TABLET How to Face Death Without Fear
TABLET How to Face Death Without Fear
DEATH WITHOUT
FEAR LAND OF
JOY HEXHAM
ENGLAND MARCH
9–13, 2021 WITH
VEN ROBINA
COURTIN
Published for the participants in the retreat at FPMT’s Land of Joy,
Hexham, England, with Ven Robina Courtin, March 9–3, 2021.
landofjoy.co.uk.
COVER
Shakyamuni Buddha passing away in the lion position; statue in the
courtyard at FPMT’s Jamyang Buddhist Centre in London. Sculptor
Nick Durnan; photo Natascha Sturny.
CONTENTS
RENUNCIATION
1. How to Live Life in the Context of Death 4
2. We Must Prepare for Death 14
3. What Happens at Death? 17
4. The Twelve Links of Dependent Arising at
the Time of Death 21
5. The Eight Stages of Death 24
6. Helping Others at the Time of Death is
A Big Responsibility 33
7. Live a Good Life and Prepare for Death by Abiding
By the Laws of Karma 38
BODHICHITTA
8. Bodhichitta is the Best Medicine 52
EMPTINESS
9. Searching for the I 61
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1. HOW TO LIVE LIFE IN THE CONTEXT
OF DEATH
VEN ROBINA COURTIN
Lama Atisha, in his Lamp on the Path, takes from all the extensive
teachings of the Buddha on impermanence and gets us to
contemplate the grosser level of how things change, in particular our
own death. And coming organically and naturally from the previous
contemplation, which is to think about the preciousness of this life
and the wish not to waste it, his reasoning is to increase our wish not
to waste it by realizing that it will end, and could end at any moment.
So let’s look at the framework Atisha would recommend that we
use to contemplate death, my own death.
1. DEATH IS DEFINITE
The first point is that death is definite. Intellectually, we know it, but
emotionally we cling instinctively to a strong sense of being
permanent, unchanging. Intellectually it’s clear to us; emotionally
we’re living in denial of it. And remember across the board, what
Buddha is saying is, we have within our mind a whole series of
misconceptions about how we think things are, but in fact we’re not
in touch with how they are.
Everything is impermanent. There’s not a single thing in the
existence of the universe that is a product of cause and effect that
doesn’t change. The very nature of cause and effect is that things
change. In fact the subtle level of impermanence is the very coming
into being of something, inherent in that is the passing away of it.
You can’t have one without the other. You can’t have anything that
exists that is within the process of cause and effect that doesn’t
change, that doesn’t come and go. Come and go. Come and go.
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So okay, death is definite. How you contemplate this, how you
think about this. . . When you hear about somebody dying, your first
response is, “Oh!” We’re so shocked. “But I just talked to them
yesterday!” So that thought is coming from the misconception that
somehow instinctively we thought that they were permanently alive,
you know. Lama Zopa Rinpoche says, we think, “I am a living person,
I’m a living person. And Mary, I talked to her yesterday! She was a
living person, how could she have died?” We’re shocked.
When we think of someone who is sick, however, we think “Oh,
she’s a dying person”. Look how we talk about dying people, in
hushed tones. We look at them sadly, “Oh, how are you?” We talk
about Aunty Mary only in relationship to her dyingness, the sickness;
she’s no longer a real person, is she? She’s a dying person. You don’t
even want to include her in parties. And this is because we have this
misconception that somehow this dyingness is something that
defines her, whereas livingness defines me. As Lama Zopa says:
“Living people die before dying people every day”.
Look at the silly way we talk, an indicator of our misconceptions.
“Oh I feel so alive”, we’ll say. Meaning we feel very good. Well excuse
me, happy people die. You understand? Healthy people die. Young
people die. We might think, “Well, I’m not going to die yet. I’m not
old”. And you keep adjusting that, don’t you? I mean, when I was 40,
61 was old. Now, 80 is old. Where is Betty? Betty is old, she is 75.
Aren’t you?
Betty I’m 74! Unless you add a year for the Tibetan calendar then
I’m 75.
Okay, Betty is old, she’s 74. But she doesn’t think she is old. She
probably thinks her grandmother is old or somebody who is 85 is old.
So we all just keep adjusting because we don’t like to put ourselves
into that category. Dying people are over there, old people are over
there, because we have this deep instinct of grasping at permanent
me, a living me.
So we’ve got to face reality. “What do you mean: ‘Face reality?’”
We think fantasies are nice. Well, Buddha says fantasies have got us
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into big trouble. It’s a fantasy to think I won’t die. Not because he’s
trying to be cruel and sort of rub our noses in death. But he is saying
that given our consciousness is a continuity that didn’t begin at the
time of conception, and given that it will continue, and given that
everything we say, do and think will leave seeds in the mind that will
bring future results that will be my experiences – this is the view of
karma – then it just makes a lot of sense that death is an extremely
important moment in your life. Because it’s going to be a transition
from this body to another body. It’s a bit of a scary transition. We
should be used to it, we’ve done it a million times, the Buddha says.
But we’re not mentally used to it because we’re clinging so powerfully
to this one.
And we cling to everything so mightily – Grandma’s cup: it’s so
precious, you’ve got insurance on it and it’s up there and so dear to
you and you look at it every day. But its nature is to break, you can’t
avoid that. But we live in denial of that because we’ve imposed all of
this beauty and marvelousness and value onto it. And so look what
happens when it does break. You have a mental breakdown. You live
in denial and you start freaking out. You’ve got to blame, you’ve got
to sue somebody and it’s so painful. And then we think we’re
suffering because the cup broke.
We think we suffer because the person died. It’s not true. We
suffer – and this is Buddha’s point – because we have a fantasy that it
won’t break, because we have a fantasy that she shouldn’t die. In
other words, we’re not seeing reality. Across the board this is how
Buddha is talking. We are not facing reality. We don’t see things as
they are. We live in denial of things. We are not only not seeing how
things are, we’re imposing a fantasy onto it.
So this simple meditation here we are trying to do: using
Buddha’s view of what’s real, we’re giving it a go, we’re thinking
about how he says things are and attempting to make that the way we
think, in order to argue with ego’s entrenched mistaken views. So it’s
a practical reason.
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I mean even when we think of a person who’s dying, we think
that’s permanent. A friend of mine and her husband, they split up,
and then he was diagnosed with some virulent cancer and was going
to be dead in a couple of months, she went back to him to help him
die. Well excuse me, he didn’t die! She kept waiting! Two months
later, three months later, then six months later he’s still alive. So she
had to leave him again. He was a dying person and he didn’t die. And
now two years later he’s totally alive, he’s a living person again.
So death is definite and it’s something that is just natural. When
we hear that Mary died, it reminds us; surprise is not relevant. That’s
the way to think about it. “Wow, Buddha is right. Death is definite,
there’s nothing certain. Wow, look at that”. Everything that comes
into being necessarily dies. But because of the ego-grasping, this
primordial misconception, because of massive attachment, the main
voice of the ego, we frantically don’t want to disappear. We want to
be me. So we can’t bear to think that I will change, that I will die. So
we have this big fantasy.
Intellectually it would be silly to argue with it: “Oh of course I’m
not going to die!” We know we will. But emotionally it’s like that. We
might as well say we’re not going to. That’s why were shocked. Death
is definite.
A simple way to bring this into our lives is every time we see or
hear about someone dying – a person, an ant, our pets – remember
that it’s natural: death is definite. And the real way to make it tasty is
to think, “That’ll be me one day. I will die too”.
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time of it, well then that’s how death will be, death will be a very
scary time.
I remember a friend of mine, Lenny, who worked for years as a
hospice worker, she said it’s a given that most people die with fear.
She said the ones who didn’t die with fear were those who had some
kind of spiritual path. My feeling is it’s not because they’re such a
high practitioners but because the only people who think about death
are spiritual people, Christians, say, because they talk about God or
heaven. Materialists, why would we think about death? Because as
far as the materialist’s view is concerned you disappear when you die,
there’s nothing left. So there’s no reason to think about death.
There’s no reason to prepare yourself for that event.
If you’re a Buddhist you prepare for that event because you’re
going to move from this body to another one. So it’s an important
event, it’s a very important event that’s going to happen in your life:
your death. Like moving from your house, you prepare an awful lot
for that. Look at the simple things we do that will happen in the
future that we have to prepare for. We don’t just say, “Oh, when it
happens I’ll deal with it”. That’s how we think about death.
We prepare in the most elaborate ways for the smallest things that
are going to happen in the future. Especially if you don’t know how to
do it. Like your driving test. You don’t just say, “Oh, when I get to the
driving test I’ll manage it then”. Don’t be ridiculous! You’ve got to
train now, you know, it’s obvious. It’s such a simple point. So if you
think of death in this sense, not as some black hole that I will fall
into, but as simply a transition. This is the Buddhist approach. From
this body to the next. Clearly a very important event to prepare for.
And I’m not talking about having your nice coffin, the way people
prepare, and the nice plot, out there. We’re not discussing that.
That’s just for your body. By the time your consciousness leaves your
body it’s just a piece of ka-ka, so don’t worry about the body; other
people can take care of that. The main point from Buddha’s point of
view is to prepare internally, to think about your mind.
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And how do you prepare for death? It doesn’t mean you’ve got to
imagine when you’re dying, although that’s helpful. You’re not
preparing for death by thinking about death. You’re preparing for
death by knowing about impermanence now. How do you prepare for
your driving test? By driving a car now. It’s obvious. How do you
prepare for death: by facing the reality of it. And you prepare for
death by living our lives in a way that prepares us for death.
The conclusion from this is it’s a wakeup call. And that’s the point
that Atisha’s stressing here: to prepare ourselves. In other words
change the way we think now and therefore change the way we live
our lives, because that’s how you prepare for death, that’s how you
prepare for this event. You put all the steps in place. Like you prepare
for the wedding, you prepare for the driving test. You do the steps
now and so when the day comes it’ll just happen in a natural way.
So this third point is, at the time of death what is it useful to me?
Well, there’s a few givens here: let’s look at them.
Given Buddha’s assertion that this consciousness of mine didn’t
begin at conception and goes back and back and back, and that it will
not end at death, will continue just into the future – it’s
indestructible this consciousness of ours; and given that whatever I
have said, done, and thought in this life, and in infinite previous
ones, necessarily leaves a seed in my mind that just doesn’t
disappear; and given that seeds ripen in the future as one’s own
experiences: negative actions of body, speech and mind necessarily
leave seeds in my mind that will ripen as suffering and positive
actions leave a seed in my mind that will ripen as my happiness in the
future; and given that I don’t want suffering and do want happiness
– given all this, then it follows logically that at the time of death the
only thing that is of any use to me is the positive seeds in my mind.
That’s it.
The body is useless, it can’t help. Princess Diana died at 36. I
always think of her. This gorgeous aerobiced body, totally in love,
everything is perfect, blissful, blah, blah, blah. She died. So at that
moment, the only thing that was any benefit to her were the seeds in
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her mind from the virtue she had done in her life. All the rest was
worse than useless.
The things that I now see as most important in life, Buddha would
say – and you analyze it according to his view and it’s clear – they are
totally essenceless. The things we do take as the purpose of life, you
ask most people, it’s almost like a mantra: health and family are the
main point of our life. Everyone will say that’s the point of life. Well,
the Buddha would say we are missing the point because at the time of
death if they were so crucial they would be a benefit to us, but they
are useless. Your family, your husband, your children, your
possessions, your nice house, your nice body, your health, your
reputation, money in the bank, all the things we spend all our time
worrying about and putting into place because we believe in the
propaganda that that’s the security we are need, that that’s what life
is all about; we believe in the materialists’ propaganda, which we are
part of, we buy into it.
But at the time of death all the things you spend your life thinking
are important are of no use. They crumble. There’s nothing. We all
say at the time of death you can’t take it with you, but we treat it like
a joke. It’s very profound when you really get an experience of its
truth.
So if this is true, then I had better prepare now by living my life in
a reasonable way now: by trying to remove the negative seeds that I
have already planted and by trying to develop the positive ones. This
is reasonable, based on these assumptions. So at the time of death,
when it comes, I must be ready, I have to be prepared. And the way to
be prepared is by having thought about it, therefore, when it comes
I’m not shocked because I know it’s natural that I die. And I’m
prepared because I’ve lived my life by practicing morality, goodness,
by not harming others – at the very least, this.
We don’t have to be fundamentalist about it and chuck out the
husband, and chuck out the kids, and chuck out the reputation, and
chuck out our money, no. Just change the way you see them. Change
your attitude towards them. That’s the real point. Give up attachment
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to the house, the family, the body; give up the jealousy, the fear, the
neurosis, the blaming. Because those imprints in your mind will be
there when you die and you do not want those. But you do want your
virtue and your kindness and your generosity and your patience and
your non-attachment seeds to ripen.
So you don’t wait until death to do it, it’s too late then. Start
sowing seeds now. That’s how you lead your life. By recognizing that
it’s going to change, that death is definite, the time of death is
completely uncertain, you might as well be ready when it does come
unexpectedly. It won’t give a warning: “You’ve got ten more breaths
left Robina, you’d better get ready”. We might have; we’d be lucky.
It’s actually very fortunate if you get sick before you die, because
you’ve got time to prepare. That’s actually really the Buddhist
approach. My Buddhist friends on death row have been forced to
confront the reality of death, so they can prepare for it. How
fortunate.
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2. WE MUST PREPARE FOR DEATH
LAMA ZOPA RINPOCHE
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the time of death; a happy death depends upon how we live our life
every day, every moment. Practicing patience when someone is angry
with us or provokes us or disrespects us, for example, is practical
preparation for death. Practicing like this every day protects us from
creating negative karma, and that makes death lighter, less fearful.
The future depends on the present.
Practicing every day and preparing for the time of your death is
far more important than going to the hospital to check the body,
because death can happen at any time – even for healthy people.
Today, many people have died, healthy as well as unhealthy.
When you know how to die with full confidence that you won’t be
reborn in the lower realms, that definitely you will have a good
rebirth, a good future; that death is just change, that you’re leaving
this old, sick body for a new, healthy one – then you are qualified to
help others who are dying. You will be able to explain things
skillfully, according to their minds. You will create the right
conditions so that it’s easy for their minds to be transformed into
virtue at the time of death. You will know how to help them die with a
happy mind.
And not only that: once you’re familiar with what to do you can
tell others what they can do to help you at the time of your own
death.
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ATTACHMENT IS THE MAIN PUSH BEHIND SAMSARA
In relation to taking refuge in the Dharma, the Refuge prayer
mentions “the supreme cessation of attachment” when it talks about
the cessation of suffering and its causes – it doesn’t say cessation of
anger, it doesn’t say cessation of ignorance, it doesn’t say cessation of
pride, and so forth (there are many delusions). Why specifically
attachment?
Because it’s the main push behind samsara, this cycle of death and
rebirth; the main cause.
There is attachment that motivates negative actions, which cause
rebirth in the lower realms. Then there is attachment to wanting to
be reborn in the human realm, for example, as a result of which we
create virtuous karma, which causes that rebirth. And then, as
described in the twelve links of dependent arising, at the time of
death the eighth and ninth links, craving and grasping – strong
attachment, in other words – arise and nourish the seed that was left
on the mental continuum by the past karma (the second link)
because of the root ignorance (the first), making it ready to produce
the next life.
So you can see that even the nearest cause of the next rebirth in
samsara is this attachment at the time of death. It is what ties us to
samsara continuously, has been tying us to samsara continuously,
and will continue to tie us to samara, because our consciousness has
existed since beginningless time and will continue to exist forever.
Until we have cut the causes of samsara, body after body will keep
coming, like the assembly line in a car factory.
COLOPHON
From Lama Zopa Rinpoche’s How to Enjoy Death, Wisdom
Publications.
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3. WHAT HAPPENS AT DEATH?
LAMA ZOPA RINPOCHE
FIVE AGGREGATES
Buddha explained that a person is made up of five “aggregates”:
form, feeling, discrimination, compounding aggregates, and
consciousness.
Form refers to our body. Feeling and discrimination are two of the
mental factors that we experience day to day; all the rest, such as
jealousy, patience, and love, etc., are included in compounding
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aggregates. Consciousness refers to the six consciousnesses: the five
senses and mental consciousness.
FOUR ELEMENTS
Our body is made up of the four elements of earth, water, fire, and
wind.
COLOPHON
From Lama Zopa Rinpoche’s How to Enjoy Death, Wisdom
Publications.
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4. THE TWELVE LINKS OF DEPENDENT
ARISING AT THE TIME OF DEATH
LAMA ZOPA RINPOCHE
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that’s what causes fear at the time of death. After that, grasping
arose, a stronger form of attachment, this time – in our case –
attachment to receiving a human body.
Now, in the case of someone who is going to be reborn in the hot
hells the craving is the same – not wanting to separate from their
body – but the grasping is to heat because they feel very cold. Many
times dying people say they feel cold and beg for blankets, but even if
you give them two or three it won’t be enough: their grasping at heat
is so strong. (This could also happen because the fire element is
dissolving at that point.) The grasping at heat activates a negative
karmic seed, the second link, which causes their mind to migrate to a
hell being’s body right after death. The grasping is the very close
condition; there were, of course, the previously-created causes: the
first link, ignorance, and the second, karma.
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The karmic seed that gives rise to the new rebirth is there on our
mind, the second link, but it is grasping at the time of death that
activates its ripening.
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5. THE EIGHT STAGES OF DEATH
LAMA ZOPA RINPOCHE
Even though we all go through the eight stages at the time of death,
what I describe here is a gradual death. Those who die violently or
suddenly go through the stages very quickly. And sometimes in a
violent death the mind could leave the body immediately and go
straight to the intermediate state.
As I mentioned, the great meditators, those who have deeply
familiarized themselves with these stages in meditation during their
lives, can recognize the stages of death as they occur and can
meditate on emptiness throughout. But ordinary people don’t
recognize them. (We go through these stages every time we sleep too,
but we don’t recognize them then, either.) It’s like when you’re
looking at a person, let’s say, but your mind is concentrating on
another object, a sound for example, or you’re thinking of something
else, and even though the person is in front of you, you simply don’t
see them.
It’s the same at death. We don’t recognize the visions that occur at
each stage of this evolution – first this, then that, then that; now the
clear light, now the intermediate state, etc. – because of the pollution
of our ignorance and our uncontrolled mind. Even though we might
know these stages intellectually, not having trained our minds in the
meditation techniques during our lifetime and not having created
enough virtuous karma or purified our minds, we can’t recognize
these experiences as they occur. But it’s possible.
It’s good to help your loved one meditate on these stages during
the months and weeks before death. They can also become familiar
with these stages as they go to sleep.
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And if they have a highest tantra practice you can guide them
through the stages of meditation, which I discuss in chapter 10, when
you help them with their daily practices.
GROSS CONSCIOUSNESS
(1) THE VISION OF A MIRAGE
As the aggregate of form dissolves your body becomes thinner and
your limbs become loose and unmanageable.
As the mirror-like wisdom dissolves – these and the other four
wisdoms are labeled according to the function of the senses – your
ability to see many objects at the same time, as a mirror reflects
many objects together, ceases; and you cannot see the forms of
people and objects clearly.
As the earth element dissolves you feel as if you are sinking; you
might even reach up as if to hold on to something.
As the eye sense base dissolves you can no longer open or close
your eyes. If your eyes are open they will remain like that without
blinking: this is a sign that you will die within one or two hours. In
fact, this is the nearest sign of death.
This is what happened with Lama Yeshe during the last couple of
hours before he passed away: he was unable to close his eyes. And
I’ve seen it in other dying people.
As the inner subtle form dissolves your body loses its strength
completely, and it loses its radiance.
You will have a vision of a mirage, an inner vision, like water
shimmering in the heat. Your vision blurs; everything seems watery
and wavy, like a mirage in the distance.
SUBTLE CONSCIOUSNESS
During the next three stages, the eighty superstitions – the various
delusions; the dualistic, wrong conceptions – gradually dissolve.
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(5) THE WHITE VISION
The first thirty-three of the eighty superstitions cease.
The winds in the right and left channels move up and open the
head chakra, loosening the knots there, and enter the central
channel.
This causes the white bodhichitta at the crown to melt and flow
down the central channel to the heart, touching the central channel
as it goes.
Now you experience the white vision, the mind of white
appearance, like very bright moonlight in autumn, or like the almost-
white sky caused by the light of the rising moon when everything is
covered with snow.
Whereas the previous inner visions had some movement to them,
this and the following ones are perfectly still.
SIGNS OF DEATH
When the mind leaves the body of a man, the white bodhichitta
continues down the central channel and leaves through the sex organ
and the red continues up and leaves through the nostrils; in a woman
the white bodhichitta goes up and leaves through the nostrils and the
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red bodhichitta goes down and leaves through the organ.
This is the final sign that the mind has left the body, the actual
death.
COLOPHON
From Lama Zopa Rinpoche’s How to Enjoy Death, Wisdom
Publications.
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6. HELPING OTHERS AT THE TIME OF DEATH
IS A BIG RESPONSIBILITY
LAMA ZOPA RINPOCHE
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Rinpoche advises that it’s best not to allow anyone for whom they
have strong attachment to be in their presence; ideally, you shouldn’t
even mention their name. Of course, if that person can help your
loved one, help them solve their problems or alleviate their fears,
then that’s okay.
But if their presence simply increases their attachment, their fears
of separation, then it’s very harmful, making it difficult for your loved
one to let go.
In this way you become wish-fulfilling for your loved ones – for all
sentient beings. As soon as they see you, hear your voice, touch you,
or even remember you, they will immediately be free of the fear of
death and their mind will be filled with great joy. Then they will be
able to go to a pure land, where they can get enlightened.
NO TOBACCO
Do not allow anyone to smoke anywhere near the dying person.
Besides causing physical problems, without question smoking is
harmful spiritually. It pollutes the subtle nervous system, the
channels, etc.
According to the great lama, Panchen Lama Chökyi Gyaltsen –
who composed the incredible teaching, Guru Puja, as well as many
other teachings, including a text on mahamudra – when someone
asked him to perform phowa at the time of death the first thing he
would ask is whether the person smoked, and if they did he wouldn’t
do the practice. It seems that smoking makes it difficult to transfer
the consciousness to a pure land.
COLOPHON
From Lama Zopa Rinpoche’s How to Enjoy Death, Wisdom
Publications.
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7. LIVE A GOOD LIFE AND PREPARE FOR
DEATH BY ABIDING BY THE LAWS OF KARMA
VEN ROBINA COURTIN
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all assume we began. If you’re Christian, God put a soul there, in the
egg and sperm; and if you’re a materialist, you are only the egg and
sperm.
Well, the Buddha has this third option. The first second of
conception in our mother’s womb is the entry of our own
consciousness into the egg and sperm. So you can track your
consciousness right in this continuity of mental moments going right
back to that first moment of conception. “Well, I must have begun
then”. Well, yes, relatively speaking, this package called “Robina”
began then, but where did the body come from? Mummy and Daddy.
Where did your mind come from? Previous moment of itself. So your
mind is its own continuity of mental moments.
It’s a very simple concept, actually. Not difficult for us to
intellectualize, to theorize about. Your mind is its own continuity.
And obviously, to assume this, you have to assume it’s not physical.
Because, clearly, if you think your mind is your brain, then you did
come from your parents, which is the materialist view, that they
“made” you, you know?
ACCOUNTABILITY
One has to know one’s mind, because that’s what we need to change.
Yes, certain people’s external conditions make it quite tough – if
you’re in a prison and you can’t open that door; you can say “Well, I
can’t help being angry, I’m surrounded by mean people”. You might
say that. But the ones who are really practicing don’t say that. They
know that this is their physical condition, and this is indeed the result
of their karma (and we’ll talk more about that in a minute), and so
they will adapt themselves to that condition and still work on their
minds.
The person who’s got the chemicals that aren’t working, that seem
to be the trigger for depression, yes, you recognize that you’ve got
those particular chemicals, but the depression is your mind, it’s your
viewpoint.
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You might be around people who are mean and ugly who hit you
all the time, and if you’ve got an angry tendency it’ll make it easy for
you to get angry, it’s true. But if you’re really being accountable,
you’ll recognize the anger’s yours.
This is what we have to do. This is the toughest part. This is the
part that’s massive for us. So difficult because we’re so used to this
dualistic way of talking. It’s always like, “It’s not my fault. It’s not my
fault”.
And that’s the view of the materialist world, you look. It’s an
assumption of ego. “I didn’t ask to get born, did I? It’s not my fault.
My mother made me. My father made me”. So, the whole way ego
works, Buddha says, is in its nature dualistic. It’s always, “Poor me,
the victim”. Lama Yeshe would call ego the “self-pity me”. We’re
always trying to defend ourselves, “It’s not fair”, “It’s not my fault”,
“It’s his fault”, “I didn’t mean to”. Everything to try to deny
accountability. It’s so painful for us to be accountable. This is how
ego is, this is its nature. This is the way it is.
By listening to and thinking about the Buddha’s views of karma –
that your consciousness, your tendencies, your experiences, come
from our own past actions, not your parents; my mind is mine, I
came fully programmed into this life.
And, of course, this includes our good tendencies and experiences
as well, but we forget about those. We agonize, “Why do bad things
happen to me?” We never agonize, “Why do good things happen to
me?” We don’t care why, just give me more! But we have all the good
things for the same reason: I created the cause to have them.
4. ENVIRONMENTAL KARMA
And fourth, they call it Environmental Karma. Environmental karma,
which is the very way the physical world impacts upon us. For
example, here we are sitting in this room. It’s quite pleasant, isn’t it?
It’s quite peaceful, pleasant view out there, it’s quiet, you know – the
walls aren’t dripping with mould. It’s pleasantly painted. It smells
nice. No-one’s threatening us.
We take this for granted – we never ask, “Why are we having a
pleasant experience?” For the Buddha there are very real causes
created by us: this pleasant environmental experience is the result of
our collective virtue.
If suddenly the building explodes, or a gunman comes in, then
we’d ask, “Why is this happening?” This would be due to our
collective non-virtuous karma.
Basically, Buddha’s point about karma is that suffering, which is
when everything goes wrong – it could be externally, could be the
people, could be the environment, could be in your own mind; when
everything’s out of whack, out of balance, disharmonious, when the
elements are all crazy, when people are all fighting, when people are
mean to you, when your own mind’s berserk – all this is necessarily
the result of negativity.
And happiness: same: the result of positive karma, virtuous
actions.
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I’M THE BOSS
The four ways our past karma ripens in the present – the very fact
that you’re this human being, with this very particular family and
friends and people who harm us and people who help us; all our
tendencies; and even the way the physical world impacts upon us –
are all the result of our own actions. Necessarily. It’s just the way it is.
It’s a natural law. It’s not blame, it’s not punishment. There’s no
concept of punishment or reward in Buddhism – that implies
someone punishing and rewarding, doesn’t it? And for the Buddha
there’s no one pulling the strings, no one running things.
Buddha says each one of us in charge. “We are the boss”! Big
surprise! So if I am the boss of my own present experiences, if I am
the cause of it, then indeed I can be the cause of my future
experiences – which is why we should then check up: Do I like this
life, do I like people punching me in the nose? Do I like having people
being angry at me? Do I like being depressed and angry and jealous
and poor and living in an ugly environment? No, I don’t. Then, okay,
there must be causes of this; what were they? Buddha lays it all out,
all from his own observation, his own experience.
This is Buddhist practice.
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So we can deduce that there’s this particular tracking of
consciousness that at this moment in time is labeled “Helen” on the
basis of this particular human form. So that consciousness will
continue to program it, program it, program it, and it leaves this
body, and program, program, and takes another body, program,
program – so it just keeps going.
The Buddha says we’re usually not in charge of this process,
because we think everybody else does it to us, it’s not my fault, and
how dare? and all this business. But if you’re really in charge of this
business, you’re cleaning up your act. You’re stopping programming
your mind – as best you can – with more negativity. You’re trying to
program your mind with positivity, and you’re purifying the seeds
you’ve already grown – hopefully this is your spiritual procedure –
until eventually you’ve cleaned up your mind completely and now
you’re an enlightened being. Do you see what I’m saying? This is a
way of saying it.
Q: So, it is a collection that keeps on going from lifetime to
lifetime until you…
A: …cleaned up all the rubbish and grown up all the good. That’s
it. Precisely. That’s it. That’s what the process of becoming
enlightened is all about. That’s the Buddhist way of putting it. You
understand. We’re communicating, right?
Q: And every microsecond, we’re experiencing the ripening of
karma, and creating more.
A: Precisely. That’s exactly right. That’s exactly right. That’s
exactly the point. Every microsecond is the fruit of a past one, and on
the basis of this we do more. So that’s why we’ve got to get ahead of
the game. Stop creating the negative ones, clean up our act, control
body and speech, clean up the mind, rip out the negative ones from
the mind so we quit that, and then grow the positive ones, and that
finally eventually will be a mind that’s now completely what they call
“enlightened” – fully developed in goodness and completely rid of
badness. That’s what it is and that’s where we’re heading. So it’s not a
random thing… if one is in charge of the process, it’s not a random
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thing at all. You’re really on track with it and you know what you’re
doing. You know what to do, what to say, what to think, what not to
do, what not to say, what not to think, what seeds to sow, and you
just keep on bopping.
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8. WE NEED BODHICHITTA!
LAMA YESHE
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succeed in the business of collecting merits, you must have
bodhichitta. With bodhichitta you become so precious – like gold,
like diamonds; you become the most perfect object in the world,
beyond compare with any material things.
From the Western, materialistic point of view, we’d think it was
great if a rich person said, “I want to make charity. I’m going to offer
$100 to everybody in the entire world”. Even if that person gave with
great sincerity, his or her merit would be nothing compared with just
the thought, “I wish to actualize bodhichitta for the sake of sentient
beings, and I’ll practice the six perfections as much as I can”. That’s
why I always say, actualization of bodhichitta is the most perfect path
you can take. The best Dharma practice, the most perfect, most
substantial, is without doubt the practice of bodhichitta.
Remember the story of the Kadampa geshe who saw a man
circumambulating a stupa? He said, “What are you doing?” and the
man answered, “Circumambulating”. So the geshe said, “Wouldn’t it
be better if you practiced dharma?” Next time the geshe saw the man
he was prostrating, and when he again asked what he was doing, the
man replied, “One hundred thousand prostrations”. “Wouldn’t it be
better if you practiced dharma?” asked the geshe. Anyway, the story
goes on, but the point is that just doing religious-looking actions like
circumambulation and prostration isn’t necessarily practicing
dharma. What we have to do is transform our attachment and self-
cherishing, and if we haven’t changed our mind in this way, none of
the other practices work; doing them is just a joke. Even if you try to
practice tantric meditations, unless you’ve changed within, you won’t
succeed. Dharma means a complete change of attitude – that’s what
really brings you inner happiness, that is the true Dharma, not the
words you say.
Bodhichitta is not the culture of ego, not the culture of
attachment, not the culture of samsara. It is an unbelievable
transformation, the most comfortable path, the most substantial path
– definite, not wishy-washy. Sometimes your meditation is not solid;
you just space out. Bodhichitta meditation means you really want to
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change your mind and actions and transform your whole life.
We are all involved in human relationships with each other. Why
do we sometimes say, “I love you”, and sometimes, “I hate you?”
Where does this up-and-down mind come from? From the self-
cherishing thought – a complete lack of bodhichitta. What we are
saying is, “I hate you because I’m not getting any satisfaction from
you. You hurt me; you don’t give me pleasure. That’s the whole thing:
I – my ego, my attachment – am not getting satisfaction from you,
therefore I hate you. What a joke! All the difficulties in inter-personal
relationships come from not having bodhichitta, from not having
changed our minds.
So, you see, just meditating is not enough. If that Kadampa geshe
saw you sitting in meditation he’d say, “What are you doing?
Wouldn’t it be better if you practiced dharma?” Circumambulating
isn’t dharma, prostrating isn’t dharma, meditating isn’t dharma. My
goodness, what is dharma, then? This is what happened to the man
in the story. He couldn’t think of anything else to do. Well, the best
dharma practice, the most perfect, most substantial, is without doubt
the practice of bodhichitta.
You can prove scientifically that bodhichitta is the best practice to
do. Our self-cherishing thought is the root of all human problems. It
makes our lives difficult and miserable. The solution to self-
cherishing, its antidote, is the mind that is its complete opposite –
bodhichitta. The self-cherishing mind is worried about only me, me –
the self-existent I. Bodhichitta substitutes others for self.
It creates space in your mind. Then even if your dearest friend
forgets to give you a Christmas present, you don’t mind. “Ah, well.
This year she didn’t give me my chocolate. It doesn’t matter.”
Anyway, your human relationships are not for chocolate, not for
sensory pleasures. Something much deeper can come from our being
together, working together.
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9. SEARCHING FOR THE I
LAMA ZOPA RINPOCHE
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Tibetan. So the appearance of true existence is there until we attain
enlightenment.
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appears true, what appears to exist from its own side, isn’t true. Thus
it is empty of true existence.
But its being empty doesn’t mean the I doesn’t exist. The real I,
the truly existent I, the I that exists by its own nature, the I that exists
from its own side, is not true. It doesn’t exist. However, the
conventional I, the I that exists by being merely labeled, the I that is a
dependent arising, that I exists. In The Heart Sutra, Avalokiteshvara
says no form, no feeling, and so on. This is like throwing an atom
bomb on the appearance of truly existent things. That appearance is
not true. Those truly existent things that appear to us do not exist.
Then what comes in our heart is that they’re empty. It’s not that they
don’t exist. They exist, but they’re empty. Why? Because they’re
dependent arisings. Because they are dependent arisings, they are
empty of true existence; because they are dependent arisings, they
exist (conventionally).
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inherent existence, the mind goes into hallucination, believing that
Döndrub exists from his own side, not merely labeled by mind.
This is a unique explanation. It’s not common and comes due to
personal experience. I think I agree with what Pabongka said about
this. I showed the text to Chöden Rinpoche and consulted him about
it. I said I didn’t think that it would immediately appear truly
existent. You need to watch your perception when you’re labeling.
You usually don’t notice because the mind is not aware. Probably
mere Döndrub appears for a split second and then real Döndrub
appears. There is an evolutionary process: mere Döndrub; then
Döndrub existing from its own side—a real Döndrub appearing more
and more, that appearance becoming stronger and stronger.
Check with your own experience, especially when you’re labeling
something for the very first time. I think you will understand this if
you examine your mind when it’s happening. For something to exist
there must not only be the mind conceiving it and the label but also a
valid base. You can’t just make up a label and think that therefore the
object exists and functions according to the label you gave it.
For example, let’s say before they have a baby a couple decides to
name it “Tashi.” At that time, there are no aggregates—no body and
mind. Remember the lam-rim story about the man who got excited
and labeled a child he dreamed of having in the future “Dawa
Dragpa”?
It’s similar here, where the couple thinks of the name “Tashi.” At
that time Tashi doesn’t exist. Why? Because there’s no base. Whether
Tashi exists or not mainly depends on the existence of the aggregates,
the existence of the base of the label. It depends on whether there is a
valid base4. In this case, since a valid base which could be labeled
“Tashi” doesn’t yet exist, Tashi doesn’t exist at that time. In another
scenario, let’s say a baby is born—so the mental and physical
aggregates are present—but the name “Tashi” hasn’t been given yet.
So at that time, Tashi also doesn’t exist because the parents haven’t
labeled “Tashi.” They could label “Peter.” They could label anything.
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So even though the aggregates are there at that time, Tashi
doesn’t exist because the parents haven’t named the child. When
does Tashi come into existence? It’s only when there is a valid base.
When a valid base is present, then the mind sees that base and makes
up the name “Tashi.” After making up the name and labeling it in
dependence on the aggregates, then we believe Tashi is there.
Therefore, what Tashi is is nothing. Nothing. Tashi is nothing other
than what is merely imputed by mind. That’s all. There’s not the
slightest Tashi that exists other than what is merely labeled by mind.
The Tashi or the I appearing to you that you believe is something
even slightly more than what is merely labeled by mind is a
hallucination. That is the object of negation. Anything that is slightly
more than what is merely labeled by mind doesn’t exist at all. It is the
object of negation.
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