Beige Scrapbook Vintage Thank You Letter
Beige Scrapbook Vintage Thank You Letter
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There are battles that, sometimes, we are only reminded of when we are
alone. We wake up, make coffee, put peanut butter in our bread, and then
out of nowhere, grief knocks on our door, except we don’t have any, and it
enters our doorway anyways. The grief of many things, of people, of
animals, of the happenings, and sometimes of the things we could have been,
only if we weren’t as unfortunate as we are.
So there grief is, from that morning until the end of the day, it lingers.
From your way to work, to school, to an outing you have planned out with
friends months ago, it sits beside you constantly weighing you down. It has
no sense of situation, even though you need to be composed for a
presentation, for a performance, or to not kill the joy of everyone around
you.
I don’t have the widest vocabulary, though I wish I had, which is why grief
is so many things for me. Grief is wanting your efforts and sacrifices to
be recognized by people, but they don’t. It is when I see other people who
I used to be with achieve their dreams, and mine is adjusted just so I can
meet the limits of the day. It is when I have to hide my tears because I
don’t want to burden anyone with my emotions. Yet in these moments,
bringing along grief like a sack of rice on your back is just the way to
proceed, with courage and kindness, with consistency of showing up, because
you have to, especially when you feel tired, unseen, or unsure.