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1
"I love you daddy! You are my heroeee! I love you daddy. Oh
yeahh" my phone rings on top of it's lungs if it has one. I roll
over to the other side to turn it off. That is my alarm song by
the way. It annoys me so much, I hate it Infact that is why it is
used as my alarm song. Every morning it is my motivation to get
up and switch it off.
I have texts from my mother. Tell me why was she awake at
3am?
She's informing me about a family meeting. Meetings meetings
meetings!
That's all they know. I hate gatherings. They waste my time. My
people aren't who I'd choose over shopping or sleeping. They
bore the life out of me.
I get out of bed and head to the en-suite bathroom. Whoever
said money can't buy happiness was probably high or drunk.
Imagine taking a pee while looking down at the city of
Johannesburg through your bathroom glass wall. Priceless.
I flush and walk to the hand sink to wash my hands. I need new
nails. I open the cabinet and take out my face treatments and
apply them. A productive day ahead requires a beautiful face. I
could never do well without without my facial treatments my
face is full of betrayal. I could miss one day to apply these and
the consequences make sure to last for 4 months. I do not take
my chances I always make sure I take care of it.
I hear my phone ringing from the other side. Its not even 10am
yet what does that human being want from me? I finish
treating the face and go to take my cell.
It was mom. This better be not about the family gathering. I call
her back. She answers on the second ring.
Melisa: "It's not even past 10am but you are already away from
your phone" what happened to greetings?
Me: "Hi mommy. How are you doing?"
Melissa: "I'm good. Can you please bring 5L of cup cakes when
you come. Maddy was going to bring them but her car broke
down she'll arrive late" tell me what makes her think I will
arrive early let alone asking if I'm coming at all!
Me: "Can't Lucas and his wife bring them? Or uncle Robert, he'll
love to I know cause I am not sure if I'm coming this was short
notice."
Melissa: "No Lexi. If you participated on the family group chat
on WhatsApp like everybody else you would know this isn't
short notice. I need you here by 1pm we are the hosts I can't go
around asking family members to run errands for me like I don't
have my own child who can do that for me"
Me: "But mom Lucas and his wife live near a bakery"
Mellisa: "So do you. Get up, get ready and go order the
cupcakes then go buy snacks and refreshments"
Me: "Ok Send me a list"
Melissa: "I'll send it just now"
She ends the call. I sigh and drag my annoyed ass to the
bathroom.
I take a quick shower and lotion as fast as I could and then go to
the closet. I'm already late. I just take the first clothes I lay my
eyes on. Its Saturday, a cloudy one so I pick jeans and a round
neck tee and ankle-strap heels. I do not wear flat shoes, I'd
rather walk bare foot than to wear them. I do not feel good in
them. Nomvelo, my best friend is one of the people that
doesn't understand my disfavor of those shoes.
Speaking of that little devil. She is the person to help me buy all
the things my mom is about or have sent already in that list. I
finish dressing up and make my face up. Just natural make up. I
don't want my aunt Mary to make comments about my make
up throughout the gathering. We're not each other's favorites.
She likes giving out orders and I'm not the one to take orders
Every time.
...
Melissa: "Now tell me. Did you die?" She says when Mvelo and I
get in holding a 10L bucket of cupcakes. She hugs Mvelo first
and then me.
Me: "I had to pay extra R100 to get these. Why 2 buckets
anyway? Is the whole of Jo'burg and Cape Town coming here?"
Melissa: "Your cousin William is coming to announce something
big and your father has something to tell the family too"
Me: "Every year" I mumble under my breath.
Melissa: "Mvelo my dear. I'm glad you're here. How's work?"
Mvelo: "Work is great. I love what you did with this kitchen"
Melissa: "Oh you noticed. Thank you my baby" she says giving
me a look that's supposed to make me guilty but its not
working. I grin and take a sip of my drink that I have just fixed.
I'm a ginaholic
Me: "So where's everyone?"
Melissa: "They are coming." We hear laughter. Its them. God
forgive me but I do not like these people. They all act like
they're above everyone, even God.
Aunt Mary is the one to walk in first. Why couldn't she just stay
in the lounge with her brother and the others?
She greets and hugs with my mom. Mvelo follows and she
pause and looks at me.
Mary: "Look at you. So thin and pale. Do you eat? Or sleep
even?"
I look at mom. She shakes her head. I sigh.
Me: "I've been going to the gym." I have never set a foot in that
sweat smelling place.
Mary: "And spending nights looking for a job right?" I take a sip
on my mug and nod. She grins. "Good" she says and turn away
to leave. I scoff and roll my eyes.
Melissa: "Don't mind her"
Me: "Its sickening mom. She doesn't get tired. How is it any of
her concern that I am skinny and pale?"
Mvelo: "Just ignore her. Come let's go upstairs I need a top
from your clothes this is passing the chilli air through"
Melissa: "Be quick. I could use an extra hand here"
Me: "Where's Gugu and Zipho?"
Melissa: "I gave them a day off Lexi."
Me: 'Okay. No need to look at me like that"
We go up. I open my wardrobe.
Me: "You know
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I feel like Mary hates me because of how I came about"
Mvelo: "That would be stupid of her"
Me: "She has never been nice to me ever since I was a kid but I
did not see it then but after mom told me about my original
identity I started feeling Mary's treatment was more about who
I am."
Mvelo: "Your parents love you and that's all that matters"
Me: "I can't keep up with her bullying"
I pull out a jacket and give it to Mvelo.
Mvelo: "Just bear with her just for today." I nod. "I'm going
home tomorrow"
Me: "What do you want me to do with my life tomorrow? This
is the 7th weekend of you going away"
Mvelo: "We'll go out for breakfast and then I'll leave later. I'm
building a house remember?"
Me: "Yeah. But this is too much"
She laughs and pull me out.
I hear Luc's voice. I rush to the lounge. Our eyes meet. I run to
his arms. He picks me up and spin me around.
Lucas: "Ek het jou gemis"
Me: "I missed you too." He put me down.
Lucas: "Don't lie. You haven't called me in 2 days"
Me: "I know and I'm sorry. Hey sis" I greet his wifr. She gets up
and we hug too then she goes to the kitchen.
Me: "And greetings to everyone. I'm sorry I just haven't seen
him in a while." They all greet back. They are dressed like they
are going to a royal function. Every person is sitting next to
their partner. Did I mention I am the only single 25 year old
McVeigh? Nobody in this family has made it to 23 without a
wife or a husband for the past 50 years. I broke generational
marriage blessing. Possibly because I have "black blood"
running through my veins.
Lucas: "Come help me out braai the meat outside. I was waiting
on Liam (Will's annoying twin brother)". Him and I are the black
sheeps of this family. He got married and divorced within a
year. You can take the pig out of mud but you can't take the
mud out of it. He's a womanizer and he shall remain that until
he finds "the one". If such really exists.
Mvelo: "I will go help in the kitchen"
Me: "Come on"
Luc: "The meat only needs two hands. Let her go" Mvelo rolls
her eyes and walks away.
They used to date in high school. I only found about that on our
graduation day. He bought her a present. And said he was
making up for the past. I thought they just liked picking up on
each other. Little did I know.
Luc: "Your father doesn't look happy" he says after we put meat
on the braai stand. I take a seat on the camp chair.
Me: "Yeah. He seems deep in his thoughts"
Luc: "Any idea what could be bothering him?"
Me: "No. There's only way to find out; ask him"
Luc: "When everyone has left"
We talked about everything and anything. I missed him.
Everything feels right around him. He's my best friend. Lisa, his
wife did not understand our bond at first but she ended up
adjusting to it.
Mom came out to tell us to bring in the meat. Everyone had
arrived.
We all seat around the huge table and say grace before we
devour. This sight of love birds being all over each other annoys
the hell out of me.
Britney: "So, Lexi. Anyone important in your life yet?"
Me: "Hi Britney. I haven't seen you since your wedding." Luc
clears his throat.
Britney: "Really? Feels like yesterday. So when are we attending
yours?"
Me: "My What?"
Britney: "Wedding silly" I laugh.
Will: "Honestly speaking. Haven't you found a man?"
Me: "What am I gonna do with it? Pet it? Take it for walks? Do I
feed it? Bath it?"
Mary: "You are the only 25 year old single McVeigh do you
realise that?"
Me: "Was this gathering about asking me that? can we focus on
this mouth watering food and stop asking me questions?"
Will: "You need someone to live your life with. You do not
work, you live in a penthouse, you shop everyday, you travel.
All of those expenses are taken care of by the family business.
You need a husband"
Me: "And how is that any of your concern because that money
is of my shares?"
Britney: "It is bringing down the company. You should be saving
this money to invest but no. You always check into expensive
hotels every weekend!"
Me: "Don't you dare raise your voice at me. Why are yiu
watching my life anyway? Don't you have anything concerning
marriage to do?"
Will: "We found you a man" I sarcastically laugh out loud.
Me: "Are you on drugs? Mom? Dad? You knew about this?"
Their stares instantly created knots in my stomach.
Mary: "Its for the best"
Me: "Best for who? Who told you I'm attracted to men
anyway?"
Melissa: "Are you gay?"
Me: "That's not the point mom. I don't want a man! Dad?"
Marcus: "What in this life have you ever did without protest?
You were begged to go to varsity, you are still begged to attend
meetings concerning the family businesses. Now, you're 25 and
not even once have we seen your boyfriend or heard about
him" I'm afraid to eat this food. It has a dangerous drug on it.
Me: "You people are unbelievable"
Will: "If you can not take this man we have for you. I'm asking
you to move out of the penthouse and uncle Marcus is claiming
back his shares. Do you know what that means? No monthly
income for you"
Me: "I would rather live on the streets than to let you people
bully me." I gulp the rest of my gin down. "Moving me out of
the penthouse and convincing my dad to take his shares back
won't make that bastard child yours Will. You shoot blanks
genius"
His wife gasps. I get up and head out. At least he did not say
they will take my cars. If I sell 2. I will have enough money to
pay rent wherever I'm gonna find a place.
Me? A man? Marriage? Funny. I need a job. Where can I find
one in this big country?...
2
I'm depressed. That's all I can say. I thought I would wake up to
an email inviting me to an interview but my phone is as dry as
Kalahari desert. I tried sending out my CV over the weekend
after that 'Find Lexi a husband' gathering. I spent the whole of
yesterday on my phone searching for possible work vacancies.
Most of available posts were what I'm not interested in.
God knows I need a job asap.
I sigh. I'm so stressed I just want to sleep for the whole year.
And Mvelo being away is making this whole thing worse. I take
my phone and text her when is she coming back. She's the only
friend I have. And in hard times like these I could really use her
presence.
Oh...She's a CEO where she works maybe she can find me
something. I text her again. She calls instantly.
Me: "Hey pumpkin"
Mvelo: "How is depression going?" She laughs.
Me: "I find it very disturbing that this amuses you"
Mvelo: "Who wouldn't be? My best friend is finally gonna know
what real life is. I'm flattered"
Me: "I have no clue how to survive in real life!"
Mvelo: "You gonna learn. So you want me to find you
something at work?"
Me: "Yeah. When are you coming back?"
Mvelo: "I'm preparing as we speak. I will be on the road in an
hour"
Me: "Please drive fast I miss you"
Mvelo: "I've been gone for a few hours chill your tits. Check you
email I just sent you interview tips"
Me: "Will that require me to interact with human beings?" She
sighs.
Mvelo: "If you're really serious about not wanting that arranged
husband for you. You better get yourself used to the human
species because that is everywhere in work environment" I
groan.
Me: "I hate my life!"
Mvelo: "I love you. Let me finish up here"
Me: "Thank you for loving me. You're truly an Angel. Are you
gonna find me a job?"
Mvelo: "I will find that out this evening when I arrive"
Me: "Thank you"
Mvelo: "Nope not yet cakes. And...I just sent you emails you
can send your cv to."
Me: "As long as it is not cleaning jobs"
Mvelo: "Beggars Can't be choosers Alexis McVeigh" I am a
natural born chooser.
Me: "Bye. I love you"
Mvelo: "Ofcourse you do. I love you more" I laugh and hang up.
10 years of friendship. It all started at the restrooms when she
found white girls forcing their stinky hands into my hair. I have
always been a quiet person so took that into advantage and
bullied me. Mvelo came through for me. Ever since we've been
inseparable. We're literally each other's breaths.
My whole up bringing I have always been made to feel awful
about my race. My hair was too fluffy to be white and my skin
was too bright to be black. I have never felt welcome
anywhere. When filling in forms I always had to choose black
until the 8th grade, that's when the 'Coloured' column was
introduced.
All the remarks that were made about me made me prefer my
own space and avoid humans at all costs. When I finished high
school I was happy I am finally going to hide myself at home till
eternity. Little did I know my parents were sending me tertiary.
I cried and threatened to kill myself even. My dad begged me, I
now know it was for my own good to go get that qualification
but it just didn't feel right at that time. It was not exciting that I
had to start a new life, in a different environment with different
people who will also question why both my parents are white
but my hair looks like this. I've had it tough. And I hate that now
I have to work and face humans every single day!
Since I went to tertiary I introduced myself to wigs. They
literally saved my poor soul from annoying questions.
The door open as I drown deep in my thoughts. What if the
only jobs available are cleaning jobs? What am I going to do?
She stares at me for a while and gets in. She tosses her bag over
to the couch and walk straight to open the curtains. The
sunlight rushes to sting my poor eyes.
Melissa: "Is this how you look for a job?" She picks up an empty
bottle of Drostdy hof wine. "Alexis."
Me: "I was stressed okay" I drank myself to sleep last night. It is
not easy to go from hero to zero. I have never worked a day in
my life. Dad took all my cards on Saturday. I'm only left with my
bank hard that has maybe a few thousands in it.
Melissa: "You should be out there applying for jobs not
drinking"
Me: "What kind of jobs?" She sighs heavily and pull off the
duvet. I'm exposed. She signals me to get up. I do. She fix my
bed while I watch and she sits on top when she's done and pats
the space next to her. I sit. I feel like throwing up. My head is
heavy. I need to go see a Dr. With what money though?
Melissa: "Honey listen. Your father and I aren't always going to
be around. The day will come and God shall remember us and
take us. When that day comes. We do not want to leave you
here to suffer. Us wanting you to find a job is a way of us
showing love"
Me: "Love? You're kicking me out of this place mom, dad took
all my cards, he's taking my shares. How is that anything close
to love?"
Melissa: "Do you know how much this place cost?" I shake my
head. "Over a 2million but we bought it because you wanted it.
You can not blame us for always giving you what you want, that
was the parents in us. Look what it did to you? You have never
worked, you don't even know how to turn a washing machine
on, not to mention cooking. You're ruined baby. We overspoilt
you and it's about time we fix our mistake and put a stop to
that" I could feel my cheeks get wet.
Me: "So I'm going to live on the streets?"
Melissa: "No. You have about 3 months to be here. You will not
have help anymore. Starting from now, clean this whole place
and then bath, print your CV and go look for a job. Do you even
have one?"
Me: "I made it on Saturday" My first ever Curriculum Vitae.
"Where can I look for a job?"
Melissa: "Everywhere. Woolworths is always looking for
packers" I laugh.
Me: "Yeah nice one"
Melissa: "Do you have a better job in mind?"
Me: "I am a professional magazine editor"
Melissa: "Then go to every magazine company out there"
Me: "Where are they?"
Melissa: "My goodness. There's internet on your phone. Google
directions. If you have not found a job in 3 months that
William's man will come and marry you. We have no choice but
to agree"
Me: "This is about it? Punishment for not being married?"
Melissa: "Start by folding those clothes. I will stop by later to
see how you cleaned and hear about how did you go on job
hunting"
She kiss my cheek and stand up to leave.
I screamed my lungs out soon as she closed the door.
...
After folding my dirty clothes I was collecting from the floor. I
neatly packed them into a basket and went to the laundry
room.
I'm here. I don't even know where to start. I leave the basket
there and go to the kitchen. It is not as dirty just a floor with
minor stains.
I search for the cleaning equipment. I find it after opening every
cupboard door before me. I can do this.
After an hour I am done and ready to go find how does a
machine work.
There are laundry places out there
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there is one on the 2nd floor. Why wouldn't I want to support a
local business?
I go to my room to take a big bag and come back to pack my my
dirty laundry. The kitchen and the lounge look good. Cleaning
isn't so hard afterall but I don't see myself scrubbing floors
every day.
I take the lift. Its always empty on weekdays.
Me: "Hello" he bites his kota and nods. "Uhm, how much does
it costs to do laundry?" His stare is uncomfortable. Maybe if he
wasn't chewing and he wore a fitting shirt this sight wouldn't be
disturbing.
Him: "I only do laundry for people who live in this building"
where do I live? Out of space?
Me: "I live here. On the penthouse" he observes me and takes
another huge bite on his kota.
Him: "You are Marcus McVeigh daughter?"
Me: "Yes"
Him: "I expected her to be..." he clears his throat.
Me: "White? No I'm not completely white. How much do you
charge for your service?"
Him: "Please put your bag on that scale" he points at the far
end of the counter. I do as per instruction. "It will be R150"
Me: "Do you have a speed point?"
He shakes his head and takes another bite! I'm annoyed. "Ok let
me leave these here I will go withdraw money"
Him: "You can pay using EFT. The details are right before you"
He says and get up. He's so huge. He takes my bag and walks
into a door then closes it behind him.
I don't want to lie, his kota looks tasty. I finish paying and wait
for him to get back.
Him: "I do not wash underwears" I did not even see him get
out. The kota caught my attention.
Me: "I'm sorry. That must've gotten there by mistake. Its clean"
he nodded and gave me receipt.
Him: "You can come get it after 4pm"
Me: "Where did you buy that?"
Him: "And you say you leave here?" He shakes his head.
"Ground floor"
Me: "Thanks"
I see a vacancy post on the wall as I walk out. He needs an
assistant. I would take such a job if I had a gun to my head.
I take the stairs down to get myself the kota and take a lift back
to my world. What a Classic kota this is.
I put it in a plate and sit infront of a TV. Its quite tasty if you ask
me. How come I didn't know about this place?
Its not like I know more than 5 people who live in this building
anyway let alone shops.
I finish eating and text the girlfriend about how far is she and
take a nap after she responds that she's near.
I will start looking for a job tomorrow morning. Monday is a
good start to do anything but today isn't that Monday not while
I just heard that I have 3 months to find a job or else I will have
to marry a stranger.
I would stab his ass on a first date and go to jail once.
...
My phone rings. Disturbing my beauty sleep. I am deep in my
sleep but I can hear it kill my eardrums. I extend my hand to get
it on top of the coffee table.
I check the time first before answering. Its 3pm. It doesn't feel
like I have been sleeping for 4 hours at all. Time flies.
Me: "Hey boo"
Mvelo: "Please buzz me in"
Me: "Why? Don't you have your ID with you?"
Mvelo: "No I'm with8 someone"
Me: "Who is it?"
The line died. I buzz her in and wait. Who could she possibly be
with?
I get up and prepare something to drink.
A couple of minutes later. I hear the lift beep. She walks out
followed by a taxi driver, I can tell by the way he's dressed. I
rush to her.
Me: "Did your car break down?" I hug her. "Or were you
mugged?" She looks at me confused. "Hello" I say to the taxi
driver.
Him: "Nkosazana" He extends his hand for a hand shake and we
shake hands.
Mvelo: "Why would you assume my car broke down?"
Me: "Why would you take a taxi then? I'm sorry my brother
how much does she owe you?"
Mvelo: "Lexi" she warns. "Uhm...babe this is your competitor
Alexis Sabathile McVeigh. Lexi, this is my boyfriend Nduna
Mlangeni" she says with a very wide smile that I feel like
washing it off with punch.
Me: "Nice to meet you Sir. Can we talk?" I pull her straight to
my bedroom. I slam the door closed.
Me: "What the hell?" She shrugs. "You have a boyfriend?"
Mvelo: "Yes I do"
Me: "For how long?"
Mvelo: "8 months?"
Me: "Are you kidding me? You've been lying to me for the past
8 months?"
Mvelo: "I didn't want you to stress over my failed relationship
again. I needed to be sure its solid first before I tell you"
Me: "What proved it is solid?" She hesitantly waved up her left
hand. There's a ring. She's marrying him! God please send your
angels, even Maria if you can.
My best friend just agreed to marry a Zulu man that is wearing
omega sandals, Brentwood, uzzi tee and a leather jacket in this
heat of Jo'burg summer.
Mvelo: "I love him okay? He makes me happy and he's looking
forward into knowing you because he knows you're a biggest
part of my life so the least ypu can do is be nice"
Me: "He's a taxi driver right?" She looks at me disappointed.
Mvelo: "He runs a carpenter business. Not all Zulu men drive
taxis nor owns one"
Me: "He's wearing a taxi rank uniform"
Mvelo: "Its not a taxi rank uniform. Most Zulu men prefer to
wear like that." She doesn't see anything wrong with her
horrible choice in men. She's defending them.
Me: "What happened to dating educated men, men in suits?"
Mvelo: "Love doesn't give a single care Lexi. When you come
across the one, even the universe favors you. Who they are and
what they are doesn't have to matter. As long as they are
everything you've been praying for and vice versa. I'm not
expecting you to understand that as yet my friend but one day,
that special guy will pop out where you least expect it. You will
fall inlove with this man and the world won't understand but
that won't matter to you because it will all be making sense to
you"
I look at her. She's inlove and nothing shall change that.
Me: "As long as you're happy" I say.
Mvelo: "I know you don't mean that" ofcourse I don't.
Me: "Couldn't you atleast go for a Venda man or Malawian?
Zulu men are the most complicated breed or so I've heard"
Mvelo: "Nduna isn't your usual typical Zulu man" she says as we
follow each other back to the lounge.
He's relaxed. He has a remote in his hand and SS4 is playing.
Like that isn't enough. He has his "Uyawudlala uWasaphu"
shoes on top of my coffee table that I worked so hard to make
it shine this morning.
Nduna: "Your house is beautiful Sabathile"
I give Mvelo the look.
Mvelo: "She prefers Lexi baby"
Nduna: "If I said; Run Sabathile run! Wouldn't she run?"
Not a typical Zulu man she said.
Me: "I'll go order something to eat"
Nduna: "No raw fish please. And you shouldn't eat fish its not
good for your teeth nkosazana"
Okay that's it. I'm out. I take my car keys and bag.
Me: "Feel at home" although he did that without me having to
say it. But I had to say it just for the culture.
A whole Shaka warrior into our lives. I'm defeated....
3
Today I woke up and decided to take this seriously. I printed my
cv and hit the road.
Spending the evening with Mvelo and her rude Nduna really
helped. I realized one thing; I have no clue about real life.
Nduna took us down the memory lane of how he grew up. I
didn't know that people actually go to bed hungry. He said that
will be me very soon if I don't look for a job, that's how harsh
he is. He has these crazy superstitions he surprised me every
second he opened his mouth.
The only friendly and sweet thing he said is that we should have
a schedule of who sees Mvelo when. Although I know I will get
robed but it is thoughtful of him.
Why are receptionists so rude? I've submitted my CV to 4
companies but already I feel like giving up because they've
been giving me hell.
My phone rings once and automatically answers and connect to
the Bluetooth. This always make me answer calls I have no
interest in but lucky today it is Lucas.
Luc: "My baby"
Me: "Hey best broe in the world. How are you doing?"
Luc: "I'm good. Tell me girl where are you?"
Me: "On the road. I'm sending out my cv"
Luc: "You're really doing it?"
Me: "Yup."
Luc: "Okay. I'm here at your place. What time will you be
back?"
Me: "I am driving to the last drop off, I will be there in...45
minutes. Don't eat my food please"
Luc: "You mean the pasta?"
Me: "Lucas! Order it before I arrive because I swear to God I
will..." he laughs and hang up.
What does do to a brother like this?
...
I get in and I'm hit by a fresh smell. I left this place a mess. He
cleaned up. What would I be without him? It is squeaky clean. It
wasn't this clean yesterday after I cleaned. The Kimberly boys
boarding school really train him well.
Lucas: "You sure as hell took your time"
Me: "Mid-day traffic" I put the pizza box on top of the counter
and drink down his juice. "I feel like dying"
He picks the pizza box up and leads the way to the lounge. I
cast off my heels.
Lucas: "Don't die yet" I throw myself on the couch.
Me: "Have you ever drove around Johannesburg begging those
moody ugly ladies on front desks to take your cv?"
Lucas: "Yes I have. I just wasn't driving I had to wait 30 minutes
for a bus after submitting each CV or walk to the next hiring
place. You're lucky he didn't take your cars away"
Me: "I swear to God I would tell him straight to disown me." He
was very harsh on training Lucas to a 'man' but somehow I
think it helped him. He has his own successful businesses and a
farm that he just bought. He is exactly the man father was
training him to be.
Lucas: "I'm just proud you went out there and took action. And
I will cross my fingers you get a job and disappoint Will and his
mom" I laugh.
Me: "Can one unfamily a person? I wanna unfamily them when
I find a job" he laughs.
Lucas: "Chill. Mmmh this pizza is nice"
Me: "This is my daily meal. Now tell me, why aren't you at your
house?"
Lucas: "Because Lisa would prefer to see less of me around her"
I laugh.
Me: "Is she pregnant?"
Lucas: " I think so. She cried the whole day when I told her she
must test. She said I'm indirectly saying she's fat"
Me: "The bun is in the oven! I'm gonna be an aunt"
I get up and dance. He increases the volume and joins me...
...
It been a week since I sent out my cvs and not once have I been
invited to an interview. I'm left with 2 months and 3 weeks to
move out the penthouse. Sigh.
I am meeting with my dad today at lunch. I haven't spoken to
him since the day he came to take my cards. And I would be
lying if I said I am looking forward to that lunch. I am not in a
mood for being lectured.
On the other hand I have seen my bestie once this week. It is
official. I do not like Nduna. It was a lot better when I was in the
dark about the whole thing. She would disappear only on
weekends.
My life literally revolves around her and my parents. Well, not
anymore.
I take my phone and get into my emails. Nothing relevant. I sigh
and put it back down. This job seeking stress is weighing on me.
Maybe if I knew more people I would have found one by now.
There are no vacancies at Mvelo's so I'm pretty much doomed.
My alarm goes off as I position myself right to sleep. Why does
time fly so much recently?
I prepare myself for the road and take the lift down when I'm
done.
I spot the fat dude from the laundry sitting on the chairs by the
pool eating his kota. How huge does he wanna get? His
stomach is hanging out as usual. Don't men have big clothes to
accommodate pot bellies or he just doesn't want to wear fitting
clothes?
He sees me staring and wave. I wave back. He goes back to his
kota with no care in the world and I continue walking to my car.
Fuel money is gonna be the reason why I go broke. Just by
driving to Midrand and Fourways yesterday my tank is almost
empty.
I stop by the garage and fill up then drive to waterfall. My dad
doesn't do lunch at public places. His building has it's own
special cafe on top and that is where him and his hard working
employees dine.
There is no one lazy at McVeigh holdings. Its a competition.
Everybody wants to be Marcus's favorite and recognized
employee and I guess that's what keeps this company number
1.
Everywhere I go I get the same exact stares. Its like I'm a rare
human being.
Me: "Your people's stares are making me so uncomfortable"
she brings her eyes up to see me. She does a little chant.
Buhle: "Baby girl. Look at you! Could you blame them?"
Me: "They know me there's no need to stare at me like that"
Buhle: "You're a walking doll Barbie" I laugh. They used to call
me that growing up.
Me: "Oh please. I'm here for lunch with my dad"
Buhle: "He must be in office. Coffee?"
Me: "No thank you."
Buhle: "Same old Alexis. How is job seeking going?" Is there
anyone who doesn't know abour this?
Me: "Its going very well thank you. I have 2 interviews next
week"
Buhle: "That's good. All the best my love"
Me: "Thank you." I fake a smile. "Let me go before I'm lectured
about punctuality" we laugh and head to the lift. I press the
cafe floor because he could be there already for all I know.
Indeed he's here already but luckily he just arrived. He
unbuttons his blazer and take a seat. I greet and pull my chair.
Marcus: "You drove all this way in shorts?"
Me: "Yeah its hot"
Marcus: "This is a professional environment Lexi. What do you
want my employees to think of you?" I chuckle.
Me: "I couldn't care less really. It is 33°c today I do not want to
find myself fainting"
Marcus: "You will not survive the real world with this stinking
attitude. Do you know that?"
Me: "People are not allowed to speak their minds in that
world?"
Marcus: "They are but not every time"
Me: "Mmmh" he calls the waitress and order "the usual" that is
Jacobs coffee. No matter how hot it can get, you will find him
drinking it. Typical white man.
Waitress: "What will you have miss Lexi?"
Me: "Black rose with tonic water and a slice of lemon"
Marcus: "Candice. She'll have anything none alcoholic"
Candice: "Yes Sir" she says and fly away. I'm dumbfounded.
Marcus: "You are looking for a job yet drinking? If you want a
sophisticated job of which I don't know where you will find
without experience
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you need to have a cleat system"
Me: "I haven't drank anything alcohol since Tuesday last week"
Marcus: "Keep it at that"
Our drinks arrive. We thank the lady and I take a sip on mine. It
tastes good. Whatever this flavor is.
Me: "Is this a friendly lunch?"
Marcus: "Yes. And, I'm taking 2 of your cars"
Me: "Why? Dad my cars are-"
Marcus: "I don't wanna hear it. You will not take job seeking
seriosly if you still get to the parking lot and see that you have 3
cars"
Me: "What is going to change if you take them?"
Marcus: "You think by taking them I mean taking them home?
Oh no honey I am taking them back to the dealer"
Me: "Dad"
Marcus: "Yes. You got to grow and figure things out on your
own"
Me: "Well this isn't the way of doing it. What happened to
sitting a person down and tell them about a major change
that's about to take place in their lives like any other parent
would do?"
Marcus: "You're not the person to be sat down. I tried that so
many times but you get a chance to say no when you're
decently asked to do something. Being soft on you has to be my
biggest mistake over the years and I regret it. If you wanna
keep the cars you will have only one week to move out of the
penthouse. You are not a little girl anymore, you can't run from
the society forever just because you're mixed. That is who you
are, face it baby face it. Curse the hell out of anyone who tries
to feel the texture of your hair, punch them in the face if you
have"
Me: "It's not easy daddy you know that"
Marcus: "I wish you took after your mother. She was such a
fighter" I immediately stop crying.
I hate that woman. I resent her. She repulse me. If she's still
alive I would run her over with my car if I saw her. If she's dead
I'd go burn her grave.
What kind of a woman gives her child away? Sometimes I wish
mommy never told me about that woman.
My dad was having an affair with her. She was one of his bright
students my dad said. Unfortunately she fell pregnant.
One day when mommy woke up on a beautiful Sunday to water
her flowers before she gets ready for church she found a picnic
basket with a present wrapped in a pink baby throw.
She looked around and picked me up. There was a birth
certificate underneath and a natal card.
She said she walked around trying to see if there was anyone
nearby who could be the one that dropped me off but she saw
no-one.
My dad lived here in Joburg by then and my mommy was in
Standerton. She said she called him and told him about me. He
told her to not take me any where he's coming.
Arriving home he confessed to have been having an affair and I
was the results of that affair. My mommy being the person that
she is she said she was broken her husband had broken their
vows but she was happy she was having a girl child. She kept
me and raised me like her own. She loves me. One thing my
Zulu mother couldn't do.
I always preach to Nomvelo that no matter the circumstances
she must never throw her baby away. What if my mommy was
a wicked woman and killed me? My baby pictures could tell I
was a mixed baby. And in those days these races weren't each
other's favorite.
Me: "I don't want to be anything like that woman. Who is going
to fetch the cars?"
Marcus: "I'm not sure yet"
Me: "Thanks for the lunch"
Marcus: "We are not done"
Me: "I have a job to find dad. I'm starting at this very instant to
try to grow and figure things out on my own. Have a lovely day"
I pay my bill and walk away.
I receive a call as I drive not knowing where I'm heading. I'm
crying. I want the universe to swallow me already.
Me: "Hello"
Caller: "Alexis Sabathile McVeigh?"
Me: "Yes how may I help you?"
Caller: "I'm calling from Mashaba carpentry. We would like to
invite you for an interview at 2pm. Apologies for calling at such
notice but our receptionist just resigned with immediate
effect"
Me: "Uhm...please send me the address and I will be there"
Caller: "Will do. Goodluck"
Me: "Thank you"
She hang up. Thank you thank you Lord. I turn the wheel and
drive straight to my place.
I call Mvelo as I arrive to my place. I'm on the call with her as I
run around my closet looking for clothes decent enough for an
interview. None of my clothes are suitable. I come across a two
piece aunt Mary bought me to wear at her husband's unveiling.
I hate to say it but this would do. I spray it and put it on. I undo
my hair and comb it out. Today is that day I wear my crown
proudly.
I call mommy as I drive to Fourways where the interview will
take place. She wishes me luck. All that I need.
I arrive there. I greet the lady at the front desk.
Me: "I'm here for am interview"
Her: "Please wait there. Mr Craig will be with you shortly"
Me: "Thank you"
I go and take a seat.
I take my phone out and chat to Mvelo. She's telling me that
Nduna sent a letter yesterday. He means business. I hope he's
not planning on making my friend quit her job and send her to
the bundus to look after his mom.
I feel a grip on my hair. Whoever that is must not test me!
Her: "If only you were black and this-"
I found myself on top of her punching her face out.
I feel strong hands pull me up. People are screaming. She's
crying on the floor. I hear someone shout "call the police!"
Another is shouting "Call an ambulance!"
I am crying. I am terrified, what did I just do?
The police come in. If this was about robbery and shooting
involved they would've arrived 4 hours later.
He turns me around and cuff me.
Sergeant: "You have a right to remain silent ma'am" Ofcourse I
do.
And I will use my right until I die cause I have no explanation for
what I just did.
Why did she touch my hair and say that though?
4
I hear footsteps approaching. I didn't sleep a wink. I want to go
home. I want my mommy. And most of all I want to die!!!
And then shortly a police officer appear. He hits his baton
against the steel burglar. I clench my teeth. They've doing this
since I arrived here and to say the least its pretty annoying.
Police officer: "Alexis McVeigh?" I nod. I have no strength to
speak. I am hungry and dehydrated. I cried all night.
He unlocks and open. "You're free to go" oh thanks heavens! I
promised God I will never ever do anything that stupid ever
again I guess he heard me.
I pick my heels and walk out before he changes his mind.
"On your left" he shouts as I pass the left door. I give him a
weak smile and turn to it. I see my dad sitting down reading a
newspaper. I called him last night he didn't pick up. How did he
know I'm here? Oh well...
He sees me. He puts the paper on the other chair and meets
me halfway. I sob in his chest.
Me: "I didn't mean to. She started it"
Marcus: "I know my love. Let's go home and we'll talk about
this"
The police officer hands me a glass of water. I drink it down and
thank him.
On our way home he keeps glancing at me. I have no energy to
entertain a conversation right now. I just spent a night in jail
with no food, no shower, no covers. Only a glass of water.
I adjust my seat back and close my eyes.
Marcus: "Do you know that your chances of finding a job have
just decreased?"
Me: "She started it"
Marcus: "When I said you should punch them in the face I
didn't mean put them into hospital"
Me: "I lost control okay? All the past scenarios just came
flooding into my mind and I lost it" He chuckles.
Marcus: "I must say I'm impressed though. I've always known
you had it in you but next time please learn to control your
temper"
Me: "There'll be no next time. I will go back to wigs. They save
me from unnecessary interrogations and drama"
Marcus: "Apply at retails. They do not take criminal records
that seriously" he must be kidding. That place if full of humans.
Me: "Retail is hard labor dad"
Marcus: "Exactly! Have you ever done something hard in your
life?"
Me: "I thought this was about me fighting out a way to provide
for myself not training about hard labor"
Marcus: "The days are running out. Remember that"
Yeah right...
She squashes me and complain in my ear soon as we get in.
Melissa: "She deserved it. Who the hell does she think she is
touching your hair? I could just go and hit her with a bat in the
head"
Marcus: "Whoa slow down. We don't want her thinking its okay
to go around beating everyone"
Me: "I did exactly what you told me to do"
Marcus: "Well I didn't think you would really do it"
Melissa: "He told you to beat people up?"
Me: "Yeah. He said if someone touches my hair I must curse the
hell out of them and punch them in the face if I have to" she
looks at dad disappointed.
Melissa: "You amaze me sometimes"
Marcus: "I was just giving her a life advise, I didn't really think
someone would want to touch a 25 year old's hair I mean that's
absurd and pure disrespect"
Me: "Well they do daddy"
Marcus: "I really I had no idea. Let me get back to work I will
you my loves later" he kisses my cheek and kisses mom's lips.
For as long as I've been here I've never seen or heard them
fight. I know they do but Luc and I have never witnessed that.
And for that, they are my couple goals. They have always
portrayed love before us. They call each other these sweet
romantic names and I find it very cute.
As much as I have witnessed so much love between the two, it
has never changed my outlook on relationships. I love seeing
other people love each other, it just doesn't seem like my boat
to sail. I am completely cool with the choice of spending the
rest of my life alone, except everyone around me Ofcourse.
Mvelo was beginning to get me and then her Brentwood
wearing prince charming came around now she won't preaches
about how beautiful love is at every chance she gets. She even
suggested I start looking the other day. Imagine!
Melissa: "I made you lunch. Baby go upstairs and take a shower
I will be making you food"
I leave them snuggling over each other.
I need to soak myself in a tub and wash off all the dirt I might
have got in that creepy stinky cell.
I connect my phone to the charger and go to the bathroom.
Even at home I have an en-suite bathroom. Advantages of
being the only girl: you get whatever it is that you ask.
I mix all the necessary bath salts and take a pee while the tub
fill up.
I strip naked and get into the water soon as they are enough. I
lay low and let my body absorb the bathsalts and the warmth of
the water.
Mom comes up after 10 minutes to give me my food. I thank
her and take it.
Me: "I think I will take a nap afterwards"
Melissa: "Put on your romper okay? And I will get rid of these"
she says picking up my clothes. "They will forever attract bad
luck. Your father and I trying to get the girl to drop charges but
her mother isn't hearing it"
Me: "Its okay. Maybe this is one of my lessons about "the real
world"." She chuckles.
Melissa: "Don't be silly"
Me: "For real. Do you think they'd still interview me?"
Melissa: "I doubt. She's the COO and her mother is the CEO." I
let out a heavy sigh.
Me: "She must teach her daughter some manners"
Melissa: "I think you should go and apologize personally"
Me: "Not happening"
Melissa: "For the sake of peace and to soften her to drop the
charges honey. Life is really tough with a record"
Me: "Fine I'll go" she smiles and pinches my cheek.
Melissa: "That's my girl"
She heads to the door and quickly turns.
Melissa: "Call Mvelo, she came here crying last night. She must
be sick worried"
Me: "I will."
She nods and walk out. I take my food and dig in. I love my
mother's cooking. I wish she cooked everyday. She's currently
on leave and I wish I was here full time but I only spend
weekends with them.
I finally get out of the water. It is pretty much exactly I needed.
I feel as good as new. I switch on my phone and apply lotion.
Text messages come in flooding. I dress up in my romper. Mom
bought it on my birthday in February, it has a tail even.
I get in bed and take my phone. I go straight Mvelo's texts.
She's really worried wherever she is, so many texts and missed
calls. I ring her up drop before she answers. I'm out of air.
She calls immediately with her office phone.
Mvelo: "Tell me you're okay" she says soon as I answer.
Me: "Yeah I'm good babe. How are you?"
Mvelo: "A mess. I need to see you. I've never been so scared in
my life. Didn't they harm you in that place?"
Me: "No they didn't. Calm down"
Mvelo: "I can't. I know her, she's very disregarding of other
people she thinks she breathes flavoured air that one"
Me: "You won't believe I have to go and apologize to her"
Mvelo: "That's messed up. I hate that bitch but I second that
maybe it will get her to drop the charges" I sigh.
Me: "Yeah maybe. Let me sleep I will call you later"
Mvelo: "Penthouse or parents house?"
Me: "Parents house"
Mvelo: "Okay I'll see you later"
Me: "Ok sweets. Bye"
Mvelo: "Bye"
...
The following morning we wake up and head downstairs for
breakfast. Mvelo slept over. We spent the whole night talking
about her Prince charming. She is inlove and nobody can
convince her otherwise.
He is sending his uncles next weekend for lobola negotiations.
He is pretty much determined to make Mvelo his wife. So next
week we're off to KZN, New Castle. I've only been there once
and I'm happy we're going there next week.
None of the parents are in sight. They must be on the Thursday
daily prayer. We eat breakfast over a light conversation and we
go upstairs to prepare for leaving.
Me: "Can you please drop me off at the hospital? I can't afford
to drive any car from now on. Its costly"
Mvelo: "No problem. We can do it the other way around even. I
will ask Nduna to pick me up after work"
Me: "What kind of car does he drive?" She chuckles.
Mvelo: "BMW X6"
Me: "Mmmh. Atleast he's not driving a Toyota corrola 1990 like
his fellow brothers" she laughs.
Mvelo: "I told you he's different"
Me: "He is as arrogant as them. He's no different. They are all
the same" she hands me a lipstick. I apply it.
Mvelo: "You are the very fine one to judge Zulu people
Sabathile" I laugh.
Me: "Don't even dare woman. By the way having this little Zulu
blood in me does not mean I should look past their flaws. They
are the oppressive tribe and that's it"
Mvelo: "Maybe you're right. Maybe you're not. We should visit
my grandma at Nkandla and you shall explore the Zulu culture
and it's people maybe then you'll see what kind of people they
really are"
Me: "New Castle is my limit. I'd never go further than that."
Mvelo: "We gonna go anyway"
Her phone rings. Her smile widens.
Mvelo: "Babakhe" wtf!!!! This Nduna is trying so hard to steal
my friend away from me.
I take our bags and lead the way out. The parents drive in as I
lock. I leave the key hanging. Oh my car is here
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dad must've been the one to fetch it from that company.
Oh she's alone. She gets off the car.
Melissa: "At least I found you here I was driving like a crazy
woman"
Me: "What for?"
Melissa: "To find you guys here. Did you eat?"
Mvelo: "Yes we did. Washed the dishes we used even" we
usually don't so yeah it's an achievement.
Melissa: "You did? You girls are growing up. Come back here
after work okay"
Me: "Mvelo has plans with her man"
Mvelo: "I can cancel"
Melissa: "What? Oh no. Go have fun. We can spend time
tomorrow evening, that's if you and man doesn't have plans"
Mvelo: "That sounds great. I'll bring the snacks"
Me: "Don't even look at me I'm broke"
Melissa: "Nobody is looking at you. Go before you're late. Lexi,
approach that young lady with remorse okay?"
Me: "Yep"
Melissa: "Alexis"
Me: "I will mom stop worrying"
She smiles and wave us goodbye as we reverse out...
...
I open the door slowly. The first thing my eyes come across is a
leg hanging from a sling.
This isn't her.
"What hell are you doing here?" I jump. I did not hear the door
open. I'm still puzzled by this injured leg.
Me: "I-"
Woman: "Are you here to finish my daughter? Do you see the
damage you caused?"
Me: "What? No. I'm here to apologize"
Woman: "We do not want your filthy apology you crack head.
You can keep it for the trail day. You better start getting
yourself prepared for jail girly or to never work again in your
life. Get the hell out of here"
I walk past her heading out. I do not remember doing anything
to her leg...
I drive to my place. I thought my parents were bluffing about
the hardship of finding a job with a criminal record.
I just read some scary things here on the internet written by
people with records. I am a first offender, shouldn't that get the
companies to reconsider?
I arrive. I take the lift and get off at the 2nd floor. I see a lady
coming out with a laundry basket. We smile at each and I head
inside the laundry.
Uh the vacancy post is still here.
Is he always eating this thing? My God.
Me: "Greetings" he nods. He's not much a talker I've concluded.
"How are you?"
Him: "I'm good. I had no electricity. I just put your clothes in the
machine. I kept your underwears in the bag" I laugh. I keep
forgetting to double check when bringing the laundry.
Me: "I'm sorry those are new I must've picked them up with
those clothes" he nods and feast on his Russian.
I rub my palms together. I'm nervous.
Him: "Anything else?"
Me: "Nope. Keep well" I walk away. What am I doing?
I turn around swiftly.
Me: "Actually yes. Have you found an assistant?"
Him: "Not yet"
Me: "Where can I submit my cv?"
Him: "You want to work here?"
Me: "Yes" he laughs. "I'm serious" I walk to thr counter.
"Look...what's your name?"
Him: "Philani"
Me: "Yes Philani. I'm in a very tight spot, my father cut me off
and said I should look for a job or they find me a husband. And
then I was called for an interview on Tuesday, things got out of
hand I ended up involved in a physical fight with the COO of
that company and laid charges. You know how it is out there
with a criminal record"
Philani: "It actually isn't. That's a minor crime" he open a can of
coke and gulps it down. "But, you can work here while you look
for a job."
Me: "Really. Thank you thank you thank you" I squeal around.
Philani: "Here. Fill this form and then hand me your ID, tax
number and bank statement if you have it with you"
Me: "It's in my phone."
Philani: "You can email it." He writes down the email and give it
to me.
I send the documents and fill the form.
Me: "What do I do now?"
Philani: "Would you like to start?"
Me: "Yes. What do I do?"
Philani: "Get in"
Me: "Oh yes"
I walk to the far end where the entrance is.
Philani: "You can start buy putting in the clothes a green
basket"
I stare at him blankly.
Me: "Uhm...one little problem, I don't know how those work"
He sighs.
Philani: "Ofcourse you don't" he gets up from the chair.
Me: "What do you mean ofcourse?" I say following him to
where the machines are.
Philani: "You probably had about 20 maids at your house doing
your laundry, making your bed, running you a bath and making
you breakfast"
Me: "They were 3 actually"
Philani: "Same difference"
Me: "My salary, how much are we talking?"
Philani: "What does this button do?"
Me: "I don't know"
Philani: "I thought as much. Let's focus at teaching you things
that will lead to you getting your salary."
I have a job. Alexis McVeigh, a whole employee. My parents are
gonna be so proud. Can't wait to disappoint Will and his
goons...
5
Turns out Philani is very much of a chatterbox. This 3 days I've
been with him have been hilarious. He's literally a comedian
and was very patient with me.
I told my parents I found a job and didn't get much into details.
They're McVeighs I doubt they consider my job as a job. They
were happy and couldn't wait to hear about it all. Pity this
weekend I couldn't be with them. I had to drive straight to New
Castle after work yesterday. I hate the fact that we also work
on Saturdays. I like having my weekends to myself.
Mrs Nduna had to leave on Friday to start with the
preparations.
And she outdid herself. I want to chow all this meat right now.
She slaps my hand away. I laugh.
Me: "I can't help myself"
Mvelo: "Please behave."
Me: "Are they gonna eat all this food?"
Mvelo: "What do you think?"
Omuhle gets in running.
Omuhle: "They are coming" she whispers in excitement. She's
Mvelo's little sister. She's 20 and she could take your eyes out if
you are not careful she's too hyper for a 20 year old.
Me: "Oh my God what do we do now?"
Mvelo: "We stay here until we are called"
I peep through the window.
Me: "Oh my freakin God. They are going to finish this food for
real. Look at those stomachs"
Mvelo: "They could see you"
Me: "I doubt. They all have glasses on. I don't see Nduna there"
Mvelo: "The mkhwenyana doesn't come to the negotiations
dummy"
Me: "Oh. At least his people have sense of fashion"
Omuhle: "I thought I was the only one who had a problem with
his sense of fashion" They were still not yet to the rondavel.
Those bellies must be heavy as hell.
Mvelo: "Well I love him and his sense of fashion. It goes well
with mine. You should see us walking hand in hand. Me in my
female suit and heels and then him on his Brentwood and uzzi
vest. Priceless" we had turned to look at her. She's is love
struck.
Me: "As long as there'll be a white wedding"
Mvelo: "There won't be"
Omuhle and I scream. We immediately stop and get off the
cupboard when aunty.
Aunty: "You two hood rats. Where's your respect?"
Omuhle: "We're sorry aunty. Mvelo just told us there won't be
a white wedding"
Aunty: "So? Get your own men and have your own white
weddings. Make yourselves useful and go make up the bed
where I was sleeping"
Omuhle giggles and go away.
Aunty: "Coconut. Pass me the salt"
Mvelo: "Hha aunty. That's babomkhulu's food"
Aunty: "You will make him another one. I'm starving" I give her
the salt. "Let's thank the man above you know what salt is. Go
make fire outside"
Me: "Its already been done"
Aunty: "Then go put more woods. Mvelo make me tea. Don't
just stand there and watch me like you've never seen me
before"
I head to the door. Mvelo's mom gets in, she takes my hand.
Dumisile: "Why aren't you girls ready?"
Aunty: "That one must put more woods on the fire and Mvelo is
making me tea"
Dumisile: "Not today aunty please. Come"
She pulls us both to Mvelo's bedroom.
Mvelo: "I don't even know why you guys had to tell her"
Dumisile: "You know your father loves his sister"
Me: "Her and aunt Mary have a skill to ruin everyone's mood"
we laugh.
Dumisile: "That old witch. I got to give it to Melissa for being
able to put up with that woman's shenanigans"
Me: "Its not like she has a choice." Mvelo looks at me smitten.
"What?"
Mvelo: "You look crazily beautiful in that" I turn around and
look at myself on the mirror.
Dumisile: "Look at you. Mvelo dress up I need to take a
picture"
Mvelo: "I'm so nervous"
Me: "You're bound to be" I take out her dress.
Dumisile: "I'll go get Omuhle. Your uncle might come to call you
in any time now"
She walks out. I assist Mvelo put on her dress. It fits her
perfectly. Nduna done chose a very beautiful, successful and
selfless woman here. The dress is maxi, same design as mine
but different color. It hugs her perfectly.
We're now crying looking at our reflections in the mirror. We
hug tightly.
Mvelo: "Do you think I'm making a good decision by getting
married?"
Me: "No because I'm gonna see little of you when you're
married but in other terms, yes. You love him, he loves you.
You're happy. And you're smart, I know you wouldn't have
agreed to marry him if he didn't keep your peace intact and
you're smart enough to let go when he starts interfering with
it." She giggles through the tears and we hug again.
Omuhle: "Okay love birds cheer up" we laugh.
Mvelo: "Put on your dress and stop meddling"
Omuhle: "I saw Nduna's car outside"
Mvelo: "They are driving it"
Me: "He should've came too"
I take powder and powder Mvelo up.
Dumisile: "Its time. Put those things over your shoulders. Lexi
remember, no eye contact"
Me: "Noted" we laugh.
Dumisile: "Let me quickly take a picture" we pose. The shutter
clicks more than once and then uncle Bhova peeps his head in
and we follow him.
Omuhle walking infront
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me behind her and Mvelo at last. We get to the rondavel.
We sit on a grass matt by the door.
Uncle Bhova: "These are the beautiful flowers we have in this
home. Which one amongst them caught your son's eye?"
The man gets up and walk to us. He crouche before Mvelo and
hand her a towel.
Man: "This one"
Uncle Bhova: "Mvelo, do you know these people?"
Mvelo: "Yebo baba"
Uncle Bhova: "Okay you may leave"
We get up and follow each other out.
Me: "Have you met them before?"
Mvelo: "No. They saw me in pictures I believe"
Me: "What happens if they choose the wrong one?"
Mvelo: "They get fined but that hardly happens"
I nod. There's fresh air in the kitchen. We warm up the meat
and dish up.
Omuhle: "Your trick worked. The rice is still hot"
Me: "That's all I know about cooking" we laugh.
Mvelo: "My offer still stands. You will not live off takeaways till
the day you die"
Me: "I will visit you every afternoon when you're married so
that I take notes when you cook"
Omuhle: "You mean to tell me you can't even cook a boiled
chicken?"
Me: "I've never tried"
We served the people. Thinking that after finishing off here we
have to drive to Joburg made me wanna cry my lungs out.
We washed dishes afterwards. Time moves faster when you
don't want it to.
We lied on the bed facing the ceiling.
Mvelo: "I'm so lazy to drive"
Me: "That makes the both of us"
The door creak open.
Omuhle: "I'm going to miss you guys" we sit up straight.
Me: "Leaving already?"
Omuhle: "Yes. I have an early test tomorrow"
Mvelo: "Uhh. Good luck babe" we share a group hug. The car
horn honks outside.
Omuhle: "That's my cue. Drive safely. I love you both" she
blows us kisses before she closes the door.
Mvelo: "We should also get going"
Me: "I'm still enjoying being here"
Mvelo: "Please stop being a baby. Let's go"
We pull our luggage to the car. We are using mine. We go back
inside to bid the parents goodbye.
After our teary goodbye we finally hit the road. I wish we
weren't leaving...
...
As usual. I'm late again. I take a brief shower and put on the
nearest clothes. I make cereal and take my phone. I get on the
lift. Philani is gonna have me for breakfast today.
Philani: "Punctuality babes punctuality!" He says as I step in.
Me: "I'm sorry. I didn't hear my alarm"
Philani: "I've taken 4 loads already. You owe me"
Me: "Oh yes I do. Thank you. You're the best" I give him the
bowl.
Philani: "Go get us decent breakfast"
Me: "By decent you mean kota?"
Philani: "No. I mean your kind of decent breakfast"
Me: "That's the best news I've heard all day"
Philani: "Its 07:30" I chuckle.
Me: "Whatever" I take his card. "You consume every thing
right?"
Philani: "Yes. Except bacon"
Me: "Okay"
I start off by checking if the machines were still going on and
then leave.
My phone rings as I get off on the ground floor. I take a shuttle.
Me: "Mommy"
Melissa: "I already hate the idea of you working if I won't get to
see you on weekends"
Me: "Weekends are the busiest my love"
Melissa: "We are having lunch today at Laura gardens. Will you
be able to join us?"
Me: "Who's 'us'?"
Melissa: "Me, your father, Lisa and Lucas"
Me: "I'll see if my boss agrees of which I doubt he will. Hi, 2
chicken mayo sandwiches, fries and creamed coffee Please"
Melissa: "Are you an assistant?"
Me: "Something like that. Large coffee please"
Melissa: "What's the name of your company?"
Me: "Its...its Hamptons"
Melissa: "Oh. Never heard of it"
Me: "Me neither. I'll call you later to inform you if I will be able
to come or not"
Melissa: "Ok my baby. Love you"
Me: "Love you more"
"Sir please pay up or I will call the police. As a manager of this
store I have a right to lay charges against you"
Guy: "Someone will be here shortly with my wallet"
Manager: "I'm not playing with you my guy."
I walk over to their table.
Me: "Hi. The traffic is insane. I couldn't find your wallet I found
the card instead. Morning ma'am"
Manager: "Are you his assistant?"
Me: "Uhm yes ma'am. I'm deeply sorry for the inconvenience.
It's all my fault"
Manager: "Go get the speed point" she says to the waitress.
The guy is looking at me crazy. I send my eyes far away. The
waitress comes back with a speed point. I pay up. They walk
away.
Guy: "Thank you so much. It's hard being my kind in such
environments."
Me: "I know right."
Guy: "Please jot down your banking details so I will replace your
money"
Me: "No need to. I don't know when will I be down and need
help. I was doing it out of goodness"
Guy: "Thank you. Where have you been? That white lady
almost killed me. If it wasn't for this beautiful lady I'd be behind
bars as we speak" he says to his assistant I assume. My order
gets called. I leave them to fetch it.
I take a shuttle again back to the building.
Philani: "I was about to call the police"
Me: "Oh please. I borrowed R100"
Philani: "I saw. Our boss is coming today. Be nice"
Me: "I'm forever nice"
Philani: "Be extra nice because he isn't"
Me: "I'll just hide in the laundry room"
Philani: "He wants to see you and check if everything is still
going on good. Mmmh this tastes good"
Me: "I know right. So, what am I expected to do when he
comes?"
Philani: "Give him a Colgate smile and offer him coffee. Black
one"
Me: "Is the Jacobs his?"
Philani: "Yes baby. With only 2 teaspoons of sugar" he is so
white.
Me: "Only satans drink that coffee"
Philani: "He's a bit of that"
We laugh. We eat over a silly conversation. I text mom that I
can't make it to lunch.
I receive a text from Mvelo that she's taking me out for dinner
later. She's the best.
Philani excuses himself. I steal his fries. I am certain I have
gained a few pounds. We eat in this place. Takeaways after
takeaways.
"Greetings" I jump and almost spill my coffee.
Me: "Really? There was no need to thud the counter"
Him: "Apologies princess. I would like you to clean my clothes
got me" he puts his bag on the scale and remove it before I
could see what it costs.
Me: "Can you please put the bag again?"
Him: "Maybe if you took your job seriously you'd have seen
how much it weighs"
Me: "Well I was still looking for a pen"
Him: "Why isn't your pen in your desk where you can see it?"
Me: "Can you please put the bag there again and stop acting all
righteous"
He smirks and place it again. "Okay you can move it. That'll cost
R200"
Him: "Strictly Surf for my white tees and then OMO for my caps
and jackets. And my clothes can't be mixed with other
people's" See why I can't stand this kind? So now his clothes
must be washed seperately?
Me: "I'm afraid we don't do that here"
Him: "Can I have coffee?"
Me: "This isn't a coffee shop"
Him: "Sabathile McVeigh can I please have coffee? Strong with
2 sugars please"
Me: "As I've said this isn't-" oh God no. No no no!
Philani: "Sir. You're here early."
Him: "Yes I am. I have somewhere to go later. Am I gonna get
my coffee Sabathile?" I gulp.
Me: "Yes. Uhm yes sir. Coming right up"
I storm to the kitchen. My hands fail to hold the kettle steady. I
hope he doesn't fire me.
The water boils quicker than expected. I make his coffee and go
back. He's now in busy on the computer. Yep he's wearing the
famous shoes but the carvela ones.
Me: "Here you go Sir"
Him: "Thank you Sabathile"
Me: "Alexis"
Him: "Ok Sabathile. Nice to meet you. I'm Bhekisizwe
samaNcube" whatever the hell that is.
Me: "Likewise. I'm sorry about-"
Bheki: "Please go help Philani"
With pleasure.
Me: "Why didn't you tell me he's black?"
Philani: "Who?"
Me: "Our boss! Do you know how mean was I to him?" He
laughs
Philani: "Wow. Maybe that's why he's nice today. Why would
you assume he's white?"
Me: "Because of Jacobs. Ugh I wanna jump out this window"
Philani: "Who told you black people do not drink Jacobs?"
Me: "Its too bitter for our taste buds"
"Sabathile?"
Me: "Why the hell did you tell him that name?"
Philani: "Its on your documents girly"
Bheki: "Sabathile!"
Me: "Coming!"
I find him holding his both hands before chest with a smirk on
his face.
Bheki: "Please get ready we're going to buy the equipment"
Me: "I am ready"
Bheki: "Let's go then"
He leads the way out.
Bheki: "Ehh Sabathile, can you drive?"
Me: "With all due respect. I prefer the Lexi name"
Bheki: "With all due respect. This is my mouth and my voice so I
will say what I like with it. Sabathile"
Its official I do not like him. I get on the passenger seat.
He takes out a can of play and lean on the car and drinks it
slowly and passionately and greets everybody passing by.
This is one weird person. I need this job so I will be patient..
6
He walks in with takeaways. I take a quick sip from my cup to
finish all the remaining coffee-vodka. Don't judge please. A girl
needs to plug at least once a week even if it means stealing her
boss's hidden vodka that she found cleaning. Yes I cleaned
yesterday after 5 hours at the mall getting the equipment.
Although it is not something I'd rather do for the rest of my life
but I am getting there. This place is squiky clean than I've ever
seen it so I guess that's good progress on my cleaning skills.
Bheki: "Sawubona we Sabathile" I sigh.
Me: "Goodday Sir" he smirks.
Bheki: "Food" he says placing it on top of the counter.
Me: "Thank you"
Bheki: "Where is Philani?"
Me: "He went to get some things from the shop. He should be
back anytime from now"
Bheki: "This place looks different and smells nice"
Me: "I cleaned" he frowns looking around and then gets back at
me.
Bheki: "Its good to know you can clean with those wizard nails"
Me: "Yes" I take the takeaways. "Are you gonna be staying?"
Bheki: "Yeah if I want to"
Me: "Okay. Please make yourself at home I'm busy with
something here"
Bheki: "I have a few errands to run. The 2 new machines will
arrive at 6pm make sure you're here"
Me: "But I knock off at 5"
Bheki: "Today you'll knock off at 6:30. I'll pay for that hour and
a half"
Me: "Fine"
Bheki: "Have a good day miss" yeah whatever get lost.
Me: "Thank you sir. You do too" I hope you run to a very big
man and he beats your ass. He smiles.
Bheki: "Thank you"
He turns around to leave. He's not wearing those shoes today.
At least he's into sneakers.
I reach for my phone on the charger and call Mvelo.
Mvelo: "My baby"
Me: "Can you please create posts there? I need a job"
Mvelo: "What has prince charming done now?" She's so
obsessed with this kind in a way that she found it amusing that
Bheki made me stay in the car for 30 minutes straight waiting
for him to finish up drinking his Play and then forced me to
drive and kept calling me that sick name.
Me: "I really miss my Mvelo not this hopeless romantic person"
she laughs. "Well Bheki the boss ordered me to knock off at
6:30 so I don't think we can still meet"
Mvelo: "Are you kidding me? I miss you. We'll have our little
picnic at my house. Do you have fuel money?"
Me: "You know I don't"
Mvelo: "I'll eft you"
Me: "No just uber me"
Mvelo: "Okay my love. Wine?"
Me: "My life is too complicated to drink wine I want something
strong"
Mvelo: "You're going to work tomorrow"
Me: "More reasons for something strong"
Mvelo: "I give up on you child...oh your mom called she said
your phone isn't going through"
Me: "I blocked her calls. They say they want to come to my
work place and you know I can't let that happen"
Mvelo: "But she's never judged you"
Me: "Dad, aunt Mary, Will and the Whitney will"
Mvelo: "So are you going to avoid them forever?"
Me: "No but I'm planning on avoiding them until I have enough
money to move out."
Mvelo: "Okay babe. Let me go fire someone. Hardest part of my
job" I laugh.
Me: "I'm sorry sweetie. You signed up for it"
Mvelo: "Yes I did. Bye"
Me: "See ya"
I hang up and chuckle.
"Someone's inlove" I jump.
Me: "Oh please. Love is overrated"
Philani: "No its not. You wouldn't be smiling like that without a
man"
Me: "Well I am because men are good for nothing but
disappointment in my books"
Philani: "What's his name?"
Me: "Who? There's really no man"
Philani: "The man who broke your heart. I want to pay him a
visit" I laugh.
Me: "And do what? I'm pretty sure you wouldn't hurt a fly"
Philani: "True but I can break someone's neck"
He takes a seat next to me. "I thought you were broke"
Me: "I am. Boss man brought this"
Philani: "Don't touch it!" I startle.
Me: "Why?"
Philani: "It could be a bomb" I sigh.
Me: "Really Philani? I almost fell off the chair"
Philani: "I see him once a month if God reminds him he owns
this place. He doesn't bring nothing but his arrogant self."
Me: "He's not that bad come on"
Philani: "I've worked for him for 7 years now. This place is
starting to feel like mine, well it was until now because he's
showing little interest"
Me: "Can we please eat now?"
Philani: "I think he likes you" I gag.
Me: "Eww. Very eww I don't date and even if I was I wouldn't
date a man that considers honchos and chicken licken as
lunch"
Philani: "There must've been no KFC where he was. It's his
favorite but this is meat who cares where is it from?" I raise my
hand. He huff and take out the food. He bought spa letta creme
soda tiny cans. God what planet is this man from? Who drinks
green fizzy drinks?
Me: "I'll down my food with that flying fish" It is "some things"
Philani went to buy. He's as corrupt as I am but a bit better
because I doubt he's ever stolen that vodka.
Philani: "You're ungrateful"
Me: "I am not but I will not drink this thing. I only drink diet
coke alcohol thanks"
He chuckles and pass me my 6 carry pack. I smile alone and kiss
it.
Me: "Hello my love. This here is my true love and whom I'd
marry"
Philani: "God save your child"
Me: "I was saved the he created the brewers of any alcohol"
He laughs and we eat. He's wearing a fitting shirt today. I was
hoping we'll talk about going shopping for fitting clothes today
but he will just defend himself with this shirt so we'll talk when
he has one of those t-shirts on...
...
"Hello. Ma'am? Hi" It felt like a dream until I came to my senses
that it isn't. Someone is actually here.
I open my eyes. Indeed there is. I clear my throat and try to get
up but my body fails me.
Me: "Uhm Hi. Here to deliver machines?"
Man: "Uhm yes. I'm sorry we're late we had a bit of crisis"
What does he mean late? If he's late then what time is it? I
search for my phone. When did Philani leave?
I find a note.
'I put everything in your bag' I pull my bag from under my chair.
I find my phone. No no no!
There are numerous missed calls from Mvelo. Its close to 8pm.
The man clears his throat.
Me: "I'm sorry. I'm just...please come in"
He calls someone.
Man: "Please sign here"
I take the clipboard and sign. I attempt to get up again and the
miracle happens, my body lets me .
I open the burglar and they wheel them in. They say their
goodbyes. I lean against the wall and listen to my pounding
head.
I finally decide to take my things and lock the burglar guard. I
hear heels click on the floor. She attacks me with hug.
Mvelo: "I was so worried sick about you"
Me: "Got drunk and passed out"
Mvelo: "You were drinking at work?"
Me: "Yes."
Mvelo: "Lexi!"
Me: "Its not like my boss will find out or anything"
I pull her out.
Mvelo: "Still. It is not allowed"
Me: "Yes ma'am. It was just this once"
Mvelo: "Well I hope so."
She double checks if I locked and leads me to the lift.
Me: "Are we still going to your house?"
Mvelo: "No we're going to the penthouse. We'll have dinner
and then watch a movie"
Me: "With our phones off?"
Mvelo: "Why?"
Me: "Because Shaka's warrior never stops calling" she laughs.
Mvelo: "That's funny because he complains about the same
thing"
Me: "I was here first I have all the rights to call whenever"
Mvelo: "And I'm his fiance"
Me: "Whatever"
We arrive at the penthouse.
Mvelo: "You're improving. Its so clean in here"
Me: "Yes plus now I know how to use these machines"
Mvelo: "They were never complicated you were just ignorant"
Me: "Thanks for reminding me. What are we gonna eat?"
Mvelo: "I feel like something greasy and spicy"
Me: "I shall forever be battled by how you consume so much
fat but never gain any weight "
Mvelo: "That makes the both of us honey"
Me: "No I do gain"
Mvelo: "That's because you eat and sleep and you hate stairs"
Me: "Well excuse me for not trying to faint"
Mvelo: "They have great impact trust me. Bring the shower
snacks" all the time! She laughs and run to my room.
I find her in her undies.
Me: "Can you be the one to bring shower snacks next time?"
Mvelo: "No"
Me: "Okay. Fetch the shower drink and glasses please because I
took them out this morning" she looks at me defeated.
Me: "Don't just stand there. Go" she waves her middle fingers
in the air. I wave mine back and pour the snacks to the bowl. I
strip naked and walk to the bathroom. I turn off the taps and
light the candles.
She gets in and pour the champagne to our glasses and then
joins me on applying our go to scrub.
Me: "I miss such nights you know"
Mvelo: "Me too and Nduna is granting me as many as I want
because we are getting married soon"
Me: "That breaks my heart"
Mvelo: "Come on. We'll have our time but not as much as we
used to"
Me: "Can't I like, move in with you guys? I promise I'll be a good
kid" we laugh.
Mvelo: "You know that home is wherever I am"
Me: "I do babe. You know it bruises my ego to admit this but
I'm happy about how the Shaka's warrior makes you happy.
And to see that he's willing to love you for the rest of your life is
insanely beautiful and I'm happy for you" she hugs me.
Mvelo: "You don't know how happy am I to hear that"
Me: "I love you"
Mvelo: "I love you more"
We finally soak our selves on the warm water and she tells me
about her bedroom experiments. Call me crazy but I love
hearing about those. I want it but the problem is that its from
men and I could never survive those artificial penises.
Sometimes I regret not going home on my first year Easter
holidays. I wouldn't have met that villain.
He found me peaceful
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trusting and innocent and decided to shake all that up.
My very first love and probably the last made sure I never look
at men the same. Wherever he is he must be celebrating
because he succeeded.
You know when you're young and naive. Seeing beautiful
intentions in everyone who shows you love. I fell for that trap.
He was so sweet, caring and I concluded he was the love of my
life. I had never seen him in our building before and I was so
smitten when he asked to buy me ice cream which turned out
to be an ice cream date. We talked for hours and killed
ourselves with ice cream.
That was the beginning of our little union. We did everything
together. He was working as a charted accountant, he had his
shit together which made him more attractive.
I fell real hard for him. Our relationship was all bliss until
September that year when I was packing for our mini baecation
in Durban. I received a call from a number I couldn't realize, she
was crying hysterically saying I killed her husband. I didn't
understand until she mentioned: "If it wasn't for you home
wrecker and your Durban trip Paul would still be alive"
I was broken twice. A man kept me in the dark and then died
leaving me to deal with myself and guilt of dating a married
man. Up to this day I haven't forgiven myself for his death. I
hated the fact that I am exactly like my mother. The fact that I
didn't know and that I didn't fall pregnant doesn't make it okay.
I gave an innocent woman sleepless nights.
If he wasn't taking me to Durban he'd still be alive. He left his
wife and their unborn baby.
I vowed to myself to never fall inlove. I vowed to die alone
because men never have good intentions which made me hire
someone to do a background check on Nduna with my last
money because I can't let anything like that happen to my
friend who's the biggest part of my life....
The house phone rings.
Me: "Go get that"
Mvelo: "It must be our food"
Me: "Perfect timing cause I'm dying"
She gets out and take a gown.
I get out too and remove the stopper. I put on the gown and
take the bowl, glasses and an empty bottle of champagne.
That's us. We could drink 3 drums in one night.
She runs in.
Me: "What's chasing you?"
Mvelo: "Its not our food"
Me: "Who is it then?" She bites her upper lip.
Mvelo: "Bheki"
Me: "Tell me you didn't grant him access"
Mvelo: "Let's just say he's on 10th floor now"
The lift dings. "Or not" she runs back to the bed room. He has
flowers in his hands. Holy ghost please burn him up right now!
He turns around quickly.
Bheki: "Ntombi emhlophe please excuse me for budging in so
late. I see you're even in your undies. Please go dress up I'll be
here"
Me: "This is a gown"
Bheki: "An outsider can not see you in your sleep wear
nkosazana. I'm in a bit of a hurry so please put clothes on"
Me: "Or you could just say what you need without looking and
leave"
Bheki: "Great. I brought you these flowers to thank you for
staying up until late for the delivery guys and to take the keys.
You have a day off tomorrow you can go and buy yourself
something nice"
Me: "Thank you. I'll go fetch keys for you"
I walk to the bedroom.
Mvelo: "What is he saying?"
Me: "That this is an underwear."
Mvelo: "Well it is. These are the kinds of robes to wear to sexy
bae"
Me: "Oh God it's contagious" she laughs and tosses me the big
gown. I put it on and take the keys.
I find him still in the same position.
Me: "You can turn around" he does.
Bheki: "Is it snowing in your bedroom?"
Me: "What? Why would you..." its the gown. I laugh. "This is
what I could find" I give him the keys.
Bheki: "Bye bye"
Me: "The flowers"
Bheki: "Oh yeah" he hands them over. They look fresh from the
garden.
Me: "Thank you"
The lift closes.
Mvelo: "He's so romantic. See? Zulu men aren't bad at all. Or
men in general"
I put the flowers on the counter and pretend I didn't hear that.
"So. What's the story behind these beautiful fresh flowers?"
Me: " A Thank you for staying up late for the delivery guys" we
stare at each other and bust out laughing.
Mvelo: "If only he knew it was unintentional"
Me: "He doesn't need to know that"
The phone rings again. I get it. It's our food...
...
The sun rays pointed straight to my skin causing me to wake up.
I find a note and a card on top on the cabinet.
'Go pamper yourself. It's been long' I smile and get up. I fix the
bed.
I text mom after.
'Morning Queen. Lunch?'
And then text daddy. Just a greeting.
I haven't seen them in a while and I miss them so much but part
of growing up includes being scarce right?
I take a quick shower. Its 9am I'm already late. I need new
clothes and 11am isn't a good time to start shopping. Plus I'm
taking my car with me today. I miss her.
I apply little make up and head for the lift. I pass by the work
place to check on Philani.
I arrive on ground floor and everyone is talking about missing
flowers.
"What a terrible person that is. Mrs Kavinsky worked so hard
growing her flowers"
"Why couldn't that thief steal these ugly ones"
"The security must check the footage"
"They did. The thief had a black plastic over his head and 9
people checked in at 10pm"
Such a coincidence that Bheki came here at 10 with fresh
flowers. He's sick in the head I swear. I call Mrs Nduna.
Mvelo: "Why do I still have so much money in that account?"
Me: "Zulu men aren't that bad huh?"
Mvelo: "Who have they killed?"
Me: "Those flowers! He stole Mrs Kavinsky's flowers" she
laughs.
Mvelo: "Its the thought that counts. What a gentleman"
Me: "You're possessed. Thanks for the card looney"
I hang up and text Bheki.
'Really? Do you know how much she loves those flowers?'
My phone beeps as I drive out.
'I only took 10, I left the whole 5 she must stop being dramatic
and selfish'
He doesn't even see anything wrong with it....
7
It's been 3 weeks. My life is...I wouldn't say best but I'm happy
with what I'm learning each day on the "Real world". I'm
actually happy my parents decided I should get a glimpse
outside my usual little world.
I got my first ever salary last week and I still haven't used it. I
want to move out of the penthouse before the due date. The
money I earned is enough to get me an apartment to rent next
month when I get paid again.
Philani and I went for shopping last week Friday. I thank the
lady that just moved in, he was going to give me hard time
when I told him he should get new clothes. He has a huge crush
on her apperantly. I thought he was gay. I was really surprised
when he told me he thinks he likes someone.
We have not seen nor heard from Mr Bheki since the day after
he stole Mrs Kavinsky's flowers. Nomvelo is stressed she
convinced me to call him but fortunately it went to voicemail. I
can see she thinks I will somehow fall inlove with this Bheki and
I've decided to let her be.
We've been going up and down the flee market buying things
for her Nqiba masondo (A ceremony that is done after lobola
negotiations. The bride gifts her in-laws with groceries and
blankets). Nduna is probably dying of cancer but don't wanna
say it. Umembeso will be next month and then their wedding
will be in December. I don't understand the rush. Where am I
gonna get money to sew dresses for 3 occasions in a row? They
better find me a better job at least before the wedding. I need
to look my best, that'll be my wedding too.
Today is Monday, my day off. I love that part. I love days where
by nothing can get between me and my sleep. Though Mvelo
will come during lunch. We're going to check out her dress that
she'll be wearing on the Nqiba masondo.
Nduna is thrilled that'll they'll be matching.
I roll over to the side and take my phone. I have 4 hours to get
ready. I have to do the most annoying thing in the whole entire
world: cleaning.
The intercom buzzes. That better be not someone who's here
to visit.
I get up to check who is it.
'Did you send me food?' I text Mvelo as I walk to the phone.
Me: "Lexi"
Person: "Hey Lexi. Please grant me access"
Me: "Sis Buhle?"
Sis Buhle: "Yes open up"
I haven't seen her since that day she came to tell me she will
not be working for me anymore: daddy's orders.
I buzz her in and fly around picking things up. Maybe my dad
sent her to check if I'm able to keep this place clean. It's not
that bad.
The lift dings and parts. She gives me a huge smile and opens
her arms. I throw myself in.
Me: "I missed you so much"
Sis Buhle: "Not more than I did" she squeezed me one more
time before letting go.
Me: "Where have you been?"
Sis Buhle: "Cape Town. Your father found me a job there"
Me: "He's such a..." she warns. I laugh. "For real. Why would he
send you so far away. Its not like I would've dragged you back
here to clean this place"
Sis Buhle: "Right? But I'm here anyway I decided to come and
see how my baby is holding up. I can see that you're getting
there"
Me: "Yes I'm trying. I
can even use the machines now"
Sis Buhle: "I'm proud of you my love. Going anywhere today?"
Me: "Yes with Mvelo. She's getting married"
Sis Buhle: "Get out of here!"
Me: "Unbelievable, isn't it? Zulu Prince charming stole her
heart"
Sis Buhle: "I should get a dress ready. Also a gift. I will stay here
and turn this place upside down"
Me: "You don't have to do that. You can come with us. It'll be
fun"
Sis Buhle: "Girlie. Bath and fix yourself and leave. I see you've
been cleaning but I know there are some corners you didn't
touch"
Me: "You love spoiling me"
Sis Buhle: "I love you that's why"
Me: "I'll order us breakfast"
Sis Buhle: "I missed your expensive food. I struggled with that
house delivery app"
Me: "Uber eats or Mr D food"
Sis Buhle: "The one with a walking burger" we laugh.
Me: "That's Mr D food"
Sis Buhle: "Go away please"
I laugh and walk to my bedroom. My phone rings. It's Mvelo. I
throw myself on the bed and answer.
Me: "Love of my life"
Mvelo: "Don't eat it! I didn't send it"
Me: "What?...oh the food? No I thought whoever was
downstairs was someone you sent to deliver me food"
Mvelo: "I almost had stroke. Is that the reason you're up
early?"
Me: "No. I wanted to clean"
Mvelo: "Ok good. I might show up early"
Me: "Okay. There's Sis Buhle"
Mvelo: "Give me 2 hours"
I laugh. We're insanely fond of her. She's been my nanny since
from grade 10 when aunty Dorothy died. So when I moved in
here, my dad said she will come with me.
She's literally my second mom or older sister.
Me: "Okay. Let me bath and do my face"
Mvelo: "Bye babe"
She hang up. I look my reflection on the mirror. I need to redo
my hair. My weaves are gonna start floating soon.
I change the linen and tide up.
***
I did not realize my hot tub obsession until now that Mvelo is
here waiting for me to dress up. There's no time to do my face
anymore.
Mvelo: "You look hot"
Me: "I get it you want us to go but really?"
Mvelo: "Lexi. We're going from here to the designer and then
back here. And besides oversized t-shirts and heels are the it
thing recently. Where's your mickey bag?"
Me: "In my closet?"
Mvelo: "Yup I'll get it. Choose the hair you're wearing"
Me: "White?"
Mvelo: "You know every color was made for that beautiful
face" I chuckle. She's such a smooth talker. She disappears to
the closet. I put on foundation quickly and yep we're ready to
go.
Mvelo: "Seems like baba Mlangeni is coming with us"
Me: "I am so not in the mood to be called Sabathile today"
Mvelo: "He won't. Let's go"
Sis Buhle was born for this thing. She turned it around and it
looks as good as new.
She finished and bathed then buried herself on the couch and
watched her weird reality tv shows.
She blatantly refused to come with us so we let her be.
Me: "Are we gonna find you here?"
Sis Buhle: "Nope. I am going to my mother's house around
3pm"
Mvelo: "Oh no we'll be back by then"
Sis Buhle: "You'll find me here then"
Me: "Thank you once again for stopping by"
Sis Buhle: "Don't sweat it" we laugh and walk to the lift.
Mvelo: "Nduna is here to fetch us"
Me: "Doesn't he have work to do?"
Mvelo: "He probably doesn't"
We get off at the ground floor. I'll see Philani on my way back.
My phone beeps.
'We'd like to see you today' its from my mother. This change
seems to be effecting them more.
'Okay I'll stop by later' I respond.
Nduna: "My beautiful bride and her beautiful best lady"
Me: "Maid of honor"
Nduna: "Right. How are you doing today maid of honor? I
haven't seen you in a while"
Me: "I'm good how's yourself?"
Nduna: "Very good. So are you still gonna go back inside to put
on pants?"
Mvelo: "No. She's dressed"
Nduna: "Only the t-shirt?"
Me: "Its a t-shirt/dress. Can we get in the car?"
Nduna: "Is it? It's so nice being a woman" he opened the doors
for us.
Me: "Thank you sir. Now tell me why do you wanna come with
us?" I ask as we drive off.
Nduna: "Because I wanted to spend time with you my loves. I'm
taking you out for lunch afterwards"
Me: "Really? Where? KFC or honchos?" Mvelo burst out
laughing.
Mvelo: "He's not Bheki"
Nduna: "Bheki?" He looks at me on the rearview mirror. "Is that
sbari?"
Me: "Oh please. He's my boss"
Nduna: "I can't wait for you to find a man"
Me: "I'm not looking"
Nduna: "Well I will look for you. I do not like this thing of
sharing my wife's attention"
Me: "You signed up for this. She comes with a package"
Nduna: "A very annoying one. It would've been better if she
had a child not you magogo"
Mvelo: "Baby! You guys"
Me: "I wish you gain a few extra pounds 3 days before the
ceremony so that the shirt won't fit"
Nduna: "No need to be evil. Mvelo tells me you want us to pay
for your wedding dresses"
Me: "Yes. I'm broke"
Nduna: "Tell me when you've found the designer" I smile.
Me: "You're sweet. You can take us to KFC no problem"
Nduna: "I'm taking you to chicken licken actually"
Mvelo: "Noway!"
Me: "Its nice"
Mvelo: "Are you kidding me?"
Nduna: "We'll buy wings"
Mvelo: "I prefer Zinger wings"
Me: "As long as it is meat"
Mvelo: "You're a betrayer"
Me: "Thanks"
Nduna put on metro. He's not that bad indeed and he hasn't
called me by that name so I guess we're good...
...
I hate how much "let's grab a drink" always turns out to be a
huge freakin mess. All we had to do yesterday is fit the outfits
grab lunch and then come back home. I was so surprised Nduna
let's Mvelo drink or even knows such beautiful places for classic
people.
We no reservations but we ended inside. He has connections
apperantly.
Here I am. Its 9am and I'm still in this bed looking for any
possible hero to come and bath me and carry me to work.
I hate those love birds. I hear the lift dings.
Me: "I hope you got me hangover treat" I say with my
insufficient voice. My phone rings. The bag is across the room.
Whoever that is might like to wait a bit because I'm still
gathering my strength to get up.
I hear a knock.
Me: "Come in" oh look who remembered he has employees
and a laundry business. "How did you get in?"
Bheki: "I pressed penthouse and the thing moved"
Me: "Lies. Philani told you the access code"
Bheki: "You're late for work"
Me: "I am. My mom uhm..."
Bheki: "Can I bring the laptop here and you redo our logo.
Upgrade the whole thing. I want to renovate the place"
Me: "Uhm no need to do that. I'll take the shower quickly then
I'll be down in a minute" I try getting up but my covers trip me.
This happens everytime infront of people I'd rather not have
them see it.
Bheki: "Can I wait in the lounge?"
Me: "Yes you can" he's so polite today.
I get up after a little struggle to untangle the duvet. I rush to the
shower.
I come back to find my bed already made and there's humming
from the closet. I slowly open.
Sis Buhle: "Hi sweetie"
Me: "Hey. You're here again"
Sis Buhle: "Yes. Why are they with black heels?"
Me: "I came back really drunk last night I'm sorry"
I pull black fila sneakers. My knees will definitely not handle
heels today.
I put on a dress. Anything tight will not do. I need all the fresh
air I could get today.
Me: "Did you find someone in the lounge?"
Sis Buhle: "No. Who was it?"
Me: "My boss. I'll see you later"
Sis Buhle: "Bye"
I take my bag and my phone and walk out. I find him sitting on
the high chair.
Bheki: "I hope you don't mind I took a seat and poured myself
water"
Me: "I don't. We can go"
Bheki: "You can work from here. You don't look okay"
Me: "I had a rough night"
Bheki: "Yeah that's why you have to work from home. Just put
your panties on and then help me pull this together"
Me: "You want me to be naked?"
Bheki: "Not naked naked but put on your sleepwear"
Me: "Pyjamas"
Bheki: "Yeah that"
Me: "Is it part of my job or you're just asking a favor?"
Bheki: "Its..." he clears his throat and chuckles. "I came to ask a
favor. You women are good with this but I will include it in your
salary"
Me: "Now we're talking"
Bheki: "Will you never ask a favor from me?"
Me: "Nope. I know how to handle my business"
Bheki: "You could never be too sure. Your taps might start
acting up and I specialize in that"
Me: "I have a personal plumber thank you"
Bheki: "Let's get down to work"
Me: "Where's Philani"
Bheki: "Helping the guys pack"
Me: "Did you wake up and decided to redo the place?"
Bheki: "Yes."
I take the laptop and head to the lounge area.
Me: "Why?"
Bheki: "Its about time. I just opened the place. I never put too
much effort but its making tangible profit. So its only best I
show it some love"
Me: "Mmmh. So, what colors should be included on your
logo?"
Bheki: "Yellow and blue?" I laugh.
Me: "I'm sorry but really?"
Bheki: "Don't laugh. Suggest those you think are the best" he
pauses. "Know what? Just make it your own baby. Do whatever
you want to do. I'll stop by to see the results"
Me: "You will regret that"
Bheki: "I won't"
Me: "Why are you so nice today?"
Bheki: "Because I want you to help me Lexi"
Me: "Oh you know that name?" He smirks
Bheki: "I do. And from now on I vow to never call you by that
other name"
Me: "Ah thanks heavens"
Bheki: "Have a lovely day ma'am"
Me: "Thank you Sir" he smiles and turn away heading to the lift.
I prefer this desperate him.
I text Mvelo. I will need her input...
...
Trust time to go from 10am to 5pm in 4 hours. I am not really
looking forward into seeing my parents. I feel like there's a
meeting, they would all give up their left ears to see where I
work.
I knew it! He's here. His presence could only mean one thing:
nuisance.
I park behind his car. Ugh mom is something else. Why would
she let me come here knowing that this devil is here too.
I get off with goodies I bought. I won't even bother taking the
laptop. My stay won't be long anyway.
Me: "Greetings"
Melissa: "Is that my baby?" She shouts from the kitchen.
Me: "Yes" I laugh and hugs daddy.
Marcus: "Did you just take a bath?"
Me: "No I naturally smell fresh"
Marcus: "You sure does"
Me: "Where's Will?"
Marcus: "Upstairs taking a bath."
Me: "He's sleeping over?"
Marcus: "Yes"
Melissa: "And he's getting married" the excitement in her face.
Me: "So fast?"
Melissa: "Yes. A King always needs a queen baby" she says
hugging me.
Me: "That's why he's always divorcing."
Marcus: "Lexi!"
Me: "Its true. You know it is. When is it?"
Melissa: "On the 30th"
Me: "It would be very selfish of him to expect me to attend this
one too"
Marcus: "You can't miss a wedding"
Me: "Its his 3rd wedding. What's so special about it?"
Melissa: "Alexis you will attend the wedding"
Me: "I won't. I'll send him a gift. Nothing too extreme though
I'm broke"
Marcus: "I thought your job paid you well"
Me: "Yes for my needs daddy"
Melissa: "Okay. We did not call you here to discuss Will's 3rd
marriage. Your father and I have a little something for you"
Me: "I thought no more gifts"
Marcus: "Don't be silly" he picks a portable box from aside and
hands it to me.
Me: "What is it?" I chuckle nervously.
Melissa: "Open"
I open it. Its my car keys and my cards.
Me: "What does this mean?"
Marcus: "What do you think it means?"
Me: "You're giving it back?"
Melissa: "We've endured so much pain seeing you being alone
out there trying to figure everything out on your own. When we
found out you work at laundry, we realized you're exactly
where we wanted you to be"
Me: "Mom..." I hug her. "And I'm doing pretty fine you guys. I'm
so glad you thought of introducing me to real life"
Marcus: "Now you know how it goes on the other side of the
world. You can clean even"
Me: "Yes I can"
We form a group hug.
Marcus: "You can come be my p.a."
Me: "I am enjoying my job"
Melissa: "I am proud of you"
Marcus: "We are proud of you"
Me: "Thank you my loves"
"Just in time"
We let go. I sigh.
Aunt Mary: "I thought I'd miss you"
Melissa: "We weren't expecting you"
Aunty Mary: "Ofcourse you weren't. Oh Where are my
manners. This is Ronnie, Lexi's soon to be husband"
Us: "What?"
Aunt Mary: "Yes. I will not let you humiliate us"
Me: "Well you dragged feet" mom and dad look at me
surprised.
Melissa: "What do you mean?" I gulp.
Me: "I am seeing someone"
Aunt Mary: "You are?"
Me: "Yes."
Aunt Mary: "My boy please go make yourself something to eat
in the kitchen"
I wanna puke! What does aunt Mary take me for? A man who
wears such big jeans? Really?
Marcus: "So, who's the lucky guy?" Oh oh.
Me: "The lucky guy?" I fake laugh. "I wouldn't really say that"
Aunt Mary: "We're waiting on the name!"
Me: Its...its Bheki samaNcube"
Aunt Mary: "What on earth is that?"
Me: "My boyfriend"
Melissa: "We'd love to meet him"
Me: "No! I mean it's only been for a few weeks"
Marcus: "That's why we need to see him. We'll get to judge if
he's perfect for you or not"
Aunt Mary: "This Saturday will do. Everyone will be around"
Me: "He's a very busy man. That's too short notice"
Aunt Mary: "If he doesn't show up on Saturday then you're
getting married to Ronnie."
Melissa: "That will not happen. Love please reprimand your
sister. She's too involved in my daughter's life its sickening"
She says and pull me outside. Well done mommy.
My phone rings.
Me: "I got to take this"
She nods and I walk the opposite direction. Why didn't I think
of Philani though? How am I gonna explain this to Bheki? He
will probably laugh and think I'm crazy....
8
I hate it when I need someone so much and they don't answer.
Does she even have any idea how much I need to talk to her?
"Lexi? Supper is ready" mom says after attempting to open. I
just came here and locked myself in. I can't stand aunt Mary
and her questions about "my man". It's like she sees through
me.
Me: "Okay. I was bathing I'll be right there in a minute"
Melissa: "Ok hurry. I don't want you driving at night"
Me: "Yes mom"
I hear footsteps fade away. I look through my pyjama dresser
and find a romper. This will do. I put it on. This weather is crazy.
When I arrived it was warm but now we're June. I'm so glad
thunder found me this side. It gets really traumatic to be at the
penthouse. I can't stand lightening.
I ring Mvelo again. It goes to voicemail. I hate this life.
I find everyone already eating.
Aunt Mary: "You'll never change"
Me: "What sin have I committed now?"
Will: "Arrived late in the table"
Me: "I told mom I will be late"
Marcus: "Kenneth will drive you. It's late now"
Me: "I'll be fine dad"
Melissa: "Not up for discussion. Men are very wicked these
days. Crime rate is shooting high, especially car theft"
Me: "But you're letting a man drive me"
Marcus: "I'll drive you then"
Will: "Worry not uncle. I will"
Me: "Let me just leave now. Its just a few minutes after 8"
Melissa: "Lexi no"
I get up and rush to the kitchen. I take the bag that has my
food.
Me: "FYI I do drive from my place to Mvelo's at 2am so worry
not. And besides I wanna pass by my boyfriend's place" mom
smiled.
Melissa: "Why didn't you just say? But that food is enough for
the both of you"
Me: "Thank you my love"
Marcus: "Tell him we're looking forward to seeing him"
Me: "I will" I faint smile and walk out with mom and dad.
I put the bag on the passenger seat.
Marcus: "We're proud of you"
Me: "Because I have a man?"
Melissa: "Who cares about that? Mary is going through
menopause. We would never choose a man for you"
Marcus: "Your happiness comes first baby. Aunt Mary and Will
are fighting a losing battle. I am happy though you have a man
now" I shouldn't have lied!
Me: "Let me love you and leave you"
We do a group hug and then I get into my car. They watch me
drive away...
...
The intercom buzzes. He's early. I get off the high chair and
buzz him in.
My phone rings when I sit back down.
Me: "Finally you remembered I exist"
Mvelo: "I'm sorry honey. Nduna's brothers and their wives
arrived unannounced I had to cook I didn't even realize my
phone is dead until now" what kind of people are those.
Me: "Oh I'm sorry love. I hope you told them to inform you next
time"
Mvelo: "I sure did. I don't see myself doing all that I did last
night. Are you okay?"
Me: "No. I lied. I lied terribly."
Mvelo: "To who and why?"
Me: "My family. Aunt Mary brought a size 32 man that wears
size 44 pants and size 15 shoes, he was supposed to be my
husband until I lied and said I have a man."
Mvelo: "Let me guess? They want to meet him?"
Me: "Yes and guess who I said that man is"
Mvelo: "Philani"
Me: "I should've thought of him. Bheki" she laughs and
screams. "I need to rent a man that'll play Bheki"
"Am I dead?" My heart skipped a beat.
Me: "Uhm let me call you later babe"
Mvelo: "Who's there?"
I hang up and turn to face the entrance. Why didn't I hear this
thing beep?
Me: "Hi"
Bheki: "Am I the Bheki you're talking about?"
Me: "Nope"
Bheki: "Why do you look like you just saw mamjiji then?"
Me: " And that's supposed to be?"
Bheki: "Tikoloshe"
Me: "I don't know how people look when they've just seen
him...or her. You may take a seat"
Bheki: "Thank you. I love your romper"
Me: "Thanks"
Bheki: "You look like a real bunny. You just need to walk like
one now"
Me: "You're jolly today"
Bheki: "Its a beautiful morning. I ate my favorite food and drank
my coffee"
Me: "Nice" I push the laptop to him. His eyes wanders on it and
then he smiles.
Bheki: "Is this it? Did you study graphic design?"
Me: "Its a talent. Do you like it?"
Bheki: "I love it. Its not done though, is it?"
Me: "Nope it's not"
Bheki: "Okay. I will make payment before the day ends"
Me: "No no no. You don't have to do that. I would also like you
to do something for me"
Bheki: "Don't tell me you're about to ask me for a favour"
Me: "No I'm not. You're paying me but not with money"
Bheki: "Swallow your pride and ask for that favour because I'm
willing to pay you. With money"
Me: "I don't want money. I need you to act like my boyfriend"
he chuckles.
Bheki: "Why would you want to play your boyfriend?"
Me: "Because I don't be in an arranged marriage"
Bheki: "Where's your real boyfriend?"
Me: "I...we broke up a month ago. Are you gonna help me?"
Bheki: "What's in it for me?"
Me: "Are you kidding me? I am remaking your brand"
Bheki: "I will pay you for that. What is gonna be my payment
for playing your boyfriend?"
Me: "Bheki. Don't pay me. Your payment will be me doing this
for free"
Bheki: "No I don't want to not pay you." Oh my God.
Me: "Why are you complicating things?"
Bheki: "Because I want you to ask me nicely"
Me: "What is nicer that this approach? My parents want to
meet this boyfriend on Saturday"
Bheki: "You've got 3 days to get me to agree. Please finish up
here. How much are you going to charge me?"
Me: "Are you for real?" He smirk.
Bheki: "Yes. Text me your prize. I've got a meeting to rush to"
He heads to the lift. It parts. He gets in and waves me goodbye
before it closes. Wow...
***
First thing I did this morning was send this project to this bully
of a man.
He sent the remaining half of payment. I can't believe I have to
beg him to be my pretend boyfriend.
I am meeting with the parents. My cars arrived in the morning. I
was doing fine really. My favorite was with me so the stress had
toned down.
I am late. As usual. I know my dad is pissed.
Me: "Traffic!"
Melissa: "What kind of traffic is this? Its 12:40"
Me: "People are going to get food. Nice tie"
Marcus: "Its one of the 100 you bought on my birthday"
Me: "Oh I never found time to open the box. Have you guys
ordered yet?"
Marcus: "No. We wanna order a platter" Mon called a waiter
over.
Me: "As long as it has meat"
Melissa: "How about this one? It has wings, ribs or steak, garlic
bread, fries and salad"
Me: "Aren't there other options instead of garlic bread?"
Waiter: "There are buns and briyani"
Me: "I'll have briyani thanks"
Waiter: "Beverages?"
Marcus: "A bottle of wine please"
Me: "I'll have a granadilla juice" they both look at me. "Or a
chocolate- vanilla milkshake"
Waiter: "Coming" he walks away. They are still looking at me
curiously and I'm not going to entertain them.
Me: "So now I can shop like crazy?"
Marcus: "You don't drink anymore?"
Me: "Its Wednesday."
Melissa: "I'm impressed. Well you can't shop like crazy. You will
receive your monthly allowance but you will have a financial
adviser"
Me: "I don't need that. I can spend my money wisely. I have
been doing that for 8 weeks now"
Marcus: "I'll give you 2 months to see if you really can. If you
spend it foolishly then the financial adviser is coming for you"
Me: "Your girl learned her lesson. Worry not"
Melissa: "So you haven't thought about becoming daddy's pa?"
Me: "Having a job as fancy as that is everyone's dream but
working for Marcus Mcveigh isn't my dream. No offense"
Marcus: "None taken" we laugh. "You really like that job?"
Me: "I do. My colleague is good to me, so is my boss"
Melissa: "You can't work there for your whole life"
Me: "I might get lucky and get a job. Some employee might look
past my criminal record"
Marcus: "You will get a job baby. Assault cases aren't that much
of a blockage"
Me: "You might never know"
Melissa: "Stop stressing"
Our food arrives. It looks as good as it looks on the catalogue.
We thank the waiter and he leaves.
Me: "This is worth getting fat for"
Melissa: "I couldn't agree more"
We look at dad. He's already digging in.
My phone beeps.
"That's my location just in case you wanna come ask me nicely
because if you hire someone to pretend to be me I will sue you
for deformation of character"
Is he kidding me?
...
My phone rings as I drive to this lodge. I have never came to
this part of Jo'burg. I've read about it in the news about it's
crime that never ends and pubs in every corner. And they were
not telling lies I've passed more than 6 in 30 minutes. And this
lodge seems like pub too. So many cars. They can't be guest's
only.
I answer.
Me: "Why have you abandoned me?"
Philani: "You know I'm your boss's right hand man"
Me: "Right. I forgot. Have you knocked off?"
Philani: "Yes and in bed. My day starts at 5 tomorrow. Thanks
to you for finishing that project in time"
Me: "It was just a remake of a logo Philani there was no reason
for delay. I'm sorry though. You should've told me to drag feet"
Philani: "You should come help me inspect"
Me: "Is that the reason you'll wake up at 5?"
Philani: "No. Paint will be delivered at 6."
Me: "Ohh ok. What softens a man's heart?"
Philani: "Food. Warm home made food"
Me: "Anything else beside food"
Philani: "Alcohol and soccer dates"
Me: "Okay thanks. Bye I'll see you tomorrow"
I hang up before he complains about something. I get out of the
car and head inside.
T
I ask around if they know someone called Bheki. They send me
to a very tall scary man. I tell him I'm here to see Bheki, he
leads the way. Indeed there's a very beautiful place here that
sells alcohol.
The scary man points at Bheki amongst very beautiful half
naked women. He sees me and gets up smiling.
Bheki: "You came"
Me: "Yep I did. Do you live here?"
Bheki: "No but I spend most of my time here. Come"
I follow him through the corridor. He better not pimp me out.
He unlocks the door and turn on the lights.
Me: "Is this your room?"
Bheki: "No. My boss's. He won't mind that I'm borrowing if for a
few minutes"
Me: "He must be a nice boss"
Bheki: "He is." He sits down.
Me: "I will get straight to the point. Its getting late. I am here to
ask you nicely to be my pretend boyfriend" I give him a weak
smile.
Bheki: "This isn't nice"
Me: "Bheki please"
Bheki: "You're stomping your feet at me?"
Me: "No...I mean, I'm desperate why are you giving me hard
time?"
Bheki: "Because if tables were turned you wouldn't even want
to hear me out"
Me: "That's not true"
Bheki: "Okay." He pours himself juice.
Me: "So, are you gonna do it?"
Bheki: "Not until you become all romantic. This dry humping
isn't sexy. You coming here with no flowers or box of
chocolates. I want something tangible that'll convince me"
Me: "You want warm homemade food?" His smile widens.
Damn!
Bheki: "Now we're talking."
Me: "When?"
Bheki: "Tonight" he has a mental problem.
Me: "Its 8pm"
Bheki: "Perfect time to cook for 2"
Me: "And where will I buy the ingredients? I'm 50 minutes away
from my house"
Bheki: "My boss's kitchen has almost everything. We can go
check it out" God please save me!
Me: "Okay. Let's...Let's check it out" he gets up and head to the
door on the left.
Its a portable beautiful kitchen. He hands me the apron. I put it
on.
Bheki: " Should I start chopping onion? There's every kinds of
meat in here"
I put my bag on a chair and play with my fingers.
Me: "Look Bheki
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I can't cook. I can only do eggs and noodles"
Bheki: "Spaghetti?"
Me: "I don't know how to cook it"
Bheki: "Okay. Get that pot with a dot"
Me: "You aren't surprised?"
Bheki: "Its not like you can't learn. Stop looking like a wet
chicken and pass me the pot. You can do the chopping since I'm
the one cooking now. Take note of everything I do."
I chuckle and pass him the pot.
Me: "You can have the apron"
Bheki: "That's for dramatic people nkosazana. Men like me
cook in their white shirts and walk out without a stain. Orange
juice or milk?"
Me: "Milk?"
Bheki: "Yes. I thought your father was a farmer"
Me: "Yes but I've never seen him being one. People actually
drink milk?"
Bheki: "Yes we do"
Me: "Don't your boss mind?"
Bheki: "He's very understanding. Or you want wine?"
Me: "No thanks I'll have juice"
I take the veggies and start chopping....
•••
Its been quite a busy 3 days. I finally asked nicely enough for
Bheki to agree.
We spent this past 3 days teaching one another about our
interests and everything that's necessary to know about the
person you're involved with.
I hear people laughing. That must be him. Mvelo came here to
'fix me up' I must say she pretty much did exactly that.
I take one last look on the mirror. I look like I'm going out with
the president.
Mvelo: "You will see flaws. Bheki is here" she says hugging me
from behind.
Me: "Thank you friend"
Mvelo: "Anything for my maid of honor"
She takes my hand, we walk out.
Me: "Where is he?"
"Right here"
My God help me. What on earth is he wearing!
Bheki: "You look ravishing."
Me: "Thank you. But sandals and an overrall to a formal
dinner?"
Bheki: "Didn't you say something mustard and white?"
Me: "I did"
Bheki: "Did I fail to get the colors right?"
Me: "No but Bheki I was expecting something formal, we talked
about this"
Bheki: "Yes we did but I didn't say I will wear those wankinki
things"
Me: "And what is that supposed to be?"
Mvelo: "Tight suits"
Me: "But overalls? My aunt will not take you seriously"
Bheki: "Well masiphume kimi lesosalukazi somlungu (that old
white lady must leave me alone). First of all kuzomele
ngikwitize mina (I'll have to speak gibberish) to please her"
Mvelo: "Okay calm down guys. Lexi these overralls are very
trending"
Me: "Who meets their inlaws in overalls"
Bheki: "Me. Are we still driving or we are taking an uber?"
Me: "Whatever that'll get us there"
Bheki: "We'll use my grandma's broom to fly. let's go"
Mvelo shakes her head as I attempt to speak.
...
The drive to my parent's house is quiet. Only Maskandi is
messing with my eardrums.
Thank God we're here. I hop off first.
Bheki: "Hello? Do you want me to get lost and end up to a
butcher house?"
Me: "We don't have a butcher house"
Bheki: "Aren't we supposed to be walking hand in hand?"
Me: "No"
Bheki: "You know my bed is very soft. I could always go back to
my place"
I sigh and wait for him. He reaches me and takes my hand.
This house doesn't look like there's dinner anywhere.
Me: "Mom!"
Shawn comes running and barking. Bheki hides away.
Bheki: "Hhei futsek" he keeps barking at Bheki. I'm holding in a
laifu. "Hhaibo we Sabathile awukhuze inja yakho (stop your
dog)" I laugh.
Me: "His name is Shawn. Shawn, this is Bheki. Stop barking" he
stops and come to me.
Bheki: "Why would you name a dog Shawn?"
Me: "Its my dad's" I lead the way to the porch
Bheki: "He could've named it Spoti or something"
Me: "This is a suburban dog"
Bheki: "Sure as hell it is. It doesn't even understand futsek."
Me: "Please behave my stomach hurts"
Melissa: "I was about to call you"
Me: "You didn't say we'll eat here"
Marcus: "I saw the beautiful stars shining and thought they'd be
very beautiful to eat under"
Me: "That was very thoughtful of you"
Aunt Mary: "Did you ride a scooter on your way here?'
Me: "Huh?" She points at Bheki. "What? No. This is the man
who is behind my smile. Bheki Ncube"
Melissa: "Welcome to the McVeighs Bheki"
Bheki: "Thank you madam" they shake hands. Madam?
Melissa: "Call me Melissa please"
Bheki: "Thats against my culture ma'am"
Marcus: "Come on. I'm Marcus and I am very fine with you
calling me that. How are you son?"
Bheki: "I'm good sir, how are you?"
Marcus: "I'm great. Just aging"
Bheki: "Nice home you have here, a lovely family too. I must say
you did a great job raising this Angel. I never knew such cloth
was cut for me. A whole barbarian"
Me: "Stop it"
Melissa: "Please take a seat. The food is getting cold. I prepared
every kind of meat just in case you have allergies"
Bheki: "Who? Me? That's for white people..." he pause. "I'm
sorry" my parents laugh.
Marcus: "I couldn't agree more. I have a black friend. I've never
heard him say his kids have allergies"
Bheki: "Exactly. Kwamaimai we eat beef stew, chicken, mutton
and goat all in one plate and we don't fall sick."
Aunt Mary: "So Lexi you went for a black man?"
Me: "Yes"
Bheki: "I gave her no choice. I'm a very smooth talker. She
wouldn't give me a chance because she was scared aunt Mary
will disapprove but I told her not to worry we'll handle her" he's
messing up the script. I pinch him under the table
Aunt Mary: "Handle me?"
Bheki: "Yes. We'll find you a husband" mom laughs. "I'm
kidding. I bought you this" he takes out a small envelope.
Me: "You didn't tell me you brought aunty something"
Bheki: "I'm a mystery man my love" he kisses my cheek. I swear
my parents wish we were getting married today. I've seen these
types of smiles, the say I passed matric and on my graduation
day.
Marcus: "We wanna know what's inside there"
Aunt Mary: "It's a cheap gift card. He can't even afford to get a
gift card worth R500, where on earth do you think he'll get
money to marry Lexi" she pushes back the envelope.
Bheki: "Waphuthelwa ke ntombi endala." (Your loss old lady)
Marcus: "Can I speak to you?" He says to aunt Mary.
They get up and walk away.
Melissa: "I'm really sorry about this Bheki. She's just...She's
her"
Bheki: "No need to apologize ma'am"
Me: "You Aren't bothered?"
Bheki: "There's always such a person in every family baby"
Melissa: "She's just embarrassing my child. Dessert?"
Bheki: "Yes ma'am. Thank you. Your food makes me wish I had
an extra stomach"
Melissa: "You're such a flatter."
She says and walks away. Bheki takes another piece of chicken.
Bheki: "What do they feed these chickens? Your mom can cook.
I think I will love playing your boyfriend"
Me: "We're breaking up next week"
Bheki: "Why so early? Sabathile don't be jealous. Let's be
together for at least 2 weeks more I wanna sit on this table and
eat this meat."
Me: "No"
Bheki: "Fine, I'll have them going through our texts"
Me: "You wouldn't dare"
Bheki: "Try me"
Me: "Okay okay. Just stop with the sweet names and don't kiss
me please"
Bheki: "You lack sense of romance"
Everyone comes back. Bheki takes my hand and kisses it. I fake
a smile
Melissa: "You remind me of the olden days. Marcus couldn't
keep his hands off me"
Bheki: "Who keeps their hands off their treasure?" I almost
drop my desert. "Be careful baby. You're so clumsy"
He helps me wipe my hands.
The parents are smiling none stop and the evil aunt Mary is
focusing on her food.
I just want this night to end already...
10
I regret the day I lied about having a boyfriend. Every phone call
from my parents end with "send my love to Bheki" its so
annoying.
Today we're going back to work. Its been quite a beautiful
peaceful week, not for Philani though.
Sis Buhle is back full time. So I have very little to worry about. I
take my phone from the bedside table. I still have 10 more
minutes to stay in bed.
I text the love of my life good morning and browse through my
social networks.
I see an email notification. I click on it.
They must be kidding me. I dial my mother. Why are the
McVeighs so inconsiderate?
Melissa: "Baby"
Me: "but mom I did say I won't be able to attend the wedding"
Melissa: "You told me not the family."
Me: "I know you were there when they made these. A program
director, really? Don't you guys hire someone to that
anymore?"
Melissa: "It will be a very intimate thing Lexi. I'm pretty sure
Mvelo wouldn't mind"
Me: "She will. This is unfair though. Send my love to dad"
Melissa: "Okay baby. Bye"
Me: "Bye"
I hang up and get up and head to the bathroom.
I take a brief bath and prepare myself for work. Sis Buhle greets
from the other side. That means I'm about to be late. I have to
visit Mvelo with a "sorry I can't come to your ceremony" gift. It
sucks. I was looking forwad to it but who goes against king Will.
I know he did this deliberately.
Me: "I swear to God you will die from that coffee one day"
Sis Buhle: "I never say anything when you drink black rose" I zip
my lips.
Me: "Let me go do what I get paid for"
Sis Buhle: "Have a great day my baby. I packed you lunch" she
hands it over.
Me: "Thank you but I'm not 15 anymore. I know how to buy
lunch"
Sis Buhle: "Sorry I didn't get the memo" she says sarcastically. I
laugh and get on the lift.
I find Philani devouring on his famous kota.
Me: "So early in the morning?"
Philani: "Well good morning to you my pearl."
Me: "Morning. This place now looks like a work place, ohh my!
We got a coffee area?"
Philani: "Yes. Isn't cool?"
Me: "I never thought of our boss to be the expresso machine
kind of person"
Philani: "He's a lot of things trust me." He shoves the kota to
me in a blink of an eye and got up like he's being struck by
lightening. I turn around confused.
Oh. I chuckle.
Philani: "Mellow"
Mel: "Philani. Hey Lex"
Me: "Hey boo."
Mel: "I'm so glad you guys are back. You won't believe what did
that laundry my friend suggested did to my clothes. I just had to
throw it all away"
Me: "Oh my that's terrible. I'm deeply sorry. We're now back
and here to take care of your clothes as always"
Mel: "Thank you. This place now looks heavenly. And this
advanced technology is superb"
Me: "Right? Our customers interests come first. This will be
R250, you can scan to pay if you want" she laughs.
Mel: "You guys are on your own level. Is he okay?"
Me: "Who? Him? He's perfectly fine. He just had too much
coffee"
I step on his shoe. He jumps.
Philani: "Yini?!" He snaps.
Me: "Please take these to the laundry room"
Philani: "Uh...have a great day at work Mellow"
Mel: "Thanks. You too" he carries the bag away.
I fail to contain myself and crack up.
Me: "I'm sorry about that. I think he has a crush on you" I
whisper. She snorts.
Mel: "Oh please. Here's your tip. Bye sweets"
Me: "Lucky day. Thank you. Bye"
She turns and walks away. She has a body to die for. It's like she
created herself. I install the data needed into the computer.
Me: "Are you still alive in there?"
Philani: "Leave me alone!"
I laugh and steal his russian. I should get on diet. So many
ceremonies awaits me but this thing here is irresistible....
...
My phone rings as I get into Mvelo's office. What does he
want?
Me: "Goodday"
Bheki: "Yebo nkosazana. Are you well?"
Me: "Yes I'm good. How's yourself?"
Bheki: "I am very good. You're not here"
Me: "Uhm yeah. I went to visit my friend in hospital. I'll be back
within the next 45 minutes though"
Bheki: "Good. Be ready around 4pm I'm taking you out"
Me: "Are you asking me or telling me?"
Bheki: "Don't wear amakwaikwai"
Me: "I can't go anywhere without-" I move the phone off my
ear. My goodness! Who on earth does he think he is?
She attacks me with a hug from behind.
Mvelo: "I hate how much we're always apart now"
Me: "We're getting old" she lets go and laughs.
Mvelo: "Did that just come from you?"
Me: "Yes. Why? You look surprised"
Mvelo: "Aren't you gonna blame it on Nduna or something?" I
chuckle.
Me: "No. We're 25. I have come into terms with the fact that
we can't always stay like doves. Though I wish we could."
Mvelo: "Uhh my friend. I promise you, soon as this whole thing
is over we're going on vacation"
Me: "You will be probably be pregnant after your honeymoon"
Mvelo: "Eww!"
Me: "Excuse you!"
Mvelo: "I'm nowhere ready to be someone's mother babes."
Me: "If you say so Mrs Mlangeni. Here is my I'm sorry. Will
picked the same date as yours for his boring wedding and chose
me to be the program director"
Mvelo: "Why is he so evil? Now I'm sad. I'll feel incomplete.
That ceremony will not be any good without you by my side"
Me: "I know baby. I'm sorry." She opens her gift basket and pull
out chocolates.
Mvelo: "I hate Will right now."
Me: "Finally!"
We laugh.
Mvelo: "So...where's baba Ncube? Have you seen him since
that day?"
Me: "You're gonna die young with this match making. Even if I
was into dating I wouldn't date such a man. Can you believe he
told me to get ready by 4. "I'm taking you out" not "can I take
you out?" He's too arrogant for my liking"
Mvelo: "I find dominance very sexy. I like my man in control"
Me: "Well he's not my man. Did you find that toaster for
mommy inlaw?"
Mvelo: "I ordered it and I'm running out of time. It will arrive
the day after the event."
Me: "As long as it will get to her."
Mvelo: "Yeah but I'd have loved for it to arrive with the rest of
the gifts"
Me: "You worry too much. She will still appreciate. Let's eat. My
lunch is almost over"
Mvelo: "You took an uber?"
Me: "Yep. Driving costs. I am still saving"
Mvelo: "What for now?"
Me: "Moving to my own place."
Mvelo: "Hhaibo friend. But your dad gave you your things
back"
Me: "True. But how long will it take until he takes it all back
again?"
Mvelo: "Oh yeah. You're right. I'm proud of you"
Me: "Thank you babe. In 6 months I will be moving in into my
own apartment"
Mvelo: "Or getting married"
I hit her with a napkin.
Me: "You're such a bore. Let me take this drumstick for the
road"
Mvelo: "Thanks for the lunch"
Me: "I was just doing my job. Nail that pitch." She whines
Mvelo: "Shit! I totally forgot about that"
Me: "See your life? You need 4 PAs"
Mvelo: "I really do. Mind you Siphe told me to set up a
reminder before she left"
Me: "Tell them you're getting married. They'll get too excited
and not pay attention to faults you may make"
Mvelo: "You're not helping. Use Nduna's promo code for
discount"
Me: "He rides uber? Wow"
Mvelo: "You need to stop taking my man for granted"
Me: "That dmd yellow hat doesn't make it easier"
I say and rush out laughing...
...
Philani left right after I arrived. I hate to be the one to lock up.
It means to be the one to open in the morning. Waking up
before 8am is still torture to my soul.
I decide to clean up after keeping the records down.
We have new cleaning equipment.
"I'm sorry I'm late madam. My daughter fell sick and couldn't
fetch my son from creche. I promise you it won't happen
again"
Me: "Please calm down." I walk to the other side and offer her
a seat. She's sweating. "Did you take the stairs?"
Her: "Yes madam the lift was taking too long"
Me: "Call me Lexi please. Are you an employee here?"
Her: "Yes. I'm the cleaner"
Me: "Okay please wait here. Should I get you something to
drink?"
Her: "Yes my child. Water will be fine"
I nod and go back in. I get water out of the mini bar fridge and
take it to her then come back to call Bheki.
Bheki: "Nkosazana" how does he know it's me? "Sabathile?"
Me: "Uhm hey. Sorry about that. There's a lady here"
Bheki: "Mamzila? Sorry I forgot to mention. She's our cleaner. I
took your idea of creating more job opportunities. Please treat
her with respect"
Me: "I will"
Bheki: "Thank you"
I bid him goodbye and go back to attend the old lady. I must get
myself familiar with this office phone. I felt really sophisticated.
Me: "You may come in ma."
Mamzila: "Are you the boss?"
Me: "No. I'm an employee. Our boss comes in once in a while."
Mamzila: "He sounded like a very good young man on the
phone"
Me: "He is good. You may put your bag on the locker
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the yellow door"
She goes in. Its close to 4. I take the phone and call Bheki again.
Bheki: "You miss me?"
Me: "Is she going to lock up?"
Bheki: "No. There's a guy who's employed to do that"
Me: "That means I can knock off in the next 30 minutes?"
Bheki: "Even now if you want"
Me: "Okay thanks"
I hang up. Mel walks in.
Me: "Is the lift working?"
Mel: "Yes. I take the stairs Every day on my way in"
Me: "Oh. That's great. Let me get you your parcel"
I fetch her bag. I find her with some lady.
I just pick my purse and my phone.
Me: "Mama; I'm knocking off now. Shall you need anything just
pick up this phone and press this little second button"
Mamzila: "Okay sisi thank you" isn't weird when an elder acts
submissive towards you?
Me: "Here. Did I give you the receipt?"
Mel: "Yes you did. Friend please hold here"
Me: "You look familiar" I say to the friend. She gets off her
phone and takes off her glasses.
Her: "Oh you. Township hooligan"
Me: "Excuse me?"
Mel: "Pam! I'm sorry Lexi she-"
Pam: "I'm what? This is the piece of shit that attacked me!"
Me: "You're acting like the hooligan you're accusing me to be
right now missy. Mel I'll see you around babes"
Pam blocks my way.
Pam: "You wanna fight?"
Me: "No. Please move out of my way"
Pam: "With this fake her now you think you're white? Bitch I
will beat this hair off this dumb head" she tried taking my
weave off, I grabbed her hand and roughly pushed her. She
landed on Bheki coming in.
Pam: "You fighting? Huh? I'll show you today"
Mel: "Pam! Pam? Stop embarrassing yourself! I'm sorry Lexi"
Bheki: "What's going on?" I can't talk.
I just leave them all there. I wanna cry so bad. I hate people
who mess with my patience.
I get to my place. I strip down everything and get into the
shower. I let the water hit me from the head.
I step out it when I've cried enough. I wrap a towel around my
body and another one on my head.
I look at my reflection on the mirror. Why is being me so hard?
I hear my phone ringing. Whoever that is must just wait.
I take my laptop and jot down this crazy incident. After so long
of not being tortured about who I am, she just had to.
I hear the lift dings. I hear a knock on the door just as I get off
the bed.
Me: "Come in"
I startle when I see him. "Hi" he clears his throat and turn away.
Bheki: "I'm sorry" he closes the door. I follow him.
Me: "Is everything okay?"
Bheki: "Yes. I thought you were dressed"
Me: "Bheki Ncube can you see my boobs?" He reluctantly shake
his head. "Or any private parts?"
Bheki: "No. But my father taught me that only my wife I am
allowed to see in sleep wear or bathing towels" I chuckle. He
isn't really looking at me.
Me: "Okay. Let me go put on some clothes then"
...
I find him still in the same position when I get back.
Me: "So. Is this a social visit or?" He turns. I frown.
Bheki: "We're going out, aren't we?"
Me: "I didn't agree on that. Thats not how you ask someone
out"
Bheki: "How does one go about it?"
Me: "Hi Lexi. Can we go out?"
Bheki: "So you can say no? Are you ready to go? You need this.
To forget about loya mconjwana with unmatching nails" I laugh.
Me: "That's a trend"
Bheki: "Don't do it. Its unattractive. You should've beat her up"
Me: "I can't get my hands dirty over that thing"
Bheki: "A little slap won't hurt"
Me: "Let me wear shoes then we'll go"
Bheki: "No you're fine. Let's go"
Me: "Like this? I'm not even wearing a bra"
Bheki: "Really? You qualify to go to emhlangeni(reed dance)
then. Just put this on and we're good to go"
Me: " This dress is too long Bheki. I can't be looking like aunty in
public"
Bheki: "The beautiful aunty. Nothing like Mary" we laugh.
Me: "You still won't tell me what was her gift?" He shakes his
head.
Bheki: "Have we broken up yet?"
Me: "We'll break up today"
We get on the lift.
Bheki: "But that chicken"
Me: "I'll give you recipes and you'll ask your wife to make it for
you"
Bheki: "You're the best"
Me: "So you have a wife?"
His phone rings. He takes it.
He speaks until we get into the car.
We drive off. He's still on the phone, laughing like nobody's
business. I am now getting annoyed.
I regret agreeing to come with him.
Bheki: "That was my cousin. His suit got stolen. He's getting
married on Saturday"
Me: "And thats funny?"
Bheki: "Yes. What was he thinking fetching it so many days
before the wedding day? Ceremony curse caught up with him"
Me: "You're the worst"
Bheki: "We're here"
Me: "Here where?"
Bheki: "KwaMaimai sphalala sami."
Me: "And what are we doing here?"
Bheki: "Eat supper"
Me: "I don't see any sign of a restaurant"
Bheki: "You see all these tents? These are the restaurants.
Choose mazikhethele. Let me look for a place to park"
Me: "Oh my God. This place is so..." I decide to shut my mouth.
"I'm not gonna eat anything from such an environment"
Bheki: "Get out of your Lexi persona and get into Sabathile.
Sabathile will eat"
Me: "She won't. Please go inside and buy whatever you're
buying and get me out of here"
Bheki: "There are my brothers here. I might leave around 8pm"
Me: "Are you kidding me?"
Bheki: "No. I'll be on the navy tent if you change your mind"
He hops out. What was I thinking?
I call Mvelo. She picks up on the first ring.
Mvelo: "I was about to call you. Did you go on the date?"
Me: "Date you say? Mvelo I'm at malimali. I'm expected to eat
food that's cooked here. Does that sound like a date to you?"
Mvelo: "They serve really nice food plus its the thought that
counts"
Me: "Just please come fetch me before I die"
Mvelo: "Ahh friend I'm so sorry. Nduna and I are going
somewhere right now"
Me: "Wow"
I hang up and sigh.
I jump and almost lose my life when a very dirty guy knocks on
the window. I look for coins on the ashtray. I find a few.
I gulp and roll down the window.
Me: "Hi" he laughs. Too much to my discomfort.
Him: "You're close. Just a little more steps. You're very close"
Me: "What?"
Him: "What took you so long? The weather is mesmerizing"
He walks away without even looking at the coins I had handed
out.
I get out and lock the car before another crazy man comes.
I find Bheki sitting with a bunch of men eating, talking and
laughing.
Someone points at my direction. He turns. Our eyes meet, he
gives me a warm smile and calls me over.
Bheki: "Everyone this is Sabathile. Sabathile this is everyone" I
sit next to him.
Me: "What kind of intro is that?" I whisper.
Bheki: "Their names are too long. We'd need a week"
I laugh. Its pretty clean inside this mini restaurant. And the food
smells nice.
They are now all looking at me. I don't know what to do. I hope
they don't ask me to remove the hat so they can feel my hair.
The lady serves me food in a tray. This is how Mvelo serves
Nduna. Is this a way of showing respect?
Me: "Thank you sisi"
Her: "In a few months this will be you" I chuckle.
Bheki: "She's my aunt. My dad's sister. Her and aunt Mary
should be kept separate on our wedding or else it'll be a mess"
Me: "What?"
Bheki: "What?"
He takes his phone and walks out. Our wedding? I need water...
10
I hear someone call my name from afar. I jump when I feel a
cold object against my skin.
Me: "Wtf!"
Bheki: "Hheyi Don't say that to me"
Me: "Flip. What time is it? I should be at work. Greetings ma" I
get up, balancing with a couch.
Mamzila: "Yebo sisi"
Bheki: "Its your day off. Its half past 12 in the noon"
Me: "Why do you look and smell fresh? God I feel horrible"
Bheki: "I'm older than alcohol. I brought you umama to clean
for you since your lady called in sick"
Me: "No no. You don't have to do anything ma I'll clean up. I
just need-"
Bheki: "A shower, food and rest"
He takes my hand and lead me to my room. He pushes me in
and closes the door.
Bheki: "Should your food be spicy?"
Me: "Yes please"
My room looks very tidy. I am pretty sure I did not come in here
last night. That was a wild ass night. We went to that lodge and
things went down. His little brother is a fun bad influence. I had
fun, although I feel like my head is about to fall off but its worth
it. I haven't had so much fun in months.
I decide to take a shower. It is much quicker. I'd probably pass
out on the tub if I use it.
I open the blinds. I haven't had this view in a while. I always
jump in and out of the bathroom in the mornings. Jo'burg is still
beautiful and attractive. Its partly clouded. The streets are
pretty empty than usual.
I finish and walk back to my room to apply lotion and dress up. I
put on a simple summer dress that goes just above the knee.
Sis Buhle is responsible for so much dresses in sight. I tie a doek
and walk out to the lounge. There was no Mamzila or Bheki in
sight.
Did I take that long in there?
The lift dings.
Me: "Did I take too long or she's fast?"
Bheki: "It wasn't dirty. It was just bottles"
Me: "How much did I actually have last night?"
Bheki: "More than you can handle." I take out the plates and
glasses. "I'm not staying. I have a meeting with my brothers. If
you happen to feel better, please go check on Philani. I found
him day dreaming while he had a customer infront of him" I
chuckle.
Me: "Dark skinned and tall?"
Bheki: "Yeah"
Me: "That's his crush"
Bheki: "Isn't he...?" He does the hanging hand thing. I laugh.
Me: "No."
Bheki: "Okay. Eat, drink these and watch these senseless shows
your species like"
Me: "Thank you"
Bheki: "Can I have this? Yes? Thank you. Have a good day
nkosazana" he takes a drumstick and rush to the lift.
Me: "What are people going say?"
Bheki: "That I'm eating. Bye" the lift close. He's crazy. I dish up
for myself. Who drinks apple juice? I wouldn't dare even if it
was the last beverage on earth. I take my juice out of the fridge
and take my plate to camp before the tv and watch these
senseless shows that my species like...
I must've fallen asleep again. The pills are to blame. My phone
stops ringing. Its already dark. Was I sleeping or dead? If its this
dark, that means its close to 8pm.
I take my phone. Its almost 8pm. I call mom back. I sit up
straight and brace myself for complaints. She picks up.
Melissa: "Don't ever do that again. Since when don't you text
me for the whole day?"
Me: "I'm sorry. I had a very rough night last night"
Melissa: "You went drinking on a Thursday?" Now this is my
chance to break the news.
Me: "I...I needed something to make me face my miserable love
life"
Melissa: "Oh baby, what happened?"
Me: "Bheki and I fought. It got real bad he decided we go our
separate ways" I fake a sob.
Melissa: "Shhh my angel. He has no idea what he's lost. Daddy
and I are on our way there to have supper with you. Should I
get you ice cream? Ugh don't answer that. We're coming with
warm meals and ice cream okay"
Me: "Okay. Bye for now"
I take a deep breath. Feels like I just took Rick Ross off my
shoulders. I get up and rinse the dishes I used. I hide away the
takeaway. Bheki seems to know every place that sells nice food.
That chicken and pasta was to die for I swear. Some people
were born for this cooking thing. I wish I was amongst that
population.
I log on WhatsApp and check Bheki's last seen, a few minutes
ago it says. That means he's safe and sound.
I go to Mvelo's, she calls in that instant. Our connection shall
remain this strong.
Me: "I was just about to text you" she laughs.
Mvelo: "Baby, she says she was about to text me."
Nduna: "She's probably lying" he shouts from the background.
Me: "Tell him jealousy doesn't look good on him. Are you okay
my hun?"
Mvelo: "I am good. I am happy you're still alive. Your insta
stories were wild
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where were you and with who?"
Me: "I was in Soweto with Bheki and his fun people"
Mvelo: "Noway! You two are pretty close on particular days."
Me: "He was making up for taking me to that place"
Mvelo: "Come on. They sell the best tribe in town"
Me: "And their soft pap babes. I finished the whole plate. Its
just the environment I'm not comfortable with"
Mvelo: "They are used to it. Those ladies are very clean"
Me: "The place they live in isn't"
Mvelo: "That's part of "the real world" get used to it"
Me: "Hell no. When am I seeing you?"
Mvelo: "On Saturday. I'll be leaving on the noon"
Me: "I hate short notices Mvelo. How many times should I
remind you?"
Mvelo: "We discussed this when we went to buy blankets."
Me: "I have a very functional brain."
Mvelo: "Then I guess its not so functional after all. Don't try and
cause drama about nothing. I did tell you, God is my witness"
Me: "I would know if you told me" the lift chimes and parts.
"Babe let me call you back later" I hang before she could
answer.
Me: "What are you doing here?"
Bheki: "To fetch my house keys on your handbag"
Me: "Which one? You can't be here, my parents are gonna be
here any minute!"
Bheki: "You should've answered your phone"
I face my tiny handbag down. Everything comes out. There's no
keys.
Me: "I'll look for them. Please go I'll call you when I find them"
Bheki: "And when you say 'go' where are you expecting me to
go?"
Me: "Your place! Jesus Bheki maybe they are downstairs"
Bheki: "And I should break in?" I sigh and walk to switch on the
lift cctv.
Me: "See? They are here. Go hide in my room"
Bheki: "And watch pink walls?" I push him.
Me: "My walls are white"
Bheki: "I will say I was on my way out"
Me: "No!"
Bheki: "I'm hungry"
Me: "I'll bring you food"
I close the door and lock. Whew!
I fix myself. I should change my access code. I can't have this
man walking in and out of here.
I act all excited, a bit over excited.
Marcus: "Look at this place. You keep making me proud"
Me: "I know right." We hug.
Melissa: "Love, she didn't clean this place. I know my baby like I
know the back of my hand. She'll never scrub any floors with
her nails freshly done"
Me: "Mom!" We laugh.
Marcus: "Who cleaned up?"
Me: "Me daddy" I hug mom. "You smell amazing"
Melissa: "Thank you my love. Daddy bought me a new
fragrance"
Me: "You guys. When I get married you'll be my mentors"
Marcus: "Declined. Take out the plates. I'm starving"
Me: "We will eat outside"
Melissa: "Just what I had in mind"
Me: "Great. I'll get the plates"
I take out everything we'll need and rinsed it then took it
outside to the balcony.
Marcus: "This view is priceless"
Me: "You see the beauty of Johannesburg. You can see almost
everywhere"
Melissa: "If we weren't married I would hint that you should
propose in such a place"
Marcus: "There are a lot of things we can do here my love" they
giggle and kiss. I clear my throat.
Me: "I'm still here" they laugh.
Marcus: "How's the heartbreak?"
Me: "Better. What do we have here?" I open the containers.
Marcus: "The best chicken fillets"
Me: "Its embarrassing that my mother is such a great cook and I
can only fry eggs"
Marcus: "If varsity couldn't teach you and living here alone
didn't either then there's no hope my princess. You're almost
30. Let's just say its a good thing you broke up with Bheki"
Me: "And why is that?"
Marcus: "Black men love home prepared meals. Would you
have been able to prepare him steamed bread and sugar
beans?"
Me: "There are restaurants for a reason" he laughs and shakes
his head.
Marcus: "Just stick to your kind"
Melissa: "I still think he was good for her"
Marcus: "I agree but shr wouldn't have survived being his wife"
Me: "Yeah, I guess its good we're through and never getting
back together"
Melissa: "You just broke up. Whatever it is that you guys fought
about, you might fix it"
Me: "We won't. Enough about Bheki, have you guys bought
outfits for the wedding?"
Melissa: "We will look into the clothes we already own"
Me: "I knew I wasn't the only one not in the mood to look any
glamorous"
Marcus: "You always look glamorous. I am up to get you a new
something for the wedding if you want it"
Me: "Really? I could never say no to a new dress"
Marcus: "On one condition" here we go.
Me: "Yes?"
Marcus: "You take my offer of being my personal assistant"
Me: "Dad I-"
Marcus: "Come on. I don't want anyone working for me. I need
someone that I trust"
Me: "Let's say I was working as an auditor. Who would work for
you?"
Marcus: "No one. But now baby you aren't an auditor so I'm
asking you to be my PA until you find your dream job"
Me: "I'll think about it"
He nods. We continue to eat, in silence now. My mom doesn't
seem like she wants to intervene in this matter and I think its
only for the best.
My phone beeps. I check it out.
'Seeing that you've forgotten about me. Is it safe to come out?'
I totally forgot about him. I clear my throat.
Me: "Let me take these into my fridge. I know I will need it for
tomorrow evening"
Marcus: "Should I get you a chef?"
Me: "I'd appreciate that"
Melissa: "I charge R10 000 a month"
Me: "Since I'm the good daughter I'm sure I can get atleast a
30% discount"
Melissa: "20%"
Marcus: "No. I am a good husband but I pay all the 100%"
Me: "Yoh charge dad for cooking?"
Marcus: "Ever since we got married"
Melissa: "Be a smart woman" she winks as I walk away with the
containers. She's unbelievable but smart for real.
I find him sleeping on the bed watching movies on my laptop.
Me: "I see you made yourself comfortable"
Bheki: "Finally. Is it chicken?"
Me: "I swear to God chickens aren't safe around you"
I dish up for him and serve him. He smiles when I give him the
plate. I shrug.
Bheki: "Do we have to pay in order to smile in this house?"
Me: "Why are you like this?"
Bheki: "Like what? Mmmh this tastes nice. You should spend
more time with your mother and watch her around the
kitchen"
Me: "No thank you. I'm uninterested in cooking"
Bheki: "What is your husband going to eat?"
Me: "He must have enough money to get us a personal chef"
I walk out before he could open his pie hole...
...
The parents stayed until very late. They left around 11pm.
Bheki escaped. He didn't even say goodbye.
Today I woke up very fresh. I volunteered to fetch Philani from
his place. He was more than happy to experience this special
treatment.
We grabbed a very fancy breakfast before we actually went to
work.
We found Mamzila already there. She had cleaned already.
She's mysterious.
Since we arrived I've been listening to Philani fantasize about
Mel.
Me: "Why don't you build up a courage and ask her out?
Preaching to me all these things won't help you with anything"
Philani: "Do you think its that easy to approach such a beautiful
lady?"
Me: "The truth is I'm starting to get annoyed with your
fantasies"
Philani: "Fine. I'll befriend Mamzila maybe she'll care enough to
listen"
Me: "Please do try that. Did you install windows?"
Philani: "That's your job"
He takes his empty cup and goes into the kitchen.
"Greetings" bringing my eyes up my heart skipped a bit. He
smiled.
Him: "Are you okay?" I gulp.
Me: "I...uhm...I am okay. Sorry, are you okay?"
Him: "Yes I'm good. I'm here to deliver these, I hope its the
right order. My drivers just dropped me at last minute.
Sabathile McVeigh right?" I stand up and walk out to him. I feel
hot flushes all over my body. What on earth is happening to
me?
Me: "Yes"
Him: "Here is your parcels. Please sign here" I take the clip
board and sign. We accidentally touch hands when I hand back
the clipboard.
He says his goodbye and walk towards the door. I finally
breathe. Was I holding in my breath? Jesus help me.
I rush over to the other side and take my phone out.
"I just found a men attractive. Let's fly to Durban. I need
cleansing"
I wait impatiently for the response.
"That's pretty normal. Finally you gonna get laid. Congrats
friend" -Mvelo
"Is it Bheki?" -Mvelo
"No. A stranger." I respond. "Stop match making Bheki and I. He
doesn't see me like that nor do I"
I hear heels click on the floor. Its lady walking in rushing. She
flashes me a smile.
Her: "Hi. McVeigh?"
Me: "Yes"
Her: "My husband happened go have forgotten his phone
somewhere..." she looks around.
Me: "Who's your husband maam and what time did he come
around?"
Her: "Sabelo Nkosi. He just left I think, he was here to deliver
some things...oh here it is. Oh my God I almost lost my breath"
Me: "Oh great."
Her: "Thank you. Bye" she rushes out again.
"Never mind. The other gender ain't shit"
I text Mvelo and throw myself on my chair and turn it around.
Disappointment is men...
11
It is days like these that make me wish I was invisible. This
greeting, hugging and kissing business is not my favorite.
McVeighs are a very dramatic family when it comes to events.
We drove all the way to Neslpruit they booked the Kwanyoni
lodge. And then they make me look the biggest spender in
history. Its quite a beauti6 lodge. I spent my afternoon
yesterday walking around taking pictures.
I am sharing my room with Britney's sister inlaw. She's sweet
and hates humans as I do. We're almost the same age but she
has a decent job and not living off her parent's money.
She walks in running. She locks the door and leans against it.
Pearl: "Oh my word! Your family is crazy."
Me: "Tell me about it"
Pearl: "We're the only people who are not ready"
Me: "Weddings never start in time. That's the culture"
Pearl: "Not this one. The soon be husband and wife are too
excited. He's already dressed, everybody. For a programme
director you should be ready"
Me: "What if I take illness and you take over my place?" She
chuckles.
Pearl: "I'd rather swim into a river full of crocodiles" she
disappear to the bathroom. I sigh.
I take out my make bag and start applying. I am only excited
about my new beautiful dramatic dress. It is a long transparent
sleeve black dress with crystals and sequins, my mom
suggested all that. It hugs me perfectly, it goes just above the
knees. I wanted a long one with a tail but the tailor told me not
to worry I can have the best of both worlds. I can actually
attach the tail when we go to reception.
Pearl comes out as I dress up.
Pearl: "I could eat you up right now" we laugh.
Me: "I did not like these sleeves yesterday but looking at my
reflection right now, I think they make the dress even more
beautiful"
Pearl: "But who chooses black as their theme?"
Me: "My cousin" we laugh. "At least they chose mauve to go
with it."
Pearl: "Still. Weddings should be bright."
Me: "I agree." A loud knock startled us. "Who is it?"
Melissa: "It is me"
I strap on my mauve heels and head to open for her.
Melissa: "Thank God you're dressed. You look beautiful"
Me: "Thank you my love"
Melissa: "Pearl. Please hurry honey, these people are in no
mood for waiting"
Pearl: "Almost done" I giggle. She still has a towel on. Her hair
isn't dried, she's nowhere near to being done.
I walk with my mom out. We meet Britney in the hallway.
Britney: "Come, its really rude to keep people waiting"
Me: " Am I not going to start at the reception?" She doesn't
answer but pulls me until we're outside. We stop infront of 3
guys in suits, each holding a glass of whatever.
Britney: "Gentlemen. This is my cousin I've been preaching
about, Alexis" I'm gonna kill this woman. The first one extends
his hand for a shake. I hesitantly take it in.
Him: "I'm Dave, nice to finally meet you"
Me: "Thank you" I move on to the next one. He takes my hand
and kisses it, Eww!
I give him a botox smile just to tickle his fancy.
Him: "I'm Jack" I nod with a smile. The last one had lost interest
in all this introduction, he was on his phone.
Me: "So I guess this is it. Nice to know you gentlemen"
Britney: "This is Mike, and he is your date"
Me: "Are you kidding me?"
Dave: "Mike, get off the phone" I doubt he heard him. Jack
snatches the phone off his hand.
Mike: "Wtf! Bring back my phone"
Dave: "Stop being an asshole. This is Alexis, your date"
Mike: "I thought this was a wedding, not tinder"
I snort.
Britney: "You both might like to get a drink. Bye lovies" they all
walk away leaving us staring at each for good 60 seconds and
we burst out in laughter.
Me: "Are you the black sheep of the family too?"
Mike: "Kinda. Wanna grab that drink and discuss our black
sheep tendencies?" I laugh.
Me: "Why not?" We walk to the drinks area. I did not think this
black and mauve will look this good. This decor is crazily
beautiful, I'm jealous...
...
14:50pm. I want nothing but my comfortable bed. I don't know
why is everyone is interested in this boring wack love story, not
even love story. It is just story. There's no love here, Will just
picked the next desperate for marriage girl and just went ahead
because to him, being a true McVeigh means being married. I
haven't spoken to my dad and I doubt I will. He is too focused
on being a proud uncle today and I shall not disturb him.
I don't even know where my crazy date went. He's a breath of
fresh air. A total chatterbox but also a sweet gentleman, just
not into settling down as I.
I am taken out of my crazy thoughts by a tap on the shoulder.
Its him.
Me: "Where did you disappear to?"
Mike: "I saw this hun and went to chill with her by the pool.
Worst mistake of my life
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wanna get out of here?" I laugh.
Me: "What happened? And will we be heading to?"
Mike: "Johannesburg. I hope you didn't come with your car"
Me: "Fortunately, no. Let's go"
Mike: "Really?"
I get up and lead the way out. Everyone is laughing and
blushing at the fake love story. Humans are weird creatues I tell
you.
It felt like hours before we could reach his car.
Me: "Why would you park so far away?"
Mike: "Because I wanted no problems driving out"
Me: "You aren't a serial killer, are you?"
Mike: "If I was. I'd start with my brothers"
Me: "Good. My father won't rest until he finds me if you ever
think of stealing me"
Mike: "Okay. Are you gonna get in the car?"
Me: "Yes. My father is a very powerful businessman and he has
connections"
Mike: "I really wouldn't want to mess with that"
Me: "Yup"
I take off my heels and adjust the seat to tilt back. "Wake me
me after an hour"
Mike: "Okay madam"
I send Soulmate a text that I'm driving to Jo'burg with a
stranger that might be a serial killer. I had to take this risk,
listening to that boring story was gonna cause me all sorts of
illnesses...
...
Arriving in Joburg it was already dark. Mike suggested we pass
by a restaurant and grab takeaways and then brought me
home. It was quite a fun ride.
My phone rings a second I open my eyes. I yawn and reach for
it. Oh my sweetheart.
Me: "Hey babe"
Mvelo: "I swear to God yesterday was the worst day of my life"
Me: "What happened?"
Mvelo: "I had a ceremony and my best friend wasn't next to
me. I did not enjoy that day at all. I missed you the whole time"
Me: "Aww baby. I was there spiritually. I was bored at that
wedding too. But I found a friend who make us escape"
Mvelo: "Tell her I stab anything that gets too close to you" I
laugh.
Me: "Its a he"
Mvelo: "What?"
Me: "Yes. His brothers and my cousin set us up to be each
other's dates but it turned out we're the same person and we
formed this little friendship"
Mvelo: "Is he cute?" This girl.
Me: "You need Jesus. Where's Nduna?"
Mvelo: "He's here. He arrived at 3am drunk"
Me: "What will your dad say?"
Mvelo: "Nothing. We're engaged remember"
Me: "Ohh yes. I forgot" we laugh.
Mvelo: "Still nothing from Bheki?"
Me: "Don't mention that stupid man's name. He was just
bluffing when he said he will give that place his full attention
now he's been gone for 3 weeks! The shit we went through
with the soap suppliers, he doesn't even try and contact us"
Mvelo: "Ok calm down. He trusts you both with that business"
Me: "No he's stupid and careless"
Mvelo: "Do you keep trying his phone?"
Me: "It still goes straight to voicemail"
Mvelo: "I'm sure he has a better explanation"
Me: "I don't even wanna hear it. I am handing over my
resignation letter as soon as his ass gets back" she laughs.
Mvelo: "You miss him?"
Me: "What? No!" She laughs.
Mvelo: "I see you. Let me get up and prepare this man hot
water and food"
Me: "Okay baby. Send my love"
Mvelo: "I will hun. Bye"
Me: "Byo"
I hang up and roll over to get down. I walk to the bathroom to
pee and come back to fix my bed. I am not doing any laundry, I
am tired and I am going to spend my day in my couch feeding
myself and watching TV.
I sweep and then go take a brief shower. I clean it afterwards.
Sis Buhle is very sensitive when it comes to the bathroom. She
hates dirty bathrooms. So I always make sure its spotless, she
taught me well.
I find my phone ringing. I rush to it. Trouble!
Me: "Queen"
Melissa: "Don't Queen me Alexis McVeigh. Where are you?" I
clear my throat.
Me: "I'm in Jo'burg"
Melissa: "Jo'burg where?"
Me: "My place mommy."
Melissa: "I told you there will be another little ceremony today,
welcoming Jean" oh crap.
Me: "Oh dear God. I totally forgot about that. When my boss
called and asked me to rush here I just lost my mind and left.
I'm sorry. Tell Will I'll visit them and introduce myself proper to
Jean"
Melissa: "You drive me crazy, you know that? Couldn't you text
and tell us you're leaving?"
Me: "I wanted to but my phone died. I just switched it on I'm
sorry"
Melissa: "Its okay baby. I was worried about you, I'm glad
you're safe. We'll see you tomorrow"
Me: "Aren't you coming back today?"
Melissa: "No. Let me go get ready"
Me: "Okay. I love you"
Melissa: "I love you more my angel"
She hangs up. I want to cry. I was hoping I'll spend the night
with them, watching movies or something.
I text Mike if he has any plans for the day. He responds with no.
Great. We're going to walk around Jo'burg the whole day today.
I walk to my closet to pick the best outfit for a 29° partly cloud
Sunday.
...
There is no hope for this guy. In a period of 5 hours in this mall,
we've crossed paths with 4 different girlfriends of his. I don't
understand men and I'll never will. Each one of them sure feels
like the one, if only they knew.
Mike: "Can we get something to eat now? I never go for this
long without food"
Me: "What does that mean?"
Mike: "It means I am the reason why uber eats is rich"
Me: "You eat every 2 hours?"
Mike: "1 and a half."
Me: "Why aren't you fat then?"
Mike: "Its the Petro genes. No one is fat in that family"
Me: "You should thank them"
Mike: "Nope. Where are we eating? I don't eat sea food"
Me: "We can go to any restaurant that sells nice food"
Mike: "Are we done shopping?"
Me: "Yup I'm tired now"
Mike: "Then we'll grab McDonald's and then some hot wings
from either KFC or Chicken licken" I chuckle.
Me: "You have black friends?"
Mike: "Yes. Why do you ask?"
Me: "Your food preparations. No offense but no white person
eats dumplings" its what we bought yesterday at this
restaurant that deals with only African cuisine.
Mike: "They are the best thing that has ever happened to me.
My friends mom used to prepare them for us when we came to
visit, bliss"
Me: "They are quite nice. It was my 3rd time consuming them"
Mike: "You should eat them more often. The Mageba
restaurant sells all the nice food in the world."
Me: "We should go again"
Mike: "Tomorrow after work"
Me: "So soon, how about weekend?"
Mike: " Tomorrow there's buffet"
Me: "Tempting. I hope I don't have much work"
Mike: "I'll be waiting for your text"
We get into the car and drive off. He plays his country music
that I learned to tolerate yesterday on our way here.
We stop at Chicken licken first then McDonald's. I like how we
just got along. Its like we've known each other for years.
My phone rings as we park into this beautiful parking spot. Why
would the security company call me?
Me: "Alexis speaking"
Caller: "Ma'am. We have blocked your code due to many wrong
code attempts. We caught the suspect right at the spot please
use your card on the reader and come down"
Me: "I'm not in my place"
Caller: "Please meet us at our offices"
Me: "Okay. I'm coming" I hang up. "I got to rush to somewhere.
Someone was trying to break in into my place. I'll take an uber"
Mike: "Are you kidding me? I'll take you there. Where are we
going?"
Me: "Sandton."
Who could it be? And why would they be stupid about this?
....
The lobby is empty. I ring the attention bell. A lady appears
after a couple of minutes of impatience.
Me: "Hi. I'm Alexis McVeigh"
Her: "Oh Hey. Mr Swanepoel is waiting for you please go
through. Sir you can wait there by the couch only one person
can go in, can I get you something to drink?"
Mike: "Coffee will be fine. Can I eat on your couch?"
She chuckles.
Her: "Yes you may" women lose themselves in his gaze I swear.
I turn to the left hallway leading me to the big door.
I knock once and get in.
Mr Swanepoel: "That was quick"
Me: "I was around."
Mr Swanepoel: "The suspect won't speak. He says he wants you
not us. We are waiting for your permission to call the police"
Me: "Can I see him?"
Mr Swanepoel: "Yeah sure. Please follow me"
He gets up and lead the way out. He unlocks what has turned
out to be a door. I did not recognize it when I came in.
We get in. Oh my goodness. He smirks and shoves away the
puzzle. They give them puzzles?
Bheki: "This place is too hot umuntu akasoze akuthole
ukuphumula ilamabhunu" (one can never get peace with these
boers)
Me: "Bhekisizwe"
Bheki: "Sabathile"
Me: "Why would you keep punching the code when you saw
that the first attempt did not go through?"
Bheki: "I thought you were upstairs. Why did you change it
anyways"
Me: "Sir. This is my boss. I'm very sorry for the
misunderstanding"
Mr Swanepoel: "Its okay. We're sorry Mr...."
Bheki: "Mr Bheki"
Mr Swanepoel: "Yes Mr Bheki. We were just doing our job"
He gestured for us to lead the way out. I bid him goodbye and
we parted ways.
Bheki: "Nkosi engcwele are we walking or running?"
Me: "I am very busy Bheki. I shouldn't even be here"
Bheki: "Its Sunday"
Me: "Busy women are busy everyday." Mike gets up as we
approach.
Bheki: "Uyakwazi lomfana womlungu?" (Does this white boy
know you?") I ignore his stupid self.
Me: "It was my boss"
Mike: "Goodday Sir" he extends his hand. Bheki just looks at it.
Bheki: "Yah mfana" he proceeds out.
Me: "He's mental disturbed. Let me go talk to him"
Mike: "I'll wait for you in the car"
Me: "Okay"
I find Bheki leaning against a pole.
Me: "What was that?"
Bheki: "What was what?"
Me: "Not shaking his hand"
Bheki: "Angisuye umngani wezingane mina we Sabathile" (I am
not friends with kids)
Me: "No you're rude"
Bheki: "Go get your bag. Our car will be here any minute from
now"
Me: "No. I didn't come here with you"
Bheki: "Awungitshele. Uyini nalomfana womlungu?" (Tell me
something, what are you to this white boy?)
Me: "His name is Mike!"
Bheki: "UMike owomfana womlungu, go get your bag please.
I'm taking you somewhere"
Me: "Bye Bheki"
I walk away. Is he mentally okay?
I find Mike on the passenger seat. I walk around to the driver's.
I start the engine and drive off.
....
Tears stream down as I stuff my mouth with popcorn. I regret
picking this movie. I thought the title meant a wild out not this!
The intercom buzzes. So late? I take my phone and check the
time: 21:50.
I pause the movie and motion slowly to the speaker.
Me: "Hello?"
"Please let me in"
I attempt to talk but decide against it. I punch the access code
and go back to the couch and resume the movie. The lift dings.
He has changed. He's in casual clothes and smells good. We
stare at each for a good 5 minutes. He clears his throat and
surrender.
Bheki: "Sawubona"
Me: "Yebo" I shift my attention back to the movie.
Bheki: "What are you watching?"
Me: "Walk to remember"
Bheki: "Mmmh"
Awkward silence.
He clears his throat again.
Bheki: "I'm sorry for disappearing"
Me: "Ok"
Bheki: "Great. Can I join you?"
Me: "No. Go back to where you were"
Bheki: "There's no you nor your laptop there"
Me: "Pity"
Bheki: "Look at me" I do. "I was home. I had a few things to
take care of"
Me: "And you couldn't say? How about a phone call? Text? A
please call me?"
Bheki: "I left my place rushing. I left my phones behind" he's
another case of a married man.
Me: "Whaterver Bheki"
Bheki: "Ungakusho lokho kimi" (Do not say that to me)
Me: "What do you want me to say? You left your phones on
purpose because you knew I will call and your wife will start
questioning you"
Bheki: "Why? Its not like we're dating or anything" he's right.
Why did I even say that? Shit!
I gulp and glue my eyes on the TV.
Bheki: "We will though because I am here to tell you
ngiyakuthanda Sabathile. Its been long. I have tried to find any
possible reason to not love you but there isn't ntombemhlophe.
You are everything I have been looking for in a
woman, beside the fact that you can't cook but I still want you
to be mine sphalaphala." I laugh.
Me: "You're kidding right?" He frowns.
Bheki: "I just poured my heart out and you think I'm kidding?"
Me: "That wasn't pouring your heart out"
Bheki: "What was it?"
Me: "Just a statement."
I'm in very revealing pyjamas. He hasn't done his stupid look
away. Infact his gaze is digging deep into my skin without a
shame.
Me: "Your father told you its okay to look at half naked women
now?"
Bheki: "Idlozi lami livumile ukuthi wena uzoba ngowami so
there's no sin in looking at future Mrs Ncube"
Me: "I'm your employee Mr Ncube"
Bheki: "Manje?" (So)
Me: "You can't ask me out and try to have a romantic
relationship with me, its against the law"
Bheki: "You're fired then"
Me: "No!"
Bheki: "Yes"
Me: "I don't date married men Bheki. Infact I hate seeing you
there telling me you love me"
Bheki: "Who said I'm married?"
Me: "All Zulu men are" he chuckles and shake his head.
Bheki: "Not me nkosazana. If you give me a chance I promise
you I will be yours and only yours"
I harden my face. I can't afford to blush.
Me: "I want to sleep now"
I get up and walk to the lift. "Goodnight Bheki. I will pray for
you to lose those feelings" he walks up up me. His cologne!
Lord Jesus! He's too close, I can't breathe properly.
Bheki: "Let me be. I love how much I missed you. I thought
about you and your silly complaints everyday. Good night
princess. Once again I'm sorry for disappearing without a say. I
promise you I'll never do that, ever again. You left me 80
voicemail messages by the way. I take it you missed me too"
He extends his hand to press the opening button. I am
experiencing every type of feelings right now. Feelings that I
shouldn't be feeling. The lift parts, he goes in and wave a little
goodbye. The lift close I take a deep breath.
Out of all the men I've turned down my heart choose him? This
arrogant-stupid man? Its him that it loves? No I can't fall inlove
with a Zulu man. I refuse!
I lean against the wall. How do you stop your heart from loving
someone it shouldn't?
12
I scream when my alarm rings. Why is the sun out? I don't want
to go to work cause rest assured Bheki will show up and I will
not know how to face him, not after our love confessing
session, his love confession. I snoozed the alarm and continued
my fake sleep. My eyes kept blinking. My phone buzzes. "Your
boss is breathing fire. You Bette get your ass here in time" a
text from Philani read. Fuck it!
I climb out of bed and head to take the quickest shower in
history. Why would he be breathing fire? It is Monday morning
for Christ's sake. Is he the type to sulk when turned down? If so
then I will make his existence twice as hard. Before I know it I
am done and ready to go. I write Sis Buhle a note apologizing
for all the mess. I take bread and cheese and get on the lift. I'm
a hot mess. I walk in, I catch the bad aura. It is gonna be a long
day.
Bheki: "You're late" he shouts from the other side of the
counter. I check the time. He's crazy.
Me: "Its 8:30"
Bheki: "30 minutes late. We open at 8"
Me: "I arrive at 8 when its my opening day Sir. Today wasn't"
Bheki: "Sit down Alexis and do your job" I smile. He keeps his
straight ugly face. Is it weird that I find this mood sexy? I open
the chair and switch on the computer. I punch my log in details
and get up to make coffee.
Philani hugs me from behind and whisper "I'm ready to quit"
Bheki: "Yey nina! Akusikho emjolweni la. Mangifuna
ukuwotawotana, out" (hey you two. This isn't a place of
romance. If you want to be all over each other. Get out) Philani
let go of me and rushed back to where he came from. I took my
cup and went to sit down. I recorded all the money that has
came in. Mondays are the busiest, so much money in 45
minutes. Bheki was busy on the computer doing only Lord
knows what but it seemed pretty serious, I could tell from his
face expression.
Bheki: "We need 2 boys that will work on Mondays and Fridays"
Me: "Ok"
Bheki: "Issue a vacancy advert"
Me: "On it" silence. Just pressing of the keyboard making
sound. "What is going on?" I ask after a good ten minutes.
Bheki: "Are you done with what I asked you to do?"
Me: "Yes Sir. Its on your email as we speak"
Bheki: "This place closes at 5:30pm. Whomever break the rules
will face serious consequences"
He pile the papers together and walks toward the exit all the
way out. I rest my case.
Me: "He's gone!" I shout laughing. Philani comes out.
Philani: "This human being has issues. He shouted at me infront
of the love of my life. Can you believe that?"
Me: "What? What's wrong with him?"
Philani: "He's an ass. I am ready to leave this place if he will
treat me like that" he's really hurt. My heart ached and started
getting angry. "This place wouldn't be where it is today if it
wasn't for me. And today he has the guts to come here, cursing
around and shout at me like a I'm little kid infront of
customers? No I will not stand that. Infact tell him I quit."
Me: "Philani wait" I say chasing after him. He did not act like he
heard me.
I stop when he gets into the lift. I feel like crying now. I walk
back slowly. I rest on the counter before I get behind it and sit. I
take my phone and text him.
"This place needs you Philani. Please come back when you've
calmed down"
I log on to facebook and text Mvelo. We chat for a while before
she logs off to go to the meeting. We need a night to discuss
her special weekend. She told me to pick a perfect one. Friday
is the way to go since Bheki has decided to be a moron. I can't
come in late.
The day drags. Laundry coming in and out much to my
annoyance. By 5:30 I pack my things. Philani did not respond to
any of my texts or answer my calls at that.
The drive to my parents house is faster than usual, I am hungry
so I couldn't be happier.
Melissa: "You beat us into this!" She screams as I enter. I crouch
to hug her.
Me: "Were you gonna come over?"
Melissa: "Yes. I was waiting for your father"
Me: "I missed home. The penthouse get lonely"
Melissa: "I know right. Cassandra please fix my baby a cheesy
bacon sandwich!" She shouts. Someone yells "Okay" from the
kitchen.
Me: "New help?"
Melissa: "Yes. I twisted my ankle yesterday, just a little and
your father forbidden me to go anywhere near the kitchen so
he hired her. She's a chef"
Me: "I'm sorry about the ankle, let me see" .
Melissa: "I went to the Dr this morning. No damage" I touch it
to see if it's swollen, just a little.
Me: "One could never trust you mom. You like acting strong"
she chuckles.
Melissa: "You guys worry too much. Did your brother call you?"
Me: "No. There's an 035 I found a missed call of though. It was
so busy at work I forgot to call it back"
Melissa: "It was him. He wants us to plan a baby shower for
Kim"
Me: "Really? Awesome. God I am so occupied I even forgot I'm
gonna be an aunt" they were not at the wedding.
Melissa: "No! Imagine me as a grandma. We haven't had a little
baby in this house since you. I doubt I even know how to
change diaper anymore"
Me: "We'll be changing diapers?" I say rather disgusted. She
nods laughing. "Mark me absent ma'am"
A lady in chef uniform hover over me with a plate.
Melissa: "That smells nice Cassandra" I take the plate and thank
her after she's said thank you to mom.
Cassandra: "Beverage preference?"
Me: "Is there cranberry juice?"
Cassandra: "Yes there is" her staring! Mostly on my hair.
Probably wondering why it looks like this. I took off the wig
coming in of which now I deeply regret. "I-I will pour you just
now" she says when I stare back annoyed. I sigh as she walks
away.
Me: "My savings are now enough for me to find a place"
Melissa: "A what? What's-" dad has this crazy thing of howling
when he gets into the house. He first kiss me and then snuggle
up next to mom.
Marcus: "I missed you"
Me: "Really? You didn't seem like you knew you had a daughter
in Neslpruit"
Marcus: "FYI I came into your room every night to say
goodnight but I'd find you dreaming and drooling" I laugh. "But
still kissed your 25 year old lovely forehead. Your mother is my
witness"
Melissa: "Do you ever face your wrongs without pointing me a
witness of something?"
Marcus: "You're my partner in crime. You signed up for that"
they giggle and dad lays his head on her lap. This two and their
forever blooming love.
Melissa: "Lexi was saying something before you came in" Dad
outstretch his hand and I take away my plate. I have him a little
medium piece of a sandwich.
Me: "Yeah. I have saved up enough to get an apartment" dad
sits up straight.
Marcus: "What is wrong with the penthouse?"
Me: "Nothing. I just want to do something for myself"
Melissa: "Have you started looking?"
Me: "Yes I have. I think there's one I like"
Melissa: "I have a bad feeling about this. Where is it?"
Me: "Houghton"
Melissa: "Does it have hot running water? A big tub? Is it
secure?"
Marcus: "Is there garages for your cars? Which security
company is that building under? Does their lift works?" Jesus
please do save me!
Me: "I have not been there. I was thinking of going there after
work tomorrow"
Marcus: "Rent, how much are we talking?"
Me: "R5000" mom gasps and shake her head no.
Melissa: "That is a low class place"
Me: "Its not mommy"
Marcus: "There is no decent place with hot running water, a
working lift and enough security that is so cheap."
Me: "What about the real world?" They both chuckle.
Marcus: "That world isn't for you love"
Melissa: "What you learned about it is enough. You don't need
to rent a R5000 apartment to prove yourself"
Me: "I'm tired of being your little girl. I'm 25"
Marcus: "You're a 25 little of ours. Work some more and then
you can move to your own place, decent place"
Melissa: "Yes. Your father is right" I sigh softly. They disappoint
me.
Me: "Let me go take a shower"
Them: "Are you sleeping over?"
Me: "I wish I was but I'm opening tomorrow"
I hear the weak OKs as I go up.
I take a long hot bath. Just what I needed. I feel fresh as I step
out after about an hour, I passed out for a couple of minutes.
Fatigue was killing me
now I'm a bit better. I receive a greeting text from Mike, I greet
him back and put the phone away to apply lotion and wear
pyjamas.
I find another text when I finish, him reminding about that
restaurant. I feel bad, I apologize for not giving him feed back
and take my gown and go out to meet my lovely family again.
Me: "Your air-conditioner is broken I think"
Marcus: "No I decreased it on purpose. You smell lovely"
Me: "Its that bedtime perfume mom bought me"
Melissa: "Its still there? It smells really nice"
Me: "Thank you"
I did not realize how much time had gone. It was 7:30.
Cassandra walked in with food. We ate and I packed my take
away and left, after a huge argument about driving at night.
This place just gets so quiet after 8pm. Its like nobody lives
here.
Arriving upstairs. I put my food in the fridge and went to sleep
after I set up a 5:30 alarm.
...
I hear footsteps approaching close. I bring my eyes up. He's
pushing a cart.
Sabelo: "Morning"
Me: "Hey." I get up and walk over to him. I take the clipboard
and sign. "Please wheel these inside for me. My co-worker is
not in"
Sabelo: "Ofcourse"
Me: "Thank you" I say as he wheel his cart out. He stops and
turn.
Sabelo: "What are you doing this evening?"
Me: "Keeping myself as far way as possible from married men.
Need something?" His head drops. He meets with a smirk back
up.
Sabelo: "Right. I wanted something but never mind"
Me: "Have a good day"
I go back to my computer and play Solitaire.
We got in a staring contest. His, tender and full of regret. Mine,
boiling with anger I could feel tears burn my eyes.
Bheki: "Where's Philani?" He says after he loses the battle.
Me: "He quit"
Bheki: "What?"
Me: "Nobody wants to work for someone ungrateful and
disrespectful as you are Bheki Ncube"
Bheki: "I'm sorry about yesterday"
Me: "Well you're sorry to a wrong person. How could you shout
at him? Infront of customers at that!"
Bheki: "I was...I'm going through some things and I-" I cut him
off.
Me: "We all are Bheki! But you'll never see us going around
shouting at people, especially people who are helpful to us."
Bheki: "I'm sorry. I was out of line"
Me: "Damn right you were. I also quit! See how you run this
place by yourself"
Bheki: "Lexi..."
I pull myself up. I put my things back to my bag. He grips my
arm as I head out.
Me: "If you know what's good for you, you will let go of me. Go
shave this hair, people do not think when they have hair" I
looking at his head annoyed.
Bheki: "I'm sorry okay. I meant what I said that night"
Me: "To hell with that. You've showed me why I should keep
myself away from you" I snatch my hand off his grip and run to
the lift. I was mad but now I am furious.
I call my dad. I fail to stop the sobs when he answers.
Marcus: "What's wrong baby? Where are you?"
Me: "I'm...is the offer still available?"
Marcus: "Ofcourse it is my love. What did your boss do? Tell
that motherfucker I will kill him!"
Me: "He's...he's not treating us well"
Marcus: "I'm coming there right now."
Came to think of it. I never told them I work for Bheki.
Me: "No need daddy I'll be fine. He just left anyway"
Marcus: "I am coming anyways. I love you okay"
Me: "I love you too"
I hang up and kick my heels off. I lay on the couch.
I must've fallen asleep. My phone woke me. It was Bheki. I
answer and keep quiet.
Bheki: "I've spoken to Philani. I apologized. Please let me in"
I hang up and get up to let him in. I go back to the couch. I page
through my phone. I text my dad that I was asleep when he
called.
Bheki: "Hi" I look at him and then back to my phone and then
back at him. I want to laugh. He's wearing navy nike track pants
and an adidas hoodie. Nothing like him.
Bheki: "I shaved my hair. Can we talk now?"
Me: "So you got into the salon and told the barber you want
Mohawk?"
Bheki: "Yes. And I bought these at Woolworths I didn't steal
them from ugogo womlungu"
Me: "You're very racist" he chuckles.
Bheki: "Black people are never racist. We never colonised
anyone"
I sigh. Why do I love such a fool though? "I also bought you
Ferrero Rocher." He handed them over.
Me: "Thank you"
Bheki: "Vula ke" (open it)
Me: "What?"
Bheki: "Ushokoledi. Angikaze ngawudla ngaphambilini ngifuna
nje ukuwuzwa"(The chocolates. I've never ate it before. I just
want a taste) never have I ever heard that before. I open it and
give him one, I take one too. We eat in silence.
Bheki: "Can I have another one?"
Me: "No."
Bheki: "Forgive me for not being nice yesterday. Philani has
forgiven me cause I scored him a date with his crush."
Me: "Really? Thats so sweet of you. I can't imagine how much
he's floating in happiness" my mood light up.
Bheki: "He is. He hugged me and kissed my forehead" I laugh.
"Let's go get something to eat"
Me: "I'm actually sleepy"
Bheki: "You can sleep while I ride"
I put on my wig.
Bheki: "Why do you always wear that?"
Me: "Because I love it. I'll go change" I changed into jeans and a
jacket. The weather has changed.
I find 2 of my chocolates missing. His cheeks looking like of a
chipmunk.
I head to the lift.
Me: "Where's your car?"
Bheki: "Here" he says tapping a bicycle. I laugh. He unhooks it
from the bikes racks. "It has a hoot"
Me: "Bheki"
Bheki: "Mama?"
Me: "I am going back"
Bheki: "Because I am riding a bicycle?"
Me: "No. Because we won't fit in this"
Bheki: "We will. Come" I sigh. Jesus I do not understand this
person. "Almost forgot" he takes off to the shop opposite and
comes back with 2 helmets. "Here" I take and fasten it up. He
climbs on and I follow.
Bheki: "Don't be afraid to hold on to me."
Me: "Okay." I held on tight. He's a cuddle bear. No six packs,
just a tiny normal belly of an attractive Zulu man.
I would rather die than admit to Mvelo that I fell hard for this
Brentwood wearing shaka warrior. He honks at some guys we
pass by. I laugh.
Bheki: "I told you. This is a special bicycle nkosazana" that
nkosazana thing melts my heart. "McDonald's?"
Me: "Yes please"
I wasn't even looking forward. My head was on his back.
I hear "Sir bicycles aren't allowed this side" I get my head up to
see. We're at the drive through.
Bheki: "Isn't this a vehicle? I'd like 2 large big tasty, with orange
juice and coke"
Lady: "Please do this again. It'll be R160"
Bheki: "Oh I will do it again. You probably won't be in, so..." he
takes out a card. I face away and laugh. He smells nice. She
gives us the receipt.
Me: "You're so exceptional Bheki Ncube" I say as we take our
order.
Bheki: "Am I?" He parks at the parking lot before McDonalds
door.
Me: "What are we doing now?"
Bheki: "Getting inside to eat."
Me: "Bheki Ncube?" He laughs and pull me towards the door.
He looks at his reflection in the glass.
Bheki: "I look like Jo'burg boys today neh?"
Me: "Yes you do"
Bheki: "Thank you"
I spot a table for two at the far dim corner. I pull him. We settle
down and he starts telling me about his bicycle.
Bheki: "It is special to me. I've never let anyone ride it."
Me: "We all have that one thing"
Bheki: "True and then we have people we want to share those
special things with, to me that happens to be you"
Me: "Don't be cheesy"
Bheki: "Can I kiss you? Just incase I die tonight"
Me: "Yeah sure" we lean over and kiss. His lips are soft.
Bheki: "Look at you blushing. Thank you"
Me: "My pleasure"
Bheki: "These fries are cold now...sorry sisi, ngisacela
ungifudumezela" I take the fries away from him.
Me: "He's kidding." The lady turns back. "You're such trouble"
Bheki: "How many troubles do you have?"
Me: "Two"
Bheki: "Congratulations. You now have three" he points at
himself.
He's stupid and I think that is why I am falling for him. Are we
dating now or what? Whatever it is that is happening, I love
it....
13
Yet again. I am here on my bed, feeling like crap. I can't move
an inch, I trusted this man again and went out drinking, just the
2 of us this time. I had a really great time but now I wish I
hadn't agreed to go. My phone vibrates somewhere in the bed,
with all the strength in me I search for it under the covers and
God have mercy on me, I find it.
I view the the text message from my mother.
Lexi. We are going out today. You need to distress my angel. Be
ready by 11am. Xoxo.
I growl. Its 10:15! How fast am I to be done and ready to be
fetched by 11?
No mommy. I have a terrible hangover. Let's make it 12pm.
Pretty please?
I respond and feel the burning urge to urinate, God my body
can't take this torture. I get up, almost trip over my pants that I
assume I didn't not pull them over my feet. I move them off
and run to the bathroom. I pee, I feel relief take over. I sit in
that same position for quite a while just thinking about my life,
like most of us do in this place. I hear footsteps, I sigh in relief
when I hear Sis Buhle humming. I wipe myself and flush. I look
for remedy pills on the cabinet. I drink up, I look like I just came
out of the bush or I am a family member of Croods.
Me: "Hey sis Buhle" she startle, we laugh.
Sis Buhle: "I thought you had left for work already."
Me: "I quit, I will work for my dad now"
Sis Buhle: "Really? What happened down there? I thought you
were happy"
Me: "I was, its just...I don't know, I made a decision while I was
angry and now I can't call my dad and tell him that so I'll just go
ahead with it."
Sis Buhle: "Ohh I get it now"
Me: "Yup. Let me go take a shower, my mother is taking me
out"
Sis Buhle: "You better do because if she sees you like this she'll
assume you're going through depression" We laugh. She knows
her too well.
My mother arrives just as I stepped into the shower.
By the time I finish getting ready Melissa McVeigh has called
me to hurry up more than 30 times.
She gets into my room as I take my bag to walk out. I smile, the
please don't shout at me smile.
Me: "See? I'm done. Let's go" She rolls her eyes and we walk
out. "Sis Buhle! See you tomorrow. I love you"
Sis Buhle: "I love you! Have a good time my loves"
Us: "Thank you"
We get on the lift and I take a few mirror selfies of us. She looks
simple and beautiful. She never dress up like this, she likes
dresses and heels but today she settled for skinny jeans, white
tee with some modern printing and sandals, not forgetting
shades. My dad would go crazy if he saw her like this, he'd ask
her on a date. I decide to send him a picture of us as we drive
off.
What on earth is this! Please keep the men away from my wife.
What a way to make my day. You look beautiful my honeys.
I chuckle.
Me: "Dad says I should keep the men away from you" she
laughs.
Melissa: "Tell him I only have eyes for him. He must not worry"
I text him exactly that.
Me: "So today you decided we should go out?"
Melissa: "Ofcourse. We haven't, in months."
Me: "You know why?"
Melissa: "Why?"
Me: "Because I was always the one to initiate the outings and
now I am the responsible and the spending wisely Lexi"
She chuckles.
Melissa: "True and I regret ever trying to introduce you to the
world because in that process you stopped being our little girl"
I could sense a glimpse of pain in her voice.
Me: "Mom! I haven't. I just have been busy"
Melissa: "You hardly even call baby"
Me: "My mistake, I'm sorry."
Melissa: "When last did you sleep over?"
I sigh.
Me: "I will stay the weekend this time."
Melissa: "Why not today?"
Me: "Because Mvelo is coming over" She moved the meeting
into today because apperantly by Friday she'd have forgotten
some things. That's just my bestie with lousy excuses for
everything.
Melissa: "Okay. I will cook your favorite"
I laugh and perk her cheek.
I take out my phone once again to check if I have any messages.
None. I place it back to my thighs and turn up the music. I pull
out my glasses too. Mom glances at me and smile.
The drive to the spa is filled with joy and laughter.
We are welcomed with love and offered champagne as the
young lady leads us to changing rooms.
Still no new messages on my phone or missed calls. I switch it
off and put it in my bag.
Melissa: "I saw Bheki when I went to fill up gas, and then saw
him in the building speaking to Mrs Kavinsky" she says as we lay
down to get started with the works.
So he's alive but hasn't bothered to text or call. "Lexi!" I jump.
"Did you hear what I said?"
Me: "Y-yes. I'm just thinking"
Melissa: "You haven't worked things out?"
I shake my head no.
Me: "Bheki is complicated. I don't think someone like him and
me have a chance to date"
Melissa: "But you two looked happy together" I clear my throat
and moan a little as the lady deals with the tense back of mine.
She has magic hands.
Me: "I wouldn't really say happy, we just got along fine"
Melissa: "If you say so. Has Mvelo told you how was the
ceremony?"
Me: "Not full details. That's why we're meeting tonight"
Melissa: "Don't drink too much. I know how you both get
around each other"
I laugh.
Me: "She has to go to work tomorrow so we won't. We'll talk
over a movie and a box of pizza"
Melissa: "That's good. I'm getting sleepy"
Me: "Me too"
We stay quiet and indulge into the moment...
...
The lunch is breath taking. Those foods prepared before our
eyes are my favorite. Whoever came up with the idea is a
genius. The place is quite packed, you wouldn't say its
Wednesday.
I feel fresh and a whole lot better than I did 2 hours ago. Most
people here are couples. I wonder how long they've been
together. All of them look pretty happy.
Mom looks at me and then back at the couple I am watching,
they look pretty young to be in a relationship. She lifts her glass
of wine, I gasp when the diamond in her finger catches the
light.
Me: "Isn't she too young for that?"
Melissa: "What?"
Me: "Marriage"
Mom looks at them and chuckles.
Melissa: "You know baby, when you find the one everything
just seems right. How old you are, your financial state or
whatever does not matter."
Me: "I see"
I don't. Why would one choose to share their life with someone
from 20s. If I saw any need for marriage I would choose to get
married at 40 when I am done with myself. Marriage limits who
are and what you want. I bet she can't just up and leave
without telling him. Marriage is jail
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a jail dressed as have made it in life.
My phone vibrates. I reach for it. I feel a bit of disappointment
when I see a message from an agent reminding me about our
meeting in an hour of which I totally forgot about.
Me: "Are you gonna come with me to the apartment viewing.
This was an agent reminding me"
Melissa: "Yes ofcourse"
Her phone rings. She smiles and I already know its her husband.
.
They talk like they don't share a bed. She tells him she's going
with me to see the apartment. Her grin grows even wider and
then hangs up.
Melissa: "Your father says send him the address. He's gonna
meet us there" I do not like that idea at all but I send him
anyway. We finish up eating and leave the paradise. Mvelo
abuses me with wanting selfies. I keep on sending her a picture
of everything around me.
When we arrive at the given address, my father is already there
waiting. We hug and he asks me about what my boss did
exactly. I tell them as we head inside this old yet beautiful
building. They comfort me, if only they knew that my boss is
Bheki.
"You must be Lexi" says a lady out of nowhere. She flashes us a
big bold smile.
Her: "I am Camilla. Steph, your agent got held up somewhere
so she asked me to help you. Your room is on the first floor,
unfortunately the lift is temporarily out so we'll have to take
the stairs"
I look at my dad. He stares at me blank and I nod towards
Camilla and then she leads the way up. Their lobby is beautiful.
Grey walls, white couches and a little bit touch of red there and
there. The portraits on the wall compliments the style. I just
hope the apartment looks as good as it did on the pictures or
else these 2 human beings will eat me alive.
She unlocks the second door on the left.
Camilla: "This is it! You can put the carpet over if you do not like
the wooden floor" whomever lived here did not believe much
in cleaning. The wooden floor needs tender care, this one
doesn't look like it got it's equipment once in a while. She leads
us to what's supposed to be a kitchen, 3 people can not be in
this kitchen. My dad opens the taps and closes them. They have
a built in stove, washing machine and a dishwasher. Nice.
She leads us to the bathroom. There's no tub. Only a shower.
The parents have not said a word and I know that's not good.
The bedroom isn't as big but enough. It has a walk in closet, its
also small but not too small. We go back to the lounge.
Camilla: "So, What do you think?"
Me: "I-" my dad cuts me off.
Marcus: "Its ugly" mom and I looks at him. "What? Look at this
floor, do goats live here? What about the wardrobe of a
bathroom? Where's the tub? That kitchen, so tiny. This is a doll
house. Tell whomever owns this place that he/she should fix it.
Your lift doesn't even function"
Camilla: "Sir this apartment is the biggest and on high demand
in this whole entire building"
Marcus: "Then give it to those who demand it. My daughter will
not stay in such a place. Thank you for your time"
He pulls us both out.
Me: "Dad! What was that?"
Marcus: "You will not stay here"
Me: "Its affordable"
Melissa: "And not secured. I did not see a security guard at the
gate"
Marcus: "Don't rush to move out. Stay in the penthouse until
you have enough money to rent a decent place"
Me: "When I find that place I'll go alone"
Marcus: "Fine by me"
Mom shrugs. These people!
I also do not like the place but they are too much. I send Steph
a text apologizing about my dad's behavior towards Camilla.
Marcus: "Mom and I are now going to Rosebank. You want to
tag along?"
Me: "No, I have to go get some snacks, Mvelo is coming over"
Marcus: "Oh. You girls have a good time"
Me: "Thank you."
Melissa: "Take my car. You'll bring it on Friday"
Me: "Thank you" we hug and part ways into the cars...
....
People are always shopping. I did not expect shops to be so
packed at this time of the month.
I couldn't help myself. I bought only 1 bottle of wine.
When I arrived back home I took a bath and slid into my
pyjamas. I decided to hide my phone away before I go crazy.
This is why I hate liking people. Stressing over why have not
texted is not my kind of style. I feel foreign being mad at Bheki
for not making any means to contact me.
6pm on the dot the best friend makes her way in. We hug so
tightly. I peep into the paperbag in her hand. There is wine. I
laugh.
Me: "Mom was right"
Mvelo: "What is gossip without wine? Are we gonna order in?"
Me: "Yes. You smell heavenly"
Mvelo: "Thank you babe. I bought one for you too"
She takes it out of her bag and waste no time but spray it on my
body as I thank her.
I take out the snacks and glasses while picks a movie for us. She
changes into pyjamas and we settle on the couch.
Me: "Start from the beginning"
She laughs and starts talking. Her face lights up at the mention
of Nduna's name.
By the time she finishes, we're tipsy and laughing none stop.
We order food, Nduna calls her, I leave them to talk while I go
pee. I come back, they are still talking. I fetch more snacks and
a second bottle of wine. She hangs up when I sit down next to
her.
Me: "So calling each other is the thing in a relationship?"
Mvelo: "Yes. I mean how can you not call or text your person?
Nduna checks up on me every now and then"
Me: "Since you agreed to be his girlfriend?"
Mvelo: "Yes. Are you okay?"
Me: "Yeah, why would you ask? I'm fine"
I fake a chuckle.
Mvelo: "You just... you've never been interested in such
information"
Me: "Oh no, I was just curious. Seeing how much Nduna always
calls you"
Mvelo: "Mmmh"
Our food arrives. We eat and then time for her to leave comes.
Me: "I thought you drove here" I say when she tells me Nduna
is coming to fetch her.
Mvelo: "No babe I requested an uber"
Me: "Oh"
We get on the lift heading down. We hug when we reach
Nduna's car.
Nduna: "You should come visit is Lexi, she misses you"
Me: "I thought you'd never ask. I will come soon"
Nduna: "I am ready to eat out" I laugh.
Me: "I can cook you know"
Nduna: "Ok I can't wait to eat foreign foods"
I chuckle.
Mvelo: "Its nice to see you two not trying to kill each other"
Me: "He loves you. Now I'm sure so there's no reason to kill
him, atleast for now"
I smile at Nduna and bid them goodbye.
I gasp when I feel someone grip my hand. My face changes
when I see his. I snatch my hand off and head back inside. He is
hot on my heels as I press for the lift to open.
Bheki: "What's wrong?" If I speak right now it'll be bad. The lift
parts, I am hoping it closes before he gets in but why am I
stupid to even wish of that because he's standing beside me
and goes in first before I do. I wasn't this angry before he got
here but now that he's here, I want to slap the shit out of him.
Bheki: "Are you going to say what's wrong or should I follow
you around the whole night?"
He says as I clean up our mess with Mvelo. I put the dishes into
a sink and put my right hand on the hip.
Me: "You have some nerve you know that? You spend the
whole day quiet and you come here and say that to me? It is
totally unacceptable Bheki!"
Bheki: "You're mad I didn't text?" He smirks. He finds it funny.
Me: "Are you kidding me? You think this is funny?"
Bheki: "No but seeing a short person angry sort is. I'm sorry I
didn't text, I did not want to pressure you."
Me: "Pressure me?"
Bheki: "Yes. If you're hitting on a beautiful woman, you should
give her time to breathe and think about you, of which I did but
didn't turn out good"
Me: "Oh I thought we were already an item" I laugh at my
stupid self.
Bheki: "How? You didn't agree to be my woman"
Me: "Of course I did you dummy. We kissed!"
He frowns.
Bheki: "That's it?..." he pause. "I forgot you're white. I thought
you guys did that only in movies. I absolutely had no idea that a
kiss is all takes to seal the deal. I am sorry for not texting"
Me: "You are stupid"
Bheki: "I read somewhere that that's how you guys tells a
person you love them so I love you too"
I find myself laughing. Why is my heart trapped on this fool. His
smile grows as he sees me laugh.
Bheki: "Come here you battery low teddy" he picks me up to sit
on the counter. He looks down on my exposed thighs. He clears
his throat and looks at my face. "Why were you wearing this
outside?"
Me: "Because-"
He places his cold, strong hands on my thighs. I gulp. I haven't
been touched in a very long time. His left hand travels to caress
my cheek and the other on my back.
Bheki: "You're so beautiful. I wish you knew that and stopped
wearing that hair" I chuckle nervously as his finger softly
drummed on my back.
Me: "Thank you"
Bheki: "Can I kiss you now?" I nod shyly.
He brings his face closer and our lips meet.
It is nothing I expected. You know this kind and such things, he
seems to know his business. I wonder if his sex is also
nice....whoa hold it Lexi!
I quickly shut my mind off and focus on the kiss that is sending
all kinds of feelings into my body. I hope I am not kissing him
badly, I mean I haven't kissed anyone in years.
Holy shit its official!....
14
The ringing sound of my phone disturbed my beautiful dream
of buying myself the BMW M4. This is why I always put it on
silence before I sleep. People get bored and call you, without
any valid reason why.
I narrow my eyes as the light penetrate my eyes sharply. Its
unknown numbers, I answer.
Me: "Yes"
Voice: "Don't tell me you're the grumpy type in the morning" I
chuckle.
Me: "Not really. I just don't like people waking me up, not you
though. Did you change numbers?"
Mike: "Yes. I got mugged last night on the parking lot"
Me: "I'm sorry. Didn't they harm you?"
Mike: "Just a few slaps, punches and kicks"
Me: "That sounds terrible"
Mike: "Ahh I'm fine. I took them as a man. What are you doing
today after work?"
Me: "I will only go back to work on Monday"
Mike: "Awesome. Thirsty-Thursday here we come! Get ready by
12 in the noon okay?"
Me: "As long as you won't force me to drink even when I've had
enough"
Mike: "I will do no such thing. Here comes my boss, let me call
you later. Bye"
Me: "Bye" I hang up and look at the time. 10am on the dot.
Well I'm not surprised, I slept at 3am after Bheki left. He
decided we watch a movie and cuddled in the couch. I was
pretty impressed by his suggestion. Men aren't so much in
movies, especially not romcoms but he picked one.
I send him a good morning text and go to release my bladder
from the torture. I hear my phone ringing as fill the tub with
hot water. I walk to take it. I smile and answer.
Me: "Hey"
Bheki: "Hey. I'm sorry about not texting, I just came out of the
meeting"
Me: "It's okay"
Bheki: "Are you okay?"
Me: "Yeah I'm great. How are you?"
Bheki: "A bit sleepy but I'm okay. Any plans for the day?"
Me: "Yeah. I am going out with Mike"
Bheki: "Ubanike loyo?" (Who's that?)
Me: "My friend, the one I was with the other day"
Bheki: "Well you can't go out with him"
Me: "And why is that?"
Bheki: "Because we have plans"
Me: "No we don't"
Bheki: "We do now. Get ready. I'll pick you up in a few"
Me: "Bheki I'm not- Hello?" He hung up on me!
I toss the phone on the bed and go back to take a bath.
I made the bed after coming out of the bathroom and dressed
up.
I hear a knock on the door as I put on make-up.
Me: "It's open"
He peeps his head in. "Oh hey. How did you get in?"
Mike: "I saw your code, sorry."
Me: "You're early"
Mike: "Yeah. I knocked off at 11:30."
Me: "Okay. You can sit on the bed, I'm almost done"
Mike: "Thank you"
I beat my face up and in 10 minutes I'm done and ready to go.
Mike: "You might consider getting a jacket. The weather will
change soon"
Me: "Its gonna ruin my outfit" I whine.
Mike: "I'll carry it for you"
I fetch it and we make our way out. I set the lights to go on at 7
and off at 9.
The lift dings open as I extend my arm to press the button. His
eyes go straight to Mike. Guilt suddenly hit me. I clear my
throat to break the silence. He finally looks my way.
Bheki: "I take it you're ready"
Me: "I-Mike and I were on our way out actually."
Bheki: "Where's your girlfriend?"
Me: "Huh?"
Bheki: "I'm taking to him"
Oh...
Mike: "I don't have one"
Bheki: "Well use this time to go look for one because right now
I am taking MY girlfriend out. Asambe baby" he turns to press
the button.
Mike looks at me. I mime "I'm sorry" he silently chuckle and
shake his head.
We all get in the lift. Silence until we get off. Bheki reach his
hand out to Mike, he points at the jacket when Mike shows
confusion. He gives it to him, I say goodbye to Mike as we part
ways heading into different cars.
Bheki surprisingly opens the door for me. Its the last thing I
expected him to do, especially not now.
I thank him and he close the door, I apply a lipgloss as he walks
to his door. The starts the car.
Bheki: "Please put on the seatbelt"
I fasten it and off we go. He turns the stereo on and a Zulu radio
station comes on. I stare out the window. Actually I should stop
battling in my head, I turn the volume down.
Me: "I do not appreciate the way you spoke to my friend"
He glances at me once and look ahead. "I am serious Bheki. And
I left with you because It would've seem as disrespect if I
insisted that I'm going out with Mike"
He turns his radio up and dance to the song playing. I turn it
down.
Me: "Bheki"
Bheki: "Yebo mama" he smirks.
Me: "Did you hear any word I said?"
Bheki: "Every single one"
Me: "Why are you responding then?"
Bheki: "And say what my love? You told me you do not like how
I talked to your purple hair friend and that you're just here
because you didn't want to seem disrespectful. What was my
answer supposed to be?"
Me: "Okay would've done it"
Bheki: "Ok. Okay then"
I roll my eyes. He chuckles.
Bheki: "I'm sorry that I'll never let you go out with him."
Me: "I'm 25"
Bheki: "Oh congratulations." He says sarcastically.
Me: "You're my boyfriend. You hold no rights of controlling me"
Bheki: "We'll see about that"
Me: "For real. If on our second day together these are the
issues we're already dealing with then we should sit down and
discuss how are we going to work this out"
Bheki: "I agree. Starting off with cutting that purple hair off our
lives"
Me: "No. We don't make such decisions, we discuss"
Bheki: "His case is off discussion. I am not going to have my
girlfriend going out with men, you told me your only friend is
Nomvelo. Where did he come from now? He's even single to
make matters worse. He's warming his way into your heart"
Me: "Eww! Mike does not do relationships. He fucks around"
Bheki: "Even more dangerous. Venomous"
Me: "You're being unreasonable"
Bheki: "Ok let's settle this: You'll only hang out with him in my
presence." I scoff. "Take it or leave it"
Me: "I will not be controlled"
Bheki: "Have it your way then"
He inserts the maskandi CD and turns the volume up again.
He sings along, totally ignoring my existence. I take out my
phone and text Mvelo. She tells me about the wedding dress
hunt that should begin this weekend. I smile excitedly, I shall
also tell her about Bheki. Or is it too early? By the look of today
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we'll hardly make it to 2 months.
He pulls up infront of KFC and switch off the radio and exhale.
He searches for his wallet and find it.
Me: "Is this where we're going?"
Bheki: "Yes. Let's go" he un-buckle and step out of the car. Date
a Zulu man and you shall see yourself choosing him over booze
and music while he takes you to KFC.
I take my purse and he's already holding the door open for me.
I step out. He closes the door and we walk inside.
Eyes on us as we walk forward to the counter.
Bheki: "Unjani sisi. Can I have 2 streetwise 2 with chips, box
master and crushes" he turns to me. "Berry or Oreo?"
Me: "Oreo please"
Bheki: "Oreos"
He pays and we go to find a table.
Me: "Are we going to eat here?"
Bheki: "Wherever you want"
Me: "We can go to my place" the stares made me
uncomfortable.
Bheki: "We can go to my brother's place. Its nearby"
Me: "That's ok"
They call out our order. He gets up to fetch it.
Does he even have his own place? I'm starting to wonder.
...
In 15 minutes we arrive at his brother's place in Balfour.
He must be the cleanest person on earth. I've never been to a
place so spotless I am even scared to step freely on the white
tiles.
Bheki: "I'll go place these on the plates. Here's the remote, you
can put on your shows" I chuckle.
Me: "Thank you." I take off my heels and put them beside the
couch. I placed my feet comfortably on the fur carpet. He must
be gay, I doubt a Zulu man would have such a style. White
everything. Only the tv and the decoder is diffetent. I switch it
on and browse through channels. I settle for BET.
He gets back. My phone beeps. I view the email, its from my
dad's firm. They are inviting me to an interview. I put the phone
back down and look at this full plate before me. Am I expected
to eat all this?
Bheki: "Do you want tamati sosi?" (Tomato sauce) I laugh.
Me: "No thank you. I prefer my fries like this"
Bheki: "I was asking for the meat" I frown.
Me: "Who does that?"
Bheki: "Bhekisizwe SamaNcube" he says proudly. I'm shook. He
marinates one piece with mayonnaise and the other with
tomato sauce. Wow.
We eat in silence. Not the awkward one, the comfortable
beautiful silence of glancing at each other now and then and
exchanging smiles.
After eating we clean up. Leaving no evidence of us ever eating
here.
Bheki: "We can watch a movie" he says after we finish packing
the plates back to the white cabinets! Jesus what is it with
white everything and this person. Only the stove, fridge and the
top of the counter is gray. Its beautiful but he shouldn't have
over-white the house.
Me: "We can use my Netflix account"
Bheki: "Yinike leyo?"
Me: "Its a movie app. That's where we always watch movies"
Bheki: "You should buy it for me"
Me: "Its easy. You download the app, fill in your details, they
ask the gadget that you'll use, you pick either phone and TV,
phone and tablet, laptop or all of it"
Bheki: "Really? Please download it for me" he takes out his tiny
huawei. I laugh.
Me: "Jesus I should buy you a phone"
Bheki: "What is wrong with this one?"
Me: "Nothing. Its just too much out of your league"
Bheki: "Which one is better?"
Me: "New samsungs, New Huaweis and IPhones"
Bheki: "Hhai ngeke ngilunge lapho sthandwa sami. I will only
have such phones when I get married"
Me: "Then we'll have to use your laptop to sign up on Netflix.
Today we'll use my account"
Bheki: "Okay" he turned away. "Gibela" (hop on)
Me: "What?"
Bheki: "Hop on mlungu"
Me: "I heard you at first muzulu" he laughs and turn.
Bheki: "Okay. Let me carry you in your way" I run for my life as
he bends to pick me up.
I sync my phone to the TV and sit down while Bheki does
whatever wherever in this place.
Bheki: "Its raining"
Me: "I was wondering why am I getting cold"
He closes the blinds and turn on the heater. He disappears and
come back with a throw.
He finally takes off his kicks.
Me: "Where did you borrow those feet?" He laughs and put the
right one on top of the other.
Bheki: "My mother"
Me: "She has very beautiful feet. Its very unusual for sons to
inherit the mother's feet"
Bheki: "I am the lucky one"
He sits down next to me and pull me over to lay my head on his
chest. His cologne game is out of this world. I inhale it and lose
myself a bit. I wonder how does he smell like when he's sweaty,
but I guess I'll find out soon. And being honest I hope he
initiates today, here on his brother's couch. My inner bitch
endured too much torture last night when he only kissed me.
Not going down there or anything. This girl needs some loving,
its been a while, he needs to take down the web. I wonder if
he's circumcised? Does he even know his HIV status? He
doesn't look like the type to bother about both of that.
Bheki: "Lexi?" I startle.
Me: "mmmh?"
Bheki: "I'm asking if this one is okay" Man in black.
Me: "Yeah its okay. I haven't seen it."
Bheki: "Are you okay?"
Me: "Yes. I am just too full and need to unbutton this jean"
Bheki: "Go ahead then." He kisses my forehead. He must've
seen that in movies.
....
Movies always lead to a nap. We both fell asleep. My phone
became the alarm.
I move off carefully from his chest. It was minutes after 6. I
answer my mother's call.
Me: "Hey"
Melissa: "Lexi, please come home. Its urgent" she's crying.
Me: "What's wrong mommy? Is daddy okay?"
Melissa: "Please just come home" she hangs up. I call her back,
she doesn't answer. I call my father, he doesn't answer too.
I shake Bheki softly as tears build up in my eyes. He opens his
eyes.
Bheki: "What's wrong?"
Me: "I don't know. My mother just called. She's crying. I'm
leaving"
I put on my shoes and my jacket.
Bheki: "I will take you home"
He puts on his shoes too.
....
The drive to my parent's house is silent. And I would be lying if I
said I mind it.
Bheki: "I'll stay here until you tell me what is going on"
Me: "You can leave. I'll be fine"
Bheki: "I am not leaving." He kisses my cheek before I hop out.
I put my finger on the reader and I go through. There are 2
unfamiliar cars parked behind my dad's. I say a little prayer as I
walk to the front door.
I find mom in the kitchen. She doesn't see me. I carefully touch
her arm. She turns my way.
Me: "What's going on?"
Melissa: "I don't wanna lose you Lexi" she starts crying.
Me: "Who said anything about losing me mom?" I am now also
crying. We hug for minutes until she finally calms down.
Melissa: "They are here to claim you back"
Me: "What? Where's dad?"
She points at the lounge. I head straight there. He's with
people. He doesn't look so happy himself.
Me: "Good evening" my dad gets up and rushes to me.
He puts his hands on my shoulders. Marcus: "Baby"
Me: "What's going on? Why is mommy crying? What did you do
to her?" I am failing to compose myself.
Marcus: "Your mother-your mother is here to claim you back"
he turns and look at the people sitting on the couch.
I see the man and an older version of Alexis Sabathile McVeigh.
I shake my head slowly. Marcus: "Lexi"
Me: "No daddy. No!"
I snatch my hand away from him and I run upstairs. I remember
that Bheki is outside waiting. I turn back, passing my dad like he
isn't calling my name crying.
I hop on.
Me: "Please drive. Take me away, far away from this house"
Bheki: "What's going on?"
I lean my head on the dashboard and hit it a couple of times
with my fist as I scream. He starts the car and drive off.
The nerve of that woman! The nerve!
15
Bheki: "At some point you'll have to stop crying and start telling
me what's wrong" we drove back to his brother's place. I told
him I don't want to be where my parents would find me. He
made me coffee when we arrived. I curled up on the couch and
cried until my coffee got cold while Bheki sat on a chair before
me.

I wish there was something to actually say to him. I couldn't

talk. My voice failed me.
Bheki: "Sthandwa sami I am about to lose my mind. I can't just
sit here and watch you like this. You need to say something" he
extends his hand to take the cup into his hands. "I am worried
Alexis!"

I startle. "I'm sorry. Please say something please"

I take the tissue and blow my nose. I take a deep sigh and sit up
straight, both my knees in between Bheki's.
Me: "They had an affair with my father, he was her lecturer. I
was the results of my father's infidelity, I guess she couldn't
stand a mixed baby or she hated me because of how I came I
don't know." He wipes my tears as his clench his jaw. "She went
to my parent's house and left me at the door. When my mom
went to attend the door bell, she found a little baby in her
doorstep and that was me. My father confessed his sins, 'It
really didn't hurt much. I was so focused on my gift wrapped in
pink' my mother said when they told me about who I really am.
So, she's back, to claim me" I chuckle. "Claim me. Like some
sort of property, after 25 years?" I start crying again. He place
both his hands on my thighs.
Bheki: "Hey hey hey, listen. You can't let that pathetic woman
ruin your night okay? She's a piece of shit and not worth your
beautiful tears. I know you're crying probably because you're
angry but please calm down, you're scaring me and worrying
me when you cry. I don't want to see you cry"
Me: "I can't help it"
Bheki: "I'll make you another cup of coffee and make you pasta
and any topping of your choice"
I find myself laughing. "I'm a great cook miss McVeigh. Unlike
someone I can't point a finger at"
Me: "Is it? So is your brother going to be okay with you taking
over his kitchen?"
Bheki: "Of course. Why wouldn't he be? Its just a kitchen"
Me: "And his food"
Bheki: "I can always replace it. He's not greedy"
Me: "Where does he live?"
Bheki: "Rusternburg. Let me go make that coffee. Take this
thing off."
Me: "Ouch!" He let's go and laugh.
Bheki: "I'm sorry. Doesn't it come out in one pull?"
Me: "No." I take it off. "Jesus you gonna pull my scalp up one
day"
Bheki: "I might, because I don't understand why you wear it"

He disappears to the kitchen before I can answer. I look for my

phone under the fleece, nothing.
Me: "Did you see my phone?"
Bheki: "On the TV stand"
Me: "Thank you"
Bheki: "You're welcome" I chuckle. He's nice to me, I should
always cry.
I get up and take it. He comes in with 2 cups of coffee. He put
them on the small round table beside the couch. I sit down and
switch on my phone. He hands me my cup.
Me: "Thank you"
Bheki: "Mushroom sauce, peri peri sauce or just normal pasta
sauce?"
Me: "A drop of peri and normal pasta sauce"
Bheki: "Mince or Chicken strips?"
Me: "Strips will do"
Bheki: "Okay baby." He switch on the TV and leave the lounge
again.

Messages come in, in numbers. They are from the parents. I

text them that I'm fine, text Mvelo good night and switch off
my phone.

I settle some random tv show that was watching but not paying
attention as my mind wandered off to that woman. 25 years,
only today she saw it fit to come up here and "claim me"

I am angry. No
not because she gave me away. I actually appreciate her for
that, had it been someone else she'd have killed me or worse. I
grew up experiencing real love from both my parents. They love
unconditionally.

I am angry that she came to "claim me back"

She's not here to try and explain anything to me or try to have
a relationship with me first. Who ups and leave with a stranger
just because it is their biological mother? She had no remorse
at all. She looked at me with no surprise or whatsoever.

Bheki throws himself on the couch beside me. I turn to him. The
aroma hits my nostrils. He gives me the bowl. I thank him.
Bheki: "Been calling you for the past 5 minutes"
Me: "I'm thinking about that woman. She had no regret in her
eyes."
Bheki: "She's evil, thats why."
Me: "At least you get this. I mean he could've given me to my
dad but still kept in contact. She never loved me, why is she
here now?"
Bheki: "Her tyre probably kept punching, her mother suggested
she goes to a sangoma. She did and then the sangoma told her
it's because she gave you away and then she decided to look
for you"
Me: "She's always known where I am. My father is a very well
known businessman and the cars I saw outside, she might be in
business too"
Bheki: "So you'll never ever forgive her?"
Me: "No. I do not need a woman. She can go to hell for all I
care"
Bheki: "Let's forget about her and eat" I smile.
Me: "You're really a good cook. This tastes nice"
He takes my hand and kisses it...

***
I was hoping I will get some steamy hot sex to relieve my
stress. I got none. None!

We shared a bed. I was wearing his trunk that I took off in the
middle of the night, it was uncomfortable. Not even the
warmth of my butt woke him up. Even this morning, he realized
I was naked. He just smiled and baby kissed me and went to run
me a bath. I am worried.

He gets in with a foschini plastic as I step out of the bathroom.

He smiles and hugs me.
Bheki: "I missed you"
Me: "Where are you from?"
Bheki: "The mall. I went to get you cosmetics and clothes since
you don't wanna be found"
Me: "Thank you. Aren't you supposed to be at work?"
Bheki: "I am but I decided to take a day off and take you out"
Me: "You like going out, don't you?"
Bheki: "Have parents ever bought you something you've longed
for, for so long?" I frown and nod. "You couldn't maintain the
happiness of going out and show it off right?"
Me: "Yes"
Bheki: "Thats how I feel with you babe. I just want to take you
everywhere. Let people see that you're mine now" I laugh.
Me: "You're so cheesy for a Zulu guy"
Bheki: "What did Zulu guys ever did to you Sabathile McVeigh"
there's something about how he calls my name and surname. It
just sends shivers down my spine.
Me: "Nothing. They are just something else for my liking"

He raise his brow and offer me a body lotion. I take it and starr
applying. His eyes don't move away from my bare naked body.
He sits on the bed and keep on looking. I am getting
uncomfortable.
Me: "If eyes could eat someone up. I'd be long gone" he
laughs.
Bheki: "You're too beautiful to not watch."
Me: "What did you buy? I should dry my underwear"

I take the plastic and take out clothes. He bought me a dress,

pants, tee, sandals, bras and panties. I laugh.
Me: "How do you know these will fit?"
Bheki: "I'm a very smart guy. Can you please wear that dress?"
Me: "What? Are you taking me to Malimali again?" He laughs.
Bheki: "Its Kwamayemaye baby"
Me: "Same thing"
Bheki: "Its not. Let me bath. Order us breakfast" he heads to
the bathroom door.
Me: "What can I order?"
Bheki: "Anything, with KFC" I thought Philani was bluffing when
he said this man is obsessed with KFC. I nod as he goes in. I put
on the dress. I do not like summer dress but I am willing to
compromise. I fit perfectly into it and swing around. I put on
shoes and clear up the room then take my phone and switch it
on.

Messages again. My parents called Mvelo, I text her that I'm

good and do the same to mom and dad. They are begging me
to come home, I will go there in the noon.

I order breakfast. My phone rings as I put it away. Its my dad. I

hesitate to answer but answer anyways. I don't say anything.
Marcus: "We're in Morningside medi clinic. Your mother had an
asthma attack." He says. His voice so down.
Me: "Ok I'm coming"
I hang up.
Me: "Bheki. I am requesting an uber. My mother is sick"
Bheki: "Get in" what? No
Me: "I'll call you when I get there. Bye"
Bheki: "Sabathile"

I take my bag and walk out of the room. I see his car keys,
well....

....
Arriving at the hospital I park and call my dad asking where are
they. He directs me.

I tell the nurse on the front desk that I'm here for Melissa she
grants me access in.

I find my dad sitting on the chair next to the bed. Mom's lips
curve for a smile. I can't help the tears.
Me: "What are you doing to us?" I crush her with a hug.
Melissa: "I can't bear the thought of losing you baby"
Me: "Mom you'll never lose me"
Melissa: "I love you Alexis"
Me: "I love you more. Never let that woman get inside our
home." I bring my head up to dad. "Ever dad"
Marcus: "Done. Ever"

Mom brings me close and kiss my cheek as she cries.

Melissa: "You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. I
don't know what I would do with myself if I ever lost you. I can't
even stomach the thought. Promise me nothing will change
when you finally let her into your life"
Me: "Mom. You're my mother. I do not know that woman and I
am not willing to"
Melissa: "Your father thinks you should" I look at him.
Marcus: "Just hear her out baby"
Me: "No! Jesus dad. How can you even suggest that!"
Marcus: "Calm down. She has no kids, you're the-"
Me: "After 25 years? No. Hell no."
Marcus: "She was young"
Me: "Excuse me?"
Marcus: "Try to be in her shoes"
Me: "Well dad I've tried so many times but I wouldn't have
gone for so many years. Mom I'll see you later"

I hug and kiss her.

She was young? Bull!

16
The contract was delivered to my place on Friday. I found it in
my mailbox Saturday morning when I finally went back there.

This morning Kelly, whom I have no idea what's her role in this
company made sign a few paperwork and then showed me to
my office that had my initials in the door and a bouquet of
flowers and a note wishing me a very good first day at work
from my mother.

After she left I looked around and finally settled down. An hour
later my dad arrives.
Marcus: Do you like it?
Me: I love it. Mom did a pretty good job.
Marcus: Unfortunately it was me.
Me: Oh? Well done. Its beautiful. I was worried all the way here
that I have redo everything because your last pa and I had a
very different taste of style.
Marcus: I'm glad you like it. I wasn't expecting you to show up
dressed like that.
Me: Mom helped. I was legit going to wear sandals, tee and
skinny jeans. I have to buy a whole new wardrobe for work.
Marcus: My cards are ready to be used.
I laugh.
Me: That's very generous Mr McVeigh but mine too haven't
been used in a while so they'd love the opportunity.
He chuckles
Marcus: I am hurt. Any moment from now your email and
phone will start working.
Me: How do I answer?
Marcus: anyhow you like. Lunch is on me today.
Me: Ofcourse.
He heads towards the exit.
Marcus: Have a great day. I love you.
Me: I love you more.

He walks out. I spin the chair around, my phone rings from my

bag. I take it out and answer.
Me: Best friend
Mvelo: Soulmate. How is your first day going?
Me: Pretty good thank you. I just don't think I'm ready to be
answering calls every now and then.
Mvelo: Well prepare yourself honey.
Me: I hate it here. When are you actually going to be free? We
really need to talk.
Mvelo: Lunch. I can drive there.

Apperantly every weekend she will be driving to KZN with

hubby to be. I just don't get it.
Me: That'll be great. I have a lot to tell you.
Mvelo: Okay my love. I'll see you later then, be polite to
people.
I laugh
Me: If they deserve it I will be.

The telephone rang.

Mvelo: Bye
Me: Bye babe.
I put it aside and pick the telephone up. "Hello"
Caller: Morning. Is this Mr McVeigh's office?
Me: Yes it is. How may I help you?
Caller: You're speaking to Jean. May I speak to him if he's not
busy?
Me: Please hold.

I call dad's office.

Marcus: Baby
Me: Jean is on the line
Marcus: Okay. Put her on.

I sent her call through. This is much easier than I thought.

Bheki calls, we talk for sometime. He's such a breath of fresh

air. He's built with all characters.

I say my goodbye when Kelly walks in.

Kelly: Cellphones are not allowed during work hours. I've been
watching you for the past hour. Did you even check your
emails?
Me: Uhm...no.
Kelly: That clearly states that you didn't go through your
contract thoroughly, because if you did yoh would know that
you're supposed to check your email every 5 minutes.

She comes over my side and click on the email. There are 25
new emails.
Kelly: See? Miss McVeigh I understand that Mr Marcus is your
dad but I will not tolerate such behaviour. Put your phone away
and focus on your job.
Me: My apologies. I will.

I put my phone on silent and put it back to my bag and read the
emails. So many appointments. Doesn't he get bored of
meeting up with people?

...
My dad gave me his card when I told him I will not be doing
lunch with him anymore. He was meeting a client away anyway
so he did not sulk.

Me: Why do you look so plumy? Aren't you pregnant?

Mvelo: Me? Pregnant? God would fall down.

We laugh and hug.

Mvelo: You look good in formal. I almost couldn't recognize
you.
Me: Yeah right.

We get on the lift going to the roof where we'll be having

lunch.

We find a table. Everyone in this building is flashy and also

drunkards. Most tables have cocktails.

We order them too.

Mvelo: I'm so tired of working.
Me: Me too
Mvelo: Come on. You just started.
Me: I know but that Kelly woman is too strict.
Mvelo: You already have a boss from hell?
Me: Not really but I can feel that we're not gonna be each
other's favorites.
Mvelo: Just do your job and forget about her.
Me: I will babe.

Our drinks arrive. We thank the lady.

Me: The woman who gave birth to me showed up on Thursday.
She chokes on the cocktail.
Mvelo: What?
Me: Yep. To claim me back.
There's something about that CLAIM word that worked me up.
Mvelo: What are you? A car? Is that all she said?
Me: I didn't even want to hear anything more she had to say.
When my dad said she's back to claim me I just lost it and left.
Mvelo: Wow. She has such a nerve, her approach was out of
the way. She can't be gone for so long and come to say she's
back to claim you.
Me: Its not that she came back because she wanted to, she
can't have children which means she wouldn't have came back
to "claim me"
Mvelo: Most probably. Wow I'm boiling
Me: I am too and my dad had to make it worse by saying she
did what she did because she was young.
Mvelo: She's been young all these years? He must not play like
that. This woman should've came here and showed some
remorse at least before they bombard you with that claim
rubbish.
Me: Thank you friend. Thank you.
Mvelo: I think you should actually talk to her when she comes
around again.
Me: I want to but I am afraid I will lose it.
Mvelo: Just try to remain calm and speak to her.
Me: I'm not promising anything. Enough about her, I have
something else to tell you.
I fail to contain my smile.
Mvelo: What is it?
Me: So...I made a huge decision of ditching singleness.
She gasps.
Mvelo: What's his name?Is he loaded? Have you had sex yet? Is
he cute? Tall? Short? Dar-
Me: Jesus! Would you please slow down? Its Bheki.
Mvelo: No way! Mmh-mmh I refuse! There's no way in hell my
best friend could date a Zulu man. No way!
Me: Well I am.

I take a sip of my cocktail. Our food arrives

she still hasn't taken her eyes off me. I take a bite on my
burger.
Mvelo: Aren't you going to say you're kidding?
Me: Why?
Mvelo: Lexi you gonna need more than just say it for me to
believe you.
Me: Friend! I am serious. Very serious.
I take out my phone and call him. I put him on loudspeaker.
Bheki: Mama
Me: Hey. Are you at work?
Bheki: Yes but not really working just spinning around on my
chair, missing you.

Mvelo chuckles a little.

Me: I miss you too.
Bheki: Can I be your chauffeur this week?
Me: Starting from tomorrow morning.
Bheki: I was hoping you'll say this evening.
Me: You can come to the penthouse later.
Bheki: Fine by me. Uh...baby let me call you later, enjoy the last
4 hours of your duty
Me: Thanks love. Bye

He hangs up.
Mvelo: How big is his thing?
Me: Nomvelo!
I hit her hand, she giggles.
Me: I haven't seen it
Mvelo: Oh my you should get some soon.
Me: He doesn't make the move.
Mvelo: Then make it! Its the 21st century dear.
Me: I don't wanna come across as a sex freak or anything.
Mvelo: Then you will never get rid of that web.
I laugh.
Me: I will tolerate and nurse my web until he makes the first
move.
Mvelo: Well let's drink to the spider web

She raise her glass. I raise mine.

Me: To the spider web

We laugh and drink up...

...
People are usually never too happy to knock off on their first
day but I was. 4:30 on the dot I packed my bags and went to bid
my dad goodbye and left.

I drove straight to Morningside, she was still there. The Drs said
she wasn't strong enough to get discharged.

Melissa: Look at you!

She says when I walk in. I model for her as she laughs.
Me: When are they discharging you? We need to go shopping.
Melissa: I'll probably be discharged by then. How was it?
Me: It was good, beside Kelly. She's cheeky.
Melissa: That's Kelly for you. Don't mind her, just do your job
and you shall not get in trouble with her.
Me: I will try my best.
Melissa: That's my girl.

I put the goodies on her cabinet and sit down.

Me: Don't you think we should talk to that woman? You know,
ask her what she wants because I'm pretty sure its not me.
Melissa: Is that what you really want?
Me: I don't know but I feel like she needs to be heard and then
she disappears again.
Melissa: I doubt. She said she wants you back.
Me: When you get discharged we should get hold of her.
Melissa: As long as you're ready to face her.

I nod. We talk about many other things until the sun goes down
and visiting hours are over.

I drive to my place. Bheki calls, I tell him that I'm on my way.

I pass by the restaurant and get us takeaways.

I startle when I see a man leaning against my car.

Me: Excuse me.
He rolls his eyes to my direction. I almost split my takeaways.
Him: Get in the car.
The door of a black car parked next to mine open.
Him: Get in!

I try to run away but he grabs me and shove me into the car. I
scream for help, he shuts the door closed and I hear the doors
lock.

I feel a sting on my arm and then lights out...

17
I gasp as I open my eyes, feels like I hadn't been breathing. I sit
up right and look around. I'm in bed. I remember getting into
that car, I panic and get off the bed and rush to the window, all
I see is perfect green fields and a lake not so far from here.
Where am I?

I walk to the door. It opens before I reach it, I pause. A petite

tall woman in heels, navy suit pants, a white blouse and glasses.
She flashes me a smile and close the door.
Her: My name in Onika. Please sit on the bed.
Me: Who are you?
Onika: Onika
Me: What do you do? Why am I here?
Onika: You'll get explanations later, for now please sit on the
bed, I want to check if you're okay.
Me: No. I want to leave.
Onika: You wouldn't get home trust me. Just sit on the bed, the
overdose of drug might cause complications.

I go and sit after a staring contest.

She checks me out and give me pills. I put them under my
tongue and spit them out after she leaves.

I go over the window again to check if I wouldn't be injured if I

jumped out. I would.

I go to the door again. I try to open but its locked. I search my

pockets for my phone. I find it, thank God!

I sit down beside the bed and switch it on. I wait for it to catch
signal.

It shows the no signal sign. I begin to panic, reality kicks in. I'm
kidnapped

The door swings open...

***
BHEKI
The lady at reception keeps glancing at me. I keep my eyes on
my phone as I try Lexi for the 200th time. It still goes straight to
voicemail, concern fills me up each time I try to reach her.

Mvelo walks in followed by the girl whom I assume is her pa. I

stand up and walk to them.
Me: Nomvelo
She turns to my direction.
Me: Can I talk to you?
Mvelo: Sorry do you have an appointment?
Me: No I don't.
Mvelo: Please leave your details with my pa she'll call you and
set up a meeting. I have a meeting in the next 20 minutes and I
really need to go and prepare.

She walks away. I follow her.

Me: I just need to know if you've heard from Sabathile the past
2 days?
She turns and look at me rather surprised. Sje gulps and take a
deep breath.
Mvelo: Please forgive me. Please come this way to my office.

I follow her until we get into her office. She offers me water.
Mvelo: I have only an hour left to go open a missing person
case. We're sick worried.
Me: I though you'd know where she is.
Mvelo: I'm sorry Bheki I don't. I was hoping she's with you, now
that you're here I am now more worried.
Me: Let me not hold you up. Thank you.
Mvelo: Its okay.

I leave the office with a heavy heart. Where could she be?

I get into the car.

Qophelani: Anything?
Me: No. Take me to her place again.
Qophelani: I don't understand why are you so worried, she's
rich. She's probably out there in New York taking pictures under
the Eiffel tower.
Me: She was supposed to meet me that night.
Qophelani: And then she decided to call her real boyfriend and
they flew away.
Me: Give your mouth a break before you get a punch.
Qophelani: I'm just saying.

He turns up the volume.

I am just praying she's safe wherever she is...

***
ALEXIS

A woman in maid uniform gets in. She also smiles at me and

head to the little table next to the single couch and place the
tray of food.
Her: I'm Doris. You're very beautiful.
There's something odd about these kidnappers.
Me: Do you have signal around here?
Doris: Yes we do but your phone has to be registered.
Me: Please regist this one for me I need to make a phone call.
Doris: Madam will do that for you.
Me: Is it her who took me?
Doris: Please eat before your food gets cold.
Me: I need to shower.
Doris: I'll bring you fresh towels.

She walks out. I am experiencing headache now, I've been

trying not to cry but each minute that passes I'm drowning in
worry. I could be killed or put into sex trafficking.

I need to escape. I would rather fall and die than to be sex

slaved. This window can't be opened, this is where they keep
their victims. I kick it a couple of time but it doesn't break
Advertisement
I put the food on the bed and throw the table against the
window. The table leg breaks. I'm wet, of my tears and sweat. I
am throwing everything at the bloody window but not even a
tiny crack is formed. I go down on my knees and cry. God I
know I haven't been good but please make a miracle for me...

***
MARCUS

Me: Okay pull up in that gate. I think this is it.

Max: Sir this neighborhood is unfamiliar with our usual visits.
Me: If you hear a gun go off call for backup.
Max: What are we even doing here?
Me: Max my daughter is missing!
Max: She wouldn't possibly be here.
Me: Just stay here and wait for a gun.

I step out of the car and head in. I sign at the gate and the
security accompany me inside.

Bonisiwe: What Diego I'm working

Security: You have a visitor ma'am.
She brings her eyes up, they meet mine.
Bonisiwe: Ok you can leave us.

The security head out and close the door.

Me: How sick can you be?
Bonisiwe: What are you talking about Marcus?
Me: I know you took Lexi.
Bonisiwe: So? What are you gonna do about it?
Me: Are you crazy?
Bonisiwe: No. I'm just taking my child back to where she
belongs.
Me: Bonisiwe I am warning you. You committed a crime, I can
get you arrested for that.
Bonisiwe: Go ahead Marcus be my guest. I did it for her own
good for Christ's sake!
Me: How is holding someone hostage any thing for their own
good?
Bonisiwe: I'm into shipping of illegal goods, I deal with
dangerous people, I owe them 50 million. I am failing to pay
them since my businesses are collapsing. My sister sold me out,
she gave them my back ground information they dug deep until
they discovered I have a daughter and you know how those
men work, they'll take her in exchange of the dept and you and
your angelic wife can't keep her safe so I am.
Me: Who told you I can't keep my own child safe? Bring back
my daughter and go back to whatever you came from!
Bonisiwe: Well that'll cost you all your lives because they'll kill
anything to get to Alexis. In my side I have men who are willing
to die for her.
Me: I can get them too. Get up, we're going to take her.
Bonisiwe: She's in Malawi Marcus. Get out I want to work.
Me: Do you know how much my wife is suffering right now?
Bonisiwe: I'll pay this money and bring your child back Marcus! I
am not gonna start now to want to be a mother to that girl.
Me: You're a dirty devil.
Bonisiwe: That's right. Get out.

I turn on my heel and walk out. I find Max smoking outside the
car. I hop on at the back and call my financial lady Kimberley.
Me: Kim
Kim: Marcus.
Me: I need 50 million. Asap.
Kim: There's no asap with just a huge amount of money.
Me: Well there has to be Kim. I need it by next Monday.
Kim: Marcus.
Me: Make a way Kim!

I hang up. A text message comes through.

'Do you find her?'

I sigh and clench my jaw. Losing Lexi would break her and she'll
never recover...

***
ALEXIS
I spent the whole day sleeping and waking up to find out I'm
still in this place. Learning that it was 2 days later killed me even
more.

I get off the bed and go sit on the couch. I play music on my
phone. I've heard very terrible stories about women getting
abducted and never found. Looking at this place through the
window is enough to know there's no hope of being found.

I smell a strong cologne. I've smelled it before. I turn, she points

at the bed, the girls in maid clothes get in with shopping bags of
famous brands. She's not only cruel, she's crazy too.

The girl walk out. Girls young enough to be still at school.

Me: You're sick.
Her: Do you love the room or you want a different one?
Me: Woman I want to go home to my parents!
Her: I am your mother. You're where you're supposed to be!
Me: No! Wherever you are isn't where I belong. I belong at
home with my mother and my dad.
I start crying. The sight of her made me very angry.
Her: Little girl, I don't wanna be your mother. The only thing I
need from you is your eggs, maybe 2 of them. You owe me
atleast that much for ruining my life.
Me: What?
Her: I want your eggs! I want to have children then you can go
back to your parents.
Me: Oh my God. I'm so glad you gave me to my mother, what
kind of a dirty devil are you?
She chuckles.
Her: Funny cause your father said the same thing. You have
until next morning to thunk about this. The Dr will come here in
the morning to give you meds for fertilization.

She heads to the door.

Me: My father is gonna kill you!
Her: He doesn't have the guts. Stop crying you're disgusting
me.
Me: Fuck you, fuck you woman. You'll have to kill me first
before you do anything to me, do you hear me?

Her palm made contact with my cheek.

Her: You ungrateful little brat, I could've killed you and gave
you to a stranger but risked my life and birthed you!

She pin me against the couch and strangle me.

Her: You were not needed! You came and ruined me. You owe
me Sabathile! You fucking owe me!

Her tear drops on my cheek as I gasp for air...

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He gets in holding a tray. He places it on the bedside headboard
cabinet and sit next to my legs.
Nduna: You have to eat.
I blew my nose.
Me: I'm not hungry.
Nduna: Of course you're not. I never eat because I'm hungry I
always eat because I have to. Right now you have to eat.

He picks me up and walk with me to the ensuite bathroom. He

makes me wash my hands and then pulls me back to bed.
Me: You made this?
Nduna: Yes I did and it tastes good.
Oh Jesus. This man only knows how to make tea and apply
butter on bread. Grilled chicken and gravy are not what he'd be
able to do.

I take a leap of faith and take the food. It smells really nice. I
should give him that.
I taste the gravy, not bad. I position myself comfortably and
start eating. I regret biting this drumstick.
Me: Oh my God babe did you pour all the chillies in here?

I ran to the bathroom to drink water.

Me: Oh Jesus.
Nduna: I'll get you juice!
He shouts from the other side.
Me: Uhhhh...my tongue is burning!

My phone rings. I rush back to take it.

Me: Tell you you've found one.
Lele: Yes I did. I just forwarded you their email address. They
are the best in town.
Me: Thank you Lele.
Lele: Don't stress too much, they will find her.
Me: I'm hoping so Lele, I'm hoping so.

I hang up. The babe walks in with a jug of juice.

Nduna: This should do the trick.
Me: I see you've found a new lover and you want to get rid of
me.
He chuckles and pour me juice.
Nduna: Not in a million years.

We kiss.
Nduna: Don't you get bored?
Me: Of what?
Nduna: Silence in this house
Me: We have a whole sound system babe
Nduna: Its starting to bore me but if you don't mind the silence
hhai cha akunankinga sthandwa sami.

I chuckle and take a sip of my juice.

Me: Let me go make us breakfast.

Nduna: I'll pack this meat with me. My cousins will love it.
Me: You guys need Jesus.
He laughs and we head out ...

***
[MARCUS]

I find her dressing up. I wipe off the sweat and take off the
runners.
Me: Where are you going?
She glances at me once and go to her vanity.
Me: Melissa you are in no state to be leaving the house.
She turns to face my direction.
Melissa: Well sitting here will not bring my child home Marcus.
Me: So where are you going?
Melissa: I'm going to find her.
She says calmly and go back to making her face.

I take my phone and walk out.

The phone rings for a while.
Kim: Marcus
Me: Tell me you're working on it
Kim: I am but things aren't looking so good, they need also your
wife's signature.
Me: Then cut and paste it Kimberley!
Kim: That will bring us trouble.
Me: Kim just do what you have to do.
Kim: Fine but just know we might go to jail for this.
Me: Just do it.

I hang up and go back inside to take a shower...

***
[BHEKI]

Qophelani: Iiit's Boxer's birthday celebration!!!

I open my eyes furiously.

Me: What's the matter with you?
Qophelani: Wake up.
Me: Get out.
Qophelani: We have your girlfriend to look for, remember?

I regret inviting him over. He's my little brother, my only

brother.
Me: You should go back to res.
Qaphelani: Ngeke ukubone lokho.

He walks out. I look for my phone and turn it on, hopeful to find
Sabathile's texts or voicemails. None.

That woman wouldn't possibly abduct her, would she?

Why didn't I think of that? This has her written all over it.
Me: Qophelani bring my laptop!
Qophelani: Ngi busy!
This kid. I climb out of bed and head out to the lounge. I find
him watching cartoons on the laptop. I take it and sit on a chair
beside the couch.

I send Derrick an email and go for a shower...

***
ALEXIS

I feel someone shake me lightly. I mumble and pull the duvet. It

is snatched away from me violently. I jump up to my feet.

I realize my surroundings and I begin to panic.

Bonisiwe: Take her to the white room.
Onika: But she's not protesting.
Bonisiwe: I know she will.
Onika: Boni-
Bonisiwe: Shut up! Kairo get the guys to take her to the white
room.
The guys come in and my feet fail to move. They drag me out. I
try to fight but I am not winning.

We arrive in this room. The lights come on

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its indeed a white room.

They put me in the single bed and cuff me into it. Onika comes
to me and turn on a bright light over my head.
Onika: I will make this as fast as possible.
Me: Please...
Onika: You just need to cooperate if you wanna go home
honey. This injection needs you to relax. If you don't if it won't
work and you'll stay here forever. Stay calm okay.

I hear footsteps approach, her cologne feels my nostrils.

Bonisiwe: Onika
Onika: Boni get out I am trying to work here.
Bonisiwe: Change of plans. I want her to be my surrogate.
Onika &I: What!
Man: Taking her eggs and planting them into someone else will
take too much time.
Onika: We didn't agree on this.
Man: We paid you so you have no business protesting.
Onika: This is insane, I'm not doing this.
Bonisiwe: You don't have much of a choice. Here's the new
medicine for fertilization.

She should've just killed me...

***
[BHEKI]

Derrick agreed to meet up with me.

He chose the secluded bar and I understand. I drive into the

bar, it seems packed for a place so far away from people.
I managed to leave Qophelani behind. He can be a chappies at
times.

My phone rings, I put it on vibrate and head in. I scan the room
until my eyes land on Derrick. I walk to him.
Me: Derrick.
He raises his eyes and give me a smile before extending his
hand for a handshake.
Derrick: How are you Sir?
I laugh.
Me: Oh please. How are you holding up?
Derrick: Kind of good. My wife and I are expecting.
Me: Wow congratulations man.
The server brings us 2 beers and glasses.
Derrick: Thank you. I hope you still drink.
Me: No, not anymore. I stopped.
Derrick: Sorry man.
Me: I'll have juice, apple juice.
Lady: We only coke and water that is not alcohol.
Me: Coke will be fine.

She walks away.

Derrick: Please tell me you're coming back to work.
Me: I might but I'm not here for that. I need your help. I think
my girlfriend is kidnapped, by her long lost mother.
Derrick: And where do I jump in?
Me: I need you to organize a private squad that'll take with me
to take her.
Derrick: Do you know where she is?
Me: No not yet but I'll find out tonight.
Derrick: I will help you, under one condition.
Me: Yes?
Derrick: You come back to work. The station needs you man.
Me: I will.
My coke arrives. We get into how things have been since I quit.

My phone rings again. I excuse myself to take it.

Me: Mzilankatha
Baba: We have been trying to get hold of you since last night
Bhekisizwe Me: My phone was dead.
Baba: MaNgema gave birth. You should come home.
Me: Okwamanje ngibambekile baba(I'm currently busy) so I
won't be able to come.
Baba: It’s a boy. We can't perform the ritual without you.
Me: Please make it next weekend. I should go
I hang up before he can respond.
I stare at my wallpaper which is Alexis for quite a while and take
a deep breath. I go back to the table. I call for the waiter.
Me: Can I please have Heineken.
Derrick frowns at me. Derrick: Thought you quit
Me: 6 pack after 2 years won't hurt.
My phone rings again. Mangema's name pops up. I decline the
call and switch it off
19
2 failed attempts to save Alexis. 14 sleepless nights trying to
figure out a way forward. Going back to work was one of the
ways forward. I had to be in or else this case was dull and just
taken as one of the many cases of missing women.

I greet the ladies on the front desk and proceed in. I find
Derrick on his feet looking like he's going out.
Derrick: Just the man I wanted to see.
Me: What's up?
Derrick: I just got a lead. She was transported to Zim on
Thursday, fools used her real ID.
Me: Are you sure?
Derrick: I'm a very certain man Ncube. You just need to get us
that permit for us to cross that motherfucking boarder.
Me: I will
Derrick: As in yesterday because I'm pretty sure Zim isn't their
official stop.
Me: I'll get on it right now. In the mean time go attend to that
Soweto cable thief.
Derrick: Really Bheki? That man shitted himself yesterday, do
you want me to die of that smell?
I laugh.
Me: He cleaned himself up

I head out.
Cele: Captain.
Me: Cele
Cele: I think I have new evidence on the shooting that took
place in bree.
Me: Ok let me make coffee first

I go to the kitchen...

***
[ALEXIS]

It's so crazy how on your first day at work, you have lunch with
your best friend, on call with your boyfriend, after work you go
visit your mother and then you plan on meeting your boyfriend,
you decide to go get food first but then you never make it
home because the woman who carried you abducts you.

Now I'm here, today is the day of the plantation. She can't have
kids so she remembered she was once left a baby girl on
someone's house door. She traced back and until she found this
baby girl whom she claims owe her and should repay her by
carrying her a child. Crazy isn't?

3 weeks ago I'm sure someone would've seen me and wished

they had my life not knowing a storm was brewing for me. I
have surrendered and gave in. Its not like fighting, crying and
begging was to help me with anything.

I was drugged and I woke up in this new place. A beach house. I

saw this chair and came to sit and look at the waves. They are
so free, I wish I was them.

I startle when someone waves their hand before my eyes.

Onika: Day dreaming?
I chuckle.
Me: I wanna be those waves.
She blinks lazily and massage my shoulder.
Onika: Everything will be okay.

Onika and I have developed a good relationship over the 2

weeks. She's a good person and I can't crucify her for
Bonisiwe's sins. She told me she raised her and paid her fees so
it was hard and impossible to say no to her. I understood
it felt good to have someone as her around.

Me: My life won't be the same after this trust me.

Onika: You stress too much.

The door push open. The devil herself walks in. Apperantly
Onika has to inject me and give me pills in her presence.
Bonisiwe: The 3 Drs from France will land in a few hours and we
shall get down to business.
She says excitedly.
Bonisiwe: Dora will be here with food you can inject her.
Onika: She has to eat first
Bonisiwe: We're 30 minutes late.
Yeah I should've been injected at 9am.
Onika: You were late.
Bonisiwe: Its not like she's gonna die!
Onika: True but it will effect the plantation.
Bonisiwe: Dora!
She storms out.

I get up and head to the bed.

Onika: You done watching the waves?
Me: I'll watch them after taking the injection.
Onika: Ok. Let me go get it.

I nod and lay on my back on the bed...

***
[MARCUS]
I check the time. He's 25 minutes late. I am losing my patience. I
ring him up, he doesn't answer. I call the waiter to bring me the
bill. He walks in. I sigh.
Bheki: Things are pretty crazy at the station. I'm sorry.
Me: I was about to drive there.
Bheki: Not a good thought.
The waitress walks up to us.
Me: Never mind. I'd like a double shot of whiskey.
Bheki: Just water with lemon.
I frown. He chuckles.
Bheki: I'm on duty Mr McVeigh. With burger and chips, no
ketchup.
The waitress nods and walks away.
Me: Any good news?
Bheki: Yes and a little compromising situation
Me: Talk.
Bheki: We gonna need your wife to seduce that husband of
Bonisiwe.
Me: You're out of line.
Bheki: That's the quickest way to reach to Alexis.
Me: Bheki
Bheki: Mr McVeigh they have taken her across the boader. The
further she gets, the harder it will be to find her.
Me: Fine! I'll speak to her.
Bheki: thank you.
Me: Are you still in love with my daughter?
Bheki: I care about her.

He calls the waitress to make him a takeaway.

Bheki: I'll be waiting for your call.

I nod. He pays, ups and leaves.

Melissa found out I was gonna give that 50 million to Bonisiwe

then she suggested we go to the police and report Alexis
missing. To our surprise 3 days later Bheki visited our house
along with a detective for questioning, since then he's been in
touch.
I take the last sip on my glass and call Melissa...

***
[MELISSA]

My phone rings from the bed as I apply lotion. I groan and walk
to it. I hope its some good news.
Me: Hubby.
Marcus: Hey my love. Are you at home?
Me: Yeah. Do you need something?
Marcus: I'm coming. Wanted to make sure you're there.
Me: Is everything okay?
Marcus: Yes and no. Bye I love you.
Me: I love you.

I hang up and go to the closet.

"Mrs McVeigh?" Oh Mvelo.

Me: In the closet baby.
She gets in.
Mvelo: I am building this size in my new home.
We laugh and hug.
Me: Well you deserve it honey. How are you?
Mvelo: Surviving. How are you?
Me: Also surviving. Are we attending the prayer today?
Mvelo: We should. Prayer gives faith.
Me: Yeah it does. Blue or pink?
I ask about the dresses.
Mvelo: Blue
Me: Thanks. How's Nduna?
Mvelo: He's fine just stressed that I'm stressed.
Me: Uhh poor thing.

"Honey"
Me: Closet!
Mvelo: Oh my god is that your cologne collection? I'm jealous.
Me: You can take the one you love.
Mvelo: Really?
Me: Yes baby. Let me go attend to this man.

I head out. I doubt she heard the last part. I find Marcus sitting
on the bed eating.
Me: Hungry that much?
Marcus: I'm starving. You look beautiful.
I smile.
Me: Thank you.
Marcus: Alexis crossed the border.
Me: To where?
Marcus: Zimbabwe and we need your help to find where she is.
Me: Huh?
Marcus: Bonisiwe's husband. I'm asking you to seduce
Bonisiwe's husband.
He says without even looking at me.
Me: Whaat?
Marcus: Its the only way we might get her location.
Me: How? I'm gonna fuck him and suddenly he'll sing? Are you
out of your mind? He knows I'm your wife he'll get suspicious if
I get close! Jesus Marc.
Marcus: Shit.

"I'll do it" we both look her direction.

Mvelo: He doesn't know me. So I'll do it.
Me: Honey no we'll find another way.
Mvelo: We'll try this one first.
Marcus: Nduna won't allow that.
Mvelo: Who's gonna tell him?
I look at Marcus and shake my head.
Mvelo: I insist! Its my friend that is out there feeling helpless.
This is the least I could do!
Marcus: Ok. Just seducing then we drug him, take him in and
then we punch the answers out of him.
I sigh in relief.
Me: Great then.
Marcus: Let me go call Bheki.
He ups and leave.
Me: Baby are you sure?
Mvelo: 100%.

I bring her close and we hug.

Me: Thank you so much.

She squeezes me...

***
[ALEXIS]

I hear a whisper. My heart beats fast, whispers in the dark are

never good.

I scream when I feel a touch but my mouth is closed quickly

with a hand.
"Shhh its me"
Onika? I move her hand off.
Me: Why are you whispering?
Onika: Because we don't wanna wake this whole house. In a
few minutes shit will go down get up.
Me: What's going on?
Onika: I'm getting you out of here.
Me: Why? I already have that man's sperm in my egg.

She roughly pulls me up.

Onika: Its either you go in your sleep wear or you put some
clothes on. We don't have time!

She goes over the window while I dress up.

Me: How are we gonna get out of here? I thought you said
there were guards.
Onika: There are but they don't check trunks.
Me: You don't have to put your life in danger for me.
Onika: I know but I'm doing it anyway.
Her phone rings. She picks it up.
Onika: We're coming....what? Shit! What are we gonna do? No
no no.

She hangs up.

Onika: Lexi we have to jump.
Me: What?
Onika: Boni knows I'm trying to get you out of here. She'll kill us
both. Oh my God what was I thinking!

I freeze. She comes and slaps me back to reality. She goes to

lock the door and comes back to pull me towards the window.
Bullets come raining in. She opens the window
Onika: Jump!
Me: Onika I'm scared of heights!
I hold on to the frame with my eyes closed.
Onika: You wanna die? Huh Lexi? Jump!
A gun with a different bang goes off and the shooting stops.
Me: I'm gonna pee myself.
"Onika its us! Open up"

She sighs in relief and pulls me down. I gasp and catch my

breath, my heart beating out my chest.

She opens the door full of bullet holes and 2 men with guns
walk in.
Man1: Let's go.
Onika: Alexis we don't have the whole day!

I finally come back to my senses and stumble towards them.

I keep gagging as we pass bodies laying on the ground all the

way to the gate.

We finally get to the car. We hop on and the car drives off.
Onika keeps rubbing my back as I cry.
Me: I need something to clean out this sperm off of me!
Onika: You're on 3 months prevention. All those injections were
replaced with water. I wasn't about to ruin another woman's
life. That sperm won't work.
Me: What happened to her?
Onika: Probably dead. Oh we're here.
Me: How long have you been planning on this?
Onika: Since a few hours ago. It happens we both know
someone who cares about you.

We get off at the airport. Where are we?

***
[NARRATED]

Mvelo pops her head in.

Mvelo: Are you coming to bed?
Nduna: Not yet.

His phone rings. He quickly takes it out and answers.

Nduna: Yes?
Ntokozo: Boss? We're about to board. The girl is safe and
unharmed.
Nduna: Good work boys.
He hangs up.
Nduna: Shall I hear you talk about going to seduce men I'll kill
you. Your friend is on the flight back home.
Mvelo: Wha- what?
He walks past her heading to their bedroom. Mvelo runs after
him...
***
[BHEKI]
My phone rings. I sigh and roll over to take it. My mother never
calls. What is it about today and this late?
Me: Mashobane
Mother: Awukaze wabatshela laba bantu bakho ukuthi
unomndeni? (Have you never told your people that you have a
family?"
Me: Abantu baphi ma? (Which people?)
Mother: Egedeni lendlu yakho marn Bhekisizwe! Simile la
ingane iyagodola. (At your house's gate. We're standing here,
the baby is feeling cold)
I sit up right. She's got to be shitting me!
Me: Nenzani egedeni lakwami nezingane? (What are you doing
at my gate with children?"
Mother: Silethe umkakho nengane yakho. Angithi awufuni
ukubuya ekhaya. (We brought you your wife and child since
you don't wanna come home)
Fuck. I hang up and call Dambayi to let them in.
I receive a text from Derrick.
"Alexis has been found. We dragged feet. She's safe and sound.
We have been called by the Zim police. We will go wait by the
airport."

Thank you God. I put both hands on my face and exhale. I need
to take my mother and this woman and her baby back home as
in now.

I dress up and take my car keys and leave the apartment....

20
I took my cup of coffee and exited the kitchen. Derrick pulled
me to my office.
Derrick: Nkabinde is here.
Me: What does he want?
Derrick: To see if you're on the right path.
Me: I've only been here for 3 weeks. What massive change is
expected?
Derrick: You know he's not happy about your return.

The door swings open. He'll never stop wearing like the captain
of soldiers. A simple tux couldn't could be good but he likes
being known he's a station commander.
Nkabinde: Derrick I'd like some coffee.
Derrick: We only have rooibos.
Nkabinde: Its fine.

Derrick nods and leave the office. Nkabinde walks around

touching each and everything, too much to my irritation.
Me: To what do I owe this pleasure sir?
Nkabinde: Why are you back?
Me: What do you mean why am I back?
Nkabinde: I know when you left you wanted nothing to do with
this place.
Me: Things change.
Nkabinde: You came back and only been focusing on the
missing girl case, oblivious to the 5 murder cases.
I take a deep breath.
Me: The detectives are doing the best they can with those
cases.
Nkabinde: You still have time to quit. I figured you abused your
position to find your lover but I don't think you're still strong
and capable.
Me: Well I am.
Nkabinde: Then leave the girl case. Mathaba and Derrick will
take care of it.
Me: Its a big case. To have that woman transferred here will
need me to be involved.
Nkabinde:
Me: As you wish. I've got some work to do so if you'll excuse
me.
Nkabinde: Yeah.

He walks to the door and turns to look at me.

Nkabinde: I'll be watching you Ncube. I'll be here for the whole
day

I just stare at him. He should be at a mental institution.

My phone rings. My mother never knows when to quit. I drop

the call and switch on my computer...

***
MVELO

Yesterday I got to see another side of Nduna. The scary side of

him. I fail to lie to him I found myself telling him about seducing
that man. He did not shout or anything but his body language
said a lot of things and his silence was loud. I knew better than
to go ahead with the plan of seducing that man.
On Saturdays he usually makes me breakfast but when I woke
up he was nowhere in sight. I made breakfast and tried to call
him but he didn't pick up.

I get up to rinse the plate and the cup that I ate on. I hear
footsteps. I feel relief.
Me: Hey babe
Nduna: I thought you'd be at your friend's house.
Me: No. I'll bath and leave at 12. I made breakfast.
Nduna: I ate at Nqaba's place. I need to shower.

He walks off to the passage. I sigh and follow him.

Me: I said I'm sorry.
I say closing the bedroom door behind me.
Nduna: I heard you
Me: I don't want you to hear me. I want you to forgive me.
Nduna: Ok.
Me: Nduna
Nduna: Nomvelo
Me: How did you know where she is?
Nduna: Cellphone tracking.
Me: The police did that but they didn't find her location.
Nduna: Well private investigators aren't as stupid as police.
They looked for the new arrivals and we found her.

He gets into the bathroom. He's making no sense.

Me: You're not making sense.
Nduna: I thought you'd be happy your friend is back.
Me: I am but also concerned how you found her.
Nduna: I just explained.
Me: Its not making sense.
Nduna: Not my fault my love. Can you please get me a fresh
towel?

I nod and go out...

***
ALEXIS
It felt like a dream waking up where I felt safe and protected. I
told my parents everything when I arrived. The Dr arrived this
morning to check me up and give me medication to flush out
the sermen.

I check the time when I come out of the bathroom. It was

already the noon, 2pm. I take out my pyjamas and put them on.
Mommy walks in with food.
Me: Mmnh food! I am starving.
Melissa: I've always known I raised a strong girl but I didn't
expect you to be this strong.
Me: Curling up in bed and throwing yourself a pity party can
only sends you straight to depression and I am not ready to
send myself into that dark place.
She puts the tray down and hugs me.
Melissa: I am so proud of you.
Me: Thank you.
Melissa: And I love you so much. That woman will pay for this.
Me: Let the law play its part.
She chuckles.
Melissa: I just wanna punish her so painfully.
Me: Don't let that wicked witch turn you into anything other
than a good woman.
Melissa: I'm angry.
Me: Me too but we can't let anger control us, remember?

She chuckles as she wipes her tears.

Me: Let's go watch a movie.
Melissa: I'd love that. Your dad has a new collection.
Me: Where is he anyways?
Melissa: Out to play golf. You know how he deals with his
anger.

I nod and hold both her hands.

Me: I just wanna forget about this mom. I wanna put it behind
me and move on with my life. I am scared of having my mind
locked up in a dark place that I might never recover from. I have
cried enough about it, now I want it to count as one of the
things that made me stronger. I also need you and dad to get
over it, I'm here in one piece. Boni and her husband are in jail.
That should be enough to make us all feel better.
She nods and we hug again. I really want to move on from this
as quickly as possible...

***
BHEKI

Today was the longest day I've ever had. Exactly at 5pm I
turned off the lights and left the office. I drove to my house in
Waterfall.

Bono: Let's thank your mother. What did this house ever do to
you?
I chuckle and put my hand on the reader.
Me: Its lonely.
Bono: I hope we'll see you more often now since there's people
in it.
I raise my brow.
Me: Not too sure about that. Go home before your wife
divorces you again.
We laugh.
Bono: It was good to see you Skhulu.
Me: Likewise man.

I drive in all the way until I park before my gate. I get off and
head inside. I am welcomed by the aroma of steamed bread,
my poor electricity.

Me: Mashobane
She brings her eyes up and smile.
Mother: Mzilankatha. Look at you. Don't you eat?
Me: Always. My jeans are tight, which means I'm gaining.
Mother: You look skinny to me. I cooked your favorite.
I peep over the pot she's stirring. Beans.
Me: Mmmh nice
Mother: I'm sure you haven't had it in a while.
Me: I had it last week actually but I'm just glad I'm gonna have
yours.
She smiles
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proud smile.
Me: I'm seeing someone.
Her smile fades away.
Mother: What?
Me: Yes. I am seeing someone and you being here will cause
me troubles.
Mother: Isn't too early?
Me: I did what you wanted me to do now I am doing what I
want to do.
Mother: But Bheki I was hoping the birth of the child will sort
form a bond between you two!
Me: No it won't. To me she's my Khuselo's wife and that's what
she'll be for as long as I am alive.
Mother: What about your child?
Tears were forming in her eyes.
Me: Its not mine. Stop trying to force her down my throat. You
guys promised me! You promised that I can spread my wings
after I fulfill that wish. Is coming here with her your idea of
letting me be?
Mother: We're trying Bheki.
Me: No ma. Stop, it'll never happen. Give up.
Mother: You know I won't do that and you will not take
isithembu.
Her face changes from sad to hard.
Mother: You won't. You need to dump that girl.
Me: I will not ever like or tolerate that woman and you know
me mother!
Mother: A Johannesburg girl? Does she even know how to fetch
water from the river? Huh? Do you know how helpful
MaNgema has been to us all these years?
Me: She will learn.
Mother: Bhekisizwe. Your father is not well, you are in charge
of that home now as the heir, everything decision you make
must benefit us all. You can't bring us a woman who wear pants
and wear those dead people hair.
Me: Be ready by 8 tomorrow. Qophelani will drive you home.
I take my car keys. I see MaNgema leaning by the wall
separating the kitchen and the sitting room.
Mother: You'll leave without seeing your child?
Me: I'll see him when he's 3 months.
Mother: Bheki!

I head out...

***
ALEXIS

Just as I close my eyes my mother knocks.

Melissa: Are you asleep baby? Someone is here to see you.
Who sees people this late? I climb out of bed to open.

I freeze when my eyes meet his.

Melissa: Uhm captain Ncube is here to see you.
Bheki: Yes. I'm sorry to disturb your sleep.
Me: Its okay. You can come in.
Melissa: Can I dish up for you? We just ate.
Bheki: I'd love that Mrs McVeigh.

My mother smiles and goes away. I let Bheki in and close the
door.
Me: You lied to my parents?
Bheki: About what?
Me: Being a detective.
Bheki: No. I went back to work to make it easier to find you.
Me: What?
Bheki: Yes. I was a captain and I am now again. I am glad you're
back. I almost went crazy.
Me: Thanks to those guys.
Bheki: They are my heros. Can I get a hug?

I chuckle and throw myself at him. I try to kiss him but he looks
away.
Bheki: We can't do that in your father's house.
Me: No one is watching.
Bheki: Your mother can walk in on us.
I laugh.
Me: So you didn't tell them we were dating?
Bheki: No I didn't tell them we were back together.
I laugh.
Me: Huh God I forgot. I kept thinking of you and everything
seemed bearable.
Bheki: We're each other's peace of mind.
We untangle when we hear footsteps. She knocks once and
come in. She puts the tray on the vanity and leaves after saying
goodnight.
He seats on the single couch and sighs. I pull the vanity chair
and sit before him.
Bheki: I have something to tell you.
I smile nervously.
Me: Okay.
Bheki: It's gonna break your heart.
Me: Ok
I say and gulp. He takes my hands into his and kisses them.
Bheki: I love you. I know I haven't done much to prove that but
I do. Every decision you will take after I tell you this, I will
respect it.
Me: You're scaring me.
Bheki: I have a 3 weeks old baby.
I try to snatch off my hands but he holds them tight.
Bheki: Listen to me
He says firmly. I want to cry.
Bheki: My father had 2 wives.
Me: Don't start with that crap.
Bheki: I warned you about those words. Listen to me. My other
mother had a son but he passed on a week before his marriage.
So my father made me choose between taking over the
chieftancy and marrying her-
Me: What?
He holds me still. I'm crying now.
Bheki: I chose marrying her and impregnate her, fulfill my dad's
request so I can have my normal life and get to marry someone
that I love. But she's not my wife, I married her for him and I cut
ties after that.
I shake my head a couple times.
Me: No. You need to leave.
Bheki: I wouldn't have survived being the next chief. I wouldn't
have lived my life the way I wanted. I have dreams Alexis, big
dreams marrying my brother's wife and giving her a child
seemed okay at that time but I regretted it the first day I saw
you behind that counter. I never thought I'd meet a woman I'd
love to a point where I want to marry her. Sabathile I-
Me: Stop! Just stop! Let go of me. I try to fight him off but he
holds me inside his arms.
Me: Bhekisizwe Ncube I'm gonna scream. Let go of me, leave
my parent's house and never ever try to talk to me.
Bheki: I love you. I know this doesn't make sense to you but I'm
hoping someday it will.
He kisses my foreead and let's go and heads to the door.
Me: Why couldn't you tell me all this while? He turns.
Bheki: I couldn't. I wanted to but I just couldn't. I'm sorry.
Me: Where did you find the courage now?
Bheki: I don't know. Good night. I'm sorry. He walks out.
I collapse on the couch and stare into space as tears pour
down. He didn't even insist on staying and let me shout at him.
I get up and run out to him...
21
Single. Single. Single. Single. I enjoyed it while it lasted. Lesson
learnt, life has gone on. I am happy. I am back to my old life of
Alexis McVeigh. Bonisiwe and her husband are still in jail
serving 30 years. Marcus's lawyers made sure of it. I have 99
problems and a man ain't one. I'm just glad Bheki and I broke
up before we even took this too far.

I am still my dad's PA. I got my first salary on Friday, Mvelo and

I went to spend it at a resort in Magalies. We came back
glowing, I am spending every minute with my friend because in
the next 2 weeks she will be legally Nduna's, I am happy for her
but a part of me is hurting I will not get to see her as I please.

'How is hang over treating you? I'm dying'

I laugh and call her, after I check where the mighty Kelly is.
Mvelo: Girl please help me.
She groans. I giggle.
Me: Get water with lemon. They say it helps.
Mvelo: Why did I let you convince me to drink that shit
Me: You wanted to obviously.
Mvelo: I hate you right now...oh no. Bheki is here.
Me: Bheki who?
Mvelo: The one and only. Bye babe.
Me: Wait don't hang up
Mvelo: Bye.

She hangs up. Wow. The work phone rings.

Me: Marcus McVeigh's office. Alexis speaking
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how may I help you?
Caller: Its Phenyo Zitha speaking. Is Mr McVeigh available.
Me: He is. Please hold.

I buzz Mr McVeigh.
Me: Phenyo Zitha on the line.
Marcus: Put him through.
Me: Yes Sir.
I put him through and go make myself some coffee. I find a
magazine. I steal it and run back to my office. I need an idea of
how my dress will be. I haven't found the one that I like so far
and I have only 4 hours to send the design I want to tailor.

...
I love how quick my days are. After lunch I just blink and them
boom its knock off time, my favorite time of the day.

I pass by the tailor for measurements and drive to the shopping

center to get some groceries, breakfast to be specific. I still
can't cook and I am officially unbothered.

I find Mike on the lobby when I make my way in. We hug.

Me: What a nice surprise.
Mike: I know right. Let me carry this for you.
Me: Thanks.

We get on the lift and I punch my code.

Me: Magalies was everything a girl needed.
Mike: I'm here to hear all about it. I'm crossing fingers you
found your prince charming.
Me: Unfortunately I did not because I wasn't looking for one
but I did find fun of which I went there for. Thank you.
Mike: You really wanna be 30 and alone?
Me: I won't be the first one.

He laughs. We get off and he runs to the fridge.

Mike: Why isn't there alcohol in this fridge?
Me: Because my mother doesn't approve.
Mike: There's something called hiding Lexi. Buy booze and
fucking hide it.
I laugh.
Me: You're such a drunkard. There's wine in the lower
cabinets.
Mike: Wine? I'd rather drink my own pee. You're out of food.
Me: Eggs and noodles will be my supper tonight.
Mike: Oh Jesus send your angels to rescue this child. Let's go
get food.
Me: Uber eats and Mr D food and Spaza eats.
Mike: And what is Spaza eats?
Me: Its delivery. It's Ntando Duma's. Woman power.
Mike: Who's that supposed to be?
Me: Get out of here. So just get into one of those apps and just
order food. I will be taking a bath.

I take my bag and head to my bedroom.

Me: No African cuisine please!
I shout.
Mike: Too late.

I sigh and strip all the way to the bathroom. I bath long enough
until I hear the lift chimes. I get into my pyjamas and go back to
Mike.
Me: What do we have here?
I open the bag.
Me: Mmmh I haven't had this in months. I'm not even sure if I
can use the chopsticks.
Mike: Lucky for you there's forks here.

I turn on the tv and we devour in.

...
The up and down is crazy in the morning. Mike slept over and
he didn't set his alarm and I did not hear mine when it went off
so here we are. Trying to eat breakfast and dress up at the
same time. My dad keeps buzzing my phone.

I order him coffee.

Me: Wow I hate you Micheal. If you didn't suggest we play that
freaking game we would be at work right now.
I say after the lift closes, taking us down.
Mike: How fast asleep were you to miss your alarm?
Me: If I sleep after 12 I do not hear anything.
Mike: My bad. I just hope we don't get fired today.

I chuckle. Finally we reach the ground floor.

Me: Good luck.
Mike: To you too.

We part to our cars.

Me: I'm so so so sorry. I had a running stomach I only slept

around 3am.
Marcus: Why didn't you call me? How is it now?
Me: A bit better. Did they deliver your coffee?
Marcus: Yes they did. You should go see a Dr and take a day
off.
Me: No need. I'll just take some pills I bought on my way here
and I'll be fine.
Marcus: Are you sure?
Me: Certain.
He kisses my forehead and head to his office. I take a deep
breath and head into mine.

'I'm safe' I text Mike.

'Morning my love. Wanna share what Bheki wanted?' I text the
soulmate and check Mr McVeigh's appointments for the day
and approve some then send him his schedule. I text the
mommy and inform her I'll be having supper with them
tonight.

'Morning soulmate. He came to investigate. One of the workers

was caught in action apperantly. Imagine' I roll my eyes.

'Why couldn't he send a detective. He's dramatic. When are

you leaving for home?' I respond.

'Tomorrow evening. I am too tired to drive. Nduna's brother

will only be free tomorrow evening'

'Okay babe. Hoping to see you before you leave'

I am sad now. From tomorrow onwards is the beginning of my
nightmare.

'Actually I am inviting you for dinner tonight' I smile.

'I will be there' I hear Kelly's laughter. 'Talk later. The devil is
here' I press send and toss my phone on the drawer.

I start sending out emails and making appointments for the

next day.

Before I know it, the day is over and I'm driving to Mvelo's. I
bought wine during lunch, its really impolite to show up at
people's houses empty handed. My phone rings, I put on the
earpiece and answer.
Me: Mommy.
Melissa: Why am I only hearing from your dad?
Me: Because I was scared you'll shout at me.
Melissa: You better drive here after that dinner to collect your
food. My fridge doesn't have space.
Me: Mom!
Melissa: We will be asleep around 10pm.
Me: I'm sorry. I will come.
Melissa: You better or else your food will spoil.
She hangs up. So dramatic. I sign in at the gate and drive in.
This complex looks nice. I should get a quotation.

I park and reach for the bag of wine at the back and then get
off. I ring the bell. This thing is annoying. Who still installs these
ding-dong things?

She opens the door and attacks me with a hug.

Mvelo: I missed you.
Me: Where's Shaka Zulu?

She hits me playfully and we laugh.

Mvelo: He's bathing. He's from the gym.
Me: Is his suit too tight?
Mvelo: Yes.
Me: What was he thinking stuffing himself up with cow heads.
Mvelo: He must not hear you say that.
I chuckle and place the wine on the table.
Nduna: If its not Alexis!
Me: Hey Chief. I heard your name means chief.
Nduna: Who told you that?
Me: Philani. Should we get worried that you will show up
without your suit on the wedding day?
Nduna: huh?
Me: That belly. It won't fit on that suit.
Nduna: I'll go fit another one.
Mvelo: I curse the day you ever saw intloko.
Nduna: Intloko did nothing. You cook lots of food.
Me: 2 weeks of eating clean might make a different.
Nduna: As long as that doesn't mean I should eat rabbit food.
Me: Salads aren't rabbit food.
Nduna: My niece's rabbit eat salads.
Me: Thats doesn't necessarily mean its rabbit food.
Mvelo: Good luck friend.

She disappears to the kitchen.

Nduna: Is your traditional attire ready?
Me: Mvelo will take care of that.
Nduna: Can you even dance?
Me: I will surprise you. Just keep your eyes open that day.
Nduna: I will be wearing specks.
I laugh.
Me: Yes you should.

He touches the wine.

Nduna: You both love alcohol.
Me: We don't. I just brought this as a gift.
Nduna: Really? Thank you. I'll keep it.

He takes it and walks to their bedroom. I was just saying!

My phone rings.
Me: Lexi speaking.
Mike: Hey Lex its me. I'm arrested. Your boyfriend arrested me.
Can you please tell him to let me go?
Me: What did he say he's arresting you for?
Mike: I have no idea.
Me: Ok let me call him.

I hang up.
Me: Mvelo. Do you still have Bheki's numbers?
Mvelo: I think I do.

I take her phone...

***
BHEKI

My phone rings. I cancel the call and proceed to the white boy's
cell.
Me: Have you done your call?
Mike: I will sue you for wrongly arresting me.
Me: Did I? You had cocaine in your car.
Mike: What? I didn't!
Me: If you keep pasting yourself like apricot jam to Alexis you
will have cocaine in your car.
Mike: What?
Me: Yes. Stay the hell away from her or else you will have
cocaine and every dangerous drug and you will be convicted.
I'm sure you wouldn't risk going to jail.
Mike: You're a sick bastard.
Me: Your choice.

I whistle and walk away. I need a nice long hot shower. Its been
a long day....
22
I arrive at the station and I'm told to wait. I sit down and read
the news paper to pass time. People come in and out to certify.
I keep glancing at my watch, I'm gonna be late for work again
today. I text dad that the stomach bug is here again. He insists I
go to the Dr and bring the letter tomorrow, so much work.

9am on the dot the devil's son walks in. The police on the front
desk asks him to pass by and he points at me. Bheki nods and
walks towards me.
Bheki: Morning miss.
Me: Morning. I'm here to get my friend.
Bheki: I let him go last night.
Mike must be kidding me! Why didn't he call me?
Me: Oh ok.

He smirk a little and walks away. I take my bag and leave.

I try to reach Mike on my way to the Dr but it keeps taking me

straight to voicemail.
I get to the Dr, my lucky day it is empty. I consult and drive to
Mike's place. I knock for a few times until he opens. He makes
the bored face he always makes to people he doesn't wanna
see.
Me: Is it safe to come in?
Mike: Why are you here?
Me: Because I am worried about you.
He shifts, making space for me to get in. He closes the door.
Mike: Do you want that psychopath to arrest me again?
Me: What did he says you did?
Mike: I became friends with you. I was arrested for being
friends with you and threatened to stop.
Me: What?
Mike: Yes. He said he'll plant drugs in my car if I don't stay away
from you.
I scoff. Wow this motherfucker does not know me. I take a
plate of food and head to the door.
Mike: Where are you going?
Me: To fix this. Who the hell does he think he is? Get ready
while I'm gone we're going to festival mall when I return. Peace
offering.

He smiles. I smile back and walk out. Bheki Ncube is crazy. He is

danger to the community. He is abusing his power for his
personal affairs. Stupid man.

I call Mvelo and tell her about the sad news. She finds it funny. I
hang up on her.

Police man: Did you forget something miss?

Me: Yes. Is the captain in?
Police man: Yes but not seeing anyone.
Me: Well I need to see him as in now.
Police man: I'm afraid you can't.
Me: Man of God are you listening to me? I want to see Bheki
Ncube right now!
People stop and look at me. I don't care, I'm now even angrier. I
just wanna chop off Bheki's head. We haven't spoken or seen
each other since that night. He done step on my toe today.

The police man picks up the phone and inform him that
someone is here to see him. He hangs up.
Police man: Left 3rd door.
Me: Thank you.

I fix myself and click my stilettos away.

I knock once and push the door. He's glued to the computer.
Me: What the hell Bheki?
He raise his eyes.
Bheki: Excuse you?
Me: What the hell? Why did you arrest Mike?
Bheki: Because he was breaking the law.
Me: Which law?
Bheki: Trespassing
Me: Where? Your house?
Bheki: My property yes.
Me: Do you know we can report you to your bosses for wasting
the states resources?
He chuckles.
Bheki: What did I waste? The bench he sat on? Since when does
he sleep over at your place?
Me: Why do you care!
Bheki: Because you said you needed time to be alone. If that
boy can sleep over its clear that he's coming for you.
Me: Bhekisizwe. This is my life not ours. If I feel like dating and
fucking Mike I will. I do not belong to you. Shouldn't you be
somewhere stalking your wife? If you ever cross the line I will
tell my father and you will lose this job and that laundry and
you will starve to death cause I'd tell him to make sure you're
never hired anywhere. Do you hear me?

He looks at me without blinking.

Bheki: We're done here.
He says deeply.
Me: Hopefully we are. Leave Mike the hell alone.
He goes back to his computer. I turn on my heels and head out.

I take a deep breath and fan the tears back. Why can't he just
leave me alone! I compose myself and walk away with my head
held high.

...
Spending the day with Mike made up for my little crying session
in the morning. I enjoyed myself. When I got home I went
straight to bed.

Even though I feel like I was hit by a truck this morning but
atleast I'm early. I take dad's coffee to this office.
Marcus: Look who's early today.
Me: I need promotion.
Marcus: Your mother and I were talking about that.
I laugh.
Me: That was a joke.
Marcus: Well its not. Many people are always interested in
knowing about our company
our new arrangements and all. So I figured we have you here,
how about we create our own little magazine that will be
published every 2 months.
Me: What?

I take seat.
Marcus: Yes baby. You're good at what you do. And that will
take us to the highest level. Take all the time you need to think
about it. You will have your own team of 5 people.
Me: Dad! I don't even have to think about this.
He smiles.
Marcus: Then you better start brainstorming the name of the
magazine cause I am going to inform my team about it.
Me: You're the best dad in the world. I see what you're doing
though.
He laughed.
Marcus: This is innocent. When you find your dream job at
Forbes, GQ or wherever I'd set you free.
Me: I love you.
Marcus: You know I love you more.
Me: Have a good day. I'll see you at lunch. Its on me.
Marcus: I love the sound of that.

I smile and get up to leave. A whole freakin magazine!

I screamed soon as I got to my office. I danced and called

Mvelo. She left yesterday. I only have Mike to keep me sane. I
tell her the good news.
Me: What's up with the red face?
Mvelo: Zulu face scrub.
Me: Isn't itchy?
Mvelo: No dummy. When you come aunty will force you to
apply it.
Me: I'm so not ready to see her.
We laugh.
Mvelo: The good news is I'm not doing anything. I will be
eating, bathing, call you and Nduna and sleep.
Me: I wanna be you.
Mvelo: Have you heard from Bheki?
Me: No. I shouldn't be hearing from him.
Mvelo: He loves you.
Me: And how would you know that?
Mvelo: I just know. I think what you said to him yesterday was a
bit harsh.
Me: Harsh how? He arrested my friend over his stupid jealousy.
I had to put him in his lane.
Mvelo: You threatened him!
Me: He needs to stay away from me and my life.
Mvelo: You're such a devil. So, are you and Mike really friends?
Me: Wow Nomvelo.
Mvelo: I'm asking. You hid Bheki and said you were just getting
along fine.
Me: Mike and I are friends. Shall we upgrade, you'll be the first
person to know my babe.
Mvelo: Is there a possibility?
Me: No. I officially want nothing to do with men at this point.
Mvelo: Okay babe. If you say so. I can't wait for you to come.
Me: Right after the baby shower I will drive there.
Mvelo: Ugh I forgot about it. I should send you money to buy a
gift but I saw a stroller at Some insta shop. I'll check it out.
Me: Soon we'll be buying you strollers.
Mvelo: Eww oh my God no
I laugh.
Me: Uhm hello? You're about to get married.
Mvelo: That doesn't mean I should pop babies.
Me: Nduna will want a little him on the honey moon.
Mvelo: Contraceptives were made for such reasons.

She takes a sip on a glass.

Me: Is that wine?
Mvelo: No
Me: Mvelo. Nduna said we're drunkards.
Mvelo: In a world full of men. Women need to stay tispy to be
tolerate those men.
Me: Amen to that. I wish you can tell that to Kelly.
The door opens. Speaking of the devil. I focus on my computer.
Kelly: Here she is. Alexis this is Lebo. And she would love to
have a word with you.
Me: Hi Lebo.
She waves a little. Kelly walks out.
Lebo: I'm sure you've seen me around.
I haven't but I smile and nod.
Lebo: Are you free around lunch? I am hoping we could talk
over a glass of wine and stir fry.
What?
Me: Uh...I promised my dad that I will have it with him.
Lebo: Even better. Its about the magazine.
Me: Oh. No problem then.
Lebo: I'll see you then.
Me: Ok.

She walks out. I get up and head to dad's office.

I stop when I hear shouting. It's Kelly.

Kelly: Don't test me Marcus
Marcus: Would you please lower your voice?
Kelly: No! Since she came back. I am very invisible to you.
Marcus: I told you that day was a mistake. I was going through
a lot.
Kelly: I wish you'd have sat that when your balls were deep
within me.

What the hell?

Marcus: Get out.
Kelly: Its either we continue with this or your wife will find out
about this.
I hear footsteps approaching. I run back to my office.

I can't believe this. What on earth is wrong with men? I can't

believe dad went and slept with this woman.
23
He grabs my arm and pulls me back to his office and shuts the
door. I exhale and hold the file I had in my hand close to my
chest.
Marcus: Princess, I don't know what is going on with you these
days but we can't work like this? What is going on?
Me: Nothing. I am doing a lot this week dad. Bringing a
magazine into life is not a joke. I'm sorry if you are catching a
different vibe, I'm just busy that's all.

I try to smile to add on my convincing statement. He nods and

hold the the door open.
Marcus: Will you be busy during lunch?
Me: I'll see.
Marcus: Okay. I love you.
Me: Love you too.

He perks my cheek and I'm out.

The magazine idea was successful. This week has been about
me and my team trying to put everything together. We're trying
to get an affordable camera man and cheap printing machines
deals. Our budget is a bit too tight, Kelly was against the idea so
I wouldn't be so surprised if she told the finance team to give us
this.

I moved out of my old office to a new one that Mike helped me

clean up cause it was a freaking storage but you wouldn't tell
now. Advantages of having good friends, he bought me a
portrait for the wall and paid for the carpenter. My desk is to
die for.

I find Thabi and Kate waiting for me in the office. I place the file
on the desk infront of them.
Me: These are Mr McVeigh's ideas of what our first issue should
focus on.
Thabi: As long as it won't have us travelling.
Me: I will speak to Kelly about the car and petrol card idea.
Kate: I think we should just let Kelly be for now. She's so against
this she'd call another meeting and convince the board the
company doesn't have enough money for this magazine thing.
Me: You're right. I'll speak to Dan instead.
Thabi: Perfect.
Me: And this is it. We are meeting again later to choose an
affordable photographer.
Kate: No problem.

They get up and leave. I plug in my earphones and glue myself

to my computer.

I just see a woman standing on the other side of my desk. I

remove the earphones.
Me: Hi.
Kelly: Give them to me.
Me: What?
Kelly: The earphones. They arw prohibited in this building.
Alexis you fail to follow any rules around here!
Me: Well that was not in my contract. I'm sorry I missed it when
you told me about the dos and donts. How can I help you?
Kelly: Marcus tells me you're leaving on Friday for your friend's
wedding in KZN. I would like you to submit a full report on how
far are you with this magazine.
Me: Okay.
Kelly: With a sample of your cover page.
Me: We haven't decided yet.
Kelly: Then decide because next week Monday we're going on
holidays and by then I need to have submitted the sample to
the board.

She smirks. I wanna punch it off her ugly hoe face.

Me: Okay. The report will be on your desk Friday morning.
Kelly: I'd love that.

"Surpri-"

I look over to the door. I see my mother.

Melissa: I didn't know you had company.
Kelly: Melissa. Its work hours.
Melissa: Ofcourse. Not school hours that means I'm allowed to
bring my baby and my husband food.
Kelly: Alexis is busy.
Melissa: I'm just here to drop this off and go to my husband.
You know I've figured I'll bring him lunch and his dessert
everyday. It doesn't seem hoe-ish to fuck your own husband in
his office...close ears Lexi!

I startle and close them for real. I've never heard my mother
talk like that before. Kelly runs out. I remove my fingers from
my ears.
Me: What is going on?
Melissa: Adult staff. Are you hungry?
Me: Mom
Melissa: I will stab your father. Just know that.
Me: Oh Lord Jesus no.
Melissa: How could he do this to me? Her out of all people?
When he told me I swear I wanted to pull off my hair.
Me: You wanna grab a drink?
She's crying now. I don't know what to do. I get up and hug her.
Daddy comes in. I put the scissors in the open before I leave
them alone...

...
Every girl needs a Mike in her life. He called me to drive straight
to his place before I knocked off.

I found him cooking. I've been sitting here with a bottle of wine
watching him cook. We've ditched the pimp my ride on the
kitchen tab.
Mike: Guess who I bumped into this morning.
Me: Carlie? Lebo? Angel? Grace? Tasha?
Mike: Thank you for reminding me that I'm a whoreman. No,
Bheki.
Me: Mxm.
Mike: He fined me for driving without a seatbelt.
Me: I will kill that man
Mike: No. He did it to get a reaction from you. Where does his
wife stay anyway?
Me: I don't know and I don't care and I don't wanna talk about
Bheki. He's an old chapter that I've burned.
Mike: Ready to date someone else?
Me: No. I am not cut out for this thing. I'll just continue my
alone life plus now I have my dream job. Life is perfect, I
seriously do not need a man.
Mike: Love is a beautiful thing Lexi.
Me: No its not. People just hurt each other, that's all its about:
make someone feel special, loved and wanted and then drop a
marriage bomb on them. Love is a fucking joke Mike.
Mike: Yeah with just ordinary people. When you find the one?
Everything changes.
I look at him.
Me: What did you do to my Mike?
Mike: I know it sounds crazy but I'm inlove.

I laugh. I must be dreaming!

Me: What? Who? You? Inlove? With who Micheal?
Mike: Tasha.
I gasp and scream.
Me: Congratulations Tasha!
I scream. He laughs shyly.
Mike: It's crazy.
Me: Have you told her?
Mike: No. I don't know how to do it.
Me: Okay okay okay don't panic. Dish up and the lessons will
start when we eat.

He smiles and nods. My phone rings.

Me: Hey my boo
Philani: Don't you dare. How are you?
Me: Fine and busy and I'm sorry but I haven't abandoned you.
How are you?
Philani: Don't sweat nana I've been busy myself. I need a huge
favor.
Me: Shoot.
Philani: I'm going to pay lobola for Mel this weekend. As you
know, I have a little car, it broke down and I know I'm out of
line but I was wondering if you could borrow me your car.
Me: You're getting married? Wow Philani I'm so happy for you.
Ofcourse you can have my car. You can come get it tomorrow.
Philani: Thank you so much Lexi. Thank you thank you thank
you. Mncwaa!
I laugh and we talk a little more before we say our goodbyes.

I look at Mike smiling to his phone. If Mike could fall inlove then
there's hope for me too.

*2 days later*
I have been doing everything all at once. Fetching my dress,
writing the report, coming up with an impressive cover page. I
couldn't leave this morning because there was just so much to
do!

I have received thousands of messages from Mvelo and Nduna

threatening to never talk me again if I don't arrive. Mom left
this morning and I cried because that should've been me going
there to be with my friend. Now I won't even get to see her
leave her parent's home.
8pm on the dot I drive out heading to KZN, relying on Mvelo as
my GPS...

...
What is this place? I call Mvelo.
Me: I seriously can not believe you Nomvelo. You let me drive
my baby here?
I am fuming. How could she do this to me. She knew her in-
laws live at the bundus but let me lend Philani my jeep!
Mvelo: Friend its half past 5am
you should've been here yesterday. The ceremony is beginning
at 9am.
She says calmly. She's only concerned about how late I am, well
I wouldn't be late if she gave me right directions. I take a deep
breath, like it or not I have to drive my baby here.
Me: How far is it from here?
I am beyond hurt that I am going to make such a major
compromise.
Mvelo: 10 to 15 minutes. When you see a shop pull over, I will
send someone to fetch you.
I toss the phone on the other seat and drive in to the gravel
road. This place is ugly. How do people manage to live here? I
left the town about 20 minutes ago. I wouldn't survive a day
here.

Everything looks like a shop here. I call Mvelo again. I don't

know what this man fed her. My friend wouldn't look twice on
a Zulu man, her fantasy has always been marrying a white
person. Living in an estate not here.

Me: Cows walk randomly around?

I say soon as she picks up.
Mvelo: Yes Sabathile. Cows are normal here Why did she agree
to marry him though.
Me: Oh wait, I think they are chasing me.
I speed up. I hear her laugh.
Mvelo: Just stop already. You're here. Can you see us?
I look around. I see goats and dogs. Are they friends? I thought
they were enemies because the goat never returned the dogs
money or something like that.
Me: I only see goats and dogs
I say.
Mvelo: Turn left.
I turn.
Me: I see a group of people under the tree.

Who on their right state of mind sleeps under a tree?

Mvelo: That is us. You can park there.

Holy mother of God it's really them!

I park and reach for my flops at the back seat.

Me: Why on earth are you sleeping outside?

I ask looking over their lazy tired asses. They laugh. Nothing is
funny.
Mvelo: You're here! Crouch and give me a hug. I am so proud of
you, you drove alone all this way.
She says opening her arms.
Me: No thanks I'll pass. Just explain why you are street adults.
I say looking around. There's a homestead that has cars all over
and smoke steaming out of grass houses. I assume that is
Nduna's home. Well I expected it to be made of mud and ugly
but its beautiful.

Mvelo: Its custom. Makoti firstly stay here until umgcagco and I
will go in after we're from esigcawini.
She explains.
Me: Ohh. Have you eaten?
I don't see any signs of breakfast.
Mvelo: Yes we ate meat. We're waiting for proper breakfast
now.

I tuck myself next to her.I missed her

Mvelo: Did you find any men on your way here? She must be
kidding me. Me: You want me to date and marry a Zulu man
too?
She raise her brows.
Mvelo: Sabathile you're very Zulu if you haven't noticed.
She says rolling her owl eyes.
Me: Yes true but I am very clueless about being one plus they
have proven me right to be nothing but trouble so excuse me.
They are not my cup of Ciroc.
The girls laugh. Mvelo is glowing. That red thing her aunt
painted her with really works.

"Sanibonani bantu basemzini" I startle. Where did they come

from? They place two big buckets before us. "This is tea and
juice. The girls are coming with cups, sugar and milk" he says.
Mvelo is nolonger visible next to me.
Me: Thank you.
I say since none of these ladies here have voices. They nod and
walk off.

The girls indeed come with what they were expected to come
with. I thank them again then they leave.

I nudge the under the blanket Mvelo.

Me: Don't tell me I came all this way to thank people.
She giggles.
Mvelo: That's what impelesi does.
I nolonger want to be on3 then. The guys come back again with
2 buckets, the ladies follow with 2 crates full of bread. Do they
own a bakery? The other ladies follow with a huge sauce pan
I've ever laid my eyes on.

"Umkhongi will come to see uMakoti right after you finish

eating" he says humbly and they walk off.

A quantum park behind my car. The Zulu clan gets off. I peel
Mvelo off. Me: Your aunt is here.
I giggle.
Mvelo: I thought she had a problem with her knee. she says
bored.
Me: I told you it was all an act.
She's a very dramatic individual. She's limping.

Aunty: We're right on time. Why haven't you made fire?

No greetings no nothing. Aunty: Wena coconut. Get the woods
over there, you see this fire is dying down.
That's supposed to be me. And I hope she doesn't really think I
will hold a wood with my bear hands.
Mvelo: Zevile and your crew make the fire.
My ass is saved.
Aunty: You're not even supposed to be talking wena Nomvelo.
She says cheeky. Why is she even here.

I get up and try to help myself with juice.

"Uphuza umile muntu wasemzini? Uyazi ngizokuhlawulisa

mina?" (You're standing and drinking. Do you know I can fine
you?)

I quickly turn. He gives me a lazy smile. He's dressed in rank

uniform, exactly the way Nduna and every Zulu man does.
Brentwood, stripped uzzi tee, adidas cap and sandals. The:
"Uyawudlala u Whataphu" shoes.
Me: I'm sorry I was too thirsty.
I say trying to save myself. He smiles and nods.
Him: Are you the maid of honor?
I nod.
Him: Good. You will be the one making breakfast for your side
and when you're done please tell Makoti to call me.
He says and take what seems like a phone out of his pocket. Oh
My God I fail to hold myself I laugh. He raise his eyes and look
at me.
Him: It calls everyone from anywhere.
Even if so. I would never buy that. Taxi drivers like it. They are
the most stingy people after Xhosa men.
Me: I see.

"Bafo they need you there" says the guy who brought us juice.
Why am I still standing here? I leave them talking. The fire is
ready, the pan is even on top.

Mvelo waves at me. I go to her.

Mvelo: I saw how you looked at him.
She says with smirk.
Me: And how did I look at him? Don't even dare say I find him
attractive.
I thought this demon of match making me died.
Mvelo: You smiled at him.
Me: Yes I did because he said he's going to fine me. I had to be
nice. You're wasting my time I am supposed to be making food.

I leave her there laughing. I look at him walking away. There's

something about him that I can't quite put my finger on ...
24
I was honestly hoping the first round of the wedding will be in a
place more like a lodge but nope. We are here at the back of
Nduna's home. The setting is beautiful. I was doubtful when
they started decorating but now; it is the most beautiful thing
I've ever seen. It is December, the sun is boiling hot, we need
air conditioning but that's just me being wishful.

Mvelo and I are inside a little tent. I am doing her make up. She
keeps taking deep breaths, shit must be scary.
Me: Would you stop being nervous?
Mvelo: I can't. I need at least one glass of wine.
Me: Where are you gonna get it? Keep still.

I plug in the eyelashes.

Mvelo: I don't know Lexi! But I need it.
Me: Keep your voice down.

We're done with her make up.

Me: All you need right now is to put on this beautiful dress and
then in the next hour you will be Mrs Nduna.
Mvelo: Its really happening.
Me: Yes friend. You're getting married. Oh no you gonna ruin
your make up.
Mvelo: I wish mom was here.
Her mother didn't come. Apperantly mothers do not attend
weddings this side. I would be a mess if my mother didn't have
to be there on my wedding day.
"Girls?"
That's my mother. We hug, she goes on to hug Mvelo.
Melissa: The butterflies? Trust me they will vanish soon. Its half
past 8 please dress up. Mvelo, don't cry baby.
Me: You can still walk away.
Melissa: Lexi!
Mvelo laughs.
Me: See? It cheered her up.
Mvelo: Please help me put on my dress.
Melissa: No problem. The stares I'm getting are insane.
We laugh.
Mvelo: I'm sorry they'll get used to you.

We dress up. 5 minutes to 9 we all leave to the venue. We are

handed water and fans before we enter. Thoughtful. Me and
other 3 ladies, Mvelo's cousins we move to sit in the front. Each
wing belongs to the certain side. Its percent because aunty told
me men will be hitting on us but I don't see the chances of that
happening now since they'll be on the other side.

Soft hearted music plays on. Nduna walks down the aisle with
his people, they leave him on the altar and sits down. After a
short while a different song plays. I get up, only me. This should
be feeling odd but its not. Mvelo and Sboniso, her brother from
her babomkhulu walk down hand in hand.
Her father couldn't come too but the babomkhulus did. She
picked Sbo to be the one who walks her down the aisle. The
dress! I wanna scream!

Its a touch of white and African patterns put in so perfect. The

hairdresser did the things there by the head, not to forget my
doll up skills. She's an African barbie. I can't hold these damn
tears.
I sit down when she is given to her Shaka Zulu warrior. He looks
beautiful. He looks nothing like the leather wearing Nduna.

The pastor unites them, they exchange vows, rings and its over.
We are now heading to Esigcawini
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I was crossing fingers that this time of the day doesn't come but
here we are!

"Uxolo nkosazana. Ukhohlwe iphone yakho esitulweni" (Excuse

me lady. You forgot your phone on a chair) he says grabbing my
hand. Its the uzzi wearing man again, he has changed to more
uzzi clothes.
Me: Thank you.
Him: I didn't get your name.
Me: Neither did I. Alexis.
He extends his hand.
Him: Nqaba.
We shake hands.
Nqaba: I'm looking forward to see you esigcawini. I widen my
eyes. He smiles, with his eyes. I startle when mom calls my
name. My hand is still in his.
Me: I better go.
Nqaba: Ofcourse.

I take my phone and go to mom.

Melissa: Did you just smile at that man?
Me: Shouldn't I?
Melissa: You should but that was a flirty shy smile.
Me: Oh my God!

I walk away from her. I wait for Zevile finish dressing up so she
can help me put on my beads. I wrap the isgege around and put
on a white vest. Mom gets in.
Melissa: Mvelo's mom said you should wear boob tubes.
Me: And show off our stomachs?
Melissa: Yes.
Me: I'm not wearing that.
Melissa: You are. Here, hurry. We don't have all day.
Zevile: Come, we'll spend about an hour there so you can out
on a jacket afterwards.
Me: An hour showing off my stomach? That's a lot.
Zevile laughs and help me finish my look. I put on the bloody
boob tube and go to Mvelo's tent. She's all ready with isidwaba
and everything that is hanging.
Me: You look beautiful.
Mvelo: Thank you. I hope you still remember the steps.
Me: We'll see.
Aunty: Hhaibo!

I rush out. I call Mike while I wait for everyone to come out. I
call Philani afterwards and then I send dad some selfies.

The ladies come out singing. I'm just gonna stand at the back...

...
Right now I want nothing to do with being awake, let alone
driving. I'm full and I'm tired and sleepy.
The sun just set. My side is ready to leave. I look for mom until I
find her in her car.
Me: Can I please ride with you? I can't drive in this state.
Melissa: What about your car?
Me: I'll ask one of the boys to drive it for me.
Melissa: Okay.
Me: Thanks. Let me go say goodbye to Mvelo.

I walk to the house she's in. Its a new house, a 4 room. I knock
and get in. I find her talking with Nqaba and Nduna. Nqaba gets
up and leaves the room.
Nduna: Maid of honor.
Me: I didn't even get time to participate as one.
Nduna: But everyone knows you're.
Me: Yeah right. So its official. Congratulations my people.
Nduna: Don't cry. I told you you can move in with us.
We laugh.
Me: Ofcourse. Babe I'm leaving.
Mvelo: That sucks.
Me: You better bath and sleep. I heard your aunt saying you'll
wake up at 4am tomorrow.
Nduna: Not my wife. She's tired.
Mvelo: He has no idea what he is saying. Thank you friend, you
being here made everything bearable. I love you.
Me: I love you more and I'm gonna miss you.

We hug. A tall guy that looks like Nduna gets in.

Him: Bafo. We gonna need an extra car for the in-laws.
Mvelo: Weren't there enough cars?
Him: There was but each car left with 7 people. The elders can't
travel with drunkards. Mrs McVeigh has left with the female
elders, the males are still here.
Mvelo sighs. Mom left? Oh my God I'm gonna die.
Nduna: Where's Nqaba?
Him: He left. You know him.
Nduna: How does he leave without making sure everything is
okay?
The door opens again. Its Nqaba. He looks sour.
Nqaba: Who's the owner of the meserati?
Me: Me
Nqaba: You're parked behind my car. I need to go out.
Nduna: Nqaba we need cars.
Nqaba: And I need to leave.
Nduna: Smakade left. There's no need for you to leave.
Nqaba: I'll call the boys to bring 3 quantums. I hope they will be
enough. Makoti, I'll see you tomorrow. Lady, after you.
Me: Bye love. Nduna please treat my person good or I'll come
and take her back.
They laugh.
Nduna: Yes ma'am.

I walk out followed by Nqaba. I get to my car, I look for an

energy boaster. I'm gonna need 5 of them. The car infront of
me flick lights. Ugh I forgot.

I reverse out and off I go. Eyes full of tears, I'm gonna miss her
so much. Nqaba's car keep still behind me until we part ways
on the tar road. Its been a good day...
25
When I pass by the pa's office I see a woman behind the desk.
That was quick. I knock, she brings her head up and smile.
Me: Hi.
Her: Hello. You must be Lexi, come in.
Me: Indeed I am.
Her: I'm Jean.
Me: Nice to meet you Jean.
Jean: Girl you were born for this. Everything was in place and
clear to understand.
Me: I didn't want another person to find the mess that I found.
Is Mr McVeigh in?
Jean: Yes but he will be out in 15 minutes.
Me: I'll be brief. It was nice to meet you.
Jean: Likewise.

I smile and walk out. I knock and the door opens. I startle a
little.
Marcus: I was just on my way out to your office. Get in.
Me: I passed by Jean's office.
Marcus: Oh you've met her? Such a lovely young lady.
Me: Indeed.
I laugh when I notice the new picture frame addition.
Marcus: I couldn't help myself. You looked beautiful.

It is my picture in the traditional attire.

Me: Thank you. Do you have good news for me?
Marcus: Yes. They loved it!

He punches the air and spin around.

Marcus: I don't know what gave you an idea to make yourself
the cover page but it worked.
Me: Whew! I wanna cry.
Marcus: Come here.

We hug. Someone clears their throat, we let go and look at the

door. The devil stood there in a peach women's suit.
Marcus: Kelly, just in time. Why don't you tell Alexis the best
news?
Kelly: We'll increase your budget.
I scream and hug dad.
Me: I see what you're doing but ok. Thank you so much.
Marcus: You'd be surprised if I told you the board decided you
get more of what you had been given. I'm proud of you.
Me: Me too. Thank you. Lunch is on me.
Marcus: As long as we'll go to a different restaurant.
Me: I'll make reservations.
Marcus: Okay my love.

He kisses my cheek and I walk out. Where did Kelly go?

The victory walk is noticed by everyone I come across with in

the hallway. I keep bowing to the congratulations until I get to
my office. I text mommy and then call the makoti.
Mvelo: Hey.
Me: Are you sleeping? Tell me you're not.
Mvelo: I am. Mother inlaw forced me back into bed, I slept
around 2am. I am sick even.
Me: Aww my poor baby. You should leave for your honeymoon
already.
Mvelo: That is 4 weeks ago. How did it go?
Me: I got it!
Mvelo: Yes! I knew it. Did you record the look on devil's face?
Me: I will go through the cctv footage of from Friday. I wish I
was there to witness it.
She laughs.
Mvelo: Congratulations my love. I am proud of you and I love
you.
Me: Thanks babe. You better go back to sleep. I'll call you later.
Mvelo: Bye sweets.

I hang up and get back to work. We need to have At least 4

articles by Thursday so that when we come back next year we
won't have to start from scratch. Thabi and Kate are out
hunting for young business women to feature on our first issue.
Mvelo will be one of them, she just doesn't know it yet.
***
Yesterday was a long-beautiful Monday. It is my favourite
Monday of them all. Today I arrived early to go steal the
footage. Lunch with dad yesterday was incredible. We went out
again in the evening with mom to celebrate. Will and his
mother are coming this weekend for Christmas holidays. Truth
be told: I don't want them anywhere around me but it is what it
is. Kim's baby shower will be something intimate. I'm glad we're
finally done planning it.

I stick in my hard drive and download the boardroom Friday

footage and walk out before Lobster comes back from
collecting all the cupcakes at the cafeteria.

I get back to my office and pour another cup of coffee. I find

articles from Thabi and pictures from Kate, she's quite a good
photographer. I smile, my team is solid. I email them to not go
out today, we'll spend the day putting these pieces together
into a magazine.

I receive pictures from Mvelo wearing a doek and a blanket

over her shoulders. I compliment her. We chat and I work until
my nose catches up on a scent that used to intoxicate me. I
bring my eyes up to meet his. He's really standing in my office
right now.
Me: Ever heard of knocking?
Bheki: I did knock but your father told me to get in.
Me: Right. How may I help you?
Bheki: I came to say hi.
Me: Well Hi.
Bheki: Hi.

We stare at each other. He clears his throat.

Bheki: When are you free? I want to take you out so we can
talk.
Me: Is that a request or you're telling me?
Bheki: It is a request. Please.
Me: I'm free at 11:45.
He glances at his wrist watch.
Bheki: That's an hour away. Can I wait for you?
Me: If you want.
Bheki: I do. I will wait in my car. Thank you.
He turns and walks to the door.
Me: You can wait here. There is coffee and biscuits. You can
sort yourself out.
Bheki: Thank you.

I nod. I don't like this little sad child him. He's making me feel
guilty
I don't know of what. I get back to my computer as he helps
himself out there by the snack area.

Time just got to snail mode. He's watching me work. Doesn't he

have things to do in his office?

My phone rings as I attempt to ask Bheki if he shouldn't be at

work. It is unknown numbers.
Me: Alexis McVeigh.
Voice: Ntombemhlophe. Please excuse my ill manners
nkosazana. I was in desperate need of your digits so I asked
Nduna to steal them for me. It is Nqaba speaking, we met at
the wedding.
My insides turn. I look at Bheki, he's on his phone. Whew!
Me: Hi. No problem, how are you?
Nqaba: I'm good. How are you?
Me: I'm great thanks.
Nqaba: I wanted to ask if you went well that day.
Me: Yes I did. I believe you did too.
Nqaba: I'm glad nkosazana. I wasn't going very far but to
answer your question, yes I went well.
His deep voice sent chills down my stomach.
Me: That's good.
Bheki looks my way. Oh God.
Nqaba: I'm calling from my cell by the way.

I laugh.
Me: Ofcourse you are.
Nqaba: Never laugh at it. Let me not keep you. Have a good day
ahead.
Me: You do too. Thanks for the call.
Nqaba: A thousand more will follow.
I don't know what is happening with me but I love the sound of
that.
Me: Looking forward to that. Bye.

I hang up. Oh holy mother of Jesus! I just flirted with a man in

front of Bheki!
Me: I think we should go grab something to eat. I'm hungry and
quarter to 12 is too far.
Bheki: Okay. How was KZN?
Me: It was great. Really fun.
Bheki: Mmmh. Who did you meet?
Me: I met a lot of people.

He nods. The way up to the restaurant is quiet. We order soon

as we sit down. Our beverages come first.
Me: So, you wanted to talk.
Bheki: Yeah. I miss you.
Me: I miss you too.
Bheki: Then come back.
Me: To what? Someone's husband? No.
Bheki: I am not Lexi.
Me: So you keep saying! Your family will not accept me. I don't
want to put myself through that. What happens when your
father says she should have a second baby? What will become
of me being with a man that is mine but not really mine
because he has to take care of his brother's house on the side?
Bheki: That will not happen sthandwa sami I promise. Please.
Me: You're asking for too much Bheki. I always try to
understand this but I can't.
Bheki: Its you that I love. I feel empty without you. God knows I
don't want that woman, she was just a duty. My family will
accept you and love you as I do. Just please give me another
chance. I don't wanna lose you.
Me: I don't know Bheki, I really don't know what's right and
what's not. I do love you but this arrangement doesn't sit well
with me.
Bheki: Just pretend it doesn't exist.
I sigh. As if it was that easy. His phone rings, he lets go of my
hand and answer. He speaks shortly and hang up.
Bheki: Its work. Can I call you later?
Me: Yeah sure.
He gets up and give me his card.
Bheki: I love you.
He kisses my cheek and off he goes.

How will I live to see his child with another woman and pretend
it doesn't exist? My heart will never let me accept this, ever...
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Bheki indeed called and came to pick me up to go have dinner
at some restaurant that he labeled as his favorite in town. They
serve all kinds of food, I can't begin to imagine work their
workers go through.

Today all we're focusing on with my team is editing. My baby is

maturing and I'm over the moon. I keep glancing at the wall
clock, I didn't eat breakfast again today. I sleep late, wake up
with enough time time to bath, get ready and go to work. I am
very impatient for lunch. I get up to get a 100th cup of coffee.
Kate: That is unhealthy
Me: I can't help it I'm hungry.
Thabi: Me too. I nolonger get time to eat breakfast. Plus I'm not
a fan of donuts in the lobby.
Me: Me too! Jesus.
Kate: Well I do.
She digs into her bag and comes back with a lunch box.
Kate: I'd die without breakfast. When my office is ready I will
have a microwave and foods stashed up in my cupboard.
We laugh. I take the lunchbox and take 2 slices and pass it on to
Thabi.
Me: You should teach me how to make these.
Kate: You can't? Girl I love my food nice and stylish. Just pick a
day.

She's the ghetto-nerd coloured. I am very jealous of how she

wears her hair. Every day she has a different style. I wish I had
that confidence.
Me: What are you guys doing this weekend? Friday to be
precise. I was hoping we do something anyways before we all
go home.
Thabi: Yes boss bae!
I laugh.
Me: This hard work needs to be celebrated.
Kate: We gonna bath and put on our pyjamas at 6, start cooking
while we sip on wine and pouring our hearts out. I know we all
have boyfriend problems-
Thabi: Girlfriend
We laugh.
Kate: Yes. Or Girlfriend problems. We advise each other, eat,
watch movies, braid each other. I'm not really a fan of crowded
places.

She adjusts her glasses. Me: That is fine by me.

Thabi: Me too. 10 minutes to lunch. Yay!

My phone beeps. I view the WhatsApp text. I am gonna need a

new phone, 64 gig.

'You look beautiful my love. I miss you even more when I see
your pictures'

I send and read mom's text

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reminding me to pass by home later.

We use the remaining 10 minutes to just talk about everyone at

the office. The new girl seems nice, we decide we must make
her feel welcome.
...
The day went by fast. It ended with me receiving flowers from
Bheki. He called me and we spoke all the way to the mall to get
mom a few things and all the way here.

We are trying to fix things I guess. I don't know what kind of

miracle I am hoping for that'll make the situation of his wife
and child disappear but I am willing it does and our relationship
somehow works.

Mom is nowhere in sight. I pack the groceries in their respectful

places and make corn flakes. I kick off my heels and sit down
and eat.

The queen walks in.

Melissa: Its 5:40pm.
Me: Yeah
Melissa: Why are you eating that?
Me: Just because...I'm snacking.
She sighs.
Melissa: How are you Miss snack?

She takes out plates and dish up.

Me: I am perfect. How is you my lady?
Melissa: I am good.
Me: Where is your helping ladies?
Melissa: On holidays.
Me: Mmmh.
Melissa: When are you gonna come?
Me: Christmas eve.
Melissa: What? Why? Mvelo isn't even here!
Me: I know mom. The girl might be dating and needs to spend a
little time with it's boyfriend.
Melissa: Oh Jesus. When are we meeting him then?
Me: Soon.
Melissa: I liked it when you were single.
Me: You did? You should've fought Mary then.
Melissa: I did!
Me: Okay okay. Another thing; I will arrive Saturday morning.
The girls I work with and I have plans on Friday.
Melissa: As long as everything will go accordingly.
Me: It will trust me.

Dad walks in and goes to his wife. They kiss and smile at each
other like he didn't cheat on her with that devil.
Marcus: I didn't see you today at work.
Me: That's because I'm not your pa anymore Mr McVeigh. But I
did see you going into your office in the morning.
Marcus: And didn't come to greet me?
Me: Daddy I called you and we spoke for 30 minutes.
Marcus: Still.
Me: I should get you guys a grandchild.
Them: We'd love that!
Jesus. Eww!
Me: I'm kidding. Lord Jesus! What's those faces? What would I
do with a child? I'm a child myself.
Marcus: It'd be ours.
Me: Maybe next of next year.
Melissa: We'll be holding you into that.

I laugh. They have a grandchild on the way. They must convince

Lucas to come live with them.

Mom serve us. We pray and eat. They start with their love
stories. My father is a good lover but the cheating demon
seems to always overpower him somehow...

...
The police siren disturbs me from my pile of thoughts. I look at
the rearview mirror, they are flicking light at me. Great!

I pull up. I am now going to be an hour late. Dad must not talk
to me for the next 2 months. Why wouldn't he wake me up? I
slept at home and now I regret it because I'm never this late
when I'm at my place.

I jump when I see a figure in my window. Bheki? Seriously? I

slide my window down.
Bheki: Morning ma'am. Please step out of the vehicle.
Me: Why?
Bheki: I wanna hug you first before I charge you for speeding in
a 60km/h zone.
Me: I'm late.
Bheki: Now you wanna put your life and lives of other citizens?
Please step out.
Me: wow Bheki.

I step out.
Bheki: License please.
I reach for my purse and take it out. He writes me my ticket and
hugs me.
Me: Are you for real?
Bheki: I'm just trying to make South Africa a better place baby.
Have a great day at work. I love you.

I get in my car and drive off. What a way to begin my day.

...
Kelly: I didn't know 10am was the time to arrive at work.
She just had to be the first person I see when I get in.
Me: I'm from the Dr.
Kelly: Couldn't you call and let someone know?
Me: It slipped my mind I'm sorry. The headache is very bad.
Kelly: Dr's note?
Me: Here.

I give her and walk on to the lift. I don't know what we'd do
without Drs. I just went to the Dr, it was the only thing to save
me.

I get to my office and exhale.

Thabi: Yoh your granny is so annoying.
Me: I know right.
Kate: What's up with her and this stinking attitude? She
honestly bores me.
Me: She has a thing against everyone apperantly.
Thabi: She needs a hiding.
Kate: A serious one.
Me: No no no. No hiding please.

I make coffee and sit down to work.

I tell Thabi and Kate to go have lunch I will finish up.

I encrypt the files afterwards. Tomorrow I am not coming here.

I hear a knock.
Me: Its open!
Precious our receptionist gets in.
Precious: I've been trying to get hold of your phone.
Me: I unconnected it sorry.
Precious: There's a lady here to see you.
Me: A lady? You can send her in.
Precious: Ok.
She walks out. Minutes later when I sweep. A knock comes
through.
Me: Come in.

Precious walks in first followed by a woman I've never seen

before. She is dressed like the women I saw at Mvelo's
wedding: dress, tekkies, doek and a cape.
Me: Thanks
Precious: I'm just one call away.
Me: Ofcourse love.

She heads out.

Me: You may take a seat.
I say to the woman. She looks younger than she's dressed.
Me: I'm Lexi. Though I believe you know me.

I mean she wouldn't be here if she didn't.

Her: I am Mangema. Gugu Ncube.
Me: How can I help you Gugu?
Gugu: By stop ruining your life.
Me: I don't follow
Gugu: Bheki.
Yeah right.
Gugu: You are nothing close to what his parents may consider a
wife. They will stop at nothing to make sure you are not with
their son. I was taken from my father's home to go continue
being a wife to a man that is nolonger there. I agreed because
its either you take the chief's orders or you are banished.
KwaNcube is no place for a little beautiful woman like you.
Bheki loves you yes but he would never be able to protect you
from his people, I know you might love him too but save
yourself while you still have time. Bheki thinks he has this
figured out but he doesn't. His mother has sent me here to live
with him, Bheki doesn't wanna be chief, for his father to allow
that he has to be with me. Now tell me where does that put
you? Are you going to stand that?
Me: Did she send you here to tell me all this?
She balls me.
Me: His mother! Did she?
Gugu: Ofcourse not. I came here because I care. I don't want to
watch you get yourself into this and ruin your life. But if you
think maybe I'm just trying to get rid of you. Go ahead, we'll
meet at the forest at 4am to get wood to cook for only Lord
knows who.

She got up and left. I look around at nothing, trying to hold the
tears from falling...
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My phone rings. I take it and put it on silent. I have been doing
nothing but crying and walking around this place like a mad
woman. I hardly slept last night. I drank sleeping pills to finally
get some sleep. Gugu's words kept echoing in my head. How
did she know who am I? Where I work?

I really wish I had energy to speak to Bheki right now. I call

Mvelo, we talk for a while and hang up. I don't mention
anything about my crazy relationship that has a 3rd person.
This is how its gonna be? Have an official 3rd person in our
union!

I don't know what to believe. Did Gugu come to me with good

intentions or bad? I would never know until I speak Bheki. He's
been calling me since from last night. I stuck at his cellphone
number, or maybe not. Let me just forget he ever existed and
move on with my life. It doesn't matter if Gugu was there to
push me away so she can have him in peace, either way he'll
have him.
I delete his number and go to take a bath. As much as I have
that little hope that this might work out, it really doesn't matter
now. Bheki keeps choosing to be with her than to be chief.

I startle, scream, slip and fall on my butt when I get out of the
bathroom and find a man sitting on my bed. My towel is still
intact, good. He helps me get on my feet.
Me: How did you even get in?
I say snatching my hand off his.
Bheki: Security let me up. Why aren't you taking my calls?
Me: Why are you calling me?
Bheki: Alexis. I thought we were working things out.
Me: We were Bheki, until Gugu arrived here and you didn't
even tell me.
He tries to speak but shuts his mouth and close his eyes.
Bheki: I was gonna tell you.
Me: When? Huh? When Bheki?
Bheki: As soon as I found the courage to. Its not easy to go to
your girlfriend and tell her your brother's wife is here.
Me: What is she doing here?
Bheki: I don't know. How did you know she's here?
Me: She paid me a visit yesterday at work.
Bheki: What?
Me: Yes! You lied to me Bheki. Your father made you choose
between being chief and being with her and you chose being
with her on behalf of your brother, that means she is your wife!
Until forever.
Bheki: That's nonsense and you know it.
Me: Then why is she here?
Bheki: I don't know and I don't care!
Me: It's because your mother sent her here. Its who they think
is capable and good enough to be your wife.
Bheki: What my parents think doesn't matter Alexis. It is you
that I love, she is in my house not with me where I live. My
father told me after I get her pregnant
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my job would be done and I held him into that.
Me: Until you have fixed this mess, I am done. I don't wanna be
part of all this uncertainty Bheki.
Bheki: Lexi please.
He takes my hand and look into my eyes crying.
Me: I'm a lot Bheki. Taking me to your parents would need you
to learn how to man up before your parents. I can't even fetch
wood! Some one like me needs a strong man to take her to
people like your parents. Go and teach yourself to stand for
yourself or else leave and never look back because Until you
know how to say no to your father, you & I don't have a future.
I really wanna be with you but not like this. Not like this.

I pull my hand away and walk to the closet. I lean on the door
after I close and take a deep breath. I cried enough last night,
I'm not going to torture myself right now....

***
BHEKI

I push the doors apart. I find her in the lounge breast feeding
the baby. She covers herself and look at me.
Me: Care to explain why you went to Alexis? You have ruined
my life!
Gugu: As much as you're about to ruin hers? Don't let love
make you selfish Bheki. That woman deserves a man with no
baggage.
Me: She was starting to understand!
Gugu: Understanding what? That once in a while you'll have to
sleep with me to fool your father that you're taking care of your
brother's house? Come on.
Me: You don't understand. I love her.
Gugu: I also loved Khuselo but I had to share countless nights
with you just because I had to do it for your parents! You know
very well Alexis will not survive in that home.
Me: She won't even stay there.
She laughs.
Gugu: Now I believe love makes you men stupid. Like hell your
mother would agree. She would want her there to torture her
until she leaves you. Let the poor girl go Bheki, she doesn't
deserve all that hell your family will put her through.
Me: Why do you care?
Gugu: Because if it wasn't for your vindictive parents I would be
here in Jo'burg living my best life Bhekisizwe! I would have
made something out of myself! I should've gone to university
that very same year they decided no because Khuselo had paid
lobola for me. You and your siblings aren't nothing but a curse
to every woman's life. You see this baby? Given a chance? I
would throw it all the way down from the balcony because it is
nothing but a reminder of how ruined my life is!

She is crying. She put it aside and walk out. The baby starts
crying too. I sit down on the couch opposite and look at it cry
while I rock my body back and forth crying too...

***
ALEXIS

I went out to have lunch. Ignored every call and every text. I
just need a polite way to tell Kelly to fuck off. This camel has a
problem with me not being there. No youth wants to exchange
hugs and have meaningless conversations with old age home
share holders. The Christmas party was their idea, they must
enjoy it and not bother us.

I drive to a park after my 2 hour lunch. I buy ice cream and sit
on the bench and watch birds fly around with freedom, kids
rolling on the grass laughing with no single care in the world. I
wish to be little again and clueless.

Cold hands cover my eyes. I sigh.

Me: Your hands are very cold. How did you find me?
He laughs and removes his hands.
Mike: Find my phone sweetie.
He slides close to me and takes the spoon and dig into my ice
cream.
Me: I should delete that thing.
Mike: Too risky honey no.
Me: but you're abusing it.
Mike: The law says: If you can't reach a friend for more than 3
hours, get worried. I was worried.
Me: Amen!
Mike: What's going on with you?
Me: Nothing.
Mike: Your face just betrayed you. Out with it.
I sigh and sniffle.
Me: Don't judge me okay
Mike: I'm hurt. How can you even say that?
Me: Just in case. See Bheki and I were trying to fix things.
He doesn't look surprised.
Mike: And then what happened?
Me: The woman he married for his brother came to the office
yesterday. She told me a lot of things about Bheki's home.
Things I wouldn't want to be part of. She mentioned that her
and Bheki were not a once off thing, its gonna keep happening.
Mike: And where does that leave you?
Me: That's what she asked. She also mentioned that Bheki
doesn't have full control of the situation and I saw that this
morning. Bheki is only focused on loving me and keeping me
around but he won't stand up to his parents. They have so
much power over him. So I told him we should stop until he
fixes this.
Mike: I'm sorry love.
Me: Its okay. Its life, we live and we learn.
Mike: Let's go grab a drink.
Me: Bad idea. A movie would do.
Mike: Ok fine. A movie it is then.
I smile. We get up and go to our cars.

Amongst the missed calls I find, 2 of them are Nqaba's. He must

stay away from me. He is probably married and have 5 kids.

I text Mvelo the drama my life has turned to face when we

arrive at the cinema...
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The ladies night was really great last night. I specialized in
chopping, its what I do best. Kate and Thabi did their magic on
the pots. Venting and crying my eyes out is exactly what I
needed to numb my poor heart. We talked, cried, ate, drank
wine, talked and cried even more.

I wish I didn't have to wake up early today but I promised mom

I will manage so I had to manage. I left the ladies there because
it would've been really rude to tell people to leave at 6 just
because you are.

My mother is an early worm. I found her up and cleaning. I

made myself breakfast while I waited for the deco people. They
have arrived and I'm happy I have something to be busy with.
Aunt Mary and her annoying kids are about to arrive any
minute from now. I am so not in the mood for them.

Me: This is perfect. You guys are really good at what you do.
Guy: Then please rate us.
He hands me a tablet. I give them 10/10. They deserve it. They
mixed baby pink and blue so perfect its like the colors were
made for each other. I text Buhle's bakery reminding them that
we have only 2 hours to the shower so they better deliver the
cake.

When I walk the decorators back to their car in the front, I see
people through the sliding door. Punctual that much?

There is no car in sight. Great listeners. I bid the guys goodbye

and head back inside. I greet everyone I come across with until I
climb up the stairs. Catering confirms. Everything is going
smoothly. I strip my clothes off and get into the shower. I am
out after a while. I put on only the underwears and make my
face.

My phone rings. Who wants to ruin my beautiful Saturday!

I reach for it. It is unknown numbers, I answer and not say

anything.
Voice: Lexi?
Me: Yes?
Voice: Its me. Where's your vacuum?
Me: Ugh no. Don't worry about that, someone will come to
clean up.
Thabi: We will clean. Where is it?
Me: The second door after the bathroom.
Thabi: Cool. How is it going there?
Me: Pretty fine thanks. Why are you even up so early?
Thabi: Hunger. Bye
I laugh.
Me: Bye.

I put the phone down and continue putting on make up. A text
comes through.

GOOD MORNING NDLOVUKAZI. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO REACH

YOU ON YOUR CELL BUT I HAVE NOT HAD ANY LUCK. IS
EVERYTHING OKAY?

Only a Zulu man from Nduna's village can text someone in

capital letters. I shake my head smiling. I have been ignoring his
calls. I see where he is going and I don't wanna go there.
Hi Nqaba. Everything is okay. I have been busy with work.
Thank you for your concern.

I think of putting a smiley face at the end but decide I agaisnt it

since he won't see it. I press send and set my face. I move up
from the mirror and put on a robe and go downstairs. I meet
mom on the lounge.
Melissa: Lucas and Lisa are on their way.
Me: Awesome. So is the cake!
Melissa: The deco is to die for.
Me: I know right. I told you.
Melissa: Well well well.
Me: Where's daddy?
Melissa: Somewhere outside with Peter.
Me: Uncle Peter is here?
Melissa: Ofcourse. Its December, all the McVeighs are here.
Me: Let me go greet them.
Melissa: I will be upstairs getting ready.
I send Mvelo my facebeat picture on my way to greet the
elders.

I am dizzy of hugs and air kisses as I finish greeting. The cake

arrives, I tell them where to put it and go back inside to
change.

Me: The lady of the moment is here. May we all sit down and
be quiet please? Thank you.

"Surpriiiiise!!!!" She runs back to Luc before her brain realize its
us. We laugh.
Me: You can't run away from us.
Lisa: Oh my goodness are you trying to send me to early labor?
I laugh and hug her.
Me: No baby. Aunty is sorry okay my little pumpkin.

Mom brings the sling. She put it on.

Me: Don't cry please.
Lisa: Thank you so much.
Me: Thank your loving husband first. He made this
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we just helped.
She turns to Luc, they hug and kiss. We clap. Love is beautiful
when portrayed right.

I lead them to their table and the fun begins. We ask her the
baby shower questions, we play the games, eat the cake and
then the main course is served. By the time it comes to an end
I'm drunk. I disappear all the way to my room to sleep it off...

...
I'm woken up by noise of people shouting at each other. It is
dark and raining. I get up, close the windows and turn on the
lights. The shouting is still going on. I put on a jacket and walk
out. Its not coming from downstairs but here in one of the
rooms. It is coming from Will's room. The door opens, his wife
storms out. She pushes Liam off her way on the staircase.
Liam: Trouble in paradise?
Me: Looks like it.
Liam: No woman can ever stand Will's stinking attitude. Until
he fixes that about himself, he'll keep divorcing and marrying
again.
Me: He shouldn't hear you say that.
Liam: He knows it too. There's someone outside here to see
you.
Me: Who?
Liam: I forgot his name. Can I borrow your navy gown?
Me: Yes Liam but return it to my room when you're done with
it.
Liam: Ofcourse.

He walks into my room while I go to meet the unknown person.

I look around but no one is here. I head back inside.
Liam: Outside the gate.
Me: Why didn't you just say that at first?
Liam: I forgot.

I sigh and go to wear the rain coat and boots. The elders don't
even know we exist. They are in the lounge before the fire
place asking Luc and Lisa questions. I don't wish to be them
right now.

I find Bheki Ncube inside the car. I take off the coat and hop in.
We stare at each other, he leans over to kiss me, I let him. I
missed him, I missed the taste of stimorol in his lips, I missed
how his kisses are always tender and heartfelt.

I take off the boats and climb on him. We continue to kiss until I
take my hand down to his trousers. He breaks the kiss and grips
my hand away.
Bheki: Lexi Me: Please. Bheki: Not like this.
Me: I'm not a virgin, you that right? He nods.
Bheki: Not like this. I miss you.
I sigh. He kisses my collarbone.
Bheki: And I love you. I am going to do everything in my power
to make my home bearable for you.
I smile. Bheki: Please kiss me again.
He puts both his hands on my butt and we kiss again.
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Finally we're going home. Although life here is easy but it is not
as bearable as it is at home. Being around everything that I
would have had it not been for the Ncube people was really
torture. Seeing women my age drive beautiful cars and be who
they want to be really broke my heart each time I saw them.

I put my suitcase aside and sit down to breastfeed Zwelethu. I

text Bheki that we are ready. He has been staying over at Lexi's,
I don't know if my fear of the Ncubes got better of me or what
but I feel for her. I wish I had a way to help Bheki, myself and
her to free away from the evil grip of his parents.

My phone rings. I clear my throat and answer.

Me: Mother.
Makhumalo: Mama ka Zwe. What is it that I hear about you
coming back?
Me: Because its Christmas next week ma.
Makhumalo: Hhaisuka wena. Stay there with your husband and
your child. Bheki won't be off during the holidays until the 2nd
of January. If you leave him, are you leaving him to be with that
skank?
Me: Ofcourse not ma. She's old news.
Makhumalo: Stay there and look after your man. Where is he?
Put him on the phone.
Me: He's downstairs. Let me take the phone to him.

I put her on hold and call Bheki. He answers within a minute.

Bheki: Hello
Me: She wants to speak to you.

I emerge the calls and they talk.

Can this woman die already?...

***
ALEXIS

Bheki gets off the call and comes back to bed. We have this
crazy tendency of just looking at each other and smile.
Bheki: We should wake up and go get food.
Me: Yes we should but I just need a nap.
Bheki: You're so lazy.

My phone beeps. That better be not Nqaba. I have blocked him

on 4 of his numbers. I am having a blissful week and I can't let
him ruin that for me.

Honey we're coming to have breakfast there. Croissants stuffed

with cheese and bacon?

I jump out of bed.

Me: My parents are coming!
Bheki: I told you.

He jumps up and reach for his clothes while I run around like a
headless chicken. I collect the rubber wrappers, if my mom can
know I'm having sex she'll never let me hear the end of it.
Bheki: If your father finds me here. He's gonna kill me.
Me: He won't.
He takes his phone and head out with me behind. He doesn't
like the idea of sleeping here because of such situations but we
can't always invade his brother's place. I don't feel
comfortable.

I press the button for him and take my kiss.

Bheki: I will see you when I return from home.
Ouch there's that!
Me: When?
Bheki: Can you not make that face please? I will drive back
tomorrow evening after I have rested.
Me: Ok. Travel safe.
Bheki: I love you.
He brings me closer to him.
Me: I love you too.
He kisses my forehead.
Bheki: I will call you later.
Me: Okay.
I hug him. The lift doors part, I let go and he goes in and waves
a low goodbye. Every time he leaves it feels like I'll never see
him again.

I clean up in the meantime. I even get to bath and change. They

arrive when I am just about to make myself breakfast.
Me: I thought you were not coming anymore.
Melissa: Its holidays. The waiting is 10x more. How are you
we missed you.
I hug each of them and take out plates.
Me: I missed you too.
Marcus: Baby at some point you'll have to tolerate being
around your relatives.
Me: 24, 25, 26 until new year I will be around them. I needed
this one week to myself.
Melissa: This time around we are going to Britney's for a
change.
Me: Oh God save us.
Marcus: I thought you'd be happy we're not hosts.
Me: uh-uh. Britney is a worst cook. She will feed us sea food or
even worse those Chinese foods.
They laugh.
Melissa: What is wrong with my kids! Lucas said the same thing.
We asked her to prepare things that everyone eats.
Me: I'll bring a lunchbox, just in case.

Dad raise a brow at me. I hold both their hands and close my
eyes. We say grace and start eating.

...
After my parents left I drove to Mikes. Now I'm here waiting for
him to come rescue me. I keep trying his phone to no avail.

He calls back as I am about to drive off.

Me: Are you trying to kill me?
Mike: Sorry this thing was dead. Are you still here?
Me: Yes.
Mike: Ok I'll call them to let you in.
Me: Your complex sucks broe.
Mike: Its called safety!
Me: Safety my ass.

He hangs up. After a couple of minutes I'm let in. I park at

visitor's parking lot and get my ticket.

I fly in and freeze when I see a woman standing behind the

counter in only her bralette. I clear my throat and close the
door.
Me: Hi.
She huffs and rolls her eyes
Her: Ever heard of knocking?
Me: Yeah. Sorry.

I go out and knock. Mike opens the door.

Mike: Hey!
We hug.
He pulls my hand to the kitchen area. I'm avoiding eye contact
with this woman.
Mike: This is my best friend-
Her: Alexis McVeigh. I know her; we know each other.
Me: I swear to God I've never saw you anywhere.
Her: Its a norm. You assaulted me you hoodrat!
Mike: Whoa. What? Sweetie I've got to get you home.
Her: What? Because of her.
Mike: No. Because I don't wanna see you both fighting. Please
go dress up.

She slams the knife against the counter and shake her little ass
away.
Me: wtf! Is this Tasha?

I mime.
Mike: Hell no. I won her from the club.
He mimes back.
Me: Oh my God you're such an asshole.
She comes back. She stops Mike when he tries to walk her out.
Her: I know my way home asshole.

She slams the door behind her.

Me: What the hell Mike. You're cheating on Tasha?
Mike: Tasha doesn't wanna be with me cause I'm a hoe.
Me: And you didn't wanna prove it to her that you're not?
Mike: I am a proud hoe Alexis. I love her yes but that doesn't
mean I will stop being a hoe. I breathe hoeness. I'm a proud
hoeman.
Me: I am so disappointed in you.
Mike: You aren't the first one. Hungry?
Me: No Mike! Why won't you change for her?
Mike: Because my mind hasn't told me to.
Me: Wow Mike.
Mike: How are things going with your psychopath captain?
Me: Everything seems good for now.
Mike: how's the sex? I know you've done it.
Me: What if we have? Its great.
Mike: Is he circumcised?
Me: Micheal!
He laughs.
Mike: I'm asking. I'm concerned about your health.
Me: Well he is and we are using a condom.
Mike: We must throw him a party. Most of my black friends,
Zulu aren't circumcised.
Me: He is and his sex is good. I was expecting the worst but he
is good.
Mike: Minus one problem.
Me: Yes I guess.

I receive a text from him saying they are not leaving anymore. I
smile. That means I get to spend the rest of this day with him.
Mike: I hate this sight.
Me: Don't be jealous. You were smiling at your phone not so
long ago and I was happy for you.
Mike: I hate Bheki. I wish he could get eaten by a giant bear.
I gasp and laugh.
Me: What did he ever do to you?
Mike: He arrested me! Now I hate his dick for making you
forget he put me in a cell for nothing.
Me: But he apologized.
Mike: 'Sorry mfana womlungu' is not an apology sister. He's full
of it.
Me: Leave my man alone.
Mike: Heaven open the gates and take me. My man? What the
hell!
Me: Mike stop it.
Mike: Let's go to Tasha's. You'll tell her how much I can't
breathe without her. I miss her.
Me: Why can't you tell her yourself?
Mike: Alexis your psycho boyfriend arrested me for nothing.
You owe me, let's go.

...
We arrive at Tasha's. I take him there and beg her to let him in
until she gives in. I leave them there and go stay in the car.
I call Mvelo. She tells me about her Christmas recipe and how
much she wish it was next year already.
Me: Uhm babe. Can I call you back? There's a call coming
through.
Mvelo: If its Bheki emerge the calls.
I answer and emerge them.
Me: Hey
Bheki: Can we meet?
Me: Where are you?
Bheki: At my house.
Me: You want me to come there?
Bheki: No. We'll meet somewhere, a restaurant maybe.
Me: Tell me which one and I'll come.
Bheki: Ok.

He hangs up.
Mvelo: Is me or he sounds down?
Me: He does. I have a bad feeling about this meeting.
Mvelo: Tell me how it goes.
Me: I will babe. Bye.
Mvelo: Bye hun.

...
An hour later we meet at McDonald's near my place. The look
on his face scares me. I hop in and greet him.
Bheki: I ordered us food.
Me: I'm not hungry. What's up?
His eyes drop.
Bheki: My parents are coming here for Christmas.
Me: That means you won't be able to see me.
Bheki: Yes but this is gonna be the last time they ever tell me
what to do. I'm asking you to please bear with me this just one
week and I promise when I return I will be all yours.
Me: Whatever it takes.
Bheki: Thank you for understanding. I love you Sabathile.
Me: I will believe that after one week.
Bheki: We will call and text every minute. Please spend the
night at my place tonight.
Me: I will.
Bheki: I might be disowned for this but you're worth it.
I nod. He wipes my tears with his thumb.
Bheki: I'm gonna fix this. I promise.
Me: Ok.

He pulls me towards his chest. I wish today was the day he was
free....
30
Jingle bells! Jingle bells! I hate Christmas. Christmas is eating
food prepared by mom. Her food has magic to always make me
hate Christmas a little less. Today I will hate it even more.

Its been 2 days since I saw Bheki. I am trying to not dwell much
on our situation but it gets hard in some hours. I just feel like
crying and giving up. I respond to texts, wish him a merry
Christmas too and then I respond to everybody else before I
climb out of bed.

I make my bed and clean up the entire room. I have gotten

pretty good at this. The look on mom's face when she gets in
confirms it.
Melissa: Wow. I actually came here to make your bed.
Me: Wow I'm hurt.
I dramatically hold my chest. She laughs.
Melissa: Let's go eat. We should leave around 9 or 10am.
Me: Is it pancakes topped with cream and berries?
Melissa: It's a new recipe. Not really new but its different frim
what we usually eat on Christmas mornings.
We find dad about to come up.
Marcus: Lisa and the baby are impatient.
Me: I forgot they are here.
I laugh and rush to the dining area. I hug her from behind and
kiss her cheek. Wow this table is full of everything.
Me: How are you babies?
Lisa: We are fine. Someone keeps me awake all night with
movements.
Me: That's a good sign right?
Lucas: Yes it is.
Marcus: So, you want the gender to be a surprise?
Luc: Yes. Mom are you sure you want us to eat at Britney's?
Melissa: You will eat cause they will serve the meals at 1pm to
2pm.
Marcus: Get my lunchbox ready.

We laugh and hold hands to pray. The prayer takes longer than
usual, the smell of fresh toast keeps tingling my nose. I forgot
my phone upstairs. Mom would freak at me if I went to get it,
shall Bheki or Mvelo or Mike call they will have to call me again
later.

We start piling our plates up suggesting baby names. I do not

want to be Lisa right now. The look on my parents face says:
We're about to invade your lives like never before!

They are so inlove with the idea of having a grandchild...

...
The traffic heading to Britney's house kills me. When we arrive,
Aunt Mary sends me and Liam to go get more refreshments
from the mall. These rich people's places are always far away
from malls. Luckily for us there's a little shopping center not so
far away. We get in his car and drive away.
Liam: I hope its not packed cause if it is I will not even bother
going in.
Me: Do you want your mother to kill us?
Liam: This was just a way of getting rid of us. Britney knew from
October that she will be hosting. Why wouldn't she have
enough refreshments?
Me: You think? Well that's good cause I also don't wanna be
around them.
Liam: They are all so self righteous. They treat marriage more
important that it actually is. They should let us marry out of our
own will. They keep divorcing and marrying again because they
get married for the sake of being married. It sucks.
Me: It totally does. One day they will realize there's change in
generations. Ours needs people to choose carefully who they
marry, before 25 years of age you're still young and very-

I swear to God that man standing there with 2 women seated

beside him is Bheki Ncube. As we get closer a man comes out
and hands him a baby.

What is that? I turn to look when we pass them. There's smoke

coming within them. They all bow down. Could that be his
child? And his parents and his wife? He never told me he lives
here.

Liam: Lexi!
Me: Yes!
I snap.
Liam: Are you okay?
Me: I'm fine. How far are we?
Liam: 5 minutes.
Me: Okay.
Liam: Are you sure you're okay?
Me: Yes Liam I'm fine.
Liam: Ok no need to shout.

I take out my phone and call him. It goes to voicemail. I feel

hot.

When Liam pulls up at the parking lot I spot the restrooms. I

hop out and run there. I get in and drink water and suppress
the urge to cry but why not? I let out a groan one after
another.

Liam: I'll be here.

He shouts from inside. I satisfy myself with crying. My make up
is ruined. I take a tissue and clean the mascara black trails.
Me: Let's go.
Liam: Feel better?
Me: A bit.
Liam: Great.

We go to Checkers and buy the drinks. Its not packed so in a

few minutes we are out.
Liam: I think we should grab zinger wings for the road.
Me: I need something strong.
Liam: Open one of the bottles we bought.

I reach for a bottle of wine. I close my eyes and drink up. We

buy the wings via the drive through and head back.
Liam: Wings deal with boy problems better.
I laugh. I just want this wine to kick in before we pass by that
house.
Me: Isn't there a different route we can use?
Liam: Was that him?
Me: Yes. Its complicated.
Liam: Sure as hell it is. What were they doing there?
Me: I am as clueless as you.
Liam: This route takes a little longer but let's take it.
Me: Thanks.

The bottle is finished when we get to the house. She invited her
rich young and married friends. There's something about young
married people that doesn't sit well with me.
Catherine: Alexis. Look at you. Your husband us definitely
treating you good. You are beautiful.
That's it right there! They are always assuming everyone is
married.
Me: Still not married.
They gasp.
Molly: What are you waiting for?
Me: A man. I can't marry myself.
Catherine: You must go out more often.
Me: I will. How much was your ring? Its so beautiful.
She smiles and look at it. If you want to shift attention from
yourself just ask about their outfit or their ring.
Catherine: a hundred thousand maybe. I can't really
remember.
Molly: My engagement ring was 80 000 and this one was 200
000.
So If I could steal both their rings I'd walk away with so much
money? Interesting. Where's mom? I'm hungry.

I leave them there still discussing their rings. I look for mom but
find another bottle of red wine instead. I take it to a secret spot
and drink my sorrows down. My head is spinning now, just
what I needed. I keep collecting the bottles of wine until I
decide to stop.

Liam finds me in my car.

Liam: You're really wasted. Come
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lunch is ready.
Me: I don't want food.
Liam: You have to eat.
He opens the door and pull me out. We argue all the way to the
back. She outdid herself with decorations. We sit down.
Will: You guys are always late for everything, aren't you?
Liam: Proudly so. May we say grace?
We all hold hands.
Liam: Heavenly father we thank you for this day. We thank you
for this food, we hope its delicious as it looks, may you make
McVeighs stop obsessing about marriage. Merry Christmas and
Happy Birthday Jesus. We love you. Amen.

He's definitely going to hell for this prayer. We dish up. It smells
nice and surprisingly taste good too. I take a picture and send it
to Mvelo.

My mind travels back to Bheki. I decide to text him...

***
BHEKI
Zwelethu finally falls asleep. I take him to the crib in the lounge
where baba and mama are seated.
Makhumalo: See? Was that too hard?
Me: No.
Ncube: I hope this cleansing was the beginning of a beautiful
bond between you two.
Makhumalo: Ofcourse it is baba. All that is left is for you and
MaNgema to bond the same.
Me: That's what I don't get. What bond?
Ncube: To build a home ndodana.
Me: Whose home? Isn't this Khuselo's wife? Why am I expected
to be building bonds and homes with my brother's wife? What
about my home?
Makhumalo: Not this again.
Ncube: The sooner you accept that you can't live a normal life
that you desire, the better.

He balanced with his walking stick to get up.

Me: Maybe I'm done being controlled by you both. I am sick
and tired of it.
He turns and look at me.
Ncube: You are tired of being a Ncube?
Me: Yes. I am tired to be your son. I am tired of being
blackmailed to do anything.
Makhumalo: Bhekisizwe!
Me: I am tired of you shoving Khuselo's life down my throat. I
get it you loved him, you only acknowledged my existence after
he died but I will never be Khuselo. I am not fit enough to be
the next ruler of the village; I can't be with his wife. I have a
life! I have a woman. My woman that I love, my skinny jeans
wearing girlfriend that I would love to marry one day but who
would love and marry a man that has two lives? You have
ruined my life its enough and it ends here!
Ncube: Take those words back!
Bheki: No.
Makhumalo: Bheki this is your father you're talking to.
Me: I doubt it. My own parents would want what's best for me.
Let the poor woman go and fetch her life. I will raise Zwe on my
own.
Ncube: He has lost his mind. The village needs a ruler.
Me: I'm not gonna be it! I have respected you enough and
you've done nothing but used that into advantage.

My phone rings. I take it out. Its Alexis. I answer.

Me: Sabathile.
She giggles.
Lexi: I'm outside.
Me: Outside what?
Lexi: Your beautiful house.
Me: Have you been drinking?

The line dies. I leave the wicked parents looking at each other.

She is indeed here sitting on her car's trunk. She smiles when
she sees me. She's also crying.
Lexi: The most beautiful man on earth.
Me: Have you been drinking?
Lexi: Yes. I have problems. What were you doing here earlier?
Was that your kid?
I frown.
Me: It was cleansing.
Lexi: Did you sleep with her?
Me: No.
Lexi: Liar! Why would you cleanse anything then?
Me: Because I never welcomed him. Can I take you home?
Lexi: Why? You don't want mommy and daddy to see you with
your half black girlfriend? Buy me the cape then so that I can be
their best idea of a wife. Buy me a freakin doek or long skirts
and dresses. Let go of me!

I put her inside the car and walk around to the driver's door.
She gets out as I get in.
Me: Alexis I'm not playing with you.
Lexi: Take me in there right now and let me tell your mother
and father they can't choose you a wife. You're a grown ass
man for Christ's sake, you love me and you need to tell them.
Me: I did. Now get in!
Lexi: No! I want to...oh my God I feel like I'm gonna be sick.
She rushes to the other side of the road and throw up. I call
Gugu to bring me water.
Lexi: Fuck you Britney with your chilli chicken!

I laugh. I am looking forward to seeing her drunk in our home,

cursing at our children...
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My personal cellphone rings while I am on call with a Western
cape businessman that I've been trying to reach for the past 2
months.

Him: Are you busy Miss McVeigh, perhaps we can schedule.

Me: No no no. I'm sorry about that.
Him: Great. I am very fascinated that a very young lady as you
has chosen to take interest in business people's daily lives.
Me: Thank you. I just feel like the world needs to know that you
have lives outside those expensive suits.
He laughs.
Him: Ofcourse we do. I will be waiting on the date of the shoot
and the interview.
Whew! I need some air!
Me: Thank you Mr Harris. I will email all the details to your pa.
Thank you so much.
Him: Have a lovely day Miss McVeigh.
Me: I sure will. Thank you. You have a great one too.
I hang up. Keep it down Lexi. Keep it down. I can't!

I scream. Kate and Thabi get in running.

Me: We're flying to Cape Town.
Kate: No fucking way!
Me: Yes!

They come over my desk to do a group hug.

Me: We are making it ladies.
Thabi: Look at God.
Kate: We better deliver these news to Will as hot as they are.
Me: How could we not. Let's go.

Marcus McVeigh decided to resign in January, with immediate

effect. Talking about he's old, he wants to rest and stuff. I found
out the following month that it was all an excuse. Him and his
wife decided to explore Africa, wasting the money we work
hard for. Only God knows when they will be back. So we are all
left to deal with William and Kelly. They made sure Liam
doesn't become the ceo here
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they took him to the branch in Durban that Will was in.

Dad found his PA another job somewhere else. Will came with
his stupid; full of herself Lorraine. I knock once at her door.
Lorraine: He's busy.
Me: Schedule us for when he's free.
Lorraine: Monday.
Me: Sad. Tell him we got Harris.
She busts her gum bubble and nods.

Kate: She irritates me. I just can't deal with her. I can't.

She says as we walk away.

Me: Atleast we'll see them all again on Monday.
Thabi: Including you.
Me: Yes.
Kate: I'm also flying to KwaZulu today.
Thabi: I so want a lover right now. You guys make me jealous.
Me: You dumped a woman that loved you.
Thabi: She bored me. I want an exciting lover. Someone who
makes it easy to be with them. Someone who doesn't just feed
me love all the time but feeds me all the benefits of being
loved. Okuhle only focused on loving me. We only went out
once. Who wanna be in that sick relationship?
Kate: Not me.
Me: Eww me too. But you could've taught her how to not give
love only.
Thabi: I tried! She's stubborn. So not my type.

She's so choosy. Since my relationship became stable we made

arrangements of me going to his house every Friday. I can see
my friends all I want mid-week but weekends are his. Mike has
finally accepted. Mvelo showed no problem at all.

We part ways to our respective offices. They share an office

and doesn't seem to mind. I pack my things and wait for 4
o'clock. I use the remaining 30 minutes to check my emails.

...
I find Tasha and Mike invading my place. Yes they are back
together again, for the 200th time.
Mike: We thought we could come see you before you went to
your home.
Me: Hi Tasha.
Tasha: Hey. I hope you don't mind I made juice.
Me: I do mind. Where did you get this crazy guy?.
Tasha: Hey came unannounced in my place.
Mike: Uhm Hi fam. Its my birthday next weekend. Can you ask
your psycho boyfriend to borrow us you next weekend?
Me: He says no. I got Harris.
Mike: What! Come here.

We hug.
Mike: We'd go celebrate.
Me: We'll celebrate after the interview.
Mike: Awesome. Let us bounce.
Me: Tasha babes. Thanks for coming to see me for 5 minutes.
She smiles and we hug.
I walk them to the lift. I check if Bheki had replied to my
messages. He hasn't. He must be having a hectic day today.

I go to take a bath and pack. As it gets darker, I drive to his

house. My phone rings. I put the earpiece that Bheki bought me
for safety! He's fined me for speeding and breaking all the road
rules. I am as straight as a ruler now. I answer.
Me: Hey babe.
Mvelo: Have you left?
Me: Yeah I just did. Need something?
Mvelo: Yes you. We need to talk.
Me: You're scaring me.
Mvelo: Please drive here.
Me: Ok.

I take a u turn. What does she need to talk about now? I am

praying that man did not hit her.
I inform Bheki that I'm gonna arrive late when I get to Mvelo's. I
find her cooking, this husband life kinds of sucks.
Mvelo: That was quick.
Me: I was on the road.
Mvelo: Wine?
Me: No. Just tell me what we need to talk about.
Mvelo: It needs a glass of wine. Sit down.

I have a feeling I'm not gonna like this. I take a seat, she hands
me a glass of wine and sits down too. She looks at me for a
while.
Mvelo: There is no easy way to say this.
Me: Are you pregnant?
Mvelo: No! Jesus. I'm moving to KZN.

I chuckle and take a sip. She keeps her straight.

Me: Why?
Mvelo: Because Nduna's work transferred him there.
Me: What about your life here?
Mvelo: I asked for a transfer at work too.
Me: That means you've known for 2 months that you're
leaving.
She nods. Wow. What has this friendship become?
Mvelo: I'm sorry.
Me: Its fine. Go well.

I get up.
Mvelo: Alexis wait.
Me: I mean it. Have a great time and life with your husband.
Mvelo: Lexi we're old. I don't even get to see you on weekends
anymore. There arw people we put first now.
Me: I've never put Bheki first before you. I agreed to his
arrangement because I don't get to you see you. If I see you it is
a lucky charm.
Mvelo: Don't cry please.
Me: I don't want to but it really hurts to see you slipping
through my fingers. Its even worse that I can't do anything
about it.
I storm out with her following me calling my name. I get into
my car and drive off...

***
MVELO

I watch her car fade away. Nduna hugs me from behind.

Nduna: She will come around.

I free away from him and go back inside crying.

Nduna: Baby
Me: No!
Nduna: You're married. She's not. Those friendships tend to die
at some point.
Me: That's the thing. This isn't just friendship. It is sisterhood. I
love her and that look I just saw on her face means she's
hurting and might get a car crash! I hurt my bestfriend!

I take my phone and call Bheki. He doesn't pick up. I take my

car keys.
Nduna: where are you going?
Me: To Lexi Nduna.

He brushes his face and take the keys.

Nduna: I'll drive you.

***
BHEKI

I find a car parked before my gate. I take out my gun and park
behind it. I get out and go to knock at the window. Its Mvelo
and her husband.
Me: Is everything okay?
Mvelo: Please let us in. We've been here for 2 hours. She won't
talk to me.

I nod and open the gate. They drive in and I follow. The house is
dark. I turn on the lights. She's curling up on the couch crying.
Mvelo runs to her.
Mvelo: Babe I'm sorry.
Lexi: Leave Mvelo. Why aren't you on the plane to KZN?
Mvelo: I am sorry for not telling you on time.
Lexi: There's nothing that you gonna say and make something
better about this. You're choosing a man over me! How long
has he been here? A year? And now he's greater than all of us?
Nduna: You guys are old. You won't always be wrapped around
each other's fingers. Just-
Them: Shut up!

I look at him. Why is he even meddling?

Me: Let's give them some space.
Lexi: What if he gets there and kills you?
Nduna: What? Please talk to your woman.
Me: Mvelo says horrible things about me but I've never told
you to talk to her. Just let them shout at each other. Why do
you even want Mvelo to go to Durban?
We head to the bar.
Nduna: Because she has to learn to live without Lexi.
Me: Why? She's her bestfriend.
Nduna: So what's gonna happen? We gonna be neighbours?
Me: If that's what will make them happy.
Nduna: Bakushaye ngepenti wena. Unakho ukudla la kwakho?
Ngilambile. (You've been hit with an underwear. Do you have
food here? I'm hungry)

He wanders off. I do not like this dude....

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Returning from the mall I find her still in bed. Seems like she
woke up, cleaned and went back to bed.
Me: Ngibuyile. (I'm back)
She sits up right and stare at me.
Me: Lets go make breakfast.
I smile to soften her up. Her argument with Mvelo did not reach
a solution. Nduna did not help by meddling.

We get to the kitchen silently. I make toast and cheese. We eat

in silence.
Me: I'm gonna be off on Monday. Are you gonna come back
here after work?
Lexi: Yeah. Next weekend I will come on Sunday so Monday will
make up for Saturday.
Me: Going somewhere?
Lexi: Yes. Its Mike's birthday.
Me: Ok.
Lexi: Just like that?
Me: Yes.
She smiles surprised.
Lexi: Ok. Wow. Are you sure?
Me: Yes I'm sure.
Lexi: God I love you. That was me trying you out. Unbelievable.
Me: What you wanna do today?
Lexi: Uhm, movies?
Me: Sounds like fun but no. How about festival mall? Play
games?
Lexi: No problem. Let me rinse these and go bath.
My phone rings. I stare at it. I haven't spoken or seen her in 4
months. What could she possibly want?
Me: Ok. Let me take this.

I walk away to the pool side and wait for her to call again. She
calls instantly and I answer.
Me: Mashobane.
Makhumalo: He needs to talk to you.
Her voice is so down and husky like she's been crying.
Me: Who?
I bring myself back to earth. The only he, she could be talking
about is my father.
Me: Put him on the phone.
Makhumalo: Face to face. Your father ill Bhekisizwe. He has
been ill for 3 months, things are not getting any better. He can't
speak, doesn't eat, he ordered not to be taken to the hospital.
He keeps mentioning you. You need to come home.
Me: I-
The line dies. I call her back, it goes to voicemail. Why wouldn't
they let me know he's sick from the start?

I head back inside.

***
ALEXIS

'You can't ignore my calls forever Alexis. We need to talk about

this!'
The nerve of this woman for putting an exclamation mark. I toss
the damn phone away and apply lotion. Bheki walks in, he
doesn't look good.
Me: Is everything okay?
He shakes his head and opens the closet.
Bheki: I need to go home.
Me: Home?
Bheki: My father is not well and he needs me.

He takes out his travel bag and put in just 3 jackets.

Me: You're leaving now?
Bheki: Yes.
Me: I'm coming with you.
Bheki: No.
He zips his bag closed and comes to kiss me.
Bheki: I'll call you.

What? I freeze on my feet and watch him walk out.

After 5 minutes of my confusion. I go over the window and see
his car drive away from the gate. What the hell is going on?

I take my phone call him.

Bheki: Babe.
Me: Don't babe me. You can't drive in that state!
Bheki: I'll pass by UJ and take Qophelani. He'll be the one
driving.
Me: Why can't I come with?
Bheki: I don't want to upset him. Please understand.
I keep quiet for a while.
Me: I do.
Bheki: Thank you. I love you.
Me: I love you.

I hang up and take a deep breath as I hold back the tears.

'Do you still wanna talk? How about Parkview hotel?'

I send to Mvelo...

***
MVELO

He gets in panting. I take my car keys and walk towards him.

Nduna: Going somewhere?
Me: Yep. Parkview hotel, Lexi wants us to talk finally.
Nduna: Don't we have anything important to do?
Me: Not that I know of. I will be back before the sun sets.
Nduna: You and Lexi are bad for each other's lives. Why is this
such a big deal to her? You're friends!
Me: You wouldn't understand.

I kiss him and walk to the garage...

On my way she texts me the room number. When I get there I

find her standing near the TV with a remote in her hand. She
doesn't even notice me.
Me: Hey.
She turns my way.
Lexi: Hey. Can you believe this? Bonisiwe's lawyer is asking for
medical parole.
Me: What? They must be crazy. Did your lawyer call you about
this?
Lexi: No. Probably called my parents.

She switches off the tv.

Lexi: Justice system is such a joke. That woman could be faking
sickness for Christ's sake!
Me: Calm down please.
Lexi: I need to call mom.

She wants to cry. If her mom answers that call she'll break
down, I can't let that happen
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not before we talk.
Me: Let me call her.
Lexi: I need some air.
I nod. She walks to the window while I ring Mrs McVeigh up.
She doesn't pick up.
Me: She's not picking up.
Lexi: I'd be damned if I ever crossed paths with that woman. I'd
rip her apart with these hands. She ruined my life! My own
mother, doing that shit to me? I will never recover from that
fact. Ever!
Me: Come here.

We hug. I let her cry until I cry too. It must be really hard for
her. I know she tends to act strong but I know this hits her
randomly at night and it will happen until she dies.

After we cool off. We order some snacks and drinks and lay on
the bed.
Me: I wish someone understood our friendship.
She looks at me and smile.
Lexi: I do.
We laugh.
Me: I'm caught in between.
Lexi: You shouldn't be. I am hurt that you did not tell me in
time.
Me: I was scared you'll be sad and say all that you said
yesterday.
Lexi: You know me better than anyone Mvelo, you could've
texted it.
Me: I was scared okay. It honestly feels like I'm choosing him,
the London scholarship that you turned down because of me.
That wss a major sacrifice. You have sacrificed a lot for us Lexi
and for me to tell you that I'm going away with a man felt
wrong.
Lexi: You were sick. You think you owe me?
Me: Yeah.
Lexi: I did that out of love. And me causing a scene was not
about that, I just can't bear the thought of not seeing you for
months.
Me: We can visit each other on weekends...oh no, Bheki. We
will make a way.
Lexi: Nduna was right. We're really old and we should learn to
adjust to some changes.
Me: He annoys me to be honest. The way he said it, it wasn't a
genuine advice.
She laughs.
Lexi: Ofcourse it wasn't but he was right. I guess I'll have to get
over myself. I'm sorry for everything I said. I should also
apologize to Nduna.
Me: I love you.
Lexi: I love you more.

We do a little toast and gulp down our lemon twist.

Lexi: Bheki went home.
Me: When?
Lexi: Today. His father is ill. I could feel trouble brewing.
Me: What kind of trouble?
Lexi: I feel like we're gonna break up again.
Me: Could you stop being negative? Eat your chips. Bheki will
come back to you and kiss you and tell you he loves you.
She laughs.
Lexi: Ok Dr love.
Me: Yes ma'am.

She shakes her head laughing...

***
BHEKI

As the sun sets. We make drive in to the Ncubes. There's a

white flag at the gate. He must be really sick.
Me: Go park before his house.
Qophelani: Why am I so scared?
Me: Me too.

We get out of the car. He remains behind taking our bags. I

wash my hands at the door and walk in.
Me: Ma?
Makhumalo: Ngiyeza! She shouts from the bedroom. I walk up
and down until she comes out. We hug briefly. She is crying.
Makhumalo: We're losing him Bheki.
Me: He will not.

I walk in. He's disappearing on the bed. I stand by the door and
watch him. Tears fall out. He coughs.
Ncube: Bhekisizwe
Me: Baba.
Ncube: Indoda ayikhali.( a man doesn't cry)
Me: I'm not.
Ncube: The time has come for me. Your grandfather is taking
me away to be with them. You and Qophelani will be left to run
this home. I had accepted that you will marry your
Johannesburg woman but fate has it that when your aunt
Badanile fled home, she was pregnant. She gave birth to a baby
girl, Bonisiwe. Bonisiwe is in jail, sick. Sick because her daughter
is sleeping with her relative, the ancestors are fighting her.
Bhekisizwe please tell me she is not pregnant wherever she is

I go down on my butt. I feel sick...

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I don't know what to do. I don't know what to feel. I have been
lying here on this bed staring at the roof, I was able to doze off
for an hour and then I just couldn't sleep anymore until now.

My phone has been ringing in my jacket's pocket. I know its

her. She is probably wondering why am I not taking her calls.
Someone will have to explain to her and that can not be me.
How will I be able to look her and the eye and tell her we're
blood related? What are we gonna do? How are we gonna get
rid of the memories we've created since we met?

The door opens. The light stings my eyes. I shield the light with
my hand. The door closes.
Me: I said no one should disturb me.
Gugu: Well you need to get up and adress the 100s of people
on the tree to hear about your father's health.
Me: Do they not know he's sick? I have a lot to do Gugu.
Gugu: So do we Bheki! Get up and bath and go there.
Me: No.
Gugu: We are all worried about the chief but we still do our
jobs. Suck it up and get up.
Me: Get out.
Gugu: God please help this man. People arw waiting outside
Bheki.
Me: Tell Qophelani to go address them.

She walks out. I get up and walk around in circles. I scratch my

head as hard as I can. I pin my fists against the wall and I
growl...

***
ALEXIS

"Alexis"
Me: What!
I snap and turn to face the door way.
Kate: Whoa chill. I brought the report.
Me: Put it over there.
Kate: Are you okay?
Me: I need to be alone Kate.
Kate: Ok give me a call when you're done proof reading. Will
needs this before the day ends.
Me: Close the door on your way out.

I go back into staring out the window. I take my phone and call
him again. It goes to voicemail this time around.
Me: Bhekisizwe Ncube do not try me. Did your father tell you to
not take my calls? Are you rejoicing with your wife that isn't
your wife? Call me back!

Angry is an understatement. I am fuming, what is so hard about

texting someone and let them know how you went? He has a
lot of explanation to do.

"And why aren't you on your desk?"

I swear to God I'm gonna kill somebody today. I turn my chair
around.
Me: Because I am sitting here.
Kelly: Alexis
Me: Yes Kelly how can I help you?
Kelly: I want to know how you got the approval letter to get
R30 000 from the firms account to book flights and 5 star hotel
in cape town are you shitting me?
Me: Did you just curse Miss Kelly?
Kelly: I asked you a question dammit!
Me: I went to the right people and asked for it.
Kelly: I am the one who issues those. Tell me how did you get
yours?
Me: Because I asked it as your toyboy Holk. You just saw your
lover's signature, you didn't bother to read you just approved. I
wonder how much more money that he wants you've
approved. But don't worry I'll get the right people to check how
much of the McVeighs money you've chowed.
She gulps.
Me: Now if you don't mind. I'd like to get back into staring out
the window.
Kelly: This isn't over.
Me: Ofcourse its not.
I get up and take the report Kate brought. She walks out. I sigh
and lock the door. I take a seat on the couch and read.

I take to Will's office afterwards. I find him on the call. I serve

him the best smile I have and put the file on his desk and run
out before he even tries to stop me and make me engage in a
conversation I'm uninterested in.

I pass by the canteen to get sandwiches. I didn't eat last night

and this morning. Things that man put us through. After full 4
months of everyday communication, he goes home and then
boom he's unreachable.

I find a message notification from him. Finally he remembered I

exit. I view it. Its a bit long. I make coffee and settle down on
my chair and read it: Good morning Alexis. I know you're
mad and I don't blame you. From the first day I laid my eyes on
you, I saw the woman I am willing to spend the rest of my life
with. Remember when I disappeared after we became close?
When I returned I told you I was at home to fix a few things, I
was there to tell my mother I am not gonna be chief and for
them to promise me that Gugu was my only duty and it was a
once off. I wanted to be with you cleanly. I was ready to fight
for us, there is nothing I wouldn't have done for us, even if it
meant cutting ties with my parents forever because you taught
me to stand up for myself, you made me able to stop the
controlling and bullying from them. I am crying
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I am torn, I don't know what to do or say. I have been here in
this room staring into a wall hoping someone is going shake me
and tell me to wake up I'm having a bad dream. Bonisiwe is a
daughter of Danisiwe Ncube, my father's little sister. Bonisiwe
and I are cousins and that makes you my niece. Alexis I'm so
sorry...

From when I read: I was ready to fight for us. I started crying. I
knew it was heading to break up but did not think this would be
a reason. I wipe my face and I take my bag and head out...

***
BHEKI

Gugu gets in with 2 blazers. She is ready. I don't know how she
does this but I need her strength right now. After hours of her
begging me to go out there and address those people, she has
made them food and served them drinks.
Gugu: Navy or black?
Me: Navy.
She hands it over. I put it on and take my phone out to check if
Lexi has responded. I don't know what kind of response I'm
expecting but I'm hoping she says something.

Gugu and I head out to the tree right outside the gate. They all
rise when we approach. I greet them and ask Gugu to open
with prayer. She makes it short and everybody sits down. I keep
standing on my feet, my father's respective chair is the only
option and it's against the law the put my butt in it.
Me: Ehh. Good afternoon everyone. I am very sorry to keep
you all waiting for so long. As all of you know that my father is
ill, things get a bit hectic inside these gates. At this moment
we're trusting on the Lord. As the Ncubes we're asking you to
please help us pray for his recovery. Things are...

I heard mother's cry. Everybody gets up on their feet. I see

guards run into his house. They come out holding black flags,
everybody goes on their knees and bow their heads. He's
gone....

***
ALEXIS

I have been sitting here for the past 45 minutes and I am losing
my patience. Two policemen appear from nowhere.
PM1: Alexis?
Me: Yes?
PM2: Follow us.

I take my bag and follow them until we get into the sick people
area. They let me in and point at her. She's alone in this ward.
Great.
Me: Can you give us some space?
PM1: We'll be watching you over the window.
I nod. They close the door on their way out.
She smiles.
Me: You make me sick you know that?
Bonisiwe: Then why are you here?
Me: What is your surname?
Bonisiwe: Ow? You wanna ditch your dad's? I'm flattered.
Me: Just say it!
Bonisiwe: My mother never did me justice of letting me know
who my father is so I've been a Mathabela, where she married.
Me: What's hers?
Bonisiwe: She's a Ncube but she doesn't like that much. Her
people aren't her favourite.

I walk away from her. Its true.

Bonisiwe: What did your daddy do that makes you wanna
reunite with me?
Me: My dad did nothing you psychopath! You did! You ruined
my life Bonisiwe Ncube.
Bonisiwe: As much as you ruined mine?
Me: I did not tell you to go and date a married man! If you had
been a little woman with morals I wouldn't have been
conceived but you brought me here, you gave me away, why
couldn't you even have the decency to tell my dad who you
really were?
Bonisiwe: Do not judge me Alexis. You yourself had your own
little affair with a married man.
Me: How would I have escaped those genes? I have been
seeing a man Bonisiwe, A Ncube man.

She chokes on her spit.

Bonisiwe: Are you pregnant?

I might be. This tops the list of worst things that have ever
happened to me.
Me: I will never forgive you for this.
Bonisiwe: Sabathile wait!

I run out...
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My alarm goes off at 8am. I turn it off and switch from flight
mode and call Kate.
Kate: Please tell me you're on your way.
Me: I'm not coming.
Kate: What!? Will is breathing fire. He wants that R30 000 back
Lexi.
Me: Tell him we used it.
Kate: Alexis are you hearing me? I'm saying he wants it back. He
doesn't care that we used it. He-wants-it-back!
Me: I'll call him.
Kate: Please do. Thabi please lock the safe.

I hang up and get out of bed. I go to the bathroom first and go

to the lounge to call my dad. I punch his numbers and send the
call through. It rings.
Marcus: Are you okay?
Me: Yes I'm good. How are you?
He sighs in relief.
Marcus: Ok good. I'm okay. You never use the house phone.
Me: I'm out of airtime. Will is giving me tough time.
Marcus: What has he done now?
Me: Remember Mr Harris?
Marcus: Yes.
Me: He agreed that we interview him but in cape town. I
requested R30 000 from the firm account and it was approved,
I didn't use my signature. Now that they know that it was me
who wanted it there's chaos, Will wants it back.
Marcus: Whose signature did you use?
Me: Some guy in the office. I knew Kelly wouldn't approve if I
used mine. Please talk to them.
Marcus: Its illegal to do that Lexi. They have every right to want
it back. I will talk to them, don't ever do that again.
Me: I was desperate I'm sorry. Thank you. Please give mom the
phone.
Marcus: She's at the pool.
Me: So early? Isn't cold there?
Marcus: Heated pool.
Me: Ohh. When are you coming back?
Marcus: When my bank account runs dry.
We laugh.
Me: That means you are not coming back.
Marcus: We will just not soon.
Me: Okay. Enjoy. I love you.
Marcus: We love you more.

I hang up. I lean my head back on the couch. I take my phone to

check time. I get to take a bath...

It is not as packed as I thought. In fact its empty, just 3 people

infront of me. My turn to register comes, I register and go back
to my seat. I plug in my earphones to pass time.

It rings. Its him. I stare at it until it stops ringing. What are we

going to say to each other? I am sitting here in this chair hoping
that my emotions do not get better of me I am not going to let
him make my day harder than it already is.

I hear a voice like Mvelo's speaking. I turn, our eyes meet.

Mvelo: There she is. Thank you.
I get up to meet her halfway.
Me: What are you doing here? Are you okay?
Mvelo: Can we talk outside please?
She pulls me all the way out.
Mvelo: Like really now?
Me: What?
Mvelo: Not answering your calls, ignoring my texts, your phone
off.
Me: Did you also use that crappy app to find me?
Mvelo: What did you want me to do! Why are you here? Are
you sick?
Me: No.

I head to the bench and sit. She follows me.

Mvelo: What's wrong babe? She sits and hug me.
Me: Every thing is wrong Mvelo.

I go to messages and view Bheki's message and give her. I wipe

my tears quickly when I see people approaching. She gasps.
Mvelo: Please tell he's kidding.
Me: He's not. I went to visit Bonisiwe to find out. Its true, Mvelo
I don't know what to do. I'm going through hell, I couldn't sleep
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Mvelo: You think you're pregnant
I bury my head in my hands.
Me: Yes.
Mvelo: Oh my God. This is bad.

"Alexis McVeigh" I raise my head up. It was the secretary.

Her: You're next.
Me: Please come with me.

We head inside. The Dr asks a few questions before he directs

me to the bed. He applied the gel and moved the transducer
around my abdomen. I can't look at the screen. I am scared and
shaking.
Dr: The coast is clear.
Mvelo: Oh thank you Lord.
She squeezes my hand.
Dr: Would you like to do family planning? I can take your blood
samples and find out which one is good for you.
Me: No need.
Mvelo: Lexi.
Me: I will come when it's necessary.
Dr: My door is always open. Take care Miss McVeigh.
Me: Thanks Dr.

We walk out.
Mvelo: He's calling.
Me: Please tell him to never call me again.

She does. I drink water and we walk out.

Mvelo: Are you okay?
Me: No. I'm not good. I need just a minute.
I get in my car and hug the steering and cry. Mvelo opens the
door after some time.
Mvelo: Move. I'll drive.
Me: I wanna go get my stuff at his place.
Mvelo: Then we'll go.
Me: What about your car?
Mvelo: I texted Khuboni to fetch it. I left the keys with the
secretary.

I move to the other side. She hops in and start the car.
Mvelo: Seatbelt on please.
I fasten it and we drive off.

Me: I can't stop crying.

Mvelo: Cry all you want baby. Let it all out You want ice cream?
Me: No.

She turns up the volume and let the air in as she increases the
speed...
***
Its been 4 days. I wish I could say I'm getting better. I'm worse.
Will hasn't made it any better for me. I paid back the money
from my own pocket. Arguing with him was not worth my time.
We're flying to Cape Town later and I really wish we were on
the plane right now. Everything around me in this place
reminds me of him. I shouldn't but I miss him so much.

Mvelo and Mike have been the supportive friends that they are
but there's only one thing that'll make me feel better: It is
seeing him, for the last time. Not say anything but just see him.
I have stopped myself from calling him so many times. He really
stopped calling and that shattered my poor heart.

My house phone rings. I pick it up.

Me: Alexis.
Voice: Morning ma'am. There is a parcel for you here, are you
home?
What? Could I possibly take my house phone away with me
anywhere?
Voice: Uhh I'm sorry about that. Can I bring it up?
Me: Ofcourse.

I hang up and put away the bottles of wine. Its not even 10am
but I'm already on my 3rd. It helps me deal with my life better. I
look at myself on the microwave and go to stand by the lift. It
dings open, I take my parcel and sign and bid him goodbye. I go
over the counter and open it. It is 3 bottles of wine and a single
lily and a note: I know nothing will make it better but this will
try.

I feel tears burn my eyes. I take the flower and smell it. It smells
of Axe, what could be worse than this. I put it aside and take
out the bottle of wine. He bought it last month and hid it away.
He said we'll open it the day he propose. Why is he doing this
to me?

The lift chimes. I turn to find Mike with a bouquet.

Mike: Morning sunshine. Wine? I'm so thirsty.
He comes to me, kisses my forehead and give me the flowers. I
laugh.
Me: Are you shagging someone at a floral shop?
Mike: No. I'm being a gentleman.
Me: Thank you.
Mike: Where are these from? God I've been dying to taste this
Becky red wine. It was limited edition and cost an arm and a
leg.
Me: Bheki sent them.
Mike: Excuse me?
Me: Yes.
Mike: Wow. Salt in a fresh wound.
Me: Tell me about it. Happy Birthday.
Mike: You remembered. Thank you.
I give him a lazy smile.
Me: We can have an early celebration since I won't be here
later. And you can have that Becky red wine as one of your
gifts.
Mike: Are you for real?
Me: Yes I am.
He attacks me with a hug.
Mike: come let's cuddle in the couch and drink all the wine in
this house.
Me: I need to sleep. I've drank 2 bottles already and I'm just
tispy. Danger
Mike: You really need to sleep. That's not good at all.

He accompany me to my bedroom and help me get in bed.

Mike: I'll go get us the kotas downstairs.
Me: I could do with such.
He smiles and walk out. I close my eyes and all I see is us
laughing by the pool challenging each other about eating
lemons. We were finally starting to understand each other. We
were in love. We were building a stable relationship.

This is all on Bonisiwe. She shouldn't have given me away. I

would know my roots, I would've known that Ncube people are
my people. I wouldn't have fallen for a man that is my whatever
that he is. My life wouldn't be such a confusion if she took
responsibility of her actions. I wouldn't be in this bed crying!
Mike: Lexi.
Me: Leave me alone!
I get up.
Me: I'm sorry
Mike: Bheki is here.
I frown.
Mike: I couldn't fight him off the lift I'm sorry.
Me: Let him in.
Mike: Are you sure?
I nod and walk towards the window. I wish my dad had never
agreed to introduce me to the real world. I wouldn't have met
him. I curse the day I saw that poster of a job vacancy.

He clears his throat and closes the door. I want to turn and look
at him but I don't have the power.
Bheki: I just wanted to see you. See if you're okay. From the
deep bottom of my heart I'm really sorry baby. I wish there was
a way to undo all this. I know its hard, its gonna take time to
forget about this but we will be fine. I went to prison yesterday
to ask Bonisiwe some questions. Aunty is still alive, after my
father's burial you will have to come home so we can perform
the cleansing and apologize to the ancestors. I'm moving back
home full time. I am taking the chair, there's no reason for me
to run away from it anymore. Once again, I am really sorry.
Take care of yourself. I...I love you and you know I do. I don't
even know what to do with this love so I'm just gonna keep it
here until mercy comes and save me from myself.

I hear the door open and close again. I sob silently. I cover my
mouth with my hands as I get louder...
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*6 months later*

I swing my chair around. What a good day this is. Pay day has
turned to be my favorite day. The notification of the money in
just makes me wanna wake up and head straight to the mall
not here. The magazine keeps selling like hot pie, we issued our
4th one 2 weeks ago and it didn't last long in the shelves,
apparently people are very much interested about what
happens in the business world. We've made it even more
interesting, we do not only interview them about their business
life. We show interest about their lives off the office and
tuxedos and they are always happy to share with us.

"Can I come in?" Oh and I have a PA now. Carlos, the sweetest

guy ever. He's a professional. I did not know people are
passionate for being personal assistants. I do not see myself
looking forward to plan someone's day but he does, so
beautifully.
Me: Yes please.
He gets in with a paperbag. I sigh. Does this man ever give up?
Carlos: This just arrived.
Me: I couldn't careless honestly. Just toss it away.
Carlos: Are you crazy? There's a note. I'd read it but its written
in Zulu.
Me: Just tear it apart and tell the security to never let that
restaurant people in anymore.
Carlos: Ok. Let me eat this in the meantime.
Me: I'm out of here.

I take my bag and my phone and we walk out. He goes to his

office and I head to the lift. It parts. Mr and Mrs McVeigh step
out and hug me.
Me: Do you have a meeting here?
Marcus: No we're here to eat lunch. Its pay day remember.
Melissa: And we thought you might like to buy us that fried
chicken platter.
Marcus: Not forgetting a bottle of wine.
Me: Ok. Here or you wanna pick a different restaurant?
Marcus: Here.
I press the button on the lift and we wait. This couple is living
their best life. Newly grandparents. They invade their kids
privacy as much as they want and we are letting them because
we love them. I used that time they were away to get a place
and buy it. I haven't moved in but I will soon when I've
informed them. And right now is the good time to inform
them.

We find a table at the far end. My colleagues are still scared of

him so hiding here will save everyone's day. We order the
famous platter and a jug of tropical island juice. Such a mixture
of goodness. It literally give me orgasm.
Marcus: We missed you.
Me: Thank you. I missed you too.
I was with them the day before yesterday.
Melissa: And we love you.
Me: Are you giving me up for adoption?
They laugh.
Melissa: My only girl? I would never. We're so proud of you.
Everything you've become, we never thought you were
capable.
I gasp.
Marcus: Its true. You never wanted to do anything Lexi. So all
this you are, so amazing to see.
I chuckle. I am flattered.
Me: I'm just glad you're proud of me.
Melissa: Cheers.
Us: Cheers.
Me: I bought an apartment.
Them: What?
Me: Yeep. When would you like to go see it?
Marcus: When you knock off?
Me: Perfect.

Our food comes. I keep my smile on as I dig in. I do not even

want to entertain the look on their faces...

...
Finally the day ends. I have no plans except taking the parents
to the apartment. The complex is newly built so I'm hopping
that will be enough to keep their mouths shut. Security is in
check, not my kind of security but enough to satisfy them. I go
to Thabi and Kate to tell them I'm leaving and then back to
Carlos.
Me: What are we doing first thing tomorrow?
Carlos: We're driving to Sandton city to meet Nonhlanhla
Khumalo. The owner of Lucky day hair salon.
Me: Lovely. Thank you. Don't be late.
Carlos: Excuse you?
I laugh. He's never late.
Me: I will not be late.
Carlos: Ofcourse you will not because I worked so hard to get
her time.
Me: Lock up.
Carlos: I will.

I walk away.

My phone rings as I arrive at the complex. I park and answer.

Me: Hey stranger.
Jake: I miss you.
Me: I miss you too.
Jake: I have wine, movies and lasagne that my mother just
brought here. I can't eat it alone.
I snort.
Me: I will come.
Jake: Awesome. Let me go and finish off my work. Call when I
have to fetch you.
Me: I will do. See you later.
Jake: Bye.

In the midst of grieving my deceased relationship. I dedicated

myself to work. I worked harder than before, I hunted down
every business man in town
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Jake being one of them. A week after our interview, he brought
me flowers. We started going out, of which was good for my
heartbreak. I couldn't bear staying at home and think about
Bheki. After the cleansing I changed my numbers. So this man
took care of me for 3 months before we started dating. He's
been patient, sweet and loving. I wouldn't say I love him but we
have a good thing going on.

I call the parents. They say they are in the reception. I go there
and fetch them.
Marcus: So 2 people per block?
Me: No 4.
Melissa: It is beautiful. Good choice.
Marcus: Honey you can't say such things before we see the
actual apartment.
Me: It is new dad.
He shrugs his shoulders.
Marcus: Just saying.

I punch the main code at the block burglar gate and we take the
stairs up.
Marcus: Why did you choose an upper one?
Me: It was available.
Marcus: Mhhh
He's so disapproving of everything!

We reach my door and I unlock. Mom gasps.

Melissa: This is so beautiful baby.
Me: Thank you.
Marcus McVeigh is nowhere in sight. Mom and I explore the
kitchen, not too big nor too small. There's already a counter
with built in stove and a tiny round sink. The cabinets are also
ready.
Melissa: When are you moving in?
Me: After we put in furniture.
Melissa: We?
Me: You and I.
She laughs.
Melissa: I thought there was a man.
Me: No ma there isn't. Lets go to the bedrooms. The ensuite is
so beautiful.
Melissa: They always are.
Its quite spacious. We find dad in there.
Marcus: Its so big. We should build you a walk in closet.
Me: I was thinking of that.
Marcus: You will let us help you decorate?
Me: Yes.

The look on their faces is so priceless. My phone rings.

Me: I need to take this.

I leave them discussing the wall color.

Me: Hey baby.
Mvelo: Love. How are you?
Me: I'm good how are you?
Mvelo: I am good and just saw the news.
Me: She's getting released, isn't she?
Mvelo: She is
Me: So much for justice.
Mvelo: I know right. When are you moving to the new hive?
Me: I'm thinking next month. I am here with the parents.
Mvelo: What did they say?
Me: I did not give them a chance of saying anything. Mom loves
it and I think dad does too but he's just him.
We laugh.
Mvelo: He's very hard. Let me go finish up cooking. Nguquko
and his wife are here.
Me: Send my love.
Mvelo: I will babe. I'll call you later.
Me: Okay.

I hang up. Bonisiwe has been trying to contact me over the

months. I can not find it in my heart to forgive her. Hearing that
she's getting out is what I did not want to hear at all. She
mysteriously became better after the cleansing. I also met her
mother there, we got along just fine even before we were
introduced to each other. We call each other sometimes.

A message comes in: Your mother is coming out of jail and

She's getting divorced.
Its from her. I sigh and respond: I just heard. That's a pity.

Their relationship isn't quite rosy. Bonisiwe is bad on

everyone's book.
I go back to the parents and tell them its time to leave.

We part ways on the freeway. I drive to my place first. I bath

and pack my sleepwear and an outfit for tomorrow. I call Jake
that I'm ready and wait.
After 30 minutes the car arrives. We leave...
It takes another 30 minutes to arrive at his place. I change into
my pyjamas as he warms up the lasagne. I come back and find
him dishing up. He has this weird thing of loving dim lights and
light up two candles. It is romantic if it is done once in a while
not this. Jake: How was work?
Me: Work was fine. How was yours?
Jake: Busy and annoying. My partner's wife is pregnant so I'm
taking care of everything.
Me: He'll return the favor some day.
Jake: When you're pregnant I'll hire someone to help him out.
When I'm pregnant? I clear my throat.
Me: That's thoughtful. Tell him you need someone to help you
out.
Jake: He won't budge. Do you mind meeting my mother?
I chuckle nervously. My phone rings, saving me.
Me: Excuse me.
I take it, I do not recognize these numbers. I answer.
Me: Hello
Voice: Please don't hang up. I sigh.
Me: How can I help you?
Bonisiwe: I need a place to stay. Just for a few days Alexis. I
know this is too much to ask but I have no one.
She sounds so desperate and like she's crying. I feel nothing for
her.
Bonisiwe: Lexi? I know I wronged you but I will not be let out
unless they know where I'm going. My accounts are frozen and
my husband sold his house.
Me: I'll book you a hotel.
Bonisiwe: No no no. I need a home, they'll need you to sign an
agreement that I will be under your supervision. I know I don't
deserve that but I am begging you.
I move the phone off the ear and let out a trembling breath. I
am not like her, I consider other people. I put the phone back
on.
Me: Do I need to come to the prison or they'll come with you?
I hear her sigh in relief. Bonisiwe: You need to come here.
Thank-
I hang up. And get off the chair.
Jake: Are you okay?

He runs after me.

Me: I'm okay! I need some time alone.

I shut the bedroom door on his face...

36
After my meeting with Nonhlanhla Khumalo Jake's driver drives
to my parent's house. Arriving there I find them swimming.
10o'clock in the morning my parents are in a pool.
Me: Really you guys?
Melissa: Its part of exercising.
Me: I see.

They come out. Atleast they still care about my existence.

Marcus: Shouldn't you be at work?
Me: I should be but I was on an interview so I passed by here
cause there's something I'd like us to discuss.
Melissa: Sounds serious. Come, have you eaten?
Me: Yes but if you gonna offer me food yes please.

She laughs. She's genuinely happy. My dad sure knows how to

make it up to his woman. I bet she still remembers he cheated
on her with that ostrich Kelly. We get to the kitchen, she take
out scones and orange juice, perfect. We sit around the
counter.
Melissa: Stop flipping your hair.
Marcus: Its too wet.
Melissa: A towel is on the chair behind you.
Marcus: Sorry we didn't see it.
She rolls her eyes.
Melissa: What did you want to talk about?
Me: Bonisiwe. She's getting released.
Melissa: What?
Dad clears his throat.
Us: You knew?
Marcus: Yes. I didn't wanna ruin your moods.
Me: Well she called me last night. She asked me for a place to
stay.
Marcus: She's a nuthead.
Mom eyes him and then turn to me.
Melissa: What did you say?
Me: I agreed but I am here to make sure if you guys are cool
with that since we'll be at the penthouse.
Marcus: The one that I bought? I am hoping you're not talking
about it. Why would you even agree? This woman almost
ruined your life beyond repair Alexis! Where's her fellow crook
husband?
Me: She's getting divorced. Her accounts are frozen.
Marcus: Good riddance to bad rubbish.
Melissa: Marcus! Are you sure about agreeing?
Me: I don't know. I am doing what feels right at this moment.
Marcus: Feels right? Are you on drugs?
Me: Dad please. If you disagree just say so stop shouting.
Marcus: I am disagreeing.
Me: Mom?
Melissa: I am saying let's get her a flat to stay at. She's in need
and we can afford to help her.
Marcus: Its not only the daughter under the influence of a
dangerous substance but her mother too. Why are we bringing
her into our lives?
Melissa: You brought her first. At least Alexis had the decency
to let us know.
Ouch. He tries to speak but stops and fold his arms.
Melissa: We'll look for a flat for her while she stays in the
penthouse and you can come here if you'll be uncomfortable to
be around her.
Me: Thank you.
Marcus: I hope nobody comes to me when she brings you both
trouble.

He gets off the chair and leaves.

Melissa: Don't mind him. Did she say when she's coming out?
Me: Apperantly there's some paperwork involved. I have to sign
as her new guardian.
Melissa: Ok. Let's pray she doesn't make us regret this.
Me: Are you sure you wanna get involved? No pressure. I can
handle it all by myself.
Melissa: Yes I am sure. Your father has money enough to rent
her a flat in Sandton city.

I nod and we continue eating in silence....

The first thing I see when get to the office is Kelly's face. Why is
Precious not at her desk?
Me: Good day.
Kelly: Hi. I'm looking for a stapler, mine broke and I can't find
Precious's.
Me: Maybe she-
Precious: Miss Alexis, Miss Kelly.
Kelly: Hiii! I'm looking for a stapler.
Kelly: Its next to the pc
Kelly: Ohh. I must get my eyes checked.
She smiles and goes away. I look at Precious.
Precious: She was here to look for the file that Will told me to
mail. I think there's trouble in paradise.
Me: Tough luck.
Precious: I was at your office to deliver your parcel.
Me: From?
Precious: Secret admirer. I wish a had someone so constant. 4
months, everyday there's a parcel.
Me: You can have those parcels cause I really do not want
them.
Precious: Are you for real?
Me: Yes.

I clock in and head to the lift.

I greet Carlos and go on. I find a bunch of lollies. These are

definitely not from Nqaba. I pull the card, its from Jake. I smile
and pick them up to smell. I take them to my tiny table next to
the window. These aren't going home.

I feel hot. I unbutton the blouse and turn on the air-con. I sit
down. I call Carlos in. He rush in.
Carlos: What's wrong?
Me: Water please.

He gets it from the fridge. I drink up.

Me: I need to see a Dr. My car keys are on the bag.
Carlos: Shouldn't we call an ambulance?
Me: No. Please drive me to my Dr.
I put his address on the gps. He holds my bag and take my
hand. I try to remain as strong as possible until we get to the
car. My phone rings. I decline the call. I feel my breath running
short.
Me: Carlos...speed up.
Carlos: Hold in there. Drink water please.

We get there. The last thing I remember is him getting me out

of the car...

...
"Alexis!" I startle and cough.
"Don't move you going to hurt yourself" I look around. I'm the
hospital. I can't really see the face of the man in a white coat. I
have an oxygen mask on. He turns and put the file on the table.
He adjusts the bed. I remove the mask. He stares at me with his
brows raised. I look away to the window.

The sun that is penetrating the window is the morning sun. This
means I've been out for more than 10 hours.
Nqaba: Sawbona.
Me: Hi
Nqaba: Do you know where you are?
Me: Hospital.
Nqaba: You're at the surgery. The place is extended . We admit
some patients.
Me: What? Where's my friend?
Nqaba: Who? Anzuri? He sold the place.
Me: And you work for the new owner?
He smirks and clip his pen on his coat.
Nqaba: Too zulu to be a Dr and an owner?
Me: I need to get to work.
Nqaba: I'm afraid you can't. I still need to keep you here at least
until tomorrow. You had an anxiety attack. I will need you to
take atleast 2 weeks off work.
Me: No.
Nqaba: I'll be back after 30 minutes. A nurse will come take you
to the bathroom.
He walks out. I search for my bag. It is nowhere to be found. A
door opens. A nurse walks in. She serves me a beautiful smile.
Nurse: Morning. How are you feeling?
Me: Very much better.
Nurse: Ok let me take these off. Its gonna hurt a little.

She takes my hand and removed the needle passing the drip in.
I flinch.
Nurse: Done. Now we gonna walk to the bathroom. No
dizziness right?
Me: No.
Nurse: Great. Let's go. Your mom brought you your sleepwear.
Me: My parents know I'm here?
Nurse: Yes. They spent the night here. Dr Zungu came this
morning and asked them to go home.

I nod and we walk to the bathroom. All my bathing material is

here. This feels like the time Bonisiwe kidnapped me. I felt my
chest getting tight
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I hold on to the wall and run out. I bump into Nqaba on the
passage. He tries to hold me but I escape from his grip, he runs
after me shouting my name. The passage seems endless. I panic
even further. I am crying now. He grabs my arm.
Nqaba: Wait! Jesus you gonna hurt yourself.
Me: Let go of me!
I fight him off. His grip tightens.
Me: I wanna go home! I wanna see if I am really at Anzuri's.
Nqaba: Alexis.
Me: Let me go please, I promise I will not say a word to anyone.
I'll- I'll just pretend this, this never happened.
He frowns and let go of my arm.
Nqaba: I wouldn't hurt you. I'm sorry. We can go out.

He leads the way and turn to the right. The corridor leads us to
the front. There are other patients falling the line. I stop.
Me: Can I please have my phone?
He turns.
Nqaba: Its on the cabinet in your ward. Can I take you back?
Me: Please.
Nqaba: Naledi I'll be back.

A girl pops her head out from under the reception desk.
Naledi: Ok.

This place is nothing like it was 6 months ago when I came here.
How sick is Anzuri? Why couldn't he let me know he's moving
and now this surgery has my secret admirer working on it.

Nurse: I was scared you didn't get the bathroom right.

Nqaba: Please give her, her phone and then go be with her in
the bathroom.

I force a smile and walk into the ward. I take my phone and
switch it on. Missed calls notifications come in flooding, most
from Jake. I call him. He must be sick worried about me.

It rings unanswered. I hang up and go tp WhatsApp to text him.

I find tons of messages from him telling me to throw away
flowers that just came into my office. I call him back again, it
rings unanswered. I hear noise from the passage.
That's his voice. I run to open the door. He beats me into it. He
throws the blazer down and hugs me for dear life.
Jake: I thought I had lost you. I'm sorry I got that tip off late.
I break the hug.
Me: What is going on? Are they the reason I'm sick?
Jake: I can explain baby just not now.
Me: Are you kidding me? Explain!

Nqaba and security guards are standing on the door looking at

us.
Jake: Not infront of people.
Me: Can you give us some space?
Nqaba: they'll be outside.

I nod. They walk out. I get back to Jake.

Me: So?
Jake: My ex girlfriend sent those.
Me: excuse me?
Jake: Yes.
Me: How did you know?
Jake: Because she came to my office to tell me to take her back
because you're dead.
Me: How did she even know who am I and where I work? Let
alone my favorite flowers!
Jake: She hacked into my phone in the morning I think because
I found her waiting for me at my work place in the morning.

I move away from him.

Jake: I'm sorry
Me: I need to be alone. Jake: Babe...
Me: I mean it! Jake. Please. Jake: I love you.
He picks his blazer up and walk out. I sit on the bed and run my
hands on my hair.
My phone rings. I check who it is. Its Bonisiwe, not now please.
I switch it off and go to take a shower...
37
My parents came to see me. Mom and her drama, she was
crying like I am dead. I asked them to bring me my laptop so
that I can work from here. I am not looking forward to the next
slot of visiting hours. Everyone knows I'm here, I've been
receiving flowers. I wish everyone can just send flowers and not
show up here.

Finally its 2pm. Only few hours left until the night, I will sleep
and wake up tomorrow and leave. I put my laptop aside and lay
down. Jake and I aren't speaking, he refused to tell me the
name of his ex. I want to lay charges against her. She must
know I'm not a toy to poison.

I head the door open. I open my eyes my dad and Nomvelo

walk in. I get up and hugs her.
Me: What are doing here?
Mvelo: To see you. Did you think you can hide that you're sick?
Me: Nqaba told you.
Mvelo: Ofcourse he did.
Dad waves at me. I laugh.
Me: Dad I see you everyday.
Marcus: You weren't this happy when I came back from
Tanzania. Worst of all right now I have food.
Me: I was happy and thank you for the food. Where is mom?
Marcus: At home making you more healthy food.
Me: This is healthy food?
Marcus: Yes but I bought you chicken fillet to make it worth
your while.

We laugh.
Me: I won't be here to rescue you when mom finds out.
I turn to Mvelo. I hug her again.
Mvelo: I missed you so much.
Me: Me too. Nduna allowed you to come?
Mvelo: So easy. He's here but with Nqaba.
Me: Wow am I gonna die?
She laughs.
Mvelo: Maybe.
The door opens again. Nqaba walks in with papers on his hand.
He's not wearing his coat now. Who wears a formal shirt, a tie,
Brentwood and carvela?
Nqaba: Your blood results are back miss McVeigh. Can you give
us some space?
Me: Its okay you can say it infront of them.

He looks at Mvelo then at my dad.

Nqaba: You were exposed to poison, Matel very fatal and you
were lucky your body reacted fast to it.
Marcus: What? Where? Where did you go yesterday?
Me: Sandton
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home, restaurant and then work.
Mvelo: Is there someone at work you're not in good terms
with?
Me: No. I must've been exposed to it at that restaurant.
Nqaba: Did you sniff anything?
Me: Yes a flower.
Marcus: What's the name? I'll sue them of every cent they
have.
He's turning red and that's not good.
Me: Dad I found a flower on top of a table while I waited for my
order. The restaurant had nothing to do with it.

He puts down the paperbag and leaves the room. I look at

Nqaba. He's staring at me. Mvelo clears her throat.
Mvelo: Does she need to get more medical attention or?
Nqaba: Yes. I'll transfer to a hospital to make sure she's really
okay.
Mvelo: When.
Nqaba: Now.
He takes my file and writes.
Nqaba: You can take her file to the reception to get a stamp
then she'll be ready when you get back.

She takes it and leaves. I reach for my bag and take out my
clothes. He's still standing here.
Me: Can I dress up?
Nqaba: No need to be rude. How are you feeling?
Me: Okay. I feel very fine.
Nqaba: Ok. Our private car will take you there.
Me: Thanks.
He tries to speak.
Me: No.

He walks out. I slide into my jeans and a tee. I keep the slippers.
Mvelo comes back and we leave. She leaves with me, Nduna
follows us behind.

***
Its been a week. I want nothing to do with this staying at home
nonsense. Mvelo left 3 days ago when she was satisfied that I'm
okay now. My dad went as far as hiring bodyguards for me
cause apperantly I can't be trusted.

I am happy that today I get to go out. I hate where I'm going

but it means going out so I'm going. Jake offered to take me
there, I should've been gone an hour ago but I'm still here
waiting for him. He promised to take me to the police station to
lay charges when I've "completely healed". I am holding him
into that.

My phone beeps. Its Kate. I grant her access. I call Jake in the
meantime.
Jake: My love I'm so sorry things got a bit extreme at work. I
had to take care of it.
Me: So you aren't coming?
Jake: I am but later.
Me: Ok I'll just go on my own I'll see you later.
Jake: I'm sorry okay?
Me: Its okay.

I hang up. Its not okay!

This is the 2nd times he's stood me up.

Kate comes out of the lift.

Me: Is that a MacDonald interview?
Kate: Yes. I came to collect your signature.
Me: What happened to electronics?
.Kate: I just needed an excuse to get out of the office! Will is
not in the mood today and you know how he gets.
Me: God he deserves a PhD for being an asshole. I'm sorry.
Kate: No problem baby.
Me: Have you eaten? I have a lot of junk food in here that I
don't eat anymore. Mommy's orders.
Kate: Let me help myself.
Me: I am leaving. Going to the Dr.
Kate: I'll see you when you come back to work.
Me: Cheers.

I take my phone and my bag and off I go. I inform the guards
that I wanna go to the Dr, they drive me there. The perks of
being the only girl.

I should've brought Kate with me. I do not want to be in the

same space as Nqaba.
I register and go in when my turn comes. I greet him and sit
down. He smiles.
Nqaba: Hi. You look fresh.
Me: I feel fresh. I hope I will go home with a letter granting me
to go back to work.
Nqaba: Ofcourse. Let's start by checking your vitals. Please get
on the bed and take off the jacket.

I do as per instruction. He comes and checks me up. I am back

in a chair after 10 minutes. He's jotting down what I'm
assuming is my letter to go back to work.

He gives me back my file.

Nqaba: No more medication. Please finish off the remaining
one at home and all shall be good. And this is your letter.
Me: Thank you.

I take it and get up and head to the door. I startle as he shuts

the door close after I open it.
Me: What are you doing?
Nqaba: We need to talk.
Me: Talk.
Nqaba: How long are you gonna do this?
Me: Do what?
Nqaba: That is not who I am. I was raised to respect women. I
have tried everything to show you how much I care and really
love you but all you do is shut me out.
Me: Can you move off the door please?
Nqaba: No. I will move off after you tell me you didn't feel what
felt when we had sex.
Me: It was mistake!
Nqaba: mistakes happen once or twice, more than that it is
nolonger a mistake. You know exactly what you're doing.
Me: I'm done talking. Move!
Nqaba: I know you feel something for me but you're scared to
let yourself feel it. What are you afraid of?

He steps closer. There's no gap between us, his cologne is

rushing through my veins down to my heart making it beat
faster. I'm staring at his chest. He's tall. Basket ball player tall or
I'm just a midget.
Nqaba: Why won't you let yourself feel?
Me: I don't want to feel Nqaba. And I want you to stop trying so
hard to make me feel. Nqaba: I can't. I've tried. I can't.
Silence. Nqaba: Jake. Do you feel for him?
I find myself shaking my head.
Nqaba: Do you feel this when he touches you?
He runs his finger on my collar bone, I take a deep trembling
breath and shake my head. I'm literally under hypnosis. I hate
this much power he has over my emotions. This is why I do not
want to be close to him!
Nqaba: Then why are you with him!
Did he just shout at me? He moves off the door and walk to his
desk. Nqaba: Answer me Sabathile.
He says calmly.
Me: Do not call me that and I'm done with this conversation.
Don't ever send anything to my office ever again.
He turns. Nqaba: Is that what you really want?
Me: Yes. That's what I really want. Nqaba: Ok.
I open the door and walk out and do not even look back...
38
A knock comes through. Can people stay the hell away from my
office!
Me: Come in!

I stop typing on my laptop. Its Will, he peeps his head in.

Will: Are you still okay?
Me: Yes I'm good.
Will: If you feel any bit of being unwell, just call my office.
Me: I will.

He smiles and closes the door. I get back into typing an email to
businessmen. Another knock, I have endured enough knocks
for the day. I feel unwell right now.
Me: Get in.
Carlos: Someone is here for you.
Me: Who?
Carlos: A male
My heart skips a bit. I get up and head out.
Its Jake. My pace slows down when our eyes meet. A part of me
is disappointed its him. He's the last person I expected to come
here.
Me: Let's go in. Carlos don't allow anyone in.
Carlos: Yes ma'am.

I turn on my heels to face him.

Me: What are you doing here?
Jake: You aren't talking my calls.
Me: Didn't that send a message that I don't wanna talk?
Jake: Why do you not want to talk?
Me: You chose last night. And now I have nothing to talk to you
about. I will hunt that bitch down myself now that I have her
face.
Jake: Last night? I chose what?
Me: Your fate. You denied to give me a name when we had
lunch, on Friday you couldn't take me to the Dr because what?
You were busy at work? Well I didn't know she's work and then
last night you went to her house and fucked her again!
Jake: Babe I-
Me: Shut up!!! Just shut the hell up Jake.

I take my phone and show him his pornography. He blinks

rapidly and wipes his mouth. I fold my arms and walk to the
window.
Jake: I can explain.
Me: Explain.
Jake: She must've drugged me. I broke up with Messi 8 months
ago because I didn't love her anymore. Suddenly when I'm with
her I lose control and then want nothing to do with her the next
day. She drugs me.
I turn again.
Me: I couldn't care less Jake. We're done.
Jake: Alexis.
Me: Either you leave on your freewill or I'll have security drag
you out.

He press his lips together and walk out. Sobs escape my mouth,
I cover myself with my hand...
...
I drove to my parent's house after work yesterday. I spent the
night there. I couldn't be on my own and I couldn't have asked
Mike to come keep me company because Tasha is pregnant and
requires massive attention.

This morning I drove to Suncity after checking in if Bonisiwe has

been released or not. She stopped calling, I guess she gave up.

I am sent to the prosecutors office to state my business. He

sends me to another lady where I signed the papers as
Bonisiwe's official guardian for the next 6 months. I am trusting
my gut with this decision I hope I do not regret it.
Lady: And we're done. I'll get you a warden to take her out. You
may wait for her outside.
Me: Thank you.

I pick my bag up and walk out.

I sit by the benches outside, a guard comes to me

Him: Good day nkosazana. Are you waiting for someone?
Me: Yes.
Him: Being released?
Me: Yes.
Him: They use a separate gate. You can go wait in your car.
Me: Oh thank you.
Him: You're welcome.

I smile and get and head towards the gate. Its quite a distance.
By the time I get to my car, I am sweating and very tired. I open
the door and get in. I adjust my seat down and chat to Mvelo. I
should be visiting them soon but now I am a mother-sitter so I
can't. Their house is beautiful and big, they hosted a house
warming, invited all their friends, we all fit. Nqaba and I were
the only singles, that's where this madness began, with just
lamb curry that I kept asking him to cook. It started as the final
tool to get over my heartbreak but I found myself wanting
more and more and developing powerful feelings in a week,
he's as shady as Bheki, no mention of family or past. Just
focusing on the present. I detached myself before I went in too
deep, it was easy because I didn't get to see him at all. I never
even told Mvelo about it because I was prepared to put it all
behind me. Seeing him that day and again on Friday, he's been
stuck on my mind like a tattoo. I wish what I feel for him is what
I feel for Jake. Although he comes with an crazy ex but its
something fixable, how do you fix a shady Zulu man that
probably has a wife that wears a cape stashed somewhere in
the bundus?

I call Carlos. He's been quiet.

Carlos: Miss McVeigh's office
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Carlos speaking how may I help you?
Me: Its me. How's everything going there?
Carlos: Smoothly. I've attended all your meetings, Will is nice
today, Jake has called numerous times.
Me: Great. No parcel again?
Carlos: No.
Me: Can you send the cards to my address?
Carlos: Excuse me?
Me: You heard me Carlos. You kept them safe right?
Carlos: Ofcourse. Although I can't read most of them but they
looked romantic to throw away.

A bell rings loudly. I look out the window. I see the gate
opening. My heart beats faster.
Carlos: What was that? Where are you?
I swallow, my mouth is suddenly dry. My palms are sweaty.
Me: I'll call you back after a minute.

I adjust my seat back up. I reach for a bottle of water and drink.
I take a deep breath and get out. She's heading to my car. Its
the only car here anyway so she figured its me.

I am shaking my leg to ease up the anxiety I'm currently facing.

Why is she taking too long to reach me?

Finally! I open the backseat door for her. She gets in. I close and
get in too and drive off. I should've asked those big men to
drive me. This is gonna be a long drive.
...
Me: This is where we live.
I say when we approach the lift. We get in. I changed the access
to use fingerprints for safety purposes.

We get to the penthouse. We step out. I'm now calmer.

Me: Hey guys.
Them: Hey.
Me: This is Lungani and Steven, your bodyguards, this is
Martha, your help. Guys this is Bonisiwe.
They exchange greetings. We head on to the bedroom.
Me: Your bedroom. Tomorrow morning I'll go shopping, write
down your sizes and your style. That on top of the bed is your
cellphone that you should never switch off. You can take a
bath, there are fresh pyjamas in the closet, the bathroom in the
door opposite. You'll find everything in there. I'm leaving, I am
going to my parent's house. I'll be back later.
I head to the door.
Bonisiwe: Alexis.
I stop but don't turn.
Bonisiwe: I know this isn't easy. Thank you.
Me: Don't make me regret it.
Bonisiwe: I won't.
Me: I'll see you later.

I leave.

...
I am crying on my way home. I am going through emotions right
now. I don't know whether I'm stupid or a good person. She
almost ruined my life for Christ's sake! Why am I helping her?
The voice at the back of my head keeps saying she's my mother,
yes she is but does she see me as her daughter? All those mean
things she said to me are still echoing in my head. .

I make a uturn and drive to McDonald's and then to Mike's

work place. I need to be with some I'm gonna laugh with. My
dad would make the matter worse if he sees me crying.

He welcomes me with a warm hug.

Me: You smell differently nice.
Mike: Uhh thank you. It was a gift from my colleague.
Me: Female?
Mike: Gay. Is this Mcfeast?
Me: Yes. Gay?
Mike: Yes. How's Jake?
Me: He's good. We broke up though.
Mike: What? Why? I thought y'all had something good going
on.
Me: We did but I just didn't feel us.
Mike: You need to get over Bheki. Really you need to.
Me: How many times should I tell you I'm over that man. It
disgusts me to even think our skins touched.
Mike: Then why don't you feel Jake? He's a good or so you've
said.
Me: He is but not my good guy.
Mike: Give yourself time this time around. Date someone you
love.
Me: I'll try. How's Tasha?
Mike: Pregnant and annoying and dramatic as hell I just want
her to give birth already.

I laugh.
Me: Just 3 months left.
He shakes his head and devour his burger.

...
I get to my place around 10pm. Steven and Lungani go home. I
pour myself a glass of wine and head to my bedroom. I take a
bath first. I take my laptop and get in bed.

"Ahhh! Stop! Please stop! Somebody help me!"

I jump out of bed and run to her room. She's still screaming. I
turn on the lights, her hands are on her neck, she's sweating. I
am scared to get close but she's struggling.
Me: Bonisiwe! Wake up!
She doesn't hear me. I get closer and shake her hard enough to
jump up on her feet, scaring me even more. She's panting, tears
are rolling down her cheeks, she's rubbing her neck with her
left hand.
Bonisiwe: I'm sorry. I didn't mean to wake you, I usually sleep
with the lights on.
Me: I wasn't asleep. Drink some water, leave the lights on.
Bonisiwe: Thank you.

I walk out. I throw myself on the bed, I've got a bigger problem
than I thought...
39
I get ready for work. By his mercy I was able to hear my alarm. I
could barely sleep, Bonisiwe kept having her nightmares. Today
I plan on finding her a good therapist after I inform my parents
that I fetched her. I can not deal with that I dealt with, I am
sleepy as it is. I need bioplus, play, mofaya, reboost and
everything else that will keep me awake and energetic. I hear a
knock.
Me: I'm coming.
I pick up my hand bag and laptop's and head out.
Me: Lungani, morning.
Lungani: Mrs McVeigh is here.
Me: Oh thanks.
I emerge from the passage. Bonisiwe is busy on the kitchen
area. Martha is sitting down, what is going on here?
Me: Morning.
Them: Morning.
Melissa: Can we talk?
Me: I'm on my way to work, we can talk over a cup of coffee in
the coffee shop downstairs.
Melissa: Let's go then.
Me: Martha...
Martha: She insisted.
Bonisiwe: I can cook for myself.
Me: I know but I hired her.
Bonisiwe: I just needed something to do. Don't you have a
garden?
Me: No. Guys, call me shall there be any problems.

We take the lift. We get to the coffee shop, we order and take a
seat. I glance at my watch, still have little time.
Me: I was gonna come home after work to let you know.
Melissa: I'm not here about that. Are you okay?
Me: I'm good. How's yourself?
Melissa: I'm good. Someone named Jake called the house
yesterday.
I swallow spit.
Me: What did he say he wants?
Melissa: Your hand in marriage. Are you seeing him?
I sure know how to pick them. I take a sip of my coffee.
Me: I was. We broke up.
Melissa: Whew thank God. He's Philip's son.
Me: Oh my God.
Melissa: Your dad couldn't even sleep.

Philip was once hired to assassinate my father years ago. He

almost lost his life, Philip has been jailed ever since.
Me: I'll call him later. What did you say to Jake then?
Melissa: We told him to return with you if he wanna discuss
such things.
Me: He's really out of his mind. I'll call him.
Melissa: How is she?
Me: Who? Bonisiwe?
She nods.
Me: I really don't know. She has a problem with sleeping.
Melissa: She should see someone.
Me: Yeah. I'll look for available therapists today.
Melissa: Ok baby. I'm proud of you.
She squeezes my hand. I smile.
Melissa: Go to work, I'll go back upstairs to talk to her.
Me: Ok. I love you.
Melissa: I love you more. Have a good day at work. Don't let
Will ruin your day.
I laugh.
Me: He's nice these days.

I get up and leave.

...
I'm 5 minutes late. I clock in and greet Precious. I pray all the
way to my office that I do not bump into Will.

I take a deep breath when I get to my office.

Carlos: He was here 3 minutes ago.
Me: Is he sour?
Carlos: Nope he came to congratulate you and your team for
sealing the Liberty deal.
Me: what!
Carlos: Learn to read your emails.
Me: I had a really productive day yesterday I didn't get time to
go through my emails. Whose flowers are these?
Carlos: Oh yours. They came with this.

He takes out a paperbag from his side.

Me: Who are they from?
Carlos: Mr and Mrs Ncube.
I frown. I take the paperbag.
Me: You can keep the flowers. Don't sniff them, just in case.
Carlos: Thank you. Did you get the cards?
Me: No.
Carlos: Great. Here they are, I forgot to send them.
Me: You're so fired.
Carlos: Espresso?
Me: Yes please.
Carlos: You're the best boss ever!
Me: You're still fired!
I close the door. I toss my bags over the couch and go for
what's inside the paperbag. I come back with a card.

Mr and Mrs Ncube would like for you to join them on their
special day, celebrating love....

I put it down and reach for...camera? Oh instax, nice. There's a

lot of cards here that I'm not gonna read. My phone rings, it
gogo.
Me: Old lady.
Granny: Hey ntombi yam. I just received an invitation.
Me: Me too.
Granny: Are we attending?
Me: I am thinking of it.
Granny: You don't have to if you don't want.
Me: I want to.
Granny: Okay ke my love I'll see you then. Call me.
I chuckle.
Me: I will, I promise. Let me get to work.
Granny: have a nice day baby.
Me: Oh I fetched Bonisiwe.
Granny: What! Are you out of your mind?
Me: No. It just felt right to do.
Granny: Oh dear child Bonisiwe has problems remaining good.
Me: I'll take my risks.
Granny: Shall she do something, do not hesitate to call the
police.
Me: I will. Bye bye.
Granny: Bye...taking that rotten girl in. Dear Lord protect my
grandchild from that wicked woman.

I chuckle and hangs up. So they are getting married for real
now. She's jumped from being his brother's wife to officially his.
I receive a text
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from Mvelo. She's telling me about an invitation. This is gonna
be fun then.
Carlos comes in with my espresso and cards from Nqaba's gifts.
Carlos: We don't have a busy day today.
Me: Just what I need. Get us lunch from Kiki's today.
Carlos: And people wonder why am I always happy to go to
work.

He squirms and run out. I take a seat and start reading the
cards.

I hear laughter from outside. Will's face show up in my door.

Will: Hey sis. I thought we should celebrate.
Sis?
Me: Now?
Will: Yes. Or are you busy?
Me: Absolutely not. Geez is there alcohol?
Will: Sparkling wine.
Me: Bring it in!
Kate and Thabi come in each holding a bottle of sparkling wine
and glasses. I laugh.
Me: Just the four of us?
Will: Carlos is fetching the snacks.
Me: Kelly is gonna fire us.
Kate: Honey we nolonger have a Kelly in this company.
Me: What?
Will: You've been gone for so long Lexi. She's fired and arrested
for stealing millions from this company.
Me: Told you she ain't no good.
Will: And I looked into her closet. I found the skeletons.

Thabi handed us glasses.

Will: To the best Team in this entire company.
Us: To us.

We raise our glasses and drink up.

Me: I can feel the good aura of Kelly's absence kicking in.
Will: And...
He holds Kate's hand, Kate smiles shyly.
Will: Babe.
I choke on wine. Somebody please dial 911!
Will: Somebody please get her some water.
Me: I do not need water. I need to know for how long!
Kate: 5 months?
Me: You're cheating on your wife?
Will: I was 2 months then I divorced her.
Me: You need help Will.
Will: I got one. Right here beside me. We're getting married.
She waves her hand in the air. Thabi is paralyzed on the couch.
Me: I'm not coming.
Will: Lexi.
Me: I'll send you a 6 set of mugs.

Whew I take a seat.

Me: Congratulations by the way. Where's Carlos and snacks.
Kate: When you're done digesting come congratulate me.
Will: We'll be at my office in the meantime, kissing.

They laugh and take one bottle of wine and leaves. I look at
Thabi.
Thabi: Pinch me.
Me: She brings out the best in him. I've never seen him so
happy and so free. Will doesn't kid around, ever!
Thabi: Work is gonba be so impressive these days.
Me: Girl do not mention it. Bheki is getting married.
Thabi: You'd be too if you don't ignore Nqaba.
Me: I am scared. I can't really throw myself at him, I need to
atleast do some back ground check on him.
Thabi: What is Mvelo saying?
Me: She doesn't know him that well that's the thing! Nqaba is a
sealed bottle from 1860.
Thabi: Then fucking break it!
Me: I can't. Enough about him.
Thabi: I suggest you speak to him, just hear him out.
Me: No. I just broke up with Jake. I need a break.
She puts her hands up and get up.
Thabi: See who our first interviewee is so we can get to work.
Me: Now that's what I need to do.

She winks and walk out. I turn on my pc. She comes back
running.
Thabi: He's here!
Me: Who?
Thabi: Bheki.
Me: What? Tell him I'm not here.

She walks out and comes back in.

Thabi: Too late.

She closes the door. I'm so not in the mood for his face but I
smile anyway when he gets in followed by Gugu pushing a
stroller. She is different from the woman I saw months ago.
She's a modern beautiful woman.
I give them a warm welcome and offer them a seat. I call Carlos
to bring in something to drink.
Bheki: We aren't long. We just came by to say hi.
Me: Well Hi. I found this when I arrived here. Congratulations.
Them: Thank you.
Me: You live here now?
I ask Gugu.
Gugu: Yes. Finally took charge of my own life.
Me: I'm glad. I see the little one is grown.
Gugu: He is and quite handy.
Me: Aren't they all

We laugh. Carlos comes in with drinks.

Carlos: Dr Zungu is here for you.
Now? How will I shout at him!
Me: Is he? Please send him in.
Bheki: A doctor? Are you okay?
Me: I am perfectly fine.
This is awkward. I smile, the door pushes open. Nqabayethu
Zungu walks in, not wearing a Brentwood or his famous carvela
today but a sweatpant and a casual tee and flops, yes flops!

He adjusts his glasses and put the Zara bag on my desk.

Nqaba: Sanibonani. I didn't know you had company.
Me: Oh its okay. This is Bheki and his wife and their kid.
Nqaba: Well helo. I brought you this.
Me: Work?
Nqaba: I'm off.
Me: How?
Nqaba: There are 4 Drs in that surgery.
Me: That's interesting. Bheki and Gugu are getting married and
I'm invited, so is Mvelo and Nduna.
Nqaba: Congratulations you both.
Gugu: Thank you.
Nqaba comes over to me and massages my shoulders.
Nqaba: Won't you open the bag?
Me: Behave we've got company.
He gets his hands off.
Nqaba: Sorry.
Bheki: Its okay. I guess we should leave now.
Me: Thanks for stopping by.

I walk them to the door. I shut it and sigh.

Nqaba: What were they even doing here!
Me: To see me. Where have you been?
Nqaba: At my place.
Me: So you don't take calls when you're at your place? Or what,
you have a wife?
He frowns.
Nqaba: Wife yani manje. Didn't you tell me to leave you alone?
Me: And you did?
Nqaba: Yeah I tried. I am here aren't I?
Me: I don't care! Where were you the past 2 days?
Nqaba: Bengisendlini ngipheka ubhontshisi no jeqe. (I was at
home cooking beans and steamed bread)
He sits on my chair.
Me: Nqaba you can't just be there, showing me you love me
and then I tell you to stop and you stop!
Nqaba: Are we pregnant?
Me: I'm serious!
Nqaba: Thixo wase moria I hear you. But what did you expect
me to do? You've been ignoring me and I've been in your ass
like a white lady's snoopy puppy.
Me: Because I don't know if I should let you in or not. You see
that man that just walked out he-
Nqaba: He had that girl as his wife but not really his wife. I do
not have a wife, a child or a crazy ex girlfriend. I just have a
puppy named mathambo that you know and that's it.
He walks up to me. He put his hands on my shoulders.
Nqaba: I have a very little appetite for women, I wouldn't be
persuading you if I had a wife or a girlfriend. Ngiyakuthanda
Sabathile and I am willing to mend all that's broken inside of
you, just let me in. Give me 3 months probation to prove
myself. I will prove to you that I'm the piece that's been
missing.
Me: Are you gonna tell me why didn't you take my call last
night?
He sighs.
Nqaba: I left it in the charger in the lounge and went to sleep, I
always. No one ever calls me at night but as of today I will sleep
with it under my pillow.
I laugh.
Me: Sounds like a plan.
Nqaba: Does this thing suit me?
He points at his pants.
Me: Yes it does.
Nqaba: Mvelo bought it for me. I feel funny.
Me: You've never worn it before?
Nqaba: Yes. I don't even look at these things. Izinto zoku gyma
lezi (they are for gyming)
Me: Not really. They are for lazy days.
Nqaba: I wore it to not embarrass you infront of your
colleagues with Brentwood.
I laugh.
Me: You look snacky in it trust me I wouldn't be embarrassed. I
don't understand the fuss your kind has over it but it fits y'all
perfectly.
Nqaba: Huh thank you I'll never wear this thing....

I stare at him as he keeps on blabbering about how crazy and

less-manly is it to wear a sweatpant. He's so imperfectly
perfect. I am just gonna close my eyes and take this risk, if it
fails, then I will take a break from men because unlike Jake, I
actually have something strong I feel for him.

I tiptoe my way up to his lips. He serves me the most beautiful

smile I discover he has a silver tooth!

We kiss. He makes me feel things I've never felt before, he must

be the dangerous person to be with. I do not want to feel like
this in a presence of a man. We break it off after a couple of
seconds.
Nqaba: Is this one of the kisses we've shared or its a signature
of sealing our husband-wife deal?.
What? I chuckle shyly.
Me: Its a signature to seal the deal.
Nqaba: Yes!
He sits on my desk and pulls me closer, he looks deep into my
eyes, I am staring back.
Nqaba: Ngyabonga.
I can't read his face expression but he sounds emotional.
Me: My pleasure.
It comes out as a whisper. He hugs me tenderly. I am crossing
my fingers for the best to come out of this decision....
40
I love the honeymoon phase. Dr Zungu has been seeing me at
every chance he gets, in the morning before he goes to work, at
night when he knocks off. Its been quite a joyful week. I am
tired of sms's. My contract has only 100 and it is finished due to
texting the day we sealed the deal. He bought me a coat, the
zara bag had a coat in it, matching one of his. He's like a cute
little baby, he's always all over me and I can't get enough. He
doesn't go to my place because his mkhulu would wake up
from his grave and stab him with a spear if he ever saw him
going to my dad's place. He doesn't care that he bought it for
me, to him it is my dad's. Bonisiwe is seeing a shrink, the
nightmares are still there but I'm hoping they will vanish soon.

Carlos comes in.

Carlos: Did you order a phone?
Me: Yes.
Carlos: But you just upgraded last month.
Me: Its for Nqaba.
Carlos: His broke?
Me: No. He has those tiny nokia phones and I want us to
FaceTime and talk on WhatsApp.
Carlos: Renovate your man girl.
We laugh.
Me: I'll give you a lift.
Carlos: Let me go pack my stuff then.
Me: You better.

Fridays are short and fun. I clip together all the papers of the 2
interviews we've done so far and head to Will's office. I knock.
Will: Just a sec! Ok come in.
Ugh these two are gonna make me sick I swear.
Me: Eww eww eww!
Will: What?
Me: Were you having sex?
Kate: No!
Me: You were. Jesus. Here's the interviews, your p.a. is not on
her desk.
Will: Oh she went home. I'll go through them on my own.
Me: Super.
Will: What are you doing on Sunday?
Me: Not sure. Need something?
Will: There's a gathering.
Me: I always forget to open the WhatsApp group chat. I'll
come.
Will: Thanks.
Me: Kate, don't forget to edit the pictures.
Kate: I'm on it.
Me: Ok bye then love birds. I'm knocking off.
Will: Have a great weekend.
Me: Thank you. You do too.

...
Secretary: He has no patient.
She says as I try to take a seat.
Me: Oh thanks.
I get up and head to his office. I knock and wait, I hear moaning.
He must be fucking kidding me. I try to open but its locked. I
bang the door. He catches me before I fall as I attempt to push
the door with my whole body. He's laugh.
Me: Let go of me!
He closes the door. Still laughing.
Me: You think this is funny?
Nqaba: No. Sawbona mawezingane.
Ok not now genius. I'm not gonna melt. Not now. Now that I
noticed the tooth I can't miss it, it makes his smile even more
beautiful.

He presses play on his porn.

Me: What if I ran away and got smashed by a car?
Nqaba: I knew you wouldn't.
Me: And how would you know?
Nqaba: Because...I just know. Come here.
He leans and kisses me.
Me: I missed you.
Nqaba: I called you 10 minutes ago but you didn't pick up.
Me: Oh its in my bag. Aren't you hungry?
Nqaba: For?
Me: Food.
Nqaba: My food or just food in general.
Me: Nqabayethu Zungu please. Not now. I'm talking about pap
and steak.
Nqaba: Oh. I'm hungry if you are.
Me: I don't like it when you curve your lips.
He kisses my shoulder.
Nqaba: I'm sorry.
Me: You're watching porn now you're horny.
Nqaba: It doesn't have that effect on me. You do. Your scent
alone sends signals to my body.

I go and lock the door. He's shirtless when I return. He picks me

up and we kiss. He places me on the couch and unbutton my
blouse, unhook my brallete and kisses me from the neck down.
I help him pull up the skirt. He smiles at my naked body,
suddenly I am shy. He curse under his breath when he puts his
hand under my panties. He's gently and I can't help but moan.
Nqaba: I missed you.
Me: I missed you too.
We continue to kiss and I gasp when he finally inserts himself.
He's going slowly and gently. We're making love, first time as a
couple and it feels good.
Nqaba: Ngiyakuthanda.
He whispers.
Me: I love you more.

He gets off and sit. He pulls me up. I hate this part. I climb on
top of him and start grinding. Swinging my hip in all directions
his left grip on my left butt cheek and his right stroking my back
I am gonna spit out some secrets.

I hold on to him tight as I reach my climax. I increase my pace to

bring him closer to his. He's breaking my bones right now and
that's a good sign. He releases himself and bury his face
between my boobs.
Me: I'm feeling cold.
Nqaba: Its raining.
I get off him and look into my bag and take out my sinus towel.
Nqaba: I was still thinking about where are we gonna get that.
Me: I came prepared.
He laughs and goes to the bin to take off the rubber and comes
back to clean himself. He puts on his briefs and goes to his
desk, he picks up the phone.
Nqaba: Olivia, please order me 2 cups of large coffee. One
black, one with powdered milk and close. I'm nolonger taking
any patients.

He turns to me.
Nqaba: What would you like to eat?
Me: Anything.
Nqaba: There's Nandos across the street.
Me: Its fine.
Nqaba: Liv? And full chicken at Nandos, chips, buns and green
salad.

He puts it down and take out a fleece from his shelf.

Me: Amen
Nqaba: I sleep here sometimes.
He turns the heater on and we cuddle on the couch.
Nqaba: This feels like a dream.
Me: Does it?
Nqaba: Yes. Promise you won't leave me.
Me: Do you have a wife at home?
He chuckles.
Nqaba: No.
Me: Are you gonna beat me up?
Nqaba: Never.
Me: As long as you will treat me well. I will stay.
Nqaba: Do you really love me?
Me: I do.
Nqaba: I don't believe you.
Me: I do not believe it too but its true. I love you. Ever since we
I left Durban I've been thinking about you every night.
Nqaba: Then why were you giving me hard time?
Me: I was scared of getting my heart broken.
Nqaba: I'm not him.
Me: I know but I just couldn't help it.
"I know she's here, her car is outside!"

I jump up.
Me: That's Jake.
Nqaba: He must not try to test me.
He dresses up and head to the door. I get back to the fleece. He
flies in soon as Nqaba opens the door. He holds him before he
tries to slap me.
Nqaba: You want to beat somebody boy?
Jake: Let go of me! I'm here to speak to my girlfriend.
Nqaba: You speak with hands? Go get some fresh air Lexi.
Me: No let him go
Nqaba: I said go get some fresh air. Ngisafuna ukukhuluma
nalendoda. (I want to have a word with this man). Now Lexi!

I startle and run towards the door...

***
NQABA
I let go of him and lock the door.
Me: Are you done living?
Jake: Fuck you. I'm not here for you.
Me: You beat women up?
Jake: That's none of your business.
I slap him, he falls.
Me: Get up you drunkard. I'm gonna tell you this only once, if I
ever have to tell you again I'll put a bullet in your head. Got it?
Don't ever follow her again, when you see her, walk the
opposite direction. Go home now.
Jake: Who the hell do you think you are?
Me: You're bleeding. Consultation room is the second door,
wait for me there I'll take care of that.

I unlock and he stumbles out. I take my phone and call Nduna.

Nduna: Gwabini.
Me: How did Jake know Lexi is here?
Nduna: He did?
Me: Yes!
Nduna: I'll contact these boys. They are careless.
Me: Tell them they are fired. Get people who'll protect her at
all costs.
Nduna: Consider that done. I just got a report that Bonisiwe is
out.
Me: Seriously you need to fire those bastards. Where is she?
Nduna: Hohoho. Lexi's house, Lexi is her guardian.
Me: That's impossible.
Nduna: Very possible.
She gets in.
Me: I'll call you later.
I hang up. I hug her.
Me: I'm sorry. Does Mrs McVeigh cook for you every evening?
Lexi: No, I eat her food only when I go to visit.
Me: Didn't you say your mother is with you?
Lexi: Oh no. That's my other mother, I have 2 moms.
Me: Really? Polygamy?
Lexi: No. My biological mother and my non biological mother.
Me: Oh.
Lexi: Yeah. Its complicated. I'm sorry about Jake.
Me: He'll never bother you.
Lexi: I wish.

I kiss her. After all the trouble I went through to get her out of
that woman's wicked intentions. She took her in? She's such a
little innocent sweetheart. That woman is not to be trusted, at
all...
41
I am woken up by soft touch on my cheek. I smile. The
reflection of the sun in the mirror blinds me.
Me: What time is it?
Nqaba: Quarter to 9. Breakfast is ready.
Me: Uhh I hate waking up.
Nqaba: You don't have to. I can bring it here.
Me: No, no need.

I roll out of bed. He's staring at me as I walk to the bathroom.

He gets in after me.
Me: You wanna watch me pee?
Nqaba: Yes. I can borrow you my gym trouser.
Me: Its not a gym trouser.
Nqaba: Ok whatever it is. I can borrow you.
Me: Thank you. And a tshirt.
Nqaba: There's a plenty of those to choose from.
Me: I need to take a shower first.
Nqaba: Sizodla nini? I'm dying here.
Me: I'll be quick I promise. Or you can go ahead without me.
Nqaba: I'll sit here and watch thanks.

I shower, as quicklyy as possible until he decides to join me and

we do all the sweet stuff, kissing, giggling, scrubbing each
other's back, him telling me how much he loves me, me crying
because its too much. And it feels too good to be true, how I
am comfortable with him, its something that has never
happened before. I'm always not comfortable enough around
people I am with but him, its a different story.

After an hour we get out of the shower and take another 30

minutes to lotion and dress up. I call Lunga on our way to the
kitchen. Its a one bedroom flat, tiny kitchen enough for him and
me when I visit.
Lunga: Miss McVeigh
Me: Hi Lunga. Is everything okay?
Lunga: Yes everything is perfect.
Me: Ok. Give me a call...
Lunga: Shall anything happen. We will, we ordered pizza and
now we're watching movies. She didn't have any nightmares
last night. Just enjoy yourself wherever you are.
Me: That's great. I'll call you again later.

I hang up.
Me: This place is so portable.
Nqaba: Thank you. Juice?
Me: No coffee.
I wonder why chose to stay here.
Nqaba: Ask.
Me: Mmh? Ask what?
Nqaba: Why do I stay here.
I chuckle. Does he read minds?
Nqaba: Don't act surprised. It is what everyone asks so i know
you wanna ask too, I can see the way your eyes are scanning it.
Me: Tell me why.
Nqaba: Because I don't want visitors.
Me: Visitors?
Nqaba: Yes. I don't want people coming over. If you don't like it
then I will buy a bigger one.
Me: I love it. It is perfect.
Nqaba: Don't you want space to do yoga?
I laugh.
Me: No I don't do much of that.
Nqaba: Sthandwa sam look, I am 33 and I am not married and I
do not have kids. Looking at you I see someone that I'm gonna
grow old with, I need to know if you're sure about this. If you're
in it for the long run.
Me: I am sure and I am.
Nqaba: No pressure.
Me: I am sure. So you want kids?
Nqaba: Yeah someday.
I nod and focus on my plate. Kids are a very scary topic.
Me: So should we tell Mvelo and Nduna?
Nqaba: I told Nduna the day we sealed the deal.
Me: Mvelo is gonna get mad at me.
Nqaba: I told him not to tell her.
Me: I will video call her later. I bought you a phone.
He chokes on his food. I hand him a glass of juice.
Nqaba: You what?
Me: I bought you a phone.
Nqaba: How much did it cost?
Me: I got it on contract.
Nqaba: How much?
Me: R460 a month.
Nqaba: For how long?
Me: 24 months. What's up with all these questions. We can
now facetime and chat on WhatsApp.
Nqaba: Thank you. You're the best.
He takes my hand and kisses it.

***A week later***

I didn't get time to see my man this week. I've had back to back
meetings and he was also very busy at the surgery. Today I am
planning on spending the day here and then later go to my
parents house.

Bonisiwe is good now. She cleans when Martha cooks

she has made a little flower garden on the balcony. I put on my
pyjamas after bathing. My phone rings as I pick up my laptop.
Me: Baby.
Nqaba: Awu uyangithambisa (you're making me a softie)
Me: What is it that you never oppose. How are you?
Nqaba: I'm not okay. I need to see you.
Me: I promised my employees that I will stay at home today.
Nqaba: I'll just take a hug and a kiss and then leave.
Me: Ok come.
Nqaba: Ngyabonga.
I chuckle. He's thankful of everything.

I hang up and put on a robe. Its cold.

Me: Morning.
Them: Morning.
Me: I'll go get coffee downstairs.
Lunga: I can get it for you.
Me: No I need to stretch a bit.

I smile and the lift closes. I get downstairs and order my coffee.
I sit down and misuse their unlimited Wi-Fi. I download make
up and hair tutorials until I smell Axe. I raise my eyes and I meet
his, God!
Me: Are you trying to have my heart stop?
Bheki: Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. Can I sit?
Me: Yeah but I'm waiting for someone.
Bheki: Boyfriend?
Me: Yes.
Bheki: Ohh. I wanted to apologize.
Me: For?
Bheki: Gugu, things took a different direction, she was there for
me when baba passed on, she supported me after our break up
and then one day I woke up and I was inlove with her.
Me: I'm happy for you. Its what you really deserve.
Bheki: Aren't you mad at me?
Me: Jesus no. I am glad you've moved on we can all now forget
we ever did what we did. We are both with people we love and
they love us back. I just wanna bury our past and never be
reminded of it.
He nods.
Bheki: You will always be special to me.
I smile.
Me: I know.
I extend my hand to squeeze his.
Bheki: Can I get a hug?
Me: Sure.

We get up and hug. I see Nqaba coming in. Our eyes meet, he
frowns and turn away. I let go of Bheki and take my phone and
run towards the door.
Me: Nqaba!
He doesn't turn. Shit!
Me: let me explain!
He gets in his car and drive off. Dammit!
I call him. He declines the call. I rush back in and take the lift up.
Martha: Just in time for beef stew.
Me: Later Martha. Anyone seen my car keys?
Bonisiwe: Where are you going?
Me: I'll be back after an hour or 2.
Bonisiwe: But you promised to spend the day here.
Me: I know! But there's something I need to take care of. I'm
sorry.

The lift closes...

***
NQABA

I get to my place and head straight to my bedroom. I take

sleeping pills and lay on the bed...

***
ALEXIS
After 30 minutes I arrive at his place. I knock, no answer. I push
the door it opens. I call his name and close the door. Both his
phones are on top of the couch which means he's here.

I walk to the bedroom. He's sleeping. I climb on and shake him.

He's not responding.
Me: Nqaba?
I see an empty bottle of sleeping pills on the side table. I shake
him harder he's still not responding. My mind is going crazy. I
am crying screaming his name. I pull my phone out and dail my
insurance emergency number.
Me: Hi can I please have an ambulance?
Operator: Your address please.
I don't even know where am I. I jump out of the bed straight to
his drawers. I look for any possible mails but there's nothing.
"Lexi?"
I turn. Oh my God he's okay.
Me: Uhm, I'm sorry. Can I call you again.
Operater: Ma'am I'm-
I hang up and run to him.
Nqaba: Why are you crying?
Me: Because...you wouldn't wake up. I thought you...
I look at the pills.
Nqaba: I wanted to sleep it off.
Me: I'm sorry.
Nqaba: What was it?
Me: An innocent hug. He asked for it and I agreed, my mistake.
Nqaba: Should I worry about him?
Me: Eww no. He's my...
I take a deep breath and tell him the whole story.

Nqaba: Shit.
Me: Yeah. So no you don't have to worry about him.
Nqaba: I need something to down this information.
He pulls me to the kitchen.
Nqaba: I'm sorry you had to go through all that.
He kisses my forehead before he opens the fridge and takes out
polony.
Me: Do you have wine in this house.
Nqaba: Its finished. I haven't done much grocery shopping this
month.
Me: But you have polony.
Nqaba: Yes I do.
Me: So I was right.
He laughs.

Mvelo and Nduna do not buy it so Simi, Nguquko's wife bought

it for her 2 year old daughter. She complained that someone
was eating it. And then one night I tasted it in his lips he denied
and said it was a vienna so here we are today with his fridge
short of everything but polony cause there's numerous 3kgs.
Nqaba: Now that you're my girlfriend, is my secret safe with
you?
Me: Yes. So how did it start?
Nqaba: What?
Me: The addiction.
Nqaba: On my 4th year. I didn't have time to cook so it was the
easiest thing to cook and eat.
Me: Now you can't stop.
Nqaba: Yes. And lollipops.
Me: Now I know how to apologize.
Nqaba: Don't push it miss.

He hugs me. He's such a hugger.

Me: Where's that man I met at Mvelo's wedding?
He chuckles.
Nqaba: He's here holding you into his arms.
Me: He's not hardcore. He doesn't furrow his brows.
Nqaba: You'll never ever see that cause he's inlove with you.
You bring out this softie. Since I met you I've been a good boy,
only focusing on getting you and keeping you safe.
Me: Am I lucky or what?
Nqaba: Its me who's lucky. I've finally met someone who makes
me wanna be good and do right by them. You were right, I did
own those taxis.
Me: Did own?
Nqaba: Yes. I sold them and bought the surgery so that I can get
you. I convinced Anzuri to sell it to me. I knew one day you'd
come but you were taking too long so I had to come up with a
plan.
I tried to free away from him. He holds me tighter.
Me: Let go of me.
Nqaba: I paid her to send those flowers and have sex with Jake.
Me: Nqaba let go of me!
Nqaba: No. I don't want a relationship built on lies.
Me: Well it is built on lies if you poisoned me, paid someone to
sleep with my boyfriend so that we can break up. How sick is
that!
Nqaba: I did it because I love you.
He's calm.
Me: Fuck that and fuck you Nqaba. You're sick in the head!
Nqaba: So now you don't love me now?
Me: I do but how sick of you to do all that!
Nqaba: Because I would've killed him! It was either that or I kill
him. I was done watching you be with someone you don't even
love while I waited for you. Trust me if you were in my shoes
you'd have done the same thing.
Me: No!

He lets go of me. I head for the door.

Nqaba: I'll get you someone to drive you home.
Me: I'm done.
Nqaba: Okay.

He sits down and eat his polony. The door doesn't happen.
Me: Where are the keys?
Nqaba: Sit down and wait for someone to drive you home. You
can't drive while crying.
Me: You sick bastard I'm gonna call the police.
Nqaba: You left your phone in the bedroom.

I take a deep breath and head back to the bedroom.

He's behind me. He hugs me from behind.

Nqaba: There's nothing I wouldn't do for you. I'd kill for you, I
have killed for you.
He smoothly runs his hand down my stomach. I hold it.
Me: Let go.
Nqaba: And I would do it anytime. When you've calmed down
I'll be in the kitchen.
Me: Why are you using your touch as a weapon to calm me?
Nqaba: Is it working?
Me: I hate you.

He turns me around and kisses me and pushes me to the wall.

He hold my hands against it and kiss me from my neck, going
down while his free hand explore my breast. I let out an
involuntary moan. He goes down inside my panties and finger
me.
Nqaba: Open your eyes.
Me: No.
Nqaba: Open your eyes Lexi.
I do. He kisses me and stops.
Nqaba: Do you love me?
Me: Mmm.
Nqaba: Angikuzwa. (I can't hear you)
He's not stopping.
Me: Yes!
Nqaba: Yes who?
Me: Yes Nqaba.
Nqaba: Yes Nqaba what Sabathile?
I hate this man. I'm crying.
Me: Yes Nqaba I love you.

He take his hand out and hugs me...

42
I wake up. He's holding me tight like I'd escape or anything. I
carefully take his arm off and roll out of bed. I go pee and come
back to dress up. I watch him after dressing up.
Nqaba: That is very rude.
I startle.
Me: Sorry. I'm leaving.
He sits up right.
Nqaba: What time is it?
Me: 7pm.
Nqaba: I'll drive you.
Me: I'm going to my parent's house.
Nqaba: Ok.
I smile. He gets out of bed and dresses up.
Me: You don't have to drive me. I'll be fine.
Nqaba: I'm walking you to your car.
He makes me look at him.
Nqaba: I love you.
Me: I love you too.
He walks me to my car.
Nqaba: Don't speed okay.
Me: I won't.
Nqaba: I'll call you later.
Me: I'll be waiting for your call.

We kiss and off I go.

...
Melissa: Ha! I thought I'd !never see you again.
Me: And why is that?
We hug.
Melissa: I haven't seen you in 5 days.
Me: In person.
She laughs. I FaceTime her everyday.
Melissa: Whatever. Are you hungry? Cecilia can prepare you
something, we've already eaten.
New person every time because they always find their workers
professional jobs at hotels or restaurants.
Me: I'd love something honestly. I'm very hungry. And
something to drink too.
Melissa: Are you okay?
Me: I'll be fine. Where's dad?
Melissa: At the gym.
Me: What?
Melissa: Yes. Old age isn't so good to him.

We laugh.
Me: I'll go check on him.
Melissa: I'll join you soon.

I take the stairs up. I fail to hold it when I see him. He's on the
fastest mode. He's serious!
Marcus: Laugh all you want but I'll be the sexiest man on earth
next week.
Me: Next week? It takes months to build a sexy body daddy.
Marcus: Mine will take 2 weeks. Where have you been? We
missed you.

He gets off the machine and grabs a towel and dab his sweaty
face.
Me: Been busy at work I hardly found time to do anything.
Marcus: I feel like you're focusing too much on your mother.
Me: Dad come on. Mom always has her phone in hand that's
why we always talk.
Marcus: I mean Bonisiwe.
Me: Oh. No we're just roommates. Nothing more.
Marcus: I love you, you know that?
Me: Ofcourse I do.
Marcus: And I'm used to being one of the important things in
your life. When you don't take my calls or make any means to
call me I get worried.
I only missed one of his call. When I called him back, he didn't
answer but what can I say.
Me: I'm sorry. You'll always be the important thing in my life.
I hug him. Mom gets in.
Melissa: Your food is ready. Honey you need a shower then we
can discuss the color of the apartment. We're starting some
time next week.
Me: Yay! I'm so excited. Are my pajamas clean?
Melissa: Yes madam.
I laugh as the sarcasm.
Marcus: Are you staying over?
Me: Yes.
Marcus: Let me go take that shower.

They kiss on his way out. Hallelujah. We head downstairs. I find

missed calls from Nqaba. I put it on do not disturb and enjoy
myself with my mother. He's the last person I wanna talk to
right now...

...
A night with my parents always turn to a game night. We
played boardgames until 3am. Right now I have no intentions of
waking up but I'm hungry. Its way past 10am and I'm surprised
mom didn't wake me to go eat.
I take my phone from the charger, and call Lungani.
Lunga: Good morning.
Me: Hey. Everything okay?
Lunga: Yes everything is fine. You need to stop worrying.
Me: I can't help it. Have you guys eaten?
Lunga: Martha is making breakfast right now.
Me: Ok. I'll call you later.
Lunga: No problem.
Me: Can you please hang up?

I've got an incoming call. She's probably gonna shout at me. I

answer.
Me: Hey babe.
Mvelo: Are you kidding me!
Me: I was tired and it died in my bag. I'm sorry.
Mvelo: I've been so worried. How are you?
Me: I'm good. How is yourself?
Mvelo: I'm...
She let's out a trembling breath and sniffles. I sit up straight.
Me: What did he do?
Mvelo: He....
She starts crying.
Me: Nomvelo talk! What did he do? Where are you?
Mvelo: In the bathroom.
Me: What did he do? Talk to me and stop crying please.
"Babe I'm sorry. Please open the door"
Mvelo: Go away!
Me: Call the police! Or should I call them? Now tell me what did
he do.
Mvelo: He got me pregnant.

She sobs. I scratch my head. Really?

Me: You gonna have a baby?
Mvelo: Why do you sound like you're smiling?
Me: I'm not. That douche bag! I can't believe him right now.

I laugh silently. Oh my God we're having a baby!

Mvelo: Can I come stay with you?
Me: Ofcourse my love. Ofcourse.
Mvelo: Thank you.
Me: Stop crying. I love you.
Mvelo: I love you too.
Me: I have a lot to ask you when you get here.
Mvelo: Ok. I'll be there before the day ends.
Me: Ok. Bye
Mvelo: Bye.

Is this the beginning of drama? If she's coming here, what

about work? I sigh and sit at the corner of my bed and read
texts from Nqaba. I can't resist the urge to call him. I love him
but I can't seem to process what he said. I actually need
answers.
He answers after some time.
Nqaba: Sawubona.
Me: Hi.
Silence.
Nqaba: I'm glad you're okay.
Me: I am. What did you mean about killing for me?
Nqaba: How is your day going?
Me: Nqaba.
Nqaba: Babe?
Me: What did you mean?
Nqaba: Are you enjoying being home?
Me: If you do not answer me you'll never hear from me ever
again.
I say calmly but I'm boiling inside.
Nqaba: If I had any idea what you're talking about. I'd answer.
Me: Do you want me in your life?
Nqaba: Ofcourse I do.
Me: Then answer me!
Nqaba: I meant that I care about you.
Me: Who did you kill?
Nqaba: Humans.
Me: Humans?
Nqaba: Correct.
Me: Stop playing games with me Nqabayethu and tell me what
humans did you kill?
Nqaba: Bad humans.
I clench my fists.
Me: Its over Nqaba. Do you hear me? Its over!

I hang up. I am hyperventilating. I take off my pyjama top and

walk to open the window. He's gonna be the death of me.

Him and Nduna are like Mvelo and I. If there's someone who
knows this man well
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its him. But knowing Nduna he'd never answer any of my
questions. I sit down on chair and tilt my head back.

***
Its been 4 weeks and I'm doing pretty good without a man in
my space. He never called or texted and that's exactly what I
needed.
I zip my luggage and put it down. We're heading to KZN, Bheki's
wedding. Mvelo has been here ever since. And Nduna is letting
her, I'm still struggling to accept that Nduna is letting his wife
be 500kms away from him. Bonisiwe and I aren't happening.
I've been trying to at least spend 10 minutes in her presence.
Mvelo is always the best person to save awkward moments,
she's been spending time with her.

She gets in with our dresses.

Mvelo: Damn the queue!
Me: At the tailor?
Mvelo: No. At debonairs.
Oh. We love pizza. She's 3 months but there's no bump. We
went for the first ultra sound last week. We're really having an
additional member.
Me: We should get going.
Mvelo: Yep.

I pull both the suitcases while she took the dresses. We bid
Bonisiwe goodbye. She isn't allowed to leave the province so
she can't come. I hired 4 more guards. I feel like she's gonna
escape at any chance she gets.

....
When the sunset, we drive in to KwaNcube. There's a tent and
cars outside. I need to sleep. I park and they come help us with
the bags.

We passed by the shopping centre and bought food. Mvelo has

this Makoti in her. They show us to the room we'll be using, just
the 2 of us. Super!

I throw myself in the bed.

Mvelo: I'm definitely not sleeping. Not after I smelt smoking
meat.
Me: Bring me some when find it.
Mvelo: Imagine.

She laughs and walks out.

I take off my shoes and position myself right. I hear the door
opening. I raise my head.
Bheki: Hi. Sorry I had no idea you were sleeping.
Me: I'm about too. How are you?
Bheki: I'm good. How are you?
Me: I'm good.
Bheki: Thanks for coming.
Me: I wouldn't have missed it for the world.
Bheki: Yeah right. You didn't bring dates?
Me: Nope but Nduna will arrive tomorrow.
Bheki: Your boyfriend can come too.
Me: We broke up.
Bheki: Oh. I'm sorry.
Me: Its cool. Its so hot in this place.
Bheki: December is very hot this side. Wanna take a walk?
Me: Where to?
Bheki: To the tree with fresh air.
Me: I don't think that's a good idea with everyone here. They'll
probably have some ideas if we leave on our own.
Bheki: We won't be on our own. Mvelo is coming too.
Me: Ok. Let's go then.
Bheki: Get your bathing material. We might pass by the river.
Me: Hell no. Jesus I'm not trying to get eaten by snakes there.
Bheki: Aisuka. I'll go inform the guards to accompany us.
Me: Aw you're also scared.
Bheki: No. I'm gonna be the chief soon so we might never know
when am I gonna get assassinated.

He laughs. I laugh too.

Me: I'll be getting my bathing material so long.

He nods and walk out. My phone beeps. I take it out of my bag.

'We'll see you tomorrow'

Its from Nduna. Who's we? I'm so not in the mood for Nqaba's
face.
'If you ever bring your stick legs here I'll get you arrested'

I send to Nqaba and get my bathing material and Mvelo's. A

little boy comes and call me.

We head away to the bush. I keep saying a little prayer that a

lion or anything dangerous doesn't come out of this huge
grass....
43
I am so tired! I need a good sleep. We spent the night peeling,
well I was the peeler cause I'm not really good at cooking.
Mvelo kept delivering those carrots and potatoes. I don't
understand why there isn't catering. There are 4 kitchens and
all of those were and still full of cooking people.

We just slept an hour ago and here we are, up again.

Me: I hate it hear.
Mvelo: I wanna go home right after this wedding. That was
slavery.
Me: Plus I miss your mom. We have a lot to talk about.
Mvelo: Do I need to know about it?
Me: Nope.

I plug in the kettle and take out our bathing towels.

Mvelo: Is there something going on between you and Nqaba?
Me: I ended it.
She sits up right.
Mvelo: And you didn't tell me?
Me: It was not serious.
Mvelo: If you're the reason he went back to Jo'burg then it is!
Me: Its complicated Mvelo. He's not okay in the head.
Mvelo: I'm listening.

I sit on a the couch and fold my legs.

Me: It started when we were at your house. I was doing it just
to get over Bheki but I found myself doing it for me. I fell for
him, it seemed to early to move on so I cut him off when I went
back to Johannesburg. He's not good for me Mvelo, I lose
myself in his presence. I become someone I can not recognize.
Mvelo: That's why you ended things?
Me: No. He bought Jake's girlfriend to send those flowers, he
says he had to come up with a plan. How sick is that? Like that
wasn't enough he paid her to sleep with him! He says he's killed
for me and won't let me know who he killed.
Mvelo: I knew it!
Me: Knew what?
Mvelo: That he had something to do with you being rescued
from your mother. Oh my God
Me: Wait. Rescued from my mother? No, Onika saved me.
Mvelo: They probably paid her. He's right he did kill for you, but
what happened then he fell in love with you? I've always
sensed that they are more than what they choose to show.
Me: I don't understand.
Mvelo: Your father came up with a plan that your mom should
go seduce Bonisiwe's husband. I volunteered to do. I went
home and then the following night he told me you were on
your way home and that shall he ever hear me talk about
seducing men. He's gonna kill me. I think he meant it.
Me: What am I hearing?
Mvelo: I'm just putting the pieces together and they fit in so
well.
Me: So he's known me from then?
Mvelo: He was there for my lobola negotiations.
Me: I never saw him.
Mvelo: He was there. He was the leading negotiator.
Me: I'll be right back.
Mvelo: Where are you going?
Me: You should bath.
I take my phone and walk out. I look for a quiet place but
there's none. I see the toilet. I head there, I'm not going in
there, a snake could come out of that seat. I stand aside and
call Nqaba. He picks up on the first ring.
Me: I'm gonna ask you questions and I dare you to lie to me.
Nqaba: Ngilalele. (I'm listening)
Me: How long have you known me?
Nqaba: Long enough.
Me: When did you know you like me?
Nqaba: When I first saw you.
Me: When?
Nqaba: Mvelo's lobola negotiations.
Me: Tell me about Zimbabwe.
Nqaba: Its where you were kept.
Me: How do you know that?
Nqaba: Because Nduna called in the middle of the night and
told me you were abducted so I made a plan.
Me: How did you know where was I?
Nqaba: I know people who know people. I made calls that's
how we found you.
Me: And you killed people?
Nqaba: I didn't pull the trigger but I gave orders.
Me: So you saved me and all of a sudden you feel like you own
me? You feel entitled? Like I should be with you and nobody
else?
Nqaba: Yazin Lexi. I'm getting tired of you and your games.
Make up your mind and choose whether you wanna be with me
or not. I'm doing everything I've never done before. I do not
change for anyone but I did for you, I do not answer such
questions but I am answering yours. You think I started loving
you after that? I liked you the first day I saw but Nduna put me
out of it. I stayed away because it seemed childish to be friends
and date friends, when he told me to help him track you down
he told me I can go ahead and hit on his wife's best friend. I did
it because I wanted you safe not because of his go ahead. My
gut wouldn't let me just stop caring about you. I had to make
sure you're okay all the time. I was able to resist what I felt for
you then but I couldn't after Durban. I just couldn't because
Lexi I knew that you loved me and I saw it when I dropped you
off at the airport. I've seen it every time I look into your eyes
and right now you're focusing on me killing for you, you don't
care why I did it. I'm doing everything that I do because I love
you but you're old enough to decide whether you want this or
not. I'm done trying.
The line dies.
"Lexi?"
I sniffle and wipe off my tears before I turn and force a smile.
Bheki: Are you okay?
Me: Yes I'm fine. Work stuff. I needed a quiet place.
Bheki: There's a lot of empty rooms in the big house. You
should've went there. Aunty just arrived she's looking for you.
Me: Let me go talk to her.
Bheki: I hear you were peeling in the kitchen.
Me: Indeed we were. Your mom fetched us.
Bheki: She's such a drama queen. I'm sorry.
Me: Nah don't worry.
He glances at his watch.
Bheki: I better go get ready.
Me: Me too. Haven't even bathed yet.
Bheki: I'll see you later.
Me: I doubt. You'll be with your wife later.
He chuckles.
Bheki: I'll see you later before you leave.
Me: Go get ready.

I open the door. I find Mvelo and gogo laughing.

Mvelo: She can tell that I'm pregnant.
Me: Really?
Granny: Yes. I have eyes old enough to see that.
Me: I'm never buying a pregnancy test.
We laugh and I hug the old lady.
Me: Are you well?
Granny: I am good. I thought you were playing games with me
when you said you'll be here.
Me: Why would I though. And I bought you a dress.
Granny: Alililili....
Mvelo: Its beautiful like you.

She gets up and dance. So energetic. I pour water on a bathing

basin while Mvelo takes out gogo's dress.
In such an environment. We're gonna have to wear natural
make up or else we'll draw ourselves unnecessary attention.

We get ready. Everyone else is done but us. The yard is filling
up each and every second. They sure are famous here.
Mvelo: Oh he's here.
Me: Is that a smile?
Mvelo: No.
Me: You poor thing. Let's go.

We take our clutches and go to meet Nduna. My phone beeps.

Its mom.

'How is everything going? I still don't understand why you have

to torture yourself like that'

I chuckle.
'Everything is fine and I'm not torturing myself. I love being
here'
The looks we're getting as we head to the red X5. I can not wait
until we're there cause I can feel my knees kissing each other:
stage fright. Nduna hops out, Nguquko follows.
Mvelo: Where is Nqaba?
Nduna: hello to you too. I missed you.
He kisses her. I look inside the car
there's no one.
Mvelo: I missed you too. Nqaba isn't coming.
Nduna: He is on duty and beside why would he come? Nguquko
is here cause he got an invite as a fellow captain.
Mvelo: Ohh.
Me: let's go before our seats are taken.
Nguquko: There isn't really that here. You sit everywhere.
Me: Oh. I had no idea, either way let's go.
Nguquko: Since we both do not have dates. Please be my date.
He bows dramatically. We laugh.
Me: With pleasure.
He takes my hand and we walk to the tent. Seems like Nguquko
had no idea what he was talking about. We have a table with
our names, we ticked our names at the entrance and we were
given a number. I've got to give it to them, this is beautiful. I am
getting really uncomfortable by the weird looks I'm getting and
some people whisper to each other and point at me. I guess
they know.
Me: Did you bring your glasses?
I whisper.
Mvelo: No. What's up?
Me: The looks.
Nduna: Screw them.
He says a little loud.
Me: Please don't.
Nduna: If you see one person staring at you. Tell me I'll go
punch them right in the face.
We giggle on the low. We're asked to bow our heads as the
Prince soon to be chief makes his way in. They say his praises
that I don't understand half of. We're freed to look up again.
Nduna: He's nervous.
Nguquko: Who wouldn't be nervous thinking of committing
himself to a woman.
Me: Excuse you.
Nguquko: No offense but you're devils.
Mvelo: Why do you marry us then?
Nguquko: Because we love you.
Me: Ncoa that's sweet.

"Shhhhh!!"
Ooops. I hide myself with my clutch. The least I need is Bheki
thinking I am disrespecting his special moment.

We're told to stand up to welcome the bride. We stand up.

They say her praises. She has praises, I didn't know women had
those....oh its clan names. Her dress screams royalty, so does
her face. I turn to look at Bheki, he's tapping his foot and
cracking his left fingers, he's really nervous. Our eyes meet.

"You gonna be fine" I mime. He smiles and nods. Someone

clears their throat. Its his mother, I quickly turn away to look at
the bride.
She finally gets to the front. The program director takes us
down the history of their relationship and that this is their
second wedding, what's different now is that love is involved.

Its time to exchange vows. Bheki is the one to start. I drink

water, Nduna looks at me.
Bheki: I never thought we'd do this one day but here we are,
looking at you soon to be officially my wife. I don't have many
words because I've already told you everything but I'm gonna
tell you this one again. You're the best thing that I've ever had
in my life and I love you.

The crowd cheers. I get a poke on the shoulder. I turn.

Him: I'm gonna need you to leave.
Me: Excuse me.
Him: You're not welcome here.
He grips my arm harshly. I squirm. Nduna jumps on him and
punches him, on the other table they are dragging gogo out.
The old man on the entrance is shouting. "You're not welcome
here Danisile! You and your descendants are not welcome in
my father's grounds!"
Bheki: Leave them alone!
The men holding gogo let go. Nduna punched that one away.
Old man: What are you doing? Take them out! Bheki:
Babomncane stop!
Old man: Shut up Bhekisizwe. You ruin everything! How can
you let her in while she hasn't cleansed us for falling pregnant
for a commoner! She made us a laughing stock!
Gogo: So you keep telling everyone! You're a sorry excuse of a
man Mandlenkosi. Your greed to be the chief has you ruining
my nephews wedding. Take this old rack to the dungeon!

The old man laughs.

Bheki: Did you not hear the princess!

The men take him away. Bheki whispers to the director and he
leaves.
Director: The chief has something to take care of. He says you
can help yourselves with refreshments and the people in the
list to speak about our lovely couple must get ready. We're
sorry for the inconvenience.

Nduna: Let's go.

Mvelo: No baby. Bheki is gonna be heartbroken if we leave.
Nguquko: Just taste the cake already. This was made from
heaven.

I'm still not in good state to communicate. What just

happened?

....
Against all odds the wedding resumed and the fun that
followed we ended up forgetting about that little incident. Our
time to head back to our homes came. I went to say goodbye to
grandma and everybody else I met this time. I looked for Bheki
but didn't find him.
Me: Are we driving to a lodge? I can not spend more than an
hour on the road.
Mvelo: We are.
Nduna: I thought-
Mvelo: We're tired.
Nguquko: I will drive home to my lovely wife.
Nduna: Mvelo
Me: You guys can go. I will stay at the lodge and drive to New
Castle in the morning.
Mvelo: I'm staying with you.
Nduna: Babe we have 2 cars here.
Mvelo: I'll take a taxi tomorrow morning.
Nduna: Let's go to that lodge.

Nguquko takes the car they came with and we get in mine.

We drive to the lodge. 45 minutes away. The waiting at the

front desk makes me wanna scream. Finally they hand us our
keys. I kiss Mvelo goodnight and we go into our different
rooms. I connect my phone on the charger and head to the
bathroom. I fill the tub and get in. What a day. Now I can love
Nqaba without any guilt. His words replay in my head, he
sounded like he was crying at some parts. I wrap a towel
afterwards and go to my phone. I buy airtime and call him.
He answers and say nothing.
Me: I love you and I wanna be with you.
Nqaba: Were you waiting for him to get married so you can be
sure that you want to move on?
Me: No.
Nqaba: I don't want to play games with you.
Me: We won't. I really mean it.
Nqaba: Let's give you a week and see if you still feel the same.
Me: Nqaba.
Nqaba: Goodnight nkosazana. .

He hangs up. I sigh and get inside the covers like that and close
my eyes. I really mean it...
44
"Here we go. Here we go again and now you're telling me that
she is just a friend, that's why she's calling you at 3 o'clock in
the morning. I can't take this no more, ohhh..." I startle.
Me: What's wrong with you. I was getting to my favorite part.
Mike: Well I was tired of shouting like a crazy person. Do you
have sugar here?
Me: I think there is.
Bonisiwe: Its finished. I used it on the steamed bread.
Me: Let's go get it. Mom is gonna freak out if she gets here and
find out she can't make tea.
Bonisiwe: I'll go take the clothes out of the dryer.
She disappears.
Mike: That didn't come out right.
Me: What?
Mike: The mention of your mother.
Me: Oh. Let's go.
Mike: Lexi.
I take my purse and head to the lift. He follows me.

Mike: You have to cut her some slack.

I fasten my seatbelt.
Me: Do you remember when you told me to allow myself to fall
in love?
We drive off.
Mike: Yeah.
Me: I did. The outcome? Horrible.
Mike: And your point is?
Me: I'm never taking anything you say.
Mike: Why did you bring her here then?
Me: Because she needed my help.
Mike: Atleast try to entertain a conversation with her.
Me: We do talk. We just do not have much to talk about that's
it.
Mike: I've been here since Sunday and all I've seen is you
listening to headphones in her presence.
I sigh.
Me: I just have a lot going on right now.
Mike: Try to make her welcome atleast.
Me: Mike please. Having her staying at my place is welcoming.
I truly do not owe her anything.
Mike: Don't you think she regret it?
Me: She doesn't. Let's drop this please.
Mike: Ok. Wanna talk about Nqaba?
Me: He's not taking my calls, I drove by his place when I came
back he wasn't there. I called his work yesterday they said he's
not in.
Mike: Do you love him?
Me: I do but I think he's kindbof fed up with me. He said he's
giving me a week to be sure that I really wanna be with him.
Mike: Do you really wanna be with him?
Me: Yes.

He looks at me and smiles.

Mike: Then look for your man baby. Forever isn't promised.
His phone rings.
Mike: Baby...okay I'm coming.
He hangs up.
Mike: I've got to go home. That sounded like forgiveness.
Me: But why do you cheat?
Mike: Its a habit that I'm trying to fight trust me but its hard.
Me: Try harder! She has a little baby, she doesn't deserve all
this.
Mike: I know. I'm trying to be a better man.
Me: That's what she deserves.

We drive to his place. I drop him off and drive away after
warning him to not tell Tasha he was at my place. I can't be
known for keeping a cheater in time of need.

I start off at the mall and drive to Nqaba's place. I knock until
the guy who lives next door comes out.
Him: Hi.
Me: Hi. Did I wake you? I'm sorry for making noise. I...
Him: Its okay. He hasn't been here since Thursday.
Me: Oh thank you.
Him: You're welcome.

I bid him goodbye and leave. If I drive to surgery right now I'll
be late. My parents are gonna arrive anytime soon. I click on
Nduna's contact and put on an earpiece. This is weird.
Nduna: I'm gonna win lotto. Babe its Lexi!
I laugh.
Me: You might. How are you?
Nduna: I'm good Alexis, how are you?
Me: I'm good, I'm good. Have you heard from Nqaba?
Nduna: No
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his phone isn't going through.
Me: Could you know where he is?
Nduna: No. I called his mother but he's not home.
Me: Ok thank you.
I hang up. Where could he possibly be? I'm getting worried
now. I call the surgery.
Mfundo: Dr Zungu's office, good morning.
Me: Morning, is Dr Zungu in?
Mfundo: Unfortunately no but Dr Johnson is standing in for
him. I can transfer you.
Me: Oh no. I strictly need Dr Zungu. When will he be back?
Mfundo: I have no idea ma'am.
Me: Ok thanks.

I hang up.

....
I find my parents already arrived. We exchange hugs and mom
helps me unpack.
Melissa: So are you hosting for Christmas?
Me: What? Not in 5 years to come.
Marcus: No one wants to host this year so I guess everyone will
spend Christmas at their place.
Me: Not me. I'll be home.
Melissa: I think we should just do that road trip earlier.
Me: Road trip?
Marcus: Yes your mother and I were thinking we'll go for a road
trip as a family on new year's eve.
Me: That would be so much fun. When are we going now?
Melissa: Are you okay with spending Christmas away from
home?
Me: Absolutely.
Marcus: Then we should go this weekend. Is it okay with you
both?
Me: I'm in.
Melissa: We need to shop
Marcus: Bad idea. We'll shop on the way.
Me: I'm so gonna enjoy myself.

We do a group hug. Someone clears their throat. We let go.

Bonisiwe: Good morning
Them: Morning.
Melissa: I peeped through your pot. The smell, I couldn't hold
myself.
Bonisiwe: Its okay.
Marcus: I'll go get some fresh air.
Bonisiwe: I'm gonna prepare the food. Lexi said you usually eat
outside.
Melissa: Yes we do. I'll help you.
Me: Let me go fix the shelter. The sun is not nice out there.

I pour a glass of juice. Bonisiwe seems surprised. She asked my

parents to come over, I guess we'll find out soon why.

Me: I need a little help here.

He's deep in his thoughts. I doubt he even heard me.
Me: Dad.
Marcus: Mmmh?
Me: I need help over here.
Marcus: Oh
He gets up and helps me open the shelter.
Me: Why are you avoiding Bonisiwe so much?
I say after we sit down.
Marcus: Why do you say that?
Me: Because you avoid being in the same space as her every
time.
Marcus: I can't stand her. I tolerate her for your sake.
Me: That's all?
He frowns.
Marcus: What do you mean?
Me: I mean is that all?
Marcus: Yes that's all.

They emerge from inside. I get up to help them prepare the

table. We sit and pray before we dish up. We're silent,
awkward silence.

Her food tastes really nice. She's a good cook I've concluded
because her food always leaves me and the guards wanting
more. Martha had to go home so I paid her and she left. I miss
her; she knew kept Bonisiwe entertained not that Lunga and
Steven can't but she did it better.
Bonisiwe: You know I was trying my luck when I asked you to
come.
Melissa: We are not like that
Bonisiwe: You're not like that. I just wanted to thank you for
letting your daughter stay with me. I know it wasn't an easy
decision but thank you.
Melissa: She did it out of love.

I clear my throat involuntarily. She looks at me and then back at

mom.
Bonisiwe: My accounts are unfrozen. I am gonna look for a new
place. By Thursday I'd be out. I just wanna thank you Lexi for
keeping me under your roof and making sure I had everything I
needed, the therapist and all. I'm really grateful.
Marcus: That is good news. Now I can sleep well at night
knowing you aren't there trying to strangle my child.
Me: Dad!
Melissa: Marcus!
Marcus: Its the truth. I never wanted you here Bonisiwe and
frankly. I wish you were leaving today!

He tosses the napkin on the table and storms inside. Mom

follows him.
Me: I'm sorry.
Bonisiwe: Its okay. I understand.
Me: You don't have to move out.
Bonisiwe: I want to. I can see that I'm invading your space.
You're never here.
Me: That's because I have things to do.
Bonisiwe: No you're avoiding me.
Me: I'm not.
Bonisiwe: I wasn't born yesterday. The way you instantly stop
laughing when I get in when you're with your friends explains
everything. You don't want me here.
Me: If I didn't want you here you wouldn't be here.
Bonisiwe: Then why are you treating me less than a mother.
Me: Because you're not!
I take a deep breath.
Me: You know since you've been here I've been expecting this
one thing whenever I saw you. Whenever I walked in from work
and find you in a couch. I'd expect to hear those words but
you've never. If you do not see anything wrong with what you
did then I really have nothing to discuss with you.
Bonisiwe: How many times you want me to apologize?
Me: You've never apologized. And you know what? Its okay.
You don't have to because when you leave here that'll be the
end of it all. My life will resume like you never existed.
Bonisiwe: Lexi.
Me: Thanks for the food.

I get up and head in. My parents are sitting in the kitchen

drinking wine. Weren't they shouting at each other just now?

I take my phone and find a message from Mvelo.

'Nqaba is at his place. He just called Nduna'

I feel a relief. I try to call him but it goes to voicemail. I go to my
bedroom, I pack my overnight bag and put on sneakers.
Melissa: Whoa! Where are you going?
Me: To degrade myself before a man. Wish me luck.
Marcus: What man?
Me: Your son inlaw.
Them: Jake?
Me: No. Nqaba Zungu.

Dad chokes on the wine.

Me: Sorry.
The lift closes....

***
NQABA

My burner phone rings in my left pocket.

Me: Yes.
Marcus: You son of a bitch.
Me: What have I done?
Marcus: You shagging my daughter?
Me: You woke me up for that? And I didn't know she's your
daughter until I fell inlove with her.
Marcus: Didn't she tell you her last name?
Me: No.
Marcus: Break up with her. You hear me? I'm not gonna have
you as my son inlaw. My child can't be with a thug.
Me: Daughters marry their fathers. Bye Marc.
Marcus: I'm gonna kill you.
Me: I might do it first. Your parcels just landed. Send your boys
to go get them before Bheki Cele gets suspicious.

I hang up.

"Nqaba I know you're here"

I get up and open. She's not wearing a wig. I find myself

smiling.
Lexi: Can I come in?
Me: Yes.

I hug her and close the door.

Me: I missed you.
Lexi: Why weren't you taking my calls? I was going crazy.
Me: Who told you I'm here?
Lexi: Mvelo.

She hugs me again crying now.

Lexi: don't ever do that. You stressed me out. I love you.
Me: I won't. And I'm sorry. I love you more.

She lets go.

Lexi: I bought you pyjamas.
Me: What? Why?
Lexi: To wear on our lazy days.
Me: Haw ngeke sthandwa sam. Lezo zinto ezabantu abagulayo
esbhedlela ai thina zinsizwa. (Never. Those things are for sick
people at the hospital not us) haw ne gown? (And the gown?)
Nedlozi lingangijikela malingangibona ngigqoke lelijazi lama
coconut. (My ancestors would turn their backs on me if they
saw me wearing this)

She laughs.
Lexi: I know one day you will need them.
Me: Angeke! (I won't)

She leaves me standing there and head to the bedroom

jumping. Is she really happy to see me? I missed her
45
***7 months later***
My new title is Godmother of a very cute goddaughter Anathi
Priscilla Mlangeni. No one stood up against Nqaba when
naming her Priscilla because the parents just grew heart eyes
when he said it. She is 6 weeks old now, it took all the power in
the world Nqaba to even hold her, his beliefs go against holding
infants, I had to emotionally blackmail him about what will he
do when we have ours, he fell right into my trap and agreed.

So far so good. The Ncubes demanded demages, my dad paid

them in a snap. Uncle Bheki and Auntie Gugu are expecting,
they are happy and I am happy for them. Mike is getting
married, Philani got married in May so did Will and Kate. The
past months have been quite busy and fast. So much happiness
around me. Gogo visits anytime she wants, she loves my
mother but what's there not to love about that woman?
Bonisiwe is bringing her business back to it's feet, we talk
sometimes. Jake is married too! He invited me but I was too
busy to attend so on Monday he sent our magazine an invite to
his new home, we're more than glad to go, we've taken interest
in businessmen's house tours. Our last issue everyone kept
talking about Mzwakhe Mbongeli's house so we now gonna
have house tours on each issue.
The parents have met Nqaba, at a mall after I convinced him to
drive me to get cosmetics because his famous grandpa will stab
him to death if he ever steps his foot to my father's house while
he hasn't paid lobola for me. The things that can't be done
because of his grandpa that will stab him are numerous. Its
annoying really.

My phone rings as I head to Will's office. Its mom.

Me: My love.
Melissa: Hey baby. I just saw your call.
Me: Its okay. How are you?
Melissa: Yes I am fine. Can you try harder on convincing Dr
Zungu to have dinner with us tomorrow evening?
Me: I'm not promising anything.
Melissa: Tell him its my birthday.
I chuckle.
Me: Okay I will. Let me call you back later.
Melissa: Your dad says hi.
Me: Send my love to him.
Melissa: I will baby. Bye.
Me: Bye.

I hang up and greet Snazo, the new pa.

Snazo: He's with Mrs McVeigh.
Me: Please tell him I'm here.
She nods and call him
Snazo: You can go in.
Me: Thank you.

I push the door open.

Me: If you get pregnant we gonna name that baby Office.
They laugh. They are so inseparable.
Kate: I brought the report.
Me: I see. I brought this too, I need your signature and the
stamp. We're going to Sandhurst.
Kate: Shoot! I forgot
let me go look for the perfect lenses.
She runs out.
Me: William!
Will: What?
Me: Stop distracting her please.
Will: I don't.
Me: Why is she here? Don't you all share a bed?
Will: We do. You wouldn't understand.
Me: I give up.

He signs, stamps and give me the papers back.

Me: We probably gonna spend the whole day there.
Will: Keep the boys off my woman.
Me: Yes sir!

He laughs and wishes us luck. I leave.

Where's Carlos anyway? I pack my things and leave. I send Kate
the address and I drive there.

...
The wife gives us a warm welcome and serves us cocktails as
we wait for Jake to come attend to us. She looks nervous.
Me: We are not TV people. Relax.
She laughs nervously.
Tammy: I know I know. I just can't help it. What if the cleaner
didn't clean thoroughly and people zoom in and find mistakes?
Me: Oh my God calm down. That will not happen.
Tammy: More drinks?
Me: Yes please. These taste heavenly you should share the
recipe if its not a secret.
Tammy: Ofcourse not! I'll write it down for you.

She walks away. Kate takes a sip.

Kate: Does she know?
Me: I don't think so. She wouldn't be so nice. This house is truly
beautiful.
Kate: It could've been yours.
Me: Oh please.
Kate: Don't you wanna turn back the time?
Me: No. I'm good where I'm at babe trust me.
Kate: He's using a spell on you. He's a total opposite of what
you'd go for.
Me: That's what makes him special.

Jake: Good day good people.

Us: Hi!
That came out a little too loud. He shakes our hands and sit on
his single red fancy chair.
Jake: Shall we start?
Me: Yes Sir. Your wife is a sweetheart.
Jake: I know right.

She comes back with more cocktails.

Me: Thank you boo.
Tammy: Pleasure.
She goes to stand behind Jake and massages him.
Tammy: When are we starting?
Jake: Right now.
Kate gets up and set her camera on stand by.
Me: Let's start with this beautiful lounge. I wanna know about
the paint, chairs, couches, flowers and e everything else in
here.
Tammy takes a shaky deep breath and sits on her husband's
lap. So cute.
Tammy: Uhm babe, let's start with the kitchen.
Kate: Awesome! But we don't have much time. Lexi you gonna
take the different wing with either of them.
Tammy: I guess my team will be winning. Let's go Lexi.
Jake: I'll take Lexi with me since what's in her hand are
questions for me. I'll be answering them on the tour.
Tammy: Ok. I'm gonna miss you.

He hugs her close and they kiss. So much love around here. My
phone beeps.

"Sawbona mama wezingane I miss you"

Well I am not responding to this. He thinks he can not see me
last night when he was supposed to and then text me only
twice? He's not sorry.
Me: Shall we?
Jake: Ofcourse.

By the time we finish I nolonger wanna be here. There's giving

someone a tour in your house and then there's bragging. Jake
bragged it bored me.

I'm just glad we're done...

***
NQABA

I bid my last patient goodbye and relaxes on the chair. I hate it

when this place is packed. I don't appreciate these different
faces I see everyday.

"Mr McVeigh is here for you sir"

She says with her head half in. I sign for her to let him in. I look
for my micro phone in my drawers. He makes his way in with a
smirk on his face, now I would rather see my patient's faces
than his. He sits himself down.
Marcus: Is that a mic?
Me: Yes. I figured you don't hear me well when I speak to you
on my normal voice.

I turn on my speaker.
Marcus: Stop playing hard to get for fucks sake!
Me: Christ's sake would've softened me up.
Marcus: Just come back already. You know you're the master
mind. We are all stuck.
Me: Maybe its about time you all quit old men. How old are you
all? 50 but you still wanna be involved in pharmaceuticals?
Come on.
Marcus: That's how we earn money. These frickin companies
do not bring enough money Zungu you know that.
Me: I don't because I make R3000 an hour and that's enough
for a man who's ready to settle down and finally have a family.
Marcus: With my daughter?
He scoffs. "Lexi is not marriage type. Let alone a family! She
loves and values her figure more than anything. Just wake up
from that fairytale and come back to work"

I increase the volume and pat my mic.

Me: I AM NOT. CAN YOU PLEASE GET UP AND LEAVE MY
OFFICE?
Marcus: We'll be waiting for you. I know you will not be enough
with that R3000 per hour. Your appetite for wealth is huge.
Me: GET OUT.

He gets up and leaves. I pack my things and prepare to leave.

....
My new place! Such a warm beautiful home. Mom outdid
herself with the deco. I fell inlove the moment I saw it after
they finished. Nqaba wouldn't sleep at the penthouse so I had
to move in here before I even wanted to. He said he feels like
my dad is watching us. I don't know what's wrong with these
men because Bheki didn't like much the idea of spending the
night there.
I throw my bag on the couch and change to pyjamas. I have
pyjamas for days, winter always has me buying pyjamas every
time I go to the shops. Nqaba's are still here even though he
never wears them but they are here just in case he changes his
mind. I fix myself a sandwich, my fridge is now also a polony
factory.

I settle in front of the TV but don't pay attention because Mvelo

and I are texting. She's yearning for sex but there's a lot of
weeks left till she can have some.

...
"Lexi?" I'm shook. I open my eyes, the tv is still blabbering.
Nqaba: Hey. Why are you sleeping on the couch?
Me: I must've fallen asleep. When did you arrive?
There's a smell of freshly cooked food.
Nqaba: Just now. I brought food. Are you okay?
Me: Yeah. Why are you whispering?
He chuckles. And let out a sigh. He gets up and put his hands in
his jacket pockets. He's not himself. I sit upright.
Me: Are you okay?
Nqaba: No. My knees are wobbly and my palms are sweaty.

He takes a deep breath and looks the other direction.

Nqaba: Do you mind having my surname?
Me: Huh?
Nqaba: Ngithi awufuni na ukuba owaka Zungu?
Me: You're speaking in riddles.
Nqaba: Babe what I mean is. Do you mind having my surname,
kids, we share life together forever.
I laugh. He laughs.
Me: I think I get you. God you're so terrible at this.
Nqaba: Do you want to?
I get up and hold both his sweaty and trembling hands.
Me: Yes I'll marry you Nqabayethu.
Nqaba: Ngiyabonga sthandwa sami.
He takes a box out of his pocket.
Nqaba: Shit This is harder than I thought.
Me: Are you for real? You really proposing?
I'm shaking now. This here before my eyes is a very beautiful
ring.
Nqaba: Yes I am. Please don't cry. Lexi no I'm also nervous.
Me: Wait wait.

I wipe my tears. I rich for my phone and start recording.

Me: Ok pop the question.
Nqaba: What?
Me: We need to capture this moment. For our kids.
Nqaba: We gonna have kids?
Me: Yes, little Brentwood wearing kids with unruly hair if they
take my genes.

He goes down on both knees.

Nqaba: Sabathile Alexis McVeigh. Would you please be my
wife?
Me: Yes!!!!
He slid it in. It fits!!!
I kneel too and we hug. I'm crying, with all the hard time I've
given and still giving him, he's seen me worth to be his life
partner.
Me: I love you so much.
Nqaba: I love you so much and so glad you're in my life.

We get up. He runs to the bathroom. I rush after him. He's

peeing. I chuckle.
Nqaba: Ei ngidinga udokotela. Ngagcina ukusaba kanje
ngenkathi ngibona utikoloshe when I was 14. (I need a Dr. The
last time I was this scared in my life was when I saw a zombie.)
Yeses my knees need me to rest.
Me: Come let's eat and sleep.

He finishes washing his hands. He smiles and picks me up

heading back to the lounge.

Aunt Mary is the first one to receive this video after I tell my
parents tomorrow at dinner...
46
He might as well just move in because he spends his entire days
here.
Me: What kind of a CEO that is always free?
Will: An advanced one. He attends meetings on skype.
Me: Advanced indeed.
Will: Plans for lunch?
Me: Not any.
Will: Ok. Can we go to the mall? I have no idea what to buy for
Melissa.
Me: Me too honestly.
Will: Let's get her a car.
Me: Really?
Will: Yeah, she hasn't bought a car in 3 years I think a new one
will do.
Me: Perfect.
Will: See you in an hour.
Me: Cool.
He walks out. Its really hard to get a gift for someone who has
every thing and worse; Picky.

I finish editing and make myself coffee. Carlos gets in.

Carlos: Someone's here for you.
Me: Let them in.
Carlos: ok.

What's that suppressed laughter expression. My mouth hangs

open when he walks in. I never prepared myself for this. He
puts the flowers and the paperbagon top of my desk.
Me: Hi
Its high pitched. He smiles and take a box out of the gown
pocket.
Nqaba: You forgot your ring.
I look at my finger.
Me: Jesus thank you baby. I'm not used to such things.
I even forgot I own it. Infact I forgot I agreed to be someone's
wife. I slide it in. I see relief in his eyes, now we address the
dress code. He turns around and waves the robe.
Nqaba: I look like a mad man, right?
He laughs.
Me: No you look good.
I kiss his lips.
Nqaba: I feel funny.
I laugh.
Me: Why did you wear them?
Nqaba: Because you're soon to be my wife, you'll now have
power to force me into them so I decided to wear them
willingly. I brought you food.
Me: Thank you love.

I take it out, we sit on the couch and we eat. Trust my man to

wear pyjamas in public but I love him as crazy as he is.
Nqaba: Have you told your mom?
Me: No we gonna tell them tonight.
Nqaba: Tonight?
Me: Yes. We talked about it yesterday.
Nqaba: We did?
Me: Yes Nqaba we did.
He blinks a few times.
Nqaba: I agreed?
Me: Yes.
Nqaba: Is your dad gonna be there?
Me: Yes. It's mom's birthday dinner.
He scratches his head.
Nqaba: What about his friends?
Me: Uncle Sbopho and his wife might come I don't know about
the rest.
Nqaba: Is he black?
Me: Yes and friendly.
Nqaba: Ok.

He takes my hand and kisses it.

...
We had to use the McVeigh card to get atleast the car keys
while they processed the purchase. We accompanied it with
some flowers and chocolate.

Nqaba is looking at me as I get dressed. I found him still here

when I got back.
Nqaba: You look great.
Me: Really? Isn't the slit too much?
Nqaba: For me, no its not but it is for the strange men that'll be
there drooling over your thighs. I am not planning on punching
anyone tonight.

I grab the black dress and slide into it. Its been 2 hours of me
getting ready I know he's pissed but won't say a thing.

We start off at the garage to fill the tank. He gets inside to get
us snacks. The drive is quiet, just thigh rubbing, hand holding
and kissing. I am enjoying it.

Nqaba: Am I gonna get paid or what?

He says after we arrive at the McVeighs.
Me: For what?
Nqaba: Ukuba uring boy.
I look at my hand and laugh. I forgot it again.
Me: Yes Ofcourse you gonna get paid.

I kiss him.
Me: My head is failing to get this in. I never thought this
moment will ever come in my life, I am yet to adjust.
Nqaba: I understand.
Me: Stop being sad.
Nqaba: I can't help it.
Me: I love you when you're being a baby.
Nqaba: Don't tell anyone. I am a hardcore.

He says with a little smile that makes my hairs stand.

We hop out. I spot aunt Mary's car. Mom!

Me: My bitter aunt is here. Don't mind anything she says.
Nqaba: As long as she won't comment about my race.
Me: She will.
Nqaba: Its not too late to turn back, you can tell your mother I
couldn't make it.
Me: No. Can I have that jacket? Its really hot
Nqaba: Hhaibo Lexi. That would be disrespectful of me.
Me: My dad doesn't believe in that. Relax.
Nqaba: Stop convincing me. Let's go.

He takes my hand and we head in. Kate rushes to us and hugs

me.
Kate: Your people are too much for me. Hi Nqaba.
Nqaba: Hello.
Me: Where is Britney?
Kate: Somewhere snuggled up in her husband's arms. Your aunt
took Will and they vanished.
Me: Let me find mom and then we'll find a spot for ourselves.
Nqaba: I forgot the gift in my car. I'll go get it.
Me: Ok. I'll go find mom.
***
NQABA

I walk out. I do not want to be here. Spending more than an

hour in Sbopho and Marcus's company won't be pleasant.

I unlock the car and take out the gift bag. I turn to Sbopho after
closing.
Sbopho: You're a very brave man.
Me: Sawbona nawe Ngwane.
Sbopho: Do you have good news for me?
Me: Yes. I'm getting married.
Sbopho: Don't fuck with me Zungu.
Me: Ok.

He grips my arm as I attempt to walk away.

Me: Don't start. Not at my girlfriends home.
He lets go.
Sbopho: We don't wanna play hide and seek with you Nqaba.
You do not fall in love, wake up from that damn fairytale!
Me: That's what Marcus McVeigh installed in me, turns out I do
fall in love and karma chose his daughter to be the one I fall
inlove with. I am done with that life, I have repaid you all for
that sponsorship now I'm done!

I rush in before I lose it and burst. 13 years serving these

bastards, I repaid the money they paid my fees with and gave
them more. I am done being their puppet.

I bump into Marcus on my way in followed by Lexi.

Marcus: We were on our way to get you.
Lexi holds me.
Lexi: Are you okay?
Me: Yeah I'm fine.
Sbopho walks in. Lexi looks at him and then pulls me away.

Mrs McVeigh is the first one to greet and hug me. This western
life. Mother inlaws do not do the hugging back home
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infact you avoid social contact with them.
Mrs McVeigh: I am so happy to finally meet you.
Me: Likewise ma.
Lexi: Everyone this is Nqaba, my boyfriend. Baby this is, Aunt
Mary, Kate, Will, Aunt Zethu, Britney and Matthews.
Me: Good evening.
Them: Hello.
Aunt Mary: I know you.
Me: Me too.
Aunt Mary: Lexi, you have a horrible choice in men. This boy
once mugged me. Why don't you date men with tangible
careers?
Lexi: He's a Dr.
Aunt Mary: Where did you buy your qualification?
Me: E Wits.
Melissa: Mary please do not ruin my birthday dinner. You may
take a seat.
We sit down. They pray and the best part of life comes, dishing
up. I am unfamiliar with most of the food so I just stick to what I
know.

Lexi: Uhm family, mom sorry to moment but...

She waves her hand in the air. Everyone's fork drops, Marcus
chokes on his food. Lexi is laughing.
Aunt Mary: Finally! Thank you thug boy.
Marcus: I need to get wine for this, Nqaba can you come help
me.
Me: Yeah sure.

I wipe my mouth and follow him.

We head to the kitchen. He turns and push me against the wall

with his elbow on my throat.
Marcus: You son of a bitch.
I push him off.
Marcus: I told you to leave her.
Me: I do not take orders from you McVeigh.
Marcus: You're forcing my hand to let her know the real you.
You think she'll love you after that?
Me: Try and we'll see who'll win because I will tell her who you
are and what you do. Imagine losing your one and only
daughter, tragic.
Marcus: You wouldn't dare.
Me: Wouldn't I? Try me Marcus, try me. Where's the wine?

He storms out. That's the thing about people, when you stop
dancing to their tune they go crazy...
47
Its really happening. Its terrifying. 5 weeks ago I agreed to
marry a man and today he's bringing lobola, I am going to
commit my life to a man. I never thought someone would see
me and think I'm fit enough to be his wife and actually wife me.
My dad isn't really happy that I'm really heading to marriage.
Parents do not know what they want. I glance at my wrist
watch. I have been going up and doing absolutely nothing. I am
just nervous. I stand over the window and watch tree move left
to right, this wind is frustrating me. The clock is ticking.

Mvelo gets in.

Mvelo: Take a seat and breathe.
Me: I can't. They're late.
Mvelo: Lobolas are like this. Something always got to go
wrong.
Me: What if he changed his mind?
She laughs.
Mvelo: Just seat down and breathe!
Me: I'm gonna call him.
Mvelo: Their phones aren't going through.
Me: Maybe something happened to them.
Mvelo: Nothing happened to them. They are on the way.
Should I fix you something to down the nerves?
Me: No Mvelo. I wanna see the Zungus at my gate.

I am getting emotional. I sit down on the chair and take a deep

breath. What am I gonna do if they don't show up at all? My
phone rings. I jump up and grab it. Its him.
Me: Hey
Nqaba: We forgot the livestock permit at home. I'm sorry.
What is the pin for the Absa card?
Me: Where are you?
Nqaba: Mandela square.
Me: Nqaba
He chuckles.
Nqaba: Are you nervous?
Me: I'm dying!
Nqaba: They must be at your gate now.
I hear cows mowing.
Me: What did you mean by livestock permit?
Nqaba: We couldn't go past Volkrust without permit.
Me: Babe we agreed on money.
Nqaba: There is but I couldn't sell the rest.
Me: You said there won't be live cows last night.
Nqaba: I love you.
Me: I love you more.
Nqaba: Let me get a drink. I'll call you later.
Me: Okay.
Nqaba: Take a deep breath.
I do.
Me: Talk later.

I hang up. Whew!

Mvelo hugs me. I cry in her shoulder.
Me: I thought he changed his mind.
Mvelo: He wouldn't. He loves you khalathi lakhe.
I laugh and we let go. Nqaba's younger brother calls me that.
We met 2 weeks ago when he came to see Nqaba. He's friendly
than he looks. He complained about hunger after saying he
misses his mother's beef stew. I had to make a plan. Mike
delivered that stew from Kwathema restaurant. I've been
reading recipes but the outcomes are never good because if its
not burned, the taste buds can't handle the taste.
Me: Now I'm crossing fingers dad doesn't ruin this for me.
Mvelo: He won't. Puff your face, they will call you anytime from
now on. I'll go check on my desert.
Me: Bring me Anathi.
Mvelo: Ok.

I puff my face in the mean time...

***
NQABA

He comes back from the resr rooms. He takes a seat across me

and chuckles.
Me: Yini? (What?)
Mbuzo: You're really doing this?
Me: Ini? (What?)
Mbuzo: Loving someone and wanting to marry her.
Me: Yeah.

I take a sip of my coffee.

Mbuzo: What's special about her?
Me: Everything.
Mbuzo: She can't cook
you broke up with Lindi for Pam because Lindi couldn't cook
and clean.
Me: That was my definition of a good woman. A woman I
thought was best to live with Ma.
Mbuzo: Now you don't care?
Me: Yes. I'm marrying Lexi for myself, not ma or any of you.
Mbuzo: You're the first born. The woman you marry is for you
and ma.
Me: Well I'll crown one of you to take my place.
Mbuzo: I'm glad you finally saw goodness in marriage.
Mangubo will be happy to have someone to change her in
taking care of umah.
Me: Yeah.

Our food arrives. I check if Nduna has texted. He hasn't. Those

old men must be giving them hell....

***
ALEXIS

I get to my room and take a deep breath. Mom and Mvelo

laugh.
Me: My insides are turning.
Melissa: Here. Drink some water. If you feel like this at the
negotiations you're definitely dying on your wedding day.
Mvelo: Please tell her. I wasn't this nervous on my
negotiations.
Me: I'm getting married Mvelo. I just knelt before my inlaws,
nodded when Nduna said they finally have a wife that will cook
fpr them!
Mvelo: He was just pulling your leg relax.
Me: That's what is expected of me.
Melissa: Everyone can cook and they measure everything right.
When the day comes, we'll skype and direct you how to make
whatever you're making.

She makes it sound so easy. I lay down next to Anathi. They

leave me to serve the live cows bringing people. I know my dad
can't wait for this to be over so he can burn me for these cows.

...
Isn't the couple supposed to see each other after the
negotiations?

I finish putting on pyjamas and go downstairs to pass my

gratitude to uncle Sbopho for representing us.
Sbopho: So early?
He says when I walk in.
Me: Its 8pm.
Sbopho: That's early.
I chuckle and sit next to daddy dearest.
Me: I wanted to thank you for coming. It really means a lot. I
don't know how we would've handled this without you.
Sbopho: We're family dolly.
Me: Yeah I know.
Sbopho: You're now someone's bride to be. You know what
does that mean?
Me: I do.
Sbopho: You now have someone you report to your every
move. You chose a very demanding tribe. I hope you know
that.
Me: I do.
I don't wanna have such a conversation with them.
Me: Let me go sleep. Its been a long day..
I get up.
Marcus: You still have time to change your mind.
Me: About what?
Marcus: Marrying him.
Me: Dad
He shrugs.
Marcus: Just saying.
Me: Goodnight old men.
Them: Goodnight baby.

I leave...

...
I woke up early this morning and prepared to go meet up with
Nqaba in Sandton. He loves it. We spoke until late last night. He
managed to calm me down because I was mad he didn't come
to see me.

I wait for him at the cafe. I am surprised he isn't here because

he was rushing me saying he's leaving his place. I order coffee
and chat with Mvelo. We chat until Nqaba Zungu arrives,
looking like my true Zulu husband to be. He leans over to kiss
me and sits down.
Nqaba: Traffic. You look beautiful.
Me: Thank you.
I am wearing a dress. He's never seen me wearing one.
Nqaba: So you're officially Mrs Zungu to be
Me: Yes I am.

He smiles shyly and keeps playing with my hand.

Nqaba: The way everyone around is surprised by this. They're
making me nervous.
Me: Me too. I hate it
Nqaba: Umuntu ozothi nywerenywere nje from now on
ngizomfaka unyawo. (If anyone says anything from now on I'll
kick them"

I laugh.
Me: I'm opposing.
Nqaba: You'll see. We are here to shop.
Me: Really?
Nqaba: Yes. More dresses and skirts.
Me: Why dresses and skirts?
He raise his brows.
Nqaba: Because usuwumakoti wakwaZungu.
Me: Nqaba.
Nqaba: We are going home soon. You need to own dresses and
skirts because omakoti abalifaki ibhulukwe. (Wives do not wear
pants)
I forgot that part. I now have 2 problems about going to his
home.
Me: I forgot. When is soon?
Nqaba: When you get time.
Me: I'm free next weekend.
Nqaba: Then we'll go. What did you do the cows?
Me: Dad took them to Standerton. He was so annoyed.

We laugh.
Nqaba: Ubaba didn't agree on selling all the cows. I'm sorry.
Me: Its okay my love.
Nqaba: Thank you for agreeing to be my wife Alexis.
Me: Its my pleasure babe. I love you
Nqaba: I love you more than anything.

"Nqabayethu!" I jump and spill the coffee all over the table.
Isn't she everywhere!
Pam: I don't know what I did not do right but I know she didn't
do half of it because she's nothing but a stupid hood rat.
She's crying. She looks miserable.
Nqaba grabs my hand and pull me up.
Nqaba: Let's go.
Pam blocks him.
Pam: You leave without a word and then a year later you're
paying lobola for someone else? How could you do this to me. I
waited for you. I still am.
I look at Nqaba. He shakes his head. I withdraw my hand.
Nqaba: Can you not do this here?
Pam: Why? Why are you hurting me so much?
Nqaba: I'll call your mother.

I don't even know why am I still here. I walk away. Nqaba

follows after me.
Nqaba: We used to date. She's on drugs.
Me: You told her we would be here?
Nqaba: ofcourse not. Sthandwa sami listen.

He grips my arm. We stop.

Nqaba: She comes to that cafe every morning to meet her
dealer. I'm sorry about that.
Me: I'm hungry.

I free myself from his grip and head to another restaurant....

48
I slam my boot and head for the front door. He stops me. I look
at him. He sighs. He looks drained.
Nqaba: Can we please go to my place.
Me: No. I wanna go home and lie down.
Nqaba: I think we need to address this.
Me: Did you know me then?
Nqaba: When?
Me: When she had me arrested?
Nqaba: Who?
Me: That woman! Did you know me!
Nqaba: No. I didn't.
Me: So you're still with her?
Nqaba: No.
Me: She said she's waiting for you. You left without a word. She
still has hope. Why are you making someone feel like they still
have a chance with you?
Nqaba: I'm sorry. I did what I thought was best then. I don't
wanna fight.
Me: Me too.
Nqaba: Now can we please go home?
Me: Hop in.
Nqaba: I'm driving.

I give him the keys. He walks with me to open the door for me.
We drive off.
Nqaba: Why did she get you arrested?
I snort.
Me: She touched my hair and I slapped her.
He laughs.
Nqaba: Haw nkosi yami uPam wabantu. (Poor Pam)
Me: I was frustrated. My dad had cut down my allowance and
they told me to look for a job.
Nqaba: You should've looked for me. I'd have been your
blesser.
I chuckle and adjust my seat back.
Me: Why did you leave her?
Nqaba: I didn't love her. Not how much she wanted me to.
Me: You should've told her.
Nqaba: I did, many times but she wouldn't accept it so I had to
leave like that.
Me: Why me?
Nqaba: I don't know Sabathile. I asked myself that every night.
You feel like what they call a soulmate. I've never wanted to
change my ways for anyone but I did for you. You're special to
me.

He takes my hand and kisses it.

Nqaba: I never knew I am able to cry until I met you. You bring
out the real Nqabayethu Zungu. I've lived to be this take no
nonsense kind of guy, feared for existing and knowing a certain
people, never laughs and hold down a conversation for more
than 10 minutes but you've changed all that. Worst of all I had
a temper, I was a ticking bomb. I can't thank you enough for
agreeing to be in my life.
He's got glassy eyes. He's such a cute big baby.
Me: Pull over.
He looks at me with a frown and pulls over.
Me: Come.
I hop out. He does too via my door. I wrap my short self around
him.
Me: There's no better feeling in this world for someone you
love to be themselves around you. I am glad you can open up to
me. We're partners for life.
Nqaba: Sizoba nini nengane? (When are we gonna have a
baby?)
Yes he's random like that. I move my head from his chest and
tilt it to look at him. He smiles.
Me: You have a little dimple on your chin.
Nqaba: Do I?
Me: Yes. It's so tiny.
Nqaba: Should the baby inherit it?
Me: Yes it can.
Nqaba: Next year or 3 years to come?
Me: Why don't we start trying sooner?
Nqaba: When is that?
Me: 30 minutes.
Nqaba: Babe I'm serious.
Me: Me too. We can throw out all those condoms now.
Nqaba: My head is spinning. You scare me when you agree to
anything.
I laugh.
Me: Why? Isn't that what you want?
Nqaba: It is but you used to challenge me.
He kisses my forehead.
Nqaba: Let's go park there and order food.
Me: No let's go. I wanna cook.
Nqaba: No!
Me: Yes!
Nqaba: I'll be dead by the time you finish.
Me: I'll make you the nono sandwich.
Nqaba: Ok ke.

We hop in and drive away...

****
I am tired. I want to drink pills that will knock me out until
tomorrow morning. Mom wouldn't let me sleep, we baked until
3am this morning. 3 20Ls. The fuss of me marrying to Nqaba is
annoying. She advised that we drive by the mall and buy
groceries.

How do you even buy groceries for people you do not know?
Nqaba doesn't make it better by saying 'anything is fine'
Me: Do they eat pickles?
Mvelo: No but you can buy it for yourself. Go get yeasts.
Me: For? Do I need to do more baking?
Mvelo: Yes. Steamed bread.
Me: I can't make that thing.
Mvelo: Take it!

I sigh. Nqaba has ditched me with some of the grocery. I'm left
here to get the little things.
Me: What about breakfast?
Mvelo: Just get lots of polony because you know your person.
Me: Already bought that.
Mvelo: Eggs and margarine. Don't forget teabags and milk,
powdered milk.
Me: I bought liquid.
Mvelo: Its okay but buy powder now.

Anathi cries.
Me: I'll call you later when we arrive.
Mvelo: Ok we love you.
Me: I love you more.

I hang up and get everything else that I think is needed and go

to check out.

I need a special teacher to teach me how to be a good modern

makoti. Most of all I need a personal trainer for cooking.

I find him standing with Mbuzo outside the car. I greet them.
Mbuzo: Are you good makoti?
Me: I'm good. How are you?
Mbuzo: I'm great. I didn't expect to see you this soon.
Me: Here I am.
Mbuzo: How do you like our town?
Me: Its small and easy. I can come on my own next time.
Nqaba raises his brows. I hit him playfully. He laughs.
Nqaba: I know you won't come alone.
Mbuzo: Don't discourage her. Makoti, I'll see you all tomorrow.
Me: Ok go well.

They finish putting the plastics in the boot. I walk to my door

and hop in. Nqaba follows after a while.
Me: Doesn't he live with you?
Nqaba: He does. He's going to his wife.
Me: Oh.

I don't get it though.

Me: How far are we?
Nqaba: 30 minutes.
Me: I wanna take a nap.
Nqaba: Your aeroplane pillow is on the boot.
That's supposed to be my neck pillow.
Me: I'll manage.

I adjust my seat a bit lower and close my eyes.

...
I am woken up by noise of little children screaming. I open my
eyes. We're here, this is many kids. I didn't bring enough
goodies for so many little people. Nqaba opens my door.
Nqaba: We're here.
Me: That was quick.
Nqaba: Come, you need to rest.
Me: What about the groceries?
Nqaba: They'll come take it.

I get off and head inside the house we're parked in. There's 1
main house and rondavels and flats. They all look new.
This flat smells new. Fresh cement. It's pretty big, enough to
accommodate the queen bed, 3 piece wardrobe, a tiny
computer table, couch
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tv stand and a laundry basket. There's still space left. I wonder
who set it up for him.

I put my tiny bag on the chair below the bed and and take off
my shoes. I throw myself on the bed. Its so comfy!

My blood cells must be rejoicing to lay down. Nqaba walks in

with my 2 luggage.
Nqaba: Is it comfortable?
Me: Yes.
A young man walks in. He looks like Nqaba and Mbuzo, tall as
they are.
Him: Sanibona.
Nqaba: What's the rush? Why are you so tall?
He hugs him in and brushes his head.
Him: I can't stop growing.
Nqaba: How tall are you gonna be when you're 18?
What? Nqaba laughs.
Nqaba: he's 16. This is Mbuzo's first born. Bahle this is Mam
Sabathile.
Bahle: nice to finally meet you.
Me: Likewise.

We shake hands.
Bahle: Mkhulu is here.
Nqaba's face changes.
Nqaba: Get some rest. I'll come with hot water.
Me: Ok.

They walk out. I strip naked and wrap a towel around me. I
climb on the bed and text mom, Mike, Mvelo and dad. A knock
comes through.
Me: Come in.
A woman gets in. She's dressed like all the other women I've
seen here. The cape, I do not understand it.
Her: Yehheni. Ulele?
She laughs. I jump off the bed.
Me: Shouldn't I?
Her: Your mamazalas are coming to see you.
Me: No.
Her: Yebo ntombi. Put on some clothes, you're really beautiful.
Me: Thank you.
Her: Oh, ngingu Mangubo. (I am Mangubo)
Me: Alexis.
She laughs.
Mangubo: Aibo, sizokubiza ngomaMalveigh. (We'll call you
maMalveigh)
Me: It's McVeigh. And you don't have to, I don't mind being
called by my name.
Mangubo: They will call you maMalveigh. Let me go prepare for
tomorrow.
Me: What's happening?
Mangubo: Its Saturday, Sabbath. We're Nazareths.
Me: Oh.
Mangubo: I'll see you later.
Me: okay.

She walks out. I change into the dress I was wearing, a jacket
and a doek. This is woman abuse. Its too hot for all these
things.

I sit on the chair and wait for them. A little boy gets in and lay a
grass mat a bit far from the bed. He walks out. My phone rings,
the door opens as I reach for it. I put it on silent and sit back
down.
Old woman: Angikaze ngikuzwe! Uqhwakele emzini?
Not so old: Awukahle sisi. Sawubona ngane yam.
I get up.
Me: Yebo ma.
Not so old: There's a mat behind you.
I turn and see it. I take it and lay it then sit. They sit too.
Old woman: Hhai imikhuba yo Nqaba.
She claps her hands. Monster in law one.
Not so old: We are your mothers. I am MaNkosi Nqaba's step
mother and this is MaNgubane Nqaba's uncle's wife. Nqaba's
mother is not well so we're here on her behalf.
MaNgubane: Do you know what that means?
Me: No
Mangubane: It means she drinks medication at 7am in the
morning and-

Mankosi stops her.

Mankosi: We welcome you KwaZungu. We looking forward to
know you and teach you all that you need to know about this
home.
Me: Thank you.
MaNkosi: If you need to ask anything, just buzz me.

She takes out a piece of paper and place it down.

Me: I will.
The little boy gets in again and ask for MaNgubane.
MaNgubane: Let's meet tomorrow morning.
She leaves. I finally breathe.
MaNkosi: You can sit on a chair.
I chuckle.
Me: I wouldn't risk it.
She narrows her eyes.
MaNkosi: Thank you Sabathile. This is gonna be the first in 12
years that Nqaba sleeps at home.
Me: He never sleeps here?
Mankosi: No. This flat had to be built after the negotiations.
He's never bothered to build himself a house here. Just know I
appreciate your presence in his life. Maybe you'll convince him
better to mend his relationship with his father. I've accepted
that him and I will never connect but his father, he breaks every
time when he talks about how close they used to be before I
came into the picture.
Me: I will try.
She smiles.
MaNkosi: I'll see you tomorrow after church.
Nqaba walks in. MaNkosi gets up and bid me goodbye. Nqaba
doesn't even acknowledge her. He throws himself on the bed
and grunt.
Nqaba: Couldn't they come at least tomorrow?
Me: Its okay.
Nqaba: Mam MaNgubane is too forward. Didn't he mention
umaka boy?
Me: Was she supposed to?
Nqaba: She always mention it to me.
Me: She didn't. What's her deal?
Nqaba: We used to date. She fell pregnant and said the child is
mine.
He laughs.
Nqaba: MaNgubane agreed it was mine when they came with
it.
Me: Why did you deny it?
Nqaba: Because we weren't active. Mathambo is missing.
Me: I'm sorry. Since when?
Nqaba: They say he was here in the morning. Maybe he's out to
see his girlfriend.
I get up and take the piece of paper.
Me: You look less worried.
Nqaba: You want me to cry?
Me: Yes. Your baby is missing.
Nqaba: Mkhulu is nearby he'll-
Me: Stab you.
He laughs and nod.
Nqaba: We haven't kissed in...1 hour and 30 minutes.
Me: You're counting?
Nqaba: No. Woza la. (Come here)
I shake my head and run to the couch. I know that smug. I
switch on the t.v.
Me: This room smells new.
Nqaba: It is.
Me: Where do you usually sleep when you're home?
He sit up right.
Nqaba: Lodge. She told you didn't she?
Me: She meant no harm.
Nqaba: She did. What if I told you the opposite?
Me: It wouldn't matter.
Nqaba: It would. She also told you about baba.
Me: Do you wanna share what happened?
He lies on his back.
Nqaba: No but I'll tell you.

I take off the jacket and go lie next to him and rest my head on
his chest. His heart is beating too fast. I do not like this but I do
want to know...
49
I woke up at 4am per Mvelo's instruction. I only did because its
spring and at 4am there's already some light. I made porridge
and tea.

I put Nqaba's on a tray and walk to the flat. Its close to 6am. I
had to keep it in the stove long enough to be sure it is ready.

I find him dressing up.

Nqaba: Please tell me that is not cooked food.
Me: It is.
The look on his face is not excitement that I expected.
Nqaba: Is there any left?
Me: Yaa
Nqaba: Shit! Lets go. Put that down. Mamkhulu is gonna
murder you.

I run behind him. Why? Am I not supposed to cook?

Mangubane comes flying our direction.
Mangubane: Weh weh weh!
She put her hands over her heard and continue screaming.
Nqaba tries to shush her but she's not having it.
Mangubane: Nenzani emzini ka Mbube? Nqaba ningenzani?
(What have you done at Mbube's home? Nqaba what are you
doing to me?"
Nqaba: She had no idea mamkhulu.
Mangubane: We told her we are Nazareths marn! Ey wena
ntombazane, are you here to kill us?

Everyone emerges from their houses.

Me: I'm sorry.
Mangubane: Go right now and get rid of that hot water and
porridge!

I rush to the kitchen with tears running down my face.

Mangubo gets in after me.
Mangubo: Sorry sisi. Let me help you.
Me: thank you.

We carried the pot out.

Mangubo: Wait. Let me get my phone.
We put the pot down and she rushes to her house and comes
back. We pick it up and walk.

We are heading to the back gate. There's a little little on the

other side. I'm hoping we do not get into it.

Mangubo: Here is fine.

We put it down. My hands are already aching. This pot is big
and very much heavy. She glances at me and laughs.
Me: What?
Mangubo: Never let her get to you. She's a bully.
Me: She doesn't like me.
Mangubo: She doesn't like anyone and frankly, nobody likes
her. Its a good thing she doesn't have a son or else his wife
would live in a burning hell. Extra hot.
Me: She scares me.
Mangubo: I just wish ma was well. She's such a good woman.
Me: What's wrong with her? Nqaba didn't seem like he wants
to share.
She lays her cape down and take out a black plastic from her
boobies.
Mangubo: Sit.
Me: Here?
Mangubo: Yes. The porridge is getting cold.
She takes out spoons from the plastic. I laugh.
Me: No you didn't.
Mangubo: Do you prefer it with margarine or peanut butter?
Me: I eat it however.
I look around for a snake or any tiny animal that might munch
on my poor butt and then sit. The grass isn't civil to me either
but I'll handle it.
We dig in after putting sugar on our sides.
Me: Are they not gonna have a problem?
Mangubo: If you tell them we ate it. I used to do it all the time. I
had a a place by the river. I'd go there and cook my own food
until I got caught.
She laughs.
Me: You're so silly.
Mangubo: Hhaisuka I wasn't used to this life of cold food.
Me: I don't know how I will survive without a cup of coffee. Let
alone bathing with cold water.
Mangubo: When you want to bath, talk to me. I'm a woman
with a plan.
Me: I smell corruption.

We laugh.
Mangubo: We were talking about ma.
Me: Mmmh yes.
Mangubo: She can't walk nor talk. Infact she's non functional. I
bath her, feed her, and everything else.
Me: That's...why couldn't he just tell me.
Mangubo: Probably ashamed.
Me: She didn't make herself sick.
Mangubo: Yeah but still.
Me: I should go see her.
Mangubo: She'll be delighted.
Me: Isn't stressful to work and also take care of her?
Mangubo: I do not work. I have my degree hanging over my
lounge but it's never worked. She got really sick, stroke, right
after I got married which was the same year I finished my
course. I had to be a wife and take care of my mother inlaw.
Me: Couldn't they get a nurse?
Mangubo: Who would've paid it? Mbuzo had money enough to
feed us and pay for her Drs appointments.
Me: Nqaba?
Mangubo: Nqaba had left home 4 years before. He didn't put
his degree into use. He sort of gave up on life.

He didn't mention that last night when he told me about him

and his father. Apperantly he found a woman, stopped paying
for Nqaba at university to marry her. He had to work, he ended
up failing his 3rd year, he got into illegal things to make a living
for himself until he finished his studies. He said he was taking of
his mother and his siblings with that little money.

The woman left, his father finally came back home cause he
had ditched his mother and then later found MaNkosi. Their
relationship was never repaired. I asked him why is he letting
MaNkosi actually think her arrival was the cause of their fued.
He just sighed and changed the subject and I decided to let him
be.
Me: So you gave up on yours too?
Mangubo: No. She needed me Sabathile.
She chuckles but there's pain reflecting in her face. She's
crying.
Mangubo: And then her son thanked me with another woman. I
swear I felt like I was gonna have a stroke when he told he's
taking a second wife.
Me: Whoa. What?
Mangubo: After giving him all my time to him and his family.
Me: You should've left him
Mangubo: I did.
I furrow my brows. She laughs.
Mangubo: I'm here for ma and my kids but we ended a long
time ago. I have a man that loves me.
Me: And he's okay with you being married?
Mangubo: Yes. Don't tell Nqaba though. Nobody knows. I am
happy you're here, although I'll see you on 4 occasions a year
but I'm glad to have a sister.
I smile and rub her shoulder.
Me: I'm glad we get along fine.

"You're corrupting Lexi now"

We turn to find Mbuzo.

Me: Hi. This was my idea.
Mbuzo: I know it wasn't. I came to check if you're okay.
Mangubo: We are fine. Why are you back?
He glances at me and then back at her.
Mbuzo: I promised Bahle I'll take him to his soccer match.
Mangubo: God I forgot. Mfazi let's goI woke up at 4am per
Mvelo's instruction. I only did because its spring and at 4am
there's already some light. I made porridge and tea.

I put Nqaba's on a tray and walk to the flat. Its close to 6am. I
had to keep it in the stove long enough to be sure it is ready.

I find him dressing up.

Nqaba: Please tell me that is not cooked food.
Me: It is.
The look on his face is not excitement that I expected.
Nqaba: Is there any left?
Me: Yaa
Nqaba: Shit! Lets go. Put that down. Mamkhulu is gonna
murder you.

I run behind him. Why? Am I not supposed to cook?

Mangubane comes flying our direction.
Mangubane: Weh weh weh!
She put her hands over her heard and continue screaming.
Nqaba tries to shush her but she's not having it.
Mangubane: Nenzani emzini ka Mbube? Nqaba ningenzani?
(What have you done at Mbube's home? Nqaba what are you
doing to me?"
Nqaba: She had no idea mamkhulu.
Mangubane: We told her we are Nazareths marn! Ey wena
ntombazane, are you here to kill us?
Everyone emerges from their houses.
Me: I'm sorry.
Mangubane: Go right now and get rid of that hot water and
porridge!

I rush to the kitchen with tears running down my face.

Mangubo gets in after me.
Mangubo: Sorry sisi. Let me help you.
Me: thank you.

We carried the pot out.

Mangubo: Wait. Let me get my phone.
We put the pot down and she rushes to her house and comes
back. We pick it up and walk.

We are heading to the back gate. There's a little little on the

other side. I'm hoping we do not get into it.

Mangubo: Here is fine.

We put it down. My hands are already aching. This pot is big
and very much heavy. She glances at me and laughs.
Me: What?
Mangubo: Never let her get to you. She's a bully.
Me: She doesn't like me.
Mangubo: She doesn't like anyone and frankly, nobody likes
her. Its a good thing she doesn't have a son or else his wife
would live in a burning hell. Extra hot.
Me: She scares me.
Mangubo: I just wish ma was well. She's such a good woman.
Me: What's wrong with her? Nqaba didn't seem like he wants
to share.

She lays her cape down and take out a black plastic from her
boobies.
Mangubo: Sit.
Me: Here?
Mangubo: Yes. The porridge is getting cold.
She takes out spoons from the plastic. I laugh.
Me: No you didn't.
Mangubo: Do you prefer it with margarine or peanut butter?
Me: I eat it however.
I look around for a snake or any tiny animal that might munch
on my poor butt and then sit. The grass isn't civil to me either
but I'll handle it.
We dig in after putting sugar on our sides.
Me: Are they not gonna have a problem?
Mangubo: If you tell them we ate it. I used to do it all the time. I
had a a place by the river. I'd go there and cook my own food
until I got caught.
She laughs.
Me: You're so silly.
Mangubo: Hhaisuka I wasn't used to this life of cold food.
Me: I don't know how I will survive without a cup of coffee. Let
alone bathing with cold water.
Mangubo: When you want to bath, talk to me. I'm a woman
with a plan.
Me: I smell corruption.

We laugh.
Mangubo: We were talking about ma.
Me: Mmmh yes.
Mangubo: She can't walk nor talk. Infact she's non functional. I
bath her, feed her, and everything else.
Me: That's...why couldn't he just tell me.
Mangubo: Probably ashamed.
Me: She didn't make herself sick.
Mangubo: Yeah but still.
Me: I should go see her.
Mangubo: She'll be delighted.
Me: Isn't stressful to work and also take care of her?
Mangubo: I do not work. I have my degree hanging over my
lounge but it's never worked. She got really sick
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stroke, right after I got married which was the same year I
finished my course. I had to be a wife and take care of my
mother inlaw.
Me: Couldn't they get a nurse?
Mangubo: Who would've paid it? Mbuzo had money enough to
feed us and pay for her Drs appointments.
Me: Nqaba?
Mangubo: Nqaba had left home 4 years before. He didn't put
his degree into use. He sort of gave up on life.

He didn't mention that last night when he told me about him

and his father. Apperantly he found a woman, stopped paying
for Nqaba at university to marry her. He had to work, he ended
up failing his 3rd year, he got into illegal things to make a living
for himself until he finished his studies. He said he was taking of
his mother and his siblings with that little money.

The woman left, his father finally came back home cause he
had ditched his mother and then later found MaNkosi. Their
relationship was never repaired. I asked him why is he letting
MaNkosi actually think her arrival was the cause of their fued.
He just sighed and changed the subject and I decided to let him
be.
Me: So you gave up on yours too?
Mangubo: No. She needed me Sabathile.
She chuckles but there's pain reflecting in her face. She's
crying.
Mangubo: And then her son thanked me with another woman. I
swear I felt like I was gonna have a stroke when he told he's
taking a second wife.
Me: Whoa. What?
Mangubo: After giving him all my time to him and his family.
Me: You should've left him
Mangubo: I did.
I furrow my brows. She laughs.
Mangubo: I'm here for ma and my kids but we ended a long
time ago. I have a man that loves me.
Me: And he's okay with you being married?
Mangubo: Yes. Don't tell Nqaba though. Nobody knows. I am
happy you're here, although I'll see you on 4 occasions a year
but I'm glad to have a sister.
I smile and rub her shoulder.
Me: I'm glad we get along fine.

"You're corrupting Lexi now"

We turn to find Mbuzo.

Me: Hi. This was my idea.
Mbuzo: I know it wasn't. I came to check if you're okay.
Mangubo: We are fine. Why are you back?
He glances at me and then back at her.
Mbuzo: I promised Bahle I'll take him to his soccer match.
Mangubo: God I forgot. Mfazi let's go.
Me: What about the pot?
Mangubo: We'll leave it here. It is a curse now.

We walk back home.

...
He smiles when he sees me.
Nqaba: I missed you.
He's cleaned. It smells good.
Me: You should've came to get me.
We kiss.
Nqaba: I didn't want to disturb your eating.
I laugh.
Me: We didn't eat it.
Nqaba: Or don't you like your porridge however?
I laugh.
Me: You should stop being a stalker.
Nqaba: I can't help it. The Water can will arrive soon.
Me: There's no taps?
Nqaba: No love there isn't. We buy water.
Me: Ok. Let me rest since today is a lazy day.
Nqaba: I'll go get you some fruits on the forest.
Me: Did you find mathambo?
Nqaba: No. I'll also look for him.
Me: Take your phone with you.
He chuckles.
Nqaba: I'll see you soon.

He kisses my cheek and walks out. I take off the doek and climb
into bed. I call mom to inform her about the incident.
...
Yesterday was quite a day. We started cooking around 6pm. I
could never survive on consuming cold food for the whole day.

This morning we were woken up by Mangubane telling Nqaba

to take her to town. Who goes to town at 5am?

I told Nqaba to go. He wanted to cry, he hates being disturbed

from his beauty sleep. .

She called an hour later and said she wants beans, I should
fetch wood to cook it. Mangubo came through for me, she sent
the boys to fetch us wood. When Nqaba and Mangubane came
back we were already done cooking.

I placed his tray on the coffee table.

Nqaba: Let's go get breakfast in town.
Me: We cooked. And that would be crazy.
Nqaba: I need expresso and bacon.
Me: Mamkhulu would flip if we went to eat breakfast in town.
Nqaba: She wouldn't. She can walk over anyone but not my
wife. She has this thing of thinking she owns this home.
Me: Just let her be.
Nqaba: Never.
Me: I wanna see your mother.
He looks at me blankly.
Me: Mangubo told me.
He sighs. We're leaving today or tomorrow morning. When am I
gonna see her if I don't see her today?
Nqaba: I'll take you when you're done changing.
Me: I'm changed.
Nqaba: You wanna go to town dressing like that?
Me: Yeah. What's wrong with my dress?
Nqaba: Nothing. I just thought maybe you wanna do your
eyebrows, wear that yellow tight dress or something.
Me: No.
He raises his brows.
Nqaba: Okay. Let's go see ma then.
I check myself on the mirror if my doek is still in place and we
walk out.

I get more nervous as we get closer.

All these houses do not only smell new inside but the furniture
is also new. We get to her bedroom. It is spotless and smells as
fresh. Mangubo does really outdo herself. Nqaba pulls a chair
for me.
Me: They said I'm not allowed to sit on a chair.
Nqaba: Mah doesn't mind.

She smiles. I guess that's approval. I take a seat.

Me: Sawubona ma. I am Alexis.
Nqaba: She's beautiful isn't she?
She smiles and nods.
Nqaba: I love her. She agreed to have babies.
Her eyes widen in surprise. We laugh.
Me: Am I making a mistake?
She nods smiling. I laugh.
Me: I know right?
They look like her. Mamas boys.
Nqaba: I'm not that bad.
She raises her brows. Oh that's where he got it from. It seems
more like a habit than an expression.
Me: You are bad.
Nqaba: We will have beautiful babies.
Me: True but how will they behave?
Nqaba: I am a true sweetheart.

She laughs.
Me: That's a no.
Nqaba: You will see on our child.
His phone rings.
Nqaba: You'll find me outside.
I nod. He walks out. We sit there in silence. Just exchanging
smiles.
Me: I love your son. I truly do. Thank you for bringing him into
this world. He has his issues but they are everything I can
handle. He came to pay lobola while you haven't even met me,
I know you somehow had doubt. I'm from Jo'burg, born and
raised there. I have no idea how things work around here. I
would twist my ankle if I had to put on a 20L bucket in my head,
let alone starting a fire. I grew up with technology all around
me. I will try to be the best daughter inlaw I can be. I just want
to know if we have your blessings.

She smiles and nods. She opens her hand. I place mine on hers.
Me: Thank you.

Mangubo walks in.

Mangubo: You have 2 daughters now. She likes you. She
doesn't let people come that close to her.
Me: You don't know how happy am I.

"Mam Lexi baba is crying"

Us: Why?
I rush out.
Me: Where is he?
Bahle: His house.

I head there. I find him hugging a dog. Its mathambo.

Nqaba: I thought I had lost you.
I sit next to him.
Me: You found him.
He put it down.
Nqaba: Yes.
Me: And you're crying.
Nqaba: No.

I wipe his face and laugh.

Me: Hi Mathambo. You better not go missing again or else
daddy will be sad.
He wiggles his tail.
Nqaba: This is mommy.
Mangubo walks in pushing Nqaba's mother, followed by
Mbuzo, MaNgubane, MaNkosi, and kids.
Nqaba: and then?
Mbuzo: Did we miss the show?
Nqaba: What show?
Mbuzo: You crying.

I laugh.
Me: Unfortunately you did.

They all sigh in disappointment.

Nqaba: Leave ma and get out.

They laugh and walk out. I wheel ma to Nqaba and switch on

the tv...
Last Chapter
Its been 3 weeks since we came back from Vryheid. As much as
we say we haven't moved in together but we have because we
spend each and every night together. Either at my place or his.
The Mlangenis are failing to get over my cooking on a Saturday
incident. Mvelo brings it up every time we speak. It was so sad
when we left. I just got attached to Mangubo.

I missed her. She didn't even have WhatsApp, her reason being
'I don't have people to text' I made her download it. We video
call almost everyday. She's such a sweet soul.

Our conversations are always long because she always have

some coffee to spill.

Today is gonna be a long day. I woke up and went to visit my

parents. I haven't spent quality time with them in a while, mom
complains everyday. Husband suggested I go see them, I would
have gone tomorrow. Saturdays are our day. He's always too
tired during the week so we lazy around on Saturday, and then
be productive on Sunday. We went to church last week. He
kept whispering things. Commenting about the pastors shoes
and everybody else's anything that he doesn't get.
Mvelo and Mangubo are my google. I just finished cooking beef
stew. Mangubo is the first person to ever win Mvelo's heart.
The Skype was fun because they are both crazy they kept
cracking jokes here and there, screaming at me for putting too
much of anything and then make fun of me.

Dad pours a glass of water and put it near his plate.

Melissa: Let's pray.
Dad takes her hand.
Me: We pray two times now?
Marcus: We-
He laughs.
Melissa: Old age.

They are gonna taste something cooked by me for the first time
in their lives. Perhaps they think they are gonna die.
Me: It won't give you a stomach bug.
Marcus: whew!
Melissa: I feel like I'm on fear factor.
Me: Mom!

We laugh.
Me: I'm hurt. Let's eat.

I start eating. They follow. I see their lips curving. I know right, I
did everything those master cookers told me. There's no way
this would have tasted bad.
Marcus: Mmmh. Wow
Melissa: This is amazing baby.
Marcus: Why couldn't you cook for us all these years?
Me: We had a chef.
Melissa: You didn't have one at the penthouse.
Me: You brought me food every time.
Marcus: You're preparing yourself to be that boy's slave.
Me: Can we eat please.
Marcus: Do you even love him?
I put my fork down.
Me: I do dad. I do. Why do you always ask me that?
Marcus: I just wanna be sure
Me: Sure of what? I'm engaged to this guy. Why would I be with
someone I do not love?
Marcus: Money, maybe?
Me: Money?
Marcus: Yeah. He's loaded.
Me: You think very low of me Mr McVeigh.
Melissa: That's what my dad used to ask me about him. Honey
when you're inlove with someone you careless about what they
have.
Me: Thank you my love.
Marcus: I'm just a concerned father. How well do you know
him? What if he's a criminal? Involved in some shady dealings.
Me: As long as that doesn't effect us in any way then I'm good.
Men are never perfect, you aren't too. I'm sure of that.
Marcus: What?
Me: You're a business man. There's noway on earth you're legit.
I could've came with him but you make him uncomfortable.
Marcus: He knows I will see right through him that he's a
criminal.
Me: Is it because he's black?
Marcus: What? No!
Me: Would you ask all these question and assume he's a bad
guy if he was white?
Marcus: That's absurd Alexis. As your father I am allowed to
have concerns. I didn't like that Jake either. I liked Bheki.
Melissa: Let it go Marcus. Baby I'm sorry.
Me: He's hurting me mom.
Melissa: I'm sorry. Marcus apologize to the child.
Marcus: I'm sorry I was-
Melissa: Apologize decently please.
Me: I thought you wanted me to get married.
Marcus: I didn't think it'll be him.
I laugh. What's wrong with him.
Me: Well I'm sorry daddy.
Marcus: I had accepted that you won't get married anyway.
Melissa: You're gonna be the reason we never see her again
after she gets married.
Marcus: I'm being honest!
I laugh.
Me: I'll go get desert.
Melissa: Please bring me my favorite bowl.
Me: I will.

I collect our plates and go to the kitchen. Mom's deserts have

so many names that I end up forgetting but I never forget how
good they taste. This one is my favorite. It has biscuit crumbs
and cream and there's nothing I love more than that in my life.

I hear noise coming from the lobby. I rush there. This is the last
person I expected to see here. She's shouting but I can't hear a
thing she's drunk. She notices me.
Bonisiwe: You're about to get married and you never saw it fit
to let me know?
Me: I tried. You never picked up.
Bonisiwe: Lies! Did they convince you to not let me know?
Me: No.
Bonisiwe: I know this conniving satan did. Marcus, I want my
baby back.
Marcus: Take her.
Bonisiwe: Where are you going? Come back here and tell me
what did you do with the lobola money. There's supposed to be
inkomo kamama in that money and that belongs to me.
Marcus: Unfortunately you're not considered that. Now please
leave my house.
Bonisiwe: Where's your pathetic wife? Tell her thanks for
babysitting for me but I want my baby now.

I leave to dish up desert for mom and I. Dad can deal with his
sidechick alone. He knows her better.

I find mom nibbling on ice cream.

Melissa: These are the best.
Me: There's Bonisiwe.
Melissa: I opened the gate for her haven't they killed each
other?
Me: No. She's here for lobola money.
Melissa: I sent her a text and an email telling her that there are
people coming but she never replied or show up.
Me: I did call her too. A couple of times.
Melissa: That means we are not at fault. She can bite off her
boyfriend's head.
I hold her hand.
Me: I could never do it the way you do.
Melissa: It's you that I love more than anything. I bought you
some too. Do you remember how you used to cry for that ice
cream boy when you were little?
I chuckle.
Me: Yes and you will always promise to get it for me the next
day.
She laughs.
Melissa: You reacted to cold foods. I just couldn't give you ice
creams carelessly.
Me: You've always been spoiling me.
Melissa: You're my little girl. I knew I was losing you the day
you left us at your place and said you're going to our son inlaw.
I laugh.
Me: We weren't even on good terms. I was going there to fix
things.
Melissa: That's why I do not question if you love him. You're not
the person to ever try fix anything with anyone.
Me: Everything feels right to do with him. That job asked?
Melissa: Yeah, what about it?!
Me: Its for my sister wife.
Melissa: The one who looks after your mother inlaw?
Me: Yeah.
Melissa: Your dad said there is available space. You should go to
HR on Monday and give them her CV.
Me: I don't have it. I want it to be a surprise.
Melissa: Tell Gwen to close the post then.

"Fuck you Marcus! You took advantage of me. I was 19 for

Christ's sake you old hag!"

Melissa: That's the pool side calling us.

Me: I haven't swam in a while.
Melissa: Saint please bring us cocktails!
Saint: Coming right up!

New worker again. She's obsessed with tv. You'd swear she's
not here. We take our deserts with us. Bonisiwe and her baby
daddy can kill each other in peace now...

...
"Why were you not taking my calls" is the first thing I got when
I finally called him back. I put my phone and silent when I
arrived because I knew he will keep on calling and I will end up
not giving my parents enough time.

I put on my slippers and walk out. He's here outside. 10pm, he

drove from his place to here because he can't sleep.

He opens the door for me and I hop in. He walks around to his
side. He's getting obsessed with pyjamas. Its the gown that has
no hope.
I see nasal sprays and pain relief pills.
Me: You are sick?
Nqaba: Yes. I'm coming down with flu.
Me: So much medication.
Nqaba: I don't know what helps. I can't remember the last time
I was sick.
Me: Uhh my poor baby. I'm sorry, you gonna be better.
Nqaba: When?
Me: In the morning.

He looks at me for a while and smiles.

Nqaba: I missed you.
Me: And you couldn't sleep.
Nqaba: Yes. Its so addictive sleeping next to you.
Me: Well you better get used to it.
He frowns.
Nqaba: Why?
Me: I've been thinking. I thought we'd discuss this tomorrow
but we might as well discuss it now.
Nqaba: Your dad doesn't like it that we spend every night
together?
Me: No. He doesn't make such calls. Let's go for a drive.
Nqaba: No. Tell me why should I get used to it...
He takes a brief pause.
Nqaba: Are you breaking up with me?
Me: You've got worst scenarios in your head babe. I want to
exchange Mangubo.
Nqaba: exchange?
Me: Yeah. Look after ma, let her come here to work.
Nqaba: Whoa whoa whoa. That is not happening
Me: She deserves her big break. Your brother's second wife
works
she's living how she wants. Thembisile also deserves that.
Nqaba: What about you, your family and work?
Me: My family knew this would come. I will work from there.
Nqaba: Haw ngeke sthandwa sami.
Me: Nqaba
Nqaba: No Sabathile. You're my wife, not ma's. And besides,
I've tried doing that before, got ma a nurse but Mangubo
refused. She's fine.
Me: She's not.

He starts the car.

Me: We're still talking.
Nqaba: We are done. You are not going to stay in Vryheid. End
of discussion.
Me: Are you afraid I won't be able to treat your mom with
care?
Nqaba: No. I do not want you to go there. Mamkhulu, and
everything else. No marn.
Me: I will treat her very well. I promise.
Nqaba: No.
Me: Nqaba please.
Nqaba: Let's go grab something to eat.
Me: You're not changing the topic
Nqaba: I want lot of fries and fruit chutney wings.
Me: I'm not going there. Go alone.

I try to open the door but it is locked.

Me: Open this door.
Nqaba: Fasten your seat belt.
Me: I'm not going whereever you're going to. I wanna go home
and sleep.
Nqaba: Baby.
Me: No. Open this door, now!

I hear the unlocking sound. I open and walk without looking

back...

....
*5 days later*

We haven't seen or spoken to each other all these days. I've

been working from home, rejected his calls. I have to get my
way.

I startle when mom peels off the duvet.

Me: What's happening?
Melissa: I bought you tests.
Me: What tests?
Melissa: Pregnancy tests.
Me: Mom please. What time is it?
Melissa: 9am. Get up.
Me: You woke up and went to get pregnancy tests?
Melissa: Yes. I'm worried about you.

Wine has made me throw up 2 times in a row this week. My

periods are a week late but I don't wanna face that. Its scary.
Me: Ok let me prepare myself
Melissa: 20 seconds

I sigh and stretch. I roll out of bed and take the test. Mom
hands me a little measure cup. I chuckle.
Me: You came prepared, didn't you?
Melissa: Granny excitement.
Me: It could be a false alarm.
Melissa: No. You never throw up unless you eat nectarines of
which you didn't eat so there could be a little Zulu
Prince/princess in there.
Me: My heart is beating out of it's rib cage.
Melissa: I'll be here waiting.

I get into the bathroom.

Me: Get in.

I pee on the cup and give it to her. She laughs nervously.

Melissa: I'm scared too now.
Me: Do it.

I keep still on top of the toilet seat. She dips it on the urine and
hold it in her hand. I take the cup and pour the urine into the
toilet and flush. I lean against the wall.
Me: What does it say?
Melissa: Be patient.
Me: I can't. What if I'm pregnant?
Melissa: You are going to be a mother.
Me: What kind of a mother?
Melissa: I'm saying you're pregnant. 3 weeks!

She jumps on her feet and hug me.

Melissa: You're gonna be a perfect mother!
I didn't think this through.
Me: What if I don't love it?
She lets go of me. She gazes deep into my eyes.
Melissa: You're not her. You're having a baby with your soon to
be husband. You have me, your father, Mvelo, Nqaba and
everyone else who cares about you. We will walk this journey
with you and make it worth it.
Me: I'm just scared.

She caresses my cheek and wipe my tears.

Melissa: I love you.
Me: I love you more.
Melissa: Which room will be perfect for the nursery here?
I laugh.
Me: it's only 3 weeks.
Melissa: Yes! Enough time to create a beautiful one. Ooooh I'm
so excited! Thank you lord!

She pulls me out. I wonder if Nqaba will be happy...

....
I'm woken up by my phone ringing. Its him. I have been calling
him the whole day but he wasn't picking up. I got depressed
and slept through out the day.
Me: Mmmh?
Nqaba: Can I fetch you?
Me: Hello Nqaba how are you?
Nqaba: I'm fine Sabathile. I'm outside.
Me: Ok stay there.
Nqaba: Mama wezingane we need to talk.
Me: I don't wanna talk.
Nqaba: Ok we won't talk. We'll just stare at each other. I have a
surprise for you.

I hang up and change into jeans and a hoodie. there's chilli air
coming through the window.

I take my phone and decline his call.

Me: I'm going to see Nqaba outside. Is dad back?

Melissa: Yes he's upstairs taking a shower. Are you going to
spill the beans to hubby?
Ugh I forgot! Mom laughs. I run upstairs to get the pregnancy
test and then back down.
Me: See you later. Tell dad.
Melissa: I'll tell him at night so that he will faint in his bed.

We laugh and I walk out.

I find him looking at the flowers. I open the door for myself and
hop in. He gets in after a while.
He smirks and starts the car.
Nqaba: I'll bring you back later.

I fasten my belt and connect my phone to Bluetooth and start

playing music.

He's dancing to it. He's in a jolly mood.

Me: She might've given you real fun.
Nqaba: Who?
Me: Whoever you were with when I called you.
Nqaba: Ohh.
Me: Wow.
Nqaba: Wew.
Me: Nqaba.
Nqaba: Yebo mama.
Me: Why weren't you taking my calls?
Nqaba: I was driving baby I'm sorry.
Me: What if I had an emergency?
Nqaba: Did you?
Me: Yes!
Nqaba: I'm really sorry. I didn't even hear it.

He pulls up infront of the gate written Manzini. We're still in

the neighborhood.
Me: Your relatives?
Nqaba: Yes.
He presses the remote and the gate slides to the side.

I've always loved this house. I wish my dad can rebuild his like
this.

I am obsessed with glass as walls.

I laugh when I see the registration of the car we park behind. Its
my Name.
I hear ululation. Mangubo appears waving a white cloth in her
hand. I scream and hop out of the car.

We hug and laugh like idiots.

Me: What are you doing here?
Mangubo: I heard you want me to spread my wings so here I
am baby!
Me: Hell! Wait...where's ma?
Mangubo: She's inside. Let's go meet her.
Nqaba: You dropped this...

He has the test in his hand. He's looking up.

Mangubo: What is it?
Me: Its a pregnancy test.
Mangubo: Is he crying?
Me: Yes.
Mangubo: let me go get my phone.
She rushes to the house. I walk to hubby and hug him. He sobs,
this is awkward. Why is he crying?

He goes down on his knees and kisses my stomach.

Nqaba: I'm going to be a perfect father to you. I will always put
you first. Sthandwa sam ngyabonga.
Me: Its my pleasure babe. Stop crying you're making me cry and
that's not good for the baby.
Nqaba: Can I be your midwife? I laugh. Me: Yes you can.
Nqaba: Let's go tell ma. I help him up and we walk inside.
Nqaba: This is your house anyway. And out side is your car.
He says carelessly. Me: Why are you saying it like its nothing?
Nqaba: Do you like it?
Me: I love it babe! Thank you. Oh my God I love you. Can I test
drive my car? Nqaba: Yes. Later
Nothing could've prepared us for what we find in the kitchen.
She's slicing lemons.
Ma: Tequila anyone?
She's standing on her feet. She's speaking. She laughs, probably
at our surprised faces.
Ma: Hhei you'd wrinkle in a day if you let men use you. I'll
explain next month when I've settled down.
She takes a seat on the high chair and takes a sip on her tequila.
She grunts.
This is too much for one day....

………………………………………The End……………………………………..

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