Chapter 111-113

Chapter 111

Cha Jae-woo didn't give any answer, as if what I said out of the blue was absurd.
It wasn't even cold, but my hands were shaking. If I show this as is, will I get
any sympathy? I thought about it for a moment, but somehow it didn't seem to have
any meaning.
Should I pray that I was wrong? I won't do that again. But, does that work?
"You are no different from them... .... Am I right?"
While I was fidgeting, not knowing what to do, Cha Jae-woo opened his mouth. I had
no choice but to imme diately know what he was talking about. Because it was a
message I wrote for him just a few hours ago.
At that time, I was confident that I wouldn't run into Cha Jae-woo for a while. I
even threw away my cell pho ne, which was probably a means of tracking my location.
But I didn't know that Jaehoon Lee would show up.
How did he appear? Maybe the problem was that I called Sol Kim.
It's not important anyway. The immediate problem was how as in front of me.
should defend myself to Cha Jae-woo, who w
... ... sorry."
Of course, there was no excuse. Now you couldn't say that you didn't mean it that
way, that you were differ ent from them. Even if you say that, there's no way Cha
Jae-woo will believe you anyway.
"Do you think l'm going to kill you?"
Cha Jae-woo suddenly got closer. Then, the already shriveled body became even more
compact. He hesita ted, not knowing what to say, but then shook his head.
"Well, not like that... ... I guess.....
They probably brought me here because they needed it, so they won't kill me. But,
when you don't need m e...
Cha Jae-woo neither denied nor affirmed. He felt like his blood was drying up. You
may be thinking about w hether there is a reason to have me by your side right now.
So wouldn't it be better to explain that I am a nece ssary human being to Cha Jae-
woo?

I had an idea, but I couldn't open my lips. It was even more difficult to talk now
than when I first met Cha Ja e-Woo.
One day, I spent time lying down with Cha Jae-woo, giggling and laughing. When he
thought about that, his heart ached.
I feel like a moron.
Why am I thinking about that again now? That won't happen anymore. Because I myself
cannot accept that situation as happily as I did then.
"Thanks to you, it ended in vain."
After a long time, Cha Jae-woo opened his mouth. It was a dry tone, but it
contained a subtle rebuke.
"Because I died comfortably inside the gate without losing anything."
The dry saliva flowed away. I guessed that there were more pipple pushed into the
gate, but when I actuall y got confirmation that they had been killed, my whole
body felt numb.
"That's why I'm angry... ...."
For a moment, my heart sank.
"sorry."
I shook my head urgently.
"sorry. From now on, I will be quiet. Well, uh, I won't. I won't see or hear
anything..
Cha Jae-woo's targets are Jang Ki-jun and Kyung-hoon Cho. Cha Jae-woo told me that
after ruining their h onor, he would kill them.
So, I understood Cha Jae-woo's words in my head. It was strange to say something
was meaningless whe n a person was already dead, but there was no need to bring up
such thoughts. He had to do it even if he did n't understand. If I cherish my life,
which is nothing more than a flying insect compared to theirs.
"After I'm already dead?"

Cha Jae-woo laughed as if my words were ridiculous. He usually liked his smiling
face, but now he was afr aid to even look at it. Perhaps this will continue to be
the case? At that thought, his heart ached without even noticing it.
Why can't emotions follow reason? I tried to calm my mind by taking long breaths.
It's just a little late, but Cha Jae-woo is not a person I can like anyway. And
then I realize that he will never li ke me, and soon all my feelings will
disappear. Until then, you will have to keep your mind straight so that you are not
swayed by your emotions.
"And how can I trust you?"
Cha Jae-woo's fingertips lifted my chin as if to comfort me, who was not
responding. Even though I didn't h ave any strength, I raised my head without any
resistance and immediately met his black eyes. It was a look i n his eyes that made
my whole body tense and it was difficult to guess what he was thinking.
"Hypnosis doesn't work either."
I really wish his abilities would work. Then I would have been able to live in the
flower garden without any p roblems. Then, if it is no longer needed, it will be
thrown away, but wouldn't there still be a threat to one's life?
I don't know. I don't know about Cha Jae-woo. So no matter what assumptions I made,
I couldn't predict ho w Cha Jae-woo would act.
"Guiding..... Don't you need it? Uh, a lot today...... "I think you must have used
your skills."
So, instead of getting caught up in those thoughts, it was better to appeal to
myself as being useful in my o wn way.
You shouldn't be silent about other guides' stories. I've been too complacent so
far. I thought it would be thr own away once its value disappeared. That alone was
heartbreaking. However, this was a story from when m y heart and thoughts were
still alive.
"I thought you had a lot of questions."
However, efforts to change the topic by guiding were in vain. I paid attention to
Cha Jae-woo's words. Of co urse, if facing him in this situation wasn't too
daunting, what I wanted to ask was Taesan.

What happened? Obviously, they didn't just trust the gate to lure Jae-Woo Cha, but
why did it end so easil y? What did they plan and how did Cha Jae-woo deal with it?
But I couldn't get my mouth to drop. I'm afraid my words will be misinterpreted and
make it seem like Cha J ae-woo is dissatisfied with how they were handled.
"Gwae, it's okay. Cha Jae-woo... ... Because I'm strong....... Yes, that's why the
situation ended well......
Also, I didn't want to hear a detailed explanation. I'm still scared, but I feel
like Cha Jae-woo will feel even more burdened if I know how the situation turned
out.
"You're the only one whose mental abilities don't work."
But Cha Jae-woo, as always, did not look into my situation. He usually didn't
answer my questions very wel I, but today the explanation was long. It seemed like
he was trying to show what he could do, and it made me break into a cold sweat.
"Everyone went in on their own feet, to the gate."
"
"Originally, you were planning on letting me in. Because unlike you, I have psychic
abilities. "After letting th em into the gate, they probably tried to let them die
without being able to do anything."
To a certain extent, I expected Kyung-hoon Cho to have attempted to take Jae-woo
Cha's life, but when I a ctually heard it, I was horrified. I realized that they
and I were living in a completely different world.
Why are we so anxious that we can't kill each other? Why are we being pushed into a
situation where we h ave to kill someone to protect ourselves?
"Conversely, I didn't think I would take control of their minds first."
"I guess I didn't expect it to get that far."

"It's unfortunate for you."

Cha Jae-woo said with a smile, as if reminding him of a foolish thought. I
immediately shook my head at the comment that seemed sarcastic.
"Oh, no. It's not that I'm disappointed or anything... ...!"
I just couldn't believe that someone had died and was just scared. I didn't think
at all that it was a shame th at Cha Jae-woo came back alive. I could say that with
certainty.
"I was just worried about Sol. So, that's why I went. "I think that's the way it
should be."
"I didn't care what happened?"
There was a thorn in the question. I couldn't shake my head right away. It wasn't
like that. Rather, it was tru e that I didn't think about it at all.
It wasn't because my feelings for Cha Jae-woo were only the sume, but I knew
implicitly that he wasn't som eone who would be easily offended. So he was
confident that it would be safe. In the first place, there was no way anything
dangerous would happen to. Cha Jae-woo, who had no intention of stepping forward no
matter what happened.
"I just..."
... I did it because I didn't want anyone to get hurt. Jaewoo Cha... ... Because
I'm strong. so...
But killing Kim Sol is too easy for them. Still, there was no one to protect him.
That's why he came forward.
It's the same thing that I have no power, but I can't just let go and pretend I
don't know.
"I won't...
A small voice sounded weak. Can we really never do that again? Honestly, I don't
know. I just hope this situ ation doesn't come up again.
After much thought, I carefully reached out to Cha Jae-woo. He looked at me
intently and then obediently h eld out his hand. I felt like their gaze was
persistent on my trembling fingertips.

I closed my eyes tightly, holding Cha Jae-woo's hand, which somehow felt cold, with
difficulty. I wanted to q uickly start guiding and be alone. Then I felt like I
could breathe a little easier.
My face was distorted and my whole skin tingled. The mana that was supposed to flow
to Cha Jae-woo see med to be particularly difficult to move today.

#112

It looks like he is trying hard not to show off, but unfortunately, Lim Hae-yul's
body trembles slightly against his will. Instead of getting warmer, the hand I was
holding tightly became increasingly cold.
Cho Kyung-hoon, who actually knew that the gate would happen and lured Cha Jae-woo
without telling any one about it, actually fell into his own trap.
It was pathetic that they had planned something like that against me, but
considering how easily I was capt ured by my mental abilities when I was young, I
could understand it to some extent.
Afterwards, Jo Kyung-hoon didn't know that I had also become able to use mental
abilities, so it wasn't stra nge that I met a meaningless end.
No.
It wasn't over. Just today, Cha Jae-woo saw an article about Espers who suffered
misfortune after going to an unexpected gate. He knew the gate was going to happen,
and he hid it on purpose, so it was funny to see it so well packaged.
However, what is more important is that nowhere does it say anything about Kyung-
hoon Cho.
Jaehoon Lee was the same. If their bodies had been found, it would have made
headlines, but if they were n't, it seems that Lee Jae-hoon, who had been thrown at
the gate without any special hypnosis, had woken u
p. Its like grade A.
Since I thought it was a meaningless ending, I should be happy that they survived
like cockroaches. When I heard that they were safe, I felt sad.
... under."
Even I didn't know what I wanted. Unfortunately, the empty laughter that broke out
only stimulated Lim Hae-yul, who was already shriveled up.
"oh
Still, Lim Hae-yul's guiding hasn't been cool these days. It was far below what it
was before.
At first, I thought it was simply a matter of skinship. It was probably the same
for Lim Hae-yul. So, even tho ugh he was trembling like an aspen tree, he readily
opened his arms and embraced me.
However, the more it was done, the less efficient it was. Lim Hae-yul's mana could
not properly stabilize the wavelength and was easily scattered.
It would have been better if he had done this on purpose, but Lim Hae-yul was not
the type of person to co ntrol the guiding in this way. I'm trying my best to do
something, but it just doesn't work. So it was rather frustr ating. It was
impossible for me to solve something that even the parties themselves could not do
anything abo ut.
In the end, Lim Hae-yul's mana, which was supposed to stay inside me for a long
time today and absorb th e waves, was scattered without showing any particular
effect.
"sorry... ...
."
Im Hae-yul, who felt it first, bowed his head and fidgeted with his hands
nervously. It almost seemed frustra ting that I couldn't even shake off the hand he
was holding on to.and that he was watching me.
Since I knew from what day Lim Hae-yul began to have trouble guiding properly,
there was no need to ask him why he was like this.
However, it was difficult for Cha Jae-woo to understand Im Hae-yul. They were
people who couldn't be thro wn away anyway. The fact that Lee Jae-hoon also follows
Gyeong-hoon Cho only concludes that his interests were aligned with his.
Is that not enough? Will things feel a little better after Jo Kyung-hoon is a human
being who deserves to die and all the things he has done?
Will all the things like lowering your head in shock every time you see yourself,
trying hard not to encounter me, and spending all your time locked in your room
without saying a word disappear?
"it's okay."
Hearing Cha Jae-woo's words, Im Hae-yul trembled his shoulders and lowered his head
even more. For so me reason, he didn't seem to change much. He was sure that no
matter what he said, he would look at him a nd tremble in fear.
... ... Well then, that's enough......"
Im Hae-yul hesitated, unable to take his hand away first. Jaewoo Cha looked at him
blankly without letting go of his hand.
Since the guiding was over, there was nothing special to do. There is no need to
pretend to be a lover any more. Because Lim Hae-yul won't accept that.
Did you even know this would happen? I hypnotized myself because I was tired of
arguing and because I w as frustrated with trying to persuade Im Hae-yul, who was
getting angry at me. It was the best he could do as he had never tried to convince
anyone of his thoughts.
However, that method does not work for Lim Hae-yul. Cha Jaewoo was still standing
still. I was curious ab out what I could do to get Lim Hae-yul back to the way he
used to smile brightly and blush when he looked at me. ... ... Only then will the
guiding return to its original state.
"Uh... ... Jaewoo Cha......."
Lim Hae-yul, who had been fidgeting the whole time because I didn't let go of his
hand first, finally mustere d up enough courage to call Cha Jae-woo.
Cha Jae-woo raised his gaze, and for a moment, I met brown eyes that were looking
at me. Of course, he was quickly hidden behind his eyelids.
"uh."
Cha Jae-woo let go of Im Hae-yul's hand. Im Hae-yul then quickly stood up as if he
had been liberated.
Cha Jae-woo didn't want to see him bowing his head and rushing out of the room, so
he looked away from t he window.
"ha...”

The door closed and I heard footsteps, almost running. Accordingly, the sound of Im
Hae-yul's heart, which had been beating rapidly and anxiously, also became distant.
Cha Jae-woo closed his eyes and pressed his temples. He had been suffering from
headaches for a very lo ng time, so this wasn't a big deal. Maybe I had forgotten
about it before, but I couldn't be bothered by the slig ht headache.
Cha Jae-woo turned his gaze to the closed door. Lim Hae-yul's voice was no longer
heard. He barely move
s. Since that day, Lim Hae-yul has been locked in his room silently.
It got on my nerves. In fact, it was annoying not to hear anything, so I went to
the door and came back mor e than once.
The faint sounds of breathing and heartbeat, as well as the sound of clothes
rubbing as he moved his body ever so slightly, strangely calmed Jaewoo Cha.
"ha...
He sighed heavily again. Cho Kyung-hoon and Lee Jae-hoon came out of the gate. And
he's definitely plotti ng something.
I know that, but all my attention was focused on Lim Hae-yul. Rather than wanting
to show off my revenge, I was more worried about how my actions would be viewed by
Lim Hae-yul.
Cha Jae-woo rubbed his face. I know that if you are going to receive this level of
guidance, it would be bett er to find another guide. However, Cha Jae-woo could not
do anything.
I never once considered what the other person thought of me. On that topic, all I
could think about recently was Lim Hae-yul.
How can I get it back? What should I do to return it to its original state, to that
moment?
But no answer came. It felt as if that meant there was no way, so Cha Jae-woo
cursed and tousled his hair.
It's been a long time since I felt confused because I didn't know what to do.

Time passed so quickly. I just stared at the ceiling, but the night quickly passed
and morning came again. T hen it was time to go to Cha Jae-woo for guidance.
1 held on as long as I could, but the steps toward Cha Jae-woo's room were too
heavy. It felt like someone was holding my ankle, telling me not to go. But I have
to go. And I had to guide properly. Because I have to pr ove my usefulness.
But these days, I can't remember how to guide. I could have done much better than
this. When I stood in fr ont of Cha Jae-woo, everything seemed to be forgotten.
Guiding was so bad that it couldn't be compared to before. Thanks to this, Cha Jae-
woo's influence gradual ly began to deteriorate as the days passed.
I'm sure Cha Jae-woo feels it too. I was afraid to know that. I was wondering what
would happen if they tho ught I wasn't guiding them on purpose.
But that's not it. It doesn't work. I tried my best to do it the same way as
before, but it didn't work out the wa y I wanted to. It felt like a dream that I
had been able to guide with ease in the past, even with only a small am ount of
mana.
I suppressed the sigh that was about to escape and swallowed it. Because while Cha
Jae-woo was at hom e, he was trying not to make any noise. I just didn't want to do
anything that might bother him. That way I will be safe.
'But how long?'
My stomach was so stuffy that I felt like I was suffocating. The size of the lump,
which had been reduced wi th great effort, gradually swelled again.
Above all, even though he felt that the guidance was poor, Cha Jae-woo just quietly
accepted it every time.
He couldn't figure out what was going on. My guiding isn't worth it right now.
Other than that reason, there wa s no reason why he didn't bring another guide.

I held my breath as best as I could, rolled up the blanket and closed my eyes. I
don't know what Cha Jae-w oo is thinking anyway. I didn't even want to know in the
first place. You won't be able to understand unless yo u look into it.
No, I was scared and hated it because I felt like I would be even more afraid of
him if I found out.
... ... "Why does it hurt so much?'
I pressed my throbbing chest and bit my lip.
I don't want to be afraid of Cha Jae-woo. He didn't even want to hate. But I can't
do that, so it seems like I k eep getting sick.

#113

It's been a while since Cha Jae-woo went out. Just the fact that he wasn't home
gave me some breathing r oom. He was even careful about breathing, so it seemed
natural that his frustration would be relieved.
Of course, nothing changes just because Cha Jae-woo is away from home. Because I
have no intention of I eaving the house. No, I wasn't planning on going out of the
room.
At least until I was able to guide as before, and probably until Cha Jae-woo's
anger subsided, I wanted to a void doing anything that would get on Cha Jae-woo's
nerves as much as possible.
"ha......
Of course, I was worried that guiding would continue to be like this. I think I was
doing this because I was s cared and scared of Jae-Woo Cha, but the fear wouldn't
go away as time passed, so the road ahead was dau nting.
Won't I get angry because of the guiding later? Wouldn't it be thrown away as
useless? No, it was okay up t o that point. It would be better if it was just
thrown away. From that day on, Cha Jae-woo appears frequently i n my dreams,
strangling my neck with a cold face.
On days like that, I felt heavy in my chest all day long. Because I think he might
kill me. So I was scared an d heartbroken.
If it's scary, it's scary. If it's sad, it's sad. How great would it be if you
could only have one emotion? It's defin itely my mind, but unfortunately I can't
figure it out myself.
"...
After rubbing my heart area as a habit, I lay down on the bed.
There isn't much I can do without.making a sound, so I just lie down like this all
the time these days. It was difficult to think about it for a long time, but I was
able to tolerate it because I was more concerned about not wanting Cha Jae-woo to
recognize that I was there.
I don't know how long I just lay there so quietly. Then it seemed like he fell
asleep.
"... ... Haeyul."

I frowned and opened my eyes with difficulty at the sound of someone's voice that I
couldn't hear in this spa ce. Is it a dream? If it wasn't a dream, there's no way
Kim Sol would be in this room.......
"Did you sleep?"
Kim Sol asked me as I blinked blankly. The sight of him opening my door and coming
in was too vivid to be considered a dream.
"....... "Sol hyung?"
It was only later that I jumped up from my seat. The feel of the blanket and the
hazy feeling of sleep awake ned my sense of reality, but I still couldn't believe
it, so I pinched my thigh.
"huh."
Surprisingly, it was real.
This is the situation where Kim Sol, whom I had not been able to see since that day
and had never even th ought of seeing, was walking into Cha Jae-woo's house and
into my room.
"Uh, what happened? No, is it better than that?"
Kim Sol did not sit down right away but stood at a distance. Then I scratched my
cheek and sighed softly.
"I asked you first if you were okay... ...
The words spoken with a humble face gradually became quieter. As my head also
bowed, I quickly stood u
p.
"You haven't seen me since that day. "Are you sure it's okay?"
Then he pulled Kim Sol and asked him one after another.
I'm sorry, but I couldn't think of Kim Sol until now. Originally, I should have
been curious about Kim Sol's wh ereabouts from the beginning. Although Lee Jae-hoon
told him it was okay to go, he couldn't confirm whether Kim Sol really returned
safely.

However, my mind was so consumed by fear that I couldn't count other things, and I
had forgotten about Ki m Sol until now. Maybe Cha Jae-woo even reached out to Kim
Sol.......
"you."
"yes?"
"are you okay?"
Cha Jae-woo's face, which came to mind for a moment, disappeared at Kim Sol's
question. I hesitated, but then he nodded. Because it's not like something
happened. Actually, Cha Jae-woo didn't do anything. I'm so s cared, I'm just
holding my breath.
"I'm fine. "Has anything happened since then?"
I raised the corners of my mouth with an effort. Of caurse, now fknow that Kim Sol
is not necessarily as go od a person as I thought. But strangely enough, he still
didn't look bad.
It would have been unavoidable. I guess he did the best he could. I felt
comfortable thinking that way. Mayb e I want to do that more because I don't have
anyone to turn to right now.
"1 am... ... "Nothing happened."
thank god."
I forced the corners of my mouth to smile harder. Anyway, he appeared in front of
me just fine, so even if so mething had happened, it wouldn't have been a big deal.
But how did Kim Sol get here?
.. Actually, I thought it was over because Cha Jae-woo was looking for me."
Before I could question it, Kim Sol muttered as if he had heard me.
Ah, Cha Jae-woo found him. But why? With a question in my mind, my eyes
automatically turned to the do orway. However, the door was tightly closed, and Cha
Jae-woo did not appear.
"They iust brought me here without saying anything."

...... is it so?"
"Could it be that he came to me to make me apologize?"
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"No, maybe you think that because I wanted to apologize. of course... ... *I know
it doesn't end with an apol ogy."
I didn't answer anything. I just couldn't think of anything to say.
Sol Kim came and sat down next to me without saying another word. In the delicate
silence, I looked at the door that wouldn't open several times. Are you afraid that
it will open, or are you waiting for it to open? I didn't want to think about it
for too long.
"... ... how have you been?"
I consciously looked away and looked at Kim Sol. Kim Sol hesitated, but then she
obediently opened her m outh.
"I was just at home. beforehand... .. "I couldn't find it anywhere because I was on
vacation."
"iced coffee."
"Actually, I thought about running away...... hmm. "I guess I should say that I
gave up halfway because I th ought I would get caught anyway."
roughly nodded and muttered to his words.
"You really got caught."
He may have been afraid because he failed to trap Cha Jae-woo. However, Kim Sol
immediately shook his head at my words.
"No, honestly Cha Jae-woo...
"I was more worried about Cho Kyung-hoon."
.. "Are you Jo Kyung-hoon?"

"That's right. Anyway, it didn't cause any harm to Cha Jae-woo. However, he thought
about whether he was angry because he dragged you into it, but he was generally not
interested so he thought he could move on.
"But Kyung-hoon Cho is a different story."
I quietly listened to Sol Kim, but I couldn't understand it. Why is Cho Kyung-
hoon's story coming out now? I didn't see it myself, but I was certain he was
thrown into the gate. Then he would have died, so why worry ab out him?
"brother. Cho Kyung-hoon...... "He's dead."
Strangely, I was hesitant to say anything, so I asked very cautiously. Maybe it was
because I unconsciously expected Kim Sol to immediately twitch his eyebrows as if
he was embarrassed.
"Didn't you hear?"
... ... What?"
"Cho Kyung-hoon. And some Espers, including Lee Jae-hoon, were not inside the
gate."
"That means...... "I guess that means it's alive somewhere, right?"
I sighed softly and shook my head. Because I thought of course he would have died.
In fact, I was too caref ul to touch my cell phone and stayed still, so I didn't
see any articles or anything
I also avoided reading articles about the gate because I thought it would be
overwhelming. But Jo Kyung-h oon and Lee Jae-hoon escaped from the gate,
then... ... What happens?
I suddenly remembered Cha Jae-woo, who was becoming more and more distracted day by
day. No matter how hard I tried to guide it, it wasn't working, and the lump inside
was getting bigger as the days went by.
I wanted to pretend like I didn't know and just take care of things like that, but
that didn't work out the way I wanted to. Dry saliva passed over me.

Is it okay? An absurd fear boiled over. I had no reason to worry about Cha Jae-woo.
Whatever happens to him, I have to pretend not to know.
Then, one day, this feeling I had for a while will disappear. Until then....... So,
until then, I have to consciou sly ignore Cha Jae-woo.
"brother...
"huh."
"I'm not good at guiding."
But, why can't l do that?