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- Quatrain composed for the gates of a market to be erected upon the site of the
Jacobin Club House in Paris.
I was sick, sick unto death, with that long agony, and when they at
length unbound me, and I was permitted to sit, I felt that my senses were leaving
me. The sentence, the dread sentence of death, was the last of distinct
accentuation which reached my ears. After that, the sound of the inquisitorial
voices seemed merged in one dreamy indeterminate hum. It conveyed to my
soul the idea of revolution, perhaps from its association in fancy with the burr of
a mill-wheel. This only for a brief period, for presently I heard no more. Yet, for a
while, I saw, but with how terrible an exaggeration! I saw the lips of the black-
robed judges. They appeared to me white — whiter than the sheet upon which I
trace these words — and thin even to grotesqueness; thin with the intensity of
their expression of firmness, of immovable resolution, of stern contempt of
human torture. I saw that the decrees of what to me was fate were still issuing
from those lips. I saw them writhe with a deadly locution. I saw them fashion the
syllables of my name, and I shuddered, because no sound succeeded. I saw, too,
for a few moments of delirious horror, the soft and nearly imperceptible waving
of the sable draperies which enwrapped the walls of the apartment; and then
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my vision fell upon the seven tall candles upon the table. At first they wore the
aspect of charity, and seemed white slender angels who would save me: but then
all at once there came a most deadly nausea over my spirit, and I felt every fibre
in my frame thrill, as if I had touched the wire of a galvanic battery, while the
angel forms became meaningless spectres, with heads of flame, and I saw that
from them there would be no help. And then there stole into my fancy, like a rich
musical note, the thought of what sweet rest there must be in the grave. The
thought came gently and stealthily, and it seemed long before it attained full
appreciation; but just as my spirit came at length properly to feel and entertain
it, the figures of the judges vanished, as if magically, from before me; the tall
candles sank into nothingness; their flames went out utterly; the blackness of
darkness superened; all sensations appeared swallowed up in a mad rushing
descent as of the soul into Hades. Then silence, and stillness, and night were the
universe.
I had swooned; but still will not say that all of conscious- ness was lost.
What of it there remained I will not attempt to define, or even to describe; yet all
was not lost. In the deepest slumber — no! In delirium — no! In a swoon — no!
In death — no! Even in the grave all was not lost. Else there is no immortality for
man. Arousing from the most profound of slumbers, we break the gossamer web
of some dream. Yet in a second afterwards (so frail may that web have been) we
remember not that we have dreamed. In the return to life from the swoon there
are two stages; first, that of the sense of mental or spiritual; secondly, that of the
sense of physical existence. It seems probable that if, upon reaching the second
stage, we could recall the impressions of the first, we should find these
impressions eloquent in memories of the gulf beyond. And that gulf is, what?
How at least shall we distinguish its shadows from those of the tomb? But if the
impressions of what I have termed the first stage are not at will recalled, yet,
after long interval, do they not come unbidden, while we marvel whence they
come? He who has never swooned is not he who finds strange palaces and wildly
familiar faces in coals that glow; is not he who beholds floating in mid-air the sad
visions that the many may not view; is not he who ponders over the perfume of
some novel flower; is not he whose brain grows bewildered with the meaning of
some musical cadence which has never 2 before arrested his attention.
Amid frequent and thoughtful endeavors to remember, amid earnest struggles to
regather some token of the state of seeming nothingness into which my soul had
lapsed, there have been moments when I have dreamed of success; there have
been brief, very brief periods when I have conjured up remembrances which the
lucid reason of a later epoch assures me could have had reference only to that
condition of seeming unconsciousness. These shadows of memory tell
indistinctly of tall figures that lifted and bore me in silence down — down — still
down — till a hideous dizziness op- pressed me at the mere idea of the
interminableness of the descent. They tell also of a vague horror at my heart on
account of that heart’s unnatural stillness. Then comes a sense of sudden
motionlessness throughout all things; as if those who bore me (a ghastly train!)
had outrun, in their descent, the limits of the limitless, and paused from the
wearisomeness of their toil. After this I call to mind flatness and dampness; and
then all is madness — the madness of a memory which busies itself among
forbidden things.
Very suddenly there came back to my soul motion and sound — the
tumultuous motion of the heart, and in my ears the sound of its beating. Then a
pause in which all is blank. Then again sound, and motion, and touch, a tingling
sensation pervading my frame. Then the mere consciousness of existence,
without thought, a condition which lasted long. Then, very suddenly, thought,
and shuddering terror, and earnest endeavor to comprehend my true state. Then
a strong desire to lapse into insensibility. Then a rushing revival of soul and a
successful effort to move. And now a full memory of the trial, of the judges, of
the sable raperies, of the sentence, of the sickness, of the swoon. Then entire
forgetfulness of all that followed; of all that a later day and much earnestness of
endeavor have enabled me vaguely to recall. So far I had not opened my eyes. I
felt that I lay upon my back unbound. I reached out my hand, and it fell heavily
upon something damp and hard. There I suffered it to remain for many minutes,
while I strove to imagine where and what I could be. I longed, yet dared not, to
employ my vision. I dreaded the first glance at objects around me. It was not that
I feared to look upon things horrible, but that I grew aghast lest there should be
nothing to see. At length, with a wild desperation at heart, I quickly unclosed my
eyes. My worst thoughts, then, were 3 confirmed. The blackness of eternal night
encompassed me. I struggled for breath. The intensity of the darkness seemed to
oppress and stifle me. The atmosphere was intolerably close. I still lay quietly,
and made effort to exercise my reason. I brought to mind the inquisitorial
proceedings, and attempted from that point to deduce my real condition. The
sentence had passed, and it appeared to me that a very long interval of time had
since elapsed. Yet not for a moment did I suppose myself actually dead. Such a
supposition, notwithstanding what we read in fiction, is altogether inconsistent
with real existence; — but where and in what state was I? The condemned to
death, I knew, perished usually at the auto-de-fés, and one of these had been
held on the very night of the day of my trial. Had I been remanded to my
dungeon, to await the next sacrifice, which would not take place for many
months? This I at once saw could not be. Victims had been in immediate
demand. Moreover my dungeon, as well as all the condemned cells at Toledo,
had stone floors, and light was not altogether excluded.
A fearful idea now suddenly drove the blood in torrents upon my heart,
and for a brief period I once more relapsed into insensibility. Upon recovering, I
at once started to my feet, trembling convulsively in every fiber. I thrust my arms
wildly above and around me in all directions. I felt nothing; yet dreaded to move
a step, lest I should be impeded by the walls of a TOMB. Perspiration burst from
every pore, and stood in cold big beads upon my forehead. The agony of
suspense grew at length intolerable, and I cautiously moved forward, with my
arms extended, and my eyes straining from their sockets, in the hope of catching
some faint ray of light. I proceeded for many paces, but still all was blackness and
vacancy. I breathed more freely. It seemed evident that mine was not, at least,
the most hideous of fates.
Upon awaking, and stretching forth an arm, I found beside me a loaf and
a pitcher with water. I was too much exhausted to reflect upon this
circumstance, but ate and drank with avidity. Shortly afterwards I resumed my
tour around the prison, and with much toil came at last upon the fragment of the
serge. Up to the period when I fell I had counted fifty-two paces, and upon
resuming my walk I had counted forty-eight more, when I arrived at the rag.
There were in all, then, a hundred paces; and, admitting two paces to the yard, I
presumed the dungeon to be fifty yards in circuit. I had met, however, with
many angles in the wall, and thus I could form no guess at the shape of the vault,
for vault I could not help supposing it to be.
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I had little object — certainly no hope — in these researches, but a
vague curiosity prompted me to continue them. Quitting the wall, I resolved to
cross the area of the enclosure. At first I proceeded with extreme caution, for the
floor although seemingly of solid material was treacherous with slime. At length,
however, I took courage and did not hesitate to step firmly — endeavoring to
cross in as direct a line as possible. I had advanced some ten or twelve paces in
this manner, when the remnant of the torn hem of my robe became entangled
between my legs. I stepped on it, and fell violently on my face.
I saw clearly the doom which had been prepared for me, and
congratulated myself upon the timely accident by which I had escaped. Another
step before my fall, and the world had seen me no more and the death just
avoided was of that very character which I had regarded as fabulous and
frivolous in the tales respecting the Inquisition. To the victims of its tyranny,
there was the choice of death with its direst physical agonies, or death with its
most hideous moral horrors. I had been reserved for the latter. By long suffering
my nerves had been unstrung, until I trembled at the sound of my own voice, and
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had become in every respect a fitting subject for the species of torture which
awaited me.
Agitation of spirit kept me awake for many long hours; but at length I
again slumbered. Upon arousing, I found by my side, as before, a loaf and a
pitcher of water. A burning thirst consumed me, and I emptied the vessel at a
draught. It must have been drugged, for scarcely had I drunk before I became
irresistibly drowsy. A deep sleep fell upon me — a sleep like that of death. How
long it lasted of course I know not; but when once again I unclosed my eyes the
objects around me were visible. By a wild sulfurous luster, the origin of which I
could not at first determine, I was enabled to see the extent and aspect of the
prison.
In its size I had been greatly mistaken. The whole circuit of its walls did
not exceed twenty-five yards. For some minutes this fact occasioned me a world
of vain trouble; vain indeed — for what could be of less importance, under the
terrible circumstances which environed me than the mere dimensions of my
dungeon? But my soul took a wild interest in trifles, and I busied myself in
endeavors to account for the error I had committed in my measurement. The
truth at length flashed upon me. In my first attempt at exploration I had counted
fifty-two paces up to the period when I fell; I must then have been within a pace
or two of the fragment of serge; in fact I had nearly performed the circuit of the
vault. I then slept, and upon awaking, I must have returned upon my steps, thus
supposing the circuit nearly double what it actually was. My confusion of mind
prevented me from observing that I began my tour with the wall to the left, and
ended it with the wall to the right.
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I had been deceived too in respect to the shape of the enclosure. In
feeling my way I had found many angles, and thus deduced an idea of great
irregularity, so potent is the effect of total darkness upon one arousing from
lethargy or sleep! The angles were simply those of a few slight depressions or
niches at odd intervals. The general shape of the prison was square. What I had
taken for masonry seemed now to be iron, or some other metal in huge plates,
whose sutures or joints occasioned the depression. The entire surface of this
metallic enclosure was rudely daubed in all the hideous and repulsive devices to
which the charnel superstition of the monks has given rise. The figures of fiends
in aspects of menace, with skeleton forms and other more re- ally fearful images,
overspread and disfigured the walls. I observed that the outlines of these
monstrosities were sufficiently distinct, but that the colours seemed faded and
blurred, as if from the effects of a damp atmosphere. I now noticed the floor,
too, which was of stone. In the centre yawned the circular pit from whose jaws I
had escaped; but it was the only one in the dungeon.
All this I saw indistinctly and by much effort, for my personal condition
had been greatly changed during slumber. I now lay upon my back, and at full
length, on a species of low framework of wood. To this I was securely bound by a
long strap resembling a surcingle. It passed in many convolutions about my limbs
and body, leaving at liberty only my head, and my left arm to such extent that I
could by dint of much exertion supply myself with food from an earthen dish
which lay by my side on the floor. I saw to my horror that the pitcher had been
removed. I say to my horror, for I was consumed with intolerable thirst. This
thirst it appeared to be the design of my persecutors to stimulate, for the food in
the dish was meat pungently seasoned.
A slight noise attracted my notice, and looking to the floor, I saw several
enormous rats traversing it. They had issued from the well which lay just within
view to my right. Even then while I gazed, they came up in troops hurriedly, with
ravenous eyes, allured by the scent of the meat. From this it required much
effort and attention to scare them away.
It might have been half-an-hour, perhaps even an hour (for I could take
but imperfect note of time) before I again cast my eyes upward. What I then saw
confounded and amazed me. The sweep of the pendulum had increased in
extent by nearly a yard. As a natural consequence, its velocity was also much
greater. But what mainly disturbed me was the idea that it had perceptibly
DESCENDED. I now observed, with what horror it is needless to say, that its
nether extremity was formed of a crescent of glittering steel, about a foot in
length from horn to horn; the horns upward, and the under edge evidently as
keen as that of a razor. Like a razor also it seemed massy and heavy, tapering
from the edge into a solid and broad structure above. It was appended to a
weighty rod of brass, and the whole hissed as it swung through the air.
There was another interval of utter insensibility; it was brief, for upon
again lapsing into life there had been no perceptible descent in the pendulum.
But it might have been long — for I knew there were demons who took note of
my swoon, and who could have arrested the vibration at pleasure. Upon my
recovery, too, I felt very — oh! Inexpressibly — sick and weak, as if through long
inanition. Even amid the agonies of that period the human nature craved food.
With painful effort I outstretched my left arm as far as my bonds permitted, and
took possession of the small remnant which had been spared me by the rats. As I
put a portion of it within my lips there rushed to my mind a half-formed thought
of joy — of hope. Yet what business had I with hope? It was, as I say, a half-
formed thought — man has many such, which are never completed. I felt that it
was of joy — of hope; but I felt also that it had perished in its formation. In vain I
struggled to perfect — to regain it. Long suffering had nearly annihilated all my
ordinary powers of mind. I was an imbecile — an idiot.
I saw that some ten or twelve vibrations would bring the steel in actual
contact with my robe, and with this observation there suddenly came over my
spirit all the keen, collected calmness of despair. For the first time during many
hours, or perhaps days, I thought. It now occurred to me that the bandage or
surcingle which enveloped me was unique. I was tied by no separate cord. The
first stroke of the razor-like crescent athwart any portion of the band would so
detach it that it might be unwound11 from my person by means of my left hand.
But how fearful, in that case, the proximity of the steel! The result of the slightest
struggle, how deadly! Was it likely, moreover, that the minions of the torturer
had not foreseen and provided for this possibility! Was it probable that the
bandage crossed my bosom in the track of the pendulum? Dreading to find my
faint, and, as it seemed, my last hope frustrated, I so far elevated my head as to
obtain a distinct view of my breast. The surcingle enveloped my limbs and body
close in all directions save in the path of the destroying crescent.
Scarcely had I dropped my head back into its original position when
there flashed upon my mind what I cannot better describe than as the unformed
half of that idea of deliverance to which I have previously alluded, and of which a
moiety only floated indeterminately through my brain when I raised food to my
burning lips. The whole thought was now present — feeble, scarcely sane,
scarcely definite, but still entire. I proceeded at once, with the nervous energy of
despair, to attempt its execution.
For many hours the immediate vicinity of the low frame- work upon
which I lay had been literally swarming with rats. They were wild, bold, ravenous,
their red eyes glaring upon me as if they waited but for motionlessness on my
part to make me their prey. “To what food,” I thought, “have they been
accustomed in the well?”
They had devoured, in spite of all my efforts to prevent them, all but a
small remnant of the contents of the dish. I had fallen into a habitual see-saw or
wave of the hand about the platter; and at length the unconscious uniformity of
the movement deprived it of effect. In their voracity the vermin frequently
fastened their sharp fangs in my fingers. With the particles of the oily and spicy
viand which now remained, I thoroughly rubbed the bandage wherever I could
reach it; then, raising my hand from the floor, I lay breathlessly still.
At first the ravenous animals were startled and terrified at the change —
at the cessation of movement. They shrank alarmedly back; many sought the
well. But this was only for a moment. I had not counted in vain upon their
voracity. Observing that I remained without motion, one or two of the boldest
leaped upon the frame-work and smelt12 at the surcingle. This seemed the signal
for a general rush. Forth from the well they hurried in fresh troops. They clung to
the wood, they overran it, and leaped in hundreds upon my person. The
measured movement of the pendulum disturbed them not at all. Avoiding its
strokes, they busied
themselves with the anointed
bandage. They pressed, they
swarmed upon me in ever
accumulating heaps. They
writhed upon my throat;
their cold lips sought my
own; I was half stifled by
their thronging pressure;
disgust, for which the world has no name, swelled my bosom, and chilled with
heavy clamminess my heart. Yet one minute and I felt that the struggle would be
over. Plainly I perceived the loosening of the bandage. I knew that in more than
one place it must be already severed. With a more than human resolution I lay
still.
Free! And in the grasp of the Inquisition! I had scarcely stepped from my
wooden bed of horror upon the stone floor of the prison, when the motion of the
hellish machine ceased and I beheld it drawn up by some invisible force through
the ceiling. This was a lesson which I took desperately to heart. My every motion
was undoubtedly watched. Free! I had but escaped death in one form of agony to
be delivered unto worse than death in some other. With that thought I rolled my
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eyes nervously around on the barriers of iron that hemmed me in. Something
unusual — some change which at first I could not appreciate distinctly — it was
obvious had taken place in the apartment. For many minutes of a dreamy and
trembling abstraction I busied myself in vain, unconnected conjecture. During
this period I became aware, for the first time, of the origin of the sulfurous light
which illumined the cell. It proceeded from a fissure about half-an-inch in width
extending entirely around the prison at the base of the walls which thus
appeared, and were completely separated from the floor. I endeavored, but of
course in vain, to look through the aperture.
The heat rapidly increased, and once again I looked up, shuddering as if
with a fit of the ague. There had been a second change in the cell — and now the
change was obviously in the form. As before, it was in vain that I at first
endeavored to appreciate or understand what was taking place. But not long was
I left in doubt. The inquisitorial vengeance had been hurried by my two-fold
escape, and there was to be no more dallying with the King of Terrors. The room
had been square. I saw that two of its iron angles were now acute — two
consequently, obtuse. The fearful difference quickly increased with a low
rumbling or moaning sound. In an instant the apartment had shifted its form into
that of a lozenge. But the alteration stopped not here — I neither hoped nor
desired it to stop. I could have clasped the red walls to my bosom as a garment
of eternal peace. “Death,” I said “any death but that of the pit!” Fool! Might I not
have known that into the pit it was the object of the burning iron to urge me?
Could I resist its glow? Or if even that, could I withstand its pressure? And now,
flatter and flatter grew the lozenge, with a rapidity that left me no time for
contemplation. Its center, and of course, its greatest width, came just over the
yawning gulf. I shrank back — but the closing walls pressed me resistlessly
onward. At length for my seared and writhing body there was no longer an inch
of foothold on the firm floor of the prison. I struggled no more, but the agony of
my soul found vent in one loud, long, and final scream of despair. I felt that I
tottered upon the brink — I averted my eyes — there was a discordant hum of
human voices! There was a loud blast as of many trumpets! There was a harsh
grating as of a thousand thunders! The fiery walls rushed back! An outstretched
arm caught my own as I fell fainting into the abyss. It was that of General Lasalle.
The French army had entered Toledo. The Inquisition was in the hands of its
enemies.
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