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1st week: buwan ng wika 8/31, feeling of doubt

2nd week: laag ug falls, boredom

3rd week: having troubles understanding people, dire straits

4th week: the future, picture day

1st week, entry 1:

While having a cup of coffee, I was reminiscing the times of buwan ng


wika this past week. I didn’t expect much since I don’t usually attend these
types of events since I can easily sneak off at my old school. But since
Brokenshire is somewhat a small school and teachers were taking
attendance regularly, I attended since I don’t have a choice, and I was not
disappointed. It was a fun event, being able to cheer on our class
representative till our throats give out gave me a feeling of community and
connectedness in this school. I was feeling down that week and was missing
home, this was able to keep me of my mind of it a bit and have fun in this
new environment. After all of the events in the gym we ate the food that we
bought for the whole class to enjoy, that was my dinner for the day and I
brought home some for the fam. After the day had died down, I took a stroll
and reminisced about the events in my old school. It made me wonder, what
if I hadn’t sneaked out some of the events in my school, would it be fun? We
will never know. It might be, but if you compare the fun I had in my old
school and in this new one, I would say 50/50.

1st week, entry 2:

I was working on stuff that needed fixing and while doing this, a
thought came out of my mind. I have been doubting myself much more
lately. I was losing trust in myself; I thought but I didn’t know why or how. I
thought up of scenarios that happened lately that supported this thought,
like playing chess. I would play against people and win most of the time
against skilled players, as well as solve difficult puzzles fast. But now I
noticed that when I play, I doubt the thought process behind my logic and
lock myself in a position of freezing. There is also a scenario in solving math
problems. When answering I would mentally block myself and sometimes
forget crucial steps, making mistakes in a result. Doubt has clouded my mind
and the confidence I once had has been brushed in a sense. I also doubt that
this isn’t losing confidence but instead me turning rusty and unpolished. I’m
starting to think that the reason to this is stress, but I doubt it since I don’t
feel stressed. I don’t know anymore

2nd week, entry 1

Me and my family decided to go on a trip to the falls to cool off since


we have been dealing our fair share of stress. We rode in a convoy and after
3 hours of driving we took a detour to my uncle’s place so we could go fetch
him. We drank some coffee and we were back on the road, after another
hour of driving we finally arrived. The only downside being we have to hike
down a steep path to go to the base of the water falls. What made my
situation worse is that my uncle was bringing his toddler along and he has
arthritis which means that I have to carry my cousin as well as some
equipment and food on the way down. Though I thought of it as a challenge
so it would be more fun. We made our hike as my dad led the way and my
following. My mother was with my uncle and aunt going at a slow pace since
they were struggling a bit. After an hour of hiking, we step foot on the base
of this majestic waterfall, along side it is a lush moss wall covered in all types
of ferns, wild flowers and moss. We set up our spot, took a few drinks and
grub, and swam in the river. We had our fun but this would be instantly
crushed since the way up would be more difficult, It was already hard going
down. With bag on my back, toddler on my arms, we trekked upwards. After
all of that I was panting hard like a dog and was sweating bullets. It was fun,
but damn I’d rather just jump off on the way down lol.

2nd week, entry 2

This day I had been studying nonstop because for some reason I had
this boost in focus. I didn’t ask questions and just did everything in record
pace. I was breezing through my subjects and nothing would stop me. After
that I would just do my chores of the day and then I realized why I had this
urge to work hard. This was because I was attracted to someone. This was
not a crush but instead an admiration. They were my inspiration to work
harder and be a better person for them. After gathering my thoughts, I heard
something ringing, and it was my phone alarm. Then I woke up. It was all a
dream.

3rd week, entry 1


As I grew older, I realized that life is full paradoxes and contradictions.
For example, A chili pepper produces capsaicin to make them spicy and
protect themselves, yet we humans domesticated it for its spiciness. Some
even made it even spicier. A person can be cruel and unforgiving to
themselves yet so nice and gentle towards others. Also, business is a
paradox. In order to make money, you have to spend it. Life sometimes
doesn’t make any sense, but I guess that’s what makes it beautiful. A life full
of paradoxes, seemingly to contradict each other yet compliment them so
well. It creates this uniqueness only experiencing life can give you, and it’s
what made me love life even more.

3rd week, 2nd entry;

During this past week its been rough, I’ve been internalizing the
problems that are going on in our household and now I have to make a
choice that could really affect the course of my life. My mother has decided
that she would go abroad to apply for a teaching job while me and my father
stay her for a bit. We also decided that dad will follow my mom into abroad
while I study here since I want to study at the PMA, if I pass however. What
stressed me out is that what if I don’t pass the physical or written exams. So,
I’ve been searching for opportunities for a scholarship colleges with medical
courses, particularly med-tech.

4th week, entry 1

I’ve grown to crave for silence. My life has been nothing but full of
stimulation and noise. When I’m at home, I have my responsibilities as a son
to uphold. When I go to school, I noticed my self being more silent than
usual, not wanting to talk to anybody since my social battery is depleted.
And even when I take breaks, I seem to always catch myself scrolling
through my phone until the dead of night. This endless stimulation had
numbed my brained to the point of craving for boredom. Yet, every passing
moment without it makes me feel anxious and alert. Aquascaping, an old
hobby of mine that I find the most relaxing is what I have been wanting to do
this past month. Being able to design your own aquarium with different types
of plants and woods, as well as different fauna like shrimps and fish, gives
me this sense of calm. In the past, after working on a project, being able to
see your finished work and just stare at the creatures in this aquarium is
such a soothing experience that I crave so badly today. I just hope I could
have the time and money to get my old equipment back from tagum city. I
crave for silence, or at least serenity.

4th week entry 2

This week will be preparation for our pictorial for our yearbooks.
Getting to dress up in formal attire and go do mundane tasks is oddly
amusing to me. I was a bit confused on what to wear since I’ve been bored
on always wearing all black in formal, so I decided to explore a bit. With our
theme being classic vintage, I instantly imagined my grandfather where he
wore a suspender and a bowtie in his pictures. To honor him, I did exactly
that. So, I went to the mall and got what I needed, a pair of trousers, a bow
tie, and a hat to add a bit of flare into my attire. Then, I got the idea of using
the brief case that my grandfather gave me before he died, and it fit so well
with the theme. On the day of the pictorial, we went on the same old routine.
Taking the uniform photos first then getting to dress up. I was fairly confident
on what I was wearing so it gave me motivation to try out poses for the
pictorial, but when it came to my turn, I became so awkward to the point of
shaking. Thankfully that was over so I get to rest a bit and tidy up so that we
could hang out with my friends for a bit. We went to the mall, grabbed some
food, then walked to get a ride home.

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