
Me: Dad we found one of the guys we believe took Ntsika's
wife here.
Luyolo: Where is he?
Sfiso: They took him to the offices and they will keep him
there for now.
Luyolo: You didn't find the girl?
Me: No.
Luyolo: We will find her alright.
Mom walk in and rush to Ntsoaki's bed and hug her.
Ziyanda: Oh baby look what they have done to you, I'm sorry
neh.
Ntsoaki: Thank you ma.
Ntsika: I'm here too you know.
Mom screams and hug Ntsika, she can be overly dramatic
sometimes.
Ziyanda: Ubusazovuka kanti?(you were still going to wake
up?)
Ntsika: Yeah I was just waiting for my wife to be safe first.
Ziyanda: This thing of yours is creepy and weird as fuck.
Me: Mom.
Ziyanda: What!!wena.
I laugh.
Me: There is a kid in the room.
She covers her mouth with her hand.
Ziyanda: Ooh i'm so sorry.
Khosi: It's okay Grandma I know better than to use those
words, mom can whoop my butt.
We all laugh.
Ntsika: I'm hungry and my baby must be hungry too.
Me: We bought pies,what do you want to eat Ntsoaki?
Ntsoaki: Find me mogodu.
I look at Ntsika as he tries to laugh.
Me: Where will I find that?
Ntsoaki: I don't know but you asked me and I answered so
find it.
Me: Yhooo!
Ntsika is busy laughing.
Me: You gonna hurt yourself busy laughing at me.
Ntsika: Shit...go find mogodu for my wife Langelihle.
Me: It's after midnight Pillar where the hell will I find it.
Ntsoaki: But you asked me!
Me: I thought you gonna say KFC or maybe steers burger you
know nice things
Ntsoaki: Mogodu is nice.
Me: Uh doesn't look nice.
Ntsoaki: But it is and you will find it for me.
Me: Am I experiencing baby mama drama right now?
Ziyanda: Looks like it..
She says laughing so hard.
Ntsoaki: I'm really hungry.
Me: I'm going to get you KFC okay wifey.
She starts tearing up.
Me: Ntsika..
Ntsika: Why are you calling me, i'm bed ridden remember
you need to find that goat meat.
Sfiso: Langa go..
Luyolo: Yeah Langa go, my daughter is hungry.
Khosi: Go dad.
I look at them with my hands on my waist.
Me: Wow..all of you ngithi wow!
They are in stitches, I take the keys from Sfiso.
Me: Uh can't you wait till it's morning?
Ntsoaki: No not really.
She says wiping her tears.
Me: Are you going to cry again if I say i'm going to buy KFC?
Yho she starts crying same time.
Allofthem: Langa!!!
Me: Ok i'm leaving, you owe me brother, you owe me big
time this should be you.
I go to the car and start at KFC, I call uncle China.
China: I hate people who wake me up, talk before I shoot
you.
Me: Shoot me over the phone?
China: Ufunani kmina Langelihle.(what do you want from me
Langelihle?)
Me: Do you know where I can find mogodu at this time.
China: Langa it's just after 3 in the morning..
Me: I know that but Ntsika's wife wants it and I might die if I
don't come back with it..
Hw starts laughing.
China: I only know the place in the township.
Me: Please can you come with me.
China: No!
Me: Please Uncle.
China: Nx come fetch me.
I drive to his place then we drive to the township and buy a
lot of this mogodu and go back to the hospital.
I walk in.
Ntsoaki: Did you find it?
Me: I had to drive all the way to the townships for this.
I give her this precious food and she starts eating
immediately guess she really wanted this.
Ntsoaki: Thank you.
Ntsika: Thank you brother.
Me: And my husband didn't even try to help me.
Sfiso: I knew you can do this on your own baby I have faith
in you.
Me: Mxm umubi (you're ugly)
Sfiso: But you love me anyway.
Me: Yeah I do.
We all start eating until Khosi fall asleep on the chair.
Ntsika: You can all go home and come back later today you
guys need to rest.
Me: Will you be okay?
Ntsika: Yeah we're good.
Dad carry Khosi and we walk out and drive home.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
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My brother and his wife are discharged from the hospital
today and i'm on my way to fetch them. They have been
there for three days, I find them all over each other kissing
and giggling.
Me: You know this is a hospital right?
Ntsika: So what?
Me: What you're doing is inappropriate.
He chuckles, I walk in and kiss wife's cheek.
Me: How are you wifey?
Ntsoaki: I'm good and you.
Me: I'm good.
Ntsika: You don't care about me?
Me: No.
Ntsika: Wow.
I side hug him.
Me: So how is your chest?
Ntsika: still feel a bit of discomfort.
Me: Yet you were ready to finish each other right here.
Ntsoaki: No we weren't.
I laugh at how shy she is right now.
Me: Let's go home.
I take the bag and we walk out the couple is holding each
other, we get to the parking lot and see Nia there, she stares
at me with a very deadly look and get in the car driving away
in full speed.
Ntsoaki: We can't use this car?
I look at her.
Ntsoaki: The tyres are loose, look at that.
I look at where she is pointing and it's true, I go around and
find that all four tyres are loose.
Me: Wow.
Ntsika: who did this?
Me: Nia, let me call Dad.
Dad fetch us and drive us home.
I tell them about Nia and what she did and dad is so angry he
just want to kill somebody now.
Later I fetch my husband from work.
We are in our room and we just finished taking a shower and
i'm giving him a massage.
Sfiso: Mmmm yeah go harder this side baby.
He taps his left shoulder.
Me: Stop saying things like that Sfiso.
Sfiso: What things?
Me: 'Go harder', I just got really hard.
He moves his hand and touch me on that sensitive part.
I groan.
Me: Sfiso.
He get up and push me to bed.
Sfiso: I know a quick way to stretch my muscles.
I chuckle with a little smile.
Me: Oh yeah..
Sfiso: Yeah.
We kiss and remove our boxer shorts he start rubbing our
dicks using his hand while kissing me hard.
Me: I want you now babe.
Sfiso: You want me?
Me: Yeah I do..
He insert his dick, his lips not leaving mine, he start moving.
Me: Fuck..
Sfiso: You're driving me crazy..I love you so much.
Me: I love you..
He continues to fuck me till I feel my dick wetting me with
cum, he groan then pull out then cum stroking his dick.
Sfiso: Fuck..that was good.
Me: You're always good.
He sleep next to me and take my left hand playing with my
ring.
Sfiso: I want to give you everything you need baby, I love
seeing you happy.
I look at him, he really loves me.
Me: Thank you.
Sfiso: So I took Mrs Mbhele's numbers from your phone and
called her to set up another meeting.
I get up and look at him.
Me: You did?
Sfiso: Yeah and the meeting is tomorrow morning.
Me: Wow I ..baby I don't know what to say, thank you this
means a lot to me.
Sfiso: And I promise I will let you do all the talking.
Me: But you..
Sfiso: No it's fine babe you can do it but I will be with you.
Me: Ok ngiyabonga.(thank you)
He nods giving me his beautiful smile.
Me: Let's get dressed so we can go eat.
Sfiso: Thought we are skipping dinner today.
Me: You want me to die of hunger?
Sfiso: bengazi ay, asambe.(I knew it, let's go)
He laugh getting up and we get dressed and walk out.
Me: Hello.
They all greet back we dish up and eat.
Luyolo: So uh mama ka Nqoba we have found your cousin
and the men she is working with, what do we do?
Ntsoaki: If I say kill her I will be making a huge mistake and
create a lot of enemies these people she is working with are
strong but if I say let her go she won't stop coming after me
and my family.
Me: Why does she hate you so much?
Ntsoaki: This gift that I have runs in my family so my father
and her mother are siblings but she never got married that's
why she use the Mokoena surname, dad and aunt both had
this gift but then we choose how to use it for good or the bad,
so Sesi's mom decided to mix it with witchcraft and she was
caught so many times doing it that ended badly for her
because the community wanted her and my father dead
because they thought both of them are in it.
We are all listening to her as she takes her time speaking
with her low hoarse voice.
Ntsoaki: So my father had to do something to protect us and
her since they wanted to burn our house down. He started
by protecting us by putting those stone bracelets on our
wrists then asked to talk to the community and assured
them that he is not into witchcraft and that no one will ever
practice traditional things at home,he burned everything in
front of them including aunt's stuff which she seemed to
value more than her own life so she ran outside to stop dad
from burning her stuff the community got so angry and
started throwing stones, dad took us inside the house and
she was stoned to death.
Ntsika: So let me guess Sesi blames your father so this is her
revenge.
Ntsoaki: Yes, she knows she can't touch any of my brothers I
am the weakest link, it was my first time doing what I did for
this family but my brothers have been at it since they were
10 years of age except Hlano because he doesn't have this.
Me: But you're not weak you saw that rain and the lightning
that caused fire there.
Ntsoaki: I am weak when my husband is not around me,
what helped me is your energy, you, Sfiso and Khosi, that
rain and lightning was supposed to happen as soon as they
took me a distance away from Ntsika to alert him that i'm
not safe but he was hurt and weak but at least he could
locate me.
Me: So you're not supposed to be away from each other?
Ntsoaki: We can if we have bracelets on our wrists for the
connection.
Me: So you're like the local radio station that can't play in
another city?
They all laugh.
Me: What? i'm trying to understand here.
Ntsoaki: Yes we are like that Mr Langa.
Me: Wow this is fascinating.
Ntsoaki: If they want me they have to hurt Ntsika first, so
that shooting was a great opportunity for her that means she
had us followed.
Me: But you don't want me to kill her?
Ntsoaki: Then we will have a team of bald heads after us.
Ntsika: So those people were her mother's witchy
acquaintances?
Ntsoaki: Pretty much.
Me: They were so scary.
Ntsoaki: I know I almost died when I saw them.
Ntsika: You're strong Ntsoaki even without me.
They look at each other smiling.
Me: When I grow up I want to be like you two.
Mandisi: Ok thank you Langa can someone else talk now.
Sfiso: Please.
Mbali: Leave my baby alone Mandi.
Me: Thank you so much Auntie.
Mandisi: He talk too much.
Mbali: He learned from the best.
I laugh.
Mandisi: You mean I talk too much Mbali?
Mbali: You said it baby not me.
I love it when we're talking, Playing and happy.
The twin girls comes in crawling on the floor.
Me: The most pretty girls in the world, come to dad little
ones.
I pick Ntando up first then Thando putting them on my lap.
Miyalo: I thought I was the gorgeous one.
Nkanyezi: "There she goes."
Miyalo: I'm pretty and I know it.
Ntsika start hitting the table creating some sort of a beat for
her she starts singing.
Me: Please don't dance.
Miyalo: I wasn't going to dance I'm someone's wife now
there is my father in law on this table.
Luyolo: Don't worry about me I don't mind, you dance like
Langa, cool dance moves.
Me: Don't insult my dancing skills dad by comparing me to
Miyah.
Miyalo: I dance way better than you.
Me: You and Sfiso can make great dance partners.
I laugh causing my little girls to laugh too.
Ntsika: Even oKazi are laughing at that combination.
Sfiso: I can dance..
Nkanyezi: "You were a disaster at your wedding brother."
Mbali: Let me show you what he was doing.
She is laughing with tears in her eyes, she get up and imitate
what Sfiso was doing at our wedding reception trying to
dance and it's funny as hell.
Sfiso: Was I that bad?
Mbali: The Dvds are out we're still going to laugh at you and
I removed the part when that bitch Lona walked in like an
empty bag of mealie meal.
Me: A what now?
Everyone at the table laugh.
Sfiso: I've never heard anything like that before.
Mbali: I invented it honey.
Sfiso: You're good!
He says raising his glass of juice and Mbali pick up hers and
they click glasses and shout "cheers"
I look at Kazis they are rubbing their eyes.
Me: I think they want to call it a night.
Sfiso: Let me take this princess.
He takes Thando and we get up with them in our arms after
saying goodnight to everyone.
We put them to sleep and Oluhle is sleeping too, then check
on the boys and we find Khosi fixing their blankets they are
fast asleep.
Me: Hey big brother.
Khosi: Hello dad.
Me: Now let me tuck you in bed since you have done it to
your brothers.
Khosi: Thank you.
He get in his bed and I pull up the covers.
Khosi: Goodnight dad and you too dad.
He waves at Sfiso who is standing by the door.
Sfiso: Goodnight champ.
Me: Goodnight.
We walk out and close the door,I take Sfiso's hand and we go
to our room and get in bed, I sleep ontop of him and play
with his beard.
Me: So babe I was thinking about this whole surrogacy thing,
how about you do it.
Sfiso: What do you mean?
Me: Like we use your sperm now and have a mini you?
Sfiso: But I thought you wanted your own.
Me: Yeah but I changed my mind.
Sfiso: We will do it.
He says kissing me, I look at him.
Me: You know you won't lose me even if you say no right? if
you agree to everything I say you make me feel bad because I
think you're afraid that maybe I will be mad and go sleep in
another room again..
Sfiso: It's not like that..
Me: Look I know what I did was wrong I didn't consider your
feelings and i'm sorry for that I won't do it again even if you
say no Sfiso if you don't agree with something I say.
Sfiso: I love you.
Me: I know that but that shouldn't stop you from telling me if
i'm wrong.
He nods and pull my head to his chest.
Sfiso: We are doing this sthandwa sami (My love) I don't
have a problem at all, believe me.
Me: Ok I love you.
I fall asleep on top of him, I wake up when he moves me to
my side of the bed and kiss me.
I open my eyes and look at him.
Sfiso: Sorry I just want to sleep with the side.
I smile and nod, he hold me and I fall back to sleep.
*
I wake up first take a quick shower then take out the clothes
we are going to wear so he is wearing a suit because he will
go straight to work after our meeting, mom always iron our
clothes after doing laundry on the weekend so i'm just gonna
straighten them a little for being in the closet, Ishake him a
little.
Me: Baby.
Sfiso: Mmm.
Me: Wake up before we get late.
He sit up and look down on his erection.
Me: I will help with that.
I jerk him up while staring at the sexy facial expressions he
is making until he cums.
Sfiso: shit..fuck thank you babe.
Me: My pleasure baby, now go and take a shower.
He shower and I help him wear his tie, I'm wearing my jeans
and a tshirt.
Sfiso: Your muscles are all out on that tshirt, you are going to
be a head turner today, please don't forget you're married.
I laugh and kiss him.
Me: I won't forget Langa.
Sfiso: Good, let's go I want to take you out for breakfast after
the meeting.
Me: Thank you.
He drives us to Mrs Mbhele's office and greet then take seats.
MrsMbhele: So uhm since we met before you told us that you
don't want Ezile and you left while we were still screening
Sindi, uhm the third girl has already been chosen so for now
only Sindi is available I don't know if you still want to
continue with her.
Me: Oh yes I just want to ask her a few questions.
MrsMbhele: Ok.
She takes the phone and call Sindi in, a minute later she walk
in and greet us.
Me: So Sindi if we choose you to be our surrogate you will
have to stay at a flat close to us,you wouldn't mind that
right?
Sindi: That is perfectly fine with me.
Me: Would you agree to carry two babies for my husband
and I?
Sindi: At the same time?
Me: Yes, if it's possible?
Sindi: Of course, not a problem at all.
Me: Yes but we are gonna find out when we meet the
Doctors.
MrsMbhele: So uh should I consider Sindi taken?
I look at Sfiso.
Sfiso: Yes.
MrsMbhele: There is a contract here you can go with it and
read it.
Me: Yeah our lawyer will draft another one if you don't mind.
MrsMbhele: I don't mind at all.
Me: After signing these contract then we will start the whole
process.
Sindi: I'm ready.
Me: Thank you, we will keep in touch.
MrsMbhele: Ok thank you, have a nice day.
We walk out and Sfiso takes me out for breakfast Sfiso: You
have that twinkle in your eye, you're happy.
Me: This is just a step closer for us to have our babies,
Oluhle's siblings.
Sfiso: Yes it is baby but you said both of us is it possible for
her to carry two embryos one with your sperm and one with
mine?
Me: I'm not too sure but that is similar to fraternal twins
case where they just share a womb but not the amniotic sac
we will ask once we start the process baby.
He nods.
We eat then he takes me back home and drive to work.
I go chill with the beautiful wives.
Me: Planning a wedding?
Miyalo: We are just sharing ideas.
Ntsoaki: I love the idea of a beach wedding.
Miyalo: I already see us walking down the isle walking
towards the ocean where our handsome husbands will be
waiting for us.
Me: Walking on sand?
Miyalo: And how do you think I will walk with heels on a
sand? there will be a stage set there along the ocean, I know
Auntie Mbali, Sunny and ma Ziyanda can pull this off for us.
Me: ngithemba ngeke siminze, nkosiyami.(I hope we won't
drown, my God.
Ntsoaki: I know what he said is a negative comment.
Miyalo: You know him very well, he is talking about
drowning.
Me: Hope we won't be served mogodu and Simba chips.
They stare at me like I'm one of the guys who put Jesus on
that cross.
Me: Okay I was joking but really though someone goes crazy
when she can't find a packet of Simba chips and the other
one cries when we talk about KFC and not Mogodu.
They throw pens and papers at me, I laugh getting up.
Me: I love you two so much.
Ntsoaki: Uhm brother..
She looks at me with a huge smile batting her eyelashes.
Me: No...No..No, call Ntsika shem call your husband no, not
today satan.
Ntsoaki: Please, today you won't have to drive to the
townships you will find it at the market.
Me: No.
Ntsoaki: But you're the one who said the word Mogodu now
I want it.
Miyalo: I'm running out of chips too Bhuti.(brother)
I huff.
Me: Yhoo! Sfiso needs to take me with him to work, this is
too much for one person.
They giggle looking at me.
Me: Ok I will go but this abuse has to stop.
Miyalo: We love you two little brother.
Me: Yeah right, bribing me with sweet words!
I take the car keys and walk out, I drive to the market for
mogodu and buy extra for later if she happens to want it
again then buy a lot of Simba chips for Miyah, then buy other
snacks for little ones.
I get home and Miyah rushes out like she is being chased.
Miyalo: You took your time.
She says taking the plastic bags and walking in.
She has a lot of energy for a pregnant lady this one.
I walk in and I find them already chewing.
Ntsoaki: Thank you so much.
Me: You're welcome, now I will just sit here and watch you
gain 50 pounds in a day.
They exclaim..
Miyalo: Don't say that! I can't get married looking like a very
short hippo.
I laugh she is really short shame, that's why she loves heels
so much, the only thing that is growing is that baby bump.
Me: With the pace you're eating those chips mmmm..
She slowly place them on the table then sit back on the couch
then quickly pick them up and start eating again.
Ntsoaki is laughing so hard and so am I, Nkanyezi found a
special one here. I think I won't ever get bored here with
these two women around.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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LANGA
*
Today we are going to see a doctor regarding the whole
surrogacy process.
We are driving to the Hospital with Sindi so she can maybe
start doing checkups and other things.
Me: I love you babe.
I say randomly as he is driving, I take his hand.
He smiles.
Sfiso: I love you too.
Sindi: You guys are good together I have seen you in the past
two days I met you, you're always holding each other's
hands.
Sfiso: He is my life.
I smile.
We stop at the parking lot and walk inside and meet Doctor
Smith.
Me: Hello Dr i'm Langelihle Langa we have an appointment
scheduled for today.
DrSmith: Of course the Langas you can have a seat.
Me: Thank you Doctor.
DrSmith: So you already told me that this is about the whole
process of Surrogacy I won't waist your time I will just give
you the important parts of it and you can ask questions ok.
Me: I would love that.
DrSmith: Well Surrogacy is common for gay couple and also
heterosexuals who are unable to carry a baby on their own
we use the In-Vitro process which simple means in your case
you find an egg donor or you can choose to use the
Surrogate's eggs depending on your agreement.
Me: No, we will use the unknown egg donor.
DrSmith: That is also fine and we do the screening from the
surrogate and the couple then we start the check ups and all.
Me: Uh is it possible to use both our sperms.
DrSmith: That depends if your surrogate is willing to carry
multiples.
Sindi: I don't mind at all.
DrSmith: Ok you can choose the egg donors then I will
recommend you both split the eggs in half then you fertilize
the other half and your partner fertilize the other half then
will see how many viable embryos are created there.
Though I must prepare you that it might not work, she might
not get pregnant then we can start all over again.
Me: Is that okay with you babe?
Sfiso: Yeah it's a great idea baby.
Me: So what do we need right now?
DrSmith: So I heard that Miss Sindi has done this before?
Sindi: Yes Doctor.
DrSmith: So you're familiar with the whole process medical
procedures and psychological evaluations.
Sindi: Yes I am we can skip the psychological evaluation and
go straight to Medical procedures, in our agency we have
psychologist that prepares us for everything and the
agreement is signed, It's their baby and I don't have the
rights and it will not be related to me at all so I understand
everything.
I think we will get along she seems to know all this.
DrSmith: And because your mother and I are good friends
from University I will slightly drop down this ludicrous
expensive price.
We laugh.
Me: So you guys know you're expensive.
DrSmith: Oh we are aware alright but there's nothing greater
than a feeling of giving people the chance to grow their
family.
Sindi: Greatest feeling ever.
I take Sfiso's hand and hold it tight.
DrSmith: Let's go to the lab we have a few eggs there and
look into their profiles.
We nod and follow him to the lab.
DrSmith: What do you and your partner want, donor eggs
from a mixed race, white or black egg donor?
Sfiso: Mixed race is fine right Langa.
Me: You just love the good looking mixed race in front of you
huh.
They laugh.
Sfiso: Be serious baby.
Me: Yes Mixed race is cool.
DrSmith: Come this side.
We walk to his side and look at the profiles.
Sfiso: Blue eyes, interesting, we both have brown eyes baby
so which colour do you think our kids would have?
Me: Uhm Blue Brown..
Sindi laughs.
Sindi: That can't be a colour Langa.
Me: I don't know what he is asking me.
DrSmith: They can take Brown or Blue depending on the
strong genes the mother or both of you have.
Me: Very interesting.
Sfiso: I know, brown hair, this lady must be pretty huh.
Me: Really Sfiso?
Sfiso: Yes baby imagine blue eyes brown hair fair skin
everything sounds pretty.
I laugh, he is so serious.
DrSmith: So we are taking these eggs.
I look at Sfiso and he nods with a smile.
Me: Are you having a crush by just reading a profile babe.
Sfiso: I think I am.
Me: So there is a straight dude in there after all.
Sfiso: Who is madly in love with one person in this whole
entire world.
Me: I know I feel the same way about you.
Sindi: Were you always gay?
I chuckle looking at Sfiso.
Me: He is my first true love man with all the kisses he was
giving me trying to navigate our feelings towards each other.
DrSmith: What?
He ask laughing.
Me: So we both didn't understand the sexual attraction
between us because we have always been with women our
whole lives so he started kissing me to find out what the hell
we are feeling for each other then few months later we are
married ready to have kids.
DrSmith: That's the most beautiful love story i've ever heard.
Me: Took a lot of fighting and punches, broken jaws, broken
noses but we're here now.
DrSmith: You need to write a book with a title, "How I fell in
love with another man while thinking I was straight my
whole life".
Me: And there will be lines like "The kiss changed it all".
We all laugh.
Sfiso: You're crazy.
Sindi: But both of you are mainly no femenine side showing.
Me: But my feelings for him are femininely genuine, alright.
DrSmith: You should do stand up comedy.
Me: I tried that once in high school didn't go well at all.
Sfiso: What happened babe?
Me: I tripped and fell and I had a stage fright since then.
Dr Smith is out of breath, he is laughing his ass off.
Sfiso: But you're always talking Langa.
Me: Because I know your asses but to people I'm not used to
i'm an angel.
Sfiso: I've never seen you in that angel form.
Me: So I'm always talking then?
DrSmith: Ok before I die laughing, let's schedule a meeting
for tomorrow for Miss Sindi here and you guys will start the
fertilisation process..
Me: Ok thank you Smith, we will see you tomorrow.
DrSmith: Say hi to your mom for me but make sure her
husband doesn't hear it. You know we all wanted to date
Ziyanda before we met her husband that guy would stand at
the gate waiting for his wife leaning on a car and we will all
shake in our boots.
Me: You should have shot your shot and say if I die, I die.
DrSmith: That man was scary without even saying anything.
Me: He is still like that but he is our dad we're used to him
except when we make him angry it's totally a different story
there.
DrSmith: Yeah I have recently met him a few times with
your mother he is a cool guy but nobody can dare try his luck
on Miss Lukhele.
I laugh.
DrSmith: That's how we used to call her when we were
trying to score points.
Me: Yeah neh the beauty of Ziyanda Lukhele.
DrSmith: I know right and she is still the same nothing has
changed.
Me: Ok let's not talk about dad's girlfriend now ok.
DrSmith: Yeah besides i'm happily married now.
Me: Congratulations Sir.
DrSmith: Thank you.
We walk out and drive Sindi to where she stays.
Me: So we will look for an accomodation now but you will
stay a month after the pregnancy is confirmed.
Sindi: Ok thank you.
I nod, she step out and we drive back home.
We go to our room and Sfiso hugs me.
Sfiso: I think i'm getting excited too now.
Me: Me too babe.
Sfiso: I hope everything works out and i'm happy Smith will
give us a discount.
Me: Yeah hey that whole process is expensive plus the
accomodation then the doctors appointments.
Sfiso: I should just pay the flat in advance for the whole nine
months.
Me: So we can worry about Sindi's payment, i'm sure mom
won't mind doing the checkups for free.
Sfiso: That would help us a lot.
We go eat dinner and tell everyone about our doctors
appointment.
Ntsoaki: Oh so you said your surrogate will need a flat close
by right?
Me: Yes we are still looking.
Ntsoaki: Uhm babe how about she stays at our flat since we
haven't found any students then we can start renting it after
those Nine months.
Ntsika: That's a great idea baby.
Ntsoaki: It's the least we could do Langa has been hands on
with buying my favourite Mogodu.
I laugh.
Me: As if you give me a choice.
Ntsoaki: This is my thank you then she can stay for free and I
can buy monthly grocery for her.
Sfiso: Thank you guys.
Ntsoaki: We are family and anything for the addition to our
family.
Ziyanda: You know the doctors appointments are free from
mommy right.
I smile.
Me: Thank you and Smith said he is cutting the price a little.
Luyolo: He's still trying to score points to my wife I see.
Ziyanda: No he's not, he is married.
Luyolo: But his wife is not beautiful like you.
Ziyanda: So you think he wants me because of that?
Luyolo: Yes I saw the way he was looking at you at that
function we went to a month ago.
Ziyanda: Ave unamanga Luyolo.(You are a liar Luyolo.
Luyolo: I'm not lying but then I trust my wife I don't have a
problem, they can look but I know they will never touch, I'm
Luyolo.
Miyalo: You dad should teach me your confidence because
yhoo that Vuyo that works with Nkanyezi make me so
insecure and I know she is after my man.
Nkanyezi: "You don't need no confidence baby I will never
ever cheat on you, you're everything what would I want
from that girl."
Miyah smiles, Not a lot of women admit to being insecure if
anything they get really angry if one point it out but my my,
miss Miyah just put everything out there.
Me: You don't need confidence Miyah, you're the whole
confidence yourself.
Nkanyezi: "She is."
Miyalo: Thank you but I will slap that bitch one day.
Luyolo: Miyalo..
He reprimands her, Ntsika is laughing.
Miyalo: I'm sorry, it's just that she rubs me the wrong way
mmm!
Mbali: I think I should pay her a visit.
Sunshine: Yeah we should check how things work around
there.
Kwanele: Don't let them enter the gates of the Center
Nkanyezi.
Mandisi: Listen to your uncle.
We are all laughing and Nkanyezi shakes his head with a
smile.
We go our seperate ways and I sleep on top of my husband.
Me: Things are looking good hey.
Sfiso: Yeah, they have helped us a lot flats cost a lot of
money.
Me: So we will be able to take care of our kids once they are
born.
Sfiso: I love you.
Me: I know, i can see it.
Sfiso: You are my forever Langelihle.
Me: And you are my always.
Sfiso: We don't let anything come between us or break us up
right.
Me: Yeah.
Sfiso: So tomorrow we are jerking off on those cups huh.
I laugh so hard getting up.
Me: No silly they will use a needle.
He quickly sit up and look at me.
Sfiso: A needle where Langelihle?
Me: On our testicles.
He get off the bed and look at me.
Me: Sfiso I told you this, remember when I told you we
shouldn't have sex the past three days.
Sfiso: I remember you told me about abstaining but a needle
on my testicles Langa!
Me: I'm sorry I thought I told you.
Sfiso: But you didn't!
Me: Don't shout..
Sfiso: I hate needles and testicles are very sensitive.
Me: Then I will do it alone.
Sfiso: Don't get cheeky with me I don't remember you telling
me this and why didn't Smith tell us?
Me: Because I told him we're ready and he told me when we
talked few days back and I thought I told you.
Sfiso: You didn't!
Me: Ok i'm sorry you can stop if you don't want to.
Sfiso: So you can be mad at me if I refuse?
Me: I won't, I made a mistake thinking I told you all about
this.
He goes to the bathroom for a while then come back.
Me: I'm sorry I'll understand if...
Sfiso: It's fine we will do it.
Me: Ok.
I say keeping my head down.
Sfiso: Get in bed babe.
I get in next to him.
Sfiso: I'm sorry for shouting.
Me: It's okay and I'm sorry too.
Sfiso: Ok.
We kiss then sleep, he keeps getting up and going to the
bathroom, I sit up and look at him as he get in bed I think
this is the forth time he is using a bathroom, I get up and go
brush my teeth and go back to bed.
Me: Are you feeling sick?
Sfiso: No.
Me: Then what is it?
Sfiso: I'm just thinking that after tomorrow I might not be
able to pee or ejaculate anymore.
Me: Why is that?
Sfiso: The needle on my testicles.
Me: Oh.
Sfiso: I'm just saying that i'm scared, it doesn't mean I won't
do it.
Me: Ok.
We go back to bed and he sleep facing up and huff.
*
The next morning he is awfully quiet I guess he is really
uncomfortable with this.
Me: Are you really okay with this?
Sfiso: Yeah.
I nod and let him be, we get dressed then we fetch Sindi and
drive to the hospital.
DrSmith: Langa and Miss Sindi, are you done with the paper
work, the agreements and all?
Me: Yes.
DrSmith: let's start with you miss, we will take a urine test,
blood tests and all related checkups, like the chances of
pregnancy then we are good to go.
He ask us to wait outside while they do the their thing.
After 30 minutes he call us in.
DrSmith: Everything looks good with Miss Sindi but we took
blood to go to the lab and do thorough check ups we don't
want this to go bad.
Me: Ok.
Drsmith: Now it's time to get your boys and check if they are
swimming.
We get up and go to the other room, we take off our pants
and place the towels ontop to cover us while sitting in
different beds, Sfiso looks like he wants to die but I won't say
anything now.
DrSmith: So should I start with you?
Me: Yes.
He takes out the needle and that little cup, he comes to me
and move the towel a little.
DrSmith: Don't move ok.
I nod and balance my hands on the bed and hold my breath.
I feel the needle going in and I tightly close my eyes, it hurts,
it stays there for like 40 seconds then he removes it and put
the sperms on the cup and close it.
DrSmith: We are done with you, now you're next Mr Langa.
I get dressed while stealing glances at Sfiso, he looks angry
than scared now maybe i'm reading his face wrong or he is
disguising his fear with anger.
The doctor injects him, he groans clenching his jaws.
Then after a few seconds the doctor removes the needle. He
get up from the bed and get dressed.
DrSmith: We're done, What I will do now is take each sperm
and fertilise 26 eggs with it..which means we will have 12
embryos from you and the other 12 from your partner, going
through PSG test on my lab and I will leave them there for 7-
14 days to see if they "hatch" from the zona pellucida which
is the outer layer where I will be keeping them, if they hatch
that means they have better chances of being a foetus then
we can start an implant.
Me: Ok so we will see you after 7 days?
DrSmith: Yes to see the progress.
Me: Ok Thank you see you then.
We take Sindi back then he drives to work.
Me: I think you should skip work today.
Sfiso: Why?
Me: Because that was traumatic for you and i'm sorry for
putting you through it.
Sfiso: I want this too Langa, it was a sacrifice I was willing to
make.
Me: So you're not mad at me?
Sfiso: No i'm not.
Me: Okay but still I want to be home with you today.
Sfiso: Ok.
He make a U-turn and drive us back home we go to our room
and sleep.
We wake up when it's time for dinner.
Me: Let's go babe.
Sfiso: I'm not feeling too good, I think i'm coming down with
fever.
Me: Ok let me go take our food then and come back.
Sfiso: Ok.
I go take our food.
Ziyanda: You're not eating with us today?
Me: No Sfiso is not feeling good.
Ziyanda: What is wrong with him?
Me: He think i'ts fever.
Ziyanda: Check the med-lemon in your bathroom.
Me: Ok thank, uhm mom can an injection cause fever?
Ziyanda: it depends what's in the injection maybe it has
something one is allergic to.
Me: Oh ok.
I go back to our room, he eat a little then stop.
Sfiso: I'm good now.
I take his plate then mix med-lemon for him.
Me: Are you going to be okay?
Sfiso: Yeah it's not that bad.
He go back to bed and sleep.
I huff maybe I shouldn't have recommended he do this, I
should have done it alone.
Four days later he is perfectly fine, fever is gone which
means it was just a normal fever.
He is getting ready for work, my phone rings it's Dr Smith.
Me: Dr.
DrSmith: I need you and your husband to come to my office
today if possible, I can't believe this!
Me: What is it?
DrSmith: We will talk when you get here.
I start creating scenarios in my head, maybe the embryos are
all damaged or maybe stolen from his lab, I'm anxious.
Sfiso: Why do you look like you saw a zombie?
Me: Uh Dr Smith wants to see us, maybe it didn't work, what
if our sperms are not working?
Sfiso: Hey breathe, let's go and find out but I have a meeting
soon.
Me: Let's go.
Sfiso: Uhm are you going with your shorts?
I look at myself and shake my head, I get dressed because I
took a shower with him earlier on.
We drive to Dr Smith and get in his office.
DrSmith: Oh you're here already sit dowm.
Me: Is it bad?
DrSmith: No.
Me: so it's good.
He chuckles and I stare at him.
DrSmith: That was the quickest process ever.
Me: It was?you sounded shocked on the phone.
DrSmith: Yes because I have never seen it happening before,
all 26 embryos are fertilized.
I look at him.
DrSmith: Now I have to use embryos I believe to have a
greatest likelihood of becoming a healthy baby.
Me: Wow.
DrSmith: So we don't delay this miracle, Miss Sindi's results
are back and she is good to go, today I will spend the whole
day at my lab selecting two of each embryos I see more fit
then tomorrow bring in your surrogate for an implant.
Me: I can't believe this.
DrSmith: Remember it can go good or bad, so we will wait
and see if it develops into a complete foetus, now you
understand why this cost a lot of money?
Me: I think I do, thank you man i'm hoping for the best.
The next day we take Sindi to the hospital and the implant of
two embryos from one that was fertilised by Sfiso's sperm
and another one from mine now we wait for it to work.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
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I'm so impatient I'm dying to know if this IVF is working or
not but it's still early days.
I mean it has only been a week since the implatation of the
embryos and Sindi already moved in Ntsoaki's flat because
we want her to be comfortable and relaxed so this can work.
I go to Miyah and Ntsoaki and I find them sound asleep on
the couches.
Me: I'm bored! Wake up!
They both move and Miyah pick up a cushion and throws it
at me.
Ntsoaki: Why are you shouting!
Me: I'm bored.
Ntsoaki: Go away.
Me: Being married to twins has made you two act like twins
too I mean how did you both end up falling asleep on the
couch?
Miyalo: I hate you right now.
Me: That's impossible, I'm so easy to love.
Miyalo: Yeah you sure are.
She rolls her eyes.
Ntsoaki: Can you take me to where they kept Sesi?
Me: Uhm why?
Ntsoaki: I just want to see her.
Me: Does Ntsika know?
Ntsoaki: I will call him now.
Me: Put him on loudspeaker so I can hear him.
The phone ring and he pick up.
Ntsika: Mama wezingane zami.(mother of my kids).
Ntsoaki: Hey baby.
Ntsika: Are you okay? I'm on my way home now.
Me: Oh that's great come home quick then you need to hear
this.
Ntsika: Hear what?
Me: Woza.(come)
Ntsoaki: Don't talk when he get here.
Me: Why not?
Miyalo: Just don't talk please..
I sit down and look at them not saying a word.
Ntsoaki: He look weird when he's not talking.
Miyalo: Very creepy.
Ntsoaki: And scary too.
I sit back on the couch and place my legs on the coffee table.
They are staring at me but I just look away.
Miyalo: Ok talk Langa you look constipated.
Me: And if I say you look bloated what you're gonna say?
She get up and start hitting me with a cushion.
Miyalo: You're not funny Langelihle.
Me: You started it Miyah.
She sit down and huff.
Me: Tired already?
Miyalo: Leave me alone.
Me: And why is Mrs G2 look scared here.
Ntsoaki: I know Ntsika won't like this idea.
Me: Oh he won't vele, I don't like it too.
Ntsika walk in and look around, kiss his wife then kiss Miyah
on the cheek.
He brush my head.
Ntsika: Little brother.
Me: You know this little brother is married right, you can't
do that anymore.
Ntsika: You will always be little, uh so why was I called?
Ntsoaki: Uhm can I go see Sesi?
Ntsika: Why?
Ntsoaki: I just want to see how she's holding up?
Ntsika: Do you think she would have done the same for you?
Ntsoaki: No but..
Ntsika: No.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika..
Me: I told you it's a NO.
Ntsoaki: So what are you going to do? Keep her there
forever?
Me: We will keep her there until you give us a go ahead to
kill the bitch.
Ntsika: Exactly.
Ntsoaki: And if I don't?
Ntsika: Then we might just starve her to death.
Ntsoaki: Please baby I just want to see iaf she's remorseful
for what she did.
Ntsika: She's not.
Ntsoaki: Ok.
She slowly get up and go to the kitchen she comes back with
a trey and kneel giving Ntsika his food.
Ntsika: Thank you.
She take a seat looking sad, Ntsika starts eating.
We are silent for a while.
Me: Uhm brother maybe we should let her go see her.
Ntsika: No.
He says and carry on eating, Ntsoaki get up and walk away.
Me: Ntsika..
Ntsika: Okay fine I will take her there.
Me: I'm coming with you.
Ntsika: You just want to see Sfiso.
Me: I don't know what you're talking about, let me go get my
phone.
Ntsika: Ok tell my wife to stop crying we are leaving.
I take my phone then knock on Ntsika's bedroom no one
answers, I slowly open the door and find Ntsoaki sitting on
the floor I rush to her.
Me: Are you okay?
Ntsoaki: No, I just vomited so I feel really tired.
Me: Let me help you get in bed them Ntsika said we are
leaving but you can see Sesi tomorrow ok.
She nods, I help her up and tuck her in bed and walk out.
Me: She's not feeling well now she was vomiting.
Miyah get up and take the trey from Ntsika and he get up and
rush to his room.
Miyalo: Love is a beautiful thing.
Me: I know shorty I know.
Miyalo: And you just had to ruin the moment..
She go to the kitchen and come back we sit on the couch and
watch some cartoons she is laughing so hard.
I go get the girls and we watch cartoons together.
Later I go to my room and call Sfiso.
Sfiso: Sthandwa sam.(my love)
Me: Babe can I fetch you?
Sfiso: Come here, it's friday we will leave our cars here and
go to a safe club in Florida with a cab.
Me: You feel like getting drunk?
Sfiso: I just want you to relax you've been tense a bit this
process is stressing you and me as well.
Me: Ok that's so thoughtful babe thanks, I'm coming.
Sfiso: Please carry Jeans and a jacket for me so I can change
this suit.
Me: And tekkies.
Sfiso: Oh yes and tekkies sthandwa sam.
Me: Ok i'm coming babe.
I freshen up and pack his things in a bag and walk out.
Miyalo: You smell good where are you going?
Me:: To a club.
Miyalo: I am so jealous man.
Me: Wait for Star junior to come out then we will take you
with.
Miyalo: Can you drop me off at the center I'm bored and
Nkanyezi is working late, the kids are sleeping.
Me: Ok cool.
Miyalo: Let me quickly change.
She go to their room and come out dressed in a short dress
and heels her make-up is perfectly done.
Me: It's late.
Miyalo: Doesn't mean I should look ugly.
Me: You are the cutest pregnant girl i've ever seen.
She hugs me.
Miyalo: Thank you.
We walk out and go to the car I drive to the center and I walk
her in,we are holding hands.
We find Nkanyezi's office opened and we stand by the door
and we find Vuyi standing not far from Nkanyezi in a very
short skirt and shirt but Nkanyezi's focus is on a computer.
I clear my throat she turns all her boobs are out the nipples
and all I guess she unbottoned the shirt.
Nkanyezi look up and see Miyah but when he moves his eyes
to Vuyi they pop out, I guess he didn't notice he was being
seduced out here.
I look at Miyah as she taps her right heel on the floor.
Miyalo: I'm going to kill that bitch Langa, you need to try and
stop me now.
She's angry alright and breathing heavily.
Me: Relax ok breathe.
She shakes her head, Nkanyezi get up and rush to Miyah.
Nkanyezi: "I didn't notice that baby please believe me."
Miyalo: I believe you my love.
She kiss him then moves a little.
Vuyi is now pulling down her skirt fixing her shirt.
Miyalo: Why are you naked in front of my husband Vuyi?
Vuyi: Uhm I it's not what you think.
Miyalo: Oh it's not?
Nkanyezi: "Baby please don't fight."
Miyalo: I won't sthandwa sam.
She gives me her bag and rush to Vuyi, she gives her a mean
smack across her face and pull out her wig. Nkanyezi rush to
her.
Miyalo: Baby we are just talking woman to woman and we
understand each other better if we both don't have wigs on.
I'm holding it in, I don't want to laugh.
She starts smacking her countless times then take off one
heel and start hitting her with it, the pointy part. Nkanyezi
finally pull her away from her, Vuyi is a crying mess covering
her face.
Miyalo: That's what I do to bitches messing with me, bitch
this is my husband okay not my boyfriend but husband, I will
wipe the windows of hell with you.
I chuckle then burst into laughter, what!
Miyalo: Now get out of here and pick up that cheap wig on
your way out with your ragidy ass.
Me: Damn!!
Miyalo: Babe can you help me with my shoe.
Nkanyezi take her shoe and kneel down putting her shoe on
and when he get up he touch her legs all the way up to her
thighs.
Me: That's my cue to get out of here bye.
I put her bag down and leave them driving to my husband's
workplace.
I go to his office with his bag.
Sfiso: I was waiting for you to get here 10 minutes ago.
Me: I know, Miyah was fighting.
I say laughing.
Sfiso: What, with who?
Me: Vuyi we found her trying to seduce Nkanyezi her boobs
we all out.
Sfiso: You're joking right.
Me: I'm not, Miyah promised to wipe the windows of hell
with her.
I say almost out of breath.
Sfiso: Damn!
Me: Took off the heel and did the damage alright.
Sfiso: I wish I was there to see it myself.
We laugh and I get up and go sit on the desk in front of him
with my feet on his chair.
Sfiso: Are you trying to seduce me too Mr Langa?
Langa: I'm your husband so I believe it is okay if I do it.
He get up from his chair and kiss me. I loosen his tie and
unbotton his shirt and his belt, we take off all our clothes.
We have sex right on his desk with him on top of me his lips
not leaving mine, there is nothing sexier that a man
pounding on you while holding your neck kissing you.
We finish our session and get dressed. He change to his jeans
and keep his shirt on and wear the jacket.
Me: You look good.
Sfiso: Thank you, you look good yourself.
Me: Are you sure we will be safe there?
Sfiso: Hundred percent sure baby.
Me: Ok I trust you.
Sfiso: Thank you.
We get in the cab and go to the this club, it has a vibe and I
see a lot of free gay men around here.
Me: This is a cool place.
Sfiso: No one cares about someone else they are here to have
a good time.
We order our drinks and sit on our table and start drinking.
Voice: Aaah it's them let's go say hi.
A voice screams behind me and we see two gay guys
standing in front of us. "OH MY GOD it's them chomie" one of
them shouts, you can't miss that they are gay, make up, the
outfits, over the top. "I'm sorry it's just that we know you,
Langa and Sfiso Langa uhm we are your biggest fans."
I choke on my drink and start laughing.
Me: Fans? are we famous?
"My name is Sbosh and this is my friend Sihle."
Me: uhm ok sure nice meeting you.
Sbosh: You guys are so hot in real life the pictures we saw
doesn't do any justice.
Sfiso: uh thanks.
Sbosh: We read the blog that was written about you, the
things you went through after you came out are shocking,
you're an inspiration to those who are still afraid of coming
out I mean you two are married regardless of everything you
have been through.
After us being "gay" was linked to my brother Nkanyezi
some journalist suggested we do a blog opening up about
how it has been like to be gay how people reacted to it and
we told them everything even that Samke saga and the
warders incident everything but I didn't think people cared.
Me: They say love conquers all right.
Sihle: Can we sit with you please, I'm sorry if we're being
foward.
This one has a very deep voice but he is completely gay.
Sfiso: Yeah you can sit.
Sbosh: Oh my God thank you, you guys should be our guest
speakers on our next LGBTQI march.
Me: Oh no I have stage fright.
Sfiso starts laughing.
Me: Uhlekani ngoba ngiserious nje.(why are you laughing
cause i'm serious.)
Sbosh: That's enough confirmation that what you're saying is
not true so please Mr Langa please both of you should be
there.
Me: Well ok I guess.
Sbosh: Thank you, you can give me your email address
because I can't take a married man's cellphone number.
Sfiso: I wasn't gonna allow it.
They laugh, I smile looking at him.
They go and order their drinks then we have a good night
then go back home, we didn't drink much but those two guys
were kak drunk we had to call a cab for them and ask for
them to be taken straight to their place.
We are now in our room getting ready for bed.
Me: I had an awesome night, I thought I can talk but that
Sbosh dude takes the cup man.
Sfiso: Yeah he talks a lot, and that make up giiiirl!!
He says imitating that Sbosh, I laugh.
Me:You're bad.
*
Today marks a month and two weeks since the surrogacy
process and we are waiting for doctor Smith in his office, we
are with Sindi to check if everything is fine so we can finish
the payments and transfer her to mom for check ups.
DrSmith: Sorry to keep you waiting how are you?
Me: Nervous.
DrSmith: That's understandable i'm nervous too.
I chuckle.
DrSmith: Miss change into this gown please, come back and
sleep on that table we are doing an ultrasound right now.
He is breathing heavily like he has been running.
Sindi comes back and sleep on the bed and Smith cover her
lower part and start moving the wand Sfiso and I are holding
hands looking at the screen.
He moves it a few minutes squinting his eyes.
Me: Uhm is everything okay?
He doesn't answer but carry on looking at the screen.
DrSmith: Beautiful, Wow!
Me: What is it?
DrSmith: Look at that.
He shows us the screen instead I look at him waiting for him
to talk I can't see shit.
DrSmith: Wow.
I just move back and sit on the chair, leaving Sfiso still
looking at that screen.
Sfiso: Uhm why are there three things moving there?
I quickly jump from the chair and go back looking at the
screen I can see those three things he is referring to.
DrSmith: Those are your babies.
Me: The what?
I am Layla blonde, stupid blonde.
DrSmith: Your babies.
Me: But they are three.
DrSmith: That must be the embryo fertilized by your egg
since you have a history of twins in your family but we can't
be sure for now only a DNA can determine that, i'm just
assuming..
Me: Tell me more.
DrSmith: You are having triplets, one of the embryo split
into half creating two separate foetus, so in there, there must
be two identical twins and one fraternal baby.
I look at Sfiso he is grinning looking at me.
Me: Did you hear what he just said?
Sfiso: We are having triplets baby.
I hug him tight letting my tears fall, it's tears of joy I am so
happy. I hold on to Sfiso for dear life.
Sfiso: We did it baby, don't cry okay, I love you so much..
I finally let go and wipe my face he smiles at me winking a
little.
I look at Dr smith he has a phone on his hands.
DrSmith: I'm sorry I couldn't let this beautiful moment go to
waste, I took a video.
I look at Sindi she is smiling.
Me: Thank you Sis you don't know how much this means to
me and my husband thank you.
Sindi: I can see the tears of joy.
Me: Yeah I promise we will triple the price, this is huge you
didn't sign up for carrying three kids.
Sfiso: Yes we will triple the price, thank you and you
DrSmith.
DrSmith: I believe your mom is taking over from here,
goodluck and don't forget to pay me a visit with them once
they are born.
Me: She might just deliver them right here, thank you.
DrSmith: I would be honoured.
Me: Thank you so much.
We drop Sindi at the flat and drive home, I keep looking at
these three little things on the picture of the scan DrSmith
gave us.
Sfiso: Thank you for having faith in this, i'm happy, that
needle was worth it.
I smile.
Me: I still can't believe this.
Sfiso: You better believe it, now I have to ask phillip to draw
up a new contract to be on a safe side.
Phillip is his lawyer who is helping us with this process.
We get home and step out of the car, They are chilling
outside Q is washing dad's car the two beautiful pregnant
ladies are eating as usual.
Me: God has made the way where there seemed to be no
way..
Mbali: Preach! baby!Preach!
Me: Ladies and Gentlemen welcome my husband the father
of my babies, we are having triplets ya'll
They go crazy getting up from their seats.
Me: Mom please be a doctor and tell them what's on that
picture.
She takes the scan picture and scream hugging me then Sfiso.
Ziyanda: Three babies, congratulations daddies.
Sfiso: Thank you so much.
Luyolo: The more the merrier keep them coming sons, let's
do the braai for the celebration of life.
Miyalo: Congratulations buddies you guys are amazing you
deserve this.
Me: Thank you Mrs G.
We do a braai and dad make a toast.
Luyolo: May I live long and see my grandkids grow and turn
out exactly how my own kids turned out, you guys have
made me a proud dad, to family..
"to family." we shout
*
NTSIKA
*
THE DOUBLE WEDDING DAY

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
*
DOUBLE WEDDING DAY
*
I peek through the window of my hotel room looking at the
view where people are moving up and down setting up
everything along the beach, it's a white theme with a little
touch of baby blue here and there, this is it, my brother and I
are getting married even though it's after our little brother,
we are doing it, all three of us will be married men soon.
I hear a door opening I turn, it's Nkanyezi, Langa and Sfiso.
Me: Morning.
Nkanyezi: "How are the nerves bro?"
Me: Oh i'm good, I should be asking you that, what if Miss
Miyah runs away.
Nkanyezi: "Don't say something like that fool."
I shrug my shoulders laughing.
We all sit down, it's around 7:00am and we are still not
dressed yet but we need to be standing on the altar by
9:00am.
Langa: So you guys are doing this right?
Me: Yes we are and I can't wait, i'm marrying the love of my
life here man.
Langa: I know what you mean by love of your life bro.
He smiles looking at Sfiso.
Nkanyezi: "I can't wait to see my shorty in a wedding gown,
we haven't seen them in three days what if they don't show
up."
I laugh, we have been in this hotel for the past three days
because the ladies wanted some time alone, I bet that was
Aunt Mbali's idea I hope they were not up to no good.
Sfiso: If they don't come we will go and drag them here
kicking and screaming.
Langa: Yep they got to get here, the amount we paid!
Me: The prices still gives you heart palpitations huh brother?
I say laughing he is still shocked by the amount they had to
pay for both Miyah and Ntsoaki.
Langa: I didn't know the Lobola cost so much until I had to
kneel on the floor and count thousands after thousands.
We laugh.
Nkanyezi: "What do you think they are doing now?"
This one look really nervous.
Nkanyezi: "Miyah haven't been replying to my texts these
past days, what if it's that Vuyi thing maybe she decided she
doesn't want to marry me."
He is panicking.
Me: Langa call Miyah man someone looks like he will faint
any minute now.
Langa takes the phone and dial the number.
Miyah: Little brother.
Langa: Your star think you're going to be a run away bride
here buddy, why don't you reply to his texts?
Miyah: Been busy trying to fit my baby bump on my dress,
Tell him I love him so much.
I tell him what Miyah is saying he breathe out.
Nkanyezi: "She needs to send me a text right now."
Langa tell Miyah that.
Miyah: I will send it now bye.
Nkanyezi's phone vibrates on the table I pass it to him, he
grins immediately.
Me: What does it say?
Langa grabs his phone from his hands and start reading.
Langa: *You know you're the love of my life Star, and we
sure will tie that knot today and I missed your dick...* ay i'm
not reading further.
Nkanyezi: "That's what you get for reading people's texts
bring my phone back."
We laugh.
Me: Miss Miyah has no filter at all.
The door opens and Lukhele, dad and my uncles walk in,
they look sharp in their white suits.
Lukhele: Can't believe these chipmunks have grown like this,
man i'm old.
Luyolo: So you guys know that once you're married, you
treat your partner like you've seen your dad treat your
mother, you have never seen Ziyanda and I fighting in front
of you, you never heard that I or your uncles cheated, So do
the right thing and walk in my footsteps you will count more
than 25 years of marriage with your partners and continue
to count together okay.
We all nod looking at him.
Luyolo: Now get ready, your suits are here already.
We wear our white Suits but me and Nkanyezi have blue
shirts underneath no ties, I hate tie.
Sfiso: You guys look like one person, won't they get confused
because right now I don't know who is who.
Me: "Can you guess which one is Ntsika?"
I use sign language to confuse him more, Langa tell him what
I said and he looks at us for a while.
Sfiso: This one is Ntsika.
He points at Nkanyezi, Langa is dead with laughter.
Sfiso: What! I thought I got it right.
Langa: No you didn't.
Grandpa call us telling us that it's time to go.
We go to the cars to take us to the beach front in
just 60 seconds.
We get to the beach and the setup is beautiful, white and
blue decorations the crystals the blue carpet, people are
already here, I see Ntsoaki's brothers standing next to a car
wearing blue suits they look good with their dreadlocks
falling on their shoulders.
Me: Hello.
I wave at them they come to where we're standing.
Letlotlo: How are you?
They shake our hands.
Me: "We are good, welcome to Durban"
They smile looking at me.
Letlotlo: "Thank you."
We converse in sign language even Hlano is engaging I think
he was quiet when I met him because he thought I wasn't
going to understand sign language.
Letlotlo: We are going in now, congratulations to you and
your twin brother.
Me: Thank you.
They all walk in more people are coming, the journalists are
all over the place
Langa: Why is Andrea with her?
We turn and look behind us, Andrea is coming with
Nomfundo, langa's former teacher towards us they are
holding hands.
Andrea: Hello boys.
Langa: Andrea why is she here?
Andrea: She is my friend and partner your uncle didn't want
to come with me, he is coming with China.
She is dating uncle Mlu and their relationship is still new.
Me: I hope she will behave then.
Andrea: She will.
They walk inside.
Me: It's time, let's walk in.
The piano starts playing inside and Vusi Nova starts singing,
he was booked by Dad apparently they know each other but
they are not close like that.
We walk in with me and Nkanyezi walking side by side and
Sfiso and Langa are behind us..
Dad and the uncles are already seated in the left front row,
the right side row is empty, where mom and my aunts are
going to be sitting.
We stand in front of everyone and face the entrance.
*
MIYALO
*
We are getting married. Ntsoaki and I have developed a very
strong friendship and it's easy to get along with her she is
kind and down to earth and I admire her achievements a lot,
being an Author is a huge deal, I mean you tell your story by
using words and you have to find the right formats, takes a
lot of skill to do that. We are always together if not with our
husbands and we are pregnant we have a lot in common like
right now we are getting married to the fathers of our
unborn babies, the twins.
We are finishing up our make up and our mothers are here
with our husbands's mom and aunts they are staring at us as
we get up and face them in our wedding gowns.
Mama: Miyalo wami waze wamuhle sisi, ngiyaziqhenya
ngawe.(My Miyalo you are beautiful, i'm so proud of you)
She says with tears in her eyes I blink a few times.
Mbali: Don't cry baby.
Mom is wearing a beautiful traditional dress blue and white,
was designed by the one and only Mbali and i'm happy they
did that for my mom.
Mama: Uziphathe kahle sisi uhloniphe abasemzini wakho,
nomyeni wakho nabafowabo ngokunjalo. (Behave yourself
and respect your in laws, your husband and his brothers as
well.)
Me: I will Mama and thank you for raising me maDlomo.
She get up and I hug her tight.
Ntsoaki'sMa: I know you girls will make us proud and I will
suggest if one of you have single friends leave them and be
each other's best friends because you will speak one
language, the language of marriage and raising kids also
making your home warm filled with love, you are beautiful.
Ntsoaki: Thank you mother we will do that, thank you all of
you.
Ziyanda:I'm sure my boys are worried now it's 9:15am now.
Mbali: A bride is never early, they will be strong, come on
now let's pray.
We close our eyes, she clears her throat.
Mbali: Our father who art in heaven, we come before you
looking all pretty because my two handsome baby boys are
getting married to two beautiful ladies, God thank you for
this day we hope no one tries to do shi..I mean I hope no one
tries to do something I won't like because I have a very short
temper.
I open my eyes and look at her, she has her eyes closed,
looks serious too, I giggle.
Mbali: We are about to leave this hotel now please carry us
to the beach where this union will take place in jesus mighty
name, Amen.
I see Ntsoaki giggling next to me.
Me: Do you think your dad will agree to walk both
of us down the isle.
She smiles, she is so beautiful with those dimples.
Ntsoaki: Let's ask him, uhm mom can you please call dad for
us.
Ntsoaki'sMa: Yes Kiki.
They walk out and her dad walk in, They hug.
Ntsoaki: Papa.
Papa: You can come hug me too.
He says with a smile, I notice the dimples too he is old but he
looks good with grey hair and beard.
We hug him.
Papa: Your mom said you are calling me.
Ntsoaki: Yes we want to ask if you could walk us down the
isle.
He look at me, I look down.
Papa: I will be honoured to walk both of you down the isle.
Ntsoaki: Her name is Miyalo.
He nods and Iyana hold my dress and Aunt Sunny hold
Ntsoaki they have a very long tail, our wedding dress are
different but have similarities here and there and my baby
bump is showing it's so cute!
We walk out and get in the cars and they drive to the beach.
We get there and everyone is inside now it's just me Ntsoaki
and her father standing between us the journalists are taking
pictures as usual.
We see Auntie Mbali coming to us.
Mbali: Your husbands want the both of you to use the bridal
veils to mark a new start.
I smile as she fix the bridal veils on our faces, then she walk
in we are carrying our blue and white bouquets.
Papa: Are you girls ready?
I nod, I hold her left arm and Ntsoaki hold her right arm..
We hear the piano playing..I huff this is it, I am about to
marry the man of my dreams.
*
Inside the tent Ntsika and Nkanyezi are waiting impatiently
for their wives to walk in, they look up when they see 047
walking in and stand next to Vusi Nova and the piano starts
playing, they start singing 'ubuhle balenzwakazi' everyone
get up from their seats. The brides walk in with Ntsoaki's
dad.
Nkanyezi look at Ntsika and they smile at each other they
look at their beautiful wifes under those veils.
They slowly walk down the isle Nkanyezi is getting
emotional, he wipes his eyes and smile looking at the smiling
Miyah.
They stop in front of them so papa can hand them over to
their partners.
Papa: Uhm girls choose your husbands I don't know which is
which.
Everyone laughs, Nkanyezi and Ntsika both stretch their
arms and Ntsoaki take Ntsika's hand and Miyah take
Nkanyezi's and then they uncover their wives veils.
Papa: Are you sure this is it?
Sfiso: Ask them..
The crowd laughs.
Miyalo: We are sure, thank you so much.
He nods, everyone take their seats and the pastor clears his
throat.
Pastor: Beloved, we are gathered here to witness the union
of these two couple Ntsika Gumede and Ntsoaki Mokoena,
Nkanyezi Gumede and Miyalo Emihle Mkhabela. I will skip
the part where I have to ask if there is anyone who want to
stop their wedding because I don't want anyone to try and
stop these children from doing the right thing, i'm sorry if
you wanted to try.
He says shrugging his shoulders the crowd chuckles.
Pastor: They have their own vowes we will start with
Nkanyezi and Miyalo Mkhabela.
He gives the mic to Miyalo first but she shakes her head.
Miyalo: Langelihle will translate pastor I will be using my
husband to be's language.
Langelihle stand in front of them then take the mic.
Miyalo: "My love, we've been together for a while we've had
our ups and a lot of downs, from almost losing each other to
losing our babies, I can say we have been through it all."
Langa translates.
Miyalo: " But in all of those hardships,me having a bad
reputation you saw me worthy of your love, worthy to
mother your kids and worthy to be your partner for life,
Thank you so much Star for not giving up on me when
people were casting stones at me, Life is a journey and I'm
definitely walking it with you through the good times and
bad times, I love you so much and no one will come between
us, Thank you Gumede."
Langa translates the rest and they clap hands.
Nkanyezi: "I have never thought any girl will ever except
that I'm deaf and actually want to be with me, You came into
my life and showed me the true meaning of love, you risked
it all for me and i'm grateful for the gift that you're carrying,
the product of our love, you made me a better man, Thank
you maDlomo,Dinangwe."
Mbali starts ululating after Langa have translated.
Pastor: Let's move on to Ntsika Gumede and Ntsoaki
Mokoena.
Ntsoaki: Langa don't leave the stage yet, I'm using my second
husband's language too.
Ziyanda is so emotional on her seat and Sunshine brushes
her back.
Ntsoaki: "My handsome husband."
As Langa translate the guests are whistling and cheering at
that Ntsoaki smiles looking at her husband.
Ntsoaki: "We are already married by tradition, we didn't
have to do all this but you wanted to give me a wedding
every young girl dreams off, Thank you for choosing me to
be your wife, I am grateful for you and the new family you
gave me they have warm hearts like you, you knew when
you took me home that I will be safe and I will be taken care
off not just by you but your whole family, Thank you
Gumede..I will love you for the rest of my life father of my
kids.
Ntsika smiles and look at Langa and nod
Langa: Why didn't you guys tell me sooner that I will be a
translator, I would have worn my shiny suit.
Everyone laughs.
Ntsika: "Ntsoaki, the first day I saw you in our kids school I
was so taken by your beauty and when you smiled I became
weak, you know what I went through before you came into
my life but you never judged instead you made me face my
fears you helped me find closure you allowed me to leave
you and try to find what I thought was for my kids but when
it didn't work out you allowed me back into your life, you
made me a better person you protected me and my family,
thank you maMokoena for accepting me with my squad of
children, not a lot of woman would agree to marry a man
with 4kids and none of them is theirs but you are
exceptional, I'm grateful baby, thank you so much."
The crowd clap hands.
Pastor: Those are powerful words you are giving each other,
now we need the rings are there any rings.
Ntsika's twin boys walk in wearing their tuxedos they give
the pastor one ring.
Pastor: We only have one ring?
Laughter, Khosi walk in with his black tuxedo with the neat
dreadlocks falling on his shoulders, he gives the pastor the
second ring.
Pastor: Whose rings are these, ay this family with duplicates.
Langa: Nkanyezi and Miyalo's rings pastor.
Sage and Qhayiya walk in wearing white tuxedos and give
the pastor Ntsika and Ntsoaki's rings.
He bless the rings and give Nkanyezi and Ntsika the rings
first.
Pastor: Nkanyezi do you take Miyalo Emihle to be your
lawful wedded wife to honour and to love.
Nkanyezi nods.
Langa: I do.
He says smiling looking at Sfiso, he smiles shaking his head.
Pastor: Ntsika do you take Ntsoaki Mokoena to be your
wedded wife to honour and to love?
Ntsika: I do.
Pastor: Repeat after me, Nkanyezi Langelihle will say it for
you, I give you this ring before God, my friends and family
for it to symbolise the depth of our love, through sickness
and in health for rischer and for poorer till death do us part.
They repeat after the pastor and he gives the ladies the rings.
Miyalo: I Miyalo Mkhabela take you Nkanyezi Gumede to be
my lawful wedded husband to love and to honour for richer
for poorer and this ring is a symbol of my love never take it
off, I will be with you till death do us part.
Ntsoaki: I Ntsoaki Mokoena take you Ntsika Gumede to be
my lawful wedded husband, for better or worse through the
good times and bad times till death do us part.
They all have their rings on the pastor prays for their union.
Pastor: By the power vested in me I now pronounce you
husbands and wives you may kiss your brides.
They smile and hold their wives's faces and they kiss,the
guests are clapping hands, ululating, whistling everyone is
happy for them.
Vusi Nova starts singing "Ndikuthandile sthandwa sam,
(I love you my love)
Ngenhliziyo yami yonke,
(With my whole heart)
Nditsh'uthand' endinalo..
(This love that I have)
Soze luphele,
(will never end)
They walk out holding each others hands and once they are
out they hug their wives tight.
Ntsika: Thank you so much Mrs Gumede 2.
Nkanyezi: "Thank you Mrs Gumede 3"
They smile at each other.
Mbali: All the single ladies all the single ladies,
gather around please they are about to throw those
bouquets.
The ladies gather around.
Mandisi: Ufunani lapho Mbali?(What are you doing there
Mbali?)
She is in the crowd of the single ladies everyone is laughing
at her.
Mbali: I knew you gonna say something.
Miyalo throws hers first Andrea catches it and jump in joy,
the gentlemen look at Mlu but he looks away chuckling.
Ntsoaki throws it and Iyana catches it.
Luyolo: Never! throw it again, not my baby girl, Never yhuu
ndingafa.(I'd die)
The guests are in stitches with laughter.
They skip the reception, people start eating while the whole
family go and take pictures and they drive straight to Zimbali
Resort for their honey moon.
Ntsika: boMrs Gumede.
The ladies smile, they are happy, who wouldn't if you have a
man who just said I do in front of a lot of people.
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LANGA

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
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So all three of us have settled down, found our lifetime
partners, expecting the babies, miracles do happen I saw it
happening to me, when God decided to give me and my
husband one extra baby, today we are marking two months
of our babies and we are going for a checkup.
Me: What are you going to wear babe?
I shout, he is using the bathroom.
Sfiso: Anything babe i'm off today we will have time to go out
so choose anything casual for me love.
He shouts back and I take white jeans and white tshirt for
him and all black for me.
He comes back and find me already dressed and look at the
bed.
Sfiso: I want to dress like you, why would I wear all white?
Me: Because it looks good on you, makes your dark skin pop
out.
Sfiso: ngempela?(really?)
Me: Yes.
Sfiso: Then let me put them on, thank you.
He kiss me and I help him with his watch and kiss him again.
Sfiso: We're going to be late.
Me: Yeah let's go my love.
We drive to take Sindi from the flat then go to the hospital
we find mom at her office.
Ziyanda: Hey guys, hello sisi.
Me: Hey mama.
Ziyanda: Let's see the babies in there, look at the
movements, everything looks good.
She moving the wand and we can see the three little babies
in there.
Me: I can't wait to find out their gender.
Ziyanda: Let's wait for at least a month baby.
Me: Ok.
Ziyanda: Ok we are done.
Mom wipe her and she get up and get dressed.
Me: We will see you at home mom.
Ziyanda: Ok honey, you must be so bored your best friends
are not home.
I laugh.
Me: I miss them so much man, especially making them angry
Miyah would just beat the hell out of me while Ntsoaki cries
it's fun being with them man.
Ziyanda: They will be home tomorrow night.
Me: I can't wait.
We walk out and get in the car.
Sfiso: Do you need anything Sindi?
Sindi: Uhm just peri-peri wors I have other things at the flat.
Me: Ohk let's go to a pub and grill to get a full meal.
Sfiso: Yeah let's go.
We drive to a pub in town and it's not full because it's during
the day, people are just here to eat and have a drink or two.
We sit down after placing our order, Sfiso order beer for him
and juice for me and Sindi.
Our food comes and we start eating, we did get a hot wors
for Sindi.
After we are done eating I pay then we leave and go home
after dropping Sindi.
We go to our room and sleep, I wake up when I hear a phone
beeping next to me, I take it and view the message.
*I miss you baby*
I sit up and check the phone, this is not my phone but Sfiso's
phone, he bought us the same phones and sometimes I take
his thinking it's mine.
I re-read the message again thinking that maybe what I saw
is wrong.
I shake him, he sit up wiping his face, I give him his phone
and go to the bathroom, I walk back to bed and sleep.
Sfiso: I don't know this number, maybe it's a wrong number.
Me: Ok.
We sleep and I don't take it serious maybe it is a wrong
number, people mix up numbers all the time.
We wake up the next day and I take him to work then drive
back and take Ntando and Thando we go and sit at the back
garden in a fleece, we start playing with toys, then when I
see that they are getting tirer, I take them inside and feed
them their food then we go to bed, They fall asleep next to
me, I fall asleep too, I wake up when someone is shaking me
it's Ntsika.
Me: What time is it? Why are you here?
Ntsika: It's 19:00pm and this is my home too.
Me: Oh I thought it's still early, how was the honeymoon?
Ntsika: Perfect, we had a great time.
Me: That's good, let me wash my face and go greet the wives.
Ntsika: When did these two sleep?
Me: I'm not sure what time it was, we were playing outside I
guess they are tired.
He nods and kiss them walking out.
Sfiso hasn't come back from home.
I walk out and greet my brother, Ntsoaki and Miyah.
Ntsoaki: I think i'm just gonna go to bed i'm so tired.
Me: Goodnight.
She walks away, dad walk in and greet us.
Me: You guys came back late huh, where is Sfiso?
Luyolo: We are changing the system he was talking on the
phone with the guys outside.
Me: Ok.
Sfiso walk in after a while he greets and go to our bedroom,
we eat dinner and go to bed.
Me: You look tired.
Sfiso: Yeah today was a busy day, we had to change the
whole security system in the properties and tomorrow we
are changing it here.
Me: You are putting advanced security systems?
Sfiso: Yeah.
Me: Ok, goodnight.
I kiss him and we sleep, the phone beeps and it's his phone, I
shake him but he doesn't wake up and maybe it's important,
maybe it's work, I take it and read it.
*Hey babe I know you said I shouldn't text you but I really
miss you*
I check the number it looks the same as the one that texted "I
miss you" yesterday, how many times can one make the
same mistake.
I wake Sfiso up.
Sfiso: Babe i'm tired.
Me: You have a message again Sfiso.
Sfiso: Can't I read it in the morning?
Me: No read it now.
He takes the phone and read the message then he give me
back the phone.
Sfiso: Told you I don't know the number.
Me: Then call it and tell whoever it is to stop texting you.
Sfiso: Really Langa?
Me: Yes Really Sfiso.
He sit up and call the number and a lady answers and it's a
very smooth voice.
Voice: Hey baby.
Sfiso: Who is this?
Voice: What? Is husband around?
She says giggling.
Sfiso: I don't have time for this.
He drops the phone, I look at him.
Me: Who is that Sfiso?
Sfiso: I don't know.
Me: Don't fuck with me man, how is it a coincidence that she
just randomly asked if your "husband" is around, if this
person didn't know you she wasn't just going to assume that
you have a husband.
Sfiso: ay angazi ke.(I don't know) I really don't know who it
is Langa.
Me: Call her again then.
He takes the phone and call.
Voice: Babe.
Sfiso: Sisi I think you got the wrong number.
Voice: Really Sfiso you gonna say that to me?
I feel goosebumps all over my body as she calls his name, I
get out of bed and wear my pants.
Sfiso: Langelihle this must be a prank babe I don't know
what is going on here.
I chuckle.
His phone beeps again and I take it from his hand.
Me: *Sfiso don't play me like that I know you're married but
you said you are divorcing him for me since you realised you
are really not gay it was just a phase.*
I read it out loud and chuckle as I feel tears burning my eyes,
I throw the phone at him he catch it and look at the phone
and shake his head getting up from the bed.
Sfiso: Langelihle this is bullshit, I don't understand what is
going on here.
I nod, as one tear roll down my eye.
I wear my tshirt and my shoes.
Sfiso: Talk to me Langa, please believe me I..
Me: You're cheating on me with a woman and you are not
gay, I get it.
Sfiso: Please don't believe this.
I take the keys but he comes to me amd snatch it from my
shaking hands.
Sfiso: Where are you going?
Me: We are getting a divorce right so why should I be here.
He shakes his head and stare at me, I attempt to walk out but
he pull my hand, I turn and punch him, he look at me.
Me: Stop touching me you cheating bastard.
Sfiso: No Langa i'm not ch..
I step closer to him and punch him again, he push me so hard
I hit the wall with my back but I get closer and start
punching him hard until he is down, I start kicking him, i'm
losing control.
Sfiso: Langa stop...
He says spitting blood but I don't stop until i hear the door
opening and I feel hands pulling me away from him and pin
me on the wall, he hold my neck tight.
Ntsika: What are you doing Langelihle?are you crazy!
My tears fall down as he squeeze my neck and then let go, I
look at Sfiso as he tries getting up, blood is coming out of his
mouth.
Ntsika: Why are you doing this, why are you guys fighting?
Me: I hate you..
I say staring at him, I take my car keys.
Sfiso: Langa don't go, I'm not cheating baby please listen to
me..
I shake my head and wipe my face. I take my phone.
Ntsika: Uyaphi Langa.(Where are you going?)
Me: I don't know..
I walk out, get in my car and drive out, my phone rings, It's
Sfiso I ignore it. I search if my bank card is here and I find his
card and mine.
I drive to the lodge where he used to stay when he visited
me here before we got married, I check in and go to the room
and throw myself in bed, i'm heartbroken, we made a deal
never to cheat on each other, we promised each other that,
but what did he do!
I switch off my phone and cry under the bed covers fully
dressed I don't have energy to take off my clothes.
I wake up the next morning and go and pay for another night
and go buy food and six cans of beers then go back to my
room and eat then drink all the beers and sleep in bed
dozing off.
I wake up and switch on my phone, I find messages from him
and missed calls from my family.
Sfiso: *I didn't cheat on you Langa, I promised I wouldn't do
that to you, I love you so much to do that*
Ntsika: *Sfiso it at the hospital, you broke his arm man.*
I call him.
Ntsika: Ukuphi mfethu (Where are you bro)
Me: He did this, I want nothing to do with him, he is sleeping
around and he told her we are getting a divorce.
Ntsika: He said he doesn't know that number bro.
Me: But she called his name unless he is not Sfiso anymore.
Ntsika: But Langa, he is badly injured.
Me: I..I don't care okay he can die for all I care.
I drop the call and tears fall all over again, i'm hurt but I feel
bad for beating him up like that.
The phone rings and it's mom.
Me: Mom.
Ziyanda: Langa..
She sounds angry.
Me: Pink.
Ziyanda: Don't Pink me boy get your ass back home right
now, how can you do this to your husband.
Me: He won't be my husband soon, he is divorcing me, he
told the bitch that he is divorcing me, he is not in love with
me mom, he doesn't want me anymore.
Ziyanda: Langeli...
Me: It's fine, get me a divorce lawyer mom, I will come home
tomorrow morning.
I drop the phone and sleep.
In the morning I take a bath and sit in bed with a towel
wrapped around my waist.
A call comes through.
Me: Mmm.
Ntsika: Send me your address I have clean clothes for you
and the tootbrush.
I send him the address and 15 minutes later he knocks and I
open the door for him.
Ntsika: You don't look good.
I smile a little, he give me the bag and I go to the bathroom
brush my teeth and get dressed then pack the clothes I was
wearing.
Me: How is he?
Ntsika: He is at home, his left arm is broken he has a cast.
I look down.
Ntsika: Let's go home.
Me: Ok.
We walk out he get in his car and I drive mine home, we
walk in and I find them in the table eating, Sfiso is here too
and I can see the cast.
Me: Hi.
He look up at me.
Ziyanda: Come and sit down.
I sit opposite him, I feel sorry for what I did to him but i'm
still very much angry.
Me: I'm sorry for hurting you like that.
He nods, his left eye is bruised also.
I place my hands on the table and look at my ring.
Me: I can give you the ring back now while you still maybe
drafting the divorce papers.
I say taking it off, I look at the tattoo written Sfiso and my
eyes are filled with tears.
Sfiso: We are not divorcing Langelihle.
Me: You don't have to be with me anymore if you have
discovered that being with me was just a phase to you.
Sfiso: I would never say that about you.
I get up and place the ring in front of him.
Sfiso: The vows we made Langa, before God and our families.
His voice is shaky, I walk away to my room, I feel like my
hand is heavy without that ring.
He walk in and stand in front of me. He touch my face and
wipe the tears, I look at him he has tears too.
Sfiso: We don't let anything get between us remember.
Me: You betrayed me, you cheated on me.
Sfiso: I didn't..
He is lying to my face and i'm getting really emotional.
Me: How can you do this to me, how can..
Sfiso: Please believe me sthandwa sami. (my love)
The pain i'm feeling is coming from my gutstraight to my
heart, and there is this lump in my throat I just want to
scream.
I get in bed and sleep.
Later I wake up and he is not around, I go to the bathroom, I
find him in a bath tub, looking deep in thoughts he didn't
even hear me walking in.
I'm watching him as he start using one hand to wash his
body and I feel bad.
Me: Can I help you?
He look at me and nod.
I walk closer and help him bath, my hands are shaking, he
won't be mine soon.
He is staring at me but my eyes are on what i'm doing.
He finish bathing and I help him up and take the towel and
wrap it around his waist, he sit in bed, I lotion his body, he
pull my neck and kiss me, I kiss him back then move away.
Sfiso: I love you and only you.
I look at him.
Me: Then why did you cheat Sfiso?
Sfiso: I swear on my daughter's grave Langa I never cheated .
I find it hard to believe him, the fact that the girl called his
name and also said he is divorcing his husband kills me.
I help him wear his boxer shorts and sit next to him.
Sfiso: Wear your ring Langa.
I shake my head.
Me: Maybe we should go back to who we were before we got
married, you will be who you are and date women.
He sighs and shake his head.
Sfiso: We have kids on the way, you wanted us to raise them.
Me: We will but apart, you are straight, maybe I'm the only
one who is gay because I still love you so much.
Sfiso: I'm graduating in the next two weeks I thought you
will be with me.
Me: You can take your girlfriend with you.
I get up and walk out.
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SFISO
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
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SFISO
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I love Langelihle so much and cheating is the last thing on
my mind, I have done so many things to prove how much I'm
in love with him but with one two messages he decides to
beat me up and leave me but i'm not giving up on us, I know
someone is trying to break us up for whatever reason and I
will find out who it is.
Last night after helping me take a bath, he walked out and he
didn't sleep with me.
I heard him opening the door in the morning and now he is
taking a shower I sit up in bed and look at him as he moves
around the room getting dressed.
I see him taking a bag and he start packing clothes in there.
Me: Where are you going?
Langa: I will be staying with Uncle China.
Me: No don't leave, this is your home Langa, Instead I will
leave.
He looks at me, his eyes are puffy and the nose is red, he was
crying.
I take off my ring too.
Me: You can take this ring too cause you gave me the one I
gave to you.
He walk slowly and stand next to me, he take the ring and
look at me.
Langa: What was I doing wrong Sfiso?
Me: You didn't do anything and I'm not cheating on you.
He look at my ring on his hand.
Me: Ngikuthanda kakhulu ngeke ngiyenze leyonto.(I love you
so much I wouldn't do that)
His tears run down his face he wipe them and take his bag.
Me: I'm leaving, going to Harding.
Langa: Is she from Harding?
I look at him and get off bed, I take my own bag and start
taking out my clothes from the closet.
Me: You are so quick to jump into conclusions, you are quick
to get angry and one argument you act like a bitch and go
sleep in the next room t..
He raise his hand but I block it and hold his neck squeezing it
tight.
Me: It's all easy to you huh, you disrespect me, you beat me
up and you think I'm scared of you.
Langa: Let go of me Sfiso.
I squeeze it more.
Me: Try raising your hand at me again I will forget that I love
you and do more damage than just breaking your arm, ok.
He is out of breath and his face is turning red, I let go and he
hold his neck coughing.
Me: You should be helping me find out who is trying to break
us up but you decide to run away, go then it's clear you're
not ready for marriage, you are ruining my happiness for
shit, I am graduating after struggling to get that degree I was
going to celebrate that special day with you, where will I
even get time to cheat I work with your uncles and dad then
come home to you every night, you don't think, all you do is
get angry and i'm tired, i'm tired of fighting for us when you
don't even meet me halfway.
He sit on the floor his head between his thighs he is crying.
I kneel in front of him.
Me: I didn't cheat on you Langa and I will never do that, I
work so hard for you and our babies, I wanted to build a
home for us, I don't have time to mess around.
He hold his head still looking down and sob.
Me: Please don't cry like this Langa.
He continue to cry, I sit down too and wipe my own tears.
He get up and take his bag.
Me: Please don't leave.
He walk out, I huff and go back to bed.
His mom walk in later and give me the pills for pain and
water, I drink them up.
Me: Thank you.
She sit on the bed.
Ziyanda: You know I don't take sides you're all my kids, if
you think there is still a chance you can fix things with
Langelihle then do it, I'm not condoning what he did to you, I
think I know why he is acting that way, he is defensive and
quick to walk away because of what happened to him, he
didn't deal with the rejection from his biological mom so he
sometimes relates everything to what his mom did to him
causing him to take wrong decisions.
Me: What did his mom do to him?
Ziyanda: She left him when he was just an infant and when
he was 17 years he found her on facebook and they talked
then he gave her a chance.
She sighs.
Ziyanda: He visited her overseas, and she kept him in a
basement and totured him just to get money from me so he
kind of like get defensive even when there is no need.
Me: I understand that but he needs to deal with this.
Ziyanda: Can you help him?
Me: I love him so much but he needs to acknowledge that he
has a problem first before we can all help him.
Ziyanda: Ohk, don't leave please he will come back this is
your home, both of you.
Me: Thank you.
She walks out and I sleep back in bed.
*
Today we have the doctors appointment I don't know if
Langa remembers, his phone is off it's been four weeks and I
haven't seen him no one has even dad so maybe he is not
with China, I have taken off the cast from my arm.
I drive to the hospital and knock on his mom's office and
walk in, they are already here.
Me: Hello Sindi, Langa.
Sindi: Hello.
Langa doesn't reply, doesn't even turn to look at me.
We move to see the babies growth now they have grown
than before, they are three months now.
Ziyanda: They are growing and very healthy too.
I look at Langa he is focusing on the machine there, he has a
smile on his face and Sindi is looking at him with a smile.
We go and sit down while Pink gives her the suppliments.
Ziyanda: We will see you next month and we will check the
gender of those munchkins.
We nod and I get up first and walk out, I lean on my car as
Langa and Sindi walk out and go to the car.
Me: Langa can we talk..
He comes to me and look at me, he has lost weight the cheek
bones are visible.
Me: Can you give me a hug?
He nods and i'm so happy he agreed I miss him, a month
without seeing him was a lot for me.
I hug him really tight then let go, we stare at each other, I
move my face to his and we kiss until Sindi clears her throat.
We look at each other.
Me: Can I visit you where you're staying?I just want us to
talk.
Langa: I stay at the lodge where you used to stay when
visiting me, the same room.
Me: I can leave my car here and we will go now.
Langa: Ok.
We go to his car and Sindi look angry now.
Me: Are you okay Sindi.
Sindi: I'm fine.
She says fast. I nod.
Langa drops her off she comes to his window.
Sindi: Don't go back to where you're clearly not appreciated.
She then walk inside.
Me: What was that all about?
Langa: I don't know, maybe she heard mom and I talking, she
was asking why we are divorcing and I told her you are
cheating and that I can't forgive myself for beating you up.
Me: I'm not divorcing.
He drives to the lodge and we go to his room. There is 12
pack of beers that is still sealed. We sit in bed.
Langa: You want a beer?
Me: Yeah.
He takes one that is in the fridge then take the 6pack and put
it in the fridge. He drink up the beer on his hand.
Langa: I'm going for therapy.
Me: You are?
Langa: Yes.
Me: Why?
Langa: I think I have anger problems and I don't take
rejection well so i'm working on that.
Me: Is it working so far?
Langa: I think so, I mean I have found a divorce lawyer, he
will give us the papers soon and i'm fine.
Me: Then you will be divorcing yourself.
He look at me.
Langa: You hate me for what I did to you.
Me: I don't, that's why i'm still living with our family and
why you will remain a Langa till you die.
Langa: You still love me?
Me: I'll always love you.
I take off my tshirt and point at my tattoo.
Me: This will be here forever and you will always be mine.
He place his beer down and comes stand in front of me.
He moves his hand on my tattoo softly then kiss it.
Me: Mmm.
He kiss my neck, it has been a while since we had sex so the
feelings are so quick my dick is already up
He pull me up and unzip my pants and pull them down. He
push me to bed and start sucking my dick.
Me: Shit..Langa..
He suck my balls then go to my hole and lick and spit then
put his finger slowly.
Me: Aaah babe..
His pace moves faster and he groans and step back, he takes
off his clothes fast and stroke his dick he put it in my mouth I
wet it with my spit then he inserts it on my hole then slowly
thrust in me while stroking my dick.
Me: Fuck..I missed you so much baby, yes fuck me baby.
He continues to fuck me until I cum on his hand he pull out
and turn me around and spread my butt cheeks and I feel his
wet tongue on my hole.
Me: Fuck.
He put his dick in and starts going in faster, he turns my neck
and kiss me while his hand go hard on my butt cheek, he is
being rough but I like it.
Langa: I love you so much Sfiso, God!, I don't want to lose
you babe.
He moves faster and he pull out groaning he brush my butt
and cum on it.
He get up and come back with a towel and wipe us clean and
we sit in bed. I take his hand.
Me: Come home, I will go with you to your therapist.
Langa: I have to do this on my own baby.
Me: but I want to do it with you, please.
Langa: Sfiso I hurt you, you skipped your graduation day
because of me.
Yes, I didn't attend my graduation ceremony because I was
worried about my husband who left me.
I look down, I'm still sad about that, I put on the work for me
to graduate, I had to take a lot of shifts to pay for my studies.
Langa: I'm so sorry, I was selfish.
Me: I'm dissapointed, I thought you were going to come
home a day before and encourage me to go.
He moves his eyes around, he does that when he can feel
tears in his eyes.
Me: Don't cry I have my degree, a graduation ceremony
wasn't that important.
Langa: You are just saying that to make me feel better.
Me: I'm not.
He stands up and go take two cans from the fridge, he is butt
naked, I stare at him, really lost weight but his body is still
hot, abs are still there, his heary legs and thighs.
I take the cans from him and place them on the table I pull
him to my lap and start kissing him.
I put my dick in and he start moving while we're kissing, he
moves fast and I cum hard my knees shakes and toes curl..
Me: Yhoo..fuck that was amazing I missed you so much
Langa and I want you back home today please.
He huffs and rest his head on my shoulder.
Langa: We will go home tomorrow morning.
Me: You will come with me?
Langa: Yes i'm coming with you.
Me: Thank you so much.
We drink the beers.
Me: you have lost too much weight.
Langa: I thought I was losing the love of my life.
Me: But you left him begging you not to leave.
Langa: You don't get the messages anymore?
Me: No I don't.
He nods.
We sleep in each other's arms and I wake up first the next
day and start packing his clothes he wake up and look at me.
Me: Let's go take a shower so I can take you home.
He step out of bed and pass, I pull him back and hug him
tight.
Me: My forever..
He pull away and smile I take his hand and get in the
bathroom he brush his teeth.
He turns and face me.
Langa: My always.
We shower together then go back to the room.
Langa: Wear my tshirt it's clean.
Me: I don't have a problem wearing the same tshirt I was
wearing yesterday.
He stares at me with a bored look, I laugh and take his tshirt.
We get in the car.
Me: Let's buy wors for our kids they seem to like it in Sindi's
belly.
He laughs a little and we buy it and go to the flat, we knock
and she opens in her gown.
Sindi: Uhm hey guys..
She look shocked.
Me: We bought you wors can we come in.
Sindi: Uhm yeah yeah thank you come in.
We walk in and find the first girl we met at MrsMbhele's
office.
We sit on the couch and she takes the plastic and start frying
it same time.
Me: They like it huh?
Sindi: Yes they do.
She doesn't look okay.
Ezile: So Sindi told me you guys broke up.
Langa: We are still together.
Ezile: Oh ok.
I look at her that voice sounds familiar, I look at Langa and
find him looking at me too.
I take out my phone and check the number that sent the text
that almost made my husband divorce me. I saved it so Carl
can trace it for me.
I call it but I don't put it on my ear and look at the table as
the phone vibrates, Ezile quickly take the phone she look at
Sindi then at us.
I call the number again.
Me: Answer it, aren't you the girlfriend I was leaving my
husband for.
Sindi rush to us and I look at her.
Me: Tell your friend to answer, I'm calling.
They both look shocked and scared.
Sindi: I..I don't know what you're talking about.
Me: You don't?
I get up and go to Ezile and take the phone from her hand
and look at it as I call the number again it flashes Sfiso.
Langa: So who came up with this briliant idea?
They look at each other.
Langa: I don't like repeating myself.
He says getting up his face is red he look really angry. He
pulls Ezile up and bring him closer to his face.
Langa: I asked you a question, whos idea was it?
She doesn't answer but look scared.
Ezile: I'm sorry.
Langa: You think playing with other people's marriages is a
joke!huh.
He slap her so hard, I pull him back.
Langa: You think this was a joke? You gave her my husband's
number hee Sindi?
Sindi rush around the kitchen counter and get a knife she
points it at her stomach.
Sindi: I will kill these bastards if you touch her again, Langa I
can see you're the only one happy about these kids, he
doesn't care let's raise them together, be a father to your
babies and I will be their mom.
I look at her, what I was worried about before doing this
surrogacy is coming to life, it's happening.
Langa look at me and shake his head I think he realise it too,
I asked him what if this surrogate end up wanting him or one
of us and she has leverage.
Langa: Sfiso..
Sindi: I won't kill them if you be with me so we can raise our
kids Langa.
Sfiso: You know Sindi I'm all for protecting women but if you
are threatning us using our kids, I will kill your friend and
make you take a fall, you will spend the rest of your life in
prison and we will come get our kids when they are born.
She let go of the knife and come closer to Langa.
Sindi: I won't hurt them I promise, I will give you time to
think about this, okay?
She says smiling.
Langa: Let's go home Sfiso.
He take my hand and we drive home.
I am so stressed I don't think I will sleep at all today, Langa is
in deep thoughts as he clench his jaws and playing with his
knuckles.
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LANGA

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
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My husband is giving me silent treatment ever since we
found out that what he was worried about before this
surrogate thing is happening now and I don't blame him at
all now I have to figure out how i'm going to fix this.
He is taking a shower in the bathroom I sit in bed and think,
he comes out from the bathroom and stand in front of me.
Sfiso: Here's your ring if you want it.
He looks angry. I take it and put it on, I get up and take his
out of my bag and give him he slid it on his finger.
He get dressed and get in bed covering his head.
Me: Should I go get food for you?
He ignores me, I walk out and find the family eating.
Luyolo: Oh look who decided to come back home, you know
Langelihle if you ever pull a stunt like that again I will beat
you so bad that you will waste time hating me, I won't even
care.
Me: I'm sorry dad.
Luyolo: I told you if you are angry at your partner or your
brothers walk away.
Me: I'm working on it dad, I am seeing a therapist.
Luyolo: Good, I love you okay.
I smile.
Me: I love you too dad.
Ntsoaki: We missed you, you didn't even send a single text.
They are looking at me with sad eyes. I kiss Miyah's cheek
and then Ntsoaki.
Me: I'm sorry, i'm back now and I will need your help, both
of you.
Miyalo: Who are we killing?
Luyolo: Yey wena!(hey you)
Miyalo: I'm just kidding.
Me: I want to plan a graduation party for Sfiso, he skipped
the ceremony because of me and I need you if you won't give
birth while planning.
I say looking at Miyah her stomach is huge but she is 7
months pregnant.
Miyalo: I will ignore the last part and take the first beautiful
line, we will help you right Sis.
Ntsoaki: Yes we will.
Ziyanda: That's a beautiful thing you want to do for Sfiso
Langelihle.
Me: I ruined his day I want to make it up to him.
Ntsoaki: so you want it to be a suprise.
Me: Yes.
Miyalo: Do we have a budget?
Ntsika laughs.
Me: Uhlekani manje?(why are you laughing now?)
Ntsika: Don't bother telling her the budget, it will exceed the
limit.
Miyalo: Wow, am I that bad.
Ntsika: Didn't you want to swing from the chandelier the day
of the wedding.
Me: A chandelier?
Miyalo: Don't lie baba kaNqoba.
Ntsika: Am I lying bro?
He says looking at Nkanyezi.
Nkanyezi: "Why are you denying it Miyah?"
Everyone laughs.
Me: Well please just give me ideas tomorrow then we can
work on the budget.
Miyalo: Ok buddy.
I eat my food and take Sfiso's food to our bedroom.
Me: Sfiso.
He look at me.
Me: Here's your food.
He sit up and start eating, the room is in complete silence, he
finish eating I take his plate back to the kitchen and get him
juice he drinks it and sleep.
I get in next to him and hold him, he doesn't say anything, his
phone rings he answer it.
Sfiso: Sindi.
Sindi: Divorce Langa.
Sfiso: Ok.
Sindi: I'm not joking divorce him before he choose his kids
over you.
Sfiso: And I said ok.
He drops the phone, I decide not to say anything.
I wake up the next morning and take out his suit and tie then
wake him up.
Me: You can take a bath, I will make breakfast for you.
Sfiso: Thank you.
I smile a little at least he talk even if it's just 'thank you' I'll
take it.
I go make breakfast for him and go back to our room, I find
him sitting in bed staring into space.
Me: Here is your breakfast.
He takes it and eat then start dressing up for work, I stand in
front of him and fix his tie and button his blazer.
Sfiso: ngiyabonga, kuzomele ngihambe.(thank you, I have to
go.)
I perk his lips, he takes his bag and walk out.
I take his phone and keys following him.
I find him cussing kicking his car.
Me: Here is your phone and keys, I can drive you to work.
He go to the passenger seat and I go to the drivers seat then
drive him to work.
Me: Have a nice day.
He nods and walk in, I sigh he is angry, He told me this can
happen but I just got angry.
I drive to Sindi's and walk in finding her watching porn on
the lounge and playing with herself, she jump up.
Sindi: Langa why did you barge in like that, you scared us.
She says brushing her tummy.
Me: You know I don't like people who mess with me and
poke their noses in my marriage so I will tell you what i'm
going to do to you if you don't call Sfiso now and apologise
for what you said to him.
I go to the tv and switch it off then sit down.
Me: Sit your ass down.
She sit down and look at me.
Me: So let me tell you what i'll do, I will take you from this
flat and put you in a house far from here, it only has a bed
and a bucket, I will take your phone and hire a nurse and a
guard that will make sure my kids are fine 100% then when
you give birth they will deliver the babies and I will come
and finish you off.
She is shaking holding on to her gown. I stand up and take an
apple from the fridge then sit back down eating it.
Me: You wanna know how I will kill you?
She shakes her head vigorously.
Me: I will tell you anyway, I will take out your womb while
you watch, then I will cut your toes one by one and put them
in your mouth then watch you bleed to death.
She is crying now.
Me: Oh the reason I will take out your womb is because you
lied to us and said you are doing this to help us have kids but
you had other motives.
Sindi: I'm sorry, so sorry Ezile put me up to this, she said it
will be easier for her to get back at Ntsika for hurting her if I
go and stay with you.
Me: Oh so you don't want me?
Sindi: I..I do but I wasn't gonna do anything about it.
Me: Why did you agree to this then?
Sindi: She told me I can get more money that what you will
be paying me if I date you because you're rich.
Me: Oh is it?now call my husband and apologise Sindi.
She takes the phone shaking then call Sfiso.
Sfiso: Ufunani I said I will divorce Langelihle he needs these
babies more than he needs me so girl just let me be.
I'm hurt.
Me: Sfiso.
Sfiso: Langa are you there to give her what she wants?
Me: No..I will never choose between you and our kids Sfiso I
need both of you.
Sindi: I'm sorry Sfiso I was just greedy you guys are good
people i'm sorry.
He doesn't say anything.
Me: Sfiso I will take her to Grandpa's house so she can be
closer to us babe please.
Sfiso: No let her live there.
Me: What if she kills my babies.
Sfiso: She won't because she will be living with someone
from now on and she will keep an eye on her and won't
allow her friend in.
Me: Do I know this person?
Sfiso: Yes, it's Nadia.
I smile. Nadia is a badass lesbian that is on Sfiso's team of
securities, and she is the only female there but boy she does
the work.
Me: Are you deploying her to be her personal bodyguard?
Sfiso: Sort of, now I need you to take her phone and remove
her sim card we will buy her a new one, we were good to her
now we are going to treat her like a prisoner because she
took us for shit!
Me: So when is Nadia coming in?
Sfiso: You will fetch us later with that Sindi so she won't do
anything stupid.
Me: Ok thank you so much Sfiso.
Sfiso: You should be Langa, I am cleaning up your mess here.
Me: But babe.
Sfiso: Don't babe me Langelihle I knew this shit is going to
happen now Nadia wants me to double the price i'm paying
her here.
Me: I'm sorry..
Sfiso: Nx leave me alone.
Me: Sfiswesihle..
Sfiso: I will kill you with your Sindi there.
Me: I love you.
He drops the call you.
I sit back on the couch and watch her as she cries.
Me: I'm hungry..
Sindi: Will she hurt me?
Me: Who?
Sindi: This Nadia.
Me: Yes if you don't listen to her.
I get up and look for something to eat and find the fried
chicken.
Me: Are my kids hungry?
She nods slowly, I make food for us and sit down.
Me: We were going to give you everything you wanted
except for me ofcourse i'm into a guy.
Sindi: I'm so sorry.
Me: Yeah right..
We finish eating and her phone rings I tell her to answer and
put it on speaker.
Sindi: Hey Ezi.
Ezile: How is it going? Did he agree to divorce Langa?
I nod.
Sindi: Yes.
Ezile: Ok good, i'm one step closer to breaking Ntsika's
marriage.
I smirk, she doesn't know Ntsoaki this one.
Ezile: You are so quiet today what is it?
Sindi: It must be the hormones.
Ezile: Oh I wish Langa chose me I could have snaked my way
into their home but it's cool you my friend is one step in.
I chuckle.
Ezile: Uh Sindi who's that?
Me: me, do yourself a favour and never step foot in this flat
again because you'll be dead in seconds.
Ezile: Si...sindi.
I drop the call and take out her sim card.
Later I drive to take Sfiso and Nadia from work. I step out
with Sindi.
I shoulder bump Nadia and try to hug Sfiso but he shakes his
head I nod and move away from him dissapointed.
Nadia: Yho man is that the little thing i'm supposed to
watch?
I nod my eyes are still on Sfiso he is not looking at me.
Nadia is pretty but acts like a boy wears like a boy and even
walk like a boy, she has a lot of piercings, her mouth, nose in
the eyebrow and she has small eyes she is a mixed-race, she
goes to gym too so she's a bit fit.
Sfiso: That is definitely her.
Nadia: Yow what's your deal why are you making faces at
me?
Sindi: Are you a girl or a boy?
Nadia: And how does that concern you?
She doesn't say anything back.
Nadia: So I already have my stuff and my gun.
She says lifting her tshirt and I see a gun and she has packs
even a v-line i'm impressed.
I look at Sindi she look so scared.
Me: Relax don't stress my kids, if you don't want her to hurt
you listen to everything she says.
She nods
Me: Now breathe.
She starts breathing, shame she is really terrified but she had
it coming when she threatened to kill our precious kids.
I drive us to the flat and we walk in, she will use the second
bedroom here.
Nadia: I could live here forever man, you said how many
months i'll be here Fisoh?
Sfiso: 6 months, she is three months pregnant.
Nadia: Wish my shorty was here man but 6 months is
nothing.
Sfiso: Ok we buy the grocery around here so feel free to eat
food killer.
Nadia: No I'm going to gain in my boobs.
I laugh so hard.
Nadia: That ain't funny it really happens.
Me:But I can hardly see those boobs.
Nadia: Don't be a pervet Langelihle.
Me: You're the one who started talking about boobs.
Nadia: Go away.
Sfiso: You could be twins she does look like you and has a
stinking attitude too.
Nadia|Me: What! So I have a stinking attitude?
We say at the same time, I squint my eyes looking at her, she
does the same.
Sfiso: Exactly what I meant, let's go home Langa unless you
want to stay here, you've proven you can live without me
before.
I stare at him.
Me: I thought you forgave me for leaving Sfiso.
Sfiso: I have, I was just saying.
I nod.
Me: Bye Nadia..
Nadia: Bye Langa, sure Fisoh.
We drive home freshen up then go eat with everybody.
Me: Where is Ntsoaki?
Ntsika: In our room, something is heavy on her she doesn't
know what is it so she is consulting.
Khosi: She should let everything uncover itself dad, she
needs her energy for the baby she is carrying, tell her to stop.
Ntsika get up and walk away, he comes back with a tired
Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Hello everyone.
Ziyanda: Hey, are you okay?
Ntsoaki: Just tired.
Ntsika: Uh so is it something bad?
Ntsoaki: No and i'm so relieved.
Ntsika: Ok babe take it easy okay.
Ntsoaki: Ok.
We eat then go our seperate rooms.
Me: I love you Sfiso.
He nods.
Me: And i'm sorry for everything man.
Sfiso: it's fine.
Me: Are we okay now.
He chuckles.
Sfiso: What I have seen about you is that you need tough love
in order for you to respect me, I should get angry before you
see the wrong things you do and I can't work like that give
me the respect I deserve Langelihle so we can work out, I
want our kids to look up to us but when you always run
away or we get angry at each other how will things work,
how are we going to raise them?
I look down, he is right.
Me: I hear you i'm sorry babe I will respect you from now on
just like you respect me.
Sfiso: I hope you mean it.
Me: I mean it.
I get up and step closer to him.
Me: I need a hug.
He pulls me to him and we hug each other tight.
Me: I love you.
Sfiso: I love you.
Me: Can I have you card?
Sfiso: What card?
Me: Your bank card.
Sfiso: Why, you finished the money in your card?
Me:Uhm sort off.
Sfiso: Why didn't you tell me Langa?
I shrug my shoulders, I'm lying I still have money, just need a
few thousands for his graduation party.
Sfiso: I will leave it here for you in the morning.
Me: Thank you.
Sfiso: Now come to bed and sleep on your safe place.
I smile and get ontop of him.
Me: You know I think I do have a feminine side in me even
though it doesn't show, right now I wish to be a stay at home
dad and raise our kids while you go to work.
He look at me.
Sfiso: You want that?
Me: Yeah but I know we both need to work, I will go to
college.
Sfiso: How about I grant you your wish you can take online
classes I will help you then you can stay at home.
Me: Really?
Sfiso: If that's what you want, I get paid good money and
now that I have my degree I can use that to get your dad to
double the amount, I will scam him.
We laugh.
Sfiso: I'm joking man they pay me a lot of money so you can
do whatever you need to do babe.
Me: So you won't stop working there?
Sfiso: No what I studied pay peanuts compared to what i'm
receiving as a head of Security.
Me: Ok.
Sfiso: So you will be a house husband?
I laugh.
Me: I will, maybe I will find something I like along the way.
Sfiso: We will have a nanny to help you around babe, you
can't stay with four kids on your own.
Me: Yeah but I want to be hands on on this and take care of
you too.
Sfiso: And I still want you to fetch me from work and have a
quick one at the office.
I chuckle and play with his beard.
Me: Thank you for what you have done for me Sfiso means a
lot to me to have a partner that loves me and do everything
for me.
Sfiso: It's all easy because I love you so much and your
happiness comes first.
I sleep on his chest while he keep brushing my head.
Me: I'm getting sleepy because of what you're doing.
He kiss my forehead and continue to brush my head.
Sfiso: Sleep baby.
I drift to sleep.
I wake up to him groaning and squeezing my butt.
Sfiso: Fuck.. babe i'm so horny.
He pull my legs and put them on his either side then put his
dick, he moves in and out holding my butt tight.
Sfiso: Fuck..
Me: Mmm.
He moves faster, I groan, he groans too and I feel him
shaking squeezing my ass tighter, he is cuming.
Sfiso: Shit..I missed having you sleep ontop of me that's why
my dick was up the whole night.
I chuckle and roll out of bed going to the bathroom I clean
myself up and look outside, it's morning already I go back to
him.
Sfiso: What are you doing today?
Me: Will just spend time with the wives and I will check on
Nadia.
Sfiso: Ok babe.
He go to the bathroom while I take out what he is going to
wear then finish up my sleep.
He shakes me a little.
Me: Mmm.
Sfiso: I left the card in your wallet babe, have a nice day I
love you.
I lift my head up, he kiss me and walk out.
I wake up when someone twist my ear.
Me: Ay fuck man!
I shout and I hear giggles, I sit up and find Ntsoaki and Miyah
grinning.
Me: Why are you acting like kids?
Miyalo: You look good.
Me: I always look good.
Miyalo: So this is the last day, tomorrow it's friday, here is
our plan.
I read it, stretch tent, white chairs, a red carpet, black and
white theme.
Me: This is good.
Miyalo: So we need to go to the shops now so we can buy
everything we need, his mom, aunt and uncles are coming
today but they will be staying at the lodge I don't trust Aunt
Zenzile she might tell him it's his suprise party tomorrow.
I laugh.
Me: Ok let me wake up then, thank you so much guys.
Ntsoaki: Is his graduation gown here?
Me: Yes he already have it here.
Ntsoaki: Ok we have to make sure it looks as good as how he
is going to look tomorrow, get him to wear a black suit and a
white shirt.
Me: That's easy.
Ntsoaki: Get ready then we will get ready too.
I make my self look and smell good then walk out.
I find the ladies in the lounge looking pretty but I frown as I
see very high shoes on their feet.
Me: Do you guys sometimes forget you're pregnant?what if
you trip and fall in those high heels?
Miyalo: I am a professional skiletto walker.
Ntsoaki: Me too.
I huff.
Me: Can't you just wear morning shoes, comfortable shoes.
Miyalo: These are more comfortable.
They nod looking at me, I bsush my forehead.
Me: Okay let's go then hold on to me, I don't want you to fall.
We walk out and get in the car, I drive to the mall.
We buy a lot of stuff and I withdraw money so we can go hire
a stretch tent. My phone rings.
Me: Hey babe.
Sfiso: Why do you need that money Langa?
Me: Want to buy something.
Sfiso: Doesn't have a name?
Me: Just go back to work I will let you know later.
They walk around and buy gifts for Sfiso, and I get him
another watch and a tie.
We go back home they will put on the tent tomorrow
morning and my aunts will do the decorations.
I drive to check on my in laws with food that was cooked by
mom for them.
I knock on their room and they let me in.
Zenzile: Langelihle, awumuhle!(you're so handsome!)
That's how she greets me.
Me: Ngiyabonga, ninjani.(thank you, how are you?)
Ma: Siyaphila ndodana..(we are fine son).
Me: Nginilethele ukudla obekuphekwe umah (I brought food
that was cooked by my mother) but you can order anything
here.
Zenzile: Thank you langelihle.
I think this woman just likes calling my name.
Zenzile: I still appreciate what your family did for me, you
helped me bury my son thank you.
Me: He was family, we had known him for years. Baphi
omalume?(where are the uncles?)
Zenzile: In the other room.
Me: Ok thank you guys for coming.
Ma: Thank you for what you're doing for my son.
I leave them and drive to a flat to check on Nadia and Sindi.
I walk in and find Nadia in the lounge alone wearing
sweatpants and a sports bra she has tattoos all over her
body.
Me: Nadia..
Nadia: Langa howzit man?
We fist bump and I sit opposite her.
Me: I have beers in my car if you want one, you look bored.
Nadia: I really need that beer princess in there is boring as
fuck busy giving me nasty looks.
I throw her the keys and she walk out. And I go check on
Sindi and find the door open she is sleeping in bed.
Me: Hello.
She sit up and look at me.
Me: Are you okay?
Sindi: No, you brought a woman or is it a man in here and I
can't even close the door of this room because she said she
doesn't trust me.
Me: Well you did this, you had your freedom and you blew it
by threatning to end the life of my babies.
Sindi: But I won't hurt them.
Me: Last time you had a knife pointed at your stomach so sis
I don't trust you and Nadia is not going anywhere get used to
having her around all the time neh.
I walk back in the room and find Nadia dishing up.
I sit on the counter and look at her.
Nadia: Stop staring at me.
Me: It's just that, there is something about you man..
Nadia: Don't try to hit on me Langa i'm into girls, ladies.
Me: And i'm married, this is not even about that you're
foward.
Nadia: You're ugly I wouldn't go for you even if I was into
men.
Me: Liar, i'm hot I'm sure i'm making you second guess being
a lesbian.
Nadia: You know what I changed ny mind I won't dish up for
you anymore.
Me: But I..
Nadia: Shhh..
I close my mouth, she dish up for three and walk away.
Nadia: Hey Sofia come and eat.
She shouts at Sindi, I burst into laughter this girl is crazy.
We sit down and eat.
Nadia: You really need to stop judging me with your eyes I
will hang you upside down.
She says looking at Sindi.
Sindi: I don't understand why you have to act like a man,
Langa is gay but he is not acting like a woman.
Nadia: Let me educate you a little, in life there is something
called choices, repeat after me Choices, which means you
choose what you want to be, how you want to be and where
you want to be that's why you made your choice of being a
human incubator and I chose to be who I am, a guard to a
psychopath like you.
She is angry turning pink.
Nadia: So say something about the way I am again I will slice
off that mouth.
Sindi keeps quiet looking down. I chuckle.
Me: You're rude!
Nadia: I don't like her but she needs to respect me i'm too
cute for this shit.
Oh God!
Nadia: I am cute looking like ice cream.
Me: Wow..
She drinks her beer while she talks non-stop, i'm just looking
at the way she talks..
Nadia: You keep staring at me.
Me: You look like...
My phone rings and I take it out it's my husband.
Sfiso: Come home phela I miss you.
Me: You're already home?
Sfiso: It's been an hour since I arrived, it's 7 O'clock now
we're about to eat dinner.
Me: Oh i'm so sorry I lost track of time listening to Nadia.
Sfiso: She can talk all day just like someone I know.
I chuckle.
Me: I know you not talking about me.
Sfiso: Woza kmina Langelihle. (come to me Langelihle)
I get up.
Me: I have to go, my husband is calling.
Nadia: I figured, let me walk you out, hey princess Sofia go to
bed.
She says to Sindi who is sleeping on the couch.
We walk out and she goes back to her room and I drive
home, tomorrow is a big day I hope he will love it and
forgive me for making him miss the graduation ceremony.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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We are still in bed with my husband kissing and all touchy,
looks like he doesn't want to go to work but he have to so we
can work on his suprise party.
Me: Get up babe you're going to be late.
Sfiso: How about I skip work today.
He says taking my leg and putting it on his waist and kiss me.
Me: No, get up you need to go to work.
He look at me.
Sfiso: What is it Langa, you used to love it when I skip work
to be with you but today you are pushing me to go what's up,
are you doing something I won't like?
Me: No..no i'm not doing anything babe come on.
We hear a knock on the door, I get up and open the door.
Miyalo: The tent people are here Langa..
She whispers.
Miyalo: Uhm today I want you to take me to a doctor.
She shouts for Sfiso to hear.
Me: Sfiso doesn't want to go to work so i'm spending time
with him.
Sfiso: Oh no it's okay, i'm going to work babe.
I wink at her then go back to Sfiso, I take out his black suit
and white shirt, he comes out of the bathroom and kiss me
as i'm now sitting in bed.
Sfiso: Are you visiting Nadia today?
Me: I'm not sure but i'll call and tell you.
Sfiso: Oky, I have to go now.
Me: Let me walk you out.
I take his bag and I walk him to the car and kiss him.
Me: Have a great day.
Sfiso: You too babe.
He drives out and I walk back in.
Miyalo: Hey I told the tent people to wait a little till he go to
work, they are parking behind the house.
Me: Oh you can give them the go ahead so aunt Mbali can
start with the decorations.
They start moving around the house taking everything they
are going to need outside to setting up the tables.
Around four I drive to get my in-laws and drop them at
home then go to Nadia i find her in black chino pants and a
white shirt she rolled it up to her elbows and the tattoos on
her arms are visible, she looks good.
Me: Where is Sindi?is she ready.
Nadia: I think so.
Now if we invite Nadia we have to take Sindi as well because
we don't trust her.
Me: You look good.
There is just a weird feeling I get when i'm around her I
don't know know how to explain it but no it's not a sexual
feeling or anything like that.
Sindi comes out wearing a short black dress she is beautiful
her bump is still little.
Me: Right, let's go.
We get in the car and I drive home, the yard is full of people
wearing black and white and it's beautiful man I'm glad they
listened when we say it's a black and white theme.
Ntsoaki: Hurry up dad called and said they are about to
knock off, everyone get in the tent that side please.
She is wearing her beautiful white dress with those heels
and wearing her own graduation gown she look pretty, mom
as well is wearing hers and some of the guest. I go and wear
my black suit, a white and black tie then go back to everyone.
We all get in the tent then we hear cars pulling up in the
front yard.
Miyalo: Ok we will all shout Suprise at the same time okay.
We all agree, I see him walking towards the tent with my
uncles and dad behind him.
Everyone shout "suprise" and i'm looking at his reaction he
look at dad.
Sfiso: What is going on whos suprise is it?
Dad laughs and they leave him standing there.
I go to him and take his hand going in the tent with him.
Sfiso: What the hell is happening?
Mom comes and help him wear his gown and a hat, he look
so shocked his mouth is hung open right now.
He look at me.
Sfiso: This is for me?
Me: Yes.
Sfiso: what, how? I mean...wow thank you so much.
Me: This is your day baby making up for the one I ruined.
Sfiso: This means so much to me.
We sit down and his mom starts a song and come stand in
front of everyone.
Sfiso: Mom is here?
Me: Your family is here, look over there.
I point at Zenzile and his uncles.
Ma: Hello everyone, I am Sfiso's mom I would like to
welcome all of you to my son's graduation party that was
planned by his husband Langelihle, he asked me to pray for
this special day, let's pray.
We bow our hands as she starts praying I feel Sfiso's hand on
mine, I smile to myself I love this guy.
She finally says amen.
Ma: It wasn't easy for him to finish his studies, he had to
juggle both work and studying because he couldn't afford to
pay his fees, feed our family and raise his..his late daughter
but he did it and today we are congratulating him for making
it this far, i'm proud of you son may God continue to grant
you more blessings, thank you.
We clap hands and I look at Sfiso, he is wiping his eyes.
Me: You made it.
Now it's time for him to say his speech he get up and pull me
up too, I stand next to him.
Sfiso: Thank you all for coming to celebrate this achievement
with me, people close to me know how much this means to
me, when I started I wanted to do it for my mom, my family
and my daughter but along the way I almost didn't finish
because I had lost that job that helped to be able to pay the
fees, but someone believed in me, he found a job for me so I
can be able to finish since it was my final year, he wanted to
see my dreams come true even though my daughter had died
but he kept pushing me to do it for her even when she wasn't
with us anymore, that person is right here next to me,
Langelihle Langa my husband he made all this possible, I am
here today in this gown because of him, so this is for you
Langa, this is for our kids this for my mom, this is for our
family..Thank you Gumede, Phakathwayo for allowing me to
marry your son, maLukhele for raising him thank you so
much all of you..
He takes his glass and raise it up and everyone raise it.
Sfiso: To Langelihle and Sfiswesihle Langa.
Guests: To langelihle and Sfiswesihle Langa.
They raise their glasses then clap their hands cheering.
He kiss me so passionately and look at me.
Sfiso: Thank you so much.
Me: You deserve it.
Sfiso: You sure can keep a secret man haa you know I knew
something was up but this was the last thing on my mind.
We stop talking when Aunt Zenzile get up with a song and
comes foward.
Zenzile: Thank you for this opportunity you have given me.
Miyalo look at me I laugh shaking my head, she gave this
opportunity herself.
Zenzile: I just want to say thank you to these children for
holding each other's hands for encouraging each other for
good, yey I'm proud it wasn't easy raising Sfiso we had to
take turns with my sister to go work as maids so we can
provide for him, he is a special boy and i'm happy he found a
light man who has his best interest at heart, thank you.
She just had to point out that i'm light but beautiful words
man.
I stand up and clear my throat, they look at me.
Me: Thank you all for coming I know it was short notice I
only gave you a week to prepare for this day but you guys
look amazing, so let's move to that side and eat i'm sure
you've been asking yourself if you'll ever gonna eat in here.
They laugh, we go to the two set tables and sit down, my
family and Sfiso's family are sitting opposite us and i'm
sitting next to Sfiso and there is Nadia on the other side, my
brothers and their wives, everyone else is at another table,
we have waters serving us food.
I feel a shoulder nudging me I look at her.
Nadia: Your mom is giving me weird stare do you think she
has a crush on me?
I laugh out loud and everyone looks at me.
Me: I'm sorry I just heard a very funny joke.
Nadia: I'm serious look at her.
I look up and find mom staring at Nadia like she is confused
by something.
We carry on eating then everyone give Sfiso his gift and he
can't thank them enough.
They call it a night and go their seperate ways.
Me: Nadia help us carry the gifts you guys will sleep here
today I will take you back tomorrow.
Nadia: Wow I will sleep in this huge house fascinating.
I laugh we carry the presents inside and go sit in the lounge.
Ziyanda: So Sindi how are you Sisi?
Sindi: I'm fine ma'am.
Ziyanda: How is the pregnancy so far?
Sindi: I'm still fine.
She nods.
Ntsoaki: Your friend is playing with fire and she will get
burned.
She says staring at Sindi who shifts uncomfortable and look
at me, i'm sure she thinks I told her but I haven't.
Ntsika:What are you talking about babe.
Me: Her friend is Ezile she was trying to plot a revenge on
you.
Ntsika: Ezile?
I laugh, so he doesn't remember her, I know he really doesn't
remember her because Ntsika doesn't lie, he can't lie to save
his life and when he tries it's a disaster you can easily tell he
is lying because he stutters so bad.
Me: the first girl you asked out in Johannesburg, how old are
you dude?
How can he seriously forget his first girfriend.
Ntsika: Ooh that Ezile, She is in Durban?
Me: Yes she once auditioned to be our surrogate.
Nadia: Auditioned Langelihle?
Me: That's what I said.
Nadia: You're stupid.
Me: Just like you neh?
Nadia: You ar..
Sfiso: Hey hey stop it you two, we can't listen to you the
whole night.
Ziyanda: Nadia where is home?
Nadia: I used to stay in Port Shepstone but I moved here
years back.
Ziyanda: Oh uhm sorry to ask you questions, who is your
mom?
Nadia clears her throat.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry if i'm making you uncomfortable forget I
asked.
Nadia: I don't know my mom, grew up staying with my foster
parents.
Ziyanda: Oh ok uhm ok then, sorry about your mom.
Nadia: It's all good i'm sure she is not a good person after all
because the way she got rid of me man..
Me: How did she leave you?
Nadia: At my grandma's doorstep, she told me she left me
when I was just an infant at her doorstep that was before she
died and I was 5 years then so I was taken to a foster home.
Me: Oh..
Our stories are similar, I kind of relate to what she is saying.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry to open up old wounds.
Nadia: aah it's okay i'm a tough cookie I raised myself ever
since I was 10 years because my foster parents were fed up
with me.
Ziyanda: So your grandma told you, your mom's name?
Nadia: I'd rather not say it, talking about her makes me
really sad.
Ziyanda: Ok i'm sorry.
Nadia: Why are you asking all these questions ma'am?
Ziyanda: uhm Ntsika can you go to my room and get our
family album please.
Ntsika walks away and comes back with an album. Mom
page through it and stop at a certain page and look at it.
Ziyanda: Are you able to tell if someone looks like you?
Nadia: I think so.
Ziyanda: Come here..
Nadia get up and go closer to mom.
Ziyanda: Look at this picture.
She points at the album.
Nadia: Who is that? Looks like Langelihle.
Ziyanda: That's him, he was younger and didn't have a beard
then that's why he looks different now.
Nadia: Uhm I.. I think he does look like me in this picture.
I get up and look at the album I had a lot of hair maybe I was
14 years, I look at Nadia she really does look like me without
a beard.
Ziyanda: Ever heard of the name Layla?
She moves away from mom and sit down, I sit down too.
Nadia: Grandma told me my mother's name is Layla.
Me: What?
Everyone look at me.
Nadia: You know her?
Ziyanda: She is my half sister and Langelihle's biological
mother.
Nadia look at me and I'm staring back at her.
Nadia: Maybe it's a different Layla.
Me: Layla Reigns?
She get up and walk out.
Ziyanda: Is it possible that Layla was pregnant with twins?
We all look at her and she looks like she is asking herself that
question.
I get up and go look for Nadia, I find her sitting on th
e chair in a tent,the lights are on, I sit next to her, we are
silent for a while.
Me: Are you okay?
Nadia: Yeah i'm good.
Silence.
Nadia: Do you know her?
Me: She left me on my Grandma's doorstep when I was an
infant.
She look at me.
Me: 17 years later I found her and she asked I give her a
chance then I went overseas to visit her but she had plans on
getting money using me, she kept me in a basement and let
her boyfriend torture me, days without food or water I
almost died.
I feel her hand on top of mine.
Me: She is dead.
Nadia: Hope she roast in hell.
I hear footsteps and we both turn it's Q.
Qhayiya: Bro dad is calling you inside, both of you.
Me: Ok little bro.
We get up and walk in and dad stands up looking at us and
Khosi stands next to him.
Khosi: Give her a name Gumede.
Dad steps closer to us and take Nadia's hand.
Luyolo: Landile-usapho (the family has grown) Gumede.
Nadia: What is going on?
Luyolo: I'm giving you a name Landile Gumede because you
are my late brother's daughter which makes me your father.
She look confused.
Me: How is she a Gumede?
Ntsoaki: You are twins.
Me|Nadia: Say what?
Nadia: Look man I just came here for a party I don't
understand all this, i'm leaving, Sfiso I will see you guys
tomorrow when you bring Princess Sofia back.
She walk out.
Me: What is happening?
Ntsoaki: You were never born alone your mom gave birth to
your sister and you, that's why I had a heavy feeling, you two
were together that day, you're the second set of twins from
your father.
I'm confused, Nadia is my sister, my twin sister?
Me: Oh wow.
Ziyanda: Go tell her to come back Langa she hasn't walked
out of the gate yet.
I walk out and find the gate already opening.
Me: Nadia.
She turns.
Me: Please come back inside I will take you back tomorrow
morning.
Nadia: I'm not looking for a family Langelihle i'm fine on my
own, I have always been fine by myself.
I can hear her voice is a bit shaky.
Me: But you don't have to be on your own anymore.
Nadia: No.. i'm leaving.
Me: Ok let me take you back now then, it's late you won't get
a local taxi this time.
Nadia: I will be fine.
She walk away, I walk back in.
Luyolo: Where is she Langelihle?
Me: She walked away dad she said she is not looking for a
family.
Dad take the car keys and walk out.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
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We have been sitting quietly on the lounge we are waiting
for dad to come back and tell us if Nadia is safe.
After an hour of sitting silently, we hear a main door opening
and Nadia walk in dad is behind her, I get up and go stand in
front of her, we stare at each other for a while not saying a
word, I see myself in her I feel our souls connecting, I feel
everything I feel when I look at my siblings.
I step closer and hug her tight, she doesn't hug me back for a
while then I feel her hands on my back and her body is
shaking,she is crying.
Me: I'm sorry.
I let go and wipe her tears she is an inch shorter than me, she
is still beautiful with that pink face.
My brothers get up and come to where we're standing.
Ntsika: Can we hug you too?
She nods a little.
Ntsika hugs her first then Nkanyezi
Dad wraps his arm around her they walk to the couch and sit
down. She has her hands on her face.
Ziyanda: Come here..
She get up and sit next to mom.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry for what I did, I shouldn't have ambushed
you like that, i'm so sorry.
I sit opposite them, Sindi is not here anymore I think she is
sleeping already.
Nadia: Can I go and sleep please..
Ziyanda: Yes of course, Langa will show you your room.
She nod, I get up she follows behind me and open a room
next to my room and we walk in.
Me: You will sleep here.
Nadia: Thank you.
I go to the door and turn to look at her, she is sitting in bed
looking down I go back and sit next to her.
Me: I'm sorry if this is too much for you, they didn't mean to
open up old wounds.
She nods.
Nadia: Wake up early tomorrow so you will take Sofia and I
back to the flat.
Me: Ok I will, ulale kahle.(sleep well)
I walk out and go take a shower Sfiso joins me and hug me
tight as water falls on our bodies.
Sfiso: Thank you for what you did for me today babe I
appreciate it a lot.
Me: I love you, I did half of that party with your money.
We laugh, I kiss him.
Me: I don't ever want to live without you.
Sfiso: I don't see myself without you.
I kiss him again pushing him to the wall he push me away a
little.
Sfiso: How do you feel about today's discovery?
Me: I am happy but sad at the same time, Layla wasn't
supposed to seperate us, at least if she left both of us with
mom she was going to raise us, I know she wasn't gonna take
one of us.
He pull me to him and I hold him tight.
Me: I hate Layla and right now I wish she was still alive I was
going to kill her myself.
Sfiso: It's okay baby i'm here for you okay, I'm here.
Me: I know and thank you.
We go to bed and I sleep on top of him.
Sfiso: I saw the watch again Langelihle.
Me: Don't shout at me please it wasn't expensive as the last
one.
We laugh.
Sfiso: I'm not like that anymore I appreciate every single
thing you do for me.
Me: Ok, please brush my head I want to fall asleep.
Sfiso: You are acting like a baby.
Me: Am I not your baby, you're 9 years older than me don't
you forget.
Sfiso: Yeah yeah but you love me anyway.
He brush my head and I fall asleep immediately.
I wake up in the morning when I hear a knock on the door,
Sfiso is snoring.
I get up and walk to the bathroom first then go open the
door, it's Nadia and Sindi.
Nadia: Hey we are ready to go.
Me: But Nadia it's not even 7 O'clock yet.
Nadia: You said you gonna take us back this morning and it's
morning already Langa.
Me: Please just..
Nadia: Langelihle tell me if you don't want to take us back
okay we will take the taxis.
She is angry and turning pink like mom when she is angry.
Me: I'm sorry let me get dressed then.
I walk back in and get dressed.
Sfiso:Morning love, where are you going?
Me: Nadia wants me to take them back to the flat.
Sfiso: You look sad.
Me: I was hoping she eats breakfast with us.
Sfiso: Give her time, she will come around this is
overwhelming for her.
Me: Ok, I will be back soon.
I find them waiting for me next to my car, we get in and I
drive them to the flat and walk them inside, Sindi walks
away and Nadia go to the fridge and take a can of beer and
gulp in down.
Me: Bye I will see you..
Nadia:sure.
She says not looking at me but just sipping on the beer.
I look at her once more and walk out and drive home.
I find the ladies busy making breakfast.
Ziyanda: Where are you coming from?
Me: I took Nadia back to the flat.
Ziyanda: So early.
Me: She wanted to leave, she was even shouting at me.
Ziyanda: Oh.
She look dissapointed.
I go take a proper bath and we go join the family for
breakfast.
Khosi: She is feeling sad too you know.
We look at him.
Khosi: She is sad you got seperated, she needs you, all of you.
I nod.
We continue to eat breakfast and change the clothes.
Sfiso: You're going somewhere?
Me: I booked an appointment with my therapist, normaly I
don't see her on weekends but I wanted to see her.
Sfiso: Can I come with you?
Me: Yes please.
Sfiso: Ok let me quickly change then.
He change his clothes then I drive to Pinetown where her
office is.
I knock and she shouts 'come in'.
Cornie: Mr Langa.
Me: Hey Miss Cornie this is my husband Sfiswesihle Langa.
Cornie: Nice meeting you Mr langa.
Sfiso nod and they shake hand and we sit down.
Cornie: So how do you feel after our last meeting?
Me: I was fine until her name came up again.
Cornie: We did say you should remind yourself that she
doesn't exist, let her go.
Me: It's not that easy, I keep seeing her laughing in my face
for being stupid and choosing to trust her after she left me
when I was a baby, I am stupid, how can I trust a woman
who left me on a doorstep.
I feel Sfiso taking my hand to his.
Cornie: She is the one who did you wrong all you did was
give her a chance and that's understandable you wanted to
know her personally, you had that maybe deep inside, that
maybe she has changed maybe she is sorry for what she did.
Me: I know.
Cornie: Don't carry the load of shame that isn't meant for
you Langa, this, the way you feel now blaming yourself for
other people's mistake is not it, this will eat you up your
entire life if you don't let go.
Me: I will let go.
Cornie: We will meet next week thursday okay, stop blaming
yourself...
Me: For someone else's wrong doings.
She smiles.
Cornie: Good.
We walk out and get in the car.
Sfiso: I'm proud of you for taking this step, admitting you
have a problem and working on fixing it.
Me: Thank you for coming with me.
Sfiso: I will always be there when you need me.
Me: Can we go check on Sindi and Nadia.
Sfiso: Yeah let's go.
He drives us there and walk in we find Nadia sleeping on the
couch.
Me: Hey.
She sit up and look at us.
Nadia: Hi.
Me: Where is Sofia?
She smiles and look at me.
Nadia: It's catching on right, you know she can't stand me,
she is in her room.
I nod and there is silence.
Sfiso: You know i'm not used to this.
Me: Mmm.
Sfiso: Seeing you and Nadia quiet it's so unusual.
Me: Finding out that we are that woman's children ruined
our friendship I guess.
I get up and check on Sindi but she is fast asleep, I go back to
the lounge.
Me: Sfiso let's go, bye Nadia.
Nadia: Sure.
She look away, that hurts me, we got along so well before all
this I wish we could go back. Sfiso walk out and I remain
standing by the door.
Me: Nadia.
Nadia: Mmm.
Me: Can we at least forget about what happened and go back
to how things were before we found about this thing please.
Nadia: I don't know..
Me: But I didn't do anything to you.
Nadia: I know that, look i'm tired I want to go to bed.
Me: Ok..
I walk out and find Sfiso already in the car.
Sfiso: Let's go home babe, everything will be fine okay.
I nod and wipe the tear that has come out of my eye, I don't
know man I want us to get along even if it's just a friendship
and not as a brother and a sister.
We drive back home and find mom, dad, Nkanyezi and
Ntsika on the lounge.
Me: Where are the wives they are the only people that can
lift up my mood right now, I need a good laugh.
Ntsika: We feel it too you know, your pain is our pain, your
heart is heavy Langelihle you want her to be here so you can
share your pain.
Me: She doesn't want anything to do with me.
Ziyanda: But you won't give up, we won't give up, she is one
of us she belongs right here with us.
Nkanyezi: "Mom is right, she is our family our blood."
Luyolo: But we don't need to rush her let her cool down first
this is too much for her.
Me: Ok we will give her some space.
*
It's been a week not talking to Nadia or going to their flat, we
are giving her time to digest this, I do call Sindi to find out
how my babies and Nadia are doing and they are fine.
I am alone in my room Sfiso just went to work, my phone
rings it's Nadia.
Me: Hi.
Nadia: Ungidubile Langelihle? (Did you give up on me
Langelihle).
She speaks her Zulu so fluently I thought maybe she doesn't
know it.
Me: Nadia angikudubanga bengikunika isikhathi.( I'm not
giving up on you, I was just giving you time.)
She drops the call and I get dressed and walk out.
I drive to her flat, she is sitting outside on a chair, I step out
of the car and walk closer to her.
Me: Hey.
She keeps her head down.
Me: I thought you needed time away from me, I thought you
didn't want me to be here for you.
Nadia: But I never said that, did I?
She sniffs.
Nadia: Are you going to be like everyone else and leave me
all alone.
I squat in front of her, she is crying.
Me: I will never do that to you I promise.
Nadia: People break promises all the time.
Me: I won't break this one believe me I won't, just let me be
there for you.
Ntsika: Let us be there for you.
I feel him touching my shoulder, he is here with Nkanyezi
and I look behind me their cars are parked outside the gate.
Ntsika: We are your family and we don't give up on each
other.
Nadia: But I don't know how to trust anymore they did me
wrong so many times..
I look down as my tears fall, seeing her cry like this touch me
deep inside, I can tell she has been through so much.
Luyolo: Landile..
I look at Nadia she smiles a little.
Nadia: Is that supposed to be my name?
Luyolo: Is is your name, as your father I gave it to you, now
get up and come here.
She get up, I get up too and turn, Mom is here too next to
dad.
Dad opens his arms and Nadia get in them, they hug.
Luyolo: You won't have to be alone anymore we are here, we
are your family.
Nadia: You all came here for me?
She ask while still on dad's chest.
Luyolo: We did and we are taking you home.
She move away from dad and look at mom.
Nadia: Do you want me to stay in your home too?
Mom nods with tears in her eyes.
Ziyanda: It is your home.
Nadia: What about Sofia?
Ziyanda: Who is Sofia?
They all look confused, I chuckle.
Nadia: Princess Sofia she is in there.
Me: She mean Sindi.
Ntsika: Why is she Sofia?
Nadia: She acts like she is special like she's a princess and
the only princess I know is Sofia.
Ntsika laughs hard.
Ziyanda: Uhm I don't know maybe you should call Sfiso
Langa and hear what he says about Sofia.
I laugh taking out my phone, his phone rings.
Sfiso: My love.
I smile and everyone look at me.
Ziyanda: Look at you blushing.
Sfiso: Wait am I on speaker?
Me: Yes.
Sfiso: Oh ok ithi ngibagcwalisele, unjani sthandwa sami?(
Ohk let me show off, how are you my love)
I laugh.
Ziyanda: I am here..
Sfiso: I can hear you but he is the love of my life man, ya'll
need to understand that.
Luyolo: WeSfiso...
Sfiso: Wee nobaba ulapho kanti? (Even dad is there too)talk
to me my love.
Ntsika: Kill me now..
Sfiso laughs so hard over the phone, man I'm in love okay.
Sfiso: Stop being jealous Pillar.
Me: Babe look uhm we are here with Nadia and we want to
take her home with us, so is it okay if we take Sofia as well?
They are busy laughing.
Sfiso: It's fine babe you can take Sofia with you I know if she
doesn't behave Miyalo is there she will sort her out pretty
fast and besides it's only 6months if the parents are okay
with it.
Me: Okay come home early today.
Sfiso: I'm thinking of knocking off now.
Luyolo: And I will be waiting at home to fire you.
Sfiso laughs.
Sfiso: I have to go babe okay I'll see you later.
Me: Ok I love you.
Dad snatch the phone away from me.
Me: Dad.
Luyolo: It's too much, we get it man let's get in and help
Landile and Sofia pack.
Nadia: You won't call me Nadia?
Luyolo: No I won't.
We laugh walking inside we find Sindi Sitting on the couch.
Me: Hey you are coming with us to stay at home.
Sindi: Why? Is she/he leaving?
Ziyanda: Why are you referring her as she/he, are you being
mean right now?
Sindi: Uhm no..no ma'am I was just playing.
Ziyanda: Ok.
We help them pack then we drive home, I help her put her
stuff in the closet, we are quiet then I walk out and find Sfiso
already home.
Me: I missed you.
Sfiso: You look better than this morning.
Me: Yes Nadia is willing to give us a chance i'm happy.
Sfiso: I love seeing a happy Langa.
We freshen up and we go eat dinner.
We introduce Nadia to Qhayiya, Iyana and the rest of the
kids.
Nadia: So basically this is a family of twins?
Luyolo: Looks like it, at least none of these twins is nasty like
Misokuhle.
Nadia: Who is Misokuhle?
Luyolo: Your dead father.
We laugh.
Luyolo: What is he alive?
Me: No just the way you said it man, it has so much power.
Nadia: So there are chances that I will also have twins?
Ntsika: It's possible.
She nods and look down on her plate.
Luyolo: So what happened to you I heard you say something
about raising yourself since you was 10 years of age.
Nadia: My grandmother, the one Layla left me with died
when I was 5 it was just the two of us, then a neighbour
called the child welfare and they took me to a foster home, I
stayed there for the whole year then they found foster
parents for me.
She takes a glass of water and drink up.
Nadia: I stayed with them and it was all good till I was nine,
they would buy me dresses and skirts I would tear them up
or throw them away because I only liked wearing pants
didn't feel comfortable wearing skirts at all and I told
"mother" about that I guess she told her husband because
one day he came into my room and asked where i've been
throwing the skirts they are buying for me, I showed him a
few that were under my bed, he told me to take off the pants
I was wearing and wear one of the skirts.
She huffs and look up.
Nadia: As I finished taking off the pants about to wear that
skirt he grabbed it from my hands and pushed me to bed
and..
She bite her bottom lip.
Nadia: He pinned me on that bed and told me that he was
about to show me that i'm not a boy but a girl with a vagina,
he will make me like wearing skirts..I was 9 couldn't do
anything to stop him..
Mom get up and walk away.
Nadia: When he was done he walked out after spitting on
me, I layed there waiting for the pain to cool off a little, I
dozed off and woke up in the morning, I felt paralyzed from
my waist down I couldn't really move.
Me: Nadia..
She smiles..
Nadia: I pushed myself to get out of that bed and collected
my birth certificate and my school report then I wore the
very same pants without even bathing, I used the window
and limped all the way to town where I became a street kid
because I met one of them there and asked where they
stayed from then I had to hustle for my next meal until I was
15 years I was a clean tomboy streetkid because now I was
cleaning myself up so that I can ask out any lady that has
money, trying my luck but it didn't work until I met this one
lady she was 28 years I asked her out and she laughed at me
but allowed me to go home with her, she was all cool but at
night she wanted us to sleep I had no idea what she was
talking about until she was naked forcing me to do some
crazy things to her, I stayed with her because there was
money, free food, a bed and a bathroom something I haven't
had for 6 years, one day she left a lot of money in her
bedroom it was in a bag I stole it and came here to Durban, I
found a shack where I was paying R400 a month then found
friends that gave me connections and I ended up selling
drugs for a nigerian drugdealer my life became a bit better
years later he died in a Xenophobic attack and it was back to
square one hustling stealing but a year back I was just taking
a walk and I saw a board written Lukhele Properties I didn't
understand what it meant but I just went in and found a guy
in a black suit he asked me who was I looking for and I said
him, he was confused I told him i'm looking for a job but I
only have a birth certificate on my name not even an ID, he
said he is hiring a team of securities that has certificates in
security and preferred men, I told him I don't have anything,
he said he will hire me on one condition that I push myself to
be better than those who have cerificates and I did, we
became friends and he recently told me to stop working and
go and guard Sofia and I agreed now i'm here.
I look at Sfiso.
Luyolo: You did good son, thank you.
He says looking at Sfiso, I take his hand.
Me: Thank you, you're a good man.
Luyolo: So are they still alive?
Nadia: Who?
Luyolo: Your foster parents?
Nadia: I don't know I walked away and never looked back.
Luyolo: mmm, let me go and check on my wife, goodnight.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
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I wake up and look next to me Sfiso is sleeping so peacefully,
I smile and get out of bed to freshen up then go back to bed
and get on top of him he open his eyes and smile.
Me: I love you so much.
I start grinding on him rubbing my dick on his, I do it until
we both cum. He hugs me tight.
Sfiso: I love you.
We go back to sleep after wiping ourselves, it was still early.
We wake up when it's time to eat, we take a quick shower
and walk out.
Me: Morning.
Ziyanda: Hey baby can you go call Nadia and Sindi.
I nod and turn, I start with Sindi then knock on Nadia's
bedroom but she doesn't reply, I walk in and find her still in
bed, I sit next to her and shake her.
Me: Nadia..
Nadia: Mmm.
Me:Wake up.
She sit up and her face is red and eyes are puffy. She is in her
sports bra and boxer shorts.
Me: It's time to eat breakfast.
She nod and go to the bathroom then comes back.
Nadia: Morning.
I smile.
Me: Why didn't you talk when you woke up?
Nadia: I hate morning breath.
Me: Me too, here at home everyone knows I don't say a word
in the morning without having a clean mouth.
She smiles.
Nadia: I guess that's the twin thing?
She says with a smile I shrug.
Nadia: Who do you think came out first between you and
me?
Me: Me, I look a bit older than you.
Nadia: But they say the oldest twin is the one who came out
last.
Me: Then whatever makes me old i'm it.
We smile, I see dad's smile and Iyana, she is really a Gumede.
Nadia: So is that the reason why you kept staring at me like
you want me?
I laugh.
Me: I saw something that looked familiar, you have dad's
smile just like my little siblings.
Nadia: Ok, do you like me?
Me: I did way before I knew we are twins and now I like you
more.
Nadia: Ok.
Me: You don't have to be sceptical about this i'm real and so
is our family we won't ever hurt you or leave you okay.
Nadia: Yeah I trust you.
Me: You do?
Nadia: Yes I do, I feel the connection and I do feel like I can
trust you.
Me: Thank you.
We hear a knock on the door, I look at Nadia.
Nadia: Say come in.
Me: This is your room.
The door opens and mom walk in.
Ziyanda: And why didn't you tell me to come in?
Me: She wanted me to say it but this is her room.
Nadia: It doesn't matter whos room it is we are both in here.
Me: You..
Ziyanda: Okay!hey Nadia.
Nadia: Hello Ma'am.
Mom smiles.
Ziyanda: Langa was supposed to call you for breakfast we
have been waiting for you.
Nadia: He didn't tell me, you know i'm so hungry yet he
keeps talking.
Ziyanda: I know he is hungry too now come on get up.
She walks out, Nadia wear her pants and a tshirt we walk
out.
Nadia: Morning.
We sit down next to each other.
Luyolo: how are you Landi?
Nadia: I'm okay sir.
Luyolo: Sir?
Nadia: Uhm dad?
She shrug her shoulders smiling.
Luyolo: Much better.
We eat breakfast and mom and Ntsoaki collect the dishes we
remain seated.
Iyana:Sis how many tattoos do you have?
Nadia: 345.
We all look at her she laughs a little.
Nadia: I'm joking they are only 22.
Luyolo: Wanna tie with dad huh?
Nadia: How many do you have?
Luyolo: I have 25.
We continue to talk about general stuff and dad clears his
throat we all look at him.
Luyolo: Landi do you mind telling me the names of your
foster parents?
She looks at dad then look down.
Nadia: It's Mr and Mrs Zindela, the husband's name was
Thokozani Zindela.
Luyolo: Okay, uhm Sfiso and you Langa I want you to come
with me we're going somewhere, Landile will you be okay
with your brothers here?
She look at Ntsika and Nkanyezi they smile looking at her.
Nadia: Yeah I will be fine if they they take me out when I get
hungry, I will take Sofia with me.
Ntsika: We will take you out Landile.
Nadia: Thank you.
We go and change then we get in the car and dad drive to
uncle Carl's house and stop in the yard.
Luyolo: Can you wait for me here for 15 to 30 minutes
maybe.
Me: Ok dad.
He walk in and I look at Sfiso and smile.
Sfiso: What is it?
Me: I just can't believe what you did for Nadia.
Sfiso: I too was hired as a junior head of security while I
knew nothing about it and I liked her to tell you the truth she
reminded me of you everytime, her bossy attitude the
talking non-stop and you laugh the same way but I thought
maybe it's just those features people have but i'm glad she is
your sister she was always alone when she wasn't with me
in my office.
Me: Thank you for being who you are babe.
After almost 45 minutes dad comes out of the house and get
in the car.
Luyolo: I'm sorry for taking so long, let's go.
He drives out and I see him taking an offramp that goes to
South Coast.
Me: Where are we going?
Luyolo: To Port Shepstone I have some important people I
have to fetch, China is driving behind me.
I look behind me and I see uncle China's black tinted car
behind us.
We drive for an hour and stop at a beautiful house.
Luyolo: We are here, let's go.
We step out of the car and he knock while uncle china pull
over, A black middle age woman open the door and smile.
Luyolo: Hi ma'am I don't know if we have the right address is
this the Zindela household?
I look at dad.
Luyolo: We are here to help you move you got the message
earlier today right.
MrsZindela: Yes we did I have always wanted to move to a
big city.
Luyolo: Is Thokozani here?
MrsZindela: Yes we are just finishing up packing thank you
for giving him this job sir.
Dad chuckles.
Luyolo: My pleasure, my boys will help you move your stuff
in that black car.
MrsZindela: Thank you come on in this way.
I look at dad, he nods and we walk in.
This Thokozani comes rushing in the lounge and I feel my
blood boiling, like my veins are being twisted.
Luyolo: Langa don't..
I breathe in and out a couple of times and I feel myself
calming down a bit.
He comes to dad and shake his hand I am disgusted he looks
older than dad even older than uncle Kwanele.
We start taking boxes to the car.
China: Is this it?
Me: Yeah..
Thokozani: Mr Khathi thank you so much I lost my job and
i'm glad my CV has reached to you.
Luyolo: Glad I could help.
Sfiso take the wheel and drive us back to Durban the
Zindela's are with uncle China.
Me: What are we going to do with them?
Luyolo: I will burn their clothes and we will take them to
Mlu's house then Ntsika will bring Nadia there, I want her to
find answers, I have seen this with your mom she sometimes
wish to speak one on one with the man that forced himself
on her and ask questions but he is gone now I want Nadia to
have that chance maybe she will find closure and peace.
Me: Ok and that man is old how can he do this he had a wife
for fucks sake.
Luyolo: That is what I want to find out and if he can't give me
a reasonable answer I will slice off his throat.
We get in Durban and drive to uncle mlu's house it's huge,
we walk in and find him eating meat, I rush to wash my
hands on the sink and join him he slap my hand.
Mlu: This is my food.
Me: Please I haven't ate anything in two hours.
Mlu: Ay ay ay Langelihle take it.
He gives me his plate and I start eating Sfiso is laughing.
Me: What?
Sfiso: You love food.
Minutes later Ntsika and Nkanyezi walk in with Nadia she is
wearing my white tshirt written Langelihle, she comes
straight to me and snatch the plate from my hands.
Me: Why are you wearing my tshirt?
Nadia: I saw you wearing it a week ago and I liked it.
Me: How did you find it?
Nadia: I looked for it in your room and wala here I am it suits
me huh.
Me: No, I was still eating that.
She shrug her shoulders, I snatch the plate away and she pull
it.
Luyolo: Just share the damn food please..
Nadia: But I can see he already ate half.
Me: Why didn't you guys take her out as promised.
Nkanyezi: "She just ate half chicken 5 minutes ago."
Me: What, and dad want me to share my food with someone
who ate half chicken.
Luyolo: Oh God Mlu take back your food.
We end up sharing it with her then we chill a little.
Nadia: Do you have a beer here?
Dad looks at her.
Nadia: That was a joke dad.
Luyolo: Good.
Nadia: Is he always this uptight?
She whispers and I nod laughing
Luyolo: I hope that conversation is not about me.
We laugh and continue to sit on the lounge until uncle China
walk in.
China: It's all good now.
Dad nods and look at Nadia.
Luyolo: come with me, all of you.
He takes Nadia's hand and we follow them to the backroom
and walk in.
We find this pervert tied on a chair next to his wife they have
ducktapes on their mouth.
I stand next to Nadia and dad, Nadia look confused.
Nadia: What is going on?
Dad removes the ducktapes, Nadia gasps and step back a
little.
Luyolo: Is this the man that violated you?
She starts breathing fast I hold her hand squeezing it.
MrsZindela: Nadia!?
The pervert look at his wife then back at Nadia, his eyes pop
out.
Nadia: You remember me mmm?
She ask with a slight smile on her face, her eyes are glassy.
Dad takes a chair and sit opposite them.
Thokozani: Who are you people, I thought this was all about
a job.
Luyolo: Well clearly it is not, now do you know her?
He points at Nadia who is shaking next to me I'm still holding
her hand.
MrsZindela: Yes..yes we do.
Luyolo: How do you know her?
MrsZindela: We were her foster parents.
Luyolo: Were?was there a time frame of when you were
going to stop being her foster parents?
MrsZindela: Till she became an Adult.
Dad nods.
Luyolo: And when last did you see her? Mr Zindela can you
answer that?
Thokozani: She was..she was 9 years.
Luyolo: Was she an adult then?
Thokozani: What is all this about?
Luyolo: Never make a mistake of asking me questions, We
ask questions around here.
Luyolo: Now tell me why did she leave your house?
Thokozani: How would we know?
Dad get up and we hear a loud clap and a wife screams.
Luyolo: I told you not to ask me questions..
He sit back down.
Luyolo: Why did she leave your house?
Now his voice is loud he sound really angry.
MrsZindela: We don't know she just took off we didn't know
until later that day.
Luyolo: There is no time for breakfast in your house?
MrsZindela: She wasn't in her room and we thought she was
visiting a neighbour's house.
Nadia: What neighbour? I never visited anyone in that
neighbourhood and you know it!
She shouts.
Nadia: You know what your husband did to me!
MrsZindela: No I don't know anything.
Thokozani: I didn't do anything to you Nadia, You are still a
liar like you was when you were 9 years old.
Nadia: What am I lying about?
Thokozani: That I did something to you, your demonic ways
made you run away, we were teaching you good values.
She chuckles.
Nadia: Values? On how to act like a girl? Forcing me to wear
skirts until you saw that you should just show me how much
of a girl I am, 9 years old.
Not even one tear has come out of her eyes but her voice is
shaky and her eyes are glassy.
Nadia: You were in the other room.
She points at MrsZindela.
Me: What?
Nadia: She was there when I screamed for help but she
didn't come to help me, she was home, I heard them talking
before her husband came into my room.
I look at this woman, she has tears in her eyes.
Me: Why are you crying?
MrsZindela: I wasn't there when it happened
Me: When what happened!?
She sobs and I shake my head.
Luyolo: So you let your husband rape a child?
Thokozani: That wasn't rape.
I am confused as hell by these people, maybe I am really
stupid.
Sfiso: What was it?
Thokozani: I told you I was teaching her good values, I paid
money for her to stay in my house to eat my food t..
I completely lose it I find myself punching the hell out of him
he fall down with a chair and I'm still hiting him with my left
fist.
Someone touch me I get up, it's Nadia, she just lay her head
on my chest, I'm breathing heavily as I wrap my arms
around her, she stays like that until i'm calm then she step
back and continue to hold my hand.
Mlu get this man up his right eye is nearly closing.
Nadia: You took me at a home so you could teach me good
values with your dirty penis?
No one answers.
Luyolo: Why did you take her from an orphanage?
MrsZindela: My husband wanted a daughter and I couldn't
fall pregnant.
Me: Why a daughter? Do you have a son?
MrsZindela: I don't have any child.
Luyolo: Who is Zilungile?
Thokozani: What do you want from us man..?
Luyolo: Answer my question.
MrsZindela: How..she was the first girl we adopted.
Luyolo: What happened to her?
MrsZindela: She was raped and killed.
Luyolo : By who?
The wife cries.
MrsZindela: I don't know.
Luyolo: Oh but I think you know, why would you do
something like this? How do you live with a rapist, why are
you protecting an animal, you know your husband raped
that girl but you helped him cover it right, you knew he
raped Nadia but you did nothing, your man is a paedophile
and you seem okay with it, how does your mind work?
Nadia: So you thought I was going to die as well after your
husband finished sleeping with me?
MrsZindela: No..
Nadia: Why did you let him do it?
MrsZindela: He didn't mean it..
Ntsika: Wow..I have heard of women protecting abusers but
this is..this is.. yhoo!
Nkanyezi is too calm and that is not a good sign for them.
Nadia: He didn't mean it?why did you let him come into my
room alone what did he say he was going to do there?
MrsZindela: He just wanted to talk to you about your bad
behavior of throwing away clothes.
Me: And when you heard her scream for help?
MrsZindela: I thought he was disciplining her.
Nkanyezi moves and stand in front of us.
Nkanyezi: "I am over these people now dad, what are we
doing about them?"
Luyolo: Nadia do you have anything more you want to say to
them.
Nadia: I hate the both of you and I hope you burn in hell.
Ntsika: Oh Sis how about we do the burning right here right
now in preparation for hell?
He is holding a 5litre bottle of Acid it has a small pipe.
Nadia: Even better.
Dad takes a clipper and squart in front of the husband.
Luyolo: I will just cut off your pinky toes, I would cut your
dick but I think it's too nasty I don't wanna see it.
Thokozani: Don't do this man, let's talk man to man.
Luyolo: No can do, she is my daughter and what you did to
her leaves a permanent scar in her soul, society doesn't need
man like you.
Dad start by wearing gloves and take off his shoes and socks
and start cutting a pinky toe from his left feet and blood
oozes from it like tap water, he screams and so is the wife.
MrsZindela: Please stop, stop!
Dad cut another pinky toe and get up, the paedophile is
shaking.
Nkanyezi: "How about I cut off her ears that didn't hear our
little sister scream for help, what do you say brother?"
Ntsika: Useless ears
Dad throws a bloody clipper to Nkanyezi who is also wearing
gloves, he cut the left ear first.
MrsZindela: Noo..please..please stop ..
He cut off the remaining ear then Ntsika comes close with
that Acid bottle with a pipe.
Ntsika: Can I start fumigating?
I chuckle and look at Nadia she is just staring at these people.
Nadia: Can I do it?
China: We have one extra bottle here female Langa.
He pass it to her, she stands in front of Thokozani.
Nadia: This is for every girl you raped out there, this is for
Zilungile and this is for me.
She starts pumping the acid and start on his feet while
Ntsika is doing it to the wife.
They do it until we see their skin fall off, Nadia throw the
bottle down and rush out.
Sfiso: Go to her..
I nod and rush out, I find her sitting on the floor sobbing I sit
next to her and brush her back.
Me: Let it all out sis, I am here okay, we are all here now.
She cries for a while then calm down and wipe her tears.
Me: Do you need water?
Nadia: Yes and food.
Me: But you just ate.
Nadia: Langelihle..
Me: Ok let's go inside and find something to eat before uncle
Mlu comes back and complain.
I get up and take her hand going inside the house.
I open the fridge and find roasted meat I warm it up then
take white bread.
Me: Here's beer drink it before dad comes in and see you.
She quickly open it and gulp it down in one go, I make juice
and we move to the couch and start eating until someone
clears their throat, we look at the door they are all here now.
Mlu: Why are you two stealing my food?
Nadia: We are hungry and I love meat Langelihle warmed it
up.
Me: Why are you throwing me under the bus?
Nadia: What bus, didn't you warm it up?
I give her a bored look.
China: How many times do you guys eat a day?
Nadia: I don't know but whenever food presents itself i'm
there..
Me: Me too.
Ntsika: They are really twins.
Nkanyezi: "But we never acted like them."
Ntsika: There is a normal set of twins and there is Langelihle
and Landile.
Nadia: What are we?
Ntsika: Abnormal twins of course.
Luyolo: Are you guys ready to go home?
Me: Yeah before we get killed for eating someone's food.
Mlu: I want my meat.
Me: We left a few pieces we didn't eat the whole thing.
Mlu: Just go, tell Ziyanda not to dish up for these two they
ate enough food to last them the whole week.
Luyolo: She might just give them more food you know how
she is with her kids. Thank you guys I'll see you.
We fist bump uncle Mlu and uncle china then go our seperate
ways.
We get home and hear noise inside.
Me: I wonder what is going on in there.
We all walk in and Nkanyezi and dad quickly go to the rooms
to change the t-shirts because they have blood then come
back, the noise is coming from the sitting room.
We find Miyah standing next to Ntsoaki and they are staring
at Sindi.
Me: What is going on?
Miyalo: We heard her talking on the phone with Ezile,
apparently she has a plan on seducing Nadia now.
Nadia: Seducing who now?
Miyalo: You.
Nadia: No offence Sofia but you're not my type.
Sfiso: Didn't we tell you to stop talking to that Ezile, you
want us to treat you like a real prisoner huh?
Sindi: No I'm sorry.
Sfiso: Stop acting like we forced you to be here Sindi, you
signed on that paper and agreed to be our surrogate and
you're not doing it for free, stop this shit or you might just
die after delivering those babies, do you hear me?
She nods.
Sfiso: Nxh..
Ntsoaki: Dad should we dish up for you now or later?
Luyolo: Now please except for Langa and Landile.
Me: You can dish up for us wifey but a little not too little
though.
Nadia: Yes please.
We sit down and find them staring at us.
Ntsika: Ya'll are Serious?
Me: I am and you Nadia.
Nadia: Very..
We all laugh as the wives dish up for all of us.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
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It's monday morning Sfiso is already up taking a shower, I
wake up and take out what he is going to wear, I know I
don't have to do this but I want to, I love taking care of him.
I go to the bathroom and he comes out and kiss me while I
have a toothpaste in my mouth.
Sfiso: Good morning.
I finish up and turn to look at him as he dries his hair that is
trimmed on the sides.
Me: You look handsome.
He smile.
Sfiso: You look good too and you smile a lot with Nadia
around.
Me: Yeah we have a lot in common even the swap of
sexualities of course I mean i'm into a guy and she is into
ladies.
We both laugh.
Sfiso: I didn't even think of that.
Me: I just thought about it now, I love you.
Sfiso: Come let me show you something.
I follow him to the bedroom, he take out his laptop and put it
in front of us, he clicks a couple of time and a sketch of a
house shows up.
Me: Uhm what is..
Sfiso: Shhh..
He clicks again and a beautiful house show up it is similar to
the sketch.
Me: Ok this is a beautiful house.
Sfiso: I sketched it.
Me: You did? Wow this is good, you're good babe.
Sfiso: I sketched it for us and our family.
Me: Babe?
Sfiso: This is our house babe it might take a while to finish it
but they will be starting soon.
Me: Uh Sfiso i..
Sfiso: Your dad said we can build it next to Kwanele's house.
I stare at him words won't come out.
Sfiso: Come here.
He hugs me tight.
Sfiso: Do you want me to change anything about it?
I still can't reply as i'm still hugging him.
Sfiso: Are you okay baby?
I pull away and nod, i'm just too emotional I have love from
my family but this, this is the first time I feel so much love
from a partner, Elena was in it for money the others were
one night stands.
Sfiso: Hey it's okay, come let's go back to bed.
Me: What...what about work?
I say looking down, he lift my chin up and smile.
Sfiso: I will go when you're all good.
He pull my hand and we get in bed.
Me: Thank you.
Sfiso: It's my pleasure babe this is for us, we've been through
so much.
Me: You are talented that is one amazing house you just
drew from scratch
Sfiso:Thanks, you have done so much for me, taking care of
me every single day I appreciate everything you do Langa
from taking out what i'm going to wear to hanging my
clothes making sure my socks don't mix up because I throw
them everywhere sometimes.
Me: Sometimes?
Sfiso: Ok everyday..
Me: I love doing it, to see you looking smart like now you
have to look smart and go to work.
Sfiso: You're good now?
Me: Yes i'm okay thank you for making me feel better.
Sfiso: You don't want me to make you feel even more better.
Me: What do you have in mind.
Sfiso: This..
He kiss my neck getting on top of me and we have a very
slow sensual round then we get up and he get dressed for
work I go back to bed.
I wake up when I hear someone whistling in my room.
I sit up and look around.
Me: What are you doing in my closet?
Nadia: Looking for something to wear.
Me: Nadia you have your own clothes mos.
Nadia: I know but I want to wear your clothes.
Me: Why?
Nadia: Because I want to look good just like you.
Me: And the whistling why were you whistling while i'm
sleeping.
She ignores me and carry on taking out my clothes they are a
mess.
Me: Nadia!
Nadia: This is a cool tshirt I love it.
She is holding a red tshirt.
Me: When are you bringing back the one you took before?
Nadia: It's mine now, I saw that you have another one black
in colour you can keep that one.
She whistle walking out, I wake up and go to the lounge,
Nadia walk in wearing her sweatpants and my t-shirt and
she is feeling herself.
Nadia: Hello dad, ma'am.
She says to mom and dad who just came out of their room.
Mom is looking at her like she's searching for something.
Ziyanda: Hi Landi.
Luyolo: We are going to home affairs to do an ID for you and
change the surname you're a Gumede.
Nadia: We are going now?
Luyolo: Yes.
Me: Can I come with?
Luyolo: Yes.
We go to home affairs they do what they went there to do
and it takes forever i'm just waiting for them in the car I
keep going inside and find them still busy.
After hours they finally walk out and dad drive us home.
Luyolo: What a slow service we had, God!
Ziyanda: I know right, we almost spent the whole day there.
Later we all sit together talking, my husband is back.
Nadia: Thank you for what you did for me today dad and you
ma'am.
Ziyanda: Nadia.
Nadia: Yes ma'am.
Ziyanda: You call Luyolo dad but you don't call me mom,
may I ask why?
Nadia looks down, I have heard her say ma'am too a lot of
times.
Ziyanda: Do you think I am like Layla just because she is my
half sister?
She doesn't reply.
Luyolo: Landile..
Nadia: Yes dad.
Luyolo: Your mom is talking to you.
Mom is getting upset.
Ziyanda: I'm not Layla.
Nadia: But you share the same blood, maybe you don't like
me you will choose to give my twin brother a better life then
throw me away to a poor home.
Me: Nadia..
Ziyanda: It's fine if that's what you think of me.
She get up and go to their room.
Nadia get up too and take a few steps to the door.
Luyolo: Sit your ass down Landile.
She continue to stand.
Luyolo: If you don't sit down this minute I might just slap the
crap out of you.
Me: Sit down..
I say in a low voice i'm scared for her you don't challenge
dad at all.
She continue to take a few steps, Dad chuckles and get up, he
turns her around.
Luyolo: Didn't I tell you to sit down?
Nadia: You did but..
Luyolo: There is a but?
Nadia: You can't..
Dad doesn't let her finish what she was about to say, a slap
shut her up immediately but she is still standing looking at
dad, I get up and push her to the couch forcing her to sit.
Me: Don't do that..
Nadia: Maybe I should go.
Me: Shut the fuck up before I slap you too.
Nadia: You wouldn't.
Me: You wanna bet?
She doesn't say anything back for a while.
Nadia: I want to go back to my place.
I slap her she get up and punch me, we throw fist at each
other a couple of times before dad and Nkanyezi pull us
apart.
Luyolo: You two follow me right now!
We follow him to the gym room and he lock the door and I
know shit is about to go down.
He unbuckle his belt and start hitting us, from Nadia to me
back and forth, I move and stand in front of her and dad hit
me one more time then step back looking at us.
Me: Ngiyaxolisa ngiyazi akumelanga silwe.( I'm sorry I know
we shouldn't fight.)
Luyolo: And you know that better Langelihle, you don't fight
your siblings.
Me: I'm sorry.
My arms hurt he was hitting them most.
Luyolo: Sit down, both of you.
We sit next to each other, I don't want to look at her right
now.
Luyolo: Landile you can't hate someone for what someone
else did, and you can't blame Ziyanda for Layla's doings, she
didn't know she was her sister she found out recently, they
were not best friends, they never were sister, Ziyanda grew
up alone, more or less like you, she didn't have a family
everyone turned against her, her mother was a monster who
was plotting and scheming against her, your father abused
her but she took care of your siblings. if she knew about you
she was going to love you just the same, she was violated
when she was in Grade 9, was tortured by your grandfather,
gave birth to the twins alone at home with no one holding
her hand, loved Langelihle like her own even when his father
was a monster to her, so don't you dare compare my wife to
a crazy lunatic that once fed Ntsika and Nkanyezi drugs
when they were just babies they landed in hospital you don't
know half of what that woman went through, so don't you
dare..
Nadia: I'm sorry..
Luyolo: Are you really?
Nadia: I am really sorry.
Luyolo: What are you going to do about that, right now she is
in her room crying because of what you said to her.
Nadia: I want to apologise.
Luyolo: Will you mean it?don't come any close to my wife if
you won't apologise sincerely.
Nadia: I didn't know her life is similar to mine and I judged
her unfairly comparing her to Layla.
Luyolo: Ok you can go.
She look at me and take my hand.
Nadia: Can you come with me please.
Me: Okay.
We walk out with dad behind us, we go to mom's room and
find her looking outside the window.
Nadia: Mom.
She slowly turn to face us.
Ziyanda: You called me mom?
Nadia: I'm sorry..
Nadia step closer to mom and hug her.
Nadia: I'm so sorry, please forgive me for what I said to you,
i'm sorry for hurting your feelings.
I'm just standing by the door looking at them.
They move to bed and sit down.
Nadia: I shouldn't have said what I said and judging you
based on what Layla did was unfair, you raised my brother
and I know now you would have raised me too.
Ziyanda: It's okay.
Nadia: No what I said is not okay I wish I can take it all back,
is it still okay if I call you mom?
Ziyanda: That would make me feel better.
Nadia: So you forgive me?
Ziyanda: I forgive you.
Nadia: Thank you mama ka Landi neh.
Ziyanda: Yes.
They hug one more time and I go sit down.
Ziyanda: So what happened to your faces.
Nadia: He hit me first.
Me: I told you to shut up but you didn't.
Nadia: You didn't have to hit me though.
Me: And you didn't have to hit me back.
Ziyanda: Okay I heard you, now listen to me okay, we don't
fight each other at all, never again right.
Nadia: Never again, he hit me too hard and he is left handed.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry.
Me: Don't be a baby you started this whole shi..
Ziyanda: Langelihle..
Me: Sorry Pink.
Nadia: Now can we all go back so mom can dish up for us I
think it's time for dinner.
Ziyanda: It's way past dinner and you already ate.
Nadia: Oh I forgot..
Me: You're hungry again you didn't forget anything.
Ziyanda: Are you not hungry Langa?
Me: Well I can eat a spoon or two.
She laughs, my beautiful mom with a good heart.
Ziyanda: Well let's go so mom can dish up for you.
We go back and find everyone still sitting in the lounge.
Ziyanda: Anyone else who is hungry?
Luyolo: Let me guess they want food again?
Mom laughs and go to the kitchen then come back with two
plates, one for me and one for Nadia and everyone laugh.
Me: Don't laugh that belt made me hungry.
Ziyanda: Your dad hit you?
Me: Yes he did.
Ziyanda: Luyolo..
Luyolo: They were being babies one of them even forgot he
is married.
Me: Yeah man she brings out the worst in me.
Nadia: And so do you.
I get up and go to the kitchen to wash my plate, Nadia comes
in and stand next to me.
Nadia: I'm sorry.
Me: Yeah I'm sorry too.
Nadia: And thank you, I saw what you did there when dad
was hitting us, you stood in front of me.
Me: That's what brothers do right.
Nadia: I guess it is, can I get a hug?
I smile.
Me: Of course.
We hug then go back to everyone.
Luyolo: Let's go to bed before people get hungry again.
Me: Don't make a joke out of our struggle.
Luyolo: Wanting to eat all the time is a struggle?
Nadia: It is, I want to stop but food keeps calling my name,
Nadia, Nadia come get me.
Ntsika: Can you hear it now?
Nadia: No it is still quiet for now.
He laughs out loud.
We go our seperate bedrooms, I take off my shirt.
Sfiso: Does it hurt?
Me: What?
Sfiso: Your bruises, the ones on your arms.
Me: Oh not much.
Sfiso: Sorry neh.
Me: Thank you.
We go to bed and sleep through the night.
We wake up to a knock and Sfiso open while I go to the
bathroom then come back.
Nadia: Sofia has an appointment at 9 and right now it's 8:24
am or did you reschedule?
Sfiso: No we overslept man, thank you.
Nadia: Can I come with you?
Sfiso: Yeah sure, thanks buddy.
Nadia: Can I get in?
Me: For what?
Nadia: Just for a little something.
Sfiso let her in and she go to the closet.
Me: No get out.
Nadia: Langelihle..
Me: Don't call my name at all.
Nadia: Please brother, please just one last tshirt I promise.
I huff.
Me: Ok fine.
Nadia: Best brother in the world man.
She go to the closet and take two tshirts.
Me: But you said one.
Nadia: But I like both of these tshirt, I just want to check
which one goes with my pants.
I sit in bed and sigh Sfiso is busy laughing in the bathroom.
Me: Uhlekani Sfiso!( Why are you laughing)
Sfiso: No baby i'm just thinking about something!
Me: Are you lying to me!
Sfiso: No..no.
Nadia: Oh he's definitely lying why the double Nos.
Me: Awuphume wena.(Get out)
Nadia: I'm out.
I go join Sfiso, we take a shower then drive to the hospital
with Sindi and Nadia.
We knock on Dr Ziyanda's office and walk in.
Ziyanda: Hello guys.
Nadia: Oh I didn't know we are seeing doctor mom I would
have brought you something to eat.
Sfiso: Not everyone eat all the time like you Nadia.
Nadia: I will get my brother to divorce you if you come for
me.
Sfiso: You can try..
Ziyanda: Ohk let's do this, Sindi here sis.
She gives her the gown she change and we go and look.
Ziyanda: There they are, my little grandchildren.
Nadia: How many months is that?
Ziyanda: 4 months baby.
Nadia: This is interesting they look like they have big heads I
have never seen anything like this close up.
Me: Shut up..
Sfiso: So are we seeing the gender today ma?
Ziyanda: Yes of course, let's see..those heartbeats are so loud
strong little beings.
She moves the wand.
Ziyanda: There is a boy, look at that.
They are moving around.
Ziyanda: Oh wow, grandma's little girls and a baby boy.
Me: Two girls and one boy?
Nadia: Amazing.
Me: I know right, what do you think baby.
Sfiso: I'm so happy baby these are wonderful news, our girls
and their brother, our family is complete.
Me: Yes it is, thank you mom.
We sit with her for a while then drive to town.
Me: You're so quiet Sindi do you want something meaty?
Sindi: Yes please.
Me: You can be polite if you want to.
Nadia: She mix being polite with a bit of attitude you should
see her face.
I turn to look behind me and Sindi is really looking angry.
Sindi: I regret doing this for you.
Me: We regret trusting you but too late just hold on for a few
months so you can get out of our lives.
Sindi: I can't wait.
Me: Me neither.
Sindi: Ungrateful spoilt brats.
Sfiso: I know she ain't calling me a brat.
Nadia: 5 months and you will release all that salt, that's if
you have a man.
Sindi: One of them should be sleeping with me I get horny
you know!
Ayike I give up.
Nadia: Do you smoke weed, like do you Zol?
Sindi: I don't know why you're talking to me I'm not here for
you.
Nadia: Baby girl I will remove that hideous weave with one
slap.
She shut up immediately, thank god, I was getting tired of
hearing her talk.
We walk in the restaurant and order.
Nadia: Wooah!
Me: What is it?
Nadia: Damn! Lord have mercy..
I look where her eyes are looking and I see a very beautiful
girl, short, slender walking in and sit on the table next to us.
Nadia: Now that's my type Sofia.
She points at the girl and she is looking her side.
Nadia: I am shooting my shot, uhm hello mind to join us?it's
all on me.
Me: And what about Zandy?
I whisper, that's a girlfriend she told me about a few days
back.
Nadia: Not now Langa.
Her: Sorry I'm meeting someone.
Nadia: A boyfriend or a friend?
Her: My boyfriend.
Nadia: Mind if we become friends?
Her: Uhm no dude I hardly know you.
Nadia: Then we will get to know each other, please tell me
your name and give me your number.
Her: I'm Unathi but I can't give you my number.
Nadia: And i'm Landile, please I promise I won't nag you.
She get up and stand in front of us.
Unathi: Give me your phone then.
She takes the phone for a while then she give it back to her
and go sit on the table as our food comes.
Sindi: That was terrible.
Nadia: Nobody asked for your opinion.
We start eating, a guy walk in and kiss Unathi's cheek I smirk
looking at Nadia.
Nadia: I'm more hotter than him.
Me: Yeah right.
Nadia: He even have a pot belly while she can just run her
hands on this six pack abs.
I laugh causing them to look at us, the dude look irritated.
We eat our food Sfiso pays and we walk out and we hear
someone shouting "hey"
We turn and look only to find the guy with that unathi.
Him: Boy/girl whatever why did you keep stealing glances at
my girlfriend?
We look at each other.
Him: I know you're confused about your sexuality but don't
try shit with my girl.
Nadia: Who is he talking to?
The dude come closer while Unathi continue to stand in the
same position she look terrified.
Him: I'm talking to you, got a problem with that?
Nadia look around then lift her tshirt up a little, I see a gun.
Nadia: Take a step closer..come on.
The dude stops and look at all of us.
Nadia: Were you saying something?
He clicks his tongue and take his girlfriend, they walk away
while we get in the car and drive home.
Me: That's one insecure dude out there.
Nadia: I know right, I could teach him a lesson or two.
Me: Nadia we don't start war sis but we finish it if it happens
to be there, so please don't start unnecessary drama.
Nadia: Ok I won't.
Me: Hope you won't use that girl's number.
She doesn't reply.
Me: I'm going to tell dad, go on keep on ignoring me.
Nadia: Ok I will delete it geez.
Me: Good.
We get home and find the twins and Khosi back from
daycare.
They come to us as soon as we step in.
Khosi: Hello uhm the twins and I have a question daddy
Langa, what do we call your sister is she mom or dad?
I burst in laughter, this is a mini Ntsika talk for the brothers
young man, blood or no blood, Sfiso is laughing his ass off
too.
Me: Answer him Nadia what do they call you mom or dad?
Nadia: You guys are too clever, you can call me aunt Landi I
don't mind.
Khosi: Cool, so aunt Landi can you play ball with us please.
Nadia: Yeah let's go play it now.
She walks out with them, I go and change my clothes then go
check on them I find them having fun with their aunt they
look happy busy laughing, I'm smiling, we would have had a
great childhood with our older brothers but we can make up
for that time we spent apart, we can still have fun we are not
that old yet, I join them and we all play together.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NADIA
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Saying i'm happy is an understatement right now, my life has
taken a huge turn and it's all good things, I never thought
that I will ever have a family, after running away from that
woman I stole money from I was always alone except when I
had to go sell drugs but still I didn't know those people
personally they were just my clients but now i'm here I have
a twin brother and I already feel the love from him and from
a family as a whole, I wish I found them sooner maybe in my
teenage years when I was still a troubled child but now is
still fine I still need the parents even though I never thought
of it before.
I'm sitting in the lounge alone it's still dark outside I just
couldn't sleep I struggle a lot sleeping in a closed room so I
sometimes stay up and sleep when it's morning, when I can
hear people moving around, I can't sleep with my room
opened they will think it's weird everyone close the doors of
their rooms even the kids, I take the phone and check the
time it's 4:45 am I huff I will go to bed around five at least I
will hear kids walking around getting ready for school, I
have been doing this ever since I came to stay here sitting in
the lounge because it's in between everyone, mom and dad's
room is on the other side and my brothers rooms are on the
other one, I feel safe like that I know you guys think i'm
weird but that's just how my life has been I sleep in the
morning that is why when I worked for Sfiso I took the night
shifts I feel more safer outside than in the house, I sleep
better when I hear different voices of people walking
around.
I hear a door opening I quickly get up and take a few steps in
the passage.
Luyolo: Landile.
I turn to face him.
Luyolo: Why are you up so early?
Me: I just wanted to drink some water.
He look at me for a while then nod.
I walk away then get in bed, I look outside the window the
sun is starting to set, I close my eyes and drift to sleep.
I wake up when I feel my stomach
hurts and I know that's hunger, I go to the bathroom and
take a shower, I wear my sports bra and my sweatpants then
a tshirt Langa's tshirt to be precise I have been stealing them
a lot, I like them and also love seeing him irritated by me.
I walk out and go to the kitchen I find breakfast already set
on the table but no one is here.
I sit down and wait for everyone to come on the table Dad
walk in first and my brothers's wives then Langa. Sfiso,
Ntsika, Nkanyezi and mom are not around I guess they went
to work then Ntsika went to campus.
We start eating, I find dad looking at me.
Luyolo: We are fetching your ID today Landile.
Me: Already? I thought it will take time.
Luyolo: You were lucky sometimes it delays.
Me: Thank you.
Luyolo: So can you drive?
Me: No not really, I didn't see a point of learning to drive I
didn't have an ID wasn't gonna be able to get a licence so the
car has always been the last thing on my mind.
He nods a little.
Luyolo: Then when you finish.breakfast go and get ready so
we can leave.
Me: Are you coming with us?
I look at Langa.
Langa: Yeah I will come with you.
Me: Thank you.
I love being around him, we just click I feel like he already
knows me, he take me as his little sister and I never had that,
I never had anyone protecting me like he did when dad was
beating the hell out of us him standing in front of me so dad
can't get to me that moved me I knew i'm safe around him
because I may seem tough on the outside but deep down I
always wanted someone who fights for me or with me
against anything someone who protects me and now I have
found him.
Langa: Hey!
He shouts I look at him.
Langa: You've been staring at me for a while now do you
have a crush on me?
Everyone at the table laugh.
Miyalo: What kind of question is that?
Langa: The kind of question she ask when someone stares at
her.
Me: Why are you lying?
Langa: Should I tell that you said that about mom before we
knew we are twins?
Dad laughs.
Luyolo: You thought my wife had a crush on you?
Me: I mean a girl can only dream man mom is beautiful and
she look way youngerthan you.
Luyolo: Are you saying I look old?
Me: Well no just older than mom.
Luyolo: I'm not that old she just doesn't age and it scares me
because small boys will take their chances.
Langa: The mighty Luyolo admits to be scared of something
well that's a first.
Luyolo: That is my wife man I love her to death from the first
day I saw her till now the journey continues.
Me: How did you two meet?
He chuckles.
Luyolo: I was meant to protect her from your father and his
twin brother but I fell hard.
The way he speaks about her you can tell he really loves her.
Me: Those twins were trouble huh?
Langa: You don't know anything even in death they still were
after mom.
Me: Sound dangerous.
Luyolo: It was, so we have to take you home so we can do a
ceremony for you.
Me: Oh.
I don't know anything about a ceremony I have no idea what
that is, I lived with a white grandma, the Zindela's that lived
like they are white, became a street kid to living with that
woman to being a loner so I don't know a lot of things but I
think I will learn a lot from my new family.
Langa: Dad can you tell your daughter to stop stealing my
tshirts.
Luyolo: You steal his tshirts Landi?
Me: How can I steal something and wear it in his face that's
not stealing.
Luyolo: Ok smarty pants but don't steal anymore of his
tshirts man come on now go and get ready.
I go to my room and wear my shoes we walk out and dad
drives to home affairs we collect my ID then go back to the
car.
Me: That was faster than the last time we were here.
Luyolo: Yeah collection is easier, so now we are opening a
bank account.
Me: Thank God, the trouble I was giving Sfiso when it was
pay day he had to go to the bank and pay me in cash.
Langa: What?
Me: Yeah man I don't know shit about banks even when he
told me he was going to do "cardless" whatever I told him I
don't want that.
Langa look down, they are silent I think they feel bad.
Me: But I don't think it's that hard using a bank I just didn't
like going there.
I say trying to make the situation better.
Luyolo: How far did you go in school?
I huff.
Luyolo: Sorry you don't have to answer that.
Me: Grade 4 that's standard 2.
Silence all the way to the mall, we step out of the car and go
to the bank, the process is easy and quick then dad take us to
the restaurant we order.
Me: Okay guys you don't have to feel sorry for me, I don't
like this silence.
They still don't say anything the food comes I get up.
Luyolo: Where are you going?
Me: I told you to stop feeling sorry for me dad but look at
you, you can't even look at me, both of you.
I walk out and lean on the car waiting for them.
They come out minutes later with paper bags and we get in
the car.
Me: Can you take me to mom?
Luyolo: Ok.
He drive us there and we walk in the hospital and find her
with someone.
Ziyanda: Hey guys just give me a minute.
We sit outside a little then a patient walk out and she call us
in.
Ziyanda: What's up you guys don't look too good what
happened?
Me: Dad asked how far did I go to school and I told him they
started giving sad eyes I told them not to feel sorry for me
but they continued even now, look at them.
She look at Langa and dad they are looking down.
Ziyanda: Why did you guys do that?Luyolo.
Luyolo: I just feel bad maybe if we asked Carl years ago to
look into Layla we would have found that she gave birth to
twins, we were gonna found out about Landi, she would
have had a better life.
Me: But that didn't happen dad we need to move on from
that, I don't like it if people feel sorry for me!
Mom walk around the table and take my hand pulling me
into a hug.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry okay, i'm sure they didn't mean to upset
you.
Me: But I told them to stop they didn't.
I say still in her arms she's brushing my back i'm too sad.
Ziyanda: You guys were wrong.
Luyolo: I'm sorry Landile.
We all sit down after i'm calm.
Langa: I'm sorry sis.
He looks really sad.
Luyolo: Let's go home so you could eat.
Me: I will go home later I'm staying behind you can go.
Luyolo: But Landile mom is working.
Me: Do you mind if I stay here.
She look at dad.
Ziyanda: No it's fine baby, you can stay here with me if I have
a patient you will just step out a little then come in again
okay.
Me: That's fine thank you, you can go.
They get up and walk out, Minutes later Langa walk in with a
paper bag and give it to me.
Langa: There is your food.
Me: Thank you.
He walk out and I start eating.
Ziyanda: Landile.
I look at her.
Ziyanda: We care about you, and we all wish things were
different, that Layla left you guys with me, I was young but I
was going to manage, I had my mom, Sis Yoli, my brothers,
Luyolo and dad you're still going to meet him, I was going to
do it all.
I look at her and it's only now I notice how much she does
look like me, she has so many faces because I saw that she
look a lot like her brothers when she is with them.
Me: I believe you.
Ziyanda: So don't be angry at your brother and dad okay.
Me: Ok.
Ziyanda: I'm glad you came to me, i'm so happy.
Me: I can feel that you really care about me.
Ziyanda: I do a lot.
I stay in her office the whole day she is a fun person to be
around and she laughs a lot too. We go home together later,
we get there when it's time for dinner.
Me: Sfiso where is Langa?
Sfiso: in our room he said he is not feeling well.
Me: Oh.
I walk to his room and knock once then walk in. I find him in
bed I sit next to him.
Me: Hey brother.
He sit up.
Langa: Hey.
Me: I heard you're not okay.
Langa: It's nothing serious I was just feeling a bit down.
Me: Nothing serious while you skipped dinner?
He smiles a little.
Me: I'm sorry if I made you feel this way.
Langa: I'm the one who is sorry, you know I didn't finish
school too but I was in matric.
Me: Why?
Langa: Well let's just say our dad and his twin brother
Possessed me to get to mom, Misokuhle was obsessed while
the other twin hated her.
Me: But who would hate that adorable woman?
He laughs.
Me: Let's go and eat i'm not angry anymore.
Langa: Thank you.
He get dressed then we join the family. Dad is just looking
down on his plate.
Me: Baba.(father)
He look at me.
Me: Ngiyaxolisa. (I'm sorry)
Luyolo: It's okay, i'm sorry too, on a weekend we are going
home for Landile's ceremony, Miyah are you still okay to
travel?
Miyalo: I think so dad I mean i'm still a month away.
Ziyanda: A month or less baby but your due date it later this
month but you may never know with these Gumede big
headed babies.
We all laugh, once we are done we go our seperate rooms i
guess nobody cares about a tv, I call that girl's number it
rings a couple of times then she answers.
Unathi: Hello.
Me: Hello how are you?
Unathi: Who am I speaking to?
Me: Landile the girl you met at a restaurant few days back.
Unathi: Thought my boyfriend made it clear that you should
stay away from me.
Me: And I showed him a gun he ran away.
Unathi: You..you have a gun.
She stutters.
Me: I do..
Unathi: Stay away from me..
Me: It's just a gun, Where do you stay can I visit you during
the day.
Unathi: No..I have classes tomorrow after 12 pm.
Me: Then I can visit you before 12.
She huffs.
Unathi: I don't know what's your story but ok i'll send the
address.
Me: Make sure your boyfriend isn't there because he will
start drama then I'll have no choice but to shoot him.
Unathi: What?
Me: Yeah..
Unathi: You are crazy I changed my mind I won't give you
that address.
Me: Can't say I'm joking about what I said but I'll go easy on
him then how is that.
Unathi: Mxm what do you want?
Me: I wanna be friends.
Unathi: Just friends?
Me: Just friends.
Unathi: Ok goodnight I'll send the address.
Me: Thank you.
I sleep facing up and the phone alerts a text message I read
the address and i'm familiar with Glenwood and it's not far
from here.
When it's all quiet, I go sit on the lounge and rest my head, I
might have dozed off because I feel a hand on my shoulder I
jump up.
Ntsika: Hey i'm sorry I didn't me to frighten you.
I breathe.
Me: No it's cool.
Ntsika: Why are you sleeping here?
I hear footsteps and dad walk in and look at us.
Luyolo: I thought I heard voices so it's you guys, why are you
here?
Ntsika: I came to fetch bottled water for my wife and I found
Landi sleeping here.
He look at me and i keep my eyes down.
Luyolo: What is going on, it's the third time I find you here,
the other day you didn't see me then last time you said
you're here to drink water early in the morning, have you
been sitting here every night ever since you came here?
Me: Yes.
Ntsika: But why? You don't like your room or you think Sindi
will run away.
Me: No, I'm just used to sleeping in the morning if there is no
noise around.
They look at each other.
Me: When the house is quiet I don't feel safe in a closed
bedroom it's better here because i am inbetween your
rooms.
They both sit down opposite me.
Ntsika: You have fear of being alone in a quiet and closed
bedroom?
Me: You can say that.
Luyolo: Is it because of what that man did to you?
Me: Yes.
Luyolo: But hearing people's voices makes you feel better?
Me: That way I know that there are people around me.
He wipe his face.
Luyolo: So you haven't been sleeping Landile?
Me: I do sleep when you all wake up and it's already
morning, it was better when I worked because I took only
night shifts and my place is in the township in the shacks
there are always drunkards around I knew they won't mess
with me, so hearing them made me feel better.
I am sure I sound like a weirdest human being ever.
Luyolo: I need to speak to your mother.
He get up and walk away.
Ntsika: Does sleeping with someone helps?
Me: If I trust them yes.
Ntsika: How about you go sleep in our little brother's room,
they share a room with Sage but there is a double bed there,
they use bunkbeds.
Me: I don't want to give kids the trouble, I will be fine.
Mom comes in followed by dad.
Ziyanda: Oh baby come here, your dad tells me what is going
on.
She sit next to me and squeeze me in a hug.
Ziyanda: If it's okay you can talk to someone.
Me: Those people you call therapists?
Ziyanda: Yes, Langa have one too.
Me: Ok so you think we can go together?
Ziyanda: If you want that.
Me: Maybe it will help.
Ziyanda: Uhm today you can come sleep with me, your dad
will sleep in the other room.
I laugh.
Me: Are you serious? i'm grown.
Ziyanda: Where?
Me: Well I can't say where but..
Ziyanda: Come on just for today, tomorrow we will see what
we can do, you need to sleep, sleeping is healthy your body
needs to rest.
Me: Yes Doctor, plus your bed is huge and comfortable I sure
will fall asleep immediately.
Ziyanda: Come, goodnight Piller.
Ntsika: Don't worry we had our days too when we slept in
their room as old we are, we can never be old to them.
I nod and we go to their room and she gives me the bed
cover and she get in bed.
I sleep next to her with my own bed cover.
Me: Do you think dad is okay with sleeping in a different
room?
Ziyanda: He is okay just worried about you we all want you
to be fine.
Me: Ok.
She brush my head a little.
Me: Whoa that makes me feel sleepy.
Ziyanda: That's what I used to do when Langelihle was
feeling restless he would fall asleep immediately.
She continues brushing my head and I can hear her talking
slowly..
I wake up when the bed moves I open my eyes and it's
morning mom is getting out of bed.
Ziyanda: Oh you're awake.
I nod, she look at me for a while then laugh.
Ziyanda: Oh wow so you don't talk too.
I shake my head, dad walks in.
Luyolo: Why are you laughing?
Ziyanda: Ask Landi.
Luyolo: How did you sleep?
I raise my thumb, they look at each other.
Luyolo: Oh now I get it, Langelihle, no matter how we tried
to make him talk before he goes to the bathroom he just
wouldn't talk.
I get out of bed and rush out leaving them laughing, I wave at
Ntsika and Langa who are in the lounge then get to the
bathroom and start brushing my teeth and take a shower
then wear my pants and a shirt tucking it in then take my
wallet and the phone. I sit on the table and we eat.
Ntsika: Are you okay?
Me: I haven't slept so peaceful in a long time, thank you
mom.
Langa: You slept in mom's room?
Me: Yes.
Langa: Is everything okay?
Ziyanda: You need to go with her to your therapist.
Langa: Ok, Are you going somewhere now?
Me: yes but i'll be back soon.
I finish up them rush out, I take a taxi and it drops me off by
the garage I call her and she tell me she can see me I should
wait for her a little, she comes out of the garage holding a
plastic bag.
I hug her.
Unathi: You know I saw you getting off the taxi.
Me: How did you know it's me you only saw me once?
Unathi: You're different, come.
She lives just opposite the garage, we get in her room which
has a bed and a couch, it's small but beautiful then a corner
that leads to a kitchen I guess.
Me: You live with someone?
Unathi: No.
Me: Mmm.
Unathi: Can I make you coffee?
Me: No, i'm still good.
Unathi: So I saw the couple you was with Langa and Sfiso
you are related to them?
Me: Langa is my twin brother, how do you know them?
Unathi: Uh they are like the famous homosexual couple
around.
Me: Ok you don't want us to be like them?
Unathi: No I told you I have a boyfriend.
Me: Mmm.
Unathi: So do you have your "gun" with you?
She laughs maybe she thought I was joking, I always carry
the gun around I started from when I was selling drugs.
I get up and lift my t-shirt up she gasps.
Me: It's a toy don't worry.
Unathi: That doesn't look like a toy.
Me: It's not I was just kidding.
Unathi: You are weird.
Me: I know, can I kiss you?
Unathi: What?
Me: A kiss.
I step closer to her, she step back.
Me: Come on it will be just friends kissing nothing much.
Unathi: That is no different from cheating.
Me: You love him?
Unathi: Yes.
Me: I see, but are you scared of him?
Unathi: No i'm not.
I nod and step closer she doesn't move, I hold her waist.
Me: Just don't take it serious it's just a kiss right.
She nod a little, I think she is getting curious.
She freeze as soon as our lips touch.
Me: Relax a bit.
I start kissing her slow and surprisingly she kiss me back, we
kiss for a while then I step back and we sit in bed, I continue
to kiss and now it's getting heated, I push her to bed causing
her thighs to be explosed because her short dress rolled up,
I get ontop of her and start kissing her neck while my hand
moves up and down her smooth thigh.
I move her dress a bit down and her boobs are out I start
sucking on them.
Unathi: Haa..what..
She moans as I kneel taking off her panty, then grab both her
butt cheeks lifting her waist up a bit then bury my head in
her thighs, I start by kissing her inner thighs then go in for a
kill, sucking her clit and licking that shaved pussy until it is
wet I move my hand and start inserting my middle finger
then pull it out.
Unathi: Fuck..
I continue to do that for a while then start moving it inside
her trying to find her Gspot I hear her scream when I touch a
certain spot, I focus there still licking her clit, I feel her body
shaking some fluids come out, I balance my hands on the bed
and look at her.
She push me and sit up.
Unathi: Uhm you need to go.
Me: Now?
Unathi: Yes!
Me: Why?
She get out of bed and fix her dress looking around.
Me: Looking for this?
I show her the panty, she snatch it from my hands and
quickly wear it.
Unathi: I didn't think it would come to that.
Me: But it did and you enjoyed it.
She is panicking I'm just looking at her amused.
Unathi: Come on get up and delete my number, please don't
call me again.
Me: Is that what you want?
Unathi: Yes.
Me: Ok.
I get up and fix myself a little.
She walk out first and I follow her.
Unathi: Uhm you can wait for a taxi there.
She shows me two flats away.
Me: And why not here?
Unathi: Just go.
I chuckle then leave her standing there, then stop to take a
taxi I see her potbelly boyfriend stepping out of the car and
they hug I shake my head laughing and now he is about to
date a girl who will be just as "confused" as I am about her
sexuality.
I get home and walk in, I find Langa in the lounge.
Me: Hey bro.
Langa: You came back early.
Me: And i'm hungry.
Langa: Let's go out so you can tell me where you went
because I smelled trouble the minute you stepped in this
room.
I laugh.
Me: Let's go brother.
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
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NADIA
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We are walking around the mall just doing window shopping
with my twin brother, it's still weird for me to call someone a
brother and there is mom and dad it's overwhelming.
We started by eating,he tried to get me to talk but I haven't
told him anything.
Langa: Are you ready to tell me where you went?
Me: I don't have to tell you shit.
Langa: Don't talk to me like that.
Me: Hey you're my twin brother not older not younger so
don't tell me what to do.
Langa: You want us to do this right now?
Me: You wouldn't dare, dad told us not to fight but you can
hit me and I will let you so I can run and tell him.
Langa: I don't even know why I suggested going out with
you.
Me: Can't turn back now.
He stops and I turn to look at him he is just standing there
looking at me.
Me: Ok I went to visit Unathi.
He steps closer.
Langa: Which Unathi?
Me: The girl we met the other da..
Langa: But I thought I told you to leave her alone Nadia.
Me: But I didn't.
He walk away and I follow behind him to his car.
Me: Why are you angry?
Langa: I don't want you to get in trouble.
Me: I won't I promise and it's over with that girl.
Langa: Serious?
Me: Yeah she threw me out of her flat after I gave her a good
time.
Langa: Hope no one gets pregnant..
We laugh out loud causing people at the parking lot to turn
and look at us.
Me: My finger and my tongue doesn't have sperms bro.
Langa: Ok too much info, I don't wanna hear it.
I laugh.
Langa: Just don't get into trouble please.
I nod, as we're about to get in the car someone pass next to
me, I stare at her as she walk inside the mall.
Langa: Are you okay?
Me: I think I saw someone familiar but maybe i'm just
paranoid.
Langa: Who do you think it was?
Me: The lady I stole money from but she is based in Port
Shepstone and that was a lot of money bro.
Langa: You think she is dangerous?
Me: I know she is, no one can keep that kind of money in the
house it was a huge sum mfethu but I only took a few
thousands.
Langa: Ok but if she is after you she will find you.
Me: Why would you say that?
Langa: Media sis, if they find out about you being our sibling,
your picture will be out there.
Me: Fuck.
Langa: Let's go.
Me: But maybe that's not her I mean why would she come
after me for a few thousands of that lump sum.
Langa: Let's hope it's not her.
I'm not panicking as yet I mean who would come after a
person for 20 000 while they have millions.
We get home and find dad tickling mom on the couch.
We clear our throat at the same time they look at us.
Luyolo: Oh where did you guys go?
Me: To the mall.
My big brothers walk in I can't get over how much they look
like the young ones, it's like two people born all over again.
Luyolo: I'm glad you are all here sit down.
We sit down and look at him.
Luyolo: I want one of you to teach Landile to drive.
They nod.
Luyolo: So who do you prefer Landi?
Me: Well since i'm not that smart I capitalise more on
praticals and less talking I think brother Nkanyezi can teach
me.
Ziyanda: Don't say that about yourself Landi you are smart.
I shrug maybe I am street smart but not book smart I don't
know I haven't had the opportunity to explore because of
how my life have been.
Ntsika and Langa are looking at me with the smirks on their
faces.
Me: What?
Langa: Are you sure you want Nkanyezi to teach you?
Ziyanda: What is wrong with Nkanyezi?
Nkanyezi smiles shaking his head.
Ntsika: Well we will just let her find out on her own, no more
turning back sis.
Me: You are just trying to make me choose you.
Ntsika: No no go on.
Nkanyezi: "We can start today."
I got that because of the hand gestures he made, he wanted
me to understand what he wanted to say.
Me: We can start.
He does something with his hands again.
Ziyanda: He says you look like a fast learner and you guys
will work well together.
Me: Thank you.
He get up and take the car keys, I follow him leaving Ntsika
and Langa laughing.
He drives to an open field and he look at me, he gestures I
look at everything he does, I nod.
And try to concentrate at everything he does before he starts
the car. Then he stops and step out, I sit back on my seat
thinking maybe he is going to pee or something but he opens
the passenger seat he signal me with his head to step out, I
step out, he gives me the car then get in the passenger seat.
Me: Don't tell me you want me to get in the drivers seat now!
He points at the drivers seat, I try to memorize everything he
did then start the car, but it moves then stop,I feel a slao with
the back of his hand my face, I look at him shocked.
He points at the clutches I look down I forgot to put both my
feet there.
I nod, I can do this man, I try to do it again but totally fail,
another smack, I wish I can hit him back but he is older than
me and he look so scary not even a slight smile.
Nkanyezi: "You will drive today."
I huff and sit back on my seat I don't think I want to do this
anymore.
Me: Take me back home.
He shakes his head and point at the steering wheel.
Me: Ok please show me again, I promise I will get it this time.
He nods and start all over again, I get in thinking I got this
but I feel a sting on my cheek.
Me: Ok i'm done with this shit..
I step out of the car, he step out too and touch my shoulders
forcing me to look at him then he let go.
Nkanyezi: "One more time."
I nod, it's been hours here I can't get it right i'm getting
hungry but he doesn't want to stop it's getting dark.
Me: Let's go home, I give up.
He shakes his head.
Nkanyezi: "You will drive us home."
I chuckle with tears in my eyes.
Me: You have too much faith in me.
Nkanyezi: "Let's do it again."
We step out and he start by hugging me until i'm calm then
go in the drivers seat, I look at him what he does before he
turns and so on, I nod when he is done then start all over
again, I manage to start it and drive maybe 20 feets he is
clapping his hands I stop the car and look at him smiling.
Nkanyezi: "Take us home."
I nod and drive home and we step out, he take my hand and
we walk in.
Luyolo: How was it? Why is your cheek bruised?
Nkanyezi smirk looking at me.
Langa: We told you.
Ntsika: Yes we did.
Me: I did it.
Luyolo: Really?
I nod, he step closer to me and hug me tight.
Luyolo: I'm so proud of you.
Me: Thank you, even though it was a slap after the other it
was worth it I guess.
Langa: Proud of you sis.
Ntsika: Me too, I know if it was me or Langa we were going
to teach you the whole week guess doing it with Nkanyezi
was better, That is how we were taught Sis a slap in winter.
I hug Nkanyezi.
Me: Thanks bro.
He nods brushing my head.
Me: Are we eating today?
Luyolo: We are out of food.
Me: Uh what?
Luyolo: I said we're all out you guys took long and we ate
without you and it was the last food we had.
He is serious and my stomach hurts
Luyolo: I'm joking, you should have seen your face.
They laugh at me we sit on the table and Ntsika is served by
his wife, she literally kneel down, I haven't been taking that
to notice man and I find it beautiful.
Ntsika: Maybe you should take it easy now baby before my
child get hurt.
She smiles, they have beautiful wives man.
Ntsoaki: Ok baby.
Ntsika: Thank you.
Ziyanda: Now your dad will go over the K53 questions so
you can pass your learners licence okay Landi?
I nod, I don't know how I will do that but they want what's
best for me and I will work hard to make them proud.
Ziyanda: Uhm are you going to sleep with me today?
Me: No mom I will sleep in my room I will sleep with the
door opened maybe I'll be fine.
Ziyanda: Are you sure?
Me: Yes.
We go our seperate rooms and I find a missed call from
Unathi, I laugh, what does she want.
It rings again and I answer.
Me: Hello.
Unathi: Uhm hey.
Me: Sure what's up.
Unathi: I just want to know if you have deleted my number.
Me: Even now I have no idea who i'm talking to.
Unathi: Ooh.
Me: Yeah and don't tell me, I don't wanna know.
She drops the call, I laugh and open the door getting in bed.
Later i'm still awake because it's too quiet now, I look at the
door the passage is dark like someone can walk in any
minute and suffocate me to death, I wake up and turn on the
lights in the passage then go back to bed, I keep tossing and
turning and I hear footsteps I can feel myself sweating I sit
up and look at the door holding my breath, mom show up, I
breathe out
Ziyanda: You can't sleep?
I don't reply, she steps closer and sit next to me.
Ziyanda: You're sweating, are you okay?
I shake my head.
Ziyanda: It's okay..
She tuck me in and get in next to me, she brush my head.
Ziyanda: Langa will take you to the therapist tomorrow
morning before we go home for your ceremony, the sooner
the better maybe we can find ways for you to be able to sleep
because I don't want to give you medication yet.
I nod a little and close my eyes
Luyolo: Is she okay babe?
Ziyanda: I think I scared her when I came in.
I hear footsteps coming closer,their voices are soothing.
Luyolo: What are we going to do?
Ziyanda: Langa will take her to the therapist tomorrow
morning before we leave if that doesn't help I have to give
her sleeping pills, but i'm afraid she might have to depend on
them her whole life.
Luyolo: I hope it doesn't come to the psychiatrist hospital.
Ziyanda: No, she needs her family,she won't cope, I have
been there Yolo, she can't go there.
Her voice is shaky.
Luyolo: I'm sorry..you going to sleep here?
Ziyanda: Yes.
Luyolo: I love you.
Ziyanda: I love you too.
All this time their voices are low and i'm feeling sleepy..
*
I wake up when mom shake me I open my eyes.
Ziyanda: Go and get ready so you can eat breakfast and go
with your brother.
I do everything I need to do then eat Langa drive us to the
therapist's office.
Langa: Hello miss Cornie.
Cornie: Mr Langa and you must be Landile Gumede your
mom already told me about you coming.
We shake hands and sit down.
Cornie: So what brings you to me Landile?
Me: I have been struggling to sleep.
Cornie: For how long?
Me: More than 15 years.
Cornie: Wow that's all a long time, may I ask why?
Me: I was raped when I was 9 by my foster "dad", I heard
them arguing and they became silent for a while that's when
he came into my room.
Cornie: So silence scares you?
Me: Yes.
She nods and write down.
Cornie: You're a good looking girl.
Me: Are you hitting on me?
Langa: Really Nadia!we say thank you.
Miss Cornie laughs come on she's old I was just trying to
bring in some light in this dark talk.
Cornie: It's okay Mr Langa I want to see that colourful
personality.
Me: She really likes me.
Cornie: So Landile your greatest fear is silence at night?
Me: Yes.
Cornie: Do you sleep well in noisy place?
Me: Take me to a tavern and I will fall asleep immediately.
Langa: That's not true because you'd be drinking all night.
Me: Shh,well Miss Cornie I feel restless when there is too
much silence when I don't even hear a single voice it's like
someone might show up and do what that man did when I
was 9 years old.
Cornie: Do you feel safe around men?
Me: I do feel safe around certain men now, I recently found
my family and I know I can trust every single one of them,
but where I used to stay I had to show every man I had a gun
so they don't try something, I still carry it with me 24/7
except when I'm at home.
Cornie: Ok I will give you an activity since we've run out of
time I have to get to my next meeting, Choose any Genre.
Me: What's a genre?
Langa: The certain type of music being it hip-hop Gosbel
RnB.
Me: Ok I get.
Cornie: Choose any Genre you love that soothes your soul
and listen to it when you're in bed, connect with it see if it
won't help you fall asleep then when you come back from
home you will tell me if it worked if it doesn't work we will
keep searching okay.
I nod.
Me: Ok ma'am thank you.
Cornie: Nice meeting you, you both look good.
Me: Write down your number i'll call you.
Cornie: Take your sister Mr Langa.
Langa: She is too much sometimes.
We walk out and he drive us home.
We find everyone waiting outside a Quantum bus.
Me: Is this our ride?
Langa: Yep.
Me: Cool i'll spend time with my boys, Khosi can talk alright
and a million questions from Nqoba and Manqoba always
cracks me up.
Langa: I know, they once asked me why did I kiss daddy Sfiso
in front of them and I was embarrassed the whole month,
they would just stare at me and I will think they are about to
ask me about that kiss again.
I laugh at him.
Me: Why did you kiss Sfiso in front of them?
Langa: Oh come on not you too, I didn't know they were
around and it was before we even got married so they were
so confused, Mom had dad, Ntsika had Lathi that time and
Nkanyezi had Miyah so I understood the confusion with me
and Sfiso but now they are used to it.
Me: They are clever little boys.
Langa: They are special too, those are our first kids man.
We step out and walk to mom and dad, we hug them.
Luyolo: How was it?
Me: Good and the therapist was even hitting on me dad
imagine.
Ziyanda: Landi! Cornie is even older than me.
Me: I know! Even old ladies want me.
Langa: Ignore her mom she's crazy.
Me: But thank you guys she gave me a task to listen to music
before I go to sleep so I need a new phone.
Luyolo: Oh I can give you the..
Me: Dad i'm joking I will just open iGagasi FM they play good
music there.
Ziyanda: Can you be serious Landile.
Me: Ok sorry dad you were saying?
Luyolo: I will give you the phone I haven't used it.
Me: Why do you have it?
Luyolo: it's those contract phones they come in two's.
Me: Ok.
Luyolo: You can go take it now on the left drawer of the
dressing table.
I walk in and go to their room, and I find the most beautiful
phone it's still in the box, I take it out of the box and walk
out.
Luyolo: Uhm do you like it your mom can buy another one
for you.
Me: It's perfect thank you so much mkhulu.(grandpa)
Luyolo: What did you call me?
Me: I said best dad ever, never thought I would have
someone I can call dad in my life.
Luyolo: Well i'm here and i'm not going anywhere.
We get in the car and Ntsika drives,
i'm just chiling at the back with my boys, the phone rings,
God!
Me: Hello.
Unathi: Hey uhm can I see you?
Me: For what?
Unathi: You said you wanted us to be friends.
Me: I think you got the wrong number I don't remember
saying anything like that.
Unathi: Landile come on we need to talk.
Me: Did I get you pregnant?
The car goes into total silence and Langa starts chuckling a
little then starts laughing so loud, everyone follows.
Me: Why are you guys listening to my conversation?
Iyana: Well you're not really whispering sis.
Me: Yeah right!
I look at the call it has been dropped.
Me: I know how it goes with these " we have to talk" phrases
it comes with "Landi i'm pregnant" imagine me getting
someone pregnant!
Everyone is dead with laughter.
Nqoba: Aunt Landi what's pregnant?
Me: It's Ma Miyalo..
Nqoba: Ooh.
Miyalo: Really Nadia?
Me: Sorry I didn't have anything in mind except you baby i'm
sorry you're just too beautiful.
Miyalo: And I'll let Sofia seduce your ass.
Me: It won't work.
Sindi: I really don't like it when you call me Sofia, my name is
Sindi.
Miyalo: But you can't do anything about it baby, get used to
it.
We get in this town and they start buying goats a lot of them
and then we continue to drive and reach this farm, it has
rondavels and a big house.
Luyolo: This is home.
It's a cool place with a lot of livestock.
We walk in and find a woman standing looking at us with a
smile.
Woman: Nkazimulo usufikile nomndeni wakho ( Nkazimulo
you have arrived with your family)
Luyolo: Ewe sesifikile, ninjani? ( Yes we have arrived, how
are you)
They continue talking asking each other about everything
under the sun.
Luyolo: We came with another grandchild that we recently
found, Misokuhle's daughter Langelihle's twin her name is
Landile.
The aunt exclaims.
Woman: uLangelihle unewele nimutholephi kodwa
ndodana?(Langelihle has a twin where did you find her son)
Luyolo: She actually found us, we found each other.
He smile looking at me, this man has so much love.
Luyolo: So we came to do a ceremony for her and Ntsika's
twin girls, then my two daughters Iyana, Iviwe then my boy
Qhayiya since I haven't done it for them.
Woman: Siyabonga Gumede ngokusinika abazukulu
lakoQwabe. (Thank you Gumede for giving us grandchildren
of the Qwabe clan)
Later the goats come and the whole community is here
people are giving me weird looks maybe they have never
seen a cute tomboy before I don't know.
Dad put goat skin on both my wrists.
Me: Won't they smell when it's hot?
Luyolo: Shut up Landile.
Oh but I was just asking he didn't have to shut me up like
that.
Luyolo: Keep smelling them I will slap you.
Me: Can you at least spray it with your cologne.
Luyolo: Landile!
Me: Sorry..
Ziyanda: She's going to give you grey hair before time huh
baby.
Luyolo: That's what i'm worried about.
*
NKANYEZI
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
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NKANYEZI
*
We are at the Qwabe household and it's fun being here ever
since we found out dad is our blood so we often go there
together now we brought all our siblings and our wives, they
are wearing similar traditional outfits navy and blue and
have headwraps they have been moving up and down the
whole day serving people, we are with men of the
community they are drinking traditional beer that was made
by great aunt, I get up and go to my wife.
Me: "Hey baby."
Miyalo: Hello Star.
Me: "I told you to take it easy Miyah you have been moving
up and down the whole day while you're heavily pregnant
please sit down and rest, and I want you to change these
long shoes you're wearing please."
Miyalo: Ok get me my morning shoes baby in my bag.
Me: "Ok you look good when you're a Gumede wife."
I smile winking at her and walk away.
I get her shoes and then go back to her finding her sitting on
a chair breathing heavily, I rush to her.
Me: "Are you okay?"
Miyalo: Yeah i'm just tired man you were right I should slow
down a bit.
I kneel down and take off her heels and put on her morning
shoes.
Me: "Do you need water?"
Miyalo: Yes please.
I stay with her for a while then Nadia comes with a chair and
sit next to Miyah.
Nadia: I think I should sit right here with you now that the
kids are asleep people are giving me weird looks from men
to women so i don't know where to sit.
Miyalo: It's okay i'm calling it a day, we have been busy man.
Nadia: I saw that and you guys were in heels to make it
worse.
Nkanyezi: "I tried to tell her about the shoes."
Nadia look at me carefully squinting her eyes, she is our
sister alright, those eyes.
Nadia: You are talking about shoes right?
I smile nodding I think she will be fine, she is smart , and I
care about her a lot she look tough but deep down you can
see the scars in her soul, I just want to hug her.
Nadia: Why are you staring at me? You guys stare a lot in this
family.
Miyalo: You're their little sister they recently found so it's
the admiration and the adoration all together.
Nadia: Is that is?
I nod.
Nadia: You guys are cute if you know what the other one
thinks, I want to be like you.
I smile shaking my head, she just talks, everything just
comes out of that mouth just like Langelihle.
We sit for a while until it's late we go inside the main house
and people go back to their homes,so now it's just us the
Gumede's.
Miyah has been moving on the couch sitting in different
positions she look uncomfortable.
Me: "Are you okay?"
Miyalo: "Yes I just can't find the right position to sit."
Me: "Maybe we should go to bed."
She nods.
Miyalo: You're right, please help me up.
I take her hand.
Miyalo: I'm calling it a night ya'll i'm so tired.
Everyone nods and bid us goodnight
We go to the room we're going to use in this main house.
We get to a room and I help her take off the dress then help
her wear her night dress and her gown.
Miyalo: I want to pee.
Me: "But the bathroom is outside baby."
Miyalo: "Then do somthing i'm tired I can't go outside."
I nod and get up going back to the lounge, I talk to Zanokuhle
who stays here with Aunt.
Me: "Do you have small buckets around here."
I make sure she understands what i'm saying.
Zano: A bucket?
I nod.
She walk away and come back with a small 5 litre bucket.
Zano: Is it for Sis Miyalo."
I nod she gives it to me and I walk back in our room.
She quickly take the bucket from me and pee, she look
relieved.
Me: "Have you been holding it in Miyah?"
Miyalo: No but man I was so pressed.
Me: "Sorry."
She get in bed, I take off my clothes and sleep next to her, she
sleep on my chest.
Next thing I feel her getting up and rushing to pee again, I sit
up and look at her, she comes to bed.
Me: "Are you okay baby?"
Miyalo: I don't know, I feel a bit of discomfort but I think i'm
good.
I nod.
I don't know how much she has peed in the 2 hours we've
been in this room.
She get up and I see her looking at me shocked.
Me: "What?"
Miyalo: I think my water just broke Star.
I stare at her I don't get it's like three weeks before the due
date.
Miyalo: Nkanyezi.
Me: "Maybe it's something else baby.
Miyalo: Something like what?
She's angry.
Me: "Okay sit down, what do you want me to do?"
Her face changes she touch her tummy, she looks in pain.
I get up from the bed and go to her side I help her sit in bed.
Me: "Does it hurt."
Miyalo: I felt a bit of pain but it quickly went away..
She make the face again.
Miyalo: I think you should call your mom Star.
I nod.
Miyalo: Right now!please.
I nod again but continue to stand staring at her, she throws a
pillow at me I quickly walk out and stand in front of
everyone.
Ntsika: We are watching something move a little, why would
you stand in front of the TV?
Me: "Miyalo says her water broke."
Mom get up faster than lightning and walk away.
Nadia: What is going on you look distraught?
Ntsika: His wife is about to give birth.
Nadia:What? where?
Langa: What do you mean what where wena?
Nadia: And why are you just standing there?
Great Aunt stands up and walk away too, I follow her and get
in the room I find Miyah sweating.
Me: "Are you okay baby."
Miyalo: Don't ask me shit!
Me: "But i'm trying to help."
Miyalo: By what? are we sharing this pain with me bastard.
Me: "Mom"
Ziyanda: She will be fine but she has a long way to go.
Miyalo: What do you mean long way to go,isn't this big head
coming out now?
Ziyanda: No, not now atleast in maybe 5 hours.
Miyalo: 5 what! Kill me right now.
Ntsoaki walk in and stand next to her brushing her hair.
Ntsoaki: You're going to be okay.
Miyalo: Tell that man to get out of my face I don't know why
he's looking at me.
Me: "You want me to go?"
Miyalo: Yes.
Me: "Ok."
I turn but I feel a pillow hitting my back I turn around.
Miyalo: Where the fuck do you think you're going?
Me: "Didn't you tell me to leave Miyah?"
Miyalo: You can't leave me you're the one who was busy
cuming on me.
I look at mom and great aunt, mom is shaking her head
laughing.
I walk to bed and sit next to her.
Me: "I'm sorry."
Miyalo: You should be!
3 hours have passed and Miyah is going crazy my wrist is
bruised she keep squeezing it with her nails every now and
again, she has taken off her gown, the reason why we didn't
go to a hospital is because Ntsoaki said she is supposed to
give birth at home in Greatgrandfather rondavel this wasn't
a mistake, the timing.
So now she is sleeping facing up with her knees up the sweat
is all over her body she is taking off the night dress now.
Miyalo: Can I push now this is too much I can't do it
anymore..
Ziyanda: Not yet baby, please wait a little okay, I'm sorry but
soon it will be all over.
Miyalo: Ma but you said that 5 hours ago.
Ziyanda: I know this is how it goes baby okay.
Me: " Do I have to be here mom this is scary."
Ziyanda: Yes, I don't want any of your wives to be without
when they give birth, being alone is not nice, she needs you
here.
I nod and flinch as she squeeze my wrist again.
Mom keeps checking her down there and i've never been
scared in my life.
Ziyanda: I need towels and warm water, get me sealed
razors in the car.
I get up but Miyah hold on to me.
Miyalo: Where are you going?
Ziyanda: He's coming back now baby, Go.
I rush out and start in dad's car I find razors.
I get inside the house I find great Aunt already holding a
basin and towels I follow her and hold Miyah's hand.
She look at me and shake her head.
Miyalo: I'm never falling pregnant ever again this is too
much.
I brush her hair and wipe off the sweat in her forehead.
She hold on to my hand for dear life.
Ziyanda: Ok he is close baby on the count of three you going
to push ok 1 2 3.
She does this a couple of times but nothing i'm getting really
scared right now I feel like something is wrong, Ntsoaki walk
in and kneel down burning the incense, She nods looking a
mom.
Ntsoaki: Gumede, Phakathwayo, Mnguni we are ready to
welcome him the second Piller..
She look up at me and smile..
I shrug my shoulders looking at her a squeeze quickly make
me look at Miyah, she is pushing.
Ziyanda: Come, give one last push baby I can see the head..
She push and I see mom holding a baby looking at me.
Ziyanda: It's a baby boy.
My eyes are all out, I know she was pregnant but seeing the
baby now makes me emotional I feel tears in my eyes.
Mom give the baby to great aunt and she start cleaning him
up and wraping him up with a towel I walk closer to aunt she
hand over the baby to me and point at Ntsaoki I go to her
and give her the baby she moves him around the smoke then
give him back to me, I hold him closer to my chest and go
stand next to Miyah.
Miyalo: Can I see him?
As i'm trying to give her the baby, she looks in pain again I
look at mom.
Ziyanda: There's another head.
I look at Miyah confused.
Miyalo: Another head?
Ziyanda: Push Miyah..
She hold on to the bed and push then mom hold another
baby.
Ziyanda: Wow, a miracle baby, where were you hiding huh?
They do the same to him cleaning him up and mom clean
Miyah up while Ntsoaki takes the other baby and move him
around the incense too to say i'm happy is an
understatement i'm over the moon.
I look at Miyah and give her the baby and take the one
Ntsoaki is holding and put him on my chest too.
Ntsoaki: They heard you cry when you lost your babies this
is the blessing, they are wiping away your tears.
I nod with a smile, I'm grateful for this.
Miyalo: I have baby clothes in my other bag that I was
always carrying with me.
Ziyanda: Let me go take them quickly before they get cold.
She rush out I sit next to Miyah we are both holding our baby
boys smiling at each other.
Miyalo: You gonna name them right?
I nod.
Mom comes back with Miyah's stuff and the boys's, she help
the boys wear the clothes but they are different because
mommy thought there is one baby in there, Miyah take a
bath while i'm focusing on the babies in the bed.
We walk back in the lounge, Mom is holding the first boy and
aunt is holding the second boy I am supporting Miyah
because she is limping a bit and help her sit on the couch
everyone is standing on their feet looking at the babies.
Ntsika: So there were two of them in there, that's why the
stomach was huge.
Miyalo: Don't say that bro.
Ntsika: I'm joking.
I know he's not Miyah's stomach was big especially when
she went to the 6th month.
Ziyanda: So the names daddy.
Me: "Phiwokuhle and Phiweyinkosi the God given gifts.
Iyana: They look so tiny bhuti Phiwo and Phiwe, so adorable.
I am proud of my wife, I look at her she is wiping her eyes, I
kneel in front of her.
Me: "Thank you so much maDlomo Mkhabela, Dinangwe."
She smiles with tears in her eyes.
Me: "You did it baby and i'm proud of you."
Miyalo: I finally gave you the babies Star our little boys I still
can't believe there is two of them.
Nkanyezi: "Me too thank you so much for this mama ka
Phiwo."
I sit next to her.
Luyolo: Siyabonga maMkhabela.(Thank you maMkhabela)
Langa: At least now you can dance without that belly.
Miyalo: Was it bad?
Langa: Very..
He looks at Nadia and they both laugh, these two are just the
same.
*
NADIA
*
My brothers don't play like that, they all hit doubles and I
can see how happy Nkanyezi is right now and I hope one day
that will be me, I love babies so much.
We are going back to Durban today it's still early in the
morning I shared a room with my little sis Iyana and I was
able to sleep through the night and I didn't struggle to sleep.
I'm sitting in bed watching the phone ring, i'm now using the
one dad gave me because the other one was those little
phones that cost less than a thousand.
It rings again and I decide to answer.
Me: Nadia Gumede speaking how may I help you.
I change my voice to sound more lady like.
Unathi: Uhm can I speak to Landile.
Me: Landile who?
Unathi: Uhm uh I think they use Gumede now are you the
relative.
Me: No i'm the wife Landile's wife.
Unathi: What!?but she never told me she had a wife!
Me: Who are you?
Unathi: I'm sorry i'm just a friend.
Me: Ufunani Unathi? (What do you want Unathi?)
I use my usual voice now.
Unathi: Landile can we meet please.
Me: After you told me to delete your number and never
contact you again?
Unathi: Please.
Me: Ok but right now i'm not in Durban I will get there later.
Unathi: Please let me know when you get here.
Me: I'll think about it.
I drop the call and walk out of the room I'm just waiting for
everyone to come out of their room so we can go.
I see Iyana walking out of her room with a phone in her ear
blushing, she is cute with that long hair and tiny body.
Me: Hey!
She stops on her tracks and stare at me.
Me: Are you talking to a boy?
Iyana: No..no..sis it's a friend.
Me: A boy-friend?
She doesn't reply.
Me: Come give me that phone.
Iyana: What but why?
Me: Don't ask questions.
I see her dropping the call I chuckle.
Me: You will call him again right I saw what you did there,
why did you drop the call?
Iyana: Sis I didn't drop it it's..
Me: Should I tell dad?
Iyana: No..no please don't tell dad he will beat me.
Me: And you think I won't?
She look down I can see she is on a verge of crying, Oh I love
being a big sister right now, I am using my rights okay!
Me: Call that number Iya.
She wipes her eyes.
Me:Are you seriously crying right now?
Iyana: No.
She says with a shaky voice I step closer to her and hug her
laughing.
Me: Hey I was joking baby sis you don't have to cry ok.
She nods.
Me: But was that a boy?
She nods a little.
Me: Are you dating him?
Iyana: Ye..yes.
I nod.
Me: But it ends with just a kiss neh?
Iyana: Yes.
Me: I hope so because if that's not the case I will hunt him
down and cut off his penis.
She gasps.
Me: I'm not joking with that.
Iyana: I won't do anything I promise.
Me: Good now wipe those tears you look like you just
swallowed peri-peri.
Everyone comes in and we say goodbye to the family and
drive to Durban.
We get home and I tell Unathi i'm home, she call me
immediately.
Unathi: Can you come here?
Me: Ok.
I take a taxi and get off by her flat she come out and take me
inside.
Me: So what's up why am I here?
She start kissing me immediately I gladly kiss her back we
end up in bed she is naked, I take off my tshirt leaving my
sport bra on and start finger fucking her and licking her clit.
Unathi: Oh.. yes..
I continue until she shakes a bit and cum then she do it
again, pushing me back.
Me: Are you doing this again?
Unathi: You know I have a boyfriend.
I'm tempted to slap the hell out of her but I shake my head.
I get up and wear my tshirt.
Me: Look here, I'm not desperate so if you think I will come
here everyday to make you cum just because your boyfriend
can't then you're so wrong, you can't use me baby girl I've
been in a game for too long to be played by a little girl like
you.
I fix my gun on my waist and open the door, I step back
when someone push the door it's Potbelly and he look so
angry.
Unathi: Xolani baby..hey.
Oh pot belly here is Xolani.
He stares at me and I stare right back.
Xolani: What is this thing doing here Unathi?
Me: I know he did not call me a thing.
I chuckle, Unathi comes and stand between us facing her
boyfriend.
Unathi: Look baby it's not what you think.
Me: It's really not now move out the way I want to go.
Xolani: I don't think so, you have attitude I think you forget
you're a woman you have pussy!
I nod smiling.
He push Unathi and grab my neck pinning me on the wall I
kick his balls he let go fast bending to touch his crotch.
Me: I think you forget you're a man and you have balls, next
time I won't just kick them I will shoot them. And wena stop
calling me for shit tell your boyfriend to learn how to make
you cum.
Xolani: What did you do with her Unathi?
He is groaning still holding his balls.
Unathi: Nothing..nothing baby.
Me: I did what you're clearly failing to do..that's why she
called me here now who is confused about her sexuality
huh?
I smirk.
Xolani: You slept with her Unathi, why?
Me: I just told you why fool. Are you going to stop calling
me?
Unathi: Yes I want nothing to do with you.
Me: Good, I feel just the same about you.
I walk out and take a taxi to a mall to take my self out to eat
with the little cash I have on me. Dad calls.
Me: Gumede.
Luyolo: Landile where are you?
Me: At the mall dad.
Luyolo: Ok do you need anything?
Me: Not really I just came here to eat.
Luyolo: Ok.
He drops the call minutes later my phone beeps indicating a
message I view it, a message from the bank and I see the
figures. Dad calls again.
Luyolo: Did you get it?
Me: Did I get what?
Luyolo: I sent money to your bank account just now.
Me: So that is the money in my bank account?
Luyolo: Yes.
Me: What is it for dad, that's a lot of money!
Luyolo: Your brothers get it too, every month so you will be
getting yours too.
Me: Dad..
Luyolo: Landile I won't be treating any of you differently,
Nkanyezi get his too even though he works.
Me: Ok thank you so much dad.
Luyolo: Maybe you can buy similar tshirts as the ones you
take from Langa so you can leave them alone.
Me: I won't stop, he becomes red when he see me wearing
them I love it.
Luyolo: Stop irritating your brother intentionally Landi.
Me: But it's fun to watch bye dad my food is here.
I drop the call and sigh, I don't know man I'm used to
working for my own money so this is new to me,being given
a ridiculous amount of money just because you exist, wow!
I stand up and go to the atm for the first time in my life, I
stand there and read carefully it shows where you enter the
card I do everything and I see the card coming out then the
money.
Me: Yes!
I shout, i look around people are giving me looks maybe they
think I won the lottery but i'm just happy that in my first
attempt I managed to use the ATM and it wasn't hard at all.
I go around looking for something I could buy but I can't see
anything, I collide with a lady coming out of the store as I'm
walking in, she looks like she is in a rush.
Her: I'm so sorry..
She go down to pick her stuff up then look at me.
Her: I'm sorry..
Me: It's all good.
I try to move to the side but she moves too, we're blocking
each other's way. I look at her she is beautiful man.
Me: Sorry..
She nod and pass me.
Me: Uhm hey.
She turns to look at me I step closer.
Me: You owe me your name for what you just did there.
"Pamella" she says looking at me smiling she look matured
man you know those ladies that have their shit together.
Me: Can I buy you a dr..ink..
I slow down when I see a ring on her finger it's shining.
Pamella: I'm late I have a boutique there at that corner and I
closed for lunch so my clients must be waiting for me.
I nod.
Me: Ok maybe next time.
She nods and walk away, I look at her long legs as she walk
away, damn that ring!
I walk around and buy myself a watch and wear it same time
then put the one I was wearing in my pocket, I will shop with
my brother Langa I like his style, okay they have the same
style but he is the one who is always available the other
brothers are always busy.
I find myself walking in this boutique Pamella showed me, I
look around and a girl rush to me, she start by looking at me
up and down like she's undermining me or something her
nose is up like she sees shit.
Her: Can I help you?
Me: why do I sense some attitude?
Her: I don't think this store is for people like you.
Me: People like me?
Her: Yes we don't have clothes for lesbians.
Me: And you just assumed i'm a lesbian?
Her: I can see that i'm not a fool.
Me: Call Pamella for me I want her to tell me if what you're
saying to me is right.
Her: You know boss lady?
Me: Yes I do now go call her.
She shows up and smile looking at me.
Pamela: Hey we meet again.
Me: Tell your stuff to treat people with respect she just
assumed i'm a lesbian what if I just love wearing like a
boy?and teach her how to put a make-up look at those
eyebrows she look shocked by something, and there is no
such thing as lesbians clothes.
Pamella: Dee why would you say that to someone who just
came at the store?
Dee: Sorry Boss I just thought..
Pamella: This is the second time I get a complaint about you
next time you're out of here.
Dee: I'm sorry boss.
Pamella: Hey Uhm...
Me:Landile.
Pamella: Now I think I owe you a drink for what just
happened here i'm so sorry, do you have time?
Me: I do.
Pamella: Ok let me get my bag.
She rush in some office and come back with her bag we walk
in the opposite restaurant and she order juice for us.
Me: So Ella you're the owner of that boutique huh.
Pamella: Yes me and my husband, we're partners.
I look down.
Me: I see
Pamella: So uhm you like wearing boys clothes huh?
Me: I am a lesbian.
Pamella: Ok, so you date girls.
Me: Only pretty girls yes.
She laughs, I wish I could just kiss her right now, her lips are
so inviting.
I see her looking out, I turn to look and I see a man walking
in and he kiss her cheek.
Pamella: Hey honey.
I feel a bit of jealousy maybe I should go.
Him: Baby how are you.
I clear my throat.
Me: Excuse me, I have to go.
Pamella: Oh ok nice meeting you Landile.
Me: Yeah..
I walk out and huff once i'm out and I take a taxi home.

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NADIA
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I get home from the mall and go straight to my room when I
get there I find Mandisi and Kwanele they are putting a huge
ass plasma tv on the wall.
Me: Hello.
Mandisi: Sure kid how'sit?
Me: Everything is good uhm am I changing rooms?
Mandisi: No, we heard you're struggling with sleep so we
thought maybe a TV would help.
Me: Uhm oh ok thank you.
They walk out and I take a bath then get in bed and switch
on the TV, Langa walk in and get in next to me.
Langa: What have you been up to?
Me: Nothing much, I had a little argument with unathi's man.
Langa: But Nadia I told you to stop that shit.
Me: And I did Langa let it go.
Langa: Ok but are you good?
Me: Yeah i'm okay bro.
Langa: I think that's not true, I can tell you're not ok.
Me: Well I saw someone today and I think I like her but it's a
bit complicated.
Langa: Let me guess, she have someone.
Me: Yes, I promise I will stay away from her, don't lecture
me.
Langa: Getting inbetween people who are in a relationship
never ends well Sis.
Me: I know man.
Langa: Where is that Zandy you once told me about?
Me: I lied man Zandy and I broke up years ago.
Langa: Why would you lie?
Me: Because I didn't feel like telling the truth.
Langa: Mxm let's go and eat
We get up and join the family.
Me: Thank you dad for today.
Luyolo: My pleasure.
We start eating over light conversations then I go to my
room and get in bed not closing the door.
I search Pamella's boutique and it pops up on google, I scroll
down her pictures most of them she is alone just a few with
her husband and they look happy I see that they don't have
kids yet and they have been married for 4 years now, she's
beautiful and seem to be in a public eye.
I concentrate on a TV, I can feel myself dozing off but I would
wake up after a few hours, 3:ooam I walk out of my room
and go get some chips then go back to bed I look at the TV
screen while snacking till I can see the light on the curtains I
get in bed and doze off immediately. I feel a hand shaking me
it's mom.
Ziyanda: Hey honey, go to the bathroom.
I get out of bed and do just a quick clean up then go back to
my room I find her fixing my bed.
Me: Morning first lady.
Ziyanda: Morning.
Me: Why are you making my bed I was still going to sleep a
bit.
Ziyanda: The Tv didn't help?
Me: It did but I woke up at 3:00 am and ate chips and
watched TV till 6 am.
Ziyanda: Maybe I should just give you the sleeping pills.
Me: Maybe that would help.
Ziyanda: But I will be monitering you, I don't want you to
overdose or become addicted.
Me: Fine by me beautiful lady.
Ziyanda: Get ready you're seeing Cornie today we have to try
everything.
Me: Ok mom.
I kiss her cheek then go take a proper shower and wear
Langelihle's white tshirt that is written his name in black
and black chino pants with my white shoes then complete
the look with a watch, I brush the trimmed sides on my head
then mess up my short dreadlocks, I take my wallet and a
phone then walk out.
Ziyanda: Ooooh look at you, let me take a picture baby.
I pose for a Camera she start snapping a lot of pictures i'm
even running out of poses.
Me: Ok I think it's all good now.
Langa walks in and stop on his tracks, mom starts laughing.
Langa: Oh come on Really Nadia!
Me: Hey I wore it first don't shout at me.
Langa: I am Langelihle not you!
Me: I don't care I still wore it first.
He is wearing his red tshirt written his name and black jeans
with red Jordan sneakers, so we are both Langelihles today.
Langa: Mom I don't like her.
Ziyanda: Come on stand next to her i'm capturing this
moment ya'll look cute and so much alike right now.
We stand next to each other taking pictures he is grumpy.
Me: Come on smile you're ruining mom's pictures
Langa: Bye Pink we will see you later baby.
Ziyanda: Ok bring something nice for me.
Me: Do therapists sell stuff too?
I ask walking out leaving them laughing.
He drive to miss Cornie's office and walk in.
Me: Hello my suger mama.
Cornie: Langelihle, wait which one of you is Langelihle now?
Me: I am.
Langa: I am.
She laughs and wear her glasses.
Cornie: So about the task I gave you last time did it work?
Me: a little I managed to sleep more than I normally sleep
and the Tv helped in my room.
Cornie: Ok, now let's talk about your personality how would
you describe yourself.
Me: I am cute, talkative, like I talk a lot, I love joking around.
Cornie: Do you think there is something you're hiding in
there and all that you mentioned before is masking it.
Me: Yes, Anger.
Cornie: Who are you angry at?
Me: The woman that gave birth to me, she is the cause of all
that I went through, she is the reason I watched my grandma
die right in front of me at the age of 5, the reason why I met a
monster who told the social workers that he will protect and
provide for me, the reason I ended up in the streets, I had to
learn to sleep on a cardboard and use the black garbage
plastic to cover myself!she did all of it.
Langa touch my hand.
Cornie: I believe that's also your mom Mr Langa.
Langa: Yes.
Cornie: I have told Mr Langa that we should let bygones be
bygones, put the past behind you.
Me: Well it's not that easy, I wished I had time to confront
her and asked her why did she seperate us I believe life
would have been better if we were together even in the
streets he was going to be with me through it all, I know he
was going to protect me but she left me with an old sick
grandma, what a selfish human being.
Langa: It's okay Sis.
Me: I'm sure satan in grilling her like shwarma meat in hell.
Langa chuckles.
Cornie: I like this joking Landile but sometimes you need to
cry out, I don't think you've ever done that.
Me: I have, when I thought he was negleting me when we
just found each other.
Cornie: But was it enough?do you get angry?
Me: Ooh girl I do and it's not a good sight to see.
Cornie: What would you do if they say here is your mother
now in front of you?
Me: I would beat the crap out of that ugly bitch.
Cornie: You think she was ugly?
Me: She gotta be ugly the nasty things she did says it all.
Cornie: You too are so honest about your feelimg towards
your birth mother
Langa: Yep we hate her can't even hide it.
Cornie: I want you to help each other out, talk to each other
about what you used to like when you were younger because
Landi you would agree with me that even in those streets
there was something that you liked doing that fascinated you
other than crime.
I smile.
Langa: What was it Sis.
Me: When it was time for me to eat, I used to go sit along the
beach and eat my food it was the safest place i've ever been I
wasn't scared there I would sit the whole night when maybe
someone took the spot where I sleep, the beach was my
escape.
Langa: So you find peace at the beach?
Me: I do.
Langa: We should go there sometimes.
Cornie: Now that's it for today I'll see you guys next week.
Me: Thank you baby.
Cornie: Bye Landile, Mr Langa.
We walk out.
Langa: Where to?
Me: The mall so you can buy food for your sister i'm so
famished.
Langa: nothing shocking there.
He drives us to the mall and we sit down and the waiter
takes our order, we eat then I force him to buy us the same
tshirts.
Me: Let's go to that store.
We walk to Pamella's boutique and the lady from yesterday
screams hugging my brother.
Dee: Langa ka Sfiso Oh my God it's really you!
I'm so bored, I stare at her.
Dee: Oh Hey uhm wow uhm are you guys siblings?
Me: You talk to lesbians?
Dee: I'm so sorry about yesterday, uhm Langa can I get a
picture?
Pamella walk out of her office and I feel hot in my cheeks.
Pamella: You should learn to behave yourself Dee the way
you screamed
She look at me then Langelihle then back at me again.
Pamella: Wow! Landile hello you guys are twins?
Me: Yes he is my twin brother.
Pamella: Wow you guys look so much alike, uhm can we help
you with something.
Me: No we just came to greet.
Langa look at me but I concentrate on Ella here in front of
me.
I see her man walking in he doesn't greet he just take her
hand.
Him: Let's talk in the office.
She smiles and they walk away.
Me: Let's go.
Dee: Uhm that picture Langa?
Me: You can't honestly think my brother would take a
picture with you with those eyebrows, no ways.
Dee: You're rude!
Me: I know.
Langa's phone rings and he answers it.
Langa: Sfiso.
He walks away a little then come back to me.
Langa: Hey Sis i'm buying lunch for my husband and taking it
to him.
I see Pamella's man walking out the office and pass us
walking out.
Me: You can go and pick me up on your way back home I will
be around.
Langa: Ok let me take the bags then, bye.
Me: Sure.
He walks away and I go to Pamella's office I knock once then
walk in, I find her fixing her make up.
Pamella: Uhm Landile what are you doing in here?
Me: I just came to say hi.
I look at her she's avoiding my eyes.
Me: Were you crying?
Pamella: No, an eyelash went in my eye.
I nod.
Pamella: Uhm I was about to eat my lunch you can have a
seat we will eat together.
I nod, we start eating her food together it's a home cooked
meal and it tastes good.
Me: Whoever cooked this food must be a chef I tell you.
Pamella: Oh Wow thank you.
Me: Wait you mean you cooked this?
Pamella: Yes I did.
Me: Girl you can cook, your husband is a lucky man.
She move her eyes again and smile.
Pamella: He is.
We finish eating she pours us juice and she sit on her chair, I
sit down too.
Me: Today you look different.
Pamella: Uhm different how?
Me: I don't know anything about make up but your make-up
today is a bit too much than yesterday no offence.
Pamella: oh uhm I didn't notice.
Me: I notice a blue eye under there too.
Pamella: What blue eye I don't have any blue eye.
Me: I have been around and I know that's a blue eye under
that make-up ella.
Pamella: You're being ridiculous right now.
Me: Then wipe it off, let me see if i'm wrong.
Pamella: Uhm I think you should leave.
I walk around her table and turn her chair making her face
me.
Me: Is your husband abusing you?
She get up and stare at me.
Pamella: Now you're being crazy does my husband look
abusive?
Me: How does an abusive person look like?
Pamella: Just yesterday you were angry that someone
assumed you're a lesbian but now you're assuming that my
husband is an abuser are you crazy, kid get out of here.
I swiftly pick her up and put her on the table.
Pamella: What the hell are you doing, my husband might
come in.
Me: And I will be done doing this..
I kiss her holding her neck she push me.
Pamella: Get out little girl.
Me: Are you trying to be mean by calling me a little girl?
Pamella: Uhm No sorry about that.
I kiss her again and this time she let me for a while but
doesn't kiss me back, I continue kissing her and move up her
dress, she moans and push me again standing up and pulling
down her dress.
Pamella: What are you doing?
Me: I don't know.
Pamella: What do you mean you don't know Landile you just
kissed me.
She's speaking so low.
Me: And you let me.
I make her sit on the desk again amd kiss her parting her
legs then move her panty to the side and push in my finger,
she opens her thighs even more, I feel my nipples erect same
time I haven't had this feeling in a long time.
Me: Mmmm.
I kiss her neck while still moving my finger in and out of her.
Pamella: Oh..shit what am I doing?
I remove my finger and make her lie down and start licking
her clit it's out there, quite a size and it's turning me on, I
hold her hips and suck the living daylights out of her.
Pamella: Oh my God..yes..shit..
I feel her moving her waist in circles I graze her clit with my
teeth a little.
Pamella: Fuck!..
I move my hand to cover her mouth she is making noise. I
put back my finger and find her spot her knees shake and
she is breathing heavily.
Pamella: Oh my God..fuck.
I remove my finger and fix her panty then pull her up fixing
her dress, she stares at me for a while I return the favour
wiggling my eyebrows, she chuckles.
Pamella: I cannot believe I did that, what the hell.
I smile looking at her.
Pamella: Your eyes are so red.
Me: Yeah because i'm turned on by you.
Pamella: Look you know i'm marr..
Me: Yeah I know that, I know.
She nods and fix the things on her table then sit down
huffing.
Me: Was that your first time with a girl?
Pamella: Yes, I never thought I would be in that position
ever.
Me: But it was so easy to get you in that position.
Pamella: Are you trying to say i'm easy, i'm cheap?
Me: No I didn't mean it like that come on.
Pamella: Look this was a mistake I don't know what came
over me I'm married.
Me: I get it.
Pamella: I'm sorry this was a just a moment of weakness.
Me: I see.
We are quiet for a while and I stand up.
Me: Please can I have your number.
She shakes her head.
Me: Ok.
I turn and walk to the door.
Pamella: Landile.
I turn to look at her.
Pamella: Uhm you can have my number here.
She gives me a card with her details and a number.
Me: Thank you.
I walk out and take a taxi home, I call Langa telling him I
went home.
I go chill with Miyalo and the babies in her room.
Me: Hey mommy.
Miyalo: Hey Nadia.
Me: How does being a mom feels like so far?
Miyalo: Feels good, I love seeing their growth everyday even
though it seems slow.
Me: That's cute, I want to have kids one day.
Miyalo: You want to be pregnant?
Me: No, have my woman carry my baby you know.
Miyalo: Oh I thought you wanted to have that big tummy.
Me: No thanks that looked uncomfortable yet you had so
much energy to move around.
Miyalo: I know right, my pregnancy was smooth man.
I nod.
Me: You have gym clothes on.
Miyalo: Yeah already working on my body.
Me: Can i join you?
Miyalo: Yes.
We leave maKhumalo with the kids, I change and go join her.
I take off my tshirt.
Miyalo: Woooah! I want to be like you.
Me: You can't..
Miyalo: Come on give me hope.
Me: Ok you can do this.
She laugh, we start doing our thing for a couple of hours then
walk out, I take a shower and wear my pants and a tank top
then sit in bed.
I look in my pockets for ella's number I find it and dial the
number it rings for a while then she answers.
Pamella: Hello.
Me: Hey it's Landile.
Pamella: Oh hey.
Me: Are you good?
Pamella: I'm fine.
Me: I just called to say have a goodnight.
Pamella: Mmmm thank you, you too.
Me: Are you sure you're ok ella?
Pamella: Yes i'm sure bye.
She drops the call, I sleep facing up mom comes in with the
pills and water.
Ziyanda: Hey baby.
Me: Mom.
Ziyanda: Here i'm giving you only one.
Me: Thank you I hope it works.
Ziyanda: So have you been looking at those questions for
your learners license.
I look at her.
Ziyanda: You haven't Landile!
Me: I'm sorry, reading is not my strongest ability, I can read
but it bores the crap out of me.
Ziyanda: So how about I read it out for you we will connect it
to the TV?
Me: That would help.
She connects everything and the questions pop up, she starts
reading i'm looking at the screen trying to memorize
everything she says but i'm feeling sleep.
Me: It's like you're reading me a bedtime story mom I feel
like sleeping.
She laugh.
Ziyanda: Ok sleep baby your dad will do this with you
tomorrow.
Me: Ok thanks goodnight.
Ziyanda: Let me tuck you in.
Me: Mom i'm old.
Ziyanda: Just get under the covers Landile and stop talking.
Me: How can I stop talking when you're talking.
Ziyanda: Go to sleep.
Me: Ok goodnight i'll see you tomorrow girl thank you.
She laughs and fix the cover.
Ziyanda: Goodnight.
She kiss my cheek, I hear her walking out I close my eyes and
doze off.
I wake up to the annoying ringtone next to me, I answer it.
Unathi: uhm Hi.
Me: mmm.
Unathi: I'm sorry for..
I drop the call and look outside it's morning already and I
didn't wake up at all during the night. I go to the bathroom
then walk out, I knock in mom and dad's room they invite
me in, I jump in bed and get inbetween them.
Me: Hello parents.
Ziyanda: You look good.
Me: The pills worked I just woke up for the first time since
yesterday.
Luyolo: That is good but you didn't have to come wake us up.
Me: Oh I had to dad i'm hungry.
Luyolo: Didn't you see the kitchen on your way here.
Me: I did but I will eat when you eat.
Luyolo: We're not eating today.
Me: Oh well then coming here was a mistake bye.
They laugh at me as I roll out of their bed.
Ziyanda: You want a eating partner go to your twin brother.
Me: Why didn't I think of that ugly boy..
I walk out and find Sfiso already in his suit.
Me: Sure.
Sfiso: Sure buddy I haven't been seeing you.
Me: You only call Langa to your office and not me.
Sfiso: That's not true he said you wanted to stay.
Me: I'm kidding man I was busy with something too.
Sfiso: Hope there's no trouble in whatever you were busy
with.
Me: No trouble at all sir.
Sfiso: Sharp see you later.
Me: Bye.
I get in Langa's bed and start kissing him all over his face.
Langa: Ey fuck.. fuck..man move away from me!
Me: Hey baby.
Langa: Landile get the hell out of my room right now!
I get under the covers his eyes are still closed but you can
see he is angry.
Me: Mom said we should go and eat.
Langa: No she didn't, it's still early for breakfast.
Me: No it's not and my stomach knows no time for breakfast
if i'm hungry at 2am I will eat, that's my breakfast.
Langa: Then go be with your stomach in the kitchen Nadia.
Me: Come with me!
Langa: No I want to sleep.
I move the bed covers and pull him up.
Langa: I will slap you so bad.
Me: No you won't dad is just one scream away.
We end up in the kitchen making sandwiches and eating.
I go back to my room and take a shower then take a taxi to
the mall, I see Ella trying to open the store but she has so
many things in her hands she is struggling, I walk up to her.
Me: Morning.
Pamella: So early you're already here or you work around
here.
Me: No, let me help you.
I take her stuff while she opens, we walk in her office.
I look at her she keep moving her weave on the left side of
her face.
Me: Uhm you have something on your eye can I...
I walk closer to her and move her hair away from the face.
Me: What happened to you?
Pamella: Nothing..
Me: Ella don't lie to me.
Pamella: My husband will be here any minute now you need
to go.
Me: But i'm your friend will it be wrong if he finds me here?
Pamella: I don't know.
Me: so tell me about this red mark here.
Pamella: I bumped my head when I was trying to turn
around.
Me: You did?
Pamella: Yes, I need to work can you leave?
I kiss her lips, she step back shaking her head.
Pamella: This can't happen again Landile.
Me: Ok.
She pull me closer to her and start kissing me then stop, she
sit down and bust into tears.
Me: What's wrong?
Pamella: I'm sorry you have to go now.
Me: Ella I can't help you if you won't tell me what's wrong.
Pamella: Nothing is wrong Landile bye.
Me: Right.
I walk to the door.
Me: Who do you live with at home?
Pamella: My husband and my mother in-law.
I nod and walk out I bump into the husband.
Me: Uh Hey.
Him: I see you quite often around here.
Me: I work around and I want something from your wife.
Him: Which is?
Me: The dress for my mother, I want it to be extraordinary.
Him: Oh you came to the right person my wife is good.
He look like a decent person but you can never know with
men in suits.
Me: Sure man.
Him: Sure.
I walk away as he get in their office. My phone rings.
Me: Hello dad.
Luyolo: Come home we need to go over these questions
Landile.
Me: I'm on my way.
I take a taxi back home.

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I am worried about Pamella her husband might be abusing
her I could be wrong but the bruises she hides under that
make-up worries me but she did talk about the mother in
law staying with them he wouldn't abuse her with his mom
around, or would he?
I am with dad he has made me answer the questions on my
own and I keep failing.
Me: Dad it's okay I don't have to have a licence this is
impossible, this is the 4th time failing.
Luyolo: We don't give up Landile you can do this okay.
Me: I don't think I can dad.
Luyolo: Let's go over the questions again baby girl ok.
I nod and we go over everything he explains all the road
signs the controls I'm listening to him attentively.
Luyolo: Now try one last time if you can't get it right now it's
ok we will keep trying again tomorrow.
I try to answer the questions and when I see what I got I just
throw myself in bed and huff.
Luyolo: Come on it's not that bad this time you just wronged
only 15.
Me: Mmmm!
Luyolo: You will be okay, now feshen up so I can take you out
to cheer you up.
Me: I won't say no to that.
I wear different clothes from what I wore when I went to see
Ella then walk out and find Langa with dad.
Me: We're going with him?
Langa: Yes.
Me: Boring.
Luyolo: Don't start you two let's go.
He drives to the mall and we sit down and place our order.
The waitress comes with our food standing next to dad her
boobs are big and she keeps moving them closer to dad and
he isn't looking.
Me: Hey.
She looks at me.
Me: Stand that side then give us the food.
Her:What's wrong if I stand here?
Me: Your boobs are all over dad's face it's not cute.
Dad look at me then next to him, he starts laughing so loud.
Langa: I saw it too Sis I just didn't want to point it out.
Her: Are you your dad's bodyguard?
Me: Yes if I have to.
Her: He can take care of himself he looks like a very strong
man.
Langa chuckles.
Me: I hope you're not trying to flirt right here because it
won't work.
Her: Are you sure?
Me: 100%, I will call mom here and you will feel like you
have been spit out by a dog.
Her: Sir you should teach your kids manners.
Langa: Hey we came here to eat not for life lessons on what
dad should do.
Me: Now be fast and walk away we're hungry!
She starts putting the food down with so much force that the
meat fall on the table dad's face changes.
Luyolo: I think we should leave before I do something I
might regret.
We get up and I see someone rushing to us.
"Hello Mr Mzozo"
Luyolo: It's Gumede.
He nods. " I'm the manager around here and I heard from
one of my employees that you are given bad service."
Luyolo: We're already leaving so it's all good.
Manager: No please stay i'm so sorry, I promise we will deal
with this.
Langa: No I think we're good man we can't be treated like
that were we supposed to eat the food that fell on the table?
Manager: I'm really sorry sir I will get you another waiter to
serve you and it's on the house.
Me: Free food oh well thank you send that waiter our way
don't make us wait i've been hungry for hours.
We sit down and another waiter take our order he is polite.
We start eating our food and I see Ella walking in with a
woman a bit old they sit on the table not far from us.
I keep looking at her, she look sad she's keeping her head
down.
Me: Uhm dad can you excuse me I need to say hi to a friend.
Luyolo: Ok.
I get up and stand next ella.
Me: Hello Ma, Pamella.
She look up and her eyes are red like she was crying. The
woman look at me sizing me with her eyes.
Woman: Who is this Pamella?
Pamella: Just someone I know Ma.
Woman: You know people like this? That is why you can't
give my child an heir you hang around demonic people.
I look at her i'm getting really angry and Pamella is not
saying anything.
Me: I am demonic?
Woman: That's what I said, she shouldn't be around people
who do Ungodly things look at those writings on your arms.
Me: Ella..
She look up at me she has tears in her eyes.
Langa stands next to me.
Langa: Come on let's go back to our table.
I look at ella one more time then go and sit down.
Luyolo: Who is she?
Me: A friend.
Luyolo: Mmm, you care about her?
Me: Well yeah but I think I need to stay away a bit.
Luyolo: Do what you gotta do kid but don't let people make
you feel bad for the way you are.
Me: Oh lot of people have tried but it never works I am
confident with the way I am.
Luyolo: That's my girl,bring it in.
We fist bump, my eyes won't leave Pamella.
We finish eating then go back home, later mom give me the
sleeping pill and I get in bed.
I get a phone call I answer, it's Pamella.
Me: Ella.
I can hear a voice of a woman.
Woman: mubambe umqinise fanele kwenzeke loku.(hold her
tight this needs to be done)
And another voice screams 'NO!', I quickly sit up.
Me: Pamella!
No one answers and the line goes off, I get off bed and pace
around the room, I don't know where she stays and it's late
but then she's married maybe her husband will make sure
she's okay.
I get back in bed and sleep with a heavy heart I have a bad
feeling I think something is wrong with Ella.
Next morning I get out of bed and rush to take a shower get
dressed then run out of the house, I get a taxi to the mall it
drops me then I walk straight to her boutique, I find it
opened I go to that eyebrows girl in the front desk.
Me: Is Ella around?
Dee: Ella?
Me: Don't act dump you know who i'm looking for.
Dee: Never heard of Ella before.
Me: I am looking for Pamella dammit!
I shout and I see her husband walking out of the office and
walk closer to me.
Dee: Mr Mthethwa.
So he is a Mthethwa, Ella's husband.
Mthethwa: I'll take it from here Deborah you can go do
something else.
He looks at me and smile.
Mthethwa: You are here for your mom's dress?
Me: Yes.
Mthethwa: Unfortunately my wife is not around today she is
sick but it's nothing serious.
Me: When will she come back?
Mthethwa: 2-3 days will depend when she is fit to come back
to work.
Me: Look man I need the feedback of that dress as soon as
possible there is a function that mom needs to attend.
Mthethwa: Your dad is Luyolo Mzozo or is it Gumede now?
I look at him confused.
Mthethwa: That family is well known I saw you with your
brother yesterday.
I clear my throat.
Me: Oh ok look can you tell Ella to call me soon.
Mthethwa: I will.
I walk out, I need to stay away that man knows my family
and if I keep poking my nose in his business and messing
with his wife I might be putting my family in danger.
I go back home and dad and Langa help me with the
questions, I have been trying to get it right but I can't.
Langa: Come on Sis you can do this.
Luyolo: Landi look the reason why you keep failing to do this
is because you already gave up I can see it and I don't like
that, you already told yourself you can't do this.
Me: But it's true you saw it dad this is like the 10th time
trying the same shit.
He smack my mouth.
Me: Ouch!
Luyolo: You will do this and you will do it today you hear me.
Me: You are just wasting your time.
Langa: You're really starting to piss me off Nadia, have a
little faith in yourslelf you learned to drive in one day with
Nkanyezi i'm sure it was hard communicating with him but
you did it that means you can do anything if you put your
mind to it.
Luyolo: Or maybe you want Nkanyezi to teach you again?
Me: Oh hell no he was slapping me every chance he got.
Luyolo: Then do it with me i'm patient and soft on you.
Me: Ok let's start over.
They start telling me everything I keep nodding as they talk
and show me on the TV screen.
Langa: Now do it Sis.
I keep closing my eyes then open them and answer the
questions I take my time trying to bring back every single
thing they said and I keep answering till i'm done, dad check
the score I close my eyes, I gave it my best if I failed again i'm
done!
Silence, my eyes are still closed they are not saying a word I
slowly open my eyes and look at them they are standing in
front of the screen staring at me.
Me: I failed didn't I?
They continue to stare.
Me: Now you're freaking me out please stop.
They move away from the screen and I squint my eyes
looking at the screen.
Luyolo: Now look at that a 100% pass.
Me: No ways!
Langa: Told you, you can do this.
Me: I cannot believe this! YES!YES!YES!
I sit down and look at the screen once again.
Luyolo: Better believe it.
Me: Wow I wish I was writing the whole thing in that driving
centre now.
Luyolo: You will nail it, I will book for you keep practicing ok.
Me: Thank you for not giving up on me.
Langa: We don't give up on each other Sis.
I hug them then I just chill in bed, my phone rings and I
wuickly take it thinking maybe it's Ella but I roll my eyes
when I see it's Unathi.
Me: What do you want?
Unathi: To meet.
Me: Didn't I tell you to leave me the fuck alone girly?
Unathi: I just need to see you for a few minutes.
Me: No, and i'm blocking your number you're annoying me.
I drop the call then block the number.
I fall asleep while watching TV, a phone wakes me up.
Me: Talk.
Pamella: Hello Landile.
I sit up.
Me: Hey I was worried about you are you okay?
Pamella: My husband here tells me you were looking for me
regarding your mom's dress to tell you the truth I haven't
started with it yet.
Oh the husband must be around.
Me: Oh maybe we should meet tomorrow then because I
have some changes.
Pamella: I will be home for a while.
Mthethwa: "You can meet here if that's okay honey."
He shouts I guess I was on loudspeaker all along.
Pamella: Uhm I..well I will send the address.
Me: Thank you I really need it.
Pamella: Ok bye.
The phone beeps minutes later a message with her address I
check the location it's maybe 5 minutes away from here.
Mom calls me to eat and give me the pill man it works like a
charm I sleep till morning.
I wake up take a bath then go to Ella's house I stand by the
gate the house is huge man. I look around and see a buzzer I
press it and the gate slides open I walk in and knock on the
door, She comes and open in her short gown and her wrist is
bandaged.
Pamella: Hi.
Her eyes are puffy.
Me: Hey.
Pamella: Come in.
I walk in and see her husband walking in the room with
another lady in a very short dress they are giggling.
He kiss Pamella on her cheek.
Mthethwa: Sure.
I nod.
Mthethwa: Let's go Yoni, bye wifey.
They walk out and I stare at Pamella.
She walks away and I follow her meeting the woman she was
with the other day in the passage.
Woman: Oh Jesus Pamella you even bring these people in my
son's house!
Pamella: We are working Ma and Khetha is the one who said
she must come here.
Woman: Mmm! I will be back i'm meeting some important
people.
Pamella: Ok Ma.
We walk in the room it's all white, beautiful house man, she
close the door and turn the key.
Pamella: Are you trying to get me in trouble Landile.
Me: Trouble with who?
Pamella: My husband why did you lie to him.
Me: So that I can be able to meet you, so what happened to
your wrist.
Pamella: Nothing.
She sit in bed.
Pamella: Give me those ideas for your mom's dress Landile.
Me: But I lied.
Pamella: You have to think of something because I need it to
show my husband.
Me: Who was that lady he was with they looked cosy.
Pamella: Stay out of my business Landile okay.
Me: Ok sorry.
Pamella: Now tell me something.
Me: I know mom likes grey.
Pamella: Will it be short?
Me: Maybe just above the knees.
Pamella: Do you know her sizes?
Me: No.
She get up and take her laptop opening it.
Pamella: I once worked with her her sizes must be here.
I look at her.
Me: Are we really doing this right now.
Pamella: Don't you want to do something for your mother?
Me: Well if you put it that way then yes let's continue.
She writes everything down.
Pamella: I will sketch it later and show you then you will
approve.
Me: Ok.
Pamella: Do you want some juice?
I shake my head then take her hand pulling her up, I start
kissing her.
Pamella: No not this again Landile.
Me: I can't stop myself.
I kiss her and remove her gown she is wearing a very short
night dress underneath and her nipples are showing.
We kiss so slow, I feel her pulling up my tshirt and I let her
take it off, we move to bed, she is naked and I can see red
marks on her body. I remove my gun and take off my pants
and cover the gun with it then place it on the floor I'm left
with a sport bra and boxer Short, I start sucking and licking
her nipples.
Pamella: Yes..Landil..fuck..
I move all the way down to her cookie and start licking her
clit.
Pamella: Shit..
She push my head I suck and lick faster then stop and look at
her.
Pamella: Why did you stop?
Me: I want you.
She tries to get up but I pin her on the bed and kiss her then
kneel and take off my sport bra then a watch, she lick her
lips looking at me, I take off my boxer shorts then pull her up
and kiss her again, I push her to bed and move her leg up to
my shoulder and position myself in between her thighs our
clit touch, it's so warm I feel my body getting goosebumps.
Me: Fuck..
Pamella: Aah..
I start moving slow rubbing my clit to hers while pinching
her nipple.
Pamella: Fuck..this is..oh my God.
I move faster and grab her butt cheek tight.
Me: Shit..i'm so close baby..yes..
I slap her ass and grab it again she starts moving her waist,
so hot! her clit stimulates mine so hard that i feel an orgasm
close.
I balance my hands on the bed and move faster and faster
then let go, I shake aching my back.
Me: Shit..
I kiss her leg moving it away then sleep next to her, I kiss
her. It's been a long time since I felt that way, getting an
actual orgasm.
Me: Thank you for that Ella.
She is so quiet, I look at her.
Me: Are you okay?
Pamella: Yeah i'm fine.
Me: Can you tell me what is going on with you, I got a call
yesterday from your number and you were screaming.
She get up from the bed and go to the bathroom she comes
back and give me a white wet towel, I wipe myself.
Pamella: Please get dressed.
She pick up my clothes then scream.
I look at her.
Pamella: You have a gun!
She is shaking I take my clothes from her and get dressed
fast then take the gun and put it on my waist.
Me: I'm so sorry.
She look really scared, I step closer but she step back raising
her hands up, her eyes are tightly closed.
Me: Baby hey i'm sorry, please look at me.
She shakes her head I hug her tight.
Me: I'm sorry I didn't think you will see it I forgot I put it
there.
Pamella: Why do you have a gun?
Me: To protect myself, askies baby neh.
She calms down and sit in bed still naked.
Pamella: You have to go now.
Me: I want us to talk first.
She look at me.
Me: I feel something for you.
Pamella: Then stop Landile i'm married.
I look down.
Me: I can't stop, I really want you.
Pamella: I just told you i'm married..
Me:You don't feel anything for me?
Pamella: Yes..no..no.
Me: Which one is it Ella?you feel something for me?
Pamella: No..
She get up then bend over to pick her gown, I pick her up
and lay her in bed, I eat her pussy up then turn her around
her ass is up, I kneel and suck and lick her pussy.
Pamella: Aaah..
I put my middle finger in.
Me: Say you want me Ella.
She moans out, I slap her ass..
Pamella: Fuck...No..
I spank her again a bit hard while finger fucking her hard.
Me: You want me right..
Pamella: Yes..yes don't stop yes..
I remove my finger and start moving my tongue in her hole
while rubbing her clit with my hand.
Pamella: Landi babe yes..shit..
I move away and continue to rub her clit she squirts
grabbing on the sheets.
Pamella: F...fuck..
She turns around and look at me confused or shocked rather.
Me: What?
Pamella: Uhm..I.. that was my first time, I always heard some
girls talking about it.
Me: about what?
Pamella: Squirting.
She speaks in a low tone looking down like she's
embarrassed or something.
Pamella: Uhm look let me walk you out.
Me: So are we doing this?
Pamella: But how? You want me to cheat on my husband?
Me: You already cheated..
Pamella: I'm not leaving him, I can't..
Me: Why?
Pamella: I love him..
I nod.
She wears her gown and open the door I follow her, we walk
out a gate opens.
Pamella: Bye.
Me: I lo...
Pamella: No..
She push me out the gate and walk in.
I walk to the shelter and wait for a taxi.
I get home and take a bath then go to my room.
I quickly get up and take my phone trying to call Ella by it
goes straight to voicemail..
Me: Shit..shit..
I call her again and it ring I sigh.
Pamella: Hi.
Me: Uhm please look for my watch there.
Pamella: You left your watch here?where is it!
She is panicking and i'm panicking as well that watch is
manly and if her husband sees it, it might get her in trouble.
Me: You found it?
Pamella: I'm still looking, why did you leave it here are you
trying to get me in trouble?
Me: No..no I really didn't mean to leave it there, i'm sorry
baby.
Pamella: Don't call me that!
I hear her sigh.
Pamella: I found it, this shouldn't happen ever again Landile.
She drops the call.
I sigh sitting in bed, I wipe my face.
Luyolo: Knock knock.
Me: Dad.
Luyolo: You're going to do a learners licence next friday.
Me: Dad that's too soon today it's Sunday.
Luyolo: You have time and I think you will nail it.
Me: I hope so I don't want to dissapoint you guys.
Luyolo: Let's go eat.
I walk out and we sit on the table.
Me: Oh hey Sofia you're still around? you look pretty..
Miyalo: Ugly.
We laugh.
Langa: You thought she ran away sis?
Me: You'll never know with that blouse, are those wings on
it?
Miyalo: I was worried too, she look like she can fly any
minute from now.
Sfiso: I've never seen anything like it before..
Ntsika is in tears..
Langa: Yeah we should keep the windows closed.
Me: True I don't trust those wings.
Ziyanda: Hey!stop it or I will slap all of you one by one!
Me: Mom we were just...
Ziyanda: Landile!!
I shut my mouth and look at Sofia's blouse I burst in
laughter, she look so angry. Mom is staring at me.
Me: I'm so sorry mom it's just that yhoo haa!
I get up and walk away to calm myself down because the
look mom is giving me is enough to send someone straight to
hell.
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
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NADIA
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I haven't heard anything from Ella in two days her phone is
off and I haven't been going to her store because I don't want
her husband to start suspecting that something is up.
It's Wednesday I have stress one is for a learners licence that
is a day away then Pamella that I last saw Sunday.
My phone rings and I don't know the number.
Me: Hello.
"Hello this is Khetha Mthethwa Pamella's husband is this
Landile?"
I feel my heart beating fast, maybe something is wrong with
Ella.
Me: Yes.
Mthethwa: Can we meet?
Me: as regards to what sir?
Mthethwa: oh you're meeting me and my wife for that dress.
Me: Ok where and when?
Mthethwa: Our office at 10 am.
Me: Oh ok I will be there.
I look at the time it's 7:30 am, I go eat breakfast then take a
shower and wear white jeans and white tshirt with black
sneakers, I put my gun on my waist and a phone in my
pocket and walk out.
Langa: Going somewhere?
Me: I have a meeting somewhere.
Langa: Ok I can drop you off i'm going to Sfiso's workplace.
Me: Thank you.
He drop me off at the mall and I walk in and the first person I
see is eyebrows I pass her she clears her throat.
Dee: Why don't you greet and tell me where you're going?
Me: I didn't know you're a receptionist.
I leave her there and knock on the office it's opened.
Mthethwa: Come on in.
I walk in and sit opposite them, Ella is looking down.
Mthethwa: Ella say hi to your friend.
She look up a little then down again, I feel my body shaking,
the blue eye is back.
Pamella: Hey Landile.
Me: Hi.
Mthethwa: Uhm Did you lose something in my house the
other day.
I look at Ella a little she move her head a little.
Me: Oh yes my watch it must have fell off when I rushed out
to meet my brother outside your gate.
I used to lie to make a living so lying is never an issue, when
you live in the street one thing you should learn is lying so
you can manipulate people into giving you money for that
next meal. I used to lie about living with my 5 younger
siblings and a sick grandma and it worked people pitied me
and they would go as far as buying me a little grocery which
I would share with those I lived with.
Mthethwa: Oh so you were right baby, i'm sorry for doubting
you.
He turns her face and kiss her lips so slow I look away.
Mthethwa: Sorry about that.
He says smiling.
Me: It's okay.
Mthethwa: Can you believe that I thought my wife was
cheating on me with some rich man because that watch is
expensive.
Me: That is my twin brother's watch and he doesn't even
know I took it he would throw a fit if he were to find out.
That is the truth it's Langa's watch he doesn't know I took it,
yet.
Mthethwa: The gay brother?
Me: They prefer being called homosexuals.
Mthethwa: Yeah, yeah sorry so what about you, you date
girls?
Me: Not really I think I just like dressing up like my brother.
Mthethwa: oh and you have a cool style by the way.
Me: Thanks.
Mthethwa: Here's your watch man.
He gives me the watch.
Me: Thank you, hope I didn't get Mrs in trouble.
Mthethwa: Oh no not really we just talked because I found it
in her bag.
Me: Oh ok.
Mthethwa: So let's get down to business, show her the
sketch Ella.
All this time she is looking down.
She take out her file and open it giving it to me.
Me: Uhm hey friend, were you hit by something in your eye?
Pamella: Uhm I..
He cut her off.
Mthethwa: She bumped her eye on the door, my poor baby.
Me: Oh sorry neh.
She nods. I look at the sketch and I can see it's the dress but..
Me: Uhm what are these round things here?
He chuckles.
Pamella: Uhm we will put the diamonds sparkles all over the
dress it can't be just plain grey.
Me: Mm interesting, must cost a lot huh.
Mthethwa: Well since you're my wife's friend we can give
you a discount.
Me: Ok thank man.
Pamella: You will have to give me a week is that ok.
Me: Yes it is thanks.
Her husband's phone rings.
Mthethwa: Mondise...oh ok let's meet in town in 10 minutes
at the harbour.
He drops the call and pull pamella up and hug her his hand
goes to her butt and he squeeze it.
Mthethwa: I have to rush somewhere, I'll see you later ok.
He kiss her for a long time it's like he is showing off or
something.
Mthethwa: I love you.
Pamella: I..I love you too.
He takes his phone.
Mthethwa: Can we talk outside for a minute you will come
back.
I nod and follow him outside.
Mthethwa: Uh how long have you known my wife?
Me: not so long, why?
Mthethwa: I think she is changing man.
Me: How?
Mthethwa: She used to be nagging you know but now she is
just keeping to herself do you think maybe she's seeing
someone?
Me: I don't think so maybe it's all in your head, I would have
picked up something if there was someone else.
Mthethwa: Yeah hey so you would tell me if you know
something?
Me: I don't get myself involved in people's business.
Mthethwa: Yeah and you guys are not really familiar with
the outside world I heard one of your brothers saying you
are each other's best friends.
Me: True.
Mthethwa: Sure let me go, thanks man.
Me: Sure.
I walk back in and sit opposite Pamella she still can't look at
me.
Me: Look at me Ella.
She shakes her head.
Me: Did he beat you up because of that watch?
Pamella: No.
Me: Why are you lying to me? You can trust me baby.
Pamella: He didn't do it.
Me: Then who did?
Pamella: Uhm I have to be at the factory in 45 minutes I want
to start your mom's dress I want to do it myself.
I nod.
Me: Are you guys having sex?
She chokes on her saliva and stare at me.
Pamella: What kind of question is that, he is my husband of
course I have sex with him, we are trying for a baby!
Me: Were you trying a baby with me too the other day when
we fucked?
She throws a pen at me, it miss and fall on the floor.
I look at her squinting my eyes.
Me: You're angry? Thought you sleep with people you're
trying for a baby with.
Pamella: Fuck you Landile.
Me: Takes two, or in a threesome it's 3 and so on.
Pamella: Get out!
Me: With pleasure.
I get up.
Pamella: You're a piece of shit.
Me: And you were rubbing pussies with that piece of shit..
She start crying, I walk around the table and sit on her desk
in front of her.
Me: Help me help you Ella tell me something, anything, I
can't do anything if you don't tell me what is going on.
Pamella: I'm fine.
She wipe her tears and get up, she start kissing me I push her
back a little.
Pamella: You don't want me anymore?
Me: You just told me minutes ago that you and your husband
are fucking and you're kissing me with the same mouth you
kissed him with, If I want to kiss a man I will go out there
and kiss one and not through you, though i am strictly into
ladies.
She sit down.
Me: Talk to me when you're ready before it's too late,
women are killed everyday by their spouses because they
don't want to talk so i'm begging you Ella say something.
Pamella: There's nothing to say my husband and I are good.
My phone rings and it's this Unathi girl, I answer on speaker.
Me: What?
Unathi: Come on Landi you can't give me a good time and
leave me hanging.
Me: I can and so I did.
Unathi: Please just once.
Me: Baby girl I told you to show your man where your Gspot
is, I left you because you had a crazy man that I almost shot
and now i'm about to leave someone else who has a man too.
Ella look at me I raise my eyebrow.
Unathi: It's not even about that Landi I think I have feelings
for you.
I see Pamella quickly get up and snatch the phone from my
hand.
Pamella: She's taken bitch.
Unathi: Uhm I..i'm so sorry.
The phone alert that the call has been dropped , I look at
Pamella defeated I don't know if I should laugh or what.
She throws my phone on the table.
Me: Taken by who?
Pamella: Uhm I didn't mean to do that I was just caught up
in..
Me: In jealousy.
Pamella: No, I'm not jealous.
Me: Mmm, can you wipe your mouth, I want to kiss you.
She stares at me not moving an inch I get up and look around
I see wipes next to the door I take one and stand next to her
and bend a little wiping her mouth.
Pamella: What are you doing?
Me: wiping your mouth so I can kiss you.
Pamella: You're crazy!
Me: I know love.
We kiss and the way she is kissing me makes me horny, her
tongue moves so slow on mine, she has never kissed me like
this before..
I pick her up she wraps her legs around my waist, I lift her
dress up and caress her butt grabbing it.
We stop when we hear a knock on the door I put her down
and she fix her dress, I sit back on the chair.
Pamella: Come in.
The eyebrows lady walk in and look at me.
Me: Don't do that your cheekbones look like tomatoes you're
scaring me, is that an actual make-up or is it the kid's
crayons?
She look pissed off.
Pamella: Landile come on.
Me: Don't start it if you can't finish it, she gave me attitude
the minute she saw me so it's on.
Dee: Boss lady I apologised I really did.
Me: Oh don't cry sweety or are you watering the tomatoes?
Pamella: Ok get the fuck out of here Landile I will call you
when your mom's dress is ready.
I smile and wink at her getting up I move my face closer to
Dee's face then step back.
Me: Your eyelashes are about to fall off i'm giving you three
days and I will be here telling you I told you so.
Ella chuckles.
Dee: You know I can slap you right now those lesbian's
clothes don't scare me.
I put my hands on my waist and look at Pamella.
Me: How the hell did you hire her Ella, this is a boutique do
you have a collection you call lesbian's clothes?
Ella is laughing, she pack her stuff.
Dee step closer and raise her hand to slap me but I grab it
before it reach my face and squeeze it, she flinch.
Dee: Ouch you're hurting me!
Pamella: Landile stop!
I let go.
Me: You see this...try that shit again.
I show her the gun.
Dee: Mxm that's a toy don't try to scare me with that.
I take it out and unload it, 3 bullets fall down on the floor, I
stare at her.
Me: One bullet left in here wanna say something.
Pamella: Landile put that thing away..
I look at her she is shaking, she is afraid of guns and so is this
Dee.
Me: I'm sorry.
I pick up the bullets and load them again then put it back in
my waist.
Pamella take her bags and push me out of the way and walk
out, I follow her.
Me: Hey ella stop.
She rush out I keep following her till we're out, she stop next
to the car.
Me: I'm sorry baby.
Pamella: I don't like guns Landile didn't you get it the last
time I saw your gun!
Me: I did askies baby.
Pamella: Stop calling me baby.
Me: Why should I stop?
Pamella: You will get used to it and call me in wrong places.
Me: But Ella are we in a relationship or what?
Pamella: No we're not.
Me: Then why did you get angry when that girl was calling
me?
Pamella: I was just playing.
Me: Ok so there's nothing going on between us?
Pamella: Nothing.
Me: Ok.
I step back turn around then walk back inside the mall, I call
my brother Langa.
Langa: Hello.
Me: Langelihle.
Langa: Landile Nadia Gumede.
Me: Are you making another ID for me?
Langa: What!?
Me: I see you calling all my names and a surname they did
that at home affairs for confirmation.
Langa: You are an idiot.
Me: What are you doing?
Langa: Nothing, i'm at home.
Me: Then come pick me up at the mall and take me to the
beach you promised.
Langa: Ok Sis i'm coming I was missing you, buy us
something we will eat in the meantime.
Me: Ok brother.
As I walk in the restaurant I see a flashlight and a snap I look
up, another one.
I step closer to the lady that is taking pictures of me.
Me: You got a good shot?
She look scared.
Me: Relax, now why are you snapping the pictures do you
want to put them on the wall in your bedroom?
Her: What!?no no uhm i'm sorry I thought you're are
someone.
Me: Does he or she have a name?
Her: Uhm Langa loka Sfiso.
Me: Do you see a beard anywhere on this face?
Langa: I heard my name.
I turn he is wearing all black, brother look good.
Langa: Hey Sis.
We shoulder hug another snap.
Me: Let me guess now you thought we are a cat and a dog?
Her: I'm sorry.
Me: It doesn't hurt to ask you know.
Her: I just wanted to be the first one to write about you
because we were still getting rumous about you.
Me: What were you going to write when you take pictures of
me un aware who were you going to say I am?
Her: I didn't think of that.
Langa: Are you a journalist?
Her: Yes.
Me: Are they supposed to be proffessionals brother?
Langa: I think so.
Me: Then what is this?
Langa: I'm just as confused as you're.
"UHM HELLO! SORRY! HEY! are you here to order or what? If
not please get out of here you are blocking people from
coming in."
A voice shouts on the counters, I look behind me then next to
me then go to her with a smile she is chewing a gum like
crazy.
Me: Oh hey journalist you're not getting a story from me go
away.
I shout at the journalist then focus on this lady that was
shouting at us my brother is next to me.
Me: Were you shouting at us Miss Prisca?
I say reading her name tag.
Prisca: You were blocking the customers sir or madam.
The people next to her giggle.
I look at Langa with a smile.
Me: You can't tell the difference between me and him?
I point at Langa.
Prisca: Clearly.
They giggle again, I shake my head chuckling.
Me: So you're a comedian around here they laugh at
everything you say.
Prisca: You could say that.
The chewing gum is irritating me.
Langa: You really need to learn how to address people with
respect.
Prisca: I don't have to learn shit you can't just stand there
we're in business here.
Me: I assume you have shares huh.
Prisca: That's not your business.
Me: Let's go brother..
We turn and walk towards the door I turn.
Me: Hey Prisca your friends are not laughing at your jokes
they are laughing at you, ask them, I saw the one on your
right looking at your wig and shaking her head, kukhona
okuwrong ngayo. (there's something wrong with it)
I shout then we walk out Langa is laughing.
Me: Siyabaxova. (we're causing conflit)
Langa: You're bad!
Me: Hunger makes me crazy brother.
We go to another restaurant and buy our food then walk out.
We get in his car and he drive to the beach, we take off our
shoes and roll up our jeans on the legs, we take our food
then walk towards the beach we sit down on the sand, the
water stop just 2feets away from us.
We start eating our food.
Langa: So you have been quiet busy these days.
Me: Not really.
Langa: But you're always not around.
Me: I told you I have meetings.
Langa: I hope those meetings are not between you and
people's women.
Me: Trust me I'm done with that.
Langa: No you're not..
Me: I'm serious.
Langa: You're like the female version of myself I know when
you're lying.
Me: This time you're wrong brother.
Langa: I hope so.
We sit in silence and look at the waves, I can feel this peace I
had years ago whenever I visited the beach.
Langa: So this is your escape?
Me: This is my escape.
Langa: Maybe it should be ours, Mom once made me watch
an Episode of something called 'married to medicine' there
were these four women who lost their dads so they went to
the beach with flowers and had a talk with their dads like
they are there with them then when they are done they leave
the flowers there so I want us to do this to let go of the anger
and resentment we have towards Layla then start on a clean
slate and since we don't have flowers we will use sand.
I nod we both take sand into the palms of our hands and
walk in, the water stop on our ankles.
Langa: Layla I am here to tell you that whatever plan you had
failed, the plan of seperating me and my twin sister didn't
work guess what we're are together now and we will grow
old together, I hate you for what you did to us, I hate you for
what you did to my brothers, my mother I hate you for what
you did to my sister and I hate you for what you did to me
when I thought I was giving you a second chance but it's
time to let go of this anger inside me because I don't wanna
grow up a bitter person, I have kids on the way and what you
did to me makes me want to give them everything you failed
to give but then another woman stepped in the love of my
life Ziyanda, you were never going to be half the woman she
is, so goodbye Layla I forgive you to cleance my soul from
you.
He let go of the sand in his hand and look up he huffs
blinking, I smile and clear my throat.
Me: Yeah I thought you owed me an explanation on why you
left me all alone but I see now that I don't need it at all you
can keep it, I am happy now I have found my family, what I
have always longed for all my life, now I take everything I
went
through as steps to get to where I am,that was the dark path
I had to walk to get to my twin brother my family, and just
like him I'm letting go of the anger, you don't deserve any
emotion from me anymore no anger or love you don't exist
not even in my dreams and today we are burying you along
with the hate and all that we went through it's all on you, my
family is starting a new chapter now with Landile Nadia
Gumede in it, if you don't like it deal with it.
I let go of the sand in the water and Langa pull me into a
tight squeeze, I hug him back.
Langa: I love you.
Me: I love you too.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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NADIA
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I am sitting in bed nervous as hell, today it's friday that
means I have to go and get my learners Licence the past day
that Pamella never contacted me I used it to test myself if I
can still remember dad's lessons, I spent the whole day in
my room mom kept on bringing me something to eat.
"Landile we are getting late come out of that room right
now!" that's dad shouting from the dining room, I sit still on
the bed.
"LANDILE!" he shouts again I can hear footsteps coming
towards my room and he stares at me.
Luyolo: Are you crazy why are you sitting on that bed?
Me:Dad i'm nervous.
Luyolo: Why?
Me: What if I fail?
Luyolo: Then you will do it again, Landi failure is part of life,
it helps you grow and become a better person than who you
were yesterday, , do you hear me?
Me: I hear you I just don't want to dissapoint you.
Luyolo: You won't, I know you won't Phakathwayo.
Me: Ok.
I get up.
Luyolo: Leave that gun.
Me: What gun?
I ask acting dump I don't know how he saw it.
Luyolo: I said leave that gun you will be with me you don't
need it.
I slowly take out my gun and put it under the mattress.
I follow him and find my brothers and Sfiso standing outside.
Nkanyezi: " Goodluck little sis."
I don't get it.
Langa: He said good luck big head.
Nkanyezi walk up to him and he run away laughing.
Luyolo: He is lying he said goodluck little sis.
Me: I knew it, this yellow pepper is a liar!
Langa: Who's yellow pepper Nadia?
He says coming to me but dad stand in front of me.
Langa: Dad you're protecting someone who just called your
son a yellow pepper.
Ntsika: Leave my sister alone Langelihle, come give big
brother a hug man.
I hug him.
Ntsika: We believe in you Sis.
Me: Thank you.
They all hug me, mom comes out in grey sweat pants and a
grey vest this woman takes care of her body maybe dad is
her movivation.
Ziyanda: I'm coming with.
Sfiso: Goodluck buddy.
Me: thanks.
I fist bump him and get in the back seat dad drives off.
Ziyanda: How are the nerves?
Me: Don't ask I feel like puking everything I ate for breakfast.
Ziyanda: You will be ok.
Me: Thanks.
I know they all mean well but the way they are making this a
big deal it's putting too much pressure on me that is why i'm
so nervous they have too much faith in me it's scary.
He drives in the centre I huff.
Ziyanda: Let's walk her in honey.
Luyolo: Here's your ID pictures and the proof of residence.
he give me in a plastic file.
Me: Thank you.
We step out and dad shows me where to go.
Luyolo: We will wait for you in the car okay.
Me: Ok.
He kiss my forehead and hug me then mom hugs me as well
kissing my cheek.
I give them thumbs up then I walk in.
They do all everything from the eye test to everything that
needs to be done then the moment of truth, I'm standing on
the computer I look at the time we are given to answer and
sweat run down my fucken spine.
It starts counting and I begin reading the questions two
times then answer it goes on for a few minutes then I'm done
before time, I go back again to double check I think I got
everything right now when the time is up I submit then
result show up immediately I can hear other people making
noise I huff and shake my head.
I pay and wait for a while for it to be issued. I cannot believe
it!
I keep getting up and pacing up and down thinking maybe
they will call me and say maybe the computer made a
mistake, But I get my learners licence certificate and put it in
a plastic file making sure they don't see it as I walk out.
I walk out with my head hanging down i look disappointed
mom and dad step out of the car.
Ziyanda: How did it go?
I sob.
Me: I failed mom I dissapointed you guys i'm so sorry.
Luyolo: Come on don't talk like that you will try again we can
even book today for your next test.
Me: No I need a break from all this, Oh my God.
The drama i'm putting in this crying.
Luyolo: It's okay don't cry we are proud that you came here.
We walk back in the car and mom sit with me at the back
and I sleep on her lap she's brushing my head.
I must have fell asleep I wake up when I feel a sting on my
cheek I look around I can see we're already home, I step out
and everyone is looking at me folding their arms, I rub my
cheek.
Me: Hey who slapped me?
Luyolo: I did.
Me: But why because I failed?
Luyolo: I will slap you again Landi.
Me: Aren't you the one who said failing is fine and and and.
He walk up to me trying to slap me again and I step back.
Luyolo: I hate what you did Landile so much.
Me: I'm sorry I failed...
Luyolo: Hey What is this?
He shows me my learners licence, my brothers are laughing
shaking their heads.
Me: Well i'm sorry I was putting on a play, am I not the best
actor in the world?
Luyolo: Someone get me a belt so I can beat the hell out of
her.
Ziyanda: Look no further here it is.
She comes out with a belt.
Ziyanda: My tears! because I thought you're sad you naughty
child!
Me: Wait guys are you really going to beat me up on my
happiest day in life?
Luyolo: I will so that you won't try to prank us like that
again!
Me: Wow dad you're really angry I can see fury in your eyes
old man.
He runs to me but I run out the gate.
Luyolo: Get back here now Landile.
Me: Dad i'm sorry I would kneel but my pants are white the
stains might stay on them forever.
Luyolo: I'm proud of you.
Langa: We all are.
I walk back in and hug dad.
Me: Thank you for believing in me dad, and all of you big
heads and you mommy.
We walk in and go eat a late lunch the table is full they
prepared a feast.
Miyalo: Congratulations!
They hug me.
Iyana: I am so happy for you I am next you should teach me
how you did it.
Me: I will thank you guys.
Ntsoaki: You're smarter than you think.
Me: I believe that now.
We eat over some loud conversation everyone seem happy
even the kids have so much energy.
"Nidla ngaphandle kwami."
A voice says behind me mom jumps up and run to him, that's
the guy theeMighty Lukhele the big dog, the founder of
Lukhele Properties the great former Station commander to
ever live I have never seen him this close but I know him
from the media, he is thee man who took down most wanted
notorious gangsters and drug loads in Durban and
neighbouring areas, he is the man people hate to love, Look
at me praising the man.
Everyone is up hugging him i'm the only one sitting on th
table, they all look so happy to see him.
Lukhele: Hey!
He shouts and his voice echoes in my eardrums.
I slowly get up and look at him, he look from me to Langa
then back at me.
Lukhele: Luyolo! You didn't tell me that this is the actual
Langelihle without a beard!
I smile looking down everyone is facing me i'm the only one
on my side.
Lukhele: Look, even those bow legs.
I stand there while old man analyses me like I did him in my
head a minute ago.
Luyolo: Look at her acting all shy, they not only look alike
dad, they talk a lot too.
Me: Dad don't embarass me in front of this Great man.
Luyolo: Ndiyaxoka? (Am I lying?)
Me: Yes.
Lukhele: What is your name?
Me: Landile Nadia Gumede.
He smiles.
Lukhele: I love how you just gave me the full details, come to
your grandpa.
I walk up to him he pulls me to a hug then kiss my forehead.
Lukhele: Welcome home Landile Nadia Gumede.
Everyone laughs.
Lukhele: I guess you know me you just called me a great
man.
Me:Yes I do, I read a lot about you when I was still on the bad
side of the law because I didn't want to cross paths with you,
you didn't play games at all.
Lukhele: You did good I was going to arrest my grandchild
God forbid.
Me: I admire the work you have done for a lot of
communities out there, during your time as a station
commander the crime rate decreased with over 70% here
which was something they last saw for over 25 years before
you.
Everyone is smiling looking at me.
Langa: So you can be serious sometimes?
Lukhele: Why are you interrupting her she's giving me
praises in my old age, don't stop maPhakathwayo go on.
I laugh then we sit back on the table.
Lukhele: Nomvula..
I look around the table.
Iyana: Yes grandpa.
Me: Ay ay ay you're norain? at your age who named her? Dad
we're taking her to home affairs to change that hideous
name, why did you go with just me to home affairs when
there is a young lady who has that name.
Ntsika: There we go!
He says laughing grandpa is staring at me with his mouth
hung open.
Lukhele: How do you cope with two Langelihles in one
house?
Langa: But Grandpa I haven't said anything yet I have
changed.
Lukhele: Yeah I believe you Sir.
Langa: Do I sense some sarcasm in there Lukhele?
Lukhele: I'm old I have no idea what that is son, get me a
plate Nomvula.
I laugh.
Iyana: Sis Nadia please don't start.
Me: But I didn't say anything little Nomvula.
Langa: Or she can be nomaFloods nozikhukhula in full Zulu.
Luyolo: Ok leave my daughter alone you two.
We eat then go our seperate rooms I take off my clothes and
get in bed, I miss Ella so much but I will wait for her to call
me, she did say there's nothing going on between us so I
can't keep pushing.
I wake up in the morning my phone is ringing, it's Pamella I
rush to the bathroom then come back to answer.
Me: Hi.
Pamella: Hey.
Silence.
Pamella: I have finished your mom's dress you can fetch it in
my office today.
Me: What time?
Pamella: Anytime.
Me: Should I bring cash or a card is fine?
Pamella: A bank card is fine.
Me: Ok .
I drop the call and do my morning routine then walk out, and
take a taxi to the mall, I walk in and whistle passing Dee all
the way to Ella's office.
Me: Morning ma'am.
Pamella: Hi you can have a seat.
Me: Thanks.
She takes the dress and give it to me, I look at her no blue
eye today.
I look at it, this dress is beautiful and I hope mom will like it.
Me: Thank you, here is the card.
She swipe it and I punch the pin, she gives me back the card
then the slip all in silence.
Pamella: Don't throw away the slip yet so maybe we can
figure something out if it doesn't fit.
Me: Ok thanks.
I get up and walk to the door.
Pamella: Landile..
Me: Yeah.
I say not looking at her.
Pamella:Uhm I..I never mind.
Me: Ok.
I walk out and pass Dee.
Me: Told you your eyelashes won't be here today!
I say to Dee on my way out and take a taxi to mom's hospital
it drops me at the gate
I walk in and knock in her office that is slightly opened.
Ziyanda: Baby hey wow what a nice suprise, come in.
She goes around the table and hug me then we sit down.
Me: I got something for you if you don't like it say it don't
pretend ok.
Ziyanda: I won't baby.
I give her the plastic.
Ziyanda: PamellaK C!
She reads what is written on the plastic bag out loud she
look excited already.
She takes out the dress and gasps.
Ziyanda: What!?
Me:uhm Do you like it Ella said we can bring it back if you
don't..
Ziyanda: Landile!this dress is Amazing and my favourite
colour that shines in those diamonds.
Me: So you like it.
Ziyanda: Baby this is...wow!let me fit, let me fit aaaah..
She screams walking in the bathroom, I wait for her to come
out and she does doing the catwalk it fits her perfectly.
Me: Wow it suits you.
Ziyanda:It does right it's like it was made for me.
I smile she stares at me.
Ziyanda: It must be made for me no one can get my size that
fits me like this, how did you do it.
Me: Pamella said she once worked with you so she looked up
your sizes and I told her your favourite colour grey I have
seen it everywhere, your room the gym clothes the couches
everything.
She hugs me tight.
Ziyanda: Thank you so much, thank you baby your dad will
be so jealous of me i'm sexy in this dress and I already see
the shoes i'm wearing it with i'm glad I can walk in heels at
first it was a disaster.
Me: I'm glad you like it I was holding my breath.
Ziyanda: How do you know Pamella?
Me: I bumped into her at the mall and I saw her boutique.
Ziyanda: Thank you so much this is beautiful baby.
Me: Ok i'll see you at home mom.
Ziyanda: I love you Landile.
I smile.
Me: I love you too mom.
I walk out and i'm getting the stares from the nurses.
I take a taxi home and go to my room taking off my tshirt
then watch tv. The phone rings.
Me: Did you forget something?
Pamella: Uh no, look Landile I know what I said last time but
I can't stop thinking about you.
Me: So what do you want me to do?
Pamella: Please come over to eat dinner with me.
Me: That's crazy.
Pamella: I will be alone, my husband is overseas for business
and my mother in law went home for a while please I don't
like eating alone.
Me: So what time should I come?
Pamella: Even right now it's fine.
Me: Ok.
I huff, maybe I will get her to tell me what is happening in
her household.
I wear the clothes I was wearing earlier and only change the
tshirt.
I arrive at her house she opens the door in her black panty
and a bra walking barefoot she has a glass of wine in her
hand she keeps sipping on it.
Me: Uhm why are you walking around half naked?
Pamella: Because I can.
She giggles.
Me: Are you drunk already?
Pamella: No i'm not, come eat this pizza with me.
I sit with her and we start eating pizza.
Pamella: You want a glass of wine?
Me: Only one glass don't want to get drunk in your
husband's house.
We eat and drink wine, next thing she pulls me to her and
start licking my face.
Me: What are you doing?
Pamella: I need you Landi make me feel good.
Me: Not here.
I pick her up, she screams.
Pamella: Don't make me fall.
Me: Would that be a bad thing?
She look down on me smiling.
Pamella: I didn't mean it like that.
I put her down she takes my hand and pull me to the
bedroom her ass is driving me insane.
We get in the room and we are all over each other kissing the
moans fill the entire room.
Me: Can I take out my gun and put it away before you scream
at me.
Pamella: Yes put it on that drawer.
I put it where she is showing me.
She starts kissing me I push her to bed and remove her bra
her nipples are so erect, I kiss her neck while playing with
them.
Pamella: Aahh..
I kiss her body everywhere you can imagine then play with
the fabric of her panty on her clit
Pamella: Aah yes baby that feels good..
I remove it and start sucking her then stop I sit up and pull
her ontop of me, i'm still wearing my sport bra and the boxer
short.
I pull her to my face her pussy is in my mouth i'm eating it
up, she hold on the headboard and start moving her waist
while I'm licking her pussy I'm holding her ass.
Pamella: Fuck babe yes i'm gonna cum baby yes right there
don't stop please..
I press my tongue on her clit I feel her moving her waist
faster I pull her down and insert my middle finger she
shakes and squeeze my shoulders tight.
Pamella: Ooh fuck...shit.
She look down on me smiling.
Me: What?
Pamella: Can I make you feel just as good?
Me: No.
Pamella: Why not..
She says moving her hands on my stomach.
Me: Mmm..
Pamella: I love this part of your body, these abs are a turn on
for me, never seen a woman with them ever.
Her hand move inside my boxer shorts, she touch my clit a
little I feel my body getting hot. She pull them down.
Me: Pamella stop..
I say almost out of breath.
Pamella: But why Landi?
She push my legs apart then I feel her hand on my pussy..
Me: Fuck..
She push my legs up and bury her head on my thighs, I feel
her warm mouth come in contact with my clit.
Me: Shit..Ella..what are you doing..
She starts sucking me I ache my back closing my eyes, never
felt like this before.
Me: Ella..
She continue doing her thing down there and she knows
what she's doing I feel her finger in me I shift uncomfortable.
She makes eye contact.
Pamella: Relax..
She inserts the middle finger and start going in and out while
sucking my clit the eye contact she keep making is insane.
Me: Baby..
I feel my orgasm so I pull her up to me and kiss her, she
moves her waist in between my thighs in a scissor position
and start rubbing each others clits, the girl can move her
waist alright..
I spank her butt and she moves even faster I grab on it as I
feel my knees getting weak I let go of my juices she continues
moving until she shakes a bit and sleep on top of me, I move
her hair away from her face and kiss her.
Me: You make me do things i've never let any girl do.
Pamella: Like what?
Me: The sucking and the fingering, I do all that and rub
pussies that's it , I have never allowed any girl to touch me
like that.
Pamella: I saw you were a bit uncomfortable at first.
Me: I'm in love with you Ella but if you don't want to tell me
what's going on we will have to stop whatever we're doing.
Pamella: I just need time.
Me: Time for what? tell me what's going on around you Ella.
She get out of bed and walk to the bathroom and come back I
wipe myself then wear my boxer short sitting in bed, she
wraps a towel around her body.
Pamella: There is more happening around this house and I
can't tell you, i'm scared for my life Landi and yours too.
Me: Then why stay?
Pamella: I can't get out, it's impossible.
Me: So what? you will stay even though you're not happy?
Pamella: I have no other choice.
I look at her hands.
Me: Where is your ring?
Pamella: I removed it.
Me: Why?
Pamella: To give you a little respect, I can't touch you while
wearing that ring.
I smile looking at her.
Me: Do you love me?
Pamella: I hate to admit but I do a lot Landi.
Me: But you love him never mind what is happening.
She look down.
Pamella: He is my first love.
I nod.
Me: Uhm then I will have to share you with him?
Pamella: He doesn't really care about me anymore.
Me: But you're trying for a baby?
She get up and wear her gown sitting on the dressing table
looking at me.
Pamella: Let's not talk about it Landi we will get in trouble.
Me: So what is this between us Ella?
Pamella: I don't know, I want you Landile, the past day
without seeing or talking to you was driving me crazy I
didn't know what to do.
Me: So all we will do is sneak around?
Pamella: Yes unless you want us to stop all this.
Me: So I have to understand that you're trying for a baby
with your husband Ella?you want me to compete with a
dick?
Pamella: Please don't shout at me.
Me: It's either you leave him Ella or i'm gone.
Pamella: Babe please understand ..
I nod.
Me: Look I knew you were married and this was wrong to
begin with.
I get up and pick up my tshirt on the floor and wear it.
Me: I can't do this i'm fighting a losing battle here, you are
still in love with your husband and you guys want something
as precious as the baby together I don't see Landile
anywhere in this scenario I don't fit anywhere.
I wear my pants and my shoes.
Pamella: Please Landi don't go baby, please.
Me: Why should I stay?
Pamella: You can't just leave me Landile I love you.
I look at her, she has tears in her eyes.
Next thing I feel dizzy like my head is spinning.
Pamella: Oh my God, What have I done..!
Me: Ella what is going on?
She starts screaming.
Me: Take my phone and call my brother..
My nose starts bleeding my vision is becoming blurry by the
minute.
She comes with a towel and wipe my nose I'm holding on to
the bed.
Pamella: Uhm hey hello Langa, it's..please come to my house.
Langa: Who are you?
Pamella: Landi is not okay please hurry.
Langa: What where is she?talk to me, what is wrong with my
sister!
Pamella: I will send the address now..
She type something on the phone and I sleep back on the
bed, the headache it's like my veins are cutting.
After like 15 minutes there's a buzz, i'm keeping my eyes
closed..
She walks away and hear a lot of footsteps coming in.
Langa: Hey Sis, what happened to her?
Ntsika: Landile can you hear me?
I sit up and open my eyes.
I can see Ntsika , Langa and Nkanyezi all standing in front of
me.
Me: Where is Ella?
Pamella: I'm here..
Me: Give me my gun..
My vision is still a bit blurry.
She stands in front of me.
Pamella: Your brother has it, I'm sorry Landi.
My brother help me up and we walk to the car and drive
home.
The minute we walk in I collapse on the floor but I can hear
noise around me.
Ntsoaki: Move her to Ntsika's room, babe I don't know if i'm
strong enough for this.
Ntsika: I will be holding your hand, we need to help her.
I feel myself being picked up on the floor and then the
movements and back on the floor again.
I smell the incense around the room.
Ntsoaki: She was in the wrong place at a wrong time, she
shouldn't have been in that house, it knows what is was
there for but it wasn't meant for her.
Langa: But can you help her?
Ntsoaki: You should have done it Ntsika immediately after
she was introduced to the ancestors.
Ntsika: I thought we still had time and we would go back
home and bind her to us.
Silence.
Ntsika: I'm sorry..
She starts speaking in her language so fast and I feel like
whatever was holding me has finally let go, there is silence, I
open my eyes then sit up.
Langa kneels in front of me and hug me tight.
Langa: I thought I was losing you.
Me: I'm not going anywhere.
He look at me.
Langa: Stay away Landile, do you hear me? Stay away!
Me: I hear you and I will stay away.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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PAMELLA
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The name is Pamella Kunene Mthethwa I am from south
coast and I have been married for four years with the guy I
fell in love with when I was in high school doing Grade 11,
Khetha Mthethwa is his name and when we fell in love he
owned one car wash in the townships in Durban, I finished
high school we seperated, I went to study in Eastern Cape
and when I finished studying my late mother, she was alive
that time gave me Capital to start my business that is when I
started the 'PamellaK Coture' it wasn't easy I had to start the
brand from stratch, I used to have two small containers in
town the other one I used it to hang finished clothes and the
other one was for me to design and it had my clothing
machines everything you can think off.
Then we met again with Khetha and he didn't waste time he
asked me to marry him as soon as possible I already had a
store in one of the shopping centre in Durban but it was
small. I worked hard and ended up opening 5 boutiques in
different malls in Durban and I did it by myself Khetha didn't
put a cent in my business because he was also struggling that
time.
We got married and lived together in a small house in
Durban things changed for the "better" one day.
I remember I was coming from work tired as hell I slept on
the bed for a few hours then woke up later there was blood
all over me and on the bed, I was so scared and Khetha was
away for the weekend to meet up with "potential business
partners" so I was all alone, I tried to get up but I felt like
there was a lump on my womb that wanted to come out then
I felt an urge to push I pushed and something that looked
like a small little baby came out I screamed at the top of my
voice crying and a neighbour came in and when she saw that
on the floor she exclaimed and called others the room was
full of women and they helped me take a bath and clean
around the room then one of them was brave enough to step
closer with a cloth and pick up what I pushed out and she
shouted "It was going to be a baby girl" she tried to show me
but I refused I was so scared I didn't even know I was
pregnant so it meant I miscarried the baby.
One of them asked we bury her as soon as possible the lady
was hands on with everything she organised a small funeral
and I went there and buried what would have been my first
child and Khetha was not around I couldn't even reach him
on his phone.
After the funeral I went back home and found Khetha inside
and he was in a great mood singing and cooking moving
around the kitchen dancing he saw me and came straight to
me, he kissed me, I moved away crying "what's wrong baby"
that's the first thing he said "We lost the baby Khetha I
miscarried " I was expecting shock, sadness, something to
show that he cared but he just replied with an "Oh, we are
still young we will try for another one." I was so angry at him
I left him there and went to bed, I wanted him to be as sad as
I was, he followed me and sat in bed brushing my head "I'm
sorry baby but I have great news" I sat up and looked at him
"I brought us a house in the suburbs we don't have to live in
this noisy neighbourhood anymore and you won't have to
take taxis to work every morning."
I looked at him for a while and asked him how when he just
told me weeks ago that the business is going slow and his
reply was "I am a man I made a plan" I know I was supposed
to be happy but I couldn't I just lost a baby that I didn't even
know was growing inside of me and he doesn't seem to care.
We packed our clothes and moved to the suburbs, I went to
the woman that helped with my daughter's funeral and I told
her how thankful I am for everything she did for me I wasn't
in the right mind to do anything the pain and shock was too
much.
Then we moved in this beautiful big ass house had two
garages white in colour in a gated neighbourhood at that, I
didn't understand how was this all possible for a man who
was sometimes struggling to buy LuckyStar tin fish but he
said something about people who wanted to sponsor his
business and how they put a lot of money in his account and
he went as far as showing me millions deposited in his
account, I believed him he was so sincere and I was happy
for him finally he got what he always wanted.
We carried on with our good life he had his own businesses
and I had my boutiques he loved me bought me flowers
everyday come help me with my work everything a girl in
her late 20s can dream off.
We started our second year of marriage on a clean slate it
was perfect he showed me so much love.
But something kept happening to me over and over again,
miscarriages, I would wake up in a pool of blood and see
blood clots but he would just say "let's try again" no grief at
all.
One day I decided to go to a doctor to get contraceptives
because it was draining me to get those miscarriages so I
didn't get pregnant for months and it was better that way.
Khetha started changing on me he was sweet when we are
around people but at home he became an animal, one day he
came home and passed me by the lounge he didn't even
greet I followed him and found him destroying our room like
he is looking for something, "Are you okay honey, what are
you looking for I can help you look" I asked he grabbed my
neck and pinned me down on the bed I was gasping for air
"why aren't you falling pregnant again huh why Pamella!" he
was so angry I apologised but he didn't stop until I kneed his
balls he groaned and started beating me up like i'm some
thug who was stealing from him, I stayed at home for the
whole month he took all the gadgets and locked me inside
my room so "I can get better" those were his words.
So he started sleeping with me again so I will fall pregnant
said " If you give me a boy it will be all over sweety we will
have everything but you keep falling pregnant with useless
girls" I was confused to how did he know it was only girls
because I didn't know that, most miscarriages were just
blood clots only one came out as a baby.
Fast foward a third year to our marriage his mother came to
"help" me get pregnant with a boy because they need it more
than girls. That woman is a monster she went as far as
watching me and her son having sex to make sure he doesn't
shut his eyes when he cums in me that way he will score a
boy, apparently in her mind if a man get his woman pregnant
with a girl that means he closed his eyes when he ejaculated,
when I heard this I wanted to laugh but the situation I was in
couldn't allow me at all, Khetha didn't even seem to have a
problem with having sex in front of his mom, I was
disgusted, angry and humiliated by that, When that didn't
work her mom told him that he have an alternative and that
is to marry another girl I begged them to let me go but they
told me the only way I will leave the Mthethwa household is
by a casket. He started bringing in different girls her to see if
his mom approves of any of them but she would let him
sleep with them then throw them out the next morning I
don't know what qualities did they need to have to be the
second wives but then I didn't know anything.
But now this year I think he has found his second wife the
lady that is always around the house.
The day I met with this 'tomboy' called Landile, the girl was
moving in that particular day and I had to go home and
prepare dinner to welcome her to my home.
Landile visited me the second time and I was taken by her
looks the way she talks the walk and the confidence she had
was everything,I asked her to eat with me and then one thing
led to another I found myself on the desk with her tongue
and finger deep in my pussy, I think I just fell in love with
her, she brought back the self-esteem I had lost when my
husbamd started searching for the second wife so that day I
went back home in a very good mood and found Khetha
kissing with Thabi in the kitchen and I greeted them with a
smile for the first time ever and they looked shocked but I
giggled and went to my room took a shower then when I
came back Thabitha was sitting in my bed I smiled "Hello
sister wife" I said she stared at me "Are you planning on
poisoning me is that why you have that smug on your face
right now?" she asked looking angry I just chuckled and
carried on getting dressed by she started grabbing my hair
and hitting me in my face and all over my body all I did was
scream I don't know anything about fighting after a while
Khetha's mother came in and shouted at me instead of Thabi
"Do you want her to have a damaged womb like you hhee
Pamella" that's what she said to me and I just went to bed
and slept that's how I got the blue eye Landile saw, and
when she came to my house the first time my heart was at
peace she made me escape my reality for a while, she made
me feel loved but it was back to my miserable life when she
left, my husband found her watch I don't know what he was
looking for in my bag he beat me up and his mom and Thabi
were cheering saying "shaya isifebe" (beat this hoe).
I went to bed with my whole body in pain and later I woke
up he was staring at me straight in the eyes and told me that
"Whatever I think I know if I share it with anyone or even try
talking about it I will be dead together with the person i'm
sharing it with and he won't be the cause but it will be my
fault."
*
When Landile visited me yesterday I was so close to telling
her what I suspect is happening around here but then I
remembered that I might be putting her life in danger and
her family might lose her because of my big mouth and when
she got sick in my house I knew it has got to do with
whatever my husband is up to.
I'm alone now in my room Landi's brothers came to take her,
I saw how much they cared about her so I am deciding from
today onwards I am leaving her alone she will find someone
else, she is beautiful and young and any girl would be lucky
to have her, I was kidding myself thinking she can be mine, I
love her so much I know it's too soon to say this but I really
do I have never felt this way about anyone before i'm talking
about my husband who is the only man I know relationship
wise.
I go to the kitchen and get a bottle of wine and a glass then
go back to my room and start drinking it like it's water I
don't even use that glass I drink it straight from the bottle, I
won't forgive myself if anything happens to her, I knew
something was up for 4 years but I called her to come in this
house, I shouldn't even have allowed her to kiss me the first
time but I was so taken by her beauty I couldn't help myself
and she made me orgasm which i'm not used to anymore,
Khetha just moves ontop of me, cums then get off me and go
to his Thabi in their room..
As i'm sitting there I feel the discomfort on my abdomen but
I ignore it and continue drinking, when I get up I see blood
where i'm sitting.
Me: Not again, please God not again.
The pain shoots in my abdomen I moan sitting down, I know
what this is I have had it one too many times, another
miscarriage, I crawl to the bathroom and open the shower
and sit down water fall from my hair there is blood
everywhere, I am feeling dizzy and weak by each second that
passes, I sleep there on the cold tiles and water hits my body.
I open my eyes when I feel cold I look around and I see Thabi
standing next to the door looking at me with a smile on her
face.
Me: Help me please..
Thabi: Uh No why would I?
Me: Please Thabi..
The pain is still there and i'm feeling cold water is still
running.
Me: This will be you someday.
Thabi: Never my husband loves me once we are married I
will travel with him, he won't leave me alone I will always be
by his side.
I chuckle and clench my jaws trying to get up but I slip and
fall bumping my head.
Me: Aaah..
I give up and continue to sit there, Thabi walks away then
come back with a towel, she help me up, i'm shocked.
Thabi: I'm not a monster you know I just saw a man I love
and I want to keep him.
She help me get in my room and take off the gown i'm
wearing and help me wear a clean gown.
Thabi: Should I take you to the hospital?
Me: Yes please..
She help me walk to the car that Khetha bought her and
drive off, I get admitted immediately they tell me that they
have to clean me up, there are clots that are still inside my
uterus.
They clean me up and I sleep facing up and take my phone
and type a message.
Me: *Hey Landile I hope you're okay now, I'm sorry for what
happened to you and i'm sorry for leading you on when I
knew that this can never work, I hope you find someone with
less baggage who will love you unconditionally you're an
amazing person with amazing personality if things were
different I would have definitely gave you my all, I'm at the
hospital but I will be fine, I love you."
I send the message then delete it, Thabi walks in and seat on
the chair.
Thabi: I called Khetha he will land tomorrow morning.
Me: Thank you fro bringing me here.
Thabi: We can make this work Pamella all three of us.
I nod. I don't know how because my heart is not with Khetha
anymore she can have all of him for all I care.
Thabi: So what caused a miscarriage?do you think it's the
wine that you were drinking?
Me: No it's because I get pregnant with only girls.
Thabi: What?
Me: Uhn nothing, nothing.
I really hope she doesn't tell Khetha I said that or he will kill
me.
Me: You will tell him that I drank wine?
Thabi: I can't lie to him Pamella we are getting married in
two weeks.
I nod.
Me: I understand, congratulations.
Thabi: Do you mean it?
Me: I do.
Thabi: Let me get going I will see you tomorrow with my
husband.
Me: Ok.
She walks out and I close my eyes, I keep looking at the
phone hoping to get a reply from Landile but nothing, a
phone beeps at 3am in the morning i'm still awake staring
into space.
I view it.
Landile: *I hope you get better and find a way to get out of
your marriage some day, I still love you but I don't want my
family to lose me when we just found each other because if I
do this with you I can see that I will end up dead, bye Ella."
I huff blinking my tears away.
The next morning the nurse help me bath then go back to
bed I find Khetha with Thabi.
He comes and kiss me.
Khetha: How are you feeling?
Me: I'm fine.
Khetha: Don't lose hope we will keep trying okay love.
That's the shit that irritates me this "trying" he always says
when I miscarry.
Khetha: I told you Thabi is a good woman, she helped you,
please bless our union maKunene.
Me: It's okay you can marry her Khetha I give you my
blessing.
Khetha:Just like that Pammy?
I nod.
Khetha: Are you cheating on me Pamella?
He sound angry.
Me: No, I'm doing this to make you happy, she makes you
happy.
Khetha: Pamella if you dare cheat on m..
Me: I'm not cheating!
I shout, I feel a quick punch on my jaw I look the other way
grabbing on the bed.
Me: I'm sorry..
Thabi: Stop making him angry Pamella.
Me: I'm sorry.
Khetha: I love you Pamella, I still love you like the first day I
saw you in that school uniform looking so young.
I sniff.
Khetha: I'm doing this for us baby, the three of us and my
mom to have a good life.
Me: I understand.
Khetha: Thank you, so when are they letting you go, You
have five clients you have to meet this week they need your
services maybe Thabi could help you.
Me: Khetha that is my business I started it alone with my
mother's money so I don't know how you ended up having
shares in it and even have a say on who could help me.
Khetha: Are you talking to me like that Pamella?
I don't say a word.
Khetha: You are coming home today!
He walks out.
Thabi: Why are you doing this Pamella he is trying to show
you that he still feel a little something for you.
Me: I don't want him to show me anything.
He comes back with a nurse.
Khetha: Help her get dressed I already signed the forms, we
are discharging her.
Me: I'm not leaving.
Khetha: Oh sweety you think you have a say in this? Let us
help you heal better at home.
The nurse help me back in my gown and I limp in front of
them they are holding hands behind me.
The minute we get home he push me on my back I fall on my
knees hard. A kick on my ribs makes me turn and fall on my
back.
Khetha: Get up and clean that room that have blood, it stinks,
you want me to lose everything I have worked so hard for
bitch!
I look at the door and blink a couple of times, I see Landi
standing by the door maybe I'm dreaming, I blink again she
is still standing there staring at me not moving an inch then I
close my eyes for a few minues she is not there anymore I
scream at the top of my voice holding my head.
Me: Noo!no!she can't be dead no!
Khetha: Hey what is wrong with you! Are you crazy!
Thabi: Maybe she is seeing things baby, this is scary what if
she hurts me.
I am still hoping she shows up so I can ask her if she is alive
or not but she doesn't.
Maybe I am losing my mind.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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NADIA
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I went to bed early yesterday because of what happened in
Ella's house, I didn't take any sleeping pill so i'm up it's 3:05
in the morning, I take my phone and find a message from last
night saying she is at the hospital and she is letting me go, I
reply telling her that she should get better and hope she
leaves that marriage before it's too late.
I get up from the bed and wear my black jeans, a black
hoodie, boots then my leather gloves. I take my back pack
and check the time it's almost 3:39 am I go to the bathroom
then walk out. The gate opens and I walk to Pamella's house
it's dark but I don't care i'm walking slowly, I get there
around 4:45 am, I know there is an alarm system here and a
camera that is so easy to dodge because it's facing the same
direction it's not the one that rotates, I stand next to the gate
and punch hard on the buzzer it breaks, I hear an alarm
system inside ringing and there's a red alert.
I walk away and stand on the bus stop a bit far, I can see
police cars drive in I walk back there and walk in on the
same gate they used and walk around the house, I can hear
they are talking to a lady, I listen.
Lady: Yes this is my house, my husband is coming back early
this morning.
Police1: But you are not Mrs Mthethwa.
Lady: Yet. I am his fiance.
Police1: Fiance do you have a name?
I shake my head laughing a little.
Lady: I am Thabi sir and he already paid Lobola, customary
marriage has been done so he is my husband by tradition.
Police1: Are you sure it's not one of your boyfriends playing
pranks on you, no one can get any close to the Mthethwa
house like that and there is no break in done in here.
Thabi: I told you Khetha is my fiance why would I have a
boyfriend?
Police1: Miss you're wasting our time, let's get out of here,
the owner of the house will call us if anything is missing in
his house.
Thabi: Useless!
They walk out I can hear cars driving out.
I watch as this Thabi go to one of the rooms.
I walk to Ella's room and look around the smell of blood hits
my nostrils I see a lot of blood on the bed then a trail all the
way to the bathroom I feel my body shake,this is a lot of
blood but it's dry now.
I walk out and open the first room it's all normal, I open
almost 5 rooms they look normal,I am looking for a clue that
will help me see what i'm dealing with here.
I stop at the passage and stare at one door I haven't opened
yet I step closer to it and push it but it doesn't open, I turn
the handle it's locked, and that raise my suspisions, it's the
only room that is locked in this house.
I look inside my backpack and I find a small metal I used
once when I lost the keys of where I used to stay. I put it in
the keyholder and turn it a little it unlock, I push it and walk
in looking around, it looks like every other room in this
house but i'm asking myself one thing, why was it locked?
I start looking everywhere I want something man a gun,
drugs amything, I walk towards the curtain and move it a
little I see a cup it has blood in it, what the hell is going
on!and whos blood is it I squart down and smell it, it doesn't
even have a smell anymore I put it back down and when I
walk out I see two keys hooked next to the door I take it and
look around the house I can see it's a key to a cupboard or
wardrobe so I go to the wadrobe and open a lot of clothes
fall out they all have blood stains.
Me: What the hell is happening in this house?
I check the time it's 6 am and I can hear a door to one of the
rooms opening I wait a little then hear a car driving out
maybe it's the fiance fetching the husband I walk out and
lock the door with the second key.
I walk in the room that Thabi was using and open the
drawers and I don't find a single gun I thought maybe he is
using it to blackmail her into staying in this marriage seeing
how much she is scared of guns. I can't find anything
tangible here only blood on the cup then bloody clothes I
have been walking around this house and now it's time I
leave, as i'm about to walk out I hear a car pulling over I
move behind the gold curtains, they have huge curtains that
lands on the floor,I hear a door opening and Pamella landing
on the floor on her kneel with so much force then her
husband and Thabi walk in, I can see everything happening
because the curtain are trasparent Gold..I see him kicking
her I move to stand by the door I see Pamella staring at me
she keeps blinking and she screams.
Pamella: No, no, She can't be dead no!
I can see they might turn and see me I walk out the door and
find the gate opened, I look back clenching my fists I want to
beat the fuck out of him, how can someone beat up his wife
like that in front of another woman, is he trying to
embarrass her or what..
I walk out as I think that I might get arrested and get her
killed if I do anything now.
I take a taxi back home and walk in, I tiptoe hoping no one
sees me but dad talks behind me.
Luyolo: Where are you coming from Landile?
Me: I..a morning jog.
Luyolo: With black clothes and gloves?
Me: Ok dad I wanted to go to my old place but I turned back.
Langa: Why? You wanted to leave?
Me: No I just wanted to check on things.
Luyolo: We all agreed that you're staying away from the girl
you were dating right Landile?
Me:Yes dad and i'm doing just that.
Luyolo: Good because if you don't and you become sick again
I will finish you off myself.
Me: I am staying away Gumede.
Luyolo: Ok go and change then, pack a small bag you and
your brothers are going home.
Me: Ok dad.
I walk to my room and take a shower change my clothes,
pack and walk out I find them sitting on the lounge looking
at me.
Me:Why are you staring at me like I stole some suger?
Ntsika: You took your time let's go.
Me: Wait we are not eating breakfast?
Ntsika: No.
Me: I'm not leaving then mom won't like that, dad are you
trying to kill me by starving me?
Luyolo: Nkanyezi will buy something for you to eat Landile.
Me: You will?
Nkanyezi nods.
Me:Ok then we can go.
Ntsika drive out i'm sitting with Langa and Sfiso in the back
seat, Nkanyezi is with Ntsika. We walk in the restaurant in
town we hear gasps from some ladies sitting and eating their
breakfast.
Lady1: Oh my God it's Nkanyezi and his brothers..
I want to talk so bad but I close my mouth for once in my life!
Ntsika calls out our order and Nkanyezi pays then we sit
down and wait.
One lady comes to our table and greet.
Lady1: Hey Nkanyezi.
She waves looking next to me but it's not Nkanyezi it's
Ntsika.
Ntsika waves back awkwardly.
Lady1: Can I get a picture?
Ntsika: I am not Nkanyezi.
The embarrassment in her face.
Me: Were you trying to impress? wanting Nkanyezi to see
that you can tell the difference between him and his twin? If
yes then it was an epic fail.
Lady1: Sorry uhm can I get a picture?
Nkanyezi nods and stand up, she take selfies and when she
kiss his cheek to take another selfie, I shout..
Me: Hey Cut!Cut!Cut!never! not happening unless you want
Mrs G to hunt your ass down.
Langa: Is Mr Mthethwa hunting you down?
He ask laughing.
Me: You're not funny you piece of shit.
The girl walk away and we sit in silence.
Our food comes we stand up and walk towards the door.
Me: You should have picked me i'm the only one who's
single.
Lady1: Then take my number.
Langa: First are are you in a relationship sisi?
Lady1: No.
Langa: Ok take the number then Landile.
Me: You're so forward Langelihle.
I take the number and we walk out, I don't think I will use it
at all I just saw the desperation shame she kept looking at
our table like she wants to come and ask for more pictures.
We eat on the way home because I am too hungry to wait.
We go straight to the rondavel and Ntsika burn the incense
and say the clan names I watch them as they cut their palms
and squeeze out blood on the bowl.
Ntsika: Take the knife Landile.
Me: For what?
Langa: Just take the damn knife!
I take it.
Ntsika: Do what we did sis.
Me: What if I bleed to death?
Sfiso: Did we bleed to death?
Me: No but we are different.
Ntsika: Landile!
He shouts.
Me: Ok yhoo!
I cut my palm and squeeze it.
Me: You will all pay for this.
Ntsika: Shhhh!ay!
Me:No need to be rude starting now i'm quiet I won't say a
word big brother.
We do everything then we go to the main house and go on
seperate rooms.
I take out my phone and notice a message from Ella.
Pamella: *I don't know if you're alive or not, just tell me
something baby, i'm losing my mind thinking I saw you
earlier this morning but when I opened my eyes you weren't
there, please tell me you're alive*
I send the text back.
Me: *I'm pretty much alive and yes you saw me earlier today
you are not losing your mind I was at your house, please
delete these messages for your safety.*
Pamella: *Can I call you please?*
Me: *If you won't get in trouble Ella.*
Her call comes through I answer.
Me: Baby.
She cries.
Me: Please don't cry ella you're breaking my heart.
Pamella: I miss you.
Me: And I miss you too,Where is he?
Pamella: Went out with his new wife.
Me: If I was in Durban I was going to say come home to me.
Pamella: Where are you?
Me: My father's home.
Pamella: Oh ok.
Me: But I will come back tomorrow.
Pamella: Someone is coming to fix the security system I
heard he wants to put cameras around.
Me: That wouldn't stop me from getting in that house like I
did this morning.
Silence.
Me: Why is there a locked room in your house?
Pamella: He said he wants it to be our baby's nursery so he
has people working on it.
Me: Are you already pregnant Ella?
She chuckles bitterly.
Pamella: I had a miscarriage, the 9th miscarriage in 4 years
of marriage.
Me: What?
Pamella: I can't say more than what I have said Landile
please understand.
Me: I understand, and he lied about that room being a
nursery.
Pamella: How do you know?
Me: I went in there.
Pamella: But how I have searched the key of that room but
couldn't find it.
Me: I have my ways, in that room there is blood that is in the
cup and a lot of clothes that has dry blood.
Pamella: They always cut my wrist and put my blood on the
cup that's why you saw the bandage on my..
She starts coughing like someone is choking her.
Me: Baby...ella are you okay?
She continues to make choking sounds I am pacing all
around the room then there is silence
Me:Say something, Ella are you okay? Babe..
I am panicking it's been two minutes the line is still on but
it's quiet, after a while I hear her moaning.
Me: Pamella.
Pamella: Landile I told you I can't say anything this is no
coincidence Khetha told me if I share anything I will die..
She is crying so hard.
Me: It's ok you won't die Ella, did he beat you up again this
morning when I left?
Pamella: No he just made me clean the whole house.
I am angry the tears are so close to coming out.
Me: He won't get away with this,rest now baby and make
sure you delete everything ok.
Pamella: Ok.
Me: I love you so much.
Pamella: I love you.
She drop the call, I sit in bed tapping my foot on the floor.
Me: If he abuse her then he is not her husband, he doesn't
deserve her!
I stay up all night trying to think on what my next move will
be.
It's morning, I step out of the room to boil water so I can take
a bath on the bathroom outside..
I bath then get dressed and walk out I see Langa coming with
a basin in his hands.
He nods, I laugh, I know why he is nodding, morning breath.
Great aunt calls us for breakfast we eat then hit the road
back to Durban. I get a phone call from Ella's husband I
saved the number the day he called me I wonder what he
wants.
Me: Hello.
Khetha: Hello Landile i'm sorry to call you this early.
Me: It's all good.
Khetha: Can we meet in an hour at the boutique?
Me: No problem at all I will be there sir.
I drop the call.
Me: Can you drop at the mall brother when we get in
Durban.
Langa: Hope you're not meeting Mrs Mthethwa.
Me: Langelihle I know you're my brother but don't piss me
off I can't go to the mall now without being questioned by
you?ay fuck you.
Langa: Nadia are you talking to me like that?
Me: Yes I am you're annoying me.
Langa: You know i'm just worried about your safety but
don't talk to me anyhow I will slap the shit out of you.
Me: And I will show you what i'm made off.
He stops the car and step out, he grabs me and pull me out of
the car.
Langa: now show me what you're made off, come on.
Sfiso: Langelihle don't, just get in the car and drive us home.
Langa: She doesn't understand, Mthethwa has money and
connections he can wipe off her existence with just one
phone call.
Me: Don't underestimate me Langelihle I might just wipe off
you and him first.
He attempt to come to me but Sfiso push him back.
Sfiso: Babe stop ok.
Me: Let him do something I will kill him in his sleep.
Nkanyezi step out of the car and stare at me I step back, he is
scary. He points at the car I get in immediately and so is
Langa and Sfiso.
Langa: Nx, worrying about someone who clearly doesn't care
about her own life.
Me: All you need to do is drop me at the mall.
Ntsika: Landile and you Langa I might just be the one to beat
the crap out of you two right now geez, just shut the fuck up.
We are silent all the way to the mall and he drops me off.
Me: Thank you Langelihle.
He is so angry even his ears are red, I laugh.
Me: You can all go home I will meet you there soon.
I walk in and go to the office I find him sitting on a chair
eating a pen.
Me: Hi.
He stand up and shake my hand.
Mthethwa: Thank you for coming have a sit.
I sit down and look at him.
Mthethwa: I'll just get straight to the point, I need you.
Me: I'm sorry I know I said i'm not into ladies but i'm not
into men either.
He laughs like really hard he even have tears in his eyes i'm
just looking at him till he stops.
Mthethwa: I'm sorry man no I don't need you like that, I
want you to do something for me.
Me: What is that?
Mthethwa: I want you to keep an eye on my wife for me.
Me: Why?
Mthethwa: I suspect she is cheating.
Me: What makes you say that?
Mthethwa: She just allowed me to take a second wife man.
Me: Did you give her a choice maybe?
Mthethwa: Well no but she should have fought it.
Me: Mmmm you want her to fight for you?
Mthethwa: Yes like she did before she used to get angry
when I was with a woman but now.
Me: They get fed up too you know just like you isn't it you
got fed up with her that's why you're taking a second wife.
Mthethwa: It's complicated man.
Me: Mmm so why me, why do you want me to keep an eye on
your wife? I mean you can pay a professional.
I am speaking so calmly.
Mthethwa: To tell you the truth I hired a PI to get
information about you after Dee told me you pulled out a
gun on her, I didn't find much only that you worked at your
father's company I know only the best work there because
they are trained by the ex military cops.
I laugh.
Me: What if it was nepotism on my side?
Mthethwa: I doubt it they wouldn't put you in their team of
security for fun, Luyolo has money i'm sure you all got
shares.
I chuckle
Me: So you think my father would allow me to work for
someone else?
Mthethwa: You don't have to guard her like 24/7 you will
just be close to her.
Me: Mmmm.
Mthethwa: You will name your price.
I chuckle this guy doesn't know why I was in that team of
securities but I'll show him
Me: I will do it.
Mthethwa: You will?
Me: Yes.
He get up and shake my hand again.
Mthethwa: Thank you so much, please don't tell her
anything, i'm busy with my wife's wedding, my work so you
will need to be around more often for now
Me: No problem Sir.
He huffs.
Mthethwa: I still love her you know I'll always will.
Me: Then why not let her go.
Mthethwa: Never! she's mine and i'm doing this for my
family for her.
Me: What's "this" that you're doing?
Mthethwa: I can't disclose that to you.
Me: But you trust me with your wife huh?
Mthethwa: This is different.
Me: Mmm.
Mthethwa: Let's go now so you can check up on her she was
at the hospital she miscarried our baby.
Me: That's bad man, how do you feel?
Mthethwa: honestly I don't..
His phone rings but he looks at it.
Mthethwa: Let's go.
We go to his car and he drives to his house.
Me: So your second wife, do you love her?
Mthethwa: No she's there to serve the purpose.
Me: I don't know what that means, you seem like a
complicated man.
He laughs and drive in his house, I look at the camera, this
one takes all angles guess he has changed the system
already.
We find Ella resting her head on the kitchen counter.
Mthethwa: Pamella.
She screams and the glass that was in front of her falls, she is
facing the other way shaking.
Mthethwa: Hey i'm sorry to startle you, your friend is here to
see you I told her you're not fine.
She turns around and see me, she runs to me and hug me
tight I hug her back.
Me: I'm so sorry for what happened to your baby.
She is sobing loud I look at her husband.
Mthethwa: I have to go please stay with her, make sure she is
fine.
I nod.
He walks out and I wipe Ella's tears.
Me: I'm sorry okay, i'm here now.
Pamella: How..
I look around at the corners I see a camera facing the door, I
chuckle
I stare at her and move my eyes to the passage she nods a
little then she take my hand.
Pamella: I want to rest let's go to my room.
We walk through the passage and go to her room.
She tries to hug me again I shake my head and look around
again then hug her.
Me: How come he didn't put the cameras in here?
She shrug her shoulders and lay her head on my chest I wrap
my arms around her.
Me: He wants to pay me to keep an eye on you because he
suspects you're cheating.
Pamella: Did you agree?
Me: That's why I'm here.
Pamella: oh.
Me: You will get out of this marriage one way or the other
and he won't see me coming..

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
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I know we can't choose for the heart, when it loves someone
there is nothing you can do to change it and when you try to
ignore it it hurts you most and eats you up bit by bit, I know
this through me when I spent two months away from Sfiso
when samke was blackmailing me,I went there regardless of
the threats she made so I kinda understand my sister's
situation at this moment I saw the way she was looking at
Pamella the day we were at the restaurant with dad but man
I can't help but worry about her safety I know she is smart
and tough but I just found her I don't want anything to
happen to her and seeing her collapse on the floor the other
day scared me.
I just took my husband to work now i'm driving back home I
get a call from her we haven't talked since the little
argument we had yesterday on our way back from
koGumede
Me: Nadia.
Nadia: Can we talk, where are you?
Me:I'm driving in now.
Nadia: Ok come to my room then
I step out of the car and walk in, I take a packet of chips and
walk to her room I find her in jeans and a sport bra only, her
eyes are on the TV but she looks far away in thoughts I sleep
next to her in bed and put the chips between us we start
eating them in complete silence.
Me|Nadia: I'm sorry.
We say at the same time after that long silence only a TV and
a packet of chips was making noise.
Nadia: I'm sorry for worrying you and disrespecting you
when you try to raise concern about me,I shouldn't have
challenged what you were saying you were right that
Mthethwa guy has money and connections.
Me: I shouldn't try to dictate your life too Nadia all I have to
do is to tell you what I think then let you decide on your own
you're an adult you can't have me tell you what you can and
cannot do but as your brother I have to tell you if I think
you're wrong in a respective way, I'm sorry.
Nadia: It's all good thank you.
Me: You will decide on your own on what you want to do and
I can only hope you do the right thing.
Nadia: Can I ask you a question?
Me: Yes.
Nadia:Do you believe in those voo-doo stories and
witchcraft?
Me: That's what we were doing back home when we cut
those palms.
She quickly get up and stare at me shocked I laugh.
Me:I'm joking that was just a bind that helps us connect with
one another in a way that we feel if one of us is not okay.
Nadia: I hope we don't feel anything if one of you have sex..
I laugh .
Me:Don't be ridiculous man of course we don't you would
have felt something yesterday because Sfiso and I were at it
the whole night.
I feel a pillow on my face.
Nadia:That is just disgusting I don't want to know about
your sex life Langelihle.
Me: Don't pretend you don't know sex Nadia i'm sure you
and Pamella did it that day the shoes were off, the guns were
on the drawers she was only in her gown something was
definitely up there.
Nadia: Langa you need to leave now.
Me: But man tell me how did you get thee PamellaK?
Nadia: Leave me alone.
Me: That woman is beautiful, successful and has a body to
die for.
Nadia: Aren't you supposed to be married?
Me: Doesn't make me blind. You love her?
She looks at me.
Nadia: I do.
Me: What about her marriage, if you carry on with her are
you okay being a side dish to her?
Nadia: You know as i'm sitting here I have those type of
questions in my head but I will answer them soon.
Me:Ok just be careful I know the Gumede's are stubborn you
might not leave PamellaK without a fight.
Nadia: I love it when you call her PamellaK not Mrs
Mthethwa.
Me: You just wish she wasn't married.
Nadia: You have no idea man, her ass is driving me crazy!
Me: Now who is giving me the details.
Nadia: Want me to introduce you to the township life in the
shacks?
Me: You want to go there?
Nadia: Just a little I left someone there so I have to check on
her.
Me: Who?
Nadia: Are we leaving?
Me: Yeah.
She get up and wear my tshirt and my wedding gift watch.
Me:WeLandile Nadia Gumede!
She widens her eyes and hide the left hand behind her back.
Me:I already saw it bring it back!
Nadia: But I'm already wearing it baby.
Me: I'm not your friend Landile that's the most expensive
watch ever that my brothers bought for me on my wedding
day it's a sentimental value.
Nadia: You really want me to take it off?
She gives me glassy eyes.
Me: Ok you can wear it but next time ask man.
Ziyanda:What is all this noise.
Nadia: Mom can you believe that dad starved me yesterday
morning because you wasn't here.
Ziyanda: How?
She chuckles and sit down to wear her sneakers.
Nadia: He forced me to leave without eating breakfast
imagine.
Ziyanda: Haa! How can he do that, that old man wanted to
kill my baby.
Nadia: Yes he did I told him you wouldn't like that but did he
listen? No.
Ziyanda: Oh God Luyolo was wrong! so wrong! me and him
are going to have a very serious talk.
Luyolo:About what, hey baby.
He kiss mom's cheek.
Ziyanda: You starved Landile yesterday told her she couldn't
eat breakfast even when she told you I won't like that.
I am laughing so hard, mom is adding the drama in this and
so is Landile it's fun to watch.
Luyolo: Babe Landile ate breakfast Nkanyezi bought them
food.
Nadia: I wanted to eat here but you chased me out.
Ziyanda: How dare you chase my baby out Luyolo?
Me: No man we should just open a family show, we have all
the characters right here.
Nadia: Langelihle this is a true story.
Me: Yes it will be a reality show.
Dad is laughing too.
Me: Guys we will see you later we are going somewhere.
Luyolo: Ok kid.
We shoulder hug and I hug mom, Landi hugs mom then look
at dad.
Luyolo: Come on dad is sorry for not allowing you to eat
breakfast.
They hug and he kiss her forehead then we walk out, I love
the connection dad and Nadia have it's so real and beautiful
to watch you can tell that dad really cares about her and you
can see Nadia loves him it's like they have known each other
for years.
We get in the car and drive out she keeps telling me where to
go.
Me: You love dad huh?
She looks at me and smile looking down.
Nadia: When I was young I created these scenarios in my
head about me and my dad, we would be happy and get
along so good and he would do anything for me and that is
what i'm getting from dad, he is a dream come true and so is
mom because I can always run to her when dad and I have a
fight.
I smile looking at her.
Me: He loves you too a lot he can't even hide it.
Nadia: He does?
Me: Yes he is treatimg you the same way he was treating us
when we were kids and before we got married.
Nadia: So you're not jealous?
We laugh.
Me: No we're not if anything we are happy, he raised us, we
grew up in front of him he taught us everything we know
today and now it's your time and our little siblings's time he
is trying to make up for the time he lost with you I hope you
will let him.
Nadia: I'm grateful and I appreciate the warm welcome you
guys have given me.
Me: We are one, we're are family.
We get in the township and there are shacks and the small
houses that are built with bricks.
Nadia: Stop here this is where we're going.
She points at the wood shack we step out of the car then she
knocks on the door an old woman opens the door, there is a
lot of noise around.
Her: Nadiya(Nadia) ngaze ngajabula ukukubona (I'm so
happy to see you.)
Nadia hugs her.
Nadia: Ngasho ngathi ngizoloku ngizokubheka.(I told you I
will come check up on you.)
Her: Ngiyabonga ngakho konke ongenzele kona.(Thank you
for everything you did for me.)
Nadia: it's ok, lo umfowethu uLangelihle (This is my brother
Langelihle)
Her: Sawubona naze nafana bo ngathi umuntu
oyedwa.(Hello you look so much alike it's like you're one
person.)
I smile.
Me: Sawubona.(Hello)
We walk in and i'm shocked at how beautiful this shack is,
the double bed on the side then the kitchen that is on the
other side it's a small room but nicely arranged inside.
Nadia: Khona iskhwama ebengisidinga. (There is a bag that I
need)
Her: Kulungile indlu yakho le mntanam futhi izinto zakho
zisanjalo.(It's okay this is your room and your things are still
the same)
Nadia get up and take the chair, she climbs on it and take a
bag that is ontop of the small wardrobe then get down.
Nadia: got it thank you.
The woman nods.
Nadia: Usanako ukudla?(you still have food here?)
Her: Yes kuningi loku owashiya ungithengele kona.(Yes, that
was plenty of food you bought for me)
Nadia: Ok we have to go now, call me when you need
anything, that phone is working right?
She nods.
We walk out and he shows me a shisanyama and we drive in
and order a lot of meat and she gets a beer I stick with juice
we sit on the tables outside and i'm looking around.
Me: So this is Kasi life huh?
Nadia: Yep.
I look at her.
Me: Who is that lady?
Nadia: I used to see her everyday on my way to work sitting
down in one place whether cold or hot so one day I saw the
streetkids harassing her trying to take her belongings and
that was when Sfiso told me that I have to keep an eye on
Sofia, I took her to stay in my place apparently she used to
live with her married daughter and her husband but they
chased her out when the husband said she is a witch because
of some reasons only known by him.
Me: Oh wow that was a good thing you did there.
Nadia: The streets are not for old people Langa the brutality
one goes through in these streets are not for someone who is
an old woman.
You can see the way she's talking that she knows what she's
talking about.
Nadia: You know I wanted to go and confront her daughter
and her husband I asked where they stayed she wouldn't tell
me because she is her only daughter, after everything they
did to her she still cared about her but she threw her own
mother out the streets choosing a man over a woman that
raised her.
She is sad it's written all over her face.
I rub her back a little and our meat comes it looks delicious.
Nadia: Hey Sabza.
She says to the guy that is serving us.
Sabza: Aah Nadia is this you I thought you don't live around
here anymore, hey guys Nadia is here!
She is laughing the guy is calling other guys, they come and
they look so happy to see her.
Guy: I thought you left us without saying goodbye.
Nadia: I didn't think you cared you were always rude to me I
even had to break your arm to prove a point.
The guy brush his head.
Guy: Ey askies man it's just that we liked you but you were
always alone so we thought you were cheesy you see.
Nadia: And I showed you cheesy didn't I.
They laugh.
Nadia: This is my cheesy twin brother Langa.
I look at her but she laughs out loud.
Guy: We saw the car he is driving man ey ey that car is a
beast, so you're a twin with a boy that's why you're like this.
Nadia: Don't start with me, i'm like what?
Guy: Ay No it's not a bad thing man i'm just saying, umuhle
kodwa nawe.(you're too beautiful)
They all laugh at him.
Sabza: You still have hots for her even when she broke your
arm.
Guy: Ey you don't understand bra.
Nadia is laughing shaking her head, the guy is smitten the
way he is looking at her.
Me: But why would you like someone who walks like a man,
talks like a man, and even speak like a man?
I'm laughing the guy keep stealing glances at her.
Nadia: Langelihle..
Guy: Eish bro.
They walk back to their table and Nadia buy meat for them
the noise they make wow.
Me: You make a guy tongue tied, lost for words huh pretty
lady.
Nadia: I will punch your throat.
Me: I could feel the love from here man.
Nadia: Leave me alone, let's go.
Her phone rings while we're still sitting down, she look at
me first then answer on speaker.
Nadia: Hi Ella.
I look at her.
Pamella: Hey, they threw me out.
It's obvious she is crying.
Nadia: What!?
Pamella: They said I will come back after the wedding
Thabi's family will need the house..and that I mustn't try to
run away because he will find me and kill me.
I can see Nadia looking down shaking her head.
Pamella: He said I must stay at a hotel nearby.
Nadia: He allowed you to take the car?
Pamella: No, just a phone no bank cards no clothes I don't
know how he expects me to pay on that hotel.
Me: Uhm can you take a taxi that will drop you off at the
market we will pick you up there.
Pamella: Maybe he is having me followed he will think i'm
cheating.
The phone alerts another incoming call, she put Pamella's
call on hold and answer.
Nadia: Mthethwa.
Mthethwa: Can you keep an eye on my wife she just went out
now to stay at a hotel please find the details for me.
Nadia: Sure, I will pick her up now.
She drop the call.
Nadia: Pamella.
Pamella: Yes Landile.
Nadia: Take a taxi we will meet you at the market now, keep
the phone close to you.
Pamella: But what if he..
Nadia: He asked me to follow you.
We get up say goodbye to the guys then rush to the car, I
drive in full speed going to town and we find her sitting in
the bus shelter and a lot of people are taking pictures of her.
Me: How are we doing this sis?
Nadia: Eish you know if media get a picture of me and her
they will have a topic by tomorrow.
She takes a phone and call her.
We call see her looking at the phone.
Me: She look so scared man, look at her.
Nadia: Just make a turn and stop next to her.
I do just that and stop next to her, I roll down the window.
Nadia: Get in at the back..
She get in and sob immediately.
Nadia make a call.
Nadia: I found her.
Mthethwa: Thanks man.
I start the car and drive to the hotel that once made my
husband mad at me, I chuckle.
I look around it's empty no people around that looks like
they crave for the next story.
We walk in the hotel and the receptionist gasps.
Receptionist: PamellaK!
She exclaims.
Nadia: Hi I am Mr Mthethwa's right hand guy so he told us to
find a hotel for his traumatised wife she just went through
something.
Oh she's smart.
Receptionist: Oh i'm so sorry to hear that, let me make this
quick.
Nadia takes out the card and pay then we walk her to her
room and she go straight to bed and cover her head we can
see her body shaking that she is crying.
We sit on the couch.
Me: Why is Mthethwa chasing out his wife?
I'm whispering.
Nadia: He is taking a second wife.
Me: What? are they divorcing?
Nadia: I said second wife Langelihle, he doesn't want to let
her go.
Me: And why is he calling you to check on his wife?
Nadia: He said he wants me to look after her because she is
going through stuff and we are "friends" with her.
Me: He trust you with his wife?
Nadia: Yeah he even offered to pay me.
Me: Wow! But how?
Nadia: That means he doesn't want his wife to have friends
so I guess I am the type of friend he wants for his wife.
Me: If only he knew.
Nadia: Not now Langelihle.
Me: I'm not attacking you, I am on your side.
Nadia: You are?
Me: I trust you know what you're doing and I can see she is
broken man and I don't like to see a woman in that state.
Nadia: Thank you, I will be careful I just want to help her.
Me: I know.
She makes the call to Mthethwa.
Mthethwa: Yeah.
Nadia: I took her to Protea hotel.
Mthethwa: Thank you, can you make sure no one visits her.
Nadia: How?
Mthethwa: Talk to a receptionist to only allow you in.
Nadia: But I don't drive even now I asked my twin brother to
help me find her.
Mthethwa: That's okay man I mean another random man.
Nadia: Trust me she is not in a state to call anyone right now.
Mthethwa: How is she?
Nadia chuckles shaking her head.
Nadia: She will be fine she is sleeping.
Mthethwa: Can you believe she ran away because i'm
marrying Thabi but she agreed to this.
We look at each other, I shake my head and get up going
towards the bed, I look at her she is fast asleep now.
Nadia get up and stand next to me looking at her.
Nadia: He is slowly killing her.
She kiss her cheek.
Nadia: Let's go.
We walk out and drive to the clothing shop.
We go to the ladies section we look at each other and laugh.
Nadia: I have no idea what to look for.
Me: Search the inner lady in you i'm sure you have it.
Nadia: I have nothing bro absolutely nothing!
I laugh at her.
She starts taking panties and holding it on her waist I am
laughing my ass off.
Me: Come on you know the size of her ass i'm sure you can
get the size right if you get serious and quit playing.
We start taking the panties and bras that we think might fit
then we go look for the gowns because we totally failed in
dresses and jeans then she buy the lotion that she said she
once saw on her dressing table then towels , we pay and buy
her food and drive back to the hotel.
Me: He will think he is bewitched when a girl takes his wife.
Nadia laugh.
Me: I'm serious look he let his wife go without anything with
her and now you're doing everything for her which will
make her love you even more.
Nadia: You think she really loves me?
Me: You were the first person she called and I saw the way
she was panicking when you were sick in her house that is
love man if not that she sure can pretend.
We walk in her room and find her still in bed.
Nadia: Ella, hey wake up.
She shakes her a little, she sit up her cheeks nose and eyes
are red and I notice something with her arm..
Me: Is your arm okay?
She shakes her head.
Pamella: It's painful.
Her voice is almost gone.
Me:What happened to it?
Pamella: I slipped and fell when they pushed me out.
Me: Who is they?
Pamella: My husband and his wife.
Nadia look at me her eyes are glassy she sit down on the bed
and look down.
Me: Let me see if it's not broken.
I stretch it and it's not but it's clear that it hurts.
Me: If we knew we would have bought you something for the
pain, my husband will be home soon I have to go now.
Nadia: I will go with you, will you be fine? I will check up on
you in the morning.
Pamella: Thanks I will be fine.
Nadia get up and walk out just like that.
Me: Be ok neh.
Pamella: Is she okay?
Me: She will be fine she is just worried about you.
Pamella: I will be fine too.
Me: Do you want to get out?
Pamella: It's been two years now.
Me: Then we will try to help you okay, just stay strong, you
were PamellaK when you married him right.
She nods.
Me: Then you will leave as PamellaK nothing will be taken
away from you, you will walk away with your dignity and
your self-esteem still intact, your head held up high, don't
allow him to break you I believe you are stronger than him,
he is weak for putting his hands on you, be good okay.
She nods and wipe her tears, I walk out and find Nadia
leaning on the car.
Me: Let's go.
Nadia: I hope you didn't hit me with a brick in there brother.
I laugh, she makes jokes even when you can clearly see she is
not okay.
We drive home and walk in and find mom and dad in the
lounge.
Nadia: My parents.
Ziyanda: Our baby.
Nadia: I'm happy that you love your wife dad and we can all
see it.
They look at each other.
Luyolo:Are you ok Landile?
Nadia: Yeah i'm fine.
She go and sit inbetween them then place her head on dad's
lap and her legs are on mom's lap then close her eyes. Mom
and dad don't know that the lady that she "was" dating is
PamellaK or that she is married, its only us that knows.
We sit in silence dad is brushing her head.
Me: Oh she is fast asleep now..
Luyolo: Really?
He looks at her she is really sleeping.
Ziyanda: Go and take a blanket Langa.
I look at them.
Luyolo: Langelihle..
Me: You know she is old right, you can just slap her cheek
and tell her to go to bed.
They stare at me.
Me: She is really old mom don't look at me like that.
Ziyanda: Ngizokushaya wena!(I will beat you up!)
Me: Ok i'll take it.
I get up and go take a fleece blanket, mom get up and place
her legs on the armrest then cover her, her head is still on
dad's lap she is like a very little baby there.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
PAMELLA
*
I don't know what I did to Khetha for him to treat me like
this, I have been nothing but a good wife to him. I have
learned that money doesn't buy you happiness, we might
pretend to be happy in the outside world but at home it's
pain and misery, They see the name PamellaK and they think
everything is going well on my side I mean I'm marrried to
one of the rich guys in Durban any lady wants that but they
don't know what is going on inside the Mthethwa household.
So earlier this morning I was thrown out of the house
because Thabi's family showed up for their wedding that is
next week and they demanded to stay at the house and there
were a lot of them and there were kids as well so my
husband asked me to give them space, the only mistake I did
was to ask him where should I go I found myself dragged out
of the room and Thabi pushing me to a point that I landed on
the floor and my arm hit the tiled floor first then he pulled
me up and threw me out, literally, I only had a phone in my
hand all this was done in front of Thabi's family they stood
there and watched which makes me wonder if are they not
worried that this can happen to their daughter as well.
I am at the hotel that Landile payed for and i'm thankful to
her and her brother for caring and the words that her
brother said to me I took them I am PamellaK he can't break
me.
I step out of the shower and lotion and look at the things
they bought for me I laugh when I see the panties and bras I
wonder if they fit but it's the thought that counts right?
I realise that I need sanitary towels since i'm still bleeding
from the miscarriage but it's not much anymore. I don't
know if I should call Landile she has done so much for me
already.
I call Khetha instead and his phone rings.
Khetha: Pamella.
Me: Hi I need some toiletries.
Khetha: I am in a very important meeting can't you call your
friend and ask her.
Me: She paid for the hotel already I don't want to bother her.
Khetha: So you thought you should bother me instead,
Pamella that girl's family has money i'm sure a couple of
hundreds is not a problem to her.
Me: Oh ok.
Khetha: Be a good girl ok I will check up on you later.
I drop the call and dial Landile's number.
Landi: Hey.
Me: You sound like you just woke up.
Landi: Yeah woke up in bed I have no idea how I got here the
last time I checked I fell asleep on the couch with mom and
dad.
I laugh a little.
Landi: Are you ok babe?
Me: Uhm I'm sorry to bother you uhm I need sanitary towels.
Landi: Sani what?
Me: Landile..
Landi: No Ella I don't know what you're talking about.
Me: Pads.
Landi: Oh yeah I know pads, but it's late now where can I get
them?
Me: Don't you have them?
Landi: Unfortunately I don't baby girl I took some
precautions.
I laugh I wonder what are those precautions.
Landi: I will take a taxi now I will see if I can find them at
Spar since they close late.
Me: Ok thank you.
Landi: They have brands right?
Me: Kotex is fine.
Landi: I hope I will remember, I'm coming.
I drop the call and Khetha calls.
Me: Hi.
Khetha: Did you find a way to get those things?
Me: She said she will bring it for me.
Khetha: What was so hard about asking her in the first place,
she is a woman for fucks sake.
Me: I'm sorry.
Khetha: Pamella you were so clever when I met you, what
happened to you? right now you are just a dumb bitch.
I sigh.
Khetha: Uthuleleni!(why are you quiet)
He shouts.
Me: i'm ..i'm sorry.
Khetha: Fix yourself man can't have a dumb wife I have a
reputation to maintain here.
Me: People took pictures of me in a bus stop i'm sure I will
make a front page tomorrow.
Khetha: You will fix that.
Me: How?
Khetha: You will know tomorrow morning.
He drops the call, I sigh and wait for Landile, after 15 minute
there's a knock I start at the bathroom to wipe myself then
open the door.
Landi: Hey.
She hugs me.
Landi: I got your things, I don't know if I got it right.
I look at the plastic it has pads, sweets and chips and yes she
got it right.
Me: Thank you, you got it right.
Landi: Thank God.
I walk away to the bathroom fix myself then go back to the
room.
Landile: Why didn't you eat?
Me: I wasn't hungry.
Landile: Eat now then you must be hungry.
Me: Ok.
I sit in bed she sleep on her back looking at me.
Landi: Do you trust me?
I nod looking at her.
Landi: Good, I will get you out of that marriage it might take
a while I just want you to stay strong for me ok.
Me: I will.
Landi: Are you okay with sleeping alone?
Me: Yeah i'm ok, Khetha said tomorrow morning I will know
how to fix that people took pictures of me at the bus stop.
Landi: How can you fix that?
Me: Guess I have to wait till tomorrow to find out.
Landi: I hope he won't hurt you, I am tempted to shoot him
but the police will be on my back you can't just kill a rich
man like him without a plan.
I look down.
Landi: You still love him?
Me: The pain I went through for three years because of him
and you ask me that?
Landi: I'm sorry, I'll see you tomorrow.
She kiss my cheek and walk out, I get under the covers and
wish tomorrow never comes.
In the morning I wake up to the phone call from the
husband.
Me: Hello.
Khetha: Get ready your friend and her brother will be there
to pick you up soon.
Me: Why are you in contact with my friend Khetha you have
never approved of my friendship with anyone why are you
busy with Landile?
Khetha: I think she is a good friend and doesn't seem to poke
her nose in our business like your other friends used to,
trying to break us up.
Me: I hope that is it.
I am trying to act dumb making him think I don't know that
he wants Landile to keep an eye on me.
Khetha: Are you jealous maKunene? Wow so you still love
me.
I roll my eyes, fool.
Khetha: I wouldn't go for her, she is pretty but not my type
she acts like a boy and looks ghetto too I like ladies with
class.
Me: Mmm.
Khetha: Get ready.
I go to the bathroom then go sit on the bed so I have to wear
the dress I came here wearing because Landi only bought
gowns.
I wear it and get the door it's Landile, she hugs me and I hold
on to her.
Me: You smell good.
Landi: Thank you, did the panties fit you.
She ask still hugging me.
Me: Yes I was shocked you know that you got my side right.
Landi: Wish I could take them off right now and eat you up
making you my breakfast.
I blush.
Me: Stop.
Landi: If you weren't in that situation we were going to have
a quickie right here by this door.
I step back and look at her.
Me: We should go.
Landi: Yeah hey.
I kiss her she goes wild with her tongue I think she is really
horny right now.
Me: So where are you taking me?
Landi: Said we are meeting at the radio station.
Me: What why there?
Landi: He didn't tell me, come let's go.
Me: Should I take everything.
Landi: No I paid for today as well.
Me: Thank you so much.
She go out first and I take my phone and follow shortly
behind her looking down so people won't see me.
I get in her brother's car.
Me: Sawubona.(hello)
Langa: PamellaK how are you?
Me: I'm good, thank you for yesterday.
Langa: My pleasure beautiful.
Landi: I know you're not flirting with my girl.
Langa: I am she is hot!
Landi: You don't want me to get you off your car hey?
Langa: And who will drive?
Landi: She will.
They can talk and their voice sound the same a bit.
Langa: let's go.
He drives to this radio station and I can see Thabi and
Khetha next to their car.
Langa: I will wait for you here.
Landi and I step out and walk towards them.
Khetha: Hello Pamella.
Me: Hi.
He kiss my cheek and shake Landile's hand.
Khetha: So let's go over this quick, you will tell everyone that
the reason you were at the bus station is because you ran
away, you agreed that I can take a second wife because you
can't give me kids then later you got cold feet thinking I will
want to leave you but later I explained to you that things
won't change so now we are okay and you understand that I
have to have an heir who will take over all this wealth I have,
do you get it?
I look at him and nod.
Khetha: Good don't stutter bring in some confidence so
people can believe you we are here because you keep failing
to carry a boy child for once Pamella!
Landi: Uhm can you tone it down a little people are listening
to you around shouting at her but you are worried about
your reputation.
He look around there are people who are standing next to us.
He clears his throat.
Khetha: Thanks I didn't notice, see Pamella that is why I said
she is a good friend, let's go, uhm Landi please wait for her
she is going back to the hotel and this time I'll pay and pay
you back your money.
Landi nods and look at me then turn around walking to her
brothers car we walk in.
*
NADIA
*
I think there is a loose screw in Mthethwa's head that man is
just crazy maybe it's all the money and fame that is making
him think he owns the world.
I walk back to my brothers car and get in the the passenger
seat.
Me: Open the frequency of this radio station please that guy
is crazy man.
He open the radio station and we listen.
Host: So Mrs Mthethwa we saw your pictures at the bus stop
recently and you seemed in a bad state what happened?
Ella clears her throat.
Pamella: Uhm I..you all know that my husband is taking a
second wife so I.
Mthethwa: I need a son an heir and my wife understands
that and her womb is not fit enough to carry our kids to full
term so she agreed that I take her to give me children.
Pamella: Uhm yeah so yesterday I got cold feet I thought he
was going to leave me and I ran away from home but he
came and assured me that nothing will change between us
he still loves...and respect me as his first wife.
Host: So you are okay with this?
Pamella: I am he has money so he can afford as many kids
but I can't give him that and Thabi can.
Host: Do your wives get along?
Mthethwa: Yes Pamella is even going as far as given Thabi a
share of the PamellaK C so they will be co-owners working
side by side.
Me: What?
Host: Wow PamellaK that's so big of you I know you started
that business before you even got married and to give your
husband's wife a share is huge, how do you do it?
Pamella: I..I..
Langa: That sounds like an ambush she had no idea that was
going to happen.
Pamella: Uhm please excuse me I have a meeting to get to.
Host: Well everyone you heard that PamellaK has a meeting
to get to so that's it for today thank you Mr Mthethwa and
your wives for coming.
Mthethwa: Thank you for having us.
I see Pamella coming out first she is walking slowly like she
has given up in life.
Langa and I step out and wait for her to get to us, she huffs.
His husband shout coming to us with a paper
Mthethwa: You need to sign this Pamella.
She doesn't ask anything she take the papers and a pen and
sign then give it to her husband.
Thabi: Partners.
She says giving ella her hand and ella shakes it.
Thabi: Thanks we have your stuff in the car you will come
back after the wedding but you will attend it so find a
beautiful dress and be a supportive wife to our husband.
Ella nods.
She follows them to the car they give her bags and she walk
back in the car and get in without saying a word.
We get in too and drive in silence I don't know what to do or
say to her.
Pamella: I started that business with my late mother's
money on my own and they just took it.
That's all she says then step out of the car taking her bags
with.
Langa: Nadia..
I nod my head and take my phone.
Mthethwa: Landile.
Me: Can we meet I need to talk to you about something very
important.
Mthethwa: We can only meet tomorrow I am going home
now then taking Thabi's family out for dinner tonight.
Me: Oh ok tomorrow then.
I drop the call.
Langa: Why do you want to meet him?
Me: I wanted to find out where he will be tonight and he just
told me.
Langa: Why?
Me: I want to detroy that contract that Pamella signed then
replace it with another one that favours her.
Langa: How are you going to do that?
Me: I will steal it and make a few changes then take it back to
him you saw that it was only one page I can type a new one
and get Pamella to sign it.
He look at me.
Langa: I am worried you sound like a real criminal right now.
Me: I am like a chameleon I blend in, the situation I am in has
a potential to change me.
Langa: Right, so how are you going to find the contract?
Me: I will follow him I am sure the contract will be in his car.
Langa: But how Landi?
Me: I will come back home tomorrow morning cover for me
ok.
Langa: You will be safe?
Me: I will brother, you still need me around.
Langa: I do.
Me: See you at home let me check up on her
Langa: I love you.
Me:I love you too.
I walk in and find her in the shower I wait for her and sit in
bed, she comes out after a while and smile a little she has a
towel wrapped around her body.
She stands in front of me and drop the towel.
Me: Mmmm.
My pussy walls clenches at the sight of her playing with her
nipples.
Me: You're okay now?
Pamella: Yesterday it stopped.
Me: So you only needed one pad Ella but you made me buy
the whole pack?
Pamella: Were you going to take one out and go at the till to
pay for it?
Me: Yes.
She smiles and sit on my lap legs on my either side.
Me: Your body is hot baby.
I get up and lay her in bed taking off my clothes and get on
top of her.
Me: Ongivulele.( open up for me)
She open her thighs and I get in between them and start
grinding on her pussy,I need this motivation.
Me: Fuck your clit is amazing baby eish..
Pamella: Yes landi..oh fuck baby I love you so much.
I continue to grind till we both cum,I go the bathroom and
take a quick shower using her towels then quickly get
dressed I walk out and kiss her lips.
Me: I have to go.
Pamella: I thought you're going to sleep with me today.
Me: I have to do something first.
Pamella: Oh.
Me: I will come back.
She nods I can see she is sad but I am doing this for her, I kiss
her but she turns her face.
Me: Pamella.
Pamella: It's ok go.
I rush out and take a taxi to her house and stop at the gate
watching them, I can see that they are ready to leave with
two cars.
Thabi: Babe we are going to Ushaka Marine right? My friend
wants to meet us there.
And that's all I need, I turn and get a taxi to Ushaka Marine
and wait for them there.
After an hour of waiting I see his car driving in and park then
another one comes and park next to it. They step out and
walk towards an entrance I run to his car and kick it the car
alarm security goes off I squart next to it and I hear it unlock
I quickly open the drivers door I hear him trying to lock it
again then they walk away, I get up and get in his car I see
papers and take them the first paper I see is that contract
pamella signed I take it then put other papers back, it's dark
now I step out and push the door a little and take out my
phone and dial the number.
Me: Hey Kingston you're still open?
Kingston: Yeah my guy but not for long.
Me: I'm coming there now I need your help.
I get a taxi and it stops at the internet cafe that is not far
from uShaka and walk in.
Me: Hey man.
Kingston: My guy long time.
Me: I need you to type this for me but change the names
from Khetha Mthethwa and remove Thabile Makhoba to
Pamella Kunene Mthethwa.
I saw that Khetha owns half of Pamella's business so I'm
changing that to Pamella's name then remove Thabi to make
Pamella 100% owner, imagine she only was going to own
25% and her husband 50% then this stupid wife 25% it
doesn't make any sense.
Kingston starts typing i am looking close to make sure
there's no mistake and he is done in less than 15 minutes.
It's funny how kingston think I am a man, they all did I made
them believe that, he is a nigerian who was friends with the
one I sold drugs for.
Me: Thank you, how much?
Kingston: No nothing you are my friend.
I shoulder hug him.
Me: Thanks man, are you closing?
Kingston: Yes.
Me: Please take me to protea hotel then Ushaka.
Kingston: That is fine it's not far.
He drives less than a minute to a hotel I rush in and knock
and Ella opens.
Pamella: You are back?
Me: I don't have time get the pen and sign here.
Pamella: What is that?
Me: Just sign the damn thing I will tell you later.
She look for the pen in the handbag they gave her then sign I
rush out and kingston drive me to Ushaka and I find the door
of Mthethwa's car still not closed I put the paper back and
hope for the best.
Me: Thanks man I owe you.
Kingston: It's all good.
I take a taxi back to the hotel and sleep with Ella in my arms
and it feels so good.
*
The next morning I wake up first and go back home to take a
shower. My phone rings it's Mthethwa.
Mthethwa: You wanted to meet?
Me: Yes.
Mthethwa: Come to the office.
I walk out and go to the mall and get in, I find him with
someone.
Me: Hello.
Mthethwa: Zack thank you that was all.
They shake hands and he walk out.
Me: Oh who was that?
Mthethwa: My lawyer I was giving him the new contracts.
Me: Contracts?
Mthethwa: Yes the one Pamella signed yesterday and the
other one from my other business.
I want to do a vistory dance but I will just wait a little, so he
had no idea that contract was changed poor him and he is so
sharing without even realising that I am onto him.
Mthethwa: So you wanted us to talk?
Me: Yes.
Mthethwa: What is it?
Me: I need money.
Mthethwa: Oh how much.
Me: Like a lot of money.
Mthethwa: Name the price?
Me: 5 million.
He widens his eyes.
Mthethwa: That's all of money.
Me: I owed some bad guys only 15 000 and when I couldn't
pay they raised it.
Mthethwa: your family have money.
Me: I don't want to involve them see the reason why I
worked there is because I wanted to work for my money I
don't like handouts.
I see him smiling and nodding.
Mthethwa: Meet me here tomorrow I will make a plan.
Me: Thank you.
All I want him to do is show me the source of his money, I
want to see how he became rich, I find that, I find the way to
save Ella from him.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

*
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*
NADIA
*
I am on my way back to Pamella coming from her husband's
workplace, I knock on her door she opens and go back to
bed.
Me: Hey baby.
She ignores me.
Me: Pamella.
Still nothing.
Me: Ok what did I do babe?
Pamella: I woke up in the morning and you were gone Landi
you didn't say anything.
Me: I'm sorry I was rushing somewhere.
Pamella: I don't care ok I don't!
She starts crying, I sit next to her and try to touch her but
she get up and go to the bathroom.
I wait for her to come out but minutes pass I get up and walk
to the bathroom I find her weeping on the floor I kneel next
to her.
Pamella: It hurts, my mother wanted what's best for me not
this. she thought I will be successful in that business. She
believed in me that's why she gave me her money but what
did I do? I gave it away, he forced me to give him half of my
business now I am just like an employee in my own business.
I am PamellaK not them!
The way she's crying cuts deep.
Me: Baby listen I..
Pamella: It's not fair..what did I do to deserve this I am all
alone, mom left me all alone with no one to speak for me.
Me: But I'm here i'm not leaving you, and I will fight for you.
Pamella: What can you do Landi, you can't put your life in
danger for a woman who said I do, I got in that marriage
willingly.
Me: But you didn't know it will come to this babe come on.
Pamella: I hate him so bad..I.
She starts breathing heavily.
Me: Pamella, baby are you okay, look at me ella.
She looks like she is really struggling to breathe.
Me: Look at me Pamella, breathe, come on breathe baby.
It doesn't work, I pick her up and lay her in bed, I take the
phone and call the reception so they can call the ambulance,
I am shouting at them they seem to be asking useless
questions.
After a while there is a knock on the door ella is still
breathing like she will take the last breath any minute now, I
hear a knock I jump to open the door the paramedics walk in
I just point at Ella I don't want to talk because i'm going to
cuss out bad words and I won't be able to take them back.
They put oxygen mask, I can hear the sound her chest makes
and it doesn't sound good.
Me: Is she ok?
They put her wheel her in a stretcher and I follow behind
them and get in the back with her they inject her and she
slowly fall asleep.
We get to a City hospital and they tell me to wait outside.
I pace back and forth on the passage then take out my phone
to call her husband.
Mthethwa: Are you cancelling our meeting for tomorrow?
Me: Pamella is admitted at City hospital.
Mthethwa: What? Why, what happened?
Me: I found her struggling to breathe then the receptionist
called an ambulance.
Mthethwa: Ok we're on our way.
We?
I call my brother.
Langa: Sis.
Me: Pamella is admitted.
Langa: What!? Which hospital?
Me: City hospital.
Langa: I'm coming now.
I drop the call and sit down.
After some time her husband and her sister wife walk in
holding hands.
Mthethwa: Where is she?
I point at the ward.
He walks away leaving his wife staring at me, my brother
rush in and greet Thabi and we hug then sit down.
She is still staring at me.
Me: You want to say something?
Thabi: No why?
Me: You have been staring at me ever since you came in
here.
Thabi: You care about her huh?
Me: Who?
Thabi: Pamella?
Me: Isn't it the reason you are here because you also care
about her?
Thabi: Oh no I couldn't care less I am just supporting my
husband.
Me: Mmm.
Thabi: So what's in it for you?
Me: You really should leave me alone I am not your friend I
don't even know you.
Thabi: Oh but you will soon, my husband want to make you
my personal bodyguard after the wedding.
Me: I'd rather swèep the floor of public toilets on the 31st of
December.
Thabi: I heard you need money so you will take anything
given to you.
Langa: Who is she?
Me: The second wife.
He chuckles.
Langa: What a downgrade.
He whispers and I chuckle.
Me: Get out of my face.
Mthethwa walks out of the ward.
Mthethwa: She will be okay she just had a panic attack,
thanks man for being there, hi Langelihle.
Langa: You know me?
Mthethwa: Everyone knows the famous gay couple in
Durban.
Langa: Mmm.
We get in her ward and stand around her bed she is awake
now but blinking slowly looking in the same direction.
Thabi: I don't trust her baby I feel like she is doing this for
attention, she wants to stop our wedding.
Mthethwa: Maybe you're right, Landile take her back to the
hotel when she is discharged, I hope you won't pull that
stunt you just pulled on our wedding.
I am looking at them I want to see them suffer slowly I want
to laugh at their faces once i'm done with them.
They walk out and I follow him.
Me: You want to make me her bodyguard?
Mthethwa: No she was just suggesting it.
Me: Did she tell you why?
Mthethwa: Because I trust you and she wants you to protect
her from Pamella.
I laugh.
Me: What can Pamella possible do to her?
Thabi: A woman scorned is dangerous.
Me: Sir are we still meeting tomorrow?
Mthethwa: Yes and wear comfortable shoes I will show you
something.
I nod and get back in the ward and find Pamella and Langa
laughing.
I kiss her cheek.
Me: What did I miss?
Langa: I was trying to tell Pamella that I once went to space
and she doesn't believe me.
Pamella: I know you're lying we were going to read about it
on papers.
Langa: How? I was in space they couldn't get a story while
i'm up there floating.
Pamella: I guess we should relocate to space then so we can
have peace away from having people wanting to write about
our lives.
I watch them as they talk and laugh like they are best
friends, I have noticed that Langa get along easy with women
it's like he understands them more.
Me:When am I taking you back to the hotel?
Pamella:They will keep me here overnight.
Me: Your husband paid?
Pamella: I think so.
Me: You scared me I thought you're dying on me.
Pamella: I was scared too you know, I thought I was leaving
my beautiful girlfriend with the likes of Unathi that keeps
throwing herself on her..
I look at her in awe, my mouth is hung open like I didn't
expect her to say that.
Langa: You know Unathi?
Pamella: She called Landile begging her to give her a good
time again!
Langa: How did that make you feel?
Pamella: I was angry and jealous, the way she was begging
her was disgusting.
Me: Now you admit you were jealous?
Pamella: Mxhm..
Langa: You need anything to eat?
Pamella: Yes please.
Langa: Ok I will be back.
Me: You will find me here.
He walk out I sit down and take Ella's hand.
Me: I love you and I will do anything for you.
She smiles.
Me: Tomorrow I won't be able to see you the whole day
maybe I will see you later at night.
Pamella: Oh, where are you going?
Me: I can't tell you for now.
Pamella: Ok.
Me: Don't be sad my brother will take you back to the hotel.
Pamella: Uhm where you are going, does it involve another
woman?
Me: No Ella.
Pamella: I'm sorry I know i'm married i'm in no position to
be jealous, I have no right at all.
Me: But what if I give you the right to be jealous?
I smile looking at her.
Me: Everything will be okay very soon.
Langa comes back and I tell him to drive to Sfiso's work.
Sfiso: What a suprise, Nadia remembers I exist.
Me: Oh come on I have been busy but I will becoming here
more often.
Sfiso: What do you want Nadia?
I laugh.
Me: I need cameras that will be connected to your computer
which will make you be the one who will have all the
footages.
Sfiso: The cameras will be installed to whos house?
Me: Mthethwa's house.
They both look at me.
Langa: You want to install cameras to a Mthethwa house?
Me: Yes I protect his wife remember?
Sfiso: You do?
Me: yes, please don't ask questions for now please.
Sfiso: How many cameras?
Me: six.
Sfiso: That will cost a lot of money Nadia.
Me: Oh he will pay don't worry about that.
Sfiso: I have them here that were left when we changed the
system.
Me: I prefer those that are too hard to notice.
Sfiso: I am talking about exactly those camera.
He opens his drawers and take out the cameras.
Sfiso: The minute you install them it will show in my
computer because I already have them in my system.
Me: You're the best.
Langa: I just want you to be careful.
Me: That's my middle name.
*
Its raining and I am with Mthethwa in the middle of the
forest to do whatever there is a rondavel that looks like it
can fall any minute from now.
Mthethwa: we will take off the shoes when we get in there
ok don't be scared.
Me: Oh don't worry about me.
We step closer to the rondavel and and take off our shoes
and walk in I see him sitting down on his butt I sit next to
him, in front of us there is a woman who is hiding her face by
a red cloth.
Woman: Mthethwa.
Mthethwa: Hello Ma.
Woman: We don't come here to play.
Mthethwa: I know that ma.
Woman: Is your friend aware of that?
Mthethwa: She is.
Woman: Did you tell her what this place is for?
Mthethwa: No but I told her I am taking her to where she can
solve her money problems.
Woman: You have to tell her everything so she can know
what she is getting herself into should she agree to this I
don't want to take the blame when things turns out
differently.
He clears his throat.
Woman: Just get straight to the point Mthethwa.
Mthethwa: Please don't tell Pamella about this I know she is
your friend, So this is how I got to be rich, I came here
because one of my friends recommended it 4 years ago
because I was struggling with my business and Ma asked me
if I had a wife and I said Yes, she asked if I was willing to do
anything to have this wealth and I agreed.
He breaths.
Mthethwa: So Phamella had to get pregnant with a boy child
so he can be a sacrifice for me to have my wealth and if she
falls pregnant with girls they will use them to boost my
wealth but what keep this wealth is a boy child a girl child is
just to keep them happy and I have to cut Pamella's wrist so
she can give them her blood to make sure if she finds out
what is happening and she shares it with someone els then
they can trace her using her blood wherever she is and kill
her.
Me: Oh so you only needed one boy?
Mthethwa: Just one boy that's all and this would be over we
would start our family and have kids.
Me: So the reason why she is loosing babies is because they
are girls?
Mthethwa: Yes, it's like owing someone 15 000 then give
them 10 000 and tell them you will give them the rest of it
you are still working on it.
Me: So you give them girls hoping to get a boy one day then
all the miscarriages will stop?
Mthethwa: Yes.
Me: And where does Thabi fit in all this?
Mthethwa: I am hoping she gives me a boy quicker.
Me: If she does will this stop happening to Pamella?
Mthethwa: No she will keep getting miscarriage if she carry
girls but I will be all good if Thabi give me that one boy I will
be maintained for life.
I clench my jaws selfish bastard sacrificed ella for shit!this is
killing her.
Me: So since I am a woman what can I do?
I hear Mthethwa chuckling.
Woman: With you it's easy you just sacrifice your womb.
Me: How?
Woman: We will take out your womb using what I can't
disclose to you we will put you to sleep so you won't be
scared and you have to understand that you will never fall
pregnant.
I already know what she can't "disclose" that is obviously a
snake.
Woman: For this sacrifice you will need to spend three days
alone and not come into contact with a man.
Me: Ok I understand, uhm so no one have tried to harass you
here since you stay alone.
Woman: I have my gods that protects me from evil.
Says the evil of evils!if there is such.
Me: Ok because I need money I will do it and Mr Mthethwa
will bring me here after his wedding.
Woman: fine remember no contact with a man.
I chuckle.
Me: Yes ma'am.
We walk out and get in the car, we are wet and my pants are
mudy not to mention my boots.
Mthethwa: Are you sure about this?
Me: Very!
Mthethwa: Ok, are you coming to my wedding?
Me: Is that an invite?
Mthethwa: Yes you know you are a good friend to Pamella
and I like you.
Me: Thanks.
He drives to town.
Me: I want to see if Pamella is ok, I asked my twin brother to
fetch her today.
Mthethwa: Ok let me drop you there, I am doing my final
fitting today.
Me: So you won't get in to check on her?
Mthethwa: No I am already late.
He drop me off and drive away, I get in and knock, langa
opens and stare at me.
Pamella is sitting under the bed covers.
Langa: What happened to you were you walking on the rain
and mud?
Me: Obviously, hey baby.
Pamella: Hey.
Me: Can I take a shower and I might need you to borrow me
your panties too.
Langa: Really Nadia!
Me: Yes my boxers are wet!
Pamella is in stitches.
I take a towel and walk to the bathroom I take off everything
my boxers and sport bra are not wet, saved me from wearing
panties.
I take a shower and dry my body wear my shorts and a sport
bra then hang my clothes.
I go back to the room and get in next to ella.
Me: Do we have food here?
Pamella: Yes I will warm it up for you, Langa came with
home cooked meal I don't know how much I missed it.
Me:How did you get that food Langa?
Langa: Told Miyah to dish up for you because you are busy
with something and I told her to make it for two.
Me: Thank you.
Pamella warm it up and give it to me.
Me: Thank you.
Pamella: So where were you?
Me: Can't tell you yet but I am one step closer to giving you a
better life with no miscarriages.
Pamella: Don't make such promises Landile.
Me: Oh but I can and i'm keeping them, I am invited to your
husband's wedding.
Pamella: Oh, my dress and hair came this morning Thabi
sent them.
Me: Who is taking you there?
Pamella: They said the car will pick me up, the wedding will
be in the backyard.
I nod.
Langa: Goodnight, mom and dad miss you Nadia they are
worried.
Me: Don't worry after that wedding everything will be back
to normal.
Langa: Ok bye.
He walk out and I put the dishes away and get back to bed
and pull her to my chest.
Me: Through the fire, through whatever come what may..
She look at me.
Me: I love you.
She hold on to me tight and fall asleep, I look at her, how can
he do this to such a beautiful woman, I just want her to be
happy to always smile, sadness doesn't suit her at all.
*
Wedding day, i am getting ready in my room, I am wearing
black pants and a white shirt, dad walk in and look at me.
Me: Hi dad.
Luyolo: Did I do something wrong?
Me: What?
Luyolo: Landile you have been avoiding me, you come home
late then go in the morning did I hurt you in any way?
I go to him and hug him he wraps his arms around me and
sigh.
Me: I'm so sorry dad.
Luyolo: Your mom and I got you something but you are
always away Landile your mom think she did something
wrong and so do I.
Me: You didn't do anything dad I just need you to give me 3
days I will be with you guys everyday.
Luyolo: You promise?
Me: I promise.
Luyolo: You look good.
Me: Thank you.
He walk out, I feel bad I miss them too so much but I need to
help Ella.
I take my phone and call my boy Sabza.
Sabza: Nadia..
Me: I will send the address where you guys will pick me up.
Sabza: Sure.
I walk out carryiny a small bag and I find mom sitting on the
couch.
Me: Hi mom.
She gives me a very cold 'hello'.
Me: Mom i'm sorry.
Ziyanda: It's ok.
Me: I will make it up to you.
She nods I hate seeing them like this.
I take a taxi to mthethwa's house and everyone is busy
moving up and down, I look around and I see a perfect place
next to the globe,I grab the chair and climb on it putting the
first camera that is facing the passage.
Voice: What are you doing?
Me: I was changing the globes.
Voice: Oh ok.
I get down and walk towards Pamella's room and knock but
no one answers I get in and put another camera that is facing
the door.
I can hear music playing at the back meaning the wedding is
about to start.
I go to Thabi's room I put one there and finally open the
room he locks and put another camera there then go attend
the wedding. I sit at the last row, Mthethwa is already
standing at the alter, I gasp when I see ella walking in she is
wearing a very beautiful white dress and I imagine her
marrying me, she stands next to her husband smiling, I bet
she was forced to smile and act happy.
We all get up when Thabi walk in smiling walking towards
her husband, If only she knew why she is here getting
married.
They say their ridiculous vows, my phone vibrates in my
pocket I get up and my eyes meets with Ella, I smile and walk
away she is just standing like a statue next to her husband
that is saying vows to another woman.
Me: Sure Sabza.
Sabza:We are here.
I drop the call and rush out and get in the car there are three
of them including the guy that is "crazy" about me his name
is Rogger.
Me: Guys do we have that petrol?
Sabza: Check.
Me: Matches?
Sabza: Yep.
Me: Let's go.
We drive to where Mthethwa took me and step out Rogger
has a petrol in his hand.
We walk towards the forest and find the place.
Me: Hello ma.
I shout standing outside the place I have a gun in my hand.
She comes out still covering her face.
Woman: What do you want this is a sacred place we don't
shout.
Me: Oh.I forgot to ask you the other day, what happens if you
burn this place down, what happens to your clients?
Woman: Oh so you're the girl that came with Mthethwa?
Me: Yes.
Woman: Why are you here with those boys.
Me: They want the same thing as me.
Woman: If the place doesn't exist then your friend is
doomed.
Me: Will it stop the sacrifices.
Woman: Yes.
Me: Perfect.
I don't know what is it with people around here that are ok
with sharing everything with me, or do I seem trustworthy.
Me: Well I am here to destroy this place, it makes innocent
women suffer out there, women that worked hard to be
where they are, just because of their greedy husbands, I
don't like it and I won't take it, it ends here today all of it.
Woman: What, what do you mean?
Me: I mean I am burning this place with you inside.
She tries to run I shoot her leg she go down on her knees, I
step closer and remove the cloth in her face, she is so dark
and oily.
Me: Where are those things that protects you from evil?
Woman: Please I just give people what they want I don't
force anyone to come here, just let me go.
Me: I will be making a mistake if I do that, you will start
somewhere else and more women will suffer.
Woman: Please let me go I will stop.
Me:I can't, whatever evil you do here is making the woman I
love go through hell so I can't..come guys.
The boys step closer and pour petrol all over the rondavel
then I get this woman up.
Me: No hard feelings I am just protecting the woman I love.
I throw her inside and pull the door she is screaming.
We step and Sabza lights the matches and throw it at the
door the fire starts, we stand there watching the rondavel up
in flames and the sreaming of that woman inside the house
until she stops screaming.
Me: Let's go guys.
We walk back to the car and drive back to town.
Rogger: I don't want to piss you off ever!
Me: You better not. Drop me at home please.
I give them money in the bag and they drop me off walking
away, I get in my room and change.
Me: Mission 2 accomplished.
I say sleeping looking up the ceiling, Mthethwa will see
flames.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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NADIA
*
I wake up when I hear my phone ringing I walk to the
bathroom then go back and pick it up from the floor it must
have fallen down when I was asleep.
The call is from Ella.
Me: Hello.
Pamella: Hey I am back home.
Me: Ok Listen baby don't walk around your room naked,
when you take a bath go with your gown or a towel there.
Pamella: Why I am naked as we speak.
Me: Pamella cover up now!
I shout, she just giggles
Pamella: I am joking, so why can't I be naked.
Me: There is a camera in there.
Pamella:But you said he didn't put any.
Me: He didn't but I did babe, so did he go to a honeymoon.
She chuckled.
Pamella: No apparently OUR business is going slow so we
have to start working on it soon, we, being Thabi and I.
I chuckle.
Me: Oh baby shame go to work with your partner.
Pamella: It's not funny Landile I own only 25% now the
whole PamellaK belongs to them.
Me: No it doesn't.
She sighs.
Pamella: You like joking around too much Landi, let me get
ready for work.
Me: I will visit you, wear a short dress.
Pamella: Thabi will be there Landile!
Me:Oh I forgot babe sorry.
Pamella: Bye I can't talk to you when you are like this, this is
not a joke to me.
Me: I'm so..
She drops the call.
I take a shower wear my clothes then go join my family in
the table for breakfast, it's quiet no one is talking just the
kids making noise in the lounge.
Me: Morning.
They mumble some 'hello'
Me: Did someone die?
They stare at me.
Me: I am just asking.
Luyolo: You know we are worried about you and what you
are doing is not funny anymore Landile.
I look down.
Ntsika: Are you bored staying here with us?
Me: Guys come on I am old I have things I have to do I..
Luyolo: We eat breakfast together as a family unless
someone has to go to work or school, we make time for each
other! if someone has a problem we talk about it, that's what
we do in this family we don't just ignore each other!you
didn't tell us anything Landile we don't say tell us your
business but say something man!
Me: Dad i'm s..
He get up and walk away.
Me: Mom..
She look down on her plate, I look at everyone in the table
they just keep their eyes down.
Me: Even you Sofia?
I hear chuckles I think these people just miss my jokes marn
and always shouting at me.
Me: I miss you guys too, there is something that was keeping
me busy but I will finish it soon then be home more often
please I understand that, mom.
Luyolo: That's what you should have said in the first place
not just leave.
He says behind me.
Me: I get it now, i'm sorry, now can we relax those grumpy
faces man before we get wrinkles. So sofia did you miss me
too girl?
Sindi: To be honest I had hope you don't come back.
Me: And who was going to tell you the truth about how you
look? Like right now the dress you are wearing might attract
bees it's too colourful and flowery.
Sindi: I won't let you bully me anymore.
Me: There is a difference between bullying and being honest,
I am being honest baby because I like you.
Sindi: Well I don't like you and I don't need your honesty.
Me: You do the bees aren't something to play with one sting
you feel like your whole life is coming to an end.
Ntsika starts laughing.
Sindi: Comedian wannabe.
Me: Oh I can be a comedian alright by just looking at you I
can write more than 50 jokes.
Sindi: Pathetic..
Me: And I have told you so many times that your wig is
pathetic.
Ziyanda: Landile stop..
Me: Ok.
My phone rings and they all look at me as I pick up i'm sure
they think i'm leaving.
Me: Hello.
Mthethwa: Are we still on for tomorrow?
Me: Yes.
Mthethwa: Ok good.
We are going to this place of "wealth" shame man.
Me: I am not leaving guys relax I am here but please can I
just dash somewhere around 11 o'clock I promise half past
12 I will be here.
Luyolo: It's okay you don't have to ask you can just tell us
you're leaving we are not dictating your life.
I nod.
We finish breakfast and I help mom clean the lounge where
the kids were eating then go to my room, I hear her shouting
my name I go to the laundry room I find her holding my
mudy pants.
Me:I can explain.
Ziyanda: I am listening.
Me: So it was a very long walk to freedom when I had to take
a journey in a very muddy place accompanying a friend to
that world of...
Ziyanda: You know I can beat the hell out of you right now,
right?
Me: I know I am trying to expl..
Ziyanda: Get out of here!
Me: Sorry.
I walk out and get ready to visit my Ella.
I buy something for lunch from Miss Prisca and she is still
chewing that gum.
Me: So is that the same gum you were chewing from that day
you were a comedian?
Prisca: Not today little boy I will wipe this floor with you.
Me: You will?
Prisca: Just go wait for your order away from my face.
Me: I will be in your face until the next customer comes or
you give me my food.
Prisca: You are like a mosquito so annoying.
Me: That's okay, I like you miss Prisca you and I have so
much in common.
Prisca: Do I look like a confused little girl or boy?
Me: No but you look like a brown potato bag I think you put
too much foundation on.
She is so angry, she gives me my order and I smile at her.
Me: Thank you I think I will be coming here more often you
give such a good service it's not everyday you see a customer
and a "shareholder" conversing like this, thank you.
I walk out and knock on Pamella's office I find Thabi, her and
their husband I take a sit.
Me: Hello I bought food enough for everyone.
Mthethwa: I didn't know you were coming.
Me: I thought I should suprise you and also congratulate
miss Thabi for being part owner of this big successful
boutique.
Pamella stares at me I shrug my shoulders smiling.
Mthethwa: So we are talking about something here Landile,
what do you think about a threesome, pamella think it's
disgusting.
I squint my eyes looking at him.
Mthethwa: What! I believe in exploring.
Me: I don't wanna be part of this conversation if you don't
mind.
Mthethwa: I see, Thabi are you keen you are both my wives.
Me: If Pamella doesn't like it then whether Thabi is keen or
not you can't drag Pamella into it but you can bring a willing
third party not my friend.
He stares at me I stare right back.
Mthethwa: You have guts I like that, you speak your mind I
wish I can have a boy or a girl that is like you one day.
I chuckle.
Me: I wish that for you as well, so are we eating or what?
We eat but Pamella is uncomfortable maybe it's having her
husband and a girlfriend in one room.
Mthethwa: So Pamella would it be okay if I bring a third
party in my bedroom with Thabi?
I roll my eyes we are still at that!
Pamella: If it will make you happy then you can even get
three girls baby.
She says with a very sweet smile.
Mthethwa: Mmmm.
This man is really revolting!
Me: I have to go now.
Mthethwa: Can I walk you out.
Me: Yes you can.
I look at Pamella, she look irritated now.
I get up and we walk out and stand just at the door of the
boutique.
Mthethwa: So you haven't slept with any man I hope since
tomorrow is the day.
I cringe at that question but I keep a straight face.
Me: Oh no I haven't.
Mthethwa: Can I check?
Me: I'm sorry what?
Mthethwa: I will just put a finger...
I give him a very hard blown punch that has him on one knee
Dee screams causing Pamella and Thabi to walk out. I am so
angry I am even shaking. He get up I punch him again people
stop walking and take pictures I give them my back still
looking down at him.
He smiles wiping blood that is coming out from his mouth..
Pamella: Landile..
I keep my eyes on this filthy man.
Mthethwa: I was just joking man, damn you give a mean
punch for a girl, i'm sorry it was a bad joke.
Me: I will kill you..
Mthethwa: No need to be this angry I have my wives I was
just joking really.
Me: I don't like those kind of jokes at all so maybe tell them
to your friends they might laugh but me I won't I can just
shoot all those fingers one by one.
Dee: Sir should I call the police?
Me: I think you should tomato cheeks.
She dials on her phone.
Mthethwa: Stop that Deborah I am the one who said a bad
joke now fuck off.
Dee: Ok i'm sorry.
He get up and give me his hand, I shake it.
Me: Next time you won't make it out alive.
Mthethwa: You have balls man I salute you no one
threaten me like that.
He moves behind me and shout.
Mthethwa: You better delete those pictures because if any of
you post it I will find you and you won't like what I will do,
now get away from here.
Once those people have walked away I turn and walk out, I
hear Pamella shouting my name.
Pamella: Are you ok?
Me: I'm fine.
Pamella: What happened, why did you beat him up like that
though I admit I am happy you did.
I smile.
Me: He made a bad joke about putting his finger in my pussy
I had to send him a quick message that I don't like what he
said.
Pamella: I'm so sorry babe.
Me: Yeah it's fine I gotta go.
Pamella: So when am I seeing you again?
Me: When this is all over.
Pamella: Then I won't ever see you again, this won't be over,
it's fine.
She walks back in and I take a taxi back home and find a
brand new car that has red ribbon it's black in colour very
beautiful car.
I walk in and find everyone inside.
Me: Whose car is that? That is a beautiful car yhoo.
Luyolo: You like it?
Me: Yeah it's cool and modern.
Luyolo: Good now here is the key.
Me:Why are you giving me?
Langa: So slow, damn!
Me: Are you talking to me?
Langa: No, about you.
Ziyanda: That car outside is yours.
Me: I don't understand.
Ziyanda: Your dad and I bought it for you.
Me: You lie!
They all laugh.
Ziyanda: It's yours.
My eyes are all out..I look at dad.
Me: Eyami?(it's mine?)
Luyolo: Unless you don't want it.
I grab the keys from him and rush out and it's only now I
notice that it's plate is LANDI-ZN.
Me: Aybo labantu! (These people)
I am just walking around it touching it,I can not believe this,
all my life the car was the last thing on my mind but now.
Luyolo: Welcome home Landile Nadia Gumede.
Me: And boy oh boy it feels good to be home! But no licence
yet.
Luyolo: You will work on it once you are done with what you
have been busy with.
Me: And I will, thank you so much Gumede and you
MaLukhele all of you big heads can go to hell, I have a car!
I hug dad then hug mom.
Me: Thank you so much guys thank you.
Langa: We can put it to test around the block.
Me: Ok let's go.
We get in and he drives first to remind me how to drive then
I drive us back home and hug mom and dad one more time
this is huge.
Me: I don't know how to thank you guys..
Ziyanda:Just be a good child and stop insulting Sindi.
Me: Oh she knows I love her, it's all love babe.
We eat dinner and go to bed.
*
I am up taking a shower and singing my lungs out I can't wait
to see Mthethwa's reaction when he sees that the source of
his wealth is gone with smoke!
Me: Angeke balunge! (They don't stand a chance)
I walk out whistling getting dressed, take my phone and go
to mom and dad's room and knock then walk in.
Me: Morning Family.
Luyolo: You are in a good mood.
Me: It's a beautiful day dad the sun is up.
Luyolo: I hope you are not up to no good.
Me: I am not, i'll be back soon.
I walk out and take a taxi to meet with Mthethwa and get in
his car.
Me: I hope you won't make bad jokes like you did yesterday.
Mthethwa:Never again.
Me: Good.
Mthethwa: Are you ready to be rich?
Me: I can't wait.
Mthethwa: Let's go.
He drives to this forest and I walk behind him smiling a little
he suddenly stops.
Mthethwa: What!?
Then he run closer and hold his head.
Me: What happened here?
The whole house is down I called the Kasi boys to make sure
even the walls are down and they did a great job.
Mthethwa:God No!No!No!
He is screaming his lungs out I am just staring at him as he
go crazy.
Mthethwa:How did this happen? where is she?
Me:You know maybe she relocated.
Mthethwa:Maybe, but she was going to tell me!No! man No!
Me: what am I going to do now I need that money!
I go crazy with him man.
Mthethwa: Maybe she will contact me and tell me what is
going on!let's go back home, fuck, I will speak to my financial
advicer I can give you half a million for now then when she
comes back you will pay me back.
Me: No I think I can wait a little it's all good.
Mthethwa: Are you sure?
Me: I am sure.
He drop me in town and I go back home and chill a little.
Sfiso calls me as i'm about to take off my shoes.
Me:Hello
Sfiso: Get here now Nadia!
Me:What is it?
Sfiso: The cameras you put in that house there is..
I drop the call before he can finish and rush out.
I dial the number as I walk out and get in a taxi.
Me: Sabza you know what to do right.
Sabza: Sure.
I drop the call and get off the taxi and rush to Sfiso's office.
Me: What's up.
Sfiso: Watch this..
I look at the screen Ella's mother in law and her husband are
dragging her on the floor in the passage to that locked room
then I look down at the camera that is in that room, I see
Mthethwa holding a knife and pinning Pamella down she's
fighting.
Me: 15 minutes from now call Grandpa and ask him to call
any of the police he trust to Mthethwa's house, I have to go
now.
Me: And please save those footages.
Sfiso: Where are you going?
Me:You will know soon!
I say rushing out and take a taxi to Mthethwa house I buzz at
the gate but no one answers I break it and the gate slides
open I rush in and go straight to that room I find Mthethwa
still on top of Pamella there is blood.
Woman: We need to see if they will drink her blood if they
do that means she is still alive and we won't lose everything.
I grab Mthethwa from Pamella and make him face me.
Mthethwa: How did you get in here?
Me: I have my ways..
I start punching him countless times the woman is trying to
grab me, I pin her son on the floor and continue to beat him
up, Next thing there is fire starting here inside this room on
the bed I get off him and rush to Pamella and pick her up, I
have her in my arms but fire is now surrounding this very
room, I look around the fire is everywhere and smoke as
well we start coughing.
Pamella: I can't breathe Landi..
I put her down and look at Mthethwa helping his mom, I take
out my gun and shoot both his legs.
The smoke is filling the whole room I kneel and hold Pamella
to my chest.
Me: Just hold on a little while longer baby, you will be fine.
Blood is oozing from her wrists and I hear a lot of noise, I
collapse on the floor with Ella ontop of me.
*
LANGA

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
*
I just woke up sweating and feeling very hot, I look for my
ringing phone and find it under my pillow.
I feel like i'm out of breath.
Me: Sfiso.
Sfiso: Tell dad that Mthethwa's house is on fire and Nadia is
in there, she said I should call grandad and I have.
He is speaking like he is out of breath too, I feel like crying so
hard how can Nadia do this to me, why did she go there
without telling me anything.
I get up from the bed and collapse on the floor I hear the
door opening and dad help me up.
Luyolo: What is going on,Ntsika is like this too in the lounge.
We go to the lounge with him supporting me.
Me: It's Nadia.
Luyolo: What is wrong with her?
Me: Sfiso called saying the Mthethwa house is on fire and
Nadia is in there.
Ntsika: What?
Luyolo: No..
He take the keys and rush out we slowly follow him and he
drives to Mthethwa's house and there are police, ambulances
and firefighters the house is all burnt, the gate is opened.
We walk in and go to Cooper who is friends with Grandpa, he
is a Detective.
Luyolo: Cooper my daughter is in there, what happened
here?
Cooper: We only found Mthethwa and his mother and we are
not sure what started the fire we were called by Lukhele to
come here.
Langa: My sister is supposed to be here!
Cooper: The whole house is burnt and no one is inside there.
Me: Then where is she?
Cooper: If she was here that means she was burnt to ashes.
Me: No, No not my sister
Cooper: We will get the forensics to search this entire house
for any remains.
I see Sfiso's car driving in and he parks and step out, he
comes to me and we hug.
Me: She is not here Sfiso they only found two people here.
Sfiso: She came here and she was fighting off Mthethwa from
Pamella I have the footages they were cutting her wrists.
Me: Then where is she?
Sfiso: When the fire started the cameras went off I couldn't
see anything and I had to google the location of this house.
Me: She is supposed to be here!
Luyolo: They have looked everywhere she is not here, now
get up and let's go home so you all can tell me what's going
on.
We get in the car and drive home in silence.
We are now sitting on the couch me,Sfiso,Ntsika and
Nkanyezi and dad is standing in front of us mom is sitting on
the couch opposite us.
Luyolo: What is going on?
We don't answer.
Luyolo: You better tell me something now before I lose it!
He roars and I look at Ntsika he look away.
Luyolo: Langelihle what business does your sister have with
Mthethwa?
Me: I...she was helping him with something.
Ziyanda: This is not the time to lie Langa at least not to me I
am sad right now and you don't want to piss me off, All of
you..now answer your father's question truthfully before I
beat the truth out of you.
Me: She was dating Pamella.
Ziyanda: Pamella who?
Me: PamellaK.
Luyolo: Mthethwa's wife?
I nod a little.
Luyolo: Is that the same house she got sick in?
Me: Yes.
Ziyanda: And you didn't tell us?Ntsika!
Ntsika: Mama.
Ziyanda: You all knew about this?
Ntsika: Yes mom but we told her to stop and she agreed so
we thought it was over that's why we didn't tell you guys.
Ziyanda: Then now how was she in that house if she agreed
to stop dating her?
Me: She didn't stop mom.
She get up and walk away.
Luyolo: What if she is dead? Will you be happy then huh will
you!?
Me: No, she can't be dead.
His phone rings and he answer holding it in front of him.
Luyolo: hello.
Cooper: Forensics says there is no sign of anyone burnt here
because of the angle of the fire in all the rooms.
Luyolo: Ok thank you.
He drops the call and look at us.
Luyolo: Go out there all of you and search for my daughter
don't fucken come back here without her, do you hear me?
We nod and walk out we look at each other outside.
Nkanyezi: "Langelihle why didn't you tell us she didn't stop
dating her?"
Me: I thought she was going to tell you guys soon.
Ntsika: Now where do we look?
Me: I don't know, Sfiso when that fire started did you see if
she was still in there?
Sfiso: She was , the camera switched off when she had the
woman in her arms.
Me: So maybe she escaped?
Ntsika: Then went where Langa?
Ziyanda: Hey!what are you still doing here?
She shouts and we get in Sfiso's car and he drives out.
Me: Let me try her phone.
I try calling but it's on voicemail.
Me: Eish what if Mthethwa found out about them and had his
guys kidnap them?
Sfiso: Babe Nadia buttered up that guy there's no way he was
going to make a phone call there.
Me: Eish Nadia marn she should have told me something
man.
We drive around then stop at the market.
Me: Let me drive.
We exchange seats with Sfiso and I drive to the townships I
don't know if I will still remember where she used to stay.
*
NADIA
*
Nop I am not dead and so is Pamella when I collapsed on that
floor the noise I heard was from my boys Sabza and Rogger
they came to fetch me and Pamella and drove straight to
Sabza's place.
Now I am up looking at Ella who is sleeping next to me, her
wrist are bandaged now Sabza did, my chest is still painful
from inhailing a lot of smoke.
I get up from the bed and walk out I smell like smoke right
now, I find them sitting outside eating meat, Sabza owns this
shisanyama, I sit down opposite them and huff.
Me: Thank you guys for getting there in time.
Sabza: It's all good, did you know there was going to be fire
there?
Me: No I thought I was just going to shoot the guy and you
come and take me with Pamella, the fire started out of
nowhere.
Rogger: So Pamella neh is she something to you?
Me: Yes she is mine.
Rogger: Oh what about me?
We laugh at him and stop when we hear someone scream
inside we rush in there and it's Pamella sitting up in bed
with her eyes tightly closed and holding on to bed.
Me: Hey Pamella open your eyes baby what is going on?
Pamella: It hurts..Aaaah!
Me: What hurts baby?
Pamella: Landile please help me please...
I look at Sabza he stares at Pamella.
Sabza: She needs to push it out..
Me: Push what out?
Sabza: What is inside of her.
I am so confused I know she hasn't been sleeping with her
husband ever since the last miscarriage so I don't know what
is supposedly inside of her.
She screams again..
Sabza: Help her up, let's go to the other room with her.
Me: I will carry her.
I carry her and walk to the other room that has just the bed.
Sabza: We will wait outside she needs to sleep facing up and
push it out because it's already dead.
They walk out leaving me confused.
I lay her down in bed and she sleep facing up and open her
thighs like someone who is about to give birth, she is still
crying her lungs out.
Me: I'm sorry baby but it will be over soon I promise you
sthandwa sam.(my love)
She screams so loud aching her back and I hear something
falling on the floor, she breathe out, I look down and I see a
small snake, the blood circulation on my body stops for
almost 60 seconds, she sit up and look where i'm looking she
screams all over again and I can't move I am just standing on
the same sport.
Pamella: Where did that come from Landi?
Me: I..I
Words can't come out, the talkative Landile is not so
talkative anymore.
Sabza and Rogger walk in and look down at the snake.
Rogger: Yhoo!abathakathi! (Witches)
Me: How did you know about this Sabza?
Sabza: I have a gift and that snake eat up all her babies she
carries in her womb but now it's all over, you saved her.
Me: It has always been in there?
Sabza: No someone gave them her blood so they came to
check if she is not pregnant yet but it went dead before it can
come out.
Pamella screams again and I don't know what to do.
Sabza: We need to burn it, she is okay now.
Me: Fuck!
I put my hands ontop of my head, this is too much I wish she
didn't see that at all, her whole body is shaking.
We walk out and burn the snake then walk back in.
Me: Rogger can you go to Mamzo and take my clothes for me
please.
Rogger: Sure.
He walks out, Sabza walk closer to Pamella.
Sabza:You need to heal sisi.
She can't talk she look so scared.
Rogger comes back with a bag, I go take a shower first and
wear blue jeans and white tshirt then go back and help Ella
up and walk her to the bathroom and help her bath and she
wears my grey sweatpants and black tshirt.
I try to give her food but she shakes her head.
Me: Please you need to eat baby.
She shakes her head, her eyes are empty, no life and no tears.
Me: I'm sorry Ella.
I hear cars parking outside and Langa's voice then a knock
on the door, they all walk in and find me sitting in bed
looking at them.
Langa: I knew you were alive Sis.
They come and hug me one by one.
Langa: Are you ok?
I nod.
Ntsika: What happened?
Me: I don't know a fire started from nowhere, so is
Mthethwa and his mother alive?
Ntsika: Yes but they're at hospital.
Me: Mmm good.
Langa: You didn't want him dead?
Me: No not yet I want to show him something first then I can
leak the footages to the police.
Sfiso: Ok let's go home, we were chased out because of you.
Me: I'm sorry, Sabza and you Rogger thank you guys for
everything you did for me, thank you.
Sabza: You can't all fit in that car let me drive you back to
town.
Me: Thanks man, come baby let me help you.
I help her up and we get in Sabza's car and my brothers get
in Sfiso's car and drive home.
Me: I will see you guys neh thanks.
I fist bump Sabza and Rogger then we get inside the house
Pamella is walking slowly behind me.
Me: It's okay babe, take my hand.
She take it and we walk in, Mom and dad are with some
white man they quickly get up and hug me tight I let go of
Pamella's hand and hug them back.
Me: I'm sorry for worrying you.
Luyolo: It's ok i'm happy you are home safe.
We sit down with Pamella next to me she look nervous she is
keeping her head down.
Ziyanda: Hi Pamella
Pamella: Hi.
Ziyanda: Are you okay?
She nod a little.
Luyolo: This is detective Cooper our family friend so he is
here to find out what happened there don't be scared tell
him the truth about what happened there.
Me: Well he was cutting his wife's wrists with the help of his
mother.
Cooper: How do you know this?
Me: I was there and look at both her wrists they have cuts in
them.
Cooper: Why would he cut her wrists?
Me: He was practicing witchcraft using her and all the babies
she fell pregnant with, he once took me to some place saying
that it is the reason why he is wealthy.
Cooper: You know that witchcraft can't be proof in court.
Me: Oh I have proof of him dragging his wife on the floor and
cutting her wrist.
Cooper: Where is it?
Me: I will give it to you when the time is right.
Cooper: So Mrs Mthethwa you are a victim of domestic
violence?
She nods.
Cooper: For how long?
Pamella: Four years.
Mom gasps.
Cooper: But you were married for four years.
Pamella: Yes and I have never been happy.
Cooper: Why did you stay?
Me: Witchcraft Mr Cooper, if she said anything she was going
to die.
Cooper: So Mr Mthethwa is shot who shot him.
Me: I did.
He chuckles.
Me: I was defending my fellow woman from that man and his
mother.
Cooper: What if he press charges against you?
Me: Will you arrest me?
Cooper: No I am asking.
Me: I will deny it, he didn't see me shoot him there was a lot
of smoke also there is no proof.
I hear chuckles.
Cooper: So when is the right time to get that footage.
Me: Dad will bring me to you.
Cooper: Ok Luyolo your kids are trouble but this one is
worse.
Luyolo: She worries me.
Cooper: But you too were like this, you once killed the guy
named Menzi and didn't deny it at all.
Dad laughs looking at mom.
Luyolo: He was touching my things.
Ziyanda: I wasn't even yours that time Lu.
Luyolo: You were mine the first day I saw you Ziyanda.
They smile at each other.
Cooper: I will see you Landile.
Me: Yes you will.
He walk out then we continue to it down.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry for what happened to you Pamella.
She nods.
Me: Uhm mom can we let her rest here in my room for now
please.
Ziyanda:It's ok.
I take Pamella to my room and she get in bed and close her
eyes.
Me: I love you.
I walk out and sit back in the lounge.
Luyolo: Why are you dating a married woman Landile?
Me: It just happened dad I didn't plan it.
Luyolo: You love her?
Me: Yes dad.
Luyolo: Are you sure?
Me: Yes and I have done so much to save her from that man,
he almost killed her while he force her to act happy in public.
They nod I don't think they approve but it's my decision to
make.
Later I go to my room and find Pamella sitting in bed.
Me: Are you okay?
Pamella: Please take me to a hotel.
Me: Why, it's late now we can go in the morning.
Pamella: I don't like being here and I shouldn't be here
please I saw how your mom and dad were looking at me I
have to go I am still a married woman.
Me: Ok let's go I don't want you to stay when you are
uncomfortable, let me pack some clothes you can wear for
now.
I pack some clothes I think they will fit and towels, soups
then my lotions she will have to use my things for now.
We walk out and take a taxi to the same hotel she stayed at
the last time.
We check in and get in the room.
Pamella: Thank you.
Me: Ok.
We go to bed the next morning I wake up and kiss her.
Me: I will see you during the day.
Pamella: Ok.
I go back home and go join them for breakfast.
Ziyanda: Where is Pamella?
Me: At the hotel.
Ziyanda: Oh when did she leave?
Me: Last night.
Ziyanda: Oh.
Me: Yes.
We eat in silence.
Me: Did you have a problem with her being here?
Ziyanda: What no no..
Me: Tell me the truth mom you don't like her.
Ziyanda: It's not like I don't like her but she is married baby
you can find someone else, someone young.
Me: Do you guys choose who we must date?
Ziyanda: No, but she's a bit older.
Me: If Langa is my twin brother then Sfiso is 9 years older
than him or is it ok for him?
Ziyanda: No it's not that Landile, she has problems.
I chuckle.
Me: Ok.
Langa: Mom don't do that, you have never done it before,
each and every one of us have had problems before but you
were never like this.
Ntsika: Yes mom stop please.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry.
Me: It's all good.
I get up and walk to my room and sleep in bed.
Mom and dad walk in and sit in my bed.
Luyolo: We're sorry Landi we are not judging her at all we
just want what's best for you.
Me: And she's not?
Ziyanda: She is babe, Pamella is an impeccable woman and a
successful business woman strong too, the truth is I am
worried that we might lose you, you will spend all your time
with her and we won't see you much and we just found you
Landi we want you here at home.
Me: I understand mom but Pamella will be going back to
work soon and I want to be your PA at work.
She look at me.
Ziyanda: Stop playing with me.
Me: I am not joking I want to be your Personal assistance if
you want me to and if you will give me a lot of off days.
Ziyanda: Are you serious?
Me: Yes I am.
She screams hugging me tight.
Luyolo: But what about me?
Me: I will be with you in my off days everywhere you go I
will go with you.
Luyolo: That can work.
Me: So Pamella can visit me here?
Ziyanda: of course baby.
Me: Thank you.
I go to Sfiso and ask for a footage he give me a USB.
*
Two weeks later Pamella is going back to work and her
husband is on a wheelchair he stays at their neighbour
apparently there is no money in their joint account, I get a
call from her.
Pamella: Landile..
She is crying.
Me: Babe what is going on?
Pamella: They are throwing me out of the office.
Me: Why?
Pamella: I am incompetent, I come to work late in my own
company Khetha is half owner he can fire me.
Me: Do you know Zack his lawyer?
Pamella: Yes.
Me: Send me his number now, who is there?
Pamella: Thabi, Khetha and the mother in law.
Me: Mmm perfect, don't leave until I get there baby ok, stay
at that opposite restaurant where we had our first drink
together.
Pamella: Ok.
She send me Zack's number and I go to dad.
Me: I need Cooper to meet us at the mall.
Luyolo: I will call him now.
I go to Langa's room and knock.
Me: Do you want to come with me and dad.
Langa: To where?
Me: The mall.
He wear his shoes while I call Zack.
Zack: Yeah.
Me: Hello you are speaking to Landile Mr Mthethwa asked to
see you at his wife's boutique and bring that new contract
with.
Zack: Ok I will be there in 15 minutes.
I drop the call and dad drive us to the mall, we wait for
cooper for a while he comes with his colleague in a uniform.
Cooper: Is it the right time?
Me: Yes it is Sir.
I see Zack stepping out of his car I go to him.
Me: hi I am the one who called you earlier for Mr Mthethwa.
Zack: Ok.
Me: We can all go in.
We walk in, I am walking in front of everyone they are all
behind me, I go to Pamella she is sitting down with a box in
front of her it has papers and a laptop.
I kiss her and wipe her tears.
Me: Let's go to your office baby.
I pull her up and take a box for her, then we all walk in her
office.
I find Thabi busy redecorating, putting her wedding pictures
everywhere, and Mthethwa is on a wheelchair behind the
desk then the mother in law sitting comfortable on the
couch .
Me: Hello everyone.
Mthethwa: Why are you here, Pamella didn't I tell you to
leave this place?
Me: Unfortunately she can't.
Mthethwa: You know I thought you don't poke your nose in
people's business but I was wrong.
Me: Mmm ok but still Pamella is the only person who have a
say in what happens in all PamellaK C boutiques, she hires
she fires and no one else.
Pamella: Landile stop i'm not..
Mthethwa: I own half of this and also my other wife has 25%
which make us able to have a final say together.
I laugh out loud.
Me: Mr Zack please read the contract for Mr Mthethwa he is
losing it.
The lawyer take out the paper from his briefcase.
Zack: This is the recent contract Mr Mthethwa gave me and I
have made copies, this states that Pamella Kunene Mthethwa
owns 100% of PamellaK C legally.
Mthethwa: What!?
Pamella: What!?
Mthethwa: I gave you the contract that states that I own 50%
then both my wives it's 25%.
Zack: No sir this is the contract you gave me it has Pamella's
signature and a stamp on the day you gave it to me.
Woman: This is my son's business.
Me: Uyahlanya ke lowamama.(That woman is crazy)
Pamella: So you named your son Pamella is he a Kunene?
Woman: He helped you build this company.
Pamella: You were right Landi she is crazy, want me to show
you the copyright? The brand name on how many years it
has been there?
She moves to the side and take out a painting on the wall
then remove something that is written "6 years celebration
of PamellaK C"
She shows it to them.
Pamella: And I married your son 4 years ago. I have all the
rights baby?
Me: All the rights sthandwa sam. (my love)
Mthethwa: Sthandwa sami?(my love?)
Pamella: Thabi girl I need you to pack up all these wedding
pictures sweety and put them in this box you need it more
than me.
She says taking out her stuff and give Thabi the box.
I smile proudly, that's my girl.
Me: Babe can you open your computer for me Cooper need
it.
She takes out the laptop and switch it on.
I take the USB out of my pocket and give it to cooper, he
steps closer to the laptop and insert it, I click on the footage,
They watch Pamella being dragged on the floor from her
room to the other room and when he cut his wrists, the
camera is clear and all the angles are just right thank God for
Sfiso and his clean cameras, it shows me coming in and
pulling Mthethwa away from Pamella and beating him up
then me picking pamella up then a fire and smoke nothing
else after that.
Cooper turns the computer to Mthethwa.
Mthethwa: What? What is this how did you get this.
Cooper: Doesn't matter you are under arrest you and your
mother for domestic violence and assaulting Pamella
Kunene Mthethwa..
Woman: What!?
They handcuff his mother and the other police push out
mthethwa on his wheelchair.
Cooper: Thank you Landile we want all these men who
abuse women behind bars and you just gave me one, thank
you.
Me: He asked me to keep an eye on his wife and I did just
that.
Langa: I told him in my head that he is playing with fire.
Me: And he got burnt..
Pamella: And how are you still here Thabi follow your
husband and get him a lawyer.
Thabi: With what money Pamella? this business was our
only hope.
Pamella: Sorry it's time for you to go.
She walk out.
Me: You can take your seat PamellaK.
She hugs me tight and kiss me so passionately until dad and
langa clear their throats.
Pamella: I'm so sorry I didn't mean..
Langa laugh
Luyolo: It's okay, Landile I am proud of you.
Me: I am proud of myself, Langa go and buy us food from
Miss Prisca.
Langa: Oh hell no that chewing gum give me a headache.
Luyolo: you will find us at home Landi and don't forget you
have work.
I laugh, yes I started working as mom's PA I don't do much
just making her laugh the whole day.
They walk out and Pamella hug me again.
Pamella: How did you do this?
Me: The contract I gave you to sign was new I had someone
type it and made the changes.
Pamella: You are a genius thank you maybe I should give you
that 25%.
Me: No, This is all yours baby, make your mother proud I did
this for you.
We hug one last time.
Pamella: I love you so much.
Me: I love you too.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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PAMELLA
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When she said "Through the fire, through whatever comes
what may" I thought she was just saying a phrase but she
meant it, she was there for me through the fire when we
were inbetween the flames, She held me till her friends came
and rescued us, I owe her my life and I will give her my all.
I just bought a new house it's small but beautiful and Landile
is here for the weekend to help me unpack and sort out the
furniture, I am in her tshirt and she is in her sport bra and
boxers short we are in the bedroom hooking my new clothes
because I had to buy clothes from scratch because I had
nothing after that fire.
I look at her, she is sleeping facing up her tattoos and her abs
are a turn on I find myself biting my lower lip.
Landi: Stop fucking me with your eyes Ella.
She is blunt like that, a pussy is a pussy, fucking is fucking
she doesn't care and I love that.
Landi: Stop doing that?
Me: What did I do?
Landi: You done fucking me man I see you, come here.
I get on top of her and stare down at her.
Landi: Your ass is so fine!
She says grabbing it I moan.
Me: Babe let's finish this up.
Landi: Just give me one round baby.
Me: No.
She flip us up and she is on top man she's strong.
I moan as she kiss my neck and rubbing my pussy with her
hand.
Me: Landi..
She take off our clothes her tits are so small they are barely
there she almost didn't have any.
Landi: You know what makes me cum?
Me:What?
Landi: How hot your clit is and its protruded making sure to
touch mine, it's sexy.
She says moving down to it and pull it with her mouth.
Me: Goshh..
Landi: I just love it, now you gonna have to give it all to me,
all of it.
Me: How baby..
All this time she is speaking and licking me.
Landi: Ivule yonke ella.(open all of it)
She seperate my legs and put her middle finger in.
Me:Fuck..
Landi: Is that how far your legs can stretch baby? Give me
more come on.
She says inserting another finger, I hold on the sheets as I
seperate my legs a bit more.
Landi: More Pamella..
She says thrusting her finger straight to my gspot.
Me: I can't baby..
Landi: What do you mean you can't ella I want all of it man
come on..
I scream as I feel an orgasm close she remove her fingers.
Me: Fuck..baby I was so close please Landi..
Landi: I said open all of it for me
Me: Baby I did please.
Landi: No you didn't.
Me: Ok I want to try again..
I am desperate they need to cum is making me beg..
Landi: Do it baby.
I open my legs apart, she takes a pillow and put it just above
my ass and it's all up.
Landi: Now open for me baby.
I open my legs, she pull me to the edge of the bed then turn
me to sleep on my side my leg is on her shoulder and her leg
is on the floor and the other one is on the bed our pussies
touch, I grab on the sheets she is so warm.
Landi: Move with me baby..
We start moving in the same rhythm the wet sound our
pussies make is turning me on more, I feel a slap on my butt
it stings a bit causing my body to shake and I move my waist
faster, she slap it again..
Me: Yes..
Landi: Come on move for me babe...
We go faster and faster I feel myself squirting so hard she
doesnt stop moving and grabbing my ass.
Landi: Pamella why are doing that baby..shit..yes baby yes
fuck yhoo shit..
She collapse next to me we are breathing excessively.
Landi: Thank you for giving me all of it..
Me: Thank you for making me squirt for the second time in
my life.
Landi: I must be good huh.
Me: Very good.
We go take a shower and she wears another sport bra and
boxers, I wear her tshirt again and we continue what we
were busy with.
Landi: Do you ever dream of falling pregnant again?
The baby topic still freaks me out and she knows that..
Me: Landile please don't start.
Landi: You need to move on ella from the past, get over this
fear of miscarriages, it's over..
Me: Not now maybe 10 years later.
She stares at me.
Landi: You don't want kids anymore right, just say that and
stop telling me about 10 years, 10 years of shit!
She shouts causing me to jump out of bed and stand on my
feet.
Me: Don't..don't do that..
She quickly get up and rush to me.
Me: I'm sorry, sorry Landi..
Landi: Babe I am sorry I didn't mean to scare you oh my God,
I'm sorry Pamella.
She wipe my tears and making me sit in bed.
Landi: Askies baby..yho I didn't mean to shout.
Me: Are you ever going to hurt me?
Landi: No baby never I promise.
I nod and hug her.
We hear a doorbell, I press a small buzzer next to my bed
wiping my tears.
Me: Who is it?
Miyalo: You better open this fucken door before I break the
shit out of it Pamella I don't know what fancy shit you are
talking from but bitch open this door!
Landile is laughing, I have went to eat dinner with her family
because her mom and dad wanted to apologise to me for
making me feel uncomfortable first day I went there, I met
the crazy Miyalo and the name sounds familiar I have heard
it so many times when I was young and dad was around that
time before they divorced and he passed away months later
because of leukaemia, I don't know though what the name
Miyalo was all about at home.
Me: Go open babe.
Landi: Why me?
Me: Miyalo talks non stop just like you.
Miyalo: I heard you Pamella!
Me:Oops.
I forgot to switch off the buzzer, Landile wear his under
wears and I wear the pants and her tshirt and go open the
door and the whole squard walk in carrying plastics, pizzas
and booze.
Langa: PamellaK.
I hug all of them and a tired Ntsoaki she looks like she will
give birth any minute from now.
Me: Are you ok?
Ntsoaki: Yes I just want it to be next month already I am so
tired.
Landile walk in now she is wearing pants and a tshirt.
Miyalo: So you made us stand outside just so you can have
sex?
I gasp.
Miyalo: I can see through you, you just had sex.
Landi: Uzogoduka wena.(You will go back home)
Miyalo: Never!
Me:How are the kids?
Miyalo: So innocent just like their daddy because mommy
woaah!
I laugh, the way Nkanyezi is looking at her is so beautiful.
I sit next to Ntsoaki.
Me: Can I touch your stomach?
Ntsoaki: Yes that will put me to sleep and my husband will
carry me home.
Ntsika: Yes I will baby.
I brush her tummy and I feel the kick she giggles.
Me: How does that feel?
Ntsoaki: It feels good but sometimes it's too much.
My eyes meets with Landi and she look away.
Landi: Are we eating and drinking or what?
Miyalo: Yep let's warm this house up!
We start eating I drink juice and others drink alcohol.
Me:Ntsika she is asleep you can put her in the first bedroom
on your right.
He pick up his wife so effortlessly like she is not pregnant,
but then the guy is fit, infact all of them including my Landi.
We continue to talk till late then go our seperate rooms
because they are sleeping over.
Landi and I go to our room and take off our clothes, she is
drunk but too quiet.
Me: Are you ok?
Landi: Yes, I might just tell them to destroy all of them.
Me: Destroy what?
Landi: Since my woman doesn't want kids then I might as
well have them thrown away.
I don't know what she is talking about.
Me: Landile..
Landi: No..no it's fine PamellaK it's fine sisi.
She get in bed and sleep giving me her back, I am sad I don't
sleep without her cuddling me so I guess today we won't be
doing any of that.
In the morning I wake up and take a shower then go back to
our room I find her awake facing up.
Me: Morning.
She nods, I know she doesn't talk in the morning without
going to the bathroom first but today looks like she really
don't want to talk.
Me: Uhm are you still coming with me to the police Station?
She nods and get out of bed going to the bathroom, I get
dressed and she comes back and wear his black clothers I
step closer to her fixing the color of her shirt and helping her
with her watch.
Me: I'm sorry if I did anything wrong.
She nods.
I take my bag and we walk out and get in my car, her car is
parked next to mine, I drive us to the police station and I
meet my lawyer Tumi.
Me: Hey Tumi.
Tumi: Look at you glowing, you know I thought I would
never see you again after your husband chased me out of
your house saying I am a bad friend, I am glad you are finally
divorcing him.
Tumi is one of the friends Mthethwa did not approve.
Me: uhm Tumi this is my girlfriend Landile.
I look at the grumpy Landi.
Tumi: Girlfriend?
Me:Yes girlfriend.
I see a little smile on Landi's face, they handshake.
Tumi: You are a Gumede?
Landi: No who are those, never heard of them.
There she goes I think Landi is back not that grumpy landi.
Tumi: Uhm but you look like them especially Langa ka Sfiso.
Landi: I have no idea who that is.
I chuckle and we walk in and sit on the chairs, mthethwa is
wheeled in then the mother in law I don't know what the hell
she is doing here,they look broke and ill.
Mainlaw: Pamella please don't allow them to arrest me I am
just an old woman.
I chuckle.
Me: A dirty old woman you were part of this, remember
when you forced me to have sex with him while you stood
there and watched.
Landi: What?
Me: Yeah she was monitoring her son on how to do it.
Landi: What, that is crazy!what!
Mthethwa: Why are you here Landile?
Me:Didn't you ask her to keep an eye on me?
Mthethwa: You snitched?
Landi: You are very slow no wonder you had to take drastic
measures to be rich because normal ways requires one to
think wouldn't have worked you are dumb.
Mthethwa: I still don't know what you're doing here, I am
the one who sent you to look after her but now I don't need
you to.
Landi: I don't need you to tell me to look after what's mine.
Mthethwa: Little girl you are nothing, I was going to pay you
so much money..
Landi: I didn't need any of it boy, I just wanted my woman
free from you.
Mthethwa:Why is she calling you her woman Pamella?
Landi:Because she is mine, she sleep on my chest, she feels
safe with me and we are fucking, need I say more?
I hear gasps from the warders I don't know why they are
listening in..
Mthethwa: You are fucking my wife?
Landi: Pretty much, yes, and she do it willingly no force at all.
Mainlaw: I always knew you are a hoe Pamella!but sleeping
with a woman!
Landi: Better than watching your son have sex old lady..
Mthethwa:I thought we got along Landi.
Me: You thought wrong, Tumi the papers please I want to get
out of here.
Mthethwa: Pamella please get me a lawyer..
Me: A lawyer to oppose mine? Am I crazy?
Mthethwa: Baby I made you to be who you are today, my
fame put you where you are..
Me: Get over yourself crazy guy I was PamellaK before you
now I will be PamellaK after this.
I sign the divorce papers and give it to him, he doesn't get to
fight it because our case is in supreme court a judge gave
him an order to grant me divorce since there is concrete
proof of domestic violence.
His hands are shaking as he take the pen and sign.
I sigh.
Mthethwa: Know that if anything happens to me it will be on
you Pamella.
Me: Oh you can drop dead for all I care, I had snakes coming
out of me because of you, 9miscarriages, wrists cuts every
month being dragged like i'm some piece of shit beaten up!
I feel Landi's hand brushing my back..
Mthethwa: Get your hands off my wife..
Landi: You my guy are delusional, she is Pamella Kunene
now she can be a Gumede any day.
Me:What I came here for is over, rot in prison baby.
I walk out and take a deep breath once i'm out.
Tumi:So you're a Gumede huh?uhm Pamella are you guys
really fucking?
I look at her but she's staring at Landi biting her lips, Landile
is just looking at her.
Tumi: I wouldn't mind her fucking me as well, it's not that
serious right?
Me: Tumi what are you doing?
She laughs.
Tumi: I am joking, let's go to your house we need to go over
this for the next trial.
I nod, we get in the car and drive home.
I take off my shoes then Landi comes with my flip flops and
help me wear them and I wear the apron to start cooking
they sit on the bar stool in front of me.
Me: Babe you want a beer?
Landi:Yes thank you.
I give her the beer while pouring wine for Tumi.
I hear her cussing I look at her.
Tumi: Can I use the bathroom I just spilled wine on my dress.
Me: Yeah sure walk through the passage ..
She get up and walk away.
Me: Want anything else or you will wait till I finish cooking?
Landi: Are you on the menu?
I smile.
Me: Yes I am.
Landi: Then make it quick baby,I want to have you right here
on this counter.
I hear heels clicking and we look at the passage it's Tumi on
her panty and bra then my gown she didn't tie it her vigina is
visible on the lace panty she is wearing I look at Landi she
moves her eyes and look at me shaking her head.
Tumi: I put my dress on a washing machine I hope you don't
mind.
I stare at her.
Tumi: I thought that since it's hot and we are all girls I can
just you know, wear like this.
She walk up to Landile and stand in front of her, she is just
sipping her beer.
Tumi: So which part of a woman's body turn you on?is it
here.
She shows her the nipples.
Tumi:Or this right here..
She says putting her hand inside her panty..
Landi: You really want to know?
Tumi: Yeah.
She get up and comes straight to me, she pick me up and put
me ontop of a kitchen counter pull my neck and kiss me so
passionately I feel myself getting hot, I moan, she move my
dress up a little my thighs are all out.
Landi: Now this turns me on, this woman right here and no
other woman..
I kiss her again holding her shoulders tight.
Me: Let's go to our room baby, Tumi you mind checking the
pots for me?
She look so angry.
Me: Are you ok?
She clicks her tongue.
Me: Baby you can't come to my house for work and instead
of working you try to seduce my girlfriend tell me if you
don't want to be my lawyer anymore, my case won't drag so
I don't really need a lawyer.
Tumi: uhm I no Pammy I'm sorry I didn't think you guys are
in a serious relationship I thought it was just to make
Mthethwa jealous.
Me: I don't even love the guy why would I want to make him
jealous, I am Landile's woman baby so cover up a little
you're embarrassing yourself man.
Landi chuckles as she ties the gown and sit down.
Me: We will finish this up later neh let me cook for you.
She kiss me and put me down.
Landi: I love you.
Me: I love you.
She sit on her chair and I give her another beer while I finish
up cooking.
Me: So Tumi how long do you think Khetha will be in jail for.
Tumi: I don't know probably 15-20 domestic violence in
these days ain't something to play with and it's not just his
words against yours there is proof so things are not looking
good for him.
Me: Good, four fucking years for shit.
I think i am turning to Landile I just cuss out of nowhere
now, bad influence.
I dish up and we move to the table and serve my woman first
then me and Tumi.
Landi: Thank you babe.
I kiss her cheek and sit next to her.
We eat then go to bed and Landile is back to being her
grumpy self.
Me: Did I do something wrong babe?
Landi: No.
Me: Then why are you like this?
Landi: Pamella what are we doing if you don't want to have
kids with me?
Me: So it's about that?
Landi: Yes it's about that!
Me: Don't you think it's still early in our relationship?
Landi: Early for you maybe.
Me: Ok.
Landi: Ok what?
Me: how do you want us to have kids?
Landi: You will carry them, we will use my eggs, I did a
surgery and took out my eggs .
Me: You want to do in-vitro?
Landi: Yes.
Me: Have you talked to your parents about this Landile?
Landi: No but I will if you agree to do this with me.
Me: I will do it.
Landi: Do you think I am putting too much pressure on you?
Me: Uhm no, no it's fine.
She get up and go to the bathroom then come back after a
while and get on top of me, she balance her hands on either
sides then look at me.
Landi: I am sorry.
Me: For what?
Landi: if I put pressure on you I might lose you and I don't
want you to feel like you're paying me for saving you.
Me: I don't feel that way, I want to do it if you promise that
you will always be with me and we will do this together.
Landi: I promise, I will talk to mom and dad tomorrow when
I go back home.
Me: Ok.
*
NADIA
*
I am on my way to work and I am late because I came back
from Pamella's house this morning and I was supposed to
come back yesterday, mom is already gone.
I do drive my car now but i still don't have a licence so I only
drive locally.
I knock on mom's office and get in but she's not here and the
phone is ringing on my desk, yes she have a desk for me it
has a phone, a computer and a diary where I set up all the
appointments for her patients.
I answer the phone it's the patient that wants to confirm her
appointmemt.
I huff dad comes in and sit opposite me.
Luyolo: I didn't think you came in today since you didn't
come back yesterday.
Me: I came back this morning and rushed here.
Luyolo: You are taking this serious neh.
Me: I love helping mom and she pays me so..
Mom walk in and scream.
Ziyanda: My babies dad is here!
Dad get up smiling and hug her, their love is amazing, they
have been married for years but when you see them it's like
they are new lovers.
Ziyanda: Hey my baby.
Me: Finally you remembered me.
Ziyanda: Don't be jealous I love you too, so yesterday you
said you wanted to talk to us about something.
They sit down looking at me.
Me: Yes uhm I have asked Pamella to carry our baby.
They look at me.
Me: You guys think it's too soon?
Luyolo: All we can do is support you, that decision needs to
come from Pamella and you but make sure you both in on
this ok.
Me: I understand. I think I am unfair to her you know, she
needs to heal because what she went through is traumatic so
I should wait a little.
Ziyanda: Yeah think for the both of you and not only your
side baby.
I nod.
Me: Thanks.
Luyolo: Cooper wants to meet with you.
Me: Why? He want to arrest me?
Luyolo: Of course not, I told him you guys can meet later
today I will take you there.
Me: Ok so you have no idea what he want from me?
Luyolo: No, we will find out later.
I continue with my work while mom have patient after
patient.
Me: Busy day today huh?
Ziyanda: Yes it's a winter season baby people have flu, you
know I didn't think I needed a PA until you came along,
you're so smart.
Me: Dad should have named me Landile Smarty Gumede.
She laughs.
Later we go meet Cooper with dad at a restaurant, we find
him already waiting for us.
Me: You are really not arresting me when you want to buy
food for me.
He laugh standing up and we shake hands and sit down.
Luyolo: What do you want with my daughter Cooper?
Cooper: I need her.
Me: I don't like people who need me.
He laughs.
Cooper: That is one of the reason I need you, you have so
much in you and you blend in perfectly.
Me: That's what I said to my twin brother, I am a chameleon
man.
Cooper: So we assigned five undercover cops to go to Cape
Town to take down a drug dealer from here they have asked
for our help since the dealer is from here in Durban and we
have worked with that station before.
Luyolo: I hear you but where does my daughter fit in all this?
Cooper: She will be on my team, she is smart and tough I
need someone like her to take down someone like this, I
believe she is perfect.
Me:But I am not a cop and I don't even have education.
Cooper: You don't need education with your brains you can
do anything.
I look at dad.
Cooper: I believe you will take down that drug dealer in one
month.
Luyolo: This is dangerous Cooper.
Cooper: She will be protected by their best team there in
Cape Town and her identity will be hidden.
Dad shakes his head.
Cooper: Please think about this, I really need you that man
the drugs he is selling is killing the youth there and also they
use it in clubs for human trafficking.
Me: I am still a woman what if they traffic me?
Cooper: I did find a guy named Kingston..
Me: How do you know Kingston?
Cooper: We once worked closely with him to clean up the
streets of Durban from Nigerian drug dealers.
Me: So he is a snitch?
Cooper:No he is an informer.
Me: Same shit..
Luyolo: Landile.
Me: Sorry.
Cooper: So kingston is convinced you are a guy, a real man so
it won't be hard for those people so think you're a man.
Me: I don't know man yhoo this is huge.
Cooper: You will name your price..
Luyolo: You know she doesn't need money Cooper.
Cooper: I know i'm just saying it won't be free and also I
believe she has a calling, what she did outsmarting a guy like
Mthethwa was good, she has it in her she just needs to
accept it.
I huff
Cooper: I am giving you two weeks the third week our team
have to go, hotel room plane tickets meals it's all on us, you
will lead that team.
Me: Lead?
Cooper: Yes, I don't have a young fresh mind like you who
can think like a criminal and also you have something in you
that makes people trust you, Mthethwa even now doesn't
believe that you outsmarted him he think there is someone
out there who wanted to nail him.
I nod.
Me: I need time.
Cooper: Ok thank you, I will keep in touch.
I sit back in a chair and sigh.
Me: Dad can I have at least one beer, just one sir.
Luyolo: I think I need one too, Your mom will be against this
Landi.
Me: I think I need to speak to Grandpa.
Luyolo: I will call him, he will come back for you, he drops
everything for his grandkids.
Me: Thank you.
We drink a beer.
Luyolo: Don't tell your mom we had this beer you have a
snitch bone in you, remember when you told her I chased
you out and didn't allow you to have breakfast.
Me: I didn't like that dad, breakfast is an important meal of
the day.
We finish our beer and go back home we get there in time
for dinner.
We take seats and start eating.
Langa: Are you okay Sis?
Me: Yeah.
Langa: You are awfully quiet.
Me: I have a lot to think about man but we will talk once I
had a talk with grandpa.
Langa: He is coming here?
Me: Yes tomorrow.
He nods and we go to bed, I call my baby to say goodnight.
*
The next morning I wake up when I hear a very bold big
voice coming from the lounge and I know Lukhele is here, I
check the time, it's 8;30am I wonder what time he woke up
to get here this early.
I go to the bathroom then come back I find him sitting in my
bed.
Lukhele: You are really Luyolo's blood, what is it with this
body building and tattoos.
I laugh and sit next to him, he hug me.
Me: Fitness grandpa.
Lukhele: I don't care!
I laugh shaking my head.
Lukhele: So you wanted to talk to grandpa?talk to me.
Me: How did you know when you had a calling to be a cop?
Lukhele: I was passionate about giving the bad guys what
they deserved, which is being behind bars and also helping
those who are suffering at the hands of their spouses or
family members, kids who didn't have a voice I was their
voice I had to dig out to find out the truth when a kid was
being molested but threatened to not say a word I had to
find a way to help them, it all comes from the heart though, if
you do it for money it won't work because when you are in
that field and think about payday you lose focus.
I nod and huff.
Me: Cooper wants me to lead a team of police officers in
Cape Town to take down drug dealer who is also involved in
human trafficking.
Lukhele: What? That is huge.
Me: Do you think I can do it?
Lukhele: If Cooper want you to do such a big thing it means a
lot of people believe in you because he can't take that
decision alone,it means Station commanders in Durban
believe in you.
He has this smile in his face.
Me: But I only did one thing.
Lukhele: You saved a woman who was abused for four years
nobody saw it and no one was going to believe her because
Mthethwa is a respected man and have money but you made
it all possible for him to be caught and he is going to stay in
jail believe me.
Me: So do you think I should do it?
Lukhele: I am so proud right now that someone has a
potential to follow in my footsteps.
Me: But this is just a once off thing.
He chuckles.
Lukhele: If you believe you can do this then I'll say go for it.
Me: But mom won't like that, my brothers and Pamella too.
Lukhele: I will talk to them, there was a time when I left
Ziyanda because I had to go to work like you I had to do
what I was good at and I had a talk with her she understood
and I trust you will make her proud.
Me: You really think so?
Lukhele: This is a great opportunity Landile if I was still your
age I was going to beg them to give it to me.
I laugh.
Me: Ok.
Lukhele: Call Phumelo so she can eat lunch with us.
Me: It's Pamella grandpa.
Lukhele: That's what I said.
He hugs me and walk out.
I call Pamella she picks up immediately.
Pamella: I miss you so much it's like I haven't seen you in
weeks.
I clear my throat, how will she feel when she learns that she
might not see me for weeks now.
Me: Can you come eat lunch with us babe.
Pamella: Today?
Me: Yes.
Pamella: That's short notice Landi.
Me:Please.
Pamella: Ok I will come babe.
Me: Thanks.
It's time for lunch now we are sitting around a big table in
grandpa's garden.
I get up when I see Pamella I hug her then pull a chair for her
to sit, my parents, brothers and their wives are here.
Pamella: I brought wine.
She place the wine on the table and start eating. Grandpa
clears his throat and we all look at him.
Lukhele: So everyone you all know that I was once a
detective then a station commander right?
They nod.
Lukhele: And you know that sometimes you have to work
away from home?
He clears his throat again.
Lukhele: Ziyanda, Pamella and all of you, Landile was given a
great opportunity, to lead the team of police officers in Cape
Town to take down a human trafficker and drugdealer.
Everyone shouts "What" except for dad mom look at him.
Ziyanda: You knew about this Luyolo?
Luyolo: Last night but Landile hasn't made her decision yet.
Pamella clears her throat.
Pamella: Are you considering it?
I look down.
Lukhele: She will come back.
Ntsika: You don't know that Grandpa this is dangerous.
Lukhele: But if she wants to do it let her do it, I did it.
Ziyanda: You just want someone to follow in your footsteps
dad, she is a child, my child!
Lukhele: I was her age when I started being a police.
Ziyanda: This is different dad, you know it's different!
Lukhele; Why, because she is a girl? Who said girls can't do
it? hasn't she proven herself that she can hold it down on her
own?
Ziyanda: It's not that dad, we just found her what if we lose
her.
Langa: You can't go Nadia.
Me: But I want to do it, 550 girls have been missing in just
two months and more are being targeted if I can help this
any way I want to do it.
Ziyanda: No..
Lukhele: Ziyanda..
Ziyanda: No dad No..
She get up and walk away.
Pamella: You can't go.
Lukhele: Pamella let her help those young girls she can do it,
she needs you to believe she can do it, she need your support
all of you, Langelihle let her do this son.
Langa: But what if she never come back.
Me: Have faith in me, I will do it with all of you in my heart
that way I will know I have people to get home to.
Pamella: I'm..you can't...
Me: Ok I won't go..I haven't told Cooper that I am leaving so I
won't go.
I get up and walk away.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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NTSIKA
*
We are in the lounge with my brothers and Langa is losing it,
he has been pacing up and down the whole room.
Me: Langelihle just sit down.
Langa: How do you expect me to sit down when our sister is
going out there in a very dangerous mission and she sees
nothing wrong with it.
Me: I know Langelihle but if we don't support her we might
lose her, she is used to being alone she might cut us off
completely.
Langa:So you want us to watch her go into the lions den? Is
that what you're saying Pillar is that it?
Me: Don't shout Langelihle, let's talk like adults, sit down.
He wipes his face and sit down.
Nkanyezi: "I agree with Ntsika, we will lose her if we don't
show support, she might go to Cape Town and never come
home again because she won't consider us as her family."
Langa: I don't like this, and Cooper is wrong, he shouldn't
have asked this.
Sfiso: They see potential the same potential I saw when I
made her permanent on the field.
Langa: It's not the same Sfiso, it's not, these are human
traffickers man, drug dealers!
Sfiso: But you know Nadia, she will go there with or without
us supporting her and she will feel lonely and we don't want
that, she might lose focus and everything will go wrong, but
if we show support she will work hard to come back to the
people that loves her and showed her support.
Me: You are right, Langelihle?
Langa: Ok I don't like this but I will support her.
Me: Good, now let's wait for her to come back then talk to
her
I see mom walking in from her room, her face is pink she
was crying dad is behind her.
Luyolo: I'm sorry for not telling you maLukhele I was still
digesting this.
Mom ignores him and walk out, dad huffs and sit down.
Me: We need to give her our blessings dad.
Luyolo: I know son I know but I am scared man.
Me: We all are.
Later we eat dinner without Landile.
Me: Miyalo can you call Pamella and see if Landile is with
her.
Miyah takes the phone but put the phone down when Landi
walk in and sit on the table with us.
Landi: Hello.
We all greet back.
Lukhele: In this family we hold each others hands, we
support one another, we motivate and encourage each other
to do more, let's do this for Landile she needs us to be happy
for her.
Me: Landile on behalf of all my brothers we want to say go
and do what you do best.
Langa: Blend in like a chameleon
Nkanyezi: "Show them whos boss."
Sfiso: And kick ass, bring them on their knees.
She look up at us.
Landi: Do you mean that?
Me: We mean it.
Landi: Thank you..
She looks at mom.
Landi: maLukhele.
Mom wipe her tears.
Ziyanda: Are you sure about this Landile?
Landi: Yes I want to do it, for those helpless kids mom.
Ziyanda: I am scared but I believe you will come back, you
are just like Luyolo you never back down from a fight so give
it your all baby.
Landi get up and go hug mom.
Landi:Thank you so much mom thank you, uhm dad.
Luyolo: She did say you're just like me, I don't back down
from a fight and I don't die on a fight so come back home
alive kid.
Landi: I will I promise, Grandpa.
Miyalo: Oh come on that old man have been smirking the
entire time he is over the moon, someone is becoming a mini
Lukhele.
We all laugh.
Lukhele: I have been waiting for this day for so long,
someone from my family to pick up where I left off.
Landi: Thank you.
Me: So did Pamella agree to this?
Landi: No she gave me a knife and said I must stab myself in
a heart because I badly want to die so I must make it quick
and less painful.
Langa: You should have took the knife.
Landi: Yes and stab you instead.
Me: So when are you leaving?
Landi: In two weeks.
I nod..
We hear Sindi huffing.
Sindi: Thank God!
Landi: Sofia don't start with me I will be all over you like a
bad rash then rub salt in it.
Sindi: I am so over it.
Landi:Oh yeah, then why did you change that wig I always
told you is hideous? you looked like a clown in it.
Sindi: I changed it because I wanted to.
Landi: Mmm and that blouse that had wings when last did
you wear it, the day I told you it was bad, admit it sweety I
hit a nerve.
Sindi: Mxhm..
Landi: When is she giving birth lo ugly?
I laugh, Landile can be so annoying.
Ntsoaki: Ok listen up!
She shouts in her hoarse voice we look at her.
Ntsoaki:Someone needs to take me to a damn hospital right
now!
Me: Why?
Ntsoaki: What do you mean why Ntsika, am I not pregnant?
Don't I feel like something is about to come?
Me: How do I know that?
Landi: Is it painful?
Ntsoaki: Does this face says it's sweet huh?
She is starting to sweat.
Ziyanda: Go get her bag Ntsika and the keys.
Me: Wait so the baby is coming today!
Landi: Aay ay bhuti Ntsika even I know it's about to go down.
Ntsoaki: What's about to go down Landile mmmh? Tell me!
She shouts looking at Landi angrily.
Landi: I'm sorry I am talking about the temperature in this
room it's about to cool off.
I laugh and everyone shouts my name staring at me.
Ziyanda:Get the damn keys four eyes and a bag we need to
leave now.
I get up and walk to my room take the bag and the keys, I
find everyone outside and Ntsoaki is bending.
Me: Baby is it painful?
Ntsoaki: What do you think!?
Me: I don't know.
Ntsoaki: Shut up Ntsika right now!
Me: Ok.
She moans in pain.
Ziyanda: Come on get in the car Ntsika and drive.
I get in while she sits at the back with Ntsoaki.
Mom keeps telling her to breathe.
Ziyanda: When did the pain start?
Ntsoaki: Earlier today.
Me: But why didn't you say anything baby.
Ntsoaki: Because you were all stressed out and I thought it
was just cramps..God it hurts!
I get to the hospital and my family park next to my car, I take
the wheelchair and wheel my wife inside then she is taken to
a ward, mom changes to her shrubs and tell me to change
too then follow her.
I am standing next to Ntsoaki and she is sweating like crazy.
Me: I'm sorry baby..
She screams so loud and I see mom checking something
under there, I am holding Ntsoaki's hand tight.
Ziyanda: The baby is close, I just want to you to push baby
give me your best shot as soon as you feel like
pushing...come on..
Me: You can do this baby come on..
She screams breathing heavily.
Ziyanda: Come on baby don't do that the baby will suffocate,
don't scream just push like you're breathing out..
She push squeezing my hand.
Me: You can do this baby, you're so beautiful, push baby..
She push again..
Ziyanda: Ntsoaki I can see the head one last push ok..
She push one last time and the baby cries so loud, mom smile
holding the baby.
Ziyanda: It's a baby girl.
She place her on Ntsoaki's chest and I take out my phone and
take a picture..
I kiss Ntsoaki's sweaty forehead.
Me: Thank you so much maMokoena for this experience I am
happy I was here with you and thank you for our daughter.
Ziyanda: Can I take her a little to clean her up so she can
meet daddy.
She takes her from Ntsoaki and walk out with her pushing a
baby bed.
Nurse: You can just step out a little Sir you will come at her
new ward when we are done cleaning her up.
Me: Ok thank you.
I kiss her cheek and walk out.
Langa: Congratulations Pillar I can't wait for my own to get
here.
Landi: Is it scary being in there?
Me: For me no it wasn't, this was something I always wanted
because with my two sets of twins I wasn't there so yeah
man it was my happiest moment seeing my woman giving it
her all to bring our baby into this world.
Nkanyezi: "I hear you man."
We go to the ward and mom bring my baby girl in wearing
her pink clothes, she is so small.
She pick her up and give her to me, I smile holding her.
Me: She is pretty..Kayise Gumede intombi kayise (her
father's daughter) intombi yamadlozi akoQwabe( Qwabe
ancestors's daughter)
Ziyanda: That's a beautiful name, Kayise welcome to the
world little one.
She says holding her tiny hand.
Landi:Can I hold her first.
I give her the baby, she rocks her looking at her..
Landi:She is really pretty, and hairy too.
Me: Mom and dad have a lot of hair too..
Landi: Hope she takes our eyes man to complete the look,
hey open your eyes I want to see them..
She says talking in a small voice I laugh, she is silly.
Everyone take turns holding her, I step closer to my wife and
kiss her lips.
Me: I love you so much my beautiful wife for giving me
Kayise.
Ntsoaki: Thank you for being here with me through it all.
Me: I will always be here..
*
NADIA
*
We are still at the hospital and a door opens Pamella walks
in.
Pamella:Hello everyone Miyah called and told me about the
new baby..
She speaks with a smile not looking at my side at all.
Pamella: Can I see her please..
Ntsika give her the baby and she look at her with a huge
smile.
Pamella: Oh my God she is so tiny and adorable and that's a
lot of hair the buns we will fix up here
She walks closer to bed still holding a baby.
Pamella:Hey Ntsoaki, are you okay?
Ntsoaki: Yes finally she is here.
Pamella: How does it feel?
Ntsoaki: Giving life to someone is a blessing and I am
grateful for her and my family for being here.
Pamella: She is so beautiful..
I see her blinking then she turns and give the baby back to
Ntsika and walk out, I follow her and find her outside crying.
I hold her from behind.
Pamella: I remember the day I had the first miscarriage, it
was almost a baby and a woman said she was going to be a
baby girl, I lost all of them, all of them!
Me: I'm sorry baby, i'm so sorry but you will have a chance
one day when you're ready..
Pamella: You are leaving me Landile so when will I have that
chance when!
Me: I will only go for a month or two baby I am coming back
I promise.
Pamella: Ok.
Me: Ok?
She turns around and look at me with tears in her eyes.
Pamella: You managed to save me from that marriage now
go and save those women and children they need you and
are hoping for a miracle to come and help them, be their
miracle and their lucky star, grant them their wish like you
did to me.
I pull her to a tight hug brushing her back as she cries.
Pamella: Hurry back home Landi.
Me: I will baby I promise.
Pamella: We are sleeping at our home tonight?
Me: Yes baby.
Pamella: Thank you.
Me: Thank you for allowing me to go baby.
Pamella: It would be selfish of me to stop you from saving
others.
Me: Let's go back inside and say goodbye.
We walk in and say goodbye we will see them tomorrow and
she drives us to the house.
As soon as we get in she gives me a mind blowing kiss that
has us taking off our clothes by the door and I pull her
towards the kitchen counter and lift her up putting her
ontop of it, I push her back and open her legs and start
muffing her pussy and fingering her with my two fingers her
moans are so loud it's crazy..I pull her up and carry her to
the couch and we fuck our juices out and she sleep on top of
me.
Pamella: You won't cheat Landi right?
Me: I won't, no one must find out I am a girl babe.
Pamella: Ok.
Me: Why do you think I can cheat on you, you're pretty.
Pamella : And there are girls who are more prettier and after
what Tumi did the other day throwing herself on you like
that, what if someone else do it and you get tempted.
Me: I only love you and I have feelings for only you.
Pamella: Me too.
Me: Did you cook I am hungry.
Pamella:I can make something for you quick babe.
Me:Please..
She get up butt naked and I spank her butt she giggles and
bend over right in front of me her pussy is in my face I can't
help but bring my face closer and start licking it.
Me:You taste so good after you cum baby, why didn't you tell
me this..
I push her to the couch and go all in with my tongue.
Pamella: Baby..Landile, Oh..yess yes yes baby..
We start rubbing our pussies on our second round then cum.
Pamella: Fuck..I love you so much baby..
Me: I love you too.
She get up and pick up my tshirt and wear it while I wear ny
boxers and a sportbra then go to the bathroom she comes in
afer a while and clean up,we go back to the kitchen and she
gives me a beer.
Me: What are you making? Smells so good..
Pamella: Nothing fancy just macaroni and cheese pasta.
Me: You love cooking huh and your food is delicious.
She blush.
Pamella: Thank you, my mom taught me at a very young age,
she was always away to work so she told I shouldn't go
hungry when there is food on the cupboards just because I
can't cook so she taught me all this.
Me: That is beautiful.
She nods and continue to cook, the way she moves around
that kitchen just to make food for me is just too sexy man.
Pamella: Uhm baby so which doctor did you do surgery
from?
Me: Dr Moore a Hospital in town.
Pamella: Mmm can we go there just to hear more about this
In-vitro.
Me: We will talk about this after I came back.
Pamella: It's just a consultation that's all.
Me:Ok babe I will take you there tomorrow.
Pamella: Thanks.
The next morning I take her to the doctor and she ask
questions a lot of them then we drive back home.
*
Two weeks later I am at the airport with my family and
Pamella, Cooper is with these five cops I am leaving with he
won't be coming, grandpa is here too.
Pamella is holding on to my arm for dear life.
Cooper: Remember you're a guy and no one should find out
you're a woman ok and also keep your eyes open, I trust you
kid ok.
I nod as I look at my twin brother who look like he wants to
cry.
Cooper: Your flight is leaving in 15 minutes.
I turn to look at Pamella and hold her face.
Me: I love you and I am coming back home soon.
I kiss her as tears run down,I wipe them, she hugs me then
walk away.
Me: I love you baby..
I say to her as she walk in her car she doesn't turn, she get in
the car and drive off.
Luyolo: Remember you promised to come back Landile.
He hugs me and kiss my forehead.
Me: I promised.
I hug everyone else mom is crying and so is Langa.
Me: Don't do that Langelihle your tears are heavy on me
come on, I need you to be strong so I can feed off your
energy.
He nods.
Ntsika: Our ancestors are with you wherever you go Landile
and I will also talk to them for you, goodluck sis.
Me: Thank you.
I take my bag and walk away.
Ziyanda: Landile!
I turn she comes closer to me and put on a silver chain on my
neck it has silver alphabets L.G.
Ziyanda: I love you.
Me: Thank you mom, I love you too and I promise I will call
you every chance I get.
She nods and I turn and walk in Cooper shakes my hand.
Cooper: Lead them Gumede.
Me: Yes Sir..
I get in a plane and close my eyes thinking about my family
and Pamella I have to finish this soon and come home to
them.
We have just touched down to Cape Town and two police
cars are waiting outside,we get in and drive us to a hotel, we
all start in my hotel room and introduce each other.
Me: My name is Diego...
They introduce themselves too I only catched Dlaba, Frank
and Indigo the rest i don't even remember what they said
their names are.
Me: So where is our guy staying in the city or..?
Frank: In the city.
Me: Mmm I won't be staying in this hotel then I need a place
to stay, not too fancy.
Frank:But Cooper said..
Me: I need to be closer to that drug dealer and hotel is not a
right place to stay if I want to catch a guy like that, what's his
name?
Indigo: Azul is his name and he stays at a hotel not far from
here, he owns it...
Me: Good, find me a cheap flat where I will be staying..
Indigo: When boss?
Me: Today I need to move in tomorrow..
Indigo: On it..
Me: Make it two rooms one of you will be my "roommate"
but we will be staying in different rooms and the rest of you
will continue living here.
Frank: You have to meet the Station commanders first and..
Me: No, not yet, I want to find a way to get in there first
without raising suspicions.
Frank: You already want to get close to Azul?
Me: The sooner the better now Indigo find those rooms,it
must have two beds ok, both of them.
Indigo: Sure boss.
I chuckle.
Me: I will be staying with you Dlaba is that ok?
Dlaba: Yeah yeah sure.
Me: Good now get used to my name, Diego.
Dlaba: Yeah Diego..
Me: We are roommates yeah?
Dlaba: Roommates.
Me: Perfect..now I need to rest a bit and eat.
Frank: You can order anything Sir it's all good.
I nod and chuckle, they don't know I am a woman even those
I came here with, when Cooper was talking about no one
should find out I am a girl they were standing a few steps
away from us.
I take a shower, eat then get in bed, I take the phone and call
dad.
Luyolo: Hello.
Me:Dad it's me put me on speaker.
Luyolo: Ok I have kid.
Me: I have arrived in Cape Town and I will be the only one
calling you guys because I left my phone there at home.
Ziyanda: Did you eat?
Langa: Of course she did.
Me:Yes I did eat mom right now I am in bed.
Lukhele: Do you have any ideas already?
Me: Oh yes Grandpa I will be closer very soon.
Lukhele: Ok relax ok don't put too much pressure on
yourself give yourself some time to think.
Me: Yes Sir, uhm is Miyah there?
Miyalo: I am here.
Me: Please check on Pamella from time to time for me..
Miyalo: I will babe.
Me: Thank you..I love you all.
Ziyanda: We love you too please be careful.
Me: I will.
I call Pamella but it rings unanswered maybe she doesn't
answer private numbers, I try calling her again she finally
picks up but not say anything.
Me: Ella.
Pamella:Landile..
She sounds like she's crying.
Me: I will come back baby don't be sad ok and you can go
home and visit them so you won't feel lonely.
Pamella: Ok.
Me: Uyakthanda uLandile yezwa..(Landile loves you okay.)
Pamella: I love you too.
I sleep facing up thinking of different ways I could play this.
I wake up the next morning and wait for someone to pick me
and Dlaba up to a flat. Indigo walk in.
Indigo: Sir we have found a flat we can go now.
He takes us to this flat it's just as I asked for it to be.
Me: This is good, do I have someone who is good in
computers here?
Frank: Yeni is Sir.
Me: Mmm I am working on something I will fill you in when I
am done today then we can start working.
Indigo: But the Commanders are waiting to see you.
Me: It's not the time yet..
They all go and leave me with Dlaba he is so quiet.
Me: I am going somewhere, remember we are rommies
right?
He nods.
I walk out and stop at this hotel that this Azul own and look
around, I can see girls walking in with some men some girls
are wearing very reaviling clothes, I walk in but I get stopped
by the entrance and searched for any weapon and I don't
have any with me.
Man: Are you going to the club or you are booking a room
sir?
Says the man who was searching me.
Me: The club.
He let me in and I walk in this club, a hotel with a club inside
huh? I sit at the bar and order a beer, I drink my beer while
looking around, I see a guy in a huge white fur jacket, he is
coloured and have rings, he comes in with seven men
wearing black suits, he sits down on a couch while they
remain standing.
Next thing I see a lot of active girls walk in they look so
drunk they go straight to him and they are all over him.
Me: Hey my guy so is that the owner?
Bartender: Yeah.
Me: Mmm I like that guy.
He chuckles.
Me: How did you score a job in here?
Bartender: I just came in at a perfect time they were firing
another bartender.
I nod.
I see a couple walking in it's a girl and a man, he looks way
older, they sit on the table but a guy get up and come to
order drinks, two beers in glasses to be precise then signal
something with his hands and walk back to a girl.
I look down but keeping my eyes on a bartender I can see
him pouring the beer then place them on the left side then
the right side, I move my eyes to look at the way the couple
is sitting the man is on the left and the woman is on the right.
When I look at the glasses the glass on the right it has unsual
bubbles for a while and he is looking closely to it then the
bubbles stop..
I look around at the corner there is a camera but it's not
facing the bar, I look behind me there is one facing the bar.
Me: Can you get me another beer
He turns and I get up and make sure I am hiding the drinks
from the cameras acting like i am searching for my pockets,
then exchange the glasses sides, now the one that was on the
left is on the right side.
I sit down again and smile at him.
Me: I thought I lost my wallet man.
I say showimg it to him.
Bartender: You wouldn't have come out of here alive without
paying.
I nod,he gives me another beer and take the trey to serve the
couple I see him giving them drinks, I continue sipping on
my drink slowly then suddenly a man falls down like he is
convulsing or something the girl is terrified, the men in black
suits rush to him and check him, I step closer and search the
eyes of this girl but she is crying, I continue to stare at her
She finally look up.
Me: Get out of here..
I mouth but she just look at me.
Me: Out..
She look at me one time and rush out they are too busy
worried about a guy even the owner which means he is one
of his guys.
I follow the girl and grab her hand walking away to the other
street.
Me: What is your name?
"Buhle"
Me: Where is home?
Buhle: The Eastern Cape.
Me: Then go back home today I will give you money.
Buhle: But why?
She is still shaking.
Me: That man knows where you stay right?
She nods.
Me: Then you are not safe there anymore, are the taxis to the
Eastern Cape far from here?
She shakes her head.
I take off my jacket.
Me: Remove that weave and wear this jacket I am taking you
to the taxi rank, put it in your bag I am not robbing you.
She removes it and wear my jacket, I take her hand.
Me: Act normal and show me the way to the taxi rank.
She nods.
I look at the hotel two cars are driving out they are probably
looking for her, she was already their target.
We get in the taxi rank and she get in the car.
Me: Don't say anything to anybody ok, those people are bad,
that drink was meant for you..
Buhle: I have school here..and my clothes.
Me: Listen to me, you can finish up next year in your home
town and you can always buy new clothes but your life will
be over if you continue to stay here.
She nods.
I count one thousand five hundred and give it to her.
Me: Travel safe.
She nods.
I walk back to my room and find Dlaba sleeping in bed.
Me: Hey man.
Dlaba: Sure.
Me: I went in there, hey it's bad man..
I sit in bed, I need to move fast but i don't know what my
next move is yet, those cameras are all over that club but I
will think of something fast.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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PAMELLA
*
I have been cooped up in my house since Landile left for that
dangerous mission, I can't help but worry about her I love
her and it doesn't help that I can't call her, I should wait for
her to call and she only called telling me she has arrived in
Cape Town now he hasn't called it's day two.
I hear a buzzer I wear ny gown and go open the door, it's
Miyalo, she step closer and hug me, I let it all out, I am scared
she won't come back.
Miyalo: She will back Pam we just to trust her, shhh it's okay.
Me: She hasn't called me in two days Miyah what if they had
already killed her.
Miyalo: She hasn't been hurt that I know for sure.
Me: How are you sure?
Miyalo: My husband haven't felt any pain and that's how
they know that she is sfill ok, they have something of feeling
it when one of them is in pain.
We go and sit on the couch.
Miyalo: She said I must look after you.
I smile.
Miyalo: She loves you so much..
I wipe my tears.
Me: And I love her too,I had lost hope in love you know, I
thought I was going to die in that unhappy marriage but then
she came along and changed everything.
Miyalo: That's life, Nkanyezi did the same to me I love that
guy man.
I cook for us while we talk about life in general.
Me: Uhm are you busy tomorrow I need you to take me to a
doctor.
Miyalo: Why, are you ok?
Me: I am fine, I need to do check ups I want to know if I can
still carry a baby.
Miyalo: That's ok I will take you there.
Me: You can bring the twins too, you know I am scared.
Miyalo: Of what Pammy?
Me: Landile wants us to have a baby and if I can't carry a
baby I will lose her Miyah, she will find someone else.
Miyalo: I don't think Nadia will do that, she loves you no
doubt about that.
Me: I hope she won't, she is the most important part of my
life, I don't have anyone else but her.
Miyalo: You have me Pamella, our family, we take you as one
of us now and I want to be your friend.
Me: You do?
Miyalo: Yes now finish up that wine is so tempting man but I
can't touch it Star would kill me, he said i'm a mom now I
should hold myself a little.
Me: He is a sweet person huh.
Miyalo:They all are.
Me: But the twins can be intimidating just like the father.
She laughs.
Miyalo: Yeah those brothers are something else man.
I dish up, we eat and I walk her out, We hug for the longest
time, there is something about her that makes me feel like I
am not alone I don't know how to explain it, I step back and
we look at each other.
Me: You remind me of someone I don't know who though.
Miyalo: I feel it too, it's like I know you from somewhere, let
me go I'll see you tomorrow.
I nod and she drive away, I walk to my room and sleep while
holding a pillow crying, she has to call me and tell me she's
okay.
Next morning I wake up and take a bath, I get dressed and
wait for Miyah, I am going to Landi's doctor.
I hear a buzzer I take my bag and phon then walk out, she is
driving Langa's car, Landile's car is still here in my house she
left it here.
I get in the backseat her kids are here.
Me: They are so handsome, they will be heart breakers I tell
you.
Miyalo: Who will they take after, their fathers are
sweethearts and so are the aunts.
I chuckle.
Me: The aunt is breaking my heart right now, she hasn't
called Miyah.
Miyalo: She called only grandpa yesterday so she's fine we
didn't talk to her too.
Me: Why is she doing this to me?I love her, she can at least
say hi and drop the call.
Miyalo: Just wait for her to call I know she will.
I nod, we take each baby boy and we walk in the doctor's
office.
DrMoore: Hello ma'am.
He shakes both our hands and wave at the boys.
DrMoore: I remember you, you cane here with Nadia a few
days ago.
Me: I am Phamella Kunene Nadia's girlfried, I know I didn't
make an appointment but I need a checkup.
DrMoore:I can squeeze you in because I am free for at least
an hour, what kind of checkup.
Me: I have had 9 miscarriages in four years.
Miyah gasps, I guess she didn't know.
Me: So I need to check if I can still carry a baby full term.
DrMoore: You said nine?
Me: Yes.
DrMoore: Ok you can put the baby here because he is
sleeping.
He points at the small bed then he tells me to sleep on the
bed, he does w scan pepsmear and everything that checks up
the uterus and I am so nervous as I can't read his face.
DrMoore: You can get up and come take a seat.
I slowly get up and sit down, I sigh.
DrMoore: How old were your miscarriages, did they come
early or late?
Me: Only one came out almost a baby four years ago the rest
was just blood clots.
DrMoore: That explains why your uterus is still intact.
Me: Intact?
DrMoore: Yes you can carry a baby full term miss Kunene
your womb is perfectly fine.
Me: Are you sure doctor?
DrMoore: I am 100% sure Miss.
Me: I don't believe you..
I say with tears in my eyes.
Me: I want to carry a baby, when we came here with Landile
she read the profiles of the sperm donors and chose one, can
we start the process as soon as possmible.
DrMoore: But she is not here.
Me: She wants me to carry her baby so please doctor, I want
to see if I can do it while she is away so that I will avoid
disappointing her.
Miyalo: You want to hide this from her?
Me: No I will tell her once she comes back, I just want to see
if it works, don't tell her Miyah I will tell her, she said we will
do this after she comes back but I need to do it now. Don't
tell her brothers because this might fail and she can get
distracted.
DrMoore: True, it might work or not work.
Me: So when should I come back
DrMoore: Need to get the eggs fertilized first then we will
take it from there.
Me: Ok thank you.
We walk out and get in the car, I really hope it works
because if not Landile might as well move on from me.
*
NADIA
*
I haven't been calling my family because my team and have
been looking for strategies but everything we came up with
have loopholes and I don't want that, I need a solid plan, I
have a family to get too I don't want to die here, but I did call
Grandpa yesterday and told him to tell my family that I am
ok.
Dlaba: I think it's time you meet with the commanders Diego,
they might tell us the plan.
Me: I will meet them soon trust me, I will be back.
I walk down the stairs then walk in Azul's club, I sit in a bar,
today it's packed and the misic is playing loud, it's friday and
there is a new bartender now.
Me:Hey man where is the other guy that was bartending few
days ago.
Bartender: He was fired he was too clumsy mixing
customers drinks.
I nod.
Me: I need a beer.
He gives me a beer that is poured on the glass but I shake my
head.
Me: I prefer it cold straight from the bottle sir.
Bartender: Oh sorry.
He gives me the sealed beer and I open it and drink.
I feel a tap on my shoulderI turn and find a little girl looking
at me.
Me: Yeah.
Her: The boss is calling you over there.
She point at Azul and today it's a brown fur coat and nothing
underneath with a lot of tattos, I follow the girl and sit
opposite him on the VIPsection.
Me: Hello Sir I heard you are calling me.
Azul: What is your business here I have never seen you
before.
Me: Oh I just moved in a flat next to this place and I heard
music playing, but honestly I thought I could get a job but the
bartender tells me he is new so you don't need another one.
Azul: You live in that dirty flat?how do you put up with that?
Me: Times are tough getting a job is hard.
Azul: What's your name?
Me: Diego.
He nods.
Azul: What kind of job can you do.
I chuckle.
Me: Sir i'm a man of many talents I even do stand up comedy
just give me that stage.
He laughs revealing his gold teeths.
Azul: Come on show me what you got!
Me: You have a mic?
Azul: Yep just go there they will show you.
I get up and fix my pants then walk up the stage and take a
mic.
Me: Come on!everyone look up here hello I am here.
The music stops playing my eyes are moving all over the
room, I am counting the cameras the corners.
Me: So Mr Azul is giving me a chance to make ya'll laugh ok
and that can be easy or difficult depending on what type of
person you become after consuming alcohol.
I see everything up here and I notice a black guy coming in
with a brown box and give it to a bartender.
Me: To be honest I don't know anything about comedy I am
just trying my luck on drunkards hoping that you are that
type that laughs at everything.
They all laugh
Me: See I am getting good at this I am not too bad after all.
I step back and stomp on the plug it goes off making so much
noise everyone covers their ears I get down on stage while
the guys fix the plug I go back to Azul,the noisy sound has
stopped.
Me: That was bad wasn't it, I was so nervous when I got on
that stage.
Azul: Don't worry it happens to first timers though comedy
is not your strongest abilities.
He says laughing, I laugh with him.
Azul: You know stick around for a few days I might find
something for you..
Me: Ok, Can you hook me up with one of your ladies here?
Azul: Sure why not there is plenty of them to go around,
Stella give my boy a good time.
Me:It's been so long man you know ladies when you don't
have money it's hard to get it.
Azul: I hear you, you can go upstairs and have a good time
it's on me.
Me: Really?
He nods.
Me: Thanks man.
I take the girl and walk up the stairs I can't see any cameras
in the passage,I try to open all the room.
Me: Which room is free Stella?
Stella: Looks like all of them are taken, let's try the secret
room.
She says giggling, she's drunk.
Me: But what if we get caught, are there no cameras here or
in that room?
Stella: No,the cameras are downstairs only in here they are
still fixing it.
Me: So where is the secret room?
She point and I nod.
Me: I need a bathroom fast.
Stella: Let me get us drinks, there is a bathroom in the secret
room.
I nod and rush in there, there are a lot of computers here and
it shows everything that is happening downstairs and also a
couch..
I reverse the computer to 15 minutes ago and I see that man
that came in with a box, I take out the phone and try to take
a clear shot then forward it back to the recent events and sit
on the couch, Stella comes back and give me a drink I don't
drink it instead I get up.
Me: I think I have a stomach bug man I have to go, can we do
this tomorrow?
Stella: Tomorrow we are fixing the girls for their journey.
Me: Mmm..
So she is part of this too.
I walk out and look for Azul.
Me: Hey man I gotta go my stomach is giving me problems
from the beer I drank earlier and there are no rooms
available upstairs we kept on knocking.
Azul: Oh sorry about that man, come back tomorrow then.
I nod and walk out, I run up the stairs.
Me: Hey we need someone to pick us up here, I need the guys
together at the hotel in an hour.
Dlaba: Let me make the call.
I walk to the other bedroom, change my clothes and wear
the cap.
Dlaba: Frank is here to pick us up now the guys are already
waiting for us at the hotel.
We walk out and get in the car.
At the hotel I find them waiting for me.
Me: Hey guys who is Yeni?
He raise his hand.
Me: I need you to find this guy for me, he was delivering
drugs at the club earlier.
I show him the picture, he nods and take out his expensive
computer , he does something for a while in there then look
at me I step closer.
Yeni: His name is Nkosi Mvelase.
Me: Anything else you can find about him?
Yeni: Yes, he has a clothing factory down town.
I laugh.
Me: That's a drug factory in disguise .
Frank: So what do we do?
Me: What time is that factory closing?
Yeni: It says here 19:oopm.
Me: I want someone to organise a police raid later to make
sure no one will be there then later we will burn it down.
Frank: We can't do that.
Me: Why?
Frank: We are police officers we don't work like that.
Me: Yes that is why you have a leader like me who doesn't
have to work like a police officer because I'm not!you want
to catch a criminal you have to act like a criminal, now if we
destroy that factory Azul will be frustrated he will go crazy
and he will want to work fast which will cause too many
slips ups from his side and I will be around, I already had a
talk with him.
Indigo: What?how did you get close to abdul?
I chuckle.
Me: I am the boss ain't I? Anyway I will be burning that
factory tomorrow, organise that raid Frank make it look
legit.
He nods and walk out.
*
We are parking far from the factory the police are moving
everyone out and I walk out and walk towards the factory
and get in at the back I leak gas all over then go back to the
car.
Once everyone is out and the police are gone we get in the
cars and drive slowly passing by the factory then throw fire
bombs the fire erupts like a volcano, frank drives faster
going back to the hotel we walk in.
Indigo: That was easy.
Me: It was, now the worst part comes, I have to be there
when Azul find out about his drugs so I can hear his next
move.
Frank: What do we do?
Me: I will send a message to one of you once i'm there, some
girls are being moved today I need to find the place and
time..
Indigo: You want to rescue them?
Me: Yes but I also want to find their buyer so we can rescue
the rest of them before it's too late but that might take time.
I walk in Azul's club and it's complete chaos.
I order a beer and watch him as he talks fast on the phone.
Azul: Come on man how can the factory just burn down, I
knew about that raid man the commander called me.
I chuckle, that is the reason why I haven't met any of them
because I don't know which one to trust and I also told my
team not to tell them that I have met Azul, I knew someone
from the inside is working with that guy, no one can run the
city like this without having people in high places giving
them heads up.
Azul: We need to move the girls to one of my warehouses we
can't move them today, what do you mean there are no
drivers!look that means we will keep them here for tonight.
He walks out followed by his team, I walk out too and go to
the flat and look out the window.
I can see two trucks with containers driving in his hotel, I
call Indigo.
Me:I need two white containers by tonight..
Indigo: What size boss?
Me: How would I know the size of a container?
Dlaba stands up and look outside then take the phone, he
deacribes the trucks and give him the estimated size.
Me: Thanks.
Dlaba: How do we exchange them?
Me: I need two drivers of those trucks to get in the club and
exchange them then drive to the township, one needs to wait
for me with a car outside.
Dlaba: But how do we pass the gate?
Me: I will be inside I will cut down everything, the lights, the
cameras then when it's dark you will get in.
Dlaba: Are you sure this will work?
Me: They will be too busy looking for a culprit inside.
Dlala: You won't get caught?
Me: Never..you will fill in the guys on what to do.
I walk in a club and spot Stella, I go to her.
Me: Still want me to give you a good time?
She giggles.
Stella: And today we will have the room.
Me:Perfect.
She takes my hand and we walk up the stairs and get in the
room.
My phone vibrates in my pocket I take it out.
Indigo: *We are waiting close boss with the containers we
are just waiting for your signal.*
Stella comes closer to me and try to kiss me but I push her a
little.
Me: How about you freshen up first baby you have been
dancing the whole day.
Stella: You're right.
She takes off everything while staring at me.
Me: Damn!be fast in there.
She cat walk to the bathroom I get to up and go to this
"secret room" and pull out all the plugs then take out a small
knife on my beanie and cut every cable, the lights switch off
immediately then I walk out and go back to the room, Stella
walks out of the bathroom I switch on the flashlight on my
phone.
Stella: What happened now?
We hear Azul shouting at the passage.
I get up and open the door.
Me: Hey man what happened?
Azul: You are with Stella in there?
Me: Yes and we were about to do it.
Azul: Eish I'm so sorry man for making you miss out twice in
a row but you guys need to leave the building now, I owe you
man and believe me I will make it up to you.
Me: I'll hold you to that.
I walk out and find frank waiting for me outside.
Frank: I thought you got caught.
Me: That can never be me, are they done?
Frank: They left long time ago.
Me: Good, let's get going.
We go to the townships and find them waiting outside the
trucks and they haven't opened the containers yet.
Me: So you want these girls to suffocate to death?
Indigo: Boss we are not sure if it's really girls in there.
Me: What do you think it is then huh? Bombs?
They look down, I shake my head.
Me: Look for something I can use to open this.
They give me a metal, I break the locks and open, there are
almost 25girls in one truck they are all passed out.
Me: Bombs huh?
Indigo: Sorry boss..
Me: We can't take them to the hospital, we need to wait for
them to wake up but I need these containers destroyed.
Frank: We have 50 girls here boss, where do we keep them?
Me: Is there any BnB around here.
Indigo: Yeah close by.
Me: We will have to book the entire Bnb and keep them
there till they are fit to go back home.
They nod driving to the nearby bnb and we carry them
inside, some of them are waking up, they will have to share
rooms because the bnb is small, they look so terrified.
Me: Listen you are safe now all of you.
I look around and spot one girl who look so familiar I step
closer and kneel next to her.
Me: Hello.
She nods she looks like she is cold.
Me: Who is your mom?
Her: I don't know her,never met her.
Me: You look like my aunt Sunshine.
Her: My name is Sunshine.
I am confused, she look exactly like her but younger maybe
my age.
I walk out and call dad he answers
Me: Hello dad.
Luyolo: Finally, I thought something happened to you.
Me:I'm alive, can you get aunt sunshine and the whole family
together.
Luyolo: We are all here talking about you.
Me: Put me on speaker please.
Luyolo: Yeah what's up are you in trouble?
Me: No, there is a girl here about my age, she says her name
is Sunshine and she looks exactly like auntie Sunny.
Sunshine: What?
Me: Do you have little sister?
Sunshine: No.
Me: Then who is she?
Silence.
Kwanele: Wait, baby you once told me when you were at that
house they kept you in for years, you once were pregnant
and gave birth to a stillborn.
Sunshine: That's what they said to me and they took her
away.
Me: So it was a girl?
Sunshine: Yes.
She sounds like she is crying now.
Me: Did they let you see her?
Sunshine: No.
Me: I think this is her, they were about to be trafficked but I
hijacked the truck.
Luyolo: What, Landile are you safe there?
Me: Yeah, so the girl?
Kwanele: Keep her safe, we will fetch her tomorrow.
Me: I will give you guys the address I won't be around.
Sunshine: It can't be..
Me: If she is not your daughter then we will find her family.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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NADIA
*
THREE MONTHS LATER
*
I am getting frustrated I am so close to giving up, in the past
two months I have managed to save only a hundred and
fifthy girls but more girls are missing and I am starting to
doubt myself.
Dlaba: Are you okay I haven't heard you talking to your
family for a while now.
Me: What do you want me to tell them, that I can't do what I
came here to do or that I can't go home yet because my
mission is far from over?
Dlaba: You have saved a lot of girls man.
Me:But a lot are still missing, there is something I am doing
wrong.
Dlaba: What is that?
Me: I will find out soon enough.
I walk to my room and call grandpa.
Lukhele: Landile you need to call them now.
Me:I can't I said I need only two months but this is the third
month, something is wrong.
Lukhele: What is it?
Me: A team, I don't do well in groups, I want to carry out this
mission alone, I will call Cooper if I need help with
something.
Lukhele: Landile No..you need those guys.
Me: No they are holding me back, they are telling me about
rules and being a police officer but I am not a police I am
Landile and I make my own rules.
Lukhele: So what do you want to do?
Me: I will call Cooper today, I think I might need to go
overseas.
Lukhele: How?
Me: Azul will take me there, I need to bring back home every
single girl there.
Lukhele: I don't understand.
Me: He will give me a job, he has offered a lot of times but I
was turning him down, I will be looking after the girls and go
with them overseas then there I will find the place where
they are keeping them, I will only need Uncle carl and his
private jets,this time I am killing everyone who comes my
way.
Lukhele:I don't like this Landi.
Me: You said you believe in me Grandpa.
Lukhele: I do but this is..
Me: I can do it..Grandpa did they tell you anything about
Pamella?
Lukhele: They think she moved and put someone in charge
of her boutiques.
Me:I made a mistake, I avoided her and now she doesn't use
those numbers anymore.
Lukhele: Come back home before you lose her.
Me:I will be coming home soon I promise, and are they
getting along Auntie Sunny and her daughter?
Lukhele:They are working on it and helping her go through
the trauma.
They did a DNA test back home and found that the Sunshine
I found here in CapeTown is actually Aunt Sunshine's
daughter that was said to be a stillborn.
Me:I have to go now, we will talk later, I love you.
Lukhele: I love you too.
I huff and change my clothes then go to Azul's club I find it
packed I look around and find him on his spot I sit oppoite
him and huff.
Azul: You look like you need a drink.
I nod.
Azul: What's up?
Me: I need that job.
He smiles.
Azul: Tough times huh.
Me: You have no idea man, I have nothing on my name.
Azul: You came at a right time, we are moving our
merchandise tomorrow morning.
That's what they call the girls they are trafficking,
"merchandise"
Me: I am in, what is our destination?
Azul: Bogota Colombia approximately 14 hours flight.
Me: What are we using?
Azul: My private jet, we have delayed because someone was
one step of me these past months, the girls will only wake up
once you reach your destination, this will be worth your
while.
Me: So I am leaving alone?
Azul: I choose to trust you can pull this off, to tell you the
truth I don't trust my guys anymore I think it's one of them
who is leaking information to my rivals.
Me: Oh I get it, so what will I need?
Azul: Oh nothing they already know you're coming they will
be waiting with the containers.
Me:Ok so I only do a drop off nothing else.
Azul: yes just a drop off.
I nod.
Me: Let me go and rest I will see you early in the morning, do
I get to have a gun?
Azul: Yeah I can give it to you.
I nod and walk out, I get in my room and pack a small bag
then try Pamella but the number does not exist, the last time
I called her she was begging me to take a flight home but I
didn't, she was dissapointed I guess she wants nothing to do
with me now.
I call Uncle Carl I have met him only once.
Me: Hello Uncle Carl it's Langa's twin sister here.
Carl: Oh hey kid I heard about you and being in a danger
zone.
I laugh.
Me: I need your help.
Carl: Yeah.
Me: I need your private jet in colombia as in like yesterday.
Carl: uhm I can do that.
Me: I will be doing a drop off of the girls that are being
trafficked from Cape Town to Colombia but I want to put
them in a jet back to South Africa.
Carl: Won't they be waiting?
Me: I will tell them the flight got delayed so they won't be
there until three hours later.
Carl: Ok.
Me: I will be rescuing the other girls that are already there.
Carl: You know what, I know guys there in Colombia they
will help you with this.
Me:Thank you so much we'll talk in the morning.
Carl: I will send my guys to colombia tonight so they will be
waiting for you already.
Me: Thanks.
Carl: You are smart and brave Luyolo must be so proud.
Me: I hope he is.
The next morning I am up getting ready for my trip then
walk out I find Azul waiting for me to take me to the airport.
Me: Where are the girls?
Azul: Already in the jet they are just waiting for you so they
can take off, let's do this.
I nod, he drives to the airport and give me the phone.
Azul: Use this to communicate with them I have some
business to take care off, I need to find out who is a snitch in
my team.
I take the phone and he get in the car and drive off.
I dial the number that is saved as Antonio.
Antonio: Hola!
Me: Hello I am Diego I will be doing a drop off of the
merchandise for Azul but the flight got delayed we are still
waiting for a jet, it will be late by three hours.
Antonio: Ok we will be waiting at Bogoto.
I guess that is the drop off I don't know.
I call uncle Carl.
Carl: Yeah.
Me: We are about to take off.
Carl: Ok make sure you rest, my guys will be waiting there in
black suits and the Jet is written The Anderson's.
Me: Got it.
Carl: Goodluck
I get in the jet and move the curtain there are girls who are
laying like a bag of potatos there are like 35 of them,I close
the curtain then go and take a seat, There is a beautiful
hostess there and I tell her I need a lot of food and juice.
I eat then sleep there is everything in here.
*
After a long trip to Colombia I wake up and stretch myself.
Hostess: We have arrived sir you can call your associates.
Me: Oh don't worry they are already here, there have been
change of plans, we will use another jet to Mexico they are
meeting us there.
She nods, I step out and I see The Anderson's jet and there
are two gentlemen standing next to it.
I whistle they turn to look my way, I do a thumbs up and I
hear that the girls are awake.
I tell them to move quickly to the other jet and they do as I
ask they are nervous.
After they all get in and sit down I stand on the passage.
Me: I don't know if you're aware that you're not in South
africa anymore.
They start crying.
Me:Hey listen I am not the bad guy, I am here to take you
back home to your families.
Girl1: How can we trust you,they drugged us.
Me: Because I am a woman like all of you and I have sisters
and I wouldn't want something like this to happen to them.
Girl1: You're a woman?
I laugh.
Me: I am, just different..
They shake their heads so they don't believe me I smile.
Me: Don't be scared of whatever may happen here you will
be safe in here.
They nod.
I walk out and talk to the gentlemen outside.
Me: Hello.
They nod.
"I am Lucian and this is my brother Luscious we are going to
help you."
They have an accent.
Me: I think they are here.
Lucian: Don't worry we have back up.
Two trucks with containers are here already driving toward
us.
I take out my gun and aim at the wheel and pull a trigger the
wheel come out same time causing the truck to turn on the
side, The brothers start shooting at the other one.I walk
closer to the truck that is on it's side i look inside they are
struggling to come out, I try to open the door and pull out
the first guy.
Me: Let me help you..
I manage to get him out then shoot the one that is left inside
the truck.
I search the other one's pocket and take out the guns and put
them on my waist, he is bleeding on his forehead.
Me:You are going to show me where you are keeping the
other girls.
Him: I won't show you shit!
Me: You won't..
I grab his neck looking straight in his eyes veins pop out on
his head.
Me: Now will you show me where you are keeping the rest of
the girls..
Him: I'll show you..
Me: Good, will I find your boss there?
He nods, he is almost out of breath.
Me: How many bodyguards is he with?
Him: Three, stop man stop..
I let go of his neck he coughs kneeling down.
I look around and I see the brothers walking towards me.
Me: He will take me to his boss and where they keep the
girls.
Luscious: We are coming with you, the girls are safe here
with my guys, we will take that truck.
Me: Mmm that way they will think we have the girls and gain
easy access.
They smile nodding at the same time, I chuckle.
Me: Where are those that were in the second truck?
Lucien:Dead!
I laugh nodding the way he quickly said "dead!" Is funny.
We get in the truck all four of us, we made the guy drive us
to his boss.
We get in this huge house and drive in. We step out of the
truck.
Me: if you do anything crazy I will shoot your ass.
I say moving the mouth of the gun to his ass.
We walk towards the door.
Me:Knock.
He knocks and as soon as the door open I shoot the guy and
point at the one who opened and shoot him aswell, we hear
alot of screaming coming from the inside.
Lucian: I am going in.
They both follow each other and I feel a gun at the back of
my head I turn and face the guy.
Him:Who are you?
Me: I am the new guy Azul sent your guys didn't come so he
told me where to go.
Him: So there are girls in that truck?
Me: Yeah go and check.
He walk towards the truck and I shoot the back of his head.
Lucian and his brother comes back.
Luscious: We are all good, the girls are in inside they are
scared of coming out.
I walk in and find them sitting at the corner of the room
together.
Me: Hello I need you to come with me, we're going back
home.
Voice: How can we trust you?
Me: Because I have the same accent as you I am from south
Africa.
Voice: A south African brought us here!
Me: And this south African is here to take you back home,
please trust me, there are other girls who can't wait to get
home please trust me.
One of them get up and come closer to me.
Her: You look familiar.
Me: I do have those faces you know.
Her: You are from Durban.
Me:Yes now tell them you know me so we can go.
Her: Let's go guys we can trust him.
I chuckle maybe she think I am Langa.
They follow us out and when they see dead bodies they
scream.
Me:It's ok those were the bad guys that kept you away from
your home, our mother land Emzansi.
They are now scared to get in the back of the truck.
Me:Will it be okay if I get in with you.
They nod. I get in first they all follow me we sit down,therr
are small holes here and there I guess they are for breathing
The truck stops and the brothers open for us we step out
they follow me to a jet and I find the others eating.
Me: You can have a seat they will bring you food as well.
I count them with my eyes I think I got all the girls that were
reported missing in this three months.
I see the brothers getting in the jet as well.
Me: We are all leaving?
Luscious: Yes, where is our first destination?
Me: Now you should have been in my team not those guys.
I look at them and smile.
Me: Our first stop is Cape Town, there is someone I need to
pick up on our way to Durban.
They nod and we sit down, this is the comfortable jet ever
and not to mention nice food as well.
I sleep wake up and sleep again I wake up we are already in
Cape Town.
Me: Let me call someone to pick us up, girls you are okay
with being here right, I am fetching someone I won't take
time.
They nod.
I dial Indigo's number he is the one I can say I fully trusted in
that team.
Indigo: Hello.
Me: This is Diego fetch me at the airport my guy.
We wait for him for 15 minutes then I introduce him to the
brothers as we get in the car.
Indigo: Where to?
Me: Azul's hotel my brother.
He drives there and stop outside.
Me: let's walk in, I will do the talking because I can talk for
days.
We walk in and find him shouting at his guys.
Me: Look who's back.
He quickly turns and look at me shocked.
Azul: How are you here, I can't get Antonio on the phone.
Me: Maybe he was too excited with the merchandise they
wanted to celebrate.
Azul: Who are these people you're with.
Me: My friends and you can trust them like you trusted me.
Azul:So you mean you pulled it off.
Me: Yep I did and also all your guys are working with your
enemies, I found out from Mr Antonio himself they wanted
to take over from you saying you under pay them.
The whole room goes crazy, the guys are angry.
Gunshots.
Azul shoot every last one of them then turn to a bartender
and shoot him as well. The club had only them I guess they
had a meeting.
Azul: So are you willing to be on my team?
Me:How many bullets do you have left on that gun?
He look like he is thinking.
Azul: One I think.
Me:Shoot up as a sign of celebration because you just gained
yourself a new team.
He smiles and shoot up I take out my gun and point at him.
Azul:What are you doing?
Me: What I came here to do, that is getting your ass back to
Durban to face your fears, Cooper!
I shoot his kneel he groans going down.
Azul: You're are a police?
Me: No. Hey let's fix him up we need to leave.
Indigo takes out the bulllet so easy then wrap a cloth on his
wound and we walk out supporting him.
We get in the car and drive back to the airport then walk in,
most of the girls are now sleeping, we move him at the back.
Me:You can rest there, we will tell you when it's time.
I go back to my sit and call Cooper.
Me: Meet me at King Shaka Airport I have a suprise for you.
Cooper: What is it your team said you went missing.
Me: Nop I'm not.
I call dad and he answers.
Luyolo: Hello.
Me: Dad where is everyone?
Luyolo: They are here Landi we are worried about you!
Me: Who is fetching me at the airport today?
Langa:What?
Ziyanda: What do you mean baby?
Me: I miss all of you so how about you all come and fetch me.
Luyolo: You mean you're on a flight back to Durban?
Me: Yes dad.
Ziyanda: Landile don't play like that.
I can hear she is crying.
Me: Call uncle carl and tell him to ask his pilots where his jet
is.
Langa: You're really coming home Nadia?
Me: I am coming home brother.
I hear a lot of screams, I drop the call and smile sleeping
facing up.
We touch down to king Shaka..I can see my family's cars and
the police cars.
Me: Girls does this place look familiar?
They start screaming.
Me: Don't worry if you're not from here the police will
organise transport for you to travel home safe, now let's feel
the warm summer breeze of Durban.
I step out and I see mom running to me I meet her halfway
and hug her tights as she breaks down.
Me: It's okay mom I am home with no single stratch on my
body.
Ziyanda: I can't believe it.
I look at dad and my brothers.
Me: I am home.
I guy all of them and go to Langelihle who is squarting down
with his face buried in his hands, I squart in front of him.
Me: This is me, I am back.
We get up and hug each other tight.
Langa: Thought I was never gonna see you again.
Me: I am not leaving you.
Cooper: Sorry to disturb this beautiful moment, welcome
back Nadia.
Me:It's good to be back
Cooper: What do you have for me?
I walk back inside the jet.
Me: You can all come out.
All the girls follow me out and I hear a lot of clapping.
Cooper: You did it?
Me: I did but I have more.
I walk back in again and Indigo and I take Azul out of the Jet
and I hear police officers gasping even Cooper.
Me: Is this your guy Detective Cooper?
He doesn't reply his mouth is hung open.
I see a car driving towards us and the mighty Lukhele step
out.
Lukhele: What did I tell you!what did I tell you! Didn't I tell
you she can pull it off huh?
Indigo: She?
I laugh and nod.
Indigo: You are a girl?
Me: I am a girl.
I take off my cap not that it can prove anything though but
well I can't show them my pussy.
Grandpa hugs me tight spinning me around, The
embarrassment on my face when he finally puts me down.
Lukhele: You are officially a Mini Big Dog.
Everyone laughs.
Cooper: Wow!
Me: And also I have never met any station commanders
because one of them is working with him.
Cooper: Oh he will tell me who it is, Thank you so much
Gumede thank you.
Me: Now I have done my part you do yours and get thesw
girls to their homes safe.
Cooper: We will do that.
Voice: You saved us!
I look at them, they take turns hugging me crying I feel
myself getting emotional too.
Me: Be good okay and always be on a look out, Cooper will
give you my numbers, give it to your moms and tell them I'm
single and available.
Everyone laugh.
Luyolo: If I had a champagne glass here I would say a toast to
Landile Nadia Gumede.
Everyone: To Landile Nadia Gumede.
I smile this is perfect but someone is missing.
Luyolo: Let's go home, Lucian and Luscious you can come as
well and thank you for helping my daughter.
Luscious: I still cannot believe she's a girl.
I laugh and turn to Indigo.
Me: You're leaving with Cooper?
Indigo: Yeah.
I give him my hand but instead he hugs me.
Indigo: You were good and I would love to work with you
again.
Me: Maybe we will someday.
We shake hands and I go to my twin brother's car, he is with
Sfiso.
Me: I missed you so much lovers.
Langa: I am so happy you're back.
We get home and as soon as I step in the house Aunt
Sunshine hugs me tight then her daughter comes and hug me
too.
Sunshine: Thank you so much, those people are cruel how
can you take away someone's daughter saying she's dead
and I still need to have a talk with the person who raised her.
Me: Let me know we will go together.
We sit around the table and mom ask us to hold hands as she
prays then we eat.
Me: Uhm so Miyah Pamella is missing?
Miyalo: I don't know Nadia I went there everyday to look for
her but no one would open the door but both your cars are
in her house.
I nod.
I go to bed and fall asleep immediately finally I am back
home after three months!
I wake up when I hear someone singing in a low sweet voice
next to me, I open my eyes it's mom.
Ziyanda: You're awake.
I nod, she smiles.
Ziyanda: I am so happy you're back, this took me back when
Langa went away and I felt like maybe someone is hurting
you out there, I wasn't ok at all.
I wake up and hug her without saying anything then go to
the bathroom and take a shower, I then go get dressed and
we all eat breakfast.
I walk out and take a taxi to Pamella's house, I walk in and
really our cars are parked here outside. I start knocking but
no one answers I take my keys and unlock the door, the
house is spotless and smells like someone just cleaned it
now. I lock the door and go to the kitchen and open the pots
there is food that was cooked probably yesterday. I walk
closer to the bedroom and get in, there she is sleeeping in
only a panty and my tshirt there's a box of tissue next to her
and she is hugging a pillow, I take a chair and sit in front of
her, I can see dry tears on his face I touch her, causing her to
move a little.
Pamella: Landile no don't go please..don't leave me..
She shouts in her sleep, I shake her a little, she slowly open
her eyes and stare at me.
Pamella: I don't want to dream about you anymore because
you always leave me, please just go away.
Me: You're not dreaming right now Ella I am here.
Pamella: That's what you always say but when I wake up you
are never here.
Tears come out of her eyes.
Me: But have you ever felt my touch in those dreams?
Pamella: No.
I move my hand and touch her face wiping the tears. She
jump up and sit in bed staring at me shocked.
Pamella: You are here Landi?
Me: I am here baby.
Tears run down her face,I get up and open my arms she
jump on me holding me tight for a long time, until I feel her
stomach I step back a little and look at her, she is smiling so
beautiful my eyes are on the stomach Ella doesn't have a
stomach that can actually touch mine when we hug.
I move the tshirt up a little and there's a very dark line on
her belly and it is like a ball.
I move back and stare at her.
Me: What is going on Ella?
Pamella: I am pregnant..
I look at her she is smiling through tears.
Me: Did you cheat on me?
She stares at me not smiling anymore.
Me: Answer me Ella, is that why you avoided my family for
three months because you were scared they will see this and
tell me?
I feel like I am about to lose my breath, I breathe out a few
times then hold her shoulders.
Me: Did you cheat on me Ella? But why I told you I will come
back baby why did you do this, why?
She is crying so hard I let her go and turn to walk out..
Pamella: It's yours..
I stop by the door wiping my tears but I don't turn to look at
her.
Pamella: I went to doctor Moore and asked him to do that In-
Vitro, this is your baby, your eggs just like you wanted..
I turn to face her.
Pamella: I did it for you, I wanted to see if I can carry this
baby and move past the first trimester without getting a
miscarriage and I did.
Me: You are carrying my baby?
Pamella: Yes.
Me: Are you serious?
Pamella: We can call doctor Moore to confirm.
Me: No..
But she takes the phone and call the number.
Moore: Hello.
Pamella: Hi it's Pamella I am with Landile here please tell her
how many eggs you put to a fertilization process.
Moore: Oh Nadia it's good to have you back.
Me: Yeah.
Moore: We fertilized 5 of your eggs with the donor sperms
you chose and three was successful but we used one.
Me: So Pamella is carrying my baby?
Moore: Yes she is.
Pamella: Ok thank you doctor.
She drops the call and sit on the bed then start crying all
over again.
Pamella: I'm sorry for doing this without telling you, I was
scared that I will tell you and then get a miscarriage
disappointing you in the process.
Me: Ella this is the greatest news I came home to, sthandwa
sam I'm sorry for thinking you cheated on me I'm sorry.
Pamella: I don't blame you..
Me: Thank you so much for doing this Pamella I love you.
I pull her up and hug her tight feeling her belly now gives me
goosebumps I brush it a little.
We sit next to each other while my hand is still on her belly, I
still can't believe she did something so huge for me.
Me: I love you so much Ella and thank you maKunene..thank
you.
Pamella: I love you and I have been horny lately.
Me: Lonely?
Pamella: I said horny Landile!
Me: Then what do you do about it?
Pamella: I try giving myself pleasure but it never works..
I kiss her holding her neck then look at her.
Me: ngicela ungishade sthandwa sami, anginayo iring manje
kodwa ngiyakucela uvume.( Please marry me my love I don't
have a ring right not but i'm begging you say yes.)
She smiles looking at me.
Pamella: Ngiyavuma ngizokushada.( Yes I will marry you)
I kiss her pushing her gently to bed and remove the tshirt I
find this round belly so sexy on her, I start sucking her perky
boobs then kiss her belly, I remove her panty and the shaved
pussy is right in my face.
Me: I missed this, I missed you calling my name...
I move my tongue from her hole up to her clit and suck it.
Pamella: Aaah babe..Landi yes..
I muff her pussy until I can taste cum on it as her legs shake
on my shoulders..
Me: You're wet Ella do you want me?
Pamella: Yes baby, yes..
I insert my middle finger thrusting straight to her spot her
knees are shaking then she squirts closing her thighs but I
open them up and continue to move my finger in the same
spot..
Pamella: Landile!fuck no baby..yes..
The bed is wet, I take off my clothes and once i am naked she
get up and push me to sleep on my back then start kissing
me then she pinch my nipples.
Me:Fuck..
She plant kisses all the way down to my pussy then move my
legs up, her lips come in contact with my pussy..
Me: Fuck.. Ella.
She start sucking then I feel her tongue in my hole I hold the
sheets tight as she also rubs my clit..
Me: Shit..Pamella oh fuck..
I cum so hard aching my back, she position her herself
inbetween my thighs and start rubbing her hot clit on mine,
she moves her waist so sexy I grab her butt cheeks, she is
amazing..
Pamella: I missed you so much baby.
She says still moving her waist but I can see she is getting
tired, I flip us over and now I am the one ontop with our wet
pussies on each other I can feel myself getting close.
Me: Babe..shit..
Pamella: Faster babe I am so close..ooh.
I obey moving faster to reach my own destination, we cum
And I sleep next to her.
Pamella: Thank you..babe.
Me: You're ok?
She nods, she look so tired.
Me: Come lay your head on my chest so you can sleep I can
see you're tired.
She move to my chest and her hand is moving up and down
my abs. I pull up the bed covers and we fall asleep.
I wake up and find her sitting up crying.
I brush her belly.
Me: Are you ok, is it the baby?
She shakes her head.
Pamella: I had another dream of you leaving again.
Me: I won't be leaving anytime soon, I promised to do this
with you and I will keep that promise.
She nods and sleep next to me.
Me: So you go for check ups?
She move her eyes.
Pamella: I went there once to confirm the pregnancy.
Me: But why? we need to know if the baby is growing
perfectly.
Pamella: I was scared that they might say I am having anoth..
Me: No Ella stop thinking about that right now, make an
appointment to see a doctor.
Pamella: You will come with me?
Me: Yes, now let's take a bath so we can go to the mall.
We take a shower together then I wear my clothes and
choose a dress for her but she shakes her head.
Me: You don't want this one?
Pamella: no yimbi (No it's ugly)
Me: Since when?
Pamella: Now..
I take out almost 4 dresses and she keeps saying the same
thing.
Me: Ok you will find me outside shame i'm done here.
I walk out leaving her picking a dress.
She finally comes out wearing a beautiful white dress that
hugs all the right places, the hips the ass then the belly is
visible also.
Me: Woah! Can you turn around for me baby..
She does in so much confidence.
Me: You're feeling yourself girl, umuhle yezwa (You're
beautiful)
Pamella: Ngiyabonga (Thank you)
We walk out and lock then she go to the drivers seat of my
car I get in next to her.
She drive us to the mall and as we pass this restaurant I spot
miss Prisca I laugh.
Me: Let's go in here so we can feed our baby.
We walk in and I pull a chair for her then go order to Prisca
the minute she sees me she rolls her eyes I smile.
Me: I missed you man I really did.
She smiles.
Prisca: I haven't seen you in a while.
Me: I was busy trying to make the world a better place, can I
ask you something.
Prisca: If it's not rude yeah sure.
I laugh.
Me: Since you guys are not busy can you keep my girl
entertained I want to go buy a ring for her.
She gasp and come closer.
Prisca: You want to propose to PamellaK?
Me: I already did and she said yes but I didn't have a ring
with me.
Prisca: You know she can say no this time around right?
Me: Oh shut up you old thing!
She laughs.
Prisca: I knew you are just keeping it in there, you're
naturally rude..now go.
I tell her my order and go back to Pamella.
Me: Babe this lady just asked me to buy something for her I
will be back quickly.
She nods I kiss her cheek and leave her with prisca.
I go to the jewellery store and move around I don't know
which ring to pick until a lady comes and ask what I am
looking for.
Me: An engagement ring for a beautiful girl.
She smiles and show me the small rings with diamonds in
different colours.
Me: That one with a puple diamond stone.
She gives me two and I look at the size I really hope it fits, I
give her my card and then walk out with a ring.
I find ella laughing with Prisca.
Me: I see you're still a comedian MissP.
She laughs and go back to her till after I say thanks to her.
Pamella: Didn't you say you went to buy something for her.?
Me: Her meant you.
I go on one knee next to her.
Me: I know you already said yes but please say yes again and
except this ring.
Pamella: Oh my God baby...yes! yes! yes!
I look at Prisca they are clapping hands.
I put it on.
Me: Does it fit?
Pamella: Yes baby thank you..
Me: No, thank you babe, now let's go home you will warm
this food up later.
We take our food and walk towards the door.
Me: Thank you old lady!
I shout at Prisca.
Prisca: Got to hell.
She says laughing.
We get in the car and go home, we walk in and find them in
the lounge.
Me: Hello family.
Miyah gasp looking at Pamella she get up and walk up to her.
Miyah: So it worked Pammy, I thought you avoided me
because it didn't work..
They hug tight then look at each other smiling with tears in
their eyes, these two have a connection.
Me: Mom and dad we are here to announce that Pamella is
pregnant with our baby.
They all get up.
Ziyanda: Where did you find her Landi?
Me: She locked herself in her house.
Ziyanda: Pamella we were worried about you how can you
be alone while pregnant.
Pamella: I was scared..
Mom hugs her tight.
Langa: And look who got someone pregnant!
We laugh.
Ziyanda: How?
Pamella: In-Vitro I used Landi's eggs and a sperm donor.
Luyolo: So you are carrying a Gumede?
Me: Yes she is..
They all look happy for us.
Me: And also I proposed and she said yes.
Miyalo: Why didn't you show me the ring!oh my God it's
beautiful who chose it for you Landi?
Me: Come on I did it myself Miyah..
Everyone is happy, I missed home.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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NADIA
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I have a supportive and loving family, I have a kid on the way
and a woman that loves me. You know when someone loves
you with her all, you can feel it and that's how I feel about
Pamella that woman loves me man I know it.
Right now I am looking at her, she fell asleep on the couch
and she's so beautiful I go to the room and get a blanket and
cover her.
I start cooking in the kitchen while drinking a beer that she
only buys for me.
I finish cooking and wake her up.
Me: Hey baby.
Pamella: Smells good in here babe.
Me: I cooked.
Pamella: You can cook?
I smile looking at her.
Me: Come so you can find out.
I take her hand, I can't get over how cute she look with that
baby bump.
We sit on the table and start eating.
Pamella: Wow babe this tastes so good.
Me: Not more than you though..
Pamella: That's gross..
I chuckle and we continue eating while talking my phone
rings, it's dad.
Me: Baba (Dad)
Luyolo: Cooper wants to see you.
Me: You will take me to him right?
Luyolo: If you want me to.
Me: I always want you to Dad.
Luyolo: Ok I will take you there, when are you coming home
I want us to hang out.
Me: Tomorrow morning.
Luyolo: Ok we will start by going to Cooper then hang out.
Me: Will there be food?
He laughs.
Luyolo: What's a hangout with you without foods?
Me: What is that suppose to mean?
Luyolo: Just that..
Me: I want to meet uncle Carl too.
Luyolo: I guess we will have a drive around not a hang out
anymore.
Me: That's also fine right..
Luyolo: Here is your twin brother he wants to come with us
too.
Me: He really wants to ruin our father daughter moment!
Langa: We can have a father daughter twin moment.
Me: Mxhm fine you can also come as well.
I drop the call.
Me: What will you be doing tomorrow?
Pamella: Miyah is taking me out.
Me: That's good because I have a meeting, so you and Miyah
huh you guys get along but when you're with her she acts
like a protective big sister and you become younger.
She laughs.
Pamella: How, I am older than her.
Me: I don't know how to explain it.
She get up and pour us juice.
Me: Have I told you how pregnancy looks good on you we
might do this every year.
Pamella: Haaa!
I laugh.
Me: Are you happy with me?
Pamella: More that i've ever been in my whole life.
Me : Thank you for everything baby for carrying our first
child you're an amazing woman.
Pamella: Thank you.
I take the plates and clean up around the kitchen then we go
to bed.
Next morning I feel the bed moving I open my eyes and find
Pamella with a lot of fried chicken in her plate. I check the
time it's 5:30 am I stare at her, she carry on eating like she
doesn't see me at all. I go to the bathroom then come back,
she is still at it.
Me: Why are you eating this early?
She rolls her eyes.
Pamella: Because i'm hungry.
Me: This early?
Pamella: Landile I am hungry right now, why should I eat
later?
Me: Sorry I am just asking babe, can I take one piece.
Pamella: Isn't it early?
Me: Ella come on it smells good, what time did you fry this
chicken?
Pamella: 4:56am I was boiling it.
Me: Do you want to gain weight?
Pamella: Maybe, I heard that it's a good thing to gain weight
when pregnant to make space for the baby to grow.
Me: But doesn't mean eat so much meat alone Ella.
Pamella: But I am hungry.
Me: So you can't give me only one piece?
Pamella: I left some for you baby in the kitchen I will get it
for you when I finish up here.
I laugh, that is so much meat for one person.
We go back to bed because it's still early, I wake up when
dad call me to get ready to meet with Cooper. I take a shower
and get dressed then kiss Pamella she is yawning..she look
sleepy.
Me: When are you meeting Miyah?
Pamella: 10 O'clock she will pick me up.
Me: Ok pack your small bag and go home with her okay.
Pamella: Ok babe I love you.
Me: I love you.
I walk out and find dad's car waiting outside and I get in at
the back.
Me: Morning dad and you big head.
Langa: I will smack your face so hard.
Me: Where will dad be that time?
Langa: Oh daddy's girl.
Me: You said it.
Luyolo: We start with breakfast?
Me: Are we still early?
Luyolo: We are meeting Cooper in an hour.
We go eat breakfast.
Luyolo: So are you paying Lobola?
Me: I am but she doesn't really have a family so we are still
going to talk about it.
Luyolo: Ok let us know early ok?
Me: Yes dad.
Langa: I see your chewing gum friend is sweet now.
He is referring to Miss Prisca, I laugh.
Me: I can put people in their place and make them turn nice
bro.
We finish eating then go meet Cooper I see a lot of police
standing outside in lines and Cooper is standing in front of
them and the minute I step out of the car they all put their
right hands on their caps as a sign of salute, they stand in
that position until I stand in front of Cooper then they move
their hands down and stomp their right foot.
Me: Am I getting the vibe that my presence is appreciated in
here?
He smiles and step closer shaking my hand.
Cooper: Someone wants to meet you.
Me: Well let them out I am ready.
I say fixing myself, my mouth hung open as the Police
Minister himself walk out the station and stand in front of
me, I blink and look at dad next to me he is smiling proudly.
He gives me his hand and I reluctantly shake it.
Me: Uhm ..I..Sir I mean Minister Sir you wanted to meet me?
Minister: I did.
Me: Wow I am honoured I feel like a celebrity right now..
He laughs.
Minister: I am honoured to be in the presence of someone in
your calibre who took down the most wanted dangerous
criminal in South Africa without the help of the police.
Me: Uh well thank you Sir..
Minister: Mr Gumede you must be proud Sir.
Luyolo: You have no idea, I am a proud father.
Minister: We need people like her in here to make the streets
of SA safe for all.
Me: Uhm You don't want me to be a police are you bec..
Minister: I heard you didn't work well with the team
Detective Cooper gave you because they were telling you
how police work and everything being against the rules so I
figured you don't like Police?
Me: No I don't no offence.
They all laugh.
Minister: So we would like you to work closely with Cooper
but we are not going to label you, no Detective, no Constable
or an officer you will be Landile Nadia Gumede.
Me: Wait you know my names like how they are written on
my ID?
Everyone burst in laughter.
Minister: Of course I do, You are special.
Me: Uhm about your offer am I suppose to be at work
everyday?
He chuckles.
Minister: Not necessarily, Cooper will contact you everytime
he needs you and you will check in from time to time.
Me: Damn!am I getting paid?
Minister: Yes and about that job you did Cooper did say you
will name your price.
I look at dad and sigh.
Me: A building that will have a Soup Kitchen for the
homeless, where elderly people who have no homes can
stay, feel comfortable and at home, I hope that's not too
much to ask Sir.
I say looking down.
Minister: That's all you want?
Me: Yes.
Minister: No money?
Me: It is that money that is going to build what I want so
technically you are giving me the money just indirectly.
He look at Cooper then step closer and shake dad's hand.
Minister: I wish I was in your shoes with a smart child like
this I can concur the world.
Dad smiles and wrap his arm around my neck and kiss the
side of my head Langa is smiling proudly next to me.
Luyolo: I am proud of all my kids they shock me everyday.
Minister: You are blessed.
Luyolo: A lot and i'm grateful.
He says brushing Langa's head.
Minister: So are you going to write down ideas of this
building.
Me: Yes, my older brother Nkanyezi will help me, he did
something similar to this one.
Minister: I know him I have met him once, down to earth and
always smiling, your family is one special family Lukhele
must be so proud.
Cooper: He is very proud he named her after him she is a
mini Big Dog alright!
We all laugh.
Minister: I can just see the proud smirk on his face when he
says that.
I smile.
Minister: We still want to keep you on a low profile for now
because we might need your skills, of what Cooper?
Cooper: Blending in like a chameleon.
I laugh so hard shaking my head.
Minister: Thank you so much for what you did and the
parents of those girls are thankful for what you have done
for them, some had even lost hope but you brought their
girls back home safe.
Me: I am grateful too, and thank you for this opportunity
you're giving me here I promise I won't let you down and
also thank you for telling me that I won't have to be here
everyday because I have a pregnant fiance at home that
needs my attention.
They whistle, clapping and shouting, Langa is laughing.
Me: What are you laughing at wena?
Langa: You're whipped.
Me: As if you're not with Sfiso.
Cooper: Congratulations to you and PamellaK.
He says winking.
Minister: PamellaK!
He nods.
Minister: Get out of here!how do you seem good at
everything? Tell me what is it that you don't know..?
I didn't know that he was funny like this, always thought
they are all uptight and never joke around but I am seeing
another side right now.
Minister: Congratulations damn she's good.
Me: Were you eyeing my wife Minister Sir?
He laugh out loud.
Cooper: We will meet tomorrow to go over the contracts and
everything.
Minister: Thank you for coming to meet with me.
Me:No, thank you so much.
He shake hands with me, dad, and Langa.
We go back to the car and drive to uncle Carl's place and we
walk in and find the house packed with their friends and
Lucian and Luscious are here as well the minute we step in
they cheer.
Carl: Hey Mini Luhs!
They get up and we all side hug and seat down.
Me: Ya'll are still here?
Lucian: Yeah man..
Langa: Do you think dad will let us have a beer or two?
He whispers.
Me: why don't you ask him?
Langa:No you ask him.
Me: No You ask him.
Luyolo: Hey!
We look at him with begging eyes.
Luyolo: Not gonna work..
Langa: But dad you kn..
Carl: Loosen up a little Luh we are celebrating here, I am
proud of you kid.
Me: Thanks, now can we have just one bottle we will share
we are twins after all.
They literally give us one beer and we share while
complaining and they end up giving us two each that's it.
Luscious: So Luh we heard that you use Gumede now.
Luyolo: Yeah I found out I am actually a Gumede.
Lucian: That's crazy because we recently found out that our
father in Colombia is not really our father, some man from
here violated our mother and we were the results with my
brother.
I look at Langa then look at dad his mouth is hung open.
Luyolo: I..No..you mean..?
Langa: You two are twins?
They both nod. He is asking the obvious.
Langa: Did you find out the surname of the guy who violated
your mom?
Luscious: Gumede, they said he was dealing with human
trafficking that time.
I look at dad, he smiles in disbelief.
Luyolo: The same man who almost trafficked my wife while
pregnant with my daughter Iyana.
Luscious: You know him?
Dad chuckles.
Luyolo: He was my father but I found out not so long ago.
Lucian: So we were actually trained by our brother when we
joined the military?
They look at each other.
Me: Uhm so dad is your older brother?
They shrug their shoulders at the same time, they do that a
lot and it sometimes freaks me out, this doing the same thing
at the same time is creepy!even when they turn their heads
looking at each other.
Luyolo: Wow!
He says wiping his face.
Langa: Yeah hey!
Luyolo: Unbelievable, I trained them when they were young
boys, I chose to train only them and the others were taken by
other trainers there, I just wanted to train the two of them
myself..
Langa: I guess it was blood speaking.
Luyolo: I guess so.
Dad get up and they both get up at the same time and they
shoulder hug dad and sit down.
Me: Can you new dads stop doing that..
Luscious: Doing what?
Me: Did you see it Langa?
Langa:Yeah this doing things at the same time, yeah it freaks
me out man.
Me: Me too.
Carl: But you guys do it too, I noticed that when you are
listening to someone talk you bite the side of your left cheek,
there you just did it right now.
I look at Langa, he look at me.
Langa: Were you really doing that?
Me: I was.
Luscious: So you are our son and daughter?
I laugh.
Me: Yes we are, dad.
Lucian: Very weird..
Luyolo: Guys let's go home before it's time for dinner.
We get up.
Lucian: Uhm can we come too?
Luyolo: Uh yeah yeah sure.
We say goodbye to the others then drive home with Lucian
and Luscious behind us.
We get home and find everyone on the table including my
fiance, I kiss her cheek, she smiles.
Ziyanda: Lucian you guys are here..
She hugs them happily and we all sit down Auntie Sunny and
her daughter are here so is Mbali and both uncles.
Mom and my aunts dish up for everyone we start eating.
Luyolo: we just had a very interesting discovery today,
Lucian and Luscious are Gumede's son.
Kwanele: What?how isn't it that their father is from
Colombia only their mom was South Afican?
Lucian: We found out that mom was violated by the man
who was dealing with human trafficking and apparently dad
was able to save mom and that time she was already
pregnant with us.
Ziyanda: Dirty old man I still hate him with everything in me.
Me: I hate him too, I heard he wanted to traffic you too mom.
Ziyanda: And I was pregnant.
Sunshine: Same man who seperated me from my daughter!
Luyolo: Can he just wake up from the dead so we can just kill
him again!
Me: That's my wish and I will be looking up the sky for a
shooting star to say that wish..
They laugh.
Ntsika: So you're Gumede?
Lucian: I guess and I have been having dreams of a place
called home it had weird houses.
Me: Rondavels?
Lucian: Oh yes..
Luyolo: That is home koGumede.
Me: KoQwabe, say Qwabe..
They laugh shaking their heads, yhoo!creepy as hell I could
never get used to that!
We finish eating and we move to the lounge.
Luyolo: Uhm so do you want to go there, I mean home?
Lucian: I think so.
Luscious: Yeah our mother told us this because Lucian was
having dreams and seizures so she thought maybe we will
get help when we find out where home is, she googled the
Zulu culture and tradition.
They both laugh.
Langa: Why am I getting the Ntsika vibes here, they sure
laugh a lot.
Nkanyezi nods smiling.
Luyolo: I will take you there tomorrow if that's ok.
Khosi walk in.
Khosi: She will have to name them.
Luyolo:Who?
Ntsika: I think he means great aunt.
Khosi nods and walk away.
We go our seperate bedrooms but I walk out and find
Nkanyezi.
Me: I need your help.
Nkanyezi: "Now"?
I nod and we go back to the lounge and sit down, I have a
pen and a paper so that if there is a miscommunication he
can just right it down for me.
Me: You have done something like this before, I need your
help to write down ideas of a shelter I want for homeless
elderly people and a soup kitchen for those living in the
street so most of them that doesn't use drugs won't resort to
crime they can just go and dish up because I know not all
street kids living on the streets love being there some have
no other choice.
He looks at me for a long time and take the pen and paper
and write.
Nkanyezi: "I am proud of you little sis"
I smile.
Nkanyezi: "So what do you have in mind?"
Me: I don't want them to build it from scratch, there are
many abandoned buildings here in Durban they can just
renovate one of them.
He nods and signal me to go on.
Me: I want tv screens on the dining area and couches, coffee
machines, that is where elderly people will watch news
drink their tea and relax.
He writes down the things I say.
Me: I want the soup kitchen to cook real food, like pap and
meat, spinach the food that most ederly people love to eat I
want them to feel at home at all times not like they are
thrown away just like that, I want warm blankets in each
room they are going to sleep, I want the nurse or two hired
to check up those high blood pressures and everything.
He writes everything down.
Nkanyezi: "This is your drafted Idea, give it to them and tell
them this is exactly what you want nothing else, don't let
anyone change your idea for less, ok Sis?"
Me: "Thank you."
He smiles so bright when he sees me signing "thank you", I
have seen it so many times and it's the easiest I'm still
learning bits by bits.
Me: You can go to your wife now while I go to my fiance.
I smile and we walk to our rooms, I find Ella already in bed
but as soon as I get in bed she turns and hold me tight.
Me: Did I disturb your sleep babe?
I say kissing her forehead.
Pamella: No I was already up I am hungry.
Me: But we just ate d..
Her stomach makes a very loud noise I quickly get out of bed
and rush to the kitchen to dish up for her, mom find me
there.
Ziyanda: You're hungry?
Me: It's Pamella she is really hungry her stomach is
grumbling.
She smiles.
Ziyanda: It happens to many pregnant women babe.
I nod and pour juice then go back, she sit up immediately
and take the food from my hands and start eating.
Pamella: Thank you baby.
She continue to finish everything then drink the whole juice
and go to the bathroom, she comes back and we get in bed
and sleep with her so close to me I hold her tight.
In the morning I feel her kissing my neck I open my eyes, she
sighs and drop her eyes.
Pamella: I am hungry again Landi.
I get out of bed and go the bathroom then go back to the
kitchen there isn't a lot of food left, outside it's still very
dark.
I make bread for her and also dish up the food that was left
and warm it up then go back to our room.
Pamella: I'm sorry, if I was at my house I wasn't going to
bother you like this, I was going to do it myself.
I nod and check the time it's 4:45am I huff, my baby in there
is causing havoc.
She finish up everything, bread and food.
We go back to sleep and wake up when the sun has risen.
Me: Baby..
Pamella: Mmmh.
Me: Did you manage to make a doctor's appointment?
She doesn't answer.
Me: Pamella..
Pamella: No.
Me: Why not ella?
She doesn't answer, it's obvious to me that she doesn't
believe that that thing of miscarriages is over, I think that
traumatised her for life 9miscarriages in a period of only
4years that's a lot for a woman and not finding support from
anyone makes things worse.
Me: How about we go to mom huh babe, she will tell us that
everything is ok with the baby.
Pamella: You think so?
Me: Yes babe.
She nods.
We take a bath and go to mom's office, we knock and get in
we find her eating chocolate.
Me: Mmmmm.
Ziyanda: Not gonna happen!
Me: What?
Ziyanda: You want it but I won't give it to you, the father of
my kids bought it for me so you can just ask Pamella to buy it
for you as well.
Me: But mom..
Ziyanda: Nop, hey Pammy.
Pamella: Hey.
Me: Uhm mom can you squeeze us in your busy schedule we
just need an ultrasound scan please daddy's girlfriend.
She laughs shaking her head.
Ziyanda: Landile, ok come this way Pammy.
She shows her the bed and I stand next to her, she is shaking
as she sleep facing up and I can actually see tears run down
the corner of her eye I hold her hand.
Ziyanda: Are you ok Pamella?baby you're shaking?
She starts breathing heavily like she is having trouble
breathing mom takes the oxygen mask and put it on her she
starts breathing normal again and fall asleep immediately
after that.
Ziyanda: Do you know if she had one of those before, the
panic attacks?
Me: Yes she had one before and I was with her.
Ziyanda: Then I need to monitor her closely, that is
dangerous especially now that she's pregnant.
Me: She is just worried that you might say something is
wrong with the baby.
Ziyanda: Should I continue doing the ultrasound while she is
asleep?
Me: Yes please.
Mom starts moving that wand thing around her belly
because gel was already there when she had a panic attack.
I hear loud sounds and I see mom smiling shaking her head.
Ziyanda: Oh you're a Gumede alright..
Me: Uhm what is it mom, what do you see in there?
Ziyanda: You guys can't get away from these multiples,
Misokuhle was strong I guess.
She is still looking at the screen.
Me: Are you going to tell me what is going on Mom?I didn't
hear a word you said right now.
She raise her hand to three.
Me: Mom come on.
She wipes the gel off ella and pull down the dress.
Ziyanda:That bed is more comfortable.
Me: I will pick her up.
I pick ella up and put her in that comfortable bed and cover
her a little then sit down in front of mom who is smiling so
much.
Me: Really mom?
Ziyanda: Ok I just get over the excitement man the trouble
we are still going to face Gosh!
I stare at her.
Ziyanda: Ok!uhm you and Ella said you used one egg and was
fertilized by one sperm right?
Me: Yes that's how doctor Moore explained it.
Ziyanda: Now that means Ella is carrying three identical
triplets.
Me: Say what now?
Ziyanda: I know man i'm just too emotional right now, you
know Ntsika was having triplets too but a little girl was a
stillborn.
Me: Oh I didn't know.
Ziyanda: She was the only girl amongst boys.
Me: So you mean we will have three babies at the same time
mom?
Ziyanda: Yep potentially identical that would be so awesome.
Me: What!?
Ziyanda: Have you seen how sneaky Mnqobi and Manqoba
are because they are identical?now imagine three identical
boys, three!
Me: They are boys?
Ziyanda: I only saw one but since this is one egg and one
sperm situation it means they are all boys.
I get up and move around the room.
Me: Mom you're not joking right?
She smiles.
Ziyanda: I am not, that is why I said you're a true Gumede
you guys with multiples ni so..
She says crossing her fingers.
I cannot believe this woah man that is what I was hoping for,
I was even gonna suggest doctor Moore use two eggs but
then Ella had already done it with only one I was still happy
but then you know the multiplication that happens in those
bellies man.
I go around the table and hug mom.
Me: I am so happy right now I feel like crying tears of joy.
Ziyanda: You can cry baby.
My tears make their way out of my eyes, she smiles wiping
them and hug me again..
Ella moves in bed I rush to her.
Pamella:Hey is the baby ok Landi, please tell me everything
is fine.
Me: They are ok baby..
Pamella: They?
Me: We are having multiples.
Pamella: Multiples being...
Me: Three, triples.
Pamella: Don't lie uhm Doctor,can we do another scan please
I'm sorry to bother you but I don't believe her she plays too
much sometimes.
Mom smiles.
Ziyanda: It's ok Landile help her to this bed.
I help her get in bed.
Mom do the scan again..
Ziyanda: Those heartbeats are crazy man.
Pamella: So there is really three of them?
Ziyanda: Yes..
She starts crying, I wipe the gel on her stomach and pull her
up hugging her tight.
Me: I told you everything is ok babe.
Pamella: Thank you so much.
Me: No..thank you ella..thank you.
We go to her house.
Me: Let me go home a little i'll come back later ok.
Pamella: Ok.
Me: I will bring dinner so don't cook.
Pamella: I will just make something quick I am hungry right
now.
Me: Ok I will also bring what you will eat in the middle of the
night.
She laughs and step out of the car, I step out hugging her and
my hands goes to her ass, she moans sending shivers down
my spine.
Me: Mmmm babe I need to go dad and the brothers are
leaving I want to see them before they go.
Pamella: Ok hurry back I love you.
Me: And I love all four of you.
I get in the drivers seat of her car and drive home, I find dad,
the brothers and my brothers already outside I step out of
the car.
Me: Hello.
Luyolo: Where are you coming from we almost left without
seeing you?
Me: I went to mom.
Luyolo: You still work there?
I laugh.
Me: No for ultrasound and guess what.
Ntsika: I know I know it's twins right.
Me: Even better, triplets!
Langa: You're lying.
I take out the scan pictures and give it to them.
Ntsika: Gumede, Phakathwayo, Qwabe, uMnguni kaYeyeye
awu sukaninini madoda!(he sings the clan praises)
Luyolo: Congratulations, come here.
He hugs me tight, and his brothers shake my hand and
shoulder hug me.
Me: Dad tell great aunt to give them those Zulu names that
are deep you know, those deep and ugly names.
Lucian: Hey why?
Me: Think outside the box..
Ntsika starts laughing so hard.
Ntsika: she means you're ugly.
Lucian: Not me..
Luscious: And never me.
I laugh.
Me: Bye creepy twins and bye handsome dad.
Luyolo: Yep that's me.
They get in the car and drive off.
Ntsika: Blessing after blessing, thank you father,thank you
Jesus.
We look at him weirdly.
Ntsika: What!? I do pray unlike every damn last one of you.
Me: Did he just say damn after a prayer?
Langa: Yes he did..
We walk inside the house and chill a little.
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LANGA
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
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LANGA
*
My husband and I haven't been spending much time
together because he works a lot the only thing I do is bring
him lunch to work even right now I am on my way there, I
walk in and find him busy on his computer.
Me: Babe hey.
He smiles and get up, we hug and I take a seat while he sit on
a desk infront of me.
Me: You have been quite busy lately.
Sfiso: Yeah work is piling up and we are hiring more
Securities because one of our flats was burglarized but at
least no one was hurt.
Me: Oh, I thought we were drifting apart my heart was
breaking.
Sfiso: I'm sorry if I haven't been giving you enough attention
babe I didn't mean for you to feel like i'm neglecting you, i'm
sorry Langa.
Me: It's ok but I miss you.
I say moving my hands on his thighs, he groans loosening his
tie smiling.
Sfiso: It's getting hot in here..
Me:You wanna lock the door?
He get up I can already see his dick print. I get up to close the
blinders and take off my shirt standing by the window he is
by the door. He takes off his blazer then the shirt we are both
naked on our upper bodies we are looking into each other's
eyes in this distance, we take off our pants now we are butt
naked still standing at a distance, he look down on his hard
dick and stroke it a little, I stroke mine at the exact same
pace as him, we are groaning while looking at each other, we
quicken the pace I feel myself getting close, my dick twitches
as I cum, he cum as well but our dicks are still up.
Sfiso: Fuck..
He take quick steps towards me and kiss me hungrily then
kiss my neck then turns me around I balance my hands on
the wall, I feel him grabbing my butt cheeks apart then feel
spit running down my anus then he rubs it..I feel the tip as he
slides his dick in..
Sfiso: Fuck..
He says holding my neck tight then start moving fast..
Me: Shit..aah Sfiso.
Sfiso: We are never drifting apart babe..fuck this feels so
good..come on babe..
He continues to move faster then step back I turn around, he
is sweating looking so dark and handsome.
He pulls me towards him and kiss me moving us to the desk,
he makes me sit and pull my leg to his shoulder while staring
down at me biting his lower lip, he thrust in then out.
Sfiso: I feel you babe..
Me: Then fuck me, hard..
He doesn't wait for me to say it twice he shove it in and pull
my neck, we are kissing while he is giving me rough strokes..
Sfiso: Babe fuck yeah...aah shit..just hold me tight baby i'm
cuming aaah Langa..
I hold his back tight as he gives me two more slow strokes
and pull out, we kiss for a while then he sit down on his chair
catching his breath..
Sfiso: That was crazy hot!
Me: I can not get over how good you fuck..
He smiles and look at my dick..
Sfiso: That turns me on, it looks good and so clean, I can just..
He lick his lips I stand in front of him my dick is in front of
him, he is looking at it licking his lips.
Me: You can have it..
His hands move to my butt and pull me towards his face then
his warm lips covers my dick, he keeps sucking my dick
while squeezing my butt..
Me: Shit yes, aah yes babe.
I move back a little and stare down at him smiling he shakes
his head smiling back.
Me: Come on..
I pull his hand and kiss him then push him to the desk put
his knee ontop of the desk and suck his balls.
Sfiso: Langelihle...
He says on a low voice...I lick my finger then finger him and
massage his balls..
I spit in my hand and rub it on my dick then slide it all in..
Me: Fuck..
I hold his waist and move faster..
Sfiso: Aaah yes babe shit..that's good Langa that's it babe..
I give him fast strokes without stopping until I cum hard my
knees shake as I grab his tight butt cheeks.
Me: Eish...sshhh fuck..
I stagger back a bit..
He turns around and kiss me like he wants to do something
again..
Sfiso: Just give me one more round babe please..you're so
good.
And I give him alright he has me holding on to the desk as he
comes from behind hard until he cums.
We wipe our self and I open the window a little it's really hot
in here.
Me: That was good..
Sfiso: I know right babe, I love you so much.
Me: I love you too.
We get dressed and I fix his suit and tie.
Me: Uhm I got that E-mail Sir, you remember the march
Sbosh was talking about?
Sfiso: Oh yeah I had forgotten about it.
Me: They said it's this Saturday and there is a poster let me
show you.
I get up and stand next to him showing him the poster, I feel
his hand on my dick..
Me: Really Sfiso?
Sfiso: I'm sorry I got distracted a bit.
Me: Then focus babe.
It is a poster and it has us as guest speakers they put our
wedding picture in there, "Langa kaSfiso".
Me: Are we doing it?
Sfiso: Yeah why not.
Me: Prepared speech?
Sfiso:No I don't think we need that we will speak from the
heart, from experience that's what people want to hear.
Me: Ok I hear you, can I stay with you we will go home
together.
Sfiso: Yes babe I love having you around.
Me: Our babies are coming soon.
Sfiso: And I am thinking of taking time off from work once
they come.
Me: Will they agree?
He smile.
Sfiso: I wanted to tell you over our special dinner tonight.
Me: We have a special dinner?
Sfiso: Yeah just the two of us.
Me: Uhm and what is it you were going to tell me?
Sfiso: I know you already had shares in Lukhele properties
since you guys were kids so your uncles allowed me to buy
more shares and combined it with yours, the shares are both
in our names.
Me: Oh wow that is great hey.
Sfiso: Yeah so I think they can allow me to take maybe a
month on two leave because I'm not just an employee
anymore I am part owner.
Me: You make good decisions for us babe I am proud of you
and what you have become
Sfiso: I heard your mom secured your future when you were
kids and that is exactly what I am trying to do for our kids.
Me: I am blessed to be married to a man like you.
Sfiso: Yeah we have to knock off early so we won't be late for
our dinner date.
Me: Ok.
He carry on working while we talk..we hear a knock on the
door..
Sfiso: Come on in.
A lady in long heels and very short dress walk in and stand
next to me.
Her: Hello Sir uhm I heard that you guys are hiring.
I look at her, Sfiso chuckles.
Sfiso: Uhm yeah but we took online applications and we are
hiring securities.
Her: Oh yes I understand that and I googled you guys and I
saw that there's no receptionist and with a company this
huge dealing with hiring securities and owning properties I
thought you might need one.
Me: You did your research huh?
Her: Yes uhm Langa right I didn't think you too work here.
Me: oh no I came to see my husband over there.
Her: See that's what I am talking about, you need someone
like me to avoid these kind of situations, to seperate your
work from your personal life, you can't just have visitors
during your work hours.
Me: Hey lady what's your name?
Her: Yalelwa Sir.
I nod.
Me: Right Yalelwa ke listen to me and listen to me good, I
don't know you and where you come from ok, so now I will
ask you, do you understand that my grandpa is the founder
of Lukhele properties right?
Yalelwa: I understand that..
Me: Ok and you do know that the company is now owned by
my father and my uncles?
She nods.
Me: And wena you think with those heels and that dress you
can come in here and tell us how to run this company?
Yalelwa: No I am just telling you that in a working
environment we don't just do unnecessary visits to our
spouses.
Me: Then baby girl start your own company and make your
own rules there, how about that?
Yalelwa: I really thought I will find a professional which is
that man in a suit.
Me: Thought you could seduce him? I can step outside but
i'm sure as hell he won't even look your way.
Yalelwa: I can turn any gay man straight.
Me: Not here babe.
Yalelwa: You are rude..
Me: So I have been told..
Yalelwa: You..
Sfiso: Hey! Sis get out of my office..
Yalelwa: That is not how a professional acts.
I look at Sfiso and we laugh out loud.
Me: You have issues little one.
Yalelwa: I will come back when you're alone.
Sfiso: I don't think they will allow you in anymore.
Yalelwa: Why not?
Sfiso: Because the professional will tell them not to, you're
crazy, turning a gay man straight with what?turn around and
walk your small behind out.
She clicks his tongue and walk out leaving us laughing.
Me: She is really crazy, you know she started off good then
completely lost it.
We laugh.
Sfiso: No one can make me turn straight if turning "straight"
means losing you.
I smile. He checks the time on his watch and pack up his
things.
Sfiso: I don't want us to be late babe, let's go home.
We get in our seperate cars and drive home, we go straight
in our room and take a shower he leaves me there and step
out, I step out after a while and find him taking out the
clothes we will wear, he gives my black pants and white shirt
and he wears the same.
Sfiso: You will find me in the car.
He walk out, maybe he thought I forgot this day, the day I
said "so should I call you baby?" the first day we actually
agreed to try and explore our feelings, the day we slept on
the same bed. I take the watch and walk out, I find him
standing next to his car holding the door open on the
passenger seat, I smile and get in, he close the door and get
in the drivers seat, he drives out all the way to some resort
along the beach .
I can see a tent that has lights on the sand and two people
are standing near it.
He takes my hand and walk on sand with our shiny black
shoes and we reach the tent that has a decorated table.
The two people pull out chairs for us and we take seats, I am
smiling looking at him.
They give us menus while pouring wine in our glasses then
walk away.
Sfiso takes my hand.
Sfiso: I love you.
A waiter comes and take our order then walk away again.
Me: It feels good to be here babe, the sea breeze, this is a
calm environment.
Sfiso: I am glad you like it.
We eat in silence with him just looking at me and smiling, I
hear a click sound and I look there is someone taking
pictures.
Sfiso: I hired them I want us to tell our kids our journey with
pictures in it.
Me: God blessed me.
Sfiso: I feel blessed too.
They pour us more wine.
Me: Uhm who is going to drive us back home?
Sfiso: I booked us a room we will leave tomorrow morning.
Me: Ok thank you for this.
He take my hand.
Sfiso: I remember two years back this exact day a day before
my birthday you said you guess we can try this out, my life
changed for the better and the worst then the better again
but because I love you it was all worth it, good or bad I
appreciate everything we've been through because it led us
here today, I give you this ring to wear on your right hand
because I never want you to take off the ring we said our
vows with, this one is to remind us where we've been where
we are today and where we will be in future, I love you
Langelihle Langa you are my life.
He put the ring on my right hand, I hold his hand tight
smiling.
I take out the watch.
Me: I always buy watches for you, be it your birthday or buy
it just because I would love seeing you wear it, but this one is
special it has a deep meaning to it, it shows appreciation and
honour, that through the ups and downs we're still here and
going strong each day, learning new things about ourselves
everyday, I love you Sfiswesihle Langa and thank you for
doing this for me.
I show him the watch I had it customised with small
alphabets of both our names.
Sfiso: Thank you, I thought you didn't remember.
Me: I will never forget the day I actually stopped fooling
myself and agreed to give us a chance after you wanted to
kiss me everyday.
He smiles and the camera man was taking pictures every
single time.
We take the wine bottle and glasses and go to our room and I
see my bag ontop of the bed.
Me: How did it get here?
Sfiso: I know you have trouble wearing the same clothes so I
packed for us and I told them to bring it in here.
I nod we go take a shower and wrap towels around our waist
then drink wine looking out the window it's dark but there
are lights facing the sea.
I feel his hand on my dick.
Sfiso: There was the day you wanted us to have a milestone
of fucking while looking at the ocean right.
I smile looking at him.
Sfiso: We're about to create that milestone today..
He unwraps my towel and his we start kissing touching each
other everywhere, we get up and he comes behind me
brushing and slaping my butt..
Sfiso: That view is perfect hey.
He says speaking on my ear.
Me: Fuck..yeah..
Sfiso: Just like this one back here.
He start kissing my spine I shiver..he moves his tongue all
the way down to my butt and bite both cheeks a little..
Me: Sfiso..
He get up seperate my legs and shove his dick in slowly.
Sfiso: Don't lose focus baby, we are creating memories here
tonight ok..
He says moving so slow his hand rub my dick a little.
Sfiso: Fuck.. Langa..
Me: Yeah..
Sfiso: Just say my name babe..
He says moving a bit faster..
Me: Sfiso..
I groan as I feel the tip touching that hot spot causing my
dick to twitch..
Sfiso: Yeah that's right baby..ngiyakthanda Langelihle (I love
you Langelihle)
I cum and he strokes once and groan loud pulling out..
We go to bed and I sleep on top of him.
Me: You make my life feel brand new Sfiso, my love for you
grows everyday.
Sfiso: I feel the same with you babe, you make life more
meaningful.
We sleep in each other's arms, I wake up first and go to the
bathroom to take a shower then go back to bed getting ontop
of him.
I move his legs up and slide my dick in, he groans while
closing his eyes.
Me: Look at me baby, open your eyes..
I say slow thrusting in him,he slowly open his lazy eyes
looking at me as I up the pace then collapse on top of him
after cuming.
Me: Morning.
He wraps his arms around me.
Sfiso: Hey babe, what time is it?
Me: 6:00am.
Sfiso: Ok let me take a shower, you will drop me off at work .
Me: Ok.
I kiss his lips and move away from him.
He go to the bathroom while I take out his clean tshirt and
pants then pack what we were wearing yesterday.
I drop him off at work and drive home.
I step inside the lounge and find Nadia eating as usual.
Me: Hey food killer.
Nadia: Hey food killer yourself, you didn't eat dinner with us
yesterday.
Me: We wanted to be alone somewhere and reconnect.
Nadia: Was there a disconnection?
I laugh.
Me: Mxhm no, so where is PamellaK?
Nadia: Sleeping, she eats more than me now those babies are
trouble.
Me: Of course they are, they are yours.
Nadia: Mxm you're too foward.
Me: So when are they starting a shelter?
Nadia: They found the building that was abondoned but it
wasn't that bad, it just needs the Municipality to fix pipes
and supply water now they are busy with paintings.
Me: Things are moving fast.
Nadia: Yes because it's my money that I am using I was going
to ask for 50 million.
I laugh.
Nadia: I am serious my life was in danger, I was away from
the people I love for three fucken months, the team they
combined for me was useless well at least there was Indigo
he was better, I used my brains and skills in there saved a lot
of girls and also used my uncle's jet and on top of that my
fathers helped me on that mission, I deserve more than 50
million bro so they have to move that shelter fast it's the
least they could do.
Me: You can talk yhoo...
Nadia: One of the reason God created a mouth for.
Me: Yeah right..
Dad and his brothers walk in, I still can't believe Lucian and
Luscious are related to us man we've known them since we
were kids.
Nadia: Please have a seat and tell me what I want to hear..
Luyolo: What is it you want to hear?
Nadia: The names of the creepy twins.
Dad laughs looking at them.
Luyolo: They can't pronounce their names right.
Langa: Are they bad?
Luyolo: No it's just them not knowing how to say them.
Nadia: Tell us.
Luyolo: Lucian is Nqubeko and Luscious is Nqaba.
Nadia: So dad you didn't tell Great aunt my message about
giving them ugly names?
I laugh.
Nadia: I am disappointed in you wow, Lucian can you say
Nqu-be-ko.
Lucian: I have been practicing.
He says it so bad Nadia is laughing.
Luscious: uhm so Luh when are we taking these off.
He points at the goat skin around his wrist.
Luyolo: They will come off on their own.
Lucian: Oh we are going back to colombia tomorrow
morning.
Luyolo: Oh.
Dad look disappointed a bit.
Luyolo: I can take you to the airport tomorrow morning.
Luscious: Thank you, you will come fetch us from Carl's
house.
Luyolo: can't you guys sleep here we will go early to fetch
your stuff at Carl's.
They look at each other then at dad.
Lucian: Ok we will sleep here, thanks.
Me: Uhm are you willing to give dad a chance to be your
brother or you just came to go home then leave?
Lucian: We have always been brothers.
Nadia: But you know what he means right now.
They look at dad.
Lucian: Do you want that Luh?
Luyolo: I do, I know now you're old but we can get along like
how blood brothers do and you can come visit me anytime
here.
Luscious: We will do that, thanks for doing this for us I slept
peacefully last night.
Luyolo: I am happy to hear that..
Sfiso come back home and we go to our room.
Me: So babe tomorrow what are we wearing in this march?
Sfiso: I am not sure you know.
Me: Well I guess we are not wearing anything.
He laughs.
Sfiso: Just find something that will make us look presentable.
Me: How about you do it babe.
He smiles.
Sfiso: But babe you're good at this.
I roll my eyes and open our closet, I take out a navy-blue
blazer for him and a white shirt with blue jeans, then take
out a white shirt, black blazer and black jeans we don't want
to be too formal.
Sfiso: Look at that, you did it babe.
He said kissing my cheek.
Me: Stop playing with me.
We get in bed, I get on top of him and we do a little rubbing
here and there then fall asleep.
I wake up the next morning and iron our things a little then
take a shower, I go make breakfast for us and go back to our
room, I wake him up, we eat and he takes a shower get
dressed and he start at the office for some work and we go
attend this March, Sfiso drives there and we find everyone
closing on the street and they are wearing tshirts on
different colours written LGBTQI community and a lot of
things all over it, then they move outside a city hall, they
start singing and chanting.
We see sbosh standing in front of everyone there is a podium
here, wow..
Sbosh: Uhm hello everyone, we have been doing this march
every year to free our community from violence and
discrimination, we want to live freely and walk around
proud of who we are and not be scared to live out there, and
today we have guest speakers the people most gay people
look up to we have read their story on papers and
magazines but today they are here live, everyone welcome
Langelihle Gumede Langa and Sfiswesihle Langa.
We step out of the car and walk towards him, the crowd
cheer, scream and clap some are whistling.
Sbosh: I was holding my breath I thoughy you guys didn't
come.
Me: Oh we're here alright, we don't break promises.
Sbosh: Thank you.
Me: You will start?
Sfiso: No you start babe.
We stand next to each other looking at everyone they are
quiet now not saying a word just staring at us with smiles
and maybe admiration.
Me: Good day everyone, most of you knows us I am Langa
loka Sfiso, you know me like that huh?
They cheer and chant 'yeah'
Me: You guys have read our story and it seems like it touch
each and everyone of you, it hasn't been easy ya'll,
homosexuality to many people is a curse, disgusting and
abormination, you know this that's why we have people who
hide who they are in their communities, and we call them
"after nines" not because they actually like living a lie but
they are scared of how everyone will take it, scared of telling
their parents because they even get judged by their very
own.
I step down from the podium and stand in front of them.
Me: I feel like i'm preaching up there, I want to ask how
many of you have hidden the fact that they are LGBTQI?
Almost half of them raise their hands.
Me: But this march is all about changing that huh?
Crowd: Yes.
Me: Together we can change the world, I appreciate this
march a lot ya'll are doing something amazing, we sweat so
that our kids will be free to be who they are, we are fighting
for the next generation so they can be able to hold hands in
public and be able to show off their partners, when we see
Sbosh wearing a mini skirt and say wow you look good just
like we do to any woman who feels like wearing a mini skirt,
we are fighting for equality to those who label themselves as
straight, we want the same treatment as them, and we wish
the world would listen but with this Pride I am sure our
freedom is near, thank you.
They clap their hands and Sfiso stands next to me and hold
my hand.
Sfiso: He is right, we all want to do this in public, I want to
hold his hand everytime in the mall in these streets of
durban without having people cussing and spiting on us,
without getting rude remarks, love is love, some are quick to
say a heart wants what it wants but they shy away from that
statement when they see Sfiso and Langa in love just
because it's a man and a man, and I ask myself who told
them that a heart is only supposed to love only the opposit
gender, it's time they know that if you don't like gays,
lesbians, transgender etc keep it to yourself, do not rape,
criticize or cuss at someone just because they are different
from what you believe in, you guys are amazing people and I
think it is really time for change, one last thing stop hiding
yourself to impress someone next to you, they will be happy
but you will be miserable your whole life and..
I look at the side I see Nadia walking towards us, they are
looking at her is Awe my sister is beautiful man!
Nadia: I'm sorry to disturb ya'll.
She lowers her voice.
Nadia: Sindi is in labour, Ntsika took her to the hospital, I
tried to call but your phones are off.
She walks away after waving at people who are screaming
on the crowd.
Me: Uhm i'm sorry we have to go, we are about to be parents.
They clap hands.
Sbosh; Congratulations do show us the pictures of the little
ones and thank you for coming and your wise words.
We shake hands and rush to the car driving to the hospital,
we walk straight to where Nadia shows us and find mom
there.
Nadia: Can I be here too.
Ziyanda: Yeah of course if the parents want to.
Me: Of course you are about to be an aunt right now.
We stand on the side of the bed but looks like Sindi doesn't
want to open her thighs.
Ziyanda: Come on Sindi don't do this..
She shakes her head she looks in pain but it's like she is
doing this on purpose.
Me: Are you trying to punish us Sindi just because I turned
you down?
Sindi: Oh fuck you, all of you..
Ziyanda: We can do this the easy way or the hard way, what
you're doing is crime you are trying to kill these babies on
purpose..
Sindi: I don't care I can't watch the love of my life playing
happy families with another man with my babies.
I look at Sfiso I am sweating, I am scared of what Sindi is
doing right now.
Nadia: Ok listen I am done with this shit it's either you work
with us here or I will just tear your flesh apart and get those
babies out you choose baby girl.
She speaks right on her face looking so deadly she is also
sweating.
Nadia: I am not playing with you, I don't like you and I never
did so please make this easy for me to kill you, you piece of
shit..
I see her slowly opening her thighs and the nurse next to
mom looks terrified.
Mom checks and tell her to push but she doesn't push at all.
Nadia: Mom I am done with this shit, just inject her and do a
c-section, we will leave her at the table to die with an open
womb.
Sindi: Ok Ok I will push, I will push..
Nadia: Then do it I have little patience right now..
Mom counts for her and she starts pushing and pushing, we
hear the first baby cry mom give the nurse next to her..
Ziyanda: Breathe in and out babe then give me your best ok..
Sindi nods and start breathing then push screaming loud. I
am holding Sfiso's hand tight I have never been so scared in
my life.
She push another baby then the last one.
Nadia: See you needed a little push so you can push those
babies out, now did you die?
She says to a tired looking Sindi, and I don't want to laugh
after what almost happened here or rather what Sindi
wanted to do here, the girl is crazy.
They clean the babies up and Sfiso and I walk up to them.
Ziyanda: They boy came out first then the two little girls.
Me: She looks smaller than her sister.
Ziyanda: Oh she will grow up perfectly baby, there's nothing
wrong with her.
Nadia: Babies are
tiny yhoo i have never been this small ever.
Ziyanda: Everyone starts here Landile.
Nadia: Nop I don't think so.
I chuckle.
Me: Can we hold them.
Ziyanda: Yes.
Nadia: Ntsika went back home to take the bags we were in a
rush man.
I pick up the boy first and look at him.
Me: Are you naming them babe?
Sfiso: All of them?
I nod.
Sfiso: The boy is Qhawe, that pretty and calm lady there is
Qhawekazi and Nkosazana the tiny princess.
I smile.
Me: Qhawe, Qhawekazi and Nkosazana Langa.
Sfiso: They are all light skinned.
Me: Maybe because they are still babies, Qhawe might turn
out dark as he grow up or maybe the egg donor is stronger
than the both of us.
Sfiso: Can't wait to see their eyes man.
Me: Still on those blue eyes?
Nadia: Oh look at that Princess opened her eyes a little.
Sfiso: Did you see the colour of her eyes?
I laugh.
Nadia: Sky blue..
Sfiso: Yes!
Me: Should I be worried babe when we meet someone with
blue eyes?
Sfiso: Well I don't know..
He laughs.
Me: I am about to lose my husband.
Ziyanda: Let me take them for a while guys, Ntsika needs to
tell me when their clothes are here.
She walks out wheeling them.
I hug Sfiso.
Me: Finally.
Sfiso: I love you babe, daddy kaQhawe..
Me: Daddy kaQhawekazi.
Nadia: Auntie ka Nkosazana.
Me: You like things too much wena..but thank you sis I don't
know what we were going to do in that situation.
Nadia: It takes threats to get someone like Sofia to
understand how serious a situation is, and i was going to kill
her, that wasn't a joke at all.
She comes out of the bathroom with a nurse and get back to
a clean bed and sleep facing up, she looks in pain.
Me: You know you need to get your head checked, I am not
saying this as an insult but it's serious I think you have
mental issues, we will give you the money we agreed on and
more so you can have go to a psychiatrist ok.
Sindi: I am sorry.
Me: That's ok, I am doing this because regardless of
everything you did, you still carried our babies to full term in
your womb so thank you.
She is crying.
Me: So where are you gonna go after this, you need your
family.
Sindi: I am from Ulundi I will go back home.
Me: Ok I hope you travel safe and stay away from friends
who wants to use you for their own personal vendetta,
you're better than that.
Sindi: Ok thank you.
Me: My husband will write you a cheque but there is cash we
will give you to get you home.
She nods.
We walk out when Ntsika has arrived and mom dress them
up and we see them one more time.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
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Who would have thought that Ziyanda's three little boys
would be here today, married with kids it's surreal.
I am happy that I am a father finally after my wife and I lost
two babies but we are here now, I'm Phiwe and Phiwo's
father I hope I raise them like how our father raised us, I
remember when we were young mom would do everything
for us before she goes to campus she would come to our
room and tell us that she is not neglecting us but doing this
to have a bright future and I see it now I want that for my
boys and also my brothers's and sisters's kids.
I am looking at Miyah as she do squats in our room she is
sweating and my boys are sleeping next to me, I sit up..
Me: "Are you trying to turn me on Miyah, if yes then it's
working."
We haven't had sex yet our kids are turning four months
today.
Miyah: Babe come on I am trying to get my butt back.
Me:"But it was never gone, and please tell me that today we
are starting to have sex."
Miyah: I said six months Star that's what my mom said.
Me: "Just tell me if I am being punished."
Miyah: I was gonna suck your dick but the kids are here.
I grin shaking my head.
Me: "Uhm will it be a problem if we try at least anal sex."
She laugh.
Miyah: Anal sex is still sex Star.
Me: "Have mercy on me babe please."
She check on the babies next to me, her stomach is flat she
worked out maybe the second week after giving birth.
She takes my hand we go to the bathroom, she unzip my
pants and stroke my dick I hold on the sink behind me, she
start licking the tip of my dick I look up holding my breath..
She starts sucking me so hard that I almost lose balance, I
grab her hair and thrust in her mouth faster and step back
when I feel cum splashing out of my dick, she get up to kiss
me then step back..
Miyah: You promise you will just put a tip not the whole
thing right?
I smile and nod.
She takes off her trackpants then sit on the table here in the
bathroom and open her legs, she is still wearing a panty, she
moves it to the side, lick her finger then finger herself once.
Miyah: Just a tip.
She says biting her lips, I remove my shirt and my pants then
stand in front of her..
Miyah: A tip babe or we are not going further ok.
I nod, yhoo.
We are both looking at our private parts, I move slowly
holding my dick then insert the tip then pull it out..
Miyah: Yes..
I do that a couple of times, my body is shaking I want all of
her but this is also fine it's been too long..
She starts rubbing her clit while I continue to stare at her
pussy putting just a tip, I can see white fluid coming out of
her pussy, my whole body shakes, she stares at me.
Miyah: You want more huh?
I wipe my sweat..
Me: "Please baby"
She shakes her head, while cum still drip out of her pussy,
she balance her hands in the table and let me put on just the
tip again and move her waist in circles.
Me: "I can't do this baby, I can't."
I pick her up and slide the whole length in she hold me tight,
I pin her on the wall and pound on her faster, I feel her
digging her nails on my skin then a bite on my shoulder, I
cum same time with my body shaking so hard. I take off her
tank top and panty and get in the shower while she is still in
my arms, I open the tap and warm water falls on our bodies
while I slide my dick in again, her legs are on my arms I am
holding her butt tight moving her up and down my dick, I
feel those nails again, I release again, and we take a shower
she is giving me her back, I wash it and her whole body then
mine, we step out dry our bodies, she wraps a towel around
her body and I wear my boxers, we go back to our room and
find the boys still sleeping. Their mom drops the towel and
lotion her body slowly, she turns and bend lotioning her legs
up to her butt then slap it causing it to shake a little, this girl
is leading me into temptation on purpose, I get up and grab
her throat a little her ass is on my crotch..she move her
hands to me and pull down my boxers and shake her butt on
it then move away from me wearing her night dress, I look at
her in disbelief, she move the kids to their beds next to ours
and get in bed, I pull up my boxers.
Me: "Babe why did you do that."
Miyah: "I told you to just put on a tip but you shoved your
whole dick in Star."
Me: "You saw I was shaking and sweating like an addict
because of that Miyah did you want me to die."
Miyah: "You wasn't gonna die you just lack patience."
Me: "Why did you allow me to do a second round if you
didn't enjoy when I put it all in?"
Miyah: "Leave me alone wena."
Me: "Admit you enjoyed it I even have bruised shoulder from
your bite which meant you enjoyed every bit of it."
Miyah: "I was telling you to stop."
I shake my head smiling.
I nod and pull down my boxers, I see her mouth hung
open,it's up and hard, I move my thumb in my tip then go to
the bathroom stroking it, I sit down on the chair and
continue to stroke it and the door swings open as she take
off her nightdress fast and sit on my lap and her pussy walls
clenches my dick, she bounce on it shaking her ass side to
side up and down, her nails are moving everywhere on my
uppers body it's painful but pleasurable at the same time, I
slap her butt grabbing it tighter digging my own nails on it,
she completely lose it she move her waist faster causing me
to explode deep in her, she kiss my lips and get up, we wipe
ourselves and go back to bed after checking on the little
ones.
Me: "I don't ever want anyone else but you."
Miyah: "They won't satisfy you even when they try, star me
and you understands our bodies, we connect sexually, you
feed on the pain I give you when we are in that world, you
love my nails digging on your skin, when I bite you,
everything."
Me: "Just like when I slap your butt hard and dig my own
nails on it, it intensify the sexual desire in you we give each
other the pleasure our bodies crave for."
This is real, before we couldn't really have amazing sex
without fighting and hitting each other first but I think we
found that we can get in the moment without fighting but
give each other that sexual pain while we are already in the
zone, that is why I find my body bruised most of the time
after sex and her butt is always red but we are fine with that,
maybe it's our fantasy at least we are both in it, she can just
pinch my thigh and I will be aroused, it's normal to us maybe
abnormal to others but she's my wife and I am her husband
what happens in our bedroom is our business.
She sit up and look at me.
Miyah: Are we still going home to show my mother her
grandkids?
I nod.
Me: "We will leave tomorrow and sleep over."
She smiles looking at me, my woman is beautiful and I
wouldn't trade her for nothing not even a voice, I have my
brother who is my voice and I am good with that."
Me: "I wanted us to talk about something."
She nods.
Me: "I want to open an account for all our children."
Miyah: "All of them?"
I nod, she nods with me.
Me: I will put money in it once a month so that if anything
happens to any of us their future will be secured like how
mother did when we were young."
Miyah: That's a great idea but how about you take the money
from the School in South Coast and save that money for kids,
we don't really use it.
I have a school in South Coast and it's a private school for
normal kids and that one is not free, I needed something for
my kids too but I made sure that everyone with disability
who needed shelter they live for free and not pay a cent and
that was the goal I achieved it, so the other schools are just
my hustles and you take your kids there by choice if you
can't afford it I help you find another alternative, that is my
hustle on the side to feed my kids.
Miyah: You guys have a lot of kids let me write their names
down.
She get up open the drawers and take out a pen and a paper
she comes to bed.
*Sage-Khosi-Manqoba -Nqoba-Ntando-Thando-Phiwa-
Phiwo-Kayise-Qhawe-Qhawekazi-Nkosazana-Iviwe- plus
three more to come.
She writes like that I smile shaking my head that's a lot of
them.
Me: That is why I want to start now to save for them maybe I
can build another school that can be on their names, and it's
a good thing you put Iviwe as well she is our kid, Qhayiya
and Iyana already have their own.
Miyah: "What you're doing is beautiful baby, not leaving
anyone out.
Me: "We are one, no Gumede child will go hungry even when
we are gone, the legacy lives on that is why I am building
these schools it's for generations to come.
She nods.
Miyah: Not only you have a lovely dick, you have a lovely
heart as well.
I stare at her, this woman is crazy.
Miyah: Oh yes baby your dick is gorgeous and delicious.
Me: "Miyalo."
She laughs hugging me.
Me: "Let's go to bed we have a trip to take tomorrow."
She nods and get in bed, she sleep on my chest I brush her
head till she falls asleep.
I wake up the next morning the kids smell clean next to me
they are looking at each other, their mom already gave them
a bath, she come out of the bathroom with a hair dryer.
Miyah: Are you drying my hair?
Me: "Is it ok with the kids around?"
Miyah: Take them to Nadia and Pammy.
I nod and take both of them and knock with my foot on their
bedroom,my sister opens in her sweat pants and sport bra
looks like she is coming from gym.
Landi: You can come in.
I walk in and find Pamella sitting up in bed she smiles as
soon as she see the twins.
I give one to her and one to Landi.
Me: "I will take them after a while."
I walk out I don't know if they got that but well.
I sit in bed and Miyah plug the hairdryer and I dry her hair, I
have done this for years since we started dating, she has long
hair and she prefers doing it here at home because she said
they hurt her at the salon, so I learned to do little things to
help her or she just put on those weaves.
I finish drying it and she hold it up for me to tie it, she get up
and put on her make up, I get dressed to my jeans, tshirt
then a jacket.
She wears her black dress just above her knees and I help
her with her heels.
Me: "You look pretty."
She smiles, she likes compliments about her beauty.
Miyah: Thank you, let's go take the kids so we can say
goodbye.
We walk to Landi's room and find her dancing with Phiwo in
her arms Pamella is laughing holding Phiwe in bed.
Miyah: What are you doing, you want my son to be crazy like
you?
Landi: Look at him he is smiling he likes these moves.
I smile shaking my head,we take the babies and say goodbye
to everyone and drive to Miyah's home.
We finally get there and Phiwo was restless all the way
there, we drive in step out of the car and walk in.
We walk in and find Miyah's mother and her sister who is
not so little anymore here, we haven't seen her in a while
because Miyah asked if we could take her to my private
school it has a boarding house.
Miyah: Sanibona.
Her sister rush to take Phiwo from me and Miyah give her
mom Phiwe.
Mama: Niyaphila kodwa ndodana?(Are you all well son?)
I nod.
Me: "Siyaphila ninjani." (we're fine how are you."
Mama: Siyaphila.?we're fine. They look like you.
I smile nod.
They play with the kids and Miyah go to the kitchen to
prepare tea for everyone.
Later we go to bed with the babies inbetween us.
Me: "I love you."
Miyah: I love you too babe,I wish these two slept with mom, I
miss you so bad.
Me: "So we are officially having sex again?"
She smile shaking her head, I don't know what that means.
Next morning we bath, eat breakfast then Miyah gives her
mom cash.
Miyah: Buy yourself something nice mom..
She doesn't look ok.
Miyah: Mama..
Mama: Sit down Miyah.
She sit next to me.
Mama: Why is it that you don't ask about your father
anymore?
Miyah: Because I gave up mama, I asked you so many times
but you just didn't want to tell me, I'm okay now I don't want
to know anymore.
Mama: Ok.
Miyah: Why are you asking me that?
Mama: Because I see now that I have been wrong, your
father and his wife died a long time agk and they left their
daughter, your sister, I kept you away from them because I
was bitter, he lied to me about not being married but I found
out he had a family but he wanted to be part of your life I
couldn't let him.
Miyah: Oh so where is that sister?
Mama: I don't know, I heard that she got married years back.
Miyah: She is older than me?
Mama: Yes.
She nods.
Mama: After I heard her mother died I wanted to reach out
to her so she can have you, they didn't really got along with
their extnded family so I don't know who she was with then
but when I went there the neighbours told me she had
moved and she was older then.
Miyah: Oh, uhm we have to go now.
She get up and take Phiwe from her sister.
Me: "Babe don't you want to know at least her name or
surname."
Miyah: For what?
Me: "Miyalo sit down."
She sit back down and look at her mom.
Miyah: Do you know her name?
Mama: Yes her father called her Zobuhle but everyone called
her Pamella I met her when she was little.
Miyah: And the surname?
Mama: Kunene.
I look at Miyah and she looks deep in thoughts.
Miyah: I think I have met her.
Mama:You did?where?how did you know her?
Miyah: I am not sure but there is a Pamella who is about to
get married to my husband's sister so I think it's her, she is a
Kunene.
Mama: Oh Miyah I really wanted you to know each other but
I got there too late, she had no one.
Miyah: It's ok I understand, we react differently to some
situations I don't know what i'd do if Star would lie about
having a family out there when I thought it was just me.
Mama: I'm sorry child.
She nods, she side hug her mom because she has a baby in
her arms, they walk us out we shake hands and drive back
home, we get there when it's time for lunch, we put the baby
to sleep and I hug her.
Me: "Are you ok?"
Miyah: Yeah I am fine babe.
I take her hand we go eat lunch with everyone, Pamella smile
when she sees Miyah but she just keep her head down.
We sit down and eat everyone is talking.
Miyah stares at Pamella.
Miyah: Do you look like your mother or your father?
Pamella looks at her confused, she clears her throat.
Pamella: People used to say I looked like the both of them
but more like my father.
She nods.
Miyah: Was he a nice man?
Me: "You're making her uncomfortable Miyah."
Pamella looks like she wants to cry, she slowly get up and
take a few steps away from the table..
Miyah: Zobuhle, your name is Zobuhle?
Pamella stops on her tracks and turn to look at her, Landi get
up and stand in front of her looking straight in her eyes then
she nods and sit down.
Pamella: I am Pamella Zobuhle Kunene.
Miyah nods.
Pamella: No one called me that name except my father,
everyone called me Pamella.
Miyah: Yeah my mom told me.
Pamella: Your mother knows me?
Miyah: Yeah apparently your father lied about not having a
family or being married but mom found out that he had a
wife and a daughter which is you and she was already
pregnant with me then.
Pamella: I remember when I was young, mom and dad used
to talk about Miyalo but I didn't know who she was or what
she was to either of them.
Miyah nods, we continue eating no one say anything.
Landi: I did tell you that you and her act like sisters, she is a
protective little sister who acts older.
Pamella: Miyah I'm sorry dad lied to your mother.
Miyah: It's ok, i'm not angry if anything I am happy I have a
big sister.
They smile looking at each other.
Nadia: So we're in love with sisters big brother."
I smile.
We go to our room and change to go to the centre to check
on the kids. We find them eating and go to my office it's
opened, Miyah stops on her tracks and stare at me.
Me: "What is it?"
She shakes her head in disbelief.
Miyah: "That girl needs to go Nkanyezi."
Me: "Vuyi? but we haven't found a replacement yet."
She takes my hand and we walk in, we find her on the couch
her eyes are closed she has a huge black dildo deep in her
pussy, everything is out there, I want to look away but my
head doesn't want to move.
Miyah stands in front of her, she quickly get up and stand in
front of Miyah.
Vuyi: I...I am sorry.
I don't understand what is going on I called her and told her
I am coming to check on things I don't know why she is in
my office with legs spread open with that thing in her hands.
Miyah looks at me smiling with tears in her eyes, she shakes
her head and rush out, I look at Vuyi one more time and
follow Miyah I find her leaning on the car her handbag in on
the ground she is shaking. I step closer to her she slap me,
and slap me again.
Miyah: If I didn't insist on coming with you what was going
to happen Star, finding her in that position what were you
going to do!?
She is so anagry right now.
Me: "I was going to walk away Miyah."
She smiles shaking her head.
Miyah: No you were going to replace that dildo with your
dick..
Me: "Uyanginyela."(you're shitting on me.)
Now I am angry.
Me: "Do I look like a cheater?"
Miyah: How many times have this happened star since I gave
birth to our boys?how many times have you seen her pussy
when i'm not around!?
She is shouting.
Me: "I never..."
She slap me again I hold her neck she knee me on my crotch
I step back letting go of her neck, shit is painful as fuck..
Miyah: "You want to lie to me now Star, I know she has done
that before but you always give her chances she doesn't
deserve, deny it!
I open the car and sit down my legs are out, the pain is dying
down a bit now.
Me: "I saw her doing it once but I threw her out she came the
next day and apologised she said she won't ever do it again."
Miyah: Then what was that?did you enjoy watching her
when I wasn't around?
Me: "No baby I only grabbed her and threw her out."
Miyah: But today you enjoyed it you were fuckin staring at
her!
Me: "Babe I was shocked."
Miyah: That girl was moaning your name, she is obsessed
with you and if you don't chase her out of here I am leaving
you Star and I am taking my kids with me.
I get up and stand in front of her.
Me: "No please babe, let's go in there and tell her to pack her
things, I am sorry I should have listened to you."
Miyah: That crazy girl is moaning my husband's name, she
doesn't know me at all.
She throws her handbag in the car and walk back in, I slowly
follow her.
I find the helpers taking out the kids to the back, they look at
me.
Me: "I'm sorry about that, I am going to fix this."
Helper: It's ok sir the kids will be playing outside.
I walk to Vuyi's office and find Miyah pinning down Vuyi on
the couch and throwing punches at her, vuyi now has blood I
don't know if it's from the nose or mouth.
I pull Miyah back and shake my head.
Me: "Stop babe please."
Miyah: Do you want her Star huh?hey take off your clothes
right now and give him what you both want.
Me: "Don't fuck with me Miyalo."
I look at Vuyi.
Me: "Get up and clean up then come back to pack your stuff
and leave these premises."
Vuyi: "I am sorry I don't know what came over me."
Me: "You have said that a lot of times and I forgave you but
now I can't, what you're doing is disrespectful to me and my
wife, disrespectful to the helpers and the kids, what if they
came in there while your legs were spread like that, how
were you going to explain what you were doing?"
Vuyi: Star I..
Miyah: I will smack that useless face so bad continue calling
him Star you will see the gates of hell today!
Vuyi: I am so sorry sir.
I shake my head.
Me: "It's time for you to leave and if you try something crazy
you will never get a job anywhere I will make sure if it, now
go clean up and fuck off."
We go to my office Miyah locks the door and stand in front of
me, she slap me staring at me, I hold her just about her waist
on the sides and hold it tight sinking my nails on her while
staring at her, her eyes change I know what's coming I feel it
too, I let her go and push her away from me.
Me: "Not today."
Miyah: Why?you want something different now?
Me: "No, you hurt my balls Miyah."
Miyah: You wanted to kill me.
Me: "Do you want to see me kill you?"
She doesn't reply.
I push her to the desk and unzip my pants, and take off her
panty, I roughly slam into her and start thrusting roughly,
when I see that she is getting close I pull out and step back,
she is frustrated, I go back and slam into her again then pull
out, she is getting angry, I fix my pants and take her panty
putting it in my pocket and open the door Vuyi is standing
outside with a box that have her stuff.
Me: "Never step foot here again or I will call the police on
you."
She nods and walk away.
Me: "Let's go home."
I go at the back and tell the helpers that we're leaving then
walk out, Miyah is already in the car her head is on the
steering wheel. I get in on the passenger seat, she is crying,I
pull her making her sit on top of me.
Me: "I am sorry babe, I will listen to you now, I am sorry."
Miyah: I am scared, what if you were alone and slept with
her I wasn't going to forgive you.
Me: "I won't do that to you baby I love you, you fulfil my
sexual needs, you gave me kids and I wouldn't cheat for just
meaningless sex."
She hugs me crying on my shoulder I hold her tight, I don't
want to make my woman insecure ever, insecurities ruin
peoples relationships and I don't want us to be ruined she is
the mother of my kids and I love her so much, losing her
scares me.
I look at her.
Me: "What can I do to make you feel better?"
Miyah: Let's go home to our kids.
Me: "Ok let me drive."
I drive us home, we go to our room after taking the kids from
MmaKhumalo, we put them to bed.
Miyah: This means everything to me, you, our kids the whole
family, don't ever allow any girl to jeopardise what we have.
Me: "I would never do that, this means so much to me too my
love."
We stand there looking at our boys, I kiss her forehead and
hold her close.
Her phone rings and she rush to it.
Miyah: It's Loret she hasn't called us for years!
Miyah: Hello.
She keeps quiet for a while then look at me, I am looking at
her as she sit down and drop the phone.
Miyah: She says she is coming to get Sage today, she is
leaving going to Port Elizabeth.
Me: "Leaving with who?"
She shrug her shoulders.
Miyah: We haven't been in contact with her because we
couldn't reach her on the phone then suddenly she does
have our number and she calls to say only this, no
explanation on why she ignored Sage for years even after we
found out she wasn't at the hospital anymore.
Me: "What time did she say she is coming?"
Miyah: She is on her way.
I sit down next to her.
Her phone rings again and she answers.
Miyah: She is here.
We get up and go open open for her a car drive in as we are
standing at the veranda, she step out with an old man and
walk up to us.
She smiles and hug me then Miyah.
Loret: How are you?
Miyah: Fine.
Loret: This is Shaun my husband.
Oh she's married now.
I shake hands with this Shaun guy.
Loret: Thank you for everything you did for Sage, thank you
so much now I am here to take him home.
Me: "Home?"
Miyah: Where have you been Loret?
Loret: I was busy trying to find a warm home to bring my
son into.
Miyah: Couldn't you call to check on him after you came out
of the hospital?
Loret: I am sorry but it's hard not being able to provide for
your son so I had to make sure I come back for him when I
have everything I need.
Miyah: And that is him?
Loret: Yes, he will have step brothers and sisters he will be
well provided for and will have school we already found it
for him.
I look at Shaun he is smiling staring at my wife.
I shake my head and we let them in and Miyah call Sage, he
comes in and sit next to her holding her hand.
Loret: Hey Sage baby come say hi to mommy.
He doesn't move an inch.
Loret: Sage come on baby..
I look at him.
Me: "Say hi to your mother boy."
He just waves still holding on Miyah, he has grown now and
he is fine he knows everything about sign language and also
there are days when he is able to use his voice but some days
it doesn't come out but he is a good boy with good manners,
I love him.
Me: "You can hug her."
He slowly get up and give his mom a brief hug then go back
to Miyah.
Loret: You have grown so much taller and you look good too.
Sage this is Shaun my husband he is yoyr step father and we
are here to take you home.
Sage: "Home is here with Mom and dad, grandpa, grandma,
my brothers and sisters "
When he started growing up and coming out of his shell he
asked to call us mom and dad, but we always asked him
about his mom because we knew this day would come
sooner or later and it came later but it's here, he knows her,
he remembers why she left but doesn't understand why she
suddenly stopped calling and we didn't know too.
Loret: I am your mother and shaun will be your dad and we
will have a home bigger than where we used to stay.
Shaun: Go pack your things boy so we can go, our flight
leaves tonight.
Sage look at Miyah who is crying and wipe her tears.
Sage: "Should I go?"
Me: "She can't answer that son, she is your mother and she
want you back."
Sage: "But she stopped calling."
Me: "I am sorry."
Loret: "I am sorry but I wanted to be able to provide for you
and give you a better home."
Sage: "I was ok with our home you should have came back
we were gonna go back home, dad was going to help us like
he did before you got sick."
Loret: "But you are my responsibility not his baby."
Sage: "You left me with him he didn't mind at all I am sure he
wouldn't mind looking after me while you look for another
job, I have school and friends now I wasn't gonna be alone at
home again."
Loret: "I'm sorry, he is my husband he will give you what
Star was giving you."
Sage: "He can't, does he even understand me now?"
She look down.
Loret: Please talk to him, make him understand Miyah.
Shaun: You can't keep a child that is not yours.
Miyah: Don't talk like that, she left him with us.
Shaun: But now she wants him back.
Miyah: And we didn't protest.
Shaun: Then tell him to pack his bags so we can go.
Sage: I will go and pack..
He says like he is counting words, Miyah get up and they
walk away.
Ntsoaki walks in and greet then look at me.
Ntsoaki: "Should I make tea for your guests hubby?"
Me: "Yes please my wife, thanks."
Ntsoaki: "What about you?"
Me: "No I am good thanks."
She nods and go to the kitchen then come back with tea and
cakes they eat after thanking her.
Sage and Miyah walk in with suitcases.
Loret: Thank you..
They get up and Shaun drags the suitcases out , I get up and
stand in front of Sage.
Me: "This will always be your home, remember that."
Sage: "Thank you dad."
Me: "Call us everyday Sage."
Sage: "I will thank you for everything you have done for me."
We hug and he hugs the crying Miyah then walk out.
Loret: "Thank you so much, both of you you are amazing
people."
We nod and walk her out they drive out and Miyah leaves me
there and go to our room, I go to her and find her crying.
Miyah: I don't trust that man!.
Me: "But Loret trusts him, we don't have a say over Sage
than his mother"
Miyah: Today was a bad day for me..
She get in bed and cover her head.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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MIYALO
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I am sitting in bed with Phiwo in my arms, his brother is
sleeping and their Dad is in the bathroom.
He comes in with a towel wraped around his waist, I have a
phone in my hand, I am confused by something.
Me:Why hasn't he called it's been two days his phone is off
and so is the number Loret called me with.
I keep putting my phone in my ear then dial again.
Me: He should've called by now..
I put Phiwo next to his brother and hug Star.
Nkanyezi: "Maybe he is just settling in and getting used to
the place and his new family."
Me: I know you're worried too Nkanyezi, his phone is off
baby.
Nkanyezi: "I am worried but trying to be positive."
Me: Someone needs to call me and tell me if Sage is fine
because i'm about to lose it.
I move away from him and get dressed, we go eat breakfast
with the family.
Luyolo: Have he contacted you?
Me: No, his phone is not going through.
My phone rings I answer.
Me: Hello.
Shaun: Hello Miss we have arrived safe at home.
Me: Oh ok can I talk to Sage?
Shaun: Oh no he is asleep.
Me: oh tell him to call me when he wakes up then.
I drop the call.
Me: That Shaun guy called saying they travelled safe but I
can't talk to Sage because he is sleeping.
Qhayiya: But Sage wakes up early everyday.
Me: I know, that is what worries me.
Landi: Can you give me that number that called you Miss
Miyah.
I give her the phone and she dials it on her phone.
Landi: Uhm this is Miss Nadia speaking, is this Shaun?
She change her voice to this small sweet one, I want to laugh
but I can't.
Shaun: Yes it is.
Landi: I am calling regarding the inheritance.
Shaun: What inheritance?
Landi: Sage's inheritance I believe he is your wife's son.
Shaun: Where did you get my number?
Landi: Home affairs have all the information, Sir I need to
talk to Sage this is a lot of money we are talking about here.
Shaun: How much is it?
Landi: Can't tell you without talking to Sage please give him
the phone.
Shaun: Ok just give me five minutes.
He drops the call and Nadia look at me.
Landi: Sage understands Zulu right?
I nod.
Landi: And this Shaun guy is white?
Me: Yes.
Her phone ring, she answers.
Shaun: Sage is here, speak boy.
Sage: he-llo.
I try to talk but Landi stops me with her hand.
Nadia: Lalela boy uma usengozini isho noma umuphi
umubala yezwa.(listen boy if you're in danger say any colour
ok?)
Sage: R-ed.
I look at Star shaking my head.
Nadia: Ok lalela umtshele ukuthi imali oyinikwa uNkanyezi
le ebesikhuluma ngayo yezwa.(ok listen tell him we were
talking about the money you're given by Nkanyezi that we
were talking about.
Sage: Ok mtshe-le azo-ngi-la-nda.(ok tell him to come and
fetch me)
Nadia: Sizokwenza iplan sizoloku sifona, uthi imali kuphela
yezwa.(We will make a plan, we will keep calling keep saying
it's about money.)
My tears are falling I knew something is wrong.
Nadia drops the phone, Nkanyezi is on his feet I look at him.
Me: Did you hear that Star, he wants you to fetch him, he is in
danger Nkanyezi I told you I don't trust that guy.
Nadia get up and stand in front of us.
Nadia: He will bring him back himself, I know how people
are desperate for money out there.
Me: How?
Nadia: Let me call again.
She dials on her phone, he pick up immediately.
Shaun: Yes Miss Nadia.
Nadia: Ok listen we need the boy to sign some papers here in
Durban to be able to get all this money.
Shaun: Will we be meeting with only you not those people he
was living with?
Nadia: No only me, and the mother have to come as well, we
need her signature.
Shaun: The flight is expensive how much is this money I
don't want to wast...
Nadia: 3million rands.
Shaun: Oh we will take the morning flight to Durban, thank
you so much, thank you.
The phone drops, he sounds so happy, I am disgusted.
Nadia: I wonder what he is doing to him there!
Nkanyezi and I go back to our room, he is so angry and
devastated .
Nkanyezi: "I shouldn't have let him just leave with a
stranger."
Me: Babe there was his mom, we couldn't have done
anything but he needs to come home.
Nkanyezi: " I will kill that bastard if he hurt him, I swear to
God."
Veins are popping on his forehead and I know he gives great
sex if he is like this and he feels better, I check the kids the
angels are asleep.
I take off my dress then my panty and sit in front of him.
Nkanyezi: "Make yourself wet Miyah I am too frustrated for
foreplay."
That alone turns me on, I start rubbing my pussy as he takes
off his clothes staring at me.
He stands naked his dick is so hard.
Nkanyezi: "Are you done?"
I nod a little, he pick me up and go to the bathroom with me
and put me down.
Nkanyezi: "You know what to do Miyah."
I turn around and balance my hands on the wall my ass is
out, I feel a sting on my butt..
Me: Fuck..
He keeps spanking my butt so hard that my pussy clenches I
cum without him even inserting his rod on me, my knees are
shaking, he turns me around tap my pussy then stare at me.
Nkanyezi: "Are you ok?"
I shake my head no.
Me: I want him back home.
He pick me up and start kissing me we have some rough sex
every corner of the bathroom, my body is sore from the
squeezing the spanking but that's what we do when we have
sex, it's nothing new just worse when he is frustrated or
angry.
He pick me up and put me in bed then he sleep next to me
holding me tight. He look at me.
Nkanyezi: "Did I hurt you?"
Me: No I am fine.
Nkanyezi: "But your body is bruised."
Me: "And so is your back, I don't mind it's what we're used
to.
Nkanyezi: "I feel like I lost control today."
Me: It's ok babe, this is the type of sex we both enjoy.
Nkanyezi: "But baby you're not my girlfriend anymore you
are my wife we should try toning it down a bit.
Me: We have tried before Star it didn't work, and I don't
want you to change.
He pulls me to his chest again and we fall asleep. I wake up
in the middle of the night when phiwe is crying, I change his
wet diaper and change his brother as well but he doesn't
wake up, I feed Phiwe his bottle then he falls asleep I go back
to bed, I enjoy being a mother waking up in the middle of the
night is fine with me I think it's because I wanted this
opportunity for so long.
I sleep in my husband's arms, the
man who made everything possible, he made me a wife and
a mother, he loved me when people said he could do better.
I wake up in the morning and take a shower, he walk in and
stand behind me, he wash my back and I wash is then the
rest of our bodies and step out, I wear my dress, I wear them
a lot since I became a wife and they are not that short
anymore even though my husband told me I can wear the
things I used to wear but when I am around his family I have
to show some respect like Ntsoaki.
I see a message notification on my phone and view it my
eyes pop out.
Nkanyezi: "What's wrong baby?"
Me: There was a bank card I put in Sage's bag and
transferred money in it, it shows here that all of it was
withdrawn last night and that was a lot of money, I wanted it
to last him at least five months.
He looks at the phone and look at me.
Nkanyezi: "I know he didn't withdraw it."
Miyah: Let me go make breakfast we will talk to Nadia.
I go make breakfast and find Ntsoaki there.
Me: Hey babe.
Ntsoaki: Hello pretty lady.
She smiles and we hug.
Me: What are you making, smells so good.
Ntsoaki: It's just bacon and eggs.
Me: Ok let me help with the bread.
I wash my hands and we finish up making breakfast and set
the table everyone joins us and we start eating.
Me: Nadia you know there was a card that I put in Sage's bag
and it had money all of it was withdrawn last night.
Nadia: That Shaun must have withdrawn it, that boy is not
ok there.
Me: Do you think he will come today?
Nadia: Let me call and check on him.
The phone rings, I huff, so they are not on the plane yet!
Nadia: Sir what time should I expect you to arrive.
Shaun : Can we meet tomorrow? we missed the flight.
Nadia: Can I speak to the boy?
Shaun: Wait a little.
We wait for him and Sage answers.
Sage:Angi-fu-ni ukuba lana tshela ubaba , bathathe yonke
izinto zami.(I don't want to be here tell dad, they took all my
stuff.
Tears make way from my eyes.
Nadia: Ukuphi umah kanti?
Sage: angazi uyephi(I don't know where she went.)
Nadia: Bamulimazile?(Did they hurt her?)
Sage: Yes..
Shaun: Hey are you sure we're getting this money?can't you
send it?
Nkanyezi: "Langa call Carl, I am going there to fetch Sage, tell
him to track that number and that we need to be in PE
today."
He walks away, I follow him and find him changing into
black clothes and I see him taking out a gun somewhere
under the dressing table I have never seen it before.
Me: We have a gun in this room Star?
He put it on his waist.
Nkanyezi: "Not now Miyah."
He kiss my cheek and walk out, I find his brothers wearing
all black, Sfiso and Nadia as well.
Me: You're all leaving?
Nadia: Yeah we will start at Carl's house, we will contact you
guys soon.
Ntsoaki: Be safe guys.
Ntsika: We will babe.
We hug all of them and some get into Langa's car and some
in Sfiso's car and drive out in full speed, I see Pamella
touching her belly.
Me: Are you ok?
Pamella: I thought I felt some movements in here.
Ntsoaki: You probably did, carrying three big heads must be
tough.
They smile, these women are beautiful man.
We walk in and prepare lunch quietly I guess we are all
worried.
Dad walk in and look at us.
Luyolo: Are you guys ok?
Ntsoaki: We are worried about Sage and all of them.
Luyolo: They will be fine, Pamella are the little ones good.
Pamella: Yes they are fine Sir.
He smile, this man is sweet propably the reason why he
raised men that knows how to treat women and kids,
humble man.
We continue to cook and Ntsoaki go give him juice in the
lounge.
We dish up for the kids, dad and us, mom is at the hospital.
We sit on the lounge I can see Pammy stealing glances at me.
Pamella: Uhm Miyah.
I look at her.
Pamella: You don't hate me because of what dad did right?
Me: No.
Pamella: Ok because I also didn't spend much time with the
man, when he was home they were always fighting and it
ended up with them getting a divorce.
Me: I am ok Pamella really.
She nods, I sit next to her.
Me: I am sorry if I am being cold Sis I am just going through a
lot Sage is like a son to me, and if something happens to him
my husband would go crazy, he is his pride because he saw
his potential through him, the first Center he built was
inspired by that boy.
Pamella: They will find him, but they were scary with that all
black they were wearing.
Ntsoaki: I don't want to mess with any of them when they
are in that zone.
Me: Me too, I asked Nkanyezi about the gun he had and he
just said "not now".
Pamella: Landile knows that I mustn't see a gun not even by
mistake because I freak out so bad.
We take the kids and feed them the chill in the lounge
waiting on our partners to tell us something.
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NKANYEZI
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We get in uncle Carl's apartment and step out of the cars
walking in, we find him in his office that have computers all
over.
I touch his shoulder and nod, they all greet him.
Carl: What do we have?
Nadia give him her phone and he connects it to his
computer.
Carl: Is it the last number dialed?
Nadia: Yeah.
He does something fast on his computer then his pictures
pop out on every screen.
Carl: Shaun Timber once was arrested for child exploitation.
Nadia: What type of exploitation?
Carl: Pornography, he was taking pictures of under age girls
in their bikinis or naked showing their private parts then put
it on the internet, he is not working alone though because we
still have that kind of exploitation in this country.
Nadia: Mmm, if Pamella wasn't pregnant I was going to get
them one by one.
Carl: Sooner or later they have to get caught because not
only do they do that, they violate them and force them into
sexual activities for views on the internet, so human
trafficking isn't the only thing we should be worried about.
Me: "So what does he want with Sage man he is a boy."
I wish I can take back that question now because the
answers that pop in my own head right now are making me
shiver, The possibility that he is forcing him to do despicable
things right now.
Me: "Please just find where he is in that PE."
He looks at the computer and there is a red dot he points at
it.
Carl: Walmer is where you are going and the jet is ready for
you at the Airport.
Me: "Thanks."
Carl: This phone should be always opened so it shows you
where to go.
He gives Nadia back her phone, she put it in her pocket and
we walk out and drive to the Airport, we get to the
Anderson's jet and it takes off.
Nadia doesn't look too good and so is Langa.
Nadia: What if...
She shakes his head.
Nadia: What if he is doing something to him?
She moves around the room, I know to Langa this takes him
back to what Layla did, they both are thinking the worst and
so do I, I just hope it's not that bad.
Langa: Already organised the car we will use..
Nadia: But we can't just barge in there what if he isn't alone
and he end up hurting Sage, um I think because he doesn't
know me and Sfiso we will go knock on his front door while
the rest of you get in at the back and search all the rooms, we
will be selling insurance Sfiso.
Langa: What if the backdoor is locked.
Nadia: Really Langelihle, you will break it obviously.
Langa: It's obvious to you.
We get in the two rental cars, Sfiso and Nadia are driving
alone while My brothers follow behind them, we get in this
house, Nadia signals us to go park a bit far from them then
they step out and knock on Shaun's door as soon as he opens
the door, we step out and go around the back and the door
is really locked, Ntsika punch the glass, it breaks then put his
hand in and turn the key inside.
We walk in and start searching the rooms, we get in this one
room and find Sage tied in the chair and four half naked little
girls and 3 boys tied kneeling down.
Ntsika: Shhh don't scream we are here to get you out ok.
They nod,we untie them and two girls look tired we cover
them with jackets,Ntsika and Langa pick up them up and
walk out.
Me: "Follow them son and you guys"
They all walk out I continue to search the rest of the rooms
then reach the front door pointing the gun at Shaun's head.
I push him out he has his hands up. Nadia search his pockets
and find a little knife that has blood.
Nadia: Did you find Sage?
I nod and point at the car.
Nadia: What about the mother?
I shake my head
Nadia: Where is she?
Shaun: This is not Durban I run this town!
He says grinning..
Nadia: Let's go now!
We rush in the car and Sfiso drives and stop next to the other
car.
Nadia: We need to get out of here guys.
We drive all the way back to the airport.
Nadia: Do you have a good aim bro?
She shows me the gun I nod.
Nadia: Those cars are following us we need to shoot.
Her upper body is out the window then she shoots once and
the car rolls out of the road, she sit back.
Nadia: Your turn now brother..
I smile, I think she is daring me,I do just like her and shoot
once the second car rolls around a couple of times and we
reach the airports and go to the other car.
Nadia: Let's call the police for the other girls and boys we
will leave them with the securities here for safety because if
we wait for them we might get in trouble.
I nod we take the girls to the securities and call the police
then take Sage to the jet and we take off to Durban, I sit in
front of him.
Me: "Do you know where they took your mom?"
Sage: "She ran away when he was beating her up with other
men."
Me: "Oh so she managed to escape?"
He nods
Me: "Did he hurt you?"
Sage: "No just the other two girls, he got the two boys to get
their penises erected so they can sleep with the girls."
Langa: What?
Sage: "He was taking the video saying he is training them for
the future and I was next, we watched the whole thing in
front of us."
Langa tell Nadia what Sage is saying and she completely lose
it.
Nadia: That's sick! that man is sick but men like him works
with the men in the uniform, he needs to die.
Ntsika: He really do.
Nadia: I need to know what cooper thinks about this I know
that PE is far and we can't really get involved but he took one
of our own so I am involved and if they tell me about police
shit I will burn his house down with him locked inside.
She is turning pink as she talks looking so angry..
Nkanyezi: "You are safe now and maybe your mom will come
looking for you."
Sage: "I don't want her to, she put my life in danger all
because of money and a house."
Me: "I'm sure she didn't mean it."
He shakes his head.
Sage: "I told her we can go back home and you won't have a
problem taking care of me just like you did when she wasn't
around, she didn't listen, the kids that she said are my new
brothers and sisters are the girls used by that man."
Me: "She wants what's best for you and maybe she thought
this was it."
Sage: "But it wasn't dad, it was worse than living in our
house without food for days."
Me: "I'm sorry."
Sage: "Can I stay with you guys forever please."
Me: "Just like I told you, that will always be your home."
He hugs me and sit down, he smiles
Sage: "I knew you were gonna come for me."
Me: "You are my son and I will always be there for you."
Sage: "How is mom? she wanted me to run to grandpa
Kwanele's house and she would scream that I am missing, I
wish I did that but I was worried that Shaun guy was going
to call the police and get both of you in trouble."
I smile shaking my head, Miyalo!
Me: "She will be fine once she sees you back home."
We get to Durban and get in the cars driving home, we find
our wives sitting on the couches looking sad.
Sage: Mom..
Miyah jumps getting up, they all follow suit, She hugs Sage
looking at me.
Miyah: You found him, thank you baby..
She look at Sage turning him around.
Miyah: Did that ugly old thing hurt you?
He shakes his head.
Miyah: Thank God you are back home, you are never leaving
again ok, you will stay here with us.
Sage: "Thank you, I am hungry."
Miyah: Come all of you.
We follow her and sit around the table as they dish up for us.
Miyah: "Where is Loret?"
Me: "Sage said she managed to escape when he was beating
her up."
Miyah: She should have called, sometimes I don't get how
Loret's mind works, she frustrates me so bad.
Me: "Maybe she will come back."
She shrug her shoulders.
Nadia: Babe I have to go I need to see Cooper I just need 30
minutes I will be back.
Pamella: Ok.
She kiss her cheek and walk out, she is not ok after hearing
what was happening around Sage, I think she cares a lot
about kids's safety maybe she really does have a calling,
most crimes nowadays involves kids because they can't fight
for themselves.
We go our seperate bedrooms but I don't find Miyah in our
bedroom, I look at her in Sage abd Qs bedroom she is there,
they are laughing it's like she is telling them a story.
I wave at them they look at me and Miyah turns.
Me: "Time for bed."
Qhayiya: Yes Sir.
I take my wife's hand and go to our room, we take off our
clothes and get in bed.
Miyah: "I love you Star."
Me: "I love you too Miyah."
We fall asleep, I wake up and go to the bathroom then come
back and find Phiwo awake, I take him and I put between me
and Miyah.
Miyah: Why is this one here?
Me: "He was awake and I didn't want him to cry waking up
his brother."
She smiles looking at me.
Miyah: I don't have to wonder how you looked like when you
were younger there is a lot of people looking like you in this
house.
Me: "They shock me sometimes."
We smile.
Me: "Thank you for everything my love."
Miyah: I found a replacement for the dildo girl.
Me: "Is that what you gonna call her now?"
She nods with mischievous smile on her face I shake my
head.
Me: "Look at him, he has fallen asleep."
Miyah: "Then move him away from my bed."
I take him to his bed and get on top of Miyah.
Me: "Let's try it out and see if it will work, I will have to your
hands pinned above your head, I won't touch you and you
won't touch me.
She nods..I kiss her and lick her nipples going down on her
pussy and suck her until she is wet, I get back to her and kiss
her neck, I slide my dick in, she tries to touch me but I put
her hands above her head holding them tight and start
moving, she wraps her legs around me,I start moving slow
looking at her she bites her lips. I up the pace.
Miyah: I can't..
I shake my head, she starts moving her waist meeting my
every thrust I let go of her hands,that is what she wanted,I
feel her nails on my back, I grab on the sheets trying so hard
not to touch her.
Miyah: You also can't do it baby, please..
I grab her waist tight she aches her back..
Miyah: Yes, harder..
I grab it even tighter roughly slamming into her, she push me
and turn around, she insert my dick and start moving her
ass,I go hard on her ass and grope it, she moves faster and
faster I throw my head back and ram into her once then cum
deep in her, we collapse next to each other breathing heavily.
Miyah:Why are you trying so hard to fight it, it's normal,
everyone have sexual preferences, some like it slow and we
like it rough leave it at that.
I nod and pull her to my chest kissing her forehead.
We wake up in the morning and we bath the kids and feed
them. We go eat breakfast.
Ziyanda: "Do you think Sage will need therapy after that
ordeal?"
Me: "Yeah I think he does mom, that wasn't something a
young boy like him should see or go through."
Ziyanda: "Ok I will set up an appointment."
Me: "Thanks mom."
Miyah and I go back to our room the kids are with mom and
dad.
Me: "so what should we do today babe?"
Miyah: uhm maybe take me out for lunch..
She says kissing me.
Me: Ok change then so we can go, wear something short that
will reveal those beautiful thighs.
She laughs.
Miyah: Bum shorts?
Me: "I didn't say ass I said thighs
She go to the closet and take out a short red dress, she wears
it and turn around for me, I smile, it shows her boobs and
thighs and the whole back is out, it's so sexy.
Me: " My beautiful wife."
Miyah: "I can't believe you are making me wear something
so short."
Me: "You're my wife not a granny and I want my wife to look
pretty so they won't take chances coming at me, I want them
to see that she's a wife and she still got it."
Miyah: Yes baby!
She put on make up and she has a long weave on, I change
too wearing black pants and a red shirt.
We walk out, they stare at us.
Langa: Are you going to some event we don't know about?
Ntsika: A gala dinner or something.
Sfiso: Or a Launch..
Nadia: Maybe BET awards.
I shake my head looking at Miyah the smile she has on her
face!
Langa: If I wasn't so in love with Sfiswesihle I was going to
hit big brother with a brick, damn!
They all laugh Miyah is blushing.
Nadia: I feel the same way about you Miss Miyah I feel like
saying, would you marry me too.
Ntsika: I just want to make you my second wife.
Sfiso get up and stand in front of her.
Sfiso: I can leave Langelihle for you, allow me to take off this
ring.
They all laugh, they are doing this on purpose they know
Miyah loves compliments.
Ziyanda: Girl look at you!that dress and those shoes..
Luyolo: Maybe we should just go pay lobola again the girl is
hot!
I am biting my lower lip with a grin on my face Miyah is red
with blushing.
Me: "You guys are amazing, look at her."
Miyah: Thank you so much ya'll I appreciate it, I do look
pretty even if I do say so myself.
They are laughing like crazy.
Me: We will see you later.
We walk out I open for her, she get in and I go to the drivers
seat and drive out.
We get to the restaurant along the beach and order our food.
We eat and when we are done we take a walk on sand I take
off her heels and hold her hand.
After that walk we go back home and find the gate opening
for a bruised Loret.
We walk in behind her and sit down with her.
Me: "What happened to you?"
Loret: "That man isn't who I thought he was."
I look at her.
Loret: "Sage is in there, when I escaped I couldn't take him
with."
Me: "He is here safe."
She looks at me with her eyes popped out.
Loret: "Can I see him?"
Miyah calls him and they come back and look at Loret.
Loret: I am so sorry I really thought he was a good man.
Sage: "But he wasn't."
Loret: "It's ok let's go home then."
Sage: "This time I am not going anywhere with you."
Loret: Sage you belong with me your mother at home.
Sage: "The mother who thinks money and a big house is
everything?mom you can go back home but i'm not leaving
with you I can visit but not live with you."
I look at Loret she is crying.
Sage: "You ignored me for years while looking for a man to
provide for you instead of coming back home to me, your
son, I waited for your calls every night and mom had to wait
with me because I told her you were gonna call but you
never did, she had to put me to sleep everyday hushing me
because you didn't bother, when they took me from school
after we heard you were discharged I looked around the gate
hoping to see you there, one day I even forced them to take
me back home thinking I will find you there but no you were
looking for marriage."
Loret: I am sorry it was all for you,I promise I will do better.
Sage: "Then go back to your house and do better I will watch
from a distance."
Loret: Please Sage give me a chance.
He shakes his head and walk back to his room.
Miyah: I think he is right Loret, prove it to him that you can
do better, don't force him to come with you, let your actions
pull him towards you at the end of the day you're his mom
and he loves you, he just want to trust your decisions first,
we are not taking him away from you.
She nods wiping her tears.
Miyah: "Just sort out your life, draft CVs and maybe give
some to us we will help you, don't give up, do it for him.
She nods and walk out, I follow her out.
Me: "How did you get here?"
Loret: "I was hiking from truck to truck till I got here."
Me: "I am sorry."
I count the last cash I have on my wallet and give it to her.
Me: "Your house is in good condition we fixed it for you
when we thought you were coming back home after the
doctor told us you were discharged."
Loret: "Thank you so much you're a good man and you have
a good woman in there."
Me: "Thank you, now be safe."
She hugs me tight, too tight if I must say, I step away from
her.
Loret: "Bye."
I nod and walk back inside the house and go to my wife and
kids in our room.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
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In the morning my wife is sleeping peacefully next to me but
the kids are awake I can see them moving on their beds, I go
to the bathroom then stand next to them.
Me: "The way I feel when I look at you two I myself can't
explain it but I am happy you're here and I know one day
you will understand what I am saying to you, I want to be a
good dad to you."
I take Phiwo and go bath him and get him dressed then
Phiwe is next,they look happy I see Miyah moving in bed she
sit up.
Miyah: Hey baby, those two are making noise.
Me: "Sorry they are just playing."
She takes the phone then look at me.
Miyah: Why didn't you wake me up baby?
Me: "Are you going somewhere?"
Miyah: "No but I am a wife and a mother."
Me: "But there is also a dad, they are fresh and clean right
now."
Miyah: "Thank you daddy."
I smile, she go to the bathroom comes back and wear her
long dress and a head wrap that matches it, she look like a
real wife,maybe it's because Grandpa is coming today and
we are having one of those family lunch.
She walk out and I get dressed as well and follow her, I find
all the wives, my mother and aunts in the kitchen, little
Sunshine is here too.
Me: "Morning."
Ziyanda: "Good you're here tell your brothers to wake up
and braai meat at the back."
Me: "You guys know women can braai meat too, right?"
Ziyanda: Just do what I say Nkanyezi.
I look at her.
Mbali: Someone wants to take a beating of his life in front of
his wife..
I smile and go call my brothers and sister we all go at the
back with my uncles and dad and start braaing meat the
wives are setting the table, I am watching my woman and I
smile thinking this is the first woman I have ever had sex
with the woman I loved with my all, the woman I ended up
in a psychiatric hospital for.
Ntsika: You sure have come a long way.
I stare at him.
Ntsika: "I see the way you look at her it's just the same as on
the first date."
I smile.
Ntsika: I am glad you ended up with her, you guys are good
together.
I nod.
Me: "She is everything and beyond."
He nods and smiles when he sees Ntsoaki who has Ntando in
her arms coming towards us.
Ntsoaki: Do you want daddy?
She cries.
Ntsoaki:She doesn't want to stay with the others, she wants
me to carry her like this.
Ntsika tries to take her but she vigorously shakes her head
holding on to her mom.
Ntsika: I guess you will have to sit down babe.
Ntsoaki: But I was still busy with something Ntsika.
Me: "Let me try."
I try to take her but yhoo the girl doesn't want anyone.
Ntsoaki: It's ok, you just want your beautiful mommy not all
these ugly people, let's go.
They walk away, I don't know what is it with our women and
heels, Pamella is wearing long heels while carrying those
three babies in her womb and it's growing so fast.
Me: "You're happy."
Ntsika: "It's not everyday you find a woman who genuinely
loves your kids and they love her back just as much, my
ancestors knew when they brought her to me that she is
exactly what me and my kids needed."
Me: "She is special and beautiful too those dimples are just
cherry on top they just pop out even when she talks."
Ntsika: "That's my wife man."
We see Grandpa coming in and we go greet him with hugs
and handshakes.
Grandpa: Now this is what I love coming home to, happiness
and beautiful ladies moving around with rings on their
fingers, you proposed Landile?
She smile.
Nadia: I did Grandpa and she is carrying boGumede.
He shakes her hand and hug her again.
Grandpa: You did good congratulations , Langelihle where
are my grandchildren?
Langa: Let's go so you can meet them inside.
They walk away, then come back we sit around the table
after Grandpa said grace.
We eat over some loud conversation and uncle Kwanele get
up and look at Landile.
Kwanele: We didn't thank you enough for what you did for
me and my wife Nadia, finding our little Sunshine was a
biggest blessing, after finding out that my wife can't have any
babies you came into our lives went on a dangerous mission
and brought us such a special person in our lives, thank you
so much we found what was missing in our marriage, thank
you niece.
Nadia: Thank you uncle.
We go back inside and watch mom and dad's wedding which
was beautiful, we wanted Nadia to see it and be in that
moment.
Nadia: Thank you now I feel like I was part of it, mom you
haven't changed since then..
Luyolo: I don't think she ever will she will always be a
gorgeous little Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: Oh come on.
I go to my room and find Sage looking over his little brothers
he smiles as he sees me.
Sage: "They look like Nqoba and Manqoba."
Me: "A lot."
Sage: "Have mom called?"
Me: "No, she haven't."
Sage: "If you are not busy can we go see how she's holding
up?"
Me: "Yes of course go wear your jacket."
I wear mine since the weather looks like it's changing a bit.
We walk out and drive to his mother's house, we get there
and knock but no one answers.
Sage: "Let's see if the door is locked."
He turns the door and we walk in, there is no one in the
lounge just a piece of paper that is on the coffee table, Sage
walks away to one of the bedrooms and he comes back
looking like he just saw a ghost and he is sweating so hard,
he sit down and shake his head vigorously.
Me: "What's wrong are you okay?"
He points at the bedroom, I get up and rush there, there is a
bad smell when I get in and I see Loret's body hanging on the
planks because there is no ceiling in here, I feel like my heart
has been stabbed, I breathe a couple of times, Sage saw this!
I go back in the room and look at him, he is sitting on the
floor with his hands on his head, I don't know what to say or
do.
I take my phone and send a text to Ntsika.
Me: *Take Nadia and come to Loret's house, call the cops on
your way here.*
He replies after a few seconds.
Ntsika: "We're coming now."
I kneel in front of Sage and make him look at me, he has tears
in his eyes, I hug him tight, my body is cold, I am shivering.
We stay in that position for a long time until I see the light
comes inside the room I get up it's Ntsika opening the door
he is with Nadia.
Me: "Where are the police?"
Ntsika: "On the way, what happened? Why do you need the
police?"
I sit down.
Me: "Loret hanged herself."
Ntsika: What?
Nadia: What's up brother?
Ntsika: It's Sage's mom she hanged herself man.
Nadia: What?did he see that?
I nod and wipe my face, she go to the bedroom and come
back.
Nadia: Shit..
She go open the door and Cooper with two of his colleagues
walk in.
Cooper: What's happening?
Nadia: Intentional self-harm by hanging.
I look at her, she has been away from home during the day, I
think she is taking her job seriously.
She walk with them to the room.
Cooper: Who discovered the body Gumede?
Me: "He went in first and called me after."
He writes something down and a coroner walk in with other
people and we have to walk out since they made the house a
crime scene.
We wait outside Sage is sitting in the car, we were told not to
go yet. They walk out with a body and put it in the back of
the car a coroner came in with.
Nadia: There is a note Cooper.
Cooper:We will need that and her personal belongings for
investigation.
Nadia walk in then come back out again.
Cooper: You need to come with us to the station since you
were the first people to see her.
Me: "But the boy, he is traumatised Cooper I should take him
home.
Cooper:But..
Me: "I will come after dropping him at home.
Nadia: Cooper I think there was a foul play, Look at the
pictures we took on that room, where did she climb to reach
up there, this bed is too short for someone her height to
reach the roof by just stepping on the bed.
She says showing cooper the pictures they have.
He nods and look at me.
Cooper: We still going to need you Gumede, take the boy
home and come down to the Station as soon as possible.
I get in the car and Ntsika get in his car we drive home, I am
distraught my mind is mixed up I don't know what to think.
I walk in supporting Sage because he look tired and weak.
Miyah: Is he okay baby?
I shake my head.
Me: "I have to go down to the Station."
Miyah: Why?
Me: "We found Sage's mom hanging on the roof, she is gone."
Miyah: Don't say something like that Nkanyezi.
Me: "I have to go baby, I will see you later."
Miyah: You are not serious Star,are you?
Me: "Miyah I have to go."
Miyah: Did he see her like that Star?
Me: "He was the first one to see him Miyah, I don't know
what to say to him babe.."
I sit down and wipe my eyes..she hugs me, she is crying too, I
hug her back and get up.
Me: "I will see you later."
I walk out and drive to the station, I walk to Cooper and we
sit down, Nadia is next to him, she looks like she is thinking.
Cooper: So how do you know the diseased?
Me: "Cooper you know her boy was living with me for years.
Cooper: When did she come back.
Me: "A couple of days ago."
Cooper: And why she didn't come to take the boy back?
Me: "She tried once and we fetched him because he wasn't
happy, she came again and he didn't want to go with her.:
Cooper: Did you want him to go?
Nadia: Cooper I see where you want to go with this but don't
even try it, I say let's look into the husband that once took
her and the boy to PE but we had to fetch him because he
wasn't happy and the mother came back crying she was
badly beaten.
Cooper: But didn't you leave the man in PE?
Nadia: I know this is how police works, thinking everyone is
a suspect and leave out the actual suspect just because of
cold reasons like the one you just said now,there are flights
from Durban to PE right?
Cooper: You are being rude now.
Nadia: No I am stating the facts Cooper, we can't leave him
out just because you assume he is in PE, what if he came
back hmmm?
He nods.
Cooper; You know his name?
Nadia: Shaun Timber, was said to be an Ex convict too.
Cooper: You don't say!please give me a minute.
He walk out and Nadia sit down.
Me: "So you think Loret was killed by that man?"
She look at me for a while.
Nadia: I know she was killed by him, there was no chair, he
totally failed, he shouldn't have removed what he used to
climb to hang her, that way we would think she used it now
we ask who removed it.
I nod and smile.
Me: "You're good at this."
Nadia: I am getting good at understanding you right now I
am so proud of myself.
Me: You should be.
Nadia: Ok I didn't understand that unfortunately.
I smile shaking my head, she is the twin of my crazy little
brother alright! everything is Langa there just prettier, I am
not saying Langa is pretty, he is a man, a man cannot be
pretty!
Cooper comes back with a file.
Cooper: Shaun Timber was set to be arrested for 15years for
child exploitation but his lawyer wanted an apeal for bail in
the fourth year and he was granted after that there was no
trial it's like he just vanished.
Nadia: Where is he originally from?
Cooper: Here in Durban.
Nadia: So we can actually nail him huh?
Cooper: Yeah.
Me: "I need to go home and check on the boy."
Cooper: Ok we will contact you after they finish with the
post mortem.
I nod.
Nadia: Let me go with you, I will see you tomorrow Cooper.
Cooper: I think having you around here will change things.
Nadia: For good or bad.
Cooper: For better.
She smiles.
We walk out and get in the car, we get home and I go check
on Sage I find Miyah sitting next to him brushing him, she
keeps wiping her eyes I touch her shoulder she get up and
throw herself in my chest, I hug her tight, Sage is asleep.
I take Miyah's hand and go to our room, she is crying.
Miyah: Do you think she did this because Sage didn't want to
go home?
I shake my head.
Me: "Nadia believes it's foul play, she think it's that Shaun
guy."
Miyah: How can he do something o cruel, Sage is not ok Star I
don't know how to help him, he was shaking till he fell
asleep.
I sit down as she wipes her tears and open the door it's
Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Hey hubby I heard what happened i'm sorry.
I nod.
Ntsoaki: Let me take the kids tonight, I will look after them.
Miyah: Ok thank you.
She wheel their beds out, I take off my clothes and go take a
shower, Miyah step in after me, we shower then step out and
get in bed naked, I am too tired to wear anything. I feel
Miyah getting on top of me and rubbing her pussy on my
dick I look at her as she moves getting me in the mood, my
dick reacts obviously, she slide it in her and start moving
squeezing her boobs, I am feeling the pleasure but I don't
want to go far, she put her hands on my chest and I feel her
nails digging in my flesh, I sit up and get up from bed with
my dick still buried in her pussy, I fuck her so hard her back
is hitting hard against the wall I don't want to stop, I can't
stop, I grab her hips and pound on her faster without taking
any breaks, she bite my shoulder hard and push me but I
don't stop, I want to feel this than seeing that body hanging
on the roof whenever I close my eyes, I look at Miyah she has
tears in her eyes.
Miyah: Stop..
I quickly put her down and move away from her, she lean on
the wall wiping her tears.
I wipe my face and shake my head.
Me: "I'm sorry."
She slowly walk to the dressing table and take her gown and
grab her phone walking out.
My hands are shaking, I lost control,I know we both enjoy
rough sex but today I lost it.
I wear my pants and walk out, I look for her in every spare
room but I don't find her, I go back to my room and send a
text.
Me: *Where are you baby?I am really sorry I didn't mean to
hurt you.*
Miyah: *I want to be alone.*
Me: *Where Miyalo?"
Miyah: *Grandpa's house, in your room.*
I rush there and walk in, I find her sitting in bed.
Me: "I'm sorry my love."
Miyah: Did you feel better?
Me: "No, I didn't mean to h..
Miyah: Then fuck me again.
I shake my head..
Me: "No.."
She takes off her gown and sit at the edge of the bed opening
her legs.
Miyah: Look into my eyes, I will lead you..
She touch her pussy,I step closer and take off my pants and
stand in front of her..
Miyah: You can put it all in..
I bite my lower lip..
Miyah: It's ok..
I slowly move my dick in..
Miyah: Yes..
I don't want to touch her at all or move her from the bed.
Miyah: Faster baby..
I move a bit faster..she is biting her lower lip,I feel her
moving her waist..
Miyah: I love you..
She move to the centre of the bed and sleep facing up.
I get ontop of her she put her legs on my shoulders and take
my hands to her hips.
Miyah: Give it to me babe..I want you..
I start moving grabbing her hips..
Miyah: Faster Nkanyezi..
She grab on the sheets , I go faster and faster, She get up and
pull my neck, we kiss while i'm thrusting deeper, we both
cum and sleep in bed.
We look up not looking at each other, I slowly turn to look at
her a little, I see tears in her eyes.
Me: "I am sorry Miyalo I really am."
Miyah: It's not that Star, I thought I heard you calling my
name.
Me: "But I can't talk."
Miyah: Maybe it was all in my head, that's why I wanted you
to fuck me again, I thought you were gonna say it again.
I sit up and stare at her.
Me: "So you think your pussy has some magic it can make me
call out your name?"
I am angry, she look at me with sad eyes.
Miyah: I'm sorry Nkanyezi.
I get up and wear my pants and leave her there. The last time
I was able to use my voice I was three years then it stopped
coming out and I became deaf so that is crazy, insane!
I get in bed , she comes in and stand by the door.
Miyah: I didn't mean to make you angry Star.
Me: "Even now Miyah I depend on reading your lips to get
what you're saying, I don't know if maybe you miss your
boyfriends who were able to call your name."
She stares at me with tears running down her cheeks
Me: "What kind of voice did you hear? Deep voice or what?"
She doesn't answer.
Miyah: I shouldn't have said that I am sorry, Maybe it was
just my imagination.
Me: "Then stop imagining the impossible and find another
man if you so badly want someone who can call your name
during sex."
Miyah: How can you say that?
Me: "Did I say it out loud?"
She start taking everything that is on the dressing table and
throw it at me, I keep blocking it from hitting my face.
Miyah : You're making me a fool, I told you that maybe it was
all in my head I didn't say use that against me..
She lock the door and get in bed giving me her back. I sleep
facing up.
In the middle of the night I realise I was rude towards my
wife and the harsh things I said to her, I touch her arm she
turns with tears in her eyes.
Me: "I am so sorry."
She nods.
Me: "I know you understand that I can't talk baby you fell in
love with me knowing that I am deaf, And I do know you love
me just as I am but it doesn't hurt imagining things, like you
imagining how my voice would sound like which I think is
what happened, so saying you should find another man was
out of line."
Miyah: Maybe I should.
My mouth is dry and I feel a lump in my throat.
Me: "No."
Miyah: You were rude to me hurting my feelings in the
process so maybe I should find someone else.
Me: "Take that back Miyah."
Miyah: Is it a problem when I say it now but it was fine when
you said it huh.
Me: "I said I am sorry."
Miyah: And I don't care!
Me: "I know you're shouting at me right now so please stop."
Miyah: Did you hear it?
Me: "You better not fuck with me Miyalo."
Miyah: What you gonna do because after what you said to
me I won't let you touch me.
I look down.
Miyah: I will look for another man.
Me: "Then make sure he is insured."
She sleep facing the opposite side,I turn her again.
Me: "You can't do that to me Miyalo."
Miyah: Leave me alone Nkanyezi, you said I should do it.
I feel tears threatning to come out, I blink them away.
Me: "You're my wife."
Miyah: "Did you forget that when you were suggesting I get
another man?
I don't reply.
Miyah: Now stop touching me.
She sleep again, I sleep next to her.
In the morning I feel a small hand touching my face I open
my eyes it's Ntando with Thando I sit up.
Me: "Hello"
They raise their hands up, I take both of them and put them
on my lap, they are beaming with joy..Miyah walk in with
Phiwo and put him next to me then walk out again.
Nadia walk in.
Nadia: We need to meet with the Medical Examiner they
want to tell you their findings, you and Miyah are the next of
kin.
I nod and look at the kids.
Nadia:That's a lot of them brother.
I smile. She take Ntando and I put Thando down but tears
come out of her eyes.
Me: "I am not Ntsika."
She stares at me.
Me: "I am not."
She start smiling.
Nadia: They are so beautiful.
Me: "I know right."
She walk out and I take the kids to Pamella and go back to
my room to take a bath.
I find Miyah doing her make-up then she get up and pass me
like she doesn't see me. I get dressed and we go, me, Nadia
and Miyah.
We drive to the station and find cooper with a medical
examiner we greet and sit down.
M.E: You are Mr Gumede and Miss Mkhabela?
Miyah: Mrs Gumede.
M.E: Oh sorry on this next of kin it's miss Mkhabela.
Miyah: I was before I got married.
He nods.
M.E: We did a medical examination because Landile Gumede
and Detective Cooper suspected foul play.
I nod.
M.E: We found that the diseased was strangled before
hanged and we did find the finger prints of a person that
strangled her, we checked the data base and we found that
he is there in our system, an ex convict.
Nadia: Shaun Timber is our main and the only suspect now
right?
Cooper: Yes he is but how do we track him down?
Nadia: I know his house in PE but then we won't find him
there anymore people like him move around they don't stay
in one place.
Cooper: So where to?
Nadia: We will try if his number still exists we will track it
but I doubt that it does either, so we have to find other ways.
Miyah: So now that you got that out of the way, can we start
with the funeral arrangements?
M.E: Yes we will release the corpse to you so you can do
what you must do.
Miyah: Ok thank you.
We walk out leaving Nadia with Cooper and we sign so that
the corpse will be taken to our funeral service then go home.
We go look for Sage and find him sitting in bed looking down
we sit in front of him.
Me: "Hey boy how are you feeling."
Sage: "This is my fault I should have went home with her
maybe she wasn't going to do this."
Miyah: "Baby your mom was killed, she didn't kill herself
that man Shaun killed her."
Sage: "Then I was supposed to be there to protect her from
him."
He cries, Miyah sits next to him and hug him until he calm
down.
Me: "So we need to prepare for the funeral, do you know
anyone who we can call."
He shakes his head.
Sage: "She only had me, but I was so angry at her that I let
her go back to our home alone."
Me: "Stop blaming yourself this is not your fault none of it is
your fault."
Sage: "I only have you guys now and no one else."
Miyah: "And you will always have us."
Sage: "Any funeral is ok, as long as she rest in peace, even
though she didn't die peacefully."
He is not okay and I don't think he will be anytime soon but
we will help him go through this.
The ladies are hands on preparing for the funeral which is
tomorrow, Sage asked us not to have a service but just lay
her to rest with a pastor there and only our family.
We followed the bier to the graveyard, Sage is holding
Miyah's hand, we stand next to the grave as the pastor starts
preaching, I am looking down the whole time.
After the pastor finish leading us in prayer the coffin lowers,
Sage is shaking.
Once the grave is covered with soil, he kneels next to it, I
kneel next to him.
Me: "Say your goodbyes boy, you need to say something."
He nods wiping his tears.
Sage: "Thank you mom for everything you did for me, I love
you, choosing to stay with mom and dad didn't mean I don't
love you, I do, you gave me life and when you got sick you
made sure to leave me with good people, you tried your best
to give me a better life even though it was hard but I
appreciate everything, I know I was mad for ignoring me for
years but now I forgive you I know you were doing what you
thought was right, I am sorry for what this man did to you,
rest in peace I love you."
I squeeze his shoulder and wipe my tears.
We get up and I hug him.
Me: "I will always be here for you, anytime of day lean on me
ok, cry on my shoulder I won't mind don't bottle things
inside."
He nod and we walk back to the cars, Nadia rush back to us
since she was walking ahead.
Nadia: Who has a phone with them, hurry and give it to me.
Langa take out his and give her, she runs to the road, and we
take quick steps towards her.
Nadia: We will talk at home.
We drive back home, the ladies and Sage walk inside, while
me, my brothers and sister stand outside.
Nadia: Shaun was there..
Sfiso: What?
Nadia: This is the number plate of the car he was driving.
She shows it to us.
Ntsika: What does this mean?
Nadia: He is following us, no one must leave this house now,
Sfiso is the security tight?
Sfiso: Yeah we just need to tell everyone not to buzz anyone
in, since we have the face recognition system on the gate.
She nods and look down.
Langa: So what do we do?
Nadia: A man like him can't be caught easily, he is like a
ghost but I will try to figure something out, for now we
should make sure our family is safe 100%.
I nod, this is hard.
Me: But what does he want?
Nadia: We were able to find his house in less than 24hours
so maybe he sees us as a threat....and maybe he should.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
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I am worried about our kids's and wives's safety after Nadia
told us the possibilities of us being followed.
Now we are in the lounge about to alert the family about
what's happening.
I look at Nadia she nods.
Me: "So we found out that Sage's mother didn't kill herself,
she was strangled and hanged by Shaun the man she got
married to."
Ziyanda: What!?
Me: "So we ask all of you to please stay indoors and don't
buzz anyone in, the kids should be always inside the house,
mom you have to stop going to work for a while including
you aunt Mbali and Sunny."
They nod looking nervous.
Kwanele: You got this or you need our help?
Me: "Nadia is still trying to find ways to get this guy, but I
would suggest you, uncle Mandi and Dad keep everyone here
safe, our wives and the kids."
They nod.
Nadia: I need to talk to you guys, can we go to grandpa's
house?
We get up and go to grandpa's house,we look for beers in the
fridge and it's there maybe uncle Kwanele bought it because
auntie sunny doesn't want alcohol in her house after they
got drunk and damaged the house once.
We sit down on the couches and drink the beer, I don't really
like the taste but I could use a beer or two, my wife is still
ignoring me and this Shaun guy is after my family.
We are silent no one is saying a word for a while.
Nadia: Sfiso you said something about a face recognition
here right?
Sfiso:Yeah.
Nadia: Does it beep somewhere when it recognises our
faces?
Sfiso: Yeah there is a red light and then a small beep inside
the house.
She nods.
Nadia: Will it work if we put it on the streets lights that are
close by, maybe one on the other side and another one on
the other.
Sfiso: How?
Nadia: We have shaun's picture, we make that devide
recognise Shaun's face and alerts us when he is getting close,
because the priority is our family's safety first.
Sfiso: That is possible but no one has ever done it before.
Nadia:Then we will be the first, I know he is not working
alone so we need cameras facing the street so we can search
for any suspicious car moving around.
Langa: "But the streets lights are tall Nadia how do we reach
up there?
Nadia: We will put our very own, that have the two, cameras
and this face recognition what what.
Ntsika: Kanjani ?(how)
Nadia:Guys come on, we will find the lights, open them
inside and put these things in there then find the tall wood
and attach the light to it, dig a whole and put it there, wala a
street light.
Me: "And how are we doing this without people looking at us
in a weird way?"
Nadia: I will do it brother, I am sure there are those blue
overalls here that makes one look like she/he is working at
the municipality, I will wear them and dig those holes while
you guys deal with the street light situation.
Ntsika: What if the police pass by and ask what you're doing.
Nadia: Guys be positive please, the police don't often move
around this type of neighbourhood much because it's calm
and mostly rich people live here and they believe there is
less crime rate.
She is right about that.
Nadia: So tomorrow we are finding those street lights ok.
We nod and go back to mom's house, I go to my room and
find their mom in the bathroom they are sleeping on their
beds, I get in bed Miyah's phone is next to me it keeps
vibrating I take it and it's the messages on facebook from a
guy named Sihle Zulu I read them.
*Will I ever see you?*
And I see that Miyah replied with "I will let you know."
*you are beautiful babe.*
*Please send me your pictures*
There are no replies from Miyah after that, my heart is
beating fast,I put her phone back and cover my head, she get
in bed and face the other way till morning, I wake up first
and bath the kids and walk out with them I made their
bottles and feed them, I sit on the couch leaning back with
my eyes closed, I pushed my wife away and now I think she
is really looking for another man.
I take the kids back to our room and find Miyah getting
dressed,I put the kids in their beds then go back to bed and
sit up looking at her.
Me: " I love you Miyalo i'm sorry about the other day."
She doesn't reply.
Me: "I saw messages on the phone, are you entertaining
other men?"
Miyah: Just one.
Me: "Why."
Miyah: For sex.
Me: "You want to sleep with another man while married to
me?"
She nods like she doesn't even care.
Me: "Take off that ring."
Miyah: I'm not doing that, I want to cheat on you wearing it.
I get up from the bed and stand in front of her.
Me: "Do you want me to hurt you, is that what you're looking
for right now?"
Miyah: And I will tell your mom and dad if you dare put your
hands on me.
Me: "I am sorry Miyah please forgive me."
She ignores me, I step closer to her and kiss her, she kiss me
back then push me a little.
Me: "Stop talking to that guy Miyah, you are married."
Miyah: No.
Me: "Then maybe you should go stay with him and leave me
and my kids here I might just make Vuyi their step mom."
Her face changes immediately.
Miyah: What did you just say Nkanyezi?
She steps closer to me.
Miyah: What did you just say to me?
I look at her, I feel her hand landing hard on my cheek I stare
at her.
Miyah: Repeat what you said to me!?
Me: "I said I might fuck Vuyi, she can take a black dick any
day."
I see tears in her eyes.
Me: "You fuck with me, telling me you won't stop talking to
men and you cry when I say that huh."
Miyah: So you always wanted her,that is why you kept
seeing her pussy but you let her stay you enjoyed it!
She shoves me back.
Me: "You just told me you want to cheat on me with a ring on
your finger.*
I am getting really angry, she doesn't get it I don't want my
wife to entertain any men out there ever!
Me: "You want to go back home to your mother and leave my
kids here?"
She shake her head crying.
Me: "But you are planning meet ups with a man Miyah here
in my father's house why don't you just go and do that
koMkhabela?"
Miyah: I'm sorry.
Me: "No you're not, you are taking me for granted and I don't
like that, what if that guy takes you serious and follow you."
Miyah: I blocked him last night I wasn't serious and I didn't
reply to his other messages.
Me: "Why were you talking to him in the first place Miyah."
Miyah: I wanted to make you angry, that's why I left the
phone here I wanted to see you angry because you made me
angry the other day suggesting I find another man, I promise
baby I only replied once and I blocked him.
I get in bed and sleep facing up, she sit next to me.
Miyah: I am sorry.
I shake my head.
Me: "After all this Shaun thing is done, you're going back to
your mother's house Miyah maybe she will tell you that you
don't use another man to spite your husband.
Miyah: What about the kids Star, please I don't want to be
away from you, what I did was stupid but I wasn't serious I
swear.
Me: "My kids will stay right here."
She takes off her clothes until she is naked with tears
running down her eyes.
Me: "It won't work Miyah, not today, wear your clothes."
She get on top of me and pull down my boxers, I sit up and
put my dick back inside my boxer short.
Me: "No."
She wipe her tears and wear her clothes staring at me.
I close my eyes and open them again, she is still looking at
me, I sit up and wipe her tears and pull her ontop of me
sleeping on my back, I pull up her dress and slap her butt
cheeks hard a couple of times until I feel her holding me tight
her body becomes stiff then shake a bit, she is breathing
heavily on my neck, I pull out my dick and move her panty to
the side, I fill her hole up and slap her butt again causing her
to bounce on my dick a little, I slap it hard again I fell her
teeths on my shoulder, I keep slapping it her pussy walls
grip on my dick, I remove her dress and take off her bra, her
boobs are so pecky and fresh I pull her down and lick them
the push her back she is looking down on me my dick is still
in her she moves her waist I shake my head.
Me: "I don't want you to fuck me."
Her pussy is so warm the pussy muscles keep clenching I am
getting close she is shaking, she bite her lower lip squeezing
her boobs.
Miyah: Please Star..I..shit..please can I move just a little.
I shake my head, her hand slowly goes to her clit rubbing it a
little but I slap it away.
Miyah: I'm sorry, I won't ever do it again..please just..
She move her hands to my chest then scratch me with her
nails, I bite my lower lip.
Miyah: I know you want this..
She keeps scratching me..
Miyah: Let me have you baby please..
I grab her hips tight..
Miyah: please..
I start moving underneath her fast..
Miyah: Oh yes..baby..yes tighter.
I dig my nails to it and give her fast strokes she shakes and I
flip us and make her kneel on the bed and come from behind,
not giving her a chance I thrust while slapping that butt it's
red and my fingers there are visible, I stroke two more times
and pull out she turn around and stroke my dick with her
hand and put it in her mouth sucking it I shoot my cum in
her throat grabbing her hair in a tight grip, once i'm done I
sleep in bed she sleep next to me touching my chest I look at
it it's burning up.
Miyah: I'm sorry.
I nod and close my eyes falling asleep.
I feel someone shaking me I open my eyes it's Miyah with a
tray in her hands.
Miyah: Here's your breakfast..
I go to the bathroom and wash my face then go back and
start eating she is looking at me.
Miyah: Baba kaPhiwo I am sorry for what I did it was wrong
please forgive myeni wami. (my husband)
I nod and continue to eat, after I am done I take a shower
and get dressed to my jeans and tshirt then walk out.
Nqoba: "Hello dad."
Me: "Hey son, where is Ntsika."
Nqoba: "They are calling you in the backyard."
I nod.
Me: "Tell your brothers not to play on the front yard ok, at
least come at the back and play there."
He nods, this is the mini me, we look exactly alike even the
eyes, I am proud of how much they have learned sign
language in such a young age.
I go meet my brothers and find them busy with those street
lights.
Ntsika: You can sleep hey, we've been up since six o'clock
and Nadia already dug two holes next to the street and
covered them for now since we're still trying this out.
I look at Nadia she is wearing blue overalls and her sneakers
are dirty, Sfiso is busy on the computer.
Sfiso: We need a clear picture of Shaun.
Langa: Let me look it up..
He takes out his phone and give Sfiso the phone.
Sfiso: Thank you babe this is a much clearer picture.
They do their thing i'm just watching them.
Nadia: Someone needs to check the coast for me and help me
carry these street lights they are too heavy.
Me: "I will do it."
She wears her hat and they help us carry it towards the gate,
we check if there is no suspicious car coming then Nadia and
I walk out carrying the first and we put the pole where she
dug a whole and close it making sure it's standing still so it
doesn't fall then we do the same thing on the other side of
the street and go back home.
Sfiso: Ntsika and You Langa get in your cars and drive out
then pass the street lights I want to see if the cameras are all
good.
They get in their cars and drive out we are staring at the
computer.
Nadia: There's Ntsika the camera is in position that side.
Sfiso: "There's Langa it's all good.
They drive in and step out.
Ntsika: Is it working?
Sfiso: Yes as soon as Shaun comes near we will get an alert.
Nadia: Good, now we will keep looking if there are any cars
that are moving unusually slow outside our home.
We nod and we go eat lunch at the back yard our wives serve
us.
Nadia: Please let's all avoid being in the front yard ok.
They all nod.
Nadia: Did you hear me Iyana?
She ask Iyana who is busy on the phone.
Iyana: Yeah I heard you sis.
I don't think she understands all this, she is not listening at
all.
Me: "Iyana this is serious."
Iyana: I get it bhuti.
Me: "I hope so."
We get inside after lunch and we keep checking Sfiso's
computer, I see Iyana opening the front door and walk out I
follow her I find her on the veranda talking on the phone and
the car pass slowly, I pull her towards me and we fall on the
ground, my brothers are out shooting at the car, this feels
like dejavu, it takes me back to what happened to Miyah
when I thought I had lost her, Ntsika help me up while Langa
pull Iyana up.
Ntsika: Are you okay?
I nod, Nadia walk outside the gate while we go back inside
the house, I am so angry.
Iyana is standing in front of us.
Me: "Didn't you say you understood what Nadia was saying
to you?"
Iyana: I'm sorry bhuti I didn't think..
Luyolo: You don't listen Iyana.
He is sitting next to mom looking at us, Langa is red.
Langa: What if you got shot huh, you wanted to die?
Iyana: No..
Langa:What if Nkanyezi is the one who was shot trying to
save you from what you just did, we fucken told you not to
go out the front door!you don't listen!
I see him taking out his belt and start hitting her, she is
crying moving around the same spot..
He hit her a couple of times then stop .
Langa: This is not a game, we are trying here please work
with us..just listen for once, we still want to be together after
this, we don't want to be short of any family member..
Iyana: I'm sorry bhuti,I'm sorry.
It's really a good thing that she wasn't beaten by dad, she
must thank Langa for doing it first, dad doesn't play as old as
we are we know that very well.
We sit down and Nadia walk in and look at the computer.
Nadia: That must be the guys working with Shaun because
he wasn't there, and then wena Iyana what did I say to you?
Iyana: I'm sorry Sis I was just..
Nadia: Just what huh you almost got shot out there!
I see her taking out the phone and frowns.
Nadia: It's the number that Miyah gave me to call Shaun..
She answers.
Nadia: Hello...why would I do that?...that's never gonna
happen..
She drop the phone and look at me.
Me: "what is he saying?"
Nadia: He says that if we want him to leave us alone we must
give him Sage.
Me: "Never, he is losing it."
Nadia: Let's sleep guys we will keep checking at night.
We go our separate rooms and I get in bed my wife get in
next to me but there is too much space between us.
Me: "Come closer babe."
She move closer to me I kiss her and hold her tight.
She sit up and play with her hands.
Miyah: uhm have you ever felt like sleeping with Vuyi when
you saw her masturbating?
I sit up and look at her.
Me: "I'm sorry for what I said about her and no I have never
had any sexual feelings for any girl but you."
Miyah: You said some pretty hurtful things.
Me: "I was angry but that doesn't justify what I said i'm
really sorry babe I love you and only you."
She nods.
Miyah: Do you forgive me for what you saw on my phone.
Me: "Yes I forgive you."
She hugs me tight and we sleep back in bed.
In morning she shakes me.
Miyah: "Nadia is calling you."
I go to the bathroom and go meet with my brothers in the
lounge.
Nadia: You guys need to stay here and I will be around the
neighbourhood, when you see Shaun or his guys call me so I
can follow them.
Me: "I am coming with you."
Nadia: Ok so you can drive.
We walk to the car and I drive out we drive around and end
up at the mall to buy something to eat since we didn't eat
anything for breakfast and she is complaining.
We walk back to the car parking a few houses away from
home and start eating.
Nadia: I really want to kill all of them so we can go back to
the happy life.
Me: "What is Cooper saying about this."
Nadia: They are looking for Shaun but it's pointless they
won't find him if they are sticking to the rules that is why I
excluded myself from them for now.
I nod.
After a long wait her phone rings she talks for a while and
look at me.
Nadia: Let's go the car that was moving around yesterday is
back..
I nod and drive closer to hom we can see it slowly moving
when it's by the gate and stops for a while we stop behind
them and Nadia walk out and knock on their window, I see
her slowly taking out a gun and point through the window, I
step out and go to her.
My brothers are here now we are taking out these two
people in the cars Nadia took away their guns fron them and
we walk inside with them.
Nadia: Let me drive that car out of here I will leave it at the
market.
She walk out and we are in grandpa's house with guns in our
hands sitting infront of them.
Man: How long are you going to jut stare at us.
Ntsika: For a while until we feel like killing you.
Man: Then do it now.
Ntsika: Don't tell me what to do..
We sit in silence for a while and Nadia walk in and take a
chair sitting in front of them.
Nadia: So let's get down to business shall we, why were you
shooting at us yesterday?
Man: Because you messed with the wrong guy.
Nadia: What are you, his bitch? that's why it affects you that
we messed with him?
He looks at her angrily.
Nadia: Now we are going to play a game but wait for me for a
while I am coming.
She walks away and come back with a sharp kitchen knife
she sit back on the chair.
Nadia: So I am going to ask you questions and you will
answer truthfully, do you understand me.
They just look at her.
Nadia: Right, so how many of you are "team Shaun"?
They ignore her...she stabs the guy in the thigh and blood
come out as she pulls back the knife.
Nadia: Just be nice to me as I am nice to you ok, you shot at
our house yesterday we have kids we have wives, our family,
so you better tell me what I want to know now, how many
are you?
Man2: Come on man we are just doing what we are sent to
do we don't ask questions.
Langa: You are dumb don't talk any further..
Man: We are six, we use three different cars.
Man2: Really man are you going to be a bitch right now and
snitch on our boss?
I take the knife from Nadia and stab his shoulder staring at
him then pull it out and go wash my hands in the bathroom
then go back and sit down the guy is holding his shoulder a
lot of blood is coming out.
Nadia:Now pretty boy tell us where do we find him?
Man: We don't know where he stays we meet on different
location everyday.
Nadia: So you take shifts with the others or what?
Man: No we are not from here we only came here to finish
the job.
He is shaking with his hand on the stab wound
Langa: What job?
Man: Killing all of you for poking your noses in his business
then he will take the boy.
Nadia: Ok good later you will tell him you found the boy and
you ask where to meet.
Man: He will kill us.
Nadia: No we will and kill him too.
Man: You can't catch that man even the police failed.
Nadia: I can and I will.
He shakes his head.
Man: I feel sorry for you..
Nadia: You really should feel sorry for yourself.
My phone vibrates in my pocket it's a message from Miyah.
Miyah: *Are you guys going to eat today?*
Me: *Yeah dish up for us and bring it to grandpa's house.*
Miyah: *Ok.*
Me: *I love you.*
Miyah: *Thank you, I love you too.*
I put it back in my pocket and look at Ntsika.
Me: "The wives want to give us food but we can't let them
see this blood here.*
Ntsika: "I will go meet them outside."
He get up and walk out he comes back with plates and go to
the kitchen and walk out again and come back with the rest
of them.
Ntsika: "Miyah is asking for you outside."
I get up and find her standing outside looking down, I stand
in front of her and we hug.
Me: "Are you ok?"
She nods.
Miyah: Are we ok Star?
Me: "Yes we are fine baby."
She nods and hug me again.
Me: "I will see you a bit later tonight."
Miyah: Be safe ok.
Me: "Ok I love you."
She walks away and I walk back in and find Nadia and Langa
tying them on the chairs then we go to the kitchen to eat.
Later we go change our clothes and I take my gun, kiss my
wife and walk back to grandpa's house.
Nadia: Now make that call my guy if you try shit I will shoot
your brains.
They look weak from all the blood they lost.
Nadia put the phone she took from his pocket in his ear.
Man: Hey boss, we found the boy.. yes...we shot only two of
the guys yes boss.....ok we will meet you there.
Nadia remove the phone.
He tell us where we are meeting this boss and fortunately
Nadia knows where the place is, we drive there Sfiso stayed
behind, it's just Langa, Ntsika, Me and Nadia.
We stop a bit far from the building that is dark no single
light is coming from it.
Nadia: Let me call cooper and tell him to go arrest those guys
in Grandpa's house.
She make the call and then look at us.
Nadia: Let me go in there if I don't come out after 5 minutes
go home.
Me: "What do you mean, we are coming with you."
She shakes her head.
Nadia: No, none of you is going in there, it's dark in there
Nkanyezi and what if someone comes from behind to attack
you.
Ntsika: No Landile you can't go in there alone.
Nadia: I just want to check it out.
Langa: Then we will do it together let's go.
We walk in and once we are inside we can't see a thing now
maybe Nadia was right it's dark here and I can't hear
footsteps what if someone comes at me..
I move around for a while and take out my phone and use
flashlight, I can see Langa a bit far from me he look at me I
step closer to him.
Langa: I almost shot you man where is Nadia and Ntsika?
I move the light around the room and I can't see them, next
thing I feel a sharp pain in back and I go down immediately I
look at Langa he is down too, one of us is injured for sure.
Langa: There are gunshots on the second floor..
We stay down for a while then when the pain has died down
we walk out and find Ntsika outside we get in the car.
Me: "Where is Nadia?"
Ntsika: Let's go home.
He starts the car and drive us home we are looking at him
like how can we leave while Nadia is hurt.
We walk in and sit in the lounge no one is there.
Me: "What is going on Ntsika?"
Ntsika: Nadia said we should leave.
Langa: We didn't agree to leave her there Ntsika!
Ntsika: She is fine just a flesh wound.
Langa: That is not the point Pillar!
Ntsika: Stop shouting, Lucian and Luscious were already
ahead of us so I left her with them she is fine.
I look at him confused.
Ntsika: Uncle Carl called them and they got to Shaun first I
left Nadia with them because they have Shaun and the police
are on their way there, she insisted we leave because the
police that are coming are not with Cooper they will want to
ask us questions.
I nod and we sit there waiting for her to come home.
They walk in as I was starting to fall asleep, Nadia is limping,
I get up and hug her.
Nadia: I'm ok.
She shows us the wound on her back.
Me: "Go take a first aid kit Langa"
He walks away and Nadia sit down I clean the wound and
put a bandage over it, it looks pretty bad and it's from a very
sharp knife.
Lucian: How are you?
Me: "We are fine thank you for coming and bringing her
home."
Luscious: This is our home too right and you're our kids..
I smile.
Nadia: Ngilambile hamba uyophaka Langelihle..(I am hungry
go dish up Langelihle.)
Langa: Why me?
Nadia: You are the youngest in this room now go boy boy.
Langa: Angiyenzi leyonto.(I won't do that..)
Ntsika: Langa go we are hungry.
Langa: You too Ntsika!
Ntsika:Yes!
He get up looking angry and go to the kitchen.
He comes back with plates but it's one plate short, he gives
everyone except Nadia.
Nadia: Langelihle where is my food?
Langa: In the kitchen..
Me: "But she is injured Langa go take her food."
Langa: She can walk.
Ntsika: Langelihle..
Langa: Aaa ok ay!
He gives Nadia a plate then we eat.
Me: "So where is Shaun?"
Luscious: When the police got there he was still alive but I
don't think it will be for long, we shot him not far from the
heart.
Langa: Good..
Nadia: We had to pretend that he kidnapped me otherwise
those police weren't gonna arrest him because that is his
building we were trespassing, ay the law amaze me
sometimes.
Langa: I am sure you will change that law.
Nadia: Oh they know that I don't know anything about law, I
do what I have to do that's it.
We sit there and talk till the sun comes up, early in the
morning we hear a buzzer and we all stand outside waiting
for Cooper to step out of the car.
Cooper: Good Morning.
Nadia: Hello Colleague.
Coooper: Shaun is dead.
I smile.
Cooper: Apparently he kidnapped you Landile.
Nadia: Yes he did, that man is heartless, look at this.
She turns around and show her the bandage Cooper shakes
his head smiling.
Cooper: I need you at work today, and we found the kids that
you alerted us were in there thank you, all of you.
Nadia: But Cooper I am sick.
Cooper: No you're not..goodbye.
He get in his car and drive out.
Me: "There were kids in there?"
Lucian: Yes they were naked imagine.
Nadia: Now that is another heartless man, how can I go to
work with this pain, and you all just stood there and said
nothing!
We laugh leaving her there, thank God Shaun is dead now I
can focus on helping Sage heal.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
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Today is a wonderful day, me, my brothers and Sister are
washing our cars outside, the vibe is great and everything is
perfect my boy Sage is going for therapy twice a week and
we talk to him with my wife getting him to talk about his
feelings, Nadia offered to take him because they get along
and I have seen it, they like her because she plays soccer
with them when she is free.
We see a car parking outside the gate and a man step out and
lean on the car he has shades on, he is feeling himself.
Langa: Why would someone just park outside our gate like
that?
Ntsika: Who the hell is he?
Nadia: Let's ask him to move his tall ass out of here.
We step closer to the gate.
Nadia: Hey come closer.
He slowly walks towards us with his hand in his pocket and
remove the sunglasses and look at all of us.
Nadia: Can we help you?
Him: Yeah I am looking for someone.
Langa: Where?
Him: Here obviously..
Ntsika: If I may ask who is that someone?
Him: So you all came here to ask me that no wonder your
wives ask for meet ups.
Nadia: What do you want before we shoot your ass.
Him: I am looking for Miyalo Emihle Gumede.
They all turn to look at me.
Nadia: And who are you?
Him: Sihle Zulu she knows me just tell her it's Sihle Zulu
looking for her she will know..
I smile in disbelief shaking my head.
Ntsika: "Do you know him brother?"
I shake my head.
Langa: You need to leave.
Me: "No let me call Miyah for him."
I walk in and look for Miyah I find her in the kitchen with
Ntsoaki.
Me: "Hi someone is looking for you outside.."
Miyah: Me?
I nod and walk out, I stand outside my brothers are still
staring at the dude.
The minute Miyalo sees the guy she stops on her tracks and
stare at me shaking her head.
Me: "Go to him he is here for you."
She shakes her head I walk in and buzz him in then walk out
as the gate slides open.
Me: "Tell him to come in Miyah is here."
I take Miyah's hand and walk closer to this guy.
Me: "Can you guys give us space."
They nod and walk away.
Sihle: Hey babe I couldn't wait any longer you said you will
let me know when we should meet.
I smile staring at Miyah who is shaking and has glassy eyes.
Miyah: Nkanyezi I..
Me: "He is talking to you."
Miyah: How did you know where to find me?
Sihle: Oh come on who doesn't know where this beauty lives.
Miyah: Then you'd know that I am married and he is my
husband.
Sihle: A leopard never changes it's spot and this time it's a
cheetah so I thought maybe you wanted round two of being a
prostitute.
I grab his neck and punch him once then let him go, he wipes
his nose laughing.
Sihle: Your sex game must be bad or it doesn't reach her
experience.
I look at Miyah then walk inside, I look for my gun and walk
out I find them arguing I point the gun at him he raise his
hands up fast.
I look at Miyah she is crying,I stare at her for the longest
time while still pointing at this man, I shake my head and go
inside changing my clothes Miyah walks in after a while and
kneel in front of me.
Miyah: I am sorry baby, I didn't know this would hapen.
I nod and wear my shoes, she wipes her tears.
Miyah: Where are you going?
I shrug my shoulders.
Miyah: Baby please don't go, let's talk.
Me: "About how I told you the possibility of that man
following you or how I was insulted or maybe that he came
here looking for you in my father's house Miyalo where you
are married to, koGumede, my kids's home, what is it you
want us to talk about!"
She takes her phone and give it to me.
Miyah: Look there I only talked to him once, I blocked him
babe.
I throw it against the wall it shatters into pieces.
I get up and fix my pants she rush to the door, lock and take
out the keys.
Miyah: You are not leaving this room until we talk.
Me: "If maybe you think this talk will end up with me
fucking you then you're so wrong."
Miyah: I don't want sex I just want want us to talk.
I shake my head.
Me: "Open this door Miyah."
Miyah: No.
Me: "Miyah I was humiliated, a man came in my home and
asked for my wife in front of my brothers and now I have to
lie to them to protect your dignity as my wife."
Miyah: ngiyaxolisa Nkanyezi. (I'm sorry)
Me: "Do you need a break or a divorce from me?
Miyah: No Star.
I sit down and take out my phone, it's Asanda the journalist
asking for a meeting and I know they have found a story I
scroll down and see that she attached a headline written,
CAN YOU SETTLE DOWN WITH AN EX SEX WORKER?and
written in small letters is "looks like Miyalo Gumede the wife
of the well known Nkanyezi Gumede is tired of being tied
down already, she wants to go back to her old self, one of the
men came forward and showed us that they have been
talking and she is promising him a meet up we all know a
meet up with a prostitute end up with a pay up."
I look at Miyah and give her the phone.
Me: "One stupid text brought us back here Miyah."
She looks at me.
Miyah: I am sorry baby I didn't think it will come to this.
I take off my clothes and sleep in bed I know it's still early
but I don't feel too good anymore.
I sit up when Miyah shakes me and give me the phone, it's a
video on whatsapp and the caption says "I won't ask for a
single cent you can have me" It's from Vuyi I don't look at the
video but just give the phone back to Miyah she sit next to
me and play the video for me, it's her doing what she usually
does, sexing herself, desperate girl!
Me: "She is taking advantage of what is started by you
Miyalo."
I feel her hand touching my dick.
Miyah: Are you hard right now Star?
I get out of bed and go to the bathroom she follow me.
Miyah: So you actually got a boner from watching that?
Yeah my dick is hard but what did she expect, I am a man
and she forced me to watch a close up masturbation of a
woman.
I shower with her staring at me then I get dressed.
Miyah: "Where are you going?"
Me: "To fuck Vuyi."
Miyah: "Ok then I won't be here when you come back."
Me: "Make sure you leave my kids when you go to your
man."
Miyah: Maybe we should really take a break.
I smile shaking my head.
Me: "Ok."
I walk out and go eat dinner with my family.
Ntsoaki: Is Miyah ok hubby?
Me: "She will be fine."
Ntsoaki: Ok here is her food.
I take the food and go to our room, I find her packing a
suitcase and I place the food down and throw everything
down on the floor that she had on the suitcase.
Me: "I will slap you so bad that you'd wish you were never
born, try me."
She look at me.
Me: "Take that shit back to the closet and eat your food, we
are going somewhere."
She go down on her knees and slowly fold her clothes I go
down and touch her arms she look at me.
Me: "It's ok my love, I love you and I am going to fix this ok."
She nods I wipe her tears and kiss her forehead.
Me: We are meeting with Asanda, we will tell her that your
facebook account was hacked ok.
She nods.
Me: "Now look pretty as usual so we can go."
She go to the bathroom and I go to my twin brother's room.
Me: "Can you please come with us to clear things up about
this fake story."
Ntsika: Ok let me freshen up quickly.
I go back to my room and change to my black suit and white
shirt, no tie.
And Miyah wears her white dress that's a bit short, I stand
behind her at the dressing table and stare at her she looks at
me through the mirror, I brush her arms she doesn't look ok.
Me: "Other people's opinion doesn't matter, I will always
love you, you are my future I don't care about your past."
She get up and hug me tight.
Me: "Let's go."
I take her hand we walk out and find Ntsika waiting in the
lounge, we drive to the centre where we will make a live
statement I hate that if people know you they take every
little thing and make it an issue.
We walk in there's camera crew with Asanda and this Sihle
Zulu he stares at me I squint my eyes and shake my head.
We sit on the opposite couch with Miyah and Ntsika sit next
to this moron.
Asanda: We are live with Mr Nkanyezi Gumede and his wife
Miyalo Gumede and of course the ever smiling twin brother
Ntsika Gumede.
He smiles and wave at the Camera.
Asanda: And we also have Sihle Zulu who is a co-owner of
Zulu properties in Durban right?
He nods proudly.
Asanda: So Mr Zulu do you know Miyalo? we have seen a
little piece of your conversation with her, where you asked if
you guys could meet and she replied with "i'll let you know"
where did it all start?
Sihle: Well I saw a lady on facebook and tried my luck I mean
she is gorgeous but she ignored me but recently she replied.
Asanda: Did she contact you again after that "i'll let you
know"
Sihle: of course she did told me to meet me at her home and I
went there only to be pointed with a gun by the husband.
Asanda: Miss Miyah is this true?
She look at me.
Miyah: No it's not, I haven't been using facebook for months
now because it was hacked and there is no way I would ask a
guy to come to the house where I live with my in laws I am
not crazy.
Sihle: Maybe you were desperate for money or maybe you
just wanted a different man like you used to back in your
days.
Asanda: But didn't you think it was a bit disrespectful to go
to their home?
Sihle: She called me there.
Asanda: Mr Nkanyezi do you believe your wife when she
says her account was hacked?
Me: "Of course I believe her and I know for a fact that she
would never let a man she doesn't know get any close to our
family."
Ntsika translates.
Sihle: Maybe you have become broke, ladies like her can't
stay with a broke man.
Me: "Do I look broke, does she look like she is married to a
broke guy right now?"
Sihle: You little boys like acting rich in public but go hungry
in private.
Ntsika: Little boys?
Sihle: That's what I said.
Ntsika: Then why are you running after little's boys's wives
Mr Millionaire?
Sihle: Because an ex sex worker will never be tamed by a
young broke ass nigga, she needs a real man with money
that's why she agreed to meet up.
Asanda: I think you're wrong, looking at the numbers Mr
Nkanyezi Gumede's net worth is the highest than any young
men in KwaZulu Natal, we didn't even know you before this,
so was this your way of getting famous sir?
Sihle: What No,people know me.
Ntsika: No we don't.
Asanda: Mr Nkanyezi do you have something else to say?
Me: "One thing I want to say is people must stop trying to be
famous and relevant by using my wife's past it won't work,
she is Mrs Gumede and always will be if you want to be
famous let your work speak for you that's how I got to where
I am and also I am way out of your league so try next door
boy."
I take my wife's hand and we walk out leaving Ntsika
translating with a smirk on his face.
Once we're out we wait for Ntsika with Miyah in my arms
hugging her tight, they all walk out, Sihle looks so angry, he
comes to where we are standing.
Sihle: I will destroy you.
Miyah: Many have tried but they never succeed so give it
your best shot.
I smile.
Sihle: You will be sorry.
Miyah: We already feel sorry for you wannabe famous little
boy.
Sihle: Still can provide for you better than him.
Miyah: How about you look at the numbers baby boy
because they don't lie, stay in your lane and don't swim with
sharks they will swallow you.
Sihle: Letting a woman speak for you oh wait I forgot bitch
can't talk..
I see Miyah taking a step closer but I pull her back and kiss
her, she hold on to me we kiss for a while I think we both
forgot about that guy and the crew next to us, Ntsika pull us
apart.
Ntsika: Hey you two we just cleared off this little scandal we
don't want to have another one with a headline that says "Mr
and Mrs Gumede the third have sex in public" so please hold
yourselves.
Miyah playfully hit his shoulder.
Me: "Let's go home baby."
We get in the car and go home we go straight to our room
and change.
Me: "Do you want a glass of wine?"
She stares at me.
Miyah: "But you said I must stop drinking."
Me: "Just two glasses for being so fierce today and standing
up for your husband."
She smile, I walk out and take a glass filling it with Ice and go
back to our room, I go to the closet at the back and come
back with a wine, she has her eyes wide open staring at me.
Miyah: You were hiding my wine star!
I smile and pour it for her.
Miyah: You are a bad guy!
Me: "And you love me like that."
We get in bed.
I see myself in a rondavel back home and I am sitting with
Greatgrandpa(Mkhulu)
Mkhulu: Nkanyezi.
Me: Yes Grandpa.
My mouth is moving I can talk here?
Mkhulu: Do you need it?
Me: Need what?
Mkhulu: What you are using right now?
Me: I think so.
Mkhulu: Kulungile kodwa izingane zamfowenu ngeke zibe
nalo.(That's ok but your brother's kids won't have it.)
Me: Usho ukuthini Mkhulu?(What do you mean?)
Mkhulu: Your brother's girls won't have it.
Me: Then I don't want it, give it to them then, I have
mastered my language and I am fine with it, give it to them.
Mkhulu: But you said you need it.
Me: No I am fine please give it to them.
He smiles and walk out,he comes back and sit in front of me.
Mkhulu: Siyabonga Gumede.(Thank you Gumede.)
I open my eyes and look around I am in my room and Miyah
is standing looking at me shocked and scared.
Me: "What is it?"
Miyah: You...you were talking in your sleep.
I look at her.
Miyah: I am not lying this time I heard you Nkanyezi.
Me: "I know."
Miyah: Can you speak now?
I shake my head.
Miyah: What is going on?
Me: "What time is it?"
Miyah: it's 7 o'clock in the morning.
She opens the door and Ntsoaki walk in and look at me.
Ntsoaki: Get dressed and come to the lounge.
I go to the bathroom and we walk out, I find Langa holding
Nkosazana and Sfiso has Qhawekazi sitting in front of
Ntsoaki, the whole family is here.
Ntsoaki: You can sit down.
I sit down and Miyah sit next to me.
Ntsoaki: Are you sure about this?
I nod.
Langa: What is going on?
Ntsoaki: Hold their right hands.
I move and sit in front of Sfiso and Langa then take the girls's
right hands and look at Ntsoaki.
Ntsoaki: Gumede, Qwabe, Phakathwayo you can give it to the
little girls, their father Nkanyezi is passing it to them..
She starts clapping her hands together and I look at the girls
they look back at me with their blue eyes, I smile, I feel like
something is coming out of me through my arm veins then
after a while it stops.
Ntsoaki: It's done thank you Gumede.
I nod and take the crying Nkosazana and get up with her, I sit
on the couch rocking her, she falls asleep, I take her to their
fathers's room and put her in her cot bed and walk back to
the lounge.
Ntsika: What is going on?
Me: "I guess I always had a voice in me that just suddenly
stopped coming out when we were kids, so now Mkhulu
wanted to give it back to me."
Langa: So you can talk now?
I shake my head.
Langa: Then what do you mean?
Me: "I gave it to Nkosazana and Qhawekazi they weren't
gonna be able to talk."
Langa: What? You mean you sacrificed your voice for them?
Me: "It's a gift not a sacrifice brother, I am used to this now
this is the Nkanyezi people know and Ntsika has always been
my voice and he will continue to be, so I gave my kids that
gift."
They all look at me.
Me: "And Miyah I am sorry for being angry at me when you
said you heard me say your name because I think I did it was
coming back."
Langa: So now you had a chance to speak again and you
decided to give it to ..
He has tears in his eyes.
Me: "I know the difficulties of growing up without a voice
even though it was easier for me because I had all of you, but
the kids that I teach had difficulties, so now that I had a
chance to change that with my girls I took it.
Langa: Thank you Gumede, thank you.
He get up and we hug for a while, Sfiso as well.
Ziyanda: You are a rare breed all of you and I am proud to
call you my kids, thank you Nkanyezi that was so big of you.
She hugs me dad shakes my hand.
Luyolo: What you did for your brothers's kids is great thank
you Phakathwayo.
I nod and go back to my room, Miyah comes in after a while
and hug me, her body is shaking, she is crying I brush her
back until she calms down.
Me: "Take my phone and come sit here next to me."
She takes it and sit next to me.
Me: "I want you to record this I can only say it once."
She press record and I open my mouth.
Me: I love you Miyalo Gumede, my beautiful wife, the mother
of my kids Phiwokuhle and Phiweyinkosi, I was going to say
my vows again but I don't think I can reach that far, I love
you maMkhabela,Dinangwe.
I close my mouth and look at her, all this time saying this I
had my eyes closed hoping I say it right because I can't hear
myself talking, whether I am too loud or just low.
She is crying so hard her hands are shaking.
Me: "Save that we will go buy a new phone for you so you
can have it there."
She sit on my lap and hug me tight, she is so emotional I feel
my own tears coming out of my eyes as I squeeze her tight,
we cry for a while,I get up with her in my arms and lay her in
bed taking off her dress and shoes, I take off my pants and
tshirt and sleeps next to her holding her tight in my arms.
She cries until I feel her breathing change and I know she fell
asleep.
Someone opens the door and it's Langa, he stares at me with
tears running down his eyes I step out of bed and walk
closer to him, We hug tight I am patting his back to calm him
down then step away from him.
Me: "Stop crying you look pink now and you also look like a
young Langa that used to cry all the time when we were
kids."
He smiles wiping his face.
Langa: "Thank you for what you did."
Me: "You're my little brother I would do anything for you."
Langa: "Is Miyah ok."
Me: "She is just emotional she heard my voice so it's normal
for her to feel that way."
He hugs me again.
Me: "Stop acting like a big baby and get out of my room."
Langa: "Let me cry to my big brother it's allowed."
Me: "Not when you have a husband, so out."
He laughs and give me a bow, I bow back and he walk out.
I go back to bed and cuddle my wife.
I wake up when I feel the bed moving, I look next to me,
Miyah has my phone in her chest I sit up.
Me: "Was I too loud? And how was the voice?"
She smiles she still have glassy eyes.
Miyah: Now I can proudly say that I am the only girl you ever
said you love in your whole life, I am so happy I will always
wake up to this recording and sleep listening to it, thank you
so much.
Me: "Thank you for being mine."
Miyah: In the morning it was so bold and scary when you
talked in your sleep but here it sounds so smooth and sweet
and I believe every word you said, I love you too Nkanyezi
Gumede.
Me: "Let me take you out since we didn't eat breakfast."
We take a shower together and drive to her favourite
restaurant and she orders for both of us.
Miyah: "I am proud of what you did for your brother's little
girls."
Me: "Thank you and I feel good about it."
Miyah: "Do you think they will have that bold manly voice."
I smile.
Me: "I don't think so babe, come on."
She laughs
Miyah: imagine pretty girls like that with deep voices.
We eat then buy a phone for her and shop a little for those
kids that are all over mom's house and Miyah knows their
sizes, all of them, I didn't sign up for this shopping but what
Mrs Nkanyezi wants Mrs Nkanyezi gets.
We go back home and she makes the older kids fit their
clothes, that's Sage, Q who is not so keen on fitting the
clothes but Miyah isn't playing with him, then Khosi and his
brothers the rest are fitted by them while I go to my
brothers.
Nadia: I heard what you did this morning you are a
remarkable man.
Me: "Thank you sis."
Nadia: I want to be like you when I grow up.
Langa: Are you still going to grow up?
Nadia: Yes and be older and wiser like Ntsika and Nkanyezi.
Langa: What about me?
Nadia: What about you?
Ntsika and Sfiso are laughing.
Sfiso: Gumede..
He says looking at me I nod. This is what I want to see, all of
us united and happy together.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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LANGA
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I am at home counting Mkhulu's cows in the kraal and I see
him coming to me with his walking stick, he touch my
shoulder.
Mkhulu: Ziphelele?(are they all here.)
Me: Yebo Mkhulu (Yes Grandpa)
Mkhulu: Awubalanga kahle.(you didn't count right.)
He starts counting again then look at me smiling.
Mkhulu: One is missing let's go find it.
We walk in silence all the way to the stream and sit down.
Mkhulu: Forgive yourself, your brother has longed forgiven
you, don't bring it back up.
Me: This was his chance to have it back, people still pick on
him because of this, this was his chance to stop the insults he
still gets.
Mkhulu: Let it go Langelihle.
I nod wiping my tears.
Mkhulu: Nangu ubaba wakho.(Here's your father.)
I look up and I can see the twin brothers, Grandpa get up and
we walk closer to them.
Mkhulu: Misokuhle apologise.
Misokuhle: Langelihle you have grown now, please forgive
me for everything I did to you and your family.
I nod and we handshake the other one is just quiet, I see the
missing cow and run to it, we go back home and move it back
in the kraal.
Mkhulu: We are done here, remember to forgive yourself.
I nod.
I wake up and look around I am in my room sweating Sfiso is
sleeping next to me, I go to the bathroom and stand next to
my kids's beds.
Me: You guys are precious and I love you so much.
I kiss all three of them and go back to bed.
Sfiso: Are you ok babe?
He says mumbling.
Me: Yes I am fine, go back to sleep.
Instead he get on top of me kissing my neck.
Sfiso: You have been tense since yesterday.
Me: I am just thinking about life, how my brothers care about
me after everything I have said and done in the past.
He sit up and pull me up.
Sfiso: Leave the past in the past Langelihle your brothers
love you and they don't look like they are holding anything
against you babe, let it go.
Me: That's what Mkhulu said in my dream.
Sfiso: Then do it..
I rub my eyes.
Me: You know I once took away Manqoba from Ntsika.
He looks at me.
Me: Elena, my ex wife wanted him because apparently she
did an abortion that made her barren.
I chuckle.
Me: Do you know what I said?I said I don't want Nqoba
because he looks exactly like Nkanyezi so chances are he will
be deaf and I said I don't want a deaf child.
I wipe my tears.
Me: I said it straight to his face, he was disappointed, mom
was broken, and now I was about to witness my girls's be
like him and he changed it, I was so rude Sfiso I was a
different person then I was angry and malicious I..
The pain I feel in my heart right now..
Sfiso: Don't do this to yourself Langa, stop ok.
I sleep back in bed and cover my eyes, he sleep next to me
and hold me tight, I let it all out.
I must have fell asleep, I wake up when Sfiso shakes me.
Sfiso: Please help me they are all crying at the same time.
I smile and get out of bed, we bath them then Sfiso walk out
to get them their bottle, I think we are getting good at this,
the first week was hard mom had to take them because they
just couldn't stop crying in the middle of the night and I was
so sad I felt like they didn't like me but mom assured me that
kids cry all the time , it's what they do. Their father went
crazy when he saw that they all have blue eyes he still stares
at them from time to time because of those eyes.
He comes back and we feed the girls first then I take Qhawe
and feed him they all fall asleep and I go back to bed.
Sfiso: Aren't you eating breakfast?
Me: No I am good.
Sfiso: Should I bring it here?
Me: Yeah that's fine.
He walk out for a while then he comes back with a plate, I eat
then go back to bed. I wake up when I hear one the twins
crying I roll out of bed, it's Nkosazana and she is growing big
now just like her twin sister and the little guy isn't lighter
like the girls now, I just love them so much.
I change her diaper and give her the bottle she falls back
asleep again I put her next to me and I fall asleep again, I feel
a hand shaking me again I open my eyes it's Nkanyezi
holding Phiwe in his arms, he look at me for a while like he is
searching for something in my eyes I keep moving them
around the room, I sit up and he hand Phiwe to me I take
him and smile he is just like him.
Nkanyezi: "Are you sick?"
I shake my head.
Nkanyezi: "I am not there Langelihle, I know what you're
thinking."
I look down he touch my shoulder.
Nkanyezi: "I was in your dream last night and I know you
feel guilty for what you once said but just like Mkhulu said,
let it go I even forgot about that until you and Mkhulu talked
about it."
Me: But this was your chance Nkanyezi.
Nkanyezi: And between me and those little girls I think they
will need a voice more than me, I am grown now, this is the
only way I can communicate and a voice was going to
require me to learn something new again, like being able to
know if I am too loud or too low because I would still be
deaf."
I nod.
Nkanyezi: "Stop doing that to yourself I love you, we are one
right, your voice can still be my voice like in my wedding,
you were my voice and I am grateful for that."
Me: Thank you, I love you.
Nkanyezi: "Good, I need their birth certificates."
Me: Oh all of them?
He nods.
Nkanuyezi: "I am saving money in their name and if I
manage to save enough money I am going to build another
school that will generate money for their future."
My mouth is dry like how can one person have such a good
heart.
Nkanyezi: "Close your mouth a fly might get in there."
I swallow my saliva and continue to stare at him he smile
shaking his head.
Nkanyezi: "Should I ask Sfiso instead?you look lost."
Me: I..no..I..it's there in the first drawer.
I point at it, he get up and take them out, he sit next to me
Nkanyezi: "Do you think I will need you or Sfiso because of
these different surnames?"
Me: It won't you see there, my name is Langelihle Gumede
Langa.
Nkanyezi: "Oh yeah I forgot that you didn't throw away
Gumede like we did with our wives making them drop their
last names."
I laugh, he didn't want Miyah to be Miyalo Emihle Mkhabela
Gumede he wanted her to be a Gumede only and so is Ntsika.
Nkanyezi: "Now freshen up, we will do this tomorrow, today
we are painting the city red, better call a cab because none of
you is driving."
Me: But you don't like drinking.
Nkanyezi: "Today is an exception little brother Nadia is
taking us to the townships."
I laugh, I knew it.
Nkanyezi: We are leaving all these kids with the grandmas so
that they will know how it feels to be a granny, I wish Auntie
Mbali was alone and leave all of them with her."
Me: We were gonna turn back without even drinking the
first beer.
He smiles and take Phiwe who has fallen asleep in my arms.
Nkanyezi: "We are going to be great dads I tell you."
Me: Yes we are, Ntsika is leading the way and he is good.
He walk out and I go and freshen up, I wear my white tshirt
and black jeans, Sfiso walk in and he is also wearing like me.
Me: Why are you wearing like me?
Sfiso: Hey I wore it first babe.
He kiss me for a while then step back.
Sfiso: You're ok now?
Me: Talking to Nkanyezi helped me a lot I feel better.
Sfiso: They love the hell out of you and so do I.
He kiss me again lifting my tshirt I hold his arms.
Me: You want to do this right now?
Sfiso: Just one to start our day.
Me: But I am clean.
He laughs.
Me: We will do it tonight all over this room.
He smirks.
Sfiso: I will hold you to that.
I smile and kiss him, we take the kids to the lounge and they
already have their portable beds in there and it's a lot of
them, I laugh so hard as Nadia has her hands on her waist
looking at the beds.
Nadia: How can you have so many kids guys? Like how can
you make such a young woman a grandma to so many
grandchildren?
Luyolo: Says someone who is adding not one but three boys!
Me: Imagine!
Ntsika: We Ain't imagining shit you have three too.
Nkanyezi: "And you have five so get out of here Ntsika."
Everyone laughs, Auntie Mbali walk in with a wine in her
hand we stare at her.
Mbali: Don't look at me like that, I might need a glass or two
for this work I am about to put in here that's a lot of kids!
Ntsika: But you are in heels auntie are you taking this
serious?
Mbali: Ok I may be a grandma but baby I don't have to look
like one, I am a grandma with style.
Sunshine: Me too baby.
She walk in followed by her daughter and uncle kwanele, we
hug little Sunny she is so shy with that sweet smile on her
face.
Kwanele: Why are you acting like kids?
Me: Who.
Kwanele: You, your brothers and your crazy sister.
Nadia: Haaa!
Kwanele: Don't say nyaa are you going to a high school
concert, why are you wearing a uniform.
I move my eyes around the room and I notice the brothers
are also wearing black and white and so is Nadia.
Ntsika: Oh I am not changing at all.
Nkanyezi: "Me too."
Nadia: I wore like this first.
Sfiso: Don't lie Nadia, lying is a sin I am the one who was
ready before all of you Langa was asleep that time.
Mbali: Can you please go, please we just want to be alone.
We laugh walking out.
Kwanele: I am driving you but I won't stay we have our own
fun at Carl's place.
We get in the Quantum bus and Nadia direct him to Sabza's
place and when we get there it's packed.
Kwanele: Call me when you want to go back home.
He drives away and we walk in and sit on the table looks like
Nadia had already told them we are coming.
They greet us and they are always happy to see Nadia..
We order meat and start eating I can't get over how great it
tastes.
Ntsika: We need to buy some for the ladies this meat is good.
Me: You're right.
We order beers and start drinking and next thing we see a
crew standing in front of us and this is the guy, Sihle Zulu the
one who was claiming that Miyah was flirting with him.
Nkankeyi: "Is he by any chance following us?"
Me: I think so that's what people who are desperate for fame
do.
Nadia: Uhm do you want these leftovers?
He stares at Nadia?
Nadia: I am asking because you look like a puppy and a
puppy is always searching for something to chew..
Ntsika being Ntsika starts laughing.
Sihle: We need this table..
Ntsika: I'm sorry please wait a sec...hey Sabza can you switch
down the volume please looks like someone have something
to say.
He shouts at Sabza and he gives her a thumbs up and the
volume is down and everyone's eyes is at our table.
Sihle: I said we need this table right now!
Me: Why?
Sihle: Because I said so.
Nadia: And who are you sir?
Sihle: I am Sihle Zulu he knows me and so is his wife.
Nkanyezi smiles shaking his head.
Nadia: Lord please forgive me for everything I have done and
what this moron is provoking me to do because I will do it
God, I know I will.
Sihle: Hey Sir can you come here quickly..
He says calling Sabza he slowly comes and look at him.
Sihle: Can you organise this table for us?
Sabza: askies?
Sihle: My friends and I need this table.
Sabza: So what do you suggest I do with my brothers here?
Sihle: I don't know throw them out I am bringing in a lot of
money here so think about it.
Nadia: Sabza my guy go back and do your thing we will
handle this.
Sabza: Please do because I am getting pissed.
He says staring at Sihle and walk away.
Ntsika: What do you want baby boy?
Sihle: Who are you calling a baby boy?
Ntsika: You..
He quickly moves and grab Ntsika pulling him up, I chuckle.
Me: Wrong move buddy...wrong move..
People move and stand circling us the music has completely
stopped playing, we all get up.
Ntsika: I know you didn't just grab me..
He says laughing.
Sihle: I did.
Ntsika: Can you do it again, I want to see something.
He steps closer, Ntsika knock him up with his left fist and
Sihle stumbles back and his crew hold him.
Ntsika: Let's try that again, shall we..
He steps closer again and attempt to punch Ntsika but he
slowly move to the side.
Ntsika: You are slow, let me teach you something.
He pull him closer and pumch him twice not letting him go
then knee his stomach and push him he falls on the ground.
Ntsika: Never put your filthy hands on my white tshirt I still
love wearing it..so who is next?
One of them walk closer to Ntsika.
Nadia: Let me speak to him brother, we will just talk man to
woman.
Ntsika: Ok.
Nadia: Yes I just want to talk..
She stands in front of him.
Man: angikhulumi nabafazi mina. (I don't talk to women.")
Nadia: awu ngempela.(Oh really?)
He stares at her.
Nadia: Good this makes things a lot easier then.
She push him a little I think she wants to make him angry,
she push him again and the man tries to throw a punch she
blocks it and spit on his face.
Me: Ouh!!
Him: Wenzani wena nja.(What are you doing you dog.)
Nadia starts giving him quick punches like she is in a boxing
ring then give him one last punch that knocks him down.
The noise the crowd makes.
Nadia: Anyone who wants a go, my adrenalin is pumping and
I am getting hungry so come on.
But no one comes out.
Nadia: Ok Sabza we need another round that was a lot of
work.
We sit on the table while Sihle and his crew fix their selves
up.
We eat meat again and drink our beers the crew take out
guns. Nadia stares at them.
Nadia: Don't come here with the attitude from the suburbs
this is iKasi.
Sihle: But a bullet is a bullet.
He says wiping his bloody mouth.
Nadia: True..
She get up and takes out her gun and I see Sabza, Rogger and
their friends coming closer with guns pointed at Sihle's crew.
Nadia: You want to do this lover boy?right here?
They move away their guns.
Sabza: Leave..
They walk away but Sihle turns a little.
Sihle: I am coming for you.
Nadia: You know where to find us.
Sihle: You won't see me coming.
Nadia: Ok invisible guy.
He clicks his tongue and walk away.
Me: He has anger issues.
Nadia: He needs uhm what do you call it..
Sfiso: Anger management..
Nadia: Yes that or a bullet in his head.
We continue drinking and eating, we are having so much fun.
Sfiso: I love you.
Ye whispers I smile.
Me: I love you too.
Later we call it a night and buy meat for the ladies and when
we are about to call uncle Kwanele Rogger comes to us.
Rogger: I don't see your cars anywhere I can organise a
transport for you but it's nothing fancy.
Ntsika: Anything is fine as long as we will get home.
Rogger: Ok please wait for a while.
He make a call and a Quantum with loud music playing drive
in.
Rogger: There it is..
Nadia: Thanks man.
Rogger: I am trying to score points hoping you like me back..
I laugh.
Nadia: I will shoot your ass so bad.
He laughs we go in the car and it drives us home Rogger is
here too.
We thank them and walk in, we get in and the ladies are still
up talking.
Me: Hello family.
Ziyanda: They are drunk ok.
Me: No we're not, we bought meat for you guys.
We give them and they can't stop complimenting it, it's really
good.
We go to our room with Sfiso and the kids will be with mom.
I take off my clothes.
Sfiso: Remember your promise.
Me: How can I forget.
We start kissing taking off our boxer shorts jerking off our
dicks slowly..
Sfiso: Mmm babe..
He push me to bed and get ontop of me, he roughly kiss my
neck then my mouth while moving his dick balls deep in he
starts moving so fast our groans fill our room we are
sweating, we flip and I move fast on top of him with his dick
in and out of me.
Sfiso: Shit..you're the sexiest man I have ever seen
baby..fuck..
His hands are on my waist he starts going faster and deeper
my dick is up and I will cum anytime now, he quickly moves
me and my dick is on his mouth sucking the cum out of me I
quickly move my dick out..
Me: Ooh shit..Sfiso..damn babe..shit..
I cum so hard he push me and get behind me, he slam into
me fast his balls are hitting mine it's crazy hot in here,he
cums and i turn to look at him as he strokes dick with cum
splashing out, he gives me a side smile.
Sfiso: You're hot!
I smile.
Me: I can be even hotter..
Sfiso: Oh yeah
I raise my eyebrow pushing him to sleep on his back and
start sucking his balls then lick his hole for a while while
playing with his balls..
Sfiso: Shit..
I enter him and start moving slow looking at each other's
eyes.
Sfiso: I love you..
Me: I love you..
I move faster while stroking his hard dick he groans loud
calling my name as he cum, I cum right after him, we sleep
next to each other.
Sfiso: The bed is wet Langa.
Me: Let's sleep on the floor.
We fix the blankets on the floor and he gets ontop of me we
have one last round on the floor.
I sleep ontop of him.
Sfiso: My always.
Me: My forever,goodnight babe.
Sfiso:Goodnight my love.
We fall asleep, in the morning I wake up still ontop of him
and I take advantage by rubbing our dicks together once his
is up I insert it in my hole and start moving faster I am so
horny I want to cum as soon as possible..
Sfiso: Yes..Langa baby..yes..
I feel his dick twitching deep in me, he strokes my dick faster
while still moving on top of him, my body tenses up..
Sfiso: That was hot, opening your eyes to this sight is just
perfect.
I pull him up we go to the bathroom and take a shower, we
walk out and change the bed covers and fix our room, we get
in bed and sleep again.
We wake up when we hear someone shouting at the top of
their voices outside the gate, I look out the window it's a
very thick woman, I have never seen her before.
Her: Ziyanda!hey Luyolo!open this fucken gate right now.!!
She is going crazy..we walk out with Sfiso after wearing our
pants we find Nadia and my brothers already outside.
Her: Oh these are the big bullies, Luyolo you bastard open
this gate!!
Ntsika: Let me open the gate.
The gate slides open and she take quick steps towards us.
Her: So you are Ziyanda's bully bastards?
Nadia: Who are you to call us bastards!!
Her: Oh so there is many of you, that fool keeps raising
another man's chidren, Ziyanda keeps bitching around!!!
Ntsika: Are you calling my mother a bitch?
Her: She always have been...
Ntsika steps closer but mom shouts.
Ziyanda: What is going on out here, who is shouting my
name like that!
She comes out with dad and Sunny and Mbali come out too.
Ziyanda: Lesedi!
Me: Lesedi?as in dad's ex, Lesedi?
Mbali: Oh God I thought you died.
Lesedi: You thought wrong..
Ziyanda: After all these years of peace you still remember
me, you really love me sis Lesedi.
Lesedi: Luyolo!
Luyolo: Yini kodwa why didn't you just stay away for
longer(why though)
He says in a very annoyed voice.
Lesedi: How when these bastards you are raising are
bullying our son.
Mbali: Oh it's her alright she is back with another bullshit
stunt.
Lesedi: Luyolo we have a son.
Luyolo: Is he plastic?a silicone son?
We laugh so hard.
Lesedi: You left me pregnant.
Mbali: When because the last time we saw your ass was
when you had a very fake baby bump did it turn out to be a
baby?
Lesedi: He is your son Luh I promise.
Dad is so bored.
Lesedi: And your bastards are abusing him!
Me: Hey who is this son you are annoying us about?
Lesedi: Sihle!hey Sihle! Come meet your dad.
We all look at each other as Sihle Zulu walk in with his
friends behind him.
Nadia: Is he back for round two?
Lesedi: This is your real son luyolo.
Dad starts laughing so hard he even have tears coming out.
Lesedi: I know he is a Zulu but I can explain, my husband we
got married and I guess I was already pregnant with him and
we raised him together and when he died I did a DNA test
and he wasn't his.
Luyolo: Story of my life, what else?
Lesedi: Accept your son Luyolo he is your blood.
Luyolo: No, they are my blood, just look at them so
handsome and beautiful.
Lesedi: They are nothing to you.
Luyolo: No, he is nothing to me, I would bring all my children
and my grandchildren out and you will see the resemblance
they all have and your son looks nothing like them.
Lesedi: That's because they are not yours Luyolo!can't you
see you have an heir right here.
Luyolo: Who does he look like?
Lesedi: Me but he has your eyes look at him.
Ntsika is sitting down now dead with laughter.
Nadia: Scam!
Luyolo: Bring it in..
He fist bump Nadia and I start laughing too.
Luyolo: Get out of my yard Lesedi and your scam crew.
Lesedi: Luyolo...
Luyolo: Let me not repeat myself..and please just stay away..
Lesedi: Luyolo I am not lying look at this..
She takes out a paper and give it to dad.
Luyolo: I am not touching that it might have voodoo in it.
Mbali snatch it from her hands.
Mbali: Who is Luyolo Mzozo baby?
Lesedi: Don't be stupid.
Mbali: And where did you get his DNA? bitch please...
She throws the paper in her face and shove her back.
Sihle: Don't touch my mother like that..
Nadia: Or what? What you gonna do?
Sihle: This time I won't beso nice you spoilt brats, I will
come back and take what rightfully belong to me including
your wife.
He points at Nkanyezi, he shakes his head.
Nkanyezi: "This guy thinks I am his friend."
He look so angry, he grab Sihle and starts punching him
countless times even when he is down he continue until we
pull him from him.
Nkanyezi: "Next time I will kill you"
He walk back inside the house.
Lesedi: How can you allow this to happen Luyolo, he is your
son.
Luyolo: Don't make me a fool I know how my kids look.
Lesedi: How? you don't even have a single one with her.
Mbali: She is smoking something.
Auntie Sunny step closer to the crew.
Sunshine: Are you walking out or should I make you?
They slowly step back and walk out.
Sunshine: Follow them out..
she says to Lesedi and his son.
They all work out and we walk back inside.
Ziyanda: What if she is right Luyolo?
Mbali: Here we go..
She says rolling her eyes.
Luyolo: Don't piss me off Ziyanda not in front of my kids..
Ziyanda: You guys were always fucking everywhere..
Luyolo: I said not in front of my kids, do you hear me!
He shouts and mom stares at him.
Mbali: Ziyanda are you telling me you believe that crazy
woman over your husband?please man, even those fake
printed DNA she had...please don't embarrass me..
Sunshine: Yeah she mustn't do that..
I laugh, mom gives me a look I stop immediately.
I take my kids and go back to my room, that drama came too
early man I still want some sleep.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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NKANYEZI
*
It's early in the morning and I am called in at the centre
because there is an email that is strictly for me so I am
getting ready to go there.
Miyah: You're up early today my love.
Me: "I need to rush to the centre there is an important email
at the there."
Miyah: You don't think it's Vuyi?
Me: "I don't think so."
Miyah: Ok.
Me: "And I will meet my lawyer because I already have the
kids's certificates with me."
She nods and kiss me, I kiss my kids and walk out I find
Nadia getting in her car.
Me: "Hey sis, you're going to work?"
Nadia: Yes I have to pretend that I am interested in learning
the law and how they work as if I will use that.
Me: "I see you have a badge now."
She shakes her head laughing.
Nadia: Yeah man let me get going, I'll see you later.
We shoulder hug get in our cars and drive out in opposite
directions.
I drive in a centre and find Sihle in my office I am tempted to
beat the fuck out of him but this is my workplace.
I sit in my chair and stare at him.
Sihle:I won't understand shit you gonna try to say with those
hands so I will just get straight to the point, Look at that e-
mail in your computer and if you think of hurting me think
about who might have that and I can have it leaked with a
snap of my finger, good day.
He smile then walk out.
I open the e-mail and it's written Mr Nkanyezi Gumede's
wife I click on it and I wish I didn't, it's Miyah and the girls
she used to be friends with naked taking turns on the man
on the couch, everything is clear there, everyone can see it's
my wife even the angles are different it's like a compiled
video in different angles their faces are clear.
I switch it off and bow my head down, if this comes out the
media will have a feast on my wife.
I sit back on my chair and wipe my face, I delete the video
from my computer and walk out.
I drive to meet with my lawyer in town with the copies of the
kids's bith certificates and I just brief him on what I want
then drive back home, I go to my room and find my wife
busy with the kids.
Miyah: You came back early.
I nod and take off my clothes then sit in bed looking down,
she stands in front of me I look at her.
Miyah: Are you ok?
Me: "You remember that house you were using with your
friends."
She stares at me for a while then her face changes she look
angry.
Miyah: What about it?
Me: "Did you know there were cameras in that dining
room?"
She moves away from me and go back to the kids.
I stand up and walk out to eat lunch I find everyone at the
table, I nod smiling Ntsika look at me.
Ntsika: "Why are you faking it."
I shake my head.
Miyah sit next to me keeping her eyes down.
We eat then I go back to my room and wear my jeans and a
tshirt.
Miyah: Where are you going?
Me: "And you expect me to answer that while you couldn't
give me a simply answer, did you know that the dinning
room of that house had cameras, yes or no Miyalo!"
Miyah: I don't even know why you're asking about my past
you're the one who said you don't care about it!
Me: "This is not the time for you to get angry Miyah just
answer my damn question."
Miyah: No, no I didn't know ok now leave me alone!
Me: "Leave you alone?"
Miyah: Yes!
Me: "I don't know man..this.."
Miyah: What do you mean by "this" star.
Me: "You Miyalo, your past is coming back to bite us in our
asses."
Miyah: What are you talking about?
Me: "Do you remember when you and your friends were
taking turns on a dick of an old man..."
I don't finish she slap me I slap her back she goes down on
the floor and touch her face..
I pull her up and make her sit in bed her cheek is red..
Me: "I am sorry babe, I'm sorry."
She starts crying.
Me: "I'm sorry Miyalo."
Miyah: I..I want to go back home.
I look at her.
Miyah: I want to go home.
Tears are falling down her face,I feel bad I shoudn't have
asked her about that I am sure she is not proud of it and the
slap I know she hit me first but I am a man my hand is bigger
than hers.
Me: "Ngiyaxolisa."(I am sorry)
She shakes her head and walk out before I can even stop her.
I pace around the room and the door opens dad walk in and
stand in front of me next thing a very hot slap lands on my
face I step back.
Luyolo: Did you see what you did Nkanyezi?did you see it?
Me: "I didn't mean to..."
He slap me again and I move away from him.
Luyolo: She want to leave you today! are you happy? if we let
her what would her mother say when she get home looking
like that.
Me: "I am sorry dad I really am sorry."
Luyolo: You're sorry!?follow me..
He walks out and I find Miyah in their room crying on mom's
chest, the minute she remove her head my mouth is hung
open, her eye is almost closing she is so red.
Me: "Baby I am sorry I didn't mean to hurt you like this I
swear on our kids's life I didn't mean for this."
I am kneeling down in front of her, Miyah and I fight a lot
and she always hit first and I have slapped her before but not
like this I guess that swing was too much this time around.
Miyah: I am leaving.
She says wiping her tears I shake my head.
Me: "No please at least stay at grandpa's house."
Miyah: I want my mother.
She cries hugging mom tight, I get up and walk out, I see that
Phiwe is awake I take him and change his wet diaper then
feed him then come back with his bottle and give it to him, I
lay him in his bed he is sleepy but don't want to close his
eyes.
Me: "Sleep little one."
He smiles.
Me: "I didn't mean to hurt your mom like that."
The door open and Miyah walk in she goes to the closet and
throw down everything, she then sit on her butt and start
folding her clothes. I take a chair and sit next to her.
Me: "You want to leave me?"
She ignores me but look at me.
Me: "I saw your video fucking a man on the couch you and
your friends were taking turns on him, your face is clear
everyone can see it's you."
Miyah: Is that why my face is like this, you're angry?
Me: "No you're so quick to hit first I guess I swang too hard
today I am sorry."
Miyah: How did you get the video?
Me: "Sihle Zulu, that was the e-mail I was called for, I saw
you fucking a man and now you're leaving me."
She pack her stuff then I see her taking out the kids's stuff.
Me: "You're not leaving with them Miyalo."
She continue to pack.
Miyah: Can I take your car I will bring it back.
I look at her.
She carry Phiwo first and walk out I follow her as she step
her foot out a lightning strike she quickly step back holding
the baby closer to her chest, it turns dark then a heavy rain
starts pouring hard.
Ntsoaki walk out followed by Ntsika.
Ntsoaki: What are you doing Miyah?
Miyah: I am going home.
Ntsika: Why is your face like that?
They both stare at me.
Ntsoaki: You can't leave with the babies Miyah not when
their father said no."
Miyah: So I need his approval to go with my kids?
Ntsoaki: In this case Yes.
She attempt to step out again and another lightning strike
and she jumps I quickly hold Phiwo as she almost dropped
him, she look shocked and scared.
I shake my head and go back to my room I put him next to
his brother and look outside the rain has stopped and it's
like it never rained.
She walk in shivering.
Ntsoaki: These boys are the Pillars after Ntsika you can't
take them away from their home in anger.
Miyah: So I have to go and leave my kids behind?
Ntsoaki: You can stay and fix your marriage Miyah you can't
just walk away, you are a Gumede by tradition more than
anything and that union is hard to break, please think about
it.
She walk out, I go and close the door.
Me: "Please Miyah listen to my words I said the other day, I
told you I love you believe that and I am truly sorry for this."
She cries hard and I step closer to her and hold her tight. She
look at me.
Miyah: I am ruining things for you with my past please let
me go.
I shake my head and hold her tight again.
Me: "Let me help with that cheek."
I walk out and come back with ice, light skinned people and
their faces that bruise easily like you just her with a car. I
move it in her eye that is swollen she keep flinching. I stop
and look at her, she touch my shirt and slowly pull it up but I
step away.
Me: "You can go to bed, I will go take our dinner."
She nods and look down, I walk
out to get our food and find her sitting up staring into space,
I give her the plate and sit next to her and start eating my
own food, I can see she is just playing with her food, I finish
up mine and take her plate, I slowly feed her until she shakes
her head I place the plate down.
Me: "Is it painful?"
Miyah: A little.
I take the plates and walk out.
Me: "Is there anything for the pain Miyah can use"
She walk away and give me the pills without saying a word
to me.
Me: "I didn't mean to hurt her mom believe me."
Ziyanda: I didn't raise abusers Nkanyezi so please don't piss
me off.
She leave me standing there and my heart aches at those
words, I am not an abuser or am I..
I walk back to my room and give Miyah the pills and the
bottled water, she drink up and sleep facing up..I take off my
clothes and sleep next to her, I feel her getting closer and
smashing her lips on mine and kiss me I kiss her back a little
and move my face away.
Me: "Sleep baby."
She look at me then nod a little.
I close my eyes I can't get that video off my mind and the
question I have is what do they want because I know there is
a blackmail coming after that.
I wake up in the morning with Miyah on top of me kissing
my neck and grinding on me, sex is the last thing on my
mind, I slowly move her to her side and go to the bathroom
for a while and check the time but there is a message on
whatsapp I view it, it's the number I don't knw and it has a
video caption "does wifey remember the good old days." I
click the video and it's the same video as the one I saw
yesterday I quicky go back, Miyah take the phone from me
and look at it, I see her tears falling down and she give me
back the phone and cover her head.
I shake my head and reply to that number.
Me: *What do you want man?"
Number: *oh you can type, mom and I are moving in this
morning in my father's house tell your family.*
Me: *How do you know he is really your father?*
Sihle: *Because I believe my mother.*
Me: *Maybe she is just using you to get to dad.*
Sihle: *He is not your dad and everything you guys have
belongs to me keep provoking me I will leak that video now
fix a room for me and the other one for mom*
I roll out of bed and walk out,I sit outside it's still a bit dark, I
sit there until the sun comes up and someone touch my
shoulder it's Nadia.
Nadia: Are you ok?
I shake my head.
She sit next to me.
Nadia: Wanna talk about it?
Me: "I will but not now."
I like how she focus on my hands when we communicate.
She nods a little.
Nadia: Remember we are there for each other right, always.
I nod we go back inside and I step into my room and go take
a shower, I bath the kids and their mom wake up, her face
look better today.
She feed them and we give them their bottles then put them
back to their beds.
We go eat breakfast and I look at Ntsika and move my eyes
around.
Ntsika: Nkanyezi has something to say.
I nod.
Me: "Lesedi and Sihle said they are moving in today."
Ziyanda: "Could you repeat that."
Me: "They are moving in this morning."
I see a red light next to the door someone is buzzing at the
gate.
Me: "I think it's them."
Luyolo: "They are not stepping foot in my house."
Me: "Please dad just until I figure something out."
Nadia: They have something on you?
I slowly nod Miyah look down.
Langa: Let them in dad it won't be long Gumede.
Luyolo: Are you sure because I don't want people I don't
trust around my grandkids.
Ntsika: We will be careful sir.
I look at them and I appreciate it, they don't know what this
is about but they are already supporting me.
Langa buzz them in and they walk in with the biggest
luggages i've ever seen.
Sihle: Hello dad.
Luyolo: I am going to puke..Langa I will take your words, it
won't be long.
Langa nods.
Miyah stands up.
Sihle: You wear such shorts things? I guess your husband
still understands who you were.
The dress Miyah is wearing in not that short it's a little above
the knees I guess he just want to humiliate her.
Sihle: And you sir better tell your brothers and your brother-
sister to have more welcoming faces because they don't
want to piss me off I get up and look at him.
Sihle: Tell your wife I have 50bucks it can't cost more than
that.
I feel my armpits getting itchy palms are sweating.
Ntsoaki walks in from the kitchen.
Sihle: Now that's a wife material damn.
Ntsika stare at him squinting his eyes..
Sihle: Wooah!!is that PamellaK?
He steps closer and go to Pamella who is sitting down eating
her food not minding anything happening around her.
He touch her shoulder Pamella jumps up and look at him.
Sihle: It's really you.
She takes a cup in the table and throws it at his face, he
jumps gasping ..I think that cup had tea but maybe it wasn't
that hot.
Pamella: Don't come at me like that, you scared me and I
don't even know you..
She is breathing heavily I rush to her and make her sit down,
she look very distraught Nadia comes next to me.
Nadia: Breathe baby I am here, you're ok..
She nods and start breathing for a while.
Nadia: You're ok now?
Pamella: Yes, thank you.
Nadia get up and stare at this moron who his mother is
wiping his face.
Lesedi: And you just sit your ass down not saying anything
when these bitches want to kill our son.
Nadia: Who are the bitches huh?I will drag you on this floor
by that ugly dress you're wearing just please say a name
bitch again I dare you..
Lesedi: Luyolo how did you raise such rude kids?
Luyolo: They are only rude to trash so..
He shrug his shoulders.
Sihle: You are calling my mother trash?
Luyolo: You said it.
Sihle:Didn't I tell you that you have no choice but to tell your
fanily to welcome me and my mother?
He ask staring at me.
I am so bored by him.
Lesedi: Ziyanda where is my room?
Ziyanda: Don't start war with a lioness..
I look at her, I am proud man, I look at my siblings they are
looking at her too.
Lesedi: I see you have forgotten who I am.
Ziyanda: No maybe you think I am still that little girl I was
before but bitch I am older now and I sure as hell don't
appreciate seeing your face in my house so try being nasty I
will show you flames..
Sihle: Ok maybe I should just post that video..
I look at Miyah standing a bit far from me she look really sad.
Nadia: Let me show you your rooms.
She says looking at me I nod.
She walks away with them..
Luyolo: Langelihle..
Langa: Please give us time Gumede..
He nods and take mom's hand they walk to their room.
I go to my room and sit in bed, Miyah walk in and open the
closet she takes out a long dress and remove the one she was
wearing and wear the long dress then sit in front of the kids.
I walk out.
Langa: Let's talk outside.
I follow him out and find Ntsika, Nadia and Sfiso..
Langa: Talk to us.
Me: "They have something on me."
Langa: Like what.
Me: "A..
I rub my hands together.
Me: "It's a video of Miyah's past."
They nod and brief Nadia who look lost I guess she didn't
catch that.
Me: "I don't know if they have copies or anything but they
sent it yesterday at work and today in the morning in my
phone."
Nadia looks at me.
Nadia: This may be hard but we need to get an original
video.
Me: "I don't want people to see that video it will destroy my
wife."
Nadia: That is why I am saying we need an original I am sure
a professional hacker can find out how many copies were
made from the original and we will take it from there.
Langa: But how are we gonna get the original?
He look down then back at me.
Langa: Miyah must know who was handling Frank's
computer and stuff.
Me: "But she becomes upset whenever I bring this up."
Ntsika: Make her understand you're doing this for her, for
your kids and our family.
I nod.
Nadia: I have seen people being tracked by the things they
keep on their phones so maybe uncle Carl can do it.
Langa: Oh he can alright..
Sfiso: Tell me if you find the name of the person who was
handling the computer information I can trace him or her
before we go to Carl.
I nod and walk back to my room and find Miyah crying
holding Phiwo in her arms, she is broken..
She lay him down and brush his hair.
Miyah: What should I do?
Me: "Come here."
I hug her tight then look at her.
Me: "Can you remember if frank had a computer guy?"
She moves away but I pull her back.
Me: "We are trying here Miyah, we want to stop this for our
kids if this video gets leaked everyone will have it out there,
it's better if they read about it but when they see it Miyah it
will destroy you, us and our kids in future please my love."
Miyah: His name is Khaya Lembede he was always around
the house with a computer.
I nod.
Me: "He must have installed the cameras, do you know
where he is from?"
Miyah: No, he was just staying around because he was still a
student at DUT that time.
I nod.
Me: "Thank you"
I walk to the door then turn back.
Me: "Don't leave me and our kids Miyah, I saw the way you
hugged Phiwo that it was goodbye, don't go I will fix this I
promise, my siblings are helping me you know we have
never failed together."
She nods.
Miyah: I won't go.
Me: "Thank you."
I walk out again.
Me: "The name is Khaya Lembede was a student at DUT."
Sfiso: This will be easy.
He walk in and come back with a laptop, he do something on
it and turn the computer.
Sfiso: Would you look at that.
It's a picture of Sihle with another guy wearing the DUT
tshirts he look younger.
Sfiso: Go and confirm to Miyah if this is the guy.
I take the laptop and walk in with it I show Miyah.
Miyah: This is Khaya.
I nod and walk out giving Sfiso his laptop.
Me: "It is him."
He do something again and show Nadia.
Sfiso: Are you familiar with this place?
Nadia nods smiling.
Nadia: Very close, flats next to Bp garage.
Sfiso: That's his recent location.
Langa: How do you find all this babe?
Sfiso: People like him like to be known, more like show off,
he was studying IT so now he thinks he is a God everything
is out there his personal information everything.
Ntsika: So he is friends with Sihle that's why he have the
video.
Nadia: He will give us the original shame, let's go.
We get up as Sihle walk out.
Sihle: I hope you are not trying to do something to me.
Nadia: You are a dead man walking why would we want to
finish you off?
Sihle: You're rude wena huh.
Nadia: Yes I am.
Sihle: We will see where that will end once you're out of this
house, all of you by the end of this week.
Ntsika: Bese kuvuke oQwabe beme ngezinyawo.(And the
Qwabes will be up on their feet) this is our home.
Sihle: We will see soon.
We walk in to change, Miyah is asleep now still fully dressed.
I go to dad.
Me: "Please look after our wives and kids we are trying to fix
this."
Luyolo: Ok don't worry I will be here.
We drive less than 10 minutes to Khaya's place we see him
talking with a lot of guys.
Nadia: Hey Khaya my man come here.
She says looking out the window, Khaya rush to us but he
widens his eyes as he sees Ntsika then me.
Nadia: We need your help IT boy.
Khaya: I can't.. can't.
Nadia: Can you say two 'can't' in one sentence bro? I have no
idea how english works.
I smile, he step back but Nadia points a gun at his crotch..
Langa: Get in boy.
He slowly walk in next to Nadia, Sfiso is not here so we are
three now at the back and Langa and Ntsika in front of us.
We drive to the beach and step out.
Nadia: So let's make this quick, we need an original footage.
Khaya:What footage?
Nadia: Is he making me a fool?
Khaya: Help!!
He shouts I look behind me there is a police car I look at him
Nadia hold him tight he continue to shout.
Nadia: Relax I got this.
The police comes.
Police: What is going on here?
Nadia: I caught this boy trying to mug these guys but I got
this.
Police: You got this?who are you?
She search her pocket.
Nadia Baam! I am Landile.
She shows him the badge I want to laugh.
Police: Ok, you got this?
Nadia: I got this.
They nod and go back to their car.
Khaya: You're a cop?
Nadia: No I work with them now are you giving us what we
want?
Ntsika is laughing.
Me: "What's up."
Ntsika: Did you see how she took out that badge bro..?
I shake my head grinning Nadia is something else.
Nadia: I always wanted to do that to a police officer that's
how they get away with crime and so I followed in their
footsteps,thank you for making my dream come true boy.
Khaya: Ok Ok..let's go to my flat we will talk please put away
the gun please.
Nadia: Ok.
We drive to his flat Nadia is walking closely to him, we walk
in he has two desktop computers and a laptop.
Langa: Wannabe computer guy we have seen real stuff.
He sit on the bed staring at me.
Ntsika: Have something to say?
Khaya: I told Sihle not to use it..
Langa: How many people have it?
Khaya: I only sent it to him.
Nadia: Give us the original.
He takes out the USB and give it to her.
Nadia: Delete it on your laptop now and on the recycle bin
everywhere I am not joking!
He goes to his laptop Nadia looks at him.
Khaya: I deleted it.
Nadia: Are you going to tell your friend we came to see you?.
Khaya: No.
Nadia: Good because I will find a reason to stock you in a
cell.
Khaya: I won't say anything.
Langa: Why were you keeping this video all these years?
Khaya: Mr Frank told me to keep these things safe he will
come back for them.
Me: "Coming from hell? Must be nice."
Ntsika: Oh Frank is dead boy so you can destroy every damn
thing you have that may get you arrested like this footage.
Khaya: I will delete everything.
Nadia: Why did you show your friend again?
Khaya: He saw it by mistake when he borrowed my
computer then forced me to send it.
Nadia:You're a fool, bye I hope you will close that big mouth.
We walk out and drive to carls house and walk in.
We find him alone drinking a beer.
Carl: My kids to what do I owe this visit ya'll.
We shoulder hug.
Me: "I need your help tracking people who have the copy of
the footage we have on the USB please."
Carl: Let's go.
We walk in his office and he sit down Langa give him the
USB.
I touch his shoulder he look at me.
Me: "Can you please not play the video please."
Carl: Sure I won't boy.
He put the USB i can see it but it's blurry, he does his thing
and a lot of things pop out the screen he turns.
Carl: These are all the phones and computers that have the
same video.
Langa: Can you delete it from here?
Carl: I am Carl Anderson of cause I can, it was about to trend
those are a lot of people.
My heart beat faster.
He turns to his computer and do something for a few
minutes we see the things that were on the screen getting
lesser and lesser then all of them are gone and we see a bin
he clicks there and done.
He look at me.
Carl: It's all gone.
Me: "Are you sure?"
Carl: 100% gone when they check their phones and
computers it will show "file cannot be viewed" or "file
deleted"
I hug him and my siblings.
Me: "Thank you so much."
Carl: Anytime and tell him that next time he must protect his
files if he is really an IT guy.
I smile and shake his hand.
Once we are out Langa starts dancing.
Nadia: Wait let's have a dance off, take a video brother..
I take out my phone and make a video, they can both dance
but it's funny man.
Nadia: Who is the winner?
Ntsika: Let me dance too then we will decide.
He starts dancing too he can dance too but Langa is the guy..
Ntsika: It's obvious I am the winner man.
Nadia: No way.
I save the video and put my phone in my pocket I will show
their partners.
We drive to town and buy braai meat and a lot of beers and
wine
Nadia: Imagine buying beer and Gumede Senior says
'NEVER'
Langa: Then we need to hide at least 12pack for emergencies
like that.
Ntsika: I say when we are outside the gate let's drink one,
one.
Nadia: Good but still hide that 12pack.
We drive home and at the gate we drink beer they are
laughing then we drive in.
We walk in and find mom throwing punches at Lesedi on the
couch and dad is just watching with a smirk on his face.
Me: "Dad."
Luyolo: Mom is winning!
Nadia: Dad that's just wrong..but I like it..
Mom get off Lesedi and look at us.
Ziyanda:You guys look good..
We laugh.
Ntsika: That was good mom, we have i emergency braai at
the backyard.
Lesedi: How could you let her do that?
Luyolo: She was showing you that she is not so young
anymore, a lioness.
Lesedi: My son will show you..
She walks away.
Ziyanda: Go call your wives so we can start with salads I am
hungry after that workout.
We go to our room we try to open but they are locked except
for Langa's room we look at each other.
Langa comes back and shout for Miyah she slowly open the
door.
Langa: Are you guys ok?
Miyah:We asked dad if we can lock ourselves up because we
didn't trust Sihle.
They all come out in my room, I guess they locked their
rooms to protect their stuffs.
Ntsika takes his wife and kids and MaKhumalo walk out with
the boys everyone go to their room and I walk in.
Me: You can change that dress and wear the shortest dress
you ever owned.
Miyah: I can't..
I go to the closet and look for her olive green dress it's not
too short and I take out the black heels.
Me: "Wear this my love."
She slowly wears it and her heels, she keep pulling it down.
Me: "Don't do that I want my confident Miyah back, she
knows she is beautiful."
She smiles and fix her dress flipping her weave I smile
kissing her.
Me: "Now go help mom with salads we are coming."
We go at the back and start with our braai.
Sfiso: Did it work?
Langa: Baby this is a celebration!
We drink our beer and the family joins us.
Luyolo: What did you do to earn drinking in my yard?
Nadia: Something very big dad we deserve this.
Luyolo: I hope so..
We sit down and our wives do the things we start eating, I
see Sihle and his mom walking towards the table but there is
no free chair.
Sihle: Hey move..
He says to dad's Pride iQhayiya.
Luyolo: I don't think so..
Langa: I don't think so either..
Sihle: You think I am playing? And why did you let mom get
beaten by your wife?
Luyolo: Because it's my house and you two are crowding us.
Sihle: Hey didn't I tell y..
I raise my hand up.
Ntsika: Do what you gotta do man..
Sihle: Oh is it?
He says staring at me and I nod.
Sihle: Miyah your husband want me to leak that video
sweety.
Miyah: Then do it..
He widens his eyes and take out his phone.
He press it for a while and look at me I smirk.
Sihle: You think you're clever well let's see about that!
He put his phone on his ear.
Sihle: Can you send that video again man?
Silence.
Sihle: What do you mean you don't have it?
Silence.
Sihle: Fine let me call check with Lindo.
He is frustrated and I am loving it.
Sihle: Mom check your phone for that video of the
prostitutes.
His mom takes her phone and give it to him.
Sihle: Mom it says file deleted!
Landa: Oops!call Lindo..
He makes a call.
Sihle: Lindo I need you to send that video..
Nadia: Let's just put him out of his misery shall we.
Ntsika: Hey Sihle Zulu it is great sadness to tell you that
you're wasting your time because that video doesn't exist at
all it was all in your head my brother.
Nadia: is that a pun?
Ntsika: Oh no no pun intended..
They laugh fist bumping I shake my head.
Sihle: What!?what..
Nadia:I guess I won't ever master the english language, I am
done trying there is can't can't now there is what what I am
sticking to my Zulu thank you very much.
Everyone laughs.
Mbali: I am so proud of you Ziyanda look at Lesedi those
lumps on her face makes her look like a christmas tree with
those balls.
Nadia: Now that's the true meaning of "I will rearrange your
face".
Sunshine: Oh yes she did..
Sihle:What did you do you bastards?
Nadia: Dad are they spending the night or bayandiza today?
(they are flying)
Luyolo: Oh they gotta go my house is not for scammers.
Langa:Please wait for us in the front yard we are coming.
Lesedi: Luyolo he is your son.
Mbali:No he is not!not even a tiny matching DNA.
Lesedi: And how would you know?
Mbali:Because I am good.
She take the envelope and give to her.
She opens it and throw it down.
Lesedi: This is bullshit how did you get his DNA?
Aunt Mbali smiles looking at me.
Mbali: You remember when he was beating the hell out of
your son the other day he came out with his hair and
waala!accurate DnA test results..
I laugh, that day she whispered for me to fight Sihle and pull
out a little strand of his hair and I did when I walked in the
room I put it in the little plastic bag and gave it to Aunt
Mbali.
Sihle: I am a Mzozo I know it!
Luyolo: Then go look for your father boy so Gumede oQwabe
la..
Ntsika: oMnguni ka Yeyeye.
Langa: Phakathwayo..
I smile and take my wife's hand.
Miyah: Thank you my love.
I kiss her cheek..
Langa: Let me show you your way out.
He get up and grab Sihle's hand dragging him out he is trying
to fight but I guess the grip it too tight, the mother follows
rushing behind them..

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LUYOLO
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My wife hasn't been ok since that Lesedi saga I know she
knows that Sihle isn't a Gumede but something is bothering
her.
Me: Ziyanda..
She turns and look at me.
Me: Please talk to me you are not ok I can see it baby.
Ziyanda: I am fine.
Me: Don't do that please, don't, is it this Lesedi issue?
She get up and go to the bathroom then come back after a
while and get dressed in silence, this is not my wife.
She walk out and come back with Iviwe and give her to me.
Me: maGumede how are you?
Iviwe: Dada.
Me: You are getting good at this talking business huh baby
girl.
She laughs throwing her head back, she spends a lot of time
with Iyana when she is home so she sometimes behaves like
her.
We play with Viwe and when I look up I see my wife in tears,
she is crying.
I put Viwe down and go to her hugging her tight.
Me:Tell me what I did Ziyanda please babe so I can apologise
I don't like seeing you like this maLukhele.
Ziyanda: I can't do this, I can't.
Me: What do you mean?
She moves away from me.
Ziyanda: I want a divorce..
I feel a very sharp stab in my heart.
Me: What did I do babe I am sorry for what Lesedi did.
Ziyanda: It's not that.
Me: Then what is it, am I not treating you right
anymore?babe I promise I will try harder believe me I will
do anything.
She shakes her head and take her handbang, she walk out..
After so many years of marriage my wife wants a divorce
from me, we were happy even when our family was attacked
we stuck together there was no cheating involved I have
never entertained any woman ever since I married her but
now this,with no explanation.
I take Iviwe and we go eat breakfast with everyone.
Me: Morning.
They greet back and my son's wives serve breakfast I can see
everyone eating but I don't think this food will go down the
throat because there is this lump stuck in it.
Miyah: Dad are you okay, we can make something else for
you if you don't like that.
Me: No I am fine, I will eat.
I start eating because I don't want to dissapoint them they
make breakfast with love and we always eat together.
Langa: Mom went to work?
I nod a little she isn't working today I don't know where she
went.
We eat in silence I can see Ntsika staring at me, he has
always been able to read people's moods and now he can
read mine.
We get up after eating and Ntsika comes to me.
Ntsika: Are you and mom fighting?
Me: No.
Ntsika: But we are old we can tell that there is something
wrong..
Me: Yeah look I will see you during lunch I have to go.
I take the car keys and drive to the hospital I knock in her
office and walk in, I find her sitting on a chair looking deep in
thoughts.
Me: Hey.
She look at me.
Me: I came to apologise Ziyanda please babe give me another
chance.
Ziyanda: I can't.
Me: At least tell me why? Do you have someone else?look I
know I am older than you and there are young men out there
maybe you want someone your age but I..
I shake my head as I feel tears burning my eyes.
Me: I love you, I have always loved you and I won't stop
think about our kids.
She get up and take her bag and an envelope.
Me:Where are you going?
Ziyanda: Home.
Me: I will drive with you, please let me.
I get up and stand in front of her, I hold her neck and kiss
her, she kiss me back..I take her bag and and what she is
holding and put it down on the table.
I pick her up while still kissing her and lay her on the couch,I
lock the door and go back to her removing her clothes and
mine, she get ontop of me inserting my dick, she starts
moving holding my shoulders tight, I hold her waist and help
her move faster.
Ziyanda: I love you..so much..
She says as she up the pace, I cum holding her tight, she bury
her head on my shoulder.
Ziyanda: I want you to find another woman that will love you
and the kids.
Me: Ziyanda don't..
She get up and wipe herself and me then we get dressed in
complete silence.
I take her hand and we walk out, I get in the drivers seat of
her car she get in next to me I drive us home, we start by
taking a shower together which end up with her against the
wall.
Me: Why are you allowing me to do this if you want to leave
me Ziyanda..
Her legs are wrapped around my waist her back is on the
wall I am looking straight in her eyes, I want answers, I move
slowly in her releasing my cum..
We shower and I pick her up going back to our room, we get
dressed and go join our family for lunch, we are all here.
We start eating until Ziyanda clears her throat I look at her.
Ziyanda: Uhm guys I have something to tell you.
They stop eating and look at her.
Ziyanda: Uh there's no easy way to say this, your dad and I
are getting a divorce.
They all stare at her.
Mbali: What? Please don't tell me it's because of that rubbish
Lesedi Ziyanda because if it is I won't hesitate to slap you
back to your senses.
Ziyanda: No..it's not that.
Ntsika: Then what is it mom why do you want a divorce?
Silence.
Langa: Dad why are you guys divorcing?
Me: I don't know, maybe she isn't happy with me anymore.
Langa: Mom..
Ziyanda: You won't understand..
Ntsika: Won't understand what, give us something!
anything! We are not kids anymore we have wives for god's
sake!
He ask staring at Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: Ntsika..
Me: She wants women to audition to be my wife, she said I
need a woman that will love me and you guys.
Langa: Are you leaving us?
Ziyanda: I..
Ntsika: Mom what is going on,tell us what is going on!do we
look like we need a stranger who will love us as old as we
are now huh?
She shakes her head, Langa get up and walk away.
Ntsika: You want to break this family Pink, you want to
break us.
He walk away too.
Landile is keeping her head down and wiping her eyes, I
stand up and sit next to her and hug her..
Landi: Maybe it's me, why is this happening now that I am
part of this family?
She says in a low voice.
Me: No..it's not you, we love you ok.
She get up and walk away as well.
Mandisi: Ziyanda do you see what you're doing to your
family sis?what is going on, you created this family, we are
all here because of you, you wanted a family and now that
we are all here you do this?why?
Ziyanda: It's...I.
She sobs and I don't know what to do as Iyana starts crying
too.
I just get up and walk back inside
I sleep in bed she comes in and give me the envelope I sit up
and look inside it's the divorce papers.
Me: You owe me an explanation Ziyanda, I can't just sign this.
She doesn't say anything, I tear up the envelop with the
papers inside and throw it at her.
Me: I am not a fool okay, I won't sign any shit you can go to
hell!
Ziyanda: Don't talk to me like that!
Me: Or what?what you gonna do huh?draft another papers?I
am not signing bullshit Ziyanda!
We are shouting at the top of our voices, I am angry that she
just give me the divorce paper while I don't even know the
reason for it.
Me: Uyahlanya wena.(you're crazy)
Ziyanda: I am crazy?
Me: That's what I said!
She comes to me and start punching me screaming I push
her.
Me: But still you won't be getting any signature from me, go
jump hills..
She sit on the floor and starts crying.
Ziyanda: I don't wanna leave my kids or you Luyolo, I don't.
I kneel in front of her.
Me: Tell me what is going on baby we can work it out.
Ziyanda: I..have a lump in my breast.
I look at her.
Ziyanda: I have cancer..
My whole body shakes as she throws herself in my arms.
Ziyanda: I am scared, cancer took away my mother..it took
her away from me!
I don't have words I am scared to say anything, I feel tears
run down my face.
Ziyanda: Breast cancer is the second leading cause of cancer
death in women I am scared..
Me: It's ok baby I am sorry, we will fight this..we can do this
together babe..
I pick her up and we go to bed I hold her tight, I am just as
scared.
I wake up later and look at her, she is sleeping so peacefully
next to me and I love her even more, I know she can fight
this she has fought a lot of things before I know breast
cancer can't keep a strong woman like her down, I refuse to
believe that cancer will defeat this rock, No.
She moves and get up looking at me I take her hand.
Me: Please don't divorce me.
She look down.
Me: When are you telling the kids?
Ziyanda: I can't.
Me: Don't do that Ziyanda, they have to know so we can hold
each others hands, so we can get a solution together, they
are adults now.
Ziyanda: They deserve to be happy Luh not that their mom is
dying.
Me: You are not dying!
Ziyanda: I can't tell them..
Me: But how did that make you feel when mom was hiding
that she's sick?
Ziyanda: I was sad, heartbroken and angry.
Me: Then tell them so they don't feel that way too , I will be
with you ok.
She nods.
Me: I love you.
We go eat dinner with my family, they look really sad.
Ziyanda: I won't divorce your father anymore, it was stupid
for me to even suggest that.
She giggles.
Nkanyezi: "But why even suggest it in the first place mom?"
I hold her hand and nod.
Ziyanda: I have a lump in my breast and a few weeks ago I
went to a doctor and he told me I have breast cancer.
Mbali: Ziyanda..
She says in a low voice.
She giggles with tears falling down on her cheeks.
Ziyanda: I am a Doctor but hearing the word cancer scares
the shit out of me, I lost mom because of cancer..
She blinks looking up.
Ziyanda: I didn't wait to hear how bad it is I rushed out the
minute he diagnosed me, I have breast cancer, I don't want
to leave you guys, I don't.
She shakes her head, they are all bowing their heads, there
are sniffs in the room.
Ntsika: Maybe he is wrong..the Doctor is wrong!
Ziyanda: He is not, I have the lump I can feel it and I feel pain
from time to time, sometimes I can feel when it's swollen.
Langa: Then don't delay finding out how bad it is so we can
help you fight this mom, we still need you, our kids need
their grandma, you can't die.
Sfiso touch his shoulder, Langa has always been a mama's
boy more than Ntsika and Nkanyezi so I can imagine his
pain, all of them love their mom more than anything in this
world I raised them so I know what I am talking about.
Mbali: I am still waiting for someone who will tell me this is
a joke because I can't take it, I can't..
She says crying, now that's not something you see everyday,
she is the joker, the craziest but they love Ziyanda so it's
understandable.
Me: I will take her to the Doctor tomorrow, right baby?
She nods.
We go back to our room and I watch her as she sleeps..
I kneel down next to bed.
Luyolo: God, I know I don't do this often but I need you right
now, I need you to heal my wife please, she is everything to
me and if she can't fight this on her own then please fight for
her, I need her, my kids still need their mother, our family
need her..please just do this one thing for me..please..I..
I sit down on the floor and let my tears fall...
Ziyanda: Luyolo..
I can't answer her.
Ziyanda: I need you to be strong for me for our kids please
don't breakdown now I need your strength to keep going
please Gumede.
I get up and sit next to her hugging her tight.
Me: I am trying to be positive I really am trying I want you to
be ok I want to go to the doctor tomorrow and he tell me
that he was wrong maybe it was something else.
Ziyanda: It's ok babe..
I stay awake the whole night trying to imagine life without
her but I don't see it, chances of me surviving without her
are zero..
I look at her as she walks to the bathroom,I feel like I am
paralyzed like I can't move a muscle.
She comes back from the bathroom and stand in front of the
mirror opening her gown.
Ziyanda: I don't think it's that bad, I only feel pain in one
area.
I quickly get out of bed and stand in front of her.
Me: So you think it's not that bad?
She nods a little, I pull her to my chest I think I needed to
hear those words more than anything.
Me: Let me get ready so we can go see a doctor.
She nods and smile.
Ziyanda: You keep saying I haven't changed, you still haven't
changed either you are still as hot as the first day I met you
just a bit talkative than before now.
I smile looking at her.
Me: So I talk too much now?
Ziyanda: You do, Landile and Langa combined.
Me: I am the worst mos.
She nods giggling I look at her then go take a quick shower
and find her taking out my black pants and a maroon shirt,
she is wearing a maroon dress.
Ziyanda: Don't say anything..
Me: But baby I wasn't gonna say anything.
Ziyanda: I know you were going to talk about matching
clothes but just wear the damn shirt..
I smile,I can see she is trying to be strong, I wear the "damn
shirt" that matches her dress and my black pants that
matches her shoes. I laugh.
Ziyanda: Let's go Luyolo I don't even know why you are
laughing right now.
I kiss her.
Ziyanda: We are couple goal even my sons and their partners
ain't shit.
Me: Babe you are extra today just stop it..
Ziyanda: I am stronger than any cancer Luh and I am not
leaving you for women like Lesedi never!
Me: I love you so much, you know I am feeding off of this
energy you have today.
Ziyanda: I love you, let's go.
We walk out and there's no one in the lounge I guess we are
early I drive her to the hospital in town and we walk in and
sit down and wait to be called in by Doctor Xolo because he
was on the call when we arrived.
DrXolo: Mrs Gumede you guys can come in.
We walk in his office and sit opposite him.
Ziyanda: DrX this is my husband Luyolo Gumede.
We handshake.
DrXolo: You look better than the last time I saw you Dr.
Ziyanda: I feel better after telling my family I know I am not
alone in this, they are with me.
He smiles.
DrXolo: So last time we did an X-ray and a Biobsy but you
rushed out before I can tell you the results.
Ziyanda: The word Cancer freaks me out.
DrXolo: It happens I am scared of mental illness.
They chuckle.
He take some files and sit down.
Ziyanda: So uhm is it bad?
He look at us and I hold Ziyanda's hand tight.
DrXolo: I am glad you came here earlier it could have been
worse.
He read the file in his hands.
DrXolo: Last time you came here the cancer was grade 2
which means the cells are spreading rapidly.
Ziyanda nods looking at me.
Me: What can we do now?
Ziyanda: I want to do lumpectomy surgery as soon as
possible.
DrXolo: I was also gonna suggest that we move faster Ma'am
before it spreads any further.
Ziyanda: Can I make the appointment for next week friday
please my husband will pay.
I smile looking at her.
DrXolo: Uhm let me look at my diary.
He look for a while then write something down.
DrXolo: Friday it is Dr Gumede.
Ziyanda: Thank you so much.
DrXolo: You know that after surgery you will still need to
undergo treatment right?
Ziyanda: I know thank you.
We shake hands and walk back to the car.
Me: What is a lumpectomy?
She giggles.
Ziyanda: A surgery to remove the lump that is said to be
breast cancer.
Me: Chances of surviving that surgery are high, right
Ziyanda?
Ziyanda: survival rates of lumpectomy is 97%.
Me: Where is the other 3%?
She laughs.
Me: Please survive this baby, promise me you will fight.
Ziyanda: I promise.
Me: Let's go eat breakfast out.
I drive to the restaurant and eat breakfast and my phone
rings it's Langa.
Me: Langelihle.
Langa: Dad you and mom are not here.
Me: Yes we went to a doctor but now we are eating
breakfast.
Langa: Is she going to be fine?
Ziyanda: It's not that bad yet baby so next week I will go for
a Lumpetomy, so they can remove the lump on my breast.
Langa: Are you going to be ok?
Ziyanda: I have to, you guys need me.
Langa: Ok Mom I love you and dad.
Ziyanda:We love you too baby.
We continue to eat our breakfast and I drive back home.
We walk in and we find Ntsika sitting in front of a keyboard
and Mandisi is standing next to him, this is his keyboard he
loves singing so much, others are sitting on the chairs next to
the keyboard.
Mandisi starts singing.
Mandisi:
"You're broken down and tired of living life on a merry go
round, And you can't find the fighter but I see it in you so we
gonna walk it out and move mountains
We gonna walk it out,
And move mountains"
He sings that first part with his eyes closed and I look at
Ziyanda she is smiling with tears in her eyes,this is her
favourite song, Rise up by Andra Day.
They sing the verse together.
Mandisi|Ziyanda:
"And I'll rise up I'll rise like the day, I'll rise up I'll rise
unafraid I'll rise up,
And I'll do it a thousand times again,For you, for you, for you.
Ntsika sings while he continue playing the keyboard.
Ntsika:
"All we need, all we need is hope And for that we have each
other And for that we have each other And we will rise, We
will rise We'll rise, oh, oh We'll rise"
He stops playing the keyboard and bow his head his body
shakes and I know he is crying, everyone is.
I sit down and wipe my own tears, Ziyanda is in Mandisi's
arms.
We sit in silence for almost 15 minutes with no one saying a
word until we hear a buzzer at the gate, Ziyanda buzz
whoever it is in, she open the door and Lesedi and Sihle walk
in with two police officers, I huff.
Lesedi: This is Ziyanda, she is the one who made my face
look like this.
Sihle: Arrest her now officers.
Landile get up and go stand in front of them.
Landile: What are you guys doing in my mother's house?
Sihle: They are here to arrest that stupid mother of yours.
Landile: I am not in the mood and nobody is,so turn around
and walk out now.
Mbali: You don't stop Lesedi, you just never stop huh!
Lesedi: Not until I see Ziyanda behind bars or better yet
dead..
I see all my boys getting up and stand next to Landile they
are staring at them.
Police: Ziyanda Lukhele..
Me: There is no one by that name here.
Lesedi: Don't fuck with me Luyolo.
Me: I wouldn't even if you were the last woman on earth.
Sihle: Would you stop insulting my mother and take
responsibility for me your son..
I chuckle and go to my wife.
Me: Babe go to our room and rest ok, I am coming now.
I kiss her and she walk away.
Lesedi: That is Ziyanda Lukhele.
Landile: You two get out of here.
She says pointing at the police officers her voice is shaky I
don't know if it's because she was crying or she wants to cry
right now.
Landile: I said get out of here!
Police: Don't shout at us we are here to work..
Landile: Let me call Detective Cooper so he can be the one to
throw you out because it won't be a good look if I do it
myself..
She takes her phone and we can hear the phone ring on the
other side.
Cooper: Cooper.
Landile: You need to come here and take your stupid police
before I completely lose it.
Cooper: Landile?
Landile: I am not playing if you are not here in 10 minutes I
am taking matters to my own hands!
Police: You are Landile?
No one answers.
Ntsika: You will know me today!?
He says pointing at Sihle who just chuckles.
Ntsika: I am just waiting for cooper to take out these two so I
can mop this floor with you.
Police: Sir you can't threaten..
Landile: Oh he can and he has.
Langa: Our father's house his rules and one of his rule is to
never allow anyone insult us under his roof ever!
Mbali get up and take off her earings and the shoes.
Mbali: Landile, Cooper is taking too long call him again!
She says moving to where Lesedi is and grab her there and a
fight breaks out the police tries to hold Mbali, Mandisi
swiftly moves and grab the police officer and push him hard
he lands on the floor.
Mandi: You put your hands on my wife?huh.
The police take out the gun.
Me: I wouldn't do that if I were you, put that gun away, this is
my house..
A buzzer goes off.
Cooper walk in and find the police officer still pointing a gun
at Mandisi and Lesedi is sitting on her butt Mbali is holding
her hair tight..she is screaming.
Cooper: Hey!why is there a gun in your hand?
Police: He was fighting me.
Mandisi: Oh if I was fighting you you will be dead by now.
Landile: Take your people Cooper..
My kids are still looking angry, they are baying for blood
their wives are standing at the far end of the room watching
everything.
Cooper: Hey out now!
He say to his "people" as Landi calls them.
Landile: Follow them out Cooper we have some unfinished
business here and it's better you don't witness any of it.
Cooper: What is going on?
Langa: Family matters, we will call you if we need anything
Sir.
He nods hesitantly then walk out, Nkanyezi grab Sihle and
give him a punch, Ntsika pull him to him and give him the
left one..they all beat him up taking turns.
Lesedi: Luyolo stop them,they are killing him..
Mbali shut her up with a slap.
Ntsika hold Sihle's leg and drag him out.
Ntsika: I told you I will mop this floor with you.
Sunshine and Mbali drag Lesedi out and I walk out and look
at them.
Me: Do this again Sihle or whatever your name is, and you
Lesedi I will let MY kids do worse than this, I don't have
energy for this anymore I am investing all of it to my wife, so
sis please stay away for your sake m..
Ntsika gives Sihle one last punch and spit on him.
They walk in following each other.
Me: Please open the gate for them Sunny..
The gate slides open Sihle crawls out and his mother is
trying to get him up but she is also struggling..
I walk in and find the siblings sitting on the couch, they are
not ok, I sit in front of them
Me: Your mom will be fine, we need to be strong and pray
that the surgery works..
They nod, I go and check on my wife.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LUYOLO
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I am in my room getting dressed, it's 8 o'clock in the
morning I am taking my wife to the hospital for the surgery,
it is tomorrow but she has to be admitted today.
I feel her hands holding me from behind I turn around and
kiss her forehead holding her tight.
She moves her hand to my chest.
Ziyanda: Your heart is racing but you are putting on a brave
face.
I kiss her forehead again I don't want to talk right now
because my voice will give it away, I am afraid, a lot of things
can go wrong with surgery.
Ziyanda: I love you father of my kids.
She look at me and smile.
Ziyanda: I love you so much.
Me: Then come back to us alive Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: I will baby.
We walk out and find the two sets of twins and Sfiso waiting
next to their cars.
Ziyanda: Morning guys.
Ntsika: Hey mom, we are coming with you I hope you don't
mind.
Ziyanda: No I don't besides I don't wanna wait alone in that
ward it must be nerve wrecking.
Langa: We will stay until they ask us to go.
Me: Landile are you ok?
She has been awfully quiet these days.
Landi: No..
Ziyanda: What's wrong baby?
Landi: I finally had a chance to have a person I can call mom
but now this happens.
Ziyanda: I will be fine.
Landi: You promise?
Ziyanda: I promise.
Landi: Pinky swear...
They laugh looking at her.
Ziyanda: Pinky swear, I don't know why these ugly people
are laughing.
They do their pinky swear and we get in the car with my
wife and drive out they drive behind us.
We get to the hospital and she change to hospital gown and
get in bed we all sit around her bed.
Ntsika: Our wives told us to tell you that you're in their
prayers, and they love you.
Ziyanda: Thank you.
Doctor Xolo walk in with two nurses.
DrXolo: Wow hello I didn't expect to see so many look alikes
in one room.
Ziyanda: Well get used to it Dr X, these are my kids.
DrXolo: All of them?
Ziyanda: Yep.
DrXolo: Oh you look younger, so Mrs Gumede we have to do
a first check in to see if the cancer hasn't spread any further
so we will know where our focus should be during surgery.
Ziyanda: Of course.
DrXolo: We will just get you to the next room, you can all
wait here for her.
Ziyanda: Can my husband come with please.
DrXolo: Uh yeah sure, you can walk?
She chuckles.
Ziyanda: I still feel like myself doc just a little pain, my feet
work perfectly.
He smiles we all go to the other room it's a bit dark with a lot
of machines.
She sleep in bed and a doctor starts checking her up and
then he does an x-ray.
DrXolo: Oh it's still around the breast only but there is lymp
node we need to remove under your left arm there and have
it checked if it's not a cancerous tumor spread or anything
serious.
Ziyanda: Oh..
She look terrified now and it's affecting me badly because I
have no idea what this means for her.
Ziyanda: So you think that this cancer was possible starting
to go on certain areas of my body?
Her voice is shaky.
DrXolo: We won't know until we have it removed and tested
in a lab it could just be a lymp node and not a tumor ma'am.
Ziyanda: That doesn't make me feel better, please check
carefully if the liver isn't affected yet I don't want to go
through this again.
The doctor chuckles.
DrXolo: You are really a Doctor..
They do X-rays for almost an hour and 30 minutes because
Ziyanda wants to be sure if they won't leave anything out
during surgery.
DrXolo: I think we are all good now you can go back to your
family and wait for your second check up before we go in
theatre.
She nods, she is not ok anymore I can see it.
I help her down the bed and hold her hand going back to her
ward and find the boys waiting in silence.
She get in bed and I sit down holding her hand, she is
blinking rapidly.
Ntsika: Is it still in the same position mom or has it spread?
Ziyanda: Still in the breast but there is a Lymp node they
have to see if it's not cancerous.
Ntsika: Which area is it located?
Ziyanda: Under my arm.
He nods.
Ntsika: That's not so bad it could've been worse if it was
somewhere near the liver.
Ziyanda smiles at him.
Ziyanda: You know a lot huh, you are taking your studies
serious.
Ntsika: I am I want to be like you one day.
Ziyanda: And you will baby.
We wait for hours.
Langa: I think I am hungry now and I know I am not the only
one.
He says looking at Landile, she looks away.
Langa: Well I won't be buying anything for you busy making
yourself look fresh..
Landi: Mom..
Ziyanda: Langelihle go buy food for everyone including your
sister.
Langa: But she looked away pretending not to care that I am
talking about food.
Me: We are hungry Langa hurry.
Langa: Babe please come with me.
They walk out with Sfiso.
I hear Ziyanda moaning in pain I get up and stand next to
her.
Me: Is it painful baby?
She smiles but I can see it's forced.
Ziyanda: Just a little.
Me: Can't they speed up this process so they can remove this
shit, come on!
I say moving around the room, why is it taking so long for
them to start this surgery.
Ziyanda: Luyolo stop you're causing them to panic..
I look at my kids they are looking at me with those sad eyes
of panic.
Me: I am sorry I just want them to remove this, I'm sorry.
I sit down and take her hand.
Ziyanda: When are you going home?
Ntsika: After they take you to theatre.
Ziyanda: But that's tomorrow Ntsika, what about your wives
and I don't think they will allow you stay over for the whole
night.
Nkanyezi: "Dad will have to make them understand and we
will talk to our wives mom they will understand."
Ziyanda: But what do you guys want dad to say?
Ntsika: Anything we will sit beside you till the morning
comes.
Ziyanda: Luyolo.
Me: I will see what I can do.
Langa and Sfiso come back, we eat then a nurse comes in to
tell us that it's time to go.
Me: Can my kids and I stay please, their mom is scared we
will leave in the morning.
Nurse: Oh uhm but what if the security who do rounds see
you?
Me: Does he come in patients ward?
Nurse: No he just move around the passage..
Me: Then please let us stay please.
Nurse: uhm ok Sir but keep it down ok don't make noise you
will leave early when I knock off.
I nod.
Me: Thank you.
She walks out and my kids look satisfied and happy, I am
happy too sleeping without my wife is not someething I am
used to unless she has to go to work, this is a different story.
We sit there until she falls asleep, They don't look tired or
sleepy.
Me: You guys don't want to sleep at all?
Ntsika: No we are fine we will sleep once mom is taken to
surgery.
We stay up all night watching Ziyanda sleeping.
In the morning a nurse comes in and tell us it's time to go. I
get up and kiss Ziyanda she opens her eyes.
Me: I am coming back, I am going home to freshen up ok I
love you so much.
Ziyanda: I love you.
My kids kiss their mom's cheek and we walk out and drive
home.
I go take a shower and sit in bed for a while, my door open
and Iyana walk in and sit next to me.
Iyana: Is mom really going to be ok dad? I was doing
research on cancer it is dangerous and it has killed a lot of
people, it won't kill mom right dad?
Me: It won't, your mom is strong maGumede like the rest of
you, you all took it from her she will fight this.
Iyana: Ok can I come with you before she go to surgery?
Me: Yes and she will be happy to see you, go get ready I will
wait for you.
She walk out,I smile to myself, she has grown and look more
like me than her mom.
I get ready and walk out I see Lukhele driving in and he
parks in front of me and walk out, I feel tears threatning to
come out.
He comes to me and hug me.
Lukhele: Hey you are my son, you don't have to act strong to
me ok..
I let the tears fall he pat my back until I calm down.
Lukhele: She is a Lukhele she will be fine and I will not be
burying any of you Luyolo you will all bury me, uyangizwa
(do you hear me?)
I nod and wipe my face he touch my shoulders and look at
me.
Lukhele: I am your father you can put on a brave face to
everyone out there but to me you can breakdown and cry I
won't judge.
I nod, I see everyone walk out even Kwanele and their wives.
Lukhele; You all know that this is not Ziyanda's hospital
right?
Kwanele: But they have no choice but to let us in isn't it they
allow family.
Lukhele: They do but not this whole world.
They chuckle.
Iyana: Dad I am ready..
Me: Ok princess let's go.
We all drive to the hospital and walk in, everyone is staring
at us probably wondering why are there so many people
coming in here.
We walk in Ziyanda's ward and find her with a nurse and as
soon as she sees Lukhele she sobs.
Lukhele: It's ok, dad is here now.
He sit in bed and hug her.
Ziyanda: It's painful dad, I am so scared.
Lukhele: Everything will be fine baby I am here, we are all
here.
Ziyanda: But what if I don't make it like mom.
Lukhele: Your mom had it for years Ziyanda and she wasn't
doing anything about it but you, with this surgery you are
taking the first step you are doing something about it, you
are going to live trust me.
Ziyanda: I don't wanna leave my kids dad.
Lukhele: And you won't, I love you and you are stronger than
this..
He wipe her tears and kiss her forehead.
Iyana: Mom..
Ziyanda: Hey come here baby..
Iyana rush to her and hug her crying.
Ziyanda: I am going to be fine..
Iyana: You promise?
Ziyanda: Yeah I promise.
They all hug her then a doctor walk in.
DrXolo: You have a very big family MrsGumede.
Ziyanda: This is not even half of them DrX.
He chuckles.
DrX: It's time to go ma'am.
She nods.
Ziyanda: I love you, all of you.
Me: Don't say it like it is goodbye Ziyanda don't please.
She nods.
I kiss her lips.
Me: I will be waiting for you right outside those doors ok.
Ziyanda: Ok.
We walk out and sit on the benches outside they wheel her
out I get up and rush to her.
Me: You are going to be ok baby.
She nods a little and they wheel her in I go back and sit
down.
Me: You guys are all gonna wait here?
Ntsika: Yes it will probably take approximately 6-8 hours.
Langa: Yhoo but why so long?
Ntsika: They have to make sure everything is gone and they
take out piece by piece not all of it at the same time because
they don't want to cause any internal bleeding.
Lukhele: They should just make you a Doctor already
NtsikaYekhaya.
I can hear them talking but my mind is in there with my wife
if everything is going ok or what.
I get up walk around it has only been an hour but it feels like
ages.
Me: Ntsika why are they taking so long man.
Ntsika: It's the second hour now dad please be patient a little
ok Gumede.
I shake my head I don't get why it has to take hours I know
Ntsika explained it but I still don't get it.
Hours pass we are in silence I am rubbing my hands
together.
A nurse rush out I quickly get up and stand infront of her.
Me: Is everything ok in there?
Nurse: Sir please I have to rush to get something there is
excessive bleeding w..
Me: Excessive bleeding? What does that mean is my wife ok?
Nurse: Sir a doctor will update you..
She walk away and run back to the theatre room.
Me: What is happening in there?
We wait for a while and a Doctor walk out we rush to him.
Me: Dr is my wife ok in there?
He huffs.
DrX: We had to stop the surgery because of excessive
bleeding she was experiencing and we couldn't risk going
ahead with surgery because we were worried about it
affecting other parts of her body.
Me: But is she ok?
DrX: We have put her to sleep now we will wait for a day to
see if we can continue with this surgery or not.
I shake my head.
Me: This can't be happening, do you even know what you're
doing or should I find someone else to do it.
DrX: Sir this is my profession and things like this happens all
the time so sir just be patient, excuse me.
He walk away.
I search for my car keys in my pockets and walk away.
Ntsika: Dad where are you going?
Me: I need to speak to someone I will be back.
I walk out and get in my car driving to a city hospital, I walk
in and start at a reception.
Me: Hello is DrTheo around?
Receptionist: Uh yes he is in his office but with a patient.
Me: I will wait for him I just need a minute with him.
Receptionist: Ok you can go through the passage it's written
DrTheo.
Me: I know it thank you.
I walk away and knock in his office, he invite me in.
DrTheo: MrMzozo!?
He look shocked to see me and he is with someone.
Me: Hi I need to talk to you.
He nods a little.
DrTheo: ok let me finish up here a little.
I nod and walk out.
After a while a patient walk out and he calls me back in.
DrTheo: Uhm hi..hey you can have a seat sir.
I sit down and look at him, he has a ring on his finger now.
Me: You are married?
He smiles a little and look at his finger.
DrTheo: Yeah got married last year.
I nod.
Me: I need your help man..
A knock disturbs us and a man walk in and walk around the
table and kiss him.
He then chuckles.
DrTheo: You can't do that when I am with someone.
Him: Sorry babe.
DrTheo: Can you wait a little babe this is Mr Mzozo..
Me: Gumede..
DrTheo: Oh I am sorry it's MrGumede his wife and I once
went to the same university before I went overseas.
He nods.
Him: I will be in my office.
Me: You are a doctor too?
He nods.
Me: Ok you can stay.
He sit down and look at me.
Me: Uhm my wife have cancer..
Theo gasp.
DrTheo: Ziyanda have cancer?
Me: Yeah and they stopped the surgery today because there
was excessive bleeding.
DrTheo: Shit..
Me: I need your help I will pay any amount I need you to do
it if you can.
He look at this guy next to him.
DrTheo: I do specialize with breast cancer sir but I can't
continue with a surgery that was done by someone else it
could get me into trouble if anything goes wrong.
Me: I will sign anything man I need you please.
DrTheo: Uhm ok ok..so I can have her moved tomorrow and
take her to a breast cancer treatment centre because I can't
do it here..
Me: But what if tomorrow is too late can't you do it today?
DrTheo: I am sure they didn't do any damage you did say
they stopped the surgery right?
Me: Yeah.
DrTheo: Ok tomorrow morning we will get an ambulance to
go take her at that Hospital.
I tell him the name of the hospital and get up.
Me: Thank you so much.
I shake both their hands.
DrTheo: I am glad she found someone who genuinely loves
her not that guy who was obsessed with her who almost
killed me.
I laugh.
Me: That's my brother.
DrTheo: What?.
Me: Bye and no need to be scared of me I am not a monster
so loosen up.
He nods a little with an awkward smile.
I walk out and drive to the hospital I find everyone still here.
Me: Guys we are moving Ziyanda to a breast cancer
treatment centre tomorrow morning.
Ntsika: But they will continue to do surgery after a few
hours.
Me: No I got someone who will do it, the guy who helped
Langa when he was in a car accident.
Mandisi: Theo?
I nod he chuckles.
Mandisi: You are ok with your wife's ex to do a surgery what
if they fall inlove again.
Me: Konje uyislima..(You are a fool)
Mandisi: I am just saying.
Me: He is married to another male doctor there, they work
together.
Mandisi: Ave unamanga.(you're a liar)
Me: Ok I need to sign some forms to move Ziyanda from
here.
I go to DrXolo's office and sit down.
Me:I need to get my wife moved to a centre tomorrow
morning.
DrXolo: Sir I know what happened today is scary but I assure
you I know what I am doing.
Me: It's not that I don't trust you but I want to do this please
I will still pay the full amount.
DrXolo: Ok I am so sorry for scaring your kids Sir and your
family.
Me: It's ok I don't know anything about medicine so it's ok.
He gives me the form that I should sign and the other one I
will use to discharge her tomorrow morning.
Me: Can I see her?
DrXolo: Uhm yeah for a while but you have to change into
schrubs.
I nod and wear those schrubs and walk to that cold room.
She looks pale but still beautiful I take her hand.
Me: You gonna be fine baby I promise you all this pain you
must be feeling will be over soon I love you.
I walk out and go back to my family.
Me: We can go home for now guys.
We go home and I go to my room and get in bed fully
dressed.
I hear a knock on the door.
Me: Come in.
Ntsoaki and Miyalo walk in with juice and food in a tray.
Miyalo: We brought you food you didn't eat the whole day.
Me: Thank you.
I sit up and take the plate.
Miyalo: Mom will be fine.
Me: Yeah she will.
Ntsoaki: We will come back later to get the plates
I nod then they walk out.
The next morning I drive to the city hospital to see Theo and
give her the discharge form.
DrTheo: The ambulance will go first and we will meet them
at the centre.
Me: Ok..
He take the form and walk out I go to my car and wait there,
I see him coming out and step out of the car.
DrTheo: They got her they are on their way to the centre
now, you will drive behind me.
Me: Sure.
I drive behind him all the way to the centre and we walk in, I
find Ziyanda already in theatre.
DrXolo: Let me do some quick X-rays then I will talk to you
in a minute I am still waiting for my partner we will do this
together.
Me: Ok Thank you.
I walk out and sit down waiting for him, he walk out after a
while shaking his head I quickly get up.
Me: Is everything ok?
DrTheo: Mr Gumede looks like the Dr that was doing the first
surgery was distructed by something because that scar is
bad and it might get an infection so now I have to move fast
and start another scar I can't continue where he did the last
one.
I nod.
Me: Do everuything you have to do man.
A man that kissed him yesterday walk in and come to us.
Him: Hey Theo Mr Gumede sir.
Me: Hi.
DrTheo: Good thing you are here we have to start that
surgery as soon as possible.
Him: That bad?
DrTheo: High risk of infection from the previous surgery , Mr
Gumede give us a few hours.
I nod, they walk away and I sit down praying to God that
everything goes well.
He comes out again.
DrTheo: You look tired and this may take a while you can use
that office there I will call you when we are done sir.
I nod and get up going to that office I sit on the couch there, I
really am tired I haven't slept well ever since I found out
about my wife having cancer.
I rest my head on the armrest of the couch.
I am siiting next to a big stream with clean water I am
looking deep in it and I see Ziyanda coming out in white robe
she looks beautiful.
Ziyanda: I told you this water isn't cold come let's go in
together.
I shake my head.
Ziyanda: Ok I am going back in again.
Me: No Ziyanda you are not going in there again..stop!
She tries to walk away but I get up and pull her hand.
Me: Don't go.
Ziyanda: But I want to go.
Me:You can't go!
We start fighting until I see Misokuhle coming towards us.
Me: What are you doing here?
Misokuhle: Don't let her go..
Me: She doesn't want to listen to me.
Misokuhle: Make her listen, talk to her big brother.
He says smiling.
Me: I am not your brother.
Misokuhle: But blood says we are, come hold her hand so we
can go back home.
I take Ziyanda's hand and we follow Misokuhle back home
and sit down.
Misokuhle: You are still angry at me for stealing from you.
I look at him.
Misokuhle: I know she was never mine.
Me: Then why did you take her?
Misokuhle: You were taking too long someone was going to
take her before you even got to her..forgive me.
I nod.
Me: Where is the crazy one?
He laughs.
Misokuhle: You do know that you're dreaming right so why
are you still rude even in your dreams.
Me: I wouldn't dream about you.
Misokuhle: Then how are you talking to me right now?
I look at Ziyanda she is resting her head on my shoulder.
Misokuhle: Gumede..Phakathwayo..Qwabe take your wife
back home.
Me: But this is home.
Misokuhle: This is a dream Nkazimulo, awuzwa wena.(you
don't listen)
I shake my head.
Me: If only you were this nice back then.
Misokuhle: Then you weren't gonna get her she loved me but
everything happens for a reason, goodbye Mnguni..
He get up and walk away.
Me: Let's go home my love.
I get up and take her hand, I feel someone shaking me I look
up it's Theo I wipe my face and stand up.
Me: Is she ok?
DrTheo: The surgery was successful Sir but she is asleep we
put her on heavy medication because of pain, the last scar
was a mess.
Me: So she is ok now everything went well?
DrTheo: Yes Sir but I will keep her here for a few days to see
if the scars are healing and do radiotherapy so we can kill
any cell that may be hiding in there.
Me: Thank you man.
I shake his hand.
DrTheo: Thank you for believing in me Sir.
Me: I am sure you didn't leave my wife heartbroken and
went to Cuba to play games.
He chuckles looking down.
DrTheo: Sir uhm I..
Me: That was a joke..
DrTheo: Uhm yeah yes ok.
I chuckle.
Me: So when can I see her?
DrTheo: The nurses are still cleaning her up they will take
you to her ward once they are done.
Me: Thank you once again for doing this, you will name your
price later.
DrTheo: Yes Sir.
I go to Ziyanda's ward and sit down taking her hand.
Me: You're ok my love, the kids will be so happy I am happy
too, recover soon so I can take you back home, I love you so
much.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LUYOLO
*
I am still with my wife in her ward she hasn't woken up yet
because of the medication,I want to call my family once I
know she is awake and well.
Theo walk in and stand next to me looking at his watch.
DrTheo: She should be awake soon.
I nod.
DrTheo: The mother of my child.
Me: Are you trying to make me angry or jealous?
He laughs.
DrTheo:You said I should loosen up so this is the only way I
know, have you called your family?
Me: Not yet I just want her to wake up first.
DrTheo: Ok I will have to leave then because I have night
shift today.
Me: Whoah so you were supposed to be sleeping?
DrTheo: Yeah but i will use these hours left to rest a bit.
Me: I am sorry I didn't know.
DrTheo: It's ok this happens all the time when you are called
in to rush for an emergency when you just got in bed so..
I see Ziyanda moving a little and I get up and look at her, she
slowly open her eyes and look around then turn her head to
look at me.
Ziyanda: Hey baby where am I?
Me: Uhm hey my love you are at the breast cancer treatment
centre.
Ziyanda: Last time I was in a theatre room at the hospital
how did I get here?
Me: I took you..
Ziyanda: Theo?
DrTheo: Hello Yandah.
Me: I asked Theo to help you baby and he did.
Ziyanda: You asked Theo?
She says in disbelief.
Me: I did..
She smiles a little.
Me: Your life matters more than my ego Ziyanda.
DrTheo: How is the pain in your chest ma'am?
Ziyanda: I don't feel any yet.
DrTheo: Oh I will ask a nurse to moniter you tonight ok.
She nods a little.
DrTheo: I have to go..
Me: Uhm can you wait a little I want to call my family so they
can bring my cheque book when they come here.
DrTheo: Ok I will see you tomorrow morning Dr Gumede, Mr
Gumede you will find me in that office when they get here.
I nod I get up and kiss Ziyanda for a while.
Me: Thank you for coming back to me.
Ziyanda: You pulled me back Thank you so much.
Me: Let me call them ok.
I take my phone and see a lot of missed calls from the kids I
dial Langa's number.
Langa: Dad we have been trying to call you the whole day Sir
what is going on?
Me: I am sorry I was trying to get your mom a good doctor
and she did a surgery.
Ntsika: Was it successful dad is she gonna be ok?
Me: Say hi Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: Hello guys.
She says in a low voice and they lose it on the other side they
sound so happy.
Langa: Mom you're okay?
Ziyanda: I am fine I am just hungry.
Mandisi: So Theo did it huh Luh?
Me: He did that is why I went to him I knew he can do it.
Mandisi: Why because of his undying love for Ziyanda?
Ziyanda: Bhuti..
Me: He is trying to get me worked up.
Ziyanda:But you trust your wife neh baby..
Me: I do, Ntsika go take my cheque book in your mothers
room and all of you can come here.
Landile: Sawubona Mah (Hello mother)
Ziyanda: Hey baby.
Landile: You kept your promise.
Ziyanda: I did you can come see it yourself.
Landile: Tell your husband that we are waiting for the
address Ma'am.
I chuckle.
Me: I will send it now guys.
I send the address and I keep kissing Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: You are annoying now..
I laugh.
Me: I am just happy you're here alive.
Ziyanda: With you is where i'd rather be.
Me: You're too cute to become an ancestor I saw Misokuhle
yesterday and he was singing clan praises for me and he
asked me to forgive him.
Ziyanda: Have your heart forgiven him?
Me: It did especially after finding out he was my brother,
family forgives if one show remorse the person I am not sure
about is his twin brother I didn't see him anywhere.
Ziyanda: You think he is still the grumpy dude even in death?
I nod a little.
Me: But it doesn't matter my family is still here and I forgave
Misokuhle my heart is at peace.
Ziyanda: You are a good man and asking Theo for help was
huge baby I am so proud to call you my husband.
Me: And I am proud to call you my wife Ziyanda you fought
to come back to us.
I hear a lot of noise coming from the passage.
Ziyanda: I know that noise from anywhere.
I laugh.
They walk in and try to hug Ziyanda.
Me: Uhm guys please make sure you don't hurt her please
the scars are still new.
They nod and Iyana come and sit on my lap hugging me.
Me: You're not a little girl anymore you're heavy now.
Iyana: So it's ok if I start dating now since I am not a little
girl?
Me: Ndikukhabe..(I will kick you.)
She laughs.
Me: I love you and if you think of dating now bring him home
first so I can see if he is a good boy for you.
Iyana: Uhm I no dad I was joking I am not dating anyone.
Me: Mmmm..
I don't believe that at all, I mean she is doing her second year
at the university and she is pretty I am sure as hell that boys
are asking her out I just hope she doesn't take wrong
decisions.
Ntsika: So when is she coming home dad?
Me: They are still going to do radiotherapy and make sure
the scars heal first because the first one was bad according
to Theo.
Mandisi: Theo neh do you remember Theo Ziyanda?
Ziyanda: You are not being cute right now bhuti, my kids are
here.
They laugh.
Mandisi: Remember how much you cried when he left and
someone took advantage!
Me: You want me to beat your ass right here Mandisi in here
with dad around?
Lukhele: Please do it he is annoying even me here.
I laugh.
Mandisi: But dad I am just trying to make everyone laugh.
Ziyanda: Not in my name Satan..
Theo walk in and come stand next to me.
Mandisi: Are you blushing sis there?.
Everyone laugh.
Theo: Uhm Hello everyone uhm sir my husband is here I
have to go you can sign the cheque tomorrow.
Me: No let's go I will do it now.
We walk to the office and sign the cheque.
Me: How much?
DrTheo: Just give me half of the money you were gonna pay
the last doctor.
Me: No, you deserve double that money you fixed the mess
he caused man thank you.
I write the amount and give it to him.
Me: Thank you, the other half you can give it to the husband.
He chuckles.
DrTheo: Thank you so much.
I shake his hand.
Me: Thank you.
I walk back to the ward and sit down holding my wife's
hand.
Ziyanda: I am not going anywhere..
She whispers looking at me I smile with a nod.
It's been two weeks she feels severe pain from time to time
but they are discharging her today.
I walk in her ward and I find her in bed busy on her phone.
Me: Hello Mrs Luyolo.
She smile.
Ziyanda: You came to fetch me?
Me: Yes baby we are going home.
Ziyanda: I was getting tired of being here thank you so much
baby.
I help her get dressed to her grey tracksuits and sneakers
then we walk to the car.
I drive home but when I get closer I see a lot of people
standing outside my gate with guns.
Ziyanda: What is going on?
Me: I don't know babe let me call Landile.
Landi: Hello dad.
Me: There are people with guns outside the gate.
Landi: What!?let me check dad, turn back and drive to uncle
China's house we will handle this.
Me: Ok kill them and keep one who will tell us what is going
on ok.
Landi: Yes dad, is mom ok?
Me: Yeah she is with me.
Landi: Then go and keep her safe.
Me: Sure, My love we are going to China's house I am sorry
about this.
She nods a little.
Me: Are you in pain again?
Ziyanda: A little..
Tears run down of her eyes.
Me: Ziyanda baby I am sorry let me quickly go to China's
house and you will take your medication I am so sorry.
I turn and drive straight to China's house and pick her up
going inside and lay her on the couch.
I take her bag and look for her medication and help her drink
it.
Me: Sorry baby.
I take her to a room and she sleep. I walk out to look for
china in his room.
*
LANDILE
*
After getting a call from dad about people outside our gate
with guns I peeked through the window they are moving
around like they are waiting for someone to come out.
I rush to Nkanyezi's room and knock Miyah opens.
Me: Can I come in?
Miyah: Sure.
I rush in and find Nkanyezi sitting in bed with one of the
boys in his arms.
Me: We have a problem.
He nods
Me: There are people at the gate with guns and dad turned
back and went to uncle China's house to keep mom safe.
He quickly get up and place the kid down then wear his
tshirt I walk out to look for Ntsika,Langa and Sfiso, I tell
them what is happening we stand in the lounge and look
outside the glass door we can see that they have huge guns
in their hands they look like hitmen.
Langa: So how do we do this?mom have a home we can't let
her stay away because of this shit.
Me: Let me try to see..
Sfiso looks at his computer..
Sfiso: No..
Me: What is it?
Sfiso: One of you should call Auntie Sunny and tell them to
drive back now!
Langa quickly take his phone and make a call.
Sfiso: Come on Langa they are getting close.
Langa: Hey auntie stop the car and drive back now!now
please...don't drive home turn back!!
Me: Did she hear what you said Langelihle?
Sfiso: Guys!
I look at the computer and it shows that auntie Sunny's car is
just outside the gate then we hear gunshots ..
Langa: No!
Me: No..
We get up and run out, the car that was at the gate drives
away..
We rush to aunt Sunny's car and find her coughing out blood
little sunny is not moving just blood coming out on the side
of her head..
Ntsika: No man no..
Nkanyezi carry Aunt sunny out and lay her head on his lap I
kneel next to her.
Me: You just got reunited with your daughter..come on..
Sunshine: She..is..dead..I have nothing else to live for..
Me: Come on bhuti Ntsika get the car let's take her to the
hospital.
Ntsika: We can't she...
He screams holding his head as she stops breathing..
My phone rings it's dad, I sit down and watch it ring..
Me: Dad is calling what am I gonna say?
I get up and smash the phone on the street it shatters into
tiny pieces, I see a car driving towards us I am standing in
the middle of the road I can't move..uncle Kwanele step out
of the car and rush to me.
Kwanele: Why are you standing in the middle of the street I
almost knocked you down.
I stare at him tears are running down my cheeks.
Kwanele: What is going on why is my wife's car here?
He looks around and see Nkanyezi who is still holding aunt
sunny in his arms he look lost, like he is not here..
Kwanele: Sunny?
He rush to Nkanyezi and shake his wife he look behind him
and he see little Sunny in there.
Kwanele: No no no..no!
He get up and rush in the car holding sunny..
Kwanele: God..no!no..
I see police cars driving to us and stop, Cooper rush out and
come to me I am squating down.
Cooper: Landile..
Me: What!?
Cooper: Someone called about the shootout here what is
happening?
I don't answer him but get up and look at him.
Me: We will kill them one by one..
Cooper: But this is the work of the police..
Me: No it's not, someone wants to take out my family and the
police can't help us at all we will help ourselves, a mother
and a daughter have just found each other and now look
what happened they are robbed of a chance of getting to
know each other once again and you think we need police
officers for that?
Cooper: We will investigate and find the perpetrators.
Me: Well let's see who will find them first Cooper..
Cooper: I will have to arrest you if you go against the law.
I chuckle and give him my hands.
Me: Cuff me right now then because I won't stop..here cuff
me..
I feel a hand on my shoulder..
Ntsika:Don't do that..
They take the bodies and uncle Kwanele get in his car
without saying a word and drive away in full speed.
We sit down outside the gate in silence.
Me: It's Sihle and his mom and they will pay.
Ntsika: They will surely pay, what are we going to tell mom?
Langa's phone rings and he take it out and put it on speaker
dad is shouting his name.
Luyolo: Langelihle why are you quiet!why is your sister's
phone off?
Langa: Dad..
Luyolo: Are those people still there your mom is in pain man
I am thinking of taking her back to the hospital.
We look at each other..
Ntsika: Gumede something happened here.
Luyolo: Did someone get hurt?
Ntsika: It's it's..
He huffs.
Luyolo: Langelihle talk come on!what is going on there?
Ntsika: Auntie sunny and her daughter...
Luyolo: What about them?
We don't say anything.
Luyolo: WeSfiso!
Sfiso: Yeah..
Luyolo: Talk!
Sfiso: They shot them, they are gone.
Luyolo: Who is gone Sfiso?
Sfiso: Aunt Sunny and her daughter we are sorry we tried to
stop them, we tried..
He look down shaking his head..
Silence.
Langa: Dad..
Luyolo: Find that Sihle and his bitch mother and take them
to Mluh's house today!
Langa: Yes dad..
We get up and walk inside the gate we stop when we see the
ladies standing at the veranda looking at us like they are
waiting for answers.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika..
Miyah: We heard gunshots, Nkanyezi who's blood is that?
Nkanyezi has auntie sunny's blood all over him.
Miyah: Can you guys talk!
She shouts, Pamella touch her tummy..
Me: Are you ok babe?
Pamella: Yeah I am fine just a kick, now can you answer
Miyah's question,what is going on?
Me: It's auntie Sunny and her daughter they were shot
outside the gate.
I say keeping my head down.
Ntsoaki: What!?
Miyah: Are they going to be ok?
I shake my head.
Me:They were taken to a mortuary..
Miyah: What do you mean by that Nadia?
Me: They didn't make it..
Miyah: No..
Pamella starts breathing heavily and I see blood running
down her legs.
Me: No!
I rush to her and pick her up..
Ntsika: Get her in my car now I will take the keys..
I take her to Ntsika's car and sit next to her, Ntsika get in and
drive out..
Me: She is 7 months!is she losing the babies?
Ntsika: They need to do an emergency C-section...what the
fuck is happening!
He hit the steering wheel..
Pamella is screaming..
Me: I'm sorry baby I am sorry..
We get to mom's hospital and help her out of the car, Ntsika
come back with the wheelchair and wheel her in.
Me: Can we get some help around here please.
One of the nurses rush to us.
Nurse: Landile what is it?
Me: She is 7 months pregnant and she is bleeding do
something..
She wheel her away and shout for the other nurse to call the
doctor to theatre.
My brothers rush in Nkanyezi has changed the bloody
clothes.
Nkanyezi: "Will she be ok?"
Me: They took her to theatre so I don't know..
We sit down in the benches and wait for hours.
After a long wait the doctor walk out and stop infront of us.
Me: Is she ok?
Dr: We did an emergency C-section.
I nod fast.
Dr: The babies are fine but we put them in the incubators for
full development.
Me: All three of them?
Dr: Uhm all four of them.
Me: Four?
I look next to me.
Dr: You didn't know they were four?
I shake my head.
Dr: Ok the amniotic sacs were two so there were two sets of
twins in there.
Me: But how?
Dr: Maybe one of them was hiding it happens.
Me: She did an in-vitro with one fertilized egg.
Dr: No I think there were two eggs which divided into two or
maybe it was really one egg but with two yokes.
I am so confused.
Langa: Are they all boys?
Dr: Yes.
Me: Is their mom ok?
Dr: Yes she is fine you were quick to get her here so
everything was good.
I nod.
Me: Thank you Doctor.
Dr: Uhm who is the father.
Me: I am..
He squint his eyes and my brothers chuckle.
Dr: Ok father we need you to sign some papers for the
mother and the babies also we need names for their tags.
I look at Ntsika.
Me: Can you name the other two and Nkanyezi will name the
other set.
Langa: I think we have run out of twins's names now.
Ntsika: I think so too,I will be honoured to name them Sis.
I sign the forms and we go see the babies in the incubators.
Langa: Now look who have small kids.
I smile a little.
Ntsika: Sbongakonke and Sbanisethu, iSbanisamaQwabe..
I nod.
Ntsika: You can just write Sbonga and Sbani Miss.
She says to the nurse and she nods putting the tags on the
babies
Nkanyezi: "Lethokuhle and Lethukuthula."
Ntsika: Letho and Lethu.
I smile.
Me: Thank you big brothers.
They nod.
We go to check on Pamella and find her looking sleepy.
Me: Hey baby, did you see our kids?
Pamella: Are they going to be okay?
Me: Yeah they are fine they just need to stay in there for a
while, thank you so much, thank you for being strong enough
to carry the four of them no wonder you ate so much.
She giggles. I look at my brothers.
Me: Look baby sleep ok we have to go somewhere but we
will be back.
Pamella: Ok I feel sleepy anyway.
Me: I love you.
Pamella: I love you too.
I kiss her forehead and we walk out.
Me: Please Keep an eye on my wife and kids Nzuzo..
Nurse: I will Landile.
I nod and walk out we drive back home to change and get
our guns then drive to uncle Carl's house.
Me: We are tracking Sihle you will find the number from
Nkanyezi's phone.
He does his thing and he shows us the location.
Me: Thank you.
We drive there in different cars and stop a distance away
from them, they are in the park looks like they are drinking
and the car next to them look exactly like the one that was at
home.
I wear my beanie and the shades stepping out of the car and
get in the front seat of Ntsika's car, Langa and Nkanyezi get
in at the back we are all wearing shades.
Me: The mother isn't here.
Ntsika: Let's move Sihle away from his crew then shoot all of
them down then snatch Sihle put him in the boot of my car.
Me: Nkanyezi borrow me your phone..
I dial his number and I see him moving away from the noise.
Sihle: I told you I am coming for you, did you like my gift
earlier today?
I chuckle.
Me: I think you might like ours now.
My brothers start shooting at the crew and I step out
running to Sihle I give him fast punches and grag him to
Ntsika's car he step out, we put him in the boot and rush to
our cars and drive following each other to Mluh's house.
We tie him on a chair and Nkanyezi give him a very hard
punch..
Ntsika: Now tell us where your mother is..
Sihle: No..
Langa: And you think you have a choice?
Sihle: Look I just want what belongs to me that's it..
Me: Do you understand what you did today man, you killed
innocent people.
Sihle: Innocent? That bitch dragged my mother like a piece
of shit.
Another punch from Nkanyezi, he is shaking in anger his
eyes are red.
Sihle: You all don't deserve to live in that house I do!
Langa:We don't know what lies your mother fed you but
you're not our blood boy..
Sihle: I am not Luyolo chose to raise bastards than to raise
me.
I shake my head.
Langa: Wow the kind of rubbish you have in your head is
shocking your mother is a manipulative bitch.
Sihle: Don't call my mother a bitch.
Ntsika: You will die for nonsense your mother is misleading
you and you are too blind to see.
Sihle: I am a Mzozo not you.
Ntsika: We figured, do you want us to help you find your
dad?
Sihle: Fuck all of you fuck you!!
I take out his phone that I took when I grabbed him.
Me: Let's search for mommy's number so we can track her
down..
I scroll down and I see they call each other all the time it's
written Mama.
Me:Call uncle carl and give him this number Langa.
He calls uncle carl and give him Lesedi's number and Langa's
phone beeps after a while.
Langa: We found the location.
Me:Let's go find mother dearest so she can keep you
company.
We leave him there and drive to her mom's location, it's
some house we walk in and find her smoking and drinking
wine, she is half naked her thick thighs are just out there.
Me: I need a glass.
She jumps dropping the glass on the floor.
Me: Go and wear something appropriate man no infact let
me go find it for you.
I walk to the first room and search the closet and take a long
dress and walk out.
I throw it in her face.
Me:Wear that.
She look shocked, she wears her dress slowly.
Me: Sit down.
She sit down and we all sit looking at her.
Me: Who is Sihle's father?
Lesedi:Lu..Luyolo.
Ntsika: Ok let's do this again this time don't play with us ok..
He place his gun on the table.
Lesedi: Ok ok his father is the man I was married to.
Ntsika: Does he know that for sure?
Lesedi: No, after he died I told him he wasn't his real father
Luyolo is.
I shake my head this woman is crazy.
Me: Do you understand that our aunt and her daughter died
today because of this shit huh do you get that?
Lesedi: I wish it was Ziyanda, that bitch slept with Luyolo in
front of me!
Ntsika: You are calling my mother a bitch?
Lesedi: She took him from me!
Me: All this for a man? I mean there are plenty of men out
there.
Lesedi: Yeah but I made him, he owes me..
Me: How much do you want from him?
Lesedi: I want everything Luyolo gave to Ziyanda, I want his
love back, I want that house I want his money! it all belongs
to me ..
Ntsika: Let me guess you want his kids too?
Lesedi: I don't want no bastard I have my son..
Langa: Guys let's go so we can go home dad is calling.
We take Lesedi and drive to Mluh's house we tie her next to
her son.
Sihle: You can't do this to my mother.
Langa: We will leave you here to bond and probably tell each
other the truth we will be back maybe God will except you
with open arms if you confess Lesedi.
We drive home and we can hear the screams coming from
inside we rush in and find mom and auntie Mbali crying at
the top of their voices.
Luyolo: Ziyanda you are going to hurt yourself don't cry like
this please..
Ziyanda: How can they do this to my family! how can they do
this to my brother!!
Uncle Mandisi is trying to calm Mbali down who looks like
she is losing her breath..
After a while they calm down but mom doesn't look good she
is holding her chest..
Ziyanda: Where is Kwanele?
Ntsika:We don't know mom he just drove off after they took
them to the mortuary.
Ziyanda: Did you find out who did this?
Ntsika: Yes Lesedi and Sihle we kept them in Uncle Mluh's
house.
She nods.
Ziyanda: Luyolo where do you think Kwanele went?
Luyolo: Where he used to live..
Ziyanda: Go find him, follow him Mandisi..
They get up and walk out..
Ziyanda: Where is Pamella?
Me: She is at the hospital.
Ziyanda: Are the kids ok?
Me: There are four of them Lethu, Letho, Sbani and Sbonga.
She nods smiling a little.
Ziyanda: I am sorry they are premature but congratulations.
Me: Thank you.
Ziyanda: Ntsika call Lukhele and tell him to come back home
we need him..
She says covering her face and sobs.
Me: I am sorry that we didn't move fast enough mom..
Ziyanda: It's not your fault, those two are going to pay!
She get up but quickly sit down I rush to her.
Me:Are you ok?
Ziyanda: I just felt a bit dizzy I am still feeling weak.
Me: Let me help you to your room.
Ziyanda:Thank you, sis Mbali lets go..
We take them to mom's room and they sleep next to each
other..we walk out and go sit at the lounge.
Ntsika:Let's go check on Pamella and the kids then come
back for dinner.
We start in town and buy what we think she might be able to
eat and walk in her ward and find the nurse Nzuzo with her.
Me: Hey babe..
Pamella: Hi, how is everything at home?
Ntsika: Mom and Mbali are not ok they were all best friends
so this is hard for them.
Me: are you feeling any pain?
Pamella: No I just took pain medication.
I nod. We leave her after seeing the babies and go back
home.
We go to mom's room and find them sleeping.
We go sit around the table and eat dinner.
Ntsoaki: Are we safe here Ntsika?
He doesn't answer.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika..
Ntsika: We have the person who did this Ntsoaki so yeah and
it's not like you have anywhere else to go both of you are
stuck here with us!
Miyah: We are just concerned Ntsika don't talk like that..
Ntsika: We all are Miyalo ok, we lost two family members at
the same time so we are also worried about our kids and you
guys..
Miyah: I am sorry..
Ntsika: No I'm sorry I shouldn't have raised my voice at the
both of you I am sorry.
They nod and look down on their plates.
After a while mom and aunt Mbali walk in holding hands and
sit down.
Miyah dish up for them they eat a little until we hear the
front door opening dad and uncle Mandisi walk in
supporting a drunk Kwanele they put him on the couch and
we all go sit down.
Kwanele: I don't know why you brought me back here!there
is nothing left for me here..
Exactly the words aunt Sunny said.
Ziyanda: Let me guess you want to go like how dad wanted
to go when mom died, aren't you the one who was begging
him to stay for me but now you want to do it!
Kwanele: You are old now Ziyanda it's not the same..
Ziyanda: So you are no longer my brother because I am old?
He doesn't answer.
Ziyanda:If you leave I will look for you and kill you, I know it
hurts but stay we will be with you we will help you go
through this..
Kwanele: I can't Ziyanda this is too much for me, it hurts too
much I can't...
He literally breaks down and cry mom sit next to him and
hug him.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry bhuti I am sorry..
In the morning we start by checking on Pamella then go bck
home, Lukhele is here and Kwanele look sad, lost, broken it's
sad man.
Lukhele: I am sorry..
Kwanele: It's ok we will bury her here is that ok?
Lukhele: Yes that's fine son.
Kwanele: After the funeral I am going back to the military for
good I will come back in a coffin.
Ziyanda: What do you mean?
Kwanele: I said I am leaving for good!
Langa: But what about us?
Kwanele: What about you huh?you all have your partners
here with you right?your kids are all here you will be fine
without me..
Ziyanda: So we are not your family anymore you just gonna
sideline us forever?
Kwanele: I am leaving Ziyanda..
Ziyanda: I lost my best friend and her daughter and now you
want me to lose you Kwanele?you want dad to lose you
again!
He get up and walk away..mom starts sobbing on dad's
chest..
Ziyanda: My family is falling apart and I don't know how to
fix it...I don't know...
Lesedi is gonna pay for all this..

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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KWANELE
*
I am in my house packing my bags while sitting on the floor,
tomorrow I am burying my wife and our daughter on the
same day and they expect me to stay, for what? watch them
with their partners while mine died in cold blood!
I continue to pack and go to her closet and take out the first
dress she designed herself and she was so proud and so am I.
I sit in the bed with the dress in my hands, her scent is all
over our bedroom, that day they wanted to go eat breakfast
out because I had to rush to work I wish I had left with them
things would have been different maybe I was going to save
both of them.
I hear the door opening and Miyah walk in.
Miyah: Hi I came to give you your food.
Kwanele: So now that my wife isn't here you gonna step in
and serve me?
Miyah: Uh no..no I'm sorry..
Kwanele: Then leave..
She nods and turn..
Kwanele:Miyalo..
She stops.
Kwanele: I'm sorry.
She put the food down and rush out.
I get in bed holding the dress close to my chest.
Me: You didn't have to leave me Sunny, I loved you the first
day I saw you, we fought for years because we couldn't have
babies but we fixed it and got married at the end now when
we had a chance to be parents you gave up, you let death
win, you chose death over me!
I feel cold air in the room and the curtain starts moving, I sit
up and look around.
Me: You are here I can feel your presence, talk to me say
something..
"Don't go."
I look around but I can't see her anywhere.
"I will always be with you don't leave Kwanele."
Me: But I can't see you, I can't even hold you..
"Look behind you baby."
I turn and I can see her in the dress she was wearing that
morning.
Me: Baby how are you here? We are burying you tomorrow.
Sunny: You want me here,you need me.
I nod.
Me: I love you so much.
Sunny: Then I will stay with you.
Me: You promise you won't leave?
She nods.
Me: So I can feel your touch?
She step closer to me and touch my face, I close my eyes.
Sunny: Can you feel that?
I nod..
We take off our clothes, she get on top of me and we make
love..
I open my eyes in the morning and I can feel my dick is wet
she was really here.
Me: Sunny..
Silence.
Me: You said you won't leave Sunny..
Sunny: I won't baby, you need to get ready, wear your black
suit.
I laugh.
Sunny: What?
Me: You are helping me get ready to go to your funeral but
you're here.
Sunny: You have to go, I love you Kwanele wam.
I smile and go take a shower she is busy talking to me while I
get ready.
Sunny: This can be our secret Kwanele, you don't have to tell
them or they will keep me away from you forever.
Me: I won't tell them anything baby no one will keep me
away from you.
I kiss her.
Me: I will find you here when I come back?
Sunny: I am always with you remember.
I nod with a smile on my face and walk out I find the family
busy with breakfast the yard is full of people who are giving
me the looks of pity they are here to arrange the funeral.
I sit down around the table and start eating when I look up I
find everyone staring at me.
Ziyanda: Are you ok bhuti?
Me: Yeah I am fine.
They look at each other.
Me: I am sorry for shouting at you yesterday Miyah.
Miyah: It's ok I understand.
Ziyanda: She tells me you were packing yesterday.
Me: Yeah but I am not leaving anymore.
She smiles with tears in her eyes.
Ziyanda: Really?
I nod a little.
We go to the tent and the service starts Ziyanda and Mbali
get up to say their last goodbyes.
Ziyanda: I remember the first day I saw Sunny it was not a
good place to meet someone but I am glad I did, she was this
bold girl who had a purple room, she loved purple, I can say
she kept me alive by warning me not to act like a little brat,
that statement may sound rude to many but it saved my life,
I am here today because of her my baby girl Iyana is alive
today because she was there with me as my best friend, it is
true what they say, we really find love in a hopeless place,
Rest in peace my friend I appreciate every single battle you
fought for me and with me, my bestfriend I love you so
much.
She look in pain she keep touching her chest, and tears are
flowing down her face, I get up and hold her in my arms, she
is my little sister I hate seeing her like this
Me: It's ok.
Mbali talk and after her it's Ntsika, now it's time for me to
say goodbye to my wife.
I stand there and look at her purple coffin next to me then
the other purple one next to it, they both loved purple it was
fascinating, they liked same things.
Me: They say you are dead and I say you are just resting we
will meet again one day and I choose to keep your memory
the best way I know how..
I look at the entrance I can see her standing there looking
beautiful she is smiling at me.
Me: You are my life Sunny and you will remain one till I die, I
won't let you go in my mind and in my heart you will remain
alive forever, I love you, rest my love.
I sit down and look at the entrance again but I don't see her
anymore.
We take their bodies to my back yard where they will be
buried.
The pastor open the verse and start preaching I am just
standing there looking at the coffins in front of me, they are
gone I wipe my tears as both coffins move slowly down the
graves, I can hear screams from Mbali, Ziyanda and Iyana
they are too loud causing me to feel like I am suffocating, I sit
down and loosen my tie a bit..Mandisi gives me water I drink
all of it in one go, we throw the soil on the graves and go
wash our hands..
I see Asanda, the journalist rushing to me alone with a phone
in her hand.
Asanda: Excuse me sir do you know what happened to your
wife and daughter? We heard that they were shot do you
know who did it?
Me: Really?you want to do this right here, now?
Asanda: Uhm I.. I'm sorry..
Me: No come meet me inside my house I will tell you..
I walk away to my house and go to my room taking off my
shirt and tie.
Me: Sunny..
Silence..
I walk around the room looking for her but I find her
standing by the door.
Me: Hey there you are, you changed your dress?
Sunny: Uhm I was wearing like this when you saw me
earlier..
Me: I missed you so much.
Sunny: Uhm sir I..
I kiss her lips picking her up and go to my room with her in
my arms..
Me: You smell different today..
Sunny: I.
I kiss her lips and pull up her dress taking it off, I remove her
bra and her panty.
Me: Do you want this baby?
She nods a little she look nervous..
I lick her boobs and go down to her pussy and start sucking
her clit..
Sunny: Aah..
I take off my pants and position myself in her hole looking
deep in her eyes and try to insert my dick but it seems
impossible she is holding me too tight..
I try many times until I am fully in and start moving slowly in
and out it's like I am having sex with a virgin, but this is my
wife we have sex everyday..
Me: Fuck..
Sunny: It hurts..
She whispers..
Me: I'm sorry baby..I won't be long fuck..
I move a bit faster making sure I don't hurt her and I cum
holding her tight.
Me: I love you so much baby..I love you.
I get off her and sleep next to her and close my eyes dozing
off.
I wake up hours later and look around I am alone naked in
bed, I see a little blood on my bed, I walk out and find the
phone on the floor I don't know who it belongs to or how it
got here and it's locked doesn't have any picture on the
screen, I go back to my room and shower I can feel a bit of
pain on the tip of my dick..
*
NTSIKA
*
We are in the lounge it's just after the funeral, I look out the
window I see Asanda, the journalist rushing to her car and
drive out in full speed maybe she is rushing somewhere,
journalists never rest like right now she attended this
funeral to ask questions, I mean who ask questions at the
funeral.
Ntsoaki walk in carrying Ntando and give her to me without
saying a word, we haven't really talked after I shouted at her
and Miyah the other day when they were raising concerns
about their safety I apologised but I guess it wasn't enough
she is still cold towards me..
I kiss Ntando and sit down next to Nkanyezi.
Landi: So dad what are we doing to do about Lesedi and
Sihle.
He chuckles.
Luyolo: I found something to keep them safe for a day, you
can say they will have a personal guard.
We look at him confused as hell.
Ziyanda: Can I come with I just wanna slap that bitch just
once..
Mbali: Me too.
Ziyanda: Like I found out I have cancer I go through a very
painful surgery then when I finally come home I find out my
best friend, my brother's wife and her daughter are gone
how cruel is this world we live in!
She wipe her tears.
Luyolo: Ntsika give Ntando to your brother and go call
Kwanele.
I give Ntando to Nkanyezi and walk to Kwanele's house I find
him standing by the door topless looking confused.
Me: Uncle.
He look at me.
Me: Are you ok?
Kwanele: Yeah I am fine.
I nod a little.
Me: Dad is calling you.
Kwanele: We are going to meet my wife's killers?
I nod.
Kwanele:Ok wait for me here I will be back I am just gonna
wear my tshirt.
I stand by the door I can hear him talking in a low voice but I
can't hear exactly what he is saying.
He comes back fully dressed and we walk back to the lounge.
Kwanele: Yeah..
Luyolo: We are here for you big brother you know that right?
He smile.
Kwanele: I know and thank you.
Luyolo: Let's go..don't be dissapointed we will only see Sihle
and Lesedi for a while today ok, Ziyanda and Mbali you will
get to slap her a bit and you guys can throw a few punches at
Sihle.
Ziyanda: But he is your son Luyolo..
She says imitating Lesedi we all chuckle..
Luyolo: Ziyanda I don't like you and I don't think I ever will.
We laugh maybe this is what we all need make jokes to
remember aunt Sunny she was this type of person who will
throw a very good joke but won't laugh at all she will just
stare at us like she didn't even say a single thing, she was
one of a kind.
We leave our wives and nannies and walk out.
Luyolo: Sfiso do you have a camera with you,I want to see
every single reaction..
Sfiso: Yes dad I have it with me in the car.
Luyolo: Good.
I wonder what it is, he has this smirk on his face I can't
explain it.
I drive with Landile.
Landi: Did you see the smirk on dad's face brother he look
dangerous.
Me: I have never seen that smirk before.
Landi: What do you think he is planning?
Me: I really have no idea sis guess we will find out soon
enough.
We drive in Uncle Mluh's house and walk around the back
where we kept them.
We walk in and find them sweating look like they were
trying to untie themselves.
Ziyanda: Hello Lesedi..
She stares at mom.
Ziyanda: Over 15years you are still after Luyolo, don't you
give up?
Lesedi: I won't stop until you give back everything that
belongs to me.
Me: Did your mom tell you the truth about your paternity?
Sihle: She did, that man is my father no matter how much he
tries to run away from it but he is..
I shake my head.
Me: You're losing it, both of you are not ok.
Kwanele: So you are the boy who ordered a hit that killed my
wife?
Sihle: Oh she is your wife? I really thought it was that bitch
over there who took everything from mom!
Kwanele: A bitch? My sister.
Sihle: Yeah..
Uncle Kwanele punch his stomach he groan in pain.
Kwanele: I would really like you to say it again!
Lesedi: How can you all be so blind Kwanele you guys know
that Luyolo belongs to me.
Kwanele: Why?because you took advantage of his situation
before huh, you flashed money because you knew he needed
it, is that why he belongs to you?
Lesedi: He loved me before she came along.
Kwanele: No that wasn't love Sedi, he loves Ziyanda and you
know that too that is why you're trying so hard to break
them up but it didn't work, you killed my wife and I will
watch you take your last breath.
Lesedi: You can all go to hell.
Luyolo: Sfiso put that Camera there I want it to face them ok.
Sfiso climb on a chair and put the camera and step down.
Sfiso: Done..
Dad smiles.
Luyolo: Baby do what you gotta do my love but don't hurt
yourself.
Ziyanda: I won't baby.
She stands infront of Lesedi and we hear a loud clap.
Landile: Woah was that a slap?
Me: Yep!
Another one then a punch..
Ziyanda:Mbali wanna take over..
Lesedi is red but throwing insults at mom.
Mbali go all out with the punches she doesn't stop, she
screams so loud stepping away from Lesedi uncle Kwanele
pull her to his chest..
Luyolo: Nkanyezi you look angry, wanna release what's in
your heart.
Nkanyezi: "You know I can't say it in words."
Luyolo: Do it your way son.
Nkanyezi starts throwing punches at Sihle until he bleeds
dad pull him back.
Luyolo: We don't want to kill him yet son.
Uncle Mandisi walk in and look at dad.
Luyolo: Got it?
Mandisi: Yeah they are here.
Luyolo: Good everyone go back to your cars.
We all walk out wondering what's happening, there is a
bakkie outside we see them taking out a cage and it's big.
Me: I wonder..
Landi: You and me bro..
We drive back home on dad's orders and sit in the lounge.
Luyolo: Let's see if that camera is working sir.
Sfiso put the laptop on the table we all look close as someone
opens the cage and a big snake moves out we see the person
walking out and close the door.
Lesedi is screaming and so is Sihle..
Ziyanda:Luyolo.
Luyolo: Yes baby.
Ziyanda: That snake is huge!
Luyolo: I know I hope they don't move because it will attack
alright.
Ziyanda: So they will die?
Luyolo: This is a non poisonous snake but it can sure bite.
Landi: Looks like sihle want to faint before mommy dearest
there.
Me: Shame look at him all sweaty and shit.
We all laugh but uncle Kwanele still look far away with
thoughts.
Later we go visit Pamella and find her sleeping.
Landi: Ella..
She slowly open her eyes and smile.
Pamella: Hi guys, The doctor said he is discharging me
tomorrow since the scar is healing but they are keeping our
kids here, can't your mom tell them not to discharge me yet?
Landi: You don't want to go home?
She shakes her head.
Pamella: Not yet maybe until I see the growth.
Landi: But we can come here everyday to check on them.
Pamella: Please..
Landi nods.
Landi: I will talk to a doctor to keep you here for a few weeks
then.
Pamella: Thank you.
We check on the babies.
Me: Looks like Lethu and Letho are growing fast.
Landi: Yeah they don't look so tiny like their brothers here
but they are growing as well.
I nod.
Me: Do you think Pamella wants to stay here because of the
babies or is it because she is scared of going home?
She look at me.
Landi: What do you mean brother?
Me: She was terrified when we brought her here because we
told her about aunt sunny, maybe she doesn't think our
home is safe for her just like Ntsoaki and miyah so maybe
she feels safe here.
Landi: Uhm so you think she prefers being here than with us.
I shrug.
Me: Talk to her and assure her that our home is safe man she
doesn't have to be scared of coming back.
Landi: Ok thanks.
We drive back home and eat dinner then go our seperate
rooms.
Ntsoaki walk in from putting Kayise to sleep she doesn't
sleep with us anymore she sleep with the girls in their room.
Me: Babe.
Ntsoaki: Mmm.
Me: You don't like being here anymore huh.
Ntsoaki: I just don't feel safe that's all, Aunt Sunny and her
daughter died on that gate we all use.
Me: But we are dealing with the people who did this.
Ntsoaki: Where did they come from?
Me: That was dad's ex before mom and dad got married.
Ntsoaki: And what if another enemy emerges huh what will
happen to us or our kids?
Me: So what do you suggest Ntsoaki you want to leave huh?
She doesn't answer I chuckle.
Me: You want to go?
Still no answer.
Me: You can go and see if you will be safe when you try to
step out of that door..
Ntsoaki: You don't have to talk like that Ntsika you know I
won't leave.
Me: But you want to.
Ntsoaki: I am sorry.
Me: Being scared is normal we all are, but what you want to
do is not right, what about the kids huh, if I let you go what
will happen to them.
Ntsoaki: I won't go baby I am sorry I just..
Me: I understand really but we are working on keeping all of
you safe.
Ntsoaki: Ok you know I am not strong enough to protect our
family for now since our daughter is still young but you will
need to take me to the beach again.
Me: Ok when?
Ntsoaki: Tomorrow night..
Me: Going to meet the mermaids?
She laughs I pull her closer to me and kiss her.
Me: You are beautiful.
Ntsoaki: You tell me that all the time Ntsika.
Me: Good because you really are.
She smile looking down.
I kiss her again pushing her to bed she shakes her head and
get up.
Ntsoaki: How about I give you the show first daddy.
I smile.
Me: Do it baby..
She slowly take off her clothes then play with her boobs she
step closer to me and take off my clothes leaving me naked
with my dick all up..
She get in bed and start stroking her clit and moaning..
I kneel infront of her watching as she finger her self looking
straight in my eyes my dick is dripping with pre cum..
Me: Babe..
I pull her closer to me and rub my dick on her clit..
Ntsoaki: Yes..
I rub it faster she grabs on the sheets I slide it in..
Me: Shit..
Ntsoaki: Yes baby..
I don't move but we switch positions she is ontop of me
moving so fast..she knows what she is doing man that's why I
let her have her moments because she sure knows how to
ride that dick..
She continue until we both cum, I pick her up and we go to
the shower and give her one more round against those tiled
walls.
I go to the kitchen to get cold water I look out the window
which is facing uncle Kwanele's house I can see that he is
trashing the house..
I rush out and run to him and find uncle Mandisi standing by
the door.
Me: What is happening?
Mandisi: I don't know..
Kwanele: You fucken said I shouldn't go because you will be
here now Where are you Sunny, fucken come out
dammit!!how can you lie to me huh ..
Mandisi: Kwanele!
Kwanele: Stay out of this Mandisi, I want Sunny to come out
right now!wherever you're hiding Sunshine come out now or
I will burn this whole house down with you in it!I know you
are here you bastard I know!
Me: Uhm do you think he is indenial like how Nkanyezi
thought he can see Miyah in..
I don't finish talking because of the cold breeze I feel like
something is moving fast infront of me, I see a blur figure
next to a window.
Mandisi: No way!!
It's aunt Sunny she look so angry looking at Kwanele.
Kwanele: Hey baby you're here, where have you been you
left me in bed..
Sunny: I hate you!how can you do this to me..
The glasses breaks as she moves to another corner of the
room.
Kwanele: What did I do?
We see a glass flying straight uncle Kwanele..
Me: Uncle Kwanele move away!!
He moves the glass shatters on the wall.
Kwanele: Baby tell me what I did so I can apologise please!!
Sunny: I am leaving..
Kwanele: No!no..you can't leave Sunny you promised..you
said I shouldn't go because you will stay with me!!
Sunny: Not anymore..
He kneels down and beg looking at that human figure..
Kwanele: Please baby I am sorry for whatever I did, I am
sorry please don't leave..
She shakes her head..
I walk in and look at her..
Sunny: Don't come any close Ntsika..
Me: You can see me?
Sunny: Don't be a moron you are looking at me so why do
you think I can't see you..
She smiles a little.
Me: What is going on?
Sunny: He doesn't want to let me go but he betrayed me..
Me: What did he do?
Sunny: I don't know I just feel angry and betrayed!
Kwanele: I am sorry.
Me: You want him to let you go?
Sunny: Yes my daughter is waiting for me..
Kwanele: Come back with her Sunny please..
He is kneeling tears are just making their path down his
cheeks I am getting emotional too.
I kneel next to him and touch his shoulder.
Me: You understand that aunt Sunny is gone?
He nods.
Me: We buried her?
He nods wiping his eyes.
Me: But how come you want her here?
Kwanele: Because she came to me and told me I shouldn't go
she will be here.
Me: You want to live with her here while she is in that form?
Kwanele: Yes as long as I can talk to her and touch her yes..
Me: Aunt Sunny you wanna stay..
She shrug her shoulders.
Sunny: He has to let me go or I won't leave.
Me: Let her go.
Kwanele: No!
He get up.
Kwanele: I better find you here when I come back Sunny!
He walk out and a figure vanish immediately.
I look at uncle mandisi his mouth is hung open, he is blinking
slowly.
Mandisi: Did you just talk to a ghost Pillar?
Me: I don't know, we need to tell grandfather about this.
Mandisi: He won't do anything, Kwanele is the only one who
can let sunny rest in peace.
I look at him and shake my head all my life I never thought I
can have a one on one with a ghost!
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
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KWANELE
*
Three months later
*
I am in my room waiting for Sunshine to show up and tell me
why she hasn't been coming to see me for the past three
days, I am sitting in bed topless just thinking about her, they
all have tried to tell me to let her go but I don't want to, I am
not ready for it at all.
Me: My love..
The cold breeze hits me and I look up she is looking outside
the window giving me her back.
Me: Why have you been ignoring me Sunny?
Sunny: You have to let me go baby our daughter is crying we
have to go..
Me: But I am not ready to let you go baby I don't want to live
without you.
Sunny: You will heal I promise, keep me in your heart, I don't
belong here..
Me: Please just stay a little while longer.
Sunny: Then I will be trapped here for eternity rooming
around these walls with nowhere else to go and I won't be at
peace.
Me: Then I should just kill myself and be with you.
Sunny: Then what about our family, Ziyanda, she lost me
Kwanele she can't lose you too.
Me: But it was ok for me to lose you sunny?
Sunny: No, but it was my time and if you try to kill yourself
you won't find peace baby until your day comes and maybe
it's 20 years from now and I won't forgive you if you try that.
I wipe my tears, she comes and sit next to me.
Me: Please give me time baby.
Sunny: It's been three months already, my daughter is tired
we need to leave babe.
I shake my head.
Me: I can't Sunny I am sorry I can't.
I get up and look outside the window I can see Ziyanda
sitting in the garden reading a book.
Sunny: She might not say it but she needs you, she can't tell
you because you are going through this pain too.
I look down.
Sunny: Be there for your sister Kwanele and let me go.
Me: No.
Sunny: You are so stubborn!
Me: It's in my blood.
We stay in silence.
Me: If I happen to let you go will you visit me like this.
Sunny: No I can only visit you in your dreams baby.
Me: Then I prefer this way..
She huffs.
Me: You remember the day you almost hit me with a glass
what made you so angry?
She giggles.
Sunny: I don't know but I felt like you did something but
even if you did I have no right to be angry I am dead.
Me: But if I did something wouldn't you know? I mean aren't
you always here?
Sunny: No, I have to juggle being here with you and being
with my daughter who is tired of sitting in one place waiting
for me.
Me: Why can't you come with her?
Sunny: Kwanele I shouldn't be here to begin with and you
want me to bring my daughter here.
Me: So she doesn't love me?
Sunny: She does baby she always ask about you but she can't
come back.
I nod.
Sunny: I have to go now she is crying, please think about this
Kwanele think of our daughter ok.
I sit down, the room feels normal now.
I sleep facing up then get up again searching for the phone I
found the other day..
I look at it for a while, I have to ask the kids if none of them
once lost a phone three months ago.
I wear my shirt and walk to where Ziyanda is sitting I sit
opposite her.
Me: Is it romance, motivational, fiction or non fiction?
She smiles looking at me.
Ziyanda: Romance..
Me: I like comedy..
Ziyanda: Really can you even read two pages in a book
without getting bored or falling asleep?
Me: You'd be suprised, you know when I came back from the
military the first time before I ran away from home, I used to
write down stories from my head I remember the first story
I wrote the topic was *If I could I would*.
Ziyanda: What was it about?
Me: About all the things I would change about my life if I was
given that power, like bringing back my mother, a lot of
things.
Ziyanda: Why did you stop writing then?
Me: Because it was hurting me more than it healed me, I was
living in that moment then when I am away from writing,
coming back to the real world I would realise that it's not
worth it I am hurting because in those books I kept mom
alive all the time.
Ziyanda: Healing is a long process maybe you were rushing it
that's why you gave up you thought it would happen
overnight but it doesn't.
Me: Yeah..
Ziyanda: And with Sunny you haven't even started healing
because you haven't took the first step which is letting it sink
in that she is gone, letting go doesn't mean forgetting bhuti it
simply means you know she is not living amongst us
anymore
Me: I am not ready.
Ziyanda: I wasn't ready to let mom go but I had to for me to
heal I had to do it so I don't lose my mind I had kids and all of
you.
Me: But I don't have kids Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: But you have all of us bhuti I am worried about you.
Me: I will be fine I just need a little time.
Ziyanda: Ok.
Me: How are the grandkids I saw that Pamella is back.
She smiles.
Ziyanda: They are so handsome, they look a lot like Langa
when he was a baby.
Me: Let me go in and meet them.
I walk in and everyone looks at me, I pushed them away so
seeing me here must be shocking
Me: Hello everyone.
Luyolo: Uh hey brother.
Me: I came to see the new additions.
They stare at me,I smile awkwardly.
Ntsika: Let's go and take them guys.
They get up and walk through the passage.
I sit down and look down.
Luyolo: Kwanele..
Me: Yeah.
Luyolo: We are your family.
Me: I know and I am sorry for shutting you guys out.
Luyolo: It's ok this is the first step, coming here to be around
us means something.
I nod and they come back.
Ntsika: This is Sbonga.
He gives me the light big boy.
Me: He look like he eat a lot huh Pamella?
She laughs.
Pamella: He does more than all of them.
Me: Meet Grandpa Kwanele boy..
Landi: This is Sbani.
Me: You can't keep giving me the same person over and over.
They laugh they really look the same even Lethu and Letho.
Me: Uhm i'll see you guys later for dinner.
Mandisi: You will eat with us?
I nod.
They look happy to hear that, I take out the phone I found
the other day.
Me: Uhm did any one of you lose a phone in my house the
day of Sunny's funeral?
They shake their heads.
Me: Do you remember if there is anyone who went in there
maybe?
Ntsika: Uhm I saw Asanda..
Me: The journalist?
Ntsika: Yeah.
Me: I remember telling her to come to my house but she
didn't come.
Ntsika: Maybe she had to rush somewhere that day.
I nod.
Me: Do you know where she works maybe this phone has
some important work stuff if it hers.
Ntsika: The bulding in town.
He tells me the name, I nod and go back to my house, I
change and take the car keys.
Sunny: I am proud of you.
I turn to look at her.
Sunny: We are getting close baby, I love you.
I hug her tight tears come out of my eyes.
Me: Why does it feel so right that you are here Sunny, why
does it feel like you belong here with me.
Sunny: You love me Kwanele and I understand my love all
the pain you are feeling I am sorry.
Me: Ok I will see you later.
She nods smiling, I walk towards the door and turn.
Me: I love you.
Sunny: I love you too my love.
I walk out and drive to town, I take the lift to the fifth floor
where they told me I will meet Asanda..
I knock in the office and someone invites me in. The minute I
step in she look like she wants to die, she starts fanning
herself she is sweating, I rush to get her water and help her
drink up.
Me: Are you ok now?
She nods a little looking down.
Me: Can I have a seat?
Asanda: Yes.
She says in almost a whisper.
Me: Uhm three months ago I found a phone in my house but I
don't know who is belongs to my son Ntsika told me he saw
you coming out of my house that day.
She keep her eyes down.
Me: Uhm here is the phone is it yours?
I show her the phone she look up a little then nods.
Me: Really? Unlock it for me.
She take it,
her hands are shaking.
Me: Are you sure you're okay little one?
She nods, she look young maybe a little older than the twins,
Ntsika and Nkanyezi but not too old.
She give me back the phone it's unlocked.
I nod.
Me: Ok you can take it back, bye.
Asanda: I wish I can have eveything that I lost in your house
back.
She says in a low voice.
Me: Sorry?
Asanda: No I am just thinking out loud.
Her office phone rings she answer and talk for a while then
get up and take a step to the file section the when she turns
she hold her tummy looking in pain, it's only now that I
notice that she's pregnant.
I get up and help her sit down she starts to sweat all over
again.
Me: Hey liitle one look at me, are you ok?
Asanda: No I feel pain in my tummy..
Me: Let me take you to a doctor.
Asanda: No..I'll be fine..
Me: I know when a woman is in pain while pregnant it
means something is wrong so please I insist.
There's a knock and someone opens the door a lady walk in
and look at us I am standing in front of Asanda.
Girl: I need that file I was asking you about..
Asanda: Please look it up there, I have to go to a doctor I
don't feel good.
Girl: Is it the baby?
Asanda: I think so.
Girl: Oh sorry babe.
All this time her eyes are on me.
Girl: Hi Mr Lukhele junior.
Me: Actually a junior is my brother that comes after me.
Girl: Oh Mandisi right?
I nod.
Girl: How do you know Asanda?
Me: She lost something and I happened to find it and brought
it to her.
Girl: Mmm so how have you been, losing your wife have you
moved on?
Me: No.
She stands between me and Asanda and look straight in my
eyes she moves her face closer and literally kiss my lips.
Girl: That is just to say sorry for your loss and let me give
you my number I can be your friend.
She write down the number and put it in my jean pocket.
She take the file and walk out I look at Asanda she is biting
her lower lip with tears in her eyes.
Me: Uhm sorry let's go, can you walk? Is it painful?
She nods and take her bag, I take it from her and hold her
waist to support her, we walk to my car but we stop when a
guy shouts her name running to us.
Guy: So you are really pregnant Asanda after we dated for
years without allowing me to break your virginity but now
here you are pregnant huh virgin mary!
She look down.
Guy: Answer me why are you a bitch?you lied to me about
being a virgin while you're getting fucked out there!!
He shouts and I help Asanda get in the car and look at him.
Me: Have you ever stopped and asked yourself why she
didn't allow you to take her virginity?
Guy: Mr Lukhele!
Me: Oh you know me?
Guy:Yes yes nice to meet you sir.
Me: Yeah back to my question..
Guy: Uhm no.
Me: Because you are a brat, did she owe you her virginity?
Guy: No.
Me: Then why are you shouting at her in public insulting her
calling her a bitch?are you guys married?
Guy: No I am sorry.
Me: Apologise to her.
I open the passenger door .
Guy: Uhm Asah I am sorry for insulting you, you are a good
woman not a bitch I am sorry.
She nods.
Me: Respect women yeah?
Guy: Yes Sir I am sorry..
I nod.
Me: Sure.
He walks away I get in the driver's seat and drive off.
Me: Uhm do you mind if I take you to my sister's hospital so
you won't wait long to see a doctor.
She nods a little.
I drive to the hospital and we walk in..
Me: Hey is there a free doctor now?
Recepstionist: Dr Cele is having her lunch in her office Mr
Lukhele.
Me: Well she needs to cut it short..
Receptionist: Nice to see you again sir it's been a while.
I nod a little and go to Cele's office and knock.
Me: Hey Nande..
DrCele: Kwanele it's so good to see you, I was at your wife's
funeral I thought I was going to see you but you were
nowhere to be found.
Me: Yeah I was in my house, I need your help the little one is
pregnant here and she was feeling a bit of pain.
DrCele: Oh how many months are you sis..
Asanda: This is the 12th week Doctor.
I clear my throat it marks exactly the 12th week I buried my
wife.
DrCele: Do you have your maternity card with you?
Asanda: Yes.
She takes it out and give it to her.
DrCele: I am impressed a lot of your age mate skip a lot of
hospital visits when pregnant..
She says paging through the card.
DrCele: Uhm Kwanele you can step out for a while, she needs
to change and get in bed I am doing a scan.
I nod and turn to the door.
Asanda: Can he stay please?
I look at her she look down.
Asanda: If you don't mind..
Me: Uhm yeah sure.
She go to the bathroom and change then get in bed, I stand
next to the bed this is the first time ever I see an ultasound
scan up close.
DrCele: Wow that's a very strong heartbeat there..
I can hear the sound.
Me: That sound is a heartbeat?
DrCele: Yes it is Sir..
Me: Wow and what is that?
DrCele: That is the baby sir it hasn't fully developed yet.
I nod, Asanda looks like she wants to cry.
DrCele: Did your previous doctor give you any pills?
Asanda: Yes I still have them.
DrCele:Ok those cramps you felt was the womb expanding to
accomodate the baby, so as it stretches you feel it, it is to give
a baby enough space to move around.
Asanda: Ok.
She wipes her tummy and we sit down as she writes
something on the file.
Asanda: My doctor isn't as nice as you can you be my doctor
from today.
DrCele: Yes of course baby and you are cute so it will make
my job more easier.
Asanda smiles and we get up.
Me: Thank you buddy.
DrCele: Anytime, I hope you are copying.
Me: I am trying man, bye.
We go to my car and sit for a while I am resting my head on
my seat with my eyes closed.
Asanda: Are you okay?
Me: Yeah..why don't you talk much now but you are always
talking on tv when reporting people's news to the world.
Asanda: That is my job and this is Asanda outside my job.
Me: So you don't really like talking outside work?
Asanda: I do with people I am used to.
I nod.
Me: Fair enough..so where to now?
Asanda: Back to work I left my car there.
Me: You can fetch it tomorrow let me take you home.
She nods.
Asanda: So tomorrow I have to take a taxi.
Me: Uhm I can take you to work..
Asanda:No I will take a taxi Sir it's fine.
Me: What time do you leave for work?
Asanda: 7:45am my place is fairly close to work.
Me:Ok.
She gives me directions to her flat and I park..
Me: You live with the father of your baby?
She look at me with teary eyes and step out rushing inside
her flat, maybe it's something I said I should stop asking
strangers personal questions.
I drive back home and start in my house.
Sunny: Hey I have been waiting for you.
Me: There was a little girl who is pregnant she had cramps
so I offered to take her to a doctor, you know her that little
girl who is a journalist.
Sunny: Oh yeah I know her you did good baby.
I nod and look at her..
Me: Have you ever changed this dress since you...uhm..
Sunny: Died?no I am always wearing this dress baby.
I nod a little.
Me: Today I am ending the life of those who killed you, I have
waited for too long and my family was getting tired of
torturing them, they have to die..
Sunny: Will it help you let go?
Me: It's still gonna take time Sunny please.
Sunny: Ok.
I walk out and go to Luyolo's house.
Me: It's time..
Luyolo: Mmmm?
Me: Today marks three months I buried my wife and
daughter so those who killed her are dying today..
Luyolo: It was long overdue brother, let's go..
We drive to Mluh's house and walk in we find Landile and
Nkanyezi beating Sihle up and they have been doing this for
months to teach him a lesson.
Me: I will take it from here, you will take a bullet in your
head Lesedi and your son will take it on the throat get that,
so who is taking it first?
Lesedi: Kwanele I am sorry we didn't know your wife was
going to come there..
Me:Wasn't that her home too?
Lesedi: I am sorry.
She has lost so much weight and so is her son..
Me: So who do I shoot first Sihle?
Sihle: It's fine start with me but Luyolo you will pay some
day you denied me your son.
Lesedi: He is not your father Sihle,Zulu was your real father.
Sihle: Mom don't let these people intimidate you into lying.
Lesedi: I lied Sihle I am sorry.
Me: Apologise to each other in hell...
I shoot Sihle in the neck then Lesedi on the side of her head
then close their eyes after taking their last breath.
We drive back home and I go back to my house.
Me: Come to bed baby I miss you..
Sunny: Kwanele the sex we had was in your dreams it was a
once off.
Me: What do you mean once off? we slept twice Sunny the
second time you even bled.
Sunny: I am a ghost you crazy man I slept with you in your
dreams once and why would I even bleed Kwanele?
Me: So I am crazy huh I am a fool I don't know how many
times I have had sex with my ghostly wife!
Sunny: Clearly!
Me: Don't fuck with me Sunny?
Sunny:What you gonna do? Go crazy and smash this house?
Me: You want to make me angry?
Sunny: Angry for being crazy yeah go ahead baby.
I chuckle.
Me: I see what you're trying to do Sunny, you want me to be
angry so I can send you away?it won't work baby i love you
you're not going anywhere anytime soon.
Sunny: You are selfish!
Me: No you are selfish for leaving me!taking that last breath
was you being selfish!how can you do that to me!how could
you!?
I take my gun and cock it putting it in my head..
Me: I am ending this pain today Sunny I am ending it all.
"dad don't do it."
I turn and look behind me it's little sunny she look tired, I
put the gun down and step closer to her.
Me: You guys need to come back I can't do this anymore.
LilSunny: We can't and I am tired now I have been here for
too long.
Me: I am sorry.
LilSunny: Let mom go..
Me: I can't do it I don't know to live without her..
She vanish and I look at Sunny.
Me: Please tell me you understand my love.
She shakes her head and vanish too.
I get in bed and cry till I fall asleep.
I wake up in the morning and rush to take a shower then get
dressed.
Me: Baby I will be back soon ok.
Silence.
Me: I am sorry about last night..I love you Sunny.
I rush out and get in the car driving to Asanda's flat I find her
already outside she is looking around probably for a taxi I
step out and go to her.
Me: Hello little one.
Asanda: Hi..hello..
Me: I am taking you to work..
Asanda: No..the taxi is coming now sir..
Me: I can pick you up and throw you in that car or you can
just cat walk in there.
She look at me.
Asanda: But I..
Me: Choose between the two..
She slowly walk towards the car and open at the back..
Me:Hey I am not an uber driver get in the front seat..
She get in and sit down.
Me: How is the baby?
Asanda: Fine.
Me: You are hoping for a girl or boy?
Asanda: I don't know, I am still not happy about this
pregnancy my parents don't know about it yet I am even
scared of visiting home.
Me: Why don't you go with the father so you won't be alone?
Asanda: It's..it's complicated.
Me: Is he running away?
Asanda: No, I don't think he knows what happened, he
thought I was someone else I only realised that later,
everything happened so fast I couldn't even stop it,
something in me wanted to do it but when I woke up I felt
regret and disgusted at myself.
She starts crying so hard.
Me: I am sorry for asking you the questions that got upset
like this, I am sorry little one.
She wipe her tears.
Asanda: I am going to be late for work.
Me: I am sorry.
I start the car and drive her to work.
Me: Maybe this is the last time I see you unless you write a
story about my family.
She look at me for a while and nod.
Asanda: Thank you..
She step out of the car and slowly walk in, I drive back home
to my wife.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LUYOLO
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My wife hasn't been ok since that Lesedi saga I know she
knows that Sihle isn't a Gumede but something is bothering
her.
Me: Ziyanda..
She turns and look at me.
Me: Please talk to me you are not ok I can see it baby.
Ziyanda: I am fine.
Me: Don't do that please, don't, is it this Lesedi issue?
She get up and go to the bathroom then come back after a
while and get dressed in silence, this is not my wife.
She walk out and come back with Iviwe and give her to me.
Me: maGumede how are you?
Iviwe: Dada.
Me: You are getting good at this talking business huh baby
girl.
She laughs throwing her head back, she spends a lot of time
with Iyana when she is home so she sometimes behaves like
her.
We play with Viwe and when I look up I see my wife in tears,
she is crying.
I put Viwe down and go to her hugging her tight.
Me:Tell me what I did Ziyanda please babe so I can apologise
I don't like seeing you like this maLukhele.
Ziyanda: I can't do this, I can't.
Me: What do you mean?
She moves away from me.
Ziyanda: I want a divorce..
I feel a very sharp stab in my heart.
Me: What did I do babe I am sorry for what Lesedi did.
Ziyanda: It's not that.
Me: Then what is it, am I not treating you right
anymore?babe I promise I will try harder believe me I will
do anything.
She shakes her head and take her handbang, she walk out..
After so many years of marriage my wife wants a divorce
from me, we were happy even when our family was attacked
we stuck together there was no cheating involved I have
never entertained any woman ever since I married her but
now this,with no explanation.
I take Iviwe and we go eat breakfast with everyone.
Me: Morning.
They greet back and my son's wives serve breakfast I can see
everyone eating but I don't think this food will go down the
throat because there is this lump stuck in it.
Miyah: Dad are you okay, we can make something else for
you if you don't like that.
Me: No I am fine, I will eat.
I start eating because I don't want to dissapoint them they
make breakfast with love and we always eat together.
Langa: Mom went to work?
I nod a little she isn't working today I don't know where she
went.
We eat in silence I can see Ntsika staring at me, he has
always been able to read people's moods and now he can
read mine.
We get up after eating and Ntsika comes to me.
Ntsika: Are you and mom fighting?
Me: No.
Ntsika: But we are old we can tell that there is something
wrong..
Me: Yeah look I will see you during lunch I have to go.
I take the car keys and drive to the hospital I knock in her
office and walk in, I find her sitting on a chair looking deep in
thoughts.
Me: Hey.
She look at me.
Me: I came to apologise Ziyanda please babe give me another
chance.
Ziyanda: I can't.
Me: At least tell me why? Do you have someone else?look I
know I am older than you and there are young men out there
maybe you want someone your age but I..
I shake my head as I feel tears burning my eyes.
Me: I love you, I have always loved you and I won't stop
think about our kids.
She get up and take her bag and an envelope.
Me:Where are you going?
Ziyanda: Home.
Me: I will drive with you, please let me.
I get up and stand in front of her, I hold her neck and kiss
her, she kiss me back..I take her bag and and what she is
holding and put it down on the table.
I pick her up while still kissing her and lay her on the couch,I
lock the door and go back to her removing her clothes and
mine, she get ontop of me inserting my dick, she starts
moving holding my shoulders tight, I hold her waist and help
her move faster.
Ziyanda: I love you..so much..
She says as she up the pace, I cum holding her tight, she bury
her head on my shoulder.
Ziyanda: I want you to find another woman that will love you
and the kids.
Me: Ziyanda don't..
She get up and wipe herself and me then we get dressed in
complete silence.
I take her hand and we walk out, I get in the drivers seat of
her car she get in next to me I drive us home, we start by
taking a shower together which end up with her against the
wall.
Me: Why are you allowing me to do this if you want to leave
me Ziyanda..
Her legs are wrapped around my waist her back is on the
wall I am looking straight in her eyes, I want answers, I move
slowly in her releasing my cum..
We shower and I pick her up going back to our room, we get
dressed and go join our family for lunch, we are all here.
We start eating until Ziyanda clears her throat I look at her.
Ziyanda: Uhm guys I have something to tell you.
They stop eating and look at her.
Ziyanda: Uh there's no easy way to say this, your dad and I
are getting a divorce.
They all stare at her.
Mbali: What? Please don't tell me it's because of that rubbish
Lesedi Ziyanda because if it is I won't hesitate to slap you
back to your senses.
Ziyanda: No..it's not that.
Ntsika: Then what is it mom why do you want a divorce?
Silence.
Langa: Dad why are you guys divorcing?
Me: I don't know, maybe she isn't happy with me anymore.
Langa: Mom..
Ziyanda: You won't understand..
Ntsika: Won't understand what, give us something!
anything! We are not kids anymore we have wives for god's
sake!
He ask staring at Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: Ntsika..
Me: She wants women to audition to be my wife, she said I
need a woman that will love me and you guys.
Langa: Are you leaving us?
Ziyanda: I..
Ntsika: Mom what is going on,tell us what is going on!do we
look like we need a stranger who will love us as old as we
are now huh?
She shakes her head, Langa get up and walk away.
Ntsika: You want to break this family Pink, you want to
break us.
He walk away too.
Landile is keeping her head down and wiping her eyes, I
stand up and sit next to her and hug her..
Landi: Maybe it's me, why is this happening now that I am
part of this family?
She says in a low voice.
Me: No..it's not you, we love you ok.
She get up and walk away as well.
Mandisi: Ziyanda do you see what you're doing to your
family sis?what is going on, you created this family, we are
all here because of you, you wanted a family and now that
we are all here you do this?why?
Ziyanda: It's...I.
She sobs and I don't know what to do as Iyana starts crying
too.
I just get up and walk back inside
I sleep in bed she comes in and give me the envelope I sit up
and look inside it's the divorce papers.
Me: You owe me an explanation Ziyanda, I can't just sign this.
She doesn't say anything, I tear up the envelop with the
papers inside and throw it at her.
Me: I am not a fool okay, I won't sign any shit you can go to
hell!
Ziyanda: Don't talk to me like that!
Me: Or what?what you gonna do huh?draft another papers?I
am not signing bullshit Ziyanda!
We are shouting at the top of our voices, I am angry that she
just give me the divorce paper while I don't even know the
reason for it.
Me: Uyahlanya wena.(you're crazy)
Ziyanda: I am crazy?
Me: That's what I said!
She comes to me and start punching me screaming I push
her.
Me: But still you won't be getting any signature from me, go
jump hills..
She sit on the floor and starts crying.
Ziyanda: I don't wanna leave my kids or you Luyolo, I don't.
I kneel in front of her.
Me: Tell me what is going on baby we can work it out.
Ziyanda: I..have a lump in my breast.
I look at her.
Ziyanda: I have cancer..
My whole body shakes as she throws herself in my arms.
Ziyanda: I am scared, cancer took away my mother..it took
her away from me!
I don't have words I am scared to say anything, I feel tears
run down my face.
Ziyanda: Breast cancer is the second leading cause of cancer
death in women I am scared..
Me: It's ok baby I am sorry, we will fight this..we can do this
together babe..
I pick her up and we go to bed I hold her tight, I am just as
scared.
I wake up later and look at her, she is sleeping so peacefully
next to me and I love her even more, I know she can fight
this she has fought a lot of things before I know breast
cancer can't keep a strong woman like her down, I refuse to
believe that cancer will defeat this rock, No.
She moves and get up looking at me I take her hand.
Me: Please don't divorce me.
She look down.
Me: When are you telling the kids?
Ziyanda: I can't.
Me: Don't do that Ziyanda, they have to know so we can hold
each others hands, so we can get a solution together, they
are adults now.
Ziyanda: They deserve to be happy Luh not that their mom is
dying.
Me: You are not dying!
Ziyanda: I can't tell them..
Me: But how did that make you feel when mom was hiding
that she's sick?
Ziyanda: I was sad, heartbroken and angry.
Me: Then tell them so they don't feel that way too , I will be
with you ok.
She nods.
Me: I love you.
We go eat dinner with my family, they look really sad.
Ziyanda: I won't divorce your father anymore, it was stupid
for me to even suggest that.
She giggles.
Nkanyezi: "But why even suggest it in the first place mom?"
I hold her hand and nod.
Ziyanda: I have a lump in my breast and a few weeks ago I
went to a doctor and he told me I have breast cancer.
Mbali: Ziyanda..
She says in a low voice.
She giggles with tears falling down on her cheeks.
Ziyanda: I am a Doctor but hearing the word cancer scares
the shit out of me, I lost mom because of cancer..
She blinks looking up.
Ziyanda: I didn't wait to hear how bad it is I rushed out the
minute he diagnosed me, I have breast cancer, I don't want
to leave you guys, I don't.
She shakes her head, they are all bowing their heads, there
are sniffs in the room.
Ntsika: Maybe he is wrong..the Doctor is wrong!
Ziyanda: He is not, I have the lump I can feel it and I feel pain
from time to time, sometimes I can feel when it's swollen.
Langa: Then don't delay finding out how bad it is so we can
help you fight this mom, we still need you, our kids need
their grandma, you can't die.
Sfiso touch his shoulder, Langa has always been a mama's
boy more than Ntsika and Nkanyezi so I can imagine his
pain, all of them love their mom more than anything in this
world I raised them so I know what I am talking about.
Mbali: I am still waiting for someone who will tell me this is
a joke because I can't take it, I can't..
She says crying, now that's not something you see everyday,
she is the joker, the craziest but they love Ziyanda so it's
understandable.
Me: I will take her to the Doctor tomorrow, right baby?
She nods.
We go back to our room and I watch her as she sleeps..
I kneel down next to bed.
Luyolo: God, I know I don't do this often but I need you right
now, I need you to heal my wife please, she is everything to
me and if she can't fight this on her own then please fight for
her, I need her, my kids still need their mother, our family
need her..please just do this one thing for me..please..I..
I sit down on the floor and let my tears fall...
Ziyanda: Luyolo..
I can't answer her.
Ziyanda: I need you to be strong for me for our kids please
don't breakdown now I need your strength to keep going
please Gumede.
I get up and sit next to her hugging her tight.
Me: I am trying to be positive I really am trying I want you to
be ok I want to go to the doctor tomorrow and he tell me
that he was wrong maybe it was something else.
Ziyanda: It's ok babe..
I stay awake the whole night trying to imagine life without
her but I don't see it, chances of me surviving without her
are zero..
I look at her as she walks to the bathroom,I feel like I am
paralyzed like I can't move a muscle.
She comes back from the bathroom and stand in front of the
mirror opening her gown.
Ziyanda: I don't think it's that bad, I only feel pain in one
area.
I quickly get out of bed and stand in front of her.
Me: So you think it's not that bad?
She nods a little, I pull her to my chest I think I needed to
hear those words more than anything.
Me: Let me get ready so we can go see a doctor.
She nods and smile.
Ziyanda: You keep saying I haven't changed, you still haven't
changed either you are still as hot as the first day I met you
just a bit talkative than before now.
I smile looking at her.
Me: So I talk too much now?
Ziyanda: You do, Landile and Langa combined.
Me: I am the worst mos.
She nods giggling I look at her then go take a quick shower
and find her taking out my black pants and a maroon shirt,
she is wearing a maroon dress.
Ziyanda: Don't say anything..
Me: But baby I wasn't gonna say anything.
Ziyanda: I know you were going to talk about matching
clothes but just wear the damn shirt..
I smile,I can see she is trying to be strong, I wear the "damn
shirt" that matches her dress and my black pants that
matches her shoes. I laugh.
Ziyanda: Let's go Luyolo I don't even know why you are
laughing right now.
I kiss her.
Ziyanda: We are couple goal even my sons and their partners
ain't shit.
Me: Babe you are extra today just stop it..
Ziyanda: I am stronger than any cancer Luh and I am not
leaving you for women like Lesedi never!
Me: I love you so much, you know I am feeding off of this
energy you have today.
Ziyanda: I love you, let's go.
We walk out and there's no one in the lounge I guess we are
early I drive her to the hospital in town and we walk in and
sit down and wait to be called in by Doctor Xolo because he
was on the call when we arrived.
DrXolo: Mrs Gumede you guys can come in.
We walk in his office and sit opposite him.
Ziyanda: DrX this is my husband Luyolo Gumede.
We handshake.
DrXolo: You look better than the last time I saw you Dr.
Ziyanda: I feel better after telling my family I know I am not
alone in this, they are with me.
He smiles.
DrXolo: So last time we did an X-ray and a Biobsy but you
rushed out before I can tell you the results.
Ziyanda: The word Cancer freaks me out.
DrXolo: It happens I am scared of mental illness.
They chuckle.
He take some files and sit down.
Ziyanda: So uhm is it bad?
He look at us and I hold Ziyanda's hand tight.
DrXolo: I am glad you came here earlier it could have been
worse.
He read the file in his hands.
DrXolo: Last time you came here the cancer was grade 2
which means the cells are spreading rapidly.
Ziyanda nods looking at me.
Me: What can we do now?
Ziyanda: I want to do lumpectomy surgery as soon as
possible.
DrXolo: I was also gonna suggest that we move faster Ma'am
before it spreads any further.
Ziyanda: Can I make the appointment for next week friday
please my husband will pay.
I smile looking at her.
DrXolo: Uhm let me look at my diary.
He look for a while then write something down.
DrXolo: Friday it is Dr Gumede.
Ziyanda: Thank you so much.
DrXolo: You know that after surgery you will still need to
undergo treatment right?
Ziyanda: I know thank you.
We shake hands and walk back to the car.
Me: What is a lumpectomy?
She giggles.
Ziyanda: A surgery to remove the lump that is said to be
breast cancer.
Me: Chances of surviving that surgery are high, right
Ziyanda?
Ziyanda: survival rates of lumpectomy is 97%.
Me: Where is the other 3%?
She laughs.
Me: Please survive this baby, promise me you will fight.
Ziyanda: I promise.
Me: Let's go eat breakfast out.
I drive to the restaurant and eat breakfast and my phone
rings it's Langa.
Me: Langelihle.
Langa: Dad you and mom are not here.
Me: Yes we went to a doctor but now we are eating
breakfast.
Langa: Is she going to be fine?
Ziyanda: It's not that bad yet baby so next week I will go for
a Lumpetomy, so they can remove the lump on my breast.
Langa: Are you going to be ok?
Ziyanda: I have to, you guys need me.
Langa: Ok Mom I love you and dad.
Ziyanda:We love you too baby.
We continue to eat our breakfast and I drive back home.
We walk in and we find Ntsika sitting in front of a keyboard
and Mandisi is standing next to him, this is his keyboard he
loves singing so much, others are sitting on the chairs next to
the keyboard.
Mandisi starts singing.
Mandisi:
"You're broken down and tired of living life on a merry go
round, And you can't find the fighter but I see it in you so we
gonna walk it out and move mountains
We gonna walk it out,
And move mountains"
He sings that first part with his eyes closed and I look at
Ziyanda she is smiling with tears in her eyes,this is her
favourite song, Rise up by Andra Day.
They sing the verse together.
Mandisi|Ziyanda:
"And I'll rise up I'll rise like the day, I'll rise up I'll rise
unafraid I'll rise up,
And I'll do it a thousand times again,For you, for you, for you.
Ntsika sings while he continue playing the keyboard.
Ntsika:
"All we need, all we need is hope And for that we have each
other And for that we have each other And we will rise, We
will rise We'll rise, oh, oh We'll rise"
He stops playing the keyboard and bow his head his body
shakes and I know he is crying, everyone is.
I sit down and wipe my own tears, Ziyanda is in Mandisi's
arms.
We sit in silence for almost 15 minutes with no one saying a
word until we hear a buzzer at the gate, Ziyanda buzz
whoever it is in, she open the door and Lesedi and Sihle walk
in with two police officers, I huff.
Lesedi: This is Ziyanda, she is the one who made my face
look like this.
Sihle: Arrest her now officers.
Landile get up and go stand in front of them.
Landile: What are you guys doing in my mother's house?
Sihle: They are here to arrest that stupid mother of yours.
Landile: I am not in the mood and nobody is,so turn around
and walk out now.
Mbali: You don't stop Lesedi, you just never stop huh!
Lesedi: Not until I see Ziyanda behind bars or better yet
dead..
I see all my boys getting up and stand next to Landile they
are staring at them.
Police: Ziyanda Lukhele..
Me: There is no one by that name here.
Lesedi: Don't fuck with me Luyolo.
Me: I wouldn't even if you were the last woman on earth.
Sihle: Would you stop insulting my mother and take
responsibility for me your son..
I chuckle and go to my wife.
Me: Babe go to our room and rest ok, I am coming now.
I kiss her and she walk away.
Lesedi: That is Ziyanda Lukhele.
Landile: You two get out of here.
She says pointing at the police officers her voice is shaky I
don't know if it's because she was crying or she wants to cry
right now.
Landile: I said get out of here!
Police: Don't shout at us we are here to work..
Landile: Let me call Detective Cooper so he can be the one to
throw you out because it won't be a good look if I do it
myself..
She takes her phone and we can hear the phone ring on the
other side.
Cooper: Cooper.
Landile: You need to come here and take your stupid police
before I completely lose it.
Cooper: Landile?
Landile: I am not playing if you are not here in 10 minutes I
am taking matters to my own hands!
Police: You are Landile?
No one answers.
Ntsika: You will know me today!?
He says pointing at Sihle who just chuckles.
Ntsika: I am just waiting for cooper to take out these two so I
can mop this floor with you.
Police: Sir you can't threaten..
Landile: Oh he can and he has.
Langa: Our father's house his rules and one of his rule is to
never allow anyone insult us under his roof ever!
Mbali get up and take off her earings and the shoes.
Mbali: Landile, Cooper is taking too long call him again!
She says moving to where Lesedi is and grab her there and a
fight breaks out the police tries to hold Mbali, Mandisi
swiftly moves and grab the police officer and push him hard
he lands on the floor.
Mandi: You put your hands on my wife?huh.
The police take out the gun.
Me: I wouldn't do that if I were you, put that gun away, this is
my house..
A buzzer goes off.
Cooper walk in and find the police officer still pointing a gun
at Mandisi and Lesedi is sitting on her butt Mbali is holding
her hair tight..she is screaming.
Cooper: Hey!why is there a gun in your hand?
Police: He was fighting me.
Mandisi: Oh if I was fighting you you will be dead by now.
Landile: Take your people Cooper..
My kids are still looking angry, they are baying for blood
their wives are standing at the far end of the room watching
everything.
Cooper: Hey out now!
He say to his "people" as Landi calls them.
Landile: Follow them out Cooper we have some unfinished
business here and it's better you don't witness any of it.
Cooper: What is going on?
Langa: Family matters, we will call you if we need anything
Sir.
He nods hesitantly then walk out, Nkanyezi grab Sihle and
give him a punch, Ntsika pull him to him and give him the
left one..they all beat him up taking turns.
Lesedi: Luyolo stop them,they are killing him..
Mbali shut her up with a slap.
Ntsika hold Sihle's leg and drag him out.
Ntsika: I told you I will mop this floor with you.
Sunshine and Mbali drag Lesedi out and I walk out and look
at them.
Me: Do this again Sihle or whatever your name is, and you
Lesedi I will let MY kids do worse than this, I don't have
energy for this anymore I am investing all of it to my wife, so
sis please stay away for your sake m..
Ntsika gives Sihle one last punch and spit on him.
They walk in following each other.
Me: Please open the gate for them Sunny..
The gate slides open Sihle crawls out and his mother is
trying to get him up but she is also struggling..
I walk in and find the siblings sitting on the couch, they are
not ok, I sit in front of them
Me: Your mom will be fine, we need to be strong and pray
that the surgery works..
They nod, I go and check on my wife.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LUYOLO
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I am in my room getting dressed, it's 8 o'clock in the
morning I am taking my wife to the hospital for the surgery,
it is tomorrow but she has to be admitted today.
I feel her hands holding me from behind I turn around and
kiss her forehead holding her tight.
She moves her hand to my chest.
Ziyanda: Your heart is racing but you are putting on a brave
face.
I kiss her forehead again I don't want to talk right now
because my voice will give it away, I am afraid, a lot of things
can go wrong with surgery.
Ziyanda: I love you father of my kids.
She look at me and smile.
Ziyanda: I love you so much.
Me: Then come back to us alive Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: I will baby.
We walk out and find the two sets of twins and Sfiso waiting
next to their cars.
Ziyanda: Morning guys.
Ntsika: Hey mom, we are coming with you I hope you don't
mind.
Ziyanda: No I don't besides I don't wanna wait alone in that
ward it must be nerve wrecking.
Langa: We will stay until they ask us to go.
Me: Landile are you ok?
She has been awfully quiet these days.
Landi: No..
Ziyanda: What's wrong baby?
Landi: I finally had a chance to have a person I can call mom
but now this happens.
Ziyanda: I will be fine.
Landi: You promise?
Ziyanda: I promise.
Landi: Pinky swear...
They laugh looking at her.
Ziyanda: Pinky swear, I don't know why these ugly people
are laughing.
They do their pinky swear and we get in the car with my
wife and drive out they drive behind us.
We get to the hospital and she change to hospital gown and
get in bed we all sit around her bed.
Ntsika: Our wives told us to tell you that you're in their
prayers, and they love you.
Ziyanda: Thank you.
Doctor Xolo walk in with two nurses.
DrXolo: Wow hello I didn't expect to see so many look alikes
in one room.
Ziyanda: Well get used to it Dr X, these are my kids.
DrXolo: All of them?
Ziyanda: Yep.
DrXolo: Oh you look younger, so Mrs Gumede we have to do
a first check in to see if the cancer hasn't spread any further
so we will know where our focus should be during surgery.
Ziyanda: Of course.
DrXolo: We will just get you to the next room, you can all
wait here for her.
Ziyanda: Can my husband come with please.
DrXolo: Uh yeah sure, you can walk?
She chuckles.
Ziyanda: I still feel like myself doc just a little pain, my feet
work perfectly.
He smiles we all go to the other room it's a bit dark with a lot
of machines.
She sleep in bed and a doctor starts checking her up and
then he does an x-ray.
DrXolo: Oh it's still around the breast only but there is lymp
node we need to remove under your left arm there and have
it checked if it's not a cancerous tumor spread or anything
serious.
Ziyanda: Oh..
She look terrified now and it's affecting me badly because I
have no idea what this means for her.
Ziyanda: So you think that this cancer was possible starting
to go on certain areas of my body?
Her voice is shaky.
DrXolo: We won't know until we have it removed and tested
in a lab it could just be a lymp node and not a tumor ma'am.
Ziyanda: That doesn't make me feel better, please check
carefully if the liver isn't affected yet I don't want to go
through this again.
The doctor chuckles.
DrXolo: You are really a Doctor..
They do X-rays for almost an hour and 30 minutes because
Ziyanda wants to be sure if they won't leave anything out
during surgery.
DrXolo: I think we are all good now you can go back to your
family and wait for your second check up before we go in
theatre.
She nods, she is not ok anymore I can see it.
I help her down the bed and hold her hand going back to her
ward and find the boys waiting in silence.
She get in bed and I sit down holding her hand, she is
blinking rapidly.
Ntsika: Is it still in the same position mom or has it spread?
Ziyanda: Still in the breast but there is a Lymp node they
have to see if it's not cancerous.
Ntsika: Which area is it located?
Ziyanda: Under my arm.
He nods.
Ntsika: That's not so bad it could've been worse if it was
somewhere near the liver.
Ziyanda smiles at him.
Ziyanda: You know a lot huh, you are taking your studies
serious.
Ntsika: I am I want to be like you one day.
Ziyanda: And you will baby.
We wait for hours.
Langa: I think I am hungry now and I know I am not the only
one.
He says looking at Landile, she looks away.
Langa: Well I won't be buying anything for you busy making
yourself look fresh..
Landi: Mom..
Ziyanda: Langelihle go buy food for everyone including your
sister.
Langa: But she looked away pretending not to care that I am
talking about food.
Me: We are hungry Langa hurry.
Langa: Babe please come with me.
They walk out with Sfiso.
I hear Ziyanda moaning in pain I get up and stand next to
her.
Me: Is it painful baby?
She smiles but I can see it's forced.
Ziyanda: Just a little.
Me: Can't they speed up this process so they can remove this
shit, come on!
I say moving around the room, why is it taking so long for
them to start this surgery.
Ziyanda: Luyolo stop you're causing them to panic..
I look at my kids they are looking at me with those sad eyes
of panic.
Me: I am sorry I just want them to remove this, I'm sorry.
I sit down and take her hand.
Ziyanda: When are you going home?
Ntsika: After they take you to theatre.
Ziyanda: But that's tomorrow Ntsika, what about your wives
and I don't think they will allow you stay over for the whole
night.
Nkanyezi: "Dad will have to make them understand and we
will talk to our wives mom they will understand."
Ziyanda: But what do you guys want dad to say?
Ntsika: Anything we will sit beside you till the morning
comes.
Ziyanda: Luyolo.
Me: I will see what I can do.
Langa and Sfiso come back, we eat then a nurse comes in to
tell us that it's time to go.
Me: Can my kids and I stay please, their mom is scared we
will leave in the morning.
Nurse: Oh uhm but what if the security who do rounds see
you?
Me: Does he come in patients ward?
Nurse: No he just move around the passage..
Me: Then please let us stay please.
Nurse: uhm ok Sir but keep it down ok don't make noise you
will leave early when I knock off.
I nod.
Me: Thank you.
She walks out and my kids look satisfied and happy, I am
happy too sleeping without my wife is not someething I am
used to unless she has to go to work, this is a different story.
We sit there until she falls asleep, They don't look tired or
sleepy.
Me: You guys don't want to sleep at all?
Ntsika: No we are fine we will sleep once mom is taken to
surgery.
We stay up all night watching Ziyanda sleeping.
In the morning a nurse comes in and tell us it's time to go. I
get up and kiss Ziyanda she opens her eyes.
Me: I am coming back, I am going home to freshen up ok I
love you so much.
Ziyanda: I love you.
My kids kiss their mom's cheek and we walk out and drive
home.
I go take a shower and sit in bed for a while, my door open
and Iyana walk in and sit next to me.
Iyana: Is mom really going to be ok dad? I was doing
research on cancer it is dangerous and it has killed a lot of
people, it won't kill mom right dad?
Me: It won't, your mom is strong maGumede like the rest of
you, you all took it from her she will fight this.
Iyana: Ok can I come with you before she go to surgery?
Me: Yes and she will be happy to see you, go get ready I will
wait for you.
She walk out,I smile to myself, she has grown and look more
like me than her mom.
I get ready and walk out I see Lukhele driving in and he
parks in front of me and walk out, I feel tears threatning to
come out.
He comes to me and hug me.
Lukhele: Hey you are my son, you don't have to act strong to
me ok..
I let the tears fall he pat my back until I calm down.
Lukhele: She is a Lukhele she will be fine and I will not be
burying any of you Luyolo you will all bury me, uyangizwa
(do you hear me?)
I nod and wipe my face he touch my shoulders and look at
me.
Lukhele: I am your father you can put on a brave face to
everyone out there but to me you can breakdown and cry I
won't judge.
I nod, I see everyone walk out even Kwanele and their wives.
Lukhele; You all know that this is not Ziyanda's hospital
right?
Kwanele: But they have no choice but to let us in isn't it they
allow family.
Lukhele: They do but not this whole world.
They chuckle.
Iyana: Dad I am ready..
Me: Ok princess let's go.
We all drive to the hospital and walk in, everyone is staring
at us probably wondering why are there so many people
coming in here.
We walk in Ziyanda's ward and find her with a nurse and as
soon as she sees Lukhele she sobs.
Lukhele: It's ok, dad is here now.
He sit in bed and hug her.
Ziyanda: It's painful dad, I am so scared.
Lukhele: Everything will be fine baby I am here, we are all
here.
Ziyanda: But what if I don't make it like mom.
Lukhele: Your mom had it for years Ziyanda and she wasn't
doing anything about it but you, with this surgery you are
taking the first step you are doing something about it, you
are going to live trust me.
Ziyanda: I don't wanna leave my kids dad.
Lukhele: And you won't, I love you and you are stronger than
this..
He wipe her tears and kiss her forehead.
Iyana: Mom..
Ziyanda: Hey come here baby..
Iyana rush to her and hug her crying.
Ziyanda: I am going to be fine..
Iyana: You promise?
Ziyanda: Yeah I promise.
They all hug her then a doctor walk in.
DrXolo: You have a very big family MrsGumede.
Ziyanda: This is not even half of them DrX.
He chuckles.
DrX: It's time to go ma'am.
She nods.
Ziyanda: I love you, all of you.
Me: Don't say it like it is goodbye Ziyanda don't please.
She nods.
I kiss her lips.
Me: I will be waiting for you right outside those doors ok.
Ziyanda: Ok.
We walk out and sit on the benches outside they wheel her
out I get up and rush to her.
Me: You are going to be ok baby.
She nods a little and they wheel her in I go back and sit
down.
Me: You guys are all gonna wait here?
Ntsika: Yes it will probably take approximately 6-8 hours.
Langa: Yhoo but why so long?
Ntsika: They have to make sure everything is gone and they
take out piece by piece not all of it at the same time because
they don't want to cause any internal bleeding.
Lukhele: They should just make you a Doctor already
NtsikaYekhaya.
I can hear them talking but my mind is in there with my wife
if everything is going ok or what.
I get up walk around it has only been an hour but it feels like
ages.
Me: Ntsika why are they taking so long man.
Ntsika: It's the second hour now dad please be patient a little
ok Gumede.
I shake my head I don't get why it has to take hours I know
Ntsika explained it but I still don't get it.
Hours pass we are in silence I am rubbing my hands
together.
A nurse rush out I quickly get up and stand infront of her.
Me: Is everything ok in there?
Nurse: Sir please I have to rush to get something there is
excessive bleeding w..
Me: Excessive bleeding? What does that mean is my wife ok?
Nurse: Sir a doctor will update you..
She walk away and run back to the theatre room.
Me: What is happening in there?
We wait for a while and a Doctor walk out we rush to him.
Me: Dr is my wife ok in there?
He huffs.
DrX: We had to stop the surgery because of excessive
bleeding she was experiencing and we couldn't risk going
ahead with surgery because we were worried about it
affecting other parts of her body.
Me: But is she ok?
DrX: We have put her to sleep now we will wait for a day to
see if we can continue with this surgery or not.
I shake my head.
Me: This can't be happening, do you even know what you're
doing or should I find someone else to do it.
DrX: Sir this is my profession and things like this happens all
the time so sir just be patient, excuse me.
He walk away.
I search for my car keys in my pockets and walk away.
Ntsika: Dad where are you going?
Me: I need to speak to someone I will be back.
I walk out and get in my car driving to a city hospital, I walk
in and start at a reception.
Me: Hello is DrTheo around?
Receptionist: Uh yes he is in his office but with a patient.
Me: I will wait for him I just need a minute with him.
Receptionist: Ok you can go through the passage it's written
DrTheo.
Me: I know it thank you.
I walk away and knock in his office, he invite me in.
DrTheo: MrMzozo!?
He look shocked to see me and he is with someone.
Me: Hi I need to talk to you.
He nods a little.
DrTheo: ok let me finish up here a little.
I nod and walk out.
After a while a patient walk out and he calls me back in.
DrTheo: Uhm hi..hey you can have a seat sir.
I sit down and look at him, he has a ring on his finger now.
Me: You are married?
He smiles a little and look at his finger.
DrTheo: Yeah got married last year.
I nod.
Me: I need your help man..
A knock disturbs us and a man walk in and walk around the
table and kiss him.
He then chuckles.
DrTheo: You can't do that when I am with someone.
Him: Sorry babe.
DrTheo: Can you wait a little babe this is Mr Mzozo..
Me: Gumede..
DrTheo: Oh I am sorry it's MrGumede his wife and I once
went to the same university before I went overseas.
He nods.
Him: I will be in my office.
Me: You are a doctor too?
He nods.
Me: Ok you can stay.
He sit down and look at me.
Me: Uhm my wife have cancer..
Theo gasp.
DrTheo: Ziyanda have cancer?
Me: Yeah and they stopped the surgery today because there
was excessive bleeding.
DrTheo: Shit..
Me: I need your help I will pay any amount I need you to do
it if you can.
He look at this guy next to him.
DrTheo: I do specialize with breast cancer sir but I can't
continue with a surgery that was done by someone else it
could get me into trouble if anything goes wrong.
Me: I will sign anything man I need you please.
DrTheo: Uhm ok ok..so I can have her moved tomorrow and
take her to a breast cancer treatment centre because I can't
do it here..
Me: But what if tomorrow is too late can't you do it today?
DrTheo: I am sure they didn't do any damage you did say
they stopped the surgery right?
Me: Yeah.
DrTheo: Ok tomorrow morning we will get an ambulance to
go take her at that Hospital.
I tell him the name of the hospital and get up.
Me: Thank you so much.
I shake both their hands.
DrTheo: I am glad she found someone who genuinely loves
her not that guy who was obsessed with her who almost
killed me.
I laugh.
Me: That's my brother.
DrTheo: What?.
Me: Bye and no need to be scared of me I am not a monster
so loosen up.
He nods a little with an awkward smile.
I walk out and drive to the hospital I find everyone still here.
Me: Guys we are moving Ziyanda to a breast cancer
treatment centre tomorrow morning.
Ntsika: But they will continue to do surgery after a few
hours.
Me: No I got someone who will do it, the guy who helped
Langa when he was in a car accident.
Mandisi: Theo?
I nod he chuckles.
Mandisi: You are ok with your wife's ex to do a surgery what
if they fall inlove again.
Me: Konje uyislima..(You are a fool)
Mandisi: I am just saying.
Me: He is married to another male doctor there, they work
together.
Mandisi: Ave unamanga.(you're a liar)
Me: Ok I need to sign some forms to move Ziyanda from
here.
I go to DrXolo's office and sit down.
Me:I need to get my wife moved to a centre tomorrow
morning.
DrXolo: Sir I know what happened today is scary but I assure
you I know what I am doing.
Me: It's not that I don't trust you but I want to do this please
I will still pay the full amount.
DrXolo: Ok I am so sorry for scaring your kids Sir and your
family.
Me: It's ok I don't know anything about medicine so it's ok.
He gives me the form that I should sign and the other one I
will use to discharge her tomorrow morning.
Me: Can I see her?
DrXolo: Uhm yeah for a while but you have to change into
schrubs.
I nod and wear those schrubs and walk to that cold room.
She looks pale but still beautiful I take her hand.
Me: You gonna be fine baby I promise you all this pain you
must be feeling will be over soon I love you.
I walk out and go back to my family.
Me: We can go home for now guys.
We go home and I go to my room and get in bed fully
dressed.
I hear a knock on the door.
Me: Come in.
Ntsoaki and Miyalo walk in with juice and food in a tray.
Miyalo: We brought you food you didn't eat the whole day.
Me: Thank you.
I sit up and take the plate.
Miyalo: Mom will be fine.
Me: Yeah she will.
Ntsoaki: We will come back later to get the plates
I nod then they walk out.
The next morning I drive to the city hospital to see Theo and
give her the discharge form.
DrTheo: The ambulance will go first and we will meet them
at the centre.
Me: Ok..
He take the form and walk out I go to my car and wait there,
I see him coming out and step out of the car.
DrTheo: They got her they are on their way to the centre
now, you will drive behind me.
Me: Sure.
I drive behind him all the way to the centre and we walk in, I
find Ziyanda already in theatre.
DrXolo: Let me do some quick X-rays then I will talk to you
in a minute I am still waiting for my partner we will do this
together.
Me: Ok Thank you.
I walk out and sit down waiting for him, he walk out after a
while shaking his head I quickly get up.
Me: Is everything ok?
DrTheo: Mr Gumede looks like the Dr that was doing the first
surgery was distructed by something because that scar is
bad and it might get an infection so now I have to move fast
and start another scar I can't continue where he did the last
one.
I nod.
Me: Do everuything you have to do man.
A man that kissed him yesterday walk in and come to us.
Him: Hey Theo Mr Gumede sir.
Me: Hi.
DrTheo: Good thing you are here we have to start that
surgery as soon as possible.
Him: That bad?
DrTheo: High risk of infection from the previous surgery , Mr
Gumede give us a few hours.
I nod, they walk away and I sit down praying to God that
everything goes well.
He comes out again.
DrTheo: You look tired and this may take a while you can use
that office there I will call you when we are done sir.
I nod and get up going to that office I sit on the couch there, I
really am tired I haven't slept well ever since I found out
about my wife having cancer.
I rest my head on the armrest of the couch.
I am siiting next to a big stream with clean water I am
looking deep in it and I see Ziyanda coming out in white robe
she looks beautiful.
Ziyanda: I told you this water isn't cold come let's go in
together.
I shake my head.
Ziyanda: Ok I am going back in again.
Me: No Ziyanda you are not going in there again..stop!
She tries to walk away but I get up and pull her hand.
Me: Don't go.
Ziyanda: But I want to go.
Me:You can't go!
We start fighting until I see Misokuhle coming towards us.
Me: What are you doing here?
Misokuhle: Don't let her go..
Me: She doesn't want to listen to me.
Misokuhle: Make her listen, talk to her big brother.
He says smiling.
Me: I am not your brother.
Misokuhle: But blood says we are, come hold her hand so we
can go back home.
I take Ziyanda's hand and we follow Misokuhle back home
and sit down.
Misokuhle: You are still angry at me for stealing from you.
I look at him.
Misokuhle: I know she was never mine.
Me: Then why did you take her?
Misokuhle: You were taking too long someone was going to
take her before you even got to her..forgive me.
I nod.
Me: Where is the crazy one?
He laughs.
Misokuhle: You do know that you're dreaming right so why
are you still rude even in your dreams.
Me: I wouldn't dream about you.
Misokuhle: Then how are you talking to me right now?
I look at Ziyanda she is resting her head on my shoulder.
Misokuhle: Gumede..Phakathwayo..Qwabe take your wife
back home.
Me: But this is home.
Misokuhle: This is a dream Nkazimulo, awuzwa wena.(you
don't listen)
I shake my head.
Me: If only you were this nice back then.
Misokuhle: Then you weren't gonna get her she loved me but
everything happens for a reason, goodbye Mnguni..
He get up and walk away.
Me: Let's go home my love.
I get up and take her hand, I feel someone shaking me I look
up it's Theo I wipe my face and stand up.
Me: Is she ok?
DrTheo: The surgery was successful Sir but she is asleep we
put her on heavy medication because of pain, the last scar
was a mess.
Me: So she is ok now everything went well?
DrTheo: Yes Sir but I will keep her here for a few days to see
if the scars are healing and do radiotherapy so we can kill
any cell that may be hiding in there.
Me: Thank you man.
I shake his hand.
DrTheo: Thank you for believing in me Sir.
Me: I am sure you didn't leave my wife heartbroken and
went to Cuba to play games.
He chuckles looking down.
DrTheo: Sir uhm I..
Me: That was a joke..
DrTheo: Uhm yeah yes ok.
I chuckle.
Me: So when can I see her?
DrTheo: The nurses are still cleaning her up they will take
you to her ward once they are done.
Me: Thank you once again for doing this, you will name your
price later.
DrTheo: Yes Sir.
I go to Ziyanda's ward and sit down taking her hand.
Me: You're ok my love, the kids will be so happy I am happy
too, recover soon so I can take you back home, I love you so
much.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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LUYOLO
*
I am still with my wife in her ward she hasn't woken up yet
because of the medication,I want to call my family once I
know she is awake and well.
Theo walk in and stand next to me looking at his watch.
DrTheo: She should be awake soon.
I nod.
DrTheo: The mother of my child.
Me: Are you trying to make me angry or jealous?
He laughs.
DrTheo:You said I should loosen up so this is the only way I
know, have you called your family?
Me: Not yet I just want her to wake up first.
DrTheo: Ok I will have to leave then because I have night
shift today.
Me: Whoah so you were supposed to be sleeping?
DrTheo: Yeah but i will use these hours left to rest a bit.
Me: I am sorry I didn't know.
DrTheo: It's ok this happens all the time when you are called
in to rush for an emergency when you just got in bed so..
I see Ziyanda moving a little and I get up and look at her, she
slowly open her eyes and look around then turn her head to
look at me.
Ziyanda: Hey baby where am I?
Me: Uhm hey my love you are at the breast cancer treatment
centre.
Ziyanda: Last time I was in a theatre room at the hospital
how did I get here?
Me: I took you..
Ziyanda: Theo?
DrTheo: Hello Yandah.
Me: I asked Theo to help you baby and he did.
Ziyanda: You asked Theo?
She says in disbelief.
Me: I did..
She smiles a little.
Me: Your life matters more than my ego Ziyanda.
DrTheo: How is the pain in your chest ma'am?
Ziyanda: I don't feel any yet.
DrTheo: Oh I will ask a nurse to moniter you tonight ok.
She nods a little.
DrTheo: I have to go..
Me: Uhm can you wait a little I want to call my family so they
can bring my cheque book when they come here.
DrTheo: Ok I will see you tomorrow morning Dr Gumede, Mr
Gumede you will find me in that office when they get here.
I nod I get up and kiss Ziyanda for a while.
Me: Thank you for coming back to me.
Ziyanda: You pulled me back Thank you so much.
Me: Let me call them ok.
I take my phone and see a lot of missed calls from the kids I
dial Langa's number.
Langa: Dad we have been trying to call you the whole day Sir
what is going on?
Me: I am sorry I was trying to get your mom a good doctor
and she did a surgery.
Ntsika: Was it successful dad is she gonna be ok?
Me: Say hi Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: Hello guys.
She says in a low voice and they lose it on the other side they
sound so happy.
Langa: Mom you're okay?
Ziyanda: I am fine I am just hungry.
Mandisi: So Theo did it huh Luh?
Me: He did that is why I went to him I knew he can do it.
Mandisi: Why because of his undying love for Ziyanda?
Ziyanda: Bhuti..
Me: He is trying to get me worked up.
Ziyanda:But you trust your wife neh baby..
Me: I do, Ntsika go take my cheque book in your mothers
room and all of you can come here.
Landile: Sawubona Mah (Hello mother)
Ziyanda: Hey baby.
Landile: You kept your promise.
Ziyanda: I did you can come see it yourself.
Landile: Tell your husband that we are waiting for the
address Ma'am.
I chuckle.
Me: I will send it now guys.
I send the address and I keep kissing Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: You are annoying now..
I laugh.
Me: I am just happy you're here alive.
Ziyanda: With you is where i'd rather be.
Me: You're too cute to become an ancestor I saw Misokuhle
yesterday and he was singing clan praises for me and he
asked me to forgive him.
Ziyanda: Have your heart forgiven him?
Me: It did especially after finding out he was my brother,
family forgives if one show remorse the person I am not sure
about is his twin brother I didn't see him anywhere.
Ziyanda: You think he is still the grumpy dude even in death?
I nod a little.
Me: But it doesn't matter my family is still here and I forgave
Misokuhle my heart is at peace.
Ziyanda: You are a good man and asking Theo for help was
huge baby I am so proud to call you my husband.
Me: And I am proud to call you my wife Ziyanda you fought
to come back to us.
I hear a lot of noise coming from the passage.
Ziyanda: I know that noise from anywhere.
I laugh.
They walk in and try to hug Ziyanda.
Me: Uhm guys please make sure you don't hurt her please
the scars are still new.
They nod and Iyana come and sit on my lap hugging me.
Me: You're not a little girl anymore you're heavy now.
Iyana: So it's ok if I start dating now since I am not a little
girl?
Me: Ndikukhabe..(I will kick you.)
She laughs.
Me: I love you and if you think of dating now bring him home
first so I can see if he is a good boy for you.
Iyana: Uhm I no dad I was joking I am not dating anyone.
Me: Mmmm..
I don't believe that at all, I mean she is doing her second year
at the university and she is pretty I am sure as hell that boys
are asking her out I just hope she doesn't take wrong
decisions.
Ntsika: So when is she coming home dad?
Me: They are still going to do radiotherapy and make sure
the scars heal first because the first one was bad according
to Theo.
Mandisi: Theo neh do you remember Theo Ziyanda?
Ziyanda: You are not being cute right now bhuti, my kids are
here.
They laugh.
Mandisi: Remember how much you cried when he left and
someone took advantage!
Me: You want me to beat your ass right here Mandisi in here
with dad around?
Lukhele: Please do it he is annoying even me here.
I laugh.
Mandisi: But dad I am just trying to make everyone laugh.
Ziyanda: Not in my name Satan..
Theo walk in and come stand next to me.
Mandisi: Are you blushing sis there?.
Everyone laugh.
Theo: Uhm Hello everyone uhm sir my husband is here I
have to go you can sign the cheque tomorrow.
Me: No let's go I will do it now.
We walk to the office and sign the cheque.
Me: How much?
DrTheo: Just give me half of the money you were gonna pay
the last doctor.
Me: No, you deserve double that money you fixed the mess
he caused man thank you.
I write the amount and give it to him.
Me: Thank you, the other half you can give it to the husband.
He chuckles.
DrTheo: Thank you so much.
I shake his hand.
Me: Thank you.
I walk back to the ward and sit down holding my wife's
hand.
Ziyanda: I am not going anywhere..
She whispers looking at me I smile with a nod.
It's been two weeks she feels severe pain from time to time
but they are discharging her today.
I walk in her ward and I find her in bed busy on her phone.
Me: Hello Mrs Luyolo.
She smile.
Ziyanda: You came to fetch me?
Me: Yes baby we are going home.
Ziyanda: I was getting tired of being here thank you so much
baby.
I help her get dressed to her grey tracksuits and sneakers
then we walk to the car.
I drive home but when I get closer I see a lot of people
standing outside my gate with guns.
Ziyanda: What is going on?
Me: I don't know babe let me call Landile.
Landi: Hello dad.
Me: There are people with guns outside the gate.
Landi: What!?let me check dad, turn back and drive to uncle
China's house we will handle this.
Me: Ok kill them and keep one who will tell us what is going
on ok.
Landi: Yes dad, is mom ok?
Me: Yeah she is with me.
Landi: Then go and keep her safe.
Me: Sure, My love we are going to China's house I am sorry
about this.
She nods a little.
Me: Are you in pain again?
Ziyanda: A little..
Tears run down of her eyes.
Me: Ziyanda baby I am sorry let me quickly go to China's
house and you will take your medication I am so sorry.
I turn and drive straight to China's house and pick her up
going inside and lay her on the couch.
I take her bag and look for her medication and help her drink
it.
Me: Sorry baby.
I take her to a room and she sleep. I walk out to look for
china in his room.
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LANDILE
*
After getting a call from dad about people outside our gate
with guns I peeked through the window they are moving
around like they are waiting for someone to come out.
I rush to Nkanyezi's room and knock Miyah opens.
Me: Can I come in?
Miyah: Sure.
I rush in and find Nkanyezi sitting in bed with one of the
boys in his arms.
Me: We have a problem.
He nods
Me: There are people at the gate with guns and dad turned
back and went to uncle China's house to keep mom safe.
He quickly get up and place the kid down then wear his
tshirt I walk out to look for Ntsika,Langa and Sfiso, I tell
them what is happening we stand in the lounge and look
outside the glass door we can see that they have huge guns
in their hands they look like hitmen.
Langa: So how do we do this?mom have a home we can't let
her stay away because of this shit.
Me: Let me try to see..
Sfiso looks at his computer..
Sfiso: No..
Me: What is it?
Sfiso: One of you should call Auntie Sunny and tell them to
drive back now!
Langa quickly take his phone and make a call.
Sfiso: Come on Langa they are getting close.
Langa: Hey auntie stop the car and drive back now!now
please...don't drive home turn back!!
Me: Did she hear what you said Langelihle?
Sfiso: Guys!
I look at the computer and it shows that auntie Sunny's car is
just outside the gate then we hear gunshots ..
Langa: No!
Me: No..
We get up and run out, the car that was at the gate drives
away..
We rush to aunt Sunny's car and find her coughing out blood
little sunny is not moving just blood coming out on the side
of her head..
Ntsika: No man no..
Nkanyezi carry Aunt sunny out and lay her head on his lap I
kneel next to her.
Me: You just got reunited with your daughter..come on..
Sunshine: She..is..dead..I have nothing else to live for..
Me: Come on bhuti Ntsika get the car let's take her to the
hospital.
Ntsika: We can't she...
He screams holding his head as she stops breathing..
My phone rings it's dad, I sit down and watch it ring..
Me: Dad is calling what am I gonna say?
I get up and smash the phone on the street it shatters into
tiny pieces, I see a car driving towards us I am standing in
the middle of the road I can't move..uncle Kwanele step out
of the car and rush to me.
Kwanele: Why are you standing in the middle of the street I
almost knocked you down.
I stare at him tears are running down my cheeks.
Kwanele: What is going on why is my wife's car here?
He looks around and see Nkanyezi who is still holding aunt
sunny in his arms he look lost, like he is not here..
Kwanele: Sunny?
He rush to Nkanyezi and shake his wife he look behind him
and he see little Sunny in there.
Kwanele: No no no..no!
He get up and rush in the car holding sunny..
Kwanele: God..no!no..
I see police cars driving to us and stop, Cooper rush out and
come to me I am squating down.
Cooper: Landile..
Me: What!?
Cooper: Someone called about the shootout here what is
happening?
I don't answer him but get up and look at him.
Me: We will kill them one by one..
Cooper: But this is the work of the police..
Me: No it's not, someone wants to take out my family and the
police can't help us at all we will help ourselves, a mother
and a daughter have just found each other and now look
what happened they are robbed of a chance of getting to
know each other once again and you think we need police
officers for that?
Cooper: We will investigate and find the perpetrators.
Me: Well let's see who will find them first Cooper..
Cooper: I will have to arrest you if you go against the law.
I chuckle and give him my hands.
Me: Cuff me right now then because I won't stop..here cuff
me..
I feel a hand on my shoulder..
Ntsika:Don't do that..
They take the bodies and uncle Kwanele get in his car
without saying a word and drive away in full speed.
We sit down outside the gate in silence.
Me: It's Sihle and his mom and they will pay.
Ntsika: They will surely pay, what are we going to tell mom?
Langa's phone rings and he take it out and put it on speaker
dad is shouting his name.
Luyolo: Langelihle why are you quiet!why is your sister's
phone off?
Langa: Dad..
Luyolo: Are those people still there your mom is in pain man
I am thinking of taking her back to the hospital.
We look at each other..
Ntsika: Gumede something happened here.
Luyolo: Did someone get hurt?
Ntsika: It's it's..
He huffs.
Luyolo: Langelihle talk come on!what is going on there?
Ntsika: Auntie sunny and her daughter...
Luyolo: What about them?
We don't say anything.
Luyolo: WeSfiso!
Sfiso: Yeah..
Luyolo: Talk!
Sfiso: They shot them, they are gone.
Luyolo: Who is gone Sfiso?
Sfiso: Aunt Sunny and her daughter we are sorry we tried to
stop them, we tried..
He look down shaking his head..
Silence.
Langa: Dad..
Luyolo: Find that Sihle and his bitch mother and take them
to Mluh's house today!
Langa: Yes dad..
We get up and walk inside the gate we stop when we see the
ladies standing at the veranda looking at us like they are
waiting for answers.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika..
Miyah: We heard gunshots, Nkanyezi who's blood is that?
Nkanyezi has auntie sunny's blood all over him.
Miyah: Can you guys talk!
She shouts, Pamella touch her tummy..
Me: Are you ok babe?
Pamella: Yeah I am fine just a kick, now can you answer
Miyah's question,what is going on?
Me: It's auntie Sunny and her daughter they were shot
outside the gate.
I say keeping my head down.
Ntsoaki: What!?
Miyah: Are they going to be ok?
I shake my head.
Me:They were taken to a mortuary..
Miyah: What do you mean by that Nadia?
Me: They didn't make it..
Miyah: No..
Pamella starts breathing heavily and I see blood running
down her legs.
Me: No!
I rush to her and pick her up..
Ntsika: Get her in my car now I will take the keys..
I take her to Ntsika's car and sit next to her, Ntsika get in and
drive out..
Me: She is 7 months!is she losing the babies?
Ntsika: They need to do an emergency C-section...what the
fuck is happening!
He hit the steering wheel..
Pamella is screaming..
Me: I'm sorry baby I am sorry..
We get to mom's hospital and help her out of the car, Ntsika
come back with the wheelchair and wheel her in.
Me: Can we get some help around here please.
One of the nurses rush to us.
Nurse: Landile what is it?
Me: She is 7 months pregnant and she is bleeding do
something..
She wheel her away and shout for the other nurse to call the
doctor to theatre.
My brothers rush in Nkanyezi has changed the bloody
clothes.
Nkanyezi: "Will she be ok?"
Me: They took her to theatre so I don't know..
We sit down in the benches and wait for hours.
After a long wait the doctor walk out and stop infront of us.
Me: Is she ok?
Dr: We did an emergency C-section.
I nod fast.
Dr: The babies are fine but we put them in the incubators for
full development.
Me: All three of them?
Dr: Uhm all four of them.
Me: Four?
I look next to me.
Dr: You didn't know they were four?
I shake my head.
Dr: Ok the amniotic sacs were two so there were two sets of
twins in there.
Me: But how?
Dr: Maybe one of them was hiding it happens.
Me: She did an in-vitro with one fertilized egg.
Dr: No I think there were two eggs which divided into two or
maybe it was really one egg but with two yokes.
I am so confused.
Langa: Are they all boys?
Dr: Yes.
Me: Is their mom ok?
Dr: Yes she is fine you were quick to get her here so
everything was good.
I nod.
Me: Thank you Doctor.
Dr: Uhm who is the father.
Me: I am..
He squint his eyes and my brothers chuckle.
Dr: Ok father we need you to sign some papers for the
mother and the babies also we need names for their tags.
I look at Ntsika.
Me: Can you name the other two and Nkanyezi will name the
other set.
Langa: I think we have run out of twins's names now.
Ntsika: I think so too,I will be honoured to name them Sis.
I sign the forms and we go see the babies in the incubators.
Langa: Now look who have small kids.
I smile a little.
Ntsika: Sbongakonke and Sbanisethu, iSbanisamaQwabe..
I nod.
Ntsika: You can just write Sbonga and Sbani Miss.
She says to the nurse and she nods putting the tags on the
babies
Nkanyezi: "Lethokuhle and Lethukuthula."
Ntsika: Letho and Lethu.
I smile.
Me: Thank you big brothers.
They nod.
We go to check on Pamella and find her looking sleepy.
Me: Hey baby, did you see our kids?
Pamella: Are they going to be okay?
Me: Yeah they are fine they just need to stay in there for a
while, thank you so much, thank you for being strong enough
to carry the four of them no wonder you ate so much.
She giggles. I look at my brothers.
Me: Look baby sleep ok we have to go somewhere but we
will be back.
Pamella: Ok I feel sleepy anyway.
Me: I love you.
Pamella: I love you too.
I kiss her forehead and we walk out.
Me: Please Keep an eye on my wife and kids Nzuzo..
Nurse: I will Landile.
I nod and walk out we drive back home to change and get
our guns then drive to uncle Carl's house.
Me: We are tracking Sihle you will find the number from
Nkanyezi's phone.
He does his thing and he shows us the location.
Me: Thank you.
We drive there in different cars and stop a distance away
from them, they are in the park looks like they are drinking
and the car next to them look exactly like the one that was at
home.
I wear my beanie and the shades stepping out of the car and
get in the front seat of Ntsika's car, Langa and Nkanyezi get
in at the back we are all wearing shades.
Me: The mother isn't here.
Ntsika: Let's move Sihle away from his crew then shoot all of
them down then snatch Sihle put him in the boot of my car.
Me: Nkanyezi borrow me your phone..
I dial his number and I see him moving away from the noise.
Sihle: I told you I am coming for you, did you like my gift
earlier today?
I chuckle.
Me: I think you might like ours now.
My brothers start shooting at the crew and I step out
running to Sihle I give him fast punches and grag him to
Ntsika's car he step out, we put him in the boot and rush to
our cars and drive following each other to Mluh's house.
We tie him on a chair and Nkanyezi give him a very hard
punch..
Ntsika: Now tell us where your mother is..
Sihle: No..
Langa: And you think you have a choice?
Sihle: Look I just want what belongs to me that's it..
Me: Do you understand what you did today man, you killed
innocent people.
Sihle: Innocent? That bitch dragged my mother like a piece
of shit.
Another punch from Nkanyezi, he is shaking in anger his
eyes are red.
Sihle: You all don't deserve to live in that house I do!
Langa:We don't know what lies your mother fed you but
you're not our blood boy..
Sihle: I am not Luyolo chose to raise bastards than to raise
me.
I shake my head.
Langa: Wow the kind of rubbish you have in your head is
shocking your mother is a manipulative bitch.
Sihle: Don't call my mother a bitch.
Ntsika: You will die for nonsense your mother is misleading
you and you are too blind to see.
Sihle: I am a Mzozo not you.
Ntsika: We figured, do you want us to help you find your
dad?
Sihle: Fuck all of you fuck you!!
I take out his phone that I took when I grabbed him.
Me: Let's search for mommy's number so we can track her
down..
I scroll down and I see they call each other all the time it's
written Mama.
Me:Call uncle carl and give him this number Langa.
He calls uncle carl and give him Lesedi's number and Langa's
phone beeps after a while.
Langa: We found the location.
Me:Let's go find mother dearest so she can keep you
company.
We leave him there and drive to her mom's location, it's
some house we walk in and find her smoking and drinking
wine, she is half naked her thick thighs are just out there.
Me: I need a glass.
She jumps dropping the glass on the floor.
Me: Go and wear something appropriate man no infact let
me go find it for you.
I walk to the first room and search the closet and take a long
dress and walk out.
I throw it in her face.
Me:Wear that.
She look shocked, she wears her dress slowly.
Me: Sit down.
She sit down and we all sit looking at her.
Me: Who is Sihle's father?
Lesedi:Lu..Luyolo.
Ntsika: Ok let's do this again this time don't play with us ok..
He place his gun on the table.
Lesedi: Ok ok his father is the man I was married to.
Ntsika: Does he know that for sure?
Lesedi: No, after he died I told him he wasn't his real father
Luyolo is.
I shake my head this woman is crazy.
Me: Do you understand that our aunt and her daughter died
today because of this shit huh do you get that?
Lesedi: I wish it was Ziyanda, that bitch slept with Luyolo in
front of me!
Ntsika: You are calling my mother a bitch?
Lesedi: She took him from me!
Me: All this for a man? I mean there are plenty of men out
there.
Lesedi: Yeah but I made him, he owes me..
Me: How much do you want from him?
Lesedi: I want everything Luyolo gave to Ziyanda, I want his
love back, I want that house I want his money! it all belongs
to me ..
Ntsika: Let me guess you want his kids too?
Lesedi: I don't want no bastard I have my son..
Langa: Guys let's go so we can go home dad is calling.
We take Lesedi and drive to Mluh's house we tie her next to
her son.
Sihle: You can't do this to my mother.
Langa: We will leave you here to bond and probably tell each
other the truth we will be back maybe God will except you
with open arms if you confess Lesedi.
We drive home and we can hear the screams coming from
inside we rush in and find mom and auntie Mbali crying at
the top of their voices.
Luyolo: Ziyanda you are going to hurt yourself don't cry like
this please..
Ziyanda: How can they do this to my family! how can they do
this to my brother!!
Uncle Mandisi is trying to calm Mbali down who looks like
she is losing her breath..
After a while they calm down but mom doesn't look good she
is holding her chest..
Ziyanda: Where is Kwanele?
Ntsika:We don't know mom he just drove off after they took
them to the mortuary.
Ziyanda: Did you find out who did this?
Ntsika: Yes Lesedi and Sihle we kept them in Uncle Mluh's
house.
She nods.
Ziyanda: Luyolo where do you think Kwanele went?
Luyolo: Where he used to live..
Ziyanda: Go find him, follow him Mandisi..
They get up and walk out..
Ziyanda: Where is Pamella?
Me: She is at the hospital.
Ziyanda: Are the kids ok?
Me: There are four of them Lethu, Letho, Sbani and Sbonga.
She nods smiling a little.
Ziyanda: I am sorry they are premature but congratulations.
Me: Thank you.
Ziyanda: Ntsika call Lukhele and tell him to come back home
we need him..
She says covering her face and sobs.
Me: I am sorry that we didn't move fast enough mom..
Ziyanda: It's not your fault, those two are going to pay!
She get up but quickly sit down I rush to her.
Me:Are you ok?
Ziyanda: I just felt a bit dizzy I am still feeling weak.
Me: Let me help you to your room.
Ziyanda:Thank you, sis Mbali lets go..
We take them to mom's room and they sleep next to each
other..we walk out and go sit at the lounge.
Ntsika:Let's go check on Pamella and the kids then come
back for dinner.
We start in town and buy what we think she might be able to
eat and walk in her ward and find the nurse Nzuzo with her.
Me: Hey babe..
Pamella: Hi, how is everything at home?
Ntsika: Mom and Mbali are not ok they were all best friends
so this is hard for them.
Me: are you feeling any pain?
Pamella: No I just took pain medication.
I nod. We leave her after seeing the babies and go back
home.
We go to mom's room and find them sleeping.
We go sit around the table and eat dinner.
Ntsoaki: Are we safe here Ntsika?
He doesn't answer.
Ntsoaki: Ntsika..
Ntsika: We have the person who did this Ntsoaki so yeah and
it's not like you have anywhere else to go both of you are
stuck here with us!
Miyah: We are just concerned Ntsika don't talk like that..
Ntsika: We all are Miyalo ok, we lost two family members at
the same time so we are also worried about our kids and you
guys..
Miyah: I am sorry..
Ntsika: No I'm sorry I shouldn't have raised my voice at the
both of you I am sorry.
They nod and look down on their plates.
After a while mom and aunt Mbali walk in holding hands and
sit down.
Miyah dish up for them they eat a little until we hear the
front door opening dad and uncle Mandisi walk in
supporting a drunk Kwanele they put him on the couch and
we all go sit down.
Kwanele: I don't know why you brought me back here!there
is nothing left for me here..
Exactly the words aunt Sunny said.
Ziyanda: Let me guess you want to go like how dad wanted
to go when mom died, aren't you the one who was begging
him to stay for me but now you want to do it!
Kwanele: You are old now Ziyanda it's not the same..
Ziyanda: So you are no longer my brother because I am old?
He doesn't answer.
Ziyanda:If you leave I will look for you and kill you, I know it
hurts but stay we will be with you we will help you go
through this..
Kwanele: I can't Ziyanda this is too much for me, it hurts too
much I can't...
He literally breaks down and cry mom sit next to him and
hug him.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry bhuti I am sorry..
In the morning we start by checking on Pamella then go bck
home, Lukhele is here and Kwanele look sad, lost, broken it's
sad man.
Lukhele: I am sorry..
Kwanele: It's ok we will bury her here is that ok?
Lukhele: Yes that's fine son.
Kwanele: After the funeral I am going back to the military for
good I will come back in a coffin.
Ziyanda: What do you mean?
Kwanele: I said I am leaving for good!
Langa: But what about us?
Kwanele: What about you huh?you all have your partners
here with you right?your kids are all here you will be fine
without me..
Ziyanda: So we are not your family anymore you just gonna
sideline us forever?
Kwanele: I am leaving Ziyanda..
Ziyanda: I lost my best friend and her daughter and now you
want me to lose you Kwanele?you want dad to lose you
again!
He get up and walk away..mom starts sobbing on dad's
chest..
Ziyanda: My family is falling apart and I don't know how to
fix it...I don't know...
Lesedi is gonna pay for all this..
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
*
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*
KWANELE
*
I am in my house packing my bags while sitting on the floor,
tomorrow I am burying my wife and our daughter on the
same day and they expect me to stay, for what? watch them
with their partners while mine died in cold blood!
I continue to pack and go to her closet and take out the first
dress she designed herself and she was so proud and so am I.
I sit in the bed with the dress in my hands, her scent is all
over our bedroom, that day they wanted to go eat breakfast
out because I had to rush to work I wish I had left with them
things would have been different maybe I was going to save
both of them.
I hear the door opening and Miyah walk in.
Miyah: Hi I came to give you your food.
Kwanele: So now that my wife isn't here you gonna step in
and serve me?
Miyah: Uh no..no I'm sorry..
Kwanele: Then leave..
She nods and turn..
Kwanele:Miyalo..
She stops.
Kwanele: I'm sorry.
She put the food down and rush out.
I get in bed holding the dress close to my chest.
Me: You didn't have to leave me Sunny, I loved you the first
day I saw you, we fought for years because we couldn't have
babies but we fixed it and got married at the end now when
we had a chance to be parents you gave up, you let death
win, you chose death over me!
I feel cold air in the room and the curtain starts moving, I sit
up and look around.
Me: You are here I can feel your presence, talk to me say
something..
"Don't go."
I look around but I can't see her anywhere.
"I will always be with you don't leave Kwanele."
Me: But I can't see you, I can't even hold you..
"Look behind you baby."
I turn and I can see her in the dress she was wearing that
morning.
Me: Baby how are you here? We are burying you tomorrow.
Sunny: You want me here,you need me.
I nod.
Me: I love you so much.
Sunny: Then I will stay with you.
Me: You promise you won't leave?
She nods.
Me: So I can feel your touch?
She step closer to me and touch my face, I close my eyes.
Sunny: Can you feel that?
I nod..
We take off our clothes, she get on top of me and we make
love..
I open my eyes in the morning and I can feel my dick is wet
she was really here.
Me: Sunny..
Silence.
Me: You said you won't leave Sunny..
Sunny: I won't baby, you need to get ready, wear your black
suit.
I laugh.
Sunny: What?
Me: You are helping me get ready to go to your funeral but
you're here.
Sunny: You have to go, I love you Kwanele wam.
I smile and go take a shower she is busy talking to me while I
get ready.
Sunny: This can be our secret Kwanele, you don't have to tell
them or they will keep me away from you forever.
Me: I won't tell them anything baby no one will keep me
away from you.
I kiss her.
Me: I will find you here when I come back?
Sunny: I am always with you remember.
I nod with a smile on my face and walk out I find the family
busy with breakfast the yard is full of people who are giving
me the looks of pity they are here to arrange the funeral.
I sit down around the table and start eating when I look up I
find everyone staring at me.
Ziyanda: Are you ok bhuti?
Me: Yeah I am fine.
They look at each other.
Me: I am sorry for shouting at you yesterday Miyah.
Miyah: It's ok I understand.
Ziyanda: She tells me you were packing yesterday.
Me: Yeah but I am not leaving anymore.
She smiles with tears in her eyes.
Ziyanda: Really?
I nod a little.
We go to the tent and the service starts Ziyanda and Mbali
get up to say their last goodbyes.
Ziyanda: I remember the first day I saw Sunny it was not a
good place to meet someone but I am glad I did, she was this
bold girl who had a purple room, she loved purple, I can say
she kept me alive by warning me not to act like a little brat,
that statement may sound rude to many but it saved my life,
I am here today because of her my baby girl Iyana is alive
today because she was there with me as my best friend, it is
true what they say, we really find love in a hopeless place,
Rest in peace my friend I appreciate every single battle you
fought for me and with me, my bestfriend I love you so
much.
She look in pain she keep touching her chest, and tears are
flowing down her face, I get up and hold her in my arms, she
is my little sister I hate seeing her like this
Me: It's ok.
Mbali talk and after her it's Ntsika, now it's time for me to
say goodbye to my wife.
I stand there and look at her purple coffin next to me then
the other purple one next to it, they both loved purple it was
fascinating, they liked same things.
Me: They say you are dead and I say you are just resting we
will meet again one day and I choose to keep your memory
the best way I know how..
I look at the entrance I can see her standing there looking
beautiful she is smiling at me.
Me: You are my life Sunny and you will remain one till I die, I
won't let you go in my mind and in my heart you will remain
alive forever, I love you, rest my love.
I sit down and look at the entrance again but I don't see her
anymore.
We take their bodies to my back yard where they will be
buried.
The pastor open the verse and start preaching I am just
standing there looking at the coffins in front of me, they are
gone I wipe my tears as both coffins move slowly down the
graves, I can hear screams from Mbali, Ziyanda and Iyana
they are too loud causing me to feel like I am suffocating, I sit
down and loosen my tie a bit..Mandisi gives me water I drink
all of it in one go, we throw the soil on the graves and go
wash our hands..
I see Asanda, the journalist rushing to me alone with a phone
in her hand.
Asanda: Excuse me sir do you know what happened to your
wife and daughter? We heard that they were shot do you
know who did it?
Me: Really?you want to do this right here, now?
Asanda: Uhm I.. I'm sorry..
Me: No come meet me inside my house I will tell you..
I walk away to my house and go to my room taking off my
shirt and tie.
Me: Sunny..
Silence..
I walk around the room looking for her but I find her
standing by the door.
Me: Hey there you are, you changed your dress?
Sunny: Uhm I was wearing like this when you saw me
earlier..
Me: I missed you so much.
Sunny: Uhm sir I..
I kiss her lips picking her up and go to my room with her in
my arms..
Me: You smell different today..
Sunny: I.
I kiss her lips and pull up her dress taking it off, I remove her
bra and her panty.
Me: Do you want this baby?
She nods a little she look nervous..
I lick her boobs and go down to her pussy and start sucking
her clit..
Sunny: Aah..
I take off my pants and position myself in her hole looking
deep in her eyes and try to insert my dick but it seems
impossible she is holding me too tight..
I try many times until I am fully in and start moving slowly in
and out it's like I am having sex with a virgin, but this is my
wife we have sex everyday..
Me: Fuck..
Sunny: It hurts..
She whispers..
Me: I'm sorry baby..I won't be long fuck..
I move a bit faster making sure I don't hurt her and I cum
holding her tight.
Me: I love you so much baby..I love you.
I get off her and sleep next to her and close my eyes dozing
off.
I wake up hours later and look around I am alone naked in
bed, I see a little blood on my bed, I walk out and find the
phone on the floor I don't know who it belongs to or how it
got here and it's locked doesn't have any picture on the
screen, I go back to my room and shower I can feel a bit of
pain on the tip of my dick..
*
NTSIKA
*
We are in the lounge it's just after the funeral, I look out the
window I see Asanda, the journalist rushing to her car and
drive out in full speed maybe she is rushing somewhere,
journalists never rest like right now she attended this
funeral to ask questions, I mean who ask questions at the
funeral.
Ntsoaki walk in carrying Ntando and give her to me without
saying a word, we haven't really talked after I shouted at her
and Miyah the other day when they were raising concerns
about their safety I apologised but I guess it wasn't enough
she is still cold towards me..
I kiss Ntando and sit down next to Nkanyezi.
Landi: So dad what are we doing to do about Lesedi and
Sihle.
He chuckles.
Luyolo: I found something to keep them safe for a day, you
can say they will have a personal guard.
We look at him confused as hell.
Ziyanda: Can I come with I just wanna slap that bitch just
once..
Mbali: Me too.
Ziyanda: Like I found out I have cancer I go through a very
painful surgery then when I finally come home I find out my
best friend, my brother's wife and her daughter are gone
how cruel is this world we live in!
She wipe her tears.
Luyolo: Ntsika give Ntando to your brother and go call
Kwanele.
I give Ntando to Nkanyezi and walk to Kwanele's house I find
him standing by the door topless looking confused.
Me: Uncle.
He look at me.
Me: Are you ok?
Kwanele: Yeah I am fine.
I nod a little.
Me: Dad is calling you.
Kwanele: We are going to meet my wife's killers?
I nod.
Kwanele:Ok wait for me here I will be back I am just gonna
wear my tshirt.
I stand by the door I can hear him talking in a low voice but I
can't hear exactly what he is saying.
He comes back fully dressed and we walk back to the lounge.
Kwanele: Yeah..
Luyolo: We are here for you big brother you know that right?
He smile.
Kwanele: I know and thank you.
Luyolo: Let's go..don't be dissapointed we will only see Sihle
and Lesedi for a while today ok, Ziyanda and Mbali you will
get to slap her a bit and you guys can throw a few punches at
Sihle.
Ziyanda: But he is your son Luyolo..
She says imitating Lesedi we all chuckle..
Luyolo: Ziyanda I don't like you and I don't think I ever will.
We laugh maybe this is what we all need make jokes to
remember aunt Sunny she was this type of person who will
throw a very good joke but won't laugh at all she will just
stare at us like she didn't even say a single thing, she was
one of a kind.
We leave our wives and nannies and walk out.
Luyolo: Sfiso do you have a camera with you,I want to see
every single reaction..
Sfiso: Yes dad I have it with me in the car.
Luyolo: Good.
I wonder what it is, he has this smirk on his face I can't
explain it.
I drive with Landile.
Landi: Did you see the smirk on dad's face brother he look
dangerous.
Me: I have never seen that smirk before.
Landi: What do you think he is planning?
Me: I really have no idea sis guess we will find out soon
enough.
We drive in Uncle Mluh's house and walk around the back
where we kept them.
We walk in and find them sweating look like they were
trying to untie themselves.
Ziyanda: Hello Lesedi..
She stares at mom.
Ziyanda: Over 15years you are still after Luyolo, don't you
give up?
Lesedi: I won't stop until you give back everything that
belongs to me.
Me: Did your mom tell you the truth about your paternity?
Sihle: She did, that man is my father no matter how much he
tries to run away from it but he is..
I shake my head.
Me: You're losing it, both of you are not ok.
Kwanele: So you are the boy who ordered a hit that killed my
wife?
Sihle: Oh she is your wife? I really thought it was that bitch
over there who took everything from mom!
Kwanele: A bitch? My sister.
Sihle: Yeah..
Uncle Kwanele punch his stomach he groan in pain.
Kwanele: I would really like you to say it again!
Lesedi: How can you all be so blind Kwanele you guys know
that Luyolo belongs to me.
Kwanele: Why?because you took advantage of his situation
before huh, you flashed money because you knew he needed
it, is that why he belongs to you?
Lesedi: He loved me before she came along.
Kwanele: No that wasn't love Sedi, he loves Ziyanda and you
know that too that is why you're trying so hard to break
them up but it didn't work, you killed my wife and I will
watch you take your last breath.
Lesedi: You can all go to hell.
Luyolo: Sfiso put that Camera there I want it to face them ok.
Sfiso climb on a chair and put the camera and step down.
Sfiso: Done..
Dad smiles.
Luyolo: Baby do what you gotta do my love but don't hurt
yourself.
Ziyanda: I won't baby.
She stands infront of Lesedi and we hear a loud clap.
Landile: Woah was that a slap?
Me: Yep!
Another one then a punch..
Ziyanda:Mbali wanna take over..
Lesedi is red but throwing insults at mom.
Mbali go all out with the punches she doesn't stop, she
screams so loud stepping away from Lesedi uncle Kwanele
pull her to his chest..
Luyolo: Nkanyezi you look angry, wanna release what's in
your heart.
Nkanyezi: "You know I can't say it in words."
Luyolo: Do it your way son.
Nkanyezi starts throwing punches at Sihle until he bleeds
dad pull him back.
Luyolo: We don't want to kill him yet son.
Uncle Mandisi walk in and look at dad.
Luyolo: Got it?
Mandisi: Yeah they are here.
Luyolo: Good everyone go back to your cars.
We all walk out wondering what's happening, there is a
bakkie outside we see them taking out a cage and it's big.
Me: I wonder..
Landi: You and me bro..
We drive back home on dad's orders and sit in the lounge.
Luyolo: Let's see if that camera is working sir.
Sfiso put the laptop on the table we all look close as someone
opens the cage and a big snake moves out we see the person
walking out and close the door.
Lesedi is screaming and so is Sihle..
Ziyanda:Luyolo.
Luyolo: Yes baby.
Ziyanda: That snake is huge!
Luyolo: I know I hope they don't move because it will attack
alright.
Ziyanda: So they will die?
Luyolo: This is a non poisonous snake but it can sure bite.
Landi: Looks like sihle want to faint before mommy dearest
there.
Me: Shame look at him all sweaty and shit.
We all laugh but uncle Kwanele still look far away with
thoughts.
Later we go visit Pamella and find her sleeping.
Landi: Ella..
She slowly open her eyes and smile.
Pamella: Hi guys, The doctor said he is discharging me
tomorrow since the scar is healing but they are keeping our
kids here, can't your mom tell them not to discharge me yet?
Landi: You don't want to go home?
She shakes her head.
Pamella: Not yet maybe until I see the growth.
Landi: But we can come here everyday to check on them.
Pamella: Please..
Landi nods.
Landi: I will talk to a doctor to keep you here for a few weeks
then.
Pamella: Thank you.
We check on the babies.
Me: Looks like Lethu and Letho are growing fast.
Landi: Yeah they don't look so tiny like their brothers here
but they are growing as well.
I nod.
Me: Do you think Pamella wants to stay here because of the
babies or is it because she is scared of going home?
She look at me.
Landi: What do you mean brother?
Me: She was terrified when we brought her here because we
told her about aunt sunny, maybe she doesn't think our
home is safe for her just like Ntsoaki and miyah so maybe
she feels safe here.
Landi: Uhm so you think she prefers being here than with us.
I shrug.
Me: Talk to her and assure her that our home is safe man she
doesn't have to be scared of coming back.
Landi: Ok thanks.
We drive back home and eat dinner then go our seperate
rooms.
Ntsoaki walk in from putting Kayise to sleep she doesn't
sleep with us anymore she sleep with the girls in their room.
Me: Babe.
Ntsoaki: Mmm.
Me: You don't like being here anymore huh.
Ntsoaki: I just don't feel safe that's all, Aunt Sunny and her
daughter died on that gate we all use.
Me: But we are dealing with the people who did this.
Ntsoaki: Where did they come from?
Me: That was dad's ex before mom and dad got married.
Ntsoaki: And what if another enemy emerges huh what will
happen to us or our kids?
Me: So what do you suggest Ntsoaki you want to leave huh?
She doesn't answer I chuckle.
Me: You want to go?
Still no answer.
Me: You can go and see if you will be safe when you try to
step out of that door..
Ntsoaki: You don't have to talk like that Ntsika you know I
won't leave.
Me: But you want to.
Ntsoaki: I am sorry.
Me: Being scared is normal we all are, but what you want to
do is not right, what about the kids huh, if I let you go what
will happen to them.
Ntsoaki: I won't go baby I am sorry I just..
Me: I understand really but we are working on keeping all of
you safe.
Ntsoaki: Ok you know I am not strong enough to protect our
family for now since our daughter is still young but you will
need to take me to the beach again.
Me: Ok when?
Ntsoaki: Tomorrow night..
Me: Going to meet the mermaids?
She laughs I pull her closer to me and kiss her.
Me: You are beautiful.
Ntsoaki: You tell me that all the time Ntsika.
Me: Good because you really are.
She smile looking down.
I kiss her again pushing her to bed she shakes her head and
get up.
Ntsoaki: How about I give you the show first daddy.
I smile.
Me: Do it baby..
She slowly take off her clothes then play with her boobs she
step closer to me and take off my clothes leaving me naked
with my dick all up..
She get in bed and start stroking her clit and moaning..
I kneel infront of her watching as she finger her self looking
straight in my eyes my dick is dripping with pre cum..
Me: Babe..
I pull her closer to me and rub my dick on her clit..
Ntsoaki: Yes..
I rub it faster she grabs on the sheets I slide it in..
Me: Shit..
Ntsoaki: Yes baby..
I don't move but we switch positions she is ontop of me
moving so fast..she knows what she is doing man that's why I
let her have her moments because she sure knows how to
ride that dick..
She continue until we both cum, I pick her up and we go to
the shower and give her one more round against those tiled
walls.
I go to the kitchen to get cold water I look out the window
which is facing uncle Kwanele's house I can see that he is
trashing the house..
I rush out and run to him and find uncle Mandisi standing by
the door.
Me: What is happening?
Mandisi: I don't know..
Kwanele: You fucken said I shouldn't go because you will be
here now Where are you Sunny, fucken come out
dammit!!how can you lie to me huh ..
Mandisi: Kwanele!
Kwanele: Stay out of this Mandisi, I want Sunny to come out
right now!wherever you're hiding Sunshine come out now or
I will burn this whole house down with you in it!I know you
are here you bastard I know!
Me: Uhm do you think he is indenial like how Nkanyezi
thought he can see Miyah in..
I don't finish talking because of the cold breeze I feel like
something is moving fast infront of me, I see a blur figure
next to a window.
Mandisi: No way!!
It's aunt Sunny she look so angry looking at Kwanele.
Kwanele: Hey baby you're here, where have you been you
left me in bed..
Sunny: I hate you!how can you do this to me..
The glasses breaks as she moves to another corner of the
room.
Kwanele: What did I do?
We see a glass flying straight uncle Kwanele..
Me: Uncle Kwanele move away!!
He moves the glass shatters on the wall.
Kwanele: Baby tell me what I did so I can apologise please!!
Sunny: I am leaving..
Kwanele: No!no..you can't leave Sunny you promised..you
said I shouldn't go because you will stay with me!!
Sunny: Not anymore..
He kneels down and beg looking at that human figure..
Kwanele: Please baby I am sorry for whatever I did, I am
sorry please don't leave..
She shakes her head..
I walk in and look at her..
Sunny: Don't come any close Ntsika..
Me: You can see me?
Sunny: Don't be a moron you are looking at me so why do
you think I can't see you..
She smiles a little.
Me: What is going on?
Sunny: He doesn't want to let me go but he betrayed me..
Me: What did he do?
Sunny: I don't know I just feel angry and betrayed!
Kwanele: I am sorry.
Me: You want him to let you go?
Sunny: Yes my daughter is waiting for me..
Kwanele: Come back with her Sunny please..
He is kneeling tears are just making their path down his
cheeks I am getting emotional too.
I kneel next to him and touch his shoulder.
Me: You understand that aunt Sunny is gone?
He nods.
Me: We buried her?
He nods wiping his eyes.
Me: But how come you want her here?
Kwanele: Because she came to me and told me I shouldn't go
she will be here.
Me: You want to live with her here while she is in that form?
Kwanele: Yes as long as I can talk to her and touch her yes..
Me: Aunt Sunny you wanna stay..
She shrug her shoulders.
Sunny: He has to let me go or I won't leave.
Me: Let her go.
Kwanele: No!
He get up.
Kwanele: I better find you here when I come back Sunny!
He walk out and a figure vanish immediately.
I look at uncle mandisi his mouth is hung open, he is blinking
slowly.
Mandisi: Did you just talk to a ghost Pillar?
Me: I don't know, we need to tell grandfather about this.
Mandisi: He won't do anything, Kwanele is the only one who
can let sunny rest in peace.
I look at him and shake my head all my life I never thought I
can have a one on one with a ghost!

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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KWANELE
*
Three months later
*
I am in my room waiting for Sunshine to show up and tell me
why she hasn't been coming to see me for the past three
days, I am sitting in bed topless just thinking about her, they
all have tried to tell me to let her go but I don't want to, I am
not ready for it at all.
Me: My love..
The cold breeze hits me and I look up she is looking outside
the window giving me her back.
Me: Why have you been ignoring me Sunny?
Sunny: You have to let me go baby our daughter is crying we
have to go..
Me: But I am not ready to let you go baby I don't want to live
without you.
Sunny: You will heal I promise, keep me in your heart, I don't
belong here..
Me: Please just stay a little while longer.
Sunny: Then I will be trapped here for eternity rooming
around these walls with nowhere else to go and I won't be at
peace.
Me: Then I should just kill myself and be with you.
Sunny: Then what about our family, Ziyanda, she lost me
Kwanele she can't lose you too.
Me: But it was ok for me to lose you sunny?
Sunny: No, but it was my time and if you try to kill yourself
you won't find peace baby until your day comes and maybe
it's 20 years from now and I won't forgive you if you try that.
I wipe my tears, she comes and sit next to me.
Me: Please give me time baby.
Sunny: It's been three months already, my daughter is tired
we need to leave babe.
I shake my head.
Me: I can't Sunny I am sorry I can't.
I get up and look outside the window I can see Ziyanda
sitting in the garden reading a book.
Sunny: She might not say it but she needs you, she can't tell
you because you are going through this pain too.
I look down.
Sunny: Be there for your sister Kwanele and let me go.
Me: No.
Sunny: You are so stubborn!
Me: It's in my blood.
We stay in silence.
Me: If I happen to let you go will you visit me like this.
Sunny: No I can only visit you in your dreams baby.
Me: Then I prefer this way..
She huffs.
Me: You remember the day you almost hit me with a glass
what made you so angry?
She giggles.
Sunny: I don't know but I felt like you did something but
even if you did I have no right to be angry I am dead.
Me: But if I did something wouldn't you know? I mean aren't
you always here?
Sunny: No, I have to juggle being here with you and being
with my daughter who is tired of sitting in one place waiting
for me.
Me: Why can't you come with her?
Sunny: Kwanele I shouldn't be here to begin with and you
want me to bring my daughter here.
Me: So she doesn't love me?
Sunny: She does baby she always ask about you but she can't
come back.
I nod.
Sunny: I have to go now she is crying, please think about this
Kwanele think of our daughter ok.
I sit down, the room feels normal now.
I sleep facing up then get up again searching for the phone I
found the other day..
I look at it for a while, I have to ask the kids if none of them
once lost a phone three months ago.
I wear my shirt and walk to where Ziyanda is sitting I sit
opposite her.
Me: Is it romance, motivational, fiction or non fiction?
She smiles looking at me.
Ziyanda: Romance..
Me: I like comedy..
Ziyanda: Really can you even read two pages in a book
without getting bored or falling asleep?
Me: You'd be suprised, you know when I came back from the
military the first time before I ran away from home, I used to
write down stories from my head I remember the first story
I wrote the topic was *If I could I would*.
Ziyanda: What was it about?
Me: About all the things I would change about my life if I was
given that power, like bringing back my mother, a lot of
things.
Ziyanda: Why did you stop writing then?
Me: Because it was hurting me more than it healed me, I was
living in that moment then when I am away from writing,
coming back to the real world I would realise that it's not
worth it I am hurting because in those books I kept mom
alive all the time.
Ziyanda: Healing is a long process maybe you were rushing it
that's why you gave up you thought it would happen
overnight but it doesn't.
Me: Yeah..
Ziyanda: And with Sunny you haven't even started healing
because you haven't took the first step which is letting it sink
in that she is gone, letting go doesn't mean forgetting bhuti it
simply means you know she is not living amongst us
anymore
Me: I am not ready.
Ziyanda: I wasn't ready to let mom go but I had to for me to
heal I had to do it so I don't lose my mind I had kids and all of
you.
Me: But I don't have kids Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: But you have all of us bhuti I am worried about you.
Me: I will be fine I just need a little time.
Ziyanda: Ok.
Me: How are the grandkids I saw that Pamella is back.
She smiles.
Ziyanda: They are so handsome, they look a lot like Langa
when he was a baby.
Me: Let me go in and meet them.
I walk in and everyone looks at me, I pushed them away so
seeing me here must be shocking
Me: Hello everyone.
Luyolo: Uh hey brother.
Me: I came to see the new additions.
They stare at me,I smile awkwardly.
Ntsika: Let's go and take them guys.
They get up and walk through the passage.
I sit down and look down.
Luyolo: Kwanele..
Me: Yeah.
Luyolo: We are your family.
Me: I know and I am sorry for shutting you guys out.
Luyolo: It's ok this is the first step, coming here to be around
us means something.
I nod and they come back.
Ntsika: This is Sbonga.
He gives me the light big boy.
Me: He look like he eat a lot huh Pamella?
She laughs.
Pamella: He does more than all of them.
Me: Meet Grandpa Kwanele boy..
Landi: This is Sbani.
Me: You can't keep giving me the same person over and over.
They laugh they really look the same even Lethu and Letho.
Me: Uhm i'll see you guys later for dinner.
Mandisi: You will eat with us?
I nod.
They look happy to hear that, I take out the phone I found
the other day.
Me: Uhm did any one of you lose a phone in my house the
day of Sunny's funeral?
They shake their heads.
Me: Do you remember if there is anyone who went in there
maybe?
Ntsika: Uhm I saw Asanda..
Me: The journalist?
Ntsika: Yeah.
Me: I remember telling her to come to my house but she
didn't come.
Ntsika: Maybe she had to rush somewhere that day.
I nod.
Me: Do you know where she works maybe this phone has
some important work stuff if it hers.
Ntsika: The bulding in town.
He tells me the name, I nod and go back to my house, I
change and take the car keys.
Sunny: I am proud of you.
I turn to look at her.
Sunny: We are getting close baby, I love you.
I hug her tight tears come out of my eyes.
Me: Why does it feel so right that you are here Sunny, why
does it feel like you belong here with me.
Sunny: You love me Kwanele and I understand my love all
the pain you are feeling I am sorry.
Me: Ok I will see you later.
She nods smiling, I walk towards the door and turn.
Me: I love you.
Sunny: I love you too my love.
I walk out and drive to town, I take the lift to the fifth floor
where they told me I will meet Asanda..
I knock in the office and someone invites me in. The minute I
step in she look like she wants to die, she starts fanning
herself she is sweating, I rush to get her water and help her
drink up.
Me: Are you ok now?
She nods a little looking down.
Me: Can I have a seat?
Asanda: Yes.
She says in almost a whisper.
Me: Uhm three months ago I found a phone in my house but I
don't know who is belongs to my son Ntsika told me he saw
you coming out of my house that day.
She keep her eyes down.
Me: Uhm here is the phone is it yours?
I show her the phone she look up a little then nods.
Me: Really? Unlock it for me.
She take it,
her hands are shaking.
Me: Are you sure you're okay little one?
She nods, she look young maybe a little older than the twins,
Ntsika and Nkanyezi but not too old.
She give me back the phone it's unlocked.
I nod.
Me: Ok you can take it back, bye.
Asanda: I wish I can have eveything that I lost in your house
back.
She says in a low voice.
Me: Sorry?
Asanda: No I am just thinking out loud.
Her office phone rings she answer and talk for a while then
get up and take a step to the file section the when she turns
she hold her tummy looking in pain, it's only now that I
notice that she's pregnant.
I get up and help her sit down she starts to sweat all over
again.
Me: Hey liitle one look at me, are you ok?
Asanda: No I feel pain in my tummy..
Me: Let me take you to a doctor.
Asanda: No..I'll be fine..
Me: I know when a woman is in pain while pregnant it
means something is wrong so please I insist.
There's a knock and someone opens the door a lady walk in
and look at us I am standing in front of Asanda.
Girl: I need that file I was asking you about..
Asanda: Please look it up there, I have to go to a doctor I
don't feel good.
Girl: Is it the baby?
Asanda: I think so.
Girl: Oh sorry babe.
All this time her eyes are on me.
Girl: Hi Mr Lukhele junior.
Me: Actually a junior is my brother that comes after me.
Girl: Oh Mandisi right?
I nod.
Girl: How do you know Asanda?
Me: She lost something and I happened to find it and brought
it to her.
Girl: Mmm so how have you been, losing your wife have you
moved on?
Me: No.
She stands between me and Asanda and look straight in my
eyes she moves her face closer and literally kiss my lips.
Girl: That is just to say sorry for your loss and let me give
you my number I can be your friend.
She write down the number and put it in my jean pocket.
She take the file and walk out I look at Asanda she is biting
her lower lip with tears in her eyes.
Me: Uhm sorry let's go, can you walk? Is it painful?
She nods and take her bag, I take it from her and hold her
waist to support her, we walk to my car but we stop when a
guy shouts her name running to us.
Guy: So you are really pregnant Asanda after we dated for
years without allowing me to break your virginity but now
here you are pregnant huh virgin mary!
She look down.
Guy: Answer me why are you a bitch?you lied to me about
being a virgin while you're getting fucked out there!!
He shouts and I help Asanda get in the car and look at him.
Me: Have you ever stopped and asked yourself why she
didn't allow you to take her virginity?
Guy: Mr Lukhele!
Me: Oh you know me?
Guy:Yes yes nice to meet you sir.
Me: Yeah back to my question..
Guy: Uhm no.
Me: Because you are a brat, did she owe you her virginity?
Guy: No.
Me: Then why are you shouting at her in public insulting her
calling her a bitch?are you guys married?
Guy: No I am sorry.
Me: Apologise to her.
I open the passenger door .
Guy: Uhm Asah I am sorry for insulting you, you are a good
woman not a bitch I am sorry.
She nods.
Me: Respect women yeah?
Guy: Yes Sir I am sorry..
I nod.
Me: Sure.
He walks away I get in the driver's seat and drive off.
Me: Uhm do you mind if I take you to my sister's hospital so
you won't wait long to see a doctor.
She nods a little.
I drive to the hospital and we walk in..
Me: Hey is there a free doctor now?
Recepstionist: Dr Cele is having her lunch in her office Mr
Lukhele.
Me: Well she needs to cut it short..
Receptionist: Nice to see you again sir it's been a while.
I nod a little and go to Cele's office and knock.
Me: Hey Nande..
DrCele: Kwanele it's so good to see you, I was at your wife's
funeral I thought I was going to see you but you were
nowhere to be found.
Me: Yeah I was in my house, I need your help the little one is
pregnant here and she was feeling a bit of pain.
DrCele: Oh how many months are you sis..
Asanda: This is the 12th week Doctor.
I clear my throat it marks exactly the 12th week I buried my
wife.
DrCele: Do you have your maternity card with you?
Asanda: Yes.
She takes it out and give it to her.
DrCele: I am impressed a lot of your age mate skip a lot of
hospital visits when pregnant..
She says paging through the card.
DrCele: Uhm Kwanele you can step out for a while, she needs
to change and get in bed I am doing a scan.
I nod and turn to the door.
Asanda: Can he stay please?
I look at her she look down.
Asanda: If you don't mind..
Me: Uhm yeah sure.
She go to the bathroom and change then get in bed, I stand
next to the bed this is the first time ever I see an ultasound
scan up close.
DrCele: Wow that's a very strong heartbeat there..
I can hear the sound.
Me: That sound is a heartbeat?
DrCele: Yes it is Sir..
Me: Wow and what is that?
DrCele: That is the baby sir it hasn't fully developed yet.
I nod, Asanda looks like she wants to cry.
DrCele: Did your previous doctor give you any pills?
Asanda: Yes I still have them.
DrCele:Ok those cramps you felt was the womb expanding to
accomodate the baby, so as it stretches you feel it, it is to give
a baby enough space to move around.
Asanda: Ok.
She wipes her tummy and we sit down as she writes
something on the file.
Asanda: My doctor isn't as nice as you can you be my doctor
from today.
DrCele: Yes of course baby and you are cute so it will make
my job more easier.
Asanda smiles and we get up.
Me: Thank you buddy.
DrCele: Anytime, I hope you are copying.
Me: I am trying man, bye.
We go to my car and sit for a while I am resting my head on
my seat with my eyes closed.
Asanda: Are you okay?
Me: Yeah..why don't you talk much now but you are always
talking on tv when reporting people's news to the world.
Asanda: That is my job and this is Asanda outside my job.
Me: So you don't really like talking outside work?
Asanda: I do with people I am used to.
I nod.
Me: Fair enough..so where to now?
Asanda: Back to work I left my car there.
Me: You can fetch it tomorrow let me take you home.
She nods.
Asanda: So tomorrow I have to take a taxi.
Me: Uhm I can take you to work..
Asanda:No I will take a taxi Sir it's fine.
Me: What time do you leave for work?
Asanda: 7:45am my place is fairly close to work.
Me:Ok.
She gives me directions to her flat and I park..
Me: You live with the father of your baby?
She look at me with teary eyes and step out rushing inside
her flat, maybe it's something I said I should stop asking
strangers personal questions.
I drive back home and start in my house.
Sunny: Hey I have been waiting for you.
Me: There was a little girl who is pregnant she had cramps
so I offered to take her to a doctor, you know her that little
girl who is a journalist.
Sunny: Oh yeah I know her you did good baby.
I nod and look at her..
Me: Have you ever changed this dress since you...uhm..
Sunny: Died?no I am always wearing this dress baby.
I nod a little.
Me: Today I am ending the life of those who killed you, I have
waited for too long and my family was getting tired of
torturing them, they have to die..
Sunny: Will it help you let go?
Me: It's still gonna take time Sunny please.
Sunny: Ok.
I walk out and go to Luyolo's house.
Me: It's time..
Luyolo: Mmmm?
Me: Today marks three months I buried my wife and
daughter so those who killed her are dying today..
Luyolo: It was long overdue brother, let's go..
We drive to Mluh's house and walk in we find Landile and
Nkanyezi beating Sihle up and they have been doing this for
months to teach him a lesson.
Me: I will take it from here, you will take a bullet in your
head Lesedi and your son will take it on the throat get that,
so who is taking it first?
Lesedi: Kwanele I am sorry we didn't know your wife was
going to come there..
Me:Wasn't that her home too?
Lesedi: I am sorry.
She has lost so much weight and so is her son..
Me: So who do I shoot first Sihle?
Sihle: It's fine start with me but Luyolo you will pay some
day you denied me your son.
Lesedi: He is not your father Sihle,Zulu was your real father.
Sihle: Mom don't let these people intimidate you into lying.
Lesedi: I lied Sihle I am sorry.
Me: Apologise to each other in hell...
I shoot Sihle in the neck then Lesedi on the side of her head
then close their eyes after taking their last breath.
We drive back home and I go back to my house.
Me: Come to bed baby I miss you..
Sunny: Kwanele the sex we had was in your dreams it was a
once off.
Me: What do you mean once off? we slept twice Sunny the
second time you even bled.
Sunny: I am a ghost you crazy man I slept with you in your
dreams once and why would I even bleed Kwanele?
Me: So I am crazy huh I am a fool I don't know how many
times I have had sex with my ghostly wife!
Sunny: Clearly!
Me: Don't fuck with me Sunny?
Sunny:What you gonna do? Go crazy and smash this house?
Me: You want to make me angry?
Sunny: Angry for being crazy yeah go ahead baby.
I chuckle.
Me: I see what you're trying to do Sunny, you want me to be
angry so I can send you away?it won't work baby i love you
you're not going anywhere anytime soon.
Sunny: You are selfish!
Me: No you are selfish for leaving me!taking that last breath
was you being selfish!how can you do that to me!how could
you!?
I take my gun and cock it putting it in my head..
Me: I am ending this pain today Sunny I am ending it all.
"dad don't do it."
I turn and look behind me it's little sunny she look tired, I
put the gun down and step closer to her.
Me: You guys need to come back I can't do this anymore.
LilSunny: We can't and I am tired now I have been here for
too long.
Me: I am sorry.
LilSunny: Let mom go..
Me: I can't do it I don't know to live without her..
She vanish and I look at Sunny.
Me: Please tell me you understand my love.
She shakes her head and vanish too.
I get in bed and cry till I fall asleep.
I wake up in the morning and rush to take a shower then get
dressed.
Me: Baby I will be back soon ok.
Silence.
Me: I am sorry about last night..I love you Sunny.
I rush out and get in the car driving to Asanda's flat I find her
already outside she is looking around probably for a taxi I
step out and go to her.
Me: Hello little one.
Asanda: Hi..hello..
Me: I am taking you to work..
Asanda: No..the taxi is coming now sir..
Me: I can pick you up and throw you in that car or you can
just cat walk in there.
She look at me.
Asanda: But I..
Me: Choose between the two..
She slowly walk towards the car and open at the back..
Me:Hey I am not an uber driver get in the front seat..
She get in and sit down.
Me: How is the baby?
Asanda: Fine.
Me: You are hoping for a girl or boy?
Asanda: I don't know, I am still not happy about this
pregnancy my parents don't know about it yet I am even
scared of visiting home.
Me: Why don't you go with the father so you won't be alone?
Asanda: It's..it's complicated.
Me: Is he running away?
Asanda: No, I don't think he knows what happened, he
thought I was someone else I only realised that later,
everything happened so fast I couldn't even stop it,
something in me wanted to do it but when I woke up I felt
regret and disgusted at myself.
She starts crying so hard.
Me: I am sorry for asking you the questions that got upset
like this, I am sorry little one.
She wipe her tears.
Asanda: I am going to be late for work.
Me: I am sorry.
I start the car and drive her to work.
Me: Maybe this is the last time I see you unless you write a
story about my family.
She look at me for a while and nod.
Asanda: Thank you..
She step out of the car and slowly walk in, I drive back home
to my wife.
WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)
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KWANELE
*
I am sitting in the lounge watching the news channel while
drinking a beer, It's so quiet in here maybe one day I will get
used to it.
Sunny: Hi.
She smile sitting on the couch opposite me.
Me: I thought you are mad at me I was giving you time to
calm down.
Sunny: Oh I am still mad but I still do love you and care
about you.
Me: Thank you.
Sunny: I am slowly drifting away, do you see the difference
when you look at me.
I look at her she is really becoming blurry she is looking like
a real ghost now not like before when you could mistake her
for a real human being.
Sunny: You are slowly accepting that I am gone babe and I
am proud of you, I am not gonna push you anymore it will
happen in time, I shouldn't rush maybe this is what you need
to heal, seeing me slowly drifting away from you.
Me: It's better than losing you so sudden trust me.
Sunny: Are you ever gonna fall in love again?
Me: I don't know but what I know for sure is that I will
always love you so much.
Sunny: I know, I will always love you too Lukhele, you had a
choice over the years to leave me or cheat so you can have a
baby but you respected me if anyone deserves happiness it's
you my love.
Me: But I am old now maybe my sperms ain't working
anymore.
She laughs.
Sunny: You still look handsome and you are not that old.
Me: Sunny I am the oldest here at home what do you mean
not that old?
She smiles.
Sunny: 'God sent me an angel up from above who's gonna
love me for life..'
She sings in a low voice.
Sunny: Tell Ziyanda and Mandisi to sing that song for you
because even in my death I can't sing to save my life.
Me: But I always loved your voice baby..
She laughs..
Me: I love you.
I hear the front door opening and my family walk in carrying
Pizzas and beers, they sit on the couches.
Mandisi: Hey brother..
Me: Good thing that you guys are here Sunny asked you to
sing a song for me.
Mandisi: I hope it's not one of her crazy rock song..
Sunny: Booo!
Mandisi jumps almost spilling the beer.
Mandisi: Why the fuck would you do that you ghost with no
manners!?
Sunny: To see that reaction now sing that song because
I will kill you in your sleep!
Me: Babe come on you are freaking everyone out yhoo!
She smiles.
Sunny: I am glad your asses can all see me.
Ziyanda: What's the song bhuti?
I look at Sunny.
Me: If this isn't love by Jennifer Hudson, right babe?
She nods.
Ziyanda and Mandisi look at each other and smile.
Sunny: Just a verse my people.
Ziyanda|Mandi:
"If this isn't love tell me what it is,
I could be dreaming or I am just plain crazy,
If this isn't love tell me what it is cause I never felt like this
baby,if this isn't love, LOVE what is means to me LOVE."
Ziyanda:
"So if you got real love let me see put your hands,
the kind of love that fits like a glove, see put your hands up!"
Ziyanda|Mandisi:
"Yeah I know I ain't dreaming,
I know I ain't trippin, I know ain't sleeping I know that it's
love"
I look at Sunny she is looking at me with a smile on her face,
I am feeling the tears burning my eyes but I blink a few times
and look down.
Mandisi: Do you want a slice Sunny?
Sunny: You know I can move things around right?you won't
freak out when I take that Pizza away from you?
Mandisi: That was a joke Sun come on!
She giggles.
Sunny: I can't move things anymore because he is slowly
accepting that I am gone.
They smile looking at me.
Mbali: We love you ok?
Sunny: I love you too guys so much, I have to go for now.
I nod.
We continue to eat Pizza until I see something on tv..
Me: Can you turn up the volume Mandi.
He does I can see that Asanda is somewhere in South beach
and it looks like there is mob justice there it's crazy!
Mandi: Damn it's going down, look at the way they are
pushing the journalists man, why would a person put herself
in danger like that..
Someone push her she stumbles back and touch her
tummy..I rush to my room and change fast taking my car
keys.
Luyolo: Where are you going?
Me: Somewhere but I am coming back soon don't go..
Luyolo: Ok sure.
I drive to South beach in speed and park my car a bit far and
step out, I look around I can see people shoving the
journalists but I don't see Asanda, I rush through the crowd
looking for her I find a man holding her dress on the chest
looks like he is shouting at her but she is just staring at him, I
push him away from her and grab her hand walking through
the crowd going straight to my car and open the car, she get
in and I get in next to her and drive away for a while and
stop in town.
Me: Why would you put yourself in that kind of situation
while pregnant?
She doesn't answer.
Me: I am talking to you man!
I shout she look at me.
Asanda: I am sorry.
I sigh.
Me: I am sorry for shouting.
She nods.
Me: Do you want something to eat?
Asanda: No I am fine.
Me: When last did you eat?
Asanda: In the morning when I went to work..
I look at her.
Me: You want the baby to starve huh?you did say you are not
too happy about this pregnancy, do you want to kill this
baby!
I am shouting I don't know why I am all worked up I don't
even know this girl like that.
Asanda: I am sorry sir.
I look at her she is crying.
Me: I am sorry little one I didn't mean to upset you ok.
She nods.
I drive to one of the restaurant that is always calm, with less
people and most are white I don't wanna find myself in the
papers next morning about this.
We sit down opposite each other.
Me: You can order anything, you need to eat.
She nods a little, we order and our food comes, we eat in
silence then I look at her for a while.
Asanda: You are making me uncomfortable.
Me: I am sorry it's just that..uhm the dress you are wearing
today looks familiar.
She clears her throat looking down.
Asanda: Can I use the bathroom?
Me: Yeah sure..
She get up and rush to the bathroom, I wait for a while but
she doesn't come out, I get up and go to the bathroom and
knock but no one answers I open the door and I find her
crying sitting next to a sink her feet are dangling, I stand in
front of her.
Me: I am sorry little one looks like I always upset you.
Asanda: This is the ladies..
I smile.
Me: I know.
I wipe her tears and look at her.
Me: How did you get yourself up here?
She laugh a little.
Asanda: I jumped..
I laugh, my hands touch her hips but I quickly move away,
she is just a child and I still have my wife at home, besides
she is pregnant.
Me: Uhm let me get you down so we can go.
I pick her up and put her down, we walk out and I see the
stares white folks are giving us as we step out I chuckle.
We sit down for a while.
Me: Uhm do you want anything else?
Asanda: What were you doing there?
Me: I saw you on Tv and I didn't really like seeing those men
pushing a pregnant lady like that.
She nods.
Me: So who do you stay with?
Asanda: Alone.
Me: Oh but you're pregnant what if you get sick in the middle
of the night.
Asanda: I have people who lives next to me I can ask for help.
Me: Give me your phone so I can save my number you can
call me anytime.
She gives me the phone and I save my number then dial it so
I could have her number.
We walk out and get in the car.
Asanda: Uhm Sir please take me home I will work from there
this week.
Me: That's better, don't mix yourself up in the crowd you
could get hurt or hurt the baby.
She nods.
I drive to her flat, I don't know what happened I see her
stomach hit the window since the door is closed I quickly
step out and I see that boy who was shouting at her, he is
behind her..
Me: Did you just push her?
He stares at me with wide eyes open.
Guy: You again?
I take out the gun and point at him.
Me: Listen to me and hear me good ok, I will splash your
brains in this street do you get me.
Guy: I'm sorry..
Me: Leave her alone!or I will find you boy and make this
town too small for you.
Guy: I won't ever come near her again..
He run off, I look at Asanda.
Me: Are you ok little one?
She nods.
Me: You don't feel any pain?
Asanda: No..
Me: Ok let me help you to your flat.
We walk in and go to her flat, it's a small beautuful place
white couch white curtains everything seems white.
Asanda: uhm let me go to my room you can pour yourself
juice then walk out..
I laugh.
Me: Ok.
She walk in the room for a while, I look around and go open
the fridge it has a lot of junk food I take bottled water and
drink, I am thinking maybe she is going to come back and say
say goodbye but she doesn't.
I walk in her room and find her sleeping in bed with a fan
next to her bed facing her and she has a gown but it's not
tied, maybe she was feeling hot, I grab a chair and sit next to
her, she look deep in sleep, I don't feel aroused that she is
half naked but my eyes are on that baby bump, I find myself
brushing it a little I feel goosebumps all over my body I don't
know what's happening, she moves a little I watch her
sleeping she look like a completely different person like the
one who can ask a million questions with a straight face and
no fear at all.
After some time I feel like it's getting a bit cold I switch off
the fan and pull the bed covers she open her eyes a little.
Me: Bye I am leaving now.
She nods. I try to kiss her forehead but she cover her face
quickly..I smile shaking my head.
Me: Bye.
I walk out and drive back home I find a lot of noise coming
from my house I forgot I told them not to leave.
Me: Hello people.
Ziyanda: We have been waiting alright..
I laugh.
Me: I am sorry, is Sunny back yet?
Sunny: Yep I am here!
We stay for a while then they all leave, I go to the closet and
take out everything that belongs to sunny and start packing
it back one by one.
Sunny: What are you doing?
Me: There is a dress I am looking for.
She nods.
Sunny: You want to wear my dresses now?
Me: You're not funny..
Sunny: But everyone thinks I am.
Me: Well not me..
Sunny: You are such a boring old man I wonder who is gonna
fall in love with you.
Me: Am I looking for love or a dress here Sunny?
She laughs.
Sunny: That was a good one baby, but Nele everyone needs
love.
Me: I don't.
Sunny: But baby..
Me: So I can go through this pain again huh?so she can die
and leave me miserable and acting crazy!
Sunny: I didn't mean to upset you baby.
I sit down on the bed as I have finished packing but can't find
the dress.
Me: Maybe it's all in my head like the sex.
She shrug her shoulders.
I go to the bathroom and look for those bed covers that has
blood.
Me: But this is real, the stain is here and this is blood.
I take it to the laundry room putting it in the washing
machine I don't know why I kept it dirty I would just take
only my clothes and leave it there.
It's been 3 weeks of doing the same thing wake up talk to
sunny and go to bed, I haven't seen Asanda and I am fine
with that we are not friends and I am sure the father of her
baby won't appreciate another man to be always around his
pregnant girlfriend not to mention that I am an old man too.
My phone rings I take it and look at the screen it's Asanda
calling for the first time ever since I gave her my number.
Me: Hello.
Asanda: Uhm hey hi how are you?
Me: What did you hear about me?you want to write
something?
Asanda: Oh...
She drops the call, I call her back she picks up sniffing.
Me: Look I was joking, is everything ok?
Asanda: Uhm yeah.
Me: But you are crying.
Asanda: No i am not, uhm do you mind taking me to a doctor.
Me: Is the baby okay, are you sick?
Asanda: No I am finding out the gender today.
Me: Wow ok uhm yeah what time?
Asanda: At 10 o'clock.
Me: Yeah I will pick you up at your flat?
Asanda: Yes Sir.
Me: Sure.
I don't know I feel so happy about this right now.
Sunny: Someone looks happy.
Me: Yeah man little one asked me to go with her to find out
the gender of her baby.
Sunny: Little one?
Me: Oh yeah that Asanda girl.
She nods.
Sunny: Ok baby.
Me: Are you ok with that?
Sunny: Why wouldn't I be? I love seeing you happy.
I nod and go take a shower while we talk.
Sunny: Your dick looks good but haven't had any for a while!
I choke gasping because shower water went down my nose.
She laughs so hard.
Me: Sunshine you are a dirty ghost!
Sunny: No for real baby it might just stop working forever..
I wipe my face.
Me: You need to get out of here Sunny!!
Sunny: I haven't seen it hard for a while now..
Me: Geez this woman!
I step out of a shower and go get dressed she is still laughing
so hard.
Me: You are annoying.
Sunny: Yet you are still keeping me here.
Me:I will see you later.
Sunny: Later!
I drive to Asanda's place and go in I knock on her door and
she opens in her gown.
Asanda: Uh hi you are a bit early.
Me: Didn't want to keep you waiting, I will wait for you
instead.
She nods and go in her room, I follow her and find her in her
bra and panty she quickly cover herself with a gown.
Me: I'm sorry..shit..
I step back and go sit down on the couch, what am I doing?
She walk out wearing a dress.
Asanda: We can..we can go..
Me: I'm sorry for walking in your room like that.
Asanda: It's ok.
We drive to a doctor in silence we go to Nande's office.
DrCele: You again.
I smile.
DrCele: Hey Asah go in and change sweety.
She walk away.
DrCele: You guys get along.
Me: She seem like a good kid and she asked if I can be here.
DrCele: Maybe she feels safe around you, maybe like a
father..
I nod.
She comes back and sleep on the bed we look at the scan.
Asanda: Uh can you see the gender?
DrCele: Yep..it's a baby boy..
I look down, something deep in me is making me emotional
about this whole thing, I look at Asanda she is looking at me
with glassy eyes..DrCele's phone rings as she wipe Asanda.
Me: Let me help with that.
I wipe the gel off then help her up, I find myself hugging her,
she sobs on my chest..
Me: It's ok shh don't cry ok..don't upset the boy.
She calms down and go change, we go back to the car.
Me: Do you have those things called cravings?
She nods looking down.
Me: What do you and the boy like then?
Asanda: I have it all home..
Me: What is it?
Asanda: Are you happy?
I look at her.
Me: About what?
Asanda: A baby being a boy?
Me: Uhm maybe you should ask that question your baby's
dad.
Asanda: I am asking you!
She shouts a little then look at me.
Asanda: Do you want a boy?
I chuckle.
Me: Yeah a lot.
She nods a little.
Asanda: Please take me home.
I drive her there then we walk in together.
Asanda: Would you like anything?
Me: What are you eating?
Asanda: Hot wings with white bread.
Me: Oh so that's what the boy likes?
Asanda: I guess so I always feel like eating like this..
Me: Ok I will eat with you.
We eat together and she take the plate away when we are
done.
Me: You are feeling hot?
She nods,I get up and take her hand we go to her room,I
make her sit in bed then switch on the fan.
I touch her dress and take her it off, I kiss her and she kiss
me back.
Me: Maybe you are too young for me..but..
I kiss her again and push her to bed getting ontop of her, I
kiss her taking off her bra then go to her boobs her nipples
are so erect I lick them..
Asanda: Mmm aa..
I take off her panty and my lips come into contact with her
pussy lips, I feel her knees shaking a bit..I start sucking and
licking her for a while then look at her.
Me: Tell me to stop little one, please..
She doesn't say anything but look on the side. I take off my
clothes then kiss her again rubbing her pussy.
Me: Do you want this?
She shrug her shoulders, I kiss her again then try to insert
my dick but she is too tight..I go down and play with my
tongue on her hole to make her more wet then try again, the
tip is in, I push a little harder..
Asanda: Aaah.
Me: Shit.
I push again until it's all in and take her leg to my
waist..looking down on her..I start moving slowly she is too
tight..
Asanda: Aaah sh..it hurts..
Me: I'm sorry.
Why does this feel like dejavu, like this is the second time it
happens.
Me: You want me to stop?
She has her eyes tightly closed, she shakes her head.
Me: Open your eyes.
She look at me.
Me: Don't close them,and relax for me ok.
She nods,I start moving again slowly making sure I don't
hurt her.
Me: Fuck..shit.
I move a bit faster as I feel myself getting close..
Asanda: Aaaah..
I feel her pussy muscles clenching on me fast a few times I
groan as I cum deep in her pussy..
I kiss her lips and wipe her tears. I sleep next to her and
make her sleep on my chest as she start sobbing.
Asanda: Who am I?
Me: What?
Asanda: Who am I?who is this person you just had sex with?
I look at her she stares at me with tears in her eyes.
Me: Come on Asanda what do you mean?
She nods a little and sleep back on my chest..
Me: I am not trying to take advantage of you believe me.
Asanda: Then what are you doing with me?
Me: I don't know, something is pulling me to you, it's like you
have something that belongs to me..
She get up and go to the bathroom I notice a little blood
again..
I sit up and wait for her to come back.
Me: Sit here in front of me.
She sit down.
Me: Look at me.
She stares at me.
Me: How many times have you had sex in your life?
Asanda: This is the second time.
Me: When was the first time?
Asanda: Four months ago..
Me: With who?
Asanda: The father of my unborn baby.
Me: The name..
She shakes her head.
Me: Tell me the name Asanda!
Asanda: No..
Me: Where was it, where did you lose your virginity?
Asanda: I..
Me: It was my house?
She wipe her tears.
Me: I took your virginity Asanda?
She cries louder..
Me: You..you are carrying my son?
She get up and step away I wear my pants and stand in front
of her.
Asanda: You thought I was your wife..
Me: Why did you let me sleep with you?
Asanda: I don't know, I'm sorry..
Me: Oh my God..
I brush my head.
Me: I'm sorry..i'm so sorry man I'm sorry please forgive me..
Asanda: Please go..
Me: No..I am sorry I see it now, come here..
I pull her closer to me and I smell the perfume..
Me: The dress..the phone..the blood..it all makes sense but
why didn't you tell me..
Asanda: I couldn't, in your head I was your wife, I feel like I
took advantage of you, you were hurting but I realised later
when you told me you love me that it wasn't meant for me, I
shouldn't even have been in that bed.
I sit down and rub my eyes.
Me: Did I hurt you?
Asanda: I felt a little pain a bit you were gentle.
Me: So I am the only man you ever slept with?
Asanda: Yes and I am sorry, you don't have to be here I really
took advantage of a broken man who just had buried his
wife, I slept with him on that day!
She screams..I rush to her.
Me: Calm down..please don't upset our..your..uhm my son..
I say in a low voice.
Asanda: Please go..
I shake my head..
Me: I am really sorry for what I did I don't know what came
over me I should have known it wasn't her.
I make her sleep in bed then sleep next to her we are silent.
I huff..
Me: I am happy.
Asanda: You don't sound happy.
Me: Yeah the way things happened I am not really happy
about it.
Asanda: You really don't have to be here I won't keep the
baby away from you.
Me: Thank you, so you still scared of visiting home?
Asanda: Yes.
Me: I can come with you.
Asanda: That would make things worse I need to find maybe
a younger guy to pretend..
I laugh in disbelief and get up wearing my tshirt and shoes.
Me: Rather you not go home at all than you having a small
boy pose as the father to my child!
Asanda: I didn't mean to upset you I was just saying, I am
sorry..it's just that maybe you're a bit younger than my dad..
Me: I know man, I know that you are a baby! I don't even
know how this shit happened!!
Asanda: Shit?
She says sounding dissapointed.
Me: I don't mean it like that little one, it's..Ey!
I look at her.
Me: Go to bed, I will see you.
She nods.
I walk out and run to my car and drive back home.
Me: Sunny show yourself now!
She smiles..
I throw a chair her way..
Sunny: You look upset.
Me: You knew what I did Sunny!
She look at me.
Me: How can you make me sleep with an innocent girl
thinking it was you..
Sunny: It was bound to happen baby.
Me: Bound shit!Sunny you lie even in death!!!
Sunny: I am sorry my love..
Me: You pretended like you knew nothing while you knew
exactly what I did!I am way older than that girl for fucks
sake!!why did you do this!!
Sunny: I did it for you baby, you have to move on!
Me: You are a piece of shit!
Sunny: It was supposed to happen Kwanele!you slept with
her again and this time I had nothing to do with it..
Me: Sunshine how can you do this?
Sunny: She is giving you something you always wanted baby.
Me: On the day I buried you Sunny!?you chose that fucken
day!
Sunny: I am sorry.
Me: You don't know how I feel right now or how that poor
girl feels, she feels like she took advantage of me and I feel
the same way towards her!I hate you right now!
Sunny: Then let me go!
I chuckle.
Me: All this because you want to leave me Sunny?you never
loved me.
I sit down..
Sunny: You have a void in your heart Kwanele you've had it
all these years but now it's about to be filled, you are having
a son, a baby boy, Kwanele junior..
I wipe my face.
Me: I was going to move on, on my own and maybe find love
again what am I going to do she is young.
She smiles.
Sunny: But you feel something baby, I know you do.
Me: That doesn't make you angry?
Sunny: No, I am happy for you Kwanele, you gave me the
best life every woman dreams off you deserve happiness
more than anyone..
Me: I love you Sunny..
Sunny: I love you too baby..
I see her becoming more blurry..
Sunny: You are still not ready?
I shake my head.
Sunny: I will give you a little time..
She smiles looking at me, I wipe my eyes.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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KWANELE
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I have been trying to call Asanda since last night but she is
not answering or returning my calls I am getting worried.
Sunny:I told you since yesterday that you should go to her
place and see her, look at you, you look ugly.
Me: Sunny I could use with not hearing your voice right now
babe ok..
She laughs.
Me: I don't know why you're laughing.
Sunny: You care about her neh?
Me: She is pregnant and she lives by herself so I am worried.
Sunny: Then go check on her Kwanele sometimes you can be
really really slow..
Me: Really Really?
Sunny: Yes since yesterday aowa marn baby..
I chuckle.
Me: Is little Sunny ok?
Sunny: Yes she is fine my grandmother came to fetch her
because I was taking too long.
I nod.
Me: I am sorry for delaying your journey.
Sunny: Take all the time you need baby atleast Sunny is fine
now.
I nod.
Me: I have to go check on her.
Sunny: Finally, I will see you when you come back.
I nod and walk out, I drive to her flat hoping she is working
from home, I knock on her door but no one answers I turn
the handle and walk in and look around I see her phone on
the couch, I go to her room and find it empty the fan is on
and there is a robe on the floor..
I look everywhere but I don't find her, I rush to her
workplace and go to her office but I find the girl that gave me
a kiss and the number.
Me: Hey is Asanda around?
Girl: Mr Lukhele wow I waited for your call.
Me: Miss is Asanda here or not?
Girl: She didn't come in today sir.
Me: Do you know her ex?
Girl: Bonga yeah he stays just opposite here.
Me: Ok thanks.
I walk out leaving her shouting my name, I go to the flat and
stop at the security.
Me: Hey I need to see Bonga.
Security: Mr Lukhele oh wow Sir good to see you I have been
meaning to come to your building.
Me: Look I will give you my number, I really need to talk to
Bonga.
Security: Ok thank you, he lives in room 22 it's the second
floor.
I take the lift and knock on the door and he widens his eyes
as soon as he opens I shake my head.
Me: I will kill you today, you will know me I fucken warned
you to stay away!
I push him out of the way and go to the bedroom I find
Asanda tied on the chair with a sock in her mouth she has
tears in her eyes, There are pills on the bed a lot of them.
I untie her and take out the socks, I hug her tight on my
chest.
Bonga: Look Sir I know you're famous but you can't barge in
people's flat like this I can get you arrested.
Me: Are you ok, is our boy ok?
Asanda: He wanted to feed me the pills so I could lose the
baby.
Me: I'm sorry.
I brush her tummy a little then kiss her forehead.
Bonga: This is between me and my girlfriend sir we are
trying to fix things.
I breathe trying so hard not to lose my cool in front of
Asanda.
Me: Let's go ok.
I hold her closer to me and we walk towards the door but he
block the door.
Me: I am really trying to be calm but you are poking me boy.
Bonga: You should be mourning your wife.
I grab him by his shirt and slam his head on the wall.
Me: I am not your friend, I am coming to get you later I want
to slice off your throat.
I give him a punch..
Bonga: I am sorry so sorry.
Me: I heard that before, I will kill you boy just try that shit
with me again.
I take Asanda and go to her place and she goes to take a
shower i look at her.
Me: When did he take you?
Asanda: Last night.
Me: I am sorry, he didn't hurt you?
Asanda: No he spent the whole night trying to research
dangerous pills for pregnant women.
Me: You slept on a chair?
She nods.
Me: I am coming back now ok.
Asanda: Ok please lock the door.
I nod and go buy hot wings for her and white bread then a
lot of junk food that I once saw in her fridge then go back I
find her sitting on the bed touching her boobs.
Me: What's up?
Asanda: They hurt a bit.
Me: Maybe they are preparing to have milk.
She nods.
I go back to the kitchen and dish up her food and go back to
the room.
I give her food she start eating.
Asanda: My father called I have to be home tomorrow.
Me: What you gonna do you don't want me there?
Asanda: Maybe you can say you're the father of the boy who
got me pregnant.
I look at her.
Me: I am old I know that but why did you allow me to sleep
with you again if you want a small boy?
Asanda: This is not about that, you can't tell me that it
doesn't worry you that I am younger and coming home with
me telling your age mates that you got their daughter
pregnant.
Me: I will pay all the damages little one, everything they
want.
Asanda: Ok.
Me: I will have to tell my family about this so we can all go
tomorrow.
She nods a little, she is not feeling anything I am saying.
Me: I am sorry for putting you in this situation.
Asanda: I wish there was something different about it.
Me: Something like what?
Asanda: Maybe things would be much easier if we were in
love but we're not even in a relationship, this is a mess..
She says in a low voice looking down.
I huff.
Me: Keep the door locked I will have to go now so I can
maybe withdraw some money..
Asanda: You can take another key if you want to.
I look at her, she is a pretty little girl.
I call Luyolo first.
Me: Hey brother are you home?
Luyolo: Yeah.
Me: I need to talk to you later today and Mandisi.
Luyolo: Ok see you.
I drop the call.
Me: Let me put you guys to sleep before I go.
I get in next to her and brush her tummy until I feel a tiny
movement in there.
Me: Woah did you feel that?
She nods I look at her.
Me: Thank you for carrying my child, thank you so much.
I kiss her and make her turn to sleep on her side and face the
other way, then slide my dick slowly in her she moans in
pain..
Me: You will get used to it baby, I promise..
I lift her leg a little and move faster while kissing the back of
her neck..
Asanda: I..
Me: Talk to me babe..mm fuck..
I move even faster and groan cuming hard my knees shake I
turn her around and get ontop of her and make love to her
all over again.
Me: Thank you, now sleep ok..
I pull her close to me and brush her hair after a while she
falls asleep I get out of bed and get dressed, I walk out and
take out the key putting it on the kitchen counter then taķe
another one lock outside and drive home.
Me: Baby we need to talk.
Sunny: What's worrying you?
Me: Asanda, is it ok if I pay damages for her, I took her
virginity and got her pregnant now she is afraid of going
home I am thinking of going with my brothers to pay.
Sunny: That's a good thing.
Me:Sunny are you really ok with this?
She nods.
Sunny: Look baby it's the right thing to do.
I huff.
Me: I feel like I am betraying you, our vows baby.
Sunny: But you're not, in everything you do Kwanele know
that I support you.
I nod.
I call Luyolo telling him he must bring Ziyanda and the guys.
Me: How do you think they will take this Sunny?
Sunny: If they don't take it well I will be here to talk for you
don't worry.
Me: I wish I could hold you in my arms.
Sunny: Yet you were holding another woman.
The hurt I feel right now I feel like crying out loud, I wish I
can just take it all back.
Sunny: That was a joke baby don't feel bad remember I
started this besides if you don't water your seed then who
will?
A door opens and the boys and their dads walk in then
Ziyanda and Mbali follow, I am nervous now.
Me: Where is Landile?
Langa:He is not a guy!
They laugh.
Langa: I am kidding, Cooper needed her at the station.
I nod, they sit down and look at me.
Sunny: Why aren't you saying hi?
Langa:Oh God you're still here Aunt Sunny this is creepy.
Sunny: I know baby.
They laugh.
Luyolo: So uhm why are we here we thought you are
throwing a party for the ghost..
Sunny starts moving around every corner of the room their
eyes are all out.
Mandisi: So we are here to be tormented! I am leaving.
Me: Sunny stop doing that baby come on!
I laugh.
Sunny: I just had to baby I'm sorry.
She is laughing so hard.
Me: Ok so guys I called you here because I want to tell you
something.
They stare at me.
Me: I am having a baby boy.
Langa: Aunt Sunny is a pregnant ghost?
I shake my head laughing nervously.
Me: I got someone else pregnant.
Mbali: When was that?
Me: She is four months pregnant.
They all stare at me.
Mbali: You are joking right!
Me: Uhm no.
Mbali:Do we know her?who is she?
Me: It's Asanda..
Ntsika: Asanda...Asanda the journalist? You slept with
Asanda the day we buried aunt sunny?
I nod a little, I think it all just came out.
Mbali: What!?uthini Kwanele?(what are you saying)
Me: It just happened I didn't plan it at all.
Ziyanda: bhut'Kwanele..
She says rather disappointed.
Sunny: He thought she was me, I made him believe it's me.
Mbali: On the same day of your burial Sunny!
Me: I am sorry.
Ziyanda: So have you been seeing her?
Me: Yes..
Mbali: You still think she is Sunny?
She says chuckling I expected this reaction, these people
fought for each other I guess they are still doing it..
Mandisi: Mbali he is my brother please show a little respect.
Mbali: But he showed no respect for sunny.
Sunny: He thought it was me Mbali!
Mbali: That is bullshit..
Me: Ok look it's done, she is carrying my boy.
Mandisi: Congratulations brother I am happy for you.
Mbali: You couldn't wait huh?to get someone pregnant.
Mandisi: Mbali!just shut up or go back home.
Me: So can you guys accompany me to go to her home and
pay damages, she was a virgin and now she is pregnant.
Luyolo: Ok when are we doing this?
Me: Tomorrow.
They look at each other.
Mbali: You're okay with this Sunny?
Sunny: Yes.
Mbali: So when people die they become soft?
Sunny: Is he supposed to be miserable for the rest of his life
because I am dead while you guys carry on with your lives, is
that it?
Mbali: No but it's too soon.
Sunny: To who? If I didn't want this to happen it wasn't
going to happen.
Luyolo: Congratulations brother.
They shake my hand.
Ziyanda: Do you love her?
Me: Uhm No I don't think I am there yet.
Ziyanda: She is Ntsika's age mate brother.
I look down.
Me: Are you guys gonna come with me?
Mbali: You are paying damages only right not marrying her?
Me: No just damages and I am sorry if you guys think I
betrayed Sunny.
Mbali: Yeah I am sorry for being rude big brother.
Ziyanda get up and sit next to me hugging me tight.
Ziyanda: You deserve to be happy, congratulations for your
baby boy.
Me: Thank you.
We continue to talk about tomorrow I will only go with
Luyolo and Mandisi.
Later I call Asanda.
Asanda: Mmm.
Me: Hey little one, are you guys ok?
Asanda: Yes I just finished eating thanks for buying more
wings.
Me: Anything for you guys.
I clear my throat as Sunny look my way.
Me: Can you call your mother and give her a little hint that
we're coming tomorrow.
Asanda: How?
Me: Tell her you are coming with some people for a little
visit and leave it at that please.
Asanda: Uhm ok let me try.
She drops the call.
Sunny: It's ok to show affection to the mother of your child
Kwanele don't hold back, you care about both of them and
that's ok.
Me: Sunny are you really fine with all this or you are just
pretending.
Sunny: I would be selfish if I don't want you to be happy, I
want to leave you in a good state so I can rest in peace.
I nod.
I get in bed and close my eyes, I can see Asanda holding a
baby in her arms smiling but someone snatch it from her
arms I wake up sweating and look around.
Me:Sunny..
Sunny: Mmmm.
Me: Someone will want to take my baby..
Sunny: You were dreaming?
Me: Yeah..
Sunny: Then maybe it's just a dream baby you are worried
about tomorrow.
I nod and go back to sleep.
In the morning I wake up early and get ready she said her
home is a 2hours 45minutes drive from Durban so we have
to leave early.
I drive to her flat to fetch her.
I go in and find her sitting in bed wearing a top with jeans.
Me: I hope my baby won't suffocate in those jeans.
Asanda: He won't.
I kiss her lips and pull her up lifting up the top.
Me: Please change the jeans please.
She nods a little and look for a short dress it's not a tight
dress she look young and beautiful in it.
Asanda: You think the baby bump is visible.
Me: It is just a little, You're going to be fine, let's go I am
fetching my brothers then we will go.
Asanda: They don't think I'm loose.
Me: No they are happy you are giving me a son.
She nods.
I take her bag and we go to the car.
Me: So what did mommy say?
Asanda: She said we must be early then, she sounded a bit
excited over the phone you know.
Me: Oh is that a bad thing?
Asanda: I am not sure man I have this nagging feeling in my
heart.
I brush her thigh a little.
When we get home she step out of the car and sit at the back
my brothers come out and look at her.
Luyolo: Hey.
Asanda: Morning Mr Gumede, Mr Lukhele Jnr.
They nod.
Luyolo: You can sit here next to the father of your child.
He says smiling.
Asanda:No I am fine here because I am sleepy.
He nods and get in Mandisi sit with her at the back.
Mandisi: So how is the baby?
Asanda: He is ok Sir thank you for asking.
Mandisi: You are carrying little journalist in there.
She giggles.
We drive all the way to her home and it's 8:0o am, it was a
bit dark when we left home.
We stop a few houses away, there are a lot of people in the
yard moving around.
Asanda: Uhm so should I go in first?
Me: No we will go in with you.
She look nervous, we step out and she walk next to me
holding her handbag close to her tummy, we stop when one
of the women rush to us.
Woman: Makoti you need to come and get ready your in laws
are on their way.
We look at each other.
Me: You are someone's wife?
Asanda: Mama where is dad?
Woman: Busy with the lobola negotiations in that rondavel.
Asanda: Whose negotiations?
Woman: Yours Sisi..
Asanda: Never!
She throw the bag down and rush to the rondavel we follow
her, we hear everyone gasping inside.
Man: Asanda!
Asanda: Dad what is happening here?
Oldman: Uzithwele?(you're pregnant?)
Asanda: Yes! Mr Lukhele you can come in.
We walk in and take a sit there are a lot of men here.
Old man: Who are these people Asanda?
Asanda: Grandpa they are here to pay damages.
Oldman: Damages yamasimba!(damages for shit?)
Man: Hello please introduce yourself gentlemen.
Luyolo: We are Luyolo Kwanele and Mandisi Lukhele, we
come from Durban as you can see your daught
er is pregnant we are here to apologise and pay damages.
Man: I am Asanda's father, so your son is responsible for this
pregnancy?
He looks really like my age mate man, this is bad.
Me: No I am responsible.
Man: What!?
He get up and stand in front of me we hear people ululating
outside.
Man: Your husband is here Asanda.
Asanda: I don't have a husband dad.
More men walk in and sit down there is the other one who
looks good, way younger and he is wearing a traditional
outfit.
Man: Our in laws welcome.
Inlaw: Why are you not welcoming us on this special event?
Man: We have a problem our daughter came home pregnant
and she came with the father of her child.
Youngman: What?Asanda?
Asanda: Wanda what are you doing here?
So I guess the young man is Wanda.
Wanda: I am your husband.
I chuckle.
Asanda:No you're not, I am pregnant you see.
She says turning to look at him.
Wanda:Uhm that's ok I guess they can pay damages and take
the baby once he/she is born.
Asanda looks at me with tears in her eyes.
Asanda: Can I talk to you please.
She take my hand and we walk out, she hugs me tight.
Asanda: Please talk to dad and tell him to take back their
Lobola money please Sir.
Me: You don't wanna get married?
She look at me.
Asanda: You want to take the baby away from me?you just
want the baby from me?
She moves away but I pull her back.
Me: Call your dad for me then.
She nods and rush in she comes out with her father.
Duma: Come this way.
Duma is Asanda's surname.
We sit under the tree Asanda is next to me.
Me: Mthombeni please don't let her get married if she
doesn't want to.
Duma: And who are you to tell me what I shouldn't do in my
father's home.
Me: My name is Kwanele Lukhele.
Duma: They already paid lobola.
Me: Please take it back, she will get married when she's
ready, I will pay everything for her and the baby.
Duma: So you took her innocence?
Me: Yes.
Duma: Why? You are older than her..
Asanda: He loves me dad and he is looking after me.
Duma: But Wanda is a good boy you grew up together.
Asanda: But I don't love him, I love Kwanele please dad.
Duma: Are you ever gonna marry her?
Me: Yes I will when she is ready for marriage for now please
accept the damages and take back that Lobola money sir.
Duma: Asanda your grandfather will be disappointed.
Asanda: Dad this time be your own man don't allow grandpa
to make you do this, he has done it so many times but don't
allow him to use you anymore.
Duma: So we will tell them you are coming back Lukhele to
pay Lobola?
Me: Yes please and they can't seperate a baby from the
mother.

Duma: Ey ok Lukhele I hear you let's go back in..

We walk in and Asanda sits next to me and take my hand.
Duma: Ngcobo, Mapholoba we are sorry but we have to
decline your Lobola and cancel this day, the Lukhele's are
here to pay damages and they will come back soon to pay
Lobola.
Asanda's grandfather jump up and look at his son.
OldMan: No Asanda is getting married today.
Duma: No father, she is my daughter and she loves him not
this boy and it's time I put my children's happiness first and
stop listening to you making decisions for me and my kids.
Oldman: You are talking to me like that in front of strangers
huh..
Duma: I am sorry Dumisa but we are cancelling this and
accepting the damages from the Lukhele family.
Asanda: Thank you.
She whispers to me, I nod smiling at her.
We pay damages which costed a lot of money and the old
man left the room with the Ngcobo family.
Then we walk out.
Asanda: I am not staying dad I have work.
Duma: He allows you to work I thought he is making you his
housewife there in Durban.
Asanda: No dad I still stay in my own place.
Duma: Good do that until he pays lobola for you.
She nods looking down.
Duma: Thank you for doing the right thing Lukhele, man our
age get little girls pregnant then run away but you are here,
thank you.
Me: Thank you for cancelling that wedding, she won't be
getting married to anyone but me.
I feel my brothers eyes on me.
Duma: Travel safe and keep my daughter safe all the time.
Me: I will.
We drive back to Durban and we get there late, I drive in my
brothers say goodbye to Asanda and walk in.
Me: Let me take you to your place.
I drive out and we walk in, she go to her room while I sit on
the couch, she come back and sit opposite me.
Asanda: Thank you for today, for pretending that you love
me.
I look at her as she smiles awkwardly.
Asanda: Uhm goodnight.
I pull her to my lap.
Me: What will happen when your father demands Lobola?
Asanda: We will come up with an excuse I don't want to get
married to a man who is still in love with his wife.
I look away.
Asanda: We shouldn't even be doing this Kwanele, so it's
over, we should stop, I am hurting myself because now I do
feel something for you but you don't feel anything for me.
I look down.
Asanda: You will be part of the baby's life, you can come here
everyday but we won't be doing anything anymore.
I nod a little.
Me: I'm sorry.
Asanda: It's ok I am not sad.
She says blinking rapidly.
Sunny: Kwanele..
We both jump up I look at Asanda she look terrified.
Me: You can see her?
She step back until her back hits the counter.
Me: Sunny what are you doing here?
Sunny: I came to say goodbye If I don't leave now I will be
stuck here.
Me: No baby you said you are giving me time.
Sunny: I don't have any left baby J am sorry.
Me: No!!
Sunny: Asanda look after him and don't stop loving him
please.
Me: No Sunny I don't want people to look after me I want
you to stay for me.
Sunny: Bye Kwanele I love you so much baby stay happy
always my love.
She slowly waves and vanish..
I rush out and run to my car and drive home, I go straight to
my house.
Me: Please tell me you're still here Sunny!
Silence.
Me: You promised to give me time!I am not ready Sthandwa
sam please come back..
But she doesn't show up..
Me: No..no..Sunny please baby just come back one more time
please..just show yourself one last time, let me hug you for
the last time baby..
I feel cold breeze hitting my whole body and she stands in
front of me with tears in her eyes.
Sunny: This is goodbye my love.
I step closer to her and hug her tight, I can feel her..
Me: Please don't go sthandwa sam.
Sunny: I can't..I will visit you in your dreams babe and I will
look over you always.
I try to touch her but I can't feel her anymore.
Me: Sunny please don't go..
She smiles
Sunny: Bye Kwanele wam..
Me: I will do anything just to have you back please..
I go on my knees but she slowly vanish..
Me: No!
I scream shaking my head.
Me: I am sorry for whatever I did God I am sorry just give me
my wife back.
Ziyanda: Bhuti..
Me: Ziyanda tell God to bring her back come on..
Ziyanda: She is gone?
Me: Yes..
Ziyanda: I'm so sorry.
I get up and go to my room.
Me: Sunny stop playing games and come back please talk to
me.
I get in bed and cry my heart out, but she doesn't come back.
In the morning I wake up and look around hoping to see her
but she is not here. I go take a shower then sit next to her
grave and kneel down.
Me: It's not fair, all of this is not fair but rest in peace my love
I will always love you.
I go back in my house and find my phone ringing it's doctor
Cele.
Me: Nande..
DrCele:I am calling to ask if you know that Asanda was
aďmitted here last night.
Me: No..is she okay?
DrCele: She was bleeding a little but she is fine and the baby
too.
Me: Thank you for letting me know I am coming.
I drive to the hospital and walk in her ward, I find her crying,
I sit down and take her hand.
Me: I am sorry about yesterday.
Asanda: You are keeping your wife here that is why you slept
with me thinking I was her..
Me: She is gone.
Asanda: I'm sorry.
I nod.
Asanda: You have to stay away from me, I will update you
about the baby via texts.
Me: Yeah sure I understand.
I get up and kiss her forehead brushing her tummy.
Me: You guys be good ok.
She nods.
I walk out and drive back to my house, I take the chair and
sit on my backyard in front of Sunny's grave. I am a broken
man and I have nothing to give to that girl but heartache, she
is better off without me.

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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KWANELE
*
This has been the hardest two weeks of my life without my
wife, all I do is wake up take a shower and go sit at the
backyard and today is no difference, I take the chair and go
sit at the backyard.
Me: I miss everything about you, the smile, the jokes, the
walk, the way you talk everything Sunny but we will meet
again right.
My phone vibrates in my pocket and it's Asanda I last heard
from her when she told me she was out of the hospital.
I view the WhatsApp message and it's an audio I download it
and it's a song by Labrinth- Jealous.
There is a part in it that goes like
"I wished you the best of all this world could give and I told
you when you left me there's nothing to forgive but I always
thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
hearbreak and misery, it's hard for me to say I am jealous of
the way you're happy without me."
I listen to it till the end and bury my face in my hands and let
the tears fall.
After a while the phone vibrates again and I look at it.
Asanda: *People interpret that song differently I want you to
tell me right here how you interpret the song I just sent.*
I huff.
Me: *I am jelous that she will be at peace while I am
miserable without her, I do wish she could come back and
tell me that she isn't happy there and she prefers to be here
with me, the song is speaking to me.*
She reads the text then I see she is typing.
Asanda: *But she is happy and at peace don't you want that
for yourself too because that is what she wanted, she told
you right?*
Me: *I am trying.*
Asanda: *Try harder, your son will need a father not a
broken man who is filled with jealousy.*
I wipe my face.
Me: *Are you at work mommy?*
Asanda: *No, you want to take me out for lunch at KFC?*
I smile chuckling.
Me: *You want hot wings?*
Asanda: *I do I was about to drive there but if you offer to
take me I won't say no.*
Me: *Give me 15 minutes and don't wear jeans little one.*
Asanda: *I won't.*
I smile shaking my head, I listen to the song again then walk
inside the house and get dressed, I drive to her flat and call
her to come out.
Asanda: Hey.
Me: I am outside your flat.
Asanda: I am coming.
I see her coming out she is wearing a short black dress and
she looks way shorter today, I step out and hug her then
open the door for her.
I drive to a KFC in town we order then go sit down after
taking our order, she is eating wings while I eat real meat.
Me: When is our next appointment?
Asanda: The day after tomorrow.
I nod and watch her as she finish all 8 wings she said I
should buy.
Me: You want more?
She look down and nod a little.
I stand up and go buy another 8 and give it to her.
Asanda: Thank you, they taste so good man.
Me: I can see the faces you make there.
She smiles and look at me.
Asanda: I want to stay away you know..
She look down.
Asanda: But I can't..tell me if you want me to stay away.
Me: I don't want you to.
Asanda: So I can call you anytime?
Me: Even in the middle of the night.
She nods.
Me: Thank you for the words you spoke to me earlier and
thank you for that song.
Asanda: My pleasure.
Me: Ever heard that if you eat hot stuff while pregnant a
baby cries a lot?
She widens her eyes.
Asanda: What but I won't know what to do with a baby that
cries a lot, do you think I should stop eating wings?
The look on her face is priceless she is panicking.
Me:Little one calm down ok, I am sure it's just a myth all
babies cry.
Asanda: But if he cries louder than normal.
Me: I will be there as his father to calm him down.
Asanda: So you think I should continue eating my wings?
Me: Yes you should.
She starts eating the wings and we buy more for later and
drive to her flat.
Me: Can I come in and watch you sleep?
Asanda: Yeah.
We walk in and she starts by taking a shower then come
back wearing a short nightdress.
Me: Should I switch on the fan?
Asanda: Yes please, are you gonna sleep over?
Me: If you want me to.
Asanda: Please sleep over.
I nod and take off my clothes, I hold her closer to my arms
and close my eyes.
Asanda: Do you want to talk about her?
Me: No.
Asanda: I want to get to know her through you.
Me: What do you want to know because I could write a book.
Asanda: I have seen her I know she was pretty and elegant I
have interviewed her a couple of times but how was she like
at home?
Me: She was always making jokes some were just cold but
because of the faces she made you'd end up laughing, she
wasn't afraid of cussing and chasing me out if I made her
angry.
Asanda: Let me show you something.
She get up and come back with a phone that she once left in
my house.
She plays the video of Sunny dancing, it's funny because she
can't really dance and Mbali is next to her.
Sunny: Asanda I will kill you if you show that video to the
public baby but continue..
I smile looking at Asanda.
Me: When was this?
Asanda: It was behind the scenes, I was interviewing them
about their recent collections earlier this year.
She plays another video where they were putting make up
on her and Mbali.
Sunny: I am Kwanele Lukhele's wife honey , I
will make this town too small for all of you..
People are laughing next to her.
Me: Wait is she trying to imitate me here?
Asanda: I heard you saying the exact same words to Bonga
the other day.
I laugh so hard and shake my head.
Asanda: See, you should be like this when you think of her,
smile, laugh be happy because from what I have seen she
was a very free spirited happy woman everyone wanted to
be around her.
Me: Including you?
Asanda: Yeah I was always happy when I was given an
opportunity to meet with her and Mbali they were a bad
combination in a good way though.
I pull her to me and hug her tight.
Me: Thank you so much, I needed this.
Asanda: I know.
Her other phone rings she answers on speaker.
Asanda: Dad..
Duma: So you don't call Asah are you angry at me for what I
did?
Asanda: No I am not Lwandle if anything I am proud of you
for standing up to grandpa.
Duma: I had to do it at some point thank you for giving me
courage, where is Lukhele?
Asanda: Uh he is here.
Duma: Is he treating you like a princess that you are?
She smiles looking at me
Asanda: Yes dad he buys me wings and bread.
I laugh.
Duma: Lukhele how are you?
Me: I'm good how are you Sir?
Duma: Good uhm I need to talk to you in private Asanda will
give you my number, call me tomorrow.
Me: Ok I will call.
Asanda: Dad I hope you won't be rushing him about uhm you
know that Lobola business.
He chuckles.
Duma: No this is men talk, goodnight Princess.
Asanda: Goodnight Duma.
She is smiling like a pretty little girl she is.
Me: Daddy's girl.
Asanda: Yes I am the youngest from the three, it's my
brother, a sister then I am the last born.
Me: Sweet..
We go to bed and she falls asleep first I watch her then close
my eyes.
I am with Sunny at home she is smiling at me.
Me: Yini?(what?)
Sunny: See there is this Kwanele I want to see.
Me: Do you think it will work?
Sunny: If you do things right yes, I love you Lukhele.
Me: I love you too.
I wake up when I feel Asanda move.
Me: Hey are you ok?
Asanda: I need the bathroom.
I move away from her and she go to the bathroom then come
back.
Me: How did you feel when you found out you were
pregnant?
Asanda: So I had fainted from work and they took me to the
hospital and when the nurse told me I am pregnant I
screamed so loud they had to admit me right there after that
they told me about the options which one of them was
abortion but I refused.
Me: Thank you for not doing it.
Asanda: Yeah hey but I was so scared I thought you will kill
me or force me to abort because you love your wife.
Me: I would never do that.
Asanda: Ok you're not hungry?
Me: Don't involve me in your issues of eating at 2am please.
Asanda: It's called support, I need your support.
Me: Nobody needs support for eating little one don't be
smart.
She laughs and walk out she comes back with her wings.
Me: What were you gonna do if you didn't find them in the
kitchen.
Asanda: Someone was going to run around this town like a
headless chicken.
I laugh.
Me: You are not scared of me anymore I see..
Asanda: I am trying to help you heal, I don't want another
woman to do it.
Me: Why not..
Asanda: Uhm I..sorry I shouldn't have said that.
Me: But you said it, now answer.
She breathes looking down.
Asanda: Because i'm afraid they will take you away from us.
Me: I am old I don't play around anymore.
Asanda: But the other day you allowed Xolo to kiss you in my
office.
Me: Oh I am so sorry about that but she caught me off guard.
Asanda: Ok..
Me: I saw you crying after that, were you jealous?
Asanda: What!?no..
Me: Mmm I know I am the hottest old man around.
She giggles.
Asanda: What about your brothers they look good!
Me: This is about me baby don't talk about those men.
She laugh.
Asanda: Let's go back to bed I am done eating.
Me: Do you get horny?
She stares at me.
Me: what! I heard that pregnant women get horny all the
time.
She look away..
Me: You do right?
She shrug her shoulders.
Me: Ever felt a tingle feeling down on your clit where you
just want to squeeze your thighs together..
I see her moving them close, I chuckle..
Me: Want me to teach you something?
She nods.
Me: Take off everything you're wearing..
She slowly take it off and I take off my shorts and pull her on
top of me.
Me: Put it in slowly and tell me if it's in too deep..
Her hands are shaking she slowly touch my dick and slowly
put it in her tight walls..her hands are on my chest and she is
shaking her eyes are closed.
Me: Open your eyes little one.
She look at me.
Me: I want you to move allowing my dick to touch that
spot..you will know what spot, be gentle not to hurt yourself
ok.
She nods and start moving slowly she seems afraid, I hold
her waist and move her after a while she starts moaning
while biting her lower lip, she up the pace I let go of he waist
she continue to move on her own.
Me: Don't stop until you reach that happy ending baby..yes..
She moves faster with her hands still on my chest..
Me: Yes..shit..
She moves faster and I feel her inner walls clenching on me I
cum as I watch her biting her lower lip breathing heavily
looking up, I pull her to me and kiss her.
Me: You were great, I can't believe you made me cum on
your first time on top.
She hides her face with her hands.
I let her sleep next to me and we fall asleep till the morning.
I feel her moving around I open my eyes, I see that she is in a
rush and
is already dressed.
Me: Hey..
Asanda: Hi.
Me: Where are you going?
Asanda: To work just for two hours.
Me: Ok.
Asanda: You can lock if you want to go but I would like to
come back to you.
She says in a low voice.
Me: I will wait for you here.
Asanda: Thanks, bye.
She walk to the door.
Me: You can give me a goodbye kiss.
She slowly come back and kiss my cheek fast but I kiss her
lips instead then let her go.
I wake up and go open the tv while I make a sandwich then
sit in front of the tv, I see that there is a strike somewhere in
town and there are police there shooting at the protesters.
I look closely I can see this little girl in there with a
microphone talking to someone
Me: I am going to kill that little girl..I am gonna kill her..
I try calling her phone but it rings unanswered, I sigh
shaking my head.
My phone rings it's Mandisi.
Mandi: Bro where are you?do you know where Asanda is?
Me: I am looking at her now, I am going to kill that little
miss..she said she is going to work I thought she was talking
about the office!
Mandi: Looks like she will give you a run around huh..
He laughs.
Me: Yeah hey.
Mandi: Just look at her not intimidated at all.
I chuckle.
Me: She doesn't care alright..
Mandi: So are you good?
Me: I am trying and she is keeping me sane, she may be
young but the things she talks make sense.
Mandi: Young one with wisdom.
Me: Yep, I will see you guys later.
Mandi: Sure I love you brother.
Me: I love you little bro.
I eat then sleep on the couch facing up, after an hour I hear
the keys turning and I continue to close my eyes, I feel her
standing next to me then feel her lips on mine then walk
away..
Me: Hey!
Asanda: But..I thought you were sleeping.
Me: No I am not, come here..
I sit up and she sit down.
Asanda: I am sorry.
Me: For what?
Asanda: For going to a crowded place while I am pregnant.
Me: Why did you go?
Asanda: I was called to cover that protest.
Me: And you didn't tell me huh?
Asanda: You were gonna stop me..
Me: Oh so you know?
Asanda: Sorry.
Me: That's not good enough Asanda.
Asanda: I promise I won't do it again baba kaJunior. (junior's
father)
And didn't she melt my heart right now, I find myself
smiling.
Me: You didn't give me your dad's number.
Asanda: I forgot.
She gives me the number and go to her room.
I dial the number and call him.
Duma: Hello.
Me: Hi it's Lukhele here.
Duma: Oh yeah how are you?
Me: I am good.
I see Asanda in the kitchen eating while cooking I smile to
myself.
Duma: So I am calling for the safety of my grandchild there.
Me: Yeah..
Duma: I need you to protect them spiritually.
Me: Uhm is everything ok?
Duma: No, they want to kill the baby they believe it is the
only thing that ties you with Asanda.
Me: They want to what!?
I see Asanda looking at me I calm myself down.
Me: Those men who wanted Asanda to marry their son?
He sighs.
Duma: Yes and my father.
I nod rubbing my beard.
Me: Ok I have someone I can talk to.
Duma: Move fast Lukhele ok..
Me: Yes thank you for the heads up.
I drop the call and heave a sigh,I cannot afford to lose this
baby ever.
I get up and wash her cook it smells really good.
Asanda: Was that dad?
Me: Yeah.
Asanda: What was it all about?
Me: Nothing to worry yourself about.
She finish cooking and dish up for us, we sit down and start
eating.
Me: So you can cook huh?
She smile.
Asanda: I try.
Me: I really don't like sneaky people Asanda don't ever do
anything like that again ok.
She nods.
Me: I have to go now.
Asanda: Can't you go tomorrow please.
Me: Why not now?
Asanda: I will get bored the whole day.
Me: Come with me then, uhm we will sleep at my father's
house then bring you back in the morning.
Asanda: I..I can't.
Me: You will be with me all the time ok
Asanda: You won't make me meet your family right?
Me: You already know them.
Asanda: No I don't, don't make me feel bad for being a
journalist Sir.
I laugh.
Me: Go pack the clothes you will wear tomorrow for our
appointment little one.
She go to the room and I follow her shortly to wear my shirt
and shoes, I take her bag and her hand and we walk out,
there is something I feel for her I don't think it's love yet I
just think maybe I am overprotective of her because she is
just a kid, I don't know.
I drive home and park in front of my father's house I can see
Mbali looking at me shaking her head as I step put of the car
with Asanda, we walk in and I show her my room because
she doesn't want to sit in the lounge.
I take the beer from the fridge and Mbali comes in and stand
behind me.
Mbali: Why did you bring her here Kwanele?
Me: Mbali don't start with me.
Mbali: No tell me why is she here?
She is shouting looking so angry I ignore her and drink my
beer going to the room but I feel someone pushing me and
she goes to Asanda who look so scared sitting in bed.
Mbali: Take your shit and go now!
Me: You are really starting to piss me off Mbali.
Mbali: How much do you want because God knows I don't
understand how can a woman sleep with a man on a day of
his wife's burial, I don't unless it's for money so please sis
name your price or get the hell out.
My brother comes in and look at her.
Mandi: Mbali enough, the whole community can hear you
now.
Mbali: This girl want something!maybe a story..
Mandisi: A story about what Mbali?
Mbali: I don't want her here, she needs to go!
Asanda: Please take me back to my flat.
Mbali: Oh that's it, you want a place to stay huh rent isn't a
child's play we all know that..
Asanda get up and take her bag Mbali push her back, Mandisi
turns her around and slap her so hard I pull him back.
Me: Don't do that brother it's ok I will leave.
Mandi: No!this is not Mbali's house it's our father's you can't
go because of her.
Mbali: Let him take her to Sunny's house so I can burn that
house down with them in it.
I shake my head and take Asanda's hand and a bag, I walk
out with her, we get in the car and I drive her back to her
place and take her up to her room, I put her to bed, she is
crying.
Me: I'm sorry I didn't mean for you to be insulted like that, I
will come back later to sleep over ok.
She nods.
Me: Stop crying little one you will upset our boy.
Asanda: He is moving around.
She sleep facing up and I touch her tummy, he is really
moving I look down and wipe my eyes.
Me: Thank you, I will see you later.
I kiss her forehead and go to my house I shower and do my
routine, I sit where I usually sit, in front of Sunny's grave, I
see my family coming towards me and stand next to me.
Ntsika: When I didn't see you this morning I was so happy
thinking you are finally moving on but ..
He says with a shaky voice..
Me: I was trying..
Mandi: It's Mbali right?
I shake my head looking down.
Mbali: That girl is too young for you Kwanele.
Mandisi: And what has that got to do with you Mbali are you
our mother?you know what's best for everyone now?
Me: Just know that if I am not happy my wife won't be too.
Mbali: You cheated on her!
Me: I didn't know ok!you all saw her, she was always here so
when a woman came in that day I thought it was her!
Mbali: But now you know it wasn't her why are you still
following that little girl!
Me: Just leave me alone all of you go!
They walk away I get on my knees.
Me: I am really trying Sthandwa Sam but they won't let me,
that girl was willing to help me heal but they don't want her
here, I am weak now without you nobody listens to me
anymore they have lost all respect they had for me I feel like
a small boy now who everyone can dictate..
"I listen to you." sunny's voice says it's like it's deep within
me.
"You won't see me now but I am always watching over you."
I nod then get up and walk back inside the house pack a bag
and I go to Ziyanda's house there is noise Mbali and Mandisi
are arguing they do get loud when they argue.
Me: Where is your wife Ntsika?
Ntsika: Come.
I follow him to their room we find her holding Kayise.
Me: Hey can we talk?
Ntsoaki: Let me put this girl to sleep.
Ntsika: Let me take her.
He take the baby.
Me: Hi can you be able to do something for Asanda and the
baby if she was attacked by evil spirits now that she is
pregnant.
Ntsoaki: Yeah pregnant people are usually at high risk of
catching evil spirits so some put a rope around their waist or
on their ankles I can do the bracelets but since she is not a
Lukhele I need her here.
Me: Can we rather go to her flat I will bring you back.
Ntsoaki: Let me ask my husband first.
Ntsika: You can go baby.
She nods and take a small bag we walk out I drive to
Asanda's house and unlock the door and walk in, I find her
sleeping on the couch in her long pyjamas her wings are on
the floor looks like she fell asleep holding them.
I brush her cheek she open her eyes and look at me.
Asanda: You are here..
Me: Yeah I'm back.
She sit up and when her eyes lands on Ntsoaki she look
really uncomfortable.
Me: It's ok she is here to help.
Ntsoaki: Hey Asah.
Asanda: Hi.
Ntsoaki kneels and ask Asanda to do the same I remain
seated on the couch.
Ntsoaki: Help me with your clan names, ok?
Asanda: Duma, Mthombeni, Lwandle....
She continues while Ntsoaki does something with beautiful
white stones, the incense is all over this room people are
gonna wonder what's going on.
Ntsoaki: Give me your wrist don't take it off until you give
birth ok, it has style you see I tried?
They giggle.
Asanda: Thank you Sisi.
Ntsoaki: It's ok..
They get up she gasp when she see her wings down, I laugh.
Asanda: Wow that was the last of them!
She look dissapointed, she pick them up and throw them in
the bin.
Me: Let me take Ntsoaki home I will buy them when I come
back.
Asanda: Ok thanks, bye Ntsoaki.the
Ntsoaki: Bye.
We walk out and I drive Ntsoaki back home and find Mbali
standing on the veranda looking deep in thoughts.
Me: Thank you Ntsoaki I owe you, I am not coming in..
Ntsoaki: Yeah you need to go buy those wings or you will
find her crying..
I laugh.
Ntsoaki: I know what I am talking about.
She smiles and step out, now Mbali is staring at me, I reverse
my car and drive back to asanda's flat, buying hot wings on
the way.
My phone rings as I walk in it's Asanda's father.
Me: Mthombeni.
Duma: Lukhele have you done something about what we
discussed?
He sound like he is panicking.
Me: Yes they are good now.
He huffs.
Duma: Thank you.
Me: What is it?
Duma: I just had a bad feeling, where is she?
Asanda comes and take the paper bag from me, I put the
phone on speaker.
Me: She is here.
Duma: Asanda..
Asanda: Dad?
Duma: Stay safe ok all the time.
Asanda: Ok dad I will.
He drops the call and we sit down.
Me: I'm really sorry about earlier.
Asanda: It's ok I won't come near your family ever again.
I look at her as she eat those wings like they are the best
thing in the world.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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KWANELE
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I am on my way home I just took Asanda to the doctor then
to her office because she has work to do.
I step out of my car and find my main door opened I go to my
room and find Mbali taking out Sunny's clothes out of the
closet.
Me: What are you doing?
She pretends as if she didn't hear me at all.
Me: Mbali!?
She take the suitcases and throw them inside, I watch
everything she does standing by the door.
She wheels the first suitcase coming towards me then stop
infront of me.
Mbali: Move out of my way Kwanele..
She says staring deep in my eyes.
Me: Take those things back to my closet Mbali right now.
Mbali: You want to bring a bitch here right then do it without
Sunny's things around since you don't care about her
memory you didn't respect her enough you couldn't even
wait for at least a week to sleep with an outsider.
I look at her confused.
Mbali: You know our family is always under attack by you
bring in a stranger here.
Me: Take my wife's clothes back to her closet now Mbali!
Mbali: Or what?what you gonna do?
She comes closer to my face, she is wearing heels so she isn't
that short.
I step away from her shaking my head, maybe she wants to
see me grieve for sunny or run around naked I don't know.
I take out the gun and go sit on the couch.
Me: Take my wife's clothes back Mbali and don't let me
repeat myself.
I see her going back inside the room then she comes back
and stand infront of me.
Mbali: What you did is wrong I want you to acknowledge
that.
I show her the door she walk out.
I go back and put back all the clothes that she took out.
Later I go join everyone for dinner.
Me: Mandisi please ask your wife what she wants from me.
Mbali: I can speak for myself, I want you to show respect,
mourn your wife not running behind little kids.
Mandi: I think you need to go back home Mbali.
Mbali: For what?for telling him the truth, I am disgusted by
this whole thing, making another woman pregnant while his
wife's body hasn't turned cold yet!
Ziyanda: Mbali stop, hasn't he been hurt enough? Please stop
doing this to him you are hurting him more.
Mbali: So I should pretend that I am happy!
Ziyanda: No let him be he doesn't need your opinion.
Mbali: Don't talk to me like that Ziyanda.
Ziyanda: You are being unreasonable, what do you want him
to do?neglect Asanda while she is carrying his child?were
you going to be happy if Mandisi did that to you when you
were pregnant with Lwandle huh?
Mbali: That's different he wasn't married to anyone, no vows
were broken look at him, he sleep with that girl while
wearing his wedding ring!disgusting..
I look at my ring and my heart clench, maybe she is right
about sleeping with Asanda while I am wearing my wife's
ring.
Ntsika: Aunt Mbali I don't mean no disrespect but we've
heard you now please stop making him feel guilty Aunt
Sunny told us she did this and explained why she did it, can
you give her the respect and accept her choice, she chose
Asanda for him.. let it go.
Mbali: I will not accept that little girl.
Ntsika: She is not for you to accept really..
Ziyanda: Ntsika..
Ntsika: Oh but mom you know I am right, Uncle Kwanele is
the head of this family after Grandpa so I don't get why
people would think he needs anyone's approval other than
Aunt Sunny who approved of Asanda and we were all there!
Mbali: That ghost wasn't Sunny and Ntsika please don't
challenge me boy..
He chuckles.
Ntsika: Do you have anyone in mind who can be suitable for
him Aunt then, tell us !?
I see a glass flying Ntsika blocks it and get up shaking his
head.
Ntsika: Why are you so angry!?
Mbali: Because I don't like what he did and if Mandisi were
to do it to me all hell would break loose.
Me: I am not Mandisi Mbali and me and you are not talking
from now on, I hate being disrespected, Ziyanda I am leaving
I will see you guys after a week, I need time away from all
this.
Mbali chuckles.
Mbali: Going to Asanda?
Me: Yes I am.
I stand up and go pack a small bag then go to my car, Ziyanda
knocks on my window.
Ziyanda: I'm sorry, looks like we are causing you more pain
now, I am sorry If Asanda is what you want then that's ok
you don't have to leave home.
Me: It's just for a week I will come back this is my home.
Ziyanda: Ok I love you.
Me: I love you too.
I drive to town and buy something to eat and not forgetting
hot wings and go to Asanda's flat.
I eat then go to bed, I wake up later when I hear the keys
turning on the main door I sit up she walk in and rush to me,
she hugs me tight crying.
Me: Hey what's wrong?
I brush her back she look at me.
Asanda: I am sorry it's just..I missed you.
Me: But I took you to work this morning.
Asanda: I know..i'm just being crazy.
Me: it's ok you can cry to me anytime..go freshen up I will go
get your favourite food in the kitchen.
Asanda: Thank you.
She take off her clothes slowly while I am watching her her
baby bump is growing.
Me: Where is the panty little one?
Asanda: I wasn't wearing any today I don't know if they are
small now or what, it makes me really uncomfortable.
Me: So you went to work without it?
Asanda: Yes..
Me: Mmm maybe I should visit your office once or twice a
week..
My dick is up already, I go to her and touch her breasts she
flinch.
Asanda: They hurt.
Me: Sorry..
I pick her up and kiss her..
Me: I want to make love to you..you want that..
Asanda: Yes..
I kiss her neck and put her down she look up at me.
Me: There is something about you..
I turn her around and place her hands on the wall, I caress
her butt and go down sucking her pussy from behind..then
get up and slide my dick in slowly she moans out loud.
Me: I don't think I will last long shit..you're too warm..
I go on for a while then pick her up and lay her in bed
moving faster..
Asanda: Kwanele..
She moans I cum groaning loud..
Me: Mm fuck..
I look at her she stares back at me she look tired.
Me: You called my name for the first time today.
She smiles.
I pick her up and we go take a shower then put her to bed
after making her wear warm pyjamas, I go to the kitchen to
get her food.
She eats then fall asleep immediately.
Me: I want to give you all my love little one, and I believe I
will one day.
She wakes up later and she insist we go watch her favourite
soapies while she eat chips sleeping on between my legs her
head on my chest.
I brush her tummy slowly.
Me: Are you going to breastfeed.
Asanda: Yes.
Me: Really? People your age don't like breastfeeding because
they believe it ruins the cleavage..
She laugh at me.
Asanda: Well someone has money he will help me do the
boob job after breastfeeding.
I laugh shaking my head.
Me: Natural birth or C-section?
Asanda: C-section.
Me: You have it all figured out hey little one.
Asanda: Yes I am going to be a mom soon.
Me: And I'm going to be a dad.
We chuckle and stay in silence.
Asanda: I love you.
She says so randomly, I want to say it back but I can't..
She get up and look at me.
Asanda; Sorry, you don't have to say it back,I just felt like
telling you how I feel.
I nod and pull her to my chest again.
We go to bed there is this awkward silence between us now.
Asanda: I didn't say it to upset you, i'm really sorry.
Me: I am not upset, uhm let's sleep.
She sleep giving me her back then I hear her sniffing.
Me: Asanda..
Asanda: Mmh.
Me: I'm sorry ok.
Asanda: It's okay I am not upset too.
Me: But you're crying I don't want you to cry.
Asanda: I'm not crying anymore.
She giggles, I move closer to her touching her stomach.
Asanda: You know I'm glad you didn't say it back because
you wouldn't be telling the truth so i'm not upset really.
I sigh.
Asanda: I know this baby matters to you more than anything,
I know you love him.
I close my eyes as my heart aches.
Me: I care about you Asanda.
Asanda: I know, that's why you're here, and that's enough
for me.
She falls asleep first and I get up and go sit on the couch for a
while, I hear footsteps then she sit on my lap hugging me.
Asanda: You miss her?
Me: Yes a lot.
Asanda: It will get better in time don't rush anything, I will
be here if you need me.
Me: Thank you, let's go to bed or you want to eat first?
She giggles holding me tight.
Asanda: Just one slice of bread and 1 wing.
I laugh getting up with her, I put her on the kitchen counter
and give her one slice of bread and one "wing" she stares at
me.
Me: What?
Asanda: I didn't mean one, one.
Me: Does one mean anything other than one?
She sighs dramatically.
Asanda: Please let me take it myself.
I give her the bread she take two more slices then two more
hot wings and start eating I shake my head laughing.
Asanda: I don't say what I mean.
Me: You mean you don't mean what you say.
Asanda: Same shit just mixed up phrases.
She laughs.
Asanda: Sorry..
I pick her up then we go to bed and sleep.
I smell coffee in the morning I open my eyes she is moving a
trey just above my head giggling.
I sit up she smiles sweetly.
Asanda: I made us breakfast.
She is wearing my tshirt it's too short because of a bump she
is cute.
Me: Let me use a bathroom first.
I go to the bathroom then sit next to her we eat a very
delicious breakfast.
Me: Thank you, you are a good cook you know.
Asanda: Living alone taught me to be a good cook, I couldn't
really eat bad food that is cooked by me.
I smile.
Me: We are a few months away from meeting our son, how
about we go and buy a few things he will need.
Asanda: Ok let's go.
She get up then scream so loud holding her stomach I
quickly get out of bed and make her sit in bed.
Me: What is wrong?
Asanda: I don't know..
I look at her wrist her bracelet is not there.
Me: Asanda where is the bracelet?
She look at her wrist.
Asanda: Maybe it fell in the bathroom or kitchen.
I rush to the bathroom it's not there, she is screaming in
pain.
I go to the kitchen and find it on the floor I rush back to her
and put it back on the wrist and move up the tshirt..I can see
the movements on the stomach then it stops, she has tears in
her eyes.
Me: Sorry baby..i'm sorry.
Asanda: It felt like it was going to burst out of my tummy.
Me: Yeah those movements were scary..make sure you
always have it on baby ok.
Asanda: Yes I didn't realise it fell off.
Me: It's okay, rest a bit we will wake up later.
She nods I tuck her in and take the plates back to the kitchen
and wash them the sleep next to her, brushing her baby
bump.
We are getting ready to go to the mall and she is sitting in
bed looking sad.
Me: What is it?
She get up.
Asanda: Look at me I can't wear my dresses and look good
anymore, there is this little porcupine in here.
Me: You are calling my son a porcupine?
Asanda: A little one yes.
Me: That animal is scary.
Asanda: No it's not, it's a cute little thing.
I shake my head.
We drive to the mall.
I hold her hand as we in the mall we walk in the baby stores
and buy a few clothes then we go to adults shop.
Me: Want to buy new panties babe that won't make you
uncomfortable?
She giggles and nod.
She buys a few and we pay, I feel a camera flashing in front
of us, she stares at me.
Asanda: No..
She rush out leaving me there i follow her and find her in the
car I drive us back home.
Me: It will be okay little one don't worry.
Asanda: Bloody journalists!
I laugh.
Me: That's what a lot of people say about you little one.
I go to the room to put the plastic bags down then go back i
find her ontop of a chair looking for god knows what..
Me: You're testing me..
Asanda: Hey please hold these plates for me.
Me: Put those plates back and get your ass down right now!
She smiles.
Asanda: But I already have them.
Me: Sunny what did you do..
I say through my teeth.
Me: Asanda!
Asanda: Come hold the plates for me phela!
I breathe out loud and put her down and look at her.
Me: You know I have a gun I can give you your wish fast..
Asanda: What wish?
Me: You wish to die!what were you doing up there?
Asanda: You make it sound like it was really high up.
I chuckle.
Me: Yhoo..
Asanda: Haven't used my plates for ages..
She look so happy about it yet here I am angry that she was
up on that chair. She starts cooking while humming a happy
song I am watching her, she is beautiful.
Asanda: Are you still mad that I climbed on the chair?
Me: Yes! You should have asked me.
Asanda: Sorry I won't do it again.
Me: You better not!
We eat food then watch tv, her phone rings She look at me.
Asanda: Xolo.
Xolo: You are trending huh..
She drops the call and scroll through her phone and she
shows me a picture of me and her then a headline..
"IS KWANELE LUKHELE HER FATHER OR THE FATHER OF
HER UNBORN BABY??"
Her phone rings again.
Asanda: It's my boss.
She answers.
Asanda: Hello ma'am.
Boss: We write headlines we don't make them.
Asanda: I know I am sorry.
Boss: You are the best in my team so fix this, meet with
Thuto tomorrow and clear the confusion.
Asanda: Yes..yes ma'am.
She look at me and sigh.
Asanda: I don't want to lose my job.
Me: You won't let's meet this thuto tomorrow ok.
She nod.
The next day we are sitting on the couch in their studio and
they are fixing the cameras.
Asanda: I am so scared I have never been in this position.
Me: Now you will feel the heat we always feel when you
roast us with those questions.
Asanda: You're not helping.
I wipe her sweat on the forehead.
Me: Relax ok.
She nods.
Thuto: Good morning ladies and gentlemen we are live today
with one of our very own youngest journalist in Durban
Asanda Duma with Mr Kwanele Lukhele the son of the well
known Former Station commamder The big dog Bongani
Lukhele, he is also a business man with his brothers,
welcome.
I nod.
Thuto: So yesterday you were caught on camera holding
hands and the baby bump was visible from morghel so we
want to know Mr Lukhele are you her father or are you the
father?
Me: I am the father.
I say proudly.
Thuto: But aren't you a bit older?
Me: I am but who put age restrictions on relationships.
Thuto: Oh so you're in a relationship?
Me:Yes.
Looks like someone is saying something on the crew.
Thuto: Oh ladies and gentlemen our special guest is here
welcome the beautiful Mrs Mbali Lukhele.
I look at Asanda then back at Mbali I didn't expect her here.
Thuto: Welcome ma'am so yesterday we saw your tweet
saying and I quote "me and my family don't know anything
about the baby or that Asanda other than that she's just a
little journalist"
Me: Next time use words like "My family and I."
Thuto:Wooah that's some shade.
Mbali: It doesn't matter.
Thuto: So You don't know about this?
Mbali: No what I think happened here is that Kwanele saw a
pregnant girl with a fatherless child then stepped up and
wanted to take the role since he couldn't have a baby with
his wife.
I groan a little I am getting angry.
Thuto: Sir is this true?
Me: No, Asanda and I made love and this was the result, our
baby boy.
Mbali: That means you cheated if we count those months or
wait maybe you slept with her on the day of your wife's
burial.
I look at her smiling.
Thuto: Asanda were you having an affair with Mr Lukhele
while the wife was still alive.
Asanda: No.
Mbali: Mmm then tell us how did this relationship come
about and when?
Asanda: He is a journalist not you and I didn't come here to
be questioned by you, you know I would say you want him to
yourself but then you are married to his younger brother
that wouldn't make sense, right?
The little journalist is out to play she is staring at Mbali with
that fierce look.
Mbali: Little girl we all know that Kwanele failed to get his
wife pregnant for years so how come you miraculously got
pregnant?
I hold Asanda's hand tight, she knows what the problem was
but she is taking Sunny's situation as a joke now.
Thuto: Mr Lukhele you have something to say?
Me: I hate to talk about this but I feel like I have to now, my
wife and I tried to have a baby for years we were failing we
went to the doctors and we found the problem was her.
I look down.
Mbali: Yet we found out she actually had a daughter so the
problem was you.
I chuckle nodding.
Me: Why are you really here Mbali? To try and humiliate me
and my wife huh?
Mbali: I came here to clear my friend's name from the shame
you caused her in her death.
Me: Ok are you satisfied now?
Mbali: Not yet, I will be when you go back to the Kwanele we
know who loved his family who wouldn't leave his home to
stay at some stinking flat in town.
Asanda get up and walk out.
Me: Thank you Thuto and when Asanda gives birth we will
do DNA rests to satisfy all of you.
I get up and walk out I find Asanda crying in Mandisi's arms.
Mandi: I'm sorry brother, I just came here because I saw
Mbali there I didn't even know she was coming here.
Me: It's ok come here little one.
I hug her then wipe her tears.
Me: It's ok I will alway be here ok for you and our boy.
Mandi: Mbali I want you to go home now pack your shit and
leave my house!
He get in his car and drive off.
I get in the car and drive to Asanda's flat, she goes straight to
bed.
Later I wake her up and give her food.
Me: It will all be ok.
She nods.
Me: Let me go home for a while i'll come back.
I drive home and find chaos Mandi is throwing Mbali's stuff
out and she is cussing at him.
Mbali: I am not leaving!
Ziyanda: Hey bhuti.
Me: Hey baby sis you good?
Ziyanda: how are you after that stunt Mbali pulled.
Me: Ah it's all good.
I walk closer to Mandisi and hold his hands.
Me: Calm down.
He is shaking turning pink he look a lot like Ziyanda now..
Me: Don't make her leave because of what she said to me, I'm
ok it's all good.
Mandi: She has no respect!she needs to leave maybe she will
come back to her senses..leave before I make you!
He starts dragging her out of the gate and drive her car out.
Mandi: Dare come back here, I will kill you..
She is crying her lungs out, Ziyanda is just watching quietly
not saying a word.
We walk in and sit down, everyone is inside I don't know
why they didn't involve themselves in this or maybe Mandisi
told them not to, I know when my brother is angry he
breathes fire.
Me: So uhm guys I want my son to be born a Lukhele.
Luyolo: Yeah.
Me: Both him and his mother.
He smiles.
Luyolo: You want to marry her?
Me: Yes but I want a traditional wedding then we will sign in
court, so I want you to go pay Lobola for her.
Luyolo: Ok tell us the date and time.
Me: I will let you know.
I go back to her flat and get in.
Me: Little one, would you like to be my wife one day?.
Asanda: If it happens that one day you love me but for now
no, I wouldn't marry a man who doesn't love me.
Me: I do, just can't say it yet because I feel like I am betraying
my wife.
Asanda: Ok.
Me: Asanda..I..
I huff.
Me: I love you.
She stares at me.
Me: I mean it, so please tell your father that I am coming to
make you a Lukhele.
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
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KWANELE
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This is the 6th month and we are driving from the Doctor
going to eat lunch out.
A waiter takes our order and she smile looking at me.
Me: What baby?
Asanda: I am happy you want me to be your wife.
Me: Yep we are two days away from making you Mrs
Lukhele.
She smiles.
Me: Today you're sleeping alone, I have to see if my outfit is
all good and if it fits.
Asanda: It's ok.
Me: You will be okay?
Asanda: Yes I will eat then go to bed.
Me: You know maybe I should go with you then later after
you fall asleep I will go home.
Asanda: Thank you so much for everything.
Me:No thank you, you are giving me so much little one, a son,
your youth and the rest of your life that's a lot.
Asanda: Let's go, he is kicking me like crazy.
I take her hand we go to my car and drive to her place, we
get there she take a shower and we get in bed.
Me: Little one.
Asanda: Lukhele.
I smile, she is so scared of saying my name she only says it
when she is caught in that moment.
Me: I need to do a ceremony for Sunny and our daughter
before you can stay with me.
Asanda: That's okay.
Me: I love the way you respect me, but you can call my name
you know.
Asanda: No..you are still older than me so I can't.
Me: But you do call it when I have my dick buried deep in
you.
Asanda: Don't say that..
I laugh and hold her tight.
Me: Don't freak out when you wake up without me next to
you okay, I will be home.
Asanda: Ok..
She says in a low voice and next thing she is fast asleep.
I kiss her lips and get up wearing my shoes then walk out
locking the door.
I get home and start at Ziyanda's house.
Me: So is everything ready for the big day?
Ntsika: Yeah malume (uncle)we have everything and the
outfits too Andrea showed us everything earlier today.
I nod Mandisi looks like he doesn't want to be here.
Me: Can we talk little bro.
He nods and follow me to my house.
Me: I am sorry if I made your wife act this way, do you miss
her?
Mandi: I do but she has changed man and that's not the
Mbali I fell in love with so I won't be forcing things with a
woman I didn't marry.
Me: But are you happy for me?
He smiles.
Mandi: Of course I am happy, after everything, you found a
very young beautiful girl who is willing to start her life with
you as old as you are.
I laugh.
Me: Am I that old?
Mandi: Yes you are, dad will be here tomorrow morning.
Me: He will laugh at my ass for marrying such a young girl.
Mandi: Oh he will alright..
He leaves and go to his house, I go and drink bottled water
then go to my room..
I take off my shirt next thing I feel the whole room spinning,
I hold my head and sit in bed, it becomes worse I lay on my
back.
"Fight it my love, come on fight it!"
Sunny's voice shouts.
Me: Fight..fight what?
I see a woman approaching wearing Sunny's dress I know
it's not her, she get ontop of me her face is blur I can't see
anything clear.
"It's me and you my love, I will give you what you always
wanted, I am supposed to be yours."
Another familiar voice says.
Sunny: My love please wake up and fight, do it for your boy
Nele.
I slowly get up and push this woman on top of me hard then
fall down on the floor closing my eyes.
Ntsika: Come on open your eyes.
I look at him but my head is still spinning, I start vomiting
while sleeping facing up it comes out even with the nose I
feel like I'm dying.
Ntsika: Uncle Mandisi!
I hear footstep running then more coming my way I still feel
the urge of vomiting, I keep gagging.
Ziyanda: What happened to you, bhut'Mandisi get the
car!Stay with me.
Me: Ziyanda..
I feel like my intestines are burning up..
Me: Ziyanda!
I groan in pain..
Ziyanda: I will help you ok, just stay with me..I can't lose you
too..
I feel some of them holding my legs then some my arms, then
the car moving.
Mandi: Can you hear me Kwanele?
I nod a little, shit hurts like crazy I keep groaning..
They take me to the hospital, I can see everything just a bit
blur, they put oxygen mask then I feel a needle on my left
arm then on my right..
Ziyanda: You gonna be okay..
I doze off..
I wake up when I hear a lot of noise around me but there is
this nagging mask on my face.
I slowly move my hand and take it off.
Mandi: Brother hey you're awake..
Me: Yeah, where is Asanda?
Mandi: We haven't called her we wanted to know how
serious this is, we didn't want her to panic.
I nod a little then try to get up but I can't feel my lower body,
my legs to be precise.
Me: What is happening to me?
A doctor and Ziyanda walk in and stand next to me.
Me: Ziyanda I can't feel anything from the waist down, my
legs why?
Doctor: Mr Lukhele we found a very dangerous drug in your
body we took it to a lab to find out what it is but there was a
high doze of it, this drug may have caused temporal paralysis
or permanent one.
I look at Ziyanda, she has tears in her eyes.
Me: What does that mean?
Doctor: It means you are paralysed but we are waiting for
the results from the lab..
I look up shaking my head.
Me: Call Asanda..
I look at the .
Me: I need a bathroom..can I use the bathroom while I can't
feel my legs?
Doctor: Yes you can do everything but your legs are the main
problem.
I nod and Mandisi and Ntsika get me to a wheel chair and
wheel me to a bathroom they help me up, I hold my penis
and pee.
They help me back to bed and I sleep facing up.
Ziyanda: Have you been using drugs to cope with Sunny's
death Kwanele?
I chuckle.
Me: No Ziyanda! I can't believe you would think that of me, I
was always with Asanda when I am not home, come on!
I shout this frustates me, Mandisi walk in with Asanda, she
rush in and hug me.
Asanda: What's wrong, you were fine yesterday?
Me: Apparently I am on drugs..
Ziyanda: I didn't say that bhuti I am just trying to make sense
of all this high dosage found on your system.
Me: Tell your father to cancel everything Asanda.
Asanda: Oh..
Me: I cannot feel my legs okay, I can't do shit!
She jumps as I shout..
Me: I'm sorry, but call your father and apologise or let my
brother call him.
I wipe my face.
Me: There was a woman in my house yesterday..
Ntsika: A woman?
Me: Yes, she was wearing my wife's dress I couldn't see her
face, she was on top of me, Sunny's voice told me to fight I
managed to push her off me..
They look at each other.
Me: Ziyanda can you test if the water have drugs?
She nods.
Me: Ntsika go get all the bottled water in my fridge take even
the one I drank yesterday and come back with it.
He nods and walk out, I look at Asanda she is wiping her
eyes.
Me: I'm so sorry..
Ziyanda walk out with Mandisi and Langa who just came in.
Asanda: People will laugh at me, I am sure the whole
community was waiting for my "big day."
Me: Are you blaming me for this Asanda, you think I like
this!?
I shout at her, she look at me then walk out..
Me: Asanda!
I call out but she doesn't stop, I wipe my face.
Ntsika walk in and sit next to me.
Ntsika: You will be fine, and you will marry Asanda.
Me: Not when I can't walk, she is pregnant what can she do
with an old man stuck in a wheelchair, cancel the whole
fuckme shit Ntsika!
Ntsika: Ok, i'm sorry this is happening to you, you just lost
aunt Sunny you don't deserve this.
Me: Maybe I do why would I experience it if it's not meant
for me?
Ziyanda walk back and sit down.
Ziyanda: We found the similar drug in all bottled water
Ntsika brought here bhuti.
Me: Were the bottles tightly sealed?
Ziyanda: I don't think so..
Ntsika: You think someone tried to drug you Uncle?
Me: Of course I do otherwise how would you explain the
water with drugs in it, and it's someone who knows me
bacuse everytime I walk in my house water is the first think I
drink even beer comes after water.
Mandisi walk in with Asanda who clearly was crying.
Mandi: Let's give them space.
They all get up and walk out.
Me: Little one I am sorry for shouting at you earlier it was
uncalled for.
She nod and take a seat.
Asanda: You know I can marry you even when you can't
walk...we can continue with the wedding.
Me: No, you deserve better.
Asanda: You are better, for me and our son.
I look at her.
Me: But how will your family react when I show up in a
wheelchair Asanda, they won't like this.
Asanda: Ok that's ok then I don't want to seem desperate by
pushing you to marry me, it's okay, let me call dad.
She dials the number..
Sunny: Don't let her cancel Nele..
I blink a couple of times.
Me: Stop..don't cancel our day, tomorrow you will become
Mrs Lukhele come rain or sunshine.
I smile.
Asanda: You mean that?
Me: I mean it little one.
She smiles.
I groan as I feel like my intestines are twisting in my belly.
Asanda: Should I call the doctor..
Me: Aaah..yes!
She get up and walk out, she comes back after a while with
Ziyanda, I am sweating all over my body.
Ziyanda: I think there are still drugs left in your system,
when drugs are consumed with water and alcohol they
become worse, I need to drain them again..
Me: Then hurry Ziyanda this shit is painful.
I feel like I am losing my breath again, she quickly put on the
oxygen mask, I close my eyes.
Asanda: I wish I didn't see you in pain like that, it hurts me..
She sniffs and giggles.
Asanda: Our son is kicking everytime I'm upset I think he
wants to remind me that no matter how upset I am I'm still
gonna be someone's mom a few months from now..
My eyes are still closed my arm feels heavy, I slowly open
them and look at my arm it's swelling up and there is a
needle in it.
Asanda: I love you, I love you so much how I wish you could
say it back meaning it, you only said it once when you told
me I should tell my father about becoming Mrs Lukhele, I
didn't feel it, you were just saying it.
I close them again, she didn't see that I am awake, what she
is saying hurts me but it's true haven't told her I love her
that much but she is supposed to marry me, where is the
truth in that.
Me: Asanda..
Asanda: Mmmh.
She is crying.
Me: I am sorry baby, I love you, I really do please believe
that.
Asanda: Ok.
Me: When last did you guys eat.
Asanda: Before I came here.
I nod.
Asanda: Uhm so..so is it working?
She stutters.
Me: What?
Asanda: Uhm your uhm..
She look scared I look at her she look down.
Asanda: I feel that tingle feeling right now..
I chuckle.
Me: You're horny.
She nods still looking down.
Me: But baby this is a hospital.
Asanda: I know, sorry..
I look down and it's up alright so my legs are the only thing
that are not working.
Me: There is your answer little one.
I move my eyes to the visible boner she gasp looking away..
Me: Check if you can lock the door.
She slowly get up and lock the door.
Me: You have to do all the work because my arm is occupied
and the situation with my legs.
She nods quickly and climb on the bed getting ontop of me
then lift the hospital gown I am wearing, she look nervous
yet willing..
Me: Fuck..
I curse as she eases herself down, her pussy swallowing my
whole dick, she starts moving slowly moaning out loud..
Me: Don't be too loud baby..
She moves a big faster the noise the bed makes but she
doesn't care she knows what she wants and she won't stop
until she gets it, I grab her ass with my free hand as she
bounce on me..
Asanda: Aaaah..yes..yes..
Me: Fuck yes baby...move for daddy..
She moves a couple of times then scream a bit loud and stop
moving I shoot my cum in her, she stay ontop of me for a
while then slowly move down..and search her bag, she wipes
herself then me and go to the bathroom, she comes back
after a while failing to keep eye contact.
She sit down and cover her face with her hands.
Asanda: I cannot believe I did that, why would you allow me
to do that..
Me: The rush, the fear that someone might want to walk in
here was fun, that was good!
She shakes her head.
Asanda: What if in that rush I hurt you huh what was I gonna
say I was doing?
Me: Uh fucking your husband to be.
Asanda: On the hospital bed!that's just nasty I can't believe
Asanda did that.
Me: That boy shouldn't come out if I'm gonna get such
quickies anywhere.
Asanda: You are embarrassing me even more, stop!
I laugh.
Me: I am marrying you tomorrow.
Asanda: But what if you feel that pain again tomorrow?
Me: We'll see baby.
She yawns.
Me: You're tired?
She nods.
Me: Sleep on that bed baby Ziyanda won't have a problem.
Asanda: Are you sure?
I nod.
Me: Unlock the door first then go sleep.
She unlock the door and get in another bed next to me and
close her eyes, I smile looking at her, she is pretty man.
I close my eyes and I see Sunny standing in a beautiful
garden I walk closer to her, she is wearing a white dress like
we're getting married.
Sunny: You are strong..
Me: I am?
Sunny: More than you think Lukhele and I want you to use
all your strength to fight for tomorrow.
Me: You think I can do it?
Sunny: I know you can you're my man!
I smile.
Me: You're beautiful.
Sunny: And so is my home, this place is peaceful.
Me: I am glad you are at peace.
Sunny: Now play your part of making me remain at peace
okay?
Me: Ok, I love you.
Sunny: Uthandwa imina. (you are loved by me)
I open my eyes and I see Asanda is still sleeping then the
door opens Ziyanda walk in.
Ziyanda: Aw man look how cute she look, she looks like a
baby.
Me: And so are you, what's your point?
She laughs.
Me: I know you want me to feel bad by pointing out that she
look like a baby, should I remind you of you and Luyolo.
Ziyanda: It's not the same, but you two are compatible..
Me: Thanks.
Ziyanda: We managed to drain all the drugs but you will still
feel pain from time to time in your stomach it almost
destroyed your intestines.
Me: What about my legs Ziyanda?
Ziyanda: I really can't say for now but we will keep checking
if you still can't feel anything.
Me: I am getting married tomorrow tell Ntsika that i'm not
cancelling the wedding anymore.
Ziyanda: Are you sure?
Me: Yes.
Ziyanda: Then you will get ready here bhuti because I can't
discharge you today.
My family walk in.
Ziyanda: The wedding is still on.
Ntsika: I knew it! that's why I didn't cancel shit!
Ziyanda smack him mouth.
Ntsika: Ouch!
Ziyanda: Uhm is Mbali coming?
She says moving her eyes to Mandi?
Mandi: No she's not!
Ziyanda: At least I have my sons's wives and Sfiso's mom.
Langa: Aunt Zenzile is here too mom.
he says laughing his lungs out.
Langa: This will be good!maybe we can pair her up with
grandpa.
We laugh causing Asanda to move then sit up.
Asanda: Why are you guys looking at me, do you know
something that I don't?
I laugh so hard thinking about what we did in here.
Ntsika: Do you have something you want to tell us?
Asanda: NO.
She says so fast causing everyone to laugh.
Ziyanda: You can come sleep in my house today.
Asanda: Uhm no..no I can't ma'am.
Mandi: She is not there, don't worry.
The room goes silent.
Mandi: We will ask Ntsoaki to fetch you later.
Asanda: Ok and you will sleep here?
Me: Yeah but I will be fine.
Asanda: Ok.
Me: Please buy hot wings for her Langelihle.
Langa: I could use with some too.
Nadia: Let me come with bro.
Me: Are you guys pregnant too?
They laugh wrapping arms around each other and walk out,
same person different genders those two!
Later they all go and leave me thinking.
Me: I will always keep this ring baby just not in this finger
anymore, I will always love you my beautiful wife.
I take off my wedding ring and put it on my right hand.
Me: I will always cherish the times we spent together.
I close my eyes and fall asleep.
Early in the morning I hear the door opening and Nkanyezi
and Ntsika walk in.
Me: What time is it?
Nkanyezi: "4:30 am"
Ntsika: Remember we still gonna shout our lungs out outside
the yard calling the clan names.
I smile.
Ntsika: You will wear ibheshu right now right?(a Zulu
traditional attire for men made out of animal skin)
I chuckle.
Me: Yes I am a Zulu man.
They walk out and come back with it then help me to the
bathroom I take a bath then they give me the cosmetics and
my shorts then help me back to bed.
I wear ibheshu then hold umqhele in my hand looking at it.
Me: You can wait for me outside boys.
They walk out, I look at the wheelchair and shake my head.
Me: Sunny said I must fight for this day so I refuse to use a
wheelchair on my wedding day.
I slowly try to move my legs but it feels like my body isn't
connecting with the legs at all, I try and try again..
Me: Come on Kwanele you can do this!
I move my right foot down by force and move the other one
then stand up, they shake a bit, I stand in one position until I
feel one with my legs I take a step and smile shaking my
head.
Me: Lukhele, Nzimande...
I walk out and find Ntsika and Nkanyezi standing by the door
they look shocked.
Me: We going to be late let's go..
Ntsika: But you couldn't walk..
Me: I pushed myself Son I had to.
They smile and give me hugs then we walk out I still feel
wobbly but I will be fine.
As as soon as I step out of the hospital Asanda step out of the
quantum bus and rush to me crying.
Asanda: You can walk?
Me: Yes, I fought for you and for our son, and that is what I
will always do for the rest of my life.
She sobs on my chest.
Asanda: You look good.
I laugh..she says that while still crying.
Me: Thank you, you will look more good in your traditional
attire once I have paid Lobola for you.
She smiles, I wipe her tears, Ziyanda hugs me too.
Ziyanda: Wow I can not believe this bhuti but I am so so
happy for you.
Me: Thank you Sis.
They all hug me and we get in the car and Mandisi drives to
Asanda's home.
When we get there I wake Asanda up and kiss her cheek.
Me: We are here, go inside and get some sleep alright I will
see you later.
My brothers, Father and the boys walk out and I am left with
the ladies in the car, I feel sleepy.
Lukhele: Duma, Mthombeni, OLwandle kaliwelwa liwelwa
izinkonjane..
He shouts and Langa is cracking up next to him.
Lukhele: Asizanga ngempi!(we didn't come to fight)
A voice shouts "Ningobani"(who are you? Inside.
Lukhele: Olukhele, size ngokuhle kodwa.(We came with
good intentions.)
A small boy rush out to take them in, I sigh and rest my head
on the seat.
Ziyanda: What if they decline your lobola?
Miyah: haa Mah don't say that!I can't look this pretty for
nothing.
Ntsoaki: You guys are making uncle Kwanele nervous come
on.
Me: Please tell them, and I could use with some silence in
here I want to get some sleep.
Ziyanda: Yes sir, you haven't felt any pain right?
Me: No i'm good.
Sfiso's mom and Aunt are sleeping at the back seat.
We wait for hours and we see a boy running towards the car.
Boy: Kthiwa seningangena.(They say you can come in)
I smile.
Me: Ngiyabonga (Thank you)
I step out stretching my legs a bit.
Zenzile: When Mandela talked about Long walk to freedom
he meant this.
The ladies laugh, I chuckle.
Zenzile: Put the blankets on your heads and sing a wedding
song please don't disappoint me, Miyalo!
Miyalo: But I can't really sing.
Zenzile: Can't...can't really sing!
She exclaims. I laugh so hard.
Ziyanda:
"Uthe ubhut'asizomlanda
Umakoti"(My brother said we should come fetch his wife)
Zenzile: Sweet melody!
I'm in tears because of laughing, she has a broom in her hand
walking in front of me sweeping whatever..
As we walk in the gate, I see Asanda in her full traditional
outfit we are looking at each other smiling..
Ziyanda is still singing and so is Asanda's family, we slowly
walk towards each other and hold hands a pastor clears his
throat, yes we are having a pastor bless this union.
Pastor: Beloved, we are gathered here to witness the union
between Asanda Duma and Kwanele Lukhele tying the knot,
saying I do before the families and God himself, Amen..
He look at us.
Pastor: We will give them the opportunity to speak their
hearts out to each other.
Asanda clears her throat and look down.
Asanda: I never imagined I would get married one day and
not to mention getting married to such a powerful, strong
respected man, I am honoured you saw me suitable to be
your wife, after everything you've been through you still
showed me care and love that is out of this world, thank you
baba ka Junior for everything.
I smile and hold her hands even tighter.
Me: I saw myself as a broken man but you thought different,
your wise words pulled me back from a deep dark hole I was
putting myself into, thank you maDuma for carrying my first
son hopefully you will still give me more, you made me fall in
love again little one, I love you.
I hear a chuckle on the crowd.
Pastor: We have the rings?
Langa give it to him he prays and we say our vows I put the
ring in her finger and when she is halfway through on
putting the ring fully on my finger,someone laugh out loud.
Me: Please continue pastor.
A pastor continues and Asanda put a ring on my finger and
the pastor pray for us then we kiss.
Mbali: Hey!stop that shit!
We all turn and look at her, she is wearing one of my wife's
dress it's a bit too tight to her..I don't know what to think or
say she wasn't even supposed to be here, she is wearing
some huge sun hat and sunglasses she comes closer to us
taking off the glasses.
Mbali: This is not happening!not on my watch!
I look around and I see Asanda's father looking at me
confused.
Mbali: You can't rape me then run here to get married
Kwanele you can't!
Me: Rape you?
Mbali: Yes the day before yesterday I came to your house to
apologise to you but you took advantage of that and raped
me!I have a scar to show at the back of my head!
Mandisi take quick steps towards us and stand infront of
Mbali.
Mandi: I'm sorry everyone she is my crazy bitter ex wife who
sometimes mistakes me for my brother, it's all good you can
continue
He says grabbing Mbali's hand and walk away..I look at
Asanda she has tears in her eyes.
Me: I'm sorry.
The day continues we exchange gifts then go home
koLukhele to introduce her as my wife then to court to sign
our marriage certificate.
This was supposed to be the happiest day of my life but it's
not. I have changed and wore my normal clothes I am driving
us to the resort I booked for us, but the mood between us is
sour after what Mbali did, we had to pretend the entire day
and we haven't talked at all.
We walk in the resort and she change her clothes and get in
bed closing her eyes.
I sleep next to her facing up, I wonder what is Mbali's
problem with me, to accuse me of Rape!

WE ARE ONE (I am my brothers's voice)

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KWANELE
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Our phones have been ringing since yesterday I am sure it's
about the rape allegations Mbali said about about me.
Asanda is still giving me a cold shoulder.
Me: What do you want to eat?
Asanda: I don't know, anything.
Me: You don't think I did it right, you don't think I raped
Mbali?
Asanda: No, of course not.
Me: Then why are you this cold towards me little one.
Asanda: I am just thinking that my day almost got ruined.
I nod.
Me: We can go home..
Asanda: Yeah.
I nod and walk out to get her food leaving her packing we
were supposed to spend the whole weekend here but we
spent only one day.
We take a shower together and I help her get dressed.
Me: Your feet are swollen you should wear morning shoes
instead of those heels.
Asanda: Ok.
I take off her heels and help her with morning shoes I take
our bags and follow her out.
We drive to home, to my father's house and everyone is
shocked to see us, she goes straight to bed I go sit in the
lounge and rest my head on the couch.
Mandi: Hey.
I open my eyes and see all of them coming in.
Ntsika: Thought you booked for the whole weekend.
Me: There wasn't much to do there our souls were really not
connecting.
Mandi: I heard that Mbali will be doing an interview
tomorrow morning.
Me: Yeah to ruin me even further.
Mandi: Lwandle is coming home today he took a flight
yesterday morning, I think maybe he can get to his mother
because I can't do it anymore.
Me: I'm hurt you know, rape is a serious offence and for
someone to accuse me in public like that, some people are
gonna judge me for the rest of my life on some "there is no
smoke without fire."
Langa: Shit..
He says looking at his phone.
Langa: Mbali tweeted that "Who do I turn to when my own
family turn against me because I told them the truth about a
head of the family who used his power and raped me."
I feel my heart literally breaking, I feel pain in my gut.
Nadia: Why is aunt Mbali doing this, she claims Sunny was
her best friend so why is she hurting her best friend's
husband like this.
Mandi: It's clear it was all pretence on her side.
Nkanyezi: "And was that aunt Sunny's dress she was
wearing at the wedding?"
I nod, I am afraid to talk I feel like I will literally breakdown.
Langa: This is going to hurt Lwandle.
Mandi: And we all know he loves Kwanele more than
anything so I don't know what he's gonna say when he hears
that his mother is hurting his father like this.
I look down rubbing my hands together tears fall down on
the floor.
Ntsika: What do you think went wrong?
Mandi: I have to demand the truth tomorrow.
I listen to them talk then get up and go to my wife's grave
and kneel down.
"It will all be ok, you will know what to do Lukhele." sunny's
voice says.
Me: You said you wanted this Sunny so why is Mbali against
it like this to even go as far as accusing me of raping her.
"Bitterness, envy are the most dangerous combination
baby."
Me: But why towards me I am a man.
"You will know what to do my love."
I get up and go back to my wife and find her still sleeping I
bruh her tummy.
Me: I know how some things stuck with you for life, so I
guess when you grow up people will call you a rapist's son, I
never thought I would ever have you but now that you're
here I am failing you and your mom already, I am sorry
Lukhele, i'm sorry.
I lay my head on the bed, Asanda touch my hand.
Asanda: You didn't fail us, I know you will clear your name
and I will help you, you're my husband now I will be on your
side always.
I keep my head down and not say anything.
She get up and move my head to her lap brushing it.
Asanda: We will fight together and I know your whole family
is behind you, this will be the thing of the past soon, it will be
all over.
Me: Thank you.
Asanda: Get in bed I am not used to this place yet so hold me
so I can sleep longer.
I chuckle.
Me: Move over then let me sleep on this side.
I hold her tight and she falls asleep immediately, I wish I
could be like her, sometimes I struggle to fall asleep but she
just get in bed and sleep no struggle at all.
I wake up later when I hear a knock on my door I open it's
Miyah and Ntsoaki holding plates and juice.
Miyah: Hello how are you?
Me: I didn't order any room servive.
They laugh then walk in putting the plates and juice on my
dressing table.
Miyah: She really do look like a baby when she is sleeping ay
but one on one she can roast and toast the hell out of people.
She is looking at Asanda closely.
Me: Don't do that you will scare her.
Miyah: Uncle I am a doll I can't scare anyone.
I laugh, Asanda moves then scream sitting up.
Asanda: Why would you watch me like that on my sleep, it's
scary and creepy!
Me: I told you..hey little one.
Asanda: Hi, she is weird.
Miyah: Were you really scared that I was watching you
sleeping?
Asanda: Yes!don't ever do that again.
Miyah: But I am beautiful.
Asanda: Still weird..
I laugh, I needed this, my mind away from everything that
has ben happening and genuinely laugh, it's like I am
watching high school comedy.
Ntsoaki: Eat before your food gets cold.
They walk out I give Asanda her food, we eat and put the
plate in the kitchen.
We go back to bed till the morning.
She is awake standing by the window looking outside, I
stand behind her holding her belly. There is Miyah, Ntsoaki
and Landile playing ball with the kids outside, they look like
they are having fun.
Asanda: That looks like fun, Mrs Gumede senior must be an
awesome mother in law to allow all that.
I chuckle.
Me: She is, she still plays too so she understands what being
young means, after giving birth I will allow you to have fun
only if it's harmless, being married doesn't necessary mean
you should act old and boring,you need to have fun but be a
wife to your husband and your family, that's what they are
doing, they gave them kids, they take care of them, and when
they are free they can play with the kids like that.
She turns and look at me, I kiss her lips.
Asanda: You love me Lukhele?
Me: I love you Asanda.
She nods and sleep on my chest.
Asanda: When last did you talk to your wife?
I don't answer.
Asanda: I know you talk to her, and I don't mind at all, you
love her and I totally understand, I am not here to replace
her but to be your wife in my own way.
Me: Are you sure you're not older than me?
She giggles.
Asanda: I love you.
We go take a bath and go join everyone for dinner at the
backyard of Ziyanda's house.
Me: Morning.
Ziyanda: Hey big brother.
I see Lwandle coming towards the table, he has grown and
look more like me now he has a beard, I get up we shoulder
hug.
Me: You look really good man look at you.
Lwandle: Well thank you sir you look great too, woah who is
this beautiful lady here she is definitely my type, can I take
you out today..
He says talking to Asanda who look really uncomfortable.
Lwandle: I am joking, I know you're my father's wife, I am
Lwandle Mandisi's son.
Asanda: Asanda.
Me: Kwanele's wife.
I finish for her, everyone laughs.
We start eating listening to him talking in his american
accent, he is a clever boy.
Lwandle: So dad what's so agent that I had to leave my
girlfriend hanging like that brother?
Ziyanda: I told you to bring her when you come this side
Lwandle.
Lwandle: I was hijacked Ma this trip was so sudden to me.
Ziyanda: Is she pretty?
Lwandle: Yes she is, Miss white thing gotta be pretty to date
a handsome guy like me.
We all laugh.
Me: You're not that handsome really..
Lwandle: Says a guy that looks like me..
I chuckle.
Lwandle: So where is Mrs Lukhele haven't been talking to
her for a while now.
Mandi: That's why I wanted you here your...
He stops talking as Mbali approach the table, Lwandle get up
and meet his mom who look shocked to see him here. Seems
like Lwandle hasn't really been up to date with everything
that has been happening in our family.
Mbali: I am so happy to see you boy.
We continue to eat..
Asanda: I don't like the way she is looking at me.
She whispers sounding nervous I look up and Mbali is
staring at her.
Mbali: Didn't I make it clear that I don't want that little bitch
here?
Lwandle: What!?
Mbali: That little girl doesn't belong here in this table.
Ntsika: And you do after everything you have done to my
uncle? you nearly caused permanent damage on his body
aunt Mbali!
Lwandle: What is going on?
Mandi: Your mom has been acting out of it ever since
Kwanele found Asanda she has been lying and saying nasty
things about them.
Lwandle: Mom?
Mbali: What!so you bought my son here to question me
Mandisi, you want to turn him against me?
Mandi: No I want him to knock some sense to you.
Mbali: Tomorrow I am doing an interview about how you
raped me Kwanele..
Ziyanda: Mbali tell us why you are so hell bent to ruin my
brother.
Mbali: She chose that little girl..
Ntsika: Who was he supposed to choose from?
Mbali: Anyone but not her?
Lwandle: Did she do something to you?
Mbali: No but I know little girls like her who are after rich
powerful man like Kwanele.
Asanda: You went home Mrs Lukhele for my wedding do we
look poor to you?
Mbali: But your home doesn't match this..
Asanda chuckles looking down.
Lwandle: Is she suffering from the unknown illness, Mah can
you diagnose her.
He says to Ziyanda.
Lwandle: Since when do we think money is everything here
at home, why do i feel like you are looking down on dad's
wife.
Mbali: His wife is dead that's not his wife, Sunny is dead..
I get up and look at her.
Me: I have to say this to you Mbali because you have hit the
last nerve when you accused me of rape, woman don't forget
who made you to be who you are today, you had no
direction, no vision even when we put a pen and paper in
front of you and said write down what you want to do and
not worry about money, that dead sunny and I started that
business because your brain was empty all you were was
just a hoodrat who was only good at running her mouth and
fighting, I made you Mbali, my wife made you.
Mbali: Oh please that was Mrs Reigns money.
Me: No it was my money i didn't use any cent from Mrs
Reigns money to start that business you shared with Sunny
it was all from my own pocket!
Lwandle: Dad this looks bad what is happening?
He says sounding concerned.
Mandi: I'm sorry to say this but I am divorcing your mom
Lwandle the things she has done to this family, to my
brother are beyond me.
Mbali: Please you can divorce me I don't want anything from
your weak ass.
Mandisi chuckles.
Mbali: I have my business I shared with that dead Sunny.
I get up and grab her throat squeezing it..
Asanda: Stop!
I continue to squeeze her throat..
Asanda: Nele..
She says in a low voice I turn to look at her she is on her feet
touching her belly.
Asanda: Can we talk..
We stand a bit far from the table.
Me: Is the baby okay.
Asanda: Yes but you're not, you are playing right to her
hands, she will do that interview tomorrow and use those
marks on her neck to support her rape accusations, can't you
see! You want to leave me pregnant and go to jail huh!you
want to leave our baby!
She cries holding me.
Me: I don't want that little one, I just lost it.
Asanda: Stop losing it.
Mbali: Kwanele I want to talk in private!
Asanda: Go, record everything she says on your phone, I
know there is another stunt she wants to pull, don't play in
her hands be cool ok.
She whispers and step away from me I nod and turn to look
at Mbali.
Mbali: In Sunny's house please.
She walk away and I follow her and find her sitting in my
bed..
I take out my phone and put in on the dressing table and sit
next to it make sure it's recording.
Mbali: Kwanele.
Me: Mbali.
Mbali: Why would you choose to marry Asanda.
Me: Did you have anyone in mind I was supposed to choose?
Mbali: Me, I have been here the whole time Kwanele are you
blind..
Me: You are married to my brother Mbali what is wrong with
you.
Mbali: I am old I am supposed to be your wife not Sunny nor
Asanda, me.
She take off the dress she's left with her panties.
Mbali: Take all of this Kwanele and I will make the rape
accusations disappear..
Me: Stop doing this.
Mbali: Let me give you a son we will pay Asanda to go away..
She sit in bed and open her thighs I look away..
Me: I am leaving..
Mbali: Don't do this again Kwanele, you did this before when
you ran away when I was naked
before your eyes, I wanted to give it to you.
Me: I thought you were naked for my brother Mbali not me I
don't find you attractive naked or not!
Mbali: Kwanele Sunny was supposed to choose me for you
we've known each other for years, Sunny betrayed me, I
once told her we should exchange you guys for one night but
she laughed at my face saying I am crazy, I wanted to give
you a child Kwanele you would have been happy with me
and our son.
Me: Where is Lwandle in all this Mbali have you thought how
your crazy stunts will affect him, what about Mandisi my
whole family!
Mbali: Every woman for herself baby..now fuck me Kwanele
let me give you a son and everything will be fine.
Me: No..
She starts scratching herself with her nails all over her body..
And tear the dress up..
Me: What are you doing!Mbali stop..
Next things she screams loud running out with a dress in her
hands, I save the recording and put my phone in my pocket
and follow her, she is screaming infront of everyone naked
like that.
Mbali: He wanted to do it again, look at me..he wanted to
rape me again..
Everyone looks at me.
Me: Don't tell me you believe her, guys come on..
They don't say anything, she continues to cry, Lwandle get
up and stand in front of me, I feel a punch on my jaw he has
glassy eyes.
Me: I didn..
Another punch on my jaw, Ntsika get up and pull him away
and slap him.
Ntsika: Don't you dare do that shit here this is not America I
will hurt you boy..
Mandi: Kwanele..
Me: Come on..brother you believe her?
He shakes his head and walk in then he comes back with the
towel and wrap it around Mbali and walk away with her..
Me: Ziyanda..
Ziyanda: I believe you brother,I am with you i know you
wouldn't do anything like this..
Mandisi and Mbali come back after a while she is dressed
now.
Mbali:I am calling the police to arrest you.
I nod and go to Asanda.
Asanda: Give me your phone.
I give it to her.
Me: I love you..
Next things there is a strong wind more like a tornado it
moves everything away from the table I kneel infront of
Asanda and hold her tight..
Sunny: Mbali!!!
I look up she is here, looking so angry..
Sunny: Mbali!!!
She screams so loud I feel like my eardrums are gonna
burst..
Me: Sunny stop..
She continues to scream I get up everyone has covered their
ears..
Me: Baby stop, it will be ok, I will be fine I promise just stop,
you are hurting them, and Asanda.
She look at Asanda then stop screaming.
Me: I'm okay Sthandwa Sam I promise.
I look at Lwandle he has his eyes all out, he is scared as hell
he is the only one who doesn't know about Sunny being a
ghost.
She vanish, I rush to Asanda and kneel infront of her again.
Me: Are you okay?
Asanda: No I feel dizzy.
Me: Let's go baby we will stay in your flat until I figure out
what to do.
I take her hand pulling her up then hold her closer to me
going to my car then look for the keys inside and rush out i
find her leaning on the car.
Me: You don't feel any pain right?
Asanda: No..
I help get into the car then drive out and get to Asanda's flat
and walk in, we go to her room.
She gives me my phone there is a message from Mandisi.
Mandi: *I believe you mtaka Mah I want her out of our lives, I
am keeping her here so she can sign over Sunny's business
back to us she doesn't deserve it, she disrespected Sunny
and you, I am taking everything from her.*
I sigh and sit next to Asanda.
Me: My brother believes me, I thought he was turning on me
baby, but he believes me, he is on my side.
Asanda: That is good baby and that recording will help you I
sent it on my phone to make sure we don't lose it.
Me: Thank you for telling me to do this I wasn't gonna think
of any of it.
Asanda: That's what a wife does huh take care of his
husband..
I smile looking at him.
Asanda: Sunny was angry..
Me: I know right that was scary.
Asanda: She loves you.
I go buy us food then we sit in bed.
Asanda: So you are going to gate crash Mbali's interview
tomorrow just like she did to us be calm and bring your A
game because they can twist your words ok.
Me: You won't come with me?
Asanda: You want me to come?
Me: Yes please.
Asanda: Ok but don't admit to anything or that can be used
against you should she try to get you arrested.
I nod, I feel like a child with no direction.
Me: I won't admit to anything thank you for staying even
after all this.
Asanda: I am not going anywhere, we are raising our boy
together.
Me: Yes, tomorrow I have to go fetch what I'm going to wear.
Asanda: We can take a shower here then you will go change.
Me: Ok.
The next morning we get ready to go to this interview and
start at home.
We're in the car and we hear Xolo welcoming Mbali, Asanda
is watching it on her phone.
Xolo: So rape Mrs Lukhele that's some serious allegations
that could land Mr Lukhele in jail.
Mbali: These are not allegations, they are facts.
Xolo: But last time you were here you were angry that he is
with Asanda does that got anything to do with all these
allegations?
Mbali: No I don't care about that little girl anymore, what I
want to do is be a voice to all women out there who are
afraid to speak out about rape because it's the brother, a
husband's brother, a father I am putting a stop to it.
Asanda: Oh wow she's good, she wants to see you down..
I drive in and park we step out and she hugs me tight.
Asanda: You will be fine.
We walk in and they alert Xolo that we are here then walk in.
Xolo: Our suprise guests today it's Mr Kwanele Lukhele and
Asanda Duma.
Me: Lukhele, Asanda Lukhele.
Xolo: Oh yes we saw the glimpse of your ceremony it was
beautiful.
Me: Thank you even though some people tried to ruin it at
the end but we made it.
She nods looking at me.
Xolo: So the rape allegations against your new husband
Asanda doesn't it concern you I mean they have known him
for years but you met him a few months ago what if they are
true will you divorce him.
Asanda: I can't make a decision based on allegations, until he
is proven guilty it will all remain just that, allegations.
Xolo: But Mrs Lukhele have scars and scratches to show that
were made by Mr Lukhele when he tried to rape her the
second time.
Asanda: Normalize using words like Allegedly Noxolo or my
husband can sue you for defamation of character, you know
this right.
I smile.
Xolo: Sorry uhm so Mr Lukhele what do you have to say
about this.
Me: Well just like my wife said allegations remain allegations
unless you have proof to back it up.
Mbali: I have scars, you put your hands on me yesterday
choking me.
Me: Are you sure you're okay mentally miss because the way
you have been acting lately is questionable really.
Mbali: Are you saying I am crazy?
Me: No I am just worried.
Xolo: Mrs Lukhele what does your husband say about
this,and why is he not by your side.
Mbali: Oh he had to take our son to the airport he was going
to be here he is supporting me 100%.
I chuckle.
Xolo: So Mr Lukhele is it true that you use young girls like
your wife there to get them to give you what your wife
couldn't over the years.
Me: How do you even ask such questions, this is my first
child which girls have I supposedly made pregnant?
Xolo: We have two girls at the back who are pregnant and
they claim you are the father.
I laugh really hard, two girls with visible baby bumps walk in
and sit down they already have tears in their eyes, Asanda
and I look at each other.
Xolo: Mr Lukhele do you recognise these women.
Me: I have never seen them in my life..
Mbali: These are the girls that approched me s..
Asanda: approched you please, we all have seen that you
have a vendetta against my husband.
Xolo: But this is serious these girls accuse of your husband of
rape too and that he threaten them to take the babies after
they give birth.
Asanda: Ok I am done with this, Lukhele please play
yesterday's recording.
I take out my phone and play the recording where Mbali was
trying to seduce me and all.
Mbali: That, that is not my voice..
Xolo: It's not?
Asanda: Look if there is nothing else we would like to take
our leave.
Xolo: Uhm I..this changes the whole thing so Mrs Lukhele
you wanted to sleep with your husband's brother?
She get up and rush out, I take my wife's hand and walk out,
when we reach the parking lot Mbali is standing next to my
car with a gun in her hand pointing at Asanda's belly, I move
her behind me.
Me: Put the gun down Mbali..
Mbali: I have waited for too long to have you and this little
girl come here for two minutes and you're already head over
hills with her, No.
She cocks it..
Me:Mbali stop..
The wind from yesterday comes back we see her flying and
landing on the ground with so much force, I pick up the gun
and look around people are taking videos I take my wife to
the car and drive us back to her flat.
WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)
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KWANELE
*
Things are piling up on my plate I don't know what to tackle
first, Mbali went to the cops saying Lukhele properties isn't a
legit business we are using it to clean up the money we get
from drugs we sell I don't know where so all our accounts
are frozen including the business accounts and it doesn't
help that tomorrow is pay day our workers are expecting
their salaries at 12 midnight, They are investigating us and
today our building is upside down because apparently we
keep drugs here.
I am in my office talking to my father.
Lukhele: How did things get out of hand like this Kwanele,
on your watch huh?
Me: Dad I am trying to fix it.
Lukhele: Trying doesn't work for me I want you to do it, I
will transfer money so you can be able to pay the workers ok
but I want it all back by the end of this week or I am selling
that whole damn building.
Me: Lukhele the hawks are on me, these rape accusations
and this drug selling business and they say I am using those
drugs and to back it up they have my file from the hospital
on drug overdose..
I say rubbing my forehead in frustration.
Lukhele: Look I understand okay, and I am sorry this is
happening to you but you are a leader those boys at home
look up to you, you can't fail ok I believe in you Lukhele you
will win this fight.
Me: Thank you.
Lukhele: How is my grandchild and his young mother?
I chuckle
Me: They are fine dad I last saw them the day of the
interview.
Lukhele: You mean you haven't seen your wife in two days
Kwanele!?
Me: Dad things are getting out of hand I..
Lukhele: So that means neglect your pregnant wife huh, that
girl is young she needs you to assure her that you are there.
Me: Ok I will go home now and check on her.
Lukhele: Do that or she will divorce you in less than three
months of your marriage.
Me: Dad don't say that!
He chuckles and drop the call, I pack my bag and open the
door but Mbali push me back and lock the door placing the
key inbetween her boobs.
Mbali: Did you miss me?
I look at her not saying anything, after the interview Mandisi
has tried to get ahold of her but he couldn't find her but she
has been feeding the police false information now she's here.
Mbali: Just give me what I want just once baby I promise I
will let all this go.
Me: Why are you doing this Mbali?
Mbali: We belong together why do you think I gave Mandisi
Lwandle only huh? while Ziyanda was giving birth every
year like a chicken, it was because I wanted to have as many
babies with you, the man I truly love.
Me: Give me the keys Mbali.
Mbali: Say please..
Me: Mbali?
Mbali: Ok come and get it..
She says moving her bra down and squeezing her boobs
together the nipples are all out.
Mbali: You know Kwanele this can be over in just 30 minutes
I promise, I am tight it won't take long to cum deep in my
pussy and make me fall pregnant with our boy.
"Leave my husband alone Mbali."
Mbali: Oh hey Sunny dear I heard from a very good reliable
source that after your ceremony you won't be able to do
these ghostly things you do, it will be all over.
"Yes maybe by then you will be dead so what's your
point."sunny
Mbali: So you are willing to kill me for a dick you died and
left here? come on you are stingy with Kwanele's dick even
when you're dead.
"Kwanele walk out Asanda needs you, go now."sunny
Me: But the key..
"Go Nele, Now!"sunny.
I walk towards the door and turn the handle it opens and I
run out and get in my car going to Asanda's flat I hear people
talking on the steps I stop and wait for them to reach the
ground floor, they have Asanda and one of them is pointing a
gun at her.
Asanda: Kwanele..
They are four, two are walking behind and two are holding
Asanda's arms.
Me: Come here baby..
They hold her tight she flinch..
Me: Let her come to me now..
I say in a low voice but they just stare at me.
I take off my coat and place it on the desk then take out two
guns from my waist.
Guy1: If you move we will shoot her.
Me: But I have been moving, I still am.
Guy1: We will shoot!
Me: with what? that toy you have on your hands?
next time tell your boss to do better, now give me my wife
before I lose it.
I am under serious investigations but when it comes to my
family I will kill whoever comes my way and deal with
concequences later!
Me: On the count of three I want my wife to be here on my
chest..1..2..
I see them running out fast and I rush to Asanda who just
push me then go up the stairs crying, I take my coat and
follow her, we walk in and she go straight to her room and
start packing.
Me: Asanda..
She doesn't say a word.
Me: Baby I am sorry for what they did..
Asanda: It's not them, it's you!you left me all alone for two
consecutive days!why?
Me: Baby there were crisis at work..
Asanda: You couldn't even make time for me at night I had to
sleep all alone here, You said I can't drive now that I am
seven months pregnant, who was supposed to buy the things
I need when you were not around..
Me: I am sorry.
Asanda: Now I know where I stand with you, you only
married me for this baby and nothing else.
Me: Asanda that is not true I love you ok, I love you I was just
stressed I don't know where to even start.
Asanda: Ok..
She continues to pack.
Me: Where are you going?
Asanda: Mrs Gumede said I should come and stay with them
I didn't want to at first because I thought you will make just
that little time for me but now I know I need them because
my husband doesn't even have an hour for me..
Me: Little one I am sorry I promise I won't neglect you again
I won't be going to the office until the hawks are done
investigating our buildings.
Asanda: You didn't even call me..
She sobs sitting down on the bed.
Me: I'm sorry little one I really am I promise it won't happen
again.
Asanda: I don't have hotwings anymore I last had them
yesterday morning..
Me: Come let's go buy them now, sorry neh.
She nods and go to the bathroom, she comes back pretty
with no tears in her eyes anymore.
I drive out to buy hotwings then we go back, she eat in
silence then get in bed
Asanda: I'm sorry.
Me: For what?
Asanda: For being needy, maybe I am becoming a nuisance.
Me: Asanda come on I apologised.
Asanda: Yeah I know, that's what I am saying, you didn't
have to apologise I knew you were a business man I should
have prepared myself that you won't be around every time
She get in bed and cover her head, I really didn't want to
hurt her like this, maybe there are things that are running in
her mind right now that she won't voice out because she
respects me, I don't want her to question my love for her to
think I am only in this marriage for a baby, to think maybe
because she is not Sunny she won't get my full attention and
love, that is not it and I need to change the way I do things
from now on.
My phone rings and it's Landile.
Me: Sure Kid.
Landi: They have found drugs in our building dad.
Me: What?
Landi: And now they are looking for you they think you are
trying to escape.
Me: What?
Landi: Someone planted them but they don't want to listen
and camera system is down we can't do a thing.
Me: So uhm they want to arrest me?
She doesn't say anything.
Landi: Uhm you will have to hand yourself in you will be out,
I am working on something but they won't allow me to
handle this case but I promise I am working on something.
I nod.
Me: Ok.
Landi: I will do everything I can, these people want to prove
a point because you are Lukhele's son, they say you're not
above the law just cause..
Me: Yeah I get it, I am going there now..
I hear Asanda sobbing loud, I huff.
Me: Let me drop you off at Ziyanda's house.
She cries then slowly get up.
I drive her home, we find Ziyanda standing outside Asanda
step out and go to her crying, I take her bag and go to them.
Me: Just keep her safe for me Mbali was trying to have her
kidnapped today.
Ziyanda: She will be fine here with me.
Me: Asanda.
She doesn't turn she hold on to Ziyanda.
Me: I love you guys and I will come back I promise.
I get in my car and drive to the station.
I walk in and they cheer.
Police1: Thought he was gonna get away with crime just
because he is Lukhele' son, he retired he doesn't run this city
anymore but we do, thanks to the hawks they finally nailed
him.
Landi: And I will be nailing all of you soon corrupt
motherfuckers.
Police2: Too bad you won't handle this case kid..
He chuckles.
Landi: One good day wena, one good day.
Police: You think we don't know that you are high up there
because of connections.
Landi: Oh no I am there because your asses failed to do your
job and I did it for you, useless shits.
Police: You all deserve to be behind bars.
Landi: We do huh?why don't you put us in there, you have to
wait for the hawks because ya'll aint shit nobody takes you
serious do what you're good at, help grannies with affidavits
there..
She shows me the way and I follow her, we sit down.
Landi: They have opened a case.
I nod, she look at me.
Landi: I don't know how you and our family will take this
but..
Me: What is it?
Landi: I say we frame the person that framed you.
Me: Mbali?
She stares at me.
Landi: It's the only way I can think of right now, take it as
back to sender kind of shit..
She is so serious not even a light smile.
Landi: We have seen how she has been hurting you and it's
not right and now you are here because of her.
Me: But she is still a Lukhele if we frame her it will still come
back to us.
Landi: Not anymore, uncle Mandisi made her sign the papers
three days ago.
Me: Oh, but what about him, Mandisi, we know he loves
Mbali.
Landi: But not more than he loves his brother that's why he
divorced her.
Me: Lwandle?
Landi: That boy needs to know how things work in the real
world, here in the motherland America is messing him up.
I chuckle.
Landi: You have a son and a very young wife..
Me: Why are you putting an emphasis on "young".
She laughs.
Landi: You know if you stay here they will take her for sure.
Me: Don't say shit like that wena.
Landi: I am just trying to make you see that you don't belong
here but with her and your son, imagine she gives birth to
your first son and you can't be there because you were
framed and in jail.
I nod.
Landi: No more playing nice, you fight fire with fire,and she
fights dirty you get your hands muddy it's you or her.
Me: Can I talk to my brothers first.
Landi: I will call them before that big headed detective Zuma
comes in here.
I nod.
She walk out, I sit back and huff.
"I know you have a good heart my love but this time put
yourself first, put your wife and son first ok."Sunny.
Me: I hear you my love and thank you.
I sit for almost an hour alone and Landi walk in with Luyolo
and Mandisi, we side hug and sit down.
Luyolo: This is messed up.
Mandi: I can't believe that Mbali would stoop this low.
I play with my knuckles looking down.
Mandi: I took Sunny's business back and divorced her, she
has nothing on her name.
I huff looking up then look at Landile.
Me:What do we need to do?
Landi: Find where she stays plant a lot of drugs there then
transfer a huge sum of money in her account then alert the
cops , Sfiso is still working on the system it will show her
planting drugs by herself because no one can come in that
building without being searched except for family so she did
this..
Mandi: What is she talking about?
Me: An eye for an eye, you frame me I frame you.
Landi: So we will distance ourself from all this and say she
needed money because she had nothing and nothing ties us
to her anymore, so she is the one who is a drugdealer, a
mastermind in the operation.
I look at Mandisi, he is looking down.
Me: It's me or her, I can't spend time in jail just because I
refused to fuck her I'm sorry but I have a son who I would
like to meet that exact day he will be born not years later.
Mandi: But what about Lwandle?
Landi: He needs to grow some balls, a beard won't make him
a man, like that shit he did when he punched his father.
He huffs..
Mandi: I will have to tell him..
Me: Tell him what?that we want to frame his mother so he
can tell her what we are up to huh Mandisi? you want me to
stay here or what you want to take over and marry my wife
and raise my son!
Mandi: Of course not, I will tell him that his mother might be
going to jail to prepare him.
Me: I am done with people who treat me like shit, I am done
being nice to people who don't even appreciate me and the
things I have done for them, I wanted Mbali and my wife to
be equals even though she wasn't all that but because I
didn't want her to be left out I made her partner but she
didn't see it!
I shout they all keep their heads down.
Me: It's Mbali or me and I am choosing myself this time, I am
choosing my wife and kid, I am choosing Sunny..
I said the last part in a low voice.
Mandi: Ok, uhm so where will we get that huge amount of
money our accounts are frozen.
Landi: Nkanyezi can help and Carl will do the transfer
anonymously then move it back once the cops are on to her.
Mandi: Ok, then do it.
Me: Please understand that this is not to hurt you brother
but I have to do this.
Mandi: It's ok I really get it, it's not ideal to me that my wife
all these years wanted my brother instead of me so she can
go to hell.
The hurt in his voice is hurting me.
Me: I'm sorry.
He chuckles.
Mandi: And I thought she was the one and left women I was
dating for her.
Luyolo: And it was a lot of them bro.
They chuckle.
Luyolo: You remember Zama the one with an ass not the
other one.
They laugh out loud.
Landi: You dated two women with the same name at the
same time?
Mandi: Yep I was bad really bad!
The laugh.
Luyolo: So Landile how many days can they keep him here?
She sighs.
Landi: As soon as we move the attention away from him so
Carl has to work today and find the drugs, and I know just
the place then Mbali's new place to plant them there.
Luyolo: Ok let's talk to Nkanyezi and Carl then bro we will
see you and we will try to move fast.
I nod they walk out and detective Zuma walk in with a smirk
in his face.
Zuma: Junior!
Me: I am not junior..
Zuma: Oh it's the other one?
I ignore him.
Zuma: We need to talk..
He put down the tape recorder and sit opposite me.
Zuma: Lukhele..
He smiles.
Zuma: Wish I could see your father's face right now.
Me: Hoping to see what maybe?
Zuma: Sadness pain and all the confidence gone!
Me: Oh he is ok where he is, he doesn't feel any of the above.
Zuma: Is it?
I nod.
Zuma: So Lukhele who do you sell those drugs to?
Me: What drugs?
Zuma: Or maybe you need a lawyer?
Me: Nop I am good.
Zuma: Ok so we heard that you don't only sell drugs you use
them as well, you were in a hospital a few weeks ago for
drug overdose.
Me: I don't sell nor use drugs sir.
Zuma: How do you explain the overdose?
I smile.
Me: I was drugged, can you believe it?at the comfort of my
home..
Zuma: By who?who other than your family have access to
your house?
I chuckle.
Me: I don't know, and I think I have said too much already..
Zuma: So you don't want to talk?
Me: What is there to talk about?
He laughs looking at me.
Zuma: Let me take you to your new home hopefully you
won't get drugged there.
Me: Mmm.
I get up and he take me to an empty cell with just a bed and a
toilet at the far end of the corner, he take my phone and walk
away.
Doing legit business I never thought I would find myself in
here ever, I sit down and look around, it stinks like real bad.
Sunny: "It's not that bad."
Me: You want them to see me talking alone so they will be
convinced that i'm on drugs?
She laughs.
Sunny: "All these years Mbali wanted my dick!"
I chuckle.
Me: You had a dick?
Sunny: "You know what I mean Nele."
Me: Yeah I know.
Sunny: "No wonder she always wanted to sit next to you
when we ate dinner or lunch together I wish I knew then I
was gonna show her satans ass."
I laugh a little.
Sunny: "You should be with your wife you know not in here,
she's too young Nele she needs you."
Me: I know Sunny, maybe break me out of here.
We laugh.
Sunny: "I wish I could baby."
Silence.
Sunny: "Someone is coming act normal."
I chuckle.
Me: How when I am talking to myself!"
She giggles.
Warder: Mr Lukhele.
Me: Yeah.
Warder: Someone wants to see you, come.
I walk out and I find Mbali there wearing Sunny's dress
again.
Me: You should have told her you liked her clothes better.
Mbali: How is the cell?
Me: You want to share it with me?
Mbali: I would love to if I get to be on top.
I shake my head.
Mbali: Why do you act like your dick is the most precious
thing on earth?
Me: I should be asking you that question, you've done nasty
things for it..
Mbali: I just want to get a taste, it must be good Sunny was
crazy about you, let me help you Kwanele.
Me: With what? I told you I don't find you attractive and I
never will.
She giggles.
Mbali: I am the best there is baby your brother can tell you, I
change the game, you know I liked him but you mmmh!
I get up and tell the warder to take me back to my cell bitch
is crazy.
I spent the whole night talking to Sunny because I couldn't
sleep at all.
Me: Can you find out what time is it for me baby?
She laughs.
Sunny: " You want me to ask around for you?"
Me: That would help thank you.
Sunny: "They would run out of here screaming.
Me: That wouldn't be a bad thing.
Later I go meet with my brothers and Landile.
Me: Hi.
They nod.
Landi: We got the money and drugs but we can't send it or
plant those drugs because we can't find where she stays.
Me: She was here yesterday later.
Landi: Do you think she will come back?
I shrug my shoulders.
Landi: I have to stick around so I can follow her..
I nod.
Mandi: Did you manage to sleep?
Me: No.
Mandi: I'm sorry.
Me: I will be fine.
Luyolo: We brought clean clothes.
Me: Thanks..
I go to their showers and shower then wear clean clothes
and go back to the cell.
It's three days Mbali hasn't been coming in so they can't find
her.
Sunny: "She is here."
Me: Really?
Sunny: Yes.
A warder calls me and we walk in Mbali smiles.
Mbali: Hey baby.
Landile walk in and stand next to me.
Mbali: Hey Landi.
Landi: Hello auntie how are you?
She force a smile.
Mbali: I am great, did they put you on the case?
Landi: No.
Mbali: Oh too bad you would have known what to do now
huh?you're street smart after all.
Landi: Yes I am but now my hands are tied.
Mbali: Shame so poor thing have to stay in here longer..
Landi: Looks like it..
Mbali: Well I have to go now I have things to do I haven't
been to work I miss my friend you know.
I chuckle.
Sunny: "Don't patronise me."
She giggles.
Mbali: Good to hear your voice from God knows where
sweety I love you ok.
She takes her bag and walk out.
Landi: I will see you later for an update.
She rush out, I go back to the cell hoping for the best, I miss
my wife and I told them not to bring her any close to prison.
I sleep on that hard bed facing up, you know people lie out
there, and that makes innocent people end up in jail, some go
as far as getting the children to lie just to settle the score.
It's day five in here and I am losing hope.
Landi: Liphi lebhantinti!(Where is this jailbird)
She shouts and I laugh shaking my head, she shows up
laughing.
Landi: And why are you dragging your feet come open this
shit!
She talks to someone and a warder show up looking angry,
he unlocks.
Landi: Let's go meet someone.
We walk out and this time a warder doesn't follow me.
When we walk in I see Mbali handcuffed and she has tears in
her eyes.
Landi: What happened to you "baby"?
Mbali: Kwanele please help me.
Me: Help you how when I am behind bars because of you?
Mbali: Kwanele they are accusing me of being a drug dealer,
help me, tell Mandisi to help me.
Me: Pity I am in here for the same crime.
Zuma walk in looking sad, we sit down Landi is smirking
looking at Zuma.
Zuma: Mr Lukhele you have been cleared from all the
charges.
Me: I am?
Zuma: We found a footage of Mrs Lukhele planting drugs at
your buildings.
Me: Mrs Lukhele, my wife?
Zuma: Oh no ex Mrs Lukhele.
Me: Oh her?
I point at Mbali he nods.
Zuma: We received a tip off to go search her new place and
we found drugs there and she has been receiving a lot of
money in her account.
Me: Mmm that's bad..so I got to go huh?
Zuma: Yeah.
Landi: You look so sad Zuma and you know you weren't
supposed to keep him here for five days without him being
convicted.
Zuma: He was gonna escape.
Landi: Escape for what?
Zuma: Landile get the hell out of here.
Landi: Ok Sir..
Mbali: Kwanele please get me a lawyer..
Me: No I managed without one I am sure you will too after all
you are sneaky you might find a way to sneak out of this one
as well.
I get up and we walk out, Landile drives me back home.
Ziyanda hugs me and everyone follows.
Me: Where is Asanda?
Ziyanda: Her father came to fetch her an hour ago, she was
crying everyday bhuti.
Me: Oh, can you borrow me your phone.
She gives me her phone I walk out and dial her number.
Asanda: Hello.
Me: Hey little one.
Asanda: Hi
Me: You are not leaving me are you?
Asanda: Where are you?
Me: At home.
Asanda: I am not leaving you.
Me: But I don't see you here with me.
Asanda: We are halfway from home we can wait for you to
come take me..
Me: Ok I am coming..
I walk in and give Ziyanda her phone.
Me: Now I need your car keys sis.
She give me the keys.
I drive out, after driving for 45 minutes I see a car on the side
of the road I stop behind it and step out, she step out as well,
and throw herself to me I hold her tight.
Me: I'm sorry, I am back now and I won't leave you again
ever..
Asanda: You promise?
Me: I promise..
Her father come to us, we shake hands.
Duma: I was getting worried about her she called me
everyday crying I had to come..
Me: I understand Sir and thank you for waiting for me here.
Duma: It's ok.
They hug, he go to his car and drive away.
I touch her belly and the boy starts kicking like crazy..I smile
looking at her.
Asanda: We are happy you're back..
Me: I am happy too baby..
I get her in the car and drive us back home we go to my room
in my father's house and help her get in bed.
Asanda: So what happened?
Me: Mbali framed me and now she is paying for it.
I sleep next to her and hold her tight making love to her from
behind, I missed her so much..
And Mbali, I hope she rot in jail.

WE ARE ONE ( I am my brothers's voice)

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KWANELE
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I have cancelled Sunny's cleancing ceremony to next month
because this month Asanda's is scheduled for C-section, I'm
in my room Asanda is with Miyah and Ntsoaki in the lounge
making a lot of noise.
"Nele"sunny says in a low voice.
Me: Talk to me baby.
"I know there is another reason why you cancelled the
ceremony."
Me: No there isn't.
"I was married to you for years my love I know you."
Me: Then what do you think it is?
She chuckles.
"You heard what Mbali said in the station so you're afraid
you won't be able to talk to me anymore."sunny
Me: Was it true babe?
"No, but I won't always be around this time, I will be here if
you really need me."sunny
Me: But I always need you.
"Don't do that Nele, you have a wife now give her your all
ok."sunny
Asanda: I don't mind to share him with you.
She says coming in smiling looking at me.
"That won't be fair, I didn't share him with anyone in my
time, he gave me his all."Sunny.
Asanda: He can still do it with you around.
I look at her.
Sunny: "I won't stop looking after the three of you but now I
will be looking at a distance ok."
Me: Ok.
Sunny: "Don't be sad baby."
Asanda: You know I came in here because Miyah said I
should tell you my water broke..
She says and shrug her shoulders, Sunny starts laughing so
hard I am just staring at her.
Me: Babe did your water break?
Asanda: I don't know I thought I peed on myself and they are
laughing like Sunny in the lounge.
I don't know if I should laugh at her or just panic, she look
lost.
Sunny: "So you haven't felt any pain sweety?"
Asanda: No I feel like myself.
Me: Little one..
Asanda: Mmmm.
Me: Is this a prank?
Miyah and Ntsoaki come in laughing tears are running down
their faces.
Ntsoaki: Dad why are you still sitting down, Asanda's water
broke.
Me: But she look fine and not screaming.
Miyah: She might start screaming if you don't get up and
take her to the hospital she said she wanted a c-section.
Me: Asanda..
Asanda: Mmm.
What is happening to my wife!?
Me: Are you okay?
Asanda: They were laughing at me so I don't know.
Miyah laughs her lungs out.
Me: Ok let me help you to the bathroom so you can take a
bath ok..
I walk slowly with her to the bathroom and help her bath
and let her wear only a gown because she says she is feeling
hot.
Me: Baby are you in pain?
Asanda: No.
I go with her to the lounge, she sit down.
Miyah: Really you want her to give birth on the couch.
Me: What am I supposed to do?
Miyah: Let's take her to the hospital!what is wrong with both
of you?
Me: Do I look like I have a peoblem?
Miyah|Ntsoaki: Yes!
Miyah go to the room and take the baby bag and walk out.
Ntsoaki: Let's go.
I take Asanda's hand and walk out, I get in the car and drive
to the hospital, We go to Nande's office.
DrCele: Hey Kwanele.
Me: Hi uhm my wife was scheduled for a c-section next week
but now they said her water broke.
DrCele: Hey Asanda.
Asanda: Hey.
DrCele: You're not feeling any pain?
Asanda: No..
DrCele: We have to do an operation today to avoid her of
getting intrauterine infection, uhm let me call the Nurse to
take her to theatre now.
She walk out and I look at Asanda she look scared now she
keeps biting her nails.
Asanda: Will they allow you in there with me?
Me: I will ask the doctor.
Nande walk in, Miyah and Ntsoaki are waiting outside.
Me: Can I be with her in the theatre room?
DrCele: Because this cesarean section is done under spinal
anesthetic and it's a nonemergency condition yes you can be
there.
Me: Thank you.
They wheel her to the threatre.
Miyah: Goodluck daddy..
I smile nervously..
Me: Thank you.
They inject her at the back.
DrCele: This is a spinal block to numb her from the waist
down ok.
I nod, she sleep facing up and I stand next to her holding her
hand.
Asanda: I am scared.
DrCele: You won't feel any pain ok just relax and talk to your
husband.
She nods.
They start cutting her and my body becomes numb
immediately I know she doesn't feel anything but seeing that
is scary.
They do their thing for a while then later I see Nande taking
out the big baby.
DrCele: It's a baby boy.
She does a few things with a baby then cover him with a
sheet and give him to me.
DrCele: That's a very big baby..
I stare at him for a while, he is breathing but he hasn't cried
he is just quiet eyes closed mouth slightly opened..I am
staring at this perfection in my arms, he is so light, I think I
forgot there are people in the room, I wipe my tear smiling at
him..
They clean Asanda up after doing everything and wheel her
out after taking the baby..
We go to her ward I sit next to her bed and let the tears fall,
it's been years I finally have a son I can call my own..
Me: Thank you so much, are you okay you don't feel any
pain?
Asanda: I am still numb baby, you took your time looking at
him you didn't even give me a chance.
She says giggling, I get up and brush back her messy hair and
kiss her forehead.
Me: Thank you maDuma thank you Mthombeni.
She smiles.
Asanda: I feel awkward without the huge hard bump.
I laugh..
Miyah and Ntsoaki walk in laughing.
Asanda: You guys are wrong you laughed at me I almost lost
my mind.
Miyah: To be honest with you, you did lose your mind for a
while there.
I laugh yes she did.
Miyah: Don't laugh you lost your mind too dad, you guys
were so funny I wish I took a video for Ntsika and Langa so
they could laugh at you.
Miyah: I gave a nurse his clothes.
Me: He is so beautiful.
Ntsoaki: A man can never be beautiful dad.
Me: But he is you will see.
A nurse wheels him in and give him to his mom I stand next
to her.
Asanda: Why is he so big?
Nurse: I guess you were feeding him good, getting all the
vitamins.
Me: Yes all of them ABC and also D.
They all laugh.
Asanda: I have to admit he is really beautiful daddy you were
right.
Ntsoaki: Can I hold this beautiful boy..
She takes him and look at him.
Ntsoaki: Oh he is cute!
Me: Told you..
They take turns holding him then he starts screaming his
lungs out.
Nurse: Feeding time mommy.
Asanda: But uhm can you show me?
Ntsoaki: I will show you.
She shows her how to hold him and everything we hear the
sucking sound.
Me: Was he that hungry?
Nurse: He has been in there for too long man.
She breastfeed him and I am staring at them, it's fascinating
man,this is my family.
Ntsoaki: Let me burp him.
She put him in her chest and he burps and put him in bed.
Ntsoaki: Uhm let us go home we didn't bring any phone with,
we will come back with everyone.
Me: You guys can take the car, and thank you.
They smile and walk out. I stare down at the baby.
Asanda: Can't get your eyes off him huh?
Me: No I can't..
I hold her hand.
Me: You are brave and I love you so much.
"Can I hold him just this once?"sunny.
Asanda: But how?
She shows up wearing a white long dress she has long black
hair, very beautiful.
Sunny: "You are not scared of me?"
Asanda: No, you can hold him.
Sunny: "Thank you."
She pick up the baby and look at him for a while then smile
looking at me.
Sunny: "Finally.."
Me: Finally babe, thank you.
Sunny: "He is hot!"
I laugh that's sunny alright, she put him back on his bed.
Sunny: "Thank you, both of you this was my biggest wish, for
you to have a son, thanks Asanda."
She hugs her then stand infront of me and kiss my cheek
hugging me.
Me: Are you a guardian angel Sunny?
She smiles.
Sunny: This isn't a fairytale movie old man..but I guess you
can call me that because I will be there when you need me
Lukhele.
Me: You really had it bad for me huh?
She laughs.
Asanda: Bye, take care of them.
Me: I will baby always.
She vanish.
Asanda: She is beautiful.
Me: Yeah.
I take my son and hold him in my arms.
Me: Kwanele Junior Lukhele.
Asanda: KJ huh.
She smiles.
Me: Yep.
I kiss her lips and the community, which is my family walk in
but my brother isn't here.
Ziyanda pick up the baby first.
Ziyanda: This is the biggest baby born in our family..
Landi: I agree these babies I have seen were very tiny at
birth, I think I was this size too when I was born.
Langa: He look heavy, can I hold him?
They all hold him.
Me: Uhm where is Mandisi?
Landi: He went to court..
She says moving her eyes.
Me: For what?
Landi: Mbali's lawyer wanted an appeal for a lesser sentence
so I guess he went there to hear her new verdict.
Me: Can it be less that the 15 years imprisonment that she
got on the first verdict last month.
Landi: I really don't know..
The door opens and Mandisi walk in.
Mandi: Hello everyone.
I nod.
Mandi: Can I see my son?
Nkanyezi gives him.
Mandi: Woah why is he such a big boy?
Ntsika: We're all shocked..
He gives the baby back to Nkanyezi.
Me: So..
He look down.
Me: Have you been helping Mbali Mandisi?
Mandi: No I just heard she is doing an appeal I wanted to
hear it.
Me: And..
Mandi: They are reducing the sentence..
Landile chuckles.
Landi: That's the justice system for you, how many years
now?
Mandi: 10 years with three years parole.
I chuckle.
Me: You have been helping Mbali Mandisi and don't lie to me
right now!
Mandi: What am I supposed to do my son is threatening to
take his life and he is hours away from home, he has moved
out from where he was staying!
Me: Ok maybe do another appeal so she can just come out
already, why don't you fucken do that!
I shout stepping closer to him.
He go on one knee and bow his head.
Mandi: I'm sorry brother..
Me: Tell Lucian and Luscious to go find Lwandle and bring
him home I want to have a talk with him.
He slowly get up and look at me, his eyes are bloodshot red.
Me: I told you that this is not meant to hurt you, I wanted
this moment with my son Mandisi it was either I stay there
and not witness this day or she stays in prison, all of this is
because of her, it's all her fault and i will make Lwandle
understand that.
He nods, I hug him.
Me: I love you and Lwandle is coming back home I promise.
Landi: Let me call the creepy twins ya'll now be happy we
have a big baby here.
I chuckle.
Mandi: Can I hold him again.
He takes the baby and look at him.
Mandi: I really hope he doesn't look like any of you, not dad
not Ziyanda but me..
Ntsika: But you look like Ziyanda!
Mandi: I don't look like this ugly girl I refuse..
I sit next to Asanda and hold her hand.
Ziyanda: My husband thinks otherwise, right baby.
Luyolo: Oh you are the most beautiful girl on earth.
Miyah: But I thought I was the most precious gem in here.
Me: I beg to differ, she is the m..
Langa: Hey!ok we get it but people look at this handsome
man next to me.
He points at Sfiso who just burst out laughing.
Landi: Why are you running a competition without me afraid
that I might come on top huh, Pamellak is the hottest!
Mandi: Ndidikiwe aka I'm bored zzzz!
We laugh at him.
I kiss my sleepy wife, she close her eyes falling asleep.
Landi: The creepy dads are flying out now to find Lwandle.
Me: Good..
After three days I take my wife and my son to my father's
house, Asanda has never been to my house ever since she
married me, she is in bed and I am holding a sleeping KJ.
Me: Babe.
Asanda: Daddy..
Me: Mmm if you call me like that I imagine a lot of things in
my head..
She giggles.
Me: You won't mind moving in the house I shared with my
wife right after the ceremony?
Asanda: Uhm I don't know, is she ok with it?
Sunny: "Good thing I can speak for myself."
Me: You should stop hijacking our conversations wena.
Sunny: "I came to Asanda and Kj not you, no sweety I don't
mind that is his home, that is KJs home where he was
conceived ok so you can stay, and change things around you
like white and I like purple so you can change those couches
man and the curtains."
Me: Finally found a purple escape!
She laughs.
Sunny: You loved my purple baby..
Me: I was pretending.
Asanda: I hope you won't pretend to like white..
Me: I will but really white requires one to be always clean.
Sunny: "And you are against being clean Kwanele?
Me: No but you have to be very clean!
They laugh.
I hear a knock on the door and Landile walk in.
Landi: Lwandle is here..
She says looking angry..
Me: Take KJ and I will pick up my young wife to Ziyanda's
house.
I give him my son and she walks out, I pick Asanda up and
we use the back door and I put her in a spare bedroom and
walk out..
I find Lwandle cussing shouting my name.
Lwandle: Where is that motherfucker, Hey Kwanele come
out!come here!
Me: Oh I know he is not cussing at me..
Landile chuckles and Lwandle turn to her.
Lwandle: And who are you, street kid! I don't even know
you!
Landile knock him down with a full blown punch..
Mandisi is shaking his head he is angry.
Landile help Lwandle up and stare at him.
Landi: Call me a street kid again boy I dare you!
Lwandle: I don't even know why you brought me back here
this is not home without mom!you tried to rape her then dad
took everything away from her now you let her stay in
prison.
Me: Did you see me trying to rape your mother?
Lwandle: We all saw it just that all these fuckers are scared
of you well I ain't scared of shit!
Me: You're not?
Lwandle: No I am not!
Mandisi slap him so hard he stumbles back and chuckle.
Lwandle: You send my mom to prison so you can abuse me!?
Me: You want to see abuse boy? I will show you abuse..
I grab his arm and dray him to a gym room and lock walking
back to the lounge.
Me: Sfiso give me that belt..
Sfiso unbuckle his belt and I go back to the gym room and
lock again.
Me: Now let's talk man to man..
Lwandle: I have nothing to say to you!
Me: Yeah spoilt brat I am not in the mood too now come on
call me names again!
Lwandle: You are not my father!
Me: Thank God for that..
I start whooping him with a belt he moves all over the room..
Me: Tell me I am not your father again!say it!
Lwandle: You're not!
I continue to beat him up until he sit down on the floor
groaning I kneel in front of him.
Me: Now what do you want to say to me?
Lwandle: Dad I'm sorry.
Me: I am dad now?
Lwandle: You have always been my dad, I'm sorry..
Me: What did your mother say to you?
Lwandle: She told me you tried to rape her countless times
and when she spoke out you threatened her life and sent her
to prison.
Me: How did I send her to prison.?
Lwandle: She said you framed her..
Me: Now you know you can't believe everything that comes
out of a person unless they show you proof!
I scroll down my phone..
Me: I didn't want you to listen to this but this is the day your
mom accused me of rape the second time, listen to it.
I play the recording for him, he shakes his head crying.
Me: And I have proof that she planted drugs in Lukhele
properties building, we almost lost everything..
Lwandle: Mom wanted to sleep with you?
I nod.
Lwandle: But why, she has dad..
Me: I don't know but this is what happened, I took her as a
sister but she wanted to destroy me after I turned her down..
Lwandle: What went wrong?
Me: Ever since Sunny passed away she started acting up,
your mom needs to learn a lesson this has nothing to do with
you, we are still your family but you don't insult people by
their upbringing like you did with Landile I didn't like what
you said to her..
Lwandle: I didn't mean it..
Me:You cussed at everyone in that room Lwandle and it's not
right..
Lwandle: I'm sorry dad..
Me: You know I think you should stay this side now and we
won't stop you from visiting your mom as long as you don't
let her get inbetween us and divide this family, she chose her
path and she is paying for it now.
Lwandle: I understand..
Me:We love you and want what's best for you and insulting
people is not it boy..
Lwandle: I know dad I will apologise..
I nod and help him up..he hugs me crying..
Me: I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you but you pushed me..
Lwandle: I'm so sorry..
Me: It's all good, let's go..
We walk out I sit down, he remain standing.
Lwandle: To all of you i'm sorry for everything I said to you
and cussing at all of you.
Silence.
Luyolo: Is that it?
He look down.
Luyolo You want me to do worse than what Kwanele did to
you huh?
Lwandle: Dad i'm sorry.
Luyolo get up and stand in front of him.
Luyolo: You called your sister a street kid here in my
house!in my presence Lwandle now did you apologise for
that?
Lwandle: I didn't mean..
Luyolo: I didn't ask you if you meant it or not..
Lwandle: I'm sorry..
Mandi: Really Lwandle?
Lwandle: Landile i'm really sorry for saying all those bad
things to you.
Landi: Ok sure.
She says getting up and walk out I follow her and find her
sitting on the steps outside I sit next to her, she look really
sad.
Me: I'm sorry, I know how it is to be reminded of where you
come from.
She nods.
Landi: It wasn't easy you know being a girl in the street even
though I acted like a boy those who could tell I was a girl
would try to do nasty stuff to me i had to change places
often, I had to fight to prectect myself
Me: But remember you are not there anymore, you have a
father who loves you so much a mom and all of us so if
anyone tries to make fun or humiliate you using that just
give them a face and be proud because coming out of there
alive is a victory you are a conqueror ok.
Landi: Yeah thank you, it usually doesn't affect me but today
I don't know it just brought everything up like I was that 9
year old little tomboy who slept on the cardboard you know.
Me: Maybe it's because it was said by someone you take as a
brother, someone who is suppose to fight with you not
against you so it's understandable why you would feel that
way, but you guys will talk and iron things out right?
Landi: Yeah maybe give him a punch or two the boy can't
even fight how did ya'll raise him all of you can fight, even
mom, Mbali and aunt sunny, what happened to him?
I laugh.
Me: I really don't know what went wrong with him, Luyolo
taught all of them even though his mom would call him in
the middle of their section and her excuse was that she
wants to send him to the shops.
She chuckles.
Landi: That messed him up but he will be alright just let him
keep insulting me he will learn to hit me back because I
won't stop..
I laugh.
Me: You are a good person and Pamella is lucky to have you,
we all are, you made me realise the importance of loyalty, if
someone is not with you they are against you family or not if
they strike you strike back, I was going to spend probably
more than 15 years in jail for being loyal to someone who
isn't for me.
Sunny: "Yeah I have always been proud of this little thing."
Landile jumps up and look around but she's not here.
Landi: When will you stop doing that Aunt you almost gave
me a heart attack.
Sunny: "Oh you can drop dead and come join me this side."
Landi: And I know a few I would scare.
Sunny: "Give me two."
Landi: Lwandle and his mom Mbali..
She laugh.
Sunny: "I knew you were gonna say that you naughty child."
Landi: It is what it is my lady.
She shows up and look at us with a serious look.
Me: Is everything ok baby?
Landi: She's hot, I would ask her to marry me right here!
She smiles.
Sunny: "Can you be serious for just a second."
Landi: Yes auntie.
Sunny: "Be careful, I need you to keep your eyes opened
there is something coming, make sure all the kids are safe,
tell Ntsika and Ntsoaki I said that ok."
We nod nervously.
Me: What is it babe?
Sunny: "I can't say yet, but looks like someone is plotting."
Landi: You don't know the names?
Sunny: "I don't know everything I am not God child!"
Landi: That is just plain rude!
Sunny: I know, but Kwanele tell Ntsika and Ntsoaki to do
what they have to do, they have to protect the kids.
We nod.
Sunny: "I love you, don't panic, we have fought a lot of fights
before and won I believe we will win this one too.."
Landi: Are you sure you're dead aunt?
Sunny: "Ask me that question again you might find me sitting
in your closet.."
Landi: That's scary!
Sunny: "Right? Say hi to KJ for me my love I have to go for
now and wena marry Pamella already it's long overdue."
I chuckle.
She vanish and Landi and I look at each other and huff.
Landi: Do you have anyone in mind?
Me: I have nothing kid..
We walk in and sit on the couch.
Me: Uhm Ntsika is Ntsoaki strong enough to protect the kids
should anything happen here at home.
Ntsika: Uhm not really, I was supposed to take her to the sea
a few months back but we have been delaying.
Me: It needs to happen soon please..
I see Lwandle moving his eyes around the room or maybe I
am paranoid now because of what Sunny said.
Ziyanda: Is everything ok?
Me: Uhm yeah yeah we just want to make sure the kids are
safe from harm Mrs G.
She nods, I don't want them to panic so we will try to find
out what is going on first.

*SEASON 2*