Green Mansions Full Novel
Green Mansions Full Novel
FOREWORD
I take up pen for this foreword with the fear of one who knows that he
cannot do justice to his subject, and the trembling of one who would not,
for a good deal, set down words unpleasing to the eye of him who wrote
Green Mansions, The Purple Land, and all those other books which have
meant so much to me. For of all living authors--now that Tolstoi has gone I
could least dispense with W. H. Hudson. Why do I love his writing so? I
think because he is, of living writers that I read, the rarest spirit, and has the
clearest gift of conveying to me the nature of that spirit. Writers are to their
readers little new worlds to be explored; and each traveller in the realms of
literature must needs have a favourite hunting-ground, which, in his good
will--or perhaps merely in his egoism--he would wish others to share with
him.
The great and abiding misfortunes of most of us writers are twofold: We
are, as worlds, rather common tramping-ground for our readers, rather tame
territory; and as guides and dragomans thereto we are too superficial,
lacking clear intimacy of expression; in fact--like guide or dragoman--we
cannot let folk into the real secrets, or show them the spirit, of the land.
Now, Hudson, whether in a pure romance like this Green Mansions, or
in that romantic piece of realism The Purple Land, or in books like Idle
Days in Patagonia, Afoot in England, The Land's End, Adventures among
Birds, A Shepherd's Life, and all his other nomadic records of communings
with men, birds, beasts, and Nature, has a supreme gift of disclosing not
only the thing he sees but the spirit of his vision. Without apparent effort he
takes you with him into a rare, free, natural world, and always you are
refreshed, stimulated, enlarged, by going there.
He is of course a distinguished naturalist, probably the most acute,
broad-minded, and understanding observer of Nature living. And this, in an
age of specialism, which loves to put men into pigeonholes and label them,
has been a misfortune to the reading public, who seeing the label Naturalist,
pass on, and take down the nearest novel. Hudson has indeed the gifts and
knowledge of a Naturalist, but that is a mere fraction of his value and
interest. A really great writer such as this is no more to be circumscribed by
a single word than America by the part of it called New York. The expert
knowledge which Hudson has of Nature gives to all his work backbone and
surety of fibre, and to his sense of beauty an intimate actuality. But his real
eminence and extraordinary attraction lie in his spirit and philosophy. We
feel from his writings that he is nearer to Nature than other men, and yet
more truly civilized. The competitive, towny culture, the queer up-to-date
commercial knowingness with which we are so busy coating ourselves
simply will not stick to him. A passage in his Hampshire Days describes
him better than I can: "The blue sky, the brown soil beneath, the grass, the
trees, the animals, the wind, and rain, and stars are never strange to me; for
I am in and of and am one with them; and my flesh and the soil are one, and
the heat in my blood and in the sunshine are one, and the winds and the
tempests and my passions are one. I feel the 'strangeness' only with regard
to my fellow men, especially in towns, where they exist in conditions
unnatural to me, but congenial to them.... In such moments we sometimes
feel a kinship with, and are strangely drawn to, the dead, who were not as
these; the long, long dead, the men who knew not life in towns, and felt no
strangeness in sun and wind and rain." This unspoiled unity with Nature
pervades all his writings; they are remote from the fret and dust and
pettiness of town life; they are large, direct, free. It is not quite simplicity,
for the mind of this writer is subtle and fastidious, sensitive to each motion
of natural and human life; but his sensitiveness is somehow different from,
almost inimical to, that of us others, who sit indoors and dip our pens in
shades of feeling. Hudson's fancy is akin to the flight of the birds that are
his special loves--it never seems to have entered a house, but since birth to
have been roaming the air, in rain and sun, or visiting the trees and the
grass. I not only disbelieve utterly, but intensely dislike, the doctrine of
metempsychosis, which, if I understand it aright, seems the negation of the
creative impulse, an apotheosis of staleness--nothing quite new in the
world, never anything quite new--not even the soul of a baby; and so I am
not prepared to entertain the whim that a bird was one of his remote
incarnations; still, in sweep of wing, quickness of eye, and natural sweet
strength of song he is not unlike a super-bird--which is a horrid image. And
that reminds me: This, after all, is a foreword to Greer: Mansions --the
romance of the bird-girl Rima--a story actual yet fantastic, which
immortalizes, I think, as passionate a love of all beautiful things as ever was
in the heart of man. Somewhere Hudson says: "The sense of the beautiful is
God's best gift to the human soul." So it is: and to pass that gift on to others,
in such measure as herein is expressed, must surely have been happiness to
him who wrote Green Mansions. In form and spirit the book is unique, a
simple romantic narrative transmuted by sheer glow of beauty into a prose
poem. Without ever departing from its quality of a tale, it symbolizes-the
yearning of the human soul for the attainment of perfect love and beauty in
this life--that impossible perfection which we must all learn to see fall from
its high tree and be consumed in the flames, as was Rima the bird-girl, but
whose fine white ashes we gather that they may be mingled at last with our
own, when we too have been refined by the fire of death's resignation. The
book is soaked through and through with a strange beauty. I will not go on
singing its praises, or trying to make it understood, because I have other
words to say of its author.
Do we realize how far our town life and culture have got away from
things that really matter; how instead of making civilization our handmaid
to freedom we have set her heel on our necks, and under it bite dust all the
time? Hudson, whether he knows it or not, is now the chief standard-bearer
of another faith. Thus he spake in The Purple Land: "Ah, yes, we are all
vainly seeking after happiness in the wrong way. It was with us once and
ours, but we despised it, for it was only the old common happiness which
Nature gives to all her children, and we went away from it in search of
another grander kind of happiness which some dreamer--Bacon or another--
assured us we should find. We had only to conquer Nature, find out her
secrets, make her our obedient slave, then the Earth would be Eden, and
every man Adam and every woman Eve. We are still marching bravely on,
conquering Nature, but how weary and sad we are getting! The old joy in
life and gaiety of heart have vanished, though we do sometimes pause for a
few moments in our long forced march to watch the labours of some pale
mechanician, seeking after perpetual motion, and indulge in a little, dry,
cackling laugh at his expense." And again: "For here the religion that
languishes in crowded cities or steals shamefaced to hide itself in dim
churches flourishes greatly, filling the soul with a solemn joy. Face to face
with Nature on the vast hills at eventide, who does not feel himself near to
the Unseen?
"Out of his heart God shall not pass
His image stamped is on every grass."
All Hudson's books breathe this spirit of revolt against our new
enslavement by towns and machinery, and are true oases in an age so
dreadfully resigned to the "pale mechanician."
But Hudson is not, as Tolstoi was, a conscious prophet; his spirit is
freer, more willful, whimsical--almost perverse--and far more steeped in
love of beauty. If you called him a prophet he would stamp his foot at you--
as he will at me if he reads these words; but his voice is prophetic, for all
that, crying in a wilderness, out of which, at the call, will spring up roses
here and there, and the sweet-smelling grass. I would that every man,
woman, and child in England were made to read him; and I would that you
in America would take him to heart. He is a tonic, a deep refreshing drink,
with a strange and wonderful flavour; he is a mine of new interests, and
ways of thought instinctively right. As a simple narrator he is well-nigh
unsurpassed; as a stylist he has few, if any, living equals. And in all his
work there is an indefinable freedom from any thought of after- benefit- -
even from the desire that we should read him. He puts down what he sees
and feels, out of sheer love of the thing seen, and the emotion felt; the smell
of the lamp has not touched a single page that he ever wrote. That alone is a
marvel to us who know that to write well, even to write clearly, is a wound
business, long to learn, hard to learn, and no gift of the angels. Style should
not obtrude between a writer and his reader; it should be servant, not
master. To use words so true and simple that they oppose no obstacle to the
flow of thought and feeling from mind to mind, and yet by juxtaposition of
word-sounds set up in the recipient continuing emotion or gratification--this
is the essence of style; and Hudson's writing has pre-eminently this double
quality. From almost any page of his books an example might be taken.
Here is one no better than a thousand others, a description of two little girls
on a beach: "They were dressed in black frocks and scarlet blouses, which
set off their beautiful small dark faces; their eyes sparkled like black
diamonds, and their loose hair was a wonder to see, a black mist or cloud
about their heads and necks composed of threads fine as gossamer, blacker
than jet and shining like spun glass--hair that looked as if no comb or brush
could ever tame its beautiful wildness. And in spirit they were what they
seemed: such a wild, joyous, frolicsome spirit, with such grace and
fleetness, one does not look for in human beings, but only in birds or in
some small bird-like volatile mammal--a squirrel or a spider-monkey of the
tropical forest, or the chinchilla of the desolate mountain slopes; the
swiftest, wildest, loveliest, most airy, and most vocal of small beauties." Or
this, as the quintessence of a sly remark: "After that Mantel got on to his
horse and rode away. It was black and rainy, but he had never needed moon
or lantern to find what he sought by night, whether his own house, or a fat
cow--also his own, perhaps." So one might go on quoting felicity for ever
from this writer. He seems to touch every string with fresh and uninked
fingers; and the secret of his power lies, I suspect, in the fact that his words:
"Life being more than all else to me . . ." are so utterly true.
I do not descant on his love for simple folk and simple things, his
championship of the weak, and the revolt against the cagings and cruelties
of life, whether to men or birds or beasts, that springs out of him as if
against his will; because, having spoken of him as one with a vital
philosophy or faith, I don't wish to draw red herrings across the main trail of
his worth to the world. His work is a vision of natural beauty and of human
life as it might be, quickened and sweetened by the sun and the wind and
the rain, and by fellowship with all the other forms of life- -the truest vision
now being given to us, who are more in want of it than any generation has
ever been. A very great writer; and--to my thinking--the most valuable our
age possesses.
JOHN GALSWORTHY
September 1915 Manaton: Devon
Green Mansions by W. H. Hudson
PROLOGUE
It is a cause of very great regret to me that this task has taken so much
longer a time than I had expected for its completion. It is now many
months--over a year, in fact--since I wrote to Georgetown announcing my
intention of publishing, IN A VERY FEW MONTHS, the whole truth about
Mr. Abel. Hardly less could have been looked for from his nearest friend,
and I had hoped that the discussion in the newspapers would have ceased, at
all events, until the appearance of the promised book. It has not been so;
and at this distance from Guiana I was not aware of how much conjectural
matter was being printed week by week in the local press, some of which
must have been painful reading to Mr. Abel's friends. A darkened chamber,
the existence of which had never been suspected in that familiar house in
Main Street, furnished only with an ebony stand on which stood a cinerary
urn, its surface ornamented with flower and leaf and thorn, and winding
through it all the figure of a serpent; an inscription, too, of seven short
words which no one could understand or rightly interpret; and finally the
disposal of the mysterious ashes--that was all there was relating to an untold
chapter in a man's life for imagination to work on. Let us hope that now, at
last, the romance-weaving will come to an end. It was, however, but natural
that the keenest curiosity should have been excited; not only because of that
peculiar and indescribable charm of the man, which all recognized and
which won all hearts, but also because of that hidden chapter--that sojourn
in the desert, about which he preserved silence. It was felt in a vague way
by his intimates that he had met with unusual experiences which had
profoundly affected him and changed the course of his life. To me alone
was the truth known, and I must now tell, briefly as possible, how my great
friendship and close intimacy with him came about.
When, in 1887, I arrived in Georgetown to take up an appointment in a
public office, I found Mr. Abel an old resident there, a man of means and a
favourite in society. Yet he was an alien, a Venezuelan, one of that turbulent
people on our border whom the colonists have always looked on as their
natural enemies. The story told to me was that about twelve years before
that time he had arrived at Georgetown from some remote district in the
interior; that he had journeyed alone on foot across half the continent to the
coast, and had first appeared among them, a young stranger, penniless, in
rags, wasted almost to a skeleton by fever and misery of all kinds, his face
blackened by long exposure to sun and wind. Friendless, with but little
English, it was a hard struggle for him to live; but he managed somehow,
and eventually letters from Caracas informed him that a considerable
property of which he had been deprived was once more his own, and he was
also invited to return to his country to take his part in the government of the
Republic. But Mr. Abel, though young, had already outlived political
passions and aspirations, and, apparently, even the love of his country; at all
events, he elected to stay where he was--his enemies, he would say
smilingly, were his best friends--and one of the first uses he made of his
fortune was to buy that house in Main Street which was afterwards like a
home to me.
I must state here that my friend's full name was Abel Guevez de
Argensola, but in his early days in Georgetown he was called by his
Christian name only, and later he wished to be known simply as "Mr. Abel."
I had no sooner made his acquaintance than I ceased to wonder at the
esteem and even affection with which he, a Venezuelan, was regarded in
this British colony. All knew and liked him, and the reason of it was the
personal charm of the man, his kindly disposition, his manner with women,
which pleased them and excited no man's jealousy--not even the old hot-
tempered planter's, with a very young and pretty and light-headed wife--his
love of little children, of all wild creatures, of nature, and of whatsoever
was furthest removed from the common material interests and concerns of a
purely commercial community. The things which excited other men--
politics, sport, and the price of crystals--were outside of his thoughts; and
when men had done with them for a season, when like the tempest they had
"blown their fill" in office and club-room and house and wanted a change, it
was a relief to turn to Mr. Abel and get him to discourse of his world--the
world of nature and of the spirit.
It was, all felt, a good thing to have a Mr. Abel in Georgetown. That it
was indeed good for me I quickly discovered. I had certainly not expected
to meet in such a place with any person to share my tastes--that love of
poetry which has been the chief passion and delight of my life; but such a
one I had found in Mr. Abel. It surprised me that he, suckled on the
literature of Spain, and a reader of only ten or twelve years of English
literature, possessed a knowledge of our modern poetry as intimate as my
own, and a love of it equally great. This feeling brought us together and
made us two--the nervous olive-skinned Hispano-American of the tropics
and the phlegmatic blue-eyed Saxon of the cold north--one in spirit and
more than brothers. Many were the daylight hours we spent together and
"tired the sun with talking"; many, past counting, the precious evenings in
that restful house of his where I was an almost daily guest. I had not looked
for such happiness; nor, he often said, had he. A result of this intimacy was
that the vague idea concerning his hidden past, that some unusual
experience had profoundly affected him and perhaps changed the whole
course of his life, did not diminish, but, on the contrary, became
accentuated, and was often in my mind. The change in him was almost
painful to witness whenever our wandering talk touched on the subject of
the aborigines, and of the knowledge he had acquired of their character and
languages when living or travelling among them; all that made his
conversation most engaging--the lively, curious mind, the wit, the gaiety of
spirit tinged with a tender melancholy--appeared to fade out of it; even the
expression of his face would change, becoming hard and set, and he would
deal you out facts in a dry mechanical way as if reading them in a book. It
grieved me to note this, but I dropped no hint of such a feeling, and would
never have spoken about it but for a quarrel which came at last to make the
one brief solitary break in that close friendship of years. I got into a bad
state of health, and Abel was not only much concerned about it, but
annoyed, as if I had not treated him well by being ill, and he would even
say that I could get well if I wished to. I did not take this seriously, but one
morning, when calling to see me at the office, he attacked me in a way that
made me downright angry with him. He told me that indolence and the use
of stimulants was the cause of my bad health. He spoke in a mocking way,
with a presence of not quite meaning it, but the feeling could not be wholly
disguised. Stung by his reproaches, I blurted out that he had no right to talk
to me, even in fun, in such a way. Yes, he said, getting serious, he had the
best right--that of our friendship. He would be no true friend if he kept his
peace about such a matter. Then, in my haste, I retorted that to me the
friendship between us did not seem so perfect and complete as it did to him.
One condition of friendship is that the partners in it should be known to
each other. He had had my whole life and mind open to him, to read it as in
a book. HIS life was a closed and clasped volume to me.
His face darkened, and after a few moments' silent reflection he got up
and left me with a cold good-bye, and without that hand-grasp which had
been customary between us.
After his departure I had the feeling that a great loss, a great calamity,
had befallen me, but I was still smarting at his too candid criticism, all the
more because in my heart I acknowledged its truth. And that night, lying
awake, I repented of the cruel retort I had made, and resolved to ask his
forgiveness and leave it to him to determine the question of our future
relations. But he was beforehand with me, and with the morning came a
letter begging my forgiveness and asking me to go that evening to dine with
him.
We were alone, and during dinner and afterwards, when we sat smoking
and sipping black coffee in the veranda, we were unusually quiet, even to
gravity, which caused the two white-clad servants that waited on us--the
brown-faced subtle-eyed old Hindu butler and an almost blue-black young
Guiana Negro--to direct many furtive glances at their master's face. They
were accustomed to see him in a more genial mood when he had a friend to
dine. To me the change in his manner was not surprising: from the moment
of seeing him I had divined that he had determined to open the shut and
clasped volume of which I had spoken--that the time had now come for him
to speak.
CHAPTER I
Now that we are cool, he said, and regret that we hurt each other, I am
not sorry that it happened. I deserved your reproach: a hundred times I have
wished to tell you the whole story of my travels and adventures among the
savages, and one of the reasons which prevented me was the fear that it
would have an unfortunate effect on our friendship. That was precious, and
I desired above everything to keep it. But I must think no more about that
now. I must think only of how I am to tell you my story. I will begin at a
time when I was twenty-three. It was early in life to be in the thick of
politics, and in trouble to the extent of having to fly my country to save my
liberty, perhaps my life.
Every nation, someone remarks, has the government it deserves, and
Venezuela certainly has the one it deserves and that suits it best. We call it a
republic, not only because it is not one, but also because a thing must have a
name; and to have a good name, or a fine name, is very convenient--
especially when you want to borrow money. If the Venezuelans, thinly
distributed over an area of half a million square miles, mostly illiterate
peasants, half-breeds, and indigenes, were educated, intelligent men,
zealous only for the public weal, it would be possible for them to have a
real republic. They have instead a government by cliques, tempered by
revolution; and a very good government it is, in harmony with the physical
conditions of the country and the national temperament. Now, it happens
that the educated men, representing your higher classes, are so few that
there are not many persons unconnected by ties of blood or marriage with
prominent members of the political groups to which they belong. By this
you will see how easy and almost inevitable it is that we should become
accustomed to look on conspiracy and revolt against the regnant party--the
men of another clique--as only in the natural order of things. In the event of
failure such outbreaks are punished, but they are not regarded as immoral.
On the contrary, men of the highest intelligence and virtue among us are
seen taking a leading part in these adventures. Whether such a condition of
things is intrinsically wrong or not, or would be wrong in some
circumstances and is not wrong, because inevitable, in others, I cannot
pretend to decide; and all this tiresome profusion is only to enable you to
understand how I--a young man of unblemished character, not a soldier by
profession, not ambitious of political distinction, wealthy for that country,
popular in society, a lover of social pleasures, of books, of nature actuated,
as I believed, by the highest motives, allowed myself to be drawn very
readily by friends and relations into a conspiracy to overthrow the
government of the moment, with the object of replacing it by more worthy
men ourselves, to wit.
Our adventure failed because the authorities got wind of the affair and
matters were precipitated. Our leaders at the moment happened to be
scattered over the country--some were abroad; and a few hotheaded men of
the party, who were in Caracas just then and probably feared arrest, struck a
rash blow: the President was attacked in the street and wounded. But the
attackers were seized, and some of them shot on the following day. When
the news reached me I was at a distance from the capital, staying with a
friend on an estate he owned on the River Quebrada Honda, in the State of
Guarico, some fifteen to twenty miles from the town of Zaraza. My friend,
an officer in the army, was a leader in the conspiracy; and as I was the only
son of a man who had been greatly hated by the Minister of War, it became
necessary for us both to fly for our lives. In the circumstances we could not
look to be pardoned, even on the score of youth.
Our first decision was to escape to the sea-coast; but as the risk of a
journey to La Guayra, or any other port of embarkation on the north side of
the country, seemed too great, we made our way in a contrary direction to
the Orinoco, and downstream to Angostura. Now, when we had reached this
comparatively safe breathing-place--safe, at all events, for the moment--I
changed my mind about leaving or attempting to leave the country. Since
boyhood I had taken a very peculiar interest in that vast and almost
unexplored territory we possess south of the Orinoco, with its countless
unmapped rivers and trackless forests; and in its savage inhabitants, with
their ancient customs and character, unadulterated by contact with
Europeans. To visit this primitive wilderness had been a cherished dream;
and I had to some extent even prepared myself for such an adventure by
mastering more than one of the Indian dialects of the northern states of
Venezuela. And now, finding myself on the south side of our great river,
with unlimited time at my disposal, I determined to gratify this wish. My
companion took his departure towards the coast, while I set about making
preparations and hunting up information from those who had travelled in
the interior to trade with the savages. I decided eventually to go back
upstream and penetrate to the interior in the western part of Guayana, and
the Amazonian territory bordering on Colombia and Brazil, and to return to
Angostura in about six months' time. I had no fear of being arrested in the
semi-independent and in most part savage region, as the Guayana
authorities concerned themselves little enough about the political upheavals
at Caracas.
The first five or six months I spent in Guayana, after leaving the city of
refuge, were eventful enough to satisfy a moderately adventurous spirit. A
complaisant government employee at Angostura had provided me with a
passport, in which it was set down (for few to read) that my object in
visiting the interior was to collect information concerning the native tribes,
the vegetable products of the country, and other knowledge which would be
of advantage to the Republic; and the authorities were requested to afford
me protection and assist me in my pursuits. I ascended the Orinoco, making
occasional expeditions to the small Christian settlements in the
neighbourhood of the right bank, also to the Indian villages; and travelling
in this way, seeing and learning much, in about three months I reached the
River Metal During this period I amused myself by keeping a journal, a
record of personal adventures, impressions of the country and people, both
semi-civilized and savage; and as my journal grew, I began to think that on
my return at some future time to Caracas, it might prove useful and
interesting to the public, and also procure me fame; which thought proved
pleasurable and a great incentive, so that I began to observe things more
narrowly and to study expression. But the book was not to be.
From the mouth of the Meta I journeyed on, intending to visit the
settlement of Atahapo, where the great River Guaviare, with other rivers,
empties itself into the Orinoco. But I was not destined to reach it, for at the
small settlement of Manapuri I fell ill of a low fever; and here ended the
first half-year of my wanderings, about which no more need be told.
A more miserable place than Manapuri for a man to be ill of a low fever
in could not well be imagined. The settlement, composed of mean hovels,
with a few large structures of mud, or plastered wattle, thatched with palm
leaves, was surrounded by water, marsh, and forest, the breeding-place of
myriads of croaking frogs and of clouds of mosquitoes; even to one in
perfect health existence in such a place would have been a burden. The
inhabitants mustered about eighty or ninety, mostly Indians of that
degenerate class frequently to be met with in small trading outposts. The
savages of Guayana are great drinkers, but not drunkards in our sense, since
their fermented liquors contain so little alcohol that inordinate quantities
must be swallowed to produce intoxication; in the settlements they prefer
the white man's more potent poisons, with the result that in a small place
like Manapuri one can see enacted, as on a stage, the last act in the great
American tragedy. To be succeeded, doubtless, by other and possibly
greater tragedies. My thoughts at that period of suffering were pessimistic
in the extreme. Sometimes, when the almost continuous rain held up for
half a day, I would manage to creep out a short distance; but I was almost
past making any exertion, scarcely caring to live, and taking absolutely no
interest in the news from Caracas, which reached me at long intervals. At
the end of two months, feeling a slight improvement in my health, and with
it a returning interest in life and its affairs, it occurred to me to get out my
diary and write a brief account of my sojourn at Manapuri. I had placed it
for safety in a small deal box, lent to me for the purpose by a Venezuelan
trader, an old resident at the settlement, by name Pantaleon--called by all
Don Panta--one who openly kept half a dozen Indian wives in his house,
and was noted for his dishonesty and greed, but who had proved himself a
good friend to me. The box was in a corner of the wretched palm-thatched
hovel I inhabited; but on taking it out I discovered that for several weeks
the rain had been dripping on it, and that the manuscript was reduced to a
sodden pulp. I flung it upon the floor with a curse and threw myself back on
my bed with a groan.
In that desponding state I was found by my friend Panta, who was
constant in his visits at all hours; and when in answer to his anxious
inquiries I pointed to the pulpy mass on the mud floor, he turned it over
with his foot, and then, bursting into a loud laugh, kicked it out, remarking
that he had mistaken the object for some unknown reptile that had crawled
in out of the rain. He affected to be astonished that I should regret its loss. It
was all a true narrative, he exclaimed; if I wished to write a book for the
stay-at-homes to read, I could easily invent a thousand lies far more
entertaining than any real experiences. He had come to me, he said, to
propose something. He had lived twenty years at that place, and had got
accustomed to the climate, but it would not do for me to remain any longer
if I wished to live. I must go away at once to a different country--to the
mountains, where it was open and dry. "And if you want quinine when you
are there," he concluded, "smell the wind when it blows from the south-
west, and you will inhale it into your system, fresh from the forest." When I
remarked despondingly that in my condition it would be impossible to quit
Manapuri, he went on to say that a small party of Indians was now in the
settlement; that they had come, not only to trade, but to visit one of their
own tribe, who was his wife, purchased some years ago from her father.
"And the money she cost me I have never regretted to this day," said he,
"for she is a good wife not jealous," he added, with a curse on all the others.
These Indians came all the way from the Queneveta mountains, and were of
the Maquiritari tribe. He, Panta, and, better still, his good wife would
interest them on my behalf, and for a suitable reward they would take me by
slow, easy stages to their own country, where I would be treated well and
recover my health.
This proposal, after I had considered it well, produced so good an effect
on me that I not only gave a glad consent, but, on the following day, I was
able to get about and begin the preparations for my journey with some
spirit.
In about eight days I bade good-bye to my generous friend Panta, whom
I regarded, after having seen much of him, as a kind of savage beast that
had sprung on me, not to rend, but to rescue from death; for we know that
even cruel savage brutes and evil men have at times sweet, beneficent
impulses, during which they act in a way contrary to their natures, like
passive agents of some higher power. It was a continual pain to travel in my
weak condition, and the patience of my Indians was severely taxed; but they
did not forsake me; and at last the entire distance, which I conjectured to be
about sixty-five leagues, was accomplished; and at the end I was actually
stronger and better in every way than at the start. From this time my
progress towards complete recovery was rapid. The air, with or without any
medicinal virtue blown from the cinchona trees in the far-off Andean forest,
was tonic; and when I took my walks on the hillside above the Indian
village, or later when able to climb to the summits, the world as seen from
those wild Queneveta mountains had a largeness and varied glory of
scenery peculiarly refreshing and delightful to the soul.
With the Maquiritari tribe I passed some weeks, and the sweet
sensations of returning health made me happy for a time; but such
sensations seldom outlast convalescence. I was no sooner well again than I
began to feel a restless spirit stirring in me. The monotony of savage life in
this place became intolerable. After my long listless period the reaction had
come, and I wished only for action, adventure--no matter how dangerous;
and for new scenes, new faces, new dialects. In the end I conceived the idea
of going on to the Casiquiare river, where I would find a few small
settlements, and perhaps obtain help from the authorities there which would
enable me to reach the Rio Negro. For it was now in my mind to follow that
river to the Amazons, and so down to Para and the Atlantic coast.
Leaving the Queneveta range, I started with two of the Indians as guides
and travelling companions; but their journey ended only half-way to the
river I wished to reach; and they left me with some friendly savages living
on the Chunapay, a tributary of the Cunucumana, which flows to the
Orinoco. Here I had no choice but to wait until an opportunity of attaching
myself to some party of travelling Indians going south-west should arrive;
for by this time I had expended the whole of my small capital in ornaments
and calico brought from Manapuri, so that I could no longer purchase any
man's service. And perhaps it will be as well to state at this point just what I
possessed. For some time I had worn nothing but sandals to protect my feet;
my garments consisted of a single suit, and one flannel shirt, which I
washed frequently, going shirtless while it was drying. Fortunately I had an
excellent blue cloth cloak, durable and handsome, given to me by a friend at
Angostura, whose prophecy on presenting it, that it would outlast ME, very
nearly came true. It served as a covering by night, and to keep a man warm
and comfortable when travelling in cold and wet weather no better garment
was ever made. I had a revolver and metal cartridge-box in my broad
leather belt, also a good hunting-knife with strong buckhorn handle and a
heavy blade about nine inches long. In the pocket of my cloak I had a pretty
silver tinder-box, and a match-box--to be mentioned again in this narrative
and one or two other trifling objects; these I was determined to keep
until they could be kept no longer.
During the tedious interval of waiting on the Chunapay I was told a
flattering tale by the village Indians, which eventually caused me to
abandon the proposed journey to the Rio Negro. These Indians wore
necklets, like nearly all the Guayana savages; but one, I observed,
possessed a necklet unlike that of the others, which greatly aroused my
curiosity. It was made of thirteen gold plates, irregular in form, about as
broad as a man's thumb-nail, and linked together with fibres. I was allowed
to examine it, and had no doubt that the pieces were of pure gold, beaten
flat by the savages. When questioned about it, they said it was originally
obtained from the Indians of Parahuari, and Parahuari, they further said,
was a mountainous country west of the Orinoco. Every man and woman in
that place, they assured me, had such a necklet. This report inflamed my
mind to such a degree that I could not rest by night or day for dreaming
golden dreams, and considering how to get to that rich district, unknown to
civilized men. The Indians gravely shook their heads when I tried to
persuade them to take me. They were far enough from the Orinoco, and
Parahuari was ten, perhaps fifteen, days' journey further on--a country
unknown to them, where they had no relations.
In spite of difficulties and delays, however, and not without pain and
some perilous adventures, I succeeded at last in reaching the upper Orinoco,
and, eventually, in crossing to the other side. With my life in my hand I
struggled on westward through an unknown difficult country, from Indian
village to village, where at any moment I might have been murdered with
impunity for the sake of my few belongings. It is hard for me to speak a
good word for the Guayana savages; but I must now say this of them, that
they not only did me no harm when I was at their mercy during this long
journey, but they gave me shelter in their villages, and fed me when I was
hungry, and helped me on my way when I could make no return. You must
not, however, run away with the idea that there is any sweetness in their
disposition, any humane or benevolent instincts such as are found among
the civilized nations: far from it. I regard them now, and, fortunately for me,
I regarded them then, when, as I have said, I was at their mercy, as beasts of
prey, plus a cunning or low kind of intelligence vastly greater than that of
the brute; and, for only morality, that respect for the rights of other
members of the same family, or tribe, without which even the rudest
communities cannot hold together. How, then, could I do this thing, and
dwell and travel freely, without receiving harm, among tribes that have no
peace with and no kindly feelings towards the stranger, in a district where
the white man is rarely or never seen? Because I knew them so well.
Without that knowledge, always available, and an extreme facility in
acquiring new dialects, which had increased by practice until it was almost
like intuition, I should have fared badly after leaving the Maquiritari tribe.
As it was, I had two or three very narrow escapes.
To return from this digression. I looked at last on the famous Parahuari
mountains, which, I was greatly surprised to find, were after all nothing but
hills, and not very high ones. This, however, did not impress me. The very
fact that Parahuari possessed no imposing feature in its scenery seemed
rather to prove that it must be rich in gold: how else could its name and the
fame of its treasures be familiar to people dwelling so far away as the
Cunucumana?
But there was no gold. I searched through the whole range, which was
about seven leagues long, and visited the villages, where I talked much with
the Indians, interrogating them, and they had no necklets of gold, nor gold
in any form; nor had they ever heard of its presence in Parahuari or in any
other place known to them.
The very last village where I spoke on the subject of my quest, albeit
now without hope, was about a league from the western extremity of the
range, in the midst of a high broken country of forest and savannah and
many swift streams; near one of these, called the Curicay, the village stood,
among low scattered trees- -a large building, in which all the people,
numbering eighteen, passed most of their time when not hunting, with two
smaller buildings attached to it. The head, or chief, Runi by name, was
about fifty years old, a taciturn, finely formed, and somewhat dignified
savage, who was either of a sullen disposition or not well pleased at the
intrusion of a white man. And for a time I made no attempt to conciliate
him. What profit was there in it at all? Even that light mask, which I had
worn so long and with such good effect, incommoded me now: I would cast
it aside and be myself--silent and sullen as my barbarous host. If any
malignant purpose was taking form in his mind, let it, and let him do his
worst; for when failure first stares a man in the face, it has so dark and
repellent a look that not anything that can be added can make him more
miserable; nor has he any apprehension. For weeks I had been searching
with eager, feverish eyes in every village, in every rocky crevice, in every
noisy mountain streamlet, for the glittering yellow dust I had travelled so
far to find. And now all my beautiful dreams--all the pleasure and power to
be--had vanished like a mere mirage on the savannah at noon.
It was a day of despair which I spent in this place, sitting all day
indoors, for it was raining hard, immersed in my own gloomy thoughts,
pretending to doze in my seat, and out of the narrow slits of my half-closed
eyes seeing the others, also sitting or moving about, like shadows or people
in a dream; and I cared nothing about them, and wished not to seem
friendly, even for the sake of the food they might offer me by and by.
Towards evening the rain ceased; and rising up I went out a short
distance to the neighbouring stream, where I sat on a stone and, casting off
my sandals, raved my bruised feet in the cool running water. The western
half of the sky was blue again with that tender lucid blue seen after rain, but
the leaves still glittered with water, and the wet trunks looked almost black
under the green foliage. The rare loveliness of the scene touched and
lightened my heart. Away back in the east the hills of Parahuari, with the
level sun full on them, loomed with a strange glory against the grey rainy
clouds drawing off on that side, and their new mystic beauty almost made
me forget how these same hills had wearied, and hurt, and mocked me. On
that side, also to the north and south, there was open forest, but to the west a
different prospect met the eye. Beyond the stream and the strip of verdure
that fringed it, and the few scattered dwarf trees growing near its banks,
spread a brown savannah sloping upwards to a long, low, rocky ridge,
beyond which rose a great solitary hill, or rather mountain, conical in form,
and clothed in forest almost to the summit. This was the mountain Ytaioa,
the chief landmark in that district. As the sun went down over the ridge,
beyond the savannah, the whole western sky changed to a delicate rose
colour that had the appearance of rose-coloured smoke blown there by some
far off-wind, and left suspended--a thin, brilliant veil showing through it the
distant sky beyond, blue and ethereal. Flocks of birds, a kind of troupial,
were flying past me overhead, flock succeeding flock, on their way to their
roosting-place, uttering as they flew a clear, bell-like chirp; and there was
something ethereal too in those drops of melodious sound, which fell into
my heart like raindrops falling into a pool to mix their fresh heavenly water
with the water of earth.
Doubtless into the turbid tarn of my heart some sacred drops had fallen-
-from the passing birds, from that crimson disk which had now dropped
below the horizon, the darkening hills, the rose and blue of infinite heaven,
from the whole visible circle; and I felt purified and had a strange sense and
apprehension of a secret innocence and spirituality in nature--a prescience
of some bourn, incalculably distant perhaps, to which we are all moving; of
a time when the heavenly rain shall have washed us clean from all spot and
blemish. This unexpected peace which I had found now seemed to me of
infinitely greater value than that yellow metal I had missed finding, with all
its possibilities. My wish now was to rest for a season at this spot, so remote
and lovely and peaceful, where I had experienced such unusual feelings and
such a blessed disillusionment.
This was the end of my second period in Guayana: the first had been
filled with that dream of a book to win me fame in my country, perhaps
even in Europe; the second, from the time of leaving the Queneveta
mountains, with the dream of boundless wealth--the old dream of gold in
this region that has drawn so many minds since the days of Francisco
Pizarro. But to remain I must propitiate Runi, sitting silent with gloomy
brows over there indoors; and he did not appear to me like one that might
be won with words, however flattering. It was clear to me that the time had
come to part with my one remaining valuable trinket--the tinder-box of
chased silver.
I returned to the house and, going in, seated myself on a log by the fire,
just opposite to my grim host, who was smoking and appeared not to have
moved since I left him. I made myself a cigarette, then drew out the tinder-
box, with its flint and steel attached to it by means of two small silver
chains. His eyes brightened a little as they curiously watched my
movements, and he pointed without speaking to the glowing coals of fire at
my feet. I shook my head, and striking the steel, sent out a brilliant spray of
sparks, then blew on the tinder and lit my cigarette.
This done, instead of returning the box to my pocket I passed the chain
through the buttonhole of my cloak and let it dangle on my breast as an
ornament. When the cigarette was smoked, I cleared my throat in the
orthodox manner and fixed my eyes on Runi, who, on his part, made a
slight movement to indicate that he was ready to listen to what I had to say.
My speech was long, lasting at least half an hour, delivered in a
profound silence; it was chiefly occupied with an account of my wanderings
in Guayana; and being little more than a catalogue of names of all the
places I had visited, and the tribes and chief or head men with whom I had
come in contact, I was able to speak continuously, and so to hide my
ignorance of a dialect which was still new to me. The Guayana savage
judges a man for his staying powers. To stand as motionless as a bronze
statue for one or two hours watching for a bird; to sit or lie still for half a
day; to endure pain, not seldom self-inflicted, without wincing; and when
delivering a speech to pour it out in a copious stream, without pausing to
take breath or hesitating over a word--to be able to do all this is to prove
yourself a man, an equal, one to be respected and even made a friend of.
What I really wished to say to him was put in a few words at the conclusion
of my well-nigh meaningless oration. Everywhere, I said, I had been the
Indian's friend, and I wished to be his friend, to live with him at Parahuari,
even as I had lived with other chiefs and heads of villages and families; to
be looked on by him, as these others had looked on me, not as a stranger or
a white man, but as a friend, a brother, an Indian.
I ceased speaking, and there was a slight murmurous sound in the room,
as of wind long pent up in many lungs suddenly exhaled; while Runi, still
unmoved, emitted a low grunt. Then I rose, and detaching the silver
ornament from my cloak, presented it to him. He accepted it; not very
graciously, as a stranger to these people might have imagined; but I was
satisfied, feeling sure that I had made a favourable impression. After a little
he handed the box to the person sitting next to him, who examined it and
passed it on to a third, and in this way it went round and came back once
more to Runi. Then he called for a drink. There happened to be a store of
casserie in the house; probably the women had been busy for some days
past in making it, little thinking that it was destined to be prematurely
consumed. A large jarful was produced; Runi politely quaffed the first cup;
I followed; then the others; and the women drank also, a woman taking
about one cupful to a man's three. Runi and I, however, drank the most, for
we had our positions as the two principal personages there to maintain.
Tongues were loosened now; for the alcohol, small as the quantity
contained in this mild liquor is, had begun to tell on our brains. I had not
their pottle-shaped stomach, made to hold unlimited quantities of meat and
drink; but I was determined on this most important occasion not to deserve
my host's contempt--to be compared, perhaps, to the small bird that
delicately picks up six drops of water in its bill and is satisfied. I would
measure my strength against his, and if necessary drink myself into a state
of insensibility.
At last I was scarcely able to stand on my legs. But even the seasoned
old savage was affected by this time. In vino veritas, said the ancients; and
the principle holds good where there is no vinum, but only mild casserie.
Runi now informed me that he had once known a white man, that he was a
bad man, which had caused him to say that all white men were bad; even as
David, still more sweepingly, had proclaimed that all men were liars. Now
he found that it was not so, that I was a good man. His friendliness
increased with intoxication. He presented me with a curious little tinder-
box, made from the conical tail of an armadillo, hollowed out, and provided
with a wooden stopper--this to be used in place of the box I had deprived
myself of. He also furnished me with a grass hammock, and had it hung up
there and then, so that I could lie down when inclined. There was nothing
he would not do for me. And at last, when many more cups had been
emptied, and a third or fourth jar brought out, he began to unburthen his
heart of its dark and dangerous secrets. He shed tears--for the "man without
at ear" dwells not in the woods of Guayana: tears for those who had been
treacherously slain long years ago; for his father, who had been killed by
Tripica, the father of Managa, who was still above ground. But let him and
all his people beware of Runi. He had spilt their blood before, he had fed
the fox and vulture with their flesh, and would never rest while Managa
lived with his people at Uritay--the five hills of Uritay, which were two
days' journey from Parahuari. While thus talking of his old enemy he lashed
himself into a kind of frenzy, smiting his chest and gnashing his teeth; and
finally seizing a spear, he buried its point deep into the clay floor, only to
wrench it out and strike it into the earth again and again, to show how he
would serve Managa, and any one of Managa's people he might meet with--
man, woman, or child. Then he staggered out from the door to flourish his
spear; and looking to the north-west, he shouted aloud to Managa to come
and slay his people and burn down his house, as he had so often threatened
to do.
"Let him come! Let Managa come!" I cried, staggering out after him. "I
am your friend, your brother; I have no spear and no arrows, but I have this-
-this!" And here I drew out and flourished my revolver. "Where is
Managa?" I continued. "Where are the hills of Uritay?" He pointed to a star
low down in the south-west. "Then," I shouted, "let this bullet find Managa,
sitting by the fire among his people, and let him fall and pour out his blood
on the ground!" And with that I discharged my pistol in the direction he had
pointed to. A scream of terror burst out from the women and children, while
Runi at my side, in an access of fierce delight and admiration, turned and
embraced me. It was the first and last embrace I ever suffered from a naked
male savage, and although this did not seem a time for fastidious feelings,
to be hugged to his sweltering body was an unpleasant experience.
More cups of casserie followed this outburst; and at last, unable to keep
it up any longer, I staggered to my hammock; but being unable to get into it,
Runi, overflowing with kindness, came to my assistance, whereupon we fell
and rolled together on the floor. Finally I was raised by the others and
tumbled into my swinging bed, and fell at once into a deep, dreamless
sleep, from which I did not awake until after sunrise on the following
morning.
CHAPTER II
CHAPTER III
CHAPTER IV
Perhaps I was not capable of thinking quite coherently on what had just
happened until I was once more fairly outside of the forest shadows--out in
that clear open daylight, where things seem what they are, and imagination,
like a juggler detected and laughed at, hastily takes itself out of the way. As
I walked homewards I paused midway on the barren ridge to gaze back on
the scene I had left, and then the recent adventure began to take a semi-
ludicrous aspect in my mind. All that circumstance of preparation, that
mysterious prelude to something unheard of, unimaginable, surpassing all
fables ancient and modern, and all tragedies--to end at last in a concert of
howling monkeys! Certainly the concert was very grand--indeed, one of the
most astounding in nature---but still--I sat down on a stone and laughed
freely.
The sun was sinking behind the forest, its broad red disk still showing
through the topmost leaves, and the higher part of the foliage was of a
luminous green, like green flame, throwing off flakes of quivering, fiery
light, but lower down the trees were in profound shadow.
I felt very light-hearted while I gazed on this scene, for how pleasant it
was just now to think of the strange experience I had passed through--to
think that I had come safely out of it, that no human eye had witnessed my
weakness, and that the mystery existed still to fascinate me! For, ludicrous
as the denouement now looked, the cause of all, the voice itself, was a thing
to marvel at more than ever. That it proceeded from an intelligent being I
was firmly convinced; and although too materialistic in my way of thinking
to admit for a moment that it was a supernatural being, I still felt that there
was something more than I had at first imagined in Kua-ko's speech about a
daughter of the Didi. That the Indians knew a great deal about the
mysterious voice, and had held it in great fear, seemed evident. But they
were savages, with ways that were not mine; and however friendly they
might be towards one of a superior race, there was always in their relations
with him a low cunning, prompted partly by suspicion, underlying their
words and actions. For the white man to put himself mentally on their level
is not more impossible than for these aborigines to be perfectly open, as
children are, towards the white. Whatever subject the stranger within their
gates exhibits an interest in, that they will be reticent about; and their
reticence, which conceals itself under easily invented lies or an affected
stupidity, invariably increases with his desire for information. It was plain
to them that some very unusual interest took me to the wood; consequently
I could not expect that they would tell me anything they might know to
enlighten me about the matter; and I concluded that Kua-ko's words about
the daughter of the Didi, and what she would do if he blew an arrow at a
bird, had accidentally escaped him in a moment of excitement. Nothing,
therefore, was to be gained by questioning them, or, at all events, by telling
them how much the subject attracted me. And I had nothing to fear; my
independent investigations had made this much clear to me; the voice might
proceed from a very frolicsome and tricksy creature, full of wild fantastic
humours, but nothing worse. It was friendly to me, I felt sure; at the same
time it might not be friendly towards the Indians; for, on that day, it had
made itself heard only after my companion had taken flight; and it had then
seemed incensed against me, possibly because the savage had been in my
company.
That was the result of my reflections on the day's events when I returned
to my entertainer's roof and sat down among my friends to refresh myself
with stewed fowl and fish from the household pot, into which a hospitable
woman invited me with a gesture to dip my fingers.
Kua-ko was lying in his hammock, smoking, I think--certainly not
reading. When I entered he lifted his head and stared at me, probably
surprised to see me alive, unharmed, and in a placid temper. I laughed at the
look, and, somewhat disconcerted, he dropped his head down again. After a
minute or two I took the metal match-box and tossed it on to his breast. He
clutched it and, starting up, stared at me in the utmost astonishment. He
could scarcely believe his good fortune; for he had failed to carry out his
part of the compact and had resigned himself to the loss of the coveted
prize. Jumping down to the floor, he held up the box triumphantly, his joy
overcoming the habitual stolid look; while all the others gathered about
him, each trying to get the box into his own hands to admire it again,
notwithstanding that they had all seen it a dozen times before. But it was
Kua-ko's now and not the stranger's, and therefore more nearly their own
than formerly, and must look different, more beautiful, with a brighter
polish on the metal. And that wonderful enamelled cock on the lid--figured
in Paris probably, but just like a cock in Guayana, the pet bird which they
no more think of killing and eating than we do our purring pussies and
lemon-coloured canaries--must now look more strikingly valiant and cock-
like than ever, with its crimson comb and wattles, burnished red hackles,
and dark green arching tail-plumes. But Kua-ko, while willing enough to
have it admired and praised, would not let it out of his hands, and told them
pompously that it was not theirs for them to handle, but his--Kua-ko's--for
all time; that he had won it by accompanying me--valorous man that he
was!--to that evil wood into which they--timid, inferior creatures that they
were!--would never have ventured to set foot. I am not translating his
words, but that was what he gave them to understand pretty plainly, to my
great amusement.
After the excitement was over, Runi, who had maintained a dignified
calm, made some roundabout remarks, apparently with the object of
eliciting an account of what I had seen and heard in the forest of evil fame. I
replied carelessly that I had seen a great many birds and monkeys--monkeys
so tame that I might have procured one if I had had a blow-pipe, in spite of
my never having practiced shooting with that weapon.
It interested them to hear about the abundance and tameness of the
monkeys, although it was scarcely news; but how tame they must have been
when I, the stranger not to the manner born--not naked, brown-skinned,
lynx-eyed, and noiseless as an owl in his movements--had yet been able to
look closely at them! Runi only remarked, apropos of what I had told him,
that they could not go there to hunt; then he asked me if I feared nothing.
"Nothing," I replied carelessly. "The things you fear hurt not the white
man and are no more than this to me," saying which I took up a little white
wood-ash in my hand and blew it away with my breath. "And against other
enemies I have this," I added, touching my revolver. A brave speech, just
after that araguato episode; but I did not make it without blushing--
mentally.
- He shook his head, and said it was a poor weapon against some
enemies; also--truly enough--that it would procure no birds and monkeys
for the stew-pot.
Next morning my friend Kua-ko, taking his zabatana, invited me to go
out with him, and I consented with some misgivings, thinking he had
overcome his superstitious fears and, inflamed by my account of the
abundance of game in the forest, intended going there with me. The
previous day's experience had made me think that it would be better in the
future to go there alone. But I was giving the poor youth more credit than
he deserved: it was far from his intention to face the terrible unknown
again. We went in a different direction, and tramped for hours through
woods where birds were scarce and only of the smaller kinds. Then my
guide surprised me a second time by offering to teach me to use the
zabatana. This, then, was to be my reward for giving him the box! I readily
consented, and with the long weapon, awkward to carry, in my hand, and
imitating the noiseless movements and cautious, watchful manner of my
companion, I tried to imagine myself a simple Guayana savage, with no
knowledge of that artificial social state to which I had been born, dependent
on my skill and little roll of poison-darts for a livelihood. By an effort of the
will I emptied myself of my life experience and knowledge--or as much of
it as possible--and thought only of the generations of my dead imaginary
progenitors, who had ranged these woods back to the dim forgotten years
before Columbus; and if the pleasure I had in the fancy was childish, it
made the day pass quickly enough. Kua-ko was constantly at my elbow to
assist and give advice; and many an arrow I blew from the long tube, and
hit no bird. Heaven knows what I hit, for the arrows flew away on their
wide and wild career to be seen no more, except a few which my keen-eyed
comrade marked to their destination and managed to recover. The result of
our day's hunting was a couple of birds, which Kua-ko, not I, shot, and a
small opossum his sharp eyes detected high up a tree lying coiled up on an
old nest, over the side of which the animal had incautiously allowed his
snaky tail to dangle. The number of darts I wasted must have been a rather
serious loss to him, but he did not seem troubled at it, and made no remark.
Next day, to my surprise, he volunteered to give me a second lesson,
and we went out again. On this occasion he had provided himself with a
large bundle of darts, but--wise man!--they were not poisoned, and it
therefore mattered little whether they were wasted or not. I believe that on
this day I made some little progress; at all events, my teacher remarked that
before long I would be able to hit a bird. This made me smile and answer
that if he could place me within twenty yards of a bird not smaller than a
small man I might manage to touch it with an arrow.
This speech had a very unexpected and remarkable effect. He stopped
short in his walk, stared at me wildly, then grinned, and finally burst into a
roar of laughter, which was no bad imitation of the howling monkey's
performance, and smote his naked thighs with tremendous energy. At length
recovering himself, he asked whether a small woman was not the same as a
small man, and being answered in the affirmative, went off into a second
extravagant roar of laughter.
Thinking it was easy to tickle him while he continued in this mood, I
began making any number of feeble jokes--feeble, but quite as good as the
one which had provoked such outrageous merriment--for it amused me to
see him acting in this unusual way. But they all failed of their effect--there
was no hitting the bull's-eye a second time; he would only stare vacantly at
me, then grunt like a peccary--not appreciatively--and walk on. Still, at
intervals he would go back to what I had said about hitting a very big bird,
and roar again, as if this wonderful joke was not easily exhausted.
Again on the third day we were out together practicing at the birds--
frightening if not killing them; but before noon, finding that it was his
intention to go to a distant spot where he expected to meet with larger
game, I left him and returned to the village. The blow-pipe practice had lost
its novelty, and I did not care to go on all day and every day with it; more
than that, I was anxious after so long an interval to pay a visit to my wood,
as I began to call it, in the hope of hearing that mysterious melody which I
had grown to love and to miss when even a single day passed without it.
CHAPTER V
CHAPTER VI
Thinking about the forest girl while lying awake that night, I came to
the conclusion that I had made it sufficiently plain to her how little her
capricious behaviour had been relished, and had therefore no need to punish
myself more by keeping any longer out of my beloved green mansions.
Accordingly, next day, after the heavy rain that fell during the morning
hours had ceased, I set forth about noon to visit the wood. Overhead the sky
was clear again; but there was no motion in the heavy sultry atmosphere,
while dark blue masses of banked-up clouds on the western horizon
threatened a fresh downpour later in the day. My mind was, however, now
too greatly excited at the prospect of a possible encounter with the forest
nymph to allow me to pay any heed to these ominous signs.
I had passed through the first strip of wood and was in the succeeding
stony sterile space when a gleam of brilliant colour close by on the ground
caught my sight. It was a snake lying on the bare earth; had I kept on
without noticing it, I should most probably have trodden upon or
dangerously near it. Viewing it closely, I found that it was a coral snake,
famed as much for its beauty and singularity as for its deadly character. It
was about three feet long, and very slim; its ground colour a brilliant
vermilion, with broad jet-black rings at equal distances round its body, each
black ring or band divided by a narrow yellow strip in the middle. The
symmetrical pattern and vividly contrasted colours would have given it the
appearance of an artificial snake made by some fanciful artist, but for the
gleam of life in its bright coils. Its fixed eyes, too, were living gems, and
from the point of its dangerous arrowy head the glistening tongue flickered
ceaselessly as I stood a few yards away regarding it.
"I admire you greatly, Sir Serpent," I said, or thought, "but it is
dangerous, say the military authorities, to leave an enemy or possible
enemy in the rear; the person who does such a thing must be either a bad
strategist or a genius, and I am neither."
Retreating a few paces, I found and picked up a stone about as big as a
man's hand and hurled it at the dangerous-looking head with the intention of
crushing it; but the stone hit upon the rocky ground a little on one side of
the mark and, being soft, flew into a hundred small fragments. This roused
the creature's anger, and in a moment with raised head he was gliding
swiftly towards me. Again I retreated, not so slowly on this occasion; and
finding another stone, I raised and was about to launch it when a sharp,
ringing cry issued from the bushes growing near, and, quickly following the
sound, forth stepped the forest girl; no longer elusive and shy, vaguely seen
in the shadowy wood, but boldly challenging attention, exposed to the full
power of the meridian sun, which made her appear luminous and rich in
colour beyond example. Seeing her thus, all those emotions of fear and
abhorrence invariably excited in us by the sight of an active venomous
serpent in our path vanished instantly from my mind: I could now only feel
astonishment and admiration et the brilliant being as she advanced with
swift, easy, undulating motion towards me; or rather towards the serpent,
which was now between us, moving more and more slowly as she came
nearer. The cause of this sudden wonderful boldness, so unlike her former
habit, was unmistakable. She had been watching my approach from some
hiding-place among the bushes, ready no doubt to lead me a dance through
the wood with her mocking voice, as on previous occasions, when my
attack on the serpent caused that outburst of wrath. The torrent of ringing
and to me inarticulate sounds in that unknown tongue, her rapid gestures,
and, above all, her wide-open sparkling eyes and face aflame with colour
made it impossible to mistake the nature of her feeling.
In casting about for some term or figure of speech in which to describe
the impression produced on me at that moment, I think of waspish, and,
better still, avispada--literally the same word in Spanish, not having
precisely the same meaning nor ever applied contemptuously--only to reject
both after a moment's reflection. Yet I go back to the image of an irritated
wasp as perhaps offering the best illustration; of some large tropical wasp
advancing angrily towards me, as I have witnessed a hundred times, not
exactly flying, but moving rapidly, half running and half flying, over the
ground, with loud and angry buzz, the glistening wings open and agitated;
beautiful beyond most animated creatures in its sharp but graceful lines,
polished surface, and varied brilliant colouring, and that wrathfulness that
fits it so well and seems to give it additional lustre.
Wonder-struck at the sight of her strange beauty and passion, I forgot
the advancing snake until she came to a stop at about five yards from me;
then to my horror I saw that it was beside her naked feet. Although no
longer advancing, the head was still raised high as if to strike; but presently
the spirit of anger appeared to die out of it; the lifted head, oscillating a
little from side to side, sunk down lower and lower to rest finally on the
girl's bare instep; and lying there motionless, the deadly thing had the
appearance of a gaily coloured silken garter just dropped from her leg. It
was plain to see that she had no fear of it, that she was one of those
exceptional persons, to be found, it is said, in all countries, who possess
some magnetic quality which has a soothing effect on even the most
venomous and irritable reptiles.
Following the direction of my eyes, she too glanced down, but did not
move her foot; then she made her voice heard again, still loud and sharp,
but the anger was not now so pronounced.
"Do not fear, I shall not harm it," I said in the Indian tongue.
She took no notice of my speech and continued speaking with
increasing resentment.
I shook my head, replying that her language was unknown to me. Then
by means of signs I tried to make her understand that the creature was safe
from further molestation. She pointed indignantly at the stone in my hand,
which I had forgotten all about. At once I threw it from me, and instantly
there was a change; the resentment had vanished, and a tender radiance lit
her face like a smile.
I advanced a little nearer, addressing her once more in the Indian
tongue; but my speech was evidently unintelligible to her, as she stood now
glancing at the snake lying at her feet, now at me. Again I had recourse to
signs and gestures; pointing to the snake, then to the stone I had cast away, I
endeavoured to convey to her that in the future I would for her sake be a
friend to all venomous reptiles, and that I wished her to have the same
kindly feelings towards me as towards these creatures. Whether or not she
understood me, she showed no disposition to go into hiding again, and
continued silently regarding me with a look that seemed to express pleasure
at finding herself at last thus suddenly brought face to face with me.
Flattered at this, I gradually drew nearer until at the last I was standing at
her side, gazing down with the utmost delight into that face which so
greatly surpassed in loveliness all human faces I had ever seen or imagined.
And yet to you, my friend, it probably will not seem that she was so
beautiful, since I have, alas! only the words we all use to paint commoner,
coarser things, and no means to represent all the exquisite details, all the
delicate lights, and shades, and swift changes of colour and expression.
Moreover, is it not a fact that the strange or unheard of can never appear
beautiful in a mere description, because that which is most novel in it
attracts too much attention and is given undue prominence in the picture,
and we miss that which would have taken away the effect of strangeness--
the perfect balance of the parts and harmony of the whole? For instance, the
blue eyes of the northerner would, when first described to the black-eyed
inhabitants of warm regions, seem unbeautiful and a monstrosity, because
they would vividly see with the mental vision that unheard-of blueness, but
not in the same vivid way the accompanying flesh and hair tints with which
it harmonizes.
Think, then, less of the picture as I have to paint it in words than of the
feeling its original inspired in me when, looking closely for the first time on
that rare loveliness, trembling with delight, I mentally cried: "Oh, why has
Nature, maker of so many types and of innumerable individuals of each,
given to the world but one being like this?"
Scarcely had the thought formed itself in my mind before I dismissed it
as utterly incredible. No, this exquisite being was without doubt one of a
distinct race which had existed in this little-known corner of the continent
for thousands of generations, albeit now perhaps reduced to a small and
dwindling remnant.
Her figure and features were singularly delicate, but it was her colour
that struck me most, which indeed made her differ from all other human
beings. The colour of the skin would be almost impossible to describe, so
greatly did it vary with every change of mood--and the moods were many
and transient--and with the angle on which the sunlight touched it, and the
degree of light.
Beneath the trees, at a distance, it had seemed a somewhat dim white or
pale grey; near in the strong sunshine it was not white, but alabastrian,
semi-pellucid, showing an underlying rose colour; and at any point where
the rays fell direct this colour was bright and luminous, as we see in our
fingers when held before a strong firelight. But that part of her skin that
remained in shadow appeared of a dimmer white, and the underlying colour
varied from dim, rosy purple to dim blue. With the skin the colour of the
eyes harmonized perfectly. At first, when lit with anger, they had appeared
flame-like; now the iris was of a peculiar soft or dim and tender red, a shade
sometimes seen in flowers. But only when looked closely at could this
delicate hue be discerned, the pupils being large, as in some grey eyes, and
the long, dark, shading lashes at a short distance made the whole eye appear
dark. Think not, then, of the red flower, exposed to the light and sun in
conjunction with the vivid green of the foliage; think only of such a hue in
the half-hidden iris, brilliant and moist with the eye's moisture, deep with
the eye's depth, glorified by the outward look of a bright, beautiful soul.
Most variable of all in colour was the hair, this being due to its extreme
fineness and glossiness, and to its elasticity, which made it lie fleecy and
loose on head, shoulders, and back; a cloud with a brightness on its surface
made by the freer outer hairs, a fit setting and crown for a countenance of
such rare changeful loveliness. In the shade, viewed closely, the general
colour appeared a slate, deepening in places to purple; but even in the shade
the nimbus of free flossy hairs half veiled the darker tints with a downy
pallor; and at a distance of a few yards it gave the whole hair a vague, misty
appearance. In the sunlight the colour varied more, looking now dark,
sometimes intensely black, now of a light uncertain hue, with a play of
iridescent colour on the loose surface, as we see on the glossed plumage of
some birds; and at a short distance, with the sun shining full on her head, it
sometimes looked white as a noonday cloud. So changeful was it and
ethereal in appearance with its cloud colours that all other human hair, even
of the most beautiful golden shades, pale or red, seemed heavy and dull and
dead-looking by comparison.
But more than form and colour and that enchanting variability was the
look of intelligence, which at the same time seemed complementary to and
one with the all-seeing, all-hearing alertness appearing in her face; the
alertness one remarks in a wild creature, even when in repose and fearing
nothing; but seldom in man, never perhaps in intellectual or studious man.
She was a wild, solitary girl of the woods, and did not understand the
language of the country in which I had addressed her. What inner or mind
life could such a one have more than that of any wild animal existing in the
same conditions? Yet looking at her face it was not possible to doubt its
intelligence. This union in her of two opposite qualities, which, with us,
cannot or do not exist together, although so novel, yet struck me as the girl's
principal charm. Why had Nature not done this before--why in all others
does the brightness of the mind dim that beautiful physical brightness which
the wild animals have? But enough for me that that which no man had ever
looked for or hoped to find existed here; that through that unfamiliar lustre
of the wild life shone the spiritualizing light of mind that made us kin.
These thoughts passed swiftly through my brain as I stood feasting my
sight on her bright, piquant face; while she on her part gazed back into my
eyes, not only with fearless curiosity, but with a look of recognition and
pleasure at the encounter so unmistakably friendly that, encouraged by it, I
took her arm in my hand, moving at the same time a little nearer to her. At
that moment a swift, startled expression came into her eyes; she glanced
down and up again into my face; her lips trembled and slightly parted as she
murmured some sorrowful sounds in a tone so low as to be only just
audible.
Thinking she had become alarmed and was on the point of escaping out
of my hands, and fearing, above all things, to lose sight of her again so
soon, I slipped my arm around her slender body to detain her, moving one
foot at the same time to balance myself; and at that moment I felt a slight
blow and a sharp burning sensation shoot into my leg, so sudden and
intense that I dropped my arm, at the same time uttering a cry of pain, and
recoiled one or two paces from her. But she stirred not when I released her;
her eyes followed my movements; then she glanced down at her feet. I
followed her look, and figure to yourself my horror when I saw there the
serpent I had so completely forgotten, and which even that sting of sharp
pain had not brought back to remembrance! There it lay, a coil of its own
thrown round one of her ankles, and its head, raised nearly a foot high,
swaying slowly from side to side, while the swift forked tongue flickered
continuously. Then--only then--I knew what had happened, and at the same
time I understood the reason of that sudden look of alarm in her face, the
murmuring sounds she had uttered, and the downward startled glance. Her
fears had been solely for my safety, and she had warned me! Too late! too
late! In moving I had trodden on or touched the serpent with my foot, and it
had bitten me just above the ankle. In a few moments I began to realize the
horror of my position. "Must I die! must I die! Oh, my God, is there nothing
that can save me?" I cried in my heart.
She was still standing motionless in the same place: her eyes wandered
back from me to the snake; gradually its swaying head was lowered again,
and the coil unwound from her ankle; then it began to move away, slowly at
first, and with the head a little raised, then faster, and in the end it glided out
of sight. Gone!--but it had left its venom in my blood--O cursed reptile!
Back from watching its retreat, my eyes returned to her face, now
strangely clouded with trouble; her eyes dropped before mine, while the
palms of her hands were pressed together, and the fingers clasped and
unclasped alternately. How different she seemed now; the brilliant face
grown so pallid and vague-looking! But not only because this tragic end to
our meeting had pierced her with pain: that cloud in the west had grown up
and now covered half the sky with vast lurid masses of vapour, blotting out
the sun, and a great gloom had fallen on the earth.
That sudden twilight and a long roll of approaching thunder,
reverberating from the hills, increased my anguish and desperation. Death
at that moment looked unutterably terrible. The remembrance of all that
made life dear pierced me to the core--all that nature was to me, all the
pleasures of sense and intellect, the hopes I had cherished--all was revealed
to me as by a flash of lightning. Bitterest of all was the thought that I must
now bid everlasting farewell to this beautiful being I had found in the
solitude this lustrous daughter of the Didi--just when I had won her from
her shyness--that I must go away into the cursed blackness of death and
never know the mystery of her life! It was that which utterly unnerved me,
and made my legs tremble under me, and brought great drops of sweat to
my forehead, until I thought that the venom was already doing its swift,
fatal work in my veins.
With uncertain steps I moved to a stone a yard or two away and sat
down upon it. As I did so the hope came to me that this girl, so intimate
with nature, might know of some antidote to save me. Touching my leg, and
using other signs, I addressed her again in the Indian language.
"The snake has bitten me," I said. "What shall I do? Is there no leaf, no
root you know that would save me from death? Help me! help me!" I cried
in despair.
My signs she probably understood if not my words, but she made no
reply; and still she remained standing motionless, twisting and untwisting
her fingers, and regarding me with a look of ineffable grief and compassion.
Alas! It was vain to appeal to her: she knew what had happened, and
what the result would most likely be, and pitied, but was powerless to help
me. Then it occurred to me that if I could reach the Indian village before the
venom overpowered me something might be done to save me. Oh, why had
I tarried so long, losing so many precious minutes! Large drops of rain were
falling now, and the gloom was deeper, and the thunder almost continuous.
With a cry of anguish I started to my feet and was about to rush away
towards the village when a dazzling flash of lightning made me pause for a
moment. When it vanished I turned a last look on the girl, and her face was
deathly pale, and her hair looked blacker than night; and as she looked she
stretched out her arms towards me and uttered a low, wailing cry. "Good-
bye for ever!" I murmured, and turning once more from her, rushed away
like one crazed into the wood. But in my confusion I had probably taken the
wrong direction, for instead of coming out in a few minutes into the open
border of the forest, and on to the savannah, I found myself every moment
getting deeper among the trees. I stood still, perplexed, but could not shake
off the conviction that I had started in the right direction. Eventually I
resolved to keep on for a hundred yards or so and then, if no opening
appeared, to turn back and retrace my steps. But this was no easy matter. I
soon became entangled in a dense undergrowth, which so confused me that
at last I confessed despairingly to myself that for the first time in this wood
I was hopelessly lost. And in what terrible circumstances! At intervals a
flash of lightning would throw a vivid blue glare down into the interior of
the wood and only serve to show that I had lost myself in a place where
even at noon in cloudless weather progress would be most difficult; and
now the light would only last a moment, to be followed by thick gloom; and
I could only tear blindly on, bruising and lacerating my flesh at every step,
falling again and again, only to struggle up and on again, now high above
the surface, climbing over prostrate trees and branches, now plunged to my
middle in a pool or torrent of water.
Hopeless--utterly hopeless seemed all my mad efforts; and at each
pause, when I would stand exhausted, gasping for breath, my throbbing
heart almost suffocating me, a dull, continuous, teasing pain in my bitten
leg served to remind me that I had but a little time left to exist--that by
delaying at first I had allowed my only chance of salvation to slip by.
How long a time I spent fighting my way through this dense black wood
I know not; perhaps two or three hours, only to me the hours seemed like
years of prolonged agony. At last, all at once, I found that I was free of the
close undergrowth and walking on level ground; but it was darker here
darker than the darkest night; and at length, when the lightning came and
flared down through the dense roof of foliage overhead, I discovered that I
was in a spot that had a strange look, where the trees were very large and
grew wide apart, and with no undergrowth to impede progress beneath
them. Here, recovering breath, I began to run, and after a while found that I
had left the large trees behind me, and was now in a more open place, with
small trees and bushes; and this made me hope for a while that I had at last
reached the border of the forest. But the hope proved vain; once more I had
to force my way through dense undergrowth, and finally emerged on to a
slope where it was open, and I could once more see for some distance
around me by such light as came through the thick pall of clouds. Trudging
on to the summit of the slope, I saw that there was open savannah country
beyond, and for a moment rejoiced that I had got free from the forest. A few
steps more, and I was standing on the very edge of a bank, a precipice not
less than fifty feet deep. I had never seen that bank before, and therefore
knew that I could not be on the right side of the forest. But now my only
hope was to get completely away from the trees and then to look for the
village, and I began following the bank in search of a descent. No break
occurred, and presently I was stopped by a dense thicket of bushes. I was
about to retrace my steps when I noticed that a tall slender tree growing at
the foot of the precipice, its green top not more than a couple of yards
below my feet, seemed to offer a means of escape. Nerving myself with the
thought that if I got crushed by the fall I should probably escape a lingering
and far more painful death, I dropped into the cloud of foliage beneath me
and clutched desperately at the twigs as I fell. For a moment I felt myself
sustained; but branch after branch gave way beneath my weight, and then I
only remember, very dimly, a swift flight through the air before losing
consciousness.
CHAPTER VII
CHAPTER VIII
When morning came I was too stiff and sore to move, and not until the
following day was I able to creep out to sit in the shade of the trees. My old
host, whose name was Nuflo, went off with his dogs, leaving the girl to
attend to my wants. Two or three times during the day she appeared to serve
me with food and drink, but she continued silent and constrained in manner
as on the first evening of seeing her in the hut.
Late in the afternoon old Nuflo returned, but did not say where he had
been; and shortly afterwards Rima reappeared, demure as usual, in her
faded cotton dress, her cloud of hair confined in two long plaits. My
curiosity was more excited than ever, and I resolved to get to the bottom of
the mystery of her life. The girl had not shown herself responsive, but now
that Nuflo was back I was treated to as much talk as I cared to hear. He
talked of many things, only omitting those which I desired to hear about;
but his pet subject appeared to be the divine government of the world--
"God's politics"--and its manifest imperfections, or, in other words, the
manifold abuses which from time to time had been allowed to creep into it.
The old man was pious, but like many of his class in my country, he
permitted himself to indulge in very free criticisms of the powers above,
from the King of Heaven down to the smallest saint whose name figures in
the calendar.
"These things, senor," he said, "are not properly managed. Consider my
position. Here am I compelled for my sins to inhabit this wilderness with
my poor granddaughter--"
"She is not your granddaughter!" I suddenly interrupted, thinking to
surprise him into an admission.
But he took his time to answer. "Senor, we are never sure of anything in
this world. Not absolutely sure. Thus, it may come to pass that you will one
day marry, and that your wife will in due time present you with a son--one
that will inherit your fortune and transmit your name to posterity. And yet,
sir, in this world, you will never know to a certainty that he is your son."
"Proceed with what you were saying," I returned, with some dignity.
"Here we are," he continued, "compelled to inhabit this land and do not
meet with proper protection from the infidel. Now, sir, this is a crying evil,
and it is only becoming in one who has the true faith, and is a loyal subject
of the All-Powerful, to point out with due humility that He is growing very
remiss in His affairs, and is losing a good deal of His prestige. And what,
senor, is at the bottom of it? Favoritism. We know that the Supreme cannot
Himself be everywhere, attending to each little trick-track that arises in the
world--matters altogether beneath His notice; and that He must, like the
President of Venezuela or the Emperor of Brazil, appoint men--angels if
you like--to conduct His affairs and watch over each district. And it is
manifest that for this country of Guayana the proper person has not been
appointed. Every evil is done and there is no remedy, and the Christian has
no more consideration shown him than the infidel. Now, senor, in a town
near the Orinoco I once saw on a church the archangel Michael, made of
stone, and twice as tall as a man, with one foot on a monster shaped like a
cayman, but with bat's wings, and a head and neck like a serpent. Into this
monster he was thrusting his spear. That is the kind of person that should be
sent to rule these latitudes--a person of firmness and resolution, with
strength in his wrist. And yet it is probable that this very man- -this St.
Michael--is hanging about the palace, twirling his thumbs, waiting for an
appointment, while other weaker men, and--Heaven forgive me for saying
it--not above a bribe, perhaps, are sent out to rule over this province."
On this string he would harp by the hour; it was a lofty subject on which
he had pondered much in his solitary life, and he was glad of an opportunity
of ventilating his grievance and expounding his views. At first it was a pure
pleasure to hear Spanish again, and the old man, albeit ignorant of letters,
spoke well; but this, I may say, is a common thing in our country, where the
peasant's quickness of intelligence and poetic feeling often compensate for
want of instruction. His views also amused me, although they were not
novel. But after a while I grew tired of listening, yet I listened still, agreeing
with him, and leading him on to let him have his fill of talk, always hoping
that he would come at last to speak of personal matters and give me an
account of his history and of Rima's origin. But the hope proved vain; not a
word to enlighten me would he drop, however cunningly I tempted him.
"So be it," thought I; "but if you are cunning, old man, I shall be
cunning too--and patient; for all things come to him who waits."
He was in no hurry to get rid of me. On the contrary, he more than
hinted that I would be safer under his roof than with the Indians, at the same
time apologizing for not giving me meat to eat.
"But why do you not have meat? Never have I seen animals so abundant
and tame as in this wood." Before he could reply Rima, with a jug of water
from the spring in her hand, came in; glancing at me, he lifted his finger to
signify that such a subject must not be discussed in her presence; but as
soon as she quitted the room he returned to it.
"Senor," he said, "have you forgotten your adventure with the snake?
Know, then, that my grandchild would not live with me for one day longer
if I were to lift my hand against any living creature. For us, senor, every day
is fast-day--only without the fish. We have maize, pumpkin, cassava,
potatoes, and these suffice. And even of these cultivated fruits of the earth
she eats but little in the house, preferring certain wild berries and gums,
which are more to her taste, and which she picks here and there in her
rambles in the wood. And I, sir, loving her as I do, whatever my inclination
may be, shed no blood and eat no flesh."
I looked at him with an incredulous smile.
"And your dogs, old man?"
"My dogs? Sir, they would not pause or turn aside if a coatimundi
crossed their path--an animal with a strong odour. As a man is, so is his
dog. Have you not seen dogs eating grass, sir, even in Venezuela, where
these sentiments do not prevail? And when there is no meat--when meat is
forbidden--these sagacious animals accustom themselves to a vegetable
diet."
I could not very well tell the old man that he was lying to me--that
would have been bad policy--and so I passed it off. "I have no doubt that
you are right," I said. "I have heard that there are dogs in China that eat no
meat, but are themselves eaten by their owners after being fattened on rice.
I should not care to dine on one of your animals, old man."
He looked at them critically and replied: "Certainly they are lean."
"I was thinking less of their leanness than of their smell," I returned.
"Their odour when they approach me is not flowery, but resembles that of
other dogs which feed on flesh, and have offended my too sensitive nostrils
even in the drawing-rooms of Caracas. It is not like the fragrance of cattle
when they return from the pasture."
"Every animal," he replied, "gives out that odour which is peculiar to its
kind"; an incontrovertible fact which left me nothing to say.
When I had sufficiently recovered the suppleness of my limbs to walk
with ease, I went for a ramble in the wood, in the hope that Rima would
accompany me, and that out among the trees she would cast aside that
artificial constraint and shyness which was her manner in the house.
It fell out just as I had expected; she accompanied me in the sense of
being always near me, or within earshot, and her manner was now free and
unconstrained as I could wish; but little or nothing was gained by the
change. She was once more the tantalizing, elusive, mysterious creature I
had first known through her wandering, melodious voice. The only
difference was that the musical, inarticulate sounds were now less often
heard, and that she was no longer afraid to show herself to me. This for a
short time was enough to make me happy, since no lovelier being was ever
looked upon, nor one whose loveliness was less likely to lose its charm
through being often seen.
But to keep her near me or always in sight was, I found, impossible: she
would be free as the wind, free as the butterfly, going and coming at her
wayward will, and losing herself from sight a dozen times every hour. To
induce her to walk soberly at my side or sit down and enter into
conversation with me seemed about as impracticable as to tame the fiery-
hearted little humming-bird that flashes into sight, remains suspended
motionless for a few seconds before your face, then, quick as lightning,
vanishes again.
At length, feeling convinced that she was most happy when she had me
out following her in the wood, that in spite of her bird-like wildness she had
a tender, human heart, which was easily moved, I determined to try to draw
her closer by means of a little innocent stratagem. Going out in the
morning, after calling her several times to no purpose, I began to assume a
downcast manner, as if suffering pain or depressed with grief; and at last,
finding a convenient exposed root under a tree, on a spot where the ground
was dry and strewn with loose yellow sand, I sat down and refused to go
any further. For she always wanted to lead me on and on, and whenever I
paused she would return to show herself, or to chide or encourage me in her
mysterious language. All her pretty little arts were now practiced in vain:
with cheek resting on my hand, I still sat,
So my eyes fixed on that patch of yellow sand at my feet, watching how
the small particles glinted like diamond dust when the sunlight touched
them. A full hour passed in this way, during which I encouraged myself by
saying mentally: "This is a contest between us, and the most patient and the
strongest of will, which should be the man, must conquer. And if I win on
this occasion, it will be easier for me in the future--easier to discover those
things which I am resolved to know, and the girl must reveal to me, since
the old man has proved impracticable."
Meanwhile she came and went and came again; and at last, finding that
I was not to be moved, she approached and stood near me. Her face, when I
glanced at it, had a somewhat troubled look--both troubled and curious.
"Come here, Rima," I said, "and stay with me for a little while--I cannot
follow you now."
She took one or two hesitating steps, then stood still again; and at
length, slowly and reluctantly, advanced to within a yard of me. Then I rose
from my seat on the root, so as to catch her face better, and placed my hand
against the rough bark of the tree.
"Rima," I said, speaking in a low, caressing tone, "will you stay with me
here a little while and talk to me, not in your language, but in mine, so that I
may understand? Will you listen when I speak to you, and answer me?"
Her lips moved, but made no sound. She seemed strangely disquieted,
and shook back her loose hair, and with her small toes moved the sparkling
sand at her feet, and once or twice her eyes glanced shyly at my face.
"Rime, you have not answered me," I persisted. "Will you not say yes?"
"Yes."
"Where does your grandfather spend his day when he goes out with his
dogs?"
She shook her head slightly, but would not speak.
"Have you no mother, Rima? Do you remember your mother?"
"My mother! My mother!" she exclaimed in a low voice, but with a
sudden, wonderful animation. Bending a little nearer, she continued: "Oh,
she is dead! Her body is in the earth and turned to dust. Like that," and she
moved the loose sand with her foot. "Her soul is up there, where the stars
and the angels are, grandfather says. But what is that to me? I am here--am I
not? I talk to her just the same. Everything I see I point out, and tell her
everything. In the daytime--in the woods, when we are together. And at
night when I lie down I cross my arms on my breast--so, and say: 'Mother,
mother, now you are in my arms; let us go to sleep together.' Sometimes I
say: 'Oh, why will you never answer me when I speak and speak?' Mother--
mother--mother!"
At the end her voice suddenly rose to a mournful cry, then sunk, and at
the last repetition of the word died to a low whisper.
"Ah, poor Rima! she is dead and cannot speak to you--cannot hear you!
Talk to me, Rima; I am living and can answer."
But now the cloud, which had suddenly lifted from her heart, letting me
see for a moment into its mysterious depths--its fancies so childlike and
feelings so intense--had fallen again; and my words brought no response,
except a return of that troubled look to her face.
"Silent still?" I said. "Talk to me, then, of your mother, Rima. Do you
know that you will see her again some day?"
"Yes, when I die. That is what the priest said."
"The priest?"
"Yes, at Voa--do you know? Mother died there when I was small--it is
so far away! And there are thirteen houses by the side of the river--just here;
and on this side--trees, trees."
This was important, I thought, and would lead to the very knowledge I
wished for; so I pressed her to tell me more about the settlement she had
named, and of which I had never heard.
"Everything have I told you," she returned, surprised that I did not know
that she had exhausted the subject in those half-dozen words she had
spoken.
Obliged to shift my ground, I said at a venture: "Tell me, what do you
ask of the Virgin Mother when you kneel before her picture? Your
grandfather told me that you had a picture in your little room."
"You know!" flashed out her answer, with something like resentment.
"It is all there in there," waving her hand towards the hut. "Out here in
the wood it is all gone--like this," and stooping quickly, she raised a little
yellow sand on her palm, then let it run away through her fingers.
Thus she illustrated how all the matters she had been taught slipped
from her mind when she was out of doors, out of sight of the picture. After
an interval she added: "Only mother is here--always with me."
"Ah, poor Rima!" I said; "alone without a mother, and only your old
grandfather! He is old--what will you do when he dies and flies away to the
starry country where your mother is?"
She looked inquiringly at me, then made answer in a low voice: "You
are here."
"But when I go away?"
She was silent; and not wishing to dwell on a subject that seemed to
pain her, I continued: "Yes, I am here now, but you will not stay with me
and talk freely! Will it always be the same if I remain with you? Why are
you always so silent in the house, so cold with your old grandfather? So
different--so full of life, like a bird, when you are alone in the woods?
Rima, speak to me! Am I no more to you than your old grandfather? Do
you not like me to talk to you?"
She appeared strangely disturbed at my words. "Oh, you are not like
him," she suddenly replied. "Sitting all day on a log by the fire--all day, all
day; Goloso and Susio lying beside him--sleep, sleep. Oh, when I saw you
in the wood I followed you, and talked and talked; still no answer. Why will
you not come when I call? To me!" Then, mocking my voice: "Rime, Rima!
Come here! Do this! Say that! Rima! Rima! It is nothing, nothing--it is not
you," pointing to my mouth, and then, as if fearing that her meaning had not
been made clear, suddenly touching my lips with her finger. "Why do you
not answer me?--speak to me--speak to me, like this!" And turning a little
more towards me, and glancing at me with eyes that had all at once
changed, losing their clouded expression for one of exquisite tenderness,
from her lips came a succession of those mysterious sounds which had first
attracted me to her, swift and low and bird-like, yet with something so
much higher and more soul-penetrating than any bird-music. Ah, what
feeling and fancies, what quaint turns of expression, unfamiliar to my mind,
were contained in those sweet, wasted symbols! I could never know--never
come to her when she called, or respond to her spirit. To me they would
always be inarticulate sounds, affecting me like a tender spiritual music--a
language without words, suggesting more than words to the soul.
The mysterious speech died down to a lisping sound, like the faint note
of some small bird falling from a cloud of foliage on the topmost bough of a
tree; and at the same time that new light passed from her eyes, and she half
averted her face in a disappointed way.
"Rima," I said at length, a new thought coming to my aid, "it is true that
I am not here," touching my lips as she had done, "and that my words are
nothing. But look into my eyes, and you will see me there--all, all that is in
my heart."
"Oh, I know what I should see there!" she returned quickly.
"What would you see--tell me?"
"There is a little black ball in the middle of your eye; I should see
myself in it no bigger than that," and she marked off about an eighth of her
little fingernail. "There is a pool in the wood, and I look down and see
myself there. That is better. Just as large as I am--not small and black like a
small, small fly." And after saying this a little disdainfully, she moved away
from my side and out into the sunshine; and then, half turning towards me,
and glancing first at my face and then upwards, she raised her hand to call
my attention to something there.
Far up, high as the tops of the tallest trees, a great blue-winged butterfly
was passing across the open space with loitering flight. In a few moments it
was gone over the trees; then she turned once more to me with a little
rippling sound of laughter--the first I had heard from her, and called:
"Come, come!"
I was glad enough to go with her then; and for the next two hours we
rambled together in the wood; that is, together in her way, for though
always near she contrived to keep out of my sight most of the time. She was
evidently now in a gay, frolicsome temper; again and again, when I looked
closely into some wide-spreading bush, or peered behind a tree, when her
calling voice had sounded, her rippling laughter would come to me from
some other spot. At length, somewhere about the centre of the wood, she
led me to an immense mora tree, growing almost isolated, covering with its
shade a large space of ground entirely free from undergrowth. At this spot
she all at once vanished from my side; and after listening and watching
some time in vain, I sat down beside the giant trunk to wait for her. Very
soon I heard a low, warbling sound which seemed quite near.
"Rime! Rima!" I called, and instantly my call was repeated like an echo.
Again and again I called, and still the words flew back to me, and I could
not decide whether it was an echo or not. Then I gave up calling; and
presently the low, warbling sound was repeated, and I knew that Rima was
somewhere near me.
"Rime, where are you?" I called.
"Rime, where are you?" came the answer.
"You are behind the tree."
"You are behind the tree."
"I shall catch you, Rima." And this time, instead of repeating my words,
she answered: "Oh no."
I jumped up and ran round the tree, feeling sure that I should find her. It
was about thirty-five or forty feet in circumference; and after going round
two or three times, I turned and ran the other way, but failing to catch a
glimpse of her I at last sat down again.
"Rime, Rima!" sounded the mocking voice as soon as I had sat down.
"Where are you, Rima? I shall catch you, Rima! Have you caught Rima?"
"No, I have not caught her. There is no Rima now. She has faded away
like a rainbow--like a drop of dew in the sun. I have lost her; I shall go to
sleep." And stretching myself out at full length under the tree, I remained
quiet for two or three minutes. Then a slight rustling sound was heard, and I
looked eagerly round for her. But the sound was overhead and caused by a
great avalanche of leaves which began to descend on me from that vast
leafy canopy above.
"Ah, little spider-monkey--little green tree-snake--you are there!" But
there was no seeing her in that immense aerial palace hung with dim
drapery of green and copper-coloured leaves. But how had she got there?
Up the stupendous trunk even a monkey could not have climbed, and there
were no lianas dropping to earth from the wide horizontal branches that I
could see; but by and by, looking further away, I perceived that on one side
the longest lower branches reached and mingled with the shorter boughs of
the neighbouring trees. While gazing up I heard her low, rippling laugh, and
then caught sight of her as she ran along an exposed horizontal branch,
erect on her feet; and my heart stood still with terror, for she was fifty to
sixty feet above the ground. In another moment she vanished from sight in a
cloud of foliage, and I saw no more of her for about ten minutes, when all at
once she appeared at my side once more, having come round the trunk of
the more. Her face had a bright, pleased expression, and showed no trace of
fatigue or agitation.
I caught her hand in mine. It was a delicate, shapely little hand, soft as
velvet, and warm--a real human hand; only now when I held it did she seem
altogether like a human being and not a mocking spirit of the wood, a
daughter of the Didi.
"Do you like me to hold your hand, Rima?"
"Yes," she replied, with indifference.
"Is it I?"
"Yes." This time as if it was small satisfaction to make acquaintance
with this purely physical part of me.
Having her so close gave me an opportunity of examining that light
sheeny garment she wore always in the woods. It felt soft and satiny to the
touch, and there was no seam nor hem in it that I could see, but it was all in
one piece, like the cocoon of the caterpillar. While I was feeling it on her
shoulder and looking narrowly at it, she glanced at me with a mocking
laugh in her eyes.
"Is it silk?" I asked. Then, as she remained silent, I continued: "Where
did you get this dress, Rima? Did you make it yourself? Tell me."
She answered not in words, but in response to my question a new look
came into her face; no longer restless and full of change in her expression,
she was now as immovable as an alabaster statue; not a silken hair on her
head trembled; her eyes were wide open, gazing fixedly before her; and
when I looked into them they seemed to see and yet not to see me. They
were like the clear, brilliant eyes of a bird, which reflect as in a miraculous
mirror all the visible world but do not return our look and seem to see us
merely as one of the thousand small details that make up the whole picture.
Suddenly she darted out her hand like a flash, making me start at the
unexpected motion, and quickly withdrawing it, held up a finger before me.
From its tip a minute gossamer spider, about twice the bigness of a pin's
head, appeared suspended from a fine, scarcely visible line three or four
inches long.
"Look!" she exclaimed, with a bright glance at my face.
The small spider she had captured, anxious to be free, was falling,
falling earthward, but could not reach the surface. Leaning her shoulder a
little forward, she placed the finger-tip against it, but lightly, scarcely
touching, and moving continuously, with a motion rapid as that of a
fluttering moth's wing; while the spider, still paying out his line, remained
suspended, rising and falling slightly at nearly the same distance from the
ground. After a few moments she cried: "Drop down, little spider." Her
finger's motion ceased, and the minute captive fell, to lose itself on the
shaded ground.
"Do you not see?" she said to me, pointing to her shoulder. Just where
the finger-tip had touched the garment a round shining spot appeared,
looking like a silver coin on the cloth; but on touching it with my finger it
seemed part of the original fabric, only whiter and more shiny on the grey
ground, on account of the freshness of the web of which it had just been
made.
And so all this curious and pretty performance, which seemed
instinctive in its spontaneous quickness and dexterity, was merely intended
to show me how she made her garments out of the fine floating lines of
small gossamer spiders!
Before I could express my surprise and admiration she cried again, with
startling suddenness: "Look!"
A minute shadowy form darted by, appearing like a dim line traced
across the deep glossy more foliage, then on the lighter green foliage further
away. She waved her hand in imitation of its swift, curving flight; then,
dropping it, exclaimed: "Gone--oh, little thing!"
"What was it?" I asked, for it might have been a bird, a bird-like moth,
or a bee.
"Did you not see? And you asked me to look into your eyes!"
"Ah, little squirrel Sakawinki, you remind me of that!" I said, passing
my arm round her waist and drawing her a little closer. "Look into my eyes
now and see if I am blind, and if there is nothing in them except an image
of Rima like a small, small fly."
She shook her head and laughed a little mockingly, but made no effort
to escape from my arm.
"Would you like me always to do what you wish, Rima--to follow you
in the woods when you say 'Come'--to chase you round the tree to catch
you, and lie down for you to throw leaves on me, and to be glad when you
are glad?"
"Oh, yes."
"Then let us make a compact. I shall do everything to please you, and
you must promise to do everything to please me."
"Tell me."
"Little things, Rima--none so hard as chasing you round a tree. Only to
have you stand or sit by me and talk will make me happy. And to begin you
must call me by my name--Abel."
"Is that your name? Oh, not your real name! Abel, Abel--what is that? It
says nothing. I have called you by so many names--twenty, thirty--and no
answer."
"Have you? But, dearest girl, every person has a name, one name he is
called by. Your name, for instance, is Rima, is it not?"
"Rima! only Rima--to you? In the morning, in the evening . . . now in
this place and in a little while where know I? . . . in the night when you
wake and it is dark, dark, and you see me all the same. Only Rima--oh, how
strange!"
"What else, sweet girl? Your grandfather Nuflo calls you Rima."
"Nuflo?" She spoke as if putting a question to herself. "Is that an old
man with two dogs that lives somewhere in the wood?" And then, with
sudden petulance: "And you ask me to talk to you!"
"Oh, Rima, what can I say to you? Listen--"
"No, no," she exclaimed, quickly turning and putting her fingers on my
mouth to stop my speech, while a sudden merry look shone in her eves.
"You shall listen when I speak, and do all I say. And tell me what to do to
please you with your eyes--let me look in your eyes that are not blind."
She turned her face more towards me and with head a little thrown back
and inclined to one side, gazing now full into my eyes as I had wished her
to do. After a few moments she glanced away to the distant trees. But I
could see into those divine orbs, and knew that she was not looking at any
particular object. All the ever-varying expressions--inquisitive, petulant,
troubled, shy, frolicsome had now vanished from the still face, and the look
was inward and full of a strange, exquisite light, as if some new happiness
or hope had touched her spirit.
Sinking my voice to a whisper, I said: "Tell me what you have seen in
my eyes, Rima?"
She murmured in reply something melodious and inarticulate, then
glanced at my face in a questioning way; but only for a moment, then her
sweet eyes were again veiled under those drooping lashes.
"Listen, Rima," I said. "Was that a humming-bird we saw a little while
ago? You are like that, now dark, a shadow in the shadow, seen for an
instant, and then--gone, oh, little thing! And now in the sunshine standing
still, how beautiful!--a thousand times more beautiful than the humming-
bird. Listen, Rima, you are like all beautiful things in the wood--flower, and
bird, and butterfly, and green leaf, and frond, and little silky-haired monkey
high up in the trees. When I look at you I see them all--all and more, a
thousand times, for I see Rima herself. And when I listen to Rima's voice,
talking in a language I cannot understand, I hear the wind whispering in the
leaves, the gurgling running water, the bee among the flowers, the organ-
bird singing far, far away in the shadows of the trees. I hear them all, and
more, for I hear Rima. Do you understand me now? Is it I speaking to you--
have I answered you--have I come to you?"
She glanced at me again, her lips trembling, her eyes now clouded with
some secret trouble. "Yes," she replied in a whisper, and then: "No, it is not
you," and after a moment, doubtfully: "Is it you?"
But she did not wait to be answered: in a moment she was gone round
the more; nor would she return again for all my calling.
CHAPTER IX
That afternoon with Rima in the forest under the mora tree had proved
so delightful that I was eager for more rambles and talks with her, but the
variable little witch had a great surprise in store for me. All her wild natural
gaiety had unaccountably gone out of her: when I walked in the shade she
was there, but no longer as the blithe, fantastic being, bright as an angel,
innocent and affectionate as a child, tricksy as a monkey, that had played at
hide-and-seek with me. She was now my shy, silent attendant, only
occasionally visible, and appearing then like the mysterious maid I had
found reclining among the ferns who had melted away mist-like from sight
as I gazed. When I called she would not now answer as formerly, but in
response would appear in sight as if to assure me that I had not been
forsaken; and after a few moments her grey shadowy form would once
more vanish among the trees. The hope that as her confidence increased and
she grew accustomed to talk with me she would be brought to reveal the
story of her life had to be abandoned, at all events for the present. I must,
after all, get my information from Nuflo, or rest in ignorance. The old man
was out for the greater part of each day with his dogs, and from these
expeditions he brought back nothing that I could see but a few nuts and
fruits, some thin bark for his cigarettes, and an occasional handful of haima
gum to perfume the hut of an evening. After I had wasted three days in
vainly trying to overcome the girl's now inexplicable shyness, I resolved to
give for a while my undivided attention to her grandfather to discover, if
possible, where he went and how he spent his time.
My new game of hide-and-seek with Nuflo instead of with Rima began
on the following morning. He was cunning; so was I. Going out and
concealing myself among the bushes, I began to watch the hut. That I could
elude Rima's keener eyes I doubted; but that did not trouble me. She was
not in harmony with the old man, and would do nothing to defeat my plan. I
had not been long in my hiding-place before he came out, followed by his
two dogs, and going to some distance from the door, he sat down on a log.
For some minutes he smoked, then rose, and after looking cautiously round
slipped away among the trees. I saw that he was going off in the direction of
the low range of rocky hills south of the forest. I knew that the forest did
not extend far in that direction, and thinking that I should be able to catch a
sight of him on its borders, I left the bushes and ran through the trees as fast
as I could to get ahead of him. Coming to where the wood was very open, I
found that a barren plain beyond it, a quarter of a mile wide, separated it
from the range of hills; thinking that the old man might cross this open
space, I climbed into a tree to watch. After some time he appeared, walking
rapidly among the trees, the dogs at his heels, but not going towards the
open plain; he had, it seemed, after arriving at the edge of the wood,
changed his direction and was going west, still keeping in the shelter of the
trees. When he had been gone about five minutes, I dropped to the ground
and started in pursuit; once more I caught sight of him through the trees,
and I kept him in sight for about twenty minutes longer; then he came to a
broad strip of dense wood which extended into and through the range of
hills, and here I quickly lost him. Hoping still to overtake him, I pushed on,
but after struggling through the underwood for some distance, and finding
the forest growing more difficult as I progressed, I at last gave him up.
Turning eastward, I got out of the wood to find myself at the foot of a steep
rough hill, one of the range which the wooded valley cut through at right
angles. It struck me that it would be a good plan to climb the hill to get a
view of the forest belt in which I had lost the old man; and after walking a
short distance I found a spot which allowed of an ascent. The summit of the
hill was about three hundred feet above the surrounding level and did not
take me long to reach; it commanded a fair view, and I now saw that the
belt of wood beneath me extended right through the range, and on the south
side opened out into an extensive forest. "If that is your destination,"
thought I, "old fox, your secrets are safe from me."
It was still early in the day, and a slight breeze tempered the air and
made it cool and pleasant on the hilltop after my exertions. My scramble
through the wood had fatigued me somewhat, and resolving to spend some
hours on that spot, I looked round for a comfortable resting-place. I soon
found a shady spot on the west side of an upright block of stone where I
could recline at ease on a bed of lichen. Here, with shoulders resting against
the rock, I sat thinking of Rima, alone in her wood today, with just a tinge
of bitterness in my thoughts which made me hope that she would miss me
as much as I missed her; and in the end I fell asleep.
When I woke, it was past noon, and the sun was shining directly on me.
Standing up to gaze once more on the prospect, I noticed a small wreath of
white smoke issuing from a spot about the middle of the forest belt beneath
me, and I instantly divined that Nuflo had made a fire at that place, and I
resolved to surprise him in his retreat. When I got down to the base of the
hill the smoke could no longer be seen, but I had studied the spot well from
above, and had singled out a large clump of trees on the edge of the belt as a
starting-point; and after a search of half an hour I succeeded in finding the
old man's hiding-place. First I saw smoke again through an opening in the
trees, then a small rude hut of sticks and palm leaves. Approaching
cautiously, I peered through a crack and discovered old Nuflo engaged in
smoking some meat over a fire, and at the same time grilling some bones on
the coals. He had captured a coatimundi, an animal somewhat larger than a
tame tom-cat, with a long snout and long ringed tail; one of the dogs was
gnawing at the animal's head, and the tail and the feet were also lying on the
floor, among the old bones and rubbish that littered it. Stealing round, I
suddenly presented myself at the opening to his den, when the dogs rose up
with a growl and Nuflo instantly leaped to his feet, knife in hand.
"Aha, old man," I cried, with a laugh, "I have found you at one of your
vegetarian repasts; and your grass-eating dogs as well!"
He was disconcerted and suspicious, but when I explained that I had
seen a smoke while on the hills, where I had gone to search for a curious
blue flower which grew in such places, and had made my way to it to
discover the cause, he recovered confidence and invited me to join him at
his dinner of roast meat.
I was hungry by this time and not sorry to get animal food once more;
nevertheless, I ate this meat with some disgust, as it had a rank taste and
smell, and it was also unpleasant to have those evil-looking dogs savagely
gnawing at the animal's head and feet at the same time.
"You see," said the old hypocrite, wiping the grease from his
moustache, "this is what I am compelled to do in order to avoid giving
offence. My granddaughter is a strange being, sir, as you have perhaps
observed--"
"That reminds me," I interrupted, "that I wish you to relate her history to
me. She is, as you say, strange, and has speech and faculties unlike ours,
which shows that she comes of a different race."
"No, no, her faculties are not different from ours. They are sharper, that
is all. It pleases the All-Powerful to give more to some than to others. Not
all the fingers on the hand are alike. You will find a man who will take up a
guitar and make it speak, while I--"
"All that I understand," I broke in again. "But her origin, her history--
that is what I wish to hear."
"And that, sir, is precisely what I am about to relate. Poor child, she was
left on my hands by her sainted mother--my daughter, sir--who perished
young. Now, her birthplace, where she was taught letters and the Catechism
by the priest, was in an unhealthy situation. It was hot and wet--always wet-
-a place suited to frogs rather than to human beings. At length, thinking that
it would suit the child better--for she was pale and weakly--to live in a drier
atmosphere among mountains, I brought her to this district. For this, senor,
and for all I have done for her, I look for no reward here, but to that place
where my daughter has got her foot; not, sir, on the threshold, as you might
think, but well inside. For, after all, it is to the authorities above, in spite of
some blots which we see in their administration, that we must look for
justice. Frankly, sir, this is the whole story of my granddaughter's origin."
"Ah, yes," I returned, "your story explains why she can call a wild bird
to her hand, and touch a venomous serpent with her bare foot and receive
no harm."
"Doubtless you are right," said the old dissembler. "Living alone in the
wood, she had only God's creatures to play and make friends with; and wild
animals, I have heard it said, know those who are friendly towards them."
"You treat her friends badly," said I, kicking the long tail of the
coatimundi away with my foot, and regretting that I had joined in his repast.
"Senor, you must consider that we are only what Heaven made us.
When all this was formed," he continued, opening his arms wide to indicate
the entire creation, "the Person who concerned Himself with this matter
gave seeds and fruitless and nectar of flowers for the sustentation of His
small birds. But we have not their delicate appetites. The more robust
stomach which he gave to man cries out for meat. Do you understand? But
of all this, friend, not one word to Rima!"
I laughed scornfully. "Do you think me such a child, old man, as to
believe that Rima, that little sprite, does not know that you are an eater of
flesh? Rima, who is everywhere in the wood, seeing all things, even if I lift
my hand against a serpent, she herself unseen."
"But, sir, if you will pardon my presumption, you are saying too much.
She does not come here, and therefore cannot see that I eat meat. In all that
wood where she flourishes and sings, where she is in her house and garden,
and mistress of the creatures, even of the small butterfly with painted
wings, there, sir, I hunt no animal. Nor will my dogs chase any animal
there. That is what I meant when I said that if an animal should stumble
against their legs, they would lift up their noses and pass on without seeing
it. For in that wood there is one law, the law that Rima imposes, and outside
of it a different law."
"I am glad that you have told me this," I replied. "The thought that Rima
might be near, and, unseen herself, look in upon us feeding with the dogs
and, like dogs, on flesh, was one which greatly troubled my mind."
He glanced at me in his usual quick, cunning way.
"Ah, senor, you have that feeling too--after so short a time with us!
Consider, then, what it must be for me, unable to nourish myself on gums
and fruitlets, and that little sweetness made by wasps out of flowers, when I
am compelled to go far away and eat secretly to avoid giving offence."
It was hard, no doubt, but I did not pity him; secretly I could only feel
anger against him for refusing to enlighten me, while making such a
presence of openness; and I also felt disgusted with myself for having
joined him in his rank repast. But dissimulation was necessary, and so, after
conversing a little more on indifferent topics, and thanking him for his
hospitality, I left him alone to go on with his smoky task.
On my way back to the lodge, fearing that some taint of Nuflo's evil-
smelling den and dinner might still cling to me, I turned aside to where a
streamlet in the wood widened and formed a deep pool, to take a plunge in
the water. After drying myself in the air, and thoroughly ventilating my
garments by shaking and beating them, I found an open, shady spot in the
wood and threw myself on the grass to wait for evening before returning to
the house. By that time the sweet, warm air would have purified me.
Besides, I did not consider that I had sufficiently punished Rima for her
treatment of me. She would be anxious for my safety, perhaps even looking
for me everywhere in the wood. It was not much to make her suffer one day
after she had made me miserable for three; and perhaps when she
discovered that I could exist without her society she would begin to treat me
less capriciously.
So ran my thoughts as I rested on the warm ground, gazing up into the
foliage, green as young grass in the lower, shady parts, and above luminous
with the bright sunlight, and full of the murmuring sounds of insect life. My
every action, word, thought, had my feeling for Rima as a motive. Why, I
began to ask myself, was Rima so much to me? It was easy to answer that
question: Because nothing so exquisite had ever been created. All the
separate and fragmentary beauty and melody and graceful motion found
scattered throughout nature were concentrated and harmoniously combined
in her. How various, how luminous, how divine she was! A being for the
mind to marvel at, to admire continually, finding some new grace and
charm every hour, every moment, to add to the old. And there was, besides,
the fascinating mystery surrounding her origin to arouse and keep my
interest in her continually active.
That was the easy answer I returned to the question I had asked myself.
But I knew that there was another answer--a reason more powerful than the
first. And I could no longer thrust it back, or hide its shining face with the
dull, leaden mask of mere intellectual curiosity. BECAUSE I LOVED
HER; loved her as I had never loved before, never could love any other
being, with a passion which had caught something of her own brilliance and
intensity, making a former passion look dim and commonplace in
comparison--a feeling known to everyone, something old and worn out, a
weariness even to think of.
From these reflections I was roused by the plaintive three-syllable call
of an evening bird--a nightjar common in these woods; and was surprised to
find that the sun had set, and the woods already shadowed with the twilight.
I started up and began hurriedly walking homewards, thinking of Rima, and
was consumed with impatience to see her; and as I drew near to the house,
walking along a narrow path which I knew, I suddenly met her face to face.
Doubtless she had heard my approach, and instead of shrinking out of the
path and allowing me to pass on without seeing her, as she would have done
on the previous day, she had sprung forward to meet me. I was struck with
wonder at the change in her as she came with a swift, easy motion, like a
flying bird, her hands outstretched as if to clasp mine, her lips parted in a
radiant, welcoming smile, her eyes sparkling with joy.
I started forward to meet her, but had no sooner touched her hands than
her countenance changed, and she shrunk back trembling, as if the touch
had chilled her warm blood; and moving some feet away, she stood with
downcast eyes, pale and sorrowful as she had seemed yesterday. In vain I
implored her to tell me the cause of this change and of the trouble she
evidently felt; her lips trembled as if with speech, but she made no reply,
and only shrunk further away when I attempted to approach her; and at
length, moving aside from the path, she was lost to sight in the dusky
leafage.
I went on alone, and sat outside for some time, until old Nuflo returned
from his hunting; and only after he had gone in and had made the fire burn
up did Rima make her appearance, silent and constrained as ever.
CHAPTER X
CHAPTER XI
There was a welcome change in the weather when I rose early next
morning; the sky was without cloud and had that purity in its colour and
look of infinite distance seen only when the atmosphere is free from vapour.
The sun had not yet risen, but old Nuflo was already among the ashes, on
his hands and knees, blowing the embers he had uncovered to a flame.Then
Rima appeared only to pass through the room with quick light tread to go
out of the door without a word or even a glance at my face. The old man,
after watching at the door for a few minutes, turned and began eagerly
questioning me about my adventures on the previous evening. In reply I
related to him how the girl had found me in the forest lost and unable to
extricate myself from the tangled undergrowth.
He rubbed his hands on his knees and chuckled. "Happy for you, senor,"
he said, "that my granddaughter regards you with such friendly eyes,
otherwise you might have perished before morning. Once she was at your
side, no light, whether of sun or moon or lantern, was needed, nor that small
instrument which is said to guide a man aright in the desert, even in the
darkest night--let him that can believe such a thing!"
"Yes, happy for me," I returned. "I am filled with remorse that it was all
through my fault that the poor child was exposed to such weather."
"O senor," he cried airily, "let not that distress you! Rain and wind and
hot suns, from which we seek shelter, do not harm her. She takes no cold,
and no fever, with or without ague."
After some further conversation I left him to steal away unobserved on
his own account, and set out for a ramble in the hope of encountering Rima
and winning her to talk to me.
My quest did not succeed: not a glimpse of her delicate shadowy form
did I catch among the trees; and not one note from her melodious lips came
to gladden me. At noon I returned to the house, where I found food placed
ready for me, and knew that she had come there during my absence and had
not been forgetful of my wants. "Shall I thank you for this?" I said. "I ask
you for heavenly nectar for the sustentation of the higher winged nature in
me, and you give me a boiled sweet potato, toasted strips of sun-dried
pumpkins, and a handful of parched maize! Rima! Rima! my woodland
fairy, my sweet saviour, why do you yet fear me? Is it that love struggles in
you with repugnance? Can you discern with clear spiritual eyes the grosser
elements in me, and hate them; or has some false imagination made me
appear all dark and evil, but too late for your peace, after the sweet sickness
of love has infected you?"
But she was not there to answer me, and so after a time I went forth
again and seated myself listlessly on the root of an old tree not far from the
house. I had sat there a full hour when all at once Rima appeared at my
side. Bending forward, she touched my hand, but without glancing at my
face; "Come with me," she said, and turning, moved swiftly towards the
northern extremity of the forest. She seemed to take it for granted that I
would follow, never casting a look behind nor pausing in her rapid walk;
but I was only too glad to obey and, starting up, was quickly after her. She
led me by easy ways, familiar to her, with many doublings to escape the
undergrowth, never speaking or pausing until we came out from the thick
forest, and I found myself for the first time at the foot of the great hill or
mountain Ytaioa. Glancing back for a few moments, she waved a hand
towards the summit, and then at once began the ascent. Here too it seemed
all familiar ground to her. From below, the sides had presented an
exceedingly rugged appearance--a wild confusion of huge jagged rocks,
mixed with a tangled vegetation of trees, bushes, and vines; but following
her in all her doublings, it became easy enough, although it fatigued me
greatly owing to our rapid pace. The hill was conical, but I found that it had
a flat top--an oblong or pear-shaped area, almost level, of a soft, crumbly
sandstone, with a few blocks and boulders of a harder stone scattered about-
-and no vegetation, except the grey mountain lichen and a few sere-looking
dwarf shrubs.
Here Rima, at a distance of a few yards from me, remained standing still
for some minutes, as if to give me time to recover my breath; and I was
right glad to sit down on a stone to rest. Finally she walked slowly to the
centre of the level area, which was about two acres in extent; rising, I
followed her and, climbing on to a huge block of stone, began gazing at the
wide prospect spread out before me. The day was windless and bright, with
only a few white clouds floating at a great height above and casting
travelling shadows over that wild, broken country, where forest, marsh, and
savannah were only distinguishable by their different colours, like the greys
and greens and yellows on a map. At a great distance the circle of the
horizon was broken here and there by mountains, but the hills in our
neighbourhood were all beneath our feet.
After gazing all round for some minutes, I jumped down from my stand
and, leaning against the stone, stood watching the girl, waiting for her to
speak. I felt convinced that she had something of the very highest
importance (to herself) to communicate, and that only the pressing need of a
confidant, not Nuflo, had overcome her shyness of me; and I determined to
let her take her own time to say it in her own way. For a while she
continued silent, her face averted, but her little movements and the way she
clasped and unclasped her fingers showed that she was anxious and her
mind working. Suddenly, half turning to me, she began speaking eagerly
and rapidly.
"Do you see," she said, waving her hand to indicate the whole circuit of
earth, "how large it is? Look!" pointing now to mountains in the west.
"Those are the Vahanas--one, two, three--the highest--I can tell you their
names--Vahana-Chara, Chumi, Aranoa. Do you see that water? It is a river,
called Guaypero. From the hills it comes down, Inaruna is their name, and
you can see them there in the south--far, far." And in this way she went on
pointing out and naming all the mountains and rivers within sight. Then she
suddenly dropped her hands to her sides and continued: "That is all.
Because we can see no further. But the world is larger than that! Other
mountains, other rivers. Have I not told you of Voa, on the River Voa,
where I was born, where mother died, where the priest taught me, years,
years ago? All that you cannot see, it is so far away--so far."
I did not laugh at her simplicity, nor did I smile or feel any inclination to
smile. On the contrary, I only experienced a sympathy so keen that it was
like pain while watching her clouded face, so changeful in its expression,
yet in all changes so wistful. I could not yet form any idea as to what she
wished to communicate or to discover, but seeing that she paused for a
reply, I answered: "The world is so large, Rima, that we can only see a very
small portion of it from any one spot. Look at this," and with a stick I had
used to aid me in my ascent I traced a circle six or seven inches in
circumference on the soft stone, and in its centre placed a small pebble.
"This represents the mountain we are standing on," I continued, touching
the pebble; "and this line encircling it encloses all of the earth we can see
from the mountain-top. Do you understand?--the line I have traced is the
blue line of the horizon beyond which we cannot see. And outside of this
little circle is all the flat top of Ytaioa representing the world. Consider,
then, how small a portion of the world we can see from this spot!"
"And do you know it all?" she returned excitedly. "All the world?"
waving her hand to indicate the little stone plain. "All the mountains, and
rivers, and forests--all the people in the world?"
"That would be impossible, Rima; consider how large it is."
"That does not matter. Come, let us go together--we two and
grandfather--and see all the world; all the mountains and forests, and know
all the people."
"You do not know what you are saying, Rima. You might as well say:
'Come, let us go to the sun and find out everything in it.'"
"It is you who do not know what you are saying," she retorted, with
brightening eyes which for a moment glanced full into mine. "We have no
wings like birds to fly to the sun. Am I not able to walk on the earth, and
run? Can I not swim? Can I not climb every mountain?"
"No, you cannot. You imagine that all the earth is like this little portion
you see. But it is not all the same. There are great rivers which you cannot
cross by swimming; mountains you cannot climb; forests you cannot
penetrate--dark, and inhabited by dangerous beasts, and so vast that all this
space your eyes look on is a mere speck of earth in comparison."
She listened excitedly. "Oh, do you know all that?" she cried, with a
strangely brightening look; and then half turning from me, she added, with
sudden petulance: "Yet only a minute ago you knew nothing of the world--
because it is so large! Is anything to be gained by speaking to one who says
such contrary things?"
I explained that I had not contradicted myself, that she had not rightly
interpreted my words. I knew, I said, something about the principal features
of the different countries of the world, as, for instance, the largest mountain
ranges, and rivers, and the cities. Also something, but very little, about the
tribes of savage men. She heard me with impatience, which made me speak
rapidly, in very general terms; and to simplify the matter I made the world
stand for the continent we were in. It seemed idle to go beyond that, and her
eagerness would not have allowed it.
"Tell me all you know," she said the moment I ceased speaking. "What
is there--and there--and there?" pointing in various directions. "Rivers and
forests--they are nothing to me. The villages, the tribes, the people
everywhere; tell me, for I must know it all."
"It would take long to tell, Rima."
"Because you are so slow. Look how high the sun is! Speak, speak!
What is there?" pointing to the north.
"All that country," I said, waving my hands from east to west, "is
Guayana; and so large is it that you could go in this direction, or in this,
travelling for months, without seeing the end of Guayana. Still it would be
Guayana; rivers, rivers, rivers, with forests between, and other forests and
rivers beyond. And savage people, nations and tribes--Guahibo, Aguaricoto,
Ayano, Maco, Piaroa, Quiriquiripo, Tuparito--shall I name a hundred more?
It would be useless, Rima; they are all savages, and live widely scattered in
the forests, hunting with bow and arrow and the zabatana. Consider, then,
how large Guayana is!"
"Guayana--Guayana! Do I not know all this is Guayana? But beyond,
and beyond, and beyond? Is there no end to Guayana?"
"Yes; there northwards it ends at the Orinoco, a mighty river, coming
from mighty mountains, compared with which Ytaioa is like a stone on the
Around on which we have sat down to rest. You must know that guayana is
only a portion, a half, of our country, Venezuela. Look," I continued, putting
my hand round my shoulder to touch the middle of my back, "there is a
groove running down my spine dividing my body into equal parts. Thus
does the great Orinoco divide Venezuela, and on one side of it is all
Guayana; and on the other side the countries or provinces of Cumana,
Maturm, Barcelona, Bolivar, Guarico, Apure, and many others." I then gave
a rapid description of the northern half of the country, with its vast llanos
covered with herds in one part, its plantations of coffee, rice, and sugar-cane
in another, and its chief towns; last of all Caracas, the gay and opulent little
Paris in America.
This seemed to weary her; but the moment I ceased speaking, and
before I could well moisten my dry lips, she demanded to know what came
after Caracas--after all Venezuela.
"The ocean--water, water, water," I replied.
"There are no people there--in the water; only fishes," she remarked;
then suddenly continued: "Why are you silent--is Venezuela, then, all the
world?"
The task I had set myself to perform seemed only at its commencement
yet. Thinking how to proceed with it, my eyes roved over the level area we
were standing on, and it struck me that this little irregular plain, broad at
one end and almost pointed at the other, roughly resembled the South
American continent in its form.
"Look, Rima," I began, "here we are on this small pebble--Ytaioa; and
this line round it shuts us in--we cannot see beyond. Now let us imagine
that we can see beyond--that we can see the whole flat mountaintop; and
that, you know, is the whole world. Now listen while I tell you of all the
countries, and principal mountains, and rivers, and cities of the world."
The plan I had now fixed on involved a great deal of walking about and
some hard work in moving and setting up stones and tracing boundary and
other lines; but it gave me pleasure, for Rima was close by all the time,
following me from place to place, listening to all I said in silence but with
keen interest. At the broad end of the level summit I marked out Venezuela,
showing by means of a long line how the Orinoco divided it, and also
marking several of the greater streams flowing into it. I also marked the
sites of Caracas and other large towns with stones; and rejoiced that we are
not like the Europeans, great city-builders, for the stones proved heavy to
lift. Then followed Colombia and Ecuador on the west; and, successively,
Bolivia, Peru, Chile, ending at last in the south with Patagonia, a cold arid
land, bleak and desolate. I marked the littoral cities as we progressed on that
side, where earth ends and the Pacific Ocean begins, and infinitude.
Then, in a sudden burst of inspiration, I described the Cordilleras to her-
-that world-long, stupendous chain; its sea of Titicaca, and wintry, desolate
Paramo, where lie the ruins of Tiahuanaco, older than Thebes. I mentioned
its principal cities--those small inflamed or festering pimples that attract
much attention from appearing on such a body. Quito, called--not in irony,
but by its own people--the Splendid and the Magnificent; so high above the
earth as to appear but a little way removed from heaven--"de Quito al
cielo," as the saying is. But of its sublime history, its kings and conquerors,
Haymar Capac the Mighty, and Huascar, and Atahualpa the Unhappy, not
one word. Many words--how inadequate!--of the summits, white with
everlasting snows, above it--above this navel of the world, above the earth,
the ocean, the darkening tempest, the condor's flight. Flame-breathing
Cotopaxi, whose wrathful mutterings are audible two hundred leagues
away, and Chimborazo, Antisana, Sarata, Illimani, Aconcagua--names of
mountains that affect us like the names of gods, implacable Pachacamac
and Viracocha, whose everlasting granite thrones they are. At the last I
showed her Cuzco, the city of the sun, and the highest dwelling-place of
men on earth.
I was carried away by so sublime a theme; and remembering that I had
no critical hearer, I gave free reins to fancy, forgetting for the moment that
some undiscovered thought or feeling had prompted her questions. And
while I spoke of the mountains, she hung on my words, following me
closely in my walk, her countenance brilliant. her frame quivering with
excitement.
There yet remained to be described all that unimaginable space east of
the Andes; the rivers--what rivers!--the green plains that are like the sea--
the illimitable waste of water where there is no land--and the forest region.
The very thought of the Amazonian forest made my spirit droop. If I could
have snatched her up and placed her on the dome of Chimborazo she would
have looked on an area of ten thousand square miles of earth, so vast is the
horizon at that elevation. And possibly her imagination would have been
able to clothe it all with an unbroken forest. Yet how small a portion this
would be of the stupendous whole--of a forest region equal in extent to the
whole of Europe! All loveliness, all grace, all majesty are there; but we
cannot see, cannot conceive--come away! From this vast stage, to be
occupied in the distant future by millions and myriads of beings, like us of
upright form, the nations that will be born when all the existing dominant
races on the globe and the civilizations they represent have perished as
utterly as those who sculptured the stones of old Tiahuanaco--from this
theatre of palms prepared for a drama unlike any which the Immortals have
yet witnessed--I hurried away; and then slowly conducted her along the
Atlantic coast, listening to the thunder of its great waves, and pausing at
intervals to survey some maritime city.
Never probably since old Father Noah divided the earth among his sons
had so grand a geographical discourse been delivered; and having finished,
I sat down, exhausted with my efforts, and mopped my brow, but glad that
my huge task was over, and satisfied that I had convinced her of the futility
of her wish to see the world for herself.
Her excitement had passed away by now. She was standing a little apart
from me, her eyes cast down and thoughtful. At length she approached me
and said, waving her hand all round: "What is beyond the mountains over
there, beyond the cities on that side--beyond the world?"
"Water, only water. Did I not tell you?" I returned stoutly; for I had, of
course, sunk the Isthmus of Panama beneath the sea.
"Water! All round?" she persisted.
"Yes."
"Water, and no beyond? Only water--always water?"
I could no longer adhere to so gross a lie. She was too intelligent, and I
loved her too much. Standing up, I pointed to distant mountains and
isolated peaks.
"Look at those peaks," I said. "It is like that with the world--this world
we are standing on. Beyond that great water that flows all round the world,
but far away, so far that it would take months in a big boat to reach them,
there are islands, some small, others as large as this world. But, Rima, they
are so far away, so impossible to reach, that it is useless to speak or to think
of them. They are to us like the sun and moon and stars, to which we cannot
fly. And now sit down and rest by my side, for you know everything."
She glanced at me with troubled eyes.
"Nothing do I know--nothing have you told me. Did I not say that
mountains and rivers and forests are nothing? Tell me about all the people
in the world. Look! there is Cuzco over there, a city like no other in the
world--did you not tell me so? Of the people nothing. Are they also
different from all others in the world?"
"I will tell you that if you will first answer me one question, Rima."
She drew a little nearer, curious to hear, but was silent.
"Promise that you will answer me," I persisted, and as she continued
silent, I added: "Shall I not ask you, then?"
"Say," she murmured.
"Why do you wish to know about the people of Cuzco?"
She flashed a look at me, then averted her face. For some moments she
stood hesitating; then, coming closer, touched me on the shoulder and said
softly: "Turn away, do not look at me."
I obeyed, and bending so close that I felt her warm breath on my neck,
she whispered: "Are the people in Cuzco like me? Would they understand
me--the things you cannot understand? Do you know?"
Her tremulous voice betrayed her agitation, and her words, I imagined,
revealed the motive of her action in bringing me to the summit of Ytaioa,
and of her desire to visit and know all the various peoples inhabiting the
world. She had begun to realize, after knowing me, her isolation and
unlikeness to others, and at the same time to dream that all human beings
might not be unlike her and unable to understand her mysterious speech and
to enter into her thoughts and feelings.
"I can answer that question, Rima," I said. "Ah, no, poor child, there are
none there like you--not one, not one. Of all there--priests, soldiers,
merchants, workmen, white, black, red, and mixed; men and women, old
and young, rich and poor, ugly and beautiful--not one would understand the
sweet language you speak."
She said nothing, and glancing round, I discovered that she was walking
away, her fingers clasped before her, her eyes cast down, and looking
profoundly dejected. Jumping up, I hurried after her. "Listen!" I said,
coming to her side. "Do you know that there are others in the world like you
who would understand your speech?"
"Oh, do I not! Yes--mother told me. I was young when you died, but, O
mother, why did you not tell me more?"
"But where?"
"Oh, do you not think that I would go to them if I knew--that I would
ask?"
"Does Nuflo know?"
She shook her head, walking dejectedly along.
"But have you asked him?" I persisted.
"Have I not! Not once--not a hundred times."
Suddenly she paused. "Look," she said, "now we are standing in
Guayana again. And over there in Brazil, and up there towards the
Cordilleras, it is unknown. And there are people there. Come, let us go and
seek for my mother's people in that place. With grandfather, but not the
dogs; they would frighten the animals and betray us by barking to cruel men
who would slay us with poisoned arrows."
"O Rima, can you not understand? It is too far. And your grandfather,
poor old man, would die of weariness and hunger and old age in some
strange forest."
"Would he die--old grandfather? Then we could cover him up with palm
leaves in the forest and leave him. It would not be grandfather; only his
body that must turn to dust. He would be away--away where the stars are.
We should not die, but go on, and on, and on."
To continue the discussion seemed hopeless. I was silent, thinking of
what I had heard--that there were others like her somewhere in that vast
green world, so much of it imperfectly known, so many districts never yet
explored by white men. True, it was strange that no report of such a race
had reached the ears of any traveller; yet here was Rima herself at my side,
a living proof that such a race did exist. Nuflo probably knew more than he
would say; I had failed, as we have seen, to win the secret from him by fair
means, and could not have recourse to foul--the rack and thumbscrew--to
wring it from him. To the Indians she was only an object of superstitious
fear--a daughter of the Didi--and to them nothing of her origin was known.
And she, poor girl, had only a vague remembrance of a few words heard in
childhood from her mother, and probably not rightly understood.
While these thoughts had been passing through my mind, Rima had
been standing silent by, waiting, perhaps, for an answer to her last words.
Then stooping, she picked up a small pebble and tossed it three or four
yards away.
"Do you see where it fell?" she cried, turning towards me. "That is on
the border of Guayana--is it not? Let us go there first."
"Rime, how you distress me! We cannot go there. It is all a savage
wilderness, almost unknown to men--a blank on the map--"
"The map?--speak no word that I do not understand."
In a very few words I explained my meaning; even fewer would have
sufficed, so quick was her apprehension.
"If it is a blank," she returned quickly, "then you know of nothing to
stop us--no river we cannot swim, and no great mountains like those where
Quito is."
"But I happen to know, Rima, for it has been related to me by old
Indians, that of all places that is the most difficult of access. There is a river
there, and although it is not on the map, it would prove more impassable to
us than the mighty Orinoco and Amazon. It has vast malarious swamps on
its borders, overgrown with dense forest, teeming with savage and
venomous animals, so that even the Indians dare not venture near it. And
even before the river is reached, there is a range of precipitous mountains
called by the same name--just there where your pebble fell--the mountains
of Riolama--"
Hardly had the name fallen from my lips before a change swift as
lightning came over her countenance; all doubt, anxiety, petulance, hope,
and despondence, and these in ever-varying degrees, chasing each other like
shadows, had vanished, and she was instinct and burning with some new
powerful emotion which had flashed into her soul.
"Riolama! Riolama!" she repeated so rapidly and in a tone so sharp that
it tingled in the brain. "That is the place I am seeking! There was my
mother found--there are her people and mine! Therefore was I called
Riolama--that is my name!"
"Rima!" I returned, astonished at her words.
"No, no, no--Riolama. When I was a child, and the priest baptized me,
he named me Riolama--the place where my mother was found. But it was
long to say, and they called me Rima."
Suddenly she became still and then cried in a ringing voice:
"And he knew it all along--that old man--he knew that Riolama was
near--only there where the pebble fell--that we could go there!"
While speaking she turned towards her home, pointing with raised hand.
Her whole appearance now reminded me of that first meeting with her
when the serpent bit me; the soft red of her irides shone like fire, her
delicate skin seemed to glow with an intense rose colour, and her frame
trembled with her agitation, so that her loose cloud of hair was in motion as
if blown through by the wind.
"Traitor! Traitor!" she cried, still looking homewards and using quick,
passionate gestures. "It was all known to you, and you deceived me all
these years; even to me, Rima, you lied with your lips! Oh, horrible! Was
there ever such a scandal known in Guayana? Come, follow me, let us go at
once to Riolama." And without so much as casting a glance behind to see
whether I followed or no, she hurried away, and in a couple of minutes
disappeared from sight over the edge of the flat summit. "Rime! Rima!
Come back and listen to me! Oh, you are mad! Come back! Come back!"
But she would not return or pause and listen; and looking after her, I
saw her bounding down the rocky slope like some wild, agile creature
possessed of padded hoofs and an infallible instinct; and before many
minutes she vanished from sight among crabs and trees lower down.
"Nuflo, old man," said I, looking out towards his lodge, "are there no
shooting pains in those old bones of yours to warn you in time of the
tempest about to burst on your head?"
Then I sat down to think.
CHAPTER XII
CHAPTER XIII
That evening by the fire old Nuflo, lately so miserable, now happy in
his delusions, was more than usually gay and loquacious. He was like a
child who by timely submission has escaped a threatened severe
punishment. But his lightness of heart was exceeded by mine; and, with the
exception of one other yet to come, that evening now shines in memory as
the happiest my life has known. For Rima's sweet secret was known to me;
and her very ignorance of the meaning of the feeling she experienced,
which caused her to fly from me as from an enemy, only served to make the
thought of it more purely delightful.
On this occasion she did not steal away like a timid mouse to her own
apartment, as her custom was, but remained to give that one evening a
special grace, seated well away from the fire in that same shadowy corner
where I had first seen her indoors, when I had marvelled at her altered
appearance. From that corner she could see my face, with the firelight full
upon it, she herself in shadow, her eyes veiled by their drooping lashes.
Sitting there, the vivid consciousness of my happiness was like draughts of
strong, delicious wine, and its effect was like wine, imparting such freedom
to fancy, such fluency, that again and again old Nuflo applauded, crying out
that I was a poet, and begging me to put it all into rhyme. I could not do that
to please him, never having acquired the art of improvisation--that idle trick
of making words jingle which men of Nuflo's class in my country so greatly
admire; yet it seemed to me on that evening that my feelings could be
adequately expressed only in that sublimated language used by the finest
minds in their inspired moments; and, accordingly, I fell to reciting. But not
from any modern, nor from the poets of the last century, nor even from the
greater seventeenth century. I kept to the more ancient romances and
ballads, the sweet old verse that, whether glad or sorrowful, seems always
natural and spontaneous as the song of a bird, and so simple that even a
child can understand it.
It was late that night before all the romances I remembered or cared to
recite were exhausted, and not until then did Rima come out of her shaded
corner and steal silently away to her sleeping-place.
Although I had resolved to go with them, and had set Nuflo's mind at
rest on the point, I was bent on getting the request from Rima's own lips;
and the next morning the opportunity of seeing her alone presented itself,
after old Nuflo had sneaked off with his dogs. From the moment of his
departure I kept a close watch on the house, as one watches a bush in which
a bird one wishes to see has concealed itself, and out of which it may dart at
any moment and escape unseen.
At length she came forth, and seeing me in the way, would have slipped
back into hiding; for, in spite of her boldness on the previous day, she now
seemed shyer than ever when I spoke to her.
"Rima," I said, "do you remember where we first talked together under
a tree one morning, when you spoke of your mother, telling me that she was
dead?"
"Yes."
"I am going now to that spot to wait for you. I must speak to you again
in that place about this journey to Riolama." As she kept silent, I added:
"Will you promise to come to me there?"
She shook her head, turning half away.
"Have you forgotten our compact, Rima?"
"No," she returned; and then, suddenly coming near, spoke in a low
tone: "I will go there to please you, and you must also do as I tell you."
"What do you wish, Rima?"
She came nearer still. "Listen! You must not look into my eyes, you
must not touch me with your hands."
"Sweet Rima, I must hold your hand when I speak with you."
"No, no, no," she murmured, shrinking from me; and finding that it
must be as she wished, I reluctantly agreed.
Before I had waited long, she appeared at the trysting-place, and stood
before me, as on a former occasion, on that same spot of clean yellow sand,
clasping and unclasping her fingers, troubled in mind even then. Only now
her trouble was different and greater, making her shyer and more reticent.
"Rime, your grandfather is going to take you to Riolama. Do you wish
me to go with you?"
"Oh, do you not know that?" she returned, with a swift glance at my
face.
"How should I know?"
Her eyes wandered away restlessly. "On Ytaioa you told me a hundred
things which I did not know," she replied in a vague way, wishing, perhaps,
to imply that with so great a knowledge of geography it was strange I did
not know everything, even her most secret thoughts.
"Tell me, why must you go to Riolama?"
"You have heard. To speak to my people."
"What will you say to them? Tell me."
"What you do not understand. How tell you?"
"I understand you when you speak in Spanish."
"Oh, that is not speaking."
"Last night you spoke to your mother in Spanish. Did you not tell her
everything?"
"Oh no--not then. When I tell her everything I speak in another way, in
a low voice--not on my knees and praying. At night, and in the woods, and
when I am alone I tell her. But perhaps she does not hear me; she is not
here, but up there--so far! She never answers, but when I speak to my
people they will answer me."
Then she turned away as if there was nothing more to be said.
"Is this all I am to hear from you, Rima--these few words?" I exclaimed.
"So much did you say to your grandfather, so much to your dead mother,
but to me you say so little!"
She turned again, and with eyes cast down replied:
"He deceived me--I had to tell him that, and then to pray to mother. But
to you that do not understand, what can I say? Only that you are not like
him and all those that I knew at Voa. It is so different--and the same. You
are you, and I am I; why is it--do you know?"
"No; yes--I know, but cannot tell you. And if you find your people, what
will you do--leave me to go to them? Must I go all the way to Riolama only
to lose you?"
"Where I am, there you must be."
"Why?"
"Do I not see it there?" she returned, with a quick gesture to indicate
that it appeared in my face.
"Your sight is keen, Rima--keen as a bird's. Mine is not so keen. Let me
look once more into those beautiful wild eyes, then perhaps I shall see in
them as much as you see in mine."
"Oh no, no, not that!" she murmured in distress, drawing away from me;
then with a sudden flash of brilliant colour cried:
"Have you forgotten the compact--the promise you made me?"
Her words made me ashamed, and I could not reply. But the shame was
as nothing in strength compared to the impulse I felt to clasp her beautiful
body in my arms and cover her face with kisses. Sick with desire, I turned
away and, sitting on a root of the tree, covered my face with my hands.
She came nearer: I could see her shadow through my fingers; then her
face and wistful, compassionate eyes.
"Forgive me, dear Rima," I said, dropping my hands again. "I have tried
so hard to please you in everything! Touch my face with your hand--only
that, and I will go to Riolama with you, and obey you in all things."
For a while she hesitated, then stepped quickly aside so that I could not
see her; but I knew that she had not left me, that she was standing just
behind me. And after waiting a moment longer I felt her fingers touching
my skin, softly, trembling over my cheek as if a soft-winged moth had
fluttered against it; then the slight aerial touch was gone, and she, too,
moth-like, had vanished from my side.
Left alone in the wood, I was not happy. That fluttering, flattering touch
of her finger-tips had been to me like spoken language, and more eloquent
than language, yet the sweet assurance it conveyed had not given perfect
satisfaction; and when I asked myself why the gladness of the previous
evening had forsaken me--why I was infected with this new sadness when
everything promised well for me, I found that it was because my passion
had greatly increased during the last few hours; even during sleep it had
been growing, and could no longer be fed by merely dwelling in thought on
the charms, moral and physical, of its object, and by dreams of future
fruition.
I concluded that it would be best for Rima's sake as well as my own to
spend a few of the days before setting out on our journey with my Indian
friends, who would be troubled at my long absence; and, accordingly, next
morning I bade good-bye to the old man, promising to return in three or
four days, and then started without seeing Rima, who had quitted the house
before her usual time. After getting free of the woods, on casting back my
eyes I caught sight of the girl standing under an isolated tree watching me
with that vague, misty, greenish appearance she so frequently had when
seen in the light shade at a short distance.
"Rima!" I cried, hurrying back to speak to her, but when I reached the
spot she had vanished; and after waiting some time, seeing and hearing
nothing to indicate that she was near me, I resumed my walk, half thinking
that my imagination had deceived me.
I found my Indian friends home again, and was not surprised to observe
a distinct change in their manner towards me. I had expected as much; and
considering that they must have known very well where and in whose
company I had been spending my time, it was not strange. Coming across
the savannah that morning I had first begun to think seriously of the risk I
was running. But this thought only served to prepare me for a new
condition of things; for now to go back and appear before Rima, and thus
prove myself to be a person not only capable of forgetting a promise
occasionally, but also of a weak, vacillating mind, was not to be thought of
for a moment.
I was received--not welcomed--quietly enough; not a question, not a
word, concerning my long absence fell from anyone; it was as if a stranger
had appeared among them, one about whom they knew nothing and
consequently regarded with suspicion, if not actual hostility. I affected not
to notice the change, and dipped my hand uninvited in the pot to satisfy my
hunger, and smoked and dozed away the sultry hours in my hammock. Then
I got my guitar and spent the rest of the day over it, tuning it, touching the
strings so softly with my finger-tips that to a person four yards off the sound
must have seemed like the murmur or buzz of an insect's wings; and to this
scarcely audible accompaniment I murmured in an equally low tone a new
song.
In the evening, when all were gathered under the roof and I had eaten
again, I took up the instrument once more, furtively watched by all those
half-closed animal eyes, and swept the strings loudly, and sang aloud. I sang
an old simple Spanish melody, to which I had put words in their own
language--a language with no words not in everyday use, in which it is so
difficult to express feelings out of and above the common. What I had been
constructing and practicing all the afternoon sotto voce was a kind of
ballad, an extremely simple tale of a poor Indian living alone with his
young family in a season of dearth; how day after day he ranged the
voiceless woods, to return each evening with nothing but a few withered
sour berries in his hand, to find his lean, large-eyed wife still nursing the
fire that cooked nothing, and his children crying for food, showing their
bones more plainly through their skins every day; and how, without
anything miraculous, anything wonderful, happening, that barrenness
passed from earth, and the garden once more yielded them pumpkin and
maize, and manioc, the wild fruits ripened, and the birds returned, filling
the forest with their cries; and so their long hunger was satisfied, and the
children grew sleek, and played and laughed in the sunshine; and the wife,
no longer brooding over the empty pot, wove a hammock of silk grass,
decorated with blue-and-scarlet feathers of the macaw; and in that new
hammock the Indian rested long from his labours, smoking endless cigars.
When I at last concluded with a loud note of joy, a long, involuntary
suspiration in the darkening room told me that I had been listened to with
profound interest; and, although no word was spoken, though I was still a
stranger and under a cloud, it was plain that the experiment had succeeded,
and that for the present the danger was averted.
I went to my hammock and slept, but without undressing. Next morning
I missed my revolver and found that the holster containing it had been
detached from the belt. My knife had not been taken, possibly because it
was under me in the hammock while I slept. In answer to my inquiries I
was informed that Runi had BORROWED my weapon to take it with him
to the forest, where he had gone to hunt, and that he would return it to me in
the evening. I affected to take it in good part, although feeling secretly ill at
ease. Later in the day I came to the conclusion that Runi had had it in his
mind to murder me, that I had softened him by singing that Indian story,
and that by taking possession of the revolver he showed that he now only
meant to keep me a prisoner. Subsequent events confirmed me in this
suspicion. On his return he explained that he had gone out to seek for game
in the woods; and, going without a companion, he had taken my revolver to
preserve him from dangers--meaning those of a supernatural kind; and that
he had had the misfortune to drop it among the bushes while in pursuit of
some animal. I answered hotly that he had not treated me like a friend; that
if he had asked me for the weapon it would have been lent to him; that as he
had taken it without permission he must pay me for it. After some
pondering he said that when he took it I was sleeping soundly; also, that it
would not be lost; he would take me to the place where he had dropped it,
when we could search together for it.
He was in appearance more friendly towards me now, even asking me to
repeat my last evening's song, and so we had that performance all over
again to everybody's satisfaction. But when morning came he was not
inclined to go to the woods: there was food enough in the house, and the
pistol would not be hurt by lying where it had fallen a day longer. Next day
the same excuse; still I disguised my impatience and suspicion of him and
waited, singing the ballad for the third time that evening. Then I was
conducted to a wood about a league and a half away and we hunted for the
lost pistol among the bushes, I with little hope of finding it, while he
attended to the bird voices and frequently asked me to stand or lie still when
a chance of something offered.
The result of that wasted day was a determination on my part to escape
from Runi as soon as possible, although at the risk of making a deadly
enemy of him and of being compelled to go on that long journey to Riolama
with no better weapon than a hunting-knife. I had noticed, while appearing
not to do so, that outside of the house I was followed or watched by one or
other of the Indians, so that great circumspection was needed. On the
following day I attacked my host once more about the revolver, telling him
with well-acted indignation that if not found it must be paid for. I went so
far as to give a list of the articles I should require, including a bow and
arrows, zabatana, two spears, and other things which I need not specify, to
set me up for life as a wild man in the woods of Guayana. I was going to
add a wife, but as I had already been offered one it did not appear to be
necessary. He seemed a little taken aback at the value I set upon my
weapon, and promised to go and look for it again. Then I begged that Kua-
ko, in whose sharpness of sight I had great faith, might accompany us. He
consented, and named the next day but one for the expedition. Very well,
thought I, tomorrow their suspicion will be less, and my opportunity will
come; then taking up my rude instrument, I gave them an old Spanish song:
Desde aquel doloroso momento;
but this kind of music had lost its charm for them, and I was asked to
give them the ballad they understood so well, in which their interest seemed
to increase with every repetition. In spite of anxiety it amused me to see old
Cla-cla regarding me fixedly with owlish eyes and lips moving. My tale had
no wonderful things in it, like hers of the olden time, which she told only to
send her hearers to sleep. Perhaps she had discovered by now that it was the
strange honey of melody which made the coarse, common cassava bread of
everyday life in my story so pleasant to the palate. I was quite prepared to
receive a proposal to give her music and singing lessons, and to bequeath a
guitar to her in my last will and testament. For, in spite of her hoary hair
and million wrinkles, she, more than any other savage I had met with,
seemed to have taken a draught from Ponce de Leon's undiscovered
fountain of eternal youth. Poor old witch!
The following day was the sixth of my absence from Rima, and one of
intense anxiety to me, a feeling which I endeavoured to hide by playing
with the children, fighting our old comic stick fights, and by strumming
noisily on the guitar. In the afternoon, when it was hottest, and all the men
who happened to be indoors were lying in their hammocks, I asked Kua-ko
to go with me to the stream to bathe. He refused--I had counted on that--and
earnestly advised me not to bathe in the pool I was accustomed to, as some
little caribe fishes had made their appearance there and would be sure to
attack me. I laughed at his idle tale and, taking up my cloak, swung out of
the door, whistling a lively air. He knew that I always threw my cloak over
my head and shoulders as a protection from the sun and stinging flies when
coming out of the water, and so his suspicion was not aroused, and I was
not followed. The pool was about ten minutes' walk from the house; I
arrived at it with palpitating heart, and going round to its end, where the
stream was shallow, sat down to rest for a few moments and take a few sips
of cool water dipped up in my palm. Presently I rose, crossed the stream,
and began running, keeping among the low trees near the bank until a dry
gully, which extended for some distance across the savannah, was reached.
By following its course the distance to be covered would be considerably
increased, but the shorter way would have exposed me to sight and made it
more dangerous. I had put forth too much speed at first, and in a short time
my exertions, and the hot sun, together with my intense excitement,
overcame me. I dared not hope that my flight had not been observed; I
imagined that the Indians, unencumbered by any heavy weight, were
already close behind me, and ready to launch their deadly spears at my
back. With a sob of rage and despair I fell prostrate on my face in the dry
bed of the stream, and for two or three minutes remained thus exhausted
and unmanned, my heart throbbing so violently that my whole frame was
shaken. If my enemies had come on me then disposed to kill me, I could not
have lifted a hand in defence of my life. But minutes passed and they came
not. I rose and went on, at a fast walk now, and when the sheltering
streamed ended, I stooped among the sere dwarfed shrubs scattered about
here and there on its southern side; and now creeping and now running,
with an occasional pause to rest and look back, I at last reached the dividing
ridge at its southern extremity. The rest of the way was over comparatively
easy ground, inclining downwards; and with that glad green forest now full
in sight, and hope growing stronger every minute in my breast, my knees
ceased to tremble, and I ran on again, scarcely pausing until I had touched
and lost myself in the welcome shadows.
CHAPTER XIV
Ah, that return to the forest where Rima dwelt, after so anxious day,
when the declining sun shone hotly still, and the green woodland shadows
were so grateful! The coolness, the sense of security, allayed the fever and
excitement I had suffered on the open savannah; I walked leisurely, pausing
often to listen to some bird voice or to admire some rare insect or parasitic
flower shining star-like in the shade. There was a strangely delightful
sensation in me. I likened myself to a child that, startled at something it had
seen while out playing in the sun, flies to its mother to feel her caressing
hand on its cheek and forget its tremors. And describing what I felt in that
way, I was a little ashamed and laughed at myself; nevertheless the feeling
was very sweet. At that moment Mother and Nature seemed one and the
same thing. As I kept to the more open part of the wood, on its
southernmost border, the red flame of the sinking sun was seen at intervals
through the deep humid green of the higher foliage. How every object it
touched took from it a new wonderful glory! At one spot, high up where the
foliage was scanty, and slender bush ropes and moss depended like broken
cordage from a dead limb--just there, bathing itself in that glory-giving
light, I noticed a fluttering bird, and stood still to watch its antics. Now it
would cling, head downwards, to the slender twigs, wings and tail open;
then, righting itself, it would flit from waving line to line, dropping lower
and lower; and anon soar upwards a distance of twenty feet and alight to
recommence the flitting and swaying and dropping towards the earth. It was
one of those birds that have a polished plumage, and as it moved this way
and that, flirting its feathers, they caught the beams and shone at moments
like glass or burnished metal. Suddenly another bird of the same kind
dropped down to it as if from the sky, straight and swift as a falling stone;
and the first bird sprang up to meet the comer, and after rapidly wheeling
round each other for a moment, they fled away in company, screaming
shrilly through the wood, and were instantly lost to sight, while their
jubilant cries came back fainter and fainter at each repetition.
I envied them not their wings: at that moment earth did not seem fixed
and solid beneath me, nor I bound by gravity to it. The faint, floating
clouds, the blue infinite heaven itself, seemed not more ethereal and free
than I, or the ground I walked on. The low, stony hills on my right hand, of
which I caught occasional glimpses through the trees, looking now blue and
delicate in the level rays, were no more than the billowy projections on the
moving cloud of earth: the trees of unnumbered kinds--great more,
cecropia, and greenheart, bush and fern and suspended lianas, and tall
palms balancing their feathery foliage on slender stems--all was but a
fantastic mist embroidery covering the surface of that floating cloud on
which my feet were set, and which floated with me near the sun.
The red evening flame had vanished from the summits of the trees, the
sun was setting, the woods in shadow, when I got to the end of my walk. I
did not approach the house on the side of the door, yet by some means those
within became aware of my presence, for out they came in a great hurry,
Rima leading the way, Nuflo behind her, waving his arms and shouting. But
as I drew near, the girl dropped behind and stood motionless regarding me,
her face pallid and showing strong excitement. I could scarcely remove my
eyes from her eloquent countenance: I seemed to read in it relief and
gladness mingled with surprise and something like vexation. She was
piqued perhaps that I had taken her by surprise, that after much watching
for me in the wood I had come through it undetected when she was indoors.
"Happy the eyes that see you!" shouted the old man, laughing
boisterously.
"Happy are mine that look on Rima again," I answered. "I have been
long absent."
"Long--you may say so," returned Nuflo. "We had given you up. We
said that, alarmed at the thought of the journey to Riolama, you had
abandoned us."
"WE said!" exclaimed Rima, her pallid face suddenly flushing. "I spoke
differently."
"Yes, I know--I know!" he said airily, waving his hand. "You said that
he was in danger, that he was kept against his will from coming. He is
present now--let him speak."
"She was right," I said. "Ah, Nuflo, old man, you have lived long, and
got much experience, but not insight--not that inner vision that sees further
than the eyes."
"No, not that--I know what you mean," he answered. Then, tossing his
hand towards the sky, he added: "The knowledge you speak of comes from
there."
The girl had been listening with keen interest, glancing from one to the
other. "What!" she spoke suddenly. as if unable to keep silence, "do you
think, grandfather, that SHE tells me--when there is danger--when the rain
will cease--when the wind will blow--everything? Do I not ask and listen,
lying awake at night? She is always silent, like the stars."
Then, pointing to me with her finger, she finished:
"HE knows so many things! Who tells them to HIM?"
"But distinguish, Rima. You do not distinguish the great from the little,"
he answered loftily. "WE know a thousand things, but they are things that
any man with a forehead can learn. The knowledge that comes from the
blue is not like that--it is more important and miraculous. Is it not so,
senor?" he ended, appealing to me.
"Is it, then, left for me to decide?" said I, addressing the girl.
But though her face was towards me, she refused to meet my look and
was silent. Silent, but not satisfied: she doubted still, and had perhaps
caught something in my tone that strengthened her doubt.
Old Nuflo understood the expression. "Look at me, Rima," he said,
drawing himself up. "I am old, and he is young--do I not know best? I have
spoken and have decided it."
Still that unconvinced expression, and her face turned expectant to me.
"Am I to decide?" I repeated.
"Who, then?" she said at last, her voice scarcely more than a murmur;
yet there was reproach in the tone, as if she had made a long speech and I
had tyrannously driven her to it.
"Thus, then, I decide," said I. "To each of us, as to every kind of animal,
even to small birds and insects, and to every kind of plant, there is given
something peculiar--a fragrance, a melody, a special instinct, an art, a
knowledge, which no other has. And to Rima has been given this quickness
of mind and power to divine distant things; it is hers, just as swiftness and
grace and changeful, brilliant colour are the hummingbird's; therefore she
need not that anyone dwelling in the blue should instruct her."
The old man frowned and shook his head; while she, after one swift, shy
glance at my face, and with something like a smile flitting over her delicate
lips, turned and re-entered the house.
I felt convinced from that parting look that she had understood me, that
my words had in some sort given her relief; for, strong as was her faith in
the supernatural, she appeared as ready to escape from it, when a way of
escape offered, as from the limp cotton gown and constrained manner worn
in the house. The religion and cotton dress were evidently remains of her
early training at the settlement of Voa.
Old Nuflo, strange to say, had proved better than his word. Instead of
inventing new causes for delay, as I had imagined would be the case, he
now informed me that his preparations for the journey were all but
complete, that he had only waited for my return to set out.
Rima soon left us in her customary way, and then, talking by the fire, I
gave an account of my detention by the Indians and of the loss of my
revolver, which I thought very serious.
"You seem to think little of it," I said, observing that he took it very
coolly. "Yet I know not how I shall defend myself in case of an attack."
"I have no fear of an attack," he answered. "It seems to me the same
thing whether you have a revolver or many revolvers and carbines and
swords, or no revolver--no weapon at all. And for a very simple reason.
While Rima is with us, so long as we are on her business, we are protected
from above. The angels, senor, will watch over us by day and night. What
need of weapons, then, except to procure food?"
"Why should not the angels provide us with food also?" said I.
"No, no, that is a different thing," he returned. "That is a small and low
thing, a necessity common to all creatures, which all know how to meet.
You would not expect an angel to drive away a cloud of mosquitoes, or to
remove a bush-tick from your person. No, sir, you may talk of natural gifts,
and try to make Rima believe that she is what she is, and knows what she
knows, because, like a humming-bird or some plants with a peculiar
fragrance, she has been made so. It is wrong, senor, and, pardon me for
saying it, it ill becomes you to put such fables into her head."
I answered, with a smile: "She herself seems to doubt what you
believe."
"But, senor, what can you expect from an ignorant girl like Rima? She
knows nothing, or very little, and will not listen to reason. If she would only
remain quietly indoors, with her hair braided, and pray and read her
Catechism, instead of running about after flowers and birds and butterflies
and such unsubstantial things, it would be better for both of us."
"In what way, old man?"
"Why, it is plain that if she would cultivate the acquaintance of the
people that surround her--I mean those that come to her from her sainted
mother--and are ready to do her bidding in everything, she could make it
more safe for us in this place. For example, there is Runi and his people;
why should they remain living so near us as to be a constant danger when a
pestilence of small-pox or some other fever might easily be sent to kill them
off?"
"And have you ever suggested such a thing to your grandchild?"
He looked surprised and grieved at the question. "Yes, many times,
senor," he said. "I should have been a poor Christian had I not mentioned it.
But when I speak of it she gives me a look and is gone, and I see no more of
her all day, and when I see her she refuses even to answer me--so perverse,
so foolish is she in her ignorance; for, as you can see for yourself, she has
no more sense or concern about what is most important than some little
painted fly that flits about all day long without any object."
CHAPTER XV
The next day we were early at work. Nuflo had already gathered, dried,
and conveyed to a place of concealment the greater portion of his garden
produce. He was determined to leave nothing to be taken by any wandering
party of savages that might call at the house during our absence. He had no
fear of a visit from his neighbours; they would not know, he said, that he
and Rima were out of the wood. A few large earthen pots, filled with
shelled maize, beans, and sun-dried strips of pumpkin, still remained to be
disposed of. Taking up one of these vessels and asking me to follow with
another, he started off through the wood. We went a distance of five or six
hundred yards, then made our way down a very steep incline, close to the
border of the forest on the western side. Arrived at the bottom, we followed
the bank a little further, and I then found myself once more at the foot of the
precipice over which I had desperately thrown myself on the stormy
evening after the snake had bitten me. Nuflo, stealing silently and softly
before me through the bushes, had observed a caution and secrecy in
approaching this spot resembling that of a wise old hen when she visits her
hidden nest to lay an egg. And here was his nest, his most secret treasure-
house,.which he had probably not revealed even to me without a sharp
inward conflict, notwithstanding that our fates were now linked together.
The lower portion of the bank was of rock; and in it, about ten or twelve
feet above the ground, but easily reached from below, there was a natural
cavity large enough to contain all his portable property. Here, besides the
food-stuff, he had already stored a quantity of dried tobacco leaf, his rude
weapons, cooking utensils, ropes, mats, and other objects. Two or three
more journeys were made for the remaining pots, after which we adjusted a
slab of sandstone to the opening, which was fortunately narrow, plastered
up the crevices with clay, and covered them over with moss to hide all
traces of our work.
Towards evening, after we had refreshed ourselves with a long siesta,
Nuflo brought out from some other hiding-place two sacks; one weighing
about twenty pounds and containing smoke-dried meat, also grease and
gum for lighting-purposes, and a few other small objects. This was his load;
the other sack, which was smaller and contained parched corn and raw
beans, was for me to carry.
The old man, cautious in all his movements, always acting as if
surrounded by invisible spies, delayed setting out until an hour after dark.
Then, skirting the forest on its west side, we left Ytaioa on our right hand,
and after travelling over rough, difficult ground, with only the stars to light
us, we saw the waning moon rise not long before dawn. Our course had
been a north-easterly one at first; now it was due east, with broad, dry
savannahs and patches of open forest as far as we could see before us. It
was weary walking on that first night, and weary waiting on the first day
when we sat in the shade during the long, hot hours, persecuted by small
stinging flies; but the days and nights that succeeded were far worse, when
the weather became bad with intense heat and frequent heavy falls of rain.
The one compensation I had looked for, which would have outweighed all
the extreme discomforts we suffered, was denied me. Rima was no more to
me or with me now than she had been during those wild days in her native
woods, when every bush and bole and tangled creeper or fern frond had
joined in a conspiracy to keep her out of my sight. It is true that at intervals
in the daytime she was visible, sometimes within speaking distance, so that
I could address a few words to her, but there was no companionship, and we
were fellow travellers only like birds flying independently in the same
direction, not so widely separated but that they can occasionally hear and
see each other. The pilgrim in the desert is sometimes attended by a bird,
and the bird, with its freer motions, will often leave him a league behind
and seem lost to him, but only to return and show its form again; for it has
never lost sight nor recollection of the traveller toiling slowly over the
surface. Rima kept us company in some such wild erratic way as that. A
word, a sign from Nuflo was enough for her to know the direction to take--
the distant forest or still more distant mountain near which we should have
to pass. She would hasten on and be lost to our sight, and when there was a
forest in the way she would explore it, resting in the shade and finding her
own food; but invariably she was before us at each resting- or camping-
place.
Indian villages were seen during the journey, but only to be avoided;
and in like manner, if we caught sight of Indians travelling or camping at a
distance, we would alter our course, or conceal ourselves to escape
observation. Only on one occasion, two days after setting out, were we
compelled to speak with strangers. We were going round a hill, and all at
once came face to face with three persons travelling in an opposite
direction--two men and a woman, and, by a strange fatality, Rima at that
moment happened to be with us. We stood for some time talking to these
people, who were evidently surprised at our appearance, and wished to
learn who we were; but Nuflo, who spoke their language like one of
themselves, was too cunning to give any true answer. They, on their side,
told us that they had been to visit a relative at Chani, the name of a river
three days ahead of us, and were now returning to their own village at
Baila-baila, two days beyond Parahuari. After parting from them Nuflo was
much troubled in his mind for the rest of that day. These people, he said,
would probably rest at some Parahuari village, where they would be sure to
give a description of us, and so it might eventually come to the knowledge
of our unneighbourly neighbour Runi that we had left Ytaioa.
Other incidents of our long and wearisome journey need not be related.
Sitting under some shady tree during the sultry hours, with Rima only too
far out of earshot, or by the nightly fire, the old man told me little by little
and with much digression, chiefly on sacred subjects, the strange story of
the girl's origin.
About seventeen years back--Nuflo had no sure method to compute
time by--when he was already verging on old age, he was one of a company
of nine men, living a kind of roving life in the very part of Guayana through
which we were now travelling; the others, much younger than himself, were
all equally offenders against the laws of Venezuela, and fugitives from
justice. Nuflo was the leader of this gang, for it happened that he had passed
a great portion of his life outside the pale of civilization, and could talk the
Indian language, and knew this part of Guayana intimately. But according
to his own account he was not in harmony with them. They were bold,
desperate men, whose evil appetites had so far only been whetted by the
crimes they had committed; while he, with passions worn out, recalling his
many bad acts, and with a vivid conviction of the truth of all he had been
taught in early life--for Nuflo was nothing if not religious--was now grown
timid and desirous only of making his peace with Heaven. This difference
of disposition made him morose and quarrelsome with his companions; and
they would, he said, have murdered him without remorse if he had not been
so useful to them. Their favourite plan was to hang about the
neighbourhood of some small isolated settlement, keeping a watch on it,
and, when most of the male inhabitants were absent, to swoop down on it
and work their will. Now, shortly after one of these raids it happened that a
woman they had carried off, becoming a burden to them, was flung into a
river to the alligators; but when being dragged down to the waterside she
cast up her eyes, and in a loud voice cried to God to execute vengeance on
her murderers. Nuflo affirmed that he took no part in this black deed;
nevertheless, the woman's dying appeal to Heaven preyed on his mind; he
feared that it might have won a hearing, and the "person" eventually
commissioned to execute vengeance--after the usual days, of course might
act on the principle of the old proverb: Tell me whom you are with, and I
will tell you what you are--and punish the innocent (himself to wit) along
with the guilty. But while thus anxious about his spiritual interests, he was
not yet prepared to break with his companions. He thought it best to
temporize, and succeeded in persuading them that it would be unsafe to
attack another Christian settlement for some time to come; that in the
interval they might find some pleasure, if no great credit, by turning their
attention to the Indians. The infidels, he said, were God's natural enemies
and fair game to the Christian. To make a long story short, Nuflo's Christian
band, after some successful adventures, met with a reverse which reduced
their number from nine to five. Flying from their enemies, they sought
safety at Riolama, an uninhabited place, where they found it possible to
exist for some weeks on game, which was abundant, and wild fruits.
One day at noon, while ascending a mountain at the southern extremity
of the Riolama range in order to get a view of the country beyond the
summit, Nuflo and his companions discovered a cave; and finding it dry,
without animal occupants, and with a level floor, they at once determined to
make it their dwelling-place for a season. Wood for firing and water were to
be had close by; they were also well provided with smoked flesh of a tapir
they had slaughtered a day or two before, so that they could afford to rest
for a time in so comfortable a shelter. At a short distance from the cave they
made a fire on the rock to toast some slices of meat for their dinner; and
while thus engaged all at once one of the men uttered a cry of astonishment,
and casting up his eyes Nuflo beheld, standing near and regarding them
with surprise and fear in-her wide-open eyes, a woman of a most wonderful
appearance. The one slight garment she had on was silky and white as the
snow on the summit of some great mountain, but of the snow when the
sinking sun touches and gives it some delicate changing colour which is
like fire. Her dark hair was like a cloud from which her face looked out, and
her head was surrounded by an aureole like that of a saint in a picture, only
more beautiful. For, said Nuflo, a picture is a picture, and the other was a
reality, which is finer. Seeing her he fell on his knees and crossed himself;
and all the time her eyes, full of amazement and shining with such a strange
splendour that he could not meet them, were fixed on him and not on the
others; and he felt that she had come to save his soul, in danger of perdition
owing to his companionship with men who were at war with God and
wholly bad.
But at this moment his comrades, recovering from their astonishment,
sprang to their feet, and the heavenly woman vanished. Just behind where
she had stood, and not twelve yards from them, there was a huge chasm in
the mountain, its jagged precipitous sides clothed with thorny bushes; the
men now cried out that she had made her escape that way, and down after
her they rushed, pell-mell.
Nuflo cried out after them that they had seen a saint and that some
horrible thing would befall them if they allowed any evil thought to enter
their hearts; but they scoffed at his words, and were soon far down out of
hearing, while he, trembling with fear, remained praying to the woman that
had appeared to them and had looked with such strange eyes at him, not to
punish him for the sins of the others.
Before long the men returned, disappointed and sullen, for they had
failed in their search for the woman; and perhaps Nuflo's warning words
had made them give up the chase too soon. At all events, they seemed ill at
ease, and made up their minds to abandon the cave; in a short time they left
the place to camp that night at a considerable distance from the mountain.
But they were not satisfied: they had now recovered from their fear, but not
from the excitement of an evil passion; and finally, after comparing notes,
they came to the conclusion that they had missed a great prize through
Nuflo's cowardice; and when he reproved them they blasphemed all the
saints in the calendar and even threatened him with violence. Fearing to
remain longer in the company of such godless men, he only waited until
they slept, then rose up cautiously, helped himself to most of the provisions,
and made his escape, devoutly hoping that after losing their guide they
would all speedily perish.
Finding himself alone now and master of his own actions, Nuflo was in
terrible distress, for while his heart was in the utmost fear, it yet urged him
imperiously to go back to the mountain, to seek again for that sacred being
who had appeared to him and had been driven away by his brutal
companions. If he obeyed that inner voice, he would be saved; if he resisted
it, then there would be no hope for him, and along with those who had cast
the woman to the alligators he would be lost eternally. Finally, on the
following day, he went back, although not without fear and trembling, and
sat down on a stone just where he had sat toasting his tapir meat on the
previous day. But he waited in vain, and at length that voice within him,
which he had so far obeyed, began urging him to descend into the valley-
like chasm down which the woman had escaped from his comrades, and to
seek for her there. Accordingly he rose and began cautiously and slowly
climbing down over the broken jagged rocks and through a dense mass of
thorny bushes and creepers. At the bottom of the chasm a clear, swift stream
of water rushed with foam and noise along its rocky bed; but before
reaching it, and when it was still twenty yards lower down, he was startled
by hearing a low moan among the bushes, and looking about for the cause,
he found the wonderful woman--his saviour, as he expressed it. She was not
now standing nor able to stand, but half reclining among the rough stones,
one foot, which she had sprained in that headlong flight down the ragged
slope, wedged immovably between the rocks; and in this painful position
she had remained a prisoner since noon on the previous day. She now gazed
on her visitor in silent consternation; while he, casting himself prostrate on
the ground, implored her forgiveness and begged to know her will. But she
made no reply; and at length, finding that she was powerless to move, he
concluded that, though a saint and one of the beings that men worship, she
was also flesh and liable to accidents while sojourning on earth; and
perhaps, he thought, that accident which had befallen her had been specially
designed by the powers above to prove him. With great labour, and not
without causing her much pain, he succeeded in extricating her from her
position; and then finding that the injured foot was half crushed and blue
and swollen, he took her up in his arms and carried her to the stream. There,
making a cup of a broad green leaf, he offered her water, which she drank
eagerly; and he also raved her injured foot in the cold stream and bandaged
it with fresh aquatic leaves; finally he made her a soft bed of moss and dry
grass and placed her on it. That night he spent keeping watch over her, at
intervals applying fresh wet leaves to her foot as the old ones became dry
and wilted from the heat of the inflammation.
The effect of all he did was that the terror with which she regarded him
gradually wore off; and next day, when she seemed to be recovering her
strength, he proposed by signs to remove her to the cave higher up, where
she would be sheltered in case of rain. She appeared to understand him, and
allowed herself to be taken up in his arms and carried with much labour to
the top of the chasm. In the cave he made her a second couch, and tended
her assiduously. He made a fire on the floor and kept it burning night and
day, and supplied her with water to drink and fresh leaves for her foot.
There was little more that he could do. From the choicest and fattest bits of
toasted tapir flesh he offered her she turned away with disgust. A little
cassava bread soaked in water she would take, but seemed not to like it.
After a time, fearing that she would starve, he took to hunting after wild
fruits, edible bulbs and gums, and on these small things she subsisted
during the whole time of their sojourn together in the desert.
The woman, although lamed for life, was now so far recovered as to be
able to limp about without assistance, and she spent a portion of each day
out among the rocks and trees on the mountains. Nuflo at first feared that
she would now leave him, but before long he became convinced that she
had no such intentions. And yet she was profoundly unhappy. He was
accustomed to see her seated on a rock, as if brooding over some secret
grief, her head bowed, and great tears falling from half-closed eyes.
From the first he had conceived the idea that she was in the way of
becoming a mother at no distant date--an idea which seemed to accord
badly with the suppositions as to the nature of this heavenly being he was
privileged to minister to and so win salvation; but he was now convinced of
its truth, and he imagined that in her condition he had discovered the cause
of that sorrow and anxiety which preyed continually on her. By means of
that dumb language of signs which enabled them to converse together a
little, he made it known to her that at a great distance from the mountains
there existed a place where there were beings like herself, women, and
mothers of children, who would comfort and tenderly care for her. When
she had understood, she seemed pleased and willing to accompany him to
that distant place; and so it came to pass that they left their rocky shelter
and the mountains of Riolama far behind. But for several days, as they
slowly journeyed over the plain, she would pause at intervals in her limping
walk to gaze back on those blue summits, shedding abundant tears.
Fortunately the village Voa, on the river of the same name, which was
the nearest Christian settlement to Riolama, whither his course was
directed, was well known to him; he had lived there in former years, and,
what was of great advantage, the inhabitants were ignorant of his worst
crimes, or, to put it in his own subtle way, of the crimes committed by the
men he had acted with. Great was the astonishment and curiosity of the
people of Voa when, after many weeks' travelling, Nuflo arrived at last with
his companion. But he was not going to tell the truth, nor even the least
particle of the truth, to a gaping crowd of inferior persons. For these,
ingenious lies; only to the priest he told the whole story, dwelling minutely
on all he had done to rescue and protect her; all of which was approved by
the holy man, whose first act was to baptize the woman for fear that she
was not a Christian. Let it be said to Nuflo's credit that he objected to this
ceremony, arguing that she could not be a saint, with an aureole in token of
her sainthood, yet stand in need of being baptized by a priest. A priest--he
added, with a little chuckle of malicious pleasure--who was often seen
drunk, who cheated at cards, and was sometimes suspected of putting
poison on his fighting-cock's spur to make sure of the victory! Doubtless
the priest had his faults; but he was not without humanity, and for the whole
seven years of that unhappy stranger's sojourn at Voa he did everything in
his power to make her existence tolerable. Some weeks after arriving she
gave birth to a female child, and then the priest insisted on naming it
Riolama, in order, he said, to keep in remembrance the strange story of the
mother's discovery at that place.
Rima's mother could not be taught to speak either Spanish or Indian;
and when she found that the mysterious and melodious sounds that fell
from her own lips were understood by none, she ceased to utter them, and
thereafter preserved an unbroken silence among the people she lived with.
But from the presence of others she shrank, as if in disgust or fear,
excepting only Nuflo and the priest, whose kindly intentions she appeared
to understand and appreciate. So far her life in the village was silent and
sorrowful. With her child it was different; and every day that was not wet,
taking the little thing by the hand, she would limp painfully out into the
forest, and there, sitting on the ground, the two would commune with each
other by the hour in their wonderful language.
At length she began to grow perceptibly paler and feebler week by
week, day by day, until she could no longer go out into the wood, but sat or
reclined, panting for breath in the dull hot room, waiting for death to release
her. At the same time little Rima, who had always appeared frail, as if from
sympathy, now began to fade and look more shadowy, so that it was
expected she would not long survive her parent. To the mother death came
slowly, but at last it seemed so near that Nuflo and the priest were together
at her side waiting to see the end. It was then that little Rima, who had
learnt from infancy to speak in Spanish, rose from the couch where her
mother had been whispering to her, and began with some difficulty to
express what was in the dying woman's mind. Her child, she had said, could
not continue to live in that hot wet place, but if taken away to a distance
where there were mountains and a cooler air she would survive and grow
strong again.
Hearing this, old Nuflo declared that the child should not perish; that he
himself would take her away to Parahuari, a distant place where there were
mountains and dry plains and open woods; that he would watch over her
and care for her there as he had cared for her mother at Riolama.
When the substance of this speech had been made known by Rima to
the dying woman, she suddenly rose up from her couch, which she had not
risen from for many days, and stood erect on the floor, her wasted face
shining with joy. Then Nuflo knew that God's angels had come for her, and
put out his arms to save her from falling; and even while he held her that
sudden glory went out from her face, now of a dead white like burnt-out
ashes; and murmuring something soft and melodious, her spirit passed
away.
Once more Nuflo became a wanderer, now with the fragile-looking little
Rima for companion, the sacred child who had inherited the position of his
intercessor from a sacred mother. The priest, who had probably become
infected with Nuflo's superstitions, did not allow them to leave Voa empty-
handed, but gave the old man as much calico as would serve to buy
hospitality and whatsoever he might require from the Indians for many a
day to come.
At Parahuari, where they arrived safely at last, they lived for some little
time at one of the villages. But the child had an instinctive aversion to all
savages, or possibly the feeling was derived from her mother, for it had
shown itself early at Voa, where she had refused to learn their language; and
this eventually led Nuflo to go away and live apart from them, in the forest
by Ytaioa, where he made himself a house and garden. The Indians,
however, continued friendly with him and visited him with frequency. But
when Rima grew up, developing into that mysterious woodland girl I found
her, they became suspicious, and in the end regarded her with dangerously
hostile feeling. She, poor child, detested them because they were
incessantly at war with the wild animals she loved, her companions; and
having no fear of them, for she did not know that they had it in their minds
to turn their little poisonous arrows against herself, she was constantly in
the woods frustrating them; and the animals, in league with her, seemed to
understand her note of warning and hid themselves or took to flight at the
approach of danger. At length their hatred and fear grew to such a degree
that they determined to make away with her, and one day, having matured a
plan, they went to the wood and spread themselves two and two about it.
The couples did not keep together, but moved about or remained concealed
at a distance of forty or fifty yards apart, lest she should be missed. Two of
the savages, armed with blow-pipes, were near the border of the forest on
the side nearest to the village, and one of them, observing a motion in the
foliage of a tree, ran swiftly and cautiously towards it to try and catch a
glimpse of the enemy. And he did see her no doubt, as she was there
watching both him and his companions, and blew an arrow at her, but even
while in the act of blowing it he was himself struck by a dart that buried
itself deep in his flesh just over the heart. He ran some distance with the
fatal barbed point in his flesh and met his comrade, who had mistaken him
for the girl and shot him. The wounded man threw himself down to die, and
dying related that he had fired at the girl sitting up in a tree and that she had
caught the arrow in her hand only to hurl it instantly back with such force
and precision that it pierced his flesh just over the heart. He had seen it all
with his own eyes, and his friend who had accidentally slain him believed
his story and repeated it to the others. Rima had seen one Indian shoot the
other, and when she told her grandfather he explained to her that it was an
accident, but he guessed why the arrow had been fired.
From that day the Indians hunted no more in the wood; and at length
one day Nuflo, meeting an Indian who did not know him and with whom he
had some talk, heard the strange story of the arrow, and that the mysterious
girl who could not be shot was the offspring of an old man and a Didi who
had become enamoured of him; that, growing tired of her consort, the Didi
had returned to her river, leaving her half-human child to play her malicious
pranks in the wood.
This, then, was Nuflo's story, told not in Nuflo's manner, which was
infinitely prolix; and think not that it failed to move me--that I failed to
bless him for what he had done, in spite of his selfish motives.
CHAPTER XVI
CHAPTER XVII
CHAPTER XVIII
When Nuflo at length opened his eyes he found me sitting alone and
despondent by the fire, just returned from my vain chase. I had been caught
in a heavy mist on the mountain-side, and was wet through as well as
weighed down by fatigue and drowsiness, consequent upon the previous
day's laborious march and my night-long vigil; yet I dared not think of rest.
She had gone from me, and I could not have prevented it; yet the thought
that I had allowed her to slip out of my arms, to go away alone on that long,
perilous journey, was as intolerable as if I had consented to it.
Nuflo was at first startled to hear of her sudden departure; but he
laughed at my fears, affirming that after having once been over the ground
she could not lose herself; that she would be in no danger from the Indians,
as she would invariably see them at a distance and avoid them, and that
wild beasts, serpents, and other evil creatures would do her no harm. The
small amount of food she required to sustain life could be found anywhere;
furthermore, her journey would not be interrupted by bad weather, since
rain and heat had no effect on her. In the end he seemed pleased that she
had left us, saying that with Rima in the wood the house and cultivated
patch and hidden provisions and implements would be safe, for no Indian
would venture to come where she was. His confidence reassured me, and
casting myself down on the sandy floor of the cave, I fell into a deep
slumber, which lasted until evening; then I only woke to share a meal with
the old man, and sleep again until the following day.
Nuflo was not ready to start yet; he was enamoured of the
unaccustomed comforts of a dry sleeping-place and a fire blown about by
no wind and into which fell no hissing raindrops. Not for two days more
would he consent to set out on the return journey, and if he could have
persuaded me our stay at Riolama would have lasted a week.
We had fine weather at starting; but before long it clouded, and then for
upwards of a fortnight we had it wet and stormy, which so hindered us that
it took us twenty-three days to accomplish the return journey, whereas the
journey out had only taken eighteen. The adventures we met with and the
pains we suffered during this long march need not be related. The rain made
us miserable, but we suffered more from hunger than from any other cause,
and on more than one occasion were reduced to the verge of starvation.
Twice we were driven to beg for food at Indian villages, and as we had
nothing to give in exchange for it, we got very little. It is possible to buy
hospitality from the savage without fish-hooks, nails, and calico; but on this
occasion I found myself without that impalpable medium of exchange
which had been so great a help to me on my first journey to Parahuari. Now
I was weak and miserable and without cunning. It is true that we could have
exchanged the two dogs for cassava bread and corn, but we should then
have been worse off than ever. And in the end the dogs saved us by an
occasional capture--an armadillo surprised in the open and seized before it
could bury itself in the soil, or an iguana, opossum, or labba, traced by
means of their keen sense of smell to its hiding-place. Then Nuflo would
rejoice and feast, rewarding them with the skin, bones, and entrails. But at
length one of the dogs fell lame, and Nuflo, who was very hungry, made its
lameness an excuse for dispatching it, which he did apparently without
compunction, notwithstanding that the poor brute had served him well in its
way. He cut up and smoke-dried the flesh, and the intolerable pangs of
hunger compelled me to share the loathsome food with him. We were not
only indecent, it seemed to me, but cannibals to feed on the faithful servant
that had been our butcher. "But what does it matter?" I argued with myself.
"All flesh, clean and unclean, should be, and is, equally abhorrent to me,
and killing animals a kind of murder. But now I find myself constrained to
do this evil thing that good may come. Only to live I take it now--this
hateful strength-giver that will enable me to reach Rima, and the purer,
better life that is to be."
During all that time, when we toiled onwards league after league in
silence, or sat silent by the nightly fire, I thought of many things; but the
past, with which I had definitely broken, was little in my mind. Rima was
still the source and centre of all my thoughts; from her they rose, and to her
returned. Thinking, hoping, dreaming, sustained me in those dark days and
nights of pain and privation. Imagination was the bread that gave me
strength, the wine that exhilarated. What sustained old Nuflo's mind I know
not. Probably it was like a chrysalis, dormant, independent of sustenance;
the bright-winged image to be called at some future time to life by a great
shouting of angelic hosts and noises of musical instruments slept secure,
coffined in that dull, gross nature.
The old beloved wood once more! Never did his native village in some
mountain valley seem more beautiful to the Switzer, returning, war-worn,
from long voluntary exile, than did that blue cloud on the horizon--the
forest where Rima dwelt, my bride, my beautiful--and towering over it the
dark cone of Ytaioa, now seem to my hungry eyes! How near at last--how
near! And yet the two or three intervening leagues to be traversed so slowly,
step by step--how vast the distance seemed! Even at far Riolama, when I set
out on my return, I scarcely seemed so far from my love. This maddening
impatience told on my strength, which was small, and hindered me. I could
not run nor even walk fast; old Nuflo, slow, and sober, with no flame
consuming his heart, was more than my equal in the end, and to keep up
with him was all I could do. At the finish he became silent and cautious,
first entering the belt of trees leading away through the low range of hills at
the southern extremity of the wood. For a mile or upwards we trudged on in
the shade; then I began to recognize familiar ground, the old trees under
which I had walked or sat, and knew that a hundred yards further on there
would be a first glimpse of the palm-leaf thatch. Then all weakness forsook
me; with a low cry of passionate longing and joy I rushed on ahead; but I
strained my eyes in vain for a sight of that sweet shelter; no patch of pale
yellow colour appeared amidst the universal verdure of bushes, creepers,
and trees--trees beyond trees, trees towering above trees.
For some moments I could not realize it. No, I had surely made a
mistake, the house had not stood on that spot; it would appear in sight a
little further on. I took a few uncertain steps onwards, and then again stood
still, my brain reeling, my heart swelling nigh to bursting with anguish. I
was still standing motionless, with hand pressed to my breast, when Nuflo
overtook me. "Where is it--the house?" I stammered, pointing with my
hand. All his stolidity seemed gone now; he was trembling too, his lips
silently moving. At length he spoke: "They have come--the children of hell
have been here, and have destroyed everything!"
"Rima! What has become of Rima?" I cried; but without replying he
walked on, and I followed.
The house, we soon found, had been burnt down. Not a stick remained.
Where it had stood a heap of black ashes covered the ground--nothing
more. But on looking round we could discover no sign of human beings
having recently visited the spot. A rank growth of grass and herbage now
covered the once clear space surrounding the site of the dwelling, and the
ash-heap looked as if it had been lying there for a month at least. As to what
had become of Rima the old man could say no word. He sat down on the
ground overwhelmed at the calamity: Runi's people had been there, he
could not doubt it, and they would come again, and he could only look for
death at their hands. The thought that Rima had perished, that she was lost,
was unendurable. It could not be! No doubt the Indians tract come and
destroyed the house during our absence; but she had returned, and they had
gone away again to come no more. She would be somewhere in the forest,
perhaps not far off, impatiently waiting our return. The old man stared at
me while I spoke; he appeared to be in a kind of stupor, and made no reply:
and at last, leaving him still sitting on the ground, I went into the wood to
look for Rima.
As I walked there, occasionally stopping to peer into some shadowy
glade or opening, and to listen, I was tempted again and again to call the
name of her I sought aloud; and still the fear that by so doing I might bring
some hidden danger on myself, perhaps on her, made me silent. A strange
melancholy rested on the forest, a quietude seldom broken by a distant
bird's cry. How, I asked myself, should I ever find her in that wide forest
while I moved about in that silent, cautious way? My only hope was that
she would find me. It occurred to me that the most likely place to seek her
would be some of the old haunts known to us both, where we had talked
together. I thought first of the mora tree, where she had hidden herself from
me, and thither I directed my steps. About this tree, and within its shade, I
lingered for upwards of an hour; and, finally, casting my eyes up into the
great dim cloud of green and purple leaves, I softly called: "Rima, Rima, if
you have seen me, and have concealed yourself from me in your hiding-
place, in mercy answer me--in mercy come down to me now!" But Rima
answered not, nor threw down any red glowing leaves to mock me: only the
wind, high up, whispered something low and sorrowful in the foliage; and
turning, I wandered away at random into the deeper shadows.
By and by I was startled by the long, piercing cry of a wildfowl,
sounding strangely loud in the silence; and no sooner was the air still again
than it struck me that no bird had uttered that cry. The Indian is a good
mimic of animal voices, but practice had made me able to distinguish the
true from the false bird-note. For a minute or so I stood still, at a loss what
to do, then moved on again with greater caution, scarcely breathing,
straining my sight to pierce the shadowy depths. All at once I gave a great
start, for directly before me, on the projecting root in the deeper shade of a
tree, sat a dark, motionless human form. I stood still, watching it for some
time, not yet knowing that it had seen me, when all doubts were put to flight
by the form rising and deliberately advancing--a naked Indian with a
zabatana in his hand. As he came up out of the deeper shade I recognized
Piake, the surly elder brother of my friend Kua-ko.
It was a great shock to meet him in the wood, but I had no time to
reflect just then. I only remembered that I had deeply offended him and his
people, that they probably looked on me as an enemy, and would think little
of taking my life. It was too late to attempt to escape by flight; I was spent
with my long journey and the many privations I had suffered, while he
stood there in his full strength with a deadly weapon in his hand.
Nothing was left but to put a bold face on, greet him in a friendly way,
and invent some plausible story to account for my action in secretly leaving
the village.
He was now standing still, silently regarding me, and glancing round I
saw that he was not alone: at a distance of about forty yards on my right
hand two other dusky forms appeared watching me from the deep shade.
"Piake!" I cried, advancing three or four steps.
"You have returned," he answered, but without moving. "Where from?"
"Riolama."
He shook his head, then asked where it was.
"Twenty days towards the setting sun," I said. As he remained silent I
added: "I heard that I could find gold in the mountains there. An old man
told me, and we went to look for gold."
"What did you find?"
"Nothing."
"Ah!"
And so our conversation appeared to be at an end. But after a few
moments my intense desire to discover whether the savages knew aught of
Rima or not made me hazard a question.
"Do you live here in the forest now?" I asked.
He shook his head, and after a while said: "We come to kill animals."
"You are like me now," I returned quickly; "you fear nothing."
He looked distrustfully at me, then came a little nearer and said: "You
are very brave. I should not have gone twenty days' journey with no
weapons and only an old man for companion. What weapons did you
have?"
I saw that he feared me and wished to make sure that I had it not in my
power to do him some injury. "No weapon except my knife," I replied, with
assumed carelessness. With that I raised my cloak so as to let him see for
himself, turning my body round before him. "Have you found my pistol?" I
added.
He shook his head; but he appeared less suspicious now and came close
up to me. "How do you get food? Where are you going?" he asked.
I answered boldly: "Food! I am nearly starving. I am going to the
village to see if the women have got any meat in the pot, and to tell Runi all
I have done since I left him."
He looked at me keenly, a little surprised at my confidence perhaps,
then said that he was also going back and would accompany me One of the
other men now advanced, blow-pipe in hand, to join us, and, leaving the
wood, we started to walk across the savannah.
It was hateful to have to recross that savannah again, to leave the
woodland shadows where I had hoped to find Rima; but I was powerless: I
was a prisoner once more, the lost captive recovered and not yet pardoned,
probably never to be pardoned. Only by means of my own cunning could I
be saved, and Nuflo, poor old man, must take his chance.
Again and again as we tramped over the barren ground, and when we
climbed the ridge, I was compelled to stand still to recover breath,
explaining to Piake that I had been travelling day and night, with no meat
during the last three days, so that I was exhausted. This was an
exaggeration, but it was necessary to account in some way for the faintness
I experienced during our walk, caused less by fatigue and want of food than
by anguish of mind.
At intervals I talked to him, asking after all the other members of the
community by name. At last, thinking only of Rima, I asked him if any
other person or persons besides his people came to the wood now or lived
there.
He said no. "Once," I said, "there was a daughter of the Didi, a girl you
all feared: is she there now?"
He looked at me with suspicion and then shook his head. I dared not
press him with more questions; but after an interval he said plainly: "She is
not there now."
And I was forced to believe him; for had Rima been in the wood they
would not have been there. She was not there, this much I had discovered.
Had she, then, lost her way, or perished on that long journey from Riolama?
Or had she returned only to fall into the hands of her cruel enemies? My
heart was heavy in me; but if these devils in human shape knew more than
they had told me, I must, I said, hide my anxiety and wait patiently to find it
out, should they spare my life. And if they spared me and had not spared
that other sacred life interwoven with mine, the time would come when they
would find, too late, that they had taken to their bosom a worse devil than
themselves.
CHAPTER XIX
CHAPTER XX
That good fight had been to me like a draught of wine, and made me for
a while oblivious of my loss and of the pain from my wound. But the glow
and feeling of exultation did not last: the lacerated flesh smarted; I was
weak from loss of blood, and oppressed with sensations of fatigue. If my
foes had appeared on the scene they would have made an easy conquest of
me; but they came not, and I continued to walk on, slowly and painfully,
pausing often to rest.
At last, recovering somewhat from my faint condition, and losing all
fear of being overtaken, my sorrow revived in full force, and thought
returned to madden me.
Alas! this bright being, like no other in its divine brightness, so long in
the making, now no more than a dead leaf, a little dust, lost and forgotten
for ever--oh, pitiless! Oh, cruel!
But I knew it all before--this law of nature and of necessity, against
which all revolt is idle: often had the remembrance of it filled me with
ineffable melancholy; only now it seemed cruel beyond all cruelty.
Not nature the instrument, not the keen sword that cuts into the bleeding
tissues, but the hand that wields it--the unseen unknown something, or
person, that manifests itself in the horrible workings of nature.
"Did you know, beloved, at the last, in that intolerable heat, in that
moment of supreme anguish, that he is unlistening, unhelpful as the stars,
that you cried not to him? To me was your cry; but your poor, frail fellow
creature was not there to save, or, failing that, to cast himself into the flames
and perish with you, hating God."
Thus, in my insufferable pain, I spoke aloud; alone in that solitary place,
a bleeding fugitive in the dark night, looking up at the stars I cursed the
Author of my being and called on Him to take back the abhorred gift of life.
Yet, according to my philosophy, how vain it was! All my bitterness and
hatred and defiance were as empty, as ineffectual, as utterly futile, as are the
supplications of the meek worshipper, and no more than the whisper of a
leaf, the light whirr of an insect's wing. Whether I loved Him who was over
all, as when I thanked Him on my knees for guiding me to where I had
heard so sweet and mysterious a melody, or hated and defied Him as now, it
all came from Him--love and hate, good and evil.
But I know--I knew then--that in one thing my philosophy was false,
that it was not the whole truth; that though my cries did not touch nor come
near Him they would yet hurt me; and, just as a prisoner maddened at his
unjust fate beats against the stone walls of his cell until he falls back
bruised and bleeding to the floor, so did I wilfully bruise my own soul, and
knew that those wounds I gave myself would not heal.
Of that night, the beginning of the blackest period of my life, I shall say
no more; and over subsequent events I shall pass quickly.
Morning found me at a distance of many miles from the scene of my
duel with the Indian, in a broken, hilly country, varied with savannah and
open forest. I was well-nigh spent with my long march, and felt that unless
food was obtained before many hours my situation would be indeed
desperate. With labour I managed to climb to the summit of a hill about
three hundred feet high in order to survey the surrounding country, and
found that it was one of a group of five, and conjectured that these were the
five hills of Uritay and that I was in the neighbourhood of Managa's village.
Coming down I proceeded to the next hill, which was higher; and before
reaching it came to a stream in a narrow valley dividing the hills, and
proceeding along its banks in search of a crossing-place, I came full in sight
of the settlement sought for. As I approached, people were seen moving
hurriedly about; and by the time I arrived, walking slowly and painfully,
seven or eight men were standing before the village' some with spears in
their hands, the women and children behind them, all staring curiously at
me. Drawing near I cried out in a somewhat feeble voice that I was seeking
for Managa; whereupon a gray-haired man stepped forth, spear in hand, and
replied that he was Managa, and demanded to know why I sought him. I
told him a part of my story--enough to show that I had a deadly feud with
Runi, that I had escaped from him after killing one of his people.
I was taken in and supplied with food; my wound was examined and
dressed; and then I was permitted to lie down and sleep, while Managa,
with half a dozen of his people, hurriedly started to visit the scene of my
fight with Kua-ko, not only to verify my story, but partly with the hope of
meeting Runi. I did not see him again until the next morning, when he
informed me that he had found the spot where I had been overtaken, that the
dead man had been discovered by the others and carried back towards
Parahuari. He had followed the trace for some distance, and he was satisfied
that Runi had come thus far in the first place only with the intention of
spying on him.
My arrival, and the strange tidings I had brought, had thrown the village
into a great commotion; it was evident that from that time Managa lived in
constant apprehension of a sudden attack from his old enemy. This gave me
great satisfaction; it was my study to keep the feeling alive, and, more than
that, to drop continual hints of his enemy's secret murderous purpose, until
he was wrought up to a kind of frenzy of mingled fear and rage. And being
of a suspicious and somewhat truculent temper, he one day all at once
turned on me as the immediate cause of his miserable state, suspecting
perhaps that I only wished to make an instrument of him. But I was
strangely bold and careless of danger then, and only mocked at his rage,
telling him proudly that I feared him not; that Runi, his mortal enemy and
mine, feared not him but me; that Runi knew perfectly well where I had
taken refuge and would not venture to make his meditated attack while I
remained in his village, but would wait for my departure. "Kill me,
Managa," I cried, smiting my chest as I stood facing him. "Kill me, and the
result will be that he will come upon you unawares and murder you all, as
he has resolved to do sooner or later."
After that speech he glared at me in silence, then flung down the spear
he had snatched up in his sudden rage and stalked out of the house and into
the wood; but before long he was back again, seated in his old place,
brooding on my words with a face black as night.
It is painful to recall that secret dark chapter of my life--that period of
moral insanity. But I wish not to be a hypocrite, conscious or unconscious,
to delude myself or another with this plea of insanity. My mind was very
clear just then; past and present were clear to me; the future clearest of all: I
could measure the extent of my action and speculate on its future effect, and
my sense of right or wrong--of individual responsibility--was more vivid
than at any other period of my life. Can I even say that I was blinded by
passion? Driven, perhaps, but certainly not blinded. For no reaction, or
submission, had followed on that furious revolt against the unknown being,
personal or not, that is behind nature, in whose existence I believed. I was
still in revolt: I would hate Him, and show my hatred by being like Him, as
He appears to us reflected in that mirror of Nature. Had He given me good
gifts--the sense of right and wrong and sweet humanity? The beautiful
sacred flower He had caused to grow in me I would crush ruthlessly; its
beauty and fragrance and grace would be dead for ever; there was nothing
evil, nothing cruel and contrary to my nature, that I would not be guilty of,
glorying in my guilt. This was not the temper of a few days: I remained for
close upon two months at Managa's village, never repenting nor desisting in
my efforts to induce the Indians to join me in that most barbarous adventure
on which my heart was set.
I succeeded in the end; it would have been strange if I had not. The
horrible details need not be given. Managa did not wait for his enemy, but
fell on him unexpectedly, an hour after nightfall in his own village. If I had
really been insane during those two months, if some cloud had been on me,
some demoniacal force dragging me on, the cloud and insanity vanished
and the constraint was over in one moment, when that hellish enterprise was
completed. It was the sight of an old woman, lying where she had been
struck down, the fire of the blazing house lighting her wide-open glassy
eyes and white hair dabbled in blood, which suddenly, as by a miracle,
wrought this change in my brain. For they were all dead at last, old and
young, all who had lighted the fire round that great green tree in which
Rima had taken refuge, who had danced round the blaze, shouting: "Burn!
burn!"
At the moment my glance fell on that prostrate form I paused and stood
still, trembling like a person struck with a sudden pang in the heart, who
thinks that his last moment has come to him unawares. After a while I slunk
away out of the great circle of firelight into the thick darkness beyond.
Instinctively I turned towards the forests across the savannah--my forest
again; and fled away from the noise and the sight of flames, never pausing
until I found myself within the black shadow of the trees. Into the deeper
blackness of the interior I dared not venture; on the border I paused to ask
myself what I did there alone in the night-time. Sitting down, I covered my
face with my hands as if to hide it more effectually than it could be hidden
by night and the forest shadows. What horrible thing, what calamity that
frightened my soul to think of, had fallen on me? The revulsion of feeling,
the unspeakable horror, the remorse, was more than I could bear. I started
up with a cry of anguish, and would have slain myself to escape at that
moment; but Nature is not always and utterly cruel, and on this occasion
she came to my aid. Consciousness forsook me, and I lived not again until
the light of early morning was in the east; then found myself lying on the
wet herbage--wet with rain that had lately fallen. My physical misery was
now so great that it prevented me from dwelling on the scenes witnessed on
the previous evening. Nature was again merciful in this. I only remembered
that it was necessary to hide myself, in case the Indians should be still in the
neighbourhood and pay the wood a visit. Slowly and painfully I crept away
into the forest, and there sat for several hours, scarcely thinking at all, in a
half-stupefied condition. At noon the sun shone out and dried the wood. I
felt no hunger, only a vague sense of bodily misery, and with it the fear that
if I left my hiding-place I might meet some human creature face to face.
This fear prevented me from stirring until the twilight came, when I crept
forth and made my way to the border of the forest, to spend the night there.
Whether sleep visited me during the dark hours or not I cannot say: day and
night my condition seemed the same; I experienced only a dull sensation of
utter misery which seemed in spirit and flesh alike, an inability to think
clearly, or for more than a few moments consecutively, about anything.
Scenes in which I had been principal actor came and went, as in a dream
when the will slumbers: now with devilish ingenuity and persistence I was
working on Managa's mind; now standing motionless in the forest listening
for that sweet, mysterious melody; now staring aghast at old Cla-cla's wide-
open glassy eyes and white hair dabbled in blood; then suddenly, in the
cave at Riolama, I was fondly watching the slow return of life and colour to
Rima's still face.
When morning came again, I felt so weak that a vague fear of sinking
down and dying of hunger at last roused me and sent me forth in quest of
food. I moved slowly and my eyes were dim to see, but I knew so well
where to seek for small morsels--small edible roots and leaf-stalks, berries,
and drops of congealed gum--that it would have been strange in that rich
forest if I had not been able to discover something to stay my famine. It was
little, but it sufficed for the day. Once more Nature was merciful to me; for
that diligent seeking among the concealing leaves left no interval for
thought; every chance morsel gave a momentary pleasure, and as I
prolonged my search my steps grew firmer, the dimness passed from my
eyes. I was more forgetful of self, more eager, and like a wild animal with
no thought or feeling beyond its immediate wants. Fatigued at the end, I fell
asleep as soon as darkness brought my busy rambles to a close, and did not
wake until another morning dawned.
My hunger was extreme now. The wailing notes of a pair of small birds,
persistently flitting round me, or perched with gaping bills and wings
trembling with agitation, served to remind me that it was now breeding-
time; also that Rima had taught me to find a small bird's nest. She found
them only to delight her eyes with the sight; but they would be food for me;
the crystal and yellow fluid in the gem-like, white or blue or red-speckled
shells would help to keep me alive. All day I hunted, listening to every note
and cry, watching the motions of every winged thing, and found, besides
gums and fruits, over a score of nests containing eggs, mostly of small
birds, and although the labour was great and the scratches many, I was well
satisfied with the result.
A few days later I found a supply of Haima gum, and eagerly began
picking it from the tree; not that it could be used, but the thought of the
brilliant light it gave was so strong in my mind that mechanically I gathered
it all. The possession of this gum, when night closed round me again,
produced in me an intense longing for artificial light and warmth. The
darkness was harder than ever to endure. I envied the fireflies their natural
lights, and ran about in the dusk to capture a few and hold them in the
hollow of my two hands, for the sake of their cold, fitful flashes. On the
following day I wasted two or three hours trying to get fire in the primitive
method with dry wood, but failed, and lost much time, and suffered more
than ever from hunger in consequence. Yet there was fire in everything;
even when I struck at hard wood with my knife, sparks were emitted. If I
could only arrest those wonderful heat- and light-giving sparks! And all at
once, as if I had just lighted upon some new, wonderful truth, it occurred to
me that with my steel hunting-knife and a piece of flint fire could be
obtained. Immediately I set about preparing tinder with dry moss, rotten
wood, and wild cotton; and in a short time I had the wished fire, and heaped
wood dry and green on it to make it large. I nursed it well, and spent the
night beside it; and it also served to roast some huge white grubs which I
had found in the rotten wood of a prostrate trunk. The sight of these great
grubs had formerly disgusted me; but they tasted good to me now, and
stayed my hunger, and that was all I looked for in my wild forest food.
For a long time an undefined feeling prevented me from going near the
site of Nuflo's burnt lodge. I went there at last; and the first thing I did was
to go all round the fatal spot, cautiously peering into the rank herbage, as if
I feared a lurking serpent; and at length, at some distance from the
blackened heap, I discovered a human skeleton, and knew it to be Nuflo's.
In his day he had been a great armadillo-hunter, and these quaint carrion-
eaters had no doubt revenged themselves by devouring his flesh when they
found him dead--killed by the savages.
Having once returned to this spot of many memories, I could not quit it
again; while my wild woodland life lasted, here must I have my lair, and
being here I could not leave that mournful skeleton above ground. With
labour I excavated a pit to bury it, careful not to cut or injure a broad-leafed
creeper that had begun to spread itself over the spot; and after refilling the
hole I drew the long, trailing stems over the mound.
"Sleep well, old man," said I, when my work was done; and these few
words, implying neither censure nor praise, was all the burial service that
old Nuflo had from me.
I then visited the spot where the old man, assisted by me, had concealed
his provisions before starting for Riolama, and was pleased to find that it
had not been discovered by the Indians. Besides the store of tobacco leaf,
maize, pumpkin, potatoes, and cassava bread, and the cooking utensils, I
found among other things a chopper--a great acquisition, since with it I
would be able to cut down small palms and bamboos to make myself a hut.
The possession of a supply of food left me time for many things: time in
the first place to make my own conditions; doubtless after them there would
be further progression on the old lines--luxuries added to necessaries; a
healthful, fruitful life of thought and action combined; and at last a
peaceful, contemplative old age.
I cleared away ashes and rubbish, and marked out the very spot where
Rima's separate bower had been for my habitation, which I intended to
make small. In five days it was finished; then, after lighting a fire, I
stretched myself out in my dry bed of moss and leaves with a feeling that
was almost triumphant. Let the rain now fall in torrents, putting out the
firefly's lamp; let the wind and thunder roar their loudest, and the lightnings
smite the earth with intolerable light, frightening the poor monkeys in their
wet, leafy habitations, little would I heed it all on my dry bed, under my
dry, palm-leaf thatch, with glorious fire to keep me company and protect me
from my ancient enemy, Darkness.
From that first sleep under shelter I woke refreshed, and was not driven
by the cruel spur of hunger into the wet forest. The wished time had come
of rest from labour, of leisure for thought. Resting here, just where she had
rested, night by night clasping a visionary mother in her arms, whispering
tenderest words in a visionary ear, I too now clasped her in my arms--a
visionary Rima. How different the nights had seemed when I was without
shelter, before I had rediscovered fire! How had I endured it? That strange
ghostly gloom of the woods at night-time full of innumerable strange
shapes; still and dark, yet with something seen at times moving amidst
them, dark and vague and strange also--an owl, perhaps, or bat, or great
winged moth, or nightjar. Nor had I any choice then but to listen to the
night-sounds of the forest; and they were various as the day-sounds, and for
every day-sound, from the faintest lisping and softest trill to the deep
boomings and piercing cries, there was an analogue; always with something
mysterious, unreal in its tone, something proper to the night. They were
ghostly sounds, uttered by the ghosts of dead animals; they were a hundred
different things by turns, but always with a meaning in them, which I vainly
strove to catch--something to be interpreted only by a sleeping faculty in us,
lightly sleeping, and now, now on the very point of awaking!
Now the gloom and the mystery were shut out; now I had that which
stood in the place of pleasure to me, and was more than pleasure. It was a
mournful rapture to lie awake now, wishing not for sleep and oblivion,
hating the thought of daylight that would come at last to drown and scare
away my vision. To be with Rima again--my lost Rima recovered--mine,
mine at last! No longer the old vexing doubt now--"You are you, and I am I-
-why is it?"--the question asked when our souls were near together, like two
raindrops side by side, drawing irresistibly nearer, ever nearer: for now they
had touched and were not two, but one inseparable drop, crystallized
beyond change, not to be disintegrated by time, nor shattered by death's
blow, nor resolved by any alchemy.
I had other company besides this unfailing vision and the bright dancing
fire that talked to me in its fantastic fire language. It was my custom to
secure the door well on retiring; grief had perhaps chilled my blood, for I
suffered less from heat than from cold at this period, and the fire seemed
grateful all night long; I was also anxious to exclude all small winged and
creeping night-wanderers. But to exclude them entirely proved impossible:
through a dozen invisible chinks they would find their way to me; also
some entered by day to lie concealed until after nightfall. A monstrous hairy
hermit spider found an asylum in a dusky corner of the hut, under the
thatch, and day after day he was there, all day long, sitting close and
motionless; but at dark he invariably disappeared--who knows on what
murderous errand! His hue was a deep dead-leaf yellow, with a black and
grey pattern, borrowed from some wild cat; and so large was he that his
great outspread hairy legs, radiating from the flat disk of his body, would
have covered a man's open hand. It was easy to see him in my small
interior; often in the night-time my eyes would stray to his corner, never to
encounter that strange hairy figure; but daylight failed not to bring him. He
troubled me; but now, for Rima's sake, 1 could slay no living thing except
from motives of hunger. I had it in my mind to injure him--to strike off one
of his legs, which would not be missed much, as they were many--so as to
make him go away and return no more to so inhospitable a place. But
courage failed me. He might come stealthily back at night to plunge his
long, crooked farces into my throat, poisoning my blood with fever and
delirium and black death. So I left him alone, and glanced furtively and
fearfully at him, hoping that he had not divined any thoughts; thus we lived
on unsocially together. More companionable, but still in an uncomfortable
way, were the large crawling, running insects--crickets, beetles, and others.
They were shapely and black and polished, and ran about here and there on
the floor, just like intelligent little horseless carriages; then they would
pause with their immovable eyes fixed on me, seeing or in some mysterious
way divining my presence; their pliant horns waving up and down, like
delicate instruments used to test the air. Centipedes and millipedes in
dozens came too, and were not welcome. I feared not their venom, but it
was a weariness to see them; for they seemed no living things, but the
vertebrae of snakes and eels and long slim fishes, dead and desiccated,
made to move mechanically over walls and floor by means of some
jugglery of nature. I grew skilful at picking them up with a pair of pliant
green twigs, to thrust them into the outer darkness.
One night a moth fluttered in and alighted on my hand as I sat by the
fire, causing me to hold my breath as I gazed on it. Its fore-wings were pale
grey, with shadings dark and light written all over in finest characters with
some twilight mystery or legend; but the round under-wings were clear
amber-yellow, veined like a leaf with red and purple veins; a thing of such
exquisite chaste beauty that the sight of it gave me a sudden shock of
pleasure. Very soon it flew up, circling about, and finally lighted on the
palm-leaf thatch directly over the fire. The heat, I thought, would soon drive
it from the spot; and, rising, I opened the door, so that it might find its way
out again into its own cool, dark, flowery world. And standing by the open
door I turned and addressed it: "O night-wanderer of the pale, beautiful
wings, go forth, and should you by chance meet her somewhere in the
shadowy depths, revisiting her old haunts, be my messenger--" Thus much
had I spoken when the frail thing loosened its hold to fall without a flutter,
straight and swift, into the white blaze beneath. I sprang forward with a
shriek and stood staring into the fire, my whole frame trembling with a
sudden terrible emotion. Even thus had Rima fallen--fallen from the great
height- -into the flames that instantly consumed her beautiful flesh and
bright spirit! O cruel Nature!
A moth that perished in the flame; an indistinct faint sound; a dream in
the night; the semblance of a shadowy form moving mist-like in the twilight
gloom of the forest, would suddenly bring back a vivid memory, the old
anguish, to break for a while the calm of that period. It was calm then after
the storm. Nevertheless, my health deteriorated. I ate little and slept little
and grew thin and weak. When I looked down on the dark, glassy forest
pool, where Rima would look no more to see herself so much better than in
the small mirror of her lover's pupil, it showed me a gaunt, ragged man with
a tangled mass of black hair falling over his shoulders, the bones of his face
showing through the dead-looking, sun-parched skin, the sunken eyes with
a gleam in them that was like insanity.
To see this reflection had a strangely disturbing effect on me. A
torturing voice would whisper in my ear: "Yes, you are evidently going
mad. By and by you will rush howling through the forest, only to drop
down at last and die; and no person will ever find and bury your bones. Old
Nuflo was more fortunate in that he perished first."
"A lying voice!" I retorted in sudden anger. "My faculties were never
keener than now. Not a fruit can ripen but I find it. If a small bird darts by
with a feather or straw in its bill I mark its flight, and it will be a lucky bird
if I do not find its nest in the end. Could a savage born in the forest do
more? He would starve where I find food!"
"Ay, yes, there is nothing wonderful in that," answered the voice. "The
stranger from a cold country suffers less from the heat, when days are
hottest, than the Indian who knows no other climate. But mark the result!
The stranger dies, while the Indian, sweating and gasping for breath,
survives. In like manner the low-minded savage, cut off from all human
fellowship, keeps his faculties to the end, while your finer brain proves your
ruin."
I cut from a tree a score of long, blunt thorns, tough and black as
whalebone, and drove them through a strip of wood in which I had burnt a
row of holes to receive them, and made myself a comb, and combed out my
long, tangled hair to improve my appearance.
"It is not the tangled condition of your hair," persisted the voice, "but
your eyes, so wild and strange in their expression, that show the approach
of madness. Make your locks as smooth as you like, and add a garland of
those scarlet, star-shaped blossoms hanging from the bush behind you--
crown yourself as you crowned old Cla-cla--but the crazed look will remain
just the same."
And being no longer able to reply, rage and desperation drove me to an
act which only seemed to prove that the hateful voice had prophesied truly.
Taking up a stone, I hurled it down on the water to shatter the image I saw
there, as if it had been no faithful reflection of myself, but a travesty,
cunningly made of enamelled clay or some other material, and put there by
some malicious enemy to mock me.
CHAPTER XXI
Many days had passed since the hut was made--how many may not be
known, since I notched no stick and knotted no cord--yet never in my
rambles in the wood had I seen that desolate ash-heap where the fire had
done its work. Nor had I looked for it. On the contrary, my wish was never
to see it, and the fear of coming accidentally upon it made me keep to the
old familiar paths. But at length, one night, without thinking of Rima's
fearful end, it all at once occurred to me that the hated savage whose blood
I had shed on the white savannah might have only been practicing his
natural deceit when he told me that most pitiful story. If that were so--if he
had been prepared with a fictitious account of her death to meet my
questions--then Rima might still exist: lost, perhaps, wandering in some
distant place, exposed to perils day and night, and unable to find her way
back, but living still! Living! her heart on fire with the hope of reunion with
me, cautiously threading her way through the undergrowth of immeasurable
forests; spying out the distant villages and hiding herself from the sight of
all men, as she knew so well how to hide; studying the outlines of distant
mountains, to recognize some familiar landmark at last, and so find her way
back to the old wood once more! Even now, while I sat there idly musing,
she might be somewhere in the wood--somewhere near me; but after so
long an absence full of apprehension, waiting in concealment for what
tomorrow's light might show.
I started up and replenished the fire with trembling hands, then set the
door open to let the welcoming stream out into the wood. But Rima had
done more; going out into the black forest in the pitiless storm, she had
found and led me home. Could I do less! I was quickly out in the shadows
of the wood. Surely it was more than a mere hope that made my heart beat
so wildly! How could a sensation so strangely sudden, so irresistible in its
power, possess me unless she were living and near? Can it be, can it be that
we shall meet again? To look again into your divine eyes--to hold you again
in my arms at last! I so changed--so different! But the old love remains; and
of all that has happened in your absence I shall tell you nothing--not one
word; all shall be forgotten now--sufferings, madness, crime, remorse!
Nothing shall ever vex you again--not Nuflo, who vexed you every day; for
he is dead now--murdered, only I shall not say that--and I have decently
buried his poor old sinful bones. We alone together in the wood--OUR
wood now! The sweet old days again; for I know that you would not have it
different, nor would I.
Thus I talked to myself, mad with the thoughts of the joy that would
soon be mine; and at intervals I stood still and made the forest echo with my
calls. "Rima! Rima!" I called again and again, and waited for some
response; and heard only the familiar night-sounds--voices of insect and
bird and tinkling tree-frog, and a low murmur in the topmost foliage, moved
by some light breath of wind unfelt below. I was drenched with dew,
bruised and bleeding from falls in the dark, and from rocks and thorns and
rough branches, but had felt nothing; gradually the excitement burnt itself
out; I was hoarse with shouting and ready to drop down with fatigue, and
hope was dead: and at length I crept back to my hut, to cast myself on my
grass bed and sink into a dull, miserable, desponding stupor.
But on the following morning I was out once more, determined to
search the forest well; since, if no evidence of the great fire Kua-ko had
described to me existed, it would still be possible to believe that he had lied
to me, and that Rima lived. I searched all day and found nothing; but the
area was large, and to search it thoroughly would require several days.
On the third day I discovered the fatal spot, and knew that never again
would I behold Rima in the flesh, that my last hope had indeed been a vain
one. There could be no mistake: just such an open place as the Indian had
pictured to me was here, with giant trees standing apart; while one tree
stood killed and blackened by fire, surrounded by a huge heap, sixty or
seventy yards across, of prostrate charred tree-trunks and ashes. Here and
there slender plants had sprung up through the ashes, and the omnipresent
small-leaved creepers were beginning to throw their pale green embroidery
over the blackened trunks. I looked long at the vast funeral tree that had a
buttressed girth of not less than fifty feet, and rose straight as a ship's mast,
with its top about a hundred and fifty feet from the earth. What a distance to
fall, through burning leaves and smoke, like a white bird shot dead with a
poisoned arrow, swift and straight into that sea of flame below! How cruel
imagination was to turn that desolate ash-heap, in spite of feathery foliage
and embroidery of creepers, into roaring leaping flames again--to bring
those dead savages back, men, women, and children--even the little ones I
had played with--to set them yelling around me: "Burn! burn!" Oh, no, this
damnable spot must not be her last resting-place! If the fire had not utterly
consumed her, bones as well as sweet tender flesh, shrivelling her like a
frail white-winged moth into the finest white ashes, mixed inseparably with
the ashes of stems and leaves innumerable, then whatever remained of her
must be conveyed elsewhere to be with me, to mingle with my ashes at last.
Having resolved to sift and examine the entire heap, I at once set about
my task. If she had climbed into the central highest branch, and had fallen
straight, then she would have dropped into the flames not far from the roots;
and so to begin I made a path to the trunk, and when darkness overtook me
I had worked all round the tree, in a width of three to four yards, without
discovering any remains. At noon on the following day I found the
skeleton, or, at all events, the larger bones, rendered so fragile by the fierce
heat they had been subjected to, that they fell to pieces when handled. But I
was careful--how careful!--to save these last sacred relics, all that was now
left of Rima!--kissing each white fragment as I lifted it, and gathering them
all in my old frayed cloak, spread out to receive them. And when I had
recovered them all, even to the smallest, I took my treasure home.
Another storm had shaken my soul, and had been succeeded by a
second calm, which was more complete and promised to be more enduring
than the first. But it was no lethargic calm; my brain was more active than
ever; and by and by it found a work for my hands to do, of such a character
as to distinguish me from all other forest hermits, fugitives from their
fellows, in that savage land. The calcined bones I had rescued were kept in
one of the big, rudely shaped, half-burnt earthen jars which Nuflo had used
for storing grain and other food-stuff. It was of a wood-ash colour; and after
I had given up my search for the peculiar fine clay he had used in its
manufacture--for it had been in my mind to make a more shapely funeral
urn myself--I set to work to ornament its surface. A portion of each day was
given to this artistic labour; and when the surface was covered with a
pattern of thorny stems, and a trailing creeper with curving leaf and twining
tendril, and pendent bud and blossom, I gave it colour. Purples and black
only were used, obtained from the juices of some deeply coloured berries;
and when a tint, or shade, or line failed to satisfy me I erased it, to do it
again; and this so often that I never completed my work. I might, in the
proudly modest spirit of the old sculptors, have inscribed on the vase the
words: Abel was doing this. For was not my ideal beautiful like theirs, and
the best that my art could do only an imperfect copy--a rude sketch? A
serpent was represented wound round the lower portion of the jar, dull-
hued, with a chain of irregular black spots or blotches extending along its
body; and if any person had curiously examined these spots he would have
discovered that every other one was a rudely shaped letter, and that the
letters, by being properly divided, made the following words:
Sin vos y siu dios y mi.
Words that to some might seem wild, even insane in their extravagance,
sung by some ancient forgotten poet; or possibly the motto of some love-
sick knight-errant, whose passion was consumed to ashes long centuries
ago. But not wild nor insane to me, dwelling alone on a vast stony plain in
everlasting twilight, where there was no motion, nor any sound; but all
things, even trees, ferns, and grasses, were stone. And in that place I had sat
for many a thousand years, drawn up and motionless, with stony fingers
clasped round my legs, and forehead resting on my knees; and there would I
sit, unmoving, immovable, for many a thousand years to come--I, no longer
I, in a universe where she was not, and God was not.
The days went by, and to others grouped themselves into weeks and
months; to me they were only days--not Saturday, Sunday, Monday, but
nameless. They were so many and their sum so great that all my previous
life, all the years I had existed before this solitary time, now looked like a
small island immeasurably far away, scarcely discernible, in the midst of
that endless desolate waste of nameless days.
My stock of provisions had been so long consumed that I had forgotten
the flavour of pulse and maize and pumpkins and purple and sweet
potatoes. For Nuflo's cultivated patch had been destroyed by the savages--
not a stem, not a root had they left: and I, like the sorrowful man that
broods on his sorrow and the artist who thinks only of his art, had been
improvident and had consumed the seed without putting a portion into the
ground. Only wild food, and too little of that, found with much seeking and
got with many hurts. Birds screamed at and scolded me; branches bruised
and thorns scratched me; and still worse were the angry clouds of waspish
things no bigger than flies. Buzz--buzz! Sting- -sting! A serpent's tooth has
failed to kill me; little do I care for your small drops of fiery venom so that I
get at the spoil--grubs and honey. My white bread and purple wine! Once
my soul hungered after knowledge; I took delight in fine thoughts finely
expressed; I sought them carefully in printed books: now only this vile
bodily hunger, this eager seeking for grubs and honey, and ignoble war with
little things!
A bad hunter I proved after larger game. Bird and beast despised my
snares, which took me so many waking hours at night to invent, so many
daylight hours to make. Once, seeing a troop of monkeys high up in the tall
trees, I followed and watched them for a long time, thinking how royally I
should feast if by some strange unheard-of accident one were to fall
disabled to the ground and be at my mercy. But nothing impossible
happened, and I had no meat. What meat did I ever have except an
occasional fledgling, killed in its cradle, or a lizard, or small tree-frog
detected, in spite of its green colour, among the foliage? I would roast the
little green minstrel on the coals. Why not? Why should he live to tinkle on
his mandolin and clash his airy cymbals with no appreciative ear to listen?
Once I had a different and strange kind of meat; but the starved stomach is
not squeamish. I found a serpent coiled up in my way in a small glade, and
arming myself with a long stick, I roused him from his siesta and slew him
without mercy. Rima was not there to pluck the rage from my heart and
save his evil life. No coral snake this, with slim, tapering body, ringed like a
wasp with brilliant colour; but thick and blunt, with lurid scales, blotched
with black; also a broad, flat, murderous head, with stony, ice-like, whity-
blue eyes, cold enough to freeze a victim's blood in its veins and make it sit
still, like some wide-eyed creature carved in stone, waiting for the sharp,
inevitable stroke--so swift at last, so long in coming. "O abominable flat
head, with icy-cold, humanlike, fiend-like eyes, I shall cut you off and
throw you away!" And away I flung it, far enough in all conscience: yet I
walked home troubled with a fancy that somewhere, somewhere down on
the black, wet soil where it had fallen, through all that dense, thorny tangle
and millions of screening leaves, the white, lidless, living eyes were
following me still, and would always be following me in all my goings and
comings and windings about in the forest. And what wonder? For were we
not alone together in this dreadful solitude, I and the serpent, eaters of the
dust, singled out and cursed above all cattle? HE would not have bitten me,
and I--faithless cannibal!--had murdered him. That cursed fancy would live
on, worming itself into every crevice of my mind; the severed head would
grow and grow in the night-time to something monstrous at last, the hellish
white lidless eyes increasing to the size of two full moons. "Murderer!
murderer!" they would say; "first a murderer of your own fellow creatures--
that was a small crime; but God, our enemy, had made them in His image,
and He cursed you; and we two were together, alone and apart--you and I,
murderer! you and I, murderer!"
I tried to escape the tyrannous fancy by thinking of other things and by
making light of it. "The starved, bloodless brain," I said, "has strange
thoughts." I fell to studying the dark, thick, blunt body in my hands; I
noticed that the livid, rudely blotched, scaly surface showed in some lights
a lovely play of prismatic colours. And growing poetical, I said: "When the
wild west wind broke up the rainbow on the flying grey cloud and scattered
it over the earth, a fragment doubtless fell on this reptile to give it that
tender celestial tint. For thus it is Nature loves all her children, and gives to
each some beauty, little or much; only to me, her hated stepchild, she gives
no beauty, no grace. But stay, am I not wronging her? Did not Rima,
beautiful above all things, love me well? said she not that I was beautiful?"
"Ah, yes, that was long ago," spoke the voice that mocked me by the
pool when I combed out my tangled hair. "Long ago, when the soul that
looked from your eyes was not the accursed thing it is now. Now Rima
would start at the sight of them; now she would fly in terror from their
insane expression."
"O spiteful voice, must you spoil even such appetite as I have for this
fork-tongued spotty food? You by day and Rima by night--what shall I do--
what shall I do?"
For it had now come to this, that the end of each day brought not sleep
and dreams, but waking visions. Night by night, from my dry grass bed I
beheld Nuflo sitting in his old doubled-up posture, his big brown feet close
to the white ashes--sitting silent and miserable. I pitied him; I owed him
hospitality; but it seemed intolerable that he should be there. It was better to
shut my eyes; for then Rima's arms would be round my neck; the silky mist
of her hair against my face, her flowery breath mixing with my breath.
What a luminous face was hers! Even with closeshut eyes I could see it
vividly, the translucent skin showing the radiant rose beneath, the lustrous
eyes, spiritual and passionate, dark as purple wine under their dark lashes.
Then my eyes would open wide. No Rima in my arms! But over there, a
little way back from the fire, just beyond where old Nuflo had sat brooding
a few minutes ago, Rima would be standing, still and pale and unspeakably
sad. Why does she come to me from the outside darkness to stand there
talking to me, yet never once lifting her mournful eyes to mine? "Do not
believe it, Abel; no, that was only a phantom of your brain, the What-I-was
that you remember so well. For do you not see that when I come she fades
away and is nothing? Not that--do not ask it. I know that I once refused to
look into your eyes, and afterwards, in the cave at Riolama, I looked long
and was happy--unspeakably happy! But now--oh, you do not know what
you ask; you do not know the sorrow that has come into mine; that if you
once beheld it, for very sorrow you would die. And you must live. But I
will wait patiently, and we shall be together in the end, and see each other
without disguise. Nothing shall divide us. Only wish not for it soon; think
not that death will ease your pain, and seek it not. Austerities? Good works?
Prayers? They are not seen; they are not heard, they are less-than nothing,
and there is no intercession. I did not know it then, but you knew it. Your
life was your own; you are not saved nor judged! acquit yourself--undo that
which you have done, which Heaven cannot undo--and Heaven will say no
word nor will I. You cannot, Abel, you cannot. That which you have done is
done, and yours must be the penalty and the sorrow--yours and mine--yours
and mine--yours and mine."
This, too, was a phantom, a Rima of the mind, one of the shapes the
ever-changing black vapours of remorse and insanity would take; and all
her mournful sentences were woven out of my own brain. I was not so
crazed as not to know it; only a phantom, an illusion, yet more real than
reality--real as my crime and vain remorse and death to come. It was,
indeed, Rima returned to tell me that I that loved her had been more cruel to
her than her cruellest enemies; for they had but tortured and destroyed her
body with fire, while I had cast this shadow on her soul--this sorrow
transcending all sorrows, darker than death, immitigable, eternal.
If I could only have faded gradually, painlessly, growing feebler in body
and dimmer in my senses each day, to sink at last into sleep! But it could
not be. Still the fever in my brain, the mocking voice by day, the phantoms
by night; and at last I became convinced that unless I quitted the forest
before long, death would come to me in some terrible shape. But in the
feeble condition I was now in, and without any provisions, to escape from
the neighbourhood of Parahuari was impossible, seeing that it was
necessary at starting to avoid the villages where the Indians were of the
same tribe as Runi, who would recognize me as the white man who was
once his guest and afterwards his implacable enemy. I must wait, and in
spite of a weakened body and a mind diseased, struggle still to wrest a
scanty subsistence from wild nature.
One day I discovered an old prostrate tree, buried under a thick growth
of creeper and fern, the wood of which was nearly or quite rotten, as I
proved by thrusting my knife to the heft in it. No doubt it would contain
grubs--those huge, white wood-borers which now formed an important item
in my diet. On the following day I returned to the spot with a chopper and a
bundle of wedges to split the trunk up, but had scarcely commenced
operations when an animal, startled at my blows, rushed or rather wriggled
from its hiding-place under the dead wood at a distance of a few yards from
me. It was a robust, round-headed, short-legged creature, about as big as a
good-sized cat, and clothed in a thick, greenish-brown fur. The ground all
about was covered with creepers, binding the ferns, bushes, and old dead
branches together; and in this confused tangle the animal scrambled and
tore with a great show of energy, but really made very little progress; and
all at once it flashed into my mind that it was a sloth--a common animal,
but rarely seen on the ground--with no tree near to take refuge in. The shock
of joy this discovery produced was great enough to unnerve me, and for
some moments I stood trembling, hardly able to breathe; then recovering I
hastened after it, and stunned it with a blow from my chopper on its round
head.
"Poor sloth!" I said as I stood over it. "Poor old lazy-bones! Did Rima
ever find you fast asleep in a tree, hugging a branch as if you loved it, and
with her little hand pat your round, human-like head; and laugh mockingly
at the astonishment in your drowsy, waking eyes; and scold you tenderly for
wearing your nails so long, and for being so ugly? Lazybones, your death is
revenged! Oh, to be out of this wood--away from this sacred place--to be
anywhere where killing is not murder!"
Then it came into my mind that I was now in possession of the supply
of food which would enable me to quit the wood. A noble capture! As much
to me as if a stray, migratory mule had rambled into the wood and found
me, and I him. Now I would be my own mule, patient, and long-suffering,
and far-going, with naked feet hardened to hoofs, and a pack of provender
on my back to make me independent of the dry, bitter grass on the sunburnt
savannahs.
Part of that night and the next morning was spent in curing the flesh
over a smoky fire of green wood and in manufacturing a rough sack to store
it in, for I had resolved to set out on my journey. How safely to convey
Rima's treasured ashes was a subject of much thought and anxiety. The clay
vessel on which I had expended so much loving, sorrowful labour had to be
left, being too large and heavy to carry; eventually I put the fragments into a
light sack; and in order to avert suspicion from the people I would meet on
the way, above the ashes I packed a layer of roots and bulbs. These I would
say contained medicinal properties, known to the white doctors, to whom I
would sell them on my arrival at a Christian settlement, and with the money
buy myself clothes to start life afresh.
On the morrow I would bid a last farewell to that forest of many
memories. And my journey would be eastwards, over a wild savage land of
mountains, rivers, and forests, where every dozen miles would be like a
hundred of Europe; but a land inhabited by tribes not unfriendly to the
stranger. And perhaps it would be my good fortune to meet with Indians
travelling east who would know the easiest routes; and from time to time
some compassionate voyager would let me share his wood-skin, and many
leagues would be got over without weariness, until some great river,
flowing through British or Dutch Guiana, would be reached; and so on, and
on, by slow or swift stages, with little to eat perhaps, with much labour and
pain, in hot sun and in storm, to the Atlantic at last, and towns inhabited by
Christian men.
In the evening of that day, after completing my preparations, I supped
on the remaining portions of the sloth, not suitable for preservation, roasting
bits of fat on the coals and boiling the head and bones into a broth; and after
swallowing the liquid I crunched the bones and sucked the marrow, feeding
like some hungry carnivorous animal.
Glancing at the fragments scattered on the floor, I remembered old
Nuflo, and how I had surprised him at his feast of rank coatimundi in his
secret retreat. "Nuflo, old neighbour," said I, "how quiet you are under your
green coverlet, spangled just now with yellow flowers! It is no sham sleep,
old man, I know. If any suspicion of these curious doings, this feast of flesh
on a spot once sacred, could flit like a small moth into your mouldy hollow
skull you would soon thrust out your old nose to sniff the savour of roasting
fat once more."
There was in me at that moment an inclination to laughter; it came to
nothing, but affected me strangely, like an impulse I had not experienced
since boyhood--familiar, yet novel. After the good-night to my neighbour, I
tumbled into my straw and slept soundly, animal-like. No fancies and
phantoms that night: the lidless, white, implacable eyes of the serpent's
severed head were turned to dust at last; no sudden dream-glare lighted up
old Cla-cla's wrinkled dead face and white, blood-dabbled locks; old Nuflo
stayed beneath his green coverlet; nor did my mournful spirit-bride come to
me to make my heart faint at the thought of immortality.
But when morning dawned again, it was bitter to rise up and go away
for ever from that spot where I had often talked with Rima--the true and the
visionary. The sky was cloudless and the forest wet as if rain had fallen; it
was only a heavy dew, and it made the foliage look pale and hoary in the
early light. And the light grew, and a whispering wind sprung as I walked
through the wood; and the fast-evaporating moisture was like a bloom on
the feathery fronds and grass and rank herbage; but on the higher foliage it
was like a faint iridescent mist--a glory above the trees. The everlasting
beauty and freshness of nature was over all again, as I had so often seen it
with joy and adoration before grief and dreadful passions had dimmed my
vision. And now as I walked, murmuring my last farewell, my eyes grew
dim again with the tears that gathered to them.
CHAPTER XXII
Before that well-nigh hopeless journey to the coast was half over I
became ill--so ill that anyone who had looked on me might well have
imagined that I had come to the end of my pilgrimage. That was what I
feared. For days I remained sunk in the deepest despondence; then, in a
happy moment, I remembered how, after being bitten by the serpent, when
death had seemed near and inevitable, I had madly rushed away through the
forest in search of help, and wandered lost for hours in the storm and
darkness, and in the end escaped death, probably by means of these frantic
exertions. The recollection served to inspire me with a new desperate
courage. Bidding good-bye to the Indian village where the fever had
smitten me, I set out once more on that apparently hopeless adventure.
Hopeless, indeed, it seemed to one in my weak condition. My legs trembled
under me when I walked, while hot sun and pelting rain were like flame and
stinging ice to my morbidly sensitive skin.
For many days my sufferings were excessive, so that I often wished
myself back in that milder purgatory of the forest, from which I had been so
anxious to escape. When I try to retrace my route on the map, there occurs a
break here--a space on the chart where names of rivers and mountains call
up no image to my mind, although, in a few cases, they were names I seem
to have heard in a troubled dream. The impressions of nature received
during that sick period are blurred, or else so coloured and exaggerated by
perpetual torturing anxiety, mixed with half-delirious night-fancies, that I
can only think of that country as an earthly inferno, where I fought against
every imaginable obstacle, alternately sweating and freezing, toiling as no
man ever toiled before. Hot and cold, cold and hot, and no medium. Crystal
waters; green shadows under coverture of broad, moist leaves; and night
with dewy fanning winds--these chilled but did not refresh me; a region in
which there was no sweet and pleasant thing; where even the ita palm and
mountain glory and airy epiphyte starring the woodland twilight with
pendent blossoms had lost all grace and beauty; where all brilliant colours
in earth and heaven were like the unmitigated sun that blinded my sight and
burnt my brain. Doubtless I met with help from the natives, otherwise I do
not see how I could have continued my journey; yet in my dim mental
picture of that period I see myself incessantly dogged by hostile savages.
They flit like ghosts through the dark forest; they surround me and cut off
all retreat, until I burst through them, escaping out of their very hands, to fly
over some wide, naked savannah, hearing their shrill, pursuing yells behind
me, and feeling the sting of their poisoned arrows in my flesh.
This I set down to the workings of remorse in a disordered mind and to
clouds of venomous insects perpetually shrilling in my ears and stabbing
me with their small, fiery needles.
Not only was I pursued by phantom savages and pierced by phantom
arrows, but the creations of the Indian imagination had now become as real
to me as anything in nature. I was persecuted by that superhuman man-
eating monster supposed to be the guardian of the forest. In dark, silent
places he is lying in wait for me: hearing my slow, uncertain footsteps he
starts up suddenly in my path, outyelling the bearded aguaratos in the trees;
and I stand paralysed, my blood curdled in my veins. His huge, hairy arms
are round me; his foul, hot breath is on my skin; he will tear my liver out
with his great green teeth to satisfy his raging hunger. Ah, no, he cannot
harm me! For every ravening beast, every cold-blooded, venomous thing,
and even the frightful Curupita, half brute and half devil, that shared the
forest with her, loved and worshipped Rima, and that mournful burden I
carried, her ashes, was a talisman to save me. He has left me, the semi-
human monster, uttering such wild, lamentable cries as he hurries away into
the deeper, darker woods that horror changes to grief, and I, too, lament
Rima for the first time: a memory of all the mystic, unimaginable grace and
loveliness and joy that had vanished smites on my heart with such sudden,
intense pain that I cast myself prone on the earth and weep tears that are
like drops of blood.
Where in the rude savage heart of Guiana was this region where the
natural obstacles and pain and hunger and thirst and everlasting weariness
were terrible enough without the imaginary monsters and legions of
phantoms that peopled it, I cannot say. Nor can I conjecture how far I
strayed north or south from my course. I only know that marshes that were
like Sloughs of Despond, and barren and wet savannahs, were crossed; and
forests that seemed infinite in extent and never to be got through; and scores
of rivers that boiled round the sharp rocks, threatening to submerge or dash
in pieces the frail bark canoe--black and frightful to look on as rivers in
hell; and nameless mountain after mountain to be toiled round or toiled
over. I may have seen Roraima during that mentally clouded period. I
vaguely remember a far-extending gigantic wall of stone that seemed to bar
all further progress--a rocky precipice rising to a stupendous height, seen by
moonlight, with a huge sinuous rope of white mist suspended from its
summit; as if the guardian camoodi of the mountain had been a league-long
spectral serpent which was now dropping its coils from the mighty stone
table to frighten away the rash intruder.
That spectral moonlight camoodi was one of many serpent fancies that
troubled me. There was another, surpassing them all, which attended me
many days. When the sun grew hot overhead and the way was over open
savannah country, I would see something moving on the ground at my side
and always keeping abreast of me. A small snake, one or two feet long. No,
not a small snake, but a sinuous mark in the pattern on a huge serpent's
head, five or six yards long, always moving deliberately at my side. If a
cloud came over the sun, or a fresh breeze sprang up, gradually the outline
of that awful head would fade and the well-defined pattern would resolve
itself into the motlings on the earth. But if the sun grew more and more hot
and dazzling as the day progressed, then the tremendous ophidian head
would become increasingly real to my sight, with glistening scales and
symmetrical markings; and I would walk carefully not to stumble against or
touch it; and when I cast my eyes behind me I could see no end to its great
coils extending across the savannah. Even looking back from the summit of
a high hill I could see it stretching leagues and leagues away through forests
and rivers, across wide plains, valleys and mountains, to lose itself at last in
the infinite blue distance.
How or when this monster left me--washed away by cold rains perhaps-
-I do not know. Probably it only transformed itself into some new shape, its
long coils perhaps changing into those endless processions and multitudes
of pale-faced people I seem to remember having encountered. In my
devious wanderings I must have reached the shores of the undiscovered
great White Lake, and passed through the long shining streets of Manoa, the
mysterious city in the wilderness. I see myself there, the wide thoroughfare
filled from end to end with people gaily dressed as if for some high festival,
all drawing aside to let the wretched pilgrim pass, staring at his fever- and
famine-wasted figure, in its strange rags, with its strange burden.
A new Ahasuerus, cursed by inexpiable crime, yet sustained by a great
purpose.
But Ahasuerus prayed ever for death to come to him and ran to meet it,
while I fought against it with all my little strength. Only at intervals, when
the shadows seemed to lift and give me relief, would I pray to Death to
spare me yet a little longer; but when the shadows darkened again and hope
seemed almost quenched in utter gloom, then I would curse it and defy its
power. Through it all I clung to the belief that my will would conquer, that
it would enable me to keep off the great enemy from my worn and suffering
body until the wished goal was reached; then only would I cease to fight
and let death have its way. There would have been comfort in this belief had
it not been for that fevered imagination which corrupted everything that
touched me and gave it some new hateful character. For soon enough this
conviction that the will would triumph grew to something monstrous, a
parent of monstrous fancies. Worst of all, when I felt no actual pain, but
only unutterable weariness of body and soul, when feet and legs were numb
so that I knew not whether I trod on dry hot rock or in slime, was the fancy
that I was already dead, so far as the body was concerned--had perhaps
been dead for days--that only the unconquerable will survived to compel the
dead flesh to do its work.
Whether it really was will--more potent than the bark of barks and wiser
than the physicians--or merely the vis medicatrix with which nature helps
our weakness even when the will is suspended, that saved me I cannot say;
but it is certain that I gradually recovered health, physical and mental, and
finally reached the coast comparatively well, although my mind was still in
a gloomy, desponding state when I first walked the streets of Georgetown,
in rags, half-starved and penniless.
But even when well, long after the discovery that my flesh was not only
alive, but that it was of an exceedingly tough quality, the idea born during
the darkest period of my pilgrimage, that die I must, persisted in my mind. I
had lived through that which would have killed most men--lived only to
accomplish the one remaining purpose of my life. Now it was
accomplished; the sacred ashes brought so far, with such infinite labour,
through so many and such great perils, were safe and would mix with mine
at last. There was nothing more in life to make me love it or keep me
prisoner in its weary chains. This prospect of near death faded in time; love
of life returned, and the earth had recovered its everlasting freshness and
beauty; only that feeling about Rima's ashes did not fade or change, and is
as strong now as it was then. Say that it is morbid--call it superstition if you
like; but there it is, the most powerful motive I have known, always in all
things to be taken into account--a philosophy of life to be made to fit it. Or
take it as a symbol, since that may come to be one with the thing
symbolized. In those darkest days in the forest I had her as a visitor--a Rima
of the mind, whose words when she spoke reflected my despair. Yet even
then I was not entirely without hope. Heaven itself, she said, could not undo
that which I had done; and she also said that if I forgave myself, Heaven
would say no word, nor would she. That is my philosophy still: prayers,
austerities, good works--they avail nothing, and there is no intercession, and
outside of the soul there is no forgiveness in heaven or earth for sin.
Nevertheless there is a way, which every soul can find out for itself--even
the most rebellious, the most darkened with crime and tormented by
remorse. In that way I have walked; and, self-forgiven and self-absolved, I
know that if she were to return once more and appear to me--even here
where her ashes are--I know that her divine eyes would no longer refuse to
look into mine, since the sorrow which seemed eternal and would have slain
me to see would not now be in them.
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Table of Contents
CHAPTER I
CHAPTER II
CHAPTER III
CHAPTER IV
CHAPTER V
CHAPTER VI
CHAPTER VII
CHAPTER VIII
CHAPTER IX
CHAPTER X
CHAPTER XI
CHAPTER XII
CHAPTER XIII
CHAPTER XIV
CHAPTER XV
CHAPTER XVI
CHAPTER XVII
CHAPTER XVIII
CHAPTER XIX
CHAPTER XX
CHAPTER XXI
CHAPTER XXII