you all over me

Posted originally on the Archive of Our Own at http://archiveofourown.org/works/43068765.

Rating: Explicit
Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Category: M/M
Fandom: 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS
Relationship: Jeon Jungkook/Kim Taehyung | V
Characters: Bangtan Boys | BTS Ensemble, Original Female Character(s), Original
Male Character(s)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Age Difference, jungkook is 24, taehyung is 31,
seokjin is jungkook's dad, sideships minimoni and sope, Jeon Jungkook
is a Brat, Kim Taehyung | V is Whipped, Kim Taehyung | V is Bad at
Feelings, Engaged Kim Taehyung | V, Internalized Homophobia, toxic
parents, Getting Together, miscommunication...like they are so annoying
sometimes, Explicit Sexual Content
Language: English
Stats: Published: 2022-11-14 Completed: 2024-12-12 Words: 112,371
Chapters: 8/8
 you all over me
by milaskv

Summary

Jeongguk knows it's wrong to fall in love with his dad's best friend and he didn't mean to but
what else was he supposed to do when the man is everything he's ever wanted?

Notes

finallllyyy, this fic is off of twitter and safe at home in ao3. shout out to ennelle for the help
with copying and pasting. and to mimi for helping me learn how to format text messages in
ao3. ily both so so so much.

that being said, since this is copy and pasted, please forgive if there are any mistakes or weird
formatting places. this has taken me every bit of the last three days and i'm exhausted. dskfs
i'll fix any errors eventually.

P.S: if some small things seem different than twitter that's because i fixed a few minimal plot
holes hehehe
 tell me about your past, i hope your future is me.

ME (jjk)
Remember when you asked what I want for uni graduation?

Mr. Kim 🤤
Yes. I also remember that your graduation has passed and I gave you your gift already. Plane
tickets to Europe was a nice gift, no?

ME (jjk)
Right…well.
I’ve always been such a diligent student.
Not much time for friends or socializing bc I've been so devoted to my studies and being a
good son.

Mr. Kim 🤤
What is your point, Jeongguk?

The tickets are non refundable. I can see about getting a credit instead.

ME (jjk)
No…no…I was thinking…
You should come with me :)
Since you’ve been before and can show me around.

Mr. Kim 🤤
What about those friends of yours? They can’t join you? That was my intention.

ME (jjk)
Jiminie is in the middle of his internship for grad school.
Namjoon and Hoseok are both so busy with their new jobs.

Mr. Kim 🤤
So your plan is to replace your friends with your father and i?

ME (jjk)
Not Appa.
Just you. I’m not going to travel around Europe with my father, he’s boring and old.

Mr. Kim 🤤
I don’t figure it’s very appropriate for me to join you on vacation.
Surely you can find someone else to join you. It is your gift to do whatever with.

ME (jjk)
But you’ve helped me so much with my studies over the years…it’s like rewarding yourself
as well.
Mr. Kim 🤤
I helped you because I’ve been friends with your father for the last six years.

ME (jjk)
Okay.

Mr. Kim
Okay??
🤤
ME (jjk)
I bet Mr. Lee would love to join me! We’ve bumped into each other a few times out and he
was fine without my father around and surely didn’t try to kill my buzz :)

Mr. Kim 🤤
There’s a reason your father doesn’t keep him around. He’s not good company, in the
slightest.

ME (jjk)
But he’s fun soooo.

Mr. Kim 🤤
Is it impossible for you to go on this trip with people your age, Jeongguk?

ME (jjk)
Well youuu are only seven years older than me, which isn’t much at all in comparison to Mr.
Lee. But it’s "Inappropriate” for you to join me. So what am I meant to do?

Mr. Kim 🤤
How can someone that is 24 years old be so infuriatingly bratty?

ME (jjk)
Is it so wrong for me to want to go on a fun trip with you?

Mr. Kim 🤤
Let’s say I were to agree to going on this trip, how do you suppose we will spend our time?

ME (jjk)
Idc what we do! I just want to explore and you’re so familiar with those countries. You can
show me all the places you frequented when you studied there!

Mr. Kim
Fine.
🤤
ME (jjk)
Really? 🥺
Mr. Kim🤤
I’ll meet you tomorrow to discuss details. Come to my office around 11.
ME (jjk)
Omff
Omg I can’t wait
See u tomorrow 💛

ME (kth)
Hyung, did you know that Jeonggukkie wants me to go with him to Europe? Wants me to
show him around our old Uni.

Jin-Hyung
He hasn’t said a word to me of course. That boy…I’m sorry. I know you have much bigger
things to worry about, I’ll talk to him.

ME (kth)
No worries
I’ve been wanting to go visit anyway.
Then you don’t need to worry about him ending up dead.

Jin-Hyung
He will still find a way to turn my hair gray…
I’m too handsome to have the stress of a father, want a child?

ME (kth)
Absolutely not.
Pops 😈
Come straight home after your meeting this afternoon.

ME (jjk)
How do u know I have a meeting?

Pops 😈
Do you really think my closest friend won’t tell me that my son is begging him to follow him
to another country?

ME(jjk)
I’ll just feel more comfy if Taehyung-hyung goes with me. 🥺
Pops 😈
Jeongguk…I know that he’s young and that’s why you like being around him more than my
other friends. But that doesn’t make this any less inappropriate.
We will talk later.

ME(jjk)
Well he already said yes and I'm a literal adult. 😀
Pops 😈
An adult who still lives under my roof.
Or did you forget that I’m the one who pays your bills?

ME (whores GC)
Holy shit
Sos
S…O…motherfucking…S
HELP ME

Jiminie-hyung
You ok baby?
Joon-hyung
What’s up?
Hobi-hyung
We’re here, where are you?

ME (whores GC)
Okay so yk how I was like "Hahahah wouldn’t it be crazy if I talked my dad’s sexy bff into
going to europe w me??

Joon-hyung
I am getting bad feelings about this….

ME (whores GC)
I somehow managed to convince him f??!?!!
Last night
✨ ✨
And now I'm sitting in his car that he sent for me to bring me to his office so we can
have lunch and plan our trip!!!!!!
Aka might be getting the best dick of my life in a few weeks and I'm freaking out

Jiminie-hyung
I'll bet all the money in my wallet your dad ends up coming
Hobi-hyung
That’s literally not even enough for a bottle of water
Jiminie-hyung
Fuck you!

ME (whores GC)
Hey, don’t fight pls this is important!!!
Do I ask him to take my virginity before the trip, so that the tension is already gone? Or do I
build up the anticipation and make him want me on the first day so we have super steamy sex
in a foreign country?

Jiminie-hyung
Baby….what makes you think he is willing to do this anyway? He’s literally your dad’s best
friend…was the best man at their vow renewal??? You think he won’t have a problem with
this?

ME (whores GC)
Oh, don’t even get me started about the vow renewal I TOLD you the way he looked at
me….he wanted me. Literally had appa not cock blocked me by parading around his "Son”...i
would’ve gotten him that night.

Hobi-hyung
You had hardly turned 18…that man wouldn’t have touched you with a ten foot pole my love.
ME (whores GC)
That doesn’t matter…
We’re talking about now…
And NOW I am a grown man and sexy and I think waiting six years is long enough.

Joon-hyung
Do you want my opinion? Or shall I keep it to myself?

ME (whores GC)
If your opinion is anti - Jeonggukgettingrailedbyfattestcock opinions than I don’t want it.

Joon-hyung
I think that regardless of any attraction or budding relationship you think you may have…
whatever Mr. Kim feels for you won’t go anywhere. You’re setting yourself up for not only
embarrassment, but to ruin what could be a really great experience.
And just remember that he probably only said yes because he’s the one who bought you the
flights, so he wants to make sure they are utilized and that you have a good time.

ME (whores GC)
You suck
Jiminie :(( hyungie :((

Jiminie-hyung
I'm sorry my babe…i don’t think it’s a good idea. It feels like a disaster waiting to happen. I
don’t want you to get hurt.

ME (whores GC)
I feel really confident about this…i wish you guys supported me.

Hobi-hyung
It’s not about whether or not we support you? You could decide to be a concubine for fucks
sake and we’d support you. But we don’t want to see anything bad come from this?

ME (whores GC)
I would be Mr. Kim’s concubine.
No hesitation
I would live strapped to a bed in a chamber just for him

Joon-hyung
Oh fucking christ, we KNOW
We’re here for you, no matter what. We have your back.
Jiminie-hyung
I will also have ice cream and Marvel movies ready for when it’s time to wallow in
embarrassment and self pity.

ME (whores GC)
Well I'm here, wish me luck!! 😚
"Hi" Jeongguk feels intimidated, he hasn't been to his father's company in a really long time.
"I have an 11:00 with Mr. Kim Taehyung."

He recognizes Jisoo and is surprised the woman is still their receptionist. She seems equally
surprised to see him, "Floor ten, office A13, Jeongguk. Should I let your father know you are
here?" Shaking his head as he bows politely "He already knows, thank you."

Jeongguk is nervous.

Somehow being back here makes him feel small, knowing that he's about to have lunch with
Taehyung makes him feel small. But he has to hype himself up now because if he's this
nervous over lunch how the hell is he supposed to survive a week in Europe?

It's not even the lunch itself that's making him nervous. more so the fact that Taehyung's
presence is overwhelming. Felt that way since he first met him and thinks it's absolutely
brutal for the universe to place them in each other's lives with such a thick wall between
them.

He knocks on the door a little too quietly, realizing this only when minutes pass and nothing
happens. But right when he goes to knock harder the door opens and his fist collides with
Taehyung's chest.

"Oh, sorry, I was just wondering if you got lost. Jisoo said you were here"

"I guess I didn't knock loud enough." takes a seat at the small table close to the window.

This building is so tall. Fitting for Taehyung's office to be somewhere looking over the entire
city like the god he is.

"Jeongguk?"

"Huh?" brow raising when Taehyung clears his throat

"I asked about your plans for Europe. Details. What are you wanting to see? accomplish?
enjoy?"

And boy is that question loaded. rubs his palms over his thighs because he feels bad,
minimally. Because Taehyung so innocently agreed. Having no idea that Jeongguk's ideas of
things they can accomplish are far worse than his own. "Ah, you're one who likes to make
detailed itineraries huh hyung?"

Glancing up from the plate. Watches as Taehyung is placing half of the portions onto it for
him, "Makes it easier to draw lines Jeongguk-ah. you'll learn this more and more, lines are
important. they help us stay on track."

Taehyung's eyes are telling. The way he intently stares into Jeongguk's when he finishes his
sentence. "Help me draw the lines."
And Taehyung clearly wasn't expecting that because his sharp expression falters. Slips to
something softer, unsure, his eye twitches and Jeongguk kind of likes it. But he knows it's
because it's Taehyung and he's incapable of disliking anything this man does.

"Well, it is a gift trip, so it shouldn't be too overloaded with things that feel like work. so we
should pick only a few educational stops. some for fun and pleasure too."

"I'll have to look into the nightlife. see what kind of fun is out there, I'll be honest, I don't
normally plan these kinds of things. I'll just go with it."

Taehyung finishes chewing his food and the subtle smirk on his face has Jeongguk feeling
weak in the knees.

"I've come to learn that about you. Spontaneous little thing."

And maybe he just found one thing he doesn't like... "I'm twenty four, not little. don't treat me
like a child if you're going to come on this trip with me."

It’s amusing and infuriating for him to watch the way Taehyung's nostrils flair. Jaw clicking
momentarily before he nods and shakes his head "Didn't mean it in the way you took it. my
apologies."

"How did you mean it?"

And he tries to push but Taehyung gives nothing. Leaves not even an ounce to his
imagination when he wipes his mouth and stands from the small table. Heads straight
towards his desk to grab his coat. "I have a meeting across the street in fifteen minutes.
You're welcome to finish your meal and then leave."

"Not just gonna eat alone like a loser in your office."

"I eat alone all of the time."

Jeongguk can't help the way he smiles at that, sticks out his tongue just a little as he rushes
out the door quicker. Even thinks he heard Taehyung call him a brat on the way out.

ME (whores GC)
Is spontaneous an insult or a compliment?

Joon-hyung
Neither. It’s just an adjective.

ME (whores GC)
.....any other thoughts? Having a small crisis.

Jiminie-hyung
Depends on the person, tbh. If someone likes going with the flow it’s a compliment…but if
it’s from someone who prefers structure, then they probably meant it as an insult. Y’know
Type-A people…

ME (whores GC)
Mr. Kim called me a ‘spontaneous little thing’ today. Idk how I feel about it.

Jiminie-hyung
What was the context?

ME (whores GC)
Trip planning..when I was at his office earlier. I mentioned that I don't normally plan things
out. God, he looked at me all sexy-like, smiling at me when he said, "I’ve noticed that about
you, spontaneous little thing”
Is that not flirting? It felt like flirting!!!?!@?!

Jiminie-hyung
I think you’re reaching a bit :((

Joon-hyung
You’re gonna over-analyze everything that man says on this trip, aren’t you?

Hobi-hyung
I dunno….call me crazy….but with a sexy smile, I think it’s flirting 👀
ME (whores GC)
And that’s why you’ve always been my favorite.

Pops 😈
Are you at home?

ME (jjk)
You told me to come straight here didn’t you?
Or did you forget that you’re reverting me to my teenage years?

Pops 😈
I will call Taehyung immediately and put a stop to this trip. Do not try me, son.
I’m not reverting you to your teenage years but we do need to have a proper conversation.
Unfortunately..your mother has sucked me into a dinner with her colleagues. So I won’t be
home.

ME (jjk)
Wow
And here i’ve been waiting all by myself.

Pops 😈
Listen, Taehyung is being nice by accompanying you so that you don’t go alone. Whatever
game you’re trying to play or whatever it is that you’re seeking to get out of this, drop it.

ME (jjk)
What do you think I'm trying to play?

Pops 😈
You think your mother and I aren’t aware of the way you behave around him? The way you
have always behaved around him?

ME (jjk)
I don’t treat him any differently than anyone else.

Pops 😈
My point is don’t make things uncomfortable between me and my closest friend.
His personal life is complicated right now, the last thing he needs is more complications.

ME (jjk)
What do u think I'm going to do? Plague his lifestyle? It’s a week long vacation, I'm not
telling him to quit his job.
I LOVE the support I'm feeling from my father right now. It’s clear how highly you think of
me.

Pops 😈
You’re taking everything incorrectly. I’m looking out for you.

ME (jjk)
Enjoy your dinner, pops! I’m gonna go complicate some of my friend’s lives.

Pops 😈
Jeongguk, please don’t take things wrong. I just know how you get fixated on ideas and you
don’t give up until they blow up in your face. I don’t want my friendship to be a casualty of
that. Your mother and I have given you a lot of freedom from a young age. Don’t take
advantage of our willingness to let you make your own decisions by doing something that
would affect more people than just yourself.

ME (jjk)
I definitely need to see a beach. Any beach.
Preferably Malta, but anything will work.

Mr. Kim 🤤
Malta is beautiful. It is weirdly beautiful in the cold months like we are going.
Consider it added.

ME (jjk)
Also, should I call the airlines and let them know we don’t need the third ticket?
Maybe you can get a credit.

Mr. Kim 🤤
Oh, no worries. My friend Min Yoongi will be tagging along with us. He’s a bit closer to your
age.
You don’t mind, do you?

ME (jjk)
Oh.
Yeah, that’s cool.

Mr. Kim 🤤
He has some people to meet up with over there, so he’s mostly just mooching the free ticket.
But he may visit a few spots with us.

ME (jjk)
Whatever

Mr. Kim 🤤
Are you upset?

ME (jjk)
No

Mr. Kim 🤤
Alright, let me know if you think of more things to add to our list. We don’t have much to do
as of right now.
Goodnight, Jeongguk. We’ll talk soon.

ME (whores GC)
Idk
Ugh
I may have been wrong about everythingg

Hobi-hyung
You ok?

ME (whores GC)
Mr. Kim invited a third party to our trip
Any hopes for a romantic moment are pretty much trashed

Hobi-hyung
:( im sorry bub
Is it a friend of his?

ME (whores GC)
He claims this person is just taking advantage of the free ticket
But he’s riding with us to the airport and staying in our hotel
Sooo

Jiminie-hyung
Don’t you have separate rooms anyway?

ME (whores GC)
Idk anymore
Idk anything bc Taehyung took control of all the planning and I'm trying not to be super sad
but I can’t help it
Maybe appa was right. I do fixate on things until they blow up in my face.

Jiminie-hyung
Don’t give up yet okay? Just wait it out and see what happens.

Joon-hyung
Jimin’s right, Guk! Just leave it up to chance and find out if there’s even a space there for
you.

Hobi-hyung
Yesss. No expectations!! But leave your mind open to anything.

ME (whores GC)
I'll try
Thanks hyungs :(

ME (kth)
Jisoo said you tried coming by during my lunch?

Jin-Hyung
Yes! Wanted to see if you got everything lined up before you leave thursday? Anything
hyung can help with?

ME (kth)
No, I think we’re all good. Has Jeongguk packed?

Jin-Hyung
His suitcase has been by our front door since Sunday evening. He’s only a bit excited…

ME (kth)
Yoongi’s already packed too..I guess I’m the only slacker.
Jin-Hyung
Oh? I didn’t know Yoongi was joining.

ME (kth)
He has a project to do with one of Marisol’s sisters. Some demo he’s working on. He
mentioned it over dinner one night so I offered him the wasted third ticket.

Jin-Hyung
Speak of the devil…How is Marisol?

ME (kth)
As good as an ex-fiance can be..? Honestly, she’s been..amicable so far. Although here father
is incessant that this is a phase and I’ll "Take her back”.

Jin-Hyung
Does her father not know..?

ME (kth)
He has too. She is too spiteful of a woman to keep it a secret that I slept with her brother. If
she did keep it a secret, I have no idea why. Unless..

Jin-Hyung
When will you know?

ME (kth)
Three weeks. So I’m just going to forget about it and enjoy Europe. I’ll fix my shit show of a
life when I get back. I just want this nightmare to be over.

Jin-Hyung
You know Lia and I have been hoping for nothing but the best. No matter how messy life
becomes, Hyung will always have your back.

Mr. Kim 🤤
Do you have your passport?

ME (jjk)
Yes

Mr. Kim 🤤
Notified your bank of international travel?

ME (jjk)
Yes

Mr. Kim 🤤
Withdrew some cash to exchange?
ME (jjk)
Yes, I'm not a child.

Mr. Kim 🤤
Did you pack comfortable shoes? Your video camera? Extra battery pack?

ME (jjk)
Yes, yes, yes.

Mr. Kim 🤤
I’ll be by at 4 a.m. to pick you up.

ME (jjk)
Ok I'll be ready

Mr. Kim 🤤
Yoongi said he will meet us at the airport. He doesn’t wanna wake up earlier than necessary
to carpool.

ME (jjk)
Ok

Mr. Kim 🤤
Jeongguk, are you no longer excited?

ME (jjk)
No no, ofc I am!
Idk
Just feel weird
Anxious maybe?
It’s a new place that I know close to nothing about
And I don’t know the language at all, on top of sucking at communicating anyway.

Mr. Kim 🤤
I know enough, don’t worry. Everything will be okay and we will have a great time.
Get some rest yeah? I’ll call you when I’m on my way in the morning.

ME (jjk)
Goodnight.

Mr. Kim 🤤
Goodnight, Jeongguk.

ME (jjk)
For the record, I am excited.
I promise to be in a better mood tomorrow :(

Mr. Kim 🤤
You don’t need to promise me anything. I just want you to genuinely have a great time. I
know it seems scary but I promise once we’re there you’ll be more than fine. I was terrified
when I moved for university. But the people(for the most part) are incredibly lovely and
welcoming. Don’t worry.

Jeongguk's never claimed to be the brightest ray of sunshine in the morning. But damn if
Taehyung isn't way too energetic for 4 a.m. radiant when he stands at the doorway, eager to
help Jeongguk with his luggage.

"Is your father awake?"

Jeongguk nods and gestures towards the kitchen, taking it upon himself to walk towards Mr.
Kim's car. Situated in the passenger seat and head falling against the cool glass, he's just
ready to be away from here.

"He always so..dead..in the morning?"

Seokjin hands over two freshly made to-go coffees with the warmest smile "Gets it from his
mother, neither of them are pleasant early in the morning. but this will help." Taehyung takes
both cups with a smile "Well, I guess we better get out of here. you didn't have to make us
these, so thanks, hyung."

"Listen.." he sighs "I know that we talked before about Jeongguk's...fondness for you"

"Hyung—"

"Just tell him if he's being too much, alright? he doesn't listen to me and he's really hard
headed. I don't want you to be uncomfortable during the vacation."

Taehyung truthfully doesn't remember much about the conversation they had about a year
ago...they were both rather buzzed and the conversation was brought on by Taehyung making
sure Jeongguk got home safely one night. "Jeonggukkie doesn't make me uncomfortable, do
you really think i'd have said yes to this if he did?"

"Absolutely, you loved Europe"

"Not enough to be trapped there with someone I don't get along with." he smiles trying to be
reassuring.

Unsure if he's reassuring Seokjin or himself by the way his stomach churns something he's
not used to.
"Everything will be perfect. but I should really get going. I'll text you when we land."

Taehyung places the two coffee cups in the console holders before he looks up to see
Jeongguk already snoring softly against the window.

He doesn't feel uncomfortable, in the slightest.

But he can't help but wonder, should he?

"Hey, wake up." he speaks softly trying not to disturb the other passengers "You slept the
entire drive here, how are you still sleepy?"

"Couldn't sleep last night, hyung" Jeongguk curls further into his seat. using his jacket as a
blanket.

"Well we're about to layover"

"Don'wanna get up."

"It's not an option, I'm sorry." he pats Jeongguk's knee a few harsh times to try to really wake
him up "We have to switch planes, unless you want to be stuck here by yourself"

Jeongguk's eyes finally open, super slow before a small smile forms on his face, "Kay, I'm
up"

"Sleep well?"

"Coulda been better. was really cold"

The flight attendant calls a few things out to their cabin before the plane lands, Taehyung
reaching to their overhead bin for their carry-ons.

"You can use my jacket on the next plane if you need another layer"

Jeongguk doesn't say anything other than a small nod. Because he's drowsy and can't speak
properly, but his chest feels warm at the suggestion. Doesn't even question the way Taehyung
carries both of their bags until they reach security.

He just feels so..comfortable.

As it would turn out, they are are sharing a room, Jeongguk found the moment they received
keys to the same hotel room. it is a suite that takes up a large section of an entire floor.

Each bed has its own closed door room. With a shared bathroom, living room and kitchenette.

Taehyung clearly splurged on the place and if he's honest, he's actually a little sad that
Namjoon and Jimin couldn't come. They'd be freaking out over the vibes of this place. and
the view from each bedrooms balcony is incredible.

He's in the middle of snapping photos to send to their group chat when he can hear Yoongi
and Taehyung talking. "I'll be gone most of the time, but I'll probably be back to sleep a
couple of nights. I shouldn't bother you guys too much"

"You're never a bother, Alanis has been waiting for this opportunity for a long time."

Peeking through the cracks he can see Yoongi smile, hand scratching behind his neck "I'm no
big shot or anything, but I'll do my best to make sure she is heard"

"Are you meeting up tonight? or in the morning?"

"probably in the morning, not going to lie I'll most likely sleep from now until then. long
plane rides kill my body"

He sees Taehyung's body turn towards his room and retreats like he wasn't eavesdropping.
Not that he heard anything private, they're talking openly. but now that they're all here,
Jeongguk feels a little out of place. The confidence he had when he asked Taehyung to join
him has nearly vanished and he's wondering why he put himself in this position.

A gentle knocking on the door tells him Taehyung is there and he opens it easily "Hi"

"So, what do you think?"

His chest feels lighter when Taehyung smiles. body tall as he walks over to the bench at the
edge of Jeongguk's bed and leans against it. "It's so beautiful here. I really can't believe you
paid for all of this."

"This is where my parents stayed when they came to visit me, they said the property was so
remarkable that they purchased it when the old owners retired."

Jeongguk didn't know that.

Jeongguk is realizing very quickly that there is so much he doesn't know about Taehyung.

"They're so happy to have us here, they made dinner reservations for us in the restaurant on
the roof. I don't think Yoongi will be joining us though"

His palms feel clammy when he steps over towards the window. Jeongguk can feel
Taehyung's eyes on him and the room seems to be swallowing him whole. "I can't thank you
or them enough. this is amazing."

"Just enjoy yourself while you're here. that is thanks enough."

He stands and goes to exit the room "I'm going to answer a few emails and rest for a bit. If
you want to go out just come knock."

"Okay"
When the door closes, Jeongguk sinks into the plush mattress.

He has no idea what he's gotten himself into.

Pops 😈
Taehyung told me you’ve arrived. How is the hotel? Did you rest on the plane?

ME (jjk)
Yes, slept most of it. HIm and his friend are asleep now. I’m just watching TV until they
wake up.

Pops 😈
Did you open the envelope I put in your bag?

ME (jjk)
I didn’t know there was one…
Appa…i don’t need this

Pops 😈
Despite how you may feel, your mom and I are so proud of you. You’ve been the son many
parents can only hope to have. Enjoy your vacation and treat Taehyung to at least one meal. I
love you!

ME (jjk)
I love you too pops, thank you!

Marisol
Alanis said you’re in Europe?

ME (kth)
Yes

Marisol
How long will you be gone?

ME (kth)
Not sure.

Marisol
You really feel nothing for me? You have no desire to make things right?

ME (kth)
Let’s talk when I get back. I’m trying to enjoy myself.

Marisol
Must be nice to run from problems.
ME (kth)
I wasn’t trying to run. I’ve owned up to every single thing I’ve done. You want me to be
someone I’m incapable of becoming, Marisol.
You and I both know you don’t want me. We look good on paper and that’s it. Who are you
trying to fool?

He didn't realize that the bedroom directly next to his own was Taehyung's.

Learns this when he steps out onto the balcony and is greeted by the smell of cigar smoke and
Taehyung's surprised eyes.

"I figured you'd be resting"

"I thought you were going to be sleeping, hyung. Not smoking...you're killing the crisp
European air."

Taehyung's cheeks rise up to his eyes with the way he smiles, takes one slow drag of the cigar
before he puts it out on a small tray.

"I'm so sorry, your highness."

Amused by the way Jeongguk stands there a little dumbstruck. Not knowing what to say but
he doesn't have to, because Taehyung stretches before calling out, "Gonna walk until I find a
place for coffee. wanna join?"

Jeongguk goes to reply, but notices by the way Taehyung's already nearly back into his own
room that the man already assumed his answer would be yes.

And he was right.

"Does my dad smoke, too?"

They've been walking for several blocks now but haven't found a cafe just yet. it's colder than
he expected and regrets wearing only a thin jacket.

"No, I actually don't smoke often. hardly ever..only when I'm really anxious or stressed"

The silence following the sentence is awkward, only because Taehyung must know that
Jeongguk is going to ask—"What's got you stressed?"

"A lot"

"Does it have to do with that Alanis girl? or this trip in general?"

"No, of course not. this trip is actually the highlight of my life right now...as pitiful as that
sounds."
He shouldn't feel bitter by the comment, but he does. "Well, this is the highlight of my life
right now too. but I don't think it's pitiful."

Taehyung looks to his side while Jeongguk does his best to hide the way his face begins to
form a pout. he refuses to give Taehyung any reason to tease—

Though an almost non-existent puff of air leaves his mouth when he feels Taehyung
wrapping his thick crimson scarf around his neck.

"Your cheeks are red, you should've wore something warmer."

"I'm okay.." he says, trying to pretend he's not basking in this

The warmth of the fabric heating up his face as well as the fragrance of Taehyung's cologne
tickling his nose...Jeongguk's thankful for the chilly weather because Taehyung won't be able
to see the rosy flush of his cheeks.

"But thank you, hyung"

Taehyung nods with a soft smile, brushes the back of his hand against Jeongguk's elbow to
get him to stop walking and turn into the small cafe they've finally found.

Jeongguk is realizing quickly that his plans of wooing Taehyung on this trip will certainly
falter if he can't tame the part of himself that acts like a teenager in front of his crush.
Especially when Taehyung places an order for them while Jeongguk picks a table. It's so easy
to let himself fantasize about if this were a date. Wonders if they'd be the obnoxious kind of
couple that cuddles up on the same side of a table booth. Or would Taehyung be the type to
subtly touch the tips of their shoes under the table. Fingertips brushing while they speak, with
warm cups of coffee between them and cool air outside. Can't help but think Taehyung has to
be romantic in some way...even if judging solely on the man's manners.

Realizes how dangerous his delusions are when Taehyung's fingers tap against his forearm
across the table. Curious smile on his face "Where's that mind of yours wandering off to?"

Jeongguk rolls his eyes as a cappuccino is placed in front of him, sips it and feels the warmth
seep through his entire body, "Lots of things"

Taehyung's brow raises and his expression changes "I'm listening..."

"I'll tell you, once you tell me what has you so stressed."

Check mate.

Surely Taehyung, the most private man he's ever known, wouldn't give in so easily— "I was
engaged. I don't think you knew that."

His entire mental chess board flips over.

"Yeah.. wow. I definitely had no idea."

He wants to cry.

His entire body feels like he's sweating and he peels the scarf from his neck. placing it beside
him along with his jacket.

Jeongguk needs to breathe.

"It wasn't for love or anything of the sort." Taehyung waves his hand like it's nothing.
Because he clearly has no idea the way he just single handedly crumpled Jeongguk's heart
with a few words.

"It's more of an arrangement than anything else. we met when I studied here."

"Her parents worked for my parents sister company. which have since merged into one. the
marriage was simply a power move on her family's side. a foreign girl marrying one of the
most eligible bachelors but there's never been anything there."

Jeongguk's nearly finished his entire drink already when Taehyung stops, grabs the cup from
his hand with concerned eyes "Are you alright?"

"Yeah.. sorry." tries to laugh it off, knows he must be doing a horrible job "Must be the jet
lag."

"We can head back if you want, or I can order you something else? I don't think you should
have another coffee though."

"I'm okay, really! keep talking...i didn't mean to interrupt."

Taehyung's face is so unreadable right now.

Jeongguk has no idea how to interpret the expression he has.

"Long story short, it's been a nightmare. and we had agreed at one point to an open
relationship...seeing as, there weren't any real feelings involved."

Jeongguk's frown is inevitable and he just has to say it "You were really okay with marrying
someone you feel nothing for?"

Taehyung nods with a soft smile, "I did grow feelings for her a bit. She was kind and funny
and really sweet. but quickly I learned that she's my complete opposite. Last holiday season
the biggest ex of my life, I dated him in university, came home and asked to meet up."

Jeongguk may as well have been punched in the gut the way Taehyung's story just keeps
getting more and more unpleasant.

"I agreed to meeting up for some closure...having no idea that his mom was recently married
to her dad. so you can imagine the nightmare when he and I hooked up, only to see each
other the next night at the family holiday party."
Jeongguk's body has completely sagged into the booth. He feels lifeless right now, with no
choice but to keep listening. hoping there's some ending to this story that he doesn't hate.

"Marisol and I got into a huge fight that evening. because she thought we were no longer in
an 'open' relationship...which to be fair—" he takes a rough bite out of the pastry that was
untouched on Jeongguk's plate "We had never spoke in regards to the 'open' status. so how
was I to know? and it only made matters worse that it was her step-brother."

He lets out an exaggerated breath. unable to control the way he smiles at Jeongguk's listening
face. doe eyed and ears turned up.

"I called off the wedding a couple of months ago. I don't want to marry her. she doesn't want
to marry me. it's been torturous ever since with her dad insisting we continue with the
nuptials"

He tries not to make it obvious, he wants to play it cool, but Jeongguk scoffs. Lips pursing
and arms crossing his chest "Don't marry someone you don't love, hyung. it'll be the biggest
mistake of your life"

"Is that right?" the curl of his lips is simultaneously charming and infuriating "Are you
speaking from experience?"

Taehyung knows that he isn't. but he still asks and leans back into his seat with a knowing
grin on his face.

Jeongguk hates how attractive he is.

"Just know you'd regret it. would probably meet someone that's perfect for you and have no
choice but to break their heart because you're already taken."

Taehyung's smile falls and his eyes divert towards the window "Do you see why I smoke,
now? My life's a disaster."

"I don't think it's a disaster unless you let it be one. you're a grown man, if you don't want
something you can say no."

Taehyung's eyes find his and something flashes through them that makes the hairs on
Jeongguk's neck stand up, "I really hope you're right, Guk-ah."
ME (whores GC)
My life is over
Mr. Kim’s mind is nowhere near on the same path as mine
Basically I'll be spending the next five days fantasizing and he’ll be thinking about his ex???
Hahahhaha that’s waiting for him back home
How’s your day going? :)

They make plans to visit three different art museums tomorrow on their walk back to the
hotel.

Jeongguk made a poor attempt at returning Taehyung's scarf, but the man was all too quick to
place it back around his neck.

Tucking the ends over each other and smiling when he's done, "Cant have you catching a cold
on our first day"

Jeongguk hates how comfortable Taehyung makes him feel. and he hates how his heart won't
even let him be delusional anymore.

Because Taehyung's heart is somewhere torn between a guy and a girl back home.

While Jeongguk's here hoping for the tiniest bit of a line to hook onto.

He's silent the rest of the afternoon, holes himself on the balcony with a book until dinner
time rolls around.

He's not mentally prepared for dinner with Taehyung because he's terrified to learn more.

Because Taehyung's only talked about how his engagement means nothing but he didn't
spend too many details on the ex.

The biggest ex of his life, he said himself.

What if he's still in love with him?

Is this person just sitting around waiting on him to return?

He can feel his own heart cracking as he finishes getting ready for their dinner.

Jeongguk's on a mission to find out more about the ex—even if it means he has to break his
own heart.
"Jeongguk-ah.."

His eyes find Taehyung's easily when he stuffs a piece of bread into his mouth

"Hmm?"

"Why are you so quiet? i've never heard you so silent in all the years i've known you"

He could lie and make up an excuse but for some reason he chooses not to.

Because Taehyung's eyes are so sincere and the concern is dripping all over his features.
making Jeongguk feel comfortable enough to be honest, "I'm thinking about you. well, your
situation."

Taehyung seems clearly taken back by his response not expecting Jeongguk to say, "It seems
like you're in a tough spot between lovers. that must be really hard, being torn between real
love and fake love"

Takes a sip of the beer in front of him as he looks out over the ceiling to floor glass windows.
the views from the rooftop are even more stunning than their balconies.

Tries to use the city lights as a distraction from the pounding of his heart in his ears as he
waits for Taehyung to respond.

To say anything at all.

Something to satiate his masochistic need to get to the bottom of this.

But Taehyung's laughter breaks through the silence. making the space between them light and
airy, "I'm not torn between lovers. I'm just trying to live my life but one of them won't leave
me alone"

Jeongguk's heart picks up its pace.

"I guess I misunderstood, I thought you wanted to be with your ex but found out it's her step-
brother?"

Taehyung begins cutting the meat that's between them immediately, Jeongguk too focused on
their conversation to notice that Taehyung gave him all of the largest pieces.

"I don't want to be with him, Guk-ah. it was more of a last hurrah, for old-times sake. any
magic that was once there is gone. I just want to find myself again. I don't want Marisol
breathing down my neck and I don't want to worry about in-laws to please. I want to be able
to take trips like this and enjoy my time away without worry. I also don't want children. and
she does."

"Polar opposites" Jeongguk says with a sympathetic smile. trying to mask the overwhelming
buzzing in his gut. he shouldn't be enthused about any of this.
"Exactly." Taehyung clears his throat, head shaking as he brings another bite to his mouth
"She's claiming she may be pregnant."

Jeongguk's fork falls to the ceramic plate. it's got to be some sick joke.

"I know it's not possible and if she is, it couldn't be mine"

"How do you know?" he tries not to sound upset. he has no reason to be! but he's certain
Taehyung can sense the panic in his voice.

"Because we haven't slept together in months, Jeongguk. Many months. If she were pregnant
by me the child would be practically here by now"

"Good, well—i mean, for your sake! if that's not something you want, it would only make
things more complicated."

"I know she's trying to use anything to get me to stay right now...I've never been good at
breaking people's hearts."

What a lie.

What a lie.

What a lie.

"Some things are meant to break.." he shrugs, a last ditch effort at maintaining nonchalance
"Its a part of life."

"University has made you wise, hmm?" Taehyung is glowing, when he smiles at Jeongguk
and raises his own beer to gesture for a toast "Thanks for inviting me. though the gift was
from me and I was merely a consolation—I really needed this time more than I think I even
realized"

"You promised to make my time here something to remember, right?" gnaws on his lip before
clearing his throat "So keep your promise, hyung."

Jeongguk stops off at the small hotel gift shop while Taehyung pays their bill.

Finds some earrings that Jimin and Hoseok would absolutely die over. and what kind of a
friend would he be to not bring them something back?
So he is standing up at the counter when Taehyung walks up and stands impossibly close
beside him.

Arms brushing and peaking over his shoulder, "What did you find?"

"Just some jewelry for my friends"

Taehyung smiles and sneakily inserts his own card into the pay terminal before Jeongguk can
even open his wallet.

"Why do you keep buying my things.." he says quietly. taking the bag from the cashier who
only gives a cheeky smile before he faces Taehyung with round eyes.

"Consider today's treats a thank you for letting me unload. I'd been needing to get some of
that off of my chest. you're a great listener"

Jeongguk never found himself to be great at anything. but he doesn't mind listening to
Taehyung.

Even if some of the words did something foul to his heart...Taehyung's voice soothed over
each ache and left him feeling better than before.

Lets his arm brush against Taehyung's as they wait for the elevator, "I'm all ears, anytime you
need to talk"

"I'll be sure to remember that" Taehyung smiles incredibly soft and cheeks a bit red.

Jeongguk is too happy right now to even focus on the fact that Taehyung's hand on his back
guided them into the lift.

And it stayed there until they exited onto their own floor.

"You're up early?"
Peels his eyes from his phone to see Yoongi heading towards the kitchenette "Figured you'd
sleep in with how late you two got back from dinner"

"We're hitting the museums uptown today, so can't afford to sleep in"

Yoongi nods silently and Taehyung can tell that he's thinking something but whatever it is, he
doesn't say it.

"I'm about to head out to the recording studio, I don't know what time I'll be back. don't
worry about waiting for me to go to dinner tonight"

"But you said you wanted to go to the piano bar restaurant with us!"

"I do, but I'm not going to rush Alanis and I don't want to keep you both waiting"

Taehyung tsks to himself "We wouldn't mind waiting. just send a text when you're headed
back. I'll keep Jeongguk-ah busy"

A loud snort follows his sentence that Taehyung quirks a brow at "I don't doubt that at all"

"What do you mean?"

"Nothing, Tae. nothing at all" he shrugs with his cup of coffee and retreats into his room.

Taehyung spends a short amount of time in the kitchen, preparing some eggs and toast and
putting them on plates.

Is about to knock on Jeongguk's bedroom door when it opens and the man's standing there
shirtless with messy hair and pouted lips.

"Sorry, hyung. thought i'd be the first one up"

Makes his way past Taehyung without hesitation and lets out a sleepy groan when he reaches
the kitchen "Your breakfast smells so good, it's unfair"

Taehyung's fingers curl under his own chin when he chuckles "It's your breakfast, Guk. eat."

Jeongguk's eyes open a little wider and Taehyung can't help the small offense he feels at the
shock, "Why would you cook me breakfast?"

"Because I was awake and cooking"

"But—"

Taehyung shakes his head and it's across from him, nudging with his fork at Jeongguk's toast
"Must you question everything I do, or will you enjoy your meal so we can get ready to
leave?"

And Taehyung surely misses it but Jeongguk can't ignore the way his heart races.
Taehyung's eyes are so soft, yet striking when he speaks. Tone near scolding and maybe he's
just sleepy but good god that man is so attractive he can hardly breathe.

When choosing his outfits for the trip, Jeongguk did not do the best job of selecting clothing
that fits the weather. So he's left with no choice but to grab the crimson scarf still hanging on
his bedroom door to pair it with his outfit. His long sleeve shirt is soft and warm but the cut is
low and leaves much of his neck and chest exposed. He wasn't going to mention it if
Taehyung didn't, but the man has an incessant need to make all of Jeongguk's delusional
thoughts run wild. "You should probably keep it" Taehyung speaks over his shoulder, they're
waiting to purchase admission to their first museum of the day when he says "It looks way
better on you than it ever did on me. Red's not my color"

And Jeongguk disagrees.

He thinks that any color would look exquisite paired with Taehyung's charm and style.

But he'd be a liar to say that he doesn't want to keep it.

They're through the first exhibit and Taehyung? is amazing.

Truthfully, Jeongguk knew he had an overwhelming crush, he's held it for so long. But all of
the ways that Taehyung makes his heart leap, he could've never prepared himself for.

Listening to the man get excited over every piece. making sense of scribbles and splashes of
paint that have no meaning to the average eye.

Taehyung sees beauty where there's cracks in the canvas. He sees envy and anger when deep
greens spill into lines of red. Talks about how the colors blue and grey feel so similar to him.
resonating with sorrow and sadness that's incomparable. But nothing makes Jeongguk's heart
beat louder than when Taehyung pauses in the last room.

The walls are empty, with four dim flood lights filling the room with the most brilliant shade
of amethyst. Highlighting the silhouette of two people on the wall in front of them.

They've kept a reasonable distance for the most part but Jeongguk can feel Taehyung step
closer

Voice low when he speaks, "This room just screams love, doesn't it?"
"How do you figure that one?" looks towards him with a teasing smile, not expecting the way
Taehyung returns his gaze so smoothly

"Purple bleeds. It's loud. There's nothing subtle about the way purple speaks to you. I think
love is similar. Love is loud. Even people who are quiet in the way they show affection don't
realize how loud their love is from the outside looking in. Have you ever looked at the color
purple and thought to yourself, 'that's such a dull color'?"

Jeongguk shakes his head and brings the cup of water to his mouth. Sips on it to quench the
dryness building in his throat

"I think love is the same. No version of love can be dull, it sometimes burns slow like a flame
dying out, but it can also be electrifying, like lightning striking a metal post and rattling the
earth. Love is loud. Purple is loud."

It doesn't make sense, really any random person would probably think Taehyung's smoked
something he shouldn't but every word he said made perfect sense in Jeongguk's mind.

As if Taehyung himself hung these purple lights and drew the outlines of the people on the
wall.

"Purple is my favorite color" Jeongguk blurts out like an idiot because he has no idea what
else to say.

Not when Taehyung speaks so eloquently and leaves his mind a jumbled mess. Not helping at
all when Taehyung flicks beneath his chin with a fond giggle "Of course it is."

Their second museum visit goes over with ease. Jeongguk somehow allowing himself to feel
more comfortable.

To speak up when he likes something and to try to help Taehyung interpret things.

They stop for a quick snack before heading to their third stop of the day which has Taehyung
bouncing on the balls of his feet.

"I must warn you, I am an absolute simp for any piece of art created by Van Gogh."

"Is this why you saved this special exhibit for last?" follows Taehyung through the doorways
and thinks that watching the way the man's eyes light up may be his new favorite past time.

And Jeongguk feels himself grounding down to earth just a bit.

Because going into this trip he had a very immature mindset. he didn't care about getting to
know Taehyung as a person, he wanted to get to know him in the most /intimate of ways.

But this feels better.

It feels so much better to have their arms brush as they walk and the way Taehyung grabs
onto his elbow to show him something he may have missed.

To listen to the way he thinks and focus on what makes Taehyung /him.

Is learning all too well, why his ex-fiancé is doing anything in her power to keep him.

Taehyung is radiant.

His aura is filled with warmth that swallows Jeongguk whole. especially when the sun is
going down and they catch a taxi to their dinner spot.

Taehyung sliding in beside him and tugging on the fabric of the scarf to straighten it out, "I
hope I didn't bore you too much"

"You didn't! at all" smiles and feels like he's allowed to scoot closer "I really had such a great
time with you today"

Taehyung's smile reaches his eyes when he pats Jeongguk's thigh "You'll love this restaurant
too. I hope Yoongi can make it, he'll love it as well"

Truthfully Jeongguk almost forgot Yoongi joined him, seeing as they've been by themselves
theses first two days.

Wonders if Taehyung will treat him differently with Yoongi around, finds himself a little
nervous.

Because it may all be his own delusion but he feels like Taehyung is trying to get closer.

Can feel it when he speaks and watches it in the way the man's eyes follow his every move.

Doesn't want any of it to stop because he wants to show Taehyung a side of him he hasn't
seen

The worry slips away when they take their seats at a secluded booth in this piano bar.

Yoongi texted that he'd be late but he'd be there and right now? Jeongguk can't wait for him
to arrive.

Because this place is amazing with people singing karaoke along to piano versions of their
favorite songs on stage—and none of their time together has ever felt even close to a date.

Except for this.

Because Taehyung orders their drinks and Taehyung slips the scarf from his neck to place it
on the empty seat beside him and Taehyung pulls him closer by the knee to show him where
the audience can request songs on a little tablet and Taehyung is just invading all of his space

It's so loud so he has no choice but to speak right into Jeongguk's ear every time he asks a
question or tells him something he didn't know.
"You should sing something, when in rome, right?"

Taehyung clinks their glasses together before sipping on his own

"We aren't in rome, hyung."

"Close enough" he waves off "C'mon, a little bird told me you have an amazing voice. that's
why I brought you here"

"Dad—"

"It wasn't your dad." he insists, eyes pleading "I want to hear you sing, Jeongguk-ah"

A few more drunk volunteers take the stage before it's empty and no one is left in the queue.

Coincidentally perfectly aligned with Taehyung's requested song and it's been years before
Jeongguk's held a microphone to his lips but he takes a shot and goes up there anyway

Because Taehyung makes him feel a little wild and he kind of wants to make the man smile.

When the first few chords of 'falling' ring out, he feels nervous.

Palms sweaty and knees shaking because this song is so slow and leaves nothing but his
vocals on display.

But the words spill out of his mouth so easily.

'What am I now? What if you're someone I just want around?

I'm falling again, I'm falling again, I'm falling'

His eyes didn't manage to find Taehyung's a single time. because he's so nervous he feels
nauseous and the spotlight is too bright

But when he finds his way back to their booth, where he notices now that Yoongi is also
seated,

Jeongguk's cheeks burn red with the way both men greet him with piercing whistles.

Similar to the ones the crowd left behind him and it felt amazing to sing like that again but
now he's down from the high and a little embarrassed

That is until Yoongi is busy adding some requests to the tablet and Taehyung's hand rests
against his warm cheek when he speaks against his ear, "I could listen to your voice forever"

Jeongguk feels like he's floating. when he's freshly showered and recapping their day to
himself. Nearly spins around his bedroom because he feels so happy. His heart feeling loads
lighter than it did yesterday. feels like he cracked through a layer of Taehyung
Not expecting to be met with him once again when he goes to take a seat on his balcony. "I
was sure you'd go straight to sleep after all of the drinks you had at dinner"

Shakes his head with a soft giggle, "I didn't have that many hyung, and we ate a lot of food."

"Sobered you up a bit, huh?" smiles and leans over the railing, their balconies touch and
Jeongguk wants to walk closer but he doesn't. just stays seated but he does lean up, eyes
focused on Taehyung's "What are you looking at?"

The man shakes his head with a smile he tries to keep to himself, "Something that I
shouldn't."

"What do you mean?"

"Nothing, Jeongguk-ah. what would you like to do tomorrow?"

"I don't know.." sighs and looks out over the city "Anything"

"You've got to pick something, we can take the day and go to Malta tomorrow if you want? or
we can save that for the last day since you're most excited for that?"

Jeongguk almost forget he mentioned Malta.

Jeongguk's mind is a little lost in the clouds right now "Whatever is fine, we can decide
tomorrow"

"You should get some sleep"

"You should too"

Taehyung shakes his head and steps away from the balcony, rubs his fingers through his hair
and Jeongguk is about to go crazy

"I have a feeling I won't be sleeping much at all, this week"

"Why?" he asks because he feels the same. because he can't stop think—

"Just too much on my mind. I had so much fun today, you helped me clear all of the noise"

It's silly, Jeongguk knows it's silly, to feel a painful twinge in his heart.

He doesn't like the idea of Taehyung's thoughts surrounding an ex.

He doesn't want to be the only one unable to stop thinking about this.

He doesn't want to be making it all up.

He desperately wants to not feel delusional, "Will I need to drag you to bed myself? you look
like you could fall asleep right here"

Taehyung's voice pierces his spiraling thoughts.

"I'll go to sleep, if you make a promise to me?" he stands and walks towards where their
balconies meet.

Extends a hand with his pinky out that Taehyung smiles at before linking his own with it.

"promise to only have happy thoughts when you lay down? think about all of the art we saw
and the beautiful music we heard at dinner. don't think about anything that makes you feel
blue and grey.. promise?"

And Jeongguk's heart about falls to the floor when Taehyung tugs on his hand pulling it
closer...only to press his lips to his own thumb before letting theirs touch, locking the promise
in "I promise.." Taehyung says softly "I'll only think about things that make me feel purple"

His breath slows before he smiles and backs away "Goodnight, hyung"

"Goodnight, Jeongguk."

Jin-Hyung
How are things going?

ME (kth)
Great! Visited 3 art museums and then took Jeongguk and Yoongi to that Piano restaurant I
was obsessed with in Uni.

Jin-Hyung
Oh wow. Did he enjoy it? He used to love singing at karaoke nights.
I wish he would’ve gone on stage!

ME (kth)
He did! It was incredible.

Jin-Hyung
Huh?
Jeongguk or Yoongi?

ME (kth)
Jeongguk! He sang Falling by Harry Styles

Jin-Hyung
What?!
Did you record it?
Please tell me you recorded it

ME (kth)
I'm sorry, I wasn’t even thinking to. It was spontaneous and we were just enjoying the show.

Jin-Hyung
It’s okay…I'm just…wow. I’m speechless. I haven’t seen a microphone in his hand since he
was in High school. I wish I could’ve seen it.

ME (kth)
He was amazing. I’ve never heard a voice like his before.

ME (whores GC)
I'm so confused. Taehyung gives me so many mixed signals. Idk whats going on anymore.

Jiminie-hyung
Elaborate, little one?

Joon-hyung
Did something happen?

Hobi-hyung
Yes, baby, we need context.

ME (whores GC)
Nothing major happened. It’s just so many little things. He takes care of me and listens to me
and stands so close and winks at me.
But in the same breath he’ll tell me a story about a coworker or something he’s done with my
dad and it just…i feel like there’s a barrier we’ll never be able to cross.
Last night we were talking on the balconies and he got so close…

Jiminie-hyung
Balcony romance?!!

ME (whores GC)
Hardly…we were separated by a railing but idk hyungs. The way he was looking at me…
just. Ugh. and I made him promise something and I swear to GOD I thought he was going to
kiss me!

Jiminie-hyung
A promise??

Joon-hyung
So he didn’t kiss you?
Hobi-hyung
A kiss?!!!
ME (whores GC)
No he kissed my thumb to seal our promise.

Jiminie-hyung
Thats so fucking cute what?!

Hobi-hyung
Have you made any moves…?

ME (whores GC)
Well I had planned on it but when we got settled in…i just couldn’t help but think that
Taehyung is the type of person I could actually see myself in a relationship with?
Like we get along so well…and he’s perfect. I just don’t want to ruin my chances at that by
being rash and immature. I also think i’d feel better if he made the first move, than it
wouldn’t feel like I'm preying on his kind heart…

Joon-hyung
But..

Jiminie-hyung
Joon

Joon-hyung
Hear me out, what if he won’t make the first move? You’re his best friend’s son. I can’t
imagine he would feel comfortable moving in on you. He probably feels like the predator.

ME (whores GC)
We’re grown men. If we met in any normal club that night instead of my parent’s vow
renewals, noone would bat an eye.

Jiminie-hyung
You’re not wrong bub. But that doesn’t change the fact that now he’s been in your life for six
years…and all six of those years he’s been by your dad’s side. :/

Hobi-hyung
They have a point! I don’t think hope is lost…but it’s not going to be as easy as cracking a
surface layer. You’re going to have to dig deep.

ME (whores GC)
I'll dig as deep as I have to. We’re driving all the way to the beach and spending the day
there.

Joon-hyung
How fun can the beach be when it’s freezing?

ME (whores GC)
Everything with him is fun..I'm going to get ready. I’ll text you tonight..maybe.
Jeongguk had full intentions of returning the favor and cooking Taehyung breakfast.

Except when he exits his bedroom the man is already completely dressed and sitting on the
sofa, "You about ready? this is the kind of outing that takes all day, spontaneous little thing"

His mouth kind of gapes. caught somewhere between speechless and exasperated. "It's not
spontaneous if we planned it, hyung. and I wanted to cook you breakfast."

"We can find somewhere to eat on the way, unless you're starving right now?"

"No, no.. I can wait" nods to himself and twists on his heels "I'll be ready in just a minute!"

And Jeongguk may be physically ready on the outside but his insides are an absolute mess.
Taehyung's wearing a loose blouse with a tan long coat. his slacks are fitted at the ankle and
hug his body shape beautifully. Jeongguk won't look half as amazing, when he pulls out a
pair of jeans and the nicer of the two hoodies he packed.

Looks at himself in the mirror a few times before he meets Taehyung again in the living room
with his camera strapped to his wrist, prepared to capture some ocean photography. Feels the
way Taehyung glances him all over. Steps right into his space with that same scarf in his
hands, "Am I going to have to give you lessons on studying the climate of a location before
you travel?"

He can't help the way he discreetly inhales the barely there remnants of Taehyung's cologne.

"Why would I need that, when I have you?" his smile is confident despite the way his
stomach churns.

Walks right out the front door because he can't bare this conversation any longer.

But Jeongguk is so excited for today.

"Have you heard from our baby? he has hardly texted me at all."
Seokjin finds his wife's eyes with a smile "He's hardly texted me either but I talked to
Taehyung last night. they're having a good time."

He watches her take a slow breath and already knows what she's thinking

"Apparently Jeongguk sang at a karaoke bar"

"Really?"

"Mhm. Taehyung said he was amazing."

"I'm worried about him, Jin."

Nods because he knows. he's worried too.

But he has no choice but to let Jeongguk make his own decisions and he's surely in no place
to police Taehyung.

"He seems to be enjoying himself, let's just be thankful he's able to do that."

"You have to sit still if you want the photo to turn out right" Taehyung giggles from behind
Jeongguk's camera lens.

Pointing it at the behind view of the man standing out over the horizon. The lens is so good it
even captures some of the small flecks of ice in the water.

"It will capture it, just snap the pictures hyung!" And Taehyung does, keeps clicking the
shutter over and over. Watching through the eye of the camera as Jeongguk poses with the
sunlight behind him.

Shadow casting beautifully on the sand, moving his position and twisting on his heels.

Smile wide and eyes nearly shut.

He's beautiful.

Far more beautiful than this beach or the sky.

Taehyung finds himself foolishly about to speak on it when another figure comes into frame.
Apparently Jeongguk's(his) scarf flew off in the wind. Jeongguk too mesmerized by his view
of the ocean water and Taehyung too captivated by his view of Jeongguk to notice.

Keeps his distance as the stranger hands the scarf over. Attempting to speak english to
Jeongguk who's own english is broken as well. Watches the guy reach into his pocket for his
phone and feels his arms slowly lowering the camera.

No longer capturing pictures. eyes focused on the exchange. Watches the way Jeongguk
wraps the fabric around his neck after typing something on the stranger's phone. That bright
smile is back and Taehyung hasn't a clue why his entire body feels like it's burst into flames.

Begins to exit the sidewalk through the sand over towards Jeongguk as the stranger gives a
small wave and retreats on his own. Catches himself nearly asking what that was about, but
he only smiles. extends the camera towards Jeongguk, "Ready for lunch?"

The restaurant they sit at is incredible. it's on the rooftop of an exquisite hotel. glass windows
surrounding the entire floor with the most impeccable view of the city and the beaches below
them.

"I like beaches better in the cold" Jeongguk starts as they wait on their meal

"Not so many people crowding it. these pictures you took for me are so great, hyung."

Taehyung shakes his head and brushes the comment off

"I think that has more to do with the subject and the camera, than the one pressing the button"

"But if you really had a good time, than you'll love going to the pier. I read that there's a
lantern lighting festival tonight."

Jeongguk's eyes glow brighter than the bulb illuminating their table "Really? i've always
wanted to go to a lantern lighting festival!"

"You've never been?" finds it a bit unbelievable with how frequently they occur.

"No, I'm normally busy or no one to go with."

"Well, it would appear we chose the best day to come out here. if we stay for the festival we
probably won't get back to our hotel until late."

Jeongguk pouts with wide eyes, "Is that a problem? do you have plans?"

And Taehyung wishes he weren't so incredibly endeared "Of course not. I just wanted to
make sure you're okay with it. we had an early day today, I don't want you to be tired."

"I'm not tired at all. don't worry, I really want to go!"

"Okay, then we will head towards the pier after this. there's parks and plenty of sights to see
in the neighboring area."

Taehyung forces himself to look away from Jeongguk's bright eyes.

But he can feel them on him when the waitress returns with their food.

Feels a nagging thought of wondering what kind of trouble he's gotten himself into.
Walking towards the pier proves to be more beneficial than waiting in traffic for hours.

But the problem with walking is that Jeongguk can't stop his mind from going into overdrive.

He notices everything.

Notices the way Taehyung reaches out to touch every crosswalk sensor before he even has
the chance.

How when someone begins to walk too close Taehyung will switch him sides, only to return
back to the side closest to the street whenever the other person is gone.

When they have to pass by a space more narrow than the rest, Taehyung's hand will linger on
his waist. a ghosting touch but a touch none the less.

And he told himself he wouldn't psychoanalyze everything that happens on their outing
today.

But what else is he supposed to do when Taehyung stands so close that their arms brush and
doesn't make any motion to move.

Jeongguk has just about had it when they reach a very busy plaza. Music playing and people
talking loudly. Taehyung's hand gently grazes over the back of his own, just long enough for
him to tsk "Your hands are freezing. Let's grab some cocoa and find a place to sit on the pier."

"I'm fine" he goes to tuck his hands, that are indeed freezing, in the pockets of his jacket

"It wasn't a question, Jeongguk-ah. if we're going to wait out here for the festival, you need to
warm up."

And how is he supposed to argue when Taehyung's expression leaves no option but to agree.
Following behind him until they're inside of a cafe with two cups of
cocoa being placed on the counter in front of them.

He doesn't fail to notice the way the barista bats her lashes and smiles ridiculously at
Taehyung.

He simply doesn't care.

Which is why he stands too close and reaches across Taehyung for his own cup, speaking in a
sickeningly sweet tone, "Thank you, Taehyung." before winking at the girl and turning to
walk away.

And he knows that the barista knows nothing of honorific or dynamic between them but
Taehyung does and the man's subtle glare when their eyes meet outside of the cafe speaks
volumes.

But Taehyung doesn't say a word.

As the sun begins to set and the lantern festival operators begin passing out lanterns,
Jeongguk feels incredibly excited.

Nearly shaking when they both have lanterns in their hands and find a place on the sand to set
them off.

"You know, some people set off lanterns to make a wish." Taehyung's smoothing over sand
with his feet "And some people speak a worry into the lantern that they want to go away"

Jeongguk nods because he knows this. smiles shyly when instructions are being spoken.

"Will you make a wish, Jeongguk-ah?"

"Yeah, I think so"

Taehyung hums when the instructor begins to count down.

"And will you?"

Shrugging when he pulls on the igniting strand to release his lantern "I think mines a little bit
of both."

The several dozens of people that have gathered to participate are all cheering quietly as the
lanterns begin to lift into the sky.

It's something out of a movie that Jeongguk has to capture on his camera.

Snaps multiple shots and doesn't even realize he's taking a photo of Taehyung until he's
already done it and his heart nearly stops when the photo appears on the tiny digital screen.

"What did you wish for?" Taehyung asks quietly. stepping closer.

"Nothing huge." he gnaws on his bottom lip. dropping the camera and adjusting the strap
until it's hanging from his back "Just something i've wanted for a very long time"

Says it with all of the energy he can muster.

Eyes not wavering in the slightest when Taehyung stares at him momentarily.

"I hope you get everything you wish for. your studies are officially behind you. your future is
yours to do whatever you want with it."

Jeongguk looks down at his own feet, he doesn't know why he feels angry, and then
Taehyung is standing even closer to him.

So close he can feel the warmth of his body "You deserve everything you wish for."

"I want that for you too." his voice is quiet. tongue still tasting bitter. Taehyung is talking like
he's a child again. like he's someone he needs to /guide and it's pissing him off.
And he just can't take it.

Looks up not expecting the man's eyes to be on him when he steps into his space, hand
cupping around Taehyung's ear when he whispers "I hope you get whatever you wish for,
Taehyung and I hope your worries wash away with the waves tonight."

Taehyung clears his throat and reaches for Jeongguk's waist to put a bit of space between
them, "Are we suddenly same age friends now?" he says with laughter in his voice.

Jeongguk blinks both eyes before flicking the hair out of his face, "Obviously not."

"But I think that knowing each other as long as we have, I shouldn't be required to follow any
silly rules when addressing you. am I wrong to think that?"

Taehyung keeps trying to put more space between them but Jeongguk just follows him.

Stepping closer until they're standing against the wooden walls of the pier with water nearly
touching their shoes.

"No you're not wrong."

"Do you feel uncomfortable by me addressing you differently?"

"No."

"Than am I missing something, Taehyung?"

"You're just suddenly acting differently. I was only making an observation."

Jeongguk wants so badly to tell him that it's not sudden. at all.

If Taehyung paid attention at all in the last years of their lives he'd have seen how hard
Jeongguk's tried to adjust their dynamic.

But Jeongguk knows Taehyung is clueless.

And he knows what he's doing, when he leans his side against the wood and lets his lashes
flutter slowly.

Looks up at the sky filled with glowing lanterns and sighs "I'm really glad you brought me
here."

Taehyung is quiet, so Jeongguk keeps looking up, hears the man whisper "So beautiful" under
his breath.

"It really is"

But he failed to realize that Taehyung wasn't looking at the lanterns.

Taehyung's chest is a complete mess when they are in transit to their hotel and Jeongguk falls
asleep next to him.

Head lulling to his shoulder and arm tucked between their sides.

Wonders what got into the other to insist on making his heart race tonight.

The way Jeongguk's eyes were pleading as they stood against the pier wall while their
lanterns ascended into the night sky.

And Taehyung's never wanted to let himself lose control so badly in his life.

But that momentary lapse of judgement could have cost him so much more.

So he's calming his racing heart and gently nudges Jeongguk awake when they reach home.
"Let's go inside." follows behind him and makes sure he reaches his room before turning to
go into his own.

Except just as he's managed to slip into his pajama pants, shirt barely slung over his shoulder,
theres knocking on his door.

Surprised to see Jeongguk, still fully clothed standing there with flushed cheeks.

"Am I really just absolutely crazy, Taehyung?"

"What do you mean?" his head tilts and he watches Jeongguk's chest deflate before he steps
inside his room.

"My brain is telling me things that are hard to believe."

Taehyung's heart thrums rapidly "What is it telling you?"

The room is closing in on him.

The door shuts and Jeongguk's eyes open wide "It's telling me that I'm not the only one of us
who still feels what I felt the night we met."

And it's laid out there.

Laid out on the floor between them and Taehyung feels like he can't breathe.

Maybe if they'd have been closer in age it'd have been just fine.

But he knows what he has to do and so he blinks a few times with a heavy breath, "Are you
still sleepy, Jeongguk-ah?"

Never wanted to see the way Jeongguk's face falls. didn't expect it at all.

"Are you serious? you know exactly what I'm talking about."

"It's been years since then, you'll have to forgive me for feeling a little lost."

God that made Jeongguk want to die.

"You're a liar, Taehyung." enters the man's space until their chests are touching and their
noses brush and Taehyung can't do anything but breathe in the oxygen that Jeongguk is
exhaling "You and I both know you're lying."

His stomach feels hollow when Taehyung chuckles but doesn't make any effort to move away
"So you barge into my room to ask confusing questions and call me a liar? did I miss
something that happened today?"

And Jeongguk actually thinks he might fall to the floor.

His heart sinks and his eyes burn with tears, "Fuck you."

"Jeongguk.."

"No" backs away because he might pass out if he stands in this room a second longer "Fuck
you for acting like I'm crazy."

"You're not crazy. I'm just confused."

And now he's angry.

His finger tips burn with rage when he lets go of the door knob "What's so confusing,
Taehyung?"

"Whatever the hell you're talking about!"

"Okay." Jeongguk nods and scoffs "You really don't /understand? is that what we're going
with?"

"Jeongguk—"

"You're attracted to me. we nearly ran to the bathroom to make out at my parents wedding
reception and have spent all of these years pretending that didn't happen."

Taehyung glowers but Jeongguk is relentless.

"And I've been trying to get your attention for so damn long. I've finally had it these last few
days and at first I thought it was all in my head but I know it's not. I know you want me just
as badly as I want you, but you're a coward."

"Stop talking"

"No. it's ridiculous!"

"Jeongguk!"

"What!" they're chest to chest again and Jeongguk wants to cry "What's wrong, Taehyungie-
hyung? can't handle the truth? or are you still confus—"

Taehyung's hand covers his mouth and the man's jaw is clenched.

Other arm wrapping around his waist until their bodies are flush and Jeongguk feels his skin
burning from the touch "Stop saying ridiculous things. we've been enjoying our time together,
that's it. nothing more, nothing less. don't make this something it's not"

Pulls his hand away, but his eyes are fixated on Jeongguk's mouth while the arm around his
waist tightens, "Have I made myself clear?"

"Crystal" Jeongguk spits out in anger. gasping under his breath when Taehyung's fingers curl
around his chin until their eyes meet.

"What am I supposed to do now?" dark eyes flitting all over Jeongguk's face.

"Nothing" looks away despite the way Taehyung tugs him back in.

"Go to sleep, Jeongguk-ah. we can talk about this tomorrow when we aren't exhausted from a
long day."

"Bu—"

Taehyung finally let's go of him. putting a large amount of space between them and sits on
his bed "Or we can pretend this conversation never happened and enjoy the last few days of
our trip. you decide. I'm going to bed."

"That's really all you have to say to me?" he whispers, arms curled around himself and yanks
the crimson scarf from his neck. he feels increasingly hot and regrets not taking some layers
off. "I don't know what else you expected from me."
Jeongguk is nearly out the door when the first of many tears fall, "Looks like I wasted my
wish."
he doesn't stay to hear anything else. feels like he's in some twisted nightmare.
he was so certain that Taehyung would give in tonight.
Taehyung had looked like he was seconds away from kissing him by the pier.
Jeongguk's body itches and he feels the need to shower. wants to scrub every inch of his skin
and wash away the aching feeling in his chest.
||| fifteen months ago

When Taehyung got a phone call from Jeongguk at 3 in the morning, clearly slurring his
words and begging for a ride home—he didn't even hesitate.

Hopped into his vehicle and drove down to the club he’s ran into Jeongguk at more
times than should be acceptable.

“Hyung-ah!” Jeongguk is practically bouncing on his feet, falls into Taehyung’s arms
easily "Didn't want to wake up dad, thanks for picking me up”

And Taehyung already knows that Seokjin is awake because they were just texting about
the new hire at work. So pulling up to the familiar home, he’s not surprised when his
best friend is already at the door.

Arm slipping around Jeongguk’s waist and pulling him from Taehyung’s hold, “Tae, I’m
so sorry. I don't know why he keeps calling you like this.”

"It’s really okay, hyung. I promise I don't mind.”

Jeongguk yanks himself from his dads grasp and rolls his eyes “I’m an adult, appa. I can
call my friends for a ride when I need them and hyung is my friend too.”

"Right” Seokjin chuckles and pushes Jeongguk by the hips "Head upstairs, be a good
friend and let Taehyung go home.”

But the boy only twists on his feet, takes a few wobbly steps Taehyung’s direction and
attempts to plant a sloppy kiss on his cheek. misses a bit and ends up bumping into his
jawline with a giggle, "Thanks again for the ride, Taehyungie-hyung”

To be completely honest, Taehyung’s face is on fire. Jeongguk’s never done something

like that before and he surely wasn't expecting it.

Nor was he expecting Jin to hand him a small glass of bourbon, “I’ve been wanting to
talk to you...sit with me?”

"Everything alright?” Taehyung clears his throat, teeth gritting as he sips on the horrid
tasting alcohol

"It's about Jeongguk. Taehyung I don't know if you have realized this but… Lia and I
have both come to the conclusion that he has a crush on you.”

His chest slowly heaves and he hopes Seokjin doesn't notice the way his fingers tighten
on the glass. "Hyung. that might be my fault...i told you about the reception—”
"I know. that's why I wanted to talk to you. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable
coming to our house and being around for family holidays because Jeongguk throws
himself at you.”

"He doesn't”

“Taehyung, seriously?”

"I think it's innocent. and if he has a little crush he will get over it without a doubt. I'm
sure he meets plenty of people with all of his nights out.”

Seokjin shakes his head with a frown, "That's what we thought too. yet somehow every
time he goes out, he either ends up getting a ride home from you or talking about you
the moment he gets home. I think you need to shut him down.”

"Hyung—”

“Jeongguk had his heart broken to shreds when he was a teenager. I’d never have
imagined the way a heartbreak would completely change my child. he’s not mentally
ready for any type of relationship he could possibly have with you. your age gap may be
small but you are much further into your adult life than he is. his mind is still impossibly
adolescent when it comes to matters of the heart.”

Taehyung has to set the glass down because he was already drinking a tiny bit at home
and the bourbon is strong. "I'm not trying to date your son, hyung.”

"I know that. but it's these little things that will make him think you’re interested. please
Taehyung, for my sake, turn him down. let him know you can't be the one he calls for
rides at three in the morning”

His chest tightens because he doesn't mind. cant put his finger on it but he likes that
Jeongguk calls him. enjoys making sure he gets home safely and not in the hands of
some of the sleazy men he’s watched Jeongguk spend time with at the bars.

“I'll talk to him.”

"Thank you, I've been worried about it and tonight just solidified my thoughts even
more. he tried to kiss you, Taehyung.”

"I don't—”

"I mean what I said, please?”

And Taehyung just nods because at the end of the day, what else can he say? he’s
engaged and shouldn't be entertaining the needs of someone other than his fiancé
anyway.
ME (kth)
Hyung, you awake?

Jin-Hyung
I am actually..everything ok?
ME (kth)
I think i’ve made a mistake…and the result of that may have been hurting Jeongguk.

Jin-Hyung
Please explain.

ME (kth)
I’ve been doing everything possible to take care of him on this trip as I told you I would. I
care for Jeongguk so much…

Jin-Hyung
Yes, I’m aware.

ME (kth)
I think he’s taken my care for more than I intended?
He came onto me last night.
Leaving extremely upset when I turned him down.

Jin-Hyung
We’ve been here before…
I'm sorry but I told you this would probably happen
Jeongguk’s had the most impenetrable soft spot for you from the moment he laid his eyes on
you. I was apprehensive about this trip for a reason.
Right now…I’m speaking to you as your friend–just be brutally honest. He will never take
your rejection seriously with the way you dote on him as if asking for his hand in marriage.

ME (kth)
That was never my intention…i just want to make him happy.

Jin-Hyung
NOW…I’m speaking to you as Jeongguk’s father–please don’t shatter his heart into pieces.
The moment you said yes to this trip I knew the way the gears in that head of his would turn.
Taehyung, Jeongguk has very sincere, deeply rooted feelings for you. I need you to try to let
him down gently.

ME (kth)
How can I be brutally honest yet gentle?? I don’t want to ruin his trip. I never should’ve said
yes to this.

Jin-Hyung
Should’ve would’ve could’ve
Can’t take it back now
Just tell him that there’s no chance of you ever returning his feelings…but don’t make him
think it’s his fault or that somethings wrong with him. I know I’m asking a lot of you right
now. But I can’t watch him have his heart broken again.

ME (kth)
I’ll do my best.

Jin-Hyung
I know you will. You always do.

ME (whores GC)
Taehyung is a liar
A filthy liar
And I hate him
God why did I ever think it was a good idea to have feelings for him
I should’ve known he was a coward from the first night I met him
Ykw? Fuck him! I’m not going to sit here and mope. I’m going out
I'll talk to you guys when you wake up

He called for a taxi the moment after sending those last texts.

If Taehyung wants to play stupid then Jeongguk isn't going to waste anymore time.

Finishes getting ready and slams his bedroom door shut.

Not even wondering if Yoongi is here — his mind is too clouded.

Slipping on his shoes when he hears soft footsteps and Taehyung leans against his own
bedroom door, "Where are you going?"

"Out"

"We need to talk, Jeongguk-ah"

"I don't want to talk to you, Taehyung"

Clenches his eyes shut when he feels tears stinging at his lids, he's not going to sit and do
this.

But then Taehyung is blocking the front door and his eyes have that familiar expression of
concern that makes Jeongguk's stomach warm.

"You don't know the language enough to go on your own"

Grabs Taehyung's wrist to tug him from the door but the man doesn't budge at all.

"I'll figure it out. don't worry about me. you don't question every time Yoongi leaves"

"Yoongi is fluent and has been here more times than I have."

"That doesn't matter! I'll be fine."

"It does matter. it's my responsibility to make sure you get home in one piece."

Jeongguk scoffs, finger digging into Taehyung's chest with venom in his eyes, "I am not your
responsibility."

"Jeongguk, must you be insufferably bratty even when you're halfway across the world?"

Shakes his head and he wants to scream, "Must you pretend like you give a damn about me,
when you already told me I'm ridiculous for thinking that you do?"

"I do care about you! I'm sorry it's not the way you want me to."

Taehyung figured Jeongguk was still angry but he couldn't have prepared himself for the tears
that fall.

Endless streams when Jeongguk takes a few steps back and leans against the sofa. hand
wiping at his nose and chest heaving.

"You're such a liar." he whispers and Taehyung thinks he's going to walk away but he only
stands up and enters his space.

Taking up all of the oxygen and curling his trembling hands around Taehyung's neck, "Can
you really look me in my eyes and tell me you feel nothing for me? After everything, all of
these years. Can you really, truly, say that?"

"Jeongguk—"

"Say it" his teeth are gritted and his nostrils flare, eyes watching Taehyung's lips as if waiting
to read the words instead of listening to them

"Have you received so little love in your life, that the most minimal acts of affection
convince you there are romantic intentions?"
Taehyung's hands are burning, the need to grab onto Jeongguk and pull him closer is
overwhelming.

But he won't.

He won't.

He won't.

"Do you give out so much affection that you don't even realize the implications of your
actions? Taehyung you've been glued to me from the moment our plane landed. You can't
expect me to believe a word out of your mouth."

"You would've kissed me by the pier." his breaths are shallow "You would've kissed me six
years ago. you were one song away from dragging me to that bathroom, Taehyung."

"And we both acknowledged why that could never happen that night. i've only been a friend
to you since"

"Friends don't call each other in the middle of the night or buy each other lavish vacations as
gifts or share scarves or hold each other by the waist or /look at each other the way you look
at me. I'm not delusional!"

Taehyung's hands fall to Jeongguk's waist, a gentle touch.

Only serving to put space between their chests, "I'm holding you by your waist, as a friend,
to tell you there are dozens of reasons why this isn't a good idea"

"What are they?" Jeongguk's breathless "tell me the reasons"

"For starters, I'm your father's best friend."

"Dad wouldn't care! we're adults!"

"I would care, Jeongguk. it's inappropriate."

"Why is it inappropriate? because you hired my dad at your company before you met me? If
he would've taken that other stupid job, it wouldn't even matter!"

"We wouldn't have met, had he taken another job. but he took the one with me. and we
became friends and he invited me to his vow renewal." Taehyung takes in a deep breath. He's
terrified to say what he's kept to himself for so long but Seokjin said to let him down easy so
he holds onto Jeongguk's face with both palms, thumbs wiping the tears away as they fall.
"And at his vow renewal I met the most stunning man, I've ever had the pleasure of knowing.
but he's years my junior and I have a place every holiday at his family table because his
father has become the closest friend of my life."

Jeongguk's tears won't stop falling, "And no matter how badly I want to be selfish, I cherish
the relationships I've built with his family and him far too much to risk it over silly
emotions."
"Taehyung—"

"Not to mention, I have way too much on my plate to sort out"

"I don't care" Jeongguk tries to argue and inch closer but Taehyung doesn't let him.

Hands dropping to his shoulders and shakes his head, "So I am going to continue to stand by
that stunning man's side, as his friend, as long as he will allow me."

"This is so unfair" Jeongguk's entire body trembles and Taehyung wants to make him smile
so desperately but he doesn't know how.

"I hope he knows how precious he is to me." lips turning upwards as he nudges Jeongguk's
face by the chin "Do you think he knows, Jeongguk-ah?"

He figures what Jeongguk is going to try to do and he feels like if he's finally clearing the
weight from his shoulders than he can also give in to the smallest urge, presses his lips to
Jeongguk's forehead slowly...Pauses and takes a moment to revel in the feeling.

"Will you please get sleep? if you want to go see some nightlife tomorrow we can. you need
rest. your eyes are beginning to swell."

Jeongguk nods but doesn't speak.

Taehyung was expecting more arguing before Jeongguk took his shoes off and dropped his
coat by the door.

He wasn't expecting for Jeongguk to press their lips together, soft and fleeting, gone before
Taehyung can even comprehend what happened.

"I get it now. I just wish I hadn't wasted so much time."

"Jeongguk—"

"Goodnight, hyung. thanks for drawing the lines."

||| the night they met

"Who holds an entire reception for a vow renewal?” Jeongguk is whining as he buttons
up his suit.

Admittedly, he looks fantastic. but what's the point of looking fantastic in front of a
bunch of family anyway?

"Your mother and I have been married for twenty five years. don't you know how
incredible that is? we want to celebrate! besides it's a reason to gather friends together.”
"Well while you're doing all of that, you can find me by the open bar.”

"You've been of legal drinking age for two months. am I supposed to believe you never
touched alcohol before with the way you down soju?”

His mischievous smile tells his father everything he needs to know but he only gestures
with his finger to ‘shh’ "I was a model child, appa. rest assured.”

Even though Jeongguk knows that he very much was not. "Well use those model child
abilities tonight, there's some people coming that could be good networking
opportunities for you as you begin your university courses. mingle and have fun!”

"Whatever you say”

Taehyung feels impossibly out of place. Seokjin’s become so important to his life but
that doesn't make him feel any less of a stranger when surrounded by nothing but friends
of a friend.

Glues himself to the bar as the crowd of people wait for the couple of honor to arrive.
He’s simply skimming the room, admiring the decor and arrangements when his eyes
find someone remarkable.

The most fitted suit adorning a lithe frame. staring all over this stranger and couldn't be
bothered to pretend otherwise when the gorgeous man meets his gaze.

There's a silver piercing peaking out above his eyebrow and Taehyung just wants to die.
is it inappropriate to hook up with a friend of a friend?

He doesn't know, doesn't really care. not when the object of his attention is strutting
towards him with two glasses in hand and a soft smile, "Hi, you look lonely”

Taehyung wasn’t lonely until now, nods with a grin before tucking his bottom lip
beneath his teeth "And you look like good company”

"Lucky for you, I am great company” the boy smiles and places the extra glass in his
hand "And my name is Jeongguk”

“Taehyung” sips on his drink when Jeongguk is called over by some people on the dance
floor.

"Buy me a drink later, Taehyung-ssi” winks and he’s gone leaving Taehyung’s head
spinning! left with no choice but to watch the way he moves. talking to the people that
called him over but swaying to the best of the music.

Hips melodic with the way they move from side to side and Taehyung hasn’t wanted to
get his hands on somebody this badly, ever in his life.
 Jeongguk’s eyes find his multiple times, batting beautifully while he dances — making
sure Taehyung’s attention stays on himself.

When the music slows and the emcee calls out that the couple of honor has arrived and
dinner will be served soon, Taehyung decides to shoot his shot. legs moving slowly
Jeongguk's direction who has already started walking the same way.

Meeting in the middle and there's a light blush on the boys cheeks that has Taehyung
absolutely swooning. "Have you already found a table to occupy?”

"Oh, yeah I'll be seated wit—”

“Taehyung-ah! You met my son already!” Seokjin is smiling from ear to ear and
Jeongguk watches the way Taehyung’s expression morphs into something horrific.

"Oh, oh” Jeongguk watches the gears in his head turn. "This is your Jeongguk.”

Seokjin’s eyes roll back as his wife clings to his arm "Of course it is. Son, this is
Taehyung-ah, one of my closest friends.”

Jeongguk’s eyes are glassy and Taehyung can’t help but notice the way his smile is
gone. “We’re going to talk to the kitchen staff before the dinner is served, you both sit at
our table!”

The moment they walk away, Jeongguk lets out an exasperated sigh, "Your enthusiasm
to sit next to me has seemed to be sucked right away.”

"You’re nineteen”

"And?” he looks annoyed. the blush Taehyung found himself dying over is replaced with
a furious crimson.

“I'm twenty six and your father’s my best friend.”

His chest feels tight when he watches Jeongguk deflate, hand brushing through his hair
and he appears to be moments away from tears.

But why? they have only just met.

"Well, let's go find our seats, Taehyung-ssi. i'd hate to keep my father waiting.”

And Taehyung can't help the feeling that he's made a horrible mistake.

|||
Jiminie-hyung
Jeongguk what happened?? U ok?

ME (whores GC)
No

Joon-hyung
Talk to us

Hobi-hyung
Baby :(

ME (whores GC)
Long story short, taehyung definitely is attracted to me but he won’t ever do anything about it
bc of my dad. He made that very clear.

Joon-hyung
I'm confused though because you’ve been saying things like..he’s flirting??

Hobi-hyung
Yeah!!! Hand on the back when you walk?? Spontaneous little thing?? idk…

ME (whores GC)
I dunno what to think anymore
Just hurts
And I kissed him
Bc apparently I'm a masochist and there’s nothing I want more than to barge into his bedroom
and kiss him some more

Joon-hyung
Woah
Is that when he shot you down?

ME (whores GC)
Nah, he shot me down right before I kissed him. I know I'm an idiot but I couldn’t not do it.
He wanted to kiss me, I know he did. So ig at least we both got what we wanted for a
millisecond.

Jiminie-hyung
You didn’t get what you wanted at all :( I'm so sorry baby.
What are you gonna do for the next three days?

ME (whores GC)
Hide
Sleep
Cry
All of the above
Hobi-hyung
I just don’t get it at all…i wish we were there to hug you

ME (whores GC)
I think I'm partially hurt because I really thought he felt something too…but he played it off
like just some little crush he can easily move on without.
And I'm also partially hurt because it’s like reliving the night we met all over again. So close
but so far away.
It’s not fucking fair.
The bells were stupid anyway

Baby 😭
Jiminie-hyung
your bells aren’t stupid.

ME (whores GC)
Gonna go to sleep. Head hurts and ready for this trip to be over. Love u guys.

Jiminie-hyung
We love you so much.

Joon-hyung
We’ll take you out when you get home.

Hobi-hyung
Everything happens for a reason, bub.

Marisol
So, you’re with someone?

ME (kth)
Excuse me?

Marisol
You didn’t just travel with Yoongi. Someone else went with you. A man.

ME (kth)
And?

Marisol
Was it Seojoon?

ME (kth)
No.

Marisol
Who?
ME (kth)
I don’t owe you explanations about my personal life. Why are you hounding me all of a
sudden?

Marisol
How can you speak to me like that? We’re engaged.
We might be expecting Taehyung. You’re giving me so much unnecessary stress.

ME (kth)
I am not in the right mindset to deal with this right now. I’ve already told you we will talk
when I return. PLease don’t text me again.

Marisol
Always such a gentleman, aren’t you Tae?
Why is it that there are dozens of men, begging for my hand in marriage. Yet the one man
who has it, treats me like a plague.

ME (kth)
Maybe you should ask one of them, maybe they might have the time to give you an answer.

"Wow, you look like absolute shit"

Taehyung gives a half hearted wave at Yoongi when he enters the kitchen.

"It's like two in the morning, what the hell are you doing?"

"I don't know, Yoon. I don't know anymore."

Sees the way his friend pauses before pulling a seat

"Did something happen?"

"Everything that's been going on—Marisol keeps texting me since apparently Alanis is
giving her updates on my personal life"

"I don't know what she's trying to accomplish, you literally broke off the engagement. cant be
anymore clear than that."

Taehyung takes a sip of the wine in his glass, free hand pushing his hair back and groaning
"And then on top of all of that, I'm—forget it."

"I'm already here, Taehyung. just talk to me. is it about...?" gestures with his eyes towards the
other room

Taehyung's never been good at keeping a poker face, "I think I hurt him and I didn't want to."
his bottom lip trembles just remembering the way Jeongguk cried "I just can't give him what
he wants from me"
"What does he want?"

"I don't even know. but whatever it is, it doesn't matter."

"Why not?"

"Because, Seokjin."

Yoongi's brow raises, disappointment all over his face "What about Seokjin?"

"Um he's my best friend?"

"Okay."

"And Jeongguk is his son."

"Alright." Yoongi's arms cross, unamused

"It's wrong. not to mention this bullshit with Marisol. I'm a giant hot mess and Jeongguk's life
is just beginning now that he's done with school."

"I'm confused as to why anything involving you and him would be wrong?"

Taehyung swallows the rest of his wine and stands up "It just is. and my mind is such a
goddamn mess over it all."

"I think, you think too much." Yoongi joins him as they walk towards their rooms "And I
think you spend too much time worried about everyone else. ask yourself what Taehyung
wants, for once in your life."

When he goes into his room Yoongi's words resound over and over.

Taehyung can't ask himself what he wants because Taehyung isn't prepared to face the music
of that answer.

Not when what he wants is just below his nose. not when he can still taste what he wants on
his lips.

Flops onto the large chair on the balcony, too cold to be here

But the alcohol makes him feel warm and he can't be bothered to care.

He just hopes that in the morning Jeongguk doesn't hate him.

When Jeongguk left this afternoon, he was truthfully surprised that Taehyung wasn't awake.

And he really had no reason to peek in his room but when he saw the man sleeping he knew
he'd be able to leave without any hiccups.
He knows, somewhere deep in his mind, that this is not a good idea.

But his heart hurts and he needs a distraction and the cute guy from the beach said to text him
if he was back.

Jeongguk doesn't know his way around the city they're staying in at all, but he does know
what beach to tell a taxi to drive him to.

So he sets off for a day by himself and makes a mental note to stop somewhere to buy his
own scarf.

It took all of thirty minutes for Taehyung to realize Jeongguk left and his heart plummets to
his feet.

Chest burning and feels like his skin is crawling when he frantically opens the closet door of
Jeongguk's bedroom.

Relieved to see all of his clothes still there

Walks out to the living room and sees a small sticky note placed on-top of the scarf Jeongguk
left folded neatly on the entry table.

-out for the day, stay warm. Jeongguk.

Taehyung wanted to go with him, wherever that was. but it's selfish to expect Jeongguk to
want him around.

Especially after he nearly begged Taehyung to tell him what he wanted to hear.

His fingers are burning to text him but thinks it's not a good idea.

Slips on some shoes and stuffs the red fabric in his coat pocket.

Maybe it's best that they spend a day apart.

"You're here!" the man smiles brightly and Jeongguk feels nervous.

He was way more confident when he told the guy he'd be at the same place today.

His stomach is in knots, this was not a good idea. "Hi"

He can tell that the other is also nervous, hands shaking as he points towards a small
restaurant, "Meal?"

There's so many reasons this was a horrible idea, the ridiculous language barrier being one of
them, so all that he does is nod before following him.
Mr. Kim
Hello.
🤤
Are you alright?

ME (jjk)
Yep

Mr. Kim 🤤
Will you be back for dinner?

ME (jjk)
Probably won’t be back until you’re already asleep.

Mr. Kim 🤤
I find that hard to believe, I barely slept at all. I imagine tonight will be the same.
Could you at least tell me where you are, so that I’m not worried all day?

ME (jjk)
YOu have nothing to be worried about. I’m a grown man, Taehyung.

Mr. Kim
Please?
🤤
ME (jjk)
At the beach.
Wanted to take more pictures.

Mr. Kim 🤤
You went all that way by yourself? It’s also dropped like 6 degrees in temperature.

ME (jjk)
Anything else, dad?

Mr. Kim 🤤
I’m not your father.

ME (jjk)
Oh, I just figured it was him speaking, since he has a say in everything else I do.

Mr. Kim 🤤
Jeongguk, seriously?

ME (jjk)
AI'm being rude, going back to my friend. bye..

Mr. Kim
Who?
🤤
ME (jjk)
The guy from the beach, texted him and we met up. We’re having a meal and I'm being rude.
Have a nice day, hyung.

Taehyung has /no right. he knows this. even still, there isn't enough rationale in the world to
stop him from calling a cab and immediately heading to Jeongguk's location.

He has no idea what time Jeongguk plans on leaving and it's very possible that they may miss
each other entirely.

But Taehyung is irritated and worried.

Vaguely remembers what that guy at the beach looked like but not enough to pick him out of
a crowd.

If something were to happen to Jeongguk he'd never forgive himself for something that he
could've avoided.

Thinks to a lot of the problems in his life and realizes many of them could have been
avoided.

But Taehyung's never been good at looking into the future and hindsight is 20/20.

So he lets his head rest against the glass of the car door and hopes that he finds Jeongguk
before nightfall.

"I'm sorry, um—" the guy flushes and grabs the bill before Jeongguk can grab it himself
"Very beautiful, you are"

And he's flattered but he feels uneasy inside. actually, to be more specific he feels like an
asshole, because this guy is impossibly sweet

Jeongguk just wanted a distraction but the distraction has only made him angry because
there's a part of his brain that wanted to be left alone.

And there's another part of his brain that wanted Taehyung to insist on following him.

But now that the line has been drawn between them, he figures it's really time to forget about
such ideas.

Wishful thinking is only hurting his heart more and he feels terrible when he bids goodbye to
this man.

Promises to text again even though he knows he probably won't.

Just takes off walking, endlessly until he sees the pier where they stood while the lanterns
rose above them and he just wants to cry.

It's impossibly cold and all he wants is to feel something other than sadness and
disappointment.

Ma 💕
My baby has been on a holiday for three days and already forgotten about his mom?

ME (jjk)
Ofc I haven’t 😞
Ma 💕
Why the sad face? What’s wrong?

ME (jjk)
U know how sometimes we talk about things and u promise not to tell appa?

Ma
Mhm.
💕
ME (jjk)
Can this be one of those times?

Ma 💕
What’s going on bunny?

ME (jjk)
Ma, I don’t think I ever got over it..
You know..
The reception night..

Ma 💕
Baby, we’ve talked about this before

ME (jjk)
What if it was my soulmate that I met? And now that chance is gone entirely. It’s so unfair.

Ma 💕
What is bringing this up??

ME (jjk)
Well
I think
Oh my god this is harder than I thought
It was Mr. Kim, mom
And I like him so much
He’s only ever going to see me as dad’s son
I just want him to see me as Jeongguk

Ma 💕
Are you sure you aren’t just infatuated with the idea of him??
You’ve been harboring this crush for years now, bunny.

ME (jjk)
Is that not proof that this is more than infatuation??

Ma 💕
I don’t know…but I don’t know if this is a good idea.
And if Taehyungie is telling you he isn’t interested, you should leave it alone.
Don’t make things uncomfortable.
He’s been a good friend to you and to use for all of these years. Not to mention all the energy
and thought he put into this trip. Don’t make it something it doesn’t have to be.

ME (jjk)
Ok
Don’t tell appa, please
He already thinks I'm a reckless child with no regard for other people.

Ma 💕
He does NOT think that. Your father thinks higher of you than anyone in the world.
Don’t you ever doubt that for a second.

Mr. Kim 🤤
Where are you?

ME (jjk)
I alr told you

Mr. Kim 🤤
Jeongguk I'm not playing games with you. Where exactly are you?

ME (jjk)
Beach

Mr. Kim 🤤
I swear, you can be so damn insufferable.
ME (jjk)
Real fuckin rich coming from u, hyung
You’re the most insufferable man i’ve ever met.

Mr. Kim 🤤
I’m bringing you back.
With me.

ME (jjk)
I’ll go when I'm ready, if ur on ur way here turn the car back around.

Mr. Kim 🤤
I'm not turning this car around until you’re in it.

ME (jjk)
Yk what?
Who do u think u are huh?
You think you can just tell me what to do and insert yourself where you don’t belong after the
way you drew a very clear line between us?

Mr. Kim 🤤
Listen, I told you we could talk today, but you already left.
I was up all night.

ME (jjk)
I don’t care
Fuck you
I had it all laid out for you, everything I felt
And you chalked it up to nothing
So don’t follow me anywhere
I just want to go home.

It doesn't take Taehyung long at all once he's reached the ice cold sand to realize Jeongguk is
probably at the pier.

Sets off that way and would be able to find those fluffy locks of hair in any crowd.

But lucky for him, there's no crowd.

It's just Jeongguk.

Sitting in the sand up against the wood of the pier.

He's not in anyway dressed for the weather.

Insufferable.

Infuriating.
Taehyung doesn't run towards him despite the anger pulsing through his veins.

He just keeps a slow pace, walks until the tips of his shoes are mere centimeters away from
Jeongguk's.

"What are you doing here when it's this cold?"

And when he looks up his eye lids are swollen. it's so clear that he's been crying and
Taehyung hates the way it kicks at his heart.

"Jeongguk...stand up, let's go back."

Reaches a hand that the man refuses to take.

Stands on his own and goes to storm off but he ends up just stomping his feet into the sand
and twisting on his heels, "You're so cruel. you know how I feel for you and yet you still
continue to do things that make me think you care for me too."

"That's because I do care for you. never once did I say that I don't"

"Not enough"

Taehyung's heart is pounding so loud, "What did you say?"

"I said, not enough" Jeongguk enunciates and shakes his head.

"And what would be enough? huh?" Taehyung looks angry.

Jeongguk watches the way Taehyung's jaw ticks and his fingers clench where they rest at his
waist.

"Enough to stop lying to both of us."

Looks down at his feet and kicks sand at the wave that brushes up the shore "Enough to stop
being a coward."

Jeongguk doesn't have the energy in him to argue anymore.

He's tired and his head aches from all of the crying.

But when he goes to step away, he feels soft warmth around his neck. looks down to see
Taehyung's scarf being wrapped around himself and the man's hands grab onto his hips.

"I'll never stop being a coward"

Taehyung looks like he's about to fall apart "I've been a coward since the night I met you."

"Let's just go, I'm too tired for this, you came all this way to make me go back, so let's go"

"You really think I came all of this way, just to bring you back?"
Jeongguk's heart nearly stops, he won't allow himself to feel anything other than indifference
right now.

"Why else, superman complex? needed to save the day, hyung?"

But then Taehyung's walking him backwards and Jeongguk's back presses against the wood
of the pier and he feels electricity in his veins when Taehyung's hand holds onto his face.

"When I first saw you, I couldn't believe someone as gorgeous as you existed. but then I got
to know you and I realized that your gorgeous exterior was just a shell for all of the fucking
attitude stored inside of you."

Looks away with a scoff but Taehyung turns him back in

"You were right"

"About what?" his chest is heaving and he can hardly breathe

"I wanted to kiss you so bad that I couldn't even think straight when we were here."

"Don't." seething and feels familiar tears stinging at his eyes.

"I told myself before bed last night that if I was ever given a chance to go back, I probably
would have kissed you." his voice falters and Jeongguk can hardly hear him anymore

"And I would've told you how captivated i've been by you for so long."

"Taehyung—"

"But that wouldn't be fair. because regardless of how I feel for you, if your father asked me to
stay away, I would because I respect him as my hyung."

"So fuck Jeongguk's feelings right?"

"Jeongguk what do you want from me? do you not see at all the position I'm in? do you really
not understand why this is so hard for me?"

Taehyung's sweaty palm drops from his face, brings both hands to Jeongguk's waist instead.

"I'm not asking you to marry me, Taehyung. I'm asking you to kiss me."

Watches with bated breath as Taehyung shakes his head before stepping the last bit closer.

Their noses touch and Jeongguk can feel Taehyung all over every part of his body.

"And when I kiss you, then what?"

"Then we both get what we want."

"That's all you want from me? a kiss?"

Taehyung nudges his face upwards by tipping their noses together.

Their lips brushing when he speaks and Jeongguk doesn't care how ridiculous it is that he's
crying silently, whispers because it's all he's capable of "I want it so bad"

"Can we re-do a memory?"

Jeongguk wants to stomp his feet and throw a tantrum because Taehyung's still talking
against his mouth "I don't want you to remember everything I didn't do, here."

"I don't want you to remember our fight or the stupid guy you just ate with"

Their mouths are almost completely touching now and Jeongguk feels like he's seconds away
from turning into sand himself

"I gave you my scarf to keep you warm and I kissed you, because you're so beautiful it's
impossible to say no when you ask me like this"

"Taehyung—" and then their bodies are pressed together and their lips are touching so much
harder than they did last night.

"I gave you my scarf to keep you warm and I kissed you, because you're so beautiful it's
impossible to say no when you ask me like this"

"Taehyung—" and then their bodies are pressed together and their lips are touching so much
harder than they did last night.

"I'm so sorry I didn't kiss you before" Taehyung's hands are trembling against Jeongguk's face
"And I'm so sorry for making you cry and for being a coward"

"Shut up, Taehyung" shakes his head and presses their lips together again "Just kiss me"

There's a ridiculously long car ride back to their hotel.

Jeongguk is trying to keep his hands to himself, he is. but just ten minutes ago he had
Taehyung's nails digging into the skin of his sides beneath his shirt and he couldn't care less
how cold it was outside.

Glances out of the side of his eye to see Taehyung's chin resting on his palms as he stares at
his feet.

So clearly thinking about something and Jeongguk just can't /not know.

He feels sick to his stomach at the idea of Taehyung regretting what just happened.

Reaches out and lets his fingers dance just below Taehyung's wrist, silent gasp escaping when
Taehyung brings the hand into his own and intertwines their fingers.
"What am I supposed to do now?" he asks quietly. squeezes Jeongguk's hand tighter and pulls
him in.

Free hand coming to hold Jeongguk's face, thumb rubbing along his jawline, "I knew it would
be like this if I let myself touch you"

"Be like what..?" gnawing on his lip so hard he can nearly taste blood, eyes following
Taehyung's that are glued to his mouth.

And their lips are connected before he can even realize Taehyung was leaning in, "I love the
way you taste" kisses him gently.

Lips plush and full against his own. parting and pressing over and over and over again.

Leans against him and has Jeongguk doing his best to lean backwards against the door of the
car, wants Taehyung closer.

Closer in every way. doesn't know how much closer he can get in the back of a midsized taxi.

But Taehyung just continues to kiss him, lightly licking the seam of his lips before he sighs
and pulls back, "I'm never going to be able to stop thinking about you"

"I don't want you to stop thinking about me"

"A kiss is what you asked for, nothing else."

He sits up and brings Jeongguk with him. situating himself into a comfortable position before
bringing Jeongguk's head to his shoulder. "Rest. your eyes look so tired."

Jeongguk groans quietly and tucks his arm into Taehyung's side.

Presses a kiss to the man's shoulder before speaking softly, "A kiss is all I asked for. but I'll
take anything you want to give me."

It's just before midnight when the car drops them at the hotel and Jeongguk feels like he
could cry when they reach inside their sweet and Taehyung goes straight to the kitchen.

Imagined many variations of what would happen once they were inside the comfort of the
hotel

None of them involved Taehyung putting a pot on the mini stove to boil water.

Humming to himself as he prepares some instant ramen.

"You need to eat something else before bed"

"I'm not tired"

"Yes you are, your eye lids are nearly closed just from how puffy they are"
Jeongguk sits at the table but doesn't touch the bowl in front of him.

"I'm not tired"

"Yes you are, your eye lids are nearly closed just from how puffy they are"

Jeongguk sits at the table but doesn't touch the bowl in front of him.

"Why do you have to make everything so complicated? it doesn't have to be complicated"

Walks up behind him and hugs around his middle, feeling butterflies flutter when Taehyung's
hands come to rest over his own.

Taehyung turns around in Jeongguk's arms and smiles softly at his pouted lips, "You make
me feel like I'm not in control of myself"

"What do you mean?"

But Taehyung's holding his cheeks and kissing his lips instead of responding.

Walks him backwards until his lower back is pressed against the kitchen table and Jeongguk
just wants to be thrown atop it.

But he refuses to push too far. not when Taehyung is opening his boundary little by little.

"Don't make it complicated" he's practically begging against Taehyung's lips, hand knotting
in the thick curls of his hair.

When he tugs just a bit he feels Taehyung cling to his hips, fingers near bruising and
Jeongguk could melt to the floor.

But Taehyung holds him steady.

Kissing him until his brain is numb and all he wants is to get out of these clothes he's been
wearing all day.

Cant get close enough with thick jeans and a sweater on.

As if catching the nonexistent signal, Taehyung parts their lips with a soft sigh, "Eat and then
shower. it's been a long day"

"Okay" he takes the first bite and wonders if it'd be too much to ask Taehyung to share a
room.

Jeongguk nearly slipped in the shower from how quickly he moved around. washing
everything in record time to hopefully be out before Taehyung falls asleep.

Throws on some sweatpants and honestly doesn't care about wearing a shirt when he rushes
into the living room.
Composing himself and pretending to grab a bottle of water when he hears footsteps followed
by a sharp breath.

Turns around and Taehyung's leaned against the doorway of the kitchen with eyes so dark he
can barely breathe "Fuck, you're stunning"

Composing himself and pretending to grab a bottle of water when he hears footsteps followed
by a sharp breath.

Turns around and Taehyung's leaned against the doorway of the kitchen with eyes so dark he
can barely breathe "Fuck, you're stunning"

"Do you want to watch a movie with me? Yoongi isn't here, so we have the living room to
ourselves."

Though it's posed as an option, there's only one answer and Jeongguk knows as well as
Taehyung what it would be, "I'd like that a lot"

Taehyung feels the unwanted pang in his chest. He doesn't want to think about it. He can't
afford to think about it.

Not right now when Jeongguk is leaned against his chest and their breaths are in time with
one another.

Because Taehyung meant what he said about Seokjin and respecting his wishes.

But goddamn it, he doesn't want to have to let go of this. which is exactly why he didn't want
to start.
he can't pull himself away from Jeongguk once he's had him close. not when there are eyes
that sparkle, looking right at him.

A warm, tantalizing smile and it's a shame really that Jeongguk is everything Taehyung's ever
wanted.

It's ridiculously unfair.

He feels so selfish.

While the movie plays and Jeongguk is very invested in the action but Taehyung's thumb
rubs mindless circles into Jeongguk's skin.

Digging at his hipbone and watching him enjoy the movie.

Taehyung honestly couldn't tell you, even a little bit, what is happening on the screen.

And his entire body feels warm. thinks about how there's only two days left before they
leave.
Saying yes to this was a horrible idea.

Because Taehyung will have to go back to his normal life and pretend he's okay.

And when Seokjin asks he will have to lie. certainly there's no way he could tell his best
friend how hes fallli—"You okay?"

Jeongguk's voice is soft and he's so close when he turns his head to meet Taehyung's eyes,
"Your heart is pounding so hard I can feel it.."

"Yeah, I'm okay" smiles softly and uses his free hand to run his fingers through Jeongguk's
hair

He can't keep doing this, he can't.

He can't.

He can't.

But goddamn, Jeongguk is practically /begging him with those eyes and the way they flutter.

What else is he to do? but grab Jeongguk by the side of his neck and bring their lips together.

His intentions were to kiss him softly, but Jeongguk doesn't give him that option.

The second their lips touch, he's moving. sifting and shifting until he has one leg on either
side of Taehyung's thighs and he's holding onto his face, "Guk—" won't bring himself to
argue.

Not when Jeongguk kisses him slowly now, bodies as close as they possibly can be and
Taehyung swears he can feel their hearts beating against one another.

Jeongguk hums sweetly against his mouth when Taehyung teases with his tongue.

It feels like he's been reduced to molten lava when their tongues meet and glide and
Taehyung's hands find their way to Jeongguk's waist too easily.

Holds on tight to resist the urge to roam. won't let himself rub all over the man's back and
sides.

Refuses to trace the outline of his abs that he's been staring at since Jeongguk came out from
the shower shirtless.

Movie be damned, Taehyung can't breathe. Jeongguk's kissing him harder and gently rutting
against him.

And his body feels like it's been shocked so he pulls away.

Planting small, soft kisses all over Jeongguk's face and down his neck, "Jeongguk-ah"
It's not a good idea, he knows this. but if 48 hours is all he has left, he doesn't want to spend a
moment of it without Jeongguk by his side, "Hmm?" the boy questions with a dazed
expression as he tilts his head.

Leaning in to brush their noses again, lips pecking instantly, two, four, eight gentle touches
that have Taehyung's entire stomach in knots.

"Do you want to go to sleep?"

"No"

"Not even with me?"

Watches Jeongguk's expression, trying to read his response.

"Seriously?"

"I genuinely mean to sleep, Guk-ah" cant help the smirk when he sees the way Jeongguk's
eyes are desperate. "I just want to feel you close to me. is that okay?"

"So, I come to your room, and we just sleep?"

"Or I can come to yours, whichever you want."

Jeongguk's hands are curled around Taehyung's nape when he leans back a little, "Why?"

"You can say no, I won't be offended I promise" moves to attempt to get Jeongguk off of his
lap but the man lets out a /very displeased noise.

"I want to, are you an idiot? Taehyung, I want anything to do with you. I just..don't
understand how you went from rejecting me to inviting me to your bed?"

Taehyung gets it, but he still doesn't know what to do or say.

"I need to make something very clear..." grabs Jeongguk by the chin and kisses the mole
beneath his bottom lip. "I said what I said, only because of external factors effecting our
situation."

"I know" sad eyes are back and Taehyung can't help but to kiss him.

Presses their lips together before he makes sure Jeongguk can see the sincerity in his eyes,
"In a world where it were only you and i, there would be absolutely no question."

"No question about what?" Jeongguk asks immediately, face red and eyes wide with
anticipation

"It doesn't matter. because we don't live in that world. I just don't want you to doubt the
honesty in what I say or do." Taehyung's hand is so gentle, the way he traces Jeongguk's
jawline with his knuckles "But I also don't want to lead you on. so I'm trying to be
transparent"
Jeongguk wants to cry when Taehyung moves him from his lap.

Feels like any amount of space between them will be too much.

Will let Taehyung think too much.

Doesn't want to be ripped away from this moment.

"You don't have to worry about any of that, I already told you. if some kisses in a foreign
country is all that I ever get from you, I'll be okay" sends Taehyung a soft smile as he takes
his hand, trying to ignore the aching in his chest

What a lie.

What a lie.

What a lie.

But he's determined to fake it until he makes it.

And right now he just wants to make his spot inside of Taehyung's heart.

Hopes that if he engraves himself deep enough, maybe just maybe, Taehyung won't be afraid
to admit that they could be so good together.

Who better to be Jeongguk's plus one to every event forever, than someone who already has
an invitation?

He's so nervous, when he sits on the edge of Taehyung's mattress.

It's the same as his own, with its warm luxury hotel bedding.

But somehow it feels different, because when he lifts it up and slips his legs beneath the
blanket, Taehyung is right there.

Sitting up against the headboard with a book in his hands.

"Did you really invite me in here to sleep?"

Lips pouting unconsciously that Taehyung's fingers reach out to pinch "That's quite literally
what I told you, isn't it? I just want you close to me."

Huffs a bit before sitting up, scoots right next to Taehyung and leans his head on the man's
shoulder.

Fights off the yawn that he feels coming on and tries not to think about how comfortable he
feels.

How drastically different this is, compared to last night.

Thinks that cuddling into Taehyung's side is far better than crying himself to sleep.
The crisp sound of pages turning is more soothing than it should be. his breathing slows,
chest rising and falling, feels Taehyung's lips press against his forehead.

It will be so mean of the universe to take this away from him when they get home.

Turns his head until he's facing Taehyung and clears his throat.

"Can I help you?" Taehyung teases, closing his book and placing it on the nightstand.

But Jeongguk is rather sleepy, too sleepy to speak up but not too sleepy to flutter his
eyelashes and pucker his lips.

Watches the way Taehyung's eyes dance all over his face, heart rate picking up and seemingly
losing a battle within himself when his hand rises to brush Jeongguk's hair away from his
face, "I'm never gonna be able to tell you no"

And then he kisses him, hard.

Kisses him harder than he expected and ignites every ember of his soul.

The drowsiness slipping away and he's just sinking further and further into Taehyung's arms.

Doesn't know how they manage to move from where they were sitting, figures it's the shifting
that's to blame for the way their teeth lightly clink and their mouths part against his will.

"I like it when you don't tell me no" wants terribly to climb on top of Taehyung so that he
can't pull away. but there's a large hand gripping his side, nearly pressing him into the bed.

Until Taehyung is just barely hovering his body.

Other hand holding him by the jaw, lips pressing down the column of his neck before he
pauses.

Takes a slow, deep breath against his collar bone and then Taehyung's looking at him with
something Jeongguk's never seen before.

"What?" he whispers, breathless and cheeks flushed

"Everything about you is perfect. how is that fair?"

Jeongguk leans up on his elbows so that their lips can touch again, trying to lure Taehyung
back down against him.

"You're thinking again, hyung. making things complicated." shakes his head and feels an
entire zoo erupt when their noses brush and chills run down his spine "Just think about that
world where it's only you and i, right now."

"Hard to think about anything else, if I'm honest ba—but, there's a nagging thought."
Taehyung's eyes close and rests their foreheads together.
Grabs onto the blanket to cover their bodies with it.

Lets his arms come down to completely wrap around Jeongguk and hold him as close as
possible.

Has so many thoughts buzzing in his mind, so many dangerous thoughts he can't let himself
get lost in.

But Jeongguk's voice brings him out of his daze,

"If we were never going to see each other again after tonight" watches the way Jeongguk's
gnaws on his plump bottom lip before finishing his sentence "What's something you'd want
me to know?"

"Why would you ask that?"

"Because I have a horrible feeling that things are going to go back to normal...and I want to
have something to think about."

Taehyung understands entirely yet he can't bring himself to think of a universe where he
never sees Jeongguk again.

"I don't like that question"

Amused with the way Jeongguk's eyes squint and his lips pout the way they always do "But I
can say that if all that mattered were you and me, and I didn't have to think about anyone else
—"

Thinks long and hard before deciding to just say it.

Kisses Jeongguk's lips two impossibly gentle times "I'd tell you that I think you're perfect for
me."

"Shut up" Jeongguk whispers, returning Taehyung's kisses but Taehyung can feel liquid
against his cheek "You can't tell me that. I wanted you to tell me I'm sexy or something"

"That's stating the obvious...i've never been one to do that." rolls off of Jeongguk's body but
pulls him by the waist until their limbs tangle and their knees knock.

"I thought I'm an insufferable brat who doesn't know how to plan anything and is irrational?"

Taehyung's chuckle is deep and Jeongguk feels warmth spread throughout his entire body,
"And I'm a patient, meticulous, overly-rational man, who has a knack for handling brats."

Jeongguk scoffs and tries to push him away "Exactly how many brats do you handle, hyung?"

Taehyung's fingers curl around his hip and pull him right back in before pressing their lips
together with a steaming vigor that knocks the wind out of Jeongguk's chest, "Only one. but
i've been handling him for the last six years and he's gotten rather out of control lately"
"Should probably use those meticulous handling skills to tame him then.." Jeongguk can
barely breath with Taehyung all over him like this.

Gave himself way too much credit to think he was capable of keeping it together

"I should.." Taehyung's mouthing at his jaw and driving him crazy "Any suggestions?"

Jeongguk feels embarrassed.

He's so turned on by the simplest touches of Taehyung's hand on his side.

Fingertips grazing up and down the bare skin of his side.

"Anything" is the only word Jeongguk can muster with the way Taehyung trails his mouth to
connect their lips.

"I have a proposal, if you will?" Taehyung's kisses have slowed and his hand is no longer
rough and bruising against his skin.

"Yes?"

"Let me take you out tomorrow. just for one night."

"We've been going out together every day this week hyung."

Taehyung tsks against his lips and runs those long fingers through Jeongguk's hair "I know
that. but tomorrow, i'd like to pretend that you're mine."

Jeongguk wants to die.

"Why would you want that?"

Taehyung's finger tips dance down his arm until they find Jeongguk's hand, bringing it
between them and kissing his palm.

"So that when we go home and I let you go, you know the standard of which you deserve to
be treated."

"You don't think that's unfair? to show me what I deserve and then to take it away?"

Taehyung kisses his hand a few more times before dropping it between their bodies

"Maybe I just want an excuse to pretend you're mine." Taehyung's breaths are short and
shallow.

Jeongguk doesn't want to pretend, but this could be one step closer to getting what he wants.

"I have one condition."

Taehyung's eyes are barely visible in the darkness of the room but they are and they're
glistening with so much warmth, "Whatever you want"
"We don't stop pretending until our holiday is over."

Jeongguk's stomach is in knots while he waits for Taehyung to respond. It was his idea in the
first place..."Okay"

"Okay?" Jeongguk let's out a breath of relief "That's all it took?"

Taehyung's plush lips are kissing him again and Jeongguk can feel the way he smiles against
their kiss "You'll get whatever you want, as long as you're mine"

And Jeongguk thinks this will either be the best two days of his life or the worst mistake he's
ever made.
 where there is desire, there is going to be a flame.
Chapter Summary

where there is a flame someone's bound to get burned.

Pops 😈
Mom gets a reply and I get left on read all week?

ME (jjk)
Srry
Wasn’t trying to leave you on read
We’ve just been busy
And Taehyungie-hyung said he texted you so

Pops 😈
Taehyung did text me, but i’d like to hear from my son.
How were the museums? Did you pull out your camera at all?
What time is your flight home Saturday morning?

ME (jjk)
Ur son’s been a little preoccupied, pops
But it’s been so nice honestly. The museums are way better than the ones we have. And you
know…Tae has a really unique way of interpreting things. It kind of blew my mind.

Pops 😈
Yeah, one of the reasons I like him so much, he keeps me on my toes.

ME (jjk)
Went to a beach and took some cool wintery beach pics. I’ll show you and ma when I get
home.
Flights at like 3 in the morning so I should get home at a decent time saturday afternoon.

Pops 😈
Our house is too quiet when you’re gone. I hope you have no plans of moving out anytime
soon…Ma and I decided we aren’t ready to have an empty nest yet…

ME (jjk)
Don’t worry, you’ve probably got another year of me being a degenerate living in the
basement

Pops 😈
Wouldn’t want it any other way. See you when you get home. Love you
ME (jjk)
Love u too

Jin-Hyung
What time should I pick Jeongguk from the airport?

ME (kth)
I’ll get him home, don’t worry.

Jin-Hyung
Did you guys talk?

ME (kth)
It hasn’t really come up again….
We watched a movie last night and we’re going to do more in the city, so all is good.

Jin-Hyung
Are him and Yoongi getting along?

ME (kth)
Yoongi’s been in and out but they have been getting along when he’s here yes.

Jin-Hyung
Okay, I'm sorry for drilling you. I just really want to know Jeongguk is having a good time.

ME (kth)
I understand, I’m doing everything in my power to make sure this has been a great week for
him.

Jin-Hyung
Enough about my kid. Has the she-devil been bothering you?

ME (kth)
Yes, she found out that I came here with someone(Jeongguk) and has been hounding me to
find out who it is.

Jin-Hyung
It’s none of her damn business
I can’t wait until this is over with
I told you to call it off with her years ago!!
She’s psychotic.

ME (kth)
I know but you know how my parents are, they try too hard to point me in the right direction
and I’m the one who gets burned when they’re wrong.
Joon-hyung
Worried about you, you okay?

ME (whores GC)
Oh
Oh my god
So much has happened
Complete 360 idk idk idk
Well..temporarily iguess?
Anyways
Taehyung wants to take me out on a date??i thinkkk
But he’s on some "I want to show you how you deserve to be treated” bullshit.
Like?? OKAY JUST BE WITH ME AND TREAT ME LIKE THAT THEN!!!!

Jiminie-hyung
What the fuck did we miss???

ME (whores GC)
Um
Ill give full details when I get home bc im in his bed and dont want to get caught freaking out
over this
Lots of kissing
Lots of talking
A mutual understanding
And I very well may end up with my heart broken at the end of this week but at least right
now I'm happy

Hobi-hyung
IN HIS BED?!!! And you expect us to wait patiently for details?!
This is so unfair, we’re invested too!!

Jiminie-hyung
I feel like I'm being blue balled

ME (whores GC)
There’s nothing to be invest in right now :(
Taehyung has made it VERY CLEAR that if my dad tells him to stop talking to me he will…
he cherishes their friendship so..

Jiminie-hyung
WTF what an asshole!!!!

Joon-hyung
I mean, at least he is being up front about it. He’s not trying to lead you on or just get laid. He
clearly knows you have some feelings for him and doesn’t want you to feel taken advantage
of.
I mean, I think it’s shitty to act on them at all if there’s a dead end in sight, but it’s not my
life.
ME (whores GC)
I'm the one who kept pushing and pushing for more
And I may have pretended like idc and im totally cool with just making out for a few days
and calling it quits
ABORT HES WAKING UDSP I GOTTA GO

Taehyung figures that Jeongguk is trying to be quiet.

With the way he tucks himself under the blanket and muffles his giggles as he clearly taps
away at his phone.

And Taehyung can tell by the tiniest bit of light pouring in that the sun is just barely rising.

He said that today is for Jeongguk and to show him how he deserves to be treated.

In a way it was the truth, but more than anything it's for himself. he feels selfish for it, but the
urge to reach under the blanket and tug Jeongguk into his arms is too strong.

So he turns over to make it clear that he's awake, watches with one eye open as Jeongguk
slips the blanket under his chin, placing his phone under his pillow and turning to his side.

Scoots backwards just a little to be closer and Taehyung has no problem helping him

Arm extending and palm expanding over Jeongguk's stomach as he pulls their bodies flush
together.

The tiny gasp he hears makes his chest feel warm. lips pressing gently behind Jeongguk's ear
"Sleep a little longer"

One of Jeongguk's hands come up to rest next to Taehyung's

Who takes it upon himself to lightly lock their fingers together.

Fuck he really loves this.

Having Jeongguk close like this nearly has him in tears because he's so damn happy.

"I'm going to miss walking around here.." Jeongguk's been walking with his hands in his
pockets the entire time "The buildings all have such unique designs, so much different than
back home"

"Architecture is definitely one of my favorite parts of visiting here"

And despite the boldness Taehyung had yesterday and last night. A lot of it his diminished.
Jeongguk can tell because he keeps a small amount of space between them as they walk and
he's not been touchy at all today.

Despite the fact that they woke up completely entangled in each other and Taehyung held him
by the chin as he pressed their lips together softly, whispered 'goodmorning' and sent chills
through his entire body.

He meant it when he said he wants to enjoy these last two days.

So he moves quickly, stands in front of Taehyung and wraps his arms around the man's
middle with rounded eyes and a pouted lip.

"What's the puppy eyes for?" Taehyung teases. stops walking and tucks some of Jeongguk's
hair behind his ear

"You're ignoring me"

Watches the way Taehyung's brows furrow, confused, "How am I ignoring you?"

"I dunno." shrugs and pulls away, begins to walk again "Forget it"

Taehyung's finger curls into the belt loop of his jeans and spins him around so quickly he
almost falls over

"Baby, wait" Jeongguk's heart pounds, the world is stopped, feels himself pulled closer and
Taehyung holds him like hes something precious "I'm not ignoring you, I'm just nervous, I
know I said a lot of things last night but it's easy to simply say all of the things I want to do"

"Just do them" Jeongguk breathes in sharply "I'm /yours for the next 48 hours, so don't
question anything"

Taehyung has that look on his face again, the one that tells Jeongguk he's seconds away from
falling apart.

He feels a warm kiss pressed to the tip of his nose, before Taehyung intertwines one of their
hands so that they can continue walking.

"Where do you feel like eating today?"

"I really want some pasta, i've been craving it all week"

Taehyung pulls him a little closer and let's go of his hand, to instead curl his arm around
Jeongguk's shoulders "I know a great place right off of the university campus, it's only ten
minutes from here"

He's trying to steady his racing heart but it won't be still.

His mind is in a full fledged panic.

When they stop at a streetlight to wait for their turn to walk, he can feel Taehyung staring at
him.

Wants to meet his gaze but he won't be able to stop himself from kissing him

Apparently he doesn't have to stop himself because Taehyung leans against the post and pulls
Jeongguk into him.

Warm hands cradling his cold face and thumbs rubbing over the redness of his cheeks, "Your
skin flushes easily. we need to come here again once it's summer"

His heart is nearly on the ground at this point, when he can't bite back the smile on his face
and Taehyung leans in to kiss him.

Two gentle pecks of his lips before their light changes and it's time for them to walk again.

Jeongguk feels hopeless when he says, "It's wishful thinking that you'd bring me here again"

"And why is that?"

"Because, this all ends after tomorrow. remember?"

Taehyung is silent but his hand squeezes against Jeongguk's before he speaks very carefully,
"That doesn't mean we can't come here again. a place just for us. that world where only you
and I matter, remember?"

He knows that the chances of that happening are slim to none

He's really not an idiot.

But right now Taehyung is holding him close and called him /baby and kissing him everytime
their eyes meet.

So for now, he can pretend they'll be able to come back.

Just like he'll pretend that Taehyung is going to choose him once everything is said and done.

Even if he knows, that he won't.

"I'd really like that, Taehyung"

The man looks at him with soft eyes and Jeongguk thinks it's too easy to get lost like this.

Jeongguk's not the jealous type. has never been the jealous type in any of the very short lived
relationships he's been in.

Except, he /has always been rather envious of the people in Taehyung's life.

The people that were free to cling to him at holiday parties.

Giggling and laughing while Jeongguk turned his eyes the other way because it made his
blood boil.

Much similar to right now.

They've popped into a cinema and Taehyung is trying to get them some snacks for the movie
but someone that's in line with him seems very interested

Asking about the movie they're seeing and where Taehyung is from...and as much as he loves
listening to Taehyung speak a foreign language, he's fucking irritated.

Walks up to hug him from behind, chin hooking on his shoulder and places a soft kiss against
his ear "I filled up our drink"

Taehyung turns into him and Jeongguk feels his ears burning when Taehyung presses a chaste
kiss to his lips "Thanks baby, go get us some good seats. I'll be right there"

A small part of him wants to say 'no! I'll stay here!!'

But he figures he's made his point so he smiles at the stranger who is now staring between the
confession menu and their feet.

"Okay, hurry!" before he's off and something just feels so /right about being with Taehyung
like this.

It's terrifying.

Taehyung has always known that Jeongguk loved Marvel movies.

But what he didn't know is how much he would /love watching Jeongguk watching a Marvel
movie.

Catches himself once again with his eyes glued on the man next to him instead of the screen.

Because Jeongguk's bright eyes follow every bit of movement and his jaw drops periodically
when he's fully engrossed.

Taehyung bringing him back to earth by pressing a piece of popcorn between his spread lips.

God, he wants to kiss him.

But he doesn't, only receives the crinkled eye smile he gets in return eagerly before settling
back in his chair and trying to catch up on what's happened in the movie.

But his mind is far off in a place where Jeongguk is actually his and he doesn't have to play
pretend.
"Hyung, you haven't said a word about the movie the entire time and i've just been rambling
like an idiot—"

Taehyung's hand tightens against his lower back as he turns him into a cafe and guides him to
the first open booth.

"Did it ever occur to you that I absolutely love listening to you speak?"

Jeongguk swallows on thin air, attempts to fight off the blush "Your flattery is too much
today"

"I'm not flattering you, your voice is soothing. you could speak for hours and I'll never get
bored"

"I also, must admit, that I wasn't paying nearly as much attention to the film as you were"

Jeongguk's hands were drumming along the table as they wait for a waitress to come by.

One of Taehyung's hands reach out to brush their fingers together.

"What were you doing then?"

"I was distracted"

Jeongguk can feel Taehyung's shoe clink against his own, silently shuffling their together
under the table has him feeling like a child in the best way.

"Was I chewing too loud? Jimin nags me for that sometimes"

Taehyung's laughter fills the space between them and makes Jeongguk feel impossibly happy
"No, baby, I was just too busy watching you. can't help it, I was doing the same thing the
other night."

"Why do you keep suggesting we watch movies if you're just going to stare at me the whole
time?"

Taehyung's lips curl into the kind of smile that makes Jeongguk weak in the knees "Because I
love looking at you"

When they walked passed the ice skating rink, Taehyung genuinely didn't think he'd have to
worry about Jeongguk wanting to stop.

They've been out and about all day, temperatures near freezing and the way Jeongguk was
looking at him in the cafe said he couldn't wait to go home

Unfortunately for Taehyung, he was wrong.

Because the moment they reach the entrance to the park, Jeongguk's hand tugs and his round
eyes are back in full force "Can we please skate? I haven't done it since I was like twelve.
please please say yes."

He's bouncing on the balls of his feet and tugging at Taehyung's hands.

He doesn't want to say no, but he has to. Taehyung can't possibly embarrass himse—"please"
Jeongguk asks so softly, using his lips as a weapon because he kisses Taehyung.

Leaving him no choice but to nod as he kisses him again.

"But you need to know that I have absolutely no center of balance and will most likely fall on
my face."

Jeongguk only kisses him again with the sweetest smile, "Don't worry, hyung. I'll catch you"

Taehyung knew it was a bad idea.

Knew it when they stood at the counter to pay.

Knew it when he knelt in front of Jeongguk to tie up his skates for him.

Knew it as he tied his own despite Jeongguk trying to return the favor.

Knew it as they walked out towards the large sheet of ice and Jeongguk kissed him before
they stepped out, "Thank you for saying yes"

And his heart absolutely melts even thought he knew it was a bad idea.

Only proves himself correct when Jeongguk glides onto the ice with ease meanwhile
Taehyung is leaned over, seconds away from wiping out.

His knees wobble and he feels his face heating up, this is so embarrassing.

But then there's warm hands grabbing onto his own and holding him up right, "told you I
won't let you fall" smile impossibly bright.

And Taehyung refuses to focus on just how deeply he feels himself tumbling.

So he strides forward, using Jeongguk's arms to balance himself.

"Y'know, maybe I'll be better off sitting down and watching you. id much prefer to focus on
you, than staring at these used skates anyway."

"No, it's romantic hyung, we skate together under the stars until we're freezing and then we
cuddle together to warm up once we get home"

Taehyung's chest tightens, squeezes Jeongguk's hands "Well you've got it all planned out
don't ya, baby?"
The man in front of him just giggles, turning around way too smoothly for someone who
hasn't ice skates in years.

Leaving Taehyung holding onto the wall to stare in amazement before he comes up behind
him.

Hands on his waist to guide Taehyung forward, "You've got to make it around at least one full
time"

Leans his head back towards Jeongguk with a sly smile "And what do I get if I do?"

"You get to snuggle me two nights in a row."

Taehyung wants to kiss him so bad, almost does, except he loses his footing and they both
fall to the ground before either can stop it.

Turns over so that Jeongguk is properly on top of him and steals the kiss that he just busted
ass for, "That's definitely worth getting frost bite and breaking my ankle"

"You did not break your ankle" Jeongguk laughs against his mouth, kisses him again.

Taehyung can't stop himself from holding onto Jeongguk's warm face, kissing him
againandagainandagain.

Until Jeongguk pulls away because they're in public. Taehyung is terrified that he's going to
have a major problem getting himself to stop kissing Jeongguk.

It wont be possible to see those soft eyes sparkling up at him and not kiss him silly.

"Let's get your full revolution, over with so we can go home" Jeongguk stands first, pulls
Taehyung to his feet and just one more time wouldn't hurt.

So he falls into Jeongguk's arms, caging him between his own against the wall of the rink and
feels an uncontrollable heat build in his stomach when he's met with Jeongguk's parted lips.

Fuck, he's everything.

Savors the small moment of kissing him like this, figures they won't ever see these people
again anyway.

He's going to make this memory count. so that the next time Jeongguk see's an ice rink he
doesn't think about being a goofy kid.

Wants him to see the scraped up siding of the rink wall and think about the way Taehyung's
hands held him in place.

The vision of a wintery night sky with constellations all over to remind him of Taehyung's
lips pressed against his own with enough fire to keep them both warm.
When he finally pulls away Jeongguk looks like he has something to say, but he doesn't. only
clears his throat and holds Taehyung by the hand as they make their way around the rink.

All Taehyung can think about right now is how an entire day has already flown by.

Jeongguk's teeth are practically chattering when they finally reach home.

Dusts the snow off of his boots outside the hotel entrance before he goes to step inside the
warm building.

Taehyung's hand doesn't let him get that far, though.

He's turned around and feels an almost nonexistent kiss against his lips when Taehyung
smiles "I've had a great time with you today. I just wanted you to know that."

"I have too" his heart is skipping "But our day isn't over, you owe me snuggles"

Taehyung's brow lifts when he grabs the door handle to open it for both of them, "I do believe
it is you who owes me the snuggles, since I tortured myself on the ice for you"

Jeongguk has to cover his mouth to keep from laughing too loud in the quiet hotel lobby.

But when they're in the privacy of the elevator he grabs both of Taehyung's hands and pulls
them to wrap around his own waist "Don't care who owes who as long as I end up in your
bed tonight"

The hands holding his own tighten when Taehyung smirks at him while shaking his head,
"That wasn't an option, baby, that was always where you were going to end up tonight."

Jeongguk leans his head on Taehyung's shoulder as they ride the elevator all the way up to
their floor.

His chest has had an aching throb all day and he's trying so hard to ignore it.

But he can't.

But he has to.

Because he wanted this so bad, he begged for it.

So he's not going to let his own sulking ruin it.

Jeongguk very much wanted to test his luck, when Taehyung said he was going to shower,
the words "Let's save water" we're just dangling on the edge of his tongue.

Choosing not to say them is a moment worth being proud of.

Though truthfully, as he rinses the soap out of his own hair, he wants to cry.

Jeongguk is not ready /at all, for this to end. He told himself he wouldn't spend the next two
days thinking about when they're over but it's hard not to.

And Taehyung is /evil.

For being so doting and affectionate, there are split moments in time where Jeongguk feels
like they are actually together.

He really thought on the way home that Taehyung would say exactly what he had been
thinking all day.

But he never said it.

Marisol
[image attached]
Isn’t that Seokjin’s son?
That’s who you fucking took with you?
OH, I fucking knew it.
I called it at their end of year party, THREE goddamn years ago, Taehyung.
You SWORE there was nothing going on. Do you know how to do anything other than lie?

ME (kth)
You really love jumping to conclusions don’t you?
Yes I am here with Jeongguk and Seokjin knows we are here.
In case you need a reminder, I have called off the engagement, I don’t owe you anything.
And it wasn’t a lie, what I said back then…
But you can tell Alanis to stop photographing people without their knowledge. Stalking is a
crime.

No, Jeongguk does not feel ridiculous for sitting on the couch and waiting for thirty minutes
after he's out of the shower.

And he will not barge into Taehyung's bedroom to scold him for being rude.

Only because when he /does open the door to Taehyung's room he can see that the balcony
door is open and the smell of smoke is strong.

Sneaks his way out there and crosses his arms as he stands against the door frame.

"I hope you don't plan to kiss me reeling of cigarettes"

Taehyung's head snaps around with wide eyes, dipping the end of the stick into the ashtray
next to him.
"I'll brush my teeth before bed"

Walks closer and pauses for a second, eyes looking over every bit of Jeongguk's frame before
grabbing onto his hips to push them both inside the room.

"Were you waiting for me?"

"Yes, actually, I thought you were blowing me off"

Watches the way Taehyung pulls the comforter down on Jeongguk's side of the mattress
before going into his bathroom.

"I would never, just really needed to clear my mind for a minute, I'm sorry"

"It's okay.." but Jeongguk doesn't feel like it's okay.

He doesn't want to pry either but the second Taehyung is climbing on top of him, bright smile
as he blows fresh minty breath against his lips, he can't help it "What'd you need to clear your
mind from this time?"

"Same ole' same old."

"Your ex fiancé?"

Taehyung's hand holds onto the side of his neck before nosing at Jeongguk's jaw "The last
fucking thing I want to do right now is talk about her, okay?"

"I just want to help you feel better.." his head tilts backwards because Taehyung's lips are on
his neck

"You make me feel better just by being here, I can't think about anything else when you're in
front of me"

And the way Taehyung kisses Jeongguk right now is terrifying.

Because his lips are soft and warm and sincere.

He sighs into it and chuckles all deep and breathy when Jeongguk tries to part Taehyung's
lips with his tongue.

And it's so easy to get swept up in the way Taehyung's hands gently roam.

He doesn't normally do this, normally keeps his hands on Jeongguk's face or his waist.

Taehyung is still being far too innocent for Jeongguk's likings but he truly meant it when he
said he'll take anything.

So when Taehyung's hands slide around his body to spread out on his lower back, Jeongguk
preens.
Arching against him when Taehyung pulls him closer and the soft whine that falls off of his
lips was unintentional.

He's assuming the way Taehyung curses under his breath was unintentional too.

Except maybe it wasn't because he's moving quicker.

His fingers are now scraping against Jeongguk's skin and uses all of his strength to roll them
over until Jeongguk's straddling him.

And Taehyung shouldn't have given Jeongguk control like this because he has no self
restraint.

Not when he wants him so badly and Taehyung's hands are bruising against his thighs.

"Taehy—" he tries to make it clear, grinds down against him but feels those hands freeze.

"No" Taehyung's breathing harshly against his mouth when they part and Jeongguk really
wants to cry.

"Why" his voice comes out half broken.

Watches the way Taehyung's face softens as he rubs a hand down his back.

"Because you're way more than that."

"That doesn't make me want you any less" he knows he's whining. he'll let Jimin yell at him
for being pathetic later. but he has to /try.

"And you think I don't want you?" Taehyung's voice sounds rather broken himself.

Hands coming to rest on Jeongguk's hips and won't allow him to press his body down no
matter how hard he tries to fight against his grip "But I don't want you like this"

"Like what?" he feels embarrassed.

can't stop the tears that fall and he really wants to run away.

"I don't want you like this when I don't know if I get to keep you" Taehyung is speaking so
softly. kisses the tear right off of his cheek "It's not fair to either of us. you told me not to
make things complicated, remember? this would make things complicated."

"Its just sex, Taehyung. just like this kissing and the hand holding and the cuddling. it's
meaningless if we want it to be." Jeongguk rolls off of him and sits up on his knees. he's
angry and frustrated.

"That's the problem baby" Taehyung sits up against the bed frame.

Head shaking and fingers rubbing against his lips "I don't want it to be meaningless."

"What"
"I'm sorry for making you cry." Taehyung reaches for Jeongguk's hand to tug him closer.

Doesn't stop until he's laying across his lap. long fingers spreading through his hair and
Jeongguk feels like he can't breathe.

"And I'm sorry for that. it got intense quickly, I shouldn't let myself lose control so easily"

"Are you really just going to skip passed what you just said?" Jeongguk moves until he's
looking right up at him.

Fingers playing with the buttons of Taehyung's pajama shirt "You didn't make me cry. I just
felt really embarrassed"

"Why?"

"Because I'm literally begging you to touch me and you won't."

Taehyung sighs before looking away "I said what I said"

"And im trying to get you to elaborate because my mind hasn't caught up yet"

"Elaborate on which part?"

Jeongguk groans, yanking at the shirt so hard he almost rips a button off "All of it."

Taehyung moves Jeongguk so that he is sitting up and they face each other.

Legs crossed and Taehyung brings one of Jeongguk's hands to his lips.

"today wasn't meaningless to me. neither was the first time you kissed me. neither was my
interest in you the night we met. do you understand?"

Jeongguk blinks a couple of times and takes in a heavy breath.

Taehyung looks down at where their legs touch and squeezes Jeongguk's hand tighter "You
are not meaningless. so that's why I can't cross some lines with you right now."

"But.." Jeongguk looks away because he doesn't want to cry more. "If it's not meaningless to
me and it's not meaningless to you, than why can't we?"

"I already told you, I don't want you in that way if I don't get to keep you."

"That's so stupid. it's not that big of a deal to sleep with someone. people do it all of the
time!"

"I don't care what other people do. it doesn't change my mind. and you are not some random
hot guy at a bar."

"So if I was a random hot guy at a bar you'd fuck me?"

Taehyung groans and leans back against the headboard "No, because I don't fuck random
people."

"Then what's the problem! it's the last night of our vacation, tomorrow night we have to go
home."

"Jeongguk, I don't know how many times I can repeat myself for you to understand."

He doesn't understand. he won't. inches closer and wraps his hands around Taehyung's neck,
eyes dark and body burning "Make me understand"

Taehyung's teeth are gritted. eyes closed. Jeongguk knows he wants it too. wants Taehyung to
get off of his high horse and just do something about what they are both feeling right now.

Lets his knees rest on each side of Taehyung's legs when he kisses him "Thought you can't
tell me no"

"I have to tell you no on this. my mind won't change, so please stop."

His chest deflates.

Sags against Taehyung's lap and pouts "I'm sorry"

Taehyung's kissing him again.

Softly. gently. not heated and not as if trying to devour him. just let's their lips brush over and
over again.

Nibbles on Jeongguk's bottom lip before pulling away with a smile "Don't be. you have no
reason to be sorry."

"I tried to pressure you into something you clearly told me you didn't want and that's not
something I should do and I don't know why I did and I'm so stup—"

Taehyung's fingers cover his mouth delicately when he shakes his head

"Since /you clearly dont understand, I'll say this one more time. I want you, Jeongguk. I want
you in more ways than you could imagine. but I can't have you right now. that is the only
reason, I said no. you didn't do anything wrong."

He just stares. mouth ajar, speechless.

Jeongguk's heart is pounding against his chest and suffocating his brain "Can I ask you
something? "

"Anything" Taehyung pulls the blanket from under them, forcing them to get situated in bed
and turns off the last lamp that was illuminating the room.

"If my dad didn't care, would you take me on a real date? not a pretend one?"
Taehyung doesn't answer for awhile.

In reality, probably only a few seconds but it feels like hours pass with Jeongguk holding his
breath and staring into the darkness around them.

Laying on his back with his eyes closed.

"Guk-ah, I don't think you listened to a damn thing I said tonight"

"Of course I did!"

He feels Taehyung's arm curl around his middle like it did the big he before.

Feels him tangle their legs together and those soft lips kiss his shoulder "If you listened than
you would already know the answer to that question" Jeongguk just huffs. willingly taking
the kisses Taehyung presses against his lips.

Is about to whisper goodnight when he hears Taehyung whisper against his ear instead "I
want so much more than to take you on a date, silly baby"

Taehyung can't sleep.

Hasn't managed to get even a second of slumber. How could he? when Jeongguk's snuggled
up against his side, snoring softly and looking absolutely stunning.

Taehyung, is dreadful.

Dreading every last bit of going home tomorrow night. almost regrets letting this happen. he
knew somewhere deep in his mind that saying yes to this trip meant opening a door he's not
opened before.

Yet still he said yes because there's been this part of him, ever since that night years ago, that
finds it impossible to stay away.

It's like a tether has been yanking him Jeongguk's direction and he finally stopped resisting
for one week.

Allowed himself this small snippet of time and it almost feels like torture because Jeongguk
is insufferably bratty but even more than that, he's sweet.

He's sweet and can make Taehyung laugh so hard his stomach hurts. been smiling so much
this week his jaw feels sore

And Taehyung's always known Jeongguk was gorgeous but he really had no idea just how
absolutely mind blowingly stunning he is.

Having to see him from morning until night for five days straight has just solidified the fact
that no one holds a candle to him.
Taehyung knows what is to come, he's accepted it. come to terms with it in a way.

But somehow, he has this feeling that his mind has no idea the way his heart is going to break
if Seokjin says to stop.

Wants to convince himself that he'll be okay, it's just a crush.

He hasn't fallen that hard..couldn't possibly—"Tae.." Jeongguk's soft sleepy voice calls out,
hand reaching out for Taehyung to pull his arm back.

Pulling until his arm is wrapped around the man's body again "C-cold" shivers and burrows
even tighter against Taehyung's side.

He has no choice but to completely open himself up, allowing Jeongguk to take over his
space and use Taehyung's body heat for warmth.

Speaks out low and slow "Want me to grab the blanket from your room, baby?"

Jeongguk shakes his head, but he does nudge at Taehyung's shoulder, lips unconsciously
pouting when he whispers "Kiss"

Taehyung is absolutely, undoubtedly, fucked.

Leans in to kiss those sweet lips without hesitation, just one gentle pressing of their mouths
before he pulls away with a sigh.

"Go back to sleep" whispers because he doesn't want to wake Jeongguk up entirely

Feels soft fingers brush over his eyelids forcing them closed "You too, sleep too"

"Mhm.." hums as he pulls him closer, just absolutely adores the way Jeongguk feels in his
arms.

"Wanna stay here forever, Tae" Jeongguk murmurs against his chest before he drifts back to
sleep and the quietest snores begin to fill the room.

And Taehyung thinks sleepy Jeongguk has no idea just how much he wishes they could stay
here forever too.

Jeongguk's had many dreams in his life. he's even had many dreams involving Taehyung, if
he's honest.

But nothing rivals in comparison to the way it feels right now. waking up in the early
morning to noise from the kitchen.

Follows it, sleepily after tiptoeing in the bathroom, to find a shirtless Taehyung cooking
something that smells amazing and soft music playing quietly.
The last two days have been a dream and he's not ready to wake up.

But in a way he is ready.

Because all it will do is hurt more if he lets his feelings grow into something more than they
are now.

Still, he's lured in. enters the kitchen and doesn't stop until his bare chest is pressed against
Taehyung's bare back and he kisses his shoulder

"Mornin' baby. thought you'd sleep in."

He doesn't reply, only shakes his head, arms holding tighter around Taehyung's middle until
the man turns around and greets him properly.

Kissing Taehyung feels different every single time.

But the one thing that never changes is the way Jeongguk's mind goes numb.

Warm lips taking over his own until he can barely catch his breath.

"Fuck, tomorrow morning is going to suck so bad" Taehyung huffs when he returns to the
eggs he was scrambling and pours them onto the rice bowls he prepared.

"Why, is something happening tomorrow morning?" Jeongguk moves the chair that would've
been across from Taehyung's and slides it right next to him.

He's just cold, alright? nothing else.

But Taehyung takes advantage of the closeness to kiss his nose and his cheek and his ear
before he speaks softly, "I won't be waking up to you tomorrow. probably won't even get out
of bed."

Takes a bite of his food as if he didn't just make knots swell in Jeongguk's stomach

"Your morning will be better than mine, I'll have my parents berating me all morning until I
give them a play by play of our trip."

Taehyung's hand pauses where he was scooping up another bite when Jeongguk says "Should
we talk about it...what we're going to do?"

Taehyung shakes his head, clearly contemplating before speaking, "Let's talk about it on the
plane, okay? I don't want to waste a single moment of the next 8 hours."

God, Jeongguk doesn't know how's he's supposed to not fall in lo— "Love birds ready to go
home?"

Yoongi walks straight towards the tray of breads to grab one with a smile, watches the way
their faces turn red before he raises a brow with laughter "Oh, am I supposed to pretend I
didn't see you making out like feral animals on the couch a couple nights ago?"
"Yoongi–" Taehyung's teeth grit and Jeongguk feels sick to his stomach because Yoongi
knows his dad too and what if he—

"I'm not gonna say a word if that's what you're worried about Tae. ain't my damn business."

They eat in silence for a few minutes while Yoongi makes coffee, but before he leaves the
room the smiles "You look nice together, y'know."

After spending the afternoon walking around the city and getting his camera out one more
time, Jeongguk can't ignore the bad feelings anymore.

They have 4 hours before they have to leave for their flight.

Agreed to get the packing over with and watch a movie to kill time once they're done.

But the problem is that Jeongguk can't even finish packing.

Fold his shirts and can feel tears stinging at his eyes.

Because no matter what they talk about on the plane, he already has a strong feeling of what
his dad will say and it's so unfair.

That he's 24 and has to have his dad's permission to date someone that he likes this much.

He wishes Taehyung would just put his foot down.

Wants Taehyung to fight for him so bad, if it comes down to it, but he knows that he won't.

Because Taehyung /is his dad's absolute best friend and he knows that Taehyung won't want
to let him down.

And maybe it's selfish but Jeongguk can't help but wish Taehyung cared about /his feelings
the way he cares about his dad's.

Because why is he okay with breaking Jeongguk's heart as long as his dad is happy?

He feels absolutely ridiculous sobbing quietly as he keeps folding articles of clothing.

Doesn't hear the door open and startles when Taehyung sits on the bed, "What's wrong?"

Tries to flick the dears away and play it off as catching a cold but Taehyung knows better.

God, he wishes taehyung didn't know better.

Because the man shoves the suitcase out of the way and tugs Jeongguk into his arms.

Large hands curl around the back of his thighs and Taehyung shouldn't be allowed to look up
at him like this, eyes warm and inviting "please don't tell me you're crying because of me" he
says softly.
Thumb wiping the one traitorous tear that fell down his cheek.

"I'm okay, almost done packing. did you pick a movie?" he tries to move but Taehyung's
hands grab onto his own and won't let him move.

Really has a habit of not letting Jeongguk escape no matter how bad he wants to.

"Something will be playing, yes. but I don't care about that right now. please talk to me baby.
I don't want you to cry"

"There's no point in talking about it right now, Taehyung."

"Why not?"

"Because nothing will change"

"What is it?"

"I hate not knowing what's going to happen between us, okay?" his heart doesn't do a good
job of staying strong. thumping against his chest until he chokes on a sob "And I know it was
my idea and I know I said it would be okay but it's not okay"

"What isn't?"

"I want to be with you s-so bad" he's full on crying when Taehyung stands up to bring him
into the warmest hug

"Hey, hey, stop baby, please" holds onto Jeongguk's face to look into his watery eyes and
Taehyung has already known how royally fucked he is.

Knew it the first time Jeongguk spoke to him all those years ago and it's only snowballed into
something catastrophic at this point.

"What happened to not worrying until we get home, hmm? remember i've got a lot of things
waiting for me."

"I know, that's what makes it worse"

Taehyung looks a little confused when Jeongguk wipes at his own tears and puts a little space
between them

"None of this matters once we get home. you'll go back to your life and I'll go back to mine"

"Guk—"

"It's just easier that way, hyung. if I tell myself that this is the end than maybe it won't hurt so
bad when appa is disgusted and tells you to choose his friendship or a relationship with me"

"Why do you assume that would be his response?"

"Because I know my dad" Jeongguk rolls his eyes and tries to force a smile "It's really been
so nice, you know?"

"I don't like the way you're speaking as if tomorrow we'll be strangers"

"Might as well be, right? you'll have to face your ex-fiancé who your family wants you to
marry. you'll be back to seeing my dad every day at work which will surely snap you out of
whatever feelings you have for me right now. I'm just accessible and we're on vacation so it's
fun"

Jeongguk's never seen Taehyung look so angry, "How the hell can you look me in my eyes
and say that? accessible? after I told you how you make me feel?"

"Makes it easier" he's whispering "Just ripping off the bandaid now, Tae. so that my father
doesn't have to see me crying"

Jeongguk absolutely despises the way Taehyung sees right through him.

Cant stand the way he can't even fight the urge when Taehyung pulls him in and kisses him
so hard it nearly knocks him off of his feet.

"If you want to rip the bandaid off, go ahead. but don't you dare lie to yourself and say that all
this has been was accessibility. not when i've made it very clear that you are so much more
than that to me."

His hands are trembling when they hold onto Taehyung's arms, balancing himself because
Taehyung's lips are relentless.

Feels teeth grazing his neck and had no chance at stopping the feint moan that rolls off of his
tongue as Taehyung bruises the soft skin with his mouth.

"I don't want you to ignore me when we get home" brings Taehyung's lips back to his own
mouth after feeling satisfied with the trail of bruises that he has absolutely no desire to hide.
"please don't go back to only talking to me if I text you first"

"Jeongguk I don't think I could do that if I wanted to, you're so dense sometimes it's
infuriating." his chest heaves and kisses Taehyung again before he can say something stupid.

"Are we going to watch our movie?" he asks quietly because he doesn't know what else to
say

But if he stays in this room for another second with Taehyung's finger tips digging into his
skin, he might lose his mind.

"Yeah, baby, let's go." Taehyung kisses him again. soft and slow.

He knows Taehyung means what he says, but he thinks it'd be easier if he didn't.
They're approximately thirty minutes from boarding the plane when Jeongguk goes to get a
drink from the small airport cafe.

Taehyung's two chapters in to a new book when Yoongi taps his shoulder, "So when am I
going to get the details?"

"What details?"

Yoongi rolls his eyes before his head lulls back and he attempts to take a small cat nap, "I'll
take that as, you're going to tell me after you talk to Jin-hyung, right?"

"I've got to figure out how to talk to him first."

Taehyung feels sick to his stomach just thinking about it. because how can he tell Seokjin that
all of the times he mentioned Jeongguk's 'crush' on Taehyung, that he's been harboring one
too.

And how can he tell him that it was a complete fucking lie when he said any attraction he felt
the night of the reception was gone once he learned it was his son?

As if hearing the cogs struggling to turn in his mind Yoongi let's put an exaggerated sigh.

"Sort the shit with Marisol first. clear the air. give yourself a strong leg to stand on. you may
be hyung's best friend, but that's his son." one eye opens and Taehyung can feel it staring at
him "If you're serious about whatever this is, prove that you're worth it."

"That's what I'm scared of" he's whispering because Jeongguk's almost back and he places a
cup in Taehyung's hand.

"Not sure if you were planning on sleeping on the plane but I got you a coffee anyway."

Taehyung's really going to have to work on fighting back his urges when he leans over the
arm rest to kiss Jeongguk's cheek, "Thank you" quietly before moving the cup to his other
hand and allowing the one between them to rest on Jeongguk's thigh "Can't sleep on planes
anyway"

He's confused for a moment when Jeongguk reaches out his coffee cup until they're nearly
clinking.

"Sit still" he whispers before snapping a picture and leaning back against Taehyung's
shoulder to post it to his instagram.

"I highly doubt anyone wants to see our shitty airport coffee cups, baby"

Not expecting Jeongguk to smile softly before typing a caption "It's not about the cups
hyung, it's about the people holding them"

"And what will your followers gather from a side view of our fingers" Taehyung's full on
giggling now.
Kisses the fluffy haired crown of Jeongguk's head while the man pulls up the post to zoom in
on the picture.

"to any normal person, aka you, it's just a picture of two coffee cups, but to someone that's
curious about who I'm with in a European airport."

"They'll look closely and see the way our thighs are pressed together despite the rail between
us. and the way your knuckles rest in between mine. it's like..." he pauses, "Like saying I
want the world to know you're mine, even if I'm keeping you private. you know?"

Taehyung just really has no choice but to kiss him. reminds himself immediately that they're
in a very busy airport terminal so he keeps the kisses chaste.

Despite the way Jeongguk chases his lips, noses brushing and smiling against each other's
mouths

"I'm crazy about you" Taehyung says it quietly, whispered against Jeongguk's ear. just before
the airport attendant begins calling for boarding.

Feels a light pressure fall off of his chest when he sees the way Jeongguk flushes and smiles.

If nothing else, he's done everything in his power to make his feelings clear.

For now that's all he can do. it doesn't matter immediately if Seokjin knows anything, what
matters is that Jeongguk knows.

Been thinking about it since Yoongi made the comment, 'if you're serious about this'

And he didn't know, at first. because this side of Jeongguk is new, not the man he's come to
know over six years.

But Taehyung knows, undoubtedly, that he has very real and serious uncontrollable feelings
for Jeongguk.

So when they're sitting in their seats, lucky enough to snag a 2 seater close to a window, he
doesn't hesitate to lift the small arm rail.

Allows Jeongguk to lean against his shoulder and locks their fingers where their hands hold
together between their legs.

Stomach feeling hollow when the plane is taking off and Jeongguk says, "I guess now's the
part where we talk about what happens next"

"It's hard to talk about it when there's so many uncertainties." can feel the way Jeongguk's
body sags, his energy shifting from excitement to sadness almost instantaneously.

"Why don't we just take it one step at a time, okay?"

"What do you mean?"

Taehyung lets his head rest against the top of Jeongguk's while he traces the inside of his
palm "You already know I have a lot to face when we get back. let me sort these things out."

"I can really only handle one battle at a time. and as much as i'd like her too, the marisol
battle won't go away easily. so let me focus on closing that chapter of my life, before opening
a new one by telling my best friend im in l—" stops himself before the words escape

Can feel the way Jeongguk's palm has gone clammy "What do I do in the meantime? hope for
the best?"

"No, silly baby, you will be busy getting prepared for your first real post-graduate job. and I'll
be cheering you on. maybe from the sidelines for right now. but always there"

Jeongguk's face moves until it's buried in Taehyung's neck. he can feel every exhale against
his skin and is absolutely not looking forward to being away from this.

"I'm so nervous"

"About what?"

"That something is going to change. because you're selling me this dream of /one day/ but
what if that day doesn't come? or you change your mind? and i've been waiting hopelessly for
the right moment only for it to never happen."

Taehyung understands, more than he should, let's his fingers tickle beneath Jeongguk's chin
until their eyes meet and he kisses him, "Do you trust me?"

A nod.

"Then just let it be. okay? if we rush we'll crash and burn. I don't want that."

"Are you going to drive me home?"

"I picked you up, didn't i?"

Jeongguk makes a whining noise that Taehyung chuckles at, "What's wrong?"

"I'm not going to get to kiss you bye, am i?"

Taehyung's poor, weak, heart. "Of course you can, you'll just have to do it before we're in
your driveway."

"Fine" Jeongguk is pouting so Taehyung kisses him. it's awkward and uncomfortable in these
tiny airplane seats but it works because it's Jeongguk.

And Taehyung, right now, just needs to kiss him as many times as possible before this flight
lands.

As many times as possible until Jeongguk's taste is burned into his tongue.
Because he's gotten to feed his addiction constantly for the last 48 hours

And he's terrified to see the man he's going to become when he has to leave Jeongguk at the
door and return to his empty home.

Doesn't want to wake up without a puffy eye'd man to make breakfast for.

But for right now he's just going to hold him close.

Jeongguk will not cry again.

Jeongguk will not cry again.

Jeongguk will /not cry again.

Except his eyes are already threatening to spill tears when Taehyung grabs both of their
luggages from baggage claim and begins wheeling towards the car.

"Holy shit I'm going to cry my eyes out when I get home" he just says it because there's no
point in hiding it.

Taehyung's seen a lot of his sides over the last five days, no sense in hiding this one.

"Jeongguk-ahhh, stop being sad, please?" Taehyung closes the trunk and grabs him by the
waist until their bodies are pressed together. it's insanely early in the morning now that
they've landed and they're both, dripping with exhaustion.

"Will you send me a text, after you've showered and you're in bed? I'll be home by then
surely."

He nods and lets his fingers toy with the collar of Taehyung's shirt, "You better not leave me
on read"

"I would nev—"

Jeongguk kisses him before he can finish his words "You leave me on read all the time. I'm
asking you, as your baby, to not do it anymore."

And god, that was a mistake. because Taehyung's fingers knot in his hair while he presses
their mouths together fervently.

"And heaven knows I can't possibly say no to my baby, hmm?" Taehyung catches Jeongguk's
bottom lip in his teeth, popping it back before kissing over the swollen skin. "Fuck, I'm going
to miss you."

"Yeah, you know—if you accidentally forgot to drive me home, it'd be okay"
"I have 26 unread texts right now and im positive at least 20 of them are your father asking if
we've landed yet."

Jeongguk sighs when Taehyung's hands glide down from his hair to hold lightly on his lower
back.

Does an awkward waddle walk until he's opening the car door with one hand and kissing
Jeongguk until he's seated.

Tries to pull away but the man has a tight grip on the collar of his shirt "Just one more" asks
quietly

As if knowing the way his request would rip taehyung's mind to shreds.

Has the man leaning all the way in the vehicle, large palm covering the entire right side of his
face while their mouths part and their tongues glide and Jeongguk just feels himself melting
into this seat.

"We've gotta go" Taehyung says against his lips

"Mhm" Jeongguk disagrees, fingers letting go of Taehyung's collar but dragging his hands
down the man's chest

"Fuck" Taehyung shakes his head, forces himself away "You know what you're doing and it's
unfair"

"Just don't want to go yet, I'm sorry" he pouts, batting his lashes because he knows Taehyung
isn't mad.

At least, not at him.

The man is clearly irritated, when he slams their doors shut and his knuckles turn white from
how tight he holds onto the wheel at first.

Let's Jeongguk choose the station as they drive.

One hand on the wheel and the other holding his hand. resting with the back of Jeongguk's
palm pressed against his lips for the entirety of the drive.

Only dropping his hand when they're less than two minutes from the door.

Jeongguk is confused as to why Taehyung's stopped for so long at the stop sign before his
house until he hears the car shift to park and Taehyung's leaning over the center console to
kiss him again.

He so willingly parts his lips and takes everything the man gives him.

Feels a pit of fire in his stomach when Taehyung pulls away, short of breath with their
foreheads pressed together, "I really don't want to let you go."
"I don't want to go"

"I want to call you before I go to sleep, can i?"

"Yeah, i'd really like that"

Jeongguk doesn't get to look for too long before Taehyung is kissing him again but he swears
he saw water at the edge of one of his eyes.

Taehyung returns to his upright position only after pressing three, impossibly slow pecks to
Jeongguk's lips

"I'm going to take you home now"

Puts the car in drive and Jeongguk's forcing back his emotions because he can see the living
room light on the moment they turn down the street.

"Okay"

Sits in silence in the driveway while Taehyung gets out to pull his bag from the trunk.

Wants so badly to steal one last kiss but he knows he can't. so he grabs his own bag and
smiles softly, "I'll text you" he almost whispers because he doesn't trust himself to speak.

Heart doing complete somersaults in his chest when Taehyung gives him the brightest smile,
"I'll be waiting, baby"

Then Taehyung's getting back in the car and slowly driving away.

But the front door swings open before Jeongguk can look back.

"I didn't sleep at all" his mom is squeezing so tight he can hardly breathe "So excited to have
my baby back home, how was everything? what all did you do? I want to see pictures!"

He laughs before flopping onto the sofa "Can I give you a recap after I get some sleep, ma?"

The woman frowns before nodding and taking the jacket from his arms "Okay okay, go get
some sleep, hm? appa's in the shower, so leave your door unlocked. he'll want to see you"

Jeongguk makes his way down to his bedroom and kind of just wants to sink into the floor.

Immediately begins unpacking his bags because the last think he wants is to be woken up by
his mother dragging the dirty clothes from the luggage.

Watches numbly as his empty hamper fill up with clothes, only stopping when he sees that
soft crimson scarf laying in his luggage.

A box wrapped inside of it that he didn't put there. opens it to find a new camera strap,
leather with stars engraved all over it.
Feels his heart thrumming rapidly when he finds a small piece of paper, 'to the brightest star
in the sky. xo, T'

Folds it over in his hands a few times, just knows he's smiling like an idiot when his door
opens and he shoves the paper in his pocket.

"Home sweet home" Seokjin smiles and takes a seat next to him on the bed almost
immediately

Arm curling around his son's shoulders before ruffling his hair "I hope you had a great time, I
want to hear all about it in the morning okay?"

"You and mom are exactly the same, I didn't do anything exceptional over there so I don't
know what you're expecting to hear"

"Everything, son. we want to hear everything" pats his thigh a few times before standing to
leave the room "We want to take you to lunch tomorrow, that okay?"

Jeongguk really needs to spend tomorrow preparing for his first day at work Monday.

But he smiles and agrees anyway.

"Taehyung's birthday is soon, I'm planning a small surprise party for him. figured you could
help me brainstorm since you know more about the fun things around here than I do"

Jeongguk feels a little dumbfounded but refuses to make it obvious "Sounds good, pops"

"You look exhausted so I'll let you rest" tousles his hair one more time "Im sure you'd rather
be there, but I'm glad to have you home. goodnight, son."

Waits until he's heard their bedroom door close before he changes into pajamas and yanks his
phone off the charger

He knows Taehyung told him to text or call but is he being too eager? it's only been about an
hour.

Is that too soon? he doesn't know. but he really doesn't care. and maybe he was worried for
nothing because when he wakes up his phone screen he finds five unread messages.

T 🤎
Did you get settled in?
I’m sure you’re exhausted.
I gave myself more credit than I should have…this may prove to be more difficult than I
thought.
Won’t have my phone while I shower, so if you call and I don’t answer, I’ll call you back. I
promise.
Baby?
Sorry 🥺
ME (jjk)
I was talking to my parents and unpacking and my phone was charging
Are you still awake?

T 🤎
Don’t apologize for doing nothing, just wanted to make sure you got in okay.
Yes, I'm awake. Kinda hard to fall asleep in a big empty bed.

ME (jjk)
Really didn’t think this through, hyung. Who’s going to hold me while I sleep?

T 🤎
Call me.

Okay 😳
ME (jjk)

Let me get comfy first!!! I’ll call you in ten minutes, don’t fall asleep!!

T 🤎
Won’t fall asleep until I get to talk to you, baby. Take your time. I’m not going anywhere.

ME (jjk)
You could go somewhere…
Somewhere being here to pick me up and take me with you.

T 🤎
I really wish that I could.

ME (jjk)
You can..

T 🤎
Jeongguk.

ME (jjk)
Fine…I'm about to call.
|||

Jeongguk shouldn't feel like a teenager, tossing and turning in bed before calling his
crush...but he does.

Presses the green phone button next to Taehyung's contact and feels all of the butterflies
exploding in his stomach.

Taehyung's voice sounds much deeper through the phone, it shouldn't sound like that—"Hi
baby"

"Hi, you in bed still?"

"Mhm" Taehyung chuckles sleepily through the phone and Jeongguk just wants to /die "I
don't even know what to say, I just want to hear your voice"

"My dad wants to take me to lunch tomorrow"

"Is that right?"

"Yeah, we're going to be working on something top secret" tries to stifle his giggle but fails.

He's never been good at keeping secrets.

"Speaking of secrets...did you say you unpacked?"

"Yes I did.." he reaches to his night stand where he laid out the scarf and the camera strap "I
love it, Tae."

Whispers because he feels tears prickling his eyes, when did he get so emotional?

"I bought it on the day I went on a wild goose chase to find you. this old woman suckered me
into her shop"

"If you would've given it to me in person, I would have kissed you"

Taehyung's sleepy laughter does something wicked to Jeongguk's brain

"I'll be waiting for that kiss the next time I have you to myself"

"When will that be?" he asks immediately. it's ridiculous. he shouldn't feel any type of
attachment so soon, when so much isn't clear.

"As soon as possible. let me figure out what my schedule looks like this week"

"I start my job Monday"

"You're going to be amazing"

"You have to give me congratulatory kisses before my first work week is over. it's your duty."

He thinks he can hear the sharp breath Taehyung takes, "Is it now?" the man yawns through
his laughter and Jeongguk wants so badly to cuddle up next to him "I'll be happy to fulfill my
responsibilities babe. just gotta find the right opportunity"

"Don't keep me waiting" Jeongguk yawns too. he can't help it. tried to stop it because he
knew as soon as he did, Taehyung would—

"Go to sleep, hm? I'll text you in the morning."

"I'm not ready to get off the phone yet"

"Your voice tells me otherwise, you sound exhausted"

"Yours does too" hopes his parents are asleep because that whine came out a little too loud

"Let's both go to sleep. we had a long day of travel."

"Okay" he's whispering again, fingers tight around the phone "Goodnight, Taehyung"

"Goodnight baby, sleep well and text me when you wake up, yeah?"

His chest flutters and his stomach feels warm "Yeah, I will"

"Okay"
"Ok goodnight"

Taehyung laughs one more soft time "Goodnight"

"Bye"
"Bye bye baby"

Jeongguk is worried about how he's going to manage to keep himself from blushing like an
idiot the next time Taehyung's around.

So he really hopes they make some progress, quickly.

Marisol
You’re home now, yes?
Our father’s would like to have lunch tomorrow.

ME (kth)
I’m busy.

Marisol
No you aren’t.
Jisoo already verified that your schedule is cleared all week.
Lunch will be at 11:15. The bbq place on the corner near your office building.

ME (kth)
I"M going because of my father. That’s it. And if you think this will change anything, it
won’t.
I don’t need his approval anymore, marisol.

Marisol
You don’t need his approval, sure.
But you do need me, Taehyung.
See you tomorrow.
Getting ready to go have lunch with the last person in the world he wants to see right now,
isn't fun.

Taehyung laid in bed for an hour after waking up just dreading the time getting closer and
closer to time.

Decided last night he wouldn't go into work today, he needed his afternoon to be free.

Has no idea how he's going to make this work at all but he wants to see Jeongguk today.

Gets up to drive to the restaurant because the sooner he gets this shot over with, the sooner he
can try to see his baby.

And that's really all Taehyung cares about right now.

Jin-Hyung
Thought you were coming in today? I wanted to see you!

ME (kth)
Sorry, going to have lunch with my father and marisol and her father. Needed all of my
mental strength to do so.

Jin-Hyung
What for?

ME (kth)
Honestly I have no idea. Im sure to try to talk me into following through with the marriage.

Jin-Hyung
It feels like you’ll be dealing with her forever, that sucks so bad.

ME (kth)
Not forever
Just for now.
Im trying to play nice and not have to resort to extreme measures.

Jin-Hyung
Well im glad you were able to have one peaceful week. I was going to see if you wanted to
catch up with Jeongguk and I for lunch.

ME (kth)
I’d much rather do that than this…

Jin-Hyung
I know, I'll see you tomorrow. Have fun.

|||
ME (jjk)
"Ill text you when I wake up”

T 🤎
I figured you’d have a busy morning, I was waiting for you to text me.

ME (jjk)
:(
Anyways, I heard my parents talking about you this morning.
About you meeting your ex today

T 🤎
Yeah, lunch with our fathers.

ME (jjk)
Im gonna be honest
I hate her but I hope your lunch isn’t miserable..

T 🤎
I shouldn’t be so endeared by you right now
Also, I was thinking…

ME (jjk)
Yes???

T 🤎
What are you doing tonight? After you get off work?

ME (jjk)
Omfg
Nothing
At ALL

T 🤎
Let me pick you up?

ME (jjk)
What about my dad?

T 🤎
I happen to have insider information that your parents are going to the cinema tonight.
Which would be the perfect amount of time for me to cook you dinner in celebration of your
new job.

🥺
ME (jjk)
Okay I can’t wait to see you

T 🤎
Me neither, baby. Have a great first day at work.
ME (jjk)
I hope your lunch is horrible and that she never wants to see you again.
But that your food is good ofc..
🥰😊
T 🤎
I hope so too.

Jiminie-hyung
Helloooo…you’ve been back in the country for 48 hours and haven’t texted us once??? Are
you okay??

ME (whores GC)
Sorry :(( yesterday was crazy and then today I started my job

Joon-hyung
How’s it going?

ME (whores GC)
So far so good! They showed me to my office which is basically a glorified cubicle with a
door…but the people here are really nice so far. Oh!! Hyung!! Hisun works here, in my same
department!

Joon-hyung
Really? That’s cool! Tell him I said hello, we’ll all have to grab a drink or something to catch
up.

Hobi-hyung
What is everyone doing tonight?

Jiminie-hyung
Joon and I are free

ME (whores GC)
I’m not :( I have plans.

Jiminie-hyung
You just got home..how do you have plans? And with who! We’re your only friends!!!

ME (whores GC)
Soo a lot has happened. And idek whats really going on rn to be fair…but I'm going to
Taehyung’s tonight… >.<

Joon-hyung
Woah, your dad’s cool with this?

ME (whores GC)
He doesn’t know…but it’s fine. honestly, I'm just really happy right now.
And if I worry too much about everything then I won’t get to enjoy it.
If something happens and nothing works out, I don’t want to have spent the whole time
worrying about dumb shit.

Jiminie-hyung
But baby…if you want something to come from this, dont you think you should tread lightly?
So that drama doesn’t happen.

Hobi-hyung
Idk guys…i think Guk needs to just do what feels right. This stuff with Mr. Kim doesn’t have
to be something serious. He can just have some fun and when shit gets real–no harm, no foul.

ME (whores GC)
Solidifying your spot as my favorite hyung
I'm heading to lunch with my dad, I'll text later!! We can hangout this weekend.

"Finally! I was starting to think you stood me up"

Jeongguk let's his dad take him into a ridiculously obnoxious hug before sitting across him at
the booth.

"Sorry, lost track of time.." glances around the restaurant because he feels anxious.

"Mom and I won't be home until late tonight, I'm taking her to see that new movie she's been
talking about"

Jeongguk almost let's the words 'i know' slip out but pauses quickly

"That'll be fun, are you guys having dinner too? or will we be eating together?"

They order quickly when the waitress comes by and honestly Jeongguk wants to talk about
anything /except the trip right now.

"I'm trying to give her the full date night, we haven't had one in a long time. so we'll be going
to dinner as well."

"What did you guys do for an entire week while I was gone if you didn't go on a date? how
boring."

Watches the way his dad smirks and shakes his head. kind of wants to vomit, "Don't worry,
we weren't bored"

"Appa, no, I don't care how old I get, I don't want to hear abo—"

"Looks like we're going to have some dining entertainment.." Seokjin clears his throat,
gesturing with his eyes towards the table that was just seated.

If Jeongguk was on the verge of vomiting a few seconds ago, he can feel it on his tongue
right now.
Watches the way Taehyung pulls out the chair for the woman he can only assume to be /her.

Why the hell is he being so chivalrous?

Takes a bite of the bread in front of him before he makes the mistake of saying something
stupid

Seokjin starts speaking before he has a chance, "I feel so bad for him. you know, mom and I
are overbearing, we know that...but it's just out of love. we genuinely want to help you grow
in every way that we can...some parents—" glares the direction of the two old men also there

"—some just dont give a damn about their kid's happiness and only care about how their kids
can benefit them. even if that means they're miserable."

Jeongguk tries to focus on the plate that's put in front of him but he can't.

His eyes keep glancing over their way. Taehyung is sitting within eyeshot, if he just did a
once over on the room he'd certainly see Jeongguk sitting here.

Not that it matters.

Realizes now that it was easy to pretend when there was nothing in the way.

But reality is brutal with the way it smacks him in the face. speaking loud and clear.

Reminding him that no matter how bad he wants it, Taehyung isn't his.

And it fucking sucks.

"Marisol told me you just returned from Europe.." Taehyung's picking at the plate in front of
him. Doesn't have much of an appetite at all. "Was it much needed time to decompress?"

"I had a lovely time, yes."

"You know...your father and I did some talking over these last few months. with you and
Marisol temporarily separating...we came to a few realizations."

Taehyung just wants to go home. Feels like he's trapped in a nightmare.

Only proving worse when he chances a look over his shoulder and spots slicked back brown
locks that are usually fluffy.

Eyes locking with Jeongguk's for a split second before he's brought back to the conversation
at hand, sighing loudly "And what were they?"

"Son, it's not uncommon, in these kinds of marriages, for people to have partners outside of
the home."
Taehyung shakes his head and raises a palm "I'm going to stop you right there, I don't care
what's been done, I'm not interested in that. I want to love my spouse"

"Son.."

"No, really, this just all seems ridiculous. the businesses got their headlines when we got
engaged. they had a couple years of content to feed the board's delusions. it's done now, my
mind won't change."

"Taehyung, you can't just be done." his father groans, pushes his plate in front of him
"Marisol owns your apartment complex."

"So I'll move"

"Taehyung she's taking over her father's company. You'll be business partners one day."

He can hear the woman giggle next to him and feels nothing but rage building inside of him.

Gets distracted momentarily by the sight of Jeongguk and Seokjin standing from their table
before they leave.

He didn't fail to notice the way Jeongguk looked back at him before exiting the restaraunt.

Taehyung is over this, already. he is a fully grown man who owes his father nothing.

"Business partners do not need to be married. if calling off our engagement causes problems
within the businesses, perhaps you should choose someone else to take over when you retire.
I'm happy at my job anyway."

He didn't notice that /Marisol noticed him staring at Jeongguk moments ago.

But she doesn't hesitate to cross her arms "Appa, he doesn't want to marry me because he's
been indulging in perversions with his coworker's son."

"Marisol, shut the hell up. You don't even know what you're speaking on."

"Watch your tone!" her dad yells. drawing attention from the entire restaurant and Taehyung
stands.

Leans down to grab his suit jacket that fell and speaks lowly just for her to hear, "If you think
you have some kind of blackmail over me, you don't. I have nothing to lose."

Walks out of the restaurant without another word to the table.

ME (jjk)
She looks pretty.
T 🤎
Don’t.

ME (jjk)
No really, it makes sense. She definitely fits the ideal partner check boxes that I'm sure your
parents have filled out.

T 🤎
You missed the part where she’s controlling and psychotic. Anyways, I wanted to come say
hi at lunch but obviously…couldn’t.

ME (jjk)
I mean you could have, but it’s fine. Dad said he feels sorry for you. That your parents don’t
care about your happiness.

T 🤎
They don’t. But I don’t care about any of that. You look so damn good with your hair styled
that way.

ME (jjk)
Really?

T 🤎
Yeah, I had to force myself to stare at my plate because I just wanted to look at you.

ME (jjk)
What’s your obsession with staring at me?

T 🤎
Didn’t I already tell you? Can’t get enough of you.

ME (jjk)
Ur so cheesy sometimes. But it’s ok because you’re super hot.

T 🤎
Am I?

ME (jjk)
Shut up u know it.

T 🤎
I want to pick you up when you’re off.

ME (jjk)
I thought you wanted to wait until my parents leave.

T 🤎
I wanted to. But now I just want to see you as soon as possible.
ME (jjk)
I will ditch work, who needs a job anyway?

T 🤎
Just text me when you’re home okay? I’ll be there shortly after to pick you up.

ME (jjk)
Ok, are you going home rn?

T 🤎
No, I'm going to get everything I need at the store to cook for you tonight.

ME (jjk)
If you’re trying to win me over, you already won me, hyung.

T 🤎
Not trying to win anything. Just trying to take care of my baby.

"Where are you going, looking like that?" his mother calls out from the kitchen.

Making Jeongguk question his choice of done fitted ripped jeans with a soft white button
down.

It's just simple, but she's making him second guess. "Out"

"Out?" the woman glares. one day they will remember that he is an adult, but not today "Out
where? with who?"

Tells himself to play it cool. he's managed fine this far.."Jimin, we're just going to hangout at
his place"

She seems pleased with the answer and doesn't get a chance to say anything else before
Jeongguk's running out the door before his father can come downstairs, "Have fun on your
date, ma! love you!"

"Love you more!"

"Did Jeongguk leave?"

His wife nods. Seokjin notices immediately the way she refuses to look up at him.

"What do you know that I don't?"

"Huh? why would you ask that?"

Curls his arms over her shoulders and presses a kiss to her cheek
"Because you have that look on your face. the one you get when you want to tell me
something but you can't"

"There's really nothing, honey."

He doesn't believe her but he drops it anyway "Where'd he go?"

"Jimin's."

"Ahh, okay. well, c'mon, we've got a reservation to be at"

She walks over to their open living room window to close the curtains.

Hoping her son learns to check his surroundings when he's telling a lie.

Taehyung has never felt like he wasn't in control of himself. Despite the controlling nature of
his parents, he's always felt like his life was in his hands.

He doesn't feel that way right now, he pulls up to his home for the first time with Jeongguk in
tow.

And the very second he has the man inside of his door, he can't help but to grab onto
Jeongguk and kiss him silly.

Hands gentle on his face while he kisses those plush lips he thought about all night.

Hasn't even managed to take their shoes off

But still he presses Jeongguk against the wall and swallows the soft gasp that comes out, "I
shouldn't have missed you as much as I did last night"

He says it because it's true, Jeongguk is making him feel reckless.

Because all he can think about is the way the man smiles against his lips and the feeling of
those fingers scraping along his back through the fabric of his sweater.

"Hello to you too.." Jeongguk is breathless when taehyung pulls away and guides him from
the wall to the table

Pours him a glass of wine but kisses him one more time before handing it over
"Congratulations on your first day of work, baby. I'm so proud of you"

Jeongguk giggles and starts talking about his day. Taehyung is listening. he /is.

Admittedly a little more focused on the lilts and inflections than the actual words.

Can hear the way Jeongguk smiles as he talks about connecting with an old friend from high
school.
Places the meat he already had prepared into the oven so that he can take the seat at the table
across from Jeongguk.

Taehyung doesn't feel like he has control over himself anymore.

Because he wants this man to be his so bad.

Everything was thrown into perspective when he was sitting in that restaurant.

Tuning out the voices around him and focusing in on the table he'd rather be at.

But Taehyung is terrified.

His lack of control over his own desires doesn't matter when he knows he still has to face the
truth sooner or later.

Decides on later when Jeongguk walks over to him, pushing at the back of his chair until it
skids across the floor.

Making enough room to sit on his lap and lets his fingers play with the hair on the back of
Taehyung's neck, "I was mad at you earlier"

"Did I upset you?" Taehyung looks so concerned, eyes round and warm when he tucks a few
strands of hair behind Jeongguk's ear

"No, you're just too good of a man and I was being petty. when you first got to the restaurant
and you pulled out the chair for her I wanted to punch you."

"Baby—"

"Don't apologize or anything, I know I'm ridiculous. more jealous than anything."

Taehyung kisses him so hard. hands sliding down his back until they rest at the small of it and
press against him until their chests are touching, "You don't have a damn thing to be jealous
of."

"I do though.." rests his chin on Taehyung's shoulder and finds solace in the way the man
rubs along his spine "She has the luxury of going to lunch with you and being close to you
and not having to hide anything. so yeah, I'm jealous."

"Those luxuries aren't hers anymore. they haven't been for a long time. I was there today for
my father and that's it."

Jeongguk's breathing has slowed and his eyes are filled with something radiant when he leans
back to look at Taehyung properly

"Are we still pretending, Tae?" he's speaking so soft, Taehyung thinks he hears a crack in his
voice.

Taehyung also thinks that he was never going to make it out of this alive.
Doesn't know what he was thinking when he crossed that first line.

"Do you want to be pretending?" he's laying it out on the table, he's never been one to show
all the cards of his heart but it's so easy with Jeongguk.

Impossibly easy to fold and give in to his every whim.

"No" their noses nuzzle together lightly before Jeongguk settles back against his lap, relaxing
a bit and lazily pressing their lips together "Even if it's like this and it has to be something
just between us...i don't want to pretend. just want to be yours."

Taehyung chuckles against his kiss, sighing into it and cursing the damn timer on that oven "I
think you need to let me feed you."

He sees the way Jeongguk's smile falters and immediately understands why

Steals four packs of the man's lips when he's back in his own chair "Baby, I don't know how
someone so brilliant can be so miserably oblivious. you're mine. even if it's unofficial and
even if I have no rights to that claim yet. you're mine."

Jeongguk feels fire.

He doesn't want to eat.

He doesn't have an appetite for anything but Taehyung's kiss. waits until he is done preparing
plates before he stands up to cover them with napkins.

"I'm sorry, Tae.." grabs him by the hand and makes room for himself in the man's arms "Not
really hungry right now"

"Seriously?" Taehyung looks worried until he sees the way Jeongguk's eyes sparkle
something fierce.

"I'm yours, right?"

Taehyung nods, without hesitation. his heart is pounding against his chest, "Yeah" hands
holding tight onto the waist in front of him "Mine" and when Jeongguk presses their lips
together this time, Taehyung knows.

Feels it all the way in the depths of his soul, he's fucked.

He's not going to be able to bring himself up from this.

He's been repressing desire for far too long and feels the wire growing thinner and thinner.

"prove it" Jeongguk's voice is /rough.

Calls out without warning and he's pressing against Taehyung with certainty "prove that I'm
yours."
"Jeongguk." let's their foreheads touch and Taehyung's resolve is withering away to nothing.

He's trying so hard.

He can't let himself unravel so easily.

But he's falling, further and further and there's no coming up for air when Jeongguk's mouth
presses hotly against his own, "/please, Taehyung, don't make me beg"

Taehyung has lost any shred of control he had. ripped and fallen to the floor when he pulls
Jeongguk down the hall

Somethings telling him this is a horrible idea.

But that voice is tiny in comparison to the symphony of his own voice shouting /finally.

"You're going to kill me, baby, what am I supposed to do when I have no strength left to
possibly tell you no?"

Jeongguk leans into Taehyung when they've reached his room. crawls on top of him and
looks as if he's never been happier in his life, "Just let go, hyung. in these moments where it's
just us, why should we have to hold back?"

So Taehyung let's go.

And he falls.

Falling isn't a good thing.

He knows it's not, said it himself how they could crash and burn if they don't do things right.

But Taehyung’s been bottling himself up for a long time. following what everyone in his life
tells him to do, because that's what he's meant to do. people please.

Yet the one person Taehyung wants to please more than anything else, is so out of reach he
could scream.

Until he’s not out of reach anymore.

Until he’s sitting next to him on a plane to another country. until he's laughing at all of the
random nonsense Taehyung says in a museum just to get a reaction. until he's begging for
Taehyung's attention, unaware that he's always had it. until he breaks down the thick barrier
Taehyung’s been building for years. until he’s laying across his lap and kissing Taehyung
until they’re both dizzy and lips swollen. until he’s crying on the car ride home because he
knows as well as Taehyung does that their romance has an expiration date. until he’s crawling
on top of him on his own bed, with eyes so sincere Taehyung thinks he can feel exactly what
the man is thinking.

Jeongguk’s within Taehyung’s reach, so he touches. slowly guides his palms up the expanse
of his back, trying to suppress the embarrassingly content noises that threaten to spill with
their bodies pressed together and he can just feel him.

The gentle lips that press hotly against the column of his throat, they bruise. He knows it.
can't be bothered to tell Jeongguk to stop. he doesn't want any of this to stop.

Taehyung’s only problem is this, he falls hard. it hurts when he hits the ground from how fast
he plummets. Jeongguk doesn't help, when he kisses his lips before leaning back onto his
knees and peeling the shirt off of his body, "You’re not going to tell me no, again? right?”

His eyes are glued to the sudden view of golden skin, watches the way Jeongguk’s own hand
runs through his hair, and Taehyung just knows that he will never be able to recover from this
if it goes up in flames.

But he jumps anyways.

Grabs harshly onto Jeongguk’s waist and flips him over before he can comprehend what's
happening, “Tae–” he's blushing. face glowing brighter and brighter as Taehyung unfastens
each button of his own shirt.

Stopping halfway through to kiss those plush lips that are open in awe, "Whatever you want
from me is what I'm going to give you, baby. just say it and it's yours.” pecks his lips and his
nose and the scar on his cheekbone. pulls away to finish removing his shirt with trembling
hands.

Taehyung's never felt nervous to be with someone like this, confidence exuding in everything
and everyone he does. but it's been so long and Jeongguk is different.

Jeongguk is better. Jeongguk is precious. Jeongguk is everything he’s wanted for the longest
time and he’s so terrified to fuck it all up.

He’s kissing down Jeongguk’s chest and gripping tight onto his waist when he feels a hand
curl on his chin to tug him up. “I want everything, Tae. but I need to be honest, I have no
fucking clue what I’m doing.”

"What do you mean?” kisses him. cant stop kissing those lips no matter how hard he tries to
pull himself away.

“I mean that I don't know what I’m doing.” Jeongguk’s eyes are pleading and the way his lips
pout tell Taehyung exactly what he's saying. holy shit. he is not mentally prepared for that
knowledge.

Because he's already nervous and how can he not be now knowing that Jeongguk knows
nothing of what to expect. He has to be good. He has to.

"Okay baby..” Taehyung lets out a slow breath, nuzzling their noses together before kissing
him again and reaching over to grab a couple of things. "It's not always fun at first..” he
whispers.

Hand gently massaging the hair on the back of Jeongguk’s head "It can be painful. I don't
know that we should—” a hand covers his mouth and Taehyung can see tears in Jeongguk’s
star filled eyes.

“I am in my late twenties. I'm well aware that pain comes before pleasure. I've seen and read
things, I just haven't gone that far yet. I want to.” his chest is heaving, Taehyung watches the
way his breathing increases and Jeongguk looks seconds away from exploding "I want it so
bad and I want it with you. you said you'd give me whatever I want, Taehyung.”

"I did” he's whispering against his lips and fingertips digging into his waist "I know I did but
I need you to be okay. sometimes you need to ease into things, I don't think you understand it
has nothing to do with wanting and everything to do with needing you to be safe.”

“I think six years of pining after you is easing myself enough. I want you. I've wanted you for
so long. I want to do this with you.”

"Okay” he’s humming against Jeongguk’s lips. kisses along his jaw before trailing back down
to where he was nipping at his chest. takes a hand down to his belt buckle and removes
everything with haste.

It's seconds that it takes him to have them both bare. times flying but at the same time it feels
frozen. Taehyung doesn't remember what time it was when they got here and he couldn't
possibly care less about anything going on outside of this room.

Not when he’s busy, gently stroking the length of Jeongguk’s cock and he might pass out
before they move any further. He's gorgeous, in every way.

Gorgeous heart. gorgeous mind. gorgeous body. gorgeous voice. Taehyung can barely breathe
when he leans down to kiss him.

Grinding against him and wrapping his hand around them both at the same time, elicits a
whine that bubbles from the very back of Jeongguk’s throat. swallows it whole and doesn't
stop.

It would be embarrassing how worked up he is, if not for the fact that Jeongguk is the exact
same. they’re breathing harshly into each other’s mouths.

Cocks leaking as they rub together with Taehyung’s hand helping in ways that makes
Jeongguk’s body arch and plea for more.

“Tae—” he tries, can't form a coherent sentence when Taehyung’s hands curl around his
body. grip tight on his ass to pull him even closer, it feels impossible to tell where his body
ends and where Taehyung’s begins.

"Do you trust me, baby?” Taehyung murmurs against his neck, kissing and sucking and biting
and Jeongguk’s fingers can't do anything but pull on his hair and scrape at his back.

Never felt like this before and it's overwhelming, the buzzing of his veins and the racing of
his heart, "You know that I do”

The pop of a lid echos but he’s unbothered, Taehyung is kissing him again. if he didn't know
any better, Jeongguk would think that Taehyung loves him. because how can someone make
another feel like this and it not be rooted in love?

He won't let himself get lost in delusion for too long, even though it's so easy. because
Taehyung’s tongue flicks against his own and sucks until Jeongguk moans. it's lazy the way
they lap, as if they have all of the time in the world, when they don't. he knows they don't. but
he doesn't want this to end.

The butterflies in his stomach have evolved into an entire zoo, when Taehyung’s large hand
comes to gently caress the side of his face, kiss slowing as he pulls away with incredibly dark
eyes.

"Take a deep breath” Taehyung speaks softly against his lips, stays there when Jeongguk
breathes in and doesn't move away at the sound of a pained wince.

Just slowly presses his slicked digit further and kisses Jeongguk through the pain, "There
baby, just like that” he coos, only waiting a second before slipping a second one in and curses
at the way Jeongguk's body arches against his "God, you're so fucking tight”

Taehyung’s looking down at where their cocks rest between their abdomens and Jeongguk’s
too busy counting the stars behind his eyes because he's dizzy.

And it feels so good.

Taehyung is touching him and it's electrifying. focuses on his breathing because if he doesn't
he may start crying embarrassing tears of lust filled-happiness. especially when Taehyung
starts moving his fingers a little quicker, curls upwards before he slides out and manages to
sneak a third one in. knocks the wind out of Jeongguk's stomach but he breathes it back into
him when their eyes meet and Taehyung kisses his lips slowly, “I want to fuck you so bad”
the earnest way in which he speaks has Jeongguk feeling weak in the knees "Want to make
you feel so good, wanna taste my name on your tongue”

"Holy shit” Jeongguk’s stomach is a pit of lava, Taehyung’s so sexy and he’s filthy and he
can't get enough. “please, please m’ready. I know I am. please”

"Shhh” Taehyung’s free hand lets go of Jeongguk’s waist, tickling up the side of his skin
before he presses a single finger against the seam of his lips "I've got you, okay? just be good
for me.”

Jeongguk has a smart ass comment on the tip of his tongue but he doesn't get to say it
because Taehyung presses his finger passed Jeongguk’s lips. pressure against his tongue and
Jeongguk doesn't know why his instinct is to suck on it but he does. eyes rolling back and
making an absolute mess of the digit pressing against his tongue.

"Fuck” Taehyung moves with haste "You’re the sexiest little thing to ever exist, you know
that? how the fuck am I supposed to do anything but ruin you?”

Opens his eyes and sees the way Taehyung’s drooling. watches the man’s eyes flash with
something he's never seen before he's holding his mouth open and grinning like a devil. let's
the smallest drop of his saliva fall onto Jeongguk’s tongue and Jeongguk nearly comes
instantly.

But he doesn't because the pressure at his hole is released and he feels so empty. that is until
Taehyung’s hands are tight on his waist and their mouths press together, "Breathe through it,
okay? won't do anything until you’ve adjusted. you give me the clear to move, got it?”

"Yes, yes, got it” he's about to explode. feels the way Taehyung places a small pillow at his
lower back and slides his lubricated cock between his ass cheeks.

"You’re captivating” Taehyung murmurs against his lips one more time before leaning back
and pressing the head of his cock in.

Jeongguk tries with everything he has to fight back the tears that prickle his eyes, but
Taehyung is so thick and long and there's a hot clammy feeling crawling all over his skin
from the pressure.

But Taehyung brings him back down, grabs one of his hands and locks their fingers together
right above his head. once he’s managed to push all the way in and their bodies are flush, he
exhales. leans to kiss the tear off of Jeongguk’s cheek before looking at him with soft,
wondrous eyes.

The dark flames of lust have dissipated and there's nothing but genuine concern in his eyes.
something else too, that Jeongguk refuses to let himself acknowledge. “You okay, baby? take
a breath.”

"Yeah..” he chokes out, shuddered breath that comes out before Taehyung kisses him softly
"We can stop if it's too much, hm? I'll finish you another way.”

"No!” squeezes the hand that's holding his own “please don't stop. I'm adjusting, just move a
little.”

So Taehyung does, very slowly does he start to slip out, not all the way, just enough for
Jeongguk to feel the pressure when he pushes back in and it feels so fucking good he can't
articulate any words.

Only groans into Taehyung’s mouth when he does it again, sliding his cock out slowly before
thrusting back in with a gentle roughness that has Jeongguk’s knees trembling.

"So good, feels so good”

"Mmm, does it?” Taehyung’s smile is wicked, god the things this man does to Jeongguk’s
sanity "Let me hear how good it feels”

Pulls out further, so far Jeongguk almost thinks he's going to slip all the way out until he
presses his hips harder and Jeongguk chokes on a scream against Taehyung's neck.

Every push and pull of Taehyung’s thick cock inside of him makes it impossible to focus on
anything else. doesn't care about the embarrassing noises he cries out. can't be bothered to
care about the way his nails are surely leaving indents all over Taehyung’s back.
Curls an arm around the man's neck when their lips meet again and Taehyung starts fucking
him harder. hips snapping and the sounds of their skin echoing in the room. "Can't get enough
of you, baby” Taehyung’s breath is hot.

Dizzying and Jeongguk just knows he's about to make a mess all over them when Taehyung
keeps pressing right against a spot in his body that he didn't even know existed. had no idea
something could feel so good until he’s moaning shamelessly and Taehyung eagerly
swallows each noise "Just like that, c’mon. come for me, love.”

“Taehyung..” Jeongguk's got tears in his eyes again, fuck his emotions for running so high
“Tae, there, don't stop, please please fuck me, oh my god”

Taehyung doesn't stop at all, keeps fucking into him and wraps a hand around Jeongguk’s
cock to stroke him through it. pumping at the length until there's nothing left to release and he
himself is spent.

A slow grind of his cock in and out. kissing all over Jeongguk’s face, hands brushing through
the locks of his hair until they’re both finished entirely.

Pulls out and quickly grabs a rag from his side table. thoroughly cleaning the mess they made
before he crawls back onto the bed and pulls Jeongguk to lay on his chest.

"You...have a filthy side to you, hyung” he says softly. finger tip tracing over the lines of red
that he caused all over Taehyung’s chest and shoulders.

"Don't blame me” Taehyung chuckles and it's so sexy, the way he hooks a finger under
Jeongguk’s chin and moves him so that their lips meet "It's you. god i've never wanted to
fuck someone so bad in my entire life.”

Jeongguk’s breath hitches and he tries to calm himself. it's certainly not a good idea. they're
both exhausted and he should probably go ho—"Ngh-Tae” and they’re kissing again and
Taehyung’s sucking the air right out of his lungs.

Free hand slipping down to his bare ass and Jeongguk gasps against their kiss when a finger
slips in "I could fuck you right now, wouldn't take a thing. you’re already stretched out for
me” a second finger...and a third. and Jeongguk's moving and sitting himself across
Taehyung’s lap.

Feels the flaccid cock beneath his ass harden as he grinds. letting Taehyung finger him with
his own come serving as lube.

"Do you want me, baby?”

And he does. fuck he wants him so bad, even if it hurts. sits up so that Taehyung can line his
cock up with his hole, leaning down on it and whimpers against his shoulder because it buries
inside of him differently like this.

And it feels so much more intense, with Taehyung's hands on his hips, guiding him up and
down but he never stops staring at him.
“Taehyung, help me.” Jeongguk begs, because he's tired and he's weak and he wants to be
fucked and filled until he can't move anymore.

Uses the springs of the mattress to bounce while Taehyung thrusts up into him. Jeongguk
thought it would take him longer to come undone a second time, but his body is hyper
sensitive.

His toes curl and feels goosebumps prickle all over his skin when Taehyung kisses between
his neck and shoulder "Don't ever want you to leave” the man says and Jeongguk’s about to
die. "Just want you with me all the time, want to spoil you and feed you and fuck you stupid
until we fall asleep”

"Hyung—gonna come”

"I know” Taehyung laughs against his lips "I know baby come on, let me finish you”

Jin-Hyung
Jisoo called, she said she couldn’t get ahold of you. We have an important emergency
meeting with investors tomorrow morning. I’m stopping by to bring you the docs, read over
them so we’re prepared in the morning!
We’re leaving the theater now, so we should be there in 10!

Jeongguk is floating. Insanely happy and refreshed after Taehyung ran them both a warm
bath that they soaked in for nearly an hour.

An hour of Taehyung close to him, kissing his shoulder and washing his hair and talking
about mundane things like work.

Jeongguk's wondered so many times in his life what it would be like to be with Taehyung and
none of his wildest dreams compare to the feeling of actually being with him.

Being wrapped up in the man's soft robe because Taehyung likes the way it looks on him and
having a glass of wine on his sofa because Taehyung wanted him to.

Taehyung's been reheating their dinner that got skipped when Jeongguk hears the man's
phone ding for the 12th time.

"Tae, your phones been going off for half an hour. want me to grab it for you?" sets his glass
down and already begins to walk towards the bedroom.

"Yeah, would you mind baby?"

Hears the doorbell buzzing at the same time as he happens to tap on Taehyung's phone screen
and he feels sick to his stomach.

"Taehyung!" he whisper shouts but he's too late. because the door is opening and he can hear
his father
"I was going to ask why you didn't answer your phone, but it seems you've been busy" he
laughs meanwhile Jeongguk is holding his breath and choking on a sob behind this bedroom
door "Do you have someone over?"

"They left already.." Taehyung clears his throat "Sorry I didn't answer, is everything okay?"

"Yeah, your dad called an emergency meeting in the morning. Jisoo dropped off paperwork
for us to look over"

Taehyung adjusts the collar of his loose fitted pajama shirt and lets out a deep breath "I'll look
over it, thanks for dropping it by, hyung-ah."

"No problem." Seokjin is almost out the door, Taehyung feels like he's seconds away from
vomiting

"Did Jeongguk accidentally leave his stompers with your luggage?"

Taehyung's confused, the confusion must be painted all over his face when he glances down
and sees the boots right next to his own loafers.

Fuck.

Fuck.

Fuck.

"Yeah, they got packed in my suitcase instead."

"Hm." Seokjin looks up at him and Taehyung knows he knows. he knows it. "I'll take them
home for him, we'll talk more tomorrow, get some rest."

"Bye hyung." he's going to be sick

"Bye, Taehyung."

"Oh my god"

"Breathe"

"He's not fucking stupid"

"Baby, calm down"

"No, Tae, oh my god, he's going to be so angry"

"He may not even suspect that, Jeongguk. he thought your shoes were here because of my
luggage."
Jeongguk's face is red and he looks as if he's about to faint "Do you really think he believes
that?"

"I don't know" Taehyung shakes his head "But I fucking hope so. and that's all I can do right
now."

Jeongguk's doing everything he can to fight off the tears.

Taehyung pulls him in and presses a string of kisses to his temple "Don't cry, it's okay. c'mon,
come eat your dinner so I can take you home."

Jeongguk knew they had an expiration date but he didn't think it would come so soon.

"Where did you get those?"

Seokjin looks up at his wife after he sits on the sofa and places Jeongguk's shoes next to him.

"Taehyung's"

"Oh" she looks away "I hope he gets back from Jimin's soon. we're supposed to get bad
weather tonight."

"Is he at Jimin's?"

"Of course he is. that's what he said"

Seokjin shakes his head and sighs "Did you notice the hickeys all over his neck?"

"What? no. when did you see them?"

"I saw them the night he got home."

He watches the way his wife looks speechless. though she appears to not be as shocked as he
felt when he saw them.

"Jeongguk's naive and lonely. Taehyung needs a distraction. I wasn't born yesterday."

"Honey, don't you think you're jumping to conclusions here? Taehyung told you he wasn't
interested in Jeongguk long before. remember? he's never lied to you before."

"There's a first time for everything" he kisses her forehead "Go to bed, angel. I'm going to
wait up."

ME (whores GC)
SOmotherfuckingS
MY DASD KNWOS
I KNOW HE KNOWS
HE CAME BY TAEHYUNGSDWHILE I WAS HERE
HOLY SHIT IM GOING TO PASSOUT

Jiminie-hyung
Where are you now?
Are you okay?

ME (whores GC)
Taehyung’s getting ready to take me home
I'm freaking the fuck out, we had such a good time. Literally the best night ever. And it’s all
going to be over now.
Because Taehyung’s made it clear what happens if my dad says no.
I'm not ready :(

Jiminie-hyung
Baby :(

Joon-hyung
I’m sorry, bub. But we knew this was a possibility right? Try to stay strong.

Hobi-hyung
Is there any chance of your dad being like…totally cool about it?

ME (whores GC)
I don’t know
I don’t know
I'm going to fucking cry
Again
Taehyung’s probably relieved he won’t have to deal with my crying anymore.

Joon-hyung
We’re still getting together saturday right?

ME (whores GC)
If I'm not dead from a broken heart, yeah.

Jeongguk's sitting on the sofa, changed into his own clothes, when Taehyung comes into view
and pulls him up by the hand.

Gentle smile on his face and gentle touch of his fingers tucking Jeongguk's hair behind his
ear "Hey, you know everything's going to be okay, right?"

Rolls his eyes because he refuses to cry anymore, "Right"

Taehyung keeps looking at him, pulling him closer and leans in to kiss him.

Except Jeongguk turns his face and shakes his head "Just take me home, hyung."
"Baby.."

"Stop" Jeongguk whispers and tries to step out of Taehyung's space but the man won't let go
"It hurts too much"

"What does? nothing has even happened yet?"

"Yet! exactly! it's going to happen."

"I don't know why I convinced myself that we could do this."

"I—" Taehyung can't even formulate a sentence right now. feels like his heart is cracking
right down the middle. "You're just assuming it's over?"

"Isn't it, though?" Jeongguk looks hopeless.

Shoulders sagging when he slings the jacket he brought over his shoulders "You said it
yourself, you cherish your friendship with my dad too much to disrespect him this way. it was
over before it started, honestly."

"Jeongguk, I feel like you're being ridiculous"

"Why is it ridiculous? because I'm not going to pretend when we both know come tomorrow
afternoon my dad will have had a conversation with each of us. ultimately leading to a result
similar to right now."

Taehyung wants to argue.

He wants to tell Jeongguk how he's changed his mind since his very first reservations. That
he only had those because he was terrified. How Jeongguk's completely stolen his heart in
such a short time of spending their days together.

Wants to tell him that he didn't know it was possible to fall for someone so quickly. but he
figures it's a result of years of longing and admiring from afar. that he's willing to put
everything on the line for this.

That he wants this.

But Taehyung's a coward and he feels that if it's this easy for Jeongguk to switch off his
feelings towards them. then does he really have any?

Because sure, maybe Jeongguk had the first budding of a crush but Taehyung certainly fell
for him first.

Fell for his star studded eyes and the way his nose crinkles when he laughs.

He's realizing now, as he puts his trembling hands into his pockets that he fell way harder.

And it's going to hurt so bad.

"Okay then, let's go"

Jeongguk leans against the window the entire drive home.

No music playing on the radio because Taehyung can't be bothered to turn it on.

His mind already clouded with a million little things he wants to say but he can't spit any of
them out.

His chest aches.

It feels hollow in a way it's never felt hollow before.

And when he pulls up to the familiar driveway he's been to so many times, he lets it fall.

Tears stream down his face but he keeps his gaze out the window.

If Jeongguk doesn't want to talk, they don't have to. even if it's killing him to not say
anything.

Hears the car door open and thinks he can finally let go of his the breath he was holding.

Until it closes but the weight next to him isn't gone.

T's closer and Jeongguk's leaning over the center console to grab onto his shirt.

Pulling him in until their lips brush and Jeongguk cries, "I'm sorry. it's my fault we're even in
this position. if I wouldn't have fought so hard for something that we knew was point—"

"Stop talking" Taehyung whispers and kisses him softly before pulling the hand off of his
shirt and leaning away "It's not your fault. we knew what we were doing. it is what it is."

"Right"

"You should probably go inside"

"Yeah. I guess I should"

It's the perfect moment, Taehyung. the perfect moment to get it off of his chest. to spill the
words from his tongue. any time now.

"Goodnight, Taehyung."

He never called it what it was.

"Goodnight, baby."
He very well expected his father to be waiting up for him.

So he doesn't even try to play dumb when he walks in the house. leaving the slippers
Taehyung let him wear at the door.

Seokjin's eyes are fixated on them before they move to Jeongguk who sits across from him.

"You went to Jimin's in house shoes?"

Jeongguk doesn't say anything, just crosses his legs and sinks into the oversized chair.

Vision focused on the boots his father has laying next to him on the sofa.

"too tired to talk?"

"Just say what you stayed awake to say, appa. I'm not a child anymore, you don't need to use
mind games to get me to tell you things."

Seokjin nods, "Is that so? then may I ask a question? it's been bothering me since you got
home the other night."

There's already tears in his eyes, feels one fall as he nods his head in anticipation of the
question.

"Who is responsible for the attack on your neck? which seems to have gotten worse?"

"Does it matter who it was? I'm not with that person. there's nothing serious."

"Was it Yoongi? I didn't think you'd warm up to someone new so quickly."

"Dad."

"Did you bring someone home from Europe? that's not very responsible son."

"Why are you doing this?" he's full on crying now. wonders if his mom is asleep or if she's
listening from around the hall corner.

"Because I'm trying to comprehend why the hell, you would be fooling around with
Taehyung."

There it is.

"At first I convinced myself I was crazy. But then, I could've swore I saw Taehyung's car
back out of our driveway when you went to Jimin's earlier. again, could be a coincidence,
until I show up at his house and your shoes are by the door."

"We—"

"And to think he even lied to me. I have to tell you, I'm honestly more surprised by that than
the nature of this sudden relationship you've decided to form. Taehyung's never lied to me
before. Why did he feel the need to lie now?"
"I don't know" Jeongguk whispers but he does know. they were terrified.

"I know why.." Seokjin reaches across the coffee table to hand Jeongguk a tissue to wipe the
endless streams of tears from his eyes "Because he was already lying to me this entire time."

"That's not true"

"Ah..but it is. I should've guessed it, by the way he was never really put off by your incessant
need to follow him around. despite him telling me otherwise."

Jeongguk feels angry.

It feels cruel. the way his dad is speaking so carelessly.

"How long?"

"Just since our trip."

"Really?" he seems surprised at that. genuinely. "What could've happened in a few days to
lead to this?"

"I'm not going to outline every detail of what happened. if you want those kinds of details
you'll have to get them from Taehyung."

"Are you seeing each other? in a serious way?"

"No"

Seokjin doesn't seem to believe that.

Leans back and brings the glass of whiskey to his mouth "Listen, I'm going to pretend that
Taehyung is my friend for a moment. I'm just focused on you right now, okay? do you know
what Taehyung is in the middle of right now?"

"If you mean with Marisol, I do"

"Right. but I don't think you realize the extent of this issue. She is not someone he will be
able to get away from anytime soon /and she is psychotic. I'll be terrified to know what she
does if she founds out Taehyung's been spending quality time with you."

"I'm not scared of her."

"That's the problem, son. you're so naive. you think that there's no mountain you can't climb,
but sometimes there are. Taehyung has a lot of shit to sort out, you're distracting him well but
I don't want you to suffer from that."

A distraction.

His chest hurts.

He knows that he's more than a distraction, but then..he thinks about little comments
Taehyung made.

How Jeongguk helps clear his mind, he didn't have to worry about anything else when they
were together, another world where it's only them.

"Well like I said, we're not seeing each other seriously. so you're worried for nothing."

"Jeongguk, you've had feelings for Taehyung for years. Am I really supposed to believe that
you aren't hoping for more, with him?"

"You're wrong." Jeongguk rolls his eyes "I'm tired and I want to go to bed"

He goes to leave the room but Seokjin grabs his wrist and pulls him into a warm hug "If you
weren't hoping for more, than why haven't you stopped crying since you walked through the
door?"

Any hopes of going to sleep last night were pointless.

As six in the morning rolls around, Taehyung let's a cold shower run to wake himself up.

Maybe had he let himself sleep, last night would've been a nightmare he could wake up from.

If he hadn't been so impatient maybe they could've worked out a plan. Found the right
moment and eased Seokjin into the idea of them together.

Now he's lost Jeongguk before he ever really had him and he's certainly pissed off his closest
friend.

Checks his phone one last time after getting out of the shower to see his messages still
unread.

He figured as much but he's always had an issue with hoping for the best, even if it never
works out in his favor.

T
Hi
🤎
I can’t sleep at all, I’m so terribly worried about you.
Is everything okay?
You know, I really thought about what you said in the car. I don’t think what we’ve done is
pointless.
As I told you before, you’ve never been meaningless to me.
I don’t want you to ever think that this is something that shallow.
I’m at a loss for words of what to say. I just don’t like leaving the way we did. I don’t like not
knowing what comes next. I don’t like not knowing if I’m going to get to hold you again.
Baby.
My baby. This isn’t going to change because we piss your father off. I’ll talk to him, because
I want this. I want you.

Jeongguk sees the unread messages but he can't bring himself to click on them.

He just hurts right now.

He needs to get ready for work and focus on the day ahead of him.

Is in a rush to leave so he doesn't stop by the kitchen where his parents are eating.

Doesn't hear the way his mother calls out for him. Doesn't hear anything over the music
playing through his air-pods as he takes off down the street.

"What did you say to him?" Lia is glaring from across the table making Seokjin scowl.

"I was mild compared to what I wanted to say" puffs his chest a bit "I only told him my
concerns and asked him for the truth. which I still don't think I got. he was crying when he
got home"

"Did you ask why?"

"I tried but he didn't answer me. at that point I think he was over talking to me in general."

She pushes her plate away and groans "I'll talk to him when he gets home. go to work" kisses
his cheek "And don't get into a fight with Taehyungie"

Of all the things that could possibly go wrong today, walking into a meeting at 7:30 in the
morning to find Marisol there has Taehyung ready to throw in the towel, already.

"Son, did you get a chance to look over the documents from Jisoo?"

He didn't.

He couldn't have cared less about those damned documents last night.

"I didn't, no." looks up when the door opens and Seokjin walks in. Takes the seat next to him
but doesn't meet his eyes.

"Ahh, well now that we're all here, we can begin."

Mr. Noe stands with his daughter right beside him. Speaking proudly as he announces his
retirement. Speaking to the board of investors about Marisol and how well she will fill in his
role.
And Taehyung was doing a fine job of tuning it all out until, "Of course, it will be all the
easier with her soon to be husband, by her side"

Keep it cool. Taehyung. don't make a scene. "We're certain that if the board approves this will
be a step in the right direction."

It's only a few seconds of whispers and hushed speaking before the board unanimously agrees
and everyone is congratulating Marisol on her promotion into the corporate role.

Taehyung is storming out of the meeting room before she can even utter a word his direction.

Nearly has his office door slammed shut before Seokjin's foot stops it from closing.

"Hyung"

"They sure stood up there as if your engagement is still on."

"You know that it's not." he's seething "I don't know what more I can say or do to make it
clear"

"Does she know you've been seeing my son?"

He knew Seokjin would bring it up. but he didn't think he'd bring it up like this.

"She has an idea. yes. but she doesn't /know anything."

"So he's been a secret then?"

"Not necessarily." shakes his head and feels like he might pass out "So you know then?"

"You're not a good liar. well, I guess you were a good liar, until last night."

He takes a deep breath before sitting at one of the large leather chairs in his office "I'm sorry
for lying to you, hyung. I really shouldn't have. I could've made my intentions clear."

"So were these your intentions all along? even back when my son was barely 19."

Another deep breath, "I didn't know he was your son when I met him and I promised you I
wouldn't act on anything."

"Except you did."

"Not back then. this is new. I'm barely making sense of it all myself."

"If you, at your age, are struggling to make sense of whatever is going on between the two of
you. what makes you think Jeongguk is capable of understanding it?"

"I'm struggling because I'm torn! you're my best friend and I love you as if you were my own
brother."

Just spit it out. rip off the bandaid and it'll hurt less.
"Do you think I planned to fall in love with Jeongguk?"

He sees the fist coming before he feels it. can't even bring himself to be angry so he just takes
it. he's been lying all of this time.

"All of the times you sat on my sofa and we would laugh at the silly things he did. about how
he's young and stupidly infatuated with you, you were just fucking eating it up weren't you?"

Taehyung feels sick.

"Of course I wasn't!"

"How am I supposed to believe a word you say to me? you have a woman out there who
might be pregnant wearing a ring that you bought, while you sit here and tell me you're in
love with my son? you fell in love in a week, Taehyung?"

His lip hurts.

His head hurts.

His heart hurts.

"You know me more than anyone in my life. you know Marisol is nothing to me. you know
that she couldn't possibly be pregnant with my child. you /know that I never wanted to be
engaged to her."

He stands up tall and wipes the trickle of blood from his lip when he looks Seokjin in the eye
"And you know that I would never do anything to hurt Jeongguk, so don't paint me out as if
I'm stringing him along like a toy."

"Why was he crying last night?"

"When?"

"When he got home, he was crying the whole time we talked."

Taehyung just wants to run and find Jeongguk and hug him tight. so much happened last
night and he had to take it all in, alone.

"He was crying because we both knew you had figured it out. which means we knew it was
over."

"He claims you were nothing serious."

God it hurts

"Yeah. I suppose that's true."

"I don't think you're right for him, Taehyung. at least not now. not like this. you need to get
your shit together"
"I don't think that's up to you, hyung."

He sees the way Seokjin's face morphs into something terrifying "You're about to be sharing
an office with your ex fiancé. why don't you spend more time focusing on that and less time
on my son."

ME (jjk)
Are you sure I’m not just helping you distract yourself from the issues with Marisol?
It’s barely been a week since you first kissed me, Taehyung. I’m so confused. I dont know
what to think. I want you so bad but I dont want to get hurt even more. Because this hurts so
damn bad.
I just want to be close to you but I can’t. I want this more than anything but at what cost?
What if you end up with her again? What if you can’t say no to your family? I just don’t
know.

T 🤎
Come on, you’ve got to be joking. You aren’t a distraction from anything.

ME (jjk)
Can you really say that tho? What did you tell me when you agreed to go to europe with me?

T 🤎
I don’t know what I told you, baby. But I also didn’t go to europe with you planning for all of
these feelings to surface. Now what am I supposed to do?

ME (jjk)
You told me that you could use a break from real life. Thats all this is. A break from real life.
REAL LIFE is that you have marisol and you work with my dad.

T 🤎
I don’t have her. I don’t want her. I thought I made that much clear.

ME (jjk)
Nothing feels clear anymore.

T 🤎
I don’t want to argue with you over text message. I don’t want to argue with you at all. I want
to see you and talk to you properly. If you have anything to say or ask, I'll listen and answer it
all. I’m not afraid of talking things out with you, because I know that everything I say is
genuine.

ME (jjk)
You don’t think this is a little much? You don’t think we went from zero to 100 really quick?

T 🤎
We can talk in person. I’m off from work in two hours, if you want to talk to me, come over.
ME (jjk)
And if I don’t want to talk to you?

T 🤎
Then I don’t really have much of a choice but to respect your wishes, now do I baby?

Jeongguk had no choice but to leave work early. He's felt sick to his stomach since waking up
and no amount of staring at a computer screen for five more hours would help.

Plops face down onto the sofa and lets out a rather embarrassing sob. the kind he hasn't cried
since he was in high school.

Still remembers the way he cried with his first broken heart, yet somehow this feels a
thousand times worse.

It's so early in the day that he really didn't think he needed to worry about his parents being
home.

But the soft hand that strokes down his spine, scares the breath right out of his lungs.

"Oh, my baby baby baby, c'mere" he feels ridiculous. like a child when he sits up to give his
mom room to sit on the sofa, immediately leaning his head on her lap and crying even harder.
"What's wrong, hm? shouldn't you be at work still?"

Can't formulate sentences right now. just wants to stay right here and cry until he falls asleep.

She must take the hint because she hums lightly before playing with his hair, "You know, I
already knew that Taehyungie was your crush before you told me."

"We both did, to be fair. you're not very good at being subtle, bunny." she giggles thinking
about the years of watching the way Jeongguk's eyes quite literally sparkled anytime
Taehyung walked into the room. "I think dad really hoped it wasn't true"

"Of course he didn't want it to be true" Jeongguk manages to say quietly. eyes burning from
the tears. stomach burning with anger.

"Jeongguk, you've got to understand his position. you're our child. Taehyung is our close
friend who has been around since you were very young."

"19 isn't very young."

"It is, in the grand scheme of life, bunny. and that man has lived a /lot of his life already. appa
doesn't want you to be caught up in any messy webs."

Jeongguk sits up then, because he understands it but at the same time he doesn't.

"How is that fair to either of us? I'm not allowed to be interested in a man because dad knows
him and Taehyung isn't allowed to be interested in anybody because he's got some baggage?"
He sees the way her face softens and cries silently "Why is noone thinking about how I feel?"

"That's not true—"

"But it is! it's what dad feels and why he's trying to drive a wedge between us. his feelings are
effect Taehyung's feelings. so then I'm just left here, sobbing because my heart hurts so bad
and there's nothing I can do about it."

He can feel his mothers eyes before he really looks at them. sees the way she's trying to read
him and he just falters "I was so excited for two days. I had two days in Europe where I didn't
have to worry about any of this. it was just me and him."

"And they were the best two days i've ever had." another tear falls that he feels her finger
wipe away "I know it doesn't make sense to you or dad, that a couple days could change
things, it doesn't make sense to me either. but they did."

"Because i've always felt pulled towards him from the first time I saw him. and I finally got
to learn a little bit about a different side of him and he's—" he stops talking. closes his eyes
and shakes his head. it's pointless. this is all pointless.

"You can tell me, bunny."

And he knows that he can. but he doesn't know if he can handle admitting it out loud to
someone other than himself "He's everything i've ever wanted, mom."

It's obvious that she's conflicted but she doesn't say a word. "And I feel like he's being ripped
out of my arms."

It's silent for several minutes. silent while he cries and silent while his mother holds him.

"I just don't know what to do anymore, appa makes it seem like there's no way Taehyung
wants something serious with me, but Taehyung says the complete opposite"

He feels her small warm hands hold onto both of his cheeks before he looks to find her
smiling at him, "I think that there are a lot of mixed emotions being tossed around right now.
it's making it hard for everyone to think clearly. this is sudden for appa."

"Taehyungie is his best friend. he thought he knew everything about him. this is blindsiding
him." she takes a deep breath and kisses her son's forehead "But that doesn't mean he's right"
she says softly.

"I think you need to do some thinking for yourself. and talk to appa when your not so worked
up, hm?"

He nods and he knows it's probably not a good idea. but it's his mom and he's always felt safe
to to tell her everything, "I want to go see him tonight"

It's clear the way she struggles but she gives a half hearted smile anyway "If you're going to
go, I think you should leave before your father gets home."
"You're probably right" he stands up to go shower but can't stop himself from hugging her so
tight

"I love you mom"

Feels the way she cries against him

"I love you more my bunny, I'm always going to love you more"

—
Jeongguk's never been a fan of public transport. Has relied on Taehyung so much in the last
few years that it feels weird going to the man's house and not asking him for a ride.

It feels different now too because before Jeongguk was simply fighting for a little snippet of
time

But now there's so much more on the line.

Walks slowly from the bus stop to Taehyung's building and feels anxious walking in by
himself.

He's early, Taehyung isn't supposed to be home for another hour and a half.

Probably should've taken some type of detour because he feels ridiculous.

Walking in circles outside of the door before he finally walks into the lobby and decides to
head up and wait by Taehyung's door.

Except he's stopped in his tracks by a woman he only knows from a distance.

"Hello, are you a resident here? if you aren't you must be escorted by one to use the
elevators."

He doesn't know if she knows who he is. kind of has this gut feeling that she does by the way
she straightens her shoulders and glares all over him.

"I'm visiting someone. I'll wait until he's home." he bows even if he doesn't want to "I'm
sorry"

"Who?"

Looks up at her with puzzled eyes, "Excuse me?"

"What resident are you visiting? I need to make sure my building is safe from potential cri—"

"Marisol."

There's a hand around his waist that's so comforting his entire body melts

"Ah, right, you're the boy my fiancé has been entertaining."

Jeongguk grits his teeth but has no idea what to say, doesn't have to say a word because
Taehyung pulls something out of his pocket and hands it over to her.

"This is the notice of my lease termination. i've already found new housing. the early
termination fee is included on a check. my apartment will be vacant by the first of the year."

The room is spinning. Jeongguk's heart is racing. watches the way her eyes widen.

"You can't—" goes to argue and give the envelope back but Taehyung's pulling Jeongguk
away without turning around for a second

"I can and I did. have a good evening, Ms. Noe."

His eyes haven't left his feet the entire time they stood in the elevator.

Too nervous to look up and say something. he had so much anger last night that's almost
completely vanished.

Maybe it's not a good thing for him to be absolute putty in Taehyung's hands.

But he can't help it, not when all he wants is to be wrapped in the warmth that comes with
being his.

Once they're inside the apartment and he actually dares to look Taehyung in his eyes, he feels
his heart plummet to the ground.

Uses his knuckles to gently brush over the bloody, swollen corner of his bottom lip.
"Taehyung, what the hell happened to your mouth?"

"It doesn't matter, Jeongguk, what are you doing here?"

"You told me to come see you to talk if I wanted to" turns around and walks straight to the
kitchen. ruffling in the freezer until he finds a small bag of peas that he can wrap in a cloth.

Leans back against the counter with a sad smile, extending his arm with the makeshift ice
pack in hand. voice soft when he tries again "What happened?"

Sometimes Jeongguk feels huge. he's six feet tall and works out regularly.

If he glances by a window or walks near a group of women, he feels huge.

But Taehyung makes him feel small. the man who isn't taller at all, but he stands up straighter
with broader shoulders, steps into his space and his large hands hold Jeongguk by the hips.

Feels tiny when he's lifted off of his feet and sat on top of the counter, making room for
Taehyung to stand between his legs and wrap arms around his middle "It doesn't matter what
happened, I don't care about that. I care about you and you're here"
Jeongguk holds the bag up against the swollen part of Taehyung's face and feels tears in his
eyes, "My dad did this, huh?"

"No" Taehyung shakes his head fingers grazing against Jeongguk's lower back.

"Don't lie to me"

"I'm not lying baby, I did it. my previous actions resulted in a busted lip. it's noones fault but
my own."

Jeongguk's lips press against Taehyung's forehead because it's so easy from this position.

"You didn't do anything to deserve getting punched, Taehyung."

"I think i've done things that deserve far more than a punch, baby." winks and pulls the cold
pack out of Jeongguk's hands.

Opting to wrap them around his neck instead.

"I didn't know she owns this building.." he speaks because he needs to change the subject
before he starts rambling.

"Yeah, remember how I said my parents own hotel properties? hers own rental properties.
business partners remember?"

Jeongguk feels defeated.

Even if they decide to be together there's no way Taehyung's parents would ever be happy
with him choosing Jeongguk over someone who fits in perfectly with the family aspirations.

"Where are you moving to?"

"I've got a few places in mind, but if nothing lines up quick enough I'll stay at Yoongi's
temporarily."

"That's good" unconsciously lets his fingers knot up in the locks of Taehyung's hair "Listen,
Taehyung, i've been thinking about it a lot"

The man softly kisses below Jeongguk's jaw, "Yes?"

"Are you just someone who falls for people easily? or is it because we had so much fun
together? or is it because you needed a reason to get away from Marisol? because I need to
know."

"Because my friends and my parents are all confused as to how much can change in a week
and I wasn't confused before but all of this has just made so much change. and then appa said
—"

Taehyung stands up to be sure their eyes are completely locked.

"I don't fall for people easily. that's the problem." brushes Jeongguk's hair back so that he has
a clear view of his flawless face "But it was so easy with you. I will tell you that my first
initial attraction to you was superficial."

"But I think that goes for any relationship where you meet someone out and about. there's a
physical attraction that catches your eye. but i've been around for a long time now. i've
answered many late night phone calls to help you with university coursework"

"Countless runs across town to give your little drunk ass a ride home." he laughs softly just
remembering some of the times Jeongguk's fallen into his car because he could barely stand
"But the thing is, there's always been a wall between us."

"And so yes the development from friends to more-than, was quick...there was nothing quick
about the way i've fallen for you, Jeongguk. i've been captivated by you from the moment we
met and every bit closer i've gotten has just shown me all of the ways you're made for me."

"Tae—" he's on the verge of a heart attack. because he's felt hopeless one sided pining for so
long.

Right now he just feels so validated.

And loved.

He feels loved.

Because it doesn't always make sense when people fall in love, so why is everyone trying to
force it.

"I know that I have shit to work through. I'm not a flawless human by any means, but I can
say without a shadow of a doubt, that if you let me, I'll love you better than anyone else ever
could." Taehyung can only give him a partial kiss because it's awkward with his lip.

But it's every bit as warm and overwhelming as each other kiss they've shared.

Jeongguk has to hop down from this damn counter because he needs to be closer.

Feels the way Taehyung's hands slide down his body to hold him better.

"Do you mean it?" Jeongguk's voice is shaking, on the verge of tears when he kisses
Taehyung again "You seriously, want to be with me? even after everything?"

"There's nothing I want more, baby." kisses his nose because he can "You have no idea"

Kisses the mole beneath his lip because he can "And I'll do whatever it takes to make this
something your father is okay with. I don't want to put you in the middle and I don't want to
lose my friend. I want this to happen in a way that has a happy ending."

Kisses him over and over until he has to stop because his lip hurts, "Say something, baby,
please" doesn't trust himself to speak above a whisper.
Feels those plush lips against his cheek "You're the man of my dreams, Taehyung. there's
nothing I want more than this either."

Seokjin is sad.

Sad in a way he didn't know it was possible for him to feel sad.

Because if there's anything he's always wanted, since the moment a small bundle of joy was
placed in his arms, was to make sure that little boy was happy for the rest of his life.

He feels like he failed.

But it's difficult because he doesn't think he's wrong. he does not think that Jeongguk should
be seeing Taehyung romantically right now.

There are far too many unknown factors in the way.

But he's sad because he could see the way Jeongguk is hurting and felt it in the way his chest
rattled when he cried against his hug the night before.

So he stops at a restaurant on the way home to get some dinner for his son and his wife.

It's as he's standing at the register waiting to pay that he hears a name get called out to pick
up a takeaway order and he sees Taehyung walk up next to him.

He wasn't going to say anything.

Not a single word, until he realizes that this is Jeongguk's favorite restaraunt.

"You really don't listen, do you?" doesn't even turn to make eye contact.

Feels that anger coming back but he loves Taehyung so he's not going to let it get to that
point again.

Taehyung is still Taehyung. he tries to remind himself of that.

"I'm sorry, hyung. but you're asking me to do something that's not possible."

"It's impossible for you to stay away from my son?"

Taehyung gives a pathetic smile before walking away with two bags of food in hand "It's
impossible for me to stay away from the people I love."

"Honey, what took you so long? you said you were on your way home almost an hour ago."

He kisses her easily before disappointedly handing over enough food to feed a family of
twelve
"Stopped to get food for Guk."

"Oh—" "I know he's not here"

She looks surprised. fishes through the bags for her favorite soup that she can smell before
taking a seat at their table. "You do?"

"Taehyung was at the restaurant too"

"That doesn't mean—"

"They're known for spicy skewers, sweetheart, taehyung hates spicy food"

She knows he's right, is well aware that Jeongguk went to Taehyung's and wouldn't be
surprised at all if the man went out of his way to get food specifically for Jeongguk's taste.

Taehyung has always been overly attentive.

"Can I ask why you're really so against them?" she says it before she can stop herself "It's not
because of Marisol. we both know Taehyung has been trying to get away from her for nearly
an entire year."

Seokjin thinks long and hard before taking a bite and responding "I don't know how to react
to it. we used to go on double dates with Taehyung and whoever he brought along. I can't go
on a double date with my best friend and my son."

She smiles that same smile she passed onto Jeongguk that makes Seokjin melt, "Wouldn't it
be so special? to have the type of relationship with the man who's stolen our bunny's heart?
we're losing nothing in this scenario. so I'm not understanding your anger."

"I've mentioned it to Taehyung so many times, the way Jeongguk's had feelings for him. He's
always laughed it off, chalked it up to Jeongguk being a silly boy. it's never even crossed my
mind that Taehyung might view him romantically. it feels...it feels wrong."

She understands that hesitation and she understands how weird it will be for awhile, but
there's a part of her that can't stop hearing her baby crying when he said 'he's everything i've
ever wanted, mom'

And she's always wanted her baby to have the world.

"It's not wrong, honey. Taehyung is closer to Jeongguk's age than he is ours. it feels wrong
because he's our close friend but it's not wrong. and personally, id rather my son date a man
that I adore, than some of the guys i've seen Jimin bring around for him to date"

Seokjin can't help but to snort at that, "I can hear him whining already from that comment"

"He picked Namjoon so well for himself and brings absolute bafoons for our baby, I can't
handle it anymore" she's giggling and Seokjin loves the way she sounds.

"I don't know if I'm ready to be accepting of this yet...but I will think about it."
Ignores her smug smile as she finishes her meal, "I love you, I know you'll make the right
decision."

And now he feels guilty. impossible guilt washing over him.

"I have a confession to make, but you can't be mad at me."

Feels the way she glares before he even speaks "You need to know that I am a father before
anything else and I will always worry about my son"

"What did you do?"

"I punched Taehyung today"

Not expecting a piece of bread to fly across the table and hit him in the head "You did
/what?!"

"I was so damn angry with him. and he was so nonchalant about telling me the truth. like he
hadn't been lying to me all of this time."

"Like it wasn't my /son he was talking about"

"Kim Seokjin, I am so disappointed in you." she stands to leave the kitchen but her husbands
arms are too quick.

Tugs her into his chest and kissing behind her ear "I know I need to apologize"

"And you will. first thing in the morning at work. I will call Taehyungie and ask him myself
if you apologized so you better do it."

"That's unnecessary don't you think?"

"Taehyung has been your best friend for nearly 8 years. I can't believe you punched him."

The last few days have been a rollercoaster to say the very least. Jeongguk's nearly gotten
whiplash from all of the back and forth.

But he honestly can't bring himself to think of any of that right now.

Because they're sitting on opposite ends of Taehyung's sofa, his feet in the man's lap that he
mindlessly massages while variety shows play on the television and their stomachs are full.

He's so content like this.

Catches himself smiling at the floor when the hands on his feet wrap around his ankles to tug
him down the sofa.

Not stopping until he sits up and leans into Taehyung's arms, "Yes?" voice impossibly sweet.
Taehyung's about to melt into a puddle on the floor with the way Jeongguk flutters his pretty
lashes and looks up at him, "I just want you next to me. I'm so happy you're here."

Jeongguk's head falls against his shoulder as they situate on the sofa. the younger moving to
sit between Taehyung's legs.

He can feel the steady rise and fall of their chests in sync when he leans forward to press a
kiss to his ear, "Do you want to stay?"

And Jeongguk knows he shouldn't. he should go home and talk to his dad some more, learn
what happened today that led to Taehyung's busted lip.

But he's so comfortable surrounded in this man's embrace that he can't bring himself to say
no "I like to cuddle in my sleep, you know"

"Yeah" Taehyung laughs and it's so warm and breathy against the side of his neck "I
remember"

"And you still want me to crowd your bed?"

Taehyung's hand curls around his neck until they meet in a sideways kind of kiss that they
smile into "I want you all over me, baby"
 maybe we got lost in translation
Chapter Summary

maybe, i asked for too much?

Taehyung knows very well that he needs to get his sleep right. Has never been good at
following his natural circadian rhythm.

Most of the time though, he's kept up by bad things, intrusive thoughts, self doubt, worry,
anxiety.

Right now? he's making progress.

he's awake by choice because despite the absolute torture that the last forty-eight hours have
been, Jeongguk is here.

In his bed.

Sleeping in only some soft shorts Taehyung gave him to wear, cuddled up to his side.

Face tucked into his neck—the soft puffs of air he feels are so impossibly soothing.

He can't sleep, not when he just wants to sit here and watch the way those long lashes flutter.

Studying the rise and fall of his chest as his finger glides along Jeongguk's shoulder blades

The blanket having slipped down to their waists, giving Taehyung complete access to gently
trace all of the constellations across Jeongguk's warm skin.

It's something wild, the way his heart inflates to the point it nearly explodes in his chest

Taehyung's never, not a single time in his life, has he ever, fell so terrifyingly fast.

He meant it when he said the fall wasn't quick. no the initial peaking of interest has been
budding over time.

But the free fall.

The moment of time following the first rush of excitement, has absolutely crashed down
upon him like the fiercest tidal wave.

Went from taking a leap of faith, a moment to say 'yes, I like you'

To suddenly being buried so deep in the depths of his heart that his brain translates
everything to do with Jeongguk, to love.
Even his first love feels like a child's play crush, in comparison to the way Jeongguk makes
his entire being feel alive.

Didn't realize he was holding his breath until one comes out trembling and it nearly stirs
Jeongguk awake.

The hand that was loosely hanging off of Taehyung's side has retracted. now sits delicately
against his chest.

Fingers curled and he really can't resist but to bring his own hand up to hold it.

Gently slipping his fingers in the perfect space where Jeongguk's are curled and tugs until
knuckles meet his lips.

Pressing countless kisses over and over and over.

He's being incredibly gentle. his eyes feel wet because he's so insanely happy.

Especially when the softest giggle erupts and Jeongguk's lips press against his neck, "Sleepy
more taetae"

And he knows that Jeongguk is trying to tell him to go to sleep but all he can think of now is
how much he loves listening to sleepy mumbled words.

He could really get used to this.

The only thing better than dreaming that he was in Taehyung's arms and that the man
wouldn't stop kissing him all over.

Is waking up in the exact position of his dream. when he opens his eyes to see Taehyung's
head lulled to the side he can vaguely remember last night

Finding himself awake due to the gentle brushing of lips against his hand.

Holy shit, Taehyung is perfect.

Perfect. and the light that is beginning to fill the room only proves that even more.

Because it glows against Taehyung's skin and when the man's eyes open, very slowly,
Jeongguk is so excited to see him.

"Goodmorning" he says quietly, leaning up on one arm so he can see him better.

But one of those long hands run through his hair, dragging him in until their lips brush and
Taehyung sighs, "I really love seeing you first thing in the morning"

Jeongguk feels the pink color filling his cheeks. it shouldn't. those kind of comments
shouldn't phase him
Oh but they do. because they're coming from Taehyung so of course they do.

"You should probably start getting ready for work" kisses him again "And I should probably
go home"

"Are you working today?"

Jeongguk shakes his head and loves the way Taehyung bends his fingers to scratch along his
scalp.

"Asked my boss if I could start over on monday. rough first couple days. thankfully he's
super nice"

Taehyung hums in approval before reluctantly moving to get out of bed, "I'll take you to
breakfast and drive you home. I can be late to work."

Jeongguk can't help the way he giggles "You're always feeding me"

To which Taehyung doesn't deny.

It's a love language, okay? "And I'll keep doing it. you'll always be happy" smiles
mischievously before tickling Jeongguk's sides until he can't breathe "And your tummy will
always be satisfied with me"

"Okay, okay, stop!" pushes him away from the shoulders and feels himself being pulled up to
his feet.

"You know, I need to shower before work"

"Is that right?" gulps and his palms feel clammy.

"My shower is definitely big enough for two people"

Jeongguk's jaw drops. genuinely was not expecting Taehyung to be so...forward. "Is that an
invitation for me to join you?"

Taehyung's hands glide down to his hips, feeling every curve before they curl around the
back of his thighs, just below his as—"This is me begging you to join me"

And how the hell is ever supposed to say no to that?

There's a lot of things that come with the excitement of a new relationship.

There's a lot of things that come with the excitement of having your feelings returned by a
long time crush.

But Jeongguk really underestimated the absolute choke-hold that Kim Taehyung would have
over him.
Because when they shower, Taehyung's all over him.

Fingertips bruising and teeth nipping at his skin.

They really don't separate long enough to conduct regular shower business—that is until
Jeongguk's so hot and bothered that he /knows Taehyung can see it.

He can /feel the fact that Taehyung is the same way.

Yet when he turns around to hint that he wants Taehyung to do something about it, something
he's thought about nonstop since the other night. something he wants so damn bad he can't
see straight.

All he gets is a breathy laugh against his neck "Later, baby. we've got places to be."

And so he's left to whine and throw a fit against Taehyung's shoulder as the man very
diligently relieves the pressure between them.

Gentle strokes of his hand and it's so different from the Taehyung Jeongguk had the other
night.

This one is soft and coaxes him through all of it with nice words of 'you're so beautiful' 'my
baby, my pretty baby' and he's slipping.

Falling and tumbling right into the palm of this man's hand.

Even when he begs against Taehyung's neck for more, he just gets a kiss to the temple and
feels Taehyung's hand move quicker "C'mon just this for now, hmm? we're not running out of
time anymore."

And that does it.

It shouldn't do it, but it does. because Jeongguk is so fucking happy that they aren't running
out of time anymore.

And even if he wants to be upset that Taehyung coerced him into the shower but refused to
get filthy. he can't bring himself to be upset.

Not when Taehyung's face is flushed and his eyes are low, coming down from his arousal.

Both of them taking their time as they dry off and get dressed for the day.

Elbows knocking while they brush their teeth. Taehyung finishes first so he hugs Jeongguk
from behind.

Pressing sloppy kisses to his cheek before stepping away to finish getting ready.

All Jeongguk can think about as they move around the room quietly and Taehyung hands him
clothes to wear, is how he could really get used to this.
"Seokjin-oppa"

He hears an annoying tone of voice that he hasn't been forced to listen to for a long time.

Glances up from the stack of paperwork on his desk, incredibly disappointed to see Marisol
standing in front of him.

"How may I help you this morning?"

The woman sits down and pulls out an envelope. tears streaming down her face. "I didn't
want to have to do this. but it seems that my fiancé has left me with no choice."

His brow lifts when the envelope is placed in his hands.

He can already tell that it's a stack of photos.

Shakes his head and tosses the envelope to the side.

"Taehyung isn't your fiancé anymore, Marisol. the sooner you accept that, the easier life will
be."

The woman cries harder. "You..you are aware? you're aware that he's been sleeping with your
child!"

"My child is twenty four years old."

"B-but.." her hands clench against the pleats of her dress "It's probably always been going
on" she speaks quietly

"Taehyung and I used to fight every-time we left your gatherings. because id be staring at
him and he was always staring at your son."

Seokjin never noticed that. maybe because he was so focused on the fact that Jeongguk
couldn't stop staring at Taehyung.

Chuckles a bit pathetically to himself, "Why do you insist on clinging to a man who so
clearly wants nothing to do with you?"

"I'm pregnant"

And here it comes. Seokjin saw this coming the moment Taehyung called him frantic a
month ago.

Marisol's always been manipulative and willing to do absolutely anything to get her way.

It's why her and Lia never got along. it's what made her the first person Seokjin has ever seen
his wife, ban from their home.

"No you aren't."

The woman's eyes are red with anger. Seokjin doesn't care. only glares back with a knowing
smirk "And even if you are pregnant, it couldn't possibly be by a man who hasn't touched you
in nearly a year."

"You don't know th—"

"Taehyung is my best friend, Marisol. I know things about you, that would probably make
you sick to hear them repeated from another's mouth."

Stands to walk over to the door, eager to escort her out.

Notices the way she yanked the envelope back from his desk but no, he won't let this be
brought up again.

Not if he can help it.

Grabs it smoothly out of her grip when she walks passed him "I don't appreciate you carrying
pictures of my child around. it's disturbing."

He sits in his office for another hour before curiosity gets the best of him.

But he thinks it's best to know what that woman has access to. if these pictures are something
awful like hidden cameras in Taehyung's flat.

He needs to know.

And he's terrified to look at even one of them because he will not subject himself to
inappropriate photos of his son.

But he really had no idea that not a single one of them would be not safe for work.

There's a picture of Taehyung and Jeongguk standing on a sidewalk, Taehyung's smiling

softly while wrapping a red scarf around Jeongguk's neck.

There's another one, inside a restaraunt.

Looks exactly like the karaoke restaraunt Taehyung said he took Jeongguk to.

And much to Seokjin's dismay, there isn't a photo of Jeongguk singing.

But there is a photo of him sitting at the booth with a brilliant smile and flushed cheeks.
Taehyung is whispering something in his ear with a hand stretched against his back.

Jeongguk looks so happy he catches himself smiling.

All of the pictures are normal, candid shots. as if someone had been following them around
their entire trip.

There is one picture that makes his gut twist and he had to move it to the back of the stack.

Though he didn't miss the gentle way his son was clinging to Taehyung in that photo.
Standing outside of Taehyung's apartment, likely the night that Seokjin found out everything
based on Jeongguk's outfit.

Tosses the stack of photos to his desk drawer and decides that he needs to talk to Taehyung.

But before he can stand up, the man steps inside his office with a soft knock on the door,
"Can I come in?"

His heart twinges when he looks up and sees the small swelling on Taehyung's lip. a blue and
purple bruise right above his chin.

Can't believe he punched his best friend. "Of course you can."

"Look, I understand why you're mad at me and I understand all of your reservations but hyu
—"

"May I speak, Taehyung-ah?"

Knowing the man won't refuse. has always been incredibly polite and attentive from the day
they met.

"First and foremost. Marisol has been spying on your apartment with cameras and she had
someone following you while you were in europe."

Watches Taehyung's eyes widen with worry before filling with anger "I swear that woman is
absolutely insane"

"Secondly, i've done a lot of thinking...and talking with Lia. I'm not ready, at all, to be
accepting of this. I need you to know that."

Taehyung's face falls, watches the nervous way he picks at his own fingers, "But I am sorry
for the way I spoke to you."

"I'm sorry for the things I may have told Jeongguk about you in anger and fear. it was wrong
of me to use things i've learned from our friendship as psychological warfare towards my
own son."

"Hyung—" takes a step forward and gently reaches out for Taehyung's arm

"And I'm so terribly sorry for acting out of line yesterday. no matter how upset, I should've
never laid a hand on you. i've told you numerous times that hyung will always support you
and I did the exact opposite. I was irrational and angry and hurt. and I'm so sorry"

Taehyung shakes his head with tear filled eyes "You had every right to be" doesn't know why
he can barely speak "I never expected you to have open arms when I'm telling you something
like this. I also didn't expect for you to find out the way you did."

"But Seokjin-ah. hyung. I am going to prove myself to you."

"Taehyung you don't have to prove anything to me." looks away with a pained expression "I
don't know if im mentally /there, for you to prove anything. I just don't want you to think im
angry with you. im not."

"Even if you weren't my best friend and I only knew you as Jeongguk's father. i'd still want to
prove to you that I'm worthy of loving your son."

"I just—" Seokjin shakes his head "You throw around that word so easily."

"Love?" Taehyung's heart pounds.

"Yeah."

"Jeongguk is easy to love."

Seokjin would probably punch him again, if not for the absolute sincerity in his voice and his
eyes when he utters those words so confidently.

"Like I said, im not ready to be accepting yet. but just—keep me out of it. and deal with
Marisol"

"I'm moving out of her complex at the end of the month." scratches behind his ear before
clearing his throat "I also came here to give you a heads up that I'm resigning from my
position beneath my father. I'm going to go work with Hyungsik."

Seokjin looks speechless "He's been looking for a partner for his firm for awhile. It will be
equal salary to what I make now and it helps me fully cut the tether between myself and
Marisol."

"But you—" he feels angry "But then who will I be working with"

"I don't know...that's why I wanted to come tell you in person. I didn't want to leave jobs but
if this is the only way for me to get her out of my life, then I will cut every tie necessary."

Seokjin sighs before falling onto one of the chairs "I guess I need a new job too"

"You don't have to qui—"

"She showed up here this morning crying with picture of you and Jeongguk in her hand. I
don't want to be anywhere near her."

Taehyung figures it's a long shot...but he's really loved working side by side with Seokjin for
all of this time "I bet Hyungsik will let me hire you"

Seokjin laughs and Taehyung feels so relieved to hear that sound again

"You really want to work with me? even after I rocked you in the jaw"

Taehyung is so genuine when he says

"I want to work with you even more now, I know if any clients ever cause problems you can
make them regret it."

"Just think about it, okay?" he says before he walks out of the office.

Only stopping when he hears Seokjin call out his name, looks back with a smile, "Yeah,
hyung?"

"You're easy to love, too."

Two days fly by when you're avoiding your parents at all costs.

Despite how much he wanted to spend the rest of the week with Taehyung, Jeongguk hasn't
gone back over to his place since Wednesday evening.

He hears foot steps down the stairs before he sees his bedroom door swing open with his
father standing there.

"You aren't running from me today?" speaks calmly as he walks to sit on the edge of the bed.

Watches as Jeongguk finishes getting ready.

"Where are you going tonight?"

"Out with Jimin, Namjoon and Hobi-hyung"

Seokjin hums as he watches the way Jeongguk dusts some glitter against his collarbone under
his t-shirt.

Really learned everything from his mother.

"You haven't let me speak to you since the other night."

"I know" he sighs and turns around to face his dad "I don't want to fight with you anymore"

"I don't want to fight you either, son. I want to apologize."

Jeongguk appreciates that, he does with his whole heart. but he just— "I don't want an
apology that has a clause afterwards, appa."

"There's no clause"

"There is, though, because I know you aren't willing to accept what I want yet."

"That's not a clause...i just need time."

Jeongguk knows so he smiles, kind and sweet as he grabs the red scarf hanging from the back
of his door "Then save the apology for when the time is right. i've gotta go, love you."
And he's not trying to be cruel to his father.

He loves him so much.

But he doesn't want there to be a looming feeling of guilt hanging over his head every-time
they speak.

Especially when so much of his life is beginning to involve Taehyung, it will only be harder.

T 🤎
Hey gorgeous

🥺
ME (jjk)
Hi

T🤎
Do you have plans this evening?
Hyungsik invited me out with him and some of my future coworkers tonight, I’d love to have
a plus-one?

ME (jjk)
I’d love to..really :(

T 🤎
I sense a "But” incoming..

ME (jjk)
But…i have plans with hyungs tonight and I haven’t seen them since we got back. I want to
go with you so bad :(

T 🤎
It’s okay, baby. I hope you have the best time tonight.
Call me when you inevitably need a ride home tonight.
Or even if you don’t, call me anyway.

ME (kth)
Have you thought about my offer?

Jin-Hyung
I want to meet this Hyungsik guy before agreeing to anything.

ME (kth)
I’ve talked about Hyungsik 1,000 times we studied together.

Jin-Hyung
I would still like to meet him.
ME (kth)
We’re all going out for some drinks tonight, join us?

Jin-Hyung
Drinks as in, having a few drinks? Or drinks as in, getting shit faced at a bar? I don’t think
my wife will appreciate me getting wasted while she’s gone for the weekend.

ME (kth)
Have you ever known me to get shit faced?

Jin-Hyung
Only once and it is a moment I never want to relive.

ME (kth)
I’ll pick you up in two hours.

Jin-Hyung
Fine, but only because I have an empty house tonight.

|||
"Oh my /god, you're alive!!" Jimin's squealing and clinging to his side the minute he walks
into the small bar they chose to hangout in tonight.

Namjoon's friend is the DJ for the night and saved a vip table for them to lounge at.

"We've talked every day, of course I am"

Giggles when the other two overbear him with hugs too. "We missed you, brat! you owe us a
lot of explanations so you better start talking."

Jeongguk takes the drink from Hoseok before laughing "Okay, so it all started when.."

"I told you I didn't want to get shit faced, Taehyung-ah"

The man can't help but laugh hysterically at the way Seokjin looks so wonderfully out of
place at this small bar "You don't have to get shit faced, just enjoy the music and let's talk to
our new coworkers"

"I haven't agreed to that yet—"

But the look in Taehyung's eyes tells Seokjin that they both already know what his answer
will be.

So he sits down at this bar table with a bunch of men he's meeting for the first time and
smiles reluctantly.

He's in for a long night.

ME (jjk)
I miss youuuuuu

T 🤎
Do you, baby? What are you up to?

ME (jjk)
We’re listening to Namjoon hyung’s DJ friend at a bar. He’s really good!

T 🤎
I wish I could see you, I bet you look amazing.

ME (jjk)
[image attached]

T 🤎
No way are you out somewhere looking like that and I'm not there to make sure everyone in
the building knows you’re mine.

ME (jjk)
But I know that I'm yours, that counts for something, right?

When Taehyung looks up from his phone, he feels like he's been caught red handed.

Or, red-faced, from the flush he feels after seeing how gorgeous Jeongguk looks tonight.

"I don't wanna know" Seokjin shakes his head and grabs one of the drinks off the next tray
that comes by

The conversations have been flowing pretty smoothly across their whole group for the last
couple hours and he's thankful.

Feels relieved to know that Seokjin will fit right in with this new group of people they will
come to know very soon.

And he's a little lost in thought when he hears one of the guys sitting next to Hyungsik start
on a drunken tangent, "I've got to at least go shoot my shot, hyung. I haven't stopped looking
at him all night. what's the worst thing that will happen, he says no?"

"I've watched that guy turn down at least a handful of men and women, I don't think you
stand a chance but if you really think your drunk ass should go for it...be my guest."

Hyungsik laughs when he chugs his drink, watching the guy, Duan stumble away.

And Taehyung is genuinely just curious when he looks out into the crowd.
Not at all expecting his heart to sink to his stomach when he notices that the guy Duan's had
his eyes locked on all night, is Jeongguk.

He's not going to make a scene. he won't.

Duan has no idea.

He's here with Seokjin for fucks sake.

Taehyung will not make a scene.

Holy shit is it killing him to not stand up right now. forced to watch as Jeongguk is leaned
against the wall and Duan is trying to talk.

Taehyung knows that Jeongguk has no interest in this man.

Or at least, he feels very confident in that fact.

But that doesn't make his body burn any less.

Seokjin snorts right next to him, stealing his attention when he pats his shoulder "Just go over
there already."

"No" he shakes his head "I invited you out so we could have a nice bro night out. I'm not
going to ruin it by being a jealous hot head."

Seokjin finishes his drink with a smile "I'm about to go home anyway. Lia just texted that
she's home early"

Taehyung's heart is rattling in his chest.

"I can drive you"

"She's already almost here, Taehyung. seriously, I don't mind." squeezes his shoulder with
another laugh "Jeongguk gets it from his mother, they're like magnets. everyone is attracted
to them."

He feels like it would be inappropriate to agree or disagree so he just taps his fingers on the
glass in his hand.

"Go over there before you pop a blood vessel, I'm going home."

He's up and Taehyung stands to follow him when Seokjin says "By the way, I'll take the new
job with you."

With a burst of confidence and overwhelming happiness, Taehyung bids Seokjin goodbye at
the door.

Turns around to find the man in that god forsaken red outfit and feels very disappointed to
see that Duan has managed to step even closer.
Still a good amount of space between them but... Jeongguk hasn't shooed him away, yet?

He's not irritated.

He's not going to make a scene in front of Hyungsik and he's certainly not going to be an
asshole to his new coworker.

But right when he's close enough that Jeongguk's eye catches him, Duan is reaching up to
tuck a piece of Jeongguk's hair behind his ear

Taehyung's brow lifts when he sees the way Jeongguk looks at him as if he were a deer
caught in headlights.

Jaw dropped and eyes so round — god, he's so damn cute.

But Taehyung is not happy with the progress Duan seems to have made.

With /his baby? absolutely the fuck not.

Is smooth when he walks up, stepping right between them and his hands latch onto
Jeongguk's hips as if they were glued there.

"What are the odds that I find you here tonight, hm?" presses a kiss to his ear. eye locked on
Duan.

"Sorry to burst your bubble, buddy. this one's taken."

Sees the way the man's features shift from annoyed to fear when he realizes it's Taehyung he's
talking to.

"Taehyung-ssi, I'm sorry, I really had no idea—"

"Mhm.." he nods, smile devilish "You can go along now"

The moment Duan is out of sight, Taehyung's hands fall from Jeongguk's hips and he feels
his blood boiling.

"You told me I had nothing to worry about, baby"

"You don't! he was just talking, honestly. until he tried to touch my hair which was so weird
and uncalled for"

"I had to listen to him talk about how he'd been staring at you all night. a little disappointed
in how long he got to talk to you."

Jeongguk blinks, repeatedly, is it the warmth from the alcohol getting to his head or holy shit
is Taehyung /pouting?

Kim Taehyung is pouting, full on sulking in the middle of a busy night club. because he's
jealous.
Oh heavens, Jeongguk heart aches with fondness.

Arms slipping around Taehyung's neck easily when the song changes to a slower rnb tune.

"You've got to know that there's not a man alive that could peak my interest, right? Taehyung
all I want is you"

The man's nosing at his jawline, soft kisses pressing all over his skin when he reaches behind
his ear, nipping at the lobe and toying with the silver earring.

"Besides" Jeongguk whispers with a sultry tone that sends shivers down Taehyungs spine "I
may have seen you over there and I may have wanted to give you a reason to come talk to
me"

"You bratty little thing" Taehyung laughs into his neck before he leans up to really look at
him

"Seven billion people in the world and I'm the luckiest one of them all" truly, fully, means it
when Jeongguk turns around to lean his head against his shoulder.

Hips swaying to the music in a way that forces Taehyung's hands to stay glued to him.

"You should come sit with us for a bit." Jeongguk smiles with his lip caught between his teeth
"And then maybe you can take me home."

Taehyung looks over where he sees Hyungsik and the others clearly getting ready to head
out.

And he can see on Jeongguk's face that it would mean the world to him if he said yes, so he
leans in to kiss those plush lips with a smile,

"Alright, baby. introduce me to your friends"

Jiminie-hyung
Get home safely, text us when you get there~~

Hobi-hyung

👀
If he even remembers to text us, they’ll probably be glued to the hip as soon as they get
inside

ME (whores GC)

🥺
Ur so annoyinggg. But we’re almost at his place. Thanks for not embarrassing me in front of
him.

Joon-hyung
That was a one time courtesy since it was our first proper meeting. It’s over for you, come
your family’s christmas party.
Jiminie-hyung
Omggg that’s next weekend already!!!

ME (whores GC)
How do u guys know the date before I do?

Hobi-hyung
Mom texted us. 😎 we’re the favorite kids, obviously.
ME (whores GC)
UR NOT HER KIDS

Jiminie-hyung
I'm telling mom you said that >:(

ME (whores GC)
I h8 u omg. Anyways pls wait until i’ve confirmed if this is going to workout or not before
you embarrass me ok?

Joon-hyung
What do you mean, I thought he’s "The one”?

Hobi-hyung

at everything you said 😭

Hello!!! And he’s obsessed with you in the best way. I was sobbing when he just kept smiling
even when you said something fucking idiotic he was just smiling
and laughing and just happy to be in your presence. I’ve never seen a man so utterly whipped
in my life.

ME (whores GC)
Yh, I'm so happy with him like you have no idea
But things have been a rollercoaster and it’s only been over a week since we made it official.
So I'm not letting my guard down yet.
He also hasn’t asked me to be his boyfriend or anything
Is that something adults do? Do we still boyfriend or do we just jump straight to marriage.

Jiminie-hyung
Yes we still boyfriend but i’d jump straight to marriage with him 🥵
Joon-hyung
Seriously, babe? -.-

Jiminie-hyung
I mean it respectfully ofc <333 as in Mr.Kim respectfully is a fine ass man.

ME (whores GC)
Hyung Jimin used to cry over how sexy you are when you work out, ignore him.

Jiminie-hyung
You were supposed to take that to your GRAVE
ME (whores GC)
Fuck off you’re thirsting over my man, rn

Hobi-hyung
Back to the boyfriend thing, I feel like he thinks you’re exclusive.

ME (whores GC)
Why???

Hobi-hyung
He literally said to that drunk guy that was hitting on you, "This ones taken”

Joon-hyung
He’s doing it again

Jiminie-hyung
Definitely

ME (whores GC)
What am I doing??

Joon-hyung
Self-sabotaging.

Hobi-hyung
Yep! You’re making problems that aren’t really there in your mind until you convince
yourself that it’s true and then you self destruct

ME (whores GC)
I do not do that. And that’s not what I'm doing! I WANT this to workout. I just don’t know
where we’re at "Officially” right now.

Jiminie-hyung
I think you need to ‘officially’ get it together before you ruin your own bells.

ME (whores GC)
I'm not going to ruin anything. I really really like him. I’ve liked him for so long. I just want
him to confirm it. Make it real. And can you stop bringing up the bells thing!! It’s so
embarrassing.

Jiminie-hyung
No way in hell, that was the sweetest thing to ever come out of your smart ass mouth.

ME (whores GC)
I'm going to return to my date…talk tomorrow <3

Joon-hyung
Don’t forget we’re doing lunch to catch up with the guys tomorrow!
"What are you groaning for, hmm?" Taehyung reaches over the center console to grab onto
Jeongguk's hand.

Brings it to his lips and kisses over the skin repeatedly. making all of the butterflies go wild
in his stomach.

"Just my friends being annoying as always"

Leans over and rests his head on Taehyung's shoulder despite the discomfort digging into his
side, "I'm glad you hung out with us tonight. they really like you."

"They were lovely, which surprised me considering you're such a menace"

"I am not!" jolts up in disbelief

"First my mom now you, everyone in my life is going to like my friends more than me"

Taehyung's laughter makes him feel so warm inside. the vehicle is in park and there's a hand
under his chin before he can unbuckle his belt

"There's no-one I like more than my baby" kisses him a few times before pulling away with
that sexy smile that drives Jeongguk nuts "Ready to go inside and relax?"

Taehyung is unbelievable suggesting they relax when he's got Jeongguk's insides on fire.

"I'm ready to do something.." gnaws on his lip cheekily before rushing inside the building
"Hurry up so you can join me"

And there's something about the way Taehyung attaches himself to Jeongguk's back as they
walk.

Lips pressing all over his shoulder in the elevator.

Hands tight on his hips when they're standing at the door and Taehyung's punching in the
code.

"Lead the way, baby"

Jeongguk is distracted.

Hasn't been able to stop thinking about it all night.

Is Namjoon right? is he self sabotaging? or is he feeling unsettled for other reasons?

He doesn't know, can't put his finger on it but something feels wrong.

Wrong because Taehyung is perfect, so why does Jeongguk have this horrible feeling in his
stomach that somethings bound to go wrong at any given moment?
He wants to dive in, fearless, but he can't.

Thinks about everything when he's finishing up in the shower. Taehyung having already
hopped out to make them some popcorn before they fall into bed and watch a movie.

And when they're together Jeongguk is so happy. thinks he can picture his life five, fifteen,
thirty years down the road watching movies and cuddling into Taehyung's side.

But when he's alone the doubt crawls in.

He starts thinking about all of the worst case scenarios.

Thinks about all of the ways this can blow up in flames and it's overwhelming.

But he pushes those thoughts down because they don't matter.

Not when he wants this so bad.

Walks out into the room where Taehyung has a book in his hand. waiting patiently looking
like anyones dream man when he looks up with the softest smile.

Pats the open spot next to him before lifting the blanket for Jeongguk to climb in.

Can't stop himself from climbing all the way across the mattress until he's straddling
Taehyung's lap with pouty eyes, "Question" "I'll do my best to give an answer" Taehyung
swallows a heavy breath when his hands glide down Jeongguk's bare sides "Am I your
boyfriend?"

The man clearly wasn't expecting that question, blinks a few times with wide eyes before
Jeongguk feels sour inside.

"Nevermi—"

"Hey.." Taehyung doesn't let him pull away like he's trying to "You just surprised me. don't
do that. don't doubt me."

Jeongguk looks at him and that bad feeling is swimming up his gut.

"You are whatever you want to be, in my life. as long as your mine, I don't care what label
you give it, baby"

That answer should please him. the way Taehyung kisses him for reassurance should be
enough.

But it's not.

Because Jeongguk can't help but wonder what the hesitation was for?

And why does Taehyung insist on always leaving the ball on his side of the court?

Why can't he just put his foot down and draw a line, now?
He had no problem drawing lines defining everything that they weren't...so why can't he draw
one that says everything that they are?

One that won't leave Jeongguk feeling like he's pushed all of this onto Taehyung himself.

Hisun
Hey! It’s Hisun, I was just wondering if you’re going to be at lunch tomorrow?

ME (jjk)
Yeah, I will be :)

Hisun
Cool! Do you need a ride?

ME (jjk)
Nah, I'll get dropped off or ride with Joon. thanks for offering tho!

Hisun
No problem. I’ll see you tomorrow, then! Have a goodnight, Jeongguk!

When the morning rolls around, Taehyung is admittedly very sad. he has to go home to visit
his parents today which he is absolutely not looking forward to. not when Jeongguk is here,
taking up the side of his bed that has easily become his in just a short amount of time.

When that side of his bed is empty, Taehyung hates his bed. hates the way the mattress sinks
in on his side.

No weight pressuring him towards the middle of the mattress.

He doesn't want to go home and spend the night with his parents. in a bed that doesn't have
Jeongguk's name on it.

But he's going to, because this is the last thing on his check list of things to do, to make this
work.

Getting his parents to understand he's done with Marisol, is a must.

But first he's going to make Jeongguk's favorite eggs and waffles.

And he definitely wants to make sure this man knows, before he leaves, that Taehyung is /his.

Thinks about their conversation last night and many other moments where Jeongguk has
expressed a doubt.

Had an epiphany of sorts as he replays all of their moments together in his head.
Taehyung's made it so clear that he wants Jeongguk to be his.

Calls of "Mine" are way too easy to slip off of his tongue. but he's so busy staking his own
claim on the boy that's stolen his heart, that he hasn't let him know that it's reciprocated.
Taehyung IS his.

Solely. without a doubt.

He has no problem putting his heart in Jeongguk's hands, for as long as he's willing to keep it.

Is just about to go start preparing their breakfast when Jeongguk's phone dings loud.

Three times back to back.

he only had intentions of turning the volume down so Jeongguk can sleep in longer.
but he wasn't planning on getting distracted by the messages on the screen.

Hisun
Goodmorning!
I’m looking forward to seeing you today and catching up!
See you soon :)

Is that why Jeongguk was asking?

Did Taehyung make up this scenario where Jeongguk is sad because Taehyung hasn't made
them exclusive?
when in actuality Jeongguk doesn't /want to be exclusive?
no. there's no way, no possible way.
right?
—
Jeongguk is not afraid to admit that alcohol makes his brain act out of line.
even when he's not drunk and has only teetered the line between buzzed and tipsy — the
effects are clear.
like when he wakes up in the morning and remembers the way he whined in Taehyung's lap.
asking about being boyfriends and sulking to his friends about it in their texts.
so no, they haven't exclusively named anything, but he knows.
god, does he know, that Taehyung is his.
when he wakes up and his clothes are neatly folded on the bathroom counter.
a delicious smell filling the entire apartment and he knows exactly what Taehyung is doing
every single morning when he does this.
it's effortless, the way Taehyung dotes on him, hand and foot.
as if he'd been waiting forever, just for this moment. just to spoil Jeongguk and give him no
reason to ever leave.
he can hear his phone vibrating against the side table but he doesn't care.
finishes getting ready and nearly runs into the kitchen.
slides across the floor and slips his arms around Taehyung's middle once he's in contact with
him, "Morning" kisses the back of his neck and squeezes tighter "What's for breakfast?"
"Chocolate chip waffles and eggs" Taehyung's head falls back until he's leaning against
Jeongguk.
turning so that lips brush his cheek, "How'd you sleep?"
"I slept fine but listen..Tae I wanted to apologize for last night"
the man places the last few waffles onto a plate before turning around and holding Jeongguk
properly. pushing him backwards across the room until he falls into one of the table chairs
and Taehyung's kissing him so softly it feels like a dream "Apologize for what?"
"I was being weird. with the 'are you my boyfriend' nonsense. just pretend I didn't say
anything okay?"
the man's head tilts a little and Jeongguk almost thinks he sees a flash of hurt in his eyes
before Taehyung is smiling, "I told you, whatever you want, baby"
—
when he asked Taehyung to give him a ride to the grill he's meeting Namjoon at, he wasn't
expecting the car ride to be so quiet.
Taehyung normally fills the space by asking questions or letting Jeongguk pick music for the
radio, but it's just quiet.
until they pull up the restaraunt and Taehyung's tapping his hands on the steering wheel,
"Who are you having lunch with? hopefully they aren't upset you don't have much appetite
left"
"Just Namjoon-hyung and some friends from work. one of my coworkers is a guy we were
really close to back in school. so we're all catching up, I'm more excited to see them than I
am to eat"
watches Taehyung's eyes widen but he smiles playfully "You? more excited for people than
food? baby, are you sick?"
rolls his eyes and can't help but to kiss Taehyung right on his stupid mouth.
his stupid mouth that's so soft and warm and lovely.
his stupid mouth that isn't stupid at all, even when he makes corny jokes in an attempt to
make Jeongguk laugh.
"I can be your ride home too, if you want?"
and he was planning on just going with the flow, but there's something /pleading Taehyung's
eyes
so how could he ever say no?
"Mmm, sounds good" kisses him again "pick me up in an hour or two?"
Taehyung's hand on the side of his throat has a tight grip.
holding him in place and kissing him harder. nipping at his bottom lip and licking into his
mouth and making his insides twist.
pulls away but Jeongguk doesn't want him to pull away, grabs him by the collar and kisses
him harder.
smiling into it when their teeth clink and Taehyung chuckles against his mouth.
"Later, baby" Taehyung kisses him one more time, right below his bottom lip.
"Bye"
—
Taehyung busies himself by stopping at the local book store while he waits for Jeongguk.
Really...he should already be on his way to his parents...but he doesn't know who Hisun is
and he really didn't want to leave an opportunity for Jeongguk to get a ride home from him.
he's not bothered...per se. Jeongguk has lots of friends that are overly loving. maybe this
Hisun person is another Jimin or Hoseok.
except...Taehyung doesn't get that twisting feeling in his stomach from Jimin or Hoseok.
even when they were at the bar and Jimin is clinging to Jeongguk's back and showering him
with cheek kisses and giggling at everything he said.
he just feels warmth. love and friendship and adoration and warmth.
even when Hoseok kept calling Jeongguk babe and leaning into him while they talked.
he just felt comfort. like these are Jeongguk's people. his chosen family that cherish him just
as much as Taehyung does.
and maybe it's because he's never /seen Hisun or /heard of Hisun that he feels uncomfortable.
but something about a goodmorning message and an I can't wait to see you message just have
Taehyung feeling sick.
so he lets himself get lost and fill up an entire basket with too many books to read while he's
at his parents tonight.
and if he keeps checking his phone for Jeongguk's text, it's noones business.
—
Jeongguk understands why some friendships last forever and some people lose touch easily.
because he's sitting here and they're all having a great time, but they just don't click like they
used to.
and they definitely don't have the same interests. nonetheless it's been nice. he's definitely
leaving this lunch more grateful for his best friends.
he sends a text for Taehyung as they walk outside.
leans against the building while he waits for him to show up.
"Hey, you ok?"
looks up to see Hisun walking up to him, leans against the building next to him.
"Yeah, why?"
"You were really quiet in there...and you know you took the week off of work already, so.."
"I just had some stuff to sort out this week, it was bad timing" smiles though and taps the tip
of his shoe against the concrete.
"You said you really liked indie music, when we were talking in there, you should check out
my brother's band. they just got their first record deal and it's really good."

He pulls out some headphones from his bag and hands one of them to Jeongguk to tuck in his
ear.
doesn't have anything better to do while he waits for Taehyung so he puts it in and listens to
the music.
the sound is a soft punk that he could definitely see himself listening to.
starts to bob his head a bit and didn't realize Hisun had the other headphone in.
ends up yanking it out of his ear and they're both a laughing mess when he tries to pick it up
but their heads clink next.
"Fuck, dude, I'm sorry!" smiles when he hands the earbuds back "They sound great! I'll
definitely check the—"
"Hey." snaps his head to the right and sees Taehyung standing there. hands in his pockets
with a blank look on his face. "Ready? i've got to get on the road."
he nods immediately, "Hisun this is my—" looks behind him when he doesn't feel Taehyung
stepping closer.
only notices then that Taehyung's already walking back towards his car.
what the hell?
"Sorry! gotta go. see ya monday!"
and he's trying not to feel angry. Taehyung set time out of his day to give him a ride.
but that was really fucking rude.
he waits all of fifteen seconds before he lets out a frustrated sigh "What the hell was that
about?"
"What?"
"I was trying to introduce you and I looked like an idiot when you walked away"
Taehyung glances over his shoulder at Jeongguk with a look he's never seen before.
brow raised when he scoffs "Right. sorry, not really trying to be cordial with someone you're
interested in."
"Well forgive me for wanting to introduce my boyfriend to—" jaw drops and his heart rate
triples "What did you just say?"
Taehyung keeps his eyes on the road now. They're getting close to Jeongguk's house and he's
fucking livid.
"I saw your messages and you're all cozy up against the wall with your headphones and your
laughter, I'm not a fucking idiot Jeongguk. it's fine. you're allowed to be interested in other
people, I just don't care to become friends with them."
and that just hurts.
that's so fucked up.
"I didn't know we were still entertaining the idea of being with other people." this is normally
the part where he'd start crying but he's just /angry. "Thanks for letting me know."
as soon as the car is in park, Jeongguk's flinging the door open and slamming it shut without
saying a word.
has only take a couple very angry steps up the driveway before there's an arm around his
waist and he's being tugged back into Taehyung's arms.
"Fuck you. don't touch me!"
"Jeongguk, stop, hold on. I didn't—I'm just. My brains been a damn mess since I saw him
texting you this morning and I was thinking about you asking if we were boyfriends and I
started doubting everything and then he was so fucking close to you—"
Jeongguk is gnawing on his lip and eyes filled with tears.
Taehyung suddenly feels like the biggest asshole in the world "I'm sorry"
"I can't do this" he says it. rips the words out of his chest because he has to "This is not
healthy. every other day we're having a fight"
"Because there's a lot that's happened. but this is the first time it's been /our fault." shakes his
head and pulls Jeongguk closer "My fault. 100% my fault. I'm sorry."
"Taehyung, I think we need to breathe."
"For fucks sake, you're serious."
Jeongguk feels those warm hands let go of him and watches Taehyung run them through his
own hair.
"I don't want to be scared to introduce you to someone because you might flip out and accuse
me of cheating on you. or or-or suggest something stupid like we see other people." a tear
finally falls, fuck it, "Do you have any idea how much that hurts?"
"probably about as much as it hurt me to see someone saying they can't wait to see you, have
you tell me to forget about asking if we're boyfriends, and then I see you all over that same
guy all in a span of 7 hours."
"That is /not what happened"
"How is that not what happened?" Taehyung raises his hands in surrender "You said you want
to breathe. so breathe. I'll be out of town tonight anyway."
"Out of town?" he feels frustrated "You didn't tell me you were going anywhere"
"Yeah.." Taehyung's crying.
Taehyung's not supposed to be the one crying.
"Not really a point in me going anymore, but oh well."
"Not a point in going where?"
Taehyung leans against his car door and Jeongguk has half the nerve to stop him.
but Taehyung just gives a small wave, "Bye, Jeongguk. call me when you feel like you've
gotten enough air."
—
the room is spinning when he enters the house.
feels his body slide down against the door.
he's not even crying.
he's just speechless, his chest feels hollow and he feels like a complete idiot.
did they just break up? and it was /his idea?
"Bunny?"
his mom calls out from around the corner. he can't really see her through the wetness glazing
his eyes but he stands up and wipes the stains off of his cheeks.
goes to get water from the kitchen "Yeah?" his throat tightens and he feels his dad's hand on
his shoulder.
turning him around and bringing him into a bone crushing hug "I didn't mean to
eavesdrop..but you guys were yelling loud" he whispers and the floodgates open.
Jeongguk's hands cling to Seokjin's sides as he cries against his shoulder, "Don't say, you told
me so, alright? just don't say that."
feels his dad take a deep breath before kissing the side of his head "I would never."
—
"You were almost late for dinner"
his mother greets him at the door with the warmest hug.
"Your father went to pick up the Noe's"
"Why?" shakes his head. give him a fucking break "I just wanted to spend time with the two
of you tonight"
"Oh" he sees her eyes widen "Appa said we needed to finish wedding plans tonight. I'm sorry
I didn't know, i've been busy helping your cousin and grandma with the gardening this week."
Taehyung thinks she goes off on a tangent about the garden but it's all falling on deaf ears
because he can't stop thinking about Jeongguk breaking up with him.
and had he just said what was on his mind first thing this morning this all could've been
avoided.
there's so many moments in his life that had he just fucking spoken up, he could clean up his
own mess.
this is one of those moments.
"Mother, the Noe's and appa both already know, I am not marrying Marisol. The engagement
has been called off for a year."
"Taehyung, but the co—"
shakes his head, grabs the duffel bag that he just sat on the ground and throws it back over his
shoulder.
"I already have a new job and working on a new place to stay. and I had someone, so fucking
special, in my life. that I would love for you to meet."
sees the confusion all over her face but he can't waste anymore time, "But before you can do
that, I have to fix things. because i've never been good at fixing things before but I'm trying
to be now. and I have to fix this. I'm sorry, I have to go home."
"Taehyung, please you just got here!" the woman is crying and follows him to the door "I
miss you!"
"tell appa to quit trying to force Marisol on me...then maybe I can come home and not feel
disgusted the entire time I'm here"
gets in the car with a deep breath.
shakes some of the nerves out of his system and fights the urge to light up a cigarette.
he's going to fix this.
—
"Do you want to talk about it?"
the three of them are sitting around the dining room table. Jeongguk doesn't really feel like
being interrogated but he's got a lot of shit on his mind and he just needs to vent.
"I think I'm just really scared. like I fought so hard for this and now that I have it, everything
that happens has me terrified it's all going to go wrong. I want to prove you wrong and I want
to make Taehyung happy because he makes me happy but I just keep—"
"Hold on.." Seokjin stops him from speaking "What do you need to prove me wrong for?"
"That I'm not just a distraction in Taehyung's life and that he really does want me. but i've
gone and made him think that I don't want him."
this is exactly what Seokjin didn't want. he did not want to be in the middle of a lovers
quarrel between his son and his best friend.
but what else is he supposed to do when he sees the way his little boy is hurting? "I already
know that you're more than that to him."
Jeongguk looks pained.
"Yeah well I just fucked that up."
"No, you didn't. Taehyung's been under a lot of pressure all of his life. I'll bet he's feeling the
same way as you."
"You both want everything to be so perfect that you're forgetting about the most important
part" feels his mom grab his hand and rub it between her own "Have you guys had a real
conversation about your relationship? are you /in a relationship?"
"I don't know" he sobs, head falls to the table and just sobs "I think we were working on
figuring that out"
Seokjin clears his throat "Do you want to be in a serious relationship? or are you just trying to
see him casually and see where it goes?"
"I want to be with him" looks up and just knows he must look so pathetic, sobbing at his
parents table over a boy, "For as long as possible. I don't want to see other people and I don't
want space. I don't know why I said that"
"I think you wanted space in that moment, baby" feels his mom stand up to come hug him
over his shoulders.
her head rests atop his own "You know, fighting doesn't mean your relationship is bad. it
means that you're willing to fight for what you have."
"Well I threw it all away so" stands up with a sigh "I'm going to go cry myself to sleep. don't
wake me unless Taehyung magically shows up."
laughs to himself...as if.

Jin-Hyung
Idk where you drove off to.
But I need a favor.

ME (kth)
I actually need a favor…hyung I'm sorry. I know you asked me to leave you out of it and I
know you aren’t fully okay with it right now. But can I please come talk to Jeongguk? I just
need to make some things clear.

Jin-Hyung
Well, my favor involves Jeongguk.
And you’re right, I do wish to be left out of it. However that luxury was taken away when the
two of you decided to scream at each other in my driveway.

ME (kth)
I'm sorry. Please don’t be upset with him, it’s my fault.

Jin-Hyung
Lia and I have some errands to run before the holiday party preparations.
I left the front door unlocked.
Please come fix this.

ME (jjk)
You said to call when i’ve had enough air.
Ive had enough.
But I didn’t want to call in case you don’t want to talk to me.
Taehyung I'm sorry.
I got so mad when you walked away because I wanted to introduce my boyfriend. I want
everyone to know that you’re mine. If you still are…
:(
You also called me Jeongguk when you left which is like really mean
Call me when you get these, if you want.

Taehyung glances at the string of messages on his phone before he opens the door to the
house he's been to countless times.
he's never been down to Jeongguk's bedroom but he does know where it's at.
resists the urge to run down the stairs that lead to the room.
stands outside of the bedroom for a few seconds to gather his thoughts before he knocks
quietly.
waits several minutes and it never gets opened up.
doesn't want to just barge in but he's worried so he does slowly open the door.
peaks his head inside and sees Jeongguk fast asleep. curled up on his mattress with his phone
tucked in his hand.
Taehyung just loves everything about him.
sits on the mattress and reaches to brush the hair out of his face. can see the stains from two
steady streams of tears down his face.
leans down to kiss his forehead before he nudges him awake.
"Hey...sorry I didn't call you. I had a better idea." he's whispering. Jeongguk makes a couple
noises of discomfort before his eyes fly open.
jolts to sit up and stares at Taehyung with sleepy eyes before he nearly tackles the man into
the mattress.
"You better not be a dream or I'm punching you when I see you in real life"
Taehyung's hands flatten across his back and pull him in closer, "C'mon baby, don't do that to
me. my lips finally not swollen anymore."
hears the softest little gasp before Jeongguk's hands are on his face, holding him still while he
kisses him all over.
"Baby—" he tries to interrupt but Jeongguk doesn't stop. not until Taehyung gets a hold of
him beneath his thighs and rolls both of their bodies over.
caging Jeongguk beneath his arms "We need to talk"
"please don't break up with me" Jeongguk's lip trembles and Taehyung feels his insides
shatter.
"No, of course not, baby" nuzzles their noses together before kissing that wobbly lip "I need
to draw a line for you, because apparently i've been unclear."
grabs one of Jeongguk's hand and forces his index finger out. takes it to drag across the place
on his chest where his heart lies. "This is the line that we stand on. okay? you have my entire
heart in the palm of your hand. I'm yours. in every aspect of the word."
"I don't want to see other people. I don't want you to see other people. I'm not going to
change my mind."
watches the way Jeongguk's eyes gloss over. it's a shame that he's so stunning when he cries,
"I'm falling in love with you. okay? that's why i've been acting crazy."
"Because I don't know what I'm going to do if you wake up one day and decide you don't
want to be with me, baby. I'm absolutely crazy about you"
feels Jeongguk's arms reach up to curl around his neck, tugging him down until their
foreheads brush and their lips nearly touch
"I am too" voice so soft, Taehyung could melt "I'm not interested in anyone else. I wasn't all
over Hisun. I promise. Taehyung i've wanted you for so long, you think I would do anything
to jeopardize that?"
"No, no, that was all me. I acted like a complete idiot."
"Where did you go?" Jeongguk's eyes are round like something out of an animated film.
"I was supposed to go to my parents, but I couldn't stay there." thumb brushes over
Jeongguk's cheek. "Not when I wanted to be here so bad."
"I'm really sorry" Jeongguk feels so warm. Taehyung just wants to wrap up in this feeling and
never let go.

"Don't be sorry. we just need to do better. we have to talk to each other. we're talking now.
we're already making progress."
smiles down at him and cannot resist kissing those lips, "You don't have to say it back"
Taehyung's voice wavers when he speaks "But I have to tell you that I love you. I don't know
how else to make you understand what I feel for you. I love you, my baby."
Jeongguk kisses him harder, clenches his eyes shut because this has to be a dream.
he hates his stupid brain so much.
he's going to be so fucking pissed when he wakes up from this.
"Say it again" he whispers "I just really want to hear you say it again."
if this is a dream, he's at least going to get the most out of it. then maybe he'll wake up with
the courage to make Taehyung say it forreal.
"Baby, I love you, baby" Taehyung kisses him between words. hands tight on his hips "I love
you, Jeongguk."
"No" he whines. feels those lips against his neck and let's out a soft whimper when
Taehyung's teeth graze along the skin "pretty baby, I love you"
"Fuck. fuck, this is the best dream ever, holy shit" he's crying. a lot.
sobbing into dream Taehyung's arms and feels heat in his stomach with the way the man's
warm lips brush all over his skin.
leaving not a single place untouched.
then those sweet brown eyes are looking right at him and he just feels himself turning into
mush.
"This isn't a dream" Taehyung's deep laugh resonates throughout his room "I'm here and
you're so beautiful and I love you."
he hasn't managed to convince himself that this isn't a dream
but he does let himself fall asleep being showered with kisses and hearing Taehyung's voice
whisper 'i love you' over and over again.
he really fucking hopes this wasn't a dream.
—
"Honey, is that..?" Lia gestures outside
Seokjin opens the car door reluctantly. Careful not to clink the vehicle next to his own "I
invited Taehyung over. I just feel like a lot of Jeongguk's doubt and anxiety surrounding them
is stemming from me and him knowing how I feel."
"I don't want him to be hurt and confused because of m—" feels his wife's small hands
holding onto his face when she kisses him.
"I knew you'd make the right decision" she says softly. turning to go inside
but not before she gnaws on her lip "Do you think we should be nervous to open the
door...don't get me wrong I'm very supportive but I don't want to walk in on them"
watches in amusement the way Seokjin throws his head back and groans
"I am /not there yet. I hope for the love of christ, Taehyung and Jeongguk both know better
than to defile our home."
his wife laughs before she's opening the door "We're going to find out, I guess"
and luckily for the two of them, the house is silent when they finish unloading all of their
shopping bags.
looking as if christmas threw up in their living room, it's Seokjin who decides to go check on
the two.
"Taehyung, Jeongguk, we're home." calls out before he's made his way down the stairs. is a
little worried when he doesn't get a response.
that is until he sees that Jeongguk's bedroom door is wide open and the two of them are
snoring when he looks inside.
Taehyung is fully clothed with Jeongguk completely crowding his space.
face tucked between his neck and shoulder. arm clinging around his body so tight.
is about to step inside to turn off the lamp by Jeongguk's bed side when he feels Lia's head
lean against his shoulderblade
"Let's go upstairs, we can talk to them in the morning."
"I was just going to turn off the light" whispers when he turns around.
"I think it'll be good for Jeongguk to see Taehyung when he wakes up, so let's just leave it
on"
hands on her waist guiding her up the stairs. wonders when she became so wise.
—
jolting awake in a panic is never fun.
especially not when he has a migraine from all of the crying he did.
but he can't bring it in himself to complain.
Not when the moment he's sitting up straight, steadying his breath and calming his heart
down, a hand rubs up and down his back.

Fingers threading through his hair and tugging him back into the warmest embrace "Bad
dream?"
"No" whispers against Taehyung's chest "It was a really great one actually."
the hand that curls beneath his chin is delicate. the monsoon of flurries in his stomach is
never capable of settling when Taehyung holds onto him like this.
turning Jeongguk until their lips touch, gently, "I love you" he says quietly.
smiling at the way Jeongguk gasps quietly against his kiss "Just in case you forgot"
there's a soft knocking against his bedroom door.
he's just not ready to get out of this spot, so he doesn't say anything. just tucks closer to
Taehyung's chest and feels the soft kisses pressed into his hair.
the door pushes open anyway and he would hurry to get up if not for hearing his mom's voice
"I made breakfast, come eat with us"
her smile impossibly warm, "And give Taehyung some clothes to change into. I can't believe
you made him sleep in jeans."
—
Now don't get him wrong. Taehyung has never felt uncomfortable at Seokjin's dinner table.
but he would be a complete liar to say that he isn't the slightest bit wary.
especially considering he's sitting at this table wearing some of Jeongguk's clothes.
it's definitely not something he pictured happening, ever.
figured that any time they stayed overnight with each other would be at his place.
and he surely wasn't expecting to be greeted with cups of coffee already set out for all four of
them.
Jeongguk sits next to him but resists the urge to scoot his chair closer.
his father's given them an inch, he's not going to try to take a mile.
it's Seokjin who breaks the silence, "Taehyung-ah, are you inviting your parents to the
holiday party this year?"
last year was the first time in their years of friendship that he did invite his parents.
mostly to save face because Marisol was coming and it would help his father get off of his
back.
although, those efforts were useless, considering he called things off the next month.
"I'm not sure. my father is still pushing the marisol agenda, so I don't know that i'd be
comfortable with them coming."
he doesn't look to his left even though he can feel Jeongguk's eyes on him.
Lia clears her throat before speaking up, "I'll be happy to get the message through their thick
skulls, Taehyungie. you know I have a way with words."
Jeongguk tries to hide his goofy smile but he cant.
he's having a casual conversation over breakfast with his parents and taehyung and he doesn't
have to pretend he isn't absolutely crazy about the man sitting next to him.
and his dad isn't glaring at him every time he so much as looks Taehyung's direction.
"I'm going to visit them sometime this week, so depending on how that goes will determine if
I extend the invitation."
"Do you not have work?" Jeongguk's only a little jealous that Taehyung will have free time
off of work and he won't be able to spend it with him.
"We aren't transitioning to Hyungsik's firm until the new year. I'm taking some personal leave
before I'm not longer working for my father. that's partially why I'm going to visit him,
because I don't think he realizes I'm serious."
Taehyung can see the way Jeongguk's smile has faltered. Can only imagine the thoughts
running through his mind, "But whether or not he realizes it, doesn't matter. I'm only going to
make things clear, if he chooses to disregard my wishes...well that's on him."
"He's always been a little stubborn...but I think it will be okay" Seokjin offers a kind smile
"And even if it's not, you've got us, so fuck him"
still fighting back his smile Jeongguk wonders if his dad knows the way happiness fills his
heart when he says things like that.
—
"I can come with you" Jeongguk is pouting, he can't help it. how rude of Taehyung to show
up, spill 'i love yous' like a prayer and then leave the next morning.

The man takes Jeongguk's hands into his own and pulls until he's wrapping those arms
around himself
"Sorry baby, i've got to go talk to Yoongi and help him make room for me."
Jeongguk opens his mouth, about to say how he can help. three sets of hands are better than
two. but Taehyung stops him by kissing his lips, over and over and over until he's forgotten
his argument
"You can come stay the night with me tomorrow night, before I go to my parents Tuesday.
deal?"
Jeongguk really wants to plead his case...but he could probably use a free evening to fill in
his friends on the major relationship development.
and maybe gather all of his feelings and sort them properly so that he doesn't feel like he's on
the verge of exploding every-time he looks at Taehyung.
he's managed to follow Taehyung all the way to his car, sad eyes when he leans against the
driver's door.
blocking Taehyung's access because he's just not quite ready for him to go.
"What time will you pick me up tomorrow?"
"As soon as you're off from work. call me and I'll be there"
Jeongguk loves the way Taehyung's hands fit over his waist. truly can't get enough of the way
Taehyung makes him feel. swallows him whole and melts to the ground.

"Kay" and Taehyung presses nearly his entire body against Jeongguk's. forcing them to fit to
the curve of the car
feels that familiar electricity all through his veins when Taehyung catches onto his bottom lip
before letting it go and capturing it into another kiss.
absolutely relentless in his attack. warm mouth kissing all along his jawline and down the
side of his neck
"I guess I should let you go back inside" Taehyung's whispering against his lips, voice doing
something wild to Jeongguk's mind
"Or you could come inside with me"
Taehyung's hands squeeze his sides and tug their bodies impossibly close when he laughs
softly
"Not a good idea, pretty baby. no matter how badly I want to."
Jeongguk steps out of Taehyung's way despite the fact that he really doesn't want to.
absolutely revels in the way Taehyung holds onto his hand and doesn't stop kissing him.
"I'll call you tonight before bed, okay?"
nods with a sad smile, lip unconsciously pouting when Taehyung finally pulls away, "I love
you. I'll see you tomorrow."
and he's getting in his car and Jeongguk really doesn't want to go back inside.
watches Taehyung drive off before turning around and catches the curtain swaying in the
window.
eyes rolling when he's back inside and his mother, very nonchalantly, is laying across the
chair by the window.
"Really, ma?"
"I was concerned you needed CPR considering you barely detached your mouths from each
other"
Jeongguk wanted their approval more than anything in the world — but not if it means the
embarrassment he feels right now.
—
"So I owe you an apology."
Taehyung stops filling the box of things from Yoongi's spare bedroom. "For..?"
"I didn't realize Alanis was following you guys everywhere. she was asking about what all
we were doing but I figured it was just her being a local and curious"
"Hyung, it's not like you would've known."
"Seokjin told me about someone following you guys and taking a bunch of pictures to give to
Marisol. I sent Alanis her demos and told her to find a new producer because it won't be me"
the smile he gives is too bright for Yoongi's taste, but he returns one anyway before tossing
something in the box right by Taehyung's feet "Now let's finish packing this room up so you
can move in this weekend"
—
Jeongguk is always worried about the way his best friend's will respond to any of the
situations he puts himself in.
this situation in particular, has had him stressed beyond belief.
second only to his parents, Jimin, Namjoon and Hoseok are the most important people in his
life. the thought of them not supporting his relationship with Taehyung, has been terrifying.
even if he knows they had nothing but good things to say after the bar.

Even if they're the ones who called him out for self sabotage and tried to prevent it. even if he
knows that they'll be by his side until the end of his life—he was terrified.
so the relief that floods his emotions when all three of them seem elated at the progress he's
made is surreal.

Feels them all hugging him where they're piled up on Hoseok's bed, "I feel like for once
everything's going my way"

Namjoon's squeezing him the tightest, "That's what we've been waiting to hear, bub, that's all
we've been wanting"

Jeongguk doesn't know how to contain the excitement he feels.

But all that he knows is that the last twenty four hours he and Taehyung have taken a few
major steps in the right direction.

He can't wait to see how much further they go.

T 🤎
How’s your movie night with friends?

ME (jjk)
Hi <3 we’ve done more talking than movie watching, but it’s good. How’s Yoongi?

T 🤎
We got his spare room completely cleaned out, probably going to move my stuff in thursday
or friday, since saturday I'll be busy.

ME (jjk)
Ummmm, you can’t be busy saturday, we have plans remember?

T 🤎
Baby, that’s what I'm busy with.

ME (jjk)
Oh…okay good..just checking 🥺
T 🤎
Do you still want to sleep over tomorrow night?

ME (jjk)
Yes, ofc I do. What kind of question is that.

T 🤎
A question from a man who’s very excited to see his boyfriend and wants to make sure
they’re still on.

ME (jjk)
I’d sleep over tonight if you’d let me..

T 🤎
No, stay home for tonight baby. You need to miss me a little bit.

ME (jjk)
I always miss you when you’re not with me.

T 🤎
That makes it even better than, when I finally get to see you.

ME (jjk)
Just say you hate me and go.

T 🤎
I love you.

ME (jjk)
No fair, now I'm all weak for you…
T 🤎
Good.

He wasn't going to go into the office at all this week, however the realization that he still
hasn't cleaned out his office smacks him right on the head when he wakes up.

Decides to get dressed in a hurry and get it over with before employees start filling up the
building

It's almost like clockwork when his phone starts ringing just past 8:00.

"Morning pretty baby"

"Mornin'" Jeongguk's yawn is loud against his ear and fills Taehyung's chest with so much
warmth.

"About to head into work?"

"Mhm"

"You sound really tired, get home late?"

"Mmmm..yeah, those hyung's took me out and forced alcohol into my hand"

Taehyung can't help but laugh hysterically.

The 2:30 a.m. 'i wanna have your babies' text makes so much more sense now.

"I assumed as much, need me to bring you a coffee at work? you're running late."

He can hear the way Jeongguk hustles around his room.

Sink water running and doors slamming. "please, oh my god"

"Just send me the address to your building baby, i've got to go clean out my office so I'll bring
you coffee when I'm done"

"You're the best" his voice is soft..the way he pauses sounds like he has something else to say
but it never comes.

"I'm going to let you finish getting ready. text me when you've made it to work and don't
forget to send me the address"

"Okay I will, see you later Tae"

He hears a kiss pressed to the speaker and his heart beats wildly in his chest.

"Bye baby, I love you"

"Dad, can you please give me a ride to work"

It's been a long time since he's resorted to puppy eyeing his father. but he has not been off to
the best start at this new job and he really doesn't want to be late.

"When are you going to get a vehicle of your own?"

Seokjin rolls his eyes but gestures with his hand for Jeongguk to follow him anyway.

"When I decide that it's worth the money besides I have you and T—" he stops for a second.
still unsure if it's okay to speak casually like this.

But then his father just laughs "You've been mooching rides off of Taehyung for years, of
course I knew it would only get worse now that you're seeing each other"

Gnaws on his bottom lip to fight off the wide smile he feels coming on.

They're about at his building when Seokjin clears his throat "I hope you know that regardless
of everything that's happened, I love you and I support you. even if it's still weird for me. so
don't think you can't just...talk to me, okay?"

"I love you too, thanks for the ride...and the support."

Feels like a kid again when he waves as his dad pulls off. but his heart is full and he feels
happier than he's felt in a very long time.

—
"Get the hell out" stands in the doorway, holding it open without even glancing at her.

"I just don't understand" Marisol walks over and gets right in his face. nails scraping along
his jawline but Taehyung refuses to look at her "What changed?"

"Nothing changed. that's the problem. I never could bring myself to have romantic feelings
for you and I'm not going to tie myself to someone when I want someone else."

The woman leans into him and Taehyung very gently pushes her away.

Keeping space between them when she speaks, "I agree with our fathers. you can have your
little boy toy all you want, as long as you come home to me I don't really care. he can live in
the apartment next door for all I care."

"But damn it Kim Taehyung, I've invested too much into this relationship for it to all be in the
garbage over some desperate boy in his twenties."

Taehyung is mindlessly filling the cardboard boxes when Marisol finally takes a breath from
her rant.
"I won't repeat myself, so listen clearly. this relationship has been over for a very long time.
was over long before I ever entertained the idea of seeing Jeongguk seriously. I do not /want
to come home to you. I want to go wherever he is."

"And the audacity you have to call Jeongguk desperate when you can't seem to take a
goddamn hint. there is no version of my life where you fit in, Marisol. now please leave my
office, I have somewhere to be"

"How dare you—" she scoffs

Kicks the cardboard box over with the tip of her shoe, "You're going to regret this. when your
little young boyfriend realizes you can't get it up"

He can't help but laugh hysterically, "Don't worry about me, darling. Jeongguk and I don't
have that problem."

Jeongguk want really expecting to be given a stack of business accounts to sort through and
enter into their system first thing in the morning.

He's dreading every minute of this workload until he gets that coffee.

Staring at the main elevator waiting to see Taehyung walk through it, especially considering
the man said he'd be there any minute.

But when he looks away for a second and there's knocking on his office door it's Hisun that's
standing there.

"Hey, I figured you could probably use a pick-me-up" places a small cup of coffee on his
desk and it's sweet..really.

But he already told the receptionist to send Taehyung right up and he's really not trying to
relive what happened this past weekend.

"Oh, thank you...but Taehyung is actually almost here with my coffee order. I heard Kye
mention being tired this morning..maybe you can pass it on to him." offers a genuine smile
but feels it fall when he sees the way Hisun looks disappointed.

"Yeah..I'll uh-give it to Kye. see you at lunch time" and when he turns to hurriedly walk out
of the door he bumps right into Taehyung.

Spilling the cup all over his shirt and Jeongguk jumps up when he hears the way Taehyung
hisses from the heat of the coffee.

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry. I didn't see you walking in.." Hisun is frantic. using his hand to
brush off the excess liquid from Taehyung's shirt.

"It's okay..i shouldn't have been so quiet" makes eye contact with a visibly upset Jeongguk
over Hisun's shoulder
Moves out of the way quickly and places the two intact cups on the desk, "You don't happen
to have an extra shirt, do you baby?" tries to give his warmest smile so that Jeongguk stops
worrying.

Feels the way he wipes gently with a soft towel at his shirt "I don't, im sor—"

Taehyung kisses him to silence, refusing to let him apologize for an accident that wasn't his
fault.

Can feel eyes on them from behind until he turns around and see's the door falling shut.

"I'll be okay, I'm just going home from here anyway"

Takes a seat at the edge of Jeongguk's desk when the man sits back down, "Your friend
seemed really upset"

And he didn't want to admit it out loud but it's clear, Hisun's made it clear, so he sighs "I'm
fairly certain he has a crush on me."

Misses the way Taehyung's eyes light up and a teasing smile dances along his face, "Ya'dont
say, pretty baby?"

"Why do you act like you already knew that?" glares at him when he goes to sip on the
chocochip frappucino that Taehyung seems to have remembered he loves.

"I don't want upset the other day because you were sharing an earbud with somebody. I was
upset because of the way he was looking at you and the way you were smiling back. I know
it's stupid but he was very obvious and I was worried that you'd maybe prefer—"

Jeongguk stands up to be right between Taehyung's spread legs, hands curling around his
neck and loving the way he feels those even larger hands secure on the back of his thighs

"Well I was oblivious I guess. so I'm sorry. but I'll have you know that the coffee you're
wearing was meant for me. I kindly told him you were already bringing me one and
suggested he take it to someone else."

Taehyung tugs at his thighs to pull him closer, lips pressing against his cheek, "Did you?" he
whispers, voice low and making Jeongguk's stomach twist into knots.

"Yes, I did." he steals one kiss from his Taehyung's lips before forcing himself to pull away

"I should get back to work before my boss makes his rounds and catches me canoodling my
boyfriend instead of reviewing these accounts"

Taehyung giggles softly and it's only then that Jeongguk realizes he had unbuttoned the top
two of his shirt.

How scandalous.
Buttons them up before he sits back in his chair and ignores the way Taehyung stares at him,
"What was that for?"

"You shouldn't be walking around with all of that on display. it's mine."

"The top skin of my chest? I wouldn't consider that revealing"

"But /i do." he pouts and tilts his head to avoid Taehyung's attempt at another kiss

"Fine, I'll keep the buttons buttoned until I get home."

Jeongguk let's him take a kiss then, smiling against it and leaning in again and again.

"Don't forget I'm coming over tonight"

"I would never" Taehyung's fingers tickle below his chin as he grabs his own cup and walks
away.

"Love you baby, I'll see you later."

And he's out the door before Jeongguk can say a single word.

Pops 😈
We’re going to the hotel to map plans for the party. You want to join? We’re going to eat
after.

ME (jjk)
Sorry :( I have plans tonight.

Pops 😈
What will you be doing?

ME (jjk)
Going to Taehyung’s

Pops 😈
For a few hours?

ME (jjk)
No, I'm going to sleep over. I won’t be late to work or anything. He’s leaving in the morning
to go visit his parents so he’s going to drop me off at work.

Pops 😈
Have a good time.

ME (jjk)
Really?
...no lecture about moving out if I don’t intend to sleep in the bedroom you pay for?
No interrogation about fulfilling my responsibilities at my job?

Pops 😈
1. I don’t want you to move out yet. We’ve already told you that. Ma and I want you to be
settled and prepared for success.
2. Until you give me a reason to think you aren’t being a responsible adult, I have no reason
to question you.

ME (jjk)
Who are you and what did you do with my dad?

Pops 😈
I'm not a regular dad, I'm a cool dad.
But behave and don’t come home with any marks on your neck this time…they’re distasteful.

Taehyung's has quickly become Jeongguk's favorite place to be.

Which is a problem, only because now that makes pretty much everything that has to do with
Taehyung, his favorite.

And most people would think this is no big deal but for someone like Jeongguk who becomes
/obsessed, very quickly..it's important he slow himself down.

Take a few deep breaths.

Let it all happen slowly.

But his heart nearly explodes everytime Taehyung looks at him and ever since the words left
his mouth that first time Taehyung hasn't stopped showering him in love.

Even now, when they've finished their dinner and Taehyung insisted on washing the dishes
himself because he didn't work today...before he retreats to the kitchen to do just that, he
leans over the back of the sofa to kiss Jeongguk on the cheek.

Lets his lips linger there before he presses another kiss to the crown of his head, "I think the
next episode of the drama you like airs tonight, why don't you turn it on baby?"

"You hate those kind of shows though"

He can hear Taehyung calling out from the kitchen with a soft laughter "But I love you, so I
don't mind watching it. I'll be there in a sec."

Jeongguk loves him.

He does. he /knows that he does.

But he's not ready.

Because accepting what he already knows is practically sealing his fate.

The fate that he knows Taehyung has the power to absolutely wreck his world.

All it takes is one thing to happen and Taehyung is capable of completely tearing Jeongguk to
shreds.

He trusts him.

Jeongguk knows Taehyung would never hurt him like that, but he's nervous.

He shouldn't be. he's /working on it.

But his guard is up so strong. emotions can be overwhelming.

If he thinks about them too much they flood his brain and makes it so that he can't even
function enough to get out of bed.

So he's taking it slow, he's doing his best.

But he doesn't want Taehyung to think his love isn't reciprocated.

And he really tries to make it clear.

When Taehyung sits next to him and he immediately clings to his side.

Suffocating him with kisses during every single commercial break of the drama.

And when something cheesy is said on the show that makes his heart swoon, he can feel
Taehyung's eyes on him.

Makes it a point to look at him with a soft smile before leaning in to kiss his lips.

Because Taehyung makes Jeongguk's heart suggest crazy things like picnic dates and cheesy
words and spending every single night together for the rest of their liv—"Baby? you okay?"

Taehyung's finger is gentle beneath his chin.

Tilting his face upwards until their noses clink and their eyes meet "Your hearts beating like
crazy. I can literally feel it. do you need some water?"

"No, I just—" he shakes his head.

It's dangling right in front of him. he can taste it on his tongue but he just..can't.

"I really love being here with you" is what he settles on and the warmth that spreads across
Taehyung's face is enough.

The way the man pulls him up across his lap and into his arms is enough, "And I love having
you here."
They've been laying in bed for about two hours now. talking about so many different things.

Taehyung giving Jeongguk advice about his job and using it as a stepping stone to advance
his career.

Jeongguk opening up about his nerves and anxiety in general. he feels like tons and tons of
weight have been lifted from his shoulders the more they talk.

He's got his arms crossed on Taehyung's stomach where he's resting his head and enjoying
the fingers that card through his hair.

Taehyung leans over to switch off the side table light when Jeongguk notices the smallest
mark along his jawline.

Looks like a tiny cut and momentarily feels worried that he somehow did it when they were
wrestling for the remote following his drama episode.

Lets his finger run across it gently, "You're always getting hurt. you need to stay by my side
so I can protect you"

"Ahh, that didn't hurt at all.." Taehyung grabs onto Jeongguk's hand and gently pecks across
all of his fingers. "Marisol was on her shit while I was cleaning my office out"

"You didn't tell me you saw her today"

"Because she doesn't matter" Taehyung shrugs "It was hopefully the last time I have to see
her in person"

"I can't believe she scratched you"

"She was trying to grab me but her nails were sharp."

"I hate her" Jeongguk is pouting. feels himself being rolled over until his head hits the pillow
and Taehyung's pressing his face into his neck "I don't want to talk about her, ever. there's no
situation where I want to talk about her. so shh"

Jeongguk would argue and blame Taehyung for not telling him in the first place...but he's too
distracted by the warm mouth trailing the column of his neck.

The teeth that nip and bruise and /shit his dad really called them out for this

But /fuck his body is buzzing and he can't find it in him to pull Taehyung away.

Feels the hands that dig into his sides and his body being pressed into the mattress and he's
just absolutely crumbling.

Hand loosely curled in the locks of Taehyung's hair as the man continues the attack on his
skin.
That is until he trails his kisses upwards until their lips are locking and Jeongguk can't think
straight anymore.

Has never had a single moment of Taehyung's lips against his own where he managed a
rational thought.

Not with the way Taehyung's teeth tug at his upper lip lightly. only to smile against his kiss
before suckling on his bottom lip.

Knows every single way possible to light Jeongguk's entire being on fire.

Only getting worse when one of those hands that he's infatuated with trickle up the side of his
body.

Tracing the curve of his side until it comes up to hold onto his face.

Strong grip in place while Taehyung's tongue pries his mouth open and just devours him.

Makes Jeongguk feel like he's dissolving to nothing. until he parts for air. smile evident and
those dark eyes find his easily, "I love you so much" Taehyung is shameless

Let's those words fall from his lips so easily. as if he has no fears at all and Jeongguk loves
him.

God he loves Taehyung, terribly so.

His heart aches with the desire to just fucking say it. and he does, a whisper between their
lips that is nearly inaudible "I love you too"

They're kissing more. slower but deeper and he feels so relaxed and weightless that he thinks
he could fall asleep like this.

Until suddenly Taehyung stops. pulls away with wide eyes and sits up until his butt is resting
against Jeongguk's thighs "What did you say?"

And damn Taehyung for making his face heat up like this.

For making his insides twist.

For being so impossibly perfect that he's had no choice to slowly fall in love until there was
no more slow anything.

Until it transitioned into something rapid and overwhelming yet so incredibly wonderful, "I
said that I love you too" tugs him back down by the collar "Now kiss me more"

Taehyung doesn't say another word but Jeongguk can feel it.

He can feel it because Taehyung's fingers are trembling when they're getting themselves to a
place they've been multiple times before.
Chest heaving and rather clumsy when they're fumbling over each other.

Trying to get to the best position.

Trying to reach the right spot for Jeongguk to have no choice but to whine and groan against
his ear.

Finding the momentum that sends them both soaring.

He can feel it in the way Taehyung holds him delicately, despite the salacious way he grinds
up into him.

"Always gonna love you, pretty baby. cant get enough of you" he whispers against his ear
when he feels Jeongguk's body come undone. "I mean it"

And Jeongguk feels it.

He's felt it from the moment Taehyung looked at him on a cold european winter night and
told him how he cherished him.

He's felt it all of this time when Taehyung answered every single call.

Always there for a listening ear or a ride or a friend.

It's always been him and it will always be him and he knows Jimin will never let him live it
down but damn it he really did hear stupid bells in his head the first time he saw him.

But he hears them even louder now. feels them rattling his heart and leaving him with no
choice but to be fearless, "Always loved you. always gonna love you too, Tae"

Waking up to the feeling of soft lips kissing all over his chest, definitely has to be one of the
best ways Taehyung has ever woken up.

Especially when Jeongguk realizes he's awake so his lips make a neat little path all the way
up until their mouths connect, "Morning"

"Goodmorning baby" Taehyung's voice is rough. eyes barely open but they're open enough
that he can see the gentle glow on Jeongguk's face.

He looks like a damn angel.

"I wish I could go with you" Jeongguk pouts immediately.

And Taehyung is /so weak for that pout but he cannot bring Jeongguk just yet.

He wants so badly to reach a point where he can take Jeongguk home with him.

Walk him around the farm, show him his favorite hiding spots.
Taehyung wants Jeongguk to have seen and been a part of every single aspect of his life....but
not yet.

Not until he feels confident and certain that he has support.

Not until he knows that Jeongguk will be safe and respected.

So reluctantly he shakes his head, lips finding Jeongguk's nose to press the lightest kiss
"You've got work, my handsome little businessman"

"My boyfriend is filthy rich so I even need to work? let me be your house-boyfriend. I'll cook
you meals and clean everything"

Taehyung feels something special when Jeongguk's fingers lace with his own.

Laughs at his suggestion and as nice as it sounds.. "A couple problems with that, baby. first
of all, I am about to be homeless, essentially."

"That's fine, Yoongi loves me" Jeongguk really puts on a good arguement. especially with the
way he bats his eyes and scoots himself up completely into Taehyung's arms "Just think about
it, you'd have me /all to yourself" nips at his earlobe "All of the time"

Evil.

Jeongguk is pure evil with the way he breathes against Taehyung's ear and makes his skin
burn with absolute /want. "Secondly, my sweet baby, you worked very hard to get your
degree. we just talked last night about your career goals. let's not lose sight of those, hm?"

Feels the way Jeongguk's body sags before he kisses him "You're so rational sometimes it's
infuriating"

"I've told you before, this is why we will work, it's called balance"

And he wasn't expecting the way Jeongguk stares at him. mouth ajar, eyes glistening.

Taehyung's brows furrow with worry, "What's wrong?"

Jeongguk takes a deep breath, "It's occurring to me, that you actually, truly, see a future with
me. its mind boggling."

"I've tried very hard to make that clear, how are you only just realizing that I see you in my
future?"

The man in his arms shakes his head, clinging to Taehyung's neck and kissing behind his ear,
"Because i'd somehow convinced myself that none of this was real. but then you go and say
things like 'this is why we work' and remind me that we're doing this...and we'll succeed."

Taehyung kisses him hard. lips leaving Jeongguk's mind a mess, "Yeah, we're doing this and
yes we will succeed. we deserve this."
He feels every bit of Taehyung's words when he kisses him once more "Because I love you"

"And I love you" Jeongguk's voice cuts in "So much"

Taehyung insisted on stopping by the local park for a stroll, before they head to Jeongguk's
office.

Took one lap around the entire perimeter, stopping near the fountain where a woman was
selling homemade candies.

As Jeongguk is sitting in the passenger seat of his car, munching away on the hard candies
and humming to the song on the radio..Taehyung feels so happy.

Can't think of anything that's ever made him feel so positively blissful.

Makes his desire to go home inflate inside of him.

Pressure rising and rising and he's just hoping on everything he has that it won't burst.

Reluctantly puts the vehicle in park when they've reached the parking lot of Jeongguk's
building.

Already feels Jeongguk's sad eyes on him, "Don't do this to me, baby, you know I'm terribly
weak for those eyes"

"Cant help it, I'm not going to see you until Friday."

Taehyung eagerly holds Jeongguk's hands in his own when they're out of the car and walking
to the door.

"You can call me whenever you want, really, I won't mind." pulls onto those hands until
Jeongguk's arms are wrapping around his middle "I'll miss you, my pretty baby, be good
while im gone, hm?"

Kisses his lips softly and the way Jeongguk bites onto his lip feels like refusal.

But Jeongguk smiles against their kiss right after and let's their noses nuzzle, "I'm always
good for you, aren't i?"

"I dunno about that.." shakes his head and just wishes his heart would stop doing that /thing
in his chest every-time Jeongguk speaks.

"Have a great day at work, call me once you're home?"

Jeongguk nods but holds him tighter. presses his lips against his own repeatedly "Love you"
he says quietly.
Taehyung's not adjusted to hearing those words leave his favorite lips but he can definitely
get used to it.

"I love you" he makes sure to say it a little louder. kissing Jeongguk's forehead before pulling
away, "I'll see you this weekend"

"Bye, Tae. please drive safe."

Can't help the way he smiles brightly, "Of course, i've gotta make it back to spend the holiday
with my baby."

Jin-Hyung
Hey.
I know you’re going to your parents today, so just, don’t let them bother you okay?
Your father has always been insufferable and impossible to please. You’ve done more than
enough to satisfy them.
If they ask for more than you’re willing to give, kindly walk away. You’ve got plenty of us
here to love you.

ME (kth)
Hyung…what’s with the soft words?

Jin-Hyung
I’ve been playing the role of ‘Jeongguk’s father’ a lot lately. But don’t forget that we’ve been
best friends for nearly a decade.

ME (kth)
I could never forget something like that.

ME (whores GC)
Tae is gone this weekend :( someone save me from my misery.

Hobi-hyung
Come help me buy clothes for the party saturday!

ME (whores GC)
Yes! I need new clothes too. It’s my first year coming with a real date 🥺
Jiminie-hyung
I wanna go too!

Joon-hyung
I'm working, if you go to eat don’t forget to bring me food home!

ME (whores GC)
Thanks for finding something to keep me busy :(
Hobi-hyung
We’ve always got you, bub. Even if we’re your second favorite option now 🥴
Nerve wracking doesn’t even begin to summarize the way driving home has Taehyung
feeling. The thought of having to argue with his father for hours on end sounds impossibly
draining.

But he shakes it off with a heavy sigh. it will all be worth it, if everything goes well. No more
obstacles to conquer. No more wars to wage. They can be free to simply focus on each other
and their future and it’s all worth it.

It’s worth the sweat he feels trickle down his neck and the ill punch to his gut that is
relentless the entire drive.

Tries his best to focus on the radio and the world around him but then the song falling comes
on the radio and he’s taken right back to that karaoke restaurant in Europe.

Jeongguk’s impossibly soothing vocals flooding his mind and he just wants to be back there.
Has already thought about when would be a good time for them to go.

Seokjin asked him, in his slightly drunken stupor at the bar, "When did it start?” but he
quickly brushed it off. Insisting he didn’t want to know. But Taehyung hasn’t been able to
stop thinking about it. Every moment that he has to himself is consumed by thoughts of
Jeongguk.

So he has no choice but to wonder, "When did this start?” he tries to pinpoint the exact
moment it happened but he can’t. Figures he was right on the money when he told Jeongguk
it’s been a gradual falling.

But then he thinks back to the night they met and how it just took one glance Jeongguk’s
direction for him to be a goner. Hook, line and sinker he was ready to risk it all that very
night.

And maybe it was that initial fall that had him in a daze.

Taehyung did a pretty good job of pushing it to the back of his mind for the first few years.
But then he started seeing Jeongguk everywhere partially because Jeongguk would go out of
his way to see him.

And it happened very smoothly, without warning, the way Taehyung’s interest in getting to
know Marisol better slipped right out the door.

Marisol used to pick fights every time they left the Seokjin’s…

…anytime Jeongguk was around it was a fight. Taehyung was so blinded in those moments
but hindsight is 20/20 and he sees it so clearly.
There was never going to be anyone else for him. Not when all it took was a single text
message from Jeongguk at any damn hour of the day or night and he’d be on his way.

Didn’t think anything of it two years ago when Jeongguk called him frantically at 2 a.m the
night of Marisol’s birthday because he had walked down the wrong alleyway and lost Jimin
who’s phone was dead.

Taehyung almost lost the memory of rushing to throw clothes on and find a very drunken
Jeongguk who was in hysterics. Circling all over the inner city until they finally found
another very drunk and hysteric man sitting by himself on a curb.

Remembers the way Jeongguk hugged him when he dropped him home. Also remembers the
absolute hell he had to pay for that night.

For leaving without a word and worrying his then-fiancé sick. Taehyung can’t help but laugh
at himself when he’s finally pulling up to his parents driveway. Realizes that his heart knew
what it wanted far before Taehyung realized it himself.

T 🤎
Just made it to my parents, I love you. I’ll call you tonight.

🥺
ME (jjk)
Hi , im glad you made it safe. Love you so much, Tae <3

T🤎
I want to kiss you when you say such cute things

ME (jjk)
Then come and do it.

T 🤎
You know that I would if I could, pretty baby. Let me know when you’re in for the night? So
I know when to call you?

ME (jjk)
I will!! If your dad is mean to you, I'll punch him.

T 🤎
Don’t worry about me, have a good evening. Tell your friends I said hello.

"Alright, alright" enough with the giggling into your phone. you called us for emergency
saving and you’re too busy texting your boyfriend anyway” Jimin is joking, Jeongguk knows
this, but he still feels bad.

Shoves his phone into his pocket mindlessly, “I'm sorry. He just made it where he was going.
I had to know he was safe”
"Right, anyways, come over here!”

Hoseok tugs him straight towards a rack of clothing that is far too revealing for his family
holiday party "You need one of these in your closet”

And in any other circumstance Jeongguk would willingly choose anything off of that rack.

"Appa is grossed out as it is, I don’t want to give him any other reason to feel uncomfortable”
lets his fingers run along the sparkling black fabric and can’t help the way he sighs "But I bet
Tae would die if he saw me in this”

"So buy the red one. And put like a soft white sweater over top of it.” Jimin calls out from
another rack, mischievous grin dancing on his face when he holds one up shaking it in the air
"Cute cashmere in the streets, sexy sheer in the sheets”

The laugh he lets out is the exact opposite of sexy but he grabs both tops anyway. His friends
may be horrible influences but he figures it doesn’t hurt to have options..

__

Taehyung wasn’t expecting to be tackled by his two younger cousins the second he walks
through the door. “Tete look, I’m finally taller than Jiyeon!” he swoops up the younger of the
two siblings easily "I see that, what are you guys doing here? Where’s your dad?”

"Hey hyung!” glances up to see Younho and is beyond pleasantly surprised "Why didn’t my
parents tell me you were in town?” hugs him with a soft squeeze.

Gets lost in conversation with Younho while the two girls cling to his legs.

So lost in conversation he doesn’t hear his parents walking in until his father’s hand falls on
his shoulder, "Finally, my son decides to come home”

"You knew I was coming this week.” shakes his head and makes way towards his mom who
hugs him so tight he nearly falls over

"Come on baby, help me prepare dinner, Younho has business with appa”

And Taehyung is genuinely curious, but all he can think about right now is that he’s glad it’s
Younho and not him..

"Why is Younho here? he hasn't been back home since the girls were three and four?"

His mother is very nonchalant when she hands him some lettuce heads to chop up "I really
don't know tae-baby, that's a question for your father."

He chooses to move on.

Even if there's something blowing up in his stomach telling him it's all wrong.
Finishes setting the table for their family and helps his mother place every single entree into
the center of the table.

If nothing else, he is ready for this food.

"So Joonie wanted me to talk to you about something."

He notices the way Jimin's eyes refuse to meet his and immediately grows suspicious "Okay?
so talk."

"Jeonggukkie, do you know that Hisun had feelings for you in high school years?"

His eyes nearly reach the back of his head from how hard he groans "No, I genuinely had no
idea, why?"

"He's going to ask you on a date Monday."

"Okay and he'll get rejected. simple as that." goes to take a bite but hears Hoseok clear his
throat.

"You know that Hisun was taken away from high school because of anger management,
right? Namjoon's worried that he might lash out if you reject him."

He laughs, this is just fucking hysterical "Im not scared of him, are you joking right now?
why do you look so worried?"

"He evidently made comments 'jokingly' when Namjoon mentioned Taehyung, that he'd just
have to get him out of the way if it was necessary."

Aaand now Jeongguk is fucking livid.

Blood boiling when he stands from the dining table "Okay and I will fuck him up if he even
thinks of touching Taehyung"

"A lot of this was said during 'bro talk' when they were all hanging out the other night. so
there's a good chance he was just drunk and saying dumb shit"

"But Namjoon wanted you to know anyway. because you work with the guy and you know
Joonie doesn't take threats lightly."

Jeongguk is ready to go home. "I'll deal with Hisun on Monday. Let's get out of here."

"Younho, do you remember when uncle always praised you for your talented computer
skills?"
The man shrugs, knowing well he's about to be asked to do something he probably doesn't
want to do.

"I have a favor to ask, it's for Taehyung's safety so it needs to be private."

Realistically, Taehyung knew this conversation wasn't going to end well.

There was no part of his mind that anticipated positive results in anyway.

But still he wasn't expecting the way his father slams a fist on the table. "Enough, Taehyung!"

Younho is quick to grab his daughters and exit the room. Opting to go work on his project
instead of listening to his uncle and cousin get into a screaming match...again.

"Why is it enough? Why have you treated me as if I don't have a voice my entire life? I am in
my thirties, I'm not going to be bullied by my father."

"This isn't about bullying this is about you making a mistake! you're setting yourself up to be
taken advantage of."

Taehyung scoffs in disbelief "Taken advantage of by /who?"

"That boy! the one you've been galavanting around with instead of your fiancé."

"For the last fucking time, I am not engaged to her anymore! I will not be marrying her."

He's so sick of sounding like a broken record, "I also will not be taking over your seat in the
company. I begin my new partnership with Hyungsik at the beginning of the year."

"Baby won't you please just hear your father out. Why must you both always argue?"

"Hear him out? You both have been shoving Marisol down my throat for years. I was never
interested in her and I don't really care if her parents are your good friends and business
partners. So no, I have no desire to hear appa out."

He feels his throat tighten.

Rehearsed over and over the exact words he'd say. it was going to be calm cool and collected
and now he's just fucking /over it.

"Do you think I really want this? to spend my life fighting with my father over my future?
i've been doing it as long as I can remember"

"Son, just understand, Marisol will be such a good wife. She can take great care of you, bring
beautiful children into this world and you can keep the family wealth growing. rather than
wasting your time with a mid-class boy who will be done with you once he finishes growing
up."
Taehyung understands.

He really hoped things would turn out differently but of course they wouldn't.

That feeling that's been blowing up inside of him is so overwhelming and toxic that it pops.

Tears fall because he's fucking angry when stands from the table and turns to leave the room,
"I don't know why I thought you'd see me as your son and that you'd want me to be happy
with the person that I love. I forgot I'm just a trophy in your eyes. that's all I'll ever be"

🥺
ME (jjk)
Hi , im home and miss u alot. Call me whenever. I love you!

T🤎
Hello my love. You have no idea how badly I wish I was there with you.

ME (jjk)
Everything ok? :(

T 🤎
I told you not to worry about me, how was your day?

ME (jjk)
But you seem sad :( I don’t like that. I had a good day. Went shopping for clothes this
weekend. I bought something that I really think you’ll like.

T 🤎
I love you in anything, you know this already. I won’t lie to you, I am a little sad. You don’t
need to pay it any mind. I’ll be happy again once I'm home and able to hold you.

ME (jjk)
Come home early, I don’t want to miss you for two more days.

T 🤎
I promised my grandmother i’d spend some time with her tomorrow otherwise I would. I’m
going to call you soon okay? Let me shower quickly.

ME (jjk)
I'll be waiting.

T 🤎
I love you.

ME (jjk)
I know..i love you too tae <3
"Bunny? what are you doing down here?"

He's been sitting in front of the fireplace, waiting patiently for Taehyung's phone call that
hasn't come yet.

"Ma, do you know Taehyung's parents? beyond just basic greetings?"

He sees the way her lips tighten before she makes a spot for herself right next to him.

"I know that they are not the greatest people. They have kindness in their hearts but it's
clouded by greed and pride."

"Why do you ask, hm? and it's nearly midnight, why aren't you in bed for work?"

Jeongguk does feel tired. Can't help it when he leans his head on her shoulder "Tae was
supposed to call me but he hasn't. He was sad when we texted earlier. I'm worried."

"Ahh, I see." her hand slowly rubs along his back "Well I don't know much about what goes
on in their home, but I'm sure they spent a good amount of time making Taehyungie feel bad
about himself. they've always been good at that."

"Why did he go then? He doesn't need them."

Lia laughs, presses a soft kiss to her son's cheek "We all look for our parents approval, don't
we bunny? go get some sleep, he'll call in the morning."

"What if he doesn't..." he's speaking quietly "What if he doesn't tell them no."

She shakes her head immediately "He loves you. he'll call. just remember that when he gets
home, it'll be our job to remind him that he is loved."

"Uncle, we need to talk."

The man is just in the middle of pouring a glass of whiskey when Younho enters the room.

"Must we now? I'm fighting a raging migraine and my son insists on driving himself into a
pit of failure."

"Why do you want me to alter these audios to sound as if he's talking about someone other
than Marisol? you said this involved his safety, this feels like blackmail!"

Mr. Kim's laughter sounds sinister "Must you hold onto your morality so tight? my son is
making a mistake"

"I'm simply removing the mistake from the equation."

Younho drops a small flash drive onto the floor, heel smashing it to pieces "Not with my help.
what is wrong with you? why has hyung never been enough?"
"He is enough. I'm preventing him from becoming less."

"Saying no to your bullshit arranged marriage and company doesn't make me less" Taehyung
stands in the doorway, arms crossed "Do you think these walls are soundproof? because they
aren't."

"Taehyung, come on. wake the hell up! what are you doing with your life right now? you've
worked all of these years to be exactly where you were a month ago. and you're simply
throwing it all away, for a boy? have you gone absolutely mad!"

He walks over to the wall of his father's study. leans right up against the wall that sits
opposite of his childhood bedroom, "I've heard a lot of shit through these walls in the years of
my life, appa."

"Heard you talk about my development as a child. how you felt I was behind all of my peers.
that you wished your only child weren't so subpar. when I graduated at the top of my class, I
heard you say how disappointed you were that I chose an international university."

"And the night you all found out about my past relationship with the Noe's step-son, I heard
you say that you wished your son could just be normal. marry a good girl and not make your
life so damn difficult. well don't worry, your life doesn't need to be difficult anymore"

Walks forward and drops the key ring to the study desk that holds his copies of all the keys to
their family home, their vacation home, their cars, their company buildings, all of them.

"I'm done. I'll be leaving after I garden with grandma tomorrow."

Both Mr. Kim and Younho are silent. not a word follows after Taehyung laughs to himself,
"So please enjoy your normal life and I'll enjoy mine."

When he wakes up in the morning to not a single text message, his heart is racing.

And he knows his mother suggested he wait but he can't.

Is already pressing Taehyung's contact before he's reached the bathroom to brush his teeth.

It rings several times before he gets an answer, voice low and gravely and just the way
Taehyung sounds when he's barely woken up, "Mmm, sorry I didn't call"

There's a breath of relief he can't help but to let escape before he laughs a little "I thought you
forgot me"

"I could never" he hears Taehyung yawn and the sounds of him stretching "It was late when I
finally got to my room, didn't want to wake you knowing you work today"

"You're always thinking of me.." he's whispering, feels Taehyung's warmth through the phone

"I just wanted to hear you, Tae"

"I know pretty baby, I'm sorry."

"Don't be sorry" he knows Taehyung must've had a horrible day "I'm not upset. I love you"

There's echoing silence before Taehyung speaks, "I love you so much, Jeongguk-ah"

"That's not my name" he whines, playfully.

"I love you so much, my baby."

"Go back to sleep Tae, you sound exhausted."

There's another yawn before Taehyung chuckles "I could sleep for another hour or two. will
you text me later?"

"Of course"

"Mmmm, good boy. I'll talk to you later, have a good day at work."

"Have a good day with your grandma!"

"I'll try" Taehyung's voice is softer "I really wish you could be here. she'd love you."

"One day." he says confidently, though he has no clue if that's a possibility for them "I can't
wait to meet her"

"Yeah" his laughter is almost nonexistent "One day. goodbye baby"

"Bye, Tae!"

"You seem much happier this morning than you did last night"

Jeongguk gives a shy smile over his shoulder at his mom who's placing a breakfast box in a
bag for him to take

"I talked to Tae, he's okay. he's coming home tonight I think, maybe."

"Does that mean you won't be home?"

And unfortunately, it doesn't. because Taehyung said they wouldn't see each other until
Saturday.

"No, I'll be here." notices the way she raises a brow but shrugs none the less "What is that
look for?"

"Oh nothing..it's just you've been attached at the hip since you came back from your trip. I'm
surprised he isn't picking you up right away."

And honestly? Jeongguk is surprised too but he's not going to let himself question it.
"I could hear your father and Younho fighting last night"

They've taken a break from planting vegetables and Taehyung's beyond pleased with being
fed from his grandmother's kitchen

"Yeah, he is up to his usual games again. I'm sorry if they kept you up."

"No no, you've no reason to apologize." sips on her tea and isn't blind when she sees the way
her grandson is glued to his phone "Will you bring him here to see me?"

Taehyung's chest swells almost immediately. Eyes wide and he's speechless.

"I'd imagine anyone that's got such a hold on you, that you're finally able to stand up to your
father, must be a wonder of a person."

Taehyung's tears are nearly uncontrollable when they fall and he smiles at his plate "Yeah, he
is. the most wonderful person."

"Well then come back, maybe the weekend following your birthday? I can make that jelly
filled cake you like and you can show him around."

"I don't think appa would be very fond of that idea" gives her a soft smile "But thank you
anyway."

Though the woman scowls, hand coming to cup his cheek "My boy, have you forgotten who
started our families empire? your father has no right to tell me who is or isn't allowed on the
land that your grandfather and I bought."

"I don't want trouble" his chest hurts.

"Jeongguk and I have been through a lot, I don't want to bring him here if anyone will make
him feel unwelcome. I only want him to be happy and loved when he's with me."

Feels the soft hand that holds onto his own

"And that's the only thing he will feel. have I ever lied to you before?"

She hasn't. he knows she's hasn't. but he won't risk Jeongguk's heart, no matter how badly he
would love to do what his grandma says.

ME (jjk)
Someone started a fire in the break room so I got to go home early today.
If you were home I would’ve came and annoyed you with affection.
Please don’t forget to call me tonight..
Love youuuuu
T 🤎
Enjoy your sudden free time baby, I can’t wait to see you saturday.

ME (jjk)
Why do we have to wait until saturday, aren’t you coming home tonight?

T 🤎
It will be very late tonight and then tomorrow I have to do my own preparations for the party.
Based on what you told me, you’re going to look exquisite and I can't look any less if I'm
going to be by your side.

ME (jjk)
Let me help you pick out your clothes. I love shopping.

T 🤎
I want to surprise you, won’t you let me.

ME (jjk)
Fine.

T 🤎
Baby..don’t be upset.

ME (jjk)
I'm not

T 🤎
You’re lying.

ME (jjk)
Okay…I'm a little upset..but I understand, really.

T 🤎
You know that I love you, right?

ME (jjk)
Yes

T 🤎
Okay, good. I love you.

ME (jjk)
I love you too 🥺
Gathering his things before leaving, Taehyung doesn't hear his bedroom door open but he
does see his mother enter the room.

"If you're here to ask me to apologize, I wont"

"I'm not" the woman whispers before sitting on his bed "I'm here to apologize"

"I don't want one. I don't want an apology or an explanation, I don't fucking want anything
from either of you, if it isn't respect and acceptance of my wishes and who I am."

He can hear the woman take a deep breath but he just finished packing his bag.

"He loves you. we both love you. I'm sorry you don't feel that way."

"Just leave. please." points to the door and still refuses to look at her "I don't want to speak to
you right now."

He feels her hand on his back when she walks to the door

"You'll always be my baby. I'm sorry for not protecting you sooner.

"Come on, come with me"

Jeongguk rolls over and does his best to cover his head with the pillow. Ignoring his father
until he has no choice but to face him because he's standing right there.

"I don't want to get out of bed until tomorrow"

"Come with me, we're going to rearrange the tables at the party hall for mom so she doesn't
have to worry about it when she goes in to decorate tonight"

Damn his father for using Jeongguk's love for his mom against him, "Fine. let me get ready."

"I'll go make us some breakfast, let Taehyung know if he's bored to come help us."

Jeongguk wishes. "He's not going to see me until tomorrow"

"Are you fighting?" Seokjin giggles, picking up some loose articles of clothing from the floor
and tossing them to the laundry bin.

"No, he's on some 'distance makes the heart grow fonder' agenda. it's torture."

His dad is heading up the stairs before he calls out "Hey, maybe he's onto something. you
can't ever miss him if he's always by your side."

"You were useless. I won't be giving you a dime for a job I had to do myself."

Younho laughs in disbelief "I'm so sorry I didn't want to cause my cousin and his boyfriend to
break up."

"Don't say that word!" shakes his head in disgust and Younho really just can't believe it
"I used to envy hyung. I thought he was so cool, with the coolest dad and the coolest life and
the coolest future. You're the worst. He just wants to be happy." scoffs as he walks out of the
door.

Hears his uncle say something but he can't be bothered to listen

"Hey baby"

Jeongguk sneaks off to the empty foyer "I was wondering when you'd call. it's nearly the
afternoon. I thought you were leaving last night."

"Well, I was going to. Except I barely got off of my family's property before two of my tires
popped like balloons."

"Are you okay?"

"Yes, I'm fine. my car swerved a bit and I dislocated my shoulder but i've already been seen
by the local doctor and I'll be healed within a week, two maximum."

Jeongguk feels his heart stop, gasp uncontrollable "Taehyung are you joking with me?"

"No, why do you think that?"

"This feels like a very casual way to tell me you've been in a car accident."

Taehyung's laughter is a breath of fresh air despite the way Jeongguk's chest tightens "I'm
okay, I promise. But I do have a favor to ask."

"Anything" he wants to cry. he knew he shouldn't have let Taehyung go.

"Do you think you could have your father or one of your friends drive you to this hospital,
and you could drive me and my car home?"

"Yes, I'll ask dad I'm with him right now. I'll call you back. please answer."

He hears Taehyung laugh again and is relieved that if nothing else, he's feeling okay mentally.
"My phones glued to my palm, baby. love you."

Feels his voice crack "I love you too"

"Oh, Taehyungie"

Feels his jaw tighten when he hears Marisol's voice.

"Get out. now. I will call security immediately."

The woman walks all the way in the room, only a few moments pass before Taehyung's
father follows behind her.

"Babe, are you alright? you've been in a terrible accident."

He's going to lose his mind. his father has gone absolutely psychotic.

"I wasn't in a terrible accident. I was in a minor accident. I am more than alright. get the /fuck
out of here."
"What seems to be the problem?" a nurse enters and he watches the way Marisol's crocodile
tears begin to fall

"My fiancé is confused he-he's saying weird things. I don't know what's going on" falls into
the nurses arms as she sobs.

"Appa" he calls out, blood boiling and anger at an all time high "You aren't really this insane,
are you?"

Watches the way his father glances over him before turning to the nurse "He's certainly
confused. I'm not his father."

"Baby, take a deep breath"

His mom's reached back from where she sits in the passenger seat to hold onto his hand

"Taehyungie called you, right? you heard him speak. he's okay!"

"But he said he'd answer. he said his phone would be glued to his palm! why didn't he
answer?"

The GPS tells them that they're still an hour away and that's an hour too long.

He keeps dialing Taehyung's number but after so long it just goes straight to voicemail.

"What if we're not even going to the right place" runs his hands through his hair as he groans

Tugs at the strands a bit because he feels like he's going to go mad not knowing what's going
on.

"Because there's only one hospital close to his family property. he surely wouldn't have went
much further away."

"Mr. Kim, please take a breath" the nurse is doing her best to calm him down but he won't
have any of this.
"You've already cleared me for release! I'm only still here because I'm waiting for my partner
to get here to take me home."

"Sir..your partner has arrived already. That's why we need to take you for another scan.
You're showing signs of memory loss."

Taehyung yanks his hand away from where she was trying to fasten a restraint "Listen to me,
damn it, I'm not suffering memory loss."

"That woman is my EX-fiancé and that man is my father who are both obsessed with a
business deal that involves me. I wouldn't be surprised if my father is the one who over
inflated my tires to the point they exploded."

The nurse stands in silence before handing over water

"This all sounds a little far fetched, wouldn't you agree?" there's a soft knock on the door that
brings a smile to the nurses face "Your mother is here to see you."

He's genuinely surprised when it /is his mother that walks through the way.
"Oh my baby.." cups onto his face and he wants to shove her away but he can't "please let
them do your scan. just to be sure."
"Jeongguk is going to be here soon." Taehyung grits his teeth. hasn't been able to look at his
phone in hours "I do not consent to anymore scans"
"Mr. Kim—"
"I'm sorry, did I miss the part where it was lawful to hold a patient against their will when
they are not a safety risk to themselves or others?"
Taehyung has never been more relieved to hear Lia's voice in his life.
See's that familiar head of hair rushing around her body until Jeongguk's at his side and
leaning over to kiss him all over his face, "Why are they making you lay in this restraint? I
thought you're okay?" his eyes are glossed over.
the poor nurse calls for the doctor because she looks on the verge of a breakdown.
especially when Taehyung's father and Marisol join the room as well. "Who are you people?
why are you in my fiancé's room?"
Jeongguk's up in an instant nearly makes his way across the room because he's had /enough
of this woman's shit.
that is until Seokjin's arm is yanking him backwards and he watches as his mother towers
over Marisol.
"If you enjoy the life that you live, I suggest you leave immediately, before my client presses
charges for the long list of laws you've broken in the last year."
"Your client?" Marisol scoffs in her face and motions as if she's going to slap her, but Lia's
hand is quick.
grabs it and throws it back to the woman's side with a smile on her face the entire time "Yes.
My client, who I am here to ensure gets home safely since he has already been released by
the Doctor overseeing his injury."
Jeongguk forgets his mother is an attorney until she puffs out her chest and makes a scene
every now and then.
"Leave, Noe Marisol, if you know what's good for you. and do not interfere with my family
ever again."
Marisol storms out just as the doctor makes it to the room. Immediately calling for everyone
to exit except for the nurse and Taehyung. Which they listen, despite Jeongguk wanting to
stay at his side.
"Do you sleep well at night, Mr. and Mrs. Kim?"
Jeongguk hears his mothers voice before he sees her stepping closer to them.
"I beg your pardon?"
"I /asked if you sleep well at night, knowing how horrible of parents you are. you let that
woman come in here and lie. in an attempt to have Taehyung be kept unnecessarily? what do
you get out of keeping your son in a hospital?"
"I think you should mind your own business" Taehyung's father steps forward, looks as if he's
going to say something else before Seokjin's arm separates the man from his wife and he's
placing a large space between them.
"You may leave. We will be making sure Taehyung gets home"
"His home is my house" Taehyung's mother speaks. voice soft and she looks very conflicted.
she hasn't been backing her husband the way Jeongguk knows his mother would back his
own father. yet still in this moment she speaks up "And we are his family."
"No you're not" Seokjin sounds bitter "I've sat idle by long enough. you put him in danger! he
could've been severely hurt!"
"I knew what I was doing. id never hurt my child!" Mr. Kim is shouting now.
Jeongguk just wants to get Taehyung out of here.
"You already hurt your child by not loving him for who he is." Lia's voice trembles "Family
build each other up, not tear each other down. you don't deserve to call yourself Taehyung's
parents."
it's silent when the doctor exits the room, Taehyung's laughter filling the air
"Take care of that shoulder, okay? no rough housing!" pats his back and sends a fond smile
Jeongguk's way.
but his eyes are locked on Taehyung, hurries to his side and kisses him without a second
thought. "Sorry I kept you waiting pretty baby"
"It's okay" Jeongguk whispers and even if Taehyung can't hold him properly just being in his
space is enough "Let's go home."
"That sounds perfect"
—
"Not now, mama, I'm really not in the mood."
Taeso winces when he feels a brunt wooden edge smack the top of his head. Eyes wide when
he realizes he was wacked with his mother's walking stick. "What was that for?"
"Your wife told me everything, EVERYTHING."
"How dare you bring harm to my grandchild, your SON Taeso. It is your job to protect him
until the moment your soul leaves this earth and you've done nothing but bring him pain all
the years of his life."
"Don't lecture me! I'm building his future!"
"I went along with his desires for a short time. When he asked for access to the Europe hotel,
I gave it no questions asked. Even when I knew he was not taking Marisol with him. But I
can only let it go on for so long. I won't let him destroy us."
the woman hits him atop the head again, "Of course, you'd rather destroy our family
yourself."
"I'm not—"
"You will make this right. or you can pack your bags and move from my property."
"Mother you're joking!"
"I am /not!" she yells and a couple tears fall "I will not let you treat Taehyung this way. if that
means I take everything from you to give it to him, then so be it."
—
"Stop it!" Jungkook is frustrated when he finds himself with his knees on either side of
Taehyung's thighs.
working diligently to slide the arm sling off so that he can apply muscle rub all over his
shoulder. "Quit moving Tae or I swear I will pour this ointment in your eye
""You want me to blind, is that it?" he laughs and leans forward to kiss those pursed lips.
smiling when he feels Jungkook melt into the kiss despite his initial protest "Thanks for
coming to save me. my little knight in shining armor."
"I think you're referring to my mother" he giggles. gentle hands working the lidocaine cream
all over Taehyung's bruised shoulder
"No, your parents were your calvary, but you, my prince, were the hero"
finishes placing the sling back up onto Taehyung's shoulder and just has to pause for a
moment.
because Taehyung's chest is just exposed for him to see and he had let himself forget that
long enough to apply the medicine but now he's swooning.
eyes falling shut when Taehyung kisses him again "Don't know what id do without you"
it's silly, the way those words make his stomach twist in excitement "Let's not find out"
|||
Pops 😈
How’s tae feeling? Getting any sleep?

ME (jjk)
No, we’re watching movies rn. Prob gonna go to bed soon.

Pops 😈
Let him know if he’s not feeling up to it, we won’t be upset if he skips the party tomorrow.

ME (jjk)
If he skips I'm skipping.

Pops 😈
No, you aren’t.

🙄
ME (jjk)

Pops 😈
Your mom is currently ordering a food delivery for you both. So don’t go to sleep until it gets
there and you both eat. Today was a mess. Love you.

ME (jjk)
🥺
Thanks pops. love you too.
|||
"Tae.." he murmurs quietly. The man had fallen asleep while they waited for the food..but
Jungkook agrees that they need to eat "Babe c'mon, my mom got you some food"
"You eat.." Taehyung grumbles "I sleep"
and he really should argue until he wakes up, but he's tired too
so he hauls Taehyung to his feet "You sleep in bed"
to which the man opens one eye with a minimal smile "Only if you're staying"
"I am" he says easily, without hesitation, he'd stay here every single night if it were possible.
—
It's roughly 1 in the morning when Taehyung finds himself stirring awake due to the
throbbing pain in his shoulder.
tries to reach over for the ointment but almost instantly he feels Jeongguk's soft hand pressing
against his chest and forcing him to lay back
"I got you" the man whispers, sleepy kisses pressed against Taehyung's neck until the sling is
off and he's applying the medicine again.
"I never knew how badly I needed you in my life, sweet baby."
Jeongguk laughs softly "I need you more than you need me, babe"
"No, I promise that's not true" Taehyung lets out a sigh when he can feel the ointment
working through his muscle again "I love you"
"I love you too" Jeongguk smiles unable to resist the urge to kiss his lips.
feels himself all too easily getting wrapped up in the one arm that curls around his back.
Taehyung's tongue effectively making him dizzy and his stomach flutter with happiness and
raw desire.
"I'm filing for a restraining order monday"
they're talking between exasperated breaths. Jeongguk feeling incredibly relieved and just
wants to kiss this man more
"Good."
feels himself get swept away entirely.
not a single innocent thought dancing in his mind as Taehyung kisses him harder.
but when he accidentally grabs onto Taehyung's shoulder he hisses.
"I'm so sorry" he pouts and feels his heart sink "I don't know why I did that"
"Baby, it's okay, it's a learning curve. by the time we get used to maneuvering around this
shoulder, I'll be fully healed and it won't be a problem anymore"
"I don't want it to be a problem now" Jeongguk wraps the arm that aligns with Taehyung's
injured shoulder behind his back.
gasping when he feels Taehyung's free hand grab onto it and hold his arm there, not giving
him much room to move when he laughs against his neck
"It doesn't have to be a problem, I think we can make this work just fine"
the heat from his mouth has Jeongguk's toes curling. teeth catching onto his skin before
Taehyung licks over the bite and returns to press another open mouthed kiss right there.
they've gotten so comfortable going to sleep in only the thinnest of briefs and it makes
moments like this unbearable.
when he's perfectly seated in Taehyung's lap and the man rolls his hips up against him.
pleasure kicks at his gut and nearly knocks him over.
Taehyung let's go of his arm enough to allow Jeongguk to remove the only barrier between
them.
Having each other like this has happened many ways in the last few weeks.
and even still Jeongguk is never prepared for the way Taehyung makes him feel as if he's the
most precious thing he's ever touched.
hand gentle as it rubs over every last piece of Jeongguk it can reach.
finger tips tracing all over his skin effectively making goosebumps erupt all over his body.
and when everything's /just right. his stomach bubbling with arousal and Taehyung's warm
mouth pressing against his own, he sighs.
sinks back onto pleasure until he can hardly breathe. the hand that's knotted into his hair is
rough in the gentlest way.
gentle because Taehyung uses that grip to hold Jeongguk's face close to his own.
gentle because Taehyung's lips are delicate against Jeongguk's. capturing each of his own lips
between them softly and suckling until Jeongguk smiles against the kiss, "You're so good for
me, aren't you, sexy baby?"
Jeongguk catches himself nearly /purring at the praise. circling down against him until
Taehyung makes the most sensual noise against his ear. murmurs of 'just like that' and 'you
feel so good' have Jeongguk soaring.
eyes finding Taehyung's momentarily just before they're coming down and it feels as if
everything stops.
because they've done this before and Taehyung's praised him before but there's something so
candid in the way he's staring into Jeongguk's eyes right now.
"I'm so in love with you" falls from his lips before he can realize he was thinking it.
Taehyung's hand having fallen to his waist and lets his fingers clench around it as he grinds in
time with Jeongguk's hips.
he feels confused because he's known that he loves Taehyung but everything from today has
just felt different.
he would've done anything to make sure that Taehyung was safe.
because the brief moment of fear that washed over him when Taehyung didn't answer the
phone struck him in the chest even worse than their miniature break up did.
and Taehyung's hand holding him in place right now as they reach the sweetest bliss together
is all that he needs.
"I'm in love with /you, baby." Taehyung kisses him through it "My baby, I love you so much"
Jeongguk's heart may as well be on the floor when he kisses Taehyung harder.
kisses him through the wince he lets out when they separate and kisses him all the way to the
bathroom.
absolutely adores the way Taehyung's hand holds onto his lower back as they make their way
into the kitchen to feast the dinner that's been waiting for hours.
"You okay?" Taehyung asks through a mouthful of food. chopsticks clinking against
Jeongguk's own "You're not usually this quiet after sex"
teeth catching on his bottom lip at a desperate attempt to stop his smile.
"You're going to make fun of me"
"When have I /ever?" Taehyung genuinely looks appalled "You're the one who always makes
fun of me for being cheesy"
Jeongguk groans "Ugh, and im even cheesier because ...because I don't know—"
he sighs and looks at Taehyung who's eyes are round, like a lost puppy, waiting and waiting
for Jeongguk to finally speak so he does "It felt /different this time" he says softly.
trying to avoid the twinkle in Taehyung's eyes.
"What do you mean?"
"It didn't just feel like we were having sex." he huffs it out, finally "It felt like we were,
y'know, making love or whatever" shoves a bite of rice in his mouth and keeps his eyes on his
plate.
surprised and bashful when Taehyung moves around the table until he's leaning over him,
ridiculous smile on his face and let's their lips brush,
"Everytime I touch you, I'm making love to you, pretty baby. don't you ever forget that."
—
Taehyung makes very displeased noises when Jeongguk is clearing their dirty dishes.
"I'm sorry baby"
"What are you sorry for?"
"You're doing my dishes"
Jeongguk glares over his shoulder "We both made the mess so they're our dishes and I don't
mind. you always do them."
"And I'll return to that as soon as I can take this damn sling off."
Jeongguk feels insane warmth when Taehyung's bare chest presses against his bare back.
heaven knows there's nothing that brings him such comfort than being close to Taehyung like
this. lips press against his ear over and over until he's giggling and turns off the water. "'kay,
let's go to sleep. I can barely keep my eyes open."
"Me too" Taehyung's hand catches his own and brings the back of it to his lips "Can't wait to
see what you're going to wear tomorrow" he looks at Taehyung with sad eyes "You didn't get
to go shopping today"
"My little prince doesn't mind if I wear something he's seen me in before, right?" his heart is
so warm. brushes Taehyung's hair out of his face before turning the bedroom light off
"You'll be the most handsome man there, regardless" Taehyung hums against his lips before
pulling Jeongguk against him under the soft blanket, "As long as you're happy, I'll be happy
too."
 no amount of freedom gets you clean
Chapter Summary

i've still got you all over me.

"Oh my goodness—" he's an absolute blushing mess with the way his mom pinches his
cheeks and tousles his hair "Bunny you look so good! you really went all out this year, hm?"

"I don't look any nicer than I do every other year" both of his parents begin laughing
hysterically "Is that the story we're going with?" he's on the verge of throwing a full blown
adult tantrum about how his parents don't need to embarrass him

But before he can do so his father's hand clutches his shoulder "Let's go pick up your one
armed boyfriend and get to this party, hm?"

it's a totally different vibe than what he was getting a couple of weeks ago...and he loves it.

Jeongguk hurries out of the car to go get Taehyung and walk down with him.
His mood has been fantastic all day and really, there's not a damn thing that could ruin it.
Not even Marisol. Who tries to step in front of him once he's in the lobby.
but he moves around her quickly, wicked smile on his face when the woman calls out for him
to stop, "Sorry, my boyfriend and I have somewhere to be."
Taehyung is exiting the elevator as soon as Jeongguk reaches it.
A loud whistle echoes in the small elevator corridor, "Good heavens, are you trying to kill a
man?" Taehyung's only free hand holds onto his face to kiss Jeongguk softly "You look so
insanely good, baby"
"Hmm" Jeongguk smiles against his lips, hands toying with the jacket that drapes over his
shoulders "You look pretty damn amazing yourself, babe. ready to go?"
"I've been ready to go since I dropped you off to get ready this morning"
and they're nearly out of the building when Taehyung turns around, "Ms. Noe, I have a friend
and some movers coming in tonight to clear out my flat. please make sure building security
doesn't give them any issues. id hate to have to request a police escort for them"
Jeongguk hides his smile against Taehyung's neck and teasingly slaps his good shoulder once
they're outside "You did that just to be an ass"

"Yeah, I kind of did" both giggling when they get inside of the car. Seokjin and Lia's curious
eyes on them the moment the doors close.
but they don't question it. only acknowledging Taehyung's appearance before heading
towards the party hall, "All that I ask..." Seokjin begins and Jeongguk's stomach twists into
uncontrollable knots "please don't make us regret having an open bar."
both of them share a smile before Taehyung speaks up "I won't be drinking much at all
hyung-ah, not supposed to with the meds for my shoulder. don't worry."
it's Lia who's giggles fill the car, "Oh, Taehyungie, we were never worried about /you."
Taehyung hasn't had to be around Jeongguk's friends since that night at the bar, so to say he's
a little anxious about them all being seated at the same table is an understatement.
Though immediately, everything is fine.
Jimin of course immediately acknowledging Taehyung's arm and demanding to know all the
details of what happened. Usually, Hoseok would also be just as inquisitive...but Jeongguk
can't help but notice how silent he is.
leans to rest his head on his shoulder "Everything okay, hyungie?"
"Yeah, just bummed that I'm a fifth wheel tonight. I had a date but something came up that he
couldn't say no to."
All of Namjoon, Jimin and Jeongguk sputter when Hoseok mentioned having a date?? a
date?? he hasn't dated /anyone in YEARS.
Taehyung only sips on his soda as he watches the questions spill out of the other's mouths.
It's only after Hoseok explains what his date was busy doing that he nearly choked on his
drink.
Jeongguk immediately parting against his back and looking at him with worried eyes.
but Taehyung looks up at Hoseok, "Oh my god, I'm so sorry! it's my fault he's not here."
"Huh?" Jeongguk looks appalled "What are you talking about?"

"Well, when I asked Yoongi if he could oversee the movers clearing out my apartment
tonight, he mentioned that he'd be letting someone he called 'sunshine' down, but that he'd
make it up another day."
the table falls silent and Hoseok's face is as red as the tinsel decorating the ballroom.
"You have a /boyfriend and you haven't told any of us?" Jimin looks so offended
"It's not that I didn't want to tell you, it's just so new. we've been talking for awhile but we
just started really seeing each other a month ago. we're taking it slow."
"Are you though? if he already has a cutesy pet name for you?" Jeongguk teases
giggling with Jimin as they call Hoseok "Sunshine" only to be smacked down to reality when
Hoseok clears his throat "Shall I read off your text message from the other night, where you
went into detail about every time Taehyung's su—"
"Nope!" Jeongguk hides his face in Taehyung's neck "I would never" he whispers quietly but
Taehyung only laughs before kissing his cheek "It's okay baby, I really don't mind. you're
pretty great at it yourself."
now the amount of laughter pointed towards him at this table is too much for Jeongguk to
bear.
and he absolutely loves it.
Jeongguk's never been too much of a dancer at these kinds of things. Mostly because he's
never had anyone he would want to dance with.
he feels incredibly lucky to have Taehyung this time.
to have Taehyung as /his and to not have to stare at him longingly across the room.
if you'd have told Jeongguk at last years holiday party that /this year Taehyung would be
his...well in his drunken stupor he probably would have cried and called you cruel for telling
him something that would never come true.
ah, but then the upbeat holiday tunes slow to something just a tad bit softer...and before he
has time to even contemplate whether or not to stand up.
Taehyung's dragging him out to the dimly lit dance floor.
illuminated only by a christmas tree that's so large it takes up a quarter of the ballroom.
and it's a little awkward, trying to sway together without Jungkook's arm grabbing onto
Taehyung's sling, but they make it work.
it doesn't feel like they're in a room crowded with extended family and friends.
especially when Taehyung makes a show of twirling Jeongguk around with his free hand and
tugging him right back into his arm as the song comes to an end, "Couldn't ask for a better
gift this year"
"Oh yeah?" Jeongguk can't help the way he smiles against Taehyung's lips "But I haven't
given you anything yet"
"You're enough" Taehyung says immediately.
says it without pause.
says it with so much confidence
"You'll always be enough"
"I love you" Jeongguk whispers as Taehyung holds him tighter, both of his arms locked
around the man's neck as he lets himself be kissed silly.
uncaring of any eyes that may be on them "Thank you for fighting for this" his throat tightens
because he hasn't said this yet.
he's been thinking it, hasn't been able to /stop thinking it, but so much has happened and
they've had no time to slow down and catch their breaths.
so he uses right now, when another soft tune fills the room but it's a tad bit happier, a little bit
quicker.
Taehyung doesn't move them, they stay in their private little spot on this dance floor as
Jeongguk feels that warm hand rest against his lower back "I doubted everything so
much...and you still—"
clears his throat to choke back the tears because now is not the place
"I just love you with all of my heart. I need you to know that"
Taehyung kisses him.
overandoverandover again.
kisses him so hard that Jeongguk takes a few steps backwards.
leans against a wall, tucked away from everyone and protected by the obscenely large
christmas tree
tucked away to the point that he feels comfortable kissing Taehyung harder.
can taste a subtle cinnamon from the cookies on his tongue and loves the way Taehyung
holds him, "I told you the moment you kissed me that I was done for, i'd never be able to say
no to you"
Taehyung pulls away and just admires the way the glow of the red and green lights from the
tree reflects against Jeongguk's skin.
making his eyes sparkle even more than they always do and Taehyung is so irrevocably in
love with him.
"You're it for me, pretty baby. there will never be anyone else. I'll fight for you for the rest of
my life"
Jeongguk has that look in his eyes. the one that makes Taehyung weak in the knees and feel
as if his body is seconds away from bursting into flames.
Jeongguk kisses him harder, tugging at Taehyung wherever he can to pull him closer and
closer into their private little spot.
that isn't so private anymore when there's a throat clearing that makes Jeongguk want to
scream in annoyance.
"Your parents are looking for you.." Namjoon gives an awkward smile before averting his
gaze from the very swollen appearance of their lips "Figured it's better if I'm the one who
found you two making out than them. c'mon"
Jeongguk takes a second to straighten out the places where he had tugged a little too hard on
Taehyung's tucked in dress shirt.
"Let's go, baby, we've got all night."
"Do we? I thought you're getting your apartment cleaned out?"
The smile on Taehyung's face shows that he was up to something. Just before they reach his
parents table he leans to his ear, "I may have gotten us a room at the hotel attached to this
ballroom."
now don't get him wrong, the thought makes his excitement soar through the
rough..but.."Taehyung, this hotel costs like—"
the man presses a soft, innocent peck to his lips "That's not for you to worry about."

"There you are!" his mom's arms fling around them both and Jeongguk can smell the
strawberry wine she loves to sip on. "Come here, we want to take a family picture in front of
the tree!"
Jeongguk is confused as to why they didn't do this /before half of their guests got wasted
but he supposes it doesn't really matter if the picture will just be them anyway.
and Taehyung's smiling nervously when he goes to hold the camera, "I don't want to break it,
only having one arm right now"
but then Seokjin is coming up to take the camera from him, "You're /in the picture, Tae. not
taking it, that's what Jimin-ah is here for."
Taehyung's chest feels insanely tight, "Hyu—"
but Seokjin just gives a light squeeze to his arm
"You've been family for years, Taehyung-ah, don't make it weird. just come smile so my wife
can get the picture she wants"
and when he chances a glance towards the tree he sees Lia adjusting Jeongguk's hair before
the man looks up to flag him over.
He's not used to this warm feeling, to this extent. Always felt the most comfortable around
Seokjin and Lia than even his own family, but this feels even better.
Because his hand falls to Jeongguk's hip and presses a soft kiss to his ear before they all pose
for the picture
finds himself thinking that of all the blessings in his life, hiring Seokjin all those years ago
was the best thing he'd ever done.
As the night reaches its end Jeongguk feels sad. It's been so lovely, the best holiday party
ever, he thinks.

Is currently sipping on his drink when he can see the way Jimin and Hoseok are for forcing
Taehyung to dance to a hip hop version of 'rock around the christmas tree'

Namjoon's elbow bumping into his own "You know, I'll be honest, I think I was the person
rooting the least for this relationship. even less than your dad."

Jeongguk looks up at him and sees that Namjoon's eyes are locked on Taehyung with the
softest smile

"I didn't want the biggest crush of your life to also end up being the worst heartbreak, which
felt inevitable. you have to understand" ruffles Jeongguk's hair when Taehyung gestures him
over "But I'm really glad that I was wrong"

As guest begin to leave and the music is lowered to a minimal humm for the cleaning crews,
Jeongguk is pouting.

Taehyung reaching across the tall table with his good arm to grab his hand, "What's wrong,
pretty baby?"

"Nothings wrong. tonight couldn't have been any better. I don't want it to be over" Jeongguk
speaks wistfully as he stares at the Christmas Tree.

Taehyung's moved around the table to hook a chin over his shoulder and press a kiss to his
neck "We'll have more nights like this"

Jeongguk is seconds away from kissing Taehyung because he just can't handle how
absolutely perfect this man is, but just before their lips touch he feels a hand on his sweater
tugging him backwards.

Then his mom is squeezing his face in her palms and kissing his forehead, "Oh my little
bunny you're so grown I can hardly take it"

Seokjin pulls her away as tears fall, eyes finding Taehyung's with a goofy smile "Where do
you think my son gets his alcoholism?"

They both stay seated at the bar until everyone has left and the tender makes the last call.

"Ready to go up to our room, baby?" Taehyung stands and brings Jeongguk to his feet.

"If it means I get to get you out of this suit you're wearing, absolutely"
And Jeongguk shouldn't be so easily effected by Taehyung's actions anymore. yet everytime
this man so much as breathes his direction, he's on the verge of feinting. let alone kissing at
his neck and speaking softly, "Going to be a bit of a struggle with this thing on my arm"

They're every last bit of lost in each other as they make their way across the long foyer of the
ballroom/hotel lobby.

Jeongguk's doing an awkward job of hugging Taehyung from behind when the elevator
comes to their level.

Both stopping in their tracks when none other than Noe Marisol steps out of the elevator,
deliberately brushing against Taehyung's bad shoulder.

Jeongguk's had enough alcohol that he has no patience left but Taehyung had to grab onto
him.

"We're having the best night, remember? nothing is ruining it. especially not her."

Jeongguk is silent the entire elevator ride to the point that Taehyung's stomach feels uneasy

Says "Would you feel more comfortable if we stayed somewhere else? I have access to about
100 properties within half an hour of here"

"No, no it's fine really.." smiles softly but Taehyung can tell it's forced—so before the
elevator comes to a stop he pushes for the ground level

He was planning to let Jeongguk order room service while he went to grab their bags anyway,
they lose nothing if they leave now.

"C'mon, i've got a place...i was saving it for my birthday weekend but we can utilize it twice
in one month."

Jeongguk feels awful. when they're in the car and they had to pay one of the valet drivers
extra because Taehyung still can't.

The man went all of this way to have his car dropped off with their overnight bags inside and
Jeongguk's sour mood has ruined it al—

"When you reach the traffic light make a left, the very first street on your right is where you
need to turn. you'll follow that all the way down."

Jeongguk eyes the area and notices that it's rather secluded, wants to make a joke to lighten
the air

"Have I finally pushed you too far, babe? is this where you take me to kill me?"

Taehyung's hand grabs onto his thigh with that smile he does that drives Jeongguk absolutely
mad, "Of course not, id have no purpose if I did that"
The place Taehyung brings them to is quaint. a small property over looking a small pond and
a lot of greenery. though it's all dusted by snow which glows through the giant glass
windows.

"This place is gorgeous, Taehyung"

There are kisses pressed behind Jeongguk's ear that lure him into Taehyung's lips, "Yes it was
another surprise I had up my sleeve to keep you interested. now I'll have to think of
something else"

"No" Jeongguk had made his intentions clear before they even left their bar stools, so he feels
no shame when he grabs Taehyung's jacket that was draped over his shoulders to toss it to the
floor "Just interested in you. don't need anything else."

Taehyung pulls apart from him just long enough to kickstart the faux fireplace so they have
light and warmth, but Jeongguk is not wasting any time at undoing the buttons of Taehyung's
shirt.

"Hold on, baby, let me—"

"please" Jeongguk pulls out his most dangerous weapon

The word and the eyes that have Taehyung dropping the fireplace control to the floor and
dragging Jeongguk to the sofa with him.

"You take advantage of my inability to tell you no" free hand bunching in the side of his
sweater with a groan "Just look at you"

Jeongguk catches Taehyung’s lip between his teeth before he leans away from his kiss
enough that he can pull his sweater off.

Leaving himself in this sheer red top that he's felt anxious about since he bought it, unsure of
how Taehyung would react. though he should've known, with the way Taehyung never lets
him feel less than flawless.

"Fuck” buries his nose into Jeongguk’s neck and nearly growls “I'm so damn angry that I
only have one arm right now, this is torture.”

But Jeongguk kind of likes that. finds enjoyment in the way he’s in complete control of
everything. especially when he climbs out of Taehyung’s lap to fully remove their bottoms.

Feels his body ignite at the way Taehyung’s eyes keep moving from his face to his chest to
his exposed stomach down to his cock that's fully erect and desperate for friction.

Friction that Taehyung leans forward to give it, hand soft on Jeongguk’s hip as he pulls him
in. lips pressing all over the lines of his hip bones and licking a path from his navel down to
the length in front of him, “I'll never know what I did to deserve this.” hand curling around
the base as he takes it all into his mouth.
Jeongguk’s body jolting forward and his hands clutch onto Taehyung’s hair because he can't
grab his shoulders, tries to release the grip to be more gentle but Taehyung's mouth is
relentless. warm and wet and sucks him in as if he’d been starved of it. the hand that strokes
lightly at the base doesn’t help keep him steady.

Moans soft before Taehyung deep throat's his cock and has him grunting, "Shit, don't do that
again or I'll cum right now” he can feel the way Taehyung smirks against him but the man
does slow down.

Taking him with ease and popping off with the most dazed look on his hooded eyes, "I've got
to fuck you, you’re so damn sexy” leans back against the sofa with his legs spread and
Jeongguk could honestly cum just from the sight alone.

But then Taehyung’s hand taps against his thigh and Jeongguk is in a hurry to sit on his
rightful throne. except when he does, Taehyung adjusts his hips. makes it so that Jeongguk’s
ass presses against his dick but not on top of it.

Free hand slipping up the sheer fabric of his shirt to play with his nipple as he murmurs,
"C’mere, pretty baby” and as soon as Jeongguk is close enough for their lips to touch,
Taehyung lightly pinches the bud between his fingers and grinds his length up against him.
drawing out a whimper that Jeongguk didn't even know he was capable of producing. tongue
slipping passed his lips before he’s able to make that noise again.

Jeongguk gets dizzy so easily when Taehyung’s all over him like this and it was supposed to
be his turn to be in control but Taehyung’s hand falls to his hip and holds on tight. guiding
Jeongguk until his cock slips right in and they’re both moaning from the tightness. his arms
lay limp at his sides. tries to hold against Taehyung's chest for balance but he moves them
quickly, terrified of hurting him even more.

Ah but then Taehyung’s kisses slow down from lustrous and demanding to soft and sensual.
the flow of their tongues gliding is languid before he pulls away and nudges down against
Jeongguk’s nose, “put your hands back on me, love. I want to feel you as much as I can”

Rolls his hips up into him and Jeongguk is choking on his words, "Scared to hurt you” but
Taehyung’s hand grabs his own and drags it to his chest. the same way he did when he drew
their line and Jeongguk feels his stomach fluttering out of control "You could never hurt me,
sexy baby, c’mon. hold me so I can fuck you better”

Which is reason enough for him to press his hands against Taehyung’s chest, allows him the
ability to bounce back into Taehyung’s lap. feeling that thick cock stretch him further and
further to the point that his once deliberate moans are now incoherent babbles. filling the
space with nothing but ‘yes’ ‘fuck’ ' more, need more’ ‘taehyung baby please’

To which Taehyung has nothing but desire to oblige. grips onto the ties at the bottom of
Jeongguk's shirt to hold him better. pulls the other down against him and feels his mouth
watering at the sight of Jeongguk’s lithe body sucking all of his length in. ‘so good, baby, my
perfect baby, made just for me’ kisses him again because Jeongguk’s just started to release
and his whines are like music to Taehyung’s ear, curses against Jeongguk’s mouth because he
has no control over his words anymore 'holy hell, sexy little thing, just like that, fuck’
Suddenly the heat from the fireplace is too hot and their bodies are sticky from the sweat and
their release. Taehyung using all of the strength he has in his only free arm to hold beneath
his ass and secure Jeongguk against him, "Use those muscles and hold onto me pretty baby”

Jeongguk wonders, often, if Taehyung will ever grow tired of this? tired of this little routine
they've created.

Where they make an absolute mess of each other and Taehyung never hesitates to pamper
him after words.

Delicate hands wiping away any lingering mess on Jeongguk's body, before they soak
together and relax to the point of near slumber.

Except usually Jeongguk would lean back against his chest and let Taehyung wash his hair,
but the role does have to reverse this time

Which he doesn't mind at all, absolutely adores the way Taehyung fits against him and from
this angle he can kiss all over those broad shoulders that he loves to drag his nails against.

Gets lost in thought so he lightly bites onto Taehyung's shoulder. making him giggle "What
was that for?"

"Was getting turned on thinking about scratching your back, I can't wait until you can lay me
down and fu—" Taehyung's hand reaches back to cover his mouth.

Shaking his head with a devilish smile, "Don't start something you aren't ready to finish yet"

But Jeongguk just feels heat. the cool water may as well be lava with the way his stomach
churns.

Taehyung retracts his hand and gives Jeongguk no choice but to lean over his shoulder to
steal a kiss that should be awkward and uncomfortable but it's not.

Heavens it's not, sighs against Taehyung's lips with a smile before he murmurs "too late"

They're sitting on the floor in front of the faux fireplace. Jeongguk specifically requesting
they bring out all of the pillows and blankets and have a romantic fireside sleep.

Made sure to put extra pillows all around Taehyung so that his arm is fully supported and
comfy

"What was your favorite part of tonight?" Jeongguk can't help but to ask once he's cuddled up
against Taehyung's side and all of the lights are off.

"Everything. just the freedom of being together like this. holding your hand, taking pictures
with your family" Taehyung sighs
"Sneaking away to make out behind the giant christmas tree." kisses Jeongguk's temple with
a smile "God, the taehyung from the night we met would be so fucking jealous of me right
now"

Jeongguk giggles lightly against his chest, leaning up to kiss right over Taehyung's heart

"Well the Jeongguk from the night we met would be in absolute heaven right now"

Taehyung's soft eyes look at him and Jeongguk can never control the way his chest tightens,
especially when Taehyung's deep voice whispers "What about the present day Jeongguk?"

He's almost went an entire day with no tears so he forces them back with a gentle kiss to
Taehyung's lips, "present day Jeongguk is in love and happier than he's ever been in his life"

ME (jjk)
How’s your shoulder? Is yoongi being a helpful roommate?

T 🤎
Yoon is at work. My shoulder feels really good today, baby. How’s work?

ME (jjk)
I’m still sleepy from the weekend I think..but at least tomorrow is christmas eve
Speaking of..
🎄
T 🤎
I'm listening.

ME (jjk)
Apparently my company does a get together every year in the parking lot? They rent out like
a festival tent and have games and food…will you come with me?

T 🤎
When is it?

ME (jjk)
Tomorrow :( I know its last minute, im really sorry, I dont know how I missed the memo.

T 🤎
Sorry for what? Its no problem at all, sweet baby. I’d love to go with you. We’re real party
go-ers this month.

ME (jjk)
:/ I know you don’t like partying a lot. You know you can tell me if you don’t want to do
something right? Like yh ill be bummed for a few minutes but then I'll get over it.

T 🤎
Have I ever kept from saying what I'm feeling?
ME (jjk)
No but…

T 🤎
I will do anything, with you, anywhere. I love you.

ME (jjk)
I love you, I really really do.

Jeongguk does feel just a little guilty...Taehyung hasn't had a day to rest since his accident
and here he is making them more pla— "Hey, Guk-ah!" looks up to see Hisun entering his
office.

Two coffee mugs in hand again when he smiles "How was your weekend?"

And Jeongguk smiles just thinking about it. replaying the entire thing in the back of his mind
"I had a lovely weekend. how was yours?"

"Could've been better honestly" Jeongguk notices how the man is scratching behind his neck
awkwardly. "Listen—"
he's already gotten a warning for this but he braces himself anyway. hasn't even touched the
mug that's placed beside his computer mouse, "That band I showed you is playing at the blue
house tonight, would you wanna go see them with me?"
Jeongguk would actually /love to hear more of that band's music.

But not with someone who apparently made threats towards Taehyung.

"I'll be busy tonight, sorry" he states easily, eyes focused on his computer screen
misses the way Hisun's jaw clenches before he sighs "Another time, then? i'd love to take you
out."

Brow raising in annoyance now "You are aware that I am in a relationship."

Watches as Hisun tries to backpedal, "No I really—"

"Yes you did. and you also threatened the safety of my boyfriend when you were kicking it
with your friends and that's really not cool." walks around his desk and has half the nerve to
dump the coffee down Hisun's shirt but he doesn't.
simply places the mug back in his hand, just rough enough to splash a little, "I'm very happy
in my relationship. please don't make me feel uncomfortable again."

Hisun looks as if he may cry or scream when he turns to walk out of the room.
but Jeongguk has to say one more thing, "Oh..and if you even think about going near
Taehyung, I'll kill you." smiles so bright his eyes crinkle and his cheeks rise "Enjoy the rest
of your day!"

And when the door slams shut behind him Jeongguk can't help but giggle.
When Seokjin mentioned that he wanted to stop by to bring Taehyung lunch—he didn't
include the fact that he and Lia would be barging in with enough to supply him for weeks.

"What is all of this?" rubs his hand over his face as Lia immediately begins unpacking the
food.

"Seokjin and I prepared a bunch of meals for you that you can just pop in the oven or steamer
or microwave depending on which one it is." shows him one of the containers that has a
sticker with heating instructions "Nice and easy to do with one arm"
feels a little silly with the way the couple have taken the time to go to such lengths for his
meal.

Catches Seokjin to the side and groans "Jin-ah, what's this all about?"

"Just making sure you have easy food on hand, best friend duties you know?"
he's not sure this qualifies as best friend duties...it surpasses that and makes Taehyung feel as
if he doesn't deserve any of it.

But then Lia is back in front of him with a determined look on her face, "So we were going to
plan a birthday party for you"
"please you really don't need to–" honestly, he loves them so much and he knows how much
they love to throw parties but he just really wants to enjoy his birthday weekend in peace
with Jeongguk.

Relaxing or sleeping or watching tv shows. just...no parties.

"We know, we know" she gives a soft smile before grabbing his hand "Jeongguk told us
about you taking him somewhere."

"It's just barely outside of the city. not really /going anywhere."

Seokjin's scarfing down one of the ready made meals when Lia scowls at him. "What, I was
hungry and this looks so good I had to taste test it to be sure." winks at her before clearing his
throat "Anyways, we just wanted to talk to you. privately. because everything going on with
your parents is overwhelming. you know Lia's family wasn't approving of me"
"And that was really hard on us at first, so we've been there. but we needed to make sure it
was clear, 100% clear, that you and Jeongguk don't have to walk on egg shells around us. you
can make plans and talk about them and not worry about making us feel some type of way"
honestly, Taehyung unconsciously had started growing passed that boundary with them. felt it
every time they've interacted since the night of their fight.
The doors opened slowly, but he's surely felt welcome.
Lia hands over an envelope that Taehyung opens gently, face softening when he finds ticket
vouchers to the movie theatre and a gift certificate to the only five star restaurant in town,
"We wanted you to have a wonderful birthday weekend, on us."

"You guys—"
"I know you can afford it yourself, Taehyung-ah. but just take this as us letting you know that
you have our blessing. in every sense of the word, in your individual life and the relationship
you're building with Jeongguk. okay?"
Taehyung's really not sure why Seokjin decided to be so soft today, but he hugs him anyway.

Even if he already felt their acceptance, hearing it so candidly out of their mouths makes a
world of difference in his mind (and heart)

T 🤎
Are you going home once you’re finished at the cinema with Jimin?

ME (jjk)
I was going too 👀 unless my boyfriend has other plans for me
T 🤎
Well, I know you’re going to be with your parents on Christmas morning. So I figured you
could sleep over tonight? We can spend christmas eve morning together and then go to your
work thing?

ME (jjk)
I’d love to. I’ll have jimin drop me off after I grab a bag from home. Yoongi-hyung won’t
mind?

T 🤎
Nope he won’t be home until late tomorrow evening.

ME (jjk)
Okay I can’t wait. Love you! I’ll text when I'm leaving here.

"Can I have you to myself just long enough for our movie?" Jimin's smile is knowing and
Jeongguk can see it in the way his eyes crinkle that he doesn't mind at all.

Still he slips his phone away, "Sorry we were making arrangements for tomorrow...speaking
of.."
bats his lashes and tugs Jimin closer by the arm, "Would you mind running me home and then
dropping me off at Tae and Yoongi's after our movie, I'll pay for your ticket and our popcorn
if you say yes"
"Sold!" Jimin has always been easy to bribe "But you really need to buy a car babe, how are
you and Taehyung getting around?"
"I drive his car when we're together, but he'll be healed in a couple of weeks so it'll be fine."
Jimin has thought back often to all of the times Jeongguk has called on 'Mr. Kim' for rides
and finds it amusing how none of them ever thought anything of it.

And now it just makes so much sense, seeing the way Taehyung dotes on Jeongguk
constantly.
how was Jeongguk /not supposed to fall in love with a man who treats him like he's royalty
and showers him with love constantly.

There's nothing a best friend could want more.

"Okay, as long as it's his gas you're wasting here soon!"

Jin-Hyung
christmas eve cookie baking and christmas morning breakfast? I’ll be making my famous
stuffed french toast.

ME (kth)
ahh, I'm not sure hyung. I feel like we’ve been doing a lot of things all together..and I love it.
But I don’t want Jeongguk to feel weird about it, or start to get annoyed by me being
everywhere.
I think some space is good every now and then

Jin-Hyung
I love you but you’ve always been a tad oblivious to thinks. Jeongguk would be content
being handcuffed to you. He never, ever, gets tired of you.
Besides, this isn’t about Jeongguk. This is ME your hyung and his wife, inviting you over
because it’s your first christmas not going home to your shitty parents.

ME (kth)
I will consider it. We’re spending tomorrow together anyway so I'll see. Thank you, for
everything.

The buzzing of the door has Taehyung just a bit too excited to open it.

He feels giddy for reasons he can't explain at the sight of Jeongguk at the door, takes the bag
from his hands and kisses him before his feet are planted on the inside mat,
"Hi pretty baby"

"Hey" Jeongguk smiles against him, feeling the way Taehyung's hands hold him closer and
closer "Sorry for getting here so late, the new spider-man was almost 3 hours"

"S'okay" Taehyung laughs and slips the jacket off of Jeongguk's shoulders, paying no mind to
the way it hits the floor when he's lifting the man into his arms with ease to take him to bed
"Just glad you're here now."
Jeongguk was certain he'd fall asleep as soon as his head hit the pillow but it's hours after
going at it louder than they've been allowed to be since Taehyung moved in, that they are
here doing a lot of talking and a lot of Taehyung's fingers dancing all over his skin. there's
something on his mind, Jeongguk can tell. so he twists around in the man's hold and props
himself on his knees, hands falling against Taehyung's bare chest when he pouts "What's on
your mind, babe? my boyfriend senses are tingling"

Which makes Taehyung quick to pull Jeongguk down until he's laying against him, arms
falling comfortably to their sides and face pressed to the warm chest below him, "Your
boyfriend senses are right.." sighs softly and runs a finger down Jeongguk's back "I've been a
bit worried"

"About what?" Jeongguk's voice has fallen soft and it makes Taehyung's heart do a /thing in
his chest.

"Your father invited me to spend tomorrow night and christmas day with you guys"
"Really?" Jeongguk's eyes light up far brighter than any christmas tree Taehyung's seen "Oh
that's so great I was planning on asking them in the morning if it was okay but now I don't
hav—"

"You don't mind?" Taehyung stops his words not expecting the look of absolute confusion
and disgust that paints Jeongguk's face "Excuse me? why would I mind?"

"I don't know. don't want you to feel like I'm invading every part of your life."
Jeongguk's palm falls flat against Taehyung's forehead with a little bit of pressure, "Taetae are
you ill? or did you forget the part where you've /been a part of my life for years. the only part
that's new is what we're doing right now."
Taehyung can't help the way his lips curl up, "I think some other things are new too—"

"That's besides the point" Jeongguk rolls his eyes before pecking Taehyung's lips quickly, a
few times to leave him chasing for more when he pulls away "The point is, I want you
everywhere"
"Every part of my life, I feel so happy when you're with me, okay? please don't ever doubt
that."

"It wasn't doubt, it was more of a worry for future Taehyung and Jeongguk."
Jeongguk rolls over and curls up to his side, lips pressing to Taehyung's shoulder "I think
they'll be just fine"

Taehyung thinks so too, but it really helps to hear it.

it wasn't Taehyung's intention for them to fall asleep, barely clothed, on the living room sofa.

But in the middle of the night Jeongguk wanted to watch Christmas movies and he certainly
wasn't going to tell him no.
is only regretting that decision a little bit when he opens his eyes to the feeling of Yoongi
covering them with a thick blanket.

Eyes flashing open when he can feel the only clothing between them is their thin boxers but
Yoongi doesn't seem to mind.
only gives a thumbs up with a soft smile before swiftly going into his own room.

So Taehyung tightens the arm that's holding Jeongguk in place and presses a kiss to the cheek
that's smushed against his shoulder.

What a way to wake up on Christmas eve.

now Jeongguk made sure to warn Taehyung of the mobs of coworkers they were likely to
face at this holiday fair tonight.

But he's still incredibly nervous when they're walking up to the huge tent and music is
blaring.
Taehyung must notice because he tugs him closer and speaks softly, "You alright?"

"Yeah...just want to have a good time" decides to leave out the part where he had to threaten
Hisun
figures that's the last thing Taehyung needs to think about right now when he only has one
arm to work with anyway.

The booths set up are all really interesting.

Jeongguk's boss is seated in a dunk tank filled with soft ornaments.

There's little tables to make various holiday crafts all around the lot. and the food? is to die
for.
that's where he and Taehyung find themselves first.

Both getting something from each food truck and filling an entire picnic table with just their
entrees.
Jeongguk is so happy like this. incredibly grateful that Taehyung is the type to feast like a
king when given the chance
Taehyung's reaching across the table to wipe some sauce from Jeongguk's mouth when a
body plops next to Jeongguk and Taehyung's brow raises.

Immediately displeased by how close Hisun has chosen to sit next to Jeongguk.
"Hi! I didn't get to introduce myself to you last time, you're Taehyung, right?" reaches out a
hand and lets his arm brush a little too close to Jeongguk's on the table.

Taehyung's eyes watching the way Jeongguk retracts it away and his body language tells him
something is off
"Yes. and who are you?" he's coy. he knows damn well who this is but he has no desire to
make that clear.

Would much rather insult the man's ego instead, "Hisun. Jeongguk and I go way back,
hmm?" throws an arm around Jeongguk's shoulder and Taehyung normally wouldn't care...or
at least he would /try not to care.

But Jeongguk is making it very clear that he's uncomfortable by the way he jolts up from the
table "Going to get us some more drinks babe.” as soon as he's out of earshot Taehyung turns
to say something but Hisun is glaring at him. with a cocky smirk on his face, "It's fun playing
house with Jeongguk isn't it?"

"Excuse me?" Hisun crosses his arms and sighs "Yeah, we've been there. it's hard working
with an ex boyfriend sometimes...especially one that looks like /that. god, can you blame me
for struggling to stay away?"

Taehyung's lip snarls and he's about to use his only good fist to make Hisun's nose bloody but
the man stands up, "Don't worry. he's all about you, for now. enjoy the party."

And then he's walking away right before Jeongguk returns with the drinks.
Taehyung would much rather talk about this later, when it's not the night before a holiday and
Jeongguk's in such a fantastic mood.

But this feeling in his gut makes him sick. Jeongguk picks up on it by holding onto his face,
"Did he say something to you?"
it wouldn't even be a problem that they're ex boyfriends. really. because he knows that
Jeongguk loves /him now.

But he can't help but wonder, why didn't he tell him?

"Just that he hopes we have a good time."

Taehyung is only having a minimal mental crisis.

Mostly because he's never been the type to keep his mouth shut and he surely doesn't like to
beat around the bush.
but his desire to keep the smile that's on Jeongguk's face is barely pulling out over his desire
to get to the bottom of things.

And given the scenario involve anyone else...he'd probably be texting his best friend right
about now.
but it just...makes things complicated and he's at a loss for what to do.

Jeongguk is currently clinging to his arm while they make small talk with a girl that he works
with and her husband.
His eyes keep finding Hisun whose eyes are on Jeongguk who is oblivious to everything and
Taehyung only feels a little bit suffocated by his thoughts.

Suddenly his shirt feels a little too tight and he just needs some water.

Politely excuses himself without even glancing at Jeongguk because he feels ridiculous.

It doesn't matter.

Anything that's in the past doesn't matter.

Except it does, because Taehyung /knew he wasn't crazy for being angry when Jeongguk was
standing so close to him that day.
and he really felt horrible, feeling like he overreacted and was a total asshole unwarranted.
but clearly his gut feeling was correct to be worried?

Because why would Jeongguk be so close to an ex that they're having lunches together
anyway?
and even if he /were still friends with an ex, why the hell wouldn't he let Taehyung know?

Suddenly he's remembering that drunken night with Seokjin when he opened up about
Jeongguk.
telling Taehyung about his son's first big heartbreak and how he thought he would never get
over it and then Taehyung's blood is boiling.

Is that him?

That's the big ex boyfriend that broke Jeongguk's heart?

and now he's back.

And they work together.

And they have coworker outings.

And it's too much.

Taehyung downs his glass of water and takes some deep breaths.

Not now.
but then he's walking back to the group and there's Hisun once again.

He has his arms hooked around /both Jeongguk and his other coworker but Taehyung isn't
blind. it's clear that Hisun has Jeongguk tugged a bit closer, to the point that their heads
almost touch.
so rather than making a big fuss and having a conversation he really doesn't want to have
right now, he quietly walks up right behind Jeongguk.

Flicks Hisun's arm off of him and slips a hand into his boyfriend's pocket to extract the keys
to his car.
Jeongguk is looking at him with puzzled eyes but he simply kisses his forehead, "I'll meet
you at the car"

"What? why?" Jeongguk grabs his wrist "Do you want to go home?"

"You still have to do your gift exchange, so do that and then text me, I'll pull the car around
so you don't have to walk so far." turns to the couple and Hisun who's smug expression is
infuriating "It was a pleasure meeting all of you."

"Tae, your arm. you can't drive" Jeongguk is full on pouting, so Taehyung tucks one strand of
his long hair behind his ear.

"I will manage with one arm for a couple of blocks, don't worry."
leans to kiss Jeongguk's lips just once before he walks away.

It's ridiculous to be irritated that Jeongguk didn't question it more.

Didn't try to follow him or get him to stay.

and he shouldn't have chanced a look over his shoulder because the sight of Jeongguk and
Hisun talking alone now, has him ready to chance the drive all the way home.

"What the hell is your problem?"

Jeongguk feels beyond angry. He knows. Has gotten very good at reading Taehyung when the
man chooses to save face.
Taehyung is pissed.

For reasons Jeongguk cannot even begin to think of.

That is until he remembers the way Taehyung's jaw was clenched when he was sitting at that
table alone with Hisun while Jeongguk got them drinks.

This fucking asshole.

"What are you talking about? I'm having a great time tonight."
"You said something to Taehyung, what did you say?"

Hisun feigns innocence, "We just talked about work. honest."

But he's lying.

Jeongguk can tell that he's lying. and he really doesn't care about a silly elephant gift
exchange. not when Taehyung is clearly upset and choosing not to make a scene.

Jeongguk is looking all over this crowded tent for his boss when he feels Hisun grab onto his
hip, "I can give you a ride home if you need one" Jeongguk shoves him, hard. so hard he falls
to his ass and the coworkers around him are all staring and whispering.

Crouches down to his level and takes a fistful of his shirt, "I already told you to back off."
Hisun shrugs, removing Jeongguk's hand, clearly embarrassed or angry, or maybe both.
"Have fun fighting with your old ass boyfriend, when you could hangout with people that
actually like the same shit as you"

"You literally know /nothing!"

Jeongguk cackles a bit "Taehyung's not even old you jackass, pathetic jealousy really isn't a
good look."

"Jealous over what? something i've already had?"

Jeongguk rolls his eyes "please, you fucking wish."

"I hoped you left your childish habit of lying back in high school, Hisun. are you trying to
make another boyfriend break up with me??" Jeongguk doesn't even bother grabbing the gift
from the ground "Good fucking luck trying, asshole."

He's nearly out of the tent that expands the entire width of the parking lot when he sees
Taehyung standing just outside of it.

Smoking a goddamn cigarette and Jeongguk is annoyed.

Yanks it out of his hand to stomp it beneath his feet, "You promised you'd stop"
"Yeah well you promised I didn't have anything to worry about with that fucking prick you
call a friend but clearly that promise wasn't kept either."

Jeongguk's head falls in disbelief.

No way are they doing this again. no way are they having this same fight.

No way.

"You're joking, right? what do you have to worry about? him being fucking annoying? yes. he
is beyond annoying."

Jeongguk watches as Taehyung's eyes roll so hard they could get stuck.

"Cut the bullshit, baby. save me the frustrating of having to spell it out."

"You know what" Jeongguk nods in silence, begins walking towards the car without a word
"I'll ignore the fact that you left me in there alone without telling me why and I'm going to
ignore the fact that I asked you what was wrong when we were eating and you told me
nothing but what I'm not going to do is stand here and let you treat me as if i've done
anything wrong when I know that I haven't. so let's go, I will drive us to yours and then I will
find a way home and that'll be the end of our holiday weekend."

Say no.

Please say no.

Jeongguk can hear Taehyung walking behind him but the man doesn't say anything. He really
needs Taehyung to say no. that Jeongguk is being ridiculous. for them to talk out whatever
the hell happened in there and move on. but Taehyung is silent and the moment they're in the
car he gets on his phone.

Jeongguk thought they were moving passed petty fights but apparently they aren't.

ME (kth)
Hyung. Can I talk to you as a friend right now?

Jin-Hyung
How else would you talk to me…what’s up?

ME (kth)
If you found out that Lia kept something small from you about her past and it’s now
surfacing…how would you react?

Jin-Hyung
Hm. This is a hard question for me. It would definitely depend on what the ‘something’ was.
Care to elaborate?
ME (kth)
Let’s say, hypothetically, she was coworkers with an ex. And they hypothetically hangout on
occasion. And hypothetically that ex is all over her.

Jin-Hyung
Okay, so, hypothetically speaking…I’d probably get angry at first.
Not going to lie, my dumbass temper would probably result in me punching the guy (do NOT
do this.) but i’d like to think that we would talk through it.
I would also hope that her reason for not telling me is because the ex was so insignificant she
simply didn’t remember…not that she was keeping ti from me.

ME (kth)
The punching is very difficult to refrain from but this sling on my left arm talked me out of it.
Thanks hyung.

Jin-Hyung
Taehyung?

ME (kth)
Yes

Jin-Hyung
Hypothetically speaking, Jeongguk isn’t got at talking about this kind of stuff. His instinct
will be to shut down and shut you out.

ME (kth)
Hypothetically speaking…i realize that. Just trying to organize my thoughts before we talk.

Jin-Hyung
Hypothetically…where are you? I thought you guys were staying here tonight.

ME (kth)
Hypothetically…we will hopefully be on our way soon…but there’s also a hypothetical
chance that I may not be there.

Jin-Hyung
Well hypothetically that’s not an option, so figure it out.
Or you’ll have to hypothetically answer to a very angry version of my wife, who has spent all
night preparing all of our favorite foods for tomorrow.

Jeongguk wants to cry.

Very much so.

Has felt the tears stinging behind his eyes the entire time he drove.

But when they reach Taehyung's place, he chooses not to. because tears always get Taehyung
to suddenly realize he's being an ass, but it shouldn't be necessary. He doesn't want his
emotions to be the reason Taehyung wants to sort shit out. That makes it feel like it's all just
from a place of sympathy, not a genuine desire to /fix it.

But it's a bit difficult to keep it together. as he's shoving his things into the bag he leaves here
to take with him, he notices that Yoongi isn't home.

Because Taehyung has called out his name several times and normally Yoongi would yell
back for him to 'shut up' by now. and if Taehyung wants to talk he can come in here his damn
self— the bag is gently tugged from Jeongguk’s hands and he's pulled into Taehyung's chest.

Jeongguk hates that he can't stop the tears from falling when they do and he whispers, "Why
can't you just talk to me"

"That's what I'm trying to do, silly baby. but you're too hell bent on hurrying out of here to let
me."

"Well you didn't say a fucking word to me in the car" pushes out of his arms but he just wants
to be pulled back in

"Because I would've said something I didn't mean"

"I'm sure that you had your reasons for not telling me that you and Hisun were once in a
relationship.but do you have any idea how clueless I felt finding that out from him? not to
mention he made it clear he was still interested in you, which only made me feel worse"

When Jeongguk is silent Taehyung's gut hollows. but they're going to talk this out. because
it's Christmas eve and he loves him and they're going to spend their evening together and
their morning.

"And I just find it a little strange that you don't push him off of you when he tries to get all
touchy—" "Hisun and I never dated" Jeongguk blurts, sitting on the bed with a defeated look
on his face "Ever. why would you just automatically believe him without asking me?"
"I didn't want to fight with you" "And look at us now!" Jeongguk isn't even sad anymore he's
just fucking irritated "At some point you're going to have to start fact checking before getting
pissed off at me"

"I wasn't pissed off at you.." groans and just wishes he could take this damn thing off of his
arm and hold onto Jeongguk properly "I was pissed off at the situation." "Well it felt a lot like
you were pissed off at me" "I'm sorry" Taehyung says honestly.
kneeling in front of where he sits at the edge of the bed and holding onto his face "I really
kind of hate that guy" "Now you know how I felt around Marisol. but even worse because
you almost /married her" "We don't need to talk about that"
Jeongguk pouts and Taehyung can't help but to lean up and kiss him. feels the gaping hole
he's felt since earlier fill up with swarms of butterflies and overwhelming warmth when
Jeongguk's finger curl into his shirt to pull him up over the other.

Jeongguk falling backwards onto the mattress with Taehyung kissing over every last part of
his face. stopping at the spot below his lip with rounded eyes and a pout that should be
illegal, "I shouldn't have left the party."
"You're right, you shouldn't have" Jeongguk gnaws on his lip to try to fight off the smile "But
I forgive you anyway" "But I really don't like that guy touching you" "I know" their noses
touch and Jeongguk just wants to be kissed more "It won't happen again. Ever”

It's his favorite kind of kiss when they both smile so wide that their teeth clink lightly. makes
insane happiness flood his entire being, "I love you, Tae. and if you need clarification or
assurance, I'll happily give it to you. but I can't do that if you don't tell me"
Taehyung kisses him softer, slower. hand gentle behind his neck when they part for air and
just breathe against each other, "Yeah, I'll work on that." kisses him again "I love you" again
"So much that my brain can't handle it sometimes"

When they reach Jeongguk's house the front door is already open with Lia standing there
wearing a santa hat and she has two aprons in her hands "I'd like to get these cookies made
/before midnight, get in here!" so they follow in after her because they have no other choice.
Taehyung does his best to help with what he can, currently has the job of whisking some of
the cookie dough while Jeongguk and Seokjin work on cutting the first batch and putting
them on baking sheets. while Lia clears off the table to make room for decorating.
a very comfortable silence falls between all of them with music playing in the background
and it's a way better feeling than they had at the little fair.

Taehyung is already scooping some of the dough onto a spoon for the man who's chin comes
to rest on his shoulder. brings it to Jeongguk's lips who eagerly bites onto it and groans at the
taste, "Okay so the peanut butter chocolate chip ones are definitely my favorite" to which
Seokjin immediately argues. insisting that sugar cookies are a holiday classic and cannot be
beat.

Taehyung doesn't really care either way, but he kind of loves the way Jeongguk stays right
next to him.

Taking a break from cookie cutting to just lean against him and sneaks a couple soft kisses
when his parents are busy bickering about icing colors.
when Jeongguk and Lia have taken over cookie cutting the last batch of dough, Taehyung is
leaned against the kitchen doorway.

Smiling at the sight and just taking it all in, when Seokjin hands him a small glass of wine.
"Hypothetically speaking, how did it go?" he asks quietly.

To which Taehyung chuckles loud enough that it catches Jeongguk's attention but he goes
back to his cookies

"Hypothetically, I'm an idiot. but it's all good now"

Seokjin snorts "That makes both of you" and Lia snaps her head around to scold them for
being lazy. demanding they start wrapping the plates of cookies so they don't go stale.

Jeongguk sticks his tongue out at Taehyung who can't help but smile, he feels so warm.
They fell asleep pretty quickly after finishing with the cookies, but Taehyung finds himself
stirring awake a little after 2 am when he leans over to pull Jeongguk closer and he's not
there.
takes the time to sit up and stretch, let's several minutes pass before getting up to go check on
his boyfriend, wherever he may be.

And he's genuinely endeared, heart bursting with adoration, at the sight of Jeongguk seated
on the kitchen counter.
handful of cookies while he scrolls on his phone in silence.

Hardly any illumination at all except for the christmas tree lights that sneak in from the living
room.

Casting a barely there rainbow glow on the kitchen tile.

his footsteps are slow and quiet, nearly reaches him when Jeongguk looks up. eyes wide as if
he'd just been caught, because he has.

Taehyung finding his place between Jeongguk's legs so easily. one hand curling around his
thigh to tug him closer until their noses brush
"Are you eating all of Santa's cookies?"

Jeongguk shakes his head as he swallows the bite in his mouth with sharp eyes that glare at
Taehyung "You're s'pose to be sleeping"

"I can say the same to you, sneaky baby"

leans in to kiss him because he's gorgeous and they were so sleepy after baking cookies that
they barely stayed awake long enough to brush their teeth.

Catches himself chasing after the taste of Jeongguk on his tongue and has to remind himself,
quickly, that they are not alone. but Jeongguk seems to disagree hopping down from the
counter and forcing Taehyung to walk backwards until his knees hit one of the kitchen chairs
and he folds down into it.

Jeongguk taking his rightful seat on Taehyung's lap and sighing against his lips "Merry
christmas"

"Merry christmas, baby" Taehyung pulls away to kiss his nose. cant get enough of the way
Jeongguk feels against him and he's ready for the next week to go by so he can get this thing
off of his arm.
The frustration of not being able to wrap him in both arms is too much. "I was actually going
to wake you up" Jeongguk speaks softly "Wanted to see if we could exchange gifts now, just
you and me. since...y'know. it's our first christmas together"

Taehyung quite literally feels himself falling in love with Jeongguk all over again.
when he says sweet things and pecks his lips against Taehyung's mole on his cheek.

"If you want to, we can. it's completely up to you"

So Jeongguk nods as if to say that yes, he wants to. but he gets a little too lost in kissing
Taehyung.
has both of his hands knotted into Taehyung's hair as he holds himself against him as tightly
as possible.

Does his best to muffle a whimper that threatens to tumble from his lips when Taehyung
adjusts himself and it forces him to barely grind up against Jeongguk. it was genuinely
innocent, he had not a single intention but Jeongguk's fingers went from toying playfully with
the strands of his hair to tugging.

Tongue demanding it's way past Taehyung's lips as he presses himself down against his lap
and this is not a good idea.

Fuck, it's really not a good idea.

But Jeongguk, the sinful little thing that he is, parts their mouths enough to /beg against his
kiss

"please. I'll be very quiet. I want you so bad Tae, please"

how is he supposed to say no?

So they move quietly. barely shuffling just enough to adjust their clothes and Taehyung feels
Jeongguk bite onto his shoulder when he presses in a couple fingers. it's dizzying the way
they transition so smoothly from lightly making out on the counter to Jeongguk slowly riding
his cock at the dining room table with Taehyung's hand covering his mouth to keep him quiet.

Because not even a kiss was enough to swallow Jeongguk's moans.

especially not when Taehyung rolls his hips up until he hits the spot that makes Jeongguk bite
on his palm.

It's the only thing he can do to quiet the noise and Taehyung is thankful that they're able to tip
over the edge quickly. and if they took a little extra time wiping down the chair with multiple
cleaning sprays, hopefully no one will notice.

Ahh, except now Jeongguk will never be able to sit at this table and not go giddy on the
inside at the memory. Taehyung catches him lost in a daze when he curls a finger under his
chin to bring their lips together, "Lost in thought, pretty baby?"

"Thinking about how I didn't know getting fucked by you at my childhood dining table was a
goal of mine until now" Jeongguk takes Taehyung by the hand to guide him to the living area.
both taking a seat on the floor in front of the tree where some presents are placed.

"Was the cookie thing a part of an elaborate plan to get me out of bed?"
Jeongguk's nose scrunches as he shakes his head "No, but I'm certainly not complaining."

Grabs the box he took his time wrapping and places it in front of Taehyung "I want you to
open mine first, I'm really excited about it"
so Taehyung carefully undoes the ribbon that's tied around the brown box.

Genuinely in awe we he opens it to find a gorgeous leather bag. with emerald green
embellishments and plenty of space.
"I know you're not a briefcase guy...and I saw this and it made me think of you immediately
and and I figured it has plenty of room for your memo pads and a book or two." Jeongguk
looks incredibly nervous. Taehyung notices as he runs his fingers over the soft leather.
"If you don't like it, I can return it. um and we can get something else I just—" setting the bag
aside Taehyung leans up to kiss him. a string of soft pecks over and over "It's perfect. I
couldn't have designed anything better for myself."
watches relief flood Jeongguk's features, "I actually have you another gift but...I'm going to
save it until you get your own place again. is that okay?"
"Of course it is" Taehyung loves him so much "You're enough. I don't need gifts."

"I know." Jeongguk smirks cheekily "But I wanted to buy you some anyway"
Taehyung reaches over him until he finds the box he slid under the tree himself.

"Before you open this, you need to know that I actually have a two part gift as well. but the
second part I can't give you yet."
Jeongguk couldn't care less about whatever Taehyung got him.

He already got all of his wishes the first time Taehyung said 'i love you'

But he opens the box anyway, heart pounding at the sight of a thin necklace with a
microphone dangling from it.
there's a piece of paper beneath the necklace with an address, a date and a time.

Jeongguk's confused, looks up at Taehyung who's face is starting ti turn a light shade of red
"The necklace is beautiful. but what is—"
"Yoongi has been looking for someone to record some demo tracks and background vocals
for a few of his projects. I may have talked him into letting you do it, although, it didn't take
much convincing after we heard you at the Karaoke bar."

"Tae—"
"And also, a part of it, is that you get to choose a few songs that he will produce and put on a
disc for you. it can be covers or..anything you want. it's just a free time in a real recording
booth. and we'll have drinks and food"

Jeongguk's throat feels swollen at the thought

"Hear me out first? please." Taehyung scoots closer to him and holds onto his trembling hand
"I know you don't really sing anymore and even if it's something you never want to do again.
won't you go just this once? because id love to have a CD that's filled with your voice"
"I don't have years of vocal practice or-or..I'll ruin the tracks. Tae babe. I can't." his stomach
twists. he'd love to. he'd always dreamed of singing in a real studio.

But it was a dream. now he's an adult with a real job and he can't just—
"I was thinking. since the date is this upcoming thursday before my birthday...we go to
Yoongi's studio then I take you back home with me, introduce you to my grandma and then
we spend the weekend in the lake cabin. we can make a whole mini holiday and it'll start with
that."
Taehyung's eyes are nearly pleading when he whispers "I really want to hear you sing again"

And Jeongguk has no idea why Yoongi would agree to this but Taehyung has clearly put so
much thought into it so he can't /possibly say no.
"Fine, under one condition"

Taehyung's response is immediate "Anything"

"Will you sing a song with me? when we go?"

"Whatever you want. it's your gift"

When Jeongguk leans up on his knees to make his way into Taehyung's lap once again it feels
dangerous.

But the man has the softest smile when their eyes meet "You're so special, you know that?"
and Taehyung has been called many things in his lifetime but special is definitely new.

"You bring that part out of me, I suppose."

Kisses Jeongguk's lips who shakes his head in protest, "No, Tae, it's just you."
they move quietly around the room.

Trying to dispose of the gift wrap and clean up the mess from Jeongguk's midnight snack.

Rushing down the stairs to Jeongguk's bedroom like a couple of kids that are hiding and it all
feels so happy.
Curling over one another in bed, Jeongguk feels overwhelmingly happy. fingers toying with
the charm dangling from his neck and he just...doesn't have words to explain the way
Taehyung makes him feel.
so when those lips press against his forehead to murmur 'goodnight' he snuggles closer.

Head resting on Taehyung's chest and holding him close

"I love you, Taehyung. thank you for loving me too"

To which Taehyung's sleepy voice whispers right next to his ear

"Loving you is the easiest thing i've ever had to do"

this is the second time that Jeongguk has had the luxury of waking up in his own bed with
Taehyung's arms hugging him close and if he's completely honest? it feels really nice.

Don't get him wrong...being at Taehyung's is better, for many reasons.

the main one being the fact that his parents aren't there to potentially pop in at any second.

But there's something truly comforting in being here, just like this, with Taehyung.
tried to adjust closer and feels Taehyung press a gentle kiss to his cheek when there's soft
knocking at his bedroom door.

"C'mon, stuffed french toast is almost done and presents are ready to be opened" Lia's voice
is far too enthusiastic this before 9am
but Jeongguk leans up with a full stretch anyway.

Shivering at the feeing of Taehyung's finger tips tracing up his bare sides. lips kissing and
resting on his shoulder blade, "Merry christmas, pretty baby"
turns his head just enough that their eyes can meet and the angle is perfect to kiss Taehyung's
forehead so he does, "Merry christmas, babe"

"It's about time, I was worried your plates would go cold" Seokjin smiles at them with his red
chef's apron and santa hat to top it all off

Jeongguk is giggling against Taehyung's neck at the sight

"Taehyung-ah, yours has only whipped topping and strawberries inside"

Seokjin looks so proud of himself as he gestures towards the decorative breakfast "Son,
yours, as always, has whipped topping and strawberries inside and a chocolate ganache on
top with a small white chocolate drizzle" the same breakfast he's been served since he could
eat solid foods on christmas morning.

And when he bites into it? it tastes just as good. "Really pops, you've got to open a restaurant
or something, these are so good" Seokjin brushing off the compliment with a sigh "I've got
bigger fish to fry than stuff toast sticks every day, Guk-ah. less talking-more eating. you guys
did enough talking at 3 this morning no?"
Lia giggles and pinches Jeongguk's flushed cheeks "You guys were so cute whispering and
exchanging your gifts like we couldn't hear. the living room walls are connected to our
bedroom remember"

Taehyung nearly chokes on his food and Jeongguk discreetly knocks their ankles together.
they weren't in the living room for /that so they should be in the clea—

"Everything okay?" Seokjin's brow quirks questioningly. but Lia answers before Jeongguk or
Taehyung can "We're sorry. we shouldn't have said anything. it was sweet really, I'm so glad
you were able to have a private moment just the two of you." reaches out to hold one of each
of their hands "It makes me really happy that we can do things like this. as a family."

They all go back to eating while Lia starts telling embarrassing stories about Jeongguk's
youth.

Though...he's a bit distracted. because Taehyung's cheeks are still red and the man appears to
be focused very much on his food and being attentive to Lia's story.
but when he looks up to catch Jeongguk's eyes looking at his own, he smirks just a bit.

Small enough to be discreet but clear enough for Jeongguk's stomach to burst into flames.

Taehyung's /totally thinking about it too.

nearly misses his mouth with the next bite, but his father's laugh snaps him out of his daze,
"You need to go back to sleep and wake up again? you're out of it this morning." ruffles his
hair and Jeongguk resists the urge to pout.
"M'fine. I am a little sleepy" looks at Taehyung again who's biting his lip to hold in laughter.

Composure slipping when a smile cracks across Jeongguk's face with a quiet giggle peaking
out.
they're both laughing at the table a bit too hard.

Seokjin and Lia share an eye contact but they don't say a word.

Simply smile at each other and feel blessed to spend their christmas morning like this.

watching Jeongguk be loved and doted on, has been one of Taehyung's favorite pastimes for
awhile now.

Because Jeongguk's smile is so bright and radiant and he shows gratitude for every little
thing.
is a bit too caught up in watching the way Seokjin is showing Jeongguk how to use the fancy
new pop up card holder they bought him.

So caught up he completely misses the way Lia holds out a gift for him,
"You guys were supposed to open these at the same time but my husband seemed to have
gotten too excited for Jeongguk to see it. these were the gifts he picked out"

"Stop" Taehyung shakes his head "You guys don't need to be buying gifts for me. id much
rather watch"
"Well you don't get to make that decision" Seokjin glares at him "Open it!"

And so he does, smile soft when he sees a very similar wallet to the one Jeongguk just
opened.

Except his matches the bag he was gifted by Jeongguk, almost perfectly.
Jeongguk who's smiling from ear to ear "Dad may have helped me pick out the bag. but I
didn't know he went back and got me one of the wallets too."

Taehyung's chest feels really warm when Jeongguk and Seokjin start to bicker over who's
idea it was to add the scarf.
and Taehyung really just has so much love in his heart for the people in this room.

Feels as if he'll explode from happiness so he just takes a sharp breath and laughs when they
laugh.
if he risks words he might say something stupid like how being here with them is the closest
to a /real family gathering he's ever gotten to be a part of.

Might cry and say how precious they are to him.

but he doesn't, only takes the gentle kiss Jeongguk presses to his lips easily and takes his turn
to give Seokjin and Lia the gift that he and Jeongguk purchased together.
when Jeongguk's fingers intertwine with his own and rests his head on Taehyung's shoulder.

He finds himself hoping for many more christmases spent just like this.

the majority of the day is spent just hanging around the living room, various movies playing
off and on all day.

Everyone taking terms falling into short little cat naps.

It's Taehyung's turn to wake up from his when Seokjin passes him a cup of coffee, "Come
outside?"
they seat themselves in the only two lounge chairs that sit on the back patio.

Taehyung doesn't have much desire to drink coffee this late in the afternoon but Seokjin went
out of the way to make it so he does.
"You know, I uh..." Seokjin clears his throat and his head shakes a bit "I wasn't sure how all
of this would go. if I'm being honest, I still kind of don't know. life keeps going on, faster and
faster.
sometimes it feels like we just met yesterday and other times it feels like i've known you my
entire life" looks up at him with a smile "I haven't seen you smoke in months, when did you
quit?"

Taehyung sips on the coffee

feels a little ridiculous when he sighs and admits "Ahh, Jeonggukkie doesn't like it. pretty
much gave me shit our entire trip about it. I still do, very rarely. I smoked last night, but he
stomped it out before I could take more than a couple hits of the stick"
Seokjin chuckles a little "That sounds like my son, Lia used to smoke. stopped when she got
pregnant with him and never picked up another cigarette again, surprisingly." glances over
his shoulder through the glass and smiles "I don't know what happened between you last
night"
"And I don't really know all of the details from the fight in my driveway either. don't really
care to know what problems you two may come across—unless you choose to share them
with me. but I guess I just felt like I should say that i've always felt like you were family to
me..
..and I really don't want that to change. I'm worried that if something bad were to happen
between the two of you, that not only would my son be heart broken, but id probably lose my
best friend. it's kinda scary to think about."

"Hyung, you don't—"

"But then I see the way he smiles at you and the way you care for him and I feel like a big ole
idiot."

Taehyung smiles at him, but his attention is drawn to the movement of Jeongguk walking
around the dining room.

Nearly reaching the patio door.

"You're actually in love with him, aren't you?" Seokjin nods, almost in disbelief, but he looks
very pleased. happy, even.

Taehyung chokes a bit on his words when he finds his best friend's eyes, voice low and soft
"Very much so"
"If it would be anyone in the world, im really glad it's you" Seokjin says barely above a
whisper before he clears his throat and tries to pretend his eyes aren't watered when Jeongguk
opens the door.

"Ma wants to walk and see the light display"

so they both head inside.
Seokjin's arm loosely hanging around Taehyung's shoulders before they split ways.

Him heading to get ready with his wife and Taehyung following Jeongguk downstairs.
being lured in by round eyes and pretty lips that he has no choice but to kiss.

"What were you guys talking about?"

"Nothing" Taehyung kisses him again. hands gentle but tight on his hips "Just how much I
love you"
Jeongguk's laughter fills the room as he puts on some nicer clothes.

"Whatever, babe. you don't have to tell me."

And Taehyung finds it humorous that Jeongguk has no idea how true it was.

the two days following Christmas holiday have been...lackluster to say the least. Jeongguk
knows that he shouldn’t be glued to Taehyung’s side. Understands that its important they still
have time to themselves.

Still...days where he doesn’t get to see Taehyung, really suck.

But today Jeongguk has a packed schedule of tasks to complete at work. So if nothing else,
his day should go by quickly.

Except...already, first thing in the morning, his boss enters his office. “Mr. Jeon, may I have a
word?”
Tries not to roll his eyes because...does he even have a choice? Of course not. So he smiles
kindly when she takes a seat in front of his desk "At the holiday fair...you got into a bit of an
altercation.”

“Look I’m not—“

“You aren’t in trouble. That’s not why I’m here”

Her smile is kind, “I’m letting you know that I’ve transferred Hisun to a different department.
This isn’t the first incident with him causing troubles for a coworker...honestly? It isn’t the
second incident either. This transfer is his final strike.”
“I really enjoy having you on this team and I was worried you might be looking into other
employment opportunities because of his behavior.”

Jeongguk is baffled...truthfully this is not at all what he had expected her to say,
Finds himself even more shocked when she says "Him transferring opens up a team lead
position...and I know you’re still new around here but your work speaks for itself. I’d love for
you to consider the position”

“Wow” he’s trying to hide the proud smile "Can I think about it?”
“It’s not that I don’t want the position, I just want to talk it over with—“

She raises a hand to calm his rambling, “Jeongguk-ssi. I won’t be filling the position until
you give me an answer, take your time.”

He feels a rush of excitement...maybe today won’t be so bad.

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
ME (jjk)
Tae

T🤎
Hello, pretty baby. To what do I owe this pleasure? Hm? Aren’t you working.

ME (jjk)
Yes, I am.
My boss came in here and I thought I was about to get yelled at for the fight I got into with
Hisun. But they just told me that he’s being transferred out of this department bc apparently
this wasn’t the first issue caused by him.
Annnnnd she’s offering me the team lead position he had.

T 🤎
That’s amazing!! Baby you JUST started working there…that’s how incredible you are!!

ME (jjk)
Should I take it? I don’t know if I want it. I’m scared to let her down and I'm not all that sure
if I'm ready for this much responsibility.

T 🤎
Well, the good thing is, it’ll be your decision to make. It’s also totally okay if you don’t want
that yet. It’s already impressive enough that you’re even being given the opportunity. That
just goes to show how successful you are on the path to becoming. You should feel so proud
of yourself.

ME (jjk)
Have I ever told you that I love you?

T 🤎
Maybe once or twice…you could tell me again, tonight? Dinner? My place?

ME (jjk)
Triple date with yoongi-hyung again?
T 🤎
No, baby. I said MY place.

ME (jjk)
Your place?
You got a new apartment?
And..you didn’t tell me?

T 🤎
No, no, stop that. It was nothing like that at allll. I’ve been waiting on a couple connections to
get back in touch with me and one of them finally did. I just picked up keys this morning.

ME (jjk)
😤
Hmm… I'll accept this answer for now. Only because I'm just so happy. And also, i’d
really like to um..yk..have privacy again..

T 🤎
Oh baby, you have no idea. I’m going to try to get some more stuff done around here before
you’re off of work. I love you, brilliant baby and I’m so proud of you!!

ME (jjk)
Thanks babe :(( I love you

Before he even puts his phone away again, Seokjin and Yoongi are both teasing him.

"The only time i've ever seen you smile that much is when Jeongguk is around..tell him you'll
text him after we get this furniture moved in!" Seokjin's voice is loud from up the stairs
Yoongi cackles shortly after, tossing the keys to the moving van down to Taehyung "No,
Seokjin-hyung, you should've seen Taehyung in Europe....i've never seen a man have such
gooey eyes."
"Okay okay, enough, let's not all make fun of Taehyung while he only has one arm alright?"

But the smile on his face as he walks out to the van is unmistakeable.

It's not his fault Jeongguk makes him so happy, but he's definitely not complaining.

Just the address alone, makes Jeongguk’s heart soar. Because why on earth would Taehyung
choose a home that’s conveniently located on a neighborhood that sits almost perfectly in
between his job, Taehyung’s new workplace and his parents house?
You cannot convince Jeongguk that it wasn’t intentional.

That thought alone has warmth cresting inside of his chest and soothing throughout his body.
Taehyung is so lovely.
Finds it absolutely insane how he always used to imagine Taehyung as a partner, and his
wildest imagines?? Taehyung goes way beyond them. Proving time and time again that there
could never be someone else for Jeongguk.
Because who else is going to walk down the street, in the middle of unpacking, just to make
sure that he finds his way alright? He’s a grown man and more than capable of taking care of
himself. Taehyung /knows this.
Yet he still goes out of his way. Good arm wrapping around Jeongguk’s waist as they walk
towards his place. Leans over to press the softest kiss to his cheek, "Your timing is near
perfect, your father and Yoongi just left.”
"Hmm, how convenient” wiggling his brows in a way that makes Taehyung roll his eyes
playfully.

Pauses in front of the gate leading to his home that Jeongguk is really, for some reason,
insanely excited to see, “You know what else is convenient?”
"Hm?” Jeongguk’s smile won’t fade. Doesn’t even know why he’s smiling. Figures it’s just
the effect that Taehyung has on him.

“I have my follow up with the doctor tomorrow. Imagine that, my arm is fully healed before
our weekend together.” the man leans in to kiss his lips,

Smiling against Jeongguk’s mouth when the younger cups onto his jaw. Holding him in place
to kiss him better. watches Taehyung lean against the edge of the gate and steps against him.
Feeling completely at home right here, savoring the languid way their lips lock and the
teasing way their tongues just barely brush.
Only enough to make sparks erupt before they pull away with shy smiles, "Can’t wait” he
says quietly. Heart pounding when Taehyung grabs his hand to link their fingers together,
"Come on, I want to show you around.”
Immediately upon entering the home, Jeongguk can just feel Taehyung. Maybe it’s because
the man has already hung up little pieces of art all over the walls or maybe it’s because the
furniture he chose doesn’t really match.
Yet it somehow works. Because, well, everything Taehyung does just seems to work.

Is exploring down the hall as Taehyung grabs them something to drink, but before he opens a
door knob which he assumes to be the master bedroom.
He hears, "Wait! Don’t go in there yet.” a bit curious, but more endeared than anything at the
way Taehyung’s cheeks flush. Handing him a small glass of wine. "I wanted to toast to your
hard work before we get distracted.”
clinks their glasses together with a soft smile, "Whether you decide to take the promotion or
not. You are incredible, and deserve to be celebrated.”

Jeongguk giggles just a bit, sipping on his glass, "Don’t you think you’re biased?”
"It would only make sense that I think the world of you, pretty baby. But the thing is, i’ve
always thought the world of you. So there’s no bias. Only genuine admiration.”
sets his wine glass down on the hallway table with a smile "It’s just that now, I don’t have to
keep my admiration to myself.”
And Jeongguk wants to say something back…but he’s at a loss. So he doesn’t say anything
because Taehyung is opening the door, leading him inside and smiling "There’s not that much
special about this room. Just my bedroom.”
"I think it’s special” Jeongguk gnaws on his bottom lip. Flopping backwards onto the bed and
smiling up at Taehyung when he sits upright "I plan to spend a lot of time here”

"Is that so?” the man is, very carefully, climbing onto the mattress.
Maneuvering with only his legs and one arm makes it a bit less coordinated than it otherwise
would be but Jeongguk doesn’t mind. Arms curling around Taehyung’s neck as soon as the
man has taken his spot between Jeongguk’s legs.

“I guess it’s a good thing I purchased two chests of drawers then.” Taehyung tries to say it
nonchalantly. Immediately kissing Jeongguk when the words have left his mouth.

But the youngers jaw drops and he pulls away from Taehyung’s kiss with soft eyes.
"Why would you buy two dressers?”

"I just figured, it would be nice if I could have some extra clothes around. For /you.”

Jeongguk leans back up, forcing Taehyung to rest his butt on his heels. "Don’t be upset, I'm
not trying to suggest anything. I just wanted you to know that you’re always welcome here.
No matter what. Any time.”

He looks nervous. eyes concerned and brows furrowed in a way that gives Jeongguk an urge
to reach and press his fingers down against them.

“How could I possibly be upset?” Jeongguk will /not cry over this. But he does lean in to kiss
Taehyung gently. Lips soft and plush as they combine over and over. "I love you so much,
Tae.”

"I love you, pretty baby. So damn much.”

And Jeongguk has admittedly had many moments where he thought he might doubt those
words. But he doesn’t anymore. Not at all. Allows himself to be pressed back against the
mattress with a dreamy sigh, today could not possibly be any better.
__

Jeongguk has been doing his best not to freak out this week. But the closer it gets to
tomorrow, the more anxious he feels. Nearly chugs his entire beer before Hoseok takes it
from his hand with a concerned scowl, "Alright, spill”

"There’s nothing to spill, hyung” pouts when he can see that clearly none of the three across
from him believe that "Taehyung is taking me to Yoongi’s recording studio tomorrow”
"That’s tomorrow!” Jimin claps in excitement, arm slinging around his shoulder and lips
pressed to his cheek "You’re going to be amazing!” but Jeongguk just isn’t sure how he feels
about any of it.
It all feels nerve wracking and even if it’s meant to be a good time with drinks and creative
freedom. He just…hasn’t ever let himself imagine being in this situation. So the thought of
actually being there kind of makes him nauseous.

But Namjoon pours more beer into his glass with a smile, "You’ve got lungs of gold or some
shit, Kook-ah. Just have fun, it’s a date anyway right? Don’t get all worked up about it.” and
his hyung’s do have a point…but he still feels intimidated.

All that he wants is to make Taehyung happy on his birthday weekend. Even if this gift was
for Jeongguk, he really wants to do well for Taehyung.

__

Taehyung is hoping, terribly so, that he didn’t make a mistake.

The worst thing he could think of, would be for Jeongguk to not have a good time, utilizing
/his christmas gift.

But truthfully, Taehyung thought they could have a lovely time together and okay…maybe
this gift was a little self indulgent.

Can you really blame him? Jeongguk’s voice makes him feel as if he’s being sung to by the
heaven’s themselves.

Hands drumming at his steering wheel when he pulls into the driveway. He’s also,
overwhelmingly excited, to get his hands on his boyfriend.

Innocently…of course.

But it’s been miserable weeks wearing this arm brace and he just wants to hold him. Knocks
on the door with more enthusiasm than he probably should. Smile stretching across his face
immediately when he’s met with Jeongguk looking absolutely radiant. Tight blue jeans with a
striped button down tucked into the leather belt that frames his tiny waist a bit too well.

Makes Taehyung’s mouth water…respectfully. Hands reaching out to cup onto both sides of
his hips and pulling him in immediately, murmuring softly "Hey sexy baby” against his
mouth.

Clearly forgetting that..well..Jeongguk doesn’t live alone. Is reminded of this fact when
Seokjin fakes a gag from the living room sofa, "For fucks sake, you can save that language
for the car” but Jeongguk’s giggles take all of the embarrassment from Taehyung’s body.
Especially when he turns around cheekily, “told you I wasn’t under dressed” tongue dipping
out when Seokjin waves a nonchalant hand "Yeah, yeah, get out of here. Have a good time.
Be safe.” glances over the sofa at Taehyung "Sneak us a recording”.

But Jeongguk is shoving Taehyung out of the door before he can get a response out. Stops as
soon as the front door has closed to turn around and hold onto Jeongguk by the face.

Thumbs brushing the sharp edge of his jaw and kissing him softly, “I’ve really missed
holding you”
“I’ve missed your hands on me” Jeongguk speaks quietly. "We don’t have to go—”

"Yes we do.” Taehyung scowls. Eyes softening when Jeongguk pouts, "We’ve got all
weekend, baby. No need to rush.”

Jeongguk isn’t excited…of course not. It’s totally not the coolest thing he’s ever seen in his
life being inside of a /real recording studio. One that has hallways lined with platinum
records…pfft. This is just another day in his mundane life.
Except it’s totally not. His chest swells with a warmth that he can’t remember the last time he
let himself feel it. Maybe a little bit at the Karaoke restaurant but that was different.
Different because the warmth in his chest back then was because of Taehyung. And well, this
warmth is /also, because of Taehyung but it’s not the same.

The hand that’s gently guiding him by his lower back provides a comfort Jeongguk’s gotten
too used to.
Because he settles into Taehyung’s arm and when they’re waiting for Yoongi to meet them at
the studio they’re assigned to, he can’t help but to lean over and kiss Taehyung softly.
"What do you want to do first? Have some fun with me or record the demo for Yoongi?”
Taehyung guides one of the strands of his hair back behind Jeongguk’s ear. Smile soft as he
waits for a response.
on one hand…he definitely feels more comfortable goofing off with Taehyung first.
However…Taehyung said they would have drinks and small foods to snack on for the entire
hour that they have the studio to themselves…
…and Jeongguk doesn’t trust himself to do /any serious recording once he’s had alcohol.
Even if it’s only minimal.

So, rather reluctantly, he says "Let’s get the demo part over with. My nerves will just keep
building up if we don’t do it now.”

Timing perfect because Yoongi puts a hand on both of their shoulders with a smile "Sounds
good to me, Jeongguk-ah.”

Yoongi types in some numeric digits on the door code and okay. Jeongguk is absolutely
excited.

This totally is the coolest thing he’s ever seen. Yoongi’s studio has low lighting all over the
room. Equipment that looks like it cost more than Jeongguk’s entire life.
His eyes are glowing once he’s looked around and finds Taehyung’s eyes on himself. looks
like he’s about to speak but Yoongi interrupts them both.
"This is my private studio, noone has access here so after I leave you guys don’t have to
worry about any interruptions.” guides them both to sit down on the stools next to his mixing
boards.
Taehyung grabs one of the headsets and puts it over Jeongguk’s ears.

Effectively making him blush before kissing his nose.

“I’ve got two tracks that I need someone to sing the demo’s for. I’m gonna play them for you
now but uh, don’t say a thing about my voice alright?” chuckles a bit at himself "Singing
ballads isn’t my strong suit”
"No promises, hyung” Taehyung sticks his tongue out but Jeongguk rolls his eyes, playfully.
He hopes that Yoongi isn't really worried.

He’d never make fun of someone’s voice. /ever.

Takes the lyric sheet and feels his fingers tremble as he holds onto the pages. He can’t even
bring himself to ask who the demos are going to because if he knows, he might be too scared
to follow through with it.
When the first song, Stay Alive, plays….Jeongguk immediately feels intimidated. There’s no
way he can sing a song like this. Looks in the seat next to him, Taehyung has his arms
crossed. Head tilted back and his eyes are closed.
Yoongi is inside the recording booth, seemingly setting things up for Jeongguk to step inside,
meanwhile his heart is pounding like crazy.
The second song plays immediately after, Still With You, and okay...

He doesn’t know what Taehyung and Yoongi think they heard when they were at that damn
Karaoke place but Jeongguk is just… not capable of this.
He’s not.

But he has to try.

Taehyung pulls one of the speakers from his ear and gestures with his eyes for Jeongguk to
do the same. "What do you think about the songs?”

"They’re great but...I just don’t know.” gnaws a bit on his lip and didn’t realize he was
crumpling the lyric sheets in his hand. Taehyung’s hand slips between his own and the paper.
Letting it fall to the floor so that their fingers can intertwine softly "Just sing it, love. There’s
no harm either way. Even if you aren’t happy with the outcome, we can just ask hyung to
delete the recordings. But I’m positive you’re going to be amazing.”
The door to the recording booth opens and Yoongi waves Jeongguk over. He’s only panicking
a tiny bit. Heart thrumming like a drum against his chest, that is until Taehyung stands with
him and holds onto his face.

"You’ve got this, pretty baby, this is supposed to be fun. Don’t worry too much.” Jeongguk
leans into the kiss that he hopes is coming. Is thankful that it does. Taehyung’s lips soft and
warm and helping blur all of the thoughts raging in his mind.

Once he’s inside the booth with Yoongi, his fingers begin to tremble again. Yoongi adjusts
the microphone until it’s at the right height and looks at Jeongguk with assurance in his eyes.
“Listen, you’ve got ridiculously insane talent locked up in those lungs of yours. I literally
listen to people sing for a living. Day in and day out. This is what I do. I’ve never heard a
voice like yours. It’s why I wanted you for the demo.”
It makes him feel a bit better, except it doesn’t, because Yoongi clearly has high hopes and he
knows that Taehyung does and he’s just so damn scared of disappointing them. But Yoongi
pats his shoulder softly.
When Jeongguk looks up through the glass he can see Taehyung staring at him with nothing
but warmth and love in his eyes.
Yoongi’s voice comes through the speakers, “I’ll just play the backing track first a couple of
times so you can get a feel for it and play around.” then music slowly fades in.

He can do this.
Listens and warms up his throat a bit. Small riffs and runs of his voice filling the back track
with adlibs while he waits for the song to end. Taehyung hasn’t stopped smiling and
Jeongguk just knows he couldn’t do this without him.
Yoongi’s voice comes back, "You ready to do it forreal? We can do as many takes as we
need.”

He nods, eyes falling shut and takes a deep breath. Long and slow.
Stretches his neck from side to side and when his eyes open again he can see Taehyung
sending him an air kiss.

The butterflies that this men sends raging in his stomach really don't help.
The music begins and Jeongguk tries to convince himself to get lost in it.

He can do this.

He hopes.

Taehyung can say with certainty. With no room for doubt. No possible alternative. He can say
that he is the single luckiest man in the universe. Really. Jeongguk is in the middle of his
third take on recording Stay Alive and every single take has been flawless.

He watches with a content heart as his gorgeous baby sings his little heart out.
And he meant it when he said every take has been flawless, but he’s willing to sit here for
fifteen more takes if Jeongguk wants.

He could never, ever, get tired of that voice.

When Jeongguk says he’s happy with the fourth take, he sends a warm smile Taehyung’s
way. His cheeks look a bit flushed, though it could just be the lighting in the recording booth.
“I’m gonna run the next track for you then, just like before, a few loops of just the backing
for you to play around before we record” Yoongi removes his headphones to turn and look at
Taehyung with an appalled expression.
“Why the hell is that boy working in a fucking office somewhere? Taehyung he’s
remarkable.”

“I know” his chest swells with immense pride "He’s got the best voice in the world as far as
I’m concerned”
Yoongi’s hands clasp together with a sigh "How am I supposed to send these songs off for
someone else to sing when his voice suits them flawlessly?”
When they both put their headsets back on to give Jeongguk’s singing their undivided
attention, Taehyung’s throat tightens.
He doesn’t know why Jeongguk’s been avoiding singing for so many years.

Seokjin and Lia have talked about it enough for him to know it’s something serious.

And if nothing else, he really wants to get to the bottom of it.

It only took two runs before Jeongguk was satisfied with the second demo track.

Can see Yoongi and Taehyung clapping and smiling outside of the booth when he takes the
headset off to go out with them.
Taehyung brings a hand dramatically to his chest, sinking into the plush sofa in the studio,
"Help, I’ve fallen…in love with the voice of an angel”

“Seriously, Tae?” Jeongguk giggles and falls onto the couch next to him.
Laughing even harder when Taehyung smushes his cheeks between his large palms and
kisses all over his face, “I can’t wait to have a CD of Jeonggukkie songs”

“You’re just biased—“

“No, he’s really not” Yoongi is leaned against the wall with his arms crossed. “You’re really
good, Jeongguk-ah. I wish you’d let me produce an album for you. We could change your
life.”

Jeongguk feels his face heating up.

Just the thought makes his stomach swirl and not in the way that makes him feel excited.

Swirls in the way that makes him want to look for the nearest trash bin.

“I like my life” he says softly "But I am having a lot of fun”

Yoongi leaves them alone in the studio just long enough to go grab the food and drinks that
Taehyung had delivered.

Jeongguk can feel Taehyung’s eyes on him before he even turns to face him.
Sits with one knee bent on the sofa and has his entire body facing his boyfriend who’s
frowning, "What’s wrong, Tae?”

He shakes his head before tugging on Jeongguk’s arm. Pulling him across until he’s resting
against Taehyung’s chest.
“Just thinking” his chest rumbles with how low he speaks, it makes chills shoot down
Jeongguk’s spine.

“About what?”

“About what could’ve possibly happened to make you so terrified of singing.”

The air feels suffocating with the silence between them so Taehyung clears his throat "You
don’t owe me an explanation or anything. I just wish you saw and /heard yourself the way I
do.”
“I can tell you, if you want, but I also don’t want to make you uncomfortable.”
“You could never” Taehyung is sitting up almost instantly, hands tight on Jeongguk’s waist as
he adjusts them both on the sofa "My ears are always open for anything you want to talk
about”
Jeongguk looks uncertain, Taehyung’s brow furrows curiously when the man says, “Even if it
involves my ex?”

More so than anything, Taehyung is surprised. He figured he would never know the story of
the mysterious guy who broke Jeongguk’s heart.
He didn’t care to know, if he’s honest. It doesn’t matter how someone else broke his baby’s
heart, as long as it’s in /his hands now.

But this is different.

Maybe, even without Jeongguk speaking just yet, Taehyung can understand.
All of the times Seokjin talked about his son’s first heart break being traumatic starts to make
sense.

Because Taehyung always chalked it up to nothing more than adolescent heart break but it
appears to have gone a little deeper than that.
It’s impossibly easy for him to bring both of Jeongguk’s hands between his own, kissing them
softly with a smile, “I said anything, didn’t I, pretty baby?”
Yoongi chooses this pristine moment to return to the studio, though as soon as he has placed
the food and beverages on the coffee table, his eyes widen.

Clearly picking up on the vibe of the room and he raises his hands in surrender, “I’m going to
go eat my own lunch”
Taehyung is pouring the raspberry champagne into flutes before handing one to Jeongguk
who’s hand is near shaking.

“So, I dated a guy, pretty much my entire high school years. And a couple years before then
too.”

“Wow, really?”
Jeongguk nods as he takes a sip, “to make a very long story short, he was my first gay crush
and I wanted to cling to him for as long as possible. It felt safer with him. We met in summer
idol trainee camps.”
Taehyung grabs the small dish with cut up strawberries and scoots closer to his boyfriend’s
side. Warm eyes as he brings one piece of fruit to Jeongguk’s lips. Smiling when he bites it
eagerly.

“So you didn’t /always hate singing, hm?”

Jeongguk shakes his head, leaning closer into Taehyung’s touch and letting himself be fed
some more.

“I wasn’t out yet, so we kept private pretty much all of the time. I uh…I wrote him a song.
And planned to sing it to him on our anniversary.”
“But he set me up, it was really even more humiliating looking back on it. There were a lot of
red flags I should’ve seen but I was a kid and blinded by heart eyes. So I didn’t realize he had
basically set me up to put myself in front of our entire same age group”
“Oh, baby..” Taehyung’s chest hurts. Actually, physically, hurts at the thought of a seventeen
year old Jeongguk prepared to pour his heart out only to have it ripped to shreds. Along with
so much more.

“Being outed wasn’t even the part that upset me, I think most knew anyway”
“But when everyone left after I started crying he just stood there. Someone who had treated
me so tenderly, for so long, looked at me as if I were a stranger. With disgust and hatred in
his eyes. Told me the last thing he wanted was for his ears to bleed with my song”
“Alright, I’m sorry” Taehyung rubs his hands on his knees "For research purposes I’m going
to need legal names and addresses”

Jeongguk’s laugh soothes the anger raging in Taehyung’s heart.

Especially when he returns the favor of bringing a strawberry to Taehyung’s lips.

“It just felt like everything I thought I knew about myself and the person closest to me was a
lie. I met Jimin and Namjoon when I transferred schools.” Takes a deep breath and smiles
softly "Singing is just hard for me because I lost a lot of my confidence back then.”
“I wasn’t myself for a very long time. By the time I was healed enough to start singing again,
it had been so long, I was too scared to try.”

“Im really sorry, for pushing you to sing at that Karaoke bar. Baby, if I’d have known I’d
have never—“
“Please don’t apologize..” Jeongguk’s voice is so soft “Taehyung you’ve given me parts of
myself that I never knew I’d be able to get back. I actually felt like I could recognize myself
again when we started talking more the last couple of years. Our trip only amplified that.”
“Everything since then has been the most wonderful gift that I don’t know how to ever repay
you for.” Jeongguk kisses him gently "You’ve helped me learn to love myself again, Tae.
This is apart of that. A part I’d have never gotten back without you pushing me.”
Taehyung frowns just a bit, the back of his hand gently stroking Jeongguk’s cheek “Do not
give me credit for your own growth. This is all you. The wonderful, amazingly lovable man
that you are today is solely because of yourself. If I was able to help at all, I’m honored”
“But do not discredit yourself.”

Taehyung watches the way Jeongguk rolls his eyes, they’re bound to get stuck with how
often he does it “Tae, babe, for once can you not try to be all humble and wholesome. Just..I
love you. I love you and I’m grateful for all you’ve given me”
Taehyung smiles when his boyfriend leans in for a kiss, pressing a string of them to his lips,
“I love you, with all of my heart, my strong gorgeous baby. I’m so lucky.”
Neither of them really manage to eat much of the food in front of them. Not whenever
Jeongguk slips himself into Taehyung’s lap instead, “I’m the lucky one”. warm lips trailing
up the expanse of his neck. “I'm so lucky to be loved by you”

Those long, gorgeous, fingers slip just barely beneath the fabric of his shirt—successfully
making sparks erupt all over his skin. Taehyung always has the best way of doing this to him.
Electricity he can’t ignore because his body nearly explodes from the pressure.
Desire taking over him in a way that brings a dizzy haze over his mind. Forgetting the fact
that they’re very much not in the privacy of Taehyung’s bedroom. Jeongguk cannot possibly
be bothered to care.
Their mouths meet in the type of kiss that’s jarringly languid. Taehyung’s tongue dipping in
and out of his mouth with a sultry smooth glide. Leaving him no choice but to keep his jaw
slack and lightly chase for more.

Jeongguk would beg. /Really. Is on the verge of begging when he feels the other’s index
finger curl beneath his chin. Pulls away from their kiss with deep, heavy eyes, ‘I'm so fucking
turned on by you. everything about you is impossibly sexy, what am I supposed to do? Hm?’
presses the pad of his thumb against the plush skin of Jeongguk’s bottom lip. Pushing it down
until his finger easily slips passed those lips. Jeongguk is a bit of a filthy slut when it comes
to his boyfriend. Sucks onto Taehyung’s finger and keeps the eye contact while he does it.
Mouth opening wide when Taehyung pulls it out, moves as if he’s going to insert another
finger instead but he doesn’t. Instead the man growls lowly into Jeongguk’s neck. Hands
gripping beneath his thighs in order to lift them both from this couch.

Equipment be damned, he’s got to get his hands all over his baby. Sits Jeongguk down on the
desk, that’s perfectly angled to grind his hips against him. Loves the way Jeongguk’s legs
curl around his hips to pull him closer. Mouths meeting in an open mouthed kiss when
Jeongguk says, ‘i really hope you’re planning on fucking me right now’ to which Taehyung
chuckles into his kiss. Suckling on his lip with a groan, ‘i might die if I don’t. Holy hell, I
want you so bad, don’t know if I can wait’ pulls away enough to glance at the clock.

Knowing Yoongi he probably found something to occupy his time. It’s fifteen ‘til the turn of
the hour. Jeongguk’s eyes are pleading. Looks as if he’s seconds from dropping to his knees
in a full-on beg. So without any further pause, Taehyung hastily brings his hands to his belt
buckle. Unfastening it with urgency as he leans in to capture Jeongguk’s lips that are slicked
over and swollen, ‘how quick do you think you could cum for me, pretty baby?’ and usually,
in these situations, Taehyung is certainly more kept together. Able to manage his composure
just a bit more. But right now? When Jeongguk rolls his head backwards with a low breathy
moan as Taehyung palms at his arousal, ‘quick enough. Just keep touching me’. Taehyung
takes a long, steady breath.

Steps away just to fasten the deadbolt on Yoongi’s studio. He might murder him if he finds
out, but it’ll be worth it. Figures right now, anything would be worth getting to absolutely
devour the man in front of him. Leant up all gorgeous on the desk after he’s managed to
remove the bottom layer of his clothes. Hand loosely stroking his cock, "Yoongi’s going to
kill us if we make a mess”. Which is very valid. Taehyung takes his time laying his jacket
over a part of the desk. Then lining some of the silk cloth napkins atop of his jacket, before
he quickly brings Jeongguk into his arms. Hands rather greedy in the way they knead at the
supple skin of his ass when he places him on his make shift covering. "We won’t” murmurs
into Jeongguk’s ear. Kissing right behind it before he makes a trail of his mouth down his
chest. Grabs the hem of Jeongguk’s shirt and presses it against his lips, "I hate myself for
even saying this, but I need you to try to be quiet, can you do that, sexy baby?”. The other
nods, eyes round and glistening with desire. Taehyung’s explored a lot more of his erotic
tendencies with Jeongguk in his life. Which is what he blames for the shameless way he
drowns his own fingers in saliva. Smirk dancing along his face when Jeongguk gasps at the
cold pressing into him.
Free hand digging into his hips. He’s got to stop bruising Jeongguk’s perfect skin, but he just
can’t help it. Has to hold onto him in order to prevent from losing complete control of his
sanity. Because everything moves far too quickly. When the tip of his index finger turns into
two slipping inside. Forcing Jeongguk to choke on his shirt and his moans, when Taehyung’s
fucking three fingers into him. Fervent and stretching him just right. But not enough.
Jeongguk didn’t mean to let the fabric fall from his lips but it does, ‘more, Tae, just want
more’ hands slipping where he was holding himself up. Pressing into buttons and levers and
he doesn’t know what any of them do but he doesn’t care. No because Taehyung’s slicking up
his cock and kissing him tenderly. Mouth warm and lips plush against his own. Never failing
to amaze Jeongguk just how needy he can become just from the touch of Taehyung’s tongue
devouring his own. ‘please’ his voice drops. Low and rumbly against their kiss. He can feel
Taehyung sigh as he nods. Hands gentle on Jeongguk’s waist as he slides him just a tad off of
the desk. Allowing him to rest on his elbows instead of his palms. Head falling back to rest
on the cool glass separating this room from the recording booth. Taehyung’s cock slips
passed his rim with just a bit of struggle. Saliva can only do so much, and if it were anyone
else, Jeongguk would never even consider such a thing. But he doesn’t mind the low,
momentary, throb of pain as his body adjusts. Doesn’t mind because Taehyung’s jaw ticks as
he moans.

Large palms tight on Jeongguk’s waist as he pushes in, ‘you’re so insanely sexy, baby. Look
at you’ those long fingers stroking the outlined bones of his hips and digs into them "So
fucking tiny and perfect, shit”. finally bottoms out with the type of moan Jeongguk hears in
his filthiest wet dreams "And so goddamn tight. Fuck.”

"And you told me to be quiet” Jeongguk giggles, but the laughter is less sweet and more
sultry. As if he’s enjoying hearing the way Taehyung’s slipping. Slipping so easily into that
place that Jeongguk loves. Taehyung pulls out and snaps his hips hard. Makes Jeongguk gasp
for air with the pressure and the pleasure when he looks up through his lashes ‘and I'll tell
you again.’ keeps fucking into him.

Jeongguk shouldn’t have ran his mouth. He knows that. But also, he kind of loves the way
Taehyung gets all hot and fervent like this. The way he leans up into his ear with a low growl
‘am I not giving it to you hard enough, pretty baby? allowing you too much time to run your
fucking mouth, is that it?’ the thing is that Taehyung always gives it to him hard enough. But
Jeongguk, just loves the way Taehyung’s voice gravels. Rasping into his ear and the breathy
way he moans into their kiss with each thrust. Hips snapping so hard it’s all he can hear,
melodically blending with his attempt at hushed moans. The more Taehyung talks, the more
turned on he gets. The better it feels when that thick cock slams into him. Making his eyes
roll back with each word from his boyfriends lips. Moaning softly when Taehyung groans,
‘yeah, just like that’ as Jeongguk presses down against him.

Helping increase the friction that’s already about to burst. Feels the heat pooling in his gut
before he can even mutter that he’s close. Feels the wave of satisfaction when Taehyung’s
mouth latches onto the juncture where his neck connects to his shoulder. Teeth barely nipping
at the skin as he grinds out the finish. Jeongguk’s arms loosely clinging around his shoulders
and whimpers soft in his ear. ‘fuck, tae’ the man shakes his head as he pulls out, almost
reluctant. Acts as if he’s going to push back in, but he doesn’t. Gnaws on his lip before
capturing Jeongguk’s lips in a kiss, "I want to take you home so bad. But we’ve got some
more fun to have.”

Jeongguk smiles at him softly. Admiring the delicate way Taehyung cleans between them,
always doting.

No matter where, no matter when, always caring.

Always loving.
"We’ve got time, remember? All weekend?” to which Taehyung grins a bit mischievously,
"And I’ve got a million ways we could spend that time, running through my mind right now”
"Hmm…” Jeongguk hops off of the desk with Taehyung’s help, kissing his cheek before he
bends to grab his pants. Hopping into them in a hurry when they can hear footsteps getting
closer and murmured voices
"Can’t wait to experience them all” with a sultry raise of his brows that makes Taehyung
surge forward to capture his lips again. Much more chaste than all of the other’s they’ve
shared like this.

Hurries to shove the soiled cloths into the bag filled with their leftover food.
Thankful his hyung has a sensitivity to smells because he’s able to spray the air freshener.

Hoping it will mask the heady scent of sex in the room.

"We’ve really got to talk about this borderline exhibitionism kink you may have developed,
my scandalous little thing”

They open the glass booth so that Jeongguk can go get the songs they picked out ready,
Taehyung carefully unlatching the deadbolt before he nonchalantly sits in the chair Yoongi
has pulled up to his mixing table.

Let’s his hands haphazardly push and pull at the various buttons and dials.
To their surprise, Yoongi doesn’t seem suspicious of anything and the rest of their session
goes off without a hitch.

Taehyung didn’t think Jeongguk would be so worn out, but apparently he tapped into a lot of
his social energy for one day. Because he’s snoring when they’re barely ten minutes down the
road. Taehyung figures letting his baby rest is more important than the dinner reservations he
made.

So quietly he calls to cancel them, then he calls Jeongguk’s favorite takeout place for to-go
instead. Has music playing softly and feels, immense comfort, with Jeongguk snoring softly
in his passenger seat. And the thing about this comfort is that Taehyung already /knows that
he is in love.

He had a solid idea of how he imagined their relationship developing.

But each moment they spend together just has him wondering why he wasted anytime.

Not when his heart calls out rather desperately. He’s mentioned it briefly, but sometimes he
wonders if he’s made it clear.
If saying I love you, and devoting time, and buying an extra dresser is enough to make it
clear that Taehyung is here to stay.

Taehyung wants Jeongguk to stay.

Not temporarily, not until he gets bored, forever. He can picture their lives together easily.
When he pulls up to the takeout restaurant, he’s thankful for the employee that runs the food
to his car.

Makes the rest of the drive home with one hand gently on Jeongguk’s thigh.
Taehyung loves him so much.

He really hopes that he does enough to make it clear.

Is constantly thinking of new ways to show Jeongguk that this is all that he wants.

All that he’ll ever want.

They finally reach his new place and he very quietly wakes Jeongguk up. Gentle kiss to his
cheek as he unfastens the other’s seatbelt.

“C’mon, sleepy baby, we’re home”

Jeongguk’s lips curl into the softest smile. /fuck. Taehyung’s heart does a flip.
Once they reach the inside, Taehyung nearly stills at the door.

Frozen in place as he watches shuffle around.

Slips off his shoes and drops his jacket by the door.

Softly pads his way directly to Taehyung’s bedroom as if he’s been here 100 times before.
Taehyung follows quietly. Watches from the door way as Jeongguk gets himself ready for
bed.

Picks clothes from the drawer he filled last night and it would appear that he turns to call out
for Taehyung.

Smile bright when he sees him standing there, “I’m really sleepy”
“I know” he nods and makes his way into the room. Jeongguk’s already gotten into the
pajama shorts, but Taehyung takes the t shirt from his hands.

Kissing the tip of his nose before he slides the shirt over his boyfriends head "Let’s rest. We
can eat when you wake up”
Jeongguk reaches out to intertwine their fingers the very moment that they’re curled together
under the blanket.

Murmurs softly, "Thank you for the best day, babe”

Taehyung’s heart is thudding rapidly "Anytime”

Takes a deep breath, feels Jeongguk inch closer and he just… "Hey baby, you asleep
already?”
“Mm-m.” Jeongguk’s head shakes against his shoulder "What’s wrong?”

“Nothings wrong. I just—“ feels his face burning. It can wait.

It’s not that important….but Jeongguk’s bright eyes shine through the room and look right at
him.

The more Taehyung things about the fact that he’s taking Jeongguk /home, in the morning.
The more he wants to just..inquire.
So finally, he takes a wary breath and says “What do you think the odds are of you spending
the rest of your life by my side?“
Taehyung can barely see the smile but he /does. Feels Jeongguk nuzzle against his neck and
sigh wistfully, "There’s nothing I want more, baby”

And he tries to contain the way he just wants to /kiss him! Jeongguk is sleepy. So he tightens
the hold he has on him.
Pulling Jeongguk as close as possible, “I love you with all of my heart, Jeon Jeongguk. I
really hope you know that I mean it.”

It takes a few, long, drowsy, minutes before he gets a very sleepy, "And I still love you more
than that, Kim Taetae”

Jin-Hyung
Hey! How did things go today?

ME (kth)
It was perfect, we had a perfect day.

Jin-Hyung
Did he sing?? Did you get recordings??

ME (kth)
Hyung is making discs for us. Jeongguk sang and was phenomenal. Yoongi wants to produce
music for him and put it out there but Jeongguk doesn’t want to. Also..um he talked to me
about the guy.,

Jin-Hyung
The guy???

ME (kth)
The one who made him stop singing.

Jin-Hyung
Ahhh…im really happy you were able to get him out of his shell. He’s been hiding in it for so
long. Yoongi will never get him to agree to debuting but getting him to sing at all is
monumental. Seriously, thank you.
ME (kth)
Don’t thank me. Jeongguk did that too. I didn’t do anything. It’s all him. I’m just glad that it’s
me who’s lucky enough to be with him.

Jin-Hyung
He wouldn’t have been anywhere near that studio if not for you.

ME (kth)
Hyung..I'm uh..I'm taking Jeongguk home with me tomorrow.

Jin-Hyung
Is that not where you are now?

ME (kth)
No. I mean home..like to my parents and to visit my grandma.

Jin-Hyung
Is he ready for that?? Are YOU ready for that??

ME (kth)
He says he’s ready. Idk if I'll ever be ready. But I feel more brave with him next to me.

Jin-Hyung
You know I'm only a phone call away.

ME (kth)
Listen. I just wanted to make it clear, so that we’re all on the same page. I’m in love with
Jeongguk, hyung.

Jin-Hyung
OMG
No way
........
Taehyung, tell me something I don’t know.

ME (kth)
I’m trying to say that, I plan on spending the rest of my life loving him. That’s how important
he is to me.

Jin-Hyung
Are you like…asking for his hand in marriage??

ME (kth)
No! I mean..not now, it’s too soon for that. But I just want to make sure my feelings are
transparent.

Jin-Hyung
They are, and they have been. So don’t worry. But for the record, I would’ve given you my
blessing anyway. But I have no issue with you waiting…I'm not ready to fully give up my
 🤨
only child just yet. Although I fear I may have lost him already.
He took a rather large bag of clothes with him this morning… .

ME (kth)
Oh yes. Because the second dresser I bought is for him…just for when he’s here. I planned to
buy him new things, not for him to take what he had at home.

Jin-Hyung
Of all the people in the world, for my son to have his first real adult relationship with..I'm
really glad its you. Goodnight, Taehyung. Text me when you get to your parents safely.

Yoongi Hyung
Two things.
1. After several hours I finally got your discs finished. I’ll drop them off in your mailbox on
my way home so that you have them.
2. If you two EVER so much as THINK about fucking in my studio again, I will have your
heads mounted on the wall as trophies.
Have I made myself clear?
You’re lucky I don’t hand deliver a copy of the audio sex tape you unintentionally made to
Jin myself. Filthy bastards.

When he wakes up from his unintentional car-ride nap, Jeongguk realizes that the gps has
them less than half an hour away from Taehyung’s family property.

Brings the backs of his hands to rub at his eyes with a groan, "M’so sorry for sleeping”
"Why?” Taehyung scoffs, giving him a side glare before he smiles "I don’t mind…i want you
to be well rested anyway. My grandma, she can be a lot if you aren’t mentally prepared.”
"I feel like after that shit with your parents at the hospital…I'm kind of prepared for
anything” offers a sad smile when he reaches over to grab the hand that Taehyung’s been
drumming at the gear shift.

Intertwines their fingers and loves the butterflies that swirl in his chest when Taehyung brings
their joined hands to his lips. "I love you”

"I love you too, Tae. I’m really excited to meet your grandma” his voice softens "Thank you
for bringing me.”

"Thank you for being willing to come. After everything, I wouldn’t blame you for wanting
nothing to do with my family.”

Jeongguk sighs
"I don’t really like the idea of being around your parents. Um, not because I don’t want to or
anything but—I'm not comfortable being around /anyone that would bring harm to you.
That..
.they’re really fucked up Tae. I know that you know that. I’m not trying to like, have you
shun your parents, but it’s concerning the lengths they were willing to go to in order for you
to just follow an arrangement.”

"I know baby, don’t you worry, my grandma is /nothing like them. I promise” they’re pulling
up to the house and Jeongguk feels his stomach go hollow. But Taehyung’s hand squeezes
tighter against his own, "She’s going to love you. I can’t wait.”

Is that my baby bear?” her voice shouts across the garden. Small body rising from her knees
and dropping the tool in her hand "You didn’t tell me you were coming.” she moves, rather
quickly, for an old woman.
In front of him in an instant and cupping Taehyung’s cheeks between her palms "Happy
almost birthday, my handsome boy”. Taehyung hugs her close before turning, eyes finding
Jeongguk’s shy ones almost immediately.

All round and glowing like the radiant man that he is. He doesn’t even say a word because his
grandmother is already reaching a hand out, "Wow, a wonder indeed” smile soft when both of
Jeongguk’s hands clutch onto her own.
Bowing politely as he says "It’s a pleasure to meet you, I'm Jeongguk”

“Jeongguk? Gorgeous.” she takes to cupping his cheeks too "Absolutely gorgeous. I wouldn’t
accept anything less for my grandson.”
looks over his shoulder at Taehyung who appears to be nearly on the verge of tears. "I hope
you boys worked up an appetite on your drive over, i’ve already made supper for tonight. All
of this meat won’t just evaporate.”
Taehyung’s arm curls around Jeongguk’s waist to stop him from going back to the car "We’ll
get the bags later, we’re not staying here.”

"But wait?? where--"

"Shh” Taehyung kisses his ear "Let’s go eat”

The woman spends a solid hour simply recapping the early years of Taehyung’s life.

Embarrassing his boyfriend to the point that Jeongguk feels, overwhelmingly, endeared.

It's finally Taehyung's turn to be in the hot seat.

Especially when she says, "My little hopeless romantic grandson, finally found his /one,
hmm? This is the first time I’m meeting someone and it’s Taehyung’s choice.”
He hears the way Taehyung clears his throat, but he wants to reassure him that Jeongguk
doesn’t mind. They can talk about the past, none of that matters. They’re together now and
that’s surely not going to change. So he says, “I’m lucky to be the one that he chose”
"Now, now” Taehyung scowls “I'm lucky to be yours, pretty baby. Don’t do that.” brings his
chopstick of meat to Jeongguk’s mouth to quiet him.
They’re all laughing about the story of Taehyung’s grandmother finding out he had a crush on
boys for the first time, when the front door swings open. “Mother, could you come hel—”
The man freezes in his tracks. Eyes flitting between Taehyung and Jeongguk and the woman
who has stood to her feet. "Do not enter my home if you’re here for trouble. My grandson has
come to visit me for his birthday. You can leave—”
"I—” he takes a deep breath "I wanted help with the gift we bought Taehyung for his
birthday.” he looks at him softly "Son”

"I don’t want it” Taehyung snarls. Hand tight on Jeongguk’s thigh as he pulls his chair closer.

Taeso scowls, face turning red, "Your mother—”

"We talked about this, haven’t we? I’m done. You’re free to live your lives. I am living mine.
That’s all there is to it. I’m here to visit my grandmother and introduce her to my boyfriend.”
smug grin dancing along his face when he sees the way his father tries to fight off the disgust
on his face “please let us eat in peace. You’ll never know we were here.”
"Hold on!” his grandmother snaps "I am not dead yet, this is still my property, damn it. You
can leave tire marks in the fields for all I care. You are welcome here.” her eyes find
Jeongguk’s easily "I /want you to be here.”
His heart pounds. Throbs against his chest when she smiles "My son was just leaving. Please
stay. I really want to learn more about the boy who’s stolen my bear’s heart.”

The door slams shut, so loud it rattles the door frame.

"Don’t worry about him. He’s just bitter.” she scoffs “I'll never know where he got it from.
My husband was the gentlest soul. He treated your father with so much love.”

"It’s neither of your faults—some people just have wicked wires crossing in their hearts.”
Her smile fades to something sad, “I'm so happy you don’t have that heart, Taehyung-ah.
Your heart only knows how to love. All of your life, it’s all you’ve done is love.”
"I kind of had the most lovely influence in my life” he nudges at her plate, "C’mon. Let’s
return to our meal. Besides, I distinctly remember being promise my favorite jelly-filled
cake”

Jeongguk watches the way both of them smile.

Even if his heart feels the tiniest bit sad. He could feel the anxiety radiating off of Taehyung
when his father entered the home. But it’s all seemed to wash away when his grandmother
giggles
"I was maybe a little positive and a lot of hoping that you’d come. It’s already made. Freshly
cooling on the stove.”

Taehyung wasn’t lying when he said food is his love language. And he certainly inherited it
from the woman in front of them.
Following their meal, Taehyung asks for permission to take Jeongguk out on the farm golf
cart.

His grandmother hands over the keys, easily. Knowing grin dancing on her face “I knew
you’d take him out there, that’s why I didn’t bother fixing the bed in here for you”
Taehyung laughs over his shoulder "We’ll come back for cake after I show him around.”

“No rush, this old lady isn’t going anywhere” she pinches both of their cheeks before waving
them off with a warm smile.
Jeongguk finds it a bit funny, seeing his always professional, prim and proper boyfriend, in
an environment like this.

Driving a golf cart through mud paths and not paying any mind to the fact that he’s probably
splashing up dirt onto their luggages.

“The car doesn’t fit on the path to where I’m taking you.” Taehyung let’s a hand tug on
Jeongguk’s thigh "My grandpa built this place for me when I was a kid and fought with my
dad all of the time. I still don’t think my parents even know it’s out here”
“How could they not know?” Jeongguk is unsure. He felt comforted almost immediately with
the way Taehyung’s grandmother snapped at his father.

But if he’s honest he wants them to enjoy their weekend together. Run-in’s with Taehyung’s
dad we’re really not in his plans.
“Because they stay on the other side of the farm. They live on the property because it’s our
families, none of them that live in my parents house have any desire to explore out here.” The
path they’re coming up on is narrow, to the point
That Jeongguk questions if even their cart will fit. But it does, barely. Glides along the
wooden planks with ease. Coming out passed the wooded area and finding a tiny pond and
another house almost identical to his grandmothers, but smaller.
“Some kids got treehouses growing up, I got a house in the trees I guess” Taehyung’s eyes
light up when they park the cart right in front of the place.

Walking around so that he can take Jeongguk’s hand and guide him into the place.
But first he kisses him.

Twists him around until Jeongguk’s back rests against the door and he uses his grip on the
other’s hand to hold him in place. Takes his time as he lets his lips press tentatively over
Jeongguk’s.
Presses multiple kisses into his lips until they’re both smiling into the kiss. “What was that
for?” Jeongguk asks shyly, when Taehyung finally pulls away and kisses his nose.

“I’ve never shared this place, with anyone. Ever. It makes me so happy to share it with you.”
“We’re a lot of each other’s ‘firsts’” Jeongguk says quietly. Almost under his breath, because
Taehyung pulls a small key from his pocket and opens the door.

Guiding him inside with arms around his waist, hugging from behind, “I really like that about
us”
If he were able to peek inside the mind of a young Taehyung, that loves art and jazz music,
running away from his strict parents—this is the exact type of hideaway he would envision.
From the multicolored tapestries hanging over the small windows. The giant fort of
excessively large pillows in place of a bed to sleep on.

The tiny boombox with a plethora of tapes and cd’s sprawled out that clearly haven’t been
touched in years.

It’s so different in comparison to the way Taehyung keeps his adult home, yet, it somehow
carries the same vibe.

Jeongguk feels just as comfortable in this small mini home as he feels in Taehyung’s brand
new place with multiple bedrooms and a living room that’s larger than this entire little cabin.
Even more so, when Taehyung pulls him down to lay backwards on the pillows.

"What did teenage Taehyung do, with a place like this all to himself?” Jeongguk turns over
with mischief panting his eyes.

Taehyung tucking a strand of hair behind his ear as he giggles "Either listening to music,
painting, or imagining being able to be with someone like this”
He takes a sharp breath when his index finger traces Jeongguk’s jawline, lightly pulling his
face forward so that their lips can brush easily.

“teenage Taehyung didn’t know what to do with all of the feelings he had inside. He
struggled with them for a long time.” kisses Jeongguk softly before smiling so wide.
Eyes crinkling and Jeongguk feels so warm when Taehyung says "You are something out of
my teenage self’s wildest dreams. I’ll never stop telling you how lucky I am to have you”
“I'm sure you’ll stop eventually” Jeongguk leans into him further, climbing on top of him so
easily.

Just to be closer.

Closer.

Closer.

Wants to feel Taehyung as close as possible. Wants those palms to stretch along the length of
his back and hold him in place.

Jeongguk sighs "You’ll probably forget all about things like this when we’re old and gray,
we’ll have made too many memories by then” Taehyung’s laugh is soft, settles between them
like a breath of fresh air. Shakes his head in disagreement.

Taehyung knots his fingers in the back of Jeongguk’s hair and tugs him in for a kiss that’s
firmer than the others, eyes fluttering open to look at Jeongguk with an all encompassing
warmth "No matter our age, I think I'll always remember you this way, pretty baby”.

Jin-Hyung
Hey, you guys are staying home tonight, right?
ME (kth)
Yes we’re staying. Is everything okay?

Jin-Hyung
Just some unexpected weather for this time of year. Wanted to make sure you were staying
put.

ME (kth)
Oh, I saw something about that, yeah we’re here for the night.

Jin-Hyung
Okay…well, Jeongguk doesn’t like thunder…it’s more the lightning actually. He gets really
anxious and won’t be able to sleep.

ME (kth)
Well shit, I hate storms too. Kidding..I'll take care of him.

Jin-Hyung
I know you will. Enjoy your night. And don’t tell him I told you anything.

After returning to his grandmother’s house to enjoy the cake she made, Taehyung is coming
to the unfortunate realization, that his plans of having Jeongguk to himself in his hideaway
tonight—will just not work. Not if a storm is coming in.
Which, according to Seokjin and by the sounds of the news tv station that is serving as white
noise behind them, it most certainly is on the way.
They’re all tidying up the kitchen. Taehyung preparing trash bags to throw outside, while
Jeongguk sorts through the piles of photos his grandmother has brought.
A loud crackle of thunder sounds. Makes all the hairs on the back of Taehyung’s neck rise as
he hurries back inside and away from the lightning.
Brings himself behind Jeongguk almost immediately. Arms slipping over his shoulders to hug
him close and presses a kiss to his ear, "We might need to stay in the main house tonight.”
"I was hoping if I kept my mouth shut the storm would pass right over us” his grandmother
sighs "Really don’t want to go around my no-good son. But our safety is important and it’s
been a long time since your grandpa built us this home.”
her eyes move right over Taehyung and look at Jeongguk instead.

“Taeso will not bother the two of you. I’ve already threatened to take everything he owns
from under him and gift it to my bear. He won’t dare say a word.” her smile is genuine when
she stands from the table.
Placing all of the photos back into the metal box. "Let’s gather up and head over before the
downpour begins.”

Jeongguk and Taehyung both are seated in Taehyung’s car, waiting for his grandmother to
join them when the younger clears his throat. “Tae—I uh..”
a warm hand slips in his own for comfort, bringing it to his lips with a smile "I know, baby,
don’t worry. We’ll be plenty safe, and I'll hold you all night if I need to.”
"How do you” Jeongguk rolls his eyes with a huff "Did dad seriously tell you that I'm scared
of storms?”
"He cares about you, silly baby, don’t be upset” Taehyung kisses the back of his hand one
more time before he steps out to open the door for his grandma.
And Jeongguk doesn’t think he’ll ever get tired of the way Taehyung smiles at him.

Even when he uses his father for secret intel.

Jeongguk was genuinely surprised that they managed to get all the way to Taehyung’s old
bedroom without being stopped. Lays back on the plush mattress while Taehyung uses the
restroom and can’t help it when his brain sends thoughts intrusively.
Forcing him to imagine what Taehyung’s life would be like if he had married Marisol or..
really.. any woman for that matter. Thinking about the fact that he could come to his
childhood home and not feel anxious about it.
Wouldn’t have to fight with his father because everything would go to plan.

Wonders if sometimes Taehyung thinks about it.

About how easy his life could be. Oh, but then before he even realizes it, Taehyung is
flopping onto the mattress next to him. Bringing Jeongguk into his side and peppering kisses
all over his cheeks. The lights flicker when a particularly loud boom of thunder roars, but
Taehyung is soothing him before he can even worry over it.

Hands warm on his face and lips soft against his own, "There’s a back up generator, we won’t
lose power. You’re safe” nuzzles their noses together and kisses him again, "You’ll always be
safe with me, my baby, don’t worry”

And Jeongguk thinks that it may be true that Taehyung’s life would be easier if he had
followed his father’s plans.
But he probably wouldn’t smile as bright. He probably wouldn’t be able to do things like this.

When he scoots down and rests his head against Jeongguk’s stomach, fingers tracing the
ridges of his abs because he fucking loves them.
He /certainly wouldn’t be able to satiate his slight oral fixation every now and then.

Because Taehyung’s gotten rather comfortable, nosing at Jeongguk’s belt buckle and
mouthing at his cock at the most random times.

Looking up through his thick lashes with a sly grin when he says, "Just needed to get a taste
of you”. and the problem with Taehyung having one of those moments, /right now/ is that
when he’s finished Jeongguk off and the younger is making to climb into his lap.
Eager to sit on his most /favorite chair, a thundering boom rattles the house so hard that a
canvas falls from the wall.

Jeongguk’s fingers digging into Taehyung’s shoulders as he buries his face in his neck. But
Taehyung—god, taehyung.
Grinds up into him slowly. Gently. Coaxing him through the pleasure and his fear with ease,
"I’ve got you. Remember? I’ve always got you.”

When they’ve finished making an unexpected mess, Taehyung handles him with the most
care.
Lighting candles on each of his night stands. Turning on Jeongguk’s favorite marvel movie at
a low volume, just enough to help drown out the noise from the storm.
Arm wrapping tight around his bare middle and kisses all over his neck and shoulder, "I love
you” he whispers softly. Eyes shining when Jeongguk murmurs a quiet, ‘love you’ in return.
Tracing his index finger over the lines of Taehyung’s palm.
"What did you think of my grandma’s cake? It’s the best desert ever, right?”

His giggle is soft "It really was amazing, I don’t understand how she gets the jelly to keep it’s
shape when you cut the cake”
"I don’t either. I’ll never understand” shakes his head and uses his hand to tug Jeongguk even
closer.

As they both slowly drift to sleep, Jeongguk knows for sure, that Taehyung was never meant
to follow the path set out for him.
No, Taehyung. Perfect, lovely, Taehyung, was always meant to end up right here, with
Jeongguk in his arms.

Taehyung would have liked to get a full night of sleep, but he knew he wouldn’t be able to.

Not with the weather and the fact that they’re currently sleeping under the same roof as his
psychotic father.
There was no chance of him sleeping through the night.

It’s around 2 in the morning when he wakes up and decided to brave a walk to the kitchen for
some water.
Jeongguk almost always wakes up for some in the night and he forgot to grab it before they
went to bed.

He’s in the fridge with two bottles in hand when he hears the clearing of a throat that he’s
heard so many times in his life.
“I don’t want to argue, we’re leaving in the morning.” He sighs, whispering quietly.

“I don’t want to argue either..” his father says. But the red glaze over his eyes tells Taehyung
that he’s undoubtedly been drinking.
“Can you just make me understand?” His voice isn’t booming like it usually is. It’s low and
cracked "Where did I go wrong?”

“I don’t know what you mean.”

His father looks away in anger “I don’t want to hate it. I don’t even know /why I hate it.”
His fist clenches against the table "But seeing you taking that boy everywhere as if you’re
newlyweds. It makes me sick to my stomach. I didn’t raise you this way”

“You’re right” Taehyung tosses the water bottle in his hand with a laugh
“Because you don’t /raise someone to have a certain sexuality. No matter what you’d have
liked for me, appa, who I love was never your decision to make.” He begins to walk away,
feeling sure of himself in the face of his father for the first time "And it never will be”

He’s only a few feet down the hallway before he sees Jeongguk standing there. Leaned up
against the wall with a sad look on his face.

And Taehyung fucking /hates that.

This was the one thing he didn’t want. He did not want to bring Jeongguk anywhere he
wouldn’t feel welcome.
Grips both water bottles with one hand while his other hand cups onto the side of his
boyfriend’s neck, pulling him in so that their lips can connect easily.

Heart pounding with just how satisfying pliant, Jeongguk can be. Mouth falling open easily.
“I didn’t mean to eavesdrop…I heard you get up and wanted to follow for water but—“

“Hey..” Taehyung shushes him softly "You are welcome anywhere I am. You don’t need to
explain yourself”

Kisses him again. Makes sure their lips smack. Wants it to be loud.
Wants the sound of their lips colliding to echo through this hallway.

Wants the soft puffs of air Jeongguk let’s put to filter all the way to the kitchen.
And if nothing else, he wants his voice to be heard.

Speaks up so that he knows it will.

“told you awhile ago, I’m gonna fight for you. For this. For us…for as long as I live.”
He was worried his emotions would cause his voice to crack, but it doesn’t. Remains strong
when he says “I love you, my baby. Nothing and no one can ever change that.”

Taehyung’s grandmother bid them goodbye with the warmest of hugs.

Packaged up the leftover cake to travel safely when she smiles “please come back and see me
soon.”

And he didn’t want to break her heart, but he doesn’t have to because Jeongguk says "We
will! I promise”
It’s a few minutes down the road when he says, "You really wouldn’t mind coming back
here?”

Chances a look at his side to see Jeongguk flipping through what looks like a stack of
pictures his grandmother must’ve snuck into his hands.
“I definitely want to see your grandma again and I also wouldn’t mind christening your
childhood hideout” brows wiggling in a way that makes Taehyung nearly twitch in his pants.

But before he can say anything Jeongguk sneezes.

Three sneezes in a row.

And Taehyung called it this morning when the tip of Jeongguk’s nose and ears were rosier
than normal.

But the younger insisted he /doesn’t get sick.

But the way his eyes water and his sinuses seem to be acting up prove otherwise.

“I dunno pretty baby, you might no be cut out for farm life, it’s been 24 hours and your
allergies are a mess”
He can feel the heat of Jeongguk’s scowl before his boyfriend groans “I’m not sick. It’s just
sniffles, Taetae. Everyone gets them from time to time.”

The sniffles, as it turned out, we’re much more than just sniffles.

And no amount of Jeongguk protesting that he’s fine would be capable of convincing
Taehyung otherwise.
Especially not when he left home just long enough to go get some medicines and soups from
the store, only to find Jeongguk fast asleep on the couch with a raging fever when he
returned.

Jin-Hyung
I’ve texted my son about twenty times. Lia has too. Are you both alive??

ME (kth)
Ahhh, yes we’re fine! Jeongguk has come down with something. I’ve been preoccupied with
taking care of him and he’s been in and out of sleep. I’ll have him call when he’s awake for
longer than fifteen minutes.

Jin-Hyung
Do we need to drop off medicine? Or food? Do you need anything? Are you home???

ME (kth)
Yes we made it home this morning. I’ve already gotten meds and plenty of foods for him.
We’re okay over here. Just gonna try to get him all better before sending him home.

When Jeongguk wakes up, he panics. It’s Taehyung’s birthday. It’s Taehyung’s birthday and
he’s sick. It’s Taehyung’s birthday and he has to go pick up the flowers and the desserts that
he ordered. It’s Taehyung’s birthday and— "Ah, ah, ah…lay back down, precious baby”
“Tae—“ he whines, tears filling his eyes “I’m fine, really. It’s..it’s already morning?? Did I
sleep the entire day away? I have things to do!”

Taehyung gently presses him back onto the pillows.

Rings out the cool rag he brought into the bucket and begins wiping down Jeongguk’s sweat
drenched forehead and neck and chest.

“There is nothing you need to do right now that’s more important than resting and getting
better”
He cries. A full on sob as Taehyung continues running the soothing cloth along your skin,
“I’m so sorry” he whispers “I didn’t mean to ruin your birthday”

Taehyung’s jaw drops before he glances at the date on his watch.

“Would you look at that…” smiling softly "Another year older and I really couldn’t care less
right now”

“But I care—I had /plans”

“My sweet baby, don’t you know my only birthday wish was to have you next to me?”
he doesn’t remember falling asleep again, figured it must’ve been while he cried.

But when he wakes up this time it’s to Taehyung gently pulling his blankets off of him,
"C’mon angel, let’s get you bathed and eat some dinner before you sleep through another
night”
It’s been a really long time since the last time he was sick.

Although, the last time, was a lot less of doting affection and a lot more of his mother forcing
a thermometer under his tongue every hour.

He’ll never tell her, but he definitely prefers Taehyung’s method of care
Especially when he sinks to his chin in the warm bath water and Taehyung brings a wet cloth
to dampen his hair.

Humming softly as he works a conditioner into the locks of Jeongguk’s hair.

Maybe being sick isn’t so bad.

Although, his brain is cruel and reminds him once again that it’s Taehyung’s birthday. Yet the
man has spent the entire day taking care of him.

His breathing increases as he tries to stop himself from crying again.

Taehyung using another softer cloth to gently wash at the skin that’s available to him.
Pressing a soft kiss to his forehead when he’s finished.

“Do you want to eat in the kitchen? Or in bed?”

“Kitchen is ok, need to move around” pouts his lips unconsciously because he wants
Taehyung to give him a /real kiss.

But he knows better than to ask and spread his germs.

So instead he just takes in every bit of Taehyung baby-ing him. Loves the hands that run
through his wet hair. Gently scraping and massaging his scalp while Jeongguk brushes his
teeth.

“I wish your fever would break” Taehyung says softly

Jeongguk takes his time eating the soup Taehyung prepared. And it’s not at all because
Taehyung pulls a chair up right next to him.

Hand brushing his forehead every so often and bringing the straw from his glass of water to
his lips, "Are you still feeling sleepy?”
“It’s not that I’m sleepy, my body feels exhausted” he looks up at his boyfriend with a smile
so sad Taehyung’s heart actually aches “I still feel like I’ve ruined your day.”

He shakes his head immediately.

Hands cupping Jeongguk’s cheeks and leaning in to kiss his nose, "You could never ruin
anything for me, I love you too much.”

“I love you too” Even if he still feels otherwise, his heart is a bit happier.
The next time he wakes up, it’s to relief. Jeongguk isn’t dripping in sweat this time. Taehyung
doesn’t even have to wipe down his skin, even if guiltily, he wanted to.

Genuinely enjoys taking care of his baby to the fullest extent. Never getting tired of spoiling
him.
But he is beyond elated to find that Jeongguk’s fever, at least appears, to finally be cracking.

It’s New Year’s Eve and if nothing else, he’d at least like them to be able to sit on the back
porch and watch the fireworks from a distance.

Though his fever has lessened, it’s still there just barely and Jeongguk doesn’t end up
dragging himself out of bed until the afternoon.

Freshens up and heads to find Taehyung in the living room, feet propped up with a book in
hand.

And here’s the thing…Jeongguk knows he still shouldn’t kiss Taehyung. But it’s now been
nearly 48 hours of no kisses.

He’s dying.

So, reluctantly, he pads his way into the living room. Grabs the book from Taehyung’s hands
gently and moving it to the side.

Crawls into his lap with the blanket over his shoulders barricading them into the sofa
together.
Jeongguk buries his face in Taehyung’s neck with a soft whine.

Taehyung’s fingers gently glide up and down Jeongguk’s bare back, "Hi, sleeping beauty,
how you feeling?”
“Feeling like I miss you”

“Miss me? I’ve been by your side this whole time, baby.” Taehyung pouts, concerned. But
Jeongguk’s pout is even stronger.

Leans in to let their noses brush "But not the way I’m used to. I miss /you, Tae.”
“Mmm is that so?” Taehyung hums, but moves his mouth away. Sly smile on his face.

Successfully drawing out a pitiful whimper, “Taehyung..please”

“Please, what? Im not sure what you’re asking me for?”

Jeongguk’s fingers, rather weakly, clutch onto Taehyung’s sides. Pushing himself down
against him with a breathy gasp, "You know”

“Ahh, I don’t think that’s a good idea, you’re ill, sexy baby.”
“I’m feeling a bit better and…and why does that mean you can’t touch me. You’re just as
likely to get sick from cuddling me in bed while I sleep as you are to touch me.”

Taehyung chuckles a bit, hands fitting themself over Jeongguk’s hips just wear they belong,
“I’m not worried about getting sick myself, darling. Im more concerned about your abilities
to be a good boy and my ability to be gentle.”

“You don’t need to be gentle and I’ll be good—“ he’s begging, eyes round and glossy “I’ll be
so good, Tae-babe, please”

“Mmm, that’s exactly what I’m worried of” the man pinches Jeongguk’s chin between his
fingers with a breathy groan "You’re almost too pliant like this, baby. I’m gonna lose my
damn mind.”

“But..” Jeongguk’s nearly in tears. He’s so horny. His dick aching in his soft briefs as he ruts
against Taehyung. Taehyung whose eyes are dark with lust, but keeps himself together. “It’s
been days. And it was your birthday. Taetae I’m gonna lose my mind and I already barely
have it.”

Taehyung’s finger brushes over his lip. One of Jeongguk’s most favorite habits. Loves when
Taehyung’s index finger threatens to press past the seam of his lips. Except this time, rather
than waiting, he opens his mouth immediately. Sucking on the digit and whining when
Taehyung yanks his hand away. “I don't remember telling you to do that, pretty baby. You just
begged me to let you be good and your instinct at the slightest opportunity is to be bad?”

“I—“ Jeongguk isn’t able to speak because Taehyung presses two fingers against his tongue.
Teeth caught on his bottom lip as he takes a deep breath.

“If you want anything from me, I’m going to need you to behave. Understand?”

He nods, eyes rolling back from the satisfaction of laving his tongue around Taehyung’s
fingers. Fuck, his cock is leaking. “How you feeling, sweet thing?”

“Golden.” their word. Holy shit Jeongguk is buzzing with excitement and arousal.

“Mmmm, you are so very golden, aren’t you?” Taehyung chuckles, replacing his fingers with
his mouth. Tongue moving in and out of Jeongguk’s mouth with ease. Soft moans escaping
between both of them when he speaks lowly, "Fuck, this is exactly what I was afraid of”

And Jeongguk’s confused. He’s not doing anything wrong. He’s being good. He’s being so
good. He’s— "Ngh-oh fuck” chokes on his moan. Taehyung grinds up against him. Finger
slipping inside before Jeongguk even realized his hands were working at his ass.

Didn’t even acknowledge the fact that Taehyung was removing his bottoms, too caught up in
the way Taehyung’s mouth devoured his own.

“You’re too—“ Taehyung’s teeth sink into the skin of his neck, nipping lightly and bruising
Jeongguk’s skin the way he hasn’t in awhile “—want to fuck you so bad, my golden baby.”
“Please, please.” Normally, Jeongguk acts out a bit more. It’s probably a change of pace for
Taehyung, for him to beg so easily. For him to bounce off of the fingers that have curled
inside himself. For him to not throw a fit when Taehyung teases his rim. Making him work
for every bit of penetration that he gets.

“How am I supposed to not ravish you, when you’re taking everything I give you so well?”
Taehyung adjusts them with ease. Eyes twinkling with desire when he gently adjusts their
position. Moving Jeongguk to his back and slipping between his legs without pause.

Hand tightly gripping one of Jeongguk’s thighs to secure it around his waist as he grinds
against him. “This is only because you asked nicely.” Puts just the head of his cock in and
smirks when Jeongguk is already moaning. Tears threatening to spill from the sweet relief of
getting exactly what he wanted, "And this” Taehyung grunts, fucking his entire length in with
a guttural moan that makes Jeongguk’s skin ignite "Is because you’re so good for me”.

His head falls back in a different kind of pleasure. He feels dizzy. Unable to bring himself to
focus on his breathing as he usually would. Too lost on the hand Taehyung has secured
around the side of his neck, tightening with each thrust and making him salivate. Didn’t even
realize how sloppy it was until Taehyung’s thumb reached out to wipe the drool from his
chin, ‘fucking hell’ brings the thumb to his own mouth with a devilish smile. Before he lets
that same hand curl around Jeongguk’s neglected cock.

Stroking it in time with the harsh thrusts of his hips. “Baby..” he speaks warmly. Voice
soothing against Jeongguk’s ear, where he presses a kiss "You with me?”

He nods, can hardly mutter anything other than the moans that are being ripped from his
throat. "Talk to me, darling. are you feeling good? Hmm?” Chuckles against his ear when he
feels Jeongguk’s dick twitch in his hand "Am I giving you what you wanted?” A sharp
breath. The heaving of Jeongguk’s chest has gotten erratic. "Fucking you how you like?”
Taehyung’s teeth catch onto the silver hoop dangling from his ear. Hips snapping harder and
harder. “Speak”.

“Tae—ahng” tears stream uncontrollably. He can’t speak he can’t. But he has to or he won’t
get to cum and he wants to cum so badly. He needs to. “So good, everything, I missed you so
bad-nnn” back arching as desperately bucks his hips into Taehyung’s hand. The bounce in
perfect harmony with the cock that’s pounding into him. Getting fucked stupid to the point
that his words fade into useless incoherent babbles. “Cum-pl-pleanghh”

“Mmm” Taehyung kisses him. Mouths hot and open against each other. The hand around his
cock stroking quicker. The hips fucking into him fervently. Taehyung moans into his lips
"Such a good boy, aren’t you?” Jeongguk sighs into the kiss. Breathing staggered. His
stomach hot with arousal, teetering so close. Just waiting and waiting, body burning. When
Taehyung finally whispers "Cum for me, pretty baby”

Jeongguk almost falls asleep.

/almost.

But Taehyung keeps him awake by whispering praises in his ear as he gets him comfortable.
"Love you” he whispers "Love you so much”
To which Taehyung’s gentle, soothing laughter makes his heart flutter, "You’ve no idea how
much I love you”

And he does end up taking one more nap. Waking up just /barely before it is time to bring in
the new year.
Jeongguk’s head rested on Taehyung’s shoulder as they sit on the patio furniture, gaze fixated
on the sky that’s moments from being decorated all colors of the rainbow.

“Do you make New Years wishes, Tae?”

“Not typically. Do you?”

Jeongguk nods, fighting off a fatigued yawn “tradition”

“Hmmm…and what did you wish for last year? Did it come true?”

Jeongguk is quiet for a bit.

“I’ve grown a lot this year…” is what he chooses to say “Sometimes, the things we think we
want end up not being what we need.”

“Is that so?” Taehyung looks into his eyes with the warmest smile "And what will you wish
for this year?”
His heart calms. There’s no hesitation at all when he says "For you to always love me this
way”

And he wasn’t sure how Taehyung would respond, but the gentle way he speaks "That’s
guaranteed, pretty baby. Why don’t you use your wish on something else?”
The clock of this year has nearly run out. Jeongguk doesn’t have any other wishes. Thinks
about all of the things in his life and he could not possibly ask for more.

So he just leans against Taehyung even more.

And when the fireworks of the new year begin to pop off, the hand that holds his chin is
impossibly soft.

Pulling him in with ease, "Here’s to the new year, my love”

Jeongguk whispering just before their lips touch "And to every year after that”
 Can i go, where you go?
Chapter Summary

can we always be this close?

Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes

ME (jjk)
Taehyung.

T 🤎
Hi, baby. Everything okay?

ME (jjk)
I told my father I would be going to your house after work…and he told me no. He told me
no because apparently YOU told him not to let me come over. You are approximately ten
minutes too late on explaining this to me.

T 🤎
I just have some things to take care of. I promise it’s nothing. You can come over Thursday
night.

ME (jjk)
Thursday? As in THREE days from now?

T 🤎
Yes. What’s wrong?? Why are you upset?

ME (jjk)
Why are you avoiding me? And talking to me through my dad?

T 🤎
Woatter what because I knew you’d ask to come over eventually and then we’d be having the
conversation that we’re having right now.

ME (jjk)
Well I don’t want to talk to you.

T 🤎
Baby c’mon…don’t be upset with me.
ME (jjk)
Yh well I feel stupid and dont want to feel this way so ill text you later.

T 🤎
Why do you feel stupid?? baby??

ME (BOYS IN LUV GC)

I need to be talked off the mf’n ledge. Why the hell is taehyung refusing to see me for three
days after we just had the most amazing weekend together. I can’t think of what I did wrong.
I’m so upset and about to block him on everything.

Jiminie-hyung
Woah, what do you mean by refusing to see you? Is he busy?

Joon-hyung
And let’s take a deep breath please. You are not blocking the literal love of your life.

ME (BOYS IN LUV GC)

Apparently. But he wont tell me with what. Idk I just feel so stupid rn.
Like it felt so good. Like we finally kind of solidified our relationship with him taking me
home and we had some really deep conversations…and now this just feels like a step
backwards. Him refusing to see me and also refusing to tell me why.

Hobi-hyung
We’re not self destructing anymore!! You said it yourself you had an amazing time. Why are
you assuming this is something bad??

Jiminie-hyung
What if he’s planning to propose to you!!!!

ME (BOYS IN LUV GC)

We can’t really get married here so I doubt it :/ im not trying to self destruct. It’s just very
strange of him to suddenly not want me around.

Joon-hyung
Did he say, “Jeongguk, I dont want you near me?”

ME (BOYS IN LUV GC)

I don’t like that you guys are on his side…..I'm sad and horny rn…
Jiminie-hyung
Sad and horny doesn’t mean your boyfriend (who is insanely fucking whipped for you) is
avoiding you or up to no good.

Hobi-hyung
Don’t you trust him babe?

ME (BOYS IN LUV GC)

Ugh…of course I do :(

Jin-Hyung
Taehyung. Please just tell my son that you caught his illness and don’t want to give it back to
him. He’s currently blaring billie eilish from his room and screaming the lyrics through tears.

ME (kth)
Hyung if I tell him I'm sick he’ll demand to come over. He needs to stay healthy for work!!
He just got offered a promotion and big things are coming his way.

Jin-Hyung
Don’t get me wrong, I agree that he needs to be healthy. But he genuinely thinks you don’t
want to see him.
And that too…all of this after he came home bouncing off the walls with excitement bragging
about how lovely your week was together…he’s feeling confused and heart broken right now.

ME (kth)
Oh my god, you’re right. I’ll call him😭
"Honey..” Lia has a knowing smile on her lips as she sips on her cup of tea "Why do I feel
like you’re meddling in our baby’s relationship?”

“I'm not meddling…just checking on my bestfriend.” he gives her a side eyed glance that she
sees right through.
setting her mug down on the table and allowing her arms to wrap around her husbands broad
shoulders, voice soft and sweet in his ear, "I remember, a certain someone, telling the boys to
‘leave me out of it’…hmm? is that someone now inserting himself??”
Seokjin tilts his head back to look up at Lia’s smiling face, hands grasping onto hers and
pulling his wife in for a gentle kiss, "Can’t help it. don't like hearing my son sing break up
songs when less than 24 hours ago he was planning a honeymoon in his mind”
her giggle is soft when she pulls away "The back and forth of emotions comes with new
territory, love. these are the funny moments they will look back on when they’re old and gray
like us.”

Seokjin squawks, absolutely appalled “I am /not old and gray”

she squeezes his cheeks with a pouty face "Oh I know, my young forever handsome man”

"Now you’re patronizing me” he glares but she only winks before twisting on her heels to
leave the room.

"You’ll always be the most handsome man in the whole wide world to me, love”

Jeongguk knows somewhere deep down in his heart that his friends are right, but the part of
him thats too busy sulking is winning.

Head leaned back over the edge of his mattress, he just doesn't understand how hard it is for
Taehyung to give him /something.
he could say, ‘im super busy with work’ or ‘working on a surprise you cant see’ or ‘i have
plans with yoongi’ or pretty much anything other than ‘im busy see ya in three days’ it feels
cruel to leave him hanging like this.he ignores the incessant ringing of his phone because he
doesn't feel like getting lecture by Jimin or Hoseok or Namjoon about his habits of sabotage.

This isnt his fault!!!

But on the fifth new incoming call, Jeongguk decides to get up and at least tell them,
respectfully to let him wallow in self pity — only to find that the owner of all of his missed
calls is Taehyung.

And he stares at the contact image as it rings.looks at the capital T with the little heart and the
gorgeous picture Jeongguk stole from Taehyung’s socials forever ago.

The call drops and he groans. throws himself back onto his bed, face buried into the pillow
when it rings /again.
"Hello.”

"Finally” Taehyung coughs and it sounds horrible. sounds like hes about to cough up an
entire lung "Ive been trying to call you for half an hour, pretty baby, what are you up to?”
"Tae-babe, are you sick?” Jeongguk’s already standing, grabbing a hoodie and his favorite
red scarf to throw on "Why do you sound so horrible? I got you sick didn’t i.”

“YOU didnt get me sick, darling. we both must’ve caught something.”

"I was calling to explain thats why I didnt want you to come over, I’m sorry for letting you
think it was anything other than that. I really didnt think you’d worry the way that you did.”

"Of course id worry if you dont want to see me” his voice is too soft
Taehyung’s heart throbs at the sadness in Jeongguk’s tone "I love you. you not wanting to see
me and not saying why is going to make me worry.”

"I always want to see you, it was never me not wanting to see you.” Taehyung sighs “I just
didnt want you to catch the bug again.”
"Well thats not you decision to make, is it?” Jeongguk’s made his way to the living room
where his parents are watching some show. pulls the phone from his mouth "I need a ride to
Tae’s please please please”

"I—“ seokjin huffs but Jeongguk rolls his eyes

"Were on the phone now, I dont care that he doesnt want to get me sick, I'm going over there.
I'll take the train if I need to.”

"No, no, I'll drive you.” Lia is already slipping her shoes on by the door "Lets hurry, my new
episode comes on in half an hour”
“Baby, dont—“ comes through the speaker. and Jeongguk really wants to yell at him. but
instead he,

"O— i— sor— ca— hear— on—wa—“ hanging up the phone and giggling to himself when
hes done.
“Jeongguk.” his father is snorting from the front seat "Did you really just pretend to have
connection issues?”

"I sure did” hes smiling from ear to ear. if Taehyung thought hed get away with this, he was
surely mistaken.

the door is already unlocked when he arrives, pushing it open with his elbow because his
arms are full with everything he picked up at the convenience stop on the way over.

"Baby—“ Taehyung sighs, soft smile when he leans up from where he was laying on the sofa
"Dont even try to tell me how this is unnecessary and blah blah blah, this is exactly what you
did for me and I am surely returning the favor.”

Sets everything on the table. takes the time to vase the flowers he picked up.
they may not be as extravagant as the ones he planned to pick up for Taehyung’s birthday, but
he just knows his boyfriend will love the varying shades of purple and the way they contrast
with the greens around them.
leans on his knees next to where Taehyung’s head is resting with a smile, lips pressing to his
warm forehead "We take care of the people we love.”

"I know we do, but im fine. certainly not as sick as you were. its mostly the cough thats
killing me.”
"Well good thing I have plenty of teas to make and hot broths to soothe your throat.” his
smile is bright when he reaches a hand up to hold Taehyung’s "Sorry for being all dramatic”

But his boyfriend shushes him immediately, lips against his hand, "You dont need to
apologize”
"I was kind of a jerk, babe” eyes round when he looks at Taehyung who’s smiling impossibly
wide for someone who doesnt feel good

"Yeah and I was too. we both know that we need to talk things out and chose otherwise,
we’re both at fault.”
theyre seated at the dining table, sipping on the warm soup Jeongguk heated up when
Taehyung nudges their feet together. "For the record, I love your dramatics. its one of the
things that makes you, you.”

And noone has ever made Jeongguk feel more validated than Taehyung.

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ME (BOYS IN LUV GC)

[image attached]
Guess who finally got his own car???? Surprise!! It’s me!!!

Jiminie-hyung
So you’re our designated driver tomorrow night? 🤨
Joon-hyung
I mean..it only sounds fair after all of the rides we’ve given.
Hobi-hyung
OMG I LOVE UR CAR BABE IM SO PROUD OF YOU

ME (BOYS IN LUV GC)

Taehyung will be our designated driver tomorrow thank you very much…but I guess I will let
him drive my car.

“C’mon bunny, your dad and Taehyungie are waiting for us to pick them up.”

It feels a bit strange being the one doing the driving, but it also feels like an important step.

A step that might show his boyfriend that he’s ready for /more big steps.
especially considering tomorrow is his birthday, which means another year older, which
means he should probably officially move out of his parents house soon.

And he definitely, doesn’t feel like living alone.

and well, Hoseok has recently moved in with Yoongi and Jeongguk isnt bitter at all about
how much quicker they seem to be moving… not at all.

"Whats got your wheels turning like crazy?” Lia asks when they park outside of the shopping
plaza
he looks around to make sure Taehyung and his father arent close to getting in the car when
he says, "Do you think Taehyung and I are at a dead end?”

"Huh?” her face contorts, she almost looks angry?? she /never gets angry with him. "Why
would you think that?”
"I dunno, I just feel like our relationship is progressing very slowly…compared to—“

"Ah, ah, ah—I'm going to stop you right there my little over thinking bunny. do not compare.
our lives and our paths are not a straight line.”
"There is no right or wrong timing and no such thing as too fast or too slow. you will only
reach a dead end if you /want there to be one. is that what you want?” her brow raises and she
pinches his cheek

"Of course not!” but he doesnt get to explain further

because the backseat doors are opening and the men they were waiting on climb in the car.

Taehyung leaning up around the seat to kiss his cheek and place a smoothie in his hand
"Sorry if youve been waiting on us”
"We havent been” Lia answers sweetly. scolding Seokjin for not bringing /her a smoothie.
(even if she told him she didn’t want anything. he still should’ve bought one!)

And Jeongguk thinks maybe he can use liquid courage tomorrow to tell Taehyung whats on
his mind.
Taehyung is already off to a good start of taking the sour thoughts out of Jeongguk’s mind.

Especially with the way he woke him this morning to breakfast in bed.

Peppered kisses all over his face when Jeongguk was finished and gave him the kind of
‘dessert’ that he craves any time of day.

And he figured something was up when Taehyung took him shopping for a brand new outfit
to wear to his birthday outing tonight.
from head to toe, everything brand new and hugging his body perfectly.

Jeongguk didnt feel embarrassed at all when they both had to exit the dressing room,
pretending their puffy red lips /aren’t from the make out session they snuck in.
because Jeongguk just wanted Taehyung’s help trying on the clothes but Taehyung just
wanted to get his hands all over him.

Which Jeongguk is used to, has gotten insanely used to /this version of Taehyung. but it
doesnt make his stomach swirl with any less butterflies.
and at the dinner reservation, he kind of got his hopes up. because Taehyung insisted they
have a private dinner before meeting everyone at the club.

Despite Taehyung taking him to the finest Michelin star restaurant…it was just a usual date.
lovely and wonderful, all the same. and maybe its the way Taehyung listened so attentively
when Jeongguk started talking about all of the upcoming movies he plans to see in cinemas.

Or maybe it was the fact that Taehyung kept reaching for his hand across the table.
gently rubbing his fingers and slipping in an ‘i love you’ any chance he could.

It was a combination of all of those things, and everything Taehyung’s ever done that made
him realize his mom was right.

Their path isnt determined by how quickly other relationships move.

so when theyre on the way to the club and Taehyung’s hand holds tight onto his own,
Jeongguk feels that comfortable warmth settle in his heart once again.

Everything about this life with Taehyung, is perfect, just the way it is.
"Hyung-ah..” Taehyung scoots closer to Seokjin in the booth. the two of them along with
Yoongi looking out towards the rest of the club. where Jeongguk and Jimin and Hoseok are
dancing like maniacs on the floor.

While Lia and Namjoon try to flag down the busy bartenders.
"Ive got to talk to you about something”

"What is it?” Seokjin’s cheeks are flushed from the alcohol he’s been drinking.

"I uh—well, it’s about Jeongguk, I—“

“Taetae!” the man of honor somehow slipped his line of vision, stumbling into his lap with a
drunken giggle "Come dance with me, please, please, you havent danced with me at all”

And he cant possibly say no to the birthday boy so the question on his heart will just have to
wait
Seokjin looks right at Yoongi who shakes his head with a knowing smile. "He’s totally gonna
ask me if he can marry my son or some shit isn’t he?”

Yoongi chuckles to himself "Not that a real marriage can even happen but the way his
knuckles turned white on his glass, id say so”
Seokjin’s eyes lock onto Taehyung and Jeongguk on the dance floor, instantly. admiring the
protective way Taehyung holds onto him, eyes moving from staring at Jeongguk to scanning
the people around them.

And theres no mistaking the way Jeongguk smiles.

the way his eyes have /always lit up in the room when Taehyung is close by.

And the way his little heart practically beats to the rhythm of Taehyung’s breathing.
"He doesnt need to ask” Seokjin finishes his beer with a smile "Theres nothing I want more
than for Jeongguk’s smile to be permanent”
the stumbling home was chaotic.

Taehyung knew it would be chaotic the moment he say Jeongguk take four shots back to back
in a competition with Yoongi.

And the only thing more difficult to tame than a drunk Jeongguk…is a
drunk..horny..Jeongguk.

And originally, Taehyung swore not to fall into this place. but its just so difficult. when
Jeongguk is stomping around like a goddamned brat. birthday or not, hes absolutely
shameless. shouting on the sidewalk up to the door about him being entitled to birthday sex.

"Its practically the law, babe” he murmured with the type of smirk that makes Taehyung
weak in the knees.
But Jeongguk has been bratty about a lot of things recently and Taehyung’s been on the verge
of breaking for awhile. so of course he finally breaks when Jeongguk kicks his shoes off and
leans against the wall. eyes rolling as he huffs, "Are you even listening to me?”

Taehyung shakes his head, jaw slack as he hangs up his blazer. swiftly unfastening the
buttons of his shirt when he makes his way towards where his bratty birthday boy is standing.
hip cocked out and eyebrow raised. daring him to do something. and he does.

Hand curling around the side of Jeongguk’s neck near instantly when he’s close enough.
thumb nudging beneath his chin to tilt his face upwards "I've no choice but to listen don't i?
you won't be quiet long enough to let me say a word.”

Jeongguk’s eyes water. it's comical how easy he is to rile up. Taehyung absolutely fucking
adores him. "Get on your knees” he murmurs softly against his ear, nipping at the lobe before
their eyes lock and Jeongguk’s teeth have caught onto his lip. doesn’t break their eye contact
the entire time he moves towards the ground. mouth swallowing Taehyung’s length before
the elder has a chance to direct him otherwise. ahhh, but that's what Jeongguk wants.
Taehyung’s fingers grip onto his hair as he pulls him off. lets his cock fall against Jeongguk’s
cheek, a bit harshly. smirking at the way he tries desperately to catch the head in his mouth
but Taehyung’s hold on his hair prevents him from being successful. "Now, now, sweet thing.
we've got a method to these things don't we? or have you forgotten all of your manners
because it's your birthday?”

"I didn't forget.. promise just, he ruts against himself. dick hard between his thighs and
desperate for friction "Want you so bad Tae”

"Mmm, how are you feeling, gorgeous baby? you've drank quite a bit. need to know your
status before we do anything.” Taehyung pumps lazily at his own cock. Jeongguk drooling
with desire and whining at the way Taehyung is teasing him. "C’mon, make this easy on both
of us, won't you?”

"Feel so golden Taetae. so so golden. please.” he scoots closer, mouth suckling at the base of
Taehyung’s cock as he looks up through his lashes. but he doesn't get his fix of sucking on
Taehyung’s thick length because he’s being pulled into the man’s arms. thighs tight around
Taehyung’s waist as he feels himself being carried to the bed he wants to call his own so
badly.

The bed he’s been loved against so many times. the bed that Taehyung bends him over the
edge of right now, falling to his knees and kissing at the supple skin of Jeongguk’s ass.
"Made a mistake buying you those jeans, been wanting to taste you all fucking night”. and
the way Taehyung licks at his hole is enough to make Jeongguk cum right there. but he
doesn't. just clutches to the sheets and clenches his eyes, focuses on his breathing and focuses
on the warm, wet, tongue that dips in and out of him wondrously. savoring the taste and
Taehyung fucking moans into him. stars exploding behind his eyelids with the way Taehyung
stretches him wide on his tongue. curling and slurping and making a goddamn mess of it all.

Jeongguk wants to cry. he loves him so much. he loves the way Taehyung takes over him in
bed but still treats him with as much delicacy as a pillow prince deserves. loves the way
Taehyung flips him over before they fuck, because Taehyung hates not being able to see his
face. falls in love all over again every time those warm eyes smile down at his own.
Taehyung’s lips gently kissing at his neck as he fucks into him fervently. because no matter
how harsh the words during the foreplay and regardless of the way Taehyung absolutely
devours his body…when everything is said and done, Jeongguk’s thighs trembling, cheeks
tear stained and absolutely spent from his orgasm—Taehyung loves him.

And Jeongguk cannot get enough of him. crawls on top of Taehyung’s body as soon as
they’re both finished. absolutely filthy the way he fucks his tongue into Taehyung’s mouth.
ass grinding against a flaccid cock that he loves feeling rock up beneath him. gentle gasp
breaking off to a choked out moan when Taehyung’s hand that was gently caressing the
plump of his ass cheek, slips three fingers right inside his already stretched hole.

The deep growl Taehyung lets out against his ear makes Jeongguk’s entire body shiver,
"Fuck. youre so—my perfect little insatiable thing. just look at you, dripping over my cock
because you cant get enough.”

Jeongguk can hardly breathe, especially when he feels Taehyung’s cock fatten up enough to
fuck into him and he does. taehyung’s hips lifting off the mattress to push in as Jeongguk
grinds down against him. whimpering as his finger nails dig into Taehyung’s chest. the
stimulation is too much and he loves it. loves it. bounces back on that cock and feels
desperate for those hands that cup onto his waist.

Watery eyes finally opening to find Taehyung’s hazy ones on him, "I love you” Jeongguk
manages to whisper, leaning up to press their lips together "So much. want you always, just
you and your cock–nghhh Tae-babe—“ his words fading to a desperate moan that Taehyung
swallows eagerly.

Grip even tighter on Jeongguk’s hips as he fucks into him harder. thrusting so harshly off the
mattress that the headboard starts to creak against the wall. head lulling backwards before he
lets himself look up into those brilliant eyes and he cant wait anymore. not when Jeongguk’s
looking at him like this. not when they love each other like this. not when his heart can hardly
contain itself.

Kisses behind Jeongguk’s ear when he whispers "Live with me”. not expecting the choked
whimper that would fall from his boyfriend’s lips. certainly wasn't expecting the way
Jeongguk would cum. absolutely falling apart on top of him and Taehyung loves it. buries his
length as deep as possible as the pleasure of release sweeps over him.

Long fingers carding through the sweaty locks of Jeongguk’s hair.

Specks of glitter still sparkling through the dark black curls.

Taehyung’s heart is rattling against his chest. “please” and Jeongguk kisses him.
lips delicate as opposed to the bruising kisses they shared moments ago.

“Tae—“

"I’ve been thinking it for so long. I want to come home to you and I want to start every day
with you.”
Carries his boyfriend who has been fucked sober and rendered speechless, to the bathroom
diligently cleaning them both up when he says "I was going to talk to your dad. get his
blessing and all that. but I just love having you here so much, I cant wait another day before
asking you.”
Jeongguk’s eyes haven’t dried at all. hes sniffling quietly when Taehyung cups his cheeks,
“pretty baby, whats wrong?”

Jeongguk’s fingers cling to his sides as he pulls Taehyung in for a hug, voice soft when he
says "I thought you’d never ask.”

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Jeongguk knows he has a horrible habit of assuming the worst and spiraling.

He knows this.

He's been working very hard for the last 3 years of his relationship with Taehyung on
breaking this habit.

But this time? he doesnt feel like he’s making things up.
the first time they went out on a triple date with yoongi and hoseok and this other couple that
Taehyung works with, it was lovely.

They had an amazing time and it felt nice to get to meet new people.
but the second time they all hung out together, one of the guys, Seojoon…was just so
/intrigued. by everything Taehyung had to say.

Then, theyd be telling a story and the way it was told made it sound as if Taehyung and this
Seojoon guy go way back. which, theres nothing wrong with that. of course. they both have
friends that they go /way back with.

But then, Jeongguk would come home from work and find Seojoon and his partner hanging
out with Taehyung in the living room.

In the blink of an eye their lives are completely taken over by this random couple.

Which Jeongguk LOVES having friends. but if Jimin and Namjoon and Hoseok and Yoongi
get cut off from practically /living at their house. where is the cut off for Seojoon and his
boyfriend?
Jeongguk had decided to let it go. figuring, hoping, /praying, that the newfound friendship
would die off.

But then Taehyung would casually be talking about lunch at work or a meeting and somehow
Seojoon’s name was always brought up.
he was trying not to think too much about it.

Had various break downs with Hoseok and Jimin and Namjoon over it, where they all guided
him out of his spiral. reminding him how much Taehyung loves him.
but then, oh but /then, does it slip.
They’re all out drinking over karaoke for Yoongi’s birthday when a very drunk Seojoon says,
"Cheers to the new Taehyung! the version that doesn't have my leech of a stepsister sucking
the life out of him”
and everyone cheers and laughs…it was a good toast, funny even.

Except for the way Jeongguk’s blood fucking /boils.

This is /the guy.

This is the guy Taehyung was in a relationship with a long time ago.
this is the guy that Taehyung /loved before Jeongguk.

And he’s been all over their home.

In their cars.

In Taehyung’s office.

Around their friends.

Jeongguk feels nauseous.

he cant get enough air and he says hes going to the bathroom but he runs. runs to exit of this
building and calls his mom frantically.

"I need you to pick me up”

"Where are you, are you okay?”

Jeongguk does his best to swallow his emotions "Dont ask me that”
takes a deep breath and ignores the buzzing of his phone.

Fuck this.

He's been sitting on the sofa, knees brought up to his chest with tears silently streaming down
his cheeks when his mother finally sits across from him. putting a small cup of tea in his hand
"Do you wanna talk about it?” she says softly.
and he doesn’t want to. but he knows that he should. "What would you do, if dad became
friends with someone he used to love…romantically?”

Lia takes a deep breath he can tell that shes contemplating her words to grave detail.
“please dont give me some inspirational bullshit about being the bigger person…tell me the
truth. how would you really feel?”

Her face falls to a sad smile, "It would hurt me, very much so. even though I know your
father loves me
and even though I know that theres noone else he’d ever want. the idea of someone who used
to be special to his heart, having any part of his life now, would make me feel
uncomfortable.”

Jeongguk nods, sips on the cup and sighs "And what about if dad didnt even /tell you”

"What if he just brought this person around as if they were a stranger. keeping to himself all
of the history they shared. only for you to find out on your own.”

She’s silent for several minutes.

"We would have to have a discussion about boundaries and withholding information.
innocent intentions or not. and I think id make it clear that this is a make or break scenario.”

The sentence makes Jeongguk’s heart crack.

The once slow and steady streams of tears are now ruthless and overwhelming. feels his mom
put both of their cups down on the coffee table before pulling him into a hug, "Listen to me”
she says softly. hand stroking his hair.

"I dont know the details and I dont expect you to tell me. but weve known Taehyung for a
very long time. his life now completely revolves around you. he may be making some very
foolish choices, but I have no doubt in my mind that you are the only person in his heart.”

And Jeongguk wants so badly to feel the same.

its about 3 in the morning when Jeongguk stirs awake. he doesn't remember falling asleep but
the soreness behind his eyelids tells him he fell asleep crying.

Its hushed shouting that wakes him.

Follows the sound to the front door and his throat swells when he hears Taehyung.
"What were you thinking? c’mon Taehyung-ah. you know i've got your back but even I cant
defend this.” Seokjin is leaned against his front door with a sigh "Why are you even hanging
out with him??”
"Look, I didn’t just suddenly become friends with him again. he’s in a relationship with
hyungsik! was I supposed to tell my business partner that I cant hangout with him and his
boyfriend because we have a history??”
“to be honest, it doesnt matter what the hell you tell Hyungsik. what im confused by is why
you /didnt tell Jeongguk. now it just looks like youve been hiding it”
"It wasnt like that” he sounds like hes crying "Im so stupid”
"Yeah, you kind of are” Seokjin laughs. Jeongguk’s head falls softly against the door. he
really is so stupid.

"I dont know what to do. I dont know how to fix this. he didnt even say a word to me, he just
left.”
"Youve known he doesnt handle overwhelming emotions well, Taehyung. what did you
expect?”

He hears the silence before Taehyung says "I figured we’d fight about it in the car and id
apologize all night long. then id spend forever making it up to him.”
Jeongguk’s chest heaves and he just keeps crying to himself.

This hollow feeling in his chest sucks so bad. even when hes angry and Taehyung’s making
mistakes, he doesn't like when hes so very obviously distraught against his better judgement
he slams the door open.

Drying the tears on his cheeks with his sleeves as he just stares at Taehyung, "Its not fair. I
just want to hate you right now, why cant I hate you?”

Seokjin sneaks passed them both to head inside and Taehyung’s holding onto Jeongguk’s
face. pulling him in and letting their foreheads touch “please don't hate me” he whispers
softly "Im horrible for not telling you, I know that. but I love you more than anything in the
universe”

"Im going to be completely honest with you—“ Jeongguk clears his throat "Since one of us
has to—I'm not comfortable with this. I don’t care that he’s your business partner’s
boyfriend. I dont want him in our home.”

“Taehyung you lashed out at the mere /thought of Hisun way back when. and he was nothing
to me. youve been bringing someone who holds importance in your life—“

"No he doesnt. just because he was a part of my life at some point doesnt mean he holds
importance.”
Taehyung holds him close and kisses his lips softly, thankful that Jeongguk doesnt push him
away, "You are the one who holds importance in my life and if I do anything to make you
uncomfortable, ill fix it. itll never happen twice”
"Im sorry that it even happened once.”

Jeongguk takes a deep breath. he /knows that Taehyung means what he says but he just feels
so…betrayed.

"Im not ready to forgive you yet”

"And thats okay” Taehyung speaks softly "Im not asking you to just pretend I didnt do
anything wrong. I just want you to know the truth and to trust that im being honest” smiles a
bit pathetically "And theres no way in hell I can sleep at home without you there.”
"I dont—“
"You are everything to me, pretty baby. ive been a mess since you left. I cant go to /our home
if you arent there with me. theres no point. it will feel just as empty as sleeping on a cold
street.”
Jeongguk chuckles a little, shoving Taehyung’s shoulder "And you all say I’m the dramatic
one.”

Taehyung holds onto his hands and pulls him in for another kiss “please come home. ill sleep
on the sofa if thats what you want. I just—“
"You’re not sleeping on the sofa.” Jeongguk pouts, fingers curling into the collar of
Taehyung’s shirt "You’re going to lay me in our bed and remind me that you love me.”

"Baby—“

"Its not a question, babe.” Jeongguk kisses his lips and whispers softly "Its a demand.”

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Pops 😈
Mom and I are thinking of you. Have the best time on your holiday. Please text us as soon as
you get settled in.

ME (jjk)
We will. Thank you 🥺 I saw your guys’ passports this morning, are you going somewhere?
Pops 😈
Oh, your ma was just checking the renewal date on them. We might try to go to hawaii or
something next year and want to be prepared.

ME (jjk)
I wanna go!!!

Pops 😈
We’ll worry about that then. You’ve got a more important trip to focus on right now. I love
you, so much.
ME (jjk)
What’s with all of the emotions today??

Pops 😈
Am I not allowed to love my son??

There's a wonderful sense of nostalgia being back in this same hotel suite that they visited
before. An overwhelming happiness he feels when their luggage don't make it passed the
doorway because Taehyung has him in his arms. Leading him straight towards the bedroom
that was Taehyung’s the last time they were here.

A rush of emotions through his heart when Taehyung presses him into the mattress and kisses
him softly "I wanted you terribly when we were here”
“Tae-babe…” his voice falls frail, hands trembling when Taehyung locks their fingers
together and /loves him, just right.

"No, you don’t understand” Taehyung shakes his head "Hated myself so bad, for not telling
you how I felt. didn't sleep at all the whole time we were here”
"It doesn't matter now” Jeongguk is panting, breaths erratic.

"I know it doesn't. because I love you.” Taehyung kisses the words into his mouth "And were
here because I love you and I wanted to bring you back. when its warm and we can enjoy our
time differently”

"Stop it” Jeongguk’s begging "I don't want to cry”

"Im so sorry, pretty baby, I just had to tell you. its been on my mind since we boarded the
plane. I love you so much”

"I love you more”

and Jeongguk has no idea whats going on, when he wakes up from an orgasm induced nap.

Gets ready for a fancy dinner like Taehyung asked him to, but when he exits the room, there's
a blindfold being put over his eyes.
“Taehyung, this is not one of my kinks—“

"I know its not” he giggles into his neck "Just taking you somewhere and need it to be a
surprise”
but the surprise is given away when Jeongguk can feel the sand beneath his feet.

Though even that little hint, couldn't have prepared him for the sight of candles and flower
petals spread out against the sand right next to the pier. the pier where he cried out for
Taehyung to love him.

The pier where he wished on a floating lantern for his feelings to be returned.

The pier where Taehyung finally kissed him. his hands are shaking, eyes so swollen with
tears he doesn't even notice the people standing above them on the dock.
 Does not see the camera and he can barely even hear the music that's playing in the distance
over the sounds of the ocean crashing against the shore and his heart pounding in his chest.
Taehyung holds his hands tighter and takes a deep breath before he whispers softly,
“Jeongguk, could we re-do a memory?”

“Tae—“ his chest heaves. tries his best hold it back but he’s already sobbing when Taehyung
lets go of his right hand to pull out a ring.

"We stood beneath this pier, on a warm summer evening. and I held your hands.” he pulls
Jeongguk in and slips the ring onto his left finger with ease "And I asked you to marry me, in
a place where were allowed to do that. because I love you.”

He's sobbing uncontrollably, desperately clinging to the sides of Taehyung’s shirt when the
man kisses him, "And I did it with the people that we love behind us because I want everyone
in the world to know that you are the one I will spend the rest of my life cherishing.”
its various whistles and shouting that draw his attention to the top of the pier.

Where Yoongi and Hoseok and Namjoon and Jimin and Seokjin and Lia and…and…holy
shit, is that Taehyung’s parents? and his grandma? Jeongguk feels like he’s going to pass out.
when he finds Taehyung’s eyes again, they’re both a crying mess, "Remember when I asked
you how you’d feel about living the rest of your life by my side?”

Jeongguk nods because he cant do anything else "Id like it if we made that little promise
official, what do you say, pretty baby?”

"I love you so much” he barely manages to say, hugging Taehyung tight around the neck and
feels himself just barely lifted off the ground. kisses the man with everything he has. chokes
on a cry when he whispers "As if I'd have ever said no."

Completely numb to the praises and the sounds around them because he’s so lost in this
moment. so overwhelmingly happy when Taehyung’s warm eyes stare lovingly into his own.
the same eyes that a ten years younger Jeongguk swore he could see his entire future in.

If you’d have told Jeongguk, even 5 years ago, that Taehyung would propose to him on the
same beach where he broke his heart. He’d have called you a liar.

And he’d have never been more happy to be wrong in his entire life.

Chapter End Notes

if you've made it here, thank you so much <3

if this is your first time reading them. i hope you enjoyed it. if this is your second time
reading it, i hope it made you happy just like the first time.
this is one of those fics that i come back to all the time in my mind and i could write
about them endlessly. i love them so much.

thanks for supporting me. ^.^

xoxo, mila.
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“Hey Tae, do you think I could put you up for a huge favor?”

Lifting his eyes over the property listings he’s sorting through, Taehyung smiles, “You name
it, hyung. What’s going on?”

“My son.”

“Jeongguk?” Taehyung’s interest is automatically doubled, quadrupled even but he doesn’t

show it the way his mind is doing gymnastics, “What do you need me for involving
Jeongguk?”

“He’s struggling in his public speaking class, but it’s required for his program. Lia and I have
been trying to help him, but he said it’s no use because he’s comfortable talking in front of us.
So I was thinking, maybe you could come have dinner one night and we can put him up to an
impromptu speech session? If we rip the Band-Aid off, he might do better in his next class.
I’m not sure how else to help him, but he can’t drop this course.”

The laughter is completely out of his control, “You want me to help him with homework?
Really?”

“I’m desperate…he’s already mentioned a few times that if he fails this course he’s taking it
as a sign University isn’t meant to be his path and I reallllly don’t want him to do that.”

Taehyung clears his throat and does his best to force back the few memories he has of
Jeongguk. Especially trying to forget about how beautiful he is. This cannot possibly be a
good idea and yet he says anyway, “Just let me know the time and place, I’m not sure how
much help I’ll be, but I’m not opposed to trying.”

Getting home from classes today, Jeongguk thinks that maybe he will be better off just taking
that gap year or whatever that people were talking about. Ready to hide in his bedroom for
the rest of the night, he completely misses the extra car in the driveway.

Drops his bag to the sofa and calls out a whiney “Mom” though it’s cut off immediately
when he rushes into the kitchen and comes chest to back with none other than the tall,
gorgeous, bastard who came onto him and then ran away at their vow renewal last year. “Mr.
Kim. Hi.”

“Jeongguk, how are you?”

How are you.

Ha. How are you? He looks around and finds the kitchen empty, “Where are my parents?”

“Ah, your dad stepped away to the rest room and I’m not sure where your mom ran off to.
Did you just get home from class?”

“Yep.” The ‘p’ pops off exaggeratedly. Eyes rolling as he opens the fridge, “My university
classes, because I’m an adult.”

Taehyung’s head cocks as he smirks, “Yeah, a fresh twenty year old. Very much an adult.”

“Why are you here?”

“My friend asked me to help his child with a speech for his coursework.”

Jeongguk’s jaw falls open as he storms down the hallway. Embarrassment coursing through
his veins when he meets his father right outside of the bathroom door, “ Seriously? You really
asked Mr. Kim to come help me with my speech? ”

“Woah, why are you upset?” Seokjin is so obviously confused. Hands smoothing over his
son’s tense shoulders. “You said it doesn’t help to practice in front of mom and I because
you’re comfortable with us. So I figured Taehyung could help be a third party to boost up the
nerves and help you break through them. Did I overstep? I was only trying to think of a
solution because you were so stressed.”

He feels like such an ass for the anger he still feels.

Though the anger is much less at his father and much more towards himself and this stupid
annoyance he’s had ever since the reception. There’s no real reason for Jeongguk to be so
bitter about it all—but he has no control over the things his mind decided to do when he saw
Taehyung for the first time. Being reminded a year later that the man will quite literally never
view him as anything other than his father’s son, is even more annoying. “I appreciate the
help, Appa. But I’m not feeling up to anything tonight. I’m going to bed.”
—

Spending his twenty second birthday at some night club in Seoul while Jimin tries to set him
up with any guy in the vicinity that seems like he has a decent job, is quite literally the worst
birthday Jeongguk could ever imagine.

Especially when just the night before, he was up until nearly midnight in his living room
talking to Taehyung. Taehyung who is around soooo much more than he used to be. Which
makes sense, he and his dad have gone far beyond the best friend category. What with
Taehyung having a regular seat at all of their holiday parties, sometimes it feels like he is
family. Not Jeongguk’s family, but close like family to his parents. Anyways, it was another
night where Taehyung came over for dinner and Jeongguk made the excuse of needing help
with an assignment to get him to stay a little longer.

It’s pathetic, the way he turned a few speech sit ins two years ago, into Mr. Kim becoming his
own personal tutor. Really, Jeongguk just wants to hear him talk as much as he possibly can.
Which is exactly why he started picking Taehyung’s brain the moment they finished his
assignment last night, and he would’ve kept going. He would’ve talked to him until the sun
came up if the man’s phone hadn’t started ringing incessantly, forcing him to accept the fact
that he had overstayed his welcome.

Though he hadn’t, he really hadn’t stayed long enough.

But regardless, Jeongguk is here.

With a measly text message early this morning, “Happy Birthday, Jeongguk. I hope this next
year of life brings you everything you wish for.”

He didn’t bother replying because he doesn’t know what to say to it anyway. Hey thanks, if
you really want me to get what I wish for, why don’t you come over and fuck me in the back
seat of that fancy car you drive? Okay, he’s a little ridiculous, but he’s also several drinks in
and coasting along a nice buzz. A buzz that’s so good he gets a little delusional, when a
certain man with swept back brown locks of hair and fitted khaki pants is standing up at the
bar. He leans into Jimin’s side with a giggle, “Think that guy is married?”
A light shove forward is what he gets from his friend, “You won’t find out sitting here with
me, go. Go. Those pants are Valentino, he’s got money.”

Jeongguk doesn’t give a fuck about money.

He just wants to feel something like he did that night again. With the hammering in his chest
and the bells ringing in his mind. He wants so desperately for someone else to give him that
feeling so he can finally let go of this hopeless miserable longing. All at once, he comes face
to face with the realization that this hopeless miserable longing is here to stay. When he slips
beside the man at the bar and voices softly, “ Valentino to one of the trashiest pubs in Seoul?
That’s a bold choice.”

Sharp eyes that soften immediately at the sight of him, make Jeongguk’s stomach hollow out
as if he’s been sucker punched dead center, “If it isn’t the birthday boy, I thought you’d be
somewhere much nicer than this tonight.”

“I— Tae . I didn’t realize…” Jeongguk’s face is burning infuriatingly red. He’s going to
fucking cry himself to sleep tonight. There’s no doubt about that. But when he goes to turn
away, gentle yet firm fingers curl around his wrist and tug him back in place, “Stay, let me
buy you a drink at least for your birthday.”

“You don’t need to do that.”

“I know, I want to. And then you can tell me what beef you have with Valentino pants.”

“I don’t have beef with them. I just…was making conversation.”

The man laughs all deep and gorgeous , leaning into Jeongguk’s ear to whisper, “Do we need
to include flirting on our next tutoring session? Because you’ll never pick up anyone with
lines like that Jeongguk-ah.”

It feels like an opening, even if he knows it isn’t.

Taehyung has made it crystal clear that there will never be an opening…but maybe—

"I dunno, hyung. You’re buying me a drink after-all, so was it really that bad?”

The man’s jaw falls open and Jeongguk feels himself go breathless for the first time in a long
time. He wants him soooo fucking bad. “Doesn’t work when the person buying the drink isn’t
interested and making fun of their pant choices certainly won’t change their mind.”

Jeongguk thinks if he wanted to, he could turn this around easily. But somehow, this feels like
a moment. He can’t really put his finger on it, but something in the genuine surprise and
momentary hesitation before Taehyung thought of a proper response, causes a horrible thing
to happen in Jeongguk’s heart. He finds hope.
—

The holiday party this time around is miserable.

Jeongguk, for some foolish reason, has allowed himself to think way too much about the
friendship he and Taehyung have formed over the years.

Thinking way too much about how much more he wants.

So his heart effectively shatters into hundreds of thousands of pieces when Taehyung arrives
at the holiday party with someone. With a woman.

The delusions are real.

It’s so quick for Jeongguk to convince himself she’s a friend. Until Taehyung’s hand cups her
waist and tugs her close and he almost gags . Okay, okay, maybe she’s a beard.

Lots of prominent men in this homophobic ass country have one of those. A hand on a waist
can be as platonic as anything else. This is the decision Jeongguk lands on suiting the
scenario best and he avoids Taehyung for the entire rest of the night to keep his bubble of
delusion from popping.

“Taehyung.”

Eyes rolling, he sighs, “Yes, Marisol?”

“Why do you keep looking at that boy like that?”

“Excuse me?” He chokes on his drink “There’s dozens of people here, you’re going to need
to be a bit more specific if you’re accusing me of something.”

Her sharp nails grip his chin and lead Taehyung’s line of sight right where he was looking.
Soft brown hair, broad shoulders, tapering down into the most mouth watering-ly tiny waist,
legs for days and don’t even get him started on that— “Jeongguk? That’s who you think I
was staring at?”

“You think I’m an idiot, I am not, Kim Taehyung. I’d think you know that by now. So if
you’re going to thirst after a side piece, at least make it less obvious.” Her hand shoves his
jaw away harshly but Taehyung catches her wrist before she can storm off, “Jeongguk is my
best friend’s son. There is absolutely nothing going on between us. So you can knock the shit
off right now and not ruin Jin and Lia’s party.”

His fiancée takes a drink from a waiter who passes by with an eye roll, voice a low whisper, “
Okay.”

He can’t tell how many times he’s been called to this exact bar, but every time Taehyung’s
chest feels a little tighter. Terrified that one of these times will end up being the one where he
fucks everything up, and if there was ever going to be one, it would be tonight.

Because Jeongguk has been weighing so heavily on his mind for months. Honestly, years.
But Taehyung has deluded himself enough to think it’s only been months. Only since he had
the unfortunate displeasure of watching the boy make out with someone outside of that damn
holiday party and didn’t sleep for two days because of it.

Something that Taehyung blames on innate curiosity has been lingering between them for so
long now, that truly he has no business accepting these calls anymore.

Seokjin has asked him to draw the line.

Lia’s expressed concern for Jeongguk’s liking of him.

And all Taehyung can do is keep going, because he’s greedy and selfish and hopeless . When
he walks into the bar he’s walked in countless times and scans the crowd for the prettiest
human that’s ever walked the earth. Finds him instantly, seating across the lap of someone
Taehyung doesn’t recognize, but he hops up the moment their eyes meet.

“ Taehyungie-hyung, hi! What are you doing here?”

“You don’t remember asking me for a ride?”

“Oh! I do but…” Jeongguk gnaws on his lip, “I had texted you nevermind. My friend is
gonna take me home.” But one look over Jeongguk’s shoulder at the friend has Taehyung
smirking through his laugh, “Yeah, I’m afraid not. I’m already here and you’ve drunk way
too much, your father would kill me if I didn’t take you home.”

The words act like a trigger for all the things about Jeongguk that drive Taehyung fucking
mad. His pierced brow furrows and he stomps his booted foot and cocks out that gorgeous
hip with a scoff, “I hate when you do that.”

“When I do what? Care for you?”

And as it always seems to do, Jeongguk melts like absolute fucking putty. Stepping forward
slowly and curling a hand around Taehyung’s forearm, “I’-I’ve definitely a little drunk. Sorry
hyungie.”

“It’s alright, go on, tell your friends goodbye so we can leave, I’ll pay out your tab.”

Jeongguk’s hand tightens and Taehyung’s brain short circuits from how close their faces are,
“Taehyungie, do you ever dance? You should dance with me, just this once.”

“I really can't.” He inhales sharply, eyes raking down the shape of Jeongguk’s body.

God. God. God.

Why?

Pretty lips pout and he breathes all of Taehyung in when he whines, “So you hate me?”

Taehyung is so close. So close. So close to fucking losing everything important to him

because for some reason he thinks getting a taste of Jeongguk would be more important than
all of it combined.

Luckily , he manages to keep his head on straight. Locking onto those sparkly round eyes and
using his hand to put a necessary space between them, “You know that’s not true, I meant that
I really can’t dance. I’m awful. And I need to pay your bill.”

“Will you watch me, at least?”

Yeah.
Taehyung’s going to die, right here. Because Jeongguk doesn’t give him time to answer, just
immediately gets lost in the crowd but not so lost that Taehyung loses sight of him. As if he
would ever. His eyes are glued, to swaying hips and the way that sharp jawline comes into
view when he throws his head back.

It’ll all be worth it, it will. It has to be . Because Taehyung’s feet are moving and his hands
are too. Gripping tightly onto that fucking waist and groaning to himself when Jeongguk
presses against him without hesitation, “Thought you can’t dance.”

“I can’t, but I also can’t let you do that .”

Jeongguk throws his ass back and Taehyung almost moans like a horny teenager. Grips his
waist tighter and pulls him harshly against his body, “ That’s enough. You asked me to watch
you, not whatever the hell you think you’re doing.”

All at once there’s arms around his neck and their noses touch and Taehyung thinks Jeongguk
has no idea how lethal his existence is to a man like him. Especially when he voices softly, “I
think I’ve got the man of my dreams in the palm of my hand for the first time in life. Forgive
me, Taehyungie, I don’t know what to do with myself.”

The metaphorical fire extinguisher douses them entirely. From his head to his toes, Taehyung
feels ice cold when he peels Jeongguk’s arms from his body and snaps the hell out of it. The
glassy red haze in those eyes tells him everything he needs to know, which is that Jeongguk
won’t remember a word he just said and Taehyung needs to take him home before he does
something he’ll regret for the rest of his life.

Even if his heart is begging him not to.

 Drabble - One
Chapter Summary

Taejin go on a trip!

Chapter Notes

This was a patr/on exclusive drabble, now available for you to enjoy.

Now Jeongguk knew that Taehyung and his father had been talking about taking a guy’s trip
for months, but he didn’t think that he wouldn’t be included on the guys trip. And he
certainly didn’t think that it would be for an entire week.

So when Taehyung has a luggage packed and set by their front door, he wants to cry. He
nearly does cry, if not for the way Taehyung holds him the moment he gets out of the shower.
Luring him into bed with soft kisses and words of ‘I’ll be back before you know it, pretty
baby. Let me love you before I go’.

And maybe if Taehyung weren’t so unbelievably devoted, he actually would be upset by this,
but Jeongguk knows that Taehyung will be missing him just as much. So even though he
pouts and puts on a show of being upset. He’s happy that his husband will be able to enjoy a
week away. Especially considering Taehyung doesn’t get that much quality time with Seokjin
ever since, well , Jeongguk took over his life.

Taehyung loves him just right. Fucking him speechless and honestly? Making him forget
about whatever he was going on about before hand. Because the thumb that presses just right
against his throat has him short of breath and panting through his moans, ‘Fuck, m’gonna
miss you. How am I supposed to not touch you for a week?’ Taehyung’s face burrows in his
neck. Hips thrusting erratically and Jeongguk takes hold on Taehyung side to steady himself.
Moaning shamelessly against his ear “‘Dun go. Stay with me- ngh, fuck t-tae”
And when they’ve finished, Jeongguk is sad all over again.

Drives Taehyung to his parents to pick up Seokjin who is waiting eagerly to be dropped off at
the airport. “This feels so unfair,” he whines. Fists tight around the steering wheel when
Seokjin scolds from the back seat, “Oh no, you have completely stolen my best friend from
me, i think i deserve one week without having to see you all over each other.”

“Just say you hate seeing me happy.” Jeongguk huffs. Not expecting his father to lean up
from the backseat and plant a sloppy kiss to his cheek. “Appa loves you soooo much. Just not
enough to let you crash my bro time on the beach.” Reaching the drop off terminal for the
airport, Jeongguk waits patiently leaning up against the side of his car…sulking with his pout
and his eyes as his father takes his bag and walks through the doors he’s about to watch
Taehyung walk through.

Taehyung, who comes up to Jeongguk and holds him by the hips, pressing their bodies
together as their lips brush “Oh c’mon my love, don’t be sad.” Presses several kisses to
Jeongguk’s lips. So many kisses that he has to pull away with a giggle that he tries to hide but
fails. Arms curling around Taehyung’s neck as he groans “Just gonna miss you. What am I
supposed to do while you’re gone?”

“Spend time with your friends, you’ve been meaning to do that anyway.” Jeongguk stomps
his foot playfully when Taehyung brings a hand to the back of his head and scrunches up the
locks of his hair “I’ll call you every night before bed.”

“I love you” Jeongguk says softly. Arms tightening around Taehyung’s shoulders “have a
good time and don’t forget about me”

“I could never” Taehyung smiles into his lips. That hand on the back of his head holding him
even tighter, prying his lips apart and making Jeongguk melt right in the parking lot of this
airport. “I love you with all of my heart, I’ll see you soon.”

“Bye, babe”
“See ya soon, pretty baby.”

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Taehyung honestly never enjoyed fishing. His entire childhood it just wasn’t something they
ever did. His father was far too busy with business endeavors to take a weekend off and relax.

So when he’s sitting beside Seokjin on a hidden beach with no one else around, it feels
overwhelmingly peaceful. or at least, it did feel peaceful.

until Seokjin is jolting up and shouting “i got something! holy hell its a fighter!” and he
would be right, the strength of whatever is on the edge of his rod pulls him forward.
Taehyung whips his phone out quickly to record. Cackling at the way Seokjin uses all of his
might to reel in his line “fuck, okay, we’re grilling good tonight Taehyung-ah, i hope you’re
hungry- woah!”

Taehyung’s eyes are on the water, waiting and waiting and he absolutely cannot handle the
sight of the tiny little fish that is on the hook. it’s so little that he actually thought there was
nothing there. camera recording has lost all stability because Taehyung is laughing so hard
tears start to fall. Seokjin is livid. holds the tiny fish by the fishing line and faces the camera
“this makes no sense! no way this tiny guppy could put up that much resistance!” takes the
fish off the hook and tosses it back to the water. “Taehyung, stop recording! and stop
laughing! its not funny you know? there must've been some seaweed or something caught on
the hook as well.”

“uh-huh” Taehyung giggles “whatever you say hyung”

a couple of hours go by without a single bite. Taehyung hasn’t had to recast his rod at all.
Nearly falls asleep in the chair when Seokjin groans “we’ll have better luck tomorrow
morning for sure, afternoon fishing is always hit or miss.”

“Mhmm” tilts his sunglasses so that he can see Seokjin who is loading up his hook with more
bait than Taehyung thinks is necessary. Shaking his head as he watches the way the man casts
and reels in and casts and reels in until his hook lands precisely where he wanted it. Seokjin
sits his pole in the holder hook to grab a drink from the cooler next to Taehyung’s chair.

Sighing when he plops onto the ground “it’s so nice being out here like this, no chores at
home, no work to wake up and go to, just you and me and the open sea.” He takes a big gulp
and nudges Taehyung’s arm “why are you so quiet?”

“Just thinking”

“About—“ Seokjin makes a disgusted face “please don’t tell me you’re thinking about my
son”

“No” Taehyung chuckles, sipping on the beer Seokjin just gave him “Actually thinking about
the last time we went fishing together. It’s been so long, it was back before the whole
arranged marriage thing.”

“Yeah, we used to hangout all of the time before you got real serious about the company and
your dad stuck that leach to your side.” They both share a smile before Seokjin stands up to
go back to his rod “Those days are long behind us, Taehyung-ah, no need to fret over them
anymore.”

And they are indeed, Taehyung feels lucky every day of his life when he thinks about all of
the things that he has now. But no amount of grateful-ness will keep him from smiling and
teasing Seokjin, “Hyung-ieee”

“Huh?” Seokjin shouts over his shoulder, seemingly trying to reel in nothing when Taehyung
cackles, “I’m feeling pretty hungry and yet we have nothing.”

To which he gets a used up piece of bait thrown at him, “Eat that, you ass.”

This is going to be a fun trip.

 Covered In You
Chapter Summary

Jeongguk buys a new shirt and decides to have a little fun.

Set in stone the day they spoke their vows and promised one another a true forever, Taehyung
and Jeongguk had a silent mission to never fall into the mundane . Which, not to brag ,
Jeongguk is rather proud that they haven’t. In fact, he’s confident that his husband is just as
gone for him as he was the night they first met and every year that’s passed since. So why is
he feeling the urge for something more? He’s not sure.

It’s not that Jeongguk wants more than Taehyung, it’s that he wants more of Taehyung.

Hyungsik’s company has been busier than ever. Which is not only effecting Taehyung, but
everyone in the company. Which is why Jeongguk and his mother are walking around
wasting time together at a shopping mall when he would rather be at home on his husband.
Or with him. Whatever. Venturing off on his own while his mom waits for her jewelry to be
cleaned, Jeongguk stumbles into a new shop he hasn’t seen before.

He doesn’t buy clothes really anymore. What with his business casual attire he has no choice
but to wear Monday through Friday and spending most weekends in the comfort of their
home as opposed to nights out. There’s just no reason to fill their closet with more clothes he
will never wear.

However, Jeongguk’s eyes land on a counter filled with quirky tees. They all have varying
sayings. Some funny, some inspirational, some cheeky. One of the shirts, catches his eye
instantly. At first because it will surely earn a pleased laugh out of his art loving husband…
but then , Jeongguk’s imagination does this crazy thing.

Where it wonders if Taehyung could actually make it happen… and how badly he wants it to.

His opportunity to put his new shirt to good use doesn’t come for another week, when he just
happens to be wearing it out for breakfast with Namjoon, Jimin and Hoseok and receives a
text message.

Hi, pretty baby. Will you be home soon?

I can be. If you are home. I thought you had to go into the office today?
I did, but turns out Hyungsik stayed late last night and finished the project we had due, so I’m
free. Was thinking of taking you out to spend the day together, would you like to join me?

God, would he fucking ever.

Yes. Yes. Yes. I’ll be there asap!

No need to rush away from your friends, I’m not going anywhere until you’re home.

Ok. I love you!

And I, you.

Trying to decide what to do with their unplanned day, Taehyung is feeling a little selfish. You
see, there is a new art installation in Seoul that he’s just dying to go visit and this is the last
weekend. But when he’s been working non-stop for several weeks now, it feels unfair to ask
his husband to follow him around a museum all day.

Although maybe…if Jeongguk happens to choose something in the area…they could just pop
in on a whim and then Taehyung won’t feel so bad about it. Much of his scheming comes to a
halt when their front door opens, because as always, Taehyung struggles to remember much
of anything when that pretty face is right in front of him. Especially the way it is right now.
With his smile taking up his entire face as he kicks off his shoes and slides across the wooden
floors right into Taehyung’s arms, “I can’t believe I’m seeing my husband on a Saturday. It
feels like I’m dreaming.”

Taehyung presses a few fleeting kisses to the skin of Jeongguk’s neck before hugging him
entirely, “I know, I’m so sorry. Hyungsik swears we’re going to get back to normal working
hours again soon. Your mom might burn the building down if we don’t.”

“Oh, I know, when we were shopping last weekend she was annoyed to say the least about
how little she’s seen Appa.” Jeongguk leans back from the hug with a nervous smile,
“Speaking of parents…yours sent another post card.”

“Where are they visiting now?”

“Singapore. The postcard is really pretty, and they wrote that they hope we’re doing well and
that they miss us.”

The look on his husband’s face is as Jeongguk expected. Hands rubbing smoothly up and
down his spine, “They mean it, I think , Tae.”

“I know…it’s still weird. Anyways, I don’t want to talk about anyone else right now—what
would my gorgeous baby like to do today?”
“Very seriously, anything Tae. I don’t care what we do, I only want to spend time with you.”
He can’t make it too obvious he’s on a mission. Hence the way he keeps his jacket on and
pulls away from the hug, only to drag Taehyung by the hands instead, “We haven’t been on a
museum date in awhile and I want to try that restaurant that just opened up by mom’s
office…so maybe we could do that?”

He wasn’t expecting to be lifted quite literally off of his feet. Taehyung’s kiss has so much
fire, but his smile that seems uncontrollable can’t be stopped as he groans, “ I knew I was
making the right choice by marrying you.”

“Wha—Why, what did I say?”

But Taehyung just keeps kissing him, “You’re just absolutely perfect for me. That sounds like
the perfect way to spend our day, pretty baby. Let me get changed—”

Jeongguk’s fingers tighten at the tie loosely hanging from Taehyung’s shirt, “Are we
changing from our black suit, to our brown one?”

Smirking and attempting to drag Jeongguk down the hallway with him, Taehyung laughs, “I
was thinking maybe I’ll ditch the suits for today…a nice blouse and slacks can do the job,
don’t you think?”

He chooses not to say anything about just how perfectly that attire will do the job he plans it
too. Instead, Jeongguk stops against the doorway of their bedroom. Dropping the tie to the
floor and carefully unfastening each button of his husband’s shirt. Leaving absolutely
everything out into the thick air between them as he whines, playfully shoving Taehyung into
their room, “Get away from me, before we end up not leaving this room at all.”

The smile that comes over Taehyung’s face, really threatens to foil all of Jeongguk’s plans.
How is he supposed to get this man out of their house, when he hurries back into his space.
Large palms delicately gliding over his hips before yanking him forward, “ That doesn’t
exactly sound like a bad idea.”

Shaking his head, keeping his lips just out of Taehyung’s reach, Jeongguk puts a finger
against his lips, “Go, get ready, the sooner we go have our date–the sooner we get tangled up
in this bed for the rest of the night.”

Taehyung nods slowly, but not without gripping his chin and tugging him forward, “Give me
a kiss and I’ll do whatever you say.”

Tempting….so tempting…but Jeongguk is no fool. He knows exactly how easy it is for those
lips to swindle him. Which is why he only ghosts a kiss to the corner of Taehyung’s mouth
before disappearing out of his sight to slip what they will need in his bag. “Tae— Get. Ready
. It’s rude to keep your baby waiting.”
The hand holding his own as they purchase their tickets to enter the museum, is so sweet and
warm. Taehyung’s finger stroking his thumb and rising it to press a kiss at his wrist.
Jeongguk almost feels guilty for knowing his own intentions.

Intentions he plans to keep under wraps for just a few moments longer. At least long enough
to allow his husband thorough enjoyment of the special installation, Jeongguk just knew he
would freak out over. Watching Taehyung’s eyes glow as they make their way through it, was
worth everything. Even if his cheeky little t-shirt doesn’t get to make a proper debut.

There’s so many people here… so. Many. People. Too many, really. Jeongguk rests his head
on Taehyung’s shoulder as they take in the sight of a sculpture before them. “What are we
looking at with this one?”

“Hm…that depends, love. What do you think you’re looking at?”

Taehyung loves playing this game and as much as Jeongguk rolls his eyes to pretend
otherwise. He loves playing along too. “The shape of the dagger is terrifying at first, until
you realize that the man isn’t really pointing it at anyone. He almost looks like he’s going to
drop it. Then it’s not as terrifying, and kind of silly. He’s clumsy.”

“Clumsy, or terrified, himself. Terrified of himself.” Taehyung’s arm loose around his waist
squeezes and guides Jeongguk a few steps to the side. “A lot of this piece is symbolism. The
dagger is as much a dagger as it is a word, a rejection, an insecurity. There was a point where
the man was allowing the dagger in, shown by the tear on his sweater and the single drop of
blood threatening to fall off the edge of the blade. Now, he’s fighting for himself. Realizing
what he almost let happen. Clumsy, fearful. In this case, I almost think they could be
interchangeable.” Taehyung suddenly straightens up. Looking at him with a puzzled
expression, as if he surprised even himself. Smiles and drops a kiss to Jeongguk’s cheek
before intertwining their fingers. “But really, what do I know anyway, I’m no artist.”

And Jeongguk disagrees. He disagrees in every way. Taehyung is an artist. He is also the art
and the canvas and the paintbrush or the scalpel or whatever the hell is needed to create art.
Taehyung is everything and Jeongguk cannot believe he is married to this man. That he has
been married to this man and will always be married to this man.

Tugs onto his hand and guides Taehyung away from the crowded exhibits. Instead moving
towards one of the rooms that’s here year round and doesn’t get nearly as much attention. “I
didn’t show you my outfit for the day.”

Eyes trailing from head to toe, Taehyung holds onto his face gently, “You are gorgeous in
everything you wear. I do especially love these pants on you, sexy baby.” Jeongguk unfastens
the buttons of his cardigan, allowing it to fall open as Taehyung kisses his lips. Giggling
against him, “Bought this shirt just for you. Do you like it, too? ”

'Take me to an art museum and fuck me in the bathroom.' is about as crystal clear as it gets.
Still, It takes Taehyung a minute to register the words on it. Blinking a few times, before
glancing around them quickly and tugging his husband closer by the sides of it, “You
shouldn’t tempt me with things like this…you know I’m horrible at saying no to you, but this
might be a step too far. Even for us .”

“Really?” Batting his lashes, Jeongguk is almost offended that his husband isn’t absolutely
jumping at the opportunity. “And to think I made sure to bring everything…I was so certain
the man who loves me finds me irresistible…clearly I was wrong.”

Taehyung guides him down many hallways, until finally reaching a single stall bathroom and
looking both ways twice before entering it without another word. He does however, level
Jeongguk with his glare once inside, “The man that you love, finds you far more valuable
than a bathroom fuck. But if you insist, I see no reason why you shouldn’t already be on your
knees.”

Though he doesn’t actually let Jeongguk do that, not before peeling off his jacket and laying
it on the floor. Jeongguk pouting as he does, “What a shame, I really like that one.”

“We can replace it.” The man grumbles before gently rubbing the pad of his thumb along the
sharpness of his husband’s jawline. “The things I’ll do for you…” He makes an attempt to
mouth at Jeongguk’s skin but the man is moving.

Kneeling and spreading his hands across the waist of Taehyung’s slacks. Jeongguk instead
mouths at the skin that’s available, “Taehyung– you’re so hot . Can’t believe you said yes.”

“We certainly do not have the luxury of time. Get to it. Before I regain my senses and say
no.”

Tongue flicking out over the very tip of Taehyung’s dick, Jeongguk smirks as he does it. Eyes
glistening through his lashes as he murmurs, “You wouldn’t.”

Really, they both know that Taehyung wouldn’t. That the man couldn’t possibly bring
himself to stop once reaching this far. Slips his hands in Jeongguk’s hair and guides him to
take the length even further, groaning as he does, “Just like that, pretty baby—of course I
wouldn’t.”

Slipping his hands up Taehyung’s shirt, Jeongguk gets a vicious tremor of lust when the
man’s other hand captures onto his own. Something about their ring decorated fingers gently
slipping together while the man fucks into his throat, nearly brings him to tears. Luckily,
Taehyung rather swiftly brings him to his feet just before he can choke around the cock and
make more noise than they’re meant to. “Let me get my hands on you, what did you bring for
us?”
He sifts through the bag Jeongguk tossed onto the vanity, all while craning his head to the
side and allowing him all the access he wants. Jeongguk loves being on the receiving end of
Taehyung’s markings, but admittedly, he goes rather insane leaving them himself. The fact
that this man, so well-kempt, so poised, so flawless , doesn’t even hesitate. Allows him
everything in the world that he wants, like stretching him open with his glorious fingers at a
museum. The humorous part is that Jeongguk had no idea he wished for this until he saw this
stupid shirt.

Now , he’s wondering why they haven’t done this sooner. Taehyung has taken him to
beautiful museums, with luxurious bathrooms all around the world. They should’ve been
fucking, everywhere. Taehyung’s teeth catch onto his ear as he murmurs with that sexy timbre
that makes Jeongguk’s knees shake, “Look at how you open up for me. Always ready to take
it, aren’t you?”

“Yes. So fucking do it already—” the thumb that hooks over his lower lip makes an attempt
at being vicious. A warning of sorts. But all Taehyung does is drag him until their mouths
collide. Teasing tongue making him whimper, “Tae-babe —now.”

The man positions him just right, palms braced on the porcelain tile as Taehyung’s lines up
just right. “Keep it down, you wanted this, so remember that.”

Jeongguk had a feeling Taehyung was going to push his strength to the max. Doing so by
immediately pressing in and stuffing him to the point he can hardly breathe. Without much
time to even gather his composure, the man slides back out entirely, only to thrust into him
harder. Jeongguk’s arms nearly buckling already and he’s hardly even started. Head falling
back, he loves the way one of the hands that were bruising his hips, take hold of his hair
instead. Taehyung’s fingers knotting the way they do when Jeongguk is especially bratty.

The way he absolutely loves it.

Tongue near bleeding from how hard he bites down to keep himself from moaning. But
Taehyung, he does this excruciating thing, where he drags the entire length of his cock out
and slips back in with a force so strong it rips out a moan that Jeongguk couldn’t stop if he
tried. A moan that has the fingers in hair tugging much sharper as Taehyung chuckles darkly
against his ear, “ Keep it down, sexy little thing. Let me get you there.”

The tension at his hair is gone, but Jeongguk knows better than to think he can catch his
breath from desperation, when that same hand now wraps around his body. Cupping the base
of his dick before stroking in perfect time with the way Taehyung fucks into him. As slow
and as hard. Jeongguk is in real, true, tears when the wave finally becomes too much to hold
back. Entire body trembling as he gasps through his orgasm. And Taehyung’s. Feeling the
way he’s filled and the man grips at the hem of his shirt as he rides it out, “You’re absolutely
radiant in this light. The most spectacular art in the entire building.”

“ I’ll be your canvas, any time, any where.” Jeongguk rests back on Taehyung’s shoulder
once they’ve parted. The hands that rub along his shoulders before the man pampers all of his
skin that’s within reach with kisses. “Now, that , sounds like a fantastic idea .”
“That’s one way to re-do a memory.” Jeongguk giggles under his breath as they exit the
museum. “I’ll never be able to come here again without thinking about that.”

“Me neither…” Taehyung tugs him closer by the waist and groans, “ What have you done to
me ?”

“I love you.” Jeongguk turns on the busy sidewalk and kisses him fervently. Face flushing but
he doesn’t care too much. His heart is hammering too loud in his chest to care. “I really,
really , love you, Taehyung.”

The man returns his energy tenfold. Wrapping him entirely in his arms and sighing as he
kisses him with everything that he has. “And I really, truly , love you more. Jeongguk.”

Cuddled up on their sofa, feet tangled and take out boxes haphazardly scattered around the
coffee table. Taehyung presses a fleeting kiss to Jeongguk’s bare shoulder, “I’ve been missing
you terribly.” He admits quietly. “It felt silly, missing you the way that I have. As if we don’t
sleep in the same bed every single night. But it’s had me thinking a lot about this life that we
share and how much I cherish it. I worry occasionally. I don’t want you to think that I don’t.
For even a second.”

Jeongguk twists from where he was leant against his husband, to face him properly instead.
Shifting up onto his knees and allowing the tips of their noses to brush, “Tae– babe , you
risked being banned from your favorite museum for the rest of our lives, to entertain my silly
little shirt purchase. There’s not a single part of me that ever feels less than cherished by
you.” Dipping in and kissing him softly, reveling in the hushed groan that leaves Taehyung’s
lips. Jeongguk confesses too, “But I have also been missing you. It’s like something’s been
missing. I wasn’t sure exactly what it was, until today.”

“And what exactly was missing, pretty baby?”

“Just you.” Jeongguk smiles into his lips, “I guess sometimes, I forget how much I need to
have my husband all to myself.”
“Well, if it ever reaches that point again, don’t hesitate to tell me. You can have your
husband, all over you, all to yourself, whenever the hell you want.” Taehyung swiftly guides
him forward until he’s straddling his waist and the weight of Jeongguk is heavy in his lap, “
Starting, right now.”
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